BUT THEN ONCE YOU GO THROUGH IT AND YOU COME I WAS APPROACHING MY THIRTIES WELL SAY I WAS COMING CLOSE TO THE AGE WHERE MY MOM WOULD HAVE PASSED AWAY WHEN SHE WAS THIRTYTHREE AND I REMEMBER THIS KIND OF BEING IN MY HEAD GOING GOODNESS YOU KNOW IM NEARLY THIRTY GOODNESS LIKE WHATEVER WHAT AM I GOING TO DO AND YOU KNOW IT WOULD BE A FEAR THAT YOU THAT YOUD HAVE YOU WANT TO BE GOOD TO YOUR BODY YOU WANT TO BE TAKING CARE OF IT YOU WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT YOURE FIT AND HEALTHY AND FIGHTIN STRONG AND IT WAS AT THAT POINT I WAS KIND OF ASSESS I WAS COMING TO A CAREER CROSSROADS AS WELL 