noon
What I want is leisure . I want to do the things I 've wanted to do for forty years , and could n't . I want , if I feel like it , to start to learn French and read Jane Austen and stay in bed till noon . I never could stay in bed till noon , and I know I ca n't learn now , but I 'm going to do it once , if it kills me . I 'm too old to bring up a second crop of children , I want to play . It 's terrible to realize that you do n't learn how to live until you 're ready to die ; and , then it 's too late . I know I sound like a selfish old woman , and I am , and I do n't care .