'if it had been possible ... that you could have returned the love of the man you see before yourself-flung away , wasted , drunken , poor creature of misuse as you know him to be-he would have been conscious this day and hour , in spite of his happiness , that he would bring you to misery , bring you to sorrow and repentance , blight you , disgrace you , pul you down with him- ' '' a log fell in the fireplace , sending up a shower of sparks and startling them both and silencing will ; tessa 's heart leaped , and she tore her eyes away from will .