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A chat on 4chan
human
OP you said several times you took it too far, I'm interested if you could go into more detail on this?

Like, were you trying out your power of will in the car accident or something?
gpt
Yes, so I did take it too far. After my experiments I became extremely excited about the possibilities, and sadly I became focused on some very selfish visions of the future I could create. I think it was because of how lonely my situation was. Like I got kinda obsessed over seeing so called 'justice' done to those who had wronged me. It led me down a bitter path, a really unproductive one too because it was in conflict with who I wanted to be.
Another way I took it too far was that I saw so much exponential growth that I became enamored with what could be. Like a crypto/stocks guy who sees all these ways to make millions, but he never does because he sells and jumps to the next moonshot before anything has the chance to happen.
It's hard to be patient with growth when you only think about growth. It's hard to understand that even a graph that trends really hard upwards has some dips. And when you feel those dips it's awful. It feels like you lost your progress. There's this amazing quote about how re-starting a thing is much harder than starting the thing.


I wasn't actively doing anything out of the ordinary during the car accident, but I do have my own theories about how I may have set the stage for that event.