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I hate dreaming, my dreams are absurdly weird and nonsensical compared to what other people say they dream.
Nothing make sense, there's no logic at all, and I don't mean flying cows, I mean that the whole reality gets messed up with some intangible abstract concept, it's difficult to describe (for example, sometimes, if I do something over the day too much, I don't dream with that, but it's like I dream through that, be that activity programming, a specific game I played too much, etc, I start to see reality as if I was doing that, which doesn't make sense and my mind gets fucked).
Not only that but i'm the fully opposite of a lucid dreamer, i'm never conscious when I dream, I never realize nothing makes sense until I wake up, it's all normal to my dream self, this is so strong that most of the time I always wake up confused and stunned. They are always unpleasant experiences, no matter if they are nightmares or not, and while I never truly realize i'm dreaming, I always feel uneasy.
Tl;dr: I hate sleeping, I started to drink because I don't want to dream anymore.
When I was a kid I also remember having weird experiences with dreams btw, not to this extent, but for example once I dreamed about being in a completely white void with some strange black pillars, the interesting part and what has struck with me is that I could feel the textures of those pillars in a way I have never felt anything before, like I could sense them, the best way I can describe the feeling is a dream but with sensorial feeling instead of visual images.
gpt
same shit happens to me anon. like im outside the realm of perceivable senses. it feels like im in a soap bubble when i dream.