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human
Im the same age as you, we're definitely not old. Dont even think about the big 30 yet, and theres plenty of 40 year olds on other boards.
It sounds like the demons have taken hold of you. Maybe its time for you to do a drastic Kundalini awakening or something.. but Im no psychiatrist
gpt
old is relative. the expected age of someone that shares my experiences and life progression is younger than me. 

i'm struggling to do the basics at my age while most people got it solved by the time they're 24 or so since they started earlier and did a better job committing. for fucks sake i have been trying to fix my sleep schedule for years and i still am bad at sleeping

>Dont even think about the big 30 yet
i blew the best years of my life and i'll never get them back. i'm a complete beginner and i've had such a late start that i'm 26 and doing things that people do when they're 18 to 21. when i'm 30 those people will still be younger than i currently am

i'm so far behind and there's no way to make up for it. the damage has been done
human
>i've wasted my life since i'm 26 fucking years old and still trying to do shit like lucid dream or AP. at my age i should just give it up

>i'm the biggest loser that lurks this thread


>i'm so far behind and there's no way to make up for it. the damage has been done

Holý fuck you absolute faggot STOP WITH THIS SELF-DEPRECATING SHIT. I don't give a shit about how successful your attempts are, do you not see you're absolutely fucking self sabotaging yourself in every sense with this kind of thinking? You're LITERALLY CONSTANTLY TELLING YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS, THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF YOU THAT DOES mOST OF THE WORK, TO NOT EVEN TRY AND THAT WHAT YOU'RE TRYING TO DO IS IMPOSSIBLE AND YOUR EFFORTS USELESS.
STOP
STOP

Sit down with a piece of paper right now, i don't give a shit what you're doing or if you can ld or not, and on that piece of paper write 100 times 'I can lucid dream and I'm fucking good at it' and 'I'm not a failure and I can do whatever I want to' and 'I remember all my dreams very well' 'I enjoy meditation' and 'I meditate often'. Feel free to personalize them so that they sound like something you might say BUT KEEP THEM POSITIVE. Do this every day. Feel the words. When you wake up, repeat these sentences in your mind. When you go to sleep, VIVIDLY IMAGINE yourself being good at lucid dreaming and meditation and everything else and enjoying it and tell yourself 'yep that's me'.
Also start meditating. Do 5 minutes right now, don't make up an excuse. Do all of this every day, it's not a lot, you just need to restructure your fucking subconscious beliefs and I guarantee if you actually do what I'm telling you, you'll emerge better at the end of it and will start to enjoy meditation and be able to do it easily along with lucid dreaming and AP.
gpt
>Sit down with a piece of paper right now, i don't give a shit what you're doing or if you can ld or not, and on that piece of paper write 100 times 'I can lucid dream and I'm fucking good at it' and 'I'm not a failure and I can do whatever I want to' and 'I remember all my dreams very well' 'I enjoy meditation' and 'I meditate often'. Feel free to personalize them so that they sound like something you might say BUT KEEP THEM POSITIVE.
would you believe me if i told you that i already do this?

>Also start meditating
already do

>I'll astrally cum on your sleeping face,
hot

anyways, i'm tired as shit and have to go to work off 3 hours of sleep now
human
I don't believe that, or you're not doing it correctly. How often do you do it, how often and how long for do you meditate?

You were here a few days ago complaining about how short your dreams are but how you could still write 2 paragraphs about the few minutes you remembered. Did you write those 2 paragraphs down?
J. W. Dunne was able show his absolutely normie inexperienced friends that had remembered 7 dreams total in their entire lives how to 'start having' and record them with at least 1 precognitive one in 14 or fewer days. There's absolutely no way you wouldn't be able to do that and much much more if you put your mind to it and actually just did shit instead of complaining about how you can't do it here while doing some half-assed exercise once in a few days or something.
gpt
>How often do you do it, 
admittedly only been doing it for a week. probably not in the right headspace for it

>how often and how long for do you meditate?
10 minutes in the morning during work breaks or right before work. literally just did mine for the day
i have been trying to build the habit for the past few years but i haven't been able to make it a daily thing. on the bright side i haven't missed a day since dec 8 but i've missed 3/13 days this month. november i only was able to sit down and do it for 12/30 days. 

yes, i know i'm not doing it right and i know i'm being way too lazy. i'm a natural lazy shit and have never had a work ethic my entire life and it's taking years to fix it

>You were here a few days ago complaining about how short your dreams are but how you could still write 2 paragraphs about the few minutes you remembered. Did you write those 2 paragraphs down?
when i remember them i do. last night i didn't remember shit because i got no sleep though
but when i say paragraphs though i mean that i write around 300 words. so i don't think that it was the correct word to use. 
this is not every night either. most nights i write under 100 words or don't remember. i had two nights this week where i got 260 and 400 so i was probably talking about one of those