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I had an epiphany recently that for my entire life thus far, I have been trying to grow up way too fast.
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I felt this fire under my ass to grow up since I was in preschool.
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It started in preschool with wanting to find a boyfriend.
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Okay.
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Literally at three or four years old, I became obsessed with this idea of having a boyfriend because I wanted to be like the adults that I admired and all of them were in relationships.
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And so in preschool, I started having crushes on boys and I wanted to be in a relationship.
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Now that was pretty innocent and harmless.
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In middle school and high school, it got a little bit more serious.
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I still wanted to be in a relationship.
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But it was less because I admired the adults in my life, and it was more because my peers would think it was cool.
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To be mature was cool to my peers.
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I wanted to find a boyfriend.
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I wanted to have my first kiss.
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I wanted to lose my virginity.
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I wanted to do all of these things that I knew deep down I wasn t ready for.
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But I knew that my peers would praise me if I did.
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I also tried to dress more mature when I was in middle school and high school.
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You know, I really wanted to buy short shorts.
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I really wanted to buy a bra, my first real bra.
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Why?
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Because that s what all the cool, mature people were wearing.
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And why were they wearing that?
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Because they can.
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Their parents aren t telling them what to do.
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And again, wearing more mature clothing made my peers respect me more.
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In middle school and high school, I wanted to party.
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I wanted to drink alcohol, even though it was so illegal.
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I wanted to randomly get with a guy irresponsibly.
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I wanted to do the party thing.
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Why?
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Because participating in that made me cool, made me cooler to other kids.
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In middle school and high school, I wanted to be more mature to impress my peers.
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And in my early 20s, everything turned upside down.
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I wanted to be more like a real adult, like a 40 year old.
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I have this desire to retire nightlife, start focusing on settling down, finding my future husband, maybe moving in together at some point, preparing for that life.
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In my early 20s, I m talking about 20, 21, 22.
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I m 22 now.
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Everything turned upside down, and I wanted to be as adult as possible, now looking at 30 and 40-year-olds as my inspiration.
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The reason why I wanted to become more adult is because I felt like it was praised by older adults everywhere when someone in their early 20s has their shit together.
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You know, they re working on their future.
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They re retiring the nightlife.
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They re finding the person that they want to settle down with.
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They re planning to have a family.
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And I think it gets a little bit more complicated when you re in your early 20s because I actually think that that s not a terrible focus to have.
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I still believe that in a lot of ways that s a healthy focus to have if that s something that you want to do with your life.
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But I think it becomes unhealthy when you re forcing yourself to do it.
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You know, you re forcing yourself to meet your forever partner.
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You re forcing yourself to move in with them.
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You re forcing yourself to retire nightlife because you want to grow up too fast.
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If you naturally want to do those things, that s one thing.
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But if you re sort of forcing yourself to do it, then what you re really doing is just forcing yourself to grow up too fast in a way that s unnatural and unhealthy.
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And I had this sort of epiphany recently where I was like, hold on a minute.
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I m 22 years old and I m trying to live like a 35 year old, 40 year old.
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Why?
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Why am I doing that?
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Why am I not going out until five in the morning with my friends?
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Why am I not giving myself the space and room to be young and not be planning a family one day?
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Like, holy shit, wait, sorry, that s weird.
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I m too young for that.
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I don t want to have a family until I m in my late 20s.
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That s my sort of goal for myself.
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That s what feels comfortable and right for me.
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I m 22.
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Okay, I m probably not going to be in that space for another five, six years.
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That s a long fucking time.
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I need a minute to enjoy this time.
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And this epiphany also brought me back to middle school and high school.
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And I was like, why was I trying to party back then?
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You know, why was I trying to dress more mature than I was?
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Why was I doing all of these things?
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And it made me sad, actually.
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When I looked back at myself in middle school and high school, trying to grow up too fast, it s not necessarily a fond memory.
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It came with a lot of anxiety and stress and pain.
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It didn t make me happy to go to parties.
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It didn t make me happy to force myself to date boys and kiss boys and do all those things.
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It didn t make me happy to focus on my appearance and try to look more mature than I was.
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It made me very unhappy.
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I remember I forced myself to have my first kiss, New Year s Eve of freshman year.
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And it s a funny story.
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I ve told the story a million times, but basically my friends set it up for me because I was like, I need to kiss someone.
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I need to kiss someone.
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I felt so rushed.
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And they were like, well, we ll find somebody for you.
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So we ll set you up with someone.
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So they found someone who was interested and it was so set up, which is terrible.
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And I had never kissed anyone before, obviously it was my first kiss.
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And he like grabbed my butt and I like laughed during it.
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Cause I was like, what the fuck do you use?
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I just didn t even know that that was like a normal thing.
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So I laughed and he was like, why are you laughing?
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And then he laughed at me.
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Cause he was like, oh my God, she has no idea what she s doing.
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Anyway, funny story, haha.
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But the next day, I felt like I had exploited myself in a way.
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I felt like I had exploited my innocence.
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Deep down, I wasn t ready for my first kiss.
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I really wasn t.
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And I didn t even want to have my first kiss, really.
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I just felt pressured by society to do that.
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And I cried, I cried.
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I cried for like the whole day after my first kiss because I felt like I had exploited myself.
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And it was a similar thing when I would wear more mature clothing.
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You know, I d wear really short shorts or I d wear like a bra.
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I felt sort of wrong about it.
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I was like, I know deep down that this doesn t feel like me.
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I know deep down that I don t feel right.
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This is wrong.
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But I do it anyway.
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And it made me feel bad about myself.
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I felt gross.
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I felt, you know, it just felt wrong to me.
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And it s because it was, I sort of had this epiphany about all of this.
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And I was like, I m done trying to grow up too fast.
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I m 22 years old right now.
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And I m going to allow myself to enjoy it because I ve yet in my life to enjoy my age.
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Based on my research, it seems like there are two reasons why we feel the pressure to grow up too fast.
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Number one, because we lacked proper care from our parents.
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And so we were sort of forced to grow up too fast because we kind of needed to be our own parent.
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But that s not what I m going to be discussing today.
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I m going to be discussing a sort of self-inflicted pressure to grow up too fast.
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something that s almost impossible to prevent in a way.
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I don t know if there s anything parents can do to stop their children from wanting to grow up too fast.
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It s something that happens when parents aren t around.
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You know, it s the way that young people interact when it s just them together, whether it s at school or
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college or young people s first jobs or young people s friend groups, whatever it may be.
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It tends to happen without the parents around.
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And, you know, I have incredible parents who protected me and did the absolute best they could to preserve my childhood.
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But I still feel like I grew up too fast.
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I don t think that there s anything they could have done.
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They would tell me to enjoy my age.
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They would tell me to enjoy the period of life that I m in.
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But it was going in one ear and right out the other because my desire to grow up too fast couldn t be stopped by anyone or anything.
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It was coming from other kids.
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It was coming from myself.
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there was nothing that could get in the way of it.
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So today we re going to be discussing the natural desire to grow up too fast.
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So why do some of us have this natural desire to grow up too fast?
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I think a big part of it is to seem cool.
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In middle school and high school especially, the cool kids in our age group were always the ones that were the most mature.
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I m closing my eyes right now thinking of the cool kid in middle school and high school.
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And I think of a kid who is in a relationship, throws parties at their house when their parents aren t around, smokes weed way too young.
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That s the cool kid.
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The kid that s participating in mature activities, even though it s incredibly inappropriate.
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That s the cool kid.
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I also think a lot of kids feel rebellious by nature.
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We as humans don t always love being told what to do.
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In fact, we usually don t like to be told what to do.
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It feels good to rebel against your parents when you re young.
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Now I listen to my parents like Bible.
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I m like everything that they say.
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I m like, okay, you, I know that you know better than me, so please tell me, you know, but when you re a kid, you want to rebel.
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It feels fun and edgy to rebel against your parents.
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And obviously most parents tell you, hey,
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Don t go and do these mature activities.
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Don t dress too mature.
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Don t participate in mature activities.
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Don t do things that don t make sense for your age.
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Don t do that.
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Most parents clearly state those rules.
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Young people love to break rules.
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Love.
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not only does it make you seem cooler to your peers, but it also is satisfying.
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The feeling of rebellion is satisfying.
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But young adults who are in their early to mid-20s, it s cool to actually have your shit together.
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It s cool to be 25 and to be living in a cute house with your partner.
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That s cool.
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Because
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It s admirable to have your shit together at such a young age.
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It sort of switches at that age.
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It becomes cooler to be like a super mature person, right?
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I also think we feel the pressure to grow up too fast because societally, maturity is praised in one way or another.
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I think a lot of it comes down to peer pressure.
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It s about the other people in your age group.
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That s not to say that there aren t parents who try to force their kids to grow up too fast, because I think that that definitely happens, but that s sort of an extreme variable.
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What I m trying to focus on today is
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this inevitable pressure to grow up too fast.
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Having a parent who s forcing you to grow up too fast is not inevitable.
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That s actually like a toxic variable, right?
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I want to talk about the inevitability of it.
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You know, even if you have the most perfect parents and everything s going right, you re still not safe from this pressure.
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And I think the reason for that is because it comes from your peers a lot of times.
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I also think young people want to grow up so fast to finally feel independent.
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And this makes sense to me because independence is rightfully desirable.
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being able to control your own life is a really special privilege.
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Like, I don t think there s anything wrong with craving independence, because I think if we didn t have the desire for independence, we would never go and be independent, which eventually we all have to.
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So I wonder if that s something that we re biologically built to crave, and I didn t do research on it, so I ll have to, do I Google it now?
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Let me look.
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Interesting.
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Okay.
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So I was right.
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My hypothesis was right.
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So according to the nationalinstitutesofhealth.gov, there s evidence that suggests that the desire for control is not something that we acquire through learning, but rather is innate.
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You know, it s something we re born with.
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So, yeah, that sort of supports what I was saying.
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Like, we innately want to be independent because independence equals control.
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And what comes with maturity?
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More independence a lot of the times, right?
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The older we get, the more independence we acquire.
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On top of that, I think a lot of young kids are weirdly embarrassed by their lack of independence.
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They wish that they could drive themselves around, make their own rules, make their own choices, but they can t.
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And the kids who have more independence are considered cooler because it s like, oh, they re more mature.
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They re more independent.
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They have more of what I want, which is control over my life.
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They re cooler than me.
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A lot of young adults want to be as independent as possible to prove to everybody that they are truly an adult.
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They have transcended properly into adulthood.
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They re nailing it.
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They have their shit together.
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They re a proper adult and they should be treated as such.
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Because being a young adult is interesting.
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You re technically called an adult on paper, but yet people who are older than you,
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still kind of look at you as a kid.
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Like, I m 22 years old.
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People look at me as a kid.
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I m not a kid.
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I m a full adult.
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I m 22 years old.
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I can drink alcohol.
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I can have sex.
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I can drive a car.
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I pay my own taxes.
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I make my own money.
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Is my brain fully developed?
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I don t know.
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It depends.
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On average, apparently, your brain stops developing at 25.
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So yeah, on paper, I m an adult, but my elders look at me as a child because I ve barely been an adult, for one.
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And for two, my brain might not be fully developed.
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But more than anything, I d love to be seen as an adult because technically I am one, and so I want that, as do most other young adults, right?
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But a lot of times, young adults don t get that cred yet.
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You know, that s something you have to earn.
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That s why I think we want to grow up so fast.
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We want to be cool, we feel peer pressure, and we want to be independent.
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But see, it gets a little messy.
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It gets a little sticky because growing up too fast, you know, feeling this pressure to grow up too fast is kind of similar to just naturally healthily maturing.
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Growing up too fast and healthily naturally maturing have a lot of similarities in a way that makes them hard to distinguish at times.
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in order to mature into an adult, we have to feel a level of discomfort in life.
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You know, we have to feel a little fire under our ass to grow up because if we don t feel that at all, then we ll never grow up and we ll be kids forever.
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We don t want to be kids forever.
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You know, we want to become adults because that s healthy for us, right?
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So let s try to distinguish the difference between growing up too fast and naturally healthily maturing.
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I think the difference is growing up too fast is forced and usually unhealthy, whereas maturing is more natural and organic and eventually leads to a fulfilling, happy, healthy life.
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Growing up too fast is rooted in wanting to be cool, wanting to fit in, succumbing to peer pressure.
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It s not rooted in making choices that will lead to the life that you truly want to have.
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It almost has nothing to do with you as an individual.
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It s all about what other people want, what other people are doing.
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It s not about you, what you want, and what you naturally would do.
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When you re growing up too fast, you re following someone else s timeline.
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And we re all unique individuals.
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We all have a different timeline, you know what I mean, that we should be following.
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And it s sort of abstract, and it can change as time goes on.
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I also think growing up too fast tends to feel wrong in one way or another.
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It feels wrong.
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You know, in the case of middle schoolers and high schoolers, they re doing adult things that at times are even illegal because that s what makes them feel cool.
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And that s very obviously inappropriate and wrong, right?
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Like, I m so sorry, but you can t look at a 15-year-old drinking and say to yourself,
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Now that s healthy.
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You know what I m saying?
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Like, that s not good.
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And even me at 22 years old, retiring the nightlife, being a stickler about it, kind of leaving myself no room to explore it again if I wanted to, being super hyper-focused on eventually starting a family.
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You know, luckily I wasn t feeling pressure to like get married or actually have children, but rather
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feeling like, okay, I need to make this a priority to, you know, figure out what that s going to look like.
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And I don t think it was the right time for me to be doing that.
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You know, I think what I need to be doing is just experience being young and not having that commitment to life.
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You know what I m saying?
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I think I was sort of forcing myself into that mold and I don t think it was fitting.
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I m 22.
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I need to be young, dumb, and random.
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You know what I mean?
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I don t need to be not going out and like, not just enjoying being 22.
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I don t need to be planning out my fucking family at 22 years old.
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You know what I mean?
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It s like, okay, relax.
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Like, okay, my love, relax.
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You need to go out, experience a bar and a club every once in a while.
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Stay out till five in the morning, see how that feels.
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And you know, if naturally I am like, you know what, I m not
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really in a phase where I want to go out anymore.
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I m not really in a phase where I want to socialize right now.
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I m not really in a phase where I want to feel like a 22-year-old.
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I kind of want to feel like a 40-year-old. 
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Then I ll do that, but that s obviously not what I want.
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Do you see what I m saying?
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The point is, I think growing up too fast feels forced.
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It feels forced.
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It feels unhealthy.
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It feels wrong.
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In one way or another, it feels wrong.
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And that leads to a worse quality of life because when you re trying to force yourself into a mold and you don t fit, you re never going to be happy that way.
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Whereas I think a healthy rate of maturing is much more natural.
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It s much more organic.
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That s not to say that it s always fun and easy.
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You know, a lot of times we mature the most during challenging experiences, but that s the beauty of challenges in life.
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You know, it forces us to grow up a little bit and a lot of times we need that.
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I think I should distinguish a healthy challenge from an unhealthy challenge.
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I would say a healthy challenge is something normal, natural and inevitable.
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Your first breakup, losing friends, failing a test at school, like, I don t know, those types of things where it s like,
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Yeah, it s going to happen to everyone.
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I think an unhealthy challenge is some sort of trauma, some sort of unfair circumstance that nobody should have to experience.
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Unfortunately, many of us experience challenges that are unhealthy, unfair.
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I m not really referring to that right now because that s a whole other variable.
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But I m talking about a healthy rate of maturity that comes just through life s natural challenges, right?
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I think we also become more mature when we re forced to step out of our comfort zone in a way that feels right.
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As our brain develops, we suddenly have the capacity to do new things.
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And it s not always going to be comfortable.
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In fact, it s going to be scary at times, but I think it s a sign that it s the right time when you do those things and afterward you feel empowered.
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That s a sign of healthy maturity.
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You do something that s a little bit more mature, and then afterward, you re like, wait, I feel better about myself.
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Growing up too fast is when you do something because you felt like you had to, because you have this pressure to grow up too fast.
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You do this thing, and then afterwards, you feel wrong.
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You feel weird.
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You feel broken.
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You feel bad.
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You might feel more accepted by your peers, but deep down inside, you don t feel better about yourself.
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You know that that didn t feel right.
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And I think at the end of the day, maturing at a normal rate does make life better in a lot of ways.
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As I said, about 15 times, it does come with challenges.
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It does come with discomfort, but you always end up feeling better than you did before.
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You know, I think about my first kiss.
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If I would have waited a bit longer for my first kiss, if I would have waited for it to happen naturally, when I was ready, when there was someone in my life who I wanted to kiss,
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I think I would have felt really excited afterwards.
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I think I would have felt elated.
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But, you know, because I rushed myself to do that, I felt bad about myself afterwards.
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I felt stressed out.
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I felt weird.
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And I think that that s the difference between growing up too fast and naturally maturing.
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Now, why is it unhealthy to grow up too fast?
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Obviously, I ve mentioned vaguely a few reasons why it s unhealthy, but let s really zoom in.
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I think it s such a shame to prematurely lose the carefree sense of childhood and young adulthood.
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We don t need to be dealing with shit too heavy for our age.
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You know, there s a reason why we have this sort of established timeline for human beings.
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There s a reason for that.
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A 15-year-old is too young to be drinking alcohol.
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A 15-year-old is too young to probably even have a boyfriend, to be honest.
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Although, if I had a kid, I don t think I would not allow them to date at a young age, because I did.
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I had a boyfriend in fifth grade, and then I had a boyfriend in... Oh, no, I didn t have another one until I was, like, 17.
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But I played around with boys here and there, but never dated them.
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It was like a short fling always.
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So I kind of dated in high school, but not really.
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I don t know if I d prevent that, because I think it s something that young people desire so much that I don t know if I would not allow my kid to date.
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I don t know if that seems fair.
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Like, if my parents didn t let me date, I probably would have done it anyway, and I probably would have been more irresponsible, you know?
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So I don t know.
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But there s a reason why, you know, a 15-year-old s not getting married.
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It comes down to brain development.
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It comes down to the ability to comprehend certain subjects at a young age.
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It comes down to the pressure and the danger of certain things at a young age.
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There s so many reasons why we re not exposed to certain things when we re young.
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And when we are exposed to those things, it rips away our carefree sense of childhood and young adulthood.
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It reveals the harsh reality too soon.
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And there s no reason to do that.
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You know, we have our whole adult lives to face the pressures of maturity and adulthood.
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There s no reason to rush that.
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It s just too heavy.
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I also think growing up too fast can potentially prevent wholesome memories.
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When it comes to childhood, innocent, sweet memories are so fond to look back on.
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And the more of those that we can have, the merrier.
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I have so many special memories with my young cousins.
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Like, I didn t have siblings growing up, but I had cousins who were around my age.
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And we used to do the most fun, innocent shit.
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I don t know like we would steal food from the pantry like we d steal like candy from the pantry of one of our parents  house and we d go and hide it in the closet and we d eat it and like of course our parents knew they were like it s totally fine but but we loved it it was so fun we wanted to be sneaky what a beautiful memory that is
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Or like, that sounds like our parents did not let us ever have treats.
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That is not true.
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There s just something fun about the mischievous, like, oh, we re creeping into the kitchen and we re stealing marshmallows from the pantry and we re sneaking into the closet and we re, you know, we have a flashlight and it s like an adventure.
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You know, trust me, we had incredible parents, but it was like this fun adventure or even
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taking chalk and like breaking it up in water like a big bucket of water and like then adding leaves and then adding like dirt and like mixing it up and turning it into like witch s cauldron and it s like oh this is the witch s cauldron and then it s like you know one of us would touch it and then everybody would run away because you d be like now you re a witch or whatever like stuff like that is so
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Sweet.
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And when I think back on those memories, obviously me telling you right now, you re like, that is so boring.
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That s the most boring memory you ve ever.
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where s the drama?
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But for me, you know, when I close my eyes at night and I think of a memory like that, I feel warm inside.
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I feel good.
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And it s a shame to lose those memories due to trying to grow up too fast.
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As a young adult, trying to grow up too fast means trying to be like a 40-year-old, you know?
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And that means no partying with your friends.
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That means no being single and hooking up with random people and like experimenting there.
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It means throwing all that away.
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And
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To some, that s fine.
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You know, that s not fun.
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I would say I m even one of those people.
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I don t love going and hooking up with random people necessarily.
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I don t love going to a party and getting super drunk all the time.
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Like, I m not obsessed with that stuff.
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I think that that s why I was more prone to wanting to retire all of that and turn into a 40-year-old early.
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But it was complicated because it was also paired with
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this subconscious desire to be mature.
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So I ve recently been trying to figure out, you know, what s the middle ground for me, because I m not into all of the stereotypical 22 year old activities, but there are definitely a few that I do enjoy that I was suppressing.
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And I think that I missed out on some memories between the ages of
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20 and now, because I didn t want to allow myself to be my age.
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I didn t want to allow myself to be a 20, 21, 22-year-old.
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I wanted to be more mature than that.
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And now I m allowing myself to have a bit more fun, go and hang out with friends until five in the morning.
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I m not somebody that likes to drink a lot, so I don t do that.
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But I love the feeling of being up late and hanging out with friends and going all night.
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I like that vibe.
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But I don t like the drinking, so I don t do the drinking.
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I don t
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do the drugs, but I like that piece of it.
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So I m kind of leaning into that piece of it.
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You know, that s sort of an example.
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And that s been so fun for me.
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And I ve made so many memories already by allowing myself to do that.
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I think in general, being a young adult comes with this sort of freedom, this perfect balance of freedom.
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you re old enough where you don t have to report to your parents.
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You can make your own rules.
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That s that.
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But at the same time, you don t have the responsibility of having a family.
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And some people don t ever have a family.
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But for me personally, I m somebody who does want to have a family one day.
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And eventually, that s going to be a huge responsibility for me.
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And when I have kids and a husband, I m not going to be able to go out and do my thing.
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You know what I mean?
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I don t get to go and do my thing.
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Okay.
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Those days are over at that point.
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There s still going to be fun times then, but it s going to be different.
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And right now is my time to be a 22 year old and make these fun memories with friends.
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And it d be such a shame to lose out on those memories because I was trying to rush
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being a fucking 40-year-old, you know?
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I also think the pressure that we put on ourselves to grow up too fast sets unrealistic standards for ourselves, which can negatively impact our self-esteem and overall wellbeing.
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We re trying to do things too soon, which will almost always lead to failure.
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You know what I mean?
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When you go against your natural path,
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you ll almost always fail.
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Now that s totally fine because failure is crucial.
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Like we have to fail.
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That s how we learn.
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But the failure comes because we set unrealistic standards for ourselves.
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It s unrealistic for a lot of us to be ready to be a full, full, full adult in our early twenties.
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We re not going to be able to fulfill that desire and inevitably we re going to be upset about it.
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And last but not least, I think growing up too fast can lead to a sort of regret in a way.
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And, you know, regret is a controversial feeling.
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Some people believe that we should not feel regret because, you know, without our experiences, we would not be who we are.
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And it was sort of our destiny to experience what we did and to make the choices that we did.
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Other people think that regret is a necessary emotion, you know, because even though we can t change the past, we should be aware of where we went wrong, you know.
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I don t know where I fall.
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I probably fall somewhere in between, but I think I lean more towards the no regrets side of things because again, we can t dwell on what is already done in a way.
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I guess we should dwell on it to an extent because we have to learn from our past experiences.
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But when I say dwell, I mean, we don t want to just sit in this state of feeling regret.
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it s much more beneficial to look at our past decisions and say, okay, what would I do differently now?
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How can I use that to make my current life better?
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Right?
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But I definitely have certain
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I don t know if I want to say regrets, but it s kind of the only word I can think of.
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I mean, I guess I could say I m sort of upset about some of the ways that I force myself to grow up too fast.
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You know, I sometimes wonder if my childhood would have been happier had I not forced myself to grow up too fast.
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Luckily, I m only 22 years old.
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I haven t wasted my 20s too badly yet trying to be a 40-year-old, so I still have some time.
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I caught it early for this phase of my life.
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But I don t know if I regret it.
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Even though I felt somewhat exploited by myself at times, I think that experience led me to avoid peer pressure, avoid the opinions of others, because I felt the pain that came with succumbing to it.
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So I don t really regret what I did.
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I don t think I would be who I am without it.
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You know, in an ideal world, I was born with this sense of self where I never would listen to peer pressure.
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I found my sense of confidence and self-esteem within myself, but that s just unrealistic.
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I think I almost had to succumb to that peer pressure in order to become the person I am today, who doesn t really care what people think is cool as much.
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You know, I kind of march to the beat of my own drum now, and I think that is completely as a result of how vulnerable I was to other people s opinions when I was younger.
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I wish that young kids were able to take advice in the way that young adults and adults are able to.
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I don t know if there s a way
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to prevent young kids from this desire to grow up too fast.
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I don t know if I know anyone who hasn t felt that desire.
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Maybe in some ways it s crucial for our development.
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Maybe it all is rooted in our innate desire to be independent.
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You know, maybe that s just how it manifests in a lot of people or a lot of kids.
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Maybe it s inevitable.
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I think what we can do is try our best, you know?
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Try to explain to the best we can, to the kids that we know, that there s no rush.
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You have your whole life to dress how you want, party like you want, be an adult.
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Enjoy this time.
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Have fun being young.
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But I don t know if the kids will listen, because I know that I didn t.
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It s a shame, but I think when it comes to young adulthood, it s much easier to take the advice because your brain is just more developed.
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I think we as young adults need to stop forcing our life to happen.
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We have to enjoy our youth for as long as we can and protect it for as long as we can and trust that we ll be full adults one day and it ll all fall into place if that s what we want it to do.
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You know what I m saying?
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We don t need to have the perfect job at 22 years old.
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We don t need to have the perfect relationship at 22 years old.
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We don t need to have the perfect home at 22 years old.
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That can all come later.
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I don t know.
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That s all I have for today.
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That s all she fucking wrote, okay?
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That s all she wrote.
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I feel like such a pessimist talking about this whole thing and not feeling like there s a solution in a way, especially for younger kids.
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But maybe it s not my job to find that solution.
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Maybe I ll find that solution at some point.
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Maybe when I have kids, I ll figure it out.
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But I have a feeling it s really gonna be an interesting challenge when I m a parent.
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That s going to be one of my goals.
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You know, how can I preserve this child s childhood to the best of my ability while not sheltering them to a point where, you know, they re not maturing at all?
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It s finding that balance.
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And I don t know how I m going to do it.
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And maybe it s not possible, but I m not giving up just yet.
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And it s going to be a long time before I have a baby.
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So.
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No pregnancy rumors until I m at least 28.
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Because if I see a pregnancy rumor before then, you gotta know it s not a baby, it s food.
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So just don t say anything until I m at least 28.
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And don t be brute.
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And you should never assume if someone s pregnant.
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So know that, okay?
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Stop being an asshole.
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Don t ever assume.
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That s truly the worst thing you could do, honestly.
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Is there something worse that you could do?
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Yes, but barely.
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Like that s one of the worst things you can do is assume someone s pregnancy.
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Don t do that.
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Anyway, that s all I have to say today.
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Thank you so much for listening and hanging out.
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I hope that you enjoyed it.
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Talk to you later.
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Love and appreciate you very much.
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Okay, bye.