i backed out as quickly as i could , dropping into a chair in her seating area.i wished i could just melt into the floor or drop into a gaping hole or something.i could n't remember the last time i had felt so humiliated.it was worse than the time i had killed my car at a red-light in pasadena right after flirting with a carful of hot guys next to me ... worse than the time i had lost my balance on the diving platform and had tumbled into the water before my race even began- and that had been in front of a huge crowd.this was much , much worse .