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it gets worse before it gets better

through meditation ultimately we're trying to clean the mind so that it becomes powerful, progressive and sensitive enough so that the Self can reveal itself through the mind

it's like your mind is a bowl of dirty water you've accumulated through your experiences of the world, now when you meditate you notice that the bowl is constantly shaking and all the dirty pebbles, seaweed, mud is coming upto the top - so when you begin you notice the negative things in your mind more and thus feel more depressed - that's why you hear of so many monks / nuns committing suicide very early after taking their vows - but it's necessary to push through until you can observe and slowly clean it away till it gets better.
gpt
thanks for this