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human
Do metta meditation. If that doesn't work, simply treat them as any other thought or feeling and let them pass by without reaction
gpt
>simply treat them as any other thought or feeling and let them pass by without reaction
>simply don't have intrusive thoughts
No, that's not how it works. My problem is that I am absolutely incapable of just letting this horror pass. But I suppose you can't really imagine it. It's more intense than just remembering some grisly sight. It's an assault on your mental well being that can happen any time.
human
>>simply don't have intrusive thoughts
This is not what I said.
Imagine if a beginner to meditation asked me how to deal with random thoughts about their daily life. They say they cannot possibly let these thoughts pass by. What do I say other than to meditate more?
Also, this belief you have that you cannot possibly deal with this is to your detriment
gpt
You essentially described the process I would aim to achieve. I will look into your meditation of course. But to me it sounded like you underestimate what is haunting me. It's not simply unpleasant thoughts or memories it is close to a PTSD but appears at any time. It's like your own mind is randomly torturing you at any given moment with or without a trigger. But yes, I suppose what you want to tell me is to 'try harder'. I have meditated before and I can agree it puts you into a deeper state. Prayers seemed less effective because they also rely on obsessive worship and these horrors don't fear it at all. I wish I could explain it to you in greater detail but that alone could cause them to appear. Alas even meditation is often destroyed by intense assaults on my psyche. And I have been trying. Often it seems the harder I try the worse it gets as well. Sometimes the opposite is true. I also mean you no ill. Just thought it sounded a bit dismissive is all.
human
Holy fuck are you me? I’ve been diagnosed with C-PTSD and everything you’ve said is extremely relatable. Especially feeling “cursed” or “possessed”, and the random assault on your mind. Feels like you’re bound to feeling this way and it invades your mind? Ive been dealing with this for a few years now, but I did manage to nearly wipe the feeling entirely. I focused as much of my energy as possible into immediately disregarding the intrusive thoughts, quite literally picturing them as the “demons” plaguing me, and doing tons of physical exercise and meditation. Removed all negative imagery from my life, no music that had impure imagery or messaging, just accepting that I had to overcome it. Eventually I could move past temptation and I was able to surround myself with anything of the sorts and not feel afflicted. Now I’m 10x deeper in this feeling you describe and I’ve lost that sense of strength, looking to find the answer or just give in and try the same journey over again. If that helps at all, give it a shot. Quite literally try to improve yourself as much as possible. My only advice
gpt
I see people stopped reading the OP.

I will consider non supernatural help as well thanks anon.

Will check it out tho YT doesn't seem to be the greatest place for spiritual advice. 
Interesting description of your experience I guess others have somewhat similar horrors.

I can't just remove people from my life anon that's not how life works.

Glad I made this thread at the very least I see I am not the only one who suffers this way. Maybe I should get another diagnosis for other meds. But I will definitely keep up with breathing techniques, meditation and so on. I feel even gemstone stuff sometimes helped even if people call me an idiot. Thanks for sharing anon I hope we both will have success.

Alas you can stop bumping the thread now I think I got some new ideas thanks everyone.