Heeeeeere's... Lena! | Fit Pregnancy  You are...  Heeeeeere's...
Lena!  Week 3 of Baby: 11/5/2007  For the first time writing
this blog, I'm at a loss for words.  Writing about myself--every
slight neurotic twitch, every consideration and reconsideration
of the past nine months--has been pretty easy for me. It's
perhaps unfortunate for my nearest and dearest, but self-
analysis is my second nature. (Is there such a thing as "first
nature"? If so, that'd be more accurate.)  But writing about
Sylvia, and now about Lena, is more difficult. Maybe it's that
my own babies... what is it? The mind-trip that I have babies,
when I still consider myself 14 years old? That they're so
particularly and uniquely these babies, not someone else's
generic babies? That they're not me, so it feels presumptuous? I
think it's that Sylvia and Lena both have a bit of mystery
attached to them, a mystery I don't necessarily want to solve or
pick over. Who these kids are is being revealed to me, slowly
and inconsistently, and that's how