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I'll take advantage of this being an anonymous forum to say something that may embarass me:
I was bullied a lot in primary school/early HS and couldnt fight or lift for shit. i eventually took up martial arts but i ve always wished my parents signed me up for boxing or MMA or whatever as soon as I hit 5 years old
but now,i thin if i had been a capable fighter and someone bullied me a lot i might have hurt him badly and sent to juvie/prison,etc

how do I revise a non-bullied past but without turning into a (justified,tho) legal agressor?
>i also wanked a lot..so lower T, imagine if i had done neverfap,i might honeslty have stabbed a nigga
gpt
2 books I've found that somewhat helped me with emotional trauma:

The Presence Process by Michael Brown
Emotional Clearing by John Ruskan

I say somewhat because it is work you have to do but is largely centered around accepting your feelings, which come up when interacting with other people. As you start to do the Process for example, you will become more sensitive in day to day and will experience triggering connected to your past hurt. So, here's the key: the thing is not to react and go on offensive/defensive against the people but to stay with your feelings and to let the energy do it's thing (keyword: feel). It'll feel like hell and like traveling back in time when it happens, but that's the thing about this kind of work.. it brings up buried stuff to be experienced and let go.

Not gonna lie, it's hard work, and you'll release every day once you start (either bawing your eyes out or feeling any of your suppressed feelings), but if you've tried anything else.. and want more than a surface 'get jacked' fix, give it a go.