four o'clock
My scruples were preposterous and criminal . They are bred in all hearts , by a perverse and vicious education , and they would still have maintained their place in my heart , had not my portion been set in misery . My errors have taught me thus much wisdom ; that those sentiments which we ought not to disclose , it is criminal to harbour . It was proposed to begin the rehearsal at four o'clock ; I counted the minutes as they passed ; their flight was at once too rapid and too slow ; my sensations were of an excruciating kind ; I could taste no food , nor apply to any task , nor enjoy a moment 's repose : when the hour arrived , I hastened to my brother 's . Pleyel was not there . He had not yet come . On ordinary occasions , he was eminent for punctuality .