AND AND THIS IS THE FAMILY THAT GOD GAVE ME AND I AND I APPRECIATE THEM BECAUSE AT THIS STAGE OF LIFE I WOULD NOT CHANGE ANYTHING THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH I WOULD NOT CHANGE NOTHING THAT I HAVE EXPERIENCED BECAUSE IT HAS SHAPED ME AND MADE ME THE MAN THAT I AM TODAY AND I CAN HONESTLY SAY IM IN LOVE WITH THE PERSON THAT I AM TODAY IM MADLY IN LOVE WITH THE MAN THAT I AM AND TO HAVE EXPERIENCED SUCH LEVELS OF GRIEF I I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO PROCESS THAT 