asks ruth , it was supposed to be your party , it just wont be the same without you and in reply , elena turns to me , she takes my hand and softly caresses it and says i owe you so much , john , you took me from nowhere , you made me your secretary when i had nothing , you gave me a chance , you gave me food to eat and a bed to sleep in , you gave me a chance when i had nothing , even when you discarded me , shot me and left me for dead ... yeah , sorry about that i interrupt , but she places a finger on my lips , even then , you let me stay , you set me up with a security job in your company instead of just tossing me out on the street like garbage , and then , then , when you saw my potential , you gave me such an amazing chance , one like ive never had before , and then you gave me mind destroying drugs .