With the holidays right around the corner, nothing says giving, light giving, to oneself. And if it's a gaming upgrade, all the better. Today, Anthony reviews the MSI GT70 Dominator Pro Gaming Laptop, and then gives us a look into the KADZILLO program, which gives you an in-depth look into your system. And later, we reveal the winners of the $100,000 sponsorship powered by freedom. I'm your host Tiffany, and you're watching Impulse. Thanks for the introduction. Today we're going to be talking about the MSI Dominator Pro Laptop. It's actually a really nice beefy laptop. Anytime that we do something out of a benchmark or kind of showing off to you what a product can do, we're going to try to do it in the most interesting way possible. I could just throw numbers at your face, but that's not really going to mean anything to most of you. So I found a really cool tool called Katzilla. 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And remember, you're still eligible to win first prize in a future impulse episode. And now back to Anthony. I love this show. I really do. Okay. So one of the things that I wanted to talk to you about is a previous test that I had done on this channel. I had previously done Minecraft and it wasn't necessarily the most optimized test that I possibly could have done. I was trying to make it fun and to be honest, I kind of failed. I also failed to do my job as a reviewer and double and triple check myself on a lot of things. For instance, the drivers weren't up to date and also the- I wasn't using the CPU to the fullest extent or even the graphics card because it was on power saver mode. So that was a fail on my part. Also, I failed to give you the detailed information. One of the things I'm excited about is the fact that Catzilla allows us to show you exactly how this laptop performs in a lot of different ways. 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Thanks. So, yeah, hopefully this is not very many slides, so the average length of time per slide may be higher than normal. Let's see how we go. So the basic idea is we're interested in the spread of beliefs. These could be any type of belief, but we are focusing on discrete beliefs, let's say, about questions of facts. So the beliefs you're allowed to have, really, in our model, essentially, you believe that something is true or it's false, or maybe you don't know. You could imagine many more ways of doing it. You could have probabilities as beliefs, all sorts of things, but for now we're looking at this discrete kind of model. I'll explain a little bit about where it comes from. So the obvious questions are any kind of diffusion model. When do you get, you know, you basically got three states of a node, three colors, if you think about it, when do you converge to some sort of unanimity as the diffusion process runs sufficiently long? And in a question like this, it's not enough to be unanimous. Ideally, you would, in fact, unanimously have the correct answer, or at least a strong majority of people would be getting the correct answer. And then a more general question is which models are going to explain the data? There's a huge number of models in the general area, and still an interesting question to me as to how you can differentiate between them based on experimental data. We've only started a little bit here. So I'll give you an idea of what we've done. Where it came from is that the topic of belief revision is very, very well known. In philosophy, logic, computer science, people doing databases and artificial intelligence, it's important to know what do you do when you have a consistent world view.  And you then have to revise that in some way by throwing out something. And there are axiomatic methods for doing this from the 1980s, which have been well studied for individuals, how you would do that. And then the question that Patrick and some logician co-authors studied was what do you do when everyone is connected in some kind of social network and they can influence the beliefs of others in some sense? So they're basically their model. There are two different types of ways of changing beliefs. You can be convinced that P is true if there's sufficient evidence for it among your neighbors directly, or if you happen to believe not P before that and you don't have enough evidence to convince you of P being true, you can become undecided. There are various clear rules as to how you should do that. And originally, we were interested in this model and studying it. We did some simulations and we thought maybe we could do something analytically if we dreamed a bit more. It was quite a difficult looking model. Then we decided we really should actually see whether it has any relevance whatsoever to the problem that we're looking at. So we decided to try a lab experiment. That's really what this is about. And as Valerie came in, being the expert on the experimental behavioral side, so the basic picture is that we've got our computers in the lab and they're all linked up according to a topology that we choose and we chose two very different ones. One was a complete graph and one was a directed thing with very different node degrees, in-degrees and out-degrees. And of course, the subjects, the participants don't know what network they're connected to. They just know that they have some neighbors somewhere in the room, but they don't know which is which. And we gave them five questions one at a time. And for each question, each one had an objectively correct answer and they were allowed to choose one of three options. And it was to make it, we made it a multiple choice. One of the answers was the correct answer, one was some wrong answer and the third was don't know. And at each or at first, everyone answers. Then when they're all done, you get some feedback about your neighbors and you decide to update what you can. You have the opportunity to update. And they had ten iterations of each question. So the total number, we did this in several different sittings because of the size of the room, but we ended up with something over 50 participants, five questions, ten iterations, each one. So there's a reasonable amount of data out there. You could always like more. So what are some of the issues? There's a lot of actual tricks involving experimentation, which I had no clue about to start with. The first thing is, of course, you have to have the right facility and you've got to be able to recruit people from a pool. And that was all taken care of by the fact that we have this nice behavioral science lab in the business school that Valerie and other people are running. You have to get people to take the quest, the task seriously. I mean, they'd undergraduate pool, they come in, you're paying them of the order of $20 for an hour's work. It's very tempting probably for them just to look at their phone all the time and just keep pressing something like that. So we had to try to induce them to reveal their beliefs in some way. We did that by giving you more money if you got the correct answer. And to make sure you paid attention all the time, we paid them on a randomly chosen iteration rather than just the last one, in which case they fall asleep for nine iterations and then take it seriously. In order to do that, you've got to be a bit careful. You also don't want them just to put don't know every time because it's too hard to think about. So we tried to incentivize it so that you get more for being correct. You're expected payoff, if you put don't know, is better than randomly guessing the other answers, but it's still not nearly as good as thinking about the answer. So who knows whether the utility functions of the participants were sufficiently stimulated by those payments, but that's all we could do really. And that's a big problem in all these experiments. Here's an idea of the questions. There's a set of three questions in psychology called the cognitive reflection test of Frederick. And of course, to audience like this, they all look pretty easy, but apparently they're quite hard. So that was the first one, five machines, five minutes, five widgets, how long does it take 100 machines to make 100 widgets? And we just said is it more or less than 50? That was what you had to choose. This is a slightly more complicated to want to state. It's not that hard. If I'd had a picture, it would have been easier. You have four cars. This is a very old one. It's been used in like hundreds of papers because it's considered to be very difficult. Something like a quarter of the population can get this right given a reasonable length of time to think about. It's because conditional logic of implication seems to be difficult for a lot of people. So you've got four cars. You have a logical proposition that you claimed you have to test whether it's true or false and which cars you need to turn over. So those are the two of the questions. These are what we call, I suppose, the analytical questions. We also had three factual questions. One of them was this one. Sort of supposed to be aimed to some extent at the target audience a little bit. Here's one of these urban myth type of things which we thought we'd put in there. People might have heard of it. And this one, of course, was designed to be impossible to do. So we tried to induce people without telling them directly to think a bit about what other people might know. At least that was our idea. It was hopefully that subjects would think about the beliefs of others and realize that in this case it would be ridiculous for anyone to even make a guess. For this last one, because it was so ridiculous, we gave the answer privately to a couple of people and we told all the rest of them that we have given it. We have given it to them privately. So we expect probably some different behavior on these different questions. So just as a note, this Wason test turned out to be difficult. So even though they are all past university entrance somehow, they still found it difficult. They had something like two minutes to answer the first time and then they had 30 seconds each iteration to update. Which now that we have seen, well not many other papers in the area, but it actually seems reasonably generous that amount of time. But more than, you'll see the graphs in a minute. Anyway, it was consistent with the psychology literature that it was a hard one. We thought this fast and furious question most likely you either know it or you don't and you would know that you didn't know it. And you would guess very strongly that other people in the room, since they all look a bit like you, some of them would know it. That was our belief, but we weren't sure. And we made this impossible question, right, as we said. So what are the key findings? First one, crowds not always wise, right? So not a surprise probably, but correct information was not always aggregated by the group, even in ten iterations. I'll show you what I mean by that. I think one of the key things that is interesting is that there are very different, there seem to be quite different behavior between different types of questions. I'm not going to present very many graphs and things here. We have a preprint that we're almost finished with vast amounts of analysis in there and there's still a lot more that could be done. But seems to be a bit of a difference between these analytical ones where you can work it out yourself without any influence from anybody in principle and factual type questions where you know that you have no idea possibly about this piece of information. And I guess one of the findings we have is that anyone, if you're trying to model this, the fusion of beliefs, you probably need to take that into account, the type of question you're talking about. There's a clear asymmetry between don't know and the other answers. Now one speculation we have is that if you forced people to choose one or the other and didn't allow the don't know, you would get probably worse results in terms of aggregation of the right result. But we haven't yet done that control experiment so we need a bit more money before we can do that one. But even so in the complete model we have, we were forcing people to choose between three and we're allowing them the don't know. There's a clear asymmetry between them. It's not that hard to guess why that is but I'll show you in a minute. And we found that there seem to be three groups of subjects. I don't think we expected this. So there is, we looked at all the times where people changed their belief, their answer. And there seem to be people who require almost no influence from anyone in order to change. Some who essentially never change until everyone is against them. And those that seem to adopt this majority but it's kind of a clear distinct groups of subjects. And of course any social science experiment we found that rationality was violated. If you think about that last question you know that some people have been given the answer and you're pretty sure that everyone else knows they haven't been given the answer. Plus it's essentially impossible to guess. They should all write put don't know until they get the signal from one of their neighbors of the correct and then they should just copy that. But of course they didn't. Some people put the wrong answer down right from the start. So you get some sort of behavior like that. Here's the correctness. So this gives you an idea of what we mean. The second question. So that the rows are the particular four different time experiments we had on different days. And these are the questions. The five questions. And you can see this Waston test. It was below 50% or no more than 50% on the first iteration. And here it went it was worse at the end than it was at the beginning. So that's you know clearly not very wise crowd there. And here when the complete graph they just immediately went realize that a large majority of people had the wrong that had one answer and they just went with that. Right. There was no reason to change which is a little disturbing. This is the one with the widgets question. Make this many in this five and five minutes with five workers etc. And it's a bit variable but at least overall they well here was a bit strange. Overall that least the majority opinion was basically right by the end. And here of course much better is to expect this is the one with the black and white dots. All they had to do was wait. Right. They should be able to get the right answer. This great wall of China thing is a little bit confusing. Sort of in between hard to know exactly what was going on there yet. This I think is gives you a better idea as what's going on. This is the answer type frequency. So black means you didn't answer at all for whatever reason fell asleep. Red means you got it right. These are the five different questions aggregated over the four different experiments. Red means you got it right. Greeners don't know and blue is wrong. And you can see the way something a lot of people were wrong. But you can also see not that many people were undecided there. That was the thing that surprised surprising in a way but not you know since it's an analytical question you know that you can do it. It's just amazing how few people could do it. And here there's a lot more people waiting saying don't know this that's the complete the right behavior you would think and here as well. You'd expect a lot of people just to sit there and wait until they get the correct signal from those who do know. So there's a bit of a difference there. The don't know is very asymmetric. So this is the empirical cumulative distribution function. So here is the fraction of people of neighbors who were your color. And here is the probability of switching to that color. And so when you're red some people will switch to red with not very many neighbors who are red. And then there's a whole hunk of fair amount of them who jump around the point where 50 percent of their neighbors are red. And then there's some who hold out to here. Green is similar but the key thing is the yellow is very different because in order to become undecided it's not necessary that you have a lot of undecided neighbors. You just have to have conflicting evidence I would imagine right from different sides. So you're more likely to and here there's a lot of people who are undecided early on and it continued like that. Well that's an interesting feature. There's not we couldn't find very much. There's a huge literature of course in social network diffusion stuff but in this particular area we couldn't find much. We just found this one like last week I think after we've done all this stuff. It's quite similar in some ways. They have a they had three questions here from the cognitive reflection tests but they allowed free-form answers. They didn't have multiple choice answers which and this is the correctness. This is how many of them these are the the ranges over the different experiments. So and they use different topologies. So here they had several different networks. And you can see here the question one which probably it was one of those I can't remember the the one we had with the widgets. I don't know whether it was the first second or third and but it's one of their three. They have this set up that this you can see here that as the time they only had five trials and instead of ten five iterations each time but you can see that there's some sort of aggregation of information going on there. But it was a little bit weird I thought what they were doing because they had a free-form answer and so it's quite possible that there's the it's quite possible that most people were wrong but they all had different wrong answers and so the correct answer was the plurality winner. It's the most likely one and so that would get people copying it possibly just almost out by luck I'm not quite sure. So there's a few things to look at there but that is actually the most similar thing to our work that we've seen. Future work let me just go to just mention a couple of things we haven't investigated yet anything to do with the subjects the particular people. Each of them we can go through and see that some of them will have changed more often than others we can try to in terms of these basic threshold models where you switch you're based on if you get more than say 60% of people saying green then you turn green right and that 60% number is property of you possibly of the type of question that you have. We could do that kind of we could get bounds from the observed data we might be able to do some kind of statistical analysis. I think there's not enough data to really get into it in as much detail as we would like and any model in fact you try and fit and there's always going to be an issue there. However we did find that as far as we can work out our results are not inconsistent with the original model that we started with and therefore at least it's worth studying that so we reassured ourselves a bit on that. We haven't investigated the role of the topology in detail we only had two very different ones and we haven't really investigated in the case where the graph is very different so you've got some nodes with very high and very low degree you could see whether there's a difference there etc we've got all the data we could dig into all of this if we felt like it haven't got the yet. So I've got a question for the audience is can we do it more cheaply because you know these undergraduates are expensive I don't know you know it's it's our budget is in the sort of low thousands all right very low and so you don't get very many data points that way and I think I'll leave it at that because any questions of anything detailed you asked threatened to Valerie and the group around me who are guessing and they're all saying something different very quickly up to two or three iterations I think it was one person who asked me to go into it you didn't always get it right so just get everybody's fake notes on the other one so one thing you can look at is to what extent people pay more attention to if you're sitting up for 10 periods there might be some people who are switching back and forth they see my neighbors switch and I shouldn't really trust them I realize they don't really know the answer right so maybe I pay more attention if I'm sitting there and several of my neighbors are blinking on on and off and the other ones are just staying at the same answer then maybe I trust the ones who don't know yeah we didn't we didn't tell them which neighbor was doing what we just said you have seven neighbors three of them said this four two of them said that and two of them aren't decided and they can't see the series of then it starts to get really I mean interesting but yeah then you could start thinking about letting them choose their own network who they follow and stuff like that but no here we forced them to they didn't know anything other than they're in a room with a whole lot of people that look like them and they're connected to some of them presumably they could have worked out um in the complete graph when it said you know you have 29 neighbors or they probably could work out that's the whole room apart from that strategic behavior we haven't looked for it I don't think we would like to find it because I mean you have to have very strange you don't know who the people are that you are annoying by doing that and you're going to potentially lose money because you're getting paid for even random iterations you don't know whether that's the one thing so I mean I find it hard to believe there would be a big problem but I suppose we could look for it just sorry there is a recent check on that you could look for people who are told what the correct number of white spots and black spots wasn't seen but make sure that they did that number that would be a good start should we just follow up on that yeah so that there can be done yeah you can check all of that yeah just just want to just going back to this one thing I forgot to say here one of the fun that their big picture finding here was that the group gets smarter but the individuals don't get any smarter because they're not surprising because they only gave them 15 seconds for each iteration and the whole experiment was an hour but the two competing theories is that one is that by getting feedback from your neighbors saying your answer might be wrong it stimulates you to think better and the other one is that it just stimulates you to copy them and their finding was that they're pretty sure that it's it's mostly due to copying which is not surprising and you don't really have enough time to think about it again so that's good though because then it doesn't really matter what order you ask the questions and it seems so there there's always potentially problematic issues like that seem to go away least we're fairly happy that there's a lot of major problem in this case where they have the three or four answers were that were their names given the answers or were they just given the same statistics that you would because if you're given an answer you can check it right it says yeah I have to check I mean like all of these papers there's like a seven page glitzy thing and 30 page appendix and you dive you dive into that and you click on there spreadsheet and you see that yeah that actually the data they make available there's some missing data that they really should have kept if you want to reproduce the experiment properly they didn't put that in there but overall it's not bad but yeah I can't remember whether they did that I suspect they just said they showed all the answers they would have to show the answers otherwise it would be hard to heard on this one thing yeah but you they only gave them much less time than we did I mean 15 seconds is quite hard to check on some of those problems right but you're you're right yeah there's a lot more information getting sent back in that group so the six you can imagine if you felt marked if you're a risk neutral and you think you're more likely to be right than wrong yeah then six isn't really enough to know push it towards no answer right so you might want it might be interesting to see whether you get a lot more undecided yes I mean there's just so many knobs you can twiddle on this machine right so we can do the whole thing again with totally different qualities or as you say change that I mean you could it'll be really nice if you can get each subject and have the work out somehow the utility or at least you know like some pre-test and pay them in such a way to incentivize them to do that but yeah that would be interesting of course if you put it too high it's no one's going to bother answering yeah very hard to work out where to put that number yeah well it's not clear where whether it was in the middle it's just that a randomly chosen iteration so the idea was we wanted them to say for all you know this is the last iteration the counts so make it count and do whatever you think is going to give you the best payoff that's what we're hoping they would do I mean who knows how many people do that you want to be right at the end why look at any of the other rounds except the night one I mean if you're looking at other people you can't trust what other people are doing they could all be just waiting till the last yeah well I think from the point of view of good serving energy and we should just not do anything until the last iteration that was what we thought would happen if we didn't do that it's certainly true that whatever you do in terms of the payoff scheme can potentially influence the behavior quite a bit so it makes it so tricky I'm hoping that it will be nice to be able to do this on a much larger scale in some way or you suggested one thing possibility but yeah real life scale internet experiments I'm not sure it was like the Hager beliefs I mean it's really hard to say anything about them in the end it's observation because nobody gets to talk to anyone else about the beliefs and convince each other or anything it's just they're observing their answers so even the participants are not necessarily thinking that hard about so the reason we chose 10 was purely just for practical purposes right if we keep them longer too long and we have to pay them more these guys only use five iterations in their experiment it seemed to be reasonably a reasonable number but yeah I think you it could be I mean I don't know you look at these things these are just the aggregate we're not looking at each individual these are just the statistics of the whole group so question some of those questions you can see maybe hadn't completely converged although I'd be surprised if it looked much different if we ran it for 10 more then you've got the whole boredom issue as well taking people taking people to take it seriously if you do too many iterations I'm just gonna do this yeah well it's disengaging time for further thought and I'm saying it's a possibility that if you run waste not for other periods yeah so why is it this stubborn minority of people who persist in this this this strange action not yeah yeah now I don't know what this is going to get applied to if anything eventually right so who knows how whether 100 iterations or 10 is more realistic in terms of you know whatever potential application you may have I don't know but yeah it'll be nice to do them but again it's a resource issue


Hello and welcome to the session. The question says evaluate the following definite integral and we have integral pox cube minus 5x square plus 6x plus 9 dx from 1 to 2. So first let us learn the second fundamental theorem of integral calculus. According to the theorem F is a continuous function defined on closed interval a to b then integral fx dx from a to b that is the lower limit of integration is a upper limit is b and this is equal to fb minus fa where f is the entire derivative small f. So with the help of this theorem we are going to evaluate the given definite integral. So this is our key idea. Now let's start with the solution. We have to evaluate the integral from 1 to 2 4x cube minus 5x square plus 6x plus 9 into dx from 1 to 2. So first let us find the value of integral 4x cube minus 5x square plus 6x plus 9 into dx this can be written as integral 4x cube into dx minus integral 5x square into dx plus integral 6x into dx plus integral 9 into dx which is further equal to 4 integral x cube into dx taking the constant outside the integral sign 5 integral x square into dx plus 6 integral x into dx plus 9 integral 1 into dx this is further equal to 4 into integral x cube dx is x raised to the power 4 upon 4 minus 5 into x cube upon 3 plus 6x square upon 2 plus 9x which on further simplifying can be written as x raised to the power 4 minus 5x cube plus 3x square plus 9x. Sorry here we have to write 3 now we have to calculate this integral that is from 1 to 2 4x cube minus 5x square plus 6x plus 9 into dx. So this can be written as the value of the integral as x raised to the power 4 minus 5 upon 3x cube plus 3x square plus 9x from 1 to 2 this is equal to x raised to the power 4 from 1 to 2 minus 5 upon 3x cube taking the constant outside we have 1 to 2 plus 3x square from 1 to 2 plus 9 to x from 1 to 2. So this is further equal to first let us put the upper limit we have 2 raised to the power 4 minus 1 raised to the power 4 and we have minus 5 upon 3 2 cube minus 1 cube plus 3 2 square minus 1 square plus 9 minus 1 this is further equal to 2 raised to the power 4 is 16 minus 1 minus 5 by 3 8 minus 1 plus 3 4 minus 1 plus 9 into 1 this is equal to 15 minus on simplifying this we have 35 upon 3 plus on simplifying this we have 9 plus 9 and this is further equal to 33 minus 35 upon 3 which is further equal to 99 minus 35 upon 3 and this is equal to 64 upon 3 thus on evaluating the given definite integral its value is 64 upon 3. So this completes the session my and take care.


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of our watch on to That's it by Nelson If you've seen this on YouTube you're gonna see a very cut-up version if you'd like to see a full-on cut version though You can have it a patron up a little bit common And if you haven't seen the first two parts, please go check those out on YouTube and at the end of this part We will do a review and talk about the film right So let's just get into the song Rick Okay, girl He warned him. Yeah, no he warned him.   I ain't that differently. It's the Scooby-Doo van. Yeah. Sir, that's the car. You gonna give it to the police?  He looks like one of the guys I was in Cheers. In Cheers? Yeah. I'll be proud of myself. The norm? The most ash? Yeah. I'm helping you to get rid of this family. If you tell me to get rid of it, I'll give you that important guy, 200 kilos of rice. I've got an address for you. There's a powder in the 90s. Take it and put it in the Karpangamal mess, and tell our men to take care of it. Don't let anyone know, okay? Okay, sir. Are you going to work as a cop today? Pum. Pum. Pum. Pum. Pum. Pum. Pum. Pum. Pum. Pum. Pum. I'm going to get rid of that girl's family and get out of here. When are you coming? I'll be here in a minute. Tons of green in this film. Karpangamal mess. They'll give you a green bag. Listen carefully. A green bag. Take it and give it to me. Leave me alone. Okay, sir. It's time. We can get out of here as soon as possible. Get out of here! Sir, where are the glasses? He just sat on his bench. I feel like they did. I feel like they did. I was not expecting that, brother. Not at all. Where are you going? You're making a mistake. If you make a mistake, Danana will tell you the truth. That's what I'm telling you. Sir, you said that you'll leave him alone. Sir, sir. I'm telling you, sir. Sir, give it to me. Give it to me. If you see it, you'll understand. Wait, wait. Wait, wait. I'll show you, sir. I'm telling you, sir. Sir, look at the file, sir. Sir, this is my file, sir. If you try to save me, I'll... Wait, wait. You did something without knowing the future, sir. Please forgive me, sir. Yeah, I knew that was coming. Did you do everything? Kokila, what you said is... That's another breaking bad connection. Yeah. The lung cancer. What did you do? Are you going to finish him off? Shobik. Mm-hmm. Lock the door. Did not see that coming. She likes to sleep after the massage. Great twist. Accused. No, sir. Accused three people. Two people outside. One dead. What happened? Sir, 90 kilos of cocaine was caught, sir. My wife and her friends were threatened in that anger, sir. That was a shootout, sir. Sorry, sir. I didn't do anything.  That's why, sir. You don't believe me. Tick tops. Tick tops. Tick tops. Tick tops. Tick tops. Tick tops. Tick tops. This is the same guy who sang the uh... in the his picture. Kokila, even the bag you said turned this way extraordinary. Are you okay with that? I got scared. Where's your man?NYA just Amy Anderson. Every turn this guy is so upset. Hello, Officer. I have a proper for you. What? Yeah, yeah, I was expecting more. Dad, I don't know if he will give me the money he gave me last time. If I do this, then it will be like this. It's not right to say, it's the old balance. Don't just tell me to get the money. You have to give me the money correctly.  Are you selling it in a bad way?  How much should I give you? The old balance photo. Do you need anything? I'll have a glass of milk and a cup of coffee. Okay, bye. You made me laugh so much. In terms of films though, they're pretty equal in terms of how well they're made. Doctors just made me laugh even more. But this one might be my second favorite. And Jailer, and I loved Jailer. I did too. But that would probably be third in the list. All three of them are great for their own reasons. I'd watch them all again. Yeah, Doctor is a slight push above them, but they're all just uniformly wonderful. Yeah, I enjoyed them all. He's such a unique director, and anything he comes out with now, I'm going to be so excited for. Me too. Especially since we know what he's coming out with, I think he's doing one with... What a joy. The nush that he's doing? Or is that Ani? I mean, Lukash that's doing one with... Yeah. Oh, he's doing another one with SK, and then he's doing one with the nush. I can't wait. I hope they're coming out next year. I'm so thankful we're getting to know him right at the start of what he's doing, because my goodness. How old is he? He's 40? Yeah, I bet he's probably around 40. Got a lot of years. God bless him. Good health. He's so... He's one of my favorite directors now, I think. Me too. Because of his unique style. He obviously loves Breaking Bad, and I think that if there was another reference in this, outside of maybe the laundry scene, and then the music, I feel like it was the big reference. Right, and the lung cancer. And the lung cancer. Let us know if there's another one that we missed. And really, the whole idea of our protagonist being a good person who does bad things because they want to help their family. Yeah, exactly. But his style is so good. So damn good. Fun. Oh, man. I love his use of editing and lighting and framing comedy. Absolutely. We talk about it all the time. Editing. Editing. But the fact that he does it in such a good... Because there's directors that... Every director obviously has their own style. He might even have an on-your-og style in terms of his filming. Like the stories he likes to tell and how gritty and stuff like that. But his style is a lot funnier. Way quirkier. Way quirkier than on-your-ogs. Obviously, it does have some of his. I feel like he can't tell a story without just wanting to make it a fun and joy. But even though it's a dark story, he wants to bring laughter and humor to it. Yeah, and I was thinking about... So for example, if you've seen Goodfellas, Goodfellas has a lot of humor in it. And it's dark humor, but it doesn't have the weirdness. He has... We said this at the outset because we saw this in both Jailer but especially in Doctor. He has a genius capability of taking serious storytelling that is impactful and makes you care about the characters with really serious subject matter, but making it as absurd and ridiculous as anything... We're talking... I keep mentioning these films over and over again. It's like taking Goodfellas and throwing in Napoleon Dynamite and it working. Yeah. It's unbelievable. It's very strange how he makes it all work that way. I can't think of another director who does that. Yeah, especially with the three that we... We've seen Beast. We've seen 30 Minutes of Beast. It was terrible. Yeah, we really disliked it in the past. It's why we're so shocked. Doctor and this. I'm like, I'm so confused by Beast. Yeah. But with those three in Jailer and Doctor and this one... He's a brilliant director. He's a great team. Shout out to everybody on the lighting team. Oh, my stars. The cinematographer is... Civicomar Vigian. And I don't know who your lighting team is as well.  Ani, a brilliant score. This one, I might have even liked... Very similar to a score in Doctor, but different. I love this one just as much. Yeah, the score is so forefront that it is, again, like in the other ones. I think I said this, that the score is another character in the film. Editor Nimrol and Arm Nimrol. Shout out to all of you. The lighting crew. It's... He makes his framing, his score, his lighting, all characters in the film. Supporting characters, but characters nonetheless and makes it so enjoyable just to see that shot. Yeah. And then there's comedy brought in with it. And again, uniformly great casting. We've never seen a weak actor in his films. Let's talk about the Nyan thought. Because we actually have... Beautiful. People have been begging us to get to her because she is called, I believe, the Lady Superstar. Yeah, I can see why. And I think one of the only things we've seen is her supporting role in Jawan, which is obviously a Hindi film. Yeah. Not her Dhamal, which is obviously what she's... The industry she's... Pebbles? The producer in Pebbles. Okay. It's gonna say what? Shout out to you for that. Yeah, being connected to that. I'm looking to make sure this is that one. Right. Because I didn't know if we'd seen her like maybe a supporting role. Right. In something Maya we haven't seen, which I know is like a horrorish style, which would be cool. Lady Tiger, no. I don't... I don't recognize anything either. But we said it while we were watching it that she's very clearly a really, really good actress.  Yeah. I'm excited to see more of her work. And that's what I've actually heard. Like she's called Lady Superstar, but she's actually known for her acting. So she's known for her. And she did, I think, a good job in Jawan. She's obviously not the issues with Jawan, but she definitely didn't have a chance to shine in Jawan for sure. No, no, not like in this. I really believe she was carrying the weight of the world on her. She's 38. Everything was justified. I just, yeah, loved her. She did a phenomenal, phenomenal job. I believed her in the emotional moments. I believed her when she turned to switch and became Heisenberg-esque, right? And it's an ensemble thing as well, as much as she's definitely the lead and is the primary, you know, our protagonist. Such a great ensemble. Great cast, always. And who is? I want to give a shout out to him by name, our guy that we love, who was in Doctor. I want to remember his name. I know we're going to see a lot more of him, and he is an exceptionally talented, funny guy. I don't think he has an IMDb photo. I'm trying to remember the character name.  Anyway, we want to get accustomed to his name because now that we've seen him the few times we have, he's delightful. Do you remember his name in Doctor at all? No. I might if I saw the name. I wish there was a thumbnail to see it. You know what might work is just looking up cast of the film on Google. There may be an image for him there, not on IMDb. I'm going to get the character names. Yeah, Melvin and Alvin. No, anyway. I'm going to have a... He wasn't going to... Take a quick look while you're doing that. Let's see. Doctor cast. Yeah, I don't know what his name is, but yeah, he... Oh, got him. What's his name? Redden Kingsley. Redden. R-E-D-I-N. Yeah, Redden Kingsley. He played Bugatt in Doctor, I guess. Has he been... He was in Beast, apparently. Maybe he wasn't in... Not a surprise. Apparently, he's also... He's a comedian. That's no shock at all. He has the ability like... And he's also a dancer. Really? Yeah. He has the ability to... The way he just shapes his face, he doesn't even have to say anything, and I'm just like... He's worked a lot with Nelson, apparently. There was a film that they did together that was shelved back in 2016. What? Yeah.  He has risen to fame with these two films. Wonderful. Yeah, so glad. Redden Kingsley. Nelson should put him in a lead in one of his films. Yeah. It will not surprise me to see him appear in a ton more things, because he's just a really, really good guy. Good cast. The sisters. Yogi Babu. All the villains. Now, on top of just being a very funny film, it was actually just a very good crime thriller. It was. Because he caught me off guard at multiple times. All the twists. The twists, the turns. The triple double cross. Yeah. It kept keeping me on my toes and not knowing where it was going. I love the sequence where her sister keeps coming out. She needs more water. She needs. They come in. You can tell that in some of those moments that they didn't have the money to probably do probably what Nelson wanted to, that he was able to do in Jailer and in the murders. Yeah. Yeah. I say it all the time. It takes money. It takes a lot of money to make it look good.  I saw the guy who did the makeup. He's done a ton of makeup. He did his makeup as the Joker and he was on the crew doing the makeup on The Departed. I saw a clip of him talking about how they did the DiCaprio sequence and how difficult it was. This is a Scorsese film. The difficulties. It took them 10 hours to do that shot and they had to do a lot of stuff that was CGI because of the amount of money and also safety for a headshot. It's really, really hard to pull off a good headshot because you've got so much happening that could injure the actor. And then if you add the CGI you better have a lot of money to spend to make it look believable. I'm sure Nelson probably would have loved to have her have the hammer and hit it on his head and stick it right in there and it's blown out. I'm sure he would have loved that but I'm sure being his first film. It worked. He used what he had and made it work. That's why he pulled away a lot. I love the shot after they've killed the first guy and they called the second guy in and the dead guy is leading up against the wall in the corner. Just fantastic. Just a fantastic film. It's always enjoyable when obviously you just watch a good film but when it's on a watch along because we've had it many times where we watch a watch along and we're just sitting there. It's not fun for us, not fun for you. Anybody. And his films are very, very fun. They are great watch along films. I'm so confused by Beast. While we were watching this and we're back on mine, I was like I know our impressions weren't wrong but do I need to revisit that one? Man, that was painful. Everybody that I've talked to is like no, it was... Apparently a lot of people said not only did maybe he get Star Trek by VJ but also Sun who's the producer of it, the company gave him like a time constraint. Also some stuff had to be rushed. You need to be done because you only have VJ for this long. I don't know. There's a way to solve it. We'd love to talk with you. We'd love to talk with you. I think people said he has talked about why it failed and why it's not happy with it and all that kind of stuff. I doubt he's going to make that because he worked with Roshikant. Sure did. I don't think he'll make that mistake again because being the great filmmaker is, I think he can see the differences. Oh, I bet he can. I would love to talk to him. Really, really, really would love to. It could be a super interesting conversation. Whenever we finish people's filmography, people think we have an interview coming up. I wouldn't love if I had an interview coming up. I do not. If anybody knows Nelson, please give me contact. I would love to talk with him. No, that is not what is coming up sadly. I wish it was. I would say it's his next film. He doesn't have another one. Which is very sad actually to know that we don't have another one. But I'm happy to see he's got stuff in the hopper that's coming. With SK again. I can't wait. That'd be great. We do need to see more of her because I love her work in this. Let us know what the next film of hers should be. I hope you enjoyed our Watch Along. Obviously if you saw this on YouTube you saw a very cut up version. If you'd like to see the full uncut version without any interruptions, you can head over to Patreon. I'll put the link in the pinned comment for you to go check that out. On the next Watch Along!


This is why the narcissist needs your reaction. The narcissist needs you to do, feel or think something in response to something they are saying or doing or to a situation or event. They need your feedback. They need your validation because it gives them a sense of control of themselves. They naturally feel like they are lacking control of themselves, like they are lacking the power to direct or manage their own feelings and behavior.  But it's a delusion. They are lying to themselves because you can do, feel or think whatever you want and whenever you choose to, especially when you're not around them. So they have to try to predict what you're going to do in reaction to what they're saying or doing to you, which is a catch 22. It's a difficult circumstance from which there is no escape because of mutually conflicting and dependent conditions because they're always the common denominator. They're always present. So all they're ever going to get is a reflection of themselves or whatever they think or deem to be true because your thoughts, feelings and behavior are always going to be in reaction to whatever they're saying or doing. But if they were not present, your behavior would be very different. So they never actually receive an authentic version of you. They only get a reflection of themselves or of who they are being, which is why it isn't long until they end up devaluing you and hating you because they actually hate themselves, which is why they're constantly seeking this distraction outside of themselves. And it's not by connecting to your authentic self. It's by turning you into whatever they need you to be in that moment so that they can feel better. So they're living a lie, a delusion, a fantasy. They detach from reality. But sadly, none of them will ever come to this conclusion. And instead, they will blame you for their own thoughts, feelings and behavior. When the truth is that they lack discipline and self-control, they lack a sense of self and an innocent value because if they had an identity and even a tiny amount of self-worth, they wouldn't be trying to get anything from you. They would be validating themselves, but they can't because they're very insecure. They're not confident. They're very uncertain and anxious about themselves, which is why that is exactly how you will feel after an interaction or engagement with them because they will project their emotional state onto you. They're very suffocating and overbearing. They give you no space or room to be your authentic self. So the only thing you can do is try to protect yourself by becoming defensive because as an authentic person, yourself is all that you have. You don't have anything else to give. So all you can do is reflect back to them whatever they think or feel or however they're behaving in that moment. But because they're very insecure and they lack emotional intelligence, many of them will actually detach these characteristics from themselves and assign them to you and hold you responsible for it because they're completely delusional. They're out of touch with reality. Some of them may know that it's them and not you, but they're too far gone to care because they're so emotionally unstable. They have no control over themselves and that is why they have to control you. A person who has discipline and self-control feels no need to control anyone unless there is a serious or imminent threat. But anything could be a threat to a narcissist because they're very insecure. So they read too much into things. They believe that an action remark or situation has particular importance or meaning often when this is not even true. They find infer or attribute some additional meaning or different interpretation based on what is presented and you will know that this is true because this is what they will often try to project onto you. They will try to get you to read into things because something is constantly overpowering their minds. They have this inner voice or inner critic and they can't control it.  Something is always on their minds which is why they always have to provoke you. They always need your reaction just so they can feel like they're okay, so they can feel comfortable and sane when again this is just another lie that they're telling themselves. They're living in delusion. They're holding false beliefs and judgments about external reality despite undeniable evidence to the contrary because they have a mental condition which is why it seems like they always misunderstand you. You're never on the same page. They can never have an intelligent conversation with you and they already know it. Many of them already know that they lack the capacity for logic, understanding, self-awareness, learning, emotional knowledge, reasoning, planning, creativity and problem solving which is why they tend to assume rather than ask and study or researching. They just make it up as they go along. They invent stories without thinking about how they will end. They improvise continuously without formal guidelines, structure or rules and it's because they lack intelligence. They lack the ability to acquire and apply knowledge and skills which is why they're so chaotic where they seem to be in a state of complete confusion and disorder even though at times it may be deliberate but either way it's because they want to dumb you down. They want to make you simple and less complicated because they're unable to understand anyone else's concepts but their own. Some of them may understand but they just don't care. They have no interest or emotional investment in the topic or subject but they feel powerful and important when they can get you to react and because they're so power hungry they can spend hours winding you up and getting you to explain basic simple concepts because all they're concerned with is your reaction but a lot of them really don't understand or even hear what you're saying. All they know is that they feel insecure and that your reaction can make them feel better so they're going to fight tooth and nail until they get that from you but they do know that something is seriously wrong with them which is why they're covert. It's why they work undercover and conceal what they do it's why they hide behind a mask it's why they act in secret because they already know that what they're doing is wrong but they love having covert control over you because when they can get you to react to make them feel like they're in control of themselves they won't see you as a separate individual with your own needs once in feelings and instead they will treat you as an extension of themselves to achieve their desired result they will control your appearance interest ambitions that other activities so that they align with the image that they are trying to project they won't allow your authentic experiences and individuality to develop instead they will condition love and praise on you conforming to how they want you to be and what pleases them because they're trying to filter something through you and whatever it is it's typically something that will make them feel more secure and in control so they will break you down until you resemble a puppet or an inanimate object until you're lifeless and motionless until you're lacking consciousness and power and then they will pull the strings they will be in control of events and all of your actions often in a secret way they will plan and coordinate the elements of a situation to produce the desired effect and then they will sit back and watch your reaction as though it occurred naturally as though it was the result of your own conscious thoughts and reasoning they see you as an extension of them and that's exactly what's going on in their minds they're doing all of these ridiculous things to you and they're wondering how it got to this point they may never have thought that they would have become this way but the reality is that if it wasn't you it would have been with someone else because they're self-absorbed and they lack empathy they only care about themselves and that was the decisive deciding and determining factor it was the most important reason and if they had made a different decision things would have turned out very differently and a justifiable excuse would not be that they can't help themselves it's not that they can't control the reactions or stop themselves from doing something they're making an effort on their own behalf they're doing it for their own direct benefit and it's to control your emotional state because if they can control your emotional state they can control everything about you which is their idea of fun it's what they live for when they wake up in the morning you're likely the first thing on their minds because they've already conditioned and exerted their influence on you you're like their project their emotional dumping ground so that they can blame and justify their crazy behaviors on you for make them crazy and they will often project that it is you who is crazy about them as though they are the target or victim when in reality it's always their victim who was acting crazy because of them and if they can make you look crazy they believe that it shows the world that the reactions are justified and many of them actually believe their own lies they focus on your reaction rather than what caused you to react to them even though they could have been provoking you for hours and they may have been badgering you and following you around because in their minds they are perfect in every way it's not in the realm of possibility that they could ever be wrong so the victim is always the one who is at fault for everything that goes wrong even if you did everything that they demanded they are never responsible for anything that goes wrong they are only responsible for everything that goes right if they did something wrong they would only bring it up if they can use it to get supply and thus gain even more control over your emotions they will play mind games just a mess with your mind they will engage in courses of psychologically manipulative behavior intended to make you feel uncomfortable to make you confused exasperated frustrated or anxious to make you question your own memory perception and sanity and it's often because of your own innocence and naivety which is what makes you different it's what makes you stand out amongst all of the hard-aged people in this world and you may even have an innocent look predators have a tendency to prey on innocent people for their own harmful and selfish desires and motives they see you as an easy target as someone who is easy for them to abuse without fear of retribution as someone who is easy for them to bully and harass because maybe you're friendly helpful or kind or you're too embarrassed to talk about it they see you as naive or stupid and maybe you don't have much experience in life maybe you had a sheltered upbringing where you experienced very little danger or excitement maybe you were too protected by your parents maybe your parents were narcissistic so it normalized the abuse it's what you've always known you've never known anything different and it may also be because you're an introvert you may not have had much emotional support maybe you never had anyone there to guide you through life's challenges you prefer calm environments you limit social engagement often by your own choice or because the narcissist isolated you or started a smear campaign against you so that no one would ever believe you but it may also be because you prefer to be alone you may be primarily concerned with your own thoughts and feelings but you may also be an empath you're able to emotionally understand what other people feel see things from their point of view and imagine yourself in their shoes but you also have a disposition that is taxed by social engagement because you're very concerned about what other people think or feel which is why you tend to feel energized by calm environments and you have the preference flight solitude which again makes you a very easy target because it makes it very easy for them to wind you up and stood up negative emotions in you it makes it very easy for them to gain power and control over you because a calm quiet and peaceful environment that you might prefer is the exact opposite of the type of environment that a narcissist thrives in they thrive in chaos and dysfunction they enjoy it it gives them an opportunity to let off some steam so although at first it may seem strange to you that the narcissist would gravitate to you to them it's like a match made in heaven you perfectly complement that emotional needs and when they first target you they can make it seem like they're curious about you because they will want to know everything that makes you happy and they want to know everything that makes you sad because if they know everything that makes you happy they're your savior they're this person who saves you from danger or difficulty and if they know everything that makes you sad they can punish you and hurt you which is why in one moment they will be shouting and yelling at you until they make you break down in tears and then in the next moment they will apologize and try to comfort you because their power is in your reactions especially when they can get a negative reaction out of you it gives them a power trip it makes them feel alive when they can use power to control you they enjoy it when they can use your buttons watch you explode it makes them feel good which is why you may often see them smiling or laughing even while you're screaming or crying and the only thing you can do is take back your power by not reacting which will often be very difficult for you to do because they will say or do anything to get a rise out of you I heard about one situation in a video on YouTube where a narcissist murdered the victim's cat and left its courts on their doorstep and all they're looking for when they do this is a reaction they're looking for you to do feel or think something as a direct result of something that they have said or done because that will make them happy the more malignant they are the more pleasure they will derive from your pain and discomfort and after they've said or done something hurtful you may even see them observing your facial expressions for a reaction because how they feel is entirely dependent on how you're doing it is a conscious and deliberate choice that they are making but it benefits them and it has gotten them a lot of success in the past so they have no incentive to change which is why all you can really do is grave rock or leave the broom or leave the relationship the city or the country if it is safe for you to do so because they're not going to change they're not going to give up something that gives them power and the more that you react and respond it just feels the fire because you're just offering them the attention that they desire so it gives them a motivation to keep going and continue the abuse because it's eliciting a reaction to their behavior and if you've been with them for a long period of time it will feel like you're acted against your own conscious choice as if you're possessed as though a spirit is taking control of your body it's like the boiling frog or chained elephant syndrome it's the result of a pattern of acts of assault threat humiliation and intimidation which they repeatedly use to harm punish and frighten you until it leaves you more open to suggestion as you lose control over your behavior and when you react you are the one who gets in trouble because all they're going to see is your reaction they're not going to reflect on anything they did to you and they may even take off their phone and record you to use it as an advantage to keep you submissive compliant and obedient to keep you under control to prevent you from leaving when you are around a narcissist anything you say or do even your reactions can and will be used against you later especially if you try to leave or if you threaten to expose them if they suspect it they will expose you first or they will threaten it to prevent you from leaving until you decide to stay because you fear being exposed even after everything they did to you which is why all you can do is try to manage your reactions because otherwise the situation will escalate and they will use it to further manipulate abuse and control you so all you can do is remain calm and try to be happy even though you may feel foolish and crazy or you just have to leave the relationship if it is safe for you to do so but even then it will trigger that abandonment wounds and that may make them fear the threat of exposure so they may enforce their flying monkeys and start a smear campaign against you they can't live without control because they feel a deep-seated sense of powerlessness and inadequacy they grew up in homes where they felt neglected when supported and as a result they developed an inflated sense of self-importance as a way to make themselves feel better and that's what they're chasing this rush of dopamine and adrenaline which floods their brains anytime that they manage to get a reaction out of you even though it's void of any connection or intimacy and they don't even view you as a separate person with your own feelings or needs that's just what it does for them it makes them feel alive and that's all they really care about as I've said before the best you will ever get from a narcissist is an illusion because they live in this make-believe world inside their own heads with a population of one thank you for watching if you found this video helpful please give it a thumbs up share your thoughts in the comment section hit the subscribe button to receive the notifications if you would like to support the channel you could donate a payable to me slash NARC survivor you could book a one-on-one with me on my website it's NARC survivor the good UK thank you for watching and I'll talk to you soon


This kind of glass tube was pointing at Matt's body. When the switch went in, there was a whining noise. And then a white light shot out of it. I know you won't believe this. When it hit the body, it went all soft. It was just like the foams had gone out of it. It just went all soft and kind of poured off the chair and out of the floor. Midnight, the witching hour when the night is darkest, our fears the strongest, and our strength at its lowest end. Midnight, when the graves gape open and death strikes. How? You'll learn the answer in just a minute in The Heavy Death. Here at midnight, tales of mystery and terror by radio's masters of the macabre. Our story written by Robert Newman is a weird and fantastic nightmare called The Heavy Death. A road just outside the small town of Medford, running up at his face white and terror-stricken in the moonlight is a small, slight man. He pauses every once in a while, his breath whistling in his nostrils whistling, then runs on again. Finally, he's seeing the two green lights of the state police barracks in moans of relief. Runs in. Oh, thank god there's somebody here. I was afraid. Look, officer, you've got to get me away from here fast. Yeah, just a minute, Mac. Take it easy. Easy. You'll be here any minute. Come on after me. I've got to get away. I'll tell you. And I'm telling you to take it easy. Just wait till I get through talking to Dr. Carden here. Dr. Carden?  Oh, yeah. Well, then you can tell him it's true. Otherwise, he won't believe me. Nobody will. It was you who swiped a big glass thing from your laboratory. My tiger cultor. You stole it? Well, he made me do it. Oh, now, whoa. He's getting interesting. That's why Dr. Carden's here. You know anything about his assistant? Young chap named Mattson? Yeah. He's dead. He killed him. Mattson? Mattson dead? And maybe you better start from the beginning. Tell us the whole story. Yeah, but it did him the right time. He'd be coming after me. Oh, OK. Like I said, you won't believe it. My name's Sullivan.  Weight guessing is my racket. But I turned my hand at almost anything you know, Shale, game three card, Monty. Well, we hit town about 10 days ago for a three-day stand. The first two nights was pretty quiet. The third one was when it happened. It was a pretty fair crowd around, and I was warming him up for some weight guessing. But maybe some side bets when he came up. OK, step up, step up, hurry up. And let's hope this, Sullivan, this shall wait.  Now, what do you say, lady? Your weight's not like your age, you know. It always shows. What about you, sir? Guess you wait? Do you really think you can? Do I, Fig? Listen to him, folks.  Oh, I have already. The question is, will you bet your sweet life? What? What do you mean? Look, do you want me to guess your weight or not, huh? On the terms, I outline why yes. I'll be glad to have you cry. Try, try, Sissy. OK, folks, here we go. Now let's see. A big man, a solid man. Every pair of arms, Ellum. I say, eh, 195 pounds. 195.  Now, just sit right down here on the scale. There you are. Hey, what goes on here? You broke my scale? Yes. It only goes up to 350 pounds. 350? What have you got in your pockets? Would you like to look? No. No, I don't know how you did it, but more power to you, brother. When I lose that pain with a smile. Well, here's your Cupid. Thank you, no. That's not what we bet. What? What do you mean? I think you know what I mean. The carnival closes in about an hour. I'll be waiting. He went walking off slow and heavy. The crowd stood around for a couple of minutes, gaping at the broken scale and talking. Then they all decided it was some kind of a gag and went on and forgot about it. For me, I couldn't forget about it. Somehow, I didn't think it was a gag. There was something about him, the way he moved away, the way he talked, it scared the pants off me. I hung around for a while, getting my stuff together, and then I looked up Rube Thomas. Rube's a big guy. He used to be a wrestler, and he was just closing up his wheel of fortune. Hi, Rube. How are they going? Not bad for one horse town. How's it you? Not too bad. But some wise guy busted my scale. Busted your scale? Yeah. Well, Rube, that's why I come over.  Just couldn't figure his pitch, but he said something about waiting for me when he closed up, so I thought he could. So you're tough. Maybe you should have some protection walking down to the station. That's a hot one. What is?  Well, don't worry about it.  Rube take down the wheel. Even then, we were about to last to leave the fairgrounds. We went out through the main gate. It was pretty dark, but I wasn't worried anymore. I'd never yet seen anybody Rube couldn't handle. Then I heard footsteps, slow and heavy ones, and then... There you are. And I've been waiting for you. Yeah? No kidding? Just a guy? Yeah. OK, Bob. What's the pitch? What's your racket? Racket? There's no racket. Your friend and I had a bet. I've come to collect. Yeah? Well, I'll tell you a funny thing about carnivals.  I'm afraid this one can't be called off. You see, I need him. You need him? Yes.  Remember? And you lost. You mean you... You're nuts. People who have thoughts so, but I'm not. Shall we go? No. No, I ain't got a rule. Take it easy, shall I?  Now you're going to blow them. I'm going to have to get rough with you. I wouldn't if I were you. No. Well, and here's one just for luck. Oh, no, my hand. I warn you.  I'm sorry. I didn't want to hurt you. You won't believe this. Like you probably won't believe what happened afterwards. He didn't swing or anything. He just kind of dropped his fist on Rube's head. And he smashed on his skull like it hit him with a lead pipe. Well, Lord, you killed him. Yes. Shall we go? No, no, I... Look at me. Into my eyes. That's right. Now remember this. You're mine. Mine to do it exactly as I wish. And you do exactly what I wish. Do you want to stand? Yes. Yes. Yes. Good. Then let's go. Something happened. Happened to me at any minute. Something I ain't over yet. It wasn't just that I was scared.  It was something else. When I looked into his eyes, it was like I just plain didn't count that no one or nothing did. Then I just had to do whatever he wanted, whatever he said. We got in his car and drove to his fuel place, darkened. We stopped in front of it, and he pointed at a kind of low building behind it. That is Dr. Cardin's laboratory. He has something there I need, a Geiger counter. You're going in and get it for me. You mean swipe it? Yes. It would take too much time to make one of my own. And as I said, I need it. Now it's a long glass tube about this size with filaments inside it. Yeah, but suppose somebody sees me. Suppose somebody comes. Cardin's away in Washington with that childish atomic energy condition of theirs. There's only maps on his assistant, and he must be sleeping. If he should try and stop you, well, you'll have to take care of him. But remember, I want that Geiger counter. Like I said, it was like I was numb. Didn't have a mind of my own. I did it. Found an open window. Went in and got what he wanted. Brought it out to him. Didn't say a word. He just put it in the back of the car and we drove away. It was about a quarter of 12 we got to his place. Big ramblin' house at the foot of a mountain. Took me around to back to it kind of iron door. Well, it was like out of Buck Rogers, 25th century. Big grass tubes, dynamos, wires. He must have noticed me staring because he said.  There's equipment here that doesn't exist any place else in the world. Yeah, but what's it all for? If I told you, you'd be even more frightened than you are now. By the way, what's your name? Sullivan. Sure, Sullivan. I'm Dr. Vance, Dr. Brian Vance. Doctor? Of nuclear physics. Without doubt, the greatest scientist in the world today. Do you know anyone else who has been able to convert most of the elements of the human body into the heavy isotopes? Look, I don't know what you mean, but is that? Yes. That is why not only my weight, but the entire atomic mass of my body is- What's that? It sounds like a car. Yes, but coupes. Oh, Vance. Must have heard you in the laboratory, followed us. Cool, I was as quiet as I could be honest. There's nothing to be worried or excited about. Hello, Vance. Vance, I should have known it was you. You should have done what with me. A Stolar Geiger.  This time I've got you dead to right. I'm afraid it's just the other way around, Matson. What do you mean? What? Vance. You don't really think I'd let you or anyone interfere with what I'm doing, do you? Yes.  Drag him over there out of the way. There's a certain experiment I'm just about ready to try, and his body will come in very handy. When staring at him in abject horror, Dr. Vance turns away from the body on the floor, lumbers over to one of his instruments and begins examining it. And far away, in the town's church steeple, the clock strikes 12 for murder at midnight. And now back to murder at midnight and the heavy death. It's just a moment later. Sergeant Rowe and Dr. Cardin are staring incredulously at Sullivan as he pauses for a moment in his terrifying story. And the trooper says, we did find Thomas' body out by the fairground, but it was an accident. Hit by a truck or something. You mean this Vance killed Matson just like that? Shot him without turning a hair. Sure sounds to me like. Dr. Cardin, what do you think? I don't know, Sergeant. I do know Vance. I knew that he had a laboratory somewhere near here, in the city of Hydrogen. Well, it's true that he probably knows as much about nuclear physics as anyone in the world. We tried several times to get him to work with us during the war, but he laughed at us, said that what we were doing was childish. But this other business is changing himself, making himself heavy. Yeah, even his voice was heavy like. Is that possible, Doctor? Theoretically, yes, I suppose it is. After all, Professor Urie did it with hydrogen, made heavy water. And we've done it with uranium. Yes, but why would he want to do it? Why? There, I can only guess. All his genius, I've always felt Vance was a little mad. It's possible he believes that by changing the atomic weight of his body, he can make it immune to disease. Yeah, that's right. It's true. He said he was going to live forever. Go on, Sullivan. What happened after that? He made me help him do things around the laboratory, wiring, stuff like that. Seems he got tired pretty easy, and his hands was too heavy to do work with his delicate light. Maybe that's why he needed someone else around him. Finally, I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore, and I fell asleep in a cot in the corner. I don't know if he ever slept or not. If he did, I never seen him. When I woke up, it was around noon, and he had Matt's body propped up in a chair against a kind of a silver screen.  I was just going to wake you. Yes, sir, I'm kind of hungry, sir. Yes, food. Well, you're going to help me with a little experiment first, and then we can eat. Yes, sir. What kind of experiment? What do you mean? So I guess, then experiment on our friend Matt's body. He won't mind just a little calcium-clenched mutation. First, we switch on our alpha generator here. Then we make a few frequency adjustments. What? What are you going to do? You'll see. Over there, stand by that mass to switch on the converter. When I give the word, they let it climb just a little higher, a little higher. Now! Move it, Lauren! No, no! It's a kind of glass tube pointing at Matt's body. When I threw the switch, a white light shot out of it. I know you won't believe this. When it hit the body, it went all soft. It was like the bones had gone out of it. Just went all soft and kind of poured off the chair out of the floor. I must have faded or something when I come to advance with standing over me, smiling. Anything to matter, Sullivan? Don't you feel well? Yes, I'm all right. Just that was the most awful, the most terrible thing. Sullivan, if you were a soldier and you saw that happen to the man next to you, would you feel much like fighting after that? What? You mean you're going to do that? I'd advise you not to ask too many questions. Dispose of the rest of the body later, but now, let's eat. Like I said, it was just about a week ago. I can't really tell you what happened after that, because I was in the days most of the time. We worked, him showing me what to do, wire and soldering stuff. We ate. Sometimes he let me sleep. Then this morning it happened. I woke up at about 10. He was standing looking at this thing we've been making. Well, Sullivan, it's finished. Well, Sullivan, it's finished. Just a few adjustments and we'll be ready to go. Yes, sir. I'm profoundly grateful to you for your help. I will show you how grateful and a very concrete passion. Heal me. You can let me go. You can let me go. Go? Really, Sullivan? That's a little foolish, isn't it? Well, I don't know. I just thought. Yeah, I guess it is. Well, where are you going? Inside to fix some breakfast. No, Sullivan, no food. No food? No. Because tonight you're going to enjoy a tremendous experience when I experienced myself several months ago. And the process is much simpler when the stomach is empty. Process?  Heavy? Yes, Sullivan. I told you I was grateful to you. Oh, no, doc. No, please, will you? You're being rather childish. I'm not going to bother detailing what it will mean to you physiologically. The immunities it will give you. I will merely tell you that we'll do it tonight. They changed to become like he was. Heavy as lead. Well, it did something to me. It was like I've been doped, hypnotized, all that time afraid to do anything to make him mad. Now, now I was even more scared to stay. I made out like everything was fine, and I waited. I waited and watched. Then about an hour ago, I got my chance. He went into the house to get something. He didn't lock the door. I was out like a shot, perhaps his car had started down the driveway. They went past the house. I heard a window open. Gentlemen, come back! Come back! You'll regret this! You'll regret this! It's a story. I was so jittery, I went to a ditch just outside of town and had to run the west of the way.  What you do to me, I just want one thing. Get me away from here. Get me far away fast, because he's going to be coming after me. I know it. I'm not saying what I think, not yet. What about you, Dr. Carden? I wouldn't like to say either. Knowing Vance, I believe he's capable of everything Sullivan told us. And theoretically, everything he described is part of the world.  Just get me away from here. I can't for an hour or so. I have to call Bridget and have them send down some men. And we can really go into this. In the meantime, I'll put you in one of the detention cells. You'll be OK there. Are they strong? Really strong? Planet is strong enough to keep you in and anyone else out. Come on. Hey, can't you hear me? Sergeant, Dr. Carden. Oh, oh gee, Sergeant. I was starting to get a little worried. I was a. You are Sullivan. You didn't really think you were going to get away, did you? What are you going to do? You can't do anything. The cell door is locked. And if it, let's see. Hey, you see, you can't break it down. You can't. It's steel. Yes, Sullivan. But steel can be smashed if it has to be. No. I told you you'd regret running away, didn't I? No, no, no. I'll look. I'll come back. I'll do anything you want. I'm afraid it's too late, Sullivan. Too late for anything, but. Dr. Carden, did you hear a tool? I'm not sure. It did sound like. This way quick. Good lord. Look at that cell door. I'm Sullivan. This, this girl. Smashed like an egg shell. Well, Sergeant. I guess I must be nuts, too. Well, look, Doc. We must have just left here. If we wait for the men from Bidson, give them time enough to get back to his place of those blasted, gray things of his. There's no telling what he'll do, how many lives he'll cost. But if we leave right now, the two of us, maybe we can get there before him.  What do you say? You game? I'm game, Sergeant. Let's go. Right ahead. The laboratory's probably running back. Well, Sergeant, the lights are on. Yeah. Maybe he left him on when he came into town and got Sullivan. Or me. No. No lessy. He's back. We're too late. What in heaven's name is that? An electrostatic generator or a cyclotron. He's a good lord. Up the mountain there. Look, it's cut. Looks like a hole or something. But it's moving. A neutron beam disintegrating. Heading his way into the mountain. He must have found some way of harnessing. Sutter garden. Swinging his way. Must have seen us. Come on, run. No good, Sergeant. Seems to have a range of almost half a mile. But eating through solid rock that way. If it hits us, we'll come to see just what Vance was doing. Hey, God, no. Well, take a good look. But that's what you'll ever take it anyway. Well, you shall be the first come. And did you think that you were going to get away with advance? Who's that? Take a look at the guy. Come on. Too much. Cut that down. And what will happen when you release the load? I've got to cut it down. Besides your son, it's a lot of it. Yeah. That's because I'm too cute alone. Too heavy. I've got to slow. It's time to be hired. Put more to it. I've got to cut that down too. Hockey garden. Hockey garden. Over. Over here, Sergeant. Are you all right?  But yes, I'm all right. A laboratory. A whole house. Look. Yes. What happened? Something. Something got out of control. Too much centrifugal force. Or the load released too suddenly. And the whole thing exploded. Now there are things that we'll never know. Except something when you're already. That science can either be man's servant or his master and his doom. And as I stand there, gazing at the smoking ruin that were once Vance's laboratory, through the blessed silence comes the distant clang of the clock in the town's church depot. For the second time, striking 12 for. Murder. Midnight. Remember to be with us again when death hovers like a dark cloud. And the clocks strike 12 for. Murder. The part of Shill Sullivan was played by Frank Reddick. With music by Charles Paul, Murder at Midnight was directed by Anton M. Lieder.