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human
You probably reinforced the ego this whole time. Why did you wanna kill your ego? Maybe that was an ego trip in itself and now you’re finally coming to terms that you absolutely wasted valuable time chasing a useless goal in order to jerk yourself off. Oh well, try again next time!
gpt
This basically, what OP should've done is what people do when facing something like let's say addiction. To overcome temporary desires but in a way that was done purely by choice and not forced , there is always this mental dilemma when trying to fix an addiction, sometimes the 'addiction' might just be a result from something else like as an escape from other stresses. So just quitting said 'addiction' will lead to a miserable life and most likely down a path to another cope mechanism. Just some food for thought for OP