They know that sometimes they really don't really don't. And that's why they get in trouble.  For sure. You see all the different ones that go viral with one be this one pedestrian who gets pulled over and tell this nigga the law, right? And he be like, oh, hold on, really?  Yeah, that's the fact. They're not going to college for law. That's the fact. But it's over. As soon as you call your supervisor, it's over. So you don't call your supervisor. You was in trouble. You think we as a culture take high speeds. And we do all that. We take it all because what is a lack of knowledge in niggas be panicking license, like a license, guns in the car, merchandise in the car, smoking weed, you know, they. I mean, is it the same now when they smell weed in the car? Yeah, I think they can still do that. Yeah. Niggas cannot smoke in the car with me. You understand me? You see the weed or protection, nigga, what you want? Yes. Look how I tell niggas all the time, what you trying to do? Yeah, we're not going to do that. Yeah, man. Oh, momma, you ready to not have no strap because you want to get high.  You can smoke outside, nigga. We need strap. Yeah, for real. I put on cologne today, nigga. What are you talking about? I'm not trying to walk up there. I was running with Sim that other day.  This nigga blowing a hole. I like, I got, you know, I got me some good cologne on. Yeah. I don't know what I'm about to, you know, chirp into. Oh, momma.  This nigga done blown two. So you walking and smelling like straight niggas. Straight niggas. Like, I'm trying to dance this perception. You know what I mean? Like, nigga, I'm not high. Is that a turn off, Lil' Kayla? I mean, I don't really smoke, so. Is it a turn off of a nigga walking and smelling like straight niggas? No. Yeah, you don't go. That's how you are. Oh, this nigga got peas. He must be the plan. Exactly. So they don't really bother me because it's like that's that's all. I know growing up like everybody smokes. So they don't really bother me. But stepping in, but all my stepping into, like, you know, trying to get away from these stigmas, I mean, of how they perceive us, you know, in general, like, you know, I dress how dressed what I may be, but I'm always looked at and designated as a rapper, right? So regardless of it, but now. But you can look like a rapper no matter how you dress at this point because I'd I'd be looking like how I look and every time I take a picture with somebody to wipe you. Oh, my God, are you a rapper? Exactly. But that's what I'm a macker. Yeah.   But then it just adds on to that other layer.  It makes them and then you try to have an intellectual, you know, conversation with them and they're like, yeah, yeah, whatever. And like, then you're not, you know, you're not. You're not welcomed. You're not welcome. Now, we're welcome regardless. Exactly. No, no, no, we get. No, we welcome. I see what you say. We welcome. You know, because we cool. Why do you feel like we welcome a little bit?  Half the people who welcome them us, we making the money. So of course they go welcome us.  Yeah. Like, you get what I'm saying? And you feel that way as a woman. Yeah. So I mean, you just got to know how to play. You just got to know how to play the game. Oh, mama. Yeah. Yeah, I know you. You walking in them rooms now. Yeah. You understand me, little Cali. Give a round of applause to little Cali in the building. You understand me? It's the Cali kickback. You understand me? You know, I got my play upon the Jamal True Love and this thing. Special guest. You understand me? San Francisco, fine. You understand me Bay Area's on. You feel me? The whole soil love her. The whole Bay Area behind her. Man. Little Cali, man. You understand me? One more time. One more time, man. How you feeling, girl? You just got signed? Record deal? I still feel regular, though. You still feel. You still just saying that, huh? I'm just a regular person. How you still feel regular? Bus down, change. You understand me? Hey. Signing deals.   Like, when I do shows, I go home and lay down. I'm going to sleep. Like, you get what I'm saying? I stay in the house every day. If I don't have nothing to do, I'm in the house laying down on my phone. And you know what? I think that's what attracts a lot of people to you, because you are organic into who you are. You're not trying to be something else and so forth. You know what I mean? It's not a certain type of outfit you've got to wear in order to show up and do a show and shit like that. And you were late, so people were late with you for show. Sometimes I'll be feeling bad because people think on the outside, looking in, they think I'm just this lit-ass person. I barely even talk. I'm quiet life. I don't know you. I really ain't going to talk to you or say too much to you.  I think I'm just a little antisocial. I really don't like to talk to people. People being the club. If I go out to the club, everybody just want to talk. And I'll just be like, I'm not in the mood to talk. But I don't know how to tell them. I don't really feel like talking. I'll just be. I realized something was wrong with me until I got to a certain level in my career. And people was asking me, what's wrong with me? Because I walk in, and you know, for the environment we come from, if you don't know somebody, you don't speak to them. I don't know that nigga, so I'm keeping it lit. You feel me?  But do she like us? It's like a switch that I have. Like, I turn Lil' Kayla on and I turn her off. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like when I'm in a studio at shows, like I'm a damn near like a whole different person. Like, versus when I'm just regular chilling with the team, with my friends, like, it's different. What do you think the, you know, the anti-socialness comes from? I don't know, I just always been in the house. Nah, you been outside Lil' Kayla. I mean, when I was younger, like, yeah, like I used to fight and stuff like that. But like, as I got older and like got my own house and like, I don't know, I just started standing out. I done did everything. When I was 15 years old, I'm getting booked for every club in the Bay Area. Me and my friends not even old enough to be in here. I'm at school. I'm the most popular person in my school. People, you know what I'm saying? I'm the most popular person in jail when I'm in there. Like, you get what I'm saying? So it's like- You like the damn, you like most of it. But to me, it's still surprising to me, like, damn, like, I'm really this person. Like, I never expected none of this. Like, when I first start rapping, it was just like a little fun. We had a free studio. Thought of being on, me and my friends fighting. This, these bitches real quick. And it started, like, I don't know. It just started happening. I didn't know what was going on. And you say you only 24. So you only 24.   So it's like, I'm just so born. Before 25. Like when we just had a show in Vegas on Sunday and my friend came, but everybody was trying to come. Like my family, friends, they like, what we going to Vegas? So my one friend come, we get there. I go straight to sleep after the flight. Cause we don't got to beat her till one in the morning. She like, if I don't know, you was gonna be just dry. I would have never came. Like I could have stayed home. I said, bitch, what you want to do? Walk the strip. Right.   But I'm not. She not that type of girl. But I'm, I'm. Like y'all wasn't out there. I was like, come on. Let's walk the strip. Like I caught, like somebody had come to my house. We had just, I sit there and silent. Cause I don't turn the TV on or anything. Like so I'm getting ready to go to sleep. You don't think you traumatized on some hood shit?  I don't think it's that. I think I'm just tired of not, not tired of people, but I don't like everybody don't deserve a conversation. That's a good point too. That's definitely, that's definitely true.  Sunnydale project.  Me coming up, you know, I was very anti-social as well.  You grow up with that, you know, that tough exterior and so forth. So I can imagine, you know, these unknown traumas that, you know, that, that we have, that ultimately we have to bring, we have to let go coming into an industry and so forth, such as, you know, being an artist, being an actor and so forth and so on. How do you think that, you know, you're transitioning or have you transitioned yet to get outside of that mindset, to be a little bit more vulnerable, you know, and stuff like that, being in LA and being, you know, on your tour and stuff like that? Honestly, I don't think I ever will. But that's how I feel right now. Like, I don't know. Like, I'm just, I'm dry.  Like, I'm like, this tour, like I'm just thinking how I'm gonna make it. Like, you know what I'm saying? I know everybody go wanna party, party, party. I wanna go to sleep. I wanna cut the lights off. I won't complete silence. I don't even wanna hear no noise if it ain't coming from me or my phone. Yeah, I feel you. I'm like that too.  I'll be like, man.   That's what I was trying to tell you.  Cause I realized I'm traumatized. Everybody be having a good time. Yay! And not be in the club, like, looking at everybody like. Nah, I'll be saying like that. Cause I feel like when they get loud and everybody having fun, that triggers me like something to happen. Yeah, I had tweeted on Twitter one time, like, sometimes when I be in the club, I just be thinking like, if it go down in this bitch house, we off into make it out that door. You see what I'm saying? But when I do go party, like, I do have a good time. Like, I really don't be worried about too much because nine times out of 10, when I am going to party, I got all my niggas with me. I got probably like one or two security guards with me. So, and then it's like half the time when I'm going out, it's a show or something. So it's all about me. Everybody who come in here, come in and see me and show love to me. And a long, a long time I didn't go outside because I just felt like a lot of people didn't like me. I felt like niggas wanted to do something to me. Niggas wanted to rob me. Like, so I didn't really go outside but when I first started going outside, it was when we went to Patrick Brunch.  I had a ball.  Like, I went to halftime for the first time. And Oakland. Yeah. We went to cry, baby. That was my first time there.  And I got so much love, it made me want to start going outside like, damn. Like the love, all the way, the hate. You overcoming the trauma because you enjoy yourself so much.   Like, you know, I know being from San Diego and like San Diego niggas like typically we talked about this, I think niggas in general. We talking our language too much though. For the people that's not familiar with the Bay Area, especially San Francisco.  The scenery, the nice part. But a lot of people, that's not even from Northern California, you know what I'm saying? They don't understand San Francisco. Got a lot of projects and it's really spicy. We got the biggest project in San Francisco. We got the biggest project in Northern California. And we got 26 projects in the city in general. See, and I got grown and I started realizing that. I did, cause I only went from Oakland to Antioch. I never crossed the bridge. See, I never left either because you got a trip. Our school is right up the street. We just gotta walk two blocks. You feel me? We got our corner store. We got a studio. We got an exercise room. We got a computer room.  Like, we really didn't have to go nowhere. We got the Boys and Girls Club. We had Gaza. It was like a girls group. They taking us on field trips. We didn't really need to go nowhere. Yeah, I got grown and realized people in San Francisco feel how people in Oakland feel like. People in Oakland feel like they don't gotta leave Oakland. Like, nigga, I'm from the town. I don't gotta go nowhere. We got everything. I start crossing that bridge.  Third Street, like E-1-4.  They don't need nothing. They don't gotta really cross the bridge. But I'm like, damn. Oakland as a community kind of traveled within Oakland. San Francisco as a community, right? You traveled within only your area or where you from. So like what she was saying, like, Sunnydale, if you're from Sunnydale, you're typically not going to Hunter's Point. You're not going to make it. Not even saying, it's like to a point we couldn't go. Yeah, you can go. Like, I remember. Going to the regular San Francisco is like, you don't even feel comfortable going there because you walking and you instantly looked at as a criminal, you instantly looked at as somebody that's up to no good.  Back to what we were talking about, not having a license, you go ahead and go try to go to that mall downtown. You're going to get ganged over. You know what I mean? So it's really segregated. It is. It's San Francisco. I went to Juvenile hard one time. And like, you know, every time you went to Juvenile, they put you in a program. So they put us in an ERC program on Third Street. We told them, me and my cousin, we told them we cannot go to this program. They was like, no, I say they pick you up from school, take you to the program, drop you off at home, blah, blah, blah. We still telling them like, oh, we don't really feel comfortable at this program.  You feel me? So we went to, we didn't even last a week at the program. We go to the program. They picking us up, fill me program. Boom. One day, two bitches that we beefing with come into the program. You feel me?  Feel me? I don't know how they got in. So me and my cousin, we know it's about to go down, but it didn't go down. So we calling all our people. When I tell you, nobody answered the phone. Like not, we calling our mamas, aunties, friends, sisters, cousins, nobody's picking up the phone. Yeah.  It's a Friday. Yes, they're my sister holder. We sitting there, next to you know it.  Damn. And then we like, we told y'all. We never could have sued them for real. Cause like we told y'all, we couldn't go there. And y'all still sent us there. That like, that's the other side. Like we, I don't even know how I have to be started with these bitches, but it's like, our niggas beefing with they hood.  We beefing with the bitches. Like. Oh, so that's how that worked. Cause I always go ask you, how do women find they ops?   And then it's like the schools were segregated. Like Viz is like a Sunnydale school, but tower people come into the school too. You know what I'm saying? And we got MLK, that's where people find a point. Towers is another project. Sorry. Is that a project? It's right across the street from us. And we beefing. A block away from Sunnydale. Yeah, I was, well, that's one thing I learned about even growing up in Antioch. Bro, I didn't realize San Francisco motherfuckers, cause there's a lot of people transition from everywhere in the Bay Area to Antioch. And then it was motherfuckers from the towers and this motherfucker from, and I don't even know why these niggas be here cause we not from San Francisco. See, everybody went to Antioch, they had a little bit of money. Yeah. No, the niggas on section eight.  Oh, mom. I know some people though, they got that check and they mama's got the little house and you know, they putting them in the schools out there. It matters, it matters what.   Exactly. That's why I was, that's why it was bad.  You know what I'm saying? It's like, nigga, we know Oakland.  Post me from San Francisco.  But it's niggas from different projects in one city and they didn't even know that was, so they funkin' out the way.  I mean a lot of people, you know, because of the perception of San Francisco, if you don't know San Francisco, I actually like really, you know, been in San Francisco like that. See, I go to Oakland to get away with being black, right? But if you black coming to San Francisco, you're not going to the projects. But that's what people is. So when you go to San Francisco, you go into the same places that we trying to, trying to go to and get away from, you know, you know, but try to get away with going out without being pulled over or being spotted by somebody else. Now I mean from, you know, a op or something like that because we looking at ourselves the same way as the police looking at us. So if I'm out and I see somebody else black in San Francisco, this nigga is from another hood if I don't know him. You know what I mean? Do I got problems with this nigga?    Exactly. And that's why a lot of times, like why I kind of was saying, she just started getting out because her mind said, like I'm not about to be outside.  Now compared to like, you know, being that, being like in the town is kind of like blended in a little bit more.    Like when I was in a studio, I was in there with a fat trail from Washington, D.C. And I'm just talkin' like, just how I regularly talk and he like kept stoppin' me like, what that mean? What that mean? Like what? And I'm like, oh, that mean, and it's like them like, we really talk different than other people. Like to the point they really don't understand what we're saying.  I had to start changing, I had to start changing my vocabulary when I'm tellin' my jokes because my joke is funny, but they don't catch it because I'm sayin' a niggaboocy. And they not laughin' in certain cities cause they like niggaboocy. Like is he talkin' bout a boocy?   Where it's like, man, people don't know what we talkin' bout, bruh. That'd be crazy, just like, damn, we got our own low.  But I feel like that's why the whole, I feel like that's why the whole barrier really rooting for you and everybody behind you because you really like one of the few female artists to really represent our culture that we relate to. You know what I'm sayin'? And you know, like, I feel like all these other cities got these major artists that we can, we understand they culture because they made it out. So like Detroit got a cash dog, you feel me, these other cities, Atlanta, what's the mulatto or, you feel me, Lotto, like they be havin' females makin' the stallion that represent their culture. But see my whole thing is like, I really come from the projects. I got my whole hood behind me. If nobody else behind me, my hood, my niggas, they comin', shawls, they're supportin'. You feel me? A lot of bitches don't got that.  They don't got that for real. Facts. They don't got no big homies. They don't got niggas in jail callin' they phone. They don't have this. We have mutual friends, Lil' Katelyn. I don't have no mutual friends with these other bitches. No. I'm just sayin', though, like, you know.   And growin' up actually havin' a gun at the age of 12. You know what I mean? You know, just to be cool, right?  Or bein' subjectin', you know, subjectin' to havin' to sell drugs cause your parents don't crack.  But I feel like in the other cities and states that I feel like they be, you know, they make it, not make it out, but, you know, they get behind it more because I feel like the Bay Area is so diverse where it's like, you know, it's so many people that grew up in the Bay Area but everybody got, I didn't realize it was so many different type of Bay Areas. Meaning like, you, I don't wanna explain what, just sayin' somebody name, but like. I feel like I know what you're sayin', it's like you got the skateboarders. For instance, you got the K-Wonnie's. You got the, you got the hers. Like, all of them, they from the Bay. You feel me? I mean, I don't really wanna get into that because that's why I don't be wanna say the wrong thing. I don't wanna say the wrong thing too because I love everybody.  What are y'all doing for the Bay Area? 100%. Because me, I know my goal for the Bay Area.  Like, damn, she doin' her thing. Like I done had niggas that I really genuinely thought didn't like me.   Like I gotta give y'all props right now.   And they make me feel like, okay. Cause like from my lens is you don't only female artists that we didn't literally seen grow. Like for the most part, you know, like, I'm gonna just be honest out of the Bay Area when it comes to like artists. Like I discover a lot of people like, oh I didn't even know they was from the Bay Area. Like I seen them on TV first. And it's like you the only artist where I'm literally like, we didn't see, you been poppin' in the Bay for like seven years now.   And I think that's why I feel like your support is different from anybody else because it's like we really watch you grow. You feelin' me?  And then that's when it comes down to what you was saying about, you know, these different Bay areas, right? Because you have motherfuckers who feel like they are from this part of the Bay, whether it's, you know, Vallejo, Oakland, Richmond, San Francisco. We segregate, you know, we kinda segregate it in general, but now, when it comes down to it, the Bay area is the Bay area within these seven counties in general, in order for us to, you know, compete in an entertainment market, we have to be together because we're goin' up against Los Angeles as a county that has all these cities, but then all these cities, they're supporting each other because they are this county, they are LA. They reppin' LA. And LA goes so far, sometimes they repp the West Coast. They be like, West Coast. The Bay area be like, no, I'm from the city. All it's like, bruh. And Atlanta, it's a lot of people that's from out of Atlanta that made out of Atlanta, they not even from Atlanta. You go to the city of Atlanta, they be like, it's really like six niggas really from Atlanta. Everybody else from the Oscars. But we don't know. But in order to identify, exactly, we don't know. But then that's why I say, you know, like, you know, in the Bay, we have our own, you know, kind of economy when it comes down to, you know, popularity and so forth, right?  And then go somewhere else. That motherfucker might not even know who this person is. Thanks. You know, we are music. For instance, you go to almost every club. We always hear our music, but a lot of that music is from 20 years ago, 15 years ago that we're still keeping live and they still making money on it. Like I'm traveling state to state. Like Cleveland, Atlanta, hell of states and all I got to do is say, you never heard a song that made kids' pockets hurt. They be like, that's you. Like that's no way that's you. And I'm like, yeah, like that's my song.  They don't even know who I am. I go out there, they wouldn't have a clue. Why is that? Why do you think that happens? I don't know. Like the music going up, but they don't know who I am. Like I don't know how to explain it. I think a lot of it is, you know, a platform, right? And a platform based in an organization, you know, when it comes to, you know, who controls, you know, the social capital, right?   Let me go ahead and put Lil' Kayla on this platform or Segway Lil' Kayla over to this relationship over here to make sure that we could break her face.   I mean, but I do, so you know.  I sometime, but when I be naked, I feel uncomfortable. You feel like this is comfort for me. That's how I feel. That's what I'm saying, like you covered up today. I'm saying these female rappers, they never covered up. Yes, you know, I can't say.  Like I swear to God, one time I had a birthday photo shoot and I was like naked and stuff. I turned 22, I was in the tub, all type of things. You know, it was cute to me. I felt like he's about to go up, he's cute. I posted it, nobody from my hood reposted me and told me happy birthday. Wow.  I'm like, none of y'all posting me for my birthday. They like, we weren't posting them pictures on our page. Yeah. Like you get on like, I can't, I got like, I can't do it. I just like hearing every now and then, you know, I put on a little broad top, little shorts, little, you know, but I can't do that all the time. But you know what I think, I think again, that's why a lot of people resonate with you.  And then, but every, all these girls, even guys, you know, black, white, peppermint, striped, LGBTQ, ING, I don't care what it was. They was all right there, they knew every word, right?   And they resonate, they resonate to the music, they resonate to the energy.  And of course for yourself as well, you know, moving forward. Yeah, I just be, I'll be always passionate about like, man, the Bay need feeling me like, I'll be feeling like, you know, the world haven't seen a lot of real authentic Bay females. You feel me? And then it's like, for me, it's like, no, no, listen, I'm about to back you up on that because it's like, sometimes I, you don't gotta always pay me to perform.  And boom, I'm turning the whole club up. That counts because I feel like I lose all my respect.  Versus, boom, I blow up, boom, I got my big house, I got everything I want. And I'm still in the Bay doing turkey drives, Christmas giveaways, back to school giveaways. You always gonna be connected.  Yeah, just showing my face sometimes, every now and then. Showing like, I'm really from here, I got my respect here. This is where I grew up. Everybody knows me. It's not to a point where we ain't never seen Lil' Kayla at the, you feel me? Nah, y'all seen me? Y'all know me? Like, you feel what I'm saying? I ain't never be at the niggas. You did crime in the Bay. You and Jen, you're solidified. Yeah. We need somebody from the Bay to actually scan, sew some weed, we need that person to make it. Yeah. Yeah.    Like, you know what I'm saying? Yeah, like, so it just be like.  That's amazing. Yeah, like. A female be fuckin' with niggas. I had a mouth on me. Like, I said whatever I wanted to say. Like, you feel me? And now, I policed my mouth. I gotta watch what I understand. Yeah, you gotta be mindful of the things you said.  You bring the real Bay five out of the way. No, listen, listen, listen, listen.    Like, they crucified me for that. Because they on the outside looking in in different states and not knowing that's how we talk.  But that's not necessarily an insult to the Mexicans.   But they crucified me for that. And I like, it took me a long time to like, make amends with my Mexican friends because they was on me.   I didn't even want to see it, but when I got on there, it made me feel a little better cause I did have like a lot of people defending me and like, nah, it wasn't like that. Like we united in a bay. Like Mexicans and black, like, I'm like nigga, have my friends like us. Like, yeah, like, so it was like, I was like, damn, like they taking it the wrong way.   They not knowing cause they, a lot of my fans are not from the bay.  They show. And when Lewis say they act like us, he means they act bay area in general. No, I'm just, no, they act black. They act black, bro. All right, but listen to this. There's no necessarily acting black when you grow up a certain way, right? I'm here. Yeah, exactly. The Asians and the Latinos grow up with us and they use the word nigga. And we understand why they use the word nigga. But now, the population of the world or the states will never understand that. So that's what I mean that they act like us because they grew up with us. You know, talkin' the same way in the same type of environments and so forth and so on. So put it like this, I'm glad you said that too on this episode, cause I just had an episode I did with Keisha E, shout out Keisha E. She from Detroit, I was trying to explain the difference between like niggas and African-Americans.  It's some Samoan niggas. It's an Asian nigga, like the niggas like, it's legit. Like we all dressed like from Asians, Mexicans, like Samoans, everybody dressed alike.   How do you feel about the Bad Girls West, that thing that they doin' on Zeus Network? I don't even wanna speak on that.  Nah, I ain't gonna speak on it. Cause it hits a lot. For real? But let's say, let's access, would you, do you ever see yourself potentially being on the Bad Girls West? No, okay, that's not why. Cause I bein' Jew.  Do you think that this, You just scared me doin' that.  All right, I'm sorry to exit the question.  I'm too real for that. But do you think that a lot of your feelings on that stem from, you know, like your old beefs and stuff like that? Of course, of course.  But they letting them choke him on the show. But I don't got time for no security and all that. You feel me? If we about to do it, we gon' do it. Fact! And we gon' do it. And we not hangin' out after we choke him in front. Come on.    I'm ready to call all my folks up. We gon' really get it going. I don't niggas can't. So I can't. So I can't. Yeah, you can't commercially phone. Yeah, I don't know how to play, I don't know how to play like that. Yeah, play like that. I don't, I, mm-mm.  The world needs to hear this. For real. So yeah, I can't do it. Commercial phone gon' get it. I can't do it. So another question, right? So I know we have, I think before we started rollin', you guys said that you used to bit, right?   They got bips on shins. I just tweeted that. I was on there like getting me some little. She still thinkin' about comin' out of retirement. I ordered me one. I'm gon' keep it real. Just in case I ever need it.  Like, you feel me, but I don't do none of that no more.   No, I said, I don't like scammers. Oh, you don't like scammers? Oh, yeah, yeah, scammers.  Like, that's the first Oakland nigga that I started fuckin' with and brought me to Oakland and got me familiar with Oakland.  You just want to be with your nigga, like, so I used to sit in the car, he do his little thing, we cashing, gon' get our money in. So when I start seeing him, I'm like, I'm in the mall, but you know, you can't go to the mall every day. Like, if you go, yo, they gon' start goin', so you hear me, you gotta try something else.  You gettin' assets. Yeah, like, you get what I'm sayin', so. This is bippin' for assets. You can hit for money, you can hit for, nigga, you can hit for brand new Chanel coats. You can hit for a Bible, like, man, I was looking for a Bible. Yeah, like, you can hit, you can come up on anything, like, you know what I'm sayin', you just never know what you could come up on, just bein' in the field, like, especially if you, like, I used to get up, I used to wake up at five o'clock in the morning. You couldn't have a job if you was that disciplined. You know what I'm sayin', it was like a job, like, I would get up at five in the morning and go in the field, the mall's not open til nine o'clock. You feelin' me, so, boom, hit the field for a minute, nine o'clock, I'm parked at the mall, soon as they open the door, we in there, out. Next mall, in there, out. Closing, we doin' it, mall's closed, what, nine, ten o'clock? We ain't even eatin' all day. So you goin' all through the bay, instead of just bein' in. All day, yes, we drivin' all the way to Tracy, Chico, like, we, L.A., like, yes, like, one night, we made $18,000 out of this one. We talkin' different, we talkin' different. No, I'm talkin' in the mall. And biffin', both of them, because you can't keep goin' to the same spots. You gettin' on, see, you gon' make it hot. So you gotta, you gotta every now and then, you gotta get a different route. You gotta find it. So what I'm sayin' though, when you talkin' about bein' in the field, you talkin' about slidein' to the mall, scammin'.   Yeah, like, we walkin' in there with no bags. That thing, we comin' in there to shop, we pullin' out garbage bags out of our family and just. You did that sober? Yeah.  I'll be too terrible.    And exactly what's for us to go to. I want some fielas. Exactly. I want the khakis. So some of the hits be easy, cause it's like. You got a big five. It's for me. Exactly.  I'll be like, no, I don't work no more. Like, you feel me? Like they used to be texting, like when I first got out of that, they used to be texting like, hey, can you get this? Can you get that?  So you gon' go get it and come sell it to them. For sure.  Exactly. Like for real. Exactly.  I don't have one of my buyers build me out. What? Yes. Call him. See if he, what he didn't put up the money to build me out.   What's more paranoid? Bippin. Bippin. Really? Maybe you gotta, I would think that you gotta, you gotta Bippin. Because Bippin, you gotta understand Bippin, you outside, you ducking in between cars, you got, what is it called? Like pedestrians, like just out, they looking at you, they calling the police on you. But motherfuckers Bippin, you all too though.  In your emotion. You know what I'm saying? You just mobbing. Bippin, it's like, It's like really hitting the house lit.  You jumping in somebody's window, you get what I'm saying?  So you in the window, like it is definitely more risky Bippin than hitting the store. Yeah. And then a lot of times motherfuckers that's Bippin, they got somebody, the risk factor, somebody's in a car with a gun, right? And we didn't see, you know, a Bipp turn to homicide. I was just about to say, I know people that didn't got killed Bippin. For sure. For sure. China, you know. Back up, that go back to the one with the high speeds. And I was about to say, I know people that died from high speeds too, from hitting. Yup, from hitting. Yeah. I know at least three people that didn't died from high speeds hitting. For sure. Well, we so happy that you know, you to turn the page in that life. Give a big round of applause for Kayla. Lil' Kayla changing our life. For the better. You know, for the better. But I'm still buying everything.  Like I didn't bought purses on a big car. You still supporting the community. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Just in a different way. Yeah. That's hella funny. The whole big one Lil' Kayla to make it hella big.  But you know, you know, another thing, and I gotta say this, right? You know, why Biffin turned into such a phenomenon in the Bay Area, right? Okay. My car is broken right now. And before you tell the story, I gotta update the people more about time, man. Oh, there's no car out there with a broken window. Yes. Wait, I'm like, He got Biffin in the back. Wait, I'm like, it's already people with windows broken out here.  This is the back of the car out here. All it takes is one second. I'm telling you. For sure. One second. You know what they, I gotta get the bit going. Milly, Milly, let me update the people. For the people that's not, or just tuning in, or you probably smoking a blend or something, whatever, you done rolled up, feel me, it came back.   You don't even gotta have nothing in your car.  That's what happened to my car.  And they just bit the little window, right? Wish the little window cost the most money. That's all you need. The little window is back order. You can't get your window for four months. You know what I mean? That's kind of what I'm dealing with. That's what's outside right there. Cause once you, if you see a something in a trunk, that's when you break the, and you go in. And I think people don't realize why people do it. But if it ain't nothing there, boom, we on to the next car.   Laptops and all type of valuable things. And then people feel me the locals.  And I will say, I know there's a lot of niggas in the bay that we know that got rich. I ain't gonna say super rich, a hundred thousand dollars rich, right? Hundred thousand. Two hundred and fifty thousand dollars rich off of a BIP, right? And then they talk about it.  And then it became almost an everyday hustle. And crack is dead now. So, you know, it's hard to, you know. That's really a bad thing. We not promoting this and we're proud of you niggas. But at the same time, we just, you know, update. This is what's going on. Yeah. This is what I wanted to say, right? Why BIP became such a phenomenon in the time that it has because when Gavin Newsom was mayor, right? He made breaking in the cars, like petty crimes that were felonies, like receiving stolen property, which was a felony, right? Breaking into a car, which was a felony. They changed the law and had it minimized to a misdemeanor. So that's why I'm over. He's like, shit, I could break into a car, or I could, you know, sell this stuff and get arrested for it and get off for it. Yeah. Cause that's why people stopped hitting house licks because house licks was to go to a high school and then I think they changed the law on it. Yes.  So people stopped hitting houses. Exactly. And niggas like ours, we gonna hit a car.  And Oakland, the Bay Area at this point.  Because we're not, we're not getting a lot of, no, listen, what I'm saying, we're not getting a lot of time, you know, for which is good, right? You shouldn't be getting, Is that a good thing? Yeah, you shouldn't, you should have been sentenced three years for four years in prison for breaking into somebody's car.  You like arrest these niggas. These niggas got me hot. I feel like that now. Maybe you breaking into my car. Niggas, you on the way to LA with no window now. Yeah. Cause niggas get this nigga a year at least. Listen, I was mad, I was mad as a motherfucker. But you know what? I come from the streets. I come from Hustle, you know what I'm saying? But when I came up, you know, you was a petty car thief, you know, bringing in somebody's car, trying to take somebody's radio. That was boosiest fuck, man.  That mean lame. You wasn't respected, you know what I mean? Now if you was, you know, robbing somebody's house, you know what I mean?   You know, if you was selling drugs, these were like the hustles.  Exactly. So a nigga wake up at five o'clock in the morning, breaking into 25 cars throughout the day and they done made out of them 25 cars that have made three bands. Yeah. Hard day at work, right? I'm just saying. I mean, but sometimes it'd be slow. And sometimes it'd be slow. It'd be that day, like, like. We got the kids watching. I think we leading, we misguiding to you.   Like you get what I'm saying? It's gonna be called life, living in firm experience, be ready, because I'm gonna need you.  I done been to jail, a nigga that played me before. I done fell out with my friend before. Like you get what I'm saying? Just to let them know, like what you going through is small. All my misery is pain. You know what I'm saying? Like you, you need to, we need more doctors. We need more, we don't need no more bippers. We don't need no more rappers. We don't, you know what I'm saying?  Who gonna be, who gonna be the dental assistants? Who gonna be, we need that. Thanks. And you know what, I'm glad that you guys said that. Like, so my boy gonna goes global. He's dropping, you know, ghetto therapy, right? That girl.  He is, shout out my player partner, man.  And typically it falls into crime as in prostitution, selling drugs, killing, you know, all of these different things, which, you know, I tell people, when I was raised inside of my house, I was taught everything good. Yeah, me too.  Exactly, going to school and seeing other people do it.  My mama did a good job. My pops, okay. I love what Kayla do when a lot of people don't do, she saw herself going to church. I go to church every Sunday. She go to church, you know what I mean? But you gotta understand, there's a lot of criminals in church and they kind of cover up for the church.  No, I'm not at all. It is helping me be a good person because not only do I go to church every Sunday, I am like, y'all need to come to church. But I invite people to church because my church, I don't know how to explain it, but my church is not that kind of church. And I be to myself like, when I bring people to church, sometimes I do be embarrassed like him. Like they smell like weed or they ain't dressed properly or you know what I'm saying? But again, you gotta think at least they coming. Do you want to clean them up? Do you want them to know God? Do you want to like, or do you want them on the streets and you feel me? Like you can't like, when you go to church, like you can't have mean people on the church because it's going to make them not want to come back. Exactly. You gotta make it feel like a second home. My church support me 100% when my rap career, like they don't try to change me. They let me be me.  I don't know, but I mean. To preach you like, yeah, man, we got a little telly this month. Billby, come on, 11, 11, send them niggas with them raps. No, but she do be wanting me to come up with like gospel raps to perform with the youth choir and stuff like that. You can sing, make them pockets. No, no, no, no, come on, for real, I don't play with God, but for real. But like, I'm just saying though, that's what I'm saying. That's what I'm saying. I'm just saying though, like, do you want the youth or you got a trip? Most of these churches, they don't have no youth because they run in the mall. Most of these church, like my granny church, it's all old people. And you know how them type of churches be. Yeah, they're standing on it. You do comedy, you know. But you know, in churches. I want a church where it's like, I could go to church and I feel like I'm at the club cause it's so lit, the music, that's how my church is. 11, 11, you need to make your own church. It made me, 11, 11, oh, that church, you go crazy. The 11, 11 church. Oh my God.  But see, I got an idea as to where I want to do like a youth night where I just go out to the bay, go to all the churches, get all the youth. We rehearse a couple songs and we just go like stomp. That's a lit church song. We could turn it up. Like, you get what I'm saying? Like you just have a church night to where we can, you know what I'm saying? I know what you're saying.  So yeah, it's just, it's definitely helping me become a better person, I like the life. Kayla really, you know, do what she talk about. You know, I just ran into Kayla the other day at Chicken and Waffles at Oakland. She had a whole gang of like eight kids. Talk to the mic. She had like a whole gang of eight kids. I'm like, hold on, Kayla, what you doing? Like, you know what I mean? I didn't see Kayla. You know what I mean? She's like, man, I just got the kids out. You know, I'm about to take them to the movies, you know, and stuff like that. And I was like, damn, you know, I didn't even want to talk about business or nothing. I just wanted to like kind of admire, you know, what you was doing in your moment of your organic, you know, day to day process in general. I think you can't feel when you're organic. You could never let people down if you just being organic. You understand me?  Where it's like, I just feel like I'm me because it's like, that's all you got to do is be you. And it goes back to the point where you know what I'm saying?  It's just like, that's just the artist version. Like, even like in the Bay, like I didn't met some people like just cause I like how they rap and be like, damn, like she tight and I get with them. They can't even buy theirself a cheeseburger.   You can't fake it because when you fake it, everything done in the dark comes to the light. It's eventually going to come out like, damn, you be rapping like that. And you- But you know what it is it's us saying, Carl Fagerty, make it now. But it's not for everybody, right? It is not for everybody. And credit to what you saying, like when you come from a certain place, like, you know, like I was telling a little earlier when I was growing up in Sunnydale, you know, we called ourselves the know you because we had a heavy New Orleans influence, I mean, with cash money and stuff like that. So we mimicked almost everything that they did because that's how we identified. And it's like, okay, if we do exactly what they did, right? Because this is who we are, then we could be able to get that spotlight as well. So that's what developed our projects into being like one of the most notorious projects in California in general, because they had choppers, we got choppers. Like, you know what I mean? Like they wore them, we wore them too. And it kind of created this, you know, this fun evening with them. They got choppers, we got choppers. Yeah.  So we got like, we called ourselves the Smalls, right? So we got the older Smalls, the grown bitches, and they fighting the grown bitches.  So just imagine that we all out together. It's going down like. It's going to be terrifying. Exactly.  It's the granny, the mama in the grand baby too. We on the bus 50 deep to the movies. You better not let us catch nobody by theyself. And that's how we use it too.  Oh my God. We use some mob together like that too. You know, like our projects, like even in San Francisco, it used to be prideful to, you know, be prideful to be where you're from, right? Yeah, I heard somebody in San Francisco roast a person from San Francisco because they grew up in the house. Like, oh, that niggas square, he had a house.   It ain't like the whole like, we got hoods too though. That got houses like, you know, a lot of the hoods in Fillmore, you know, it's houses, not projects. Fillmore got projects as well. But Lakeview, Lakeview ain't got projects.  So it doesn't, you know.  Yeah, exactly, we see people from the projects. Projects relate to other projects. Yeah, all around the world. A project is a project. Yeah, but you know what? But also the funny thing about it, like project living is totally different than hood living. The person that lives in the project doesn't have the same mindset as somebody living in the hood. And that's what I learned because I never lived in a project.  This too much. It's too many motherfuckers, just right in my head. It's a little bit more rural. That's why New York trip me out too. Like, I'm seeing them build us. I'm like, so all these niggas is in this building. Imagine this. Imagine it being like, you know, in Sunnydale, we have, you know, we have our, we have like a, we have a H, right? We have two streets coming down, really about three streets. But let's call it, you know, two streets coming down with Blightdale and Sunnydale going down. Then we got Santos, the borderline, right? Now every, yeah, of course. I'll just talk about the H. Now in between these, you know, in between these buildings, which is old military buildings, all cement. There's no police. There's no safety at all. Now, growing up in that, like, it breeds crime. It breeds, you know. It was a project. And then it's like, we. People in the hood, right? What house is, you know, it's a little bit different because you have these streets. Police have access to these streets and stuff like that. So, you know, it ain't too much that you could get away with, you know? But within these buildings, every, the only people that's within these buildings is the people that's living in these projects. And that's why, you know, murder's going soft. That's why motherfuckers get played, you know what I mean?  And that's what makes the projects that much more, you know. Like, see, when we was beefing, like, we from the same hood, but we from two different, like, I'm from down the street. He from all the way, like, you know what I'm saying? It'll take me five minutes to walk from where I'm from to where he from. Just walking up the hill just, you feel me?  Like, they would never come to our projects. This is my thing. I'm tryin' to figure out what happens. Look at the internet. Just back on the internet, Facebook, MySpace, and... So how could it start, like, example, right? Like, are you funky with this girl for what? All it take is one person to fight. Yeah. And boom, you fought my sister, so when I see you, I'm fightin' you too. Do you think women? Cause I know, you know, it's been female rappers, but you know, I feel like the female rappers is kinda runnin' the gang right now. Like, the ladies is goin' crazy. Got all the female rappers out there. It's hella female rappers goin' crazy, right?  And I think that's influenced it. It's gonna influence, like, a young generation. Of girls. Of the girls. Gonna be more with the shit, right?  I mean, look at where me ma. But that's one person, we not talkin' about it. Yeah, a long time ago. I mean, I can't really speak for everybody cause I don't know everybody personally to know how they really move.   Like, I gotta keep this with me. Like, you feelin' me? So it'd be people, like, you get what I'm sayin'? And I'd be like, you don't got one? Like, you feelin' me? Like, I don't know, like, you rap like you be havin' it? Like, where are you at? Oh, so some of them just really rap it. Yeah, yeah. So that's another thing, right? Like, playin' both sides of the fence, right? Like, credit to what you was sayin'.  You know what I mean?   I'm wildin'.  You know what I mean?   I think that gunplay come about, like, even for guys, right? I feel like the gunplay come more about, all right, you fake, on the under, you fake scared to fight. So now, everybody just wanna upstrap. Nobody wanna chonk about it. First, when we was growin' up at least, we chonked, we did, and then we worked out strats.    Like, it just... But even then, do you feel like women gonna be like, all right? Because we've been still fighting. No, because it's gonna keep going. Because once you, it's back and forth. For sure. And this goes for a whole another conversation, right? You know, like, I always, me and Gunna, we had talked this one time, right? I said this, this is the plain English of it, right? If you go, if a nigga killed your mans, for instance, right? And you believe that your mans went to heaven.  I know I'm going to heaven. If somebody touched me, my niggas better paint the whole city, yeah. But you say that, but you say that, but you go to heaven, you not over there, you sayin' that as you know right now, damn. But when you in heaven and you a god... What about the church people? You ain't got that, you're not gonna have that. You can imagine you're not gonna get that. But they gon' do that anyway. Yeah, I understand that. I understand that, but I mean, you know, at some point we have to, you know, start really talkin' about, and I mean solutions to these long-term beefs, right? And these multiple mans. Yeah, that's it, but I'm definitely on my stop the violence shit, like, don't get me wrong. I wanted to a point where I can go and take all my niggas with me, so they don't even have to be on the block, like it's to the point where I can put all my niggas on, to the point they don't even have to worry if we in the hills for sure.   That's what we pushin' for, ultimately. It's like, I don't want my niggas on the block, cause if somethin' happen to one of my niggas, I'ma be hurt about it. Cause I feel like niggas been niggas. Exactly. I think niggas been niggas for a long time. I think I just see a lot of change with the women nowadays. Yeah, facts.   Don't get it twisted. My grannies and all them hat straps and blow that motherfuckin' if it came down to it. Guaranteed. For sure. But what I'm sayin' is, it wasn't, my granny then wasn't listenin' to rap music, too.  You feel me?  And do you got, you see what I'm sayin'? And people feel like they got points to prove. Do you think that the music industry might be targeting young women coming up to be influenced by the things that female rappers are sayin', pertaining to selling sex, selling violence, and stuff like that?   That ultimately that whole hot boy shit like that, a lot of my niggas done been killed from that, a lot of niggas done been put in jail from it, tryin' to have this aura, either tryin' to rap or tryin' to identify what these rappers and stuff like that.   It's like women been makin' me pockets hurt. They feel me, but it's like, now we got 20, you got 20,000 females in the crowds. Make them pockets hurt, it's like, man. Me personally, music ain't never influenced me to do anything. Like you get what I'm sayin' like, the first female rapper that I ever heard was Will Kim. The first rap that I ever heard when she was, the rap's on the movie. Your whole world changed when you heard me rap and the niggas bet to grab it. You feel me? That was the first female rapper that I ever heard. You feel me? Then Lil Wayne, that was my favorite rapper. So it is just like they never made me oh, Lil Wayne said he did this. Let me go do this. Everything I'd rap about came from my own experiences growing up. Like I didn't even know I knew how to rap. You know what I'm sayin'? I was in a studio playing around and I'm like, I'm actually kinda good at this. Like, okay, let me keep going. See, cause it's hard to have a conversation with you because you're organic like the planning. You understand me? We talkin' about the motherfuckers that's influence.  And then it's just like, it's like the way it was raised too. Like some people parents make their kids be hoes. Or you might be out, a kid might run away and meet a nigga and now the nigga got her hoin' and now that's all she know. Like she didn't make so much money from hoin'. It's like, what else am I supposed to do now? I gotta go get a job.  You know what I'm sayin'? You got a point. It's really how your life is. Do women manipulate men? Period. Sometimes. Yeah, I like that. So sometimes, yeah. They do? How? A woman can manipulate anything. How do, how, how do a woman manipulate a man? It really depends on the situation. It really depends on the situation. Like I'm not online to you. It really depends on different type of situations. Yeah, cause the goal, you know the goal most of the time you don't get that money from that guy. But see, not for me, like it's different because I was raised around family. Like my auntie and uncle, Mary, we always at their house. My granny and grandpa, Mary, we always at their house. So growing up, me, I always wanted a big family. Like I want like at least five kids. Like I want a big family to the point where when I'm older, everybody coming to my house for Christmas. Everybody coming to my house for Thanksgiving. Granny Kayla. Yeah, you know what I'm sayin'? Oh, this is my blood line running around. Yeah, my mother's.  Like you got a trip when you in the projects, everybody around here is your family. So when we had birthday parties and it's family versus just, oh, you going to this birthday party, you don't know nobody, but two people cause you related to them, two people. Are you getting what I'm saying? It's like I want a big family. So that's why you ain't out here manipulating men? I want real love, old school love. Really? That's what I'm talking about. Like I keep me a boyfriend. Oh really? Look how we got a boyfriend? But when I'm doing me? I think I know your boyfriend too. I ain't gonna, I know your nigga though. But my first boyfriend, he a real nigga though. He a real repable nigga. I was like, I'll tell him my partner, I'll tell him my good friend. I said that nigga made a good decision. Yeah, we been together for a good almost three years now. Really? Yeah. So it's like, I think y'all going to work cause both of y'all days this. He got kids and stuff like, you know, we get his kids and you know, stuff like that. Lil' Caleb Boy from the gangsta. So y'all better not play with her y'all.   You can't even mess with a square? Why? Why not? Because I feel like I would just run all over him.  Like a nigga that'll cuss me out every now and then and put me in my place. Like, you know what I'm saying?   We was just, me and my cousin was just talking about this. I was young, I was probably like 17 and a nigga bought me some flowers. Yeah, okay.   But I didn't, like now my niggas send me flow like the other, like probably like two, three weeks ago. He been having hella card parts come to the house. So one day he's like, babe, I got a package and I go downstairs, there's flowers, edible, and rain.  Like, okay. But why did, why you didn't appreciate it coming from the other guy? I don't know, like I just wasn't feeling him. Like I wasn't feeling that. Was he a good guy? He was, he was, he had a job and on the fire. Like, and he was feeling, he wanted to talk to me basically. And so he came one day and he like had some flowers.   Hey, so everybody that's watching this episode right now, why, that's why you see Bey niggas so traumatized and militant and feel like we don't want to do certain things for women.  But now, now my nigga buy me flowers often. And that makes me happy. But you appreciate it because you know he wouldn't do it for, well, yeah, why, why do you appreciate it from because of you square-ass nigga? No, not even that. We in the relationship, why? Oh, no, that was a different episode.  That's like, oh, really? You liking flowers from niggas, not African-Americans. No, no, I just, I don't know, like coming from, if you ain't came from the same background that I came from, I can't see myself. Exactly, but that's what I, that's what I really mean.  Fast! You feel what I'm saying? So I can't, I only date black men and only date black men that come from where I come from. Let's give a round of applause for that. Oh, mamas, it's a difference between African-American and niggas, instead of me. That was African-American that bought you the flowers. You like this bunk-ass nigga. No, but he was mixed. See? He was mixed, but he was a square.  I forgot what he was mixed with. Even then, he was a square, he had like a nine to five. Like, I don't know, it was just, I wasn't into that. So if a guy had a nine to five, do that make him a square? No, cause I know some hood niggas that's changing their life around. Like, you feel me? Like, I'm not, what's the cause of them? They just went in to go be firefighters. Like, you feel me? Like, we are hood niggas working at the wreck with us. Like, you did what I'm saying? Yeah, well, you know how many hood niggas work at Tesla? Yeah.    They changing their life. Don't get involved.  Like, he's a square, like. Yeah, it's a certain swag.  And you know what? I think we might be men. Could you date a bus driver? No. I know what you got that from, though. You see I'm clickbaiting right now, right?  But, yeah. Why not? Why you couldn't date a bus driver? I don't know. I just don't see myself dating a bus driver. Why? Like, I don't know. I can't explain it. What about if he's a great guy? He's staying on 10 toes, he got his nest dropped. Lil' Katelyn, that's my woman. I do anything for her. I respect her and I love her.  Yeah, it is. Look, you know what's funny is like. If he was a hood nigga, like, if my nigga was to go drive buses. Yeah. That's different. Exactly. But me just meeting a nigga that's already a bus driver and he's trying to pursue me in this and this and that.  I make a lot of money now. You know what I'm saying? So it's like. Let me hold a hug. I got you. But a nigga can't do nothing for me that I can't do myself.    But what about if he got a good life and he could provide, not a good life, but like, say if he, a bus driver, and you know, he working on the five and all that, but he could afford all those things, say if his mama passed down a house to him type shit. You don't say it from him. It ain't even about materialistic things with me though. It's about, like I said, like what type of background do you come from? Like, can I go to your family house and be myself? Or do I have to turn on the switch when I go around your people? Like, you get what I'm saying? Like, it's all about that with me.  He got to be fighting demons on that bus.  We got a lot of niggas from the hood. I'm driving this bus, but I'm not a bus driver.  And I remember, my daddy used to drive a bus, right? And when I was a kid, right, having a city job, you know, put your name on the map and that's getting a city job.   But, you know, coming from the hood like now, we do see a lot of, you know, our peers and motherfuckers having jobs now, which is cool. And we're, I'm starting to see them younger, getting jobs, you know, 25, 26. I mean, there's nothing wrong with having a job. Don't get me wrong. Like, there's nothing wrong with having a job. Yeah, you just gotta be a hood nigga.  Only reason why I stopped working is because people started noticing me, like, coming and going, oh, okay. Oh, yeah, yeah, for sure. You know what I'm saying? I, like, you know what I'm saying? That's another announcement I got to the people. If a nigga work at the airport, he's dangerous too. Yeah. It's a lot of hood niggas that work at the airport.  No, for real. And he might be sliding those facts. He might be the plug. Or still a little plug.  That's the reason why they getting on my phone. Yeah, they getting everything that comes on.   Like, a square, it's like, it's different. Like, I don't know, like, you raised in the suburbs. You went to school with the white people. Like, I can't date one of them. I understand. I understand.  And I was talking to a young lady about the difference between niggas and African-Americans. And she was saying, a guy that I thought was a square, I don't know the guy, but what I'm saying is the thing she was saying, the guy was doing, I'm like, only a square nigga do that. You feel me? And you know what I'm saying? And she was like, nah. And I was like, nah, it ain't no nigga gonna do that. So I see what you're saying. Like, if a nigga gonna be vulnerable and open up and be a good guy to a woman, it gotta be like his, feel me? Like, soul tie type situation.  I got to maintain this relationship and I got to keep her happy. So I'm doing this.  You know what I'm saying? I just come chill with you, but won't we?  But we never really had conversations to the point where he'd call me like, babe, why would we? And we actually talk and have a conversation. You know what I'm saying? About real shit, about family.  You know what I'm saying? So now it's like, okay, now I get you. Like, you know what I'm saying? But before it was like, I don't really know you. I don't really know who you are. Cause if I see you with a square, I'll be like, she's manipulating this nigga. I see it, I see it.   Like I'm going to have an attitude. I ain't going to want you to touch me. We definitely not kissing. Like, so. You couldn't fake it for the money. Like basically like, say if a dude got hella money, you feel me? Unless he like, did he or something? Yeah, right?   You keeping it lit. Mm-hmm. Just keeping it real. Yeah, not that, that's true.     And he don't look like we identify at all. But I wasn't even, I can't see myself with a white man. No, no, I'm talking about like a friend, a friend, that's a partner. That's a whole different conversation.  No, but listen what I'm saying.    It's like, hold on, why?  Why can't I just be cool to this person and this person see a value in me, you know?  Nah, like just flying. See the next little white person, that's how I'm an eight. Yeah, yeah, yeah. It's different from, I truly understand what you're saying because it's a difference between building friendship, building trust with different, you know, cultures, different people, you know what I'm saying? But like, it's one thing to be sleep with somebody and really be fighting demons with somebody. It's like, you know, like, yeah, that's crucial. Like, you know, you just really hella comfortable, you just locked in.   Yeah.    Like, you know what I'm saying?  You know what I'm saying?  And I say that to say this, right?   And because they started, you know, they found love. They've been together for, you know, 38 years.  So now us as like, you know, the nephews, we never, you know, was like super invited. It was always uncomfortable.  And now that side of the family is just like, uh.   And that's on the white side. On both sides. Really? Yes, on both sides.  Yeah. You know what I mean?  What raises this shit? But what can I say though, like she liked that old love, right? And I want to get back to that.  So I've always had this thing about me where it's like, man, I got to find true love because if I got to get this last name away and when that girl get that last name, she gonna feel like, damn, God really blessed me with true love. True love. So it's just gonna be so, it's kind of, you know, it's deep. Yeah, it's deep. I hear you, man. Yeah, man. But until then. Yeah, man. It make love sound pee. Yes, that me? Because pee is love, yeah. I know how to be in love, but I know how to do me too. Yeah. I always remind you, niggas.  All I got to do is go outside, start replying to a few films. TVM's. Mm-hmm. It's on.  That's all right, so. All I take is 1DM. All I take is 1DM. Yo girl, go. Like I was just telling my manager, somebody, it was a post that's my partner posted.  And she posted like, damn, what the posts say? Be careful or be my piece. You already not the man I really want. And her caption was like, wait till you get married. It seemed like all the niggas of your dreams start coming for you. That's why Eric Abadou made that song, Next Lifetime. I guess I'll see you next lifetime.  Not for real. But it's like, I would never leave my dude for another dude. It's like, you ain't gonna take care of me like he take care of me. Like my man take good care of me. You know what I'm saying?  But it ain't about materialistic stuff with me. So we don't get it back. We don't get it back. We don't get it back. Not my tears. Yeah, we ain't go back to the malls. Get on your paper, Steve. Not even that. Cause I done lost it all and went and got it back before. Like every time I went to jail, I lost everything.  Money, bailing myself out, paying for lawyers. I done have to spend all my money. Like I gotta beat this cake. That's why nigga learn a little bit just for show. Cause you can lose and bounce back with a little bit. And it's like now I'm in a position where my nigga code go invest in some merch and boom. You invest in that merch, you spend 10, you make 30. Just cause my friends is super crazy around me.  You know what I'm saying? So I feel like now it's to the point I have outlets to where everybody around me can make a little bit of money. That's gang. Speaking of clothing, y'all go on 2x.crazy.shop and buy my son a sweater, man. I told them I'd go ahead and do it. Okay, I go crazy, man. I need one, yeah. Hell yeah. For sure, man. Shorty, man. Shout out to my son, man. Hey, man, y'all go check out, since we promote merch too, y'all go check out Do Too Much ENT, standme.com, man. I just dropped some Sam Oakland hoodies yesterday at me cause we sharing the words at this point. The words went from Oakland to San Francisco. I know the city said they had it first, but whatever, we sharing the warriors. Yeah, we sharing them. So San Oakland is the Bay Bridge. I mean, what? Cause we sharing that water. The longest niggas ain't rooting for Lakers and all that, man. Right, yeah. I don't think he's... I'm the Oakland Warriors, you understand me? San Francisco and Oakland, we sharing the warriors, man. So go get them San Oakland hoodies. You understand me if you're supporting this movement with the Bay Area.  Little Kayla, what you gotta tell them before you wrap it up, ay? You don't know, now you know. Here, little Kayla, what's up? Oh, whoa, stop playing.  You got niggas, little Kayla, what's up? Nah, it'd be surprising for sure, but...  It'd be hard, man. Come on, 11-11. Yeah. Yeah, it definitely is hard one when they make me feel more confident about myself. Okay. Make them pockets hurt. I got the city. Hey, look. You said it at the whole time, like, nigga, not mine though. Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa. You know what?   Nah, you can still get it, man.    Start pointing that through Roy's race trucks. He got one though. I know that, boy.  You still have to stop eventually. All right. Yeah, like, hold on. All right. I need this private jet. And then he like, all right, you load it, man. Yeah. We can get on Delta first class. No, for real.  I like that. Yeah, shout out to my player partner, man. Yeah, I don't even want to know. I don't even want people to know. I know you niggas, man.  No, for real. Yeah, that's me too. I'm a peaceful person. Yeah, we love everybody. Black power. Yeah, yes, that me.  Yeah, you feel me? This what this about, man. You understand me? I know you've been on a media run. Everybody been interviewing you, asking these same-ass questions. You got to fight these things. This was a good one, though. I enjoyed this one. It's the Cali kickback, man. We just come pop shit, you understand me? When we pop it, we don't stop it. Shout out to my nigga, Mr. Phab. I got that one from Phab. All right, go on. When we pop it, we don't stop it, man. You know, so, yeah, this thug mansion. You understand me? Y'all tap in, man. Key support in the show, man. Subscribe to the channel, man. To the YouTube. Shout out 85, media, man. We out here, we mobbing, man. From the beta to LA to the A. Yes, that me, yes, lord. Cali kickback, we gone. Come on, man.


Partition timeouts, pull the wall! Right, sorry, I just couldn't, yeah. When you put a wall up, we're gonna partition you, we're gonna put you in timeout. So partition timeout is exactly like it sounds. We're gonna make you pay for your timeout. There you go. All right, camera man. Sorry, President Trump, but really, you're just trying to put all of Mexico in timeout. I promise it's not gonna work, you know why? Because their life is pretty reinforcing without you. So you might be reinforcing them in approach, anyway, sorry to get all political on you folks, it's actually a behavioral thing, we'll watch another series on it later. Anyway, so partition timeout, there's a partition, you put the person or the dog or the cat or the fish or whatever, it's really hard to put a fish in partition timeout, but I bet you could do it if you work hard enough. Anyway, so you put the organism in a timeout box, probably a better example than the wall is hockey.  Bleh! Go over there Bob, and I go sit in the corner for clipping or went Bob, why Bob? I don't know, it's probably some other sort of name nowadays, but anyway, so yeah, hockey's on my mind, partition timeout, you get punished, you get ticked, it's not punished, it is type of punishment, put away for two minutes and then you get back in the ice and you're all good, anyway, so woo hoo, go chiefs.


What is up guys karma medic here and welcome back to another dose the time has come it is happening again I'm going to be moving to a new hospital for my next clinical placement Emergency medicine and critical care is finished and now I'm gonna be starting women's health in a new hospital in a new city outside of London I'm really excited to be going back because I have such a good time last time I went on peripheral placement But today I've got a really busy day. I need to prepare quite a few things need to go through my shopping So I have at least a decent amount of food for the first couple of days when I get there You need to go to boots to get things like pharmaceuticals deodorant hair gel as you guys know is very important to me A whole bunch of other stuff, and yeah, I actually also need to pack I haven't done any of that need to do a little bit of preparation for the online training Fill out some forms send through some negative COVID tests. Hopefully and yeah, just a whole bunch stuff So let's get started. All right first up boots In your fourth and fifth years of medical school is that you do eight week rotations in different hospitals doing different placements And if those placements happen to me in London, then I can stay living at home And I can just commute to and from the hospital But if they're not in London and they're too far away then actually need to move for eight weeks to that hospital and do the placement over there Which is what I'm doing right now. All right next stop Necessities that I'm gonna need obviously when I go I still need to do a full Occurgencies when you need food in a bag. I've got to say I'm moving tomorrow not today I'm doing my shopping my packing etc. Today is that tomorrow I have barely anything to do Actually like my stuff up in the car go all right. Let's go to my room. Oh Man, I'm gonna miss this room. I can't believe I have to leave this beauty that I've been building for like two years Look at all this. I will have access to Anyways such is life. All right guys, so it's time to pack I've actually learned a lot from the first time that I did this I'm gonna be taking way less stuff because I know exactly what I'm going to be needing Obviously, I'm gonna be taking all of my exercising clothes go on runs. I'm debating taking my exercise equipment I've got some dumbbells. Let me show you. These are heavy boys So I've got these two dumbbells They're 10 kilograms each and then I have an extra five kilogram plate for each of them hidden under there Anyways, first thing I need to do is get my suitcase, which is in my sister's room So let's go and do that Hey, man, can I get my suitcase? You look really worried So pro tip guys if you live in a small apartment or you don't have much space you can get beds They do this How magical is that my suitcase is down here? I think it's not one over there all the way in the back I don't know my camera woman.  Thanks, sir All right Just need to take a deep breath and get started The unfortunate realization that I definitely I'm gonna need a big suitcase at least for this initial move Why I need to take tons of stuff. I need a big suitcase and then I think after that coming back on the weekends and stuff I can take a smaller one. So let's change that out. All right big suitcase Time to swap these out The most peripheral placement the sheets that were provided with the bed and the pillowcases and blanket the duvet were just Terrible and so I bought my own. This is what they look like and I am very very excited to have actual sheets when I go So check it out. I think we're pretty much done I've got everything that I'll need for my formal attire when I'm in the hospital Exercise running things and gym equipment or rather gym clothing and then over here a little bit of studying stuff a ton of electronics all the cables and wires that I'm gonna need socks battery packs some cars to play games Etc. And I've also made a little pile on my desk here of things that I want to put in my backpack Which I'm gonna take tomorrow which I don't want to do right now But I'm putting them all in one place so that it's ready to go when I need it I'll have another think about everything that's in there and double check that I've got everything that I need But I think it's pretty much done. The only thing that's left to do is the kitchen I think I'm gonna do that after lunch because it's almost 1 p.m. This is all taken a lot longer than expected I'm gonna go find nor we're gonna sit down have some lunch and then continue this after that So now what are we having for lunch fish tacos and who cooked those yummy yummy fish tacos me? See what we've got here lettuce Some crispy crispy fried fish and then peppers and onion then we're cooked in the oven and of course We need some tortilla bread and that my friends is fish taco We're here And while we do that No one's gonna tell you about how much of a good brother. I am how much she's gonna miss me So no, you can start whenever you're ready Just tell the camera how much of a good brother. I am not sure I can do that No, of course Nassar's a 10 out of 10 brother Thank you. Thank you. So I'm obviously gonna miss him. I'm definitely not gonna be enjoying some quiet time by myself without me shouting playing cold duty nor and I were Separated from each other when we went to university. I went to Canada. That was a bit dramatic wasn't it nor and I were Separated from each other when we went to university. Yeah, I went to Canada. She went to the UK And we like really missed living with each other ever since so whenever I have to move away for clinical placement It's always a sad time. Anything you want to say? Look how much before I turn it off and there are my three tacos. Yeah, it's good to me I'm currently sat down at my desk with a coffee post lunch And I'm going through some of the documentation that's been sent to us about our timetable for the upcoming weeks Who my clinical supervisor is and I'm writing down all this information on notion setting up sort of like a template or a Guideline for me over the next couple of weeks. Let me show you guys So basically over here under my medical school page for each different block that I do so there's pediatrics Psychiatry emergency medicine and critical care and now obs and gynae for each one of these if you open them There's like a ton of information in there That just sort of helps me plan out my weeks and know where it is that I'm supposed to be every single day And so now what I'm going to do is click on obs and gynae and start that one from scratch So about my timetable as well. It looks like I'm going to be rotating through breasts obs, gynae genital urinary medicine And then there's two acronyms here that I don't know what they stand for top of my head LW and GAU Hopefully by the time this video goes live All right guys all done with the admin of sent off all the emails I need to do read through everything collated all the information and my notion page is ready Another thing that we need to do before we travel to our peripheral placement is send in proof of two negative COVID-19 lateral flow tests. I've already done the first one a couple of days ago Nice and negative as you can see and that's time to do the second one So I'm gonna show you guys what that process looks like these are given to us by the university by our hospital So this is what you need from the kit It's not really a test you but like a little container need one of those You need a nasal swab actual test cartridge and then the test solution So you place the drops of the solution the little test you think And I need to swap the back of my mouth and my nose I feel like I've done this so much. I don't even gag anymore, but the nose one the nose one's still tough another side oh God gets me every time Jesus all right, and then you mix in here for 10 seconds You squeeze the tip as you pull it out and dispose of this safely close this without touching the tip And then place two drops on the sample of the testing cartridge One Two then you set a 30 minute timer and you to interpret the result then all right Come back in 30 minutes and hopefully that reads negative All right, now let's go to the kitchen and get all the cutlery plates bowls and everything that I'm gonna need while I'm there I've got the bag and I need to fill it I'm gonna take as little as possible and just keep it there use it for the bare minimum of why I need to Do cooking wise and just leave it at that. So I'm gonna take one plate. I'm gonna take my favorite bowl Time is up Please be negative. Please be negative. Please be negative. Let's go Another test another negative result. All right all done with the kitchen stuff I've got my bowls my mugs my tea my coffee and their Tupperware's famous apple cutler And these are all the snacks I bought earlier today from Tesco plus some other things that I had at home I think I'm just gonna lift this and leave it down over here until tomorrow Yeah, I definitely needed the bigger suitcase for the first move when you take like absolutely everything. It's a good idea Feels good to be done with that it was a big to-do list for today So I've really only got two more things that I want to do today I want to do some oski prep so practice for those exams that I've been talking about in a bunch of previous vlogs I'm gonna call Kenji and Georgina and see if they're up for that and then at 5 p.m I'm filming a YouTube video with two other youtubers And so I'm gonna hop on a call and do some like medicine quiz or something like that All right, so I'm about to hop on a call with Liddy and Hazal from Journey to Med They're gonna ask me all kinds of questions grill me about my anatomy knowledge my medicine knowledge and general knowledge as Well, do you guys want to say hi? Take it easy on me, okay All right, I'll see you guys after Oh god, I'm nervous. So hello, my name is Nasser and I'm a fourth year medical student studying at Kings College London And I hope they get a couple of things right All right, so it's much later in the day now nor and I are gonna cook dinner And let me show you guys what we're making recently We've been getting these Gusto boxes and what are we doing today? No, we're doing chicken stew one pot creamy sun-dried tomato stew Basically it comes like this and then on the background. There's all these instructions and yeah It's been honestly quite fun me and nor doing a little more brother sister time a little more quality time with each other in the kitchen And honestly the meals taste really good We've been very very impressed and it's a nice change from what we've been cooking over and over and over And so shall we get started with that?  I feel really unhelpful No You have less stuff this time, and I have more maybe it's the same amount Some info, but we're not seeing anything that matches our emails or pictures or anything like that Which check here on the right. It might be this yeah, yeah Nice nice Found it. Hello. I'm sorry, but the person you've called is not available So that's our keys or we're supposed to get keys I mean, we'll just have to go to main reception Yeah, yeah, so Two hours later we have arrived looks pretty big There's quite a few student accommodation blocks around me And we're just waiting to get our keys now from the porters and the reception And then we're gonna move in show you guys my new room my new kitchen when you're living area Yeah, we'll see how it goes This one but as Rachel said the Feng Shui is off Then we go grab some of the other stuff and then give you guys a proper tour That's everything Moving to the room It's gonna unpacking. This is it from one corner We've got the bed for which I've brought sheets this time window It's actually quite nice looks out onto a street, which I really really like I love it when windows look out onto roads It gives you something with the movement to look at got a very questionable desk and chair over here a couple of shelving units Closet drawers. It's actually a pretty big room Like there's a lot of space to walk around the negatives of this place is that everything is sort of in this like hallway type Scenario, so we've got the kitchen over here, which doesn't have a fan Someone explained to me why there's no fan above a hob closet space sink area over here closets Rachel Got the fridge back there and then over here is The bathroom so we've got the shower on the left with a sink And then the toilet on the right also with a sink and this is the whole flat This is where you come in from and this is everyone's rooms one two three four bathrooms and kitchen We have an odd setup to save the least but I am going to just unpack put everything in its place Start to get comfortable and settled in to my new home for the next seven eight weeks. That's it This the desk area over here is looking a lot more neat on my laptop and my iPad a couple of electronics up here My oski book Toiletries and things like that got my weights in the corner everything that I need right before I leave the room So I don't forget some underwear and socks This is empty in the moment And then this is all of my gym gear closet is very empty But I learned an important lesson last time I went on peripheral placement, which is that I don't need very much at all So I've brought the bare minimum for my tripod yoga mat all of my shoes and then my bed with my new sheets Looking quite nice. I quite like this design wireless charger over there for my phone My Apple Watch and my AirPods and that's pretty much it got a fan Archer and this little fella to keep watch over me. So yeah, I think that's pretty much it for the room It's completely done. Everything's in its place I'm gonna go put my stuff in the kitchen and then I'll be fully moved in to this place for the next seven or eight weeks Not exactly the neatest, but I've got everything that I need in its place and yeah over the next couple of days I'm gonna go to a massive massive supermarket shop and fill up my closet and the fridge The fridge is pretty big too can't complain got enough space for everything. And alright guys, that is it That's me moving to my next hospital placement I'm gonna be here for quite a few weeks now, and I'm obviously gonna be plugging my experience while I'm here So if you enjoyed this video, don't forget to leave a like on it and also subscribe to my channel See more content from me in the future, and I'll catch you in the next one. Peace Do you just turn it off? It's the big button And the like


use the Vivekabuddhi discerned between the loud noise of the ego and the almost imperceptible signal of truth, then fearlessly bend in surrender to that truth and then allow the system, the body itself, to take action based on that truth. And that would encapsulate what truth is and how one actually is operating, you can say, with that truth impulse from moment to moment to moment. The more you stay in the truth, the more joy in the system, one to one. We invite you to an Audio Life Satsang with Maharishika Preeti this Sunday. For more information, visit maharishika.org.


Alright, well, thanks very much. Just before we are closing remarks, we come to our perioperative echo group award. And this is an award that we started in 2016 and actually acknowledges members who have made substantial contributions to perioperative echo in Toronto at our hospital. And to this meeting specifically, and if you just click on, you'll see the next, you'll see the award winners in the past, many of whom worked at Toronto General. One last year, he was a substantial contributor to echo at St. Mike's next slide, please. So this year's award winners, Dr. Azad Mashari, all of you know him. He was the moderator of the first session at this meeting. I'm going to say a couple of words about Azad. Azad is truly a valued colleague of mine at TGH. He's one of the really good guys here who you can go to and say, Azad, I have a problem and you'll help you fix it. He's always been a forward thinker. He graduated from the University of Toronto in 2002, like 2002, with a BSC with honors in cognitive science and artificial intelligence. And here we're just starting to learn about artificial intelligence. He finished medical school at the University of Western Ontario and anesthesia residency at the University of Toronto. He completed fellowships in research at Beth Israel Deaconess in Boston and a clinical anesthesia fellowship here at Toronto General. He became a staff member at TGH in 2015. He's a member of the perioperative echo group, as well as the hyperbaric group here. He worked and then became the director in 2019 of the advanced perioperative imaging laboratory here at Toronto General, part of the Peter Montt cardiac center. Here he works with many collaborators across different disciplines to explore clinical and educational applications of 3D medical imaging, modeling and visualization. He's been a member of this meeting's organizing committee since 2016. And from 2018 to last year, he chaired and organized the meeting, taking it to its current virtual format. I can think of no one more deserving of this award. I'd like to say this award comes with some perks, but true to TGH form. We can only offer you our endearing thanks and maybe a handshake. And a handmade thank you to be designed at a future date. Congratulations and please say a few words. Thank you very much. And that's very kind words stuff. I've been at this every day. Very grateful to get to work with a team like this. And through organizing this meeting that people that I've met and that wider network that we've managed to put together across the city. And it's really sort of grown out of it used to be very TGA centric conference and now it's definitely grown out of that. And it's even gone beyond the beyond our city. And hopefully it'll become more global and international. Congratulations on our next meeting to you and all the curators and faculty. It's an honor to work with you every day. Thank you. Okay. And just so you know why we have virtual meetings. We have virtual meetings so that people can spend time away from us at the hospital. Asad is actually at home enjoying time at home and we can still have him contribute in such a meaningful way to this meeting. So thank you very much. All right. We'll move on to the closing remarks. Well, we've made it. It's the end of the meeting. And I have to say many thank yous. And I'll start with thanking you the audience for taking the time to really be part of this educational experience. We sincerely hope you enjoyed the weekend and that we were able to provide you with useful information for your practice or at least food for thought. I'd like to thank the speakers. This was really a very international multidisciplinary faculty who took time out of their own busy schedules to share their knowledge and experience and really give us a series of, I think, very excellent presentations. I'd like to thank the curators and moderators. All of whom are colleagues who were really leaned on to make the program happen. They recruited their own speakers. They invited them and you can see how just a little bit of a network gets formed. And suddenly we're outside Toronto. We're outside of Ontario. We're outside of Canada. We're outside of North America. And we've actually reached the globe. And I think that's, that's a real kudo for us this year at this meeting. I'd finally like to thank all our audio visual support from our Dean, Mark Atkinson and Fatima Mo Mood who worked seamlessly throughout the weekend to make this meeting happen. With respect to the evaluations, just a final reminder to please try and fill out the evaluations. These provide us with an assessment of the meeting of this current meeting for this year and importantly provide information for planning for future meetings. So we really do use the information you supply us. We look at it and as part of our accreditation, we're actually required to analyze the information you give us and see if we can act on it. We'll email you links to all the attendees tomorrow. If you haven't finished your evaluations, they'll be available for around a week. So we would really appreciate the feedback. For the certificate of attendance, these will be prepared in the coming weeks. And again, we'll email you the details about when, when you will be able to collect them virtually. You can claim up to 12 hours based on the number of hours you attend the meeting and I'm sure everybody will have attended for the full 12 hours. In terms of the videos and recordings, there's a lot of information at this information, really, really outstanding information. I think it's something that people probably need some time to chew through. The lecture videos will be edited and we will send out a link for when and where those videos will be available and that will probably happen in the coming weeks. So, in closing, I'd just like to thank everybody for attending for everybody's hard work for making this meeting a success and I look forward to seeing you at future meetings. Thank you very much.