for the past six years, and I'm actually about to celebrate three years of childless, which is pretty exciting. Conquences, engaging with developers on topics of design. This talk, as PJ mentioned, is going to be a little bit of an accomplishment. What I failed to mention is that I suffer from a linear, general anxiety. Really get excited. I wanted to give a trigger warning. This talk will contain topics on eating disorders, depression, anxiety, substance abuse. Suicide and self-harm. If any of those topics make you uncomfortable, feel free to leave. I won't be offended. If most people are going to stick around, please give this talk your attention and keep an open mind. Some of what I'll be speaking of are facts and figures around eating disorders. Other parts will be my own personal experience with my disorder, as well as the monologues. This talk isn't meant to be a goal for everybody who suffers from eating disorders. It's just my personal experience, and this isn't meant to go over everybody who suffers from them. Some of you might have experienced some of what I'll be talking about. However, I believe probably a bigger majority of this audience are not. What I hope that you'll get out of this talk is a better understanding of what eating disorders are, who they affect, and what it's like to live your life with these disorders. I want you to leave this talk having gained empathy and a bit of understanding of what they're like and the people who struggle through them. I'm sure there's probably a few people in here wondering why I talk about eating disorders at a technical conference. I think that the tech industry has brought a lot better about having discussions relating to mental health. That's pretty fantastic, and I would love to see those conversations continue to grow in popularity. We've heard from people at various events and online media on dealing with burnout, anxiety, and depression, but one topic I never hear about is eating disorders. And I think this is due in part to the fact that while they've brought us better about speaking about mental health, it's still a fairly taboo topic, and these conversations are happening at whiskers between close friends and colleagues. I believe only when we start talking about these mental health topics, health, being the operative word, can we truly start making a difference in our community and in the world. Like to the front on each side, it's all I can see. My abdomen is swollen and in need of relief. Finally, I'm pressure at the back of my throat. The white is not with orange, yellow, and green. Relief has come to the tears we get before. Relief came and went too quickly. No, my weapons regret. I'll never do this again, I tell myself. This makes me feel hollow and empty and the exhaustion sets in. It's a small part of the ritual thinking I've helped during my most recent relapse. I spent two years doing that cycle several times a day. These binges and purges would be carefully managed in my time alone, between work, social engagements, and when I needed to take my prescription medicine. My particular type of disorder is bulimia nervosa, that word comes from the Greek word meaning rather as hunger. Most people I think are probably more familiar with bulimia's counterpart, enterite standard rosa, which stems from the Greek word without appetite. While eating disorders have been around for centuries, mostly among the upper class and the religiously about, the naming conventions for anorexia and bulimia come from a couple of doctors in the late 1800s who had been seeing patients who had symptoms of disorder needed. A British doctor by the name of William Bull presented a paper to the Royal College of Physicians in 1873. The paper was called anorexia hysterica. Around the same time there was also a doctor in France who published an article on anorexia hysterica. Both doctors' naming conventions implied with the use of hyster, which comes from of the womb, that these disorders only affected women. The following year, after the remark cases of eating disorders, the hysterica was dropped in favor of nervosa to show that it was a nervous condition and not a female-only infliction. There are different kinds of eating disorders that are limited to cisgender women. To give you some context about the different medically-recognized disorders that are out there, we're going to go over them. Anorexia nervosa is a person with an intense fear of gaining weight or becoming fat. Someone with anorexia may practice unhealthy behaviors such as restricting calories, only eating specific foods, or saving meals frequently. These individuals will be underweight, but usually be unable to see that to be the case. Anorexia nervosa, which is the disorder that I suffer from. These people will also be intensely afraid of gaining weight or becoming fat. However, someone with bulimia will eat large amounts of food in a short period, known as a binge, and then eliminate those food or calories, known as a purge. Purging is different with different bulimas. One might induce vomiting, exercise excessively, use laxatives, diuretics, or diet pills to purge those weight and calories. These individuals will probably be under normal weight or might even be overweight, but also might experience the inability to accurately assess their weight or health. In 2013, there was the addition of a binge eating disorder to the diagnostic decisions of a manual on mental disorders. This disorder was characterized by individuals who eat large amounts of food rapidly to point feeling sick or uncomfortable. These episodes of binging occur frequently, and people who are engaging in these binges often feel that they cannot stop and control how much food. Finally, the DSM-5 has a section known as Eating Disorders Not Otherwise Specified. It's kind of a catch-all for symptoms of disorders that don't fall into the previous three categories. Prior to 2013, binge eating disorder was also listed in the ENOS category. While eating disorders are often medically characterized by the individual's habits of disorder eating, that's not their only symptom. Eating disorders are often triggered and influenced by external events such as mental fatalities like stress, anxiety, trauma, depression. Eating disorders for many individuals has side-effects of underlying mental health issues and are used as coping mechanisms giving those who are suffering a feeling of control when life might go otherwise out of control. I was diagnosed with bulimia when I was 19. My parents discovered I was losing weight and curing food and admitted me to an outpatient program for people with eating disorders with a gluten line. I had some tests done on me at the time and they found my body was extremely dehydrated and long on electrolytes. It's just pretty common amongst believe-ins. But as a young person without a long-standing history of curing, it was thought that I was a good candidate for recovery. I completed my six-week outpatient program and mostly managed to stay on track for about a year before my first relapse during college. That relapse was fairly short-lived and mostly onset by my general stress living out home for the first time in the dorm. There were a couple of take-ups long the next five years, but I managed to live a fairly normal life as normal as anybody could do in a commanding art degree candidate. Then, in January 2013, I was sexually assaulted at a tech conference during my longest and most recent relapse. In some ways, I find some solids to know that I'm not alone, as sad as that might sound. In the United States alone, 20 million women and 10 million men suffer from a clinically significant eating disorder at some point in their life. That means about 10% of the United States population will feel like I feel. 30 million people. And that's just one of them. Eating disorders are fairly non-discriminatory. Geneticist environmental factors and personality traits all work together to create the risk of developing one. They are not limited to age, race, or gender. Anyone can develop one at any point in their life, though they are more commonly developed at a yearly age by young girls. That said, an estimated 10 to 15% of people with anorexia and bulimia are male.  Transgendered individuals are the highest risk of the entire LGBTQ community to develop an eating disorder. Each morning I confront the scale. 128.5 is not the 128.0 I wanted. 35 pounds gone. That's not enough. I'm still hurt, and I'm still angry. A few glasses of wine for breakfast still won't make me happy. The lines, the drinking, the crying. I'm constantly tired. Maybe tomorrow. If I don't eat today, maybe tomorrow. 128.0. I spent two years constantly anxious in the past. I began cutting again in late night in the past of anger and confusion. It seemed like my world was falling in on me and my life was spiraling out of control. In an attempt to manage my extreme feelings of self-patriot and my increasing social anxiety, I began to drink heavily. Most people, same for a couple of friends, had no idea how drunk and compressed I was ever yet. During this time, I somehow managed to move to Germany. Secretly I hoped I could leave my problems behind in Ohio and create a new life for myself in Berlin. But as it turns out, your problems have no problem finding you abroad, Berlin certainly isn't the city to try and bury them in. Not a lot, which was a blessing and a curse. I could structure my day in a way that worked for me. Unfortunately, it also left me with a lot of time. Being janky and encouraging multiple hours a day, I spent my life within the confines of my kitchen and my bathroom. All that time on the counter for left me with a lot of lies and excuses. And that's the feeling that I hate the most during the whole period. Living one life, but managing extreme conditions of another. Many of the people suffering from eating disorder will struggle with other mental health issues. In the brain, there are several shared neurotransmitters that are believed to be involved in both eating and substance abuse disorders. In regards to substance abuse, about 50% of individuals with eating disorder will be abusing alcohol under drugs. And that times greater than the U.S. general population statistics. For men with binge eating disorder, 57% suffer from a long life struggle with substance abuse. Although alcohol is my encounter, it's a common substance abuse among those of eating and other mental health issues. Both eating disorders and substance abuse can be used as avoidance-based coping techniques. Obviously, these are ineffective and will give you more harm than good, leaving emotions under drugs and potentially escalating issues in personal lives as well as the workplace. This is particularly problematic in the tech industry of working in cultures of the North and it's mainly used as our source of interactions with our colleagues. In addition to those individuals struggling with substance abuse, about 50% of people with an eating disorder will also suffer from depression. The cycle between bulimia and depression is constant and one influence is the other and it's difficult to adjust to either disorder. Purging is used to respond to and control depression. However, the act of purging is in and of itself will leave the bulimia to feel more depressed. That combination with malnutrition caused by self-spiritation will harm an individual's physical as well as mental health. As an example, poor nutrition may harm the body's ability to be stripped of them, which can lead to mood disorders and contribute to depression, and treat either without a positive change in diet. Among patients with anorexia, 33% to 50% have a comorbid mood disorder, such as obsessive compulsive disorder and social phobia. Those statistics are even higher among patients with bulimia, with at least 50% suffering from a comorbid mood disorder like depression, and over a half struggling with a comorbid mood anxiety disorder. One intently mix will also have a comorbid substance and reduce disorder like alcohol abuse. Additionally, those with eating disorders may begin to abuse over-the-counter drugs like sleeping pills and limespits. Many will develop addictions to illegal drugs, hallucinogens, and prescription medicines. All of these statistics and numbers, they boil into one serious problem. Eating disorders have the highest mortality rate of any mental illness. Every 62 minutes, at least one person dies from a comorbid mood disorder. Anorexics and abnormally low heart rate and low blood pressure will bring risk of heart failure, while security and hydration can risk kidney failure. For females between 15 to 24 years old, the mortality rate associated with the illness is 12 times higher than that of the death rate of any other cause of death. For bulimics, the constant binge purge cycles affect the entire digestive system and can lead to electrolyte chemical imbalances. Those imbalances can affect the heart and other major organ functions. Electrolyte imbalances can lead to irregular heart rates and potentially even heart failure and death. Additionally, those risk of gastric rupture can create a binge in while frequent vomiting can rupture the esophagus. Who's the shortness of breath? My assumption is it's nothing. But the sharp pain continues. Trying to find breath again. Trying again. Changing positions on the furniture and then the floor. The breathlessness persists. I check my phone but my credit is at zero. I'm afraid I'm going to die alone in this home. I die when I'm one alone. I spend two years constantly anxious and depressed. So where were we? Hey, I was classing on the floor the last time we fought. So that day was November 25th, 2014. I remember a lot of that day pretty clearly up until that point. I was visiting my family in Ohio, Thanksgiving was rapidly approaching. I was in charge of making the whole meal this year and spending my morning making vegetable stock for my shepherd's pie. Like any other day when I was home alone, I had already been encouraged a couple times. But then I started to experience sharp pain in my chest leaving me with the inability to breathe. I situated and resituated myself in different positions all over the house trying to find a position that would allow me to regain comfortable breathing. But I couldn't find it. After a while, I started to pen it. Then I reached for my phone and called my partner who was also visiting the US with me. Unfortunately, my prepaid phone service was out of order and I sent a frantic eye message to him to come to the house as quickly as he could. Realizing I couldn't make a call and still struggling to breathe, I dialed 911. Paramedics came to the house and took me to the emergency room. I don't remember a lot after dialing the emergency number. One thing I do remember is that they said my vegetable stock smelled pretty good and that's probably the only constant from that day. From the emergency room after running tests, giving me potassium and fluids and letting me regain breathing, I was able to go home. It was that day I realized how much harm I was doing to my body, to my organs, to my mind. When my life felt like it was collapsing, in reality, my body was beginning to shut down. Despite all my suicidal thoughts, my depression and my anxiety, a switch went off in my mind. I really didn't want to die. Not from this. I was equipped with some of the tools I had for my six-week program and started working from that day forward with the help of my partner. I've worked every day since then and I've been having a better version of myself. In those two years with my relapse from Lilliania, I lost a lot of friends. I lost a meaningful relationship. I lost a job. I lost the trust of my new colleagues for work. Not to mention the heaps of money an hour and it's wasted on the binge per cycle. It's been a lot to clean up after. And that's what I call paying off emotional debt. That phrase was said many years ago by a friend and former colleague Lillian Bursin. He told me that all the lies, all of the stress and all of the anxiety would eventually accumulate in one big mess that eventually I'd need to work off. That emotional debt, much like technical debt, must be dealt with. In some ways, speaking about this publicly is a point of a back of recovery. I've spent a lot of time thinking about how I did rock bottom. The lies and the substance abuse. I really have become the worst version of myself and I never want to be like that again. I know there's a good chance that I'll relapse again. But my mental business, that I talk about this with others, raise awareness, help others. It'll be harder for me to relapse. People will sleep. People will notice. Recovery and treatment is different for all people. However, only one in ten people with an eating disorder will receive it. In men, those numbers are even lower because of the state-of-the-art eating disorders are a women's issue. In the rest of the tech community, as individuals, as contracts and data organizers, as team leads, and company leadership, it's important for us not only to understand the issues that have affected our colleagues and friends, but to be advocates for and support those with mental health issues. As individuals and as an industry, working to make tech more inclusive and safe-place, eating disorders, unfortunately, aren't really a part of this. As individuals, you have a voice. You can be an advocate for and to support those with eating disorders. As members of an organization or as a committee, you can speak up to today's concerns. Making sure that your org is a safe space for those who are suffering. You can be a voice. When you hear people making remarks on what another person is eating, when you see people making comments on the appearance of others, remind people that eating disorders are deadly. Remind people that it's not effectiveness. Remind people to be amplified. Organized meals are a great place for us to make an effort to ensure inclusive aid to not only those with eating disorders, but all mental health issues. It's popular to have companies provide on-site meals and snacks. Managerial meals provided in-house to your employees don't have to leave the office. It's bad for all mental health. Those programs we develop to take pressure off of workers to a lot of them think about the problems they're solving at work but not the problem of what's for lunch. But taking a break from the computer screen isn't as effective if you're still spending the office. Taking longs, changing locations, removing yourself for an hour might mean you're not cranking out workers quickly, but it also means you have the opportunity to step away from talking physically as well as mentally. Regardless of the meals that are provided, whether in the office or at the event, you're putting people in a position where they no longer have options.  Generally when I put this situation where workers providing even lunch are generally anxious, resentful, and will typically skip it all together. Now of course, everyone with an eating disorder will be different and handle these situations to the best of their abilities. We are all responsible for our own actions. However, given the shame of the taboo that surrounds not only mental health issues but especially eating disorders, it's difficult for people to voice concerns about eating situations. For example, last year my company was preparing to go on a team retreat to beautiful Barcelona, Spain. And as I was getting my things in order to leave, scheduled for the offside arrives in my inbox. Upon scanning the events at the time table, I see group cooking session as a team building activity. Immediately I was hit with a panic attack. Though I've made a lot of progress in my recovery, to this day I was still extremely controlling while buying when I eat. And now I see I've been thrown into a scenario where I'm going to be expected to cook food strangers. What was I going to do? To my knowledge, all of the events were mandatory. Could I approach the person who created the schedule and say I won't be able to attend? Or will I miss the fun? Will people notice what I'm missing? Can I take the money with me and find other food alternatives through the evening? Would that be considered a boycott of the event? These are the things running through my mind as I cried and I prevailed. Ultimately what I ended up doing was attending the event. What that resulted in was another panic attack and me excusing myself from the building. It was a pretty embarrassing experience and I wish I'd skipped it all together. If your company is made up of just 20 people, statistically speaking at least two of your employees will be eating disorders on my meal-ups. If your event will have 210 eats, you're looking at least 20 of them with eating disorders. So while this seems like a small minority, in reality it's more common than anything. Instead of offering a variety of unhealthy food options for your meet-ups and conferences, consider offering whole-food options instead. Ditch the cupcakes and offer something healthy for the afternoon snack. Cater from your local Mediterranean or Thai restaurants for your meet-ups. This family benefits those with eating disorders who rely on healthy food options. Healthy options will help all of your attendees feel satisfied and alert. One of the best conferences to handle the what's for lunch was 2015's Madison Breeding. Upon registration, each attendee was given an honorable cash to be spent on a lunch. This kind of program essentially empowers people to make their own food decisions. I didn't have to be put in a situation where I had to hunt down a server to get a specially requested meal. I wasn't put in an offered position where I was uncomfortable providing food buffet.  So we buddied up with a few fellow attendees that I was totally comfortable with. These examples, they work great for events. But what can companies do to ensure their employees are being treated well with eating disorders? Much like any other health benefit, mental health should be a priority for your company. As medically-recognized mental illness, eating disorders qualified for the Americans with Disabilities Act. As managing directors or company leadership, you should familiarize yourself with the medical benefit of mental health benefits.  Mental health disorders that affect more women than men. So including women in these discussions will ensure that their voices are heard and those disorders are most likely to be covered. Once you've recouped yourself with plans and information to support those with mental health issues, ensure that those practices and information are transparent to everyone. That way, everybody is able to take advantage of their benefits. At Travis, we have some pretty transparent discussions with policy regarding mental health. For example, taking the mental health that is not current as one of our men for your 28 vacation days. We're not questioning the legitimacy of our mental health days. We simply want to see each other well. Happy Builders produce a better product than overall. Additionally, we've started a mental health channel in our company, Slack, where we're able to discuss issues we're having, support fellow builders, and share mental health resources. While we're very lucky at Travis to have a small company of supportive colleagues, I know that mental health doesn't exist everywhere and it won't work in all cases. But if I take the lighter down and find the middle of the mental breakdown, I can simply take the day off, hatch up on reruns above the vampire slayer and deep press. But even if we don't provide a safe space for your employees to talk amongst each other about mental health, I strongly recommend you recommend to have questions asked as to policy regarding mental health days. Just as important as physical health. Whether someone has the flu or having an anxiety attack, if they can't work, just give them time to recover. You'll have happier employees for it. At this in the air, the tinkling of silverware meaning a dish, a toast, an appetizer, a may, a dessert. I don't know if the toilet's a private and it doesn't matter. No regret. Just good company, kindred life there and upon memory. This feels right. Eating disorders like all mental health issues are serious and should be treated as such. I encourage all of you to get thinking about how we can support those with mental health issues. Start a conversation with your office. With your friends. Invite people to speak at your events. As I said earlier, I'm part of an initiative called the problem that sends speakers, such as myself, to events to talk about bringing life to mental health topics. If possible, get in touch with prompt and invite someone to speak at your events event. Continuing these conversations is how we make a positive impact in our industry and how we treat mental health. What this all means, whether you're someone who's suffering or just another individual working in this community, we have one goal and we need to share this industry. Think less about technology itself and more about the people building it. Happy people build better software. For people with eating and other mental health disorders and the subsequent issues that generally have happened in them, we need to promise to look after each other. We can't build anything amazing and we can't take away from each other.


Happy to introduce a journalist in the media analyzed analyzed That has full of you know this European Work and the US work with the copyright directive and this have been a big issue here So we welcome you Emanuel Carlsten welcome Great. Thank you So the world of journalism is Not in crisis but in media houses are I had an experience last year Where I understood three things That journalism is always going to be a necessity to a civil society That it will be paid for by readers, but the purpose must always be very clear. So I'm a journalist I'm a columnist. I'm a media analyst and I Write on the things that are overlooked or forgotten by Traditional media most of the times this means stories on social media could also mean Things when or times when politicians or politics are doing things to internet. So last year in May I stumbled across this piece of legislation in the European Union called the copyright directive it It was weird to me and I started to research this and it was a shilling read it contained especially two articles and one article 11 the colds later called the link text and that would And or actually suggested that media houses are losing money and because of they are losing money every site every blog or every Everyone pretty much that wants to link to a news story needs to to pay they need to pay to then to the media house a pretty much and Even Google search needed to pay if they wanted to show a snippet of text from the news story in the Google search results So this was of course weird because it was threatening the and taxing the very foundation of internet the hyper link And then there was this other article called article 13, which was later called the upload filter Demanding all social media platforms to filter every content Uploaded on their platform in search for copyright infringement if the text image video or audio would contain any copyrighted content It should be blocked before even published So I read this and I understood that no other media houses No other journalists were reporting on this and it was weird so I wrote my column on this and I summarized it like this How about a filter that reads what your uploads writes and publishes and instantly removes it if it's illegal dystopic hardly because Sweden has already approved it and you is about to follow This blew up online, of course, especially with young readers because they perhaps more than others understood its Implication that this was in fact one of the big Decisions of our generation if every piece of content should be stripped of copyrighted information It would be difficult to ever upload something even if just recording something from your room You would have perhaps music in the background or a poster a painting on the wall Which would be a copyrighted infringement and that would mean that the video could not be uploaded other journalists even EU correspondence that's full-time in the European Parliament covering story said well you're overreacting This is nothing this will never be passed and if it will be passed it will be a must Much more altered version of it. This is normal process pretty much So don't worry about it, but in connect community. They reacted the opposite way They put together petitions that gathered hundreds of thousands of signatures to protest against this Wikipedia in Poland Germany and Spain blacked out their sites in protest of the directive and the members of Parliament Started receiving so many calls and emails and just reactions that they said they never experienced anything like it on any other single issue or question still Media outlets were not reporting on it and soon members of Parliament started thinking about this What's what is this could this really be the biggest thing in our term in in the European Parliament? Is there something else behind this they started thinking or suggesting or looking for alternate alternative explanations? Thinking perhaps these are just bots. These are not citizens They're just bots coming to us to kind of manipulate the process perhaps Facebook and Google is behind these reactions and they are not real people and They started saying this publicly and they decided privately as well And I know this because I decided to travel to the Parliament myself out of my own pocket to to witness and cover the for this votes On the Parliament in Strasbourg in France and I talked to them and they said this to me as well They really believed that they were not really citizen It was just Facebook that kind of manipulated the legislative process and I was astonished surprised it was Shocking pretty much because because it was citizens that we were talking about really So when the vote on the director was passed on the Parliament the whole Parliament actually decided to stand up because they felt They did something good They had stood up against whoever is was behind all of this and I was shocked because it was a complete Thunderous applause for two to themselves for actually standing up on this. Do you have a clip of that? Oh We don't have a clip of that. All right. Anyway, so there was thunderous applause Of them just standing up and it was weird because if it was if they had won a victory against who I don't know So after the vote In Parliament, it was only me and one other journalist that actually wanted to talk to the the leading Reparateur of the directive Axel boss and it was weird because I felt in Sweden that no one was reporting about it But I just figured that when I came to the Parliament I would see a lot of other reporters being there covering its in-depth story, but it was only me and one other Dutch Guy, oh, there we go with the thunderous applause All right, it was only me and one other Dutch guy trying to interview this guy this This rapporteur of the direct very reactive and by me just asking a few questions to him about the directive about what he has voted on It became clear that he had no idea of the in-depth Implications of the directive and I could do breaking stories that had spread both in my country and in the whole Europe by just being They're talking to the politicians so The directive had passed it has not passed completely that passed into a final trial of talks and Was due to be have one final vote left before it was supposed to be a law in the in the countries of the European Union It was six months later March 2019 this year So by now I realized how big support it was I had a great following the readers I had many readers on my story and I thought could I go from publishing in traditional media to publish on my own blog On my own site and do it free and open for everyone Could I ask my readers that I felt was more and more depending on my reporting on this story to to cover my expenses to cover to pay me really to travel for the final vote and Allow me to report on it as open as possible accessible as possible when there are free and open that license CC by So I did that. I decided to create Kickstarter asking Please help me. I'm going to two days to Strasbourg to cover the final vote. I'm asking for 3,000 euros Help me fund this trip and with the one hour it was funded and I was just astonished, of course I didn't know what to expect and I said, okay I'll add another day for a thousand more euros and it was funded in within minutes so I thought okay, so Double the sum I'll bring another photographer with me will be two journalists and we'll also go to a trip to the biggest To the biggest protest demonstration wherever it is in Europe and we'll cover it and we'll do video Photography text whatever you want and we'll just go and with that in a day was funded as well Okay, I'll add a translator It'll be on standby the whole time and he'll translate everything to English and with in another day Or within the time it was funded as well and then I really didn't have anything else to fund So I was just happy with that right so I traveled we went to to Strasbourg and We had this with this commander support this little team and we actually went before that to Berlin to cover this big protest It was the biggest one in Berlin hundreds of thousands of people out on the streets protesting against this Directive and of course we also went to Strasbourg to cover the final vote Which was passed by by five votes not amended by five modes only five votes Among the 700 members of Parliament And I can tell you a lot of stories about that from being there and a lot of things that our cumbersome are Difficult about that, but that's not the main point. That's not the main point Why I'm here today The main point is how this was showcasing to me how journalism will financially survive That when made clear to readers how their money to support journalism will make a difference not only for them But for the society they will have no problem paying for open accessible journalism So when I came home I just said okay So this is over its past But if you want me to keep an eye open I'll do that as well for how it will be implemented in the European countries the following Years and sure and no problem. They funded that well that as well So I can just keep an eye open for it for it and all of this proves to me how bright the future of journalism is That media houses might collapse, but what something dies something new will resurrect So we as a society Have an important mission to keep good information to the open to the public so they can be informed make better Decisions and I know this is not new to Wikipedia. This is how you are funding your whole the whole process I guess but for journalism. This is groundbreaking and when the Guardian last week announced that they finally Profitable it was because they asked readers. Please help us fund our journalism to keep it accessible to keep it open And they're profitable for the first times in decades, and I believe this is the future To collectively fund good content to be open and free for the benefits of all Thank you. Thank you so much. Thank you and to hand over a token of appreciation. We have wiki Media Sweden have donated in your name to the UN DP. Wow, great. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you so much. Thank you


Yeah, we on Boss Talk, one-on-one. I definitely, like I said, so Riza, Wu-Tang, did you rock out with all of them at points? Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. And how was it dealing with the whole group? It was cool, man. All of them are really good dudes, man. They're really, really wonderful people, you know? You knew Old Dirty Bastard? Oh, yeah. OK, how was he? I'm just cool.  When they did the Rock the Bells, when they did the headlining with Rage Against the Machine, we went out with them with that. So we played as the band for them. So I put the band together, you know? And so I was with them through that whole thing. We were on the buses, we did the whole thing. And I had met them before that just dealing with Riza. But they're all just like home. You know, they welcoming, they come in, man, which you need, this and this and that, you know? So they've always been real good. When you think about Old Dirty Bastard, you think about that energy, you know what I mean? But I know a person not like that at all times. No, no, no, no, no, not at all. But when he hit that stage, the character comes to play. You see what I'm saying? You know who he was. You know those people you meet. You might have them in your family or something like that. That you envy in a way because they are exactly who they are at all times. And they're going to be that. OK. You know what I mean? It's like my auntie. I think about my auntie Carol, she's that way. We look at her like she's going, that's auntie Carol. Yeah. You know what I mean? ODB was like that. He going to be that way. You see what you get. Yeah, exactly. And you know, that teaches us. Because a lot of times we hide behind things with not exactly who we are. We're scared to show the public our real faces and things like that. Correct. Not Old Dirty Bastard. He ain't never been that dude. His name, everything fit. You know? Not seriously. But when you're rounding away from that, he just chill. Yeah. What's up, man? You know, he cool. We sit there watching some Kung Fu stuff together. When he when he got out and he was interviewed by VH1, they were following him around. I was out there at the time. OK. At 36 chambers in New York. OK. And he came through and, you know, we hanging out and all this stuff. And so I'm saying. And then a little while after that, when I got back home, Rizzo was still out there. That's when he passed away. Yeah. You know what I mean? And that was a hard thing. Because you know, they're cousins. Yeah. So Rizzo. So you it had to affect you as well. You knew him. So I mean, it definitely affected me. Because, like I said, I got to know these dudes, you know? And and and they're people, man. Correct. I mean, you get to know the real part of them beyond all the other stuff. So anybody that goes through any kind of suffering, anything like that, you know, close to you or not. You know, and then I'm feeling for Rizzo, because I know how close he was as well.  Bar sign is his real name. But he's I used to do music with him up at the studio and stuff.  And and he looks just like him, too. Does he just like it? And now he he does this thing just like. But he was very mature, you know, dude.


Hello everybody and welcome to the Saturday livestream. So just the title and the thumbnail suggest We have to take a look at why so many people got it wrong with Bitcoin and since we front ran them on Bitcoin should we be talking more about altcoins and what to actually take a look at so just jump right in This was a little piece that I had seen circulating on on X what was called Twitter back in the day Jim Kramer admits he was wrong about Bitcoin and he states. I was premature now when we hear anything from Jim Kramer Usually we go at the exact opposite of what he says and usually works out pretty well for us So with this one with him kind of flipping I gotta tell you I'm a little bit concerned but it is a little too less a little too late and I think there's just a problem with Traditional finance looking at Bitcoin and what it actually is so this is it's a long article I'm gonna paraphrase it in like three sentences like to do and get things down to business Which it comes out of this on December 5th, 2022 when Bitcoin is trading for 17,150 Kramer urged investors to sell all their crypto no matter the cost Saying it was never too late to sell in awful position And of course the price of Bitcoin rallied so December 5th, let's come over here and this is the Bitcoin price chart going all the way back 2013. Let's just Let's go to November 27th 2022 let's just back it up a little bit and just see how how Jim was well Jim was Extremely wrong yet again, and when I look at this it's it's it's almost laughable But it just proves a point which is the point is is that there's so many experts out there in the world and They're telling you one thing about a market and then you'll see another expert tell you exactly the opposite And I like I've always said there's one thing that two experts can always agree on and that is that the third one doesn't know What they're talking about so when we see all these experts there and they're talking about you know This is this is a bad investment. This is what is I think in all honesty I wonder how much research Jim actually has done into this and I wonder how much research most of the experts have done To give us their opinion now we live this every day, right? We take a look at portfolio We watch you watch the videos like like this on YouTube You probably take a look at different white papers you you're really into it because if you're here You're not a tourist so when I see something like this I'm like, why do people give the experts so much leeway and I think it just because we always have and this is just one Prime example of things just getting it wrong and then just to jump into it I want you to understand what Jim said because it wasn't like he was he was saying oh, this is the best investment of all time It's gonna be so awesome. Everybody should just jump in this was a video just three days ago And it's during his like lightning rounds and I'm not here to to pile on Jim Kramer I find him highly entertaining. He's an entertainer. All right I think that's one of his disclaimers that he has in the show so just take a listen to this and I It's gonna be it's gonna sound kind of funny because I had to slow it down Because he's mumbling and jumbling and getting all over the place I just didn't understand what the hell he was talking about even with the close captions on so I slowed it down to 0.75 no Jim Kramer is not drunk It's just that I want you to actually hear this and this is about 20 or so seconds Let's just take a listen. So let me make sure that you can hear it the right way. Let me pull up the tab itself and There's there's Jim in all his glory. So let's just take a listen If you like Bitcoin by Bitcoin that has always been my view and for a while I liked it and you know, I decided well, you know what that money for me But I was I was premature, but what would you make a lot of money? That's something back. Let's kind of Okay, that's it. So I just I had to slow it down because you can just tell that he's very jumbled and what he was talking about because I Mean, let's be honest. He made a pretty poor call So usually when people make a poor call They don't want to really go into depth about how much they kind of screwed that one up But I mean to to Jim's credit. He did make a lot of money in Bitcoin I mean he bought it somewhat low and he sold it somewhat at the high point I think he paid off his mortgage But what he's saying here is and what the call I was asking about was clean spark and clean spark is a Bitcoin miner here operation here in the United States and that triggered Jim to talk about Bitcoin and say, you know, hey You know, I was a little bit premature to sell it But in all honesty, he really wasn't that premature to sell he sold it he made a profit he moved on now if you had been smart and Done his research and figure out about these things called the four-year cycles Which we talked about ad nauseam on this channel He probably would have seen that maybe Down here was not a bad time to just hold on and just to see how things went and then you know go from there but again there's gonna be experts out there they're gonna tell you you're wrong and You have to here's the thing you have to take it with a grain of salt because It's not like they're smarter than you or they're better than you It's just that they maybe have more of a podium I can actually get more attention Because they're on TV. They're on some other different platform So you're gonna see these different experts and if you ever want to take a look at the experts who have been super wrong There's a great website called 99 bitcoins calm Under the Bitcoin of bitch queries. I linked this in the description I'd love to see this every so often because this is just over the last year they updated Intermittently but you're gonna see that you know Across a wide spectrum about just how many times Bitcoin has died itself and There's different ones from like you'll have stuff on Twitter. It'll link it to the actual article itself You want to take a take a gander? You can see that it's just every single step of the way.  This is dead. This is dead and of course You know, you see a lot of them over here when we're in like this This accumulation stage look at that Then of course we go all the way up And then in case it's just the same thing and everybody around here is gonna say the same stupid thing Which is it's a tulip bubble, which I don't I've never heard of a tulip bubble being 13 years But whatever so I mean you'll have these and you'll kind of look at this and go what the heck But I get it because a lot of people especially in 2021 They were thinking to themselves Maybe this isn't gonna come back. Maybe this isn't a good deal. Maybe these four-year cycles are just full of it This doesn't make any sense. Maybe I should just pack it in but now you see That everything's gonna be all right So anyhow, just wanted to bring that to everybody's attention. That's uh, I know sometimes that's the experts seem convincing but yet again, they are wrong yet again and Before we get into like the altcoins and things like that I just want to remind everybody that uh, there's a couple of indicators that if you're if you're worried right now You're like shoot. I missed this. I missed the bull run. This is it You know, I should have bought when rob was buying dollar. I'm just kidding when I was dollar cost averaging I'm still there's some I'm still actually no Now there's some I'm still in the red as far as dollar cost averaging But you didn't miss anything and I want to remind you that Uh, just because we're making this video today doesn't mean that we can't have a major crash tomorrow Maybe something comes up where you know, there's another huge pandemic that comes out Which there's one brewing in china right now or maybe there's some different data that comes out that looks at that Oh inflation is uh Rapidly on the rise and now we're gonna have to raise rates again Or uh, maybe something comes out about recession news or maybe something comes out about some kind of infrastructure issue Or maybe another war. I don't know But all I'm saying is that just because things are going pretty well in a bull market doesn't mean we can't Take a step back having said that things are looking pretty good And I think we're still pretty early There's a couple different indicators like to look at of course. I look at looking at bitcoin.com One of the ones I like to see is this pie cycle top indicator and it's been pretty Decently accurate But actually pretty accurate since all the way back in 2011 and what it does It takes the the 111 day moving average and the cross when I cross over the 350 day moving average times two You kind of get this point where it's like, okay This is the high point and actually it happened over here last one was at Damn it did a pretty good job 62,000 April 14th. That's pretty good Well, this is on the one hour, which is I needed that's really good actually That's on the one hour and now let's let's go in the 24 hour And you can see that going all the way back 23rd 2017. It almost nailed it pretty much like 13 same thing again 2017 then over here in the 24 hour did okay. I got like 350 2000 But whatever but I just wanted to to show you that hey out These aren't coming. They're slightly together, but we got a long ways to go. I mean look how long it took from all the way over here Even though it came close around 2019 But look at this time it's looking like two more years and that's just one indicator So again, if you think like I lost it all or if you take a look like the another one I'm looking at bitcoin is the bitcoin cycle master take a look at this You can see right here I mean Look how far down we're actually at we're not even the midpoint and we've done pretty good so far So we're not in this uh aggressively valued or overvalued territory whatsoever yet Which you can see that on this one same thing 28 2017 nailed it 2021 63,000. That's not bad. Didn't hit a C 7000 and over here a thousand in 2013 So again lots of time to go But the question then has to be as well Okay, I mean bitcoin is doing pretty good and now you got uh, you know these geniuses talking about bitcoin again And maybe that's it. Well, look here's the thing We've already front run these guys on bitcoin We all did a great job as they were twilling their thumbs and talking trash about it Which some people will say that you know either they're totally clueless on it or they're orchestrating it for people to have Their apprehensiveness about it so they can buy it up in the background Could be so the question is then is as everybody's talking about bitcoin should we be looking at alts And you know on this channel and then tomorrow on sunday I always go over all the different uh alts I've been buying and how I've been dollar cost averaging and my uh percentage gains and whatnot You're welcome to come by tomorrow. It's fun times and um, but the thing you might want to take to ask yourself is What kind of alts should uh are doing pretty well and what should I actually look at because I can't tell you what to buy I'm not a financial advisor, right? So with this one a good place to start and I've always said there's Well, I've said for quite some time that there's two narratives. They're going to really run Uh, the bull run Which would be ai and gaming and we talked about this for the last year And some change And now we're taking a look and I think it's going to be three I think it's going to be ai gaming and dexes And the reason for dexes is because of the different laws and things that are coming out against the centralized exchanges Take a look at what happened to binance. Take a look at the sec suing coinbase The sec suing kraken and cracking down on pretty much everything they can possibly do So I think dexes will make a make a big play. What do you want to look? Well, go to coin gecko again coin gecko I'm always using and if you click on categories And you're going to see all the different categories What I like to do sometimes is for giggles is just to take over look here You can take a look at a seven day Just click on the seven day and you can or you can organize it by which ones are up the most and this is only seven days So you can't really say okay. Well, this is the end all be all but if you do this for over, you know Weeks and weeks and weeks you start to get a consensus Of where things are going and again, look what's on top chain gpt pad last seven days is the hundred and fifty two percent That's pretty big and Let's see. What are these not for sure? So chain gpt open fabric ai again the ai narrative dex check solidius and this is 118 percent over seven days Market caps only 46 million Boss volume so not too bad whatsoever. Let's go back And let's see what else we got npt marketplace be careful with this because npt marketplaces could also be gaming as well Telegram apps who to thunk it 27 discord bots. See there's some things that I would never even have known about discord bots are up 47 percent. Okay Move to earn. All right I'm not going to say it, but you know what I'm going to say move to earn. That's a pretty good section unfortunately for me Steppen is beating my favorite app, which is sweat economy or sweat coin But it's in the second place. So I'll take it and That's one of those things that I think I don't think it's going to You know rule the next bull run, but I mean for me, it's something that I like So we'll see then of course you got ai 24 percent animal racing Oh, this is pretty much gambling like horse racing and stuff like that rwa world world assets and if you've been watching the channel, you know that avalanche has been doing a lot of different things with jp morgan And uh them moving real world assets across blockchains across the world So something that I should take a look at nfts again also could be gaming and then gaming or game five Let's take a look. They're 14 percent for seven days. Not bad, but over the time. It's been quite a bit Here's what we got icp In seven days up 13 immutable x up 26. It's pretty good sandbox axi gala alluvium. I want you to remember these names Uh ape coin flokey engine ronin echelon prime Vulcan forge yield games gods unshane Nakamoto games. These are some pretty big players. Look at gods on chain 74 and seven days So again, this is one of those things where I could say that yes, it definitely is now looking for one called playable playable And I don't see it So this is what I was talking about. I actually put it over here. I cheated but playable games. This is up Uh over 30 days 1,203 percent now again, am I cherry picking some data? Absolutely, but uh You have to understand that these are just one of the many games that are popping off now Did you miss the boat? I don't think you did. I think this is just the first wave As many waves to come but again, am I telling you to go all in Sell your kidneys your house and your kids to buy playable. No I'm just telling you that I think that we've got a long way to run And playable itself uh, it looks like it's It's a studio that creates different variable games. They got a max supply is 50 billion they're also funds as far as like nodes and of course it's all about nfts and being able to own your assets across different chains And being able to move those assets as you play different games across the games that they're going to put out But this is very early. I don't know if they have any let's see. Do they have games? I guess they do nexus Or not and look at that I wonder if they're actually Playable playable or if it's like just demo so far anyhow, you get the point So with these types of things and of course, you know, as a mart here's the nfts and stuff like that With these types of things There's a lot of different areas you can get into and I'm going to let your imagination run wild And of course tomorrow. Um, not only am I going to talk about the uh Crypto that I've been delicose averaging for the sundays, which was uh, you know different 10 or 11 But once which ones I've been buying the last month or so Behind the scenes because I don't tell everybody everything that I buy because I'm sick and tired of people saying hey You bought this thing and then I bought this and it went down because no one likes to take your responsibility for their actions so I'm just like uh I'll just keep down the wraps for a bit. But uh, all these different things we just talked about and the things we just said Uh, I've had on I've had on the experts. I've had on uh, crypto stash Johnny from banter Johnny hustle, uh, kaggy and uh, uh, Jesus Martinez from classy games and it's interesting because like even Jesus this morning He put out this this tweet. He's like, hey, these are the ones He said I told you and they're all web three gamers and that's their their big thing and they are the They know a lot more than I do that's for sure because he said, hey, this one things we called we called myriah and we call playable games And I was like, yeah, it's actually true because well, here's Jesus's uh X and then also his youtube and here we are discussing all these things that he just talked about on september 1st 2023 and as a matter of fact If you go to my website 100 free dan teaches crypto I don't even spam you with the email that you used to use the sign up I just tell you when I update things if you go to gaming The first one's yeah, too. That's a good one with anamoka brands But uh with johnny hustle out on september 21st And what was what were his top plays vulcan forge immutable x dubs echelon gala And then stash didn't give too much. He says, you know, I like avalanche and I like some things that are like layer ones And then keggy his plays were ronan aluvium immutable x gameswift and avogaci and then And then for some reason I put him down. I don't know why I put him down here I got to move him up one anyhow and then what were What was Jesus's big ones and this was september 1st gala ronan immutable x aluvium avalanche polygona myriad Don't we just take a look at so again when I heard about these You know, I got into a little bit and of course this is the thing I I don't think people realized how big it was going to be even though I was saying it ad nauseam But it is what it is. I don't think that you missed anything I just think you missed the first wave and uh, we'll see how it goes from there. Anyhow, that's it for today So if you like today's video give it a thumbs up consider subscribing everything we talk about is time sensitive Oh, there was one more thing I forgot to add which was and Jesus said a really sorry Hey Jesus is going to come back on the show on wednesday and the reason why he's coming back is because he said something very peculiar in one of his twitter posts and he talked about how that he's made more Revenue on just playing the games and earning the crypto and the nfts and things like that Then he has investing he said it's actually way more And I'm like, hey, you need to come on the show one and explain that to us because on this show We're not a big group of gamers I don't think I think maybe a small percentage maybe 20 percent of you guys are our gamers like game game gamers But the rest are mostly our investors So I'm like, hey come on the show explain that to us and then we'll go from there and if you're thinking yourself Well, we're out. I'm not going to play these games. What's the point? You got kids You got grandkids You got nieces. You got nephews Maybe they could Might want to help you out for a cut of the action Maybe christmas is coming up and they're looking for a new blah blah blah And you say, hey, how'd you like to play this game and uh, you know, you give daddy half Some of the thing about and we'll have Jesus on the channel In on wednesday, or maybe you just want to start playing games because you want to reduce your stress and actually do something different It's up to you. But that's that is it for today. So Everybody thanks so much for stopping by. I do appreciate you coming by on a saturday Uh, if you would be so kind hit the like on the way out and uh comment and then


Hi there. This tech talk is about publishing and sharing Google Docs, basically a couple different ways of getting eyeballs onto your Google Docs other than your own, of course, in ways that will prevent people from editing that Google Doc, of course, primarily in the context of getting student access to your Google Docs, whether as a web page or in a version that would allow them, if you want, to be able to make a copy for themselves of your Google Doc. So we're going to just do a little comparison and contrast between publishing and sharing a Google Doc. Let me go ahead and share my screen with you here. At this point, you should see a Google Doc here on the right side of my monitor. And you've probably seen this copy elsewhere. Basically, this can be any kind of Google Doc. It doesn't have to be just straightforward text. You can have images, tables, et cetera, et cetera. So starting off with publishing a Google Doc and depending on how long you may have been here, if you've been through one of our Moodle trainings in the past, up till about a year ago, we've been strongly recommending that you publish a Google Doc in your Moodle course, let's say, or elsewhere. So under the File menu, down to Publish to the Web, you'll find where it will allow you to publish a Google Doc to the Web. So all you do, of course, is click the blue Publish button. It's going to give you confirmation. Do you really want to do this? Yes, I want to. And then at that point, this link right here, if I press Command C or Control C on Windows, that's the link to the published version of this Google Doc. I'm going to show you what that looks like over here on the left side over here. I'll paste that in. And this is what the published version of the Google Doc on the right side here does on the left. So you see it looks different, of course. It's just a straight across web page version. So imagine, no matter how you have any kind of formatting, any kind of alignments, images, et cetera, that may or may not translate very well into the published version. So what you'll have on the Doc side and the editing side may look a little different. So if it's just straightforward text like this doc, it shouldn't be a problem. But that's one easy way of publishing your Google Doc. So let's say you want to put this in your Moodle course, you can just grab this link that you've already copied and paste that as a URL resource type in Moodle. So what about the other way? What about a way to share a Google Doc? Look up here in the upper right versus share in the Google Doc. If I click that, and then I click in the upper right of that pop up, get shareable link. So the default setting is anyone at Lynn Benton Community College with the link can view it. If I click this drop down, you'll see that's the setting that gives me right there. But I don't want students especially, I don't want them to necessarily have to be logged into their LBCC, Google Apps account, to their Gmail account to be able to view this, especially if they're just running on a Moodle course, they may or may not be always logging into both Gmail and Moodle. Most likely, they're going to be only logged in to Moodle. So unless you've got a specific reason for them to necessarily need to be logged in to also their Gmail or the Google Apps account, I would suggest going down here to the more area and then have right here the second one on anyone with a link. Of course, the default setting for access is can view. But if you wanted to, for some reason, you could let them edit or comment. But the vast majority of times, of course, you're going to want your students to only be able to view a Google Doc. So, of course, they can't be editing your content for other students to see. And then you click Save. Now, at this point, the link right here in the pop up is what you're going to put in your Moodle course. Let's say again, as a URL resource type, I can click that right there. I can click Done. And then I can paste that link into my Moodle course, or for that matter, into an outgoing email, et cetera, et cetera. So the difference again between publishing under the file menu and sharing under the blue share box. That's the main difference. Let me go ahead and I'm going to get an incognito window, which by the way, incognito window is up here in this little three little lines up here on the upper right down to new incognito window. That's just basically a window that doesn't recognize any logins of the browser windows behind it. So this is simulating if a student was clicking into a link of my Moodle course, let's say, paste that in there. And that's how it's going to look. And of course, I'll have view only. Now, if I was, if I was a student logged into my LBCC Google Apps account, or for that matter, my personal Gmail under the file menu, this make a copy. It wouldn't be grayed out. It'd be available for me to make a copy of this Google Doc that would then reside in my Google Drive. So that's one thing to keep in mind.  If you share that with people with viewing only, they will be able to, if they know how they want to, under their file menu down to make a copy, make a copy of that doc. So that's got pluses, minuses to think about too.  And that about covers it. Thanks for watching.


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The comedian said if God didn't want you to self-pleasure God loves you and God wants you to succeed in life So God would have put your genitals in the middle of your back where it's hard to reach But instead it's right here. It's right in front. It is the most comfortable place possible Hello there lovers and friends. Let's get straight to the point masturbation. I do it. You do it He does it and today we're gonna answer your most pressing questions on it Do you know why I asked you to be my right-hand man for today's video? All right, so it's probably because for a large portion of my life I was waiting till marriage to have sex and you most likely believe that in order to get through that phase of my life I had I had to caress myself through it in my mind if there's anybody who knows about self-pleasure masturbation It would be you. I had assumed that you've done it all kinds of ways different place I am the master of masturbation. 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I just don't understand how fun a report can be 91% of American men and 78% of American women Well, so it's like men masturbate and women Now I know people love to talk about all the things that millennials do wrong, but take this in Millennials masturbate more than Gen Z or Gen X Americans say they touch themselves the most in the month of June from the hours of 7 30 p.m. To 11 30 p.m. When Postmates is not delivered People who identify as LGBTQ plus masturbate more than those who identify as heterosexual Sex and masturbation are more stress-reducing than meditating Getting a massage and playing with cute little animals that we see on Instagram like little puppies and Ferrets according to tanga self-pleasure report people fantasize more about their previous partners and their current. Oh No You can tanga You can tango with tanga, baby So if you want to read tangos full 2019 self-pleasure report go to feel more dog global slash Shen you can get all the fun facts that your heart can desire without further ado. Yo Don't get to your question. What if somebody wants to masturbate to the report? My partner isn't comfortable with me masturbating. What do I do dump them? Really? Like first of all, that's mad controlling don't you think so?  I would say though that there is a lot of Sex negative messaging and also there is a lot of toxic monogamy in a sense where people view masturbation as a competition And so if I masturbate I'm doing it because my partner isn't pleasing me enough versus masturbation is a completely separate activity That's really just for me and that doesn't have a lot in common with partnered sex It is something totally different and masturbation is a part of wellness just like flossing your teeth They're going for a run or drinking some green juice. So I think of it. It's very different And I think if you explain that way to your partner that like look, this is not about me Thinking that you're not doing your job, right This is about me having my own activity for myself because it just seems like you're tending to some insecurity there Baby, you do a good job. I just need to go floss my teeth.  There's so much fear that people aren't good enough in the bedroom So I just think instead of going straight for the dump where it's a little bit of extra communication But how many conversations are you gonna have?  Um Yes, so there's been a couple times where a girl has asked can she use a vibrator and that's never I'm like, yeah Do what you think like why would you Feel insecure about that I guess it goes back to that notion of if you have to bring in something additional It means that I'm not bringing enough to the table versus the table is full We just want to add some garnish to it. We just want to put a little cranberry sauce Exactly the turkey's already great But wouldn't some cranberry sauce be nice? You're the turkey I I look at sex a lot like eating, you know, like food like a culinary experience Like there's a lot of great basic food to not for me Like I I don't eat meat, but a beyond burger and some fries But the other day I had brown butter mashed potatoes with truffle aioli gravy Before we move on I wanted to actually gift this with to you So this is tanga's svr. It is a cock ring that has a very large vibrator on top And so this might be that extra it's a toy for both. It's single It's one single toy So if you're not if you don't want to bring a chest into the bedroom where it's like you get this and I get this And there's 17 different things overwhelm your partner You want to overwhelm your partner you start with something light and once you start they see and they feel the benefits of it You could start opening them up to new things. Okay, that makes sense. You want to read this one? What is it? Let's give it. Let's give it some variety How do I get my partner to feel comfortable masturbating?  I would think that people look at masturbation.  Yes, and I think somebody who masturbates and Practices that is actually a better lover. Yeah, and a more Exciting and spontaneous lover. Well, why is it because I've always felt like Women are more in tune with themselves than men are but it seems like the percentage is lower For women that masturbate.   You look at your volvo girl. Have you ever taken a mirror before and looked at around at the nuts The gonads. I've never taken a mirror and look at no Girl, you ain't looked at your volvo. You have no idea what your parody looks like. The thing is this, there is nothing attractive about a man's nuts And I feel like we don't want to look at them, but you've got to look for the beauty on the inside That's what I'm saying. My inside is beautiful, but my nuts. No, not so beautiful Okay, let's answer this question I would say if your partner does not feel comfortable masturbating It's up to you to debunk some of the sex negative language They've gotten I think it's important for us to remember that for a lot of people they've spent 20 plus years We were just talking about this with Jared. He went to a church for example where masturbating was extreme No, no, and he had to go to confession every single time that he did self-pleasure And so think about that conditioning and how uncomfortable that can make you With this as an act of self-love with this actually as an act of doing something good for yourself And so if they had 20 years of that conditioning they might need Two months two years or five years of positive conditioning to combat that How do you change your personal negative mindset on masturbation?  You know what I mean? If I say this or if I say that I totally forget that that's a thing for other human beings. Yeah, I'm sorry. Yeah, you don't you don't worry about that I forget. No, my my filter is gone. Yeah, you're like I've been doing this for a long time, right? So whatever has gotten you there. I feel like a strong part of it is do you Do you live for the chatter? Right. And so part of the shame is like what are other people thinking or what is the power that be thinking? If you are Supremely secure in your own skin for your own reasons and you truly know how to love yourself I feel like all that stuff washes away. I think it's actually a truly Beautiful journey because people think that it's supposed to happen overnight I often get questions from people that are like, hey me and my partner had a discussion But they're still exhibiting some Apprehension, what's the problem?  But it's it's a long process for everybody this final question. I very much like I don't think I'm sexually repressed or anything But I never feel compelled to masturbate is something wrong with me. Should I try to force myself to get into it? I think forcing and sex just do not go together. I totally agree Because I think a part of it again It's like what seems to be underlying is there's something wrong with me which also plays into the shame It seems like everything is connected to shame and guilt. There's something wrong with me I have to overcome this dysfunctional part of me in order to be okay with it. Well, how so How much do you talk about like asexual Mindsets or exactly. Yeah, because if you're asexual, there's nothing wrong with you.  I'm chilling. You're chilling We're good and I think even just the conversation of like is there room for growth Like if if you want to grow as a human being, why wouldn't you want to grow sexually? And again, I think it's so connected to This part of us that has a big ego about like I just I have to have it all together sexually Because otherwise there's something inherently wrong with me There's nothing wrong with you. No There's nothing wrong with you.  You should kind of pause figure it out. Ask yourself some questions Do some quizzes maybe buy some new toys kind of just re reset the landscape and then approach it again With the goal in mind just being pleasure Yeah, I feel like you guys saw the evolution of my comfortability in this process, but this was great Drink no, no, no, I'm not that comfortable yet If you would like to Follow Johan and learn more about the work that he does Please go in the info box for all his links Also in the info box is where you can find the link to tanga feel more doc global slash shan You can read the self pleasure report there and you can also see all the products I mentioned in this video And you know what that hadn't treat yourself if you're feeling in the mood and that is the general theme of this video Your body is amazing and capable of some awesome things pleasure being just one of them In the comment section below, I would love to hear from you How did you first start self-pleasuring and how has your self pleasure routine evolved over the years? 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We got a special guest. And that's the boss. So tell the people where you from. Brooklyn, New York, family, Brownsville side. Brownsville side, so Brownsville kind of mixed here on the music tip. Yeah, Brownsville been mixed in the music. How you stay out of that? Oh, I grew up in theville my whole life. So the niggas that's beef and all that shit, like seeing that on the internet. Yo, but I went to school with these niggas, like, I grew up in Brownsville house with Osborn, Blake. And from the village we know what I said. Because I ain't over there no more. They ain't going to catch me over there and show me I love the village.  Love all y'all for me. It's always love in the hood for me wherever it's at. But for me, like, I don't know. It's been mixed since years ago, bro.  It hasn't mixed for a long time. I think the internet made it worse. Clown. Because it was never that crazy. No, it was, yo. Back in my day. Bro, no. You don't feel like internet made it worse, though? No, yo, because of.  Now the niggas is in bash. Now he want to spend back. But he probably want to spend back. But that's what it been on Facebook. It's like, because niggas can go live now. It ain't the post, no, it's the live.  Real time. Yeah, like, and you got niggas respond. You got the comments. They be the comments. To the beauty, though, boy. So, Finesse, how did you get your name? Like, what's the story? Yo, I've been Finesse's 10th grade. So I know Finesse, I was like 16. I just a tether on my arm. And Finesse just came from everything I did. Like, I did it like, through skill. What's something I want to do gracefully? I always want that help assistum. I always want to be the best. Like, so when I took the word Finesse to me, like, people use the word Finesse and think it's supposed to mean slime.  Like, he's supposed to do something like that. But I took the word in me, it's like, no, it's more like, how do I put in the words for y'all?  Like, making it look popping. Oh, yeah, I get a good chance, I get a good chance. Like, if you look up Finesse on the internet, it means, like, intricately defund, like. Yeah. Like, intricate, like, say, son, that's. Okay, so you did your homework. Hell, yeah, I love being Finesse. I love Finesse, man. Before you, like, started pushing it, you did your homework. Oh, oh, D, oh, D. I see, I see, I see. It's the brand you got to bring yourself nowadays. You got to bring yourself. I see, I see, I see. So who was you listening to growing up? Oh, I was listening to everybody. I was listening to 50 Cent, Jay-Z. I love listening to Lil Wayne. So I'm fuckin' Meek Mill. That's one of my top five, pop, ice cube, like, I got an old soul. Yeah, baby, that's man, old people. Yeah, like, rest in peace, DMX. Like, rest in peace, DMX. You know, I listen to none of the new people?  I'm trying to shut out niggas, so I listen to, I listen to future dirt. Who rapping? Okay, this is making it short, cause he said that. Nah, cause I listen, I listen to new music for me. It's, it's fire. Okay, okay. So who just said, who would you say inspired you musically, or inspired your sound, or? Inspired me musically.   Okay, so they inspired you, they inspired you by, cause there was inspiration, right? Yeah. Okay, so like, okay, so who's some artist you would wanna work with? Also I wanna work with these days, if I could, any artist. I wanna work with Meek Mill, of the time I keep saying Meek, they probably would be like, this nigga's a Meek fan.  All the people, you pretty much said already. Yeah, for the most part, for the most part. So what kind of music would you say you make?  So you making music for them people that's like thinking about the repercussions?  Yeah, I think it's not a lot of those, but there are those out there.  I'm saying it's not a lot of them, but it's some out there, so you speaking to those people? Yeah, I'm trying to speak, and if I can't, if there's not an audience for them, then the next generation coming up, everybody can't just listen to, yo go pick up a gun, like it's kids that's listening, like, I'm 23, it's gonna be kids listening to my song, I don't want them to be like, oh, I gotta go pick up the gun, I want them to know the fun, like then I might go after, pick up this gun and what's gonna come from that, like, why I gotta do this, like. I had a big impression after a year, like.   Shit, me?  High school?  Y'all gotta tell y'all. Look, I beat cases for me, Lawyer's girl, we be girl, we straight, all the time. So on the music tip. Always music, the old finesse to boss, always music. Strictly music. So in the studio, what's your studio process like? Studio process, I go in, boom, Luxor studio, that's why I record that shout out.   I don't even, I smoke probably like two blunts in there, probably be a six, eight hour session. I don't like to be too dead. And like, all I need is my beats.   Cause that distracts me. Like if it's too many people around me, I'm gonna be distracted. I'm gonna want to be like, oh, what's this person doing? Or this motherfucker might be on the phone. So it's gonna be, I like to lock in.  So being focused, definitely. Yeah, yeah. So when did you say you got into music? Or when did you start taking it more seriously? I got into music. See, I can, those two different questions. I got into music. I was like, name Tim Gray, cause shout out all my niggas for me. They had niggas freestyling us like that. We'll always be like in the classroom on the back of lunch.  I was mad and nice.   Yeah, you didn't go to college? Hell yeah. I went to college from Fort. Nah, technicalities for me. Like it wasn't like I failed out. No, we ain't failed out.   If I could have you, cause I had one year left.  Like college expensive kids. If you get, if you get a scholarship, get a scholarship for me. Like college expensive. Like that's the only reason why I ain't there. Like. Okay, okay. I'm real for real. Do you feel like it's worth it? Ooh, son.    I found out like music stuck with me and that was my main passion. And I found out how I wanted to be. So you found out music was your passion in college? Well, it stuck with me. So yeah, I guess you could say that.   Now I feel like it's just more so networking and being able to develop yourself as a person, like being able to stand up.  So they become a different type of person. Yeah. Like, for real, for real. That's like different, actually. It's not how you feel, like. So, hmm. So what are some obstacles you face while making music? Obstacles, to be honest. Since I'm one of them, like I'm up and coming right now for me. So it's like, the people that's in them positions, like they probably not even at the top. They probably like middle or probably a little bit ahead of me.  But it's like, we ain't getting no cloud off the nigga. We ain't getting no none extra off the nigga. So they kind of be like, you would come up front with the cash.  So it's harder to get through the door.  You think that's a New York thing? Or you think that's like all over? It's not, everywhere, everywhere people be trying to get up, it be hating everybody's city amongst each other. But in New York, it's like, it be too much. I feel like, could it be hate for no reason? The motherfuckers will be hating niggas they don't know.  It's like, you ain't really gotta be a hater for me.     Nigga, y'all splitting up. They y'all happening down the city. So it's like now niggas gonna pick and choose instead of it being a whole melting pot as it should be like, we in New York gang.  So you're over the, all the politics and all that.  But isn't it hard to do music when you kind of like, the city is kind of forcing you to pick us out. They think it's hard to like, keep it true.   Like, if you is what you say you is, bro, it shouldn't be no real super hard to squash.  It should always be back to the money. I feel like people, people would, we haven't stuck on time, but they would say like, if I lost a friend, like me and this person will not be cool. And that is the trickle down effect as to why it's so divided. But I feel like so it's, I don't know, it's dicey. You don't know your person.  I'm not like, I can't advocate because of the every support.  Oh yeah. When you lose people, everybody look at you differently. So if New York could come together one day, I'm here for it. I'm here for it. I'm here for it. Like I just watched the law, what's nigga? What's the name? OG son, Turk. He was on live.  He was like, look, Miami son, you know, divided everybody can link up and get money. So I'm watching him and he a OG nigga. For me, everybody should know, what's the name trick? Nah, man, that was trick daddy gangsta. It was trick daddy. Trick daddy, okay. For me. So he was talking to like about 808.   I'm gonna call that guy.  Like the city could have that monster.  And if it's, if it's death on the table, then lead us to where it's at. But you see, it took a person like trick daddy to make that statement, right? Oh yeah. So who do you think from New York could make that statement? And like we could follow suit. I keep a trail right now. Nobody. Cause ain't nobody in New York. I'm not even saying it's like that.  Like everybody trying to follow by on something. Like I'm, I'm gonna be so 100.  Cause I'm from New York. I'm from the town for me. I'm from the town, not no more or something like that. I came up looking at Jay-Z and being like, I want to be a Jay-Z. Like ain't nobody that's like right now in that monstay and Jay over there a billion in.  So it's like, who gonna step up and say, oh boy, let's do this different. Like the old Jesus is damn near promote the beach. I feel like they voice not big enough. Jim Jones. They be trying. I ain't no comment. They be trying. They be in that little studio. They be trying to do little podcast. They be trying. Look, shout out Jim Jones then for me shout out Jim Jones. But I guess that's not enough. I guess that's not enough. As I said, who do you think is big enough? That'll make that. Ain't nobody in the city even that big. That's the, that's the scary part. Like, cause it's not a numbness thing. It's a overall respect thing. Like, So you feel like, I feel like this is a respect thing. Like overall, it's a overall respect thing. It is a respect thing. I feel like it's, a lot of New York artists are respected though. How? If we don't, if we can't respect each other, how we respect every, if an artist gonna sit here and say, oh boy, this other nigga soon is trash. That's the guy that too many of you use. Then we're the respect level. Like it is no respect level. That's what I'm talking about. It's no respect on the craft.  Like you could, I don't even say this, no dead niggas. All that opposite. Like I should be dead too. Like it's, it's no respect in the city.  Like and the people that got respect, it's like, it's not, it's from they side.  Like it's not fully, it's not fully from both sides. And so it's always going to be that. It's going to be a butt head cause it's always going to be somebody that's trying to be, I'm top boss here. I'm top boss over here. And it's always going to be, kind of like the king of the city whole argument thing.  And it could be, that's the thing back in the day was 50 J. It was old type of niggas rapping. Like why gotta be one king of the city? Like why can't it be a nigga that's nice and melodized and that nigga great. Then I'm all fucker. That's nice at balls.  That's nice at the freestyle. Why can't it be a mode rush more great niggas? Like, like it's everything. Everybody got a favorite.  Right? Like let's see.  I got a pop. Like everybody can have a mountain. Like it could be a mountain rush more in the city. Like a top five, top 10.  But niggas be hating so, you know. I don't know. You look so great. I try, cause I don't want to come up here and do that. If you watching this and you not from New York, New York great for me. Like New York is great. New York is fantastic. I love the city. This home for me. I love the city. But if you in New York, you know what's up. And you know I'm not lying for me. And niggas get up on this chair and sit up here.  But they ain't gonna give you the whole real.  New York is not as bad as New York City. Ain't as bad as other places I see that.  But anyway, on the music tip. All right. What would you say like, what's your beat selection like when like you looking at beats?   And my email like shout to them niggas. So for me, but like overall, I just go through every beat.  And then I'll just click and start listening. And like, I get a beat 10 seconds.  But if it catch me, I'm swear to God.  And I finished out the whole beat. It probably might take me a half hour. Sometimes I'll be busting out soon. I'll get something shorty. Like I get like eight, nine soon done. It probably like two hours. And that's just sitting there writing like me locked in.  Eight, nine, 12, 12. That ain't that's not a lot.  I mean, like it depends to some niggas, right? I don't know. Well, I got one here now.  It might be like four for me.  It's gonna be done for me. So who's like some artist that's like a dream collab? Dream collab? Yo, Meek, if you ever watch this bra, I'll shout you out three times. I'm sorry, forget it, forget it, forget it.  I'll take a boogie tool and I'll take, I'll take Young and Me. I'll take Kodak. See now, I got some hits I'll take. That's what I'm saying. I don't do that. I don't do that. So, are you looking for something to do or you don't mind staying independent or like what is, what's your take on working solo at the moment?  Crit, I'm not, I'm not against signing a deal. It just gotta be a break.  Cause my work ethic and my mindset of what I could do with a deal was like different. I don't need somebody to give me like six figures. So I could be, I could, I'm living good right now for me. So it's just somewhere I took a partnership deal where it's like I could distribute the shit, like get help with it. I had creative control and stuff. So I could, I could put my stuff out at a time minute or a tape or stuff. Like I don't want to have no restricts on my craft anyway. But I would take a deal most definitely. I ain't against no deal. It's gotta be a good deal. Like it's not a good deal. Okay, so what's like, what's something that you want to accomplish on the music tip? Like something like a bucket list. My bucket list?   It don't matter. I want to turn my like brand, like ball's obese in the team, I'm gonna shout it out every soon. So y'all might, y'all going here today, I'm y'all going here every soon. Like I want to make that into a label for like, I'm an up and coming rapper. So I know the struggle of like trying to book a son to get an interview like this or get the five, super five caramans how I do. So I want to get to a position where it's like, I ain't one of the Jays in the game or not did it because he bad business, but I'm in one of those people to where it's like, nah, but one of them had figures to where it's like, I could put somebody on and I could, it'll make it easier for them. Like they don't got to have like a hundred K subs or like 50 K subs. It's about to me, it's going to be more so about talent because talent going to always make you money. Like talent is going to always make you money. I promise to God, like, so I want to get to that position. That's my overall end goal. Like have my own label. Like I don't even got a song artist. I'll make partnerships with artists and just shot up the same way. The same way I want a label to do with me. I would, I would do as the label, like, just push them. Because everybody, some people just need that push. Not even everybody, like, some people. Yeah, some people just need that push. So you were saying, definitely want to build the empire, like the Jay-Z's and things like that. So like, a lot of those artists, I feel, don't do that because I feel like people be unappreciated to. I would say like the hood, we ain't got a lot of hood is unappreciated to. They be getting stuff, but we are not used the right way. Yeah, for me. So, and I think that's why people like that leave those situations. And I've been seeing that come out recently a lot too.   But I don't know, I guess that come down to... But you genuinely want to help people. I genuinely do like from the bottom of my heart, like, I don't got to be the best rapper. Like, I could go out and never see a million views ever. But if I could get to that position, I could probably help somebody get they million views or help somebody get far in the cave.  Like, I want the city to win, son. And somebody got, somebody got to have that energy. Somebody, I don't care if it's one person. So, you might be that leader to step up and... I don't say that because they gonna hate in the comments. I don't say it when somebody who is unknown, they saying that they gonna hate.  I wouldn't be mad at it. Like, somebody got to do it.  Y'all talk about it. Y'all get it done, tape, like. Okay, okay, okay. So, what's next? What's next? Like, we hear your future plans. We hear... Phew! And go. So what's next right now? 2021. 2021? We going crazy. Like, I ain't going cap. We just dropped this video with Cap O'Mall. All Love Again Show. We got another video coming. I'm not gonna tell y'all the name. I gotta prove it. That's gonna be dropping on my Insta tomorrow or Sunday. Features? Man. Cause I don't know when it's gonna come. I ain't even going... I ain't even... Oh, that's a fact to work. So for me, it might be out. It might be at that preview. It might be out. But features? I'm gonna be quiet on that. I'm gonna be quiet on that. Cause... Nah. Nah, I'm gonna be quiet cause because because for me, shout out Cap O'Mall. But Cap O'm know what I'm saying that. Shout out Cap O'Mall. Be quiet on the future for me. But I might get some features done on the low and like sneaky tape. But over the net, 30 songs is coming for y'all. I got a video. 30 songs? Yeah, 30 songs comes. That's nothing to me. This year, I'll probably have 30 songs coming again. I got another video shoot next Saturday with Affiliated Films. Cause I don't know when it's gonna come out.  But Affiliated Coming Soon. Affiliated Coming Soon, Affiliated Coming Soon. And what else is coming? That's pretty much it. Whole promo run, everything going up this year. Like be getting back on Spotify. Check my Spotify if y'all ain't never check it. Never would have made it up there like 18,000. Drinking Lucy up there at 16,000. Check my video on Cap O'Mall going crazy. Like I got a lot of work coming. Like, oh, y'all got a lot of work coming. I'ma say that. Okay. Can't tell if it's not. Can't tell if it's not. I was out with the finding and with the finding music. Man, find me anywhere. iTunes, Spotify, Tidal, whatever you got. Find me on YouTube, same name. Fnesta Boys. Find me on Instagram. Fnest underscore the underscore boys. For me, find me everywhere. Under that handy. If you got TikTok, you could catch me there. Surely you could catch me over there. Yo, TikTok too? Hell yeah, look. It's promotion, surely look. You all get on every platform I've been learning for me. And just look out for me. I'm coming, I promise y'all. Like, we ain't coming.  I love the city. Everybody rapping, keep doing y'all thing, keep grinding. Mostly y'all niggas going hard.  For me, that's it.


The first thing that you're going to do is place your instant vanilla pudding in a bowl and you're going to add your milk and whisk until it's fully combined. Next you're going to gently fold in your whipped topping. Once you have it all combined you're going to set the bowl to the side. Next I'm going to work on chopping up my apples. Now I am using Granny Smith apples because I like the sweet and tart mixture. However use whatever apple you prefer. One thing I would advise you to do is wait until you have your mixture all together just like I do. You don't want to cut your apples first and then have them sitting to the side because as you know apples will turn brown. For some reason with this mixture apples don't turn brown once you put it in the bowl and mix it with the whipped cream and the pudding so that's why I like to wait. But you're going to just cut your slices of apple into bite-sized pieces and then drop them in and then get them covered as quickly as you can.  I just like to cut mine right down the middle and then I just cut the chocolate into bite-sized pieces and you just drop them in. Okay so I've got my Snicker Bars all folded in. The last thing you want to do is just garnish the top with a little bit of those Snicker Bar pieces. And one thing I wanted to mention to you is if you don't want to use vanilla pudding, cream cheesecake pudding would be really good and you could also use some chopped peanuts if you'd like to. I am just going to drizzle drizzle on a little bit of caramel topping just on top. And this is best eaten within a day or two of making. So that is it. I hope you all enjoyed this recipe. If you did please make sure to give us a thumbs up and if you have not subscribed to our channel I certainly hope you'll do so. Thanks so much for watching and we'll see you all next time.