Hey everyone, I hope you're well. Welcome back to my channel. If you're new here, my name is Sepi. And in today's video, I'm going to be answering all of your questions that you've sent me about medical school. And wow, there is a lot of questions. When I say all of them, it's not true because honestly, I'm gonna try and answer most of them and the ones that follow a pattern because in half an hour, this is how many questions I have received and I don't think I'm gonna be able to make it through all of that. So everyone sends in their questions via Instagram regarding medical school. If you guys don't know who I am, my name, like I said, is Sepi. I am 24 years old and I just graduated medical school and I'm about to be a junior doctor in a North London hospital. I studied medicine and this is one of the first questions I'm gonna be answering. I have had this question so much. Over the past like two, three years that I've been doing YouTube, I've had this question so much and it is what medical school do you go to? I went to St. George's Medical School. Wow, it's so weird to say that in the past 10. I can't explain to you how many times I've been asked that question and obviously I haven't been able to answer it because I did have a stalker like break into my uni that was really, really weird and I did film a video about that story time for you guys wanna see. But obviously for safety reasons, I didn't wanna say what medical school I went to but I absolutely love my medical school. So I went to St. George's. It's part of the University of London and it's quite a small university, like definitely much more than your average uni but I actually had a really nice experience there. I had like teachers and stuff hosted a meeting with me when I was in about third year when like my YouTube like became apparent to them and they were so nice. They basically told me like if you need any help with like cyber bullying or stuff like that, we'll be there to support you and like, you know, if you have any questions like come to us and I thought that was really, really nice of them in terms of like my medical education, I thought they were incredible in terms of giving us clinical experience. From first year, we were definitely allowed to go onto the wards and we were allowed to like see what it is that we're gonna be doing cause I feel like if you just do pre-clinical like doing the science bit of it, you might lose some motivation. So like being let onto the wards even if you're not allowed to do anything you're just watching or like doing really minor stuff to like help the nurses.  And I remember the first day like I went on a clinical job. I was paired with a nurse and I really didn't enjoy, I'll be honest with you. And then the second day I was paired with a doctor and I really, really loved it. So it made me more sure that I picked the right job because a lot of times you would ask you would you rather be a doctor and a nurse because your jobs are in the same kind of field of work but your responsibility is a different and the things you focus on are different. And when I had the second day where I was with a doctor, I remember the first day I went home crying. I was like, I'm not sure this is what I wanna do, et cetera, after being with the nurse. And then the second day when I came back from being with the doctor, I came to my mom and Dan and I was like, this is the most incredible job ever. Like I literally loved it. So yeah, definitely take that, bear that in mind. I've got a few questions here about picking between different roles in the medical field. So we have jobs like a physician's associate, we have jobs like pharmacy, we have jobs like occupational therapy, physiotherapy, nursing, these are all radiography. These are all really, really important scientific degrees that are to do with the medical field. So it's really important that you think through what aspect that you like and getting work experience is really helpful in helping you decide that. So I know that a lot of you guys are messaging me like is work experience really that important and stuff? And it's actually most important for you. Like I said, there's some people who do work experience and realize actually this job is not for me or wow, I need to do everything in my power to make sure I get this job because I love it. Like when I was in year eight, I had work experience, I needed a day of work experience. And I was like, oh my God, like where am I gonna find someone? I'd left at the last minute and my sister found me work experience with a dentist. And I really like loved the dentist. Like it was one of her friends, he was really nice. But the job was just not for me. Like as in I respect what they do, it's incredible. But did I see myself doing that? No, so you've got to do the work experience to see if it's what you can picture yourself doing because trust me, medical school has a lot of you invested into it.  Okay, so I'm gonna start answering a few of your questions because otherwise I could just talk about this point blank for hours so I won't do that, I'll just answer some of your questions. Like I said, there's quite a lot of questions to get through so I'm gonna try and answer as many as I can. So first question, how did you stay motivated when you weren't or in times of hardship? So when you weren't motivated or in times of hardship? So stay motivated, like I said, all comes from the passion. If you're really, really passionate about something when it gets really tough it will be your passion that will push you through. If this is what you want to do when you're sitting there like, oh my God, like I haven't gone out the house in God knows how many days like I haven't seen any of my friends and socialized in ages. I haven't like done this and that and I've just been revising, going library, coming home, going library, going home. Like, you know, what will get you through is knowing that actually this is what I wanna do and doing this is gonna get me to my end goal. Like if you don't want it bad enough then you shouldn't be doing it in my opinion. Like you need to want it, like really, really want it and do anything in your power. If you're thinking, do I really want it? You're probably, even if you've got through all the loops you have to jump through to become a medical student you're probably not gonna last it through because you're gonna not be as passionate enough to overcome the hardships of it. So staying motivated is just reminding yourself how passionate you are about the job and like thinking back to like what it was, why you even started. Another thing that always keeps you motivated is taking regular like quick breaks. So like in the evenings I'm the kind of person where I need to kind of have a pause. Like I will go to uni all day, then I'll go library until late in the evening and then when I get back home if I wanna go and chill with my friends for an hour and it's like 10 o'clock at night or 11 o'clock at night, well not 11, but like 10 o'clock at night I will go and chill for an hour and that will just refresh me or make me feel like I've had a break and that way it will, I'll be motivated to start again the next day like properly and even throughout the day when I'm working if I know that in the evening I'm gonna have an hour's break I'll work harder so that I've earned the hour's break.  So yeah, I think taking regular breaks is a really good one too. So passionate and regular breaks. Okay, I've literally got like two back to back says is it hard finding a work life balance as a medical student? And then the one says, how did you balance having fun and medical school? So finding the balance is all about like you personally finding your balance. So I don't think for me like I couldn't overdo either. If I had too much fun, then I would come to uni and I wouldn't have any knowledge and I would be panicked like on the wards or when people ask me questions I would feel rubbish in myself like what kind of medical student am I if I have no knowledge? But at the same time, if I knew absolutely everything off the textbook and was spending no time for myself and relaxing I'd probably at some point break. So I think finding the balance was like I said knowing that it's important to give yourself regular short breaks to kind of refresh, you know? You know, once every other night just go out with your friends for an hour or do what you like for an hour. If you're tired, like let's say you've been revising all day and it's nothing's going in, stop because if nothing's going in you sitting there is just going to tire yourself out more. So finding a balance is all about finding your like altruistic level. It might take you a year. It might take you a couple of years to get it right but medical school is five years. So don't worry, by the before your halfway you will have found your right balance. So for me, it was all about doing the things that I'm passionate about in my free time and making the absolute most of my free time. So if I got free time, I would come into YouTube videos. I would go out with my friends and vlog like my time as well which kind of combined my passion of YouTube and also using my free time to see my friends, et cetera. So try and make the most of your free time and when you're revising, try and make the most of that. It's all about 24 hours that you have on a day and what you choose to do with them.  You should be revising or you shouldn't be revising all the time you need a break. You will know what's right for you. How many people, I'm sure, if you guys have been following me for the past three years then I'm sure you would have seen comments down below underneath my day in the life where people play. But how are you doing medicine and actually becoming a YouTuber and going out all the time, et cetera? So people will not understand how you do it all but that's fine because they're not you. They're not living your life and they won't have accomplished everything you've accomplished. Your accomplishments will speak for itself. You just have to live your life for you, not for anyone else and find what works for you. Not even your mum will know what works for you. Your dad won't know what works for you.  Why are you not coming out to eat with us? They won't know what your balance is. They won't know how much work you need to put in or how much relaxation time you need. And if you've got the opposite, if you've got parents who push you too much then go to the library, get away from them so they can't monitor you. So it's all about you finding the right equilibrium for you. Now on the subject of like controlling parents, I obviously have the absolute opposite of controlling parents. My parents could care less what I do and just want me to be happy. But if you do have a parents who are controlling, I know that it actually 99.99% of the time comes from love and them wanting to see you do well and worrying that like, oh, if I leave it to their own accord, like they might mess this up and I know how much it means to them even though they don't get it. So remember that in your heart room that your parents are just trying to guide you and help you do the best that you can to ultimately live the best life for you. So like, if you feel like that is the scenario, like I said, maybe it'd be a good idea for you to live out in halls and give yourself a bit of freedom from your home environment or just going to the library to study and not being at home, that might help with that as well. After finishing six years of med school, how did you apply for F1, F2? So my med school is actually five years in the whole of the UK medical school. It's five years long. You can take an extra year to intercalate if you like, which is basically like getting an extra like science or whatever like degree based on the fact that your first two years of preclinical have enough science in it to make up for another degree. I don't know if I explained that properly. But yeah, it's down to you as your choice. My uni had a range of courses that you could apply for and at first when I went into med school, I thought I'd really want to do that but then I changed my mind, I didn't want to do that. So I didn't intercalate. There was nothing in the courses that they offered that I wanted to really, really do and was really passionate about to dedicate a whole year to it. So I just stayed on the five year course. But when you reach your final year of med school, your med school will basically help you apply for the whole process of becoming a doctor. So we all sit a situational judgment test exam which I did in January. There is a vlog for it down below. I will have a whole medical school kind of playlist for you guys to see all the stuff that I do in regards to med school. But the SOT basically determines a school for you. The score is out of 50. I think 38 is the average. If you guys didn't see in my previous video, I got 43.2 which is well above average. I was ecstatic about it and if you wanna know how I revised, again it's in that vlog. But what you get in that exam is added to what you've got overall in med school, like your grades and 50% is your med school grades, 50% is this one SOT exam. You may add it together and you get a score. Then with this score, you then apply, you rank there's deanaries. So the whole of the UK is spinached up into areas which we call deanaries. And in each area there is like, there could be different cities or it could just be like, so for example, Scotland, the whole of Scotland is one deanary. The whole of Northern Ireland is one deanary. But London is split into three deanaries. So we've got like North, I think it's North Central and East, North West and South Thames which goes all the way down to even Kent. So it's like the deanaries are all different and you basically have to rank all of these deanaries. Once you've ranked the deanaries, then you get accepted into one deanary and in that deanary you then have to rank all of the jobs. And then, so I got my deanary and then I had to rank 327 or 328 jobs. And they are like from all of the hospitals that are in that area. So you could either rank it based on like what jobs they have to offer or you can rank it on what hospital it's at and like kind of work it out for yourself like that. But yeah, your med school will walk you through all of that and it's all done on a database called Aurel. A lot of questions are asking, how did you revise? So how did I revise? So revision is like a big one. I think it's very, very personal to you. So what worked for me might not work for you. What worked for my friend who also passed might not work for me. What worked for my friend who also passed might not work for me and vice versa, et cetera. So it's very, very personal. I am the kind of person who has to make her own notes. I can't revise off of other people's notes and I can't just read a textbook and expect it to go in my brain. So I use like reliable resources like the BMJ best practice. I use the Oxford Handbooks and I use lecture notes, et cetera, or notes from our teachers at university. And then I will create my own notes based on each specialty. And the way I make notes is I make a lot of spider diagrams. I just write down the most important points about each topic. So for example, in obstetrics there might be postpartum hemorrhage as a topic or there might be meconium stained liquor as one topic, et cetera. So you write down each topic and then you make your own notes on it in spider diagram form, just bullet points, important stuff, et cetera. And then once I have read through them, so I'll make the notes, then I'll read through them and then I will do questions on them. So I used a website called pastmedicine.com. I'm not sponsored by them or anything, I wish. But it's actually not that expensive. I think it's like 20 pounds for six months or something like that. It's not a lot of money but obviously you need to keep subscribing and they have like 5,000 questions on there and it's divided each by each specialty. So I would revise like that. I'll make all my notes on the specialty, revise all of them, so like read through all of them and then I do all of the questions on that specialty. Then I'll move on to the next one. So that's how I revised. For a lot of you who are asking how I revised for GCSEs and A-levels, I didn't make any notes for GCSEs and A-levels from what I remember. I would basically do a lot of pass papers. So GCSEs and A-levels, we had the notes that we'd make in class and if I needed them, then I would look back over them. But for that I would basically use the textbook and revise from there and then I would do all of the pass papers. So I would do all of them in one go because I would pick up the pattern. So I wouldn't do like one maths today and next week do another maths and next week do another maths because that doesn't make sense like for me. Like I need to spot the patterns that they're asking questions. It's all about with pass papers. It's all about pattern recognition. So that's what I do. I do a lot of pattern spotting through pass papers. So I would do like let's say all of the biology paper ones. I would do like one every single day and I would do like one chemistry every single day and one physics every single day. And then once I'd done all of the paper ones, I would make sure I mark each one after I've done it. So I would do like one paper on Monday and market, one paper on Tuesday and market, one paper on Wednesday market, et cetera. Because when you market, you learn your mistakes and you don't make it for the next one. So I remember on the first day when I would do it like on the Monday, let's say I did a pass paper, I would get like 50 out of 100. By the last day that I'm doing the paper, I would be hitting easily like 80s out of 100. And like if I would get something wrong, I would literally be frustrated at myself. So pass papers are definitely the ways to revise for GCSEs and A-levels and try and do them all like in one go. So like do all of the paper ones, biology, et cetera, all of the chemistries. I don't mean in one day, but I mean like don't leave a pause between doing them. Try and keep doing some every single day. How much did you score in the BMAT? I didn't do BMAT, I did UK CAT and I honestly can't lie to you. It was like maybe six years ago. I can't remember what I scored. I think I got like just above average. Okay, next question. As a current medical student, I wanna ask what was the most difficult year of studies? I found my preclinical years most difficult. So for those of you guys who don't know, medicine has kind of split up into preclinical and clinical years. So your preclinical years at St. George's were first and second year and then clinical years were third year onwards. So preclinical, you don't really spend any time in the hospital. You get like I said at the start of the video, like shadowing time where like you'll spend like a week shadowing someone, but most of the time you're in lecture theaters or you're learning about like how to examine the heart, how to examine the lungs, et cetera. It's a lot of theory work. And then clinical years is when you start being let loose onto the wards and you are never ever in a lecture theater from fourth year onwards. Like you're never like pretty much not taught. Like in fourth year we had like a lecture block before each specialty that was like one week. But for the majority of it, it's just learning in practice. So I found the years where we were just in lecture theaters the most difficult because I'm really good with when I see something in real life and I see how the situation is handled. There's no way that I'll forget that because like it just sticks with me. Like it's like a movie scene. It stays in my head. So like I will remember so much from what I've learned in terms of like clinical experience versus like learning it from a textbook which is the preclinical stuff. And you can't not do the preclinical stuff. So it has to be done, but it was just harder for me because like I said, I love the clinical aspect of medicine so much more than like sitting down and researching the science behind it. Which is again, like I said, still important but it's not my favorite part. As a long answer, sorry, the hardest year I would say was probably second year. Someone said, is medical school really science-based like A-levels or is it different and how? So med school, like I said, the first two years where you're just doing lectures is very much heavily science-based but the science is completely different to like A-level stuff. It's really related to like the human body and it's almost like where everything starts from. I would be able to know for example how someone is having a seizure if I don't understand how the electrical activities in the brain and in the whole body works and how they are fired and how it works normally. If I don't know how it works normally, how am I gonna know how someone's having a seizure? Once you've figured out how it works normally, you then learn how it can go wrong, all the abnormalities. Once you've learned all the ways that it can go wrong, you then learn what we can do to fix it so it can go right and that is our management. So like our medications, our treatments, our physiotherapy, et cetera. And we also need to know the scap in between of where it's gone wrong and knowing what to do which is our investigations. So we need to know how it's gone wrong so we can even find out how it's gone wrong with scans, et cetera, or with blood tests. So again, you need to know what all those investigations are and how each one of those works. So in the most basic way possible, that's pretty much how medicine works. So the first couple of years, you're figuring out how the body works normally. And then in the end of second year, in the third year, they start teaching you, you know, all the ways it can go wrong and how you can figure out how it goes wrong. And then in third year, you figure out how the medications and how what we can do intervention wise to make it go right. And of course, a lot of diseases that we still don't have a cure for, et cetera. So that was like the most broad way that I can describe it but that's pretty much how medical education is based. It's nothing like A-levels and it is one of the most incredible feelings in the world to study it guys because once you have that knowledge, you're just like, wow, I can't believe I know how this works. And it's not just for this. I know how, like, I don't know just how strokes work. I don't know just how epilepsy works but I know how someone who's having a sickle cell crisis could then go on to have a heart attack or et cetera. You know, like you can, the broad range of knowledge you'll have, like I'll know that the rash that this person is having is because they took that medication or this bruising they've got is because it's possible they've got this gene that's gone wrong and blah, blah, blah. Like the knowledge you'll have will just amaze you. You'll amaze yourself of how capable your mind is of taking up so much knowledge and you'll just, I don't know how to explain it but that's the feeling of like the thrilling feeling of like medicine where you're just like, oh my God, I have this much knowledge and yeah, you'll just amaze yourself. I don't know, I hope I'm inspiring you guys but that's how I feel a lot of the time. Like some of my friends will ask me questions and like, they're just like, how do you know this? And it's, I'll just be like, sometimes I even know the answers to things and I don't even know how I know it because you learn so much that like sometimes it gets to a point where you just know it. You don't even know how you learned it, you just know it. Another studying question someone said, what tips do you recommend for studying? So for studying, I think that it's important to fine tune it to yourself. I personally, I'm not the kind of person who can study like from the start of the year and like work from the beginning of the year all the way to like the end, like the same number of hours a day. Simply because the things I studied at the start of the year I won't be remembering at the end of the year and towards the end of the year I will be wanting to work a lot more in order to feel like I'm ready for the exams and I can't just keep it at my same level of like three hours a day or whatever. So I like to tend to work more in like exam season and by season I mean like the two to three months leading up to the exam. This is only for medical school. Obviously for GCSEs and A levels you're gonna need to work for that whole year which is what I did. So for medical school I work in the exam season. For GCSEs and A levels I work for the whole year. So you have to first of all know when to start studying when it feels right for you if you're the type of person who wants to study all year or if you wanna start studying exam season. And then once you get into exam season like you have to fully dedicate yourself and you have to make sure that you know you have a plan. But when I say plan I don't mean like a rigid like nine to 10 I'm gonna do this, 10 to 11 I'm gonna do this. I mean more like I'm gonna make notes on this topic today and then I'm going to tomorrow revise those notes and then the day after I'm gonna do all the questions and the day after that I'm gonna do all the questions again and make sure that in that time that you're scheduling you schedule yourself the time off that you need. If you need an hour off in the evening to go out with your friends a couple hours to go out with your friends and relax, make sure you put that in there. Regular breaks is what's gonna get you through this. Too many breaks is not good but regular breaks is important. So that's my advice for studying. Another question I got that I read as well was do you study more at home or in the library? Throughout GCSEs and A levels I only studied at home and then in medical school I can only study in the library. So obviously I wasn't able to study in the library towards the right at the end when we had the library closed down because of quarantine but in general I do study more at the library because I see my friends around me and we're medicine because it's quite complex there'll be a lot of questions that you won't be able to find the answers to just from straight up Googling it. So it's good to have friends there that you can ask them questions like relevant stuff or if you wanna take a break together you can take a break together if you wanna sit around each other to be motivated you can do that, you can sit together in huddles and practice questions or another important thing about med school is we have exams called oskies which are practical exams. They are 50% of your grade for the final year so half of it comes from written exams and half of it comes from your practical oskies. Like for example someone will come in and be like oh I've got chest pain and you have to show that you know how to ask them the right questions and how to examine them and what investigations you would do, et cetera. That's all examined with you, usually an actor and an examiner in the room and you have about 10 to 14 stations according to what year of med school you're in. So to practice with that you need to kind of practice with your peers because you can't really like sit alone and practice like hey how are you today? Oh I've got chest pain, oh where does it hurt? You know you can't do that so you have to do it with your friends and that's why it's really important to like study in the library or at uni because you can do that there. Someone said what's the junior doctor work hours and pay in London, labia. So I literally have finished med school this week. I haven't started work yet. I have never looked into the pay of a junior doctor. I've heard figures been thrown around but I can answer these questions once I start work so have your eyes peeled for some more junior doctor videos. Okay so I've got a question for you. Is it possible to get into med school without the best GCSEs? So I don't know what the best GCSEs are. If you guys want some ballpark rangers I have friends who've gone into med school with about five A stars and five A. I don't think I've met people with less than five A stars I'm trying to think. A lot of the times though my friends who've got like a week of GCSEs and A levels they end up doing biomedical science which is a degree that a lot of people do which is three years long and then they apply for postgraduate medicine. So by showing that they've got like a two one or above that kind of makes up for lower grade GCSEs. So I think definitely talk to like your advisor at like your school or call up the universities or email them and a lot of them will like give you a lot of advice about like what grades that they usually like accept including GCSE grades, A level grades, UK cat or BMAT grades, et cetera. So ask them about it. Don't feel shy to email. There's always a contact email for admissions there and uni's always tend to be really nice to like the people who wanna come or you can go to an open day and you can ask. If you guys wanna know about me I think I've said this a million times in previous videos I got nine A stars and two A's at GCSEs I know that they're numbered now so I don't know what that would translate in numbers and in A levels I got four A's and a B so I did five A levels you don't need five you only need three. Next question, did you have an income next to uni? So I did actually have an income next to uni for my first two and a half years of uni I worked as a tutor and that was really, really good. Like you can make money starting from 25 to 50 pounds an hour the cheaper price rates would be depending on how loyal your customer is and also how many hours they want you a week. I made really, really, really good money from that. Like honestly I think I was living quite a luxury lifestyle with the amount of money that I was making I could go out with my friends I could afford to like do a lot of stuff that students couldn't really afford to do because of how much I was earning and I think that again goes to show how incredible it is to have an education where you can share your knowledge and how powerful that knowledge is that it was earning me that much money and then I stopped doing that because medical got a bit more heavier for me and my parents were kind of like you don't have to do it if you don't want to like if you just want to focus on like uni like just go ahead and do that and then I also did YouTube videos and I did Instagram fashion blogging which also is a source of income which I really, really enjoy and I didn't actually start off being a source of income it just started off because I wanted to film videos so yeah I didn't start that because of that at all it just turned into that way so yeah someone says how did you take notes during lectures? So basically in lectures I would this was before Penocto arrived I don't know if you or you need to have Penocto but it's basically like the screen recording with the voice recording at the same time and the slides move as the person moves there, et cetera but when I first was in pre-eclinical years we only had PowerPoint slides and someone talking and then we'd get the recording separate it was a very, very old school but I actually preferred it that way because the PowerPoint presentations underneath it had a notes section and under each slide I would basically write down everything that the tutor said that's not on the slide so anything that I thought was important that they've said that's not on the slide or if it explains the slide a lot more easily I'd write that down then after the lecture I would go and print off that whole lecture, the PowerPoint and I would print it in the format of the three slides a page because it had notes next to it so once I'd printed it off the notes that I'd written on my laptop I would then transfer onto these PowerPoint printouts and that way that was me revising it by writing it out again and that was my notes and revisions so I found that really easy obviously like I said after that we didn't really have many lectures so that only worked for my first and second year okay I'm gonna answer the last question now there was a lot of questions I'm gonna try and answer some today on my Instagram sorry if you don't catch it but if there's a lot more questions that you guys have that I haven't answered then I will do a part two just let me know in the comments but the last question is when did you know you wanted to become a doctor and any advice for young aspiring doctors? so I knew I wanted to become a doctor about a day after I got my GCSE results so I got my GCSE results and I remember I'd got a lot better than I had been predicted my school actually predicted me like five or six A stars and like A's and B's and that was them kind of acting like they'd pushed the boat out by giving me really good predicted grades yeah so I kind of didn't realize kind of how smart I was even though growing up everyone would always like my whole family would always tell me you're so smart, you're so smart but I didn't realize how smart I was until I got my results and then when I did get my results I kind of sat down and thought hey like what do you want to do and at that point I really loved like history and English literature I literally got 100% in those exams in my GCSEs but I also loved science like science for me was like logic there's an answer to it like you know you're always obviously like there's a lot of theories but what I meant was like there was always an answer to it it wasn't like philosophy where you're thinking like there's loads of possible answers and you'll never know which one's right so that's why I was like I want a scientific degree and I really wanted to do something that I felt would help people like my nature and my character is just like I feel like if you meet me in real life I always try and help people where I can and like I really really care about people and like I'm quite nurturing and so that's why I thought the best thing that would suit me would be to become a doctor and that's how I decided it and I remember I told my parents we were in the car on the way to my auntie's house and I was like guys, guys like it was just me and my mom and dad and I was like guys and they were like yeah I was like I know what I want to do and they're like what do you want to do and I was like I want to be a doctor and they were like oh like that's amazing and it was really weird for them because they'd never ever suggested it to me my dad always told me he thought I'd go to Oxford and study history and my mom always thought I'd be a dentist but I didn't ever like dentistry at all I always used to tell her like I don't like dentistry my sister Sol's a dentist so maybe that's why she thought I'd be a dentist too but yeah I didn't like dentistry so I was like yeah I'm gonna be a doctor and they were like wow like that's so amazing and I was just really really supportive and it just, once I made that decision I stuck to it, I knew it was what I wanted I knew it was what suited me and I couldn't imagine myself doing anything else and I still to this day can't imagine myself doing anything else but that doesn't mean it's the only thing that I'm gonna do with myself in my life so like my main focus and my main career is obviously always gonna be being a doctor but that doesn't mean that I can't be on here on YouTube and being a YouTuber or being on Instagram and being an influencer and I even love fashion and one day I'd love to do some writing towards fashion and being like a fashion journalist there's a lot of things you can do with the amount of time you're given in a day so don't put yourself in a box and think just cause I'm a doctor I'm gonna, that's all I can do or just because I'm a research analyst that's it, like don't put yourself in a box don't limit yourself that's my advice to aspiring doctors is make sure you want it make sure it's your main focus and it's all you've ever wanted to achieve but don't let that stop you from living your whole life and living out all of your dreams, you know? There's not just one, you don't have to have just one dream no one's gonna tell you off wanting more for yourself and like it doesn't mean you're spreading yourself thin don't believe any of that that's what, I had a lot of people on YouTube comments telling me that and where are they now? I don't know, so yeah what I'm trying to say is do what you wanna do do what makes you happy and don't limit yourself you guys are, like I'm telling you you're capable of anything you want but you have to put the work in you can't just sit there and be like well I wanna be a doctor but I don't know if I'm bothered to revise for it like, yeah, no, like I wanna be a doctor I don't care if I don't get to sit down for like six hours a day and watch Netflix and instead I have to revise because I'm gonna get to where I want to get to or I wanna be a pilot, yeah? and I have to take these piloting classes, et cetera so do what it is you need to do girls and boys, you can do it I'm telling you it's very achievable anything you put your mind to is achievable so don't limit yourself don't question your talents don't question your worth, just push through it's, in this 21st century it's so easy to be lazy just sitting down, watching shows all day and like, you know, buying stuff and et cetera like just being a consumer and doing nothing it's very easy, the temptation is there but don't give in to temptation and try and make the most of yourself and fulfill all of your dreams and if you get tired and need a break that's not the same as giving up or not trying your best, don't confuse that okay, I'm trying too much this video is way, way, way too long but I hope that this was helpful for you guys and if it was then please give it a thumbs up and subscribe to me down below let me know if there was any advice that you still want me to give let me know if there was any advice that really stuck out to you just chat to me in the comments I always love talking to you guys thank you so, so much for watching don't forget to check out my Instagram it's also linked down below Persian Bunny, don't forget to subscribe give this video a thumbs up and I will see you in my next video bye


U.S. President Joe Biden and South Korean leader Yoon Suk-il held White House talks on April 26 to deepen collaboration on deterring North Korean nuclear escalation amid anxiety about its growing arsenal of missiles and bombs. The two leaders also participated in a photo op, walking along the White House Colonnade. After a day of talks and a joint news conference, the two leaders were to attend a glittering state dinner catered by a U.S. chef whose mother emigrated from Korea.


So today I'm gonna share a little bit my motor settings with FANALAB on iRacing, F-Actor 2 and F1 2020 Oh, hello Petrus, the cats just come by I would like to show you the steering wheel, the Porsche steering wheel, if I um, yeah, that is if I can give you one advice, it's to go for the the podium paddles They feel amazing You've got the clutch here You've got the gear lever here, and you've got those little one cheeky one here that are super useful to Set up the brake balance when you're driving and then when you come to a corner you can easily Change it. So really one of my advice would be to go for the the podium paddles They're a big step in in performance and in touch and so on and you've got all the switches that you can change through the lap the beamers Everything you need, which is great with the lights and And the dashboard telling you which gear you're using so That is a that is a nice piece of engineering as well as the formula one steering wheel If you're more like a single-seater type of guy, but really go for the the paddles There we are if we go into the different settings you can you can choose on FANALAB you can see here So number one is my iRacing setup So it gives you a little bit of time to check what's what's is it? The steering angle the force feedback that you can you can adjust through the game The linearity of the steering wheel the damper the friction of the the steering wheel Then the bottom part is I guess a little bit less important, but really the key here is is the first part So number one is iRacing for me number two. This is formula one 2020 for me So you can see already there the steering angle is very different I went from 900 degrees to 360 degrees and the force feedback as well is is quite different linearity of a little bit of natural damper and then quite quite a very smooth zero natural friction natural inertia a little bit of ffb interpolation and There's a slight in-game setup to be made that will Share with you also here Just to so we're on the same page f1 2020 is not a game I play a lot But it's a game that is very fun if you like formula one and quite A touch easier than iRacing I would say to go racing number three here Factor two So you see here the steering angle is on automatic the force feedback back to 45% linearity on a little bit more damper friction in the inertia as well a little bit up And then the the bottom part as as always quite hundred percent and off So really the last few The setup is very similar between the different games But um, yeah, here I would say that That those are the three settings. So I went I went through quite fast but you can always pose the video and copy the settings and Give me a feedback, you know, I'll be very happy to hear your feedback And Yeah, maybe I should have mentioned that I'm using the podium dd2 from fanatech I believe the dd1 you can you can set up pretty much the same things So I would recommend to try those those three settings. I hope it will help you to go faster and Go on same race


So that's how far out the wall is And good Tuesday morning now and good Tuesday morning Today is going to be a garden wall. I'm not just any garden wall a Big-ass reclaimed engineering garden wall. So that's going to be something so obviously with Big reclaimed break as it comes you don't get very big beds So picked up the peercaps the other day and because then the customer wants different sized pillars Which what size pillars going where? There's going to be a one brick pillar in the middle so that one and then they break in a half pillar on the end and We're going to be I Think we're going to tidy this bit up a little bit as well. It's been brought down to a To ground for us, but it's a bit ropey around here as you can see it's like a loose Loose few bricks, so we're going to try and get them fixed up a little bit I'll say and then just get that tidal up a little bit and then just run it in to that height six courses And then find out how big these pills are going to be Oh is that yeah, do we have enough bricks that? Well, we're going to build till we run out of bricks, so we'll make the wall fit the next we've got Okey-dokey, so that's our battle plan. We're just going to get us. I've loaded out now, and we'll catch in a bit Originally the little corn left up here, which is knackered and we're now under close inspection To me like Finds away Just need straightening up as best we can Like I say the corner was there we've got rid of that there's that frigging route. Let's come through We're not actually down to do anything to this pillar we were just to build a wall But this is in such a state is that loose we've took it out and I'm going to rebuild it I can't get it plumb. I've just got a follow up to the range it from there to there As you can see These are pushing out can't do anything about them because it's on the other side This whole one is really doing That's how far out the wall is 20mm the pillars out a little bit. I'm forage going to land up fall on my head So I need to get to build up quick and like I say this thing goes right through the middle of it, so This is like we'll get this side done And this is like Down the line when they decide to get those done when they get their wall done this pillar is going to be rebuilt in the middle But we're just going to put up to this and put ties in I'm not going to tie into it Like Alex, so we put slip ties in but we haven't got any slip ties Got everything else with us. Yeah, I could have built a slip ties in. Yeah, so yeah, that's the plan Get this rebuilt build a little corner I think we're going to five courses in brick and edge and then once this corner's up have a quick brewing I'll can get a lot Alex can get a line pulled through from that pillar I forgot about the pillar as it being here so I've got a pillar on the corner to pull through off That's enough talking. Let's get this thing built. So just before we continue a little quick update Bottom courses in so we're set out. We're ready to roll We've made it work. So the brick pillar is going to be dead in the middle So be even each side and we just made it work brick to the brick and half pillar That's all set up. We've got our Profile up and we're going to gauge that accordingly now. So There we go. That's the Pillar secured a bit and the wall set out. I'm sure there's no bed under it. Yeah That's the thing with these bricks. Oh, isn't it? Yeah, so I think all it's left now is at a course of brick on edge on top of there And then that's the finished height. So Once we've got that set up over here quick breaking and we'll get this We moved the pillar back half a brick. I've just said that yeah, we made it work to make the Yeah, so now we can start get cracking and then when we come to these we're going to be using the That's bricks 2.0 So I'll make things a lot easier getting them in so yep, we'll get you set back up and Put some progress in this wall shall we? Ropey brick there and obviously come out of a pillar. So it's going back in the pillar So that goes inside the pillar sticks out I'll line the way from two and then we've got two pulling points in the end there That's it then. That's come anyway. We're going to come these two pulling points We'll measure from the line back 3.30 line back 3.30 pulling point back 3.30 pulling point back 3.30 So we'll actually that pillar we only have two pulling points and we measure everything else It just says a lot of time There's that's down there just getting all that corner jointed up for us the pillars knackered So what we're going to do with pillars Push it back a bit and pack it and then point it Because it's looking at that It's not even been bedded on. No. The coping? No. We need to put the tree Look at the tree next to the wall. It's a bit of a done-kills that. The thing is just because the old lime water the tree just helps itself to go straight through it So that's how that's how we do the pillars same as same with any pillar We always say two pulling points and then we measure everything Sorry, good There you go So I'm going to run a little bit more in and then we're going to go back to time-lapse Try and put a bit more live action in A bit less time-lapse Just made sure you can't listen to the radio much Can I have a bit of that? Nice of that Yes The whole wall is very big The single stack of pillars Yeah I'll get us some of them now We make stuff start using some of these good Shoot everything Because like some of them are getting good now Stack them now and if we find good ones, there's the go We're just good ones now so like I'm scared of using the good ones up here and then we end up getting into the brick on edge I think the whole thing needs to have some big work A bit of a slow start but we managed to get some momentum back in the end It's gone five o'clock but This is another morning winter I'm glad it's not six But If we built it too high that's not good I put a corner too high By a course and when we worked the bricks out We would have run out of bricks at five course and brick and edge some Yeah, it doesn't look too bad now that the brick and edge are on The pillars are just over two foot To get two foot fence pans between Yeah and as you can see like It's strange at the moment but it's going to get filled in Nice and symmetrical so And obviously all the the gap in the flag has been pointed up It doesn't feel too bad You know, honestly Dad got the pier caption while I was jointing up Which was probably just going to half I always forget that we got both sides but There you have it Look at this side Yeah, so that has been another successful garden wall I've actually got to be a part of this time since I was away for most of them But thank you very much for watching If you enjoyed be sure to give us a thumbs up And if you want to see more of this or you're new to the channel Be sure to hit subscribe and tap on the bell for notifications That way you'll always know when we upload It's always a massive help for the channel and we really appreciate all the support that we get This has been Brooklyn with Stephen Alex with A Fafi Garden Wall And we'll see you in the next one


So, how do you work with younger kids in basketball and get them to listen to you? And by working with your kids, I mean a lot of them, right? Because some coaches will neglect the younger kids because they're like, kids can't do much, you know, they don't listen, they're wild, but there are ways to manage them to make sure that the session runs smoothly. My name is Nick Aldiro, and I'm a client success coach with Make Money Coaching Sports, but I also have my own basketball training business. And I used to be a phys ed teacher for 15 years. So I had a lot of practice with ages kindergarten to fifth grade. So through trial and error, I've learned, okay, how can I get these kids to listen, pay attention, follow directions, and just do what I want them to do in the moment while making everything fun, right? That's what we want, fun, discipline, structure, fun, discipline, structure. So obviously, I don't have a lot of time on this video, so I'm not going to make it that long, but I'm going to give you a couple ways that you can do this. And if you're looking for additional help in this category, if you look at the link in the description, there is a course, an ebook slash video course that will give you so much more detail than this, okay? So first you have to lay out what do you expect from the kids? They are, they, you'd have no idea where they're from, what background they have in terms of like, do they even listen to their parents? Do they listen in school? How is their teacher? Is their teacher structured? You don't know. So you have to come up with the structure. So how do you do that? First, before you do anything basketball related, you have to tell them what you expect. You have to let them know how to carry themselves, how to hold the ball, how to pay attention, where to stand, what to do with their hands, what to do with their feet. If you don't, they're going to do what they want. It's simple as that. It may, you're like, yeah, you already knew that, but a lot of people will just get into the basketball part without laying out, this is what our expectations are and then following through on those. You can't just let it go because if you let it go, they're not going to learn. You have to really, really focus on those expectations.  So that is one thing. And then you have to test to see if they know it. Is it difficult? It's very difficult, especially when you don't have the reps and the repetition and you're dealing with kids that you've never worked with before. But that's number one is, what's my expectations? Assume they know nothing about anything, about how to act. They were raised by wolves, assume, right? And you're going to go over that before anything with a basketball.  And people want to play with the ball. Right. So what do they do with the ball? Do they have it? Do you want them to put it over there? Where do they sit? So communicate that effectively before you get into anything basketball related and then test it to see if they are listening. And then you graduate to, hey, basketball activities. Okay. So that's just one thing. If you're looking for the full, I have an ebook, I have a course, yes, I'm selling you a course. You don't have to get it, but it has a lot more detail in it than all this. You can get it in the link in the description or if you're just a coach and you're looking to grow your business and you want to talk, you could text me the word grow to<PHONE_NUMBER>.


The federal government has approved the establishment of 37 new private universities across the country. Minister of Education Ademo Ademo announced this, while briefing state house correspondents at the end of an extraordinary meeting of the federal executive council presided over by Vice President Yamio Shibajo at the council chambers of the presidential villa Abuja. Ademo said the approval followed a memo presented by the Ministry of Education at a cabinet meeting. This program fits primary school pupils one to three on school days daily and with that we have witnessed an increase in school enrollment nationwide. So this policy is a guiding document that's going to guide the activities and enhance this program delivery. For a period of time hopefully till now and the year 2030 we should be able to get all our children that are out of school. Memo is for the establishment and licensing of 37 private universities. Something of interest one of the universities is an online university by a woman from my state. Hello hope you enjoyed the news please do subscribe to our youtube channel and don't forget to hit the notification button so you get notified about fresh news updates.


Daniel Goleman, he, of course, is the famed best-selling author globally of incredible books on all kinds of issues that help us look at issues in such a different way. Welcome. Thank you for being here. Thanks, Liz. Well, this is about the ecology and solving our issues and our problems on this planet, which is a very important topic of conversation for the World Economic Forum. How do we solve these ecological problems in the question? And this, obviously, is something that keeps you up at night, I'm sure. Well, Liz, what keeps me up at night is I've got four grandchildren. You've got two kids, you just told me. I love my grandchildren, and we all love our children, but I'm very worried about the planet they will inhabit. They'll probably live into the next century. And the trajectories look very bad. We're in what's called the Anthropocene Age. This is a term geologists now use for the last 300 years of geological time, where for the first time in the planet's history, one species is driving the eight planetary global systems that support life on the planet in the wrong direction. So we need a solution for this planetary crisis, and I think one that will be a little more systemic, because this is built into our systems of construction, of energy, of transport. Everything, really. You can't do a thing without having a negative impact on the planet. And so we get this litany of all the bad things we're doing, and it's very depressing. And that actually is my point. The discussion arouses fear, anger, depression. The wrong range of emotions. So how will we fix it? Two ways. One is the solution to a blind spot is transparency. That is there's a new information system, a platform, that will allow companies to share their LCA data. This is very important, because if I'm buying from in the B to B world, if I'm buying from someone in terms of my footprint, it will pay me to know what this guy's footprint and what their supplier's footprint is, and what their supplier's footprint is. So that's happening. And this opens up a vast entrepreneurial opportunity. Because all of the systems we have, all the industrial platforms, processes, our entire chemical palette are legacy. They're a legacy of a time when we didn't know LCA. We didn't have a metric for what is the actual footprint of this. Can you define one more time for our audience LCA? Yeah, life cycle assessment, which looks at every step in the over the whole life of a product and gives you a measure of full spectrum of impacts. And in business, what gets measured gets managed. So this opens up a new doorway for a huge entrepreneurial opportunity, which is for people to reinvent everything. But the problem is this. There's another psychological dimension. And that is when we talk about footprints, we're engaging the wrong part of the brain. If I tell you, the other day I was in the UK and I bought some salt and vinegar chips, and then I read the bad news. The first bad news, of course, is there's 14 grams of fat in it, but the more pertinent bad news is that it's 75 grams of carbon. That's the wrong way to talk about it, because I just did something bad. I added 75 grams to the footprint. When you tell someone that and it gauges a system for threat, the system for emotional distress, the system for fear, for anger, for depression, as I was talking about, what we should be doing is engaging the reward system, the system that keeps us going, that feels good about what we're doing, that motivates us, that where we get enthused, where we get energized, and there is a way to do it. Let's just start with an example. You and I were talking on the phone, and I should tell you that Daniel said, if for example, instead of getting on a jet, or instead of getting in a car to go meet face-to-face with someone, you then Skype, you just lessened or shrunk your carbon footprint. But that's the negative side of it. So what is a positive way of sort of manifesting this? Well, there's a new way, a new concept emerging. The footprint is all the bad we do. There's something called a handprint. The handprint is the sum total of everything good we do. So if you bike instead of driving your car, if you take your own bag to the grocery store, if you have a video conference, there's a new math, actually, that we need to get involved with. If the question is, for example, let's say you buy an e-book reader. Well, how many books do you have to read on that e-book reader in order to justify its ecological impacts? There's an answer. It's 100 books. So we need to start thinking this way and thinking in terms of what can we do that will enlarge our positive contribution to the solutions. There's actually a website for this, beneficience.org. Basically, using a metric like that, there are three steps. First, you have to know your footprint. Second, you have to subtract from that all the good things you do, that is your handprint, and keep trying to enlarge it. The third thing is tell everyone you know, because we can go to scale. We can multiply it. In the aggregate, if we all started to do that, would the picture improve marketly or do we still have such an incredibly long way to go? There's both. We have an incredibly long way to go and we get there faster because to the extent this goes to scale, it would create a market force that would drive the entrepreneurial innovation that would give us a better range of choice. Right now, we're stuck. We are choices or legacy choices. We need to get competitive on good handprint choices. To do that, we need a market force. We need consumers and we need businesses that are looking to enlarge their handprint. The bottom line is this. We need to tell a story in which each of us is a hero and not a villain. Does that then make something like the Kyoto Protocol just a little bit obsolete or in need of some tweaking or changing? This is kind of an end-run. The more governments can do to move things along, great. But the problem with governments is the short-term thinking. Politicians are looking to the next election cycle, certainly in our country. They're not looking to save the species. They're looking to, frankly, save themselves. We have this terrible problem where you just cannot get agreement through legislation, through laws, through rules, except on some specific ... That's all to the good. This, however, uses the market as a driver of innovation. How does this square with what you really came to fame with? That was your book Emotional Quotient, which got you huge attention bestseller on the New York Times bestseller list for a year and a half. Forty different languages translated, talking not necessarily about the IQ, but the EQ, and sometimes just having an incredible IQ is not necessarily the ticket to success, but that the emotional quotient is. If we look at things in a more EQ way versus IQ as it pertains to the ecology. Well, what I meant by emotional intelligence was being intelligent about emotions. And I'm now bringing that same lens to the ecological crisis, because I think this is an emotionally intelligent way to mobilize people. The big problem with every environmental organization, people trying sustainability initiatives in companies is indifference. And it's because we're talking, the narrative we're giving people is speaking to the wrong brain system. We've got to engage the positive reward system. We've got to get dopamine working for us.  That stuff is not going to degrade properly. Should this be legislated?  That's not really happening. Should this be government legislated? And does it help if the U.S. does it, but then China doesn't? Well, two points. One is the private market hasn't done it yet. I think the private market is going to for a number of reasons. We didn't talk about generational shift. I grew up during the Cold War. My generational trauma was something called duck and cover, which is a drill we had every month in our school, where we got under our school desks, and you have to imagine seven-year-olds, nine-year-olds. In California. And we put one hand over our eyes and one over our neck to protect ourselves from a nuclear blast. Luckily it did not come. Today's kids are going up with a different generational trauma, and it is the constant litany of bad news about their world and the future. So what this says for companies is that there is going to be a new force in consumers over their lifetime, where consumers tomorrow will care much more today than consumers today who grew up with the wrongs, with the belief that it was all endless. It didn't matter what we did. Kids now know it matters, and companies are paying attention to that. Starting from the corporate side to the government side, is there a country that's way ahead in all of this that should be held up as an example? I think Denmark, for example, is very, very good at it, and has been for a long time. They've been way ahead, for example, on their power grid, a lot of wind, a lot of hydro. Canada, of course, has the luxury of having lots of hydroelectric power. And I think that countries ought to compete on this. What about a hand-print Olympics? You know, there's a World Cup for soccer. What if they're a World Cup for hand, best hand-print for countries, for any unit that can do this together in a focused, cohesive way, companies, universities? Why not? You talk about the issues of your childhood, and then the issues of the kids today, and in a lot of schools, they're having them recite, reduce, reuse, recycle. They have a little song that goes with it. But how do we raise children to be better citizens in this regard? How do we get kids to grow up and then figure out ways to really embrace this? Well, the way to engage the reward system long-term is to present a very positive goal, which is meaningful to the person, which they can see that they can take concrete steps with immediate feedback, positive feedback. It'd be great if our kids, A, knew what mattered and knew what the alternatives were. B, did it collectively. Made it a cool thing to do, and you and your friends are doing it. And third, started thinking about new ways to do things. We really need to rethink every system. Is there one thing that you think that if we were to remove that, eliminate that, that that would be a huge first step that could help both handprints square off with footprints? Well, you know, you can begin almost anywhere because everything we do has negative impacts across the board. But one thing I'm very concerned about is our chemical palette. Industrial chemicals, there are 80,000 industrial chemicals. And most of them have been invented without any regard to human consequence. In fact, we didn't know. They're now discovering, for example, that two chemicals that independently pass screening processes in the body combine to become carcinogens. And there's what's called an inflammatory syndrome because we all, no one in the world escapes a body burden of these chemicals. And so there's information, which is a prior step to every major disease, diabetes, heart disease, cancers, you name it. So we're poisoning ourselves through our chemical palette. I would love to see that taken care of because one impact that we didn't talk about is that for human health. And I think that's just as important as the long term impacts on the planet. Thank you so much. And thank you to the World Economic Forum. Thanks, Liz.


Hello everyone, welcome to the NARCS Vibe YouTube channel. In this one I'm going to be talking about four things narcissists never get over. But before I begin, please hit that thumbs up button down below. It helps the YouTube algorithm to support our community. So narcissists believe that they are all powerful. They believe that they are untouchable and invincible, as though they can do whatever they want. But they're unaffected by anything you do to them, because they're grand and imposing and they're very important. So they're meant to be inaccessible and impossible to understand. When in fact this is just an illusion, and when you realize that, it leaves them powerless.  Because they want to paint themselves as the hero or as the victim. And they expect everyone to validate this false image that they've created for themselves. But then you come along and you point out that their image is not as stable or secure as they portray it to be. And that is when it all falls on top of them like a house of cards. They get very angry, and they become fixated on you. Because you see through the illusion, you see that it's all fake. They don't really care that it's fake. They already know that they can't do it for real. But if they can at least create a mirage, it makes them feel like they're winning.  So they try to win by making you lose.  So they end up hating you and desiring to harm you solely because they can't accept that they've been exposed. They may pretend to have moved on, but they're still thinking about you. They're still thinking of ways to sabotage what you've got going on because you destroyed their false image. They may act like they're happy and they're not thinking about you. But once you manage to affect the way that they see themselves, they never let go. Because the entire time they subdue their true needs and desires for something real instead of something that they fabricated in their minds and then projected onto reality. So when you show up and they see that you're the real deal and you've accomplished things for real, it makes them feel offended, ashamed, humiliated and deeply embarrassed. And that is something that will remain with them until the end of their lives. It's something that they will never get over. If you're finding this video helpful, please do give it a thumbs up down below. Onto number two, when they lose control of you. This is something that typically occurs with narcissistic parents, but it can also happen in relationships with narcissists that are possessive and controlling. When you regain control of your life and you gain independence, it destroys their false reality. It causes them a great deal of disturbance, confusion and uncertainty. Because the entire time they were coordinating the elements of the situation to produce their desired effects, where everything was under their control. So when you gain independence, it makes them feel at a state of shock and despair, especially when you gain financial independence from a narcissist who is using money to control you. Because your financial freedom leaves you to be no longer dependent on them.  They thrive on you being that accommodating subordinate, where you are submissive and compliant. But for you, that serves as a means to an end. It prevents you from progressing and accomplishing anything significant in your life, which is why they do not like your independence, because they see it as a threat to their delusions of grandeur, where they have total control over you. So when you gain independence, it cuts off their supply and then they will frantically try to regain what they have lost. But it will haunt them for the rest of their lives because you're developing rapidly and successfully outside of their reach, which means you're no longer a part of their game and that leaves an emptiness in their lives. Three, they can't replace you. Despite what they may try to make you believe, your supply is very rare. It's not something that they're going to find anywhere else. You gave them admiration, love and respect, which inflated their sense of self-worth. It made them feel unique and exceptional as though they're superior to everyone else, but that's only when you're around them. So of course they're going to experience the deprivation of these qualities when you're not around, which leaves them craving for that time when they once felt desirable, by someone who loved them more than anything else in their lives. So when you separate yourself, it is a monumental experience for them, to where they may do something dangerous and unexpected in a desperate attempt to regain your attention because they lost a potent source of supply, which is shocking and distressing for a narcissist. So they will urgently try to find a replacement, but it becomes an unrealistic hope that cannot be achieved until they develop an obsession with you and they end up stalking you or trying to gather information about you because your supply is very rare.  They may try to imitate the relationship with someone else, but it only frustrates them when they realise that it is unable to be fulfilled because you had so much energy and passion, so everything else seemed less important and serious in comparison to you. When you separate yourself, their void becomes a persistent and unrelenting reminder to them. And the fourth and final thing that narcissists never get over is that you saw through them and their minds. They're always the hero or the victim. They can never do anything wrong. They're superior to everyone, but that illusion is powered by your belief. It depends on your acceptance that it exists because it does not involve facts or proof. They just expect you to blindly recognise their perceived talent or intelligence without a practical demonstration or explanation because they're in denial. They really believe that they are superior. So when you come at them with facts in their minds, you're gaslighting them because you're denying them of their false reality. When the reality is that they're really not as great as they think they are. So when you see them as they actually are, they take it as an insult and they just can't comprehend it. They can't understand why you wouldn't be amazed by them because in their minds, they're the best thing since like bread, they're perfect. So you can't ever suggest that they could do something wrong. In their minds, that is an attack and it will make them very angry to where they will never forgive you.  Those are the four things narcissists never get over. Thank you for watching. If you found this video helpful, please do give it a thumbs up down below. Share your thoughts in the comment section, hit the subscribe button to receive the notifications and if you would like to support the channel, you can donate at payval.me-narc-survivor. You can also book a one-on-one with me on my website which is narc-survivor.co.uk. Thank you for watching and I'll talk to you soon.


This show is brought to you by These Happy Patrons. Hey there you beautiful people! Welcome to the BNPR show, the show where we feature the happenings in stylized rendering. Today's highlights are, first the outline node rendering in Cycles and EV. Second, let's go retro with sprites. And third, an abnormal update for the abnormal add-on. Time for the news. Chalk Style is a free add-on to render stylized wireframe images by Chip Walters. When you click its render button, not F12, this add-on renders three images. An ambient occlusion image at the full resolution. An outline image and a wireframe image at twice the resolution. There are extra steps to composite these images. We're sure that you'll figure out how to composite them. The download link to this add-on is in the show notes. In other outline-related news, Miguel Pozo created a patch to add an outline node for the material node graphs working on both Cycles and EV. This is pretty much like edge nodes, but it can be seen in real-time. You can download the patch Blender build with the material node, with a few example files via Gumroad. There is an extensive documentation of the node, and much detail compared to the usual Blender documentation. At this moment, it is still a work in progress, with plans to add many features and fix a few common workflow gotchas. So go give the patch some love and tell them we sent you there. Nice work, guys! If you have not used the abnormal add-on, you are missing the most wanted add-on for NPR and Blender. Cody has been fixing and updating the add-on from bug reports and enhancement proposals. Here are the changes since the release last month. 1. An option to use vertex groups to filter changes on normals. 2. Added persistent add-on preferences so you can see that in the add-in activation screen. 3. Limited the 2D UI to only draw in the 3D view it has started in. This makes for a better multi-view support. 4. Support for custom navigation key maps, meaning you can navigate vertex normal mode using your own navigation key maps. 5. More selection options. Select linked and invert selection. 6. Option to toggle between smooth and flat shading. 7. Better error handling, so the Python console isn't flooded with draw errors after a crash. And best of all, number 8, present tab to leave vertex editing mode will confirm the changes. Go download abnormal right now to fix your problematic shading. Time for tutorials and tricks. First up is the fourth part in a Tune Shader tutorial series by Lightning Boys Studio. This tutorial drills deep into the topic of anisotropic hair and how to create controls for different styles. Anisotropic is the specular reflection which stretches along the tangent of the surface, which is similar to how hair reflects light. To control the tangent direction, we have to UV unwrap the hair mesh. Here are the parts required to make the hair highlight. First is mask in the U direction, which is the X direction of the UV. Second part is the vector transfer which reacts to light much like specular. To do that, we need a vector transfer from world to camera vector. Third part is noise texture using the X value to make these stripes point in the vertical direction. The fourth part is a duplicate of the third setup, but now the noise is much smaller in detail. Fifth part is also a duplicate of the third, but a much larger noise texture, a mask for everything. The sixth part is a color ramp to remap the gray colors to get a sharp tune like shading. Seventh is mask using a specular shader to mask over everything so that it can track the location where the light is shining. Eighth is another color ramp to make the hidden specular appear more towards the sides of the hair. Ninth is a mix RGB to color the specular highlights. With all these ingredients combined, we get, not Captain Planet, but we can have as much detail as we want. This certainly isn't the only way to make an anisotropic hair shader. You can add, remove, and enhance the setup, and optimize it for your use cases. For sure the video is giving us a lot of options to play with, but one thing will remain constant in all anisotropic hair setups, you must UV unwrap the hair mesh. With that, please have fun with this tutorial. The second tutorial is a tip by Dante on how to extract colors to make the color palette in Blender. These features will only be available in the upcoming Blender 2.83 and onward. Note, before you do any NPR color-related task, please go to the render tab in the properties window, the color management panel, and change the view transform from filmic to standard. This will make sure the selected color will display the same on the 3D view. First, you need an image with colors on it. Second, load the image in an image viewer window. Third, go to the image menu and click extract palette. The extracted colors will be in the color settings for your tools. And that's it. It's a quick and very useful color tip. If you want to color pick awesome colors like a pro, and not worry too much about pre-made color palettes, you can get our soul-stirring digital color mastery ebook. After finishing the ebook, you can make your own unique color palettes on the fly. With a strong color foundation, it will be very hard to pick ugly color combinations. And now for your dose of a retro fix. Southern Shoddy made a tutorial for simple pixel art in Eevee. First, you need a simpler character design with no fine details. Fine details will not be visible in a low resolution render and can become noise in your final render. Second, coat the character with a simple tune shader. Third, point the camera to the style of output you want. In general, there are three camera styles. First, the side view. Second, the top down view. And third, the isometric view. But in some games, they just put a side view character on an isometric view background. The next step is making the render size tiny. The resolution of 64 pixels squared often works. To remove anti-aliasing in the film panel, turn the filter size to 0.1. Now you can render your pixel art. But then how do we turn these images into a spreadsheet or something called a texture atlas for use in games? Good news, Markham3D has you covered on that. In his tutorials, he shows the manual way to do it. For a small project, the manual way is the way to go. But if you have hundreds of images, you may want an add-in and they do cost a little fee. Let's look at the manual method. After you've rendered a sequence of images, start a new blend file to assemble the spreadsheet. First, the camera setup. Reset and position the camera to the orthographic view. Second, add a simple image texture to a plane. Load your first pixel art image to the shader. Third, set the alpha from the image in the diffuse BSDF and in the material setting. Set the blend mode to alpha, hashed. Fourth, add two array modifiers, one for the x direction and another for the y direction. Fifth, change the rendering size of the camera to fit the image arrays. Move the camera into position and also change the orthographic scale to fit everything. Six, apply the array modifiers. Seventh, enter edit mode and separate the mesh by loose parts. Each sprite its own mesh. Eighth, now for repeating tasks. Set the material on each sprite and change the image on it. Do this until you exhaust all your sprites. If you have extra sprites, remove them. After pressing F12, save the final texture. Ta-da! You just made a sprite sheet! Here are a few more tutorials and trick videos that will be worth your time. Blender Grease Pencil 2.8 tutorial for beginners. Part 1 and 2 by DDoos. A must watch for those wanting to add 2D design into 3D space. Blender Grease Pencil 2D 3D Hybrid Storyboard Animatic by Spitfire Storyboards. This one dives deep into another application of Grease Pencil, a lengthy video with a lot of details. Understanding Curve plus Simple Deform Modifiers for Mesh Hair by Aversion of Reality. This is an extra tutorial to explain the transforms from the Flat Hair Mesh Modifier setup we saw in the previous show. It goes deeper into how to correct your Flat Hair Modeling setup. It's a must watch for you to understand object modifiers even if you don't use the setup. Ascii Art by CGmatter and Yogyag. This is not one but two overview videos on how to make Ascii Art using Blender. They pretty much use the same texture setup as Paul Kakegi, half tone setup but appending the different character texture on a different color value. Heart Rate is a music video by Basin Channel. The abstract feeling you get from watching the MV is something else. So go watch it for the NPR-ness. Dylan Gu Ke, a supporter of the show and team. Wait, we also saw Rookie Curry in there. They made this latest epic battle titled, My Hero Academia Cats. The Meal Lion, The Hero. Too much awesomeness and you just have to watch the animation. Whose artwork got into the artwork of the month this time? Let's find out. That 70s house is a 3D scene by Andy Begg. What can we learn here? First, the trees and the bushes have inverted faces. The gradient for the sun and the sky are flipped in value. A blue tarmac, something you don't see every day. And the car's color value is perfect compared to its surroundings. We see soft edge shadows. A small value change in the lit color compared to it in the shadow. And glass windows on the house and the car are simple yet stylized. And last, the brick chimney has just the right amount of details. Perfect. Nice job Andy Begg. This is not exactly the end of the show yet, so please stick around for a bit. We have a bit more NPR goodness that we can fit into the show, so check the show notes for that. Please subscribe if you have not. You can find us in these places as well. These are the awesome people funding the creation of this show. Thank you for keeping the show running for everyone. Before we go, one last question. What pixel art game do you love? With that, this is the end of the show, and please stay safe.


Last night we talked to somebody about doing infrared charging. Today we're going to talk to Ali Hajimiri about guru which is millimeter wave wireless charging. What do you have to show us here today? So we are using millimeter wave signals and waves to transfer energy from a source what we call a generation unit to a device and you can use this energy wireless power for charging devices or powering them any kind of device anything from your phone from your mouse kind of like your keyboard or any IoT device and what we can do we can do it without any moving parts we use our what we call the RF lensing smart RF lensing we can create these very small focus points and focus the energy in one area which basically enables you to transfer the energy where you want and nowhere else. So you're not wasting a lot of energy by flooding a whole room with it or you know heating you up or whatever but it just goes targeted to specific spots right exactly it goes exactly where you want and when you want and as much as you want and not nowhere else. So we have audio listeners as well so we've got a big guru thing above us on a false ceiling and then we've got a couple of charging pads here our battery banks. Yeah so what I call we call this that we call them recovery units are used so this is a demonstration of how you can actually recover this can be incorporated into your device but right now we are as a demonstration we are using it a separate thing and what you can see is that the energy is highly localized so what you see here is that basically we are sending energy to this particular place and as you can point what you can see is that it's going just there and nowhere else so now he's moving one of these recovery devices over the pad and it's lighting up when he gets there and you can actually feel the the heat from it right right exactly so what you can see is that actually you can actually even transfer it from one location to another location so if you actually hit it and ask it to transfer from one location without any moving action you can go from one place to another so you are now going from pad one to pad two so what you can see this aren't those aren't optical lenses that are all electronically controlled so it's electronic steering and what that does it basically sends the energy from it by controlling the timing it sends the energy exactly where you need so for example what you can see here is that you can actually see that it's concentrated in this area and you can see it's very very narrow focus right we can see it's a very concentrated area of energy right and what it is is that it's nowhere else it's not on you it's not on me it's anywhere else and you know what you can do the other thing is that you can actually send it from one location to another by selecting a different location now it's here so he's just he's just switched to the other location yes exactly and I think what happened right now is that they're kind of so what the other thing that it does it basically activates the so it has a safety mechanism so if you actually get in the way and if you want to kind of control it after a couple of seconds it's on being blocked so it shuts it down so you don't expose people unnecessarily although this this is radio signals that we believe are basically safe for from an operation because they're non-ionizing but also why waste it right correct exactly so how do you turn it off if I wanted to now not be wasting any of that energy so so the device only transmits energy when there is a device that says I need energy so it will have to be an active request okay okay that makes sense so without an active request there would not be any transfer of power I got you okay we're gonna cut here and we're gonna go to another location and see something else cool in the same area all right so what we have here is what we call a rovey so it's basically a roving generation unit so this is a robot that's actually used to charge and send energy to other devices so the idea here is that you have one of these things in your house or in your retail store and it moves around finds devices that need energy and power and they will send power to them so for example right now this is powering this light bulb that here you can see that I have a light bulb that's on and if I put my hand in front of it you can see that it's actually wirelessly powered from that because I can block it by doing that all right I'm gonna get down here I'm looking around there's no batteries there's no wires a light bulb is lit up because the rovey is pointed at exactly it's transmitting energy to it and the rovey can go from one location to another location and finds another device there it goes it's moving down it's going to turn the corner down here it's going to go over to another light bulb right this is very exciting and what's happening is that the device goes and finds the next thing that's requesting it exactly so the next device that's requesting power and basically going there from here and what you see here is that it's basically sending it and sending power to this device and now you can see that this it's this device that's being wirelessly powered so the robot came up turned a corner and then turned itself and rotated until it was pointed at the device that was requesting power exactly and the idea here is that you have something like this in your home and it's kind of like going around and watering your plan so automatically goes around and at night or during the off hours it goes and finds devices one of those vacuums exactly like and then it would go around and find it and operate or and whenever it runs low on power it goes and charges itself and then it comes back the labor savings in a business I could see that being a lot you can think about it both both at home and as well as retail stores or warehouses where you need you have a lot of devices that right now are being operated off of a battery all of the smart devices smart home devices all of the IOT's and now what you have is that you have you don't have to worry about them because there's somebody constantly taking care of them which is this little Roe v so now we haven't actually talked about loss so so transmitting the energy over the air is going to have loss what how efficient is this it's quite the transfer over air for this frequency is very efficient for the distances we are talking about we are going over tens of meters man and tens of feet and all those things and what happens is that at these distances the loss at the frequencies we are talking about is quite low now if you go there what's quite low give me a number here and the loss in the air is very small it's actually a couple of percent so so but but what happens is that once you get farther than a certain distance depending on the size of what we call the recovery unit which is the unit that actually controls the recovers the power and depending on the size of that a fraction of that power will be recovered so if you'll go far and far and far it's just a law of physics you will drop in terms of the amount of power that you receive but over distances that the system is designed for a good fraction of that power is recovered and by good fraction again you mean a couple just a couple percent so I would say no I mean it they thought from the power that's radiated kind of sent out transmitted to the power that's kind of recovered you're thinking about something like 50% of one five 50% 50% loss no 50% of that power would be recovered it turned into DC power but it gives it a 50% loss isn't it correct yes yes it is yes and what it does it basically is a way of what it gives you the convenience of moving around and basically being able to have an powering of the device is going from a an active activity that you have to think about remember yeah definitely right back to the robot remember the old days when we had to go and actively download our emails and now it happens in the background so we are making charging and turning it from an active activity to a passive background activity that sounds nice that sounds nice let's move on to the next station very good all right now we're at station three yes and this is what we call a desk unit so this is a smaller version of our room system that we saw earlier and what it is is basically a system that you can put on your desk this is a prototype of the system that you can put on a desk and you can charge use it to power and charge all of your devices from your phone to your let's say laptop to your mouse and keyboard wireless mouse and keyboards things of that sort for the audio people what we're seeing here looks like a like an old overhead projector if anybody's old enough to know what those look like a bigger kind of like a desk lamp or something like a large desk lamp yeah and then what happens is that now I'm pushing what the number one basically telling it to power send power to that light so that light bulb there's no battery in it you're just sending transferring the light bulb just requested yes correct and then it has turned on the light bulbs it is a kind of a decent size light bulb it's not one of those tiny ones and it's basically if you're getting powered through this device and then what you can do if I push another button basically sit telling it to send it to the phone now and what you can see here now the phone charging is showing so like your graphics of the battery charging there so when he pressed the button towards the phone there's a he's got a folio and you've got one of the detectors one of the receivers there on the on the folio case exactly and basically that recovery unit is recovering the power that's being generated here and feeding it to the phone and the phone is using it to charge itself right now and then you can have it for small iot devices you can see the little tiny strip on the left-hand side that says guru on it and that tiny recovery unit recovery unit so you can see tiny like half the size of my little finger exactly and then that's basically just not only powering that display but also charging the battery inside that so this is like a surrogate this is an example of a what we call an iot device would look like and what the requirement so you have something that small that can attach to your iot device you can think about it as your camera the wireless camera or security camera because security cameras they're wired they call them wireless but they still need to be plugged in so you can have something like that and then you can have them basically operating or your sensors or any kind of device these distances would you have a lot less loss this be more efficient yet all of these distances that you're talking about as long as there are several like tens of feet the distance is basically the loss is pretty low for that that's not the biggest factor okay okay well this is very cool if people want to learn more about it where do they find these this technology so you can look at our web page which is guru.ink and so that's our web page and they can also contact us at info at guru.ink and they can find a lot of information about it or they can come to our booth at 41558 at CES great thank you very much appreciate your time thank you very much