Hello everyone, welcome to another Nox Fiver live video. Today I am out at this park and yes in this one we're gonna be talking about what the narcissist will do in the end. Because yes, it is a guarantee if you were dealing with a narcissist or pretty much any cluster B disorder from all walks of life, from all parts of the world, they're always gonna do the same thing. And what they're going to do in the end is blame you. And it doesn't matter how much you did for them. It doesn't matter how many years you were loyal to them. All of the things you did for them, maybe you helped to raise their children. You did all of these things for the narcissist. You took them on trips, you spent lots of money on them. You did all of these things for the narcissist and they may not have done anything for you in return. But despite that at the end, yes, they're still going to blame you. They're still going to do whatever they can to bring you down.  And the illusion is always present. And they're doing everything in their power to support the illusion. That power comes from you. It comes from you believing in it or not having the power to do anything about it. That is what keeps the illusion going. So of course, when you consider the false character and the illusion, of course, they're going to turn around and blame you. I've said before that a narcissist really has two choices in the end and what they can do is either choose you or choose their false character. And of course, I think we already know they will always choose the false character. They're not going to choose anything else other than that. That is the only thing that they're going to do. And yes, you may want, you may desire that they would choose you over this image, this false character that they've created, but no, they are not going to do that. They will always hold on to the false self. And you have to remember that this false self is invincible. It's perfect. In their minds, there is nothing wrong with it. If you see something wrong with it, there is something wrong with you.  Until everyone that it was all your fault, it was because of something that you did, or didn't do. But in actuality, the reason why they turn around and blame you is because for one thing they fear rejection and abandonment. And on top of that, they fear exposure. The last thing a narcissist wants is to be exposed. That is the whole point of the false character and the illusion. That's why they do that to protect themselves. Because underneath the false character is someone who is underdeveloped, someone who is very emotionally immature. And you may have seen that already when they take the mask off. You will have seen this very immature version of them, which is actually who they are. The one who is always arguing with you, that always fighting, that always blaming you for everything. They've always got a problem with you. The row is on your case. And it's just that side of them you see that is very angry behind closed doors, of course. In front of everyone else they display this false character, which is what you saw in the beginning and you believed that it was real. You thought that was who they actually are. But of course with time you began to realize the truth. You began to realize that in reality they are very different to what they portray to you. In the beginning they came across as very friendly, agreeable and easy going, as though you would have no problems with them. It was like there could be whatever you wanted them to be, whenever you wanted them to be it.  They began to turn against you. And the reason why is because they realized at some point that you were everything that they portray themselves to be. The entire time you were that friendly, agreeable and easy going character. Yes, that was you and they portrayed themselves as that in the beginning to you. They made you believe that they were about that for real.  It reflects back to the narcissist that something is wrong with them, that the false character is not real. So of course when that happens and it goes from the love bombing to the devaluation, the only agenda after that point is to show you and everyone else that you're not who you say you are. That is the whole objective after that. And that is why in the end they enforce the flying monkeys and the smear campaign. They blame you and they try to turn everyone against you to support this false reality. And yes, I have spoken to many clients who have gone through this. When the narcissist blames them in the end and turns their entire family and friends against them, sometimes even the entire communities. And yes, of course, when this happens it's very sad because I speak to my clients and of course I know I recognize instantly. But yes, they are telling the truth about the entire social circle.  But a few stories where they stalk the victim, they show up at their home, at their work, they follow them to the shop, they do all of these things. And yes, it's very sad. This is just typically how it goes with narcissists. Never underestimate a narcissist. They would happily turn the entire world into an illusion, into a false reality. They would happily make everyone fake so that they blend in, so that no one can trace it back to them. And of course that is the whole point of why they always blame the victim. And yes, in every situation the victim is just further victimized by other people. They experience other forms, secondary and tertiary forms of gaslighting from their friends, their family, their social circle, the communities. And by the end of it, a lot of them, they don't even know what is right or wrong anymore. They don't even know who they are, who they were supposed to be. Because narcissists, if there's one thing they do, yes, they distort realities to the point where people can't even tell what is real. Though it's so much work to even find out that no one even takes the time and effort to find out what is real. So yes, this is just typically how it goes with narcissists. I know it's a bit of a touchy topic, but yes, this is just how it is. It's a guarantee that they will always blame you in the end. And there is no way out of that. That is the only way that it's going to end unless you manage to get away in the love-bombing phase. Then there's not much they can do about it. But once you've been with them long enough and it goes into the devaluation, there is no getting out of it after that. Once they have devalued you and they've assigned the parts that they hate about themselves onto you, that is it. Now you are an extension of them, a negative extension. And they will continue to push these traits onto you and to try to get everyone to see you in the exact same way. And yes, there is no way out of that. That is something that is never going to change. And I need you to be aware of that. I need you to know that. Because unfortunately, yes, it is the truth. Once they start to blame you and they've already assigned you to that role, that's it after that. There is no going back. And this can happen in relationships, friendships, even with narcissistic parents. And when that happens, yes, that is pretty much it for life. There really is no going back after that. You can try and get back on their good side again. You can try to feed their ego. But all that's going to happen when you do that. You're just going to end up feeling completely lost. You're going to end up feeling like you're detached from reality. Like you don't even know who you are anymore because narcissistic abuse is a very serious thing. Yes, it will erase you at a core level. It will destroy you in the end. And that is why I preach and so many other coaches preach as well. But once you have become the target, the victim of a smear campaign, and people are turning against you, they're blaming you, and you can't approach it with a logical argument. People are getting very emotional. The only thing you can do after that is just leave. You have got to get away. That is really the only thing you can do because, yes, it is indefinite. I've spoke to many clients and, of course, I've done a lot of research myself over the past five years. And I can tell you that there isn't a single situation where the smear campaign has been turned around and people have began to believe the victim or target over the narcissist. That never happens. And I can pretty much guarantee that it will never happen. Because you have to understand that narcissists, they have a lot of experience. They've done this many times before to a lot of people. They've managed to turn friends, family, social circles, communities against other people before you. And if you paid attention to the things they said in the beginning in the love-bombing phase, yes, you would have recognized that. They've already driven other people crazy as well and turned everyone against them.  They've already had that experience before and it's been very effective. So there isn't much you can do about that. The only thing you can do, as I said, is leave. Yes, that is the only thing that you can do. There is no other way out of it. I don't know, you may think, maybe my narcissist is different. Maybe they will listen to me. Maybe they will change. Maybe the people in my social circle, they've known me for such a long period of time. Maybe they will understand me. No, they are never going to understand you. Because you are the victim. You are the target. And once you have been targeted, you have been victimized and they've done all of these things to you. There is no reverse in that. They've got so many skeletons in the closet. There's just no way back. What can they do about it now? And of course, they know that, they recognize it. That's the whole point, because once they start the smear campaign, they already know they understand that it's gone too far. They know that they've burnt the bridge already. They already know that you're never going to see them in the same way ever again.  Maybe you did certain things which reveal to them that, yes, you're on to them. You know exactly what they're about.  Yes, once you've done that, it's all over. It's too late. There is no going back. And it doesn't matter how great of a supply you were or thought you were to the narcissist. That is completely irrelevant. It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter how much you did for them. They can replace you very easily once you're on to them. Once they fear that you'll begin to expose them. Especially if other people are starting to notice on their own. If other people are starting to recognize that you're being abused. And I've had that in my own experience. Sometimes we would go to restaurants and the narcissist friends or coworkers. They would just notice straight away. They could tell. But it was being abused for a very long time. Like I didn't even smile anymore. I always had my head down. And sometimes they would just come up and say, Yes, they know exactly what's going on. But even when that happens, you could be sure that you will never see those people again. That's how they support the false reality, the illusion.  Anyone who believes that you're not bad, evil, crazy, wrong. Anyone who believes that you will never see them. You will not be able to contact them. They will be too afraid to come anywhere near you. You will never see them. Of course it does depend on just how extreme the smear campaign is. It depends on how powerful. The narcissist you are dealing with is. Because of course, yes, there are some narcissists out there. They don't have too many connections. They're not very influential. They haven't had a lot of experience at millibillion people. So with those types of narcissists, there's only so much they can do. But what I'm talking about is. Malignant narcissism. Even psychopathy. These higher levels of narcissism. Yes, they will stop at nothing.  The lower level narcissist, there's not too much they can do. They will just use you for as much supply as they can. And once you're not working anymore in the way that they might like.  They'll just get rid of you. And they might make the occasional phone call to your job. Trying to get you fired. But they're not going to put too much effort into it. It's only the narcissist who really. You know, they see you as that extension of them. Once they start seeing you as the extension. As this possession, something that belongs to them. Of course, yes, they are going to be extremely controlling. And they are going to do whatever it takes to bring you down.  So yes, you do need to be aware of that. But yes, if you have experienced the end of the relationship already. The narcissist. Blamed you. They turned everyone against you. As I've mentioned in this video, you've just got to leave. That is the only thing that you can do. I know it's very difficult. I can understand. Especially if you spent your entire life in a certain place. You may have had a lot of friends there. A job, all of these things. I know. But seriously. If you are going through. A smear campaign with a higher level narcissist. And it's been going on for some time already. Trust me, that is never going to end. It's always going to be like that once they see you as an extension. As this possession. Because that already means that. They don't even see you as a real person. They don't even see you as a separate human being. And that is why they will. Dehumanize you. They will do everything in their power to bring you down. Because. Yes, they see you as less than a person. They see you as just an object. And once they see you as that. There is no going back. I mean, with narcissists, they're only ever going to see you as that anyway. But it just doesn't happen where someone objectifies a person. And then later they see you as a real person. That never happens. Yes, they may try to manipulate you and make you think that. Suddenly now. Yes, they've had this epiphany. They recognize all of these qualities in you. And they're so sorry they mistreated you all of that time. All of those years. Don't believe it. It is a lie. People do not change. Contrary to common belief. It may appear as though someone has changed, but actually. They were that way the entire time. They were always like that. People can be very good at wearing a mask. Maybe they think that who they actually are. Is not appropriate or not welcomed in certain situations. But that doesn't mean that it isn't actually who they are. Just because they hide it. Like narcissists, they wear a mask. That does not mean that that's who they actually are. As we know, that's not them at all. Narcissists are very different to how they portray themselves. As many of you will know. And that is why these smear campaigns can be so powerful. Just remember in the beginning how they managed to manipulate you. You spent all of these months or years with them. And they lied to you. They future faked. They made you believe in this possible future with them. Where you would get what you want. Yes, they did a good job at manipulating you. And you've got to think just how powerful that is. For their flying monkeys. When they're manipulating them. They're very good at selling a dream. And making people believe something that isn't true. But for you, you had a completely different role with a narcissist. You were the victim, the target. Flying monkeys are typically narcissistic as well. They often have at least one cluster B disorder.  I started to wake up. I started to realize what was going on. It's a completely different situation for flying monkeys. Because many of them are narcissistic. Or they have some other cluster B disorder. So they're never going to have that epiphany. They're never going to wake up because there's no incentive for them to do that. I mean, clearly if someone is going out of their way to target and harass you. That should instantly tell you that they lack empathy. They're self-centered. They're self-absorbed. So they're not concerned about you. And many people think that these types of people, maybe one day they'll have this epiphany. And they'll suddenly change. That's just not going to happen. Not with these types of people. They hold grudges for life. Once you do even one thing wrong, you reject or abandon the narcissist. You threaten to expose them. They're never going to forgive you for that. Never. And yeah, you can let me know down below.  Where anyone can say that once they were blamed by the narcissist, the narcissist came back, forgave them, let go of the grudge. The smear campaign just finished. It was gone. Everything went back to normal. I'm very confident that no one watching this video will be able to comment down below and say that. Because it is indoctrination. It's brainwashing. And believe it or not, but indoctrination and brainwashing is most effective on narcissistic individuals. Because those are the ones who are very gullible. They could be sold a dream and they find it very difficult to let go. Remember, they don't attach properly. So they also don't detach from things as well. It develops into obsessions, addictions. As we know, narcissists always have some addiction. They're all very addicted to people. And aside from that, there's also drugs, alcohol, gambling, shopping, all of these things. So yes, they get addicted very easily. These types of people do because they're missing a lot of things within. They're missing a lot of things within. They lack a strong sense of self. They're literally at the mercy of everyone else. Easily influenced and you will recognize that when you were dealing with them in the beginning, they reflected back to you whatever they thought you wanted to see. And then it was almost like they became that. And then they discard you, they find someone else and create a new identity for them. So, no, they will never see the light. People do not change whoever they are, but that's who they're always going to be. If they're a genuinely good, kind-hearted person, they will typically get better with time. As they begin to learn new things, they have more experiences, they gain more knowledge and wisdom. They will generally get better with time. But narcissists, they get worse with time. They become even more manipulative, even more deceptive and abusive, more bitter and resentful with each failed new relationship. So with time, they only get worse. It's never going to go away. And I do not take any pleasure in saying that. I mean, I wish I could tell you something different. I mean, as you know, I do believe in free will. I believe that everyone has the right to live their lives how they choose. But unfortunately with narcissists, once you've got involved with one, it's really a big mistake.  And I'm sure many of you will regret it. You may wish that you could go back in time and make a different decision and not get involved with narcissists because they get you caught up in all of this stuff. All of these problems, they bring you down. You may have had no problems in your life until then. You may have been fine. But then they pile all of this stuff on top of you. And it's just too overwhelming. You don't even want to deal with anything. I know I've been there. I understand. But this is just how it is. This is just how it's going to be. The best thing you can do is just move on as soon as you can.  Even if you move to other cities or the countries, the narcissists may have friends or family there. And they'll be watching you. They'll be stalking you. They'll be bringing information back to the narcissist on how they can further manipulate you. It's just not going to be better. These types of people, they always get worse with time. Abuses, manipulative people, they always get worse. Well, people like us, of course, yes, we tend to get better with time. And that's also what they're afraid of. Because the more experience we have in life, we start to learn new things. And we just become better people all around. And of course, yes, the narcissist knows that. That's the last thing they want. They don't want to see you doing better without them. That is the last thing they want to see.  And they want you to do what they want you to do. And it's never going to be any different other than that. It's always going to be that way. They're never going to let you be you. They're never going to accept you as you actually are. Because, as I said, they've had a lot of experience with their manipulation. And it's been very effective for them in the past. They've broken people down. They've driven them crazy. They've done all of these things to them. If you listen to them talk about the Rexes, I'm sure you already know that many of them went through a lot with the narcissist. Maybe they were driven insane as well. A few situations where victims of narcissists die. They lose their lives. And in the end they are still blamed for everything. No one ever knows the truth. So yeah, the best thing you can do is just get out as soon as you can. Don't stay in the relationship with the narcissist. And don't let them know that you're on to them. Because that is the biggest mistake you can make. Don't confront them. Don't try to expose them. Because that is automatically what will begin the smear campaign. And I've experienced this so many times. I've experienced multiple smear campaigns. And I've always noticed the exact same thing. When you start to blame them, you confront them. And they already know you're not going to have a change of mind. It's the end for you after that. They're going to blame you. They're going to turn everyone against you and try to get everyone to see you the same way. It always ends the same. With all narcissists from all walks of life, from every part of the world. The only thing they're ever going to do is manipulate you and everyone else. And that is how you should already know exactly what you are dealing with. So yeah, that's really it. This is what they do in the end. Looks like we've got a few trolls in the live chat. As usual. Amazing YT to take off your shirt. I don't think I'll be doing that right now. But yes, this is just how it is with these narcissists. All they can do is manipulate you. And why? It's to get your attention. It's to get other people's attention. They just want people to do what they want. They want to have an influence. They want to have power and control. And that's not always a bad thing. It's just, what are you using it for? I mean, clearly on this channel, on my TikTok, everything. I have a lot of influence. I have power. I have control. I have all of these things. But again, what am I using it for? I'm using this to motivate and inspire people, to change people's lives. But with narcissists, it's the opposite. It's self-serving. They just want to control you for their own benefit. And it's never going to be any different to that. Even when you may think that they're beginning to change, they start to learn more about themselves, their insecurities, all of these things. No, they've just heard you talk about it. They already know what you think is wrong with them. And they look at it like, yes, it would be wrong if someone else did that. Especially if they were to do it to me, but for me to do it, no, that's okay. It's justified. I have a reason, I'm hurt. Life has been so unfair to me, so now I can do whatever I want. Yes, believe it or not, but that is exactly how narcissists think. They believe that the world was against them, life was unfair. So now people owe them the world. Now they get to do whatever they want. It's crazy, I know, but this is just how it is. And you'll never get any compassion or understanding from them. They lack empathy. All they care about is themselves. And unfortunately, as you've probably noticed, this is the reality of the world today. I think it's fair to say that, yes, we do live in a narcissistic world. And to see that, you've only got to look on television, social media, dating apps. It's everywhere. Everywhere you look, you see narcissism. And even just in day-to-day life, you may find that people are not as considerate as they once were. But I'm sure most of you will watch my videos. You're still that type of person who cares about other people. And that's really what I want to promote on my channel. I mean, I know I am just one man. I can't change the entire world, of course. I recognize that, but I at least want to do my part to educate people, to get them to understand the value of empathy. Instead of just going about and only thinking about ourselves. Because yes, there are people out there who need our help. There are people out there who are going through certain situations, they're being abused. And the truth is that most people don't even care. I mean, just look at things if you've ever had to deal with the police or the courts. Because of a narcissist, you won't know exactly what I'm talking about. They always favor the narcissist. A narcissist are often in management positions. They're doctors, they're lawyers, they're therapists. They're the leaders of the world. The elites. Yes, this world has been taken over by narcissists. Which is why I think it's so important to make these videos. And I'm very happy when I see people are watching them. And they're contributing to this channel. Leaving their comments, they're sharing the videos. That's very important. Because yes, it's almost like there's a war going on in the world today. And we need to show people who we are and what we stand for. Which is why again, I advise against confronting or exposing the narcissist and especially trying to get revenge. We don't want to blur the lines of who we are. Because when you do that, it can be very difficult to tell who the good people are. So we must show ourselves by our actions. Show people who we are. Show that we are different. We stand up for different things. And by doing that, I think it will help. I'm not saying it's going to change the world. But we have to do something. We can't just give up. If you believe that something is right, if something is important to you, you must stand up for that. And that's what I do. That's the whole purpose of my work. And I will do that until the day I die. I will never sell my soul. I will never put out anything different to that. It's been my purpose from the very beginning. And it will always be who I am and what I stand for. That's never going to change. So if anyone one day tries to smear me on YouTube or something, and they start telling you all of these things, just remember this. Remember my videos. Remember my message, what I stand for. This is always what I've been about. Love. Loyalty. Trust. Loyalty. Trust and faith. These things have always been important to me. And they will continue to be as well. Which is why I will continue to promote these things for the rest of my life. Until the day I die. That's never going to change. No matter what anyone does to me.  My purpose always comes first. And I'm definitely a man who is willing to die to protect my purpose. I'm definitely a man who is willing to die to do that. It's my mission. It's my job. It's my work. It's what I must do. I hope that I can be an inspiration, a model to you, someone who you can look up to. You can believe in. I'm not saying that I'm perfect. Of course not. I have made a lot of mistakes in my life. But with that I gained experience and I gained knowledge. And I do believe that with time I am becoming a better person and much more wiser and knowledgeable than I was even just one year ago. But yes, narcissists, of course as we know they're never going to be about any of that. They're never going to be about any of that at all.  Just why you must protect yourself. Be very cautious and just continue to watch these videos. Educate yourself. You can book a session with me as well anytime. I do one-on-ones and we can discuss your situation, the things you're going through. I can help you with that. So yeah, that's it for this one. For one-on-one sessions you can book on my website NarcSurviver.co.uk Until the next video please give it a thumbs up, share, subscribe. Let me know your thoughts in the comment section. And I will talk to you soon. Thank you.


I just want to thank also Jacks for sponsoring the conference and not just sponsoring the conference but like being supportive of the London Closurians for a long time, the closure ecosystem for many years now. They're bringing closure to small and large companies contributing to its adoption worldwide. So we can't say thank you enough Jacks for your continued support. Malcolm would like to say a few words. London and the closure community has been really a home to Jacks. It's where we founded and I kind of remember some of the talks that we've given over the years. It was 2012 that we got going really and it's coming into our 10th year and I remember the first Euro closure conference that was held was in London held in May and it's kind of before and I spoke at that and it was a really kind of an inaugural event and we've been kind of doing these December conferences for a long time. I can't remember when the first one was but it's fantastic to see closure evolve and we are as much in love with closure this year now as we always have been. It's been a fantastic language for us and closure has been one of those things I can think of. It truly has been career changing for all of us and the values and the philosophy of Rich Hickey. We've really taken it as a kind of the philosophy of closure right to the heart of the company. We're a real hacker company and lots of challenges ahead. The last year we talked a little bit about the roadmap for this year and I made a little piece where we talked about working on GraphQL and OpenAPI and it was really nice to see this year Joanna showing our GraphQL approach through site on top of the database which was called Crux last year and we've had quite a long year where we've obviously renamed the database as well from Crux to XTDB. Now XTDB is written in closure and it's a team that we are heavily investing in so next year as we're going into 2022 we're going to expand that team and we are really looking for people who are passionate of building a mutable database which is by temporal and we've got a huge roadmap of features and so if you'd like to work on a closure database and get right to the core we'd love to talk to you so do get in touch. Also if you want to work on our client projects we've got three quite significant projects for actually using XTDB, three using site and it's a really kind of growing and evolving platform and we've got some other really exciting closure projects as well with very much open to remote people as well remote applicants and working in different time zones so just yeah do get in touch and this kind of time of year really holds a sort of special place in my heart in a way because I was giving it about nine years ago. There was a closure conference I gave a talk I gave called Chow which was about writing in core logic in Italian English translator and I remember I was in London getting ready for this conference and I got a call that my wife had gone into labour and a few hours later my daughter was born and our daughter was atara and so this year is always kind of a part of the year it's always an anniversary and she'll be nine tomorrow so it seems like a kind of long time in this community but it's a really lovely community I mean I'm really really proud to be part of it as is John and Horkin and many of many of the London Cleodurians so just thanks Renzo for keeping this and everyone who's organised and John and everyone who's been part of the organising of this kind of reboot of this re-closure conference so this is just really a fantastic thing to keep that flame alive in London or it's more than a flame and keep everything going from strength to strength so yeah do come and join us for to do if you want to get involved in our kind of we've got lots of new horizons and in juxtapos lots of things that we're working on to you know that we've we've laid out in our our philosophy and we'd love you to come in and help move things forward and so thanks very much for hearing me out and yeah get in touch thank you very much Malcolm and thank you Jax for your support and thanks to all the other sponsors as well


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Okay guys so today we're gonna start cutting this tank up so we can build our stove. If you haven't watched how to clean this out I'll put an end card at the end of this video and in the description so you can watch that first before you go cutting on these tanks. So let's go ahead and start cutting the hole in this. I've got me a piece of cardboard here and I'm gonna tape it on here this is gonna be for my door. I'm just going to use this as a template. I've got a line drawn across here because there's a weld spot where this tank was put together right here so I know that's perfect so I'm gonna just kind of tape it there and that's why I drew that line across there so I can line it up with that line and it'll be somewhat square. Don't have to be perfect it's just a little stove okay. Now I'm going to trace around this and then we'll cut it out just like this can you see that? Now you get the idea just trace your trace your line because you're gonna want it to be somewhat cut pretty pretty straight you know so your door opens and closes pretty good just like that and then if you want you can fill in where your tape was don't really have to if you're good enough with your grinder you can just slice right across there. Let's get to cutting. Okay guys let's make a little noise now I'm gonna do that all the way around I'm not gonna bore you with it. There's one now we got to make some vent holes down here I think what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna make it like that about that big and I'm gonna make it slide so I can slide over my vent holes something like you know like this but I'll be using stainless steel for that so there's our door now I'm gonna put change my wheel and I'm gonna smooth this all off so it's not so sharp okay and then we'll put a we'll put a hinge on it so we can open it. Alright so we've got this cleaned up kind of rounded the edges a little bit so it's not so sharp got this all cleaned up in here like this now we're gonna put we're gonna put a hinge over here and we're gonna put a little a little handle that'll lock it and we want to make sure it doesn't go all the way in so we're gonna have to come up with something like you know to hold that from going all the way in okay so that's kind of kind of what it's gonna be like right there just like that so that way we can open that up so let me go see if we can find a hinge then we'll go from there. Alright I got some holes marked a couple holes I'm only gonna put two two bolts in each one of these so I'm gonna drill these out I'm gonna try to use a nail as a center punch I don't know if it work but I've got punches in there but they're not center punches. Alright so let me get my drill to remember guys if you're doing this don't worry about if it's not perfectly straight or anything like that if you're gonna be using it if it's a showpiece that's a little different but I don't know about you but I'm gonna be using mine even just for the hell of it sometimes so let's try to drill a couple holes in here now let's change our drill bit I don't know what that sound was it didn't sound good though and put my foot on there just in case let's see if our bolt will fit in there yep do this next one here now I'm gonna have to do the same thing to the hinge I'm gonna have to make two of those holes bigger okay so let's see how they work okay they look pretty good now let's try to make these bigger that's why I need a vise or a drill press if you guys have one you're not using let me know stuck a couple bolts in here and see what we got I've got these a lot of people call a lot of guys come stove bolts okay damn it screens upside down so I'm gonna try to put these in there let's see they're gonna stick out a little bit but I'm not worried about that see I really don't care about that because like I said this gonna be used I've got different bolts in there but I don't like I don't like the looks of them I like these and I'll probably I'll probably cut them off too once I get the get them on here and get them tightened down then I'm gonna do the same thing on our tank here or what's gonna be our stove you know get this up here where it needs to be I'll drill my two holes out now as you can see there's a little bit of a gap there I'll have a little bit of a gap I'm not worried about that gap either okay so let's just get it on here and see how it looks first all right so let me do that and then we'll drill these two holes out and that hole is way off guys way off no biggie let's fix that so that was totally my fault I think the drill walked on me when I started drilling that one and screwed it up but you can see it's not opening real well so I may have to slide them over a little bit more to get this to open okay so let me get that adjusted we'll have our door pretty much on other than the latch I think I'll just slot these holes out that way so I can pull it out some more okay guys so we got the door on all we got to do is put a latch on and the door will be finished and then we'll put our vents down here this gap here will be filled in with some stainless steel so I'm not worried about that so we'll we'll make our latch tomorrow but I think right now we should try it out I mean it's good enough to put a fire in there right let's give that a shot of course I still got to put a stack on this thing but it's gonna go back here because I'm gonna put something across the top so I can cook on this thing whenever I want to fortune won't stay lit but I think it's going enough and of course I still got to make a grate for that so the wood can set on so it doesn't get smothered that's no biggie of course that hole in the top's kind of small so but like I said I'll put a stack a bigger stack you know about three inches in diameter or whatever so that's hot already that's very hot already you got seeing there with all the smoke and bring you over here yeah that's pretty cool then we'll probably put make it make a couple little legs for it or something but it's all in time alright guys I'm gonna let that catch and I'll be back with you in a minute alright guys there it is once we get the vents down in the bottom it'll burn really well down across there and we'll have to get a stack for the top like I said and get put a grate in there so your wood can step off the off the floor but other than that will be good so it's not done yet might be probably a couple more parts to this video but I thank y'all for watching I appreciate it and tune in when I get on to step actually step three right of building this little stove so she better the myth the man legend I'm gone for now guys bye bye take care


Did you know that there are over 2,200 known religions in the world? We are all born into one belief, religion, or faith which influences how we see the world and everything and everyone in it, including ourselves. Do our beliefs divide and separate us, or do they bring us together in greater harmony? When you look up with awe on a star-filled night, do you ask who or what created all of this? Have you ever had a profound or deeply challenging experience in your life that changed your beliefs at the core of your being? Enlightened Pathways takes us on a journey of discovery to understand just how spiritual transformational experiences impact our lives and the world around us. Join us now as we deeply explore all that nourishes, heals, and inspires us. Welcome to Enlightened Pathways. My name is Robert Kabeca and I am your host for today's show. And my special guest today is Tobias English. Welcome Tobias. Hello. Hello. Hey, brother. Good to see you. Thank you for being on the show. Yeah. It's good to see you too. I appreciate your being here. I've known Tobias for about four years when I first moved to Portland, Maine, and he was one of the first few people that I met here, and it's been a wonderful journey getting to know him. We're going to have lots of opportunity to talk about that during the show. Certain that the universe had a specific intention for us to meet because Tobias has significantly enhanced my spiritual journey over the past few years. Likewise. Like what? We're going to get into that. Likewise. It's mutual. Oh, likewise. Likewise. Yes. I thought you said like what? So it's awesome. So let me tell you a little bit about Tobias. He just moved from Portland down to Asheville, North Carolina, which he absolutely loves. He is a autodidact, like me, which means we're pretty much self-taught in a lot of ways. However, he is an accomplished musician and certified in many healing methodologies. He's a licensed massage therapist. He does body talk, health kinesiology, holographic repatterning, and is about to get certified in core transformation as a certified core transformation coach, which is really, really cool. I got certified in core transformation a year ago.  And so, oh, also, yes, I am reading from cards because there's a lot to talk about with Tobias here. And he also has a renewed passion for Advata, which he is going to talk about as well. So welcome, Tobias. Thank you for being on the show. It's so good to see you, Roberto. Yeah. Again, through technology, we're lucky enough to see each other occasionally, even though I've moved away. Yes, indeed. So yeah, we're going to have a great conversation here, and why don't we just get started with just me asking you what kind of religious belief we brought up into, or belief system faith we brought up into as a kid, and what kind of impact that might have in your early life, whatever you're comfortable talking about? Sure. My folks were Protestant, but not particularly observant. We went to church four or five times a year. And I wouldn't say that it was religious, I would say, and there was certainly no real spirituality. Or at least I liked the singing, and I think the rest of my family did, too, the singing in church. But it was like Christmas Eve, Easter, and Thanksgiving or something. Is that kind of what got you or inspired to music at an early age, too? Well, I founded a musician, and I was encouraged slash forced to play an instrument pretty young. I played the trumpet piano for years, and eventually got into guitar, which I would say was thoroughly therapeutic, relaxing to me, even though playing rock and stuff, very healing to play an instrument, I believe. Yeah. Why do you think that was? Well, you know, they say that the people who are improvising on a musical instrument have their brain lit up, whatever that means. That means that it's just a way to relax and experience hearing and creativity and tactile and visual experience all at once, and it becomes a challenge like, oh, how can I perform or what's the best ratio of practicing to performing, getting done in any given practice session? Some people say it should be half and half or something, but. Well, that sounds like something you've explored a lot. We'll circle back around to that, but so after your early years, was there anything that occurred in your life that caused you to either look for a different religion or question the religion that you were being brought up in, even though it wasn't a constant practice? Well, this will be, yeah, when I was 14, I was a bit of a juvenile delinquent. Won't shock you to hear that because you know some of my story, but I took LSD and was like, oh my goodness, my sense of doership, my sense of owning my thoughts or being an entity within this experience was removed. And as I came down, I realized, wow, I'm going to be spending on some level the rest of my life figuring out how to do this organically rather than taking an object into my body around it. I mean, I too remember the experience that I had the first time I experienced the results of a substance at a very young age as well. I was about 14 as well. And it changed my life, unfortunately not in a great way, but I can say that I chased I spent many, many years of my life chasing that experience again, right? And it's like I want to recapture that experience. And that created a lot of drive and energy for me to pursue some very unhelpful pursuits as it were and allowing my emotions to control my decisions as a result of that. At the same time, after myself getting into recovery many years ago, I started to discover other methods through spirituality, through spiritual practices that have brought me, didn't never brought me back to that experience, but it brought me to places that I would never been able to experience if I were under some influence. Like the path to ascend or transform was getting clear. Like I think that spirituality is motivated by suffering, like it's only people who really sabotage their own lives repeatedly really want to know what the underlying fabric of reality is made of. Like it seems, I mean some people don't have to get as self-disrecorded as we were, maybe, but yeah, there are a lot of somewhat of the purpose of suffering, I think. Well and I think that that just leads us right back into, it's like during the process of your recovery and maybe before that you started to explore some other traditions, religious or spiritual traditions that took you to different places. Can you talk about that a little bit? Yeah, well I went through a period in high school where I read the Bible and it's like, okay yeah, like I want to be moved by the spirit, I want to believe that something other than, you know, my ego is hanging out here. And I did actually, not long after high school, I was exposed to an invited teacher, Romesh Balsakar and Wayne Likerman, and I resonated immediately. I was like, okay, non-duality, that's provocative, controversial, what's going on? But then, you know, I wasn't ready to kind of really experience that.   And, but it wasn't until a little bit into recovery, eight and a half years ago, that I, which, and I had gotten several, a bunch of times, you know, but eight and a half years ago, I started getting into Buddhism as well, which was another, it's kind of leaning towards it, but it gets, it alludes to the emptiness, which is possible, which is, yeah. And so when you say emptiness, what do you mean by emptiness? Emptiness is, you know, it's a tricky word, because it's a word, but it's referring to the kind of, what's, I'll mention the headless way, which is something that was developed in the 70s by, I'll remember in a minute, but Richard Lange has been making it popular again, and it's a way of like experiencing the first person in that I've never seen my head. And when I point to my, where I'm looking out of, I point to essentially an empty space where the world is, where the world appears in an empty space, but also the emptiness refers to the fact that we, where the belief in a separate self exists or seemed to exist when that disappears, it feels like an emptiness, but not in a sad, griefy way at all. Right, yeah. And that's why I asked the question, and thank you for clarifying that so clearly, being redundant there, but it's a distinction, you know, because people think, oh, emptiness, that means, you know, kind of like, you know, hopeless and emptiness and no purpose and things like that, but that's not what it means in the spiritual tradition, in the spiritual practice, you know, and where you talk about Advaita, you know, where it's a singularity, right? It's that non-separation, right? Talk about how you really got into that. I may have misspoke that, so why don't you clarify that for me too? Advaita means not too, as opposed to oneness, because oneness is a concept that an ego, a self, can like say, yeah, I'm involved in this oneness. So Advaita means not too, meaning it's a negation of the subject-object relationship. For instance, it's possible to, as you look out into the room to notice that seeing is happening, and typically there's a sense of it, there's me seeing, there's an I looking out, seeing objects, and in our actual experience, really, all there is is seeing, and there doesn't need to be a subject or an object. There is only the seeing or the hearing or feeling, and so what is the perception made of? It's made of experience, experiencing, and what is experiencing made of? Knowing, and knowing is essentially seamless, and it's happening whether or not there's objects, or whether or not I'm asleep, or I'm just knowing of experience is really the one ingredient, the awareness, knowing more awareness, yeah. Yeah, yeah, so if you take that a little bit further, how does that unfold in your daily practice? Well, it's an option to consider at any time, really. For instance, I can have memories a long ago or yesterday, or I can imagine tomorrow or a year from now, but those memories or fantasies or projections are happening now, and they can also be experienced as perception, and so the perceiving is happening, and I get to remember like, oh, there's actually not a self here, like Tobias is not really here, like what I thought was here as an individual, the part that gets worried about death, that's, it's not necessary in order to function in day-to-day life, like everything I would be doing could be doing, can be doing, can be done without that idea that there's an I over here, a separate self. So it's not, it's actually quite available to anybody at all times, it's not like a a lofty position, it's just a realization that there doesn't need to be a me in order to be experiencing, because culture tells us that we are observing objects all the time, there's a subject and an object, and that's actually, there's some physicists who are, the one Bernardo Castro physicist who basically is saying that basically all there is is consciousness, and that what we see as the world, what we experience as the world is actually mental, transpersonal representations of something that is, but we're seeing it kind of like through our own brain through a filter, which has got a ton of blind spots, and also matter doesn't exist, from the physicist's point of view, there's no located stationary dead inert matter anyway. So anyway, that's kind of a deep end answer to, and I will give credit, I've been listening to a lot of Rupert Spira, who's a non-dual teacher, and invited a man who is quite articulate regarding the, that which can't be really spoken about. Yeah, and you've turned me on to him a bit too, and I've listened to some of his material as well.  Well, I would say that it's not me that's aligning it. Well, okay, correct me. Yes, I stand corrected there. Yes, absolutely. But yeah, you turned me on to core transformation, and that was, you know, a spiritual experience, a very new, like, wow, different access to core states, which as we know are states that the various parts leave back up a bit and say that there, Bernardo Castro, the physicist, basically has his model of the universe is that it's mental in the same sense that DID people, people with dissociative identity disorder, can have like distinct separate personality used to be schizoid personality disorder. He's making an argument for the fact that we, the people on earth are essentially a, we are all dissociated alters of the one month, basically in a dream. And that can sound very far out and not very grounded to some people who whatever are not, it's a different concept for sure. Yeah. Yeah, well, it's all made up. But yeah, Connie Ray, Andrea, came up with an amazing way to relate to parts of, you know, personality and, you know, be curious and investigate what parts want, as you know, and parts, you know, no matter what they are acting like, if the one of them has a bad habit of overeating or swearing too much or whatever, we can, we can say what, where is this part? And, okay, let's thank it for being here. And I might be, you know, one part of the body or could be outside the body and basically set a dialogue to start a dialogue like what do you want? And it might say wants protection or wants nourishment or something. And then we will ask, okay, so step into that part, kind of talking to ourselves in a way, step into that, experience it fully nourishment. And what do you want through having nourishment that's even deeper? You can go into this and come to a core state, which would be something like oneness or okayness or being. And kind of give parts of us what they really want, which is to integrate with, you know, our whole system. And oneness is a variation on that that can be, it's actually slightly different because it's not dealing with states, but locations can be seen from different points of view, maybe in mind's eye and felt from different points of view in the kinesthetic sense. And then at some point a part will welcome the invitation to relax and open as awareness, which of course does not need objects to be. So, yeah, yes, to answer your question, it's been amazing to just lose tons of psychic weight. Like tons of, you know, it's quieter, there's less thinking, less ruminating, because there's fewer parts that don't know that are confused. Right. And as a result of that, if there's less thinking, that means there's more experiencing. Right.   Right. And so I recognize for myself, through using the core transformation methodologies, that I no longer have to tell part of me that it doesn't have a right to exist or be here.  It's like I am one whole being included, you know, and it's like once I've learned how to include all of myself as part of my greater self, there's unconditional love that shows up, there's patience, there's compassion, there's trust, there's security, you know, etc. And so many different levels that I'd look for in all my life through so many different things, including drugs and alcohol and what have you, but I've looked for these things in so many ways and, you know, one of my previous guests said, you know, it's like everything that I've always wanted to find out and want for myself is already here.  Yeah, it's very hard for themselves, the small sense of self to experience, like even the idea that happiness and fulfillment are actually our true nature. That seems like a beautiful nonsense statement to the part. But yeah, it's yeah, you know, we'll talk a bit later also about at some point about that. I just want to mention this guy, Paul Beddington. He's a he's a 12-second guy that is also invited. He's talking about how like the bondage of self is the underlying, the cause and condition of our need to escape the self is essentially solved by the experience of our treatment, realizing that there is no subject object. There is only experience and knowing experience. So what I was going to say, so somehow we've only got a couple of minutes left here. Our time has just like flown by. So being myself, yeah. Being myself, it's one of many Rupert books I have and I just want to, you asked about spirituality. Please yeah, go for it. The apparent existence of things is borrowed from that which truly is God's infinite being. Just as the apparent reality of objects in a movie is borrowed from the reality relatively speaking of the screen. Things don't have their own existence. Being has thing. Selfs don't have awareness. Awareness has self. We do not think of things because they exist. They seem to exist because we think of them. Thought abstracts discrete objects and cells from the reality of God's infinite and indivisible being. The fearless reality in the midst of experience is to know beauty and love. It is God's presence shining in and as existence. Yeah, what a relief. I actually wrote a haiku earlier, a bird chirps. There's only, there's only hearing. Wow. Few are really, I knew of the haiku. That was awesome. But that is all the time we have my friend. Thank you so much for making time for us today. Thank you to my guests Tobias English. Appreciate you and we will again be talking very soon. Love you Roberto. Blessings brother. And just a few closing remarks and a shout out to today's executive producer and sponsor, Bridge to Heaven Healing and Lepin Lizards, which is the premier source for healing crystals and readings with four locations, including 120 Center Street, Auburn Main. You can visit www.lepinlizards.biz for more information. Also a big thanks to our co-executive producer, Dr. Anna Cabeca, the creator of Mighty Maka Plus, the daily nourishing supplement that improves metabolism and reinvigorates the body. Visit DrAnnaCabeca.com for more information. Also, if you would like to get more information about this show to reach out to us or to sponsor us, please visit www.deepbeing.org. We would love to hear from you. And a quick shout out to the crew, Director Packard and Carton, Audio and Sound, Warrant and Cameras, Travis Nadeau, as well as to the Portland Media Center and their team, Tom, Dino and Warrant. We wouldn't be here without them. Thank you for watching Enlightened Pathways and spending your valuable time with us today. Until next time, play, have fun, be happy.


A new mobilization may be announced in Russia. Russia may increase the mobilization reserve due to the scale of conflicts in the future. This is what the reservists are meant for, but everything will depend on the scale of the conflicts. This was said by the head of the Defense Committee of the Russian state, Duma, Colonel General Andrei Carter Polov. According to the general, Russia will not be able to completely abandon the reserve of the mobilization in case of a large-scale war. It should be noted that the new members of the Defense Committee of the Lower House of the Russian Parliament, Lieutenant General Andrei Gurulev, said that Russia should increase its mobilization reserves in case of Polish intervention and to prevent Western military forces. Reserve General, former commander of US forces in Europe, Ben Hodges, said that he expects mobilization in Russia in the coming weeks. I think it will be better organized this time. New conscripts will be a heavy burden on the Russian military system, but this does not scare the Kremlin. Moscow wants to use conscripts to prolong military operations.


and welcome to Lillian's Vegan World. I'm your host Lillian Cumick with Think Tech Hawaii. Today's show is Food and Wine Game Changers 2021 Vegan Cheese Maker Meal Koshina in Top 25. I'd like to welcome my regular guest back onto the show, Dr. Grace Chen O'Neill. Aloha Grace, welcome to the show. Aloha everyone. Nice to be back on the show. Awesome to have you on the show, you know, with your insight and medical view of how things work on a plant-based diet. So Dr. O'Neill, what are your thoughts? Top 25, Meal Koshina. Let's talk about that very quickly. It's kind of exciting, isn't it? Yeah, I think it's great.  I've seen her once living in California. I went to one of her classes and I bought that book. I don't even know if it was the first book, but she made a book on cheese and I tried to replicate all the things she did very simply in class. Somehow my creations were not quite as good. It takes some practice, but I still have that book and I still want to draw more things. So I mean, she's amazing. And then she came to speak in Hawaii as well for us and she was so generous. She brought all of, you know, samples of her cheeses to Vegetarian Society and it was a wonderful talk. She's very entertaining and she was singing and everything. She likes to sing. She's just great. That's amazing. I didn't know that she came to speak at the Vegetarian Hawaiian Society. Well, I actually, when I started looking into her, I didn't realize that she was a jazz singer in Tokyo, apart from being an American chef cookbook author of the groundbreaking book that you just mentioned, which is called Artisan Vegan Cheese. So for anyone out there who's looking to learn more about how to make plant-based cheeses, this book really is a game changer, literally. So Artisan Vegan Cheese by Mio Koshina. She's also an animal sanctuary founder and owner of dairy-free brand Mio Koshina Creamery. And you just spoke about her cheeses. They are actually available everywhere, including lots of supermarkets in Hawaii. Down to Earth carries their cheeses. So if you want to support local, definitely go to Down to Earth. They have a great selection. I actually just tried one of her, I think it was a cashew-based cheese wheel with herbs. And I noticed that she has a really, she gets like one of her techniques in making, cheese making is culturing and aging. So her cheeses get a nice kind of tang in them that is very unusual. And I haven't really been able to develop that in my home making, my cheese, cheese making at home. So this is something, yeah, definitely give her cheeses a try. I recommend some of the wheels. They go for about $10 each, but very, very worth it. So yeah, grab some of her cheeses when you can. Mio Koshina was quoted to say, founded on the principle of compassion for all living beings, we are on a mission to craft dairy products that are green and plant-based and friendly for the environment, good for the environment. So she's really on a mission to move the vegan or the non-dairy movement ahead. And she's really on the cutting edge. So congratulations to her. Yeah, she's amazing. And the company has done so well. I'm so happy about it. It's just wonderful. She's a wonderful person. Yep. So here's the question I have for you, Dr. O'Neill. When it comes to game changes in the vegan world, who are making a difference out there, who are your top three? You mean in Hawaii or just the general? In general, first. Okay. In general, I really think that King Phoenix is great. I think he made a great stand. And, you know, he did it in a very public, I think, was it at the Academy Awards? He said something. And I think that was very, very courageous of him to say something, because there's so many people who are not vegan in that kind of environment. And you don't know what would happen if you're going to be attacked. But, you know, he's made a great stand. I know that he did do a movie this year, too, about farm animals. And I think it's great, you know? No, I was just going to say, I actually did see a clip from his new documentary. And the clip that was going around on social media is very, very intense and very shocking. It was a baby calf being dragged away from its mother after birth. And it's just, it's just so mind-boggling how people allow this to happen. So this is definitely, I think this documentary is going to be as, you know, as interesting and controversial as some of the other documentaries out there that really can, I think, have the power to not to turn people vegan, but at least to make people think about, you know, what they're supporting every time they eat animal products. Yeah, absolutely. I mean, people don't realize that animals suffer just as humans can. They don't realize, you know, they think that animals were meant to, you know, provide milk for people. And they don't realize that isn't the true purpose of an animal. I know. So how do you answer people that say they love animals while they're drinking a milkshake or eating a burger or a steak? I must say I used to be one of those people too. I used to be addicted to dairy and I used to drink milk, but I didn't eat, you know, animals for the longest time. But when I first, you know, stopped eating meat and fish and everything, I was still drinking milk for a long time because I thought that, well, you know, it's not killing them. And so I think there's a lot of people out there who think like that, but they don't realize how damaging it is, how damaging dairy is for animals. We are going to get into that in the second half of the show because I do want your medical opinion on really what dairy does to the human body. But before that, I'd like to go back to the top game changes in the world. You did mention Joaquin Phoenix. Who else is on your list? Well, definitely Neil Barnard. He's done so much with his organizations, the Physicians Committee for Responsible Medicine. They do a lot of research on what is the best kind of diet for curing certain diseases like diabetes and everything. And so he's done a lot of research. They've helped a lot of people. Also they have this program that they go to Native American communities and they also are liaisoning with different places. I don't know if that's a word. They're, you know, they're in China, they're in other foreign countries, China promote plant-based diet because it's better for your health. So I think he's done a lot of great research. And also he's written a lot of great books. You know, he did one recently on hormones. He has another one about the cheese trap and the, you know, the dangers of cheese. And of course my other person would be Michael Greger. He's just a wealth of knowledge. He's constantly doing research. He's such a hard worker.    So I really admire that. That is so incredible. And for anyone who's not familiar with these two amazing game changes, go, just go online and Google them. I know Dr. Neil Bernard has a really great YouTube channel. I'm sorry. I don't remember the name of it, but you will find some of his videos. They're very, very informative. And again, he also has written some really excellent books too. So Grace, what about, let's go to Hawaii game changes. Who's on your top three in the list of game changes here? You know, that's so hard. There's so many in Hawaii too, as well as, you know, in the United States, I would say, I mean, somebody that people don't really realize the work is Lorraine Sakaguchi, who you had on the show with me, you know, a few months ago, she's just amazing. She's the vegetarian side of Hawaii president. And she does so much work for the organization. And she's, you know, she's the president for, you know, I think over 10 years now. And it's, you know, it's a very, very large task. People don't realize what goes on, you know, behind the organization and, you know, constantly very hardworking. And another person would be Ruth Hydrick. She is an amazing woman.  And she, you know, got over it by, you know, after treatment, she had done on a plant-based diet. And she essentially cured herself with a plant based diet. And then she went on to win so many triathlons, Ironmans. And she's just an amazing woman. I mean, she's in her 80s right now. She's still working very hard. After what a plant-based diet has done for her, she's trying to, you know, spread the word about what a plant-based diet can do for other people. And so she's also amazing as well.   And, you know, they started the sanctuary by themselves. It's completely volunteer fun.  And she does very nice tours. I've been on her tours.  And so they realize that, you know, farm animals, they also have feelings. They're, you know, they're not just objects to be used. So all these people are doing great work.  And, you know, the woman who started Isle of Knowledge, she's great too. She's been trying to help Native Hawaiians because Native Hawaiians have a, you know, very high rate of diabetes and, you know, they give out free meals every month. And like for one person to try to, you know, change their diet so it's plant-based and so they can also, you know, have a, have better health. So I mean, it's just amazing. All these people we have here. Yeah. You brought up so many awesome people. And I do want to say back at you, Dr. O'Neill, I choose you as well for a game changer in Hawaii. If you haven't seen Dr. O'Neill's YouTube channel, can you please let the viewers know where they can find you on YouTube? It's called Graceful Living 365.  Yourself. Yeah, you guys have to check it out. It was an awesome episode and we did the ultimate cheese sauce and then Lillian also told us about how she got started in another episode. So it's definitely you guys have to check that episode. I was very good and I've done the ultimate cheese sauce so many times. It's so addictive. It's not bad for you. So, I mean, it's a wonderful thing. It's so good. Like she says, it takes five minutes to do or less. So I love that. I love things that are easy.  Absolutely. Yeah.  So for any of the viewers watching, do check out Dr. O'Neill's YouTube channel. She interviews a lot of amazing people and obviously talks about the plant-based diet. So Dr. O'Neill, we are going to take a quick break for some messages and be back soon. For all the viewers, stay tuned. We'll be right back. I'm Mitch Ewan, host of Hawaii, the state of clean energy on Think Tech Hawaii. Hawaii, the state of clean energy is about following the many clean energy initiatives in Hawaii. Hawaii, the state of clean energy appears weekly on Think Tech Hawaii at 4pm on Wednesdays. Thank you so much for watching our show. We'll see you then. Aloha. Welcome back to Lillian's Vegan World. I'm your host, Lillian Cumick. I am also author of the newly released plant-based cooking cookbook, Hawaii, a Vegan Paradise. This was released in last year of 2020 in November. And I'm so excited to tell you that my second book is coming out, Tasting Hawaii Vegan Style. That should be coming out in the fall, hopefully before the holidays. So do look out for it. Dr. O'Neill, welcome back to the show. Thank you. Thank you so much. It's always a pleasure having you on. I have to tell you who I had at my dining table yesterday. A very, very interesting guest arrived and it was a surprise, actually. Take a look at this first slide. It's of the incredible, you know, one of Hawaii's famous chefs. And I was just so amazed to meet Sam Choi. Not only meet him, I didn't know he was turning up to a dinner party that I had last night. So I actually cooked a full vegan seven course meal for him. And it was so awesome talking to him. It was actually his first vegan course. So very exciting. And here's what he had to say. Here's a little video clip that we filmed last night. Take a look at this. Guess who came to dinner tonight? Thank you, Chef. What a great meal right in your home, in your kitchen. Our friends, unbelievable. Excellent, excellent, excellent. Thank you very much. Thank you. Thank you. I'm so honored. Aloha. So that was Sam Choi talking about how excellent the vegan meal was. Isn't that awesome? I mean, this is the chef that is obviously not vegan. So it just. Well, I hope he tries out more. That's awesome. You know, that's great. Yes. Well, hopefully we've opened Pandora's box. And I think that's what really it is. You know, some people who say I could never go vegan.  Really, I don't think I've tried much vegan food. So if I can suggest to any of the viewers who are interested in trying food, just go out there and try it. Go to a vegan restaurant.  Grab some ready made vegan dishes and try them. Just start. You know, I do want to get back to Dr. O'Neill. Today's topic, which is meal, of course, you know, getting into the top 25. She happens to be one of the best cheese makers, vegan cheese makers in the world. So let's talk about dairy. What's what are your thoughts, Dr. Grace? You have some slides for us. Tell us about what dairy really does to the human body. Well, I'm going to go through the slides. I have not word for word, but the first one I want to go through is the dangerous dairy. And I kind of talk about the contents of dairy in this one. So the main problem with dairy is it has a very high amount of saturated fat. So in addition to saturated fat, I mean, it has cholesterol. And those are two things that are, you know, the biggest reason for people to have heart disease and stroke. So I wrote here, one serving of whole milk contains 20% of your recommended daily allowance of saturated fat. And pizza and cheese are actually the largest sources of saturated fat in the American diet. And most cheese is about 70% fat. I mean, people probably don't realize that, you know. So cholesterol, too, one serving of milk contains 24 milligrams of cholesterol and one ounce of cheese contains 30 milligrams. That's a lot of cholesterol. You're just getting from dairy. I mean, people think, well, I can avoid dairy. I mean, I can avoid and I won't have a lot of cholesterol in my diet. But actually, if you're still eating dairy, you're still getting a lot of cholesterol. And then in addition to that, there's other things that people don't quite know about, like lack, well, lack just people know about, but pus in the milk, apparently, you know, just from all these cows being infected, from having all these, you know, these pumps around them to get out the milk all the time and being in close crowded conditions, they constantly have this infection of their breast called mastitis, which humans can get to. But, you know, because of the, you know, they're secreting pus from their breasts that is actually secreted into the milk. And you can't really there because it's white. So unfortunately, the FDA allows about 750 million pus cells for every liter of milk. So you're getting pus.  I mean, that is not a very good thought for me. Not at all. And then that is, that is really quite off-putting and sad. Yeah, I'm very, very sad. Yeah. I'll tell you, you know, I work in the emergency room and a lot of people come in with abscesses. We drain pus from the abscesses. And when we cut it open in these abscesses, the comes out and it has this terrible smell. It's just, just terrible smell. And also depends on where it comes from, you know, it can smell more terrible in certain places than others. But, you know, I wouldn't want to take anything like that into my body. And because these cows are constantly infected, they're constantly on antibiotics. So when they are taking antibiotics, if you are drinking their milk, you are also taking the antibiotics. So these antibiotics given to these cows causes the bacterias eventually because they constantly give these antibiotics. Like most of the antibiotics in the United States is actually given to farm animals and not even used on humans. So because they're constantly on these antibiotics, these bacteria, antibiotics are supposed to kill, eventually mutate and then they get resistant to these antibiotics. And so it causes a lot of antibiotic resistance, which is a major problem we have. This is why we have these huge superbugs and we can't find any antibiotics that work to kill superbugs. I mean, this happens in all animal farming, unfortunately. Wow. Should I go on? Yeah, I'm just, I'm actually, no, I'm just taking this all in. This is truly fascinating. I don't think people know that this is what they're putting into their bodies. And you know that saying you are what you eat? I think, I think you really need to take all of this information to heart here. Please do carry on. Okay, so in addition to that, you know, people don't think about all the hormones. You know, I work with a lot of men and, you know, I'm friends with some men and, you know, all these men drinking milk.  So, you know, they have a ton of hormones in their body and those hormones are secreted in the milk.  So people don't quite realize that and they're afraid of eating soy because of the estrogen, but soy has phytoestrogen. It's not anything, I mean, it's not anywhere near as bad as having the estrogen from another mammal. So I mean, not only that, but you know, I see a lot of, you know, in the emergency room lately, I've seen a lot of girls menstruating very, very early. So there's this problem of precocious puberty, you know, and I think that's honestly, I think it's because there's so much hormones in the milk and so they're being constantly, you know, in addition to their own hormones, they're taking in dairy and even, you know, when they're eating meat into that, that has the hormones as well, right? But people drink a ton of dairy and don't realize how much hormones, especially the dairy has because, you know, it's these lactating cows that have high levels of hormones. So, you know, taking all those hormones makes them mature earlier. And so, I mean, that's not really good to have a nine-year, I mean, I've seen nine-year-old girls that already have their periods. So, I mean, that's, it's kind of tough when you're nine years old and you have your period, you know, it's not easy. I can imagine an older person is preventable. Yeah, I mean, it's all preventable. You know, it's amazing this, this kind of stuff. And I mean, I don't know if you, there's, there's even more things that are upsetting. Please go on. Go on. So, I mean, there's also an increased risk of cancer. And, you know, there's certain things that people don't realize are milk. I mean, there's casein, there's whey. And you'll see a lot of stuff over the counter, like these protein shakes with whey. But actually, unfortunately, whey is a cancer cell proliferation promoting factor and it up regulates a growth enzyme called TOR. So what TOR does is, you know, when there are cancer cells, because it's a growth enzyme, it kind of stimulates the growth of these cancer cells and allows them to multiply, you know. And that's why they think that these things like casein and whey are more likely to cause cancer. You know, people who, you know, drink more milk are more likely to get prostate cancer, women who drink more milk are more likely to get breast cancer or ovarian cancer, you know. And it's also that constant intake of hormones as well. Isn't that amazing?  And yet it's actually not good for you. I know. It's terrible. And people don't know any better. I mean, that's the problem. People, they don't know any better because there's a lot of awesome advertising. And then, I mean, gosh, there's so many things. But, you know, in addition to this saturated fat and cholesterol, there's a ton of trans fats and milks.  That's definitely not a good thing either. And then you have the high amount of sodium in cheese that people don't realize and a lot of people have sodium dependent high blood pressure, right? So they're eating cheese. They don't realize these are hidden. I mean, it's just like in meat. There's a ton of salt they use to preserve things. And so, you know, they don't realize they're intaking things that they're buying and they're thinking, well, I'm not adding salt. You know, I'm not eating processed food, but they use that salt to preserve the food. So they're intaking that and they don't realize it. And that's maybe bringing up their blood pressure as well. Yeah.   Then you've got the sodium in the sauce as well, or you're adding it to, you know, other ingredients that are just like really pumping up that sodium level. So gosh, again, all of this can be avoided if you choose plant-based dairy options. Yeah. I mean, it's just amazing. And then there's the hidden things that people don't realize. I mean, there's these persistent organic pollutants, you know? So there's these contaminants and milk fat is among the highest dietary source of exposure for these. And these include things like dioxins, pesticides, polychlorinated biphenyls, or PCBs, melamine, aflatoxins. So these all concentrate in animal fat. And as you know, as things go up the food chain or whatever, things concentrate and their concentration gets larger.  So this is the problem when you eat higher up in the food chain. Oh my God, there's so much to, I feel like we could do a part two of this, to be honest, because we are actually running out of time. But Dr. Anil, just before we end this show, can you please give a final word to viewers? Anything that you want to say about this whole dairy catastrophe? Well, dairy is not good for you. I mean, the milk companies, they will say that you need calcium. But even if you get a lot of calcium and dairy, it hasn't really been shown to help people prevent fractures. So you're not really gaining anything extra with dairy by getting extra calcium because you still, you get all these other problems like the persistent organic pollutants, the increased risk for cancer, the increased saturated fat, trans fat, cholesterol, which increases your risk for metabolic syndrome like diabetes, heart disease, high blood pressure, high cholesterol. And you know, you're really harming your body when you take in something like that. And there's so many alternatives these days, you don't have to. You don't have, if you crave milk, there's so many other alternatives. So please look for an alternative for your health. Thank you so much, Dr. Anil. This has been a fascinating show, I must say. And I thank you for your time and look forward to seeing you again. To all the viewers, thank you for joining in. My final note would be cow's milk. You don't need it like you don't need monkey milk, cat milk, or dog milk. Having said that, I look forward to seeing you all on another episode of Lillian's Vegan World, Take Care and Aloha.