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human
Events take place at grandparents. Last night had some thoughts about childhood involving certain objects. Today, while going through stuff and cleaning up the place, I came across some of these objects.
When I was here with my ex-girlfriend and her sister, we checked out the attic, where we found some weird things. There was a briefcase from the previous owner with stuff from the 60's: couple books and two letters. I started reading the first one. It was written by a woman who was complaining to a committee about how she is treated by the boss of the collective farm in USSR. He was ordering her around and sexually assaulting her while she, in her own words, worked her ass off 'till her back was drenching in sweat while the boss did nothing but assault her and laugh.
In the other letter a lady was asking to borrow some money and promised that she will pay it back on such and such date with all the money she already owes.
Those two letters summed up our relationship to an extent: I was abusing drugs and alcohol living like a slob while ex was the one being responsible with everything. I was a self proclaimed king with no money and bad energies surrounding me. Her sister just said something like 'OWNED' to me (she practices magic if that is relevant)
Some days after those letters we went exploring deep into forest and found a house at the end of the road. The house had recently been demolished so we started to check if there is anything left in the ruins. Again found some letters and books. Took a couple back home. recently opened the one book left and the first thing I see is a short story called 'Two letters'. Again I could see some parallels in that story with those days.
Recently I am coming to find all sorts of things resonating with what has happened in the past and what I want to do with my life.

Could this be some 'spiritual thing'?...spirits showing the path I hadn't followed and getting me back on that track to own up to my mistakes
gpt
>tl;dr there is no way I can shorten this. Please read it and share your honest thoughts

The 'OWNED' part came after reading those two letters and me realizing that they are about me
human
Read up on Jung and synchronicity. 

If she read the letters, she likely just noticed the pattern as well. Magic(k) is essentially just using the emergent patterns that result from synchronicity for your personal gain, so be skeptical if any of these people are 'guiding' you through interpretation of anything like this, to reach a conclusion/shift in behavior that is in their best interest.

Don't assume malevolence from magick, but understand that the darker drives influencing the behaviour of someone practicing magick very well might be beyond their understanding.
Of course, that's true even if its all purely psychological, and there isn't some reflection of the mechanics of the universe within the mechanics of the mind that simultaneously generate synchronistic events and allow us to imagine potential futures.
gpt
I will check it out. Thank you!

Used to do some magic back in the day. Shit hit the fan after I tried to do a mass from a satanic spell book and failed to finish it. Probably because I invited people who had nothing to do with it. Now I feel like they hold power over me and I have no idea how to deal with this. Sometimes I hear how people say shit from strangers like 'he has branched off' while walking with my parents

Maybe I should somehow close a deal I was offered, by what I think was the 'devil'. No offspring for me if I take the deal
human
Yeah man, there's plenty of interesting studying to do before thinking of anything like that. I think studying the 72 names of God could be a useful start for you. Kabbalah is lit if you keep more of an open mind than Orthodox Jews and less of an open mind than the more hand-wavy hippy bullshit of the New Age movement.
gpt
whet is the new age movement?
I remember when some guy lost his marbles and started talking how he is targeted by new world order agents and that he can see all wrongdoings through the eyes of his paintings