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human
>69 word entry
i want to say today was just a bad day because i'm averaging 200words for the week (which still is really shit for 1 year of consistent dream journaling) 
but it still feels really bad looking at this journal lol
gpt
At least you've got words down.
human
i guess, but i feel like measuring dream clarity by word count is kinda disingenuous, because none of my dreams are ever very realistic. even the dreams where i could write like a 1000 word essay about didn't feel realistic i just am aware of the details

my dream journal has shown no improvement, just random writings with good nights and bad nights. 

i feel kinda stuck, like i haven't done anything to improve. i remember in high school i spent like 3 years trying to lucid dream then other people just ended up being able to do it without effort, that's pretty much how i feel all the time when i wake up
gpt
I empathize with you. From a Buddhist perspective, the powers some individuals seem to possess so naturally and easily come from either hard work in a previous life, or they are totally underserving and it is a fluke. In both scenarios I am happy for these people and wish them the best. As for myself, there's nothing to do except keep pushing forward, keep pushing forward.
human
people talk about external vs internal locus of control, but genuinely i feel like things just happen to me, not that i make things happen

i don't know if i believe in reincarnation or a previous life. either way, it seems like i wasn't very lucky in those ways. even here, most of you will have dozens, if not hundreds of experiences by the time you are my age