midnight
But when day came , the enterprise no longer seemed so simple . Her scanty wardrobe struck her with cowardice as she surveyed it . The broad daylight made everything in the house seem poor and shabby . When she went down-stairs , her heart sank within her as she entered the kitchen to help her mother , and when she sat with the family at the breakfast-table , she had no faith left in her dreams of the rosy midnight . This alternation of feeling bred in her , in the course of a few days , a sort of fever , which lent a singular beauty to her face , and a petulant tang to her speech . She rose one morning , after a sleepless night , in a state of anger and excitement in which she had little difficulty in charging upon Farnham all responsibility for her trouble of mind . `` I wo n't stand it any longer , '' she said aloud in her chamber .