CHAPTER X. THE BAD BURROW. As the air grew black, and the winter closed swiftly around me, the fluttering fire blazed out more luminous, and, arresting its flight, hovered, waiting. So soon as I came under its radiance, it flew slowly on, lingering now and then above spots where the ground was rocky. Every time I looked up, it seemed to have grown larger, and at length gave me an attendant shadow. Plainly a bird butterfly, it flew with a certain swallowy double. Its wings were very large, nearly square, and flashed all the colors of the rainbow. Wondering at their splendor, I became so absorbed in their beauty that I stumbled over a low rock, and lay stunned. When I came to myself the creature was hovering over my head, radiating the whole cord of light with multitudinous gradations and some kinds of color I had never before seen. I rose and went on, but, unable to take my eyes off the shining thing to look to my steps, I struck my foot against a stone. Fearing then another fall, I sat down to watch the little glory, and a great longing awoke in me to have it in my hand. To my unspeakable delight it began to sink toward me, slowly at first, then swiftly at sank, growing larger as it came nearer. I felt as if the treasure of the universe were giving itself to me, put out my hand, and had it. But the instant I took it its light went out, all was dark as pitch. A dead book with boards outspread lay cold and heavy in my hand. I threw it in the air, only to hear it fall among the heather. Holding my face in my hands, I sat in motionless misery. But the cold grew so bitter that, fearing to be frozen, I got up. The moment I was on my feet a faint sense of light awoke in me. Is it coming to life, I cried, and a great pang of hope shot through me? Alas, no, it was the edge of a moon, peering up keen and sharp over a level horizon. She brought me light, but no guidance. She would not hover over me, would not wait on my faltering steps. She could but offer me an ignorant choice. With a full face she rose, and I began to see a little about me. Westward of her, and not far from me, a range of low hills broke the horizon line. I set out for it. But what a night I had to pass ere I reached it. The moon seemed to know something, for she stared at me oddly. Her look was indeed icy cold, but full of interest, or at least curiosity. She was not the same moon I had known on the earth. Her face was strange to me, and her light yet stranger. Perhaps it came from an unknown sun. Every time I looked up, I found her staring at me with all her might. At first I was annoyed, as at the rudeness of a fellow creature. But soon I saw, or fancied, a certain wondering pity in her gaze. Why was I out in her night? Then first I knew what an awful thing it was to be awake in the universe. I was, and could not help it. As I walked, my feet lost the heather, and trod a bare spongy soil, something like dry powdery peat. To my dismay it gave a momentary heave under me, then presently I saw what seemed the ripple of an earthquake running on before me, shadowy in the low moon. It passed into the distance, but, while yet I stared after it, a single wave rose up, and came slowly toward me. A yard or two away it burst, and from it, with a scramble and a bound, issued an animal like a tiger.  I stood fascinated, unconscious of either courage or fear. He turned his head to the ground, and plunged into it. That moon is affecting my brain, I said as I resumed my journey. What life can be here but the phantasmic, the stuff of which dreams are made? I am indeed walking in a vain show. As I strove to keep my heart above the waters of fear, nor knew that she whom I distrusted was indeed my defence from the realities I took for phantoms, her light controlled the monsters, else had I scarce taken a second step on the hideous ground. I will not be appalled by that which only seems, I said to myself, yet felt it a terrible thing to walk on a sea where such fishes disported themselves below. With that, a step or two from me, the head of a worm began to come slowly out of the earth, as big as that of a polar bear, and much resembling it, with a white mane to its red neck. The drawing wiggles with which its huge length extricated itself were horrible, yet I dared not turn my eyes from them. The moment its tail was free, it lay as if exhausted, wallowing in feeble effort to burrow again. Does it live on the dead, I wondered, and is it unable to hurt the living? If they sent their prey and come out, why do they leave me unharmed? I know now it was the moon paralyzed them. All the night through as I walked, hideous creatures, no two alike, threatened me. In some of them, beauty of colour enhanced loathliness of shape. One large serpent was covered from head to distant tail with feathers of glorious hues. I became at length so accustomed to their hurtless menaces that I fell to beguiling the way with the invention of monstrosities, never suspecting that I owed each moment of life to the staring moon. Though hers was no primal radiance, it so hampered the evil things that I walked in safety. For light is yet light, if but the last of a countless series of reflections. How swiftly would not my feet have carried me over the restless soil had I known that, if still within their range when her lamp ceased to shine on the cursed spot, I should that moment be at the mercy of such as had no mercy, the centre of a writhing heap of hideousness, every individual of it as terrible as before it had but seemed. Full of ignorance, I watched the descent of the weary, solemn, anxious moon down the widening vault above me with no worse uneasiness than the dread of losing my way, where as yet I had indeed no way to lose. I was drawing near the hills I had made my goal, and she was now not far from their skyline when the soundless wallowing ceased and the burrow lay motionless and bare. Then I saw, slowly walking over the light soil, the form of a woman. A white mist floated about her, now assuming, now losing to reassume, the shape of a garment, as it gathered to her or was blown from her by a wind that dogged her steps. She was beautiful, but with such a pride at once and misery on her countenance that I could hardly believe what yet I saw. Up and down she walked, vainly endeavouring to lay hold of the mist and wrap it around her. The eyes in the beautiful face were dead, and on her left side was a dark spot, against which she would now and then press her hand as if to stifle pain or sickness. Her hair hung nearly to her feet, and sometimes the wind would so mix it with the mist that I could not distinguish the one from the other. But when it fell, gathering together again, it shone a pale gold in the moonlight. Suddenly pressing both hands on her heart, she fell to the ground, and the mist rose from her and melted in the air. I ran to her, but she began to writhe in such torture that I stood aghast. A moment more, and her legs, hurrying from her body, sped away, serpents. From her shoulders fled her arms as in terror, serpents also. Then something flew up from her like a bat, and when I looked again, she was gone. The ground rose like the sea in a storm, terror laid hold upon me. I turned to the hills and ran. I was already on the slope of their base when the moon sank behind one of their summits, leaving me in its shadow. Behind me rose a waste and sickening cry as of frustrate desire, the only sound I had heard since the fall of the dead butterfly. It made my heart shake like a flag in the wind. I turned, saw many dark objects bounding after me and made for the crest of a ridge on which the moon still shone. She seemed to linger there that I might see to defend myself. Then I came inside of her and climbed the faster. Crossing the shadow of a rock I heard the creatures panting at my heels. But just as the foremost threw himself upon me with a snarl of greedy hate, we rushed into the moon together. She flashed out an angry light and he fell from me a bodiless blotch. Strength came to me and I turned on the rest. But one by one as they darted into the light they dropped with a howl, and I saw or fancied a strange smile on the round face above me. I climbed to the top of the ridge, far away shone the moon, sinking to a low horizon. The air was pure and strong. I descended a little way, found it warmer, and sat down to wait the dawn. The moon went below, and the world again was dark. CHAPTER XI. THE EVIL WOOD I fell fast asleep, and when I woke the sun was rising. I went to the top again and looked back. The hollow I had crossed in the moonlight lay without sign of life. Could it be that the calm expanse before me swarmed with creatures of devouring greed? I turned and looked over the land through which my way must lie. It seemed a wide desert with a patch of a different color in the distance that might be a forest. Sign of presence, human or animal was none, smoke or dust or shadow of cultivation. Not a cloud floated in the clear heaven. No thinnest haze curtained any segment of its circling rim. I descended and set out for the imaginable forest. Nothing alive might be there. On this side of it could not well be anything. When I reached the plain I found it as far as my sight could go of rock. Here flat and channeled, there humped and pinnacled. Evidently the wide bed of a vanished river, scored by innumerable water runs, without a trace of moisture in them. Some of the channels bore a dry moss, and some of the rocks a few lichens, almost as hard as themselves. The air, once filled with pleasant noise of waters, was silent as death. It took me the whole day to reach the patch, which I found indeed a forest, but not a rudiment of brook or runnel had I crossed. Yet through the glowing noon I seemed haunted by an oral mirage, hearing so plainly the voice of many waters that I could hardly believe the opposing testimony of my eyes. The sun was approaching the horizon when I left the riverbed and entered the forest. Sunk below the treetops and sending his rays between their pillar-like bowls he revealed a world of blessed shadows waiting to receive me. I had expected a pine wood, but here were trees of many sorts, some with strong resemblances to trees I knew, others with marvelous differences from any I had ever seen. I threw myself beneath the boughs of what seemed a eucalyptus in blossom. Its flowers had a hard calyx, much resembling a skull, the top of which rose like a lid to let the froth-like bloom-brain overfoam its cup. From beneath the shadow of its falchion leaves my eyes went wandering into deep after deep of the forest. Then however its doors and windows began to close, shutting up aisle and corridor and roomier glade. The night was about me, and instant and sharp the cold. Again what a night I found it, how shall I make my reader share with me its wild ghostiness. The tree under which I lay rose high before it branched, but the boughs of it bent so low that they seemed ready to shut me in as I leaned against the smooth stem, and let my eyes wander through the brief twilight of the vanishing forest. Presently, to my listless roving gaze, the varied outlines of the clumpy foliage began to assume or imitate, say rather suggest, other shapes than their own. A light wind began to blow. It set the boughs of a neighbor tree, rocking, and all their branches a swing, every twig and every leaf blending in its individual motion, with the sway of its branch and the rock of its bow. Among its leafy shapes was a pack of wolves that struggled to break from a wizard's leash. Greyhounds would not have strained so savagely. I watched them with an interest that grew as the wind gathered force and their motion's life. Another massive foliage, larger and more compact, presented my fancy with a group of horses' heads, and forequarters, projecting, comparison'd from their stalls. Their necks kept moving up and down with an impatience that augmented as the growing wind broke their vertical rhythm with a wilder swaying from side to side. What heads they were, how gaunt, how strange! Several of them bare skulls, one with the skin tight on its bones. One had lost the underjaw and hung low, looking unutterably weary. But now and then hove high as if to ease the bit. Above them, at the end of a branch, floated erect the form of a woman, waving her arms in imperious gesture. The definateness of these and other leaf masses first surprised and then discomposed me. What if they should overpower my brain with seeming reality? But the twilight became darkness, the wind ceased.  I fell asleep. It was still dark when I began to be aware of a far-off, confused, rushing noise, mingled with faint cries. It grew and grew until a tumult as of gathering multitudes filled the wood. On all sides at once the sounds drew nearer. The spot where I lay seemed the center of a commotion that extended throughout the forest. I scarce moved hand or foot lest I should betray my presence to hostile things. The moon at length approached the forest and came slowly into it. With her first gleam the noises increased to a deafening uproar, and I began to see dim shapes about me. As she ascended and grew brighter the noises became yet louder and the shapes clearer. A furious battle was raging around me. Wild cries and roars of rage, shock of onset, struggle prolonged, all mingled with words articulate surged in my ears. Curses and credos, snarls and sneers, laughter and mockery, sacred names and howls of hate came huddling in chaotic interpenetration. Skeletons and phantoms fought in maddest confusion. Swords swept through the phantoms. They only shivered. Maces crashed on the skeletons, shattering them hideously. Not one fell or ceased to fight, so long as a single joint held two bones together. Bones of men and horses lay scattered and heaped, grinding and crunching them under foot fought the skeletons. There charged the bone-gaunt white steeds. Everywhere on foot or on wind-blowned misty battle-horses raged and ravened and raved to the indestructible spectres. Weapons and hooves clashed and crushed, while skeleton jaws and phantom throats swelled the deafening tumult with the war cry of every opinion, bad or good, that had bred strife, injustice, cruelty in any world. The holiest words went with the most hating blow. Lie-distorted truths flew hurtling in the wind of javelins and bones. Every moment someone would turn against his comrades and fight more wildly than before. The truth, the truth, still his cry. One eye noted who wheeled ever in a circle and smote on all sides. Curried out, a pair would sit for a minute side by side and then rise and renew the fierce combat. None stooped to comfort the fallen or stepped wide to spare him. The moon shone till the sun rose and all the night long I had glimpses of a woman moving at her will above the strife-tormented multitude. Now on this front, now on that, one outstretched arm urging the fight, the other pressed against her side. Your men, slay one another, she shouted. I saw her dead eyes and her dark spot and recalled what I had seen the night before. Such was the battle of the dead which I saw and heard as I lay under the tree. Just before sunrise a breeze went through the forest and a voice cried, Let the dead bury their dead. At the word the contending thousands dropped noiseless, and when the sun looked in he saw never a bone, but here and there a withered branch. I rose and resumed my journey through as quiet a wood as ever grew out of the quiet earth. For the wind of the morning had ceased when the sun appeared and the trees were silent. Not a bird sang, not a squirrel, mouse, or weasel showed itself. Not a belated moth flew a thwart my path. But as I went I kept watch over myself, nor dared let my eyes rest on any forest shape. All the time I seemed to hear faint sounds of mattock and spade and hurtling bones. Any moment my eyes might open on things I would not see. Light prudence muttered that, perhaps, to appear, ten thousand phantoms awaited only my consenting fancy. In the middle of the afternoon I came out of the wood to find before me a second net of dry water-courses. I thought at first that I had wandered from my attempted line and reversed my direction, but I soon saw it was not so, and concluded presently that I had come to another branch of the same river-bed. I began at once to cross it, and was in the bottom of a wide channel when the sun set. I sat down to await the moon, and, growing sleepy, stretched myself on the moss. The moment my head was down I heard the sounds of rushing streams, all sorts of sweet, watery noises. The veiled melody of the molten music sang me into a dreamless sleep, and when I woke the sun was already up, and the wrinkled country widely visible. Covered with shadows it lay striped and modeled like the skin of some wild animal. As the sun rose the shadows diminished, and it seemed as if the rocks were reabsorbing the darkness that had oozed out of them during the night. Hitherto I had loved my Arab mare and my books more I fear than live man or woman. Now at length my soul was a thirst for a human presence, and I longed even after those inhabitants of this alien world whom the raven had so vaguely described as nearest my sort. With heavy yet hoping heart, and mind haunted by a doubt whether I was going in any direction at all, I kept wearily travelling north-west and by south. CHAPTER 12. FRIENDS AND FOES Coming in one of the channels upon what seemed a little shrub, the outlying picket I trusted of an army behind it, I knelt to look at it closer. It bore a small fruit which as I did not recognize it I feared to gather and eat. Little I thought that I was watched from behind the rocks by hundreds of eyes, eager with the question whether I would or would not take it. I came to another plant somewhat bigger, then to another larger still, and at length to clumps of a like sort by which time I saw that they were not shrubs but dwarf trees. Before I reached the bank of this second branch of the riverbed I found the channel so full of them that it was with difficulty I crossed such as I could not jump. In one I heard a great rush as of a multitude of birds from an ivied wall, but saw nothing. I came next to some large fruit-bearing trees, but what they bore looked coarse. They stood on the edge of a hollow, which evidently had once been the basin of a lake. From the left a forest seemed to flow into and fill it, but while the trees above were of many sorts those in the hollow were almost entirely fruit-bearing. I went a few yards down the slope of grass mingled with moss and stretched myself upon it weary.  I pulled and ate one of them. Finding it delicious I was in the act of taking another when a sudden shouting of children mingled with laughter clear and sweet as the music of a brook startled me with delight. He likes our apples! He likes our apples! He's a good giant! He's a good giant!" cried many little voices. He's a giant, objected one. He is rather big, assented another, but littleness isn't everything.  I rose on my elbow and stared. Above and about and below me stood a multitude of children. Apparently of all ages some just able to run alone and some about twelve or thirteen. Three or four seemed older. They stood in a small knot a little apart and were less excited than the rest. The many were chattering in groups, declaiming and contradicting like a crowd of grown people in a city, only with greater merriment, better manners, and more sense. I gathered that by the approach of my hand to a second apple they knew that I liked the first, but how from that they argued me good I did not see, nor wondered that one of them at least should suggest caution. I did not open my mouth, for I was afraid of frightening them, and sure I should learn more by listening than by asking questions. For I understood nearly all they said, at which I was not surprised, to understand is not more wonderful than to love. There came a movement and slight dispersion among them and presently a sweet, innocent-looking, lovingly roguish little fellow handed me a huge green apple. Silence fell on the noisy throng, all weighted, expectant. Eat, good giant, he said. I sat up, took the apple, smiled thanks, and would have eaten, but the moment I bit into it I flung it far away. Again rose a shout of delight. They flung themselves upon me, so as nearly to smother me.  I came to the ground at last, overwhelmed with the lovely little goblins. Good, good giant, they cried, we knew you would come. Oh, you dear, good, strong giant! The babble of their talk sprang up afresh, and even the jubilant shout would rise anew from hundreds of clear little throats. Again came a sudden silence. Those around me drew back, those atop of me got off and began trying to set me on my feet. Upon their sweet faces concern had taken the place of merriment. Get up, good giant, said a little girl. Make haste, much haste. He saw you throw his apple away. Before she ended I was on my feet. She stood, pointing up the slope. On the brow of it was a clownish, bad-looking fellow, a few inches taller than myself. He looked hostile, but I saw no reason to fear him, for he had no weapon. And my little friends had vanished every one. He began to descend and I, in the hope of better footing and position, to go up. He growled like a beast as he turned toward me. Reaching a more level spot I stood and waited for him. As he came near he held out his hand. I would have taken it in friendly fashion, but he drew it back, threatened to blow, and held it out again. Then I understood him to claim the apple I had flung away, whereupon I made a grimace of dislike and a gesture of rejection. He answered with a howl of rage that seemed to say, Do you dare tell me my apple was not fit to eat? One bad apple may grow on the best tree, I said. Whether he perceived any meaning I cannot tell, but he made a stride nearer and I stood my guard. He delayed his assault, however, until a second giant, much like him, who had been stealing up behind me, was close enough, when he rushed upon me. I met him with a good blow in the face, but the other struck me on the back of the head, and between them I was soon overpowered. They dragged me into the wood above the valley where their tribe lived, in wretched huts built of fallen branches and a few stones. Into one of these they pushed me, there threw me on the ground, and kicked me. A woman was present, who looked on with indifference. I may hear mention that during my captivity I hardly learned to distinguish the women from the men, they differed so little. Often I wondered whether I had not come upon a sort of fungoid people, with just enough mind to give them motion and the expressions of anger and greed. Their food, which consisted of tubers, bulbs, and fruits, was to me inexpressibly disagreeable, but nothing offended them so much as to show dislike to it. I was cuffed by the women, and kicked by the men, because I would not swallow it. I lay on the floor that night, hardly able to move, but I slept a good deal, and woke a little refreshed. In the morning they dragged me to the valley, and, tying my feet with a long rope to a tree, put a flat stone with a saw-like edge in my left hand. I shifted it to the right, they kicked me, and put it again in my left, gave me to understand that I was to scrape the bark off every branch that had no fruit on it, kicked me once more, and left me. I said about the dreary work in the hope that, by satisfying them, I should be left very much to myself, to make my observations, and choose my time for escape. Happily one of the dwarf trees grew close by me, and every other minute I plucked and ate a small fruit, which wonderfully refreshed, and strengthened me. THE LITTLE ONES I had been at work but a few moments when I heard small voices near me, and presently the little ones, as I soon found they called themselves, came creeping out from among the tiny trees that like brushwood filled the spaces between the big ones. In a minute there were scores and scores about me. I made signs that the giants had but just left me and were not far off, but they laughed, and told me the wind was quite clean.  Do you like that rope about your ankles, asked one? I want them to think I cannot take it off, I replied. They can scarcely see their own feet, he rejoined, walk with short steps, and they will think the rope is all right. As he spoke he danced with merriment. One of the bigger girls got down on her knees to untie the clumsy knot. I smiled, thinking those pretty fingers could do nothing with it, but in a moment it was loose. They then made me sit down, and fed me with delicious little fruits, after which the smaller of them began to play with me in the wildest fashion, so that it was impossible for me to resume my work. When the first grew tired, others took their places, and this went on until the sun was setting, and heavy steps were heard approaching. The little people started from me, and I made haste to put the rope around my ankles. We must have a care, said the girl who had freed me.  Can they not perceive you at all, then? They might see something move, and if the children were in a heap on the top of you, as they were a moment ago, it would be terrible, for they hate every live thing but themselves. Not that they are much alive, either. She whistled like a bird. The next instant not one of them was to be seen or heard, and the girl herself had disappeared. It was my master, as doubtless he counted himself, come to take me home. He freed my ankles, and dragged me to the door of his hut. There he threw me on the ground, again tied my feet, gave me a kick, and left me. Now I might at once have made my escape, but at length I had friends, and could not think of leaving them. They were so charming, so full of winsome ways that I must see more of them. I must know them better. Tomorrow, I said to myself with delight, I shall see them again. But from the moment there was silence in the huts until I fell asleep, I heard them whispering all about me, and knew that I was lovingly watched by a multitude. After that I think they hardly ever left me quite alone. I did not come to know the giants at all, and I believed there was scarcely anything in them to know.  Often I avoided a bad kick by catching the foot, and giving its owner a fall, upon which he never, on that occasion, renewed his attempt. But the little people were constantly doing and saying things that pleased, often things that surprised me. Every day I grew more loath to leave them. While I was at work, they would keep coming and going, amusing and delighting me, and taking all the misery, and much of the weariness, out of my monotonous toil. Very soon I loved them more than I can tell. They did not know much, but they were very wise, and seemed capable of learning anything. I had no bed save the bare ground, but almost as often as I woke it was in a nest of children, one or other of them in my arms, though which I seldom could tell until the light came, for they ordered the succession among themselves. When one crept into my bosom unconsciously I clasped him there, and the rest lay close around me, the smaller, nearer. It is hardly necessary to say that I did not suffer much from the nightly cold. The first thing they did in the morning, and the last before sunset, was to bring the good giant plenty to eat. One morning I was surprised on waking to find myself alone. As I came to my senses, however, I heard subdued sounds of approach, and presently the girl already mentioned the tallest and gravest of the community, and regarded by all as their mother, appeared from the wood, followed by the multitude in jubilation manifest, but silent lest they should rouse the sleeping giant at whose door I lay. She carried a boy-baby in her arms. Hitherto a girl-baby, apparently about a year old, had been the youngest. Three of the bigger girls were her nurses, but they shared their treasure with all the rest. Among the little ones, dolls were unknown. The bigger had the smaller, and the smaller, the still less, to tend and play with. Lona came to me and laid the infant in my arms. The baby opened his eyes and looked at me, closed them again, and fell asleep. He loves you already, said the girl. Where did you find him? I asked. In the wood, of course, she answered, her eyes beaming with delight, where we always find them. Isn't he a beauty? We've been out all night looking for him. Sometimes it is not easy to find. How do you know when there is one to find? I asked. I cannot tell, she replied. Everyone makes haste to tell the other, but we never find out who told first. Sometimes I think one must have said it asleep, and another heard it half awake. When there is a baby in the wood, no one can stop to ask questions, and when we have found it, then it is too late. Do more boy or girl-babies come to the wood? They don't come to the wood, we go to the wood and find them. Are there more boys or girls of you now? I had found that to ask precisely the same question twice made them knit their brows. I do not know, she answered. You can count them surely. We never do that. We shouldn't like to be counted. Why? It wouldn't be smooth. We would rather not know. Where do the babies come from first? From the wood, always. There is no other place they can come from. She knew where they came from last and thought nothing else was to be known about their advent. How often do you find one? Such a happy thing takes all the glad we've got, and we forget the last time. You too are glad to have him, are you not, good giant? Yes indeed I am, I answered, but how do you feed him? I will show you, she rejoined and went away, to return directly with two or three ripe little plums. She put one to the baby's lips. He would open his mouth if he were awake, she said, and took him in her arms. She squeezed a drop to the surface and again held the fruit to the baby's lips.  There she cried in a tone of gentle triumph. A big apple world it would be with nothing for the babies. We wouldn't stop in it, would we, darling? We would leave it to the bad giants. But what if you let the stone into the baby's mouth when you were feeding him, I said? No mother would do that, she replied. I shouldn't be fit to have a baby. I thought what a lovely woman she would grow. But what became of them when they grew up, where did they go? That brought me again to the question, where did they come from first? Will you tell me where you lived before, I said? Here she replied. Have you never lived anywhere else, I ventured? Never. We all came from the wood. Some think we dropped out of the trees. How is it that there are so many of you quite little? I don't understand. Some are less and some are bigger. I am very big. Baby will grow bigger, won't he? Of course he will. And will you grow bigger? I don't think so. I hope not. I am the biggest. It frightens me sometimes. Why should it frighten you? She gave me no answer. How old are you, I resumed. I do not know what you mean. We are all just that. How big will the baby grow? I cannot tell. Some, she added with a trouble in her voice, begin to grow after we think they have stopped. That is a frightful thing. We don't talk about it. What makes it frightful? She was silent for a moment, then answered. We fear they may be beginning to grow giants. Why should you fear that? Because it is so terrible, I don't want to talk about it. She pressed the baby to her bosom with such an anxious look that I dared not further question her. More long I began to perceive in two or three of the smaller children some traces of greed and selfishness, and noted that the bigger girls cast on these a not infrequent glance of anxiety. None of them put a hand to my work. They would do nothing for the giants. But they never relaxed their loving ministrations to me. They would sing to me, one after another, for hours, climb the tree to reach my mouth and pop fruits into it with their dainty little fingers, and they kept constant watch against the approach of a giant. Sometimes they would sit and tell me stories, mostly very childish and often seeming to mean hardly anything. Now and then they would call a general assembly to amuse me.  This phenomenon made those who saw it regard me with much perplexity. Then first I bethought myself that I had not once, in that world, looked on water, falling or lying or running. Plenty there had been in some long vanished age, that was plain enough, but the little ones had never seen any before they saw my tears. They had, nevertheless, it seemed, some dim instinctive perception of their origin. For a very small child, went up to the singer, shook the clenched pud in his face, and said something like this, O' skeezy juice out of the good giant's sea-berries, bad giant! How is it, I said one day to Lona, as she sat with the baby in her arms at the foot of my tree, that I never see any children among the giants. She stared a little, as if looking in vain for some sense in the question, then replied, They are giants! There are no little ones. Have they never any children, I asked? No. There are never any in the wood for them. They do not love them. If they saw ours, they would stamp them. Is there always the same number of the giants, then? I thought, before I had time to know better, that they were your fathers and mothers. She burst into the merriest laughter and said, No, good giant, we are their firsters. But as she said it, the merriment died out of her, and she looked scared. I stopped working and gazed at her bewildered. How can that be, I exclaimed. I do not say, I do not understand, she answered, But we were here, and they were not. They go from us. I am sorry, but we cannot help it. They could have helped it. How long have you been here, I asked, more and more puzzled, in the hope of some side-light on the matter. Always, I think, she replied, I think somebody made us always. I turned to my scraping. She saw I did not understand. The giants were not made always, she resumed.  The dull creatures don't know that they came from us. Very few of them believe we are anywhere. They say nonsense. Look at little Blunty. He is eating one of their apples. He will be next.   I had often thought he did not look so good as the rest. Now he looked disgusting. I will take the horrid thing from him, I cried. It is no use, she answered sadly. We have done all we can, and it is too late. We were afraid he was growing, for he would not believe anything told him. But when he refused to share his berries, he said he had gathered them for himself, then we knew it. He is a glutton, and there is no hope of him.  Could not some of the boys watch him and not let him touch the poisonous things? He may have them if he will.  No, he must go to the giants. He belongs to them. You can see how much bigger he is than when first you came. He is bigger since yesterday. He is as like that hideous green lump in his hand as boy could look. It suits what he is making himself. His head and it might change places. Perhaps they do. Does he want to be a giant? He hates the giants, but he is making himself one all the same. He likes their apples. Oh, baby, baby, he was just such a darling as you when we found him. He will be very miserable when he finds himself a giant. Oh, no, he will like it well enough. That is the worst of it.  He will be like the rest. He will not remember us. Most likely, he will not believe there are little ones. He will not care. He will eat his apples. Do tell me how it will come about. I understand your world so little. I come from a world where everything is different. I do not know about world. What is it? What more but a word in your beautiful big mouth? That makes it something. Never mind about the word. Tell me what next will happen to Blunty. He will wake one morning and find himself a giant. Not like you, good giant, but like any other bad giant. You will hardly know him, but I will tell you which. He will think he has been a giant always, and will not know you or any of us. The giants have lost themselves, Peony says, and that is why they never smile. I wonder whether they are not glad because they are bad, or bad because they are not glad. But they can't be glad when they have no babies. I wonder what bad means, good giant. I wish I knew no more about it than you, I returned. But I try to be good, and mean to keep on trying. So do I, and that is how I know you are good. A long pause followed. Then you do not know where the babies come from into the wood, I said, making one attempt more. There's nothing to know there, she answered. They are in the wood. They grow there. Then how is it you never find one before it is quite grown, I asked. She knitted her brows and was silent a moment. They're not there till they're finished, she said.  Little Tolma, the last before this baby, looked as if she had something to tell when I found her under a beech tree, sucking her thumb. But she hadn't. She only looked up at me. Oh, so sweetly. She will never go bad and grow big. When they begin to grow big they care for nothing but bigness, and when they cannot grow any bigger they try to grow fatter. The bad giants are very proud of being fat. So they are in my world, I said. Only they do not say fat there. They say rich. In one of their houses, continued Lona, sits the biggest and fattest of them, so proud that nobody can see him.  The rumour at length reached my ears that Blunty had vanished. I saw a few grave faces among the bigger ones, but he did not seem to be much missed. The next morning Lona came to me and whispered, Look, look there, by that quince tree, that is the giant that was Blunty. Would you have known him? Never, I answered. But now you tell me I could fancy it might be Blunty staring through a fog.  He is forever eating those apples now, she said. That is what comes of little ones that won't be little. They call it growing up in my world, I said to myself. If only she would teach me to grow the other way and become a little one. Shall I ever be able to laugh like them? I had had the chance and had flung it from me. Blunty and I were alike. He did not know his loss, and I had to be taught mine.  But soon other thoughts and feelings began to influence me. First awoke the vague sense that I ought to be doing something, that I was not meant for the fattening of boars. Then it came to me that I was in a marvellous world, of which it was assuredly my business to discover the ways and laws, and that, if I would do anything in return for the children's goodness, I must learn more about them than they could tell me, and to that end, must be free. Surely I thought no suppression of their growth can be essential to their loveliness and truth and purity. Not in any world could the possibility exist of such a discord between the Constitution and its natural outcome. Life and law cannot be so at variance that perfection must be gained by thwarting development. But the growth of the little ones was arrested. Something interfered with it. What was it? Lona seemed the eldest of them, yet not more than fifteen, and had been long in charge of a multitude, in semblance and mostly in behavior merest children who regarded her as their mother. Were they growing at all? I doubted it. Of time they had scarcely the idea of their own age they knew nothing. Lona herself thought she had lived always. Full of wisdom and empty of knowledge she was at once their love and their law. But what seemed to me her ignorance might in truth be my own lack of insight. Her one anxiety plainly was that her little ones should not grow and change into bad giants. Their good giant was bound to do his best for them, without more knowledge of their nature and some knowledge of their history, he could do nothing, and must therefore leave them. They would only be as they were before. They had in no way become dependent on me. They were still my protectors. I was not theirs.  I longed to teach them many things. I must first understand more of those I would teach. Knowledge, no doubt, made bad people worse, but it must make good people better. I was convinced they would learn mathematics, and might they not be taught to write down the dainty melodies they murmured and forgot. The conclusion was that I must rise and continue my travels, in the hope of coming upon some elucidation of the fortunes and destiny of the bewitching little creatures. My design, however, would not so soon have passed into action, but for what now occurred. To prepare them for my temporary absence I was one day telling them while at work that I would long ago have left the bad giants, but that I loved the little ones so much, when, as by one accord, they came rushing and crowding upon me. They scrambled over each other and up the tree, and dropped on my head until I was nearly smothered. With three very little ones in my arms, one on each shoulder clinging to my neck, one standing straight up on my head, four or five holding me fast by the legs, others grappling my body and arms, and a multitude climbing and descending upon these, I was helpless as one overwhelmed by lava, absorbed in the mere struggle. Not one of them saw my tyrant coming until he was almost upon me. With just one cry of, Take care, good giant! They ran from me like mice. They dropped from me like hedgehogs.  The children told me afterwards that they sent him such a many bumps of big apples and stones that he was frightened, and ran blundering home. When I came to myself it was night. Above me were a few pale stars that expected the moon. I thought I was alone. My head ached badly, and I was terribly a-thirst. I turned wearily on my side. The moment my ear touched the ground I heard the gushing and gurgling of water, and the soft noises made me groan with longing.  They came and came until my thirst was gone. Then I was aware of sounds I had never heard there before.  I tried to sit up.  Then I struggled to my feet, with much pushing and pulling from the little ones who were wonderfully strong for their size. You must go away, good giant, they said. When the bad giants see you hurt they will all trample on you. I think I must, I answered.  I will, I replied, and sat down. Indeed, you must go at once, whispered Lona, who had been supporting me and now knelt beside me.  He said you were a wizard and they must knock you or they would have no peace. I will go at once, I said, and come back as soon as I have found out what is wanted to make you bigger and stronger. We don't want to be bigger, they answered, looking very serious. We won't grow bad giants. We are strong now. You don't know how much strong. It was no use holding them out of prospect that had not any attraction for them. I said nothing more, but rose and moved slowly up the slope of the valley. At once they formed themselves into a long procession. Some led the way, some walked with me, helping me, and the rest followed. They kept feeding me as we went. You are broken, they said, and much red juice has run out of you. Put some in. When we reached the edge of the valley there was the moon just lifting her forehead over the rim of the horizon. She has come to take care of you and show you the way, said Lona. I questioned those about me as we walked and learned there was a great place with a giant girl for Queen. When I asked if it was a city they said they did not know. Neither could they tell how far off or in what direction it was or what was the giant girl's name. All they knew was that she hated the little ones and would like to kill them, only she could not find them. I asked how they knew that. Lona answered that she had always known it. If the giant girl came to look for them they must hide hard, she said. When I told them I should go and ask her why she hated them they cried out.   She is an awful bad giant witch. I asked them where I was to go then. They told me that beyond the baby forest, away where the moon came from, lay a smooth green country, pleasant to the feet, without rocks or trees. But when I asked how I was to set out for it, The moon will tell you, we think, they said. They were taking me up the second branch of the riverbed. When they saw that the moon had reached her height they stopped to return. We have never gone so far from our trees before, they said. Now mind you watch how you go, that you may see inside your eyes how to come back to us. And beware of the giant woman that lives in the desert, said one of the bigger girls as they were turning. I suppose you have heard of her. No, I answered. Then take care not to go near her. She is called the cat woman.  As soon as the bigger ones stopped, the smaller had begun to run back. The others now looked at me gravely for a moment and then walked slowly away. Last to leave me, Lona held up the baby to be kissed, gazed in my eyes, whispered, The cat woman will not hurt you. And went without another word. I stood a while, gazing after them through the moonlight, then turned and with a heavy heart began my solitary journey. Soon the laughter of the little ones overtook me like sheep-bells innumerable, rippling the air and echoing in the rocks about me. I turned again and again gazed after them. They went gambling along, with never a care in their sweet souls. But Lona walked apart with her baby. Going as I went, I recalled many traits of my little friends. Once when I suggested that they should leave the country of the bad giants and go with me to find another, they answered, But that would be to not ourselves so strong in them was the love of place that their country seemed essential to their very being. Without ambition or fear, discomfort or greed, they had no motive to desire any change. They knew of nothing amiss, and except their babies they had never had a chance of helping any one but myself. How were they to grow? But again, why should they grow? In seeking to improve their conditions, might I not do them harm, and only harm? To enlarge their minds after the notions of my world, might it not be to distort and weaken them? Their fear of growth as a possible start for gianthood might be instinctive. The part of philanthropist is indeed a dangerous one, and the man who would do his neighbor good must first study how not to do him evil, and must begin by pulling the beam out of his own eye. CHAPTER XV A Strange Hostess I travelled on attended by the moon. As usual she was full, I had never seen her other, and tonight as she sank I thought I perceived something like a smile on her countenance. When her under-edge was a little below the horizon there appeared in the middle of her disc as if it had been painted upon it a cottage, through the open door and window of which she shone, and with the sight came the conviction that I was expected there. Almost immediately the moon was gone, and the cottage had vanished, the night was rapidly growing dark, and my way being across a close succession of small ravines I resolved to remain where I was and expect the morning. I stretched myself, therefore, in a sandy hollow, made my supper off the fruits the children had given me at parting, and was soon asleep. I woke suddenly, saw above me constellations unknown to my former world, and had lain for a while gazing at them when I became aware of a figure seated on the ground a little way from and above me. I was startled as one is on discovering all at once that he is not alone. The figure was between me and the sky, so that I saw its outline well. From where I lay low in the hollow it seemed larger than human. It moved its head, and then first I saw that its back was toward me. Will you not come with me, said a sweet mellow voice, unmistakably a woman's? Wishing to learn more of my hostess, I thank you, I replied, but I am not uncomfortable here, where would you have me go? I like sleeping in the open air. There is no hurt in the air, she returned, but the creatures that roam the night in these parts are not such as a man would willingly have about him while he sleeps. I have not been disturbed, I said. No, I have been sitting by you ever since you lay down. That is very kind of you. How came you to know I was here? Why do you show me such favour? I saw you, she answered, still with her back to me, in the light of the moon, just as she went down. I see badly in the day, but at night perfectly. The shadow of my house would have hidden you, but both its doors were open. I was out on the waist and saw you go into this hollow. You were asleep, however, before I could reach you, and I was not willing to disturb you. People are frightened if I come on them suddenly. They call me The Catwoman. It is not my name. I remembered what the children had told me, that she was very ugly and scratched. But her voice was gentle, and its tone a little apologetic. She could not be a bad giantess. You shall not hear it from me, I answered. Please tell me what I may call you. When you know me, call me by the name that seems to you to fit me, she replied. That will tell me what sort you are. People do not often give me the right one. It is well when they do. I suppose, madam, you live in the cottage I saw in the heart of the moon? I do. I live there alone, except when I have visitors. It is a poor place, but I do what I can for my guests, and sometimes their sleep is sweet to them. Her voice entered into me, and made me feel strangely still. I will go with you, madam, I said, rising. She rose at once, and without a glance behind her, led the way. I could see her just well enough to follow. She was taller than myself, but not so tall as I had thought her. That she never turned her face to me made me curious. No wise apprehensive, her voice rang so true. But how was I to fit her with a name who could not see her? I strove to get alongside of her, but failed. When I quickened my pace, she quickened hers, and kept easily ahead of me. At length I did begin to grow a little afraid. Why was she so careful not to be seen? Extraordinary ugliness would account for it. She might fear terrifying me. Horror of an inconceivable monstrosity began to assail me. Was I following through the dark and unheard of hideousness? Almost I repented of having accepted her hospitality. Neither spoke, and the silence grew unbearable. I must break it. I want to find my way, I said, to a place I have heard of, but whose name I have not yet learned. Perhaps you can tell it me. Hide it, then, and I will direct you.  Where do those live? You are just come from them. I never heard those names before. You would not hear them. Neither people knows its name. Strange. Perhaps so, but hardly anyone anywhere knows his own name. It would make many a fine gentleman stare to hear himself addressed by what is really his name. I held my peace, beginning to wonder what my name might be. What now do you fancy yours, she went on as if aware of my thought. But pardon me. It is a matter of no consequence. I had actually opened my mouth to answer her when I discovered that my name was gone from me. I could not even recall the first letter of it. This was the second time I had been asked my name and could not tell it. Never mind, she said, it is not wanted. Your real name, indeed, is written on your forehead, but at present it whirls about so irregularly that nobody can read it. I will do my part to steady it. Soon it will go slower, and I hope, settle at last. This startled me, and I was silent. We had left the channels and walked a long time, but no sign of the cottage yet appeared. The little ones told me, I said at length, of a smooth green country, pleasant to defeat. Yes, she returned. They told me, too, of a girl giantess that was queen somewhere. Is that her country? There is a city in that grassy land, she replied, where a woman is princess. The city is called Bulika, but certainly the princess is not a girl. She is older than this world and came to it from yours with a terrible history, which is not over yet. She is an evil person and prevails much with the prince of the power of the air. The people of Bulika were formerly simple folk, tilling the ground and pasturing sheep. She came among them, and they received her hospitably. She taught them to dig for diamonds and opals, and sell them to strangers, and made them give up tillage and pastureage, and build a city. One day they found a huge snake and killed it, which so enraged her that she declared herself their princess, and became terrible to them. The name of the country at that time was The Land of Waters, for the dry channels, of which you have crossed so many, were then overflowing with live torrents, and the valley, where now the bags and the lovers have their fruit trees, was a lake that received a great part of them. But the wicked princess gathered up in her lap what she could of the water over the whole country, closed it in an egg, and carried it away. Her lap, however, would not hold more than half of it, and the instant she was gone what she had not yet taken fled away, underground, leaving the country as dry and dusty as her own heart. Were it not for the waters under it, every living thing would long ago have perished from it. For where no water is, no rain falls, and where no rain falls, no springs rise. Ever since then the princess has lived in Bulica, holding the inhabitants in constant terror, and doing what she can to keep them from multiplying. Yet they boast and believe themselves a prosperous and certainly are a self-satisfied people, good at bargaining and buying, good at selling and cheating, holding well together for a common interest, and utterly treacherous where interests clash, proud of their princess and her power, and despising everyone they get the better of, never doubting themselves the most honorable of all the nations, and each man counting himself better than any other. The depth of their worthlessness and height of their vain glory no one can understand who has not been there to see, who has not learned to know the miserable, misgoverned, and self-deceived creatures. Thank you, madam, and now if you please will you tell me something about the little ones, the lovers, I long heartily to serve them. Who and what are they, and how do they come to be there? Those children are the greatest wonder I have found in this world of wonders. In Bulica you may, perhaps, get some light on those matters. There is an ancient poem in the library of the palace, I am told, which of course no one there can read, but in which it is plainly written that after the lovers have gone through great troubles and learned their own name, they will fill the land and make the giants their slaves. By that time they will have grown a little, will they not, I said. Yes, they will have grown, yet I think, too, they will not have grown. It is possible to grow and not to grow, to grow less and to grow bigger, both at once. Yes, even to grow by means of not growing. Your words are strange, madam, I rejoined, but I have heard it said that some words, because they mean more, appear to mean less. That is true, and such words have to be understood. It were well for the princess of Bulica if she heard what the very silence of the land is shouting in her ears all the day long, but she is far too clever to understand anything. Then I suppose when the little lovers are grown, their land will have water again? Not exactly so. When they are thirsty enough, they will have water, and when they have water they will grow. To grow they must have water, and beneath it is flowing still. I have heard that water twice, I said, once when I lay down to wait for the moon, and when I woke the sun was shining, and once when I fell, all but killed by the bad giant, both times came the voices of the water, and healed me. The woman never turned her head and kept always a little before me, but I could hear every word that left her lips, and her voice much reminded me of the woman's in the house of death. Much of what she said I did not understand, and therefore cannot remember. But I forgot that I had ever been afraid of her. We went on and on, and crossed yet a wide tract of sand before reaching the cottage. Its foundation stood in deep sand, but I could see that it was a rock. In character the cottage resembled the sextons, but had thicker walls. The door, which was heavy and strong, opened immediately into a large bare room, which had two little windows opposite each other, without glass. My hostess walked in at the open door out of which the moon had looked, and, going straight to the farthest corner, took a long white cloth from the floor, and wound it about her head and face. Then she closed the other door, in at which the moon had looked. And a small horn lantern that stood on the hearth, and turned to receive me. You are very welcome, Mr. Vane, she said, calling me by the name I had forgotten. Your entertainment will be scanty, but as the night is not far spent, and the day not at hand, it is better you should be indoors. Here you will be safe, and a little lack is not a great misery. I thank you heartily, madam, I replied, but, seeing you know the name I could not tell you, may I not now know yours? My name is Mara, she answered. Then I remembered the sexton and the little black cat. Some people, she went on, take me for Lot's wife, lamenting over Sodom, and some think I am Rachel, weeping for her children, but I am neither of those. I thank you again, Mara, I said, may I lie here on your floor till the morning? At the top of the stair, she answered, you will find a bed, on which some have slept better than they expected, and some have waked all the night, and slept all the next day. It is not a very soft one, but it is better than the sand, and there are no hyenas sniffing about it. The stair, narrow and steep, led straight up from the room to an unsealed and unpartitioned garret, with one wide, low dormer window. Close under the sloping roof stood a narrow bed, the sight of which with its white coverlet made me shiver, so vividly it recalled the couches in the chamber of the dead. On the table was a dry loaf, and beside it a cup of cold water. To me, who had tasted nothing but fruit for months, they were a feast! I must leave you in the dark, my host is called from the bottom of the stair. This lantern is all the light I have, and there are things to do to-night. It is of no consequence, thank you, madam, I returned, to eat and drink, to lie down and sleep are things that can be done in the dark. Rest in peace, she said. I ate up the loaf, drank the water every drop, and laid myself down. The bed was hard, the covering thin and scanty, and the night cold. I dreamed that I lay in the chamber of death between the warrior and the lady with the healing wound. I woke in the middle of the night, thinking I heard low noises of wild animals. Creatures of the desert senting after me, I suppose, I said to myself, and knowing I was safe, would have gone to sleep again. But that instant a rough purring rose to a howl under my window, and I sprang from my bed to see what sort of beast uttered it. Before the door of the cottage, in the full radiance of the moon, a tall woman stood, clothed in white with her back toward me. She was stooping over a large white animal like a panther, patting and stroking it with one hand, while with the other she pointed to the moon, half way up the heavens. Then drew a perpendicular line to the horizon. Instantly, the creature darted off with amazing swiftness in the direction indicated. For a moment my eyes followed it, then sought the woman. But she was gone, and not yet had I seen her face. Again I looked after the animal, but whether I saw or only fancied a white speck in the distance I could not tell. What did it mean? What was the monster cat sent off to do? I shuddered, and went back to my bed. Then I remembered that, when I lay down in the sandy hollow outside, the moon was setting, yet here she was, a few hours after, shining in all her glory. Being as uncertain here I said to myself, even the motions of the heavenly bodies. I learned afterward that there were several moons in the service of this world, but the laws that ruled their times in different orbits I failed to discover. Again I fell asleep, and slept undisturbed. When I went down in the morning I found bread and water waiting me, the loaves so large that I ate only half of it. My hostess sat muffled beside me while I broke my fast, and except to greet me when I entered, never opened her mouth, until I asked her to instruct me how to arrive at Bulica. She then told me to go up the bank of the river-bed until it disappeared, then verged to the right until I came to a forest, in which I might spend a night but which I must leave with my face to the rising moon. Being in the same direction, she said, until I reached a running stream, I must cross that at right angles, and go straight on until I saw the city, on the horizon. I thanked her, and ventured the remark that, looking out of the window in the night, I was astonished to see her messenger understand her so well, and go so straight and so fast in the direction she had indicated. If I had but that animal of yours to guide me, I went on, hoping to learn something of its mission, but she interrupted me, saying, It was to Bulica she went, the shortest way. How wonderfully intelligent she looked! Astart knows her work well enough to be sent to do it, she answered. Have you many messengers like her? As many as I require. Are they hard to teach? They need no teaching. They are all of a certain breed, but not one of the breed is like another. Their origin is so natural it would seem to you incredible. May I not know it? A new one came to me last night. From your head, while you slept. I laughed. All in this world seemed a love mystery, I said to myself. Some chance word of mine suggested an idea, and in this form she embodies the small fact. Then the creature is mine, I cried. Not at all, she answered. That only can be ours in whose existence our will is a factor. Ha! I met a physician too, I remarked inside, and was silent. May I take what is left of the loaf, I asked presently? You will want no more today, she replied. Tomorrow I may, I rejoined. She rose and went to the door, saying as she went, it has nothing to do with tomorrow, but you may take it, if you will. She opened the door, and stood, holding it. I rose, taking up the bread, but lingered, much desiring to see her face. Just I go, then, I asked. No one sleeps in my house two nights together, she answered. I thank you, then, for your hospitality, and bid you farewell, I said, and turned to go. The time will come when you must house with me many days and many nights, she murmured sadly through her muffling. Unwillingly, I replied. Nay, not willingly, she answered. I said to myself that she was right, I would not willingly be her guest a second time. But immediately my heart rebuked me, and I had scarce crossed the threshold when I turned again. She stood in the middle of the room, her white garments lay like foamy waves at her feet, and among them the swathings of her face. It was lovely as a night of stars. Her great gray eyes looked up to heaven, tears were flowing down her pale cheeks. She reminded me not a little of the sexton's wife, although the one looked as if she had not wept for thousands of years, and the other as if she had wept constantly behind the wrappings of her beautiful head. Yet something in the very eyes that wept seemed to say weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. I had bowed my head for a moment, about to kneel and beg her forgiveness, when looking up in the act I found myself outside a doorless house. I went round and round it, but could find no entrance. I had stopped under one of the windows on the point of calling aloud my repentant confession, when a sudden wailing, howling scream invaded my ears, and my heart stood still. Something sprang from the window above my head and lighted beyond me. I turned and saw a large gray cat, its hair on end shooting toward the riverbed. I fell with my face in the sand, and seemed to hear within the house the gentle sobbing of one who suffered, but did not repent. CHAPTER XVI. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Pete Williams. Lilith by George Macdonald. CHAPTER XVI. A gruesome dance. I rose to resume my journey, and walked many a desert mile. How I longed for a mountain, or even a tall rock, from whose summit I might see across the dismal plain, or the dried-up channels to some bordering hope. Yet what could such foresight have availed me? That which is within a man, not that which lies beyond his vision, is the main factor in what is about to befall him. The operation upon him is the event. Foreseeing is not understanding, else surely the prophecy latent in man would come oftener to the surface. The sun was halfway to the horizon when I saw before me a rugged rocky ascent, but ere I reached it my desire to climb was over, and I longed to lie down. By that time the sun was almost set, and the air had begun to grow dark. At my feet lay a carpet of softest greenest moss, couch for a king. I threw myself upon it, and weariness at once began to ebb, for the moment my head was down, the third time I heard below me many waters, playing broken airs and ethereal harmonies with the stones of their buried channels. Loveliest chaos of music-stuff the harp Aquarian kept sending up to my ears. What might not a handle have done with that ever-recurring gurgle and bell-like drip to the mingling and mutually destructive melodies their common refrain? As I lay listening my eyes went wandering up and down the rocky slope abrupt above me. Reading on its face the record that down there, ages ago, rushed a cataract, filling the channels that had led me to its foot. My heart swelled at the thought of the splendid tumult where the waves danced reveling in helpless fall to mass their music in one organ roar below. But soon the hidden brooks lulled me to sleep, and their lullabies mingled with my dreams. I woke before the sun, and eagerly climbed to see what lay beyond, alas nothing but a desert of finest sand. Not a trace was left of the river that had plunged down the rocks. The powdery drift had filled its course to the level of the dreary expanse. As I looked back I saw that the river had divided into two branches as it fell. That whose bank I had now followed to the foot of the rocky scar, and that which first I crossed to the evil wood. The wood I described between the two on the far horizon. Before me and to the left the desert stretched beyond my vision, but far to the right I could see a lift in the skyline, giving hope of the forest to which my hostess had directed me. I sat down and saw it in my pocket the half loaf I had brought with me. Then first to understand what my hostess had meant concerning it. Verily the bread was not for the morrow. It had shrunk and hardened to a stone. I threw it away, and set out again. About noon I came to a few tamarisk and juniper trees, and then to a few stunted furs. As I went on, closer thickets and larger furs met me, and at length I was in just such a forest of pines and other trees as that in which the little ones found their babies, and I believed I had returned upon a farther portion of the same. But what mattered where, while everywhere, was the same as nowhere? I had not yet, by doing something in it, made anywhere into a place. I was not yet alive. I was only dreaming I lived. I was but a consciousness with an outlook. Truly I had been nothing else in the world I had left, but now I knew the fact. I said to myself that if in this forest I should catch the faint gleam of the mirror, I would turn far aside lest it should entrap me unawares, and give me back to my old existence. Here I might learn to be something by doing something. I could not endure the thought of going back, with so many beginnings and not an end achieved. The little ones would meet what fate was appointed them, the awful witch I should never meet, the dead would ripen and arise without me. I should but wake to know that I had dreamed, and that all my going was no wither.  I went deeper into the wood. I was weary, and would rest in it. The trees were now large and stood in regular, almost geometric fashion, with roomy spaces between. There was little undergrowth, and I could see a long way in every direction. The forest was like a great church, solemn and silent and empty, for I met nothing on two feet or four that day. Now and then it is true some swift thing, and again some slow thing, would cross the space on which my eye happened that moment to settle, but it was always at some distance, and only enhanced the sense of wideness and vacancy. I heard a few birds, and saw plenty of butterflies, some of marvelously gorgeous coloring and combinations of color, some of a pure and dazzling whiteness. Into a spot where the pines stood farther apart and gave room for flowering shrubs, and hoping it a sign of some dwelling near, I took the direction where yet more and more roses grew, for I was hungry after the voice and face of my kind, after any live soul indeed, human or not, which I might in some measure understand. What a hell of horror, I thought, to wander alone, a bare existence never going out of itself, never widening its life in another life, but bound with the cords of its poor peculiarities, lying an eternal prisoner in the dungeon of its own being. I began to learn that it was impossible to live for oneself even save in the presence of others, then alas fearfully possible, evil was only through good, selfishness but a parasite on the tree of life.  If only I had a dog to love, I sighed, and regarded with wonder my past self, which preferred the company of book or pen to that of man or woman, which, if the author of a tale I was enjoying appeared, would wish him away that I might return to his story. I had chosen the dead rather than the living, the thing thought rather than the thing thinking. Any man, I said now, is more than the greatest of books. I had not cared for my live brothers and sisters, and now I was left without even the dead to comfort me. The wood thinned yet more, and the pines grew yet larger, sending up huge stems like columns eager to support the heavens. More trees of other kinds appeared, the forest was growing richer, the roses were now trees and their flowers of astonishing splendor. Suddenly I spied what seemed a great house or castle, but its forms were so strangely indistinct that I could not be certain it was more than a chance combination of tree shapes. As I drew nearer, its lines yet held together, but neither they nor the body of it grew at all more definite, and when at length I stood in front of it, I remained as doubtful of its nature as before. House or castle habitable, it certainly was not. It might be a ruin overgrown with ivy and roses. Yet of building hid in the foliage not the poorest wall remnant could I discern. Again and again I seemed to describe what must be building, but it always vanished before closer inspection. Could it be, I pondered, that the ivy had embraced a huge edifice and consumed it, and its interlaced branches retained the shape of the walls it had assimilated? I could be sure of nothing concerning the appearance. Before me was a rectangular vacancy, the ghost of a doorway without a door. I stepped through it and found myself in an open space like a great hall, its floor covered with grass and flowers, its walls and roof of ivy and vine, mingled with roses. There could be no better place in which to pass the night. I gathered a quantity of withered leaves, laid them in a corner, and threw myself upon them. A red sunset filled the hall, the night was warm and my couch restful. I lay gazing up at the live ceiling, with its tracery of branches and twigs, its clouds of foliage and peeping patches of loftier roof. My eyes went waiting about as if tangled in it, until the sun was down and the sky beginning to grow dark. Then the red roses turned black, and soon the yellow and white alone were visible. When they vanished, the stars came instead, hanging in the leaves like live topazes, throbbing and sparkling and flashing many colors. I was canopied with a tree from a laden's cave. Then I discovered that it was full of nests, whence tiny heads, nearly indistinguishable, kept popping out with a chirp or two, and disappearing again. For a while there were rustlings and stirrings and little prayers. But as the darkness grew the small heads became still, and at last every feathered mother had her brood quiet under her wings. The talk in the little beds was over, and God's bird nursery at rest beneath the waves of sleep. Once more a few flutterings made me look up. When Owl went sailing across I had only a glimpse of him, but several times felt the cool wafcher of his silent wings. The mother birds did not move again. They saw that he was looking for mice, not children. About midnight I came wide awake, roused by a revelry, whose noises were yet not loud. Neither were they distant, they were close to me, but a tenuet. My eyes were so dazzled, however, that for a while I could see nothing. At last they came to themselves. I was lying on my withered leaves in the corner of a splendid hall. Before me was a crowd of gorgeously dressed men and gracefully robed women, none of whom seemed to see me. In dance after dance they vaguely embodied the story of life, its meetings, its passions, its partings. A student of Shakespeare I had learned something of every dance alluded to in his plays, and hence partially understood several of those I now saw. The minuet, the pavin, the hay, the coranto, the lavolta. The dancers were attired in fashion as ancient as their dances. A moon had risen while I slept, and was shining through the countless windowed roof. But her light was crossed by so many shadows that at first I could distinguish almost nothing of the faces of the multitude. I could not fail, however, to perceive that there was something odd about them. I sat up to see them better. Heavens! Could I call them faces? They were skull fronts, hard gleaming bone, bare jaws, truncated noses, lipless teeth which could no more take part in any smile. Of these some flashed set and white and murderous. Others were clouded with decay, broken and gapped, colored of the earth in which they seemed so long to have lain. Fearfuler yet the eye sockets were not empty. In each was a lidless living eye. In those wrecks of faces glowed or flashed or sparkled eyes of every color, shape and expression. The beautiful proud eye, dark and lustrous, condescending to whatever it rested upon was the more terrible. The lovely languishing eye, the more repulsive, while the dim, sad eyes, less at variance with their setting, were sad exceedingly, and drew the heart in spite of the horror out of which they gazed. I rose and went among the apparitions, eager to understand something of their being and belongings. Were they souls or were they and their rhythmic motions but fantasms of what had been? By look nor by gesture, not by slightest break in the measure, did they show themselves aware of me. I was not present to them. How much were they in relation to each other? Surely they saw their companions as I saw them, or was each only dreaming itself and the rest. Did they know each how they appeared to the others? A death with living eyes. Had they used their faces not for communication, not to utter thought and feeling, not to share existence with their neighbors, but to appear what they wished to appear, and conceal what they were. And having made their faces masks, were they therefore deprived of those masks, and condemned to go without faces until they repented? How long must they flaunt their facelessness in faceless eyes, I wondered? How long will the frightful punition endure? Have they at length begun to love and be wise? Have they yet yielded to the shame that has found them? I heard not a word, saw not a movement of one naked mouth. Were they because of lying bereft of speech? With their eyes they spoke as if longing to be understood. Was it truth or was it falsehood that spoke in their eyes? They seemed to know one another. Did they see one skull beautiful and another plain? Difference must be there. And they had had long study of skulls. My body was to theirs no obstacle. Was I a body, and were they but forms? Or was I but a form, and were they bodies? The moment one of the dancers came close against me, that moment he or she was on the other side of me, and I could tell, without seeing, which, whether man or woman, had passed through my house. On many of the skulls the hair held its place, and however dressed, or in itself however beautiful, to my eyes looked frightful on the bones of the forehead and temples. In such case the outer ear often remained also, and at its tip the jewel of the ear, as Sydney calls it, would hang, glimmering, gleaming or sparkling, pearl or opal or diamond, under the night of brown or of raven locks, the sunrise of golden ripples, or the moonshine of pale, interclouded, fluffy seary, likeness all on the ivory white or damp yellow naked bone. I looked down and saw the daintily domed instep. I looked up and saw the plump shoulders basing the spring of the round full neck, which withered at half height to the fluted shaft of a gibbous cranium. The music became wilder, the dance faster and faster, eyes flared and flashed, jewels twinkled and glittered, casting color and fire on the pallid grins that glowed through the hall, weaving a ghastly rhythmic woof in intricate maze of multitudinous motion, when sudden came a pause, and every eye turned to the same spot. In the doorway stood a woman, perfect in form, in holding and in hue, regarding the company as from the pedestal of a goddess, while the dancers stood, like one forbid, frozen to a new death by the vision of a life that killed. Dead things, I live, said her scornful glance. Then, at once, like leaves in which an instant wind awakes, they turned each to another and broke afresh into melodious consorted motion, a new expression in their eyes, late solitary, now filled with the interchange of a common triumph. Thou also, they seemed to say, wilt soon become weak as we. Thou wilt soon become like unto us. I turned mine again to the woman, and saw upon her side a small, dark shadow. She had seen the change in the dead stare. She looked down. She understood the talking eyes. She pressed both her lovely hands on the shadow, gave a smothered cry, and fled. The birds moved rustling in their nests and a flash of joy lit up the eyes of the dancers, when suddenly a warm wind, growing in strength as it swept through the place, blew out every light. But the low moon yet glimmered on the horizon with sick assay to shine, and a turbid radiance yet gleamed from so many eyes that I saw well enough what followed. As if each shape had been but a snow image, it began to fall to pieces, ruining in the warm wind. In papery flakes the flesh peeled from its bones, dropping like soiled snow from under its garments. These fell, fluttering in rags and strips, and the whole white skeleton emerging from garment and flesh together stood bare and lank amid the decay that littered the floor.  For a moment the leaves were still swept fluttering all one way. Then the wind ceased, and the owl floated silent through the silent night. Not for a moment had I been afraid. It is true that whoever would cross the threshold of any world must leave fear behind him, but for myself I could claim no part in its absence. No conscious courage was operant in me. Actually I was not afraid. I neither knew why I was not afraid nor wherefore I might have been afraid. I feared not even fear, which of all dangers is the most dangerous. I went out into the wood at once to resume my journey. Another moon was rising, and I turned