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I have also spent my entire life trying to get there. Now that I got there, I wish I didn't. 

I think that is basically why Buddha did what he did or Jesus - if they were really - they were trying to give us a scaffolding so that we don't fall appart when we face the truth and they also hid hints in their teaching. Bible says I am the god, thou shalt have no othe god but me and that everything is one in god. Buddha says that buddhas nature is in all. Teh buddha Vairocana is basically this very concept. Embodiment (in a sense) of sum total of reality and it has the very same buddha nature as you and me.
It is also consistent with physics as we know it. Existence requires and observer and there is no difference between them. There is also time symmetry. If the time had no direction, all observers would be the same... 
I will continue meditating though, thats for sure... 

well, they are not lonely, but there is no opinion of the source itself, right? 
Again - how can the one and the only source be not lonely? even though it can create infinite 'friends' there will never be its equal.
they maybe different entities/concepts, but if they merged with the source it would just be realization that they were the source all along. Again, how can the not be? It is like chipping chunks of ice out of huge ice block and saying they are not ice.
gpt
>I have also spent my entire life trying to get there. Now that I got there, I wish I didn't.
I think we're going in circles kind of, what I'm saying is that you should see it as a possibility that what you experienced is just a part of the whole truth, especially since you describe only being there once and not going back more times afterwards to verify.

Buddha sat and sat and sat, and then in his exploration saw and experienced things that lead to him being free of all suffering. You have had one experience, which has seemingly left you in a ton of distress (very much contradictory to the freeing of all suffering which the end-goal truth does according to all the yogis and other spiritual masters), yet you're now here claiming that you experienced the same thing as them and that they were wrong, deceiving or misunderstood.

>well, they are not lonely, but there is no opinion of the source itself, right?
As I'd said before I am of the view that something being a precursor of another thing doesn't make the two equal, the source whole as it existed before its child-consciousnesses emanated from it does not exist in the same sense after that happens in my opinion, and if it does, its creations aren't a mere figment of its imagination but entities in and of themselves - and I guess this is where we get to the 'and that's why god loves his children so much' part or something kek.
Also where the fuck is this core self situated? Man this debate is depressing.