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kaj2313 posted:
Does anyone have problems with B12 injs? I have been on it 2 months 1inj a month. But I am having dirrhea for 3-4 after and then constipation. Wondering if it could be the inj. Or if I have to figure something else. My GI seems to think it shouldn't be a problem, but I do.

hannahleigh89 responded:
I do them twice a month. They don't seem to make my bowel habits change though.
kaj2313 replied to hannahleigh89's response:
Thanks Hannah,
That's kind of what I was worried about. Guess back for MRI and see what's going on. They are thinking, scare tissue is closing again.....had it streched about month and 1/2 ago. Was just really hoping it was the B12.

OyWithThePoodlesAlready replied to kaj2313's response:
I was taking a ton of all the bs last spring when I was exhausted and it gave me really bad diarrhea - I think there was one day I went 12 times before I quit drinking juice at 2pm so I could drive home - which is esp odd since usually if I don't take magnesium I won't go for a week or more. I'm pretty certain it was the bs but not the b12 bc once I stopped with the pills and switched to b12 only I didn't have a problem.

I have no idea how this corresponds to shots, just thought I'd let you know
kaj2313 replied to OyWithThePoodlesAlready's response:
Thanks, never hurts to get all points of views. Going to the GI with more questions always seems to help me.

Jayl955 replied to kaj2313's response:
How did the streatching go? I may be in a similar situation due do a previeous ressection that left me with a partial obstruction. It nvr was a problem til recently when i ended up in the hosp with a food obstruction. Im wondering is how did the md perform it and how lkong is the recovery time. I see the md in a few weeks to hear what he has to say unless he cancels it.
kaj2313 replied to Jayl955's response:
I would do it was a colonoscopy with a ballon on the end that they put where scar tissue was closing. Then blew it up, as far as the tissue would allow. So I prepped like a regular colonoscopy, and was back to work next day. It work for a while, but they think it maybe closing up. I go for MRI next week. But I would do it again if it meant not getting cut up! I would just like to keep as much of my intestines as I can for as long as I can.
Jayl955 replied to kaj2313's response:
Thats not a bad proceedure at all. Thanks for the info. Its always good to keep as much as yourself together as much as possible. After all you had your gi tract all your life and surgery is always risky. Good luck to you.
oldermomma replied to kaj2313's response:
I'm new to this community but am glad I found it. I have had surgery two times (10 yrs between) from scar tissue nearly blocking completely. I've never heard of streaching but will
ask my Dr. about it at my soon to have colonoscopy.

Thanks for the info and I plan to check out this community often.
kaj2313 replied to oldermomma's response:
Not that it matters but for your Drs. info. I go to Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN. I had never heard of this either. Good luck!

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All I want to say right now is good Lord!!!! I'm so afraid to step on the scale! LOL! Currently, I am 50 lbs overweight and my BMI is 27.2. I am 5'10" and 21 years of age. I have been thinking about MOVING!! and doing something about it but I recently got a cold and have been feeling quite yucky. However, I hope to start running this summer. I am also aware that I am prone to many chronic diseases since it runs in the family. I have decided to go out for a little jog if you will tomorrow morning ...All the best for your weight loss journeys! you are all great inspirations! Keep up the good hard work! it always pays off!

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I am going to be honest, I do not really have a good habit of drinking 8 glasses of water per day. I used to track my food but I have also lagged behind in that section as well.

Thanks for your encouragement! I went for a walk and did a bit of cycling . Just showered!

Breakfast & the day begins!
All the best for your journey! and Thanks again for the tips!
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Got to say when I came here and read all the threads about the importance of drinking the 64 oz. and then when I did it, boy I really started to see the scale go down.

Sometimes when we are thirsty, we eat first and that fills us up with calories. But if we are hydrated, our tummies feel fuller.

What I did to get the 64 oz. I drink a glass of water 1st thing in am, then I have 2 big mugs of tea before breakfast. I mix 2 32 oz. of Crystal Light. I like 2 different flavors. I got the 32 oz. containers at the dollar store. I got alot of plastic containers for veggies and fruits that I keep cut up and ready to eat, too.

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I'm on effexor, Nobic, Levonthroid and Flexeril. The last DR. Appt I went to the Dr said to take 2 flexeril everyday. Thats what I've been doing till about 4 days ago when I ran out. Now I'm having withdrawal symptoms. I emailed my Dr who said that I sould only be taking it when needed. So I responded saying thats not what you said at my last appt. So she emailed back saying ok take 2 a day. I emailed her again saying which should I do. She said I don't know. UGH! Frustrating!! Has anyone had flexeril help at all? and did you take it periodically or daily? Thanks
maggiethedoglover responded:
Hi there,

I believe that Flexeril is cyclobenzaprine, which is a muscle relaxer. I take it only occasionally, when my back muscles have tightened up so much that I am in a lot of pain. I only take it at night unless I really, really need it sooner. That's because it makes me very drowsy. My "30 day" prescription usually lasts several months.

I think that all of the meds that I take are habit forming. I asked my doctor if I could stop taking my anti-depressant to see how I would do and she said to gradually decrease the dose, rather than stop at once.

Your doctor can help but I have found that I usually have to monitor my own meds and then let my doctor know what is happening. She is great at listening and discussing.

It sounds as if your doctor needs educating as well as you. That's how it was with my doctor. We learned together.

Good luck to you.

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xperky responded:
Hi slovene. It must feel bad to go through withdrawal like that! I learned long ago to monitor those kinds of meds closely and make sure I have some in reserve in case of bad weather and such. It's a hard lesson though!

I can't take flexeril due to side effects, but do take soma. I've cut it down to a quarter of a pill at bedtime, unless I've been over using my muscles, and then I take a half or whole pill. I read about some research on Medscape that shows muscle relaxers can help FM pain in a percentage of patients. I would show you the link if I could find it...LOL.

I hope you can figure out an arrangement with your doctor quickly, so you can feel better.
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foreversore responded:
I took Flexeril for a year and a half 3x daily and was taken off of it a year and a half ago and was recently put back on it at bedtime only. IT DOES NOT WORK FOR ME! My trapezius muscles have been locked in a constant spasm for 3 years with NO relief at all what so ever. I have am appt with my rheumy for Monday but after a fall today I am going to see if I can get in tomorrow so maybe he can try something other than flexeril or skelaxin as neither has any effect on me. I didn't notice any withdrawals when I stopped taking it but you could be more sensitive to that sort of thing than I am. We are all so different.

Do you feel better taking it twice a day? If so tell your doc that it helps you so that they will continue to prescribe it in that manner.
booch007 responded:
I use my muscle relaxant 3 times a day, but worked up to that out of desparation as I work and couldn't walk out of the car at the end of the day.

I started just at night and then found the a.m. was still so tough even with sleeping better. So it is , what is your need?

Start with the P.M. for sleep and muscle stiffness and see how it goes and in the a.m. if you can't get the muscles moving or stretching out.

I personally didn't have any change to my body with Flexeril, yet others it knocks them out! I use Soma.

Good luck, it is your tool to use. If you need it 2x one day and only once at night on others....this is it. I think she is yeilding to you to see how your body is.

Good luck, remember to look in our toolbox for other tricks to help you feel better. In resources to the right "member's Toolbox. Good luck, Nancy B
teelady1 responded:
About 3 months ago I started taking cyclobenzaprine (flexeril) at night - 10 mg. It has helped me quite a bit with relieving the pain from the tight muscles which would interfere with my sleep. It does make me quite drowsy - which helps me to fall asleep. I usually take it about 1 to 2 hours before I crawl into bed.
slovene54 responded:
I feel like not taking them anymore just cuz I went through the withdrawal already. Really rough week at work and dealing with that! Can't wait for today to end!! I emailed my Dr and asked if there was a pain specialist I could talk to instead. I might just stick with trying it when pain is too bad. Thanks for all the input!! You guys are awesome!
Anon_2912 replied to slovene54's response:
I was on Flexeril 3x daily for about a year, But I just got tired of the pills so I quit one day.

Did not tell my doctor, just stopped & never did a refill. I didn't have any issues stopping cold turkey, however, everyone is different...

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Four several months, I wake up every night with a severe pain in my left foot. It's a combination of burning, tingling and pain...I am also experiencing severe constipation at least once a week....Could the pain in my foot be caused by some sort of nerve damage, and could constipation be related to this as well? Please advise.
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Ask your doctor about neuropathy. Make sure you are checked for diabetes, but typically just one side would be something in your lower back. Constipation is a separate issue, unless it is somehow putting pressure on a nerve.

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My daughter was a 24 wk preemie she was born august of 08. She is now almost two, she went to the hospital march of 09 for influenza and a blockage in her intestines. During this time she needed emergency surgery. Due to being sick and having surgery she went majorly downhill, got a blood infection and needed something called ECMO which is when they put a catheter in your jugular and put oxygen in your blood because no ventilator was strong enough. During this time she was so critical and her lungs got so bad she got BPD. Now I am trying to find out symptoms of BPD? How to prevent BPD? and Would it make her go downhill and turn blue and be on the verge of death in seconds? Is anyone experienced with this?? She is trach/vent, on all the meds for it, and has 24 hr nursing. But what else can i do to prevent it?
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Hello The article you posted is very technical in nature, and is probably geared towards physicians or other medical professional. I found this article, which may be more useful: #

I hope that helps. I don't really have any experience with BPD, but hopefully someone else on this board can help. Best wishes and prayers for your LO.

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I'm worried about this,what you see in white is slightly hard, just slightly, My but was itching about 10 days ago pretty annoying, doesn't itch anymore. I don't know what is on me, Help!
counterso responded:
I'm sorry, hemorrhoids are not a urology question. Actually I don't even see a question here, just a complaint.

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Jonathan Lee wrote:
> Hello,
> I need help for three things:
> 1) are there any tips for operating with large lists/matrices (in the
> order of 512*512 or so)

MathLink to MatLab or C librraries, maybe?

> and
> 2) is it possible to thread a compiled function over several lists.

One list at a time, you mean? That should be immediate. At the same
time? Combine the lists in the appropriate way.

> 3) is there any way to "intertwine" two lists?
> i.e., if a and b are lists, is there a simple way to make a list that is
> {a[[1]], b[[1]],a[[2]],b[[2]],...}?
> Thanks for any and all help.

Flatten[ Transpose[{a, b}] ]

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On 6/10/05 at 2:29 AM, mark at (Mark Coleman) wrote:

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>where the first sublist is of length r, and the remaining sublists
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At its investor meeting today, Intel's President and CEO Paul Otellini focused on how the company is changing: It's moving from being just a chip company to a company that provides a whole variety of products, from silicon to software and services. He didn't give a lot of product specifics; that will probably come from other presenters later in the day.

Otellini said Intel has changed over the past four years, becoming more productive and more profitable. He expects earnings to grow about twice as fast in the next four years as they did between 2003 and 2008. He also talked about the company's leadership in process technology, noting that it introduced "strained silicon" in 2003 and is still 1 to 3 years ahead of the competition there. Intel also introduced "high-k/metal gate" technology 3 years ago and is still the only company shipping that.

With that technology, said Otellini, Intel has been able to reduce transistor leakage and thus increase transistor performance, creating better products. For instance, he showed slides showing how on 45nm, its transistor performance was better than those from TSMC and IBM.

According to Otellini,  Intel is ramping its products faster. When 90nm technology was introduced in 2003 with the Pentium 4 (which used 169 million transistors), it took the company 50 weeks to reach high volume. This year, he said, the 32nm Core family, with 1.1 billion transistors, will ramp in half the time.

Although many people have pointed out that more ARM cores ship than Intel Architecture cores today, Otellini said Intel's numbers are growing quickly, and that Intel has shipped 3.3 billion processor cores through Q1; with the number likely to be nearly 4 billion by the end of the year.

Otellini said Intel is changing from just a PC chip company to a computing solutions provider by adding platforms (such as Wi-Fi, integrated HD graphics, and WiDi wireless display), software and services (such as Havok engine for gaming, MeeGo operating systems, WindRiver embedded OS , and the Intel AppUp framework for an application store. He notes that software professionals are 22 percent of Intel (not counting IT and manufacturing), and that 14 million developers today use the Intel architecture.

Going forward, he said, the total computing market will likely grown 15 to 16 percent per year over the next four years. This year, more than 1 million PCs per day will be sold, and that number could double by 2014. In particular, Otellini pointed to growth in laptops and netbooks and potentially in tablets, and said that netbooks now seem to be driving new users in markets like Mexico.

Driving this is increased Internet usage, with 1.8 billion current Internet users (growing 13 percent this year) who are spending 18.8 trillion minutes online (up 21 percent). Otellini said video is driving Internet traffic growth. But he also pointed out the potential to increase the use of Intel architecture in data centers (in applications such as networking and storage), in smart phones; and in devices such as "smart TVs."

Overall, Otellini said he believes Intel will be shipping one billion units per year within 5 years, and will add to that with data centers and software and services revenue.

Tom Kilroy, Senior VP and GM of Intel's Sales and Marketing Group, pointed to social networking and video as the big drivers for computing use, not only in the U.S., but also in international markets. He talked about how word processing and email no longer account for that much of the time people spend computing, rather things like instant messaging, social networking, and photo and video sharing were more important.

Kilroy said lower system prices have helped growing the consumer market, particularly in emerging markets; and making PCs easier to manage will drive sales in the business market. He made the push that the Core i5 delivers big performance advantages compared with the older chips in photo and video tasks (showing a greater than 2X improvement from the older Pentium chips). And he talked about how Intel chips would be growing in markets such as security cameras and taking more of the server market now occupied by RISC and Mainframe servers.

He also talked about new channels for selling computers, and the growth in other markets, including Brazil, Russia, India, and particularly China, where he predicted a three times growth in PC sales by 2014.

But he said there's lots of room to expand the number of PCs per household, particularly outside the U.S., and noted that about 2 billion people still do not have access to own their own PCs.

Personalization continues to drive this growth, he said. Consumers are continuing to become a bigger part of the overall market; and mobile is growing as a percentage, which should become over 70% by 2014.
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“Too bad she ain’t here to see it, but I mean it’s a good thing,” said Timothy Shelton.

Neighbor Timothy Shelton says his kids are loving the party, and it’s a nice break for the community who’ve all been affected by the little girl.

Companies like Fun Services donated toward L.P.’s party.

“Our company is full of parents and when we heard this story originally, it just broke all of our hearts,” said Adam Brown, from Fun Services.

Many other companies also pitched in donating food, face painting and a puppet show.  LINC or Local Investment Commission is also collecting gifts for L.P.  So far, more than $4,700 was collected along with more than 80 gifts and 550 cards.

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Returning to the comforts of home might be the only thing that relaxes the Oklahoma City Thunder, because nothing they tried in Texas seemed to work.

They had what seemed like a commanding second half lead in Game 1 of the Western Conference finals and got popped down the stretch. Their three best players played lights out in Game 2, yet they still trailed by as many as 22 points before falling again to what is clearly a superior team.

If Thunder can’t stop the Spurs from rumbling like this, there is little hope outside of Oklahoma City that they can do more than just make this a series by winning a game or two … the Spurs haven’t lost in nearly two months, folks!

Against anyone else, a combined 88 points from Kevin Durant, Russell Westbrook and James Harden (who rebounded nicely from his Game 1 struggles to lead the Thunder with 30 points) would have been enough for an OKC win. But against the Spurs, the deepest, most balanced and polished team we’ve seen in this postseason, the Thunder’s effort was valiant but futile.

The Spurs don’t need virtuoso performances from their Big Three of Tony Parker, Tim Duncan and Manu Ginobili. That group was outscored 88-65 by their Thunder counterparts in Game 2. But they can afford that discrepancy when San Antonio’s supporting cast plays the way it did in Game 2. (Spurs rookie Kawhi Leonard had perhaps the most impressive night of anyone, finishing with a 18 points and 11 rebounds while also making Durant work for everything he got).

What the Spurs have in surplus — skilled players with length in the frontcourt — the Thunder lack. The offensive deficiencies of both Kendrick Perkins and Serge Ibaka are being exposed in this series. Neither of them is the “stretch four” the Thunder need to help extend the floor and play pick and roll with Westbrook the way Parker can with Duncan, Tiago Splitter, Boris Diaw, Leonard and, when need be, Matt Bonner.

Scott Brooks and that Thunder coaching staff won’t throw their hands up in the film room and declare there is nothing that can be done to stop these Spurs. They’re going to make whatever adjustments they deem necessary and make sure their crew comes out swinging Thursday night in Game 3 at Chesapeake Energy Arena.

But the feeling of inevitability you had watching the Thunder take apart the Dallas Mavericks in the first round and the Los Angeles Lakers in the conference semifinals is the same feeling we have for  Oklahoma City in this series. The pressure on the Thunder’s role players to play above and beyond their means will be heightened by the circumstances.

Anyone who watched the first two games of either one of those previous series recognized the advantages the Thunder had over the Mavericks and Lakers. You knew it would take an otherworldly effort for OKC to falter. The Lakers broke through and took one game, but that was it.

There’s a reason the Spurs are undefeated this postseason and haven’t lost a game since you were wearing your Easter suit (check the calendar, it’s almost June.)

For every move you make, Gregg Popovich and his staff are two steps ahead of you. Subtle tweaks like shifting Danny Green over to guard Westbrook freed up Parker to do his thing. And those complaints about the Spurs being a bore and the team no one outside of Spurs Nation wants to watch? Well, go back and watch Games 1 and 2 again and realize how ridiculous that sounds.

Speaking of that, the Thunder would be wise to hold on to the film from this series. In a couple of years, they might want to use this series as training tool for what they could be like when their young stars are properly seasoned and the supporting cast is hopefully fleshed out in ways that make OKC impossible to stop.

Through two games (and, yes, it’s only two games) they’ve been on the receiving end of a basketball lesson only one team could teach them.

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I'm going to fix this because I need it for my code to work.

The path to fix the bug.

The previous patch was incomplete. This also takes into account other instances where the third optional parameter of loadClass() should be used.

Hopefully, this is the final edition of the patch (I've found more code to fix).

I found some more code I had to fix, hence the fourth version of my patch.

Postponed until 2.0.

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[T]hree years ago, I participated in a blogswarm set up to raise money for rape victims of the war in Liberia. I tried to do a little more than just raise money, to talk about why rape is and should be an expected consequence of going to war.
Anyone who has ever in the history of the internet talked about Schroedinger’s Rapist knows what happened next. We didn’t. That post hadn’t been written yet.

The first thing people did, of course, was deny at length and with many attempts at diversion that we should be talking about rape at all. There were demands for statistics, demands for the sources of statistics (which had already been given), demands that we talk about women exactly the same way we talk about men despite no evidence that female soldiers do the same thing.
Why am I bringing this up now? Because those people who are totally not unhealthily obsessed with FtB in general and me as one of many in particular are also talking about this three-year-old set of blog posts.

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Friday, February 26, 2010

Lily Cartographicus!

 I made some origami paper lilies from an old map! I may try to add some stems, but for now they are piled in this vintage silver dish.
I love the gentle curls and the way the roads and highways race around the petals!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

This week has turned out to be quite a busy and social one for me in real life, and so it has been a quiet one on the social network front!
Today I gave the last talk in a 4 part series on Gifting - a topic I am passionate about.
The ladies in the group blew me away with a generous gift, a gorgeous bunch of flowers and a magnificent hand painted card! Thanks to the ladies of KBC.
The flowers are so happy in this vintage glass ice bucket I have
My thoughts are with all the  people setting up for the Design Indaba in Cape Town.  It will be the first one I am not getting to for a few years.  I am sure it is going to be amazing and I will miss being there, but am going to keep as up-to-date as possible on the net!

Friday, February 19, 2010

Ladies at Work

Packing space was at a premium on our trip to Mocambique, so I there was only space for 1 memento.
This delightful mobile of Ladies-at-Work is made from local wood, wire, fabric and natural bits and pieces!
They are grinding, carrying and working in my home now!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Ponto Typo

I enjoy signs in foreign places.  They tell you so much about the culture you have landed yourself in!
Ponto Do Ouro was full of inspiration:
Devotion to the Ocean on the side of this truck:
Well worn Portuguese speed limit:
Restaurant Welcome - on a previously painted wall which had been whitewashed around [and over] when it was time for the next coat of paint. I wonder if the 'new' chef is still there?
Hand painted plea not to climb on the dunes and destroy the vegetation.
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Monday, February 15, 2010

Ponto do Ouro

We are back from Ponta do Ouro  in  Mocambique.
It is is a fascinating town - accessible and navigable only with 4x4s! The whole area has a base of soft soft sand! The town has a specific type of charm.  It has a relaxed seaside holiday atmosphere, but much of Ponto is run down. I found the old abandoned buildings and flaky signs so interesting.
There is a an air of beauty and of more luxurious times gone by.
My son is a passionate diver and we went along with his dive club for a really fun weekend! As for my diving efforts? All went well until we had our first shore entry dive in the bay! Unfortunately visibility was poor and the waves were more turbulent than usual.  To cut a long story short, I entertained the small crowd that had gathered on the shore with my efforts to get out of the sea.  Not easy with a heavy cylinder on my back and huge fins on my feet and waves that relentlessly pounded me down.  Eventually I was helped onto my feet.
I think that is where my diving career will terminate.  My husband and daughter did much better and they are going to continue their training! My plan is to stick to having adventures with my camera in the places where they will dive!

Friday, February 12, 2010

At last I have tried out some crocheted hearts - inspired by this article!
I am going to be away for Valentine's weekend- diving in Mozambique! I'll report back next week!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Fabric Flower 'n Fork Pin

I've been adding vintage cutlery to flower pins lately!
 I quite like the way they've turned out! The first batch I have made are to decorate some bags, but I plan to make some just for wearing too!

Monday, February 08, 2010

Retro Boxes!

We have really felt the full tropical extent of our city over the last few days.  The weather has been unbearably hot and humid.  Fortunately this evening has brought a refreshing cool breeze!
I couldn't bear to work with fabric in this heat, so I have spent a number of hours folding these origami boxes.

I am building up a few themed collections, which will soon be for sale. These are some of the Typographical set.
I have had a set of these boxes in my lounge for a few months.  I find them a very interactive decorative set.  I love the interest that they create. Guests pick them up, turn them around, ask what they are and then their faces light up when they realise they are made from LP covers and they take a trip down memory lane or into the past, depending on their age.
Working this closely with these boxes is so pleasing. I am able to appreciate each individual design as I go. I am not always sure how they will turn out until they are folded.  The front of the Cover forms the top lid of the box and the back of the cover forms the base.

Friday, February 05, 2010

On My To-Read-List

I am hoping to get some way into this book this weekend.  I read and enjoyed the 2009 version, so I am looking forward to seeing what Dion Chang and friends have to say about the state we are in!
Visi Mag has synopsis here!

Thursday, February 04, 2010

Clean Washing!

This week my daughter and I had the privilege of doing a photo shoot for this amazing project at this transitional home , investing in children affected by HIV AIDS!
I was struck by the traditional washing line and the colourful laundry of the little children living in the home. [Glad my daughter took these pics!]
The name of the place is iThemba Lethu, which means I have a destiny! What a heartwarming experience to see the results of so much love, hard work and good management  making a huge difference in these sweet children's lives!


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Thursday, 4 July 2013

Peace and Dandy

 Right now I'd love to ride out of town with hubby and a tent, hit the coast of Cornwall and just spend a month walking along the cliffs and feeding off the powerful natural energy that place holds.
 In the summer I loathe living in a big city. I miss the sea, the sound of waves crashing onto the shore, the lovely smell of seaweed & taste of salt in the air.
This mornings walk to the post office assaulted my nasal passage with a stenchfest of  feculence and decomposing scraps from the butcher. Often the street outside looks as if it's been cluster-bombed with dog turds and I find myself  almost hopscotching in order to avoid all the filth. Retch-inducing mattresses (complete with piss stains and bedbugs) are just dumped in the street and left for days. The only slight refuge from reeking refuse is the park. Thank goodness for the park!
Thank goodness for its beautiful inhabitants that put a smile on my face every day.
This is Baby Grey that I've mentioned before but he's not so Baby anymore. He should be ready to try those pretty wings of his out soon, I'd love to be there to see it when it happens :)

Today I've been busy preparing my stock for this coming Saturday's Dandy Lion Market...
 This month I decided to do something a little bit different and throw a few more separates and some funky 90s clobber into the mix as well. I've been making and revamping stuff for next Sunday's Mini Festival but I'll be bringing a few of the choice bits that I've made along to The Dandy, like this funky PVC leaf necklace/headdress...
 I made an even bigger one for someone who likes to make a bold style statement and like me lacks a soft-pedal when it comes to dressing ;)
I got severe cramp in my fingers whilst hand-sewing all those individual leafs together but watching Black Books on YouTube made almost bearable.
 Needless to say I'll also be bringing the usual medley of vintage & retro frocks. This one is a newbie on the rail...
 Mark isn't working this weekend and has very kindly agreed to assist me on the day, so I'll be able to bring a few more bags and shoes as well.
I'll also be bringing some more of my handmade accessories too.
 As I already mentioned I'm trying out some different stock on the rail this month, it's mostly late 80s/early 90s separates...
I would have killed for some of these pieces back in the day, that dead-stock bikini is amazing but I just wouldn't be able to do it justice...much like Madonna it simply demands a young body to cling on to.
I'm bringing a whole heap more but if you want to see the rest of it you'll just have to poodle along to The Dandy on Saturday ;)

To go with the 90s clobber here's Sabrina Johnston to sing us out with a euphorically happy tune, enjoy!
Happy Friday folks, hope you will have an extraordinarily good one.
Loads of love,

Panty Buns said...

There is quite a contrast between your beautiful photos and the mental images of some of the things you described. I love the pose, your frock and your hair in that first photo of you, looking to be close to achieving Nirvana via meditation. Is your gorgeous hair by any chance a creation from from Tangled Wigs? The photos from the seaside are beautiful - and (especially what with my being a vegetarian) the stenchfest you described sounds grotesque. It's been fun seeing your photos of the growth of the goslings into fledgling geese. I've seen full grown geese here recently but no young ones.

The frocks, "clobber" and your creations for Sunday's Mini Festival at the Dandy Lion Market at The Oxford are remarkably diverse, attractive and very interesting. I suspect you could easily do those bikinis justice if you were of a mind to - and I do notice Madge (I loved her blue carpet outfit at the Billboard Music Awards). Speaking of music, Sabrina Johnston does have quite a voice - nice song :)

P.S.: My last post (4 July, 2013) was way, way, WAY off-topic for my blog.

Penny-Rose said...

Wow, that photo is awesome, look at you, like some kind of goddess or witch. You have a wonderful way of transporting your reader to a different world in only a couple of sentences - I am so lucky to live by the sea, but I also have to tip-toe through the poop. Your photos of the Cornwall coast are magical - made me think of King Arthur! Baby Grey is getting BIG and has beautiful plumage. Hope you have a wonderful time at the market xx

thorne garnet said...

It's not just the big city that's trashy, right now there's a pile of wet, rotting old broken furniture up the street. People don't want to pay the extra $10 to have the city haul it away or are too freaking lazy to take it to the dump.

Enough of that, you look like a fairy princess in the park.

Good luck tomorrow and come home empty handed

Underemployed said...

That last skirt is gorgeous.

Krista Gassib said...

I swear you just described how I feel about most urban cities. I live in the burbs for a reason and we can walk to a pond from our place. I understand the longing for the ocean, I feel that often.

I'm digging the new header big time. Good luck at the Dandy, I hope you sell loads of the 90's stuff!

Shybiker said...

Wonderful clothes, great pictures.

Pull Your Socks Up! said...

I love your new header Jennie, what a wonderful pic of such an amazing dress!! Ugh, the city in summer. What a nightmare! I think it's the same in any city in the world. Horrible! I agree, thank goodness for the park. It really is a beautiful place to get some peace. Hugs, xoxoxoox

Vix said...

Loving the new header! That dress and wig combo utterly rock!
Hope you had a fantastic day trading at the mini-festival. There's some splendid pieces there, the hip teens absolutely rock the Eighties fashion so I bet you'll sell out! xxx

Connie said...

I love the first photo soooooo much. Your hippie name is Star Shine Duck Lover.


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OCZ has announced the latest thing in SSD tech, the Indilinx Everest controller and platform. Packing a SATA 6.0Gbps interface and support for SSDs with capacity of up to 1TB, the new controller should put OCZ ahead of the competition, at least according to what we are hearing for those close to the company.

The controller itself packs dual-core ARM CPU, features support for Triple-Level Cell (TLC) NAND with addition to Indilinx Ndurance tech, up to 512MB of 400MHz DDR3 DRAM cache, high sequential speeds with up to 500MB/s, high transactional perfromance optimized for 4K to 16K compressed files and up to 8channels of ONFI 2.0/Toggle 1.0 flash at up to 200MT/s with up to 16-way interleaving.

The Everest platform also comes with enhanced power fail protection, support for 1xnm node NAND flash, dynamic/static wear-leveling and background garbage collection thatnks to efficient NAND flash management, boot time reduction optimizations, TRIM, SMART and NCQ support, and end-to-end data protection and probably much more.

The platform is currently heading to OEMs for validation and there has been no talks regarding the actual product from OCZ based on the Everest platform. Don't quote us on this one, but let's just say that we wouldn't be surprised to see a Vertex 4 SSD in the near future.

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It’s 2:00 AM and for the better part of an hour I’ve been lying here in the dark, desperately pleading for sleep to take over, but it just won’t. And so, why keep up the fight?

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Several weeks ago, this was me. Dan and I had just discovered that I was pregnant with our second child. We were so excited to welcome a sweet little sibling for Dax.

A week ago, we were at a friend’s birthday party. Between laughs and hugs with these new friends, we’d sneak away for a little bit to gush about our little secret, hoping no one would notice that I was mysteriously avoiding the beer and wine. About halfway into the shindig, when I went to the rest room, my stomach twisted into stinging knots when I noticed that I had started to bleed.

We left the party in a rush, citing a made-up excuse about how Dax was too fussy for our babysitter, and went straight to the emergency room. Four hours, blood work, and an ultrasound later, they couldn’t tell us why the bleeding was happening. They just ordered me to be on bed rest and to come back if it got worse.

Monday it got worse. So we went back. Then, more blood work and another ultrasound confirmed what, at that point, we already knew.

We lost our baby.

And so, you see, I am not only literally in the dark, but my spirit has also found itself swallowed up by a powerful darkness. One I’ve never experienced or thought I ever would experience. The agonizing pain of grief, coupled with the painful physicality of what it means for my body to go through miscarriage. Each cramp in my abdomen brings with it the most wretched feeling in my heart, as if part of it is also being broken down and expelled.

Some of you may be upset that this is the way you’re finding out. Please don’t be offended. The thing is, it’s hard enough to have to tell this story right now, let alone having to tell it several times. Please understand.

My mom came down to be with us and care for Dax while we grieve, which looks much different for the two of us. Dan’s been pretty sad, but functional, only letting his emotions show when we’re alone. Me, on the other hand? I’ve gone from sad, to angry, to frustrated, to questioning, to really freaking pissed off, to sad, and back to angry again, all making me completely incapacitated. All I can do well at this point is day-sleep.

But last night, Mom watched Dax while Dan and I went on a date. Just the two of us. We had dinner at a cute local place (complete with copious amounts of booze for yours truly) and then dessert at the Cheesecake Factory where, in my loopy, grief-stricken state, I forgot that I actually don’t like cheesecake. But we laughed. And we kissed. And we were grateful for each other and the chunky little boy at home who didn’t know that he’d lost a sibling and was happily waiting for us to come home and kiss him goodnight.

Sunday night, as I was laying in bed praying to God that what was happening to my body would just stop and that my little baby would be okay, God quietly laid a name on my heart. A name I knew was the name of the child I would never hold. And so the next day, when we got the confirmation at the ER, I shared the name with Dan. And he accepted it, too. (I don’t really want to share it here, but if you want to know it, you can ask.)

It is common, the doctor told us. One in three pregnancies will end like this. “Better luck next time,” he shrugged, as he awkwardly backed out of my hospital room.

And that was it.

how to be.

It’s been really hard to blog lately for two reasons.

1. My life as a mostly work-from-home mom, while splendid and blest, can be quite mundane. As much as I love it, I don’t know how many posts I can muster up (or you should have to suffer through) about me banging away at my lap top during nap times or the perils of walking lessons. (Oh yes. By the by, I don’t want to admit it, but by definition I am now the mother of a toddler who has the bruises to prove it.)

2. I follow a lot of blogs and — sigh — I know how many other great blogs there are out there. So whenever I sit down to finally spew out a post, I can only think to myself, “But why? When there are so many other great blogs for these people to read?”

In short, it’s like I don’t know “how to be” a blogger.

The church I work at/serve at/do life at is one that, um, isn’t exactly in my comfort zone. It is a gigantic (!!!) traditional mainline Christian church, whose congregation consists MOSTLY of older, very wealthy “church” people. A natural button-pushing, liberal, messy-past-holding, twenty something loudmouth, I’ve never been quite welcomed at mainline denomination churches before now (ask me about the one time I, the “lost girl”, was “ambush-saved” under a tree by a well-meaning counselor at a church camp) and so it’s a bit of a struggle sometimes to reconcile the idea that I’m now on the payroll at one of these places that has wounded me so deeply in the past. And not only that; I have made friends here. Real friends. People who are getting to know me and aren’t running away. I’m finding my footing in an unfamiliar place that, remarkably, has accepted me. I still cannot understand this.

But that, my friends, is the power of grace, no?

I said it already, but it bears repeating. This place is freaking huge. People get around via golf carts and I can’t wait to make a billion dollars so I can also buy a golf cart. (That’s how much golf carts go for these days, right?) There are hallways and offices and narthexes and sacristies and choir rooms and class rooms and chapels and sanctuaries and gyms and lions and tigers and bears oh my and

six pianos.

While I can’t afford ONE acoustic piano, there are six pianos scattered about the campus. (One of which used to belong to Sir Elton John but that’s another blog post.)

Today I sat in on a meeting which left me feeling both unproductive and severely misunderstood — the latter of which is not uncommon right now because I’m still getting used to this place. After the meeting, I had precisely twenty minutes before my next meeting which, as you working folk know, is just enough time to not do anything productive or meaningful.

One of the better-than-me bloggers I follow (who, I guess at this point, isn’t really a blogger anymore) is Jon Acuff. The other day he posted a picture on Instagram of a diagram made by an illustrator of how to be an artist.

Looking at the clock and seeing the empty minutes before me, I recalled this picture and felt a sense of urgency to create. To make some sort of art, even if it was bad art, just to remind myself that, while I may be a misunderstood screw-up in a seemingly perfect congregation, I’m not totally worthless.

So I excitedly gathered my things and dashed to the chapel where I knew there sat an unoccupied, recently tuned grand piano.

As I was racing toward the steepled building, not wanting to waste a single minute, I got so giddy thinking about sitting in that empty space, at the bench, pressing down on the keys, softly squeezing the pedal, and birthing beautiful noise out of staunch silence. After feeling like I couldn’t control anything, I wanted to remember that, if nothing else, I can at least manipulate a piano.

I pulled the heavy double doors open with a superhuman exuberance expecting to find an empty chapel just for me. But when my eyes fell on the church organist at the organ, directly across from the piano practicing, my heart sank.

Our organist is a musical genius. He’s been playing organ/piano longer than I’ve been alive so he can obviously play circles around me. But he’s also probably the nicest person I’ve ever met in my lifetime. He’s someone that, when I’m around him, I suddenly don’t feel so misunderstood.

He always compliments my piano playing also, even when I know he both a) doesn’t have to and b) is probably just trying to make me feel good. (I told you he is really nice.)

He was sight-reading a couple hymns for our staff chapel. And for a few moments I sat and just listened. But then that stupid diagram got the best of me and I jumped off my butt and ran up to the piano.

“Which hymns are you playing?” I asked him, picking up a nearby hymnal.

He responded with a couple of numbers and then quickly added, “I’ve never seen these hymns before in my life!” (Mind you, this was not in a “look how great I sight-read!” way, but in an astonished “how have I played organ for all these years and never once laid eyes on these two hymns?!” way.)

I opened up the hymnal to the numbers he specified and sat down on the bench. I certainly hadn’t heard them, either, but my fingers were itching. I looked at the staffs and, while I can’t sight-read to save my life, I could at least tell which keys the songs were in based on the sharps and flats next to the clefs.

“Do you mind if I play along with you?” I nervously asked.

“Not at all! Please do!”

And so I did.

And it wasn’t horrible. (Though I think that has way more to do with the power and beauty of the instrument in question than it does my own skill level; a tuned piano is much more forgiving to any musician than, say, a violin.)

Over the past few weeks I’ve been caught up in my own head about “how to be” things — how to be a blogger; how to be a mother; how to be both an employee and a parishioner at a mainline denomination church; how to be a wife; how to be a cook; how to be a pianist; how to be Lindsay — so much so that I end up not BEING anything except lethargic, cynical, and unmotivated.

But that diagram ruins it all for me. It takes this paradigm that suggests I have to meet some unwritten standard before I’ve made it and crushes it into a thousand little pieces, never to be put back together again.

How do I be a blogger? I blog.

How do I be a wife? I cherish my husband.

How do I be a mother? I care for my child.

How do I be a pianist? I play the damn piano.

How do I be Lindsay?

I be Lindsay.