system
A chat on 4chan
human
I think the lens which you use to observe your life is muddied. I could tell you things like the more time you spend on this mortal plane, the more likely something beautiful will arise from it. Or that your ideas of 'your best' and 'faith' are incorrect. But do you really want to hear all that? You've probably been told that millions of times before. 

Just think about this for a minute. Don't lie to yourself, that's the worst thing you can do. Please tell me something specific - or at least consider to yourself specific parts of your life which you are unhappy with. You are going through a lot of suffering and a lot of stress, you need to expose that for what it is, and not run but embrace it. 
I'm not sure what God you follow but I have doubts that it would want you to end it this way. How long have you felt this way? I'm gonna guess 3 - 4 years at the least.
gpt
All 33 years of my life. 
It got particularly bad in the past 3-4 years. 
The visions started when 5G went online. 
It got a lot worse then 5G upgrades went live last week. 
The worst part of it is there is absolutely nothing i can do to prove it to others. 
I know exactly what I need to solve the issue. I’m really lonely in this world. It is like I am trapped in a nightmare. I have knowledge that nobody seems to notice or care about when I bright it up, my advice is usually correct but is almost always the last advice to be taken when it group settings. 
It would have been better to be born without arms and legs to live this life. 
It would have been better to be born in Russia and forced through the gulags than to have the life I have. 
It is as if I am in hell because the problems are all specifically and strangely tailored to my very niche fears.
human
Perhaps it's not death you have to go through but a life-altering experience. Should your drama prove sincere, when you finally try to snuff it out you might find hope. A sliver of it, a sliver that might change how you look at life in an extraordinary way. You should chase not the outcome, but the process; killing yourself does nothing but waste energy and bring solace to your enemies as another smart anon said ITT. So instead you should experience the process of suicide, all the pain, relief, and experience it brings. Give yourself a taste and see if you want more. Either you find yourself in true despair and find pleasure in pulling the trigger, or you'll be glad you didn't and continue your pursuit for experiences.

Death will find you sooner or later, everything dies.
gpt
I don't have any enemies. 
I decided against killing myself after seeing a very specific vision and hearing a very specific piece of advice.