My parents left on Friday for a business trip to New York City in September of 2001 . I did not go with them because I was in school , so they left me at home . I am sixteen , so I can take care of myself , but I had to check in with our next door neighbor Mrs . Rice . So Friday after school I checked in with Mrs . Rice . She has two sons ; one is a two - year - old named Jack the other is a two - month - old named Mat . She said that I should come in so I did . She asked if I had any homework , and I did and I said that I would do it sometime this weekend . She said that now would be a good time to get it started . I sat at the kitchen table and did my homework , it took longer than I had planed , but maybe that was because Mrs . Rice and I had talked . I found out that she was only ten years older than I was , her husband 's first name was Andy , and he was on the road three weeks out of four . She found out that I did not have a current girl friend and my best friend was on his way to see his grandparents . We also talked about , the car I wanted to get , and what I wanted to do to it . It was nice to have some one to talk with . Jack had been watching his Barney videotape while we talked and I did my homework . Mat was asleep in his room . It was just before five o ' clock when Mat started to cry . I followed Mrs . Rice into Mat 's room I do not why I did it I just did . She picked up Mat , and removed him from his crib and then handed him to me . I sat in the chair holding a crying baby . Mrs . Rice came back with his bottle , and told me how to hold him and then handed me his warm bottle of milk . I had Mat 's little bottom in my lap and an arm under his head . Once the nipple touched his lips the crying stopped and he started drinking from his bottle . I got a very hard erection from this . When Mat was done with his bottle , Mrs . Rice then had me burp Mat . A small wet spot showed on my pants Mrs . Rice stated that it looked like Matt 's diaper had leaked . Matt 's diaper had not leaked , but I did not tell her that . Mrs . Rice took Mat from me , and placed him on his changing table and changed his diaper . She commented that his diaper did not seem to be that wet that it would have leaked , but he did need to be changed . I stayed and watched while she changed Matt 's diaper . Mrs . Rice asked if I had done any babysitting . No I told her . She then started to explain what she was doing and why as she changed Mat 's diaper . When she was done , she asked if I had any questions on how to change a diaper . Not at this time , I told her . She asked me to carry Mat out to the family room and put him in the playpen then wash up for dinner . I did what she asked . Dinner was meatloaf with peas and mashed potatoes , I think . Part way through dinner a foul smell wafted pass my noise . Mrs . Rice looked at Jack and asked him if he did stinky . Jack laughed at the question , I know , it was him . Mrs . Rice apologized , and got up and took Jack away . A few minutes later they returned and Jack had a fresh scent of baby power . We finished dinner and I cleared the table then thanked Mrs . Rice for dinner and said goodnight then went home . When I got home , I checked the answering machine , nothing . I hung out , and watched some TV and listened to some music and played video games before going to bed . I had a hard time getting to sleep that night the house was to quiet . Saturday watched cartoons , and had breakfast and hung out . About eleven o ' clock mom called and gave me the telephone number for the hotel that they were staying at and their room number . Mom asked what I had planed to do today , I said , I did not know . She said that she left a list of jobs that I could / should do around the house . Mom asked . Is Scott coming over to our house or was I going over to Scott home . I told her that Scot went to visit his grandparents this weekend and that he only told me that at school on Friday . We talked some more and she reminded me to check in with Mrs . Rice and they loved me and to be good . After the telephone call from my mom , I found the list taped to the microwave oven . The first item was to clean up my room , second item was to do the laundry , and third item mow the grass if the weather was good and the last item was to do my homework . Well thanks to Mrs . Rice I could check off the last item , the others I would get around to them later maybe . I went over to the Rice 's home to check in . I was invited to come in , and Mrs . Rice asked what I had planed to do today . I said that I was just going to hang out and maybe go to the video store and rent a movie or two . Mrs . Rice then asked if I had any plans for Sunday afternoon around the hours of two thirty and four . I asked her why , she said that she needed someone to baby - sit for her . I said , I guessed I was free to baby - sit . She said " Good " . We talked some more , and I let her know that I had talked to my mom earlier this morning . Jack was due for a diaper change and Mrs . Rice had me change him . Jack got upset with me because I was taking too long to change his diaper . Mrs . Rice had to help me and said I did OK for my first try . Looking back on it I was just lucky that I did not tape my fingers to Jack 's diaper and the fact that it stayed on him was just plain luck too . After his diaper change , Jack and I played some game , as Mrs . Rice cleaned the house . I stayed for about three hours . Moreover , I got to change Jack 's diaper again , and got to change Mat too . I said my good - byes and that I would be over tomorrow in , time to baby - sit for her . I left the Rice 's ; I got on my bicycle and rode down to the video store and picked up some videos and then went next door and ordered a pizza for my dinner . With the pizza and the movies , I was set for the night . I know what your are think , a sixteen year old boy should be driving and not riding a bicycle . I have to wait until November before my mom and dad will take me to get my temporary license . This sucks big time . Sunday was another do nothing day . I did baby - sit for Mrs . Rice and she paid me for it too . Mrs . Rice asked me to stay for dinner and I did . I was glad to get home thought , Mat had started crying and Mrs . Rice was cueing him and a like , but he just cried and cried , how can a baby cry that long with out taking a breath . I check my school bag and made sure , I had my homework in there for Monday . I then checked the school lunch calendar and found that lunch was fish sticks , spaghetti and mashed potatoes and Jell - O . Gross ! I made my lunch for Monday and packed it in my school bag . I then watched some television and went to bed early that night . Monday was a school day and Scott was back from visiting his grandparents . We had lunch together and set out plans for after school , which was to hang out at his house after school . Scott asked how my weekend went . I told him OK ; I did leave out the amount of time that I spent at the Rice 's home . After school I went home with Scott we listened to some music and messed around . Scott 's mom asked if I would like to stay for dinner and I said sure . She than asked if I needed to call home and let my parents know that I would be staying for dinner , I told her they were out of town for the next few days , so no need to call them . After dinner Scott and I hung out some more it was about eight thirty when Scott 's mom said it was time that I left and for Scott to get started on his homework . I thanked Scott 's mom for dinner and told Scott that I would see him at school tomorrow . She was kind enough to drive me home ; not that it was that far to walk . When I got home , I checked in with Mrs . Rice . To say she was mad and upset with me would be a huge understatement . She asked if I thought it was to hard to pickup a telephone and let her know that I was over at a friend 's house . " No . " I said and my mom would understand that I went over to Scott 's house after school . What is the big deal any ways . Oh boy did I find that was the wrong thing to say . The big deal was that my parents had given Mrs . Rice temporary custody over me . She pushed their letter granting her that right into my face . Mrs . Rice asked if I had any homework and if did was it done . I told her yes I have homework and I would be starting when I got home . She said , you better get started then , now go then . I wasted no time in leaving her front stoop . I did do my homework it only took an hour to do . I watched television until the eleven o ' clock news came on . I then went to bed . Tuesday … September 11 , 2001 … What words can I use to describe today ? The P . A . system in school broke the news to us about the aircraft hitting the World Trade Center not once but twice . We were all in shock and disheartened by the news . I was just numb and wanted to hear my parents voices to know that they were OK . It is just ten thirty in the morning and the school buses are there to take us home . Due to the events today they let us go home early . I went straight home , and turned on the television and watched the events being replayed , and hoping for a different outcome . It was late afternoon when I called the hotel , that my parents were staying at in New York City . I must have been lucky my call went through on the first try . I left a voice mail asking that they call home as soon as they got the message . I waited by the telephone for them to call back . It was dark outside when a knock came from the front door . I answered the door and it was Mrs . Rice , she asked if I was OK and had I heard from my parents ! I said I was fine and had not heard from my parents . She asked if I had eaten any dinner . I said that I had not and I was not hungry . Mrs . Rice told me that I needed to eat , and that she would be back later to check on me . Mrs . Rice also told me to lock the front door . Sure , fine , OK was my answer . I went back to the chair next to the telephone , and sat down and willed the telephone to ring . It did not . When I woke the next day I was still in the chair next to the telephone but someone had put a blanket over me . I rushed to my parent 's room hoping to find them there , but they were not . I skipped school today and sat by the telephone with the television on . The next few days , weeks are a blur . I guess the fact that my parents have been killed in the attack has sunk in . My friend , Scott , I did not want to see him or his family it remained me too much of my lost . Scott was cool about it . I think he understands . I have talked with him and explained some of my feeling or should I say the feeling that guys will talk about with other guys . Joyce , Mrs . Rice , had me move in with them . Andy helped move me in to their guest bedroom . He also took a few weeks of vacation so that they could get temporary custody of me and be my legal guardians . Children and Family Services wanted to place me in a shelter and Children and Family Services claimed that my parents are unfit to care for me . Children and Family Services stated that my parents leaving me home alone with no adult in charge is all the proof they need for the charge . The judge ruled that I was to stay with the Rice 's . It was Jack , that called me his big brother and him asking the judge not to take me away , I think that did it . Joyce stated that I had fitted into their lives just as much as Jack and Matt . That I cared for the boys when she was busy , but that was not often and I would play with Jack for hours . Also since Jack had started potty training , he would follow me into the bathroom , and had stated using the toilet like a big boy with a few accidents . The judge also talked to Joyce and Andy without us " kids " around . The Rice 's will not tell me what the judge asked or said to them . I do know that the judge ordered the case work to back off when he found out my parents were killed in the attack on the World Trade Center . The pressure of losing my parents , the witch - hunt by Children and Family Services , and moving in to the Rice 's home were just too much . I started wetting my bed and was very embarrassed by it . Joyce was very kind about it all . After the second wet night , a bag of Goodnites showed up in my bedroom the next day . That night Joyce asked that I wear them to bed until my problem dried up . Well the Goodnites were not that good , it was more like damp nights with the first bag . The second bag of new and improved , Goodnites show up just before the last one from the first bag was to be used . They were better than the first bag but no dry bed for me . Half way through the second bag , it was a Monday night , Joyce asked to speak with me about my bedwetting after Jack was asleep . Talk about being embarrassed . Joyce said she understood that I did not want to talk about my bed - wetting . That ' we ' and not ' me ' had to come up with a solution to the problem of my bed - wetting no matter how embarrassing it might be . Yea , easy for her to say , she not the one wetting the bed . She said that looked to her that the Goodnites were leaking , was this because I did not get up and change it when " I knew it was wet ? " I told her no . She then asked me if she should wake me up at two thirty or three in the morning when she changes Matt diaper , so I could change my Goodnites if it was wet or use the bathroom to stay dry . If you wish that , it would be fine was my answer to her . Would it do any good was her come back to me ? " I do not know will it " was my answer back to her . Joyce told me the next move was up to me and ' we ' needed to talk about it like adults and come up with a plan . Like any plan it needs to have a goal , the goal was for me to have a dry bed then to have dry nights , and she was willing to help me . She then asked what I wanted to try for the first part of the goal . I said let us try the waking me up . " That is a good start . " Joyce told me . That night / morning Joyce woke me up . She asked if I was wet . I was soaking wet from head to toe , I also was having nightmares , and Joyce had awakened me in the middle of one of them . I got up to change my goodnight and pajamas because they were wet and to find that the bed was wet too . Joyce had gone and changed Matt and came back to my room since the light was still on . I had put on a fresh goodnight and was just putting a fresh T - shirt when Joyce walked in . She saw that the bedding was wet . She asked if the goodnight had leaked . It had I said hoping that she would go , but no , she help me strip the bed and remake it with fresh sheets . Joyce said that we needed to talk . I asked if it could wait . She said no . Dam I thought . " I did not say you were , but I can see that the Goodnites do not fit you and they leak because of that poor fit , an adult diaper would be bigger and fit you better . That 's all . " Joyce stated in a motherly tone . " No I am not , I am telling you the truth , thought it is something I am not proud of . I suffered with it for four years . My mom , at first punished me for wetting my bed that lasted for about six months . Then I saw a doctor about it , and my mom made sure that ever one on the doctor 's waiting room knew that I had been wetting my bed . The doctor did some test and found the problem . I had started school that year as one of the shorter kids and ended the school year as the tallies girl in my class . My balder and body were not keeping up with each other . So once , we knew why , then my mom set out a quest to stop my bed - wetting . I think I tried everything and it was no fun . As a last ditch effort , my mom diapered me . I was made to feel ashamed and embarrassed by her each night as she diapered me because I could not keep the bed dry that lasted for almost a year . I swore to myself that if I ever had children and they in turn , turned out to be a bed wetter that I help them the best I could . I would not embarrass them or make them feel ashamed because of this or any other problem . I know you are not my child but I want to help you . " Joyce said . " As I see it , you have five options : One , do noting . Two , I could take you to the doctor 's and you can get the medication to stop wetting your bed , but Children and Family Services would find out and most likely bring it out in court . Three stay with the Goodnites . Four get you an alarm that will wake you up along with the rest of this house . And the fifth option , adult diapers . Even thought my mom made my life hell with the diapering my bed was dry . " " Goodnight , Ken , and have pleasant dreams . " With that , Joyce walked out of my room . I had to write down what she had said . However , I do not want to wear a diaper or a goodnight I really want is my old dry self back and my mom and dad too . The next few nights were the same Joyce would wake me up on her way to Matt . But she did not bring the subject of me wearing diapers or any thing else . Joyce was doing what she said she would do . My supply of Goodnites was getting low , only two were left ; I now had to make that dissection of what I was going to do . That night when Joyce woke me up , I asked her to stop on her way back . I changed into my last goodnight and waited for Joyce to come back . Tonight it took her a long time to get back from caring for Matt . I asked if we could talk . Joyce stated she was very tired and could this wait until morning . I said no . She came in , sat down on my bed , and asked what can not wait until later . I said I must be nuts asking you this . " For the last few nights you have been get we up and I thank you for that but … umm … you … have not asked or talked to me about my dissection . " " If I saw the doctor and got the medication , how would I know when to stop taking it . " I asked . " You stop and see what happens if you are dry and stay dry then you do not need it any more if not you keep taking it . " Joyce said . That morning as I left for school I flipped , a coin , heads - Goodnites , tales - diapers , on the side - see the doctor . The coin landed tales up . I took a deep breath ; my fate had been decided I told Joyce quietly on my way out the door that I would try the diapers . That night when I headed for bed Joyce stopped me and told me that she had put some supplies in my room along with the diapers . Joyce ran down the list of supplies that she got for me . Joyce also went over when to use the different items . The items are power , lotion , diaper rash cream , and bathroom size trash bags for my used diapers . She also said that she would wait outside my room while I put on my diaper just in case I had any problems or question . I shut the bedroom door while I put it on . I did not have any problems or questions . After I had my first real diaper on since being a baby , I opened the bedroom door . Joyce looked at me and asked if everything was OK . My answer was I think so . She asked if she could check my diaper to make sure I had done it correctly . I said fine . She told me I had done a good job of diapering myself and my bed should now be dry . The next weekend just before Thanksgiving Andy was home and I did tell him about my wearing diapers at night . He was OK with it if I was OK with it and I was . He did not ask any questions or make any other comments about the bed - wetting or the diapers . I was happy for that but figured Joyce had filled him before I said anything , although she said she would not tell him . Thing were going well until Christmas Eve , Joyce 's mom , Pat , showed up . I had to share Jack 's bedroom with Jack , as Pat would be sleeping in my room . Pat found my diapers in the bed room closet . I found out what Joyce had to put up with when she , use to wet her bed . Joyce had not told Andy about her childhood bed wetting problem but Pat did by let us all know about it even Jack . Then she started on me , since the size on the bag would only fit one person and it was me . She called me a baby to my face and asked if I need my diaper changed by an adult since babies can 't change their own diapers . Andy stepped in and told her off . It was like watching a dogfight but Andy went for the kill shot early . And that was she was a guest in our home and she could visit any time , as long as she wore a diaper and we all could make fun of her . Andy 's last words to Pat were . " Don 't come back until you have the Christmas spirit . " Anyway Pat left after the fight and I got my room back for Christmas Christmas morning my diaper was dry , I had not wet myself . Joyce knocked on my door and said that they were going to open gifts . I did not change out of my diaper but went to open Christmas gifts . Jack , Matt and myself opened our Christmas gifts with our diapers on . I got some new clothes and a CD that I wanted . The last gift box that Joyce and Andy handed me had only my name on it and did not list from whom it was from . Andy said it was from all of them to me . I thanked them all before opening it . It was an X - box , I had said in passing that it was cool and wanted to play one but never thought I would get it as a gift . At this point my bladder was full and I just wet my diaper . I think my face may have shown something because Joyce said it was time to change Jack and Matt 's diapers as she looked me straight in the eyes . I got up and went back to my room and got cleaned up and dressed for the day , I wanted to wear a diaper for the rest of the day , but did not . Jack was now in pull - up during the day and he had been very good about going potty in the potty like his new big brother . If he is good and does not have an accident this week he will be in big boy underwear by New Years Day . Late that day the doorbell rang and it was Pat , she apologized for yesterday and , how sorry she was for what she had said to me and that she was out of place for doing it . The rest of the day went well , even Christmas dinner . A little , after Jack was put to bed , Pat said that she should be going . That was fine by me even thought she was nice to me I still felt her disapproval for being their and my bed - wetting problem . Both Andy and Joyce asked if I had plans for New Years Eve and I did not , they asked if I would baby sit for them that night . Sure , why I asked . The neighborhood was having a small adults only New Years Eve party , and they wanted to go . Between Christmas and New Years most of my nights were dry , even thought I did not want diapers in the first place I had grown to like them . I think Joyce knew that my need for diapers was end , but would she understand my want for diapers . Why do I think that , maybe it is her mom instinct or maybe I said something ? When she asked how I was doing , or did I need more supplies , or because I was not talking to her about my problem . This may just be my fear for liking diapers . New Years Eve evening , Andy and Joyce felt for the party after Jack was in bed and Matt was a sleep in his crib . I got my self ready for bed at eight forty five that is to say my diaper was on and my pajamas were on too . I sat down and watched a movie on one of the cable channels , with a large glass of soda pop . After the movie , Matt started to cry so I got his bottle and took to him . Matt first needed his wet and soiled diaper changed before his bottle , which I did . My diaper was wet too but I did not change it . After Matt was done with his bottle , I put him back into his crib and he went back to sleep luck for me . I set Matt bottle in the kitchen sink , I had a strange urge , and it was to try a bottle . So I took a clean bottle , filled it with milk , put the nipple on it , and went back to the family room . The eleven o ' clock news was on so I drank from the bottle . I took me a while but I did finish the bottle . I set the bottle down on the floor next to the chair I was sitting in as Dick Clark Rocking New Years Eve telecast started . I watched as 2001 ended and thought about all that happened that year and I started to cry . Happy Year I heard Dick Clark say , welcome to 2002 . I flipped channels , found an another movie , and started to watch it . The next thing I know Joyce is waking me up to go to bed . I kicked the empty bottle that I had set on floor earlier and Joyce bent down to pick it up . She must have gotten a whiff of my wet diaper . She asked but more like told me that my diaper was wet . I found this out later that day . I don 't know what I said but Joyce changed my diaper . By the time my brain realized what was happening I got the biggest and hardest erection I ever had and then was total embarrassed by it all . Joyce saw the look on my face and said it was OK , I was just like Jack and Matt down there , just bigger that all . She continued to rub in the lotion on my penis , she stopped just before it was too late to control it and I would have really been embarrassed if I had had an orgasm . Next came the power and finally the diaper . What a rush ! With my diaper on , Joyce then put my pajama bottoms back on me , helped me into bed , and tucked me in . I said ' goodnight mom . ' She bent over , kissed my forehead , and said goodnight sweetie , happy dreams . On her way out she turned off the lamp and closed my bedroom door . Once the door was closed , I finished what she had started ; it did not take long for me to reach ejaculation . That was the first time I had masturbated in my diaper . Once I had come , I went to sleep . January 1 , 2002 - New Years Day was a big day for Jack not because it was a New Year but because today was his first day in big boy underwear . I felt weird each time Jack would say that he is now like his dad and big brother because he was in his big boy underwear . He was glad to be in his underwear , and I wanted to be in a diaper , how odd could that be . Later that day I had a private moment with Joyce and I blushed as I thanked her for changing my diaper last night or earlier this morning . She just smiled at me with a , your welcome smile , but the smile had a hint of something else there too . She told what had happened as stated above . The moment was broken with a cry from Matt , and yell by Jack , and a shout from Andy who was watching the football games in the television . Joyce asked if I would take care of Matt and she would care for Jack . Matt was awake from nap , wanted out of crib , and was in need of a diaper change too . I changed Matt 's diaper and told him how lucky he was to have such a good mommy . I also told him how lucky he was to be in diapers and to hold on to them as long as he could , I knew he still had eighteen months or so to be in diapers . After I had changed Matt I carried him out to the family room and put him in the playpen . I then got a bottle of juice for him to have inside the playpen with him . I started to watch the game with Andy and that only lasted for a few minutes . I went to my room and played a game on my x - box . That evening I said goodnight to Joyce and Andy , went to my room , and was getting ready for bed . A knock on my bed room door and I said come in . It was Joyce , She said that she had over heard what I had said to Matt , and my heart sank . The court was going to hear two items , one a change of custody from temporary to permanent and two , liquidation of my parent 's property . The selling of the house I use to live in . Joyce asked me if was OK with it . Sort of , I told her . It means the end of hope that my parents will come home and because of that , I get a new family . It 's not fair ! ! ! January 2 , 2002 Wednesday , Pat came over to baby sit Jack and Matt as Joyce , Andy and me went back to court . Judge Wright was hearing the case today . Court started as normal , well from what I had been through before and from watching television . Ms . Carol Brown from Children and Family Services ( CAFS ) " the witch " was there . CAFS still did not like the fact that I was under the care of the Rice 's . Their reasons she stated were one , the lack of age difference between Mr . and Mrs . Rice and me . The difference is only ten years , and it needs to be more so it would be a truer parent child relationship so they claim . Two , the fact that I am older than Jack by fourteen years and I should be placed with someone who has or had child of my age . Third , the Rice 's have not been fully truthful to CAFS . Case in point being that I wear diapers to bed because I am a bed wetter and a simple visit to a doctor was not done . I was so embarrassed by the fact that my bed wetting and diaper wearing was brought up in court and now it is part of the court records . Judge Wright thanked Ms . Brown for her report to the court . Judge Wright asked some questions to Ms . Brown , one of them being my placement into a foster care . The home CAFS had planed for me to go to was on the other side of the county , and I would have to transfer to different high school . The judge questioned Ms . Brown about a family with in my current school district . She stated that CAFS feels that is best that I be moved to a new area , where I could get a fresh start . The judge asked her what if my parents where to show up how would they find me . Ms . Brown answer was that my parents in the eyes of CAFS and the law were unfit parents . Judge Wright said that the law is what he says it is in his court . Ms Brown pointed her finger at the judge and said , " What I say goes here the law backs me up not you . We are taking that child and you have no right to interfere with the job CAFS does ! " With that , Judge Wright called for a 20 - minute recess , Ms . Brown he wanted to seAfter the recess it was just Judge Wright , the bailiff / court reporter , Joyce , Andy , and myself . Judge Wright stated for the record that Ms . Brown , was being held in contempt of court , and was not present in the courtroom . I wanted to jump for joy because the witch got hers . Judge Wright asked some questions about my problem , which I was too embarrassed to answer , but Joyce did answer . The judge also asked what I liked about living with the Rice 's . That turned out to be a harder question to answer than I thought . " That the rules were about the same as what my parents had , and it was nice to have two brothers , thought it would be nice if they were older so I would have someone to play with . Joyce and Andy , I mean Mr . and Mrs . Rice , have done so much to make me part of their family that it is hard to point this item or that item as good or bad . " I stated . The judge asked if I called them by their first names . " Yes " , I said , both Joyce and Andy stated that they had given me permission to call them by their first names . The judge asked me if I had any living relatives . " Yes , one but she is in extended care home in a different state . " I told the judge . He was the first to ask that question . I left the courtroom and sat down on a bench in the hallway . The Rice 's and the judge were in the courtroom for an hour before I was asked to join them . Mrs . Smith for CAFS also joined us . Judge Wright gave us his decision . " One , Andy Paul Rice and Joyce Melanie Rice have full custody over the minor child named Kenneth Wily Kelly as long as items two and three are meet . Two , Said minor child is to be seen by a medical doctor for his bed wetting problem with in seven days and to report back to this court with the findings of that exam . Three , Said minor child is to go in therapy with a licensed psychiatrics for help in dealing with the loss of his natural parents , adjusting to his new family , and if need for his bed wetting . Four , All real assets from the minor child parent 's estate shall be sold at fair market value . Including but not limited to the house , cars , household furnishings , stocks , and bonds . The minor child will get full control over the funds at age twenty - three if no death certificate is issued before then . If a death certificate is issued and the minor child is of legal age then he will at that time , have full control over the funds . Five , Mr . and Mrs . Rice will be given an allowance from the estate that covers room and board , health insurance for this minor child , and cash of one hundred dollars per month until the minor child turns of legal age . The court will set the amount for room and board each year . The health insurance is at actual cost paid . The one hundred dollars a month is to cover clothing and other miscellaneous expenses in caring for this minor child . Six , An allowance up to the total actual cost paid for educational expenses , including but not limited to school field trips , collage fees , and books to be paid from said funds . Seven , Any medical expenses or supplies not covered by health insurance will be paid from said fund . Eight , The last item Andy Paul Rice is charged with over seeing this fund and will report each year to the court a full accounting of all monies in the fun " Any questions . " The judge asked . " No . " He told me . I wanted to ask why but did not . I did ask about the age thing . Judge Wright stated that this state had a seven - year waiting period before someone could be declared legally dead . So on September 12 , 2008 the courts would declare my parents legally dead unless other proof was brought forth to the court that my parents were either dead or live . Mrs . Smith asked a question about CAFS roll until I turn of legal age . Judge Wright stated that CAFS roll in this case has ended unless One , I did not comply with items two and three of his ordered . Or two , the failure of Mr . Rice to over see the fund correctly . Three , CAFS can not go on a witch - hunt to find or to try to break up this family unit . And that Ms . Brown is off this case he stated to Mrs . Smith . It was just past one o ' clock when we got home . Joyce made lunch for us and Pat filled her in on what they did . Pat asked what happened today and Joyce said thing worked out well but did not go into any detail . After lunch Pat left and Joyce then called her , and it turned out to be mine , pediatrician Dr . Mark , it turn out the first non - emergency appointment was on Monday at three o ' clock . The nurse asked what the problem was Joyce said that I was wetting the bed and we needed to get it check out . The nurse asked how long I had been wetting the bed Joyce told her about eleven weeks . Well we got an appointment that day , it was the last one of the day , and it was at six o ' clock . We showed up at the pediatrician office just before six . Jack was a little upset because the last time he saw Dr . Mark he got a shot and did not like . The nurse had me follow her back to one of the exam room . She asked that I get undressed and put on a gown and that the doctor would be in shortly . Dr . Mark was in before I had change into the gown . He gave me full physical , blood work , pee in the cup , looked in all the openings . He asked some question about my bed - wetting and I told him it was getting better . He did a few tests that were not , the most friendly . The final ruling , nothing physically wrong with me and I should be dry at night . Andy and Joyce were there to hear that . They asked that it be put in writing for the court . Dr . Mark said he would write it up after the last of the test came back and would fax it to the court . He asked if we wanted a prescription for or some samples of some drugs that would make me dry at night . I said no , and no it was . Dr . Mark did tell me that one percent of all sixteen - year - olds wet the bed and it should pass . Joyce asked if Dr . Mark could recommend a good child psychiatrics for me , to help deal with the lost of my parents . He recommended Dr . Le Ta and he would have is nurse setup the first appointment because Dr . Ta is not currently taking any new patients just referrals and he would include that in his letter to the court . In weeks between seeing Dr . Mark and before seeing Dr . Ta , things were going well . I was given time alone in my former home to find the items that I wanted to keep . The house had sat empty of life and had a cold feeling about it . The plants that my mom had grown were dead from the lack of care . Although this was home , I felt like a stranger in it . Most of my things were already over at my new home but what was not I boxed up to take over . I did not have much time to go through every thing , with real estate agents coming to look at the place and people who do estate and auction sales listing and assigning prices to each item . I must say that one of the women from the estate and auction sales was kind enough to box up the items that my mom kept of my childhood , like report cards , school pictures , my baby teeth and a like . Why to mother keep such things ? Also during this time I had started to hang out with Scott more , it is as if life is falling back into place , and by hanging out with Scott I meet a girl who 's name is Mary . We had known each other from the start of the school year because we had the same first four periods together , but now we only have one period together . We are just friends for how , but she thinks it cool that I have two little brothers that I help care for . Odd thing at the start of the school year she would not even talk to me now we are like long lost friend . Mary was over at my ' new ' home and we were doing our homework in my room . We were doing our homework in there because of Jack . It was not that Jack was bad , he was just full of energy , and we needed some quite to study . I asked Mary if she wanted something to drink and she did . So I went to get us some soda pop . When I came back to my room my heart dropped . Mary had gone into my closet and had found a sweater of mine because she was cold ; the problem was that the draw the sweater was in was right next to my bag of diapers . Mary saw the look on my face and said she hoped I did not mind her wearing my sweater . I said no , not at all , or some like that . She said nothing about the diapers and I did not want to start something over them . We drank our drinks and finished our homework . When Mary was about to leave she took off my sweater and handed back to me . I helped her with her coat and walked her to the door . She gave me a little kiss on my cheek and said that she would see me in school tomorrow . Joyce asked what brought about a kiss I just blushed . January 15 , 2002 Tuesday . I feared going to school today , because I feared that Mary might have told her friend what she saw in my closet yesterday . I meet up with Scott at school and we talked as we walked to our first class . He said , that he had heard from his girlfriend that Mary real liked me . I asked if he heard anything else . No he said , but he did want to know what I had done to get her to like me so much so quickly . I said that I did not know other than act like a gentleman that got a good laugh out of Scott . At lunch , I sat at a table by myself when two of Mary 's friends asked if they could join me . I said that they could . One of the girls stated that I was Mary 's first boyfriend and if did anything to hurt her I was dead meat . " Since we are good friends with Mary , and Mary likes you we will be nice to you , but hurt her or dump her then watch out . " Jill stated then punched me in the arm . Girl or not she hit me so hard , that spot turned black , blue , and yellow . Last class of the day . The class that Mary is in with me . She asked if she could come over and we could do our homework together . I told her not today , because I had a doctor 's appointment after school . She asked which doctor I was seeing with a hint of something in her voice . I told her a doctor , OK . She was upset that I would not tell her who or what type of doctor . She told me to call her when I got home . I said I would . After school , I saw doctor , Ta . I guess for shrink he is OK , he wants to know how I feel . I am guy why would I talk about my feels and in that child 's playroom he called his office , come on get real . I felt out of place and did not want to talk to him . He asked about my parents , and if I miss them . What a dumb ass question to ask . There was a lot of quiet time in that session . He did talk to Joyce in private for about ten minutes . " That would be a good starting point . Am I sure doctor Ta can help you work through those feelings and others when you reach them and find ways to express them . " Joyce said in a calm voice . By this time , we were home and our talk ended . I was in a foul mood and just went to my room Jack wanted me do to something with him . I just shut him out . That may not have been fair to Jack but I needed some time by myself to work my feelings out . At dinner Jack shied away from me , Joyce asked if I was done sulking for the day , I said I was . I asked Jack what he wanted to tell or show me only to have him run and hide behind his mother . Oh boy was I in the dog house big time with Jack and Joyce . Friday , January 18 . Second , visit to the shrink . The ' playroom ' had changed , all the little kid stuff was stacked in one corner of the room and an adult size table with two nice chairs was in the center of the room , this is where we sat . I talked most of the hour , about my parents , the Rice 's , and I even touched on my bed - wetting problem . I ask a question about why is office on Tuesday look more like a day care center than an office . I found out that Fridays and Saturdays are when he sees his older patients like me , and that made me feel better . Jack had his toy cars out and had made a city with his blocks . Jack took the bright red sports car of course . I got the " family " car . Jack zoomed around his town in his sports car . I just keep my car out of Jack 's way . One of Jack 's buildings was taller than the other ones and I had to get up to move my car around this building . That was when I saw something inside that building . I asked Jack what was inside that building , he said I had to play cars with him first . We played for about ten more minutes before Joyce whispered something to Jack ear . Jack answer was " we play cars first . " Jack parked his car in front of the tall building , and then he hit the building and the building blocks crashed to the floor . In side was the study guide for getting your temporary drivers ' license . Joyce told me , that Andy would be taking me to the testing center on Saturday , February 2 . I went and did my homework after calling Scott and telling him that I was going to get my temporary drivers ' license ! I found out that Scott was going that same day to get his , he had keep it a secret form me because he knew that it was a very sore subject with me . Joyce went to bed early to night , and I got my diaper on and stayed up to study for the drivers license test . I was thirsty and went to the kitchen to get a glass of milk , instead of a glass I used one of Matt 's bottles . It was sitting on the counter begging me to use it . I took it back to my room and drank from the bottle as I studied . Before turning in for the night I played with myself by rubbing my diaper , though it felt good it was not the same as the first time . Ken is now Kenny at least for this weekend . Today he confessed to some very weird feeling . Kenny likes his diapers and wants to drink from a bottle . As I am a good mother , I fear that my other children and I will not understand why a child who has been on this earth sixteen years wishes to be treated like a baby . I know that he has not been a happy child of late , so I will put aside my feelings and for fill his wishes . When I asked him what he wanted , he shook with fear and answered in a voice not clear . His eyes could not look into mine . Mommy ( Joyce ) Monday January 21 . Well I am not dead . This last weekend was like a roller coaster ride . Friday night using one of Matt 's bottles was like the first hill , a slow rise to the top of the hill . Saturday morning when Joyce walked in to my bedroom and found me with a bottle was like being on the top of the first hill looking down . Still being held back because the last car has not cleared the lift chain , that one moment of knowing what comes next but not sure when . And the questions did come ; Joyce was not dumb , she stated that she knew things . Fear came over me , what had I said that night that she changed me , or had she overheard me telling Matt to enjoy his diapers while he could . What exactly did she know ? Her next question was very hard , and I was told not to lie for she would know . At that point , I knew what I had to do , as fear took over me , the only things I had to hold on to were truth and broken trust . I told her all but could not look her in the eye I began to cry . Joyce told me that she would treat me just like Matt that meant I would be playing with Matt 's toy and Matt . I would be eating what Matt was eating ; drinking the same thing as Matt drank including formula . Nap when Matt took his nap , etc . , etc . , and my diaper would be check from time to time and changed as need . In addition , I was to call her Mommy . The first thing was to take off my pajamas and next was to change my wet diaper . This was different than the first time that Joyce changed my diaper , not that it was bad but the rest of my diaper changes for this past weekend were very mater of fact . That first time seemed so kind , but I had not asked her to change me to the best of my knowledge . Now , well this last weekend , my diaper changes are by my request not that I could ask to be changed , but was as needed when she would check me . The whole weekend was odd , being fed , and bathed , drinking from a bottle all under the very watchful eyes and hands of my new mother . I was and am still am very embarrassed by it all . But maybe it was for the best as this past weekend was the estate / auction of the contents of my former home , and this is my new start on life . Friday , January 25 . I think some of Pat 's hate for Joyce 's bedwetting is comes through in Joyce , now at night she calls me her big baby boy . I blush each time I hear it and I have asked her not to call me that , but she still does . I have been going to bed with a bottle each night , that is now a rule I guess , and I have not had a dry night since . I guess in a way I am her big baby boy , now that Jack is out of diapers both day and night . Jack , that kid was so quick at telling Mary that he is now my big brother because he is big boy and is potty trained and I am not . Mary asked me about Jack 's statement , did he mean the diapers that were in the closet . I just died , what could I say other than ' yes ' if I had said no Jack may have told all . I did ask Mary why she took such a quick liking to me . She liked me because I did not freak out , when I knew that she had seen the bag diaper in my closet . And she thought I was cute . Plus I got along well with Jack and Matt . I found out after much blushing and embarrassment on both sided , that she had been a bed wetter too , but she did not use diapers for her problem . I do not know if what she said is true or not , but by the way she acted , it might be she did use diapers for her bedwetting or may still be a bed wetter . My bigger problem is Andy . My fear that Joyce had told him about last weekend , and my request to be treated like a baby . I found out that she had told him about it . Andy had a very long talk with me that I wish to forget . He is so afraid of my wanting to be babied that he fears that I will hurt his sons or them seeing me being babied will hurt them . Andy is very upset with me , he wanted to know how and why this , my wanting to be treated as a baby came about . I don 't think that he liked any of my answers . And I am not sure what will happen next . I do know this ; I am grounded , and have to stay in my room out of his sight . I am very scared … The last thing Andy said as he walked out of my room , was that was going to call CAFS and have them take me away . I may not be taking the test for my temporary permit for a long , long time or be doing much else . Saturday , January 26 . Dear journal , Saw the shrink today with Andy and Joyce . The main topic was my wanting to be babied . Very , very embarrassing having to say what I like and dislike about being babied point by point and why . I also had to explain again how this came about . Its not like I wanted to happen it just did . I am feeling sorry for myself right now and very sleepy . Dr . Ti wrote a set of prescriptions for some medication that I how have to take . The medication is to help me to over come my wanting to be babied . If this is what getting high is like , no thank you . Also my diapers are gone even at night , as is my bottle , and video games this to is to help me grow up , so states Andy . Still grounded , not sure if Andy has talked to CAFS , I really do like living here . Sorry have to sleep now , the medication is making me so sleepy . Monday , January 28 . I am in a fog ; my mind is so not here . My teachers kept asking if I was feeling OK today . How does one feel OK ? Had a test today in school , Mrs . Brown , one of my teachers wants to meet with Joyce and Andy tomorrow to talk about test . Saw Mary she asked if I was using drugs because I was acting so dumb . I told her the doctor had given me a prescription for some medication to help with my behavior , but not which behavior . Oh so sleepy , I don 't feel Saturday , February 2 . I got out of the hospital today . I had a very bad reaction to the medication and almost died , so the doctors said at the hospital . The last thing I remember is writing in my journal Monday night , the next thing is waking up in the hospital with tubes all around and in me and Andy by my bedside . The breathing tube came out shortly after I was a wake Wednesday night or Thursday morning . Andy said that everything will be OK , just do what the doctors and nurses say . The rest of the stuff was taken out today , including the catheter into my bladder . The nurse said that I should wear a diaper for the trip home because I would have very little or no warning when I would need to pee . I looked at Joyce and Andy they nodded that it was OK . I said OK , and the nurse drew the curtain closed and removed the catheter , and then diapered me . Tommy the kid in the next bed started to tease me and make jokes about me being diapered . Tommy had been in an accident with a car , and the police had ticketed Tommy for the accident , since he caused the accident . Tommy had a broken leg and two broken arms . It was too bad that his mouth was not broken too . The nurse got a devilish smile on her face as she opened the curtain , and stated he was next , to be diapered . Tommy yelled . " No way am I going to wear a diaper , I am not a baby , you can 't diaper me if I don 't want it ! " I have to smile as I write this . She did diaper Tommy and did it for all of us to see . I at least I had the curtain closed for my diapering , but not Tommy . The nurse told Tommy not to act like such a baby or they would start to treat him like a baby , and that would not be hard since the nursery was just down the hall . The nurse also injected some drug into Tommy 's IV line when she was done . She said it would help him to relax . Tommy 's mom showed up about five minutes later . He complained to his mom that the nurse had put a diaper on him and he wanted it taken off , right now . His mom took a quick look at his diaper and said that she would find a nurse to change him . Tommy said I not need a change . I want the dam diaper off me . Just then , the nurse came in with the wheelchair so I could go home . Tommy 's mom stated that her son 's diaper was soaked and needed to be changed . The look on his face was priceless ; it was shock and disbelief . The nurse said someone would back to change him . Tommy kept saying that he did not wet the diaper he just wanted it taken off . I was helped into the wheelchair and taken down to the lobby where my ride home was waiting . She , the nurse , was correct and I did wet myself on the way home with next to no warning , thank goodness , for the diaper , I was wearing . Mary had baby sat for Joyce and Andy so that they could bring me home from the hospital . I felt every odd being in a diaper , let a lone a wet diaper in front of Mary although I was dressed . Mary kissed me and gave me a big hug , she had to have heard the crinkling sounds of the disposable diaper I was wearing , but she said nothing about it . She did tell me about the homework assignment that was due on Monday and other thing that had happened at school the past week . The real big news items are : 1 . ) My old home is sold , to a family with two young kids . And 2 . ) My diapers and baby thing are back . I think Andy had a change of heart , or Joyce had a talk with him , or my stay in the hospital did it , or maybe he read my journal , I do not know , and I don 't care why or how the change took place . I am just glad they are back , not that I am going to ask Andy to baby me . Oh the other good news is my drivers ' test has been moved to next Saturday and Joyce will take me , and I am not grounded any more . Sunday , February 3 . Stayed diapered all day today , Andy said it would be best if I did . It seemed odd that he would make that request , but it did give me more time to catch up on my homework . Jack wanted to be next to me all day . He stayed close by and colored most of the day ; I guess my going to hospital upset him . Jack was also in diapers today , I don 't how or why he was in diapers but he was . The big surprise today was the family that will be moving into my old home , they stop by to introduce them self 's . The Williams , Earl and Gladys and their two girls , Mindy age 7 and Marcia age 5 nice people but only meet with them for a few minutes . I was to old , and Jack and Matt were too young for them . Monday , February 4 . The teachers were very nice to me today at school ; Mrs . Brown let me retake the test from January 28 , this time I got a 96 . Oh the homework . Well it 's late and tomorrow is an another school day . Friday , February 8 . Mary and I had a date tonight , and Joyce helped in pulling it off . Mary 's parents were going out but I could not go over to her house , parent 's rule . So Joyce called and asked if Mary 's mom if Mary could baby sit , because Joyce and I had some place go to . Mary 's mom said that it was OK for Mary to baby sit . Mary 's mom dropped Mary at our house a little after five o ' clock as requested . Joyce then dropped Mary and me at the Olive Garden Restaurant where the two of us had dinner . After dinner , we saw a movie , we sat in the far back corner of the Movie Theater and kissed , and I felt her breasts after she asked me to . She moved my hand to between her legs . She then placed her hand down the front of my pants and played with my penis , I had that feeling just like the first time Joyce diapered me , I asked Mary to stop but it was to late . What a thrill and total embarrassment at the same time , Mary seemed to like it too . We left the movie and took a taxicab back to my house , and Joyce then took Mary home . Joyce did ask how are date went after taking Mary home , I just blushed . She said that she better give me the ' birds and the bees talk ' which she did with little to no blushing on her part . After her talk she said I should go to bed , that tomorrow was my big day . I said that I need a drink first . What am I going to say , ' ah NO mommy I can do it . ' Don 't think so , not with Joyce now in mommy mode no way . She had my shirt and now my pants off , and the semen stains showing on the front of my underwear . How embarrassed I was I can not put in words . " Oh … , Ken I am sorry ! I thought you were just joking . " Joyce said with a blush of red coming across her face " Sweetie , I am so sorry , I did meant to do that ! " Joyce , with the speed that only a mother has , had my diaper on me and I was not able to ' control myself ' any longer as her hand pushed the front of the diaper up to my stomach . I could feel the warmth and the make of my semen being shoot out from my penis and into my diaper . Joyce taped my diaper shut with out a hint of just what had happened . She left me lying on my bed naked except for my diaper as she went to get my bottle . Joyce came back with a bottle of milk ; she sat down on my bed and had me place my head in her lap . She then placed the warm damp nipple in my mouth and I started to suckle while she held the bottle . With her free hand , she lightly stroked the top of my head while she humming a lullaby . After my bottle was empty Joyce got my pajamas , put them on me , and then put me to bed . It felt more like how she treats Matt at bedtime and I wished it did not have to end . She gave me a goodnight kiss and wished me happy little dreams . Saturday , February 9 . Today was both a good day and a bad day . I will start with the bad , my grandmother is not doing well , and they are not sure how long she will live . The nursing home suggested that I come out and say my good - byes . The good news is I got my temporary driver 's license , and I got 100 % correct . I got to drive the mini van around the block and then to McDonalds for lunch , since Jack and Matt were with us . Joyce called Andy and told him about my grandmother after we got the call from the nursing home . Andy will meet me when I arrive in , as my flight will get in ten minutes later than his . I have thrown some clothes in a bag and will be off to the airport in just a few minutes so I will not be writing for while . Tuesday , February 12 . I saw my grandma , she was wake when we got to the nursing home but it was after visiting hours when we arrived so the nurse took us to see her . She was doing real well and I questioned why we were called , I would find that out later why . Grandma had some papers and photos , and a key that she wanted we to have . We talked some before she drifted to sleep . The nurse asked that we stay as her time was near . We stayed there that night , by her bedside . About three A . M . Sunday morning is when she passed on to the next life . I got very little sleep that night and was dry too . Her wishes were spelled out on one the papers that she had given me earlier and that helped a lot . Andy and I meet a gentleman Sunday morning at seven sharp coming to see my grandma at the nursing home , his name was Ed Whetstone , he was very sorry to hear that my grandmother had passed a way . He asked in a whisper , if we had the key . Both Andy and I wanted to know why he was asking . He said that he would take us to breakfast and we could talk there . At breakfast we found out that the key fit a lock on a storage shed that had the only asset my grandmother had hidden from the nursing home , since they took they rest . It was a 1990 Buick with just over ten thousand miles on it , and it was mine now . After breakfast Ed took us to the storage place where the car was , it was inside all washed and waxed with a full tank of gas , current license plates and the title was on the front seat . My grandmother had signed the car over to me for love and money of one dollar . She had done that on my sixteenth birthday . Ed told both Andy and I not to say a word about the car around the nursing home because they would want the cash for the car or the car . We were done ; everything had been taken care of . Andy and I thanked Mr . Whetstone for all that he had done and set off for the drive home in my car . The drive home took two days . The first day was a short day because of the lack of sleep that both Andy and I had from the night before . It was a good way for us to get to know each other . " I hope that someday Jack and Matt will be able to get to know their dad like I do now . Monday , February 18 . Laid grandma to rest today . It was a small service just like she wanted . Mary , Scott and all of the Rice 's were there but I sat in front church pew all by myself . I am the last one a live in my family . That shocking truth has hit me . Why ! ? ! Thursday , March 7 . Dear journal , it has been a while since I written in you . Today was Jack 's third birthday , and we had a party for him with a few other kids . Of the other kid at the party Jack was the only one not in diapers . One kid was four years old and still in diapers full time ; his mom was surprised that Jack was potty trained . Joyce stated that having a big brother helped in Jack 's potty training . Matt had a good time ; he got more cake on his face and the floor than into his mouth but that is the joy of being less than a year old . Mary had come over for the birthday party also . Mary was talking about the type of family that she wants once she get married and she looked straight at me when she said it . Joyce stated that Jack was to young to get married , and that Mary might find someone better than him when she goes to collage . We all laughed at that statement . After the party , we went to my room to do our homework and Mary asked me if I wanted to make love to her . I told that I did , but I feared that we would get caught so we better not . Just a few minutes later , the birthday boy came running into my room with some paper and crayons to do his ' homework ' too . I was so glad to see Jack , because that ended any chance of having sex with Mary , not it would be bad to make love to her . I just feel that her offer of sex was a way for her to get back at her parents , but that is a different story . Mary had stated on our first date as boy friend and girl friend that she did not want to have sex until after marriage , but she would take care of my needs by other means . Had she offered to play with my penis today , I think I still would have turned it down today just because . Friday , March 8 . Jack came into my room this morning to wake me up , so we could go to school together . I had to tell him that he could not come to school with me today and that he would have to wait until September before going to school . Jack seemed to be OK with that , but September in his mind might be Monday we will see . Jack did ask me a question , as he saw me get out of bed with my diaper showing , would he have to wear a diaper to bed when he went to school . I told him , I do not know . At school Mary wanted to talk about yesterday , I asked that we talked about it after school in privet . She asked if I was gay because I turned her offer down . I told ' NO ' and that we would talk about it later . I did not want to talk about why I did not have sex with her at school . After school , I saw doctor Ti . This was my last appointment with him . I am so happy . He thinks that it is too early for me to stop seeing him , I don 't think so . Joyce thinks that since the drug problem , that doctor Ti is running scared . And that the money is better spent to pay for my collage tuition than on this guy . I did tell the ' good doctor ' that maybe I did hide some of my feeling and needed some help in work then out . However , the diapers and being babied did more good to build trust than talk about trust . Andy and Joyce went out to dinner tonight with some clients so Mary and I baby - sat both Jack and Matt . After the kids were in bed , Mary and I talked about yesterday and her offer of sex . It turns out one of her girl friends had feed her a line , that if a guy turn down sex with you then he is gay , and the first time you have sex with a guy you don 't get pregnant . Mary knows that the last part was wrong and so did I . I told her the first part was wrong too . We ended by kiss and feeling each other body . Mary stopped and asked if I still was wearing diapers . I asked why . " You will see why ! " Said Mary as she went to my closet to find my diapers . The bag of diapers was in the same spot as when she found them the last time . She took one the diapers from the bag and turned around . " I think I had better put this on you before you have another accident like you did in the Movie Theater . " Mary said with a smile . I blushed when she it . She had my pants and underwear off me in one move . My penis was erect just as fast as she had taken my pants off . " Oh , look like somebody might like what coming next . " Mary stated to my blushing face . She unfolded the diaper and slid it under my bottom . She put some lotion on her hand , started to rub it in on my stomach , and worked her way down to my balls and then back up my penis . She worked her finger around my penis feeling every inch of it . She spent time with her one finger going around the ridge feeling both the head and the shaft of my penis . Her eyes watched each move her finger made on my penis . The silence was broken when she asked if it felt good what she was doing . Before I could answer , her hand was massaging my erect penis and the pressure was just right that I had no self - control over what would happen next . I did try to stop or slow down what came next , so I could enjoy some more of what Mary was doing to me . I could not slow down this climax , and my semen shot out of me and landed on my chest at shoulder height . Mary then pulled the front of the diaper up between my legs and over my spent penis and then taped the sides shut . She then took a baby wipe and cleaned me up . Then it was my turn to undress Mary and bring her to a slow , long , deliberate orgasm by mapping her body with my hands and fingers . After a short rest Mary did me again but this time , she did it from the outside of my diaper . Sunday , March 17 . St . Patrick 's Day . Drank green beer today ! Was over at Scott 's house for a party today and they had green beer . Scott got plastered ; I had never seen someone so sick as him , or so dumb . Everyone at the party knows that Scot is in deep trouble with his parents over the drinking . So are most of us too . Scott 's mom called all our parents and had them come and pick us up . Andy picked me up , and took my drivers ' license away , right on the spot for the next three weeks . Some of the other parents followed Andy 's lead in take away drivers ' licenses . I know I will pay big time for that at school tomorrow . On the way home , Andy asked me to come with my punishment besides the loss of my license . I know if it 's to light Andy will not expect it , but I do not want to over do it either . I tried to explain to Andy that I only had a few sips of beer . He said that it did not matter if it was a sip , a few sips , a glass , a pitcher , or a keg I was under age and did it behind their backs and I broke their trust in me . By this time we were home , Andy parked the car . He turned to me and asked what my punishment would be . " Wrong answer Ken . Like I said you are under age for drinking even beer . How are we suppose to trust you if you can 't answer a question like ' were you wrong in drinking beer ' ? Ken you know that trust is a two way street right ? " " You see you are trusting me to be a good parent , and in your case a good guardian , not to do something that would hurt you or belittle you . However we , Joyce and I , expect that you Ken to use good judgment and we would like to trust you . You did not use good judgment and you broke the trust we had in you . Do you understand that . " " I want you to know this , if you want to try a drink just ask us and be open about it . Say can I try a sip of that beer or that drink , just don 't do it behind our backs OK . " Andy stated . " OK first you apologize to Joyce then go to your room and wait . No music , no games , no TV you will sit on you bed with your back to the door and wait . " Andy said . I apologize to Joyce for not acting responsible and breaking their trust . Joyce had a few things to say to me on the drinking part . After she dismissed me I went to my room and sat on my bed with my back to the door just like Andy stated , and I waited and waited . My room was growing dark , as the sun was setting and I had a growing need for the bathroom . Andy came in to my bedroom to tell me it was time for dinner and to wash my hands . I got up , went to the bathroom , and did what was needed . Dinner was corn beef and cabbage , potatoes , and fresh , warm Irish soda bread with home made butter . Dessert was cream puffs with the cream part colored green . After dinner , I did the dishes and Joyce got Matt ready for bed . I was after Matt and Jack where in bed that Andy and Joyce wanted to talk to me about day . I found out that they had talked to some of the other parents including Scott 's about today 's party . It came down to this no driver license for three weeks , no going over to Scott 's home for the next two months because he is grounded for that long , that it . Monday , Mach 18 . Saw Scott in school today with his parents , but did not see him in class . None of the other kids gave me a problem today . Friday , March 22 . Scott has not been in school all week . I found out why , he is in a treatment center for his drinking problem . I have talked to Mary at school . I wish she could come over but she too is grounded because of Scott 's party . So all we can do is write notes to each other and pass them to each other at the end of class as we walk to the school bus together . I am down to my last diaper and I am wearing it now . We are to go shopping tomorrow , I hope I can get some diapers . Saturday , March 23 . Embarrassing , embarrassing what happened today . We stop to get my supply of diapers . Joyce asks the stock - boy if they any diapers in the back that are my size . The problem is the stock - boy is a kid in my gym class named Douglas . Douglas is a jock and likes to make life very uncomfortable . He is always looking for your weak spot and when he find it the whole school know . He now knows my weak spot . I just wanted to die and drop through the floor when Joyce said the diapers were for me . Douglas flashed me a shit eating grin when he said see you Monday in gym class . And under his breath so only I would hear he said ' you little diaper boy ' . Monday , March 25 . Douglas came up to me in the looker room before gym class . He sniffed the air then whacked me on my bottom " What no diaper for you today . " He said in whisper . That was his mark of death , he had your weak spot , and the whole school would know it ever soon . I had seen him mark others in the class and I knew what would come next . After attendance was taken , two tem captains were selected Douglas being one of them . I hoped that Douglas would not pick me , but so much for hope , he did pick me . The game was kick ball inside the gym . Our team was first up to kick . The first person to kick was the first string football kicker , his kick sent the ball to the ceiling and right into the hands of the second base man . Douglas picked me to kick next , the other team moved in because I am so bad at this . The ball was rolled ; I took a step and kicked the ball . The ball left my foot and lifted to about eight to nine feet high and sailed across the gym hitting the far coroner wall , the coach whistled it a home run . Douglas lost his shot at embarrassing me about my diapers at lease today . Jack was playing in my room as I was doing my homework ; he sent his car into my closet and went to get it . Jack asked me why I had one of Matt 's baby bottles in my closet . I tried to change the subject but Jack would not let it go of it . Jack was pulling on the front of his pants as if he had to go potty . I asked him if he needed to go potty . He answered no , but keep pulling at his pants . I got up , then pick up Jack , and carried him to the bathroom . Jack has been having some accidents lately . There I slid down his pants and underwear and sat him on the toilet . His underwear was damp , from some of his pee that had leaked out . Joyce came into the bathroom to see what was going on and took over since I had homework to do . I could hear Joyce tell Jack that big boys don 't wet their underwear , and he did want to be a big boy . I did not catch what Jack said because I was back in my room . Jack came back into my room with just a fresh pair of underwear on and started playing with his car . Joyce called him to come with her ; at last , I had quiet for studying . I had finished my homework and headed to the kitchen to get a glass of milk . I was pass through the family room where Jack and Matt were and there was that odor of fresh poop . So I picked up Matt , and took him back to his room to change his diaper . The diaper that Matt was wearing was dry and not soiled . So back , we went to the family room . I set Matt back down , but the smell was still there and I went to the kitchen . Joyce was fixing dinner and I commented about the smell in the family room . " You know you could change Matt 's diaper , it would not kill you , you know . Besides I am trying to fix dinner here . " Joyce said . " JACK ! Please come here now ! " Joyce said in a tone of voice that indicated that he might be in some form of trouble , but no full name type trouble . I picked up Jack and carried him back to Matt 's room . I placed Jack on the changing table and removed his soiled underwear . I grasped his ankles and lifted , just as if I was changing his diaper , and then started to clean him up . Jack was squirming around while I was doing this . I decided giving him a bath would be quicker , so I finished undress him . I carried him to the bathroom and placed him in the bathtub and then started to full the bathtub with warm water . By the time I was done giving Jack a bath Joyce had arrived at the bathroom door and not in a good mood . I took Jack out of the tub and wrapped a towel around him . Joyce took Jack by the arm , and administered one good swat to his , towel covered bottom , he started to cry . Joyce then took Jack in tow and headed back to Matt 's room . Joyce had Jack place the soiled underpants , one of his favorite pairs , in the wastebasket . After that , Joyce then got the last diaper that would fit Jack and put it on him . Joyce through all of this was telling Jack how disappointed she was with him , and since he was acting like a baby , she would treat him like one . I may have thought that when Joyce treating me like a baby it was not as kind as she treats Matt , Jack was really in for a surprise . After dinner Joyce went to the store and bought the jumbo size package of diapers for Jack . After that , she asked me to help her turn Jack 's bed back in to a crib . With in less than an hour we had changed his room back into a room for a baby . By now it was time for Jack to go to bed , he wanted to go potty . Joyce told him that he was back in diapers , he was a baby , and babies use their diapers . " No you are a baby Jack . Big boys don 't wet or mess in their underpants , but babies do wet and mess in their diapers . " Joyce said . " Yes you are . " Joyce said , and she finished removing the last of Jack 's clothes and started to put his PJs on . " See you are wearing a diaper and not big boy underwear . " Later that night I commented to Joyce that she seem so kind and understand to my bedwetting and later my wishes to be diapered and babied . However , with Jack at was not so kind , it was as if she tried to embarrass him . She said that there is a difference between Jack and me . First , all of Jack 's accidents occur only during the day when Jack was a wake . Jack knew that he needs to go to the bathroom but did not . All of my accidents were at night and I embarrassed by them . Jack pushed the limit with the number of ' accidents ' today , and that told Joyce that actions and not words were needed . I to pushed the limits but in very different ways . For Jack being put back into diapers is not a big deal , but changing his room is . He worked hard to get a big boy bed and the privileges that go with it , now that 's all changed . Me on the other hand , at first I saw diapers as being an item for babies and did not want any thing to with them . I blushed when Joyce said that . I asked how long she was going to treat Jack this way . Her answer was until the diapers run out or Matt is ready to potty train . Then she would potty train and / or re - potty train all of us boys . She asked me if I wanted her to start diapering me . I answered no , I may like my diapers , but I know I don 't want to live in them twenty - four hours a day seven - day a week , at least not yet . Sunday , April 7 . I got my drivers license back to today . I had to baby sit Matt and Jack today as Andy and Joyce took the day for them self 's , something with the church . Jack is still in diapers day and night and still sleeping in a crib . At first , he was not too happy about being back in diapers and a crib , but he is adjusting to them . He still says that he is a big boy and Joyce corrects him saying he is a baby . If Jack does turnout to be a bed - wetter , I hope this punishment does not turn him off diapers , and that he can have the fun with his diapers , that I have with my diapers . The other parents question Joyce about what happed with Jack and his potty training . She tells them that Jack started having many accidents and he went back to being diapered . Since Andy and Joyce are out and I am not allowed to have any one over not even Mary . Because of that , I too am enjoying a day in diapers with Matt and Jack , the only problem is I don 't have a big brother to change my diaper . Oh well . I do wonder at times like this why I like my diapers so much . I have started look for a part time job today . I am finding out that cars are an expense even when they sit . The insurance bill is in of the next six months of coverage it is more than some of the jobs will pay for the same period . That sucks ! Joyce told me something tonight ; Douglas is a nursery helper at their church . Joyce told me that Douglas told his mom that a girl he likes is a nursery helper too ; the only thing is all of the other nursery helpers are parents . Now , I have some dirt on Douglas , or should I just call him Doug , that I can put to good use . One other item she dropped on me was starting next Sunday ; we were going to church . I will go just to let Doug know that I now know his little secret . Sunday , April 14 . Oh the joy ! The church only has about sixty member families unlike the church that my parents attended that had three full services on Sundays . I asked to take Matt to the nursery knowing that Doug would be there . The look on Doug 's face when he saw me was shock and fear I think . " Fine thank you . Betty , this is Ken he has been living with us since September 11 when his parents were killed in New York . " Joyce said . We said our hellos , and then left Matt and his diaper bag in the nursery . Then Joyce and I went in to sanctuary for the church service . We sat in a pew with Mr . and Mrs . McShort and some other families . After the service at the coffee hour , I meet some more people and they welcomed me to their church . Joyce was talking to Mrs . McShort and I said that would get Jack and Matt . Mrs . McShort stated that I should get to know Doug because he did not have many friends . I questioned that statement with him being a jock and all that . It turns out that with school , sports , and working at the family story . Doug had no real friends . I almost told her why he did not have any friends because of his making fun of the other students including me . When I got Matt , Doug said if I told any one about him being a helper that my secret would be all over the school . I said fine but the same goes for you too Doug . For now , Doug is not a problem and I might get through school without any one finding out about my diapers , other than Mary . Monday , April 15 . Tax day ! Did you know that dead people pay taxes , I had to file a tax return for my parents today with a check for the tax due . The tax person added a note to the tax form stating that my parents were among the ones killed on September 11 , we will see if it does any good or not . PE class was fun today , Doug got a good taste of what it 's like to be picked on and I did not start it or have anything to do with it , OK I did laugh . Because it was such a nice day today , ( temperature was in the mid 70 's ) we had PE class outside . Doug ended up falling , the front of his gym shorts ' were soaking wet , and the teacher did not see it happen . One of the kids teased Doug about wetting his shorts just as the coach for the baseball team could see and hear what was being said . The coach told Doug that he did not want any pants wetting from his players . Well the other kids picked that up to mean that Doug had wet his pants before ; well it is now around school that Doug wets his pants . The next time I saw Doug a girl said was telling him that her baby brother wears a diaper so not to wet his pants maybe he should too . Doug is very upset by it all , but maybe he will stop teasing every one now . The church had its monthly pot luck dinner tonight and we being Joyce , Jack , Matt and myself went as Andy is on the road this weekend . The fours of us where sitting across from Mr . and Mrs . McShort and Doug , and Mr . and Mrs . Kalis were next to us . Thing were going well , the meal was very good and the selection of cakes and pies . I can eat , and I did try a sample of all the food , but the double rich dark chocolate cake was the best . Matt and I left the nursery , and the nursery door shut with a loud bang behind us . The question is what question did Doug want to ask me , and better still what trouble is he in now . We walked back to the table and sat down . A few minutes later Doug came and sat down , I could see tears still on his face from where he had been crying . Mrs . McShort just hugged him and said it would be OK . It turns out that Mrs . Walczak reason for firing Doug was that she felt that the nursery aid should be a girl and not a boy , he had done nothing wrong . Other than not be the right sex for the job . Before the church pot luck dinner ended Mrs . Walczak made the announcement that she was looking for a new nursery aid and any girl ( s ) interested should see her because Doug had been let go . That brought a firestorm of questions and raised the fear that Doug had done something to one or more of the children . Mrs . Walczak stated her reason for firing Doug , and in this day and age , it did not go over well she also stated that Doug had done on wrong that she knew of . Doug did his job back as nursery aid via a quick vote by the parents that used the nursery , Mrs . Walczak was not so lucky about her job in the nursery . After the kids were in bed I told Joyce about Doug and what the coach had said about his wet gym short 's and what happened in the nursery tonight . She asked me , would I be a friend to Doug if he asked . I told her that I thought he was trying to find more dirt on me that he could use later . She stated that maybe , he too has a problem and is looking at different solution before going to his parents with it . That might be but I still think he is look for dirt on me . April 21 - 22 in the wee hours . I am sick ! I am throw up every fifteen minutes . Every thing I eat today is coming out . I am throwing up so hard that I am peeing in to my diaper at the same time , and what I did not throw up is coming out my butt as liquid and little bits . The acid is burning the skin on my bottom as my diaper holds its load of poop and the smell , will make you sick . Oh God please make it end . Joyce heard me and came to see if I needed anything . She got my diapers , and some supplies from Matt 's room , and then she changed my wet and soiled and very smelly diaper . She cleaned up my bottom and put something on it to stop the burning and then cleaned up the rest of me and put a fresh diaper on me . Joyce changing my soiled diapers eight more times tonight she didn 't have to change me or care for me but she did . I can only say thank you to her for her caring and changing my diapers , it 's so little for all the work and smell that she put with tonight . Tonight put a big dent in my limited diaper supply . No , school for me today , still not feeling well . Joyce kept me diapered today so that I could get some sleep and feel better . Joyce has been a real mom to me , not just the diapers and changing them but caring for me as if I was one of her kids . April 23 . Feeling much better today , went to school . After school , we went to get me some more diapers . We went to the medical supply store that the McShort 's own . The McShorts are looking for some one to work part time at the store , the hours would be after school to five thirty and from nine to noon on Saturday . I did fill out a job application . Joyce had called my order in this time is was two bag of diapers . I said I just needed the one Joyce wanted a spare bag just in case I was sick again , not a bad idea . April 30 . Tuesday . I got a job . I will be working for the McShorts . I start on Monday , but they asked that I come in on Saturday to fill out the paper work . The one benefit will be I can my diapers at cost . Joyce started to re - potty train Jack today , its odd to see Jack with just a shirt and socks on and no diaper or pull - up . Jack remembered how to use the potty so this might go well this time . He still is diapered at night and is sleeping in his crib , he has not earned back his big boy bed yet . May 4 , Saturday . Mary and I went out on a date had a good time . We went to a new place called the Up Town Café . It is a place for teens to hang out and the local churches run it . It has a few rules , no drugs , no alcohol , no smoking , and no pushing of religion . That is not a problem for us . They have a live band that is good and it is turning out to be the in place . Tonight after dancing at the Café , I drove her home , as we did not have time to pleasure each other tonight because Mary had to be home by ten . May 6 , Monday . My first day on the job , and there is so much to learn . Ed , Mr . McShort showed me around the back room of the shop . He also showed me how to punch in and out on the time clock . My job to unpack the pallet ( s ) with store supplies on it and place each item on the correct shelves in the back and count them to make sure they match the shipping invoice . Sounds easy , until you have to hunt each shelf to fine where it goes . Doug came in at five and helped me finish my first pallet , I don 't know where any thing goes or how to tell if it is 13mm widget or 14mm widget by looking at it , but Doug can . When Doug is sorting the items ' he looks like the guys in the old movies sorting mail by hand . The thing is , we did not talk it was just him and I in the stock area working alone a perfect time to talk . May 17 , Friday . My first paycheck , my gross pay is one hundred three dollars and fifty cents , what I got was sixty - five dollars and some change . Jack is no longer running around naked from the waist down . He is potty trained again during the day , but is still in diapers at night and has taken to having a bottle in bed with him I think he likes being a baby . Adult Diaper Stories thanks you for your visit . We hope you found a Diaper Story you like . Try using our Google Search Box which will scan 1000 's of Diaper Stories and Abdl Stories in seconds for you . 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