still holding on tight , syd said , `` oh , jenner , i was so worried ... and then i saw the news about the ship and i did n't know if you 'd survived or not and i just lost it ... and i slapped adam because he was standing right there , and i had to hit someone or something , but he did n't hit me back , which i guess was pretty nice if you think about it ... and then i tried to run but he would n't let me and ... and ... they made me pay for my own kidnapping , which is really just wrong . ''