Hello, everybody. Welcome back to Esoteric Atlanta Day 12 of this 30 day challenge. I'm here with one of my besties, Stephanie.  And it's been so hard for me because I'm trying to like back away and let her like have a long time and have her own space to be in her misery. That sounds so cruel, doesn't it? But you know, it's part of the journey. Isn't it, Stephanie, to have that alone time where you're up against your own demons? Well, I think I'm past the initial hump of hell. I just made that up. That's really cute. I did one tour of the neighborhood. It's been a trip. I've been here for almost three weeks now. I've only seen you maybe three times. Granted, you weren't here. You weren't here the first week I was here. But still, we haven't, we went hiking one day and that was an amazing day. We haven't really, we talk every day but we, you've been, yeah, you've been letting me do my thing. I think I've seen Todd a lot more than you do because he's, you know, he's teaching me in my store and I had my second leg class this morning. So that went pretty well.  And I just want to say thank you to everyone in the challenge who has booked readings with me because that has been literally my saving grace on this trip and help supporting my business and everything like that. So I just want to shout out to everybody who has booked with me. I've had about 23 people book with me which is, I've never gotten that many bookings in a matter of five days. So that's amazing. And I've met with some amazing people too, like the people who are coming to me for readings, they're amazing. They're really taking the challenge. They're not, they're not so rigid about the challenge that they can't have a good sense of humor about it but they're really taking it seriously. They're really shifting their vibration. They're really putting in the effort, the work. So it's been good to do readings and anybody who is really putting in that effort because vibrationally speaking, I actually read the best on people who are really putting in the effort. I know that sounds kind of strange but it's a vibrational match, you know what I mean? So sorry, I was getting a text message. I'm on my phone because I don't get good internet in this hotel. But anyways, yeah, I've been able to do amazing readings and special thanks to those people. And I'm looking forward to the ones I have in the upcoming future. And yeah guys, Stephanie's offering a 25% off if you're doing the challenge, the 30 day challenge. You have to be in the signal group and I will again put that link down in the description box below. My nose is running like crazy again. I know a lot of people in the challenge group are talking about having their sinuses come up. It is a form of detoxing. And yeah, this is a special kind of hell. And I said yesterday in the video, a lot of the philosophy that I'm using in the Shadow Work Challenge comes directly from the Yoga Sutras. A philosophy that I'm very well versed in. This is what I do for a living outside of YouTube and what I myself have been a student of for 16 years. And so I took the theory and I meshed it in with a more modern twist where I added things like bar, kickboxing, all that kind of stuff. And what I said yesterday was the main goals of the practice of yoga, which is why the controllers try to bash yoga and make it seem corrupt is because yoga gives you the ability to see the truth through the illusion. And so at first, that is seeing your own truth through your own illusion, through the illusion you've created with your ego mind, right? Whether that's false fears, whether that's bad or good, doesn't matter. The truth is your soul is what's true.  Because you start to see the truth through their illusion as well. And so that is why I believe my channel is so unbelievably Shadow Band right now. With 47,000 subscribers, I only I get less than a thousand views, which is not mathematically possible. So they are really restricting my videos. And it's because when people start to take their power back, where are they taking their power back from? From the controllers. And so what you or each of you are doing who are either in the challenge or doing your own form of Shadow Work is you are literally the secret weapon. You are literally doing the most dangerous thing you could do in this war. And that's take your power back. And you can't take your power back simply by saying, I take my power back. No, because you have to understand your own illusions, your own attachments. And I knew, I knew because a lot of us, one of Stephanie's fears, which I think you don't mind me talking about to talk about before, which is one of my fears, which I think is a lot of people's fears is security with money. And so I knew that her coming down here, that the universe was going to put her in a position where she was going to have to rely on faith over fear to break that attachment to the security, if that makes sense. Does that make sense, Stephanie? Am I making sense? Yep. Yep. I mean, I've between June and now I've literally been sitting staring at fear across the table and money being a root chakra issue. You know, my father passed away when I was four and a half. There's your security gone, ripped away. And that's also a form of abandonment. Meanwhile, you know, my uncle raised me. I grew up in a house where we didn't want for anything because my they had good jobs. They had really good jobs. We weren't filthy rich or anything, but we're probably a step under probably how you grew up, Bryce. And as a single mom with no support in my early adult life and literally, I hardly had support as a single mom. I was kind of thrown out to the wolves, but that was kind of gearing up to now because I really had to put faith in God then. And I went from living a life where I, you know, we had food on the table. Money wasn't an issue to being thrown in a life where I was literally living off of very bare minimum, having to go to the food pantry, that sort of life. Okay. Well, once I established a full-time job as a medical assistant, I got back on my feet and I have dreaded the thought of even going back to that previous life of poverty. And this is kind of brought that wound up.   And just like back then, I remember always asking God, please keep a roof over my head. I don't know how I'm going to do this, but the funny part is God never allowed me to go without. Even the two weeks I was homeless as a single mom back when I was 22 years old. I never went without. I still had a roof over my head. And so it is really a test of faith. I've had a roof over my head this whole entire time. I came here with bare minimum. And I, you know, it's completely by the grace of God that I'm still going forward. I have my last attunement tomorrow. And then I'm going to continue to work with Todd with yoga. And he's going to teach me how to do the Vedic chanting. And probably I'll share our work with Cindy more to with certain things and keep doing readings. And, you know, the goal is to be here until Thanksgiving and hang out with my bestie with Thanksgiving. And get more training and all that kind of stuff because yes, my teachers are down here in Atlanta. I don't really have much for teaching up in Connecticut. Not much in Connecticut.  And that's why I wanted to talk about that too, Stephanie, because I want you guys to understand that when you say I want to heal myself, the universe is going to pull up your worst fears and hand it to you on a silver platter. Oh yeah, big time.  But I knew I knew when she came down here that she was going to be going through the Reiki and the intense yoga that as her friend and as someone who's been down this road for a lot longer, her responsibility was to allow not not be selfish myself, but give her space to have her own breakdown, her own come to Jesus moment.  You know, that that moment of going to miss her moment. Come to miss her moment. All little, you know, dark night of the soul because one thing that we tend to do too. And even when we're aware, when we're aware that this is what we're embarking on, we're still going to look for distractions. We're still going to look for that. And it's that I was telling you that the verse of one of the verses of the sutras that Emmy's been really focused on that I said to you is like, you know, that the Patanjali realized the mind will always go towards pleasure and away from pain. Even if going towards that pleasure is going to eventually lead to more pain. And so once we're aware that that's what the mind is trying to do. That's what the ego is trying to do.  You know, we can still kind of course correct it. And so, and Stephanie's had to do that a couple of times and it's very, very hard. It's like trying to move a boulder sometimes, you know. And that's why I was saying in that last video that one of the hardest jobs about being a stronger teacher is having a tough love because that hurt like human in me wants to sit down on the mat and cry with you. You know, but the- No, you have to go through it yourself though. You have to. I mean, yeah, it's okay to have that little bit of support. But if you don't go through it yourself and sit in it yourself, you're not going to get past it if you're coddled. Yeah. It's not that it's a, it's not a mean, tough love. And I already knew that. I haven't, have I begged, oh please don't hang out with me. Yeah, no, I know you know it. I know you knew it. I knew because you, that's the thing about Stephanie and I have to give you a lot of credit, Stephanie. I really do because the amount that you have worked on yourself in one year, in one year is unbelievable. If you guys remember where she was this time last year and all the valleys and mountains that she's had to climb through and the amount of programming that she has released, you have come leaps and bounds. And I said that to you.   And that's what I tell people like, even if you have to crawl, you keep moving forward. It's a one day at a time thing. Yeah. There is going to be a breakthrough. It's a one breath at a time thing. There is eventually, when you're at the darkest night of the soul that's usually right before the breakthrough happens. And what people tend to do is they get to that really sticky point and they back out and they leave. So they don't even get to experience what that breakthrough was going to be because they shift and run away. And that's why the video yesterday, or the day before yesterday, I told people like, you know, because a lot of people are being very triggered by the all meditation, which was a very, a surprise to me that so many people were having such a horrible reaction. But that makes sense because vibration is healing. And so it's obviously the vibration of the all this pulling things up that need to be examined. And instead of when you have the options now between doing either sound bowl healing or all, I'm challenging you guys to pick the one that triggers you the most. Yeah. Instead of running, what would happen if you stayed? Yeah. And let's talk about the trigger. I try to read as much of the comments as I can in a signal group, which is amazing, by the way. One of the things I'm noticing is people are like, well, I'm ADD, I'm ADHD, I can't focus. I'm here to tell you I'm one of the worst cases of ADHD there is. I mean, it's like squirrel because there is certain, if you're looking at Western medicine, there are different criterias for different type of ADHD. I would be classified as severe. I always have. And ADHD is a central nervous system problem. So you're dealing with three chemicals in the brain, norepinephrine, dopamine, and serotonin. They each have each of those chemicals in the brain have a particular job that they do. Like serotonin helps you sleep and relax. Dopamine is what triggers when you do drugs or something that like eating. Pleasure. But we talked about this, Bryce, off camera yesterday. And the thing about sitting in the chanting is it's not going to be easy. It's not easy for me. And if you feel like you can't do the one point focus, like you said, Bryce, to me yesterday, it's a practice. You're not going to get it right away. I have a very hard time meditating. I always have. I do feel that the own chant is the best way I can do that because I'm more focused on the vibration. So just allow the vibration to do its work and heal. So I wanted to bring that up really quickly because that's something that keeps coming up is I can't focus. I can't focus. That's the point is to practice that one point focus because you're not going to get it right away. Yes. And if I can do it, anybody can. Because there are people who have been meditating for 20 years now that will tell you it's still just as much as a challenge today as it was on day one. But it's just a practice. And through that practice, you start to understand the power of your mind. We're just trying. And when the agitation comes up, when the thoughts come up, you just acknowledge them. Interesting. That came up. And then you let it go.  And it's going to be this tug-of-war throughout the whole process. Meditation is not daydream. It's not visualization. It's not daydream. It's not creating a manifestation of your mind. No, that's leading more into delusion and derangement. We want to rein the mind in. We want to rein it in. And that's why it's a practice. And that's why you're only supposed to do it for 15 minutes at the max.  Because it's just a practice.   And it's not supposed to be easy.  Stop following people who don't want to talk about the hard stuff. Because that's what shadow work is. It's the shadow side. Because that's just ignoring it. That's just trying to escape it. And that's not what spirituality is. I've said it once and I'll say it again even though we are going to pull tarot cards and stuff like that. We so misunderstand what spirituality is in the West.  That's not what spirituality is, guys. Anybody can get a packet tarot card in basic. Know how to declare void abilities if we tap into it. That's how we are. We're in tennis as humans. But talking to a dead person, a spirit, is the same as talking to Stephanie right now. It's just communicating with another sentient being. Spirituality, our practice of spirituality is coming into your own spirit. Your own. Not someone else's. Not a distraction but being with your own spirit. It's about the soul evolving and just continuing to climb the ladder in terms of your spiritual evolution as a spiritual being. The body is the Shakti of the soul. The soul can live without the body but the body cannot live without the soul. Your soul created your body with all of its aches and pains and warts and beauty and whatever you have so the soul could know itself. The soul could practice knowing itself. Any type of obstacle or puzzle that is presented to you, whether in your thought process, whether in your body, is something your soul created so that you would know yourself. That's why I call them the wounds are sacred. They're beautiful. They're sacred because your soul created that for a purpose. There's a reason behind it. There's a reason to the badness. There's a reason to this. I also want to clarify too but I saw a couple of people asking about the doshas system if your doshas change. No. Your doshas do not change. I know. I will say for the rest of my life, as Bryce in this avatar, I will always be Vata Pitta. Now, what shifts and changes the doshas is the time of life that you're living in. Right now, Stephanie and I and a lot of our viewers are in the Pitta time of life. Pitta time of life is puberty to menopause for women. I don't know if that is for men but around that the same age I would think when you start to transfer into your senior status right now you're in Pitta time. When you're a kid, you're in Kappa time. When I was a kid, the Kappa energy was that time of life for me even though I was a Vata Pitta. Now that I'm in Pitta time, funnily enough, my Vata is getting more aggravated than my Pitta but when I go into Vata time after menopause which hopefully maybe that will shift with the timeline shift I will have to really be careful about my Vata getting out of whack because I'm already in Vata time. So if you lead with Pitta and you're in the Pitta time of life right now you really have to be careful about eating the spicy foods. That's why exercises like cardiovascular exercises for Pittas are not the best because the cardio is giving the fire and Pitta already has fire. So if you have a Pitta imbalance, you're not going to be doing a lot of hardcore cardio. You're going to be doing more anaerobic. Now for someone like Stephanie who is heavily Kappa imbalanced, the cardio becomes essential to ignite the Kappa but with Ashtanga there is cardio in the Ashtanga system, isn't there? So it's using anaerobic. So I wanted to clarify that like you are not going to magically just wake up one day and be Kappa if you're not Kappa. That's like saying you're magically going to go to bed a white girl and wake up a black girl. It's not going to happen in this life. Next life maybe we'll see what to pick but not in this life. So just honor what it is. Your body, your soul decided I need these elements to work on so I can know myself. So honor that as okay, like Stephanie struggles with a Kappa and the Pitta imbalance actually because of the overheating sometimes. So that's that tug-of-war friction that she opted before she took her avatar to work on in this life. So don't see it as something that's so terrible. I want to touch on that for a second too. So when we say imbalance, I'll just make an example. So I'm Tridosha but again it's the Kappa and the Pitta that are more the imbalance than the Vata. What I've noticed specifically in the last three days. Now when I was home I would do Ashtanga for about four to five days a week depending on because my ego would kick in and be like oh I do I have to do this right. Well when you're working with a teacher it's kind of a, it's more of a motivation to get up go to my sore and everything. So I've been literally going about six days a week at this point. So eating, I have to eat a lot of salads, a lot of raw fruits and vegetables and I've been doing pretty good with that for the most part and I had to cut out my favorite potatoes that's like my favorite. That is such a Kappa food it's unreal. And what I've started to notice is that so Kappas tend to get, this isn't intentional but they get lazy. And what I mean is lack of motivation, procrastination.  I'm not a slob, you've been to my house Bryce. I mean it's not like that.  If you've tried to email me you'll notice I don't get to my emails until a couple weeks later sometimes because I lack the motivation. And it's just part of my disposition and that's part of the friction I have to deal with it in this lifetime.  So it's just essentially the disposition and what I've noticed is in the last three days specifically I am getting shit done. I'm like on top of it all. I'm getting people booked. I'm like making sure everything is nice and tidy. I have no chaos I'm dealing with right now in terms of like what the hotel room looks like. I mean if I was home I'd be cleaning all the time. Like I'm very motivated. I'm not procrastinating on anything. So that's something I've noticed heavily in the last few days. So that's just an example. Yes. And I wanted to bring that up as an example because I know a ton of people deal with the Kappa trait. And I know that's a struggle. It's more of an insecurity to me than my own weight because I would be like even like in school I'd have a hard time getting my homework done have a hard time focusing, concentrating, procrastinating and I would say what is wrong with me? Why can't I get this done? I don't understand. Why do I wait till the last minute? And it's not like I don't want to be like that but it was a major insecurity of mine. Well now I realize it's just an imbalance of my disposition. What was happening for you as a child because you grew up in a predominantly Italian family so your parents were feeding you food that was leading into the imbalance. So you were eating a lot of Kappa foods that was not good for you. Kappa is keeping you in balance keeping you where you felt that sluggish energy and it's correct. Yes, so with the Kappa so when a Kappa is balanced Kappas do have the tendency because Kappa is water and earth so Kappas have the tendency to be kind of heavy very like Kappas have the tendency to gain weight that's one of the imbalances is they struggle with their weight they tend to be very lazy at times but Kappas are typically some of the most compassionate people you will ever meet. They're the people that will sit on the sofa and snuggle up with you and write love letters to all their friends. That's the Kappa you know that they're very compassionate and they're kind of slower they can be slower people but when the Kappa is balanced they can get their weight under control they find the motivation so they have the good qualities or the imbalanced qualities at bay but what knowledge is power so that's why I think the Doshas I heard somebody put on the comment section Doshas have been the biggest aha moment for me and that's how it was for me as well when I started really thinking the Doshas I mean people talk about the blood type diet and I've covered that on my channel blood type diet for me means nothing the Doshas diet is what really because as an O negative for my blood type there could be another O negative who's Pitacapa our Kappa Vata they're individualized Yes and when I found out when I realized that I was very imbalanced in my Vata it explained why I have now with that being said you can be a Pitacapa and experience anxiety as well like I'm not saying that this doesn't exist for those but for Vatas when they get hit with anxiety it becomes an anxiety disorder what was happening to me is I was eating because I created that's why I hate this whole intuitive eating phenomenon because we are so out of touch with our intuition that we don't understand we don't understand it and so people will crave something and they think that's their intuition saying that's what I need to eat but nine times out of ten it's not it's because that element with them is imbalanced and like attracts like so when I'm at the height of my panic attacks and anxiety disorder I'm craving Vata foods I'm craving salads I'm craving juices I'm craving apples I'm craving grapes that's the last thing I should be eating now that I know now that I have that knowledge when I feel my anxiety start to get out of hand I go and I eat a very well cooked potato which is what Stephanie can't have but I can't because I need more Kappa I need more of that and I crave potatoes when I'm feeling out of whack because potatoes is my favorite food it doesn't matter what kind of potato it doesn't matter if it's baked scalloped potatoes french fries potato chips it doesn't matter potatoes with sour cream so let's look at that so if I am Vata Pitta with very little Kappa the Kappa in me is so little they don't even count it like my hair is Kappa that's like it you know I have one of the elements of Kappa is that you maintain friendships for very long time I do that I have friends still from high school you know like that is one of the elements too that I have but it's so little in me that they don't even put it on the scale so what do I have to do I have to find Kappa foods to put into my system to give me the Kappa element right and of course those foods get digested and move out of the system so I constantly am watching that so for someone who is super Kappa they need to then bring in more Vata so they have to go find the Vata foods to bring them into the Vata element and of course the digest they have to it's not to eat one salad and you're done you know it's a constant and it's not saying that these foods like it's not saying that Stephanie is never going to be able to eat a potato again for the rest of her life no that's not what it's saying at all but now that she knows if she's for Thanksgiving where there's going to be a lot of Kappa foods she's going to be able to make the choices leading up to Thanksgiving to really clear the Kappa out of her system we're just thinking that so that when she comes to Thanksgiving she can enjoy the Kappa foods right like if I know I love I love candied apples right the caramel apples or whatever if I'm going to go to a county fair and get a caramel apple because I am going to get one at that county fair I then have to for a few days bring more Kappa foods into my system so that Apple is not going to totally derail me right and when we start to understand how this works within ourselves we then are able to protect ourselves and also Stephanie you can look back at your younger self and go oh ok young Stephanie there was something wrong with you you were just imbalanced in your Kappa that's all that was going on and I know we've got and I was fed pasta we were meat eaters too so that's a no no on the dosh which I know you've been making that an extra challenge in the 30 day challenge to go without meat potatoes just all the heavy heavy foods is what I grew up with because yes we were predominantly Italian food eaters in the family because I had Italian both sides or Sicilian I should say but for a bit I say Italian when you're Sicilian so that's what I grew up with and you know I always wondered why does my stomach hurt all the time why do I feel bloated all the time when I used to eat I remember like I'd go to eat lunch at school and I couldn't focus for the last couple classes after lunch because I nearly would fall asleep I didn't get energized I was exhausted I actually fell asleep a few times in school so that goes to show you that food is energy and it depends on what kind of energy you're putting in your body can your body digest it or not can your body process it and break it down or not we talked about my hair loss well ever since I've been eating more Vata foods my hair is growing back it's no longer falling out I still have thin hair I have Vata hair it's the thin coarse dry hair and curly my hair is always in a shoe and obviously there was a blockage in the energy that helps my hair grow back in my cop up time period in my life when I was a little girl I had hair down to my ass and it was thick and then in my early teenage years it just went to shit well let's talk about I won't say your mom or your sister's name but your mom and sister are both like me Vata Pitta or Pitta Vata so they were not having the same reactions to the foods that you were having they were feeling fine from it and so for you you did feel like the other because you were having a different response but you had no idea and I'll just say they're not my biological mom it's my biological aunt and my biological cousin and yes they're very Vata Pitta if I'm looking at them I have high anxiety they're more longer and lanky and I was physically emotionally, mentally, spiritually the odd ball because my body shape is very I would say it's a mix of Coppa Pitta Coppa shape but because I get very like Pitta's tend to have more muscle tone when I do have the muscle which I am forming now I do tend to get really, really toned up and everything but their body shape would be more like yours longer, lanky, you know which you say gorilla arms the long, long arms I'll tell that on Sunday in my class, Stephanie was there to tell me once like that a certain transition should be easy for me because I have gorilla arms and I sat there in the class and I was like, I have gorilla and I had such a complex about how long my limbs are and see I would love for my limbs to be a little bit longer so I can you know wrap around and actually find my arms instead I got little T-Rex arms you know I will say for people who have long limbs like behind the head and the binding was easier for me because I have long limbs but the binding and the leg behind the head is accessible for people with shorter limbs they just have to work harder for it because that's what their soul said hey let's challenge this and I know you have stuff in your shoulders you're working through anyway so it's all divine timing it's all divine things that are hard the obstacles, the frustration that's why I say that's where the juice is I don't care about the stuff that's easy for you that's boring the stuff that's easy for you is boring I want to know where you're struggling because that's where it's interesting and it's possible it's a bind though because as long as Todd can get me to bind now he's got to help me and assist me but I can do it now Kino McGregor who is a very famous Oshanga teacher she's very small, very short and she has very short arms and she talks about this and she's one of the certified teachers meaning that she's one of the 17 women in the world who are certified that means that she's gone all the way through like she's in like 40 and she can bind and do all the crazy stuff and she says when people come up and say my arms are too short she's like oh please have you seen mine can you do it? you just have to work on it it takes a little while and you got to be patient with yourself don't go into Oshanga thinking you're going to do everything in a day because that's impossible because the whole point is working through the shit yeah, there are six series in the Oshanga system so that every person finds a struggle somewhere yeah, my struggles are definitely in primary series I mean absolutely without a doubt but I'm able to go further I mean now I'm doing back bends to a certain degree do I like it? Nope, hate it freaking hate it and by then I'm like completely out of steam and strength so I'm like please don't fall on my head that's another thing about the Oshanga system is that it does exhaust you it does and so by the time you get to the end and you're having it after then you start doing drop back stand up then you have to do tick talks which are like forward and back hand spring so then it is going to ask you for more give me more, give me more and so you have to dig deeper to find that energy and that stability and that focus and so there's a method here this is what this is and I'm going to go ahead and share before we get into the tear cards so today is Saturday the day that we're airing this is on Saturday day 12 and so today is actually your rest day once again I did pick Saturday and I know yoga that's our rest day Saturday is called Saturday for the planet Saturn which I know a lot of the controllers have used Saturn for negative purposes but we're taking it back because Saturn was created by God just as we were and so the template of Saturn is basically it's father time, it's karma it's action and reaction it's the matrix and so Saturday becomes a day of reflection that's why it's the rest day is because we reflect on our work because what is karma it's just your work so it's a day of reflecting on the time given on this earth where you get to work through these things and so I do want you guys to sleep a little extra if you can on Saturdays because I know a lot of people are feeling very tired and that's normal because your body is totally restructing itself so today you're going to be studying the chakra system so what are the seven chakras, what are their Sanskrit names because Sanskrit is important in their colors what are the six chakras responsible for take note somewhere you think you might have issues I do have you doing a 60 minute chakra meditation and as I said yesterday usually meditation is under 15 minutes but this is different this is kind of like a sound bowl healing it's going to hit different sounds to penetrate different chakras and so I want you to lie down and really listen to this and absorb it especially if you're new to the chakra system and see if you can actually, especially after you've done the all meditation vibration now, see if you can actually feel where these different sounds are hitting in your chakra system and then I have for more informational chakras please purchase the book Eastern Body, Western Mind or follow along with Stephanie on her channel as she reads through the book and I have the link here to the first first episode she did on Eastern Body, Western Mind and so you can listen to her read it I will also put a link to the book down if you want to get the book for yourself alright you've got some journaling to do because you had a big challenge this week we spoke about yesterday so if you missed that you can go back and listen to that video from day 11 now Sunday, fun day get up, make your bed up, your last meal should be between 5 and 7pm no snacking after pm this allows your digestive system at least 12 hours of rest between dinner and breakfast so many people, especially Kappa based people, Stephanie can talk about this have the propensity to snack at night and so what I want you to learn is why are you snacking at night, I don't think you're hungry what emotions you've been outside all day in the sun right, the sun has given you energy so what emotions are starting to expel as the sun goes down and what are you covering up by snacking and the funny thing is if you actually cut your food off of it I actually stop eating by 5pm normally unless it's a special occasion when you go that long without eating you actually wake up in the morning with more energy it's it's wild that your body thanks you for giving it a choice to rest you get a choice now of exercise so you can either do the dancing with the oldies with Richard Simmons like last week or you can turn your own music on and dance your own freestyle for 60 minutes or you can go outside by yourself with your pet or with your family and walk for 60 minutes so Sunday fun days the exercises are a little bit different they're more of a joyous celebratory the exercises versus the hard work we're doing with the other days of the week and so you get to pick, either do sweating with the oldies, dance by yourself freestyle for 60 minutes or go for a walk for 60 minutes for meditation, again for Sunday you're either picking soundbowl healing or all meditation, again pick the one that triggers you the most and then you're going to journal so which three of the exercise modalities did you pick why did you feel overwhelmed having to pick what exercise to do so people get overwhelmed by that if you felt overwhelmed making your own exercise choice why do you trust yourself are you used to others making choices for you where is your life where in your life have you handed your power over to someone else what's the difference between accepting tutelage from a teacher and being bossed around or controlled by someone else there's a huge difference there and so if you felt anxiety over picking your exercise on Sunday I want you to really contemplate that what's the difference between having a teacher tell you what to do because they know it's coming and having someone control you because there's a huge difference between the two this is the difference between the guru and the cult leader and then we'll get into next week, tomorrow so with that being said if you have any questions about Saturday or Sundays challenge you can ask them down in the comment section below but Stephanie do you have your cards on you yes I want to make one quick comment or suggestion to anybody who struggles with being kappa and gets hungry at night time you got to wean yourself out of eating and so what I did and it really helped and I don't wake up in the middle of the night hungry anymore because I was a midnight snacker orange juice orange juice or apple cider, apple juice so if you get juice and just not full glass just a little bit just a little bit you know I did two to four ounces and that would because what I would struggle with is the feeling that my blood sugar was getting low and that intense hunger that intense hunger feeling and if you ingest a little bit of juice you're not putting solids in your stomach but you're at least helping to sustain that feeling of being full but you're not full does that make sense this is something I've done I don't do that anymore because now my stomach I can easily now stop eating between six and seven is my last meal does not by choice but by my schedule and then I don't eat until 1130 noon time the next day that's just the way I work it can I just focus on that for a second too because the interesting thing is the copa the copas are the ones that can actually go hours without eating and now I can I couldn't before I was eating every couple of hours feeling like I but the thing is though so my body was lacking the nutrients it was desperately needing so then I would feel like my sugar level was low I would feel like that hangry feeling now that I'm eating foods that my body is able to absorb I eat maybe twice a day now I mean I eat about 1130 noon time and then my next meal is dinner I mean once in a while I'll have like a little bit of a snack but it's something that it's like an apple with peanut butter I do a little bit of organic popcorn sometimes because that's you know corn is cerebral that's not my thing was potato chips so it's once in a while that crunchiness I need but other than that I don't really need as much food actually it got to the point where I almost forgot to eat at times the copas can go any copas are master faster is like or a vata fasting is not good for me but for copas they can fast like that is one and as a vata I'm not someone that craves I'm not a foodie like I don't I forget to eat a vata it's interesting copas love their food a lot of copas use food as like that addiction is that oh yeah I'm a foodie through and through but not anymore yeah vatas on the other hand will forget to eat all the time but they're the ones that need to be eating all the time or copas who love their food are the ones that shouldn't be eating they can hold it it's an opposite and so isn't that interesting the way that the energy designed itself isn't that interesting because that's the biggest struggle between the two so I need a little bit more stuffy and stuffy needs a little bit more of me in our you know in the energy cycle right so that's that's and you're gonna so it's interesting it's all the dosha system for the person that said that was the aha moment I think the dosha system is the aha moment for a lot of us westerners because it's just common sense it's just common sense once and that's why I also wanted you guys to study it because I get so many emails of people asking me how do I know what my dosha is what about this test that test I thought you know what if you study this and you really get to know the dosha system very well you won't need to take a quiz to know what you are yeah I mean even if they're journaling what you're eating how it how do you feel after you eat are you gassy you have stomach pains you have diarrhea constipation what's your energy level or do you feel tired or do you feel energized you know I eat a potato are you depressed I feel like I feel like hell after like literally like hell however and this is that my new period of time of pleasure where I'm eating my potato if I eat an apple if I eat an apple I'm energized I don't feel bloated I feel great you know versus if you eat a potato you would feel great but if you ate an apple you would be doubled over in pain you saw me with the grapes oh I saw you with grapes absolutely it's my body I mean it looks like you were almost pregnant in a way because you were so bloated from it so there's not a one size fits all and that's why I keep that's the biggest the western world has put these foods are healthy these foods are not that is bullshit that is absolute bullshit if I'm at a gas station and that's the only option I have to buy food for me and I've got the gas station grapes or a bag of skittles with all the chemicals those skittles have in them those skittles are better for me than those grapes are an opposite for me if I eat skittles I feel like shit but if I eat the grapes I'd be fine and vautas can handle sugar vautas are you know people always see both sugars of the devil and then cocaine blah blah blah blah for some people yes for vautas vautas I can handle sugar I can eat a piece of cake and go to bed and not be stiff in the morning but a kappa or a pitta does that they're going to be stiff in the morning it's all about energy balancing your energy so there is no such thing as healthy food and unhealthy food no such thing it's just what works for you and what doesn't if your child if you make your child food and they say they tell you they're crying they don't want to eat it it hurts their stomach don't force them to eat it it's probably going against their dosha they're not being brats they're feeling that the food doesn't work with them okay and that's one thing yes gas is a big thing you should not be gassy no one should be gassy if you are having gas problems that IBS I think IBS is a made up thing oh yeah if you have gas you're not eating foods at your body it's your body's talking to you your body's trying to shake you and be like I can't eat this and all you do is just go buy gas X no what you're eating is causing that because your body can't digest it if you eat foods you can digest you won't be gassy I'm not gassy I've dated multiple men in the yoga world who follow their dosha diet they weren't gassy riddle me that you should not be gassy that's one of the biggest biggest signs that you're eating something that's wrong oh yeah alright so Stephanie this is my request actually okay you guys so this comes by request of our challengers Stephanie we are now on day 12 so we're kind of between the third of a way and the halfway point of the challenge can we get a collective energy read or what's going on I don't know how we want to word this do we want to ask how this challenge is affecting people generally speaking in the general collective or how it's going to affect the world or maybe we can just do it two separate questions because I think they're equally as important so we'll ask first what is the how is it affecting the people now that are doing the challenge oh wow so three cards I'm going to get one more okay so I like this so number one we have a nine of wands nine of wands is it is a challenge but people are really standing their ground with it they're like nope I'm not going to give up I'm going to continue this I don't like it but I'm going to continue doing this because this is good for me because it's followed by the strength card so this is physical strength this is spiritual and emotional strength I feel and it's really actually getting people to take action you know move around more I also feel like we read in the group some people their genes are falling off them in the middle of the store now because they're losing weight comfortably comfortably wearing my skinny jeans today that doesn't happen I don't like jeans I like leggings or I like dresses so I'm comfortably wearing my skinny jeans so I'm one of them that I'm I'm definitely losing weight more on the top area than the bottom but that's because my chakras are more clogged up in the lower region so I hold all my stuff on cards so this is really bringing people into their spirituality as well so we have we have an energy here of physical strength losing weight coming down into your spirituality your own individual like a true spirituality but I also am getting like emotional clarity as well so right now yeah it's not comfortable but there's a shift happening amongst everybody doing the challenge so yay I knew that was coming alright so how is their hard work the challenge affecting the world let me just give these a good shuffle I busted out my Gilded Tarot for the first time yesterday in a long time I used it in a while that's basically all I use now but I don't have to clean them a lot because it's all I use so oh this is powerful and as I pull the cards I'm getting chill bumps so it's really resonating with me I'm going to get one more card here number one we're coming into the vibration of the love frequency that is the highest frequency so this is raising the vibration of the world it's what this is saying then we have the fourth pentacles that could be holding on to something or letting go of something I actually feel like this is more of a letting go energy rather than holding on to because we're now releasing because it was also followed by the aid of one so you're releasing things moving forward also a rebirthing type of energy with the Empress card coming into your divine feminine energy as well like balancing out the masculine and feminine energies um and then I have the two of wands followed by the knight of sword it's like an opportunity opportunities of getting things done opportunities of taking action so I'm feeling more of a motivated type of feeling with those two cards so it's but this is the most important card out of all is that it's the Lovers card let's pause on that for a second because I've talked about this as well and Shri's call me Shruti Kananda speaks about this too so when we're not aware of the shadow we're not aware of our wounds and we're trying to ignore and push down those bad feelings those feelings can't be they don't just disappear so they come up as us projecting anger all this shit onto other people now when we worry when we start to work through our wounds and heal our shadow side and sit in our own shit and feel it, what also starts to happen is we start to not we don't project on other people anymore but we also have compassion for other people too we start to have a more forgiving heart and so that makes total sense to me you can't go into a love vibration by ignoring the dark side as Shanti says from Aquarius Rising Africa we came here to learn what we are not right? so we have to play in the dark in our own shadow to learn that that's not what we are although the shadow has been stared at I'm being stared at by a fur baby she's like I'm already in the vibration she's giving me the side I like are you done yet mom? can we talk about how Robbie really played his hand heavy with Abby I got to teach my dog child how to play it cool with girls so Robbie, can I just say Robbie is a teenager he talks back he is a back talker he's worse than a teenager he pretty much in dog language says FU and looks at you like wrong like such a personality I thought my dog talked a lot cause she's the part Husky she likes to howl but it's more or less mom I got to poop really bad can we go outside now where Robbie literally will have a full-blown conversation with you but Abby Abby was like playing hard to get she would look at him and then she would look away and walk the other way I'm like that's my girl playing hard to get as a female so I told Robbie you can't do that unless you bring her flowers for the second date Robbie tried to show how alpha he was to Abby he wanted to show Abby that it was his dent he was the alpha and Abby's like I don't give a shit he was like showing cause Abby doesn't give a shit she's like whatever I don't care cause she's very just blasé except when she wants to eat and when she wants to poop she makes that very well known it was so funny when we were out walking they were like trying to poop together I was like humans don't do this on dates only dogs do thank god I mean I'm just happy part of our social interaction has nothing to do with smelling each other's ass I know well that comes later on in our relationship but I'm just saying I mean not everybody washes their ass so I mean for any man I've ever dated or will date or whatever I don't do that the door is always closed in the bathroom that is off limits you keep the door closed too they are just some boundaries and relationships I'll go to the bathroom with Stephanie before I go to the bathroom in front of a man not gonna happen it's nope nope so I don't consent so I don't consent either I'm the same exact way I remember before I got married David was like we can't get married until you're comfortable with that and I said I guess we're never getting married then so he was joking I wasn't though well I'm not doing that no I'm sorry I'm your partner I'm your wife but I'm gonna be your sexy little wife like that's not happening that's been that's an alone time thing even if I'm pushing your child out of my body if I'm pushing your child out of my body you're gonna stand behind me oh yeah I agree with you wholeheartedly 100% so yeah anyway guys but speaking of bathroom time is a big detoxing so if you guys are going to the bathroom more yay we love a good start of it we get to detox and flush it all out let's ask let's be a little scandalous let's ask Stephanie what do the black cats think about our shadow work challenge okay for me to ask generally speaking just generally not a specific person just the collective of the black what do the black cats think of us hey channeling source creator then what are the bad guys think about this of us doing this collectively the 500 people in the world who are doing this right now over 500 oh man this is hilarious are they panicked are they freaking out I know they're panicking freaking out cause look how shadow band I am oh my god I like y'all as you would say y'all I'm in Georgia so I have rights to say y'all now just temporarily until I'm down here permanently uh hold on let me get one more card okay they're pathetic seriously just so pathetic literally is they like oh like oh fuck this is like a oh fuck card it's like they don't know what to do with this card um so they're frantically trying to figure out well what can we do to stop this almost you know so king of wands in reverse I've never had king of wands in reverse before that sounds like black magic to me cause not king of wands can be very intuitive but it's also a very impulsive card so I almost feel like there's this I feel like it's describing a frantic need to a frantic need to it's next to the six of swords now we have the ten of wands a frantic need to push burdens in front so shadow banning being something oh they want they want people to quit they want people to quit and walk away from it nah that ain't gonna happen we're too blessed I blessed the challenge before we started yeah you did bless the challenge that's the first time we've said that on camera I did a whole 60 minute blessing of it so y'all let's ask the cards are the bad guys include human and non-human like all the whole group of them including Lucifer are they terrified of the people in this challenge right now are they crapping their pants not from detoxing but from literal fear of the people in this challenge are they scared of us excuse me I just hiccuped well I have to lovers in reverse so they're like furious okay because that's the episode of love that's furious and that's also next to the judgment card that's a very very negative energy that's a service to self energy with the lovers in reverse next to the judgment card so yeah they're like they're freaking hateful this is a hateful energy um and they're they wanted to end they're terrified because they wanted to end and um they think this is just gonna be temporary they think this is just a temporary painful situation and I got news for them well I ain't giving up that for sure so the online the 90% of the truthers who are infiltrators and who are bad generally speaking the 90% not one person in particular just a general collective how do the online truthers who are bad feel about this shadow work challenge that we're doing because I know I can feel it I know that the people that are bad I'm planning and I feel it I think they're pissed I just want everybody watching right now to do this challenge do you realize how badass you are do you realize like how much how much the bad guys are afraid of you because that's how powerful you are I just want you guys to like realize that so this is how does the online cabal the 90% of the truthers that are infiltrators that are working for the good guys that are being paid by the three letter agencies and pretending to be truthers to derail us how do they feel about the 30 work the 30 day shadow work challenge and then we'll move back to the good guys again well I think they're hoping and praying it's not going to go forward like they want things to end like they don't want this to continue so the Wheel of Fortune card with the fool card so it's telling me that they want to get as many people to stay stagnant as possible to not move forward but I do feel like they're putting on an act too with the queen of cups so they're acting out acting out being healers acting out being good people because this would be acting out but really it's really troubling them with this that's burden so yeah I mean they've been playing an act for a long long time it's just you know how much the more work you're putting into yourself the more you can see past that illusion if somebody thinks one of us is bad that's on them I'm not going to take offense to it the fact of the matter is you know real people are real and you can see and feel a real person somebody fake you will feel it as well but it's not going to be the same type of feeling it's going to be a visceral feeling or you feel sick or something's not quite right and yeah so let's ask now I know the answer to this question I'm going to ask this from the spirits perspective what are the good guys think about the people doing this what about this guy's the 3A challenge I'm not talking about me or Stephanie I'm talking about you guys the 500 of you in the world doing this right now you're an army doing this right now so what are the good guys think about what they're doing off world are good guys human good guys angels source creator the people who are here the entities, sentient beings people whatever who are here fighting the people doing this work right now as a general collective reading Stephanie just quickly switched out cards because she felt like the cards were being manipulated at that moment so she's using her Odin deck now which we love our Odin listen any deity who wants whiskey hang on we love our Odin so she's using the Odin cards now so the question again was what did the good guys either women off world or angel whatever not just one particular person but the collective group of good guys think of the 500 people globally right now doing this challenge so I know they know about it I know they know I've been told I have four major archanas by the way yeah that's right you 500 people doing this challenge the good guys know you're doing this just so you know I know they're braced up on that I know they're perfect too so people don't believe Bryce on this I mean it's up to you if you believe us or not but I'm just going to go out on a limb and say she does have actual contacts and I know not everybody believes that but that's up to you that's for you to discern on your own I'm not going to try to fight anybody else on that it is what it is but yes those I feel like there's some that are still a little bit of sleep in the spiritual world I'm talking about ones that are not um they I think that this they realize there is going to be a spiritual shift in the world so this is spirituality this is worldwide energy right here and this is also a spiritual change and it's next to the magician card so this is a spiritual change okay and this is like them showing appreciation so they're very very very proud, appreciative they like love felt like they have a lot of emotion from the heart with this page of cups card like we're so proud of you um and I think that this is they really understand this is um releasing a lot of karmic bondage on us as well and helping the world with the six of pentacles so that's what I'm getting I mean that's a pretty strong reading right there they're so proud of you guys for doing this and I didn't know that by the way I did not know that I didn't even know what their emotions were on it just playing it out there when I was with them I asked have we not flipped yet flipped yet because of humanity and they said yeah we haven't flipped yet because people haven't considered there's no way people are ready if we sit around popcorn and watch a movie nothing's ever going to change we're just going to let the NWO you guys know what I'm saying walk right in the front door and the fact that you're actually doing something for yourself to heal yourself is bringing about that spiritual change you are now in this way to Bryce I mean a majority of people awakened right now come from the Christian church which is so completely violent and there's a lot of hate flying around I mean let's say we were to flip tomorrow for instance and then suddenly people are being told the real story of Jesus people are going to go vigilante literally so we need to start taking back ourselves instead of looking at the outward like getting information from outward sources I mean that even includes us if something doesn't feel right that we're saying you have a right to question it you have a right to research it I encourage it on my channel to question everything I said research for yourself and that is true so the brainwashing that's so heavy in the church what would happen is when the people who are heavily indoctrinated into the church when they were told to show the truth that the Bible is not the word of God that the Bible is copyrighted and owned by the Windsor family but these other texts are legit texts instead of being pissed at the church they would probably harm us the messenger and it would cause more violence so yes there has to be an awakening and again that's why I say the more you understand your own truth or your own illusion you're going to see the truth through all illusions when you start to learn more and you're not going to need the minister or the rabbi you're not going to need that with the intermediary but anymore and so totally, absolutely 100% yes so one last question Stephanie unless there's anything you want to read on what does God or spirits, source, creator you want to call that highest being of light what the 500 people doing the shadow work challenge what's the real God we get a couple more cards here holy shit sorry I get excited well I got to clarify one card in the beginning here so give me a start as I almost drop all my cards here actually I have one more question after this is it about the hurricane actually I'm not even going to ask that question because we already know the answer to it it's going to be about the next challenge so the first card I sat here and I'm like what the hell does this mean so four cups can be a disappointment okay but I clarified it with the ace of cups what that's telling me is God is saying through these two cards right here because this is underneath this one right here is that the beginning of this is going to feel awful but it's a new passionate beginning you're going to start developing a passion for healing yourself because actually the ace of cups is a very healing card because it's cups that's like emotions God is celebrating the 10 of cups would say creator is so proud so happy this is saying that we're those 500 people are now starting to align themselves with the Christ consciousness vibration more with this particular card and here's where it gets interesting so God is also saying this is the storm because this seven of cups is literally a storm card it's a shit show this is a new offering yep and then we have the justice card with the wheel of fortune so I mean it doesn't take a brain surgeon to figure these two cards out justice is what it is the balancing of energies the balancing your vibration bringing things to light with the wheel of fortune changing things up which is what we need I don't know how much longer we can continue on this trajectory because I'm going to be quite frank about it I'm kind of stunned I'm done I'm tired of I want to see the arrest happen that need to happen I want to see these dark black dark witches go down including the politicians it's done it's over now in January I'm considering doing a 60 day challenge what does God want to say about that should we go forward with a 60 day challenge in January as she's pulling guys a second ago I was on my phone and we are now over 200 people in the signal support group awesome this would say this is really going to be healing the night of cups night of cups is a love offering so it's kind of let you kindly offering this challenge up I was questioning these next two cards because I got the five of cups with the hanged man which is kind of interesting I'm like what the hell does that mean you know my ego kind of wants to kick it and go well that ain't right but the five of cups is followed by the star card so what that could honestly say is more shit really needs to just come up there's a lot of people really people really yeah pull up stuff and instead of saying the hanged man we need to really come into more of this creative rebirthing type of energy loving energy motherly energy nurturing yourself really mothering the inner child that you are nurturing the inner child you are because the page of pentacles right after so I'm actually getting that the one of the methods you might want to use in that challenge is something to do with a lot of the inner child stuff which I like the Quan Yin well that is going to come in I think next week in this challenge and what I was going to do if we did a 60 day was I was going to repeat the first 30 days of this challenge for those who didn't do it the first time I need to reboot and then the next 30 days go even deeper so that makes sense and it's just emphasizing the inner child stuff with that but we also have a curia card so it says to go forward with it and once again guys these challenges are free it's no charge to do these challenges if you are learning about the 30 day challenge that I'm going on right now email me anyway I'll go ahead and send you the template it's never too late to start taking care of yourself one last question from me Stephanie are these 500 warriors in this challenge is this part of prophecy we already know it's the storm it's just part of a prophecy yeah judgment in the ace of ones need I say more need I say more you guys you're part of prophecy is it that but that's how powerful you are I knew it that's how powerful all y'all watching right now all y'all who are doing this challenge are supporting the challenge are doing your own shadow worker doesn't necessarily have to be my template it could be any other shadow work you're currently doing you're part of the prophecy you are if you come from the church I'm just going to lay it out to you the seven seals in the book of revelation are the Kundalini Awakening the chakra the chakra seals releasing so unblocking yourself that's the seven seals in the book of revelation I just want to like I want to hug all 500 people and plus than the ones we don't know about doing this because you guys are literally where we go one we go all right like you guys are literally doing this by yourselves and going through I mean I know trust me I know I know how awful this could be like I know you have there is no horror story there is no scary movie out there that's scarier than dealing with your own shadow you know and you're doing it and it takes bravery and it takes current it's the story of Hanuman it's your courage that's going up against Ravana to return your soul to God and the more we work the more we descend into the underworld you are descending into your own underworld right now so that you can then ascend up and that vibration collectively I mean collectively on the planet the bad guys had the love first part I mean that's the love frequency the highest vibration and that's essentially what we want is we need that love vibration because what it does is it it extends outward and then it starts to affect the people around us so you know verses if you're not working on yourself you might get mad at your kids a lot easier you might react to things you might show a lot of anger and you know not be supportive not be empathic verses working on your shadow so you're going to start to have display more patience more love more kindness more compassion more empathy toward others you said the humor because humor is the highest level of spirituality so you'd be able to look in the face of these demons and laugh at them you know and I'm just I'm so you guys I'm so proud of you I know Stephanie is a proud of you you have no I know and I've said this before for you guys doing this right now if you're new to this one day you're going to have to pay it forward like I'm paying it forward one day you will be in the position to create this and help the next generation move forward through this and so don't take any of these lessons for granted or have them in vain because I know I absolutely I've been there I've been there I was laughing with Stephanie when you're going through shadow work it's not one time to hell it's a multiple trip it's multiple trips it's return tickets all the time and to face that destruction of your fault sense of self can be one of the scariest most gut-wrenching things that you will ever go through it's facing but once you get to the other side of it you feel such liberation you see the world differently you see other people differently and so I am so I know as I said yesterday if you're thinking of running why don't you stay if you've always ran when things got hard what would happen if you actually stayed if you run during the dark night of the soul you're not going to be there to see the breaking of a new dawn what would that look like for you you guys are powerhouses I love our support group I am so I'm not able to be in there as much as I would like to be in there because we all take turns in there we all take turns but anyway we got a couple of admins admins in there that don't have channels that are just our friends from from our they're doing an incredible job of helping people accept you the reason why it's private guys is because we do have vulnerable conversations in there and we don't want just any Tom Dick or Harry to be able to read those conversations that's where they're private and so if you ask to come in we'll let you in if there's ever any trolling which there hasn't been any trolling but if there is ever is we will block that person right so you can be and we're doing it on signal instead of telegram because signal is a white hat app it's a more secure telegram always gets I hate telegram I'm actually about to believe my telegram because it's just full of trolls can I say one thing Bryce before we end so I texted you last night I was recording my tarot course my recorded tarot course and I've decided one or two people will also win a free tarot course and possibly a pendulum course to divination course just in general I'll come up with the game plan but I think I'll even add more to it with the 60 day challenge you know what's amazing so many people are donating more and more and more and more prizes and that shows me how open people's hearts are you know I know people I'm just so proud like I'm just so ecstatic that people are actually like doing this and just like working on themselves so you know it's just something that I just really really strongly believe I just want to do you know what I mean it's just gifts that to a few people yeah I'm thinking about adding a spot for the next yoga course as well as a prize too so that's a $500 value so yeah there's tons of gifts guys I'm going to be giving out I had like at least one I put one gift card to Marnie Alton's month of her website but I'm actually thinking about opening it to like two or three because so many people are having such a you feel like a gift of wanting to keep giving to people because they're giving to themselves and this is and we have Catherine I got the list of all the courses that Catherine Edwards is donating guys she's got like four courses there that she's donating that someone's going to win Shanti's donated one of her alchemy courses to someone I mean I have someone that emailed that offered to do some other to donate some other healing I mean it's unbelievable you guys I mean the fact that I've been helped in my journey in the last few weeks and I'd like to pay it forward is also another part of it because I've been I I mean I I'm just so grateful I personally like have you I have Shanti I have Cindy I have Todd I have all these people very powerful and humble and and just that have helped me out so I know that you know part of what I want to do is is pay it forward if somebody really wants to learn the cards and they can't afford it or you know I mean the pendulum course whatever it may be even my herbal course I might even do a gift for depends we'll see I'd like to gift that out can I tell you to I have to just shout out to a lot of our challengers I say challengers you're challenging yourself you're not challenging each other but so many people have privately messaged me asking for their name to be removed from the raffle because they have the money to afford these things and they want to make sure it makes me emotional they want to make sure that people doing this challenge that can't afford I know I had I had a message I've had a few messages asking and I'm like go to Bryce because she's taken care of all that but you know just let her know and that's amazing because that shows that shows so much in a person for you're like nope I can afford this let somebody get this gift that really can't afford it that really needs it that's a lot and I got multiple messages from people say it even when some people signed up for the challenge I said I just want to do the challenge I don't want to be in the raffle because I can afford these gifts and so I want to make sure that someone who can't is in the raffle not me because I can afford it and I just that that shows you know we look at the law of one service a self-service to others saying for those people that said I got a good job I've got I can afford to do these things that's that service to others and that is amazing and you know of course I honor it I'll pull your name out if you don't want it but you know people have asked if I win can I gift my prize to someone else of course you can it's your prize you can do what you want if you win and you know someone in your life that's really struggling that needs that reading or that needs that Marnie Alton website of course you can gift it to someone else they don't even have to be a part of the challenge I've had a couple of people reach out to me and say my mom just joined the challenge she needs the reading more than me can I gift my mother can I gift my sister can I gift my father a reading you know family members you're even stepping up to the plane helping out their family members with wanting a shadow work reading and everything like that and what's interesting is I've had a couple of people get a reading from me that are doing the challenge then they convince their family members or friends to do the challenge and then they convince their their family member or friend to come to me for a reading and such and it's like there's a major ripple effect and that's another that's another example of how this is affecting those around you so like for instance I've had a lot of people say to me I'm questioning your sanity on your belief system and all that kind of stuff and the one thing I would say to them you know this is I think probably the biggest person would be I don't know past friends or David for instance I would say okay so let's look at it this way let's say I am going mentally insane how do I act now versus then can you tell me the difference and the one thing I got was holy crap wait a second hold on hold on well you used to react with anger or shout or yell or get pissed off or you would easily get offended or easily triggered but you're very calm now I'm like okay so let's examine this again so people are going to start to notice these things and go oh well you're really calm you're not reacting like you used to the things that used to trigger you and piss you off you're just more grounded about it so you're also showing an example of what it is to do shadow work with people around you where they're going I want that too so that action speak louder than words exactly alright guys I know Stephanie has a reading coming up and we've been over an hour now I am so great thank you Stephanie for doing your part in this and kicking your own ass we're all just kicking our own asses I've been kicking my own ass yes awesome and thank you so much to you guys we love you all so so so much maybe at the 20 day mark or something we'll do another reading because we're the two thirds of the way through the challenge and you guys are incredible keep going just keep going alright guys we love you we'll talk to you soon bye everybody bye