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human
>Late last year intense suffering produced big change which I'm now following.
The same thing happened to me, mine occurred right on 'schedule' on my Scorpio eclipse in November and did tremendous change on me. 
But you should remember this is likely also very constructive for you, it wouldn't painful if it wasn't, I know it sounds cliché but that's what it is
gpt
Thanks for the insight. The change the suffering caused I see as even more than constructive, I see it as a boon. Despite the suffering that caused it, the suffering itself is small compared to its value. Not to be dramatic, but I had more or less given up on a typical life and goals, and hadn't reconciled what not attaining those things brings up emotionally. I don't mean to be vague, and I'll happily elaborate if you want, but I don't know how much is generally appropriate to share.