CHAPTER XIX The window was open when Philip came to it, and Jean was waiting to give him an assisting hand. The moment he was in the room, he turned to look at Josephine. She was gone. Almost angrily, he whirled upon the half-breed, who had lowered the window, and was now drawing the curtain. It was with an effort that he held back the words on his lips. Jean saw that effort, and shrugged his shoulders with an appreciative gesture. "'It is partially my fault that she is not here, monsieur,' he explained. She would have told you nothing of what has passed between us. Not as much, perhaps, as I. She will see you in the morning.' "'And there's damned little consolation at the present moment in that,' gridded Philip, with clenched hands. Jean, I am ready to fight now. I feel like a rat must feel when it's cornered. I've got to jump pretty soon, in some direction, or I'll bust. It's impossible.' Jean's hand fell softly upon his arm.  "'Do you remember that it was only a few hours ago, that I said that she could never be yours in this world?' Quissat reminded him, in the same quiet voice, and now, when even I say there is hope, can you not make me have the confidence in you that I must have, if we win?' Philip's face relaxed. In silence he gripped Jean's hand. "'And what I am going to tell you, a thing which Josephine would not say if she were here, is this, Monsieur?' Went on, Jean. "'Before you left us alone in this room, I had a doubt. Now I have none. The great fight is coming. And in that fight, all the spirits of Quissat Manuto must be with us. You will have fighting enough, and it will be such fighting, it's you who will remember to the end of your days. But until the last word is said, until the last hour, you must have been as you have been. I repeat that. Have you faith enough in me to believe?' "'Yes, I believe,' said Philip. "'It seems inconceivable, Jean. But I believe.' "'Jean moved to the door. Good night, Monsieur,' he said. "'Good night, Jean.' After a few moments after Quissat had left him, Philip stood motionless. Then he locked the door. Until he was alone he did not know what a restraint he had put upon himself. Jean's words, the mysterious developments of the evening, the half promise of the fulfilment of his one great hope, had all worked him into a white heat of unrest. He knew that he could not stay in his room, that it would be impossible for him to sleep. But he was not in a condition to rejoin Adair and his wife. He wanted to walk, to find relief in physical exertion. Of a sudden his mind was made up. He extinguished the light, then he reopened the window and dropped out into the night again. He made his way once more to the edge of the forest. He did not stop this time, but plunged deeper into its gloom. Moon and stars were beginning to lighten the white waste ahead of him. He knew he could not lose himself as he could follow his own trail back. He paused for a moment in the shelter of a spruce to fill his pipe and light it. Then he went on. Now that he was alone he tried to discover some key to all that Jean had said to him. After all his first guess had not been so far out of the way. It was a physical force that was Josephine's deadly menace. What was this force? How could he associate it with the baby back in Adair House? Unconsciously his mind leaped to Thoreau, the free trader, as a possible solution. But in the same breath he discarded that as unreasonable. Such a force as Thoreau and his gang would be dealt with by Adair himself or the forest people. There was something more. Vainly he racked his brain for some possible enlightenment. He walked ten minutes without noting the direction he was taking when he was brought to a standstill with a sudden shock. Not twenty paces from him he heard voices. He dodged behind a tree and an instant later two figures hurried past him.  One of the two was Jean. The other was Josephine. For a moment he stood staring after them, his hand clutching at the bark of the tree. A feeling that was almost physical pain swept over him as he realized the truth. Josephine had not gone to her room. He understood now. She had purposefully evaded him that she might be with Jean alone in the forest. Three days before Philip would not have thought so much of this. Now it hurt. Josephine had given him her love. Yet in spite of that she was placing greater confidence in the half-breed than in him. This was what hurt at first. In the next breath his overwhelming faith in her returned to him. There was some tremendous reason for her being here with Jean. What was it? He stepped out from behind the tree as he stared after them. His eyes caught the pale glow of something that he had not seen before. It was a campfire. The illumination of it only faintly visible, deeper in the forest. Towards this Josephine and Jean were hurrying. A low exclamation of excitement broke from his lips as a still greater understanding dawned upon him. His hand trembled. His breath came quickly. In that camp there waited for Josephine and Quassette those who were playing the other half of the game in which he had been given a blind man's part. He did not reason or argue with himself. He accepted the fact. And no longer with hesitation his hand fell to his automatic, and he followed swiftly after Josephine and the half-breed. He began to see what Jean had meant. In the room he had simply prepared Josephine for this visit. It was in the forest and not in a dare-house that the big test of the night was to come. It was not curiosity that made him follow them now. More than ever he was determined to keep his faith with Jean and the girl, and he made up his mind to draw only near enough to give assistance if it should become necessary. Roused by the conviction that Josephine and the half-breed were not making this mysterious twist without imperiling themselves, he stopped as the campfire burst into full view and examined his pistol. He saw figures about the fire. There were three, one sitting and two standing. The fire was not more than a hundred yards ahead of him, and he saw no tent. A moment later Josephine and Jean entered the circle of fire-glow, and the sitting man sprang to his feet. As Philip drew nearer he noticed that Jean stood close to his companion and that the girl's hand was clutching his arm. He heard no words spoken, and yet he could see by the action of the man who had been sitting that he was giving the others instructions which took them away from the fire, deeper into the gloom of the forest. Seventy yards from the fire Philip dropped, breathlessly, behind a cedar log and rested his arm over the top of it. In his hand was his automatic. It covered the spot of gloom into which the two men had disappeared. If anything should happen he was ready. In the fire shadows he could not make out distinctly the features of the third man. He was not dressed like the others. He wore knicker-bockers and high-laced boots. His face was beardless. Beyond these things he could make out nothing more. The three drew close together, and only now and then did he catch the low murmur of a voice. Not once did he hear Jean. For ten minutes he crouched motionless. His eyes shifting from the strange tableau to the spot of gloom where the others were hidden. Then suddenly Josephine sprang back from her companions. Jean went to her side. He could hear her voice now. Steady and swift, vibrant, with something that thrilled him, though he could not understand a word that she was speaking. She paused, and he could see that she was tense and waiting. The other replied. His words must have been brief. For it seemed he could scarcely have spoken when Josephine turned her back upon him and what quickly out into the forest. For another moment Jean Quassette stood close to the other. Then he followed. Not until he knew they were safe did Philip rise from his concealment. He made his way cautiously back to a dare-house, and re-entered his room through the window. Half an hour later, dressed so that he revealed no evidence of his excursion in the snow, he knocked at Jean's door. The half-breed opened it. He showed some surprise when he saw his visitor. I thought you were in bed, Monsieur. He exclaimed. Your room was dark. Sleep! laughed Philip. Do you think I can sleep to-night, Jean? As well as some others perhaps, replied Jean, offering him a chair. Will you smoke, Monsieur? Philip lighted a cigar and pointed to the other's moccasin feet, wet with melting snow. You have been out, he said. Why didn't you invite me to go with you? It was part of our night's business to be alone, responded Jean. Josephine was with me. She is in her room now with the baby. Does a dare know you have returned? Josephine has told him. He is to believe that I went out to see a trapper over on the pipe-stone. It is strange, mused Philip, speaking half to himself. The strange reason indeed it must be to make Josephine say these false things. It is like driving sharp claws into her soul, affirmed Jean. I believe that I know something of what happened to-night, Jean. Are we nearer to the end, to the big fight? It is coming, Monsieur. I am more than ever certain of that. The third-night from this will tell us. And on that night, Philip waited expectantly. We will know, replied Jean in a voice which convinced him that the half-breed would say no more than he added. It will not be strange if Josephine does not go with you on the sledge-drive to-morrow, Monsieur. It will also be curious if there is not some change in her, for she has been under a great strain. But make as if you did not see it. Pass your time as much as possible with a master of a dare. Let him not guess. And now I am going to ask you to let me go to bed, my headaches. It is from the blow. And there is nothing I can do for you, Jean. Nothing, Monsieur. At the door Philip turned. I have got a grip on myself now, Jean. He said, I won't fail you. I'll do as you say, but remember, we are to have the fight at the end. In his room he sat up for a time and smoked. Then he went to bed. Half a dozen times during the night he awoke from a restless slumber. Twice he struck a match to look at his watch. It was still dark when he got up and dressed. From five until six he tried to read. He was delighted when Métousine came to the door and told him that breakfast would be ready in half an hour. This gave him just time to shave. He expected to eat alone with a dairy-gain this morning, and his heart jumped with both surprise and joy when Josephine came out into the hall to meet him. She was very pale. Her eyes told him that she had passed a sleepless night. But she was smiling bravely, and when she offered him her hand he caught her suddenly in his arms and held her close to his breast while he kissed her lips, and then her shining hair. Philip, she protested, Philip. He laughed softly, and for a moment his face was close against hers. My brave little darling, I understand," he whispered. I know what a night you've had, but there's nothing to fear.  She drew away from him gently, and there was a mist in her eyes, but he had brought a bit of colour into her face, and there was a glow behind the tears. Then her lips quivering, she caught his arm. Philip, the baby is sick, and I'm afraid—I haven't told father—come! He went with her into the room at the end of the hall. The Indian woman was crooning softly over a cradle. She fell silent as Josephine and Philip entered, and they bent over the little flushed face on the pillow. Its breath came tightly, gaspingly, and Josephine clutched Philip's hand, and her voice broke in a sob. Philip, it's little face—the fever! You must call your mother and father," he said after a moment. Why haven't you done this before, Josephine? The fever came on suddenly, within the last half hour. She whispered tensely. And I wanted you to tell me what to do, Philip. Shall I call them now? He nodded. Yes. In an instant she was out of the room. A few moments later she returned, followed by Adair and his wife. Philip was startled by the look that came into Miriam's face as she fell on her knees beside the cradle. She was ghastly white. Dumbly, Adair stood and gazed down on the little human might. He had grown to worship. And then there came through his beard a great broken breath that was half a sob.  I'm going to give the baby some of that medicine. The church shall doctor left with me. I was frightened at first, but I'm not now. Mother and I will have him out of the fever shortly. Philip caught her glance, and took Adair by the arm. Alone they went into the breakfast-room. Adair laughed uneasily, as he seated himself opposite Philip. I don't like to see the little beggar like that, he said, talking to shake off his own and Philip's fears with a smile. It was Mignol who scared me, her face.  I thought he might be dying. Cutting teeth, maybe. Volunteered Philip. Too young, replied Adair. Or a touch of indigestion. That brings fever. Whatever it is, Josephine will soon have him kicking and pulling my thumb again. Said Adair with confidence. Did she ever tell you about the little Indian baby she found in a teepee? No. It was in the dead of winter. Mignol was out with her dogs, ten miles to the south. Captain scented the thing, the Indian teepee. It was abandoned, banked high with snow, and over it was a smallpox signal. She was about to go on, but captain made her go to the flap of the teepee. The beast knew, I guess, and Josephine, my God, I wouldn't have let her do it for ten years of my life. There had been smallpox in that tent. The smell of it was still warm. She looked in, and she says she heard something that was no louder than the peep of a bird. Into that death-hole she went, and brought out a baby. The parents, starving and half-crazed after their sickness, had left it, thinking it was dead. Josephine brought it to a cabin close to home. In two weeks she had that kid out, rolling in the snow. Then the mother and father heard something of what had happened, and came to us as fast as their legs could bring them. You should have seen that Indian mother's gratitude. She didn't think it so terrible to leave the baby unburied. She thought it was dead. Pasu is the Indian father's name. Several times a year they come to see Josephine, and Pasu brings her the choicest furs of his trap-line, and each time he says, Nipatu mawao, which means that some day he hopes to be able to kill for her. Nice, isn't it, to have friends who'll murder your enemies for you, if you just give them the word? One can never tell, began Philip cautiously. A time might come when she would need friends, if such a day should happen. He paused, busying himself with his stake. There was a note of triumph, of exultation, in Adair's low laugh.  He asked. That is the way word that Josephine wanted friends would sweep through a thousand square miles of this Northland, and the answer to it would be like the answer of stray wolves to the cry of the hunt-pack. All over Philip there surged a warm glow. You could not have friends like that down there, in the cities, he said. Adair's face clouded. I am not a pessimist, he answered, after a moment. It has been one of my few commandments always to look for the bright spot, if there is one. But down there I have seen so many wolves, human wolves. It seems strange to me that so many people should have the same mad desire for the dollar that the wolves of the forest have for the warm, red, quivering flesh.  They are like the dollar-hunters, only beasts. Among such one cannot have solid friends. Not very men who will not sell you for a price. I was afraid to trust Josephine down among them. I am glad that it was you she met Philip. You were of the North, a foster child, if not born there. That day was one of gloom in Adair's house. The baby's fever grew steadily worse. Until in Josephine's eyes Philip read the terrible fear. He remained mostly with Adair in the big room. The lamps were lighted, and Adair had just risen from his chair when Miriam came through the door. She was swaying, her hands reaching out gropingly, her face the gray of ash that crumbles from an ember. Adair sprung to meet her, a strange cry on his lips, and Philip was a step behind her. He heard her moaning words, and as he rushed past them into the hall he knew that she had fallen, feinting into her husband's arms. In the doorway to Josephine's room he paused. She was there, kneeling beside the little cradle, and her face as she lifted it to him was tearless, but filled with a grief that went to the quick of his soul. He did not need to look into the cradle as she rose unsteadily, clutching a hand at her heart, as if to keep it from breaking. He knew what he would see, and now he went to her and drew her close in his strong arms, whispering the pent-up passion of the things that were in his heart, until at last her arms stole about his neck, and she sobbed on his breast like a child. How long he held her there, whispering over and over again the words that made her grief his own, he could not have told, but after a time he knew that someone else had entered the room, and he raised his eyes to meet those of John Adair. The face of the great, grizzled giant had aged five years, but his head was erect. He looked at Philip squarely. He put out his two hands, and one rested on Josephine's head, the other on Philip's shoulder. "'My children,' he said gently, and in those two words were weighted the strength and consolation of the world. He pointed to the door, motioning Philip to take Josephine away, and then he went and stood at the cribside.  Tenderly Philip led Josephine from the room. Adair had taken his wife to her room, and when they had entered she was sitting in a chair, staring and speechless. And now Josephine turned to Philip, taking his face between her two hands, and her soul looking at him through a blinding mist of tears. "'My Philip,' she whispered, and drew his face down and kissed him. Go to him now. We will come, soon.' He returned to Adair, like one in a dream, a dream that was grief and pain, with its one golden thread of joy.  It was some time before they could induce him to give it to Moëne. Then suddenly he shook himself like a great bear, and crushed Philip's shoulders in his hands. "'God knows, I'm sorry for you, boy,' he cried brokenly. It's hurt me terribly. Put you, it must be like the cracking of your soul. And Josephine, mignon, my little flower, she is with her mother.' "'Yes,' replied Philip. "'Come, let us go, we can do nothing here. And Josephine and her mother will be better alone for a time.' "'I understand,' said Adair, almost roughly, in his struggle to steady himself. "'You're thinking of me, boy. God bless you for that. You go to Josephine and Myria. It is your place. Jean and I will go into the big room.' Philip left them at Adair's room, and went to his own, leaving the door open that he might hear Josephine if she came out into the hall. He was there to meet her when she appeared a little later. They went to Moëne. At last all things were done, and the lights were turned low in a dare-house. Philip did not take off his clothes that night, nor did Jean and Matoussin. In the early dawn they went out together to the little garden of crosses. Close to the side of Iawaka, Jean pointed out a plot. "'Josephine would say the little one will sleep best there. Close to her,' he said. "'She will take care of it, Mishir. She will know and to understand and keep its little soul bright and happy in heaven.' And there they digged, no one in a dare-house heard the cautious fall of pick and spade. With morning came a strangely clear sun. Out of the sky had gone the last haze of cloud. Jean crossed himself and said, she knows, and has sent sunshine instead of storm. Years later it was a dare who stood over the little grave and said words deep and strong and quivering with emotion, and it was Jean and Matoussin who lowered the tiny casket into the frozen earth. Miriam was not there, but Josephine clung to Philip's side, and only once did her voice break in the grief she was fighting back.  He did not even want Jean's company. In his room he sat alone until supper time. He went to bed early, and strangely enough slept more soundly than he had been able to sleep for some time. When he awoke the following morning his first thought was that this was the day of the third night. He had scarcely dressed when a dare's voice greeted him from outside the door. It was different now, filled with the old cheer and booming hopefulness, and Philip smiled as he thought how this stricken giant of the wilderness was rising out of his own grief to comfort Josephine and him. They were all at breakfast, and Philip was delighted to find Josephine looking much better than he had expected. Miriam had sunk deepest under the strain of the preceding hours. She was still white and wan, her hands trembled, she spoke little. Suddenly a dare tried to raise her spirits. During the rest of that day Philip saw but little of Josephine, and he made no effort to intrude himself upon her. Late in the afternoon Jean asked him if he had made friends with the dogs, and Philip told him of his experience with them. Not until nine o'clock that night did he know why the half-breed had asked. At that hour a dare-house had sunk into quiet. The men her husband had gone to bed. The lights were low. For an hour Philip had listened to the footsteps which he knew he would hear to-night. At last he knew that Josephine had come into the hall. He heard Jean's low voice, their retreating steps, and then the opening and closing of the door that let them out into the night. There was a short silence. Then the door reopened, and someone returned through the hall. The steps stopped at his own door, a knock, and a moment later he was standing face to face with Cressette. Throw on your coat and cap, and come with me, Mishir. He cried in a low voice, and bring your pistol. Without a word Philip obeyed. By the time they stood out in the night his blood was racing in a wild anticipation. Josephine had disappeared. Jean gripped his arm. Tonight something may happen, he said, in a voice that was as hard and cold as the blue lights of the aurora in the polar sky. It is possible we may need your help. I would have asked me too soon, but it would have made him suspicious of something, and he knows nothing. You have made friends with the dogs? You know, Captain? Yes.  His eyes were points of flame in the gloom.  Yes, gasped Philip, but Jean, if you understand that is all. Interrupted, Jean, if there is a peril in what we are doing this night, the pack will be worth more to us than a dozen men. If anything happens to us, they will be our adventures. Go! There is not one moment for you to lose. Remember a shot, a single cry. His voice, the glitter in his eyes, told Philip that this was no time for words. He turned and ran swiftly across the clearing in the direction of the dog-pit. Ten minutes later he came into a gloom warm with the smell of beasts. Eyes of fire glared at him. The snapping of fangs and the snarling of savage throats greeted him. One by one he called the names of the dogs he remembered, called them over and over again, advancing fearlessly among them until he dropped upon his knees with his hand on the chain that held Captain. From there he talked to them, and their wines answered him. Then he fell silent, listening. He could hear his own heart beat. Every fibre in his body was a quiver with excitement and a strange fear. The hand that rested on Captain's collar trembled. In the distance an owl hooded, and the first note of it sent a red hot fire through him. Still further away a wolf howled. Then came a silence in which he thought he could hear the rush of blood through his own throbbing veins. With his finger at the steel snap on Captain's collar he waited. In the course of nearly every human life there comes an hour which stands out above all others as long as memory lasts. Such was the one in which Philip crouched in the dog-pit, his hand at Captain's collar, waiting for the sound of cry or shot. So long as he lived he knew this scene could not be wiped out of his brain. As he listened he stared about him and the drama of it burning into his soul. Them intuitive spirit seemed to have whispered to the dogs that these tense moments were heavy with tragic possibilities for them as well as the man. Out of this surrounding darkness they stared at him without a movement or a sound.  They too were waiting and listening. They knew there was some meaning in the attitude of this man croaching at Captain's side. Their heads were up, their ears were alert, Philip could hear them breathing and he could feel that the muscles of Captain's splendid body were tense and rigid. Minutes passed, the owl hooded nearer, the wolf howled again further away. Slowly the tremendous strain passed and Philip began to breathe easier. He figured that Josephine and the half-breed had reached last night's meeting-place. He had given them a margin of at least five minutes and nothing had happened. His knees were cramped and he rose to his feet, still holding Captain's chain. The tension was broken among the beasts. They moved, whimpering sounds came to him. Eyes shifted uneasily in the gloom. Fully half an hour passed when there was a sudden movement among them. The points of green and opal fire were turned from Philip and to his ears came the clink of chains, the movement of bodies, a subdued and menacing rumble from a score of throats. Captain growled. Philip stared into the darkness and listened. And then a voice came quite near. Ho! M. Philip! It was Jean. Philip's hand relaxed its clutch at Captain's collar, and almost a groan of relief fell from his lips. Not until Jean's voice came to him, quiet and unexcited, did he realize under what a strain he had been. I am here, he said, moving slowly out of the pit. In the edge of it, where the light shone down through an opening in the spruce tops, he found Jean. Josephine was not with him. Eagerly Philip caught the other's arm and looked beyond him. Where is she? Safe! replied Jean. I left her at a dare-house, and came to you, I came quickly, for I was afraid that someone might shout in the night or fire a shot. Our business was done quickly to-night, M. He was looking straight into Philip's eyes. A cold, steady look that told Philip what he meant before he had spoken the words. Our business was done quickly, he repeated, and it is coming. The fight? Yes. And Josephine knows, she understands. No, M. Sure. Only you and I know. Listen. Tonight I kneeled down in the darkness in my room, and prayed that the soul of my ear-walka might come to me. I felt her near, M. Sure. It is strange. Not to believe, but some day you may understand. And we were there together for an hour, and I pleaded for her forgiveness. For the time had come when I must break my oath to save our Josephine. And I could hear her speak to me, M. Sure, as plainly as you hear that breath of wind in the treetops yonder. Praise the Holy Father, I heard her. And so we are going to fight the great fight, M. Sure. Philip waited. After a moment Jean said, as quietly as if he were asked in the time of day. Do you know whom we went out to see last night, and met again to-night? He asked. I have guessed, replied Philip. His face was white and hard. Jean nodded. I think you have guessed correctly, M. Sure. It was the baby's father. And then in amazement he stared at Philip. For the other had flung off his arm, and his eyes were blazing in the starlight. And you have had all this trouble, all this mystery, all this fear, because of him. He demanded. His voice rang out in a harsh laugh.  And let him go. You, Jean Quassette. The one man in the world I would give my life to meet. And you, afraid of him. My God! If that is all! Jean interrupted him, laying a firm, quiet hand on his arm. What would you do, M. Sure? Kill him.  And to-night, Jean, he is near. I will follow him, and do what you have been afraid to do. Yes, that is it. I have been afraid to kill him, replied Jean. Philip saw the starlight on the half-breed's face, and he knew, as he looked, that he had called Jean Jean Quassette the one thing in the world that he could not be a coward. I am wrong. He apologized quickly. Jean, it is not that. I am excited, and I take back my words. It is not fair. It is something else. Why, have you not killed him? M. Sure, do you believe in an oath that you made to your God? Yes, but not when it means the crushing of human souls. Then it is a crime. Ah! Jean was facing him now. His eyes aflame. I am a Catholic, M. Sure. One of those of the far north, who are different from the Catholics of the south, of Montreal and Quebec. Listen, to-night I have broken a part of my oath. I am breaking a part of it, in telling you what I am about to say. But I am not a coward, unless it is a coward who lives too much in fear of the great God. What is my soul compared to that in the gentle breast of our Josephine? I would sacrifice it to-night, give it to Witucco, lend it for ever to hell if I could undo what has been done, and to ask me why I have not killed, why I have not taken the life of a beast who is unfit to breathe God's air for an hour. Does it not occur to you, M. Sure, that there must be a reason? Besides the oath, yes. And now I will tell you of the game I played and lost, M. Sure. In me alone Josephine knew that she could trust, and so it was to me that she bared her sorrow. Later word came to me that this man, the father of the baby, was following her into the north. That was after I had given my oath to Josephine. I thought he would come by the other waterway, where we met you. And so we went there alone. I made a camp for her, and went on to meet him. My mind was made up, M. Sure. I had determined upon the sacrifice my soul for hers. I was going to kill him, but I made a mistake. A friend I had sent around by the other waterway met me, and told me that I had missed my game. Then I returned to the camp, and you were there. You understand this, M. Sure? Yes. Go on. The friend I had sent brought a letter for Josephine, resumed Jean. A runner on his way north gave it to him. It was from M. Sure Adair, and said they were not starting north, but they did start soon after the letter, and this same friend brought me the news that the master had passed along the westward waterway a few days behind the man I had planned to kill. Then we returned to Adair House, and you came with us. And after that, the face at the window, and the shot. Philip felt the half-breed's arm quiver. I must tell you about him, or you will not understand. He went on, and there was an effort in his voice now. The man whose face you saw was my brother. Ah! You start.  He was bad. All that could be bad, M. Sure. But blood is thicker than water, and up here one does not forget those early days when childhood knows no sin. And my brother came up from the south as canoe-man, for the man I wanted to kill. A few hours before you saw his face at the window, I met him in the forest. He promised to leave. Then came the shot, and I understood. The man I was going to kill had sent him to assassinate the master of Adair. That is why I followed his trail that night. I knew that I would find the man I wanted not far away. And you found him? Yes. I came upon my brother first, and I lied. I told him he had made a mistake and killed you. That his life was not worth the quill from a porcupine's back if he remained in the country. I made him believe it was another who fought him in the forest. He fled. I am glad of that. He will never come back. Then I followed over the trail he had made, to Adair-hose, and far back in the swamp I came upon them, waiting for him. I passed myself off as my brother, and I tricked the man I was after. We went a distance from the camp, alone, and I was choking the life from him, when the two others that were with him came upon us. He was dying, Mishir. He was black in the face, and his tongue was out. Another second, two or three at the most, and I would have brought ruin upon every soul at Adair-hose. For he was dying, and if I had killed him all would have been lost. That is impossible, gasped Philip, as the half-breed paused. If you had killed him, all would have been lost, repeated Sean, in a strange, hard voice. Listen, Mishir, the two others leaped upon me. I fought, and then I was struck on the head. And when I came to my senses I was in the light of the campfire, and the man I had come to kill was over me. One of the other men was Thoreau, the free trader. He had told who I was. It was useless to lie.  And then, in the light of that campfire, Mishir, he proved to me what it would have meant if I had succeeded. Thoreau carried the paper. It was in an envelope addressed to the Master of Adair. They tore this open, that I might read, and in that paper, written by the man I had come to kill, was the whole terrible story, every detail. And it made me cold and sick. Perhaps you begin to understand, Mishir. Perhaps you will see more clearly when I tell you. Yes, yes, urged Philip, that this man, the father of the baby, is the Lang who owns Thoreau, who owns that free Buddha's hell, who owns the string of them, from here to the Athabasca, and who lives in Montreal. Philip could only stare at Jean, who went on. His face, the colour of grey ash in the starlight. I must tell you the rest. You must understand before the great fight comes.  He is rich, he is power up here, for he owns Thoreau and all his cup-throats, and he is not satisfied with the ruin he worked down there. He has followed Josephine, he is mad with passion, with the desire. Good God, don't tell me more of that! cried Philip. I understand. He has followed, and Josephine is to be the price of his silence. Yes, just that. He knows what it means up here for such a thing to happen. His love for her is not love.  He laid his plans before he came. That letter, the paper I read, Mishir. He meant to see Josephine at once, and show it to her. There are two of those papers, one at Thoreau's place and one in Thoreau's pocket. If anything happens to Lang, one of them is to be delivered to the master of Adair by Thoreau.  It is his safeguard, and there are two copies, to make the thing sure, so we cannot kill him. Josephine listened to all this to-night, from Lang's own lips, and she pleaded with him, Mishir. She called upon him to think of the little child, letting him believe that it was still alive, and he laughed at her.  I never saw her stronger than in that moment, Mishir, in that moment when there was no hope. I would have killed him then for the paper he had, but the other is at Thoreau's. He has gone back there. He says that unless he receives word of Josephine's surrender within a week, the crash will come. The paper will be given to the master of Adair. And now, Mishir Philip, what do you have to say? That there never was game lost until it was played to the end, replied Philip, and he drew nearer to look straight and steadily into the half-breed's eyes. Go on, Sean, there is something more which you have not told me, and that is the biggest thing of all. Go on. For a space there was a startled look in Jean's eyes, then he shrugs his shoulders and smiled. Of course there is more. He said, you have known that, Mishir, there is one thing which you will never know, that which Josephine said you would not guess if you had lived a thousand years. You must forget that there is more than I have told you, for it will do you no good to remember. Mishir suddenly died out of Philip's eyes, and yet I believe that what you are holding back for me is the key to everything. I have told you enough, Mishir, enough to make you see why we must fight. But not how. That will come soon, replied Jean, a little troubled. The men were silent. Behind them they heard the restless movement of the dogs. Out of the gloom came a wailing whine. Again Philip looked at Jean. Do you know your story seems weak in places, Jean? He said, I believe every word you have said, and yet, when you come to think of it all, the situation doesn't seem to be so terribly alarming to me after all. Why, for instance, do you fear those letters? This scoundrel Lang's confession. Kill him. Let the letter come to a dare. Cannot Josephine swear that she is innocent? Can she not have a story of her own showing how foully Lang tried to blackmail her into a crime? Do not a dare believe her word before that of a freebooter? And am I not here to swear that the child was mine? There is almost a pitying look in the half-breed's eyes. Mishir, what if in that letter were named people in places, the hospital itself, the doctors, the record of birth? What if it contained all those many things by which the master of a dare might trail back easily to the truth? What those things in the letter would he not investigate? And then— He made a despairing gesture. I see, said Philip. Then he added quickly. But could we not keep the papers from a dare, Sean? Could we not watch for the messenger? They are not fools, Mishir. Such a thing would be easy if they sent a messenger with the papers. But they have guarded against that. Le Mishir is to be invited to Thoros. The letter will be given to him there. Mishir began pacing back and forth. His head bowed in thought. His hands deep in his pockets. They have planted very well, like very devils, he exclaimed. And yet, even now, I see a flaw. Is Lang's threat merely a threat? Would he, after all, actually have the letter given to a dare? If these letters are not his trump card, why did he try to have him killed? Would not a dare's death rob him of his greatest power? In a way, Mishir, and yet, with Le Mishir gone, both Josephine and Miriam would be still more hopelessly in his clutches. For I know that he had planned to kill me after the master. My brother had not guessed that. And then the women would be alone. Holy Heaven, I cannot see the end of crime that might come of that. Even though they escaped him to go back to civilization, they would be still more in his power there. Philip's face was upturned to the stars. He laughed, but there was no mirth in the laugh.  It is the big fight then, John, but before that, just one question more, all of this trouble might have been saved if Josephine had married Lang. Why didn't she? For an instant every muscle in John's body became as taught as a bow-string. He hunched a little forward, as if about to leap upon the other and strike him down. And then, all at once, he relaxed. His hands unclenched, and he answered calmly. That is the one story that will never be told, Mishir. Come, they will wonder about us at a dare-house. Let us return. Philip fell in behind him, not until they were close to the door of the house, did John speak again. You are with me, Mishir. To the death, if it must be? Yes, to the death, replied Philip. Then let no sleep come to your eyes, so long as Josephine is awake. Went on, John, quickly. I am going to leave a dare-house to-night, Mishir, with team and sledge. The master must believe I have gone over to see my sick friend on the pipe-stone. I am going there, and further. His voice became a low, tense whisper. You understand, Mishir? We are preparing. The two clasped hands. I will return late to-morrow, or to-morrow-night, resumed, John. It may even be the next day, but I shall travel fast, without rest, and during that time you are on guard. In my room you will find an extra rifle and cartridges.  Watch, Josephine. I will not see her again to-night. Warn her for me. She must not go alone into the forest, not even to the dog-pit. I understand," said Philip. They entered the house. Twenty minutes later, from the window of his room, Philip saw a dark figure walking swiftly back towards the forest. Still later he heard the distant wail of a husky coming from the direction of the pit, and he knew that the first gun in the big fight had been fired, that Jean-Jacques Quassette was off on his thrilling mission into the depths of the forest. With that mission was. He had not asked him, but he had guessed, and his blood ran warm with a strange excitement. CHAPTER XXI OF GOD'S COUNTRY AND THE WOMAN. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer please visit LibriVox.org. GOD'S COUNTRY AND THE WOMAN by James Oliver Kerwood, CHAPTER XXI. Again there filled Philip the desire to be with Jean in the forest. The husky's wail told him that the half-breed had begun his journey. Between this hour and to-morrow night he would be threading his way swiftly over the wilderness trails on his strange mission. Philip envied him the action, the exhaustion that would follow. He envied even the dogs, running in the traces. He was a living dynamo, overcharged, with every nerve in him drawn to the point that demanded the reaction of physical exertion. He knew that he could not sleep. The night would be one long, and tedious wait for the dawn. And Jean had told him not to sleep as long as Josephine was awake. Was he to take that literally? Did Jean mean that he was to watch her? He wondered if she was in bed now. At least the half-breed's admonition offered him an excuse. He would go to her room. If there was a light he would knock, and ask if she would join him in the piano room. He looked at his watch. It was nearly midnight. Probably she had retired. He opened his door and entered the hall. Quietly he went to the end-room. There was no light, and he heard no sound. He was standing close to it, concealed in the shadows, when his heart gave a sudden jump. Advancing toward him down the hall was a figure clad in a flowing white night-robe. At first he did not know whether it was Josephine or Miriam. And then, as she came under one of the low-burning lamps, he saw that it was Miriam. She had turned, and was looking back toward the room where she had left her husband. Her beautiful hair was loose, and fell in lustrous masses to her hips. She was listening. And in that moment Philip heard a low, passionate sob. She turned her face toward him again, and he could see it was drawn with agony. In the lamp-glow her hands were clasped at her partly-bared breast. She was barefoot, and made no sound as she advanced. Philip drew himself back, closer against the wall. He was sure she had not seen him. A moment later Miriam turned into the corridor that led into a dares big room. Philip felt that he was trembling. In Miriam's face he had seen something that had made his heart to beat faster. Quietly he went to the corridor. Turned and made his way cautiously to the door of a dares room. It was dark inside, the corridor was black. Hidden in the gloom he listened. He heard Miriam sink in one of the big chairs, and from her movement and the sound of her sobbing he knew that she had buried her head in her arms on the table. He listened for minutes to the grief that seemed racking her soul. Then there was silence. A moment later he heard her, and she was so close to the door that he dared not move. She passed him and turned into the main hall. He followed again. She paused only for an instant at the door of the room in which she and her husband slept. Then she passed on, and scarcely believing his eyes Philip saw her open the door that led out into the night. She was full in the glow of the lamp that hung over the door now, and Philip saw her plainly. A biting gust of wind flung back her hair. He saw her bare arms.  Before he could speak, before he could call her name, she had darted out into the night. With a gasp of amazement he sprang after her. Her bare feet were deep in the snow when he caught her. A frightened cry broke from her lips. He picked her up in his arms, as if she had been a child, and ran back into the hall with her, closing the door after them. Panting, shivering with the cold, she stared at him without speaking. Why were you going out there? He whispered. Why, like that? For a moment he was afraid that from her heaving bosom and quivering lips would burst forth the strange excitement which she was fighting back. Something told him that Adair must not discover them in the hall. He caught her hands. They were cold as ice. Go to your room. He whispered gently. You must not let him know you were out there in the snow like this. You were partly asleep. Purposely he gave her the chance to seize upon this explanation. The sobbing breath came to her lips again. I guess it must have been that, she said, drawing her hands from him. I was going out to the baby. Thank you, Philip. I'll go to my room now. She left him, and not until her door had closed behind her did he move. Had she spoken the truth? Had she in those few moments been temporarily irresponsible because of grieving over the baby's death? Some inner consciousness answered him in a negative. It was not that. And yet what more could there be? He remembered. Jean's words, his insistent warnings. Resolutely he moved towards Josephine's room and knocked softly upon her door. He was surprised at the promptness with which her voice answered. When he spoke his name and told her it was important for him to see her, she opened the door. She had unbound her hair, but she was still dressed and Philip knew that she had been sitting alone in the darkness of her room. She looked at him strangely and expectantly. It seemed to Philip as if she had been waiting for news which she dreaded, and which she feared that he was bringing her. May I come in? He whispered. Or would you prefer to go into the other room? You may come in, Philip. She replied, letting him take her hand. I am still dressed. I have been so dreadfully nervous to-night that I haven't thought of going to bed. And the moon is so beautiful through my window. It has been company. Then she asked, What have you to tell me, Philip? She stepped into the light that flooded through the window. It transformed her hair into a lustrous mantle of deep gold. Into her eyes it put the warm glow of the stars. He made a movement, as if to put his arms about her, but he caught himself, and a little joyous breath came to Josephine's lips. It was her room where she slept, and he had come at a strange hour. She understood the movement, his desire to take her in his arms, and his big, clean thoughts of her as he drew a step back. It sent a flush of pleasure, and still deeper trust into her cheeks. You have something to tell me? She asked. Yes, about your mother. Her hand had touched his arm, and he felt her start. Briefly he told what had happened. Josephine's face was so white that it startled him when he had finished. She said she was going to the baby? She breathed, as if whispering the words to herself. And she was in her bare feet, with her hair down and her gown open to the snow and wind. Oh, my God! Perhaps she was in her sleep. Hurried Philip, it might have been that, Josephine. No, she wasn't in her sleep, replied Josephine, meeting his eyes. You know that, Philip, she was awake, and you have come to tell me that I may watch her, I understand. She might rest easier with you, if you can arrange it. He agreed. Your father worries over her now. It will not do to let him know this. She nodded. I will bring her to my room, Philip. I will tell my father that I am nervous and cannot sleep. And I will say nothing to her of what has happened. I will go as soon as you have returned to your room. He went to the door, and there for a moment she stood close to him, gazing up into his face. Still he did not put his hands to her. Tonight, in her own room, it seemed to him something like sacrilege to touch her. And then, suddenly, she raised her two arms up through her shimmering hair to his shoulders, and held her lips to him. Good night, Philip. He caught her to him. Her arms tightened about his shoulders. For a moment he felt the thrill of her warm lips. Then she drew back, whispering again. Good night, Philip. The door closed softly, and he returned to his room. Again the song of life, of love, of hope that pictured but one glorious end filled his soul to overflowing.  He went to bed, and sleep came to him now, filled with dreams in which he lived with Josephine, always at his side, laughing and singing with him, and giving him her lips to kiss in their joyous paradise. End of Chapter XXI. Out of these dreams he was awakened by a sound that had slowly and persistently become a part of his mental consciousness. It was a tap, tap, tap at his window. At last he sat up and listened. It was in the gray gloom of dawn. Again the sound was repeated, tap, tap, tap on the pane of glass. He slipped out of bed, his hand seeking the automatic under his pillow. He had slept with the window partly open, covering it with this pistol he called, who was there. A runner from Jean Cressette came back a cautious voice. I have a written message for you, Mishir. He saw an arm thrust through the window, in the hand a bit of paper. He advanced cautiously until he could see the face that was peering in. It was a thin, dark, fur-hooded face, with eyes black and narrow like johns, a half-breed. He seized the paper, and still watching the face and arm, hid it a lamp. Not until he had read the note did his suspicion leave him. This is Pierre Langouis. My friend of Pipestone, if any thing should happen that you need me quickly, let him come after me. You may trust him. He will put up his teepee in the thick timber close to the dog-pit. We have fought together. Lange saved his wife from the smallpox. I am going westward. Jean. Phillips sprang back to the window and gripped the mitt-and-tend that still hung over the sill. I am glad to know you, Pierre. Is there no other word from Jean? Only the note. Okimu. You just came? Aha! My dogs and sledge are back in the forest. Listen! Phillip turned toward the door. In the hall he heard footsteps. Lumashir is awake. He said quickly to Pierre, I will see you in the forest. Scarcely were the words out of his mouth when the half-breed was gone. A moment later Phillip knew that it was Adair who had passed his door. He dressed and shaved himself before he left his room. He found Adair in his study.  Something was lacking in Adair's greeting this morning. There was an uneasy, searching look in his eyes as he looked at Phillip. They shook hands and his hand was heavy and lifeless. His shoulders seemed to droop a little more, and his voice was unnatural when he spoke. You did not go to bed until quite late last night, Phillip? Yes, it was late, Montpère. For a moment Adair was silent. His head bowed, his eyes on the floor. He did not raise his gaze when he spoke again. Did you hear anything late about midnight? He asked. He straightened and looked steadily into Phillip's eyes. Did you see Miriam? For an instant Phillip felt that it was useless to attempt concealment under the searching scrutiny of the old man's eyes. Like an inspiration came to him a thought of Josephine. Josephine was the last person I saw after leaving you, he said truthfully, and she was in her room before eleven o'clock. It is strange, unaccountable, Muse to Adair. Miriam left her bed last night while I was asleep. It must have been about midnight, for it was then that the moon shines full into our window. In returning she awakened to me, and her hair was damp, there was snow on her gown. My God! She had been outdoors, almost naked. She said that she must have walked in her sleep, that she had awakened to find herself in the open door, with the wind and snow beating upon her. This is the first time. I never knew her to do it before. It disturbs me. So she is sleeping now? I don't know. Jane came a little later, and said that she could not sleep. Miriam went with her. It must have been the baby, comforted Philip, placing a hand on Adair's arm. We can stand at Montpair. We are men. With them it is different. We must bear up under our grief. It is necessary for us to have strength for them, as well as ourselves. Do you think it is that? cried Adair, with sudden eagerness. If it is, I am ashamed of myself, Philip. I have been brooding too much over the strange change in Miriam. But I see now it must have been the baby. It has been a tremendous strain. I have heard her crying when she did not know that I heard.  And Josephine added Philip. Jane Adair had thrown back his shoulders, and with a deep feeling of relief Philip saw the old light in his eyes. We must cheer them up, he added quickly. I will ask Josephine if they will join us at breakfast, Montpair. He closed the door behind him when he left the room, and went at once to rouse Josephine, if she was still in bed. He was agreeably surprised to find that both Miriam and Josephine were up and dressing. With this news he returned to Adair. Three-quarters of an hour later they met in the breakfast room. It took only a glance to tell him that Josephine was making a last heroic fight. She addressed her hair in shining coils low over her neck and cheeks this morning in an effort to hide her pallor. Miriam seemed greatly changed from the preceding night. Her eyes were clearer. A careful toilet had taken away the dark circles from under them, and had added a touch of color to her lips and cheeks. She went to Adair when the two men entered, and with a joyous rumble of approval the giant held her off at arm's length and looked at her. It didn't do any harm after all, Philip heard him say. Did you tell me, Nyon, of your adventure-mâcherie? He did not hear Miriam's reply, for he was looking down into Josephine's face. Her lips were smiling. She had made no effort to conceal the gladness in her eyes as he bent and kissed her. It was a hard night, dear. Terrible! She whispered. Mother told me what happened. She is stronger this morning. We must keep the truth from him. The truth? He felt her start. Hush! She breathed. You know, you understand what I mean. Let us sit down to breakfast now. During the hour that followed Philip was amazed at Miriam. She laughed and talked as she had not done before. The bit of artificial color she had given to her cheeks and lips faded under the brighter flesh that came into her face. He could see that Josephine was nearly as surprised as himself. Philip and Adair was fairly boyish in his delight. The meal was finished and Philip and Adair were about to light their cigars when a commotion outside drew them all to the window that overlooked one side of the clearing. Out of the forest had come two dog-teens, their drivers shouting and cracking their long, caribou-gut whips. Philip stared, conscious that Josephine's hand was clutching his arm. Neither of the shouting men was John. An Indian, and Reno, the quarter-blood. Granted Adair, wonder what they want here in November. They should be on their traplines. Perhaps, Montpère, they have come to see their friends. Suggested Josephine. You know, it has been a long time since some of them has seen us. I would be disappointed if our people didn't show. They were glad because of your homecoming. Of course that's it, quite Adair. Ho! Me too, son! He roared, turning toward the door. Me too, son! Patou! Ta! Wa-wep! Isou won! Me too, son, appeared at the door. Billed a great fire in the unaca house, commanded Adair. Theedal who come in from the forest, Me too, son, open up tobacco and preserves and flour and bacon. Nothing in the storeroom is too good for them. And send John to me. Where is he? Numatao! Okimoao! Gone! exclaimed Adair. We didn't want to disturb you last night, exclaimed Philip. He made an early start for the Pipestone. If he was an ordinary man, I'd say he was in love with one of the Langua girls, said Adair, with a shrug of his shoulders. Nia! Me too, son! Make them comfortable, and we will all see them later. As Me too, son went, Adair turned upon the others. Shall we all go out now? He asked. Splendid! Excepted Josephine eagerly, Come, Mickawee, we can be ready in a moment. She ran from the room, leading her mother by the hand. Philip and Adair followed them, and shortly the four were ready to leave the house. The unaca, or guest-house, was in the edge of the timber. It was a long, low building of logs, and was always open with its accommodations to the Indians and half-breeds, men, women and children, who came in from the forest trails. Reno and the Indian were helping Me too, son, build fires when they entered. Philip thought that Reno's eyes rested upon him in a curious and searching glance, even as Adair shook hands with him. He was more interested in the low words both the Indian and the blood muttered as they stood for a moment with bowed heads before Josephine and Miriam. Then Reno raised his head and spoke direct to Josephine. I bring word for him of Jean-Brielle and Ouimamois, over on Jacques Fich, ma kitschi utsakian.   Aha!  She burned up Lake Fire. Josephine looked up at Philip. I knew she was sick, she said, but I didn't think it was so bad. If she dies it will be my fault. I should have gone. She turned quickly to Reno. When did you see her last? She asked. Listen! Pepek, oh, Mao! Aha! It is a sickness the children have each winter. She explained, looking questioningly into Philip's eyes again. It kills quickly when left alone, but I have medicine that will cure it. There is still time. We must go, Philip. We must. Her face had paled a little. She saw the gathering lines in Philip's forehead. He thought of Jean's words, the warning they carried. She pressed his arm, and her mouth was firm. I am going, Philip, she said softly. Will you go with me? I will, if you must go, he said, but it is not the best. It is best for little Marie, she retorted, and left him to tell Adair and her mother of Reno's message. Well, stepped close to Philip. His back was to the others. He spoke in a low voice. I bring good word from Jean Croisette-Michel. Him say, something Reno, good man, lack paris, l'encois. And he fight like devil, when asked. I bring Indian and two team. We be in forest near Dagwitakan, where Pierre make his fire and tipi.  Aha! Yes, I understand, whispered Philip, and Jean has gone on to see the others. He go like when, to François, over on Waterfound. François, come in one hour, two, three, maybe. Josephine and Adair approached them. Mignon is turning nurse again, rumbled Adair, one of his great arms thrown affectionately about her waist. You'll have a jolly run on a clear morning like this, Philip. But remember, if it is the smallpox, I forbid her to expose herself. I shall see to that, Montpère. When do we start, Josephine? As soon as I can get ready, and Métoussin brings the dogs, replied Josephine, I'm going to the house now. Will you come with me? It was an hour before Métoussin had brought the dogs up from the pit, and they were ready to start. Philip had armed himself with a rifle and his automatic, and Josephine had packed both medicine and food in a large basket. The new snow was soft, and Métoussin had brought a toboggan instead of a sledge with runners. In the traces were Captain and five of his teammates. Isn't the pack going with us? Philip asked. I never take them when there is a very bad sickness like this, explained Josephine. There is something about the nearness of death that makes them howl. I have been able to train that out of them. Philip was disappointed, but he said nothing more. He tucked Josephine among the furs, cracked the long whip Métoussin had given him, and they were off, with Miriam and her husband waving their hands from the door of a dare-house. They had scarcely passed out a few in the forest when, with a sudden sharp command, Josephine stopped the dogs. She sprang out of her furs and stood laughingly beside Philip. Father always insists that I ride. He says it's not good for a woman to run, but I do. I love to run, there! As she spoke she had thrown her outer coat on the sledge, and stood before him, straight and slim. Her hair was in a long braid. Now, are you ready? She challenged. Good Lord, have mercy on me, gasped Philip. You look as if you might fly, Josephine. Her signal to the dogs was so low, he scarcely heard it, and they sped along the white and narrow trail into which Josephine had directed them, and Philip fell in behind her. It had always roused a certain sense of humour in him to see a woman run, but in Josephine he now saw the swiftness and liesome grace of a fawn. Her head was thrown back, her mitt and tans were drawn up to her breast as the forest man runs, and her shining braid danced and rippled in the early sun with each quick step she took. Instead of her, the gray and yellow backs of the dogs rose and fell with a rhythmic movement that was almost music. Their ears a-slant, their crests bristling, their bushy tails curling like plumes over their hips. They responded with almost automatic precision to the low words that fell from the lips of the girl behind them. With each minute that passed Philip wondered how much longer Josephine could keep up the pace. They had run fully a mile, and his own breath was growing shorter when the toe of his moccasin foot caught under a bit of brushwood, and he plunged head foremost into the snow.  The dogs were squatted on their haunches, looking back. Hi, poor Philip! she laughed, offering him an assisting hand. We almost lost you, didn't we? It was Captain who missed you first, and he almost toppled me over the sled. Her face was radiant, lips, eyes, and cheeks were glowing. Her breasts rose and fell quickly. It was your fault, he accused her.  I shall have my revenge, here." He drew her into his arms, protesting. Not until he had kissed or parted, half-smiling lips did he release her. I'm going to ride now," she declared. I'm not going to run the danger of being accused again. He wrapped her again in the furs on the toboggan. It was eight miles to Jacques Brouillet's, and they reached his cabin in two hours. Brouillet was not much more than a boy, scarcely older than the dark-eyed little French girl who was his wife. And their eyes were big with terror. With a thrill of wonder and pleasure, Philip observed the swift change in them as Josephine sprang from the toboggan. Brouillet was almost sobbing as he whispered to Philip. Oh, the sweet Ange, monsieur, she came just in time. Josephine was bending over little Marie's cot when they followed her and the girl's mother into the cabin. In a moment she looked up with a glad smile. It is the same sickness, Marie, she said to the mother. I have medicine here that will cure it. The fever isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Nune saw a big change in the cabin. Little Marie's temperature was falling rapidly. Brouillet and his wife were happy. After dinner Josephine explained again how they were to give the medicine she was leaving, and at two o'clock they left on their return journey to a dare-house. The sun had disappeared hours before. Grey banks of cloud filled the sky, and it had grown much colder. You will reach home only a little before dark, said Philip. You had better ride, Josephine. He was eager to reach a dare-house. By this time he felt that Jean should have returned, and he was confident that there were others of the forest people besides Pierre, Reno, and the Indian in the forest near the pit. For an hour he kept up a swift pace.  They had traversed a part of this when the dogs stopped. Directly ahead of them had fallen a dead cedar, barring the trail. Philip went to the toboggan for the trail-axe. I haven't noticed any wind, have you? He asked, not enough to topple over a cedar. He went to the tree and began cutting.  He had only time to see that Josephine had left the sledge, and was struggling in the arms of a man. In that same instance two others had leaped upon him. He had not time to strike, to lift his axe. He went down, a pair of hands gripping at his throat. He saw a face over him, and he knew now that it was the face of the man he had seen in the fire-light, the face of Lang, the free trader. Every atom of strength in him rose in a superhuman effort to throw off his assailants. Then came the blow. He saw the club over him, a short, thick club, in the hand of Thoreau himself. After that followed darkness and oblivion, punctuated by the crack, crack, crack of a revolver, and the howling of dogs, sounds that grew fainter and fainter until they died away altogether, and he sank into the stillness of night. It was almost dark when consciousness stirred Philip again. With an effort he pulled himself to his knees and stared about him. Josephine was gone. The dogs were gone. He staggered to his feet, a moaning cry on his lips. He saw the sledge. Still in the traces lay the bodies of two of the dogs, and he knew what the pistol shots had meant. The others had been cut loose. Straight out into the forest led the trails of several men, and the meaning of it all. The reality of what had happened surged upon him in all its horror. Lang and his cutthroats had carried off Josephine. He knew by the thickening darkness that they had time to get a good start on their way to Thoreau's. One thought filled his dizzy brain now. He must reach Jean and the camp near the pit. He staggered as he turned his face homeward. A dozen times the trail seemed to reach up and strike him in the face.  A dozen times in the first mile he fell, and each time it was harder for him to regain his feet. The darkness of night grew heavier about him, and now and then he found himself crawling on his hands and knees. It was two hours before his day's senses caught the glow of a fire ahead of him. And then it seemed like an age before he reached it. And when at last he staggered into the circle of light.  Philip's strength was gone, but he still had time to tell Jean what had happened before he crumpled down into the snow. And then he heard a voice, Jean's voice, crying fierce commands to the men about the fire. He heard excited replies, the hurry of feet, the barking of dogs. Something warm and comforting touched his lips. He struggled to bring himself back to life. He seemed to have been fighting hours before he opened his eyes. He pulled himself up, stared into the dark, livid face of Jean, the half-breed. The hour has come, he murmured. Yes, the hour has come, Mishir, cried Jean. The swiftest teams and the swiftest runners in this part of the Northland are on the trail, and by morning the forest people will be roused from here to the water-found, from the Cree camp on Lobbstick to the Grey Loon waterway. Drink this, Mishir. There is no time to lose, for it is Jean's Jacques Cressette who tells you that not a wolf will howl this night that does not call forth the signal to those who love our Josephine. End of CHAPTER XXII CHAPTER XXIII of God's Country and the Woman This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. God's Country and the Woman by James Oliver Kerwood, CHAPTER XXIII Jean's thrilling words burned into Philip's consciousness like fire. They roused him from his stupor, and he began to take in deep breaths of the chill night air, and to see more clearly. The camp was empty now, the men were gone.  Philip rose slowly to his feet. There was no longer the sickening dizziness in his head. He inhaled still deeper breaths, while Jean stood a step back and watched. Far off in the forest he heard the faint barking of dogs. They are running like the wind, breathed Jean. Those are Reno's dogs. They are two miles away. He took Philip by the arm. I have made a comfortable bed for you in Pierre's tipi-musher.  You will need all of your strength soon. But I must know what is happening.  I am ready now, Jean. I am not hungry, and the pain is gone. See, I am as steady as you. He cried excitedly, gripping Jean's hand, God in heaven, who knows what may be happening out there. Josephine is safe for a time, is she, is she, Jean? Listen to me, Nate Tutom. I fear this. That is why I warned you. Everything is taking her to Thoreau's. He believes that we will not dare to pursue, and that Josephine will send back word. She is there of her own pleasure. Why? Because he is sworn to give Le Mâchure the confession. If we make him trouble, mon Dieu, he thinks we will not dare, even now. Nate Tutom, six of the fastest teams and swiftest runners within a hundred miles, are gone to spread the word among the forest people. That lounge, our Josephine, has been carried off by Thoreau and his beasts. Before dawn they will begin to gather where the forks meet, twelve miles off there toward the devil's nest and to-morrow. Jean crossed himself. Our Lady, forgive us, if it is a sin to take the lives of twenty such men, he said softly, not one will live to tell the story, and not a log of Thoreau house will stand to hold the secret which will die for ever with to-morrow's end. Philip came near to Jean now. He placed his two hands on the half-breed shoulders, and for a moment looked at him without speaking. His face was strangely white. I understand everything, Jean. He whispered huskily, and his lips seemed perched. To-morrow we will destroy all evidence and kill. That is the one way, and that secret which you dread, which Josephine has told me I cannot guess in a thousand cheers, will be buried for ever. But Jean, I have guessed it, I know. It has come to me at last, and my God, I understand. Slowly, with a look of horror in his eyes, Jean drew back from him. Philip, with bowed head, saw nothing of the struggle in the half-breed's face. When Jean spoke it was in a strange voice and low. Philip looked up. In the fire-glow Jean was reaching out his hand to him. In the faces of the two men was a new light, the birth of a new brotherhood. Their hands clasped. Silently they gazed into each other's eyes. While over them the beginning of a storm moaned in the tree-tops, and the clouds raced in snow-gray armies under the moon. Brave no word of what you may have come to to-night, spoke Jean then. Will you swear that? Yes. And to-morrow we fight. You see now. You understand what fight means, monsieur. Yes. It means that Josephine—tch—even I must not hear what is on your lips, monsieur. I cannot believe that what you have guessed is true. I do not want to know. I dare not.  I will go to the monsieur and tell him that I have received word that you and Josephine are to stay at Breuillet's to-night. He must not know what has happened. He must not be at the big fight to-morrow. When it is all over we will tell him that we did not want to terrify him and Miriam over Josephine, if he should be at the fight, and came hand to hand with Lang or Thoreau. He must not go, exclaimed Philip. Hurry to him, Jean. I will boil some coffee while you are gone. Bring another rifle. They robbed me of mine and the pistol. Jean prepared to leave. I will return soon, he said. We should start for the forks within two hours, monsieur. In that time you must rest. He slipped away into the gloom in the direction of the pit. For several minutes Philip stood near the fire, staring into the flames. Then he suddenly awoke into life. The thought that had come to him this night had changed his world for him, and he wondered now if he was right. John had said, I cannot believe that what you have guessed is true. And yet in the half-breed's face, in his horror-filled eyes, in the tense gathering of his body, was revealed the fear that he had. But if he had made a mistake, if he had guessed wrong, the hot blood surged in his face, if he had guessed wrong his thought would be a crime, he had made up his mind to drive the guess out of his head, and he went into the tipi to find food and coffee. When John returned an hour later, supper was waiting in the heat of the fire. The half-breed had brought Philip's rifle along with his own. What did he say? Asked Philip, as they sat down to eat. He had no suspicions. None, monsieur, replied John, a strange smile on his lips. He was with Miriam. When I entered they were romping like two children in the music-room. Her hair was down, she was pulling his beard, and they were laughing, so that at first they did not hear me when I spoke to them. They were laughing, monsieur. His eyes met Philip's. Has Josephine told you what the Indians call them? He asked, softly. No. In every tipi in these forests they speak of them as ka sika hawan. The lovers. Ah, monsieur, there is one picture in my brain which I shall never forget. I first came to a dare-house on a cold, bleak night, dying of hunger, and first of all I looked through a lighted window, in a great chair before the fire sat Le Monsieur, so that I could not see his face, and what was gathered up close in his arms. At first I thought it was a sleeping child who was holding, and then I saw the long hair streaming to the floor, and in that moment La Florette, beautiful as the angels I had dreamed of, raised her face and saw me at the window. Entering all the years that have passed since then, it has been like that, monsieur, they have been lovers.  Philip was silent. He knew that Jean was looking at him. He felt that he was reading the thoughts in his heart. A little later he drew out his watch and looked at it. Would time is itch, monsieur? Nine o'clock, replied Philip. Why wait another hour, Jean? I am ready. Then we will go, replied Jean, springing to his feet. Throw these things into the tipi, monsieur, while I put the dogs in the traces. They moved quickly now. Over them the grey heavens seemed to drop lower. Through the forest swept a far monotone, like the breaking of surf on a distant shore. With the wind came a thin snow, and the darkness gathered so that beyond the rim of fire-light there was a black chaos in which the form of all things was lost. It was not a night for talk. It was filled with the whisperings of storm, and to fill up those whisperings were an oppressive presage of the tragedy that lay, that night, ahead of them. The dogs were harnessed, five that Jean had chosen from the pack, and straight out into the pit of gloom the half-breed led them. In that darkness Philip could see nothing. But not once did Jean falter, and the dogs followed him, occasionally whining at the strangeness and unrest of the night. And close behind them came Philip. For a long time there was no sound but the tread of their feet, the scraping of the toboggan, the powder of the dogs, and the wind that bit down from out of the thick sky into the spruce tops. They had travelled an hour when they came to a place where the smothering weight of the darkness seemed to rise from about them. It was the edge of a great open, a bit of the barren that reached down like a solitary finger from the north. Free-less, shrub-less, the playground of foxes, and the storm winds. Here Jean fell back, beside Philip for a moment. You are not tiring me, sure? I am getting stronger every mile, declared Philip. I feel no effects of the blow now, Jean. How far did you say it was to the place where our people are to meet? Eight miles we have come for. In this darkness we could make it faster without the dogs, but they are carrying a hundred pound of tipi, guns, and food. He urged the dogs on in the open space. Another hour, and they had come again to the edge of forest. Here they rested. There will be some there ahead of us, said Jean. Reno and the other runners will have had more than four hours. They will have visited a dozen cabins on the trap-lines. Pierre reached old Cascusoun and his swamp-crease in two hours. They loved Josephine next to their Manitou. The Indians will be there to a man. Philip did not reply, but his heart beat like a drum at the sureness and triumph that thrilled in the half-breed's voice. As they went on he lost account of time in the flashing pictures that came to him of the other actors in this night's drama. Of those half-dozen Paul reveres of the wilderness speeding like shadows through the mystery of the night, of the thin-waisted, brown-faced men who were spreading the fires of vengeance from cabin to cabin and from tipi to tipi. Through his lips there came a sobbing breath of exultation, of joy. He did not tire. At times he wanted to run on ahead of Jean and the dogs, yet he saw that no such desire seized upon Jean. Steadily, with a precision that was almost uncanny, the half-breed led the way. He did not hurry. He did not hesitate. He was like a strange spirit of the night itself, a voiceless and noiseless shadow ahead, an automaton of flesh and blood that had become more than human to Philip. In this man's guidance he lost his fear for Josephine. At last they came to the foot of a rock ridge. Up this the dogs toiled, with Jean pulling at the lead trace. They came to the top, there they stopped, and standing like a hewn statue, his voice breaking in a panting cry, Jean, Jean-Croissette, pointed down into the plain below.  It was a campfire. It is a fire at the forks, spoke Jean above the wind, mon jus-mâcher, is it not something to have friends like that? He led the way a short distance along the face of the ridge, and then they plunged down the valley of deeper gloom. The forest was thick and low, and Philip guessed that they were passing through a swamp. When they came out of it the fire was almost in their faces. The howling of dogs greeted them. As they dashed into the light half a dozen men had risen and were facing them, their rifles in the crooks of their arms. From out of the six there strode a tall, thin, smooth-shaven man toward them, and from Jean's lips there fell words which he tried to smother. Mother of Heaven! It is Father George the Missioner from Baldneck, he gasped. In another moment the Missioner was ringing the half-breed's mittened hand. He was a man of sixty. His face was of cadaverous thinness, and there was a feverish glow in his eyes. Jean Cressette! he cried. I was at La Juse when Pierre came with the word. Is it true? Has the purest soul in all this world been stolen by those godless men at Thoreau's? I cannot believe it. But if it is so, I have come to fight. It is true, Father, replied Jean. They have stolen her as the wolves of white men stole Red Fawn from her father's tepee three years ago and to-morrow. The vengeance of the Lord will descend upon them. The Missioner, and this, Jean, your friend, is M. Philip d'Arcambel, the husband of Josephine, said Jean. As the Missioner gripped Philip's hand, his thin fingers had in them the strength of steel. La Jude told me she had found her man. He said, May God bless you, my son! It was I, Father George, who baptised her years and years ago. For me she made a darehouse a-home, from the time she was old enough to put her tiny arms about my neck, and lisped my name. I was on my way to see you, when night overtook me at La Jude's. I am not a fighting man, my son. God does not love their kind. But it was Christ who flung the money-changers from the temple. And so I have come to fight. The others were close about them now, and Jean was telling of the ambush in the forest. Purple veins grew in the Missioner's forehead as he listened. There were no questions on the lips of the others. With dark, tense faces and eyes that burned with slumbering fires they heard Jean. There were the grim and silent futels, father and son from the caribou swamp, tall and ghost-like in the fire-light, more like spectre than man, was Janesse, a white beard falling almost to his waist, a thick martin skin cap shrouding his head, and armed with a long-billed smooth-bore that shot powder and ball. From the fox-grounds out on the barren had come mad Joe Horne, behind eight huge male-mutes that pulled with the strength of oxen. And with the Missioner had come La Jude, the Frenchman, who could send a bullet through the head of a running fox at two hundred yards, four times out of five. Cascassoun and his crease had not arrived, and Philip knew that Jean was disappointed. I heard three days ago of a big caribou herd to the west, said Janesse, in answer to the Halfbreed's inquiry. It may be they have gone for meat. They drew close about the fire, and the futels dragged in a fresh birch-log for the flames. Mad Joe Horne, with hair and beard as red as copper, hummed the storm-song under his breath. Janesse stood with his back to the heat, facing darkness in the west. He raised a hand, and all listened. For sixty years his world had been bounded by the four walls of the forests. It was said that he could hear the padded footfall of the links. And so all listened, while the hand was raised, though they heard nothing but the wailing of the wind, the crackling of the fire, and the unrest of the dogs in the timber behind them. For many seconds Janesse did not lower his hand. And then, still unheard by others, there came slowly out of the gloom, a file of dusky-faced, silent, shadowy forms. They were within the circle of light before Jan or his companions had moved. And at their head was Cascasun, the Cree, tall, slender as a spruce sapling, and with eyes that went searchingly from face to face, with the uneasy glitter of an ear-mines.  There were seven. Six of them carried rifles. In the hand of the seventh was a shotgun. After this, one by one and two by two, there were added others to the circle of waiting men about the fire. By two o'clock there were twenty. They came faster after that, with Bernard from the south came Reno, who had gone to the end of his run. From the east, west, and south, they continued to come. But from out of the north-west there led no trail. Off there was Thoreau's place. Pack after pack was added to the dogs in the timber. Their voices rose above and drowned all other sound. Teams strained at their leashes to get at the throats of rival teams, and from the black shelter in which they were fastened came a continuous snarling and gnashing of fangs. Over the coals of a smaller fire simmered two huge pots of coffee from which each arrival helped himself, and on long spits over the larger fire were dripping chunks of moose and caribou meat from which they cut off their own helpings. In the early dawn there were forty who gathered about Father George to listen to the final words he had to say. He raised his hands, then he bowed his head, and there was a strange silence. Words of prayer fell solemnly from his lips. Partly it was in Cree, partly in French, and when he had finished a deep breath ran through the ranks of those who listened to him. Then he told them, beginning with Cree, in the three languages of the wilderness, that they were there to be led that day by Jean Jacques Cressette and Philippe d'Arcambol, the husband of Josephine. Two of the Indians were to remain behind to care for the camp and dogs. Beyond that they needed no instructions. They were ready, and Jean was about to give the word to start when there was an interruption. Out of the forest and into their midst came a figure, the form of a man who rose above them like a giant, and whose voice as it bellowed Jean's name had in it the wrath of thunder. It was the master of Adair. For a moment Jean Adair stood like an avenging demon in the midst of the startled faces of the forest men. His shaggy hair blew out from under his gray-links cap. His eyes were red and glaring with the lights of the hunting wolf. His deep chest rose and fell in panting breaths. Then he saw Jean and Philippe side by side. Towards them he came, as if to crush them, and Philippe sprang toward him so that he was ahead of Jean. Adair stopped. The wind rattled in his throat. "'Und you came without me?' His voice was a rumble, deep, tense, like the muttering vibration before an explosion. Philippe's hands gripped his arms, and those arms were as hard as oak. In one hand Adair held a gun. His other fist was knotted heavy. "'Yes, Montpère, we came without you,' said Philippe. "'It is terrible. We did not want you, too, to suffer. We did not want you to know, until it was all over, and Josephine was back in your arms. We thought it would drive her mother mad, and you, Montpère, we wanted to save you.' Adair's face relaxed. His arm dropped. His red eyes shifted to the faces about him, and he said as he looked. It was Breux. He said that Jew and Josephine were not at his cabin. He came to tell Mignol the child was so much better. I cornered Métousine, and he told me, I have been coming fast, running.' He drew in a deep breath. Then suddenly he became like a tiger. He sprang among them, and threw up his great arms. His voice rose more than human, fierce and savage, above the growing tumult of the dogs and the wailing of the wind. Ye are with me, men.' A rumble of voice answered him. Then come. He had seen that they were ready, and he strode on ahead of them. He was leader now, and Philip saw Father George close at his side, clutching his arm, talking. In Jean's face there was a great fear. He spoke low to Philip. If he meets Lang, if he fights face to face with Thoreau, or if they call upon us to Parley, all is lost for sure. For the love of God, hold your fire for those too. We must kill them. If a Parley is granted, they will come to us.  No truce will be granted, cried Philip. As if John Adair himself had heard his words, he stopped and faced those behind him. They were in the shelter of the forest. In the great gloom of dawn they were only a sea of shifting shadows. Men, there is to be no mercy this day, he said, and his voice rumbled, like an echo through the aisles of the forest. We are not on the trail of men, but of beasts and murderers. The law that is three hundred miles away has let them live in our midst. It has let them kill. It has said nothing when they stole red fawn from her father's tipi and ravaged her to death.  We are our own law. In these forests we are masters, and yet, with this brothel at our doors we are not safe. Our wives and daughters are within the reach of monsters. Today it is my daughter, her husband's wife. Tomorrow it may be yours. There can be no mercy. We must kill, kill, and burn. Am I right, men? This time it was not a murmur, but a low thunder of voice that answered. Philip and Jean forged ahead to his side. Shoulder to shoulder they led the way. From the camp at the forks it was eighteen miles to the devil's nest, where hung on the edge of a chasm the log buildings that sheltered Lang and his crew. To these men of the trails those eighteen miles meant nothing. White-bearded, Janessa's trap-line was sixty miles long, and he covered it in two days, stripping his pelts as he went. Reno had run sixty miles with his dogs between daybreak and dusk, and mad Joe Horne had come down one hundred and eighty miles from the north in five days. These were not records, they were the average. Those who followed the master of Adair were thin-legged, small-footed, narrow-waisted, but their sinews were like rawhide, and their lungs filled chests that were deep and wide. With the break of day the wind fell, the sky cleared, and it grew colder. In silence John Adair, Jean, and Philip broke the trail. In silence followed close behind them the missioner with his smoothbore. In silence followed the French and the half-breeds and Crees. Now and then came the sharp clink of steel as a rifle-barrel struck rifle-barrel. Voices were low, monosyllabic, breaths were deep, the throbbing of hearts like that of engines. Here were friends who were meeting for the first time in months, yet they spoke no word of each other. Of the fortunes of the line, of wives or children, there was but one thought in their brains, pumping the blood through their veins, setting their dark faces and lines of iron, filling their eyes with the feverish fires of excitement. Yet this excitement, the tremendous passion that was working in them, found no vent in wild outcry. It was like the deadly undertow of the maelstroms in the spring floods. It was there, unseen, silent as death, and this thought blinding them to all else, insensating them to all emotions but that of vengeance, was thought of Josephine. John Adair himself seemed possessed of strange madness. He said no word to John or Philip. Hour after hour he strode ahead, until it seemed that tendons must snap, and legs give way under the strain. Not once did he stop for rest, until hours later they reached the summit of a ridge, and he pointed far off into the plain below. They could see the smoke rising up from the devil's nest. A breath like a great sigh swept through the band. And now, silently, there slipped away behind a rock, Caskissoun and his Indians. From under his blanket-coat the chief brought forth the thing that had bulged there, a tom-tom. Philip and the waiting men heard then the lo-todom-todom-todom of it. As Caskissoun turned his face first to the east and then to the west, north and then south, calling upon Iskutuwapu to come out of the valley of silent men, and lead them to triumph. The waiting men were silent, deadly silent as they listened, for they knew the lo-todom. This was the call to death. Their hands gripped harder at the barrels of their guns. And when Caskissoun and his braves came from behind the rock they faced the smoke above the devil's nest, wiped their eyes to see more clearly, and followed John Adair down into the plain. And to other ears than our own the medicine-drum had carried the song of death, down in the thick spruce of the plain a man on the trail of Akerabu had heard. He looked up, and on the cap of the ridge he saw. He was old in the ways and the unwritten laws of the north, and like a deer he turned and sped back, unseen in the direction of the devil's nest, and as the adventures came down into the plain, Caskissoun chanted in a low monotone, Our fathers come, come out of the valley, guide us, for today we fight, and the winds whisper of death. And those who heard


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So if you're someone who is not afraid of making mistakes and takes responsibility for them, that's a sign of a great person. Number three, you're compassionate and act with good intentions. Being compassionate and acting with good intentions are sure signs that you're a better person than you think. According to psychologist and author Rick Hansen, one of the ways you can find out if you are a good person is by reflecting on your thoughts, actions, and words. If you constantly find yourself leaning towards goodness, such as supporting people with positivity rather than focusing on the negatives, being more forgiving with someone who did something wrong, or showing compassion for those going through hard times, then that's a sure-fire sign that you're a better person than you think. Number four, you make time for others, but also yourself. Willingly making time for yourself and others is a sign of great character. Considering other people's wants, needs, and opinions is a valuable thing and studies have shown that helping others can have a positive effect on people's psychological and physical health. As a result, the feelings of accomplishment and satisfaction you get from helping someone can be very rewarding. At the same time, it's important to make time for your own wants and needs. Believe it or not, treating yourself with the same kindness that you show others can make you a better person. You might ask yourself, how does making time for myself make me a better person if I'm not helping others? Isn't that kind of counterintuitive? Well, when you take time for yourself, you end up feeling better, and when you feel good about yourself, it can directly impact how you interact and help others too. You're also setting a great example for self-care.  Describing a good person is very relative and most people will have different opinions on what it means. Therefore, not fitting the description of a good person by someone else's definition doesn't necessarily make you a bad person. According to Dr. Paul de Pompo, a psychologist and author based in California, categorizing your actions into good or bad might lead you to feel worse about yourself, especially when you feel like you did something wrong. Instead, Dr. de Pompo suggests that you think of three to five characteristics that you think a good person has, and so you have more than half of these fit you. That way, your measure of a good person will be from your own interpretation of what good entails. All in all, being a good person can be very personal and relative to how you perceive it. These points serve as a reminder to those that might be struggling to help you see that you're a better person than you think, and that you're stronger than you feel right now. While this is not a definitive guide to being good or a great person, we hope that you enjoyed watching this video and learned something valuable. If you were able to relate to any of these signs, then chances are you're a great person, and you should feel confident and proud. How would you describe a good person? Do some of these traits reflect your own personality? Leave us a comment below. We hope you enjoyed watching and would like to thank you for the love and support you give to our channel. If you liked this video, please give it a thumbs up and consider subscribing. As always, thanks so much for watching and we'll see you next time.