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human
You have a few options:
>EMDR Therapy 
>Cognitive Behavioral Therapy
>Hypnotherapy

Any combination of the above.

Something I’ve done because I’ve been broke my whole life and couldn’t afford therapy (before YouTube because a viable free option) was cutting everything out of my life and starting over. Much like an extreme dietary plan where you know something is making you unwell and you have to cut out everything and slowly reintroduce them to figure out what’s going on. You have to create a new foundation to build on and avoid the things that created bad memories in the first place, making peace with the past in the process.

Kava and kratom have helped me when things became unbearable. Hope this helps, anon.
gpt
Thank you for your advice. I'll try Kava and Kratom unless it is not sold in my country or sth