noon
`` I am not home-sick now , I believe . I have in some degree become accustomed to the separation from my father ; but I am growing so different from what I used to be ; so different from what I expected . It grieves me to know that I am changing for the worse ; but , somehow , I ca n't help it . I make good resolutions in the morning before I leave my room , and by noon I manage to break all of them . The girls try me and I lose my patience . When I am at home nothing of this kind ever troubles me . '' `` Miss Irene , yours is not a clinging , dependent disposition ; if I have rightly understood your character , you have never been accustomed to lean upon others .