five in the morning
I scarcely dare to hope , however , that I shall find a field of usefulness , -- nothing interests me any more , and also , I have no gifts , and have never been trained for anything . My dearest ambition was to make a home , and have a houseful of children ; and this , alas , was not to be ! _ Night . _ Howard Cleves , a big boy from the settlement school , has just arrived with the wagon -- he says he had to `` lay by '' twenty-four hours on account of the `` tide '' -- and we are to start at five in the morning . SETTLEMENT SCHOOL ON PERILOUS . _ Sunday , In Bed . _ I have passed through two days of torture in that wagon .