midnight
I know . She is like that -- bitter . I do n't know that I can blame her . '' It was long past midnight . Jerry went to bed . But I sat oblivious of the passing hours , wide awake , somber , my gaze fixed upon the square of the window which turned from moonlight to dark and then at last shimmered with the dusk of the dawn . It was at Jerry 's request that I stayed on at Horsham Manor , working as I could upon my book , and now I think with a new knowledge of the meaning of life as I had learned it through Jerry 's failure .