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What s up, Daffy?
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What s going on with you?
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Nothing.
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I just moved back to Chicago from Alaska.
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And I thought it was funny that you said Alaska, not a state, that it s a city.
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You lived in Alaska, you said?
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Yes, sir.
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OK.
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What were you doing over there?
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I was working on automobiles and tires.
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And doing drugs.
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What kind of drugs do they have in Alaska?
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They got a lot.
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Everything you can think of.
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A lot of psychedelics, ecstasy.
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A lot of hard drugs with methamphetamine.
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Okay.
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Were you doing the hard drugs or just the party ones?
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We re doing all of them, sir.
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Okay.
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Are you still doing them?
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Oh, no, sir.
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I am 23 weeks clean.
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Nice, nice.
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I still smoke weed though, don t get me wrong.
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Okay.
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Did you get clean when you moved to Chicago?
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Yeah.
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What do you do now in Chicago?
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Same thing.
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I work at a tire shop.
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I change tires on semis.
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Okay.
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Are you enjoying life?
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Are you happy?
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I m a lot happier than I was a few years ago, that s for sure.
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What changed?
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I stopped doing hard drugs.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Although, like, when you were... Can I ask you something?
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What s the hardest drug you ve done?
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I would have to say methamphetamine and heroin at the same time.
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And I it s not a good thing to do that, but I know That s gotta feel awesome.
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Does it feel awesome?
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I Was um, this is fucked up, but I was I saw a guy on Maybe maybe maybe he was on heroin or meth or whatever and it was like I
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In the I ve never done it before but I have to imagine in the moment It feels great.
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I like so I guess what I m what I was what I was thinking was like my My oh, yeah, so like my day is like at a baseline Level of enjoyment.
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It s a very like flat line Right, and I have to imagine that that the guy doing heroin on the side of the road his day
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He was at a top notch.
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Yeah, so I got to imagine most of his day is like far below my baseline.
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But that one moment where he s, you know, just high as shit is like way above my baseline.
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And so he s kind of going through high highs and low lows.
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And, you know, I m stopping at stop signs and, you know, getting groceries.
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I was never that bad.
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I m a functioning addict.
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I have to have a job to buy drugs.
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So you re just smoking weed now?
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Yes, sir.
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Yes, sir.
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That s cool.
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Tell me about the rest of your life.
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Do you have friends?
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Do you have family?
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That s part of the reason why I moved to Alaska.
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I have 36 cousins and four uncles and six aunts in Alaska.
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But all I have in Illinois is just my mom and dad, really.
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Okay, so you had a lot of friends and your cousins in Alaska, and now it s just you, your mom and your dad?
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Yeah, but I mean, I still have friends out here, like I ride my motorcycle with a few guys.
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Fuck, that sounds fun.
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What s that like?
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I highly suggest getting a motorcycle.
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It s what helped got me sober.
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Really?
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Really like honestly like it replaced one bad choice with another like I m still running from the cop I m still breaking the law doing 140 150 on the highway and it is exhilarating Oh come on man I m talking like dick hard throbbing like a motherfucker while you re doing 150 blowing past the cop Did you say your dick is throbbing hard while you re going 140 miles on the highway?
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Yes, sir
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Yes, sir.
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Absolutely.
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100%.
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See, that s what a lot of people tell me.
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They re like, man, those drugs are gonna kill you.
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I was like, well, honestly, what s worth killing me?
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Drugs or a murder cycle?
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I was on the internet, I watched a video of, this was yesterday, I watched this video of a car side swipe, like a side swipe a motorcyclist, and it just completely ripped their foot off.
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Probably sent that dude flying, didn t it?
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Can I, all right, so let s back up for a second here.
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Yes, yes sir, what s up?
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What s up my guy?
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Oh man.
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What are you looking for here?
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I guess you replaced one sort of dangerous activity with another dangerous activity.
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Are you like trying to fill a lust for danger or something?
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Honestly, that is something that I m trying to figure out, like what is wrong with me?
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I mean, like I go to AA meetings and NA meetings and stuff and I talk to other people and I just
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I don t know what I m looking for.
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I mean, obviously I m an adrenaline junkie, like something about me just constantly needs to be in danger.
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I don t know why.
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Hmm.
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Uh, when you go to these like AA meetings and NA meetings and therapy and whatever it is you go to, like, do they, what, what insight have they provided for you on those things?
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Uh, about remaining sober or what do you mean?
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What do you mean by that?
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about remaining sober and about like how to address this need for danger that you have.
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Oh, nobody has really addressed the need for danger or anything like that.
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They mainly just try to focus on getting another day sober without using drugs.
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That s mainly what they focus on.
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They really don t care that I have a seat for danger.
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Do you, do you, do you have any like, uh, I don t know, do you have any hobbies or do anything that s, uh, like not gonna... I go golfing, frisbee golf.
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Frisbee golf.
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Okay, that s pretty good.
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Smoking weed and playing, I m a big, I m a fan of smoking weed and playing frisbee golfing for you.
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I think that s a great thing.
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I m like, I m black or white, dude.
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It s either zero or a hundred.
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I m either really chill or I m bald to the wall.
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You know what I mean?
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There is no, there is no gray.
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There is no middle ground to me.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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No, I, I, um, I feel you.
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I feel you.
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Have you been like, have you always been like that?
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Uh, yes.
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Um, my mother actually has a video of me trying to jump a picnic table at four years old with
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training wheels really really hmm so this has been this has been a part of you for a long time hold you now i am 34 years old okay word word
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Do you have like a, are you close with your mom and your dad?
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I m close with my parents.
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I have a very honest relationship with them.
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I let them know the things that I do and the dumb shit that I do.
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What do they have to say about any of it?
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Uh, they re happy that I m not doing drugs.
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That s for sure.
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Um, they worry about me when I ride my bike cause they know how much of a dumbass I am.
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How often are you getting chased by cops and barreling down the highway?
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Uh, every time I m on that bitch.
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How often are you on that bitch?
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Every day, if not burning.
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Oh my God.
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I mean, Hmm.
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Hmm.
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And you said you ride with a gang?
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What s up, sir?
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Don t get me wrong.
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Like sometimes I ride like a normal person.
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Like there s a time and a place like,
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If I m riding like that all the time, then obviously, you know, you can only roll the dice so many times before you fucking die.
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Like, I m not trying to die.
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I m not suicidal.
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I just enjoy the living life on the edge.
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Do you, and I don t, I don t know if this is, you know, too invasive of a question.
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Oh, go ahead, bro.
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I m an open book.
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What do you want to know?
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Do you care about your life?
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Uh,
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To a point, I mean, like, with the way society s heading.
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and the direction that the world s going, I m not a big fan of how everything s playing out, but at the same time, I know everything happens for a reason, and you never know what s right around the corner.
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Tomorrow might be the best day of my life, or tomorrow might be the worst day of my life, but I m still eager to see what s around the corner, but I m going to do what I like to do and enjoy life as much as possible every second I can.
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I spent so long being miserable and hating life and on drugs.
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Like now, I don t want to be miserable.
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I m happy, but I m still chasing after something.
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I don t know what that something is, but hopefully someday I ll find it.
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Do you, do you ever like, I mean, do you think about.
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Consequences.
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Yeah.
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I was going to say, do you think about the consequences of, of, you know, that kind of.
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No, I was literally just having a conversation with our, one of my buddies about that.
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He was like, I definitely process consequences different than the average person.
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Like consequences are future Debbie problems.
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Hmm.
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Can you recall any times in your life where you really felt consequences?
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Consequences of my actions?
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Yeah.
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Yeah, there s been a few times where I ve been arrested.
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There s been times where I bit off more than I could chew.
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And I ended up taking an L in life, you know?
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Yeah.
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But you gotta keep on keepin  on, bro.
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You can t just dwell on the past and then fuck up.
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That s how you live and you learn.
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The only way you re gonna learn is by fuckin  up.
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Well, you know what they say, only the good die young, so I ll be around for a long, long time.
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You re like what s that fucking what s the what you ever play the lost and the damned the grand theft auto, you know Okay, you re you re you re a real outlaw biker man But don t you I don t know I just want to tell you Go ahead.
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What do you want to tell me?
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I was gonna say that I m just a big fan.
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I remember the first time I saw you, I was scrolling through Facebook and I was tripping on mushrooms and I was like, this fucking guy.
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This guy s got knowledge.
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This guy s going for it.
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Look at you, man.
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Now you got a shit ton of followers, bro.
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Well, thanks, man.
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I... God, I don t know.
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I, um... Huh.
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Hmm.
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Is there anything... I ve spent a lot of time... Go ahead.
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Go ahead.
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I was gonna say, I spend a lot of time on the internet so I ve seen some of your videos probably from like 2 years ago, 3 years ago so...
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Is there anything anyone could say to you or anything at all that would make you be like, you know what?
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I m gonna try to find ways to engage in my desire for living my life to the fullest and being adventurous and all these things that are good things, but I m gonna do it in a way where I m not gonna kill other people or myself.
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Well...
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What do you think?
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Yeah, I do I do I you know, I m try like I m I m such a whatever I try not to yell at people or whatever, but You seem like cuz I m genuinely I m thinking you seem like a cool guy man, and I hate for you to the fucking kill yourself or kill somebody else on the fucking motorcycle III just I mean I hate motorcycles and
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And I hate cars and I hate going fast.
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I hate that.
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Oh, then you and I are going to get along on that, my guy.
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I just think it s so fucking dumb.
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And I and I and I and I hate it a lot.
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But the core of what you re talking about, OK, and here s where I think we might be aligned on something.
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You like excitement.
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You like adventure.
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You don t want to stay at home.
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You want to be out in the universe.
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You want to be.
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Yeah, I look I m with you too.
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I m like that as well.
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I like adventure.
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I like excitement.
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I like doing things but oh my god, there s a thousand different ways to Scratch that itch to where you re talking about like bungee jumping and skydiving and shit I m not a look.
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I m not a big extreme sports skydiving bungee jumping thing But even skydiving or bungee jumping is a thousand times safer than barreling your motorcycle down the highway
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I don t know about that.
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You haven t done it?
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No, see, that s next on the bucket list, bro.
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It s coming up.
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Don t worry.
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I ll tell you about that next time I do it.
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Okay.
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Well... But I will take into consideration what you say, Mr. Gecko.
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Okay, good.
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I will take, you know... I ll slow it down a little bit for a week, and if I get bored, fuck that, I m going back to it.
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Okay, you ll do a week?
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You ll do a week for me?
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I ll do a week for you.
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Okay.
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Because look, I m very flattered by you listening to this show and being a fan, and I m like, what can I tell this guy to make him not, you know... Like I said, knock on wood, but I ll be around for a long time.
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I know when to hold him and when to fold him and when to do it, you know?
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But I appreciate your concern, and I will, like I said, I ll give it a week, sir.
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But if I m bored, what am I supposed to do?
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Um, there s a lot.
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I m going to tell you as look as somebody who I very recently have been having all these existential crises of like fucking boredom or what is it with life?
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Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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Look, um, there s a lot.
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There s a lot.
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There s a lot to do.
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Give me three examples, and I ll do them this week, I promise.
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I love traveling.
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Why do you think I went to Alaskans?
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Oh, I ve always wanted to go to Prague, but I don t have the money for that right now.
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Okay.
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Uh, I m sorry.
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Let s think of traveling is not in the budget right now.
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All right.
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All right.
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That s fair.
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I respect that.
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Um, all right.
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Things that you can do that are not for under $500.
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Things you can do under $500 that are not recklessly driving your motorcycle down the highway.
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Okay.
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Um, gotta beat that or come close.
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Okay.
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All right.
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And by the way, hold on.
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I want you to, I just want to say something.
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Even if I can t think, even if I am a hundred percent sure that you can find those things, even if I can t name them right now, but I m going to think.
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I know they re out there, but it s just like, I go to work.
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I come home.
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I go to work.
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I come home.
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I don t really have much of a social life.
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Well, could that, I mean, dude, could that be it?
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Like, are you just like, Oh, that s probably 100% it.
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But I mean, like, I don t drink alcohol and they don t have weed bars yet, bro.
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Like if there was a place I could just go and smoke weed with like-minded people, I would be there like the old man that you see at the bar from open to close.
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I d be that fucking guy at the weed bar, but I don t drink alcohol and I fucking hate sloppy drunk people.
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Let s see.
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You re in Illinois.
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Illinois is a legal state, right?
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It is a legal state.
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Um, aren t there, aren t there like, or they re not weed lounges.
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I, if there are, I, like I said, I just got back to Chicago, uh, later this year.
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So if there are weed lounges and somebody knows about it in the Chicago area, hit me up, um, leave a message in the comment or let me know.
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Cause I don t know.
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Okay.
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All right.
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I m going to post this on YouTube and on the podcast and stuff.
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So go look at the YouTube comments and maybe somebody will know a thing because I would so much rather you
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You know make friends and hang out and get high in a room then be You know doing the thing with the motorcycle.
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So alright, that s one thing.
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Alright, we got one thing.
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We got one thing Okay, dude, is that I mean look yeah, is that really it are you just like are you lonely?
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And this is like giving you some kind of dopamine that you re not getting from like socializing with people Honestly
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Now talking about this out loud, Gecko, I think you might be on to something.
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Because I m feeling vulnerable right now.
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Like, I didn t like the way that sounded.
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But you know what they say, if you don t like the truth, you know what they say.
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So yeah, I just might be a lonely dude.
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Look, I have crazy shit that I do when I m just like, you know, lonely.
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I get fucking lonely and I eat a thousand Milky Ways and shit, you know?
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A thousand Milky Ways?
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What the fuck?
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I mean, I guess you said the same thing about me riding a motorcycle going 150, but I mean, I don t know, man.
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I need that excitement.
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I need that thrill.
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But you need something to do.
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I do, I do.
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Yeah, you need something to fucking do that s not, like, work and go insane.
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I get it, because that s the thing.
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There s that whole thing of the devil s idle hand, whatever.
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What is it?
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Idle hands, the devil s... Yeah, that whole thing.
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Yeah, I know what you re talking about.
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I don t know the quote, but I know what you re talking about.
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And so it s like, if you don t have anything to do that s really, um, um, engaging your brain, you re just going to go into addict mode and do the, whatever the extreme thing is.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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You re right.
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You re on to something.
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So, all right.
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There s the weed lounge.
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I got a question.
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I got a question for you.
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All right.
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Well, I ll, I ll get to my question.
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All right.
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We lounge.
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Now I m just thinking of how, now I m just, um, I was gonna say, well, I mean, I m also, I m a big fan of if a place for you in the universe does not exist, you create it.
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I m a big fan of that.
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Oh bro, are you talking about smoking DMT?
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No, I m not talking about smoking fucking DMT.
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Oh, my bad.
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That s what I thought you were going with that.
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Like create your own universe.
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Like I tried that with direct, and it didn t really go out very well.
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Well, I mean, okay, so here s what I do mean by that, is if you...
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Let s say this weed lounge or whatever doesn t exist.
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Could you create it?
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Could you do create a meetup?
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I know it s whatever.
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SPEAKER_01
I don t know if that costs money I mean it probably does but or even if I meet up or like could you create some kind of club or some kind of social gathering event thing whatever it is that That fulfills this thing if you build it they will come touch it.
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Is that where you come type shit?
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Yes.
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Yes.
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Oh
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I mean, like, I don t think I have the status quo nor the financial to do that.
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But I mean, like, I m sure I could try.
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You know, what s the worst that could happen?
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Like two people show up and then I got a new lead connect.
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SPEAKER_01
Dude, you could literally, like, there s that Always Sunny episode where they put up those flyers of just like looking for cool dudes to hang out with or whatever it is.
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SPEAKER_01
You could go on TikTok.
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SPEAKER_01
Dude, you could literally do that.
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SPEAKER_01
I mean, you could do that.
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SPEAKER_01
You could go on... There s probably people listening to this podcast who are like, yeah, I ll hang out.
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SPEAKER_01
I ll go get high with this guy in his basement.
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SPEAKER_01
Fuck it.
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SPEAKER_01
You know?
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SPEAKER_01
You just need... It sounds like you just... Bro, it sounds like you just need, like, people to hang out with, so you re not, uh... You know... You re not wrong, but I don t think that would fix the entire situation, because I would just end up being a bad influence.
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I d be like, y all want to go break the law?
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Oh, man.
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Well, it s a place to start.
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What else what else what else how do you feel about Do you like cooking cooking What about what about
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What about being, you could become a foodie, you could sample local food.
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SPEAKER_00
Go around being a food critic?
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah, you could be a food critic.
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SPEAKER_00
I sound terrible, but like, we did talk about how I need excitement.
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SPEAKER_01
That does, you re right.
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And you want me to go walking around and tell people their food sucks?
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You re 100% correct.
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That was a stupid idea.
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All right.
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Onto the next one.
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fuck what else I don t know look again I don t know off the top of my head I understand if you can t find them I know there s stuff out there I did you know like that that s like right now like you and I are having a debate like we re sitting here when we re trying to think of something but yet we can t think of anything so I m jiggling my motorcycle keys and it sounded real good you know I m saying come on come on all right hold on bear with me
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All right, because I need you, look, there is, hmm.
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I can t look, but I ll listen.
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All right, there are, I m gonna go for it.
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There are an infinite amount of human experiences, like more than you could ever seek to, more than you could ever experience in several lifetimes.
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Do you agree with that?
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Absolutely.
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SPEAKER_01
Okay, absolutely you agree with that, okay.
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So, would it not be crazy, perhaps even a little arrogant, to say to yourself, I am 100% sure that out of the literally infinite human experiences, people to meet, places to go, things to do,
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There is none that come anywhere close to this horrible thing that, of doing the motorcycle thing.
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SPEAKER_00
How about this, how about this?
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You get on a motorcycle and you go 100, I won t say 150, you do 120 miles an hour and tell me you don t get the biggest erection you ve ever had in your entire life.
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SPEAKER_01
Buddy, what about Six Flags?
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SPEAKER_01
You ever been to Six Flags?
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_01
Go to Six Flags.
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SPEAKER_01
Take an Uber to Six Flags, dude.
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SPEAKER_00
Take an Uber to Six Flags.
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Don t get on the bike.
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Oh, man.
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SPEAKER_00
I don t think so.
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I get the whole roller coaster, bungee jumping.
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skydiving, all that stuff, that s only a blip of a second to where when you re riding the motorcycle, I m in control from the time that I start the bike until the time that I turn off the bike.
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I can give myself the amount of dopamine that I want and then stop it to where if I get on a roller coaster, that dopamine only lasts for as long as that ride.
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SPEAKER_00
And then I have to go and pay more money and stand in line and do, you know,
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Do you get what I m saying?
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Look, that s fair.
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And I get that we could sit here all day and I could try to give you specific things and you could refute them, but the general idea that I m trying... Oh, you re not wrong.
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You re right.
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You got into something about the infinite possibilities of human connection and possibilities of a million different things that I could do.
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SPEAKER_01
Oh fuck, I accidentally just opened up Premiere Pro on my computer.
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Hold on.
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Alright, see that was a little... See that s my version of adrenaline as I open all the apps on my computer at the same time.
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Okay.
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Here s what I m trying to say.
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Look, my shit is not as extreme as, you know, doing meth and heroin.
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But I understand, in a way, the basic thing of, like, if your brain is not engaged, it s gonna go straight to the demons.
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It s gonna go straight to whatever those demons are.
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Well, not really.
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Like, I ve learned to...
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that the drugs are not the answer and it s not going to help me and progress me or take me where I want to be in life.
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So I m not in a hurry to go back to the drugs.
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SPEAKER_00
Once you get past the withdrawal stage, it really gets a mindset and a lifestyle change.
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If you want to keep being a scumbag and hang out with certain people, then you re always going to be a part of that life.
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But if you yourself want to change,
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It s not that hard.
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Or at least it is for me.
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I know some addicts have it harder, but I don t plan on going back to the drugs.
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And that s fantastic it is and and you should be proud of yourself for that, and I know that was really difficult But you have a new challenge now, and we have a new challenge now because look dude like this driving your motorcycle 140 miles per hour you re gonna fucking
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you you have you ve i ve seen you can only roll the dice so many times you can only roll the dice so many times and you know this you can only roll the dice yeah so many times and so like you went and and also look you went from one
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high-risk, crazy activity to another.
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And so you ve already, you already know you have within yourself the ability to replace one thing.
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SPEAKER_00
Yes, to direct your energy somewhere else.
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I don t love the place that you ve directed it to, but you know that you have that ability.
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And so I m just saying,
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You could find a different thing to channel that energy into.
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SPEAKER_00
And maybe, as we ve talked about, it s just friends or getting stoned or whatever, man.
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SPEAKER_00
Why don t you just get high and run around in the woods?
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SPEAKER_00
I did that in Alaska, bro.
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SPEAKER_00
That sounds sick.
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SPEAKER_01
It was.
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SPEAKER_01
I spent 12 years in Alaska.
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It was one of the best experiences I ve ever had in my life.
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SPEAKER_00
Do you feel like you were more stable in Alaska or in Chicago?
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It depends what you mean by that.
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SPEAKER_01
Like financially and mentally stable?
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Yes.
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I m better off in Chicago.
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But overall happy as a human being?
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I was happier being a wild feral animal in Alaska.
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Like my soul was happy, you know, but I was doing terrible things.
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I didn t have a roof over my head.
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SPEAKER_01
You get to a certain point that you want different things in life.
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SPEAKER_01
And like,
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Now you said, you said you do have friends in Chicago, right?
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Yeah.
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Um, what, what are they like?
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Do they, are they, do you, you, you see, you re talking about being a bad influence on other people.
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SPEAKER_00
Do you think other people are ever a bad influence on you?
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No, no, no.
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I, I m always the one that s the bad influence.
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Like, um,
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Like, all right, so right now one of my good friends that I m hanging out with currently is, he s Arabic, so he doesn t drink, he doesn t do alcohol, drugs, he doesn t do any of that stuff.
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And I convinced him to get a motorcycle and now we re both riding and going at irate speeds.
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SPEAKER_01
And this kid, all this guy did was just go home, go to work, go home, go to work, go home.
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SPEAKER_01
And like, I was like, bro, you re just as depressed as I am.
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SPEAKER_01
And now we re both riding motorcycles.
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Like I m the bad influence.
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SPEAKER_00
Hmm.
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There s something for you.
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SPEAKER_00
I don t know what it is.
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SPEAKER_00
I really don t, but there s gotta be something.
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SPEAKER_01
I m just trying to find it myself.
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SPEAKER_00
Okay.
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I hope you find it before you end up on r slash crazy fucking videos.
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SPEAKER_00
I really do, man.
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SPEAKER_00
I really do.
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SPEAKER_00
I would be so happy to hear from you a year from now, and you re like, you know what?
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SPEAKER_00
I actually got really into competitive Yu-Gi-Oh, and now I don t kill people with my motorcycle anymore.
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah, yeah.
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See, I did the Shadow Realm bullshit when I was a teenager.
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If you want, I will, I will literally contact you one year from today and we can have an evaluation of this exact conversation.
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SPEAKER_00
Okay.
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I really, seriously.
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I don t know what, send me an Instagram thing or whatever a year from now.
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And I ll be like, oh shit.
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I d be happy to hear that you didn t die.
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SPEAKER_00
You know?
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And who knows?
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Maybe I ll find my calling by then, or maybe I ll settle the fuck down.
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SPEAKER_01
Who knows?
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SPEAKER_00
Are you going to look in the YouTube comments to see if some dude with dreadlocks is like, man, come on over to the salty dog weed lounge in Chicago.
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SPEAKER_00
I don t know why I said the salty dog, but whatever.
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SPEAKER_00
Are you going to look for it?
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SPEAKER_01
I m looking right now.
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SPEAKER_01
Well, I haven t posted it yet, but I mean, I guess there s the- Oh, no, I m looking in the comments right now of the, uh, what am I on?
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SPEAKER_01
I downloaded a whole app just so I could watch you.
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SPEAKER_01
I think it s Twitch?
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah, Twitch.
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah, I literally downloaded this app just so I could watch you and call you and follow you, bro.
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SPEAKER_00
Here, alright, let s do this.
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I m gonna take it to the chat real quick.
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Chat, do you have any suggestions of things for deafie to do?
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SPEAKER_00
We didn t even talk about you being deaf.
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SPEAKER_01
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah.
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SPEAKER_01
I m 76% hard of hearing with two hearing aids.
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SPEAKER_00
How are you hearing me right now?
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SPEAKER_01
Uh, I have really good hearing aids that cost $40,000.
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SPEAKER_01
Holy shit.
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SPEAKER_00
Did you have to like, how did you, are you in like medical debt for that?
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SPEAKER_01
No, no, no.
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SPEAKER_01
I, uh, I, I got help through the state.
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SPEAKER_01
I couldn t afford that.
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SPEAKER_01
Nobody can, nobody has $40,000 laying around if they hear somebody yelling at them.
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SPEAKER_00
Alright, we got, um... Someone said hire a prostitute.
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SPEAKER_00
Ooh!
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SPEAKER_01
Her name s Betty and she doesn t have any teeth.
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SPEAKER_00
Uh, we got a gun range.
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SPEAKER_01
Mmm, gotta have a boy card in Illinois.
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SPEAKER_00
Um... What else we got?
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SPEAKER_00
We got... Mountain biking?
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SPEAKER_00
Mountain biking s pretty good.
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SPEAKER_00
How about mountain biking?
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SPEAKER_01
Skydiving...
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SPEAKER_00
Oh, what about this MMA?
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SPEAKER_00
I feel like you d be I feel like you d be a good MMA guy Like you see like you could fight.
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SPEAKER_01
Oh, I do like to fight but hold on a second.
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SPEAKER_01
There s some guy named my car M-i-l-o-k at 824.
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SPEAKER_01
He says he rides in Chicago and wants to come riding with me.
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SPEAKER_01
Well Hit me up I m gonna put my number in the chat.
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SPEAKER_00
Oh, geez, this is not
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SPEAKER_00
Dude, I m gonna be scrolling through Reddit, and it s gonna be three guys, and they re all gonna get fucked up, and I m gonna be like, damn it, my stream brought these people together to die.
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SPEAKER_01
I put my number in the chat, so if you guys ever wanna go riding and you re in the Illinois area, hit me up.
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Also, also if you re in the if you re in the Illinois area and you run a really cool knitting club and you want to invite That would be cool, too If somebody comes up to me and offers me the knit because of you I m gonna do it Okay, good.
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SPEAKER_01
Oh my god.
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SPEAKER_01
I heard you on the gecko.
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SPEAKER_01
You want to come good.
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SPEAKER_01
I ll be like fuck.
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah, let s do good Well, I m very open-minded to anything
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SPEAKER_00
Let me think here.
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SPEAKER_00
Let me think here.
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SPEAKER_00
Were you, by the way, were you born deaf or did you become?
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SPEAKER_01
Um, no.
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SPEAKER_01
All right.
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So I, uh, I have a, I got a rare disease called Kawasaki, like the motorcycle.
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And it gave me a fever of 106 and it melted the hair inside my cochlea.
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SPEAKER_00
Holy shit.
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00
How do you like hear stuff on the, does this make the motorcycle thing even more dangerous?
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SPEAKER_01
No, like I said, I have hearing aids, and I can hear.
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SPEAKER_01
I just can t hear as well as the next guy.
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SPEAKER_01
I m just like that old guy that s been surrounded by a machine his whole life, you know?
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SPEAKER_01
Like, I m like your grandpa.
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SPEAKER_01
I can kinda hear, but you just gotta yell a little bit.
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SPEAKER_00
Hmm, okay.
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SPEAKER_00
Hmm.
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SPEAKER_00
Um... Well, Daffy,
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Defy, I don t know, do you wanna plug anything?
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SPEAKER_00
Do you use Instagram or anything like that?
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I do have an Instagram.
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It s at DefyD.
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Same with my Snapchat, at DefyD.
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SPEAKER_01
D-E-A-F-Y-D?
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SPEAKER_00
D-E-A-F-F-Y-D.
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Well, if, uh, if you live in Chicago and you have some positive non, uh, thing that you want to invite Deffy to go do, uh, there he is.
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SPEAKER_01
Um, well, that s dangerous.
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SPEAKER_03
Well, definitely.
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SPEAKER_01
Is it good?
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SPEAKER_03
Yeah, not a non dangerous thing.
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SPEAKER_03
Um, get a blood or if you know any cool weed lounges, hit him up.
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_01
Tony, Tony, why would donating blood be exciting or fun?
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SPEAKER_03
Did somebody in the chat say donating blood?
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_01
They said donate blood.
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SPEAKER_03
Hey man, don t knock it till you try it.
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SPEAKER_01
And you can try thinking about the Roman empire.
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SPEAKER_03
Uh, well, Deffy, Deffy, I m gonna stop looking at the chat right now.
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SPEAKER_03
Deffy, um... Yes, sir?
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I ve enjoyed talking to you, man.
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I really hope that you find something.
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SPEAKER_03
You seem like a cool guy.
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I want you to continue to live many years on the Earth.
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SPEAKER_03
Dude, is there anything else you wanted to say or talk about or anything like that before we go?
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I would just like to leave all your followers and everyone listening that everything does happen for a reason, whether you turn left or turn right or go straight.
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SPEAKER_01
It will choose the next choice in your life.
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SPEAKER_01
Everything happens for a reason.
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SPEAKER_03
Hey, also, if I go to Alaska, what should I do?
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SPEAKER_03
I m thinking about going there.
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SPEAKER_03
Drugs.
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SPEAKER_01
No, it depends on what part of Alaska are you going to are you gonna go like take a cruise?
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SPEAKER_01
Are you gonna go to like the islands?
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SPEAKER_01
Are you gonna go to like Anchorage?
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SPEAKER_01
Like what are you trying to do in Alaska?
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SPEAKER_01
I want to go to the cities and see like cool mountain shit And I want to see the city and mountains I suggest going to Anchorage and weed is also legal in Alaska so you can hit up the dispensary grab yourself some shit and
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I recommend Denali Dispensary right there.
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It s right there in downtown.
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SPEAKER_01
And then yeah, and then you can go out to Eagle River, go hiking up Baldy Mountain and get a beautiful view, smoke some of that awesome ganja and just enjoy.
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SPEAKER_03
See, you ve helped me too, Defy, because all this week I really was very existential and thinking that, you know, I don t know what else there is left to do in life.
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But now you ve shown me
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that I can get high in Alaska, which is a reason enough to talk to you.
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And if you need people for harder stuff or other stuff, just let me know.
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SPEAKER_03
Okay, I will.
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SPEAKER_03
Thank you, Defy.
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SPEAKER_01
I got you.
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SPEAKER_01
You re my favorite Gecko.
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SPEAKER_03
Hey, you re my favorite Deaf guy.
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SPEAKER_03
Have a good night.
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SPEAKER_03
You too, man.
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SPEAKER_03
I like that guy.
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SPEAKER_03
Um... I don t know, dude.
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SPEAKER_03
I- I do- I meant what I hate.
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SPEAKER_03
I fucking hate, um... Like, the whole, like, going a hundred miles an hour on the highway.
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SPEAKER_03
I- I hate it.
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SPEAKER_03
It s dangerous for you.
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SPEAKER_03
It s dangerous for other people.
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SPEAKER_03
It s just such a... shit... not... good thing to do.
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SPEAKER_03
And it s a- and it s a bummer.
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SPEAKER_03
Because I like Deffy, he s a cool guy, you know?
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SPEAKER_03
And there s a lot of stuff that I think he could do that would be, you know, fun or exciting or, you know, worthwhile to do that s not that.
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SPEAKER_03
And I hope he finds it.
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SPEAKER_03
I hope I get the DM a year from now being like, hey, I m really into competitive chess boxing or whatever the fuck.
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SPEAKER_03
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_03
I m excited.
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Now that I m done with my tour, I m going to try to go make more like fun gecko videos in places.
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So I m going to go to, I m going to try Alaska on that, on that man s recommendation.
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And I m going to get high and look at a polar bear and everything will hopefully feel okay.
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SPEAKER_03
Thanks Steffi.
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SPEAKER_02
Hey everybody, it s Lyle.
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That is the conclusion of the phone call portion of this podcast.
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But get this, now is the part of this podcast where we are going to transportate to the streets of a little place
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called Brisbane, Australia, in front of a little place called Hungry Jack s, which is what they call Burger King in Australia.
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I made like an Instagram story saying where in Brisbane, Australia should I go to
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Film stuff and up like a hundred people told me that I should go in front of this Hungry Jack s in this shopping mall and I did and here s a little interview that I did with a person who was kind of telling me about some Demons that she was facing and whatnot and also we re interrupted at some point by a very drunk guy So take a listen
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What s your name?
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I m Ash.
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SPEAKER_03
Ash, nice to meet you.
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SPEAKER_00
Nice to meet you.
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SPEAKER_00
What s your- you re live.
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SPEAKER_00
My- what, say that again?
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SPEAKER_00
I just learned that you re live.
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SPEAKER_03
Yeah, yeah, and I learned that you re Ash.
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SPEAKER_03
There we go.
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SPEAKER_03
I was, uh, I- I- Alright, so just some backstory, and you saw all this.
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I was setting up, and without fail, everywhere I ve gone to set up and do this in Australia, people have come to try to kick me out.
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SPEAKER_03
But I was- and then- but that- and that woman came- I saw her.
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SPEAKER_00
I was ready to- I was ready to come and, like, defend you.
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SPEAKER_00
Be like, nah.
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SPEAKER_00
He s a therapy gecko.
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SPEAKER_03
She was gonna kick me out and normally when I see a police officer, I shut down and I m like, it s over.
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SPEAKER_00
No, she wasn t a police officer.
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SPEAKER_00
Who was she?
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SPEAKER_00
She s just like power dynamic, you know?
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SPEAKER_03
She s like mall security?
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah, not even mall security.
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SPEAKER_00
She s like mall, I said that.
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SPEAKER_00
She s like a council worker.
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SPEAKER_03
She had a whole... She had a notebook.
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah, I saw that.
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SPEAKER_03
Well, I guess you can tell if somebody s a real police officer.
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SPEAKER_03
In America, if some guy has a big fucking gun, you re like, alright, I gotta stop filming in front of this KFC or else they ll shoot me in the face.
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SPEAKER_00
Our police have guns and tasers.
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SPEAKER_03
This would be a really hilarious thing to get tased for, I will say that.
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I will say that.
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No, but Brisbane City Police are the best police.
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No, she was cool.
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She was cool.
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I mean, but normally when I see like a security guard or police officer trying to kick me out, I m like, I m like, it s over.
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It s up.
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But I was like, I was like, I fucking I ve been kicked out of every single place I ve tried to do this in Australia.
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And I was like, no, I m gonna fight back this time.
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I m gonna fight back this time.
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And she told me I could be here for 20 minutes.
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SPEAKER_00
And she told you 20 minutes.
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SPEAKER_03
Yeah, but I mean, I m gonna try to be here for like an hour.
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SPEAKER_03
Yeah.
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Brisbane s different.
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We re like a country town.
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We ll see.
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Maybe she ll come back and I can convince her to sit down and talk to me.
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SPEAKER_00
Yes, you should so do that.
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She s not going to.
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She s not going to want to.
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I know that for a fact, but I ll try.
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SPEAKER_03
She probably doesn t want to be on camera, but that s okay.
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SPEAKER_03
What s up?
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SPEAKER_03
How s life?
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SPEAKER_00
Life s really shit.
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SPEAKER_03
Tell me why.
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Well, at the moment I m trying to find a psychiatrist, and I ve been told it s a 6 to 12 month wait, and my doctor thinks I ve got psychosis.
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SPEAKER_03
Really?
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Why does he think you have psychosis?
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Because I m like really delusional.
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SPEAKER_00
So seeing a gecko, just like, I was like, is this even real?
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Yeah, right, right.
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That s fun.
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What are you having delusions about?
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spirits a lot of spirits at the moment okay and like it s like I m kind of thinking that like I can t believe I m just talking to you about this I m kind of thinking that like everything is connected and intertwined with like spirits and shit and I m terrified like there s specific clothing I can t wear because what if like the spirits are gonna fucking get me what
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Are you, like, the spirit s getting you.
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What does that mean?
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Like, they re gonna hurt you?
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SPEAKER_00
Well, ghosts can t hurt people, otherwise everyone would probably be dead.
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SPEAKER_00
Right, so how would they even get you?
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They just get in my head and just make me take my life.
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This got real deep real fast.
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SPEAKER_03
No, I mean, you can talk about whatever you want to talk about if you want to talk about it.
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Have you ever been visited by, like, a spirit?
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No, but at the moment in the house we live in, me and my partner, I think that there s most certainly a spirit.
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And she just like agrees with me.
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I m like, yeah, there s a spirit.
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And she s like, yeah, babe.
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah, I still agree.
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Do you think she s agreeing with you out of desire for a lack of conflict?
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Or do you think she genuinely thinks there s also a spirit?
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I think she s just agreeing with me to avoid conflict.
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I think that is definitely what it is.
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Which is nice.
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So when you went to the doctor, and the doctor s what she might have said.
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SPEAKER_03
Yeah, I m seeing my doctor every single week.
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What did they tell you about the spirits thing?
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I haven t really told her about it, because I don t know how to approach the subject properly with her.
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SPEAKER_00
Really?
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Yeah, because she s really cool.
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She s a really amazing lady, and she sees me every single week, tells me to book appointments, and we re trying to avoid putting me on too much medication, because I don t agree with meds.
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Sure.
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But I ve told them about it, and they re like...
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ask me if I hear voices and I m like oh maybe not sure and they re like could it be your interior monologue or whatever it s called and I m like it could be but like I just like wake up every morning with really bad thoughts really negative thoughts and it s like really fucking hard.
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I hope you take this as a compliment.
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You re the sanest person on psychosis I ve ever met.
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SPEAKER_00
That s such a compliment.
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I don t know you.
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I ve been talking to you for two minutes, but you don t seem crazy.
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah, I gotta keep it all together.
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I ve had to my whole life.
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I ve been suffering with mental health for 10 years about.
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SPEAKER_00
Does anything make you happy or make you feel like chill?
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SPEAKER_01
Um, not at the moment, not a lot of things make me feel very happy and chill.
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Like my partner, she s awesome.
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She makes me feel really happy and chill and like reassures me and comforts me.
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And like going to the movie theaters, that like relaxes me.
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I love watching TV shows on like YouTube and stuff because it takes me into a different world.
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Right, right.
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And, like, I watch a lot of TikTok, and TikTok kind of feeds into delusions as well.
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Okay, I was about to say, because your TikTok algorithm will, like, kind of show you what you re going to be glued to, and the thing you re going to be glued to, I assume, is, like, things confirming that your delusions are real.
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Yeah, a hundred percent.
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Yeah, what kinds of like are you seeing content about like ghosts and shit?
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I not really because I try I I try and like not think about it too much and then I take my Take my meds and I m like, okay, it s so good.
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SPEAKER_01
Everything is fine So I haven t taken my meds today Hmm.
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SPEAKER_00
Why are you and but I know this whole personal thing, you know, I ve talked about you want to but like if you do want to talk about it What why are you against taking your meds?
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Um, I
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I think I m against taking meds because I think that they re just trying to poison me, to be completely honest.
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SPEAKER_00
And like, when you say they re trying to poison you, do you mean like, they are like, you believe that your psychiatrist is like, genuinely like, malevolent and like, out to get you and wants to poison you type of thing?
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Well like, I am not seeing a psychiatrist at the moment because there s a long wait.
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SPEAKER_01
But when I have seen psychiatrists in the past, they just drug me up and just turn me into like a dope.
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SPEAKER_01
Which is really hard because I don t like being dopey, I like to feel life and live life.
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But it s really hard to do with meds sometimes.
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SPEAKER_00
What are you on?
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SPEAKER_00
I feel like there s gotta be, whatever you say it is, there s gotta be someone in the comments who s gonna say something like, I was on that before.
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SPEAKER_01
I m on Sarah quill.
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SPEAKER_01
Okay, which is that I m on a hundred milligrams a day, which isn t really a lot I don t think and then I m on another med called mini press Okay, and it s for lowering for blood pressure, but it helps with nightmares because I really really like vivid vivid dreams and nightmares What do you what do you have nightmares about?
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Um, the other day I had a nightmare that I was being accused of a murder.
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And like, it was so real.
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And like, I was the one who like, I killed this dad and his kid.
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And I was like, I was like, what the fuck?
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And like, I was just full being accused of it.
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And that s all I really remember.
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In the dream.
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Did you did in the dream?
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Did you do it?
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Or were you like falsely accused?
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SPEAKER_01
No, it s falsely accused.
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I didn t do it.
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Which was the weirdest part because I know that I didn t do it.
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SPEAKER_00
Tell me about your, do you go to school or work or anything?
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SPEAKER_01
No, I can t do school at the moment.
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SPEAKER_00
When was the last time you did?
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SPEAKER_01
I was working last year in November, December, but my mental health just completely took me over.
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I was paranoid that my boss hated me, so it made the problems for me at work, and then I ended up just having mental health days every single week and just not coming back.
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I ended up going into work.
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I brought my shirt in, and I told her, I was like, I d like to talk to you.
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SPEAKER_01
This is where it gets exciting.
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And then so I went up to talk to her.
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And she s like, I d like to talk to you in the back.
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And I m like, no, I d prefer if we talk in front of people.
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Because like, she already like, it already felt like she was against me.
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And then so
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And she ended up saying to me, she s like, what did she say?
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SPEAKER_01
I was like, you know, the way that you ve treated me has been really unfair and just not very kind because she genuinely was being really shitty towards me.
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SPEAKER_01
And she wanted to fire me because I went to Brisbane because I wasn t living in Brisbane at the time.
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah.
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And I went back to Brisbane to see my family.
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And my younger sister was also graduating.
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and so I went to see them and she found out because there was a family friend that worked with me as well and then so she fired me and I went in to quit before she could fire me because she told everyone else that I was fired before she told me and in the end I was like sort of going off and sort of talking about it and she s like oh would you fuck off and I was like whoa you shouldn t say that and then we went to the back room and I tried to quit and I ended up vomiting.
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SPEAKER_01
It was really really shameful.
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SPEAKER_00
Okay, I want to tell you about this, and this might be ignorant, but like, in this moment right now, as I m talking to you, as I m looking at you, you re like, and even when I was talking to you before the camera was rolling, you were like, smiling, and you seemed like, and you re very sociable, and you re very like, you know, good at like, presenting.
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SPEAKER_00
You feel, it feels like you re here.
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SPEAKER_00
Like, you feel very present.
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah.
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If that makes sense.
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00
And so I guess I m trying to... Do you feel that way about yourself?
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SPEAKER_00
Oh no, not at all.
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SPEAKER_00
Okay, because I see that.
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Because for me, I m like... I feel like I m on another planet right now.
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SPEAKER_01
I look at myself and I ll film myself on a TikTok or whatever.
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SPEAKER_01
And I ll be like, I don t even know who the fuck that is.
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SPEAKER_00
Tell me about, what are the other relationships you have besides just your partner?
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SPEAKER_00
Like, are you cool with your parents, your friends?
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SPEAKER_01
My dad acts like a 20 year old.
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SPEAKER_01
He s dating a 29 year old at the moment.
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SPEAKER_00
Okay.
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SPEAKER_01
So that s really weird.
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And he tells me about how he s like doing MDMA and how I should come out and how he s having all these three ways.
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And I m like, wow.
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SPEAKER_00
Okay.
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SPEAKER_01
Wow.
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SPEAKER_01
Thanks dad.
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah.
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Love that.
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00
Thanks.
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SPEAKER_00
Cool.
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SPEAKER_00
Your mom?
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SPEAKER_01
Um, yeah, things are alright with my mom.
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SPEAKER_01
She just... I don t really like my stepdad.
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SPEAKER_00
Okay.
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SPEAKER_00
Sorry.
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SPEAKER_00
Now, uh, do you have friends?
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SPEAKER_00
Do you have homies?
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah, I ve got a lot of friends.
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SPEAKER_01
Okay, cool.
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah, I think I ve got a lot of friends because a lot of my friends understand how bad my mental health is.
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So, I ve been a shitty friend and I ve been a shitty partner and I know that and I can acknowledge that.
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SPEAKER_01
But they stick around because they know that I m not good at... I isolate a lot and I don t see my friends for months, if not years.
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SPEAKER_01
I don t know, it s hard.
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And it gets really hard for my partner.
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SPEAKER_00
How long have you been with your partner for?
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SPEAKER_01
Um, we ve been together.
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SPEAKER_01
What are you guys saying?
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SPEAKER_02
What are you guys saying?
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SPEAKER_02
Listen.
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SPEAKER_02
Come with the frog, eh?
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SPEAKER_02
Come with the frog!
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SPEAKER_00
How drunk are you at fucking 4pm?
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SPEAKER_02
I m smashed.
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SPEAKER_02
I just smashed two full packs of 4% of Woodstocks.
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SPEAKER_00
Alright, nice.
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SPEAKER_00
Nice.
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SPEAKER_00
Chill.
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SPEAKER_02
Chill.
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SPEAKER_02
Oi, come with the frog!
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SPEAKER_02
Come with the fucking frog, eh?
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah, dude.
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SPEAKER_02
Oh.
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SPEAKER_00
We did it.
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SPEAKER_00
What are you, what are you doing out on the town?
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SPEAKER_02
Fucking, I m about to go to the Met tonight.
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SPEAKER_02
What s the Met?
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SPEAKER_01
The Met s a shithole.
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SPEAKER_02
Mate, I can t be fucking with all the goldie.
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SPEAKER_02
I m staying in Brisbane tonight, mate.
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SPEAKER_01
Then go to like Prohibition.
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SPEAKER_02
I got the Meriton.
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SPEAKER_02
You know the Meriton just around near the corner from the Met?
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_02
That s where I m staying tonight.
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SPEAKER_02
And Kermit the Frog is coming!
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SPEAKER_00
What s, what s the Meriton?
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SPEAKER_02
It s just a hotel.
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SPEAKER_00
Okay, where are you?
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SPEAKER_00
Where are you from?
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SPEAKER_02
I m from the American, but I m going to the Met tonight, and me and fucking Kermit the Frog are coming to pick up some pussy!
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SPEAKER_00
Are you here alone?
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SPEAKER_02
Mate, no, I m meeting up with a mate at South Bank soon, but I m just getting smashed before tonight, mate.
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SPEAKER_01
How are you going to make it out?
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SPEAKER_00
He asked how you re going to make it out.
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SPEAKER_02
How am I going to make it out?
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SPEAKER_02
The only way that I m going to make it out was the Kermit the Frog magician mate.
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SPEAKER_00
That actually makes a lot of sense.
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SPEAKER_02
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_02
He can help me tonight.
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SPEAKER_02
He s my wingman.
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SPEAKER_02
He s my wingman.
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SPEAKER_02
Who are you talking to?
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SPEAKER_02
I ll be the Kermit the Frog mate.
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SPEAKER_00
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00
Well, wait, how many beers have you had today?
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SPEAKER_02
I ve had two full packs of 12% of Woodstocks.
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SPEAKER_01
How many percentage drinks are they?
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SPEAKER_02
I ve had... Wait, what do you mean?
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SPEAKER_01
Like, how many standard drinks is in one?
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SPEAKER_02
Two.
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SPEAKER_00
And I ve had... Oh, so that count, that s about eight.
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SPEAKER_00
That s eight.
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SPEAKER_02
I ve had two full packs of the Topaz... Everybody, everybody here is doing math to see how fucked up this guy is.
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SPEAKER_00
What s your, what s your name, man?
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SPEAKER_02
He s had like 16... My name s... and I m from Kaboolture!
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Cabo!
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Cabo!
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SPEAKER_03
What s your dream in life?
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SPEAKER_03
Dream in life is to get a job.
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SPEAKER_03
I ve got a job.
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SPEAKER_03
I don t know if this is going to help you.
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SPEAKER_03
No, no, no.
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SPEAKER_03
I ve got a job interview on Wednesday.
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SPEAKER_02
For what?
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SPEAKER_03
For a warehouse job.
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SPEAKER_00
Oh, good money.
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SPEAKER_02
Oh, cool, man.
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SPEAKER_02
What s the... I ve only just got out of jail.
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SPEAKER_02
Oh, what were you doing in jail?
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SPEAKER_03
Fucking some bad things that I can t mention.
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SPEAKER_03
Yeah.
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SPEAKER_03
Can you tell us one?
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SPEAKER_03
I did some armed robberies.
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SPEAKER_03
Should it do that?
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SPEAKER_03
What?
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SPEAKER_03
I just spent two years, I did a year and a half in New South Wales jail, came up to Queensland for four days, just did ten months, just got out of jail in Arthur Gorey.
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SPEAKER_00
Arthur Gorey?
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SPEAKER_00
That s a shit jail.
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SPEAKER_03
I ve been in jail since I was 18, just got out, and I m partying hard!
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SPEAKER_02
What do you have a what s what s the so so what s the warehouse like is it uh?
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SPEAKER_03
I ve got a job interview on Wednesday for the warehouse job.
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SPEAKER_03
I don t know it s for um packing Aluminium and other stuff.
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SPEAKER_02
Oh, okay.
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SPEAKER_02
Are you excited?
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SPEAKER_03
Are you happy to be out of jail?
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SPEAKER_03
I m fucking excited, bro So I can get some money in my pocket nice man.
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SPEAKER_03
What s your like?
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SPEAKER_03
It s like he s got a fucking ankle bracelet on right now.
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SPEAKER_03
I Wait, what s that on your leg?
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SPEAKER_03
What is it?
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SPEAKER_02
Oh yeah, he s got an ankle brace.
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SPEAKER_03
DVO cuz, DVO mate!
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SPEAKER_02
What s DVO?
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SPEAKER_02
Domestic violence order.
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SPEAKER_02
Oh Jesus.
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SPEAKER_03
What is it for?
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SPEAKER_02
Oh, bro, I think it s just, I think he just sprained his ankle.
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SPEAKER_03
They don t know about the jail antics mate.
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SPEAKER_02
What, uh, how are you like, are you trying to stay out of jail?
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SPEAKER_02
Do you think you ll be able to stay out?
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SPEAKER_03
This time, I m trying to stay out of jail.
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SPEAKER_03
Okay, good.
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SPEAKER_03
Cause I want to change my life and actually do something right.
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SPEAKER_02
Good.
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Cause ever since 2018, I ve been going in and out of jail since I was 2018.
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SPEAKER_03
So I ve been going in and out of jail for the last six years.
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SPEAKER_02
What do you want to, what do you want to do to make things right?
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SPEAKER_03
I want to get a job.
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SPEAKER_03
I want to pay tax.
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SPEAKER_03
And fuck the Matrix, mate!
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SPEAKER_03
Fuck the Matrix!
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SPEAKER_03
We re stuck in the Matrix, mate.
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SPEAKER_02
I know.
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SPEAKER_02
What s your plan to get out of the Matrix?
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SPEAKER_03
Well, my plan is to get out of the Matrix is to make a lot of money, save a lot of money.
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SPEAKER_03
And join Andrew Tate s team!
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SPEAKER_00
Jesus, man.
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SPEAKER_03
Oh, come on, man.
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SPEAKER_00
You re going back to jail.
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SPEAKER_02
Come on.
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SPEAKER_02
Listen.
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SPEAKER_02
Can I tell you something before we go?
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SPEAKER_02
I genuinely hope
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that you achieve your goal of turning it all around.
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SPEAKER_03
I want to turn my life around.
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SPEAKER_02
I hope you do.
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SPEAKER_02
I really do.
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SPEAKER_02
And I hope you make a good decision.
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SPEAKER_03
Wait, wait, because fuck crime, fuck drugs.
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SPEAKER_03
Bro, fuck drugs, man.
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SPEAKER_02
Have a good one.
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SPEAKER_00
Alcohol is a drug.
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SPEAKER_03
Fuck you, fuck you.
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SPEAKER_02
You got it.
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SPEAKER_02
Oh, crap, now we re really going to get kicked out.
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SPEAKER_02
All right.
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Thank you.
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SPEAKER_02
Thank you.
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SPEAKER_02
It s all right.
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SPEAKER_03
Wait, he s the maddest guy near me, mate.
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SPEAKER_02
It s alright.
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SPEAKER_02
It s alright.
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It s alright.
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I think Hamish is a bitch.
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Make sure no one treats you like shit, mate.
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Have a good one.
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Yeah, you too, man.
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Take care.
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Okay, that s enough, Ken.
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Is that... That might be one of the spirits.
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That s definitely one of the spirits right there.
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He s gonna be in my nightmares.
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Does that, um... Oh man, I don t even know where to begin.
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I don t even know what to say to that.
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I m speechless.
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Yeah.
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The Andrew Tate comment got me.
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That really got me.
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I feel, you know, I don t know, because I want, I d love for that guy to wake up in the morning and be like, oh shit, I really gotta not do that.
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He s gonna regret that.
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Oh yeah.
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He will.
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I want him, because I think within him,
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He genuinely does maybe want to turn it around, but is misguided.
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Yeah, he s very misguided.
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Yeah.
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But that s okay.
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Everyone can change.
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I think so too.
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Fuckin  hell.
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Man.
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Are you okay?
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Oh, I feel great.
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You feel great?
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Yeah, I feel great.
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The only thing is that that lady is watching us right now, but I m gonna keep... Is she watching?
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Yeah, no, no, no.
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Don t look, don t look.
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We ll just keep talking.
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She s smart.
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We smiled at each other.
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Okay, good.
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It s okay.
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It s all good.
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It s all good.
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We re just chatting.
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Yeah.
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What were we talking about before that guy came?
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I don t even remember.
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I don t... I don t even remember, babe.
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Do you remember what we were talking about?
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No.
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Frodo the Frog.
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Dude, that guy s not even, didn t even sound like he s Australian.
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He sounds like he s from Ireland or something.
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No, he s a Bogan.
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Oh, that s what a Bogan is.
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I ve been hearing that, I ve been hearing that, I ve been hearing that.
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Esche.
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Bogan.
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Same sort of wavelength.
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Let s see.
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Oh, we were talking about you.
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You know what is funny is, I guess, I guess what I ve learned from the past 10 minutes or so is like, if you look, if you take anything away from this experiment is no matter how bad you feel like you re doing, you re doing better than that.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, I m doing Yeah, I am.
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I haven t been in and out of jail for five years.
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Do you?
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How do you How do you feel?
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Ash?
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I feel like I need to take my meds and have a sleep.
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Good.
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Oh, he s back again.
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Uh, can I, can I see it later?
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I can t do it right now.
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Consent, sir.
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Do you need a medal?
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Well, I m not giving you one.
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Oh, get Gecko.
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Yeah, dude.
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It s like, that s like the thing on your, on your thing.
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He s posing as an echo, but he s meant to be Kermit the Frog.
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I think he single-handedly is maybe killed by mental health now.
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Don t do that.
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Don t do that.
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Don t do that.
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Well, Ash.
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You re doing... Ash, I think you re doing great.
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I think you re doing great, dude.
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Is there anything else you want to say to the people at the computer before we go?
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Everything s a choice.
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That s it.
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That s it.
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Nice to meet you, Ash.
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Thank you for talking to a gecko.
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I appreciate it.
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Of course.
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Have a good day.
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Hey, it s me again.
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And I just wanted to say that if you want to listen to that full, listen to all the interviews that I did in Brisbane, Australia, outside of that Burger King, you can go to youtube.com slash Lyle forever, or just go click the link in the episode description and you can find the full video there.
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All right.
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That s it.
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That s the end.
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I kind of I m gonna be I don t like recording myself just like alone into my phone.
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It feels weird.
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You know, I like I like talking to people.
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I like when there s more than one person.
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I feel weird ranting to myself.
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to this phone.
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I actually, I was wondering, I m like, could I AI, could I train an AI robot to just say these parts of the podcast for me so that I don t have to do it?
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So that I can just, you know, do the talking to people and not introducing the talking to people?
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Does anyone know how to do that?
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I m not, I m probably not going to do that.
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I ll probably sound weird.
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Um, it s fun to rant at the end of the episode though, because
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I mean, this doesn t even, I m not obstructing any further content with this rant.
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This is at the end.
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I can just keep ranting for like a while and I m not in the middle.
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You can click off.
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There s nothing after this rant.
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There s no phone call or further content after this.
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This is the end of the episode.
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I don t feel, and it might drop off and I don t know if that affects the algorithm.
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I don t even care.
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I m just, I m, I m having a, you know, I m having fun.
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Ranting right now.
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I wasn t before I was kind of dreading the ranting because I was trying to think of like Something cool or funny to say but now it doesn t I don t have to I don t I m not operating under that pressure anymore because This isn t even anything This there s no pressure for me what I m saying right now to be of any amount of entertainment value It s at the end of the episode so
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There s, this is a bonus.
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This isn t, what I m doing right now is not part of an episode of anything.
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It s just a rant.
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I m hungry, I wonder what I should eat tonight.
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Honestly, honestly, talking about Burger King and Hungry Jacks and stuff, it made me wanna go get some Burger King, so I might get Burger King.
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This is not an ad for Burger King, by the way.
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This isn t anything.
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All right, thanks for listening to my podcast.
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He s teaching you how to live your life, but he s not really an expert.