About
four o'clock
It seemed as if I must strike it then . Besides , I took a sort of morbid pleasure in abusing myself -- as if I were to blame . I had been living on canned beans , and flapjacks , and coffee without milk or sugar , and I was weak and sick -- but it all had to end . About four o'clock I dropped my pick and staggered out to the light . It was impossible to do anything more . '' There were tears in her eyes now , for his voice unconsciously took on the anguish of that despair . `` I sat there looking out toward the mountains and down on the camp .