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How can you fail to understand that my heart at least is big enough to love both Judy and you ? '' The lamp burnt dimly and the fire went completely out . Hilda presently fell asleep in the darkness , and now a moonbeam shining into the drawing room and falling across her tired face made it look white and unearthly , almost like the face of a dead girl . It was in this attitude that Quentyns found her when he came back somewhere between one and two o'clock . His conscience was reproaching him , for Rivers , an old friend , had not failed to give him a little spice of his mind ; but he was just in that irritable condition where repentance is almost impossible , and when self-abasement only leads a man into further wrong-doing . When he saw Hilda 's tired face , he said to himself with a sort of laugh : `` If I do n't encourage this sort of thing , I shall doubtless be more and more of a tyrant in the eyes of my good wife and that precious fastidious child and Rivers . Well , well , I can not see the beauty of voluntary martyrdom .