she remembered how at four , she 'd proudly declared she wanted to be an augur and a zilath and a priest and a dancer and a chariot racer , and it was only the last that had drawn a smile from her parents she 'd been a clumsy toddler , it was n't till she got into her second lustrum that she 'd changed ; she still remembered how it felt , as if over the space of a few weeks she 'd grown into the body that had been there , waiting for her .