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-- If not , I am unhappy indeed ! -- for this I did . Having shaken off the impertinent Betty , I wrote to Mr. Lovelace , to let him know , ` That all that was threatened at my uncle Antony 's , was intended to be executed here . That I had come to a resolution to throw myself upon the protection of either of his two aunts , who would afford it me -- in short , that by endeavouring to obtain leave on Monday to dine in the ivy summer-house , I would , if possible , meet him without the garden-door , at two , three , four , or five o'clock on Monday afternoon , as I should be able . That in the mean time he should acquaint me , whether I might hope for either of those ladies ' protection : and if I might , I absolutely insisted that he should leave me with either , and go to London himself , or remain at Lord M. 's ; nor offer to visit me , till I were satisfied that nothing could be done with my friends in an amicable way ; and that I could not obtain possession of my own estate , and leave to live upon it : and particularly , that he should not hint marriage to me , till I consented to hear him upon that subject . -- I added , that if he could prevail upon one of the Misses Montague to favour me with her company on the road , it would make me abundantly more easy in the thoughts of carrying into effect a resolution which I had not come to , although so driven , but with the utmost reluctance and concern ; and which would throw such a slur upon my reputation in the eye of the world , as perhaps I should never be able to wipe off . ' This was the purport of what I wrote ; and down into the garden I slid with it in the dark , which at another time I should not have had the courage to do ; and deposited it , and came up again unknown to any body .