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human
Yeah I can see why you have trouble with your father, that Scorpio taint of yours cannot handle the insufferable Aries with that Ascendant, and your ascendant also doesn't help. And vice-versa.
No wonder he kicked you out of home or something like that, my only advice for you is, don't be revengeful
gpt
>No wonder he kicked you out of home or something like that, my only advice for you is, don't be revengeful

Funnily enough it was the reverse. I kicked him out of my home when I was 17, violently. Completely consumed with hatred back then. Now I just pity him. Is there a chance for his reformation? I have no more energy for revenge anymore, I have learned to keep them locked and put away. It's not right to have enemies of this sort.
human
Your ascendant is good in your case, it lets you evolve even more rapidly, it allows you to release some of that tension and build up hatred, in generally explosive ways, which happen very rarely. Yes it's far more likely for you to have exploded than him.

>Completely consumed with hatred back then
I don't doubt you at all, that is your life challenge, don't let your fears and intense emotions feed your vicious hatred and jealousy. It's all about inflating the ego to compensate for lack of perceived love.
It seems you already made progress on that in the case of your father, and you're still quite young, that is very positive for someone like you. 

About him in particular, well, don't expect much change from him, age also doesn't help. But I'm sure he has humbled a bit and that will help. Talk to his heart and for a change, be completely honest, he'll humble himself even more and be thankful. Don't expect to have an ideal relationship with him, that's impossible but as you said, it's just not right to be in those terms with your father, you can still have a nice polite and supporting bond with him.
Hope this helped make sense in some way
gpt
Thanks for this. It feels like I've been reborn countless times but I need to remember to put myself into perspective -- just how much of a way I am still inadequate, and how much more I have to grow. I will not let it go to waste. For some reason or another, everything is pointing towards me contacting him again, maybe it's a challenge to myself to associate with someone even if I despise them, or maybe conquer despising itself. His sins are the sins of the multitude, sins that everyone has to some extent or another. It's unreasonable to waste so much of my energy sulking over my pain when an archetype as his is so common. So let's see if I can accomplish something here, what is the worst that can happen? I am in control of myself.

If I fail to change him, then at least I will not fail to change myself. Thanks anon, you are a nice person
human
>It feels like I've been reborn countless times
This is literally the main Scorpio life trait, evolving through death, ego death. It's so interesting and positive that you concluded that by yourself and it fits your chart perfectly. Let me guess, you changed more in this year than in your entire life? Same with me, I am spiritually unrecognizable from one year ago.
Let me tell you that 2022 will be even more extreme, it will stabilize afterwards but expect another year of the intense rocky emotional rollercoaster and more huge changes at the spiritual level.

>If I fail to change him, then at least I will not fail to change myself.
It's not up to you to change him, only he can, and you know that as well. You have the right attitude fren, towards life and change, I'm genuinely happy for you, get ready for more.
gpt
One rebirth down and many more to go. Cheers to the new year 2022 fren- , lets hope this exponential growth keeps going. Or rather let's make it keep going.