Alright, what is going on still spinning 73? We're back, this is a podcast I've wanted to do for a few weeks now But I'm glad I waited because I actually learned a lot more along the way But I just got really hyped about some new little techniques Or things that helped my life, improved my life habits Which is something I really like to share And hold on, I gotta turn this down a little bit, I don't know how to do it Anyway, so I have been meaning to do this for a while I'm just gonna kinda get right into it but still spinning The Earth is spinning right now I really want this podcast to be about raising your awareness Living your life to the fullest, just simply to enjoy it more Because as I've been doing that and my life has been more enjoyable It's just been filled with so much enjoyment And that's pretty much it, I'm not gonna get into that Thanks for tuning in, thanks for pressing play Yeah, much love, let's just get right into it So, today's podcast, if you've listened to the one in the past I read this book called Think and Grow Rich And that really kind of started my journey into kind of manifesting things I was really hyped about it, tried to use it, really got into visualization But then more recently I read, just like this past couple of months or two I read Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself Which kind of talked about the same exact thing but brought science to it And the reason I'm really hyped to share about this podcast or this podcast with you Is because learning these techniques and learning all these more information Connects the sort of spiritual with the reality we're in And makes it more concrete And I feel like if you knew everything that I learned or read everything that I learned It would resonate with you a lot more Because I love analogies and when things kind of connect Because I'm always questioning and I never really believed in anything like this before But the more I learned, the more it's kind of connected And I find concrete examples that are kind of undeniable So I really wanted to share that with you I have my little notepad here, if you're watching the video, what's good By the way, if you're watching the video, these are available on audio On all podcast platforms, or at least iTunes and Spotify, the big ones And I think SoundCloud and Google Play too And Spreaker's all on my website But the point is, there's a lot about journaling I've talked about that, if you're following my Instagram You see I've been meditating more, journaling more And there's a lot to that, and I want to get into it all It all connects, so stick with me I'm going to go through like a whole story time But I promise you it'll all connect And I've told the story to a ton of my friends already But I've been meaning, I've been kind of sharpening it So hopefully it comes all coherent But I really hope, just by the end of this That you're just intrigued a little bit Just to think a little differently Because it's definitely changed the way I've thought And it's made my life better And more efficient and more productive And I feel great about everything about it And I just, every time I learn something this impactful It makes me want to share it Because it's made such a big shift in my life That's made me do a lot more with life Okay, here we go So Think and Grow Rich If you haven't read it You can go back to the other podcast Where I talk more about it Basically talks about how your subconscious Is connected to the universe Or the collective unconscious Where all the information is And it kind of makes that made sense to me Because everything you've ever thought Came from somewhere Or was already there You just kind of had to discover it Even like high level math And things like that They just had to keep discovering it And it takes higher level thinking But it was already there So, and then on top of it He was saying how emotions kind of connect Your subconscious to that other field So from our reality through emotions You connect to that So that made sense to me There's more to it But I'm just going to leave it at that And basically the emotions are kind of Like a higher frequency So you're kind of tuning into that And your brain is like the little receiver That was kind of spiritual I totally get it And it's kind of like out there a little bit But I believed it Also because it linked back to Making progress with dunking With the visualization You need to have a strong desire And if you truly believe it It happened So like for my first dunk I knew I would get it Because I had prime examples Like Andy and different people That showed me it was possible So I believed it 100% But then things that I couldn't get to That 100% belief were really hard Like the dribble dunk And then I used visualization And all that stuff So that was all like the spiritual side And sort of the Trying to just believe in it But More from just an emotional Experience side But then So now I'm just going to do A little tangent of the placebo effect I know it sounds like we're all over the place I'm telling you I'll bring us back I'm going to bring it full circle So placebo effect I listened to a podcast with Joe Rogan As usual This was a while ago But this guy brought up the placebo effect I think he was I forget who he was I really should know this I might have brought this up in another podcast So I'm sorry if I did But simply Everybody believes in the placebo effect I think the majority of people do If you don't It's pretty Why is it so loud? Okay, there we go, sorry So the placebo effect What happens? You take a pill thinking it's something And it still heals your Element, whatever it is So we've all had the experience probably Or maybe we've heard of the experience And believe in it And so what's happening Your mind is thinking You're taking something And it heals it But this guy was explaining Why don't we try to use that to our advantage And I believe When he said that I never thought of it that way And it's basically saying Okay, so if we know that it's real Meaning like we know that If we give someone a placebo Versus an actual medicine The placebo may work just the same Just because they thought it was the medicine So what's happening there Their mind is literally changing Their physiology So we know that the mind can do that Or a thought Or the belief of doing it Or the belief that's working Will actually change your physical body And there's a million studies on that So why not knowing that That you can take a pill Why not try to do that to your advantage And then the thing is For me that makes perfect sense Is that it's hard to believe If I tell you right now That you have knee pain And you can just think of it Going away That's really hard to get yourself to believe that But I'm choosing to believe That if you can get to that hundred You can believe it Because we have studies that show That if you took a pill And for some reason if like In the future If someone said this pill cures knee pain You would take it And it would work You'd believe in it But if it was a placebo It might work as well Because if you just believe so hard In some fake evidence Or whatever it was The point is is that We could try to use that to our advantage Knowing that it's happened I think I've hammered it home A million times in the same circle But you get the point So placebo effect It'll come back in the story as a theme But basically that your mind Can control your physiology And we can use that to your advantage And we probably should be trying to do that And it ties into the visualization Okay, so going on to What was I right there? Energy opens perspective I'm reading my notes Okay so going on to breaking The habit of being yourself This is where it starts to Get more science and more concrete So Joe Dispenza wrote the book It's a really great book I suggest you read it It's kind of He breaks it down to the atom level And that's what I'm going to get into The first chapter talks about how The atom I'm not going to say this perfectly right But you'll get the point And it's also another theme That will go throughout the story I hope that I don't know how this is sounding But I hope you're enjoying So the atom In the past we've used to think I think like the electron That's like surrounding the atom Or something like that Was just kind of orbiting it But now in the more Recent theory of that electron Is that it is in a wave And then the second we look for it To try to observe that electron It collapses into a particle And that is basically quantum physics It's a quantum theory of How atoms are behaving Something like that I don't know how to put it into words But there's smarter people that explain How the collapse of the wave Function in the quantum physics But I'll get into that a little later as well But basically he was saying that All atoms are 99.999 I think it was percent energy And the other 0.001% Is physical matter So that means all atoms Are mainly energy Mostly energy Meaning like a wave Not like a physical Thing that you could touch It's just like a wave Like a piece of energy If that makes sense So that's a pretty interesting fact Because that means Because everything is made up of atoms So everything physical Is mainly energy So that was like a new thought for me I never really knew that Now knowing that It's really weird to look at the world And think that every single thing you look at Is mostly energy No matter how physical it is now That's how we see it In this reality is the physical part But it's mostly energy And so That was like the first thing That kind of changed my mind And then The other thing he was talking about was How In the actual atom That the electron Is only in a physical space When you observe it It's called the observer effect And it has It's in a So basically in the little Cloud around the atom I think I'm saying this right But the concept is right I know that But I don't know if I'm using the little terms Properly But in the subatomic level Or whatever it is In the atoms There's like a cloud And it's like a quantum place And the electron Could be anywhere at any time We don't know where it is But it could be at all places At all times Meaning everywhere at once I know that doesn't really make sense But it's kind of in a quantum state Where it's a wave And it's everywhere But the second we go to measure it That's when it has physical time And space And Joe dispenses in his books Is explaining that's Very pertinent to the way We use visualization And the way we can approach Our lives Because if the atom Is acting that way When we observe it And everything is energy Just like those atoms Everything is made up of atoms Then the way we look at the world Can be affected by What we're observing And I kind of understand that now From later things But in the book I was kind of like I don't really get this So I'll tell you the part That I didn't really get So now he's saying Everything's energy And when you look at the atoms They manifest Or they turn into a physical piece Only when you observe it And that's real That's like real science That's what the quantum physics is So I'm like okay But then this is the part Where it kind of lost me So then he was saying When you're producing thoughts Which are also energy It's atoms Like synapses in your brain Or whatever And you visualize them That is making those experiences Real in every possibility In your life Every possibility in your life Is basically in that quantum state Any experience you could think of And then when you visualize One experience you want to have That pulls you closer To having that experience Now that to me was I was thinking well How is there a pull there I didn't really understand how I understood that if you visualized it It kind of made it real But I could think of a million different things How do I pull myself To the which experience I want I guess which one I Which one I focus on I'll kind of get pulled to But why am I getting pulled to it Why is it not just like making it real Over there If that makes sense So that was kind of I really struggled with that And that's what I'm excited with this podcast Because by the end of it I kind of understand it And I hope you will too Or understand more about it That makes me realize Why it's working Okay So now I'm at the point where I went, let's recap a little bit Thinking grow rich Manifesting with the subconscious Of the universe And kind of spiritual Placebo effect Where your mind can control your body Just basically because We have studies that you get it And breaking the habit of being yourself Telling me that all energy All atoms are energy And everything is energy of atoms Atoms of energy, energy You get it So everything's made out of energy And now The collapse of the wave function And that's how atoms are created Or not created But that's how atoms behave So if everything's made out of those atoms And that's how they behave Everything can be kind of altered Like that And that's what you do Okay So then Let's see where I'm at Okay, so now I'm confused How do I pull that experience to me I kind of get it I kind of understand that Even my thoughts are real And oh And the other thing about the subconscious This is a big key Is that I also learned with the placebo effect Or through these books Yeah, through breaking the habit of being yourself And my life coaching sessions Which is all about Neuro-liquistic programming That's the training center I'm in It's called NLP if you're interested And so I'm learning a lot about the brain And one thing I've learned With the subconscious That ties into all these things With your subconscious Is that Your subconscious doesn't know the difference At least emotionally With an experience you're having in real life Or you had Or one that you visualize You can still have those experiences Or responses For example, if you think of Getting hyped for a dunk Or landing a dunk right now If I visualize it too much My palms will get sweaty That's real That's tangible That's something you can prove That my palms are sweaty You could even prove Like my heart My heart right might increase But I didn't do anything I sat here and thought about it So that to me Is another theme of this whole story That's very important Because you are Just like the placebo effect Your thoughts are changing Your actual body So that's real You can't really dispute that I can understand that It might not be as impactful If you just visualize it But the point is Is that it's happening And there's more to that As well that this theory Will come back Okay, so we also know That visualization And your subconscious Doesn't know the difference Between visualizing something And it happening So that's a big theme as well Okay, so then randomly I was just like After I read the book I was like what the f is quantum I don't get this I want to try to understand it I want to learn more about it Because I've heard so much It's so fascinating I read this book Okay, so I started looking up quantum On YouTube There's a great video If you just type in quantum physics Understanding There's like a basic 12 minute video It says understanding quantum physics That's a great one And then there's another one That's called Why the earth might not exist I think it's by riddle It's more of those kind of Conspiracy ones But it still was really good Because it was talking about quantum physics It told you the main experiment Which is the two slit experiment And then it also talked about video games Which is what I want to get into Okay, so quantum physics In this two slit experiment What's happening is They're kind of firing things Through these two slits And they observe how they land On the wall So physical matter And physical particles Go through these two slits Just like you'd think And land in those two lines on the wall But if you were to for example Push like a ripple Through that like a water ripple When the ripple goes through the two slits The ripple comes out of the two slits And expands And will hit the wall In like a pattern That like drifts out Because the ripples keep expanding Just think of like dropping a pebble It's really hard to Explain this experiment Through words The video does a really good job Because it's very visual I'm very visual That's what I'm learning So I'm gonna try to explain it In the words But basically just think of like a rock When you first drop the rock In a pond The ripples go outwards Right And if there was like a If there was like a Almost like an opening Or a wall in the water And the ripples going towards that wall If you're looking on the video It makes sense in my video Because it goes through this wall The ripple It's like a big ripple It's expanding And then when it hits the wall This is not making any sense And when it hits the wall It goes through the slit In the wall A new ripple is formed And it expands outwards That's the point of it Anyway This is another thing That the concept is correct I don't know if I'm gonna use the words right But they were trying to I think shoot electrons through it And the way they were landing on the wall Was behaving like a wave But when they tried to Observe what was happening In this experiment It would turn the electron Into a physical particle So that was mind-boggling And that was kind of That's, I think that's the kind of The core of quantum physics Quantum mechanics Which is they don't know What's causing that collapse Of the wave function Or why All they know is that They're observing of it The fact that they're What am I trying to say? The act That's what I'm trying to say The act of measuring Or the act of trying to Observe what happens Is causing it to Change from a wave Into a physical particle And that's super fascinating Because that's really happening And that's science And that's actual quantum physics And that's like the number one Question of quantum physics I'm pretty sure And so it's called The collapse of the wave function You could find it everywhere And the videos are really helpful Because it explains What's happening visually And that helps me learn it a lot So I definitely suggest checking that out So that's happening That's quantum physics Now here's the really cool part They were talking about video games And when you think of a video game If you're into this This is really helpful If you're into video games Or at least understand kind of computers But you don't really need to I'll try to explain it So if you're thinking of GTA Grand Theft Auto That's the one that comes to mind It's a giant map Huge map It's probably like I think it's like Think of like all of New York Whatever it is And whatever your character is That's the part of the map That's generated Sometimes like in other games Like maybe the whole other part of the map That you're not looking at Or not in Is not even generated at all Or it's like generated But very simply And then when you go to that part of the map It kind of gets more detailed So if you're kind of with me on that Hopefully you are Basically what's happening is that Wherever the character is Say he's in like a small like One mile radius That's all generated But the rest of the 20 miles of the map Are not generated Why do they do this? This just makes the game more More efficient It's optimized It just makes total sense Because if you're running this huge Quality game with such great graphics It's going to take up way more Memory or way more power To produce a friggin 50 mile map At all times Rather than just one mile map And then wherever the character is It changes So that's really interesting Because it's the same thing As the observer effect That we were talking about Or I was talking about We were sharing in Because as the character walks He kind of has like a line of sight Right? So whatever he Like they were showing in the videos Like some games might be even more efficient Not only is like the little Like for a grant that thought I'll say he's like his little mile radius That's what he's observing But he can't actually see That mile radius But it just might be That's plenty of efficiency That he can have a whole mile generated But what if it's just his line of sight What if it's just like Literally what the character can see on the screen Like what you're seeing on the screen What if that's generated Then the second he turns his head That's what's generated So literally What's out of his sight Is not generated And then the second he looks It becomes generated Or more detailed or whatever And that is the same principle Of the observer effect Of the atom It's like it's not generated It's not there The city's not detailed Whatever it is The map of the video game It's literally not generated Then the second he observes it The character lands in that spot It becomes generated And you don't even know This is different You think the whole map's generated Given that there are glitches And sometimes you maybe go too fast And you'll see like buildings You might have If you've played video games You'll see like buildings And they get generated As you're seeing it That's just because it's Whatever It's like a glitch Or it's just What's it called It's just how it happens It doesn't really need to be generated It doesn't really affect the game AKA deja vu in our real reality Imagine that's what deja vu is You kind of see it happen You're like whoa That's a glitch Okay simulation So What's really fascinating to me about that Is that makes sense Again going back to the analogies That I love And concrete things Is that's happening in video games That's a real thing that they're doing I've played video games And it just makes sense From a logical standpoint To optimize the game that way So that's concrete And since that's real And it's real in quantum physics It's really weird to think That that's how our games are now And if they keep getting better And we keep making the maps bigger Imagine if we make the maps The size of the world Then If we make the characters more realistic And give them more physical features And then we start generating Their atoms of a human To like simulate a whole world We would make their atoms Do the same observer effect So it's just It's the same Congruency between What we're already doing in video games And how our own atom Is manifesting Or whatever How our own atom is behaving So it's so strange to me To me it's like Almost like conclusive evidence That it's some kind of simulation Not that it's a video game simulation But our universe is kind of connected In that way That it's kind of been happening And happening Because If we're doing it already And we extrapolate Our technology advances into the future And we keep getting better and better And more efficient Then We're not even going to know the difference Of what we're observing That's just getting manifested And we can go all the way down to the atom You get the point So that's super fascinating I never really thought about it But Let's see So It's the observer effect Happening in video games It's happening in quantum physics And now That helped me understand Why I Why visualizing From the book of Breaking the habit of yourself Why visualizing Produces that energy And And brings you towards that event Because Now thinking of the video game analogy Is that when I visualize this experience It makes it a real experience And the thing about the emotions Is that The other thing about the emotions is this Is that if you If you feel that emotion I forgot to say this when I first brought up The subconscious doesn't know the difference When you have those emotions Say you visualize yourself getting hyped For a dunk And getting the palms sweaty You're changing your energy That's another thing The Breaking the habit of Book is explaining And it's not that it didn't feel Like it just convinced me of that It just kind of opened my eyes to that So basically it's like Now I'm hyped And that's changing my physiology Now I'm producing different energy Because now I'm thinking everything's energy Everything I feel All my emotions is energy So if I'm visualizing something in the future I'm changing my physiology now with sweaty palms I'm also now producing different energy Which is going to make me Walk through life differently So that's really fascinating to me as well So now when I'm thinking about Visualizing experience And making it real And kind of manifesting it to happen That it's more If you think of it in terms of energy That experience is in a quantum state It's somewhere out there When I visualize it And make it real By visualizing it with emotion And feeling it It's kind of observing that experience In some space And it's making it real Because now it's bringing it to me In this current energy And now I'm going towards it Because now the energy I'm producing Is sort of What's it called So now I'm producing different energy And now I'm going to go towards that Because that's the energy I'm producing It's the same energy of that experience And now I'm making it in my current state So now that's why they're getting pulled together Does that make sense? That's still the hardest part for me to understand But because of Understanding the observer effect And it's making it more real It's not just like I'm making a Maybe you could understand it from How I told the story At first I thought I was just kind of like Having this vision And then I'm going towards it But now it's like that vision Or that experience has its own energy And then I'm bringing that to my current state So now I'm going It's almost like there's all these different paths Right? But then I connect to that energy So now I'm kind of connected to it So now as I go It's kind of that's the current That's the wavelength I'm riding on To go to that Reality over there That has the energy that I want Does that make sense? I hope that makes sense I think that kind of got that out good enough But now it's like Now the visualization is really powerful for me Because I think of If that's really happening In our atom And if I really If that's happening in our atom And it's basically saying that The act of observing it makes it real Then the act of me observing An experience I want to have in my future Makes that experience real And then also changes my energy to go towards it That's kind of it It still doesn't It's still really hard to explain Because it's more of a feeling, I believe But learning all those other things And learning the quantum physics And learning how the video games Are actually doing that And that it goes back to how our atom works And all those different things Kind of made me connect the dots Between why it's working before And before it was kind of more I think this works But I don't really get how Yeah If I figure out a better way to say it I'll say it in another time But I want to move on to the next thing Which is what I'm currently doing Oh, and the last thing about the emotions Is that the reason why the emotions help Is because when you use emotion In your visualization The weird thing is that in the Thinking Grow Rich book The emotions they just said Were like a higher frequency And you tune in to like the universe Kind of like spiritually woo-woo But this one is saying The emotions are the highest form Of energy, kind of the same thing But if you think about it You have those emotions You feel it now So when you just think about Experience without emotion You just kind of see it But when you have emotion with it You can feel those emotions now And that's something that's More concrete for me So the emotions are the key If you're trying to do Your little visualization do it So now I want to move on To me trying to practice it So after I read this book After I read the quantum physics I wanted to put this into practice I was doing visualization previously But I was having trouble sleeping Because I was trying to do I learned that your brain waves Go to more subconscious state When you're going to sleep And when you're waking up Like when you're in sleep mode That's more subconscious So a great time to do visualization Is in the morning or at night Before you sleep So I was trying to sleep on it Because if you fall asleep With those feelings Your brain kind of like Replays it over and over again So the next morning you wake up I've heard visualization At night is good But here's the problem I was trying to visualize At night Let me double check my camera Really quick So I was trying to visualize At night And it was getting me too Amped It was getting me too excited Because for example We used a dunk analogy I was trying to visualize Myself landing a dunk And I was getting hype And then I couldn't sleep Because I just wanted to Keep doing it I wanted to keep visualizing I wanted it too badly And it just made it too real I wasn't able to let go And kind of detach from it So I actually brought it up In my life coaching classes Because my coaches or teachers Are really They really into this And they really have Really good insight And all these type of techniques And visualization And how your brain works And I said it was causing some Anxiety Because I just wanted to get it done And it was kind of causing the wrong It was I was getting the right emotions Because I was feeling so excited But I wanted to do it now Now I felt like I was I wanted to go do it So I brought it up And he brought up journaling Which is really interesting to me Because I've been trying to journal I was writing my day down Most nights And just things like that And then journaling I asked about Can I write it on the computer Versus a notebook And this is kind of What I wanted to say In my podcast originally But then I learned All about these other things So this podcast I wanted to do a few weeks ago Was all about this journaling part So this is kind of The whole second half Which ties into this visualization So he mentioned that Journaling on paper Is way better Because it's connected to your hand And you're physically writing And your hand is very connected To your subconscious And what does that mean? That means that When you write these experiences down Instead of just thinking about them It makes them even more real Because your hand is connected To your subconscious In a very strong way And what he was explaining Was like there's a lot of Experiments to show this Or studies And one of them is like Holding a pendulum Which is just like A little thing that Moves back and forth And if you close your eyes And just kind of move it Back and forth And repeat the word yes It'll move, say, left or right It doesn't matter the direction Up and down It'll just move in one direction And then if you say the word no With your eyes closed And keep moving the pendulum It'll move in a different direction So basically you don't You're not even You're subconsciously moving your hand In different directions Just based on what you're thinking So your hand is very connected And when you write on paper Those experiences get into your subconscious Way more powerfully When you're typing on the computer You're not connected as much So that is That was something that was very powerful I did not know that And now the other thing That was really powerful about it Was handwriting So if you write every day And you're doing your journal every day You can go look back And see like an analysis So that's something fun you can do Like you can see how you write When you're more stressed When you're more relaxed, etc But what's great about that Is that when you can see When you're more relaxed You can use that to your advantage So for example If you're doing this With visualization at night You can write in a more relaxed state So by the time of your visualization It'll actually induce that state of calmness So if you like write super slow It'll kind of help you feel relaxed And I'm all about getting good sleep Like that's really important for me So I would love to get myself Into a calmer state Because I've always had the trouble Of wanting to do the most So I try to do like a to-do list Before I go to sleep But then that's using my problem-solving brain So they say it's good to really shut off But it's tough for me to shut off So this has really helped me a lot That's another reason I want to share This visualization And the other thing is that Simply writing it Since it's connected to your head It gets all those thoughts out Like it gets them out on paper And I was trying to do that with the computer But because it's more connected to your hand It feels like you're getting it Out of your hand Out of your head, I mean So, and that's great And then, oh yeah Back to the hand Connected to your subconscious You feel it more So when it's connected to your hand more You can feel those emotions more Like when you write things down It becomes more real Because since it's connected Your brain thinks you're having that real experience Much more strongly And you feel those emotions better Okay, so what I've been doing Is that night is the last thing I do Is I just kind of fantasize And it's called future pacing You can do just the very next day Like for last night for today I would say my podcast went great I got everything out I wanted to say I don't know if it's going great I think it is But I would like visualize myself Kind of hitting end on my recording And just feeling that sense Of how great it went And that gratitude is one of the most Is the strongest emotion Because it really produces A sense of accomplishment And then what's great about feeling That gratitude of like Wow, that was so great I'm so happy I got it done Then you go to sleep with that emotion And you wake up like it's already done You're producing that energy again And so you're in a different state When you're approaching your thing Instead of a state of Hope this goes well You're in a totally different state And that energy is really important To how it goes So it's just It all ties back And it makes more sense And what's great about the Breaking the habit book And all these different things I'm learning is that It's not just thinking that this helps There's a lot of brain chemistry And science that you can measure That proves this stuff So that's what I like I like this stuff that I can prove Because it helps me believe in it more Whether it's believing it Or it's just placebo effect It's still happening I brought that placebo effect back in there Smooth, okay But my point is that If I go to sleep thinking Well, feeling gratitude And I wake up and I have a great podcast I could be like, wow That visualization worked Now, did it work Because it was just placebo And I'm like, it's going to work And I think it's going to work Or did it work Because it changed my mind It doesn't matter But the other thing is that There probably is some things That we can measure scientifically What else? I think there was more Okay, so now the other thing about that Was that back to that placebo effect Of making things happen Making like better habits for yourself Like helping me get to sleep better The other thing I've been doing lately Is doing different triggers Like to help me get more productive Or make me calm And that's another thing about the placebo effect That I don't really care But it helps produce that energy And it's all tied into one So I'm trying to tie it all into All into, what the Tie it all together right now So for example, when I wake up this morning I did a meditation And I lit a meditation Incense that's called meditate Doesn't like smell like meditation But it's just, it's the point is That there's different incenses For different things I do So for example, when I wanted to start this podcast I lit another one that said energize So that way, even if it's just in my head Like I smell that trigger And then I do something productive Then every time I smell that trigger Smell that incense I'll get into a productive state And that's also something That you can measure as well Is that you've probably had This experience already When you smell something It brings you back to an experience you had So if you can Oh, I think my camera died one sec Sorry, my camera actually has Like a 30 minute time limit But also it overheats sometimes So I had to take work Anywho, it's gonna be really interesting If I ever get my own producer A little studio, that's gonna be wild Okay, I'm observing it And I'm making it real And it's gonna happen Cool, that's also all I have to do Great, okay So you've all had that experience Where you probably smelled something And it brought you back Brought you right back to that experience And what's great about that is It's kind of proof that you can Another concrete proof Bring it back to the analogies Is why not use that Just look at the placebo effect Why not use that to our advantage If we know that we had a smell Oh, that smell reminds me of Jamaica in 2007 You know Or that friggin' tree Christmas You know, everybody has that Or that candle, Hanukkah For mom And so What's it called? So then Yeah, so why not use that to our advantage Why not be like Set up triggers for yourself So the second you smell it You get productive Or the second you smell it You feel calmer Whatever it is Just like inducing the states Of your writing Everything's connected Everything is energy That's pretty much all I had to say Is those two lines And the whole podcast was done But I'm trying to convince you And I'm trying to raise your brain up I feel like I'm pulling you By the friggin' scout And just yanking you up Okay So other triggers I've done recently So that's journaling That's future pacing Another thing you can do is So you could do the next day You could do in one month Six months, one year, five years It's a great practice because Not only is it filling you with those emotions So you feel gratitude And then you're in the right energy But you're making those experiences real Your subconscious doesn't know the difference And It's in the breaking the habit Science world It's You're making that experience real Because you're observing it And then you're changing your energy Currently So now you're kind of getting pulled Towards that Because that experience has energy You're changing your current energy And now you're making them align Because your energy is kind of Now on that current It's gonna get pulled to that reality Because that's what it is Okay In the spiritual world It's like you're observing it With emotion And Now you're thinking on that frequency And You're just manifesting it You're pulling yourself towards it I like both Obviously the science one might be a little bit Easier to believe Or a little bit more linked, connected And the other trigger I do That I really, I recently like Just did was that I'm just in my own apartment And I have my TV in my bedroom And I did that because I love to just lay down And watch So, but I was also laying down And watching Not before bed But I was also like eating my meals there too Just in my room So my bed was kind of where I was eating So the other thing I wanted to do I did was move my TV into my living room I eat on the couch I don't have tables yet I'm whatever It's not the point, okay What's great about that is that now All I do in my room I don't even, I even leave my phone And my dresser Not even my nightstand Is that so the second I lay down I don't get up And it's like All I do in my bed is sleep So that way the second I lay down My body knows sleep And that's pretty easy to understand But something you may overlook But if you keep doing these triggers You're gonna friggin' sleep In comatose every time But I just, I love those things So like the second you go into a room You feel productive Those are real things You know your body's conditioned So you ever, um This is pretty interesting If you ever like Go into the bathroom If you ever like Go to take a shower A lot of times if you get undressed You feel like you have to pee It's almost like Because you got undressed You feel like you have to pee Do that next time And see if you notice that Cause that's another like Auto-response your body has But you've probably Not have it noticed it And this comes back to awareness Which I think is one of the most Important things ever Because the more aware you are To me Well, I say to me Cause I don't want to like Generalize But I truly feel it's everyone The more aware you are The more efficient and productive And more happiness You can bring to your life Cause you can use all these things To your advantage And you live a better life So if you're just unaware AKA letting your subconscious Control everything You're gonna be going through life Going through these patterns That you don't even know And you're carving these things But if you're aware You're like, oh, why am I doing this? You could adjust that pattern To guide you Or not even guide you You can adjust that pattern To the path you want Instead of just getting Programmed to do it And that's the last thing I think I want to touch on Maybe not, we'll see But the subconscious What it does Is that it likes to go to the known This is a fact It wants to go to what's known That's why it's so hard To do new things Or for example If you know You have to like Procrastination is a good example Right now you know You have to do something that's it But the unknown of getting started Is so scary for you That even though the potential is like If you're rational It's like, I just have to get started That's all it is It's like because it's unknown It's like so hard for your brain To allow you to do it You'd rather just sit in the known Of not doing it, I guess That's not the best example But the point is Is like the second you do it You've all felt that As soon as you started Like, oh, that wasn't so bad at all Or if like You need to call somebody And you're like, I don't want to do it I know, I know I should It's like the known Is what you're doing right now And the unknown is so much scary Even though But that's just because That comes from survival It's like, if you know What's happening, you survive But if you went into the unknown Or you went somewhere Like you traveled somewhere You literally died from lions Things like that So that's just our brain Being programmed So if you know that You can use it to your advantage You could do better Use your brain better So speaking of the visualization I really like to do it at night It's been really helpful It's been really helpful for me to Do it as the last thing I go to bed I get it out of my head I feel those emotions And when you feel those emotions It also helps you let go for the night Because you feel like you achieved them I go, like for example I landed this dunk Instead of like going to sleep I want to go dunk, I want to go dunk I can like visualize myself doing it And if I am able to do it so powerfully I literally feel like I just did the dunk So then your body's in a different state You feel like you can just let go And be like, ah And you don't have that anxiety Of trying to do something You feel the relaxation of the accomplishment And that's really helpful for sleep So my sleeping's been great I hope that makes sense I think that's the end of it I think I tied it all together We got the friggin' manifestations Plus the placebo effect Doesn't know the difference Your mind's controlling your body Your emotions change your body Your visualization changes your body And then the science that everything Is made out of energy And that, well Adam is Our mostly energy And everything is Adam So everything is mostly energy So if you observe that reality in the future That makes that reality real Because all possibilities are out there In the quantum And if you make it real Then you also are changing your state And producing different energy Towards that reality Okay I think that's the best I can possibly do I hope you enjoyed I really wanted to share all of that If you look at my friggin' notes right here It was a lot of It's so hard for me to stay organized It's so much easier for me to go as I go But I hope that makes sense I hope you're on my friggin' level Now I got my energy shirt on I hope you're understanding why I'm so nuts And you understand why I love energy so much Because it's not I feel like it's really Simply it's not You don't just do something And then you feel the energy If you feel it first It'll get you there And that's what I want I want you guys to kind of be on this level Because I really think it's beneficial It's helping me out I don't care if it sounds nuts Because it's going well Alright I think that's it I don't want to keep rambling Thank you for all your support Love you all If you really I really love your feedback Because if this is going completely nowhere I need to change up what I'm doing I think I got it out I think I helped I helped I got that stuff out of my head I think I got my point across Is what I'm trying to say And yeah More podcasts coming soon Got a lot of guests Support me by just subscribing And sharing That's pretty much it I don't really care I love you all I'm manifesting it anyway I don't need your help I just fucking get the energy My friggin' brain And fucking get pulled to it anyway So Love you Keep it up Enjoy your life Enjoy being yourself You are unique You have your own combo Of nature and nurture I don't know why I'm getting into this now But you have your own DNA And then no one's seen Your combination of experiences With your DNA Remember that You're you It's pretty cool Do the best you can be And you'll be the happiest I love you all See ya Toodaloo Bye Gotcha if you notice Listen up We're still spinning


Bon dia. My name is Miguel Montaigne. Are there any designers in the audience? Stand up. If you think I can do this whole thing in Portuguese, you're nuts. Stand up. Come on. You're designers. This is good. Give yourselves a round of applause. Because I am about to make you feel terrible. And then I will make you feel good by the time it's over and you'll thank me. Like I said, my name is Mike Montero. Don't do that. I'm a designer. There's your hashtag. And I became a designer for the same reason that I'm guessing most of you became a designer. Because we enjoy making things. We enjoy creating. We enjoy making, bringing new things in the world. Because yesterday something didn't exist. And today it does. And that's because we made it happen.  And I'd always wanted to earn my living. Being a designer, unfortunately, or fortunately, I was a terrible employee. And I ended up getting fired a lot because I like to argue with the people who were paying me. So in order to keep making things, I ended up having to build a company of my own. And then I had to think about things like running a business, which I realized I was neither really good at or enjoyed very much. So my partner and I, we had to learn about all of this stuff, about how to run a business and handling clients as we went. And at the same time, my view of what design was expanded because now that I got to choose what to work on, I also got to choose what not to work on. And we got to say no to those things. Because I wanted to be very careful about what was going out into the world with my name on it. And I began to see design not just as an act of making things, but also an act of choosing what not to make. And along the way, we made a ton of mistakes. And we learned from those mistakes. And after 10 years, I'd made enough mistakes to write a whole book about them. So I did. And it's about things like getting clients and handling contracts and presenting your work and getting paid. Has anybody here read this? I love each of you and I have room in my heart to love the rest of you. But what this book is really about is responsibility. Designers taking more responsibility for their careers. And there was something that I touched on in the book just a little bit that I want to elaborate on today. And that's your responsibility not just to yourself and to your clients, but also to the wider world. We are designers because we love to create. But creation without responsibility breeds destruction. And that's what we're going to talk about this morning. And it starts with a story that was in the Wall Street Journal just over a year ago. This is Bobby Duncan. And at the time this story was written, Bobby was 23 and a freshman at the University of Texas at Austin. And like most 23-year-olds, and I'm guessing like most of the people in this room, Bobby used Facebook a lot. Bobby also likes to sing and play the piano. So when she got to the University of Texas, she decided she wanted to join a chorus group at the school. Oh, and Bobby's also a lesbian. And she ended up joining the Queer Chorus at UT Austin.  So when Bobby joined the group, he routinely added her to the group's Facebook page, like he does. Because that's how he communicated with members of the chorus about rehearsals and how he communicated with members of the public about when to come see him and things like that. Here's the other thing that we need to know about Bobby. For reasons that are absolutely her own business, she hadn't come out to her parents yet. And she carefully managed her Facebook privacy settings to create a wall between things that her friends could see and things that her parents could see. And once again, I'll reiterate, the reasons for this are her own damn business and none of ours, but that's how she chose to live.   Here's a diagram that The New York Times put together to try to explain it. This is from a year ago, by the way. Here's what they look like now. This slide never gets enough laughs, so I put in a laugh track. Also, it's 9 a.m. But here's what happened to Bobby. When the chorus president created the Facebook group page, he made it open. Because in his words, I was so gung-ho about the chorus being unashamedly loud and proud. As he should have been, this isn't a secret organization, it's a chorus group for kids. Now, unbeknownst to him, Facebook had made three very important design decisions. One, that anyone beside you can add you to a group. They don't even need to know who you are. Two, when somebody adds you to a group, it goes up on your wall for everyone who follows you to see. And three, and this is the most important one, here's the kicker. The group's privacy settings override your own. The settings that Bobby had worked so carefully to set up for herself. So a third party without any malice whatsoever on his part, inadvertently notified all of Bobby's followers that she was now part of the queer chorus at UT Austin, including her father, who, according to The Wall Street Journal, left vitriolic messages on her phone demanding she renounce same-sex relationships and threatening to sever all family ties. And he posted this on his own Facebook page just a couple days later, a Facebook page that Bobby had helped him set up. Bobby was understandably devastated. She had made a very careful decision about how to handle her life. She thought it through and she did the work of setting it up. And it was completely undermined by a careless design decision. Of course, this was all a few years ago, or a few months ago, and Facebook has learned its lesson. They've actually simplified their privacy settings. Just this October, they did away with a search setting that lets you opt out of public searches. Their reasoning? Less than 10% of their users opted to use it. Now, Facebook claims to have over a billion users. Do you know what 10% of a billion is? That's 100 million people. Now, to be fair, they did say it was less than 10%. Maybe it was 90 million people, or 80 million people, or 70 million people. Let me know when this number gets comfortable for you. Let's take it all the way down to the smallest possible percent, and that's still 10 million people. With one fell swoop, Facebook changed the privacy settings for at least 10 million people. And you can bet there were some Bobby Duncan's in those 10 million people. But it's cool. They care about your privacy. Let me show you another example. This is Facebook Graph Search, whereas Tom Scott pointed out on his site, actualfacebookgraphsearches.tumblr.com, I can do things like search for Islamic men interested in men who live in Tehran and also find out where they work.  This is irresponsible design. And you may be thinking, oh no, this isn't design. This is a business decision.  It may have started life as a business decision, but to get on the interface, to go live, to where people can see it and interact with it, it goes through design. And when a designer lets a bad business decision through, well, that's a decision as well. Facebook's reply to what happened to Bobby was, our hearts go out to these young people. Their unfortunate experience reminds us that we must continue our work to empower and educate users about our robust privacy policy. In other words, we are sorry that our clusterfuck of settings and our general disregard for your privacy destroyed your family, but it's not our fault. It's not our fault. Now, I was raised Catholic, and I'm assuming most of you were too since we're in Portugal, and you know that once there is fault on the table, nobody gets up until it's been assigned to someone. So whose fault was it? Because Facebook's privacy settings don't just happen. They're a decision. They're designed to work that way. And at the heart of this, there's design, and hopefully a designer. Now, sadly, design happens whether there's a designer present or not. But too often it happens in the presence of a designer who either doesn't care or doesn't see the problem or worse sees it but doesn't speak up. And I imagine they weren't designed by one person. I imagine it takes a team of people to design something like this. Very smart people, one would think. After all, you don't get to design privacy settings for a site with over a billion users unless you're pretty smart. I would hope. And I have to think that at some point along the line, one of those very smart people might have realized that what they were designing was problematic. Too hard to understand. A violation of privacy. And possibly even unethical because yes, I do think it was unethical. And as soon as one of those very smart people noticed what was going on, one of three things could have happened. One, they ignored it. They saw something that was badly designed and potentially harmful, something that if you just walk through a few use cases, you will see can easily result in somebody's privacy being violated. And they didn't speak up. Perhaps they were afraid to get fired. Perhaps the culture they work in isn't a culture where designers speak up.  But I'm guessing that most of the people in this room have been at the point in a project where we are just so tired and so ready to be done with it that we just think, this is good enough, let's ship it. Number two, let's say they did the right thing. Let's say they ran it up the chain. They followed chain of command and entrusted the person above them to take care of it. In a well-run organization, we can rely on the person above us to take care of things and make allowances to the schedule in order to get things correct. Unless, of course, the person above them ignored it. We've all been here. We spot a problem. We bring it to somebody. They tell us it's not that big a deal. We'll fix it later. We'll send out a patch.     Or in our wonderful language, you want to Instagram this one, Bruno will be really happy. And yes, those privacy settings are a nightmare, but I don't want to turn this into a single use case for one single bad user interface. I'm sure half of the people in this room could fix those stupid privacy settings in half an afternoon if given a chance. What I want to focus on this morning is why. Why we approach the job like we do. Why we take on the projects we take on and why we give up so easily. I want us to talk about our responsibility as designers.  We are all familiar with these scenarios. We come across them every day. We see things going out the door that we're dissatisfied with. Or don't work properly. Or don't conform to best practices. Or worse, violate the trust that our users put in us. And some of us try to keep these things from happening. And some of us don't. We may see it as somebody else's job. We hope that somebody else shows up in time to fix the mistakes we see. And we get upset when they don't. But who in your organization can pull the plug on something that sucks? The answer, of course, is you. There ain't no cavalry. There's nobody else that's going to do your job, but you. Now, we are mired in a design culture that either doesn't understand its responsibility to the world we live in, or worse, doesn't care. It doesn't take malice to bring bad design into the world. All it takes is carelessness. Design is nothing more and nothing less than human beings attempt to explain and manipulate our environment. Design isn't just how something looks and feels, but also how something works. And more importantly to us today, how something affects. How it affects an individual, a class of people, and ultimately the environment that we live in. And when designers disregard the effect that that manipulation has on the environment, they are, at best, negligible. At worst, culpable. And when design is practiced without forethought or consequences, without responsibility, what we get is not creation, but destruction. Which reminds me of this tongue twister of a quote.   That's cool. We'll throw a bunch of people in a room together and eventually something interesting will happen. And then we'll figure out what to do with it. This is how Silicon Valley works, by the way. We throw the same people in a room time after time, give them millions of dollars and see if they can come up with something. After all, it's worked so well for us in the past. We need to fear the consequences of our work more than we fear the consequences of speaking up. We need to fear the consequences of our work more than we love the cleverness of our own ideas. And when the fear of taking responsibility and the fear of getting in trouble is greater than the fear of causing harm, well, we stop becoming designers. We become agents of recklessness. When we create thinking, without thinking, we become deaf. This is Victor Popinac. Anybody ever heard of Victor Popinac? Nice. Victor was a designer, an educator, and author. He was one of the very first advocates of responsible design. Way before the design community was ready to hear about any of this stuff. And Victor hated bad design. That looks like a man who hates bad design. And he didn't take too kindly to the designers who made it, either. Victor believed that designers had an ethical responsibility to design things that were beneficial to the world and design them well. And more importantly, that we have an ethical responsibility to not design things that are harmful to the world. In Victor's Popinac's eyes, we are gatekeepers. And in 1971, Victor published this book, Design for the Real World. I was having dinner with somebody last night, and they were telling me that they were having trouble finding a book about design and ethics. That was you. This is it. And I encourage you all to read it. This book has shaped how I think about design more than anything else I've ever read. And in it, Victor describes a design community that is in rampant disarray and in service to consumerism and gives it the smack upside the head it needs. This is the very first sentence of the preface. There are professions more harmful than industrial design, but only a very few of them. And I think if Victor was writing this book today, after the proliferation of the web on society, he would get rid of that word industrial as being too limiting. The design community, as you can imagine, was not very happy with Victor. He was blacklisted, scorned, and shunned by the very people that he was trying to elevate. But the thing is Victor Popinac was right. Taking responsibility is not a nice-to-have design skill. It is core to what we do. It is not something you get to tack on later. It is not a luxury. It is not something you do after you've built up your portfolio or made a name for yourself. This is not something that you allocate a small percentage of your time for. Responsibility is core to design. You are responsible for the work that you put into the world and you are responsible for the effect that work has on the world. Whether you are a physicist or a banker or a web designer, because today's web, it's in our phones, it's in our cars, it's in our schools, it's in our traffic lights. We can use the web to control our home security systems, to keep an eye on our children. We can use the web to monitor what medicine our parents are taking and even to find out what subversive things we might be doing in our public parks that day. And as Bobby Duncan can attest, the web is in our closest and most intimate relationships. Cerebro exists and we built it. And whether we end up calling it Facebook graph search or something else, we will have designed it. We will have built it and we will be responsible for its existence. And while we may build things with the best of intentions, we live in the world where the bad guys are billionaires who dine with the presidents and the good guys get chased down by the Department of Justice. And as the web expands its reach into our lives, we need to completely understand the responsibility that we hold in our hands, in our fingertips. Anything that is that pervasive when handled irresponsibly carries with it the power to destroy us all. And we, as designers, we stand at the gateway of what can be built and not built. What comes to the web goes through us.  And we can either ignore the consequences of what we choose to make or we can say, no, that is bad design. That does not get through me. I will not build it. We focus so much on what we can do that we forget to think about what we should or shouldn't do. But at the end of the day, the monsters that we unleash onto the world will be named after us. But I'm not here to bum you out. I want you to feel good. I want you to feel good about what you can do. Because I love being a designer. And I want you to love it too. And the more you understand your power as a designer, the more of it there is to love. Responsibility isn't some burden that you have to carry around. It's a potential for you to fulfill as a designer. Your potential to create rather than to destroy. Your potential to move humankind forward into the future. So I'm going to tell you about your four fundamental responsibilities as a designer. There's only four. That's easy. We have a responsibility to the world we live in. This is not a choice. This is the job we signed up for. Design works in the service of a better world. Design is, by definition, solving problems. And we are so blessedly full of problems right now that we are going to be very busy for a very long time. So ask yourself, are the problems that you're taking on problems worth solving? Do we need 36 more iPhone docks? Do we need 59 more iPad cases? What about 179 camera apps? I think we're good there. There's a company called MakeSpace. Just a couple of weeks ago, they got $10 million. They call themselves Dropbox for your stuff.   You cannot do less with the time you have on earth.  Major media outlets are fleshing entire investigative journalism departments down the drain. Wall Street is awash in criminals. Europe is in debt. And billions of people can't get basic medical care, food and water and jobs. And we are building apps to raid our sandwiches, tell each other where we are, who we're with, and how long we'd have to walk to get laid. We used to design ways... We used to design ways to get to the moon. Now we design things to keep us from having to get out of bed in the morning. This is Portugal. No one owes us anything. We didn't wait for the world. We went out and found it. And it's time to get back to work again. Too many smart people are deciding on what problems to tackle, what to put their time and energy into, not based on whether those products will solve anyone's actual problems, but rather they can be funded and flipped. And if we only ever tackle the problems that Facebook, Twitter, Amazon, and Google are interested in acquiring, then when do we finally get around to tackling the ones they're not? Making rich people richer is not disruption.  And the further we get from the problems of real people in the actual world, real people whose daily needs are getting their kids educated, getting proper nutrition, getting their bills paid, getting proper drinking water, people whose biggest problem isn't Uber surge pricing, the further we get from designing problems that push the world forward and the closer we get to declaring that our true goal is driving towards the apocalypse in maximum comfort, it is time to stop hoping that other people solve these problems or hoping that other people give us permission to solve these problems and just start solving them. Recognize the power that we have as designers to change things. Recognize the power that we have to make things happen and recognize that with that power comes the responsibility to do it right and to do the right thing. And remember that every single time you as a designer make it easier and more pleasant for anyone to find and use information that help people live their lives, you have contributed something important to the world. We have limited resources, whether natural, cognitive, or financial.  Number two, we have a responsibility to this craft we share. We have a responsibility to uphold it and uplift it. The way you work individually gives us the ability of all other designers to do their job.  Every time you agree to take on a job that's detrimental to the craft or behave in a way that undermines design, you are putting the rest of us in a hole that we have to climb out of. I can't tell you how many times I've had clients come to me apprehensively looking very hesitant and the story is always the same. They've worked with another designer in the past who they've entrusted with the project and they've gotten let down. Now the reasons for that are myriad. But the result is the same. They feel cheated. They no longer trust design and I need to rebuild that trust. Their budgets have been squandered and they're looking for all sorts of guarantees that it won't happen again. And this makes my job harder.  And you benefited from all of the designers who came before you. Now you need to help your fellow designers and those who follow after you. You are merely the present link in a chain that extends to the dawn of time and a part of a network that spans the globe and just like you learned from the mistakes and successes of designers in the past you need to document and share your own successes and failures for those that come after you. Learn from those who came before and inspire those who came next. That is your responsibility to the craft. Number three, we have a responsibility to the clients that we take on and designers cannot not have clients. First and foremost, consider that you're choosing the right clients for you to work with. People who have problems that actually need solving and people whose skills you're uniquely qualified to solve. You have a responsibility to do the work right even if they're trying to talk you into doing it wrong. Don't work for anybody that you're afraid to say no to. Remember, you are not an order taker. You are not a pixel pusher.  Tell your client when they have a bad idea. Tell them when they ask you to do work in a bad way. Tell them when they aren't giving you what you need to do your job and then tell them what the right thing is and then do your job. You were hired to do good design not to make people happy. You want to make people happy? Make them sandwiches. People love sandwiches. If every designer prevented their client from going to a bad place, less clients would do it and they would stop expecting it from other designers. You do not need permission to do the job. It was given to you the moment you were hired. Imagine a world where the CEO and the marketing director are locked in a room and they're sweating it out and they're saying we are never ever going to be able to talk the designer into doing this very terrible thing we want.  And it is within our reach. Most clients want to do the right thing. They just don't know what the right thing is and we're not stepping up and telling them. They hired us to tell them what that is. Don't be shy. Imagine how this plays out three to six months down the road. You've done everything that the client asked you to do. Even things that you knew were terrible but you did it anyway and the project fails and the client calls you into their office and they say hey the project failed and you say oh I knew it would but I had to do all those things that you asked me to do because I didn't want to get yelled at and I didn't want to get fired and I was scared of upsetting you and I really wanted you to like me. I should have just made you a sandwich. Well guess what? You are about to get fired. So why not risk getting fired when there's still a chance of doing the work right? When there's still a chance to solve the problem correctly. Before you've blown the budget before you've wrecked the schedule or you've cost other people their jobs by not doing yours. If your client tells you to do anything that prevents you from doing the job right you have to tell them. Designers complain about clients doing this stuff but they never actually step up and take care of it because designers are afraid of getting fired. Sometimes the best thing that you can do for your client is to be willing to get fired. All of these responsibilities though are just part of your ultimate responsibility your responsibility to yourself because all of this other stuff isn't about altruism it's in your own best interest. If you take responsibility for your work you will do better work. You will enjoy it more. You will have the respect of both your clients and your peers and that will lead to better opportunities in the future. This isn't a perfect world. I know that and sometimes the only thing you can do is take on the work that you can to keep the lights on. I get that. But remember you always have a choice and your personal choices have personal consequences. The work that you choose to do defines you not just as a designer but as a person. Your portfolio is a record of your choices and if you do work just to keep the lights on consider how those choices accumulate over time. One cigarette ad in your portfolio is a youthful indiscretion. Ten cigarette ads are a love letter to the tobacco industry and while you have a responsibility to earn a living doing it at the expense of society's well-being makes you no better than a Wall Street banker. Your portfolio is just another word for your reputation which is just another word for your integrity. And every time you make a conscious choice in your profession, an intentional choice rather than just letting things happen or accepting what is handed to you by others a choice of problem to solve a choice of client to serve even a choice of what compromise to make you are fulfilling your responsibility to yourself. This is all possible. I've taken the bad jobs. I have executed the bad feedback. I am here as a survivor of all the terrible mistakes I'm telling you not to make. I've made them all. But what I found was when I started saying no to things when I started saying no to bad ideas the client actually listened. The client actually respected me more. When I turned down a bad job a better job appeared and when I stood up for design clients took me more seriously and when I did the right thing the right job it led to an even better job after that. Don't design in fear.  We are designers. We can actually build a better world.  Destroy your ego.  Stand up for yourself. Walk proud. Carry yourself with self-respect but never put yourself above the work. Real self-respect is tempered with the humility to understand when you are wrong and the confidence that you can learn from it. Your ego is nothing but fear getting in the way of solutions. Can we do this? Can we do this? Somus Kapash! I cannot hear you. Other people may have given up on you in the past but I am not giving up on you now. Can we do this shit? You can say it louder than that. One more time. Can we do this? Yes! Much better. Destroy your fear. You will be wrong. The person next to you is probably better than you at this. That's okay. You are not going to get every job.  You will make mistakes. These things will happen and you can fully recover from them. Never trust a designer who hasn't been punched in the mouth. Not only have they never done anything interesting enough to get punched in the mouth for but they live in constant fear of what getting punched in the mouth feels like. Get over your fear of speaking up. When something is wrong, it is on you to voice it. You cannot keep bad design from happening if your mouth is closed. There will come a day when you will have to raise your voice and you will be surprised at the sound it makes. Can we do this? Yes! Louder! Destroy your apathy. Every day, thousands of designers go to work not caring what they are going to work on and who it affects. They just grab the next thing on their plate, complain about it and do it. Be intentional in your actions. If you don't care what you're designing, stop designing. There is an opening at the sandwich shop. There are other professions. Find one that you actually love.  Can we do this? Destroy petty authority.  You're letting him do that. Every time you let somebody tell you how to do your job you are teaching them that that is how the job is done. And I'm tired of designers complaining about that guy but not saying anything to that guy. Try this. Don't tell me what to do. Tell me what's wrong. Let me earn my salary by figuring out how to fix it.  Can we do this?  Can we do this? That's better. Destroy the voice inside. The one telling you to accept less than your worth. You are designers. Do not design with emotional approval in mind. The voice telling you to design not what you know is right but what you think will be easier to get approved. The voice telling you not to rock the boat. The voice telling you not to get in trouble. Designers should welcome trouble. Can we do this? And I hate that I have to include this slide but I will include this slide until I need to. Misogyny is rampant in our industry and it is shameful.  And it is shameful. And never forget that we work in an industry where a CEO hit a woman 177 times and got a congratulatory letter from his board of directors. We are supposed to be building a better world and pointing the way to the future.  To build a better world we are going to have to learn to be our best selves. We must look at all our problems from a diverse point of view and we have to give a hand up to the people that we have kept down.  Can we do this? Wake up and be aware. Be aware of the impact that you have no matter where you work.  So if anything we need our best designers working at Facebook. We need our most belligerent gatekeepers working at BP.  Bobby Duncan needed a designer at Facebook to do the job right. She did not get one. And some of us don't work in companies where we can choose what to work on. I get that. But you do have a choice in working for that company. You always have a choice. Just because you aren't willing to take it doesn't mean it isn't there.  But you'll get fired. That's true.  But you can always get another job. You can always get another client. It is easier to recover from losing a job or a client than from losing yourself respect. You can always start another company. You can always get another idea. You can always dust yourself off and claim victory tomorrow. Not only can designers change the world, designers need to. The fight for good design is a fight for an equal web, an open web, a more accessible web. And we don't fight just for the sake of design. We fight for the sake of people like Bobby Duncan. We fight for the sake of those who need us and we fight for the sake of those we've lost. When you decided to become a designer you accepted the role of gatekeeper along with it.   This is what we do. We are designers, but most of all it has always been our job to protect it. Even if and especially when we have to protect it from ourselves. Thank you.


Hello, I think it's time to start welcome to my presentation about Drupal and the blockchains Thanks for closing the door so My name is Thorsten. I'm working in the blockchain for a while and for Drupal in a very long time Currently I work for a Sorry Currently I'm working for a company in New York called consensus. We were like a startup Around close to 400 people now working in different sections of the blockchain lots of experimental stuff Myself I came to blockchain technology some about two years ago a friend asked me To do some some UI because he said he created a Twitter client and nobody can ever censor it was a Funny project. It's not maintained anymore, but basically it just wrote text strings into a blockchain and It showed me a lot of things and it made me very interested into this Who knows Bitcoin? It's most most of the people and who knows Ethereum so far. Oh, it's a lot surprised Yeah, my talk Will be might be a bit more technical than the last one about this the subject But I will try to start with a very simplified introduction to the blockchain technology So basically who cares about the blockchain it got a huge media coverage in the in the last one one two years and nearly all professional sectors like Evaluating how a blockchain might affect their work So for example, a lot of banks and bank consortiums try to to improve their inter banking trade In for example, I work in Dubai recently on on land registry project, so Dubai Dubai's King, I think decided till 2020 he want to have like all public governments documents on the blockchain To have like signatures proved by state But there's a I think there's a lot of more than the the enterprise part. I Really like the idea because it's a peer-to-peer platform. So I Like the idea that you you have like direct enable direct trade without borders and There's there's a lot of interesting projects. For example, one of my company's project is would you move music? they try to make a kind of like a music platform where you directly have Contracts we come back later to this where you say, oh, this is my license models for for my my song And then you can choose a payment option and you get a license for a movie or a license just to like stream it and something like this And you don't have like the payment is directly done to the to the music and you set up Oh, it's my band and this party gets so much share and stuff like this and Last year also like the the lawyers do a lot of research and thinking about how how this new technology will actually affect the Legal view so what what the blockchain is is bringing you to the internet? it's a new layer of trust which is Like it currently in the internet you cannot like trust on money and you have a central Network where everybody get the same value and it's sinking itself But we get there what I really like about it. What I just said is the idea of like sharing economy it's basically the companies like uber or something take a share of a taxi driver and I see a high potential of rebuilding this stuff into like Without these big companies in the middle in the decentralized way and there's also The idea of stuff so sovereign user data so that you Put up a profile and then you have at a station. For example, you put a address on your on your profile and then whatever a bank or Country can like a test that this Information you put there is valid So how to imagine this this mystical blockchain? I kind of like the idea It's the most simple way to explain it. It's like a Decentralized database which keeps itself in in sync. So if you if you take Bitcoin as the the First blockchain as an example So it says oh this address owns that money and then you transfer the money to somebody else and if the Every node of the network go into consensus about this So if I set up one own node and I say oh no I own like more bitcoins than the five I actually have the network will like Find out that I do like wrong information there And it will just like kick me out of the network because I I kind of forked the chain And I didn't agree to the consensus so So about the terium like a terium is I think a little bit a later version of the blockchain Bitcoin Only does money transfer Where like Eterium is it's based on all implementations are open source and it offers a lot more Functionality than Bitcoin does so in the Ethereum blockchain you have next to this database consensus as I as I called it is peer-to-peer network of nodes confirming each other you have Like this leads you to a global ledger So you can put a value there and the value is like every every note has the same value Which enables like things like this registries that you can like you put a hash of a document there and then Nobody can like change the history and can say oh the hash was different. I want to change the document It was not really my favorite So you just can't do a new transaction and everybody will see that you changed it the the Also new thing compared to Bitcoin is that you can create a scripting This this business value of money But I come back to this in a second Basically the the whole system is based on asymmetric cryptography a little bit like a like with PGP I Also come back later to this so how we get the The data into like the chain So basically there's like a new block created every I think like 15 seconds or something There's a new block created and it takes all the sign transactions together and combines them into a block and the block always contains the hash of the last block and The next block has the hash so so you cannot like break this change without Break this chain without knowing it One thing is like an Ethereum blockchain data is kind of public It's a little bit binary encoded and you need to know the The way you put it that you can read it, but it's not encrypted There's some some other Implementations of Ethereum like a quorum which kind of it goes for for privacy protection in this, but this is like not yet the default So what is a smart contract? Basically, I have this this example of the most simple idea of a smart contract that I seen in the crowd founding so basically You'll say in a crowd found you say oh if I if I found like whatever 10,000 Dollars or money units Then my crowd found is successful So I will move the the money to the founding account but if this does not happen by the by the given time you can Automatically transfer the money back to its original owners and if you have this deployed the your your Like it's it's gonna happen. You cannot like just change it. Oh, I decided the 9,000 is enough so it's It wouldn't work So the smart contracts they have like addresses so you can like address them and interact with them To make the transactions like so everything is based on this in this asymmetric crypto key pairs and You need like in order to put anything on the blockchain. You need to to sign it with your with your private key Every private key is like represents that address, which is like at every word of the public key But you cannot only sign transactions with this There's like some other things which you like work with asymmetric cryptography before Which is doing just signatures like on a text without necessarily interacting with the blockchain So basically when you when you have a text and you give a signature to it And you have like a string of the signature And if somebody has the the text and the signature it he can say Oh, you are the only one who could produce the signature So he knows that you own this this private key without knowing your key and You can also like encrypt data with this keys So one of the the evolving stuff and and one of the most challenges currently is getting This to all browsers that this is like a very highly moving environment And currently there's a meta mask you see in the image Which is a browser plug-in. It's currently developed into a Browser independent plug-in There is like the original Ethereum miss browser. This is the two to ones. I have currently a Working in my proof of concept application, which is the current module, but there's a lot of other projects developed and I think In Yeah, the timing is hard to say I'm optimistic that we get more and more end user devices in actually being able to to interact with the blockchain So this is just some of them coming on the horizon So when I think about RuPaul, we always want to like serve like every user of our website So I think it's not yet the ecosystem is not yet ready that you can just like make an application for like everyone because the all these transaction signers are not that Advanced that that you could like say, oh, I target all browsers immediately and In the module also concerning signatures, there's like a created kind of two different ways to do the same thing One one is a Smart contract based sign up where you kind of get a challenge from Drupal and you sign it as a Transaction into a smart contract registry and Then Drupal can read that you signed this and then it knows. Oh, you're on this key. So you're Added to this registry in the contract, but this is basically a transaction Which which costs a little money like in Ethereum all transactions Um Cost it's not much But if you write data to the blockchain you need to pay something Because this money is used to actually as an incentive for the people who are running this blockchain nodes That they that they that they do it, you know but I created a second sign up module which is like a non blockchain it uses the same techniques But it just signs a challenge. It's a challenge response authentication. So Drupal you don't need to like pay for the transaction you can just sign up So basically just a little bit a summary. There's a lot of a lot of different things happening in the ecosystem Ethereum is specified by a Yellow paper it's called and it has different implementations like on the on the client level It's like it parity forum. There's like a test environment, which doesn't actually connect to the blockchain. It's just for testing So the implementations are not hundred percent the same So I ended up building a library to abstract it. It's like a strongly tied PHP 7 library because All the data types you want to write to the blockchain and need to be like strongly typed otherwise it wouldn't work and And on the front end you also have the problem that you don't know yet exactly which Tools that your end user have to sign transactions. So Like on the on the PHP side the library is kind of working but on the front end I'm currently use a support metamask amissed But we need to have like a more pluggable infrastructure that you maybe also can like just scan a QR code to sign this transaction in a totally external device I Think this is one of the biggest challenge to integrate many clients and you also need to evaluate which are actually in use so There's like basically, Ethereum is a Fast evolving system. It's the main language for smart contract the solidity it's still in a 0-point release and It's it's like constantly evolving. There's new libraries people evolve evaluate different ways how to do things We have a currently a transaction throughput of about I think it's like around 15 transactions if you only do value transactions like you would do in bitcoins like 25 But this is like not really a scale where you where you can like reach like large sites Visa processes I think 60,000 transactions per second. So There's the goal is from an Ethereum foundation to reach the the Transaction speed of visa, but it will take some years Yeah, basically the blockchain is really large now. It's 280 gigabyte every time I talk about it It's like doubled up. So There's a light clients and development. Basically, you cannot have like a client with 280 gigabytes to deliver on a phone So there's like web services if you're Is a service which you can like use to connect to the blockchain which I use as a default in the module But this is all in high development. I think in within a year We will have light clients which don't download the whole blockchain just like headers for verification Drupal Ethereum module and you just beat up a bit I picked it up in 2016 found out that it was like not really working and I kind of completely reroute the library below Currently we have a proof-of-concept some some part is in GitHub only because I couldn't like make it solve one problem which which I would see required to put it in a in a Drupal branch because now it's not only still depending on a external tool And I focus on creating the infrastructure around so My company we really favor the idea ideal Decentralization so compared to the current web you would have like the Ethereum network as a data share layer and IPFS is it's called interplanetary file system. It's a decentralized file system where Like the idea is like everything is like decentralized and you just interact with decent centralized stuff But in practical The world is not that far so About every blockchain application. I now currently needs a central database somewhere and I came to this Which kind of this is the point where it really fits into into the Drupal environment so I Don't want to host Keys on on a server because if you if you do like oh we make a password login and we create a Private key for you. You just have the security of your your sign up process so the current focus of the Drupal module is Transactions sign signatures are always done in the front end Because you should own your key. I don't want to have the key stored somewhere. I would not do it on a web server for sure So basically you have a front-end site where you where you sign a transaction This will directly go to the to the Ethereum network and then Drupal can validate if this a transaction actually happened So you sign up into a like a registry in a smart contract and then Drupal will like see oh this transaction has happened Yeah, he really signed up so you have kind of like a circle Validation and Drupal will only pull data the PHP layer will only pull data so I Try to Get a little bit to the architecture We have like the Ethereum nodes, which is like decentralized network and We might also Like one plan is creating an entity type for nodes that you can kind of like do an easy listing in views Listing all the servers whatever if they're online on offline or they're there The server information you can can gather a query from nodes Currently we only have like one fixed connection that this is like one part What already kind of works is the connection of Drupal Ethereum accounts with a Drupal account Sorry, Ethereum accounts to Drupal account Where you kind of have the possibility to create like a known user you map this Ethereum address Which is just a text long hash To to accounts and then you have for a limited user group. You can say oh, this is my users So every interaction is creating transactions another thing I think it's really important for this module is to be able to listen to blockchain changes and Say you deploy a smart contract and it creates a registry So you want to know like every time somebody submits this you would create the entity on the front end That you can kind of act on this, you know the contract you read the data and it's like oh this value is submitted and you act on this and We have smart contracts In an ideal world, we will like just deploy them out of Drupal. I think Or I'm working on on infrastructure to to enable this that you you have like test networks and live network and You would ideally just like load a module a sub module of the Ethereum module Whatever a voting module and then you deploy the contract which is delivered with there to a network in admin UI using also a transaction signer to deploy And Basically the every contract that defines as its own data types. It's called this a contract ABI And Drupal needs to know Which is the data types in a contract in order to read the data? Otherwise, it's like a unknown hex data and you don't know where it start and words if it's a ray or if it's a string so current state We have this this Sign-up module and into two variants one is in in GitHub. I created a Docker script to test it and Basically, there's a lot of things to be done I was like actually very little on time in the last half year about I'm very optimistic that in November I'm gonna start like get much more time on this project Underlying PHP library is not like supporting the heart complex data types yet What I what I explained with the transaction sign is I need to develop a pluggable system that we can replace different and user transaction signers on this and Contract management and deployment and server entities I think this is like the basic infrastructure modules we need in order to create like real applications on top of this So why why is this actually interesting? I think it will really change the internet on the long term and Drupal strength is actually enterprise workflows And So I see a lot of potential applications like asset management document signing systems Where you basically need a user workflow on the back-end side in order and you have a Visualization like views making making it nice and I think this is something Drupal would really fit in And there's also the idea of like creating the decentralized Organizations which is a That you create a founding out of of Ethereum members and and Do budgeting or voting systems like you you say oh, this is our budget and we vote for this There's some ideas, but I have to admit that I was optimistic We get earlier to this but the infrastructure work is is more more than I than I thought so far and Yeah But it will come in an ideal world. We have out of the box stuff so I Planned about a buff session tomorrow for people who want to discuss more use cases I lacked a little bit the actual applications this time. It's more in my last talk And I invite you to join tomorrow Discuss more about what what you can imagine in Drupal and blockchain connected Yeah, that's my slides you find there Thank you. My company condensers is sponsoring my time. So I'm grateful to be able to work on this And that's it Any questions Okay, thank you. Oh So you talked about the sign-in process in Drupal and that it then checks if the Transaction was processed on the blockchain via php. How long does that take is it instant? Or do you have to wait like 15 seconds before it picks it up and says, okay, it's okay You can log in it it takes a little time 15 seconds might might be right. It's the average block time. It's not as instant and all as a regular login Yeah, it works in the other way like basically this one login is like really doing a transaction We'll take the time if you if you use the approach of challenge response Authentification where you're just like sign. It's instantly because you don't need to wait for the blockchain. It's just like Local crypto coffee. Okay, and then one quick other question like Now you still need like the metamask Plugin or another kind of browser. Are there any plans to integrate it into existing browsers like Chrome Safari Internet Explorer? Or that's still way into the future so so The most common Tool for this currently is metamask And it uses a web server so it doesn't download the whole blockchain the Ethereum browser does downloads really did 280 gigabyte blockchain now. It's a challenge and but It's developed into like a more non-browser independent Javascript library I Think there will be much more to come like currently I'm thinking about how is the smartest way to integrate it to make it really Exchangeable that we can use all different kinds of transaction signers. Okay. Thanks. Okay. Thank you


The story of Jonah demonstrates that God changes God's mind. What doesn't change is God's love and compassion. Jonah avoids doing what God tells him to do. He runs away. When he's spared, he offers a lackluster proclamation to the Ninevites. In spite of Jonah's best efforts, the Ninevites heed his message and repent. God also repents of threatening violence against them. Sometimes we avoid God in our life. And yet, despite our best efforts, God uses us as divine messengers of love and compassion.