Will you venture all the way to the beginning ? Or maybe you 'll start with the next post ? Whichever you do - enjoy the story ! Feel free to comment and follow , all of it is appreciated . Hello friends ! I 've put up a poll on the right side of the blog . Please cast your votes ! Since Rylan is getting older , he 'll be headed off to college pretty soon ! * sniff sniff * Baby is all grown up and stuff . I 'd love to know if you want to follow him in his college years or just stay at home with the rest of the family whilst he is away . Thank you for taking the time to vote ! Well wishes to you . Posted by David let out a little sigh and smiled slightly . " She 's in the kitchen making some French toast this morning . She said to me when she woke that ' She was the mayor , she can 't just disappear from the town for weeks . ' I guess she 's getting ready to go back to work . " Rylan stared , open mouthed , at his dad . " Are you serious ? Wow , that 's good for her . It 'll be good for her to get out . I know how she feels though . It 's time for the girls and I to go back to school too . " He sighed . " I 'm not sure how well they will handle it . They know I 'm there though and I think that helps . " David smiled . " I 'm sure they will be alright . It 'll be different of course , and they 'll have to brace for the questions that the other kids will ask , but it will be fine . I actually have to work tonight too and I 'm not really looking forward to it , but we all have to do what we have to do . " In the kitchen , Rosetta had indeed been preparing French toast . She stood by the oven while the bread baked and smiled at her family when they all came in to sit down and wait . " Smells delish mom . " Rylan said to her . Everyone else agreed . Rosetta pulled it out of the oven and sprinkled the toast with powdered sugar . Setting it on the counter she announced that it was ready and everyone could grab a plate . She got her own and sat to down to eat . " Thanks dear . I 'm sure I 'll be loaded with paperwork actually . My inbox is probably overflowing , but I 'm hoping to get through it . At least most of it . Back to school for you . Keep an eye on your sisters okay and . . . " Rosetta smiled at her girls . " Yes I suppose so . Speaking of which , with your birthday approaching and all , I want you two to think about how you 'd like to celebrate it . Okay ? " The family finished the rest of breakfast in silence , each dwelling on their own thoughts and feelings . Rosetta finished first and dressed quickly since her limo would arrive at any moment . As soon as she came back to the kitchen and said her goodbyes she heard the horn . " Well I 'm off to take care of a town . You know my number if you need to call me for anything . I 'm sure I 'll be at my desk . " With that she walked out the door . The school bus wasn 't far behind . Soon enough the house was empty except for David . He let out a big sigh and went about the things he wanted to do this day . Mostly cleaning up and fixing broken things in the house . By noon though , he had to get ready for his gig . ﻿ David left the house at about one o ' clock . On his way to Mick 's Master Karaoke , he actually waved to Rosetta 's limo , which was taking her home , even though he knew she most likely hadn 't seen him . Their timing was off just enough , when David worked , that they passed each other on the streets . Rosetta was always home alone for an hour before the kids started getting home . During that time , she went up to her bedroom and talk to Brenna 's picture . She told her little one all about her day , what she did and what she didn 't do , things she thought of and what she had for lunch , anything , just to talk to her - to feel close to her daughter . At Mick 's , the show was just beginning . David had plans this night . He set up the stage and waited for his show to begin . When the crowd arrived and seemed to be waiting on him , he began . David spent time working his viewers up and asking what they wanted . Everything they asked for , he delivered . He was pretty sure he 'd almost worn out ever trick he had when he heard the timer bell indicating to bring his performance to an end . He gave a shout out to everyone and a very large bow . Then told the crowd that , unfortunately , that would actually be his last show . The crown groaned and a few people offered him two thumbs down . Others , like Layla and closer friends , nodded their understanding and gave him a small smile . After leaving the stage , he moved through the crowd . Many people shook hands with him and patted his back . Everyone stated that it was a wonderful show and they were sorry he was leaving the business . He was told he 'd be missed and that he had set the bar pretty high for other performers . David smiled and thanked everyone . When it quieted down and the fans departed , he pulled out his phone and dialed his manager . All future gigs were canceled and the proprietor paid him handsomely , wishing him a good life . Rosetta was sitting in what had become labeled as ' her chair ' in the living room when Rylan arrived home from school . She smiled at her son and asked how his day was . " Mostly quiet . No one really talked to me , which was fine . The teachers didn 't give me too much homework but I have a little . Actually Prom night is coming up , though I am not sure I want to go . " Rosetta nodded . " I get that . Why don 't you sit here and do your homework . I 'd like you to help the girls when they get home though , okay ? " " Sure momma . " She smiled at the way he still called her that . He 's the only one of her 4 babies that ever did . It was like their special thing . He had finished up just as Caylin and Dayna had walked in . The girls hugged their mother and went upstairs with Rylan to do their own work . Rosetta sat , staring at the pictures on the walls , and waited for David to come home . David came in and grinned at his waiting wife , he wondered how long she 'd been sitting there . He said in a mocking voice , " Honey . I 'm home . " He saw her small smile as he closed the door . " Welcome home . " She stood and pulled him close . " How was your evening dear ? I 'm sure you did splendidly . " David nodded . " Yeah , actually , it was great . Everyone was really thrilled the whole time . That is until I told them that I wouldn 't be doing it anymore . I quit today . " Rosetta was shocked for just a moment . " Oh wow . I 'm sure they were disappointed . " She kissed him then . She wasn 't about to ask him why he quit , or even ask if he thought it a good idea . After all , she had the same thoughts today and kind of wished she had done it too . The following weekend , the girls were enjoying a quiet game of chess . Caylin sighed . " You always win . When are you going to teach me to be better ? " Dayna chuckled . " I don 't know . Why would I anyway , when I enjoy beating you ? " She got a sour look from her sister . " Alright , one more game ? " Caylin conceded with a grin . " I 'll just have to study your tactics . " They had just set up the board again when Rylan came walking in playing his guitar . The songs he had been playing lately were a little more lively than they had been over the last month . Most times he was trying to make everyone smile . Dayna shot him an ugly look . " Do you really have to do that here ? We 're trying to think . You 're distracting me . " Rylan laughed . " Actually I was sent in here by dad . He says to get ready , we 're going to the park for the summer festival . So , put your pieces away and get off your duffs . We 're leaving in ten minutes . " Caylin instantly scooped up her pieces and threw them in the hidden cubby under the playing board . She was excited . Dayna followed suit . Rylan wasn 't far behind , he just had to put his guitar away before leaving . A few minutes later they were all meeting out front . Dayna walked through the living room and was a little surprised to see her mother sitting there , in her chair , reading a book . She guessed her mom wasn 't coming , that made her a little sad . " You 're not coming ? Do you want me to stay home with you ? " She asked . Rosetta looked up and smiled . " Oh no dear , not today . That 's okay though I want all of you to go and have a good time . Eat a snow cone for me okay ? " The four of them arrived at the Summer festival ready to play . As they usually do , everyone ran to the tent to get a family photo of themselves . David had to stop though , and think of how strange it felt that Brenna wouldn 't be in it this time . Neither would his loving wife . His other kids were calling though and he couldn 't let them down . No matter how weird it was . After the picture was taken they each went and grabbed a delicious snow cone and sat down to eat them . For a few minutes they walked around looking at the things vendors had to offer and the different games to play . They thought about doing a hot dog eating contest , just the four of them , but decided against it . They all wanted a funnel cake and needed to save room in their bellies . Back at home , Rosetta was buried in her book . She flipped pages as she scanned or read every word of a book about pushing through the madness and depression of losing a child . None of the other family members knew she was reading such a book . It wasn 't that she didn 't want to share the information learned from it , but she felt as if the others hadn 't been as emotionally scarred as she had been . She felt like she needed more help than they did . It had already helped her enough to get off her bed and go to work a few times this week . At the park , the rest of the family started skating . David remained on the sidelines , just watching . It actually looked to him like it was about time to leave . His kids didn 't seem to be having much fun , they only seemed to be doing things because they were available to do - not because it sounded like fun . They weren 't smiling or laughing , the looks on their faces were dispirited at best . It appeared this trip was having almost the opposite effect he had desired . Perhaps it was not a good idea to allow Rosetta to stay home . They needed her here too , it would feel more normal , more acceptable . " Okay everybody , let 's get some funnel cakes and get out of here . We 'll even take one home to your mom . How about it ? " David asked his children . The kids agreed and rolled out of the rink . Caylin was burning up anyway . In her craziness she had wanted to wear her autumn jacket out to the park today . She was very sweaty and was happy to stop moving around . Rylan complimented Dayna on her spinning , she had gotten a lot better since the last time he had seen her skating . David got 5 funnel cakes at the closest food vendor and bagged them all up to bring home . At least this part of the festival could be brought back to enjoy with everyone . The next Monday , Rosetta went to work , the kids went to school and David stayed home . It was starting to become habit again for this to happen every day . Though David was getting bored at home fast , with not much on his plate to take care of , and he considered getting a part time job somewhere . They didn 't need the income at all , he just needed something to do with his idle hands . Rosetta came home from work and spent some time with him before making dinner . The kids did their homework while she was working in the kitchen . After eating , Rylan , Caylin , and Dayna went to the living room for some fun while their mother and father picked up the kitchen . While drying the dishes David talked . " You know , tonight 's prom night . I guess Rylan decided not to go . He hasn 't said anything about it at all . Maybe he couldn 't find a date ? " " Was it something I said ? " David called after her . " Ooookay . I guess I 'll handle the rest . Maybe talk to myself too . " He smiled in spite of the oddness . Rosetta marched into the living room . " Rylan . " Rylan jerked his head around . Her tone of voice wasn 't quite angry , but very demanding , and curt . It put him on edge . He answered with worriment , " Yeah ? " " What 's this business I hear about not going to prom ? I don 't think so , you 're going to go . I don 't want you siting around here while there 's a school party going on . You might not get another chance to go , you know . You never know what 's going to happen . " Putting up his hand in acquiescence he said , " Alright , alright . Will you call the car for me while I get ready then ? Even though I don 't have a date I guess I could still go . " Rosetta nodded her head . As she watched him walk out she shouted after him , " I 'm sure there will be quite a few girls willing to dance with you ! " Turning back to the living room she saw the girls staring at her . " You two , go take baths and get ready for bed . I love you dears , I 'll be up soon to tuck you in . We can read a book first if you want . " She turned on her heel and headed back to the kitchen to call the car and finish the dishes . Caylin and Dayna looked at each other for a moment as if they weren 't quite sure what they just witnessed . They both shrugged and got up to do what they were told . Rylan was dressed and ready to go just a few minutes before the limousine arrived to pick him up . He bade his mother and father goodbye and they wished him luck . As he walked out , he was still not quite positive of why his mom had reacted the way she did , or demanded that he go . He gave a mental shrug as he climbed in the car and looked around . Inside , Rosetta and David both went to read to the girls and put them to bed . After they were all tucked in and lights were out , the couple went to the living room to sit and spend time with one another . Not to mention wait for Rylan to come home so they could bombard him with questions . " Do you think I was too hard on him ? Or perhaps I should have explained myself to Rylan ? " Rosetta wondered aloud . David shook his head . " Nah . I bet he 'll understand . It was fine . I am sure he 's happy he went . Come here you . " He scooted over a little and pulled her close to snuggle him . Rosetta smiled . " I hope you 're right . I hope he is having a good time and he 's not mad at me for making him go . " David assured her again that he was most likely , in no way , mad at her . When she looked up at him , he kissed her softly . They sat together in silence for a while as they waited for their oldest baby to come home . It felt like not so long ago they had been sitting exactly like this when Rylan was an infant , giggling and squirming right in front of them . To be continued . . . Staring . That 's all I really do anymore . Just stare . Stare at the ceiling , the floor , the walls . Sometimes I do it so long that my eyes start to burn . They are completely out of natural lubricants , I 've cried every drop out . Now I just stare . Today , today 's the worst . We have to lay her to rest today . It really is going to be final . When I got out of bed this morning my legs were so weak that I only made it to the den , no further . There I sat , for what felt like hours , just looking at the pictures surrounding me . So many . So many memories . When I put these pictures up , I never thought they 'd hurt me . The do though , these hurtful sad memories . I should take them down . Look at that one . She was such a cute toddler . Her little green outfit , that one was her favorite . So were those blocks . . . I 've made my way down to the kitchen , drawn by hunger and the family that I know is down here . I 'm not the only one who will need support today . On my way to the fridge I stopped at the window . The trees are green but my mood seems to bring even them to the darker shades . Will the world ever look bright to me again ? Will this unavoidably dark hole that is my heart ever be filled again ? It sure doesn 't feel like it . . . " Honey , you 're not dressed yet . It 's late . " David looked into his wife 's destitute face and frowned , " I know . " He pulled Rosetta into a hug and whispered in her ear , " This is unimaginable and ridiculously hard . We all suffer , just know we are all here , in this , together . Okay ? " " Why don 't you go upstairs and take a warm bath ? " David suggested to her . " People will be arriving soon , before you know it . I 'll get things ready down here as best I can . You go get yourself ready , however you need to . I love you . We can do this , we can . " Tears came to Rosetta 's eyes again as she looked at her wonderful husband . She wished that she had the strength he showed . Subconsciously , not even noticed by her own very occupied mind , her back straightened a little and she stood just a bit taller . Nodding her head , Rosetta gave David one more squeeze before going upstairs . Rosetta did as suggested and ran a very warm bath . It felt good on her skin and helped her brain calm down a little bit . Nearly every thought still revolved around Brenna or how they would go on with life without her . Sponging herself clean and washing her hair , Rosetta finished her bath . As she was stepping out of the tub she nearly slipped because she wasn 't really paying attention . She wrapped a towel around herself and dried off . She blew her hair dry and put it up in a bun . On the bed was the outfit she had pulled out for this bleak day . Rosetta dressed herself and went back into the washroom to apply some makeup . Her eyes were puffy , and though she knew it was expected , she wanted to cover that up as much as possible . As much as she had just ' pampered ' herself , when Rosetta emerged from the bathroom she felt old . ' Worn down ' and ' weary ' would have been words she 'd use to describe herself . Even her outfit made her feel elderly . She gave a big sigh and headed down to the kitchen . Everyone always seemed to be in there anymore . When she entered the dining area , Rosetta first spotted Rylan and David having a fairly muted conversation . David glanced her way as she walked by , when their gaze met she saw nothing but pain filled eyes and a worried expression . Her son , she could tell , had been crying . She frowned but continued her on her path . She had set her mind to making some food for the guests . If she were to stop now , she feared she 'd never get it done . She chopped up the lettuce and added some tomatoes to the Autumn salad . Rosetta placed it all on a serving plate and turned to see father and son embrace and Rylan walked out of the kitchen sniffling a little . Just after Rylan disappeared fEven though it might not have been the best time , Rosetta congratulated Sonia on her pregnancy . That brought on a wave of tears from her friend , which surprised Rosetta a little . " Oh I 'm sorry , thank you . Thanks . I 'm sorry I didn 't say anything , I wanted to , but you 're going through so much right now . Such sorrow . I didn 't want to seem . . . " Sonia 's voice trailed off . She wasn 't sure which word to use . Rosetta was just about to say something when Velina addressed the crowd . " I 've brought a pie with me , would anyone like some ? " Everyone agreed , and the group moved back into the kitchen . Velina served up the pie and silence fell over the room while everyone ate . Rylan finished first and left the room , Rosetta wondered where he was going . Just as everyone else put their plates in the sink , Rylan showed back up with his guitar . " I learned this song recently and well , I 'd like to play it for you . " He had said . Without waiting for agreement , he started playing . All guests gathered around to listen , or sat close by . The notes he played moved everyone to tears again . There may not have been words , but each chord and tune held so much meaning , so much emotion that it affected everyone whether they wanted it to or not . Rosetta couldn 't help but be proud of her son for having learned so fast and for playing so well . She didn 't even know he had gotten so good . Rylan 's song brought the funeral to an end . One by one , guests offered condolences and left the house . Once everyone had gone , Rosetta wrapped Rylan in the biggest hug ever . " That was wonderful honey . Thank you so much . You were perfect . " David , who was nearby , agreed and patted Rylan on the back . Then he looked at his wife . " Honey . It 's time to go . Caylin and Dayna didn 't want to come , so Rylan is staying here to watch them . It 's just us two . " It was almost time to bury the coffin which contained their little girl 's body . Rosetta and David brought her picture with them to the graveyard as they planned on saying their own goodbyes there . The two of them stared for a bit before saying anything . Rosetta cried hard when she heard David softly say " I should have said no to them that morning . " She knew he meant the morning they had all gone to the park . She also knew that David was well aware that none of this was his fault . Survivors guilt was affecting them all it seemed . When David and Rosetta left the cemetery it felt like they were leaving their world behind , and venturing into completely unknown territory . They were both scared , but both knew they were not alone in it . Early one spring morning , Rosetta woke , showered and dressed before heading down to the kitchen for breakfast . The kids were not awake , nor her husband , so she decided to make some French Toast for her family . She was thinking of things to do for the weekend when she felt someone dash by her . When Rosetta looked up , she was startled to see David standing there in front of her - butt naked . " What the . . . " She started , but was interrupted by a kiss . It only took a second for everything she had been thinking to be wiped from her mind . All she could think of now was his hands on her . The rest of his body , still warm from being in bed , pressing up against hers made her head swim a little . He stopped kissing her , but held face close to hers . She concentrated on his lips , they looked as soft as they felt . She yearned to feel them again but instead , he spoke . " I was hoping we could have breakfast in bed . " David said with a grin . Rosetta chuckled lightly . " Mmm , sounds good . I am hungry . " David smiled back and kissed her neck before letting her go , then he strutted off . His wife followed behind him , watching his toned muscles contract , loosen and contract again as he moved . Her eyes drifted from his head to his feet and she suddenly couldn 't wait to have her hands all over him . When they entered their bedroom they locked the door behind them . Rosetta had assistance removing her clothes before the two of them slid between the sheets . The couple proceeded to enjoy a very good morning in each others company . About an hour later , they had taken a quick shower together and went down for an actual food breakfast . Coming into the kitchen for the second time , they saw Brenna eating some leftover waffles from the day before and Dayna standing on one of the chairs apparently making a speech . Dayna had already eaten and was now pretending she was a queen presiding over her royal court . She issued orders to Rosetta to cook her father a meal fit for a king . " Yeah ! You heard the Queen ! " David winked at his wife . " Fire up the ovens . " Dayna and Rosetta both laughed , even Brenna giggled . Rosetta curtsied , " Of course . I 'll get right on that . " She made some pancakes , since she was too hungry to wait for French toast . Rylan and Caylin came in as soon as the food was on the table . " Uh , well . Let me check the weather . If it 's to rain , the answer 's no . Otherwise , I don 't see why not . " Caylin bounced up and down while she waited for him to change the channel . He obliged and looked for a weather update . " Nope , no rain . When do you want to go ? " David rolled his eyes , but smiled . " Yeah , you know , you do . It 'll be good for you . Loosen up dude . I 'll go get your mom . " He stood and left through the back door . Rosetta had just finished taking care of her plants and after washing up everyone left for the park just around the corner . When they arrived , each person went off and did their own things . Rosetta and David spotted a small pond and pulled out fishing poles to see if they could catch anything . They weren 't expecting to , but it sounded relaxing . Both of them actually did end up catching some minnows , but threw them all back . Caylin went off to the slide and happily climbed to the top . She threw her hands up in the air and squealed as she slid down . The giggles from her were heard by everyone , and each of them smiled at the joy she was expressing . Brenna had gone off to sit in the grass and play with her doll . She wondered what it was that triggered her doll to be a real friend , it seemed that whenever she carried it around - it remained a doll . Though if she put it down on it 's own for a bit , it became her real friend . After a while she just laid in the grass and drifted into daydreams . Rylan sat on a swing , just hanging out . As much as he thought he hadn 't wanted to come , he was glad he had . It was a very nice day , and great to get out of the house and breathe some fresh air . Dayna joined him on the set and started swinging right away . She 'd go as high as she could , launch herself off and land on her feet and then do it all over again . Everyone was having such a wonderful time . Each one of the family members had a smile on their face and joy in their speech . Caylin was the first to see it . " Mom ! Check that out ! " She pointed to the sky . She hesitated a moment , " Wait a minute . . . " ﻿ Rosetta had turned to look at what Caylin wanted her to see . She was smiling at something David had just said . That was quickly wiped from her face and replaced by utter terror . Her eyes darted around . " Brenna ! ! Caylin ! ! " She screamed , but she feared it was too loud to be heard and too late for running . A meteor had chosen that moment to strike the planet . When Rosetta had shouted , everyone did hear and turned to see . Each person only had a moment to realize what was happening before they felt the blast of air hit them . Everyone covered their heads to protect themselves from anything else . Most everyone was far enough away to not get hurt by anything . Rylan glanced up toward where the huge rock had hit the ground , and dashed forward when he noticed his sister so close to it . He shouted for Brenna . Unfortunately he wasn 't fast enough . He gasped a breath and covered his face so he wouldn 't see the strike from a huge chunk of debris . He let out a wail . The meteor had struck the more empty area of the public park , but it was not empty enough . Nearby was where Brenna had been laying and day dreaming . She had heard her mother yell and stood to come to her , but she hadn 't been fast enough . When she heard the strike , instinctively she curled up in a ball to protect herself . In all the noise , she heard her brother yell and tried to see him . From out of nowhere a rock hit her , hard . She blacked out and went down , never to come up again . " Oh my simgods ! NO ! " David screamed . The disaster was over , but the true terror had just begun . Rylan was still standing next to the meteor that had caused the death of one of his sisters . He was unable to move , or speak . He just held his hands over his mouth as he stood in shock . Caylin had also been close , and her clothes had been shredded by flying objects . Her body was scratched as well , but mostly she was unharmed . She stood with her mouth open , unable to process what had happened . All she could hear was her father yelling and crying , pleading with Brenna to wake up . Her mother was begging both Brenna and David , unable to control her sobbing . She looked around for Dayna , and found her close - by , crying . What was even worse was what Caylin saw at her sister 's feet . It was Brenna . Something wasn 't right though , she was just a foggy image of her normal self . Caylin watched as Brenna tried to stand , and when she finally rose , she faded from sight . Caylin let out a breath of despair , she just knew that had been her sister 's ghost and that she had now been taken from them forever . David knelt by the now lifeless body of his once smiling daughter . He fought his tears so he could concentrate on what he was doing . His hands shaking , he checked for a pulse . Nothing . More blood than he ever cared to see in his life was staining the grass beneath her . He tried breathing life back into her . Nothing . He sobbed , unable to control it any longer . Involuntarily he shook his head as tears dripped from his cheeks . Close - by he heard a heart stopping wail , it was coming from his wife . Rosetta had been watching her husband work on their little girl and saw the ineffective attempts at bringing her back to them . When he shook his head like he did , she recognized the slump of his shoulders to mean it was not going to happen . She screamed until all the breath was expelled from her lungs . Then she fainted . She fell face first onto the grass , causing David to jump to his feet and run to her . First he checked her pulse , she had one and it was strong enough . Not really knowing what else to do , as he was a magician and not a medic , he glanced over his shoulder looking for his son . His heart shattered again when Brenna 's body drifted into view , but he called out for Rylan to call the police . Rylan did as he was asked , though he wasn 't sure what to say . David 's attention went back to trying to wake his wife . It wasn 't long before police cars and ambulances arrived on the scene . The EMT 's worked fast , but knew the little girl was DOA . A policeman was asking David questions about what happened while the EMTs checked over Rosetta . She was just unconscious but they loaded her on a stretcher and placed her in one ambulance headed for the hospital with lights flashing . The other ambulance was loaded with the small child and pulled out for the hospital too , though no lights or sirens were going . The police escorted the three remaining family members to the hospital as well . David , Rylan , Caylin and Dayna were told to sit in the waiting room as they looked over Rosetta and did what they could for her . A coroner approached and apologized about the situation . " I 'm sorry . Sir , your daughter didn 't make it . " David 's heart sunk to the floor , even though he had known this fact , someone else saying it made it even more final . The man continued , " Her body is here for now , but we need to make arrangements to have her picked up . I 'll give you some cards to look through at your earliest convenience . They are for funeral homes in the area . I 'm so sorry for your loss . " David reached out and took the cards . His brain was foggy . It took everything he had to stand there and face this man telling him these horrible things . " What about my wife ? " He asked . The coroner shook his head , " I don 't know but I 'll have someone give you an update as soon as possible . Again , I 'm so sorry . " David nodded his head and sunk into the chair he had claimed . His children surrounded him and collapsed in his lap , on his shoulder and at his feet . They were all crying . After Rosetta had woken and been looked over , she and the rest of her family were advised to go home . It was the last thing they wanted to do , but they could do nothing where they were . So they went . Rosetta went straight to her room and collapsed on the bed , drifting into misery . David wasn 't sure what to do . Rylan , Caylin and Dayna were unsure as well . They followed their father . He paced around , trying to sort through the thoughts and emotions in his head . Sometimes he 'd stop and stare out the back door - in the direction of that park - for long periods of time . Rylan didn 't know how to go about his day either . He 'd try and do things , only to find himself staring at nothing , zoning out . He would always go back to his father thinking he would ask what to do , or if he could help . The moment he saw his heart broken dad though , his mouth dried up and refused to speak . Dayna felt empty inside , something was missing from her and she could feel it . A space left unfilled would remain in her heart . She felt horrible that she hadn 't played with Brenna more often , or believed her when she talked about her ' imaginary friend ' . Dayna stuck to Caylin more than ever before , hardly ever leaving her side . Caylin 's heart was heavy . She replayed that day in her head over and over . Eating breakfast with mom and dad , begging to go the park . It was her idea . She should have never asked . Why did she want to go ? She felt it was all her fault and she would never get past this . No matter how hard she tried . ﻿ My life is over . My baby , my baby girl . What happened ? Why ? I don 't know what to do , how will I ever get out of this bed again ? I feel like my heart 's been ripped from my chest . There 's nothing there anymore . She 's gone , that 's what they told me . I woke to a nightmare . She 's gone . I didn 't even get to hug her one last time . Just yesterday I worried about you spending so much time alone . Now you 're more alone than ever . How can I help you now ? My body aches , I 've got nothing left . I don 't want to move , ever again . I feel David lay beside me sometimes . He cries . It hurts me more to feel and hear him this way . I need to help him too , and Rylan , and the girls . I just can 't . I don 't have it in me right now . There 's nothing left in me . You had only just begun . Your story ended too soon . Would you have gone to college ? Met a great guy ? Would you have been a doctor ? An investigator ? I 'll never know . It 's not fair . You shocked me when you came into this world and have ruined me by leaving it . I can 't believe you 're gone . What will your sisters feel ? How can I help them ? Will I ever be able to ? I 'm reminded of that movie " Flowers in the Attic " when one of the twins died . Back then I could never imagine how they felt . It was so sad . Now I know , I don 't even have to imagine , and it 's horrible . A few days have gone by . Rosetta finally was dragged off her bed by hunger . She had lost a few pounds by ignoring the hunger pains for so long . Stress and sadness have elongated her face and have driven early wrinkles into her cheeks . The house has turned unkempt . There are piles of dirty clothes everywhere , no one wants to wash them . Dishes from the morning of the disaster still sit upon the table . No one wants to clean them up . Rosetta 's beloved plants suffer from lack of attention . Some have died completely . She doesn 't care for them anymore . No one seems to want to go back to a normal life . The girls won 't sleep in their room , they 're too uncomfortable without their sister . They 've packed up their favorite toys and moved into their David did call one of the funeral homes and made the necessary arrangements . The funeral was in one day . No one was ready for it .