Well, for more, we go to London, where we're joined by Ash Sarkar, senior editor at Navera Media. Ash Sarkar, welcome back to Democracy Now! First your reaction to what just took place? My first reaction was to be very grateful that we've got an NHS, because I want to be medically induced into a coma, if possible. This represents the most shameless and brazen attack on the British democratic process that has happened for decades. And while proroguing Parliament, suspending Parliament, has happened before by governments who want to get around a sticky patch in Westminster politics, this is the first time it's ever occurred in order to circumvent Parliamentary scrutiny of an issue of the importance and the gravitas of Brexit. So it really is quite an astonishing assault on the conventions of representative democracy. Now, can you explain what Johnson gets out of this? And again, he had to request this of the Queen who assented. Okay, so let me talk you through the Queen bit first. In this country, we don't have what you have, which is a constitution which is written down. Instead, what we've got is a constitution which works on people generally agreeing to abide by unspoken rules and when in doubt, look to the past and see what precedent has to offer you. So like I said, Parliament has been prorogued before, so there is precedent for this kind of thing. The last time a government prorogued Parliament to get around a sticky bit of Parliamentary scrutiny was in 1997. Another time that it happened was in 1948. So precedent does allow for this kind of thing to happen. But the unspoken rule of the British constitution is that you don't ask the Queen to get involved in political matters. The precedent is that she cannot say no to her government, but the unspoken rule is don't ask her to get involved. Boris Johnson has thrown that unspoken rule completely out of the window because this is a proroguing which overrides the wishes of MPs who want to scrutinise the process of leaving the European Union. So it really is a way of saying, I'm not going to give you the opportunity to present legislation that could derail a no-deal Brexit, and I also don't want to give you the opportunity to call me to committees to scrutinise government papers or plans. Really what I want to do is have a month-long steamroller going through mid-September to mid-October, which takes us that bit closer to October 31st, the day at which we leave the European Union by default. And explain what a no-deal Brexit would look like compared to a Brexit with a deal. So every form of Brexit has some form of economic disruption, as it's bound to. We're leaving a trading bloc, which has been one of the prime sources of UK trade since we entered it. So even the softest possible Brexit, where you've got a single market access in the customs union, has a little bit of a hit for the economy. But a no-deal Brexit is where every single agreement we have with not just the European Union, but the trading partners that we have through the European Union evaporates overnight. And what that means is we'll have tariffs on our imports. That means that the price of food is going to go up. The price of fuel is going to go up, because obviously we rely quite heavily on imports. That means that there are going to be tariffs on our exports. So our already fragile manufacturing sector—so, for instance, the sale of cars—that's going to take a huge hit. The baseline prediction is that there will be a contraction of our economy by 8 percent. That is going to hit the poorest and those on the lowest incomes the hardest. The other thing is that there are political consequences to this as well. Having the European Union without any other form of agreement means that there will be a hard border in Ireland. Now, of course, the Good Friday Agreement was calibrated so that this wouldn't happen, because a hard border would risk the return of sectarian violence to Ireland and Northern Ireland. So, a no-deal Brexit puts that quite fragile piece at risk in Ireland. People have been talking also about shortages of medicine. A lot of our medicine here in the U.K. is imported from EU countries, even if they're just as close by as the Republic of Ireland or, indeed, France. So, there will be medical shortages at least for six months, and this is coming from the government's own impact assessments. When pressed on the matter, Tory ministers could not guarantee that people wouldn't die because of a no-deal Brexit. So, this is where we are at the minute in the U.K. We're facing half a million job losses. We're facing medical shortages, which put lives at risk. And for what? For one, eaten, educated millionaire to stay in the job that he wanted ever since he was a little boy. So, we just heard that the Conservative Party leader in Scotland, Ruth Davidson, has just resigned. What is the significance of this? This is pretty significant, because Ruth Davidson has been credited with keeping that small segment of Conservative voters in Scotland, many of whom are remain supporters, on side. Without Ruth Davidson, it's likely that the Scottish Conservatives will face electoral annihilation at the next general election. He knows that proroguing Parliament is a very divisive mood. It doesn't go well with her base. And also it's against her own personal political instincts. One of the things to remember is that when Boris Johnson was campaigning to be the Conservative Party leader and therefore Prime Minister, he was going around making assurances to Conservatives like Ruth Davidson that he would not countenance proroguing Parliament. Yesterday, he went back on his word. Now, Ruth Davidson has decided that that is a betrayal of trust too far. She cannot, in good conscience, still be leader of the Scottish Conservatives. But then also there are members of the government like Lord Young, who have said, we're not putting up with this. However, most of the cabinet ministers who occupy the most important offices of state, so Sajid Javid, who's our Chancellor of the Exchequer, Matt Hancock, who's our Health Secretary, and Barad, who is the Minister for Work and Pensions, all of them have in the past few weeks said that they would not entertain proroguing Parliament, that they are firmly against a no-deal Brexit. However, since Boris Johnson pulled that lever yesterday, they've been saying nothing. They would much rather preserve their own jobs and personal importance than protect the jobs of ordinary working people up and down the U.K. Now, Boris Johnson, the Prime Minister, claims that he's suspending Parliament actually to move forward on his domestic legislative agenda. What is that? That's a lie, Amy.  The reason why he is suspending Parliament is for one reason and one reason only. The day before he announced this move, Jeremy Corbyn organised the leaders of the other opposition parties, the Liberal Democrats, the Green Party, the Scottish National Party, the Welsh National Party called Plaid Cymru, and together they had finally agreed a strategy to block a no-deal Brexit. They would pursue legislative means, so, for instance, passing legislation that would force Boris Johnson to seek an extension of Article 50 from the EU or, indeed, to block some of the funding that's been put aside to create a kind of buffer in the event of a no-deal Brexit. That had been agreed the day before. So, if you imagine it like a game of soccer, you've got one team which has finally got its defensive line in order. And Boris Johnson, instead of trying to play the ball towards the goal again, has picked up the ball, walked off the pitch and said, ah, let's play again in a few weeks' time. Finally, 35 days into Boris Johnson's prime ministership, the Financial Times editorial board has had enough and declared its openness to the previously unthinkable. The capitalist paper of record entertained the possibility of Labour Party leader Jeremy Corbyn as the United Kingdom's next head of state, rather than keeping Boris Johnson in power. Can you respond to this, Ash? I mean, it's often said, may you live in interesting times, and certainly these are times which I never thought that I would live through. I think what this goes to show is that no-deal Brexit, which is a symptom of the collapse of the Conservative Party's orthodoxy, isn't necessarily in keeping with the interests of the financial establishment, because it is such a hit to the economy.


This is stock number AT38A. We are here at Summit Automotive in Fond du Lac, Wisconsin. You're new and used RAM headquarters. Remember we are the guys with the trucks on 41. Today we are taking a look at this super clean 2018 RAM 1500 crew cab 5 foot 7 inch short box. This truck has the legendary 5.7 liter Hemi V8 motor. From this HD video, you will be able to tell that this truck is extremely clean all the way around. No dents or dings or scuffs on that front bumper. You can see it does have that front sonar. The factory fog lights, the headlights are nice and clear and this color is maximum steel metallic. I got the sun on this side of the truck just so you can see that color. It's a really cool color. Probably one of the best looking colors on the Rams. Anyways, we shoot all of our videos in 1080p. So if you have HD capabilities on your computer tablet or smartphone device, turn them on right now because it's like you're right here looking at the truck with me. This one that comes with the 20 inch factory alloy rims with the chrome covers and the Goodyear Wrangler SRA 275 60R 20 tires and these tires have just about all the tread left as there's only 3,000 some miles on this truck. Frame and under body is like new. Very clean down this side of the truck. Front grille is in excellent shape. The hood's in nice condition as well. I faced the other side towards the sun just a little bit more than this side just to show you how dark this color gets when the sun is not shining on it. It's kind of like a dark gray and at night it looks black. It's really a cool color all the way around especially when the lights hitting it. It looks like a gunmetal blue. Just a very cool color. As we go down this side of the truck you can see just how clean that body is, how reflective and mirror-like that paint is. We take these HD videos so if you are far away or even if you're close by and just cannot make a trip down, you can still see the truck here, the truck, and of confidence in the vehicle that you're looking at before you even get here. We sell a lot of these trucks out of states. We want to make sure that our out-of-state customers get the same experience as if they were standing right here so that when they are standing right here there'll be absolutely no surprises and they'll be ready to go. Frame and under body looks really good as the factory chrome step bars, this back rim, no scuffs or scrapes on that for wheel disc brakes. Of course back tires have just as much tried as the front tires and you can see that that it has the wheel well liner, the plastic wheel well liner, which keeps your frame and under body looking great for a longer period of time. All the rams come with bed rail covers as we come around to the back. You can really see that metal flake in the paint and how that paint looks like a gunmetal blue to a bright gray. Rear bumper is absolutely perfect dual rear exhaust with that heavy full towing package, which includes the receiver hitch four pin and seven pin wiring. Locking tailgate, backup camera, bed is in really nice shape. Just a couple light scuffs in there about nothing major and it does have the LED bed lighting. One cool thing to note is that it does have that LED bed lighting where you push the button and those lights turn on before you have to use the cargo lamp to turn those on, but now you can use that button. They started that in 2018. And as we go down this side of the truck, this is clean as the other side. No dense thing, scuffs or scrapes down this side, this back rim and tire, just like the rest, absolutely perfect. And like I said down this side very very clean. It does have the heated power folding mirrors with the built-in directional signals and they power fold in with this button right here. Press that button and they'll come on in. Press it again and it goes back out. Power windows, power locks, power mirrors. Bighorn package gives you the gray cloth interior. Both these seats are heated. Power driver seat, factory lumbar, factory floor mats throughout, auto headlamps. And as we hop inside here, you can see that this truck has 3967 miles. Instrument cluster is nice and clean. You get the heated leather wrap steering wheel that is in excellent condition. No scuffs or scrapes on that. Blue tooth audio controls on that side. Cruise controls on this side. Turn dial, 8-speed automatic transmission, push button, four-wheel drive with the lock, low and auto feature. This truck has remote start, also has the 8.4 C radio, four C radio, which gives you Android Auto and Apple CarPlay capabilities. And you have your heated seats and heated steering wheel buttons right there. You can also check out your backup camera at any time by pressing that button. You don't even have to have it in reverse. This one has heated seats down here and heated steering wheel as well and dual climate control and finally a 115 volt, 150 watt plug-in. Passenger seat is very clean as well. No rips or tears on that. It has side curtain airbags. And the headliner is absolutely perfect. This truck has never been smoked in. Power sign rear window, home link buttons for your garage door security systems and lighting systems. And I don't know if you can see it, but it has the assist and SOS buttons right there. And those are always active with the vehicle. Finally, cell phone holder so that you can put a cell phone or a tablet right there and it's easy to access. We'll take a quick look at the back seats. Then we'll check out under the hood. Back seats are just as clean as the front seats. No rips or tears back here. Does have latch child safety system, power sliding rear window. These seats fold up for extra storage to keep your seats nice and clean.  Factory floor mat throughout back here, and then you get two storage containers in the floor. One on this side, one on the other side with easy removable bins for easy clean. So you can put ice and drinks in there and clean them out easily and finally power slide rear window. We will take a quick look under the hood. I'd like to thank you for checking out the video. Hopefully you can you know get from this video that this is a super clean truck and that it is the real deal. Engine bay is very clean, runs very smooth. This truck has been fully safe and inspected by our service shop. It has a fresh oil and filter change. All the fluids have been checked and tapped off. And this truck is 100% ready to go. 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Thank you for the great feedback you gave me on yesterday's episode of the George show unedited I read every single comment and I saw that a lot of you wanted this to be a daily show So I'll do my best to make it daily in this episode I again am doing unedited because some of you said you like this format So I'll be doing both styles today I want to talk about the freedom points as well as the new gfx branding and most importantly The teams of five we have a new idea based on your feedback So let's get started with the teams of five a lot of you said we love the idea, but what about pairs? What about just two people who want to work together? So what about creating only pairs teams of two and have a leaderboard that measures the growth of your pair compared to other people of similar category and size and skill and Then have pairs join other pairs to create teams of four that way You have the ability to just pick a best friend and work with him if you want to you don't have to pick three other people And if you do want a larger team you can team up with another pair to create teams of four And then in the future when there's gonna be big projects Maybe a big competition like a video a thon you can have teams of four team up with another team of four to make A team of eight think of it like a raid an MMO you got a bunch of groups together to do something epic Slay a dragon. Okay. Do you like this idea? Do you like the idea of pairs instead of? Forcing people to create larger teams like teams of five or perhaps teams of four all right second point is The freedom points beta is going along really well you've given us a ton of feedback and we fixed a ton of bugs Some of you had negative 20,000 freedom points How did you do it? Well, we found some bugs that created negative freedom points freedom points instead of positive So those are fixed But the feature I wanted to talk to you about right now is Gifting freedom points some of you gave us feedback in our forum saying hey We'd love to be able to give freedom points to a friend. We thought great idea. So we implemented it now You can take your freedom points and give them to anyone you just have to know their custom ID that you get from the dashboard And you can use it as a form of currency So for example if someone does something good for you like helps you edit a video You could give him 10 freedom points or 20 or however many you feel he deserves That way people who want freedom points can now earn them from the normal activities like growing your channel Contributing on the forums doing good things that help the community grow Or you can do things that others will pay you freedom points for that they've earned through the normal way Do you like this idea? Do you think it's very helpful? Tell us in the comments below of course the people who suggested it like it What about the rest of you? We'd really like to know and if you have other suggestions tell us down there I personally read every single comment. So we do a lot of our staff. We just can't reply to every single one All right guys the last point point was the new gfx branding go to youtube.com slash gfx We have completely redesigned the look and feel of the channel and we want to know if you like it Tell us in the comments below You're sure you can be sure that the gfx guys will be reading everything You write and listening to your suggestions and feedback for how to make that channel better How to make the community better and all that good stuff? All right guys. Thank you for your support. I love all the feedback You are giving me each of these videos gets over a hundred comments and a hundred likes and I can't thank you enough I want to keep making the videos better. So keep telling me what you'd like to see I owe you several episodes one to go over the YouTube boot camp So we can study together the test is now available for those of you who've already studied But for everyone else who's waiting for my video I promise it's coming and we'll study together and then we'll take the test together. We'll all ace it Well, we won't all ace it But we'll all do very well.  Maybe another large channel spotlight and Tips on how to avoid getting your channel closed due to spamming and a lot of other videos. So Sit tight. I know what I need to do I just need to find the time to do it and I will I promise. All right guys till next time You've been watching the George show unedited


That's where the compassion starts, really. When we are sharing, we are not anymore in the competition. We are human beings, and this experience of being self-critical is painful. We all know it, we feel it, but sometimes we feel alone with that, and that loneliness that is really killing us on the inside. What's up everybody, and welcome to the show today. We drop great content each and every week, and we want to make sure that you guys get notified. And in order to do that, you're going to have to smash that subscribe button and hit that notification bell. And if you've gotten a lot of value out of this, make sure you give us a like and share our videos with your friends. Well, I think in a lot of us, it's striving and looking to become a top performer to meet our own expectations, and if they are high, it can be challenging. To hear self-compassion, I could see would lead some people to believe, well, isn't that gonna mean I'm taking it too easy on myself? I'm slacking off, I'm letting myself off the hook by saying I'm already perfect as I am, I'm complete. When the goal is just here, it's just a little bit further ahead. I'm not at the goal. It sounds counter-intuitive. So what do you say to our audience members who are like, self-compassion sounds like I'm just taking it easy on myself? I wanna add to that as well. And AJ, perhaps you remember the interview that we did, but we were discussing these ideas culturally where in America, and it's even separated from the West and France and in Europe, where America, in its culture, in its DNA of this self-reliant and you and I growing up in Midwest industry, household, factory households, where no matter what you are feeling, it's stiff upper lip and you go in and we call it grinding. It's not about anything. Grinding means no matter what you're feeling, you deal with it and you push through. Now, AJ mentioned that this would lead to some outbursts from his father. I could definitely tell you it was the same in my household. I certainly have many memories of my dad flying off the handle, and I just thought that was part of being a dad and grew up accepting that idea. And I would even say that for a lot of myself, when we were discussing how does this affect us, and this is probably have gotten from my dad where I've channeled for the good parts, at least as I'm older, the good parts of anger and the fuel, whereas when I was younger, I allowed that anger as fuel to lead to destructive patterns and behaviors. Whereas I've gotten older, I've learned how to use it for the fuel that I needed to be to propel me forward and then channel my emotions and focus and constructive patterns. Yeah, our conversation with Bruce Feller, we talked about this exact narrative that's built into the American dream and how we are taught to grind and hustle and work hard regardless of our station in life, because just the other side of that is success. Is the white picket fence, is all of this? And I'm picturing myself, let's say sixth or seventh grade, coming home with a couple A minuses and a B plus on my report card, my dad staring across from me at the kitchen table and me telling him, dad, I'm complete, I'm perfect as I am, right? There's no way my dad would respond in agreement to those statements, right? So those expectations have followed me. I came home with that report card, we were going to the Sizzler that night and there would be a party going on, I'm just telling you. You guys, I'm in Ohio, man. I'm in the Midwest and from Dayton where the big GE factory was, so all my friends and my dad was, yeah, what you're talking about is so right, rugged individualism, pull yourself up by your bootstraps. The stuff we were even taught in history class and it all builds this, my psychologist dad flipped out when I was skipping school and I said, dad, I'm not going, that school sucks, man. I'm not going back there. And instead of asking me, son, what's going on? Why not? He said, your job is to go to school, my job is to go, I got to go to work. And I said, no, dad, I'm not going. And he said, listen, you know what? You got to go to school and it escalated.  And he chased me out the door, tackled me in the backyard with his suit on.  And my dad, we've told this actually professionally of how this happens is grinding, you know, you got it. And I asked him and then he apologized. We were crying on the ground and he punched me in the back of the head. He doesn't remember that. And we're crying. And I didn't remember he said he was sorry, but he said sorry that night. And it was one of his colleagues that, man, you got to say you're sorry. And he goes, dude, how's he going to learn? And then he's like, oh God, you're right, man. You're right. And, but he came from that grinding itself.  And so it's not our fault. So when we take this fierce compassion, I want to add fierce. It's like standing up to that part of you. And yet you're whole complete, you're perfect. But really it's an inner criticism. You can grind for so long, but what happens when you burn out? What I mean, it's like the carrot, you know, it's not the carrot, it's the whip.  I'm burned out. I'm coped out. I'm tired. I pushed. And that is like when we find that moment where we can turn inwards and have a different relationship with ourself. Usually, and it's that it's come to Jesus or Allah, Buddha moments when you go, oh God, I have lost it. I am at the end of my robe. I freaking hate. I remember saying I hate myself once, you know, and it's like, ouch, you wouldn't say any of that.  And then I get fired up when it comes to this guy.  Yeah, so let, help us here, Isabel, because I can tell you myself, I've expressed that self-hatred. And when I hear self-love, my eyes kind of roll and I glaze over. And it's been a conversation I've had in my men's group that I can't even remember a time where I just bathed in self-love and I really looked at myself and said, AJ, you are complete, you are good enough. And when I look at it, externally, I'm like, well, I've been able to achieve great things in life because of this burning desire and this feeling of being incomplete. And then when I hear this self-compassion and I think about self-love, I really struggle with it. So what is your perspective on that, Isabel? And how can we start to develop this self-compassion? And AJ, I want to add to that as well. And where those feelings are, when you have that opportunity to turn inward and be compassionate for a lot of folks, it is rather than that, it's define escapism. And so to sink into computer games or a movie or anything, rather than having to come face to face with themselves. We drop great content each and every week and we want to make sure that you guys get notified. And in order to do that, you're going to have to smash that subscribe button and hit that notification bell. And if you've gotten a lot of value out of this, make sure you give us a like and share our videos with your friends. And that's why I wanted to thank you both and also Chris for sharing because that's where the compassion starts really. When we are sharing, we are not anymore in the competition. We are human beings. And this experience of being self-critical is painful. We all know it, we feel it. But sometimes we feel alone with that. And that slowniness that is really killing us on the inside. And so by expressing it to ourselves by saying, oh, I'm being hard on myself or by sharing it with others, it's really already self-compassion. Self-compassion is based on three things. It's based on awareness, it's based on shared humanity. I'm not alone with this suffering. I'm not the only one who hates myself. I'm not the only one who has pain in my body, who has unmet desires, et cetera. And it's also being kind with ourselves in this situation because yes, this is cultural and we are in a very competitive world. And of course, we want to succeed. We want to be the first one. But really competition is not something that is excluding compassion. When you look at great achievers, research shows that they have very high levels of self-compassion really. Why is that? It is because to achieve difficult things, you need to go over mistakes. You need to keep your motivation even if you fail. Someone who succeeds is not something, someone who succeeds the first time, is someone who fails again and again and again and keeps the motivation and keeps the goal. And to do that, we need to be able to self-heal, to welcome these difficult moments and to go beyond. So really competition is something that creates a fear of compassion, but it's not something that excludes compassion. We really can have both and succeed. It's such an interesting point because when I think about the failures, whether it's dieting or whether it's in your career or in your hobbies or your passions or pursuit, it's those are going to be there. And if you don't have a level of self-compassion, well, you'll quit the diet. You'll go back to eating poorly. You'll quit the workout and not go back to the gym. You'll quit your job and walk away from it. So it does take a level of self-compassion to overcome failure. And we know as we've talked to almost 900 guests on the show that a failure is a big part of them unlocking their X factor and achieving great things in their life. So we talked a little bit about core values earlier, but I'd love to circle back on how core values really come into the equation when it comes to self-compassion. And some in our audience still struggle with just the concept alone of like finding their core value. So as both of you give the chance to unpack core values for our audience, I'd love to hear your own journey in finding and defining your core values. I have an example of using anger to find one of my values. It's an old story actually. It was 20 years ago, I was an intern in psychiatric ward and there was so much suffering there and I kept working after the day was over. I kept reading the files and I was searching and searching for meaning. How could so much people suffer? And this really was feeling very unfair to me to see these people in so difficult situations. I felt anger, more and more anger. And at some point I was walking in the field and I felt on my knees and I really let the anger out and I started screaming, why, why? And then all of a sudden I had this flip in my head and I realized that it was not up to me to decide what the world was going to how the world would be organized and what was the meaning of the world and maybe the world was unjust but I had to learn from this world and learn the rules and the laws that I could understand. And really this flip of understanding the world was really important in my work because in therapy we meet suffering every day and we always try to make sense of suffering. We always want to know why these people seek and maybe this person has cancer because they smoke and we feel relieved because it makes sense and we have control of the situation but it's not that simple, it's never that simple and I learned to work with unknowing and really it is one of my core values to make room for the unknown in my work when I meet suffering. So that was through anger that I made that value. Wow, I wouldn't have expected to think of anger as something that could help us find that core value but that example really resonates with me too. I think again in Western culture especially we tend to label anger as a bad emotion and negative emotion and it's very hard to find anything positive about it. So for you to be able to flip it on its head I think that's a very useful exercise for those in our audience who might be struggling to identify core values that don't just pay attention to the quote unquote positive emotions that we talk about, happiness, joy, excitement, enthusiasm but also look at some of the negative emotions and those could be a guiding light towards uncovering that core value for you. What about you Chris? What has been your journey in discovering your core values? It's interesting because as Isabel says that made me reflect one of the reasons I became a therapist was because when I was very young in school I had dyslexia in a 10 of type ADD in learning disability and so like feeling so sad and so like misunderstood putting coat closets so I could pay attention and then falling asleep on the ditto papers and waking up and being shamed and the anger and I remember saying somebody needs to do something about this. There's such a lack of compassion and understanding to care and I remember my dad and mom in graduate school arguing and my mom crying and slamming the door and calling up on her bed and rubbing her back as a four year old and it's okay mom and wanting to bring peace and wanting to create harmony within the world and relationships and that little boy and that instinct of a child to try to help their mom and that's just instinct.  I about dropped out of school a billion times and that core value of hope going beyond what your mind and other people said is even possible for you. People go, you're on a podcast, you wrote a book and I was like, yeah I wrote a book but I had to ask for help. So what? It's that that's out of the suffering, out of the anger, out of some of those difficult moments came these core values of hope, of kindness, of going beyond what's in and using transforming my anger instead of just being stuck with it. So that's, and I could go on but that's sort of my story and I try to go back and get in touch with that because it's so easy to forget and as we hold our core values it can really guide us in those moments of distress when we think we can't go on and I can go back to that little kid and say, hey man, I'm doing this for you buddy, I got you.  You're all right. You got stuff to say.


G'day, how are you going? Welcome to Boot Lossophy, and if you're new here, my name is Tech. I acknowledge the traditional custodians of the lands that I live and work on, the Wajik people of Nungabuja. Now in this video, I'm looking at the Helm Zind Boot after I've kicked them around for the last five months. This is the Zind Boot from Helm, based out of Austin, Texas, in the United States. I need to say that this boot was given to me for review in October 2022, but there were no terms made about how I should review these boots and what I had to say. So as in my unboxing video up here, you're going to get my honest opinion of these boots. I think this was once the most popular boot, but may have been overtaken recently by their more work boot-style Hollis boot. This is called the Zind, after one of Helm's employees, Amelia Zind. Helm named all their boots after employees or after people connected to the business, which I think is a really nice touch in corporate culture and branding. This Zind Boot is made in a sleek design that's much more dress boot design than service boot or work boot. It's a little over five inches tall at the shaft from the top of the heel, and while it has a rugged looking pull tab, it has an all-islet derby or derby lacing system, a low profile and sleek almond shaped toe box, and an interesting low profile part leather, part rubber sole. All this combined makes this look like a dress issue that you might even want to wear with a suit rather than an all-purpose service boot that you'd wear casually or in the yard. I think there are enough formal elements in it, especially today where suits are not as buttoned up and formal as just a few years ago. I think there's enough formal elements to wear this with a suit.  However, there are also enough interesting elements like the natural leather coloured welt and the natural colour in the heel, and Helm's sometimes annoying, sometimes attractive white midsole stripe that does allow you to wear it with some smart casual outfits that lean towards business offices. You can pair these with khaki or darker neutral coloured chinos or pants, casual button down shirts and a blazer. You can also wear it with dark and clean jeans, nothing too faded or torn or lumberjacky, as well as some casual Henleys and jackets. Overall, it is reasonably versatile within a narrow range of smart casual to dressy outfits. It's not quite as versatile I think in a one-boot wardrobe like a Thursday captain where you can polish it up and wear it business casual or rough it up and wear it with faded jeans and t-shirt. But before we go on, let's take a look at Helm. Helm, or I think more correctly Helm boots, was started in 2009 by founder, CEO and designer, Joshua Bingerman. Mr. Bingerman is an American with about 20 years in the shoe industry before he started Helm. He first started manufacturing his boots in Turkey, but apparently got sick of customs and other regulations importing them back to the US so that he moved his operations to Austin and Texas, but makes his boots in Maine. If it's important to you, his website explains that they now manufacture in Maine, Arkansas and Brazil. The materials they use come from all over the place. Their upper leathers, for example, may come from Horween and Seidel, two famous American Tanries, as well as from Tanries in Brazil and the Dominican Republic. Now today, they make this zin style, two other styles of six inch boots, a couple of chakkas, a choce boot and a side zip boot, as well as a couple of styles of shoes, low and high top sneakers and even slippers. So quite a lot of styles which may surprise you. I know that I'd always thought of them as a boot company. I mean, after all, it's in the name. But you should take a look at their website and probably be as surprised as I was. I'll leave a link in the description box below. A couple of things I like about the company. They openly state so that you can judge how they do it, that they pursue quality and endurance in their products. They provide a 20% discount to the military and military families, I'm guessing US military, as well as the first responders and even government employees and teachers. Now I think that's pretty cool. And they also have a MyCrew program, which is basically a frequent flyer program where you accrue points for buying and for referring to friends, which you can then trade in for discounts or to pay for your boots. Now as a management consultant who's written a book on small business marketing, I approve. Shameless plug. The book is called Smart Marketing and you can get it on Amazon. I'll leave a link below if you're interested. Taking a look at how the helm's in is constructed, I'll do the usual and start at the bottom and work my way up. I mentioned this interesting half leather part rubber sole. I've never seen anything quite like this before. It starts with a two layer, veg tan leather, full length outsole that combines to be about 7mm thick. Under the ball of the foot, the outermost layer of leather is cut out and a rubber 4mm thick patch sole is inserted. It's only at the ball of the foot though. As you can see, the tip of the toe goes back to being leather. Many people like leather soles for their flexibility and breathability because despite all the glue and so on, it's still more breathable than just rubber. Others dislike leather soles intensely because of the lack of grip and the ugly wear that you can get on it. So this is a very clever combination of leather and rubber to give you the best of both worlds. I'll tell you a secret though. I'm not completely sold on it, pardon the pun.  When I wear leather sole boots, I know I'm wearing leather sole boots. I take care. I walk purposefully. These give me a false sense of security because walking on smooth or slippery surfaces, you get the grip of the rubber and then you push off the toe when you walk and it slips. These make me walk funny. But moving past that personal observation, the heel stack I think is leather. It's hard to tell and it could be leatherboard but the edge of it looks like leather fibres. On top of the heel is a leather top lift with a rubber piece mitered into the corner for grip. At the midsole is a white rubber midsole. Now this is Helm's signature white rubber midsole that you see on all of their boots. You can visually recognize a Helm boot quite quickly from that white line. I like it but others don't. Now to me, if you're going to use a rubber midsole which many bootmakers do, don't sort of mark them down for it, you use them for comfort and maybe cost. Well then you might as well make a trademark out of it. It's unique branding. Now the way the uppers are connected to the sole is by the black rapid stitch welter form of construction. You can see my video of the four main types of boot construction up here. But briefly, the upper is lasted and an insole is inserted. Then a midsole is glued on first and then stitched through the uppers, insole and midsole on the inside. An outsole is then glued onto the midsole covering up the black stitch and then rapid stitch through the midsole and the outsole. I think in this case a welt is introduced around the boot and above the rubber midsole before the rapid stitch is applied and that's what gives us this leather welter look. Blake rapid stitch is more water resistant than just plain Blake stitching because of the use of the midsole where in Blake stitching the midsole is basically the outsole and the stitches go all the way through everything at once. I imagine the use of a welt just improves that. Neither Blake stitching nor Blake rapid stitching is meant to be easily resealable but my cobblest disagrees. This construction should make the boot lighter but in the ZIN, I think the introduction of a leather welt might negate that. It doesn't feel like a particularly light flimsy makeup. It weighs about 900 grams or two pounds which is about average for boots in this style. Inside the boot is a filler to fill the cavity caused by the thickness of the uppers and the welt around the insole. Their website does not say what that filler is so I'm going to assume it's not cork. There is a shank and again they don't say what it is but because of the weight I'm going to guess that it's probably composite or fibreglass something like that. Staying inside there's a leather and foam back comfort sock liner that runs the full length of the boot. The foam is actually quite plush and it really feels soft and comfortable. Another notable point. At the heel, I just don't know if you're going to see this they print a seasonal quote like naming their boots after their business family members this is another nice touch. They say all truly great thoughts are conceived while walking. By the time you get yours it will say something different.  It's really soft and comfortable even against a thin sock. Now to the uppers. Each color of the zin may be made in leather from different tannries but this black leather is Balthazar leather from B Leather tannery in the Dominican Republic. Now I don't know much about B Leather but they seem to be a family tannery that's been around since 1940. Their processes seem to be as environmentally protective as possible and they run corporate social responsibility programs so pretty good. Balthazar leather is their full grain wax leather. It is hot stuffed in that they push waxes and oils into the leather so that it retains some self-curing attributes and remains oily and supple. It is veg tann though not combination tann so if you're thinking of chrome excel it isn't. It's less oily to the touch more I don't know how to describe it more rubbery to the touch rather than soft and supple I don't mean that in a bad way but I'm not a fan of this leather don't get me wrong I think it's good quality I can see the full grain it's over 2mm thick and so far it's been durable and resistant to nicks and scratches in my everyday wear it's actually feel supple but it feels supportive but you know I'm not going to push my face into it and smell it like chrome excel the pattern is pretty simple one vamp piece, two quarters and a single back strip that falls into the pool loop the toes are lightly structured and there's an internal heel counter covered inside by the lining and kept in the pocket by the stitching in the outsole to me they feel like celastic composite I can't fault the clicking cutting or stitching everything is in place and for a handmade boot yes I know there are sewing machines involved for a hand guided boot the construction is very neat and all aligned the edge of the collar and the lace facings are cut leather, they're not rolled and the tongue is gusseted up to the third eyelet another nice touch so it helps with water and dirt and tongue doesn't slip around now talking eyelets there are seven antique brass eyelets and no speed hooks I don't mind the lack of speed hooks necessarily and they do reinforce that kind of dressy look but getting them laced up quickly is not a thing now overall the materials used and the construction processes and the quality control are pretty good as for leather care I treat them as dress boots except that in my five months experience I haven't really been able to put a good shine on these boots but start at the beginning now definitely my rule number one brush them regularly to keep them dirt and dust free use a fine horsehair brush to not only remove dirt and dust but also to warm up the leather and to help move the waxes around on the inside when they do need conditioning B Leather recommends black rock, leather and rich now I've never tried that and I used Venetian shoe cream on this with I think good effect as I said it doesn't take a shine though and I've used a smear of both neutral and black wax polish and while it cleans it up it really comes out as a sheen rather than a shine being black boots if when you first get them you feel the leather is a bit difficult to break in which it might be you can use a mink oil on them to soften them being black you're not going to really darken them and that's a clue as to breaking I did find the new leather quite tough they didn't bend and flex quickly in the shaft and the collar cut into my ankles the outside of the balls of my feet were not very supple at the beginning and I didn't feel that they stretched as easily as say chromic cell so breaking was hard not brutal, no blisters but it was hard funny because that was around the uppers underfoot the comfort was immediate anyway after 5 months the collar is still stiff but the uppers have become quite comfortable some people will hate all the rubber and foam in the sole rather than the traditional leather and cork but I honestly don't mind these are comfortable underfoot and so far they haven't broken down or anything as for sizing their website for the size says they are true to size I don't agree my true size on a brand new device is a US 8.5 in D width these are US 8 in standard width and they fit me very well the slimmed almond toe box did present some problems in being too snug for my little toes at the beginning but if I'd taken a larger size I think I would be tripping over my toes because they're quite long and get in the way if they were too big Helm's website does give you a pretty cool fit predictor where you enter a common boot brand and size that you wear and it works out what size you should order in using my Thursday captain and my red wing iron ranger sizes I was recommended an 8D in the ZIN so half down from true and not really true to size as I said at the start I was given these boots for a review on the website as at recording this they are listed at US $295 so they fall into that lower than mid range 300 to 400 category they compare in price to a Thursday president at $200 and a Thursday made in USA vanguard with Halloween leathers at $265 Thursday even at those prices or probably because of those prices can be a bit hit and miss in their QC I think red wing iron rangers totally different style I know are still at around $300 but they make a gazillion a year so they get cheaper per unit manufactured new entrant Caswell boots sell for over 300 with their interesting and more renowned Halloween stead and Seidel leathers so they do compare in good company based on that competition and the quality I think they are pretty good value at $295 not much more though just good value would I buy them if I hadn't been given them straight answer no but not because I think they're poor quality or that they are poor value at the price no my answer is based on my own style and aesthetics preferences I tend to like a clearer participant in the service boot world for my casual boots these don't do it for me aesthetically because they're too clean if you get what I mean if I do dress up particularly in a suit and I look for a black or a dark boot I wear my R.M. Williams black yearling craftsman or my Thursday dark oak wing tips those appeal to my dress sense form growing up in the late 70s and the 80s where you wore suits and 3P suits at that if you like their aesthetic and by the way Nick at Stridewise clearly does because he calls these black zines his favourite and most versatile black boots but if you like their style at that quality and at that price you should take a look at them the link is in the description below in summary the Helms Inn is a sleek dressy boot with some quirky brand features like the white midsole stripe and the half leather part rubber outsole they are made well and will appeal to those looking for a dressier boot on the con side I'm not a fan of the Balthasar leather and I did find them difficult to break in and that leather toe tip in the sole is annoying when I walk now you know what to do if you're still here click on the like and the subscribe buttons and help me grow my channel I have a new quarters worth of ideas for boots and boot related videos coming up over the next 3 months so you don't want to miss them click on subscribe and then take care and until next time I'll see you soon


Wow, I just walked through a giant spider web Welcome back to the channel. It's time to let these chickens out y'all All right, ladies Go on out do your thing eat them bugs Don't get in my plants Getting in my plants getting in getting in mama's plants. I'm gonna get in trouble now. Come on Come on now Margaret. You know better than that Go run around eat the bugs Here they go I figured it is high time y'all That we just do a home vlog Because we have a new addition in the family first things first. I Just need to thank you guys for all your prayers and support Baby Ben. He is a healthy beautiful little baby boy and he's He's back actually past his birth weight now and Mom is doing good as well. So she is back to where she can start driving again. She can she can't really lift Anything it's been kind of difficult. Amy's always like wanting her to hold holder So I've been at the house helping with the dual children Situation so I'm just gonna walk you guys through what it's like in in my life right now So first we call him with a new baby. All is always rough and my schedule Has been I was getting up at 3 a.m. I would go to bed at 9 and get up at 3 And take care of Ben from like 3 to 7 a.m.  It's it's pretty crazy How right off the bat we could tell that he his behavior is definitely different than Amy's Amy came out of the gate Swinging she's never stopped moving to this day I've been calling Ben sluggo and her turbo because they're just completely opposite the way they were when they were babies But it's actually a lot more work Taking care of Amy and watching Amy Around Ben then it is taking care of Ben because after you feed him he pretty much just goes to sleep And there's really not a whole lot to it. He doesn't cry a whole lot. He's just a good baby So after I get done taking care of Ben in the morning steps up and she's taking care of Amy and Ben Then I move on to chicken care So I go out I let the chickens outside and I let them forage around in the yard for about 30 minutes to an hour Usually about midday Amy comes outside She starts running around if she's not at school or dance class or something like that Which is another thing that I've been doing since I've been at home for these last week as I've taken Amy to school Something I've never even done before it's always been Stephanie while I'm while I'm out So, you know just being being a stay-at-home dad this This last 10 days New experience OSG cooking up something in the kitchen cooking up something delish you can always find me in here. I Love this is gonna sound Sexist but I love seeing you here in the kitchen. Just gets me excited in the morning. Well, you know what? I love to make you happy. So if this makes you happy food makes me happy. I'm a very easy man, please speaking of food Leftovers, you know yesterday last night. This is this is what we do We put them in our chicken bucket basket thing as we call it and we take them outside to the chickens That's our egg collection basket. I start my morning with a heavy dose of Espresso tar Get things going and this is where we collect the eggs. Oh, and someone sent us flowers yesterday Who'd you say this is from? From Gateway Church Got some we got some followers at the Gateway Church. Thank you guys very very much for sending that those are pretty. Those are very fall That's it. I've never seen Those are like straight from the fields I mean it looks like a pheasant or a quail should be flying on that thing I got Stephanie some Harry Potter socks and Pumpkin spice candle, are you wearing the Harry Potter socks right now? Did you play in that? No, I did not this that was my post pregnancy gift We're on a budget here socks and a candle, but you told me that you wanted to watch Harry Potter You need to go potting okay, and there goes the tornado And that's typically how it goes y'all so the eggs so the eggs can burn you gotta gotta watch out By the way, I have not done a at-home vlog and a long time Mainly because it's so chaotic in here, and I know a lot of you just you know You don't really care you just want to see fishing or hunting or whatever it is But I know some of you do so let me know in the comments if you want to see more stuff at home I feel like we used to film a lot more at home and it was simpler times having two kids now It's like having two fish on the line the same time you got two rods, and you're like trying to battle them both Same time so it is It's a mission. It's a mission that we we take on every day and stuff is the commanding officer that mission It's like hey, I'll take this when you take that one lot of tag teaming this week And I've watched any more than I ever have yeah because she is so She's so high-energy. She needs attention all the time. She's got to be into something and What we didn't want to happen was you know focusing on baby been all the time, and then she gets a little jealous So I've been spending a lot of time with her. What's your favorite show on TV? Baby Tots baby Tots. What's your favorite game to play? Hide-and-seek yeah, you love hide-and-seek. What's your favorite food? Carrots I thought it was gonna be strawberries Yeah, we're mac and cheese, and do you like baby been? And that is what we call a zone out right there mid-morning zone out love it actually love to see that Oh there she goes pop back up and Chickens are back in the front yard. They're probably about to get in the garden So I'm going to go out here and distract them with some food Come on now Like a herd of raptors Coming in All right, you know what to do. We'll open the door Head on in strawberry tops Are one of their favorites? Just leave the whole leaves and everything on there, and they'll actually clean everything up See if we got anybody in here. We've got two eggs already this morning Girls are doing good work. Now this one right here is carrot She's a gold lace wine dot and she's typically the last to go in She just will not Be captured and wine dots are a little different in that they Don't have to be around the other chickens. They're sort of loners So she can just be off by herself and be fine Whereas the other chickens they like to stay in the flock. They like to know where everyone is She don't care. She is like the social outlier the loner the lone wolf If you will silver bullets gnarly right now, too absolutely gnarly I've actually been fishing one time since baby Ben was born and it was Just a few days ago to go do some product testing went to one of our favorite places.   This is another one I'm really excited about we literally every time that we've tested these we've gone through all of the samples just catching tons of fish, but this is going to be the blazing worm and All of these colors right here were different Consistencies in plastic and we've gone through about three or four different trials of Consistencies and then tail designs and everything like that and we finally have have come to a conclusion on the consistency and The tail and everything like that and are happy with it and then we also got some other Terminal stuff that we were testing That is turned out pretty good. So We got a lot of stuff coming down the pike. It's about time to go fishing again y'all. So I've got a tournament this This coming weekend another team tournament if you guys Missed it. I did a team tournament with a few other guys in the in the Guggen squad and We filmed that whole series. We filmed the practice film the tournament and all that so down to the dirty deets So you can go watch that on the Guggen squad channel We're gonna be doing the same thing on the tournament this weekend and we've got one more in November so it's a three tournament series and You know, we're recovering it all from practice to the scales So I'm excited to get back in the game y'all. I spend I've spent a lot of time in my tackle cave Looking at tackle thinking about Fishing finally got to put my hands on some fish play around with some lures As long as I'm around Fishing stuff in general. I'm happy. I don't always have to be out on the water But I just gotta be in there just gotta be in the mix You know at least talking about tackle talking about the dangle with somebody some of you so enough about me Let's go inside and Check on the baby boy Someone hiding for me. It's her favorite game to play.  She loves to trick me.  Let's go to the lake. Yeah naps Don't exist. Yeah, it's just not something in In her world That happens They barely exist in this world Yeah Yeah, you don't take naps anymore either Do you? About as fussy as Ben gets right here. Yeah, this is About you know an eight on the fuss level for him just little grunts Some grumbles But the main challenge that I was telling them is like just containing her with Him that's why it's a tag team. I take baby Ben. You take any I was gonna leave this weekend and I decided it might be a little premature to go down to the deer lease I need to need to be here to To uh wrangle this one up a little bit Yeah Just like rough housing But I think you can handle it. I think so this one's so easy I mean he goes down for a nap for two hours every two hours. He wakes up needs type change feeding goes back down That's basically Ben's life right now I can handle that Is it time for hide and seek? Well, I can't go hide if you're hanging on me If you're hanging on my neck Now do it Okay, all right, you count to ten close your eyes Stay right there. So So this is my Saturdays now I'm coming here bathroom curtain Oh, you were gonna do it. Well, you found me emotions, um girls versus boys Different level different level of emotions You feel better now? You gotta cry now Okay, we'll try again. We're gonna go hide then. I gotta show you guys something I gotta I gotta new deer. I need to show you guys He found me Usually go in here when I really need to get away Anna. Oh, no She wanted me to open it. Take a move. Mama found me I've maybe been smiling Are you just happy to be here with the fam? Smiling a little bud. You in a happy mood? You in a happy mood? There you are. Goodness gracious. You were tall. You were so tall Are you the tallest in your class? Yeah, you're gonna be that like awkward tall girl in high school That you know, none of the boys want to date because you're so tall and then And then later in life when you're like 40 and you can start dating around Now I'm looking forward to that, but she she is in the 90th percentile of heights. I think she's gonna be She's definitely gonna be taller stuff. She might be taller than me I am just under six foot Hold you. Okay Oh goodness. Oh goodness So when I am not uh, when I'm not in the woods and not on the water, this this is what I'm doing And it has been good, um to basically have You know a week and a half just here at the house bonding Anyway, it's been good to spend, you know over a week here with you guys just kind of Bonding we've loved having you I think this is the most we've had you home in probably the last two years I am definitely more sympathetic to you now Being with the daily emotions of of emmy, but honestly, he's been a little angel. He really has He's just going around going along with the flow. He's like, I'm just I'm just here I'm just here. It was funny before he was born. I was I was I had an intuition that he was gonna be calmer And be like the yang to the yin And it seems to be that way so far So if we would have had another emmy out of the gate, I would have I would have been like stressed out But honestly Like if you would have been our first I would have been like let's at four or five And after emmy we were like, I don't know. Maybe let's travel and see what happened. I finally got unibrow back Unibrow was the deer that uh, I ended up Getting last year. I was trying to hunt a different deer called the pond deer He's always hanging around the pond and I ended up Uh, just finding this deer like once or twice on camera. I had footage of him Just just a few times like coming through the frame never really had any good trail cam pics of him Um, but he just randomly showed up. He was all Spawned out, you know, he was uh worn out from the rut But he uh, he came out just just for a minute right at the end of the day And uh, I ended up getting the old 308 On him and man just a cool deer. Um Try to put him on this big old crack right here to cover it up He's almost so pretty. You don't even see the crack anymore But just a really unique deer. He's he's right at 140 inches low fence Central Texas deer, you know, uh hill country deer not known for being giants But he's just really cool. So he's on the wall of white dales Got old Herschel over here with the drop time Got an Oklahoma deer that uh, actually he he dropped he he experienced a full drop down the stairs He still looks okay. And uh, this guy's just super cool. Look how his brow time almost connects Fully to his other brow time. Who could that be? It's him me Oh my goodness Amy girl Okay, can you tell me which deer is your favorite? The brown one Wonder which one that is Just a dog. She's either a uh a dog or a bird Um, just kind of depends all the day your dog right now Okay, a little walkabout. We got the setup here It's been a while since so I've had to do this all of a sudden when I put baby ben in there She's like that's my stroller. Oh, she wants to get in it. She wanted to get in here So she got in the front and she was hanging onto the bar. So I was pushing 60 plus pounds Whoo, you're looking good. I'm sweaty looking good You know just Popped a baby out like 10 days ago She's been asking to go camping. I think we're all ready for We're all ready. Do you think we can go do it right now? Like I think everyone wants to see some family camping videos I think we could probably do it. Especially with the camper The only thing is with that's why we got that camper so you could have these two hours It just be you know, I have to be up every two hours anyways in the middle of the night So it's really up to you and Amy What do you think about just coming to your camp for a little while? I go hunt and then you take care of the kids Too extreme thought I'd try it You need a popsicle to cool you down. Do you think Emmy could Chill in the deer blind with you? Absolutely not Absolutely not baby Ben we could get away with Uh you Emmy do you think you could sit still for more than 30 minutes? You think so There's no way she's never stopped moving Since the day she was born. You'd be a good elk hunter always on the move But speaking of hunting and exercising I Do have an elk hunt lined up you guys that I am super excited about Um going with my buddy outlaw and mullet man. We've had it planned Uh ever since he was conceived really So I am going to go elk hunting and I I don't know how much I'm going to get to go whitetail hunting Uh, I've definitely got the bug for it right now And I mean she can tell you I talk about it every day and I have been uh, I've been training every day That is a nice thing about being home is I've gotten into a routine where I'm just uh, I'm training every day I just like to work out just enough to stay dangerous in the woods That's that's about where I'm at. You know middle-aged dad bod former athlete And uh, just enough to stay dangerous in the woods. That's what it's all about for me I've got a bunch of different packs, but this one right here. I just keep Uh stuff in it including a weighted blanket, which is uh, I think like a 20 pound weighted blanket And then other stuff in here. So this pack is Probably 25 to 30 pounds. It's about what you would do on a you know, regular four or five day Mountain hunt or elk hunt and I'll just walk with the kettlebell I'll go, you know, a mile or so and do these Different alternating exercises including the lunges I'll carry it on each arm for two minutes tricep press I'll stop. I'll do push-ups With the pack the other thing I'll do for chest and Ab exercises. I'll use my rings I got rings set up here super cheap Super cheap setup. I've got the bike over here. I'll ride the hills with it I feel like getting a lot of exercise. I'll just turn the battery portion off. So it's nothing extreme But I just found like doing Something every day. I just feel really good, you know keeps me ready keeps me edgy and when it's really hot during the day I can actually shoot my bow under here For shorter ranges And it's really comfortable and the thing that I've tried to get better at This year Is judging distances on my own, you know, what I realized after a couple seasons elk hunting is the ability to know yardages quickly And not have to Really range that much. I mean if you're going to make a long shot and you've got a lot of cover You've got the opportunity Obviously you make sure you've got Your range dialed but what I'm trying to do is get really comfortable where I just know that deer is Or right about 35 yards or you know that that deer is 30 yards. I don't even need I don't even need to range. I've got it. It's got a couple seconds You know Where I just I feel confident in taking the shot without even picking up my range finder Dead deer So one of the things I've been practicing is just going to the side here and going And then when I stop I settle in for a couple seconds And take the shot so Then I take the shot Because last year I was just moving And then that momentum kind of carried my arrow forward. I was freaking out. So Just moving and then stop Settle in anchor in I'm getting one the shoe back. Yes you are. I'm getting one That is an unlucky bucky right there Two lungs and a heart This back porch could be a country song right now Back porch mama and the two kids sitting next to the bass boat and the grill with the fan on On a hot sundry night I just made that up Anybody wants to license it from me Hit me up So this is our life now My hallowed is uh evolved Since the beginnings of of the youtube's and one of these days these little tots are going to be Both out there in the woods and on the boat with me Amy is just starting to get into fishing She's just patient enough To go do it. I only take her when she asks to go. I don't I don't like Forced her to go or anything, you know Not trying to make the next Childhood fishing youtuber I'm just very Blessed y'all to get to work for an outdoor company still make these videos for you guys And just have a great happy healthy family here. So thank you for all your support and We'll have some more videos coming soon.  Just been so crazy around here But I figured I would just document a little bit of what's going on.  See you


I'm going to talk a bit about Multi-Arch. I've been doing this as my master's degree this spring. So we actually now have it quite a bit further than we had when I gave a bit of the same talk a year ago in Port-Port-Legra. So, okay. We'll start with, basically, this is what I'm going to talk about. What Multi-Arch is, a new and scary and exciting feature of the package, which Scott, who might be in the room, has backed out. Why Multi-Arch? Because it appears that not everybody thinks Multi-Arch is a good idea. And why not Multi-Arch, which probably addresses some of those concerns, and a bit about how to do it in the context of Debian. What the current state is, because we actually have a current state now, like a year ago, and some questions and hopefully some answers at the end. Multi-Arch is having programs for multiple architectures installed on your system and working at the same time. It means that if you're on AMD64, which will be by far the most common use case, you can have a 32-bit web browser with flash plugins, if you so deserve, while still running BNLS as a 64-bit program, if you want to do that. In Debian, we're probably not going to make every package Multi-Arch, because doing that would mean making loads and loads and loads of changes, and it doesn't really make any sense to be able to have both a BNLS as a 32-bit and a 64-bit program at the same time, or does it make any sense to do that for said or anything which does not have a binary interface? So the scope is... Oh, there it actually worked. So the scope is to have this Multi-Arch just for library packages, so you can install programs, but most programs won't have an interest in being co-installable. Some exceptions exist, such as GCC or possibly Perl and stuff which uses plugins. Multi-Arch consists of two parts. It consists of a file here, standard or policy or whatever, and it consists of a package system implementation. The first, we've discussed a bit, you end up with something resembling this, where you'll have all your i386 Linux libraries in i386 Linux. You'll have your include files in i386 Linux. User includes i386 Linux, sorry. The other part of this is getting the package to actually understand that those packages which you install are quite but not exactly the same, and as we know, the package can't have multiple packages with the same name installed at the same time. RPM can do that, which I think is a very bad idea the way they've done it, but that's another discussion. So the package needs to actually know that those two packages can be installed at the same time, and they have different architectures, and they know that they will be co-installable, which you'll tell them by using a Multi-Arch colon yes field and the system in the control file of the package. A little bit about the package feature dependencies. This is a feature which Scott has been talking about a bit. It's a bit scary because it changes lots and lots of assumptions. The main reason for doing something like this is once we have loads of derivatives and suddenly you don't have a timeline where you have a version which is less than something, you suddenly have the possibility that a feature is fixed or introduced in, say, some version in Debian, another version in Ubuntu, and a third version in Progeny. So you can't really have, depends on something bigger than that version because it doesn't make any sense. So this is a proposal. There's no code for this yet, but this might be the way it will be done, where you can actually say, okay, this package needs those features from DebHelper. We saw this as part of some of the backports from, if you wanted to build OpenOffice on Woody. You actually had hacked buildDepends in the OpenOffice package to buildDepend either on this particular backported package or anything bigger than this version, which obviously doesn't scale at all. It also includes system-provided packages, so libc6 will depend on a magic i386 Linux package or it will depend on system on i386 and Linux, on i386 Linux, obviously. On AMD64 it will be AMD64 and Linux and so on. The last part here, where it talks about what the package SHLabs will be doing, that's probably the syntax which will end up in capital Debian slash control. Most people will never see that unless you actually tear apart a web file by hand or you go into the build directory and look at what the heck is going on there. This has a certain amount of complexity, which probably isn't so good, but at the same time we've discussed this and we ended up, first we had an implementation which only did multi-arch and Scott, who is the current Deep Hatch maintainer, didn't want to just add yet another feature, he wanted to generalize it a bit and this makes multi-arch a lot easier. It means you can actually say that... I'm just concerned that the features mechanism also has scalability issues. Yes, it probably has. You can't have features for everything and you could foresee, for example, that you had a feature every time you fixed a bug, so a package could say, okay, I need a dev helper with those bugs fixed where you would end up with a feature line from here to hell and back. No, we're outside hell. Just speak up and I'll repeat it. In some measures, dependency solvers for RPM, there are at least three out there and part of the reason dependency solvers for RPM are such hell to deal with is because Red Hat has at least three different kinds of dependency. They have package version dependencies like we do. They also have feature dependencies and then they have a third kind, which I can't remember. File dependencies, that's right. This turns out to be really hellish for problem solvers like the one we have in Act and I just wanted to build upon BDEL's concern by being a little more specific. Yeah, it's a comment from Ran about having multiple ways to specify the pants as problematic for problem resolve or package a relationship to resolve a search that's apt. I'm saying it's not a theory. One question. The real world actually sees this in RPM. Yeah. Sorry, Abba. There is no court talk. If there is a court talk, then it's hard to ask, but there's just a set of reasons, though. If you're also doing, say, for example, a package that's on AMG64 only, you'll just list, but it's still, let's say, I386. Or can it say list I46 if it's only applicable for I386 or Pentium or things like that? It hasn't been decided whether this will actually support sub-architectures such as I486, I586 and so on. It's certainly a possibility, yes, but so far the main interest has been around not just architectures, which are different enough that you can't mix them freely, which you more or less can if you have the right CPU for, say, you have an I386, then you can run any I586 package. So the main interest hasn't been in optimizing everything, because it appears that even though some people claim you get loads of performance increase in practice, in most cases you don't. So it's only interesting for a very, very small number of packages. Like LibC, where you just have LibC-I386. Okay, why mult dodge? This is adding a lot of complexity to the system. It's adding complexity to the factory solver. It's adding complexity to the file system. It's adding complexity, more or less, everywhere.  We have some small, non-portable programs, open-office.org. ExperienceMind, which more or less causes the creation of IA32 Libs, which is now more or less the biggest source package in that bin, because it includes the source code of GCC295, GCC3.0, GCC3.3, and LibChillib CX386, and some other small packages, which is obviously not a very good thing, and it means doing security support for those is less than ideal. Please wait until you get the mic. There's a lot of people here who weren't there during the last talk, and I said this also. But if you're going to ask a question, please wait until the moderator comes with the microphone, and please sit on the recording as well. The reason for having an open-office like this is, of course, that open-office for some insane reason includes assembly code to do its own C++ object thingy, which is totally insane to have in a very processor, but it's there, so... This is the reason why we don't have open-office on all our architectures yet, more or less. It's interesting for embedded development and cross-completion, because then you can suddenly install...  It means that you can do the same thing with if you're on PowerPC, but you want to use an i3-8.6 program, you can just use QMU, and it can actually hook into the packaging system, so your packaging system knows that, okay, I have QMU installed, I can actually run and install i3-8.6 binaries, which is kind of cool. I'm sorry, this microphone thing is completely unworkable. The question, if I can remember what I asked was, has anybody actually done that, or is it just theoretical? The framework for doing it is there. I haven't actually tested it, both because I don't have a PowerPC system which runs at more than a sales pace, and because it's not my main interest, but yeah, certainly the framework is actually there. Proprietary plugins and software, we can try to ignore it, we can try to make it go away, and hopefully it will. But at the same time, people are using Flash, people need Java, where you now have Java on lots of platforms, but not everywhere. In some cases, people actually do have to use proprietary plugins and software which only exist for, say, i3-8.6 Linux. It's also another point which I forgot here is for some ports like the mythical i3-8.6 NetBSD, Debian NetBSD, it can just have the base as i3-8.6 NetBSD, REST is compact. So you actually just install the regular, your regular game or whatever, and you don't have to have a parts debinorg with 20 gigs of NetBSD software which nobody uses because the port has three users. And also, of course, because we can, it's cool, it's elegant, it's a lot more elegant than the current solutions, which are a mix of using lib64, stuffing stuff into mule i3-8.2 Linux and having some magic code support for accessing that instead of regular slash if this is a 32-bit program. I can see BDL is trickling here. It's a really gross hack. So I had a couple comments. One was to address BDL's concern. I think there's some additional infrastructure that's needed because one of the things you can think about is you could potentially have software emulators for a whole bunch of different architectures and you could have one system that has four or five of them installed and you would need to determine what your priority was going to be about when you wanted to run things. You have to decide, say you're using apt or aptitude or something to install packages, you need to decide which one you want to install by default and set up some preferences to determine if it's available on this architecture I want to otherwise use this architecture, otherwise use this architecture, that kind of thing. He said, do we really want to solve this problem, do we want to live in that world because it gets horribly complex. And then one other comment about why multi-arch, most of the things that you pointed out are very useful for people who are on non-I386 because that's where the world is and it's very useful if you're on a non-I386 platform to be able to run some of these other things through emulation. But the other thing that this will eventually buy us is the ability to migrate architectures. And so maybe someday we can eventually get away from I386 if we have the ability to have a long-term transition between one from the other. You can have these binary packages installed. You can still rely on all this old stuff for a long time and maybe eventually move off of it. So why not multi-arch? It's a lot of complexity. Yeah, it absolutely is. But so is maintaining I32 Labs, which I have been doing together with VDEL for a while. It includes evil stuff like diversions. It includes stuffing sim links where they shouldn't go, breaking the FHS once in a while or all the time. And I don't even want to think about the security implications because I32 Labs is most likely, it probably should have a couple of great security bugs against it because the source code and binaries aren't updated once there's a new security release, which would mean somebody would have to do a new I32 Labs upload every time somebody did an X or Lib C or some other small package security advisory, which happens a couple of times in the release cycle. We need to change some core stuff. We need to change the package and together with the package aptitude, everything which knows what a package dependency looks like, basically, which is a fair amount. It also includes a fair amount of user interface problems like Matt Taggart was talking about, how on Earth is the user supposed to actually be able to tell the system that I want this and navigate this some useful way because some way if you have support for five different architectures, you don't have the ability to install 20 or 15,000 packages, you have the ability to install five times as many with fun stuff like dependency across architectures because in some cases you can have an architecture-specific tab, like said, which you can replace with... It doesn't matter whether you're running an AMD64 I386 set because it has only a text interface, but the packaging system has to actually know this and try to decide or give the user the option to decide on which one he wants. The tool chain needs to change. GCC4 was fixed last night to actually do... By arch, it now selects user-include I386 Linux or MD64 Linux based on whether you pass M64 or M32 to it. Gileb-C, the patch is there. It was supposed to be in search. I don't think that upload ever happened or at least I haven't seen the bug been closed, so I think it's all missing there. Benyotels needs some changes. What's amazing about those changes though is that I did this as part of my... Just a second, Brian. As part of my master thesis, as I said, and all this software has been patched so many times that there's actually no original source code left. It's all patches, which makes it even easier to patch again. The patches for Benyotels, for instance, is less than 10 lines. Patch for GCC is on the same scale. It's actually very small changes. It's just that they're there. Brian. To get back to something you were covering earlier about what you just mentioned again, which reminded me, you said we have architecture OS-specific sub-directories of UserLib that I understand because there are ELF objects in there. Could you explain why we also need them for a user include? Because header files I've seen generally have... use the CP processor to determine what architecture they're dealing with. So in principle, you shouldn't need different header files for different architectures, should you? In theory, you shouldn't, but in practice you often do. Because what you have is stuff like... In some cases, config.h, which is generated by Autocon, gets included into the included tree, stuff like that. So basically, the only cause of not having a user include ArchOS is you save a bit of hard drive space and potentially you get a lot of headaches instead. I've been spoiled by iMAKE. I forgot about Autocon. The last thing, which is kind of covered by the first one as well, but DAC, KT, FTP, Debin, org, all scripts which touches that needs to actually change to understand any changes in the pan syntax. I'll be showing, or I'll actually show that up here. To address Brandon's concern, if you do have header files that are arch-independent, they can still go on us or include, which will be fine, and that's kind of nice, because that way... So ideally, you would push everybody to try and make everything FTF so that it would work properly, and then in the rare cases where they don't, then you put it in the other place. Yeah, we're not ripping out any support. It's very important to actually preserve backwards compatibility, which is one of the reasons why we're just adding stuff onto the dependencies and so on, instead of removing anything, because we need to preserve the meaning of the fields as they are today. So if you have a deb, which we're just semantic of the dependency fields, means it's something today. It needs to be the same in a multi-arch world. If not, you can suddenly install a libc6 on your AMD64 system, but this libc is for i386, and naturally everything breaks down, which is very bad. A lot of this complexity seems to come from the modification of the developer packages and to support cross-compilation to different architectures. Wouldn't that... I mean, I can see possible, slightly, cludgy but much more localized changes that you could do to make it work at runtime only, and that might be a lot simpler. The main, or the biggest complexity is actually in the package and handling the dependencies and getting those things right. That's much harder than the file system. The file system layout is easy. The file system layout is, like, more or less all interesting software except for X, some other stuff, uses Autocon, which means that, more or less, you pause that double dash, include there, and then live there, and it just works, bearing in a bug, so of course. It actually has a built-in search path for stuff like the CRT.o. Exactly. That's the compile time stuff. If you decided that you didn't need it to work for cross-compiling and you just wanted it to work for executing things, then you wouldn't need to patch all of that other stuff. Well, you would actually have to do that because you need to... You can't reliably move a shared object after it has been compiled or after it has been told where it's installed. You could make the dynamic linker sort it out. Yeah, that's nice theory, except that you break it with DL Open, you break it with lib tool. There are lots of stuff which breaks on that assumption. Try moving .LA file once, and you'll see it break in spectacular ways, trust me, or ask Keyback. Well, I've not been changing the source code to LD.so. I have. Right now, I mean, if you want it to... If you change LD.so, which is where all the dynamic linking happens to look in a different place, then it'll look in a different place, and everything will look in that different place. Yeah, but you still have to actually have a way to decide whether... So you can install... Say you can install a... You could then say that the package puts its sem link in your celeb, which points to just a lib i386 Linux, whatever, and you would still have the problem of what then happens if you try to actually install for both... If you install lib foo for i386 and lib bar for AMD64, and you compile something, trying to... You'd have to have some kind of thing to convert the package. That wouldn't be very hard. Sorry? You'd have to convert the package, either convert the .deb to move the files about, or you could have it done in solder. Anyway, this is all getting a bit out of hand. Yeah, actually getting the file system right is not the hard part. It's the package. That's how the... Until somebody fixes Autoconf to actually pass those default paths, that's more or less pass that to Autoconf, and it does the right thing. The other thing we need to do is split packages, which is not so fun, because we'll end up with lots of dash-common and dash-dev-common packages because at the moment we don't have a... There's no way that multiple packages can provide the same file. So we're adding a small hack to the package where it can... If you have two packages which provide the same file and it's assembling to the same place, then it's just ref-counted just like the directory today. So you end up with a... Any lib package will have user.libfoo or libfoo.zero link to user.share. doc.libfoo.zero-common, which includes the copyright and all that stuff, which actually needs to go into the package. That's a hack, but it's the smallest hack we could actually find to do, and we have to provide copyright information and documentation for obvious reasons. The current status. In Deben we have... The tool chain is more or less ready. The maintainers are already fixing their packages or they have accepted that. They'll have to fix their packages at least. Patches are available and it works quite well. I've been running a system with both some multi-arch and some non-multi-arch binaries for more or less the whole spring and so far haven't really run into any big problems. Upstream, LSB, FHS, they have a bit of interest in it, but it's mostly along the lines of, yeah, we'll see what Deben does and whether it actually just blows up in spectacular ways or if it actually ends up being very, very nice and useful. I think and hope we'll end up with a nice and useful and everybody will follow this because at the moment, using stuff like just Lib64, it breaks down once you pause to two different architectures, which you in some cases do on, especially once you do stuff like Deben at BSD or... Deben at BSD and D64 will be able to run like five or six different ABIs. So... Oh, sorry. Questions? You're already asking. What do you... Spark is currently a 32-bit for most packages with a few packages having both 32 and 64-bit binaries. Have you considered what... or is anybody looking into what multi-arch... what Spark and multi-arch should do? As far... I don't know Spark very well, but as far as I've understood, it doesn't really make any sense to run everything at 64-bit because 64-bit is by far slower in most cases. So basically what you would end up is having... for the packages where it makes sense, you have Spark 64 architecture and you provide those, but it doesn't have to be a full port or anything like that. So multi-arch here is you can... we can use 100 years or 10 releases or whatever comes first on doing the transition. So we can actually... there's... as long as you have the core support in ld.so and libc and so on, you actually don't have to have... you can change your libraries at a pace and the order actually which you want to. So I would just see Spark as having a Spark 64 port, which just included some small stuff such as libc and PostgreSQL and some other stuff which makes sense to have 64-bit versions of. Okay, so my question is, as far as I understood multi-arch is still... at the moment when I started to turn Debian, multi-arch was already to be implemented in the next days. So that's for me the status of multi-arch as far as I can see. And my question is now, when will multi-arch become real in your opinion? When it will become... When will multi-arch be just something normal that we are going to use every day? So do you suppose that we will do that for edge? For edge plus one, edge plus two? When will that happen? And how probably do you think that your expectations will be met? Well, I need to actually check whether the base support went into search because what we have here is it would be very, very bad if you upgraded your system and stuff started to break. So this will probably have to go across two of these cycles, where we first upgrade support into the base stuff before we actually start moving files into the correct directories. Or they'll at least have to depend on the proper version of libcs because it's an SS-slips change. So I'm not sure you can actually do it because of the package. So because you're changing the syntax of the pants field. And so older deep packages. I need to test whether they just go blah, or whether they do something sensible, saying blah, blah, doesn't really understand this, but we'll try to go on as best as we can. So depending on what happens there, I think we actually need support in deep package and app and everything before we can start using the syntax in control files. At the same time, that's kind of, it's kind of independent of moving the libraries in the file system because what you will have if you just move the shared objects, they'll all be in the right places and stuff will look in the correct place and so on, but you won't be able to install the .apps yourself. You can't install .apps for more than one architecture until you have a deep package which understands it. The question from Bday was whether we could kind of skip through some hacks and just get this done in one release cycle. More questions? So if there are no further questions, thank you for your nice and interesting talk, Tolef. Thanks.