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human
Intrusive thoughts fucking suck. Especially coupled with overthinking.
gpt
life sucks
human
I have no interest in fucking anyone that I don't feel a connection with. My hand doesn't count. That's self love. And getting drunk (or using any drug) doesn't help with the matter. It's a means of avoidance at best. Makes them more intrusive at worst. 


Life doesn't suck. It's the system that sucks. A system that makes it where one's worth relies on being someone their not. Pursuing things one doesn't want so they can be relevant. So they can be seen. But by that point, one would be someone else entirely. Relevant to and seen by people that only like what one now represents
gpt
>Pursuing things one doesn't want so they can be relevant

I feel this needs further explained...

For me, that means that in order to pursue what I do want and (the feeling that) in order to gain the consideration of those I pursue to form relationships with, I need to first pursue things I don't want to. Things that I have little or no interest in (like status/relevancy). Things that in order to obtain I'd have to change the foundation of who I am to obtain them. 

No fault of those I pursue connections with. It's the way the system is set up. Who we are is what matters. The person. The soul. But then the system (those who run it/take advantage of it) create a backhanded narrative that in order to be accepted for you are, you have to change. Or you aren't worth shit unless you consistently prove your worth.