one o'clock
- You commit me to my real parent,-Ah , Guardian , Friend , Protector of my youth,-by whom my helpless infancy was cherished , my mind formed , my very life preserved,-you are the Parent my heart acknowledges , and to you do I vow eternal duty , gratitude , and affection ! I look forward to the approaching interview with more fear than hope ; but , important as is this subject , I am just now wholly engrossed with another , which I must hasten to communicate . I immediately acquainted Mrs. Selwyn with the purport of your letter . She was charmed to find your opinion agreed with her own , and settled that we should go to town to-morrow morning : and a chaise is actually ordered to be here by one o'clock . She then desired me to pack up my clothes ; and said she must go herself to make speeches and tell lies to Mrs. Beaumont . When I went down stairs to dinner , Lord Orville , who was still in excellent spirits , reproached me for secluding myself so much from the company . He sat next me,-he would sit next me,-at table ; and he might , I am sure , repeat what he once said of me before , that he almost exhausted himself in fruitless endeavours to entertain me ; - for , indeed , I was not to be entertained : I was totally spiritless and dejected ; the idea of the approaching meeting,-and Oh , Sir , the idea of the approaching parting,-gave a heaviness to my heart that I could neither conquer nor repress .