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Mar 20 2010 7:57pm This is another post in my Roadblocks to
Recovery series. It's closely related to yesterday's roadblock (
ED as a trump card ) but also different enough that I think it's
worth its own post.  Without ED, I will just be "average"  My
height is average. My weight is average (I'm small but solid).
These things are fine, and I can (mostly) deal with it. Well,
the first part of it. But heaven help me if I ever feel average.
Like so many things that happened with my eating disorder, much
of this thinking process started with my academic life, long
before I showed any signs of ED. I had to be "The Best." I
wasn't a narcissist by any stretch of the imagination, but I had
this competitive spirit. The darker side of that competitive
spirit is that if I wasn't "The Best," then I sucked at whatever
it was, and I may as well go home. My mom always said that only
one person could b