General Girlyness  extreme447's picture  I am not depressed. I
don't have a shitty life. I don't have to worry about money as
far as the basic necessities go. My parents aren’t rich by any
means, I mean they are both social workers. I guess comfortable
is a good word. We have a nice house in a nice neighborhood of a
nice town. This nice town is literally right next to Boston, so
we are not cut off from the real world.  I don’t really know
where I am going with this. I guess that is what my problem is.
I am lost. I start each day and just go through the motions. I
am numb. Each day is the same. I wake up. Try desperately to
finish the homework I could not strum up the motivation to
complete the previous night. Go to school. Go to chorus. Go home
and read the night away while recklessly jeopardizing the
chances of my attending one of the colleges I want to go to. I
don’t know why I do this. I don’t know why I don’t care. Why I
just want to give it all up and become a car mechanic. Why that
job appeals to me so