Accidents in research laboratories are not isolated events. Since 2001, the CSB has gathered preliminary information on 120 explosions, fires, and chemical releases at university laboratories and other research facilities around the country. The accidents have caused deaths, serious injuries, and extensive property damage. On December 29, 2008, when most of the campus was closed for holiday vacation, Sherry Sanji was working on a research project at the UCLA Chemistry Department. According to a report by California State OSHA, Ms. Sanji was using a syringe to transfer a solution of tertiary butyl lithium, a dangerous pyrophoric chemical that ignites spontaneously on contact with air. Chemist Dr. Jillian Kemsley reported extensively about the UCLA accident for chemical and engineering news using documents obtained under California Open Records Laws. California OSHA cited UCLA's Chemistry Department for failing to require appropriate body protection for laboratory workers handling pyrophoric materials. An internal UCLA safety inspection of the same laboratory just two months prior to the accident found that personal protective equipment was not fully utilized by laboratory personnel. Yet on the day of the accident, Ms. Sanji had neither a flame-resistant lab coat nor the much more extensive protective clothing recommended by manufacturers of pyrophoric chemicals. Dr. Kemsley believes that even a flame-resistant lab coat would have helped. And though the university said it provided adequate safety training for workers, California OSHA found no documented evidence of this. Dr. James Gibson, director of UCLA's Environment, Health and Safety Office, says UCLA has taken steps to improve safety accountability and oversight, improve training, provide proper protective equipment, conduct unannounced safety inspections, and improve laboratory safety culture. Dr. Gibson urges other universities to take steps to improve their education, training, and safety culture. Once we get people to do that, we're going to see a dramatic decrease in the number of accidents that occur. In August 1996, acclaimed professor Karen Wetterhahn was conducting research on the biological impacts of heavy metals in her lab at Dartmouth College. She was working with small amounts of a highly toxic compound called dimethylmercury. She used a mechanical pipetting device to transfer the liquid compound while wearing latex rubber gloves. During this process, she later told colleagues, one or two drops landed on her gloved left hand. Dr. John Wynn is a professor of chemistry at Dartmouth College where he has worked for almost 30 years. At the time of Karen Wetterhahn's accident, he was chair of the chemistry department. At the time, Professor Wynn said, no one in the department knew that dimethylmercury could seep through the latex rubber gloves worn by Professor Wetterhahn. But five months later, in January 1997, she began to show serious neurologic symptoms as her balance, gait, and speech deteriorated rapidly. Despite medical treatment for heavy metal poisoning, three weeks later she became unresponsive and died in June 1997, 10 months after the accident. According to Dartmouth officials, Professor Wetterhahn had consulted the material safety data sheet for dimethylmercury, which advised the use of latex rubber gloves when handling the material. Professor Wynn says the tragedy led the university to emphasize the need for comprehensive hazard evaluations rather than relying exclusively on the safety precautions from chemical suppliers. In January 2010, two graduate students at Texas Tech University were conducting research on energetic or explosive compounds funded by the U.S. Department of Homeland Security. The students were tasked with synthesizing and performing tests on a new compound, a derivative of nickel hydrazine perchlorate. Initially, the compound was made in small batches of less than 300 milligrams. But the two students were concerned about potential variability among different small batches of the compound, which could affect later test results. So they decided to scale up the synthesis to make a single batch of approximately 10 grams enough for all of their testing. They believed that keeping the solid compound wet with a solvent would keep it from exploding. After producing the larger batch, the more senior graduate student observed that it contained clumps that he believed needed to be broken up prior to testing. While wearing safety goggles, he transferred half of the new compound into a mortar, covered the compound with a solvent, and used a pestle to gently break up the clumps. After some time, he took his goggles off and walked away. A short time later, he decided to stir the compound once again. He did not replace his goggles. As the pestle pressed against the compound, it detonated. The graduate student was seriously injured, his left hand severely damaged by the force of the explosion, causing the loss of three fingers, perforation of his eye, and cuts and burns to other parts of his body. Most accident photos and videos show extensive damage as the explosion fractured the lab bench, shattered bottles, and sprayed the lab with projectiles. Professor Dominic Casadonte was head of the Texas Tech Chemistry Department at the time of the accident. The CSB investigation at Texas Tech found deficiencies in each layer of safety management within the institution. These included insufficient safety accountability and oversight by the principal investigators, the chemistry department, and the university's administration. And according to investigators, there were also important gaps beyond the university itself. The victim at Texas Tech had been working on the energetic materials project for about a year at the time of the accident. But the CSB found that he did not receive any specific formal training on working with potentially explosive compounds. The principal investigators believed they had verbally established a 100 milligram limit on the production of energetic materials. But the CSB investigation found there was no formal system for communicating this limit or verifying compliance. None of the lab researchers believed that a strict 100 milligram limit existed. The CSB found that the use of personal protective equipment within Texas Tech laboratories was not consistently enforced. Dr. Taylor Amie is the Vice President for Research at Texas Tech University. Since the accident, Texas Tech has modified its organizational structure so that the Environmental Health and Safety Director reports to Dr. Amie, who also has authority over the principal investigators. The CSB investigation determined there had been two previous near misses within the laboratories of the same principal investigators since 2007. While no one was injured, CSB investigators concluded there were similarities in the causes of these incidents to the January 2010 explosion. But these key lessons were missed at the time of the earlier incidents. The CSB determined that the Department of Homeland Security, which funded the research at Texas Tech through an agreement with Northeastern University, had a general condition stating that the safety of researchers was the responsibility of the various host institutions. However, DHS did not impose any specific safety requirements for research with energetic materials, and Texas Tech did not evaluate the hazards or develop any specific university safety policies. Because Texas Tech is a public institution in a state that lacks its own workplace safety program, it is not required to abide by the Federal OSHA Laboratory Safety Standard. But Texas Tech officials did voluntarily develop a chemical hygiene plan using the OSHA Laboratory Standard as guidance. To highlight this gap in the Laboratory Standard, the CSB recommended that OSHA issue a safety bulletin on the importance of controlling physical hazards of chemicals in the laboratory. And the CSB noted that no comprehensive guidance exists for conducting hazard evaluations within the dynamic environment of academic research laboratories. As a result, the Chemical Safety Board recommended that the American Chemical Society develop a methodology for evaluating and controlling hazards in academic research laboratories. The Board also recommended that Texas Tech University should revise and expand its chemical hygiene plan to ensure that the physical hazards of chemicals are controlled and develop and implement an incident and near-miss reporting system. Dr. James Kaufman is the president of the Laboratory Safety Institute, a non-profit organization which provides safety training for universities. To achieve a high safety standard, the CSB investigation identified key laboratory safety lessons for universities. Ensure that research-specific hazards are evaluated and then controlled by developing specific written protocols and training. Expand existing laboratory safety plans to address the physical hazards of chemicals. Ensure that safety personnel report directly to a university official who has the authority to oversee research laboratories and implement safety improvements. Document and communicate. All laboratory near-misses and incidents. Exploring the unknown, doing research always involves risks. Those risks are worth taking. We know that as a society. And as a society, we owe it to ourselves to do them in the most efficacious and safe ways we can.


First of all, I'm really solid out here, and I've been solid out here at Jeremy Corbyn MP as well, these Palestinian leaders at the moment. I just want to congratulate you on what you've done. I think it's brilliant, and it's happening all over the country. And the messages that are coming in from university and colleges, right there across the country, is absolute solidarity. And I think whatever you're seeing on the TV or whatever what's happening along Whitehall, what's the real world, and the real world what's happening is large numbers of students are actually saying we've had enough, and we're not willing to take it anymore. And it is about the basic freedom of education. We thought of a generation of people like me who fought for the rights of free education, and these bastards are going to take it off us. And what this is all about is making sure that they don't. And I think you're having the effect. You're having the effect. That was John McDonnell all the way back in 2010 addressing the UCL occupation. And I know that that's a kind of shaky and unfocused mobile phone video, but being a completely sentimental cornball, I thought we'd kick off with that because really, if it wasn't for that wave of university occupations between 2010 and 2011, I don't think the viral media would exist. I would never have met Aaron Bassani or James Butler. I would probably be richer, happier in a more secure form of employment. So you wrote a book. Thank you so much for joining us. It's a real pleasure to have you here. Thank you for having me. So this book, Student Revolt, Voices of the Asterity Generation, I can't recommend it highly enough.  But one of the things that felt like a real joy to read was these memories which had kind of gotten a bit fuzzy around the edges for me but just sort of called back with so much clarity and emotional texture and richness and these voices of people who I love dearly or maybe there's some friendships which maybe slipped off, they were suddenly called back with this wonderful clarity and you could just kind of hear these voices ringing in your ear. So I guess my first question is just how did this book come together and what was that process like of gathering all this testimony? Well, it's normal history. So I wanted to create a history of the movement told to the voices of the people who made it. So I did about 60 interviews over a two-year period. Quite an emotional, really creative process in which telling the historical story is no longer, you know, the historian is not in the archives, you're talking to real people with real memories and the movement, because it was defeated, left for many, I think, the experience of defeat was very difficult to deal with and so coming five years after, seven years after, these interviews I think allowed people to come to terms with the movement and hopefully by constructing this historical story future generations can learn from the experience of the movement and I don't think the 2010 generation had a space in which they could argue out what happened in 2010. There was no space, there was no space to create a balance sheet of sorts and hopefully this historical story of the 2010 student movement, this book, is their collective property. I mean, I'm not asking you to give away the best bits for free, but what did happen in 2010? Why did the student movement fail to secure a victory? If you had to give the kind of, you know, elevator version of the summary? Why they lost, well I would say, what, government intransigence and his wonderful George Osborne quote from the book when she says that we expected this, we expected resistance against the first round of austerity and if we don't defeat the students then the whole of our austerity regime is going to be called into question. They saw this as a fundamental battle that they had to win. The government wasn't prepared to let the students get their way. The Liberal Democrats, many of whom like Vince Cable would never reconcile with the fees policy anyway, chose to side with the government and it was faced with a student movement divided between official and unofficial movements between an NUS that was focused on parliamentary action and winning over one or two Liberal Democrat MPs versus a movement in the streets which was in no mood to make any deals with any politicians but felt betrayed totally by the political system. Also a student body that was actively demobilised, we hadn't had movements for decades, especially not as radical as the one that Milberg set off, mixed I think with tactical mistakes and no space, political space anyway to argue out possible tactical changes, mixed also with huge police repression. The police actively crushing the movement in the streets and the students being brought through the courts and I think we'll all remember Alfie Meadows who was nearly killed by a police baton. So I think it's a mix of all these reasons. I mean one of the things that I think you discussed quite well in the book is that there is a assumed antagonism towards hierarchy and hierarchical forms of organisation and there's a great deal of disagreement in terms of the voices that you interview in terms of should there have been more of an embrace of leadership. It's kind of funny that one of the results of 2010, 2011 is actually a revival of institutional forms of political organisation i.e. the Labour Party has made a big comeback. So one is do you think that this kind of return to institutional politics represents a failure of non-hierarchical organising? And two, do you think that Corbyn would be possible without that kind of mass mobilisation first in 2010, 2011? Well I do think in 2010 there was this proliferation of non-hierarchical organising. Some of us are still repping hard for it by the way. But I think it was this generalisable experience and it made sense to people at the time because you had a political class, all political parties seemed totally out of touch with what students were. Students in 2010 had put their faith in the Liberal Democrats who had framed themselves as a party alternative to new labour. They didn't vote for the Iraq war, they had promised free education. Students felt totally betrayed by the breaking of their promise. That really undergirds the moral economy of the student protests. They also had the Labour Party who had commissioned the Browner view, but brought in tuition fees twice who invaded Iraq and you have a Conservative party that students generally don't support. When the Liberal Democrats portrayed the students, the bottom fell out of politics and they were in no mood to make any accord with these politicians who had sold their future down the drain. I think as the movements progressed and the social movements, it wasn't just the Chinese stand movement that was interested in non-hierarchal organising. You had UK uncut, you had a number of different social movements in the streets. None of them seemed to break through. I don't think it's any surprise that people felt in 2015 that they had put all of this effort over the past five years to very little result of the editorial government that was coming in with a larger majority than the coalition. I think people were desperate for change and that, I think, laid the basis for this shift in many people. This returned to the institutions and many of the 2010 generation have now found themselves in the Corbyn project. I don't think there's... I think there is this narrative arc between the 2010 student movement and the present but I think in the movement's defeat that it created the conditions in which people have started to think, well, maybe Jeremy Corbyn can break through where we couldn't. I don't know about nothing to show for it because I had six months of chest infections, Mr and that is something to show for occupying various cold floors in winter. I mean, I guess this isn't necessarily a question you can answer decisively but maybe it's something that you can tease out and answer from is that in the book you talk about this kind of upsurge and insurrectionist energy and I do want to show a video in just a second but that actually coded within that was a kind of appeal to power which is almost look how angry we are, look at what you've riled up, something has to change and people weren't prepared for disappointment, right? Not just defeat but actually that demonstration of real politic and just how unaccountable their institutions are. Do you think that we have emerged from that tougher, smart and more resilient or, inshelaw, this won't happen but should the Corbyn project fail, are we headed towards another similarly irreparable kind of political disappointment only perhaps a lot more catastrophic in terms of the mood that might engender? Well, I think there is that possibility that I would say that the structural, economic drivers that created the conditions for the movement by 2010 are still there, still present. This generational cleavage which is riffing open British politics, 2010 was simply the first, it was the market, it was a political touchstone that signified this new political subjectivity which was expressed in 2010 when young people took to the streets and in 2017 when they took to the ballot box it's the experience of young people today living under austerity, living with futures which are looking like they're going to be far worse than their parents with paying almost half their income on rent, with the job market, with precarious work, huge student debts with 6% interest rates. This is creating the conditions for social movements in the streets but also movements of the ballot box and I think we need to continue the student movements going forward. We can't let up the social movements in the streets if Corbyn is going to succeed. I think there's got to be this relationship between the two. I mean just before we wrap up I do want to show you this great clip which you discussed in the book. Can we show it? We're from the slums of London, yeah? How do they expect us to pay 9,000 for uni fees? And EMA, EMA with university keeping us in college was stopping us from doing drug build on the streets anymore, nothing. Because there's not just one 2010-2011 generation, there was kind of one surge of interaction and synergy on the streets and that was for students, but then the kind of coder to this and it's kind of in conversation in the book is the riots of 2011. Do you think that that energy has been coordinated and appealed to in the same way by Corbyn's project as it has kind of courted the remnants of that student movement or is that still something that's kind of pulsing and waiting to blow? Well, I think that the 2010-2011, that's very much a political conjuncture, the 2010 student movement and the 2011 riots, I think the spirit of many of those involved, I mean the spirit of both were very much implicated in each other, this rebellion total against the system itself, no politicians represented, students, no politicians represented anyone in the streets in 2011. But I do think the current conjuncture is slightly different. Obviously there are multiple 2010s. There are the 2010s of the Russell group, university students who are occupying, there's the 2010 of those people you saw in the video. Also within the 2010 generation there's multiple 2010s going forward, there's those of radical social media, people who have made careers in radical media, there's those 2010 people who have gone into the radical independence campaign, into the Corbyn campaign, it's the Green Party into UK and CUT, they've taken their experiences forward. I do think that the 2010-2011 period is, I just get the sense that that was a very, very specific conjuncture coming out of the 2008 financial crisis with a total rebellion against the system. And I do think the conditions are still there for some explosion like that to emerge again, but I think we are in a new conjunction now. I think the horizon has shifted on questions like free education, on questions like gentrification, on rent controls, on building new houses, on defending the welfare state. I think Corbyn has shifted the political debate and I think those movements in 2010-2011 I think paved the way for that to occur. So that's I think why we need to return to the experience of 2010-2011. I think it really did lay the basis for the changes we're currently seeing. I mean, I will really encourage people to cop this book. I'm not just saying that because the mate wrote it, it's actually really sick. And so, because we love a good competition at Navara, I got my first suggestion for a competition question rejected, which was guest map star sign. So if you tweet at Navara media with, oh what was the question, who admit is to spineless dithering over supporting the protest in 2010? If you tweet with your answer, one of you will win a copy of this excellent book.  So we'll post it to you. Thank you so much for joining us. It's been a pleasure. All right, same time, same place next week. Bye.


Right. Mr. Sian, thank you very much for being part of Inside Another History, the fireside chat. Well, thank you for having me. This is really exciting. Great. So when we were preparing for this chat, you said about the Christian Jorgensen story, that that was actually your story. For the benefit of the audience, would you explain who Christian Jorgensen was and why this story so relates to you? Well, I'm going to practice a little bit by saying that when I was young, my family used to go to drive-in movies. They were kind of original, like, once or twice a month. And one night, we decided to go to this movie, and they set double features back then. So the second movie that was in the feature was called Christian Jorgensen Story. And I was, you know, younger, and I remember my age. But it was about a person who went through transsexual surgery in Denmark, a successful transsexual surgery. And I remember seeing that movie, and it resonated with me. I felt like that was my story. It was the first inclination I had that I was different in power. But it scared the crap out of me, actually, because there wasn't anything that I'd seen or heard of back then. There was no reference. All I could see is this movie about this person that I felt I could identify with. So that's kind of the story behind that one. Why did it register so strongly with you? What was going on with you internally, emotionally with that? Actually, there wasn't anything at the time that was... It was just something that I identified with. I was actually too young. It was very pre-cubescent. So I was not dealing with any kind of sexuality or anything. But I think, and I believe that gender is not something that you are socially influenced by. It's how you're wired. And I think that was an indication to me about how I was wired. Now, how it affected me a little bit later is a different story. Because it scared me. I pretty much kind of went into denial about it for the rest of my life.  Let's take a bit of a step back. Please, tell us a little bit about your early life, your family, where you're from. I was born in New Orleans. My mom was originally from Belfast, Ireland. My dad was born in New Orleans. Overseas or in New Orleans. And my mom was not a very healthy person. I was the fourth child being born, but the first one had survived. I had two sisters and a brother that didn't survive with miscarriages. And I had a 50-50 chance. I had asthma and stuff. And I was about seven years old. The doctors had told my parents that the climate like out in California was much better for me. And would be a little bit better for my health. So my dad went ahead and made arrangements with the company he was working for. To get transferred out here to Los Angeles. So we moved out here. And we lived actually not too far from here for the first year. And my dad bought a house in Corvina, which is about 30 miles east of here. And that's where I pretty much grew up. And my family life was pretty normal. I had a younger brother as well, by the four years. We had a pretty tight family, but my dad had, after buying the house, had to work a lot of overtime. To make sure he could pay the bills, pay the mortgage and stuff. And my mom, who had not been healthy, was diabetic. She had a lot of coma, she had bad liver. She had to work with a lot of medical men. And the stress of my dad working a lot and things and her health, she started drinking. And unfortunately she became an alcoholic. And it was, I mean I had a really great childhood. I was never mistreated really. I was never, I mean we had a good family life, but with my mom, would drink. She was not a nice person. So she would be verbally abusive to my father. And my dad has a patience of saint. So growing up I got to witness a lot of different dynamics about behavior and about self-control and about addiction. Which influenced me a lot in my later life about how I grew up. But there were also teachers. And they taught me a lot of lessons about, for example, I was taught to question things. Not to believe everything that you're hearing. I was told that the only thing I was given when I came into this world was time. And how I used it was my choice, but once I realized that once it ran out there was no more. And no matter how much money or how successful you could be, when your time comes it comes. And you're never going to know if it's the next day or in 70 years so you could use time wisely. So I pretty much kept those with it. It wasn't spectacular or unusual other than kind of living my kind of secret life inside as a, to myself. But taking a step back to your family, you said that you learned a lot of life lessons. You learned a lot about people and a lot about life. What are some of the main points you took from that? What sorts of things did your parents teach you about people and life and things? Well, important in the South, it was all about matters. And that was very important. My mom had a lot of the ideals from Ireland and Europe itself about behavior. I remember Spain, discipline to my parents was maybe sending me to my room and that explained to me why it was wrong and what I did if I got in trouble. It wasn't about necessary punishment. It was about you need to know what you did wrong so that you can correct it. You know, people can say they're sorry all they want but it's their actions that matter.  We all make mistakes with what you do naturally that defines who you are and your character. And that was one of the lessons I learned early on too is that don't be afraid of failure. Don't be afraid of being wrong. It doesn't make you a bad person. And to use any kind of failure as a lesson. Lesson to be better in life. Lesson to improve on yourself. Or in the lesson that you can learn by somebody else's behavior. Sometimes not what to do, but what not to do. Coming back to your younger years, you said that you really enjoyed Batman and Capri. Tell us a bit about that. Well, I grew up in, I'll be 65 next week actually. You know, I grew up when the Batman series was in regular rotation every week. And it was always a two-part show. And at the end of the first episode, they were always captured by the villain. So it was always kind of a predicament. It was never that they were going to, you know, shoot them or pretty much that. They then tied up and swinging over a pendulum or some kind of silly thing like that. But to me, the bondage was exciting. I enjoyed it in that. I was like, that's just cool.  I kind of identified with that character. I thought she was hot. But you know, if I had to be anybody in that show, that's the one that I would want to be. But yeah, it was probably my first beginning to realize that I had a king. Okay, rather than anything sexual or gender-wise, it was all I knew was that stuff at the end of the first episode, and then getting tied up and being a predicament bondage and stuff, was always the exciting part for me. Did you have any idea of the implications of this? No. But I do know that when I think of my brothers and his friends and stuff, they said, you know, if it was Cowboys and Indians or cops and robbers or whatever, I had a lot of joy in doing the capturing and tying them up or being captured and being tied up. So, and as I started to get a little bit older, and I started experimenting in my room, you know, at night, after bedtime and right with the sleep, you know, get some rope tied to ankles or wrists or do something and all, I knew it was really exciting. I was still too young to, you know, to get sexually aroused, but eventually that happened. But for many years, you harbored a secret inside. What was your secret? Why were you keeping that secret? Well, again, it went back to that self-identification with transgender. I knew that it was different. I was somewhat, basically I was denial publicly, but inside I knew there was something. I knew how I felt. I knew what was comfortable to me as far as my identity towards other boys and girls. And when I started going to a library, the only thing I could find in that library was things about it being a mental illness. Homosexuality, transsexualism, all those things were medically and psychologically bad. And then to complicate it, as I started to realize the key part of my life when I was looking at those kind of things, then that wasn't necessarily the same kind of sickness, but it was considered a perversion. It would sound as bad to me too. So it's like, oh my God, everything that I'm into, the world is against, everything that I'm into is bad. I'm this thing that nobody wants this accepting of.  And I didn't think so. I thought I was just fine. It was something that I was not about to disclose. At that point in my life, I started getting involved in sports with the asthma that had been cleared up pretty much. And so I used my participation in sports to become an overkeeper and to kind of hide the fact of who I was. And it wasn't until later in my life when I went to therapy that I found out what I was doing and thought was living my life to be the person that other people wanted me to be. But I was afraid it wouldn't accept me for who I was. So I excelled in basketball. I excelled in baseball. When I first started running in high school, my first two-mile race in cross-country stuck. I remember it was like 13 minutes and 44 seconds. But I worked really hard. Because that was my epic growing up when my parents taught me. It was 110 percent. And I worked and worked and worked. And by the time I was a junior, I had fast time in the league. I was going to state finals. And also it was really good because I had this letterman's jacket. I had more medals than anybody in the school. And I could be that macho person, that jock. And thinking that nobody will know about me.  Because I identified more with being female than dating female.  Because I'm very confused. Because I like girls. And I like being with them. But I didn't really picture myself sexually. And I didn't act with them. So that was pretty much my secret from a long, long time. And it wasn't until later years with some publications like Hand Health Variations and Forum. And things that people would have the letters that they would describe some of their activity. That I realized that there's more people in the world that are not the only one. And I may not be that bad person that I read the medical books and then I gave my hand up. But when you were reading these, you were learning that it was viewed as something bad. What did that evoke for you? Did you feel that you need to suppress it even more? Did this cause difficulty? It had to be very confusing. Oh, extremely.  And I think that's why I tended to overcompensate in things. Whatever I did, if it was schoolwork, I did good to be the best in the class. If it was sports, I wanted to be the one that was going to win. And it wasn't only to feel accepted or to fool everybody. It was also something that I thought that I needed to do for acceptance. I was afraid, and it wasn't even conscious at that time, it was subconscious, that I wanted my parents to be proud of me. I wanted people to look at me and respect me for my achievements because if they really knew what was inside, then they would associate it with mental illness and stuff. And having three siblings that didn't make it, I felt kind of old-pressured to be the person that... I wanted to be the person that my parents wanted me to be.  And in my mind, I was already... I already had two strikes against me. I was feeling like I was transgender and kinky. And all these things are telling me that these are abnormal.  I'm the first one that lives. And now I'm flawed, I'm sick, I'm abnormal. You know, those are pretty intense. But fortunately, because my family was supportive and I had a good family, I could say that I was lucky enough to never go through a suicidal. It's hard that I never put myself in a situation where I wanted to die. I felt that I was happy in life. I had a secret. I could live with that secret, nor he needed to know it wasn't affecting me outwardly, only inwardly. Did you ever try to explore that side of yourself at all as a young person? Did you simply ignore it and pursue your other achievements? Or did you ever explore that? As young, I did not explore it outwardly in those books. I think there was a part of me that didn't want to know more everything. And actually, you know, back in those days, there was no internet or anything. So you went to a library and you looked at the card catalog for things. And I literally looked up everything I could in that library on transsexualism, transvestism, you name it. And you went literally, it was like three or four references. So I felt that I went through everything I could in the library and there was nothing positive about it. So at that point it was kind of, you know, do I really want to know more and how do I know more? I've read books and read everything I can read and all of these medical books and psychological books in there. But I can't, I don't want to tell my family.  So it was like, this is something that I can deal with and I will find another outlet. And that other outlet was something that was going to make me happy that would keep my focus externally rather than internally. So you followed convention and you got married. You had three children. Tell us your thoughts on that. Have you any regrets about that time in your life? Oh, no. I mean, when I got married I was because I was in love.  When I was old enough to go into an adult book store, I went into the store and I saw publications about this. And all of a sudden that's when I felt that I'm not alone. There are more people like me. And maybe it's not that bad. So then they had books like Everything You Want to Go About Sex. They had like five pages on bondage and SNM. And so that was a book that was not negative. That was a book about the people in general. So I bought that book and I read it. And those thoughts about being sick and perverted were starting to fade away. And maybe then people that wrote those books didn't understand. So when I got married I had already learned a little bit more about that there was a king out there. I started to explore that king through publications and reading different magazines and books. So when I got married I kind of at that point thought that when I was as bisexual and I was a cross-chessor. So I still had come to terms with being transsexual. So I thought, I'm in love. I'm enjoying sex. I'm still attracted to men. But I love women and I'm having sex with women and it's really good and I'm having fun with it. And another woman I love with and we had kids and I would have changed that for the world. My first son was born to Sarah. My second one was born in the birth center. My daughter was born at home in our bedroom. And I held a liver. Was that intentional? Yes. We had planned it. We spent that life having helped give birth to my daughter and hold her right there in our bedroom and stuff is something that I would not trade for the world. It was kind of no regrets. And probably the only regret that I would say and I have right now is that a little bit often with my father my mom died when she was 46 from cirrhosis because we were drinking. My dad was 70 and I weighed back and forth for a number of years to tell him about me and I never did. And I guess we can maybe talk about that after but I think he knew and he think he was trying to let me know he knew but I was afraid to say something. But my family, my kids and I raised them to be open minded. My son is very accepting of my lifestyle. My gender change. My daughter works with me here at Sanctuary as one of my directors, board of directors and as operations and CFO. I have been blessed when it comes to family, my many. Did your ex-wife know about this? It's an interesting one. I kind of broke it to her with everything you want to know about sex book especially paying attention to the king part and the cross-dressing part. So we started experimenting and playing with it and she was fine with it because it was spiced everything up. I still was not honest about my inner feelings but again there was still part of me in denial on it because I thought that it might be bisexual but now Kinky is okay. And I had someone in my life that I could share that with and we could play with bondage and things and explore. Okay, do you still enjoy a good relationship with her? Yes, I got divorced in 2007 with her. We're still friends. I am currently married. I got married since someone I had known. I had known now for 13 years and developed through RDS and evolved into more and got married in 2017 and very happy and my ex is friends with her. My ex is also married so everybody still gets together on holidays and both families because when bonds are together still it's effective for young children which are all grown. My oldest one will be 41 this year and my youngest one will be 34. Tell us about your coming out.  A couple different paths. It took a little while but I'm originally when I came to college I went into the corporate world and since I had a corporate background the company I was with was going to be moving to North Carolina and I didn't want to go and at that job I was the director of operations and some of the people that worked there were the music business. I got to meet musicians and producers and stage managers and I got involved and I always loved music. I couldn't play it, I always loved it. I got to meet all these people I started working with these bands and helping them out so when the company decided to move I decided to work get involved in the music industry and I started working on putting on small concerts and rock and roll shows and doing that gave me a couple of things in life I was happy doing it I could dress and be in power one and since this was kind of in the day with heavy metal I could wear leather I could take in a I was very improgenous I had the I made that black fingernail very tight pants and dry and full leather jacket and when I came out to the community, to the world so to speak I thought I was afraid of rejection I was afraid that the people who I worked with was going to have a problem the bands that I managed was going to have a problem my friends were going to have a problem but it was just the opposite when I told everybody because I transitioned the way I did kind of gradually it was more like now it makes sense we didn't know if you were kind of in a glam God-seeing or whether you were gay or we didn't know but now it answers questions and everybody accepted it and I learned later on from the therapist my therapist said when people have a problem with their transitions sometimes it's because they show one day a 3D suit and then they dress and you're dealing with maybe your whole life with other people in your life that's all of a sudden wide opening and it takes a little time to deal with it and adjust to that now when that was my coming out publicly a little earlier than that I had already transitioned in early my transition I had my male outside life and being out inside life when I went to do the stuff in the music business I was Pat and when I was in my real mode I identified as Katie so my went back to my divorce which didn't go smoothly because when I did kind of branch this to my ex I was coming when I was into it and I thought that it might be a little bit more than that but she came up with something and she started doing some research and I think she inspired her I think she thought she was losing her husband and we had a serious conversation about she didn't want to be involved in this anymore and so I purged and I put everything up on my clothing and she was very cold for a while and she finally told me that she was upset because I didn't throw it away that it was still there so it means that it wasn't out of my life and that was the beginning of our separation and as our separation went both farther it got a little uglier and she had moved away of North and wouldn't let me know where my kids were and so it was very traumatic and my son had an accident in school and they had taken him to the hospital and then unbeknownst to me at the time she had had my kids with her father and she had a problem with getting to see him because she couldn't act any and I went up there and we reconnected and I came back to LA and I got a call one day and my kids my son and my daughter wanted to come down instead to bring rape with me and here I was transitioning like I can't live what I'm doing now so I took a road of utter snail mail filled in and explained everything about my transition and my thoughts were that I was going to be I was going to receive something back and the kids aren't coming down there stay out of our mind and so on and I got a call a few days later which terrified me and she said I got your letter and I'm really happy for you I'm glad you realized that kind of knowing for 10 years you were going to do this and I'm glad that you finally came around to it and said wow right? and and I said well how do you feel about the kids? you're probably fine with the baby too I'm obviously the last one to know I think and so my kids came down and they spent a great break with me and then my son went back up north my daughter went with me the rest of the year went to school things got better this was in the 90s my ex came down here again in 2000 worked good until about 2006 but we grew apart not necessarily in a bad way so my transition has been kind of different aspects of things but I have to say that again the toughest part of that my transition was myself accepting it because I was still concerned about what other people were going to think what other people were going to do what other people were going to lose in my life and my therapist who was gay told me that before I started to come out you're living in life you're trying to be the person that everybody wants you to be the person you are because you're afraid that they're not going to like who you are and if I went out there when I transitioned and did come out some of the ones I thought were going to reach at me the most it embraced me the most and it said to me we're your friends because of who you are not what you look like but it said that the inside is still the same so you may look different but we're fine with it nobody talks with you but it's normal for you to ask is the law some relationships a major problem a major hurdle for people who transition I think so I think we're our worst enemy because we fear rejection and I now in 2019 as open as things are there is still that and there is still the danger of rejection I mean I know people now who are afraid to come out of their family or have come out of their family and they're disowned they're made to feel that they're sick and that God is against them and they're nothing but a mistake or a litigation I mean I've even heard people who are Christian say things like maybe that's the one good thing about abortion and I mean how can we say that to somebody and let somebody feel good about themselves I think it's that fear of rejection and of rejection which causes so many suicides we often hear of suicide being a major issue with people who transition what do you feel you had that other people didn't that prevented you from going down that road I think I hold the upbringing I think I was brought up about morals and being proud I don't think I don't think question whether that movie with Christine Jordan was an accident I wonder because I was so young I don't know and I never had an opportunity to talk to my parents before they passed away was it something they saw in me I think in this case I felt like I was the last one to know and I often wonder did they see something in me as a child that made them think that maybe that was different and when that movie wasn't it was it the accidental thing about the double feature that was something that maybe they wanted to learn more about and I'll never know fascinating switching gears a little bit you worked as a pro doctor tell us about that still do well in my in my life my king life being able to accept myself after going out into therapy and transitioning I started to regain all that self esteem self respect I had as a child about my accomplishments and things and no longer felt that there was anything wrong with me none of that I felt that everything right with me was brought up about you know with manners and about trust and I mean the foundation was there so I I also learned in my transition about how you how you tell people about something is going to have a big bearing on how they accept it if you're kind of quiet about don't tell anybody but I do this it's going to be accepted that that must be something it's not going to be good you're hiding something but if you openly discuss it like there's nothing to hide that people are going to take it a lot more positive I made a determination when I came out about being trans that the weight of the world felt like it was lifted on my shoulders you know something I am no longer in my life going to carry another burden that you have to carry by choice so by then I started learning about the king I had started exploring outside rural of kink I came across some publications in an adult bookstore that was full of ads and not only did I realize that people out there liked me but I realized that there was people in the same things and that they were out there looking to hook up so I contacted them made connections got to meet them got brought into that world and during that time you didn't have dungeons like sanctuary or the lair or threshold or anything like that people had play spaces in their home and they were very selective about who they met in their home and it was also something that it was still considered bad socially accepted so you need to trust people and that's one thing I've known about the community then you can tell us the money in the lifestyle you need to start a secret something that it would never be divulged and these days it's more like if you tell your deep dark secrets it's information today and ammunition tomorrow which is kind of sad to me but that's a whole other story I'm like again on the kink part of it I met people I moved into a house in Riverside and the house sold and I had to make her a land buy a bedroom house every second Saturday of the month and one day the woman who owned the house said to me I got somebody coming over to do a scene would you like to join us I was like oh sure never gonna turn around play so we did this scene and it was a lot of fun and after it was all over she handed me some money part of this and I was like wow what's this for and she explained to me about what the whole domination was it wasn't about sex or about everything sensual but there were people in their life they couldn't share it with significant others or anything else so they couldn't see professionals or they couldn't have marks they couldn't come to someone they could be safe or not getting into a relationship and they couldn't fall in love with no strings attached and I thought oh my god you mean I could do this and actually possibly make a living with it and so I couldn't spur you on and that was another thing my family my dad told me about using my time money and I was always brought up about my main focus on life was on which money I could make it was about the quality of life because again it was reinforced to me that I could give him my truck tomorrow and it wouldn't mean anything so we know live every day of your life happy be happy


Currently the most common method of COVID-19 diagnosis is by QRTPCR which is slow and requires expensive instrumentation. Here the authors report an electrochemical biosensor based on isothermal rolling circle amplification for rapid detection of SARS-CoV-2 in clinical samples. This article was offered by Fanyarat Chai Bung, Jai Ratcha Puenpa, Tachanan Ngamdi, and others.


Thanks to Data Rescue, we have usable digitised measurements that provide us with point-wise information on the weather of the past. To understand and predict extreme events, however, it is important to have three-dimensional continuous data of as many parameters as possible. So how can we get from these local measurements to a three-dimensional global weather reconstruction? Let's show this using a football kick. Assume the trajectory of the ball is the development of the weather over time. In the present day, we are continuously observing the weather all over the world, much like filming the football kick, to get uninterrupted data of its change. Reconstruction here is no problem, since we know the ball's position at various times. In the past, however, where observations were rare, the film analogy is not accurate. It's more like we only have three different pictures of the football kick as our past records. This makes reconstructing the ball's trajectory rather tricky. To solve this problem, we need a model. Models are based on physical equations, which are transformed into algorithms and finally into computer code. This code is then run on supercomputers, and the results are forecasts or reconstructions. Those are not perfect, but they do obey the laws of physics. For the case of the football kick, the model is the incline throw. This model, however, is a bit too simple. If we also count for friction, it already looks more realistic. Of course we could still improve it in many ways, but for the sake of demonstration, it will do. The model on its own does not tell us the ball's trajectory or any concrete location the ball occupied. All it gives us is a framework for how the ball could behave. That is why we need the starting conditions and the photographs made during the kick. Combining them with the model enables us to initiate the reconstruction. There are three different so-called data assimilation strategies to accomplish this. The particle filter method, the Kaman filter and 4DVAR. The approach of the particle filter is to make many simulations and use the photos to pick the best-fitting one. We start with many simulations and stop them once they reach the first photograph. There, only the one closest to the photograph is kept. Because there is an error both in the model and in the photograph, we perturb that state a little, and then start new simulations again. We repeat this step at the second and again at the third photograph. In the end, the four best segments make up the reconstruction of the ball's trajectory. The second approach, steering the model simulation, is called Kaman filter. One of its first uses was landing on the moon. In the case of the football kick, we start with a reasonable forecast, stop it at the first photograph, compare it with the photograph and adjust the model state accordingly. The adjustment accounts for the error of the photograph and the error in the model. It can be understood as some sort of weighted average. From this corrected state, we start the next forecast and repeat the steps for all photographs. So we're continually steering our model simulation using the photographs. In the end, we again have four segments that make up the ball's trajectory. Unlike the other two methods, the third approach, 4DVAR, does not segment the trajectory. It tries to find the ideal starting conditions for one uninterrupted trajectory. We again begin with reasonable starting conditions. Make a forecast and note the deviation at the first photograph. We do not, however, stop or adjust the simulation, but go on to the second and third photograph. Each time noting the deviation between photograph and simulation. Each of these deviations gives us an equation. We solve these equations backwards using a linearized version of the model, which gives us the ideal starting conditions. We now make another forecast based on these starting conditions, which gives us our reconstruction. All three methods require comparing a three-dimensional model with a two-dimensional photograph. The only way this can be done is to simulate the photograph inside the model. In this way, the correction determined on the two-dimensional photograph then automatically corrects the entire three-dimensional model state. The same methods are applied to make weather reconstructions. We obviously don't use the inclined throw, but a complex weather forecast model. The same way we used photographs in the football example, we now take a modernized pressure measurements, which we combine with a global weather prediction model. Using the ensemble Kalman filter and 4DVAR, we now initiate our reconstruction. The product is a so-called reanalysis. Despite very little data, we now have three-dimensional, continuous information for the weather of the past.


Hello, and welcome to our segment on special relativity. You'll recall that in our last segment on the speed of light, Michelson and Morley demonstrated that the speed of light was the same for all inertial observers. The first impact of this discovery was that the Galilean transformations that we had been using for centuries was incorrect. New transformations were needed, and these new transformations had to satisfy two key requirements—one, no matter how we add speeds, the speed of light had to come out the same, and at low speeds compared to the speed of light, we had to get the Galilean transformations. In the years following Michelson-Morley's experiment, a number of physicists and mathematicians went to work on this problem. People like George Fitzgerald, Henry Ponkari, and Hendrick Lorenz. They came up with these transformations, now called the Lorenz transformations. In this segment, we'll see how these transformations required that time was stretched, dilated, and distance was contracted in order to satisfy the two main requirements, and we'll also see how Einstein put it all together with just two postulates.


Hello friends, endometriosis. Endometriosis has a huge magnitude of problem globally. Nearly about more than 2 crore of Indian women are suffering from the endometriosis. Let us have a brief review about the endometriosis. I am Dr. Bala Jinalwadri, laparoscopic surgeon, head of the gynecology department at Manipal Hospital Baner Pune with specialization in endometriosis and fibroid management with more than 22 years of clinical experience. Endometrium is the innermost lining of the uterus which is been shed out during every menstrual period. When this endometrium grows outside of the normal uterine cavity, the condition is called endometriosis. The endometriosis can occur in the ovaries or fallopian tube or the neighboring organs which are there next to the uterus. Nearly about 50 percent of the women with early stage disease may not have any signs or symptoms. They are diagnosed while we are evaluating for their infertility. Whereas, in other women's there may be symptoms in the form of painful periods, excessive bleeding during the period, heavy menstrual flow, painful intercourse and bloating sensation. In advanced stage disease also called deep infiltrating endometriosis, pain may be chronic or severe making a lady to carry out her day to day activities difficult and poor quality of life that may result because of the deep infiltrating endometriosis. So, endometriosis is it a cancer?  It spreads to the neighboring organ like a cancer like urinary bladder, intestine or the urinary tubes that are called ureters and that can result into serious problems. Regarding management, early stage disease can be managed with medicines only. Surgery can be the option for those women who are desirous for having the child and there is an infertility because of the endometriosis. So, we can do the minimal access surgery to enhance the fertility of a lady and give positive pregnancy. Sometimes, laparoscopy or minimal access surgery may be the only option for those ladies who are having severe and non-variable pain making their poor quality of life. So, by doing the surgery, we can give them good quality of life and complete pain relief by doing the laparoscopic surgery. So, we have started for the first time in the Pune City Specialized Endometriosis Clinic at Manipal Hospital in Banyur and we have all advanced set of instruments and equipments which are required to perform all sort of complicated surgeries for those women who are having deep infiltrate, deep infiltrating endometriosis which are involving the intestine or the rectum or the urinary bladder. Thank you.


Yeah, babe. Tried in to tap. So they'll come up first in 10 now from the 33. Let's go. Yes! Go ahead, he got the pace. Oh, yes, he does! Hee-hee! Look at that. Boom. I like the look, bro. That's great. Sippin' time. Toss. Oh!  That looked exactly like a rugby play. Exactly. I'm actually going to watch it travel the other way. No. The Titans are third down. Just one for three thus far. They're looking at a third and goal here. Yeah, no, I don't have any subscriptions, man. Really? You got charged for it. Nah, man. Nothing. Too much pace. Take this one in for a Titans touchdown. I want to go. Now it's a lot easier. You see it? You call. I want to go half back stretch to the right, and switch it to the left. Where my two wider series are. I think I do. Do I? Because that looks pretty nice running outside there. Yeah, I do. I'm going to switch it up this way. Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. It worked, motherfucker! You! Not at all because you may leave an opening. They could come back and get you. They've been so good. Thanks, Johnny. Can they convert another third and goal? Come on.  Come on. Someone open. Yes! I've got my signature clap zoom now. Do you reckon that's my signature? No one else does it? That's good, man. I appreciate that. All right, here we go. Climbed it. Climbed the business. Boom, my friend.   He's around. Thumb him, thumb him, thumb him.  Crazy, mate. And when I thought about it, I didn't really care. But when I first thought about it, but thinking about it now, I mean, that's a $1,500 camera. I would have just had to buy another one. So... I'm pretty glad I got it back. Yes, up, bro. Well, thanks for being here. Where are we tuning in from? Yeah! That's... Fuck, I love that handoff there.


Thanks for checking out this unboxing video and it's been a while. It's been a while since I put up an unboxing video That is mainly because I Haven't had boxes coming in it just kind of happened so that that wasn't the the case We had that issue with the box of dread where that was delayed And I needed another one and then so then the two boxes of dread came out kind of close to one another Now the same thing ended up happening with this BAM box This got severely delayed because and this is the April by the way, which the theme is revenge I think or bloody revenge or something like that But this got severely delayed because it is I guess they had an item that was stuck in customs or something like that The head of the company Adam was really good about communicating and making sure communication was sent out about that delay They're very apologetic. This is the first time they've had anything like that happen as a company And it's great to hear how apologetic they are But I don't really need all the apologies all I need is the communication saying hey, it's gonna be late and That's fine. Like as long as I know to expect it later It's the non communication that ends up becoming a problem Which I've seen with companies like nerd block where they have issues and then they don't tell you and then you just find out And then they're just like when you go to their customer service They're like, yeah, what do you want like their customer service is crap BAM box does a really good job at least thus far So They had said to make up for this April one being so late What they're gonna do is put an extra item in not the May one But the June one the May one was already planned out so they couldn't get anything extra in there But they're gonna put an extra item in the June one So if you're watching this and you want to sign up go ahead that'd be great Also, just shoot me an email and I can send you a Like a link and then if you go through that link then you can get Get us some money off and then it'll help me out too, but if you don't want to also whatever It's it's up to you. So that's happening. Also, there was a change with this box. I know of there was a certain item I won't talk about it right now. I'll talk about when I actually Pull out that item It was a little let down by the change in that item. So we'll talk about that more when it actually happens But let's get this thing open. I'm excited. It's been a while since I've done unboxing like I said The other thing is if you watch my beer videos, I haven't put up a beer video just because That's mainly been laziness. So sorry about that One thing to note about this box. I have to chide the US Postal Service a little bit It's raining today and they left this out in the rain. So my box is soggy It's not like crazy crazy soggy, but it's soggy and hopefully that doesn't have any Damage that comes through on any of the items in there Usually postal service is good for me but why why did you leave this outside is we're actively raining all day and You could have easily put it in between my wooden door and the glass door. There's plenty of space. This thing is thin so Postal service. Come on All right, let's get into this the tissue paper for my cat It's gonna love it. She's oh Additional tissue paper for my cat. There's a two for this time. I don't think there was any tissue paper in the last one So she's getting double this time. She'll be excited. All right first item feels heavy Like a pen or like a metal Steak or something it might be a bullet actually because of revenge It is Baba Yaga the boogeyman Baba Yaga Baba Yaga has to do with Hellboy comics, I believe I Don't understand the boogeyman aspect of it, but it's a bullet basically, but it's a Bottle opener, which is an interesting thing Actually, let me know if this has well, I'll find out from the from the booklet if this has any sort of other Reference, but as you get that's kind of hard to see you can see right there like the bottle opener aspect of it That's cool. It's interesting I'm cool with that. That's fine. I Mean that's one of the things where it can kind of be displayed and used at the same time. So that's cool pin Which people know I love the pins. Hopefully this is awesome I mean, it's fine because it's a pin like the the pins always look good no matter what you get But this is the item. I was saying that they had to do kind of like a substitution For some reason I've never heard time getting so okay, so they had to do a substitution So they were working with I guess trauma to get a product. I think this is a licensed product from trauma So originally that it was gonna be something that was toxic Avenger, which I'm like sweet toxic Avenger like So many people know toxic Avenger even if they're not huge into trauma or know much about trauma But for some reason they weren't able to do that. I don't know if it was like a cost thing for the licensing of it So they said we're changing it and it's now Kabuki man, which I know of Kabuki man But I don't know much about Kabuki man I don't I honestly don't have any interest in Kabuki man and a lot of people probably don't know Kabuki man So really is a downgrade for the box for that reason because like I was saying a lot of people know toxic Avenger Even if they're not big into trauma, but pretty much nobody knows Kabuki man unless they're into trauma So it's a Kabuki man pin Which is fine If you can see it all right there. It's very dark. I Mean that look, you know as usual the pin quality is really nice. It's it's well done But it's just not that interesting of a thing Not a fan of that I'm hoping with the comic in the art print and whatnot. This gets better Because at the moment oh, oh And I just remembered what the autograph is supposed to be in this so we'll see All right. Oh, this is cool. Oh, this is really nice. This is really awesome. This uh, This is licensed. Okay. It's a licensed art print for the Punisher licensed by Marvel and It's the Punisher Look at that, but it's done like kind of like a nice vintage style Punishing since 1974 That's pretty cool. I like it. It's got great color to it. The style looks really nice It's a popular character like a very cool popular character That's really nice and it's signed by the artist and it's number 1062 out of 3000 total Lot, you know Authentication on the back and it's got the Marvel logo so it is licensed by Marvel. That's cool I know Bambox said that they're trying to do a lot more Licensing type stuff and I think this is the very first box where they've actually had a licensed item. So that's pretty cool Okay, so the next thing What is this gonna be? Oh, this is a signed item. Okay So I knew that the autograph was going to be someone from an X-man film One of the X-men film so what I was really hoping for was X-men first-class Caleb Landry Jones If you don't know who he is look him up. He's a he's a Very underappreciated actor, but I think he's phenomenal If anyone's seen the film antiviral by Brandon Cronenberg or seen Byzantium or seen the most recent Thing that he's been in get out. He was the brother and get out He does an amazing job, but he was an X-men first-class, but I did not get that I don't think anyone ended up getting him most likely, but I'll look around But someone had guessed that this would be the case Tyler Maine Okay, so Tyler Maine used to be he was a wrestler at one point, but he was also in X-men films as saber-tooth and There you go signed saber-tooth I don't really think the the shot they picked for this is all that great I Mean I would think something more showing like his actual like saber-tooth teeth would be a little more iconic and and fun But it's okay He's been hitting a lot of horror conventions too. Just so everybody knows And that's it They hype they really hyped this one a little bit of a letdown to be honest for for how much they hyped it And they went away from the booklet for whatever reason So here's what we have the kabuki man licensed Licensed by trauma. Yeah, the kabuki man pin and there are apparently two versions of the pin I got the what I'm assuming is non rare version Which is just a straight-up one that I showed you Another one has him with chopsticks in his hand Not a huge difference there then there's a The Tyler main signed item They have the punisher art print Which there were two versions of the punisher art print and one of them was out of an out of 500 Which the cut it just looks like the color scheme was different if you can get a good look it's like there It's like pink and purple which is cool. I mean I like that variation I mean the the original looked really good, but the that variation is kind of cool And then the Baba Yaga 50 caliber bullet bottle opener And oh inspired by John Wick. Okay. I didn't I'm sorry. I haven't seen John Wick So that's but Baba Yaga comes up in Hellboy that that's a hellboy thing. So anyway They really like this and I kind of feel let down to be honest like this bottle opener is a Cool idea, especially if you like John Wick and you're a big fan like that's a good idea for that Not that excited about this because Tyler mains autograph is actually not that hard to get if you just go to a horror convention He's been doing plenty of them And it's just not that exciting some people could be down with it could be excited about this is cool I really do like this. This is really nice. It looks good. It's licensed It's numbered. It's signed It's nice. I like that one and the pin. I already talked about like good quality pin, but It's Kabuki man, and it was going to be Toxic toxic Avenger, which would have been cool. I would have been excited about that if it was toxic Avenger, so Like I said let down based off the hype, but other than that. It's okay.  I will put this up. That's nice Like that Other than that, I would like to see some better stuff coming up So next month speaking of better stuff Defend space edition is what it's gonna be it will feature an autograph from Star Wars clone Wars and a Guardians of the Galaxy volume 2 limited edition item, so That sounds cool I mean it sounds like it could be really good and then like I said for that will be maize So for Junes, which we don't know what the what the theme is gonna be at this point They're gonna add in something extra to make up for the issue with April being so late, but Overall, I mean some people probably really like this, but like I said They really hyped this one as being like yes, it's awesome, which actually You know maybe that hype was really just coming from this because it's a licensed Marvel item And in which case like I understand that but I think maybe they should have just said, you know one of the items in there is like And it is like that's a pretty awesome item to be honest, but the rest of it for me It's not all that great, but we'll see what happens next time With the defend the space edition. I'm interested in that quite a bit But anyways if anybody has anything they want to communicate to me if you want to Get a link from me and use it to get some money off signing up for Bandbox Go ahead send me an email brutal battle podcast at gmail.com and I'll get back to you or if you just want to talk or want information or Give me your opinions. I don't care. Whatever you want to do. Anyway, thank you for checking this out And until next time keep it brutal