eleven o'clock at night
This reminds me of an expression which she used on your barbarous hunting of her at Smith 's , on her return to her lodgings ; and that with a serenity unexampled , -LRB- as Mrs. Lovick told me , considering the occasion , and the trouble given her by it , and her indisposition at the time ;-RRB- he will not let me die decently , said the angelic sufferer ! -- He will not let me enter into my Maker 's presence with the composure that is required in entering into the drawing-room of an earthly prince ! I can not , however , forbear to wish , that the heavenly creature could have prevailed upon herself , in these her last hours , to see you ; and that for my sake , as well as yours ; for although I am determined never to be guilty of the crimes , which , till within these few past weeks have blackened my former life ; and for which , at present , I most heartily hate myself ; yet should I be less apprehensive of such a relapse , if wrought upon by the solemnity which such an interview must have been attended with , you had become a reformed man : for no devil do I fear , but one in your shape . *** It is now eleven o'clock at night . The lady who retired to rest an hour ago , is , as Mrs. Lovick tells me , in a sweet slumber . I will close here . I hope I shall find her the better for it in the morning .