Am I hosting? Am I opening? We didn't talk about who was going to be opening. All right, I'll just go with it. Hey guys.  Just hosting it before we all hit record. My name is Bryce, I'm from Esoteric Atlanta and I'm joined with my co-host today, Emmy and Stephanie. You guys very much know who these ladies are and of course all my channel links to their channels will be down in the description box below. I'm going to try to keep this YouTube even though I'm posting all my videos both on Rumble and YouTube right now. I would suggest again, FYI, before we get to the subject at hand, I have been told and I think this is safe for me to share it. If you are a content creator, you don't have a Rumble channel, please go ahead and create a Rumble channel, okay. There might come a, I don't know when this is going to be of no idea of timelines, but I don't know how long this particular platform will be as it is. So go ahead and get familiar with Rumble guys where I'm going to be probably posting this video on both Rumble and YouTube. Hopefully we'll keep this YouTube friendly. So how are you ladies today? I'm exhausted. If you want to know my honest feelings right now, I just did my first hour workout in a couple of weeks. I was doing a half an hour to 45 minutes because I got a little bit lazy for the last couple of weeks due to other stuff going on.   How are you, Emmy? How's it going over in your neck of the woods? Oh, we're trying to fall into a routine getting going with homeschool and I have very strong willed children who don't want to do anything. So it's been exhausting mentally just trying to get them into a routine. But we're coming along. We're coming along. They're like, this is not why we came to earth, mom. We did not come to earth. Well, I mean, I've shifted what I've been teaching them actually I have incorporated spirituality and spiritual growth into it, meditation. Right now, my seven year old is absolutely fascinated with the pyramids. And I was able to find these really old books from the 70s and 80s. The library was selling them for a dollar a piece and I've got like 10 really old hardcover books about mythology and the pyramids and monolithic structures and all the stuff. And he is just, he even takes his little magnifying glass that we bought to look at fossils. He takes it through the pictures that have the picture stories on it. And he'll look at it, he's like, mom, look at this. What do you think that is? And it's like... He's remembering a past life or he built those. Maybe, I don't know. Maybe he's obsessed with the Titanic too. And I presented him with another version of why it may have sank. And I'm like, what do you think? Do you think it was, do you think it struck an iceberg or do you think this other thing? He's like, I think they sunk it on purpose. I'm like, he's seven, he's seven guys. It's like, what is it? I'm sorry guys, every time I'm in Atlanta my nose runs like crazy. I think it's cause I'm around a lot of... If you're in Atlanta... I think it's better in Connecticut. But I think it's cause I'm around a lot of this. My nose has just been pouring but anyway, I apologize for that. But you know, it's funny, I'm actually, so in the law of one they talk a lot about the pyramids in the law of one. I am trying really hard, I haven't even told you guys, I'm trying really hard to get someone I know who is really smart when it comes to law of one to come on and do an episode with us over all the details of the law of one because in my opinion, our friend Natalie is reading it on her channel. In my opinion, your kids might enjoy some of that. I mean, they might feel a little young for it but they might enjoy some of the perspectives because the law of one really is like a scientific outlook on spirituality and it can be incorporated into any faith, because it's all about polarity, it's all about what we're going through which is kind of what we were gonna, and they do talk about, they talk about the pyramids a lot. From what I understand, basically the entity, the group that's being channeled in the law of one says that they came down to earth to teach people through shapes and ended up backfiring until they called themselves the brothers and sisters of sorrow because they're like, oops, we didn't mean to do that. And so they're trying to help us move into this new density. So I am really, and everything they talk about just makes so much sense with how we're moving up in densities, the polarization of negative to positive, all that kind of stuff. And it does absolutely marry into the yoga philosophy which we're gonna talk a little bit about today with the Shiva Shakti, what is Prakriti, what is Purusha and within the shadow work, some misconceptions that we've been talking off camera about that we see a lot in this, a lot of times in this true their community, not only everybody should do themselves a favor and make a friend who's been awake for like 20 years because they are the people that are gonna keep you on track because they've seen it all. And when people are newly awakened to truth, sometimes they go a little bit delusional and they go a little bit in the opposite direction of where they need to go. And we're seeing it now heavily within the spiritual side of the great awakening which is what I'm mostly interested in. That's my job outside of this is spirituality. That's to me the crux of what's going on right now. And so we were gonna talk about again about the shadow work. We've already talked about this one in one episode and we're gonna talk about it again and what that looks like along with spiritual hygiene and what spiritual hygiene actually really, really, really looks like. There's no get enlightened easy card. There's no easy, no one's gonna do it for you. That's not the point of being a human being which we'll talk about in great detail coming up but where do you ladies wanna start with this? Okay, so I'll just say this off of that. In the law of one in session 93 and in session 66 they talk about consciously working through catalysts. A catalyst is any life experience that causes any kind of discomfort whether it be a small irritation to a huge trigger. Any life lesson is a catalyst. And if you're not consciously and intentionally working through these catalysts on paper, not just thinking about it and mulling it over in your head but writing it down, talking to others, doing specific spiritual routines or if you're not consciously and intentionally working through these life catalysts they're not being learned.  So if you're not taking the time to work through your resentments there is a spiritual teacher named Aaron Abki. He follows law of one. He follows of course in miracles. He has excellent videos. Excellent, excellent videos on how to work through a catalyst. I started a catalyst journal myself and it has been absolutely mind-blowing. I've only been doing it for two months. I have so much stuff that's come up and also forgiveness. Forgiveness is absolutely key. You have to start with yourself because unless you can forgive yourself you don't really understand what the point is or how to do it for someone else. It's like you have to see yourself the way God sees you first and then you can see others that way. And it's just so important to work through it consciously and intentionally. Like law of one says, if you're just imagining or thinking about it it's gonna end up filtering through the mind and end up in the body. In the physical body somewhere as an ailment and injury and illness some kind of disease, some kind of cancer it will always manifest in the physical unless the last place it will manifest is in the physical. And that again mirrors the yoga teaching too about friction. We talk about friction is necessary. Catalysts, a tower moment triggers. These are necessary for you to understand yourself so that very much mirrors the yoga teaching as well. That it's thousands of years old. And we've talked about that a lot Stephanie too. And I like that you, when we talk about it coming into the body that's why physical exercise is such an incredible way to work through those. We've been especially in the Western world we think of exercise as being almost like a punishment to fit into skinny jeans.    I carry tension in the back of my neck. You can feel it. You can start to move that energy through and what happens sometimes in exercise that energy that becomes unstuck all of a sudden presents itself. And so it might present itself as tears, as laughter, as anxiety. And sometimes it's not necessarily as we say in yoga it's not necessary to remember what caused that energy because you're just working with the sensation of energy to heal through it. And once you have a particular amount of stuck energy it's gonna attract even more stuck energy that resembles it because the universe wants you to work through it. They're like, look at this. Look at this. And that's kind of the goal of the body is the GPS system. That's if you have a body then your work is never as long as you're in body you're gonna have things to work on. It's never gonna be done. We can have spiritualists that are telling people right now in our community whether it be on Twitter or Telegram or YouTube oh you have no ego. You've done the work. And if you're getting that from a spiritual list they're a fraud and they don't know what they're talking about. No, and it has been happening. Not only will I not go to somebody who is like I will not go to a healer that's not actually working on themselves but I also won't go to a healer that hasn't done the studies for themselves who hasn't studied this stuff. You know, and our friend Cindy talks about the Shiva Shakti. Like, so the Shiva is the soul the Shakti is the expression of the soul. So in the Yoga Sutras why is that Shiva Shakti? So in the Yoga Sutras it talks about Parusha Prakriti it's the same thing Parusha is the soul Prakriti is the nature, the expression of the soul. Right? In the Yoga Sutras it talks about how we created as souls we created this experience in order to know ourselves in order to realize who we really are. And so even when we a lot of people are under this delusional thinking that when we ascend to fourth density positive that all of a sudden we're not gonna have work to do that's not true. Even the law of one covers this like every dimension you just have more you have different things to work through it's just gonna look different but the beautiful thing about third density is the polarity. Yeah. It's the polarity. Without the contrast we wouldn't be able to know who we are it's like it's like trying to see yourself trying to look at yourself through your own eyeballs. Yeah. You can't you need a mirror you need a mirror to show you who you are without this contrast of up down right left bad good without the contrast there's no way for us to know who we are or what we need to work on or what we need to heal from or grow into. It's you can't see perfection from perfection you have to have contrast. That's the now that Alan Watts says too he's a great one he talks about it's like the eyeball trying to see itself and Alan Watts once was asked what's the point of life and Alan Watts said the point of life is to be alive and what he meant by that was to actually experience everything the pain the sorrow I've told this story so many times and I wanna say it again my original teacher David Grieg when he asked Guruji in India Guruji this practice is painful is that necessary and Guruji said yes because pain is real it's real and that's where we come to that place of honesty within ourselves it's like sometimes in the yoga practice when you have an injury it's the best place to be because when you come to the yoga mat with an injury you're working through you're coming to the mat in a real place of honesty. There's a you have to really be within that moment and really be in yourself descending we talked about that with Cindy you have to descend in spirituality isn't about wearing a bunch of Lollabies saying certain words and pulling tarot cards which Stephanie can talk about this more spirituality is about descending into yourself it's taking the tarot cards away it's taking the pendulums away it's taking all the distracting things away and really being in yourself who are you and we were talking with Stephanie went to the restaurant earlier you know people get we were talking about all this stuff about you know who am I in this new world all this kind of stuff well all these things are just labels that's all they are. So for me as Bryce in this life I'm a white girl blonde hair blue eyed who was born in the Southeast I live in Atlanta, Georgia I have a sister I have nieces and nephews I have a YouTube channel but that's not who I am that's just the expression of my experience here in this life who am I so in order for you to start to work on who you are you have to take all that away you have to take away if you're a mother both of your mothers what if you take away that away I'm not a mother anymore I'm not a wife anymore I'm not a girlfriend anymore I'm not a sister anymore I'm not white I'm not black I'm not Asian anymore who am I then and a lot of people get very scared of that because all of a sudden everything we work for you take away the degrees you take away the experiences we're programmed to have labels yeah we're programmed to want to be up here when really in order to get up here we have to come down here and we I think so many people many star seeds many empaths many whoever like workers have been so suppressed of living what others would conceive as a normal life that they enter this great awakening and they look at it like oh my gosh I was this in the past life I'm this now and then again they're putting the labels back on themselves and to feel important and everything and I get that I understand that concept because I was suppressive a lot of things also in my life but we also need to remember that the soul is none of those things like you just said what is the soul and so we really have to take a step back in because when we get to that point where we're just we're holding onto those things we start to get delusional we start to lose concept of what's really truly important in this lifetime and what were why did our souls choose to live out the experiences we're living out right now right? exactly and I will say I had my first pendulum class last night and I was so proud because there was a couple of women in there who said we've been doing the bar classes and I'm like I almost nearly cried and cried myself at the same time because like I was just so excited for them because I'm like you guys get it you get it like because one of the things I went over with everyone that came to the class last night was how important it is to ground yourself when you are using divination because it is only a tool really to exercise your intuition and I said to them the goal is not to use a pendulum the goal is you know the pendulum is good for it's like muscle testing right is this like Tamara has said on your channel Bryce she uses it to figure out what supplement she needs in the morning it isn't for gossip purposes same thing with the card same thing with I started divinating with runes recently which is really cool by the way but at the same time I would be a very irresponsible channeler if I was not incorporating any kind of shadow work or exercise and stuff like that and I actually channel so much better when I do the work on myself and you can tell when somebody is not doing their work you can definitely tell and I think it's really important to start doing all this work because there's a lot of delusional thinking going on right now a lot it's getting really bad and I mean can we pause in the past life thing for a minute because I want to really talk about this past I believe absolutely 100% in past lives this isn't almost in every single spiritual discipline even yes Christians even Yashua talked about past life experiences in the missing books of the Bible energy cannot be destroyed or created it can only keep going and the law of one does speak about this where you actually plan out your life your next life according to what lessons that you still need to learn right now past lives are interesting in a scientific exploration only I know who I was in some of my past lives I've had memories and I've had to heal some of that trauma from those memories however I'm not those people right now right now my name is Bryce and I want to be called Bryce because that's the life I'm in right now in this timeline yes we're good I know that the three of us have probably lived multiple lives together but right now we're Stephanie and Amy and Bryce you could have someone in your life that was your lover in a past life but is just your business partner in this life that's an agreement your souls made and what happens when people are so focused on past lives is that they're escaping this life yeah whatever I meet somebody who's so focused on a past life I want to be like and what about you now because the person you are now is the course you're working on and is the one that's interesting to me is who you are right now and there's a show that I watch at night sometimes just to relax it's called The Dead Files and it's this New York homicide detective in a medium that go into these houses it's very interesting I always laugh at their scratches because you ain't seen up until you've seen the scratches that I've gotten from spirits but anyway there was one interesting episode where this family have bought this hotel and they were and the mother of the family was like intoxicated by the hotel she couldn't let it go and the medium was the one time I've heard her in this whole series say to this woman you feel called here because of a past life but you have to leave you have to leave this will kill you you're not in that life right now you're in this life now you need to leave this place you need to sell this hotel you cannot stay here you have to fight that and I really wish I could just like send that episode out to everyone to be like focusing so much on past lives is such first of all it's an escapism from your work in this life and it's going to cause delusional thinking it's going to cause things that are not for your highest good you need to be here now in this moment because your soul the same soul that created that past life for you also created this existence for you too with equal acceptance so what are you avoiding in this life if you're so focused on that what is it? And it can happen to the most spiritual person too I mean let's just touch on that for a second I mean we can all get caught up in that stuff because of the maybe feeling like we were nothing in this lifetime I think it comes down to childhood wounds I think it comes down to just the programming that we're trying to break out of and wanting to just feel accepted and feeling like we're somebody who is seriously important and everything but the fact of the matter is all of us are important in our own individual jobs and our own individual purposes we all have a job to do and we all have many many purposes to fulfill but if we're focusing so much on that we're not gonna see the bigger picture in this lifetime we're not gonna see what so what is my really important mission to do in this lifetime what do I have to work on in this lifetime because again it's just an experience right? And that's an important thing you just hit on so if we feel powerless in this life but we know we were someone powerful in a past life so we're trying to borrow that sensation from an existence already past what does that tell you? No, you need to find your power in this life because you're the same soul and that comes down to the chakra system as well like that's the third chakra and that those chakras are great and you guys you can't I just want to clarify too if you're going to someone to heal your chakras they need to know actually know what your chakras are Okay, each chakra has there I know Remy's highly educated in this because of Reiki they each have their own symbols, their own colors their own Sanskrit names, their own purposes you can't stop your chakra you cannot remove your chakra your chakra is either going to whichever one is imbalanced it's most probably most of them are it's not all of them for everyone is a little off that's being human either spending too fast or it's spending too slow and that's where we try to figure out where the over activation is or the under activation is and so I don't know if you guys want to talk more about that because we're seeing a lot of well first of all a lot of people are really focused on the third eye Yeah, and that's very, very dangerous and I mean I've seen that actively I've actively seen people just constantly third eye, third eye, third eye, third eye Okay, so what's going on with your root? You know, are you stable? Are you rooted in, you know, to earth?   Do you have problems with men if you're a female? You know, stuff like that, you know and then you're looking at the other chakras like I find that the first three chakras and females especially have been heavily attacked, you know especially like where the womb is because that's the chalice, that's the grail, right? So I mean, before you can really start to really dive into using your third eye it's so important to ground yourself I mean, if I was divinating and doing readings on people and not doing that, that would be irresponsible of me and again, it goes into and I'm reading Eastern Body, Western Mind on my channel because the thing is when we're not doing that work and we're just all about the third eye you are going to send yourself into the loony bin You really are. Can I say something about, okay so what I'm noticing is that really what needs to be worked on the most are the first three chakras because the root is all about lack, scarcity mindset the sacral chakra is about attachments the solar plexus is about control and those are all beliefs of the ego that are false. I have control, outcomes bring me happiness and I'm not enough. Those are the three main problems flagging everyone and all of their variations. If we can unblock and work through all of the lack all of the attachments, all of the judgments all of the control issues, then the energy from below will have a free flow to meet the energy coming down from above in the heart space because what happens is when somebody says, oh, I think I have a blockage in my heart space the heart space can't process judgment and it has to be done down here. So the heart will feel like it's being closed off because it can't process a judgment. There you guys, there you go. She's a mama. So that kind of stuff can't be processed in the upper chakras, it has to be done in the lowers and if that's being avoided because you don't wanna do the work or you're scared or you're worried or you have anxiety about it, you're not gonna be able to open your third eye you're not going to have that fourth density positive compassion in your heart unless lower ones are cleared or you're working on clearing them so that the energy from below can come up and meet the energy from above. It's like, Bryce, I'm sure you know a little bit more about this with the Kundalini awakening where she comes up from the bottom and meets at the top and it's like, if you are not ready for that like you can cause yourself a world of- Okay, yes, there are books written about this. I'm glad you brought this up because I don't come even on we're reading the tantric system on my channel right now I come from the Patandeline system where Kundalini is not done in an act of sex done on your own in your own practice, okay? So that's the world I come from and when you're doing it on your own through daily practice it's slow. It's a slow process of healing. Healing is not gonna happen overnight. It's years, years but people who've had a Kundalini awakening too fast it's not good. It sends them into, I mean there are books written about one guy went blind like it sends them into they call it bliss is blistering like it sends them into this they haven't processed, you know it's like taking a baby who can't walk and then throwing him on a cross country track to run. Right, you're not ready for it because you haven't gone through the necessary steps to get there and so slowly is better and that's the thing, there is no finish line that's what I really wanna express this to people guys, when we ascend we're still gonna be working on ourselves as long as you have a physical body you're going to be working on yourself. There's no finish line. There's no, oh you're done. Congratulations. What did I say to you Stephanie? We were together about weight. When I see someone who has added weight what did I say to you? I see them now.  Like there's a lot of healing that needs to be done. So I was underway too. Same thing. So I want everybody right now to look down at their belly. Are you overweight? Yep. Beautiful. Okay. I'm working on it though. Now we have something to work as thanks to David Greig would say, okay, now we have something to work with. Why is your body holding on to weight there? It's not because of your genetics. It's not because of anything else but an emotion that is clogging those energy points, okay? Now look down at your belly. Are you underweight? Okay. Now we have something to work with because underweight and overweight. Same thing. It's both wounds. That's all it is. Undirective and hyperactive. And your body is- I'm underactive. Or you would be hyperactive. I'm hyperactive. The body is so freaking beautiful you guys. It's so beautiful because that's a job. It speaks to you. It's telling you all these different things and it's a matter of when you're doing that shadow work it's like, okay, so I'm having this pain on this side of my body and that connects to this. And it's like, once you start to figure out the interconnectedness of your body and how it truly is trying to signal to you what is wrong, it's not, oh, I need to go pop a pill. No, it's why, what's the energy that's there? And where is this stemming from, right? So like for instance, I've had a left ankle problem. So left being the feminine. I learned this from you, Bryce. Yeah, I got a little bit of mama issues going on. Absolutely. So I have to work through a lot of childhood stuff that stems from my mother, mother's to plural. Long story, one day I'll share, not right now. So I do have a little bit of issues going on there.  And so it's like my body has been trying to tell me, hey, knock, knock, we got to work on this. And you got to get to the point where you're not afraid to work on it, you just do it, right? And one of the same issues are gonna keep coming up. It's not, I'll show you guys, I'll use my body as an example. Even though I've been at this almost 16 years now, I still have work to do. It's never ending. I don't know if you guys can see, I'm gonna stand up. So my right shoulder kind of slumps down, right? It slumps lower than my left. My left hip, since higher than my right, my left hip is right here, my right hip is right here. All right, and there's a diagonal issue that's happening here. Okay, this is all energetic. This is all energetic body. Right is masculine, left hip is feminine. So I have major left hip issues. Yes, my hip is very open. Yes, I can put my leg behind my head. Yes, I can do all that stuff. Doesn't mean there's not issues there. Doesn't mean I don't feel it. When you were here in Connecticut, you had, you were really struggling with that and you weren't even able to, you were in a little bit of a rut. I'm just using this as an example because you've been at this for 15 plus years and know the work doesn't end. And you went into that rut because you were starting to have some stuff come up that had not surfaced yet, even after 15 years.  So it never ends.  So for me to cry, it takes a lot and I was just like, water works. And now I get, now I'm to the point where I might get like that every couple of weeks now, every three weeks or maybe even once a month. So I mean, it doesn't get, I shouldn't say it doesn't get any easier, but the first part of it, I don't know if you went through that, Bryce.  It goes through cycles. It goes through cycles and that's the thing, like you'll go through a period of ego death or your crime, your body hurts and then all of a sudden it'll clear up and your practice is beautiful and you feel great. And then maybe you'll get a new posture or your body will drop deeper and all of a sudden it comes up again because these are deeply held, what we call them.  We call that in Sanskrit, a samskara. So a samskara is like, you know, the old record players and when you'd have the needle and it would skip, that's a samskara, okay? And so sometimes these samskaras, yes, do cross over multiple lifetimes, but that doesn't mean you go back to that lifetime, you just deal with the issue at hand in this lifetime. And it's like, we were talking about enlightenment, I was saying before we started filming, Krishna Machari, I had a very famous quote where he said, the minute I call myself a yogi, then I am not a yogi, okay? Cause a yogi is someone who's enlightened. The minute you call yourself enlightened, you're no longer enlightened. We're practicing yoga, we're students of yoga, we're students of this, yeah? Yeah. So. I think ego gets the best of a lot of us and I've been seeing it so much in the spiritual community lately with, whoops, people calling, like giving themselves labels and oh, I'm enlightened, I'm a star seed from so-and-so. You know, I'm awakened. That's all ego, you know? A spiritually enlightened person wouldn't need to tell people, you know, hey, I'm a star seed from the Pleiades or whatever. It's not necessary. And it's like, as soon as you start getting wrapped up in who you are or where you came from or what you were in a last life, it's like you were saying earlier, Bryce, it's escapism, it's a distraction. If something is coming up for you that has ties to a past life, that's what needs to be healed right now. Going back into what you were or what you did or becoming obsessed or distracted by that other lifetime is pointless. It's not gonna do anything for you here or now. Anything that comes to mind is just something that you carried with you that needs to be healed in this lifetime. 100. I also think too that a lot of these fake spiritual people in the community, especially on Telegram and Twitter have been reaching out to people saying, oh, there's a star seed connection. So they're feeding off of the fact that you wanna find yourself in that we're using these things as escapism.  And there was a situation that was brought to my attention the other day. So be very careful if you're viewing this. If people are coming after you using these tactics to say you are this, you're this, you're this and they're scanning you without your permission. Emmy, I don't know if you've heard of this going on. Bryce and I were talking about it the other day. It was a situation I was talking to somebody about where people are going, these fraudulent spiritualists are going after people telling them they're from this planet and they're not even getting their consent, even look at their soul or anything like that. And these are people who are faith doing rakey on people and everything like that. So be very, very mindful to those watching because this is a situation that is going on in a spiritual community. All in all, nobody can do the work for you. Nobody can enlighten you. Nobody can heal you.  So you have to actually accept the healing but you're healing yourself. And that makes you integral as a rakey practitioner. Nobody can do it for you. Nobody can do the work for you. You have to make the conscious choice to do it for yourself. You can have people to help guide you through but essentially boils down to the individual and what they do. And I wanna hit on that too, and it's like baffling to me how people cannot understand the concepts of consent. We've talked about this so much. You guys, you cannot read somebody's energy without their permission. That is a huge no, no, you are spiritually assaulting someone. If you read tarot cards on someone without their consent, if you do a scan of their body without their consent, that is a 100% negative polarity. That is a spiritual assault, okay? It's assaulting someone. That's not good. And I don't understand why people can't see this. All right, and here's what happens. The funny thing is, the ironic thing is the way spirit works. If you do, let's say, pull tarot cards on someone without their consent, nine times out of 10, you're gonna get a false reading because spirit will block certain things, okay? If we're looking at trying to figure out who's good, who's bad, in a court of law, tarot cards aren't gonna matter. It's gonna be evidence. I know certain people are bad because I have evidence, actual evidence, okay? Well, also, let's go into, I know we're not talking about divination, we're talking about shadow work, but I know a lot of people have gotten their own packs of tarot cards, their own pendulums. If you're using it for gossip purposes, you're using it wrong and you're gonna get false information out of it. It is not to be used for gossip, it is used to be a tool to help and guide and to confirm, I like to say it's not giving you the answers, but the divination tools are confirming what you already know, whether it's on a sole subconscious level or whether it's on your conscious level. If you got that download the other day and you wanna confirm it with divination tools, Bryce will often say, hey, I got this download, can you look into this when you get a second? And if I have the minute, I will go ahead and divinate and everything like that. She gave me her permission and it was a download she had, not a download someone else had and you know what I mean, but it's not to be used for gossiping, that is absolutely wrong. And when I first started divinating, I didn't know that concept. So now that I know, now I understand that there's a big responsibility with anybody who's a conduit and I'm sure that goes for you, as being a reggae practitioner, it's the same exact concept. Having the consent, making sure that you're integral, that your intentions are pure and of the light, you know what I mean? Because you can use any of these tools, any of these healings, we're in duality, so it could go either way. So you just have to be very, very mindful and take full responsibility and make sure that you're setting your intentions the proper way.  I'm not like looking at you as a patient because that's wrong. Like when I'm out socializing, I'm just a human. So even therapists will have that boundary of if you're not my patient, then I'm not gonna be looking into your actions and what you're doing from that perspective.  If somebody signed up to get one of these and you give them a placebo, then you just broke the law of free will. You have to give them the real one because that's what they asked for. So if the white, bringing that up, I wanna come up with an example here. Okay, I'm gonna use myself as an example. And I told you about this the other day, Bryce. When I got diagnosed with fibromyalgia, I got diagnosed by a doctor who was doing a trial on Simbalta. Okay, Simbalta is a depression medication, but it's also used for nerve pain from fibromyalgia and terrible drug, by the way, terrible. Absolutely. Absolutely horrendous. Yeah, but anyways, at that time I was, I mean, we're talking, this is like literally 15, 16 years ago, okay? I was probably right after my son was born. So maybe we're talking 15 years. And when I had, I signed up for the trial and one of the parts of that trial was, I had to sign the understanding, sign my name that I understood there's a possibility I'm not taking the real medication. I'm taking a placebo. So I had to sign consent understanding that. Yeah, so unless you're signing on a line that says, you might not be getting the actual, it might be placebo, you're getting the real thing because that's the law of consent. The White Hats cannot go and oh, it's for their own good. That's what the Nazi said too. If someone signs up to get something done and they've given consent, you gotta give them the real thing or else you've just broke their law of consent. And what I think is happening is people who got the first one of these and then woke up are now avoiding working on why they were susceptible to getting this in the first play by saying, oh, it's just a placebo. No, you need to sit with yourself and figure out why you fell for it. Why? That's your work. That's your karma. You can't avoid it. I had to do that with just sit and think to myself because the thing is, I was told if I didn't get the, I was just going on rumble. I can blur the words out, it's fine. Okay, I'll just say the flu thingy, okay? At my work, I'd have to put something on my face for the whole entire winter time. My intuition always knew it was bad and I ended up getting it anyways because I didn't want to worry. Sorry, you're gonna have to blur a lot of words out.  What part of me, I was giving my power over to somebody and manipulating even though I knew there was something, I didn't know and I hadn't researched and I hadn't figured out what exactly that was. I had to sit and start to think, why did I give my power to my employer and continue it? And one year I said no and I got away with not putting anything on my face, but you know, one, that's what our French auntie would say, so when you've allowed someone to manipulate you, where have you manipulated yourself? Where have you manipulated yourself? And I just want to express that guys like, again, with these things, there's no placebo guys. We don't want a government that would lie to us like that. That's not good, okay? And so if you got the first one and you're awake now, all right, now you have something to work with. Now you have something to work with. Now you have something to go, where did I not listen to myself? Why did I allow myself to be duped into this? And then that's where the as law wants us that catalyst. That then, this thing then becomes your catalyst. Same thing goes for those who have fake getting one on a sheet of paper, because that's not taking your power back either. That's just my personal opinion. I know so many people that did that falsely so they can get on an airplane or something, but that's not being true with yourself. No. Yeah. And I could never, that's just my personal opinion.   When you are allowing an employer, a spouse, a friend, a group of people, a religion to strip you of your power, that's something to work with. That's something you need to work on. Emmy, you hit the nail on the head. Yeah. The first three chakras are absolutely the biggest ones to really work with because those are where this programming and ego and everything is coming from, so. Can we go through like what our routines are for doing shadow work to give people some actionable steps that they can take? You know, we keep saying that you need to work through this, but let's tell people exactly what it is that we do to work through this stuff. Yeah. Okay. Let's start. I'll start. Yeah. You can be the one that came up with the idea. Okay. How is your homework, Emmy? Okay. Well, I started my shadow work in recovery programs for addiction and you don't have to start there. There are many, but I'm just gonna use this as an example. And in the recovery programs I've been in, all of them have encouraged taking an inventory, taking an inventory of all of your fears, all of the resentments that you have, all of the triggers that you have, all of the wrongs that you've done to other people, all the wrongs other people have done to you, just take stock, take stock of yourself and don't let that overwhelm you and just start going down the list. And if things come up that are new, add them to the list. And then when you're working through resentments, I have a video on my channel on working through resentments. That's the way that I work through it. There's other ways. Just look this stuff up. Look up, how do I work through a resentment? How do I work through forgiving someone? How do I look past a trigger, look past the person who's triggering me and figure out where this is stemming from and what do I do to get there? I mentioned Aaron Abki earlier. He has a series on his channel called Spiritual Intelligence. And in that series, he talks about catalyst and having a catalyst journal. That's another way. If something comes up that bothers you or really triggers you, anything from the smallest irritation to the largest trigger, go through the steps. There's four steps in the catalyst journal.  You figure out which of the lower three chakras it's coming from, root, sacral or solar plexus. And there are certain beliefs of the ego that correspond. His videos explain all of that, very detailed. And then you figure out which of the emotions are stemming, either fear, a form of fear, a form of sadness or a form of anger. And there are many variations of those three emotions, but those are the three main ones. And then you ask yourself two questions. What is this catalyst asking me to be aware of within myself? And what is this catalyst asking me to accept or forgive within myself? And when you go through this, you'll find that there is the same thing almost repeated. The same thing is triggered and repeated and repeated. Then you have good, accurate information on, okay, I really need work on my sacral chakra. Go find meditations on YouTube for sacral chakra. Go find yourself a Reiki practitioner that is not operating out of ego. Nobody else can heal you. If the healer says they're healing you, they're operating out of ego. So be very cautious about that. Then you know what to work on. You can do the meditations. You can do the clearings yourself. You can do the spiritual hygiene, but you have to educate yourself and you have to be willing to do the work and write the things down and work through it. And it's not pretty. It's ugly. There's snot and tears and anger and yelling and punching pillows and this is what shadow work is. It's like getting down in the trenches and doing the work. It's not butterflies and rainbows like Bryce said. You're not gonna watch a Reiki video on my channel for activating spiritual gifts and just be all of a sudden healed. I have so many views on that video and hardly any on the videos that actually show you how to do the work. There's no free paths, guys. There's no free path. Nobody's gonna do it for you. Nobody is gonna heal you for you.  Self inquiry is so important and being willing to look at yourself objectively and not attach or judge. We attach to everything, everything. And if you can look at your stuff without attaching to it, like it's a red ball on the floor, there's no emotional attachment to a red ball on the floor. If you can look at your behavior and the things that you do, the things that you say, the things that you think, like it's a red ball on the floor and oh, okay. Why did I do that? Why did I say that? Why do I feel this way? And write it down. And for me, it helps to simultaneously self-educate. Like I'm studying a course in miracles and the law of one and yoga philosophy all at the same time. I love that book. Love it. The book is the course in miracles. This book has come in and out of my life since I was 20 years old. Yeah. Yeah, so that's what I do. I'm a big fan of 12-Step Recovery. I know that that doesn't work for everyone and there are a lot of recovery programs out there for addictions.  I was addicted to cigarettes. I was addicted to alcohol. I was addicted to opiates. I was addicted to food. Okay, and those things can be worked through and healed from. That's where the juice, and I love what you said, because in the Yoga Sutras, they talk about being the watcher. So Purusha is the watcher, where Prakriti is the watchable. And Ram Das, who is one of my favorite teachers, Barnan, across the world. A lot of his books, I've talked a lot about his books. They've been very meaningful for me. His commentary on the Bhagavad Gita is one of my favorite. As you can see, my book's kind of falling apart I've read it so many times. But he talks about that when you're able to observe yourself and your behavior and just be like, and just watch it for what it is. Because it's that judgment. When we know we've done something wrong and we're filled with shame, then we won't heal. But when we're able to look at it for what it is and say, interesting, I reacted that way. Why did I react this way? And just see it for what it is. Then we come into a place called guilt, which isn't shame. Because guilt is recognizing a behavior that's bad, but knowing you yourself aren't bad. Whereas shame shames everything. And I want to specify too, something really important. I think people are, we have this idea in our society of a sin, of something being bad. And so we hide ourselves from that in order to have self-acceptance. No human being is perfect. And these mistakes that we make in life are what make us who we are when we can work through them.  The ones that have gone through stuff, they've done bad things and they've come out the other side. Those are my favorite people because they're wise, they're empathetic, they have compassion, they understand, they see the world differently. The people who do something bad run from it, blame someone else in projection and never heal, okay?  And like we see, there's a lot of tarot card channels out there and the truth or community that are literally just gossip channels. They're doing nothing to help you spiritually grow. Knowing whether or not Bill Gates was born with a penis or not, does nothing for your spiritual enlightenment, okay? So what are you, and yeah, I love my reality TV, I'll raise my hand up, I'll watch The Row House Wives at Beverly Hills, like I'll watch that shit, but I know what it is, and I'm not avoiding my work at the same time, I'm not using it as a way, ooh, look at how bad that person is, so now I don't have to look at myself, right? First of all, we don't know if Bill Gates was born a male or female because the tarot cards are never gonna tell you that. They're never gonna give you that because Bill Gates has not given us his permission to read that, okay? All right, so now my routine, again, I've been doing this for almost 16 years and I am heavily actually, Marni Alton said this one day in a class and I thought it was great, you only start to wake up when you actually get into your body. So I of course, my biggest, biggest, biggest tool for self-work is always going to be exercise, but purposeful exercise. So if you're doing an exercise that's helping you to escape something, then that's not what I'm talking about, all right, if you're playing outside with your kids, yes, that's fun, do that, they need that, but if you're counting that as your exercise, then you're escaping something because you're distracted, right? You need something like bar or yoga or Pilates or Taekwondo or running, something that's gonna pull you into your body and it's gonna force you or box, it's gonna force you to be in your body, okay? We have different with the yoga, one thing that makes the yoga kind of stand out because the yoga is actually designed foreshadow work, that's what it's designed is for, the poses that is. So the asana, so asana means a posture or a seat for meditation. So we have these different channels of energy in our body as we were talking about with the chakras, they also come through your nostrils that we interweave as well, one is feminine, one is masculine, and when we're able to put ourselves in these different shapes, we start to open up these different values, right? And that's why the yoga practice is so powerful because again, that was what it was specifically designed for, was to force these channels of energy to open.  And when you're looking for a teacher, if there's a teacher that's walking around with their chest puffed out like they're so great, that's not the teacher for you. You need a teacher that's gonna be very, very focused on you and using their knowledge to help guide you but not do the work for you, right? We don't want a teacher that's gonna be reading you sweet poetry after class.  My teachers yell at me. My teachers get very tough with me and I get tough with my students because this is tough love. And I felt for that. I turned into a different person as a teacher because that's my job. You have your boundaries because you don't wanna break that boundary, yeah.  I got through it though. I almost cried, I almost punched Bryce. I have punched a teacher before. I punched a teacher coming in back then.  It's you're just tough. And you know like not to try to be like coddle yourself in the middle of a practice with Bryce being your teacher because she's not gonna allow you to do it. Which I appreciate because we kinda need that sometimes.   Well and you're not, I'm not there to feel sorry for you. Yeah. You know this is the thing, we all have trauma. We all have issues we've been through and that's why you're coming into the yoga room or that's why you're doing whatever it is you're, whatever modality you're using is because you're trying to deal with that trauma. But dealing with that trauma doesn't mean you're gonna run from it and be coddled from it. It means you have to actually work through it. You have to actually know what that being said as. That's one thing you need to look for too with teachers. What's their resume? Where do they get their training from? Same with Pre-Key people. Where do they get their training from? If you're looking for a yoga teacher and the thing just says they went through some training course, don't go to that teacher. That's my advice, that's my opinion. Don't go to that teacher. If the teacher has a lineage they're a part of and they have an actual teacher listed on their resume that they are accountable to, there you go. There's your teacher because they are accountable to someone as well and they've had the training themselves. And they do the same thing that you're doing.  I know the emotions that are coming up. I understand what's gonna be happening to that student so I can be there to help keep that on track. Does that make sense? So that's super, super, super important when you're looking for that type of, and there's like, I think Marnie Alton is a superb bar teacher because she obviously is very well educated in the energetic responses as well. She's my recommendation for bar. I think she's superb. She knows a lot about the energetic body. She knows a lot about what's going on emotionally in her workouts so you're getting, you're meeting that same type of information. Journal, I have actually, Jesse's a voter kind of started me on this. I have my own forgiveness journal. I write letters to God. I write letters to God in this journal. And I ask for people I need to forgive. I explain like what they did to hurt me. I've been, everybody knows this last month, I've been extremely betrayed. I haven't had an income in nine months because of a betrayal. And I still, and instead of actually fixing it privately as I wanted to, all of a sudden there was a sneer campaign against me because I dared to try to fix it, right? So I have a lot of forgiveness that I need to do from that betrayal. Yeah, and that's in this journal right here. And then I also put those people in a place of praying for them and allowing God to heal them, you know? And not crossing consent and boundaries. They have to do that work themselves but so that I feel better, so that I can be at peace so that I can work through that, you know? And so that's one of my things right here. I'm not gonna open it because I don't want anything to be read that's written in here by wondering eyes but I don't care if Emmy and Stephanie see it, but, you know.  And I'm constantly, I am a huge, obviously a huge fan of research. All of these books on my bookshop, I've read multiple times and I continue to pick them up and re-remind. I read the Yoga Sutras once a year, every year. I reread them. My Yoga Sutra book, it's completely all whereas that it's in here. It's completely, you can tell that I've read this so many times. I mean, the bind, it's totally so many times and every time I reread it, I remember something I forgot or I read something a little bit differently because of the work I've done. And yeah, and then just making sure that you're catching yourself too. So the ego, we're never gonna be without our ego ever. All right, and that's the point of shadow work and yoga is understanding the dance between the Shiva Shakti, understanding the dance between Prakriti and Purusha. So you're not allowing, when you're in the practice, you're not allowing your ego to dictate who you are, but you're allowing the ego to have its proper place because the ego is where the fight response is gonna come from. The ego is where the need to wanna feed your children is gonna come from. So making sure the ego has its proper place, right? So you're always gonna have that ego there. I forgot where I was going with this, but anyway. So in that work, you're having to find the proper placement for these energies that you carry in this lifetime, right? And as we, again, I wanna really emphasize with you guys, as we ascend, there's no race. You can't get to a certain level of understanding and ascension in order to go to fourth density positive. If you're harvesting to fourth density positive, you were already gonna harvest before you took this life anyway. And when we flip into fourth density positive, these mommy issues, these daddy issues, these betrayal issues, these abandonment issues, these addictions, they're still gonna be there. They're still gonna be there. It's never ending. So take a deep breath, work on yourself and with the ego too. So what the ego gets out of hand is when that artful dodger starts to come around. So that's what David Green call it, the artful dodger.  Where we avoid the work. Where we, instead of actually sitting in meditation or exercising or journaling, we watch those gossip tarot card channels again and say, this is me contributing to the great awakening. So we have to start catching ourselves. There's a time and a place for entertainment. There's a time and a place for all that stuff. If you're practicing yoga, are you turning music on while you're practicing yoga? Cause that's a no-no. No music when you're practicing yoga. You need to be alone with your thoughts. You don't need anything to distract you or to entice a sensation that's not naturally gonna be there for you to examine. You can go, I love my music. Listen, before I practice every morning, I have a full-on Broadway tap fest in the living room of my pajamas. Like I got it still yet. I'm going to pay to see that one day. I just want you to fly on the wall. I love the early modern million. That's my favorite right now. I'll listen and I'll dance around before I get on with it. Then I put it down and I get on my mat. Right? So I love, there's a time and a place for this stuff. But if you're really serious and then after you're done with your practice, while you're in your practice and needs and emotions come up, as Emmy said, you're in, you know, you're in a deep backbend or you're in a forward fold or whatever it is. And all of a sudden you feel this like surge of energy come up or this anger release or tears or laughter. Observe it. Oh, that's interesting. And then when you're done practicing, maybe journal about it. Hey, when I was in Paschia Matanasana today, I started laughing. Huh? Why? Now you become your own scientist too. You start to explore yourself and that's that dissension into who you are as a person. Who you are. Not who you were in the past. So, and in doing this work guys, even in the, I've said this before, David Garig would get, if you don't know about the practice of Ashtanga, it's the type of yoga I practice is probably one of the most extreme versions of yoga. We're talking, I mean, it is crazy, the asanas that we have to do, that we have to train ourselves to do. And, you know, with David Garig in the mycer room, like young girls would be in there who had been cheerleaders or gymnasts and they, you know, their bodies were already pretty able and he was like whatever, next posture, whatever. But when like a 60 year old man would come in who was overweight and couldn't touch his toes, David got so excited. Now we have something to work with.  That's where it's juicy. That's where you're gonna, when you start to crack that open and allow whatever it is to come out, that's where you start to learn about who you are, who you really are. And that's when things start to change. And sometimes that changes in that friction that needed to light that match, sometimes that friction is very uncomfortable and not fun. And sometimes you're spending, I know women who were, that I practice with who would be sitting in there, the pickup line at school, just sobbing because of going through that dark night of the soul, but you gotta let it happen, you gotta let it out, right? It's as cheesy as it sounds. It's not about the destination, it's about the journey. And even in the Bhagavad Gita, which is my favorite freaking book, it was most life changing book I've ever read. Krishna tells Arjuna to love the work for the sake of the work, not for the fruits of your labor. So you're in and that is so huge. So when you're in that really uncomfortable asana or you're having that dark night of the soul to be in that moment and to love it, even though it hurts and it's painful to be there with it because you love the work, not because of the light at the end of the tunnel, but because we're here now. Think about what we're going through globally right now. Everyone's like, oh, I can't, I'm guilty of saying that. I can't wait till this happens. I can't wait till that happens. I can't wait. But what is, maybe it hasn't happened yet because we're not settling into right now. Maybe as a collector to what you wish for because it's not exactly gonna be butterflies, rainbows, and unicorns. So many people putting out there that the Ascension is happening right now.  It doesn't happen just like that. It's, there's a slowness to it, or else we don't just die. We could handle it. There would be, and there would be no, and this is the one time. I wanna agree. This comes back to the law of one two. This is the one time historically. We're in a great big science experiment right now with the cause. Pretty much. So you guys know. This is the one time historically where human beings have been able to ascend within their living body without having to go through death first. Okay, so it's not gonna happen overnight.  And maybe if we all just settled into being here today, we're filming on Thursday. This is Thursday, September 15th. Okay, I'm gonna settle into being here on Thursday, September 15th. And deal with what I'm dealing with today. I'm not gonna think about what's gonna happen next week. I know. I actually do know when certain arrests are gonna happen. I'll just admit that I do know when certain arrests are gonna happen. I'm not gonna say anything though, but I'm gonna settle with right here, right now, where I am as me, as Bryce. One thing that happens that you'll notice as you do your shadow work, what you were saying, we're ascending with our physical body. So in order for us to ascend, we have to fully descend into this physical body. And the only way to do that is to get rid of the shift that's in the way. If you have trauma, triggers, resentments, all this stuff to work through, if it's not worked through, your soul cannot come into your body all the way. You're stuck up here in the upper chakras.   And then until you fully descend into your body, can you start the ascension process? It's like, it's a beautiful marrying of the physical and the spiritual. It's like a coming up from the bottom and a coming down from the top and you're meeting in the middle in the heart space. And it's just, it's such a miraculous transformation when you're going through it and you can start to notice these things as big, huge revelations are discovered within yourself. And major things are healed from and cleared out of the way. I notice a lot of the time that I feel incredibly heavy, not in a bad way, but in almost like my soul is connecting with the minerals in my body and I just feel, I feel the density of it. And it's like, it feels good kind of like a massage, but it takes a minute to integrate as you're descending down into your body. It takes a while to integrate that and to connect with that. But you can feel it, like, yeah, you can feel it and it's beautiful. It's a beautiful process. That's that autonomy and that's what happens. As a teacher, I see this and I remember this when I first started practicing. So many people don't know what it's like to be in their body. They think they're in their body, but they, and the yoga sutras talk about this as well. You know, that's why we use the physical body first because you feel the soreness and your biceps and your quadriceps, but then when you start to notice the subtle responses, that's when you know your soul is descending in because it's noticing things about your structure that you didn't notice before, more things are arising and that autonomy starts to happen. You start to descend into who you actually are.  What's it? They get injections into their feet so they can wear stiletto shoes. They don't feel the nerve endings. You know, that was big in LA. Like how many people avoid the sensation of their body? I've never even heard of that. Me either. I live in LA for a very long time. You apparently, people will do. That's some dedication. That's some dedication, but they're avoiding. And how many people avoid that sensation? They avoid every day. I mean, Stephanie is in a unique position because she came from the exact opposite world and then transferred into this world. It kind of helped me though. I mean, I don't know if you want me to touch a kind of upon my little routine that I do. So I was blessed having Bryce as a friend because yeah, you are a professional in this and you've helped me figure out. I would have not really known. I'm kind of in this like, So what I do is probably for the most part about five times a week, I do early morning exercise. And sometimes, yeah, I do have that feeling like the ego comes in that, oh, you're too tired.  I'm still facing that. But for the most part, I do about five days a week and I balance out between a bar workout and the beginning practice of the ashtanga yoga. I've started to incorporate that now, building into the bar. So I'll start off with some stretches. Do the bar, you know, a half an hour to 45 minute workout with that. And then I do the first 20 minutes of ashtanga, the primary series, is that what you call Bryce? So like, I have this love for the sun salutations because it makes me feel so awake and alive. And it's not easy when you first start to do it because you're really starting to, it's interesting because throughout my workout, which I think is the best way to do shadow work for my, for myself, personally, kind of like you, Bryce, is I'm starting to recognize, like, for instance, when I was doing the yoga, I'm starting to notice the bottom of my feet hurt, like, breaking crazy. And I had to start to figure out what on earth, like, and work through that and not avoid it, but to continue working through it. There's certain burning sensations I'll get during bar, when you're doing the pelvic tucks, I find myself having to pee in the middle of the day in workout and saying, no, that's just my body's avoidance to do it because I have stagnant energy there. A lot of times if I'm doing certain bar techniques or I'm doing certain movements in the bar workout, where I'll start to cry, and then there was one day I like literally got super, super angry. And the anger was coming from the fact that I was working my inner thighs a lot in the middle of the workout. So there's different parts of your body, where different energies are going, and you start to recognize that and you start to recognize how your body is, what different energies you're feeling, the different sensations, and really digging into that. Now this morning, I was super proud of myself, like, super proud of myself because normally I like to avoid the burning sensations within, like, my calves and everything, although I have very muscular legs, I always have. My legs are not a big issue. My arms, okay, they get floppy, as Bryce saw during my workouts when she was here, which I've activated, you know, trying to activate my arms a little bit more, engage them a lot more, because I was avoiding it, but it was not avoiding it on a conscious level, you'll start to avoid things on a subconscious level. So you have to start to recognize that. And today, why a teacher is important. Exactly, yeah, and I wouldn't have recognized it if you hadn't said anything. So that was the fabulous thing about you, one of the fabulous things about you being up here for a visit, but I oftentimes will, like, if the burning gets too much, I'll, like, take a breather for a second. And this morning, no, I actually dug into it. Like, I literally dug into it. You see when you bite into it. It was so freaking hard, but I kept getting that, like my soul was trying to say, Stephanie, it freaking hurts like hell, but I need you to get through this. My higher self was connecting with me and saying, no, no, no, no, no, no, don't you dare? Don't you dare, girl. You work through it. You work through it. So I worked through it and I dug even deeper and I actually did the bends and everything even lower than I normally did. And I really, like, went, I dove right into the workout this morning. And now I feel like I really, like, did a lot of inner work doing that because that's stuff I normally avoid. I don't like that burning sensation, but I did dig deep into that. Sometimes I also, I need to get more into this, but I often with journal, I've done on and off journaling my whole life, writing, I do the whole thing that you do, Bryce, like writing letters to God and everything. Another thing I've been doing a lot lately is recognizing when my ego is coming out or recognizing when I might feel a little bit of an emotion that is triggered by ego. Yeah, whether it be jealousy, whether it be a blaming somebody else for, no, I have myself to blame up, you know, and I need to work through that. So I'm trying to, like, stop myself and I'm starting to recognize more and more these different things that come up to the surface and say, well, why do I feel that way? And I have to, I question myself a lot now. Why am I feeling this way? Where is the stemming from? Where's the root that this is coming from? You know what I mean? And trying to channel through that and trying to sit with myself, I take a lot of a long time and I have to, because if I don't have a long time, I get overstimulated and I actually will get, like, really, like, quick to just feel very, very overwhelmed. So I do take a lot of a long time, I'll go outside out in nature and try to, like, listen to my thoughts and how I feel about things, but the working out part, the physical workouts in the morning are, like, the biggest part of my shadow work. Yeah. And can we touch on that? Because a lot of people think grounding, they just go put their feet in the grass and that's it. No, it's more than that. That's great to do that, but that should be done as extra on top of. Yeah. This question came up in my class last night. This question came up in my class and I said, that, you know, that will help you with your electromagnetic connection with the earth, but that's not doing shadow work. No, shadow work's really gonna pull you in. And I want to talk to you about what was happening with your arms so people kind of understand, and this is why you need a teacher because the teachers are gonna see your blind spots. So what was happening was Stephanie was working, but there was no control in her arms. And so what that tells me as a teacher is that she's not activating the fascia and the muscle within the fourth chakra, her heart chakra. And so I had to work with her on actually, so even like right now I've got control, you can see the muscles on my muscles are activated. So right now I have control in my arms. There's an at a conscious control over the movement in my arm. Whether that's doing yoga or lifting weights or dancing, there's a, you see dancers, they have an active control with their arms, but when there's no control, it's just flying matter. That's all it is. And so that told me that something was going on. And it's so funny because that day she said she was having some trouble breathing. You were having some issues and I have exercise induced asthma, which I've had as well, but then you go, okay, what's that, that's this. So once I saw that and we started to work with your arms, actually getting your arms to activate because the hands and the choppers and the hands are an extension of that fourth chakra. So you're actually getting, and you can see if you watch Mari Alton, she's got a lot of control in her arms, right? So that's just ways to kind of your home doing this to see like, am I just flopping around with no control? And I carry a lot of my weight in my arms. So the lower three chakras is where I gain my weight, but I also have had an issue with my upper arms, which is telling my body, telling me that there is an issue there, right? Yeah. Yeah, anywhere you have extra weight gain or any place that you have, where if you are like me, like I have the opposite. When I get imbalanced, I'll get really skinny, real skinny sometimes. And I'm not talking about, yes, I went through some spell casting where I couldn't literally have my mouth, but like, nope, putting that aside, like if it's just a regular stressful situation, I will stop eating, okay? And I will overeat. So that's something I, two different issues. Hyperactive and underactive issues going on right there. I have had issues with my period because I sometimes will overexercise and I will lose my period. I haven't had that happen in about 10 years because the last time it happened, I actually immediately recognized what was happening and I stopped it. So I got my period back, which is an indication for, because I'm not of the age yet to go through menopause. So for women, that's an indication. If you are overexercising and you've lost your period, why are you, what is exercise now become an escapism, right? I was just about to say, let's talk about that for a second. Using exercise as escapism rather than shadow work because I've noticed this. There are certain people that will hyper do it because that's their escapism from the rest of, it's almost like using meditation as an escapism. That's another one. You should not be meditating for over 15 minutes, guys. I get this question a lot from people. Anything over 15 minutes, you're getting into derangement. And what's meditation really? It's the one point focus, right? Because I think a lot of people think it's the manifesting of whatever you're creating in life. Creating stuff outside of you for your own entertainment is not a form of spirituality, guys. That's spirituality. So your meditation, you're not envisioning your future. You're not envisioning doing things. You're literally bringing yourself to a one-pointed meditation, that yoga to Dibratri Narodaha. You're coming into that one-pointed meditation. So that's why mantra meditation is a big form of meditation. So like I had Stephanie start with just chanting Aum over again. That's the starting point. Aum is, and you just can't, Aum, Aum, Aum. And it gives your mind a one-pointed focus. And I only have you do it for five minutes. That's all it takes, five minutes, right? Because we wanna- And five minutes is tough for someone like me, because I'm just like, guys, what did I eat for breakfast? What do I want for breakfast? Like I do have a hard time with it.  And now we're gonna come right back to Aum. We're gonna come right back to our Om Navashivaya. That's a big mantra, Om Navashivaya, Om Navashivaya, Om Navashivaya, Om Navashivaya. You know, there's Om Gum Ganapatana Mahal. That's the Ganesha chant, Om Gum Ganapatana Mahal. There's all these different mantras that you can learn and sit, sit up straight as best you can, back against the wall. So that spine is straight. The muscles are engaged. If your body is balanced physically, you should, it should not be uncomfortable. So if you do feel a little bit of an uncomfortableness, okay, now you know what you need to work on in your physical practice, right? So, and sit against the wall, be with that mantra. You can set your phone. I would set the alarm to go off, not with the crazy wah-wah-wah song, but like a nice peaceful when the five minutes is up and that's it. And then you go about your day, right? It brings the mind down into that one-pointed focus. Yeah? Another thing to consider when you're doing shadow work is to simultaneously do spiritual hygiene. Because as you're clearing yourself out and healing these traumas, it's open space and it's new. And if you're not protecting yourself or doing spiritual hygiene, shielding, cleansing your aura, filling holes in, if you're not doing that simultaneously, that leaves a vulnerability in that area for things to attach that are not for your highest good. But that's probably gonna have to be in another video because we're like, we're now half by face. This is amazing. Yeah, we'll do another video guys soon. I'm not, I don't have my comments on right now, but if you and I don't check Rumble ever comment. So, if you have any more questions regarding this, you can send me an email at esotericatlantaadjimel.com. If there's something you want us to cover, I will say right now, people might say this is ego. I am a, this is my professional job. Like outside of YouTube, this is what I've done for years, okay? I know Emmy as well. This is what she does professionally. Like we, you know, Stephanie's professional tarot card reader. Like this is what we do as a profession, okay? So this is something that, and the yoga course is going forward. We're gonna wait till after Mercury Regigrate for Emmy and me to put that course up, just cause it's really crazy right now. And I have five more spots left in my tarot course, which starts on the 29th. Amazing. But anybody, you have that link, right, Bryce? I'll put it in the description box below. And let me make it very clear. This is for people who are very, very adamant about using the cards to help others to really go into it like I do. Not just for fun, okay? It is a very intense, very intense course. It's accelerated. It's over a span of four weeks, two hours per week. And like I said, I have five, I think I have four or five spots left on that one. Well, I'll put that down below. And once we have the new dates organized for Emmy and my course, I'll put that up as well. But I just wanna let you guys know like, we are professionals. This is what I do. This is what I've done for years outside of YouTube. I'm the only female in the state of Georgia authorized to teach this. So I hope that you guys will hear what we're saying and take it very seriously because everything we're saying is coming from years of our own experience and years of our own research. Okay? I didn't learn Sanskrit for nothing. You know, this is something. So please take what we're saying very seriously because this is, take it in, do your own work. We're trying to share this information with you because I know for me, that would be bad karma for me not to call out bad behavior when I see it because that's my job is to teach this. And so seeing people doing it, scamming people, I obligated to say something because I know what the true teachings are. So I hope that didn't sound arrogant but that's just how it is, okay? So anyway, guys, any last words, ladies? No, thank you very much. It was awesome. Yeah, it was fun. And I think this will definitely help a lot of people because I get this question all the time when I'm doing my readings too. So, and I've been saying, we're gonna do another video soon. This is just some waterproof mascara, ladies. Yeah. And it's three different perspectives too. You know what I mean? Like, and yeah, I've only been doing the readings for, I think I'm going almost a year as of December, it will be a year. And I came out of the Christian community. So I mean, this is even new to me. This is very new to me. And I think the Christian perspective when we get into spiritual hygiene next is gonna be very important because I wanna talk about how that's kind of fucked our head up a little bit when it comes to like. Yeah, I mean, we talk about like that, getting all that programming out and everything like that. Because I mean, don't think it hasn't been a struggle for me because I'm going from one belief system to a completely different yet liberating belief system because trust me, it's much more liberating on this end of things. But it doesn't take my belief away from God or anything like that. It's actually strengthening it. And doing the shadow work has definitely strengthened my faith and helped me even have a closer relationship to God because when you're working out, boy, that's the closest to God you're gonna get. When you're screaming- You know, the churches are all about God. That's why you do the work is to be closer to God, to a point so that you're aligned with God, right? That's what it's all about. So all right, guys, well, we'll let you go. Thanks for sitting through this. And again, email me if you have any questions and we will cover it next time. So all right, guys, we love you and we'll happy crying, happy tears.  And that's how you're gonna learn about yourself. So happy- When shadow work becomes a food. Happy friends. It's like you're working in McDonald's commercial, juicy and good. You're like, you don't need the reality TV because you don't realize your own life is a telenovela. So it's fine, it's all good, all right? So all right, guys, we love you and we'll talk to you soon. Bye. Bye.


On October 15th, the New York Times reported that the climate change provisions included in Joe Biden's Build Back Better Act would likely be removed in order to appease West Virginia Senator Joe Manchin. Now if you're wondering what's the likelihood that this will actually happen, what's the likelihood that the White House would gut one of the core provisions from its own agenda, well, very likely considering that White House staffers have already begun rewriting this legislation to exclude climate change. Now it's worth noting that this isn't a panacea. It's not a Green New Deal. It's not the end LBL. In fact, I would argue that the climate change provisions in the Build Back Better Act are woefully inadequate. But it's better than nothing. It's the bare minimum. And if you can't even do that, then I don't even think this legislation is worth supporting. I mean, this is the one chance that we'll have, the last chance that we'll have, I should say, in a very long time to actually do anything meaningful as it relates to climate change. And if the White House is willing to bend over backwards to appease a modern-day coal baron who rakes in $500,000 per year from the coal industry, then there's really no point to any of this. If you can't do the bare minimum, then if I'm a progressive in Congress, I'm going to torpedo everything at this point. That's how mad I am about this. So thankfully, I'm not alone in my feelings because one senator has spoken out loudly about this, Ed Marquis, and he made it very clear. If this is, in fact, the case, I'm not going to support it. No climate, no deal. So he wrote an op-ed in Common Dreams saying that he's going to hold strong. And yes, him as well as other progressives will torpedo the entire proposal if climate change is not addressed. He writes, we will not compromise away the future of our young people in the planet they will inherit. We must keep climate action central to the budget reconciliation package. I was proud to stand with young change makers last week before the steps of the US Capitol to make it clear to those who want to weaken the president's agenda. No climate, no deal. New polling from Data for Progress finds that equitable climate investments, the kind that deliver economic and environmental benefits to frontline communities, are overwhelmingly popular among voters. The support grows even stronger among younger voters under the age of 45. Four in five think these kinds of clean energy investments are important, especially in low income communities, communities of color and other communities that have borne the worst impacts of our climate crisis. Voters also support establishing a civilian climate core included in the Build Back Better Plan, a new transformational national service program that would create hundreds of thousands of jobs and help communities across the nation respond to climate change and transition to a clean energy economy. Voters and younger voters in particular are calling on their leaders to support popular provisions of the Build Back Better Plan. The time is now for Congress to deliver on climate action with equity and justice at the center. We must prove to the American people and to the rest of the world that we are serious about climate action. This is the promise we make to the young people demanding such action and to our nation's workers whom we cannot and must not leave behind. No climate, no deal, perfectly said. Now he also included a lot of figures and polls showing just how popular these policies are. These are all from data for progress. And I mean, this is what the American people want. So when you see all of this, why is it that the overwhelming majority of the American people don't get what they want? But in oligarch like Joe Manchin, who's just operating on behalf of his donors, he gets what he wants. I mean, it's him versus the overwhelming majority of Americans. It shouldn't even be a question. Of course, he should bend to the will of the people and to the will of his party, quite frankly. And I've got to say, I really appreciate what Ed Markey and Bernie Sanders are doing in calling out Joe Manchin. But the thing is that it really would be nice if the president of the United States would come out for once and actually forcefully advocate for his own agenda. These are the things that Joe Biden ran on. So to just sit back and let everyone else do your work for you when you have the power of the presidency, you have your bully pulpit and you're not using it, it's frustrating because the president actually can make a difference. You can do a lot to persuade Joe Manchin, but Joe Biden has basically done next to nothing that's meaningful to actually persuade people in his party who are holdouts, Kirsten Sinema, Joe Manchin. This is his legacy and it seems like Bernie Sanders and Ed Markey care more about this than Joe Biden does. So it's really frustrating because at this rate, nothing is going to get done because Manchin and Sinema, they're continuing to water it down more and more and more and more. And they're also delaying, which in and of itself is a tactic Manchin just said that there's no way this is going to be finished by Halloween. It's just it's going to take a lot more time. Why? Well, because people like him refuse to support it. They want to make changes to it. They want to water it down. So at first this was supposed to be done by the end of summer and then September. And now it probably won't get done in October because of Joe Manchin and Kirsten Sinema when we don't have to keep doing what they want. You don't have to keep going along with these two folks in your party who is holding everyone back and holding the country back. In fact, there's multiple strategies that you can use to bring them onto your side and get them to support this legislation without actually giving them every single thing that they want. In fact, David Sirota in an op-ed for Jacobin explained that there's one really powerful thing that Democrats can do to call their bluff. He writes it's time for Democratic leaders to make Joe Manchin, Kirsten Sinema and every other senator vote and not on some gutted half measure, but on a real 3.5 trillion dollar bill. So what David Sirota is arguing here is to have Democratic Party leadership call Joe Manchin and Kirsten Sinema's bluff. Force them to go on the record and deny all of these things to their constituents.  You don't want to have to explain to a Democratic Party primary opponent why you voted against Universal Pre-K and an expansion of Medicaid and climate change legislation. You don't want to have to explain that. So if Democratic Party leadership really wanted to play hard bulb, there are several things that they can do, namely holding a vote on this to make Kirsten Sinema and Joe Manchin prove that they're really going to deny these things to their constituents, prove that they're that brazen. So David Sirota lays out this argument and what he's saying makes sense. He argues the interminable delay of an up or down Senate vote on President Joe Biden's agenda serves no one other than Sinema, Manchin and their corporate donors who want the bill gutted or killed. Every day Senate Majority Leader Chuck Schumer stalls a vote on an already scaled back 3.5 trillion dollar reconciliation bill. Senate Democrats become more complicit in the trail of their party's campaign promises, the evisceration of the working class, and the destruction of the climate. If this is a grand game of poker, both Manchin and Sinema have so far played their hands masterfully, bluffing a six trillion dollar proposal down to four trillion, then to 3.5 trillion, then down to 1.9 trillion and potentially on its way to two bucks and a used Casio wristwatch. Now they are doubling down on their strategies expecting nobody in power to call and make them show their cards. But if Schumer and Biden and their party actually wants to pass a real reconciliation bill that isn't gutted, granted that's a big if, then they should remember that old adage about rigged games. The only winning move is not to play.  So this is what I think would actually make a difference. It's not a guarantee that this strategy will work, but simply giving Joe Manchin every single thing that he wants. That's not working out in your favor as well. Joe Manchin is not the president. So Joe Biden actually needs to do what David Sarota is recommending here. Call his bluff, put in a lot of pork barrel projects for West Virginia and Arizona, provide a lot of things that people in Arizona and West Virginia specifically would want and then brag about it and then say your own senator just voted against this.  I mean, Kirsten Sinema, she's basically, in my opinion, a sociopath, but even she wouldn't want to deal with that much wrath from her constituents because the blowback would be huge. So if Joe Biden and Chuck Schumer actually played hardball to this extent, I mean, again, it's not a guarantee that it's going to work, but it's better than what they're doing now, which is basically capitulate, capitulate, capitulate. That's not working. And to the extent that it does work, it's not working out in your favor. It's working out in his favor. Now, there is a caveat. There actually needs to be a robust messaging campaign behind this effort. So every single Democrat needs to go on television and say, listen, this is what we're going to do. We want to hold a vote on this particular reconciliation package before the end of October. And there are provisions for people in West Virginia and Arizona and all over the country. Here's what the people of West Virginia are getting. Here's what the people of Arizona are getting. And here's what the people in America are getting. Everyone has to be consistent and unified in their messaging. And on top of that, Biden has to utilize a strategy that has worked before for presidents. It's called bullying and specifically using your bully pulpit to bully these senators into submission. Sorota continues, Franklin Roosevelt and Lyndon Johnson are still rightly celebrated for bullying, intimidating and cajoling conservative Democrats into supporting the New Deal and Medicare. But today's Democratic politicians, Democratic voters and Democratic aligned media voices have been inculcated to get the vapors and have fainting spells any time one Democrat pressures another Democrat. The 2020 Democratic presidential primaries, a historical aversion to any robust conflict proved that. And the legislative debate is so far proving it as well with potentially horrific consequences for the economy and the environment. Those consequences are not preordained, at least not yet. There is still time to avert a disaster, but only if the party that controls the lawmaking process is willing to use hardball tactics and have a long overdue fight with itself right now. And he is exactly right. So again, I want to reiterate that I really appreciate what Ed Markey is doing here in pending this op ed saying, we're going to torpedo this legislation. I appreciate Bernie Sanders paying an op ed in a West Virginian news outlet, calling on Joe Manchin explaining to his constituents what they are denied if Joe Manchin doesn't support this. But ultimately, nothing is going to matter if the president himself doesn't come out and forcefully advocate for this policy. I mean, right now, Joe Manchin and Kirsten Sonoma, they make a demand and Joe Biden gives them what they want. At what point is Joe Biden going to make a demand and Kirsten Sonoma and Joe Manchin are forced to give a little bit as well because right now it really seems like Joe Manchin and Kirsten Sonoma, they're dictating all of the terms they're holding everyone back in their party and the country. And this is only happening because Democratic Party leadership are letting it happen. Again, maybe there's nothing you can do to win over Kirsten Sonoma and Joe Manchin, maybe there's just lost causes. I don't believe that's the case with Manchin. Sonoma, who knows? But you've got to do more. What Joe Biden is doing with Joe Manchin in continuously capitulating and even removing climate change out of this human infrastructure bill, it's unacceptable. And in the event, nothing changes and Manchin really does get everything he wants and climate change is removed along with more means testing for other policies. Progressives, they absolutely should vote against everything torpedo infrastructure torpedo this because it's not worth it to have that bipartisan infrastructure, which is basically a corporate giveaway pass. If what you're getting isn't even crumbs, I mean, this is the bare minimum for climate change. So if you can't even expect that the party is useless and it's really incumbent on Democratic Party leadership to make sure that the bare minimum that they ran on gets accomplished, gets passed. So, you know, I don't think that Joe Biden and the Democratic Party's leadership anytime soon is going to be playing hardball. But if they truly wanted this agenda to get passed, they try something different other than bending over backwards to appease Joe Manchin and every single demand that he puts forward.