That's why I tell people all the time, if you can talk to somebody before you make a rash decision, talk to somebody. Well listen, when you have now as a black executive producer, how do you go from being the DJ to being the executive producer of Alan, the show and the host? Huh? So you're already, and he's such a good, he was such, he is a good man. Good man. Good family man. So many people love them. So many people. Yeah, so you're like, man, you're trying to put together like algorithms in your head. This don't make no sense. Yeah, we on boss talk one on one, one on one. Yeah, we gon' talk. Think about, even like, we always talk about one person he always bring up and he always brought up Twitch since what happened to Twitch. Yeah, I bring that up a lot. And be like, man, if he had the right people in his life to reach out to him at the right time, he would still be here right now. I'm gonna, let's go backwards. Okay, go ahead. I had one moment, I was on Scandal. I was third season of Scandal, you know. I'm on set and I'll never forget this day. My, one of my dearest friends, Lee Thompson Young, famous Jet Jackson, wow. What you mean, Lee? Me and Lee wrote an amazing movie together. Right. We're boys. He's on Rosalia and Iles. I'm on Scandal.   And so my phone's blowing, I have to go to work at 6.30 in the morning. Okay.  Mm-hmm. And I'm like, man, it's Lee, Mike's. Didn't answer it. Got to work the next day, got to work. And my brother calls me, he goes, Have you hurt? Have you hurt? Wow. I collapsed. Wow. I'm literally on set. I'm in front of the camera. I just collapse, like my body just like let go. Do you know what I'm saying? And I'm like, that's my boy. And you went through the stages of blaming yourself. Yes, because I didn't pick up the phone. It didn't pick up the phone. Yeah. I didn't pick up the freaking phone, man. One time, one time.  And people always feel like, I've heard it so many times, I'm going, we gonna make up tomorrow. We gonna make up next week. What if there's no tomorrow? We good. But people not thinking that way. People always think that, oh, we young, we this, we that. You know what I mean? You really can't wait. You can't wait. You know, and one thing about you, you never know, man. You just never know. So when I, when I seen you, you know, you were one of the people that I watched when, when your friend had passed away, Twitch and you, yeah, you was the one that I kind of gauged that with because I don't really deal with a lot of people. So you got a lot of hate for saying what you, Yes, I did. What you saying? And it was weird, not weird. It was right. How I got the information because I play a lot of golf. Yeah. I golf. So I'm with, I'm with people that, so I'm on the golf course. Playing this 70, my boy just killed himself. It didn't make no sense to me. It made sure. It didn't make no sense for real. I go to the play golf in the morning, country, someone told me. I was like, what? I'm on the way to the golf course. I'm like, what? So I get to the golf course, boom, I'm playing and my head is messed up. I can't even, I'm like, sure. But then boom, somebody's like, hey, is the 70, 90 million-year-old man. White man. Right. Gonna say, is Twitch your friend? You know, you know Twitch? Yeah, is that your friend? This is about 12th hole. Right. Took him all day to get to know me. You know what I'm saying? And then he says, boom, he says, yeah. You know, boom, he starts giving me these bars. All the information of what's going on. So I was like, man. And I was playing whack that day. So I was upset. I'm like, man, I can't even hit the ball, man. Like it was, I was frustrated that day. I was hurt and the facts are the facts because, you know what I'm saying? What Sam did, Sam is FTX, what he did. But I was playing the week before Twitch killed itself. The week before. I played with unanimous. I played with LaVon Davis, Eric. I played with Steph Curry's company, CEO and boom. That's facts. So boom, they told me first. Facts. We was on a course. They was like, man, we getting sued for like, Golden State Warriors getting sued. This is pre-Twitch guys. Golden State Warriors, then the Blaine staff, boom, boom, boom, these guys. Tom Brady, but what's up? Everybody. Everybody. And it's just unfortunate. So you really do believe that that's the reason why that happened? Yeah. Because to me, no matter how much you lose in life, it's just monetarily, and you have your family, you have your kids, you have it. I'm doubling down on that. You can build back up. You understand what I mean? I'm like, you can build back up. Like, why do something? I understand that when you're in depression and when something hits you like that, you're not thinking about family. You're not thinking about anything. That's why I tell people all the time, if you can talk to somebody before you make a rash decision, talk to somebody. Well, listen, when you have now as a black executive producer, how do you go from being the DJ to being the executive producer of Alan, the show and the host? Huh? So you're already, and he's such a good, he was such, he is a good man. Right. Good family man. So many people love him. So many people love him. Yeah, so you're like, man, you're trying to put together like algorithms in your head. This don't make no sense. But what I look on, but what I look on is that, you know, everything happens for, no, that's fine, but everything happens for a reason. And the thing that I see about social media and all of that, hold on, I wanna say this, or this industry, entertainment industry, is the fact that the truth can hurt your career. Okay, so let me stop you right there, sis. Okay. Let me stop you right there. It is, I was just, I'm disappointed, I'm still, I'm hurt, I miss, I miss my, I miss this brother. But we don't give up. No, we don't give up. But that's a different story. That's a different thing. Yeah. And I'm like, why did she, what you were saying was absolutely appropriate. You're saying, why, why didn't he just call me? Exactly. I would have picked up the phone. That was the point of me telling you this Lee story. Yeah, we on boss talk one on one. One on one.