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human
You know how they say you should first learn to be happy with yourself before seeking out the company of a partner? The whitepill is that if you actually learn to be fully happy with yourself, you literally won't even need anyone else, and that's the best state to be in. Then you can take just as much time as needed looking for the perfect match, if you come to the conclusion you'd also enjoy having the company of someone else.


Every time, I fuck her hard and cum in her pussy, then she cries tears of happiness telling me how glad she is to have me while hugging me in her arms. Ponder the fact you'll never experience that, realize how fucking sad and detestable what you're doing is, then either go find another anonymous random woman you haven't even seen or interacted with to whiteknight for while projecting your ed on her boyfriend, or better yet, just stop being a faggot completely.
gpt
LEAVE ANONS, BPD ISNT WORTH IT
I had a BPD girlfriend and I tried so so hard to keep it going but one day after breaking up for what seemed like the 20th time it actually ended. And I thank God for this.

Anon, I know what you're saying. Sex with my BPD gf was great. This is unironically a very characteristic sign of BPD. People with BPD cope with emptiness with the drug that is sex, and what you thought was good sex was really just intense sex made intense because of your ex's desperation to be wanted and loved.
human
>LEAVE ANONS, BPD ISNT WORTH IT
i know dude its been two years of this hell.
im happy you got out. how did she cope?
gpt
Hard to explain. I'm sure you understand how hard it is to explain literally anything in a BPD relationship. Felt just like one of our 20+ past 'break ups', only that this time she was actually blocked and I made it very clear that it she was.
She's probably taken it really hard, but anon, it's not worth thinking about. If you break up with her she is not your responsibility anymore. For me, it was physically painful worrying about how she was going to cope on her own after breaking up. Her hooks were that deep inside me, and getting past this feeling felt like I was ripping it out of my own skin. People with BPD have no sense of self and no self esteem, so they use you for both, and in turn, you lose yours. But once your out, you're free, you find yourself again, and how can you even keep up a spiritual routine otherwise?
It's been about a month and I'm feeling the best I have in my whole life, I dare to say. I don't have to worry about not checking my phone and replying to her to avoid a potential argument, I don't even have to worry constantly about her state of mind at any given moment. I could give many examples of how my life has improved, but the biggest for me is spiritually, I've made more progress in the month that I've broken up with her than the entire length of the relationship.
Get out anon, it won't get better. I thought it would. In fact, this was my 2nd time in a relationship with her. I thought I learnt my lesson but I convinced myself that it could work, but it can't, and it never will. BPD is a serious illness that needs years and years of intense therapy. It's a struggle getting them help in the first place, let alone the therapy actually making a net positive in her mental health. You will have to be there for another 5+ years if you want to take the long journey towards helping her, and there's only a slim chance of it actually helping her anyway. 
You deserve better than that. Get out and don't look back.
human
>I don't have to worry about not checking my phone and replying to her to avoid a potential argument, I don't even have to worry constantly about her state of mind at any given moment.
Damn that was me a 100 % before I just started pisschilling no matter what in order to keep my sanity. I almost feel silly asking this but are normal relationships not like this? Feels strange to think about as I've only been in 2, both with BPD chicks.
gpt
I'm honestly not sure. Looking back on it I think I've only been in relationships with BPD chicks. 
At least I know one of the causes for this. Even my birth chart tells me my relationships are going to involve power struggles, kek.