its like a needle , red hot , no not a needle , a sword , red hot , through my mind , through my brain , at once , the pain is staggering and i cant stop it , cant stop being lifted , being pulled , being thrown , im flying , im in the air like i belong , but instead of rejoicing i am crying because im blood , im dying , theres a sword through my head , theres one through my heart and even though im a small bird i do have a large heart breaking , bleeding and dying , so i keep saying close my eyes , close my eyes and let me die in peace , let me float in peace to meet but i cant .