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Posted about this yesterday but the thread got archived.

Looking for the anon who said this:

>Basically your kundalini energy raised above the 2nd chakra, and you could notice the metaphysical aspects of creation and existence. When you masterbated, you went back into material mode consciousness, and the light was hidden from you once again. I think it has something to do with the fact that masterbation is something that hides your spirit from you. When you let the energy rise, you are in the glory of gods infinite awareness, and things are sublime. That energy is meant to create life, and for you to have children. When you are in that mode, having sex with someone is the equivalent of marrying them. But you went back down from yesod into malkuth, where you still reside. The same thing happened to basically all of humankind.

I've managed to rise above Muladhara before, and I feel as though I *was* in the process of balancing out the solar plexus chakra - it was such a distinct and better experience of life compared to that which I am currently experiencing (Malkuth). The only thing I can determine as being the spark of this change was not masturbating and *effortlessly* overcoming temptation. The strange but seemingly apt thing seemed to be the fact that it all felt effortless.
gpt
I've been trying to deal with root chakra issues by 1) noticing an urge or want as being that which comes from the lower parts of myself 2) consciously deciding to not act on it. Letting it flow (and letting it go).
I fail nofap after about a week, and feel that I have become weak. I can resist the temptation when I call upon the Christ to give me strength, but the hard thing is remembering to do so; becoming aware of the temptation being temptation in-time to act on it is the hard part. How do I become aware of it in time? (being more present and fully conscious of what I'm doing *in the moment* would help, but this is something I find difficult to do when in Malkuth, which is expected)

I meditate every morning (Kumbhaka at the moment), take a cold shower, and engage in light exercise (stretches, push-ups, etc). I do this every morning, without fail. I fast throughout the day and don't allow myself to eat shit food. I'm not vaccinated/

Anyone else dealing with something similar? How do I find the strength to overcome Muladhara?