I 've always considered myself very logical . I never put myself into uncomfortable situations nor do I let emotions get the best of me . It wasn 't until today where I felt the stable structure of my mind shift a bit . It was all because of her , I 'm sure of it . I only saw her for a brief moment in the crowded hallway of my school but what I did see was enough to make my heart skip a beat . She was of average height , standing at what appeared to be 5 ' 4 " . With each step she took , the curls in her short brown hair would bounce ever so slightly , as if they were in a renaissance dance . The purple frame of her glasses reflected the light of the fluorescent bulbs in the ceiling , giving off a faint yet distinctive glow . Behind the glasses were eyes of the softest shade of brown that could warm the heart of the coldest and most calculative of men . The bright floral pattern of her dress stood out from the crowd of bland and unoriginal styles , beckoning my eyes to fall upon the goddess - like figure the tight fabric was covering . Her head turned in my direction and she flashed me a welcoming smile , showing off her perfect white teeth . In the same amount of time I saw her , she disappeared from my line of sight . I looked behind me to see if I could find her again but she was gone , probably somehow blending in with the crowd . I haven 't been able to think of anything since , which explains this journal entry . It 's amazing to think that it took this girl only one second to destroy the mental barriers I set up to keep everyone out . She was able to enter my mind with ease and infect the temptation - free psyche of my brain . I must know more about this girl . A person with that much of an effect on me must surely be worth my time . Over the course of the last few school days , I 've been able to learn more about the girl from a while ago . Her name is Helena and by how others treated her while we were talking , it didn 't seem like she has any friends . Other students would point in our direction and would laugh while others gave us weird looks . Helena told me this was because she had recently moved into town and was the new student of our school . I don 't have friends because I find that they only get in the way of my studies . However , Helena seemed … different . She and I are a lot alike so I decided to take her under my wing . At lunch , I brought her to the spot I normally go : a deserted stairwell on the south wing of the school . We sat down and talked about whatever Helena wanted . I tried to ask about where she used to live , but she kept telling me she was uncomfortable with telling me that . All she could say was that her old neighborhood was gloomy with no fun to be had . She has never been in a relationship either , as they would only get in the way of her musical hobbies . That got my attention . She plays the electric bass and has even written a few of her own original songs . What I found interesting was that what she has done is something I 've always been meaning to do . I told her about it and she smiled , saying that she would help me make that dream a reality someday . She then gathered her stuff to get a head start on getting to class . As I got up as well to walk her there , she said she could do it on her own and left , but not without kissing me on my left cheek . As she left , I rubbed the cheek she kissed . My face began to blush and a smile slowly grew on my face . That was the first time in my life that I 've felt like that before . My heart still flutters as I merely write about her and for once , I can 't wait to see someone at school tomorrow . I 'm excited to see Helena again . Helena and I hung out once again at lunch today . We talked about her music and that was about it . She seemed very interested in my views of humanity , as they were similar to her own . Nothing especially exciting happened today other than her kissing me on the cheek again . My attraction to her grows each day , I can feel it . Why is it now that my emotions are suddenly in control of my thoughts ? I told my family about Helena tonight during dinner , as my mother was wondering why I would stare into space frequently . She was happy that I finally found a girl that made me feel amazing . Even my father , who is normally against dating at my age , was pleased to hear that someone at school was able to break down my mental walls . I smiled as I had gotten my parent 's full approval on a girl . Now , I can execute my master plan ; asking her to be my girlfriend . Fingers crossed it 'll go well … Lately , I haven 't been able to write into my journal because I 've been busy spending time with someone ; my girlfriend , Helena . I asked her out on April 21st and she accepted my offer to start a relationship by kissing me on the lips with a passion I 've never experienced before . These past few weeks have opened my eyes to a world I 've never seen or heard of , a world of purity and wonder . My logical ways of thinking have made way for my emotions to take charge . Everyone still gives me odd looks from time to time , probably because I 'm in love with the new girl on the block . This weekend , I 'm bringing Helena over to meet my parents . She 's been dying to meet them since we started dating . I 'm curious to find out how that will go . She 's a fantastic girl so I see there being no problems . Helena arrived at my house shortly after 4 today . I let her into the house and brought her to the kitchen where my parents were . My father was reading the newspaper while my mother was doing work on the family laptop . I attempted to introduce Helena to my parents but all they did was look at us for a brief moment and go back to what they were previously doing . I asked my parents to at least greet our guest but they simply ignored me . Unfortunately , this always happens when I have friends over . When I was a little kid , I would invite some friends over and my parents ignored us for a while until they finally decided to talk to the guest I brought over . I turned my back on my parents to bring Helena to my room but my mother began to talk to us . " Oh ! So you 're Helena ? " she said in an energetic tone of voice . " Our son has said so much about you . He 's a keeper , I 'll tell you that much . Just make sure he washes his face every day . He doesn 't do that too often . " My father always makes jokes like that whenever I bring friends over . I rolled my eyes as Helena laughed a little more . She said that she came on her own free will and wanted to meet them . After that , I brought Helena to my room where we got the chance to talk to each other alone . We had a good conversation despite the fact that we could clearly hear my parents talking to one another from the kitchen . Sadly , they weren 't saying very positive things . After having Helena over for dinner a few more times , my parents still insisted on continuing their dumb little joke . Helena still didn 't seem to mind but I was very annoyed . However , today was different . When I got home , my parents were sitting in the kitchen waiting for me . They asked me to sit down so they could talk to me about something rather important . My mother told me that they 're only saying this because they care about me and want what 's best for me , which is the same line she always uses before talking about something serious such as my anti - social behavior or the fact that they thought I was a drug addict . My father cut her off , saying that they wanted me to break things off with Helena . I stood up in disbelief . How dare they say I end things with the love of my life ! My mother told me to sit down so they could explain themselves . Reluctantly , I followed her orders . My father told me that they didn 't want me to be dating a bad influence . He went on to explain the fact that they have noticed odd habits that have started to develop in me . He told me that since we 've began to see each other , I 've been starting to talk to myself in a mumbled tone from time to time . The more disturbing part is that the mumblings are always about Helena . They think that she 's doing something to me , possibly having me ingest drugs without my knowing and turning me into a nervous wreck . I told him that Helena would never do such a thing and that we love each other . My mother told me that she understands where I was coming from , but she continued to say that this kind of relationship isn 't healthy for me . I stood up and told my parents the way I saw it ; I am in a relationship with the girl of my dreams and nothing they could say would change that ! I stormed off to my room and have been here since . To them , this all probably sounds like mumbling . To Hell with them , for all I care . I 'm beginning to notice a few things that have been happening to me recently . Not only do my hands twitch occasionally but I feel like I 'm losing myself somehow . I have a tough time finding the right words to use every so often . I 'm sure it 's nothing too serious ; I probably just need some sleep . To my parent 's dismay , I 'm still with Helena . However , they 've seemed to have gotten more accepting to the concept of our love . I 'll take whatever straws I can grab at this point . Today , they even offered to drive me to Helena 's for the day . Apparently , my mother talked to Helena 's parents and they wanted to see me today . I smiled faintly ; pleased that my parents are over the fact that Helena could possibly be a " bad influence " . They dropped me off in front of a lovely little home in the middle of a suburban neighborhood . The house was white with dark blue borders around the door and window frames . It was almost painful to look at , as the bright white shade of the door and house almost blinded me . My eyes readjusted so I could look at the house and see all of the details . It was a cozy two - story house , with enough space to hold four family members . Perhaps Helena had siblings she never told me about . I walked up to the house and knocked on the door . A few moments later , an older man answered the door . He appeared to be in his mid - fifties , his hair graying and his face sporting a fatherly mustache . He wore a plaid button - up shirt that was tucked into his jeans . He looked at me and gave me a friendly smile . " Ah , you must be Martin Watson ! It 's a pleasure to meet you , son ! " he said as he shook my hand violently . He let me into the house , telling me that Helena was in her room , which was the last door to the right down the hallway . I was on my way to her room when something came out of the bathroom and wrapped their arms around me , shouting " BOO ! " I jumped and was scared until I realized my assailant was none other than Helena . She looked at me while laughing , saying that I am such a " scaredy cat " . I turned around and began to play fight with her and we came to a truce with a tender kiss . Nothing important truly happened until we sat down and ate dinner . Four plates were set out on the round wooden table ; one for Helena 's father , one for her mother , one for her and one for me . They served a make - it - yourself burrito dinner because Helena is a vegetarian so they had a separate bowl for the meat . That would explain why she didn 't eat much when she would come over . Her mother had long curly hair , which is where I assume Helena got hers from . Some of her black bangs covered her large eyeglasses , which distracts you from the slight wrinkles forming on her face . She was slightly shorter than me but she had a big enough voice to compensate for that . She sat across from me and Helena 's father was to my left . It was quiet until I began a conversation . I nodded politely and took a bite out of my burrito . Those were some intense jobs for seemingly ordinary people . I began to tell them about myself ; my commitment to school among other things such as my family . Helena 's mother asked me to talk about my relationship with her daughter . I was a bit taken off guard . Did Helena really not talk to them about me ? That couldn 't be it , since her father knew exactly who I was when he answered the door . Shaking it off , I began to explain to her my relationship with Helena . " It 's wonderful . To be honest , she is the reason I was able to tear down my mental walls . She 's a great listener , she cares a lot for me and she accepts me for who I really am . " I took Helena 's hand in mine . " She 's the best thing to have ever happened to me . " My parents have been asking how Helena and I have been . I keep telling them that we 're doing great but every time I do , they seem disappointed . Maybe it 's just my mind messing with me . They 're my parents and they want to see me enjoy myself . It would make no sense for them to be disappointed that my girlfriend and I are doing well . It must be my mind playing tricks on me . Helena 's parents invited me to dinner . It was very nice of them , that 's for sure . While eating , they asked me how Helena and I met . I told them that we first saw each other in the halls on April 12th , which Helena said happened to be her birthday . We only exchanged glances though , I told them . Her father seemed very interested and her mother simply smiled sweetly and nodded . I took Helena out on a date night today . I brought her to the restaurant my parents always took me to when I was a kid . She seemed to enjoy it a lot . We shared a cheese pizza and it was delicious . She also looked amazing today , wearing the same dress she wore on the first day I saw her . It was a wonderful night and I 'm glad I got to spend it with a wonderful girl . My mother heard me talking to Helena today while she was over to see me for a while . She walked into my room and saw the two of us sitting on my bed talking about whatever was on our minds . She only looked at us for a few moments before bursting into tears and running out of my room . After Helena left , my father asked for me in the kitchen . He told me that I had to end things with Helena as soon as possible since it 's been upsetting him and my mother . I looked him in the eyes and said that it wasn 't going to happen anytime soon . He demanded I do but I retaliated by questioning why he was asking me to do this . He stopped mid - sentence and sat down in his chair silently . He said that he couldn 't say and told me to go to my room . Just what was that all about ? Why did he stop himself ? This doesn 't make any sense . Things haven 't been adding up lately . Today was our first day back to school . I met all my new teachers and I met up with Helena in the halls . We were talking about our new classes when other students began to mock us . They weren 't even hiding the fact that they were . They pointed and laughed at us . After a whole lunch hour of constant teasing , I finally had enough . I stood up and smacked the kid leading the taunting across the face with my fist , knocking him to the ground . Everyone looked at us in shock and I began to yell at the student I just hit . I grabbed Helena 's wrist and stormed out of the cafeteria where we were having lunch . When I got home from school , my parents demanded to know why they got an email explaining that I got suspended from school for a week . I told them it was because people were making fun of Helena and I during lunch . I went to my room and slammed the door . I 'd rather stay home anyways than go to school again . I 'm beginning to get very concerned about Helena . Lately , her mood has been shifting constantly . One day she 's her normal self , the next she 's quite sad then the day after she 's very upbeat . She never had these mood swings before so why has it been happening all of a sudden ? She didn 't begin to show odd behavior until the day I met her family . Perhaps that has something to do with it . Do her parents not like me or something ? Whatever the case may be , I want Helena to be happy and I 'll do whatever it takes to do just that for her . I went over to Helena 's house as a surprise today . She seemed much happier but maybe it was the fact that I came over without her knowing . I gave her six roses to represent the amount of months we 've been together . She put them on her desk and hugged me tight . She then released herself from my grasp and ran down the hallway , giggling to herself . I followed her around the house and eventually made it to her father 's office downstairs . I didn 't know where Helena went off to and I thought she may have hid herself somewhere in there . I began to look for her . There weren 't many places to hide but I checked each spot and I couldn 't find Helena . However , I did notice multiple sheets of paper on her father 's desk . Most of them were irrelevant , like family reminders and grocery lists . What interested me the most was the notepad next to the keyboard for the computer . I picked it up and flipped through the pages . It appeared to be filled with notes concerning something for his work . I began to read some of them : We 've been conducting more interactive experiments rather than observing . We won 't get anything done by standing around and watching . We need to get more involved with the subject . Otherwise , our whole cause will be wasted . " Funding for our research is gradually decreasing . The ones who asked us to start this project aren 't seeing results fast enough and are growing impatient . If they don 't get what they want soon , I fear our research will have to end . We need to get results as soon as possible . " I would 've read more but I heard Helena 's father walking down the hallway . I put the notepad down and ran out of the office as fast as I could . Fortunately , he didn 't see me . I saw Helena waiting for me on the top of the stairs . She smiled and extended her arms towards me , pulling me in close for a hug . Even though I wanted to , I didn 't tell her about what I saw in her father 's office . I didn 't want to worry her . More strange things have been happening to me . I 've become more anxious and jittery , something that has never happened to me before . Not only that , but my parents have noticed me sleepwalk and heard me have nightmares from their room . The worst part of all this is that those nightmares and sleepwalking incidents have all been about the same thing : Helena . I don 't tell them that detail though , as it will only make them want me to end things with her sooner . I approached my parents today about my night terrors . I thought it was about time they knew what was going on . They seemed to be worried yet understanding . They asked if they could help in any way and I told them what they could do : Helena 's father is becoming more and more stressed lately . When you ask him about what 's wrong , he says that it 's nothing . He doesn 't know that I 'm aware of the reason he 's become upset ; his lack of finances for whatever he 's doing at work . I keep my mouth shut , however . I don 't want to upset anyone by letting that information slip out . Besides , Helena seems to have enough to worry about , with her mood swings and such . I took Helena on a surprise date tonight . With all the crazy things going on lately , we needed to get away and just spend time together . I packed my backpack with dinner and a blanket so we could have a picnic in the park and go star - gazing . Long story short , it was an amazing night . Though I don 't think any of those stars could compare to the shine in Helena 's eyes . Helena came over unexpectedly today . She showed up and wished me a merry Christmas and even though there wasn 't any mistletoe , she brought me in close for a kiss . She didn 't bring a present and she felt bad for not being able to give one to me . I told her she didn 't have to get me one , since her being with me is a gift all on its own . She smiled , kissed my cheek and walked home . I was about to invite her in but I guess she had other things to do with her family today . After all , it is Christmas . I do appreciate her coming to visit , though . It really made my day even better . I went over to Helena 's house today . She said she needed some comforting because she felt terrible so I made her tea and cuddled with her on her bed . She curled up close to me and we sat in silence for a good ten minutes or so until she finally said something softly . I sat up in horror . Someone was traumatizing her ? That would explain the mood swings that she 's been having . Those must have been a result of her being tortured by these people . If that 's the case , then … those entries in her father 's journal could be about her ! She continued to talk . " Every room in this house has been bugged with microphones and cameras . They see everything we do and hear everything we say . They were set up a few days before you first came over . I didn 't tell you because I didn 't want you to be scared . Please forgive me but I had to keep this a secret from you for your own good . " I felt myself begin to choke up . Why didn 't Helena tell me this before ? Was there more information she was hiding from me ? I fell to my knees and did something I haven 't done in years : I cried . Helena knelt down and held me , telling me everything would be okay . I didn 't believe her but I guess have to for now . I have been getting more and more paranoid lately , regardless if I 'm in Helena 's house or not . I constantly look behind me when walking down the street and get anxious when strangers get close to me . It 's getting harder for me to sleep at night because I fear someone is staring at me , watching my every move . This is driving me crazy ! I need answers and I need them now ! Helena 's father has been getting less stressed . However , he is getting more worried . At the dinner table , he had to leave because he " didn 't feel well " . His work must be catching up to him , I guess . I waited until after dinner to go to his office to see what was going on . Sure enough , I found more information in his journal . " Our suppliers are getting anxious . They say we aren 't doing our job well enough . To Hell with them , I say . They can do their own damn experiments and see what 's at stake for themselves . " " I 'm worried that someone has been going through my notes . They seemed to have been moved somehow when I went to check on something in the house . If someone else knows about what we 're doing , this could mean the end for our research . " I began to look around me . This entry must have been made the day I found his notepad . I hoped he didn 't know I was here . I had to keep reading and see if I could find anything else . " It appears that the subject is still in its own little world . This whole time we 've been trying to make it snap out of it yet it doesn 't listen . It seems we 've gone in a circle and are back at the beginning . " " The subject is getting fearful . It seems to be getting more self - aware of its situation and is beginning to isolate itself from us . We need to gain its trust again somehow . If that doesn 't work , we 'll have to resort to more … drastic measures . " I couldn 't believe it . Helena 's father is conducting some kind of sick experiment that is completely classified to everyone else . I felt bad for the subject . Its life may be at risk just so Helena 's father can keep a job . I 've been thinking more about the last few note entries I 've read from the notepad , along with what Helena said to me around a month ago . When I can 't sleep , it 's all I think about in a struggle to piece everything together . Thinking about the dates that the journal entries were entered , along with the days I found information for myself and the things Helena told me , then that should indicate … no , that can 't be right . They must have some sort of meaning . Wait , could Helena be the subject ? I mean , the dates seem to add up but there 's no evidence that it 's her . Regardless , maybe I should talk to Helena about it . She might have more answers than me . I told Helena everything I knew about the cameras , her father and the experiments . She simply laughed and seemed amused . She told me that there is no way her father is behind the plot to get rid of her , as that would be ridiculous . I needed to show her all the things I found in her father 's office but her father has been staying at home for the past while instead of going to work and there 's no way I can get to his office without the possibility of getting caught by him . I need to wait for now and gather more evidence . I merely shook it off like I was making a joke . I got the flu yesterday but the symptoms hit me hard this morning . Both my parents had to go to work today , which meant I was home alone to take care of myself . It was bad enough I was sick but now I had to make sure I didn 't get in even worse condition . What a big task , it seemed like . It was around lunch time when I heard a knocking at my door . I gathered enough energy to answer it and saw Helena smiling wide at my doorstep . My spirits were lifted and I felt a little better . I let her in and she said she heard I was sick . I didn 't mind at all . On the top slice of bread was a big heart carved into the burnt spot . I smiled and told her she did a great job . I began to eat my lunch as Helena sat next to me and cuddled close until it was time for her to leave . I went to school today and I didn 't see Helena at all . Usually we meet up so we can have lunch together but she wasn 't at our usual spot when I went to check . Hopefully she didn 't catch the same illness I did . After her being absent at school for a week or so , I finally saw Helena today after school . It was like my heart leapt out of my chest when I found her . I ran and gave her the biggest hug I 've ever given anyone in my life . She giggled and said that she only went away for a week . She didn 't understand how much I missed her . I don 't think she ever will . I love her so much and the last thing I want is to be away from her . I got invited to dinner by Helena . I joyfully accepted and we had a fantastic dinner at her house . After the meal , I snuck my way downstairs to her father 's office to see if I could find more information about his " experiment " . However , he was already down there , talking on the phone with someone . I hid behind a corner and eavesdropped on the conversation . " I know it 's taking longer than expected , but this is a serious case … yes , I 'm aware of how long it 's been going on for … listen to me , okay ? If the subject learns about what 's going on too quickly … no , I will not stop saying ' subject ' , it 's the appropriate term … regardless , if it learns all the information at once , that will cripple its psyche , and in turn … * sigh * . I understand . We 'll discuss the plan of attack soon . Talk to you then . Good day to you . " He hung up the phone and I hurried my way up the stairs . Who was he talking to ? Whoever it was , it must have something to do with the wiretaps in the house . I must learn more . Helena has been acting very strange . I 'll be talking to her and sometimes she won 't even reply . She 'll look at me with a glazed look in her eye , standing there without moving a muscle . This is happening very frequently and I 'm getting a bad feeling about it . Perhaps she really is the subject her father has been talking about . Maybe this odd behavior coincides with the experiments he 's doing . Only one way to find out , I guess . Helena asked me if I wanted to stay the night at her house . My parents allowed it and I got my things ready to go to her house . After a usual dinner and some cuddling in her room , we got ready for bed and Helena fell asleep next to me , her arm resting over my chest . I could only lay there ; I couldn 't sleep knowing that someone was watching us . Ever since Helena told me that there were cameras everywhere , I 've been weary of what I do everywhere I go , her house especially . Looking to see if Helena was fast asleep , I snuck my way from her room to downstairs , where her father 's office is . I opened the door silently and noticed that the computer was on its screensaver and the lights were on . He must have gone to the bathroom , I thought to myself . Looking around , I couldn 't find his notebook . I began to search frantically for it , as he may have put it in a hiding spot . While searching , my arm nudged the mouse of the computer just enough to boot it up . I looked at the monitor in horror . On the screen were multiple different video feeds of what seemed like the inside of a house . I didn 't think much of it until I saw the disturbing truth of the matter ; one of the feeds showed Helena sleeping peacefully in her bed . As I looked at the feed , my mind began making conclusions for itself . There 's no way she could be the test subject , right ? She even said herself that her father could never do terrible things to her … or could he ? I didn 't have much time to react as I heard a toilet flush from down the hall . I ran out of there quickly and returned to Helena 's room , to make it look like nothing happened . I made it look like I was sleeping even though I couldn 't , knowing that a twisted man was watching his own daughter sleep at night . I began to think of a way I could tell Helena everything about her father and have her believe me . Unfortunately , I can 't go up to her saying , " Your father watches you sleep at night , " without looking like a complete lunatic . Even with this in my mind , I set it aside as it is Helena 's birthday soon , in five days in fact . If I want to give her the best day ever , I 'll have to tell her after April 12th . That way , my assumptions are kept away from her long enough for her to enjoy her day . As an early birthday present , I brought Helena to where our first date was . We ordered the same thing , a cheese pizza , and had an amazing time . She looked absolutely beautiful , taking my attention away from the world and leading my eyes to meet with hers . She sweetly smiled and began to speak . " Hey , it 's the least I could do , " I replied . " I mean , you have managed to spend almost a year with me after all . " She laughed at my remark as she put her hand in mine and held it tightly . " In all seriousness though , " I continued . " You do deserve it . You 're the best girl I know and I couldn 't ask for anyone better than you , Helena . " She smiled and blushed , making her face glow a bright shade of red . It was adorable . Heck , everything about her is adorable . " No other guy would have ever done this for me and it 's so great that you did , " Helena said softly . " I 've had an amazing time with you tonight and in our relationship as a whole . I love you so much , Martin . " My eyes began to mist over as I used a napkin to clear my vision . I can 't believe I 've almost spent a year with this wonderful girl . I love her with all of my heart and soul and in two days , I will get the chance to show her just how much she means to me . I made my way to Helena 's house at around noon . I became very nervous , as I didn 't want to mess up her special day . My parents went to work in the morning so I had to take a bus to her home . When I finally made it there , I put her present under my arm and knocked on the door . What caught me off guard was that the door was already unlocked and slightly open so when I knocked on it , it opened all the way . Cautiously , I entered her house and called out to see if anyone was home and if everyone was okay , just in case it was a robbery or something . I heard Helena 's father call back , saying that everyone was in the kitchen . I quickly took off my shoes and ran up the stairs . When I entered the kitchen , I saw some people I wasn 't expecting . Sitting at the dinner table were Helena 's father and mother , but across from them were my parents . I thought they were at work , but perhaps they wanted to surprise me by coming out to celebrate Helena 's birthday . I greeted everyone and asked where the birthday girl was . My body tensed up and I became very worried . What happened to her ? My father asked me to take a seat at the head of the table . In shaky movements , I pulled out the chair and sat down , anticipating terrible news . " There 's something you need to know , Martin , " Helena 's father began to speak with a strong voice . " You were brought here for a … specific reason . It was so we could watch your interactions with Helena . We had to keep it a secret as to not startle you , and … " " What are you talking about , old man ? " I lashed out . " You mean this whole place was just a cell for Helena ? Just what the Hell is going on here ? ! " " Tell me what , Mom ? That Helena was just an experiment ? That her family only saw her as a test subject ? Mom , don 't you know that this research was funded illegally ? " " We were the ones who funded this research , " my father said sternly . " It was for your own good . " He lowered his head , staring at the ground . My eyes began to drown in the tears streaming down my face . My own parents … funded the research that harmed my sweet Helena ? " You 're the … you 're the … ones who gave him the … the money to … to hurt … Hele … Helena … ? " I could barely form a sentence without choking up , each word becoming a struggle as my throat tightened . I can no longer see as my eyes are clouded by the tears forming in my eyes . " There was a specific reason for it , Martin , " Helena 's mother replies . She knew too ? Was I the only one unaware of this plot ? I began to try to pull myself together and listen to what these people had done to Helena . " We had to make you come visit this experimenting home . It was the only way we could get sufficient data to work with . These experiments could help many others suffering from the same thing , Martin . Helena had to go , to make sure you and others will be safe . " Suffering from the same thing ? Helena never told me about anything like that . No wonder she was always so happy ; it was to mask the fact that she was a goner from the beginning . What she said to me two days ago ; that must have been a final good - bye . I felt myself tearing up again and an unbearable pain formed in my chest . It felt like my heart was torn out of my chest , leaving nothing but an empty hole where it once was , where Helena once resided . " This here contains all the data taken from our research . I think this will do a better job at explaining the whole story rather than hearing it from us . Please give it a look , Martin . "