Lady what is this everybody and welcome to show and tell it's me and Lady Ada with me Mr. Lady Ada, and we've got a few Adafruiters here.  We want to see it come by on stream yard And we're on discord. Yeah, and they're hanging out for the next 20 minutes or so So we're in all these places and we do this every single week So if you're working on a project can't get to it this week That's no problem every single Wednesday one of us Some of us a few of us are here and we do show and tell the longest running show and tell on Planet earth. Okay. We're gonna start off with Liz and then we're gonna get Aaron and then we'll go to guy and then Okay, that's right there. All right, Liz. What you got going on this week? Yeah Man, let me talk about prototype. I'm going so I've got a prop maker feather a Real-time clock module over stemma speaker neopixels and a button And what I'm doing is I'm working on a remake of the talking adabot clock Yeah, Philby did which is really awesome But choosing Arduino and a bunch of shields and everything so I thought it'd be cool to try to do a prop maker version So, yeah, that was hard to do back then. Yes. Yeah So and I actually thought this code would take me a while just looking at it But basically it's keeping the time with the real-time clock module and when I press the button Hopefully we'll be able to hear 732 p.m. Oh Yeah And so there's all these really great wave files that Philby had that's in adabot's voice and I can use the real-time clock module to Look up basically the name of the wave file and kind of make this array So it'll play through them and then clear it out every time you press the button and so in the final build What's off the breadboard? It'll be 3d print of adabot's wonderful blocky head with a button speaker Some neopixels to lie up his mouth way speaking and it'll be a fun little build for folks. Yay That's exactly one of the projects for The prop maker is an animatronic, you know talking clock because people can record their own way files They can make the clock look like anything they want and the clock's useful You can have it, you know only do top of the hour every 15 minutes. Yeah, or whatever We're gonna show Um We're gonna talk about your guide plural guides plural. I think this week you worked on a Docker guide as well. I was gonna ask right before we alive I was asking you about that because we had to do some Docker stuff a million years ago for like machine learning stuff But this was the first time you used Docker to get Linux to work on an ESP 32 s3. Yes. Yeah, so I took the Docker file that lady had written for the stream To get it running on the new metro ESP 32 s3 So I wrote up a guide walking you how to do it how to install Docker I also included like a test Docker file that just opens up a Ubuntu machine and opens up terminal So folks can kind of get used to it then how to do the Docker file that lady Aida wrote How to load everything onto the ESP 32 s3 and then if you want to customize stuff you can use stuff in this thing called build route when you're setting up the Linux kernel and File system and you can like customize a host name and things and then recompile So I walked through all that in the guide So if you saw lady working on that you can try it out for yourself and dockers really cool I personally run Windows and I'll use WSL Windows subsystem for Linux to sometimes do stuff But sometimes it can be a little tricky. So I'm really excited about using Docker for toolchain stuff in the future I think it's a really useful tool for folks Yeah, it's got a better over time too, like there's a lot of neat things and we were joking around It's like it's so hard to set up some tool chains. It's like, okay I got set up just how I want I would like to ship my computer to you because like it's like Jenga Like you can't pull out a piece. What's that Python setup? It's so easy to just like whack everything So I think this will be neat because Linux on a microcontroller Is really cool and interesting the the the world that that's in sometimes a little gatekeeping. It's hard to Get in especially when you're a beginner and I think this all this this will help people like oh, I just want to kind of do this And then what can I get done in a few minutes and then learn from there and not just like oh, no Yeah, basically all the random googling I was doing In compilation with the stream and there was a really good video But from Scott Hanselman on docker is compiled into this guide. So yeah, I have to do that random Funny what a full circle says Scott Hanselman's been on our show. We're tight with Scott great advocate at Microsoft for developers and more And he just sent me a text the other day like one of the articles that we did I'm just like cool so It's an ecosystem. Okay. Well, thank you so much All right Yeah, what you got going on I am working on I just finished up this little build of figment the dragon This used to be a Teddy rex spin. Yes, Teddy rex been was a toy from the 1980s that they really released in 2017 But it's got a cool little animatronics module and it is happens to be the exact same size as figment the dragon So I have a baby niece who's two years old and is super into dragons so Learned to hack this thing and update the files and everything on so this week my new project is how to do this So turn them on and see if we'll talk to us Hello, Billy. Hello, baby And then I have little pads in his paws that'll start the different stories And Daisy, it's your grandma's Grandma Bonnie and Grandma Ruthie. We're gonna read you some fun Stories so I got my mom to record this from her RV. She's are being in Alaska right now like a crazy person It's fantastic Send me the file and then they also have a grandpa who lives in Australia. So if I push his other hand It'll land down under where kangaroos and cookaburras laugh in the gum trees top With creatures unique Full of life and zest in the tale of friendship. We're about to invest so yeah Australian person this I he didn't know what to write and for the longest time He was just not sending me anything. So I went on chat GPT and I typed in hey, write me a 800 word story about two little girls called Billy and Daisy who meet Australian animals and It sent me back this amazing rhyming story and I sent it to him just via email and he just sent me a text file and Read it in his lovely Australian accent. So it's all very about all the little animals in Australia meeting Billy and Daisy And now they get to hear their grandpa and grandma's voices whenever they want. Yeah, this is so me Yeah, one of the things that we wanted to do was have parents grandparents and cycles well, whoever's around a kid to be able to record their voice and put it on an anotronic Figure that's really hard to do and these Teddy Ruxmans. There's Landfills full of them or this essentially they're they're available there you can get them for like 20 bucks on eBay they're really cheap and We're in New York City There's a build-a-bearer and I was like well the build-a-bearers are kind of even the same size and then we were talking about Figment and I think you or you had a figment or something you're like Oh, this is the same something came up with figment because we're figment fans as this is a really Neat project and it's a shame that Toy manufacturers there's no reason for the Teddy Ruxman to be as Encrypted and it's hard to deal with in the story like there are all these other stories But the company that sold the app is out of business Yeah, like you can't unlock the other stories anyway So if you want to do more than just the basic three stories you have to record your own and what a neat thing for Family members to be able to do this and then you'll have someone maybe a little bit more technical in the family Like Aaron, it's like oh, I can get your here's a story I get your voices you send it to me record it on your phone whatever and then you can put it on Here and then it does all the the the mouthing and stuff like that. What a neat What a neat yeah, yeah, we're at the code behind this So this was team effort jeffler's not here because he's got a project for next week Maybe but yeah, this was a big collaborative project. We had I did some work on this jeffler did black this final version You know Phil B is always doing I stuff I think he also had some suggestions about having to the eyeball motion Antonio who does our iOS development Android hacking. He's the one who finally figured out the decoding thing. So Hydra like There's Giedra. Giedra hacking actually to publish the guide I wrote about how I did the worse engineering or how we did the original journey and I'll publish that too But I'm glad that we have this how-to guide. Yeah, this was started in May like a main I remember like May 5th. I was like, I have to figure out how to do this So, you know folks will start to see this guide and probably the video eBay still I was checking today You can get a Teddy Rocks pin these Bluetooth ones that have like this USB dry functionality and the Yeah, for like the electronics are alone or like a hundred plus dollars for like 20 bucks shipped so Get them what you can. Yeah, it's cheaper. It definitely like even the memory stick inside and the LED Yeah, the TFT eyes you can build it for cheaper than you can just get off the shelf Alright guy and guys screen what you got going on? Oh, yes Months after first going down the USB host wormhole, which I blame you all for Sending me down But this is this is my effects pedal, which is you see two copies of now It is an effects pedal for keyboards and mice so you plug a USB keyboard into one side and then the other side has USB see output and that goes to your computer and I have written a number of effects for HID processing so all of the effects are kind of tied to Classic audio effects. So I wrote a reverb for your mouse. So you can kind of send your mouse sailing across the screen I'll demo it like just shakes everything and like yeah, I did I did a yeah distortion so it adds noise and then The opposite I have a noise filter, which the day I implemented you all talked about I think it was on desk videotape or something talked about doing an HID remapper where You know, you were filtering it like doing a low-pass filter on motion. I was like Yeah, so I'm just gonna demo one of the effects really quick. So I have Yeah, this you're gonna look at the mouse cursor here, so this is this is my favorite one it's the The mouse it's a looper. So if you know what a looper pedal is you record, so you know on the guitar You would record something You hit a button and that part would keep playing over and over in the background and then you could play stuff over it So this is a mouse looper.  I guess you could use this to make it seem like you're still at your desk That that that may have been brought up in the YouTube video Yeah, and then the keyboard you could do stuff like Delays so you hit a key and it'll keep typing it for you Which with some folks mentioned like might actually be useful if you're if you're playing with like max or some other digital audio stuff You know and you don't have a MIDI keyboard You can you can use this. So there's a whole bunch of effects. I'll put the link in the In the discord and then I just want to show to the the circuit board It was really fun. I like I'm just getting comfortable with mechanicals stuff So it was really nice. I got it all on one board holds it all in place except for the foot switch And then I have the two little USB the like the caps for the jacks I just 3d printed them. They came out really nice in like a PTG and they actually screw in you can see in this one I put threaded inserts on the PCB so that the The jacks go in the side and then you screw them in from the bottom. So they stay in which is which is kind of nifty Yeah, I I had a tremendous amount of fun with it And I actually I use circuit Python for like for bring up So just you know, I have the sort of Python just like the LED and confirm the yeah, it works And you can actually I have a circuit Python Implementation of MIDI controller so you can use it without any input you can just plug this into your computer And it's now just a MIDI foot switch So Reprogrammed you do whatever you want with it. This is great someone in the chat was mentioning. I think we're talking about this for Guitar pedal boxes are really strong for enclosures for a super strong enclosure For your electronics project and they're you know, pretty standard and people have a lot of footprints for them And you know, literally and also in the CAD world You could probably build off a lot of things that are already out there. Yeah, totally Yeah, and I actually I got that should mention I got these CNC'd and printed By this guy out in Oregon. His companies amplify fun And his prices were like awesome Like I literally I did the math and by I did the math. I actually paid for both things Like it was cheaper to have him source the pedals cut them and print them then for me to get the stuff to Screenprint and drill and stuff so highly highly recommend looking around for options Like that, too. This is red like this work an agenda. This is yeah, the art looks great. There's a snake on out of life This is really cool. All right. Well, if you remember You can drop a note to I guess me if you want the pt data fruit calm if you won't if you want anything Circuit Python related in our Python to hardware newsletter coming up. If we already haven't covered it Oh, yeah, it came in a came in the last one Amazon. Okay, great. Yeah. Okay, cool All right. Thank you so much everybody. We're going to wrap up now and start on Finishing asking an engineer it's a production so much of stuff to do as I say get out a couple minutes early to Get the screens and the keyboards and all the things in the video and It's like a little production that we do So we'll see everybody next week Liz is hosting next week Thanks advance Liz every single week some 30 p.m. Eastern time it's show and tell asking an engineer starts a couple minutes We'll see everybody next week. Bye. Bye


I pick university because I reckon it's better to further more your studies and get a good qualification in order to get a good job. I need to help my family and in order for me to do that, I need to get a good job and a university qualification gets me there.  You've got the discipline and perseverance to get a qualification and you've got a qualification so you should hire me. Sometimes I still catch up with my mates that aren't at uni anymore and they're sort of working at factories and long-hour jobs. Their one wish was just to be like, oh man, if only I could just keep studying or just keep going, I could have been in a better place because you do, no matter what they say about degrees and stuff, it's a leg up, it does get you in the doors.


So the relationship with the surgeons here at the Steadman Clinic really is very much a mentorship model and that we're with surgeons for a month at a time so we get to know them very well in clinic and in the operating room but also outside of the operating room wouldn't really get into know these world-class surgeons on a first-name basis. This year here in Vail has been phenomenal. The different surgical approaches, the meticulous nature of all these operations, being able to perform them not only well but in a timely fashion and in a reproducible way I hope to be able to continue throughout my career. Professionally you know I can't think of a better launching pad into my career than to train with really the experts, the authorities in sports medicine and they all happen to be here at the Steadman Clinic. Mentorship at the Steadman Clinic is one of the reasons why you come here and when you're on the different rotations you're often just one-on-one in the OR together and in clinic you get a lot of learning time not only in those spaces but also in the lab and what it means to us when we live is a continued mentorship not only with the staff but also we have a lot of colleagues around the world that we can count on. You know that really is a special relationship and a special bond that we have our kind of go-to resource as we you know get into you know interesting questions and dilemmas getting into our own practice. I mean it's kind of unbelievable we talk about this with the other fellows sometimes when you really think about it these guys are all the top people in their field and it's kind of like Tom Brady asked you to come down from the stands and throw you passes so sometimes I'm like what am I doing here you know they're really patient with us and are great teachers and we're really appreciative for all the work and time that they commit to us because I know that they're really invested in the teaching program as well. I'm gonna take a lot into my practice from this year one of the main things is how to provide great care to a patient how to establish the relationship and how to carry that through surgery and then care for them post-operatively both in good times and when things go wrong. I've also gained a lot of surgical experience and expertise the lab has been an excellent resource of being able to see the surgeons do things firsthand and then be able to go in and practice that on my own independently and the combination of those two things makes me a confident surgeon walking out.


Next example, we'll be showing the dilation lag typical of a Horner's syndrome. The lights are now turned off and you can see the right pupil dilates quite fast relative to the left. Normal pupil should dilate in about five seconds. Sympathetic defect in the left eye, you can see that it takes quite a bit longer for that pupil to overcome its defect. Another example, lights on, lights off. Notice how that right pupil springs to life and that left pupil just sort of lags behind. It takes about 10, 15 seconds to catch up. That's a nice way to document a Horner's syndrome. Here it is, lights are on. Now with the lights off, see that right pupil just spring to life and slowly that left pupil will catch up. You can also document this by taking still photographs. For example, in darkness, take a photograph at five seconds and 15 seconds and compare the degree of anisecoria. Here's another example. You can see how that left pupil just sort of springs right up. The right pupil takes a while to catch up. Lights back on. Notice how the noise adds to the sympathetic drive and accentuates the initial anisecoria. Here's both eyes in light and I'll turn one in the center of the tooth.


Yes, finally, I've met the amazing top stand-up comic, Eagle himself, Son of God, Dukuf Kakamega, brand influencer, trainer, consultant, a young millionaire, a father figure. CEO of three companies, Yolo Creative Agency, Bay Developers, which is a listed company, then of course Lavington Ace Interiors. Bro, we are in this business, these people in the show business, we are in the show business. Who is in the show business? I will not mention names, munga metu bari ekiviet, but I can complain. To be honest, ekido you know where we've come. I know. Yes, me as a stand here, me am a testimony man. I would have never imagined that one day this would be euphonic, but God has been great.  Just to name a few brands maybe if you can allow me. Let me share a list of companies, give me a tick or a no. Kokakola, you've worked with them? Yes. Safarikum? Oh yes. All brands I believe so. All brands, I don't think if I haven't touched your brand yet, then there's something you're missing out. And I thank God, God has given me so much favour with corporates. Corporates find euphonic as a darling and not take it for granted at all. Is it one favour that God has given you that the corporate world is seeing you different from others? First of all, it's humility. It's humility. Number two, just be easy to work with people. Number three, apply wisdom.  The client is a star as well in his own field. So what are you trying to show? You get. Just maintain that level of, some certain level of humility. It will always work out. I mean, at the end of the day, the money's in their pockets, the talent is in your heart. Both of you need each other. And lastly, we need to forget the way you carry yourself, the way you present yourself. You always look amazing in suits. Who inspired you to wear suits? Oh, Steve Harvey. Steve Harvey. Why Steve Harvey? Do you know how many times Kido I have DM'd Steve Harvey? You can confirm to us today. I'm doing an interview, some of this upcoming. I'm doing an interview. Carlos, the experience. I think of, where is it? I hope I didn't delete you. My camera guy, you can zoom in. Where is it, where is it, where is it? Kusi zoom in, sana webe. Ono taga kwangalia ni nini uko. Karewa, kwa kia re? Where is it? Ah, ni medie mumsi wangu marabmob. Steve Harvey. Let's see, let's see. Ikua piezo. Deizo. Yes, you can see this. You can see this. Come close. I have been dressing, this was in 13th December 2016. I have been dressing like you, confident as you and now rated as funny as you in my region. I may not be you, but I'm going to share a stage with you one day. And you're going to say these words to me. The world is not ready for you. I thank God for you every day that I have someone to look up to in my career. Your passion, patience, hard work, self-belief and more your love for God is what keeps me going.  That was my message to Steve Harvey. One day he's going to open it. I have had numerous dreams of him. It was the last week, but this was the true story. I dream that him and I were just high-fiving and laughing and crying. I don't know what we're talking about. But then again, God prepares your future by giving you dreams. It's the only way you get prepared for what is coming ahead. And I believe that one day I'll be sitting down with that guy. Yes? Amen to that. What do you want to achieve in this industry? I believe you've been in the industry for the last 15 years. What is that one thing you want to achieve as a doctor of one again? Tomorrow people will see, tomorrow people will look up to you.  I want the next generation of, not only comedians, I want the next generation of artists to look at me as a father they can run to. As a big brother they can talk to and as a friend they can confide in. That's what I'm looking for. That is the legacy I want to live in this industry. Whereby they know they can call off any time and I will buy coffee and I'll buy lunch and I will sit down and I will open up my heart and my ears to listen to the way I can help. I can be able to help. Yes? We are here tonight for one course. Maybe you can share as are you guys behind the idea of 30MC, one mic, one show? A cook is an amazing gentleman. First of all, not only as a comedian but also as a friend. And also because we are trying to teach the coming generation that we can be talented diversely but still have a certain level of unity and stand together with each other. Even when our brothers are not okay. Because the industry is always seen as we don't like each other, we cut each other, we rumaspread each other to clients and spoil our names, our brands to each other. But this was a show that we are still together, we are united and yes we can come together. When one of us is not okay we can stand together. Because it's unfortunate we have lost some of our brothers simply because we had too much ego in between us for how to stand with each other. I mean, Otholotol should have never ended where he ended. Kaseya should have never ended where he ended. Jangam Sohili should have never ended where they ended. Eriko should have never ended where he ended. If only we could have come together, stand together, speak with one voice and bring our brands together and say you know what, let's put our egos aside, let's put how big we think our brands are aside and stand together. In the industry they have been going through a lot since Akukwa Kwemgonjwa, what is that one thing that you have learned? You as Dr. Ofonake, you saw it, you learned, you wanted to share with the upcoming comedians, you wanted to share with the industry. Is that first of all just be grateful for any milestone that you make. Whether you have one fund, two funds, three funds, always go home and thank God for it because that's how God operates. God, the more you thank Him, the more you thank God for what you have now. The more it spiritually opens you up to receive more blessings. But when you cover yourself with bitterness and heavy and jealousy towards other people, then what you do is that ring, the Holy Spirit will only surround you and that ring of jealousy with your package of blessings you get. So until you remove those rings of envy and jealousy and you are let loose, now that you have done that, until you remove those rings of envy and jealousy and you are let loose, now that's when the Holy Spirit can now come through and deliver your package. But until then, that's what you realize, ask yourself. If you're not succeeding in your life, ask yourself what is going wrong. And for me, I took myself on a test. The top head-to-head contenders for the Kiswanana job. And as much as he took it, I'm also human. I also wished I could get the job because I knew I was also good at what I do. I mean I'm among the best in the industry, if not in the region, you get. But when Obina got the job, I had to do a self-examination of how did I feel when Obina got the job. And when I did that caption congratulating him, I actually told myself then, I am a good person. I'm a good person of good heart because I wrote that caption from a good place, from a clean heart of bro. We were going head-to-head. But congratulations because something better, God is preparing for me as well. And to be told, very soon I'll be going back on TV, it's a surprise. And it's a whole international production company from Hollywood that came here and they asked who is the best TV host in Kenya right now. And Ophoniki came up and I'm signing the contract. And I'll be doing the show on TV. Meaning when you give yourself room to celebrate others, then God says, Godia goes my son, let him give me his package as well. Because every single person has a package. There's a package on your name. You might think it has been delivered but no. Those are just rumors of blessings. But there's a big package that is coming. But you have to prepare yourself internally, externally for you to receive it. For the blessings to hava in-pass through you. Congratulations for your new TV show. Thank you very much. Maybe just to give us details maybe, what are we expecting in the new deal and then maybe contracts he'll quarefuna for five years maybe. Milioni ziko. We thank God. Zero ni mingi? Zero ni mingi. But this will be... This is the next biggest thing. You guys thought TNL was big. You thought tonight Live was big. You thought Kupatana was big. You thought Mr. Right was big. Now this is even the mother of them all. And even Mr. Right is coming back on three as well. God has blessed me at my sphere of control. Right now you know. On TV, if you mention top TV hosts, Dr. Funek has to be among them. If not, then you have an issue with me. You get. So God has blessed you. The things I can't compete with Hamo, with bands on stage. That's his sphere. I cannot compete with Butita. Right in jokes, that is his anointing. You get. I cannot compete with Mamito doing videos. That is his. That is his. But they know when it comes to TV hosts, they also take a stab and say you know what, that's so Funek's area. So it's being comfortable with where God has blessed you. Because it's only there. Ni kutumbasa na bro. God has blessed me at my sphere of control. He has blessed me at my sphere of control. He has blessed me at my sphere of control. He has blessed me at my sphere of control. He has blessed me at my sphere of control. You get. God blesses you with a spotlight. Your time shall come. Just to mention artists, celebs online, you attack very well. Offlet, trending topics, blogs, not because of the positive thing you do, not because of the amazing show you have, because of what is happening to your life. What is that one thing you've learned from negativity, from the bullies, from the keyboard warriors? You want to share with us. For any blog to use your name.    But number two, you have to also allow people to have their own choice of emotions, just like I said.  It is my emotion. It's not our emotions. It's my emotion.  When you get the same feeling, then you'll call me and tell me baby I love you too. There are guys who will laugh, there are guys who will not laugh. So why consider the guys who didn't laugh? Well actually there are guys who laughed. So everything we are, is an individual. I'm at a place in life where I do, I'm at a place of clarity in life. A place of self-actualization. A place of transformation. I am me. And I'm comfortable being me.  But probably you have oversized toes. Only that you've locked the safe in the shoes. We haven't seen them. So you want to point out my big nose which can be seen. But what about your big toe which is hidden in your socks? You get. When guys talk about celebrities and scandals, everybody has a scandal. It's only because I'm in the limelight. So mine can be put in the light. But wherever it comes, what's up with you? But also because and I say this and it's not even on a light note. This is on a serious note. Before you tweet an insult of when it came. Also be sure you can repeat the same statement when you meet on the streets. Then you tell me if you have a big nose. It means if you have a big nose. It means if you have a big nose. It means if you have a big nose. It means if you have a sword. You get things banned. Yes we Africans we know how to it doesn't say that you deposit or withdraw. There's nothing else. This is a thing of if you cannot go to rehearse. But you can't go and it's anakula. Sasa jukosa man. Those are white people things over there. But I'm a true African man. And of course clearly I mean if I ate those pills I would have not produced three beautiful girls. I'm just here. I'm from Africa. Anakumila zake na tradition zake. So how is it? I can do those things. I can do those things. Those things happen. Some of these top actors they come here run to Masaimara. Ashanti was here. The minister of tourism and the minister of sports did they go to look for Ashanti? Ashanti nge leto apa kenyan asho theater man na rubi cinema. Where all top actors let Ashanti talk. Let her talk about branding, marketing and how to sustain a brand. He's called something white. J. White. Yehuku japa ko stop most of the time. Lili government akumita futa. Alitapa unge lese huge. You get. There's a day Russell Peters came here did a short KSC. Which government body took Russell Peters, put him at KSC and put all comedians and let him talk to us. Nobody did that. You get. So we the government is not passionate about us. And it pains me. And I really hope the president is watching and either between the deputy president and wherever gets in. I really hope they have an idea of what to do with the youth and the creative industry. But we have creative artists MPs in parliament. We have Babu Wino. We have Jagwa. We have Honorable Daggeretti MP. KJ. They've not done anything. But you want to tell me Daggeretti North is only artist. Very horny for send off packages. They cannot wait. Oh my goodness. That's what they're waiting for. You get. Again, nobody has we are raising a crop of leaders who are not passionate about delivery. They're not passionate about their manifestos and they're not passionate about sticking to their agenda and what they promised in Manaji. I have still not seen that yet. So until Erika jifungiapa Erika, the brand is dying. It's finding a way of being relevant. That's nonsense. The reason why I'm a big brand is because I'm supposed to use my brand to sensitize the society and fight the society if I don't, who else will? I have almost a million followers on Instagram. If I don't use them to put the government on check then who else will? You get. And this thing of all bonama comedians kwa siyasa who told you comedians cannot be good leaders? Who is leading the war of Ukraine right now? Is he not a comedian? Who is the president of Madagascar? Rojana Maloma. Is he not a DJ? Who is the president of Liberia? Esera Leon. Is he not George Ware? Is he not George Ware? So who said that now actually the world time mungare cannot buy? Jalango cannot buy? MCJC cannot buy? Because? Because we make jokes? But actually if you check in our jokes there's reality. When I talk about marriage and jokes there's some reality in my jokes. It's only that comedians have a third eye of looking at things. But we can actually make good leaders. And I really, my prayer is MCJC will not let me down. Me. Will not let me down at South Imenti. Jalango will not let me down in Langata. Who else is Vaik? Woltam Ngari. If God bless him he takes the seat. I hope he will not let me down as a president because we can still make good president. Look at Anu Shozinga. He was a top actor. Got into California. Did his four year, four year, eight years term as the governor of California. Once he did Alimaliza Nakaruda but he had a very big movie. Which one was it in what? He had all these actors inside there. I forgot it. You get. So who said we can't? Yes we can. Yes we can. Afoniki. Yeah. Being a father figure do you feel pressure to prove to Kenyans to show Kenyans that you're having a happy marriage? I didn't consult you guys when I was choosing a wife. So why should I explain to you? I spotted a lady. I approached her. Siku kujia pick up line kuako. You get. When I took her for my first date I didn't do an impesa till number. When I went to meet my parents I didn't open a WhatsApp group. So why should I explain to you? Number two, why is it that when I'm not okay I should tell you and when I'm okay I should tell you. You didn't. No. When you're happy just mopezi fi chiki. When you're in love you always post for us to see. I don't. You've done that before. Check my timeline on my social media. What happened? Because you have to get to a place where you have to realise the brand is about you and the people. Not to you, your family and the people. You get. I don't need to explain to anyone whether I'm happy or not. Those are my issues. They're not our issues. Audience I'm explaining yu wa kyu anashi daya ho na marriage. So mwona ni ku explain ye. Minu ko po ha. It's the same thing that useless of a boy at Mlele FM. But then it's very useless and I will tell him you're very useless. You get. I will not. But then I may not meet him. Let me not meet him. This is the thing. Kido you've known me for a while. I am very keen on respecting my elders. That has been one of my secrets. I'm very keen on respecting spiritual levels. You get. It's the same thing. Whether I think I'm good or not. I can never charge more than Churchill, more than Jesse, more than Jalango. Those are my big brothers. Those are my fathers. You get. Same thing. Kido ni pigeu ni ambe of whene ke kuna Mlele me kumakama brand. What do I do? But don't build a brand based on my sorrows. Don't build a brand on my sadness. That is a curse. Kido ni ku yu wa yu kukul adenas kiyokumbai. Ni lahana na Jk any person who celebrates the sadness of other people is on stage 2 witchcraft. You get. Yes. Ni pigeu ni ambe OK. Sayi. I'm launching a big reality of children's home reality talent site. You get. I have just launched my new company, Bay Developers. I'm now into Relastate. You get. I'm starting to I'm planning a few mentorship programs. I'm now doing corporate talks. Call me about that. Kudu ni ambe of whene ke kumakama planaje. Don't come in asking of whene ke ati wei na waifu kupa. Where are you my father in law?  And I'm telling that boy and I warned him and I told him his bosses tell that boy to stay away from me. My tongue is dangerous. Tell him to stay away from me. I'm seeing him to do industry kiddo. I'm saying I'm participating in my hand. Imagine to lay on a call church kumuza church kama kusakama rijaku. Imagine just picture yourself. I tell him skia ibu. I may not be of course in the level of church in terms of fatherhood but respect me. Come on. Respect me. And I told that boy ni ijekandun ataminda nwa yo kofi ni ambe baba. Ndoni menge konya industry. I have worked for melele for seven years. Ask me how to survive at melele. And that boy is not going far. I'm telling you. That boy will not last. Not in the industry not at media max. He will not go far. Ok kumalizia funds have come through for Akuko for so many times. What is that one thing you'll have to share with the funds? 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Some of the jokes I do me but ita me handika guys don't know that that boy has that me and I'm funny kifanya hee ni wewe na time but ita na wewe ni call and I'm be hey this joke meaning I do but ok do na delivery ya ko yanguvu ita fukahu and to they do that's brotherhood that's brotherhood that's brotherhood that's brotherhood now to the fans to the fans you guys are just amazing me I am blessed I am blessed if I was to buy out bow out today I will live on a high I will live on a high Kenyans are just amazing they love they show me on the streets watching my shows and everywhere I thank God for each and every single person of them I thank God for them thank you so much I'm proud of you as well thank you mazuume kuru sayu na fanya online jo kaku utafta maashas were events this is you we are going to have to have to have a demo aashas ya you are now so we are waiting for the launch for the new TV show make us invite us to come yes but before that before you ekuje be developers that is the next topic that is the next biggest thing we are legit we are reliable we are transparent we are honest that is the next biggest thing in the real estate industry watch out for this one be developers thank you so much asante baba good to see you


Welcome back once more I trust that you're having a lovely evening and once again you are watching the power talk show my name is Cheryl blessing and right before winter break we were talking about drug addiction and its intervention and joining me in studio is Chris Pasquimaru a man who has battled alcohol addiction and eventually got to becoming an addiction counselor and an intervention therapist so you were just explaining how you went through your journey how you got into it and the effect it had through your university the effect on work and the effect on your relationships with others so right before we proceed this I want to bring up the comments that you have sent us on our social media okay I'm being told we're going to wait a minute so you can continue sending us your questions your comments your feedback through our social media pages at Y254 now Chris Pasquimaru you are just telling us that you blacked out woke up in Westlands and found yourself at Jerome or Rehab but you went to the mortuary first because can you explain why you are convinced that that was where you are at what mental space were you in for you to not value your life I was in a situation where every waking morning every waking day I wanted to die that's how bad my addiction was and this is something that I never explained to the family or maybe I never really understood how bad it was sometimes if I found myself in a mortuary I would be wishing why can't it just get involved in an accident and then I die alone and God saves the other people so that people will not say I died out of maybe an addiction or alcohol something like that and maybe when walking I would wish why can't that truck just hit me I remember there was a time I went to when it was a thick road being built and then there was the horse of Spridge and I remember the last two months ago there was a lady who wanted to maybe attempt to say that and it triggered those memories I also took there one time wishing I had the courage just to jump it was that bad that's the mental state I was in feeling that I was a failure of course I had been caught a failure many times when when asking for money from family friends when reading I know you find your friends maybe schoolmates who are doing well and here you are a graduate asking for alcohol even 20 shillings just to take some changa that's the mental state I was in and even when I finally went into Jerome there was a detox that was that for three weeks and my sister catered for that my circuit and then we I was supposed to rehab and then I convinced her that I was fine and I stayed for two months and of course relapsed so again it was another spiral down until my mother sent for me and I was taken back home to Nyeri that's that's where another phase of my life started I thought maybe when being close to parents I would maybe recover but you see people in the village knew I had good job as far you come the stigma you lost the job because of drinking and luckily I got another job now at you see as a high school teacher and I even started beating somebody someone a collegemate from a college mate and we settled down kind of started a family but I was still drinking and when the money started trickling in again it got worse the women the drinking the fights missing school scored in duty the the warning letters and eventually I was interrupted because I just stopped going to work I would feel like everyone knew I was a failure and all that and when it came to 2014 eventually I got the courage to maybe go to the suicide and I remember I saw the TV went to a bar drunk and all that and I found myself in a hospital for most a month and I was diagnosed with mental psychosis I was supposed to go for therapy I couldn't even afford therapy and eventually because of now the stigma with the stigma with the suicide it even got worse again I was interdicted the second time and eventually because even my space out of maybe 50,000 shillings of course I would only get maybe 9,000 or 10,000 but I didn't want to tell my family how bad the situation was with the loans microfinance all those all those there were so many problems and then of course my wife had to leave because I don't even blame her she left with my son and it was her right because I was just too much and I had not started dealing with my underlying issues these underlying issues they could be many and every situation is unique everyone is unique everyone in addiction is unique you have could be having childhood trauma you could be having low surface and many other emotional issues you can be having a mental issue that is causing you to be pushing you towards substance use or a drug addiction so it got so bad that even when I was transferred maybe after the first interdiction the second school I went to I still stopped going to work I fought with the principal and all that and eventually I thought maybe I can't go on with the teaching my everyone knew I was just this dream to teach a kamualim kamualim kamalim but how did you how did you get through all that because you've the several times that you tried to stop you took some months over then you went back how did you eventually get to deciding that I am done with alcohol I want to turn over and you leave and become any person I can say it was something progressive because every time the interventions that were being done by my parents maybe even the prayers I didn't really share I would get born again every other two months or every other week in crusades and then I would even look for pastors just to talk to me so I think it was progressive and eventually I came back to Nairobi after losing my teaching job and one day in 2017 February I talked to somebody in touch and he was a counselor I think and that's the turnaround that was my turnaround because he listened to me and guided me on how to go back go to alcoholic anonymous and that is the way I started networking with other people who I in Kaveri now for me to make that turnaround I had to admit that I had finally I was powerless that I had tried all other things and I really needed help and and that is something that most people in addiction don't do they always think I can do this on my own every day because this is what I do every day they think they control when I finally admitted that I didn't have control that's when now my turnaround started that's when people came through and started helping me I had tried stopping many many many things before but I never admitted even to myself my God and to someone else because that's what we always say I had not wound up that I had I really had a big problem but when I did that and I opened up to someone and opened up to my God and said I needed help that's when the turnaround came then number two I identified what my triggers could have been I didn't have the knowledge that I have now as an addiction counselor but I knew I had anger issues I knew I had low self-esteem issues I knew I had maybe issues with my family I knew I had issues with maybe in my relationship with maybe my first wife and I needed to resolve all these and then the sense of failure that I had because of the failures I had in form for ideal performers I wanted in class 844 I never achieved what about or what other people expected of me so there were high expectations from maybe even my parents and I always felt like I failed them so all these things would combine into a complex course of my yeah and then of course there was a spiritual disconnection over the years I didn't have this grounding in spirituality so all these things I had to start working on them one by one and even when I when my recovery journey started I didn't have the resources to finally maybe go for therapy and all that and it even affected my relationships at the beginning and because I really wanted to retire everything where it was I even found myself going to gambling you know betting and all that photo betting to try and win a lot of money again to ruin my finances so all my life I never felt like I was enough and that's something I struggled with and even in recovery until now I was able to go for counseling and talk to somebody and learn through behavioral therapy how to deal with my that low self-confidence again I had a lot of anxiety all my life maybe it was the environment I grew up in maybe the very strict father and very high expectations I always had a lot of anxiety again these are issues I'm seeing with so many young people a lot of anxiety issues and cope with that by using drugs and alcohol because they feel like it helps especially weed now weed is being smoked just like cigarettes in the 90s everyone is using weed and when you talk to these people you realize there's always an issue with anxiety and you know weed can be a depressant to some people's stimulant and hallucinology to some people so at the end of the day they feel like it's numbing their pain or their anxiety I can say I had childhood trauma I had a nice childhood and I can say that my parents were to me or anything but maybe the expectations I even placed on myself were too high I have started working on that the perfectionism that I wanted all these things to go my way those are things I really struggled with even in my working So you have to come to terms with that it's not always going to be perfect and you just have to accept it and it doesn't have to go my way yeah so simple they might look like simple things but when you combine them they become a vortex of a storm and you have to find a way to numb them to resolve them and do you think this this factors you're talking about the low self-esteem and the anxiety and all that do you think they contributed to the mental struggles that you endured while you were addicted to alcohol Yes actually they contributed not only to the mental issues they contributed to me seeking a solution in alcohol and even seeking a solution maybe in sex without a connection you know sex addiction they contributed because when I was drinking and like other people who are having fun for me it was a coping mechanism but it wasn't at the beginning it was supposed to be fun but with time a few months maybe a few years I realized this thing was coming me down you see alcohol is a depressant it's not a stimulant it was coming me down and I was you know like I didn't have any care in the world you know I wasn't aware that maybe I had failed or maybe I was expected to do this you know maybe I had failed in exams or anything like that and that's why I continued drinking the anxiety I feel when when I was sober was just too much yeah so when I drank alcohol it was like a drug for me it was like a medication for me I will say I'm medicating one way or the other and you see what happens with time what happens with time is you you require your brain to reward circuitry okay so instead of having natural stimulation things like love or maybe relationships or enjoying your food and drinks you now get hooked on this drug of choice whether it can be a prescription drug feeling that you're looking for the high that high and you keep looking for it because with time the brain the brain now gets gets dependent yeah and it's also a hormone because certain hormones are released to give you happiness or give you peace so when you get addicted to that and your body is reliant on an alcohol read for you to produce that hormone then it becomes you the way you say you've rewired your internal space your internal mechanism in the brain we talk about the neurotransmitters especially dopamine and that's that's involved in the brain reward circuitry they feel good we for a long time it is because they feel good hormone or they feel good neurotransmitters anytime you eat good food anytime you maybe make love or anything with that dopamine is released but you see natural stimulants like food or drinks soda they give you just a little bit of dopamine but for something like alcohol these artificial stimulants alcohol weed mogoka mirror give your dopamine rush okay so your brain kind of gets hooked with time but after a few years of using or a few months the dopamine will be reduced that's why you find yourself using more alcohol or intolerance and then with time because these are chemicals that you're using every day you become not only physiologically dependent you also become psychologically dependent you can't you believe that you can't do without it even though maybe you can thank you for that because that has given us a very clear example on what leads to addiction aside from our daily usage it's also something that physically happens to us in our brains so i want to read some of the comments that you have sent us on facebook we asked how you can tell a friend of yours is addicted and how you can help them overcome it we have money karlane who says you can know someone is addicted to something if he or she can't do without it that is very true if someone is reliant on something they are addicted mangale madeni mangale says thank you so much for watching david ogillo says you moderate the level of addiction down slowly until they quit yes that is one way you can help them cope with it and overcome it thank you so much for watching us louise a b lory a b lory says a person seems to be hallucinating and doing some things let them overcome those addictions yes hallucinations is one of the signs of alcohol or drug abuse denny's new guess i say is following thank you denny's mwene karlane is the one i read saying you can know if someone is addicted if they can't do without it now we have understood from your story it greatly impacted your your work life and your family life with your direct family your siblings your mother your father as well as your spouses so how how did those relations get deteriorated through time is it because they actively tried to help you overcome the addiction or is it because they got to a point and they gave up on seeing you as someone who can be sober initially they they were present they were there they wanted to help but you see the problem is like many other people in in our modern society even in our Kenyan society especially they didn't understand how addiction works so the way they were helping was even pushing me further and it happens for so many point addiction even today you'll hear them saying these people don't understand me my family doesn't understand me my man my sibling they don't because a week by you know making a lot of noise you know embarrassing you in front of the pastor in front of the rest of the family the link that is helping the big city can shame you into sobriety it never happens so for me because of this scrutiny at every at every social gathering be in the in the family it was about chris chris is drinking chris has messed chris has said this so i would not even attend such gatherings you see and then if if i was calling it was mostly i was calling either to khan i had become such a good khan i would even khan not only the family members i would khan the priests i would khan the chief i even khan the ocs one time i khan the chief i would khan anyone yes i had such a good tongue and because of maybe even the things i was saying my father is sick you know i would go in the village maybe in the town nearby town lying my my mother is sick my mother in hospital all those things of course i had i burnt so many bridges of course i would maybe get drunk and call asking for money if they didn't give me money i would insult them so i i i burnt bridges in that way um if they called now to maybe try and correct me now maybe help i would feel like they were interfering because you see that the truth has so if they would call me and ask you are a graduate why are you doing this enormous it would just push me further away yeah i would say i'll never talk to you and that i stayed even for years without speaking to some of them that is how the relationships broke down i would make promises i would borrow money and say i would pay back even when working i would even for my spouse then with my spouse it was even worse because i would steal you see with my parents it was worse because i would steal from the house and all that and and this is a situation that happens with the with so many people in addiction whether you're using or any drug of choice that you're using that always happens because you see there are stages of addiction where you start with the experimental stage you go to the social stage sorry you start with the experimentation and then you start you move to the social stage where you're drinking with other people to move to the instrumental stage where now you're using this as a coping mechanism then you go to the habit where now you you can do anything to get get the drug to maintain the habit and then there's the last stage where now you're in the compulsive stage where you have to drink to unlock what you're saying and i was in that stage so i could do anything i i once sewed my shoes in a in a bar and i sewed them to chaco dealer you know and i remember the way he derided released told me let me let us all party 180 and to me 180 was like a million because that was maybe a bottle that you could drink we didn't drink from bottles we drank from cups if someone is there the compulsive stage because i am aware so many people have family members of friends who have gotten to that point people who even fathers and have abandoned the children they will sell anything like you said you sell your household items you lie to your parents you lie to your friends you get that you go you have maintained the habit how will you advise a family member or a spouse to someone who is dealing with someone like that how can they help them because you've said they didn't understand your diction how can someone understand and help their partner okay and the first thing you you have to understand this is a disease is a mental health condition and like with any mental health issue there is loss of control so if you notice the other person is dysfunctional in one way or the other in one aspect of their lives or the other then you have to take control you you can't just say they are going to turn around one day if it's possible i always tell families just like you can't leave if somebody wakes up one day and they start collecting papers in the neighborhood you have to intervene at that moment so even for an addiction this person might be going to work but they are not in control so if you leave them to their devices most likely they are going to die so i always tell families um first of all try talking to these uh this individual but have it in your mind that they are not doing it to just harm or just harm the family or just harm themselves they have a mental health condition so try talking to them okay if it's not possible try learning more about whatever they are the the stuff that they are using are they taking moguka are they taking mirror what is it doing to them you can talk to a professional as a family before i have seen families come to me to learn more about their loved one before taking any action then uh if there is there is no change with with your loved one then you can just wait you have to do something about it because there is loss of control there's compulsion this person is going to die as as as you watch and you are going to write very good tribute i always ask families do you want to write tribute in a few months time why don't you do something and that's why we have forced interventions and they work i'll tell you many people have argued that forcing somebody into a rehab doesn't work but i've seen the highest number of people who would form in rehabs are actually those who are taking their first how do you force them do you drag them into the rehab or how do you force them to go to because there are people whom they have maybe the family has tried this for so many years they have sought counsel they have sought help they have talked to the person they've even supported the person financially to get them out of that situation but the person the individual does not seem to want the help that they're being offered how do you force them into rehab to ensure that maybe they can get away from this addiction okay before we even come to the foster intervention there's something i've said they have your mission about supporting um their loved one what what i have noted is while there is a deadline between supporting and enabling enabling means uh you're giving maybe resources to this person who is already in addiction somebody who has a mental health condition you set up a business for them you have uh some things you you you're even finding a why a pause for them because you're paying rent and paying rent and all that is i understand it comes from a point of love and you can do it maybe for a few months to set them up but if you're doing it for years then that is enabling okay so when if you're giving support then let it be support and it has to be support with uh conditions you have to tell them we are setting you up for three months and then after that you have to uh start uh chipping in because this is your life uh families don't want to speak about these issues they don't to confront um their loved one their loved ones and tell them you have a problem yeah it doesn't have to be confrontational you know like uh matusia or anything like that you can see it done with your loved one and get a need uh somebody like an addiction counselor and you have an intervention it has been done for so many in many other societies it can be done even here i have done it so many times you sit down with the family and the loved one and he speaks out of the uh they speak out and then the family speaks out and then we have we we come up with the the solution um if that doesn't work that's when we are talking now about maybe a forced intervention it doesn't have to be for every uh every family the families who have tried it again and again you can't advise them to do it again okay uh sometimes we even tell families to help from a distance for instance for instance you can provide shelter you can give shelter maybe if somebody wants to stay in your uh in your compound you can't tell them to go and sleep with it you can offer you can love from a distance okay i'm talking about particular steps you can provide them food without an ugly you know just food for themselves but you can't you can't tell me that you provide food for the for them and their spouses and all that um what i have found uh bark is communication if we are we are to improve communication the way we communicate with people in addiction um i i only find it um working more than even forcing people to go to rehab uh you sit down with them you talk from a point of love from a pinch not from a point of higher moral authority because that is what we do we talk down on them uh you know we have you know we have taken to eight rehabs this is a man we could have used to buy a matat this is like a plot of chamber you don't if you do that you're just pushing them away okay you have to start listening to maybe the love one yes you can see it his life it's her life but it's affecting you this is a family disease if you don't get better then all of you will stay sick they have to your loved one has to get better for everyone in their family to get together so if you approach it from uh maybe the professional assistants or with some love you tell them what you want yeah with that compassion and empathy not simple empathy you please try to understand where they are coming from could they maybe have gone through something that they don't want to tell their family because you find uh for instance a boy who was sodomized in in primary school or in in high school they you don't expect them to come and tell you so sometimes even as families we need to appreciate that some things could have happened to the person in addiction that they might not share okay they we are not aware of uh that's that's when we now start considering something like uh professional counseling yes because they may open up to a therapist as opposed to opening up to you that's a new person and then they are tied down by uh confidentiality closed they will not go revealing all these things okay i'm talking about uh techniques have seen work practically yes there's a lot of very practical and you know that's that's what we need because the practical steps that you can do are what help not the theory now you've also mentioned you've you mentioned this a few times with the family shaming you and people living in society seniors are failures seniors are an addicted person who's just a burden what are some of the misconceptions that people have about drug addiction that push the addicts further into the addiction itself first one is it's uh it's uh choice you're the one who goes to the bar you're the one who buys uh mogoka you're the one who buys weed so you're in control chris you're the one who um you know who buys prescription drugs you are in control you you no one no one and i have heard so many parents saying this one brings the alcohol to you okay in that argument comes again because we have not accepted that this is an addiction is a mental health condition you see there's the normal drinking people have alcohol has been there uh some of these drugs have been there and some people drink and manage their lives properly without any problem and then the addiction with addiction there's lots of control total loss of control and that compulsiveness this person can sell their shoes this person will have to drink in the morning this person will have to drink in the evening yes they are working they're in a suit a good suit but they have to work in the uh to drink in the evening so um telling them that it's a choice um then that's the myth that's a misconception i don't i don't see anyone who would have liked to find themselves at five a.m knocking on a bar with a window to to beg for alcohol i don't see any graduate who have liked to go begging uh a dog peddler for for a show or something or even pass out and the way you said yeah the first to your recovery was you accepting that it was not in your control yes so it wasn't your choice you were driven by the addiction it's the urge and the yearning for alcohol a sip of alcohol that drove you to drinking and buy all these things and they're underlying issues the issues that i want to numb uh are the ones that uh spiraled into into their addiction and when i started working on them for once um i found myself going for a month for the second month for that month uh i was able to maintain a relationship for some time and i found myself now with that conviction that you know i'm not i'm not i'm not i'm not i'm not going to drink again another myth is that uh it's a curse you are cursed your family is cursed it's these uh your family and all so many things and uh and even in africa to saturday they say it's a showy yeah it's another misconception and another one is you they can stop anytime they want you can stop anytime you want and i hear even uh even in church and so many other platforms you can stop anytime you want if i really wanted to stop i would have done it maybe many years ago if it was that easy why would i have um waited until losing my job suffocating losing my job at tc losing my family losing all those things good things why would i have waited i would just have stopped if it is that easy why would somebody with the maybe liver disease wait until they're dead okay why would they continue drinking and it's true because there are people who have drank to the point of even getting the liver disease yes and even with the condition they would seek out some drugs or alcohol so it's it's not within they can't stop it's just something that they have to talk to someone about yeah and get over the addiction progressively as you said now i also want to the youth of kenya if we're being honest kenyas have a very bad habit i witness this personally once a club someone was blacked out and because it is birthday his friends are still chugging alcohol down his throat and pouring water getting him up and this person has passed out the kenyan culture has promoted and glorified alcohol and drug abuse and even the usage of mirad tobacco velo things like that how would you advise someone who's right now maybe dealing with the wrong group of friends or getting into addiction without realizing how can they stop as early as now before they lose 20 years of their lives and their families and dogs and so many other things i don't know whether we have time but um these are diagnosed ds m5 or some criteria we use to maybe i'll it's this one's for alcohol um we can just maybe highlight yes just just to highlight yes if you have tried to stop uh maybe the drug you're using and are successfully if you are taking it in larger amounts and for longer if you have cravings if you have a higher tolerance you're using more than when you started if you're using despite negative consequences even in situations where it's a physically hazardous maybe you have found yourself in such a bar you're blacking out all these are signs that you have a substance use this or what we call sd okay you have most likely addicted and you need to seek help if you have the raw symptoms that shows that most likely you're dependent on this substance that you're using it could be prescription drugs like uh valium and many others benzos and uh it could be alcohol it could be any any drug shows that uh you need help yeah so that is a questionnaire or something um this is what we call ds m5 there are so many uh screening tools that we use like cage and then this mast and then most of these are even online uh these audit audit uh these are tools that you can download you can tell and and if i hope back home you're taking note of that the the one of noted is dsm 5 i will encourage you and your friends sit down take this this test and figure out are you addicted how can you work with that and how can you prevent it before it gets too far so because time is running out you could give us your parting shot and then share your contacts because there's so many people who would like to be able to access you so just give us a parting shot and then you details your social media phone number if available and that's some way that we can find you simply don't die alone if the substance you're using if the drug you're using is affecting any aspect of the life negatively if you have had to borrow money to hide when using that substance if you have had to maybe take a leave a sick leave from work if it's affecting your relationship it's time to get help talk to someone get help yeah um you can reach out to a professional counselor you can reach out to maybe someday recovery recovery quote there's alcoholic anonymous these are meetings you can just walk in that they are all over the country and you can even google them online alcoholic anonymous meetings you can walk in and start connecting with people who can help you yeah we even have a mental mental mental health hot wings where you can even walk into any government hospital and you'll find a mental department and you can ask for counseling services some of them are even offering even in a lobby they're offering free you know counseling services yeah for my contact on social media on tiktok on facebook on twitter i'm chris kim recovery chris kim recovery if you're such that you'll see my content and you can we can you can dm and we can talk my number my mobile phone number it's a 0 7 2 6 6 1 9 0 7 9 that is 0 7 2 6 6 1 9 0 7 9 thank you you can reach out please don't die alone and there's hope i think i epitomized that yeah i was down i was rejected i had given up even on myself but here i am talking about trying spreading the gift of sobriety thank you and that is what i do every day thank you that was very wonderful i love the testimony of his journey of overcoming you saw how he started it was just a fun thing that he did with his friends but it led to 17 years loss in all this addiction and so many things that could have gone different that what baby blight sided under but overcome by the addiction so i'm just being told time is running out but thank you so much for tuning in i hope that you seek the help that you need and you get help for family members friends and anyone thank you once again chris bus thank you for the entire team team or rose the technical team the camera operators thank you for helping this show run smoothly we will have a repeat of this show tomorrow between 1 and 2 p.m and it should also air on our youtube page so stay tuned for that so you can all find me on social media actually blessing and that's it for today i hope you've gotten something from this conversation and if you haven't gotten anything please do not die alone that's the only thing i can tell you that's it thank you stay tuned y254 tv