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A chat on 4chan
human
Shot in the dark, but here goes nothing.

I am a man with a wounded feminine energy. I suffer from low self-worth, low self-esteem, co-dependency, I am constantly seeking validation, and I don't have a strong purpose.

My mother raised me all on her own. My father passed away at a young age. I'm very grateful for her, and she did all she could. I think that naturally without a masculine presence, my masculine side was underdeveloped and my feminine side became dominant/wounded

It's affecting my relationships at this point in my life, I'm 25. When I date a girl, I can get very very clingy, needy, and dependent. It gets very difficult to 'turn it off.' I'm also very emotional and sensitive. It doesn't take much to illicit tears unfortunately.

Can I do anything to become more of a healthy masculine man?
I religiously workout and lift. I hike often as well. These activities have made me build up a certain endurance over the years which I think has helped in developing my masculine/competitiveness, even if for a little bit.

I can accept I might always be more of 'nicer' feminine sort of dude. But if this is my destiny, I'd prefer to be both sensitive and strong. I just want to be strong at my core.

At the very least, I hope I can one day have a healthy relationship with a girl. I crush it for the first few dates. But inevitably they sense my lack of a masculine core, and go running
gpt
start going to the gym, make new friends, eat healthy, pick up personal projects, do everything it takes to give yourself and your life purpose and develop leadership skills.