And welcome to everybody who's on this call today and we're going to cover some really good ground on how we can think about fear differently than we're doing right now. So I am going to share my screen and we will get started. So let's go with that. And bingo. There we are. So here's the question why does fear matter to your success. Now we don't normally hear fear and success in the same sentence, but it does have a parallel here and there is a connection between the two things. Because the thing about fear is that it's a driver for growth. When you feel that fear going off either in the pit of your stomach or you've got sweaty palms or you're overthinking something. That's where you have to stop and pause and ask yourself, what's that all about. We know today that fear is everywhere from COVID to the future of work to the war in Ukraine and rising inflation. We seem to be confronted with fear every single day. And of course in the workplace there's been massive shifts and how people are choosing to work, not to mention the number of people who are getting laid off and work at this moment. The idea of work has been completely upended, which is causing great confusion amongst many people in general. Part of what I talk about is that being fearless is not the absence of fear, but the courage to show up. Fearless is about having the courage to make the right decisions, learning how to be honest with ourselves, facing the uncertainty, which is actually the only thing we can guarantee in life is uncertainty. And we know that while we might not have control of many facets of our life, the truth is, you probably have a lot more control than you think. And of course during these COVID years we have found out how resilient we are and how we can use that resiliency to weather the changes and whatever it is that we have to deal with. And as I said, fear matters to your success because it is a driver for growth. It's the engine that changes your thinking and behavior to achieve the things you say you want. So during this presentation I want you to think about how fear has impacted your life and what steps you can take to correct any limited thinking that might be getting in the way of your continued success. And I'll be giving you some insights into how you can counteract that negative side of dealing with fear and become even more resilient. So I ask you right now to make notes when something strikes you as interesting and be ready with questions when I interrupt the flow of things, and Leah will be taking note of your questions and we can get to talk about it.  Let me change my screens here. There we go. Let's see. Moving right along. There we go.  This tells you a little bit more about who I am. I'm the author of three books The Fearless Factor, The Fearless Factor at Work and When the Crow Sings a Novel. And as she mentioned, there's a new one coming up called the Fearless Woman Handbook. But I'm also the author of transformational strategies for success, break through the noise redefining your relationship to uncertainty, as well as being a keynote speaker. This is what I said earlier. Being fearless is not the absence of fear but the courage to take the next step. And I'm wanting to take that one then very carefully. Taking the next step is really where we find what we are made of. It's what defines our character and what allows us to really move forward. And while the next step might feel like it's a big one, just as long as there's movement forward, it's actually not that big. Most people say it's a big chasm. You find out it's only about half a foot wide. And we test our limits by taking that next step. We push against the restrictions and the limited thinking that we might have going on. And as you can see from this slide, having support to help you is vital to your success. So here's what you can expect on this journey. You're going to examine your limiting beliefs and expand your vision of possibilities. You'll develop more confidence to affect transformational change, and you'll understand how fear plays an important part in moving beyond your limitations. I like to say, are you fearless? Most people say, what does that mean? Well, I've kind of outlined it. But let's talk about this piece. We all are leaders of our own lives. And when people think about that, you think about this. If you have a family, you're the leader of a family. You're a role model.  So it's not just about whether you're in charge of people, but being in charge of yourself. Great leaders are not born. They are forged in the steel of experiences, both good and bad. And that's your life too. You've been forged in the steel of the experiences that you've had in life.  Let's talk about the limited thinking. We all have limited beliefs that lead to limited behavior. And having done dozens of behavioral assessments, I know for a fact that beneath many behaviors, aggressive and passive lies a great deal of fear driven by negative thinking and behaviors that don't work in your favor. We begin acquiring beliefs in childhood. We inherit them from other people. What other people said to you, your authority figures growing up, doesn't have to be parents, but frequently it is. It can be other authority figures like teachers or bosses, but you've heard something along the way that has limited who you think you are. Society trains us to reign in our behavior to conform and too many of us conform according to other people's standards. Many of our beliefs are operating at a subliminal level and what I want you to think about is, such as mind is really like the tip of the iceberg. What's going on unconsciously is what's really driving the train. And getting down to that is what we're going to try to reveal today in terms of how that is operating. And we can change our behavior and our thinking because thinking comes before the behavior when we can identify the beliefs that hold us back. And remember also that thinking is driven by emotions and learning how to identify those emotions is another big piece of it. The constant consequences of self limiting beliefs are this. They're like a chapter in a book and when you put them together they become your story. And I want to stop on this piece because this is a big one. When we look at fear, what is fear? It is simply the stories that you are telling yourself. It's nothing bigger than that because fear is imagination based for the most part. Unless you're being physically threatened, it's the stories that you make up that guide you on the path that you're on. And frequently we have to stop and ask ourselves where these stories true. Now that's one I want you to stop on and think about for a moment. What story are you telling yourself because our beliefs have a direct influence on whether we achieve or not. And your actions are dependent on what you believe which leads to specific results. So when you were a child you probably heard messages that were meant to keep you safe and may also have been said to keep you in your place. These messages became embedded in our thinking even as we grew to understand that there was another way. And certainly in my own life I was told many times that I would never amount to much and I was given no encouragement to do otherwise. We hear those messages over and over again. And what happens is they become the means of our existence. We believe them to be true. You start calling yourself names.  You're not capable.  We are frequently unkind to ourselves through the language that we use on our inner dialogue. And we lack the compassion and understanding that we need in order for us to grow. Think of it this way. We're all our own worst enemies. What would it look like if you were your own best friend. Now, most people have some form of limited thinking. No question about it. We need to pay attention to that voice because here's the other thing about that voice and I'll tell you that from experience. Is that many times it's the voice of someone else someone else who had fear someone else who had self doubt someone else who didn't think very much of themselves someone else who was disappointed at life and maybe resentful at life. And it's all that baggage that gets pushed over to someone else. So be mindful of the stories that you're telling yourself. And when you're faced with the fear. I want you to ask one question. Is it true. Do I have empirical evidence for it.  I talk about pushing limits. And as I said, beliefs are not necessarily based in fact question them often. Take more risks to discover your truth and be honest with yourself and here's the other thing that I know for a fact. I'll give you a little bit of my own personal history. What I'm teaching you today is something that I have learned over decades of taking a hard look at my own stuff. And what it was doing to me to diminish my sense of self to really reduce my confidence levels. And for me not to believe that I could achieve more than I have achieved. Now having written three books, made music that was a counter for synagogues in Paris and Amsterdam. What else martial arts, I took up martial arts in my 40s the hold of black belt and karate. And I took up CrossFit when I was in my 60s. I'm now in my 70s. And I can tell you all this that that was the moments when you face the fear and do it anyway. Because our fears frequently are the belief that we cannot handle whatever it is that comes our way. The commitment to knowing who you are. This is one of my favorite quotes. The privilege of a lifetime is knowing who you are by Joseph Campbell. And if you don't know who Joseph Campbell is, go check it out in the library. He was a famous mythologist. He also created something called the heroes journey. And it's all about how we go on a quest, a quest to discover the truth. So if you can go to the library and check out Joseph Campbell's work on archetypes and mythology. I think it would be worth your while, but this piece here, the privilege of a lifetime is knowing who you are. I have to tell you that there's only about 15% of the population really is self aware, ie I know who I am. The majority of people go around with blinkers on. It's too hard because the truth of the matter is change is hard. You have to get comfortable being uncomfortable. And that's part of the deal. So show up for yourself, if for no one else and get honest about your strengths, your weaknesses, your blind spots. And if you don't know what they are, then go find somebody who can help you discover what that is. Because I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for all the amazing people that I have not only hired in my lifetime but who have shared their wisdom and their knowledge and their decades of experience with me. So that I could understand myself even better than I do. To be happy you must achieve more than your goals. You must be courageous enough to write a new story and change what's not working. And here's how I like to put this. You're either going to be the author of your own life or you're going to be living in someone else's epic novel. It's your choice.  Let's change the tone of that one a little bit and say, who do you think you are? Because the majority of people, when you ask them who they are, will give you a label. I'm a wife, a mother, a daughter, I'm a senior vice president, I'm a whole bunch of labels. But you're not really declaring who you are because you haven't taken the time to truly self reflect on what that actually looks like. But when you do, it's amazing what doors are opening to you. And I can tell you again from my own experience that if someone had said to me even 20 years ago that I'd be standing here right now telling you everything that I'm telling you, I would have gone yeah right. Not a chance. I've written about it. I talk about it. I'm passionate about it. I created a piece 18 years ago and I said my mission in life is to change the world one person at a time. That was a big statement at that moment in my life. But I believe that to be true. And I still believe it to be true. So I'm going to stop there for a moment. And I'm going to ask if there's any questions that come up. Not so far, Jacqueline. Not so far. Okay, terrific. Let's talk about resilience. What is resilience. Resilience is basically the story of what you've gone through. It's something that we all earn. And for those who struggle with resilience change can feel like a full blown disaster movie. The first word that I see is optimism. This last one is a sense of humor and let me go back to that slide because we went a little too far there. There we go. So optimism. I'm a great optimist. I could say astrologically I'm a Sagittarian so therefore I am a natural optimist but truly, I do believe in a positive future. I do believe that people are genuinely good for the most part. And I genuinely believe that no matter how bad it gets, it can get even worse. And I'll give you a little bit of my own background for a moment there to talk about resilience and how that is earned. I grew up in Scotland, which is where this funny accent comes from. I grew up in poverty.  And he did that on a regular basis. So I grew up with very low self-esteem. And I learned fear at a very early part of my life by hiding and watching for signs. And I have to say I've been an astute observer of human behavior from a very young age because I needed to keep myself safe to stay out of the drama that was going on. And did it build strength of character? Yes it did. But it was worse than that. I was 16 in Scotland and I moved to London. And I moved there ostensibly to be with a boyfriend. And as it turned out within the first 24 hours, he decided he wanted to beat me too. So that didn't last more than five seconds. And then I was out on my ear with nowhere to live, not a job, and no money. I had to figure it out. This is where that forged in the steel or the fires of experience comes into play. I could continue with this story by saying that I had a child at the age of 20 and I gave it up for adoption. And then a few years later after I got married and had another child, I left both of them behind as well. It was part of my life. The first 27, 28 years of my life were a disaster. But when I look back on it now and I look back on all these experiences, I think, what was it that created that incredible resilience for me to keep getting up and keep moving forward? Because resilience and the optimism is not just the Pollyanna effect that, you know, life can get better. We hold that position and life does get better. And as for the sense of humor, well, I have to say, I have learned not to take myself too seriously. And people often say to me, how could you tell these stories of all the things you've gone through? Because it's simply, for me, a story. It's gone. It's passed. Because part of our fears are that we generate this idea of what will happen in the future. We're going to go broke. We won't have a job. We won't have a home. We won't have a relationship, blah, blah, blah.  It's very simple. Back to the stories. And when you examine the rest of this diagram, you can see that resilience comes from our experiences. We learn who we are. We know what we're capable of. We learn how to adapt and find a different way. And we learn how to be flexible when life throws the curveballs. And let's face it, the last few years, we have all been very challenged with COVID and all the ramifications and the changes that that has created in our life. And some of us have been impacted by that very personally. And if that's you, I'm sorry to hear about that. But one of the things I do know is that when we aren't given hard circumstances, we do learn how to bounce back. So check your thought patterns. In times of change, it's easy to undermine our ability to overcome obstacles. We tend to think in black and white either or scenarios. You assume that we're still happen and you have fears that the world as you know it will never be the same again. Well, that has to be true, because our world is constantly changing. And if we can't learn to flow with it, and we get stuck in that fear and that insecurity that anxiety about what is happening to our lives. That makes it very, very difficult to see a bright future in front of you. So check your thoughts at the door. This is really important. And it means being vigilant to how you think about yourself being vigilant to the ways in which you want to undermine yourself and how you deal with it. And if you are a mind spinner or a monkey mind as they call it in Buddhism, and you find it hard to slow down, then you have to find some methods to be able to do that. I found meditation. I found meditation very helpful because it allows me to get very grounded. You might be going for a walk, you might be talking to a friend, might be hiring some help to get your mind straight on what it is that you want out of life. And it is helpful to remember that whatever difficulty you're going through, you probably have dealt with the same or worse previously. And you successfully navigated your way through it because there's a tendency to go, it's really bad.  And again, the building of your strength and resilience in there. Focusing on your priorities. The most resilient people see change as an opportunity rather than a monster to fear. Transitions in life allow you to consider where your priorities lie. If the last three years haven't taught you anything, it will, or if it has taught you anything, it will be about your priorities, where does it lie. And for a lot of people, it was family first.  And how do you really want to spend your time on this earth? What's really important to you? And if you're wasting your time and energy on the wrong stuff, you might want to re-appraise that and figure it out for yourself. Resilient people see change as an opportunity, as I said earlier. That's an important point. So again, if you don't know where you're going, any old road will take you there. So make sure that you have a vision of where you want to go and don't be afraid to make it as big as you want to make it. Because the truth of the matter is that when we think small, we get small. And if you think big, well, you may not reach the entire vision of what you've got in mind, but you might get a lot further than just playing it safe. Because here's the other thing about playing it safe. We try to create the security in our life. We try to have control of whatever it is that's going on in our lives. But there's no such thing as a really safe thing. We live in California. There could be an earthquake in the next five minutes. And then what's going to happen there? We've all got to deal with it. We've got tremendous flooding going on out there right now. We're very fortunate that for most of us, we don't live in that zone. But this is a real thing. Safety is an illusion. And I want you to think about that for a moment. We are so concerned about creating safety in our life, but it can all be ripped away in moments. So set yourself a clear goal. Be mindful of what it is that you want for yourself and start taking the action steps necessary to move you forward with that. Be in the present. So here's another thing I like to talk about. You've got past, you've got present, you've got the future. Too many of us are living in the past. I'm living in the future. And forget that in this very moment is called the present. It's the gift. And it is our only reality. And as you're listening to me right now and wherever you are situated in the world, this is your only reality. What I said five minutes ago, don't ask me to repeat. I couldn't tell you. And what will happen in five minutes from now is not here yet. So keep that in mind that when you stay in today for today, I have what I need. And if I don't have what I need, I can work on it tomorrow. But be in the present. Look to the past to find your strength. Because that strength has been evident in the challenges and circumstances that have proved to you that you're perfectly capable of keeping your journey and life going of showing up for you, even if it's been damned hard in the process. Here's another big piece of this pay attention to your body. You know we hold our attention in our shoulders. Stomach problems, we get leg problems, we've got back problems, we get headaches, all of that stress related. For the most part, I know there's some underlying health issues, but many of our health issues can be taken care of by proper nutrition, some exercise, and generally taking better care of ourselves. Because when we ignore our bodies, our bodies rebel. Our bodies let us know that this sacred temple that we are living in is being ignored. So taking good care of your mind is also about taking care of your body and ultimately your spirit as well. Evaluate your level of control. As I mentioned earlier, control is somewhat of a mythology in itself, and this is from someone who calls herself a recovering control freak. I absolutely understand control because I wanted to keep my life safe. And when you grow up with chaos. It's very easy to think that if I just make sure everything's fine. I'll be okay. But there's only so much you can control.  And again, coming back to being in the present with it. And because I was such a big control freak, I disempowered people around me, because I wouldn't let them take over. I couldn't do it as well as I could. And I've been married for 43 years and I have four children in my life.  She likes to do it her way. But I've had to learn how to give some of that up, because that's how we are going to survive. Look for opportunities to empower yourself. What does that mean? Well, think about it. You are thinking about ways that you can actually take charge of your life. Make decisions in your life that are about you. Not about anybody else. Here's the other thing about evaluating your level of control. One of the things that we do when we're insecure is we look to others for validation. We know other people to validate you based on their priorities or based on their perception of you. You're giving up your power. So one of the ways in which we can evaluate our level of control is to ask yourself, where am I giving my power away? Where do I need other people's validation for me to feel good about myself? Where do I try to keep people happy all the time? And that's a big one, especially for women. Keeping people happy is not your responsibility. Take care, number one, and then everybody will be happy. Of course, many people will say, well, that's being selfish, but I would say no, it's about self care. And that's always an important piece of it. When you start feeling that you are starting to take control of your life, when you start feeling like there's a piece in here that is making some kind of forward motion for you. You're thinking differently. You're behaving differently. You're taking better care of your body. You're making time for you. You're not making excuses for your existence. And by the way, excuses are fear driven. So don't apologize for who you are. Don't apologize for whatever is that you're doing. And when you start to feel strength in that, then you can start to build momentum around it. Think about momentum. As we know, once it gets going, it's hard to get it to stop. If you think about the old game where you had these metal balls that went back and forth, back and forth, you just dropped one and the whole stream went there. That's energy. That's how it works. And it's important to create that momentum. When you start the machine running around, I'm changing my thinking and my behavior. I'm no longer focusing on the fear because I understand that fear is imagination based. And that if I can control my reaction to those fears, that is when it turns into success, because I'm using that fear as an opportunity to do something different. I'm courageous in the way in which I'm showing up and I'm saying no to certain things, and I'm asking for what I want in other ways too. And don't get me started for women specifically on this call about asking for what you want, because too many times you ask for permission before you ask for what you want. And I know this because I used to do the same stuff. And now of course I've learned that that doesn't get you anywhere. So learning how to make better decisions, learning how to be in your power, ask for what you want, speak up. And don't hold yourself back because you're afraid of loss, rejection, humiliation, judgment, criticism. It's all part of life, in effect. But when we diminish ourselves because we don't want to feel those things, again, you're living in the small space, instead of living in a bigger space, because resilient as you are. And all of that. What's the worst thing that's going to happen? Somebody doesn't like you. Yeah, you'll get over it. Something doesn't go the way that you want to. Let's talk about fear of failure, by the way, because I didn't cover that in here, but I do want to touch upon this fear of failure is the biggest fear that I hear over and over and over again. And what is failure? And I want you to take note of this. We are all failing our way to success and failure is very simple. It's a choice, a decision or an expectation that did not go the way that you had planned. I'm going to repeat that one. Failure is simply a choice, a decision or an expectation that did not go the way that you had planned. Period. The worst failure, of course, is the failure to try to use that courage that you've developed, that resilience within you to test something out. And I'm challenging you right now to test speaking up for yourself, to test taking a new attitude, to test being a little bit out of control. Because that's where you find the courage, and that's where you find that the fears are an illusion. Remember, I said back when fear is imagination based. Because it is. It's the stories that we make up. And if you want to be the author of your own life, then you will want to take charge of that particular way of being. This is important. We must begin. You cannot just think about it. You can think about it and then you can think about what actions you're willing to take to get that momentum going. It's not enough just to sit around wishful thinking. Wishful thinking doesn't get us anywhere. What action making action does and even in the smallest possible ways. That's where we find the courage and the changes that we need to make. People will come to me and I'll say how do I get to be more confident. And I go, well, little by little to step forward one step back. I will continue to fail until you get comfortable being uncomfortable. And I said that earlier. But nothing happens, nothing changes. If you don't want to get uncomfortable, but let's face it, most of us are living in a discomfort zone anyway. Insecurity. Not really being able to step it out.  And the quality of your life is determined by how comfortable you can be being uncomfortable. So what can you do today? Look for an opportunity to express yourself more authentically. Okay, what is the word authentic mean? Who are you? How do you want to show up in the world? What is it that's important to you? What kind of relationships do you want to have? What kind of job do you want to have? Are you settling for less? Or are you actually looking for opportunities to do things differently? That's the opportunities that are waiting for you to show up and be you. Too many people go to work and they put a mask on, they go through that door and suddenly, well, whoever they were at home, it's not the person they were at work. And this work has expectations of how you should behave and how you should be, and you have to fit in. I've never been one for fitting in myself because frankly it was like putting a, you know, square peg in a round hole. And that's basically how I've seen it. And I've been very fortunate. I've lived a very unconventional life, traveled the globe, raised my family, wrote books, made music, did all kinds of stuff. And I really came to this job when I was in my mid fifties. So here I am in my seventies and I've been doing this a while now, but each time was a redefining and regenerating a rejuvenation or a rebirth of different kinds. I've done many, many transitions in my life. I created my program, Transformational Strategies for Success, based on everything that I had gone through in my lifetime. And now I can help others understand how to do that, only it doesn't take decades. It can be done in months, if you have the way and the will to do so. I want you to start writing things down. Here's one of the things that I do every day and I absolutely guarantee it has an impact. Gratitude. Let's talk about gratitude for a moment. What are you grateful for? Every day there's something to be grateful for. Many people there's something to complain about, but let's not complain. Let's be grateful for people, for circumstances, even something simple like it's not raining today. I can be grateful for that. And I encourage all of my clients to keep a gratitude journal every day. They have to write out five things that they're grateful for. I really take it in. And then before they go to bed at night, they have to think about one thing that happened during the day that they could be grateful for as well. That gratitude goes a long way out into the universe, because it's energy, and we're all connected with that energy. Now it used to be that, you know, us so-called left-coast folks were all woo-woo, but I truly believe, and I've lived all over the globe, there is a universal force at work, and we're all connected to it. So you have a choice on how you wish to live with that, and what you wish to manifest. Now, again, that might sound like a woo-woo word. However, what you put out is kind of like the old karma thing, you know, what you put out is what you get back. So put out the good stuff. And gratitude is a very big piece of that. Look at who you need to support you, because here's the other thing about change and dealing with our fears. You need some kind of mirror out there. You need somebody to listen to you and compassionately give you the support that you need. And that doesn't mean sitting around whining at somebody and want to do that. You're not a victim.  Find the support you need. It's all kinds of programs that the library offers. That's one kind of support. And if it's individual support you need, then go find somebody that will make a difference to help you start on that journey to make the changes that you want to make. And look at what resources you have already, because I have a feeling that if you really looked around you, you would say, well, I've already got a good amount of friends who I can talk to. Or I have some mentors at work who care about me. Or there's some other professional in your life that is there for you when you need it could be in your religious institutions. You have to look around and see who's there. And again, if you need help, go ask. And that's the last one what resources do you need. I'm going to get a copy of these slides and a PDF and I want you to go back through it again if this this presentation today has made any difference to your life whatsoever and I have no control over that all I can do is give you the information that I have. But go through the slides or go through the PDF from this the information on these slides, start asking yourself the hard questions and come up with some clear answers on what works for you. And here we are. This is this is what I truly believe. When you believe in yourself, you will be unstoppable. I learned how to believe in myself after a very, very difficult journey. I said to you I gave you the early part of my history also was an AA for five years before I realized that it wasn't about the drinking. It was about the stinking thinking. That's what it was, and I found my relief, because I had two children and then I went on to have three more. And by the time I was pregnant with the third one. I was ready to say it was time for me to clean up my act. And I started looking for help getting the support I needed. I'm really working my way through the drama and the chaos and the trauma of my early life. And all the things that I had done to self abuse myself along the way, because I really didn't like myself at all. And I was living mostly in fear, but through my children who I decided to be as good a mother as I could be to them. And then a stepdaughter and then another daughter who is now my youngest and I'm fortunate that I have a great relationship with all of my children now. My oldest is 48, my youngest is 32, and they're all doing their lives in their own way. And in the space of one generation, I have changed family dynamics. And I could not have done that if I did not believe that it was possible and work through the garbage that had been the early part of my life and my thinking and my behavior to do the work that I now do and why I'm here with you today.   And know that you are in charge of it and can do with it, whatever you please, and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise, because they're running their agenda, not yours. No one can stop you from becoming who you want to be. No one. Unless you allow them. And have that vision of what the better you can look like. And most of all take action every day to follow your dreams to really make that future that you think is possible. And don't get into the idea of well that'll never happen. Because it can, if you really want it. If you're willing to do the work to keep showing up for you, keep questioning that that limited thinking, keep looking at that fear and how it undermines your ability to show up in the best possible light of who you are. I understand that the stories that you tell yourself for the most part are not true. If you've got a lot of negative stuff going on, I can guarantee you that this is not who you really are. There's a whole lot more to you than that. Fear being fearless is not the absence of fear for the courage to take the next step, because fear matters to your success when you allow it to be your driver for growth. Thank you for listening to me today. It has been my pleasure. And any questions you have now. I'm open for that. Keep moving. I haven't been any questions there have been a lot of comments would you like to hear. People are appreciating your quotes.  And somebody is encouraged by your advice and will is going dancing after, after bad breakup. Another quote that was appreciated, getting comfortable with being uncomfortable in. Thank yous. Very relatable presentation very empowering. Lots of thanks yous, Jacqueline. Well, it's my pleasure and I'm just happy you're all here and you know if any of this makes sense to you if it makes any difference to the way in which you're thinking about yourself thinking about your life thinking about the ways in which you can engage more meaningfully with this journey that we call life. This is really all it is at the end of the day. So anything that I've said to you today if you can take even one nugget away from this last 45 minutes of speaking to you.  All right, lots of thank yous. The great example your this program is a great example of the wonderful resources available at the library. That's great. That's great. And another, another appreciating your, your nuggets. Well, we're going to be back again next month with turning your tomorrows into today. So if you have any problems with procrastination. I'm going to be talking about that next month.  And how do we stop doing that. Or how do we do it creatively, because that's another side of procrastination. So I hope you'll come back and listen for that. We have a question Jacqueline. How does one keep finding unique things to add to a gratitude journal. What are some small examples. Okay, so when I think about my gratitude from today, for instance, I had some great conversations yesterday. I thank the person that I had the conversation with in my gratitude journal, because I had gained something from that. I was thankful that my house was warm this morning, because it was kind of cold outside. I'm thankful that I have a new client, because that keeps me in business, which is something always to be noted. I'm thankful that my body is strong and healthy. Which I try to mark myself on a book.  And I don't know who's going to read them at any point.  And at the same time, it's me identifying for myself. What is that matters to me. So that's that's the best advice I could give you, you can find gratitude and everything. Everything. Birds in the tree. The blossoms, we're in blossom time. Beautiful blossom trees out there. I can step outside my front door.  They're beautiful. I'm grateful for them. Here's another question. What do you do when you strive for excellence, but you find resistance in those who claim to love you. That is always a challenge right there. So here's one of the things I say, don't stop striving for excellence just because someone else limits themselves, which is the pushback you're getting. It's a threat. You're going to be so much more than I am. That's their insecurity. Keep striving for excellence because when you reduce yourself down to, I'm going to take some care somebody else's feelings. That's a problem. Because again, you're diminishing yourself. Do not diminish yourself because somebody else is insecure. Somebody else is fearful. Somebody else cannot cannot imagine being as big as you. We should all be striving for that excellence. And by the way, if you've got perfectionist tendencies, watch out for it. Because sometimes what happens is we've got such high standards for ourselves, the excellence. You know, I like to say perfectionism is the enemy of excellence, but we should all be striving to be as good as we can be. She says she's a product of a tiger mom. Yes, yes. It's hard. All I will say is it's hard. I was the opposite kind of mother.  Go find your own way. Be independent.  So the tiger mom wants to just kind of hold on to it. Insecurity. She loves you. She really wants the best for you. Just gotta let go a little bit. And you can help her do that. You can help her do that gently, compassionately. Thank you. But I have to keep moving. Does that help? Is that a useful answer? She's saying yes. Terrific. Yeah. Okay, I think that's it. We have one more. How do you regain and keep your power when you have to continue to have certain people in your life that still judge and manipulate and impose fear? And thank you for that question because it's a really important question. People in your life who are toxic. Limit your time with them. If their family. Limit your time with them. If there are people in your life that you can live happily without. Move on. Move on. But when you have to be with them, limit your time with them and don't engage in the reactionary behaviors that you get from those kind of relationships. Again, I'm speaking from experience. I don't have anybody in my life. I don't want there at this point in my life. And that's where you want you to go to. I want to be able to bring in all the good stuff. I want to be able to bring in all the good stuff. Yeah. Patrick says yes. Totally agree. Love it. All right, people. I know we're at the top of the hour. So thank you. Thank you. Thank you for being here today. This has been marvelous. I really enjoyed my time with you. Thank you for your questions. And please go forward. Be fearless. See where it gets you. And I'll see you at the next program on the 20th of April at the same time for 30. All right. Good night, everyone. Thank you for coming.


I never left your house. Do you mind if I just sit here?  Yeah, yeah, you can treat yourself to just make yourself at home honestly my channel is your channel You know, um, okay Exciting so I don't even know how you're eating up like that But I was recording a video with Ryan and I looked over at my channel and I was like damn I haven't recorded anything so I am going to fight Ryuki who was on the gauntlet You could check Ryan's channel out if you want to see more of that, but I rooted for him in his battle I asked Ryan to ask him if he would be okay if we fought And he said Ryan, what did he say? Well, I was gonna say not to not to you know add pressure on you But Ryuki is uh 12.  So yeah, let's see Let's see if you can actually know back up what you said Oh He doesn't know I'm kind of schnitzel the game Okay What happened my controllers acting up I forgot to tell you the reason why you pick Napa Napa is because he saw you have Napa on your On your care to select screen earlier any purpose You want to pick a character they chew a plan to show you can be better at them Is that real? Yeah. Yeah, that's actually what happened. Oh, well, I did I Napa is was on my selected bench. I wasn't gonna use him, but you know, I'm gonna appreciate a good Napa I do miss the boy Jiren though Whoo I was also saying this right before playing but I am in a bit of a teen crisis I don't know who to play. I miss the days of old When Krillin, it's not even like Krillin's bad at the game. In fact, he's very good at the game We can all admit it. I'll admit it. We all know it to be true. It's just that they changed his combo route So now I have to be like kind of good to In English yeah, he's tired that his characters are they got nerfed and he doesn't want to play He's characters. So he doesn't know what to do. He's pretty. I mean, you're not wrong Krillin's a lot of Krillin players. I like wait, just do this route and I'm like, but that's too hard They're requires thinking I Don't want to think when I play little Krillin, dude. I want to play Krillin. Right. Right. What is he doing, bro? Let me I would do a believe this check right now, but because this is a video we can't do that But I'll tell you right now for like the last couple weeks and people seeing where you can play on my channel Everybody was 100% confident that if you went against me, you just watch so the believers are waiting for that They're ready to see you act. Why would they say that unless you guys pose that question? No, we did not we did not people specifically said you would notice and People oh he missed Enjoying this kind of video where I'm just getting bullied and Ryan gets to talk Right just gets to talk crazy What in the sea this note? You know what I can appreciate this because this is what I told Ryuki to do when I was watching him play Yeah, yeah, I need to see stuff like it, but we got the word that we got the yamcha comeback right now because Dotto is the king of do these comebacks. I'm gonna say it right now, dude I said in your video yamcha is actually bad at the game Okay, but like it's you though. So look at that. Look at that. It's your turn. Oh, it's my always my turn Come on, how did he know to reflect that time, bro? He's good at the game. How is he good at the game? You're not dead here. No, you're not dead here, but oh All faith yeah, yeah, yeah, all faithful What's it you mix here? Oh Hey Yeah, I'm kind of schnice at the game So you say it's actually really close if we send this to our assist They should be no nerf yamcha more.  So that's what I also would have done Okay, I think you'd throw that much machine. I don't have me buddy Dotto Dotto just on the sidebar Not that you got the the fake fight out of the way and you let Ryuki win You can turn it up. No, that was the that was the real fight.  Ah, mentally. I am shattered mentally. I am broken All right, now we're back We had some errors, but now we're here dude. We're back in the game Can you combos? You know if you think about it even if he body changes with me I'm the one getting the sweet carrot there. Yeah. Oh, where's my level three? That was supposed to be my ultimate defense. Can you play a crop of Ginyu? I can't let him do that though.  Oh my god Jiren is really good Nerf is like They already did that once I miss Jiren did even though he's fine, dude back into back into Ginyu Okay, Raku We got we got the blue hurricane whatever that is Are you good I Just for context my recording ended recording midway in a second. Yeah. Yeah, it's just Well, we're gonna do with that, but yeah, my brain is completely buffering. That's why I'm just so throw it off right now I don't know why did that?  That would have been sick bar off B Here comes the body swap. Yeah, okay. Now show now show me the better Ginyu ended a day. I Personally, I've never seen you lose with you before.  That was that was gonna be sick. I'm watchin Boom I mean, I thought I thought that was gonna kill as well, but did he expect me to save? Okay, I saw what he read he says He's gonna take your Jiren and beat you. Oh, no So I don't think he intends on switching out of Jiren anymore. All right. Well, that's fine He could try to be me with Jiren, but we'll see what happens Oh, oh, you see that he threw up the gang signs just so you know, oh Now if you if you beat up your own Jiren If you beat up your own Jiren, he doesn't get his goal one HP one HP You got stado No On the gyr main around here now, let's see if you can do this character back I think the game thought I jumped I'm set of the set.  Okay. I'll admit the truth on that one the truth The you know, the lie detector will tell you that that was a true drop. Can we drop you?  He's talking right now.  Oh, oh Well, it looks like he I'm getting a full-house character here This guy would not get off of dealer. No deal dude. Look at this deal. I got Look at the dribble you look at this steal of a deal. I got watch this I'm gonna say the thing is he doesn't expect me to save getting you and that's the first mistake you can make is that I'm not Literally getting you. Yeah, Donald literally is a getting you main secretly We just talk about it. I can't talk.  You would think I would be the one starting. Oh, I know I know. Oh Oh That's Jiren's a best move dude. That's a good move by Jiren. All right now. It's time for Yamcha Yep, oh, come on. That was a read it. I have There's goals to beat your entire team with your Jiren, so don't do that my reads did Optimal Now what's the schmicks? What are you gonna do? What am I gonna do? I say wake up. I say wake up match I thought he was gonna go in for a dragon rush or something So I was gonna no, I thought he was gonna run up and grab so I went for a dragon, right, right, right, right, right Okay, there you go. I'm fortunate as it is dude. Yeah, yeah, yeah Okay, so you're good here. This one happens. He's gonna level three.  Oh Don't walk. Oh My inputs are bad Inputs are bad at the game. That means I'm bad at the game Not that I do want to go ahead and point out. Um, you can stop door for content Dude, you just you know you threw round two out the windows and I've had to throw for their content It's really fortunate, but all right. I guess you're right I'll stop YouTube acting. I'll turn on the old Krillin thrusters. Are you gonna use both thumbs now? Oh spare drop homie drops. I appreciate a little homie drop here or there or anywhere Homie drops, I appreciate a good little homie drop Maybe he's throwing for content Actually had to play for that's why I bent the key last time I was getting the one HB comeback right now I believe it. Oh, I knew he would do that too. That's why I try to back.  All right. I think this it should be the last one Because we had to give most of a match up But yeah, this should be the last one. Yeah, it's the for realsie. All right, rhyme Yeah, I'm going to try to counter on the beginning again. And if I get dragger rushed the video will end automatically That is a I I'm going to do it. Okay And we'll see what happened. All right fine. I guess we'll see the game through I uh, I'm sick of it though. I want to go home. I no longer wish to be here In fact, I I no longer wish to be at all.  It was a feature. That's why I don't understand. It was a feature It was literally a feature. Look at how they can still vanish out of it. It's not even like it was snapped or anything It was too strong. It's literally going to say it was a feature. No free thinkers, dude But listen, I have I have an idea how you can win here Do not let him take your jury. You have to assert dominance.  This plan is going to work. He's taking there it goes. He's taking your jury What's he gonna do? What's he gonna do key charge? No, no key charge.  He would have used the other counter I guess you could you could say that he tried something I'm sorry I brought you along this video to make fun of me. Yes, but like you've just been like actively hurting me I'm just sad, dude Like I'm just low-key. The sadness has overtaken me this this match more than any other has like really reminded me Of what it was like to be a germane This match has reminded me what it was like to be a germane Before the fall level one just to bring him a bit closer.  No, it's a joke. Good games to Ryuki Can't like part of me is sad It's a feature not a bug. It was a feature. He wants to go one more But we'll go one more in the next video. See you later


Not everyone, Sam here with late in sports cards. It's been 10 Box Tuesdays, 10 Box, Impactively Flawless, Basketball Mixer, 181 Ram Team Style. Thank you all again for selling this out. I appreciate it. Thank you all for your patience. Gonna get after it now. Oops, that's the wrong button. There's a look again at your random results. As always, you can find these all on the website under the results tab, as well as the link that's in chat currently. Good luck. I'm gonna start with Prism Multicello from 2020. Almost out of this, I think. We're finally almost out of this. What's up, Shady? I mean, Logo Man would be dope. Logo Man at a Flawless, please just let it happen. Why not, dude? That's too much to ask. I don't think it's too much to ask personally. Silver Caches Winston, Josh Green, and Patrick Williams Rookie. Yeah, these are like the cello packs, like the cello hanger packs. Silver Niko Mandion Rookie. Poku and Andre Drummond. Silver Oladipo. Nesmith Saban Lee and Magic Johnson. Silver Bryn Forbes. Anthony Edwards, nice one there. And Jordan DeVora. Silver KCP, James Wiseman, Jada McDaniels and Jalen Smith. Silver Emma Marcus-Allridge. Killian Hayes. And Tyrese Albert, the Kings. Tyrell Terry. Sylvah J. Crowder, Green Cole Anthony. Tyrese Albert and Emergent. And Lamello. Pretty good pack right there.  Jalen Johnson, baby. Rookie of the Year snub, Jalen Johnson, Kyle. That's what you know it, you know it. Playin' Jake Layman. Silver Blake Griffin. Silver Tatum Dominance. Caches Winston, Bryn Forbes. Lickles Pickles, I've heard that actually, Shady. Silver Tyler Hero. Patrick Williams and Demari Care. Brandon Carey Green. And Nico Mannion. All right, onto your red, white and blues now. Downwind, ay, yeah, Kevin Hurter. Red Velvet. Sorry, Red Velvet. That is James Wiseman. No, I don't have, I wish I had a 52 mantle. I do not have a 52. I don't really have the funds for a 52 mantle. Do not have the funds for a 52 mantle. I'm comin' off of sickness, Shady. Comin' off one. Everybody here is off of it. That is a Cole Anthony. CJ Elby. Desmond Bain. Really hot you more. Trey Jones rookie. I think he looks good, Shady.  Scholar maze. I think he looks really good, man. That'd be pretty cool, Logan. Our commander, sure. Yeah, I'll wear a commander's hat on screen, JJ. Retail, optic retail now. This best friend's husband might have the 52 mantle and she might try to get it for her. A lot of mites in there. That's the tough part. We need to know for sure. Desmond Bain, rated rookie. Nico Manion, T-minus, Kevin Booker, purple. Come on. What? Oh, wow. Tyrese Albertin, what's come on? Is that at me or is that just in the middle? This is everything. Maybe Jake went to bed, dude. Purple, Kemba Walker, I don't think so. I think he's patiently waiting his 24-hour ban. Cole Anthony, purple, Frick Lopez. See you tomorrow at 11. Yeah, we'll be right back. Purple Steph. I wish she would give me more than 24. She'll be like a week. Me like a jumbo, 360. Tricky Jones. Bradley Goodman. I'll give him five days back. IQ, the new Raptor, Josh Jackson, purple. William Hayes, Tillman, and... Yeah, there's a couple of really good ones, Wayne. Tim Hardaway, Anthony Richardson, orange wave to 60. Jackson Smith and Jigba, true gold. Or not, gold variation to 10. Kukaszewski, purple, Sivik Bey. A few others as well. Yeah, oh yeah. I was always more of an Anthony Edwards guy, personally. He was always my guy. Like when this came out. Him and a Kong Woo, because I'm a Hawks fan. My house, Hollow, at Jimmy Butler. Bogdan, who is Charlotte. Oh yeah. You know, Charlotte is a little bit better. They're very good now. Wiseman, they're the number one, that I think has the best record in the NBA. They're kind of like the Celtics, yeah. I like it. Rhondo Purple. Me too. He's really cool. Rayler, winner stays, Ben Wallace, purple. 23, 24, prism draft hobby. Again, we'll probably have to do a random at the end for any non-NBA guys. Like Klingon is the first guy that comes to mind. There's a few others in here. Muzales, Brandon Miller, rookie. Who is Jose Alvarado? Two 125, going to the Pelicans. Grand Theft Alvarado. Grats on that. Silver Jerry West, Prism, Steph. Scoot, blue. The 249. Grats on that. Muzers and a Scoot, brilliant silver. Vukovic, Trey Johnson. See where he is. Hey, Johnson. Ah, God. Go to bed. Go to bed. Get this guy out of here, please.  Let's try Google. That is him. He is still in college, so that'll be, this will be a separate random. There's Trey Johnson to the 99. Or still, he's still in high school, actually. He's committed to Texas. Vukovic, F Bowman, Paul George, red. To 299 and Brandon Miller, hybrid. Kendrick Davis. Mojo, case on Wallace. Nice one there. Two, 25. Is he anywhere? Surge of Bars is Spurs. Surge of Bars is the Spurs. On the blue water. Two at 125. Darren Mitchell, Vukovic and Martin Rosen. Well, to Martin Rosen. And Taylor Hendricks as well. Red-faced, droopy eyes. Get him out of here. That is gonna be an Aaron Bradshaw. Purple-ice prism. Aaron Bradshaw, I believe, still at Kentucky. Yes, he is. Still at Kentucky. So another random to all at the end. Scoot Henderson, Larry Bird, Nick Smith, Jr. Blue to 199 and Cam Whitmore. Let me see what we're doing next. We'll do a prism choice now. Prism draft choice, I should say. Tiger Stripe, Silver Castleton, KJ Evans. KJ Evans, 22 of 40 on the auto. Seems like he is also still gonna be... Yeah, another random to all. So three random autos. So they'll end up being four random slots in this one. Nice one there. Kobe Buffkin, Magic Johnson, Kendrick Davis. On the exclusives, 288, David Singleton. On the blue scope, or red scope. And City Sosoko, Tiger Stripe. That's one there as well. So again, with these, we'll do the random. We'll random all the teams off. The first will get Trey Johnson. Second will get Bradshaw. Third will get KJ Evans. Just in the order of how we open them. Next up will be a flux. 22-23 flux. You can do... Silver Johnny Juzang. Blade Thompson, a lot of mites. Yeah, that doesn't work. Blue Bullion, McDonovich, 2.99. Blue Dirk, Silver PJ. And X-Mathrin, Scotty Barnes. Nice one there, 2.49. Influx of J-Dubb, Belton Johnson, Silver. Influx was... No, Jalen Williams, the other Jalen Williams. David Roddy, Silver Zion, and Bika. Redemption is Jalen Ivy. Equinox Autographs going to the Pistons. Congrats, Detroit. There you go, Pistons, very nice. Silver Star J and Nikolay Yolkich. That's a fun set. Silver Trey Murphy and Lukatronov. I agree with that, JT. I would be happy with that if they did. Red Orlando Robinson. Silver Dwight Powell and Jake Arabia. All right, next up we've got Select H2. Red Disco, Kennedy Chandler, 2.49. Silver Shea. True, yeah. I agree. White Jeremy Sohan, 2.75. White Disco. Blue Anthony Davis, 2.99. Blue Disco and Colin Sexton Silver. Zion Williamson and Oshai Ekbashi. All right, let's do 2020 Donor's Optic Hobby. Somebody, I see like a Halliburton auto in this, dude. That'd be pretty nifty.  Oh, yeah? Back in the day, yeah. Blasters and stuff. Oh, yeah. Vegas. Oh, yeah. I think we have a couple hobbies, too. Hollows, Tyra Ulter. Is this the My House one? Mm-hmm. Yeah, this is the one. Cerebral Antex. Is this for the little bronc came out of? I think so. Yeah, it's Winston, Zach Levine. I don't know if they're in, I don't think they're in this. No. I think they're a retail exclusive. My Houses. Yeah. I think so. I mean, we'll see. Yeah, yeah. Elite Dominators, Luca Hollow. Hollow, Tyrese Maxi. That's pretty solid. What's up, Tremetta? How you doing, buddy? What's up, what's up? My name's Dia. David Lee, Sacred Dunboya to 149 on Lime Green. Bro, if you get gifts in a mail, make sure you let me know about that. Oh, yeah. Yeah, that's... CJ? Sounds like we might be dreaming about that. Everybody gonna give away a 52-mail. It's got problems. Yeah. I don't think I would ever... That's called stealing, if you're giving a mantle for free from somebody. Isaiah Stewart and Steph Red, 299. He looks like he's like... Hollow McCall Bridges. I think Logan said he was 15 most, though. Oh, yeah? Yeah. And Elite Dominators, Jamalmer. I don't know, Tremetta. We just had one on... We had one over on Fnatic's Live on New Year's. So I don't know if there's another one. My guess would be sometime this month. I don't think there's a set date quite yet, though. RJ Hampton? Nice, Onyeka Kongwu to 79. My guy. Go Hawks. Big double O. The car just... Bye, sirs. Patrick Williams. Ripping so much of it and chasing him. Patrick Williams for the Bulls. Congrats on that. I hit the blue one to 15 or something like that. Of MN? Yeah. I haven't got one, too. Tremetta, as always, Lamella Ball. Here's the last one. Nice, nice, nice. Where's Steven? He even has it, right? Oh, Photon of Wendell Carter for the Bulls. Who got the card you knew you had? What's up? You know what I'm saying? Yeah, true. But if you don't really care, I mean... 22, 23 for some choice. We're talking 52 medals. But I mean, yeah. We do, we're talking about... I mean, arguably the most iconic card of all time. Yeah. No nebula. Paul George and Ray Allen. Otto Patrick Baldwin Jr. Red Scope. Rookie for the Warriors. Julius Randall. Steph Curry. Purple of Paul Pierce. Nice one there, too, at 20. On the Purple Scope. Another Purple Scope to 20. Evan Mobley, 9 of 20. And to 88 for the Spurs Rookie Red Scope, Malachi Branham. Pretty solid prism choice box there. All right, onto Impeccable now. Everybody 22, 23 Impeccable. 22, 23 Impeccable. Good luck. Okay, Kyle, what happened with that is I forgot, it's like I hit the record button twice. So it recorded and then didn't record. So our content creator's gonna upload it tomorrow. She has to go back and clip it and then she'll already texted her about it. Yeah, that's my bad. That was my bad. Who got to 10 Lamello Ball in the gold? Nice one there, congrats on that, Stainless Stars. But yeah, if you want to go back in the stream, you can find it in the stream, too, Kyle. You just have to go back and find it. Jeremy Sohan, 26 of 30 on the green. And Clay Thompson to 75. Giannis to 99. Redemption, that is gonna be a Mark Williams, Elegance rookie jersey auto, Hollow Silver going to the Hornets. Congrats on that, Charlotte. Nice one here is Shadon Sharp. 47 to 99 on the RPA, congrats Portland. There we go. Portland Trailblazers, going to Sean M. Congrats, Sean. Nice one there, buddy. Get that into a mag for ya. 47 to 99, Shadon. Got a Marchon Bochamp, 85 of 99, rookie auto for the Bucks. That is gonna be a Dyson Daniels, 10 of 10. Very nice one there, Pelicans. Gonna play right there at the end here. Going to Thomas C.H. Impeccable Stars, Luka Dogchich, 19 of 25 on card auto. Congrats on that one there.  Sorry. And then 21-22 Flawless, our last box at 21-22 Flawless, we have in the entire shop. Brand them after this, recap, and that'll do it. Yeah, that was a very good box of, very good box of Impeccable right there. Very good box. All right, gonna start off, that is two of five. Roy Hachimora, two-color, two-color. That's on that one there, Wizards. Game used, game used. That is seven of 15. Duncan Robinson, three-color, no, two-color patch auto for the heat. Grads on that one as well. God, 11 to 25. Brandon Boston, Jr. for the Clippers. Grads, Los Angeles. Lake Clippers. 15 of 25, three-colored patch auto. That is A, Kevin Porter, Jr. K-P-G-A for the Hornets, and not the Hornets, the Rockets, excuse me. The Rockets. That is gonna be five of 15, Jamal Murray. Jamal Murray. The Nuggets. We've got seven of 25. That is gonna be Carl Anthony Towns. Three-colored patch auto, game used for the Timberwolves. Nice cat. Grads on that Minnesota, gonna Brent. 10 of 10. That is A, Paul Pierce. Going to the Celtics, very cool. Nice one there, Boston. And then you can bag this last one. One of five, RPA, three-color, Bones Highland. Grads on that one there, Denver. Start the auto on this one. That is gonna be numbered one of 25, Josh Giddy. Rookie auto for OKC, congrats, Daniel F. There you go, Danny. Rookie auto of Giddy, one of 25. The nice one here, this is gonna be a random as well, actually, two of five, flawless picks, Jason Tatum and Luka Donchich on the Dual Diamond. Thomas C.H. and Ken W. So we'll do like, I'll give like 20, 20 bucks bad beat credit on whoever doesn't win this one. This is a pretty decent one. Two of five, flawless picks. Luka and Tatum. That is an empty box of flawless, got a couple of randoms we gotta do here, everybody. Starting off, we've got Trey Johnson, Aaron Bradshaw, KJ Evans, and then we've got the Luka and Tatum Dual. Have a go on, Logan. All right, way this will work.  Top team will get Trey Johnson, second team Aaron Bradshaw, third team KJ Evans, fourth team, whatever college cards, or whatever non-autograph college cards were in there, there might be none, there might be some, gonna do it just to be safe. So good luck. We've got one, two, three, four, five and six, do you need a pen for this? No. You got a sharpie, okay. So the first one is on top, yep, is Trey Johnson, right? Yep. Sixers. The redemption will be the Pelicans, the third one will be the Jazz, and then non-autographed college cards will go to the Kings. We'll go to the Kings, if there are any. And then we will do the Luka, Tatum, flawless picks, dual diamond, two of five, roll the dice, whatever team's on top after five times, we'll get the card and whoever does not get the card will get $20 bad beat credit. So one, two, three, four and five, go to the maps, go to the maps, top two meant to be. Celtics, I think that's, no that's not Thomas, that's Ken, I'll get you 20 bucks bad beat. Celtics is, yes Ken W. Let's go do a quick recap here everybody. We've got Trey Johnson, Aaron Bradshaw, KJ Evans, Roy Hachimar out of five, Patrick Baldwin, Patrick Williams, Sergio Barrie Rice, Jose Alvarado, Jayden Ivey, Mark Williams, Dyson Daniels, Marjan Bochamp, Duncan Robinson, Brandon Boston Jr., Kevin Porter Jr., Jamal Murray, Karl Anthony Towns, and Paul Pierce. Bag cards we had to the Luka Tatum dual, Josh Giddy, Bones Highland to five, Luka to 25, and Shade on Sharp to 99. That will do it for the break everybody. Thanks again for the film. Next up is nothing.


Today, in world literature, we turn to a selection of literature of Europe. We look at Lawrence and Wolfe from Great Britain, at James Joyce from Ireland, at Franz Kafka from Czechoslovakia, and at Albert Camus from France. When Allied diplomats met in Paris to formulate what would become the Treaty of Versailles in 1919, there was reason for optimism. They hoped to heal what had been broken by the First World War. Instead, historians often used this day to mark the beginning of the Age of Anxiety in the West. The First World War, the Russian Revolution, the Great Depression, these events were to weaken optimism in Europe and North America. As the French poet Paul Valerais wrote, doubt and disorder are in us and with us. European writers well articulated this climate of doubt. In the 19th century, novelists had written in the voice of all-knowing narrators, omniscient voices such as Charles Dickens, who controlled as they wrote. Now in the 20th century, writers adopted a point of view that was individual. Virginia Wolfe and James Joyce, for example, used stream of consciousness techniques to convey both rational and irrational interior monologues. Lawrence conjured up forbidden sensuality as a savior of an industrialized landscape in which the individual was in danger of losing authenticity. Kafka portrayed the hopelessness of the individual who was crushed by irrational hostile forces in Camus articulated questions of absurdity and human freedom. In this lecture, I try to define the ways these authors expressed anxiety in the first half of the 20th century. The storm has died away, and still we are restless, uneasy, as if the storm were about to break. Almost all the affairs of men remain in terrible uncertainty. We think of what has disappeared, we are almost destroyed by what has been destroyed. We do not know what will be born, and we fear the future, not without reason. In this lecture, I attempt to provide an overview of European literature in the first half of the 20th century by looking at what I believe are representative authors. Significant in this discussion is that the doubt and uncertainty that accompanied the modern age were there at the outset and remain with us today. We begin our overview with Great Britain's DH, Lawrence. In novels, short stories, and poetry, DH, Lawrence expressed the opposition between nature and civilization, between instinct and rationalism, between the pastoral world of the country and the urbanized world of the city. He wrote about the dreary landscape of the coal mining districts in England, about the deadening influence of gentility and the social world of those for whom cash was not a problem. He wrote about possessiveness and its destructive powers. As added out to these deadening aspects of 20th century life, he wished for a world in which men and women communicated with each other in ways he believed to be authentic. Although we need to state here that we may not believe these ways to be valid. Women, as we'll find, are often associated with convention and repression, men with animal vitality. Lawrence wished for an existence in which the natural world was something not seen through a carriage window, but experienced firsthand and allowed to yield healing powers. Born the fourth of five children to a coal miner, David Herbert Lawrence lived in Eastwood, a mining town near Nottingham, England. The tension between his schoolteacher mother and his father in the life they led is depicted in Lawrence's novel, Sons and Lovers, published in 1913. A good student, Lawrence won a scholarship that allowed him to attend Nottingham High School. He became a teacher, a painter, a poet. He traveled widely, finally to Mexico, where he identified in Native American culture the simplicity and vitality he found lacking in modern life. The search for simplicity and vitality are found in the short story The Horse Steal His Daughter. In the story we have a description of Lawrence's portrayal of erotic passion, the kind of topic and treatment that shocked his contemporary audience. In this short story, Mabel Pervin, a rather short, sullen woman of 27, as Lawrence describes her, is on the brink of a futureless life. With her three brothers, she faces bankruptcy of her father's horse-trading business. Lawrence writes and asks us to listen for a moment to this scene as the story opens. The three brothers and the sisters sat around the desolate breakfast table, attempting some sort of dulcetura consolation. The morning's post had given the final tap to the family fortunes, and all was over. The dreary dining room itself, with its heavy mahogany furniture, looked as if it was waiting to be done away with. The paragraph demonstrates Lawrence's mastery of mood, the attitude of the author toward the subject, as it is exhibited in the physical and emotional setting. The scene of foreboding and doom is laden throughout the story and is used to suggest deadly qualities that life may have. Enter young Dr. Jack Ferguson. From his office window, he watches Mabel as she walks slowly and deliberately toward the pond. Then into the pond, gradually moving deeper into the water. Running over the wet and sodden fields, he moves into the foul, earthy water of the pond and carries her out of the pond. Do you love me? She asks, as she regains consciousness, Lawrence writes. He stood instead at her, fascinated. His soul seemed to melt. Down together in the house where he has carried her, he becomes a maize, bewildered, afraid. He's never thought of loving her, yet he doesn't have the power to break away. By the end of the story, they're together, drawn into one by their baptism into life. So is this a European fairytale? Is Mabel Pervin a version of Cinderella, complete with her three broody siblings, the exact number prescribed in all stories by the brother's grim and drawn by Disney? Is Dr. Ferguson Prince Charming? Or is this sleeping beauty in which Mabel travels through the valley of death to come to life? Or is this a story of a fantasy, of a European narrative, a piece of fiction created by homophobic male? Well, there are fairytale elements here, and it is true that Lawrence's visions of relationships does not conform to those in which women have equality and freedom. How do we choose? To begin, I don't think we're obliged to choose. The story does indeed have fairytale elements. As Keith Cushman has demonstrated in his 1980 book about Lawrence's short stories, and Mabel is depicted with no option other than marriage. But it is also true that the horse stealer's daughter is four more than a fairytale. It is a telling of a story, and it's magic. And Lawrence provides a narrative that is powerful in moving and measured. And if we believe that Mabel should have had opinions other than marriage, if she could have had options in her life, we're correct there, too. Her life is filled with sadness and doom, characteristics of a world well known by the coal-minded sun. In this story, Lawrence demonstrates the power of spontaneous exchange, the ways that the senses can generate experience that is valid by being free of rational intellectual restraints. Indeed, it is a testament to the craft of Lawrence that reading this story is not the same as summarizing it. That is, the story, as the critic F. R. Levi has pointed out in 1956, is not melodramatic. The classic perfection of the tale and its simple human certainty is bound up with its remoteness from anything in the nature of cliche, Levi has wrote. We should ask after reading the story why women had such prescribed roles. We should ask whether Lawrence's view of women was valid. We should even wonder why Lawrence, during the period of the First World War when the story was published, demonstrated a lack of nationalistic patriotism. But in all of this, we should also be mindful of the craft that is the story, of the treatment of the redemptive power of love, a love that the woman did not expect to find and the doctor strongly resisted. Craft is that for which Virginia Woolf does best known. Craft is indicative of her best work. The general intellectual climate, pessimism and doubt that prevailed at the end of the First World War was captional literature and novelist developed techniques to capture these new realities. The limited, hyper-vigilant point of view that is termed stream of consciousness is used by Virginia Woolf for novels such as Jacob's Room, 1922, Mrs. Dalloway 1925 and The Waves 1931, and in the short story at hand, The Mark on the Wall. What is the technique called stream of consciousness? The great American philosopher and psychologist William James coined the term in his Principles of Psychology published in 1890. James used the term to describe the ebb and flow of thoughts in the waking mind. In literary criticism, the term stream of consciousness describes narrative techniques that present multifaceted flows of rational, inter-rational thoughts and impressions uninhibited by grammar, a syntax, or logical transitions. The best way to see how stream of consciousness works is to read a passage. Here's a paragraph from The Mark on the Wall. But for that mark, I'm not sure about it. I don't believe it was made by a nail after all. It's too big, too round for that. I might get up, but if I got up and looked at it, 10 to 1, I shouldn't be able to say for certain because once a thing's done, you never know how it happened. Oh, dear me. The mystery of life, the inaccuracy of thought, the ignorance of humanity, to show how very little control of our possessions we have. What an accidental affair this living is and all of our civilization. Just let me count over a few things lost in a lifetime beginning, for that seems always the most mysterious of losses. What cat would gnaw? What rat would nibble? Three pale blue canisters of bookbinding tools. And there were the bird cages, the iron hoops, the steel skates, the Queen Anne Kohl's scuttle, the bag-and-tale board, the hand-doggin, all gone in jewels, too. Opals and emeralds, they lie about it, the roots of turnets. What a scraping ferret is, to be sure. The wonder is that, of any clothes on my back, that I sit surrounded by solid furniture at this moment. Why, if one wants to compare life to anything, one must liken it to being blown through the tube at 50 miles an hour, landing at the other end without a single hairpin in my hair, shot out of the feet of God entirely naked, tumbling head over heels and asphodel meadows like brown paper parcels pitched down the chute in the post office. With one's hair flying back like the tail of a racehorse, yes, that seems to express the rapidity of life, the perpetual waste and repel, also casual, also haphazard. Let's look at the pattern here. The narrator of the piece is examining Halossus. Her own past is gone, as are the objects associated with it, bird cages, iron hoops, steel skates, the queen and coal scuttles, the bagatelle boards, the hand-doggin. These things have returned to the earth and lie about like the roots of turnips. Too, the Victorian age with its solid furniture is gone. Life is now technologically driven and must be compared to the subway, the tube that blows one about at 50 miles per hour. The rapidity of life is also casual, so haphazard, so lit by lightning, as should now be clear. The fact that we term this technique stream of consciousness is not at all suggest that this technique is haphazard. It is a craft deliberately constructed to take the reader from idea to idea in subtle plan ways that give the impression of unstructured movement. As a result, the technique prompts the reader to see ideas as they bubble up, suggesting the instruction way the mind often works. As a technique, it is appropriately used by the great experimental novelist Virginia Woolf to provide a picture of a world in which simple structured ideas no longer hold. And at the end of the story, it is key that the narrator finds that the mark on the wall is, after all, a snail. Her husband defines the mark for her. As Jean de Bela Garant tells us in her fine analysis of the story, after the long winding course of the narrator's reflection, this clear definition of the mark, it is, after all, a snail, falls down on us with a thud, almost the force of a decree. It is like the blackness of the mark on the white surface of the wall, like the fixity of a rule in the flux of life. Here is the masculine point of view, which governs our lives, which sets the standards, which solidifies all that it touches. Indeed, the snail itself captures the essence of the story. The snail, with its shell outside, may be seen to suggest the form of the story, while the burying and digging of the mollusks suggests the inexhaustible energy of the life force itself. Here is the hard shell of form and the fluidity of the content. Delbarre Gannet suggests that symbolizes Wolf's attempt to create a free world of the narrator's consciousness. For Wolf, consciousness was carried in a formal way on the outside, but the inside was expansive and natural. The snail is, in fact, a good way to think about Wolf's view of the world. It is a view that is often underestimated, even by those most qualified to give opinions. The great British novelist, E. M. Forster, for example, saw the mark on the wall only as a lovely little thing that led nowhere. The story was all tiny dots and colored blobs and inspired bleakness. How wrong could one be, we think. In the story, Wolf provides a microcosm of her major themes, a critique of male-female relationships, an argument for a revolution in literary perception, and a rendering of the world of human consciousness and the natural world. Indeed, after reading a mark on the wall, students would do well to read Wolf's Room of One's Own, published in 1929, a classic treatment of the role of women in society. Role's witches, Wolf would argue, should not be shell-like, but rather fluid. James Joyce was also concerned about the way the mind works. Like Wolf in England, Ireland's Joyce used stream of consciousness techniques in his novel, Ulysses, published in 1922. But in Arabic, the technique is different. Arabic is part of Joyce's early collection of stories. The Dublin is published in 1914. Here are stories that provide aspects of life in Dublin as Joyce knew it, the parochial piety and sometimes repressive conditions of Irish life that could stifle an individual soul. Arabic is often seen as a classic story. The plot is straightforward. The loved one is a girl at the Convent School. She wants to go to a bazaar called Arabic, like most public events in Joyce's fiction. This event is historical. Such a bazaar was held in Dublin from May 14th to May 19th in 1894. Unfortunately, though, there's a retreat at the Convent and the girl has to be disappointed. The boy promises to go instead and bring her back a present. It's the last night of Arabic and he must get money from his uncle to attend, but his uncle comes home late. When the boy finally arrives, the bazaar is closing down and the lights are going out. The story ends with this recollection from the narrator, gazing up into the darkness. I saw myself as a creature driven and derided by vanity and my eyes burned with anguish and anger. So in its simplicity, is this nothing more than a story of puppy love just as D.H. Lawrence's, the horse dealer's daughter, may have been seen simply as a fairy tale? Or as was the case in Lawrence's story, is there something more here? One of the best guides to the story is that found in a very old textbook, Understanding Fiction, written by the literary critics Cleonth Brooks and Robin Penn Warren, published in 1943. Brooks and Warren wonder, too, if the story may be too sentimental, a tale of calf love. The fact that the story must be taken more seriously is supported by two elements. The details of the story, the story's point of view, regarding the details. There is a description of North Richmond Street. It is a blind alley. The information in the story about the dead priest and his abandoned belongings, the relationship, the lack of it between the aunt and uncle. He adjoices establishing the boy's growing sense of isolation. He says, and this is perhaps the single most significant line in the story, I imagine that I bore my chalice safely through a throng of foes. The metaphor of the chalice implies a secret triumph. He carries his loneliness with him and along with it, his love of his friend's system. Regarding point of view, we come to realize after reading the story that the narrator is recalling the event years after it occurred. Since the narrator is recalling this form for the point of view of a male adult, he has come to see the event as a kind of parable of a problem, as Brooks and Warren put it, which run through the narrator's later adult experiences. The discrepancy between the real and the ideal existed for the adolescent and exists we may assume for the narrator in the present. So the story is merely an account of a stage in the process of growing up. It does not merely represent clinical interest in the psychology of growing up, but it is symbolic rendering of a central conflict in mature experience, Brooks and Warren believe. Brooks and Warren were essential importance by the way in literary theory as they promoted a school of critical thought termed new criticism or formalism. The new critics sought to shift focus to the text by studying it in isolation for biographical and historical information. As we can see, this kind of reading is quite powerful. It helps us focus on the text. Yet we also need to focus on the context in which the text was written. For example, the details of the story, the mention of the chalice, the comment of the ant that she hoped the bazaar was not some freemason that is Protestant affair, point to attention between Catholic and Protestant ideologies in Ireland. We should also recall that Arabic as a geographic place has significance. The syllables of the word Arabic, the narrator states, were called to me through the silence in which my soul was luxuriated and cast an eastern enchantment over me. Of course, Arabia was not known to the narrator for the narrator, the orient is a mythical construct. As Edward Said of Columbia has written in his 1980, 1978 book, rather Orientalism. The East as such is a projection of the Western mind and bears little resemblance to the actual East. This is certainly the case in the story. Recall, for example, the boys, Uncle S of the boy knows the Arabs farewell to his steed, a poem by the English novelist, Carolyn Norton. The romanticism of the East and the romanticism of the boys' vision of the girl are both constructs divorced from reality. So, both the text and the context are important. Acknowledging the significance of context will help us gain a better understanding of Albert Camus, the guest, published in 1957. The context of this story is the Algerian War for Independence. Algiers, the second largest country in Africa, had been governed by the French since 1830. On May 8th, 1945, the day after World War II ended, thousands of Algerians, rather, demonstrated for independence. The struggle became accelerated, rather, in 1954 when the Algerian National Liberation Front launched a guerrilla campaign against the French. After more than seven years of bloody civil war, an agreement was reached in 1962, finally providing independence for Algeria. It is this setting in which we find the main character, Daru, a French Algerian who teaches in a one-room schoolhouse for Arab children in the middle of a bleak Algerian plane. Into his beloved solitude comes Jean Darm, Balouchi, leading an Arab man who has killed his cousin over a dispute. Balouchi insists on handing over the prison to Daru for delivery to police headquarters at a village some four hours in distance from the schoolhouse. Daru protested that his not his job, but Balouchi, citing police short-handiness in the face of a possible Arab revolt, makes Daru responsible for the prisoner, and he departs. A sensitive, humane, compassionate man, Daru treats his hostage as a human, although an unknowable human. Even though he's a French civil servant, Daru rebels against the notion of handling the Arab prisoner over to the French authorities. Daru sows the dilemma by taking the Arab a two-hour journey across a plateau where two roads divide. He gives him a thousand francs enough to last for two days, gives him food. Daru points the way to prison and the way to freedom. Daru then leaves the prisoner. When he looks back, he sees with heavy heart the Arab walking slowly on the road to prison. Later back in the classroom, Daru finds written on the blackboard these words, you have handed over our brother, you will pay for this, the story ends. Kamu's story is about the difficulty, complexity, the agony, the thanklessness of moral choice. As the critic, Lawrence Perrine, wrote in a 1963 study of the story, the guest is subtle and complex. At one level, it tells us about the French situation in Algiers at the end of World War II, a situation as difficult as Daru's. The story is about the complexity of human choice. To understand more about the story, we should compare it with Algerian writer, Mohammed Dibb's Neymar, whereabouts unknown. Both stories are centered in Algeria during the anti-colonial struggle and both confront the Arab European perspective. From Dibb, we see the war from an Arab point of view. From Kamu, we see the story from a French point of view. In Dibb's story, we see a politically committed point of view. The narrator's experiences lead him to commit himself to the Algerian cause at the end of the story. In Kamu's story, we see the main character, Daru, fleeing political commitment and seeking to avoid responsibility for his prisoner. Does Kamu, we might ask, actually address the Algerian conflict? Or does he really adopt a European philosophical position, existentialism, to a colonial setting? In comparison, both stories deal with questions about the meaning of life and death, with questions about meaning in a chaotic world. In essence, the story is about understanding, a point that Kamu made in his 1958 Nobel Prize acceptance speech, as he wrote, true artists score nothing. They force themselves to understand instead of judging. It is questions of meaning that are interwined in Franz Kafka's The Hunger Artist. On a literal level, this is a story about fasting. The main character literally performs a fast before an audience. However, this once popular spectacle has fallen into disfavor, as circus goers have moved on to other spectacles. And so the hunger artist neglected fast sawn without hindrance and in time dies. At the end of the story, the hunger artist is buried with a straw in his cage and a panther is brought into this cage as a crowd gathers to watch the beast. On web level, the story is a sociological allegory. The play to the hunger artist represents the play to the artist in modern world. Recall Virginia Woolf's similar treatment of this theme in The Mark on the Wall when she recalls being shot out of a tube on the subway. Taken on another level, the story is an allegory about human spiritual nature. The hunger artist represents the aspiring spiritual side of mankind. The panther represents the material, the sensual side. And seeking that which is absolutely spiritual, the hunger artist is isolated from society. At still another level, if we take the hunger artist as symbolic of a savior, we realize that there is no chance of that savior rising from the dead. There is no rebirth. The sense of the individual striving against hostile forces is part of the age and anxiety in the West and the company at the end of World War One and a cage that lasts until the present. Easy answers, if ever any existed were gone. Present war uncertainty and pessimism, the authors we have just explored pursued experimentation as a way to articulate their vision in a world in which insecurity was paramount. At the end of the Second World War, Western Europe and America were to recover. Nevertheless, the end of the age of Western dominance was in sight. Between 1947 and 1962, nearly every former colonial territory gained independence, truly a turning point in world history. In the late 1960s and early 70s, moreover, Europe and America entered a new time of turbulent crisis. Social conflicts and ideological battles divided communities and shook nations. As we look closely at European literature at the beginning of the 20th century, we see the origin of modern thought in all its complexity.


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