Nine o'clock
On such an occasion I should have flirted violently with some other man , and have shewed plainly I was piqued : she judged much better ; I have only to wish it may last . He is the veriest coquet in nature , for , after all , I am convinced he loves Emily . He stayed a very little time , and has not been here this morning ; he may pout if he pleases , but I flatter myself we shall hold out the longest . Nine o'clock . He came to dine ; we kept up our state all dinner time ; he begged a moment 's conversation , which we refused , but with a timid air that makes me begin to fear we shall beat a parley : he is this moment gone , and Emily retired to her apartment on pretence of indisposition : I am afraid she is a foolish girl . Half hour after six . It will not do , Lucy : I found her in tears at the window , following Rivers 's carriole with her eyes : she turned to me with such a look -- in short , my dear , `` The weak , the fond , the fool , the coward woman '' has prevailed over all her resolution : her love is only the more violent for having been a moment restrained ; she is not equal to the task she has undertaken ; her resentment was concealed tenderness , and has retaken its first form .