now did a great darkness fall upon her mind and her counsel and lore forsook her , at she wandered she knew not whither for a great while ; and this was by reason of her love for tinwelint the king , for whom she had chosen never to fare back to valinor and the beauty of the gods , dwelling always in the wild forests of the north ; and now did there seem to her neither beauty nor joy be it in valinor or in the lands without .