Eleven o'clock
Will it not on reflection be cruel to Madame Des Roches ? I know her generosity of mind , but I also know the weakness of the human heart : can she see with pleasure a beloved rival ? My Lucy , I never so much wanted your advice : I will consult Bell Fermor , who knows every thought of my Emily 's heart . Eleven o'clock . I have visited Madame Des Roches at her relation 's ; she received me with a pleasure which was too visible not to be observed by all present : she blushed , her voice faltered when she addressed me ; her eyes had a softness which seemed to reproach my insensibility : I was shocked at the idea of having inspired her with a tenderness not in my power to return ; I was afraid of increasing that tenderness ; I scarce dared to meet her looks . I felt a criminal in the presence of this amiable woman ; for both our sakes , I must see her seldom : yet what an appearance will my neglect have , after the attention she has shewed me , and the friendship she has expressed for me to all the world ? I know not what to determine .