strings: suffering , "I loved him so much", "He was this • " , "1 had that". I try to escape in words, in labels, in beliefs, as most of us do. They act as a narcotic. If I do not do that, what happens? I am simply aware of suffering. I don't condemn it, I don't justify it—I am suffering. Then I can follow its movement, can't I? Then I can follow the whole content of what it means—'l follow' in the sense of trying to understand something.