midnight
And Mrs Blair still went about with outward calm , but carrying within her a heavy and anxious heart , as by the sighs and prayers of many a sleepless night , Lilias well knew . This was the child 's one sorrow . Sometimes she longed to speak to her aunt about her cousin , and comfort her by weeping with her ; but she never had courage to broach the subject . The wanderer 's name had never been mentioned between them ; and Lilias had something like a feeling of guilt upon her in hearing , as she could not but hear , the midnight mourning of the stricken mother . `` And to think that this trouble has been upon her for so many years ! '' she thought to herself , one night , as she lay listening to her aunt 's sighs and murmured prayers . `` It must be ten years at least ; for I have no recollection of my cousin Hugh .