have you attended a rock concert? imagine no ha, kufuuthu have you? its fun, yes I have when is the last one the last one that I attended yeah was it when that was covid that was now lockdown i think that was last year or last year but one somewhat there nice, I've never gone yeah the next day I had to take a lot of painkillers kwa maher was digitish do you want to know something sad when I had a scholarship to study in the US I missed seeing Trevanoa, Beyoncé and Kevin Hartz because I was too broke to go. It's not cheap to enter those kanda. I just didn't have the money. Kevin Hartz was literally a 20 minute bus ride away and it was a free bus. But you know scholarship kid man. And then Trevanoa was in New York, Kuntza Fodix, Beyoncé as well. Whom did you see? Nobody. I know that's a six years artist's life man. Yeah, because I was on scholarships. Speaking of scholarships, somebody got straight A's. Like everywhere, somewhere. What school was that? Precious Blood, Druiter. Kumben chopi. Top 100 in Nairobi actually. And you know what, I once had, I think he was my doctor, ENT. I told him, oh I'm an actor and musician.  No. Yeah. And then when I said, I got straight A's, they'd look at me like, how could you waste your life that way? There's a stigma around the arts. That smart people can't do the arts and it's wrong. And actually, I think it's usually smart people who are actually into arts. They're usually very smart people. Yeah. We have toured a lot of places. Which countries have you been to again? You have said the U.S.? Okay, in Africa. Okay, hey, okay. Now let's start in Africa. In Africa. And again, this is all scholarships, by the way. Because my dad died when I was 11 and then my mom raised me and my sister. And we've just had a lot of challenges growing up. So in high school when I was in PB, I knew that I had to figure out a way of going to university. I just had to. There was no way. I was accepted to KU actually for Computer Science and Psychology. And the only reason I studied abroad was because I wanted to get an arts education. I just wanted to be educated. If there was a conservatory in Kenya, which is one of my dreams, whether it's me or it's someone else, I would never have left because it's very hard out there when you leave. So all this is scholarships. So where is the scholarship taken? Uganda, South Africa, Senegal, Morocco, Swaziland. You're still going on? That's Europe. I mean that's Africa. Europe, Greece, Italy, the UK, Croatia, Spain, France. And honestly, it's because, let me tell you, there was this thing called Semester at Sea that costs over 3 million. And my mother sent me the email like, apply and we didn't have the money. But I've always been a person of faith. I believe you should jump off the cliff and then pray for the wings to come down. Don't get too caught up in the how am I gonna do this, how am I gonna do this, how am I gonna do this. So I applied for it and I got in but we didn't have the money. And it's a long story but somehow the school that I was attending on scholarship in India, the United World College of India, just randomly got a full scholarship for you to be on a ship that travels all over the world in 100 days and goes to 12 countries. Now again you would think this was a wonderful experience. In my mind I'm like, wow. But I was with the 1%. I remember there was a girl she bought earrings in Senegal for 70,000 Kenya shillings. I thought it was a pain. So you're now trying to make plans as friends in the countries. You're reminded constantly that you don't have enough. Do you know what I mean? So like you're there but you're not really there. Money is one of those things. Actually that's really inspiring. One of the things I've gotten there is that you try. Even if no one should tell you that it's impossible, it's limited. You can't get in. Just try.  And also work hard in school. Yeah, I'd say beyond working hard you need to have a vision. You need to have a vision of where you want to be. And the only person that can tell you it's not possible is yourself. There's so many people that say I want to start a business but I want to do this but I want to but, but, but and that's where all dreams die. All of them. Because you have to ask, believe, then receive. So you have a long, let me call it a long career in film, in acting. Can you tell us a little bit about that? How did you begin? Yeah, how did I begin? Also, by the way, if you're watching me and you're super interested in me at I am Washuka on Instagram and Facebook. Grace Washuka, that's W-A-C-U-K-A. My handle is at I am W-A-C-U-K-A. So if you want to know more about these things, I'm very open. I'll share with you resources and if you're interested, I reply. How did I begin? Yes. I began like the actual beginning? No, no, no. When did you realize, oh, I'm actually in my career as a film and acting? I was 13 years old in Precious Blood Riruta and there was a Christmas concert and in my school, there was only one play a year. That's now again, you see how the arts, people don't value it.  I was in drama club. Oh, for real? Yeah, I was. Oh, when did you go to Iso by the way? I went to a seminary. Seminary?  Wow. Junior seminary. So I was in the drama school and we were pretty good. I was also in the journalism club so it's kinda arts. Yeah, it's arts. And you know they say that if you don't expose a child to the arts by the age of 14, they're unlikely to take an interest in it in the rest of their lives. So you have to get them young. So my dekamit in PB, I wasn't even in the drama club, signed me up to be the sub, the understudy to the lead. And it's a long story but I just, it was the Virgin Mary and I just took it as like a job. Like I didn't take it as like, oh, my passion, it was just, you know, and I remember one time the chair lady of the drama club saying, Christwa Shuka works the hardest of all of us and she's not even in the drama club. And one day the director called me and the girl that I was understudying because the understudy is just supposed to like in case the main girl gets sick or anything, that's me. And he just always look at time and be like, Washuka, can you just go show her what I'm trying to explain to her? Washuka, can you just go and I'm 13 and the lead was only supposed to go to third formers. Only. I was in form one. There's no way the lead should ever go to a form one. But he just was like, Washuka, go, Washuka. So at some point he just sat us down, he said, I've made a decision. Grace Washuka is going to be the lead. And then after that the Christmas concert was canceled. So for the next five years I never got to be in another play until I went to India. But I had my introduction. India, it was the United Royal College. I got a scholarship to do that. Love the United Royal College family. So I studied theatre there but it was very book oriented and I was failing actually the classes because I'm a performer. So I remember at some point thinking there's no way I can study acting because I'm failing the classes. They've changed the curriculum now. So when I went to the states, honestly, it was the Black Lives Matter movement. You know over there.  In the 2000s, remember everybody was black. Missy Elliot, like the airwaves were all black. The music was all black. It was all black culture. It was all black. It was black. You know Alia, Destiny's Child, Tupa, I don't know Jarul. It was all black. Their music wasn't really talking about the struggle.  We had incidents at school. Some girl niga, go back to Africa. Another time another girl, a white girl she called the cops on an African student sitting in the living room. So I got so stressed I couldn't think and my mum called me and my mum had always been against me being an actor by the way. My mum wanted me to be an engineer. My mum wanted me to do something safe. Wait, something safe. What do you mean by safe? Safe according to her or according to most African parents are traditional careers but now with the economy, actually unsafe is safe. If you're used to being unsafe you're safer than people who are used to being safe and then they lose their jobs. Have you guys heard that? If you're unsafe like if you pick the unsafe you're actually the safest one. Because you're used to adapting. In ito matamichi ya luga. So here. You're invading very good. Proverbs and wise sayings that I had to make them concentrate on here. Ya. Just in case you're looking at me and you're like, ah, this chick. You see, she has changed. Kizungu badu neza skiave neko krips. Before we continue we had asked a question on social media. We were asking folks how can you describe the kind of friends that you have? Not close. The close ones, the cluster ones, we have class A, class B, all of them. How would I describe them? Ya. So I've shared this also on my Instagram and Facebook handle at IAM washuka WSUK. I'm going to be a lead on single kiasi in season 2. Only on Shomax. So I'm really excited about that. And the season, the series is about friendship. Which for me is something that I've been thinking about a lot. Over the last 10 years moving every 2 years has had its challenges and strain on friendships. But right now I would describe my friends, my closest friends who by the way I've made friends as an adult. You know how people say it's not possible to make friends as an adult. If you guys didn't start in childhood then do you know... For my case it's different actually. Of the same, you've made friends as an adult close friends. I've made close friends in adulthood. My childhood friends, some of them I don't even know where they are right now. They're safe. So if you're a childhood friend and you're watching please go to my DM and remind me. Remind me of you. Please continue. I would describe them as extremely loyal and faith-centered people. I think that's all you need. In today's council culture you literally say one thing and it's over. Swipe. Next. I'm done. You can see what's happening to Kanye West. You know... He just mentioned council culture. Yeah, council culture is so real. And me, I'm not about that. If we're starting, we're finishing till heaven. So they're very loyal. And that's also my character in Singokiasi. I play the character of Olivia in season 2. You might have seen in some of the posters and the promo. And she's extremely loyal. So backstage you told me about the 2 seconds also series that you featured in. Oh yeah, I was also on Crime and Justice. And I also did a feature film in New York. That was a blessing. What was the name of the feature film? A New Christmas. It's on Amazon and Showmax. But I do need to plug in my mum who was, like I said, so against acting. And then it was first semester in uni. I was doing computer science because that's what she wanted. My mum told me, Washuka, in order to be a musician you can create the next spotify. I'm telling my mummy that's coding. But it's the same thing. I'm like mum, music is music. Coding is. Like it's coding. I tried, I did computer science for a term. Then one day she calls me and she's like Washuka, what are you even doing in that school? Then I said I'm taking a computer science class. I'm taking this class. I'm doing drama and business. I tell everybody you're doing drama and business. And this woman had been against That's a typical African mother. Had been against it from the very beginning. And then she actually said to me get yourself into a drama class. Imagine that energy. Get yourself into a drama class. And that was 8 years ago. Can you say she inspired you to where you are right now? Let me tell you. The other day, I was extremely difficult. And I have times when I've sat down with my mum and I'm like Aki mami. Maybe you were right I should have been a lawyer. I'm not even joking. If this thing is not a calling, don't do it. Don't do it for the fame. Don't do it for the money. It has to be a calling. Because those heights that you see people at, there are unspeakable lows. And we lose people. Mental health, we lose people in those unspeakable lows. And my mother has always been the person who notices if I'm not okay. And when I tell her, mami, like I remember the other day I just said to her, this was 5 months ago before Singo Kiyasi, before Rosa's dad came out because there were so many challenges in this song coming out which I wrote when I was 16. And mum just said to me. You know you have just brushed that off. She wrote this song when she was 16. 16 years old. This song is being released. Actually you have quality 11, 11. Your favourite number is 11. So 11, 11. So the song was written when she was 16 and it's 2022. So it's been perfected. It's like wine, it's aged well. I've tried other producers before I worked with Sofresh who by the way is incredibly talented. We all know him as Nikita Kerrin's main producer. I tried other producers over 10 years. I've been just waiting, waiting to get the song rights. But mum, I remember like 6 months because we were going through so many I was going through so many challenges and I just looked at mum and I said I just quit the arts. You know me, I got straight A's. What is it I can't do? So I can just go to school and study something else. And my mum looked at me and she was like Shuka you never know. You never know. She sounds lovely. I need to buy her hard roses today. Before we listen to roses are dead Is there any like a parish or to lifestyle the viewers who are watching you right now? Ya, so I wanted to I did want to share. So roses are dead, I wrote at the age of 16 years old and again follow me at I am washuka we probably will put it on the screen we will have to see how the she must be plugging. But I am WACUKA Grace Washuka Wait, is it Wasuka or Wasuka? Wasuka, C-U-K-A Don't put an H, don't put an S C-U-K-A, so Wakuka Grace Wakuka Ya, but it's spelled Wakuka Wakuka I was about to make a pan but I held it back. Ya, my best friend's kids says I say it's like a shoe in a car and she's like oh imagine if I was a sock in a car Wasuka Ya, I wrote roses are dead when I was 16 years old I was standing outside the matron's office in Prashas Bladi Ruta I was about to inspect my linen because we worked like that place was just labor for four years and then I had it like a full song in my head I didn't actually write it you know like you sit down and you think of a rhyme I literally felt like I was listening to a radio and I was 16 I'd never fallen in love with anybody I'd never experienced heartbreak and if you listen to this song it's like it could be me now it could be a 30-year-old woman it's a very bitter song and I never understood the song there's a way that a long time ago they used to say that what genia came from geni you have a good geni so you blame your geni for everything you don't say Grace wasuka is talented you just say Grace wasuka's geni so if I do a bad song you just say it's the geni but things have changed into the glorification of man now but back then if you go and look at the history of the what genias it meant that there was an outside force outside of you that would inspire you I did it I sang it in many places all over the world just acoustically and cafes and so when I did this Netflix feature film that's as a lead that's coming out next year I with some really big people you'll see I prayed to God and I said you don't want to mention some names it's exclusive Idris Sultan he has like 7.5 million followers Tanzanians I love you guys I love you guys I'm actually saying things that we are talking backstage I told that she's actually famous and she's like no no no I'm not famous I'm like you are famous I know famous people but I'm not famous okay we'll see let God be famous let my music glorify but to end this story so we went through many additions and finally roses are dead was recorded January 23rd the video was done January 23rd it's November so even the process of getting it done the only thing that let me know that it was gonna come out was prayer I asked this lady to pray for me I don't know I was just talking I just said my life in general it was sometime in January and she said to me so God told me not he didn't he really did I don't mean to do this he told me to use what I ant from the Netflix feature towards roses are dead I was like what that song that song from like he's like yeah so I'm like okay fine but when I talk to you I see a field of roses and these roses are alive and I never told her that I was doing a project called roses are dead roses are dead so we went through nine months of problems and the only thing that guided me through that infact roses are dead is gonna come out is this woman who said she saw that roses are alive so that's why I got you guys roses because it's a symbol of hope even if you're going through a breakup like the lady in this video I think of characters as a separate people there's still hope and your roses will still live so follow me on social media at I am WACUKA let's connect if you watch this you're inspired you have a question I would love to connect with you and I thank you so much also we're gonna be organizing giveaways and prizes we're doing a campaign for roses are dead it's gonna be so exciting we're partnering with a number of companies to do this it's gonna be crazy so if you wanna win free stuff if you wanna be blessed follow me at I am WACUKA on Instagram Facebook not on Twitter and I can't wait to connect with you and I hope you enjoy the song it's not 1111 actually appreciate you coming let me just say that this is so fickle it's actually very interesting and someone can listen to you for hours and hours and hours so that's very inspiring we are so glad to have you here and Rajiz if it's not 1111 but it's 953 we are breaking the rules but yeah it's exclusive exclusive on Y254 TV the hashtag is social Friday we are gonna listen to the new song actually no way else right here on Y254


Really fast. I'm very fine, I'm in delivery. You work with the Nairobi Countysports Ministry. I believe you have something for the use of Nairobi in regards to sports. Thank you very much, Clinical Ш developmental staff. Ya, it very true. I assist at Nairobi County, the Department of Education, Gender, Sports and Youth. And actually today, because of the topic of our discussion, I would like to dwell much on what we are doing about the youth and sports, because actually it's the youth who are involved in sporting activities. In the Governor's Manifesto, there was this point of bringing up stadiums. And actually, as we speak now, we have four stadiums within this financial year 2017-2018 that we are just about to complete. Recently, like six months ago, we ground-breaking the Ghidandora Stadium, which is 60% done, where we are putting terraces now in tarfs. It is going to be an art of the stadium, a very beautiful one, and with all the necessities that it needs. And from there, as we speak now, we are also going to Kiyumbu in the stadium, in Samoa, in Dagureti. We've also done the ground-breaking, and actually a lot of activities in terms of construction has commenced. And we are hopeful that by the end of maybe next year, February or April, the two stadiums will be done with. Then from there, we'll be moving to Wigley Stadium. As we speak now, we've already sent the engineers on the ground to go and measure, do the measurement and take the BQs and everything. So we're also very hopeful that within this financial year, the Wigley Stadium will start its construction. The fourth one, I think it's Zewani. Also we've done the first step that we do, going to speak to the stakeholders, the football teams, the coaches, the managers and everybody within that jurisdiction, to make sure that we get the consent for us to go ahead and construct. So in Zewani, we are at a very, very first stage of public participation in regard to how these people want this ground to be built. Now, with these four stadiums also, what criteria have you used to, like an example, Dandora? What made you make a decision we want Dandora? Actually, we have a city county ground there that it has been in West for a very long time. So we have decided to go for the grounds that was ours before. First, we will claim the grounds that belong to the Nairobi city county and the first place. Then from there, it can be very easy for us to continue. Secondly, we've realized that in this area that we have decided to start with, we have a lot of talent being wasted. For example, in Dandora, if you see we have Dandora 1, 2, 3, 4, we have Kado Bangi and Kogacho. All these people, we have a lot of talent and young boys yearning to play football in other games. So we have identified these places based on the needs that you think is arising within this. Alright, as you wind up, how will these stadiums be managed? Actually, we are planning, the county will not manage them fully. We are planning to tell the coaches, actually the stakeholders in this industry, the soccer industry. Who will be? Who will be now the players themselves, the teams, the coaches and technically for the purposes of management, as in smooth running of management, we will have some representing from the county. But generally, we want these stadiums to be managed by the youth, by the stakeholders who are the coaches and the football players who mostly are the youth and women of these areas. So what is the, finally, what is the promise that the Nairobi county is giving to the youths of Nairobi? We are very much committed to what the government said during the campaigns. We don't want to create only four. Our target is to create ten stadiums within Nairobi and we have just identified four to start with and we hope that through creating these stadiums a lot of youth will get employment, a lot of youth will get somewhere to spend their time, a lot of talent will be managed. So this round time, we are not going to play with talents, especially the soccer part of it because we understand that a lot of players in Kenya have grown rich due to this soccer. So we want to encourage that because it's a way of employment. We would wish to encourage more and more youth to join and make sure that there is a good environment for them to play this game. Alright. Many thanks for coming and telling us what the plans the Nairobi government is having in terms of nurturing talents. However, we don't know what will happen to the people, the artists that is maybe we'll be getting to know that later. But for now many thanks for coming and we hoping that things will work well for the youth come 2019. We will be taking a very short break and when we come back it's time we talk about the same we're in a sacking and then we talk about the UF around.


Hello everybody. Welcome back to esoteric Atlanta. I almost forgot the name of my channel for a second. What life is this again? I forgot to press record. Well, for Stephanie's channel, you just missed me almost forgetting the name of my channel. Okay, so before we get into this, I go through these weird moments in life and it's happened to me since I was a kid and maybe it is part of spiritual development especially if you've been doing spiritual work many, many lives where all of a sudden, like my own name sounds weird and foreign. Like all of a sudden, my own self feels foreign to me and it used to happen to me when I was a kid a lot. Like all of a sudden, I didn't feel like, like, I don't know. It just, it felt very, I don't know if that makes sense but I was laying in bed last night and all of a sudden, I started thinking about my own name. I think it's because I recorded Monday mystery yesterday which is Robert the doll. So I was thinking about my name and how the kid gave the doll his name and I started thinking about my name being a family name and all of a sudden, it just felt very foreign. Everything just felt very, very foreign. Like I was just this soul, just what, which is what we want, right? That's the whole, that's the whole point of spiritual development too is to be able to rest into the soul knowing the soul is just like literally watching your life happen like it's a reality show. I mean, I'm sure if Patanjali lived in 2022, he would have called it a reality show but 5,000 years ago in the studios when he wrote them, they didn't have reality TV but that's basically what's happening. So anyway, so it's kind of funny. I forgot the name of my actual channel. So I of course, I'm joined today with my two of my besties, Emmy and Stephanie and we are going to be continuing our conversation on shadow work and basically our conversations on humanity because human being a human, I mean, I'm hurting, turning it into a verb here. Humanity is really hard and it's the zero with coffee. Zero with coffee. Coffee. Which we are going to talk about today. Yes, human being is very, very hard and we're all in my teacher, David Green, one of my teachers used to say it's insolvable riddle, right? It's like we're trying to learn how to be present and integral in our human lives without being attached to the outcome of our human lives because being attached to the outcome of our human lives means that we are not attached to God but to rather the label of property or nature, which is not eternal. But before we get into psychedelics, there is something I wanted to discuss again about karma and this concept of karma because earlier this week I put up a video about what consent looks like. Stephanie and I spoke about it yesterday in the Priory of Scion with these things and we're going to try to keep this on YouTube. So this thing, Abby has something to say about it too. And a lot of people are asking about children. She wants to be involved.  She's like, it's my show. What input would you like to tell the audience that you have to poop? That you wouldn't go for me? Next life, I know for sure I want her colon in my next life. No, she poops like four times a day. Most of my problems would be solved if I had her colon. One of my nicknames for her is Poopasaurus Rex. She's got a skinny situation. As Cindy said, it's the spooky dookies for Halloween. Anyway, I'm not a mother and so I'm glad I got my two friends here who are mothers. But I do understand the complexities of talking about karma and children because we do know spiritually, especially with the energetic body, that a child's chakras are developing as their body is developing too. We can know that a baby isn't born with its seventh chakra, only with its first one. We do understand that there is spiritual development as the body is developing as well. However, in saying that, the soul of the child is the same as it was when it was a day old as it is when it's 80 years old. According to the law of one, and this actually makes sense to me from a very logical perspective, yes, it is our job as adults to protect our children. As an aunt, part of my job is to protect my nephew and my nieces and I would give my life for them absolutely 100%. But there also is something we have to understand as well, and that's the boundary of the karma that the child has agreed to. What do I mean by that? I want to specify too because I think in the western world we have a very ignorant view on karma. All karma is, is cause and effect. That's all it is. It's your work. You know, the fact that I woke up this morning, that the karma of me waking up this morning meant that I took a shower and I'm here filming with these ladies. The fact that I put on makeup means that now I can turn the camera on and film. That makes sense. The fact that you look at it as cause and effect, right? That's all karma is. We label things as bad karma or good karma. But with cause and effect or action and reaction, we're looking at learning phases. So karma, again in the spiritual world, we call your karma your work. It's just your work. And we don't come to this human life to not work. We come here because we have karma we need to work through. We have things we have to work through.  A child though, according to the law of one, the minute they're born, they are responsible for their karma. So what does that mean? That means that that child's soul contract, our soul contracts, when we were born started the minute we took our first breath. Yeah?  They even picked, I mean Stephanie, we've talked about this. When the sperm and the egg meet, the energy of that sperm, so whatever the father is dealing with, if the father is in a low point or an angry point or that egg, if the mother is carrying the energy, the child agreed to that. The child agreed to take that on. We call that inherited karma. The child agreed for whatever reason that those energies needed to be present in their development to learn whatever lesson they decided they needed to learn. And so once that happens, once that sperm hits that egg, it's the child's responsibility then to work through that energy. It's not the parents. The parent you're there to support your children and help them, but you also have to allow them to make decisions and to kind of give them that free reign. Does that make sense? And so when it comes to this thing with children, and I know this is very, very confusing, but if a child is screaming in a doctor's office screaming no to one of these and the parents and the doctor enforce it on the child, then that means the parents and the doctor are going to have to then pay that karma back because they just broke that child's consent. All right? Now, if the child willingly agrees to this, then that's that child consenting for whatever reason. I know that's hard for us to comprehend in our bodies because in our property, our nature, we think we need to control, but you made a really good point yesterday, Stephanie, like we have to give up that control. We can set boundaries for our kids to try to protect them as best we can, but we also can't hover in control. Does that make sense? The law of one is very matter of fact about this. Mm-hmm. Yeah, I think a lot of parents, because they want to protect their children, they view their children as an extension of themselves. And it's really doing a disservice to them if we look at them that way, because then we try to take away their pain or prevent them from, you know, of course we're going to try to prevent them from having pain, but we have neither the right nor the ability to take away their pain. Their pain is their pain. They can either sit and do in it or they can learn and grow from it, but it's theirs. And if we're trying to take that away, because we see them as an extension of ourselves, then we're not giving them the opportunity to work through that stuff that they agreed to come here with and work on. And that's the whole thing you have to remember, too, is they agree to that. Mm-hmm. They agree to do that, just like all the pain we've been through.  We do pick our parents for a reason, because there are energetic components that our parents give us that we decided as a soul we needed to work through. And yes, you do kind of cluster and travel as souls together in a grouping. I get that. I mean, the interesting thing, I had a past life reading done. I found a lot of past life readings done, but a really, really, really long time ago. And it came up with my father, how many different relationships I've had with my, you know, that's the thing. My father hasn't always been my father in every life. In some lives, he was my friend. In some lives, he was a brother or a sister.  In some lives, they could have been your parent. You know what I'm saying? So when we look at the irony of that one, I mean, there were many lives. Listen, in the past life I did, there were many lives where I was my parents' parents, which makes sense to me because I mean, even at my mom's Stephanie, I feel like I'm way older than my parents, like way older. I feel like I'm ancient compared to both of my parents. And my family as well, I was always the weird one with the wise wisdom. And they're just looking at me like, what? Yeah. But there's, so you can go back a weekend. Like I've said this, like, you know, I've always said if I had a daughter, especially that I would really want her to have a really good relationship with her father. That was always really important to me because I didn't have that growing up. I don't have a daddy. I don't, my dad is, you know, I have a great, great grandfather, but you know, so, but even though that's something that's kind of a wound in me, I recognize it for what it is and I've learned a lot through that experience. And now I understand why I agreed to do this, Mary, go right again with his soul as my dad because I, there was something I needed to learn from that experience, right? And that's in Maya Angelou said, I know people are about Maya Angelou, but this is true. She said, your children are not a part of you. They just come through you. Our purpose for them is to make sure they have a roof over their head. They got food to eat. Their diapers changed when they're young. Just the guide them as much as we know how to and then you let them go. Yeah. I mean, you always will love them. Absolutely. You love your children, but there's only so much you can do. So I've been in a situation where my child has never been the easiest. Okay. He was an easy toddler, very easy baby. But by the time he was probably three or four years old, that's when things started to get a little wonky. And I was dealing with a child with a monstrous temper. By the time he turned 12, it got so bad that I was like suicidal ideation. It was that bad. So, you know, it's, he took on the karma of his father and his father's a very angry man, very, very angry man. He's a narcissist, very violent. But I had to learn to work with that and figure that stuff out. And I didn't even know about this stuff then. I wish I had so that I knew better. And I've gotten to the point. So yeah, some of it was, you know, childhood, these the heavy metal detox. You know, I had to heavy metal detox him. And now he is, you know, Bryce, he was Matt Tyler. He's a great kid. He's a really, really like empathic kid, psychic kid. He doesn't know how psychic he is, but he's very psychic, right? Very intuitive. He, he makes my dad, like he's such a good kid. But at the same time, he's a very negative kid because he's got a lot of karma built up in terms of whether it's, he took on mine and his father's or it's his own that he's built for himself. And this stuff right there, because he didn't actually take on your karma or his father's karma. He took the energy of, of what existed in your DNA. That's what I meant. That's what I meant. I was like, you're not going to, your kids are going to solve your problems for you. No, no, that's what I meant. I meant the energy. It came out wrong. So the, you know, I've had to deal with that for several years and it's been a learning lesson for me, but I've also had to kind of let go a little bit and say, you know what, he's got to figure this out on his own. There's only so much I can do and say to help him, he chose this. And I actually said to him one day, you chose this. And I kind of made him think a little bit. I'm like, before you were born, you chose this. And of course his reaction was, oh, you're talking about your hubu-jubu stuff again. But, you know, he's got to make a choice one day. Is he going to continue being miserable because of his past? Or is he going to move forward and learn from it? I can't do that for him. And I have to really let go and let him live the experience that he chose. Yeah. And that's it. Allowing them to live the experience that they chose. And we think about that too. We know with any type of spiritual development, there has to be deconstruction before there can be creation. There has to be friction in order for creation to begin. And so you look at your, like Tyler, for example, he is very gifted. He's a great kid. He's super smart. He's very talented. He's very intuitive. But he picked up a life pattern that was going to give him. So if you look at it this way, he picked a trajectory that gave him friction. That temper, that anger, that's nothing bigger friction than that internal friction. He picked that because friction is necessary. You can't have a perfect childhood and a perfect life where everything's hunky-dory and just great and wonderful rainbows and butterflies. And then in your 20s, all of a sudden you're this intuitive wise person helping people. So if we look at it that way, if you look at the obstacles your child is facing as not a burden or a curse, but a blessing, as something that was given to them in order to fulfill whatever they needed to do in this life, then you start to back off more and let them go through that. Of course, you're going to help them and hold their hand and guide them and you're not going to allow them in a situation that's going to in their life or something, of course, but you have to let go and that's kind of what the law of one talks about. And I've noticed, again, I don't have children, but when I was a kid, when we were kids, my parents were really not that involved in our lives. They were involved in the sense that they knew where we were and they knew what we were doing at school, but as far as what we were getting up to with our own friends or anything like that, they had no idea.  Now I see parents sit there and watch and watch their kids. You know, I remember as a little kid playing outside on bikes with my neighborhood friends, my parents had no idea where we were. We just had to be home by the time it got dusk. We had to be home. We were left at home by ourselves. I think I was eight years old the first time I was left at home by myself. We were just given and it's so funny. I've watched Stranger Things a few times on Netflix. It's filmed here in Atlanta. That's mainly why I watched it because I wanted to see landmarks. But I was watching an interview with the children who are acting in this series and of course it's set in the 80s. It was interesting because the director and the producers were saying that they had to talk to the children about what life was like in the 80s that no, your parents had no idea where you were. That was normal. If you just go out on your bikes and get into mischief and solve, we were solving problems ourselves without our parents intervention. In a lot of ways even though there are some things I wish my parents had done with me, I wish I had grown up going to a yoga shawl and seeing practices and being spoke but in a lot of ways my parents gave us that gift of being young and having to solve problems by ourselves. My mother wouldn't even step in if my my sister and I didn't fight that much at all really but the one thing my mom said once, you two are the only family you have, that's it. And then she walked away and the only time she would ever intervene is if it would never get physical, so she never intervened. She may would make us figure it out. We would have to figure it out for ourselves. You know, I remember in school, when I was in school, I like asked my parents for help with something and my mom would be like, I've already done this. You got to learn it. So there was more responsibility I feel like put on us as children that actually was good for us than maybe there is today. What do you guys think? Yeah, I agree. I parent more like how I was raised as far as like giving the kids freedom because I do think that that's valuable and important. But I watch out for any type of abuse, even subtle abuse like name calling and snide remarks and I do not allow that at all whatsoever and if it happens I walk them through the apology and forgiveness process and I emphasize the forgiveness because I think a lot of parents will have their kids apologize but the forgiveness part of it even if they don't feel like they want to forgive I'll still walk them through that so they have that experience and I show them and tell them the importance of forgiveness that it's not about the other person it's about setting yourself free because if you don't forgive someone you are the one entrapped. You are the one that's miserable you are the one that is drinking the poison so even though little kids don't understand just having being shown the process of apologizing and forgiveness I think is really important and my children that are adults now are able to forgive people and move on and I guess I just didn't realize how important that was and I'm seeing now that they're adults how important that was and I'm really grateful that I was given that insight and what you're doing is you're teaching them which I think is the best thing for a parent to do is you're not stopping experiences but you're coaching them through and you're right even let us say the word shut up growing up like if we said shut up to each other we got in trouble like that was disrespectful we couldn't say that you know and that way yeah you're teaching them walking them through life so that they can continue on the trajectory that they're supposed to do I know for me like with not having you know being more independent as a kid and kind of being having parents that were hands off when it came to that I think about I went to college in London when I was 18 years old I was traveling by myself at 17 I was in France by myself and then as an adult I was very easy for me to go on a plane and go to India by myself because I from a very young age we had to figure it out on our own and I'm grateful for that because my parents did that I was able to then fulfill my trajectory of what my soul needed to do without a lot of fear without a lot of hesitation I'm very comfortable in airports I'll figure it out that that's how my parents were and I think that I was the opposite so maybe it's taught from that experience yeah so I was raised by my aunt and uncle from the age of five and a half to 18 and I there was some things that I had a lot of freedoms with now my two cousins who I would consider brother and sister and God help me if any of them watch this particular video and it is what it is facts are facts so if they hate me for it whatever I don't even care anymore but they were definitely given a lot more freedom than me and I was always told I don't want you to end up like your mom you know so I was then smothered with you know I couldn't do a lot of stuff I wasn't completely sheltered but I was definitely more sheltered than they were and they were able to go fly off to different places by themselves but no problem by the time they were 18 now I didn't travel for the first time alone well I traveled to Florida by myself when I was 17 but that was it and then never again until this year and that was a very scary thing for me now meanwhile I kind of rebelled at 18 because of how I was raised and then of course had a child and I had to learn that way you know so I didn't learn that independence as a child I learned it as an adult stuck in a very adult situation as a very young adult still you know coming into that seventh chakra so I had to learn the hard way so in my experience with my son I found myself holding onto him too tightly sometimes because he would get bullied all the time whether it be by a teacher or another student in the class he's been bullied by his father he's been bullied by a lot of people and so I found myself having I struggled to let go it wasn't until about a couple of years ago I started to let go a little bit he's been staying home by himself for a short period of time since he was 10 he would get off the bus and be by himself for about an hour and a half until I got home from work and started off that way now he can be home all day by himself and he's perfectly fine, he's 15 so I mean he's only a couple of years away from 18 obviously so it got more and more time between where I could leave him home alone and he's perfectly fine and responsible now he can cook himself lunch in the microwave or what not he's perfectly fine safe though but in the last two years so last year I forced myself to just let go and his friend said I'm going to the fair the local fair down the street you want to go with me parents would just leave the boys to just do their own thing Tyler was 14 his friend was 13 and I thought to myself at that age I was going around the fair by myself because I did granted I was with a cool group of friends so I did have that type of freedom as a kid but I said okay God please keep him safe I'm letting go it was very scary for me but he had the time of his life he had so much fun and I saw the joy on his face of having that freedom and that independence and yeah he was pushed to go on rides he would have never went on otherwise by himself but he had a blast and he came home and for two hours straight told me all about it and I could see that joy and so this year it was like a no-brainer he actually walked to the fair all by himself because it was a walking distance and met a few people there so you know he I've learned to let go and in terms of his emotions he tends to repeat every day what he's upset about and I'm like okay so what are you going to learn from it what are you learning from it and of course he doesn't get it yet but it's kind of like a baby where you hold a baby and you say okay say hi to grandma you wave bye bye they don't know what you're saying but over and over again they're going to start to learn and pick up oh that's how that's what I do you say bye to whoever you wave goodbye or you say goodbye it's like one of those things so I know he's not going to get it up until probably 18-19 years old I understand that but I want him to start okay what am I learning from this experience why did I choose this path in my life yeah well now I was just thinking like man when we were young even when we were traveling with our parents we had to keep up with our own passports as a very young children like we had to make sure my mom wasn't keeping up with it we had to keep up with our passports and I was just thinking about that as you were speaking how young we were I think too what what you're allowing to happen when you give your kids that responsibility or give them kind of that freedom to have that responsibility is you're also allowing them the opportunity to make a mistake because that's how we learn is through making a mistake you know and that's how we learn how to why things are important and why they're not important is through the mistakes not from the things we get right now thank god I've never lost my passport if I had lost my passport as a child then my parents would have walked me through going to the embassy filing for a new passport what does that look like and so now at 39 I've traveled all over the world I've been all over the world multiple times I know what to do if I were to lose my passport I know exactly what to do something like that you go to the embassy so when you think about that mistakes are not they're not bad mistakes are necessary we were talking about which might be a good hinge into the psychedelics because we were talking about this before we started filming you know that you're on a you've mastered a level of spiritual learning when you can see mistakes or darkness as not something to be feared but something to learn from does that make sense and I think that you know there's this with this radio station here in Atlanta they call it the justification of America they'll talk about these stories of what kids get away with today that we never got away with when we were growing up not everyone got a trophy only the person that won got a trophy and there's just as much of a valuable lesson in that for the winner as there is for the one who didn't win you learn more from not winning than you do from winning what's that saying it doesn't matter how many times you fall down it just matters how many times you get back up yeah we learn far more from our mistakes than from when things go easy yeah I'm really good the subjects I excelled in obviously were history, English that's what I studied in school that's what I excelled in that's what I did in Los Angeles for a really long time the subjects that I hated were math and science math mainly I hated math I thought math was the the boringest, most uninspiring I hated it so much and I did not but I remember somebody telling me once my god you would make such a great math teacher because you had to teach yourself how to do this in order to get through your classes I would probably make a shitty history teacher because our English literature teacher because I can read a William Faulkner book and if you've ever studied Faulkner he's hard to read because he doesn't use punctuation he doesn't write and linear time but I was the I remember the first year I studied Faulkner was in my advanced English class in my sophomore year in high school and this is when I got really sick too but I could read a Faulkner book and tell you exactly what was going on I remember my teacher being like holy shit you get this and that's just how my mind works but math on the other hand that was not how and I told you guys before even in science I had a chemistry teacher in high school I asked a question in chemistry class and he literally like stopped the class and was like aren't you a brice like isn't your mom's family they're all doctors isn't that your mom's family why don't you get this heredically from your DNA you're supposed to understand this and I was like I'm sorry man I'm in my wheelhouse as we say now so I remember when someone said Ted you would make a really good math teacher that's because that's what I struggled with what I struggled with and same in yoga the teachers that are the best teachers out there are the ones who have struggled the most in their practice in their emotional life the ones that have been through trauma that's because they're relatable they relate to the student because they were once the student the last thing about yoga teachers is we're never not students we're always students and they understand friction and they understand they've gotten to the other side of sorrow they've gotten to the other side of suffering and so they understand the pains and they've learned how to work with it in a different way and so back to like the radio people saying the wissification of America is this why the law of one focuses so much on us stepping back imposing so much of our will on our children that we're creating a negative timeline by not allowing them to have their free will and their own consent does that make sense? because if you impose your will onto someone else whether it's your child or another person that's negative and yes it's a kind of a great area because there are things you are going to have to impose your will upon with your kids they can't run with scissors you could let them run with scissors and poke their eyes out but you have the wisdom of what's going to happen so this is a very interesting dance but when it comes to this thing with children there are no placebos guys the children who got this they got the real thing and as sad as that is as unfortunate as that is because some children have passed away we have to understand that the children a child's soul is the same as our soul they made an agreement before taking this life as to what they wanted to experience and they'll live again or they'll work through it I think a lot of them because a lot of kids now according to the law of one are in poor density bodies anyway so it might affect them differently than it would affect you and me because our DNA structure is different from theirs does that make sense? I know people are going to be upset about this but I would really I also think a lot of truthers are putting a lot of fear about this I'm not talking about the ones that are saying there's placebos because there's plenty of those but I'm talking about like some people just keep going on and on about the horrifying stuff about it don't listen to that that should not be a part of your daily routine is listening to that shit what you need to focus on is yourself and your own shadow work and everything like that and I think this is a distraction really and I think it's a spear porn there's so many different truthers out there saying it takes away your soul and all this other stuff and it's just like oh come on how do they know that and how could you possibly know that that's what I'm saying question everything you hear it's got to be something you do have to work through but what they're not grasping is those who did get this can they agree to that in their soul contract anyways there's no controlling who got it it is what it is yeah you agree to your time of death as well and as sad as that is I cannot imagine losing a child I don't know how I would be able to go on with my life and nephew or niece has passed away I could not imagine that but even for children who passed away they picked that before they took this life and guess what as a parent your soul was in an agreement with that child as well that you would experience the loss of that child nothing happens to you in this world big like that major like that that you didn't agree to beforehand or the experience to learn from it your soul you can't you can't sell your soul accidentally you can't do that accidentally you can't get this and then oops all of a sudden your soul is gone that's not how that works we know now what this nefarious group do in their rituals it's an actual ritual it's a full on summoning ritual agreements being made it's not they're consenting to sell it yes they are consenting to work with the demons they are in full awareness of what they are doing so if you got this that's not so the powers that be want you to think you took a mark of the beast but again that goes to religious programming it was supposed to be set up to make you think that you sold your soul but selling your soul is something that the person is willing consenting to and full aware of what they are doing yeah and they don't care regardless for money, fame, fortune whatever it is they are fully aware of what they are doing and I will say too a little secret if you do sell your soul you can always get it back because it's yours I've heard that from many people I want it back I know and void my contract I've heard that from many, many people so you guys your soul is your soul and I think too it comes from this thing as well that people are still very confused about the body the identity and the soul and these are two different things even though the body is the expression of the soul it's not the soul the soul is its own thing the body needs the soul but the soul doesn't need the body so if you get one of these and it changes your personality because I've seen that a lot of people who got this they've gotten very nasty but that's their psychological brain which is not their soul does that make sense so you as Emmy and Stephanie their soul isn't Emmy or Stephanie their soul is pure consciousness love it's just my costume right now it's your costume it's the avatar your dog, Abby she's not really Abby she's a soul I chose a funny avatar this time around a short stumpy you know I do look at, you girls are both beautiful but I do look at some people I'm like that's my choice what interesting choice when you were looking at the two people who were going to be your parents and you're looking at the full DNA spread of what colors you could pick from why did you pick that nose those lopsided boobs like I don't know why did you pick that I chose tits on a stump okay sometimes I think I was a guy even though I think I've been a female in my lives sometimes I think I was a man in the past life because of the size of my boobs I must have been really excited creating a female boy because these boobs are really big for my friends but anyway we can laugh about it right but next life it'll be totally different so for some reason we're a go through amnesia so our whole soul contract we're still trying to remember but for a reason for me I picked a white girl from Georgia with these two people as my parents for some experience so even the race even the medical history you have even though the medical history is your own issues coming through but you can inherit that energy karma from your parents which still is an emotional issue coming through that your soul needs to work on but everything you picked it for a reason there was some experience within that that your soul needed to learn or if you decided that this time you were going to be born to an extremely wealthy family there was some experience that your soul needed to learn about itself through the external forces that created that experience that white does that make sense absolutely so yes I want you guys anyway so that's your karma your karma and I don't want people to be afraid of karma there's nothing to be afraid of when it comes to karma karma is when people identify karma as a bad thing because they're like oh karma's a bitch you hear that over and over again it's misused though that word is so misused because like you say Bryce all it is is your work it's your calling an effect if you go to a job nine to five well that's karma that's your work and so you go to a nine to five job another aspect of the karmic reaction to that nine to five job is you have a paycheck right if you if you don't eat and you get really skinny that's the cause and effect that's the karma of not eating if you eat too much you gain weight that's the karma it's just cause and effect it's just action and reaction and that's everything within the physical world is based off of karma reaction and part of the yoga journey specifically is to be able to experience your karma let it play out experience the emotions but not holding on to the emotions so like Tyler for example you're saying he's reliving these things over and over again so part of his experience is learning how to observe the feelings of frustration see them for what they are but not hold on to them let them go because we as humans we put the label of that or good on things that or good we label it as such the action what happened to us is just action and reaction the action of having sex results in a baby if you look at it like that it's just the reaction to having from that sperm eating the egg but we're the ones that put that emotion on it that's what makes us human beings and that's what defines the experience yeah there are people out there I'm pretty like for me I tolerate pain pretty at physical pain pretty well for example when I broke my sacrum I finished my practice that day with a broken sacrum like I'm stubborn when it comes to physical pain but somebody else could stump their toe and spend the whole day crying about the pain right it's perception it's how we're perceiving something I hope that makes sense do what? even my parents just tell me that all the time that they never knew like if I was really hurt or not because I would just I just took emotional pain I'm a slobbering crying wreck but physical pain I could take it I remember when I was at the doctor for some reason as a kid they had done an x-ray I think it was when I broke my ankle as a kid they had done an x-ray and up and it got a bit of my shin bone and there was a scar on my shin bone and the doctor goes oh you've broken your leg before and I was like no my mother was like no and he goes yeah you have a scar you broke your leg he was like probably when you were little really little your parents just didn't notice but it healed itself and I think my mother felt terrible but I literally had a scar on my shin where I had broken my leg as a kid and no one I guess I just didn't say anything and I just kept playing maybe hobbled a little bit it healed itself but then so you see that if you think about perception just think about that with people I'm sure everybody watching right now knows people who can take pain and people who can't it's all the perception of the person carrying the pain so when people say you gotta toughen up you gotta you know it's um you gotta experience it but you also it's your perception does that make sense and we have to let our back to the kids like we have to allow children the experience so that they can create their own perceptions that they can live their own karma and their own Dharma because they are a soul just like you are your child is no different from anybody else on this planet they have a journey and they have a path they're a soul that's trying to know itself that's all they're doing they're a soul trying to know itself and trying to return itself home to God and knowing itself is how they're gonna find that that connection again with God and if we stand in the way of them experiencing their karma then we're standing in the way of them actually living that yeah so anyway I hope that makes sense but let's move on to second delix delix


Hi everybody it's Sam at Mixed Up Craft thank you for watching my tutorial today I'm going to be showing you how to make a bottle carrier for a large bottle of wine which is standard wine bottle size and then this was three just over three inches in width okay so you can get those larger or wider ones you might be able to get it in here because I have made this three and a half in width okay so anything more than three and a half it may start to bulge a little bit on the sides but this is for your standard 750 mil okay now this is something I get asked to do a lot and the reason it's taken me so long is I wanted to make sure that I can get it as strong as possible because you need it to be really firm and you need it to be strong enough to hold the weight of a bottle these are you know heavy and the last thing I want is for someone to make it and then there's fall out or the bag and the wine go everywhere or something like that so I'm really pleased with how this has come together I think it works really well and if you follow exactly what I kind of say in terms of what I recommend for your card weights and glues and things like that and if you can get alternatives that are similar then it will work because the glues I use help give the box its stiffness and the cardstock that I use is obviously a good weight as well okay so this is how it looks it's got this really nice detail with the wooden dowels on the top I have made this gift tag which you can write on the back there and this is using my new bright rosa fern border and I've used the smaller one here and then I've done these little sprigs as well and then I've just knotted it with some of the baker's twine on the top and for the sentiment there it's just the sentiment toppers which I shared last week and what did I get and I used the gold because I thought that worked really well with the orange this is using one of the papers from the brand new national history museum papers I'll show you all that in a moment and then on the bottom it's reinforced and again with the glues that I use but that goes in it's going to have tissue wrapped around it because this is a gift this is going off to somebody and then you lift it up and I promise you you can see that I'm still holding it that is not bowing there is four five there's six layers of card in there strong cardstock that is not going anywhere and the glue that I've used as well is so stiff and it is just I confidently I could walk with that now and that's not going to go anywhere and because you've got the strong wooden dowels here as well if you don't have the wooden dowels try and find something similar otherwise you will have to maybe use ribbon but then you'll need to use brads you'll need to make sure they're not going to rip through the card when you lift it I've really thought about this and that's why it takes me time sometimes with these more heavier items so I've done the beer bottles but I used the greyboard or chipboard to make that one this one I've still got another idea with chipboard for a wine bottle so again that will come in time but for yeah for cardstock this is the best I can come up with at the moment and I think it's really nice so let me show you how to make it okay so you're going to need something to cut a circle or a semi circle with anyway I'm using the X cut circle cutter but you can use a plate anything like that it's fine papers I'm using are from the lovely natural history museum organic kaleidoscope I have shared all of the contents of these papers over on my what did I get video so I'll link that up there for you but it's a beautiful and that's the one that I've chose to use today so this is five by 12 okay you need the full length so you want two pieces of pattern paper that size then you'll need four pieces of 12 by 12 now the reason why I've got these odd colors is because I'd already started to film this and I've already made the half that I was doing in the proper colors which you'll see in a minute so I could have well I would got so cross with myself when I looked up and saw that I hadn't even hit record so ignore the colors of these these are just I'm not really a fan of these I've had them around for ages what four pieces of cardstock that's 10 by 11 okay and along the 11 inch side you want to score two pieces at three and a half then rotate and score it three and a half again and then at seven just to the first scoreline do that on two pieces and then you're also with a pencil just want to mark pencil market five and a pencil market 10 and also at 10 at the bottom here we're going to use this to line it all up okay and then also you want to come down one and a quarter along that three and a half inch scoreline so just come down to one and a quarter and put a pencil mark do that on two pieces and then on your other two pieces of 11 by 10 along the 11 inch side you want to score it seven and a half then rotate and score it three just to the first scoreline and six and a half all the way down and then back along the 11 inch side you want to put a pencil mark at one and at the bottom here at one and then one at six and then down the seven and a half inch scoreline again one and a quarter inches down again we're going to be cutting all this in a moment two pieces like that so what you will end up having is an L shape that's on this side you'll have two like that you can see my kind of L here two like that and then two with your L shape this way okay you're also going to need two wooden dowels I got these from the works but you can get these across the world from hardware stores and stuff and these are just over 12 inches long and they are about a five mil they're really strong I can't bend that without snapping it okay so with the we'll start with these ones here so you'll have two with the L on this side you just want to or fold and burnish everything okay and then you'll have that scoreline where you just scored to here you want to start from the bottom here and you'll have this square you're just going to cut straight up like so and then just cut a wedge this is now my scrap so I'm just doing this a bit rough but just cut wedges like so she's created this tab then rotate it around and you want to cut down that scoreline to the first scoreline like this rotate around again you're going to cut that out completely okay so just remove the scoreline if you just cut away your pencil mark just pop that back in again I can just about see where mine is there so you know you should have two pieces like this and then where you've got these pencil marks I'm just going to line up my cardstock on my grid anywhere it doesn't really matter it's just so I can keep my ruler straight and you just want to draw down to meet that other pencil mark like so and then you're going to cut that out okay so then I've got my two opposite ones so again I'm just going to quickly burnish that so I'm going to do it okay so you'll have this square down in the bottom and you'll have that scoreline just to there so this time we're going to cut wouldn't do exactly the same but it's all opposite so now we're going to remove sorry we're just going to then cut up that scoreline to there and then just cut wedges out of that bottom piece it'll be much neater than I am remember I've already done this once and didn't record it so you'll have that and then pop it on its side and you're going to cut all the way down that scoreline rotate it around again and remove that completely okay and then you want to join up these again make sure you get them nice and straight and again cut that out okay so now you should have two pieces like this now what you want to do is bring both of those pieces together so you'll have this okay and where you've got the pencil marks to be fair you only need the pencil marks on one of them so this is going to stick over the top of this and it's going to stick right up to the pencil marks so I need to add glue to this one inch kind of strip like so and then you're going to stick that over the top make sure you get everything lined up okay so and you want to do that on the other one so you'll have two pieces like this one is the front of your bag one is the back of your bag so now I'm going to bring in the one I've done perfectly but didn't push record and you're going to need a wooden dowel you'll need two because you'll be doing this obviously twice so this is what we now are going to do so we're going to work on this handle section okay so I'm just bringing over my other one here I'm just going to mark a pencil mark you obviously won't be able to do this because you haven't got this one ready but it's just so I know how far down that I cut so you want to come down about two and a quarter because all of this section here gets rolled around this so if I lie that over the top all of that we actually not but don't really lose it but it gets rolled down to go around the dowel so the only section you have that you really see that's cut out is this bit here and that's to be able to put our hand through to be able to carry the wine bottle so this one here I've got it set at six and a half inches which is about 16.2 centimeters no 16 and a half centimeters sorry I'm not used to working in centimeters so you want to flip this around and you want to sit this right in the middle so I think you cut it's 14 inches this piece here sorry this section here is 11 inches so you want to come in at five and a half if you put a little pencil mark there okay you want to make sure that you have this right in the middle or your plate if you've got a plate that's going over the top just imagine that's a plate you want to make sure that you've got equal overhang along this piece here so whatever you're using just make sure you've got it in the middle all right it doesn't matter and no matter how far down you come so if you come even further down just means you won't have maybe you have to decorate it differently or something so yeah don't worry too much I've got to try and line this up where I because you can't see I think it's about there okay so I've got mine where I need it so I've got it in the center here so I'm going to hold my paper and then you just want to cut out your semicircle like so okay and then grab your pattern paper okay and then you want to lie this down your pattern paper and you want it to be flush with the bottom score line here and then you want to make sure that you've got even border here so it should be about an inch I think isn't it yeah because this is 12 and this is 14 so you should have an inch either side okay so that's easy to line up and then if you hold it all there okay flip it over and then just draw around that bit and then you can just cut that out okay and now when you sit that down it will be flush with that circle now on my other one I haven't if I show you this is going to be the back can you see and that was because I cut the semicircle bigger I actually made a mistake on that one so you can have it like that if you just make your circle bigger but this is going to be the front and I'm going to keep it so that it's flush with it I I prefer that personally all right but it's entirely up to you so that's your options there so now you want to get that stuck down so I'm going to add glue to the back of this now again this is a really nice it dries nice and firm so it is helping so try and look at your glues and see what you've got also another one that I have said before is the taser easy stick this dries really really strong and rigid goes really stiff so for those of you if anybody's got it that's also another good one because you know obviously the paper plays a big part but sometimes the glue that you use as well because some glues will dry and still be quite soft so that's maybe not the best one for this we need all the strength we can get so I'm just going to turn this one over got my inch kind of there come across a little bit so good thing with this is you get all this wiggle room as well okay another thing I like about this color is anything that oozes out you can just rub your finger over it just completely rubs away it's great stuff turn it over okay so that's that now all done so you need to do that twice everything I'm doing you want to do see twice and then you want to just with a ruler just kind of curve this like top piece here so just this section here just to help you get it to roll around that piece of dowel now if you don't have this and see what else you've got that's similar maybe a plastic bit of piping you can use ribbon on this so if you wanted to have a strong ribbon coming off of this but I would really reinforce it I'd add brads to it and everything because these are heavy bottles of wine it doesn't actually say the weight of this but it is it is a heavy bottle so the last thing I want is for anybody to make this and then the bottle of wine fall out the bottom it shouldn't but don't hold me responsible especially if it's an expensive bottle okay so now they're curled over like that I'm going to run some glue I'm going to use some white liquid glue here this is the Dawn Bibby one this one dries very quick and then you want to pop in the wooden dowel and make sure that again you've got an even amount overhanging okay like so I'm just going to hold that there for a minute okay and then I'm going to add glue all around the exposed bit of dowel and all inside there again I'm not too worried if this glue kind of oozes out because it's easy to kind of wipe away and if you have one of these adhesive rubbers they will remove anything so now just want to very carefully really keep it nice and taut just roll it over until because the glue's kind of oozing out but it's moving along with it until you get to here okay to that point there and then just hold it there until it dries okay and then what you do is flip it over and just kind of bring it towards yourself make sure it's dry at this point and just kind of create a little crease underneath if you want to use like I wouldn't use that actually because it's probably too sharp I'm just going to go in there see what I'm doing just creating like a line like so reminds a little bit I've cut this side down too far can you see where that one's completely flushed with that side but this one's got that gap there I'm not going to worry the thing is straight is this has been cut down too far but hey I didn't even make a prototype I just gone straight into this one so I'm pretty pleased and then that's just drying a little bit still there okay so mine's still drying a little bit but I can get into the kind of you know putting it all together now so all you're going to do is stick your sides all together okay so this one's going to go over this one here now what I would say is always focus on this base score line get that lined up because if your squares are slightly off like I've got a little bit sticking out there I can just trim that off with my cutting knife okay whereas you don't want to line the top up and then your base be out because you won't be able to fold it so just focus on this you can always tidy up that you can cover it with some patterned paper you could put a little decorative border there there are lots of ways you can doctor and kind of save that if you want happy but you can't do it if you do it the other way around okay so I'm also going to just add glue to the base one so whatever I'm not going to add it to the one that I'm sticking over it I'm just going to stick to adding the glue to this piece here so again I'm going to stick with the callow because I know it's nice and strong I just thought you need to stick glue on here as well now you can cut this away if you want but I'm keeping all the cardstock I've got because I want this to be a strong base so this is just reinforcing all of this card so if you're thinking why have you got both there that's why I don't want to cut away anything I want to keep it all so it can stand the weight okay and then if you flip it over and just fold one of the sides you will then have this piece and again I want to focus on my score lines lining up like that so I want to make sure I've got the same because my oranges are slightly different colour I think although they were from the same batch or maybe they weren't actually that one is going to go over there don't worry if your bottom bits are slightly off because that's all hidden it's this one these actually line up really nicely so again I'm going to add glue all to this piece so you do want to go right over everything and focus on the score line the base score line this score line here okay so decide on what it's going to be your front and your back so this is going to be I think I'm going to have it as my back keep looking at it now whether I prefer that no I do prefer that okay so this is my back so that one's going to go down first okay now because that one's going to be what you're going to see inside what I would say is just just take a little sliver off of the edges here not too much but because it is going to create bulk inside along the sides of it I think so just take a little bit off you'll be able to tell if you fold it in first of all you can feel it catching on the sides then just cut it away see what I mean when you fold that in then you'll fold them in and then that if you look inside when it's all lined up see that sits better now whereas before it was just catching slightly now see how you feel what weight card stock it is that you're using and actually I didn't tell you this is 220 card stock that I'm using okay so see what it is that you're using now you're going to stick your back one down and then I'm going to add glue to both of these okay so already the sides of this bag have got three pieces of this card stock because obviously there's two on there and then this one then this over the top that's four just in the corners and that's where I wanted to have all that strength that's why I didn't want to cut any of them away so I'm just going to sit that one there for a second and then just weight that down while I do this side okay now what I've also got is I've got this 350 gsm card stocks this is again super strong and I think I'm going to add one there might add two I don't know now these are just a four length or 11 inches whatever it is you've got or 12 by three and a quarter okay and then that could be sandwiched in between just to give it more strength but I think I'm going to do both just you know just for to be on the safe side so I'm going to again stick these two together first I've just bought some glue on the back there and I'm just going to focus on that center part just again make sure you've got equal overhang there if you've got something that's 14 inches long then use that of course again just fold that down turn the whole thing over just make sure that's stuck it already does feel strong and like I said this dries really firm and now I can just add glue to all of this and stick that last piece down so you know use your own judgment see you know what the weight of your card is you might not be using this for wine obviously you don't have to put a bottle of wine in it you can put anything you want okay so there is my box finished now if you wanted to you could reinforce in there as well so there are lots of ways to be able to still strengthen this now with your side pieces you do want to just make sure because again mine's gone so stiff just curl it in towards itself just to kind of you want it to kind of sit there naturally on its own like so and then these bits you want to kind of go in your side pieces there all right but now confidently that wine bottle will be wrapped in tissue and it holds and if I pop it on its side it's half for you to see but it doesn't bow can you kind of see I'm still holding it but it doesn't bow out and that's what I didn't want and I'm sure that glue is probably still drying but that does hold a bottle of wine and I'm really pleased with it I think it looks really nice I probably had a gift tag to it like I said wrap that in tissue but it's yeah it works and I'm pleased with it obviously would I run around with it for hours no does anybody run around with a gift bag for hours no but to get to and from and then to have it displayed wherever or to just you know keep stored for a while yes it's going to hold up it's going to be fine so yeah I hope that's answered some of your questions because lots of you have asked me to do a wine bottle one but it is hard to do because I don't want to tell you to do something and I mean I have had one of these fall out the bottom of my carrier bag shopping before and smash everywhere I've seen people there's fall out of their hands in the super markets and red wine goes everywhere over the aisle I don't want to feel like I've been the one that's done that to any of you so please make sure you use a strong card stock you use a glue that you know preferably dries very stiff and you reinforce it on the bottom okay and you shouldn't have any problems with it so yeah I hope you've enjoyed this one it's a bit of a different one slightly different kind of process than normal but it's the the best way that I could think to do it for the minute and still I keep going back to the box style but I want to get it right before I put the tutorial out there so it is something that I've gone to a few times now but I'm still not happy with it so yeah until next time hope you've enjoyed it if you have please give me a thumbs up and subscribe to my channel so you get to see more thanks for watching bye