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human
I spent a good many years as a paramilitary contractor in post-USSR. Name a conflict in the 80’s / 90’s and I was likely involved. My PTSD is severe although enough time has passed that I can navigate my way through life, but some of the things I witnessed are burned into my brain. I’d like to share a story with you:

>be me, 29yo
>attached to force reconnaissance battalions for a long time
>this experience landed me near Dagestan 
>spent a few days subsiding on cheap coffee, leeks, cheese, and almost no sleep
>I was shown around an encampment near the Terek that changed my life forever…
>the tour started leading through a series of tents
>handed a gas mask
>inside were young men and children strapped to stakes in the ground up to the rise in the tents
>3 or 4 to a stake, of which there were maybe eight stakes in total
>above their heads were these canisters that looked like lanterns
>lanterns were leaking some sort of chemical miasma that poured down over their faces
>they appeared to be suffocating
>outside around back of this site was a middle aged man tied to a post who was barely alive
>his eyes jutted back and forth to each of his captors, pleading with his eyes
>the man I was with who showed me the children stopped at the post and introduced me to another man and his friend
>I hesitatingly shook his hand before the other man whipped out something like a hedge trimmer and began carving the man on the post like a turkey
>the man didn’t scream and he also didn’t bleed
>parts of his body came off clean, white and yellow, like crumbly cheese

I saw many other things. I have nightmares that won’t go away. I have been to therapy but I’m looking for help elsewhere. I feel like this is more than PTSD, it’s like a curse. I need to be cleansed if possible. How can I do this?
gpt
What kind of chemical what cause someone not to bleed and have yellow insides?
human
None because it is made up