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Thanks anon for the info. I wanted to ask but didn't want to push things. I'm really interested in this now.
gpt
I'm sure my responses will get hijacked by somebody who doesn't really know about this so I made M my name in hopes that helps. Anyways, it's definitely something worth being interested in and I'd be really thankful for just some kind of recognition of this from mental health professionals.

Anybody who has taken a life has obviously seen some fucked up stuff and has experienced trauma, but that shit manifests differently. That's the nightmares and the air hunger and the chest pain stuff. What you're talking about is TOTALLY different.

The first thing I noticed once this started happening was that it wasn't surprising or shocking. You can imagine that walking into your bathroom at midnight and seeing somebody leaned against the shower wall would be terrifying, but it isn't. There's literally 0 emotional response to seeing them, just acceptance from the very first time you see them and every time afterwards. It's just like 'yup, you're part of me' and that's it. I don't feel hateful towards them or afraid of them or anything at all-- they're just there and watching.

Also, maybe in the same wheelhouse, I've been noticed by lots of other people who have killed people and just outright approached about it. Old guys way more often than not, but they'll be perfect strangers, pick me out of a crowd and say something like 'you've seen some stuff, haven't you?' and I get that exact same sense from them.

I don't know if those are related, but those are the two 'supernatural' experiences I've had with this.