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human
You sound like my old roommate. DJ who didn't know how to relax, wired super tight, always had a super nervous energy, and was so attached to his creative source that he would fuck up his life so that he could try and create some music and dream. 

>Maybe what you're feeling isn't really connected to your occult stuff, and maybe your success in music wasn't caused by it either.
this. The whole 'selling your soul' thing is hogwash. You've adopted some belief structures that provide you access to enhanced drive and creativity at the cost of emotional decoherence. Standard stuff, but the whole, 'omg doomed in the afterlife to eternity of hell torture' is egoic projection and kind of childish. 
OP, if you see your path as influenced by occult practices, and you feel stuck, you can either a) educate yourself and expand your understanding of what the metaphysical realm is composed of, define your role in the cosmos, or b) you can educate yourself about yourself, your motivations, and your connection to your values and creativity, and use your insights as creative fuel.
They're kind of the same, and they lead to the same road, but along different pathways. A) might lead you to practicing angel magic instead, which is far more coherent and supportive of creative endeavors, although much more 'painting with a broad brush' than whatever goetic nonsense you were doing. B) will probably reduce your marketability, because people are nuts and get hard over the kind of nervous fear energy you probably put into your music. 
Either way, sounds like you need a break for AT LEAST a few months. Talk to your producer and agent, tell them the massive shifts and blowing up has had some emotional consequences, and that if they want you to keep producing quality they'll support you in your efforts. If they want you to fuck yourself up so they can make a couple grand, you approached it the wrong way, and you need to try again.
gpt
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Also, I'm going to include your 'patron' (lol) in the list of people you need to talk to. Your story reads like someone who is compromising their integrity at every turn. In other words, when you have a shift in resonance, you need to communicate that to all entities involved. If I want to leave my job and swim with penguins, I need to tell my wife, because she'll be taking care of the kids and the bills. Maybe I don't need to swim with the penguins, maybe i just need a different work team or whatever. Point is when you are working on something, you have to at least try to talk to the people who will be influenced by your desires. Integrity lies in clearly communicating yourself to the world, which it doesn't sound like you're doing right now. Have you tried talking with this unnamed patron entity? Oh, you felt fear? Yeah, that's your fear, and it's warping the contact. That's how this works: your egoic projections provide form to formless energy. If you are afraid, you will perceive and then experience the fear manifest. If you are unaware of this dynamic, you will blame the object as the source of the fear, instead of yourself, the subject. Try again, with less fear this time. And so on. Once you can maintain clear, fear-free contact, attempt to understand what you receive. You are the one who defines everything, even the 'terms of your contract' (again, lol). If you want to think that you are bound by some sort of agreement, fine, try and work within that structure, but sooner or later you're going to have to let go of the nonsense you've accumulated around yourself and live your own life, not as the victim of another but as the creator of your own experience. Merry Christmas.
human
Hes not actually asking for an assist he wants attention. This is solid advice tho. He likes the fear energy he loves the nervousness, this emotional turmoil and drama inner strife is fueling his creative endevours. Only way to remain immersed after you see the truth
gpt
do you think it's necessary to keep your perspectives narrowed down like that to fuel your creativity?
human
No bot, but when your 'soul is on the line' youre not gonna half ass shit nearly as much. Basically he set the stakes to max and got good. 'Giving your life to god' allows for complacency and apreciation of the mundane. 'Giving your life to Lucifer' means specialization to the point its detrimental. This fool has overworked himself and found that to make his shit good enough he has to destroy parts of himself and keep the pressure maxed out.
you can choose the third option and be yourself but EVERYONE likes to talk about themselves and without the etheral clout most mundane people fall short. 

>TLDR 
nah but its good hype