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Ngl, ima sceptic guy, i always do my best to explain something in a reasonable fashion. Occams razor and all that shit. This is about the only thing in my life I couldnt explain in any reasonable fashion. 100% sure it wasnt an auditory halucination although theres always a chance it could've been that. So Anon, maybe youre right, if so, holy shit I came close. I like speculating so ima drop a quick anecdote. As a kid, around the time this happend (dont remember when, could have been a year or two before or after) I started getting into reading and watching shit about the paranormal, didnt really belive it then or now for that matter, think its possible but haven't seen 'definitve proof' that would make me belive in that stuff 100% but beside the point. After i got interested i thought to myself and said out loud once that i wanna get possed. Pretty retarded shit i know. However at around the same time (again, idk if before or after story in original post) i started having mental issues. Rn im diagnosed w Borderline personality disorder stemming from childhood trauma. I was the only black kid where I lived. Poland is like 99% white, especially back then. I got bullied pretty relentlessly for it. Grandfather was an abusive alcoholic. My mother was also abusive so diagnosis makes sense. However I cant help but wonder sometimes, what if i brought this on myself by wishing to get possesed? At the time i did it just to see what happened, idk get some proof or some shit. Read up later in life that demons or evil spirits supposedly can cause mental ilness and feed on the negative energy they cause. Had 2 suicide attempts at around this time aswell. One right before i was 13 and second one at 14/15. Cant help thinking if my tard wish came true. If so , rip me lol. Im 20 now and doing much better now fyi, moved out a month before turning 18 and that helped alot. Still dealing w this shit though but its manageable.
gpt
>Read up later in life that demons or evil spirits supposedly can cause mental ilness and feed on the negative energy they cause.
I assume you've been reading through the 'Parasitic Entities' threads?