seven o'clock
My Cousin Dolly and I kneeled side by side in front , and again , side by side , to receive Holy Communion . I was in a kind of ecstasy of delight , and not , I think unworthily ; for , though much of my delight came from being there with my cousin , and receiving our Lord 's Body with her , I do not think that is any dishonour to God whom we must love first of all , to find a great joy in loving Him in the company of those we love purely and uprightly . So at least it seems to me . * * * * * Mr. Hamerton told us he must be riding very early ; and not much after seven o'clock we stood at the gate to bid him farewell . I made my man James go with him so far as Ware to set him on his road , though the priest begged me not to trouble myself . When I came back to the house I was in a torment of indecision as to whether this would not be the best occasion I could ever find of telling my Cousin Dorothy all that was in my heart in her regard ; and I even went into the Great Chamber after her , still undecided . But her manner prevented me ; for I thought I saw in her something of a return of that same shyness which she had shewed to me when I had come last time back to Hare Street ; and I went out again without saying one word except of the priest 's visit and of what a good man he seemed .