In the conversation beforehand, he explained how he was dropped on the floor as an infant by an alcoholic nurse and permanently crippled.  
At the age of sixteen, the protagonist of this work falls in love with a blond girl his own age, but when he sees her kissing another boy, he renounces love forever.  Early in this work, the protagonist learns from his sisters that the city's new military governor has recently arrived.  At a performance of Lohengrin, he tries to pick up the fan of the woman next to him when she drops it and is shocked when she forces him to look away with her stare.  After confessing his love to Frau von Rinnlingen and being harshly rejected, the protagonist drowns himself in a lake.  In the conversation beforehand, he explained how he was dropped on the floor as an infant by an alcoholic nurse and permanently crippled.  FTP, name this short story by Thomas Mann.
At the age of sixteen, the protagonist of this work falls in love with a blond girl his own age, but when he sees her kissing another boy, he renounces love forever.  
Little Herr Friedemann or Der Kleine Herr Friedemann