What's up everybody, Jason here for jasperjasecasebreaks.com, 2020 Panini Daunras Optic Hybrid Edition Football just sold out. This is a three box break, random divisions number two, eight total spots guys, all card ship, everybody gets a random division in the NFL. So here we go guys, here's the dice roller, here are the customer names from Matt down to Jonathan Laszbaal Mojo, and then we got the AFC North down to the NFC West. So let's roll the dice, three three six times, good luck. One, two, three, four, five, and six. Six times, Matt down to Matthew, six times, one, two, three, four, five, and six in the final time, boom, AFC West at the top down to the AFC South. So Matt you have the AFC West, Liva with the NFC East, Terry with the NFC West, Luis you have the NFC North, Matt with the AFC North, Jonathan with the NFC South, Laszbaal Mojo, George with the AFC East, and Matthew with the AFC South. Now if anybody wants to trade, I'll give you a quick minute to trade divisions, if not stick to what you got. Colts would be AFC what, AFC South, right? AFC South, if I'm correct. Yeah, so you would have to make a trade with Matthew S.  Alright, let's just close it then. Let's do it, let's do it, stick to what you got guys, try to trade couldn't trade Mojo maybe. Alright, so again, I did close up another three box break, there you go. Our autographs are a little tough to hit out of here, but you can get downtowns from here, some numbered cars, and who knows, maybe we could get an autograph, we did get an autograph from the last one. Let's see what we got here guys. How good are you guys? Ooh, what do we got here? KJ Hamler and Evan Jefferson, little discos to 125 for the Alley Rams, NFC West, Terry, Cole McDonald and Antonio Gibson, little Mojo, Red Mojo, with a Colk Met, look at that, we got an autograph. It has a purple on card, number to 35 for the Chicago Bears going to the NFC North, Luis, look at that man, Antonio Gibson and a little Julio, we got a Alberto and a mythical Jordan Love, silver as well, and what a break right now so far, NFC North, Ben Donacci, Chase Young, Jalen Rager, J.K. Dobbins, Logan Wilson and Misha Trebisky, nice little box break right there with an autograph and the silver mythical, nice, next box, we got Trevon Diggs, Justin Jefferson, we got Ross Blacklock, A.J. Dillon and Joe Mixon, that is a numbered card for the Bangles, that's AFC North, we got Matt L, 21 out of 99, Jordan Love, Tommy Steven Silver or I should say Hollow, Jeff Okuda for Detroit, we got Brian Edwards, Red Mojo, Leviska Chanel Jr., James Morgan, D.K. Magcap and Michael Thomas, alright last box guys, and again I did post another three box break if you guys want to run it back, DeAndre Swift, very nice right there for Detroit, Red Mojo, T. Higgins, Colk Matt, Jameson Crowder Hollow, we got A.J. Epenza, whoa little orange, Chase Young and a T. Higgins for the AFC North going to Matthew, that is a rated rookie to 199, little Tom Brady, Justin Jefferson, how about a Chase Claypool, a little Hollow, very nice, we got A.J. Dillon, Red Mojo, Quinn Seifus, Tyler Zulaire and Derek Henry, alright there you go guys, so we did get some nice ones here, still no downtown guys potentially, give me the next three box break, we did get some good Red Mojos though, we did get an autograph, a little mythical as well, Colk Matt to 35, DeAndre Swift, T. Higgins number, Chase Claypool, A.J. Dillon, and of course we're also going to top load all of these hits right here as well, a lot of other rookies in here, the Visca Chanel in there as well, some more numbered cards, a lot of Red Mojos, so there you go guys, appreciate it, this is break number two, number three's in the store, last piece of case breaks dot com.


Is the madness over? Could I relax now? Or is this show gonna make me die? Because I passed the cemetery the other day, and I slowly caught myself gravitating towards it. Get this video to 15,000 likes, and I'll react to the Demon Slayer movie. Mugen Train. Is Tanjiro Zenitsu and Anosuke like running the train on a demon or something? I'd love to see that. Count me in. Okay! Let's get to the show. Ah... The madness is over. Beautiful. No more demons. I mean, outside my demon. My baby girl. Oh, you can tell he's a Hashira. Just by the way, he looks. He's doing it as braids. But they're like rocks. Guy has red hair. You ain't gotta show his face. You know he's a badass. She doesn't even need to open her mouth to talk. This is main character territory. I already think she's hot. All I hear is her voice, and I see her lips, and I'm ready.  Look at them. Okay, who am I gonna like the most? I think I'm gonna like either the guy on the right, all the way to the right with the two swords, or the guy in the middle with the flaming hair. I think it's gonna be the middle guy. I think I'm gonna love him the most. He just has that look.   What is a Hashira? They're the gods. Stop speaking so gently. She pisses me off so much.  Master of the Mansion. Are we gonna, like, be on the ground the entire episode? Ren Goku! Ooh! I knew I would like it. Look at him. He's shinin'.  We're going to be headed along with the demon. You ain't touchin' the demon. Uzi.  Finally. This dude's already crying. Oh, that's literally me.  God speaking. Look at them. There's only six of them. Ooh, who's this? Ooh, I like this guy. Ooh, that's a cool design. Oh, you can teach me a lesson, Daddy. Yeah, there he is, Mabo, at Tomioka! Damn, this girl's thirsty, bro.  You know what I mean? All right, so who's the ultimate Hashirara? She wants to blow on your sword.  We know who you are. Where's the ninth one? They just showed eight. Don't you know?  How about you watch the show and you'll know? Finally, medicine. The medicine girl, I'm waiting. Like, heal them already so we can talk. Thanks. Thanks for the advice. You were just talking about beheading my sister, but, you know, stay hydrated. Not the Nezuko music. Whenever they play this music, I get emotional. Wait, is this snake the ninth Hashirara? Like, is he part? I don't know. He has red eyes. He looks like a main character snake. He's still looking at the clouds. This is literally me. That's a beautiful bird. Exactly. What was that bird? Does it talk? I need to know this. Chanta, where is he? Something interesting has happened. Who are you? A demon. Oh, he looks like number nine. He looks like a badass.   Yo, this girl's wet for everyone. Is this what Mugen trains about? All the Hashirars run the train on her. Oh, she likes it rough. Oh my God. Now she likes the ladies too. Damn, leave someone for me. Get over here right now. Get over here. Only in this show could I watch someone get impaled with a sword through their heart and I don't react in a surprised way. Like, I know they're going to be fine.  No heads. Look at them. You got the Hashirars at disbelief. Hey, come on. Yo, now you got her on you, Tanjiro.  Oh, not them again.  Oh, this is the guy they've showed like twice in the show already. Oh, I want to know why he looks like that.   I'm ready. I'm here for it.  I got to take this hoodie off.  Hold on. Oh, so he's blind. But he's still probably like Jesus level. So, you know, I guess you don't need eyes in this show. You don't need eyes. Tanjiro just uses his head. All of them change. All their quirks. They disappear when the when the when masters around. You want to offer your greetings to everyone. Stop, stop it. Man, his presence is legendary. Like, I love this. You have all of them bowing down to him. I want to see all of them fight. You're going to do what he says. We know that. We know you'll do whatever anyone says. Honestly, my ex was just like this girl. Oh, I love him. I think he's my favorite. Yeah, these character designs. How is he saying I would smile on his face? It doesn't match up with me. Is he going to read the letter? How? Oh, I forgot.  Oh, I thought they were going to start reading it together. Like, she doesn't like a paper. It just appeared in front of her, too. This is so beautiful, bro. Oracle. Thank you. Take a care of his pupil, his son. Oh, this show is so beautiful. The music, the setup, the. Oh, my God. He. Oh, my God. Just realized that he is taking. Tomioka is taking responsibility for Tajiro.  I'm going to turn to that. That crying bitch, Hashira. Beautiful. Oh, man. The chills in my body. Oh, not this music. This is an important scene music. Oh, man, has has has brains. That's what happens when you have eyes. You have more time to think. Yo, this guy looks like he's like he's high off that ganja. Damn, bro. Whatever you take, slide in my way. I just moved and the weed out here is not that great. Oh, now now we are smiling, right? Because you put your place, boy.  Yeah, even he cares.  He didn't even need to say anything.  My God, this is incredible. Oh, guys, the music that where this show is going. I love this. And what happened to you? What did the demons do to you, bro?  He's taunting her. This is sick. Oh, my God. Let's go. No. No, no. I feel so bad. Get over here. Oh, you got this baby girl. Come on. Tajro is praying like his life depends on it right now. He's like, let's go, please, baby girl. No, I would be bad too.  Thank God we're doing the next episode. Oh, my God. Hashara meeting. The animation in a show is always God's here. I'll take it to you hard. Is this his thing? Is he always going to be crying? Mr. Tanjiro whenever they showed his guy. I don't know why I get so emotional. I don't even know him that much. I forgot what her mouth looked like. Look at that. Wow. Tanjiro and Nezuko are fighting as a bloodbath. They're helping each other. I... I love anime. Anime is in my life now. Anime's life. Yeah. I feel like I'm floating.  Just like that.  He's going for the top dog. That's what we do here. In the Komodo family. He says it so gently. I love him. That's how he's laughing right now. This guy's always smiling. Yeah, Tanjiro.  Even the girls. Damn, she got... Don't do it too much. He didn't say stop at all. Yeah. Where are we going now? My heart... is full. Look, look at her. No, no, no. Why are you afraid? She's so cute. Tanjiro. Find you a man like Tanjiro. That'll fight for you no matter what. Stop it! Stop! Walk on your own. Do you know what he's just been through? Do you know? Oh, I... Listen, I hate butterflies now. I don't know, man.    Is a butterfly like an animal? Or... Does Pete protect insects too?   She's the other one from the mountain. Yeah! I was like, where did she go? She's a girl, but she's awesome. What does that mean? What's with these butterflies? Zenitsu's back! All right, those eyes look cute on her too. The Nesco eyes. I'm not going to lie. Every girl is cute in this show. Why? Oh, my God, I missed him. I miss Zenitsu. My favorite character in the show. Look at her, she's so cute!  Oh, that's right. He didn't even know. He didn't even know what Zenitsu just went through. He almost died. He turned into a spider at... Almost. Tanjiro missed everything. He missed Chantaro. If it wasn't for Chantaro, they'd all be dead. He's in his little PJs. He's all depressed. I feel so bad for an Osuke. Like, his confidence, his ego is just down now. I feel so bad for him. Don't laugh! Fuck. Dude, I love Zenitsu, man. I heard people don't like him. I love him. He's like my favorite besides Chantaro. This is going to be the saddest arc ever. Man, everything they've just been through. And that was just the beginning. Like, now the story begins, I feel like.  Great. Great! That there's literally shadow right there. Oh, there we go. Okay. Oh my God, I'm gonna cry, man. Y'all could have blocked out her window. If this is her room. Nezuko. She?  I'm gonna adopt a little Nezuko. I need one. I'm not getting a dog or a bird. I'm getting a Nezuko. You think they have them at the adoption center? Oh, you will. You're the main character. Your potential is limitless. Man, I have so many questions. Me too. Like, I felt like I was floating when he was talking. Such a gentle voice. Oh, you're already a grown man, bro. I don't care if you're seven years old in this show. I love how the music stopped while he was saying that. Huh. Really? Literally, the only useful ones are in this room. Or in this territory. This is like, this setup for the show now. Like, everything up to this point was the prelude to the main story. And I love that. I love this guy. He makes me smile, no matter what he says. He can be talking about his dead daughter. I'd still smile. Just, he says it with such happiness and enthusiasm. Damn, man, the music! Oh! I love you. Tomioka. Hell yeah, baby. Say your name too. Oh, okay. Oh, me too. I look forward to all your success. Oh my god. Ooh, that's how you end an episode, bro. Let's go, man. I'm ready to see this fight. I love how this whole season has been kind of like a setup for the main arc. I feel like this was like before the book started. Like, this is a prelude. This gathers everyone in the same place. And now we have an objective. We know what the main objective is. As this past 24 episodes, I believe, it's like setting up Tanjiro to get there. And now we're here. We have a set plan. And now we get the train and get to that. I love the characters. I love the character designs. I love this arc that Inosuke has right now. Like, he's depressed. He doesn't think he's strong enough. So now he has to develop that confidence. As before, the confidence was more like arrogance. But now he's going to develop this respect for other people, knowing that he's not the strongest. And I love that. Zenitsu is still a little bitch, but I love him. I release him the most. And Chanto though is still my number one. When are we going to see him again, huh? I don't know, but I'm ready. I'm ready to see some Hasha reaction.  Beautiful. Beautiful. Anyways, that's going to be it for today, guys. Tell me down below your favorite scene in these two episodes that I reacted to today. Mine was definitely the one that I just mentioned where Tanjiro finds out that Tomoyoka put his, I don't even know his name yet, that he put his life on the line. See you all in tomorrow's video. Goodbye.


Wow, it has been a long time since I made an Outriders video. But it seems as all the time has finally come. It seems something is in the works, and today guys we get into it all. How's it going people? My name is DPJ and if you enjoyed the video, even a like really helps out and if you like what you see and want to see more, be sure to subscribe. So Outriders right now for 80% maybe more people has really been forgotten about. It was a game which for sure at launch had promise, but the entire foundations of the game were kind of etched into wet concrete and left in the rain. Long story short, the rain washed away the promise and expectations people thought the game was going to bring, basically due to its one and done deal. Being a loot shield we expected more, but due to the many issues that arise not longer after release, PCF has spent an eternity trying to fix issues before even talking about what's to come. If anything's to come, we just don't know. But right now the game has been in a decent enough state to play, but PCF has been extremely quiet. Well that's until they tweet at this earlier stating, the Outriders broadcast is making a return. And this means in reality one thing, PCF already showcased what's next for the game, it's either that or I have no idea, so I'm hoping it's either them discussing the future or showcasing it. Now some people will have had an email which showcases a little more info on this, it would look like the one you see on the screen now and it states, it's back. The Outriders broadcast will have all the latest news, trailers, updates and more. Join us for the official Outriders broadcast stream on November 15th. Or you will not want to miss this one. We have a big update for you all, I cannot wait people. Watch the latest trailer for the Outriders broadcast, a new horizon, now a new horizon underlined in blue, what could this mean people? Now this to me definitely sounds like something new is coming, I mean I could be wrong, I hope I ain't, but I just have a feeling the time is now. Christmas is coming, people are jolly and well, actually maybe I'm just overlooking things I don't know. I'd almost forgot about this game I won't lie, but either way 100% deserves another chance from me, mainly due to the amount of fun I got out of it and also the amount of fun I got out of streaming the game. I loved it. So yes guys, November 15th, I will have you covered on whatever this is, good or bad, we will see it together. And on that note, the end of the video has arrived guys, if you enjoyed it, leaving a like really helps out, feel new around here and want to see more, be sure to subscribe, and if you never want to miss a video, I upload content notifications on, by hitting that bell button. But guys, thanks as always for stopping by and hopefully I will see you on the next one.


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I'm talking to that believer who is working with the Holy Spirit, surrendering to the Holy Spirit, doing what they can in their own power in partnership with God's grace to resist the temptations of the sin nature. I'm talking to the struggling believer who's frustrated with their own behavior, who says, I don't want to do those things, but I keep doing them, or I know I should do those things, but I can't bring myself to do them. You should know that the Holy Spirit abides even when you sin, and this is something that friends of the Holy Spirit know, because as you continue to walk long term with the Holy Spirit in a way where you're aware of his presence, in a way where you're aware of his nature, as you continue to walk with him, there will be moments that you make a mistake. There will be times where you fail him, and in those moments you'll know that the presence of the Holy Spirit remains with you. So this is not an encouragement to sin. This is simply to say that even in our flawed state, the Holy Spirit abides. John chapter 14 verses 15 through 17 say this, if you love me, obey my commandments, and I will ask the Father and he will give you another advocate who will never leave you. He is the Holy Spirit who leads into all truth. Now let me stop there just for a moment to acknowledge that very clearly Jesus is instructing us to obey the commands of God. So here we see both grace and truth. You must obey his commands. If you truly love him, you will aim to keep God's holy standard. And then he says, and I will ask the Father and he will give you another advocate who will never leave you. He is the Holy Spirit who leads into all truth. The world cannot receive him because it isn't looking for him and doesn't recognize him. So unbelievers do not have the Holy Spirit. And we understand that the Holy Spirit is omnipresent. He's everywhere at all times. But the Scripture makes it abundantly clear that there is an indwelling presence of the Holy Spirit in the believer that is different than the omnipresence of the Holy Spirit. This is a heightened influence of him. It's how God marks his people. But you know him because he lives with you now and later will be in you. The Holy Spirit will never leave a true believer.  That's often debated. We're not talking about that. But what I am saying is that the Holy Spirit does not leave a true believer. When you are a true believer, the Holy Spirit abides with you. In fact, we need him for the work of sanctification. We need the Holy Spirit to abide to help us get it right. First Peter 1-2 says, elect according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, through sanctification of the Spirit, unto obedience and sprinkling of the blood of Jesus Christ, grace unto you and peace be multiplied. So sanctification of the Spirit is unto obedience. So it is the work of the Holy Spirit in your life that enables you to obey. We can pray, incline my heart to your statutes, incline my heart to your word. Lord, make me willing to obey you. Bend my will. That's what the Holy Spirit does. When we surrender to that process of sanctification, we surrender to the work of the Holy Spirit. He begins to do things in us that causes our nature to be transformed. 2 Thessalonians 2-13 says, But we are bound to give thanks always to God for you, brethren, beloved of the Lord, because God hath from the beginning chosen you to salvation through sanctification of the Spirit and belief of the truth. So we believe the Holy Spirit sanctifies Romans 8-13, for if ye live after the flesh ye shall die. Scripture is abundantly clear there, but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body ye shall live. So here the Scripture is telling us that in order to subject the sin nature, in order to subject the effect that the sin nature has to the physical body, we must do so through the power of the Holy Spirit. It's through the Spirit that we mortify or put to death the deeds of the flesh. So how is it that the Holy Spirit can dwell where there is sin? This is a good question. How can the Holy Spirit dwell with a sinful person? Well, remember, this is the work of the cross. This is atonement. This is the ministry of reconciliation. This is imputed righteousness to you through faith. When you, as a born again believer, place your faith in the finished work of the cross, there's a great exchange that takes place. When God looks at the cross, and he sees the suffering of his son, and he had poured out his wrath upon the son, when God looks at that sacrifice, when God looks at Christ on the cross, he sees your every mistake. It was our sins that put him there. When God looks at the cross, he sees your flaws. He sees your mistakes. He sees your iniquity. He sees your sinful attitudes, your sinful thoughts. And that exchange took place in your favor because now when God looks at those who've placed their faith in Christ Jesus, he sees Christ's perfection on them. So God is redeeming us. Let me ask you this. When we sin, who is the one sinning? Is it someone else? Another person that we might be able to blame? No. Is it some demon? No. Is it culture sinning through us? No. Who is the one sinning when we sin? The Bible makes it clear that when we are carried away by our own sinful desires, that's when we give in to temptation. So when we sin, we are the ones who sin. The sin nature in us that we choose to allow to have influence. Now, who is the one being redeemed? You are. God is redeeming you. So there is something redeemable about us because of what Christ did on the cross. So this is how the Holy Spirit can abide with you even though you still make mistakes. It's because the imputed righteousness. It's because of the Atonement. I mean, think about this. If the Holy Spirit couldn't dwell with us just because we make mistakes, then that means anytime we ever made even a small mistake, if you can call it a small mistake compared to the holiness of God, that would mean that any thought, any action, any lapse in judgment would cause the Holy Spirit to abandon us, which would mean that the Holy Spirit would come and go and come and go and come and go. Well, that's not what the Holy Spirit does. The Holy Spirit doesn't abandon us when we make mistakes. Sure, we should feel convicted. Yes, there are consequences to sin. Yes, sin is still very destructive in the life of the believer. And yes, there are still even eternal consequences to sin through the loss of reward in the life of the believer. But what sense would it make for God to remove from you your only chance at being holy as a punishment for not being holy? Well, think about it. The Holy Spirit in you is what allows you to resist the sin nature. So if you make a mistake and God removes from you the Holy Spirit, what chance do you have now? How will he possibly help you to resist if he's abandoned you? So the very fact that the Holy Spirit abides with you is proof of his mercy and compassion. And therefore, when the Holy Spirit abides, he's working with us against the sin nature, Galatians 5.16. So I say, let the Holy Spirit guide your lives. Then you won't be doing what your sinful nature craves. Watch this, verse 17. The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other. So you are not free to carry out your own good intentions. Sin has no place in the life of the believer. There are consequences to sin. Sin is destructive. And there is even eternal loss of reward if we continue in sin on this side of eternity. But the Holy Spirit isn't going to abandon you because you make a mistake. This is the other side of the coin. The Holy Spirit is gracious. He's more faithful than we are sinful. He's more patient than we are stubborn. He abides with us faithfully. This is something that friends of the Holy Spirit know. When you've walked with the Holy Spirit closely, when you come to know him and his word, you understand that there is a certain security in walking with the Holy Spirit not to excuse your sin, not to allow you to continue in sin, but he abides that he might remain with you and help you get it right. He stays with you and says, let's correct this. He'll convict you harshly.  That's what the Holy Spirit does when you're not living like you should. The presence of the Holy Spirit in the life of a compromising believer can bring about very strong conviction and make you quite miserable. He won't let you sleep. He won't let you enjoy things until you get that sin right. And that's his mercy. He loves you too much to leave you to your own compromise and your sin. So you can mess up. You shouldn't, but you can mess up and the Holy Spirit still abide. You shouldn't try to. We should all strive for holiness, but this doesn't mean that the Holy Spirit is going to abandon us. Friends of the Holy Spirit know this about him. They don't take advantage of that, though. See, this is the mark of a true believer. A true believer will look at the mercy of God and say that inspires me to do better, that inspires me to live holy, that inspires me to get it right. Someone who's not a true believer will look at that and say, well, now I'm free to sin. Well, that's proof that the Holy Spirit isn't working in them, because the Bible very clearly says that the Holy Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what our sin nature desires. Someone right now can just thank the Holy Spirit. I want you to just thank the Holy Spirit in the comment section right now. Thank you, Holy Spirit. You can word that however you want. I don't know about you, but I'm thankful for the faithfulness of the precious Holy Spirit. He abides not to excuse our sin. He abides not to allow us to continue in sin, but he abides that he might liberate us from sin and continue to work with us to make us more like Christ. So again, how can the Holy Spirit abide there with sin present in your life? It's because of the blood of Jesus. It's because of the work of the cross. It's because of what Jesus did in that great exchange at the cross. Remember this, it was at the cross that the best that God had to offer met with the worst that man had to offer. Man offered sin, rebellion, stubbornness, pride. God offered his son. The best that God had to offer and the worst that man had to offer met at the cross and was expressed right there in that moment when the great exchange took place. And now you and I can have the Holy Spirit because our record is clean because of what Christ did. So when God looks at us, he gives us Christ's perfection. That's imputed righteousness. He looks at us and says, I see my son. And so that's how you can make a mistake. Don't take advantage of it, because if you truly love the Holy Spirit, I'll say this, if you're truly born again, you'll have no desire to take advantage of that. Truly born again people don't desire to take advantage of God's grace. They use God's grace for what it was intended to be free from sin. But that's how a believer can keep the Holy Spirit, even when they sometimes make mistakes because of the work of the cross. God is not redeeming angels. God is not redeeming demons. God is redeeming you. And that's why the Holy Spirit can stay with you, even when you make a mistake. What a privilege it is. Angels don't understand this. Angels don't even know that work of redemption. We do. We have that privilege. God so loved us and he chose to redeem us. Thank you Holy Spirit indeed. I want to pray with you right now. And I want you to ask for the Holy Spirit's help in causing you to walk in a way that pleases him. Father, I pray for that one receiving this now. And first of all, Lord, we thank you that your mercies are new every morning and every moment. We ask you to forgive us for the ways that we've grieved you precious Holy Spirit. Come on, just tell him. Tell him, I'm sorry Holy Spirit. Tell him that. Say this, say help me to please you and not grieve you. Now precious Holy Spirit, be their reminder and let them live in an awareness of the nearness of your presence. Thank you Lord that you will buy. In the mighty name of Jesus we pray. I want you to say because you believe it, say amen. I know it's tempting to click on to something else. There's lots of content that we offer on various different topics, but just for a moment, hear me out. I want to ask you, my brother, my sister, I need your help with something. Look, we in the body of Christ need each other. The Lord obviously is the one who's increasing his ministry. The Lord is the one who brings in the resources that we need to accomplish the work of the gospel. The gospel is free, but the means to deliver the gospel, that can cost, especially when you want to deliver the gospel message on a mass scale like we're doing, that takes resources.   I'm asking you to not let the screen disconnect us. I'm asking you to not say, well, you know, someone else will give or someone else. I'm asking you to listen and ask the Holy Spirit what you should give.  You can give a single gift by going to davidhernandezministries.com slash donate. 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That's right everybody's favorite little angsty teenage singer Billy Eilish just snapped on all the non-vegans out there and it's something that we definitely need to talk about. What is up everybody this is Chris from the Rewired Soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel what I like to do is take a look at what's happening in the YouTube community or pop culture and try to see what lessons we can learn from them so if you're into that stuff make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell and if you're not following me on Instagram and Twitter what are you waiting for at the Rewired Soul and you'll get updates about all the other stuff I'm doing it's not just a YouTube channel so if you need if you need a little bit more Chris make sure you're following me because I'm trying to get more active on my blog and I just posted a new blog post that I'll put in the description below I posted on my community tab but anyways it's something I learned about the importance of bathing every single day in self-care when you're struggling with depression so there's a link to that blog down below as well as my social media so you know when new blog posts go up new podcasts and all that kind of stuff all right but yeah Billy Eilish I saw this on Twitter I think it was retweeted by Anthony Fantano and it was from Billy Eilish's Instagram story and it was a little message to non-vegans all right so here's what it said I keep my mouth shut most of the time about this because I believe everyone should do eat and say whatever they want and I don't feel the need to shove what I believe in in anyone's face but man if you can watch the videos that I just posted and not give a crap that it's you contributing by literally eating the creatures that are being fully tortured just for your pleasure I feel sorry for you I understand that meat tastes good and I know you think you're just one person and it quote unquote won't change anything if you stop but that's ignorant and stupid if you have half a brain you should know one person adds up be smarter all right so I have some things to say about this now how am I qualified in any way shape or form to discuss this topic well little known fact I have actually been a vegetarian for almost two years now right I actually said something on Twitter I retweeted a comment that I got or I tweeted a comment that I got like a lot of people don't think I'm a vegetarian because I'm overweight but just trust me I'm living proof that overweight vegetarians do exist but anyways I wanted to discuss this and what Billy Eilish said as a vegetarian and you know just talking about my experience as well as just some of the things I don't like in the vegetarian slash vegan community now something that I haven't taken the full leap on yet is being vegan all right there is a lot that I eat that is fully vegan and I might discuss that a little bit later in this video but anyways when it comes to Billy Eilish something I want to discuss is it's not it's not the best method to get people to change or make this world a little bit better or different by trying to shame them into this right like I didn't see the videos that she watched like personally I don't watch those like I know they're happening okay and I when I became vegetarian it was mainly for health reasons I had high blood pressure seven years ago when I was getting clean and sober I was diagnosed with congestive heart failure high blood pressure runs in my family so my doctor you know was talking to me about it I said you know what my best friend and my beautiful girlfriend are you know vegetarian or vegan and I'm gonna give it a try so I made a commitment to try for one month just to see what happened my blood pressure went down and I lost 20 pounds all right so it started out as a health thing for me okay but like we know like we know what's happening on these farms right like so I don't watch these these videos that people share like like I know what's happening I'm against it I don't like it but that's that's my thing but a lot of people don't watch it just because they choose not to know where their meat is coming from but here's the thing like I said I don't believe in shaming people into your way of thinking and I feel it makes like vegans and vegetarians look really bad now don't get me wrong Billy Eilish has a massive audience massive audience so like when I look at what she's doing and the amount of influence that she has like don't get me wrong I guarantee I guarantee she has some fans who are going to see her saying these things and they're going to be little Billy Eilish fan girls and be like oh snap Billy Eilish doesn't want me to eat meat so I'm not going to eat meat that's cool by the way if you're about to make the switch talk to a doctor or talk to people who have experience being vegetarian or vegan to make sure you're getting all the other vitamins and everything like that you might just have to take a multivitamin but also one of the myths about being vegetarian and vegan is that like the substitutes do not have all the vitamins and that's not true at all like many of the foods that myself and Tristan eat have all the natural vitamins that you're gonna need all right but in in any case like you could take you know multivitamins and things like that now again I kind of mentioned with like Billy Eilish I don't believe in like this kind of like pushing this agenda and she says she's not but like when you're when you have an influence of millions of people and you're saying like you're dumb and ignorant like you kind of are like like kind of pushing it but anyways let's talk about the ethical side of this this so again like I started out with my vegetarianism because of health reasons but then it turned kind of ethical you know like I have my you know my amazing cat Maya um and things like that but I did start thinking about this and something that I'm really into is like um Buddhist philosophy not the religion but the philosophy and my loving kindness and trying to express like empathy for all beings right and like that that kind of aside from losing weight and my blood pressure going down like it kind of helped me stay off of meat right aside from that there's some bomb meat substitutes out there but anyways I'll never forget this in in Las Vegas a couple years ago right around the time I first became vegetarian like um there was uh this like U-Haul truck that was pulled over if I have a uh a screenshot of the news story I'll put it uh put it up but like the the U-Haul was like filled filled with like Pomeranians all right these little dogs and they were like crammed in these little cages and everything like that and people freaked out and like luckily some animal shelters and veterinarians took all these dogs in and I treated them back to health and there was this huge push to get them adopted and everything like that and I remember just one of my friends here in Las Vegas sharing this on Facebook and saying like you know like why are we so um you know empathetic towards dogs but things like this are happening to farm animals on a daily basis and I was like dang that makes sense and it just it's just something that I had to think about because I was early on in my vegetarianism and didn't know if I was gonna stay on it but it's what they had to think about like why am I so compassionate towards like household pet animals but not other animals out there all right so again I'm not trying to push anything on you but these are just things that I think about so when I look at Billie Eilish and what she put out there and everything and like girl I am part of like some vegan groups on Facebook and the insanity that goes on there like if you want to see pure craziness go get in a vegan Facebook group and watch vegan on vegan hate it will blow your mind so I just want to in this video with some suggestions I have to anybody out there like the first thing that we have to do is just acknowledge like ethically like what's going on a lot of us you know wouldn't wouldn't agree with it if we were there right if we know about it but a lot of us choose ignorance because that's bliss and everything so here's here's my suggestion like one of them if you want to see a great great great video I'll try to put the clip down in the description below but it's between Joe Rogan and Russell Brand Joe Rogan is a hunter all right he hunts his food and eats it you have Russell Brand who is a vegan and Joe Rogan is all about the ethical treatment of animals so he talks about like doing it in a humane way and like certain farms that he will buy eggs from and things like that you know what I mean so there if you're going to keep eating meat like I am of no you know illusion that people are going to watch this and keep eating meat just like try to think about those things in like the ethical way because the other issue that we have to think about is global warming right these factory farms are contributing to global warming which kind of sucks okay so what we all have to realize and like even though I don't agree with how Billy Eilish said it like what we have to realize is that we do make a difference just one by one by one I remember after being vegetarian for a year right I remember just going to the store and just wondering like okay like it's all about supply and demand like the grocery store that I go to buy my house do they order you know less things because I'm not buying as much meat as I was right because when they're looking at their numbers and saying okay we're not selling as much maybe we don't need as much so then the farms aren't going to need to produce as much you see what I mean so like I'm also a realist and something I've been talking about a lot lately when I'm talking about mental health and kind of improving your mental health and everything like that it's baby steps all right like yeah saying like cutting out meat entirely can be overwhelming it can seem crazy and everything like that so something that you might benefit from if it's just something you're even on the fence about or you just want to like help in some way shape or form what I suggest is like pick one day a week two days a week three days a week whatever you think you can do it would be like okay this one day I'm going to be vegetarian all right and listen listen baby like research your city find you a good vegan restaurant or just find a vegan restaurant right like most are vegan and not vegetarian but you will find some amazing amazing meat substitutes by the way while I'm on the topic one of the dumbest things that I ever hear is well if it tastes like meat you might as well just eat meat like what no animal died like for example carl's junior now has the beyond burger tastes phenomenal and I hear more and more fast food places are doing that but anyways just try to do one day where you cut out meat products all right like even a I'm not full-blown vegan okay so that means I still have dairy like milk cheese um I still eat eggs and things like that but I'm trying to do my part as a vegetarian so if you add up all the people if people just did this one day a week like even my son my son's 10 years old been vegetarian for about two years so my son still eats meat when he's at his mom's house but when he comes over here like I do get him some meat products and he better eat it because I don't but anyways um I do make him a lot of vegetarian meals and he absolutely loves it if you guys want me to make a video or like some like uh Instagram post or tweets about like vegetarian meals and things like that that I make and what I buy at the store let me know down in the comments below there's a lot of stuff if you go down to the vegetable aisle at your grocery store you will find some dope vegetarian substitutes whether it's like um beyond meat uh corn um what is it famous star what what's the one the star morning star morning star all right there are some good vegetarian products and just check it out like get a little thing of like chicken nuggets or like um I like their chicken sandwiches too like they're pretty dope but anyways just check it out if you want me to do some videos on that and talk about that more let me know down in the comments below all right so Billy Eilish I appreciate what you're trying to do but just dial it back just dial it back just a few notches all right girl but anyways if you're a vegan or vegetarian and you like made the switch like let me know like how the transition was for you or what what foods you buy or where you go for recipes and all that kind of stuff all right let me know down in the comments below but anyways that's all I got for this video if you like this video please give it a thumbs up if you're new make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell because I make a ton of videos and don't forget to follow me on instagram and twitter at the rewired so so you can stay up to date about blogs and everything like that the new blog is down in the description below but make sure you're 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It's still the breakfast in plus TV Africa, Andrea Cotiver joins us this morning as we look at the consent of 10, Jack Rich, an oil executive that has appealed for admission of Nigeria into the G20 economic group. Now Jack Rich made the appeal during the U.S. African Leaders Summit, which was held in Washington D.C., which noted that the inclusion of Nigeria and African Union into the G20 would be a milestone in global economic acceleration. We urge Africans in desperate to work towards achieving the score. Now according to him, Africa would be a foster con with Pacific and Caribbean countries, we're talking about 15 and 16 now, countries, to the other end you have 15 and to the other end you have 16, I integrated into the continent. So we're going to be looking at about 85 African countries, 85 plus all of that. Now he said admitting Africa into the G20 would help the continent a lot and would go a long way in ensuring its technological advancement, which is also apt. Nigeria is about 19.3% of Africa's total GDP and that's a strong economy. This is some of the argument that he's put up. But Cotiver, thank you so much for joining us, Andy, we do appreciate your time. Thank you so much for having me. Well, Andy Cotiver is a social reformer all the way, or he's in the FCT. Well, let's get straight to it. What do you make of the argument of 10 reach, right? And when you juxtapose that with the fact that in 1999, the G20 was formed around economies that are critical to the world market in the sense that the criteria at the time is the importance of a particular economy to the world's financial market. And in 1999, Nigeria was nowhere near that. Now, it's more like the composition also of the G20, it's final, you know, it's just G20, can't be G21. So juxtaposing that with the argument of the expert. What do you make of this? So we are mainly chasing clouds in Nigeria and in Africa. We are failing to do the first things first. We are failing to do the foundation and we want to build a skyscraper. Imagine for instance, if you wanted to build a skyscraper, what kind of foundation you'd be digging. And this is what is particular about Nigeria and Africans and the way Nigerians speak. What exactly is the G20 supposed to represent? The G20 is a group that you have membership of countries that indeed have proven themselves to be countries that you can reckon with everywhere in the world in terms of economy, in terms of politics, in terms of some other social political considerations, right? But you see, we are not looking at fixing the first things. In general, what do we produce in Nigeria? You know, I've had this argument several times. What are you taking to the G20? Should you be admitted into it now? Are you going to get into it as a competing country or a competing country? We are going to get into it as a pariah. We are going to get into it as a country that will go there and be beggarly. And the community or the committee of nations that are going to be at this G20 that we are pushing to get into, according to Jack Ristain, that, you know, his conversation is going to be another kind of conversation eventually. Now, according to that, when you get there, are you going to be a diner or you are going to be the meal to be eaten? What is happening with Africa and with Nigeria is that we are failed to deploy the best of resources that we have got. So that others can see us as a beautiful bride and want to come, you know, and let us and want to come and speak to us and want to come and ask us to join, because this is what you see everywhere else in the world. You know, countries will take time to develop themselves. Nigerians and Africans, we are acting like that child that has not passed through primary school but is interested in getting into university. Okay. So, but the question is the G20 was formed not to have new members. I mean, it's G20, and that's what it is, finality. That's one of the characteristics of the G20. So do you think that this is very apt, this argument, or should we be more concerned about making us economically viable without having to pitch our tent? Regardless of if it was G20, you know, we have seen in the United Nations how that certain groupings that started, you know, started off having certain numbers have increased over the period of time and consistently they have begun to open the borders for other member countries to join, right? Life generally is about change. If you thought that if you had one African country that is as big as Nigeria that has done so well economically that is politically strategically located to advance the course of the group, if you thought so, there's nothing wrong with making it G21. You know, what about G20? There's totally nothing wrong with making it G21 or G27 or G30 if you may. So what you see, what would make them admit you? There are sets of criteria. There are conditions precedents to draw down, conditions that will make them admit you into, you know, this committee of nations. But what we ought to be doing before we get into that group should we really want to get into that group. We are failed to do those things. That's my grouse. That's my pain. So ought to fix the things first before, like a beautiful girl, like a bride. If you did not fix yourself, if you did not fix you, you had terrible body odor. If you did not fix yourself, if you did not fix yourself, how do you think you would have suitors?  So, Andy, if we go, if we, I understand where you're going to, but that argument is not valid because they say beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. So you have a lot of people who have very perfect self esteem. My point here is, if we go through that path, we probably might not get out of here because you have a lot of people who have fantastic self esteem, but that's not a requisite. And so they probably just end up bad and, you know, the other person on the other hand will get a hard time. So let me explain to you, for you to be able to get into a certain clique of people, for you to be able to get into a position where a certain category of men would ask you out, they have got to up your game. Trust me. If you think a Prince Charles is going to come into Nigeria and just go pick, all those things happening in Cinderella stories, he's just going to pick one girl who's not confident, a girl who's not... I'd like us. I'm saying that the G20 is like a Prince Charles, I'm saying that the G20 is like that kind of... So when he said beauty is now at the high of the beholder, it would mean that just one, pardon my ease of the word, one regular boy, we see one regular girl, oh, you say it's beautiful. And he would say, okay, come, I want to be friends with you. But if you must get beyond the regular, beyond the ordinary, you want to get to the extra-ordinary, the exquisite, the selected few, you have got to prepare yourself for it. That's the point I'm making. So I want us to talk about, Andy, let's talk about what Nigeria is not doing. What's the criteria you have been... You have mentioned this a couple of times. Nigeria... So what are the criteria that we should have so we can be attractive to the G20? What exactly should we have? Because the argument of reach 10, he said that Nigeria is at the center of trade right now. But because I know that in 1999, that might not be the case, but now he's saying that yes, in Africa, we are at the center of trade and what have you. If you also look at contribution to the GDP, especially in the continent, Nigeria is stopping the charts. So what's the reason? What criteria then is stopping us from being part of the G20? Okay, so a lot of people have questioned the GDP that does not affect the quality of life of the people. Look around the world and show me one country with a very, very high GDP, having the quality of life that you see in Nigeria. So some economists have said GDP alone is not enough to use as the heuristic for measuring the economies of the countries of the world that have crossed the path of poverty. They have become great.  Your GDP is great and you cannot produce fear for yourselves. Your GDP is great and you are importing petroleum products. Your GDP is great. You export crude.  I'm saying that our leaders have got to start thinking the ABCs, common things they say or call commonly and common things have capacity to make you get to the top. It's not the extraordinary things. The common things that you do extraordinarily that get you to the top. The point exactly is that for us to become that beautiful bride, Nigeria must begin to think about producing my sister. I have asked, the last time I was in a studio here in Abuja, I asked the journalist that show me one thing in this studio, one, including the cloth you are wearing that was produced in Nigeria, one, including the cloth you are wearing, including the wrist watch you are wearing, show me one, point to one, how do you think you can become a beautiful bride when you have failed to do the things that you should do? You see, we are just doing wishful thinking, particularly coming from 10. 10 had always been, in my opinion, a wishful thinker, right? You know, there is nothing wrong with living in that bubble and being utopian, being conceptual. There is nothing wrong with that. But you see, you have got to transform the concepts to reality. We were told that words are first living in our minds before they have brought out the existing concept, even God that we serve. Andi, we have to go, but before we go really, we have been prompted in less than a minute. He has also suggested that there should be a collaboration because we know that one of the criteria to be part of the G20, you have to look at numerical strength. And so he is asking that there be a collaboration with the Pacific and the Caribbean, you know, the diaspora, integrating with Africa, so you have that numeric strength to be part and also, you know, the economic viability as well, to be part of the G20. Do you even see that as possible or rational? Okay, so I am for everything and anything that is processed, right? Like I use the illustration, if you thought that the process to get into the G20 is X, Y, Z. Be strategic about achieving X, Y, Z, and automatically it will be a given that you will be admitted. Why do we go to the universities? Why do we go to schools? Because somewhere in our mind, we believe that once we acquire education, it would allow us to live and lead a good life, right? So be strategic about prosecuting that. And for me, that is what I want to hear and not all this wishful thinking. Oh, we want to get to G20. These are the criteria. We must set up a machinery, a system that can help us begin to achieve this since if there is need for us to have collaborations, let's have collaborations. If there is need for us to revamp setting areas of our system that ordinarily today is dead and gone, please quickly start to revamp it until you do these things. You will just be existing in bubble and be living largely utopian life. Well, thank you so much, Andy Apotive, for being part of the show. Thank you for having me. Well, Andy Apotive is a social reformer in the FCT and we appreciate his thought, but we have to go at this point in time. We hope that we put our acts together and so we become very attracting as a bride, you know, to the groom. I like that illustration. 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The 40 or T podcast My journey is very very different to everyone else's cuz I'm 43 years old now And I wasn't diagnosed until I was 36.  I didn't realize I was struggling I didn't realize I couldn't talk to people So one day when I found alcohol, I was like wow, this is like the greatest thing in the world This light eased everything and I was 14 years old when I found alcohol and then I very quickly Almost drank myself to death and by the age of 21 I was in rehab and I was in rehab for a year and a half And I had Callum at the age of 19 So yeah, so I was in rehab for a year and a half and then I came out of rehab and they'd kind of cured the alcoholism Kind of I said kind of because I still I had a cook Well, I have many relapses but every time I drank these spells Yeah, I wasn't drunk though like my body was drunk But my mind wasn't drunk that drunk feeling never ever came back like it's really really weird how they Reprogrammed my brain, but like I'm like a sponge for information as well So every day in rehab, I was just like absorbing all them all this information and learning Because in rehab you need to learn the rehab that I went to And rather than relying on the 12-step program or stuff like that what the rehab did But I went to be taught you how your brain worked and because when you're an alcoholic or an addict You tend to have a drink and you blame it on something small and it's not that that happened It's something that happened like five days ago that led to this snowball effect And so in rehab, yeah, they teach her to follow the thoughts back and discover where they're all coming from So I spent a year and a half of like Learning that so I came out of rehab with all this knowledge and all this wisdom But I was a 20 like 23 year old and so all my social skills have been damaged from other drinks Then all my social skills have been damaged on top of that from all the rehab and I couldn't drink I couldn't go out and drink So I started to be very very insulin like I found it really hard to talk to people talking to people would make me anxious and Like someone a girl would maybe say oh It was nice to see you and then I go home and I'd be like did you mean it was nice to see me? Or is that what people saying it was like so confusing you get these really simple sentences And they would be so simple that they would cause you to break down like you don't understand Like because people talking such strange ways But like oh and all that kept going on I'd get more addictions So I got addicted to painkillers got addicted to other drugs and all sorts of things it's like no matter what I did I couldn't stop the addictions and Then at the age of 32 or something I went to uni to study And at university I saw this on one of your posts on social media You had a very similar experience that I had at uni I tried to fit in the alcohol is Well, it's it Sorry go on Right well at uni. No, I meant what you meant you said you were very isolated from people at uni And I had the exact same thing I tried to fit in everyone was going out freshers week Everyone was going out drinking everyone was invited everywhere and I wasn't invited any place any time Ever and it was like there were people who spread rumors in class about me and things because I was always honest And I assumed everyone else was always honest So I like people know I was an alcoholic and I had addiction issues because I thought that's what you should do But little did I know you being honest and open you're not lying you you know you put in stuff out there Yeah, I think it's it's it's really hard, isn't it because if you don't have Sort of an awareness of of autism because in a lot of people's mind even when we We hear stuff about autism you kind of always jump to these kind of very extreme stigmas of what you think it is and it's very hard to Like it's like a wall for you being able to identify yourself with that. Yeah, because it's so so out there and you know, you feel like it's a separate thing to you and I think you know, definitely one of one of the biggest contributors to me with my issues with with alcohol was Alexa Fimea, you know Not being able to attach My my thoughts and their and experiences to my emotions. Yeah, and it's really interesting when you said about You know something happened like five days ago And then you're trying to manage it now by by using the these substances to kind of help with that And that that's kind of a lot to do with with my experience of like having that separation It's like right. I feel stressed. I only know that I feel bad I don't know why I feel bad, but I just know I feel bad and there's no way to process that in any way because I don't know what the cause is and I Think that's that's a really I think Alexa Fimea in in general especially, you know related to autism. Yeah, it's very very It's not very understood and I think it's you know It definitely has a really big impact on our ability to like regulate ourselves And I know in general that the statistics around Addiction and around alcohol are really really really tough It doesn't help that alcohol so glorified in a UK. It's it's I mean, it's it's it's insane Just, you know, the amount of events that as you said during freshers week the amount of events that go on It's it's pretty much a haven for for binge drinking. Yeah, and You know something that that people don't you know that I didn't see around university Nobody told me is that there was actually like a really hefty amount of deaths associated with binge drinking and it's some It's It's very hard hitting like for me to come across that information. Just be like geez like How is this still happening like how is this still a thing? Why why is why is it such a such a part of our culture that we go out and consume this This this substance very readily like our parents are like, hey, do you want some do you want some alcohol?  Let's drink this it's It's mad and the the effects of it You know almost immediate you have withdrawal you it's the only drug It's the only drug.  Yeah, it's it's it is it is absolutely crazy Yeah, but I know we're not talking specifically about alcohol in this cool I could talk about alcohol all day if you want to do Thomas But yeah, so yeah, so I was at uni and like it turns really bad and then I had to take a year out To recover because that's like I had like the worst year of my life in 2013 And then I spent a whole year to like preparing and going back and I just smashed it when I got back And I got a first I finished off of my class. I was on the radio and newspaper and everything But then as soon as I finished uni, I got I had an IQ test around that time like A friend was like studying to be a doctor and they tested out the proper IQ test a two-hour one like for one with all sorts of things and I enjoyed all of it but my processing speed on it was really really bad And they said like when the results came back that I had strong signs of autism. So I went to a guy Guy door. I went to someone a doctor and they diagnosed me with autism and that moment was a Craziest moment ever because my processing speeds are so slow anyway I'll get upset by something today, but I won't react to it for like another few days That's like but this thing was so big this was like looking back on my entire life and Everything was different and like the only good example I have is like it's a twist at the end of the film like you've watched this massive film and then suddenly they say oh no But the like it was this way and you're like what and that's exactly how I thought and that it was crazy I went through all the stages of grief. It was denial. There was anger. There was sadness It was like lost and like yeah, but as soon as it like Clicked that's what was going on and because one thing my autism gives me is this Amazing ability to sense patterns and solve puzzles and like I see patterns everywhere It's like it makes songwriting and script writing and anything creative really really good because I feel the patterns when they're in place And so when I was looking back at my life It allowed me to see this pattern of creativity and every time I created something I was getting out the stuff That was in my head and I'd done it all my life and it was only at that point that I was like This is how I keep myself. Well, this is how I stop drinking. This is how I keep the addictions under control By keep making things and so from that point on it became like my mission to like keep creating and tell people how Important creativity is because it really does save lives It like keeps you well It allows you to get out over subconscious thoughts It allows you to get out all the horrible thoughts all the nasty things all the horrible experiences It allows you to get them out in a really productive and safe manner and put take like literally take them Pull them from yourself and put them somewhere else But like but where my brain is it like it constantly fills up with this stuff like all the sensory input and all the bad thoughts and things Yeah, so the creativity is a constant job So it's like I'm forever like grabbing bit like a bucket and you try to poke some holes into it It's like the let the water come out exactly. And so yeah when I got that my diagnosis That's what clicked and it was like this is what's what my life is and this is what I should be my life My my good friend Brian bird he he does a lot of like Public speaking around the country. He's Very late diagnosed individual And he talks a lot about sort of the experience of late diagnosis. It's kind of like You're basically challenging the the whole identity that you've had for the majority of your life And the the older that you are the the more like hard-hitting it is and It is kind of in a sense morning, but it's also like Sort of being born again, like you've had a you've had a new you're having a new adolescence She kind of looking back for your life and picking things out and going You know the stuff that you gave yourself a hard time You pick it out and you like look a bit more closely in the lens of the lens of autism Sorry, it's like Yeah, suddenly the the picture chains a little bit and it's it's kind of like you see that event from a whole different new angle Yeah, yeah, like I felt very sorry for the younger me, but one who didn't have a clue what was going on because it was I just I don't wish but if there was someone there to just Help and just say oh, this is how things should be which is kind of like what happened with me and 12 gauge Like when Callum came to love with me. It was like that's what I did I was like I did what should have been done with me with 12 gauge Because I just needed someone to pick me up and hold me tight and say bright That's not how things work. This is how you should do it and this is why you should do it And that's what happens when you don't do it like that because people just give instructions Don't be like I don't drink too much.  Yeah, right.  Yeah, like it's just It's like it's like what the doctors do. It's like when they tell You know people who are becoming very very overweight and obese they tell them like you need to lose weight It's like why yeah, but what's that gonna do? How am I supposed to do it? They just kind of give you this list of things that you're supposed to do when you They're all very very complex things and they have lots of different aspects to them that you kind of have to work through and try out and They just don't communicate that in a way that that that people take it seriously. It's like, oh, yeah, the doctors Yeah, exercise. Yeah, you well sleep. Well, like of course Um Yeah No, definitely. It's yeah. No, it's just mad. It's just a mad world that we live in and Just a mad society as well. But yeah, that's that's basically my story and that's why I create it's like it keeps me well And it keeps me it's important and it keeps me happy more than anything else Definitely