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And in his hand he held her roses , which he occasionally smelled as he listened , and smiled upon her with that peculiar smile of his which made him so attractive . But the lilies were nowhere to be seen ; and when , an hour later , all the baskets and bouquets bearing his name were piled together , the lilies were not there . ` He has thrown them away ! He did not care for them at all , and I might as well have staid in bed as to have gotten up at four o'clock and risked my neck to get them . He likes Maude and her roses better than he does me , ' Jerrie thought , with a swelling heart and all through the journey home -- for they returned that night -- she was very quiet and tactiturn , letting Maude do all the talking , and saying when asked why she was so still , that her head was aching , and that she was too tired and sleepy to talk . That was the last time for years that Jerrie put her arms around Harold 's neck , or touched her lips to his ; for it had come to her like a blow how much he was to her , and , as she believed , how little she was to him . ` Maude is preferred to me -- I see it now so plainly ; he likes me well enough , but he loves _ her _ -- I saw it in the way he looked at her that time I mortified him so dreadfully with my _ gush _ , ' she thought ; and although of all her girl friends , not even excepting Nina St. Claire , Maude was the nearest and dearest , she was half-glad when a week or two later , Maude said good-bye to her , and with her mother sailed away to Europe , where she remained for more than a year and a half .