i thought when they found the first body in the basement that it was something my past had brought on all of you ... ... .i cant tell you how relieved i was when the inspector told me it had begun long before i came here ... ... ... .anyway , that aside , im a messed-up person , im not sure i even know how to show affection like ordinary people do ... .. she sat perfectly still , looking deliberately into his eyes , maintaining her air of serenity .