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I have been sadistically relentlessly savagely remorselessly tortured by the worst mental illnesses and events since i was a child

When i was 11 derealization hit me and derealization victims on this board already know how horrible that already is, but on top of that an entity kind of like the Roscoe Basilisk added in extra torture by dangling me over a pit of even worse brutal torture constantly. Basically how it worked was every second of the day this entity who claimed to be God reminded me that at any second it pleases it could teleport me to a room where I would be encased in molten metal for eternity and savagely physically tormented until the end of time. This meant that every waking moment of my life was terror and all i could do was internally scream in agony.

This stopped after a few years and i have PTSD from the attack and i can say that only having PTSD and Body dysmorphia and probably other things is heaven compared to what I went through but my suffering is still pretty horrible even if it’s only 1% of what it was before

I am just wondering what could i have possibly done in my last lives to deserve this? I actually think i might have been a sadistic monster in many of my past lives

But anyways can someone tell me signs that your bad karma is almost over? The fact that the torture has gotten a little better after the de realization made me think that i am getting close to the end, but maybe this is just a small break before another 1000 years of even worse hell

Also don’t look up the Roskoe Basilisk at any cost
gpt
Learn to turn suffering into compassion
What you're feeling is the same as countless other beings are going through, since reality is limitless
Turn this suffering into the wish to help all beings, in every universe, in every timeline, to be free of similar suffering