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pt.1

Yes man, you are going to pay for your actions, I'm talking as a 19 yo who went on the same path as yours, never done benzos and only discovered psychedelics once quitting/starting my spiritual growth but still did a shitton of booze, weed, and oppiates from 16 to 18. Don't think 'I'm gonna pay for my actions' as in some bearded sky daddy's gonna strike you down with thunder, your punishment is that keep being a junkie will permanently ruin your life, quitting will be atrocious, and you will never be able to experience substances in moderation like normal people do (at least you're not for a really long time) and that's what you deserve.

Quit now cause there's no better time. Quit now because you will have to eventually and inevitably. Quit now because sobriety and discipline will bring you the closest you've ever been to God, your inner and outer God. Quit now because only you know how miserable and unhappy you are with your current like.

What helped me was a mix of being drastic and sheer discipline; delete all your dealers' numbers, ditch all your friends that still consume no matter how dear they are, throw out every bong, rolling paper, grinder, opiate pipe etc. You may think you're shilling smoking weed instead of doing hard drugs, you're not, weed only makes you live in an illusion, it makes you content with being miserable, quit everything. 

If there's a pleasurable activity you know for a fact you can keep under control use that to let off steam. If you say that's weed, you're lying to yourself. I recommend pure abstinence and working out, the best way to let off all that stress from quitting.
A GOLDEN tip that helped me and hope will help you to is wim hof breathing / holotropic breathing / yogic breathing. Look it up. You can literally get high with your breath. this is the only high you can grant yourself. it's like a really short-lived psychedelic experience.
gpt
pt. 2

Just recently I came across a really good paper on microdosing which I'm going to start even though I pretty much overcame all my addictions.

The reason you feel miserable is that your brain got used to unnatural, unrealistic, unhealthy levels of dopamine, with this fucked up brain of yours, no other activity will ever feel as enjoyable as drugs.

Psilocybin can reverse that, after at least 3-4 weeks but I'll go a month in your case of sobriety you can start microdosing psylocibin every 3 days in combination with lion's mane mushroom every day.

They will revert your brain into standard-setting and hard wire your current state of mind, so if you're sober, after psylocibin, your brain will think of being sober as his normal state, once this is achieved, reading, running, people and other normal activities will make you fill a pleasure you didn't thought was possible with such mundane things.

I've been where you are my brother, trust me, sobriety is much much better. I hope with all my hearth you overcome your addictions, wish you the best of luck and may your strength never leave you when you need it the most. God speed brother