6:00 a.m.
Then two things dawned on her . They were opposing ideas that refused to be irrelevant . They refused to be vanquished from the kingdom . They refused to stand outside begging like a Buddhist mendicant at 6:00 a.m. in Laos . They were the making of a more self - actualized Gabriele . She realized that there was great beauty in two people caring about each other for it was nature 's plan to use selfish hungers to create that vulnerable spot within the human psyche that needed consistency and permanence among other things ; and that she too yearned for a studly apparition who would touch her and by his touch make her real . She felt so empty within these past two years of celibacy .