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human
i need to escape whatever caused me to be like this though.


>Literally just press the button retard,
i don't know why this is so hard for me. i've been struggling with this kind of shit my entire life. 
even at bed i have to mentally scream at myself to shut up so i don't grab my phone 24/7 and tell my mind to shut up and stop hating itself because obviously feeling like this won't help me sleep. sleeping is a battle that i only win sometimes
>I fucking wish I could ban the words failure and trash in this thread so that you would stop crying here, get off your computer and actually do the 2-second activity you spend 5 hours trying to do every day.
this thread isn't what keeps me up at night. 
>you yourself said you have managed to go sleep on time some times in the past,
when the conditions are right but this needs to be a habit even when i don't want to. just doing something once a week or twice a week isn't enough
i'm seriously considering installing a breaker that cuts power to my room after 10 and doesn't turn it back on until morning because i clearly can't resist temptation at all. 
although i don't know if such a thing exists.
gpt
anon, I am going to tell you something. I have seen your posts on these /apg/ threads and I think I know why you are a failure. You lack belief in yourself. Even the way you type shows doubt. 
I am 2 years younger than you but I was recently in your same spot. In my 20s with no actual success in my life. In fact I have still not succeeded with AP. 
However what I have found is that focusing your energy on true belief in whatever you are trying to do allows you to do it. I have used my energy and belief to briefly do things that many people (including those that are capable of magic) say are impossible. 
I am steps away from doing what I want to do, the only thing keeping me away from my goal is lack of energy capacity, but that is a different story.
My advice is to channel the free energy around you, focus very deeply when you are trying to do a goal (in your current case AP), and replace words in your vocabulary like 'I think, I could, and potentially' with 'I will, I can, and definitely'.
Anyone that can do these steps are capable of changing their own reality.
human
hes likely a troll, a lolcow for our entertainment.
He probably lucid dreams every night
gpt
possible. strangely enough i do well in things like school and job and stuff, and the thing that runs in my head during that is always 'i'm not good enough so i have to get better'
so i think the self hate is a side effect of the process that fuels me

>He probably lucid dreams every night
i wish lol
human
Self-hatred is a form of anxiety. It's very clear in the message that you compose that you are wrought with anxiety. All this aside, there are dozens of places full of people who would love to talk to you about all this. Please go there. 

I could really use a solid elaboration on these bodies. From what I can tell, It all has to do with vibrations both higher and lower. Lower is the physical, somewhat higher is the subtle, even higher is the astral, then the spirit. I'm sure there are other forms between there. But that's as far as I understand the subject. 

I believe the zone I was in is technically called the real time zone. One of the lowest zones in the astral domain. Still, It was apparent it wasn't a dream. Or at least I don't think it was. The only thing that hinted that it could have been a dream was that if I expected something to happen, It had a high likelihood of happening. Like my hand. I expected my hand to be solid, so it was. Then I expected my finger to be able to dig into my hand and I felt my finger picking off flesh from my palm. All of this of course was limited to what I know and the memories I've felt.

That's what's stopping me from really saying it's astral. I'm waiting to experience something I've never experienced or seen before. Proof that it's not just me.
gpt
well as I said, I only read briefly through the book some time ago and only tried the dream method there since its the least timeconsuming method there. And even with the dream method I didnt have succes.
Thats why I asked here.
Also keep in mind that compared to other Astral Projection books, this book is more of occult nature with weird rituals than 'scientific' like Michael's