Good day, May 40 here. I got a bit of a problem.  Have you? No, have you even read John Locke? Right, that's my my instinctive reaction. I just Nothing's changed. Like I'm 55 and I'm still behaving the same way as when I was five I can first grade my teacher wrote in my report card Luke is always very willing to share his opinions with the class But he needs to learn to be more considerate of the slower thinker Like I'm getting on my high horse I'm getting aggrieved and and I'm using all my fancy rhetorical abilities to send off like these aggrieved irate emails And taking like a haughty haughty tone With other people that I people that I have to deal with like in general People who annoy you Yeah, you want to put as much distance between yourself and them. All right, that's a good strategy for living But if you need other people's cooperation Being a haughty prick is not a good strategy All right, and my tendency is when I think I'm right and the other person's wrong and it's just like as clear as day It's like Hey Don't you see the British medical journal In this last issue already dealt with your objection, bro. Do you do you even read peer reviews studies, bro? My god I'd just be sending off these haughty like self-righteous Nasty emails and I was wrong. I got my facts wrong I misunderstood the situation so I didn't get it when I need people's cooperation Like why is my default and they're annoying me, right? They're bothering me. They're getting under my skin That doesn't happen that often, right? How often do you Do you see 40? Who's annoyed and upset and someone's get getting under his skin, right? It doesn't happen that often normally I'm a shining example of calm peace love compassion inner peace But sometimes when people annoy me Right normally. Yeah, you want to put as much distance, but then when I need their cooperation And I start speaking ex-cathedra like it's though. I'm speaking for god. This is though My with my every poison word.  No Do I do this with people who put money in my pocket? No, do I do this with people who have obvious power to hurt me? No, do I do this with people who There's no evidence to believe that they can hurt me And they're annoying me or maybe just someone else has annoyed me. So I take it out on some third party like way too much This is this is embarrassing like this is a fundamental character flaw that I have That that somehow a situation changes and I just start becoming haughty and prickly and pompous And it's it's like a character default. I just switch to that when I get frustrated and annoyed And this is not who I want to be.  Like why can't I live my life with the chosen ones?  I didn't even want to do this video I just wanted to be a figure of light love. I just wanted to chill before Shamini at Sarah. We've got a big Jewish holiday starting up in a little over an hour I didn't even want to be here. I didn't want to make this video Right. I just wanted to chill I just wanted to do these healthy breathing You know positional release exercises. I just wanted to do some alexander technique All right, I just wanted to be one with a sham before shamini at Sarah Like who does not want to be one with a sham prior to shamini at Sarah? Like I wanted to you know, stretch and get my muscles limber and ready for some rocking on Simchat Torah You know carrying the Torah scrolls You can't just like grab these big heavy Torah scrolls and start dancing with them unless you like limbed up Unless you're in shape unless you're aligned with your higher power But how can I align with my higher power when I've been unfair? unkind When I've been too critical too often and too much And totally wrong, right? It's one thing. It's fine to be critical and right. All right. That's I can live with that It's fine to be pompous and right It's fine to be repeatedly critical and pompous and right I can live with that, but when I am repeatedly pompous And critical too often too much and I'm wrong about what I'm saying All right, that is not how I want to go into shamini at Sarah Do you think I want to go into shamini at Sarah thinking, you know, I'm a big fat jerk? I'm a pompous prick I saw this girl Dolores in something like 1992 and she came and stayed the weekend with me And she got to meet my old man and I asked her like how would you describe the difference between me and my father? And she said he's not as pompous. I don't want to be a pompous dude I just want you and me to live in light and love and comradeship and and compassion I mean, how do I how do I shift gears?  I just perform these moral acrobatics Right. I'm not always the kindly giving You know understanding wise compassionate figure that you see on on this youtube channel Right. I I I I perform moral acrobatics right How we avoid ethical ambiguity by thinking in black and white great 2021 book by psychologist Philippe Rochet, I believe he is french published by oxford university. Ooh I love I love the uh the oxford university press. Have I ever taken the m m b ti? Do you mean the the m? Look these personality tests. Let me get pompous there. It's just it's just self-reported nonsense All right, personality psychology. It's an enormous field and it's just relies on people like Self-reporting stuff like just shading in you know, little bullet points on a piece of paper. That's all it is There's no there's no science behind it. There's no verification behind it. All right So personality psychology is is useless. My as Briggs is useless. It's just a money-making scam It doesn't give you any real insight. It doesn't pertain to anything in reality. It's just like self indulgence. Oh, let's talk about me. I'm uh What was I? What I was a Uh I INTJ. I think I'm an INTJ. It's just it's just a circle check. There's no validity There's no profundity.  Right personality psychology is bogus Like be who you are even if it's pompous, but I don't want to be this pompous jerks, particularly when I'm wrong So when I'm dealing with difficult people or annoying difficult situations And these people have no power over me I want to be cooperative. How do I switch gears from pompous horny prick to cooperative? Let's figure this out together. My life will go much easier if I'm able to switch gears into Cooperative rather than horny pompous prick Right. If this isn't me just wanting to be a righteous man This isn't me here wanting to connect with god. This isn't me wanting to be a better person. I just want an easier life I just want things smooth and easier and my life will be easier if If I just take this attitude of Cooperation like get into that cooperative mindset. Where is loponius? I've had a bunch of emails with loponius in the last 24 hours. So I told him I told him that I was streaming And uh, he's been relying on twitter. He just thinks oh, I've you know, 40 is going live He's going to put it on twitter. So loponius has missed all my live streams for the past, you know, two months And then like yes, he approached me once with all the secret shows, bro I just didn't put them on twitter like I do a show almost every day You got it. You got to subscribe to the channel hit the button for those notifications when I go live But people they rely on twitter. They just thought I always put the show on twitter And loponius says show tonight, bro. We need to discuss jasmine st. Clair pure slander, bro Okay, so here I am. I'm ready to discuss jasmine st. Clair. I am in an open giving Uh persona right now. I want to switch from being a pompous prick to having this cooperative Let's let's figure it out together attitude and uh jasmine st. Clair she uh She she had some harsh criticisms for for 40 Oh, and now now it doesn't even Now it doesn't even line up, right? Or does it? Okay, she's talking to holly randall It was right before I got sober, okay, it was not in the best place in my life I'm not exactly proud of it. We all have our dark moments in our life But if you could find that's all the things that he wrote, you know, like sometimes Like you google me because his website was so popular And all of his blog posts about me would come up and so it was a little off-putting for people But yeah, so my husband just didn't he refused to like google me or look me up or learn anything about me from the internet Because he wanted to get to know me as like an authentic person And you know five years later. We're married. We have a kid.  You know, I I he's become The last I heard of him.  Yeah One of those yeah, like like lady you could tell you I'm totally I get it like I'm hooked by that whole Mike Lindell thing right now I don't believe in all this news, but I just I'm hooked on craziness sometimes I get Slipped into it somehow. Yeah It's interesting, you know, it's it's you know, what is humans were attracted to drama? Um to excitement and sometimes uh not in the most healthy ways so All right guys, we're gonna take a quick commercial break and we're gonna come back Okay, so In my own mind, I am a monarch All right, you know in my in mind, you know, I am a figure of light All right You know in my own mind I am like awesome and courageous and witty and charming and empathic But now I've obviously been quite a jerk So when when jasmine st. Clair America's most controversial sex symbol when she recalls luc Ford Uh, it it's not a figure of light and love. So I met her with ron jeremy in Like the summer of 1985. We went to the law factory And I always thought I got along great with jasmine st. Clair Like she is quite smart Very smart woman and I thought we got along great Uh, I I wrote about her frequently On my on my blog and she she was always friendly and I've been Charming with me and gave me lots of great quotes but uh You know, sometimes we're friendly and charming to people who we absolutely love So, you know, I can't think of anything heinous that I did to jasmine st. Clair or to holly randall but They obviously didn't have such a wonderful experience with 40 university Yeah, saying some xenophobic stuff that that yeah that pretty Pretty much sums it up She's happily married, but she still talks about you 40. Well, here I am still talking about her. So I met holly randall in something like january 2006, but she was really drunk Uh, and so she doesn't remember then we started dating at the Tampa show in Oh, no, we met at the Tampa show in something like september of 2006 Then we went out for a few weeks Then we broke up And uh, then she told me I think in december 2006 that her therapist said that she was a love addict And I was like, whoa love addict I hadn't hadn't heard that term before so I had to go to the library and read three books on it to become an expert in it And I realized yeah, I'm a love addict too, but I didn't do anything about it so holly was really She was really nice to me. She was really good to me. She threw me a rocking 40th birthday party She paid for everything whenever we went out. She was so nurturing and loving and fun and smart I mean those were those were good times Good times and then we got back together again for about a month or two in February march of 2007 And then then she did something for me so sweet and I think this is profound often when You got to be careful about extending yourself For others because when you extend yourself for others, you're usually going to expect that they'll be grateful Right and when people aren't appropriately grateful after you extend yourself, then you're going to get pissed off So it's like in the bible. So sarah tells Avraham look you want a kid take my maidservant haigar and make a baby with haigar And avraham says oh, okay, if that's your wish and avraham goes make a baby with hagar And then sarah can't handle it. So I think we often try to take on moral obligations that we simply can't handle so It's something like march of 2007 holly did something it was like so incredibly kind and good to me It was it was so loving She she said I want to cook for you and I don't know what to cook for you because your diet's so weird and And I said contact my mother Meaning my stepmother in australia. She'll tell you food. I like to eat So holly contacted my stepmother in australia. My stepmother gave her a lentil stew recipe And then holly went like all over town getting the ingredients for my lentil stew recipe It was like it was such an amazing act of love I mean it was such a kindness. It was such a goodness. I mean I would never do that I mean, I'm thinking the equivalent I had a girlfriend who had the flu And she was up staying at her parents home in malibu and she wanted me to drive up and bring her crackers And I said no I don't want to drive up all the way. You know, I'm not the type of person He's going to drive 20 miles to bring you crackers when you had the flu Right, that's not who I am now on the other hand after our first night I sent this woman flowers like I spent like 50 or 60 dollars and her reaction was You know, it's too early to talk about love I think I'd send her a nice note with the flowers and signed love luke and and her reaction was It's too early to talk about love. So I never sent her flowers again. It's like well forget it I'm never you know, I've never sent any woman flowers again after that like after getting dissed Dissed by hers like no never getting woman flowers again but It moved her so much But her reaction to it was to put me down for it. So it was only It was only like months and months and months and months and months later That I realized how much it moved her that I bought her flowers But it moved her so much the only way she could react to it was to put me down for doing it So holly goes enormous lengths to make me a lentil stew And I tend to get cranky If I can't eat right away So I got over there at like five o'clock and I don't think she was going to be prepared until six o'clock But it's like I have to eat right now So holly says okay, and she serves the stew and it was fine. It wasn't it wasn't great But it was fine, but it was to me. It was just amazing how much love she'd put into the stew So yeah, if I fed you the stew You wouldn't be thrilled, but I was thrilled because she went to so much effort She put so much love into the stew that that I was just moved But because I wasn't sufficiently Enthusied about the stew like we all knew it didn't really turn out so well She threw it all away and I was planning. I wanted to take the stew home Like she'd cook for me so many times. She'd like split pea soups and other soups Just absolutely delicious. Like she was a great cook Like she'll be a wonderful mother like incredibly capable woman like a great entertainer, you know, like her mother sues randall Very giving personality always taking care of people always helping people out And you know, I've got kind of a selfish self-centered personality and Like the givers and the takers like holly was like 100% giver and I was like 100% taker So, you know, I can kind of understand her Not looking back with with unalloyed joy at our time together She did say on one podcast that she she tends to date men who are a reminder of her father and Father was a broke writer until he met Holly's mother sues randall the erotic photographer So Holly tends to date broke writers and so she'd always pay for everything And this would always bother all the guys that she dated But for some reason that didn't bother Luke. She don't yes, you know I feel like my writing is such a gift to the world that it doesn't bother me when The woman pays for everything I I heard something on npr in the 1980s about some character who was gonna be doomed to have women You know pay for his way through life And I heard that in the 1980s and thought wow, that's gonna be me. Well, that is me So Stu Very nice night together Next day. I'm talking to Perhaps my best friend of the time like Kevin Blatt. We were like talking every pretty much every day, you know Now like Kevin Blatt and Holly Randall. They seem to have nothing but contempt for me Uh But uh, you know, I thought we were like, you know good buds and so you often say things, you know to to your friends, you know a level of You know letting down your hair, you know taking your yarmulker off and I told him, you know, how much love and effort Holly put into the stew and how moved I was and and Kevin Blatt's more of a bottom line guy Like I'm more of a romantic Kevin Blatt's more bottom line And so he asked me, well, how did it taste? And I think I said, uh, not so great Or it was okay and and then of course I You know transcribed the conversation and put it on my website lucasback.com And Holly Randall read that and she flipped and that was the end of the luke fort Holly Randall relationship It was over right there like no more Loving times with Holly Randall. That was the end.  She went into rehab She she got sober from alcohol Uh, I mean it wasn't it wasn't just a clean break. She had some uh, she had some ups and downs with alcohol And uh, but that was it for the luke and holly show though. She did put out a wonderful birthday party I mean, how kind and giving was this woman like Two and a half months after I said that inappropriate thing on my blog about her lanol stew She threw me this wonderful 40th birthday party. Like, you know, we had like 40 people over and I mean gave me lovely gifts. She said like, you know, when do you get for the guy who got nothing? So she got me this lovely thing that makes tea And uh, then she she she went to rehab and eventually she got sober and she got into AA and she worked the 12 steps and then it was something like shovel walt so so June of June of 2008 or 2009 She said she wanted to take me to dinner because I was on her ninth step amends list and so She took me to dinner and she she wanted to make amends for you know, nothing that was too serious like Um, I'm sure I owe her quite a few amends I'm not sure like I did a list of my 100 resentments for for a sponsor and my sponsor demanded 100 resentments So either holly randall nor jasmine st. Clair on my list of 100 resentments But you know holly if I if I did you wrong and it would help if I made amends for for that wrong You know, let me know if there's work that I need to do. I'm not aware of it and and The opposite way around, you know, holly didn't do anything bad to me. It's just we were two love addicts two narcissists in love all right, so So we both get Yeah, we both Had our flaws and our vulnerabilities and and we both, you know pushed each other's buttons blessings to laponius laponius You left the stream back. I think you might enjoy this this video. It's been a long time, bro since since I've seen you so So holly makes her her ninth step Amends to me and it was nothing that was No big deal like it was it was trivial stuff like She'd taken a couple of zen acts and had some wine one evening And then she just like, you know passed out And and I was like freaked out, you know, I didn't know she'd overdosed um, she just like Zonked out on me just like since we passed out on me and I had no idea what was happening.  It's like, oh man. I didn't understand this girl Why didn't she tell me what was going on?  So like very trivial things She didn't have any, you know major ninth step amends, but she she wanted to get completely clean So I was on a list, you know, we had a very nice dinner.  I think it's it's a very very nice evening and then about A month later holly randall writes this column in xbiz magazine And out comes this column even good juice masturbate And she, you know, it talks about me and apparently over our dinner I told her that sometimes when I want to masturbate the image of my rabbi comes to my mind And I feel bad and I can't I can't masturbate because I'm thinking about my my rabbi I didn't know about you. Do you sometimes get in the horn and you want to like rub one out? But you start thinking about your rabbi or your priest or your your your minister and it's like, oh no, I can't I can't jack off and think about my rabbi at the same time. It's just like, you know, just kind of seeing his His pained face like he'd been so good to me like he kind of stuck his neck out for me You know, my rabbi had been, you know, such a mensch for me and I just like picture You know the sadness on his face if he were to contemplate me masturbating and like his His sad face I would just see my rabbi sad face and I couldn't masturbate And apparently I you know shared this with holly she went and wrote a column about she takes me to dinner To make a nine step amends and then she writes the most embarrassing column My god, I hope I hope this is not I hope this is not available through Through google.   What was not for publication now? I'm not saying that I 100% abided by it, but there was never any gross violation Like, you know, she would tell me things and it was like understood. This is not for publication And I I wrote about it to a great extent What was my book profiles and sex love and death? profiles in sex love and death Um, I wrote a book on yeah lives on the edge profiles in sex love and death So you can read that book. I I wrote like 100 pages on my relationship with Holly Randall And I ran it all by her. I gave it to her. I delivered it to her. Like is this okay? Tell me what you want me to take out All right, and so I read her by her and she was fine with it. She like signed off on it All right, and then here we are Like I must have said that I couldn't masturbate when I thought of my rabbi sad face looking at me And it ends up in xbiz magazine. I don't want my anecdotes about not Masturbating because I'm thinking about my rabbi sad face. I don't want that anecdote in xbiz magazine In fact, I wouldn't even want it in the new yorker But there it was and it was all done over a ninth step dinner to make amends. It's like This is why my hair turned gray and started falling out. It's like, oh man.  So I couldn't even get aggrieved or self-righteous I may not even be able to get haughty and pompous and prickly about it. It's like So that was Pretty much that was the last time I saw Holly He had some brief interactions after that. So it's something like 2010 2011 uh I get I get a voicemail from her.  It's like, oh, hey Luke I just want to tell you I'm getting married. You know, I'm so excited. This is a great guy And I just want you to know it's like Why are you calling me? You know, we we hadn't seen each other in years. We hadn't talked in in years but Okay, so Holly got married and then I don't know. Did she get divorced? Is this husband number two like barely kept up. I think I think Holly wanted to do a photo shoot of me where I'd wear a suit waiting out into the ocean Uh, so we may have talked about that 10 10 years ago Uh Then I think Maybe 2018 I think I may have sent an email. Hey, would you like to come on my show? We'll you know, we both ended up walking the 12 steps Yeah, maybe if I'd learned to empathize with others Um, I would have been in Better shape. Yeah, so So I think I I emailed her in something like 2018 2017 2016 Hey, would you like to come on my youtube show? We both worked the 12 steps. We can talk about Now our 12 step experiences and she says I think she said something like oh, that sounds interesting Now I'm off to Tahiti for three weeks And that's it. So I haven't haven't had any Haven't had any interaction uh with her since But she keeps slamming me on these various youtube videos Yeah, jasmine says luke is a xenophobe and a weirdo But she never said that to me in all our interactions. She she was always uh, perfectly nice so kelvin mcdonalds so he He says, you know, sometimes like holly says all these really, you know, nice things about you like On an earlier show with angela white as a guest holly says, you know, I'm still quite fond of luke But seems like uh jasmine's influence or kevin blatt seemed was like when holly was talking to kevin blatt is like disdain and disgust and repulsion for luke, uh, but So we all affect each other, right? So holly talks to jasmine and it's like, look, what a horrible experience Talks to angela. Oh, I'm so fond of him. But that's how we all are All right, we're all profoundly affected by By those that we're around So i'm sure you're you're reading all the all the uh latest on outside the beltway.com And uh good article here on the psychology of internet fame by chris haze, I think the ms nbc tv host and holly really did She shook me up like That was back in 2006 2007 right not Haven't haven't been moping around since 2007 but for a few months there. She she's spun me round round right round Right round right round and she enjoyed it like she enjoyed the You know the crazy hole that she held over me because we were both sex and love addicts Right and we enjoy the power that our sex and love charisma holds over people So I have experienced that as well okay so tv The last thing I would say to holly would be thank you Thank you for being in my life Thank you for being kind and warm and generous Thank you for the the laughter and the intimacy and thank you for Introducing me to the concept of love addict Go volunteer feeding Haitians look at the border that will clear your xenophobic soul All right, so we know the tv is a vast wasteland and maybe you know the internet is going to say that we're going to remake the world through these radically democratized global conversations like what we're having right now But that's not exactly how it ends up because I was discussing kovat and Responsive to kovat with a friend and my friend was making his points by sending me pictures of screenshots And some of them there wasn't even a source So I think today in the age of the internet people think mainly in terms of pictures and memes like like they don't want to read You know scientific papers let alone books. It's like oh, you know, I saw this video where doctors said that You know death certificates were changed in this and that way and you know, I saw I got a picture of a tweet here That's that's how people think because they find the pictures and the tweets and the videos That shore up the way they already look at the world but so the internet Yeah, it brought new voices into the national discourse but You know, we had this brief renaissance of long blog arguments But the writing steadily got shorter the images and the video got more plentiful Until the internet gave us a new form of discourse. There was a combination of word and image It gave us meme culture a meme can be clever a meme can be revelatory, but it is not discourse Right, so we've just got all these people going into a party like yelling into a megaphone so imagine you're at a party and Someone there's one person there with a megaphone is yelling like everyone would have to respond to him now The public square is like going to a party where there are seven different people with megaphones They're prattling on So you take away one guy's megaphone. There's still six people with megaphones like everyone now has to shout to be heard Now conversations online have morphed into a game of telephone like everyone's shouting variations of the same snippets of language Phrases slogans. It's like an endless oral hall of mirrors And the effect is so disorienting that after a long period of scrolling through social media You may feel a profound sense of vertigo. It says chris haze Also, the more angry you are the more social media traction you get All right, so the people who scream the loudest get the most attention because they stand out against the backdrop of Pendulating sound that is now the room tone of our collective mental lives Well, that's not my experience the internet because I curate my experience, but I understand that is the experience for a lot of people so Here's chris haze's ultimate point Everyone now has access to their own megaphone But most people are not reaching a vast audience But at any single moment anyone with a smartphone has the ability to share images and thoughts with millions of people around the globe Now this used to be the province of governments and big media but now power once granted just solely for totalitarian governments A 14 year old can release a meme that goes viral right and An industrious 14 year old can find out more about people than a team of kgb agents could have found out 60 years ago so The public presence of our private lives cannot escape this reach so So being internet famous or even appearing online. It's like dancing on the edge of a cliff I know this from all the people I brought on to my show like even a friend brought on to my show. We had great shows but He was dancing on the edge of the cliff and eventually fell off like a lot of people I've interacted with here on youtube they dance on the edge of the cliff and then they've fallen off They've had a very hard fall So someone with a tiny number of followers on social media Can suddenly shoot out like a firework into the internet and they can burn brightly and white heart infamy And you can find the sudden attention thrilling and addictive So you see this a lot of people who live stream they get addicted to the attention and they start Being becoming captured by their audience And then it's too late that you find out. This is Quite deleterious to your well-being So now if anyone says or publishes something that's racist or sexist or inflammatory For most employers, it's not worth the internal strive to try to rehabilitate their reputation people just get fired And for many industries, they are exposed to legal liabilities If their clients if their employees say, you know crazy things on the internet or just inflammatory things You know even true inflammatory things on the internet, you know very likely to get you fired These are things that would not have happened 20 years ago Now random off-color comments between co-workers didn't get you fired nearly as much 20 years ago Now there is a decreased room for for what is private So never before in history have so many of us been under the gaze of so many strangers Now we evolved to live in small groups, you know up to 150. That's why We evolutionarily Adaptively developed fear of public speaking because for tens of thousands of years speaking publicly before a group It had so many dangers to your well-being Now times have changed. We no longer live our lives primarily within a group of just 50 people or so So now there are all these people who we don't know who know us Which can be a little freaky So if we define fame as being known to many people that we don't know Then Then you got a lot more fame online So as each new medium of fame appears The human image it conveys is intensified and the number of individuals celebrated expands That's the point made in the 1987 book the frenzy of renown so the internet Is created an ever larger category of people who might be known by millions the world over So electricity went from a luxury just enjoyed by the elite to something that everybody has Now fame has gone from something that used to just be enjoyed by the elite Now more and more people have access to it So ever since there have been famous people you've had people have been driven crazy by fame But now ordinary people being driven crazy by the taste of fame online and Not everyone can handle it So we all desire recognition and and a good reputation. That's just hardwired into us right But uh now with the internet this basic hard wiring can very easily Lead you astray Right, so you can think about the master and the slave right the master wants recognition from the slaves So people who want fame, you know, they want recognition from people they don't know So for the master he can be satisfied You know by by the recognition of all these people who don't know him So you can also instead of master and slave you can call this star and fan So the star wants recognition from his fans, but fans are strangers. They can never be known by the star The star cannot recognize the fan So therefore the fans recognition of the star will never satisfy the core existential desire of the star Because there's no way to bridge the asymmetry of this relationship So the star seeks recognition and instead gets attention so the star and the fan are prototypes And we get to be stars and fans online So we're conditioned to care about kin And to those who are closest to us But now thanks to the internet we start caring about likes and comments from people on the other side of the globe who will never meet The psychological experience of fame for many people particularly narcissistically inclined It's like a virus invading a cell Like it takes all of the basic mechanisms for human relations and distorts them and puts them to work seeking more and more online fame And the more you pursue fame And the the more empty you're gonna feel inside The more you want recognition You know all you will end up getting is attention and then you become addicted to attention And you live your life in a howling vortex that fame can never feel So famous people as a rule are absolutely obsessed with what strangers say about them and they stew and they rage about it A thousand kind words from strangers will bounce off you while a single heart criticism will or just linger I mean It's it's kind of uncanny like why isn't that uh thousand positive comments Don't don't affect you nearly as much as one one negative comment. So apparently Richard Spencer talked about why he fell out with Keith Woods So Let's see if What we got here We'll play a little bit Okay, come on. Come on Richard. Come on Richard. It's it's hard to answer that I don't want to reduce us just to say skin color, which occurred in the last 10,000 years actually post agriculture and I don't want to Reduce us just to say one particular class or lifestyle, you know, what it means to be white is to have a family on the farm or something No, that's not exactly what it's to be white. You're here versions of that I do think that there is an area in core a genny a Root mentality, but uh, I might have to spend an hour talking about that. So I think I'm going to punt on this one Okay intellectual midget Why do you believe the left will spare you if you were to tap dance enough for them?  So that that's not why I'm doing it. It's not some Little strategy or something like that. I speak genuinely and if I were to playing games It's some we're playing a show game where I'm really talking about what I think and believe in that I don't think anyone would take me seriously. So I'm not playing those games Well, I Was Yeah, I mean keep I really liked a lot of what we were doing with Keith Woods and I thought we had a great rapport Um, Keith wanted to go a different direction. I think this was like a year or so ago He just wanted to kind of do his own thing and have his own show or whatever. That's perfectly fine Um, when Keith started uh attacking my my friend and holly mark brahman that wasn't fine He was playing a lot of weird troll games Um, he and his group and I'm I that's not okay So I don't understand exactly what's going on with Keith and I do I don't know I mean, I posted something the other day. It was just it was someone else There's this kind of leftist of some kind who's making this criticism I do see a lot of different show games with him of not Articulating any position and I think there's also a kind of I don't know I mean mark called a book report nationalism where you You go and you read something and or you watch a video and then you regurgitate it for five minutes And then you're like and this is why nationalism is great and it's just not good enough Um, ideas. I mean we're all rehashing old ideas on some level, but you have to integrate these into a general perspective and um Criticize them. So I don't know. I just who knows maybe he'll snap out of it, but I kind of doubt it He there's a there's a lot to be gained by being a dancing monkey There's a lot to be gained by really trying to appeal to the dissident right and I don't appeal to them Then I fury it most Well fire rider said, um, would you debate Nicholas on whether the america first movement is the old right 2.0? Um, I guess I would Um, but I don't know how you take a different position on that, but sure. Okay. Thank you. Thank you for playing Come on. I'm getting ready for shimini at sarah and sim cartora. I can't can't be distracted by all this nourish kite So here's the here's the climax Of chris hazes essay in the new yorker All right, so the psychologically destabilizing experience of fame is coming for everyone Everyone is losing their minds online Because the combination of mass fame and mass surveillance increasingly channels our most basic impulses toward loving and being loved caring for and being cared for getting the people we know to laugh at our jokes All into the project of impressing strangers A project that by definition cannot set our desires But it feels close enough to real human connection That we cannot but pursue it in ever more compulsive ways So I think that he's overstating his case. I think what he's saying is true and applies to people who Are unstable like stable people are not going to Generally speaking get unstable pursuing fame online but those who Don't normally connect with other people Then they're going to get much more likely compulsively hooked to Pursuing attention online because it's kind of a simulcra of human connection But so no, I don't think everyone is losing their minds online Rather the people who are most likely to lose their life their minds in real life Are also more likely to lose their minds online people who are stable in real life Are going to be fairly stable online So I'm not aware of the internet having many negative consequences for me for many many years To the best of my knowledge. I have not lost any friends From from the internet in years and years and years certainly not the close circle of friends The most important parts of my life. I do not talk about my most important relationships. I do not talk about My most important experiences of community. I do not talk about So that which is sacred in my life I keep sacred and I don't Don't talk about it Online so things that are sacred. You have to protect and put layers upon layers over them You've got you got a beautiful wife. You got a beautiful daughter. You want to protect her You don't want her going you know going out wearing shorts and a t-shirt Bye. Bye


All right. Can you hear me well? Awesome. So hi, everyone. My name is Adam Shemalik. And I'm a super engineer in Red Hat. I'm a contributor. And I just want to tell you something about Agile. But before I start, I have a question. I'm an engineer. So whatever I say might not be the truth. But this will be useful things, or at least things I think are useful. And that's basically it. So let's start. So there is the, so what is Agile? It's mostly compared to a traditional approach. And the traditional approach is basically like a software development, right? You have some requirements. You will do the design, implementation, testing, deployment, there will be some consequences like maintenance and stuff like this and practices. And you just do it in one go, and then it's done. And what this Agile is basically about is that you do iterations. So you try to feedback and fail. Try feedback fail. And you do these reviews. And basically you somehow iterate to the right place. And it's much easier to plan. It's much easier to manage, basically. And so how the work is defined in the traditional service. And you get a specification as a developer, right? And you just do it. Or you could have an issues record if you're an open source community, and then you just do everything you want to do. But what I see in Agile, and I don't know if that's true, but what I see is these three things. So there are goals, actions, and feedback. And the goals will be things that you want to produce. So this is like the end result, right? So when we were doing the documentation, we had things like translation, build pipeline, information architecture. And then we have some actions, which are basically units of work, how to get to those goals. So we just like push this into this Git repo, right? This script, and even somehow get closer. And then there is the third thing, which is feedback. And that's what just comes from your users. And they are represented in these things. So the goals are named Apex, or usually called Apex, at least that's how I use them. Actions could be represented as a card, and issues, and feedback is the issue. So that's what you get, for example, in your issues record, right? And I think these are three separate things. And some open source project would only use the issues record, which is, I think, fine. But it might be harder, at least from my perspective, for onboarding new people, understanding of what's going on, because it would be messy, right? You would have your user feedback there, you would have your RFVs, you would have things that you need to do, various sizes, or the goals. And it would be somehow crazy, and probably could manage with tags or everything. But I think having these three groups of things can really help. And it would look like this, if you structure it. So you could have Apex as the goals, and then you have the units of record to get closer to the goal, right? And then the issues from your user. And there are basically two methodologies I know of, or I have experience with, how you can approach working on those tasks and goals. So Scrum and Kanban. The difference is that Scrum is about sprints. I say it's about planning and commitment and iteration, so what that means. You would basically choose cards that you want to make. And there would be a time period, like two weeks. And it would do like two weeks cycle, for example. And it would come in to do this set of issues. And in the end, you would see the end result. And then you could decide, is that enough? Or do we need another? Or is it just a completely different path, right? So this is more about those cycles. And Kanban, on the other hand, is lean, continuous, prioritizing. So you would have a list of those cards. And you would prioritize them in a certain way. And they would just take either one by one, just like slowly progressing. There wouldn't be any cycles, any planning. And they would just like slowly go through the queue and prioritizing on the way. So these are the two main approaches. And I'll just explain them a little bit more with activities. So what do you do if you want to do this? Or at least what we did in the teams I work with. So I think there are major five different activities. So something is called grooming, nice planning, stand up, retrospective, and demo. And I know there may be some new words. And also not all apply to all, to those two principles. So for example, Scrum uses basically all of them, but Kanban just some of them. So let's have a look at what that is. So grooming is basically about creating, defining, clarifying, and prioritizing those cards. So this is where your team or group of people can sit and basically define what they want to do. So you could define the epics, your goals, as I said, for example, for the documentation translation or something. And then you could see the cards, which would be the work you want to do to get closer. And having this scope, like in these small pieces, is much easier for you, I guess, to focus on a separate part. And you could see you could do even reviews of what you've already done. And basically organize your board with these things. And by the way, I will be showing a live demo in the end of how we use it in the DOX project. I haven't said that before, so yeah. But that's basically grooming, making sense in the cards and making sure it's updated. And it makes sense that there's everything. Then you could do planning, but this is just in the Scrum. As I said, Scrum is doing cycles, for example, two-week cycles. And you need to plan what you want to commit for those cycles. So for example, you say you want to complete these 10 cards in this plan, and then you just do your work. Kanban doesn't have it, because there's no plan. There's no cycles. You just go through these. So that's one activity. And you mostly work only on those cards, and just completing what you planned. One of the nice things about this is daily stand-up. So this is all daily. It doesn't need to be daily. But we usually do it daily. And it was just like a scene between the people, what we did, what we planned to do this day, today. And just to make sure we are not conflicting with each other and not stepping on each other's toes or just giving an update. Again, both Scrum and Kanban. Then demo. I have Scrum and Kanban with a question mark. If you do Scrum, if you do those circles, it's very useful to do demo in the end, where you can just present the work you did, try to sell it to even if you're in a company, to your product owner, or if you're in a community, maybe to yourself, or just see what basically happened. In Kanban, this can be done. And I think it's encouraged. But it wouldn't be on a schedule. You could do it anytime you think it makes sense, for example. So I think it's optional. I think it's up to you. And then I respect perspective. And this is basically talking about the way you work. But it's not about what you did, how you write. I don't know, what you did, how... It's not about the thing you're producing, it's about the way you work. So for example, how you do the stand-ups and how you do... And I think it's mostly about the process. And you can just think about how you could improve. And you can also do it periodically. And this helps the team be more effective or just be more natural in the processes. Then I have a section. If you can do this in open source communities, because I was talking about cycles and computing work. And it sounds a little bit pressuring. And I only have one slide. But basically teams of employees versus teams of volunteers. And this doesn't need to be employees. It could be people that are probably paid for their work and just doing this full-time versus team of volunteers that are just doing it whenever they have time. And what I personally see, it might be difficult to do scrum with the cycles, with communities, because people would be doing it just like on their schedule. Whatever they want. And I personally think it's Kanban is the way to go. And that's what we did. And that's what I'm going to show you as well. But this is the thing to consider, right? If you also Google scrum or Kanban, it's mostly applied to the professional teams that just have time and resources to put 100% of it. So this is a thing you need to, I think, keep in mind. But let me show you the further documentation example. So we published a new further documentation last week. And I think we were using something like Kanban to organize the work and just figuring out what even we want to do. And I have a board I want to walk you through. Second mic works. So this is Fedora Taiga. And I hope you can see it well. I can try to make it a little bit bigger. And that's what we used for planning and tracking the work. And it's also important to point out that this way, like group of people, I think there are three people working on this. If you're an individual contributor, you have your own project, this might not be that important because you can just work on yourself, just know about everything. But this is very important for communication between people. So I have a few views here. And I think epics is epics and Kanban are the most important too. So epics, these are the goals we have. And then Kanban is the place we use for work. So epics we would use for planning and prioritizing and maybe the grooming. And this is what we use for actual work. And in the epics, we have defined some goals. So for example, the very first goal I defined here was translations. And then we have docs for the docs, like a documentation about the documentation, a web UI, information architecture, and things like this. So if I, for example, open the translations, there is a description that basically describes the end result. So what we want to do, in almost state, we need to be, for this to be finished, for this to be considered finished. And these are things like we need to be able to submit the original content of the translation, probably build a site with the translation, and things like this. And I also have an autoscope here that we don't need automated build pipeline with this, because that would be too much. So this somehow sets the expectations. And if you know this, even maybe a new team member looking at this, and maybe the actual state could figure out what to do, because they don't have to think about the whole picture. And we have some cards here that are like, develop the scripts to load the English language to the translation engine, just like a script that takes it out and the UI to switch the website. And these are actions that are just getting us closer to this goal. And we don't have to define everything. We can just define something, do it, and then see what's going to happen. Also, one nice thing here is that you don't need to have only cards with the produce work, but you can also have so-called spikes, which are like a research card. So for example, I don't know how this translation engine works. So how can I even plan my work? But that's not a problem. I have this, and I have my goal. So I can create a car, for example, about figuring out how this translation engine works and document it. And based on this, you can create more cards. And this is just one thing. And this is the one goal with those cards, and you can basically iterate to get to that closer. I don't know, one more example would be, for example, onboarding existing contributors. And I think one of the first card here would normally be figure out who these people are. But we knew, so we just created a car for each group, and then we can track who knows. And again, this is the definition of what does it mean that they know. So we can decide at some point that this has been done, and no other work needs to be completed. So this is where we define our goals and also define some actions that need to be taken to get closer to the goal. I was also thinking about issue, and we have a separate issue factor that is available for everyone. So they can submit feedback, bugs, and whatever. But it's a separate thing. And I think it would be nice to somehow include it in here, like integrate it with, for example, Pagger, which is a git with issue factor we use. But I think that's for leaders. And so this was the planning phase, and just figuring out what we want to do. And if I want to work on something, I can do that. Yeah? This question? That's a very good question. So the question was, who is creating the cards for these epics? So it depends in which environment you work on. For example, I work in team with Red Hat. And what we would do is that these epics would be created out of our requirements. For example, from product management. So they would say that they need a web UI, or they would say they need a translations. And they would specify what that probably means. And then the implementation team could just approach this and say, oh, and I can, by the way, just view it like this, that probably to achieve translations, we need to develop the script, and we need to develop this another script and the UI. So this is a way how your product owner can tell you not what to do, but what to achieve. And it's up to you to figure out what you need to do to get to that goal, which I think is very important distinction. So yeah, good, thank you. So when you know this, you can go to the Kanban view, at least here in Taiga. And you can use any tool you want. Actually, I'm trying to just present the concepts and what we do. But in Taiga is this Kanban view. And we have these columns, and these are basically different states for the cards. And right now, we have something called backlog to do in progress, testing, the blocked or waiting, done, and there is archives. And these states are, in this case, defined by us, because that's how we can organize our demos effectively. And so what's this backlog and to do? So in backlog, there are all the cards we basically have. And we treat it in a way that anyone can create a card and then the team can just go through the card and that's called a grooming. And for example, clarify what does it means, maybe tweak it a little bit and make sure that everyone understands. And then you can move it to the to-do, which means that yeah, you as a team agree that you want to do it and it's scheduled for doing it and you can just pick it up and go. So that's what the to-do is. That's the column you can just go and take some work. So I could say I just want to figure out where to publish some UI bundle. If I don't know, I can just go to the details, that's not important. And if I want to work on it, I would just move it to in progress. This is important in teams that have many people because that's the way you can communicate what you're doing and you're just stepping on each other's toes. If I need testing, I can have testing. And this basically, the distinction here is that I can see what's done, but not like ready to be used. And you don't need to have this testing column. I think I have created it like last week just for the deployment and might get rid of it again. I don't know. But this is completely up to you. We have blocked waiting. So for example, I need to validate the design with the design team because I have created the homepage that looked like in semi-horrible way. And I need someone from the design to say, either it's okay or just tweak it and say it's nice. So this is not a good question. Yeah. How will we prioritize merge testing tasks or some merge testing tasks? Oh, that's an excellent question. How do we prioritize? So let me finish explaining this column and I'll just go back, okay? Yeah. So yeah, the block is basically work that's being done, but not by us. And in Kanban, this might be useful so you can see who's got time and not. Because for example, I'm not doing any work for this, but it's being worked on by someone else. So I just track it here and I'm responsible for delivering. How do I know that was the question? How do I know what to pick? So that's one of the things and thank you that was a good question. I basically missed that before. During the grooming session, you would normally with your team go through these two cars and you would somehow prioritize them. So for example, if I think that this is much more important than this, I can just move it up and I think it's even true, so I'll just do it. And you don't have to always pick the top one.  You know what you want to do, but you should know that like, at least that's how we work, that near the top are the most priority ones and just near the bottom are like, not the priority ones, but this is just the guideline. And it's again, whatever you decide, what we were even trying to do would be like a third column with like a priority task. So we have many things we could do, right? And not everything was needed for the deployment that we did last week. So we would have another column with things that needs to be done before we can deploy. So I could just like create a new column, just use it for a week or so, or just a month, it was actually several months. And then you can just remove it. It's very flexible. Yeah, I have a question here. So could you do this, for example, with Pegger issues or using Bugzilla? Very good question. What are the advantages of using Pegger? So the question was if I could do it with Pegger issues or in Bugzilla or there's even board somewhere else. So I think you could. And this is not meant to be saying that use Tiger, which is the agile tool that's definitely not true. But what I see that it's important, at least from my perspective, to separate the issues which are featured from your users, from the task and goals you actually plan yourself. Because all in this work is created by the team, no one else. So we know what's in there and we can write it in a way in kind of consistent way. So we make these cards like maybe similar sizes or just in a way that we understand and we know it's actionable and it has an end result. On the other hand, if you have issues, they are submitted by users that are not part of your team, maybe, and they can submit anything. It could be just like, this is broken. Or could you do this? Or can we discuss this? And it's very constructive information. So what I think would like the most if I would have this issue tracker separately and then maybe either pulling issues from it or create a new task in here, it's mostly conceptual. But yeah, you could definitely use any tool. Sure, you could use any tool. But I think separating those three things, those goals, cards, and then issues is useful. Yeah? I think I don't really understand. So you get an issue. Do you need to create an epic for it and then create like one task? If you know that it's basically like business as usual, you know basically you just do this small stuff. Yeah. Because that's what we usually do. I mean, okay, like 100 cards. And 90 of them is just very simple stuff which doesn't need like any triggers. It's just a long issue. That's a very good question. If you have like 20 things which require several steps and then I understand this because it's really important to break it down into multiple pieces, et cetera. That's a project on its own. But most of the stuff we use is okay, like business as usual, we just fetch it, we just do that. Yeah, yeah. So the question was that if I, for example, get an issue, if I need to create an epic and a card for it, and definitely know this is just a tool for communicating. If you can work like with this and for example, with your issues record fine, just continue doing it. That's absolutely fine.  That's, I think there is a filter which somehow works. And yeah, I can filter by epic and there is not in an epic. And we have some like this. So I just need to do it like this. Yeah, so we have some cards that are not in an epic because these are just like random things we need to do. And maybe they are not like a completion like goal or they are, but they are not big enough that we need to figure out or make it complicated. This is also not meant to document everything you do in a huge detail. This is meant to help you as a communication tool. So like if you can do without this, it's absolutely great. They basically like for one person, you just don't need to do it if you have a good memory and good imagination, right? But whatever works for you, you don't even need to use those epics. But for me personally, it helped me with organizing the work and focusing on those separate things. And if I need to create like more work, I can say, yeah, I need to prioritize translations. So I can look this and now I have this, just this context of translations and I can focus on that, whatever works for you. Yeah. Actually, it's two project leaders before me are for the Fiora relinch team. And I'm noticing different titles for the columns of the cards. Is there any convention for the names of the different columns that you work in your cards? So the question is basically if there is a convention for these columns, and I think there are three basic columns that most project leaders use and it's like to do in progress and done. But you basically do whatever works for your team, right? If I had just few issues, I don't think I would have to distinguish between back look and to do, because we have so much stuff and I sometimes just think about, I still use these translations, but I think about translation just like, I have an idea, oh, I need to do this so I can just create the card, but it doesn't mean someone needs to work on it, I just worry about it. So that's why I put it in the backlog. Also testing, some work doesn't require testing. For example, we did without testing for like a month or two, but when we were converting the content from the old way to the new way, we actually had to test it. So I just created the column, but I'm pretty confident I can just delete it right now. So I think whatever works for the team or whatever states you need to do, also if you have like an infrastructure board, you could have even connected with like the issues as I described in the way that all the user requests, issues or whatever would just end up in one column of the commitment before this and it would be them prioritizing and planning them or whatever, like you can basically do whatever works for you, I guess. I'll answer the question, it wasn't too fuzzy. Yeah, cool. Right, I think I was describing the combs before we started with the questions and I think I ended here, but yeah, blocked waiting, it's a work that's being done but not by me and this is done, work that's done. You can see faces here and names, so these are the assainees for the card and these are not necessarily people who are doing the work, but these are people who are responsible for the work and that's a very different distinction. So for example, Brian here is probably responsible for CI for stage and it doesn't mean he needs to do it but if someone else does it, Brian needs to just like keep poking him, it's right. Also, if you have people with multiple team, oh sorry, teams with multiple PO, which is basically the definition of team, you can have five people working on a car but there will be only one owner, so they're just not like arguing or just like is, you always have one person that's like responsible for, for example, updating the car and making sure that work is being done the right way. Does it make sense? Like the people who work versus owners. If you want an allocation, what about backlog? Backlog, you don't have assigned people, right? So backlog here doesn't have assigned people. So what would usually happen is that in progress everything needs to have an assigned people and from here to the back, right, like it must, right? In to do and backlog, you don't have to have assigned people that means like anyone can pick it up but I can also see that for example, this will be work that only I can do so I can just assign to myself and I can somehow, I can even do it right now because there's fellow in me doing it and now anyone else on the team can see that, oh, this is assigned so I don't even have to worry about it but this is free so I can take it, right? And I think I'm finished with the demo. Cool, yeah? Yeah, just one, so one thing that I guess from my observations of watching this process at work and then also having seen how community teams work and I think probably many people here have experienced the same thing which is often you get issues that you don't know what to do or it's maybe it asks for one thing but really what that represents is a much bigger thing underneath and so one of the most powerful things I think that this method gives you is in creating that backlog because the movement from backlog to to do means something, it means we're not sure what this represents here, we're not sure yet we agree what it means or what work needs to be done moving from that to to do what it means now, everybody understands everything that needs to be done now you actually have something that's actionable and that's almost like in itself even if nothing else worked right that in itself would be amazing for a lot of different teams because we have many times these discussions and we have a general consensus but no one writes it down or we agree on a way to go but there was one person who didn't get to weigh in so having that step it kind of enforces clarity without enforcing in a bad way it's a good way that everybody can benefit from yeah, so yeah, note was that if we have this called the backlog and the to do that sometimes we get issues that are too ambiguous or we are not sure what to do with these so the move from back up to to do where we can clarify and just make sure that we know what to do is somehow good and I think I do it with my personal task management so for example, I have an inbox for random thoughts and I just can think about something or just write it down and it can be complete nonsense and then I would do my personal grooming and I would go through these and just like so what did I mean by this? Oh, it means I need to do this or I mean I need to achieve this or I can do this in like two minutes or just do it right now and I think yeah, that's a very important distinction between just like the ideas or just like ref notes and actual nice, sculpt actionable, yeah. I was just gonna add from a community perspective we've been lucky to have Adam's time or from the start to do it and my face was up there but like not a lot of my time has been able to be dedicated to this because of long. So last week when we were doing the rollout it was super helpful to have this come by board because I have basically disappeared for two weeks and had not really spoken to Adam and kept up at all and then when the rollout came out there's all these parts and I could just go through and spend my time moving things to do, to end progress, to testing, to done and we were able to work together even though I'm essentially an episodic contributor I don't have time in my day job to go do this but we were able to make this happen from a very community perspective you don't need to be 40 hours a week in order to participate in a common bond situation. Yeah that was a great note by Brian. So yeah, the way we have it set up so we have like those epics and the cards is good if you for example go out for a while then you come back and you don't talk to people from the team but you kind of know what needs to be done so it's organized and I would add to this that if you for example onboard a new person or actually in the open source world there was just like a person who wants to discover what's done in this project they can just see the epics and oh they are trying to do a view on this is my thing oh they are trying to do a translation, great so I can just have a look what needs to be done in the translation so I can see like the definition of done yeah I think I could achieve that I can see these actions I can do one or just create one I think it's much easier to onboard or just like for people that are not 100% following the project all the time I think it's very easy to just like leave and then just continue the work. Yeah I think we should finish so let me just close with this it's just agile is not like the agile I don't think you can get certified in agile I don't think you can do agile but you can adopt agile principles to your way of work so you can iterate so you can just like do smaller circles and I think it's important to distinguish between those three between your goals between your actions that get you closer to the goals and between issues that I just use a feedback and with this thank you.


Hello and welcome. Today we are going to be taking an Android APK, Android app package, and we're going to be dissecting it. We're going to be taking a part, looking at how it works a little bit and just determining what I think of it, which in this particular case, I'm going to label it malicious software or malware. And hopefully I'll explain why. Now my definition of malicious software may be different than yours. The actual application we're going to be looking at today is actually the application or the app for the church I go to. And they've been pulling this thing for years and it is, it's, it's malicious software. Now I want to be very, very clear. I'm not saying the church is making malicious software. I'm saying they hired a company that is making malicious software. And hopefully I'll be able to explain to you why I think that it's malicious software. And of course you can always determine things yourself. But at the very least, if you don't consider it malicious software, it's poorly written software and it's definitely spying on you. So let's go ahead. Oh, we're going to look at their APK, their app and then one that I made and their website. So let's go ahead and just have a look at this on the left, my desktop computer, which is hooked to the phone, which is on the right through USB on my desktop computer. I have the packages. I have them both installed. CPCC APK is the app I made, which is basically just displaying their website. And then the center point Naples APK is the one that was created by this third party company that the church has entrusted. Before we even jump into those, let's have a look at the church's website first on my desktop. This is what it looks like. Okay. And now let's look at what it looks like on mobile. We'll just go ahead and click here and this is it. And you know what? Their website works fairly good on mobile. I'll give it a B plus. It is a thousand times better than the website they had 10 years ago, which was horrific, broken and confusing. We have a side menu here. We can close that. We can click on stuff. It all goes through. Now let me make it very clear. This should be their application, their website. Just it has all the information there. Well, most of the information there. And that's, that's the key to this, which I'll get into in a little bit. And it works great on mobile. So all people have to do is go to this website, click here on their web browser and say add to home screen. They can name it. They do have a Favicon, but they obviously didn't set up right because it's not giving the proper Favicon here, but I can click add and add automatically. And that will add it to the desktop here. And then I can click on it and it will open it up. Now it's opening it up with this, with the toolbars at the top of the bomb, like you're in the regular browser. If the website with a few lines of HTML can change that, for example, here's a link on my website for a video game I made. It's where you can get the stuff. And if I was to right click or click on this menu and click add to home screen, you can see it grabs the proper icon, gives it the name, which they can modify. I click add, add. And then when I go to the home screen here, here it is. And when I click on that, it actually loads like an application. Besides the fact that it has the browser icon on the desktop, on the icon, you would know that this wasn't a native app. And if your website is designed well, that's all you need. And as far as it having the brave icon there, depending on your launch or your home screen, you can remove that. But I also get people like installing apps for some reason. So what did I do right? So I think the one on the left is the one I made. And the one on the right is the app from the actual church. So if I click on this, I can open it and you can see, yes, this is mine. And it's their website, but it's packaged as an application. And it does everything the website does. It's fully functional. I can go to here and I can click on this. Click on the little home button there and everything just works, right? So that's all you need to do. And what's the difference between my app and their app? Let's go ahead and quickly look at their app, which I want to be very, very clear. It is just grabbing information from a website, right? So it's grabbing all these images, as you'll see in a little bit, from a website. And when I'm clicking on some of them, they're actually just loading web pages. But what is the difference? Well, let's look over here. Let's look at the app size. So if I list out the files in here, you can see I have their app and my app. There's a 71 megabytes, minus 103 kilobytes. There's is over 700 times the size of my application, 700 times bigger. Now, if I was to go into the applications, let's see if I can get to it like this. I can hold this down. No, it doesn't have to. Oh, actually, if I hold it down, there's different ways to get here. Here, that information, once it's installed, it's 71 megabytes before it's installed. Once it's installed, look at this. It's using 159 megabytes. OK, the app size is 85, and it's using 57 on top of that. And then caching some. Let's go now to my application. We'll go app info. And we will look here at the size, storage. My app, again, is 110 kilobytes. The user data is 168, and it's got some cache, so 10 megabytes. Still a fraction, less than one-tenth the size of what they're caching. And that's because I've opened it, and it's loaded up images from the website so that next time it will load faster, right? Also, let's be aware of this. So my application. Well, let's go back to their application just to see if I go to their application, their app info and look at permissions. I've granted none, but it wants permissions for the calendar, the camera, your contacts, your location, your notifications, your photos and videos. It wants all those, and I don't have it up here. But if you go to the app store, it tells you that they're going to be sharing your private information with third parties. So not only is this thing over 700 to 800 times the size it needs to be, which makes you question why, which we'll look at a little bit, but also why is it doing all these things? Well, it tells you on their website, they're going to be collecting your information and sharing it. Let's go back to my application here, which, again, is just a wrapper for the website, and we'll go to permissions and permissions. It has none, but the only thing it might ask for is notifications. I must have put that in there when I created it. I'm not sure if that's a default thing, because I don't remember adding that to my manifest file, but it's not asking for your camera, your location, access to your files, because it's just loading the website in a wrapper. OK, so now let's go ahead and look a little bit more at this. Why am I doing this now? The church has had this app for years and they keep pushing it. And it is malware. Again, it tells you right on the website, it's collecting your data. It wants permissions and it's huge. Now, I've ignored it so recently, but if I come in here, the one thing most 90 percent of the stuff in this app, you can access on their website. So again, making the app useless, except for recently, my daughter has moved up into middle school and she's involved in the middle school youth group. And to sign her up for certain events, they want you to sign up in the app. And that's one thing I can't find on their website.  They want it hidden, but anybody can download this app. You don't need any permissions downloaded.  And all this stuff, the images and the links are all being pulled from a website anyway, which we'll look at again momentarily. But I need to do this to register my daughter for stuff. Now, they fix something because last week and I tried it on two different devices. I came in here to register my daughter for this beach day, which is actually where she's at right now while I'm recording this. And when I clicked register, nothing was opening. But you can see it loaded it up in a web browser here. So this is up on a web page. It doesn't even load it in the app. OK, so so it's not like it's not using a website. This is a website, as we'll see in a moment. And it's loading the website separately, which is just weird why they would do that. So it's the design is awkward. It's bulky, full of stuff. Let's go ahead and actually pull apart using APK tool D and the name of their app. And what that's going to do is it's going to not decompile, but it's going to basically unzip the package so we can look at more of how it works. But a lot of it is proprietary software. It's going to be binary blobs, which adds to a lot of the size. And these are binary files that you don't know what they're doing. And you can see how large it is, how long it's taking for it to decompress all that. And now if we move into this directory, you can see the files they have. And you would think, oh, again, maybe the size is because they have a lot of images, but they're loading almost all the images from a website. So it's not in the package. Let me go ahead and just do dash H will list the files. And you can see when I unpack it, unzip it, it's 191 megabytes. Although I don't know if the decompiler tool or decompression tool might add some extra information in there. But let's go ahead and just grep. And I'm going to say grep for things with numbers and the number M. So we'll get things in megabytes. We'll get rid of all the small files here and let's go ahead. And you can see right here, 57 megabytes is this lib directory. Now you'll see that there's four sub directories in there and they're for different architectures, which allows it to run on different devices. So if you have a desktop Android device that's running in x86, it has libraries for that. It also has x86 64 bit, which is most desktop machines. And then it also has four different mobile devices are now this is good that they have these here because it allows it to run on more devices. But that stuff really isn't necessary for what they're doing. And so it's just bloat. You can also look. Let's go ahead and just go less so we can scroll through this and I'm going to go down. And you can see here, a bulk of this is just Android libraries and Facebook stuff and maps and measurement tools. I'm assuming that that might be, you know, collecting. Well, obviously it's all collecting data. So not only is this company splash screen or whatever their company's name is collecting your data, it's all going through Google and Facebook as well. They have these libraries in here, which are not needed for the actual application, so they're just collecting information is what they're doing. And I'm thinking maybe this third party company doesn't even know what they're doing. They they load up just these default libraries that aren't needed for that because they just load up everything again, because they're they're poor designers. So yeah, now I also want to go back and mention when I went to register the other day, remember, I couldn't get it's load and I thought, oh, OK, wait, if I come back here to the home screen, click here, there's a register option. Sign in login or sign up. Well, I thought, OK, maybe I need to register with the church so that then I can register for events. No, if you sign up here, you're actually signing up with that third party company. They might pass the information along to the church, but they're actually collecting that data and creating an account for that company. So there's collecting more of your data and that didn't fix their registration problem. Also, clicking on the Bible here, it does bring up Bible verses, which, again, can be done in a website. It's promoting third party apps. I'm not familiar with this app. Again, prior proprietary software, there's open source Bible applications out there. It's just overall it's bloatware. It's got again, bloatware. It's got more stuff than it needs. It's collecting your information and wants permissions it doesn't need. And in the past, I've talked about how I think permissions on the phones are stupid, but at the same time, that's because I only install applications. I trust I don't trust this and not only do I not trust this, it wants to collect information that shouldn't. It's suggesting third party applications is just horrible, horrible, horrible software. Again, coming here, clicking on my website, my link, look, it just opens up. It's just the website. So now you only have one interface to worry about. You don't have to have two different interfaces. If I go to this on my desktop, it's basically the same interface just spread out on a larger screen because it is the same. It's just it's just squeezing down to size. Now let's look at a little bit more. So I could scrape through here and I can try to find more information in these files and I could probably pick apart things now that APK has been decompressed. But again, a lot of this might be binary files. So one of the things you can do when examining software like this to see what it's doing is is monitor what that application is doing. So let me just move back out of here. Oh, also, let me APK tool D my application like this. It should go a lot faster because it's a fraction of the size. There we go. And if we come in here, I can list out stuff and you can see actually I want to do du dash h to list the size of all files. Again, even uncompressed, it's it's just over a quarter of a megabyte. And you can see I don't have all those unneeded libraries that are just both that have nothing to do with the application other than being there and sniffing your data, basically. OK, going back out, what is their application doing? How do I know it's grabbing information from a website other than it's obvious that's how this application is working? What we can do is with ADB enabled, meaning I can connect to the phone through my through a USB cable, I can run the command on the phone. Log cat, I've gone over this in the past. It's going to if I just do that, it's just going to start spitting out a bunch of information every time I do something on the phone or the phone does something in the background. It's logging that information to the screen over here. OK, it's a lot of information. So what I'm going to do is I'm going to use a program called grep. Grep is going to allow me to filter. It's going to do a word search for certain application for certain things. So what I'm going to do is I know that that that app is looking for websites. So I could do grep look for HTTP because web links are going to start with HTTP, right? So I'll do that. It's going to load up some stuff that's already loaded recently into the log.  And I can click on one of these and open it up in a web browser. See, that's this image here. So it's grabbing these images from a website. So they're not in the app. The app is grabbing them from the website. So and then if I click events over here, it's going to do the same thing. You can see images, images, images if we can look for once. Don't say image because let's see right here. There we go. It's loading up some JSON here, which we can also grab. JSON is just a way to format different pieces of information. So we can actually filter out some of this information, make it a little bit easier to read. But look at this last one right here. If I was to click this and open up a website, it's some JSON, which gives me information. And then I can take that. I can look at some of the HTML links in here or HTTP links in here. Web links, click on that. Here's some more JSON. So basically it's loading up all the events and then it's loading up each individual event when you click on one of those. And then here I click on this and I open it and look at this. This is what's in the app. And again, open in a web browser. So again, I do not need the app because I can just look if I click on this, this and this, this and this. Same thing. So again, the app is completely unnecessary. All it is is loading stuff from a website, yet it's still huge. But to clear things up a little bit, we can clean this up. So what I could do because there's live permission for I'm just looking for web links. What I can do is I can there's different ways you can do this. I'm going to say said and what I'm going to do is say look for all lines that have HTTP in it and change it to new line HTTP. And then from there, I'm going to say, OK, only give me the first thing in that link. I'm going to use Ock. So now we're getting into a little bit of programming, but it's just to show you how things work. And then from there, I'm going to grab just for HTTP. So now when I do this, it is just going to be grabbing URLs. So it makes it a little bit clearer when I click on something like this, right away, I can see the links that it's loading and it gets rid of less information. Now, again, I can take that information. So if I go back to like this, right? So I said, this is Jason. This is like formatted information. I can use a command.  I'm going to say, OK, W get basically is like a web browser for text in the shell here. Right. I'm going to say, OK, give me all that information. What do I do? I got to say dash there. That is the same information as this year. But from there, I can put it into programs like this, which formatted a little bit nicer. I can then grep for URLs and it gives me URLs. Well, I've actually done that. So now that I've picked this apart, not only do I understand how it works better and I see what it's doing, I know it's just loading websites. Now, anytime I need to sign my daughter up for an event, I wrote a little script here. I'll show you the script real quick. It's called center point youth events. And I got to type in my password to access that script. OK, so it's grabbing this URL and then it's doing what we just did there. And then it's going to give me a way where I can filter out things in the list and then open them. So not a very long script, just a couple of lines, right? So but now I can say center point community church event youth events. And when I do that, it's going to go to that website. Again, don't need the app anymore. It lists the name of the event on here on the left. It gives the URL and then the date and time of the event over here. So for example, my daughter right now is at the middle school beach day. And so I can just click on that and it's going to open it up in the web browser. And I can now register her right in the website without having to use the app at all. So now that I've taken it apart, I understand it better and I can use it more effectively. So there was a lot of things I wanted to go over. Hopefully I went over all of them. I don't work with scripts. So I'm just going through my head. So I may have been all over the place. But as you can see, just based on what that app says it's going to collect and then looking at how it works and looking at the size of it, we can determine that it's doing a lot more than just displaying information. It's collecting information and doing who knows what else, because it's proprietary, which right off the bat, in my opinion, if it's proprietary software, it's malicious because it's preventing you from seeing what it's doing. There's no way to really know. We've picked it apart a little bit and someone really skilled might be able to pick it apart more and see exactly what the applications is doing. But if it's a binary blob, which we saw there were a lot of those in their libraries, not just made by that company, but third parties like Facebook and Google that are just going to be collecting your information and bulking up this application to a size that's unnecessarily seven to eight hundred times the size it needs to be, because again, all it's doing is grabbing information from websites and then either generate interface based on the information it grabs or just displaying a web page, in which case it is complete bulk and and bloat. OK. Yeah. So I hope you learned something. And again, this is a demonstration. I've gone over a lot of these tools in the past. APK tool to unpackage APKs and you can look through the files in there and sometimes see a little bit more of what they're doing. But if it has binary blobs, you can use log cap and simple commands to search through that information to narrow it down. And not only do I do you learn more about what the applications on your phone are doing, you can completely avoid those applications as I shown. And I did it in the shell. You can easily make your own web interface that grabs that information too. And then you can make your own rapper in your own application that works better than theirs and takes up literally a point of a fraction of the size of that application that you know what it's doing. It's still going to their website and any information you enter in there will be logged. But just viewing the stuff, they're going to be getting minimal information from you. So I hope you learned something. I hope you enjoyed this video. I hope you keep on watching. If you have any questions on any of the tools or commands I ran, go ahead and search on my website, filmsbychrist.com. That's Chris the K. There's a link in the description. And there you can, you know, search the information and find, again, videos I've done on all these tools. And I know that loading, showing this application showed some information like email addresses and phone numbers for people at the church. But this is all public information because it's in the app that's in the Google Play Store and the Apple Store, whatever they call their store and just on random web pages. So I don't consider it private information. So I'm not worried about blurring that stuff up or blurring it out or sharing it. But yeah, again. I don't I'm not blaming the church for trying to be malicious. I am blaming them for being naive enough to trust these third party companies. Their website, again, is probably made by a third party company, too. At least with the HTML and JavaScript, you can look through the web page code better and block things with your browser better than you can an app. And it's a good enough website that they don't need to interfaces. They could just wrap their website as a package and put it in the app stores for people who want the app instead of just linking to it on their website, on their home screen. So I thank you for watching filmsbychrist.com. That's Chris the K. There's a link in the description. As always, I hope that you have a great day.


Hey y'all, Dustin Schaffer here, the Keto Pro. We're gonna talk about the biggest mistake people make on keto or really any health plan. And this may surprise you a little bit because at the end of the day, like if you recognize this mistake that everybody's making, you will ultimately get results, maintain it and live the life you wanna live. If you don't recognize it, unfortunately, you'll have to watch this video again in the next year and the year after and the year after and year after until you decide to shift your way you're seeing things. So a long time ago, people used to say that, you know, it's 90% diet is 10% exercise. I mean, as a trainer, a former trainer, that's what I always would say, 80%, 20%, 95% nutrition, 5% diet. I'm gonna tell you right now that it's wrong, all that's wrong. It's probably 20% diet, 10% exercise and 70% how we see it all, it's behavioral driven.  I don't wanna end up like my mom, mom died of whatever I had this condition. I don't wanna end up like dad. They're all trying to avoid something or lose something or get something away from them. Instead, and unfortunately, what they're doing is they're attracting it, unfortunately, more. So if weight loss is your goal, look at weddings. How many people do you know that lose weight for their wedding and that don't gain it back? And then more than that, and then more than that. Look at the biggest loser, same thing happened there. They focus on the loser, instead of what they gain out of this whole thing. So here's the tip. If you wanna ultimately change your life forever, reverse your thinking, doesn't, I'm all about, hey, look good in the bathing suit, I'm all about looking sexy, I'm all about, you know, dropping body fat, it's good for your health, but it's not a good tool to utilize as a motivator long-term. You'll typically, a mentor of mine said this, he goes, if the donut gives you a higher or better reward than the six pack abs, the donut will always win. I thought that was pretty cool. So because it's true, so what you wanna do, we just finished this challenge up and it's pretty neat watching these gentlemen, the mostly men in this challenge, but I do this with women also, is that these guys have been plateaued, gained some of the weight back, they're all just stuck. They all know what to do. That's why people say nutrition is like so important. Bullshit, you know what to do. It's not like it's rocket science, y'all.  It's pretty that, it is that simple. Now you can accelerate it with like things like Keith being in ketosis, you can accelerate it with things like our product, like keto Nat, but that is a pretty simple concept. It's not rocket science. What I'm thinking of that is that there's individual people, I have an on immune disorder so I follow a different plan, but it's not crazy like, wow, that's just groundbreaking plan. That kind of makes sense once you have the grid, just that you figure that out in 20, 30, 40 minutes. Or maybe even a couple of weeks, but why don't you do it is the bigger reason. Why don't you stick to it, that's the bigger reason. That's where really the meat comes into it. So what you want to do is you want to do something instead. Write down the goal, hey, I want to drop 100 pounds, I want to drop 30 pounds, I want to drop five pounds. How many of you have the same five or 10 pounds that you've wanted to lose for the last 15 years and you have it instill in front of you? Seems like a bad plan. You wouldn't wish that upon your kids. It's always one of my favorite lines. Would you ever wish your kids to be in the situation? People go, no, I'm like, well, you've been in it for 15 years. Let's change the way we approach this. Otherwise, it's not going to change, right? What is the definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting a different result? So what you want to do instead is you want to focus on what you gain. What are you gaining? What are you gaining in this journey? And you have to make it somewhat measurable. What I found about the thing about weight is weight's measurable. So people can get excited or disappointed off a number. So if you don't make your gains measurable, then it's arbitrary. It's just a concept. Like you can't measure health.  You can't measure health. There's no metric to health. We're working on it. There doesn't exist. We kind of have an idea of one, but it doesn't really exist.  Go to the doctor. They'll tell you if you're sick or not, right? They can tell you, people get their blood work done. They're like, I'm healthy. Well, are you, do you wake up every day with energy focused? Do you feel great? Are you up to conquer the world? Are you happy? Are you fulfilled? If the answer's no to any of those, then you're not optimally healthy. You're lacking somewhere. How do you improve that? So focus on things that you can measure. For instance, I'll give you a couple of mine. No, I'm going to go away from fitness for just a second, but come back to it. Is for me, it's to be more patient. How do I make up? How am I measuring that? Well, I'm measuring that because the method to become more patient is to be okay with quiet time. And for me, I'm a very stimulated person. I like a lot of stimulation. So seven minutes every day for 28 days, I did a seven minute meditation. It's a practice to become more patient. Well, then what ended up happening is that when I went out with my daughter last weekend, I spent time without my phone and I sat down and we just hung up on the pool. Well, because I put the work in. So my metric is can I do every day for 28 days? Well, now that here's the trick comes. Now, how do I maintain that after? Set a standard. What's your standard that you're going to live by? Next thing is, is you could do a sleep goal. Like, hey, I'm going to get to bed at this time every night. Right? So then you can put a tanful too. If you have a ring, like I have a ring, you can measure your sleep.  Use that as a measurement of success and then set a standard and live by that new standard that you're going by. These are all the recipes that are going to help you maintain your goal anyway. And the last one is exercise. What's your one mile walk time? What's your one mile runtime? What's your, whatever that is for your own needs? What's your push-ups? What's your pull-ups? What's your sit-ups? What's your burpees? What's your jumping jacks? Measure something, something physical that you can put your bike ride, that you can measure your test, test yourself, go do a challenge, get to that new standard and then maintain your new standard to the level that you want to maintain it. If you go to say, I want to do 20 pull-ups, I may not maintain 20 pull-ups. That might be my goal. I may maintain 15. How many years can I do 15 pull-ups? Well, that's going to hold me to a standard that's going to help me maintain the weight you just lost. Does that make sense? So focus on your gains more than your loss.  If you focus on your loss, you're more likely to gain it back. So that's the recipe for long-term success and it's why people fail on almost every single lifestyle. They're focusing on the wrong thing. They're focusing on the wrong aspect and it's like if you lose weight, you're going to find it. If you lose weight, you're going to find it. If you release the weight and create a new life for yourself, you'll never find that weight again because it's gone. You let it go. You give it to your neighbor. You meanie. So anyway, that's the tip. Follow that. Hey, come like my stuff. Go to social. I'm the Keeter Pro on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter. I'm not on Twitter. TikTok, YouTube, you name it. Come find me. We'll talk. Cheers.