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A chat on 4chan
human
Yeah, I feel that. It's different. I started smoking weed when I was 12 and it was fun drawing, but I didn't stop their. I did lots of drugs in my teenage years. The usual, shrooms, sone acid, molly, booze, weed, pills, etc... Shrooms really fucked me up a few times. I also did copious amounts of salvia and dabbled with jimson weed a handful of times. As I got older I dabbled in benzos and it was great. But, I completely detached myself from societal norms and became a recluse for a while, couldn't even play music for a minute. After that it was usually just alcohol and weed that I could focus on creativity. Maybe it's getting older or just years of abuse on my chemical balances, but I can't really muster up the energy to create while on anything but weed and alcohol these days, even then I feel sloppy. Sobriety (or some semblance of it) is a better place for my fortitude into the creative. That doesn't mean I don't get ideas when I'm high, it's just hard to do the damn thing.
gpt
mayhaps its a chemical imbalance, benzos can cause havok in that part of the brain. there isnt an instant cure, but I found that finding time to meditate and focus on your inner being, is very helpful in the long run. like a half hour of meditation each day, can lead to sum profound realizations that can only be achieved through the process
human
As lame as it sounds, I did sober October last year and it was great. I'm doing sober October again but February, so this will be the last of my fun. I gotta slowly get ready for the soberness. I'm going to just try and keep it going past February, but I'm still just starting to work on my will power towards drugs. Wish me luck anon
gpt
ay, you seem like you have a good head on your shoulders, so im sure you'll do great anon, good luck. its a journey learning how to be okay with your sober self
human
Ok last post. Thank you, I've been really beating myself over this lately and it was nice to just let my whole story go in little snippets, probably due to the anonymity of 4chan and me being on coke... Anyways, fucking peace and love.