The United Way of Crowing and Cass counties brought back Operation Sandwich over Christmas break, providing meals for students and children in need in the area. And this past break saw a record breaking number of meals distributed. This was the third year of the holiday break Operation Sandwich, and this year saw over 400 bags of food distributed, compared to just over 200 last year. Students in need were identified by Family Service Collaborative workers at each of the school districts that participated this year. It was a record increase. We were also able to reach a lot more or a lot larger areas. So not only were 409 kids provided with food, but we were able to go as far north as Pine River Bacchus. We served pillager across the lake, Crosby-Irenton, Brainerd Public Schools, so we really got the entire region covered and involved, and that was fun. Operation Sandwich also distributes food to students over summer break, and will be expanding in 2018 to include spring break as well. If you've enjoyed this segment of Lakeland News, please consider making a tax-deductible contribution to Lakeland Public Television.


Thanks to Sean for a question this via my Patreon page, sorry it's not an LP, but I figured this would be a good one to do a regular video on. This might sound kinda weird, but when I play a game like Toejam and Earl, I'm reminded of Mike Tyson's Punch Out for NES. That's a game where, when you get down to the basic nuts and bolts of it, the gameplay is as simple as it gets, it's predicated on reacting to patterns, and it starts out easy and it gradually gets more complex. But what makes that game stand out as one of the greats is all the personality and charisma. Nintendo took a simple pattern recognition game and made it memorable for an entire generation by injecting it with a metric ton of color and charm. The developers Johnson Vorsanger Productions took the same kind of approach with Toejam and Earl. The gameplay here is pretty dang straightforward, you wander around randomized maps looking for parts of a spaceship, but I'll be damned if this game still isn't goofy, hilarious, and a lot of fun. When it starts with the main characters, Toejam is the red guy, and Earl is the big orange guy, and is pretty much Toejam's hype man. So yeah, that means this game is two player co-op, one of the best you'll find on the Genesis. The game neatly divides into a split screen when the two players drift apart, but joins back together when you're near each other, that's a nice touch. But yeah, the gameplay doesn't take much to explain, in fact in another nice little detail here, Toejam and Earl explain the story themselves to you, the player. I always kinda like that, you gotta find 10 rocket ship pieces on 25 different randomized maps, so you can put your ship together and get back to your home planet. You go from each map using an elevator going up one floor at a time. The game helpfully tells you when there's a piece on that floor, although since you can only go through floors one at a time in order, so you'll often go several floors in a row just looking for the exit, that's kind of annoying. Toejam is faster but has less health to deal with enemies, and Earl has more health but he's a bit slower. Not only are the maps randomized but the items you find are as well, and they can either be a help or a hindrance. You could get sneakers that help you move faster, or a tomato that you can launch at an enemy, or it could be a storm cloud that hits you with a bolt of lightning. You can also collect money so you can buy stuff later on. But yeah, there's all sorts of bizarre enemies that are straight out of a game like Zombies Ape My Neighbors, and there's also certain terrain you have to manage as well, like quicksand where you sink and water which can contain sharks. You can also fall off the edge of the map to the floor below. The game does give you a choice at the beginning if you want randomized maps or the standard map layout that's structured the same through every playthrough, although I'm not sure why you'd want to do the latter after you've played through it once. The biggest flaw with Toejam and Earl is that there's no saves or passwords at all, that really kind of sucks. But the game is at least available on other platforms where you can utilize save states like on the Wii Virtual Console and the Sega Vintage Collection. But yeah, this is the rare 16-bit roguelike game that's focused on exploration, and not only that, but it's all style over substance here. Sure, that style is painfully stuck in the early 90s, but I think that works to the game's advantage if you play it today. You're going back to that particular time and place. And that's not necessarily a bad thing. Yeah, I guess the game can get kind of boring.  Even the elevator jam is great. Plus, the fact that co-ops work so seamlessly here makes this one of the most well-made multiplayer 16-bit games. Toejam and Earl received a sequel on the Genesis, Toejam and Earl in Panic on Planet Funketron, and the franchise goes in a different direction here, settling for a more traditional platformer, which is kind of disappointing. It's still definitely a good game, but it's definitely a lot less unique. And I guess that's why I like the first game so much. Toejam and Earl is something unique for the time. It seems like Sega took a lot of chances on some real off-the-wall stuff like Echo the Dolphin, Moonwalker, the Mutant League games, and Toejam and Earl. From the music to the visual design to the simple gameplay structure, if you want the fastest way to relive the early 90s with a friend, it's Toejam and Earl.


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Remember when I talked about prions and that said that under some conditions the native state which is the biologically active state is in fact not the lowest free energy minimum as Christian Anfelsen predicted from his dogma. In the cases where there is a second state that is even lower free energy what can happen is that after a long initiation the protein can end up in that state anyway. It has to be long because if this was fast the protein would not work and they would be selected against during natural selection and evolution. So why do they form those structures? Well in the individual protein it's simply that the beta sheet is more stable and that would likely not be so disastrous if it stayed as an individual protein that would unfold. But as I mentioned occasionally this tends to extend into larger plaques some sort of structure where one protein adds to another adds to another adds to another which was not quite obvious I didn't tell you how that happened. Here is roughly how it happens. This green protein is one monomer and the blue one is the second one and they are separate chains so if you look at this in a PDB file the green would be say chain A and the blue be chain B. This is a thioester dihydrase which synthesizes fatty acids it's not important. Each monomer here each unit is stable in itself and it will fold and that's important because as we're going to see later on nature does not like proteins that are too large for whatever reason they take too long to fold. So it's important to have small building blocks so called domains that fold independently with the helix in the background. These are just two copies of exactly the same chain they're just rotated 180 degrees but if each of these is expressed in the cell they will fold but then the green strand here can pair up with the blue strand it's actually the very same strand they just happen to be in different copies of the molecule and extend the beta sheets so they're not connected they're not part of the same chain but effectively all these strands anyway become part of the same beta sheets. The fact there is no requirement for there to be a loop here right? This creates a very large structure where immediately getting rid of this edge effects so both these strands are now in the interior of the sheet where they're more stable we talked about that when we started beta sheet formation. This particular protein only has two it's a common way to create timers but what happens in those plaques is likely and warning the speculation mode turned on now. What if this was a small repeating unit where I could add a third copy here and a fourth and a fifth and a thousand and a millionth? At some point these structures are going to become so large that whenever a new monomere the repeating unit is synthesized and expressed in the cell it's going to be very likely that it will quickly find one of the larger aggregates the so-called oligomers the multimers and attached to that and possibly this could be the reason why the growth is somehow accelerating exponentially. I know this is hand waving it's hand waving because we literally don't know the results yet. There are lots of groups that are studying different type of amyloid like diseases and while we've made a lot of progress it's certainly not the sole field yet so please join us and do research you would do a service to humanity. And that's pretty much all I'm going to tell you about beta sheets. If there is one thing I want you to remember the alpha helix is probably simpler we're going to talk more about that now but the beta sheets get their properties from these non-local hydrogen bonds meaning that they're kind of stable as an individual strand all the hydrogen bonds go between adjacent strands which creates these global constraints but they pretty much I can only pack them parallel or anti-parallel the two strands have to go next to each other I can't pack them like that because then they would not be able to form hydrogen bonds so surprisingly this structure is at least conceptually simpler on the cartoon level than that they might appear a bit deviating from that ideality in practice that is mostly a matter of getting used to looking at structures but that probably means that it's time to head to helices.


This research sought to use genomic prediction to identify superior genotypes of jucazinho, uterpiodullus, a popular fruit tree species in Brazil. Genomic prediction was applied to a dataset consisting of 275 genotypes from Rio Novo do Sul, Brazil. Two different models were used, multi-trade, G-blup MT, and single-trade, G-blup ST. Both models showed similar predictive abilities, but the single-trade model produced greater selection gains than the multi-trade model. Based on these results, the best six genotypes were selected using the single-trade model. These genotypes have potential to be used in the development of superior genetic materials for the production of seedlings and the establishment of productive orchards. This article was authored by Guilherme Bravam Canal, Cynthia Aparecida, Valiotti Barreto, Francine Alves Noguera de Almeida, and others.


Welcome traders, so the tick mill chart, if you want to draw your attention to the Stirling Aussie on the daily timeframe, look to be in the process here of completing quality objective versus this swing structure here into the 85, 185, 95, we've got monthly range resistance on the top side of the channel. So I'm watching from bearish reversal patterns to fall on the daily timeframe here, set short positions, certainly looking for a test of 183.86 the monthly pivot, we can get through there, monthly range support 182.161 and through there we can think about the test of the ascending trend line support at 181.20. As always traders plan the trade, trade the plan and most importantly manage your risk. Until next time, thanks very much.


Hello YouTube family, welcome to another Knox Bible Life video, in this one I'm gonna be talking about something that terrifies the narcissist when they leave you for their new supply. Something that you may not know, something that you may be unaware of, but I am gonna give it to you in this one, I'm gonna let you know exactly what is going on, because the narcissist walked off in an arrogant way like they do, as though they knew exactly where they're going, what they're doing and who they're with, but the problem is a lot of times they do not vet their new sources of supply, so a lot of times they don't even know what they get themselves into, because they've already devalued you, they put you down, and with the new source now they have idealized them, they do them as perfect, even before they even know who they actually are, so they're getting involved in something, and they don't even know what it's about, because of course when you get into a new relationship, you don't know who or what you're dealing with, they could be anyone, and especially with you, because I know you were questioning, they knew they had to find someone else, so they went on and moved with this new source, before they even properly groomed them, before they properly prepared and trained them for the purpose of being their new source, and this is why they are terrified, because they do not know what to expect, they don't know what it is they're actually dealing with, and a lot of times what happens, and you may not be aware of this, but the regard is that a lot of times they do wonder if it was a better situation with you, than when they're moving on with this new source, I just confirmed that a few weeks ago, I did a live video interview with a diagnosed self-aware COVID narcissist, and I asked him this question in the interview, I asked him, have you ever felt regrets, as you're moving on with the new source, have you ever felt like you were leaving something more valuable behind, as he did say yes, but also even though they may feel that way deep down, and this is where we really get deep into the psyche of a narcissist, because this is exactly how they think, the more arrogant that they are, the more that they are mercilessly heading in a certain direction, in an effort to prove a point, as though what they're moving on to is so much better than what they left behind, yes the more arrogant they seem in that moment, the more insecure they actually are, that is the truth, that is what we are actually dealing with, yes that's really what's going for us, that's really how it is, they are actually very insecure about it, they don't really believe that what they're moving on to is going to be better for them, they don't really believe that at all, and in fact in the back of their minds they may believe that they were better off staying with you, yes they may believe that in the back of their minds, and yet outwardly they show this arrogance, they devalue you, and again the more they devalue you, the more deep down they are actually insecure about themselves, and not only that, the more that deep down they actually believe that you are so much greater than what they are portraying you to be, so pretty much anything with an narcissist doesn't matter what they're displaying, what they're portraying to you, whatever it is, deep down they are very insecure about it, that's why they're always on you, that's why they're always trying to prove a point, because deep down they don't even believe it themselves, and this is why this terrifies a narcissist when they leave you for their new supply, because the reality is you were their grey day primary source, you are an empath, and quite possibly you are a chosen one as well, and I'm sure they probably look at it like this, they probably look back throughout their lives, and they realize how they've never found anyone else like you before, they've never found another empath, they've never had a grey day primary source to supply who is as good as you were, they've never had that, so naturally at some level they must assume that by leaving you, the odds are that they're never gonna find anything else like that ever again, they're never gonna have that again any point in their lives, and deep down yes they know they are fully aware of that, they already know it deep down inside of them, but many of you may not know this, you may not be aware of it, and of course the reason why is because the way that they flaunt it on social media, they flaunt their new supply, they make it look like they live in the best lives without you, as though you were the problem, as though they never needed you, as though you were no good for them, and many of them may actually come to you and say this as an artist actually came and said to me, yes she came to me and she said it again, I did nothing for her, yes that's actually what she said to me, and you may have heard that as well from an artist such that you were dealing with, despite everything that you did for them, they can just overlook it, brush it aside, like you did nothing, yes they can just do that, but for us it's not that easy, we can't just lower ourselves to that level, because of course many of us we do hold ourselves for higher standards, where we prefer to conduct ourselves appropriately and autonomously, instead of behaving in a way that is manipulative and deceptive, in a way that is not right, yes we prefer to do that, but this is exactly what narcissists will do, they will go off and they will act like they're living their best lives without you, I just think about that for a moment, it really doesn't make any sense, because how can they not care about you, how can they not have any empathy, they can't feel what you feel, they can't put themselves in your shoes, they can't even connect to you, and yet at the same time they expect you to believe that they've moved on and they're connected to someone else, how can they expect you to believe that, but that is exactly what they expect you to believe, and that is why I make these videos because I don't want you to believe that at all, I don't want you to fall for those lies, but what I do want you to believe is that narcissists are full of shit, and I bet you didn't expect me to say that, but that's exactly how it is, narcissists are full of shit, everything they do, everything they betray, it's all a lie, it's all an illusion, it's all a facade, none of it has anything to do with reality, it's all just something that they've concocted in their minds, and they're very insecure about it, that's why they put what I've pushed it on to you, that's why they want you to validate it, for them, that's why they upload these stupid pictures on social media, yes that's why they do that, because they want you to buy into it, they want you to believe it, because then that makes it more believable for them, that's why they want you to believe in it, not because it's actually real, when something is real you just don't even care if someone believes in it or not, but yeah it may confuse a lot of you, you may have cognitive dissonance, because when you're seeing these pictures and videos on social media, and then you're lining up with how they treated you, and what they've said to you, it doesn't really make too much sense, it's difficult to understand it, because it's like, how could you spend all of this time with me, and then suddenly you just forget about me and move on to someone else like I never existed, of course it doesn't add up, of course it doesn't make any sense, because if they can just move on and care so much about someone else, how could they stop caring about you so quickly? That is how you should know that yes it is all fake, everything a narcissist does, it's all in their mind, and whenever you're involved with them it will be all in your mind as well, one of the most common symptoms that victims deal with after dealing with a narcissist is rumination, these endless thoughts going on inside their heads, this inner critic, you become self-critical, you begin to doubt yourself, gas like yourself, because they've been gaslighting you for a very long time, and the reason why is because they've been gaslighting themselves for their entire lives, yes that's why, so of course if they're gaslighting themselves they're going to be gaslighting you, but when you become aware of it, that yes this person is crazy and delusional, they have been gaslighting themselves for their entire lives, then you will learn to not expect anything from them, you will learn that whatever you're seeing whatever they're displaying to you has no value at all, it has no significance in the real world, it doesn't matter what they say about you, it doesn't matter how they portray you to be, the reality is that you were victimized by a narcissist, and they are a narcissist who cannot connect to anyone, including and especially themselves, they're disconnected from themselves, they don't even know who they are, they're disconnected from their emotions, so how can they ever connect to you or your emotions, how can they ever know who you are, and not only that but when they move on, how can they connect to the new person and how can they know who the new person is, so of course a lot of times they get themselves into a lot of trouble, and of course especially after dealing with you, the empath, I mean when they say jump, you say to how high, you are at the back of the court, you are over there, you are always there, you really think they're going to move on and find someone else like you, find someone else who actually cares, of course they're not going to find that, they will be holding on to you, and this is why on average a narcissist will return to their victim seven times before it's finally all over, the wrong decision, for them at least, because it was not the wrong decision for you, it's a blessing in disguise, the best thing that could ever happen for you in your life is if a narcissistic person decides that they no longer want to be engaged with you, that's the best thing that could ever happen in your life because if they stick to the ground for enough time what's going to happen is they're going to run you into the grounds, they're going to ruin your life, it gives you time to grow and to become the best version of yourself, I'm guaranteed if they come back they will destroy it all over again, I don't mean there's very few things they can actually do because everything is manipulation, deception anyway, but another thing they can't do is produce long-term success, illusion anyway, it's just something that's intended to get you and your feelings to hurt you, to make you feel like you've lost something, you're missing out, and even then those are just projections because that's exactly how they feel about you, they feel like they're missing out on something with you, they feel like they've lost you, they're envious and jealous of you, everything they say, every view, it's about them, it's a projection of their native qualities and traits, and if you look at it you will see yes, that's exactly how they are, that's exactly the way that they look at things, the way that they behave, what you need to understand about a narcissist is it does not matter where they are, who they're dealing with, what they're doing, none of that makes a difference, they are always fake, they have no self, they have no co-identity, it's all, it's why they go straight to discrediting you and starting spear campaigns against you because they don't want you to expose them for the force that they actually are, deep down they already know that you're that though, they don't disagree you are, but they don't want to give that to you because that's only going to trigger them to reflect on how they're not, so of course they don't want to give you that, they don't want to let you know how great you actually are, and instead all they're going to do is continue on with this false reality, thinking that they're so great moving on with the new source of supply, but actually it isn't like that at all, they're very insecure about what they're doing, deep down here making a certain way, that, thank you all for joining me on another NARC survivor live video, I appreciate you by giving this video a thumbs up down below, let me know your thoughts in the comment section, let me know your thoughts in the comment section, even click all the application, and if you would like to donate, you can leave a super thanks comment section or a super chat in the live chat, survivor.co.uk, and as you can follow me on Instagram to see pictures of video.


Welcome back to day three of the world-famous mining show in Toronto, Ontario. Today we're with Greg Andrews of Search Minerals. I haven't caught up with you probably for about a year now since we did this last year. A lot has happened with search since then. Yeah, a lot has happened with search. Recently we announced our Deep Fox resource. That's your second resource? That's now our second resource in our 70 kilometer belt and what that's done, why we wanted to drill that property and get the resource out and mind you, we only drilled down to a hundred meters and obtained a resource. Not enough for our big PA that we want to do. We'll do a drill program. We did this wrong. What's the metal you're chasing or metals? What's your resource? So our resource, we're a rare earth company and so we're exploring for the rare earths and our rare earths are the key elements for the permanent magnet industry, the EV market, which is an upward trending market that we're getting involved in. So that's the neodymium, praziodymium, disposium, terbium. 59 and 60 on the periodic table. And the average electric car needs about a kilogram of those rare metals. Yeah, and so with those metals is we're looking to, for us to produce them, we still need a secure supply chain in North America and that's what some government initiatives are to position us in that because if we build them and there's no supply chain, the product is going to go back to China. And 85% of the rare earths come from China already and we're looking at some supply chain interruptions. So projects like yours are key to Canada's health. We don't want to have to rely on China and the interference from the coronavirus to producing the products we need. Absolutely. And more importantly, the supply chain, you look at the EV market and Canada has a very good EV or auto industry market and as they transition from internal combustion vehicles to EV, those supply chains of the EV market are not here in Canada that need to be established and it starts with the rare earths, but also starts with the demand of getting the OEMs to be interested where they can look down and build the whole supply chain and then say, Oh, at the end of it is a safe, secure supply. And that's what we want to provide. I would bet then that you're looking for an offtake partner. We'll be looking for an offtake partner where we are right now is we're, you know, and within the next two years, we're still doing a lot of work with our two resources that's extended the life of our mind over 25 years. That's a long time. And we've done two successful pilot plants. We've produced our 99% mixed rare earth oxide concentrate. Right. So now we're looking, we're talking to separation companies. There's a normal SX solvent, and there's new technologies, but more importantly, to get to our next level from our pilot plant, we're looking to do a demonstration plan. Right. And that works been done by Dr. Dave Driesinger, right? We're very blessed with Dr. David Driesinger. World famous metallurgy. Yeah. And, and really, it goes back to why are we here? We, we are low cost in the sense that our last PA in 2016 was for 1000 tons per day with a capital cost of 152 $152 million. We've we've always been that we need it to be financeable, regardless of the market, you can't rely on those exorbitant prices that got everybody into the game. And so we've we've we developed a technology that helped reduce those costs by eliminating the typical grinding, flotation, magnetic gravity separation out of the flow sheet, which eliminates process risk, technology risk, time risk, all those sort of things, and also drives down our cost. This technology was invented by David Driesinger, and as patented for us, and it allows us to scale up. So out now that we've added DeepFox, we can we're looking to increase our production rate to about 2000 tons per day. I was good to see innovation and mining. Too often, the industry becomes stagnant. But here we are at PDAC talking to people. What are you hearing this year? There's a lot of collaboration. The Canadian government is really looking to how rare earths Prime Minister Trudeau mentioned rare earths yesterday in his conference, which was nice. And it and it is a key to being in this EV market. Rare earths are one part of it as lithium and cobalt and the others. It's a whole industry to build a supply chain that doesn't threaten the auto industry. That's key that that's that's that they're really looking at. And then just how to build that as you talk about a secure supply. Canada to be in a great jurisdiction, smart people, innovative infrastructure, schools, and you have access to a deep water port, right? Yeah, our property, we're blessed in that we're located on a deep sea port, St. Louis, Newfoundland Labrador. It's in Southeast Labrador. But there's road to the town of St. Louis. There's power. There's a little airport there. Our property is only 13 kilometers from our town of St. Louis. So great infrastructure workforce. There's, there's communities around Mary's Harbor Port Hope Simpson, all in the area. So we we believe that we can get a nice workforce when we're ready. What's the next major step? Or what should we look for out of search as the next big piece of news? Yeah, a couple things. There's there's many things running on parallel. We have, we're continuing our environmental work. We are looking to do our drill program in Deep Fox in June or July to take it down to the 200 meter level, which will expand the resource. And and then we can put our economics onto that. Where Akua and Innovate NL is just are financing us for $50,000 to do two engineering studies, one on what a 2000 tons per day full processing plant would look like. And then a 1 200 scale of our demonstration plan. So we'll have the costing so that we can go get the funding for that demonstration plan. That's our next step to getting done. That's the next major step. That's our next major step that would be built on site in our by our in St. Louis. And that would be great for training, getting ready for training. It's getting ready to provide product to the our next step is the separation. And it puts money into the local economy, which is good to build your your corporate license stop rate. Yeah, we have we have a great relationship with our communities, a great relationship with our indigenous group there, then took of a community council. And, you know, we're looking to work together to bring this project. You know, it's very positive wording when we talk to them. Well, search has been around a while. You've advanced the projects well. And I'm looking forward to the next stage. Yes, thank you, Peter.


Hey everyone, hello Margaret Felix the Kevin Awesome to be here with you. Thank you. Thank you Pumped We were actually just having a great Conversational point and I would love for V to continue on it Okay, I don't know if you mean the part about the usefulness of dancing duality Correct that part the opponent Integration in the evolution of life in incarnation the utility of duality And juxtaposing that with abiding in I am And since the subject of this video Has been set as the balance of feminine divine with masculine divine It's very much in line with the consideration of duality one of the expression of duality being feminine as the backdrop to masculine and vice versa and And what I was sharing in the studio before we went live was The introspection I went through last night trying to find an imbalance within my being in order to expose it and Purify it but the more I searched Every shadow of impurity I could imagine or Start to believe I was finding was dissipating as I tried to formulate it and But I still managed to reach a foundational solidity Which even though it was not entirely I am Still felt balanced as well. It's still felt in fact imbalanced But harmoniously imbalanced like a dance. What is a dance? It's a person or persons Falling it's a constant imbalance Captured by another in balance by another in balance. This is what is a dance Perfect balance is not a dance. It's immobility a dance is In balance, but it's harmonious imbalance. The only difference is whether you find beauty and joy and Satisfaction and fulfillment and expression of your truth in that dance or not And then it becomes a dance If it has that quality Or it it is a falling on imbalance or stumbling if you don't find the harmony and the beauty and the coherence with your being in that dance and It's difficult enough to dance on your own, but it's very enjoyable It's Amazing I even Find it more nourishing and More restful then silent meditation sometimes and I have not given up on the hope of That same level of quality of harmony and beauty and intimacy In a dance with other reflections of the one infinite being So this is where I landed last night and where it ties in with to the subject is that the most beautiful Multidance dance I can imagine Has to be The bipolar the the bipolar dance between one masculine divine interpretation and one feminine divine interpretation But to be honest in this incarnation I have Come very close to it. I have even experienced it on very short Instances And I have not given up on experiencing it more fully and I'm I'm I'm not interested in giving it up before I have exhausted the The The delving and the basking into that energy and vibration for a little bit At least to my satisfaction That's what I would contribute. Thank you. I have a feeling that Kevin may have some thoughts about what you just said especially with his really strong resonance with Balancing distortions with catalysts like is taught in the law of one and what V was just referencing Yeah, so what came true was something about the low one and Our creation is explained there so at first there is a infinity and this infinity then Becoming aware of itself and when it become aware of itself is a intelligent infinity and for a long time I tried to Find the references of the universal masculine and the universal feminine in the low one But I didn't find anything like that because probably that and The channel Laura didn't use disturb but to me seems that the universal masculine and the universal feminine is actually the intelligent infinity and This union creates or creation their relationship is the reason of why we are here and So I agree with the dancer that can happen with the other reflections and the dance of you are you do He's a dance that can be allowed with no distortion When we rest more and more into the space Yeah, I really like view what you said about Harmonious imbalances Because it seems to me that it's a core part of the process of expansion to Realize or to discover that some imbalance that was perceived on some level At some point we can gain a broader point of view Where this imbalance is actually included in a greater harmony and So I feel that in this way the dance actually grows and expands It's not like a static dance between two dancers. It's like the movement of the dancer grows and Compasses more and more of the totality and And it very much feels like it's it's like putting some salt in your food this this Invalence of distortion it actually reveals more of the the flavors More of the beauty more of the harmony like it creates some contrast it creates some some depths to the experience A great df thoughts on this I'm sorry Do you have thoughts on this? Yes? Yes, I do. I actually um on my beginner level, I guess I have experienced the I guess on my on my quest to wholeness. I have experienced the catalyst that I guess triggered me to try to become whole and part of that was I guess including that a masculine into the feminine in a way and trying to balance the both Into becoming the the whole person or the whole Person that I thought that I was becoming but Little did I know that it wasn't about being a person And exactly like he said that the dance of of those both energies and and that You know that feminists Feminine and masculine energies just dancing around and trying to you know Trying to to to make this wholeness Work out so So I see those energies on both I guess on the on the On the universe level and on the micro universe that the inside of me Which is really one and the same. We all know that level how it all affects How it all affects the world and and Are I guess our own individual souls And how it's really when you really go down to to it on the very very intimate level It really is one and the same Like when I really thought about it or didn't think about it like really escape the thought process I didn't see the difference between that it really is one But you kind of have to go through the process. It's like The signposts to get to that point eventually I don't know if if you follow my train train of thoughts. It's really still 3 a.m Where I am, but It's not a train of thoughts. It's the observation There's no Thought in it. It's just Describing what you see there's a minimum level of thought necessary for language and that's it If you are going to talk about it at all Then yes You have to involve a little bit of thinking To put it into language But I think we all agree that we could easily replace feminine and masculine with dark and light or any other expression of duality And I assume Most of us or all of us on this panel all of us have had the experience of turning inside out and outside in and finding out our true nature and then Because we are still here We it means we chose To still look at the universe from the inside out point of view because if we I only assume that if one chooses to maintain the outside in point of view I'm not very sure if our incarnation would still appear to others So if there would still be others for it to appear to So the fact that we are on this panel is that we for some reason it might be different from each one of us We chose to maintain And sustain or attach to The point of view from inside out Rather than outside in or vice versa. You can look at it any way you like Or from the feminine to the masculine or vice versa or from the light to the dark or vice versa And that was the conclusion of my introspection last night is that I saw that I'm still interested in that dance I want to refine it perfect it and Mess more eyes myself and the universe which is myself. I want to mesmerize myself in a In an even more expansive harmonious An intimate dance And one of the ways I like to visualize the movements before I do them when I dance or when I Dance life or when I dance on music it begins with the visualization of what movement is most Coherent and expressive of the vibration of the music I hear and I try to make my body Just be an extension a reverberation Of the vibration of the music And then Suddenly I'm not there anymore then I lose track because I'm not a dancer And there's no music anymore It's There's only a dance happening and whenever That state is entered beat dancing or sometime Exchanging with somebody or with people or or sometime just Expanding into an observation Yes, there's nothing exists anymore then whatever is happening. There's only a happening And that that is intimacy. That's what I call intimacy. It's when Into me I see and I am That I am that being whatever I'm doing Whatever is happening in fact because there's no more doer so And there's less and less possibility of putting it into words by the way, there might be a copyright on this into me I see for intimacy because this is something that was picked by uh, Vincent in a movie called with Mike Myers called The Guru or something like that It was a hilarious and by the way, it was deeper than it than it claimed to be But uh, it's a it's a It's incredible how when You are not there anymore life happens and you suddenly discover the true Hidden It's not hidden. It's in plain sight the true meaning of of words that the intended meaning of words appear to you in that intimacy just like the true purpose of your skin Is discovered in the arms of your beloved Beautiful Yeah, and what came through Yeah, as you said, this is a really a dance that has to be allowed because If I'm here in this moment Touched To my point of view.   Yeah, and uh, so In that tai chi in tai chi one when you play with the partner to do the three show Yeah, exactly. That's a good example of uh, when somebody Is really into that vibe Then with time is going to influence all the environment because it's going to give permission to all the people to unfreeza and uh to just be I love this one. It's such a good example. Yeah The first one is the catalyst unlocking the will of the other ones to play Yeah, the first one is not there Is still there but himself slowly The dance is what happens when the dance right That's awesome Yeah In the dance, I noticed that Um, I'm not completely new to this concept either and in in shamanism There is such thing as becoming the hollow bomb So the spirit flows through you you are just the conduit for it and for me There is this experience of you Don't even exist as the bomb really there's like you you kind of disappear from safety when you're When you just relax, but it's when you disappear that you are the most Probably present it is exactly you got it It is so awesome. Yeah, but to a large extent duality is just The tension between Who between what you are and who you think you are? And so the dance is really it's really the reconciliation because it's the We could replace dance by making love or by exchanging Any anything right It's really about the reconciliation of what you are with who you think you are and when you allow those two to make love To to to get in union You are finally whole you are finally whole as you were always but without the this withholding of that belief of not being of being separate And you know, even in the in the christian bible Jesus was proponent was Asking people to to enter into the nuptial chamber the nuptial chamber And he was he mentioned to to his disciples when they were criticizing whether Mary Magdalene should be part of the group or not and he said Don't worry. I will make her male so that she can enter the kingdom like And of course in the culture of the time he Or at least was not reported. I doubt he didn't say also the reverse that as a male You have to make yourself female to enter the kingdom and as a female you have to make yourself male But he's not talking about bisexuality here.   I feel that even our most extreme enlightenment experience or awakening experience or satori is still It still has a circumference. It still has a certain radius Of limitation of consciousness. So I don't think there is ever going to be an end to our capacity to be More of all that is and all that is not and whatever we can't even conceive of and and And yeah, that's there's still room There's still room for room Yeah, I know because that like every time I think oh, this can't possibly get any better and then the next day Oh something new right And here's the another mountain to find It's really awesome This is a great gift of The creation of limitation Is that it it allows for infinite expansion And we can create it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry go ahead Yeah, so in this way it finds also this complementary aspect Of the other denser so from the limited perspective you find the infinite And vice versa the the infinite then also includes the finite Yeah, this is such a wonderful Conversation I just read something From the low one info And I will just read uh, yeah So the part that touched me was The mind body spirit in its eternal dance of the present may be seen in totality This just brought the realization that actually everything is dancing right now All of this vibration from which right is made of it's dancing right now At a certain frequency And that the more we raise our frequency the more we dive deep into The oneness that we all are the more this all reality dance on a faster rate on a faster rate on a faster rate Emitting the more of a beautiful sound or from beautiful song So the dance is happening spontaneously and the song along with it. Yeah And the truth is the the music is still a mystery to me but the the understanding of the dance of the universe is very It's very concrete very It's my experience it is um, I discovered it A few years ago Well, quite a few years ago when I was asked, you know, you socially you always asked, what do you do? And uh, it's so uninteresting But the person asking me the question that they Came from a place of Of honesty and authenticity. So I wanted to give him a honest and true answer Even though I found it a boring question in nature But I I answered I'm a dancer And uh And it it was the more honest and true answer I felt I could give even though I know what he was expecting is I'm an engineer or I'm an entrepreneur I am in the energy or whatever And the guy actually uh, because he saw also that I was being honest He actually thought that I may have I may have I may be a retired dancer that got a bit Something like that But it was an attempt at answering honestly and I'm it made it clear to me that at least to this Point from this point of view life is a dance and when I dive into that and I try to understand okay then I can totally understand that I am the dancer I am the dance. I am the scenery. I am everything the the choreographer the spectator the scene the dancer The only thing I'm not sure is if I am the music And so I think in that analogy, which is just an analogy anyway, but I think it's deep And for some reason I can very easily see that I am all of the components of the dance, but I am not the music The music is still coming from a more an even more mysterious place than all that is Is the is the vibration that creates the sound, you know, so In space, there is no music In vacuum, there's no music. It's the only Well, you can create it by doing but for most of human beings the experience of sound is through the vibration of the air who that reverberates in your eardrums and you have some hair and eardrums that translate that into an intelligible vibration However, you don't need to go through air. You can go through any other matter like there are now many headphones which are just touching your skull and the vibration goes directly through your skull without doing without using the eardrums Also, the human civilization is not located in space as located on this habitable rock Hello, this is also mysterious because um This I I saw it. I know it because for a few years I I thought basically that we are Just consciousness going through the cord of a harp the harp being the chords of the harp being tied to earth at one end and tied to Whichever, whatever is the foundation of heaven at the other end, right? And that then you can decide to shift your yourself your consciousness your finger on that chord to get different vibrations of and That's what I thought until I realized that the anchor point at the core of earth and the anchor point At the foundation of heaven is one and it's a single point And that that the chord is is is tensed between The same point and in a vortex like constant Uh It becomes very difficult to put in words, but I think we all Have some experience to connect that to Can we play with the idea of why The music would be excluded From the dance not excluded. It's just mysterious While I could clearly see I am every Thing of the dance I could not Experientially find within myself the music while it is there Uh, or is it or is it Like this guy dancing in the field that we watched just before was their music Was there or is it absolute silence? Maybe not yet Then maybe you'll get a catalyst that will make you realize that you are music Because you are everything there is that's also The the the conclusion that is that even the perception of a dance Is just the visualization Of music Maybe the closer you get to the black Maybe the closer you get to the black hole the More you disappear and the music disappears I think you mean closer What do we mean by closer the more that you swim In the most downstream contracted energy of the person conditioning the more you can clearly in a sense See the massive Slaps in the face of catalysts That come as sledgehammer swings and the more that you just abide in The very source of infinite possibility That gives rise to all phenomena the more it's just just complete silence Possibly If you are going to make a juxtaposition between a here and a there that would be a way that Yeah intelligibly and actually Just speaking with you guys I can see That a very plausible explanation for my inability To identify with the music while I could identify with the dancer the dance the choreographer the scenery everything is that all these are Separate concepts of the one and single thing that exists which is the music or Or the silence whichever way you want to call it because Also from kevin. Yep So this is something that I saw also in our own opponent And by the way the question that actually here was asking something regarding the music And uh, so what it seems is that uh, the more We balance each of our energy center the more we actually become the perfect instrument For the creator that we are so that we may actually Create our own music And so we can see these even in musical artists Every every singer has its own particular taste Every singer has its own uniqueness Spark of the creator that is she is So the more that the singer is in tune The more that the music that we come through we come from an inspired place that we'll be able to touch a lot of people and it seems to me that music or also singing is a good analogy because a beautiful singer is not um Doesn't make like a pure sound like maybe uh, you could generate on a computer That you could say like this is really a pure sound like a pure Um, I just did the most precise oscillations Yeah So in in a in a singer or in a beautiful instrument also you have many different vibrations that go together and when it's beautiful there is this harmony that that ties all this frequency together And there is a very strong taste a C minor from a violin or from a trumpet or from any other instrument is extremely different from each other even though technically It's supposed to be the same Frequency that we can taste the difference. We can smell the difference we can feel it we can Resonate differently with the same frequency depending on which instrument sends it and this is this is really the the most Attractive and beautiful experience in life is to Taste that but it's also what is a little bit Indigestible sometimes when We we put too much salt in our And and sometimes we even put msg So, you know, it's funny because that also reminded me of what you said the phoenix about the salt It reminded me of one or other citation from Jesus in the christian bible That he refers to those To his disciples and so those who do the union The with the father in the nuptial chamber so within themselves He refers to them as the salt of the empires And he warns that you have to To keep your saltiness So you are pleased Because what and is even mentioned what is salt without saltiness Is just dust to be trampled on so your Your unity is truth that is the And that is the the taste that is your taste is your your unique Taste of the same vibration of truth so And that's what we can Exchange does it's probably the only thing we can exchange It's our imbalance our harmonious imbalances and and we can all work like like a chorus, you know, like a A group of people singing together If they are inexperienced It would be a bit dissonant but if If they are very professional and even when they are very Strong, they need a little bit of adaptation to to a tune You know to to adjust ever so slightly their their tune to To the rest of the group and to the partition So I think in this nls farm I would Just coming to me that it would be a very good analogy to compares to to the choir In the church in a way So if we are going to sing that beautiful inspiring chorus song That will Inspire others to join in And or dance or You know, in fact, it's a melt. It's a it's more than a choir. It's a it's a multi Faceted and multi media Show it's You know, I would not be surprised if we realize that Even before the ultimate there is a a density where Trillions of beings of seven eight nine density are actually gathered in in a huge amphitheater And are waiting for the show to begin now the show where where 7.8 billion humans plus trillions of other life forms on this planet are going to Finally do this beautiful musical called Life on Gaia And so each one of us has his own music song dance To contribute to that incredible multi-dimensional show So it would be a seven or eight. Let's say, okay five six dimension and five six density show of Like a very multi-dimensional Musical show on Broadway that at the cosmic scale With trillions and trillions of other beings saying, okay, what are they going to do? Okay? How is going to be? Wow my god. Look at this. Look at this acrobat Oh, listen to that song Oh, wow This guy's so daring. Oh, look this guy's so or that lady. So I'm just look at how those two are dancing, you know, like it's it's an unfathomable richness of expression in multi dimensions which could be a very satisfying Event even at the cosmic level even at The six seventh or whatever density we cannot really understand Why not V it sounds Awesome, but here is my problem with it I mean, I lost all preference to like good or bad every like no judge in us. Everything is like really awesome, right? Yeah in the show so but in that in that show What if this show is like really out of tune? And nobody's gonna know Well, what is what is part of tune is part of the show? and What if the show also includes comedy It also includes drama. It also includes tragedy. It also includes love Story. It also includes even boredom Everything is there Whatever you like is there it's Not graspable By the characters in the show, but as the actors we understand it or as or maybe as a the actor To draw attention to the no disharmony Yeah, it's funny the fact that uh, this is raw saying from uh, six density. There is no design but For many of us in Interdensity it seems that there is a disharmony and because In this density for us, it's relevant to have experience of the disharmony And to have experience of this particular song That is generated in each moment from our Collective's agreement but We can start to experience more freedom as we realize That actually this harmony is just a point of view So it seems that This show is just a bunch of point of views Dancing and there are so many point of views So You can see it. You can relax and you can watch They show from the six density from our highest self experience From this IM state where all point of views are More and more one so There is a less and less of An attachment. There may be a preference in this density. Of course, we're going to have a And this is just a word but we're going to have a taste for something Yeah, I would prefer to have a better nice experience Than a bad experience But even if I'm going to have experience of a bad experience I'm going to feel a little bit bad, but then I can realize okay. There is no disharmony What is fine all is well. Yeah, that also the environment can shift It's like a chinese shadow show, you know roof roof roof Oh, no, don't bite me. Don't bite me I Also love that picture that was shared Uh, I think it was by ulam of that child Having his head crushed by the boot of an adult Yeah, and then out and you see the child is himself holding the boot on his face and laughing And I found it extremely, uh, I find this very Very Happy very it's this is a great play. This is so true This is what happens. Actually, this is probably one of the most Strong memetic representations of Simplified spirituality and the more that we boil down Spirituality into memes like this the faster we can catalyze awakening in the third density This is a core component of what we can focus on and Accelerate the awakening this way because this type of stuff is highly adored by the matrix Yeah, especially by the younger ones And you don't you cannot even Know How many people will be affected positively? Uh by some of these Memes, they are they are very powerful Yeah, here's another one since we're already at it just to give you guys another good example I know exactly where it came from I know Yep, so there's this one And then there's another recent one that emerged that is also really strong I haven't posted it on on my account yet, but one of my one of my friends did that's really strong There's this one, which is really good. You just posted this one Seeking enlightenment inquire with it. Where's the door? Door again So there's that one I adore it Shout out Shiva stand. We love you. It was just on the show. And then here's the other one Girlfriend promise me to be normal around my parents this time me. Okay. I promise her dad So what do you do for fun me? What do you mean by you? Yeah This is the So guys, let me tell you a little story about how I lost the first time I Got my awakening there is continuously based on my profound suffering I just surrendered big time like with every cell of my body Surrender to God. I'm like just take me out of this earth, right? And then the next morning I woke up just like exactly like a cartel, right with with the diamonds playing the music and it was just so amazing and I didn't care and lasted for about two weeks and everything was crystal clear and It was amazing and the music and I was a dancer and everything and I'm like, oh, this is nice I wonder how long this is gonna last This is how you try to put the Time on the infinite You're even lucky that it lasted two weeks It's amazing and I've been telling everybody once on This is what I am and everyone's like She's crazy. She's crazy. Yeah, but I got that's also one of the biggest problems, right? Because it is true that sometimes there are fireworks like this like incredible Yeah, but if I knew you you would have told me like just don't quit just relax Just take it, right? I didn't know any better And if it had helped if it could have helped you would have met me earlier or met Whoever was going to give you that message So it's the way it is These fireworks are both very helpful for the one experiencing it Because now you know it's true And now you will not give up Even though you will go Through frustration it takes a lot of time to realize how to to remember to re-remember To re-realize how simple it is and how accessible it is because it's there. It's it's the That's natural state, but it In practice it takes time because there's always this attachment to the fireworks And so for yourself It's quite helpful because you remember you will never forget that and you know it's real So you will not give up ever You will always Be demanding for the absolute However, when you tell that experience and that's why If you look at it, even though it's the most fundamental event in their life Most masters don't tell too much about their extraordinary Experiences because they realize how Unhelpful it's going to be to many people who will equate The fireworks to the enlightenment and they will seek that and seeking the fireworks is like seeking god Is like seeking yourself until you realize you're it it's It's not gonna happen and when and those people looking for fireworks are automatically They're deviated towards substances, you know chemical substances or any other assistance for altered states of consciousness Which can also do the trick in a way But there will always be that doubt whether it's true which you don't have when the state happened to you naturally And the truth is it's much longer to to reach the relaxation required for the state to to For you to be in the state That Benjio and everybody describes the state of not being Um If you are not using any help chemical or otherwise Or or a master a living master it takes Long time and you can give up because you you you have always a lingering doubt Okay, and then if you visualize it as something like that happening in your in your bedroom um We'll delay it because you will keep focusing and trying to get that I'll also respectfully disagree with the point slightly just by taking the angle of that if one basically takes the understanding of their attention And they take their attention and then they put these fireworks On every single Moment Every billionth of a second are fireworks just right here And if they do that process and they sort of get used to every moment being Just these eternal They can sort of become more and more awakened to This being free ineffable absolute perfection. So there are different strategies to said process of tapping into the quote now already being free ineffable Perfection and so this could be used as a strategy No, no strategy can be used Truth is a pathless land yet. There are also The the strategy is the obstacle That's the that's the the whole difficulty of this exercise is that strategy is a contraction already It's when it's when you give up. It's when you finally give up that you are ever going to find A strategy and a way to get there that you can finally relax sufficiently. That's even the whole story of the buddha It's when all his asceticism Gave no no result and he was Absolutely exhausted. That's when he gave up under the body tree gave up totally his search his life everything The relaxation was total and it happens Same thing with the osho same thing With all of us anyone who ever had a satori it was not because he it was not the the success of his strategy I don't believe that anyone achieved that with the a successful strategy However, I could be wrong because I don't know everybody yet Many of those great masters talk about the preparatory periods of their practices that then yielded them the ability to have the Insight as is taught across the traditions that through the process of concentration You still the mind more and more which then enables you to gain the insight into the perfection Yes, and no Can I can I jump in? Yes, please Please forgive me so I love you. Yes, partially in the sense that what is the meaning of giving up if you have not tried So in that sense, yes The usefulness of all the efforts and strategies They're only useful in the sense that they're not giving anything up if you have not truly Truly tried, but otherwise it's not really It's not the yield of the effort It's just that there's no meaning in relaxation and giving up if you have not tried, but please finish Yeah, actually that that was kind of the point I wanted to make that it seemed that ultimately speaking the usefulness of the strategy is to Quickens the process of exhaustion it's like is to to focus one's Uh intention and energy in a very one-pointed way To the point where it's realized that it cannot be achieved and then something that can break open And the problem is if you are aware that you are consciously adopting the strategy of exhausting yourself That's another strategy. It won't work Yeah, yeah, yeah, because in fact you have not you're not giving up. In fact, yeah, exactly On your effort to exhaust yourself to finally relax. No, you can relax now. If you are going to have a strategy, you just relax I don't know. I don't get it. There was really never any strategy for me. It was just I was just suffering so so much and I just didn't want to I didn't want to suffer anymore. I was just complete surrender And every time was just going going with it and going with it And I really believe that my higher self just put me exactly through the suffering I needed to go through That was the way for me. I believe that some people maybe get to enlighten them through the strategy and through their gurus and that's beautiful Good for them for me with that You need to forget it's your strategy if you adopt that as a strategy But it reminds me of one of the jokes that I found most funny A long time in my childhood and in my youth Which is objectively not funny at all But I always laughed out loud whenever I heard this some British people Expressing their frustration of some bad quality music or or boring situation or a painful situation and they would say I give up. I give up take me to the back and shoot me You know like the the the military militia would do of a of a stubborn Opponent they would take him to the back of the building and shoot him And then you are the one asking please take me to the back and shoot me My ears are bleeding of hearing this horrible music or this suffering And to a certain extent when I was hearing you telling your story I felt that's what you asked the universe. Please take me to the back and shoot me I did I did I did now. I'm laughing at myself.   I'll be whatever you want It doesn't make me laugh. It makes me I think this is a beautiful expression of love even though most people who say that don't mean it and And most people who who mean it Should not say it because the other Facet of themselves may not be as mature as them Right. We come back to the feminine and masculine. Yeah So regarding the masculine and the feminine and regarding this dialogue What came through? And maybe it's not really relevant for everybody But for me was kind of nice to explore even in the way in which we go through civilization that is that quote-unquote penetration And that the desire to go through and that there is that expansion that is that surrender and That seems to be a dense also a taste in which we go through The realization of the true nature that is beyond The penetration is beyond that they are surrendering that Just is a source realization And it's a nice dynamic that Can take place and even that the dynamic Can be seen as an expression of Source in each moment I'm realizing that if the folks come in mind that says I should meditate for 20 minutes That's a realization of what source want to experience in this moment and if The realization that comes in this moment is I should go and learn a particular method strategy technique Is there because it's relevant for that character and even that fault Is realized because that is what source want to experience In that moment and as we progress as we trust that that is the source from which everything is coming from What comes through is that Yeah, it just source wanted to experience things And it's funny we cannot give an explanation. Yeah, that's beautiful. But why when you refer to source you don't say I Another word for for that for sure I I It's it's an it's an okay word I will not mine Yet at the same time a good a good reason to not use I is because of the no self and so no self enables the more close nature When you use I that's when you use self and that Is its own Aspect to the experience so if God plays with itself we ask what is that which Comprehends God playing with itself and so then that's where the no self component also plays Please go ahead. Yes No I made this suggestion to kevin For a very good reason because kevin can say I when talking of source I will not make that recommendation to host And in fact in a previous discussion we had Atlas on your channel.   I was talking generally I get it. I was talking generally. Um, no you go here.  Oh, yeah, great. All right, cool. So Laurel Is wondering if anyone on the panel has had breakthrough experiences with five m e o d m t Wow, that's precise and speculate on the S and speculate on the similarities with meditation Janas Thanks Yeah, like like yana yoga, okay Maybe I can show something. Yeah Um Yeah, that's how I would spell it Jan is the path of self-realization Yes, the masterless path, right? Okay, go ahead Felix Yeah, so I I had a few experiences with a five m e o d m t Um Which is a very potent substance and um should be approached with care and um Yeah, just not the not a recommendation or endorsements, but Can be an interesting experience um so yeah, it it has been called the god molecule and um It seems to me that it might be the The the molecule that carries the closest vibration to That of god At least that is available at least that I I know of um And actually very recently I had a deep meditative experience Why I felt like very much being in the The same very very same space that this molecule carries And um How it happened to me was uh bringing in contact What What I would describe as the beloved which is like the The purest essence of in-love-ness of adoration of this um This very white potent nectar of love that feels so intimate and intense and Like the essence of the heart and bringing that in contrast to the absolute Which is beyond even being So you've got like this most intimate experience of beingness Contrasted by the fact that even being is not me And so for me, it's like this This this essence of the heart Exploded in a way Like the the identification there that was so intimate and intense burst open and and what opened up was very much the The same space that I I had experienced the Quite a long time ago with this this molecule So Yeah, that's basically what I had to share about them And um Malgo or Kevin? Yeah, I never I never had this in general or this very specific one I didn't I never had the molecule, but I didn't know about the experience. I had I had multiple Times daily. Yeah Yeah Okay I never tried I'm scared actually of trying that, you know, oh, okay, that's interesting then you should definitely try it I'm not scared of that The molecule but I'm not interested and I've not tried that one because What I understand is that dnt is produced by the body. So I don't feel the need to go buy it from An intermediary if I can get it directly Um, not that I'm stingy, but uh, I I like to drink directly from the source whenever possible um I did try Occasionally when I was younger a few substances some of them I found interesting fun helpful and some uninteresting or unhelpful But generally I would say that To attain any state by with external help be chemical Or with the active guidance It's great in the sense that it will enable you to have less doubt about the existence of these states Uh, so that's the positive side of it The negative side is you have always this temptation of taking the shortcut Of reaching there as quick as possible with help And you don't learn The the knack of getting there By yourself Anytime you want so why create a dependency a despondency or dependency on on a any dealer of of any gatekeeper of To access something that you are Uh, I think it's a great business model. Um, uh, I'll sell you a ticket to To be yourself I have unlimited supply. I've been selling to you at any price you want to pay Go to my website. Just pay and you get there Be yourself Be yourself with the help of Only 999 right now If you buy five if you buy five I sell the tickets to be yourself by a bunch of five So you can be five times yourself for the price of four Now, but by the way, I'm ridiculing it, but of course we were all suckers for it until we finally find the The way in right, uh, when you realize that When you realize that Um It's beautiful We are all pale in comparison right But that's in comparison exactly And the most beautiful smile is yours Person who wrote bottom right The most beautiful one is yours, but you can't see it Yes Yeah I read quite a few books about near-death experience and they are very very very insightful very interesting and Very consistent by the way from different editors different authors different languages unrelated Accounts of NDE's And very consistent right Guys, I would love to read to you. They were now sitting on a prayer of a whole pono pono It's one of our prayers Then we can also comment to me I am the eye. I come forth from the void into life I am the breath that neutrals life I am that emptiness that allowness beyond all consciousness The eye the eye that they all the continuum of mind with matters I am then coming and outgoing of breath the invisible untouchable breeze The undefined atom of creation. I am the eye powerful powerful powerful and Basically, this is a cleaning tool They say and that you you can repeat these multiple times per day to clean all Distortions and we could even comment on the prayer itself I come from the void of neutral light that the dance of mind with matter Then coming and we are going of breath from yeah, I am the eye I would even recommend to the audience To pray in the shower Because uh water has a very Uh very strong catalytic uh and and soothing power of absorbing Any uh of your vibration, especially those which are not Most in harmony with your own belief So a prayer I am that I am um Even if at first you don't even believe it It's very helpful and uh This entity happened to to pray that way without really knowing exactly what he was doing for a few months Whenever taking the shower and it was Very helpful very soothing it transformed it contributed greatly to transform his Of life and then it paved the way. It's not the causation that it's a helpful paving of the way for higher and higher Realizations after that Um, and it doesn't matter that much if you don't even believe it at first if you say it Feeling a bit as a fraud to declare out loud that you are the I am Uh if as long as you do it in private, uh, but what you should avoid at as much as possible is um is uh Doing anything that is not In absolute authenticity in the presence of others But if it's in your own presence in fact in aloneness in solitude In the solitude of your shower or if the so in any solitude moment it's extremely helpful to express out anything Even and especially what feels fraudulent in you or what feels untrue or what feels Sad or painful say it out loud in your in your aloneness in the in the melancholy Of your solitude Be the soothing voice And the honest voice That says out loud what you know, you are not yet or you feel you know, you are not yet, but Listen to your own voice telling the truth while you tell it It's bullshit And over time the roles will swap Where you will actually realize slowly slowly That there is some truth in it And then the ground will be paved for grace That you cannot control you never it's impossible To know when grace will fall upon you and the revelation of your true nature Will explode within you in its full Undisputable truth It may manifest even in visual effects, but that's not What matters And don't despair also because you will quickly have a crash landing after that when you say oh, I am god and Because the eye saying that is not the right eye You know, it's one of your two eyes The only eye that is the true eye is your third eye the one you don't know yet Until you know it and until you know only that eye as being a true eye So but For those who have not yet had their satori only Be allow yourself total fraud total expression Fake it till you make it in solitude don't ever Fake it till you make it in public because it will haunt you Especially in this day and age where everything is recorded, you might not appreciate Being confronted with your Inbalances your past imbalances, it's not helpful, but To yourself, there is no limit the there's it's even an absolute requirement Total brutal absolute honesty brutal honesty With yourself and then if you are even lucky to have somebody you trust enough To be brutally honest with like we have this luck This amazing blessing all of us in the nls group We have a group of people we can be totally open and frank and honest about our bullshit or our truth And it's it's it's amazing, but it's very rare.  I can only guess the others Uh, but okay ptsd is familiar. So anyone has a personal experience with that Just also in general the question is trying to address how some of the neurobiological Restrictions for spirituality if how people feel about that not proper emotion regulation Okay, I have a specific opinion on autism Even though no member of my family has that condition, but I've I've delved into it Quite extensively There are There are two elements to it. Number one. It's usually an a gift By the entity incarnating into them for the acceleration Of realization of the surrounding entities. It's also a gift for the person itself uh, sometimes people who have tend to over rely on their own ability to provide for themselves They would incarnate In an entity that needs assistance where they cannot avoid it Uh, but specifically for autism, there is an element of memory which is very important and as you know ego is memory It's it's a it's a it's a reprocessing of memory. It's a it's a float It's a float coloring and reprocessing of your memory And what is autism autism is the is a kind of deficiency of the natural ability of your mind and brain to erase Unuseful memories Because many people think that memory is a skill no The ability to forget is a skill the the the natural Uh process of the brain is to store everything in memory to commit everything in memory and by the way if you dig in your Unconscious and subconscious deep enough you find all The elements of your memory that you thought were lost or erased. They are not really erased so ego Is a memory construct autism is extreme memory with very little Erasing while What we call emotionally mature people are actually people who are very good at erasing or apparently erasing any element of memory that is not consistent with their narrative with their with their story and with their identity so There is definitely a strong made a strong lesson about identity around autism and Each condition and each relationship between each of the 7.8 billion people is a tale or made experience for the spiritual benefit of both entities so so then you can call it anything you like that because any Any incarnated being on this planet is a net case, right? It's to a certain extent Gaia is a mental institution Where we are all Crazy people believing we are napoleon bonaparte or Felix or Kevin and we are being slowly and gently treated So imagine if the whole universe is trillions and trillions of entities and some of us are deluded into thinking we are some some Some guy some some historic Character or some cartoon character instead of of what we are Then okay, we can be sent here. We are given the illusion of separate identity the illusion of time so that we can work it out and regain our sanity That's one way to look at it. The other way to look at it is that it's a giant nursery Where we come here to mature into fullness of consciousness And another way to look at it is a giant Show a scene. It's a it's a theater venue for the biggest greatest show of all time literally But if anyone of you have specific experience about those things All right, so That might be something interesting to also consider is the Recognition because this happens to me a lot too is like why not just stay in emptiness I mean, there were a lot of great things there said but that's also something interesting to consider is just Staying in emptiness. Thank you for the question. I don't have a perspective on it for ever So we are only not doing it for a few million years. It's not Why not and I would say because why not Why not incarnate? Why not experience time? Why not have fun? Or why not have misery which is another misery being the preparation for fun And fun being the preparation for misery Uh, why not why not? Thank you for the time on the eternal stage that we've had together. This has been great Love it. Super grateful our meeting of souls costumes units in the Tornado vortexing endlessly. Thank you. Thanks everyone Thanks a lot. Yay Hey Margaret welcome to your first Official stream yard video. This was a lot of fun together Yeah, we're looking forward to more. Yeah, thank you and thanks everyone for tuning in. We love you very much Thanks for your great questions. Thanks for Hopefully some of these epic Convo points ended up landing. Let's we can go back through some of them dance equals harmonious imbalances Intimacy into me. I see only the dance Duality detention between who you are and who you think you are Turn in where it's a station of arguing with god. You can defocus into all that is focus into separate piece In the balanced individual the energies lie waiting for the hand the creator to pluck harmony from raw And suffering the drill sergeant of awakening awesome All right, like the video if it brought you value helps the algorithm subscribe If you haven't yet to the channel share the video with people that you feel like this would resonate Leave us a comment below with your thoughts. Thanks again infinite gratitude That's so All right, we'll stay in the studio and we'll wrap in five four three


Welcome to module 41 of chemical kinetics and transition state theory. In the last module we derived the transition state theory estimate of rate constant at constant energy. For the rest of the course we were deriving transition state theory at constant temperature. So, in this module I want to connect these 2 ok. So, these are the 2 expressions we have derived at constant temperature this is the expression that we have played around with over several modules and this is the expression we derived in the last module of the rate constant at constant energy. So, today let us look if we can derive one from the other particularly I will go from micro canonical to canonical. If I have to calculate k of temperature one way of writing this is actually I can integrate over all energies find the density of energies and k of E. So, I find the rate constant at given energy find what is the density at that energy and just integrate the product over all energies that will give me the current constant at the given temperature. So, k of E we will use the transition state expression E minus E A what is rho that is the question. So, we have been writing rho of x comma P as e to the power of minus beta H of x comma P divided by the normalization constant. If I want to write it as a function of one number energy well you notice that this H is nothing but energy. However, there can be degeneracy of energy there can be a density of energy and the density is given by G. So, think about it at a given energy what is my rho what is the density well the density at x comma P is this this is my true Boltzmann distribution and H is nothing but energy. But we note that rho of E is nothing but e to the power of minus beta E, but I have several possible x comma P where the energy is equal. So, I must multiply e to the power of minus beta E by the density at that given energy by the number of states I have at that energy and G essentially represents the number of states at that energy. So, at some energies I might have many many more states. So, my rho is higher my overall density is higher than right. So, it is a product, but I must also integrate over also I must normalize it properly I get this. Let us just look at this denominator I just wrote very quickly. So, in the denominator I wrote now we will replace the expression of G of E that we had written last lecture I always forget H to the power of 3 n. So, let me write that very first 0 to E G of E is integral over all x integral over all P delta let me write d E here of H of q comma I am sorry I have changed my language. So, let me just write x here P here minus E e to the power of minus beta E I will take the integral of E inside e to the power of minus beta E I look at this expression and I realize this is equal to what I should be integrating over E prime I am sorry otherwise things become very confusing I was using both E to be the same I should not be doing that well E prime lies between 0 and E. Therefore, this H I can simply replace here. So, I am using this relation of Dirac delta function where E prime is the same as x my function is e to the power of minus beta x and this is my Dirac delta function. Now what is this integral equal to anybody remembers till what is it partition function. So, integral from 0 to E G E prime E to the power of minus beta E prime d E prime is equal to q. Now here when you are doing this integral this rho was supposed to be an integral only over reactant space. So, basically what we then do is we consider this to be only reactant partition function because again it is the same idea as always we are only thinking that my entire population is limited to reactants there is nothing in the population in the product side. So, I am integrating only over reactants everything at this R sub label ok. So, k of t I have to find this formula and I have shown that this thing is equal to nothing but q R that is good ok. So, I get 1 over q R g R of E k of E now k of E I will use this formula what we had derived in the last lecture this cancels here that makes me happy integral 0 to infinity d E I will do an integration by parts here I will call this as my first function this as my second function. So, I will write this as W dagger let me before I do that let me do one more thing I realize that this integration that I am doing should be only from E A to infinity because if E is less than E A k T S T of E is actually equal to 0. So, the reaction happens only if energy is greater than E A the entire micro canonical transition state theory rate that we are deducing is for energies above E A this W dagger has no sense if E is less than E A ok. So, our integral of energy is only from E A to infinite why because energy less than E A my k of E itself is 0. So, I can replace this 0 to E A directly all right. So, I am integrating by parts now I am calling this one as first this one as second. So, I integrate second one I get this from E A to infinity minus integral I again write 0 I do not know why d E in minus integral of differentiation of first function integral of second function like this look at the first term this is actually equal to 0. So, I will let me put infinity here I realize E to the power of minus beta infinity is 0 I put E A here I realize W dagger of E A minus E A equal to W dagger of 0 which is equal to 0 W again is a total number of states for energies less than that energy. But if my energy is 0 then there are no states. So, my W dagger is 0. So, this term happily vanishes all right. So, this is equal to then I see I have a negative sign here and a negative sign here I make that a positive I take beta as 1 over k t you start seeing hints of transition state theory do not you k t over h 1 over k r similar similar. Now, what is d W dagger over d E g ok. So, you can look that in the last module as well d W over d E is the density all right. So, I get this expression all right what do I do now I do replacement of variables I define E prime as E minus E A over h q r ok d E prime is d E let me find the limits when E is equal to E A E prime equal to 0 when E equal to infinite E prime also is equal to infinite. So, my limits here are 0 to infinite now d E is the same as d E prime E to the power of minus beta E is nothing but E prime plus E A g of E prime let me just few more steps almost there over I will write this as q r here and I will take E to the power of minus beta E A outside the integral. Now, you realize this integral just a few slides ago we showed is equal to partition function and this partition function will be the transition state partition function because this g is the transition state I had forgotten to write this I remember I am following this g here ok. So, q dagger over q r. So, we have derived the transition state theory at canonical ensemble that we had derived much earlier before, but from a new perspective this time we had first derived a transition state theory at constant energy in the last module and if we just integrate over all energies with the correct thermal density multiplied by this k of E we see that we get the same expression back. So, this is good this is more or less of a really a consistency check what we are doing today. This in deriving both these expressions we have made the same set of approximations the same model except that the ensemble is different here I have canonical here I have macro canonical, but the physics is the same. So, I should be able to go from one to another and to going from one to another is this formula if I do that I should be able to get from one expression to another and that is what we have done today. Thank you very much.