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First?

When I was 3-5 years old when laying in bed I would stare into the dark with my eyes wide open and see these very faint soccer ball size orbs of glittering light that would swirl around my room. I clearly remember thinking they are my friends coming to visit. I think I told my mom and she got uncomfortable and just disregarded it.
gpt
You should look in to Carlos Castaneda. The books can be.. extensive, lessons in stories. Sometimes the lessons either seemingly nonsense or riddles you must think about.

It's good stuff, ignore the allegations it's fiction. The practice it teaches works, and it's one of the few to describe to me a personal experience succinctly.

Dark room practice is literally what you did as a toddler. Those were spirits, or inorganic beings made of energy. I'm sure they'd welcome you back happily; go on a fun dream with them.