life can be very strange sometimes : you try to act cool in order to win the attentions of the girl , and yet the girl only falls for you after you do something so embarrassing , the very thought of it is enough to make you cringe all over again ; you devote days planning and pursuing the search for a creature , whose very existence you can not be confident about , and yet at the moment of epiphany , when success or failure are only separated from one another by the thinnest of veils , you are ultimately glad that you are proved to be mistaken ; and , when you are confined to your bed , unable to even decide what you choose to eat for your own supper , the surrendering of responsibility is so liberating that you can not help but feel happy .