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human
Ego death comes with immense bliss.
gpt
Not really, i mean it happened with a flash in the head and 13 days after that intense insight i had a period of mourning. So now what? It's over, theres no going back for me because its all an illusion.
human
Not ego death or anything close to it but you released a lot. You are only getting started in time you will have self realization and more. Those kind of stages come and go so don't be startled.
gpt
I have, yeah. That is what the Buddha talked about when he mentioned delusion. So it is only the beginning? From what I understand, in some practices this is only an initiation.
human
Look how much credit you are giving to this illusion, busy attaching a concept to what you experienced while wondering how the path ahead of you looks like. Was this your spiritual awakening or did it happen before?
When I was offered a chance to let go of my past self I mourned for half a minute because that life was pure suffering. Years later a hard hitting revelation made my world gray for months, everything seemed pointless and soon after the so far happies part of my life started and it has been going for years.
gpt
Yet everything is an illusion? I also feel grey, since in the end nothing really matters but not in the nihilistic way. I'm even doubting if reincarnation is real