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A chat on subreddit /r/me_irl
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My daughter attempted suicide by cutting her wrists. When my husband yelled to call an ambulance my first thought was that the bill would ruin us financially and we should just load her in the car, my second thought was I was a terrible mom for even thinking of the cost. Shes still alive and has a long way to go to be okay. I dont let her know this but even with our insurance between the hospital stay and the ambulance I'm not sure how to make ends meet this year. Not to mention all her follow ups with therapists, specialists and doctors. Our health system is a joke. If anyone else in our household gets sick or has an accident this year we are gonna be bankrupt.
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&gt;When my husband yelled to call an ambulance my first thought was that the bill would ruin us financially and we should just load her in the car, my second thought was I was a terrible mom for even thinking of the cost.

You say it right there. "Us". You weren't worried about finances for yourself. You were worried for your family. Finances affect everything, so that is a legitimate worry.

&gt;I dont let her know this but even with our insurance between the hospital stay and the ambulance I'm not sure how to make ends meet this year.

You don't let your daughter know you have any financial strain. My family has never been financially stable and while they didn't say it to my face, it was obvious supporting me wasn't doing them any favors. And I'm only talking about the minimum a child needs to stay alive. When I was troubled during my teens, my mom was more concerned that "people would talk" than getting me the help I needed.

&gt;If anyone else in our household gets sick or has an accident this year we are gonna be bankrupt.

Again, this is a legitimate concern. If your family becomes bankrupt, it will be harder for your daughter to get the help she needs.

You're not a terrible mom for being concerned about how you and your husband will be able to support yourselves and your daughter. I would've given anything for my mom to put that much thought into her finances when I was growing up.