with disappointments in life and racing. Oh my goodness, YouTube family. I don't know if anybody knows what this is right here. Gonna talk about it in a little bit. First, shoveling some snow. Oh man, man, it's not all roses, right? It's not all roses out there, okay.  Oh my goodness. We got the ultra torrents today, taking them out in the snow. Oh man, I just, I'm excited to talk about this disappointment and what it can look like in life and in racing. And there's been some good days and some bad days out there on the track, on the course, on the road, on in the mountains. And yeah, we'll dive more into this, but I must say, I have no clue who this is from. By the way, two boxes arrive today. One of them I'll have to go back for tomorrow because I need to get a signature, which is great. And then this guy arrived straight from running warehouse. We shall see. I don't know. Let's just, I don't, yeah, it doesn't have a name on it. Nope, doesn't have a name on it. So anyway, thank you for, I don't know if these are for me or if these are for the giveaway. I'm not sure. Either way, it lifts my spirits because it's been a hard 12 hours. I'll just put it that way. All right, let's put these torrents on, get some couple miles, not three miles in, real easy, and then go into the gym. There you have it, three miles in the books. All right, I hate to go here, but keyword gotta be disappointment. And listen, we can overcome disappointment, but it will hit all of us at some point, right? Hopefully it's not every day, right? Oh man. But a run does lift your spirits, if you know what I mean. Okay, into the gym, come on. Okay, real, all right, gym was good. You know, results just takes work. You just gotta put the time in, everybody, you know that. And I wanna make a correction real quick. I was not correct about the distance of the UTMB race over in France. It's not 140 kilometers, it's 170 kilometers. So sorry I gave some bad, I will always correct myself if you guys catch something where I give the wrong drop on a shoe, which has happened once before or the wrong distance on a race. Definitely let me know down in the comments because we don't wanna be given out that information about a race that is that long, 170 kilometers. So that translates to 105 miles. And with the poles, carrying poles at the UTMB race, you don't have to carry them, but I did find out that you have to carry them if you, the entire race, if you start with them. So you can either start with them or not start with them. But if you do start with them, you gotta carry them the whole way. So a couple of quick corrections there for you. Thanks for catching that, whoever caught that out there. Appreciate it, appreciate it. Okay, getting ready for the live stream with my brother. You all know the tip of the day. You put the towel down on the windshield before you go to bed so it doesn't ice over.  So you can also buy things that do this but we just use an old beat up towel. It works, it does the trick. Got a cold in here, it's kind of cold. And it is freezing out here in the studio. I got the heater turned on warming up for the live stream tonight. And you probably already know this, but don't keep your running shoes out in the cold temperatures, like out in your garage or definitely not like you're in like a, what are those entryways called before you get into the house to kind of kick the snow off, even outside there, like just bring them inside, maybe put them in a plastic bag if they have a little odor to them because those cold temperatures really breaks down the midsole a lot quicker and it'll take away from the, basically the absorption through the cushion, through the foam of your ride. Like it'll make the midsole a lot more dense. And I really notice it in the ZoomX foam on the Nike's, like the Nike Turbos. Once I left them outside in the cold, not for, I don't think it was overnight.  So okay, let's go add these to the collection. And yes, the pile is getting bigger. It's getting closer to giving these shoes away. Okay, come on. All right, bringing them in from the cold, bringing them in from the cold. Here is the pile we're gonna do the giveaway. I would say in the next week, we're gonna be doing a couple of giveaways. Remember when we hit 10,000 subscribers, I'm gonna buy running shoes for some of you out there. But in addition, because of your generosity, it's actually happening. Like we had an idea, a collective idea, and now look at this pile. Look at this pile. I don't know if you can even see that, but bottom line, the corner of the bedroom is getting a little full. So it's time to get them out of here, get them out of here. So I would say in the next four or five days, we will do a giveaway, and I have a couple ideas on how we're gonna do it. So stay tuned for that. All right, YouTube, we are going live in about 30 minutes with my brother. Hopefully it works. Gonna try the webcam. It's not quite as high quality, but it's gonna do the trick. So if you didn't, well, let's just make sure it works. I'll let you know if it worked in about an hour from now. So, oh my, and we got the microphone connected. Let's go. And there you have it. It worked. The live stream worked. Oh my goodness. So I interviewed my brother, and he's, gosh, if you're in high school, especially, you gotta go watch it, upper right hand corner. We talk about training, footlocker, all sorts, mountain running, good topics, really good topics. And this is the next step forward where I will be interviewing live so you can ask questions live for professional runners, coaches, race directors, anyone really that's got a story to share that's really well connected to this sport that we love called running. So I'm excited that it worked. I'm hoping, I'm just gonna drop his name now. I'm hoping to get Mike Wardian on next. And I won't even, I won't share what he did, but he did something insane recently that has to do with marathon running. Okay, moving on to today's topic. Oh, you know, it's a tough one. It's a tough one, disappointment in life, in racing. Gosh, like, I don't know about you, but life is all about dealing with curveballs, right? It's like things that just, that happen. They just happen, and you don't see it coming. Well, what happened last night? Why did I wanna talk about this topic? This is not, well, it is connected to running, but the external hard drive. 10 terabytes, 10,000 gigabytes. I just bought this, thankfully, three weeks ago. So last night, I got home late from the gala. I was tired. I was exporting footage, all the raw video files that I have filmed in the last three to four weeks were on my computer. I was putting it onto the external hard drive to back it up and to clear space on my MacBook Pro. And basically, I forgot that it was connected. I moved my computer, this fell to the ground, and it's broken, and it's broken. And I know you can send these away to get them fixed to extract the video files, but it's expensive, so I don't think I will do that. So basically, I've lost the last three to four weeks of video files for the vlog, the Innovate footage, the Hoka Carbon Rocket footage. Basically, I'm disappointed. I was very disappointed last night because think of all that footage that I filmed and I don't have access to the raw files moving forward. So it was disappointing. And in racing, for me, last year, I, okay, I raced 250Ks in back-to-back weekends. I was planning to race the Speed Go 50K in Utah, and that was gonna be one of my peak races for the year, but I got a little excited. I learned my lesson, but I went out and I ran another 50K race the week before. I did end up winning that race at Copper Mountain, so I don't really regret going to that race. I won it. It was a 50K, 6,000, yeah, 6,000 feet of elevation gain. It was a doozy, but good prize money and I just put that out like I'm glad I did it because I won, but the next week, I had this big trip planned. I went to Speed Goat, the famous Carl Metzler puts it on, who's won more 100 mile races than anybody else in history, I believe.  Well, at this race, I was in third place and then faded, I think, all the way to like 20th place. I don't even know. I faded bad. It was ugly and it was disappointing. It was very disappointing to put all that work into the race, into the training, into the travel to get out there to Utah, which isn't that far, but anyway, so I just bring up these topics because, listen, yeah, it's like life isn't all cherries on top, you know? It's like we've gotta deal with these situations sometimes and so the question of the day, how do you deal with disappointment in your training, in your racing, or even just in life in general? You know, we can keep it broad, but I'd be fascinated to hear like, do you have a go-to mental strategy for dealing with disappointment? After a race, like for me, I was so disappointed after the Speed Goat 50K last year and I think I'll just share one thing that I do. I'm not afraid to internalize that disappointment, let it go inside and dwell around a little bit and just be like, yeah, and that's what I did last night for like two hours.  That's a lot of work that I just lost in this external hard drive, but then I make sure mentally to say, okay, I'm only gonna give myself, especially for a situation like this, like two hours, maybe three hours to like sulk and feel sorry for myself and then you gotta snap, you gotta come back out of it. So anyway, I internalize and then snap out. So that's the question of the day. I know it's kind of a tougher topic, but we're real here, right? We're a YouTube family, so we gotta support each other through the good times and the bad times in my humble opinion.  Thanks for being here. Thanks for being at the live stream if you were there and we will do this again. Yeah, tomorrow, I'll be back tomorrow. You better believe it. See, beauty, work hard, by the way, the t-shirts are very comfortable, very comfortable. They'll be available soon. Love each other. See you tomorrow.


First, I would like to apologize to you guys for not having products available on organ supplements. I will have some temporary replacements on Frankie's Fringe Meat as frozen alternatives to our normal capsule powder products. And I really didn't want to make a video about this, but as with all of these other ridiculous problems I've had over the past two years, from my Kickstarter getting taken down, the fitness company scamming me for $7,000, that clown contractor from last week, the other week some degenerate sent me $300 worth of samples, $300 of powdered bullshit, which in reality is $20 or $30, and this greedy motherfucker didn't want to give me my money back after I didn't want to do business with him. I mean, give me my money back because he did not charge me a proper amount for the samples he sent me.  So I said, hey, alright, I'll let my friends know about your great customer service. You know what else?  That degenerate is John over at Capsule Supplies. Definitely say hello to him for me, and I strongly suggest you don't do business with him or Sean at Gridiron Nutrition, as he was supposed to have a fresh batch of supplements for you guys by now.    I've been dealing with this nonsense for eight months. As with the interaction with that nut job contractor last week, I am dealing with unreasonable people.  Am I a magnet for bad business? Or is everyone that's able to run a business now a scam artist in some capacity? That's probably how they got there in the first place. Many of you have ordered off my company, Organ Supplements, where we sell organ powders and vitamins, and if you guys have placed an order in the past week or two, just reach out to me because we're going to do a liquidation sale because of this stupid pig on my logo, and regardless of whether I get new supplements or not, I have to get rid of this stuff now. So I'm going to sell it at what I paid for and actually losing some money because I have to account for the shipping. But you guys have been barning me with emails, when are things going to get back in stock, and they were supposed to be here already. So this started back in October of last year. I was looking for beef powders to sell to you guys because so many of you were asking me about it, and I finally found the source of them. So I reached out to the company that processed the raw materials for a quote, and that company didn't want to sell to me directly because my volume wasn't high enough, so they referred me to an importer. And that importer was John from Capsule Supplies. And I didn't really like dealing with them from the start because of their tone of voice, their interaction, how they were acting across the board. But I didn't have any other options at that point. So John had the beef powders, and he referred me to Sean at Gridiron Nutrition to have the actual supplements bottled and all. That means is he puts the powders in gelatin capsules, puts them in a plastic bottle, slaps a label on it. Seems pretty simple, right? But we went back and forth for a bit, agreed on a few formulas. And the initial amount for all my products cost me $30,000. And $30,000 at the time was pretty much my life savings, as I've never made a lot of money or worked a really good job. But to these guys, it was a rather small order. Sean had promised that I would get the supplements by the beginning of January. And considering I had paid for and ordered the supplements in early November, that was more than a reasonable production period. It was actually longer than most supplement companies take. But they ended up being delayed until mid-March. Over two months after I initially promised, that's two months of me not selling products, not making revenue. And Sean kept blaming the label company, Turner Labels, that he couldn't get them.  Sean ignored the majority of my calls and would respond on average every two weeks. And guys, I was beyond understanding. Every time I was like listen, just let me know what's going on, let's communicate. I understand delays happen. He kept dodging my phone calls, not responding to my emails. This guy was not honest enough to even pick up the phone and tell me what was going on. He had $30,000 of my money compromising my business revenue, my potential customer base, I could have used the money for other things. In these two months, I was so stressed out of my mind every day. When am I gonna get these, when am I gonna get these? So I could start making my money back.  I was so aggravated. And then when I got the supplements, they had a pig logo instead of a cow, which I didn't care about at the time. I was like finally, let's just sell that. But now that's part of the reason I have to liquidate all the products. And the vitamins didn't even have the same logo. They said Frank's meats instead of organ supplements. And I had a difficult time getting the stuff on Amazon. Just the labels being incorrect could have put a normal company out of business. And the fact that I couldn't list them on Amazon was even worse. It's just completely unacceptable customer service from every end. And at no point did they try to remedy or apologize for any of their errors. Thankfully enough of the product sold that I could afford another run of supplements. And the reason I had to do that is because I'm only offering five products. If I get six, seven, eight more products, I'll get a lot more revenue. People will want more stuff. Plus I can get him to make me new labels so I can relabel this and get more revenue on Amazon. So I reached out to Sean again in April and you guys might be wondering, Frank, why would you do business with this guy if the first experience was a complete nightmare so delayed and stressful? It's because it would be near impossible at this point to find another supplement manufacturer and start from scratch. Especially with what was going on in the world. And I figured, hey, worst case scenario, it's a three month delay again. And it'll be fine. Plus Sean was willing to do lower quantities of supplements, unlike other companies. So the next experience is what led me to making this video. There was a month or so of emails going back and forth. Me trying to get the first order solidified. And mainly because John from Capsule Supplies wasn't clear on what beef patterns he was able to access as I was requesting stuff that he didn't have in stock. And they basically wanted me to pay upfront for the next run before they moved forward with anything. And apparently that included answering my emails. Normally these supplement manufacturers will ask for a deposit. These guys wanted the full amount. Since the beef supplements were so unclear, I agreed with Sean on what vitamins I wanted to do. And that was about $10,000 upfront. So I sent them the money. And then I went to figure out the rest of the order with John. And that was again delayed. Because for some reason, John didn't want to send me samples of the new powders I was using. I'm assuming he didn't have them on hand. As I would imagine, if you had a customer that was going to spend nearly six figures on supplements, you would be able to send them $30 worth of powders. Like, is that not a reasonable accommodation? It's ridiculous. After about three weeks, John finally sends me these samples after charging me $500. You know, when he refunded me my money, he sent me back $200 of that. So I ended up paying $300. But initially, he charged me $500 just for samples. How much money is this guy making that? He can't be bothered to send me samples without charging me $500. Then I was going back and forth with Sean on the vitamin formulas. And he said they would be completed three weeks from payment. Fast forward a month. Both John and Sean had been ignoring my emails and phone calls for that month, despite having $10,000 of my money. And they wanted me to pay for the new beef powders before starting anything. I guess these guys need to pad their bank accounts completely before they can do any stuff. I really don't understand. I don't know what's going on in their heads. And these guys led me on until the middle of June that they were going to make my products. Now, it's the end of July. I don't have new products. My sales have tanked. And I'm stuck at square one, trying to find a supplement manufacturer. Do I deserve this kind of treatment? Every single step along the way, from the delays to the improper labels, as I said, could have put any normal operation out of business. But this was the last straw. I wasn't even going to talk about this on my channel.  And is $300 a lot of money? Absolutely. It's an incredible amount of money. Am I going to stress myself out over this $300? I mean, it's more about the principle. How can, I don't know what to say. So we're going to have a liquidation sale on organ supplements for now, because I really don't know what's going to happen, especially with the fall and the second wave of Toyota Corolla nonsense happening. I don't know if I should necessarily buy these supplements at this point. But if he hadn't made them as he promised, I would have had them two, three weeks ago. And I would have had some sales before the fall, before anything hypothetically happened. Just to repeat myself, if you guys did place an order on organ supplements within the past week or two, just shoot me an email and I'll credit you the difference with the new pricing. But even before this, we were already selling a higher quality product more affordably than all of these other powder companies. It's just with the labeling, with the poor marketing, without the connections, it's been difficult to do the same thing as these other people. My goal has always been to make things affordable, but it's proving difficult. So thank you guys for joining me today. Let me know. Really let me know if you guys want me to move forward and try to get the other organ powders that I was originally going to do, like pituitary, pineal, pancreas, thyroid, thymus, all the glands you name it. That was my original plan on what I was going to get. So all that stuff is down in the description below. And I'll see you guys for tomorrow's video.