midnight
But you 'll see ; there 'll be nothing of that sort . I wonder whether it 's hardship I 've been thirsting for all my life -- even when I seemed such a selfish , luxurious little ape ? `` At the same time , I think it will kill me -- and that would be the best end of all . To have some great , heroic experience , and then -- ` cease upon the midnight with no pain ! ... ' `` Oh , if I thought you 'd care very , _ very _ much , I should have pain -- horrible pain . But I know you wo n't . Politics have taken my place .