five o'clock
Cecilia , who well knew she was herself the real cause of Mr Arnott 's resistance , now felt her resolution waver , internally reproaching herself with the sufferings of his sister ; alarmed , however , for her own constancy , she earnestly besought Mrs Harrel to go and compose herself for the night , and promised to deliberate what could be done for her before morning . Mrs Harrel complied ; but scarce was her own rest more broken than that of Cecilia , who , though extremely fatigued with a whole night 's watching , was so perturbed in her mind she could not close her eyes . Mrs Harrel was her earliest , and had once been her dearest friend ; she had deprived her by her own advice of her customary refuge in her brother ; to refuse , therefore , assistance to her seemed cruelty , though to deny it to Mr Harrel was justice ; she endeavoured , therefore , to make a compromise between her judgment and compassion , by resolving that though she would grant nothing further to Mr Harrel while he remained in London , she would contribute from time to time both to his necessities and comfort , when once he was established elsewhere upon some plan of prudence and economy . The next morning by five o'clock Mrs Harrel came into Cecilia 's room to know the result of her deliberation ; and Cecilia , with that graceful readiness which accompanied all her kind offices , instantly assured her the thousand pound should be her own , if she would consent to seek some quiet retreat , and receive it in small sums , of fifty or one hundred pounds at a time , which should be carefully transmitted , and which , by being delivered to herself , might secure better treatment from Mr Harrel , and be a motive to revive his care and affection . She flew , much delighted , with this proposal to her husband ; but presently , and with a dejected look , returning , said Mr Harrel protested he could not possibly set out without first receiving the money . `` I shall go myself , therefore , '' said she , `` to my brother after breakfast , for he will not , I see , unkind as he is grown , come to me ; and if I do not succeed with him , I believe I shall never come back ! '' To this Cecilia , offended and disappointed , answered `` I am sorry for Mr Arnott , but for myself I have done ! ''