so he's um taking the cast off and as he starts like unwrapping the gauze I start kind of panicking. I notice something and I'm like oh There is something on my leg Hello, my beautiful internet friends. Welcome back.  Yeah, something happened and we need to talk about it Uh, I need to preface this by saying that if you are grossed out by medical things You probably don't want to watch this video. I will give another warning before I show photos of what actually is happening What happened? Um, but it's it's like my dad didn't even want to see photos of it. It's pretty gross Just for warning. Yeah, so let's just let's just dive into it I think the last bit of footage that you guys saw was my five days in the hospital I was on my way home. I was so excited to finally be Going back home where I could actually get some rest because I was exhausted and I I have been exhaust I'm like finally catching up on some sleep. So maybe I don't look so tired anymore Maybe I do though. I got home. I was so happy to be home I slept like 12 hours that first night. I got home But the next evening the day after I got home I got up and I started feeling really really weird like I went to the restroom and I came back and I was like Brian something doesn't feel right like I got super nauseous and dizzy And I was in like more pain and just out of it and just felt just You know and he was like, well, let's just take your temperature And it turned out that I had a fever of over 100 which surprised me because I was like, I'm fine Like don't worry about it. I'm totally fine. We don't even need to take my temperature But he was like, yes, we do and I'm glad that he insisted on that call the on call line And they were like go to the er Just to make sure nothing's terribly wrong because you shouldn't have a fever. They admitted me immediately They ran a whole like emergency sepsis thing on me.  They dose me up with antibiotics and they got things under control So like I wasn't you know at risk anymore. I was gonna be okay But the big question was should they take the cast off my leg and check and see if anything was going on with my leg because They could tell that I had an infection They thought that they knew where it was coming from But it was entirely possible that maybe something was going on with my leg as well The weird thing is is that they told us they couldn't recast it Like they said we literally can't do casting in the er. So if we take it off We're not going to be able to put on anything but a splint and that's a real risk because My leg has to stay casted for four weeks because of the specific procedures they did on it in surgery Brian and I talked it over for a little while and we decided that since there was no Like increased pain. There was no Weird feelings. There was no like red streaks or anything that we could see at the top of my cast We were gonna we were gonna keep the cast on and call it good for the night So we got home and Brian was like really insistent that I go up to den for the next day And get the cast off and like talk to my doctors and I was I'm gonna be honest I was like really stubborn and did not want to go. I was So tired like could barely put words together could barely like stay awake like just beyond Exhausted and I just wanted to stay home and rest and thankfully Brian thought further than I could and insisted that I go up I was able to get an appointment with Zach my prosthetist Who would be able to take my cast off because he was actually the one who put the cast on though None of the doctors could see me that day So my mom woke me up and hauled me up to denver and I was Super ticked off about it because I'm like everything's fine like it's gonna be all right guys I was so wrong.  There is something on my leg And oh dear there was something on my leg. This is what we found lurking underneath my cast Why what the hell so Zach goes up to grab one of the doctors because thankfully they live in the same building They live they work in the same building to come down And the doctor said this was apparently a severe allergic reaction to one of the things they use in Surgery, but it looks like my leg is like being eaten by a flesh shooting disease And it's funny because the other allergic reaction that I had in the hospital. I joked about that Hopefully it's not the start of like a Skin eating zombie disease that's gonna kill us all I literally joked about I hope this isn't like a flesh shooting disease or whatever and it's not like it's It's not but my leg looks like a zombie like my leg looks like part of the walking dead It looks awful. It's super gross and I'm gonna be honest with you guys I was not I was not pleased and I I asked him and this was like the one part of this whole experience that Really made me angry because I was freaked out like if you saw that on your leg Would you be totally cool calm and collected? I mean, maybe you would be but I was not Especially in the state that I'm in and I asked him as he was like walking out the room I was like, are you 100% sure that this is an allergic reaction that this is not something else and With a really condescending tone and a lot of arrogance He was like, do you think I would have told you that that's what it was if it wasn't And then laugh that response. It was really frustrating because this is my leg Like this is what I have left of my leg and so much has happened with it that if this was like Actually a flesh eating disease or something scary or whatever like this is all I have left of my leg And I need it to be okay and for his response to just be so demeaning is like unfortunate Like I'm scared, you know, like I'm exhausted from surgery and scared and drugged up And he didn't have the decency to at least be kind to me When my leg looks like it's being eaten by something Which was just frustrating and like he came back with cream to put on it and then recasted it So there is a zombie leg underneath That cast right there right now, and I don't even know what to say about it It's just so bizarre and I don't know what's gonna happen with it. Like I'm going back in on Wednesday That's when they can actually see me and they're gonna Take the cast off and look at it again. I really hope that it's better I really hope that it doesn't scar over. I like I am sort of in shock that everything has happened that has happened I was just kind of in shock to see that and I didn't think to ask a lot of questions I probably should have and so here we are and um fingers crossed that everything turns out okay Fingers crossed that it's nothing. I mean that I guess it is just an allergic reaction Apparently I have a lot more allergies than I've known about before. I think I've developed some Because they certainly seem to be getting more severe and I've never had anything like that happen in surgery But yeah, that's that's the update on my leg. It's a it's a zombie My leg is auditioning to be a part of the walking dead. I think It's been a insane two weeks Very very unexpected things have not gone according to plan. I'm finally like stable I'm on antibiotics for the infection. I am on the medications I need to control the pain that I'm having in my leg and it has just been a heck of a 12 days on the upside. I did take a shower yesterday. Check it out guys Like my hair is not super super greasy and gross I'm gonna share I'm gonna share this with you guys because I trust you I went nine days without taking a shower because I was so tired and taking a shower with the cast on takes a lot of energy I feel really bad for brian or any visitors who came to see me because There's only so much that that deodorant and body spray can cover up right guys. So things are stable.  Just it's just part zombie I'm really hoping that that goes away entirely and that that doesn't scar and you know look Weird cross your fingers But hey, you know what if even if it does and I'm able to walk then so be it End result. I just want to be able to walk I just want to be able to like move and do stuff and actually have a leg and if that happens in the end All of this was worth it. Thank you for sticking around for this journey. Thank you for listening to me talk about all of this and gosh Having you guys be a part of this is Truly amazing like reading your comments is Incredible and so helpful to me Especially when I'm struggling Especially when things feel like they're falling apart and upside down and it just I feel so supported by you guys and I wanted to say thank you And always thank you so much to all of my patrons over on patreon for all you're doing for me I appreciate you so so so much thank you for spending a few minutes watching this video and That's all I got guys I'm gonna lay down and probably take another like eight hour nap Hopefully the next video will just be like a normal like hey Here's how things have gone and everything's great fingers crossed. That's what it's going to be. That's what it's going to be guys I'm just speaking it into existence because that works Anyways, I love you guys. I am thinking of you and I will see you in the next video Bye guys


Our other debate tonight was in House District 9A, Meg Litz from the DFL and John Poston from the Republican Party are both running for the first time. They discussed several topics, including a long-term transportation fix and the possibility of increasing the gas tax. I do not believe that a gas tax is the way for us to go, so I would not agree with a gas tax. I think we need to tax some other things like automotive parts, automotive parts being the biggest one, tires, you know, every part that you need for an automobile, I think that would be a more consistent revenue stream to come in to rebuild and build new roads and bridges. When it comes to matters that are financial, I tend to be more towards the moderate side. So I don't jump immediately to taxing, and I certainly want to take a closer look at other opportunities for us to look for revenue that can help support the infrastructure that we so desperately always need to support not only in greater Minnesota, but around the state of Minnesota. So in greater Minnesota, we do need to look at how we support the bridges and the roads that transport our children, that transport people, to and from our beautiful area in terms of tourism and that industry, that transport goods and services in our agribusiness. Lakeland Public Television will continue our debate series tomorrow night, beginning at 7 o'clock. If you've enjoyed this segment of Lakeland News, please consider making a tax-deductible contribution to Lakeland Public Television.


But, guys, I put that option on the pole as a joke. I wasn't expecting it. Okay. This is the introduction song. It's not very good, but it's not too long. Back in November of 2008, a cultural phenomenon came of age when Twilight arrived in theaters. The story of a teenage girl falling in love with a 109-year-old vampire who's pretending to be a teenage boy had a marketing campaign more aggressive than my dog playing Keepaway with his toys. It was impossible to exist back then and not hear about this movie. Whether you cared or not was another matter, the fact is, we all knew about it. And I say it came of age because the film was based on a book of the same name that came out in 2005. It had been around for a few years, it just wasn't a huge hit. Most people who hadn't read the books misunderstood the marketing, and we sort of thought that this series was going to be Harry Potter with vampires. So I read the books. And my mom read them. And my sister. And everyone I knew at the time. And we saw the movies. And most of us were disappointed. If you're one of the three people unaware of this, Twilight is not a fantasy adventure story. It's a paranormal romance. All the fantastical elements are just a background for the love story between Bella and Edward. While there are some bigger conflicts that feature in the story, they aren't the focus. Look, I know that the past decade has seen everyone in their grandmother make fun of this franchise. Sparkling vampires are dumb. Kristen Stewart's acting is awful.  Edward is emotionally abusive. Jacob is an obnoxious nice guy. Victoria is the least intimidating villain of all time. There's next to nothing left for me to cover in that regard. However, with the benefit of hindsight and without being swept up in the hate train, I feel the need to ask, is Twilight really that bad? To clarify, I'm not saying that Twilight is a great series. I'm not even calling it good. I put New Moon on my 10 most hated books list for a reason. And while that list is outdated now, I would still have it on there somewhere. Rather, I just want to take a fresh look at those books and try to explain why I think they're bad, but not THAT bad. I might even admit that there are one or two things in there that are good. But that's kind of beside the point. It doesn't matter if there are good aspects to it or not. No franchise aimed at teen girls is going to end human civilization. The way we all piled on to hate this series is a good example of how internet hate mobs form.  They do it because there's a crowd that cheers them on every time they loudly hate it. Anyways, that's a long enough intro. Let's get into the meat of the matter. Spoilers ahead, if anyone cares. Part 1. Expectations. So I already said that we thought this series would just be Harry Potter plus vampires. We were expecting adventures in a secret world where people would be saved and bad guys would be fought. Obviously, that wasn't what we wound up getting, and part of the blame for that can be placed on whoever put the trailers for the first movie together. They played up the action and tension as though they were the main focus of the story, which they clearly weren't. Not that I blame them, the point of a trailer is to make people go and see your movie, so you want to show off the good bits. There are plenty of trailers released over the years that are misleading. That's not a crime. Not until I'm elected to Congress anyways. This issue was exacerbated by the fact that the Deathly Hallows had come out only a little over a year earlier. All the Harry Potter fans, which was everybody, were still clamoring for something similar that we could devour. And really, we should have known from the get-go that this would be bad. The first trailer has some clearly bad acting, bad dialogue, and an unusual amount of focus on the main characters staring at each other longingly. We should have known that this wouldn't be something that appealed to us. The signs were there, we just didn't want to see them. We were so desperate for more Hogwarts-esque adventures that we ignored the sea of red flags. We heard that Bojack Horseman quote here. Because we had expectations, and those expectations weren't met, we were more upset than we should have been. If we went in expecting crap, then when we got crap, we would have shrugged and moved on. There still would have been people mocking the franchise, sure, there's plenty of comedy here, but there wouldn't have been any of that visceral anger that's marked most of the discussion around it. I have to start off with this bit because there needs to be a context to everything else I bring up. While the problems with Twilight are legion when you look at it as a fantasy adventure, as a romance with a fantasy backdrop, a lot of those issues either go away or are mitigated. Teenage girls looking for an escapist fantasy are going to have a different wish fulfillment and different expectations than the rest of us, and that's perfectly fine. The Way of Kings is one of my favorite books, but it's not for everybody. It's extremely long, has a very steep learning curve, the world is very strange, there's tons of violence, and some of the struggles that the characters go through are mentally taxing to read about. Someone who didn't like epic fantasy and read the entire book would probably hate it. Even though it's better put together than Twilight, I'm sure someone could go through and describe in vivid detail all the ways in which they hate it. People do it to perfectly find pieces of media all the time, just look at the last Jedi. Anything that's been put under a microscope the way Twilight has been will look bad, and anything that hits your preferences will seem better to you than to others, that's just how art works. The sparkling is stupid, there, I got it out of the way. At a glance, the world of Twilight seems like your standard hidden magical world setting. These are extremely common and usually require some suspension of disbelief to get into, but there's usually at least some sort of explanation as to why the magical world would keep itself hidden. In Harry Potter, the wizarding world stays hidden because before the modern era, magic was understudied and weak, the Muggles posed a real threat to them, so they hid themselves and made rules to prevent others of their kind from exposing them. And in the modern era, the wizards have grown comfortable with the current segregation arrangement. They don't feel that they'd have anything to gain by interacting with the Muggle world. It makes sense that magic is hidden from society at large. This is so common in fantasy tales, especially those aimed at younger audiences, that most of us don't even think about it when we see it anymore. It's more noteworthy when someone makes a setting that's wholly original. The wish fulfillment aspect to it is pretty obvious, a world like Middle Earth or the Cosmere can be amazing, but there's never a feeling that you could get pulled in there one day. Even stuff like Panem or the Expanse, which are just our world in the future, have a serious disconnect from real life. By setting a story in a hidden section of our own world, usually with a protagonist who lived a normal life until they stumbled across it, you give the audience the ability to project themselves onto the protagonist and imagine being pulled from their own mundane lives. Twilight is far from the only book series to use this trope, and it'll be far from the last. It's not as though this is a lazy way to world build either since you have to account for all the ways in which the hidden world keeps itself hidden. Any failures there can make the whole thing fall apart.  I'm not talking about the Cullens or others like them, they're just people who drink blood. They want to be left alone to live mostly normal, immortal lives, and if their neighbors knew they were vampires, they'd be unable to do that. It makes sense how they'd hide their true nature. I'm talking about all the other vampires of the world. People like James and Victoria and the Volturi. James feeds on humans frequently and loves the thrill of hunting, so why does he bother hiding himself from the public? The Volturi are thousands of years old and are said to have no respect for humanity, yet they keep themselves sequestered away. In fact, they outright kill other vampires who threaten to expose the existence of their species. This is the crux of the conflicts that come at the end of New Moon and Breaking Dawn, but why? Most vampire legends have a couple of common traits given to vampires. They're nocturnal, subsist on human blood, and have great strength and speed that allow them to overpower a human. At the same time, they have a few weaknesses that allow a human to overcome them if they're clever and or prepared. Some common ones include garlic, sunlight, holy water, silver, and a steak through the heart. It's not uncommon for authors to change these around and give new weaknesses or remove some of them to make them seem more threatening, but the general idea that vampires can be killed by knowledgeable humans stays intact. In Twilight, vampires have no weaknesses. Sunlight, garlic, silver, et cetera, all have no effect on them.  They don't even have to sleep, so they're never vulnerable to attack. Oh yeah, vampires are also the X-Men in this universe. They can all read minds or fire lightning or something else along those lines. It's not a problem by any means, but it's never properly explored either. In the end, it's a wash, so I'll drop it here. As far as we can see, the only things that can kill a vampire are another vampire or a werewolf.  They could coexist without any worries since we can't hurt them. They could even rule over us like demigods and we couldn't do a thing. Why don't the vampires rule us? Well, because Stephanie Meyer decided to write a story with a hidden world as the setting. Since she wanted to write about vampires, she threw them in there and just left it at that. There's a few magical things other than vampires that exist here. We get a very long sequence in Eclipse with the origin story of the werewolves, which involves human spirits leaving their bodies and merging with wolves. How much of this is true and how much is just legend is unclear and we never see an indication of other spirit walkers or magic anywhere else in the world. This might go some way to explaining why the status quo was set up and how it's been maintained if it were ever mentioned, but there's nothing there. Also, the werewolves aren't actually werewolves. They're shapeshifters who chose the form of wolves and you know what? I don't care.  It's not the worst I've ever come across though. It just makes no sense. It doesn't actively contradict itself at any points that I found and things like the Volturi wanting to keep their race a secret are treated consistently. In the end, it's just kind of dumb, not worth being mad about. Part three, relationships.  It's creepy. It's like Hugh Hefner marrying someone in her 20s only tempered by the fact that he still looks her age and she's also underage. An age difference isn't always a bad thing though. Sometimes people born many years apart can fall in love as long as they're both above the age of consent. I'm not disputing that. This is only one issue among many. Edward holds all the power in their relationship. Physically, he can do whatever he wants and Bella is powerless to stop him.  He wouldn't hurt her because he's allegedly a decent person but that's not the point. The point is that there are no constraints on his actions at all. Among human couples, even if there's a stark physical difference, society at large can act to constrain the actions of one or both parties. Just being able to hurt her doesn't mean he will. Not by a long shot. It's just something to keep in mind. From the first book onward, Bella is completely dependent on Edward for protection. The beginning of their relationship comes when he saves her from getting hit by a car. Then not long after he saves her again, this time from getting raped by strangers, which is good. The problem is that it frames the rest of their relationship through that lens. The audiences told that Edward is primarily concerned with protecting Bella and we see some evidence to support this. Therefore, we believe him when he says his later actions are in service of that goal. As an aside, they really should have reported those guys to the police. Nothing was ever done about them as far as I can tell.  Because vampires come after Bella, first James, then Victoria, and then the Volturi, she has no way to defend herself. Most of Edward's actions are supposedly based around his desire to keep her safe, including him telling her what to do and controlling her movement. You might be seeing the problem here. Even if his desire to protect her is genuine, he's extremely controlling. Even her sexual desires are used as leverage for Edward to get her to do what he wants. As a vampire, he doesn't get horny and Bella, as a perfectly normal young woman, still does.  He won't do it until she becomes a vampire and he won't turn her into a vampire until after their marriage, which ties her to him in another way.  I'm not saying that Edward should have sex with her if he's truly uncomfortable with it. I'm saying that this aspect to their relationship is put in solely to demonstrate how he holds power over her and how that's somehow a desirable state to be in. And due to his long life, he has knowledge on how to do things like remove pieces from her car's engine so that she can't go see her friends until he deems her worthy of it. If you were unaware, yes, that does happen in these books. There isn't a single area where Bella could be considered Edward's equal, not even close. That's just no way to form a healthy relationship to begin with. Then when you add in behaviors like Edward isolating her from her friends, it becomes straight up abusive. It kind of makes sense that she would shut down so completely when he leaves her since she had nothing else in her life and that allows him to control her. Romance doesn't always have to be totally realistic to be good. What it does have to be is romantic and this ain't it, chief. I guess it's impossible to talk about Twilight without at least briefly bringing up its spiritual successor, 50 Shades of Grey. For those still somehow unaware, 50 Shades was a book series that was later made into a movie trilogy and the whole thing started as a piece of Twilight fan fiction. Without going into detail, the relationships shown in 50 Shades are considerably worse than those in Twilight featuring severe emotional abuse, sexual abuse and controlling behavior. That being said, I actually think that it's less of an issue there than with its progenitor. 50 Shades was aimed at adult women who were looking for a sexual thrill and the marketing and word of mouth kept that at the forefront of the conversation. I'm not saying that no one else read these books, just that the target audience was grown. The majority of them were probably well aware how unsavory certain parts of the story are and they were able to separate it from reality. It's a fantasy and so is 50 Shades of Grey, so I don't see the abuse there as such a big deal. I mean, it's not good, it's just not that big of a deal. This sort of thing only really bothers me when it's in media aimed at kids and teens because they're young and impressionable. Even then, as long as we educate them on how those things are supposed to work, it shouldn't be too big of a problem. All that said, Bella's relationship with Edward is abusive in most ways, yes. Her other relationships, on the other hand, are shockingly positive most of the time. First, look at her and her father, Charlie. Part of the reason she came to Forks was because they had been so distant from each other and she wanted to spend time with him. The two of them trying to get to know each other again is awkward but surprisingly sweet. Charlie takes a genuine interest in her life, asking her how she's doing, how school is going, and meeting Edward right after they start dating. Near the end of the first book, when Bella has to go on the run, she tells him that she's leaving and he responds with complete understanding. While he's clearly upset, he understands that Bella is a young adult who deserves some level of control over her life. He's mostly just concerned for her, which makes sense when you realize that her complete lack of emotion or hobbies and her obsession over the first man to show her affection could be symptoms of depression or other mental disorders. Later on, Charlie continues to give her advice and support her in her major life choices.  Long story short, Charlie is an awkward dude and a great dad that has a healthy relationship with his daughter. Edward's family is pretty loving and accepting of her too. His sister Alice in particular is helpful, explaining some of the details of being a vampire and letting her know more about the family. She has a friendship with her that doesn't rely completely on Edward too. They go out and do stuff multiple times, just the two of them. They understand and they like each other. His parents, Esme and Carlisle, are generally loving and caring as well. When Bella shows up, they're just happy that their son has found someone and they're never anything but kind to her. The only one of the cullens that doesn't like Bella is Rosalie, who has fair reason to resent her, Rosalie misses being human and hates that Bella is so willing to throw it away. But when she accidentally tells Edward that she's dead in New Moon, she apologizes profusely and tries to make up for it. And in the final book, the two of them mend their divide. They don't become best friends or anything, they just learn to get along better. Frankly, that's a realistic depiction of how family ties work. You don't have to like everybody, you just have to learn to live with them. Then look at Bella's other friends, Sans Jacob. As soon as she arrives in town, they welcome her with open arms. They answer her questions about the local area without judgment, invite her out to events with them, assist her in acclimating to her new home, and generally just act like decent people. When Bella shuts down emotionally for months during New Moon, they try to reach her and when they can't, they still stand by for when she goes back to normal. Then afterwards, they don't seem to hold any hard feelings towards her about her actions, they welcome her back into the fold and continue being there for her, because that's what friends do. They might not be a big part of the story, they aren't three-dimensional characters at all, but they're good people and they have a solid relationship with Bella. Jacob deserves his own mention, because at first he's just an acquaintance of Bella's, then he's a friend that brings her out of her depression, and if they left it at that, it would be fine. However, when he falls in love with her and feels as though she's rejecting him, he goes full fedora-tipper. He gets angry, he lashes out at others, and he bemoans his lack of success with the girl he likes. It comes within a hair's breadth of, why doesn't she like me? I'm such a nice guy territory. Things escalate past that with Jacob forcibly kissing her at one point, although it's not really portrayed as romantic, so I guess it could be worse. What couldn't be worse is how Jacob hears about Bella and Edward being engaged and threatens to commit suicide afterwards, only relenting when Bella willingly kisses him. Then she realizes that she loves him too just less than Edward. Basically, by this point, they've developed a toxic codependency. Their relationship changes and gets better later on, but that deserves its own section, so I'll put a pin in it for now. What I'm getting at with all this is that while the normal romance is creepy and unhealthy, the rest of Bella's interactions are surprisingly normal. Part four, plot. The story of these books is bad. Not because the setup is bad, it's not even the execution really, it's the pacing. Although that kind of falls under execution, but for the sake of this video, let's pretend it doesn't. For just a moment, forget everything you know about Twilight and let me describe the major story beats to you. A young woman moves to a new town and falls in love with a vampire. She winds up being targeted by a different vampire who wants to hunt her for sport.  All is well again. Except the evil vampire's mate is now out for revenge and she wants to get it by creating a small army of new vampires. Now the main character's new family has to work with their sworn enemies to protect themselves. Doesn't that sound cool? When you remove the lion's share of the interpersonal drama, depressive episodes, trips to Italy and staring at Edward's abs, that's what the story of the first three books is. The setup is pretty cool. The execution is perfectly all right too.  In action-packed climax, this is what we call storytelling. And the Victoria's retribution arc is set up the same way. As long as we forget all the nothing she did during New Moon, she poses a real threat, has a motivation, and is defeated through a combination of brute force and cleverness. Even the conflict with the Volturi in Breaking Dawn isn't awful. We don't get the epic vampire showdown we wanted, sure, and it doesn't make sense for them to wanna keep themselves hidden so much, but at least there's something to threaten the main character's happiness. There's some basic understanding on how to write a book. So what's the problem then? All of these events are crammed into a fraction of the total page count. The PDF copy of Twilight I have here is 260 pages. James isn't introduced until page 195, exactly 75% of the way through the book. And the conflict starts right after that. There's no build-up and no anticipation, it just starts. Say what you will about the movie, but at least it has some scenes of the villains doing stuff before this. The same thing happens with Victoria and the Volturi later on. The plot is fine once it gets started, it just doesn't have enough time to properly develop. Few of the events truly sink in. This goes for the second book as well. Eclipse is, in my opinion, the best of the series simply because the vampire army is brought up early on, the characters learn that there's a threat, they spend time preparing for it, they have smaller conflicts along the way as they gather up allies, and then there's a big battle. Bella even plays a role in defeating the villain, which she didn't really do with James. It's not amazing, but it's something. Really, that's what I'd say about the plot to the last book too. Not amazing, but there's something to it. The biggest problem with all of this is that we almost always follow Bella's POV, meaning we don't get to see anything if she doesn't see it. Once she witnesses the action, it's fine. There's a baseline level of competence in this series, but that's all it is, competent. Nothing more, nothing less. Part five, character. The biggest problem about these books to a lot of people are the two main leads. I've already discussed Edward enough, so I'll leave him alone. Let's talk about Bella. When you get down to it, there's not much to her. She's a total blank slate without much of a personality. But remember, this is designed to be a self-insert story, so her having little personality is by design. We tend to look down on these sorts of wish fulfillment type stories, but come on, let other people have their thing. This would be where I'd leave it except for New Moon. In that literary abortion, Edward leaves Bella and she goes into a depression for months, not talking to people, not doing anything, and not feeling much of anything. While this does make her seem pretty pathetic and her lack of any hobbies or personality traits exacerbates this, with the benefit of hindsight, I can see that this is all symptomatic of severe depression. Now, I'm not going to try and diagnose a fictional character with a mental illness, partially because I'm not a psychologist and partially because fictional characters don't always follow real-world logic. All I'm saying is that this looks a lot like depression. When the series starts, Bella has no friends, a strained relationship with her family, and seemingly no interests at all. There's this heavy melancholy that follows her around and it only raises when she starts to open up to people. Not just Edward, but all the others I brought up earlier. And when she opens up, she becomes much happier. Viewing it from that perspective, this is the story of a young woman dealing with her demons. However, it's still a bit problematic when you consider that her romance with Edward is all that's holding her in her state of normalcy. That feels like it's saying that you need to be with a man to get over your illness. In the end, it's just a wash. Bella is a boring character that has one or two neat aspects to her and in some ways functions as a tale for overcoming mental illness. Let's get to that Jacob pin. Yeah, he's obsessed with Bella and has a toxic dependency on her and he tries to manipulate her a couple of times. But he does get better near the end. In Breaking Dawn, Bella and Edward get married and finally do the sex. However, the still human Bella gets pregnant with a half vampire baby. It's slowly killing her, so some of the others try to convince her to terminate the pregnancy, Jacob included. She refuses, he's angry and winds up giving this information to his wolf pack. They're angry because turning humans breaks the treaty that they made a century earlier. The pack wants to kill the cullens, Bella and her unborn baby, which Jacob is horrified by. He tries to convince them not to get violent, but they refuse and so he runs off from the pack to protect the cullens. Jacob cuts himself off from his friends and family, puts his own life at risk and allies with people he hates all to protect Bella. Even if he knows she'll never love him the way he does her, she's still his friend and he still cares about her. He's willing to give up everything to do the right thing. This shows just how much he's matured in a short time. While he was a petulant child for a long time, when reality hit him in the face, he stood up and did the right thing. When Renesmee is born, he does this thing called imprinting on her. Basically what it means is that he forms a connection with her that makes them soulmates. While it is creepy for an almost grown man to be in love with a baby, this process is entirely involuntary and he never does anything physical with her. And since the other wolves can't attack anyone who's the soulmate of another wolf, the fighting ends. In this sense, it's possible that Jacob imprinted in order to protect everybody he cares about on both sides, though I can't say for sure since imprinting is never totally explained. The point is that he becomes a good person by the end, even if he had issues earlier on. The rest of the cast isn't awful either. Basically every character has an interesting backstory except Bella. Edward used to be a vampire serial killer. Jasper participated in a war between vampire clans. Carlisle used to be a demon hunter. They all had a life before they show up on the page. And while they're generally not super developed or well-rounded, they have a little personality. People associate them with the abysmal acting in the films, and I don't blame them for that, but in the books they're much less wooden. They have lives and relationships outside of how they know Bella. Basically the character cast, other than Edward, is perfectly serviceable for the sort of story being told. Were this a fantasy adventure story then the cast wouldn't be that great because most of them aren't given much to do. But I really want to reiterate that this is romance first and everything else second, which means everything else just isn't that important. Part six, other stuff. Here's a couple other things that don't deserve their own section but still deserve to be brought up. This series puts a huge emphasis on having children and how not having children makes you an incomplete person. Esme Cullen makes several references to being upset that she can't have children. And Rosalie too, that's a part of why she resents Bella for wanting to give up on her humanity. She's jealous of her ability to have kids. I don't think I need to explain how Bella's entire pregnancy is one big anti-abortion message. The whole thing seems to be saying that you should just ignore your doctor when he says you're jeopardizing your health because you'll be fine as long as you use the power of love. Also this. You won't, you're gonna have a part of me. I'll need you. Do you honestly think that I could love it? Or even tolerate it if it killed you?  Premarital sex is seen as a big no-no in this franchise. Edward refuses to do it, which he claims is because he's old fashioned.  This is clearly trying to show that waiting for marriage is the normal default states that mature people fall into while those who want to do it before tying the knot, even if it's inside of a committed relationship are just slaves to their desires. Children who don't understand how the world works. And Edward holds this over her head for months as a way to shame and manipulate her too.   What I'm saying is that Meyer pushing how this one viewpoint is the only correct one and any deviation is bad is shitty. It's a shitty thing to do. Someone more knowledgeable than me could probably go into how this places all the blame for sexual deviancy on women just like most Abrahamic religions, but that's a whole other rabbit hole I don't have time to fall down. Why do vampires not need human blood? The idea behind the Cullens being vegetarians that only feed on human blood is obvious. It's part of the wish fulfillment for young women who want to catch the eye of a dangerous man who also isn't a threat to her. And it feeds further into that theme of resist your natural urges or you're an awful person. The problem is that it paints a very clear line between good and bad vampires. Wouldn't they be so much more interesting if they couldn't overcome their dependence on human blood if they would die without it? The Cullens would either have to feed on people without killing them or choose targets that they would be fine with killing. That immediately makes them all 10 times more interesting. Cirque de Freak did basically the same plot line before Darren learned to accept that he wasn't human anymore. Honestly, this aspect of vampires is worse than the sparkling because it negatively affects their character. Most people agree that the blank pages used to depict depression in New Moon are clever. I'm one of those people. The only issue is that Bella's depression goes away the instant her true love comes back to her, which is not how depression works. Those are the big ones anyways. I could go into excruciating detail about all the tiny issues, but that would be antithetical to the point of this video. Conclusion. I hope by now you've all realized that I still think Twilight is bad. In some ways, it's downright awful, but it didn't end civilization. There are a few things that are even good in there. I'm not the target audience. I never was and neither are most of the other haters. Maybe enough time has passed that we can all get over ourselves and react appropriately to the next thing we don't like. Of course, if the reaction to Game of Thrones is anything to go off of, this is only getting worse.   Maybe Twilight only seems mediocre because I've tortured myself with the lovely bones and elixir. In the end, this comes down to my own very subjective tastes. If Twilight is the worst book you've ever read, then I don't think you've read all that many books. But that's from my perspective. Something in there might have managed to push your buttons just right to make you hate it, and I won't judge you for that.  I'm a proponent of the idea that all art has something of value in it. Even if the overall product is ass, there's something in there to appreciate. I was hoping to talk about something different for Nostalgia November, but this is fine. I like being able to get out some of my thoughts on this. If you want to read a supernatural romance, just read The Mortal Instruments. It's not perfect, but it's a better option. Man, that was long. If you made it this far, uh, thanks, I guess? Without people who wanted to hear all my thoughts on a book series that ended 11 years ago, I'd be totally lost in life. Be sure to subscribe and like the video to help it spread. Thanks as well to my patrons, and a big thanks especially to Oppo Savilainen, Christopher Hawkins, Joseph Pendergraft, and Melanie Austin. They were among those who voted for this topic, so if you want in on that, then send me some money. That's all for today. Bye.


Let's look at the character of Calpurnia. Now Calpurnia is Julius Caesar's wife, also historically she was Julius Caesar's wife at the time of his death. In the play we can see that she has really really terrible omens of Julius Caesar being killed and dying and of course this coincides with what the soothsayer had warned Julius Caesar about which is to beware the Ides of March, to beware the 15th of March. This is of course when Julius Caesar was killed as a result of a plot that was put together by Brutus and Cassius. Now Calpurnia is presented as a very loving wife and as a wife that's really really concerned about some unnatural events that are happening in the lead-ups the Ides of March and of course she also has a really terrible nightmare where she envisions Caesar being kind of consumed in this fountain of blood. Also we can say that this nightmare foreshadows the eventual war that does take place between Octavia Caesar and Mark Antony on the one hand versus Brutus and Cassius's army on the other hand. So her dream is also really powerful not only in foreshadowing Caesar's death but equally you can argue it foreshadows the eventual bloodshed that happens as a result of the war that takes place after Julius Caesar's dies. Now Calpurnia, do you remember that she and Julius Caesar had actually a very good relationship and in the play we can see that Julius Caesar almost sees her as an equal. He consults in her, he listens to her however the only time he doesn't listen to her her ideas do turn out to be correct because he is killed when he goes against her advice and not to go to the Senate on the 15th of March. Now when it comes to Calpurnia's character if you're writing about her or her relationship with Julius Caesar as part of your coursework or exams you do need to bear in mind key quotations relating to her character so I've selected the most relevant quotations for her character as well as the word-grab analysis you do when discussing and analyzing these quotes. So let's begin with the first one and this is of course relating to her nightmare. She states graves have yawned and yielded up their dead. Now here this is really powerful she's basically saying that graves are opening up all of these unnatural things are happening all of these ghosts are rising from the grave okay and again here she's really for having this terrible sense of foreboding and she fills up this is a really ominous sign that something terrible might happen to Caesar. Now the word-grab analysis you want to do here is firstly the personification of graves having yawned but also the other word-grab analysis you want to do is the alliteration of why it yawned and yielded. Now the second quotation to bear in mind and this is still from the same speech where she is describing this terrible vision that she had and this is what's leading to her sense of foreboding. Her terrible sense of foreboding is of course when she states Caesar I never stood on ceremonies yet now they fright me. Now here what she's saying ceremony's here is basically on omens she's basically saying I never believed in any form of superstition but now when I think of this superstitious feeling that I have it's just terrifying me you really need to listen to me she's being she's trying to really convince Caesar to listen to her because she's so frightened that he's going to die and of course her terrible feeling does come true. Now the word-grab analysis you want to do here is firstly the assonance of E. In Caesar never ceremonies yet they fright me and of course this is all what we call a declarative sentence okay declarative sentence and sentence that states a fact feeling a mood. Now of course here we can see that Carpone really does love Julius Caesar and she really wants him to avoid this terrible fate however he does not listen. Now the third quotation to bear in mind again tying in to this terrible omen that she sees these terrible dreams that she experiences are when she states horses did nay and diamond did groan. Now as I mentioned this dream of her seeing Caesar you know drowned in this fountain of blood and also all of these terrible things these shadows and all of these terrible events that she's seeing this not only foreshadows Julius Caesar's death but also particularly this quotation foreshadows the horses and the men on horseback who are fighting in both Mark Antony and Octavia Caesar's army as well as Brutus and Cassis's army okay so she also foreshadows this fight that occurs in Act 5. Now the word-grab analysis you want to do here is focused on the onomatopoeia of nay and groan of course this shows how vividly the sounds that Carpone could hear were in her really horrifying dream. The other quotation for her character is when she states the heavens themselves blaze forth the death of princess so here what she was saying is that nobody remembers Vegas when they die however even heavens themselves open up when royalty princes die and so she's basically saying look look at how you know the elements are acting it's because you Julius Caesar as someone who is a person of royalty you will die so the heavens are telling us something please please heed these signs okay and again Julius Caesar does not listen. Now the word-grab analysis you want to do is focus on the celestial language of heavens remember celestial language is language that refers to things like heavens stars sky and moon anything that's to do with the supernatural. The next quotation to bear in mind with Carpone's character is when she's telling Julius Caesar alas my lord your wisdom is consumed in confidence okay and of course she is talking about his haemacia his fatal flaw which is his overconfidence his ambition but equally his inability to maybe yield to fear. Now here what she's spacey saying is Julius Caesar you're being way too overconfident and that's going to be your downfall and she is correct. Now the word-grab analysis you want to do here is firstly the contrast in the pronouns my so Carpone being you know rational thinking about it and not necessarily wanting to constantly always prove a point to the senate as opposed to the pronoun your or where she's showing Julius Caesar's differing approach to the threats that she sees. The other word-grab analysis you want to do here is the deterioration of sea in consumed and confidence and here she's basically saying Julius Caesar you're being way too confident you're you're just thinking that everything is going to be fine when you go in tomorrow by don't think it's going to be okay and finally the final quotation is when she speaks to him very forcefully do not go forth today here she's saying don't go to the senate today please don't listen to me okay and here the analysis you want to do is point out that it's an imperative sentence remember that an imperative sentence is a sentence that states a fact feeling or mood it's it states a fact and here the imperative sentence basically is or it states also a command so an imperative sentence is basically a sentence that tells someone what to do now here what Carpone is basically telling Julius Caesar is please do not go into the senate she's being very very forceful okay and what this is illustrating of course is also the nature of the relationship where she was able to really speak openly and very frankly to Julius Caesar however whilst in the past he did listen to her he kind of listened to her as a confidant on this occasion he tragically takes the decision not to and this is what ultimately causes his death so do bear in mind that Carpone is presented as a really loving but also very strong-minded wife of Julius Caesar they're also presented to have a very loving relationship and of course she is devastated once her husband is killed so that's it when it comes to key quotations relating to the character of Calpurnia


Welcome back to the School of Calisthenics, it's Tim and Jack and we are with Chris Maxwell at Preston North End Football Club. Chris is the number one goalkeeper here and a future number one Welsh international goalkeeper and we're going to do some calisthenics. Chris got in touch asking about whether we could come up and how we could use some of the calisthenics training to help improve his shoulder repusiness, stability and movement options to help him as a goalkeeper. We're going to a lower position, almost like Chris did. You see where the hip is in comparison to the wrist and the elbow. When Tim, rather than being so much on the outside, just shuffles his toes a bit, always pushing it high and put some more on his tricep. We're starting to now get those things back to the top of each other. The other thing, hand, rather than turning your hands outside, try and keep the hands pointed forward, but just try and screw your wrist. So you stay hand straight, we'll just screw in, which helps to just stabilise the shoulder a bit. It's starting to engage that external rotation. So when you do bend, look your elbow goes backwards, rather than flowing out to the side. Now they're like close to armpit, like how high the bum it is. So when I want to go to that position, I'm up. You're only pushing it further. And you've got your hips on top of your shoulders, rather than behind your shoulders, which is going to be hard. Is that good?  And that might be like we can do stuff on a more unstable surface to challenge us, but literally when the elbow is like in that crease there and just resting on the outside, it's not going to slip. That's easy. It's not going to slip up. Whereas this position higher up here, there's sort of less stability in terms of that can just fall off. If I'm not strong through this front chain. So I'm trying to create all the strength and stability through this front side, so that these can literally just hang on me outside. So we've been practicing a little while. So keep the hands straight, but just screw to the elbow points backwards. There you go. That's better. There you go. The next one I'm going to make, so let's see. You're jogging on this one.  So I'm going to try and go single leg off, which is going to be our progression towards and actually taking both of them, we can transition. So before you start, before you move, just think about you've got to push down hard into the ground. There's a little bit more activation in the core because you're basically going to reduce part of your base of support. So you need to recreate that by pushing harder and stabilize the midsection. I'm going to come in and balance, and I'm just going to push hard into the floor, try and lift off. Let's stick it back on. If you've got a second one, the other side, and then back on. You're going to work harder for your shoulders to keep the forcing. Just do another one to him. Just watch his hip position. When he moves the leg, the hip doesn't, there's no movement backwards of the hip. So it's keeping that, like, that solid tip position that he was talking about. Just load the shoulders. Just think about keeping weight bopping over. Get comfortable first. Don't rush it. Yeah, yeah, yeah. What happened? As soon as you come in here, you took it off, and then just the weight of that leg was just pulling you. That's it, that's it. That's it, that's it. I can train it sometimes. Those heavy trainers, yeah. If you feel comfortable, you want to do the same thing.  I'm putting some effort in, based on run. That's it. There's one thing that I really like about hand balancing stuff is being present in your practice. So there's a bit of every time you've finished a rep, that evaluation of how successful was it, how well did I move, and you'll then start to weedle out the movement patterns that are successful and those that aren't. So in that position, you've got a great opportunity to take leg off, and some of the time you're back here going, okay, that's not right. So you correct it, it went forward, and then there was a second when you balanced it, and then it's the reflection, and that is okay. So to get that, I need to spend more time in that forward position, so that you can refine that motor pattern. By the way, what have we in 10 minutes, and I can frog-stand that? Right, Tim, you know I like to make things specific to the individual. Robert, I've just tried this out, actually, I'm done as well. The thing that that little toe off, sorry, toe touch, works great. The only thing that sometimes can be a downside to it, is literally the person puts, the toe they're putting down, they almost put that down so much, rock back, and just use that leg, and all of a sudden, rather than my hip being high up there, my hips drop back, and then I'm working this strength here. Where that hips a little bit lower down. So you can try going frog-stand, the foot that you're going to put down, when I'm putting it on the floor, it goes in the ball, which is then nicely a little bit raised off the floor, so my hip, when I take off, doesn't go any lower down, and you can't rely on it too much, it's going to move about a lot. You've still got a little bit of that. So you can keep your hip in the same position. There you go. Good, right. You've got to take it off there, hold it for five. Five, four, three, two, one, breathe. There you go, nice. So I'm straight to start with. Yeah, just a little, yeah, somewhere in there, if you can't get that, that'd be great. Commit to the lead. One off and hold it. Tell me putting it in hard and push down. Yeah, yeah. That's going back on, Chris. That's better. Yes! Up and up. Yes, wins. One of the things about hand positioning, again, try and keep straight with your screw from the shoulder to get that elbow back, and then when we're upside down, we'll do a wall walk and just focus on trying to get long, like when we said what's your shoulder range like, no problem at all, but in that handstand, when you were like hands turned out a little bit like this, and then we were also sort of arched through the back there, rather than being able to push through. That's where there's massive value for you in having that, because in a moment your shoulders are like re-breathing. I'm just stronger here, so I'm just going to stay there and arch back to get to the elevation. If you can get a hit here, it'll shock me. Scaps. If you dive for the top corner, but you're not going to get, you need that, we need that range, we need that, and then that leads to a connection. So if you can do that and you train that position, you're going to get a link in the midsection, so when you're producing power out of the lower body, that's going to transfer through the chain into the shoulder, as opposed to potentially getting an energy leak. It'd be the same as if we go vertical jump and we're getting knees coming together. Any sort of weak link in the chain is going to lose energy. We're going to use the wall wall for using no weight walk, nice and straight in that shape. So hands go on the floor like a press up position, use the wall, get your core on and your bum on to try and at least work. So stability through there, so you're riding on your own. Get to your glutes now. And then hands reasonably close to the wall, they don't need to be right up to the wall line, and then point the toes up and bring them together just to look nice.  So why are you pushing then? What are you using? I'm using my arm. I'm just pushing down into the floor through my shoulders to lift up. So you're bringing this up. So you're just trying to make yourself as long as possible. Yeah, so just give us a little push through and hold at the top drop in push up. They're controlling that. They ought to be our heart to be fair. Get a midsection tight. Hands straight. Little hands go up close to the wall. So just point your toes up. Hands even close to the wall. A little bit closer to the wall. Hands go a bit closer. There you go. Point your toes. Lift, push your feet towards the ceiling. Good. And then drop back in. Put your feet right back in. Good, now walk it. Good, yeah, yeah. Back into push up nice. I wish when I learned I'd gone more of that. Because I spent so much time going over that I just taught myself to be strong in a banana position. Try and get your hands on the floor to start off. You can start with an accurate position but I'm not just using that as a kick. Come through. Same thing, just lock in a midsection rather than allow yourself to arch in. Look how high it is. Watch how high these guys are. You just create a leg through the tray which as we're jumping we're going back to talking about trying to reach to make it saving a top corner or bottom corner like it is. But we want that. But if the length is there then it's all around about centre of gravity, isn't it? Yeah. Just keep your feet on the wall and then just think about pushing nice and high makes up a long way. Bum on, ribcage nice and tight. That's you now, nice and straight. So try and push your bum away from the wall a little bit. Come back down because of the rest. Feels all right though. Good. It's harder than being like here. You're sat. A bit like this, like completely. But I thought you were doing your yoga sort of Instagram. But it's like push the bum away from the wall and make that long shape and we'll do a little bit of how to balance in there in a second. So you know you've got it right if we've got a bit of connection in the mid-section. So I should be able to push Jaco's feet down. Separation of the shoulders. Come off with that. Let's keep it cracking. You're basically in that position and transferring this handstand. Just be careful. Nice when you're a farmer. Try and rock. When you rock back use your abs to pull your bum off the floor. So you can see here it's clear isn't it? And it comes from here. There you go. Nice. All right you're ready? Good. All right so it's strong. Same thing. Okay so hips up in this hollow body position. That's the one. Good. There you go. Free balance. That's good. And keep your feet on the Instagram yoga position and get the legs up. Hollow body squeeze book. Lock in that toy. Good. Yeah. There you go. Yeah. Nice. Frog, I'm going to help you rotate your hips on top of your shoulders. So when we were doing the frog on a row one of the things was just the difficulties of keeping them hips up rather than dropping them down. So in here. Rotate. Straighten legs. Straighter. Make yourself nice and low. Keep squeezing. Come back down. Good. Good. Straighten up. Come to me. Lift up, lift up, lift up. Now there. That's better. There you go. Did you feel that? That was ten times different. You felt as if there's just no weight. I went from I was holding you up to then you felt weightless to me and then you were there. I can't get it in my head how straight I am. Yeah.


Hey survivors, In this video I am going to be talking about the Narciss Anticipation Mode. Please like, comment, share and subscribe. Click the bell icon to receive notifications for my future videos. If you would like to donate, my paypal link is in the video description. If you are interested in one-on-one coaching, you can email me at narcisfivercoaching.com. The Narciss Anticipation Mode. This is another one of the Narciss modes of behavior. I have done a video on the Narciss Observer Mode. This is where they will watch and observe whatever you are doing. For more information, please check out the video, the Narciss Observer Mode. The difference between these two modes is that in the Observer Mode, they are trying to figure out what you are thinking or feeling. In the present moment, the Narciss Anticipation Mode is when they are expecting or predicting something. It is the Narciss recognizing the possibility or the probability of you saying or doing something, or someone doing or saying something that could be beneficial or favorable for you. This is what the Narciss will be expecting or predicting. They might be calculating whether or not you or someone else is likely to say, do or be something. They might believe that someone or something is going to arrive soon. They are estimating what will happen in the future or what will be the consequence of something they've done, something you've done, or something someone else has done. This is about control. The Narciss is trying to control the situation or the environment. They are trying to control any potential human interaction or stimulation you might receive. They are trying to limit or restrict anything that might be beneficial or favorable for you. Narciss are very envious people. They want to destroy everything that is good or treat it as though it is worthless or beneath their consideration, but just because they cannot get the same fulfillment from you or the things that you enjoy, it doesn't mean that they are going to let someone else partake or let you consume the things that you enjoy. You have to remember that as an extension of a Narciss, anything that you engage in will affect them and because they are opposed to anything good or anything that is beneficial or favorable for you, it will affect them in a negative way.  This is why the Narciss has developed the anticipation mode. It's about knowing where you are going to be, what you are going to be doing and who you are going to be with at all times. They don't always get right, but they have to make a prediction or have an expectation. They feel great discomfort from not knowing what could potentially happen in the near future. It's risk management. They are predicting or estimating the risks of anything good or anything that could be beneficial or favorable for you with the identification of procedures to avoid or minimize their impact. You have to remember that anything that is good for you will hurt them. Anything that satisfies or fulfills you in any way, anything that makes you feel a positive emotion, is a threat to the Narciss' false self and could cause them to experience pain or discomfort. The Narciss will watch and observe you in the present moment. They will look for clues, a piece of evidence or information to discover or identify what could potentially happen in the near future. Where you are going to go, what you are going to do, who you are going to see, some Narciss will hide this evidence or information to avoid a potentially hysterical response from you. They understand that their behavior is not normal, so most often they will hide this evidence or information from you, but some Narciss will even give you hints that they already know what you are going to be doing. They will give you a slight or indirect indication or suggestion of what you might be doing in the near future. This could be something you are going to be doing later that day or later that week. Some Narciss may even plan this out months or even years in advance. You may not realize that they made the indication or suggestion until you carry out the specified action or behavior and only upon the completion or the execution of the specified course of action. Will you then realize that they had made an indication or suggestion of this before you even did it? Victims of Narciss's abuse who have experienced the effects of the Narciss's anticipation mode may be fooled into believing that the Narciss may have some supernatural ability to perceive events in the future or beyond normal sensory contact, but what they are actually doing is they are examining you or your current situation methodically and in great detail in order to explain and interpret it from their interpretation of your current situation. They then create these expectations or predictions based on probability or from when they have studied or observed you in the past. They pick up on patterns or routines. They identify problems or things that need to be dealt with in your current situation and then assume the probability of when and how you are going to resolve the issue or deal with whatever requires your attention. There is also the possibility that they are guiding and controlling your actions and behaviors by use of suggestion. They have likely isolated you and taught you to neglect your own intuition, your own ideas of what you think is right, how you believe something should be done and they have taught you that everything they do is indisputably correct. Over time this becomes a belief where you really believe that everything they are doing is right and everything you are doing is wrong. They might begin by giving you direct verbal suggestions of what you should be doing, but later these direct verbal suggestions can be reduced to something more subtle or covert. These covert suggestions are a form of hypnosis. The aim of this is to influence the victims unconscious without them knowing from my experience it does work and it can cause you to act in a way that you wouldn't normally act and it can cause you to even feel a certain feeling or do a specific behavior. The narcissist might use this tactic to get you to do something that benefits them or they might get you to do something that you wouldn't normally do so that they can later blame you for it or get you into trouble. Be cautious that this could be something the narcissist is doing. It does work. Suggestion is very powerful and repetition fuels belief. McDonald's doesn't spend billions of dollars on advertising for nothing. Suggestion and repetition are even more powerful when you are isolated or have no other influences. Be cautious and be aware that this is something the narcissist could be doing to you. That's all for this video. Thank you for watching. I hope this video resonated with you. Please like, comment, share and subscribe. Click the bell icon to receive notifications for my future videos. If you would like to donate, my PayPal link is in the video description. Coaching inquiries you can email me at nagsfathercoaching at gmail.com. 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The story of dr. Kildare Whatsoever house I enter there will I go for the benefit of the sick and whatsoever things I see or hear concerning the life of men I will keep silence there on counting such things to be held as sacred trust I will exercise my art solely for the cure The story of dr. Kildare starring Lou Ayers and Lionel Barrymore Metro-Goldwyn-Mare brought you those famous motion pictures now this exciting heartwarming series has heard on radio In just a moment the story of dr. Kildare, but first your announcer Here is as dr. Kildare and Lionel Barrymore as dr. Gillespie. I beg your pardon dr. Gillespie Did you say Parker wasn't in your office? That's peculiar Well, I'll certainly try dr. Gillespie just as soon as I can get off the reception desk Bessie have you seen Parker recently? Well, yes, miss Berna. She just left the diet kitchen a minute ago Oh, thanks, dear Parker Parker for goodness sakes. Don't stand there Diana help me get this Out of the building Parker will you skip the cat and get into the office so dr. Gillespie can have mrs. Taylor's case history up in the biochem lab before he has to be scraped off the ceiling As if I had anything to do with a stray cat being in here.  You do get it from the back alley. Did you hear me? I said come here Do you think you're going to keep me waiting for Parker one and ton? It's um It's a cat dr. Gillespie. Well, well a cat a friend or just one of your relatives. Oh, I'm sorry Parker What? Well naturally, I'm sorry. I understand your interest in animals Because your next job you'll probably be lucky if you're working for a veterinary now you see here dr. Gillespie Oh Jimmy hello, how about giving over to Sullivan's Dr. Kill there would you please tell this old well now doctor a new patient now wait a minute Jimmy What's the matter dr. Crew your pale don't you like cats? I cannot abide cats they make my skin crawl and until this cat is out of here We'd better go over to my office. You come along to dr. I'm busy. I I'm making a new prognosis on mrs. Taylor and fire both or dr. Gillespie I guess it's all is not the reason why are just to do and cure Come on dr. G over to dr. Carews office. Oh gentlemen. Have you ever heard of Oliver mw van meter Oliver mw van meter Well who hasn't heard of him in New York just oozing money Not only oozes money Oliver oozes influence Oliver a oh, yes. Yes, we met at a dinner party last night But we spent almost an hour together alone talking Confidentially about mr. Van meter's health not only money and influence, but health too. There's a lucky man gentlemen It's a very very strange case on my insistence and upon my professional advice mind you He's coming to Blair hospital and gentlemen. That is what I want to talk to you about Well, mr. Van meter suffers from a most peculiar melody most peculiar every Monday every Monday of the year His eyes start to water then his nose starts running and by Tuesday He has a horrible case of asthma. Oh, what's so strange about that probably an allergic reaction to something? allergic reaction Have you ever heard of analogy that it was able to read a calendar so that it could get started every Monday and wow Just a minute Karoo. What happens after Tuesday? Ah, there's the strangest part by Wednesday the asthmatic conditions start subsiding by Thursday mr. Van meter is completely well again, and then Monday each and every Monday the cycle starts all over It's unusual. All right, but still probably an allergic upset I've practiced medicine too long to make snap judgment Jimmy especially before I've seen the patient I stand corrected doctor and I'll bet you the sixth course lunch at Sullivan's with an extra plate of rice pudding that No allergy recurs every Monday and then fades away You just made a bet dr. Gillespie with an extra rice pudding and an extra pitcher of cream When does mr. Van meter check in doctor? He's coming this Sunday. So it's be here for observation when the melody starts developing Monday Jimmy not this weekend again, but I and I just told you I You know I made this bet with dr. Gillespie and I bet you're breaking our date just because you want to meet the great Oliver Mw van meter you ought to know by this time sweetie. There's no one I'd rather be with than you Hmm comes Parker. What's that cheese toting what in the world are you doing with that Parker now that You must mean this. Yes. See that a minute Evaporated milk for babies formula Parker exactly what have you been doing with your spare time? Well, maybe if you had to put up with dr. Gillespie you'd need evaporated milk, too Oh, that's something you evaporated milk for babies to cure ulcers and in case lots at that Oh Doctor of course not I use it on the face for these these crows feet. What kind of a crow have you got that each with his feet? You know sometimes I wish I worked with you instead of that She's such a wonderful person What she has to put up.  Van meter What a present I think there is anything at all you want of mr. Van meter just press that little call bell right over your head And you will get some of the service for which Blair Hospital is so justly famous Thanks, but I want you can't get in the hospital. I beg your pardon. Look at this item here. Oh I don't recall seeing that when I read the paper this morning. Well, what paper do you read? You mean there's a difference? Certainly, there's a difference. Yes, I see me. Oh, Dr. Gillespie. Dr. Kildare do come in and meet mr. Van meter Oliver MW Van meter. Well, I did mr. Van meter. Yeah Now dr. Kildare and I would like to start by getting a case history mr. Van meter I told Karoo the entire case history the other night and And Oh dear the lab everyone and not one of them is positive Well, that should be pretty solid evidence that it isn't analogy then shouldn't it? No Unfortunately not because when I made the nasal smear for ear cinephiles it showed van meters definitely allergic to something some Unusual thing we just don't know about and can't find. Oh, this is dreadful. Dr. Gillespie. Can't you suggest something? Yes, give him a box of face tissues for his sneezes and send them home Dr. Kildare, isn't there something you can do? There is but I'm afraid you're not going to like it dr. Karoo I'm not it seems that whatever mr. Van meter is allergic to is some substance We haven't got in our lab Something the medical profession probably doesn't even know about Such as what I don't know. I'm starting to think it's something here in New York Perhaps something in the air of the city you mean there's no possibility of finding it none I know of so in all fairness to the patient and since Who and the Board of Regents tell me to do the same thing the day after we return to the story of dr. Kildare in just a moment Dr. Gillespie and but you've been my mentor you know that I'm meant to my Busy's bustle When you came into the hospital you were wet behind the ears and someone had to take care of you I appreciate that and you're still wet behind the ears In fact, what you did with van meter was all wet. Oh, please Let's not start that song and dance again arguing whether he has a bad cold or an allergy Well, that's not what I mean. Why don't you face the facts? Karoo was so tickled getting van meter into the hospital He wasted no time letting the board of regions know all about it.  You're the one who's thrown it away Well, I'm sorry, but I did it for the good of the patient. Yeah, but did you consult me? Did you ask whether I thought he should leave New York? No, I suppose I should have But would you feeling so miserable? Oh, yeah, I feel miserable. All right, and it's from that cold van meter Sneezed all over me. I'll be reasonable if he did have a cold. How could you contract it that soon? How possibly? well You heard Karoo Van meter has influence I'm sorry, but right now there's nothing so funny about that when I see a patient racked with spasms and gasping for breath The way van meter did last Tuesday. I'm afraid I suffer as much as he does How do you think I feel I? Must have spent 35 years in this hospital for some reason reading were so labored Clenching his fists twisting in agony to get his breath Well, we'll see This is Tuesday, and if van meter does what he promised me He'll be telegraphing from upstate and letting us know what happened Jimmy I hope Karoo and the region's don't kick you out before you pay for that lunch. Oh, dr. G If they do kick me. Oh, hello, Parker. A telegram just came for you, dr. Thank you, Parker A night letter from Oliver mw van meter. Oh Is he all out of face tissues already? I'll say he isn't listen to this Quote this is the first Monday in three years. I've had no symptoms or discomfort Congratulations, doctor and my eternal thanks Well, dr. G it is just about lunchtime by the tarnation. I can't figure it out then meet as well and I have still got my My cold Parker yes, doctor. I feel so good about this telegram I'm going to buy you a whole case of that evaporated baby milk the evaporated one Nothing, dr. Nothing at all. Dr. Kilder. Congratulations on your diagnosis of the van meter case I think you should have waited Parker another telegram does came for Jimmy another yes How popular can you get? Well, maybe you're grateful patient wedge a hundred thousand dollars in partial appreciation Give me that By the great on a school grateful patient not only open to my personal telegram laughs in my face dr. Gillespie. What does it say? I'm laughing so much. You can't read it. Oh, yeah, this is Rick Would you please let me read then here Jimmy well, I'll be blasting this just doesn't make sense Well for heaven's sake what doesn't make sense. Hmm. Let's see. Yes first telegram from van meter was a night letter sent Monday This is a straight telegram sent today Tuesday. Yes, and upstate at Lake George van meter was all right on Monday But 24 hours later on Tuesday the whole thing started up again exactly the way it did here Except one day later. Wow. Is there a doctor in the house? And if there is tell him dr. Kilder is taking me to Sullivan's for lunch Jimmy my boy, I can't tell you when I've enjoyed a lot so much. Oh, yeah, that's good.   Do you know by the ever-living? I'm glad we enjoyed our lunch before he got it. Oh, here you are Well, I wish when you gentlemen leave the hospital you'd let someone know where you're going partner No, well if she did she wasn't around and anyhow the door of your office was locked Now see here dr. Kilder. What's all this about a telegram from Oliver? Yeah. Yeah here. You read it for yourself. Oh Dr. Kilder now what do you propose doing? There's only one thing I can think of Clothing your own throat doctor. No. No, well, I'm going to telephone mr. Van meter Thursday when his new attack is subsided and Ask him to come back down here back to Blair hospital back up Dr. Kilder you don't think for a moment. He'd come back after you gave him the Well the bum I don't know dr. Karoo. I only know that if mr. Van meter can be cured I'm going to cure him if I have to work till I have a long way beard Believe me mr. Van meter. I just can't tell you how much I appreciate you're coming back to Blair hospital and Giving us another chance. What have you got to appreciate? I came back here because your dr. Kilder is about the only person sufficiently sympathetic to be interested in my case for more than the fees Yes, yes, I want you to know that we're all sympathetic every last one of us here at Blair hospital now don't try to butter me up But but dr. Kilder dr. Gillespie you send that old Walrus in here again and I'll beat him over the head with his Sunday newspaper comic section of your book with you and well I must admit to the Oh Dr. Kilder come right in Your patients ready for you Mr. Van meter I can't start to tell you how sorry I am it didn't work out Well, I don't believe in interfering between a doctor and his patients. There's anything you want Oliver just let me know Well, you know why I came back here. No, but I know why I wanted you to come back I know you can be cured and I'd like to do the curing Well, I thought you had cured me when Monday came round at Lake George and I was fit as a fiddle Yeah, but why did it happen at Lake George on Tuesday? Yeah, I guess it takes the term as a whole day to come up from New York Maybe that's it And as far as Lake George goes you can have it Well, if I hadn't had the globe bulletin male up to me, I'd have been lost What? Wait a minute. You had your Sunday newspaper mailed up to you. Yes, Mr. Van meter and This is the Sunday edition of the globe bulletin right here. Is that right? Yeah In New York you read this paper every day and Sundays, too But you never broke out except on Mondays down here Monday the day following the Sunday edition Of course, but look here the only exception in three years was this past week when you received the Sunday edition of the globe Bulletin by mail on Monday, right? Yes, I suppose so and as ridiculous as it sounds. I'll bet you right now You're the one man in a million who's allergic to roto gravure ink the ink the globe bulletin uses in its Sunday supplement I'm allergic to newspaper. You are to Roderick of your ink if I'm wrong, Mr. Van meter I'll eat the globe bulletin hop along Cassidy comic section and all in just a moment We will return to the story of dr. Kildare. This is such a happy moment gentlemen. That certainly is for me Well, goodbye again dr. Kildare and thanks to you too dr. Gillespie. I take back all the things I said about you The only thing I want you to take back this blasted cold you gave me Oh, but how can it be a cold dr. When you and dr. Kildare both proved mr. Van meter was allergic to the road of gravure ink in the Sunday edition Well, come along Oliver, I'll walk you down to your car Yes, goodbye Well, dr. Not only do you owe me a lunch at Sullivan's, but you owe me the one you made me pay for prematurely How can a man eat when his head is choked up with the cold? Tarnation now this tissue box is empty I thought you kept your whole horde of face tissue in the back of that double drawer in your dad Oh, no, no, there's been none there for weeks now. I'll go right down to the pharmacy and get you some now Wait a minute Parker. There were at least a dozen boxes.  I'll take a look. Oh my desk in the blanket Parker locking the office and evaporated baby milk for your crow's feed a Parker To give me a chance. Yeah, we had a chance to nothing. I'm going to take this cat and Dr. Gillespie know you convinced you haven't got a cold why even a second-year med student could tell what's wrong with you You're allergic to cats hair Okay, I've wanted to do this for a long time But now I'm going to wrap my fingers around your throat until rigor mortis sets in And I've wanted to do this for a long time too. I'm quitting. Oh, no, you're not you're fired That's a fine way to treat me and after she's given you the best years of her life for shame doctor The only reason they hid the old kitten in the first place was because I couldn't catch it And then when I heard dr. Kuru say cats made his skin crawl I thought Kuru you got something there A new secret weapon you bet she has dr. G Parker honey you sit down. You're not fired.


It's my opinion I think yes they have Many guys feel jealous if a Korean guy date a white girl If they work down the street together So many people will watch them Yes, it's weird Okay, let's talk about what kind of fantasy Korean guys have to white girls Let's go First, they think white girls have open mind Sexually Have you ever heard that word? White hoof? Sexually meaning of white girls Ew, please don't use that word They think white girls are easy to do one night stand Or something Ah, what a funny prejudice At first, there are many conservative countries Even though there are white girls And the important thing is Even if they have open mind They don't interested in one night stand with you Never ever Any skin color girls don't want one night stand with you If you look at the girl as a sexual object Very obviously That's so stupid Please don't expect anything from them They can have open mind but not for you Second, they think white girls are always beautiful Pale white skin, blonde hair, blue eyes, skinny body There are always this kind of girls In commercials of beauty products or luxurious clothes They think it's beautiful The typical beauty standard But it's weird There are a lot of women Such as dark skin, black head and non-slim woman In western countries And all of them have their own beauty But the media and people think only that kinds of girls are pretty That's ridiculous There are so many various type of beauty in the world But they just follow only one thing The worst thing is Even Korean girls are into that weird fantasy They do plastic surgeries To make big double eyes Big nose and small face And they do makeup to make quieter skin And dye their hair brightly Because they won't look like western girls How ridiculous They should know how many foreigners think Korean girls are pretty Really They should have more confidence Koreans have Koreans' beauty Third, oh it's funny point They think western girls split the bills when they date In Korea, we call that Butchee pay Usually Korean guys pay the bills more when they date If a Korean guy pay the other things Then a girl pay for a coffee That's normal in Korea But Korean guys don't like this And they think Oh I heard western girls pay for their bills I want to meet them But it's also prejudice For example, in Russia Guys always pay for the bill And in Europe, America and other countries Guys pay more when they date I don't know why But Korean guys have weird prejudice That western girls pay 50-50 when they date Of course if you're just friend It does make sense But in relationship, that's a bit weird In my opinion, I think it's natural That guys pay more I will tell you why Guys want pretty girls Right? Guys want to date pretty girls So they spend money to get the woman's favor And then the opposite Girls spend money to be prettier By cosmetics, by clothes And change their hair Blah blah blah Blah blah blah Because guys like pretty girls So it's very natural desire Of both of them It's just different And even if a guy ask a date to her He should pay That's manner You want a pretty girl And even you ask a date to her Right? Then why do you blame her?


United Nations took the form of a salute to the flags with the representatives of the Allies in Britain attending an impressive ceremony in the mall. General Sir Bernard Padgett, Commander-in-Chief Home Forces and General Sir Arthur Smith, Commanding the London District, took the salute at the base of the Duke of York steps as the Big Parade marched by. White uniformed nurses and civil defence workers headed the Long Column. Similar ceremonies were held elsewhere in Britain and overseas on this day when the Allied flags are publicly honoured. Hundreds of war workers took part in the procession, boiler suits and dungarees, the uniforms of land army girls and bus conductresses, the working clothes of the Army of Home Fronters. All these added their rightful share to a truly representative parade. Then came contingents of the Royal and Merchant navies. Twenty-seven flags and twenty-seven good reasons for this celebration on the anniversary of United Nations Day. In London area, Queen Elizabeth and the Princess Royal saw some of the extensive work being done at an Orton steppe. Her right is the Prime Minister's daughter Mary Churchill. Her majesty was then at an anti-aircraft battery where girls worked the predictors which served the gunners. Britain's anti-aircraft defence system is largely operated by girls. This visit to the gun pits was another illustration of the Queen's deep interest in the Auxiliary Territorial Service. Then the gallant commander of the Eighth Army was in London a few weeks ago to report to the War Office and incidentally to snatch a few days well earned leave, the news spread like a prairie fire. The general was all but mobbed everywhere he went and who snatched victory from near defeat has touched the public imagination as few soldiers ever do. While he was in London he went to several theatres and in every case he was public attraction number one on the job again. The Axis in Sicily, like their defeated comrades in Libya and North Africa, are feeling the veteran fighting quality of Monty and his men. The Allied grip on Sicily tightens. These pictures were taken during the early days of the invasion. The first chapter had ended with the arrival of the great invasion armada of 2,000 ships which safely delivered their cargos of fighting men onto the beaches of the Axis stronghold. Canadians and French, British and Americans, many of them veterans of the desert and North African campaigns, now found themselves and their equipment on another continent, that of Hitler's Europe. The first installment of the Axis account was long overdue and these grim faced men were here to collect as prisoners were coming into the net soon to swell to tens of thousands. These mostly dupes of the fascist bullies whose hour was already striking. The countryside echoed now to the unceasing roar of good British and American motors as armoured and supply vehicles in their hundreds rolled into action. Then the Italians were on the right side. These prisoners are the sons of those other Italians who fought at the side of the Allies 25 years ago. For them, the war is over. For Italy, it is rapidly drawing to its end.


The researchers have identified a specific type of flavonoid synthase enzyme that was previously unknown in the APACE family of plants. This enzyme, known as FNSI, has been found to be present in only two species of APACE, docus carota and apium graviolens. Previous studies had suggested that this enzyme may have originated independently from other FNSI enzymes in other plant species, but the new study confirms that it did indeed evolve separately from these other enzymes. This article was authored by Boas Pucker and Massimo Ieretso.


Multiple people were taken to the hospital today after getting sick from an unidentified substance at the Palace Hotel near Cass Lake. The Leech Lake Tribal Police Department tells Lakeland News that five people were taken to the hospital, but all are expected to make a full recovery. The hotel was shut down today as hazmat units were on the scene since just before four o'clock this afternoon. A chemical assessment team responded from the Grand Rapids Fire Department and completed their assessment at 6.30 p.m. The hotel was then declared safe for use and guests began returning to their rooms at that time. The Palace Casino remained open during the incident and was not affected. If you enjoyed this segment of Lakeland News, please consider making a tax-deductible contribution to Lakeland PBS.


Hey guys, welcome to Arch Land. So we have here Catherine Mubanner coming just a couple of, I don't know, a couple of hours ago. It's going to be starting now, January 4th, up to the 17th. So roughly two weeks of summoning for her and why should you summon for her? We're going to be showcasing her now. I'll give my, you know, my assessment after this one. So here is the shortcut to her banner and here is her skills. Okay, so apparently for Catherine, she is darkness mage and her weapon is an instrument. Okay, just want to give you an overview of Catherine. She is basically a debuffer plus a summoner. Those are her top skills, although there are, she has a buff as you can see here, but she stands out more as a summoner and as a debuffer. She has an heal. She has a lot of, you know, a lot of tricks up her sleeve. She has silence as well. So the tree that you're going to be choosing for her is going to be basically this one, the one up here. So the magic Roshan is also good because it's a magic defense of negative 30. Again, she has a lot of debuffs and the summons are very, very good. So let's go over her trial and see if we can clear this one. Okay, guys, so we are here with our run for Catherine to see how she can be used. So we'll start off with her debuff here so that all three may receive this debuff. Then as you have a first partner there or less, you should use that one. So at this point, this is going to be a lot of offense because we need to clear this within two turns. This is already our second turn. Let's use this explosiveness. You can actually use them as father and just have them explode without even being touched. So there you go. The last one would be an attack. There you go. So that is it, guys. Hope you enjoyed that. And more or less, I will be delivering my final verdict for this girl. Okay, so what is my verdict for Catherine? For me, depending on what your playstyle is, but she'll be very useful because of her summons. I think she's a must-summon at this point. You just need to know how to use her summons, how to use her, how to debuff the timing as well for you to control the board. She's going to be a must-summon for you, probably one of the best mages that we have or probably the best. So go ahead, guys. Make sure that you summon her within the two-week period or else her banner will be gone. So far, I'm lacking her kit. I'll be summoning for her if I have enough currency in the next few days. Then that is it. So thank you very much, guys, for staying this far. Take care. Stay safe. This is The Warden and I'm out of here.