im looking round wildly , theres no one here , just the dead and the inert , just tim , and can i detect , or am i imagining , in his broken face , a slight hint of a smile , you bastard , i think , and then , shit i really have to get out of here , im not even sure why im here , except for maybe visiting tim , but im guessing this maybe hard to explain , why there seems to be a dead nurse here and me covered in her blood , and no one to protect me .