four o'clock
Good night , God bless you . '' I was , at that time , in a state of mind which made me reckless of life or of consequences ; stung by the treatment which I received , mad with the world 's contumely , I was desperate . True it was , as Mr Masterton said , I had not courage to buffet against an adverse gale . Timothy did not go to bed , and at four o'clock was at my side . I rose , dressed myself with the greatest care , and was soon joined by Captain Atkinson . We then set off in a hackney-coach to the same spot to which I had , but a few months before , driven with poor Carbonnell . His memory and his death came like a cloud over my mind , but it was but for a moment .