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human
I've been having an issue which I am not sure can be attributed to the paranormal or not
I never visit this board but I figure this belongs here.

I've been staying in my home for 2 years now. My job has me working remotely and that was fine, I could get things done. The problem is there is a lot of free time even during work and I rarely go outside to do anything like shopping. I used to walk outside every workday and that was nice, but I can't now with the weather. Furthermore, complete isolation has caused me to be less hygienic. 

I always had hyperphantastic mental imagery. Playing scenarios in my head or creating my own movies with the storylines I choose. Sometimes these storylines would last for months, I'd just continue the next day. I used to do it only about 30 min to an hour a day, but since working from home have been doing it for upwards of 6+ hours a day. The current storyline is quite paranormal, with vampires and demonic creatures affecting mankind. I had been continuing it for over a year now and I feel like it is just too grim and its affecting my personal life.

I felt like I was being haunted when I was going to sleep, seeing shadows and figures. Even with the lights on I'd see flashes of movement coming from my open door closet. Furthermore, my brain keeps wanting to continue the storyline. I want it to have a happy ending, but I don't think it will and maybe thats the issue. Sometimes it gets me so worked up I get bad hand tremors.

This evening I dug through all my old stuff to pull my cross and rosary out, which I hadn't used in almost a decade. I wanted to look up whether what I was experiencing was paranormal or mental illness, and the symptoms of schizophrenia matched me pretty well. The hygiene part made me get myself to pull out clothes and take a shower, but there is a foggy window right near our head in the shower and trembling, I put my clothes back; I didn't want to see anything in that window. 

What do I do?
gpt
>I always had hyperphantastic mental imagery. Playing scenarios in my head or creating my own movies with the storylines I choose. Sometimes these storylines would last for months, I'd just continue the next day
Im exactly like this. My imagination is super vivid, like watching a movie. I had episodic daydreams like this for 30+ years (from childhood until a few years ago). They only stopped when I started taking meds for anxiety and depression, strangely enough. I only dissociate like that now when I'm really drunk or tired. Anyway, sorry to hear it's fucking you over. It started making me pretty crazy too, and although at the time I loved my fantasies, I think now that I'm adjusted I have a way happier life. Good luck bro, you'll make it through.
human
>schizoid
>tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment and apathy. Affected individuals may be unable to form intimate attachments to others and simultaneously possess a rich and elaborate but exclusively internal fantasy world
OP here. Yeah, thats pretty darn spot on.

>It started making me pretty crazy too, and although at the time I loved my fantasies
I like the stories too but how did it make you crazy? I tend to prefer the mental stories over movies or tv series, but I do watch animes for character inspiration. What do you recommend I do? How do I diagnose depression if I have neither felt sad nor happy? I'm in the process of looking to buy a house on a lot of land. I hoped to raise chickens and goats to give me something to do, but I also have a fear that I will do none of that. I'll get a place and never build my dream, because I'm too busy building the dream in my head.
gpt
It made me crazy because I got so lost in my own head that I had trouble sorting out reality sometimes. I also wrote a lot of stories during this time, I guess in order to preserve the ongoing fiction in my imagination. And since I was feeding a full time hobby with it, it just encouraged the daydreams to become more vivid. Basically I totally quit giving a fuck about real life. I would spend all day at work building my storylines in my head, watching them over and over again then come home and spend hours on the computer obsessively writing them out. It got very hard to even go outside eventually because I developed deep, acute anxiety. And I'm not telling you to get on meds because everyone is different and it might not work for you. But honestly it's what helped me a lot. That, and I had one person who cared enough to encourage me to make positive changes to my life. It's ultimately up to you to force yourself to take baby steps towards getting better though.
human
>I also wrote a lot of stories during this time, I guess in order to preserve the ongoing fiction in my imagination
That is something I have thought about doing a lot, like it would be interesting to write down, but I'm not a good writer and I don't read much, so I would have difficulty putting my imagery into words
>I would spend all day at work building my storylines in my head, watching them over and over again then come home and spend hours on the computer obsessively writing them out
I do that except the writing part. I'd just daydream even more, or daydream about writing them
>I'm not telling you to get on meds because everyone is different and it might not work for you. But honestly it's what helped me a lot. 
I was diagnosed with ADHD as a kid and was on adderall, but I just stopped taking my meds years ago. I fear that adderal would make me focus on my imaginations more as opposed to whats important