midnight
I have suddenly found such new life and exuberance , I feel as though I had been released from prison and were free . I feel , -- oh , I 'll stop , -- I just want you to know the truth . Do n't show Jervis this letter , but tell him what 's in it in a decently subdued and mournful fashion . It 's midnight now , and I 'm going to try to go to sleep . It 's wonderful not to be going to marry some one you do n't want to marry . I 'm glad of all these children 's needs , I 'm glad of Helen Brooks , and , yes , of the fire , and everything that has made me see clearly . There 's never been a divorce in my family , and they would have hated it .