noon
The thought came to him that the wider field of work would give him greater personal fame , to be used ultimately for a wider influence . All one long day as he worked with hammer and saw at his trade , Grant turned the matter over in his mind . He could see himself in a larger canvas , working a greater good . Perhaps some fleeting unformed idea came to him of a home and a normal life as other men live ; for at noon , without consciously connecting her with his dream , he took his problem to Laura Van Dorn at her kindergarten . That afternoon he decided to accept the offer , and put much of his reason for acceptance upon Kenyon and the boy 's needs . That night he penned a letter of acceptance to the lecture bureau and went to bed , disturbed and unsatisfied . Before he slept he turned and twisted , and finally threshed himself to sleep .