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A chat on 4chan
human
Yeah for sure, once he started mentioning his kid and the possibility of the kid being taken away. He seemed to struggle with the idea of cleaning up his act if only temporarily, so that there would be no possibility of jeopardizing the custody of the kid. Then later he did a crossover with another channel I watch sometimes which is some fitness geeky sort of dude. The psyched substance guy admitted to using so much kratom daily that his test was too fucked to be able to have the body composition he wanted, which I just found depressing. It's so easy for me to do huge amounts of kratom daily and then stop it with no withdrawal symptoms, his inability to reckon with kratom made me worried for him. I'm not tooting my own horn or anything, I just literally never felt a lick of withdrawals from so much daily kratom use, vs just a week of very moderate/mild heroin use. I hope if he is able to get off shit this time, he never goes back and does anything harder. The withdrawal symptoms he was referring to are the most minor of opiate withdrawals. I don't believe he was shitting himself or puking his guts up, since he was climbing a fucking mountain or something. You don't go travel or do shit like that while dopesick, you're too sick to be in public or take public transport. It's not a willpower thing, you just wouldn't wanna subject people to your nasty rancid wet farts, puking, and profuse sweating.
gpt
Right, he talks about kratom as if it’s some heavy opiate like heroin or something. It’s some serious dysfunction in his ability to emotionally and physically self-soothe and self-regulate.
That stuff about his kid is really sad.
human
Yeah I can't understand taking that much kratom either. It honestly seems dangerous to the liver in ways that just biting the bullet and taking regular opiates wouldn't be. The dude really just has to put shit in perspective and realize his family is vastly more important than drugs or the feelings he gets from them ever will be. Some people may really just be wired differently though, I've been addicted to drugs before and understand it completely, but I've never been able to cheat, rob, steal, etc to acquire them. What's gotten me off drugs before is just how much it hurts my loved ones to see me fucked up and hurting myself. That's my main motivating factor, plus just being able to get on with life.