she had thought that she was going home with nana cath , to the house with the pretty net curtains , and not back to her father ; not back to the bedroom door flying open in the night , banging off the david essex poster cheryl had left behind , and her father with his hand on his fly , approaching the bed where she begged him not to ... ) the adult terri threw the smoking filter of the cigarette stub down onto the kitchen floor and strode to her front door .