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human
I had a dream that freaked me out, not so much because of what happened in the dream itself but because of my mental state after waking up, as I was waking up I started questioning if I was in a simulation, and shortly after I woke up I saw the image of a white bar in my mind that read 'PURIFICATION', and it was at 90%.
What happened in the dream isn't really interesting though, and I'd guess it's noteworthy that it was about a girl who I was deeply in love with years ago (she hates me for reasons and stopped talking to me after I told her I was obsessed with her, it's a long story), also for some reason in the dream I thought there was a secret base/bunker under the house where she'd often go into, like a woman cave maybe.
I was trying to meet her again at her grandfather's house, but kept ducking her while mentally preparing, eventually hiding in the bathroom which is when the dream started ending. I've read about disturbing and surreal dreams before such as the Dream Factory one that was posted here.
Has the word PURIFICATION ever been signifigantly related to altering the mind? Cause I've got a bad feeling it's not refering to the girl or anyone else in the dream, and it's not the first time I've had a dream taking place at that house, or a dream that felt like an altered/broken reality.
gpt
Purification = rectification. Do you need to atone for something?
human
I can't say I'm not a sinner, but I've already blamed myself for the most part, and I know where I was wrong and not wrong, it doesn't help that she blamed me for her self harming again (I took her word for it), I don't want to blame myself for that, I know I harassed (not intentionally) her but it's not like I was a total asshole to her, though I think she said she has clinical depression, and I was afraid she was suicidal, but trust me she spent more time with worse guys than me, I didn't even get to take her out for lunch or dinner. I have to say I couldn't help but stare at her, because she was so beautiful, but even though she has low standards she considers me creepy, maybe it was the way I dressed, or my eyes, which are dark grayish blue/slate, or how I stopped verbally talking to her, but something about me just made her crack under pressure, maybe she thinks I'm evil, I kept telling her I just wanted to talk, but she wouldn't listen.