Hello everybody. Welcome back to esoteric Atlanta I am of course joined by my friends Emmy and Stephanie and me from holistic Jeannie and Stephanie from spiritual perspectives of our great awakening before we get into the topic at hand because boy Do we have a doozy? We are stuck on planet Earth. We have no choice but to ride this rollercoaster ride Which was that's what this means is truth.  But before we get into the topic at hand I do want to go ahead and share you guys. I am For me specifically with 47,000 subscribers. I'm heavily shadow banned you guys Like the numbers just don't even make make sense. And so I appreciate you guys for sharing my stuff I know that a lot of people have been telling me that they go They realize they haven't seen my stuff in a while. They realize that they've been unsubscribed to my channel And so double-check that. I thank you guys so much for helping us out Of course, you're on osoteric Atlanta, but this is a Emmy's page holistic Jeannie with Emmy Make sure you're subscribed to her Double checks to make sure you're still subscribed because they're doing that and then of course Stephanie is over here with spiritual Perspectives are great awakening. She has a live coming up to this evening too as well so make sure you join her over for her live and So before we get into that Stephanie before we get into the topic at hand, can we ask the cards? Why are we so shadow banned? I? Think I know why but It's very frustrating I will tell you guys when you put this much work into your channel and it gets banned shadow banned It's it's very frustrating But we do appreciate all you guys for helping us out I can hate when the cards make no sense at all. Yeah, okay listen No, listen, I'm going to just Been reading all day so bear with me I'm gonna ask mr. Odin over here with these other tarot cards. I Just use that other deck just now, so maybe I still need to clean off more energy from it. Who knows let's say Well speaking of guys while she's pulling I'm gonna go ahead and she's got some courses coming up as well So I will leak Stephanie's website down in the description box below if you want to take any pendulum courses or tarot card Courses and I'll let after she pulls I'll let stuff Stephanie add to that before we get into I need to explain something with that by the way my courses so My tarot course I didn't have enough sign-ups, so I have to push it out a little bit So I'm gonna be actually I didn't get anybody any sign anybody signed up yet for the live tarot course if you have requested something in my recorded tarot course Something messed up on the website with the dates that will be going out to anybody signed up this week So the website that I have that I use to be confusing and Then what a well that what else am I most people signed up literally for my herbal course or my pendulum courses And I'm not worried about those because those are all good Um, this is more or less The tarot courses, so I'm gonna be pushing that out probably to the end of November or something like that for the first day Until I get more sign-ups perfect Um, and then Bryce did you want me to go into my shadow worker my shadow work reading at all? Yeah I was gonna see if you wanted to announce that so I was gonna. Yeah, if you want to go ahead and announce that you're more than welcome to okay if You are signed up for the 30-day challenge And you want a shadow work reading from me? If you're doing the 30-day challenge, which means you have to be in the signal group You need some message me on signal through the group So you go into the group you sign up. You're in the group. You're in the chat in the group You'll see me that I'm one of the admins click on me Message me. I'm offering 25% off. So for an hour You're getting a full-hour reading for $56 and 50 cents if you want a half an hour from me That's $26 and 75 cents with the 25% off and that's for people who are doing the work And I will right now to the signal group in the description box if you still haven't found that link And if you're doing them the challenge and I pot guys Stephanie's in a hotel right now So that's why the internet's a little bit sketchy. So anyway, all right Okay, so number one we're shadow band cuz For the light Okay, yeah, so we're of the light Like trying to isolate segregate You know shot us down kind of a thing Thank God not gonna last long. We had a wheel of fortune with the ace of cups Yeah, and it got real bad when I announced my challenge is when my shadow band got real bad freeze It's okay. Yeah, it's fine. But the dark forces were like oh hell no We don't need these people figuring out that they actually hold the power themselves to to heal themselves and to turn this This ship around so I figured that's what it was And I know that the military back channel Told us that 90% of the truthers were infiltrators and I begin off camera. We laugh about it I'm like I can name on my hand. How many people are actually Innocent and good and doing this out of the goodness of their heart So so thank you guys so much. You guys said I've said this before we're gonna get into this with emmy in a minute with The astrology of what's going on, but when we study deep spirituality, this is why we keep telling you This is not about sitting back eating popcorn and watching a movie That nothing is gonna change. What do I mean by this? We can't heal the macro until we heal the micro This is the Michael Jackson song man in the mirror, you know our wounds our wounds are what? vibrationally have allowed for all of this nefarious Crazy criminal Bullshit to continue So we want to stop the crazy nefarious bullshit, especially with these things these little humans Then we have to heal ourselves first because once we raise our vibration up from healing ourselves that behavior Cannot cannot exist on this planet. No And so that's oh Yeah, I'm gonna say everything we see out there Everything is a reflection of our collective shadow What we're seeing what is being reflected back to us is our shadow we all have to do our part Nobody can do your shadow work for you. There are people that can help like Stephanie with her cards I can help with Reiki if something is coming up in your shadow work, and it is just incredibly overwhelming And you need a little bit more help Give me an email if you want help trying to figure out an issue Email Stephanie, you know use people that can help you but no one can do the work for you We all have to do this and the sooner we all do this the sooner the outside will change Um Yeah, that's I mean, that's it's all right before we get to that She's right because we have three we know spiritually karma is action and reaction. It's cause and effect It's our work, and we know through spiritual text that I have studied Extensively that there are three categories of karmas that each of us are working on that no one gets away with You can't ignore any of these three the first one is your own personal karma from this life and last life So your friction the second one is your inherited karma So the stuff in your DNA the emotions that come up that aren't yours that you literally decide and you've decided this So when you're the sperm hit the egg whatever that little one little sperm was carrying that vibration was carrying and that egg Was carrying you picked that that was what you picked to take on So you can't blame these these issues on your parents or your grandparents you literally Pick that for a reason because it was gonna offer you an opportunity to grow But then what Emmy hit on is the third karma. That's the collective karma every generation every timeline has a collective karma and We spoke about it this this morning on Aquarius rising Africa the fall of Atlantis which you can look at that way We're here mirroring that back again collectively, but even if you take Atlantis out of it You look at what an opportunity see this see our generation see what we're going through in 2020 as an incredible Opportunity we get to be here to work through this collectively to take that quantum leap together But we can't work on it collectively until we work on it in that first category, which is the individual karma What I'm gonna Sign in on my phone because you guys are freezing like crazy. Okay, cool. We'll just yeah Okay And so and so that is what Emmy is saying We can't bypass the individual karma that we have to work through just to heal the collective because the collective is made up of a bunch of individuals All right, it sounds like common sense, but for a lot of people it's it's a it's a really hard concept to understand We can't what we've said it before Emmy. What is it when you point the finger at someone else? She got three fingers pointing back at you. Mm-hmm, and that even includes people like Bill Gates and Hillary Clinton With the finger at them you got three that doesn't mean you're doing the same thing they're doing It just means that your wounds are allowing it to continue. I hope that makes sense I'm the tough love teacher Stephanie's the tough love tarot card reader. I feel like Emmys is the kindest of us all I Like nope So anyway, so we know and what we wanted to focus on we talked the three of us talked to been texting a lot about this and Emmy And I spoke a lot before Stephanie signed on about this. We know that this week We're gonna be talking about the astrology of this week in particular this upcoming weeks because we are coming up to like our second Eclipse and it's a big one. It's a big boy. It's a big old doozy and it's no Coincidence that the midterms are happening this week. That's all I'll say on that because we don't want to flag anything But we're not gonna focus on that our way. We're not even gonna talk about the macro We know what's gonna happen in the macro is gonna happen But in order to course correct in this opportunity that the planets are allowing us to happen We got to work on our self. We got to fix our self So with that being said Emmy I'm gonna put it on gallery because that might help with your internet situation Stephanie I'm gonna let you take it away.  There's just so many points and things to consider and they all Correspond with each other and it's all about the inner self and inner work. It's really quite quite fascinating Okay, so we have a total learner wound Wow We have a total Yeah, right end of December end of December. Okay, so total lunar eclipse in Taurus tomorrow and This this lunar eclipse is working with Uranus and the North node Everything is in Taurus and if you guys remember When I talked before the North node is where we are going South node is where we're coming from North node is going where we're going and Uranus is all about upheaval and chaos and swift moving change So in this time it's going to be Individually moving you forward and illuminating the aspects and themes for you and in your life That God universe source consciousness, whatever you choose to call higher power is Going to highlight and bring to your attention What needs to be healed and purged and cleansed out for you? It's going to be different for for every one of us So Venus is the ruler of this lunar eclipse and right now she is in the opposing sign of Scorpio, so you've got moon Uranus North node in Taurus and you've got Venus and Scorpio on the other axis and When Scorpio is or excuse me when Venus is in Scorpio She's very intense Very very passionate. There's like total commitment a complete focus on Whatever it is that you're looking at it's it's a time of profound healing and transformative love And then Venus is working with mercury and the Sun mercury and the Sun are also in Scorpio And if we take a look at How Mercury behaves in Scorpio? It wants to get things done. It wants to get to the root The it's very probing very Investigative and observes every detail So if you think about how well this stuff works together in terms of inner work shadow work Highlighting what it is that you need to focus on and work on It's really quite profound and then also the Sun is in Scorpio and when the Sun's in Scorpio you have The enlightened side of things you can have archetypes like the shaman and the alchemist Again those kinds of archetypes are really prevalent in doing that deep healing inner work that we're doing this month You know, there's a lot of bravery and depth and mysticism and transformation when the Sun is in Scorpio And then let's flip to the other side and Taurus you've got the moon and Taurus and moon and Taurus is very study very trustworthy comfortable secure stable kind of restrained It's really got a theme of slowing down and feeling your emotions in your body Connecting with nature and art to ground so You can see how these themes are very similar, but very supportive of each other with this type of of work right now And then Uranus we talked briefly about Uranus and Taurus Kind of shaky with security and wealth Upheaval like economic upheaval It's a great time to get creative with financial endeavors It's a it's a very inventive and innovative time like this would be a great time for these amazing young minds to come up with a better system a better way of doing something a better way of investing a better way of Doing any kind of Economic stuff, especially right now because we have all of this financial Upheaval with the inflation You know, it's just everything is costing so much money and people are are struggling to pay their bills and get gas and groceries and it's just a very insecure time financially and also Taurus rules food Uranus and Taurus rules food farming and agriculture. So I found that kind of interesting. It's like you have this theme going on Where Uranus and Taurus is great for like creative new ideas innovating um coming up with new systems and then it rules food farming and agriculture like I mean, this is like the main theme we got going on. I mean I saw um I saw an article this morning that The picture of the article had Something some sign in Philadelphia that saying that there was no diesel like they're out of diesel. You know that is foundational to get our food to people to harvest the food How are they supposed to harvest the fields without diesel? you know And then the north node is where we're going And Taurus themes are are slow and controlled sensual stubborn comfortable um It is there are theme themes of financial security. So it's like even though everything is kind of crazy with the um inflation and the recession going on If you can get past the fear and just start thinking creatively And come up with some kind of side hustle or some kind of um really great idea for residual income You know now would be the time to do that because the stuff isn't going to go away anytime soon You know and and if we're struggling now I don't think that's going to get any better So it's like we really need to pull together and get creative and now is the time the energies are supporting that kind of endeavor Um, so, you know just be smart be smart about it Be cautious, but don't be so cautious that you're not willing to take a risk because it's just It's a good time to do that kind of stuff cautiously And then okay, so all of this stuff all of these themes kind of pointing towards inner work In Taurus and Scorpio And then we've got Saturn and Aquarius squaring all of it And what a square does is it lights a fire? it Is it creates a Tension and a friction like what brice is saying it creates friction for getting this stuff done um And it's not it's not a bad friction sometimes Squares and oppositions get a bad name Because it can be kind of disharmonious But if you don't have that tension or that friction or that fire under your ass, are you really going to do anything? You know so um Saturn and Aquarius themes Show us common sense. It works for project progress. It's very scientific and exact There's a lot of authenticity. There's a lot of ideas for creating Enlightened and enlightened society. Um, there's practical and novel ideas for solving societal problems So it's like here we have this financial insecurity this instability this inflation But we have all of these energies that are helping and encouraging and supporting us in coming up with new ideas and being creative and innovating and Building and enlighten society How are we going to get there? um If we don't put the work in and if we don't put the work in there isn't going to be any space within us For these new energies to come in and start building things like we have to purge and make space For this stuff to come in and help Can we pause there for just one second because I want to talk about Saturn more because I know Saturn rules Aquarius Right like that's the kind of the ruler of query. I'm an Aquarian So I've gotten to know Saturn pretty well in my life But um, and I keep saying, you know, we always say on this channel Or we keep trying to say that darkness cannot create anything only the light can And we know in the whole time you were saying this any the whole time you were talking about How our structure basically the way that things have been structured in our world By the controllers We would call that very Saturnalian in a sense because Saturn is father in time We know that they that they manipulate Saturn and the whole time I was seeing this I was seeing Or maybe I was hearing I don't know Saturn going now. I get my justice Now I can be moved back to my original template where God placed me And so if you think about that even within your own life I know our friend Cindy said when she started working with Saturn she went and got one of those Oh, my mind's gone blank now. What are they called the um The rice that you are the the sand you flip it over And it counts the hour. Oh the hourglass. Yeah hourglass Um just like days of our lives, you know Um, she started working with that And so the whole time you were seeing you were saying that and if you know the Ramayana When Hanuman one of the things he does it gets Robin as he lights a fire He goes and strikes a fire to destroy Ravana. And so I kind of saw Saturn sitting there Squaring off with these energies Lighting the fire to also cleanse these energies and bring them back into harmonious balance With father time with the true template of of Saturn, but that's only going to happen if individually We fall into the correct template of Saturn. So if we don't give into the fears you can acknowledge the fears That the matrix has created But as you said create new bring Saturn back into that new pattern. So I just wanted to just just pause there for a second Because I thought that was just so profound as yeah, absolutely what with justice being served because remember guys God created all these planets And we know from the um Apocalypse or the apocalypse of Abraham on the messy books the bible God says the planets are in the fifth firmament which are messengers. Well, what are angels? Messengers So planets have an energy have a purpose just like Michael has a purpose just like Gabriel has a purpose The planets are sentient beings that have a job to do They they're here to support us even when we think oh every time pluto does something funky Which I know pluto is doing something funky right now.  Here we go You know, but pluto but it has that purpose because you're right.  There would be no magic if there if it wasn't for suffering Because suffering at the least of it suffering causes questions why Why why is there pain without the pain pain is real there is no questions without the questioning there questioning There is no mystic Yeah So anyway, I don't know if you guys want to if you want to go on emmy or Where you want to go from there That was awesome Um, I just have a little bit more and then we can do cards with Stephanie. You want? Yeah, okay so overall um Overall it's going to be a time of profound healing and transformation um And this healing and transformation will be met With however much you are willing to let go of so it's like You will heal and transform to the degree that you are doing the work Does that make sense? Um I think that there's going to be Quite a bit of third eye and heart activations um Depending on what's being removed and cleansed and cleared and and purged um, and definitely down to a cellular Level which is why I think it is so important for us to be doing physical exercise It just rings out your tissues and when you're trying to work Through your shadow, you know the body keeps the score that book is amazing If you guys don't have it, I'd I'd go get it. The body keeps the store. We store everything in our tissues um, so when you're Moving that and squeezing it out and ringing it out of your body It will purge and and also another thing I wanted to mention is um purging Can be emotional it can be anger and sadness and um just feeling really Down crying it can also be physical you can be sweating you can be vomiting you could be um Going to the bathroom a lot more like this is how our body gets rid of stuff So that's all normal. It's all good if you're if you have a day Where you're just an absolute basket case and you have just this really wide Range of emotions and you have no idea why That's a purge That's purging, you know, don't try to escape it. Don't try to bypass it.  I've used breathing techniques To breathe the the feeling out, you know, that that's that's possible. So just know that that stuff is okay. It's normal It's completely and totally shitty And it's not comfortable And sometimes, you know an entire day is spent just feeling But the more you allow yourself to do that the more that you're willing to do that The faster you're going to heal and the more room and space you're going to create for these new energies to come in And you know, it I never used to be a very creative person I always thought that um, you know, my brain was just too analytical to be creative But once I started doing the work, I noticed over time that My creativity Was sparked and I was like, where did this come from?  That's where we create a baby You know, I had Huge attachments and blockages in my sacral chakra But one of that once that stuff started to move out all of a sudden I had creativity and it was it was it's so fresh and so new that it was like Um, I don't know. I almost felt like a kid on Christmas like I'm creative Well, we are before so many people who are new to the spiritual path Um, get so focused on the ethereal and the the third eye and seeing reading and Devinating and all this kind of stuff that they forget that this can't be balanced until that's balanced Because the first it's like a domino effect the mulladar the first chakra if that shits out a whack guess what? The rest is too the rest is too and you have to descend you have to go back into the underworld Before you can come back up again and guys this is the book the body keeps the score That emi was speaking about this is an incredible book That really talks about what we're speaking about from actually a very scientific point of view of what's going on It's a heavy book to read. Um, I know a lot of people require it in courses and training courses So people understand more about this but I will put a link to this Down in the description box below. It's a very heavy book But it's very important that a very important book. I go back and reread this a lot. I have like sections marked off and stuff Um, but yes, so and that is your you're correct And I do think too. I mean we can say it until we're blue in the face But the spiritual me is Stephanie. I've been talking a lot about the initiates path Sometimes when you're on the spiritual path, especially if your dharma is to be a healer yourself The universe is going to literally blight you on fire Is going to literally take some kerosene good gas put it on you and light a match Because you have to go through it.  I I say this all the time You take it one step at a time if you got a crawl you crawl And it's like Marnie Alton says if you're it doesn't matter how fast you're going if you're going in the wrong direction But likewise doesn't matter how slow you're going if you're going in the right direction You know, so you just keep crawling you keep crawling you keep one you take the fear you acknowledge the fear You sit in the fear you allow the body to express it.  It's okay. That's one having you journal too Is that you have an outlet to to process this? You know and I think I think that's the most beautiful thing. I know about you ladies, but You know, I've been at this game for a really long time now and I I am so used to understanding The logic behind the theory of spirituality But seeing so many people especially in the support group starting to figure it out. It's pretty beautiful, isn't it? Hmm And just and I don't want to reiterate this guys and Stephanie I talked about this the other day when I said like You're going to be going to the under underworld multiple times You might as well just buy lakefront property there because it's not one trip.  You've already you've already shifted that vibrational frequency. You've already course corrected So don't give up Don't give up. You know, there's all these different uh graphs they show where people think success is point A to point B in a straight line It's this Is mountains and valleys mountains and valleys You know and and that's that's that's just how it is and that's how it is for every person.  I think that's why We're the emerald tablets are coming up now because this is what thoth was talking about This is the alchemy This is your secret weapon Your secret weapon is not posting memes on the internet Your secret weapon is not Bitching about the elite because we already know that that's the intellectual. We know that now Your secret weapon is going I'm going to heal me I'm going to go into my own underworld You the outside is trying to give us hell.  That's the that's the fun part.  And it's not the it's not the country out when I went to India the first time I was excited about traveling to India Experiencing the culture, but then you add in The classes getting up at two o'clock in the morning Again, you're ass hinted to you in the Mysore road then go into Sanskrit classes And then on top of that you're dealing with a different culture. And so you're being triggered more by mother India because You're doing the work on top of it. Does that make sense?   Yeah Eat it But here you are just the initiates path Because it's one thing to take and so when we see this and this is what starts to happen The more you go on this spiritual journey I'm not saying that you become immune to emotions.  God's not punishing you There's no punishment coming from God It's an opportunity for you to learn something Right, and I think that's something that that I blame the church for everything because literally they're at the top of this darkness We've been trained to believe That if something is uncomfortable, then it must be wrong Listen, we're the survivors our ancestors went through plagues went through great Strides and to get us where we're tough. We we can handle we can and that is one thing too I will say working in the slums. I realized There was a moment where I kind of realized even though I love being a westerner like I love the western rule too But working in the slums and seeing the way that these these children especially lived And being in their houses like being in their trash houses And seeing literally trash houses made of trash And literally being in a house where there is no bathroom. They all go to the bathroom outside Where the children don't have toys Where the children have no records so they go missing There's no I mean we bitch about our birth certificates, but the positive side of that is that we have a record You know if any of the three of us go missing we have an actual record of our existence these kids don't have that And so when I started the first my first trip when I really started working in the slums I would watch them. I would go into the slums and I would kind of like watch the kids And the adults too and a lot of them I would see joy in their faces And I thought how interesting is this? my existence my life compared to theirs I'm Daddy rock daddy. What was warbucks? Is that from annie that daddy warbucks the I'm daddy warbucks compared to them I have endless amounts of money compared to them now not in the united states I don't the united states. I'm very much struggling But in india with the rupee with the the the transference. I'll give you guys an example. So for me I'm sorry. I think somebody's outside My dog's barking for me To buy a meal in india for myself at like a western cafe because I do have thank god They have western cafes or I'd never eat sound like indian food It would be like 200 rupees for a meal That's high in india For pricing. Do you know how much that is in us dollars roughly about? A buck 52 dollars That's what i'm saying. So in india. I have so what that taught me being Long story short. That's why i'm saying i'm not rich here But I am there and being in the slums and watching these children and here I am I'm like man I complain because my iphone runs out of battery quickly or my ipads mess it up or are I you know I don't have the latest macbook But here I am watching these children who literally literally don't have a pot to piss in Like that's where that saying probably comes from. They literally don't have a pot to piss in and they're happy And so I realized one of the biggest disservices that the western world has given me personally is comfort And what a blessing that they were able to find the comfort In the uncomfortable They were able to accept what was Whereas for me as someone who Had everything compared to them I was struggling And they weren't and so that was a huge lesson for me to learn And so I just want to express that especially to the westerners not just it's not just americans. It's canadians It's europeans.  That's what's going to cause the change That's also what's going to cause the next time before start filming. I wanted to touch a bit on equanimity too because that's a huge, um Concept in the spiritual world. And what do I mean by equanimity having equanimity? When we go about our lives and we go about living our lives There are certain things we fight for that we stand up against we want to do the right thing We want to make sure we are fighting for the right thing. But what happens If the right thing doesn't happen Are we going to be okay? Within ourselves to accept that does that make sense what I'm saying does that make sense So I'm going to ask you guys that are watching this and I let's say that the flip doesn't happen for another five years Are you going to be okay with that? And if the answer is no Then that's where your work lies It's kind of like they say like when you're looking for a relationship the minute you stop looking the relationship appears It's like the minute you relax into the faith of the higher realms into the dharma of what's happening And you have that faith You can relax into equanimity Does that make sense? It's it's so hard to do guys like I still struggle with this This is I'm not saying this as someone who's conquered this like this is still part of my practice too Just see everything as an opportunity. That's why I love how Rob Doss always says like, you know, I say it a lot like oh This exercise pissed me off interesting interesting Oh, this is bringing this up interest.   This is all Just a learning experience for all of us. Anyway, um Next life venus I want to go Next life. I want to learn at venus. I want to do their their learning sounds a lot more fun than ours Talk about that sacral chakra that is where they do a lot of learning So earth is master class Let's let's hit them up too.  That's how tough you are That's how tough your spirit is So take that and be like, okay.  So the law of one we know that the earth is also ascending as well So earth will eventually be fourth density as well And as I've talked about with the what the yoga practice sometimes it's darkest before the dawn So what's happening to mother earth right now? What the better about my life It's sometimes darkest right before the dawn It's dark. It's pitch black. Yeah. So that when you're in that dark night That's why it's called a dark night of the soul when you're there keep going Because it's about to be dawn a new day is about to break Yeah, I don't know what's gonna happen, but it's coming I know emmy you had some progress didn't you you text us. Oh, I did I did this morning. Um, Finally, it's been I don't even know how many weeks probably two months now since I started my committed ashtanga practice and today finally, um, I got through The sun salutations and the foundational postures um I wouldn't say with ease, but it was not A deathly struggle like it has been And brace has me doing these, um drills with the blocks to strengthen my shoulders And I was literally able to get my ass another inch off the ground pushing on these blocks. I was like Who's the weights when you got your own damn body like Um, that's amazing and so you start to see we call that an ashtanga we call them the mice or magic When something you thought was impossible All the sudden starts to seem possible And that's because of the grit she would have not it's like resistance training If emmy had not committed and stayed on that track of working through that She would not have the breakthrough she had today Uh, because that resistance is what brought her the breakthrough So and I was Stephanie's fill in that hardcore Stephanie picked like the hardest course on earth to take Because she said I'm going to get reiki attuned and I'm going to work with a master ashtanga teacher All during the time that the universe the planets are doing this. So she literally was like You know, I've had 16 years on this course Stephanie was like give it to me. Give it to me hard and give it to me I don't know what my soul was saying If this has been guys when I say this freaking week has been no joke It's been no joke and I've had to do it while taking care of a dog and a teenager all in one extra credit homework Fighting my tongue at this like I've run into every road black. I go to check in at a hotel. I run into another road black I Okay, I'm just going to be real. I'm just going to be very very real with everybody I walked into a hotel and had to sleep there full blown infestation of roaches in one of them I cried all night.   I'm not afraid of that but sleeping with an infestation of them around me was quite traumatizing I'm still recovering from that Okay, you know on the bright side. It wasn't an infiltration of spiders So there's there's a light side of this. Okay, because I would I would have had a hard time in my sleep Needless to say I didn't really sleep that night um And so yeah, I'm on literally the hyperdrive crash crash force of spirituality I don't know what that f my soul was thinking Can I tell you what I see when I see your soul Stephanie sign it up for this When I see my mind die, I see this like wow cowgirl on a like soul That's like yeah, yeah, and then you came into the body and your body's like wait a minute But your soul's like yeah, let's do this And can we talk about how you said to me because you had done some divination to figure out which hotel to go to And you kept saying why did my divination tell me to pick this particular hotel and the hotel asked me again? I know why I know like you thought your divination was wrong.  Let's get you through it. Let's let's let's see. Here's your next course So that's why I want to tell you guys like we have to break this programming That anything that's uncomfortable is wrong because most of the time uncomfortable is right And it's god saying keep going Keep going next time anybody thinks their back pain is terrible. Just think of me in the road says okay Well, it's it's I mean and the funny thing is is I was telling somebody I have no problem with bugs like none whatsoever, I would have been probably fine there I would have just been like whatever but but but for me it would have been something else like when I went to India So I have a huge phobia of rats like Huge phobia like I have passed out seeing a rat before I don't know why That would have been fine for me. It's a little rat. I would have made friends with all of them But well when I got on an airplane and went to India. I knew full well That I was gonna have to deal with rats It's just a part of of of the ecosystem there A new full well that was coming And I was gonna have to breathe through it and so I forced myself there was one day Um, this rat was up in the daylight. I don't know.  I made myself watch it kept breathing through it I kept breathing through it I've had rats come into my apartment in india before that I've had to deal with One day in wed class a mouse ran across the floor the whole first row like jumped up You know, so I knew full well That that was going to be an ish now spiders.  And then there's all these like fights happening outside And I'm like Well, I can't just go to my car and empty out all of my luggage and make sure these things are in my luggage At the car and stay in my car tonight because there's all these people That was actually That's what it is I know I I I you know a lot of times when we come into that fear too We have to and that's why it's good to have somebody that you can call because I remember texting you saying Listen, if they're drug dealers Stephanie, they're not going to bother you. They're businessmen. You have to think of them as businessmen They don't want to get arrested They're not gonna they're not going to bother you know like you have you know to have to have that moment of kind of like That come to jesus moment to kind of calm the nervous system down and it is shocking because where you live It's very quiet at night. It's just nature and so then to come into a city a big city. I mean, atlanta is bigger than boston It's bigger than a lot of it's the new york of the south and so you're in a big city And so to hear the sounds of a city Are going to shock your nervous system But we need the nervous system to get shocked I think there's a very very specific reason why you had to leave connecticut to do this training Because it's not just that's what you start to learn. It's not just about the course It's not just about the teacher. It's also your life that's happening in your life Around the course and the teaching too. It's all part of it If that makes sense It's why mother india is also a part of the teaching when you go to india. It's not just the school. It's not just the ashram it's the country as well and as How strong the people will tell you mother india is the toughest teacher of them all I remember my first trip. I got when I got my first round of deli belly, which happens to everyone Where you're just because they have different parasites, right? So indians come here. I'm sure they have the same thing It's different parasites. So your body just has to get acclimated So they tell you when your stomach gets that upset To go and get coca-cola Because coca-cola can be used at that point is almost like medicine help calm your stomach And so I went to the local grocery store, which we call loyal world And I got really triggered because they couldn't find any coca-cola And I went to the sales girl and I said coca-cola and she goes. Oh, no finished finished Finished well, I got pissed and I was like because I was I wasn't feeling good. I was triggered I couldn't just go and get on a plane and go back home. I was in the middle of small town india And I said no, it's not finished. I'm from Atlanta. This is where coca-cola I'm from more coca-cola. I'm from more coca-cola is from I have friends that work for coca-cola coca-cola is not finished Well, then I realized when they say finished they just mean they're out Thank you, but that's how triggered I was so I just went to the store next door and got More coca-cola, but that's how true. That's how So it happens these things happen. It's it's part of it It's I mean, I'm sure emmy you probably have we talked about this about the healing crisis and how things kind of come around your life and like Do you think you're going to take these courses or go take on this teacher and life is just going to magically change Life does magically change But nobody said that magical was going to be rainbows and unicorns right Mm-hmm Another thing too. I want to say again.  It wasn't until after my third reiki class that I realized I was like This has got to do with these Uh frequency changes and me and so I contacted one of my teachers and I'm like this is what's going on And this is what has happened every time I have taken a class and they're like, oh, yeah Your vibration is higher than the people in your house and don't worry. You'll entrain them. I'm like entrain and It's amazing because when we're vibrating at a higher Uh frequency when we're around people For a extended period of time Our vibration will entrain meaning it will raise theirs almost like when you have a tuning fork and you ding a tuning fork And you bring another tuning fork next to it The second tuning fork will start vibrating at the same frequency of the first one That's what has to happen in your household and it usually takes, you know Four days to a week or so and it can be really really irritating and off putting I mean even animals Even my animals would get wacky sometimes. So I just wanted to Mention that again because even with shadow work and exercise and yoga. I'm noticing that I when I Um Go through a particular struggle and my vibration is raised I'll notice irritation in my husband and I'll be like and I'll just let him know. I was like, hey I've been doing this work. You know, he's familiar now I'm doing this work. I think my vibration is changing. I think we're just a little bit out of tune and then we can just give each other some space and You know, come back at another time if we're irritated again We'll just give each other a little bit more space and usually just a few nights of sleeping in the same room together We're fine But not knowing that Our house was in an uproar for like half a week And it was it was kind of difficult because here I am integrating these new energies And that's a process in and of itself. Stephanie. I'm sure you can attest Integrating new energies is a process in and of itself You know, my body is going through a major purge because it just it works on a cellular level So I'm going through all this friction and change and then everyone around me is so irritated So I'm going through that a little bit right now. So, you know, um, my dog has never been road trip before She's pissed she keeps giving me rbf.   She, um Yeah, she's uh, she likes things to be her way Very stubborn. She's her husky. So anyways, that's coming out in her Um, she hates this road trip. I can tell she hates it except going hiking We went hiking the other day. I should love that um And then even though Tyler loves to travel and he likes Bouncing from hotel and all that kind of stuff, but I can tell at the same time I think he wants to be able to go out and have an adventure So and there's not all the food you can eat like in we go home. So that that becomes a problem You know, I can only get so much at a time and everything like that. So I'm dealing with their energies like You know, he's complaining She's just You know, she's giving me an attitude and not listening to me. They kind of defined on this trip So i'm dealing with that And then I have the people at home who have they don't get why i'm doing this. They're like, well, that's irresponsible You know, so which is that, you know, brice and I talked about this is that programming, right? They don't understand. Well, if you don't have that kind of money, why you're doing it?  Thank god. I have like you girls, you know Cindy's there to support too. She's the one teaching me that reiki Todd has been my teacher for the yoga But thank god I have all these other people like you guys to help me get through where else I'd be I don't know where the hell I would be right now We'll think about what you're learning in the process Like I told you like there's a lot of people that will buy a ticket to and like we so I have a 10-year visa to india It actually expires in 2025 a lot of people get the 10-year visa So what does that mean? That means that I couldn't come in and out of india for as long as I want for 10 years Okay, so what people do a lot of times is they buy a one-way ticket to india Without any money to come home And they they go on faith that when they get to india They can work and so they'll do like like a lot of ashtangas. Here's also reiki practitioners or massage therapists or cupers or They do acupuncture and so They get to the school and we have like boards and they'll just put their services up And they'll charge indian prices so they're not overcharging you so it's really great for the students because we can get a lot of Shit done in india for really cheap Um, but they go and they don't have the money to pay for that ticket back and they make the money while they're there to pay for the ticket back and so I was thinking about that like how you were raised and What a disappointment that is for your parents and your siblings to not experience that and allow themselves to get to a place Because the person like you that took the chance You're gaining so much knowledge From this And you're gaining more of a stable faith As you walk through this with the money just like my my colleagues and peers who go And have to rely on working in india just to be able to buy their ticket back to america or europe How much more a character is being built in them Than just sticking in their own hometown always You're purely relying on me You're in that character is being that wisdom. I mean toad can tell you stories of The stuff he had to do in india when he was back in the 90s And it was worse for him in the 90s than it was for us in the 2000s. I mean Like I said when he got to bengalore, I mean and bengalore now at least you have like One of the luggage before that comes on the the moving compartment the carousel Back then they just dropped your luggage off. There were chickens running around and you had to literally find a flashlight to find your luggage No one helped you You know They had to go every morning after practice. He had to go pump his own water For the day from the well and carry the buckets of water up to his apartment for the day So for all of his bathing needs His laundry His dishes I mean the first time I got to my first trip to india.  So bucket bathing is a huge thing as well. So I had to clean my clothes by hand And when I first went I was like, oh, this will be fine. This will be easy Have you ever tried to clean your clothes in a bucket?   They're sopping wet now Here's the thing too that I realized The smog in india is almost as bad as it is in a city And so your white shirt Is not white after you wash it And I literally This is going to be so gross and I apologize if this Todd told me once that I needed to write a book A beginner's guide or an idiot's guide to going to india beginner's guide to going to india and tell people what to expect Ladies You're going to india You need to bring monistat.  I don't care anymore. They just start scratching The first time I went to india. Thank you god for my friend belinda who's from austria I love you belinda so much She already knew this and so she had monistat from austria.  That's full of tampons for the united states And these are things you learn but but when you're in the process of learning these things, it's not comfortable So my first trip to india after about two weeks Of just feeling gross because my clothes were not at the level of cleanliness that I was used to them being And I did not know how to I obviously did not know how to bucket wash I did not know how to beat the clothes properly with the rock Um, I found a service that was really cheap for me And they would do my laundry and then they explained to me that I needed to be ironing my underwear And ironing my yoga pants because bugs laid their eggs in the yoga pants in the tight pants These are things guys that people go through I when I say it's not pretty it's not pretty It's not pretty I mean, I look back at some of my pictures from my first trip to india my first month and you can see the stress in my face Because again as I said earlier if I was just there traveling for shits and giggles All of those obstacles might have been kind of funny But because I was intensely working on my practice intensely chanting, which is a whole other modality that is a That Todd wants to actually start with Stephanie that brings you to a whole other level Because I was doing all of this because I was doing pranayama because I was doing I have all these classes and I was getting up at two my nerves were shot And then the universe was like Here you go. It was like sprinkles on top like confetti. Here's some other stuff Here's the yeast infection Here's this here's that You know, we always say in india for the students that are westerners you have one you can have one meltdown You're allowed one meltdown before you're a asshole Because everyone has at least one meltdown in public in india because their nerves are just shot I don't think my friend chris is gonna might be saying this because chris is very easy going I met him in india. He he laughs a lot at everything, but we had been out all day And the funny thing about the rickshaw drivers my source is a very small town I know on my way around my store now. I very easily can get around my store But the rickshaw drivers for some reason get lost a lot, which is still a puzzle I can't solve because they're from my store if I know about my way around my store How do you not know you're aware and you're a literal rickshaw driver? So we were on the other side of my store. We had been to devaragey market. We were tired We could have walked back, but he was like, you know, we're like, let's just get a rickshaw I'll just make things easier. So we pull this rick. We fly down a witch rickshaw chris asked Do you know when he gave the address our address and gogolam And the rickshaw driver bobbled his head now we've talked about the head bobbling before In india my indian friends have tried to teach me that there are different bobbles that mean different things But as westerners it just looks it all looks the same to me So the rickshaw driver bobbled his head at chris and chris looked at that rickshaw driver and he lost it I don't know what that means like just lost it And that was his one and then we got the rickshaw.   They'll just think you're crazy. Anyway, they don't know. Oh Because like for me it it's kind of like that culture shock You know, I I grew up in about 20 minutes south of park heard in a town called berlin Connecticut and it's a regular suburban town now I've been out of that type of type of town for now close to 10 maybe you'll Actually, I would say 10 or 11 years now and I live in a very quiet town Much doesn't happen there you get pulled over very easily for speeding because the cops are bored you know and so Coming into the city The hustle and bustle of the city and even outside in marietta where it's just a regular suburban town outside of Atlanta A lot, right? It's a lot because the energy is like overwhelming and Now if I had like a beach nearby I could Probably hand a little lot easier because that helps, right? But I don't have that so I've been going through the culture shock of being in a city too And I've been drove in and out of the city every morning to go to my store. So Um, I drive the city like a boss now And the thing is I was So fearful to drive in and out of Atlanta every morning 5 30 in the morning But now I just get in my car and just do it and it's like regular life now. You know, it's I don't You know, that's it Bio over came a fear there now it's like overcoming the fear of like Well, where am I going to am I going to have a root over my head? In a couple of days because what I do is I book a couple of hotels or I book a hotel out Where my money reaches and then okay? I get a couple more readings or sell more jewelry or whatever I've been doing because I'm working for it Obviously, I'm working for it. I'm not just being handed Which is what which is what the people in india do they work their way through it? Yeah, so working my way through this and That's my next that's that's a big that's actually a huge fear for me and I'm just explaining this because Now We talked about this the other day Bryce. My dad passed away when I was four and a half. Well, that's a big big Shock to the root chakra because that's your daddy is security, you know So even had a bad relationship with your father. That's going to create a shaking in your security, which is your malabanda mulladara mulladara is the chakra malabanda's luck. Yeah, mulladara so This is really bringing up those security fears As much as I like to travel and bounce around and just I can just for the moment Create plans where I'm not found to being in one place at one You know all the time. I don't like staying in one spot all the time. I've always been like that I still like the security So this has had me facing the fear of not having security in the life. Yeah So what is security security is also comfort? Yes Yes, so whatever you're wherever that wound is that's what's going to be presented When I was first a single mom I had security From six years old to 18 years old. I looked at the same house between those ages Before that though things were a little interesting. I moved a few times. I was bouncing around from my mom to my dad to my grandparents things were in Very very unstable dad passes away Things become even more unstable and then suddenly I'm I moved from Florida to Connecticut up until I was 18 and so It's bringing up those childhood wounds of that instability um, but even when I was a young adult uh being a single mom I had been homeless for about four weeks of time during a little You know period of time after I gave birth because I had Up and had to get away from My son's father who was very very narcissistic um, so it's bringing up those wounds as well So that I could heal from it. I I see what's happening. It doesn't make it easy But I see what's happening. So just explaining this so people are going through these types of things I'm gonna present them to you It's what you signed up for when you signed up to heal you have to examine the You know in the opening chant it's I you're asking for your poisons to come up So they can be healed. What are your poisons?  I'd be pimping her out like I'd be a billionaire by now so They're in order for us to I don't know why we think as humans that to heal We're going to bypass the wound and then put the healing on it. No, we have to actually examine what happened And that is true and I will say too Stephanie, you know Because of your life circumstances and I can see why your soul agreed to this Not only is it you being in a city where you're not used to and and elana's are really I want to express that like when I say She's in a city elana's half the size of new york, but it's bigger than boston It's bigger than dc elana's it's bigger than miami elana is a huge city And it's a driving city so I mean I went when I listen kids who grew up in elana are the best drivers Because they learned how to drive they they put where their feet were held to the fire at 15 years old And they had to learn You know, it's it's it's it's bad. And so the fact that so let's look at what happened to your nervous system So not only have you been in this tiny tiny town But you also haven't had because of the life circumstances that you were put under You haven't had the opportunity to really travel that much And so you're not only moving yourself from the comforts of a small town to a big city and having to deal with living in a Big city because that's what you're doing right now is you're actually living here. You're not here for vacation You're here living and learning and studying But your nervous system is also on shock because you're traveling Um, we call that votted derangement. That's an actual thing that happens to your nervous system when you travel around a lot now for someone like me When lockdown happened, I would fly like 10 15 sometimes 20 times a year I was going international all the time. I was constantly on an airplane Constantly traveling And so when lockdown happened, I had the opposite happen where all of a sudden I was grounded Indefinitely so the opposite Adrenaline shock the opposite because the body and the the body and the mind and I am vata and traveling is vata That's why it's called vata derangement traveling is a vata as a vata energy I have a lot of kappa and my moon isn't for go So that's a grounding and so for me. That's why travel is so easy for me It's because that's that's feeding into the that's what I am. I'm a and I'm also an aquarium aquariums are wonderlust We're air there aquarium air about to air. So you think about being an airplane in the air You know and so but the word but that's that what what gets bad for me though is the the jet lag which is Feeds into the vata which can feed into the anxiety of vata So that I have to be aware of that when I travel is that jet lag can affect me worse than it'll affect a kappa You know, so that's just why we get to know the energy But I want you to acknowledge that so not only are you moving yourself from a very and I told tyler the other day I was you know, he was talking about Your hometown in Connecticut and like how he didn't like it because it was so small and I said, yeah I've been in I quake ways in bobway tiny town in Africa That was the smallest town I've ever been to until I came to Stephanie's house Our town was smaller than quake ways in bobway And I'm tiny town. So it's a tiny town. It's tiny. I think I grew up in I mean my hometown is very similar to marietta the same hustle and hustle lots and lots of people But I I tend to like You got but your kappa and you got to a small town and it got sedentary there Now I have I have a nice mix. I I am a try dosha. I am an air sign. My son's sign is an air So, I mean I could go either way But because I got so used to Because I was so I was there for so long. I think A pattern there was No, funny. That's a lot. We're gonna put you in the city for a little while So let's so let's look at that patterning because we talked about the burning up, right? So that's why we have yoga fevers. That's why getting a fever is normal for if you get a low-grade fever You're detoxing. That's normal. It's called the yoga fever And so what happens when we have when we have patterning in our body? So she got stuck in a pattern and she wanted to change that pattern So what did the universe said?  Okay.  So that's what you're going through is the contrast. I call it controlled demolition You're you're using it as a controlled way. You're not going to go homeless You're not going to be sleeping in your car. You know people. I'm here. I'm just down this.  I got you. I got you but the teacher means like no I have to let her kind of be by herself for a while. I want to hang out with her every day But I'm like, no The someday she needs to be by herself because she's here to learn she's here to go through the You know, I had to be left by myself, you know, that's the hardest thing in india that's what people in india the westerners that go there gets so close is because We're all we have really But there are times where you have to make that decision Like I actually need to go home and be myself by myself for today because I need I need to not distract myself in a process, I mean that's why people get in trouble a lot in india because There's a lot of Panky-panky that happens in india outside of the shawl and I think it's because people there's a lot of heat There's a lot of tapas. There's a lot of emotions coming up and I think people get also want to distract themselves And so they find a mysore boyfriend or mysore girlfriend You know, it's 333. Oh wow, that's that's yash was saying yes girls You're being coming up in a couple of minutes and I have a child looking at me like why are we kicking so long? I'm gonna have a dog in back and he needs to go out Well, yep, and you know tyler and and your dog their souls agree to do those too Anyway guys, well, we'll go ahead and end it here. We'll do another shadow work video soon I know that we just want to talk about the astrology and You have a little misery loves company, right? Like I just we want to acknowledge that all you guys do in the shadow work We know it's rough. We know it's hard. We know you're crying.  I mean literally we should make t-shirts that say shadow work challenge the hot mess express get your ticket love it You're not alone. You're not alone. That's why that's why I created the sport group. Yeah Oh, and if anybody lives in Atlanta I'm doing readings for life. So Yep I'm gonna take stephanie old doll's head trail at some point this week the creepy doll's head trail. We'll we'll take video of that That'll be a nice distraction It's on the other side of it. I'm gonna take you. I haven't even taken you. We have a village Like new york has a village. We have east Atlanta village. We have a village here in Atlanta, too I haven't even taken you to that side of town Stephanie. There's a whole world in Atlanta You have yet to see so um, I'll take you through east Atlanta village And then uh, we'll go do doll's head trail and get creeped out. So All right, ladies, we love you guys leave us your comments down in the description or the comment section below Again, we're being shadow banned So share this if you can help us get the word out because we are all just walking each other home We all have to go through the storm. We are the storm So we got to go through it first So we understand that we are the storm and so we we all want to get to the other side of this heal ourselves Move on because what is mr. T say the best is yet to come It is always darkest before the dawn. So all right guys, we love you join our signal support group I'll put the link down in the description box below and um, yeah anything else you ladies want to say before we part ways Don't give up.  It's there for a reason. So all right. Love you guys We'll talk to you soon. Bye everybody. Bye