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human
Mathematics. The language that the Lord wrote the universe in
gpt
this is what I was studying. It was cool, I understand it pretty intuitively, but it feels incredibly shallow in scope. I know that sounds braindead, but it's a language of description, not really a language of understanding, as I approach it at least. Like, I don't understand the why's of anything, I just understand this is the program that predicts these things. Cool, I love math a lot. It attracts a lot of fuckin' huge dorks.
human
How far did you actually go with mathematics? I don't think you can call a field like math shallow if you only studied at a high level for a year or whatever.
gpt
yeah, not further than that. Like I said, a braindead comment I'm sure, but the way I was experiencing it it may have been a language but it wasn't phonetic, it wasn't communicative for me. It felt missing the soul of the language that I am looking for in my studies.
Have you studied much more? What are your experiences?
human
I'm mid-way through a master's in physics. The research I've done is mostly computational stuff, where my undergrad thesis was some fun wank using group theory to inspect a 'simple' type of quantum computer. I'm still very much a fledgling with physics, and it feels like my undergrad was just a small stepping stone.

After my undergrad I concluded that neither physics nor math are going to teach me anything about living, and that ultimately I'm pursuing them for fun (which I've heard echoed by people much more qualified than me). Neither math nor physics is shallow, though, and perhaps nearly any field can be reduced in that way. My physics education at least gives me a mental step from which to inspect the rest of the world, the useful bit being more a way of thinking than a concrete set of knowledge to draw from. A professor, an old supervisor of mine, said that, at least for physics, the education is largely about producing an analytical 'physical' way of thinking about things (on top of teaching you foundational science). To add to that, there are probably concepts or ways of thinking that can be drawn from fields like math and physics to apply to the spiritual or the occult, but they probably won't be math or physics anymore.

As some practical advice, what helped me out in my undergrad was taking courses unrelated to physics. Courses like art history, historical political science/philosophy etc. I also took some additional math courses that I generally found fun. This helped to keep me from being burnt out by studying just physics. My undergraduate thesis project was also a lot of fun and very rewarding, so research-based courses are also a good for that.

I don't think you're going to enjoy studying anything rigorously for four years if you're expecting 'soul'.
gpt
bless you brother

honestly, sounds fun. You sound like an interesting figure. Have any books that are special to you you'd care to share?

I do have an imagination that, left unchecked, will wordlessly explore concepts that I'd like to give language and substance to through studies...

teaches u for trying to steal dirt motherfucker

I believe I understand what you're saying. It's similarly what interests me in philosophy; it's not so much the exact teaching itself, but the manner of thought, exploration, and contemplation that it teaches secondarily. 
I will think about this. I do miss doing math, which is a fun sentiment to share in the hippie circles I find myself in ('oh nooooo, dude u need to turn off the mind, why are u thinking???' honestly, they act as if they brain should never be accessed, ever, and it's ludicrous) hahaha