Everybody, happy Ash Wednesday. We are actually recording this on Fat Tuesday, but this will be aired on Ash Wednesday. I timed that on purpose. And of course, normally on Wednesdays, we have our Magdalen drop. We're doing The Woman with the Alabaster Da right now. That is gonna, the next installment is gonna be postponed until next week because of Ash Wednesday. And we are gonna be talking a little bit about Magdalen too. I am joined, before we get into the subject of hand, I'm joined here with my friends Angie and Nicole, who both have a channel. So before we get into it, let me just go ahead and show their channels to make sure you guys are subscribed. So Angie is the fickle pickle. She's got her fickle pickle business and she's got all of her, I love what I said before we started recording. I'm with two Southern women today. So I'm so excited. So this is Angie's channel. Go ahead and please subscribe to Angie. She's hysterical. Yeah, I know you guys love Angie she's just gotten back from her Mardi Gras celebration. So, and then we've got Nicole and Plunk here with her channel as well. Please go ahead and subscribe to Nicole. She's got some great information as we go forth into this, even further into this great awakening which we know is purely spiritual. It's information war, but really at the end of the day that information comes down to spiritual choices that we as individuals have to make. And what we're gonna talk about today, a lot of ways I feel like as Shanti on Aquarius Rising says it's the drama of it all. But it's really, it's important but it's also really not important at the same time because we're gonna be talking about this. Intention is always everything. And I know we were chatting before we hit record. All of these holidays that we speak about we don't want you guys to give up these holidays. If you enjoy these holidays Nicole is from New Orleans, Louisiana area. So this is, Mardi Gras was a big deal to you, wasn't it growing up?  And as we speak, everyone is off to school because everyone gets that Tuesday and Ash Wednesday. They usually get the week, it depends on where it falls. They usually get three days to celebrate Mardi Gras because it's such a part of the culture. It doesn't matter.  And so you have to kind of look hard to find someone who's not Catholic. But even if they're not, you know, they get the holiday too and they get the Mardi Gras spirit, it's contagious. And that's what we said, Angie and I said our last episode and I'll put that down in the description box below guys. And I will also once again put the deep dives I did a couple of years ago into like diagnoses and that kind of stuff as well. But Angie and I were talking about that last week because Angie and I are on the, what we'll say that their original 13 colony side, if that's even true, but just for the sake of most people. We are from Georgia, I'm originally from South Carolina and we were talking about that last week. Historically, what they tell us, whether it's true or not is that New Orleans, so the three sisters of the South again are Charleston, Savannah and New Orleans. My mom's family is from Charleston. That's where I spent most of my childhood as a kid going to the low country where there's also Houdu and Voodoo and all that stuff as well that we just a little more quiet in South Carolina than they do in New Orleans. But Charleston is the beautiful sister.  I think, I love Savannah, listen, I love me a good sister, Savannah's fun. And New Orleans is the wicked sister because we know there's so much magic in Savannah and New Orleans and that's what I love. I don't see New Orleans as being wicked. I see it as being a, I actually believe that New Orleans is Alexandria. But with that being said, the history we've been given, so people kind of understand what Nicole is saying about it being richly Catholic. Where Angie and I grew up, it's richly Protestant. And that's a big deal here.  Even in a secular world, most people don't care. But historically speaking, culturally speaking, the kind of the grudge against the Catholics and the Protestants has been a big thing down here in the South. I know New Orleans, they tell us, they tell us that it's originally was a French territory, then it went Spanish, then it went back to the French before it was sold to the United States. Well, I know for myself, there's a French quarter in Charleston as well. And those were the Huguenots though. So those were, what's a Huguenot? It's a French Protestant. This is a little back, my name Bryce, my first name is actually my mother's maiden name, which is a big thing to do in the South, but it's spelled with an I. So it's actually Brice. Now we live in an English speaking country, so for many generations it was turned to Bryce, but the Brices were French Huguenots. So I have a lot of French in my heritage as well, coming from the Protestant side. So that's why they ended up in, as they tell us in the history books, if it's even accurate or not, that's why they ended up on the Atlantic side and not in the Gulf of Mexico, which is where New Orleans is located. And Angie, you're pretty much the Protestant side, even though you celebrate Mardi Gras with your friends, you didn't grow up with it, did you? No. And yesterday, whenever I was up in North Georgia celebrating Mardi Gras, riding around, I wrote this down too. I saw a Huguenot lane on the lake. There you go. And I know our French people are like, it's not Huguenot, but listen honey, we're in the South, that's how we sit down here. Huguenot. Huguenot. You got on the South. So my dad's mom, my grandmother, Mary Ann, who was the coolest of coolest ladies because she's no longer with us in body. But she was like hiding, I gotta tell you guys, she was hiding books on reincarnation under her bed from my granddad. She was a very free spirit, we'll say it that way. She was a free spirit. And she grew up in South Georgia in a little town called Quitman. I know that Angie knows, it's near Valdosta, which is near the Florida, Georgia border. But her family came up through New Orleans as well. And she was very proud of that. Her last, I won't say her last name because I don't wanna dox any of my extended family who is not on YouTube. But the way we said her main name was a very English way, like you say my name, very English in an English way now, but the way it's spelled is very French. And so she had a lot of French coming up through her line as well. And so a lot of people that are heredically from the heredically that sounded bad. Heritage, it's heritage of Southern does have, do have ties to one of those three major cities, either Charleston, Savannah or New Orleans. Well, my last name is Le Bois, and I say it French. And no one, everyone wants to put that C on there where you hear the pronunciation of it, but it just goes away like a lot of French words. The last three letters just kind of go off to have a party by themselves. I used to say that in high school. I had to study, I had to take both Spanish and French in high school. And my mother is pretty good with French. Like she still can pretty speak it pretty well. And my aunt, one of my aunts can like flat out say, she remembers all the French poems and stuff. And I'd be like, but mom, you don't say half the word. I'm so confused. It just kind of, which whenever you get used to hearing it, it does make it a very, you know, a melody, a language that has a melody because it goes into one other.  They were put into, they were put into the fields to work sugarcane and cotton and tobacco, just like all the other people that didn't have anything. You know, they were very, very poor people. And that is why all of our dishes are cooked in one pot because they had one pot to cook out of. You know, it's not because they have a whole array of cutlery, you know, they had one good night. And I can tell you right now to this day, my mother has one good night. That's not, that's an exaggeration.  One good night. She takes care of and she's got that one pot that she will, she will fill you for. Do not put your hand on her one good pot. She, you know, so there's a lot of just cultural things that come from having nothing and developing a culture around that. And a lot of people say, you know, how can, how hungry was the first person that ate a crawfish? You know? And so we were, we laughed about it all the time. Mud bug. Yeah, we laughed about it all the time because I literally had crawfish on the back of the acres of my parents' property growing up.  You know? And it was so normal for me, you know, for people to question it. I was like, but they're so good. I never questioned it. They're so good. And I think it's ingenious that people that were starving and had to live off the land because they really only got a portion of the crops that they tended to. So if you're working a tobacco farm, you can't eat that. So a lot of people had to survive on what they could find. And now today, it's not a mystery to me why nautical, Cajun, New Orleans culture is around the world because we have made it so damn good. Yeah. And I want to, and I will say, I'll put you guys, I'll put, I did a New Orleans, I have a Savannah playlist and a New Orleans playlist. Surprisingly, I don't have a Charleston playlist, which I probably should. I think I'm just so bored of the Charleston stories because that's where I kind of grew up, that I'm like, let's talk about, I want to study stuff that I didn't grow up with, but I will say, I will put that down. And I know when I was studying, I believe in my opinion from the Tarterian stuff, that Canada is actually Gaul. Like that's, sorry for our friends in France right now, you have a great country, but I don't, that's not the real France. According to what always said, the real France is Canada. And they talk about, so the Acadian, I think it's how they call themselves up in Canada, they were coming from France, they tell us, this is the story they tell us, I don't think that this is accurate, but the wars of religions that were happening in France during this time, these were French people that wanted to say Catholic. And so they went to what we call Canada now, and that's where we get the French Canadians in the area of France. But then after some wars happened, they actually displaced a lot of the, we'll say the white people, the Acadians, and they kind of got pushed into slavery all over the world. And then some of them were just dumped in Louisiana, which at that point was very inhospitable. That's the thing about the South too, it's not just Louisiana, it's all across the Southeast. That's why I think the Southeast is so magical in a lot of ways. In Louisiana, you call them Bayous, in Georgia we call them swamps. Same thing, they're the same thing. And it's a very inhospitable, it can be a very inhospitable place to live.  My favorite Southern saying, which I'll never give up, is I'm sweating more than a whore in church. I will send that into the new timeline too, because that is when you hear a Southern woman said, Lord, I'm sweating more than a whore in church. It is the funniest thing when you see an 80 year old woman say that. Because it's so, the weather is inhospitable. And we learn a lot, like I learned a lot, really studying the Voodoo faith, which is really big in the South.  It's all over the South is the Voodoo faith. And like most things, it's been inverted. And what we see in Hollywood isn't necessarily the truth of what it really is. And we know that the Voodoo practitioners were able to work in the Bayous and the swamps and not be bothered by the alligators because they were able to be one with nature. They were able to find that calmness and be able to lean into nature, which is how people survived in the South anyway. I mean- Have I ever told you about my dad? My dad had a pet alligator for like 21 years or so, like 20, yeah, until the game wardens killed him. But, and people would talk about him all the time. They're like, I was at dinner with a fancy, fancy dinner with a group of girls. And I knew some of them and didn't know some of them. They found out like one of the girls is from Bostwick, Georgia, where my parents live. And one of the girls at the table said, what do you do out in Bostwick? There's just nothing there. And she says, well, on Fridays, we go down Wagner Mill Road and there's this man.  And he just gets right on in that lake with that alligator. You're like, I was like, that's my dad. You're the guy from Australia that Steve Irwin, your dad's like Steve Irwin of the South. Well, it's true. And I think that's true for a lot of Southerners. You know, when I look back at, and I've always wondered this, listen, I've always wondered, even as a kid, I wonder this, like these white settlers from Northern Europe landed in Georgia, South Carolina in their petticoats and jackets.  That something's not, when the locals, the natives, and I say that loosely cause I don't even know what the natives are anymore, we're wearing going claws. Why didn't they go, you know what, that's a really good idea. They obviously understand that this heat is intense and we have to maybe shed some of this clothes, you know, and so there's a lot of questions. But just so our viewers understand, like that's what we talk about. That's when Nicole said, richly Catholic, especially for our viewers who are not from the United States or not from the Southeast, that's a big deal as to why Angie and I never celebrated Mardi Gras. We did not get Mardi Gras or Ash Wednesday off of school because no one I grew up with was Catholic. They were all Baptist or Presbyterians. You got a few Methodist in there, all that, you know, the book to Kilimanjaro. Those Methodists, they're good people. They are, well, I remember to Kilimanjaro, we read that in school many times, but I was a little kid, my mother would play the movie for us with Gregory Peck and my favorite, some of my favorite, there's some really great lines where Scout, the little girl is talking about her, how her family was different because they were Methodist. When people often ask me, I always think about that line, like I'm really big now calling Yahshua, Yahshua.   And Scout goes, cause that's his name. And a lot of people say, why are you using Yahshua? Cause that's his name. That's his name.  Real quick, I'm gonna say, if you see true Cajun people, it reminds me of the truth of Yahshua, because number one, I'm the lightest one in my family. Most people are very dark, again, and we're mixed with all sorts of wonderful, you know, heritages. And we mostly have dark hair and we mostly have light eyes. And that tends to work really well in a place where you're 100% humidity and 100 degrees. Because we're not burning all the time, we're tanning. And we go through shades of brown, you know? We're just like the other brown people that don't, and I've always said that, even growing up, I'm like, there's not a box on this form when I have to put my origin, because it's just, it's not listed. But I'm like all of these things, you know, like... Do you know that's so funny, Nicole, that you bring that up, because I tan very well. Like I don't, yeah, I tan very well, and my mother does as well. And I'm looking back, I'm like, well, yeah, there's some French heritage there. And the skin, it's, and I was like, well, maybe it's because we've just for generations, but outside our skin's adapted. But I will, I mean, I've had many ex-boyfriends get very jealous, because I'll spend like five minutes outside and come back and I've changed races. Yeah, yeah. My hair gets lighter though.  The South itself is its own character. Like the land itself has its own personality. And it kind of reminds me of a Faulkner book, you know, which Faulkner lived in New Orleans for a while. I'm William Faulkner. He's one of my favorite Southern writers. Dan Vanquished is a brilliant book. And so, you know, Southerners all kind of band together against the world, but within the Southern community, there are opposing cultures. And again, the Catholic side, I just wanna make that very clear, yes, in New Orleans, but we don't, in the Protestant world, we don't celebrate Lent. We don't do Lent. We don't do any of that. We do Easter, but we don't do Lent. And so I wanna start with that if you ladies don't mind talking about why Ash Wednesday is what it is, and leading up to Easter Ishtar, which we're gonna get into, and then go back to Fat Tuesday, so people can understand kind of the evolution of this holiday. And listen, Mardi Gras, in my opinion, looks fun as hell.  And so if you're in an act of laughter and loving, you're not doing anything wrong. Yeah, and it's high vibration, you know, gratitude and laughing is the best thing you can do to raise your vibe. Yeah. Yeah, it's, yeah, so, so let's start. I just had the best time. I feel like my voice is so deep right now from like laughing, just laughing so much for three days, three full-on days of just laughing. You gotta pace yourself from your at Mardi Gras. I led the parade, y'all. I got to lead the parade.  You were stuck in fire? I tried, but I burnt my outfit that I was wearing and so they took it from me. Angie's a fire hazard. Someone gets a car for me and me. But that's awesome, right? And that's what like, Well, when bringing in the fake flames for Angie. I remember, I remember when I was growing up in church, you know, Christmas Eve, we were talking before we started filming, we were talking about Christmas, you know, so many people like, I'm not celebrating Christmas. Why not? Christmas is fun as hell, you know? As long as you're not doing anything to hurt anyone and you're not, you know, doing the rituals that are nefarious, then I'm trying to be careful what we say because we're on YouTube, you guys know what we're talking about. Go decorate that tree.  Do Santa Claus, make the cookies. It's fun, drink the eggnog. There's laughter, there's memories being created. Like, do not- Yeah, it's your intention. It's your intention of the holiday, of the day. It's just like your intention any random Wednesday of the week. It's about your intention. Yeah, it's all about that. And it makes me so sad when I see so many people who've gotten so vigilante and just mean.  That's what I had, so I have to hold this. So in the South too, and the East Coast of American culture, we have this animosity or this rivalry, the Yankees and the Southerners. So for those who are not from America, Yankees are specifically people from the Northeast. I know people from all over the world call us all Yankees. No, no, no, those are people from the Northeast. Not anybody else. And my grandfather, my mom's dad, his mother was from Philadelphia. We don't know much about that side of the family because they were Yankees. They won't tell us much about.  Well, my mother, my mama would talk about her grandmama's growing up, that she had her grandmama, who she's named after on my Alice. And then she had Lula, who was her mother's mother. And she loved her grandma Lula because Lula was a Southern old lady and she just was so sweet. She remembers Lula just cuddling them. But her dad's mom, Alice, was mean. And my mom goes, I think it's because she was a Yankee. She was Yankee. She might've just been mean, mom. She was mean. But anyway, anyway, so when we talk about, now this too, I had somebody making comments about the evil eye that I wear. And I always want to say now, as much as I have disdain for the Bible because it's been super edited, there are some really good verses in there. And one of them is, judge not, least ye be judged. And that's a pretty good rule to live by, right? Judge not least ye be judged. This evil eye is not the Illuminati eye. It's from the Eastern Europe, so the Turkish Croatian culture, and it wards off evil spells. Now, this is one thing that terrifies me the most about this community we're in, is that there are people that are in this community, not the people watching this. Most of our viewers are, we're preaching to the choir. They are so bloodthirsty. These truthers are so bloodthirsty. And so that it scares me.  Like, this is scary.  And I said, I'm really more worried about the people in DC than anything that anybody in the other country might think about doing. I trust them more. And that's saying something. Yeah, yeah. There is, we know that 90% of our, now I'm gonna say this. I know we know 90% of the community we're in is infiltrators. We know that. It's, once you see it, you really can't unsee it. It's pretty fair play to the other side for doing that, for paying people, to prepping them to come in and dissuade people. Like, of course that's what evil people are gonna do, right? That's what there's gonna do. Playbook. Yeah, playbook. So I understand there are people out there that are pushing the fundamentalist narrative because Christianity is a form of Satanism. It is. And so there's a lot of violence there. If you are worshiping a God that requires blood rituals like sacrificing the person you call Jesus, you might not be worshiping the God of source of love because the true God is the only thing that can create. And so why would the true God need a blood ritual? If you can create that, you're worshiping Lucifer at that point. Lucifer is the one that, and we're gonna talk about that, you guys, because we know that Yeshua, the real Yeshua was never crucified, right? So let's talk about where we get the resurrection and all that from. We get it from two people named Tammuz and Ishtar. Now we also know that the real Yeshua was Egyptian. Wherever that was in the world, whether that was in Africa or here in Georgia, whoever or on another planet, who knows at this point, but he was Egyptian. So, but get this. So let me tell you a little bit about Tammuz. Tammuz was born in Bethlehem. He was a shepherd who tended to the souls in the afterlife, sound familiar? War crown of thorns, Tammuz did. Annually sacrificed for the salvation of mankind. He also was connected to the rulers of Egypt at that point. He was died. He died. He was died. Great grammar there. He died and was resurrected. I'm thinking what color was it? They died him. I know they died him. He was blue. He died and was resurrected. And he was considered the only begotten son. Tammuz was also known to be a healer. He healed people. So I put my notes here. The church manipulated the Tammuz story, either A, to show us the truth, or B, to confuse us on the true teachings of Christ. Now with this being said, I'm not saying Tammuz was bad and we're gonna get into that. So Ezekiel 814, this is actually in the Bible because you know they have to tell you the truth at some point. The verse Ezekiel 814, then he brought me to the door of the gate of the Lord's house which was towards the north. And behold, there sat women weeping for Tammuz. So this Tammuz culture was really big all over the Fertile Crescent, from Egypt to wherever the Fertile Crescent was, wherever that this was a huge story. So let's talk about the death of Tammuz. So Tammuz was 40 years old and he was out hunting wild boar. And they ended up being killed by a wild boar. How many days do we, is lent? 40? 40 days. After he died, his mother demanded that the people fast for 40 days in honor of Tammuz. And now they would mark houses with a T. What do you get marked on your head? That's one. A T. Ashes and the sign of a cross. Which is a T. Which is a T. It's T. So the cross that Christians wear, this is why I say judge not least be judged. The cross Christians wear has nothing to do with Yeshua. It's the mark of Tammuz. Yeah. Which is totally fine because we're gonna talk about Yahshua and Magdalene and their relationship with Tammuz and Ishtar too.  It's about to. Not just wearing it, shoving it in people's faces and then proclaiming that it means something it doesn't. That doesn't, yeah. No one's liked about this. This has been very honest that this is to ward off evil spells. But you've been lied to about the cross. There's no, there's, and if you look in a, I saw a picture of some inside of some Freemason temples which women technically aren't allowed to be in, but there are pictures. They have the three crosses up too. You know that the Freemasons are satanic. They worship human sacrifice. So where has this been manipulated? Well, all right. So again, 40 days of Lent to Ash Wednesday is the mark of Tammuz. Now what to pit, now I'm a vegetarian, I've been a vegetarian for a very long time, but what is traditionally served on Easter? What meat? We do ham. Ham. Ham. Who killed, what animal killed Tammuz? Ham. Yeah.   So that's what you're eating on Easter that's on purpose because that's a celebration of Tammuz. Now let's talk about Ishtar. So we talk about Twin Flames. What are Twin Flames? Twin Flames, well there's many different theories. The two biggest theories are Twin Flames are the soul decides to incarnate into two different bodies, but it's a full soul, feminine and masculine. Other people say the soul splits and becomes feminine and masculine. Regardless, it's the same soul. Whether it's a whole soul, it's the same soul, a divine feminine and a divine masculine. I do understand there are cases where it's two women or two men who are in homosexual relationships totally fine by me. Whatever, it's just two people that are the same soul. So like Magdalen and Yashua were Twin Flames, Tammuz also had a Twin Flame. Her name was Ishtar, all right? So Ishtar is considered to be the mother of the Anunnaki. So it just gets better and better. And it's true. Didn't they tell, this is a vacation Bible school.  No, no, never, never told to me. We're walking on water. This is where it's real juicy, okay? So Ishtar is considered the mother of the Anunnaki. Or who are the Anunnaki? They, if we go back to Atlantis, they are holders of the 12 real tribes of Israel which are galactic. So we talked about this a lot with the Emerald Tablets, the Anunnaki, the giants. So who, Mardi Gras is about Dionyses, who was a giant, an Anunnaki. Some were good, some were bad, just like human beings. I'm finding that with all types of species. There's, it's free will choice. It doesn't matter if you're born a Draco, or a human, or a Palladian, or a Lyran. It is your choice whether we know that there are some Draco that are good, that have gone good. It's your choice. That's the freedom that Creator gives us. So she was also the goddess of love, fertility, and war. Now, war is either good or bad. It can be used by both, like the planet Mars. Mars is the warring planets, which is Tuesday, it's the day of Mars. We're filming this on a Tuesday. Mr. T has a lot of Mars in his chart. He's using it for good. I don't know about Hillary Clinton, but she had Mars in her chart. Do you guys see how this is like? These are just tools. It's all about intention. It's all about intention. Yes. So when Tamuz dies, he gets sent down to the underworld. Now, we've looked at this story in great detail in the return of the divine Sophia. What is the underworld? Planet Earth is considered the underworld. Right where we are. Right, right where we are. Sometimes, I will say, sometimes I remember, I remember when my great-granddaddy Paul was still alive and a little kid down in Whitman, Georgia, we'd have to go, he had an old plantation. They lived on it, and it's dairy farm, old, and those gnats, and I remember being so hot, and those gnats in your eyes. That, to me, is the bits of hell. So that makes sense to me, it totally makes sense. So Tamuz now has to come back to come down to Earth. And this is a huge story. I'm just gonna do the Cliff Notes version of the story for you guys, or else this would be like a five-hour video. So Ishtar decides that she is gonna go down to the underworld, or Earth, to get Tamuz. It's her other half. And so she goes to the seven gates, giving up something at every gate. This is considered the journey of no return. All right, once she's in the underworld, she herself becomes enslaved. We all become enslaved. And what happens at each gate, you're giving up something. Now, in her story, it's metaphor, she's giving up clothes. It's amnesia. You're coming through in your memory. So she comes into the underworld, and she remembers, she knows there's someone she's looking for. She finds them, but he's forgotten who she is, but there's a recognition. Kind of like when you meet people in this world and you know them, you don't know how you know them. Because you've gone through the seven gates, and a lot of us, according to the law of one, and I believe this, a lot of us here on the earth right now, volunteered like Ishtar did, volunteered to come, we didn't have to come back down, we volunteered to come back down.  No, I'm just kidding. What were we thinking? But we volunteered. So, and I do kind of feel like because there's volunteer, Tamuz did not volunteer, he was killed and sent down. But because Ishtar volunteered, there was still a little bit of memory she held on to. There was a conscious choice here, right? Anyway, she goes through all of this stuff, where they find, they end up coming back, they end up resurrecting. Yeah? So what is the celebration of Easter? The resurrection. The resurrection. The resurrection. Where they go back into the heavenly worlds, right? And you guys, again, this is a very long story. There's the poem of Tamuz, the poem of Ishtar and Tamuz. Ishtar is also considered the queen of heaven with Tamuz as her consort. And so now this is what, now this is what, and this was all through Sumerian culture, Egyptian culture. In fact, one of the first females to ever write down a recorded story was the story of Tamuz and Ishtar. She was a priestess of Ishtar. And she, she's actually one of the first named authors in the world. And Houdina, I don't know if I'm saying her name right, and she wrote the exaltation of Ishtar. And so, and I also wrote here, Ishtar's brother is Gilgamesh, right? Who is also Anunnaki, a giant. And allegedly, allegedly is the reason why we went to war in Iran is because they found Gilgamesh, who has been in stasis. So this is very fascinating. And so now let's talk about Yashua and Magdalene. So I found this to be absolutely hysterical. And I thought, wow, this makes way more sense. And if I were a human being living in Magdalene and Yashua's time, especially if I were a man, I would totally be down for this holiday. So the whole story of going into the underworld and being resurrected again is really big metaphor of us. You know, we come to earth, we come back, we go up and down. But we also, we talk about the shadow work. We also have to go into our own underworld. Like as Magdalene says in her gospel, we have to descend before we can then ascend. We have to drop down before we can come back up again. That's going all the way down. And you guys remember from the animal tablets, they talk about the chakra system. They start at the top though and work down. Usually they work up from the bottom, but they, and I thought, ah, interesting. They started from the top and went down to come back up again. So what they would do every year, now the Essenes, which Magdalene and Yashua were in Essenes. So that's ISIS. E-S-S-E is how ISIS was spelled back then. So the Essenes, Tennessee, which is the country of ISIS. I was just thinking when you even mentioned volunteer, like volunteer, it's hard to, it's not the, oh listen, my granddad, my dad's dad was from Knoxville, Tennessee. He went to the University of Tennessee and he like pushed us to be a volunteer to go to the, that's their mascot. Yeah, I just went to Tennessee. I love a lot of art. Oh my God. But yeah, so Tennessee, so what they would do every single year, in the Christian world, we have the passion plays, right? Or we reenact the death of Jesus, the resurrection. They would kind of do the same thing, but it was Timur's and Ishtar. So what they would do, this cracks me up because I'm like, oh, I see what the controllers did. They took some of the truth and they twisted it and made it into with a myth or story and created a Jesus story. They would reenact, so the high priests and priestesses of ISIS, of the illicit mysteries, they would reenact this story every single year around the springtime. The springtime notoriously is also the start of the new year, would make sense because the earth is being reborn again.  So Yahshua is nobody's messiah, but Magdalene's, okay?   This is how they would write on their wedding invitations, whatever those look like back then. And so the messiahs, not just Yahshua, but all the men in this high order would go into tombs, you know, a man cave? Yeah. Basically like drink, in my mind, they're drinking beer, playing poker for three days. Yeah.  So in the story we hear in church, who was the first person to go to the tomb? Magdalene. Magdalene. Why is that?  Like, but it was a re-enactment. And so- We need to get her messiah. Let's go, listen. Three days was long enough, let's go. She's like fire children, she's like listen, you've been drinking beer, playing poker long enough, we got five kids, you gotta come home and help me now.   Well, baby over here needs his daddy, I need to go to the spa because three days is too long. You know, and so that's the story. And so in saying that, when we celebrate Easter, Easter was always my least favorite holiday and I'll tell you guys why.  I was miserable, I hated Easter so much, it was smell, just the heat, the humidity smells sometimes. Like it gives us smell and I don't care, we would be at the country club, the finest of the finest, but it would be hot and stinky and muggy and we'd have to smile with our hats on and our baskets. Then it's a real bowl. We're like 20 other kids and like polyester suits and while the parents like, how'd we get together, smile, and look and get back together? You know, it was, I hated it so much. And like the Easter bunny, I mean, we would get some little toys from the Easter bunny, but it was mostly just candy. Santa was way better, Santa was way better. So in all of that, all of the celebrations of Easter, the egg coloring, the bunnies, all that kind, that's all about new life. So that's each star, each star is the goddess of fertility as well. So this is not something that you need to give up. If you wanna practice Lent and I know a lot of times for the, you give something up and I correct, like you make a sacrifice, like sugar, coffee, something like that. A lot of people stop drinking or they give up chocolate or they, like whatever that, what are, mainly people say, when you gotta give something that's gonna really affect you. Like you really wanna feel it. You wanna- The sacrifice.  Whatever it is that makes you feel like you're suffering for 40 days, that's what they want you to give up for Lent.  Yeah. You wanna give up for Lent. So I remember asking my mom that once when I was a kid, like, why? We would study about Mardi Gras class in like lower school, elementary school, but we never, you know, tell it. And mom would be like, why don't we do Mardi Gras and Lent? And mom would say, well, you know, Jesus already sacrificed, we don't need to sacrifice. Well, no. Well, let me talk about the fasting too, because we're doing fasting and the shadow work challenge that's, we're in the middle of it, it's coming off. And you don't have to do, I wanna make that very clear with everything in the shadow work challenge. I mean, we're not running a cult here. Like you have free will choice with everything. I've said that many, there's a lot of things to do during the day. I wrote the challenge with the full awareness that you're not, might not be able to do everything and that's totally fine. It's your experience. But when we fast like in spirituality, which is what Yashua Magdalen really practiced in these, these Buddha, you know, whatever these ascended masters will call them. It was a spiritual, there was no penance. There was no, because being here, I mean, from the Ishtar to Mu's story, this is the underworld. This is hell. You know, this is it. You're, you're, you're exciting up for a life where there's naturally going to be suffering and suffering is real. And that's how you find the friction. But with fasting or giving something up, there's usually a spiritual purpose and in the true spiritual work behind it, where you are actually looking for something deeper in yourself. Like I know Shanti wrote for the fasting portion of our shadow work challenge, the big hunger versus the little hunger. Like, what are you really hungry for? What is it really that's bothering you? Cause food is just food, you know? So, so let's, let's look beyond that. So if you are fasting or giving up sugar or giving up coffee or something, don't do it as a penance. Do it as something to, to better yourself to deep. So that you can move away distractions or chemical distractions so you can go deeper with it. I just, I really want to make that clear. Like the God of our God, the God that we worship, source doesn't want you to be in any more pain than you have to be at.  Don't. Compalicism is just wrought in shame, blame, guilt. You know, like that's, that's the biggest motivator, right? And I remember I was probably in second grade and I had, it was during Lent and I had given up chocolate and I had a friend that came over and there were some candies or something in the cabinet and we were sitting in the middle of the living room going through these chocolate candies. And then just in a matter of conversations, she was like, oh, where'd you give up for Lent? And it dawned on me that I had given up chocolate.   You cannot have what you gave up. Repent child, repent. Yes. And I'm like, I went right into my mom. I'm like, do I need to make myself throw up? And now I think about that part of me that was at its second grade was already so mind warped, you know, because the truth was withheld and it was made into something it shouldn't have been. In second grade, I was already like, I need to throw up the chocolate I ate because it gave me so much blame, shame, guilt. And I'm like, now, today, I'm like, that's just so Catholic. Yeah, I don't have children, but if I, I don't know if I would let my kids do something like that just because I would, you know, this babies are just babies. They need to be able to play any chocolate in, but that's, that's what we're conditioned to be like, right? It's like, given, given, I mean, what was, there was a comedian. I was watching a stand up, a guy, I remember the same guy from the South. He talks about how like one summer he got baptized 20 times because he would just mess up and he'd be like, dunk me again, pastor. Yeah. I know people that have done that. I do. I know people that have, they just didn't, they're like, it was real the first time, you know, this morning I was, I was looking at Ash Wednesday and that kind of thing. And nobody responded to my tweet. I just pulled it up, but I tweeted, I don't know about you, boo, but I don't want a priest wiping ashes on my forehead and telling me, remember that you are dust and to dust you shall return. That was one of the things. And the priest would do that, do it and say this. I mean, I don't know that. That's all true, but nobody responded. So in order for people that are, you know, working or whatever it is to be able to be compliant with Ash Wednesday, they have, you know, the priest and stuff will be out in the Pokemon. You can do drive through Ash Wednesday. I'm not even lying. And so people will take their lunch break and then they come back and they got their schmudge on their, on their forehead. Yes. And so as I was waking up, I was, and a lot of the healthcare system is controlled by Catholic organizations, right? And especially, yeah, especially here.  And so then of course, people were like, well, where's your ashes, right?  I'm not doing that. The point is, the point that Tamuz and Ash and Ishtar story is the resurrection of both of them. Is the fact that they came to human and humaning is hard and they figured it out.  Yeah. So it's, well, yeah. And with that, so with that being said, with Lent, you're giving something up, you're going into this penance. So then let's flip back now to Mardi Gras. Cause Mardi Gras, like, I just love the word debauchery because that's, it's just fun debauchery and like today is Fat Tuesday.  And I know my mama went a lot when I was a kid and I would go to those meetings with her. And every, every Eve before going to Weight Watch to the next day, my mama would be like, we're going out and we're going to have a big old meal. So it's kind of the same thing, isn't it? It's like the last shebang before. Yeah. So, you know, the story that gets told anyway is that everyone revels, they are reveling in that time and that's where you get the revelry of Mardi Gras. And it starts about two weeks before Ash Wednesday. And so, and people have their different little subculture parades, you know, so you have Bacchus and you have Endymion. Endymion is the big one for like the medical science community and whatever. And so they have all the little neighborhood parades which are huge now. And it all gets more and more grand and more and more grand and you have a ball. Every parade has a ball. And so everyone gets King and Queen of the whatever parade of Bacchus or Endymion or whatever.  And as it gets bigger and bigger and bigger, it gets longer and longer and longer. And so you're partying from morning until night and morning until night, morning until night. And the big thing is that you feast because you're gonna have to do without for 40 days, you know? So you're filling yourself with all the wine and daiquiri and food and everything. So that because for 40 days, you're gonna have to walk the straight and narrow and give up all the things that you've been spending.   And Maggie is so, I'm obviously right as I'm way closer to Magdalene than Yashua. She's fun. And I can't think about this in my head. I'm like, it feels like Mardi Gras is actually more of the God inspired celebration than Lentes. Because Lentes seems dark and stressful. And where Mardi Gras is just love and laugh. When I think about it like an overview, knowing what I know now, not from where I was before, I feel like it was the, you know, like the awaken. They were having fun. They were celebrating the life. They were celebrating the, all the things. And then the controllers came in, which at the time was the Catholic Church and said, no, you have to give these things up and give them to us because we're the caretakers of the good, right? And then do without.  And you're going to be very, very grateful for that because we allowed you to have it back. Yeah, it's all, it's all mine. And I want to reiterate that people, I mean, I know everybody watching right now, again, we're preaching to the choir, but I'm going to keep saying this over and over and over again because darkness cannot create anything, you guys. Nothing that you see on this world be it Mardi Gras, be it Panika, be it Lent, be it Easter, be anything. Darkness didn't create that. God did, source did, but what they can do, what the darkness can do is the darkness can steal from the light and invert it. And that's what we see happening. And so I guy was saying with the whole Tamuz Ishtar story, it's a beautiful story. I know a lot of people in this great awakening who have discovered the Tamuz Ishtar story and they think Tamuz is like a demon. I'm like, no. Magdalene and Yashua honored the story of, they weren't worshiping, they were venerating. There's a difference between showing respect to a metaphoric story. It's like the Ulyssian mystery that covered that a while ago. And I want to go do a Ulyssian mystery because it sounded badass.  It's all symbolic about you going into your own self and resurrecting your own energy. And that's Ascension. You know, when you go through the layers of the shadows that this world creates and you get down to the very, very basic root chakra of who we are. And then we start to rebuild based on truth and we start to ascend because our consciousness is rising and our frequency is rising. And that is the resurrection of us from the darkness. And it's not a place on a map. It's not a physical thing. It's a being. It's a heightened awareness. It's a state of Christ. Just the whole like anti-Christ thing too. I think that is Christ consciousness. And just the other day I told somebody, I was like, I think Jesus is the anti-Christ. You know? Well, people have said that. And we know that the person Jesus is not someone that actually lived. It was a created story because Jesus is not his name, y'all. If you think that the Bible isn't edited, first of all, that's cognitive dissonance because literally you can just look that up and you can see the different edits. Second of all, I would say, well, the J sound didn't exist back then. So now you see one edit. Why did they change his name? It was Yeshua. Yeshua. And that's what I'm saying. You know, it doesn't really matter what people's names are. It doesn't matter their cultural background but it matters in a sense that you can see where the lie is once you understand it. And yeah, it's all, and that's what Yahshua and Magdalene were teaching if you like the Gospel of Thomas, which is one of the, probably one of the more famous missing books of the Bible.  Like there's no beginning, middle, and there's a story, linear story. It's just like someone taking notes of things that their teacher was saying. And one thing Yahshua says in that, when they're asking about the kingdom of heaven, he, and I'm paraphrasing the verse, it's a very famous verse and I don't know a word for words. I'm paraphrasing. He says like, well, if heaven is in the skies, the birds will get there first. If heaven is in the water, the fish will get there first. Heaven is inside of you. Only you have the power to access that. And that's what he and Magdalene, we see that in Magdalene's Gospel. I have Megan Waterson's translation and commentary here that I went through on my channel, Magdalene's Gospel, where she taught this as well. You know, she, and for the Magdalene manuscripts, she, I know the churches will hate to hear this. There's some church folk that are gonna hate to hear this. She woke up first. She was Yahshua's teacher. We were the same age. It wasn't like she was like, she went to Cougar. She went around like Cougaring for a young man. They were the same age, but she was his teacher initially and woke him up to the truth. Wouldn't it just mature fast for the boys? But in that time too, there was like a matrilineal line where the women were valued and very important anyway. And so there was a respect. It didn't really matter that she was a female or he was a male. They were respected equally. And when you think about the darkness not being able to create anything, it makes perfect sense that they would at that time be who has this following? Who has the praise? Who has the love? Who has the devotion? Because we want that energy. We can't create that energy. So we're gonna take that energy and we're gonna mix it with this other person, this other group that has that and we're gonna create something that everyone can follow. Everyone can follow. And then we're gonna make them, have this guilt, shame, blame mentality that if you don't follow them on with that, then you're nothing. And that's how they flipped all the things that were good and totally innocent to things that are bad, things that are not of good intentions I'll say. Yeah, it's all inverted. I will say out of all the 66 canonized books of the Bible, the book of Revelation is probably the most accurate. And it does speak about this that everything is going to be inverted. Like everything is inverted. And so- It's already happened. It's already happened, that's why I keep, that is one thing that really makes me laugh hard. Besides the whole fundamentalists when they're singing their songs to the Messiah that makes me giggle now because I'm like you're basically creating a porno at this point because that means the penis. He's not your Messiah honey, he's Magdalene's. You got your own Messiah. And if you don't have a Messiah there's plenty of shops where you can go buy one. So there's lots in Atlanta. They're the best kinds of shops. I love, I would go into girlfriends to those shops. It's hysterical, it's so fun. Anyway, anyway. But also like when people, when the Tartarian information came out and I started really diving deep into it it was shocking at first because that meant nothing we've been told is true. But then I was like, wait a minute. That means we're at the ends of the story. The thousand years of peace has already come and that's things we know Gog and Magog as mentioned in revolution was gonna be the most bloodiest, hardest battle. Yeah, the golden age that we're going into doesn't have a end date. No, it's an ascension. Yes, yes. And it is not for everyone because people do have free will choice. And not every person that you walk around with actually has a soul. Some people don't. Oh, I know, we're gonna be, okay so I have a guest that's coming on and I just talked to him today. I think we're gonna try to film either tomorrow or Thursday. He's gonna stay, this guest is gonna not show a space and put a fake name up and we're gonna talk about the organic portals which are people that don't have souls. Oh wow, I'm so interested in that because I sensed it sometimes like when I'm around people. I just go, you know, my best friend and I will both see it at the same time too. She's like, that's not a soul. That's an NPC. Yeah. That right there is not a soul. And once you know it. I wanna explain it really, but yeah. Once you know that because that's the big thing that people have not been made aware of. But once you know it, it makes so much sense in their behavior and their lack of behavior and all the other things. And then they just kinda, for me anyway, they just fall away. Like they just don't even exist anymore because I'm on a completely different frequency than that. Like I don't even recognize that. Well, they, I'll give you guys a little teaser and this person that's coming on, he's also a Law of One expert as well. So he's gonna do a show with Captain Edwards and me later on. He, Law of One, they're different from psychopaths. Organic people without souls. So they also, organic portals have the lower three chakras, but they don't have the upper four. They have to have the lower three triad in order to be in a body, but they don't have the upper four. So they tend to mimic. They mimic spirituality. They mimic people. And I asked this person, we can talk about this on the show. I said, what's gonna happen when the ascension happens to the people without souls? And he goes, I think they're just gonna disintegrate. Yeah, it's been explained to me like Avengers Endgame when he snaps his fingers and they turned to dust. Oh, I don't know. I've never seen that, but it's almost like the- Yeah, that's- There's a lot of truth in Marvel movies. I'll tell you that. And that is, I think they call it the lip or the event or something. And it was, you know, one of the evil characters from an, on all four orders, like I'm gonna save the world by decreasing the population by 50%. And a snap, you know. And that's- That's, they say that the 50% of the world population is organic portals. Yes, I know. I'm telling you. So whenever it's symbolic of what they say will happen and that is like literally and with the solar flash is the theory. It'll be like the snap of the finger and these people that aren't really whole souls of the light, light beings and alignment with source, they would just taste to exist. Cause they were only here as like programmable matter Yes. to begin with. Yep. That's what the law of one says. And, and they will mimic. So they don't have, they might show emotion, but it's like a mimic. It's different from a psychopath. Psychopath.  Like they do the things, but it's not real. No. And they will mimic you. So they will mimic the upper chakra.  Like everything was mimicked that I did. Every story was mimicked.  So they don't have higher selves. Only people with actual souls have higher selves. They don't have soul contracts, organic portals. They have no soul contract. And they're put, they're like empty shells that can do the, they're like, they're like marionettes. And they're always controlled by higher density, negative beings. Yeah. They're created in the AI, the negative AI of the universe, basically. Well, do people that don't have souls, do they know they don't have a soul? And what I understand, no, they don't know. They don't know. Yeah.  So don't worry about it. You know who I was. Yeah. You got, you got a soul girl. I can definitely, you can tell, when you start to study it, because I've been looking into it and I'm like, oh my God, yeah, it's totally, and as a yoga teacher, that's really valuable information to me to have as well because they don't have upper chakras. They don't, they can't because the heart on a hata all the way up, that's all soul-based. That's all spirit-based. So like when you move into your next incarnation, your lower chakras are going to change a little bit because those are the triad of the three that ground to the earth or wherever planet you're on and the upper ones. So literally they're humans. So like love one, like animals, dogs, cats, they have souls. They're humans walking around.  I don't, I value them equally to be honest with you. That really spoke volumes to me in the missing books of the Bible where Yasha was like, are the animals not your brothers and sisters? Do they not have to breathe the same air you breathe?  I believe my dog was sent to me. He's a soul mate of mine. So they're animals that have souls and they're humans that do not. Yeah, yeah. And they're different. Again, they're different from psychopaths. And so, like the controllers are not organic portals. They are people, they are souls who have really picked the negative path. But they are using, this is a war you guys. And that's one thing I find comical because when God gave me God half, basically God was like, all is fair in this time period. Do what you're gonna try to do to destroy my people and we'll see who wins at the end. Cause I think God knew we would always figure it out anyway. So they brought down these people and these people are very easily controllable. They get controlled by dark AI or higher density beings. And that's, and they're able to do horrible things to people and not really feel guilty about it.  Yeah, it does not exist for them. Yeah, you can have, I mean, we were talking about it to prep for the show. You can have like a family, like even look in and there's the other element of wanderers, which I think, I think all three of us are wanderers. I think most of the people watching are wanderers. What are wanderers? I believe wanderers are the 144,000 mentioned in the Bible. As Tamara calls them, they're the 5% or 3%. I can't remember which of earthlings that are like sixth grade souls. These are the people that volunteered, the volunteers that came down to like Ishtar that came down to earth. And because at this point, love one really speaks about this. This is very important for people watching right now.  That's the big thing is that empathetic, the empathy, the feeling of things. That's, you know, so when this time period came around and there was planning, like a military room planning going on, they asked souls, there were some souls that needed to come back karmically because they were there for the fall of Atlantis. I think I was there for the fall of Atlantis and I think I karmically needed to come back but I think also volunteered as well. I think a lot of us, same thing. And that's the hard thing is these dark souls that are also in mirrored on the same side. Darkness can't create anything. It can only still from the light in it for a mirror. So you have wanderer souls of the light and you also have souls from the darkness that came down to match that of the wanderers. Only problem is the darkness has had like a jump start at this because like in my situation, people knew who I was before I knew who I was on the dark side and I've had to figure it out while going through this battle but that's just how it is. And the organic portals get thrown in as like a wild card to mess with you and to take you off balance. Yeah, because the people with eyes to see and ears to hear like we like to say, whenever a true soul being starts to wake up and realize who they are and the power that they have and then they start taking that power back, we become the most powerful beings in the universe. Like angels don't have free will choice. Angels get a book of instructions like this is your wheelhouse. You're gonna help with addictions. You're gonna help with this. You're the guardian angel of the person born over these four days. This is your job. If they never call your name, you don't get an action because you don't have free will choice.  And then for you have us humans who either volunteered to come down because we're star seeds or whatever the case may be we're divine souls or we're just whole souls of the light and we can take all of that in. We have free will choice. We can decide to go to the light and leave the darkness behind. We can cut the AI attachment. So we're not controllable. As long as we come out of that matrix thinking and get off the hamster wheel then we are the most proud. That's why they want to control us. And that's why they don't want us having the memory and the fear and our power. Cause as soon as we do, we, that's why we want. Yeah. I see this in my youngest daughter too. She deals with a whole lot of their trot they try to control her and she just sees through it all and she is uncontrollable. Well, I will say uncontrollable. She does not care about looking a certain way or fitting in a certain way. She says, I'm here for this reason. She's already been beyond their level. Well, that's what they, so again, my guest coming on, I keep wanting to say the name but I know he wants to keep it as a private. He, kids I think is under the age of 25 or maybe it's 20, 25 something like that. Already born in their fourth density bodies. So today already born in a fourth density body. It's not active yet. Now, with that being said, here's the cool thing. Us, so these kids came down from fourth density. We came down from fifth or sixth density because we're the ones that our soul is old enough to be able to go through the changes that are, cause I mean we can feel, and I know I look tired today. Like we can, we are in a human body. Like we're feeling the effects of having a nervous system of having to sleep, of having to eat. Our soul is like, let's go, go, go, go, go. But our body's like, hold on sister, I'm tired. You know, so we, our bodies though, and I think we already are going, they're starting to go through some of these changes. I was talking to Gordon from enough is enough about this. Like you look at a lot of the people of the light who are on the truth or community and they're starting to look younger. They're starting to look more vibrant. So we, our souls are actually strong enough to handle that evolution of the body changing whereas the kids coming in now, they are fourth density, they're not third density, but they're already in the body that basically just like that flick of that switch, the body will go under fourth density. So yeah, and that's, and yeah, all the souls who aren't wanderers, I'll just put this out there before we get to that show. So if you guys have any questions about that, all the souls who are not wanderers or are not organic portals. So that's a percentage. You're considered a high priority soul. So what that means according to the law of one, so for the wanderers, the wanderers have already ascended many times before. And so it's a, this is a same, not our first rodeo basically. I think it was- Been there, done that kind of thing. Been there, done that. Got up in my Cosmo closet, got a bunch of t-shirts and some postcards. So this is why some of us felt the need to get on YouTube because we're like, oh yeah, like that's that Ishtar. Like, oh, I have a little bit of a memory of something that I have to do. The other souls who are high priority, it means that you are literally at the brink of harvesting.  It's basically graduating. Like you're at that point where you are not evil, you have your credit, so you can now graduate to four density positive. And so you had first priority to come to this planet as it ascended. It's very all very, very, very fascinating.  And if they can get you to turn negative, it gives them more powerful because that's how powerful you are. All right, so if you get attacked a lot, I'll never forget. So my boyfriend's seeing me get physically attacked a lot by paranormal stuff, which is really great because he's agreed to witness for me to start some of my apathy, which is wild, but I have to have a witness for this kind of stuff. I'm like, this is like ex files meets murder, she wrote. Like this is fantastic. But I was standing in the shower. This is like a few months ago. I was standing, I got out of the shower. Obviously I was naked. My back was to the door was open. He was standing in the hallway. My back was to him. I was like drying my face off so he could see him. And he looked up and he said, just this slash went over my back and actually I might put the picture in all these slashes when I'm editing. And then some of them started to bleed. The picture I have, they're not bleeding. And he was like, he started laughing. He was like, I swear to God, ever since I've known you, you were literally like a magnet. This is like, this is better than reality TV.    I have a thank you, Nicole.  It just means that you're high priority. You're not, well, you're not high priority. You're already there.  So don't do it. Just hold on. That's what I feel like I was telling you whenever I had that fall. It's been horrible. It was so hard. And that's not the first time. I keep having all these things happen. And I wake up with the scratches and weird bruising. Like you're like, what in the world? Like nothing happened to me yesterday. Why am I, why do I have a bruise on my stomach? Why, yeah. So we know. We know. And also people that I run into that I know are from the dark attack me. So yeah. It's funny because when you get to a certain frequency, I know for me, I can walk in a place where I'm going to see one person, but there may be 20 in there. This happens time and time again. And the light beings will just gravitate toward me. Like they don't know me, but they just want to hear what I have to say.  And then the dark are literally like become part of the wallpaper. Cause they're like, can't get away from me fast enough. And I love making them uncomfortable because I just have this big light frequency and I'm all about it. And I'm, you know, and, and the more uncomfortable I make you, the happier I am. And you know what laughter does? Yeah.  And that's what makes me, that yesterday, and I have to thank you Nicole and so many people. I was having such a rough day yesterday and so many people like stepped out of the woodwork and like, no, we've been like fighting for you, praying for you. And I'm like, thank you so much because that support really means a lot to me. And I was like, you know, thinking, cause I know the contract that went, there was a contract that was actually taken out of me. I know about, there's so much, I can't wait to one day write a book about everything because there's just so much I can't talk about that. Anyway, most people in my position that have had that same, are dead. And I'm not dead. I'm still on YouTube and I'm still doing it. And I'm still out there. No matter how many times they spell cast my channel, no matter how much money is stolen from me, no matter how many times they come and they wreak havoc in my life, I'm still here and I'm still doing it. And I'm doing it with sass, with humor, with laughter.    And this needs to be exposed and you're strong enough to take it. You're strong enough to take it. And so, yeah, just be very careful guys and pay attention to that. Pay attention to the way your gut reacts around people, you know? It's like I was saying with Kelly from Nexium, like if you have to walk on eggshells around somebody, that's usually a pretty good sign that they're not the person for you to be in your life.  And yeah, the darkness, I will tell you, I think I told you this, Nicole, I didn't tell a lot of people that this happened to me yesterday. And again, I'm really grateful that I have somebody in the house to witness these things. I was taking a bar class yesterday. And this is the second time that this has happened where it literally from what my boyfriend says looks like somebody came in and like pushes me. Like it looks like my body just gets thrown. Well, I was doing this class and I saw the face of the head of the coven, flash in my mind. And then all of a sudden I felt a hand grab my right leg and something told me in my head, fall to the left. And so I've pushed my body over to the left. And my ankle was swollen all day yesterday. It didn't hurt though. And my boyfriend was like, that literally looks like somebody came in and grabbed your leg. And I said this morning, I told this morning, I said, I've been really thinking about it. And whoever told me, maybe it was Magdalene, somebody told me to fall to the left. And I think that is what stopped my ankle from breaking. Cause that's what they were trying to do was break my ankle. I know that. I just know that's what they were trying to do. Because I was telling you, Nicole, I think a part of my strength has been the exercise. When it ended breaking on me, she said, I keep picking that up that yoga has saved your life. And I was thinking, I was like in more ways than one, it's giving me physical strength, literal physical strength to fight this off. And I need it right now. And that's what they've been trying to do that a couple of times is stop me from actually continuing to maintain my physical strength. So jokes on you, my ankle, I did another bar class this morning. I didn't do the yoga cause I want to make sure I didn't want to put my leg behind my head. I want to make sure my ankle was stable. So I just did bar again and I was fine. So there's no bruising. It's just a little bit swollen. That's it. Jokes on you. And how pathetic is that?  They're so desperate. They're just really so desperate. So desperate.  You've tried. I know how many times you've tried. I've seen it. I've seen everything. I know who you've contacted. I know about the hits. So does the military. You've stolen all my money. But again, and you're winning. You're still here. You're of the light. You have divine protection. We have divine protection. We have divine guidance. And that is the key. That is the key. If this is happening to you, first of all, you're not crazy. And second of all, there are things you can do to protect yourself and there are things that you can do just being you. You don't need anything from the outside. It's all within. Yeah. Yeah. And it's all within us to be powerful and fight that off because we are of the light. Do you have an episode on your channel, Nicole, where you go through all the steps that people can do? So I will pin, I will put that, I'll put Nicole- Hailing disclosures on YouTube and Rumble. All right. I will put that down in the description box, guys, because I want you to go watch that on and give Nicole's channel because we need all those, we need, it's not, I mean, Nicole and I were talking about this last night too. It's not about numbers. I don't, I don't really care how many numbers. It's not about that. I don't consider, you know, this is not a platform to get famous off of or anything like that. It's not about that. It's basically a war, a battlefield. And so make sure you're subscribing though and you're sharing our videos because that's what gets the information out there that we're all contributing to. So that we, that's the only reason why the numbers matter. I mean, YouTube could go tomorrow. Yeah. YouTube went tomorrow, I'd be fine because I'm secure with them myself, you know? So, but yeah, I mean, just laugh. That's why I went to bed, just kind of like laughing last night because I realized after such a hard day yesterday, I was like, oh my God, I got emotional. I was like, there are so many people out there that are, we're all in each other's corners and we're all like praying for each other and helping each other out. I mean, it gets, it gets the emotional. Yeah. I get more support from this community a lot of times than friends that are, you know, right down the road. Because we're, I like to say, I like to say that it's our frequency that calls in our like-hearted, our soul family, you know? And it's that soul connection that makes you understand on a different level, on a soul level, in your gut, in your heart that you are on the same path and you're fighting the same fight. It doesn't matter where you are in the world. It doesn't matter what your age, your race, none of that matters.   They don't know what's, you know, they're searching. They don't know what truth is. And then they see you and they're like, wait a minute, what did you do?  I'm like, girl, I'm okay, the truth. I'm gonna give you the truth, Madison. It's great. Yes, the real story is so much better. But yes, and Nicole is right. If you've been attacked or if you're feeling, you're not alone. I mean, I have the signal group on signal. The Shadow Works support group, but people in that group, that's what I love about that group. It's not, it's not, there's no boundary on, only thing you can't do is name call. That's it, you know, or abuse people. That's it. But you can talk, you can get in that group and there are so many incredible people in that group that are just amazing and you guys can get in there and talk to each other and support each other.  People are just gonna love you and support you and send you prayers. And so that's something you need to do, even if you're not doing the Shadow Work, join the support group. We look at- That's why I have my telegram page of Healing Disclosures on Telegram because I felt the need to create a safe space where people that feel and think and have the same journey that I had need a community because in their own 3D life, they're like on an island. But I want them to know that there's other people that while our journeys are very individual, they're also very synchronized and very similar. And we all tend to go through the same attacks, one way, shape, reform. And we come through that with, and our community helping each other and we can recognize it easier.  You know, whenever you don't, when you feel like it's just you against the world, that's very daunting. But whenever you're in a room of 40 or 50 or whatever, like all of us combined can definitely win every day, win little battles every day. I mean, the fact that they resorted to yesterday trying to break my ankle because nothing else has worked. To keep you from exercising. To keep you from exercising. Because I figured that in a long time ago because I am very fit for my age and it's been years in the making, like 17 years in the making. I was like, oh, this is, well, part of it was my own journey as well, it was to keep me, make me very strong to be able to physically take it. And I was like, they've tried to kill me.  I know, I've been told, I know. They done all these things to me. They stole all my money, everything, but I've still been supported. You've won, yeah. I'm still here, my bills are still paid. You've won. I had a great breakfast this morning from Panera, like awesome avocado toast sandwich with some yogurt. Like my nails are still done. You know, like. That's that song, I'm still standing. Yes, yeah, yeah. Yeah, I know people are going to comment, but is it Lizzo, Lizo? Oh, Lizzo, I do my hair.  There's a bar class that I'll do where she plays that song. I know people are going to comment about that, whatever, I like the song. I like it. It's my relationship to the song. If you like the Rolling Stones, if you like Led Zeppelin, you get down to that music that's about your relationship. It's your memories. You're not the one doing the various stuff, but music is music. Remember, remember, hello, hello, hello. Darkness can't create anything, only the light can't. You think the devil created music? If you think the devil created music, you are giving that devil far too much credit. God created music. You best believe that our God loves a good rock concert.  That's the thing that pisses them off the most. So, pisses them off the most. Listen, this coven, I don't watch them. I blocked them all a long time ago, but people will send me pictures.   And all of us, we don't. No. So, you know- Nuff said. Nuff said, nuff said. So, guys, I just want to wish everybody, this again, this is going to be airing on Wednesday. I hope if you celebrated Mardi Gras, that you had an incredible, incredible, wonderful, fun, happy. Nicole, have a great Fat Tuesday today with your family. Enjoy, have fun, laugh. If you didn't celebrate Mardi Gras, but you're like, damn, that sounds amnesty good time, go ahead and re-celebrate it. I think you're like, let your 40-day celebration of Mardi Gras in your house. Decorate with the beautiful colors of Mardi Gras. Celebrate. There's no need to, you can bend the rules. It's all in love, you know? And maybe this year for Easter, just appreciate the fact that you, as a human being, have the ability to ascend. You have that, and that's what that's about, is your, it's not about some other dude's ascension, it's about yours. That's what Yshtar Easter is about, it's your ascension. You're the main story, you're the main character of this story.  And so, a business that had always decorated floats, that was their main income source for a lot of artists in New Orleans, were painting and creating the floats and everything. They needed a new spin on what they knew how to do. And so that's how home floats, house floats, started. And so people would, if you could dream it up, they would create it. And there's, I sent all the information to Bryce, they're these beautiful homes that are decorated like a float. And so they have a lot of fairies in the yard, and they have banners over the second story. And they created Mardi Gras in their own space. And so then a lot of people, whenever the parades were canceled, they would just have the house parties, and they had their house floats.  And so the moral of that story is, don't let people who make decisions based on false information ruin your fun and take your life from you, because that's a celebration of love and life and family. And that's exactly what they did. They said, it doesn't matter. We don't have to have a parade demonstrate, but we're gonna celebrate anyway. And I really, that really resonated with me. I wanna make sure I wanted to. That's amazing.  I have all of them. That's amazing. So go decorate your house. Go decorate your living room. Just do it all, you guys. Have fun. Just do what feels good in your soul, and you'll be all right. Yeah.  And you have a soul, you're just gonna have that parade anyway. So yeah, so yeah, it's like, who says Halloween has to be for kids dressing up?  Have fun. Why? It's your body. This is your shockty. Your body is the shockty of your soul. So to express that, I just want you guys. And Angela has been bugging me this whole time. She keeps telling me to tell people that chocolate isn't bad. So. So that gave up chocolate for a moment when I was a child. Maggie, I still eat dark chocolate.  She's like, enjoy it. I think when she keeps saying Alan Watts, Alan Watts, and I think I said it before this episode, someone asked Alan Watts, what's the point of life? You know, he's a philosopher that brought a lot of Eastern philosophy to the West. And he said, the point of life is to be alive. Just keep looking alive.  Just don't hurt anyone in the process. Yeah. Get your milkshakes if you want a milkshake. Get your French fries.  And when you exercise, that's why I love exercise. You need to actually feel the power of your body. You need to feel the sweat and the body being alive. That's what I love about it. I don't exercise to punish myself. I exercise to celebrate myself. So celebrate yourself. Do your hair. Do your nails. Put your makeup on if you want to, you know. Do you boo? This is your experience.  So. That's right. That's right. All right, you guys. Well, once again, all of the channel information will be down in the description box below with you guys. Make sure you're subscribed. And I can't wait to have both Angie and Nicole back on for some more deep dives and deep discussions into this, these interesting times we're living in.  Just make sure you're having fun. We love you all. Happy Mardi Gras. Happy Mardi Gras. Happy Fat Tuesday. Happy Ash Wednesday. Happy Ishtar. All that jazz. All the happy's. All the happy's. Just laugh and have a grand old time. If you're drinking, make sure you get an Uber though.  Alcohol will be fun sometimes. I like myself a good cocktail every now and again. Get yourself an Uber though. So, all right you guys. We love you and we'll talk to you soon. Bye everybody. Bye.


Live from Vienna, Austria, it's theCUBE. Covering .next Europe 2016, brought to you by Nutanix. Here's your hoes, Stu Miniman. Welcome back to SiliconANGLE Media's coverage of theCUBE. Happy to be at the inaugural European conference here for Nutanix's .next show here in Vienna, Austria. And welcome for the last segment of the interviews that we're doing is Chris Kaderis, who is the vice president of AMIA for Nutanix. Chris, you've been with the company about three weeks, and a big show here in your home turf, so thanks for joining us. Thank you, thank you for having me. All right, so Chris, give us a little bit, your background and what brought you over to Nutanix? Sure, yeah, I've been in, let's call it the infrastructure technology industry for about 24 years. Background as I started with a company that no longer exists called CableTron Systems, so those of you from long ago will remember CableTron. Yeah, I'm a networking guy by background, and CableTron, Day Networks, all those ones. The Route 128 technology cordon that had a lot of these companies. Yeah, great company, spent about seven and a half to eight years there up in New Hampshire at their corporate headquarters, and then went down to New York City and worked for them for a while. Then I left the company, I went to Smart, which is if you know the IP space. Yeah, I actually went to EMC before they acquired Smart, so I went to EMC back in 2002. I was at EMC for about 15 and a half years, spent about half of that in the US, running sales for half of the country for the commercial division, and then was moved over to the UK to be effectively the COO for the AMIA business. Well, that was about seven years ago, so I've been here for about seven years. Chris, I commiserate with you. I think any of us that have been in the IT industry for long enough, you look back on your resume, and I look on LinkedIn, and the companies are either gone, have been acquired, or they're not the name. You and I both worked at a company that was called EMC, and LinkedIn says I worked for Dell EMC, and I left six years ago, so I never worked for Dell EMC. Yeah, I actually worked there for two days, so that's okay, but it was a great company, and it is a great company, and will be a great company in the future, but I've made a different decision to move on in my career, and they're a great partner of ours as well, so I think this company has incredible potential. I think a lot of people see that. I think we're addressing to the heart of the need, of what customers need in their infrastructures today, and when I looked in the industry, I started looking a few years ago, just like most people, because the industry had transitioned, technology was transitioning at such pace, so you look up and you say, where do you go to be influential to customers, to help customers do what they need to do, and do you go to a service provider, do you go to Amazon, what are the companies that are relevant today? And at first, I didn't even think of Nutanix, right? I had figured that they were just an appliance company, HCI, that's all that I thought about, until it was lucky enough to have some conversations with their executives and truly understood what they were trying to accomplish, and then that opened up a whole new world, so I'm looking forward to the next part of my career at Nutanix. So I had an interview with D. Roger earlier in the show, and said, as the company matures, obviously globalization is one of the key things said today, it's only about 35% is non-US of sales, so obviously there's plenty room for growth. How do you see, how do we measure kind of your success going forward, Chris? Yeah, well I think growth is one number for sure, right? So the more customers that we delight and we please, that are off we're going to be, I think that's our primary, we need to stay on that as a primary focus, so it just happens to be that those numbers are counted, right, by how many customers and what revenue and what earnings that we have in the industry, but if we focus just on continually to delight customers to sign up new customers in the business, that's usually what we need to look at. I think, additionally, I will throw the human element to this, we need to create an organization that we're proud of. An organization that serves our communities. What I've learned in many years, and especially the last seven that I've been in Amia, is that people want to work for a company that they're proud of and they want to be able to affect change in their communities and with their customers, and if we do a good job of keeping that in line, I think we'll see success. You look at kind of your current customer base and the potential customer base and how you go to market, maybe could you break us down a little bit, talking specifically, there's kind of small, medium-sized customers, there's enterprise customers, there's service providers, you've got the channel that gets involved in various pieces. How's the go-to-market work in Europe? Sure, so we're a 100% channel go-to-market in Europe and worldwide as a company. The interesting thing is we don't have unlimited resources like most companies. Even at EMC, we didn't have unlimited resources and you can't address the whole market. It's very difficult to do that and be productive. So we're going to go after the segment of the market as a go-to-market strategy that's going to provide us with the most productivity, right? Typically, that's with customers on the higher end of the pyramid. We also will have a strategy and our establishing strategies as to how do we go after the SMB space, but we have to leverage that well. We have to make sure that we measure there's a high touch and there's a low touch model and we will put those structures in place to make sure that we can serve our SMB customers with our express products and that we'll make sure that we have a higher touch model within the upper end of the pyramid. In regards to service providers, we see that as an emerging market for us. The thing is a lot of the service providers have built out their control layer already, right? So they've, for the most part, homegrown it or they use VMware, they've built that out. So it's very difficult to unseat a control layer because they've spent a lot of time customizing it to their billing applications. So we do see a huge opportunity and those service providers that are starting up new, which there still are plenty of, and those service providers that are standing up new use cases in their business. And that we see as a significant market. So we're verticalizing in those markets that are heavy service provider oriented and we'll provide some vertical sales teams to make sure that we can bring the best possible options for our customers. Yeah, absolutely. I had the opportunity to speak with two of your, Amia service provider customers. One was a heavy VMware shop, but had great use for what you're doing. Speak to the vision as talked about in the keynote says, Nutanix is more of a platform which kind of fits into kind of enterprise cloud messaging because I think to your point, most people still think of HCI equals box and needs to be much beyond a box or just storage for it to be interesting in the market today. Yeah, yeah, we're definitely seeing that, right? We're seeing that customers need to evolve as they handle the needs of their business users and clients. They have challenges, they're looking for answers. And I think some of the messages that we've talked about in this conference in the last couple of days around that we see Nutanix as the AWS for the enterprise. And I think that kind of nails it home for a lot of customers. They understand the ease of use and the flexibility of an AWS environment, but they want some control. They want some control on cost and they want some control in their environment. However they define control, every customer is going to define it slightly differently depending on what market they're in. So that we think is going to resonate well with customers and hopefully provide some solutions for them. Yeah, the thing I'll poke at at that is talking to one of your service providers, if you talk about the utilization of resources in any enterprise, it is way under what you would do the public cloud and still way under what any service provider would do. So that's why I get excited when I talk to these service providers that are like, oh yeah, I'm getting 70 to 80% utilization because a typical virtualized customer, more than the 15% and even the really big guys that are good at this, they're not getting anywhere near that kind of 70 to 80% utilization. Yeah, and that's the whole consumption gap issue that the industry has. And we don't have the answer to everything, but I think we have a considerable piece of the answer to that where customers can look at maximizing the consumption of what they buy. And one of the things that most customers have been asking for, including service providers, is they pay as you grow model. And just the architecture that's been built here facilitates that pay as you grow model. So where everybody in the industry who's building traditional architectures has to come up with some fancy commercial schemes as to how to do that, some how you buy and how you meter, the underlying architecture is built that way. So that's something that I think will help customers out. So Chris, what about hiring? And I talked to a number of the customers here, they're really impressed with the quality of the people here. The concern of course is they say, when you go in a region and you have five people, it's easy to get really high quality people. When you need to scale that to 500 people, it's tough to get the same quality. And talk to Dheeraj a little bit about some of that paradox of growth. But what do you see as kind of the growth plan from a personnel standpoint? So it's going to be significant, right? We're growing, as we speak, I've been on for three weeks and we've hired a lot of people, right? So just getting controls and monitors around that is going to be real strategic to us to make sure we get the right people culturally and the right people who have the skills that we need to serve our customers appropriately. So that is my number one objective, right? There's a lot of things that I want to do underneath that, talent piece. But if you get the talent piece correct, everything seems to take care of itself, right? If you get the right culture that has the right experience, then you don't have to put a lot of controls in underneath that. So we'll be spending a lot of time on that. I think the key is, is that we make sure that the people who talk to our customers really understand value and understand what the customer's business is. And if we can find people from the part of the industry that does that, then we'll be okay. Chris, I'm curious, what's your take on just kind of the economic situation, especially here in Amia? You go in the US, they kind of think of, it's just the rest of the world. You come here to Europe, it's very understand that the German economy, there's certain things that they want to control and understand the way they do this. The UK, of course, has Brexit. Talk to the Africans, it's obviously very nuanced and not homogeneous. So how do you deal with that from a sales standpoint? Yeah, I think, you know, what I've seen is that the market is endless for us. Economic conditions don't particularly have an effect because we're such in a situation where a smaller company and there's a lot of market and a lot of runway to go. So I don't see it as a major concern. Currency's devaluation sometimes hurts, right? So because it hurts not only us and how we realize our revenues and our earnings, but it hurts the customer, right? Because customer has to traditionally sometimes pay more for something that they would get cheaper to be based on currency fluctuation. So I think that's a real pain.  So that to us definitely affects markets, but right now we're just at the tip of the iceberg in regards to addressing the marketplace as to how many customers could use this technology. Do you have any manufacturer facilities in theater? What's the kind of supply chain look like? Yeah, nothing, now I've been on for three weeks. So nothing that I've found yet, right? There could be something here, but not that I've found yet. Obviously for software engineering, which is predominantly what we do, right? Almost entirely. We have engineers that are in the Amia Theater. We have plenty of engineers that are here. And that has become a femoral, as you know, with most organizations, right? You don't need to have a software engineering facility in any particular place. Is there a software development office or is it just kind of disparaging? There are some offices, yeah, there's some offices in the UK, there's some offices, obviously in India, there's offices, large facilities there that do software development. So there's spread out depending on where we find the need. You'll find specific places like Berlin, like St. Petersburg, where you have specific expertise that can help with the product. Chris, I want to give you the final word, been in the job for three weeks, you've got the big European show, a lot of customers, so congratulations. What do you hear from the users? What do you want to take away to be from the event? Sure, the thing that I'm hearing that I think everybody should really double click on is every customer, and this isn't, I know it's hard to take this, but it's not a sales thing. I'm not making a sales pitch. It's amazing, this is a religion. And in order to reach religious type of status, with customers and partners, something has to be going on that's really special. So to me, I feel like it's a whole new world of IT. As I mentioned, I've spent 24 years in traditional IT architectures. So I would tell your listeners and your viewers to double click a bit on Nutanix, understand what we're trying to provide, and give us a call, and I think you'll see that it's a whole new way to do IT. Chris, really appreciate you coming to join, speak to our team, look forward to, you know, any year from now at the European event, we'll have a lot of metrics and things to discuss, and good luck in the keynote. Thank you. All right, we'll be back with my wrap here from the Nutanix.next conference, 2016. You're watching theCUBE.