I want to start with the story of your travel to Syria. Many of us here in the Westwood consider travel and especially overseas travel as a coming of age experience. A rite of passage, so to speak into young adulthood. Why did you travel to Syria and why? And when? I travel to Syria, we'll start there. Really, as, yes, it was definitely, what ended up being a coming of age experience, absolutely. The story starts with a visit from a sheikh that came to the United States. We learned later actually, you know, in terms of for medical treatment for her own self, that while being in our community, she was able to gather some of the women and girls of the community and say, you know, let's have a halakal, let's have a class together and see what's happening with American Muslims. What's the story there? And I was so intrigued by this concept of a woman scholar. I was intrigued by the concept of, wow, there are such scholarly people who are not men, masha'Allah, and wow, that's wonderful that we have our sheikh who was such a new experience for me. I was a very young teenager. I want to say either I was 12 or 13 at the time. And I remember coming home telling my parents, wherever this person is from, and whoever she is and whatever it is, I want to go there and I want to be like that. SubhanAllah. And it turned out that she was from visiting from Damascus, Syria. This is well before the war, of course. And my family is not Syrian. And so they thought that this would be a very difficult thing to do, but they said, okay. And they noted it some months later, not too long, much longer later, you know, my parents came to me and said, you know when you told us you wanted to go to Syria to study an opportunity has come up. Would you like to go? And I thought, wow, they really listened to me. Like they listened to 13 year old kid telling them they want to go halfway across the world. Masha'Allah. It turns out, of course, years later, I would find out that that particular sheikh had, you know, picked really some students to go and to study and to hopefully bring back knowledge to the United States and really be able to keep on the tradition of classical Islamic training, particularly amongst women. So that's my story of journey to Syria. It was not something where I thought one day I'd become a teacher or went to study for the betterment of really anyone other than my own self. But Subhanallah, the story there is when you do study, you have to pay forward what you've learned. And it's been a wonderful, just an amazing experience having really sat with women scholars and understood with that woman sisterhood, scholarly sisterhood could actually look like. So where are you, where are you? Where's 13 year old Rania Awad meeting this Syrian scholar? What part of the U.S. is this happening? And what is the journey to Syria like? At that time I was in the Midwest. We lived, my parents and I and my family, we lived in Michigan. So she was visiting Michigan at the time. And Michigan has been a wonderful doorway for a lot of people who have actually went to Syria to study, Alhamdulillah. What that journey has been like is a series of visits. For me, that's what it looked like. I went as a very young person and for a summer study, almost like a study abroad situation. I was 14 at the time. And my desire was to stay there for an extended period of time, but I was very young and my folks were not quite ready for that. And so when I called them from Damascus on that first summer that I was there and said, can I stay longer? Or maybe my teenage self said something like, I plan to stay longer because you think you have the plans, inshallah. They said, oh no, you're getting back on that plane and coming back, inshallah. So Alhamdulillah, I spent one summer that early on and then it was quite a bit of work actually to get back to Damascus. For me, it looked like a series of trips. One of my parents finally agreed again and Alhamdulillah was some years later, still in high school, but some years later. And it was just interspersed between my high school studies, my college studies, my medical school studies. And the war didn't start until I was in my residency actually and I was still traveling back and forth kind of juggling both my medical studies and my Dean's studies. So it sounds like there is this young woman who has her heart is in her spiritual growth. And she's physically, literally between two continents separated by a vast ocean. And there is this pull that's happening over there. And at the same time, there is the high school, the college and the med school happening. So how is this formation happening, you think? And how are you, what is the intellectual journey that's happening at this moment? For me, a lot of it was really immense identity building, honestly. This is a time where we talk about coming of age. It's also coming of age in terms of you, who am I exactly? Not just the family I was raised in, not just my religion and my faith, my identity. The parts of me that I was trying to grapple between my parents' culture and my American culture, the parts of me that's also trying to understand what does it mean to actually fully implement the religion the way we're taught it classically? And then I'm traveling overseas and that's a whole other dynamic as well. So when you think about trying to integrate all those parts, there's funny things that happen, of course, especially as young people, sometimes we get overly carried away by certain things. And sometimes we have to understand like, okay, that was actually a cultural aspect or artifact, not the faith itself and such. So anyhow, this journey for me was definitely, my mindset at that point was, I learned something so beautiful from one of those very early trips. And that was as a young person do as much as you possibly can so that one day you don't look back and regret that you had missed out on any opportunities. And that was definitely my mindset. It was a go, go, go mindset of, you get as much as you possibly can. I had no idea, none of us had any idea the war would start in Damascus and we would be in Syria in general and we would be prevented, SubhanAllah, from such a beautiful place of knowledge and light in the Muslim world for so many years until today. None of us knew that. It was really more of a drive of, we have to make sure that we can get as much as we're able to in that time where you have less responsibilities because the responsibilities only become more later. I wanna circle back to your experience in Syria just a little bit later. But I think because it's spirituality, we'll probably weave in and out of our entire conversation. But let's fast forward to your medical school. You trained in Ohio and then you did your residency in fellowship at Stanford. Why did you pursue specializing in mental health? That's a very good question. It actually directly ties to what we were just talking about speaking of spirituality, SubhanAllah. I do have a roundabout story. I've shared it a little bit before of how my interest really was going into a completely different direction. I didn't set out to do mental health or psychiatry at first. I had a strong interest in women's health and that was the work I was doing.  And I had chosen all of them to be obstetrics and gynecology. I thought that's definitely the work I was going to see myself doing into the future, SubhanAllah. Allah had another plan. Mashallah. It was actually that having come back from my studies in Syria and starting to teach in the community, being asked to teach classes and halakas and various spiritual and religious-based courses, that it became really clear to me that actually a lot of the questions were beyond the textbook, beyond the halal and haram, beyond what does Islam say about X, Y, or Z. It actually became clear that it was much more deeper questions, family questions, personal questions, things that actually were quite complicated sometimes. And I realized very quickly, I was out of my depth as much as I had studied it by that point, which was maybe over a decade by that point. I had not, it's your, if you haven't learned formally how to counsel and also what drives some of these questions that are coming forward. There's always a story behind the story. And an incident happened locally here, SubhanAllah, that actually turned everything for me and without going into too many details for confidentiality's sake, there was a young person in our community that experienced what today I now have the language to explain was a psychotic break. But at that point in time, we didn't have the language, nobody did. Nobody around me, none of the other religious instructors or faculties or nobody had the knowledge to really explain what was this thing that was happening. And there's a beautiful connection with Nisa actually because one of your original founders, Dr. Rajab Ali was actually the person who helped even put words to what was happening and explained that this was actually in medical psychiatric condition that needed immediate attention. And the religious folk and others, and even just the general community members, we tend to do this thing where we say, we see something that's not explainable immediately. So we go to the supernatural and we say, oh, this must be Jinn possession or it must be Iain or it must be one of these other factors. And so we wanna treat it purely spiritually. And it was very eye-opening. And in that entire incident, my husband actually turned to me who also is a teacher in the community and said, look, Rania, if you really wanna help this community and other communities, we really need people who have grounding in Islamic knowledge and studies to be able to understand mental health. This is gonna, we need to bridge these two worlds together because there's very little bridging of them right now happening. And that changed my course of studies completely. SubhanAllah, I almost at the last minute applied to psychiatry for my residency and landed in a field and in a world that was completely new to me once I got there. And really had to do a lot of deep diving into our own traditions and understandings in our own classical texts and books and Islamic knowledge to really pull out what now Mashallah is a treasure trove related to mental health that wasn't apparent right away to me. Let's, you know, speaking of taking a deep dive into technical know-how, can you help some of our audience and myself included actually understand the difference between a psychologist, a psychiatrist and a psychotherapist, if you can just start with the beginning of some of these turns. Of course, of course. I'll start with a psychiatrist. I myself am a psychiatrist and that's a person who's gone through a medical studies. They are an MD. They've gone through entire medical school and they have specialized in psychiatry. But their doctorate degree, their medical degree allows them to be able to prescribe medications just like any other physician might. And also they have basic trainings in general medicine and in general surgery. They've gone through all of that same training but the specialty is in psychiatry. Whereas a psychologist is also somebody who has reached a doctorate level who has a degree as well, but they have not gone through a medical school. They've gone through a graduate school of psychology and their training is slightly different. They haven't done the full body system of what a physician may have that they are at a doctorate level and they are able to diagnose and they're able to do therapy but they do not prescribe medications. A psychotherapist may be a psychologist as well but they also may be someone who's at the master's level.  So I hope that's a bit of a helpful explanation. That is because I've also personally wondered what different roles are and what sort of help one should be seeking out for. And that brings me to my next question. How does one determine that they need help and what then should they do to ask for help? And where I'm asking this question especially in the context of domestic violence. Right. And so when a person has experienced any sort of difficulty domestic violence being one definitely such broadly and more broadly speaking than abuse and even more broadly speaking any turbulence, any difficulty that's come forward there are different specialties for different conditions. So for example, if a person has reached has experienced like the case I was mentioning earlier something that's very difficult like a psychotic break at that point you need to absolutely get to emergency care right away. And at that point it really needs to be high level care. So psychiatric care will be necessary. If you also have if it's not quite that level of difficulty but it may be something that's moderate or mild even please do not ignore those things. Those are things that actually need intervention as well but they may not need a psychiatric emergency room or a physician per se they may require therapy. So part of that would be actually reaching out to professional care and often those who are trained know how to tell you this is beyond my scope actually we need to refer up or they may say actually what you need is more like therapy. Let me refer you to a therapist. So the first step really is even just taking that first step to be connected. And if you don't quite connect in the right direction usually that professional could help you guide you to the next correct connection. So what should a patient expect when they walk into your clinic? So my clinic my personal clinic as you mentioned earlier is through Stanford University and in the community I supervise the work that's at Maristown. So there's different settings between something that happens at a big facility like Stanford or if it's a community clinic like Maristown. There's some similarities but there's also some differences. First step is always going to be the same. There's initial contact made. It's usually a phone call or if there's a form on their website that person fills out and says I'm in need of care. Usually there's an intake person that they'll speak to on the phone or we'll also give them forms to fill out. So the first thing to know is very logistical that there is some paperwork involved. Usually a person doesn't pick up a phone and immediately get connected to a therapist or psychiatrist. There's usually some paperwork to do first. I say that only because I have found that sometimes people might find themselves in a real emergency situation and we have to remind them that those acute very emergency kind of issues require actually going to an urgent care or an ER or somewhere that has 24 care. The clinics that are out like my own or that in the community, whether it's Stanford or Maristown are not set up in that way. They're set up for something that is much less acute and so much less urgent. And so what happens is a person would call, fill out the paperwork, they would do their checking to make sure it all fits in terms of one's insurance, one's financial background that the matching is done. And then from there has the very first session. And let's say they're assigned to me. I'll do an intake session with them. That first session is not therapy. It's actually just a lot of gathering information. What happened? What's your background? Who's your family? What's your family background? What happened to you before? I had just lots of questions that helps us as the clinician understand who we're working with. And one of the most important questions is, what are you hoping to get out of this? Those are guiding questions. From there we can just set this aside. Is there, for example, as a psychiatrist, somebody might have already medical or a medical background or medications they're taking. I take an entire history on that. And maybe that's they need that in addition to the therapy. Maybe it's only a therapy situation where at that point we decide what kind of therapy is needed. So there's a lot of discussions in that very first session, which is more like an introductory session of fit. Is it a good fit? Do I have what I can, what you need? And then from there we decide on timings and locations and length of time we might work together. And that's typically how other clinicians do it as well with some slight variations. And then the therapy starts from there. Help us, help us deal away with some of the taboo or the stigma around mental health, especially having to do with therapy. Yeah, for me, I mean, I mentioned how when I was so new into the field and I have to say not just new, but very suspicious of the field, inshallah. Like any other Muslim that I had grown up in my generation, in my community that I had grown up in, there was just a lot of negativity around mental health. That this is not part of our Dean, this is not something Muslims need, that this is not our background. This is a Western thing or people would say it's an American thing as though we weren't American's panel or they would say some other thing. And that's just the mindset I personally had too. And the reason that's important is when I entered into the field and it helps answer your question too, I had to literally deprogram myself from a lot of those stigmas myself. I hadn't taken a single course in psychology in college because I thought, well, good Muslim girl needs a psychology class. Subhanallah. And Allah has a way of humbling you. Alhamdulillah. But honestly, it's part of that for me what happened in the deep dive that I spoke about is actually going into our tradition to understand is there a precedence for therapy in our Islamic tradition? Is this something that our scholars from before had even suggested? And I was so pleasantly amazed and surprised at so many things that we uncovered in this process and anybody who's interested can welcome to look at the work in my lab to stand for Muslim mental health and Islamic psychology lab and all that we've unearthed over time. But one thing that I'll share right now out of a lot of many things is therapy. That Muslims were some of the very first people if not to found certain types of therapy they definitely expounded on it and used it heavily in their traditional Muslim societies and in their healing centers called the matastons which is of course the namesake of our organization. And that concept was so powerful to me because it shook so many of the stigma and barriers that I personally had in others around me had to for talk therapy because we would be told things culturally from our parents and elders don't air your dirty laundry. Why are you talking to a stranger about things that are happening at home and in our family and so on? Of course worried about confidentiality. What will the community hear if some of this was leaked out? That's a big thing that tends to come up for many people and for others it's just foreign. They were not used to talking to others outside of the family about their issues. So for me it was so powerful to see that this was something then not only the early Muslims who understood kind of that holistic care utilized but they really developed it. And there's more we could share about therapy but for me that was kind of a big breakthrough I would say. So you, I know Dr. Rania you have a deep understanding of the legacy of mental health that they've inherited in our Islamic civilization. Give us a sense of some of the paradigms and theories that you uncovered and then we're able to see parallels off as you were going through your rotation and residency. Yeah, the, for me, Sopanola some of the things we were able to uncover as you mentioned I wanted to understand one a person in a traditional Muslim society historically had what today would be a mental health issue. What did they do? How were they treated? How did others around them get treated, treat them and what kind of care was there even? And what that led to was an entire line of research that's in my lab that specifically focused on historical understandings of mental illness and another line that's called Islamic psychology amongst the 12 other lines that are in our lab for research but those two lines there, it was amazing to be able to understand that the Muslims when they talked about what today you call psychology which is the root word in Greek, right? The psyche for them also meant the spirit and the soul Alogia is the study of, so psychology was the study of the spirit and soul. The Muslims call this in Arabic, the study of the self, it wasn't that far apart. It's only in modern Western psychology unfortunately that modern psychology loses its soul quote unquote that they stopped really talking about this but early on Muslims and non-Muslims are both working on this and what you find it's very interdisciplinary and that becomes important because you realize it's not just the physicians that are working on or scientists who are working on psychology like you find today, usually this is housed psychology is usually housed in the school of medicine or in the schools of sciences but you have clinical psychology but when you look historically in Muslim heritage you find that actually it was interdisciplinary you had physicians contributing but you also had your scholars of religion contributing this is very important, right? But they're also writing on spirituality and spiritual understandings of the psyche and you also have your philosophers contributing without going into a big story I'll just say that the flavor of Islamic psychology actually is very different and more holistic than our modern psychology today and so what we uncovered in all of that is the treatments that they had the classification of illnesses and diagnosis and also the treatments reflected that it wasn't just medications it wasn't just here's a pill it'll solve your problem there was therapy, talk therapy because that was powerful and a powerful tool for treatment but so was using all your other senses if that's a cognitive sense what about your eyes, your nose, your ears, your face so on and so they had sound therapy or what today we'd call music therapy the Muslims did that they actually had that as part of their main treatment process and customized it to specific mental illnesses they used color therapy and art therapy and this is reflected in their institutions of healing the Matastans and I say all of this because when people realize how extensive the Muslim civilization's honored mental health and treated it all of those stigma start to fade away, Safanallah do you think your founding of Matastan has been able to capture some of these varieties of therapies? this is our goal inshallah this will be a long, a long process if you can imagine the Matastans were founded the very first of them which are the Islamic hospitals some say that they're in the seventh century some in the eighth century there's some discrepancy historically but the point is right after the advent of Islam and they go everywhere Islam goes they become a fixture of the Islamic societies the way your mosques do the way your madrasas do the way your Matastans they go everywhere Islam goes all throughout the Muslim world all into Muslim Europe everywhere that Islam was and therefore they are there as an institution of healing all the way until the fall of the Ottoman Empire and then you start to see kind of the cropping up of what today would be the modern hospital system which by the way the blueprint used is the Matastan inshallah but then you have kind of a neglecting of that very holistic institution so to answer your question it'll take us some time to rebuild and revive that heritage but that's absolutely my goal inshallah inshallah I sincerely hope so you know I've been a student of history and you know we've learned about the the empire of forests the taxation system the agriculture the architecture but never in my textbook have I come across the institution of the Matastan yeah that's amazing it's amazing inshallah our new book is coming out in about a year from now we're currently working on it and then I would sign a contract for it and inshallah in time there will be a very robust resource on the Matastans inshallah so now we're speaking in the Nissa context what does your Matastan today offer survivors of domestic violence? definitely and very important the you know in a previous iteration of the work I did in the community we had an MOU a memorandum of understanding with Nissa and I would love to see this be the case for our organization at Matastan but really for any organization that has mental health that has nearby to it a local Muslim organization focused on domestic violence I really think that too have to work hand in hand in the previous work that I did I saw that when there was this memorandum of understanding you had a shared therapist and you had shared work so if somebody needed that assistance and help that specialized assistance and help there was a direct channel of care and services and that's kind of my goal absolutely as well in addition of course to programming like this and education and so on but the direct services is really key so I want to take a little bit into this relationship that domestic violence survivors have with God with Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala you know through some of the spiritual halakas that Nissa's organized they found that many survivors of hardship individuals that are struggling are disappointed in God and they're prone to giving up on faith how would you advise them to reconnect to their Creator? This is such an important question when either honestly it is so common I want to first first first thing I want to say is it is so common for when a person goes through any sort of trial or tribulation to disconnect to question to ask why me or how come or is God still seeing me helping me what's happening? I say that only to normalize that these are normal emotions and so much so that Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala spoke about them in the Quran and showed us through the prophets that they too asked questions that they too wondered why it is that they had difficulties that have come to them that they too were taught of course to be patient and to persevere through it but it didn't mean that they didn't feel emotion with it in fact there was a lot of sorrow and grief and heaviness that so many of our prophets we learn our Islamic tradition to be the best of all of humanity the best of all people and if the best of all people have heavy emotions of sorrow and grief and really questioning if this heavy load that they received is worth it in some ways then imagine the ordinary person like us and so I say all of this to just normalize that these are normal that this is bound to happen but then beautiful thing about our Islamic tradition is there's also help stories, we have a lot of stories of the prophets and we have a lot of du'as that were taught to recite and just moral character traits that were taught in how exactly to persevere through difficulty and we're also taught advocacy we're taught to advocate for ourselves to speak up to get help and not to shy away from that whether it be something happening to ourselves or someone that we know in our loved ones sometimes it's also an abandonment from our own communities when something like this happens we find that there's no one there to support us and so that too needs to be anecdoted so anyhow, I hope that in understanding that how normal this is but also knowing that there is in fact help through it really starts a person to feel what they can be reconnected again Talk to us Dr. Vanya about why suicide is a taboo topic in the Muslim community? Subhanallah, that is definitely one of the most difficult conversations of all. I call suicide and this is where before I talk I'd like to just give a trigger warning we probably should have given this one even before this topic here to just say that what we have been talking about these last few minutes actually is pretty heavy and so I just wanna invite anyone who feels that they have been triggered or it's difficult to take a step away and pause for a bit and rejoin us when they can. Like the topic of domestic violence suicide is also a difficult topic. I call it personally the taboo within the taboo. It's even within mental health and mental health is now getting more air time than it ever has before in the society in general but definitely in our Muslim communities much much more than before and still more work has to be done but suicide is still a big taboo. It's something that is often just hush hush or when you do start talking if you try to talk about it you're told don't don't. We don't want to put ideas in people's heads which of course the research has proven that that's never the case or it's just simply masked as something else an accidental death of some sort. And when that happens we don't ever really get to the root of the problem. We don't ever really get to why this is the case and what to do in order to help prevent because out of all the mental health conditions Monita it's really important for people to realize that suicide out of all the mental health conditions we have is 100% preventable. It's really, really key to understand that if we can do proper justice as communities in terms of awareness, prevention and even intervention measures we can avoid it altogether and not have to worry about post-vention which is basically what happens in a crisis mode after a suicide has happened. And so we haven't had materials on all three of these aspects that we developed in the lab and Madison offers a training of course for this for first line responders, community leaders, imams and so on. But I just want to say that again if we can as a Muslim community not treat this as the taboo and have every so often have an awareness event you're more likely to catch those who might be at risk well before they're actually at risk and well before they're actually at harm's way. Now the findings of your research were published in JAMA which is a prestigious medical journal Journal of American Medical Association. Right. When you take those findings to massage it how is your work received by the audience? More than before I would say and these and perhaps this is an effect of the pandemic. It's much more received now than it had been in the past. In fact, I say this and those who are on our promo video know this that we have a little video on our website at Madison where we have a series of imams and it was those who are talking about the importance about suicide and awareness in the Muslim community and to get the trainings for it. And all of them have actually been through our trainings but what I say is really important in that just a few years prior to that trying to have that same conversation at sometimes even with some of the very same people had been impossible. It was very difficult. And it was something that was it's almost like out of sight, out of mind. We don't wanna see it. We wanna think about it. However, before the pandemic certainly but definitely during the pandemic it became really, really clear that the levels of isolation that people were feeling the loneliness that being kind of we saw the spikes and numbers in the general global community the general national community and certainly our own community and our JAMA paper reflected some of that where there was definitely an increase in the Muslim population, American Muslim population that we had seen ever before and to try to understand what that is and how to prevent it became really important. And so did your findings tell you something about how the suicide rate amongst American Muslim adults compares to suicide rates in society at large? Yes, it was a cross-sectional study partnered with the ISP the Institute of Social Policy and Understanding as well as with some other organizations. And in our findings, it was cross-sectional in that you had Muslims compared with people of all other faith groups Christian, Jewish, Buddhist, Hindu you also had people of no faith, atheists, agnostics and they were all compared cross side by side, cross-sectional. And the finding which was very saddening actually but when we have a lot of work to do to try to change this was that Muslim Americans had twice the rate of suicide attempts than other faith groups, not deaths by suicide. That's not something we studied in that particular study but rather attempts. And that, and of course we know attempts, increased attempts will lead to increased deaths at some point, right? So there was definitely a real concern there and hence they're really needing to drum up what we have as our campaign now on suicide awareness and prevention. Yeah, and what were some of your findings as to the reasons? The reasons is something that we are doing a parallel study to determine. So what I could tell you is what is in the literature so far but the studies are still ongoing and so when they're completed I'd be happy to share more. So far what we can find in literature is two main things. The theories of suicide say that a feeling of increased levels of burdensomeness feeling like someone is a burden on whether it's their own family, their own community or even if you extended globally nationally someone or number two, an increased sense of not feeling like you belong. And American Muslims, especially in the last several years even before the pandemic, social politically the last several years and then add to that a pandemic, those are all very real things that the American Muslim community broadly has been experiencing. So it was not, it was upsetting to see those numbers but I get it's not altogether shocking. Is there a causal relationship between domestic violence and suicide? There's definitely a causal relationship not the one that we studied in that particular study but in general, there are connections. Thank you, I think as you said the last 10, 12 minutes of our conversation have been heavy but thank you for allowing me to take you down that road and delve into some of these questions that have been on my mind. I did wanna explore something different with you. You've pursued classical Islamic studies in Damascus, Syria. You've served as the first female professor of Islamic law at Zaytuna College. You're a founding member of Rahmah Foundation. Tell us, the way I understand your spiritual work is that it's sort of, it's women focused and women centered and to borrow Western humanities language. This is feminism in its own right. Or have you ever been labeled as a Muslim feminist? Do you readily take it on?  What's going on over here in this very powerful women-centered, women-led spiritual experience? Yeah, it's exactly as you said, inshallah. It is a women-centered, women-empowered experience and I find no need for labels personally. The reality is I say, this is what I've heard my teachers say too and I love it. The proof is in the pudding. If there is something that is strong and empowered and literally shakes up a community around you, you know what I mean? It makes people think differently and brings them into a fold, empower them, really is the word I'm looking for here, spiritually. Think about, as you mentioned, you had mentioned joining some of our Qiyam programs and our Maldon programs where you're surveyed, you're able to see so many different types of women from all different walks of life in terms of women scholars and perhaps even pray behind them and be able to feel motivated by their words. This in itself is an experience that when we say the proof is in the pudding, if you can taste it, it's there. I don't need to put anything extra on it, spice it up in any other way or put anybody else's labels onto them. Certainly every term carries its own baggage and has its own strings attached. I don't need strings attached here because I know what's being represented here is really that Islamic tradition that I saw firsthand having traveled as a young person to Damascus and I was amazed and awed in awe of all these women scholars who were memorizing the Quran and able to teach and I don't, you can't see my bookshelf behind me, but the number of women scholars that have authored heavy hitting Islamic texts and studies and when people say, where are the women scholars of Islam? And I would just sort of point to my bookshelf and go, they're right there, they're right there, but to connect people to even realize that because here in America, I find that sometimes we're disconnected from those experiences. And so a lot of the work of the Rahmah Foundation was to do just that, provide a platform for women scholars and teachers and for other women and girls and girls to be connected to that and be empowered by it. Share with us a personal story or a moment where it really, where you said, well, this work is really overturning secular feminist assumptions about Muslim women. Yeah, yeah. Or some of that work is overturning? Yeah, where you said, yeah, this is just like, I'm, you know, we're doing, this is women empowerment in our own way. And when it just, because sometimes when you're in the lead of doing things, it doesn't really, you know, hit, you don't appreciate what it is that you're doing until somebody else says something or does something and you say, whoa. Michelle, I need you to take a step back. I hear you, I hear you very clearly. And you know, I say our work here is still young and ongoing, but if I compare what you just said to what happened in Syria, especially after the war's Panama, when after the war happened, it's exactly, it's like people are on the go, go, go, and then suddenly something so major happened and made everybody essentially have to be spread all over the world literally. A lot, so many of our teachers went to so many other parts of the world, you know, for safety reasons. And then you could see so clearly what they had produced over decades of time in the hundreds and hundreds of women that have become Quran scholars, the hundreds and hundreds that have become muhadithat, people who are able to narrate all the chains of narration for hadith. You know, the hundreds, literally the hundreds who had become scholars of the utmost quality, whether it's seerat, tafsir, hadith, you name it.  And anyhow, I say this because I forget sometimes, you know, I'll go, I'll take a small tangent, but a good friend of mine that many of you know, Sheikha Maryam Amir of Rahimi released an app, this past Ramadan called the Qariah app, right? It was an app that had the entire Mus'af read in women's voices, scholars of the Quran who are women, who are reading either whole surahs or portions of it. The reason I say this whole story, there was so much excitement around that app because so many women and girls had said, I've never heard the Quran recited by a woman. In the way you might hear on your Quran app that a man recites or at the masjid that the Imam might read. And I thought to myself, and I was one of the biggest, you know, advocates and cheerleaders for this app, but I was so amazed every time I would hear that, I'd say, what? And I'd realized experience I had in Damascus in Syria was so different than so many women that had never actually, let alone Meda Sheikha, let alone heard somebody who had actually was a woman scholar of Quran that had an Ijazah in it and was teaching it and reciting it beautifully the way you might hear the men recite. And that's when you take a step back and you go, wow. What happens here was a beautiful sense of empowerment. And I don't need the kind of labels and terms that come with it baggage that may dilute some of that excellent empowerment or try to phrase it or stuff it within a cup of something that it doesn't fit within. Because this is not an anti-man or an anti-anybody for that matter kind of effort. This is purely women being connected to their Lord and to sisterhood. Dr. Vanya, you've seen the tragedy of war literally abruptly stop this scholarship from flourishing. You've worked closely probably on a daily basis with individuals who are dealing with mental health crises, including suicide. How does that affect your worldview? Yeah, the work of anybody who's experienced war-torn situations. And my experience is really nothing more than simply wanting to give back and to do something after all this happened to a country and to people that had given me so much. And so some of my mental health work has been focused on refugee mental health in which I would travel back, not directly into Syria, but to neighboring countries in Jordan and some of the efforts have now gone into Lebanon and Turkey, where there were a lot of Syrian refugees and really just trying to talk about the invisible wounds of mental health trauma. And yes, it does change your worldview and it kind of shapes it and gives it another edge, if you will. There's so many stories. I won't take all the time here today, of course, to share the stories, but I've learned so much from the resilience of people that have gone through those situations, even spiritually. Like I've been in situations where I'm doing a psychiatric assessment, purely mental health, if you will, for somebody who's trying to seek asylum status in a safer country. And felt that I, it was like I was sitting in front of a sheikh receiving spiritual education from the kind of resilience and mindset and worldview that a person who's had all the terrible things this world can do to you, have done to them, and still be able to say, Alhamdulillah, and I rely on God for the next steps. When you hear that kind of strengthen those words, it's not just hot air. It's not just saying, you know, kind of doing lip service to these words. It's someone who's been through real deep trauma and they are also coming through and getting help, by the way, and therapy and all the rest we talked about for that trauma. But when they say those words, I depend on Allah. That is not lip service.  You say Alhamdulillah to each of these terrible things you've just told me and be taught by them. Well, what else do you say? You're right. They're right. They're absolutely right. And those moments are, you know, you can't fight. There's nothing in my clinic or nothing in my studies that I can compare them to. Real life learning. We're almost approaching the hour. I'm going to ask you, some of my just, you know, some questions that will bring our conversation to full circle and give us some food for thought moving forward. What would you like to see done more in the community to make topics such as mental health, suicide, domestic violence more amenable for discussion? More and more education. Definitely. Definitely. The more we talk about this openly and I welcome this conversation and I consider you all to be very courageous to take it on. In fact, the work, the whole organization is that this is incredibly courageous and important. I want to see more of this work and conversations at all of society's levels, all of our community's levels. So whether it be with the scholarly level, the Imams, whether it be the leadership, you know, those who hold some sort of title in the community, I want to see it more on the youth side and their discussions. I want to see it more with our aunties and uncles. I want to see it in different languages. I want to see it with different sectors of the society. I want it to be in different corners in which, you know, there could be a get together and there's some chit chatting happening and mental health becomes a topic of conversation and people check in on each other and they ask each other, you know, or they suggest to each other, hey, we know some resources, can we help connect to you? Right? For people to even have a common language that that's something that's even brought up, we still have some ways to go, but I'll tell you, having been doing this for a few decades now, it's a lot more than it had ever been before. So I'm very hopeful actually, you know, I also think that on an institutional level, when you have organizations collaborating, look at today's collaboration between Nissa and between Maristain, when you have organizations collaborating, you bring the best of both worlds and you kind of make it even better, right? You connect even deeper. We may not have all the resources on domestic violence, you have that, but we may have some mental health resources you may not have, but we kind of bridge the two together. The more those collaborations happen, the stronger the services will be, the more holistic and quality they will actually be in Shalom. Can you give us some food for thought, Hanh, how one could feel driven to have some of these conversations by from how one could draw strength for this conversation from within their spiritual self? Yeah, definitely. I think for me, that's what I go back to all the time in order to fuel kind of like a cargo running on empty. How do you refuel yourself? It's from the spiritual conversation, honestly. It's, and I encourage people to do this. When you are able to tap into that all the beautiful tools that this religion has given us, I know people try today to do meditation and whatnot and we have our own forms of contemplative meditation and other forms of connecting with God. You find yourself refueled and you're able to take on heavier and more difficult, even just aspects of your own life. Forget anybody else's or the community's, just even your own circles and that's where the conversation actually starts. If people were to say into your earlier question, Manita too, I'll add this. If people were to say, I'm going to start this with my own family, this conversation, my own friend's circle. We've all been affected by the pandemic.  What if I started my own circles asking now that people are coming more and more out of the pandemic and back out into society and things are resuming, to say, how is your mental health? I mean, just as direct as that sometimes or if you need to couch it in some way because it's an elder or someone to do so, but to ask, how is someone actually doing? And not to be worried. I love, by the way, I had a Stanford student reach out to me just the other day and say, I was helping them with something difficult and serious. And then they reached out and said, Dr. Dania, how are you doing? And I thought, wow, masha'Allah, to have someone much younger than you and someone who's, it might feel odd, it's like someone who's your elder, who's your teacher and so on to ask them, but it's so important because we're all human at the end of the day. What if we did that first? Our communities, our friends, our circles, our little get-togethers and chit-chats. Can you imagine the ripple effect that would happen? Dr. Dania, I feel like your spiritual tank, all this fills up others, whether one comes out of your Friday night, Kleyam or Ramadan Kleyam, or just any of your other works. And my takeaway from today's conversation has been as there is really a holistic understanding of mental health. You refer to psychology, you refer to philosophy, you refer to therapy, and then spirituality at the same time. And in your halaqas or qiyams, you've always, you've insisted on highlighting both the secular knowledge of your speakers, so to speak, or the science that they're grounded in, as well as their spiritual work. And I really appreciate all of that that you do. Would you like to close our conversation with the Dua? I would love to. I would love to, inshallah. And thank you. At first, before I do that, I just wanted to say, thank you again to Nissa. Thank you, Manita. And thank you to all those, I know there's a whole, usually there's a whole team behind these efforts. So I'm thanking everybody in the background as well. And I just want to say too, before we do the Dua, that I hope that this is a start with many more conversations like this, because any one of the topics we touched on, it's not conclusive or not, right? And so forgive my shortcomings, please, inshallah. And hopefully they just opened up our thoughts a little bit more. So with that, we'll close, inshallah. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Wassallallahu ala Sayyidina Muhammad. Wa ala alihi wa sahbihi wa sahbihi wa sahbihi wa sahbihi. Oh, Allah, we ask Ya Kareem to shower your mercy down upon us and to accept us, Ya Rabbi al-Anameen, to connect us to those, to connect us, Ya Rabbi, in all meaningful ways, Ya Rabbi, to goodness. Ya Rabbi, allow us, Ya Kareem, to be from those who are guided on your straight path and allow us, Ya Rabbi al-Anameen, to be from those who are forgiven. Ya Rabbi, ask you to be from those who are empowered and from those, Ya Rabbi al-Anameen, that can advocate for themselves and for others. Ya Rabbi, we ask Ya Kareem to protect us and to protect our families and to protect our friends and our loved ones. Ya Rabbi, we ask you to be from those who are always in service of others. Allow us, Ya Rabbi al-Anameen, to use our time and our effort and our knowledge and our strength and our efforts, Ya Rabbi al-Anameen, in serving our families, our communities, and humanity, Ya Rabbi al-Anameen. Ya Rabbi, we ask you for the best in all of this Dunya and in the best in the Akhira and to relieve us, Ya Rabbi al-Anameen, from trials and tribulation and allow us, Ya Rabbi, to see the fruits of our labor in the Akhira and Al Hamdulillah, Ya Rabbi al-Anameen, and may the peace and blessings of Allah be upon our Master Muhammad and his family and his companions and his companions. Amen. JazakAllah khairan sazalameen. Thank you very much. It's been my pleasure. My pleasure is all mine. Thank you so much again. Salam. Wa alaykum as-salam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh.


Hi everyone Joe for jaspyscasebreaks.com coming at you with a brand new release today's Wednesday 2020 Panini Donneress optic baseball 12 box pick a team number one from jaspyscasebreaks.com Thanks for getting into the action everybody. There's the full fresh case right here. So fresh and so clean And there's everybody right here for pick your team number one July the 22nd Gary last spot mojo Red Sox. Thanks to him. Thanks to everyone for getting in Got a couple more cases that we're gonna do right after this back to back in fact We've got this is pick your team one and then we'll have pick your team Three actually which filled before two coming up We'll go through some more orders, and I'm sure we have some other breaks that we can do tonight as well I know a couple things sold out. No worries Jay dog All right, so I guess it's confirmed now ladies and gentlemen mookie vets sign an extension with the Dodgers 12 years 365 million dollars 30 some odd million a year Pretty happy about it. I didn't think as I was mentioning before I started the video To the crew here. I didn't think that I didn't think he was gonna sign an extension before the season I thought he was just gonna be like I'm just gonna focus on this season right now All right, there you go Two autographs two autographs per box on average nice hot boxes Featuring a number of autographs five autographs per hot box That's what we have right there so Pretty cool stuff Aquino on the cover even though he's not on the Major League squad Some good stuff, but yeah, I was surprised about the the bet steel, but hey, I'm glad I'm glad he got it done maybe Maybe with the sort of financial uncertainty Following the pandemic, maybe he was just like let's just get this done now Adam was saying he never won stay in Boston doesn't matter how much we offered him Yeah, there were a couple Red Sox fans here that were that were like absolutely you know certain That it was just that mookie was just a rental for the Dodgers and that the Red Sox After they clear up some money, we're just gonna get him right back What up mtg? No, Jake saying mookie wanted to stay just wanted more money And I mean, I don't know if we'll ever really know the truth, but you know, but if you want to stay why didn't Why didn't he just wait to sign at the end of the season? So maybe he didn't The fact that he didn't even allow a bidding war to happen. I don't know That indicated these packs open real nice to by the way, like I said speed records opening these packs Right here we go. Hey, there's mookie bets right there 60 out of 76 Sort of patriotic 1776 sort of design Rolando Balanos and my assumption is no veteran commons will ship Yeah, no vet commons will ship obviously everything else will So like that Francisco Lindor hollow will ship and we've got Willie Castro Our first autograph rated rookie auto for the Tigers Christopher freeze with Detroit nice I'm not sure a couple at least That's kind of a weird cut right here Interesting Someone send that in for grading see what see what the what the centering gets There's Juan Soto to 150 Nick Magical rated prospect hollow. There's Michael King To 199 and there's Brandon McKay rated rookie autograph There's an outside chance for this guy to be rookie of the year, maybe Al rookie of the year Robert Gariki with that one Tampa Bay rays He can pitch he can hit Could be valuable show you a tiny right there actually need a Got baseball and starting tomorrow, ladies and gentlemen we got Yankees playing the Nationals in the earliest game It's the first of two games and then Dodgers Giants Will be tomorrow as well Then I think on Friday we get like the full slate and I think it'll just be just a full slate of baseball For many days in a row for 60 games It's gonna be quite a sprint. Oh, yeah, Jed Walker Bueller definitely definitely outpacing Kershaw Kershaw was really solid, but Walker Bueller is just Has that sort of Early Kershaw level of dominance We've got we've got shuna Yamaguchi Donner's autograph for the Blue Jays Blue Jays still looking for a home Richard Ziderman What the Blue Jays gonna play can't play in Canada Think they were they saying they wanted to they wanted to share the the park with Pittsburgh and I don't think that worked out There's Paul Goldschmidt to 199 We'll sleeve and top out all those a little bit later just an interest of time. We're gonna breeze through these There's Mauricio Dubon to 150 for the Giants George Springer Hollow Nate Pearson rated prospect That Marcus Simeon pink Velocity to 199 and 67 out of 99 Kyle Lewis orange rated rookie autograph for the Ems That's gonna be for EA Nice, I feel like the Mariners. You know, we got a lot of Jassby's fans in the Pacific Northwest. I feel like I feel like the Ems Could look really good in a short period of time. All right next box Yeah, I think that's what they were trying to avoid playing in that minor league stadium in Buffalo, but I guess I Guess that's what's gonna have to happen or don't they have a spring training facility that they were also thinking about So I think I guess they're exploring their minor league options first or their major league options first Maybe some stadium sharing but I think their Blue Jays first games are on the road. They're at the they're at the they're in Tampa Bay For for a few games their first home game wouldn't be until Maybe that nationals so they have until Wednesday the 29th it looks like before they have to figure it out They still have some time, but I want to get that that Liverpool football club Mask that Kenny Dalglish is wearing Jack Murph. That's right. Why not just go to Let's go play Jack Murphy Yeah, I don't know what's gonna happen.  That's out of 60 goldschmidt There's wind Merrifield to 125 for the Royals. There's you Chang rated rookie to 35 so Is it gonna it is is the Is this restart gonna help pitching more or is this gonna help hitting more? Like maybe or is just case by case bases. They're Sam Hillier for the Rockies Louise Robert to 76 Ozzy Alves to 76 is this maybe might be a hot box here parallel hot box Eric J with Louise Robert Which I think value has been skyrocketing since he's been hitting dingers Edward alzalee pink velocity on card autograph for EA and the Cubs nice Not number. Yeah, I guess not number but a Parallel we got Ronald Bolanos to 75 for the Friars Sorry EA knocking out That advert also you want to show himself there. There's Jeff McNeil to 199 for the Mets We've got Joey Gallo to 199 There's mookie bets right there It's official apparently Domingo Leyva to 76 and be a dodger for a long time Buster Posey to 125 and Dylan Carlson 19 out of 50 nice. That's a strong autograph right there making good use of the canvas Rated prospect auto for the Cardinals Rick Thomas the Redbirds Josh Donaldson to 199 That's twins edition of Josh Donaldson forgot it for almost forgot about that Travis Demarit for the Tigers to 199 Josh Bell to 199. I'm assuming these stained glasses are a little more shorter printed. I Know in other products other Panini products he stained glasses do well in secondary market EA with the Chris Bryant, there's Marcus Simeon To 76 dark we'll see what baseball ratings look like if they keep kneeling. I don't think it's gonna change The answer to you the stream in Strasburg 75 at a 125 Lewis Thorpe Doing good Liverpool football club. That's my team and doing their their celebrations here Usually this would this would be packed with like 80,000 fans or something like that But they've got the stage set up and everything they're gonna have to do the confetti explosion and stuff, right? Looks like it's a reversal right next box folks good luck the Raphael Devers To 50 and a Louise Robert rated rookie hollow I don't know if if these are these carry the same secondary market value the way basketball does But I'm sure with a player like Louise Roberts make a difference Eric J with the White Sox White Sox could look really good really quick folks. We've got a lot of youngsters On that team if they all put together Jake Rogers rated rookie autograph for Chris freeze and the Tigers Yeah, that's what I heard too John McCall NFL is gonna let some fans come in maybe a Quarter capacity half. I don't know. However, the each city wants to do it or each club wants to do it, but mandatory masks There's Eric Haas Cleveland signature series For the Indians Ian rated rookie hollow Hwang Young Kim 73 out of 99 Andres Munoz For the San Diego Padres That'll be for Brian Peeples With his Padres I guess those stained glass are a little more common than I thought I've got to see a few of them already Still nice looking there's Kyle Lewis is 76 And we've got Jalen Davis My rivals the Giants rated rookie autograph that goes to Eric Lille with the Higantas Darks are saying miss the mythical insert is the one you were telling Jason that looks nice I don't know if I've seen one of those yet Or maybe I've passed by it there's Yoshi Tomo Satsugo 125 for the Rays and Gavin Lux Autograph. Yes Rated rookie autograph hollow for the Dodgers Fred Schultz Didn't make the major league club, but I'm sure it'll be called up at some point Came late to camp looked a little rusty in the field and at the plate I think yeah, I think that's the probably the oh here's the mythical right here looks nice Ballinger I think that's the real reason Because if if he gets called up after 20 games, then they get another year of control. So That's probably the Yeah, it's all business. They probably did that was probably the real reason Uh-huh. Oh See, yeah, there you go. I eat nachos of the math. Yeah, I mean that's kind of I mean obviously you're taking off your mask when you eat and drink But isn't that what you do throughout the majority of the game? You're watching the game and you're always constantly eating and drinking You would think that maybe when you're like in line standing in line. Maybe that's that's what's the most crucial, you know inside inside a sort of Dark concourse, you know with not not a lot of air moving through there When you're in the stadium Bowl though, I suppose that's a little bit safer Just blast the AC I guess Or some fans you get those especially if it's indoor stadium But I think out there in the stadium Bowl should be a little bit safer enough air to move around droplets Some places will just be cold enough where they're gonna be bundled up anyway.  All right next box. Good luck. I Think we saw our first Parallel hot box. Is this our second their chain beaver to 76 it might be Cavendigio to 35 for the blue jays nice that'll go to Richard Z So will this Yamaguchi will go to you too. I don't think we've seen our autograph hot box There's O'Neill cruise 35 out of 50 rated prospect autograph Those pirates colors look nice the black parallel and the yellow That will be for Sanford and the pirates. There's Freddie Freeman to 60 There's illusions show you a tiny Jalen Davis to 75 Pete Alonzo How does he do this season? We were always talking about it yet like Pete Alonzo winning MVP. That'd be good for the hobby There's a granola to 199 Logan Allen 50 out of 50 rated rookie autograph for Cleveland and it'll be for Ian There's Brian a bray you to 100 For the Astros there's to teased mythical Austin Meadows to 60 Willie Castro to 150 red-white and blue Another red-white and blue Eloy Jimenez to 150. There's a mythical silver right there or a hollow I guess is what they call in Donner's optic that'll ship to amber. It's a good-looking one Mitch Hannigar to 199 Jets is Alonzo can't get MVP There's TJ zoo Sure. He can Is it likely? I don't know. It's John means to 50 Louise Robert Donnie Walton to 50 I'm just thinking about what's what's good for the hobby humans rookie of the year last year Kind of came out of nowhere a lot of hype cards are doing well. There's Hyunjin Roo for Toronto There's Logan Webb to 150 I'm just I'm just rooting for him There's Jonathan Valard 35 Jordan Henderson on TV for my club Liverpool About to lift the trophy Dylan sees to 125 Yeah Guys, there's the fireworks There's the confetti Jet says I got a black label Peter Lonzo. So you hope but you don't think he strikes out too much Doesn't everybody strike out too much baseball these days Oliver with the hollow Bobby with Junior Big fireworks show. All right. I like that. I'm at the entire Neighborhood See that Jet saying, but there's nothing special about his fielding. It's just really good home run hitter. Isn't that what the MVP is? No one says boy. What a good fielder. That's that's an MVP right there Peter Lonzo hits like 290 and bangs in like 20 home runs In the 60 game season, you know Takes the Mets to a playoff spot or even win the division or something like that Boom, there's your NL MVP right there Bobby would junior already playing I think I start him probably not right But I mean, yeah, I guess there's no minor league season. So they Reps will be good for him John Mercer, what's up? Welcome to new release day on jazzy's case breaks.com. We're halfway through our first Pick your team break of Donner's optic baseball.  I I found one a PS4 at a target Curbsided it. Oh, I've never a curbside picked up anything a target before but I think that might be a life changer for me Might do that all the time now. Just even post-pandemic Jalen Davis Eric Lee on the Giants 250 I Got my NASCAR game and I got that World War two call of duty game that came out a couple years ago and I Am pleased this punch. I haven't played it since Sunday. I played it all day Sunday and Work got in the way Gavin Lux autograph for the Dodgers At least there was another one that was nicer Fred Schultz with my Dodgers I'm gonna send you one of these Fred I think people say that if you've got one of these wrappers you can call a customer service line You might be able to get a replacement on that card or something in return There's Danny Mendic So this is your autograph this because this is your third auto of the box Kind of got cool penmanship, but he didn't really autograph here. Did he? It's Eric and the White Sox. It looks like your autograph hot box right here folks should be a couple more autos There's Michael Chavis Optic autographs for the Red Sox last spot mojo Gary and Mauricio Dubon 32 out of 50 rated rookie autograph for the Giants one of their big prospects Eric Leal That NASCAR game that I got which just came out the other week a lot harder than I thought Turns out driving in circles a lot harder than you know, I'm a NASCAR fan. I understand it But I have it on like the easiest levels to Still difficult Milner not a 75 Like you got it you got to hit the hit hit the lines perfectly And I'm pretty thought I was pretty good at it Still like a second behind like a top 10 spot. It's a lot. It's got to work on it It'll be my it'll be my weekend weekend task All right halfway through this break folks got about another we're at a good pace here The pace that I estimated so we should be done with this in about 30 minutes. I Will do an autograph recap at the end. I Should have mentioned that at the beginning. I don't know. I'm not a big gamer. So I Part of the learning curve is also just learning the buttons So I'll be playing the game or like I'll be playing that the World War two Call of Duty game And I'll be like hey press the square button to like do something or press this button to throw back a Grenade or something like that. I'm looking I'm like looking at the screen looking at my controller. Where is that click? No, we're not gonna be a professional gamer anytime soon folks and then they change like the I Think on a on Nintendo a is here and B is here, right and a is the accept button But the accept button is is the bottom button on a PlayStation controller and then someone was a buddy of mine was to telling me that That the buttons are also completely different on the next box and I'm just like what why is there no governing body? For game controller. Let's standardize this. It's so yeah, will Christians. I guess it's so annoying.  I've never had an n64 all that that's just like So learning the controllers that thing I'm just like I'm like hitting cancel when I want to accept stuff It's terrible. I Feel like I spent an entire afternoon just learning the buttons games are hard folks. Oh Nice you want to flip that camera? Don't make people see sick. Oh, you're gonna go that way. Yeah Do we not really okay? I was afraid you we were gonna wear the same shirt today Well, I gotta watch the Liverpool trophy performance So Nick's gonna help us out in the top camera right here was sliding the box over here What are all these extra boxes? On the car Remember they're on here. All right What else Dodgers extend Mookie bets corn MLB trade rumors calm Pennsylvania Department help will not approve the blue J2s of PNC Park Cardinals were released Brett Cecil Hunter Dozier test positive for COVID Brave sign Yolise Chassin raise trade Dylan Kobe to the Red Sox Colin McHugh ops out for the 2020 season couple couple players going Tommy John surgery Rocky's releasing Brian Shaw Jake McGee So on and so forth. Those are those seem to be the top headlines. No more Mazzara on the injured list Met release melky Cabrera and Gordon Beckham Met sign Juan Lageris and Brian Dodger Royals promoting Brady singer. Oh dust off your Brady singer prospect autographs And Mark Schum could miss his first scheduled start. There's Jose L to V to 25 There's your quick baseball news right there. I guess maybe the stained glass hollows are a little more rare It's nice boba shed for the Blue jays Richard Zimmerman. We got Jose Conceco Eight out of ten nice gold Oakland Ian Bobby Bradley 38 out of 50 rated rookie That is for Ian and the Indians Paul Goldschmidt to 125 Cardinals Rick T with the Redbirds And we got 68 out of 99 Dylan Cease rated rookie autograph. That'll be for Eric J Jet is saying boba shed is honestly gonna be a better. It's going to be better than Vlad II this season. I think so be interesting Yeah, just better better hitter Better overall better win above replacement It's kind of a nice broad overview Matt Tice to 199 Yeah, he's a different kind of hitter right boba shed. Yeah Compione What is the where's the other game? I can watch this on YouTube Yeah bowl bowl Wow, yeah, definitely get into the basketball folks Low number here six out of 15 Austin Riley Austin Riley cooled off considerably after his hot start, but I feel like it's this this is still a bounce back candidate At least hobby wise. I think baseball wise. He's always gonna be solid, but Get another boost hobby wise jet saying He thinks he's just gonna be Already done better and hitting and a better defensive player is what jet saying Ronald Acuna Jr. 75 We've got Wizards nuggets is it this is preseason action, right? Scrimmages nice in the bubble. Oh good good for them gets their following the rules Boba Shet hollow rated rookie hollow going to Richard Ziderman. There is numbers right there from last year Lou Jays could be a really nice Could be a really surprising team this year. You don't like the fake crowd nice They just haven't gotten it right. It's just so there's match happen for the a's in The cardboard. Yeah, no, I love those those are great Sheldon new see Oakland a's in I Love it cardboard cuts are great.  I wish this I Like the idea though Microsoft You're saying it looks too generic yeah, like they're not they're wearing a blue hat with no daughter's logo It's like a stock photo. Yeah from like Getty images. Do these all fit in a shoebox this year? Feel like they fit it. I don't know. We'll keep going No But I think in previous years they could fit they could all fit into a shoebox But then I got nervous, but I think we can all right. There's a Cunha junior Jet says the Jays can't play in minor league teams because he said the lighting is not good enough for major league games There's Christian Yelich Bowl Bowl that slam done Hmm. Yeah, I was wondering why not just do minor league parts, but I guess lighting could be an issue Hmm, so where are they gonna play? No, but that jet saying that minor league part just doesn't have good enough lighting Well, what's this? Stars and try stripes Clayton Kershaw That's pretty awesome. I would build a set of this That's kind of clean. There's no lettering on there. Just this picture. It's pretty cool Fred with the Dodgers Matt Chapman is that a case hits his Patrick K? It's a little more more important day then and Jason Dominguez 23 out of 35 Rated prospect autograph That goes to Jeremy Tillman and the New York Yankees. There you go, JT. That's not a bad autograph Jason Ming is autographed not too not too bad That is awesome. We'll save that for picture time. We got Michael Baez right behind him for the Padres I would go to Brian Peoples. I like that. I don't know what these parallels are called, but sky blue or Carolina blue teal But it's nice. 3 bucks to go, thank you, Nick. Just be able to save a little bit of time here and then we'll dive right into another one of these Just passed by that Wander Franco. That will ship, but someone was saying telling me yesterday Wander Franco prices are creeping up There's huge hang Rated rookie autograph for the Cleveland Indians because I think Wander Franco is going to get some playing time this year Cleveland Ian with the Indians Vlad Guerrero Jr. to 75 Yeah, I think Jett was mentioning that That the Blue Jays starting rotation is not too shabby either So if they if everything clicks if they're ahead of schedule if they put it all together Be a pretty dangerous team Carb Laster says that's a carol and they call it Carolina blue Aaron Saval red, white and blue to 150 Nissan Diaz and Kwang Hyun Kim For the Cardinals that'll go to Rick T. I guess in In Korea they do the last things first would be Kim Kwang Hyun Lewis Thorpe and Jose Abreu to 1 at 99 Darryl Strawberry the straw man at the end two more to go Callie what's going on? Chris Freese wants some more Spencer Torkelton Torkelson cards in Donner's optic is Clayton Kershaw to 76 We've got Sam Hilliard for the Rockies Darrell Taylor on the board with old Sam Louis Arreyes for the twins to 76 There's Nate Pearson right there the next autograph is gonna be Nico Horner Nice, this was a great case. We got some Gavin Lux's Nico Horner autograph that Jason Dominguez EA with the Cubs This is a potential Pistols rookie eligibility, right? I think he's potential L rookie of the year. There's Marcus Simeon to 76 Louis Severino Hollow and George Brett There's Jake Fraley to 150 Anthony Rizzo to 150 It's our last box here. It's the last couple autographs Trey Mancini stained glass Bobby Bradley rated rookie Kirby Puckett Randy Otto Zareña Got a nice auto a sad face in that auto Rick T with the Cardinals Yeah, we've got so we've got some good win boxes left. We'll add some more to the side. There's rated prospect Wanderfranco That goes to the rays that'll be for You get that base one too, but that'll be for Robert with the rays Zach Gallin one out of five nice case Rated rookie green Arthur with the Diamondbacks. There you go, Arthur second and final is that the final autograph or is it one more but Still nice. Yeah, I think this is the second last autograph of the case one out of five and That goes to Arthur Peru and a train whistle Arthur all aboard the big hit Express Anthony you sent us a DM from unopened boxes from 1997 to 2015 We're not really in the business of buying boxes But it could be a good good resale for you if you go on eBay Anthony K Unless you have any like 2014 15 Penini prison basketball And there you go boys and girls nice break. Here's a quick recap Of course we had that Jason Dominguez Was pretty sharp The out of five Zach Gallin Nico herner in the mix you Chang the case at Clayton Kershaw Austin Riley Gold can say go to 10 Little dent right there on the Gavin Lux Silver, but we'll or hollow in this set, but we'll send a UPC code just in case me He will hook you up with something or maybe a replacement Michael Chavis Bobby with jr. Hollow. There's a Better Gavin Lux autograph. This one was clean Nice So this is a pretty great case Louis Robert Hollow Dylan Carlson, Albert alzalei Kyle Lewis Brandon McKay, Willie Castro once again that Dominguez was really nice. So there you have it a bit of cardboard dust on there But looks good plus a ton of parallels as well. That was pick your team number one from jaspy's case breaks calm I'm Joe. I'll see you next time for the next break. Bye. Bye


Hi, I'm Mr. T with R-Valence. Antennas are all around us these days, but what's an antenna array? Before we answer this question, if you enjoy our videos, consider subscribing to our channel, or let us know in the comments what topics you'd like to learn about. In cases when the radiation pattern of a single antenna is too wide, or if its gain is too low, antenna arrays come handy. Antenna array is typically a setup of two or more identical antennas working as one by being fed the same signal simultaneously. Forming an antenna array has two main effects. Compared to a single antenna by itself, an array has radiation pattern with one main lobe and the side lobes and higher resulting gain of the main lobe. This gives antenna engineers the freedom to tweak the gain and the radiation pattern as needed. How does it work? This is how the electromagnetic fields of a single patch antenna look like. Looking at the fields of an array of two patch antennas, there's a clear difference. They are directions where the fields are strong and in other directions they are weak. This is caused by the wave interference. The maxima come from constructive interference when the waves from both patches have the same phase, adding together resulting in a stronger wave. The minima come from the destructive interference, where the waves have an opposite phase, cancelling each other out. The maxima and minima correspond to the lobes and nulls in the far field radiation pattern. The more antennas in an array, the higher the resulting gain of the main lobe. At the same time, the beam width of the main lobe is decreasing. The weaker beams in different directions than the main lobe are called side lobes and are generally undesired and shrink with the growing size of the array. This principle is universal, regardless of what is the basic radiating element. Using patch antenna, parabolic dish or a horn antenna will result in a radiation pattern with similar main features, the main beam and the side lobes. The spacing between the array elements determines the beam width of the main lobe. The further apart they are, the larger the physical size of the array effectively decreasing the beam width. Also the angles and the size of the side lobes change with the element spacing because the fields add up differently for different antenna spacing. Patch arrays can be linear, resulting in a changing radiation pattern along the array axis, surface resulting in changing radiation pattern along both axes or conformal to fit various surfaces of devices or larger systems. Most common example of an antenna array is a patch array antenna where a number of patches is etched on a printed circuit board and fed through a symmetrical feeding network. Patch arrays are used in many applications such as cellular network coverage, radars or airplanes, due to the flexibility and affordability of the technology. If you find our videos useful, consider subscribing to our channel. Give it thumbs up or leave a comment.


I am a mother of a girl child. What is my responsibility as a mother? Actually, I don't know.  Girl child.  You should never see whether this is a girl or a boy. That's the first thing. Neighborhood boys will see that this is a girl. That's okay. You should not be wondering whether this is a boy or a girl. This is just a child. And the best thing you can do for your child is, if you think the way you are is everything, naturally your aspiration will be they should become like you, which will be a backward step for next generation of people. What the next generation should be, what you cannot imagine, that's what they should be. If you mold them, how will you mold them, like yourself? And maybe your parents were better at molding than you, so you will do a worse job than them. Because probably your mother, your father, at least for your mother, maybe it was a full-time job molding business, your part-time molder, we can imagine what you will do. Don't try to mold them. Just a child needs a stable, pleasant atmosphere to grow. To create a joyful, I'm saying first joyful, first joyful, then loving, do you understand?  First joyful atmosphere, if you're capable of holding it, then you can add little bit of your love to it. Children will need your love and attention till they're five, six, seven, after that they want to distance themselves, they want to become their own thing. And it's fine, you just... your only business is to keep them in a very joyful and loving incubator. Of course, there'll be somebody else on the street who'll be trying to do something else with them. Those influences are always there, you should not protect them entirely from those things because someday they have to get out. But your business is not to mold them.  They should become something more than you, what you are, isn't it?  If you're this joyful, they should become more joyful than you. If you're this intelligent, they should become more intelligent than you. If you're this balanced, they must be far more balanced than you, yes? If your life is this rich, their life must be much richer.  What you have gathered should never enhance your life. Please get this for yourself and your child. Who you are is who you are. What you have is to what extent is useful to us, we'll have those things, everything. Whatever we can use and enjoy, we will have. But never try to enhance your life, never try to enhance who you are by what you wear, by where you live, what you own, these things should be useful. You use them to the limit, no problem.  If your child grows into this, whatever he or she becomes, it's fine, they need not be like you. Once you don't have this problem that they don't... they don't have to be like you, then you will see it's such a joy and freedom to raise your child.   How glad I am.


I'm going to be passing out while on FaceTime. Hi, what's up? I just don't feel good right now. What do you mean? You don't feel good? I don't feel good. Babe, are you okay? Did you just freaking pass out? Mariah, answer. Babe, are you actually okay?  Guys, we have some really bad news. What's up, guys? We have very, very bad news right now. Something that's just terrible. Something's happening right now. It's traumatic. We're gonna show you. Three, two, one. Madeline and Stephen are leaving. As you know, they've been here for the past week. If you do not know, well, they've been here at our apartment for the past week and they're currently off to the airport. We're off to drive them an hour to the airport right now. But we get Chick-fil-A. But we're getting Chick-fil-A. So, I mean, we're trying to, we're trying to dull down there. We'll see them soon, guys. Yeah, I mean, it is sad, but we had a great time with them. Should we move to Texas? Comment down below. Should we move to Texas and be close by them? I don't know. We're gonna see, but we're gonna be in our apartment for a while. Like, don't think we're just gonna hop out and move because we just got settled here. But if you guys are new, welcome back to our channel, guys. Make sure to go hit that Subscribe button. Turn on Post notifications so you get notified every time we post. How many likes are we trying to get this video to, babe? 20,000? 20,000? You literally, if everyone liked the video right now, we can get this video to 40,000 likes. 50,000. Just think if everyone liked it once. That'd be crazy. Anyways, guys, we're on the way to the airport. It's very sad, but it's gonna be great because we're gonna see them again. So, don't worry. Snap's gonna miss his auntie. Look at it. I'm sorry, Snap. Hey, Snap was taking his last nibbles, biting Stephen like 30 seconds ago, if you guys didn't see. My hand. Probably had some damage on it. Literally, having a cat.  Oh, wait, wait. I should make you sign like a thing so you can sue us. Wait, this is my favorite part of your apartment. Oh, yeah, you got it? Yay! We literally have the clapper.  This other night, I heard them trying to clap like 50 times to when it turned off. And then I was waiting for them to be like, sometimes it doesn't work. And you just have to keep going louder and louder. But we're on the way to the airport and we'll see you guys a little bit. This is it, guys. We're saying goodbye to them now. We're at the airport and they're taking their bags and they're leaving us. They don't want to stay here anymore. Stephen, why? I have to go see my cats. Your cats? Okay, well, we love you. I'm gonna give you a hug. Bye. See you next time. Bye, Madeline. Bye, thanks for coming. I hope you guys enjoyed your stay. We did. Thank you so much. Thank you so much. That was our first apartment. Your first apartment was the OG apartment though, to be honest. All right, guys. We'll have a good trip. It's the OG apartment and the OG couple. Yes. All right, dude. We'll see you later. Bye, safe. We got a sleeping monkey over here. Snail, say hi to the Marvel Squad. You have been so good. You miss Madeline and Stephen. I know. I miss them too. I miss them too. But what is good, Marvel Squad? And welcome back to our channel. I am so sad because Madeline and Stephen just left. We had the most fun week with them. So glad we got to spend Halloween and everything together. And what's crazy is this month has been a full year since we've been friends with Madeline and Stephen, which is crazy because that was the first time ever meeting up. Those were the first YouTube couples we've ever met up with. They're the OGs and I am so blessed to have them, you know, part of our lives. And I just, I couldn't ask for any other better best friends. I hate that we live so far away and I wish we could be live so much closer, but it's all right. It's okay.  Hi babies. Oh, you want to leave right behind mama? Oh my God. Okay. You wanted the intro with me. But guys, as you guys read by the today's title, I'm going to be passing out while on FaceTime. I saw Della Vlogs do this. Bella did this on Della. I thought it was super funny. So I thought why not do it on Bill? Bill actually just left to go get his computer fixed. He accidentally spilled juice on it and it's really sticky like the key pads really sticky now. So he's on his way to the store right now, which is perfect timing because I can actually film this intro and not have to rush or talk wide or do anything. So as you guys read by the title, it's pretty self-explanatory. Basically, I'm just going to call him up after he's done fixing his computer and ask him what he's doing and ask if he wants to go grocery shopping because we have to go grocery shopping tonight. And I'm just going to be like, oh my God, I don't feel good. I'm hoping for he even gets in the car and starts like driving. I'm probably going to end the prank because I don't want him to get in an accident and I don't want anything bad to happen to him. So I'm going to make sure I cut the prank before it's really unsafe. I know I said I'll be done to pass out pranks, but I have to pull it on guys. Hashtag Team Mariah has to come back with a prank. We have to show Bill who is boss and who runs his channel because I do. But alright guys, I'm going to wait a little bit. Wait to see where he's at. Make sure he's not jogging. Make sure he's at a steady spot. Make sure he's at the location that he wants to be at. And then I'm going to FaceTime him and we're going to get his little booty, but I'm so excited. Make sure he's video a big thumbs up guys. Let's check his video at 20,000 likes like we said in the beginning of today's video. 20,000 likes for Hashtag Team Mariah and just the Marvel Squad and how epic thoughts be almost about to hit a million subscribers, which is in freaking sane. And make sure you guys go hit that subscribe button if you guys have not already.   I think that's a good idea. So let me go track Bill's location. I'm pretty sure he just made it there. So I'm going to call him quick. I just want to make sure first is I rather be safe and sorry. I don't want him to get in a car accident. Alright, so yes, he's at the place. So I'm going to give him a call right now. Let me turn on my screen recording. This is about to be crazy. Hi, are they able to fix your computer?  I thought they were just going to switch it out. What are we going to do? Because we have to upload our videos and stuff. That's why I didn't turn it in. I'm keeping my computer. Okay. I was just calling to see what you were doing because I want to go grocery shopping and stuff and get that over with. I don't know. I'm not really. I don't know. Maybe what I said, I want to get done tonight because you know, I don't want to do it tomorrow. That's fine. I just don't feel good right now. Like when we dropped on balance even I just got really cars thinking I'm nauseous. Come here my love. Come cuddle mama. She don't feel good. What do you mean? You don't feel good. I don't know. I feel like like nauseous and dizzy.  I drink some water. I've been drinking water, but just kind of chilling. I'll be over a minute. So I don't feel good. I just want you to stand the ball with me while I drive. I really don't. I don't feel good. Babe, are you okay? Mariah. Babe, Mariah. Babe, are you actually okay? Mariah, answer. Did you just freaking pass out? Babe, are you actually serious like me for real? Answer your phone. Mariah, answer me. Babe, you're actually scaring me. Should I be concerned or no?  Oh my God.  I'm literally like 20 minutes away, too. Babe, if you're honestly like kidding with me, can you like please be for real? Because I'm about to like freak out. Babe, stop, stop, stop. What are you doing? Pull over. Don't drive. What do you mean pull over? Just don't drive. I don't want to be on the phone. I know, but I don't want you to come. No. Just talk to me. What's up? What's wrong?  Mariah, can you please just talk to me? You're obviously awake, babe. I don't feel good.   Why are you sleeping like that? What happened? You're passing out. You need to talk to me. You need to get up or I'll set up, please. I feel good at all. Listen to me. I feel good. My gosh, what do you want me to do? I'm not going to drive with you on the phone. I don't know. I don't want to pass out. I need to use my directions, babe. I feel like I'm about to pass, babe. Do you want me to get you on the phone? I'm about to pass out. Babe, Mariah, can you please get home? Babe, I need to use my address. I can't talk to you at the same time, babe. Okay, I'm going to let you go. Oh my gosh, I'm letting you go. And I'll be there in like 20 minutes, okay? Bye. Oh my God.  He said he needs to use his address, direction. He's not worried about his freaking directions. Are you kidding me? We're calling him back right now. I'm just going to call him because I don't want to FaceTime him since he is driving. You're not concerned about me? Mariah, I am. You passed out. I cannot be on FaceTime while I'm using my maps. My phone's literally about to die. So you're more concerned about your freaking phone or your phone directions of me passing out? Because I have to get you. You wouldn't want to stay on the phone and make sure I'm okay?  It's going to overheat my phone a little. What? Why are you laughing? Excuse you, but I think I'm a little bit more Mariah, you are, but my phone is on 7% and I'm 20 minutes away in an area that I do not know where I am. I need to use my maps so I can get to you. I'm literally going to be there in like 19 minutes. Can you just hang tight and stop passing out? Can you drink some water and set up this? You're scaring me. Okay. All right, just I'm a little confused in what your work is thrown about your GPS than me. Wait, what? I'm not. I'm literally driving to you right now. All right, love you. See you in 20 minutes. What's wrong? Nothing, bye. All right, bye.  This is crazy. Let me just say guys, Bill is very concerned. I can tell as to why he is wanting to go to the GPS because his phone is about to die. So I do get why he wants to get back here as soon as possible. So his phone does die. Then you can get here if I need him. I get that. He does care about me.  But really, Bill? I'm a little disappointed in you, but it's all right. I love you. And we're going to tell him it's a prank. Once he gets here, I got my little snappy with me, huh? Cutting thing with mommy. But yeah, guys, now let's just wait until Bill gets here and we're going to tell him it's a prank. So see you guys then. Now let me just say, Bill could be out of something. He could be freaking pranking me, telling me he's more focused by his GPS. So I wonder if he freaking knows.  Team Mariah did not come strong on this one. I'm hoping he hasn't figured it out. He may have figured it out as to why he's more focused on his GPS than me. Oh my God. I hope team Mariah came back strong on this one because well, I guess we'll just find out what he freaking gets here. Good luck to me. Oh God. All right guys, so he just made it home. He's about to walk in any second. Like I'm so nervous. Yeah. Are you good? Yes, I'm fine. Are you okay? Yes. Why do you have a camera? Cause it's a prank. You were lying to me this whole time? Yes, I was pranking you. Good thing I didn't care. You didn't care? Yeah, I took my time coming home. You didn't care about me being passed out? Nope. Why? I was very disappointed in you that you didn't care about me. You're more focused on your GPS. That just shows me if I really was passed out and you're on the phone. No, no, no, no. That just shows if I was actually passed out, you would not care about me. Marble Squad, let me just tell you guys, I low key knew you were pranking me, but I just wanted to make sure you're surrounded. I literally told them I was going. I think you were onto something. I'm so mad. Who passes out like that on the phone? Tell me right now. Team Mariah does. If someone was on FaceTime with you and they passed out, what are these freaking eyes? No, you didn't know.  Okay, no, honestly. I didn't say I did rush here a little bit. I didn't speed, but I did rush here a little bit and I ran up the stairs instead of going up the elevator because I did think you might have passed out. I didn't want to take that chance, but right when I walked in here and I saw the camera, I knew it was a prank.  You're trying to get a team bill prank here. You're trying to get a team bill prank here. You're lying. You just saw the camera. I wanted to make sure it was team bill.   Look at you. Hey, don't throw stuff at me.  Stop pranking me. I need to get a prank in before you do. Well, you just did. You just backfired on me. Okay, but this still wasn't my prank. I'm glad that I figured it out though. Right at first, I thought it was real. And then after that, I was like, all right, she might be pranking me. You're not cool. So when you called me back, I was like, all right, all right. She's acting a little weird, but I still don't want to take the chance. So I still got over here. That didn't change the fact that I was still nervous and I was hoping that you were okay. Look at her. Look at what you're doing. She's my annoyed face. Are you annoyed? Yes. I'm sorry. Are you going to cry? Are you going to cry about it?      No. Guys, literally, this girl always trying to prank me. I hope you enjoyed this video because I backfired on her. I hope you enjoyed half my prank because I got you for a little bit. I backfired on you. Yeah, just because you backfired on me. Just because you pranked me for a little bit. No, not how you wanted to. It's all right.  Babe, you are awesome.  You took a W. Don't worry. I just took a bigger W today. Guys, it is freaking 7 at night. I'm ready to just crash and cuddle and watch TV. Wait. This is going with the Madeline Steven clips? Oh, I thought we were going to put those in our next... Okay, guys. As you saw in the beginning, we just dropped off our friends at the airport. I thought that was going in our next video, but it's going in this one. Wait. We have to show them the fan mail really quick. Oh, no. That's going on Friday. Friday? Yeah. We're going to flip out when you see some of the stuff that these people sent us in our PO box. Thank you. We have like 20 letters to open. We have a couple of boxes to open. We're going to do all those off camera, but we want to show you some stuff on camera. And I guess we're doing it Friday because Mariah wants to do it Friday. So, someone got us a cat toy. I'm just going to say that. But anyways, guys, I hope you enjoyed this video. Shout out to Madeline Steven. Thank you guys for hanging out with us all week. It was so fun. Yes, I love you guys. And she got Mariah addicted to the Nintendo Switch now. Yes. I freaking just bought it because of her because I love it so much. Literally. So, we're going to be gaming up on that. If you want to add us, add us. We'll play some Mario Kart ball out. Yes. And do you fart? No. Don't even try to expose me. No, I think that was our cat. Our cat farts all the time. No, he's way over there. Look at him. Exactly you that farted. But anyways, guys, we love you. Thank you for checking this video out. Make sure to subscribe if you haven't already and turn on notifications so you're notified every time we post. Every time we post. This video notification shout out goes to Sarah Brown. Sarah, thank you for subscribing and having your notifications on. Being one of the first people to comment on our videos. We love you so much. We love you. If you want a notification shout out, that's all you got to do. Comment down below when done. When you're subscribed and your post notifications are on, that's how you get a post notification shout out. And we'll see you guys in the next video. Wait, wait, wait. One more thing. Comment down below what you think we're going to show you out of the PO box. It's nothing crazy, but it's really cool. So, comment down below what you think. And we will see you in the next video. But until then, peace. Love you guys. I'm also going to be back tomorrow, but love you guys. Oh yeah, her hair is getting way darker, so get ready. Love you guys.