e generation before me I came so close I kick to this day I try not to have regrets about things but I still kick myself in the butt over the fact that I was invited to Woodstock with the hog mothers and my mother was was ill but not really really seriously ill she just really wanted me to come home and I had to make a choice and I chose to go home and see my mom instead of going to Woodstock with the hog you made the right choice whenever I watch all of those films and movies and everything I see all of my friends and all the people that I knew at Woodstock and think oh my gosh I missed that how crazy was that you can never go wrong though choosing family that's especially family that's definitely yeah that was only like less than an hour from where I lived in upstate New York wow but I was only what was that was that 69 69 so I was eight years old going on nine so I was a little too young that I was minus three I was two I was 12 and I wanted to go so bad I was too young yeah I'm glad I was too young because I probably would have lost my mind or something in Woodstock what would have been your favorite moment do you think you'd have gone Hendricks yeah I was gonna say yeah all of it all of it Jefferson airplane yes Jefferson airplane and Hendricks San Carlos Santana Carlos Santana used to come I don't know if he still does it but when I was living in Tucson down it does I can't even remember the name of the park but it was really big on 22nd street and he would come once a year and they would they would fence off like hurricane fence the chain link fencing around the band shell and he would perform all day and it was for the Vietnam veterans that lived there and it was for free but because it was there outside and everybody in the park could enjoy it but the fenced area was for the Vietnam vets and I just thought that was amazing it was a free concert and I didn't even know he did that I was there and my friend was cutting my little boy's hair and I said that sounds like Santana what is that I'm gonna go find it sure enough and then I learned he does that every year I just thought that was the most amazing thing wow yeah yeah I heard that I heard him talking about it at one point that he had taken some lsd and he was just starting to really come on to the lsd when they told him that he had to go out on the stage and he wasn't really even sure he wanted to go out on the stage they kind of pushed him out on the stage and he just started to play and he just just totally got into it it was just an amazing amazing performance inner child oh the inner child who else is oh parlor what about your inner child what age are you well my inner child my best inner child ages I'll say 14 to 18 I didn't actually start growing up till I was in my late 30s actually because I was quite young for my age um lately I've been a lot I need to lose um I need to bring my inner child back that I am aware of that every day I need to be more yeah yeah because Brittany did that for me that just having the child I could drop down on her level and be that yeah six year older whatever four year old I don't know it's just um um everything sort of I don't know I've got quite a lot still lately um homeschool and everything so I have to be a teacher with them as well so it's just very I'm like okay I need um I'm very well I need to bring my inner child back there's always deadlines what do you love to do what what does your inner child love to do be silly be silly and laugh water fights I remember water fights with my dad you know chucking sponges at each other um running through the house and uh and that we all had these sponges and we just we got soaked the whole house was soaked I can remember that yeah if I started that with my kids though I think the whole house would be um wrecked was our house is wrecked yeah it we didn't care didn't matter no I I'm very conscious I'm very aware I need to um bring my inner child back but it's yeah it's um um when it would rain when it would rain in upstate New York my daughter and I would take some old newspapers and we'd make rain hats and we'd put on our old clothes and old sneakers and we'd go and jump in every mud puddle in our city while it was raining out but she'll have those memories as well and she always have those memories and she'll look back and these will stand out to house the because the child's memories are very important the concrete for them how they're going up and relationships and how they see proceed and see the world and how they become parents yeah yeah because otherwise they'll be a parent to their children so all that fun love and marvels yeah yeah yeah yeah what about you Maureen what's your inner child age well we already did this I figure I had the most fun as a young teen doing anything that this spontaneously yeah just being wild and laughing as you're doing it but yeah today if I could go back and let that child out it would be dancing at an outdoor concert yeah yeah until you drop so that's you know you know what we think that this panic was bad but actually there was a lot of street parties and things like that where everybody would stay in their gardens and you'd have somebody play music and and somebody kind of up the road there was all dancing and everything so there was a lot of nice things as well where people you know were kind of the it was like they wanted to be community they'd be speaking to their neighbors more because they wasn't supposed to be um they're never before so there was a lot of that I think so it wasn't all bad I think we've all uh grown and learn and I think there's been more of a spiritual um boost with everybody since this whole fiasco's happened I think so real quick hi to hanging laundry and Susan yeah Gabrielle hi Gabrielle sherry D who's wishing lea happy birthday who's lea happy birthday lea I don't know I don't know no hi to stuffy yeah well happy birthday lea happy birthday lea yeah we don't know lea's happy birthday I'm sure there is a lea who's got a birthday today yeah I know on my last driver's license they instead of the 19th they put october 9th on it I thought that's interesting why would they put the 9th but I was looking up people's birthdays who shared the 9th John Lennon that's how I know that John Lennon's birthday's on october 9th yep maybe there's a reason they put the 9th this I was thinking about that yeah numerology something yeah yeah something in that everything happens for a reason yeah exactly Susan would you like me to pick you some cards sure okay please thank you it's everybody's birthday today yeah I just had mine a couple weeks ago oh there we are then yeah okay so have you been um it's like contemplating contemplating stop putting me off um it's like standing up for yourself more you know it's like I'm not backing down over this I'm really not I I feel very strongly about you know what I'm feeling right now yeah um which worries you a little bit because you don't want to upset anybody but at the same time um it's like people are pushing you to that limit that breaking point where you're gonna actually tell them you know hey you know this is not on you're a very psychic lady I think you already know this already um but um I feel that this it's like um there's going to be more and more um information coming through um spiritually so watch out for uh moments of complete clarity where it's like some answers are coming through for you or for anybody else around you and it's like oh that was a bit of wisdom where did that come from and it's a channeling so there's lots of channeling energy going to be happening um you are going to be dealing with the situation um to do with standing up for yourself I feel that you're going to be dealing with it in a very creative way you know when something a situation arises where you can kind of say well that was perfect timing I was able to get my point across without upsetting anybody and I did it so smoothly that nobody even bloody knowed nobody even even knew it was happening so um yeah I and I feel that that is going to stop um the fact that there will be you know it's like when people stop communicating because they don't like what you've said or they don't like your opinion that will stop all of that so I feel um let your your um personality come out with it um there's some back banter and sarcasm you know a little bit of the mixture of the two and I think that um that's going to work out much better sounds very good and very right on thank you okay okay so this is your card it says you are loved you are here for a reason so don't fuck it up I love it thank you these are have you been watching in the in the youtube because these are the cards rebel deck okay they are uh the rebel deck who doesn't it doesn't actually say who doesn't zero filter zero bucks on all fun is what it's called there the oracle with attitude okay so they're those parts okay so Maureen do you want to risk having this done oh my goodness absolutely and in the chat uh sherry said happy birthday Greg I'm under paying killers and I just had surgery for getting please and set my birthday wishes oh sherry so oh no that's wonderful and thank you Stephanie lots of love sending out to you as well for yes you know speedy recovery yeah Stephanie says happy birthday Greg blessings to you and you're beautiful and talented love to see you together in one place it's lovely isn't it yeah you can feel the energy and feel the energy when you're both on you know one you know one's in England one's in America but when you it's the same because you the energy is still there and the love and that but it's lovely to see you in the same thank you I'm gonna go to bed everybody all right then okay thank you for coming on you're all right I'm staying for a bit longer I'm feeling a bit that way actually I'm slower that's okay nearly 1 a.m here in the UK yeah my kids get up really early as well six or seven we're probably gonna draw this to an end anyway I just want to read for Maureen and then we're probably let me let me start up with t-shirts first this is one of my okay let's have sorry I say I really love this one because I love them all but look I'm a collector of hearts and they just show up for me I don't find them I mean I don't go hunt them they just show up for me and this shirt came with a heart can you see that isn't that amazing so it was an accident but that's not for the day and I was like they just love knows no bounds and this is another lovely one too I apologize for how they look because they're just hanging squished in my closet but uh I love this lovely it's it's more of an orangey peach you can't really tell it's so vibrant and this is dark blue but I mean it's more of a I don't know you can't the lighting is terrible I apologize yeah let's see I have so many different colors I don't know this is um gosh well I don't know what's to show she's got stairs in your business she's got loads doesn't she let's see more than that she's talking about that many already I'll have like 19 okay I'm wow I'm working on the 20th one but I have yeah I I fell in love with him I'm telling you I don't that's a very light lavender very pretty sorry for the mess but um some I have a couple of duplicates because I bought one for my sister but it didn't fit her and so I kept it um there's this one which is really um yeah that one gosh who's a zebra strike wow that isn't amazing I mean he's so darn talented yeah lavender I think is a duplicate and this one and I have a couple that are just um they're in the laundry because you know I wear them aww anyway um uh he's got so many more I just I could spend hundreds of dollars just collecting one of every one I just I just want one for every day of the week so I can do a lot of things and it turned into well wait a minute he's got a special going on I better get it too so I can get another one you know whatever one every for every day of the month and just to remind everyone there is a sale right now buy two get one free use the code lovein5d at the checkout and I'll get them made as soon as I get home yeah but yeah it's like a pre-christmas sale so yeah get a start early on in Christmas shopping gorgeous what who wouldn't want one I really like the because in the winter time I can put a long sleeve shirt underneath it you know and and still show it off and feel the energy anyway thank you nice very welcome not not just anybody can can do these tie-dye not to the standard that you've got well not just that yeah um the added energy that I put into the dye itself with the gemstones and then the quartz crystal sand on top of the dye to supercharge gemstones and then sprinkling the shirts with the sand before I mailed them out where mario's can't case I just throw a handful of sand I get lucky that way sometimes well I mean probably I'm working on a project so I need some of it for the I can't believe how much you I think you have the most well no I sent I actually sent Philip baggy for he requested it oh and Ali actually sent me a little bit too that she had yeah oh wow that's powerful that's a cream yeah yeah so um okay so hey mooring so um you are stepping on new ground so I don't know if you are going somewhere that you've never been before um but I feel that there is um that can be kind of um a holiday a trip um you know going somebody it feels as if it's you know and you don't know where you're going but there's a familiarity to to the actual place so watch out for um if you got invited somewhere or you go and you feel that kind of um that draw um to you know I know I've lived here before in a past life or you know if you go down that road there I know that there's a river at the end and um I know this and I know that so um spirit going to be trying to show you um some places um that are part of your past um so watch out watch out for that um would you understand there's been some bickering or um kind of um I don't know people being nasty to each other would you understand this this round and it feels as if you're having to put up some boundaries so that you don't get too involved in it because it's actually not your stuff it's theirs so it's like you're kind of going do you know what just leave me out of it I'm I'm so done um it's going to come to a sudden end I feel that that will stop um you know and I feel that it's all the time they've got a witness to watch them it's like they want um participants to you know do the ooze and the ars and the you know um it's like yeah without that without the energy of all that they'll just kind of stop um you're going to be filling out some forms or documents for your future this is linked with something that you love to do and there is there's also we keep getting this card with you Maureen but you know why yes I do yeah so you know it's just to reiterate that this lovely person is on their way to you and um yeah this person they're giving me an idea they they do a lot of traveling okay this person do a lot of traveling perfect what a lovely party gift my goodness yeah Allie's the best I like to give back because you guys are so wonderful being here um okay so let's I've always said this you know Allie's you know when I when I first built N5D that's when Allie came to me it's as if I built this for us yes and you know it's and she's been such an amazing addition the N5D family and everyone just loves her and we're also grateful you're part of our family you guys have welcomed me and made me feel um part of it so I felt it it felt like it really came together and blossomed yeah thank you she is the N5D matriarch yeah yeah here's your card brace yourself ready you you knock them oh don't grab them sorry I didn't realize the camera you are the best thing to ever happen to you go easy on your ass buy your own damn drink that is a fun card I love that thank you so you are the best thing to ever happen to you go easy on your ass buy your own damn drink don't wait for someone else to come along and rescue you absolutely you don't need rescue in you don't want to meet that guy in the bar anyway oh god you might do I mean just because it's a bar doesn't mean to say you might be having a drink there's a lot of bar restaurants I don't believe that you know that someone's an alcoholic or the bad person just because they're going to have a drink in a pub I didn't say that you could you could meet the man of your dreams there could could I think it'd be better at a drum circle yes yeah no the universe does some very crazy things yeah yeah and the universe has got a very good sense of humor as well it's okay aha you said you didn't want this you didn't want that but we know better you do you need that and that and you never know how that person's going to come to you like Ali did in my dreams the literal woman of my dreams walked in yeah yeah well not you're not seeing what we're seeing he's totally looking at you devotedly all through this you see his eyes just it's like that's because he sits back when he's I'm doing the same thing but it's like I'm talking to myself it's so you know it's so much love I feel I feel it I've never I've never been loved like this I've never felt loved like this in a relationship yeah it's it's pretty amazing I'm with you yeah and the love goes to a depth that yeah you know it has to be the twin flag I dropped your muffin love I want to get that over you're not obvious or anything you know Greg I dropped his I dropped his muffin you can tell you know when people look at their partners you know you could see and the fact that he does just spend so much time on air looking at you yeah if he's not talking he's looking at you yeah pretty much sweet yeah nice that's really I'm very very lucky I feel we both we still do we still go we feel so blessed but we we want this for everyone yeah we want this for everyone thank you which I think is what we need to do with in 5d messaging message messaging yeah um so that people can communicate with each other you know just random people from all over the world could message do they have a limit in in how many people can be in a group I don't know on a I'm like a chat group would be on the pop-up chat I don't know how many can you have in there and if you walk in here you'll be on camera yes and if you walk in here you'll be on I already did when you first on I thought you were talking to somebody that's Dennis nice to meet you she has me here at her new house doing all this work out here and working me like a slave but I got it all done oh well done yeah well you know I went and bought this two and a half acres and when it went into bloom it was mostly all tumbleweeds that had to be cleared so they're pretty much all cleared up you know what you need to do you need just need to get some goats and and that's where we are working on that's a a big consideration right now and I think they're going to do that and they're so funny goats are so yeah they are they are they're hilarious yes until they jump on your car yeah what yes they do I remember my dad's going to we will make sure you know cars are accessible to this what oh it's kind of like climbing mountains right climbing yes it is yeah yeah I didn't think about that see them on branches you know they actually walk on branches low branches yeah if you if you are sorry if you clapper and define goats I didn't know that yeah youtube fainting goats oh my god really yeah yeah that's interesting yeah even if they like to play they could slide down a slide but it'll startle them so much this is like they're their muscles tense up it's like just and so we're going to see the baby goats just jumping and playing it's adorable baby goats are adorable people if you if you get stressed out go watch that that'll that'll unstress you completely yeah it's funny it is really funny until they put the animals down no they don't in I'm a survivor animals thank you okay you're watching something they're doing arms arms all different all different ones and you know at the end of the day that's that's that's life and that's the way they do it but I don't like it I couldn't say I'm eating charlie now you know I know you know yeah I was listening to the whole conversation earlier that's what kind of brought me in but by then you were you were kind of off that subject but oh I haven't I haven't eaten meat in over 50 years I cannot wow yeah I haven't eaten meat in over 50 years and about a little over 10 years ago I went vegan so wow but I was I was a vegetarian that ate eggs and and dairy products for 40 years then I went vegan that was when I got the internet and started looking around a little bit and found out how really horrible the egg and dairy industry were and I said oh no I can't do that anymore and although I love eggs and cheese were a big part of my diet and it was a little tough but I said that's it and I I quit so I admire that I do very much say yeah I'd love to get to that stage I really would what really did it for me and it's really awful to say is that the egg you know the egg industry the little boy chicks you know the little baby boy chicks are sort of like a useless byproduct and the way that they dispose of them is really awful and that's what did it for me I said I can't do that anymore I think the whole system is going to be changing this whole thing the food industry and everything it's all going to be changing it's all going to be you know so I'm I just I know it I know it it's got to be it's got to be changed and you know when they say you know when they they you get channeling through from say off-worlders and they say you know you guys are you know you do all these wars and you do this and you do that it's like no not normal everyday people don't club us all in with all of that because we don't and when they say you know we're polluting the oceans um hold on a minute which ones of us chopped a carrier bag in the ocean or or a bottle or something like that no no what it is is all of that plastic gets shipped over to other countries and it falls off the boatloads boat all of it yeah like that so no it's not Joan's fault don't keep saying we that it won't just bunk me yeah that's me because because we don't do that no and you know the food industry it's like they say have less plastic well um it all goes from the top isn't it the governments need to change the that policy you know we can't we can't go and say could I have some sugar please I'll just put it in my hands like this thanks you know what I mean it's like right you can't I love how you get on your little I do I got my so fast I love it yeah I love it they fly around from city to city to city for weeks I'm using unbelievable amounts of petroleum whatever yeah we should wrap it up here it's 111 oh yeah 111 yeah the kids would be jumping on the bed tomorrow probably about five hours and I'll be like oh you need to send some energy out to Mother Earth every time you see 111 you need to do that so send you love out yeah I want to send love to all of you that that joined us here uh live whether you're here on Zoom or in YouTube or even if you're watching it on the recorded version um spent the time to uh join us here for my birthday it means a lot to me it does no please Greg I'm just so happy that you are there with her right now what a great first yeah yes yeah I agree and it's my it's my wish as well so I've got my wish yeah last year he was over on his own on his birthday I hated that he said I know he doesn't celebrate it no so we have you all every year now for a part you're never free won't we go ahead this year we have my birthday Halloween and our anniversary so get to celebrate three things while I'm here yeah yeah and what day again is your anniversary um November 5th I know that's my husband's birthday so it's easy to remember I just want to hear you say it here in England it's Guy Fawkes yeah Guy Fawkes night yeah thank you for sharing this day with us that was really generous and both of you and the readings too thank you gosh that's good thank you guys we love you so much and we'll we'll take what we can get love you guys so much love you guys thank you for joining us and we'll see you next time thank you both thank you bye bye