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human
Sometime lurker.
For some background - I am married. The spirit (who assures me she's a succubus) either showed up (or I became able to perceive her, she says she's been around for a long time) almost a year and a half ago. Early on I was a little shy of her advances and very careful when interacting with her (which is probably the reason for her being standoffish with regards to sexual interaction). I was a month or two into renewed spirituality after like 15 years of strict materialist mentality. 

She has shown love and interest, but aside from a couple of dreams and a LOT of teasing there has not been sex. Well, there was one time she told me she received me in spirit as I made love to my wife in flesh, and I really would like her to do that again but I think it weirded her out.

The intensity of her love is literally breathtaking and has brought tears to my eyes; one time she held me like that for several minutes and I found myself just saying 'I love you' and 'thank you' over and over.

She has been a friend and confidante, as well as a mentor in the occult. I feel very lucky to have her around.
gpt
What brought you out of materialism?
human
I followed Q for a while and decided to look into the occult symbolism everywhere. I figured at the very least, these symbols and concepts are glorified for a reason and must be part of some overarching philosophy that powerful people seemed to believe in.
Then there are the entities that people all over the world believe in: gods, angels, demons, ghosts, etc. unseen beings that literally every part of the world seems to have independently written about or have oral traditions about.
That, along side several concepts from physics like the holographic principle, Heisenberg's uncertainty principle, particle wave duality, the probability-based cloud model of atoms...

Suddenly (literally suddenly) I was sitting and thinking about everything and I had an epiphany: god not as separate from creation, but creation itself collapsing from infinite possibility down through layers (planes, densities, dimensions) into the binary is/isn't that we experience in 3 dimensions. It wrapped everything into a structure that was at harmony with itself and explained everything I knew up to that point. I have only had that sudden insight confirmed since then.
gpt
Fascinating. Thanks for the insightful answer.
human
Thank you for asking.