i think this happens now , an enormous noise fills the room , like that of a dragon , like that of a gigantic heart breaking in two and the pain of fear , loneliness and death thrown out in the dragons cry without flames and we all throw our hands over our ears as we laugh and cry , but ruth is saying something , trying to get something to us as shes getting up , brushing herself down , brushing the blood off her suit , and reluctantly i take my hands away from my ears , and shes shouting , screaming above the deafening noise , its here !