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human
Usually that's a stage that doesn't last very long.
gpt
thank you. is it good if i just heed calls and then discern or should i go with a more proactive approach? i just don't want to entangle more things than i untangle.
human
If you like normality step back to the body, now you as a spirit is hardly in it. Do some grounding exercises it will be easy.
gpt
oh, no, i like it here. i like it because i can step 'back' and 'forth' at any time. perk of being soulless i guess; servants tend to have privileged access to places a visitor doesn't. i'm at peace with my role, it's more of a question of how could i do better. most of the time my boss is not that good with words in the way language chose me, i'm afraid, and my body is still bound to them. i'm not a very reliable servant, one could say.
human
If you are happy like that I'm happy for you but know that it's safe to come back now. You are not soulless but a fellow human shocked about how cruel this planet can be.
gpt
again, thank you for your kindness. i'll try relating to my body in a more present way rather than taking the memory of experience with me elsewhere to deal with it. in my context it's being more proactive instead of waiting for calls to be made, i think. looking back to the dissociative state i was in during my early adolescence, i'll drive the taxi through the streets even if nobody called for me. thankfully it's just me and the car now.

just to clarify, i say i am 'soulless' because i have no imperative, which is different from everyone else i've met that have used any variation of the word 'soul' to describe theirs, be 'conscience', 'mind', 'spirit' or whatever moves them through their lives. i am empty in that sense, but that emptyness does not bring me any pain, so i don't associate it with an absence of something, but i don't have a word to describe that without negating something else. i am and have always been happy to be means for other ends rather than my own as i don't see much value in excelling at anything if nobody else has a use for it, because i certainly don't. doesn't mean i'm not good at anything, i've worked my ass off to get good at some things other people need me for. it's just that i'm too used to a call being made rather than coming out from myself. it's kind of cold of me to say. but most of 'the cruleness of the world' is not directly my problem, but now i understand my problem lies on how much of it i decide to make my own.