Posted on February 11 , 2013 by Who I am 15 The next morning Henry popped out of bed . He was ready to start the day . He got dressed " Wow mom , this is a real surprise . You sure aren 't going to hear any arguing coming from me " . Henry said . His mom smiled at him and turned back to her fried eggs . She made it a little extra by adding a thick slice of fried bologna . She put the finished plate in front of him and Henry grabbed a glass of milk . " Sure smells good mom . Thanks a lot " . He dug in and she left the room . After eating he went in and did his hair and yelling bye to his mom he left the house . He drove to the opposite side of town until he saw a nice looking motel . After parking he went in and asked for a room . " I need a special room for tonight . I am getting married today . I have cash " . The clerk smiled and had Henry fill out some paper work . He took the groom 's money and then handed him the room key . Henry decided he better check the room out . He opened the door and flipped the lights on . Nice big bed and looks clean . He turned around and walked out feeling satisfied this would work . He drove back into town and stopped at a small jewelry store . Once at the counter he asked , " Do you have any plain bands ? I need a gold band " . The clerk showed him a few styles and Henry decided on one that had engraved flowers on it . " I will take this but first , how much is it " ? The clerk told him and Henry smiled . " Yes , I will take this one . Do you have one of those boxes to put it in " ? He decided to go hang out at the garage for a little bit . He still needed to get a hair cut but that wasn 't going to take long . The wedding was at four . He had some time to kill . He walked in and his buddies said , " Where ya been ? We haven 't seen you lately " ? " Hey Henry , we thought you went and died or something " . " Nah , I have just been busy . Between the two jobs and spending time with Jane my time just slips by too fast " , Henry said . The guys stopped what they were doing since it was almost lunch time " What ? You 're getting married " ? " Well you old dog you . You are going to go and get yourself hitched up " . " Are you crazy fool ? Getting married " ? They all laughed and asked about the details . Henry explained and then their break was over . For awhile Henry followed them to the cars they were working on . He watched until a customer came in and then said , " Well I guess I will be getting out of here . I have things to do and people to see " . All the guys yelled bye to him and wished him good luck . He felt his pants pocket making sure the box was still there . He looked up at the courthouse clock and decided to go ahead and get his hair cut . The barber shop was one of two in town . Both of them were small . His mom had always brought him to this place so he just continued to come . He remembered always being so fascinated with the barber shop pole . The red stripes going round and round . He walked in and there was only one customer a head of him . He waved hello with his hand and the barber said , " Hey Henry , nice to see you . You are next bud . Just have a seat " . Henry sat down and picked up one of the few car magazines and sifted through it . He was about through all the photos and heard his name being called . " So what you been up to since the last time I saw you Henry " ? " I have two jobs now Al . I still work at the grocery store . I also got a part - time job over at the bowling alley setting pins " . " Well you know what they say . A busy mind stays out of trouble " , Al said with laughter . Henry relaxed as his hair was being cut . The barber finished and was brushing talcum powder on his neck when Henry said , " I am getting married today . Today is my last day for being a single guy " . As Al was taking his money for the cut he wished Henry a good life . Well , everything was done now . He drove home and decided to take a bath and just hang around the house . He thought about taking a nap . He was pleased to see his dad was mowing the yard when he pulled up . His dad waved at him and Henry waving back went on into the house . His mom was napping on the couch . The house smelled clean . He went to the refrigerator and got him a cold pop and saw that the kitchen table was set up for the wedding food . He walked quietly passed his mom and went and started running his bath water . He shaved while his water was filling and then went and got some clean clothes out . Locking the bathroom door he sunk into the tub and thought , this is it Henry . This is the big day . Today the girl I love will become my wife . I am the happiest guy alive . Posted on January 13 , 2013 by Who I am 17 Henry listened to some music on his radio before getting ready to go to his new job . He laid on his bed staring at the ceiling , thinking about him and Jane and the new baby . I wonder if it will be a boy or a girl . I wonder if it will look like me or maybe her . As long as it 's healthy , that 's all I care about . Ten fingers ten toes as they say . He almost drifted off in to dreamland and then without thinking looked at his alarm clock . Oh crap , where did the time go . He jumped up from the bed and put a clean shirt on . All finished and checking his hair out in the mirror , he closed the door behind him and went and told his parents he was leaving . At the bowling alley , the smoke was thick . Sounds of balls hitting the floors and laughter echoed from the padded walls . He saw Carl and walked towards him . Carl said , " This here guy standing beside me is the one that is going to train you Henry . Say hi to Bud " . The two shook hands and then Bud led the way to the back . It looked like a complicated mess . Lots of metal and pin holders . A real mechanical set - up . It was cold back here . No padded walls , no nice paint on the walls . The floors were supposed to be white but were yellowed from years of being neglected . Bud went to the pin drop machines and explained . " Your job kid is to stay back here and watch all of these machines . If all the pins don 't drop , you put one in manually . If a ball doesn 't return out front , catch it here and slide it down the return rack . This isn 't a hard job at all . In fact on a good night , it can be down right boring . If you are going to smoke , make sure you step out that back door there " . He pointed towards the rear door . " You got any questions kid ? What did you say your name is " ? " Henry , that 's my name . No Bud , I don 't have any questions . You going to be hanging around in case I do run into a snag " ? " Sure , I will be here until the joint closes . You see that black wall phone over there ? Dial 0 if you run into any problems . Well , I gotta get back up front . Good luck kid , I mean Henry " . Henry found a chair and thought the best thing to do was place it right in the middle of the machines . He sat down and started watching . Man , they move fast . It seems like when one is returning another one is coming . He had been sitting there for about an hour when one of the pins didn 't drop . He had missed it but soon heard buzzing sounds . He saw a red light on one of the machines and found out it was a speaker . He could hear pins didn 't drop . You asleep back there at the wheel ? He grabbed a new pin and as he placed it in the empty slot , he pushed the red buzzer and said , " sorry folks , new here tonight . I will try to watch better " . He heard clapping out front , and he knew all was alright now with lane number nine . The night went pretty smooth from then on . He went out back on his break and took a couple of drags off his smokes . He thought to himself , wonder what Jane is doing . No one has let me know if she is here . Before he knew it , the shift was over . The bowling alley became quiet . He walked back out front to punch out on the time clock and saw the janitor sweeping the lanes . He waved to him and punching the clock , checked his schedule and then told the boss goodbye and walked out the front door . He had parked his car in the very back of the parking lot , boss 's orders . Supposed to leave room for the paying customer . He got in the driver 's seat and was about to put the key in the ignition when a pair of hands covered his eyes from the back . At first he was shocked then went in to attack mode , then he recognized the words guess who . He turned around and the first thing that came out of his mouth were , " geesh Jane , I could have hurt you real bad . You scared the crap out of me " . Jane said , " Well come back here in the back seat baby , and I will show you how sorry I am " . Henry wasted no time in getting to the back seat . He kissed her on her lips and then started tickling her . She started screaming and laughing and he placed his hand over her mouth saying , " don 't scream baby , you want the boss to call the cops ? How would it look if the cop tapped on the window and saw us doing this " . " Doing what ? All we are doing is laughing and having a good time " , Jane said . Henry pulled her to him her head falling to rest on the arm rest . He lifted her skirt and slid her panties off . He felt her warm flesh . He felt where the baby was growing . He was thinking , this is all mine . My baby , my woman . He ran his hand down her legs . They were so soft and as he re - visited her woman hood , she raised to him and a soft moan came deep within her throat . Henry wasted no time in taking her . It was quick but they both were satisfied . Helping her to get dressed , he zipped up his pants and gave her a quick peck and got back in the front seat . He asked , " What you waiting for doll ? Get your cute little rear up here with me . You know I don 't like driving alone " . She grinned at him and hopped over the front seat . Putting her one arm around his neck and the other arm between his legs , he started the car and drove her home . Explore the room you 're in as if you 're seeing it for the first time . Pretend you know nothing . What do you see ? Who is the person who lives there ? When you walk into the room in you feel peace . There is a nice comfy wrap - a - round couch that I could curl up in and take a nap . I see several shelves full of old crocks . It seems that this person likes antiques pretty well . Two miniature trees decorated in white lights and gold Victorian ornaments . This brings a calmness when you gaze at them . I see an old round chrome table with two matching chairs . On top looks like several boxes of left - over candies that may have not been able to be stuffed in to Christmas stockings . On one wall right by a window , there sits a computer . Decorated by white soft curtains this would make a wonderful view to look out . I wonder if the one who uses this computer is a writer ? I can see this person gazing out the window gathering ideas to place on paper . I see several candles sitting on the fireplace . This white Victorian fireplace brings a sense of warmth and could provide a very romantic setting . There is a big screen television and sitting beside that is a WII system . It is covered with dust . It must not get played with much . There is a beautiful wood blanket chest . It looks like an antique for sure . I imagine that the person who lives here is into old stuff . She loves romance and peaceful surroundings . The glow of white lights and candles burning makes me feel like she is a loving and compassionate person . A philosopher , a deep thinker . I would love to meet her . Posted on January 4 , 2013 by Who I am 14 Henry pulled into the bowling alley parking lot . He had been here a few times . Went bowling with friends , but bowled so bad he never went back . When he walked inside it was pretty quiet . He could smell coffee coming from the little cafe on the side . He head a few pins being knocked down . As he looked out over the lanes , he saw one family sharing some time together . He thought , that could be me and my kid some day . Other than the family of bowlers he didn 't see anyone else . He walked over to the cafe and grabbed a cup of coffee and put his dime in the money cup . He took it over to the red table and sat down . Wonder who runs this place . They on vacation ? A bald man came out of the back office . He had a big gut and the bottom button was left undone . Probably too fat to get it buttoned . The guy noticed Henry sitting there and walked up to him . " Can I help you kid " ? Henry stood up and extended his left arm out . Shaking hands Henry said , " I heard you are looking for a set - up man . I came right over when I heard about it . Are you still looking for someone " ? " I am . I need some more money . Got a kid coming on the way and I need more hours . I work over part - time at the grocery store bagging groceries . It is an ok job , but won 't do enough for me " , Henry said . " You got your girl knocked up huh kid . Pretty stupid thing to do if you ask me , but who 's asking ? This job pays every week . It is a late - nite job . You come in around 7 and you work until we close at midnite . It pays sixty cents an hour . You interested " ? " How about tonight ? My name is Carl but you can call me boss " . Henry reached out his hand and shook on the deal with Carl and putting his hat back on he turned and left , yelling back at the guy , " See ya tonight and thanks " . Henry was smiling and whistling his way to his car . He had done it . He had landed himself another part - time job . With these two jobs he now had a full - time job . Wait til I tell Jane and the guys . He got in his car and took off a little faster than he should . Dirt scattered in the parking lot . He saw a cop sitting on the next corner but he must have been eating his donut as he didn 't do a thing . He went over to Jane 's house and jumped out of the car and raced to the house . Banging on the door , it wasn 't long before it opened , with Jane standing there . Henry grabbed her by the waist and picked her up and swung her around . She started giggling and telling him , " put me down Henry . Right now " . Henry ignored her as he continued to swing her . " I got another job doll . I am going to be working over at the bowling alley . Going to be a night job . I am going to bag groceries through the day and then go set - up pins at night " . Jane 's face went from giggles to frowns . " When we going to have time to see each other Henry ? If you work day and night when you going to fit me in " ? Henry let her down and tried to think of the perfect answer . He didn 't want any fighting to start . He knew what he was doing was the right thing . " Oh doll , you know I will be with you every minute I can . You know how much I love you . We are going to have to help mom and dad out when we start staying there . We can 't expect them to feed us every meal can we ? This way we can have time together alone . We can go to the restaurant and get a burger , then we can go to our special spot and be together " . He winked at her and she recognized that wink . Sex , is that all men ever think about ? Isn 't that how I got myself in this position , by having sex ? Jane smiled at him . She knew in her heart that he was right , but she was going to miss him . " So , when you going to start this new job " ? " Tonight at 7 . Maybe you can come over and see me on my break . I got to get going doll . I have to be at work in in a few hours and I 'm starving " . With this , he reached down and squeezed her real hard placing a hard kiss on her lips . She gasped for air , but when he turned around to wave as he was leaving he saw that smile . Her smile melted his heart every time he saw it . " Remember , next Saturday , you and me , getting hitched " . Jane had no time to respond as he climbed in his car and spinning his tires took off . He drove home with his radio cranked . Patsy Cline was singing Crazy , and Henry thought to himself , ya crazy , crazy for you doll . He pulled in the drive and went inside . His mom was washing dishes and she smiled at him as he entered the room . As he was getting some ham out of the refrigerator , he said , " I got a job mom . I mean I got another job to go along with my baggers job . You won 't have to worry about me and Jane living here as much now mom . We won 't be any problem . We will try to find our own food to eat so you and dad won 't have to worry about your budget " . He got the bread out and the ketchup and made himself two sandwiches . He poured himself a tall glass of milk and sat down at the table to eat . Carol remarked , " Honey you aren 't going to be any problem . It 's that girl you are going to have living here . I worry how she and I are going to get along . Does she talk much ? You know I have my own routine and I don 't want someone yakking in my ear all day " . " Ah mom , don 't worry . Jane 's quiet . She will stay out of your way . She will probably sleep a lot being pregnant . You won 't even know she is here " . With that his mom came over and tugged on his ear and smiled down at him . Then she turned and left the kitchen , the dishes being done . Once they were down to only drinking their malt Henry turned towards Jane and said , " It won 't be so bad doll . Hell , I have lived with my parents forever . I just tune them out . We need a place to live . I promise you , I am going to look for a better job first thing in the morning . Trust me babe , it 's going to be alright " . Jane replied , " Henry , I don 't know if I can pull this off . I love you but , living with your parents , your mom ? I don 't want to be without you so I will give it a try , just for you " . The two finished off their drink and he started the car letting the waitress know they were ready to leave . He drove them up to lover 's lane . It was a windy road that ran around the lake . It was made of dirt and not much traffic . He turned the car off and got out of the car . He walked around and opened her door . The two of them grabbed a blanket from the trunk and walked until they found a nice soft spot of grass and spread the blanket out . He sat and pulled her to him . He kissed her lips and as he was kissing her neck , he unbuttoned her shirt and unhooked her bra . She took her cue and laid down on the blanket . He followed her grabbing a hold of her swollen breasts and began to kiss them , cupping them in his hands . He bit the tips causing a hardness to form in her nipples and in his pants . He ran his hands over her belly , leaving it rest for a moment where the baby was growing . He then lowered his hand and ran it down the length of her legs and then back up to the garden of love . She arched her body to him , inviting him to go deeper . He fondled her and stirring desires from deep within her , he continued until she could take no more . She screamed with passion and grabbed a hold of his manhood and led it deep into her flowering garden . He wasted no time as he rose above her and let himself slowly slip in taking her for his own . The two rose to another level of sanity as they were no longer able to keep their senses under control . Moments later , they laid on their backs gazing up at the millions of stars . He said , " Was it as good for you as it was for me " ? Jane rolled over on her side next to him , and touched his lips saying , " hush , let 's not ruin the moment . " After they had laid there for a while in each others arms , Henry got up and said , " We better get going . I have to get to bed early so I can look for a new job tomorrow . " The two gathered the blanket and tossed it back in the trunk . When he pulled up in front of her house , he leaned over and gave her a peck on her cheek and then she got out of the car waving at him . On his way to his own house he thought about her living with his mom . Anxiety rose inside of him at the thoughts of anyone but him being able to live with his mom . She was not the most friendly mom , but for now he would make sure it worked . Where am I going to get more work or a better job ? I work at the bowling ally now sitting pins . I like it but it isn 't enough to pay for a baby . He pulled out a cigarette and lit it . Taking a big puff on it and letting rings roll off of his lips , he sat in the drive way thinking before he walked in to who knew what . After he smoked he got out and went in . His parents were still sitting in front of the television . They looked up at him as he closed the door behind him and headed for his room . As he was taking two steps at a time his dad called out to him . " Got any ideas how you are going to handle this ? Got any money saved up Henry " ? Henry stopped and turned towards his dad and said matter of fact , " I am going to take care of it first thing in the morning . Don 't worry dad , I am not going to mess up or ask anything from you . " With this he turned and went to his room . His dad went back to watching television . The next morning Henry woke earlier than usual and the first thing on his mind was money . He took a shower and went to the kitchen and poured himself a bowl of cereal . His mom was sitting at the table drinking her coffee . As he sat down to eat , Carol said , " Son we don 't talk too much about serious things , but make sure you take care of this problem . Don 't let yourself end up like your mother " . Henry asked , " Like you ? What , did you get yourself knocked up before you were married too ? " His mother started to shed a tear and hung her head . She said , " I thought I was in love . I let the guy convince me that our love was forever . I ended up pregnant . My parents had a fit and kicked me out . I had nowhere to go and I had nothing with me except the clothes on my back . I ended up walking to my girlfriend 's house . I guess from the crap going on in my life , it caused me to lose the baby . Now that I look back , it was actually a blessing . No parents , no boyfriend , no baby " . Henry went over and gave his mom a hug . This was something the two had not shared since he was a child . He told her , " don 't worry mom . I got it under control . With you and dad helping us out by letting us stay here , it will help . I am going out now to find a better job . " Carol patted his hand and dried her tears . " Please don 't ever mention this to your dad Henry . I never told him . " He looked at her and for the first time understood his mom a lot better . He thought , no wonder she is always in a bad mood . She has carried this deep dark secret for a long time . He said , " don 't worry mom , it 's our little secret , " and with this he left the house to job hunt . Posted on December 11 , 2012 by Who I am 19 Henry 's cutting up stopped abruptly as the words Jane spoke sank in his mind . " Pregnant ? pregnant ? How in the world did you get pregnant ? Who have you been sleeping with " ? Jane burst into tears as she reached over and slapped Henry on the shoulder . " You dummy ! You are the one I been sleeping with ! How could you ask something like that ? You know there hasn 't been anyone besides you " ! Henry brushed his shoulder off and then took his arm and pulled her over to him . " I 'm sorry baby . I guess I was just taken aback when you told me . I thought we used good protection " . Jane raised her head up to him ; her eyes locked on his . " What protection did we ever use ? Are you sure it isn 't you that is cheating ? You know we haven 't used any kind He took his toothpick out of his shirt pocket and began to chew on it ; trying to think of a way around this . Jane tugged on his shirt until he was forced to look at her again . Through teary eyes she asked , " What are we going to do Henry ? What are we going to do with this baby ? Do you still love me ? You are going to stick around aren 't you ? You aren 't going to go and run off are you " ? Henry wasn 't going to run off and he told her so . He also realized that he didn 't make the kind of money it was going to take to raise a kid . He looked at her and said , " The first thing we need to do is get in there and tell your mom and dad , then go tell my parents " . Both sat in silence letting this thought roll around in their heads . With a smudge of fear in Jane 's voice she asked , " Do you really think that is a good idea involving the parents ? What are they going to say ? What if they kick me out or turn their backs on us " ? Henry chewed on his toothpick again and hesitated before answering then said , " We have to tell them . We have to get that out - of - the - way first . We need to know if they are going to be behind us or against us " . Jane nodded in agreement , but was not looking forward to any of this . They both opened their car doors and got out and grabbing onto each others hands , they walked up to the front door . When Jane walked in she saw her parents watching television . Henry followed her to the couch and the two sat down . Her parents looked at her odd , because they were interrupting their television program . Silence hit the room like a brick . All that could be heard was the sounds from the box they were watching . " What 's up with you two " ? Dave asked . " We 're watching this program . If you got something to say , spit it out " . Debbie looked over at the two and became a little nervous . She thought , this must be something bad . These two never come in and talk to us . I don 't know if I want to stay here and hear what they have to say . With this thought Carol stood up to go out into the kitchen but Jane stopped her by saying , " Wait mom , come back and sit down . Henry and me , well us two have something to tell you and you probably aren 't going to like it " . Debbie sat back down and began started playing with her fingers nervously . " Now what the hell is going on " ? Dave asked . " You march in here and you sit right here so we can 't watch our program and then you say you need to tell us something . Spit it out girl ! Quit beating around the bush " ! Jane held Henry 's hand a little tighter . She looked at Henry and then at her parents . She started to say something when Henry spoke up . " Dave , Debbie , I want to marry your daughter . We are in love and we want to get married " . The two parents looked at each other and then started to laugh . " Well why the hell didn 't you just tell us when you first sat down ? You get us all worried something bad has happened and here you just want to marry our kid " . Dave stood up and walked over to Henry and patted him on the back . Debbie went to her daughter and told her congratulations . Everyone smiled but Jane . She was thinking , What the hell just happened ? Did he just tell my parents he loved me ? Did he just let them know he wanted to marry me ? Jane looked over at the three of them . None of this was sinking in . My parents are happy about all this . They don 't care if we get married . They don 't even know about the baby yet , and they are still happy ? Then it sunk in . She was pregnant . He was going to marry me . He is not leaving me here hanging ! She walked over to Henry and gave him a big hug , and then her dad asked , " When you two getting hitched " ? Jane and Henry glanced at each other and then Henry said calmly , " Soon , very soon . We need to run over to my house and tell my parents and then we will decide on a date . It won 't be any big deal . We can get married at the Justice of the Peace . So we will just pick a day and then let you know " . With this all being said , Jane and Henry walked into the kitchen with big smiles on their faces . Jane made each of them a sandwich and while they were eating Jane lowered her voice and said , " Do you really mean what you said in there ? You want to marry me ? Does this mean we are going to raise this kid together " ? Henry looked into her eyes while he took another bite . " Of course baby . You know I love you . I just have to get a better paying job and then we will be alright " . With that being said they finished their sandwich and then went back to the living room and Jane told her parents that they would be back . They were going over to his mom and dads now . Dave nodded letting her know he heard her , and then went back to watching his favorite show . Posted on November 27 , 2012 by Who I am 13 Laurie and Jane walked to the clinic , and both girls stood outside for a minute . Jane said , " I don 't know if I really want to do this . What if I find out I am pregnant ? What will I do then " ? Laurie put her arm around her friend and said in a matter of fact tone , " And what if you find out you are not ? We won 't know until we go in there . Now come on silly girl , let 's get this over " ! Jane timidly placed her hand on the door handle and both girls walked in . Jane went to the seats that were in the waiting room and sat . Laurie went to the receptionist window and announced her friend 's name . Jane filled out the paper work , while Laurie rambled on in Jane 's ear . After finishing the required forms , Jane slowly walked up to the window , and as she handed her the completed file , the receptionist asked , " Do you have any insurance Jane " ? Jane nodded no , and the receptionist noted this on her file , then asked , " Do you have any cash on you ? This visit will cost ten dollars " . The announcement was made , a young lady was calling Jane 's name . Jane stood up to go and looked back at her friend . She grabbed a hold of her hand , and said , " Come with me , I don 't want to go in there alone " . With this the two girls went through the door separating them from the waiting room and the doctor . They only waited a moment , and then Beth , the nurse walked in . She looked at the two girls and asked , " Which one of you is the patient " ? Jane replied , " I am " . With this being decided , the nurse took Jane 's temperature , and listened to her heart . She made some notations on the new file for Jane . She then reached up into the glass cupboard doors , and grabbed a plastic cup . She took it to Jane and said , " I need you to take this cup and go into the bathroom . When you pull your panties down , you will see some disposable wipes . Wipe yourself from front to back , and then urinate in the cup . Then leave the cup on the back of the stool , and I will come in and get it " . Jane 's face turned bright red , as she did not usually talk about going to the bathroom . She took the cup from Beth , and walked across the hall , doing what she had been told to do . Soon she walked back in and told the nurse she was finished , and then the nurse disappeared out of the room . He looked at the girls , and asked , " Which one of you is Jane " ? Jane rose her hand half - way , and the doctor asked , " Do your parents know that you are here " ? Jane shook her head no . The doctor continued , " You may want to explain to them where you have been , because the test results for pregnancy are positive . You can have your parents call me if they have any questions " . Jane 's eyes began to water , and Laurie sat dumbfounded . The doctor walked over to where Jane was sitting and shook her hand and wished her good luck in her future . Doctor Bill then opened the door and closed it behind him , leaving the girls to sit there and digest the news . Beth came back into the room , and sat in the empty chair beside the girls . She handed Jane some pamphlets explaining childbirth . Jane started to look through them , but when she came to the second page , and saw the diagram of a uterus , she closed the pages . The nurse explained to Jane that she had options . She said , " Not every woman is always ready for raising a child . If , after you talk to your parents about this , and you decide you do not want to keep your baby , there is always adoption " . Beth handed her another handbook , that explained the process of adoption , and then asked Jane if she had any questions , and Jane nodded no . Jane gave a small smile , and turned and walked through the exit door . The two girls went immediately to the soda fountain . They found a booth towards the back of the restaurant . The lights were dim , and no one sat this close to the door that led to the kitchen . The girls could talk here in private . How was she going to tell her mom and dad ? How was she going to tell Henry ? She washed her face off and went back to her bedroom and laid down on her bed . She didn 't want to live , she just wanted to lay here and die . What had she done to herself ? Fear took over and she began to weep . She buried her head in her hands and cried until there were no more tears to come . She rolled over on her side and reached down with her hand and touched her belly . Nothing felt different , she didn 't feel anything , but inside she knew . She didn 't know what to do , where to go . Were her parents going to kick her out of the house ? Where would she live ? Maybe she could get rid of this baby . The first thing she needed to do was find out if indeed , she was really pregnant . She got up off the bed and got dressed , and went to the kitchen and poured herself a cup of coffee . Maybe she would drink two cups , maybe that would make this thing growing inside of her , go away . She sat at the table thinking what she should do next , and then decided to walk over to her friend 's house to seek some advice . Finishing her one cup she headed over to her friends and knocked on the back door . Laurie 's mother answered the door with a big smile , letting her in , and telling her that Laurie was in her room , cleaning . Jane thanked her and walked towards her friend 's bedroom door and knocked . She heard a voice saying come in , so she opened the door and shutting it behind her , she went over and sat on the bed . Laurie turned her radio down , and went over and plopped herself on the bed beside her and said , " What 's up ? What have you been doing with yourself ? I didn 't see you too much yesterday . " With hearing these words , Jane broke down in tears again , and Laurie put her arms around her and said , " Hey , no matter what 's happening , it can 't be that bad . Tell me what 's going on ? Did you and your mom have a fight ? " Laurie dropped her arms from around her friend , and stood up , walking over to her vanity and sitting down , looking at herself in the mirror , and asking Jane , " Are you sure ? Have you gone to the doctor ? " Jane shook her head saying no she had not seen a doctor . How could she go to a doctor ? Wouldn 't the doctor call her mom and tell her ? Laurie stated as if she was an expert on the topic , " No , doctors can 't say a word to anyone . They have some code or something that makes them keep their mouths quiet . Your mom and dad will never know . What you need to do girl , is get an appointment , and find out for sure . Here you are falling apart , and you don 't even know for sure ! " She walked over to her bed again and sat down with Jane , and opened up her bedside table drawer , and pulled out the phone book . She looked at Jane and asked , Who is your doctor ? Do you want to go to the doctor that your parents go to , or do you want to go to someone who don 't know you ? " Jane thought it over for a second , and then said , " What do you think the doctor will do to me ? Is he going to make me get undressed ? Do you think he will look down there ? " Laurie laughed and said , " No silly , you will go into the doctor 's office , and just pee in a cup . Then they do some kind of test with it , using a bunny , and if the bunny dies , you are pregnant , and if the bunny lives , this is a false alarm ! " Laurie thought that was a cool idea and said , " Hey , they are open today , and I don 't think you need an appointment . Go back to your house and put some clothes on that make you look older , then come back here . While you are gone , I will change my clothes too . We want to go in there looking like we know what we are doing , right ? " Jane nodded and stood up and Laurie walked her to the door . Jane turned to Laurie and gave her a big hug and told her thanks for being her friend , and to please not say anything to her mom about this , and Laurie , crossed her two fingers and promised , she would not say a word . Her mom said it was fine , and to have a good time , and to stay out of trouble . Laurie promised and went back to her room to wait for her friend . It took a while , but soon Jane was knocking on the door , and when Laurie opened the door , she stood there staring at Jane , and said , " Wow , girl , you look so cool ! No one would know that you were only 16 ! " She walked back into her room , and sat on the bed . Was she pregnant , oh God , she couldn 't be pregnant . They had only fooled around one time , and you couldn 't get pregnant after only one time , could you ? She laid back down on her bed again , and pulled her covers up , telling herself she would just lay here until everything on the inside was nice and calm again . When she woke up it was an hour later . She sat up and felt fine , no bad or sick feelings , so she figured it must have been something she had eaten last night . Nope , she wasn 't pregnant . Wow , what a relief that was . Lighting a cigarette , she went over and sat down beside Jane and asked her if she had a good time last night with that guy named Henry . Between bites , Jane mumbled yes , it was alright . Her mom asked when she got home , and Jane said around ten , and with that the conversation ended , and her mom went and poured herself a cup of coffee . Henry gave her a good squeeze and asked her what she wanted do today , and Jane came back with she didn 't care , whatever he wanted to do . He grabbed her hand and the two walked the beach , kicking their feet in the sand , stopping every once in a while , to hug and kiss . They walked and then found a grassy area , hidden behind a bunch of rocks . Afterwards , they both realized they were hungry , so he drove them to a fast diner , and pulled up and parked . The two walked in and ordered a burger , fries and shake . They sat down and waited for their order , and then began eating like they had never eaten before . The food was so good , that conversation was small and soon they were finished eating , and they got back in his car and went back to the lake . Henry drove Jane home and dropped her off in front of her house , and giving her a kiss , he watched her go to the door and then he drove off . Jane walked in and sat down in the living room . Jane , her mom , was sitting there watching the television , and Dave , her dad was nowhere to be seen . Debbie asked Jane if she had a good day , but didn 't look at her for an answer , but went back to her television program . Jane didn 't answer but instead went into the kitchen to see what was going to be for supper . Nothing was laid out on the kitchen counter , and so she opened the refrigerator door and looked at the half - gallon of milk , and some orange juice . She went back into the living room and asked her mom what was for dinner , and Debbie replied that she hadn 't really thought about it . She looked up at the clock on the wall and asked Jane if she was hungry already , and Jane shrugged her shoulders . With her mom not making any move to fix food , she wandered back into the kitchen and looked in the cupboards , and grabbed some crackers and a Twinkie , and took this back to her bedroom . She guessed this would be her supper for the night . What a mom she had , stuck in a television box and not caring about anything going on around her . Her dad was probably already at the local bar , getting drunk . This was a screwed up family , Jane thought to herself . She wished she had a different set of parents , someone who gave a crap about her . She needed a new life , a new adventure . Why was she the only one on the block that had a boring life ? Why couldn 't she live in the house across the street where those parents seemed involved with their own two kids . She always saw them getting in the car together and going places . Their lives had to be better than her own life . He went over to his side and crawled in , scooting as close as he could to her . He pushed her hair back , and whispered in her ear how much he loved her and that one day they were going to be married . Hearing these words , Jane , laid down on the seat , and raised her skirt , then directed his hands to where she wanted to be touched . Henry 's hands probed her body , finding and touching areas , that had never been touched before . He reached up and pulled his shirt out of his jeans , and Jane helped him unbutton his shirt . He slipped his shirt off , allowing her to run her fingers over the hair that lay nestled in the middle of his chest , and he grabbed her hair and pulling her head back , he began to kiss her neck and nibble on her tender ears . He cracked the window and reached over to the front seat and grabbed his pack of cigarettes and took one out and lit it , letting the smoke blow out of the side window . He offered her one , but she refused , letting him know that she didn 't smoke . He said , " Was it as good for you babe , as it was for me ? " Jane replied , " I have never felt anything like this before . My body feels hot and a little sore , but I liked it , no I loved it ! " Henry told her , " I didn 't mean to hurt you doll , your body just drove me crazy , and I had to have you . " Jane nodded her head , letting him know that she understood what he was saying . She scooted over a little closer to him , and snuggled her head in his shoulder . He placed his arm around her and giving her a squeeze , he finished his smoke , and looked at his watch , and told her he probably should get her home , so that she didn 't get grounded by her parents . The two got out of the car and sat back down in the front seat . Henry leaned over and gave her a kiss on her lips , and said , " I love you babe , you were great . One of these days , when I get some money saved up , you and I are getting hitched . " Jane smiled at him and with this , he started the car and pulled back out on the highway , and drove her home . He did not want to wake them , so he took the stairs three at a time , arriving quickly at his closed bedroom door . He opened it up and walked in and threw his wallet on the night stand , and sitting on the bed , he took off his loafers and socks , stood up and unzipped his jeans , and taking them off , he pulled back his bed covers and crawled inside , and covering up to his neck , he laid there , reliving the night 's activities . He sure did love this girl , and he was going to marry her , but it was going to take some time to save money up from working part - time at the grocery store and the bowling alley . It was summer , and school was out , so Henry and Jane spent every free moment together . They lived near each other , and also were within walking distance of the lake , so the two of them went swimming a lot , and hung out with all of their friends . Days were spent in laughter and evenings were spent in passion . i take care of my brother who has Parkinson 's , heart disease , and is mentally challenged . I write poetry and short fictional stories also . stop by and make yourself comfy . 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