Scene 1 of Creditors by August Rindberg, translated by Edwin Björkman. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Tecla. Read by Elizabeth Klett. Adolf. Read by MB. Gustav. Read by Bruce Peary. Narrated by Dana Meilinger. Scene 1. A parlor in a summer hotel on the seashore. The rear wall has a door opening on the veranda, beyond which is seen a landscape. To the right of the door stands a table with newspapers on it. There is a chair on the left side of the stage. To the right of the table stands a sofa. A door on the right leads to an adjoining room. Adolf and Gustav, the latter seated on the sofa by the table to the right. A twerk on a wax figure on a miniature modelling stand. His crutches are placed beside him. And for all this I have to thank you. Smoking a cigar. Oh, nonsense. Why certainly. During the first days after my wife had gone, I lay helpless on a sofa and did nothing but long for her. It was as if she had taken away my crutches with her so that I couldn't move from the spot. And when I had slept a couple of days, I seemed to come too and began to pull myself together. My head calmed down after having been working feverishly. The old thoughts from days gone by bobbed up again. The desire to work and instinct for creation came back. My eyes recovered their faculty of quick and straight vision, and then you showed up.  But this is not to say that my presence has been the cause of your recovery. You needed a rest, and you had a craving for masculine company. Oh, that's true enough, like everything you say. Once I used to have men for friends, but I thought them superfluous after I married, and I was quite satisfied with the one I had chosen. Later I was drawn into new circles and made a lot of acquaintances, but my wife was jealous of them. She wanted to keep me to herself. Worse still, she wanted also to keep my friends to herself. And so I was left alone with my own jealousy. Yes, you have a strong tendency toward that kind of disease. I was afraid of losing her, and I tried to prevent it. There's nothing strange in that. But I was never afraid that she might be deceiving me. No, that's what married men are never afraid of. Yes, isn't it queer? What I really feared was that her friends would get such an influence over her that they would begin to exercise some kind of indirect power over me. And that is something I couldn't bear. So your ideas don't agree, yours and your wife's? Seeing as you have heard so much already, I may as well tell you everything. My wife has an independent nature. What are you smiling at? Go on, she has an independent nature. Which cannot accept anything from me. But from everybody else. After a pause. Yes, and it looked as if she especially hated my ideas because they were mine and not because there was anything wrong about them. For it used to happen quite often that she advanced ideas that had once been mine and she stood up for them as her own. Yes, it even happened that friends of mine gave her ideas which they had taken directly from me. And then they seemed all right. Everything was all right except what came from me. Which means you are not entirely happy. Oh yes, I am happy. I have the one I wanted and I have never wanted anybody else. And you have never wanted to be free? No, I can't say that I have. Well, sometimes I have imagined that it might seem like a rest to be free. But the moment she leaves me I begin to long for her. Long for her as for my own arms and legs. It is queer that sometimes I have a feeling that she is nothing in herself but only a part of myself. An organ which can take away with it my will, my very desire to live. It seems almost as if I had deposited with her that centre of vitality of which the anatomical books tell us. Perhaps when we get to the bottom of it that is just what has happened. How could it be so? Is she not an independent being with thoughts of her own? And when I met her I was nothing, a child of an artist whom she undertook to educate. But later you developed her thoughts and educated her, didn't you? I don't know, she stopped growing and I pushed on. Yes, isn't it strange that her authoring seemed to fall off after her first book or that it failed to improve at least. But that first time she had a subject which wrote itself for I understand she used her former husband for a model. You never knew him, did you?  I never knew him as he was away for six months at a time.  Pause. And you may feel sure that the picture was correct. I do, but why did she ever take him? Because she didn't know him well enough. Of course you never do get acquainted until afterward. And for that reason one ought not to marry until afterward. And he was a tyrant, of course. Of course? Why so are all married men. Feeling his way. And you not the least. I let my wife come and go as she pleases. Well, that's nothing. You couldn't lock her up, could you? But do you like her to stay away whole nights? No, really, I don't. There, you see. With a change of tactics. And to tell the truth it would only make you ridiculous to like it. Ridiculous? Can a man be ridiculous because he trusts his wife? Of course he can. And it's just what you are already and thoroughly at that. Convulsively. I? It's what I dread most of all. And there's going to be a change. Don't get excited now or you'll have another attack.  Yes, why? Well, it's nothing that concerns you, but that's the way it is. And while you were trying to figure out why, the mishap has already occurred. What mishap? However, the first husband was a tyrant and she took him only to get her freedom. You see, a girl cannot have freedom except by providing herself with a chaperone. Or what we call a husband. Of course not. And now you are the chaperone. I? Since you are her husband. Adolf keeps a preoccupied silence. Am I not right? Uneasily. I don't know.  Then you begin to think. And there you are. Gustav, you are my friend. The only male friend I have. During this last week you've given me courage to live again. It is as if your own magnetism had been poured into me. Like a watchmaker you've fixed the works in my head and wound up the spring again. Can't you hear yourself how I think more clearly and speak more to the point? And to myself at least it seems as if my voice has recovered its ring. So it seems to me also. And why is that? I shouldn't wonder if you grew accustomed to lower your voice in talking to women. I know at least that Tekla always used to accuse me of shouting. And so you toned down your voice and accepted the rule of the slipper. That isn't the way to put it. After some reflection. I think it is even worse than that. But let us talk of something else. What was I saying? Yes, you came here and you enabled me to see my art in its true light. Of course for some time I had noticed my growing lack of interest in painting as it didn't seem to offer me the proper medium for the expression of what I wanted to bring out. But when you explained all this to me and made it clear why painting must fail as a timely outlet for the creative instinct, then I saw the light at last and I realized that hereafter it would not be possible for me to express myself by means of color only. Are you quite sure now that you cannot go on painting, that you may not have a relapse? Perfectly sure. For I have tested myself. I went to bed that night after our talk. I rehearsed your argument point by point and I knew you had it right. But when I woke up from a good night's sleep and my head was clear again then it came over me in a flash that you might be mistaken after all and I jumped out of bed and got hold of my brushes and paints. But it was no use. Every trace of illusion was gone. It was nothing but smears of paint. I quaked at the thought of having believed and having made others believe that painted canvas could be anything but a painted canvas. The veil had fallen from my eyes and it was just as impossible for me to paint anymore as it was to become a child again. And then you saw that the realistic tendency of our day its craving for actuality and tangibility could only find its proper form in sculpture which gives you body extension in all three dimensions. Wakely. The three dimensions. Oh yes, body in a word.  Tell me, do you experience supreme joy now when you were at work? Now I am living. I see what you are doing. A female figure. Without a model and so lifelike at that. Apathetically. Yes, but it resembles somebody. It is remarkable that this woman seems to have become a part of my body as I of hers. Well, that's not so very remarkable. Do you know what transfusion is? Of blood, yes. And you seem to have bled yourself a little too much. When I look at the figure here I comprehend several things which I merely guessed before. You have loved her tremendously. Yes. To such an extent that I couldn't tell whether she was I or I was she. When she is smiling I smile also. When she is weeping I weep. And when she... Can you imagine anything like it? When she was giving life to our child I felt the birth pangs within myself.  Agitated. I? How can you tell? Because I have watched the symptoms in a younger brother of mine who had been worshipping Venus a little too excessively. How did it show itself, that thing you spoke of? During the following passage Gustav speaks with great animation and Adolf listens so intently that unconsciously he imitates many of Gustav's gestures. It was dreadful to witness. And if you don't feel strong enough I won't inflict a description of it on you. Nervously. Yes, go right on. Just go on.   What is that? Initiative, of course, and with the result that the angel nearly carried him off to heaven. But first he had to be put on the cross and made to feel the nails in his flesh. It was horrible. Breathlessly. Well, what happened? Lingering on each word. We might be sitting together talking, he and I, and when I had been speaking for a while his face would turn white as chalk. His arms and legs would grow stiff and his thumbs became twisted against the palms of his hands like this. He illustrates the movement and it is imitated by Adolf. Then his eyes became bloodshot and he began to chew like this. He chews and again Adolf imitate him. The saliva was rattling in his throat. His chest was squeezed together as if it had been closed in a vise. The pupils of his eyes flickered like gas jets. His tongue beat the saliva into a lather and he sank slowly down backward into the chair. As if he were drowning. And then... In a whisper. I'll stop now. And then are you not feeling well? No. Gets a glass of water for him. There, drink now and we'll talk of something else. Feebly. Thank you. Please go on. Well, when he came to he couldn't remember anything at all. He had simply lost consciousness. Has that ever happened to you? Yes, I've had attacks of vertigo now and then, but my physician says it's only anemia. Well, that's the beginning of it, you know. But believe me, it will end in epilepsy if you don't take care of yourself. What can I do? To begin with, you will have to observe complete abstinence. For how long? For half a year, at least. I cannot do it. That would upset our married life. Goodbye to you, then. Cover up the wax figure. I cannot do it. Can you not save your own life? But tell me, as you have already given me so much of your confidence, is there no other canker, no secret wound that troubles you? For it is very rare to find only one cause of discord, as life is so full of variety and so fruitful and chances for false relationships. Is there not a corpse in your cargo that you are trying to hide from yourself? For instance, you said a minute ago that you have a child which has been left in other people's care. Why don't you keep it with you? My wife doesn't want us to do so. And her reason? Speak up now. Because when it was about three years old, it began to look like him, her former husband. Well, have you seen her former husband? No, never. I have only had a casual glance at a very poor portrait of him, and then I couldn't detect the slightest resemblance. Oh, portraits are never like the original, and besides, he might have changed considerably since it was made. However, I hope it hasn't aroused any suspicions in you. Not at all. The child was born a year after our marriage, and the husband was abroad when I first met Tecla. It happened right here in this very house, even, and that's why we come here every summer. Now then there can be no cause for suspicion, and you wouldn't have had any reason to trouble yourself anyhow for the children of a widow who marries again often show a likeness to her dead husband. It is annoying, of course, and that's why they used to burn all widows in India, as you know. But, tell me, have you ever felt jealous of him, of his memory?  We? I cannot deny that I have been pursued by that very thought. There now, and you'll never get rid of it. There are discords in this life which can never be reduced to harmony. For this reason you had better put wax in your ears and go to work. If you work and grow old and pile masses of new impressions on the hatches, then the corpse will stay quiet in the hold. Pardon me for interrupting, but it is wonderful how you resemble Tecla now and then when you were talking. You have a way of blinking one eye as if you were taking aim with a gun, and your eyes have the same influence on me as hers have at times. No, really. And now you said that no, really, in the same indifferent way that she does. She also has the habit of saying no, really quite often. Perhaps we are distantly related, seeing that all human beings are said to be of one family. At any rate it will be interesting to make your wife's acquaintance to see if what you say is true. And do you know she never takes an expression from me. She seems rather to avoid my vocabulary, and I have never caught her using any of my gestures. And yet people as a rule develop what is called marital resemblance. And do you know why this has not happened in your case? That woman has never loved you. What do you mean? I hope you will excuse what I am saying, but woman's love consists in taking, in receiving, and one from whom she takes nothing does not have her love. She has never loved you. Don't you think her capable of loving more than once? No, for we cannot be deceived more than once. Then our eyes are opened once for all. You have never been deceived, and so you have better beware of those that have. They are dangerous, I tell you. Your words pierce me like knife thrusts, and I feel as if something were being severed within me, but I cannot help it. And this cutting brings a certain relief too. For it means the pricking of ulcers that never seem to ripen. She has never loved me. Why then did she ever take me? Tell me first how she came to take you, and whether it was you who took her or she who took you. Heaven only knows if I can tell it all. Why did it happen? Well, it didn't come about in one day. Would you like to have me tell you how it did happen? That's more than you can do. Oh, by using the information about yourself and your wife that you have given me, I think I can reconstruct the whole event. Listen now and you'll hear. In a dispassionate tone, almost humorously. The husband had gone abroad to study, and she was alone. At first her freedom seemed rather pleasant. Then came a sense of vacancy, for I presume she was pretty empty when she had lived by herself for a fortnight.  By comparison the absent one seemed to fade out, and for the simple reason that he was at a distance. You know the law about the square of the distance. But when they felt their passions stirring, then came fear of themselves, of their consciences, of him. For protection they played brother and sister, and the more their feelings smacked of the flesh, the more they tried to make their relationship appear spiritual. Brother and sister, how could you know that? I guessed it. Children are in the habit of playing papa and mama, but when they grow up they play brother and sister in order to hide what should be hidden. And then they took the vow of chastity, and then they played hide and seek, until they got in a dark corner where they were sure of not being seen by anybody. With mock severity. But they felt that there was one whose eye reached them in the darkness, and they grew frightened, and their fright raised the specter of the absent one. His figure began to assume immense proportions. It became metamorphosed, turned into a nightmare that disturbed their amorous slumbers, a creditor who knocked at all doors. Then they saw his black hand between their own as these sneaked toward each other across the table, and they heard his grating voice through that stillness of the night that should have been broken only by the beating of their own pulses. He did not prevent them from possessing each other, but he spoiled their happiness. And when they became aware of his invisible interference with their happiness, when they took flight at last, a vain flight from the memories that pursued them, from the liability they had left behind, from the public opinion they could not face, and when they found themselves without the strength needed to carry their own guilt, then they had to send out to the fields for a scapegoat to be sacrificed. They were free thinkers, but they did not have the courage to step forward and speak openly to him, but the words, we love each other. To sum it up, they were cowards, and so the tyrant had to be slaughtered. Is that right? Yes, but you seem to forget that she educated me. She filled my head with new thoughts. I have not forgotten it, but tell me, why could she not educate the other man also into a free thinker?   That's rather an ambiguous term, and as pictured in her novel, his idiocy seems mainly to have consisted in failure to understand her. Pardon me a question, but is your wife so very profound after all? I have discovered nothing profound in her writings. Neither have I, but then I have also to confess certain difficulty in understanding her. It is as if the cogs of our brainwills didn't fit into each other, as if something went to pieces in my head when I tried to comprehend her.  I don't think so, and it seems to me all the time as if she were in the wrong. Would you care to read this letter, for instance, which I got today? Takes out a letter from his pocketbook, glancing through the letter. Hmm, handwriting seems strangely familiar. You're masculine, don't you think? Well, I know at least one man who writes that kind of hand. She addresses you as brother. Are you still playing comedy to each other, and do you never permit yourselves any greater familiarity in speaking to each other? No, it seems to me that all mutual respect is lost in that way. And is it to make you respect her that she calls herself your sister? I want to respect her more than myself. I want her to be the better part of my own self. Why don't you be that better part yourself? Would it be less convenient than to permit somebody else to fill the part? Do you want to place yourself beneath your wife? Yes, I do. I take a pleasure in never quite reaching up to her. I have taught her to swim, for example, and now I enjoy hearing her boast that she surpasses me both in skill and daring. To begin with, I merely pretended to be awkward and timid in order to raise her courage, and so it ended with my actually being her inferior more of a coward than she. It almost seemed to me as if she had actually taken my courage away from me. Have you taught her anything else? Yes, but it must stay between us. I have taught her how to spell what she didn't know before. But now listen, when she took charge of our domestic correspondence, I grew out of the habit of writing. Then think of it, as the years passed on, lack of practice made me forget a little here and there of my grammar. But do you think she recalls that I was the one who taught her at the start? No, and so I am the idiot, of course.  Oh, it's just a joke, of course. Of course, but this is clear cannibalism, I think. Do you know what's behind that sort of practice?  And my fate, it was I who urged her to write her first book? Making a face. It was I who praised her, even when I found her stuff rather poor. It was I who brought her into literary circles where she could gather honey from our most ornamental literary flowers. It was I who used my personal influence to keep the critics from her throat. It was I who blew her faith in herself into flame, blew on it until I lost my own breath. I gave, gave, gave until I had nothing left for myself. Do you know? I'll tell you everything now. Do you know I really believe, and the human soul is so peculiarly constituted, that I believe that when my artistic successes seemed about to put her in the shadow, as well as her reputation, then I tried to put courage into her by belittling myself and by making my own art seem inferior to hers. I talked so long about the insignificant part played by painting on the whole, talked so long about it and invented so many reasons to prove what I said that one fine day I found myself convinced of its futility. So all you had to do was breathe on a house of cards. Pardon me for recalling what you said at the beginning of our talk, that she had never taken anything from you. She doesn't nowadays, because there's nothing more to take. The snake being full, it vomits now. Perhaps she's been taking a good deal more from me than I'd been aware of. You can be sure of that. She took when you were not looking, and that is called theft. Perhaps she never did educate me. But you her, in all likelihood, but it was her trick to make it appear the other way to you. May I ask how she set about educating you?  Well? Well, I... No, we were speaking of her. Really, I cannot tell now. Do you see? However, she devoured my faith also. And so I sank further and further down until you came along and gave me a new faith. Smiling. In sculpture. Doubtfully. Yes. And have you really faith in it? In this abstract, antiquated art that dates back to the childhood of civilization, do you believe that you can obtain your effect by pure form by the three dimensions? Tell me, that you can reach the practical mind of our own day and convey an illusion to it without the use of color, without color, mind you? Do you really believe that? Crushed. No. Well, I don't either. Why then did you say you did? Because I pitied you. Yes, I am to be pitied. But now I'm bankrupt, finished, and worst of all, not even she is left to me. Well, what could you do with her? Oh, she would be to me what God was before I became an atheist. An object that might help me to exercise my sense of veneration. Bury your sense of veneration and let something else grow on top of it. A little wholesome scorn, for instance. I cannot live without having something to respect. A slave. Without a woman to respect and worship. Oh, hell! Then you had better take back your God, if you needs must have something to kowtow to.   Do you know what that incomprehensible, sphinx-like, profound something in your wife really is? It is sheer stupidity. Look, here, she cannot even distinguish between TH and T. And that, you know, means there is something wrong with the mechanism. When you look at the case, it looks like a chronometer. But the works inside are those of an ordinary cheap watch. Nothing but the skirts, that's all. Put trousers on her, give her a pair of mustaches to soot under her nose. Then take a good sober look at her and listen to her in the same manner. You'll find the instrument has another sound to it. A phonograph and nothing else giving you back your own words or those of other people and always in diluted form. Have you ever looked at a naked woman? Yes, of course.  What can you expect of such a creature? Supposing all that to be true, how can it be possible that I still think her might equal? Hallucination, the hypnotizing power of skirts. Or the two of you may actually have become equals. The levelling process has been finished. Her capillarity has brought the water in both tubes to the same height. Tell me. Taking out his watch.  Don't you think we'd better stop so that you can get a rest? No, don't leave me. I don't dare to be alone. Oh, for a little while only, and then the lady will come. Yes, she is coming. It's all so queer. I long for her, but I'm afraid of her. She pets me, she is tender to me, but there's suffocation in her kisses. Something that pulls and numbs. And I feel like a circus child that is being pinched by the clown in order that it may look rosy-cheeked when it appears before the public. I feel very sorry for you, my friend. Without being a physician, I can tell that you are a dying man. It is enough to look at your latest pictures in order to see that. You think so? How can you see it? Your color is watery blue, anemic, thin, so that the cadaverous yellow of the canvas shines through. And it impresses me as if your own hollow, putty-colored cheeks were showing beneath. Oh, stop, stop! Well, this is not only my personal opinion. Have you read today's paper? Shrinking. No. It's on the table here. Reaching for the paper without daring to take hold of it. Do they speak with their... Read it, or do you want me to read it to you? No. I'll leave you if you want me to. No, no, no. I don't know. It seems as if I were beginning to hate you, and yet I cannot let you go. You dragged me out of the hole into which I have fallen, but no sooner do you get me on firm ice than you knock me on the head and shove me into the water again. As long as my secrets were my own, I still had something left within me. But now I am quite empty. There is a canvas by an Italian master, showing a scene of torture. A saint whose intestines are being torn out of him and rolled on the axle of a windlass. The martyr is watching himself grow thinner and thinner while the roll on the axle grows thicker. Now it seems to me as if you had swelled out since you began to dig in me.    No, not since you have burned her to ashes. Everything is in ashes where you have passed along. My art, my love, my hope, my faith. All of it was pretty nearly finished before I came along. Yes, but it might have been saved. Now it's too late, incendiary. We have cleared some ground only. Now we'll sow in the ashes.  I curse you. Good symptoms. There's still some strength left in you. And now I'll pull you up on the ice again. Listen now. Do you want to listen to me? And do you want to obey me? Do with me what you will. I'll obey you. Rising. Look at me. Looking at Gustav. Now you are looking at me again with that other pair of eyes which attracts me. And listen to me. Yes, but speak of yourself. Don't talk of me any longer. I am like an open wound and cannot bear being touched. No, there is nothing to say about me. I am a teacher of dead languages and a widower. That's all. Take my hand. What terrible power there must be in you. It feels as if I were touching an electrical generator. And bear in mind that I have been as weak as you are now. Stand up. Rises but keeps himself from falling only by throwing his arms around the neck of Gustav. I am like a boneless baby and my brain seems to lie bare. Take a turn across the floor. I cannot. Do what I say or I'll strike you. Straightening himself up. What are you saying? I'll strike you, I said. Leaping backward in a rage. You! That's it.  And now I'll give you some electricity. Where is your wife? Where is she? Yes. She is at a meeting. Sure? Absolutely. What kind of meeting? Something relating to an orphan asylum. Did you part as friends? With some hesitation. Not as friends. As enemies then, what did you say that provoked her? You are terrible. I'm afraid of you. How could you know? It's very simple. I possess three known factors and with their help I figure out the unknown one. What did you say to her? I said two words only but they were dreadful and I regret them. I regret them very much. Don't do it. Tell me now. I said old flirt. What more did you say? Nothing at all. Yes you did but you have forgotten it. Perhaps because you don't dare remember it. You have put it away in a secret drawer but you have got to open it now. I can't remember. But I know. This is what you said. You ought to be ashamed of flirting when you are too old to have any more lovers. Did I say that? I must have said it. But how can you know that I did? I heard her tell the story on board the boat as I came here. To whom? To four young men who formed her company. She is already developing a taste for chaste young men, just like... But there is nothing wrong in that. No more than in playing brother and sister when you are papa and mama. So you have seen her then? Yes I have. But you have never seen her when you didn't. I mean when you were not present. And there's the reason you see why a husband can never really know his wife. Have you a portrait of her? Adolf takes a photograph from his pocketbook. There is a look of a rouse curiosity on his face. You were not present when this was taken. No. Look at it. Does it bear much resemblance to the portrait you painted of her? Hardly any. The features are the same but the expression is quite different. But you don't see this because your own picture of her creeps in between your eyes and this one. Look at it now as a painter without giving a thought to the original. What does it represent? Nothing so far as I can see but an affected coquette inviting somebody to come and play with her. Do you notice this cynical line around the mouth which you are never allowed to see?  Do you observe that her dress is cut low at the neck, that her hair is done up in a different way, that her sleeve has managed to slip back from her arm? Can you see? Yes. Now I see. Look out, my boy. For what? For her revenge. Bear in mind that when you said she could not attract a man, you struck at what to her is most sacred, the one thing above all others.  But as it is, believe me, it will not be her fault if her desire for revenge has not already been satisfied. I must know if it is so. Find out. Find out. Watch. I'll assist you if you want me to. As I am to die anyhow, it may as well come first as last. What am I to do? First of all a piece of information. Has your wife any vulnerable point? Hardly. I think she must have nine lives like a cat. There, that was the boat whistling at the landing. Now she'll soon be here. Then I must go down and meet her. No, you are to stay here. You have to be impolite. If her conscience is clear, you'll catch it until your ears tingle. If she is guilty, she'll come up and pet you. Are you so sure of that? Not quite, because a rabbit will sometimes turn and run in loops, but I'll follow. My room is next to this. He points to the door on the right. There I shall take up my position and watch you while you are playing the game in here. But when you are done, we'll change parts. I'll enter the cage and do tricks with the snake while you stick to the keyhole. Then we meet in the park to compare notes, but keep your back stiff. And if you feel yourself weakening, knock twice on the floor with a chair. All right, but don't go away. I must be sure you are in the next room. You can be quite sure of that. But don't get scared afterward when you watch me dissecting a human soul and laying out its various parts on the table. They say it is rather hard on a beginner, but once you have seen it done you never want to miss it. And be sure to remember one thing, not a word about having met me or having made any new acquaintance whatever while she was away, not one word. And I'll discover her weak point by myself. Hush! She has arrived. She is in her room now. She's humming to herself. That means she is in a rage.  It's only fifteen minutes to dinner, and no new guests have arrived. For I haven't heard the bell ring. That means we shall be by ourselves worst luck. Are you weak? I am nothing at all. Yes, I'm afraid of what is now coming, but I cannot keep it from coming. The stone has been set rolling, and it was not the first drop of water that started it, nor was it the last one, but all of them together. Let it roll, then, for peace will come in no other way. Goodbye for a while now. Goes out. Adults nods back at him. Until then he has been standing with the photograph in his hand. Now he tears it up and flinks the pieces under the table. Then he sits down on a chair, pulls nervously at his thigh, runs his fingers through his hair, crumples his skull floppel, and so on. End of scene one. Scene two of Creditors by August Trinburg, translated by Edwin Bergman. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Scene two. Tecla enters, goes straight up to him, and gives him a kiss. Her manner is friendly, frank, happy, and engaging. Hello, little brother. How is he getting on? Almost one hour, speaking reluctantly, and as if in jest. What mischief have you been up to now that makes you come and kiss me? I'll tell you. I've spent an awful lot of money. You've had a good time, then. Very. But not exactly at that crash meeting. That was plain piffle to tell the truth. But what has little brother found to divert himself with while his pussy was away? Her eyes wander around the room as if she were looking for somebody or sniffing something. I've simply been bored. And no company at all? Quite by myself. Watching him. She sits down on the sofa. Who has been sitting here? The over there? Nobody? That's funny. The seat is still warm, and there is a hollow here that looks as if it had been made by an elbow. Have you had lady callers? Why? You don't believe it, do you? But you blush. I think little brother is not telling the truth. Come, and tell pussy now what he has on his conscience.   Do you know that? No, I don't know anything at all about myself. Never think about yourself, do you? Sniffing and taking notes. I think of nothing but myself. I am a dreadful egoist. But what has made you turn so philosophical all at once?  Prattling as if to a baby. As he got ants in his head again. Does he want me to take them away? Does he...? Kisses him on the forehead. There now. Is it all right now? Now it's all right. Pause. Well, tell me now what you have been doing to make the time go. Have you painted anything? No, I'm done with painting. What? Done with painting? Yes, but don't scold me for it. How can I help that I can't paint any longer? What do you mean to do then? I'll become a sculptor. What a lot of brand new ideas again. Yes, but please don't scold. Look at that figure over there. Uncovering the wax figure. Well, I declare. Who is that meant for? Yes. Is it pussy? Has he got no shame at all? Is it like? How can I tell when there is no face? Yes, but there's so much else. That's beautiful. Taps him playfully on the cheek. Now he must keep still or I'll have to kiss him. Holding her back. Now, now. Somebody might come. Well, what do I care?  Oh yes, that's my lawful right. Yes, but don't you know in the hotel here they don't believe we are married because we are kissing each other such a lot. And it makes no difference that we quarrel now and then for lovers are said to do that also. Well, but what's the use of quarreling? Why can't he always be as nice as he is now? Tell me now, can't he try? Doesn't he want us to be happy? Do I want it? Yes, but... There we are again. Who has put it into his head that he is not to paint any longer? Who? You're always looking for somebody else behind me in my thoughts. Are you jealous? Yes, I am. I'm afraid somebody might take him away from me. Are you really afraid of that?  Well, I am not afraid of the women.  Watching her. You're afraid then? Of what are you afraid? Getting up. Somebody has been here. Who has been here? Don't you wish me to look at you? Not in that way. It's not the way you are accustomed to look at me. How was I looking at you then? Way up under my eyelids. Under your eyelids? Yes, I wanted to see what is behind them. See all you can. There is nothing that needs to be hidden. But you talk differently too. You use expressions. Studying, Kim. You philosophize. That's what you do. Approaches him threateningly. Who has been here? Nobody but my physician. Your physician? Who is he? That doctor from Stromstad. What's his name? Sjöberg. What did he have to say? He said, well, among other things, he said that I am on the verge of epilepsy. Among other things, what more did he say? Something very unpleasant. Tell me. He forbade us to live as man and wife for a while. Oh, that's it. Didn't I just guess it? They want to separate us. That's what I have understood a long time. You can't have understood because there was nothing to understand. Oh, yes, I have. How can you see what doesn't exist? Unless your fear of something has stirred up your fancy to seeing what never existed. What is it, you fear, that I might borrow somebody else's eyes in order to see you as you are and not as you seem to be? Keep your imagination in check, Adolf. It is the beast that dwells in man's soul. Where did you learn that? From those chased young men on the boat? Did you? Not at all, Abadged. Yes, there is something to be learned from youth also. I think you're already beginning to have a taste for youth. I have always liked youth. That's why I love you. Do you object? No, but I should prefer to have no partners. Prattling roguishly. Oh, my heart is so big, little brother, that there is room in it for many more than him. Little brother doesn't want any more brothers. Come here to Pussy now and get his hair pulled because he is jealous. No, Envious is the right word for it. Two knocks with a chair are heard from the adjoining room where Gustav is. No, I don't want to play now. I want to talk seriously. Prattling. Mercy me. Does he want to talk seriously? Dreadful how serious he's become. Takes hold of his head and kisses him. Smile a little. There now. Smiling against his will. Oh, you have a... I might almost think you knew how to use magic. Well, can't he see now? That's why he shouldn't start any trouble or I might use my magic to make him invisible. Gets up.   Of course I will. He turns her head so he can see her in profile. Gaze is hard at her while pretending to work at the figure. Don't think of me now, but of somebody else. I'll think of my latest conquest. That chased young man? Exactly. He had a pair of the prettiest, sweetest moustaches and his cheek looked like a peach. It was so soft and rosy that you just wanted to bite it. Darkening. Please keep that expression about the mouth. What expression? A cynical, brazen one that I've never seen before. Making a face. This one? Just that one. Getting up. Do you know how Bret Hart pictures an adulteress? Smiling. No, I have never read Bret something. As a pale creature that cannot blush? Not at all. But when she meets her lover then she must blush, I am sure. Although her husband or Mr. Bret may not be allowed to see it. Are you so sure of that? As before. Of course, as the husband is not capable of bringing the blood up to her head he cannot hope to behold the charming spectacle. Enraged. Tecla!  Tecla!  Then I might get up a pretty little blush for his sake. Does he want me to? Disarmed.  Playfully. Come and bite me then. Come. Opens her arms to him. Puts his hand around her neck and kisses her. Yes, I'll bite you to death. Teasingly. Look out, somebody might come. Well, what do I care? I care for nothing else in the world if I can only have you. And when you don't have me any longer? Then I shall die. But you are not afraid of losing me, are you, as I am too old to be wanted by anybody else? Oh, you've not forgotten my words yet, Tecla. I take it all back now! Can you explain to me why you were at once so jealous and so cocksure? No, I cannot explain anything at all. But it's possible that thought of somebody else having possessed you may still be gnawing within me. At times it appears to me as if our love were nothing but a fiction. And attempt at self-defense, a passion kept up as a matter of honor. And I can't think of anything that would give me more pain than to have him know that I am unhappy. Now, I have never seen him. But the mere thought that a person exists who is waiting for my misfortune to arrive, it was daily calling down curses on my head who will roar with laughter when I perish. The mere idea of it obsesses me, drives me nearer to you, fascinates me, paralyzes me. Do you think I would let him have that joy? Do you think I would make his prophecy come true? No, I cannot think he would. Why don't you keep calm then? No, you upset me constantly by your cockatry. Why do you play that kind of game? It is no game. I want to be admired, that's all. Yes, but only by men. Of course, for a woman is never admired by other women. Tell me, have you heard anything from him recently? Not in the last six months. Do you ever think of him? No, since the child died we have broken off our correspondence. And you have never seen him at all? No, I understand he is living somewhere down on the west coast. But why is all this coming into your head just now? I don't know. But during the last few days, while I was alone, I kept thinking of him. How he might have felt when he was left alone that time. Are you having an attack of bad conscience? I am. You feel like a thief, do you? Almost. Isn't that lovely? Women can be stolen as you steal children or chickens. And you regard me as his chattel or personal property. I am very much obliged to you. No, I regard you as his wife. And that's a good deal more than property. For there can be no substitute.  Have you not taken his place with me? Well, have I? And did you ever love him? Of course I did. And then? I grew tired of him. And if you should tire of me also? But I won't. If somebody else should turn up, one who had all the qualities you were looking for in a man now, then you would leave me. No. If he captivated you so that you couldn't live without him, then you would leave me of course. No, that doesn't follow. But you couldn't love two at the same time, could you? Yes, why not? That's something I cannot understand. But things exist although you do not understand them. All persons are not made in the same way you know. I begin to see now. No, really? No, really? A pause follows, hearing which he seems to struggle with some memory that will never come back.  And yet it used to be my foremost virtue in your mind and one that you taught me. Yes, but it seems to me as if you're hiding something behind that frankness for yours. That's the new tactics, you know. I don't know why, but this place has suddenly become offensive to me. If you feel like it, we might return home this evening. What kind of notion is that? I've barely arrived and I don't feel like starting on another trip. But I want to. Well, what's that to me? You can go. But I demand that you take the next boat with me. Demand? What are you talking about? Do you realize that you are my wife? Do you realize that you are my husband? Well, there's a difference between those two things. Oh, that's the way you are talking now. You have never loved me. Haven't I? No, for to love is to give. To love like a man is to give. To love like a woman is to take. And I have given, given, given. Poo! What have you given? Everything. That's a lot. And if it be true that I must have taken it, are you beginning to send in bills for your gifts now? And if I have taken anything, this proves only my love for you. A woman cannot receive anything except from her lover. Her lover, yes. There, you spoke the truth. I have been your lover, but never your husband. Well, isn't that much more agreeable to escape playing chaperone? But if you are not satisfied with your position, I'll send you packing, for I don't want a husband. No, that's what I've noticed. For a while ago, when you began to sneak away from me like a thief with his booty, and when you began to seek company of your own where you could flaunt my plumes and display my gems, then I felt like reminding you of your debt. And at once I became a troublesome creditor whom you wanted to get rid of. You wanted to repudiate your own notes.  Without having done anything myself, I became to you merely the husband.  Playfully.   But that's what everybody thinks.  Heavens, are you beginning to sympathise with him? Yes, not far from it. Well, well, perhaps you would like to make his acquaintance and pour out your overflowing heart to him. What a striking picture. But I am also beginning to feel drawn to him, as I am growing more and more tired of acting as wet nurse. For he was at least a man even though he had the fault of being married to me. There you see. But you'd better not talk so loud. We might be overheard. What would it matter if they took us for married people? So you are getting fond of real male men also and at the same time you have a taste for chaste young men? There are no limits to what I can like, as you may see. My heart is open to everybody and everything, to the big and the small, the handsome and the ugly, the new and the old. I love the whole world. Do you know what that means? No, I don't know anything at all. I just feel. It means that old age is near. There you are again. Take care.  Of what? Of the knife. Little brother had better not play with such dangerous things. I have quit playing. Oh, it's Ernest, is it? Dead Ernest? Then I'll show you that. You are mistaken. That is to say, you'll never see it, never know it, but all the rest of the world will know it. And you'll suspect it, you'll believe it and you'll never have another moment's peace. You'll have the feeling of being ridiculous, of being deceived, which will never get any proof of it. For that's what married men never get.  No, I don't. And I don't think I shall either. But that's probably because you are nothing to me but a child. At this moment, yes. But do you remember how it was while the storm swept over us? Then you lay there like an infant in the arms and just cried.  Then I had to be your nurse. Had to see that you fixed your hair before going out. Had to send your shoes to the cobbler and see that there was food in the house. I had to sit by your side holding your hands for hours at a time. You were afraid, afraid of the whole world because you didn't have a single friend and because you were crushed by the hostility of public opinion. I had to talk courage into you until my mouth was dry and my head ached. I had to make myself believe that I was strong. I had to force myself into believing in the future. And so I brought you back to life when you seemed already dead. Then you admired me. Then I was the man. Not that kind of athlete you had just left but the man of willpower, the mesmerist who instilled new nervous energy into your flabby muscles and charged your empty brain with a new store of electricity.  I brought you new friends, furnished you with a little cord of people who for the sake of friendship to me let themselves be lured into admiring you. I set you to rule me and my house. Then I painted my best pictures glimmering with reds and blues on backgrounds of gold and there was not an exhibition then when I didn't hold a place of honor.  I compelled the clamorous herd to see you with my own infatuated vision.  When you reached that far then my strength was used up and I collapsed from the overstrain. In lifting you up I had pushed myself down. I was taken ill and my illness seemed an annoyance to you the moment when all life had begun to smile at you and sometimes it seemed to me as if in your heart there was a secret desire to get rid of your creditor and the witness of your rise. Your love began to change into that of a grown-up sister and for the lack of better I accustomed myself to the new part of Little Brother. Your tenderness for me remained and even increased but it was mingled with the suggestion of pity that had ended a good deal of contempt and this changed into open scorn as my talent withered in your own sun rose higher but in some mysterious way the fountain head of your inspiration seemed to dry up when I could no longer replenish it or rather when you wanted to show its independence of me and at last both of us began to lose ground and then you looked for somebody to put the blame on a new victim for you are weak and you can never carry your own burdens of guilt and debt and so you picked me for a scapegoat and doomed me to slaughter but when you cut my fuse you didn't realize that you were also crippling yourself for by this time our years of common life had made twins of us. You were a shoot sprung from my stem and you wanted to cut yourself loose before the shoot had put out roots of its own and that's why you couldn't grow by yourself and my stem could not spare its main branch and so stem and branch must die together What do you mean with all this of course is that you have written my books No, that's what you want me to mean in order to make me out a liar I don't use such crude expressions as you do and I spoke for something like five minutes to get in all the nuances all the half tones, all the transitions but your hand organ has only a single note in it Yes, but the summary of the whole story is that you have written my books No, there is no summary You cannot reduce a chord into a single note You cannot translate a varied life into a sum of one figure I have made no blunt statements like that of having written your books But that's what you meant Beyond himself I did not mean it But the sum of it Wiredly There can be no sum without an addition You get an endless decimal fraction for quotient when your division does not work out evenly I have not added anything But I can do the adding myself I believe it, but then I am not doing it No, but that's what you wanted to do Exhausted, closing his eyes No, no, no, don't speak to me You'll drive me into convulsions Keep silent, leave me alone You mutilate my brain with your clumsy pincers You put your claws into my thoughts and tear them to pieces He seems almost unconscious and sits staring straight ahead while his thumbs are bent inward against the palms of his hands Tenderly What is it? Are you sick?  Yes, yes, yes, I admit And do you ask my pardon? Yes, yes, yes, I ask your pardon if you only won't speak to me Kiss my hand then Kissing her hand I'll kiss your hand if only you don't speak to me And now you would better go out for a breath of fresh air before dinner Yes, I think I need it And then we'll pack and leave No on his fate Why? There must be a reason The reason is that I have promised to be at the concert tonight Oh, that's it Yes, that's it I have promised to attend Promised?  Do you feel safer then? I don't know what you mean That's what you always say when you know I mean something doesn't please you So, what is it now that doesn't please me? Oh, I beg you Don't begin over again Goodbye for a while Goes out through the door in the rear and then turns to the right Tekla is left alone A moment later, Gustav enters and goes straight up to the table as if looking for a newspaper He pretends not to see Tekla shows agitation but manages to control herself Oh, is it you? Yes, it's me I beg your pardon Which way did you come? By land but I am not going to stay as Oh, there's no reason why you shouldn't Well, it was some time ago Yes, some time You have changed a great deal And you are as charming as ever a little younger, if anything Excuse me, however I am not going to spoil your happiness by my presence and if I had known you were here I should never If you don't think it improper I should like you to stay On my part there could be no objection but I fear, well whatever I say I am sure to offend you Sit down a moment You don't offend me for you possess that rare gift which was always yours of tact and politeness It's very kind of you but one could hardly expect that your husband might regard my qualities in the same generous light as you On the contrary, he has just been speaking of you in very sympathetic terms Oh, well everything becomes covered up by time like names cut in a tree and not even dislike can maintain itself permanently in our minds He has never disliked you for he has never seen you and as for me I've always cherished a dream that of seeing you come together as friends or at least of seeing you meet for once in my presence of seeing you shake hands and then go your different ways again It has also been my secret longing to see her whom I used to love more than my own life to make sure that she was in good hands and although I have heard nothing but good of him and am familiar with all his work I should nevertheless have liked before it grew too late to look into his eyes and beg him to take good care of the treasure Providence has placed in his possession In that way I hoped also to lay the hatred that must have developed instinctively between us I wish to bring some peace and humility into my soul so that I might manage to live through the rest of my sorrowful days You have uttered my own thoughts and you have understood me I thank you for it Oh, I am a man of small account and have always been too insignificant to keep you in the shadow My monotonous way of living my drudgery, my narrow horizons all that could not satisfy a soul like yours longing for liberty I admit it But you understand you who have searched the human soul what it cost me to make such a confession to myself It is noble It is splendid to acknowledge one's own shortcomings and it's not everybody that's capable of it Size But yours has always been an honest and faithful and reliable nature one that I had to respect, but Not always not at that time but suffering purifies sorrow and nobles and I have suffered Poor Gustav Can you forgive me? Tell me, can you? Forgive? What? I am the one who must ask you to forgive Changing tone I believe we are crying, both of us We who are old enough to know better Feeling his way Old? Yes, I am old But you, you grow younger every day He has by that time maneuvered himself up to the chair on the left and sits down on it where a pontecla sits down on the sofa Do you think so? And then you know how to dress I learned that from you Don't you remember how you figured out that colors would be most becoming to me? No Yes, don't you remember? I can even recall how you used to be angry with me whenever I failed to have at least a touch of crimson about my dress No, not angry I was never angry with you Oh, yes, when you wanted to teach me how to think Do you remember? For that was something I couldn't do at all Of course you could It's something every human being does Not at least when you write Unpleasantly impressed, hurrying her words Well, my dear Gustav it is pleasant to see you anyhow and especially in a peaceful way like this Well, I can hardly be called a troublemaker and you had a pretty peaceful time with me Perhaps too much so Oh, but you see I thought you wanted me that way It was at least the impression you gave me while we were engaged Do you think one really knows what one wants at that time? And then the mamas insist on all kinds of pretensions, of course Well, now you must be having all the excitement you can wish They say that life among artists is rather swift and I don't think your husband can be called a sluggard You can get too much of a good thing Trying a new tech What? I do believe you are still wearing the earrings I gave you? Embarrassed Why not? There was never any quarrel between us and then I thought I might wear them as a token and a reminder that we were not enemies and then you know it is impossible to buy this kind of earrings any longer Takes off one of her earrings Oh, that's all right, but what does your husband say of it? Why should I mind what he says? Don't you mind that? But you may be doing him an injury It is likely to make him ridiculous Brustly as if speaking to herself almost He was that before Rises when he knows her difficulty in putting back the earring May I help you perhaps? Oh, thank you Pinching career That tiny ear Think only if your husband could see us now Wouldn't he howl though? Is he jealous also? Is he? I should say so A noise is heard from the room on the right Who lives in that room? I don't know But tell me, how are you getting along and what are you doing? Rather how you are getting along Tacla is visibly confused and without realizing what she is doing she takes the cover of the Vex figure Hello, what's that? Well, it must be you I don't believe so But it is very like you Do you think so? That reminds me of the story, you know it How could your majesty see that?  You ought to have some I never hear anything funny nowadays Is he modest also? Oh, well Not on everything? He isn't well just now Well, why should little brother put his nose into other people's hives? Laughing You crazy thing Poor chap Do you remember once when we were just married We lived in this very room It was furnished differently in those days There was a chest of drawers Against that wall there And over there stood The big bed Now you stop Look at me Well, why shouldn't I? They look hard at each other Do you think a person can ever forget anything That has made a very deep impression on him? No And our memories have a tremendous power Particularly the memories of our youth Do you remember when I first met you Then you were a pretty little girl A slate on which parents and governesses Had made a few scrolls That I had to wipe out And then I filled it with inscriptions That suited my own mind Until you believed the slate Could hold nothing more That's the reason you know why I shouldn't care to be in your husband's place Well, that's his business But it's also the reason why I take pleasure In meeting you again Our thoughts fit together exactly And as I remember Exactly And as I sit here and chat with you It seems to me like Drinking old wine Of my own bottling Yes, it's my own wine But it has gained a great deal in flavour And now When I am about to marry again I have purposely picked out A young girl whom I can educate To suit myself For the woman you know is the man's child And if she is not He becomes hers And then the world turns topsy-turvy Are you going to marry again? Yes, I want to try my luck once more But this time I am going to make a better start So that it won't end again with a spill Is she good-looking? Yes, to me But perhaps I am too old It's queer Now when chance has brought me together With you again I am beginning to doubt Whether it will be possible To play the game over again How do you mean?  And my young husband says That I can make no more conquests That means he has ceased To love you Well, I can't quite make out What love means to him You have been playing hide-and-seek Last you cannot find each other at all Such things do happen You have had to play the innocent To yourself Until he has lost his courage There are some drawbacks to a change I tell you There are drawbacks to it indeed Do you mean to reproach?  Rising Yes, we must part But not without a Farewell Or what do you say?  Two ladies in travelling dress Are seen in the doorway leading to the veranda They look surprised Then they point at those within Laugh and disappear Freeing herself Who was that?  Can you get them? Picking up the pieces of the photograph from the floor Here, see for yourself Oh, that's an outrage Do you see? Now then, when and where A false-hearted wretch When He leaves tonight with the eight o'clock boat And then? At nine Who can be living in there that makes such a racket? Let's see Goes over and looks through the keyhole There's a table that has been upset And the smashed water-craft That's all I shouldn't wonder if they had left a dog locked up in there At nine o'clock then All right And let him answer for it himself What a depth of deceit And he who has always preached about truthfulness And tried to teach me to tell the truth God, wait a little How was it now? He received me with something like hostility Didn't meet me at the landing And then And then he made some remark about young men On board the boat, which I pretended not to hear But how could he know? Wait And then he began to philosophize about women And then the specter of you seemed to be haunting him And he talked of becoming a sculptor That being the art of the time Exactly in accordance with your old speculations No, really No, really Oh, now I understand Now I begin to see what a hideous creature you are You've been here before and stabbed him to death It was you who had been sitting there on the sofa It was you who made him think himself an epileptic That he had to live in celibacy That he ought to rise in rebellion against his wife Yes, it was you How long have you been here? I have been here a week It was you then that I saw on board the boat It was And now you were thinking you could trap me It has been done Not yet Yes Like a wolf you went after my lamb You came here with a villainous plan To break up my happiness And you were carrying it out when my eyes were opened And I foiled you Not quite that way, if you please This is how it happened in reality Of course, it has been my secret hope That disaster might overtake you But I felt practically certain That no interference on my part Was required I have been far too busy to have any time left For intriguing But when I happened to be moving About a bit And happened to see you with those young men On board the boat Then I guessed the time had come for me To take a look at the situation I came here and your lamb Threw itself into the arms of the wolf I won his affection By some sort of reminiscent impression Which I shall not be tactless enough To explain to you At first he aroused my sympathy Because he seemed to be In the same fix as I was once But then he happened to touch All wounds That book you know And the idiot And I was seized with a wish To pick him to pieces And to mix up these so thoroughly That they couldn't be put together again And I succeeded Thanks to the pains taking way In which you had done the work Then I had to deal with you For you were the spring That had kept the works moving And you had to be taken apart And what a buzzing followed When I came in here I didn't know exactly what to say Like a chess player I had laid a number of tentative plans, of course But my play Had to depend on your moves One thing led to the other Chance lent me a hand And finally I had you where I wanted you Now you are caught No Yes you are What you least wanted has happened The world at large Represented by two lady tourists Whom I had not sent for As I am not an intriguer The world has seen How you became reconciled To your former husband And how you sneaked back Repentantly into his faithful arms Isn't that enough? It ought to be enough for your revenge But tell me How can you Who are so enlightened and so right-minded How is it possible that you Who think whatever happens must happen That all our actions are determined in advance Correcting her To a certain extent determined That's the same thing No, disregarding him How is it possible that you Who hold me guiltless Driven by my nature and the circumstances Into acting as I did How can you think yourself entitled to revenge For that very reason For the reason that my nature And the circumstances drove me Into seeking revenge Isn't that giving both sides a square deal But do you know why you too Had to get the worst of it In this struggle? And why you were doomed To be fooled?   Oh, that's my character, is it?  No And now I came here only to have a look at you And it was enough to burst your bubble Have I uttered a single reproach? Have I moralized or preached sermons? No I played a joke or two on your dear consort And nothing more was needed to finish him But there is no reason why I, the complainant Should be defending myself as I am now Tecla, have you nothing at all to reproach yourself with? Nothing at all Christians say that our actions are governed by providence Others call it fate In either case, are we not free from all liability? In a measure, yes But there is always a narrow margin left unprotected And there the liability applies in spite of all And sooner or later the creditors make their appearance Guiltless but accountable Guiltless in regard to one who is no more Accountable to oneself and one's fellow beings So you came here to dun me? I came to take back what you had stolen Not what you had received as a gift You had stolen my honour And I could recover it only by taking yours This I think was my right or was it not? Honor? Huh And now you feel satisfied Now I feel satisfied Brings for a waiter And now you are going home to your fiancé I have no fiancé Nor am I ever going to have one I am not going home for I have no home And don't want one A waiter comes in Get my bill I am leaving by the eight o'clock boat The waiter bows and goes out Without making up Making up? You use such a lot of words that have lost their meaning Why should we make up?   I am beginning to suspect Something terrible With him? Do you still love him? Yes And a moment ago it was me Was that also true? It was true Do you know what you are then? You despise me I pity you It is a trait I don't call it a fault Just a trait which is rendered disadvantageous By its results Poor Tecla I don't know but it seems Almost as if I were feeling a certain regret Although I am as free from any guilt as you But perhaps it will be useful to you To feel what I felt that time Do you know where your husband is? I think I know now He is in that room in there And he has heard everything And seen everything And the man who sees his own wraith dies Adolf appears in the doorway leading to the veranda His face is white as a sheet And there is a bleeding scratch on one cheek His eyes are staring and void of all expression His lips are covered with froth Shrinking back No, there he is Now you can settle with him And see if he proves as generous as I have been Goodbye He goes toward the left But stops before he reaches the door Goes to meet Adolf with open arms Adolf Adolf leans against the door jamb And sinks gradually to the floor Throwing herself upon his prostrate body And caressing him Adolf My own child Are you still alive?


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