They say that the husband is always the last to know , and I guess that holds true for me . I imagine , that after reading this , some people will think I 'm as bad as a homicidal maniac , while others might see my actions as being justified . However , I am ashamed of what I have done , and I want to make a full confession . In order to understand my motivation , it is necessary to examine the history of my relationship with my wife and the intense emotions , which that relationship stirred up within me . With the knowledge of hindsight , it is easy to say that I 'd do things differently . I can promise that I will never allow any situation , to build up to a point , where I feel that I have to take matters into my own hands . It 's not that I 'm a bad guy , I 'm a faithful , loving husband , a good father , I stand by my friends , help my neighbors , and respect my elders . My name is Roy Wells and my wife 's name is Mattie , we are both thirty - one years old . We have been married for ten years and have two children . Jeff is the eldest child , all of eight years old and a rascal if there ever was one . Amy is our five year old , and it is my personal opinion , that she is the sweetest little girl to grace this planet . Mattie has always insisted that Amy has me wrapped around her little fingers , and I guess that is probably right . I stand slightly less than six feet tall and weigh one hundred and eighty - two pounds . I keep myself physically fit by jogging in the early morning and working out , at a health club almost every weekday . My hair is brown and my eyes are blue ; Mattie has often told me that I am handsome , but I just can 't see it the mirror . Not that I think of myself as ugly - I would describe myself as rugged and friendly looking . The rugged part comes from a nose that was once broken , a token of my amateur boxing days . I learned to bob and weave after getting that nose . I own a consulting business , which Mattie helped me to found and that has been fairly successful over the years . Mattie is six months younger than I am , stands 5 ' 4 " tall , has raven black hair , black eyes that seem to open upon the depths of eternity , and weighs 115 pounds . She has wonderful full hips , a cute round butt , and breasts that I can almost cover with my hands ; in other words , she is everything I 've ever dreamed of in a woman . I have always considered myself to be the luckiest man , on the face of the earth , because she consented to be my wife . She has come through two pregnancies , with an amazingly sexy figure . While she had gained a lot of weight when she was carrying Amy , she worked long and hard to get her back into shape . In fact , she is often mistaken as the identical twin of her sister , who is five years , her junior . We started our business together , but after Jeff was born she dedicated herself to the duties of a full time housewife and mother . She insisted that , until the children were grown , her place was in the home . I first met Mattie when we were both at college , and it was definitely not love at first sight , on either of our parts . Back in those days , in addition to school , I was an amateur boxer , with my eye on winning the state championship in my weight division . I 'd get up before dawn , get my road work in , take a quick shower , go to classes , and then put in a few hours of training at the gym , before getting down to studying . I also had a bit of a reputation as a womanizer . Mattie , on the other hand , had a reputation of being a no nonsense , straight laced girl . She managed to make it to church services every Sunday and was only known to have had one serious boyfriend , during all the time she had been at the college . The boyfriend had transferred to another school , and Mattie didn 't seem to be in any big hurry to find a replacement . During our senior year , she was in just about every one of my classes . We had the same major , but we didn 't socialize together . I suppose that if it hadn 't been for our mutual friends ' sick sense of humor , we would never have ever gotten together . I had just been eliminated from the state boxing championships and was feeling sorry for myself , when a couple of my buddies showed up , telling me to get ready for the world 's best blind date on Saturday night . I usually never went out on a blind date , and I almost told them to forget it . However , I didn 't have any real plans for the weekend , so reluctantly I agreed . I should have known that they were going to set me up with someone who was my exact opposite , but I was wallowing in too much self - pity to be suspicious . At the same time , Mattie 's friends were telling her it was about time she started dating . They told her that they had found a great guy who was reserved , humble , and a perfect match for her . From what I understand , Mattie 's friends had a hard time convincing her to go . It was only , when her girlfriends told her that they and their boyfriends would be going , and she would be part of a group , that she finally agreed to go . Saturday night came ; I met my friends and their girlfriends ( Mattie 's friends ) and was led away to meet my blind date . Mattie opened the door in response to my knock . I thought I saw a perplexed look cross her face , one which seemed to suggest , that she wondered what the heck I was doing at her door . I knew then , that my reputation had preceded me . It was about a fifteen minute walk , from Mattie 's room to the off campus club , where we were going . For most of the walk , Mattie and I followed our friends in an awkward silence , which was infrequently punctuated , by even more awkward attempts to speak . Both of us were very uncomfortable . We realized that this date had been set up as a prank . I think we were both fighting down the urge to run screaming into the night . When we reached the club , all of us sat together as a group . I asked Mattie what she wanted to eat and was surprised when she said a hamburger and a beer . In my preconceived notion about her , I didn 't picture Mattie as a person that would touch anything containing alcohol . After we had eaten we danced a little , talked a little and began to laugh a little . I found myself having fun . " Well , thank you for taking me out , " she smiled and then winked at me as we reached her room . " As for going out with you again , I 'll give you a definite maybe . Let 's talk more about it next week . " The rest of that week passed fairly quickly . Mattie and I would talk before the start of each class , but our discussions were mainly about school work . By the time Saturday rolled around , I was ready to blow off some steam . I figured I 'd go and hit some of the clubs and see if I couldn 't hook up with a girl for the evening . The first part of my plan went great ; I hit quite a few clubs . I had a few drinks , came on to a few girls , but it seemed like I was getting turned down more times than I opened my mouth . It was pushing nine o ' clock , and my batting average was sinking out of sight , when I wandered into a small strip club . A couple of my friends were sitting at a table and waved me into a chair . I bought drinks all round and we sat there , lamenting the lack of feminine company , as we watched the entertainment . I was halfway through my drink when I heard a familiar voice off to my left . " I can 't believe you guys talked me into this ! " Mattie 's voice giggled over the sound of the music . From the sound of her voice , it seemed to me that Mattie had done her share of drinking that night . " You are all very , very naughty , but then I guess I 'm naughty too ! " She was sitting with her girlfriends , but those girls were no longer alone , their boyfriends had joined them . One of the girls glanced over and saw me watching . She motioned for me to come over and join the party , but I held back . " Ohhh , " the girl yelled . " There 's Roy ! " Everyone else at the table turned around and looked over at me . Mattie uneasily got up from the table and walked over to where I was sitting . " Oooo , Roy boy , what are you doing in a place like this ? You 're a naughty boy . What would your momma say if she saw you ? " She giggled wildly and began pulling on my arm . " Come on naughty boy , come over and sit with us . You boys don 't mind if I steal Roy from you , do you ? No , I didn 't think you did . See , Roy your friends give you permission to sit with me . " " Well , Roy boy , " she brought her mouth close to my ear , " it looks like we ended up going on a date this week anyway . Would you believe that these people kidnapped me and took me to this den of depravity ? Would you believe that I 'm a naughty , naughty girl ? Well , they didn 't kidnap me , but I can be a very naughty girl , when I want to be . " " I can 't imagine you being very naughty , " I laughed and looked deep into her black , mysterious eyes . " Coming here doesn 't make you naughty . I 'm here , aren 't I ? " " Yes , " she leaned back close to my ear again and spoke just loud enough to be heard over the din of the music . " But , everyone knows you 're naughty . Some of the girls told me about you . They warned me that you liked to do all sorts of naughty things , but I found out I liked you any way . " I ordered a cola and talked with Mattie and the others , as we watch the girls on the stage jiggle and gyrate . The conversation at the table started to turn toward sex . It seemed that most of the couples were planning to spend the night together . Then , in one of those strange examples of voiceless communication between women , all the girls stood up and went to the restroom . " Roy , " one of the guys leaned over to me . " I think this is your chance to get into Mattie 's pants . She is one wild , hot gal when she 's been drinking . You need to take Mattie back to your place . Man , she looks like she is more than ready . " Right after the girls returned , the couples began getting up and heading their separate ways . I helped Mattie up , and we headed back toward her room . However , Mattie was not walking very well , and I had doubts if we could make it all the way to her place , until she sobered up a little . I steered our path toward a little coffee shop , but before we made it to the coffee shop , Mattie broke away from me and staggered over to some bushes . I held her as she managed to bring up a good part of her night 's boozing . " Forget it , " I smiled wiping away her tears , " these things happen . It 's all in the name of fun . I 'm going to take you to a place where you can down some coffee and take a little time to sober up . " See started down the street toward her room , and maybe covered all of twenty feet , before she fell flat on her rear end . As I helped her up , she ruefully admitted that a little coffee wasn 't such a bad idea , after all . An hour later , after a pot of coffee and many trips to the restroom to be sick , Mattie was fit enough for the rest of the walk . During our time in the coffee shop and on the walk back to her room Mattie didn 't want to talk much . When she did talk , it was only to repeatedly apologize to me , for all the trouble she had caused . When the next week came , it was apparent that Mattie was doing her best to avoid me . I finally cornered her , but the only thing that she would say was how sorry she felt about Saturday night . Even though , we had class after class together , she managed to either be busy , or one of her friends would come to her with a problem that needed " urgent " attention . Finally , Saturday at six o ' clock , I knocked on Mattie 's door to pick her up for our date . She almost jumped when she opened the door and saw me standing there . " Oh , my heavens ! " she gasped . " It 's Saturday at six , isn 't it ? You 're here to pick me up , aren 't you ? " " If it is something I 've done , I apologize for it . I promise you that I 'll be on my best behavior . We 'll just go for the burger and sodas if you feel uncomfortable about going to the show with me . " " Roy ! " she sharply exclaimed . " You haven 't done anything . In fact , you had me drunk and helpless , and all you did was help me . I 'm the one that did something wrong . I 've been avoiding you all week , I 've been so embarrassed ! " " There is nothing for you to be embarrassed about . You had too much to drink , but that happens to almost everyone at this school . I don 't think anything about it . However , I sure was looking forward to going out with you . Why don 't you grab , whatever you have to grab and let 's go ? " " Don 't go away , " her eyes sparkled and a smile lit up her face as she shut the door . Suddenly the door swung back open , " No , you come in - I won 't be a minute . " She showed me to a chair while she went into the bathroom . Two minutes later , she was back out and we were on our way . After that night we had several dates , and before long she and I were good friends . It wasn 't until our fourth date that I managed to steal a kiss from her . Our dates were short on romance and long on talk . We talked about almost everything in the universe , and the more we talked the closer our friendship grew . " I love my parents dearly , " she confined to me one night , " but they belong to a very strict , conservative , fire and brimstone church . They seem to think that just about everything is a sin . They didn 't want me to go away to this school ; they wanted me to attend a special church university . However , I wouldn 't have been able to have the same major I have here . I was eventually was able to convince them that I wouldn 't associate with any devil spawn . " " It 's not , " she blushed . " It is a different denomination . If my folks knew I had changed churches , they would be certain that Satan had me in his grasp . What church do your parents belong to ? " " I don 't know , " I admitted . " Church going was never a big priority at our house . My parents and I believe in God , but we don 't belong to any church . My folks are different than your folks , they are totally liberal . My dad and mom were married while they were living on a commune , and then they went on to law school . You 'd think that with both of them being lawyers that we 'd be rolling in money , but we are a long way from being rich . My folks see themselves as the champions of the little guy , taking on hopeless causes , in an effort to make the world a little bit better place to live . There isn 't a lot of money in doing that sort of thing . " Somewhere along the line , I realized that neither Mattie nor I were dating others , and our relationship had entered a new phase of exclusiveness . However , we still hadn 't done much more than some kissing and little bit of ( almost innocent ) touching . One night , when we sat in my room , I tried to take our relationship to the next level . " Mattie , Mattie , Mattie , you are one sexy girl , " I gasped as my hands roamed her body . " I have a wonderful bed over there . What say we go make ourselves more comfortable ? ' " Roy , I can 't , " she pulled away from me sadness filling her eyes ; " I mean I want to , but I can 't . Let me explain , before you get mad and send me away . I know this is difficult for you . Here I am in your room , and we have been going together for months . I wouldn 't blame you for telling me to get lost and never come back , but hear me out first . Please ? " " I 'm so sorry Roy , " she glanced down to where I was looking . " Look at me ; I want to see your eyes when I tell you about this . Do you remember , that I told you that last year I had a boyfriend named Richard ? Well , I 've never told you the whole story . I was a virgin up until I met Richard . I thought he loved me , and I thought I loved him . We swore to be true to each other , and I had never been happier in all my life . We made love often and each time that we did , I felt that I was falling more and more in love with him . We talked about marriage , right up until the moment , he told me that he had gotten his secret girlfriend pregnant , and was leaving school to marry her . " He used me ! He blinded me with what I thought was love and then he used me . The man I had thought , I might marry had been seeing another girl all along . Everything he had said , everything that he had done had been a lie . " I want a relationship based on more than sex . I need to be positive about how you feel about me , and about how I feel toward you , before we go any further . I don 't want to make the same mistake again - I will not be used again ! " " Sounds like Richard was a real dick ! " I stared into her eyes and felt sorry for her pain . I loved Mattie , but I also realized that she had reason to hesitate . After all , I had gone from girl to girl , doing my best to keep from making any sort of long term commitment . Now I was disgusted by Mattie 's former boyfriend , while at the same time , I knew that I wasn 't much better . " Mattie , I can promise you one thing , " I assured her . " I will never betray you . I have to show you by my actions , rather than my words , how I feel about you . I won 't try to push you into anything . When , and if , you feel the time is right , you can let me know . " " Do you really understand ? " she asked . When I nodded my head , she smiled and her whole face lit up . " I hoped that you would . Roy , you are my best friend , and I think I 'd like you to be something more . " We continued to see each other regularly , but as the finals before the Christmas holidays approached , we found ourselves dating less and studying more . Sometimes we would study in my room , sometimes in her room , and sometimes at the library . By working as a team , we were able to give each other support , and we took the finals filled with confidence . Then came the holidays , Mattie went back to spend the time with her family and I went home to be with mine . I found that being home wasn 't the same as it had been in the past . It was that Mom , Dad , or the house had changed ; instead , I was the one who had changed . I found myself missing Mattie , and I wasn 't happy being away from her . Some of my old friends wanted me to go out with partying with them . They picked up some girls , grabbed some beer and began their celebration . I just couldn 't get in the mood to enjoy myself and ended up going home . I spent most of my time at home just sitting and thinking . A couple of times , I roused myself from my thoughts long enough , to see my mother smiling and shaking her head , as she looked at me . When I wasn 't thinking about Mattie , I was writing love letters to her . I 'd never written a love letter before , but the words just seemed to pour out of my heart . I suppose that if I read those letters today , they would probably embarrass me to no end , but at that time , they seemed to sum up everything I felt , or dared to dream about the girl I loved . When I got back to school , I went immediately to Mattie 's room , but she wasn 't there . I asked a couple of her friends if they had heard from her , and they told me that they didn 't think that she had returned yet . Classes still weren 't set to start for a couple of days , so every few hours I kept dropping by her room , to see if she was there . On the second day , my checking paid off , and a very tired looking Mattie opened her door in response to my knock . She said that she had just gotten in , after having had a terrible trip back . I saw she had her suitcases open , and she was in the process of unpacking . I gave her a big hug and kiss , told her to get some rest , and as I headed out her door , handed her a packet containing the love letters I had written . About one o ' clock in the morning , I was awakened by someone pounding on my door . Wondering what jerk dared to show up at that hour , I flung open the door . Mattie pushed me out of the doorway and closed the door behind her . " Just what do you think you are doing , handing me those wonderful letters and running away like that ? I 've been reading and rereading them for hours . Roy Wells , you are the dearest , sweetest man I have ever known , which is just as well , because I 'm in love with you so much it hurts ! " She unbuttoned her blouse and tossed it aside . The rest of her clothes followed in rapid order as I stood transfixed , my jaw hanging open like some idiot . " This is where you can make it stop hurting . Why are you standing there ? Where is this bed you were always talking about ? " Never before , not even during my first sexual experience , had I been so nervous . As I joined Mattie on the bed , I hoped that she couldn 't feel me trembling . I felt clumsy and awkward . I hoped that I wouldn 't disappoint her , but soon all my thoughts vanished as she reached up and pulled me down to her to her waiting lips . Her mouth met mine in a fiery kiss , and our tongues met in a dance of passion . My hand cupped her bosom , and my lips broke the kiss , to move down to her other breast . I lightly sucked upon her stiffening nipple , allowing my tongue to move in circles over her areola . There was not much more foreplay . It as if we had restrained our love too long and we were now hastening toward the long awaited consummation of our passion . Her hand enclosed my manhood and pulled me between her legs . I moved my hips forward , as she her hand guided me to her opening . She was extremely tight . On my first thrust I barely entered her , and the next thrust advanced me only slightly . It took me several more shoves , before I was fully encased in her passage . I then paused for a few seconds and Mattie moaned beneath me . I pulled myself halfway out of her body and quickly pushed all the way forward . I held myself above her , as I worked my hips back and forth . She reached around my neck and pulled me down to her , holding me tightly against her body , as if she feared I might suddenly try to escape . My excitement , at having her at last , made me fear that I might erupt her too soon and deprive her of the pleasure , which I wanted her to feel . Somehow , I was able to hold myself in check , and I plunged time and again into her tight channel . After five or six minutes , she began to softly moan and began to wildly shove her sex up to meet my down strokes . Soon her moans became full vocal cries of lust . Her whole body shook with the force of her climax . Then she lay still for a moment , breathing deeply and tightening her grip upon me , until she again started moving . The sounds of her pleasure were soon filling the room , as we wildly melded our bodies together . For twenty minutes or so , I fought the inevitable release of my seed , which threatened to burst forth against my will , spurred on by the intense delight of our lovemaking . However , all too soon , I felt the familiar warm , tingling feeling that heralded my impending orgasm . " I 'm going to cum , I better pull out . " I gasped , I realizing that in our passion , I had not thought about birth control . I tried to pull free from Mattie , but she encircled me with her legs . The world seemed to vanish , and for a short while only Mattie and I existed , in the entire universe . I could hear her sobs of passion rising again , and my body went rigid , as the dam holding back the torrent of my seminal reserves burst . I sent stream after stream of my essence , shooting into her womb . As my seed poured from me , I felt as if a part of my being was going with it into the woman I loved . I lay there hoping the feeling would never end , until realizing my full weight was resting on her , I fell over to the side . For a moment , neither of us could do more than gasp for air . Still panting I pulled Mattie to me and covered her lips with mine . " I will take very good care of it . Now , I have given you my body as well as my heart , " she smiled at me . " I don 't know what happened to me . I was totally out of control . I could hear myself making noises , and I couldn 't stop them . I think you must have brought out the animal in me . " " The letters were sweet , but I had already made up my mind about us , before we left for our homes . I started on birth control pills a month ago , because I was fairly certain we were going to end up like this . I missed you so much during the holidays . I was going to wait until tomorrow to seduce you , but after I read your letters I had to be with you tonight . " We continued to make love most of the rest of the night , until sometime around dawn we fell asleep in each other 's arms . Late the next morning , after we showered together and went out for breakfast , we returned to my room to continue our amorous bouts . I found out , that in many respects Mattie was a sexual novice . Her former boyfriend had confined their relations , to little in the way of foreplay and only missionary position intercourse . I decided that it was my duty to give her a crash course in sexual technique . I found her to be a very adept student , who never balked at trying something new . In time , she began to take the initiative in our love making and surprised me with her ingenuity . When spring break came , Mattie didn 't have enough money to go home . I called my folks and told them that I had decided not to come home . I apologized to them , and explained that something important had come up , and I couldn 't leave . Mattie and I had a great spring break . Somewhere along the line , she was able to talk me into going to church with her on Easter Sunday . I hadn 't been in a church in ten years and was amazed , when I discovered that the experience wasn 't as bad as I had expected it to be . I knew that my going to church with Mattie had made her happy . When school resumed , the time seemed to fly by , and the next thing I knew finals were at hand . Suddenly , a terrible realization hit me - it was all ending , and Mattie and I would be going our separate ways . I began to panic . " Mattie , I want to ask you something , " I said as we lay together one evening . " I don 't want to lose you . You know I love you , and I will always love you . Please , Mattie marry me . " " Roy , settle down . I love you too , and I want to be your wife , but marriage is not something to be entered into lightly . When I marry it is going to be for life , and I expect the man I marry to feel the same way . We need to decide if our relationship is based on more than lust . Lust is temporary , but love lasts for a life time . I know , both of us are sure we love each other , but how can we really tell . " " I can tell ! Mattie , you were my friend before you were my lover . Hell , you are my best friend . You 're also the woman I love , and the only I will every love . " I 've never told you about my grandpa . He lives alone out in the desert . My grandma was the only woman he loved , and when she died , he knew there could never be a replacement for her . So , he left the city and now lives in a shack in the middle of nowhere . I used to spend a good part of my summers visiting him . He and my parents gave me some pretty good values . When I marry you Mattie Banks , it is going to be forever . " " I feel the same way , " she said as tears began to form in her eyes , " but , we don 't have any money , and we don 't have jobs . If we jump into things too soon , all the odds will be against us right from the start . I want us to take four months to think things over and to build up some money . If at the end of four months you still want me to marry you , I will . I hate to wait , but I really think it is in our best interests . " " Well , I don 't ! I want to run off with you right after graduation , but I have to admit you have a point , we don 't have much money . However , four months is way too long . Let 's make it three months . In three months I 'm going to marry you , even if we have to live in a tent and beg for food . " Mattie graduated with honors , and ( I still don 't know how I pulled it off ) so did I . Both her parents and mine attended the graduation ceremony . Mattie introduced me to her folks , and I introduced her to mine ; but , we didn 't mention a word about our plans for the future . As we left , with our diplomas in our hands to go our separate ways , it seemed to me like the next three months were going to take a lifetime to pass . At home I began to look for work , but while I had the education , most employers wanted someone with experience . I couldn 't figure out , how in the world anyone could get experience , when no one seemed to want to hire a person without it . My frustration at not finding work , coupled with being separated from Mattie , caused me to lapse into depression . " Perk up , boy ! " my father told me about month after I had been home . " Jobs don 't grow on trees . You 'll find one in time . If you don 't stop with all the sighs , I 'm going to have to dose you . " " Henry ! " said my mother , when she overheard my father talking to me . " Can 't you see it is not work that he is worried about ? It is the same thing that had him upset during Christmas , and the same reason that he didn 't come home for Easter . It 's a girl , Henry - our boy is in love . " " There will be other girls . You 're too young to be thinking about love . You need to get out and sow some wild oats , before you settle into anything . " " Henry Adams Wells ! " my mother said in a shocked voice . " You were only a couple of months older than Roy when we were married . Tell me - how did that turn out ? " " You know him almost as well as I do , " my mother spoke to me as my father walked into another room . " He is a good man and has only your welfare at heart . You just be patient , he 'll come around in time . After all , he has only found out what I 've known all these months . " As if things weren 't bad enough , my grandfather suddenly passed away . How , I missed that old desert rat ; his wit , wisdom , and teachings about life . I could hear Mattie start to cry when I called her with the news . She kept saying how sorry she was , and how much she that wanted to be with me . Somehow , her tears and sympathy made things a little easier to take . A short while after my grandfather 's funeral , I came home from the store and saw that we had company . Whoever it was drove a new car . I went inside and found set luggage sitting next to the door . It appeared that we had a guest that was coming to stay for awhile . I went into the living room and found my mother and father talking , they stopped when I came into they room . Both of them stood and came over to me . " It was a self imposed exile from the world , boy . I knew he had some money , after all he helped your mother and I when we were trying to make ends meet , but I never imagined he was rich . Your mother and I thought that he was going broke , and we had asked him many times , to come and live with us . " He left your mom and I an ungodly amount of money . He also left you enough to set yourself up in that consulting business like you 've talked about , with some money left over for frivolous stuff - like buying a house , getting married , and maybe starting a family . All those wild oat things you 've got your heart set upon doing . Here are the keys to that car outside ; it is a present from your mother and I . It has a full tank of gas . Your bags are packed by the door . There is a wallet on the table with a little seed money to get you to where you 're going . You won 't get your inheritance for a couple of months , but I imagine that your mother and I can subsidize you for awhile . I figure that if you take out of here right now , you should be able to make it back to Mattie in three days . There is only one thing you have to promise . " " I think I have the best folks in the world , " I said throwing my arms around the two of them , " and the best grandfather , too ! I 've got to call Mattie . Oh , my ! What if she doesn 't want me to come ? " With more than a little apprehension , I dialed Mattie 's phone number . Her father answered and didn 't seem too pleased about my calling his daughter , but he put her on the line . When she came to the phone , I froze , and my mind went blank . My throat tightened up and I couldn 't say anything . " Mattie , if you really love me , you 'll get ready to marry me in a couple of days . Things have all changed . I 've got enough money so that we can start our own business , and get us a decent place to live , and get married and do just about everything that we 've talked about , and . . . " " Not a drop . I 'm intoxicated by you ! Listen , my grandfather left me a large amount of money . Dad says , I have enough money coming to do almost everything we dreamed about doing . I 'm not going to wait any longer . I 'm driving back there and will be there in three days . If you won 't marry me at that time , I 'll camp out on your front lawn until you will . Do you understand Mattie Banks , I 'm coming for you . I love you . I 'm not waiting anymore ! " " Yes , yes of course I 'll marry you , my love . Together we can beat the world , but without you , I 'm just a hollow shell . Roy , I 'll get things started on this end . I can 't believe this ! Are you sure this isn 't too good to be true ? " " Sure as sure can be ! I 've got to get going , I 'll see you in three days . I 've got your address and I 'll hunt you down as soon as I get there . I 'll call you every night until then . " " You , better not . My dad has been saying that he thinks you call way too often . He thinks we are getting too serious about each other . " " You drive safely , " she admonished . " I want to see you here in three days , and I want you to be in one piece . Goodbye , my love ! " My mind was flying in a thousand directions at once , as I grabbed my luggage , hugged my parents and tried to find words to thank them for all they had done . With their good - byes ringing in my ears I drove off . The next three days are a blur in my memory . All I remember is the long , seemingly endless road , which stretched out before me . When I arrived at my destination , I spotted a police car sitting beside the road and stopped to ask how to find the street where Mattie lived . I made another quick stop at a phone booth and called her . I told her I was in town and that I would be at her house as soon as I could find it . She said that she had run into strong opposition from both her parents , when she told them that I was coming and that we were going to get married . Her father was at work . She was glad that she had answered the phone because she wasn 't sure what her mother would have said to me . She told me that as soon as she hung up , she would tell her mother that I was on the way to their house . It took me about thirty minutes to find the house . I was surprised when the door was answered by Mattie 's father , who had come home from his job , especially to talk to me . He said that he wanted to talk to me alone , man to man , before I saw Mattie . I told him I wanted his permission to marry his daughter , but he said that he thought we should wait , because a college courtship was not something that was solid enough to base a marriage upon . I told him that I had the means to support Mattie and that I would be buying us a home in the near future . He was adamant in his refusal , saying he didn 't know the first thing about me . " Daddy , " Mattie said coming down some stairs , into the living room , carrying two large suitcases . " I am of legal age , and I 'm quite capable of making my own decisions . I am going to marry Roy , as soon as we get a marriage license , and we get the waiting period over . I 've already set everything up of four days from now . I can either go with Roy now , or I can stay here until then , but I am going to marry him . " " Daddy , I love you , but I have to go my own way . When I was away at school I joined another church . Since I 've been home , I 've gone to your and mom 's church , but it isn 't right for me . I 've talked to the pastor and his wife , of the church I belong to now , and I have everything arranged for Saturday at 1 : 30 p . m . " The news about changing churches did not set well with her father , but Mattie was not about to back down . In the end , when her father saw that there was no way to put a stop to things , he grudgingly gave us his permission to be married . She took her suitcases upstairs , and when she came back down , we went in search of a marriage license . A few days later we were married . My father was my best man . I was glad to have my folks there to give me support . Just before the ceremony , Mattie introduced me to her sixteen year old sister , Ruth , who seemed very happy at the prospect of gaining a brother - in - law . While neither Mattie 's father nor her mother was hostile toward me , I thought that they were still a long way from being friendly . I suppose I should have expected their reaction given the way everything had happened . When they asked me where we were going to go for our honeymoon , I told them that we would just head out and see if we couldn 't find somewhere special . I knew better than to tell them that I had a room for a week in Las Vegas . I had a fairly good idea what their reaction would be to their daughter being led into the vices of Sin City . During our honeymoon , Mattie surprised me by wearing an extremely sheer , deep blue , see - through night grown , which made her look like some sort of sex goddess . The material was so thin that it looked like a blue mist flowing around her . I called it the " honeymoon gown " and from that day forward she would wear it for special occasions . While the original " honeymoon gown " eventually wore out , due to usage and time , she was able to replace it with an identical item . Down through the years , anytime that Mattie wore that gown , I knew that she had hot , heavy , and intense love making on her mind .