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human
>What will I experience
I cant say exactly. Whatever Krishna wants of you. It could be sweeping the steps of a temple. It could be building the worlds largest temple. It could be raising a family, it could be raising a plant. Everyone has a unique relationship with the Supreme.
The important part as we try to figure out what our service is, is to be conscious of our actions and the desires behind them. What are we doing for Krishna, if anything? What do we know of Him, for how can you possibly serve a person you dont know? If you cant think of anything, can you find someone you are convinced just wants the happiness of God and help them at all?
The hard thing to get, and even harder to accept - is the concept of doing things solely for the pleasure of another can be the most pleasurable thing for you. This entire realm is built around self-pleasure. Built around us souls going 'I am like God, so I AM(should be) God. I AM(should be) the center. I AM(should be) the judge of good and evil (what I like or what I dont). I AM(should be) the final enjoyer of this existence.'
The spiritual realm, and spiritual pleasure is opposite. It is 'I am like God because I am a tiny part of God. God is the center. How can I please God? What does God think is good or evil (what does God like or not like)? How can I use my little bit of will to arrange existence so that God will enjoy it?'
And in this we will find our true bliss, just as the hand finds its true nourishment by helping food to the stomach.
>if I will even have an individual perception to experience with?
In Gaudiya Vaishnav thought, there is such a way to escape material suffering through the temporary (but very very long - think many millions of universes timespan) erasure of self and 'merge into Oneness' with God.
In this condition, there is no subject and object, so no lover and beloved, so no service and no loving exchanges. Thus, this mukti-through-merging is not very highly considered.
gpt
Thank you for the post, anon; I understand that doing something for the pleasure of another is a pleasant thing; it is a great component of my spirituality. I was only wondering about the 'to what' of this practice. Where do I end up? For how long? Notice that I wish to continue with a 'subject-object' relationship, that I wish to go to a better place, preferably forever. This does not have to be a static state, of course; I was wondering if you know something more about this.
human
>I wish to go to a better place, preferably forever
Every place will continue to be miserable without Krishna.
With Krishna, the place and activity - no matter what it is - will be blissful.
There are books that describe Goloka Vrindavan, which I accept as truly existing in some manner beyond imagination, and if that helps you focus awareness than seek them out.
But this right now, here is this time in this place doing whatever most puts your awareness on loving and serving God - that is your spiritual existence.

Could you love Krishna if he sat you down in front of a computer and told you 'What would really make me laugh is if you shitpost pics of me and info about me for all eternity on this Bengali humidifier repair forum.'
I dont know if I could.
But I know I have been to about a dozen temples across the world, and half of them I have had the wonderful pleasure to paint some part of the temple. And when I focus my awareness on those times, there is no separation between them and me. Those moments were my service to God. Those moments ARE God. And they are eternally blissful.
gpt
Thank you for taking the time to answer other anons. I have a question not directly related to Sanatana Dharma, but since you have been able to answer other anons about how deities work I would value your advice.
For the last few years I have felt a strong connection to wrathful deities and to the Black Sun. They do not speak directly, but in visions, dreams and coincidences. I'm not even sure of the identity of the being or beings who are doing this, only that they are very wrathful and concerned with justice and order. The result is that I have been forced to confront painful memories to an excruciating level until I know I could handle a similar situation in the future. I'm also being drawn toward fixing mundane problems that I have been ignoring for far too long. It's like I've gone AWOL and the sergeant is dragging me back to the barracks to do my duty.
Is there a way to find out who is reaching out to me? Are there any devotional practices I should be doing to please him/her? Also I noticed that you said you are not an Acharya, but you appear to be very knowledgeable. Is there any particular guru or organization you would recommend for learning more?
human
Drawn to the black sun? I thought that it was just a metaphor
gpt
IDK. As I said, I'm not sure of the identity of who is doing this. The Black Sun has featured in visions and dreams, and everything Bhakta is saying concords with what I experienced.