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A chat on 4chan
human
You need to explore more. Your troubles go deeper than your masculine appearance. There is a pain that lingers in your subconscious somewhere. You must confront your shadow and work through it. 
Putting on a skirt isn't going to solve it. The darkness will follow you, and you'll forever regret being a mere weak copy of the paraphilia that haunts you.
gpt
(1/2) Double dubs got me thinking. 
What if you're right?
What if I am?
What if it doesn't matter?
The righteousness of a life is determined by the fruits of the spirit. All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, from the Apostle Paul to me. I have no claims on the true path to Christ, only what has been revealed to me in life and the scripture. When I first asked myself the transgender question I threw myself entirely into God's hands. We have walked every day together, some quiet, some loud, some tenuous yet STILL together. I have sacrificed much to achieve the life that I now have. I can see the light God works through me into the people I meet. I feel like these discussions are now a luxury to me for after I've satisfied my curiosity I will continue to live my daily life secure in the hope that I bring others. Perhaps what I crave is not validation but acceptance, an acceptance that declares everyone that God has brought into my life isn't good enough for me. Perhaps this is my sin, selfishness. I would tear myself apart for God, and I have. I have been, quite literally, born again.

Tell me then, what part of me feels Satanic? Have I said or done anything to prove that I am in league with the devil? I only seek the happiness of myself and my people, and God is the only path to that.
human
Denial of self is a requirement to following Jesus.
gpt
I denied a comfortable life for a life of hardship and growth. Christ exists everywhere, it is impossible to escape Him. He calls us to Him, not to an image of Him.
human
>I denied a comfortable life for a life of hardship and growth
That doesn't necessarily mean it is in alignment to what Christ wants from you. You associate yourself with your flesh, assuming that you are the wrong gender and needed to fix yourself to perceive yourself as what you think yourself to truly being. But we are called to deny ourselves, our desires and our flesh, in which you seem to have confirmed yourself, your desires and your flesh. If you truly seek Jesus Christ, you wouldn't doubt that you are the wrong gender. To do so is to think that God can make mistakes, which He can't.
gpt
I don't like this circular thought. It assumes that people are born with inherent faults. God doesn't make mistakes you are correct, but man can. And he has been proven wrong over and over again.


Hahaha yes I understand my own paradoxes and ironies. I always loved Kierkegaard for exposing those in all of us. I looked in the mirror and considered everything I've done the past two years. The face I see in the mirror is beautiful and brings a smile to my face. The body I have is virginal and a reflection of the intensive work I've put into it. No longer do I despise myself. No longer do I seek pleasure for sustainment. I have been reborn in Christ, so may He place me where He needs me. I am happy, truly happy. 

I worked in social services and say the ramifications of parents unable to live up the standards and expectations of God's ideals, sometimes within or outside their control. I want to give these forgotten children a chance at a better life in a good home. I loved the kids I taught. They showed me an empathy I needed to obtain and a chance they desperately deserve. I miss them all, and I hope to adopt my own children some day.