What's up chat? What's up YouTube? This is Anita podcast episode 137. We're two weeks away from Madden's super horned up Boss by Wars coming soon Actually real soon Madden drops the 12th. Get your money ready boys. I'll be honest. I I Have been getting hammered spending a lot of money and then I forget that Madden's coming out And it's gonna cost me a couple grand. I might just do no money spent from the beginning You know, why do I need to spend money right boys? I Might have to take out a loan. I might have to I Bought a PlayStation It's just been rough It's just been rough But you know it is All right, see the sounds are OD now. The sounds are just OD we are the others going to spam sounds during the podcast Is that what we're gonna do now? If you want to spam sounds a spam these dumbass sounds, I mean you don't hear them on the YouTube video You don't hear them on the vibe, but if you're live here, you can spam these dumbass sounds, you know And that that's part of the new stream and we're thinking of sounds What sounds can we spam and the chat the chat's gonna say the chat's gonna figure it out I'm gonna have the best sounds ever now.  Do I make sounds free? I don't know. There's two options. We have here so For me, uh, it's definitely definitely options here to extremes Sounds might have to be free I Think I think you put it one only the players can hear No, I do I think of the only my man killer will hit and we kept the hype train while we restarted the stream Let's get it. I'm a killer through September with the sub. Let's go More than resub heal my bad. I was going through some technical difficulties when already popped off Eight months from my man. He'll father gifted this and my man nine down Dong With the prime for four minutes appreciate you. I mean Bama's in the building 22 months. Let's get it man Jehovah I see first of all your problem is now. I'm gonna start a series man I'm gonna start a series.   All right I think my I mean we've been working right but The word delayed right now. Yes Now I will tell you My man Jinko Ginko Ginko, do you know there's a tree called a ginko and See my I always remembered this tree when I was a little kid because my dad was trees, right?  It has like pods on it. Now. This is serious the ginko tree The ginko tree actually has pods on it some this is an eraser. It's an eraser. It's just on my dad I've been drawing too. So through all these artist content Ginko below but look at this guy the ginko below but tree Okay, the ginko below but tree There is see not see my man knows about the ginko below but but it has pods see every every plant Has flowers and seeds all right boys now you think a tree doesn't have flowers all plants have flowers and seeds That's how the tree has sex. That's how plants have sex That's how they reproduce flower seeds all that stuff But some have pods and the ginko and the ginko has pods The See the ginko has pods right and and the thing about the ginko below but is that it stinks It smells like shit when these pods fall You can smell the ginko tree and then my dad will always call it the stinko ginko That's how I always remembered the ginko below but tree So that's just a little bit of knowledge that you did not have before this podcast This podcast will always teach you a little bit something but the stinko ginko the ginko below but tree It has a lot of good values. All right Ginko below but see there you go. Y'all got smarter Kendall I'm glad you took something from that you could have children here playing sounds the entire time. I'm talking about it but that's cool, too but oh Okay, so like I said, I've been working and my next in the next two weeks I'm gonna put out a ton of Madden videos But one of them is gonna be about streaming.  Yo, what's up?  You know saying yeah So then they like didn't like um Why you didn't answer me cuz I don't know what it is yeah So for me bro, it's just it's just rough man I feel like the social media unity now mine aren't all all perfect like Dub that W would be my perfect tag for everything not for Twitch So I think dub that W is a little bit too long for a streamer.  Yeah, that's my man right here My man no Chevy So if y'all need a ps5 Hit my man up right here. That's the guy that got me my ps5 So if you need one he will get you one I don't know what pricey one negotiate with y'all my price might have been different to y'alls But hit my man up right there. He got me my my uh, he got me my ps5 So Joe over there you go hit my man up like I said, I just put it over here You guys see I did put it this camera's probably scuffed right now, but it is right here But I did not hook it up yet. It's not hooked up So when I hook it up, I'll take a picture of it and I'll post about it, but Honestly It's right there.  Well the Xbox has to go upright the console has to go up or the Xbox Yeah, I need now Rob is here. He tells me I don't need a new camera. I want to buy a new goddamn camera For that for that sight for that scene, but I'm gonna have to mess with it So I've been working hard, but like I said social media unity.  Dragon tiger has a dragon tiger sub now like what what has happened to dragon fire? Dragon tiger. All right Let's talk about this There are no so you cannot buy stickers there. You can't buy stickers there.  I can't even get people to buy t-shirts. I can't even get people to buy t-shirts Who has a t-shirt in this chat? Who has it? Who has a needed gaming t-shirt? If I was the right my man, uh, who has the needed game, bro, who like Well, who has one one of y'all got to have one Crazy brings a good point about now. I did say this over the day All right, the physicality is only coming in black. You're not getting a physicality in green or red That's pussy. I'll be honest. You don't be physical in a red shirt. I'm being out You don't you might look good red might be your color, but it's not physical.   So I was over. I'm gonna I might the needed the merch is going to be very downsized You know I'm saying But anyway, though we're talking about oh breakfast take Chick-fil-a breakfast is trash. It's not even top 10 breakfast. You can get before Noon what it's not I would almost rather go to I hop than Chick-fil-a for breakfast No, seriously Now one of these breakfast is good potatoes or fire.   You're simply not There's no man that drinks beer and then wakes up the next morning and gets chicken minis The chicken biscuit is cool Honestly, I'm kind of not really I'm kind of really not a Biscuits up this I feel a good biscuit is elite, right? It's probably the best But most of the time a biscuit is not meeting those expectations. No matter where you get the biscuit from The top tier biscuit. It's hard to meet that expectation For real Minis are not fire. They're 90% bread and they're chicken nuggets for real And this is how I feel about the chicken bits the chicken sandwich one The Chick-fil-a spicy deluxe is the top tier fast food item There was not one item that is over the spicy deluxe from Chick-fil-a. It is the best item you can get All right, and to take that chicken and then put it on a biscuit is degrading the chicken, right? It is really it is really a let down You're saying now people say this people say you can get the sausage egg and cheese or the bacon egg and cheese from Chick-fil-a I'm cool. I'd rather go get that from McDonald's because McDonald's has the most elite fast food breakfast In fact, McDonald's would be a top tier fast food establishment if they only had breakfast honestly Popeye's chicken sandwich It's actually Actually, I I'm I'm on the Wendy's the Wendy's spicy chicken is over Popeye's.   I eat a lot. I'm a big guy.  It's too nasty. I It's to the point where Popeye's I'd rather get the tender meal than the sandwich really I my order from Chick-fil-a is too spicy deluxe That's all I get and then I eat like two of her fries and drink her fries if I was by myself I'd probably get some fries, but You definitely need the two.  They are absolutely terrible and I see so many Boys their boys. Oh get the chicken minis.  It's not a biscuit. It's not a muffin. What is that bread? Minis are terrible, but the minis are absolutely basura.  My son is gonna be eating chicken minis in two months.  What is good about them? What is good about chicken minis? What is good about them? They're mini For real, why would you get the chicken mini over the sandwich explain it to me? You have an option sandwich or chicken minis. Why would you get a chicken mini?  I'm never going to tell somebody they shouldn't go spend because I can't lie. I've been on the biggie bag There's no way I've been on the biggie bag from wendy's I still be disappointed a little bit in the biggie bag But I always grab a spicy chicken sandwich with the with the biggie bag You know I'm saying Two biggie bags All right, this is my point you're going two biggie bags. All right, you're already up to $12 now Now you might as well got a number six with you know what I'm saying The biggie bag is not bad. I don't know what burger they put Oh, listen, maybe cuz like I think wendy's originated in Ohio Wendy's is elite in Ohio like elite I think this shit is fresh from the farm in Ohio or something dude Like it's a Unreal in fact, I think it's I think wendy's has elevated to to the top tier of fast food. Yes, it is elite I'll be honest with you. I don't nothing compares to McDonald's breakfast. It really doesn't I only have I only have four fast food. No, I only have four fast foods on my tier list uh Chick-fil-a Five guys wendy's and McDonald's that's it Now if you want to go chicken, I'd go Popeyes.  Not really Burger King. No, if I never had it again, I could wake up tomorrow and never have Burger King again I want to be missing much Arby listen, I'm not the one to hate on Arby's but once again if I never had Arby's again Would I be upset? No I'm the people hate on Arby's. It's like it's like a meme to hate on Arby's But it's really not it's really kind of solid really I would say you checkers checkers and rallies Is a dub But like I said, they're not up there with McDonald's and Wendy's and stuff like that now tell you McDonald's one of these Chick-fil-a elite There's no cookout anywhere near here and I'll be honest if you're not if you're not if you're in one area The state are you are if you're in one area to country. Are you really that good for real? Right, are you really that good Chipotle another thing like come on? No, no none of that stuff is top tier. It's not White Castle I had Cain Cain's is in Ohio crazy a lot. It's okay. I'm still taking Popeyes I never understood They put bread on your plate plate. I'm talking bread like a big-ass hunk of white bread Half of the plate is bread They do that at Cain's I'm cool like for real the bread is fire Y'all y'all got that man chicken wings. Let's go chicken wings top Commercial chicken wings I've always been a Hooters guy. I like Hooters. I think Hooters is good Buffalo Wild Wings is like super kind of mid Wingstop is Wingstop is good I've always been a Hooters Hooters has always been good when I went into Saturday Hooters. It's always been good Buffalo Wild Wings Buffalo Wild Wings has the best sauces But they're every time I get Buffalo Wild Wings, bro. They don't understand fried hard They're never fried enough in Buffalo Wild Wings. Yeah, they're terrible honestly In and out is in and out is trash Wendy's is better than in and out I will I will take that I would rather have Wendy's than in and out 1 million percent I never get wings at Buffalo Wild Wings In and out, it's not bad But come on man, y'all can't bring that like bro. The fries are so trash that there's not even a valid spot Like the fries like I will when you when you go to like a burger place And you can make fries at home better than the fries that they sell. That's so automatic I'm not going back there for real if I can make fries that are better than the ones you serve Why would I go to your restaurant ever? All right, McDonald's has the best fries and it's not that's not even debatable. There's other good fries But McDonald's is top tier fry. In fact, McDonald's fries is what makes them elite for real for real Checkers. Checkers are good. They just today them Jones is too heavy Little checkers fries are super heavy like bro Them Jones are just a ball of grease or a case of grease I'm being honest.       I think that's like common knowledge. Isn't it five guys not as greasy as as checkers fries They're burger crazy, but No, five guys is made with potato oil or peanut oil not real stuff But I would say I've been to everywhere other than then cook out in and out is trash in and out. It's not trash I'll just hype it up really. We were like supposed to talk about Madden Uh So cook out is so cook out is waffle house, but the burger the burger one Let's build that. You know huddle gg. I don't know who runs the huddle gg anymore I don't know who huddle gg is. Is it the rocket man? Does right? Oh, look at ghost ghost is ugly I mean if we went by looks I would have this whole like if we went just by looks I'm the best looking On this whole list I'll be honest. I I do like huddle gg because they give me a generous three dollar rating. I like that I like my three dollar rating I like that. I feel like I'm a four dollar type of guy You know what I'm saying? Yeah, I feel like I'm a four dollar type of guy Kiv is the best look. Are you kidding me? Are you kidding me? Y'all are ticking I'm top five good looking on this whole list I mean, I was cool with a three until books was a three Then I was like, all right, hold up So it's like all right Who would I pick? Now, honestly, I thought about this. I thought about this a lot. You got ten dollars You can pick four people Banks is one is kind of glitchy. He's kind of a steal for one dollar banks down there. He's kind of a steal And now I kind of know some of these guys like personally, right? So it's easier for me. Drini. No way I'm paying for for drini. Drini. Let me tell you something about drini Drini is just good.  Let me tell you something about drini.  I don't know how he does it.  He just wins Drini's just good, but he don't like add nothing In fact Bro, when I had to play now what I forget who I had to put I think I had to play kiv bro This is why drini is not on my I'm sitting in in the discord with drini for like five hours Talking about madden. This motherfucker wouldn't play me.  I'm like, I'm tough I'm feeling tough.   That's see that's why I couldn't have drini Oh, I can't I can't pay for for drini. I can't I can't now Kiven joke are kind of worth a four.  See y'all don't see that because y'all y'all kind of slow But kiv is like he comes up with the defense He's kind of a defensive guy.  It's impossible. It's literally impossible to play like him so But he had he does add a lot of things he helps add a lot of things Joke comes up with a lot of stuff now. We laugh about bugs now I will tell you that on this list Bugs has probably helped me become a better man player more than any other person probably Five times more than any other person Bugs just sucks when it comes down to the come down, honestly so It's not that he doesn't help squad Because I'll be honest.  No clef don't clef don't come up with a Route combo. He don't come up with a defense or setup. He don't do nothing Bugs comes up with the route combos. No, no, no, no, no skimbo. No, I wasn't shitting You just got here. I wasn't shitting on bugs.   It could be one.  Kiv would be my number one pick I would probably pick kiv bugs Maybe not bugs. Hold up Ghost ghosts. I'm see when I think about a squad. I see my boys. I think about what listening talking to them every night, right?  You can't have a squad when you get in a squad and they don't listen It's like it's hard to really like talk to them for real for real Skimbo don't really listen either until he realized But he'll realize ghost.    That's the difference in their stubbornness Well, the person I've slept all the time that that's books.  Like for real, you had five cam or Wesley who you going with five cam? He's got a bandana. Come on, bro Stiff or Wesley. Come on The funniest person on here is user. Are we going with the all vibes team? Damn my squad really just all vibes now I'm all vibes user all vibes We just all we all vibes team now. That's all we can add I'm squad But this was a good little but I will tell you kiv joke or probably like Now, I never really like played with them like and like Talked madden with them. I guess or like through. I don't know how stubborn. I don't know their level of stubbornness I really just know journey skimbo clef, but my boy is really that's all But kiv kidding joke.  Why would I not be three?  All right I don't know. I didn't make the rankings. Did I make the list?    He's like, all right. It's a good idea He don't believe in himself. He the opposite of stubborn I don't know how I didn't talk to him in the playmaker.  He can be talked into anything For real for real Oh my god, I don't know how I didn't talk to him in the playmaker. I don't know whose idea was it not to use Playmaker, I don't know who's I think it was books And that's what I mean like trey is like if books say eat eat juice Trey would eat juice If books say put that guy on a slant trey will put on a slant when books say he ain't need playmaker.  I have always thought playmaker was for people that couldn't pass It's for shitter. It was for shitty passers.  My play didn't work Let me get another option because my play didn't work I always thought it sucked, but this year was just way too high powered to not have I don't know how they couldn't use playmaker Yeah, it still is the same thing. It. Oh, it really still is the same thing though. It really still is like But this year it beat everything. Yes, exactly. Wesley. Once it beat everything It was like, all right, dude. How is this not all your team?  Yeah Yep, it always was a bailout. This year was just too good to ignore it It was too good to ignore it if you ignored it. You were just doing yourself in service For real But yeah, the crew is good My man evo in the building with five months. Let's go man Yes, yes, I I would pat if it was 12 ap if you could just have gunslinger and playmaker I'd that's what I would use. Yep. How's cp2? He's drooling He's talking a lot bad bad bad bad bad bad. That's about that's the level of his life right now He's sitting. He just sits here and plays with his toys All right, I did I did repost my video from last year if you guys check it out where my where my Guys had checked out my video that I reposted. It was really good video. I really liked it So if you guys check that out Where we at? Let me link that up It's about competing man. A lot of people um It is from last year, but it's the exact. Yeah, it's the exact same thing. I couldn't edit out man 21 It's literally the same video like I didn't I didn't want to edit the shit out. I don't know see the same things apply No, I Really because what happened was I I was just thinking man. Let me just repost this video or like read tweet it out But then my what's your my call it the editor was like The editor was like It'll just repost it and change the thumbnail.  That's all You know, it's a lot of money Out here. It's a lot of fun.  That's the most important thing first really Uh, that's uh That's the most important thing you gotta get your mind right you gotta get your thoughts right you gotta get your Your I guess your your drive or your focus in the right spot for real for real for real. So I hate when people say, oh Uh, the the content is more valuable than The competitive and then they say it as if you can't do both of them shits Like I I never understood why People think you can't do both Coin sponsor last year I turned down 5k a month. I turned down from coin sponsor I don't even think I could do it man. I really don't I don't think I could do it. It's just just too much fun, man.  That's what I feel like this I feel like this. I feel like what makes me love madden is just that passion, you know, like That's what makes it fun.   And I was afraid to go to Super Bowl because the Eagles were playing Tom Brady, right? Now So the Eagles were playing Tom Brady and I was like am I gonna spend $2,500 to go to Super Bowl? And what it came down to was this If I spend two grand and the Eagles lose that would suck, right? But it would suck a lot more If I could have went to the Super Bowl and I didn't and the Eagles won So the I had more of a fear of missing out of that perfect night or that perfect experience It was worth it for me. Even if the Eagles were like a 10 chance to win It was worth that chance to get that 10 and that's kind of how like The coin sponsor thing is man Even if I play in in 50 tournaments for the rest of my life And I never come close to winning one of them Just the just the chance that I get high and play five good games of mad in a row It's not worth giving it away for real for real That being said We'll see what they're talking about No, I don't want to I think uh, I'm yeah, there's not there's not a number for to sell out I don't I don't want to do it. I don't think I'll do it really. I really don't Coin sponsored bot wars No, I I don't think there's a number because it would just make it it would make it less passionate You know even like We can league and even like what's the point?  There's no way I wouldn't play them shits So believe that Yeah I'm knocking people out Honestly, I would do the show. I would just tell I'm doing it. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah kick me out for real On stream one million percent Until they try to kick me out, then I'll put a creep out there.  I'm cool with that. Yes. Kick me out of the tournament I would tell you that would be the biggest story of the mcs Them kicking me out of the tournament. I would make it the biggest goddamn tournament I would make it the biggest story.   But they don't they don't know who sent they don't know who's coin sponsor or not.  Y'all not ready for that. Y'all not ready for that They're not ready for that They're not ready. They're not ready They're not ready Na na na na na na na na na na na Na y'all not ready y'all not ready. They're not ready yet. It's not enough.  Oh y'all energy.  That's the salty intro Next two days we got to work on the vows intro then we got to work on a jaybird intro Salt salty bit for our little man What up raheem? I know I need that god. Bro. I need that for sounds What up raheem? What up raheem? I gotta tweet this video out, bro No, it was no. I swear guys. What up raheem? What up raheem?   His club series win. We got to be able to find the chat. That's your job. Somebody find what up raheem Who's going to be my man to do that?  Uh, I'm going to go ahead and Get a link together. It's going to be on players lounge for every every single person to join every one of you fuckers except trey tom is underscore except him He's not allowed to join um Everybody else can join if you want to be all you gotta do is win the tournament. That's it We're going to take one winner from thursday one winner I don't care. You don't got to be subbed to me. You don't got to be subbed to anybody You don't have to pay a dime To get into the tournament. It's a free tournament. All you need is a players lounge account That's all you need You'll get into the tournament for free for anything where anybody will be on xbox thursday august august 19th thursday august 19th the winner of that Tournament on thursday will go into friday and it's a four-man tournament on friday between the winner of the tournament bg Ragusa and spamming buttons. So we'll have spamming ragusa Bg and the tournament winner. Boom.  No, dude, we just decided to do it We decided to do it while madden the new man was out, but we'll play on the old madden You know what i'm saying?   That's what the tournament's going to be Did we gas did we gas this pump? Did we gas this video? Did we gas did we gas it? Let's go boys Until that boy found it. Let's go. What up raheem? Oh, I need some more sounds man. I need some more Vows did have a beta play date Oh, somebody gotta find vows tweet vows won't delete it because he's hearing me now Somebody gotta find his tweet about when he had to play date. That's gotta go into vows in the vows warm up video Let's go somebody find it vows needs to find it or he might be banned I invited my friend over to play the beta. We're labbing right now Are you having a beta play date?  Where is it? Give me a timestamp Derwin versus the world Yo, girl is nasty Knock it alive, bro. Look at her face, bro. That's a happy guy, bro That's this is a happy guy right here. This is a happy guy like Bro, like it's no coin like it was crazy. It's no coin sponsor It's really like no money that's gonna make you like this happy bro for real.  He's so happy. He looked like such a little goober. Look at We gotta save that. Let me make sure I put that down there. Uh-huh. Uh-huh Wallpaper WRL WRL I got I got saved it right there. It'll be a sound hopefully Not for real, dude I stay on land I don't know Rob.   Let's check the unbanies Unbanies might be nasty tonight boys Oh, we got two. We only got two. Does anybody have any guesses who these two people are?  He's unbanable now jack jack is unbanable Robo cop Boom.


Hello, this episode is brought to you by really real honey never barrel heated or straight Okay, I wish if you guys if anyone from really real honey is watching this let me know like come on You know tell me a few free jars. I'll talk about it. I guess I'm already doing something so Before you guys watch this video if you go buy this honey like buy it online and edit note like Frank told me to get it or like sponsor Frank or something like that. I don't know but So lately over the past year or two, I mean I've experimented a little bit here and there with honey and you know various indigenous groups did consume I mean honey in itself as well as other carbohydrates now the important thing to note about honey is the reason I use it is Like to add palatability to raw foods to add palatability to certain foods when I don't necessarily want to eat mainly in the context of Maintaining a higher body mass and weight on a raw diet, and it's also just something I've used and experimented with in the past to Give me energy before my workouts, and it's only like maybe a tablespoon or two is all really your your liver can process that quickly so the reason honey is so beneficial and You guys can go with us the the glucose to fructose ratios are ideal enough that your liver can digest it properly You know in the case of things like high fructose corn syrup the glucose isn't present in the case of certain fruit juices It doesn't have the proper enzymes because it's been you know Juiced and pasteurized honey has a lot of beneficial enzymes that allow the food to be digested properly If it's not complete, you know, this is this is unheated unstrained raw. It has pollen propolis and honeycomb in it and The reason I like that is because it turns this food into something that's Like tastes like honey until like almost a very it's a very complex addition in regards to taste so Benefits of honey raw honey is definitely it digests very easily. It's a good source of carbohydrates. It's an excellent source of enzymes I'm not honestly really I'm sure there's You know they didn't put a full mineral content on this and I'm sure the mineral content of a food like this is drastically Different than the honey from the supermarket. So I'm not quite sure I could find good enough data on that if you guys look in the jar here There's a bunch of stuff that's the pollen. That's the honeycomb. That's the propolis which is pretty much bee parts so what I like doing is Although this stuff at the top tastes delicious on its own They're just not an incredible amount of it. So I'd rather just You know mix it up completely in the honey and have all the honey tastes pretty good as opposed to just a few very enjoyable tasty bites Remember the first time I bought this. I just ate that crust off the top. So I mean when I go down to the green market or the next time I go to the farmers market I'm gonna ask the AP area if they could sell me just like the honeycomb with everything on it so I mix it all up and now we have like a Spoon with mostly honey, but a little bit of those the honeycomb the propolis the pollen and guys. This is delicious. It's very Very overpowering on its own. I don't think I could eat more than a couple teaspoons without feeling sick, but The nice thing about this is I got a piece of beef fat right here soft grass with beef fat I'm gonna do a video on that separately, but I Take of an incredibly tiny amount of honey. You could even do less than this. I just spread a tiny layer of honey on it and look like it's literally like no honey and what I essentially just did was I put about 80 calories of raw beef out in my mouth that tasted like honey without really any carbohydrate content. I really love Using honey for this purpose of making raw meals more enjoyable. Although you do have to keep in mind You know, you don't really want to increase the powder ability too much like like here I actually have some raw ice cream I made for my family. It's It's gone bad, but it's like raw honey egg raw egg yolks raw cream and Just by adding a little bit of honey just a very small amount a very insignificant amount of sugar You increase the entire palatability and flavor of a large amount of nutrient-dense fat So if you want to gain weight if you want to make certain foods more palatable this works great with liver Beef fat the only thing I found that this doesn't really work well with is muscle meats, but I mean even pork and duck and Goose like goes really well with honey even cooked Like here here. I have some goose liver and on its own like on its own. No, it's okay, but Little bit of honey and the goose liver like the honey always counteracts like any negative flavors in these raw animal products If there are any like some people think liver is a bit too minerally some people think it's bitter, but The honey fixes all of that So this was actually like $13 on my local shop, right? I've seen it in Whole Foods for $18 and Honestly, you should be able to get raw honey for a slightly better price at a local farmers market even raw It should be around eight or ten dollars a pound. So Thank you guys for watching Any more questions about the honey, please let me know if you guys would like to support me I guess in this video in particular reach out to really real honey and try not You subscribe to me and above all guys just share my channel. There's a bunch of social media and links to other things in my comments from the Like the donate links to Like I've been on a couple other podcasts recently and other YouTube channels. So Feel free to check that out


Today's demo from my side will be really fast because I just want to announce that we have a first draft of the hierarchical consensus spec. As you may know from previous demo days, we finished with the first MVP of the protocol. We kind of know now what are the details and the basic end-to-end implementation of the protocol, and we are working on having an alternative implementation in Rust, leveraging the forest client. So we are exploring that line of work because right now everything is so HC is implemented in a fork of Lotus, in Eudico, and we are exploring having an alternative implementation, and that's why we started this line of work of having a first draft spec. So if you go here, you'll see the description of the architecture, how all of the sub-protocols work, like the checkpointing protocol, how cross-net transactions are propagated, and all of the low-level models, as well as some future work, like, for instance, the detectable misbehavior or how collateral and slashing work. The idea is to have soon a draft of a fit that we can start discussing with the community, but in the meantime, if anyone wants to read the spec, start using the MVP implementation, or even give us feedback, you see something that it doesn't make sense at all. Feel free to open a PR here in the protocol consensus lab. I don't know if to share it here in Zoom or maybe in Slack, but yeah, so feel free to give us feedback. Right now, this just suffered a first internal review by the members of Consensus Lab, but we are starting to spread this so that anyone can give us feedback. And I guess that's all from my side. Thank you very much.


Hi there, it's me, Monica Wahee, giving you some demonstrations on the use of SAS on demand for academics, otherwise known as SAS ODA. In this video, I'm going to show you how to read in a SAS dataset, then split it into a bunch of different output datasets based on where criteria I place on one of the variables. Okay, I'm going to show you this code in kind of a weird order. First you have to go get this dataset from GitHub. It's called chap 8 underscore 2, and it's a SAS dataset. Then you need to create a folder like I have named x, then upload the SAS dataset to that folder. Then after that, you have to map that to libname x so SAS ODA can find your dataset. I have links to videos you can watch if you don't know how to do that. So what I want to show you in SAS is how you can use a dataset to read in a big dataset, then set criteria on one of the variables, and have SAS split the output datasets based on those criteria. So you see this code, I'm going to confess, I cheated. I already ran this code. The reason I did that is so that way I could show you what the dataset looks like in the output data tab. So the dataset we are reading in, chap 8 underscore 2, has the same structure as the datasets we are splitting and exporting. They all just have these two columns, underscore state, which stands for a code for the state in the United States, and f month, which stands for file month.  When I worked at the army, we might get a dataset like this, and our file month would be January, and maybe the year would be 2011, and we'd have a list of rows for every service member who did something that month, like join the army, or maybe retired from the army. Sometimes we join these datasets, sometimes we'd split them. When we'd split them by month, we'd do something like what I'm showing you here. So say we want to split this big dataset into 12 datasets. And for each month, see these rows just say one January? Well if we page forward in the dataset, we'd see eventually the other months. Two for February, three for March, and so on. So the idea is we want to split the dataset by this f month variable into monthly files. Let's go back to our code. So here's the code. Let me talk about this code in three parts. First we have the data command. This command declares the names of all the output datasets we plan to make in this dataset. Then we have the set command, which tells SAS which dataset to read in for this operation. Of course it's our big dataset, chap 8 underscore 2. Then here we have all of our conditionals with output commands. See if f month equals 1, then output x dot jan 2018. So that tells SAS that for all the records where f month equals 1, put them in the output dataset named x dot jan 2018. And you can guess what the rest of the commands mean. So we should theoretically have 12 datasets after we do this, provided we have records for every month. Before I run this, I just want to make a point, and that is that this code is very error prone. You have to declare all the output datasets after the data command, and then you have to repeat them below when doing the output commands. If you mistype any of this or anything here doesn't match, you'll get an error. Okay, let's run this. If it works, we should see a bunch of new datasets appear on the left in our X folder. See that? There they are. Awesome. The reason I go over this is that if you run a SAS data warehouse, you spend a lot of time manicuring ETL code like this. If you want to learn more about data warehousing, please check out my book, Mastering SAS Programming for Data Warehousing. I hope you enjoyed this video. Thanks for watching and have a super duper day.


From Hollywood, it's time now for Duller Yes, I'd like to see you as soon as I can mr. Porter What a half an hour are you all squared away? I've got a room and I've had a bath if that's what you mean Well, then I guess you're ready to go to work. I will be as soon as I put on some pants You sound in a rush. I'm always in a rush when I think somebody might be chipping us out of a hundred thousand dollars Bob Bailey in the transcribed adventures of the man with the action-packed expense account America's fabulous freelance insurance investigator yours truly Johnny dollar Expense account submitted by special investigator Johnny dollar to Western life and trust company 826 spear Boulevard Hartford, Connecticut The following is an account of expenses incurred during my investigation of the Markham matter Expense account item one one hundred and forty three dollars and sixty nine cents air transportation from Hartford to San Francisco Item two seventeen dollars for incidentals along the way including transportation from the airport of the st. Francis Hotel I Walked the eight blocks to the Commodore building where Ed Porter had his office on the fourth floor He was a short thin insurance broker with a face like a tight drum He apologized for the clammy weather is all over his fault He asked me how things were out on the East Coast and invited me to sit down and looked as uncomfortable as he was I Got the telegram you were coming last night Investigator I've never met one in all my years in the business must be very interesting work. Yeah Look, I don't want to take up too much of your time mr. Porter, but I would like to get some information from you Oh, certainly mr. Dollar What can you tell me about a man named Floyd Markham the Markham? Well, he's the husband of a client of mine. I've met him, but I really can't tell you too much about him My dealings have always been with Mrs. Markham if she's my customer then tell me about Mrs. Markham Certainly I I'm not going to ask why I'm sure you have a good reason for coming all the way to San Francisco The home office thinks I have an excellent reason Yes Mrs. Markham. Well, I've known her for 20 years as a customer She's wealthy always has been and she handles her money well, and she lives rather well Mrs. Markham is the one who has the money. Mr. Markham is a salaried man and industrial engineer Frankly, I think he depends on Mrs. Markham for his livelihood. Oh, yeah These two checks were issued to Mrs. Markham this year Recognize them Yes, yes a full payments on two endowment policies if fifty thousand dollars a piece and they've cleared the bank Anything wrong with nothing wrong with the checks on payoffs like this. I always take it in person It's a custom of course to call and make an appointment and deliver the check to the client And try to sell a little more insurance in the bargain. Oh, well, that's about the idea. Yes Anything strange about Mrs. Markham when you delivered either one of these checks? No Before I left Hartford, I looked up her insurance records. Her premiums are always paid right on the button Mrs. Markham doesn't have a business office or a business manager handling her affairs The checks are always personal checks on her personal account Now can you explain why someone like that might forget a third endowment policy? Well, I know well, there is a third endowment policy it matured this month. I have to check with me for $50,000. Yes, but this business of forgetting Floyd Markham called Hartford and spoke to the head of the endowment division He explained that Mrs. Markham was ill and didn't know whether or not a third policy existed He said he was checking for her. Uh-huh. Now you say you've known Mrs. Markham over a period of 20 years Well, is she the kind of person who'd forget $50,000? No one forgets $50,000 Did you notice that both of those checks were deposited in the Markham's joint account? No So they were Maybe Mrs. Markham's feeling generous these days. Why do you say that? Well, they have a rather strange relationship as far as I've been able to receive I mean what money he makes is his and what she has is hers Oh, yeah, I always like to get out of that house because they never seem to me to be a very close couple in any way But this seems to make sense now How's that, Mr. Porter? Well now I called up and made an appointment to deliver both of these checks The first time I went over Mrs. Markham was ill and the second time she had just stepped out for a few minutes Well, who accepted the checks? Mr. Markham both times. Yes as a matter of fact now that I think of it He made the appointment on the phone both times When was the last time you saw Mrs. Markham? Last spring a check with the bank revealed that Mrs. Markham and not personally made a deposit since June the 18th The deposit slips were initialed by Floyd Markham. The checks were endorsed by Leslie Markham There had been no unusual withdrawals Expense account out of $3.30 stenographic and notary services for the attached statements Markham's been having her hair done here for nearly 10 years now Once a week every Thursday morning then she just stopped I called her home Mr. Markham informed me that she was away on an extended trip Mr. Markham called us it was last June and informed us that Mrs. Markham was resigning her membership in the bridge club I telephoned the house twice to see what was the matter. Mr. Markham answered both times and said Mrs. Markham was out Well, she used to come in here two or three times a month made a school for the car from top to bottom She hasn't been around now for seven or eight months. I don't know who's taking care of the car Expense account item 430 cents three phone calls to the Markham residence. I didn't state any particular business I simply asked to speak to Mrs. Markham Each time I called a male voice answered each time the male voice told me Mrs. Markham was out She was ill and she was away on a short trip Industrial management limited Floyd B. Markham president has a three-room office suite near the Embarcadero Ten years ago. It had been sensationally new and glassy When I got there they carpet was a little too thin and the varnish a little too thin too The whole place smell faintly of mildew Yes, I'd like to see mr. Markham, please. Do you have an appointment? No, no, not exactly. My name is Harris I'm with the Cleveland pump company pump company. Yes, we're setting in 38 of our installations at the new plan Valparaiso Didn't you get my letter? Well, I'm sorry. I'm afraid May I ask your name again Harris Steven B. Harris Cleveland pump company? Oh, yes Well, mr. Harris, I'm afraid mr. Markham never received your letter. When did you mail it 30 days ago? Maybe it was two weeks Well, tell mr. Markham. I'm here and I'm sorry mr. Harris Mr. Markham isn't in the office just now. Oh What are we? Oh? Well Well He won't be in today as a matter of fact. He won't be in the rest of the week Where can I call him? Well, I'm afraid that's impossible.  No Now look is he in business or isn't he mr. Harris mr. Markham hasn't been in the office for six months or more He's he's tied up on a rather long-range project. What's your name? I'm miss Bidler. Why didn't you say that in the first place miss Bidler? Well, who else can I talk to here? No one I'm afraid You mean that's all there is in this office just you and him when he feels like coming in I'll tell mr. Markham. You were here The mark of house was on Fira delistry about six blocks from the Fairmont Hotel stone walls iron grill work tangling ivy An old house that had been built by rich people for rich people to live in The kind of shabby looking place that only New Yorkers and San Franciscans can get by with and still be called wealthy I Used at Portis car with the Western life and trust company emblem on the door parked it in the driveway as close as I could to the entrance It was exactly one o'clock when the door opened He was tall and pretty with black hair and broad shoulders. Yes What is it? I'd like to see mrs. Markham, please. I'm mr. Markham. Can I help you? My name's dollar? I'm with Western life and trust company mr. Porter called you No, he didn't oh, I must have slipped his mind. He said he was going to call. What's it about? I brought a check from mrs. Markham On her third end down one policy. Oh Well, I'll give it to her. She isn't in right now. Well, I'm supposed to deliver it to her I'll come back another time when she's in you can give it to me. I'll see that she gets it I'm sorry mr. Markham, but I have to look I know you want to give her the check and try to sell her some more insurance She's just not in the market and you can save your little spiel where it'll do some good. Oh, you misunderstand me mr. Markham I have to deliver this to her in person What's your name again dollar Johnny dollar? Come in. I'll wait till she comes back and make an appointment mr. Porter told me he'd made it for three today She's here. She's here and come in Why the run around mrs. Markham is desperately ill. I don't want to disturb her with things like like this I'm sorry to hear that What's the trouble very serious anemia? So if If you'll just give me I have a report to make out when I deliver this I just only take a minute to handle the check then it'll be off my mind and off your mind Now look here, mr. Didn't you call the company's home office about this check? I I called because mrs. Markham Requested me to call. Oh, yes Just wait here In the little swirl of his exit I smell shaving lotion a guest at the brand name I Also guessed that his suit cost three hundred dollars even if I didn't know what San Francisco Taylor had made it The shirt the tie the shoes were expensive too Yeah, mr. Floyd Markham liked expensive things. I Wondered if he died his hair to keep it all black. I wondered if he was 45 or 50 I also wondered why in a house of that size on that kind of street a servant hadn't answered the door This way mr. Dollar he led me up a flight of stairs and finally into a high-ceiling room with a fireplace at one end a Grey-haired woman with a sharp angular face was seated near the window looking out over the city in the bay She didn't turn her head when we came into the room But I could see that her eyes were watery and slightly glazed Please don't take too long and don't upset her Leslie Leslie dear Yes, this is mr. Dollar from the insurance company. He has something for you Be a good girl Leslie speak to mr. Dollar How do you do and and ask him? How is mr. Porter, oh He's so fine. Mrs. Markham fine He'll be sorry to hear that you've been ill. I I Really would rather that you didn't tell mr. Porter.  Well, yes, I'd like that very much Floyd no, I'm sorry mr. Dollar. It's absolutely forbidden and you know that dear Do you have the check mr. Dollar? Yes, right here Here you are mr. Markham Thank you Is there anything else mr. Dollar? Well Leslie yes, what is it mr. Markham? Excuse me if I seem impolite Good day, Mrs. Markham Expense account item 510 cents phone call to Ed Porter at his office. Yes, mr. Dollar Look, Mrs. Markham's 5 5 about 120 black hair gray streak to the right of the part blue eyes looks about 40 years old a good 40 Why yes, that sounds like her you mean you've seen her I've seen what's left of her mr. Porter.  Porter. My guess is he's been at it for about six months Act two of yours truly Johnny dollar in just a moment Nobody will take a frown at face value anymore now that the word has gotten around about Jack Benny's return to the air With Mary Livingston Dennis Day Rochester Don Wilson Mel blank Frank Nelson and mr. Kitzel Nothing less than your very best smile will do for the occasion tonight and every Sunday night Here CBS radios Jack Benny show and give your sense of humor a real workout Now act two of yours truly Johnny dollar and the Markham matter Take a rich old house on a rich old street in San Francisco Walk in with a legitimate insurance check for fifty thousand dollars and tell them a name Floyd Markham You want to deliver it to his wife? Tell him this when you know that no one has seen or heard from his wife in six months Just tell him you want to see her Insist that you see her Then stand around and listen to him lie a couple of times Then let him take you to her give her the check say goodbye 20 minutes after I walked out of the Markham's house and picked up at Porter We drove back to the house and parked a hundred feet from the evidence This is the doneness thing I ever heard of mr. Dollar. I'm not sure it's all clear to me Yeah, what's our position? Oh, I wouldn't know that mr. Porter. That's up to the legal department this much I'm sure of right now Markham's already deposited a hundred thousand dollars of her insurance money into a joint account If I'm not mistaken this last check I'll go into that account too Right now while we're sitting here. She's probably endorsing that check Well, then I don't see where it's any of our he's making her endorse the check He's making her stay in that house in that room away from everybody. Well, how what way he said she was ill You said she appeared ill. I don't I don't know how he's doing it But I'm going to find out Are you sure this isn't all some eyes on your part? You weren't in the room when she said let's have some sherry Please let's have some sherry I must be she was really saying trying to say she wanted him to leave the room so she could talk to me So she could have one little minute to tell me what the matter is what's going on His next move is to deposit that check and one big withdrawal the whole hundred and fifty thousand and bye-bye Floyd markham Mr. Dollar, I'm just an insurance broker. I don't understand that Well, how'd you like to be an investigator for about 10 minutes me? Yeah, you see that car that just pulled up in the driveway Well, yes, yes the girl driving it holds down that dummy office of markham's her name's biblars She might be in on this with him and that's mr. Mark. I'm leaving the house. Good. Now. Look. Here's what you do follow them I think I know where they're going, but you follow them and make sure Where are they going to the bank to deposit that check? Oh Where are you going to have that glass of sherry mr. Porter? Ed Porter pulled his hat down lower of his face and put both hands on the wheel and took out after that 55 Cadillacs and Anne I crossed the street went back up on the porch of the house knocked I didn't expect her to answer I didn't expect anyone to answer, but I wanted to make sure I went around to the garden There wasn't a sound in the big old house when I opened the garden door and went up the stairs again The door to her room was closed She wasn't by the window anymore. She was stretched out on the demand I felt her wrist for a pulse. It was there faint, but there About three inches up around. There was a series of little marks I left it one eyelid and felt her neck muscles She was doped to the ears Mrs. Markham, Mrs. Markham. Can you hear me? Look, I've come to help you Yes, yes, I'm going to take you out of here. I don't be frightened That's right. That's right. That's the ticket Insurance company. Yes Now I remember. Yes, that's right Thank you For bringing my check. I don't want Want want what mrs. Markham want any of my friends to worry I'm improving But I don't want them to know I'm ill Just say I'm out of Town He told you to say that didn't he? He told me to say Exactly that Don't fool me Please don't fool me. What? You will help me get out of here You aren't fooling me. Are you? Are you? I carried it downstairs and put her in my car and drove her to the st. Regis emergency hospital Expense account of six one hundred dollars deposit with the hospital office I explained as much as necessary to the intern who promised to advise me when mrs. Markham became rational After that I drove back to the house Head porter's blue coupe was parked across the street I didn't know what to do but come back here and when I got back I didn't know what to do either Slow down slow down. You're doing fine. Oh, you were right. You were absolutely right They went straight to the bank of america to deposit that money I kind of thought they might be back here by now No, no, they're over at angelo's having a drink and some dinner. I followed them there You're getting to be quite a sleuth, mr. Porter. Well, I try to do my best and use my head Mr. Dollar, did you talk to mrs. Markham as much as I could she was doped. I took her out and put her in the hospital Oh What should you have done that mr. Dollar? I could have left her up in that room to die, mr. Porter Oh, yes Well, uh, what's our next move ours? Well, certainly. I can't quit now, mr Johnny Well, let's go to angelo's eddie Ed Porter settled the hat lower on his ears and gripped the wheel hider and we took off for angelo's on stoker street When we got there, we didn't have to go inside to see if our people were still around the cattle accident was in the parking lot So we took up a plan across the street Well, why wait why not go in and take them out of there and take them down to the police Well, that might blow the whole thing Now we have to wait and see what mrs. Markham has to say when she's well enough to talk Yeah, but uh, I'm sure she'll have some charges to prefer in the meantime. We wait and see what's what What do you think he'll do when he goes home and finds her gone? That'll be pretty interesting What do you think he'll do? Well, I imagine he'll um He'll think she got up and walked out. No. No, he knows better than that. He's had a doped up for six months He knows he can go out of the house and she'll stay right where he left her while he's gone Now that isn't it. Oh But then you'll know that she had help. That's more like it mr. Porter I liked eddie. It gives me kind of a feeling. Okay eddie I'll answer the question. Oh, uh, what'll he do? Well, uh It's he'll try to get out of town. That's it. He'll try to leave town. He'll know that he's had it Come on. Huh? They're pulling out We followed them to a cocktail lounge near the prosidio They waited around outside the place for two hours Expense account item 7 25 cents. I called the st. Regis receiving hospital Mrs. Markham's condition was unchanged Item eight two dollars two hamburgers two cokes and cigarettes for mr. Porter and myself We had just finished eating when floyd markham's Cadillac turned out onto the street We followed it for 10 minutes When markham parked on a dark hill we cut our lights and came to a stop Mr. Dollar Yeah eddie. Can you see what they're doing? Yeah What? Necky Huh? Necky, you know I should have telephoned my wife At 12 10 floyd markham turned the car around and drove back into town. We followed once more We saw him double park outside a four-story apartment house in a steep hill let the woman out then drive on Eddie yeah, johnny think you can handle something else alone. Oh, I'd love to women sometimes talk a lot easier than men You keep on him when he finds his wife absent. I want to know where he goes wherever it is I'll let you know you gonna shake her down Something like that get going I watched my new assistant investigator follow out after markham's Cadillac Then I went inside the apartment house I bitler was on the mailbox of apartment 104 I walked down the hall listened a minute and gave it a try Yes Well, what on earth are you doing? I'm here to see you miss bitler. It's important You're um, mr. Harris. I missed a dollar johnny dollar. I'm an insurance investigator There was something about you today. I I wasn't sure now you're sure Oh, what are you doing right now? I'm working for western life and trust company. You better sit down Well, I don't know that I'd better do anything mr. Dollar.  I don't think I have to tell you what we found out so far I think you also know that by this time tomorrow he'd be in jail and you might be right along with him I'm sorry mr. Dollar. I simply don't be sorry. Just use your head I said you might be right along with him On the other hand if you have some useful information the insurance company might be useful to you What do you mean? Well, I figure he sold you on a an island trip or an estate in the country bill of goods It'll be harder getting it out of him, but we'll get it one way or another. We'll get it. All right Now what do you want to do? I I want a drink You well, thanks. I'm not bad. I'm I'm not a criminal. I've never been in trouble You are now why?  Mrs. Markham. She's in a hospital right now Why I took her there myself today. He's had a dope with I don't know what for months Having assigned checks and doors deposit slips Funny is it He told me that Mrs. Markham was out of town divorcing him I wondered how I You were right It was a country estate in england A genteel life. He said The london theater walks in the country little Harmless things that most people can never do He said we could do them as soon as he cleaned up his affairs I denied he said we could start back I took Iris by the with me back to the markham house The cat alike was in the garage and ed porters blue coop was pulled up across the street When he saw us in the cab he walked up. Hi. Hi. How's he doing? You can talk in front of her. Holy. He hasn't done anything No, I mean I saw the light go on upstairs in mrs. Markham's room Then it went out again. He's downstairs now sitting in the living room. Okay. Wait here If you're worried about your wife, which I doubt she's in the hospital Policeman insurance investigator That's miss bydler in the taxi over there I want you to come with me now Of course Yes You said your name was dollar. That's right Why couldn't you have come around say Next week She'd have been dead by then That's the way she should have been for 16 years Dead Yeah Come on markham Expense account item 9 102 dollars hotel and board in san francisco item 10 116 dollars airfare back to hartford Item 11 42 dollar 16 cents miscellaneous remarks This one will wind up in court mrs. Markham's charges will include attempted homicide attempt to defraud attempt to In the end it was his attempt to run away and it didn't work It never works Even if you get away you'll find something new to run from Total expenses nine hundred and sixty eight dollars and twenty cents Yours truly Johnny dollar Now here's our star to tell you about next week's story Before I do I want to say something to you about Thanksgiving Now there's a day that deserves celebration And heartfelt thanks to the god who made us For being able to live in the most free and peaceful and bountiful country in the world And yet why wait for next thursday or any Thanksgiving day? For americans, it seems to me Thanksgiving should be every day Think about it. Won't you Next week in our story new arleans the french quarter a beautiful girl and high adventure Join us won't you Yours truly Johnny dollar Yours truly johnny dollar starring bob bailey is transcribed in hollywood Written by john dawson. It is produced and directed by jack john stone Heard in tonight's cast were lois corbett frank nelson virginia greg Bert holland holla winslow and john daner musical supervision by marigold marino Be sure to join us next week same time in station for another exciting story of yours truly johnny dollar Roy rohan speaking


What's going on, you look welcome back to my channel. If you're new here, hi, hello, my name's Lydia and I'm in mental health for you. I'm here on YouTube pretty much every day. Today I'm filming a get ready with me and I'm just going to talk a bit about my life at the moment. This is like a life update video and the last update you kind of got for me was when I was in A&E and then hospital and I haven't really updated what's going on in my life. Let's get on with it. Don't let me trap What's been going on with me? I think I went back to uni this week mostly and I'm trying to get my life back on track and yesterday, which was Thursday, I went to uni and I got sent back because anxious and my mood was really low. I was crying when I got to uni. Yeah, my anxiety and my depression aren't the moment. My anxiety medications will increase again. My lorazepam is now at four times a day again. I had decreased initially because I was trying to come off it, but I've had to increase again. So I'm back on that four times a day. My clonazepam is now morning and night. My antidepressant is 150 morning, 159. Lots of medication updates. Life on hold isn't going too bad. Things aren't that stressful. I've just been feeling really overwhelmed recently. Things haven't really... Oh, you know what? I've been struggling a lot with my eating disorder. I don't want to see them like bad or sound. I don't even know. I just don't want people criticizing this. But I've been struggling a lot with my eating disorder and what I remember that is that I've been slipping back into really old habit. I was going through a bingy phase and now I'm going through A. And now I'm going through a bit of... not a bit of, I'm going through one of the starve phases. Why? I've just been forgetting about food and it's so hard to explain. How do you forget about food? I've been full on forgetting about food and I've just tanked for me. I'm trying so hard not to fall back into old habit. That's the issue when it comes to eating disorders. You think you're doing fine. I was eating properly. I was doing okay. I was doing well and then get hit by something else and it just... I just haven't been feeling great. It's really hard to explain. The idea of food at the moment is making me feel so sick. I don't even like being back at this point. I think it's partly to do with my mood being a bit lower. Honestly, I've been feeling really run down. I don't have the motivation to do things. I don't have the energy to do things. I'm spending most of my time in bed. I'm just not at my normal functioning level. What scares me is I've got to wait until the 16th of October until my appointment with a psychiatrist. I know it isn't that long but I'm terrified of my mood getting worse. I'm terrified of my mental health. I'm terrified of ending up back in hospital. Honestly, at a point where I don't know, I think it's the right thing to say. I just don't know. But a more positive update. I went back to uni. The two days that I did go in, I only knew me three days a week, so people know that's my degree. I'm only in three times a week. I went in two because the third time I got sent home. It was really great getting back to uni actually. It was nice being back. I was like, because it's so great to be back at uni. And I am trying at the moment. I'm trying really hard. For instance, I am going to a supermarket to buy food. I'm trying to make sure I have at least something to eat in a good day. I'm just trying. You have to fight your own head. My mental health goes from, oh my god, everything's amazing. It's a combination and a half. I go from being really bubbly and bouncy and happy to crying. And last night was hard. Last night I was lying in bed and I was like, what am I doing? And I was just lying there until like two, three o'clock in the morning. I had promethazine and just knocked myself out, basically, because my medication hadn't sent me to sleep. So I've been dealing with that as well. That's with the sleeping tablet, so probably going to have to change that, which I already knew was a possibility because I have been on this sleeping tablet for a long time. I've been on the highest dose for a long time, so it only makes sense that my body is getting used to it. When it comes to my anxiety, though my anxiety is basically non-existent at the moment. Because my anxiety medication has been increased to go with the increase in anxiety, it's kind of just subsided it. I love to say this, if I can take a tablet and not feel anxious, I will, about whether it's addictive or not.  Progabalin is addictive too. I don't think it really matters what medication you take, because if it helps you and works, then fine, you know, just don't abuse it. Take it as a subscriber. And yes, slip-ups with overdoses may happen. A lot of times people with anxiety are also dealing with suicidal thoughts, and sometimes the suicidal thoughts win. And if you take maybe those, that doesn't mean you're abusing your medication. All that means is you have a slip-up, and it's bound to happen. Recovery is no smooth line, recovery is...  I just thought I'd turn the camera on, say hello, show my face.


Hey, good morning. Welcome to morning prayer from the Radiant City Center. I was glad when they said to me, let's go to the house of the Lord today. I'm just reminded of the gift of the corporate altar of intercession in the midst of crisis or difficulty. Like in the middle of world events happening in the midst of shaking, we have an altar that's already been built that we gather to. It's like King Jehoshaphat. When the army surrounded him, he had a corporate altar that he could gather people to. And when they gathered everybody, the kids and the elderly and everybody around, and they cried out to the Lord and he heard them delivered. So this morning we're going to be praying for Israel, praying for the war in the Middle East. And got a lot of different things that we're just even sensing and feeling, but we're going to give room for the Holy Spirit to lead and give utterance. I said it Sunday morning, but Psalm 122 says, pray for the peace of Jerusalem. And that's a command for us to do. And that's what we're going to be able to do this morning along with a lot of other prayer topics. And so, but let's begin. And Ms. Tammy reminded us this morning that the story of Jehoshaphat and how the worshipers were actually the ones who went forward and declared the goodness and the mercy of the Lord. And so that's what we're doing. We are going into battle this morning, but our battle is not with flesh and blood. Our battle is not with people, but our battle is spiritual. And our weapons are spiritual for the pulling down of strongholds. And so our fingers have been changed. Fingers have been trained for battle, our hands for war. And this morning our battle, our weapons is our praise. And so let's go every single person right now in this moment, put away distraction, command your soul to wake up, put the to-do list, the people you need to connect with, the side conversations you need to have. Put those aside right now in this moment. And let's just begin to lift up thanksgiving and praise. You are good. And your mercy endures forever. You are good. And your mercy endures forever. Just praise it. Clap your hands. Lift your hands. Remind yourself who the Lord is. We're just going to sing it a few more times, but let's just look upon the faithfulness of God today. Oh, sing. Remind us of the word that Wayne Drayn gave us, of warring worship. Worship, the sound of the battle cry. There's something about that perspective of I am doing war in the heavenlies. This is spiritual warfare, what's happening. And I am actually fighting through the noise and the sleepiness. And I'm shaking that off. I'm not waiting for the song that I really like. I'm not waiting for the right drum build to kind of get me in the mood. But as a soldier, I get myself ready for battle and war. I just sense we just need to stir ourselves up a little bit more. We don't need to wait for the right song to be led. I think we're a little bit sleepy, a little sluggish this morning, and there's a call going forth for warring worship. Warring songs in the heavenlies. So let's lift our tequila before the Lord. The spontaneous song of the warrior worship. Let's release the sound of the battle cry and throning the King of Israel on our praise. And throning the God of Israel upon our praises. All you are good and your mercy endures forever. Let the singers sing. Let the dancers dance. Let the people's praise be one of Israel. Oh, we exalt you Jesus. Israel belongs to you. I'm of intercession. I just want to encourage us. Let's stay engaged. Let's stay in the praises. Who said, for Zion's sake, I am never quiet. For Jerusalem's sake, I am to be torn. And so we stand in the gap this morning, God. And we just say, hostages that have been taken, Lord. And we say, rescue mission. Pray that you would bear your right arm. That you would show yourself strong on her borders. Evasion your angels as a wall in Jesus' name. Leration over Israel. Our help is in the name of the Lord. Who made grace this morning. We bypass the outer courts of distraction, Lord. The noise of this world. Of political arguments. Of the opinions and thoughts of man. Lord, we walk past those courts into the Holy of Holies. Where you are enthroned above the circle of the earth. Where you are king of kings. Where the train of your rope fills the temple. And we stand before not the rulers of man, but the ruler who created the heavens and earth. The one who the king's hand is like water. The king's heart is like water in your hand. And you turn it whichever way that you desire. Lord, we stand before you. Forever you are glorified. Forever contractual God. But you are a covenantal father. And we appeal to the God of covenants. Who said, I have established Jerusalem. I have established my throne among Jerusalem forever. And Lord, we ask Isaiah 64. Oh, that you would ran the heavens and come down. That the mountains might shake at your presence. As it burns brushwood as fire. Causes water to boil. To make your name known among your adversaries. That the nations may tremble at your presence. When you did awesome things for which we did not look.  For since the beginning of the world. Men have not heard nor perceived by the ear. Nor has I seen any God beside you. Who acts for the one who waits for him. And Lord, we are waiting for you. Actively with our prayers and intercession. Lord, we know that there is no solution from man to fix this problem. Lord, we know that there is no politician. That can make the wrong thing right. That it is a spiritual battle. And so Lord, we ask, we wait for you with our intercession. Lord, we say, would you run the heavens and come down. Lord, we lift the people of Israel before you. And God, we ask. Lord, that you would bring your judgments on Hamas. In the name of Jesus. Lord, this terrorist organization. Lord, that has been responsible for the death. And the murder of so many in Israel. And is responsible for the death. And murder of so many Palestinians as well. Lord, there is blood that has cried out from the ground. From this organization. Lord, for decades. And Lord, we ask that you would hear the cry of the blood. And that you would avenge those where the bloodshed has been poured out against Lord. And Lord, that you would illuminate. Lord, and that you would expose. Lord, Hamas and the principalities behind this. Lord, we ask for the sake of both Israel. And Palestine. Lord, that you would remove this evil, wicked organization. Lord, that has lifted itself up with haughty words against the Lord. Who has made it their statement to wipe out Israel from the face of the earth. That uses their own people as a human shield. Lord, to advance the spirit of death that is over that region. Lord, for the sake of peace. Lord, for the sake of peace in the Middle East. Lord, for the sake of peace in Jerusalem. Lord, we ask that you would do something mighty. Lord, that the mountains would shake. Lord, that your presence would come. That you would make known that Yeshua Hamashiyah is Lord. That you would do something that no God could take credit for. Lord, that the state of Israel could not take credit for. That the UN or the United States could not take credit for. But only the hand of God sovereignly dealing a death blow to the Prince of Persia and the spirit of death in this region. So God, we ask, would you ran the heavens and would you come down? Let justice triumph. Let justice triumph. But right now the church, that we would rise up the apple of your eye. God, I ask that we would not be the wild branches that boast against the tree. Lord, we would not be the branches that boast against the natural branches. But we would consider the goodness and the severity of our God. Lord, and I ask for a church that would rise up. Lord, and confront the rampant anti-Semitism that has crept in to the church. Lord, that has even been in here for generations. Lord, that has partnered with the ancient hatred because of the covenant that you made with the nation Israel, Lord. And blindness has not just come to Israel, but it has also come upon the church. Lord, but you said in the last days that the church would provoke Israel to jealousy. That there would be an hour where the love of Christ would be so prevalent. And that there would be a church and a bride that would lay down her life even to the point of death. Lord, we ask for that church to rise up. God, I ask for a church that would not be haughty in their own opinion. Lord, that would not stand tall and pretend to know. But Lord, that they would be on their knees and on their face before you in prayer and in intercession. Lord, I ask for your church to be grits. Lord, like Paul says in Romans 8, we do not know how to pray as we ought. We don't have unction apart from you. Lord, we are so distracted. And Lord, we are so taken out by the opinions of men. Lord, culture has taken prayer and stolen it from the church. But Lord, we ask for the unction and the burden of the Lord. Lord, the same burden that came upon Paul in Romans 9, when he said, I would actually wish myself a curse if it meant Israel being saved. Lord, in Romans 10-1, my earnest desire, my groaning, is that all of Israel would be saved. Oh Lord, that we would take on the same burden as the Apostle Paul. Lord, we would follow the leadership of the Spirit that groanings too deep for words would happen through the Holy Spirit. God, I ask that you would wake up your church to pray for Israel in this hour. Lord, that we would not be caught sleeping. Lord, that we would not stand on the sidelines like cowards afraid to confront the Spirit of the age that is at work. But we would stand with courage and boldness and unity and that we would contend for the apple of your eye. We would contend for the nation of Israel. So we say to the church, wake up in this hour. Wake up, sleeping church. Wake up, wake up. Rise up from the dead that the light of Christ shine in you that you may rise and pray and stand in this hour in the name of Jesus. Just put your hand over your heart right now as we close. Lord, we confess the prayer of Paul. We do not know how to pray as we ought. We do not know how to pray with the unction and the compulsion of the Spirit. Lord, we ask not human sentiment, not because we're supposed to, not because our leaders are telling us to, but because we are gripped with the groaning of the Spirit. Oh God, would you teach us how to pray for your people Israel? Lord, would you wake us up from our slumber and our sleep? Lord, from our fogginess? From all the reasons that we are distracted and we do not pray? Lord, wake us up and give us your burden. Lord, with our hands on our hearts, Lord, we declare Isaiah 62. For Zion's sake, I will not hold my peace. And for Jerusalem's sake, I will not rest until her righteousness goes forth as brightness and her salvation as noon day. And then in verse 8, I have set watchmen on your walls, O Jerusalem. They shall not rest or hold their peace day or night. You who make mention of the Lord, do not keep silent and give him no rest until he establishes and makes Jerusalem a praise in the earth. Lord, we ask, Lord, you have made covenant. Lord, give us grace to fulfill this prophetic promise. Lord, that we would be watchmen on the wall for Jerusalem. Lord, you are looking, the eyes of the Lord are looking to and fro, looking for those who will say yes to the cry of the Spirit to not hold our peace. That we would make mention of the Lord and not keep silent until you establish Jerusalem as a praise in the earth. Lord, we say, we are willing. Lord, we believe but help our unbelief. Lord, we are willing but help our lack of willingness. Give us your burden to pray. Give us your burden for your people. In the name of Jesus. Amen. Amen. Amen. Thank you for praying and contending for us like Tammy said at the beginning. We just stand as little watchmen in Kalamazoo thousands of miles away. But our feet may be here, but our words are before heaven and angels and demons move in the Middle East when we lift up our voice and pray. Amen. Well, we're going to be contending this entire week from the Radiant City Center just per Pastor Lee's request. We are going to be praying and interceding at least one cycle per prayer meeting. This week we're just going to take our stand on the wall morning, noon, and night and be praying for Israel, be praying for peace in the Middle East. So we welcome you to join us in person or to come online. Bless you. Have a great day.