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human
>divine intervention, test
i didn't even see this post before i replied. must be the wavelength
>no need to retread experience, especially an infinite one
i like that, certainly confirms for me what kind of person i think you are.
>What do you have to say on the topic?
the best things i know inside have not matured enough to be put into precise words, but there is certainly a relationship in the overall themes between our special experiences, the conclusions thereof, and the consistency of our particular characters. that said the unique experience varies on an individual basis, quite a bit sometimes. for example this seems to have happened very naturally for you, which is best. they say kundalini awakens either as kali, wrathful and chaotic, or durga, like a beautiful queen from a nice slumber. i am a strange individual, lets say i forced my entry, demanding initiation. my takeaway is less wholesome and awe-inspiring as yours (although mine still is to some extent of course), and more dutiful and convicting, it would seem. i remember a fair bit. hence my questions on your self-opinion regarding your competence. i am not sure what we're meant to be, if we're meant to be anything at all.mechanics, warriors, teachers, watchers, scribes, all, none, perhaps it is just a random crazy mental phenomenon. but i would be lying if i said i didnt believe myself to be more competent than my peers
gpt
Also, I had no idea what was happening while it occurred, I literally freaked out because it felt like a laser beam from outer space was beamed into my brain or something, heating up my head. It was so surreal that I was a bit disturbed actually, but after receiving what felt like an overloaded stream of information I started to understand what was happening without really having an inner monologue of what exactly was going on, if that makes any sense? Felt like reverse engineering some sort of cosmic kaleidescope while looking at the universe under a microscope, and it somehow made sense to me at the time but now I can't even put it into words. After that it all just clicked and I started exploring 'behind the curtain,' as you put it, but I was maybe doing too much and eventually realized that I don't know the rules (and was probably breaking them, making it less fun for everyone) so I put myself in time out before I get myself promptly removed from the playground.
human
all in time, youre handling things better than i did.

>if that makes any sense?
it does. it happens at once but its like youre pulling a loose thread on a sweater, following the obvious trail of bread crumbs. the one thought always directly supposes the next.
>reverse engineering some sort of cosmic kaleidescope 
yes! great stuff, reverse engineering is also how i tended to view it. like you were given a puzzle and told to solve it. dropped in a maze and told to escape. and its badass to have done it. 
>but I was maybe doing too much
heh heh, yep. seriously dont sweat it dude. it has to hurt a little. you seem to have learned for yourself quite well. they say its better to bring the blood to a man's cheeks than to drain him of it. that is your punishment, and mine.