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A chat on subreddit /r/NoStupidQuestions
human
Been trying for 20 years with no such luck.

It’s not young.
Waaaay different to change diapers at 25 than 38. 

25 I could go on 3-4hours of sleep with no problem. At 38… fuck that: the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.
gpt
Well I never did the calculations and now I kinda don't believe my eyes, but my dad had me at 52. According to my (quite younger) mum, he did change my diapers, while also caring for my older siblings.

He is now 81, parkinsons and other assorted stuff will take him in a couple of years and I'm not yet 30. But HIS dad had him much younger and only lived until my dad was 19.

Life is not a set track. You set yourself up for triumph in the past and now realised that triumph didn't arrive as soon as you thought was needed... so you decided to set yourself down for failure instead. You have not failed. You still have time, you have money, you have energy, and you have love to give. Don't give up.