spencer could never figure out how he could be so smoothly about it ; right now the way hed been dressed , usual baggy tan cargo shorts , new balance walking shoes with short socks , long-sleeve dark gray shirt that repped the school they attended , with his professionally-styled short brown hair combed forward , he could n't see how both their styles differed , yet he knew how to work well with everythingwomen , life in general , because he popped that cherry of his way back in his early youth just like he should have ; now he 'd been burdened throughout the best part of his life all because of his cowardice .