in those moments after the deed , he experienced everything : sophia as a baby , and the prickly sensation that ran down his forearm the first time he held her tiny form ; the day she lost her first tooth and the way she looked at him , lips parted in a gap-toothed grin , when she told him in her excited , four-year-old voice that now the tooth fairy would come for her ; the fear she confided in him when her hormones matured and she received the dreaded , once-a-month gift of femininity for the first time ; the hot summer afternoon only three months ago , when he confronted skip clarkson , a boy five years sophias elder , who had touched her in the most inappropriate of ways , and sensed the relief and shame she expressed when he displayed for her his blood-covered knuckles after the deed had been done .