Two o’clock
Am I really desperate enough and helpless enough to end it in that way ? No ; not yet . `` My head feels heavy ; I must get out into the fresh air , and think about it . '' `` Two o'clock . -- I believe I have caught the infection of Midwinter 's superstition . I begin to think that events are forcing me nearer and nearer to some end which I do n't see yet , but which I am firmly persuaded is now not far off . `` I have been insulted -- deliberately insulted before witnesses -- by Miss Milroy .