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Fuck these people called me these people who I m trying to call right now.
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They called they texted me an hour ago Oh, hey, what s up, man?
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It s the gecko guy?
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You didn t say you didn t you didn t say anything just now.
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Oh, you re trying to fall asleep I Did yeah, I woke you up it sounds oh
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Yeah.
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Well, you have two options.
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I m going to hold on.
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What s your first of all, what s your name?
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Oh, yeah.
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My name is good.
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Say my name.
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I ll say my name.
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Your name, your name, your name to me is Louis.
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I m going to call you Louis.
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Louis, you have two options.
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You can either.
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I mean, actually, you have infinite options, but I m going to pretend like you have two options.
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You can either go back to sleep and hang up or you could talk to me.
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Uh, you know what?
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I ll, uh, yeah, I ll spend some time.
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How close were you?
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You were really close to falling asleep before I called you back.
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I actually was.
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I didn t even know who was calling me.
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I m just like, who the fuck is calling me?
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And I m like, oh shit.
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It s the therapy gecko.
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Are you sweating right now?
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Huh?
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Not gonna lie, maybe.
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Are you sweating?
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No, not at the moment, but I think I was on the brink.
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Um, do you, do you normally have trouble falling asleep or are you a sleepy little guy?
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I guess it depends.
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There s some things or there s some requirements that need to be met before I can go to sleep.
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Do you have fucked up dreams?
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Uh, also depend.
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Louis, you texted me and you said that Counter-Strike is killing my friendships.
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Um, yeah, it really is.
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You would not be wrong.
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How so?
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I m not going to lie.
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So basically throughout my whole entire life, I ve, uh, usually they ve been video game.
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I play a lot of video games.
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Sorry for like stuttering and stuff.
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I kind of just woke up and now I m telling my story that I was going to tell.
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Um,
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but I played a lot of competitive video games with my friends and stuff and then as like I matured and years went by I kind of grew out of that phase and I went on to play other stuff but now I m in college and all my friends go to different colleges and I don t really get to see my friends all that often and usually if I want like any sort of opportunity to like
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hang out with my friends per se.
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I play Counter-Strike.
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And I straight up would rather play alone than play with my friends sometimes.
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Why would you rather play alone with your friends?
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Are your friends annoying you or are they just kind of like getting in the way of you focusing on your game?
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It helps me.
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It helps like playing alone, not being called a retard every six seconds.
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And I know that usually, um, these type of friend groups, definitely.
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I m not sure if I was allowed to say that.
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Sorry about that.
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What do you feel when your friends call you that do you feel offended or endeared?
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Um, explain endeared.
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Sorry.
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Indeed.
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Like, is it, is it a, is it a friendly phrase to you or is it, are you offended by it?
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It s not my first time being called it, but like, wait, like when just like nags at you, it s a little offensive sometimes.
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Okay.
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Um... Because I am actually, like, a little neurodivergent.
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I have a diagnosis.
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But... Oh.
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I don t know.
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I m sorry to hear that, man.
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Are your friends trying to be mean to you?
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I don t know, man.
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Like, this is what I ve kind of been, like, questioning throughout the years.
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It s because, like, I ve... Despite all of these, like, insults that they throw at me and shit,
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I ve actually been pretty tight with them and then there s just like moments to where like they say some of like the most fucking like horrendous shit to me and like I m been pretty stuck I m like man do these people like actually fucking like like me or am I just like a punching bag for him and that s kind of like the been the big debate for me for like the past years I ve been friends with these guys and if
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If I m actually not friends with these guys, then holy shit, I have been alone for a really long time.
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And if I m friends with these guys, I m like, holy, like, what do I do?
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You know what I m saying?
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How long have you been friends with these guys for?
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Um, well, they started off as my brother s friends.
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And, uh, since they usually come over and meet me, um, I kind of transitioned in their friends.
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So it s been like, I m a college freshman now.
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I met them in like fifth grade.
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Are you guys in a group chat together?
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Uh, I was.
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Not anymore.
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You left the group chat!
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I did.
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Why d you leave the group chat, Louis?
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I m gonna be real with you now.
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Yeah.
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It was just like a bunch of irrelevant shit on there, and like... It was like a Snapchat group chat, so... Yeah, yeah.
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Do you... I mean, point blank, do you like these guys?
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You know, a part of me does, man.
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Like, I really do like these guys.
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I enjoy hanging out with them.
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I m not sure if I m taking this shit too personally.
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Because sometimes, I haven t known for doing that, I do take shit, like, way too personally.
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And I probably should.
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And then there s some phases, I m like, dude, are you guys joking?
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Or are you guys being for real, you know?
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Yeah, dude.
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Aw, man.
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Well, I mean, there s a few, I feel like there s a few things at play here.
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One, the most important thing that I m thinking about that s at play here is that you, what are you, 19?
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Yeah.
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Okay.
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And you just went to college?
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Yep, freshman year.
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Okay.
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You know, look, your friendships aside, and whether or not you want to stay friends with these guys,
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Um, before we even talk about that, like what s going on with you in college?
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Are you making new friends?
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Are you putting yourself out there?
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Ooh, man.
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Well, in college, I mean, I m not like, you know, closing myself off with anybody.
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I obviously like talk to other people and stuff, but, um, I wouldn t really say those were like my friends.
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I remember talking to some like, uh, I don t know who it was, but
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I remember saying, like, I talk to these people a lot, but like, at the same time, I really want to, like, you know, open myself up to them, because I don t really want them to, like, know me and stuff.
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And then I just get- Are you referring to the Counter-Strike people, or these new people at college?
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Uh, the new people, I bet.
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Okay, yeah.
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Why don t you want them to know you?
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I don t know, man.
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Like, it feels, like, invasive, but, like, in that way, I won t, like, make any friends and shit.
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Is that a fear you ve always had of being afraid of people knowing you?
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A little bit.
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My dad, I won t try and leak anything, but I remember throughout life, and especially during his wedding, because we just got married, all these people were coming up to me.
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He was like, hey man, how have you been, man?
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I ve seen your entire life on Facebook.
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Great, I just met you and you already know more about me than I do about you.
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Well, okay, what the fuck are you posting on Facebook?
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I m not posting anything, my dad is.
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Oh, okay, yeah, sure, sure, sure.
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Yeah, no, I get it, it can be kind of annoying when some like, when like your second cousin comes up to you or something and starts pretending like they know you.
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And you re like, I don t know who you are.
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It s not even my second cousin either.
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It s literally just random people from my dad s work, like 30 year old white people.
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He was like, hey man, how was it?
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I was like, I ve seen your entire life story.
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I m like, that s great.
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And I ve only recently told my dad, like, please, can you like ask me before you like put me on your Facebook and stuff?
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Yeah.
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Because he s a little infamous.
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Oh, go ahead.
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I was just gonna say about your kind of situation as a whole.
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I haven t thought about this in a while, but I feel like I used to say this on the podcast a lot, like, you know, the friends that you have when you re in like high school, they kind of, or like the early relationships you have, they kind of like,
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Form your idea of what a relationship should be which can be a little um Which could be a little dangerous because your friends are always like you know Insulting you and fucking with you you can you know develop this thing where it s like oh in every friendship that I m ever going to have my whole life people are going to Insult me and fuck with me which is not necessarily true And I don t I m not gonna say from the information that you ve given me that your friends don t like you or a bad person
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people.
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You know, I don t I don t know if if I have enough.
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I don t know.
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I don t know if we have enough information to make that.
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You know, assumption, you know, and you can you can drive yourself fucking crazy making assumptions as to whether or not people like you.
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But I don t know.
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But then again, I m like,
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You should know, right?
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If these are your boys, you should know, like, these are my boys.
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I should, but, like, I ll actually, like, they ll sometimes, although I ll meet up with them, like, recently, because my dad got married and all, I met up with a few of them.
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One brought his girlfriend, one came straight from university.
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And I ll admit, like, it wasn t, like, terrible having them, no, excuse me, over, but at some
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Moments it felt like there s like a stranger in my house and shit, and I m like I didn t I don t know what to fucking do and that s sometimes what it feels like when they come over, but like despite that like I know that I kind of get like something positive about it because We re not playing like video games together and shit and like we re not they re not like Treating everything like their whole fucking life s on the line Are um would you consider yourself an introverted guy I?
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Definitely not like very extroverted, but I m not like too introverted.
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So I d say I m definitely on the introverted spectrum side, I think.
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Yeah.
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How many people are in this group?
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Well, the ones that I usually see, it s like maybe like two, three, maybe like four people, I guess.
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And this is the Counter-Strike people or the college people?
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Kind of straight people.
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I don t really have any like College people.
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I m very tight with you.
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I just have people I know and people that help me and my college stuff Yeah, do you have like a bet do you have a best friend out of this gang like someone you re like alright Well that guy that s my that s my boy Yeah, man Dude, he moved a while ago and like our only connection was video games and stuff and
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And um, I don t know how the fuck we are still friends, but like I know I m really tight with this guy, but the thing is that I haven t heard from him, well I ve only heard from him like slightly, but he s like really fed up with college and shit, and I understand, so he doesn t really like hang out with me that much anymore, which I understand.
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It s not, I don t think it s anything personal with God, I really hope not, but from what I ve seen, he s just like fed up with college and like life and shit.
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When you said God, I really hope not.
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I just, um... I just want you to know, like, you, I... Don t... Don t drive yourself crazy thinking about whether or not people like you.
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You know, you can really, um... You can really make yourself unhappy doing that, I think.
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Yeah, my mom, like, I remember one time in my life, my mom was calling me a crazy, like, people pleaser, and she was like,
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Dude, if you continue, like, have this people-pleaser mentality, you will go fucking crazy.
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Right, of course, yeah, 100%.
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Um... Let me ask you this, are you- So, back- I mean, back to- away from- We re kind of going back and forth here, but away from the Counter-Strike guys and into college, do you want- do you want to make friends?
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Obviously, yeah, I do, but, like... Fuck, man, it s, like... scary.
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The college I go- I m not gonna, like, drop any, like, work or college or stuff, I m gonna try to, like,
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Avoid that, come close a few times.
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The type of college I go to, it s not usually my age group.
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Obviously you ll find that age group there, but it varies.
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There s my age group, then it jumps up to people in their 30s or 40s.
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That s funny when I was in college when I was in college I had some friends in their 30s and 40s because I was in the Comedy scene and that was like, you know, it was like 18 year olds hanging out with like 45 year old twice divorced guys doing doing their bits and stuff.
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It s fun You know, I you re actually not talking to you I m thinking about when I was you said you re a freshman Freshman.
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Yes, sir
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I m thinking about when I was a freshman.
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When I was a freshman, I struggled to make friends a lot.
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Like, the freshman year of college was really fucking hellish, dude.
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Because I didn t have any friends.
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And it wasn t until, um, sophomore year that I started getting really into comedy and doing that stuff that I started to make friends.
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And I learned that the best way to make friends and form a community around you
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And I don t know if this is your speed, I don t know what you re game for, but the best way to do it is to find a community of people that already exists
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and find a way to add value to that community or if that community of people doesn t exist you create it you know so like could you theoretically go on the you know let s say you attend toilet paper university
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Could you go on the Toilet Paper University Class of 2028 Facebook page?
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This is what I did.
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And you post, like, hey, I m doing a LAN Counter-Strike night at the student center.
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You know, come on through.
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There ll be, you know, at least five other dudes that come through and play games.
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You know, like, if you really want to be like, fuck it, I m putting myself out there, I m gonna, like,
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be entrepreneurial about this and really do something, you could give that a go.
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I know it s hard, I know it s scary to put yourself out there like that, but, you know, I mean, on a personal level, that s what worked for me.
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Yeah, I mean, there are some groups, especially, I know video games aren t my whole spiel, but they ve kind of been definitely a big part of my life forever.
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like but I m not like the whole eSports things like I said I don t I don t like really competitive games anymore and it doesn t don t it didn t have to be video it didn t have to be that you know I the the main thing I know about you is video games I m sure you have other like things that you re interested in oh yeah but I mean like I mean fucking like what uh what you want me to name stuff yeah
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I train in boxing and I do a lot of that stuff.
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I fuck with that heavy.
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Oh Shit like combat sports in general.
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I really love dude.
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All right.
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Why didn t you tell me that at the beginning?
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You got to do a fight club My friend
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He started something similar to that at his own university.
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Dude, do Fight Club.
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By the way, when it comes- I feel like also when it comes to, like, guys, like, nothing fucking brings two people- nothing brings two guys closer together than beating the fucking shit out of each other, because afterwards they really- it really- there s some- I don t- there s some chemical released in the brain after two guys beat the shit out of each other that makes them just want to, you know, kiss.
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Yeah, I actually get what you re saying, man.
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I remember getting knocked out and stuff, but like, and the guy who knocked me out, he was like, I don t know, man.
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He came up to me and he was like, damn, you re crying because you felt really bad.
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And he s saying like, there s nothing personal against you, man.
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You fight really well.
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I like you and all that stuff.
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I m like, all the people that I spar with, man, it s always just like in that moment.
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And then once you re out of it, like, you re friends and shit.
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See, that s another thing you can do is you can let a bunch of people beat the shit out of you and then they ll feel sorry for you and be your friend.
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Man, I can t really do that without any form of self-defense, but...
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You know, I kind of, that s definitely a good point.
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Um, but yeah, look, man, all that, all that s to say, and this is, this is from, you know, a deep sense of personal experience with, with this whole thing.
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Um, is that if, if you have the drive to like put yourself out there and like create something that, that puts you around other people, then, you know, it s, it s a lock.
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So, I mean, that s just what I, that s just something, something, you know, I mean, you don t have to go out and,
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You know, form a thing immediately.
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You can if you want to, you should, but, uh, you know, just something, something I would chew on as you, as you fall asleep.
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Um, three hours later, because I ve interrupted your REM cycle.
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Oh God, I really don t hope it s three hours later, but I think I can knock myself out pretty fast.
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What s your name again?
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Louis.
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Uh, it s not Louis.
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Uh, but it s no, go ahead.
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All right.
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What is it?
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I think Louis is a good name for me.
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I like it.
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Uh, Louis, man, I m, I m, I m glad I got to talk to you.
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I like talking about this subject.
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Cause again, uh, you know, it s, it s something I ve, I ve dealt with.
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Is there anything in particular you want to say to the people of the computer before we go?
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Um, wow.
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I remember.
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Hearing you say to a set of people, I didn t know what I d say.
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Uh, forgive people because if you don t, then it s going to be a huge waste of time in the past.
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Just thinking like, Oh, fuck that guy.
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When you could have just been hanging out this whole time, I guess.
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Have beautiful, sweet dreams, Louis.
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All right.
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Thanks.
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I appreciate it, man, for calling me.
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Take care, man.
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Thanks for talking to me instead of sleeping.
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Bye.
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All right.
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Let s see you.
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I had a dream the other night that I went with Optimus Prime to his house, where he was roommates with Jon Lovitz, and they were both really religious.
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I said that on the podcast before, but I thought I would say that again.
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Hello?
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Hey, what s up, man?
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Hey, is this... Is this Bryce?
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Yeah, is this the Gek?
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SPEAKER_01
Yeah, what s up, man?
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How s it going, Geck?
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Actually, it s going pretty good.
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I m feeling in the zone, baby.
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That s good, man.
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So, I stumbled across your content maybe like a month ago, and I have something that I want to tell your viewers that I ve never told anybody else.
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Okay.
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So, and I don t know, I ve never came to anybody with this problem, but
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The only other person who knows is my girlfriend.
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And sometimes spicy food and sour food is a little too hot for me.
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So I ll have her pre-chew it and kind of baby bird it into my mouth.
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And is that weird?
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I love hot food and I love spicy food, but, or sour food and hot food.
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But sometimes, dude, it just fucks me up.
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So you ll have your girlfriend chew it and spit it into your mouth?
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Just a little bit, not a lot.
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Just just enough to, like, take the coating off of it.
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And the thing is, dude, I m a huge stoner, too.
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So it s like you should like spicy food and sour food and candy.
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But it s it s rough.
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And I do like it.
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I like it a lot.
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But it just fucks me up.
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makes my face hurt real bad and hot food just destroys my stomach if I don t have her do it.
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And I could rinse it off underwater, right?
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But I feel like that s gross putting tap water on it.
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At least her mouth has the same thing as my mouth.
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How often is she doing this for you?
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Probably at least once a week.
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We ve been together for six years, probably once a week for the past three years.
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Um, I know.
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Listen, Jack, I know it s a lot to take in.
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I know.
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Has she told anyone about it?
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No, of course not.
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No, no.
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She s a great woman.
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Okay.
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Why are you so, um, you know, embarrassed about this?
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Well, have you ever heard of anybody else doing it?
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Well, I, you know, look, do you, do you, do you make out with your girlfriend?
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Yes, absolutely.
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Do you put your tongue in her mouth?
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Yes, absolutely.
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Yes.
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Do you, do you, do you lick all around her mouth with your tongue?
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I mean, I do more than that, but yeah.
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So, I mean, look, theoretically, you re licking up all the same stuff that you would be eating with her chewed food.
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So is it gross on paper?
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Yes.
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But when you really think about it, you know, you re not doing anything new.
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I m so happy that you see this the same way I do, Geck.
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Do you ever chew food for her?
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No, she doesn t she doesn t really have that problem.
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That s why she s kind of and that s the thing it was kind of her idea to start with and I was kind of standoffish at first and she s like, let s just try it And so I tried it and it ended up being like the key to it Do you think the water do you think shit?
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I ve tried water and all that and I just don t like it dude, is this something you were her like get off to I
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No, no, it s nothing like that.
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It s just, it s just, she loves me very much.
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You know what I mean?
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Is that too much love?
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Does she spit it directly into your mouth?
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Um, I don t like, I don t want her spit on my hands.
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You know what I mean?
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So, I mean, kinda.
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Wait, wait, wait.
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You don t want her spit on your hands?
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Well, that s the thing about it is I don t, is, well, I mean, I don t want to talk about anything sexual or anything like that, but I don t want her to regurgitate the food into my hands.
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You know what I mean?
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I d rather it just go straight to where my spit is.
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Are you with your girlfriend right now?
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I am.
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Can I talk to her?
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Yeah, you can.
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Kaylee, are you cool?
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Mm-hmm.
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Here you go, guys.
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Hello?
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Hello.
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Hey, what s up, Kaylee?
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What s up?
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Tell me about baby birding food into your boyfriend s mouth.
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I mean, I was just, at first it was kind of meant to be a joke.
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I was like, hey, you want me to chew it up and put it in your mouth for you?
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You know what I mean?
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And then he was like, do you think it d work?
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And I was like, I mean, I guess I can give it a shot.
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And then I guess it just became like a thing that regularly happened.
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It became not a joke after a while.
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Huh.
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Okay.
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So do you only do it with spicy food or do you do it with any other kind of food?
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I mean, anything spicy or sour.
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Do you like doing it or do you kind of dread doing it?
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I mean, it s not that I dread doing it, but I mean,
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I mean, sometimes, you know what I mean?
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Like when I m sleeping or something, he ll wake me up, you know what I mean?
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To like snacks.
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And like that shit gets a little annoying.
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You know what I mean?
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So I get a little pissed sometimes.
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He ll wake you up in the middle of the night to chew his food for him?
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I mean, not necessarily in the middle of the night, but if like I m sleeping in that morning, you know what I mean?
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And he s up a little bit earlier and he s eating.
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And it happens to be spicy or sour.
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Yeah, there s been times where he s woken me up like, hey babe, will you wake up and help me out real quick?
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And how do you feel when he does that?
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I mean, those times it does get a little irritating.
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But I mean, I guess it s not any more irritating as him asking me to get him a bowl of cereal or something when he s too lazy to get up.
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I guess I just kind of looked at it as one of the downfalls of a committed relationship.
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I can be a lot worse.
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You ve had a lot worse relationships.
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Point.
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I don t know if I would call that a good point, but do you also not tell anyone about this?
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No.
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Honestly, I m a little afraid of judgment.
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Interesting.
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Would you be embarrassed if anyone found out?
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Yeah, probably.
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Maybe a little, yeah.
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Do you ever chew food and spit it into his mouth?
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No.
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Is this like a kink thing for you guys at all?
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No.
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least not for me.
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How often do you do it?
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I mean it s not like an everyday thing but anytime like we re at the gas station and I mean we re looking for snacks and he might be in the mood for like a bag of Takis or like some sour
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skittles or something like that you chew the entire bag of sour skittles and I mean not the entire bag but I mean however much he s in the mood for eating in that time yeah does this make you guys feel closer together absolutely I was asking her I m so sorry that is codependent
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I mean, yeah.
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How closer can you get, I guess?
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I guess we are closer than most couples out there.
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All right.
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Is this something you guys would like to continue doing?
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I mean, I guess if there was a way around it, it s not like I would love to do it.
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to do.
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How s everything going in your relationship otherwise?
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I mean, pretty good.
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We re recovering fentanyl addicts.
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So the last year has been a whole new path for us after getting sober.
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and clean because the first four and a half years of our relationship, we were high and using together.
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So it s been a whole new ballgame the past year, just figuring out what our relationship is sober.
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How long have you guys been together for?
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Six years this Christmas Eve.
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Nice.
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And did you meet through fentanyl and drugs and stuff?
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He was into drugs before he met me.
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I was kind of just starting to branch out.
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I smoked weed at a young age, but I was just kind of starting to branch out into pain pills and things like that.
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And we met through one of his family members.
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So not really met through drugs, but sort of.
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And you guys were getting high together for four years.
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Yeah.
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What was the, um, the, the impetus or driving force for getting sober?
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Well, we got arrested and I had never been in any legal trouble before.
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And while I was in jail that night, our apartment burnt to the ground.
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Um, it had nothing to do with us.
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They said it was, uh, a figure I bought was thrown out.
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And it got up into the lining of the house and caught the house on fire.
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So when I got out to absolutely nothing and no place to live and no house, it kind of urged me to get my life together.
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But Bryce was still in jail at the time.
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So instead of getting my life together, I kind of lost my shit for a bit.
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And he got out of jail and was like, we got to get our shit together.
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So we decided to get sober.
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Was it difficult?
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It was, it was definitely a leap of faith.
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Uh, we moved from our hometown in Indiana all the way across the country to California to go to detox and get sober.
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Are you glad you did it?
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I am very glad we did it.
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So many people died.
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I had friends and family dying in my hometown and my, my life has just fallen apart.
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I finally decided to get sober and in a couple months we re actually being made house manager.
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So,
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Things are actually looking up.
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You know, in light of everything you guys are telling me, baby birding spicy food into this guy s mouth doesn t seem all that bad.
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I guess you re right.
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What do you guys do?
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You guys have been clean for two years?
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We ve been clean for almost a year now.
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Cool.
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Um, how s everything going in your individual lives?
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Pretty well, pretty well.
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I ve been coming out of my show a lot more lately.
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I, I making friends and I m trying to get him out of the show and starting to make friends, but a little bit harder in my individual life.
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I feel like I find myself sitting at home all day, watching YouTube videos of things that I should be doing.
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but I don t do, and I constantly find myself in a fit of rage for the smallest things.
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Okay, like what?
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Like, if you slightly annoy me, my overreaction will be dramatic.
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If something goes wrong in the day, my overreaction could be dramatic.
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It s weird.
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I ve grown up on drugs my whole entire life,
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So coming off them as a young, I m 23.
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So coming off them as a young adult, I don t know how to deal with emotion.
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Hmm.
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When you say you re watching YouTube videos of things you should do, what are these YouTube videos?
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Um, you know, like inspirational videos, just things that you, that you can change your life easily, whether it s an, whether it s an Andrew Tate inspirational video,
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or a Sam Hyde inspirational video, they call out the things that I m doing that I shouldn t be, but I just continue to do.
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Bryce, are you fucking with me?
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Absolutely not.
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What do you mean?
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Dude, what kind of Sam Hyde inspirational videos are you watching?
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Okay, so like the one where he says, don t smoke weed, weed s for losers.
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You know what I mean?
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But I love weed and it s hard not to smoke weed.
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And some people don t like Sam Hyde.
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I understand that.
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I just want him to fight iDubbbz, honestly.
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What do you, Bryce, what do you, like, what do you want to do?
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What are you trying to be inspired to do?
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Honestly, it d be my ultimate dream would be a successful YouTube channel with Kaylee.
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Me and her kind of want to be nomads and live van life and venture out.
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You know what I mean?
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But I mean, I ll be honest with you, Gag.
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I have something holding me back and it s a warrant in my home state.
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And it s like, I got that warrant because I came out here to California to get sober and I was supposed to go back.
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But I knew if I went back, I would just continue getting high and end up in prison.
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So I stayed in California.
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So if I ever get picked up, there s always that hanging over my head.
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What about Kaylee, you said your name was?
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Yeah.
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What s your dream, Kaylee?
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Do you want to do all that, travel and make videos and whatnot?
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See, my dream is more of the
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Bravo and Nomad life and his thing is more of the making videos in YouTube and there s all these people out there You know doing it together.
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So What we re already in a relationship.
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So why not mix our dreams and make it a reality?
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Okay All right, I ll bite Bryce what what kind of Andrew Tate videos are you watching I
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So, man, I wish I could find the user.
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They re always very well edited and it s just his very good bulletin points.
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Just those.
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Where s my remote?
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I wish I knew that YouTuber s name right now.
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I was just now recently watching the one where his workout routine in prison.
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He said that the guards were trying to break his spirit, so he did push-ups at them.
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I wish that I could have that drive.
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He said he did push-ups at them?
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At them.
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And I know how fucking alpha of you, but... It s just that type of drive that sits in my body that I wish I could let out sometimes.
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Drive for what?
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Just to be a better person.
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Now that I ve gotten sober, I don t want to just sit by and waste my years.
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I feel like life is very important to figure out something that you love to do and do that.
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What does being a better person look like to you?
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A better boyfriend, always.
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I always feel like I can improve there.
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A better role model to people.
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A better son.
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I did my mom dirty in all kinds of ways.
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And a laugh.
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I like to make people laugh.
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Okay.
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What do you both do for work?
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So right now, since we have been recovering and I m transferring states, I have been working on getting my birth certificate and everything like that so I can get a job here.
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But I m about to get this house manager job in my program.
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And that s awesome.
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That will keep me sober for a long time.
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And I can help a lot of people that way.
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But I don t know if I want to settle and do that my whole life.
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What about you, Kaylee?
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Hold on.
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Let me get her.
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What was the question?
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Oh, I was asking, uh, well, actually, I kind of forget what the question was.
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Uh, I was asking kind of like what, well, I, I m kind of just trying to get a hold of like what your guys is.
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Oh, well, I think I asked you what I asked, uh, Bryce, what being a better person looks like.
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So I ll ask the question to you.
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Being a better person for me looks like.
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right now.
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I guess for me, it looks like becoming more motivated in my life because I have all of these things and it s not like big life-changing things that I want to do but let s say for example, I want to clean my room or do my makeup that day and I really want to get up and do it but I just can t find the
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the motivation to get my lazy ass up out of bed and do the things I want to do.
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It s like, Oh, you know what I mean?
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What s the point of doing my makeup today when I m not planning on doing anything when really I just wanted to do it to make myself feel better.
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And I know that, but I ll kind of cock myself out of it.
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Like, yeah, no.
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So I guess being a better person for me is finding the motivation to do the little things that make me happier in life.
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Do you, um,
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I know that Bryce said he s working on being a house manager.
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Do you have a gig that you do right now?
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Yeah, not currently.
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Really, since I ve gotten sober.
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I mean, I was 16 when I started using drugs, so I didn t really get a chance to grow up or figure out what I really wanted to do in life.
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So I ve really just kind of worked at restaurants here and there and things like that in my time.
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So I m still trying to figure out what I really want to do.
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I know that I want to work in treatment, at least for a short-term goal, and try to help other recovering addicts that, you know what I mean, are still in their addiction.
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Because I ve always had, like I said, I grew up in a small town and drugs overtook that little town.
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And I always felt bad for all of us.
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friends and acquaintances that I have to leave behind in my addiction to get over and make my life better.
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So I guess my goal would be to work in treatment and try to save as many people that I could.
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That s good.
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I look, it sounds like both of you guys have a positive goals that you re working towards.
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I don t know if you guys believe that about yourselves.
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I really appreciate that because being recovery at recovering addicts and being so new in our recovery.
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I mean, we like to think that we re doing the right thing and we re making all the right decisions, but you re never really sure being a recovering addict.
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You re never really sure if it s, if you re doing good enough in your life now to atone for all the things you did in the past.
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What, what, what are you unsure about?
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I don t know, I guess I was just, I guess I ve just been unsure if I m really trying hard enough to make my life better, I guess.
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Or if I m just kind of riding the wave.
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Well, I mean, look, you got sober, which is a hard thing to do.
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You have goals and desires.
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I mean, I don t know you guys that well, but it sounds like to me that you re
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um, moving forward in a, in a productive manner.
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I really appreciate that.
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For sure.
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Um, is Bryce still there?
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Yes, here he is.
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Did you want to talk to Bryce or did you want to continue with Kaylee?
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Uh, I don t know.
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Well, we started this talking about fucking, uh, sour Skittles.
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And, uh, this, this conversation has gotten much deeper than I anticipated it would.
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Um, well, that s the thing you re, you re, you re, you ask the right questions.
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I guess, is there anything else that you guys wanted to talk about?
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Um, when are you going on tour again?
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Uh, probably in 2024.
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Listen, Bryce, I m going to say that I didn t want to get into this whole thing.
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Cause I just don t, I m not going to like, I m not going to sit, I m not going to sit here and have this whole discussion, but, uh, be careful with the Andrew Tate, Sam Hyde shit.
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All right.
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Oh, well, I mean, Andrew Tate s a terrible person, and I mean, Sam Hyde s done more than less savory things on the internet and said some more or less savory things.
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I m saying the success and drive.
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If I had that type of power, I wouldn t use it like that.
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Is there anything else you guys want to say to the people at the computer before we go?
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Hey, um...
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I love you, Twitch.
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I love my juicers.
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What s a juicer?
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It s a XQC watcher.
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SPEAKER_00
It s a what watcher?
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SPEAKER_00
Oh, XQC.
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SPEAKER_00
I don t really know anything about XQC.
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I know he plays a lot of chess.
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SPEAKER_04
Yeah, I mean, he s pretty good at chess.
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Well, um, good luck to you.
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You guys seem like nice people and, uh, you know, give yourselves some credit.
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Cause I, you know, it sounds like you both started out in pretty, um, uh, you know, fucked up circumstances and you, you both seem to have pretty, um, positive outlooks on life and desires to change for the better.
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So, um, you know, keep, keep following.
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They were less than favorable and, um,
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And we were, we were really lost in this conversation.
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It s helped us a lot.
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Good.
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Thank you, Geck.
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Thank you.
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Yeah, of course.
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Take care guys.
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You too.
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Later Geck.
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Okay.
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The idea of trying to do pushups at somebody is undeniably funny though.
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I like those guys.
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They seemed, they seemed nice.
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Hey guys, it s Lyle here.
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Call from... Dalton.
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Hello?
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Hello?
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Dalton, what s up?
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What up, Mr. Gecko?
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I am just doing little lizard stuff.
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What s going on with you, Dalton?
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Dude, I don t even know where to start, man.
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I just moved 2,300 miles away from my original hometown.
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Congrats.
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And it s kind of a big step for me.
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I m only 20.
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So it s kind of a big jump for myself.
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Did it all in my little car.
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What was the impetus for this 2300 mile move?
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I d say just my current living situation.
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Interesting.
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How old s your brother?
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He s twenty-five.
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Twenty-four.
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Alright.
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Alright, so he s a little bit older.
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What s, uh... What s... How long has he been out wherever you are?
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He s been out here for a couple of years.
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We have a plan on getting our own place here in about a year or so.
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He s staying out here with, like, family, friend kind of deal thing.
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Oh, so you re... Are you staying with him who s staying with a family friend?
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Kind of thing, yeah.
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Alright.
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Um... Can I ask where you guys are?
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Yeah, sure.
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It s, uh, East coast, Pennsylvania.
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Cool.
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So you moved from the West coast, I assume.
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Yeah.
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Arizona.
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And, um, what do you do out there?
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Do you, did you line up a job at all?
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Yeah.
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Car, just car stuff.
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Cool.
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What s your brother do?
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Same thing.
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Car stuff as well.
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Did he get you a car job?
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Yeah, basically, yeah.
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Which I m very fortunate of.
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He works for a pretty cool company, Porsche.
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Right on the money, brother.
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Right on it, yeah.
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Exactly.
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We got one other, both like mother and father, sibling and a couple of like half.
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Are you friends?
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Are you, are you close with any of the haves or with the other whole?
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The other whole hundred percent.
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Yeah.
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We, uh, she s out on the west side and still, she got her own like stuff going on, but, uh, the half, not so much.
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Are you all sort of united in a commiseration over your childhoods?
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Yeah, we all, yeah, we all reminisce of our old fucked up childhood.
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Now that we re getting back on our own paths and stuff getting way better than what we were brought into.
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Hmm.
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That s cool, man.
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That s good that you had older siblings, because then you didn t have to... Well, I mean, not to discredit you, you made a large jump that I m sure was very difficult, but it must have been nice to have older siblings that did it first, so there was sort of a path laid out of some kind.
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No, 100%.
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Without them, yeah, I would have been lost for sure.
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How are you feeling now?
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It s a little shell-shock overwhelming, but overall pretty good.
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I m excited for my new journey and what awaits for me.
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Mm-hmm.
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Tell me about this new journey.
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What awaits for you?
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Well, also, I ve left out like a big detail as well.
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I got out of like a two-year relationship right before I moved.
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So like, yeah, that s...
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That was also a big, like, hard thing to, like, leave.
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That was, like, one of the main things holding me there still.
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How long were you with this person for?
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Two years.
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Okay.
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Hmm.
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Do you... Did it end sort of amicably, or how did it end?
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It was... I want to say bad, neither good.
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I mean, it wasn t any, it wasn t anything super terrible.
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It was kind of mutual and yeah.
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Um, we just went the way that like the contact went about it and like the no contact afterwards went about it was like super weird and like found out she also was like fucking with like real close homies of mine and everything like super right after we broke up and everything.
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So like, yeah, it was super weird.
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Hmm.
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What s your friend s situation like?
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Are you still good friends with any of the folks back in... You said Arizona?
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Yeah.
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Are you still good friends with any of the Arizona folks?
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Just a couple.
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Not very many.
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Most of them... Not the ones that are fucking with your girlfriends?
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Exactly.
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Yeah, most of them are like mutual friends and shit.
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So like every time I go and talk to them, I m hearing about that bitch.
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And it s like, bro...
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This is not why I m friends with you.
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Now, what about in Pennsylvania?
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What s your social life look like now?
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Nothing right now, bro.
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Like, not a whole lot of anything.
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Um, just, yeah, not a whole lot of anything.
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Just getting settled here myself and yeah, getting like all my legal shit switched over like driver s license and registration for the car and whatnot.
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Hmm.
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Yeah, it s hard to make that whole transition and then like, cause you gotta, you gotta parse it out.
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If you try to do all of your legal shit and get a house and get a whole friend group and a new girlfriend and a new job and eternal happiness all in one week, you re gonna, that s too much pressure.
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Exactly.
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Yeah.
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So yeah, I m not too much of a social life.
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I m kind of just more focused on me.
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and what I got going on and shit.
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It s a lot.
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What s your brother s family friends deal?
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That s, oh man, that s a, it s a whole lot of stuff.
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He met, so it s not even like, it s their family now.
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Cause how close he s got with them and how amazing people they are.
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And he met these people through like when he was in school and college, when he came out here on the jump that he made.
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and met this really cool friend with this really cool family and flash forward a few years, here we are.
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Nice, nice.
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Are you, have you become close with them too?
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Very, yeah.
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They re super, super awesome.
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They re super cool people.
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It s very cool of them to like let your brother crash on their couch and then have your brother be like, Hey, can my brother crash on your couch too?
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And they re like, yeah.
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Type shit.
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Yeah.
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Well, if they have a really big, beautiful home and
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They had a bunch of kids living here like a few years ago and they all moved on to like colleges and stuff.
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So they were like more than happy to have us come.
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How do you guys know these people?
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He met them through when he was in school, when he was in college, a college friend.
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Word.
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And so you re 20, right?
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Did you ever want to go to college or do anything like that?
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Or were you always trying to just go straight into, into life?
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See, I ve been, I was forced to just be straight into life since like 15, 16, probably even younger.
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So like, yeah, I haven t really thought of that.
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I haven t been in that position too, but I m sure like,
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One day, if I get in the financial rim of that, I would love to, but yeah.
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Do you have some kind of like ultimate thing that you want to pursue or do?
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Many things.
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Many, many things.
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I m like, I ve just watched one of your videos of the motorcycle dude.
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Yeah.
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I m a bit like motorcycle dude.
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Like, uh... I hope you re not too much like motorcycle dude.
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He s a cool guy, but he s, you know... I ll backtrack, I ll backtrack.
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That s too much like motorcycle man, okay?
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He has some pretty wild attributes going on for himself, but no, no, no, no.
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Just in the speed demon sense and riding motorcycles.
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Do you like to ride motorcycles?
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Love to, yeah.
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That was the, when I said, I hope you re not too much like motorcycle guy.
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That was the one thing I was referring to.
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Although that was a dumb thing of me to say, because if you say you re like motorcycle guy and then I go, well, I hope not the part of motorcycle guy that likes motorcycles, but yet we re referring to him as motorcycle guy.
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It s like, what other fucking part of him would you be referring to?
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So.
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Yeah.
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True that.
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True that.
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Yeah.
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I love motorcycles.
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I love adrenaline stuff.
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I go to raves and shit.
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I m super excited for raves out here.
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I see you do that electric forest thing you go to.
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Yeah, I did electric forest back in the summer and it was really awesome.
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Yeah.
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So I m super
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excited for some East Coast raves and stuff.
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Where in Pennsylvania are you?
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Westchester.
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Westchester!
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How far, how, I know people who are like from there.
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How close is that to Philly?
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Like, not even an hour.
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Like right under an hour.
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Have you ever been to Philadelphia?
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Oh yeah.
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I love going to Philly, bro.
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There s nothing like a Philly cheesesteak from Philly.
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Yeah, Philly s a great city, man.
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Love it.
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Well, look, dude, I think, uh, first of all, big up on you.
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I m glad that you made the decision to get the fuck out.
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Right.
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Cause you could have just stayed.
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It would have been more comfortable for you to stay, but you got out and now you re, um, uh, I mean, even if things are in sort of a transitionary period right now, it sounds as though they re going to iron out and you ll be glad you left.
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So good on you for that.
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Thank you, sir.
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Is there any other things?
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It s okay if not, but is there anything else like kinda going on or anything else that you wanna talk about or say to the people at the computer?
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Yeah, not exactly, brother.
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Not exactly.
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I m really grateful to talk to you.
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I ve tried to call you about thousands of times, so I m glad to reach to you once.
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And it was nice speaking to you.
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Yeah, nice speaking to you too.
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That s a, that s a cool sort of recurring theme.
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I think we ve talked about on here is people trying to reinvent themselves or get away from what s comfortable and to go out on a limb like you did.
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And you know, it s not easy.
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So again, props on you.
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Thank you, sir.
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Thank you.
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Have a good night, man.
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You as well.
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Hello folks, it s Lyle here.
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That s the end of this episode, but get this, I m releasing a bonus episode this week.
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So, here s a clip from this week s members-only bonus episode.
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Lately, I ve been experiencing with dissociative disorder.
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You ve been experiencing dissociative disorder?
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Yeah, after a bad trip.
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You know, I ve seen a doctor and all, but it s a very particular state of mind.
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Where are you calling from?
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I m calling from Quebec.
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Oh, you re French.
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Okay, I thought you were fucking with me.
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That s therapygecko.supercast.com.
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Alright, I have nothing else to say.
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But he s not really an expert.