11 PM
It was too much to bear . I sat in my own room all alone for over an hour , and hated everybody . Oh , I _ was _ miserable ! ------------------------------------------------------------------------ _ 11 PM . _ I have been thinking seriously over things , and have decided to put away this diary , and not write in it any more for six months or a year . It will be better so , for at present I am in such a wretched , unsettled state of mind that what I write would not be edifying , but only painful to read in time to come . I 've been reading over the first few pages to-night , and they seem written by quite a different person -- a happy , self-confident , complacent Una , who felt perfectly satisfied of coming triumphantly through any and every situation .