Indigenous Peoples Day


Today, this year, Indigenous Peoples Day falls on what is still in many places in our country, Columbus Day. A sad part of a country trying to maintain and remember history is also to ignore painful parts of history that as we evolve realize were not really the glorious moments they were considered as when they were actually happening.

This country, my America was not “discovered” as our history too kindly speaks. This beautiful land was already the home of another race and culture. Columbus himself was a cruel man. And when history is taught it should no longer be taught with Christopher Columbus as a hero of the modern world. Yes, the history must be learned but not with him as a discoverer and hero in the narrative of the story. 

I don’t celebrate “Columbus Day”, I haven’t in a very very longtime. Not until as an adult I learned both sides of the story did I realize good old Chris was no one to admire or celebrate, nor should the founding of the Americas be a happy celebration. History, our history is riddled with oppression and violence. And I fear history is more prone to repeat itself the more we glamorize and memorialize history in only the way we wish it would have happened instead of the truth. 

It’s way past time that just like with news media, we need to demand that history be retold like it actually was. No added rhetoric, no admonished glory to the side we stand on. But just plain facts, it will tell a story of truth if we face facts instead of just believing whatever it is we want to believe to make ourselves feel good.  Then and only then will we as a country maybe not keep repeating the same historical tragedies.


Ted-Talk: Why thinking you’re ugly is bad for you


Love yourself first, as you are RIGHT NOW. That’s where you need to start.

Trading ego for true power


When we get out of the glass bottles of our ego,
and when we escape like squirrels turning in the
cages of our personality
and get into the forests again,
we shall shiver with cold and fright
but things will happen to us
so that we don’t know ourselves.
Cool, unlying life will rush in,
and passion will make our bodies taut with power,
we shall stamp our feet with new power
and old things will fall down,
we shall laugh, and institutions will curl up like
burnt paper.

– D.H. Lawrence

Be Alive!






Yoga Mat By: Gaiam – Hana Singlet By: INKnBURN
So yeah, back to my schedule….
Monday – Yoga
Tuesday – Run/Walk/Run
Wednesday – Cross Train/Weights
Thursday – Run/Walk/Run
Friday – Yoga
Saturday – Long Run/Walk/Run
Sunday – Rest/Stretch

The Sound of Footsteps



Motivational Video – The Sound of Footsteps
Created at Your World Within
Speech by Eddie Pinero
Music by Eddie Pinero

𝑮𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒖𝒕𝒕𝒂 𝒎𝒚 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒇𝒖𝒏𝒌


𝑳𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒂 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒈𝒂𝒎𝒆.
𝑹𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒔 𝒂 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒈𝒂𝒎𝒆.

𝑮𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒊𝒈𝒈𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒆 𝒘𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖’𝒗𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒂 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒃𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒄𝒍𝒆𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒏 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖. 𝑶𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒏, 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒊𝒈𝒈𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒎𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒍𝒊𝒎𝒃. 𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒆𝒍𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒃𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒄𝒍𝒆 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒄𝒆𝒔. 𝑾𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒃𝒆 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒎𝒚 𝒐𝒓 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒐. 𝑾𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒅𝒓𝒂𝒈𝒔 𝒖𝒔 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒖𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝒖𝒔 𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒆. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒊𝒕’𝒔 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒂 𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆, 𝒂 𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒇𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂 𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒅𝒎𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒘𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒚 𝒃𝒆 𝒇𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒍, 𝒐𝒓 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒂𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒂𝒔𝒌 𝒊𝒏 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒖𝒔. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒊𝒕’𝒔 𝒖𝒔𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒍𝒕𝒚 𝒐𝒓 𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒕𝒉 𝒐𝒓 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒍𝒆𝒅𝒈𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒌𝒊𝒄𝒌𝒔 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒃𝒖𝒕𝒕𝒔. 𝑰𝒕’𝒔 𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒅𝒆, 𝒊𝒕’𝒔 𝒇𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒕’𝒔 𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒅𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒃𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒔 𝒖𝒔. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒅𝒔 “𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕” 𝒂𝒏𝒅 “𝑰𝒕’𝒔 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅” 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒏 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒔 𝒆𝒚𝒆. 𝑾𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒑𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒘𝒆 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘.

𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒇𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒐 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒅𝒐𝒏’𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒕𝒐𝒐𝒍𝒔. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒍𝒊𝒎𝒃 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒇𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒅𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒈𝒍𝒐𝒓𝒚 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒓 𝒃𝒆𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎. 𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒈 𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐’𝒗𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒌𝒊𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒃𝒚 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂 𝒕𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒖𝒑. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒍𝒆𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒗𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒔 “𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕” 𝒂𝒏𝒅 “𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕’𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒆” 𝒘𝒊𝒏.

𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖.
𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖.





𝑺𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒅𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑰’𝒗𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒎𝒚 𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒓𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒈𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒖𝒑 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒄𝒌𝒔 𝒎𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑰’𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒍𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒆𝒘 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒉𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒚, 𝑰 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒕 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒅𝒊𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒍𝒚. 𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒂 𝒕𝒊𝒈𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆𝒔 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒈𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 (𝒐𝒓 𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒘𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒈) 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒕𝒘𝒐 (𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆) 𝒑𝒖𝒏𝒄𝒉 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒄𝒌𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒕.


𝑺𝒐 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒅?




𝑴𝒚 𝒉𝒖𝒔𝒃𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒆, 𝒐𝒇𝒇 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒕𝒓𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒌. 𝑰 𝒊𝒏𝒋𝒖𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒚 𝒂𝒓𝒎 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒃𝒂𝒅𝒍𝒚. 𝑴𝒚 𝒅𝒐𝒈 𝒑𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒚  𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒔𝒖𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒚 𝒃𝒂𝒅 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒏𝒊𝒂 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔. 𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒃𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒌 𝒂𝒔 𝒇𝒂𝒓 𝒂𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒆𝒏𝒕. 𝑶𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈, 𝒓𝒖𝒏 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒌 𝒓𝒖𝒏, 𝒐𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒄𝒌 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒆𝒏𝒕. 𝑰 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒑𝒐𝒕𝒂𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍 𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏. 𝑩𝒆𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒓𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒊𝒏𝒋𝒖𝒓𝒚, 𝒔𝒂𝒅𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒎𝒚 𝒅𝒐𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒔𝒍𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒅𝒆𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒗𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒖𝒃𝒃𝒚 𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒐 𝒇𝒂𝒓 𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒚 , 𝑰 𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒕 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒂 𝒎𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒐𝒏 𝒂 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓. 𝑾𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕’𝒔 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒕 𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒕.




𝑰𝒏 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚, 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒉𝒔. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒈𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒅 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝑴𝒕 𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒍𝒊𝒎𝒃. 𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒖𝒈𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒌𝒏𝒆𝒘 𝑰 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒌𝒊𝒄𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒕 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒅, 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒊𝒈𝒈𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒐𝒃𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒄𝒍𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒈𝒓𝒐𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒈.


𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒉 19𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒚 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝑯𝒂𝒍𝒇 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒏 𝒊𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒕’𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒇 𝑰’𝒎 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒚 𝒐𝒓 𝒏𝒐𝒕. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒛𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒊𝒔 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑰’𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒊𝒄𝒌 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒖𝒕𝒕 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒆 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚, 𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒑𝒉𝒚𝒔𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚. 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒚 𝒓𝒖𝒏 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒔𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒑𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒖𝒎.


𝑵𝒐𝒕 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒒𝒖𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆, 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝑰 𝒅𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒆𝒕 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝑰 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕’𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒏 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒐. 𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏, 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒍, 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏. 𝑹𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒐𝒅𝒚 𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒑𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒔 𝑰 𝒔𝒆𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝑰 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎. 𝑨𝒄𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒔 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒃𝒆 𝒂 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒓𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒄𝒆. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰’𝒗𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒎.


𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕’𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒐 𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒛𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒖𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒚. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇. 𝑺𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒈𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚, 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆𝒔? 𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒍𝒚 𝒂𝒇𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒅 𝒐𝒇? 𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒔𝒌 𝒎𝒚𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒔𝒌 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒕. 𝑩𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒘𝒂𝒚!! 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝑰’𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒔𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒑𝒔.


𝑺𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒌 𝑰 𝒃𝒆𝒈𝒊𝒏 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏. 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒏 𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒚 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒚 𝑯𝒂𝒍𝒇 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒏. 𝑴𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒂𝒚’𝒔 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒂 𝒅𝒆𝒔𝒊𝒈𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒄𝒉 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒖𝒔𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒅𝒐 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒈𝒂 𝒇𝒐𝒓. 𝑺𝒐 𝑻𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝒐𝒇𝒇𝒊𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒍 𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒔  𝒂𝒘𝒆𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒂𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒃𝒐𝒅𝒚.


𝑰𝒕 𝒘𝒐𝒏’𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒓𝒈𝒊𝒄 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔. 𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑰 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒇𝒆𝒓 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒇𝒕𝒔. 𝑴𝒐𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌𝒇𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒔, 𝒃𝒖𝒕… 𝑻𝒐𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒐𝒘 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒂 𝒃𝒊𝒕 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝑰 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒔 𝑰 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒈𝒈𝒍𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒆𝒘 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒉𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈. 𝑰 𝒌𝒏𝒆𝒘 𝑰 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒑𝒖𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒚𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒇𝒖𝒏𝒌, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒂 𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒗𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒑𝒆𝒅!


𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑺𝒖𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒂𝒍 𝑮𝒊𝒇𝒔 𝑰 𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒈 𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑾𝒊𝒏𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓’𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑺𝒖𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒂𝒍 𝒄𝒂𝒔𝒕….