Life lessons: Shavaughn Ruakere, Actor  Shavaughn Ruakere shares
her life lessons. Photo / Supplied Shavaughn Ruakere shares her
life lessons. Photo / Supplied  Sometimes I think acting's so
weird. It's you, but it's not. The feelings are true, but
they're not. On the positive side, it's filled me up in a way I
guess I haven't felt before, all that good funny-in-the-tummy
stuff. But on the negative side, it's made me a bit of an overly
emotional dick sometimes who can't for the life of me get to
sleep at night because I've spent the day having a million "big
feelings" and they're still churning round.  I think I'm quite a
goof. I quite like that. I'm also a terrible worrier. Thank you
Catholic guilt. I'm also an insane procrastinator who lives in a
dream world most of the time.  I have a very dear friend called
Helena who has cancer. One day post-chemo and radiotherapy she'd
gone to the doctors to see whether it had spread from her
breasts to any other part of her body. I rang her and she said,
"I need a drin