two o'clock in the morning
I asked Cousin Judith , and she told me it must be grasped like everything else with our hands , that is to say , through work . From that time forward I was eager for work as other children are for play , and the older I grow , the more I strive for the good fortune that can be grasped by work . Even on Sundays I often go to my room to sew , and I shut my door , for my mother does not like to see me sew then . I work on and on , just as long as I can sit at it , even into the night ; sometimes till one and two o'clock in the morning ; yet I do not find the fortune I want . When my hands are busy , my thoughts wander where they will , and I must follow them . But they do not lead to ` fortune , ' but only farther away from it . This offer may bring me a fortune in money and position , but that is not the fortune I want .