midday
Lying there motionless on the grass , she did not weep , she was not horror-stricken , but gazing at the sky open-eyed , she reflected coldly and clearly that something had happened which she could never forget and for which she could never forgive herself all her life . `` No , I ca n't go on like this , '' she thought . `` It 's time to take myself in hand , or there 'll be no end to it ... . I ca n't go on like this ... '' At midday Dr. Neshtchapov drove by the ravine on his way to the house . She saw him and made up her mind that she would begin a new life , and that she would make herself begin it , and this decision calmed her . And following with her eyes the doctor 's well-built figure , she said , as though trying to soften the crudity of her decision : `` He 's a nice man ... . We shall get through life somehow . ''