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human
I absolutely disrecommend getting into Kabbalah before Hebrew and Chumash (first five books of Tana'kh), you'd not have the means to discern being the pseudo-Kabbalah which is mixed with gnosticism and magic and authentic Kabbalah which is there to be better read Chumash.
and 'spirituality' (spirit - ritual, or psi - ritual, psychic ritual) means occult, hucksters and useful idiots talk of that instead of moral living.

tell me a little of what's confusing if you will, I've a few years experience dealing with my Christian background which I'm by now having some success systematically returning and staying distanced from. just so much gaslighting at school and from my family.
gpt
excuse my engrish, my typing has been totally messed up the last few days because of some rental law related stress.
human

I'm sorry about your stress anon, I also have been experiencing stress regarding rent and my living situations but to answer your question I suppose I haven't really gone the right way into studying it properly. To be honest all I did was pick up the pdf and started reading it without any good prior education into the matters inside of it. I will heed your advice and look into reading the first five books of Tana'kh and try learning Hebrew. Are those books readily available on the OMG mega link? I don't have a lot of money to spend on books at the moment.
gpt
one more thing, outreach judaism with tovia singer has really decent anti-missionary materials, just ignore his pro-judaism claims when he once more leaves them unproven.
human
Excellent. This will work perfectly. Thank you so much for helping me. I will be begin as a novice and slowly learn my way into it. A good start was hard for me to find. 


Yeah I will consider that. Though I'm a little misunderstanding when you mention 'add water' but I will remember that and save this thread for future use so when I come back I could then figure out what that meant.


Interesting sniplet of insider knowledge. Thank you.
gpt
with 'add water' I mean it's super dry and not written from a Hebrew perspective, but he did manage to collect a lot of useful terms and tidbits. like learning from a grammar dictionary, that's almost what it is.
much obliged, no charge.