in speed declaring mental love

It is often heard dichotomy, confrontation between political and personal. It is to say personal is political, a common phrase to use, it is also true. My choices in everything make politics not only by voting and educating myself, but by what I consume, how I choose to live, eat, drink, travel, see, listen, watch.  Everything comes up from making political decisions of what is safe, good, correct, profitable, good for economy, good for our nation, what is good for us to do in order to live in an organized society. But it is common to think politics does not concern, touch, interest or they, who do politics are not interested, concerned or touched by lives of ordinary citizens.
Emotional landscapes we inhabit, which we make, we have and how we notice them, invaded emotional spaces and which emotions are there for us to sense, why are they there for us, why do we have feelings at all if we are unable to use them or are they to use selectively. Do we inhabit emotions at all, maybe emotions are rare precious things we cannot afford anymore other than instant ecstatic thrills and chills called experiencing, sudden bursts which we go hunting to avoid boredom, loneliness, not to face ourselves, not to face the everyday of someone nor mine nor anyone’s

Speed of change, there is a time for change is a phrase, phrasing as framing, it is settling, maybe an effort to find crystallized truth and meaning and explanation of what happens, what might happen and why. Timing, what happens with timing, in time, in waiting, in lining up, in hurry, speed that media brings in our lives, speed of pictures, speed of events, speed of a runner. Speeding, measuring, comparing at work.

within my grasp

Emotions as we and why do we like to abstain and refrain our emotions into illness. Having an order of emotions, taking them for granted and as inferior phenomenon which reason must rule and guide. An order which many of us seem to live by is not to, a no, a ban, prohibition of. What do we let out and what we do not because we are not allowed, because it is not proper, we do not dare? It is an interesting topic, because our emotional refusal, which could be called a plug that is not wished to be pulled, a tag, pivot behind a door, stepping stone, something nonverbal, unspoken inner banner which is there, but how far and can you see it. Inner banner, a flag of your own, what is it like?
Revolution is an emotional event. It is a moment of not wanting to have that plug anymore. Not wanting to be dictated, controlled over, told what to say, do, be like and feel.
It is feminine to feel, to show emotions, to cry, to laugh, be insecure, admit sensing. Crying is a powerful outburst with tears and facial expressions. Crying is probably the most controlled emotional and physical act, please don’t cry, I would have to react to your tears. 

irrational behavior of those who oppose, lunacy, mental. To declare mental

Hierarchy by machinery, interconnected electronic components – How violence manifests itself (in our everyday lives just like that)

Violence, to cause violence knowingly, not knowingly, inflict pain deliberately is to be bad, wanting to be bad, to feel bad and ill aggression and adrenaline in your veins and bones must be a powerful feeling, hate, loath, contempt, power in them, it is suffering itself, not knowingly and knowingly is either stupidity, incapability to understand the effects of one’s actions, to put oneself in position of the other, to give a damn, how could that happen. Violent behavior is a learned way to solve life, to solve other people, to solve problems, to see life in violent way is to see only problems.

Violence is a pattern of blindness towards good, blind aggression, blind desire for power.

In this violent simplistic solving one creates more violence. If we are not able to forgive and forget, what do we get. Which acts are violent in the very meaning of hurt? A look, talk, judgment. We can begin to understand violence when we look at ourselves and that we are hurt. Stepping on an ant is killing that ant. There are so many of them how could killing it be avoided? Some sweep their way gently in order to avoid killing bugs since they may be ancestors who have got ants body. Spirit is more important than body, spirit that moves, circulates in the universe, in cosmos over and over again changing form seeking enlightenment. What is violence in this picture of spirits? Punishments of god, what has happened to you in your past lives, what did you do during those past lives. Were you good or bad towards other beings? Of course if you believe.








Human mind is an interesting piece of work. It takes fairly large amount of information which one has to take into consideration to evaluate a person. We live in  western mono culture, which seemingly and falsely looks diverse, but it is filled with stereotypes and patterns how to act and think, therefore it is I’d say easy to know how people with certain background, gender, education think and act. It is good to bear in mind that there are exceptions who are not that visible. Just to let you know…


transference of club of liars, lies, hard hands that have held you for hours trying to get to shore

holding my inner velocity, clubs of different shapes, wooden with colorful tapes, to try and say something, hit a ball, hit a window, gray-faced man who hates running the field, from base to base and home

Desiderius Anhedonia, joyless spring, has been very little studied but still exists

Lack of respect what comes to following strict ideology and having complete faith in reason. Why do you believe your eyes? Process of making civilization creating inhibitions which cannot tolerate zest