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human
Are you a man? Some baby girls don't like men, I was like this and if the man had facial hair too I thought he was Satan himself. You could have quite a dominating presence/aura to you and with all the spirit work you do this could be amplifying it. You should know yourself if you have a bug or not from all the work you put in. Learn a cleansing modality like Reiki or something if nothing else.
gpt
Just to clarify, this just happened one time. Before that, my cousin just stared at me or even laughed when looking at me. That's why I might think that all of this is related to the bad energy I had during this last month.


I usually do this, and just play around, but she just keeps staring at me like she's surprised or something


I go on and off with no fap. I was at a streak when a lot of negative feelings started creeping up (around the start of december) and I broke the strike. Since then it went downhill but I'm returning to that good energy state. Before that I was going for walks, sitting on my backyard appreciating nature and meditating, and taking a break off social media. It is weird, these negative feelings and states come on and off like the seasons. 
I have listened to some audiobooks of goddard and read about him, but I'm going to get more in depth. I've read books that are not necessarily related to magick like The Kybalion or La Voz de tu Alma (Your Soul's Voice), by Lain García Calvo.


That's what I thought


Maybe, but I don't feel like I am evil at all


I was baptised when I was a child, and I went through the whole process of Catholicsm (my first Communion and all that), but I didn't like it. I don't consider myself a Christian, but I believe in a superior power because of my experiences.


Yes, I am a man. When my cousin started crying I had facial hair. 
Some people told me that I look intimidating/dominating (I'm good looking btw, but I give off that vibe). I'm just starting with the magick stuff, so I haven't gone through protection stuff yet.
human

In my personal life, I remember last year I had this immense urge to try and purge myself of negative energy. Both physical and nonphysical. Everyday I would have like 2 energy drinks, smoke cigarettes and drink probably 4 to 5 beers before bed. My diet was horrible and I didn't exercise at all. Not to mention my entire aura felt like it was just loaded with unreleased trauma and negativity. I just had this incredible urge to have to purge everything. I just wanted to feel clean. 

Since then my subconscious has prompted me to start living healthier. No more energy drinks, stopped smoking, drastically cut the alcohol. I workout almost every day. Lifting and jogging make you feel amazing by the way. After a good workout, the feeling is like taking drugs. 

Recently I've been experimenting with drinking distilled water. The theory is that it will help pull out toxins from your body that accumulate over the years. 

Just some ideas. Maybe even try like acupuncture or some form of energy healing. I'm no expert but I suspect that something about either your face/body language or aura is somehow off-putting to this kid. 

I say just start purifying your life inside and out.
gpt
Thanks for the advice, anon. I was an Athlete back in High School (I was one of the best in my country in my discipline) and life was great, but things changed and I started to feel like shit, so I quitted. I started smoking weed like a maniac when I was 17 as a way to cope with all the pain that I was going through, and shit got even worse. 

Now I've changed my habits, but instead on focusing that much on my body, I'm developing my spirtituality. 

I barely listen to music, stopped watching YouTube and now I'm starting to read books and acquiring knowledge. I think I'm on the right path. If I combine all of this with exercise, I think I can become a much better version of myself.