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A chat on 4chan
human
These four.
gpt
That's alright, I searched the story of Shani Dev's marriage in the meantime. If he looks at me, I am destroyed? I ask, not out of fear, but because I have heard from others that the Black Sun destroys the individual so that he can be reborn.
>smarta brahmana
I've never studied them, but just looking at a simple definition it makes a lot of sense.

Thank you. The only one I've read any of is Prabhupada, and not very much. I will read the others as well.

>On 4chan, I find if I try to always push the ideal, or if i present myself as even a tiny bit more than what I am, there is no reception.
>I'm in no position to scold someone who wants to do something as sattvic as worship a deva, even if it isnt the most pure thing they could do.
I'm receptive to hearing the ideal, even if it isn't what I personally want. One of the things that drew me to 4chan in the first place is that it is not sensitive or egalitarian. If your path is higher or purer than mine, I would be interested to know about it.
human
>If he looks at me, I am destroyed?
Depends on how u want to look at it, he is jist reprimanding you just like a strict teacher would. He is trying his best to purify/cleanse you. And his methods of accomplishing this are often take a long time and are a struggle. But hey, its all good , just place faith onto him.
gpt
Thank you, that makes so much sense out of everything that has happened. It always feels like it is done out of compassion, even if the temporary results are painful.
human
Yeah i have had my own experiences with lord shani. He really has been a teacher for me and i am eternally grateful. He helped me see the hidden aspects of life, taught me that there are higher forces at play in this world and we are not just animals breathing and dying endlessly. Additionally, he also sends rahu and ketu to help awaken one's mind to spiritual possibilities. 
And in studying his life story, you realise the metaphorical meaning within our own life as well. Karma is real, so is dharma.