it was said , and we retired under the pretence of seeking repose , each fancying that the others was deceived ; but when at morning 's dawn i descended to the carriage which was to convey me away , they were all there -- my mother again to bless me , clerval to press my hand once more , my elisha to renew his entreaties that i would write often and to bestow the last masculine attentions on his playmate and friend .