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That was all . His belief in the new illumination neither stood nor fell with them , though his ardour for it culminated in the experience . One must take the most doubtful experiment seriously if we are in earnest for results . So next came the sacred name of ` the Order , ' which , Reader , I can not tell thee , as I have never known it , Narcissus being bound by horrid oaths to whisper it to no man , and to burn at midnight the paper which gave it to his eyes . From this time , also , we could exchange no deep confidences of the kind at all , for the various MSS . by means of which he was to begin his excursions into Urania , and which his ` guru ' sent from time to time -- at first , it must be admitted , with a diligent frequency -- were secret too . So several months went by , and my knowledge of his ` chela-ship ' was confined to what I could notice , and such trifling harmless gossip as ` Heard from `` guru '' this morning , ' ` Copying an old MS. last night , ' and so on .