Hey what's it you guys welcome back to my channel. Today I'm doing this live. I don't know if it is but it's live because it opens too much up and it gets too intense. As you fled by the title there's a content warning on this and that would be because some of the content that I'm going to be discussing within this stream is triggering and it will be triggering through some of you. In this video I'm talking about trauma. I'm talking about my trauma. I'm talking about specifics. So yes this video is going to be triggering. There's nothing I can do to make it less triggering. I just wanted to say hi to you all before I start this video. I've got the chat open on my laptop today so I'll keep up with it. So if anybody wants to say hi, give us a thumbs up and we'll talk about my story in a bit. There's really a chit chat for now. So the content warning that I put on very much is because I'm about to read. I wrote it down because of mental health and wanting to know what recording you need to have flashbacks and dissociate. So I wrote down on my entire childhood and teenage years right up until I moved away from Lancashire and it was a lot. Alien man. What about alien man? It's been a while. It's been a long time. He doesn't want to scratch on my face. I don't think I've made a couple of hundreds to cover that up. Of course I did. If you don't know, this was caused by my last inpatient admission from The Stun Stray. I had a weird experience last night and I'm making a whole video talking about this. Hello Anna. Hi. How are you doing? I had a hard night last night. I was at the request of the home treatment team. I broke down. How have you been helping since the police was it? Up and down. Last night I spoke to the home treatment team because I had a massive dissociative episode and it happened because I got triggered by myself. I ended up outside the front of my building with no shoes on in my pajamas in the rain and I didn't know how I got there. I went from filming a video and I blacked out. Like on camera I blacked out and I ended up outside. And that's terrified me. I'm absolutely terrified at the moment about it but my channel's almost and my channel's raw. So here we are. Also can you guys hear me okay? Because my phone's a bit temperamental with whether or not it works or ones still work. You know how in the police come out with that was it put me on edge. You know I did break down crying when he was here and you know trying to explain that was the one who really doesn't know you. It would be really hard. I don't know. I'm watching two puppy head burns, two puppy head burns. How many didn't happen with your bullying case or you need me like that? I put out sounds like a fan but I can hear you okay? I might be because it's on my laptop. Probably because it's on my laptop actually. Let me put a folder somewhere and stand you on that instead. You discuss it all the way and I say if anyone does see anything hosted by anyone involved contact Metropolitan Police and just like give my name and it'll be done like that. I don't want to be the one receiving all the screenshots and all of that so so anything that anyone hears is essentially alien landmine. Why do you want me to do that chat? Oh my god no, don't do this again to me. Thank you for the super chat. I appreciate it. So it's been interesting. Also if you're wondering what this is, it's my little worry monster. Been a while since we played this game. It has been a while. You're not wrong and I keep putting lavender oil on him. It's way looks like he's been soaked but I keep putting my lavender oil on him and just sleep with it on my face and it's so relaxing and yeah.  Oh my god Jordan. No. Not doing this again. Yikes. I just want her to leave me alone. I put my side out there. I proved that you know she did not report me to the police. I proved that in that video. I proved that but she was committing an offense and beyond that I don't want to share anything else. I don't want to talk about it. Honestly I find the whole thing really triggering and like it's taken over five months of my life and it really killed me. Like the amount of drama that went on it literally nearly killed me. I don't think like people realize that. Like people are like oh you made that decision. At that point there were seven people turning on me and like all I was getting through was negative messages and hate and you know it was horrible. It wasn't just Stephanie there was other accounts and I did say that to the police. Obviously I've been putting the entire police clip. Like there was no need. Just the important part. Her little following of my ex while I was. It got to me and that is what caused my last admission to hospital. That's what led to me taking them over. And yes I did take the pill but I did not ask to be bullied. I didn't ask it to be harassed. I asked multiple times to leave me alone and to leave my name off her account. She was furious. Oh my gosh. Why are you doing it on like one night and night? Like yeah.  I talk to you on the phone. That ain't awesome. We haven't spoken ages. Please don't call me that because I'm using my phone to this life.  I've had some message in the super chat but it didn't let me. Yeah the super chat things have changed I think. I don't know. I haven't looked. To be honest I think you have to spend. It's been over two pounds to send a message. Hey. Hi. Hello.  I am working with my mental health team now and my mental health team are so supportive. Like they understand respect you but you seem to bring all the bad stuff to your door. How do I?  I don't ask people to attack me. Like I disagree with you.  I'd never try and ruin someone else's life. Nice. Do you order it to deliver it if you don't get out or get it? Sorry. Yeah I do order everything but that's because I have Amazon Prime and I can have to deliver something. And I have friends who are better shop for me because I've been really struggling with that. But I bring all the bad stuff to my door. I don't believe I do. I've made some mistakes and I've been very open about the fact that I've made mistakes. But I say that I cause it all. I'm not the one sitting behind an account posing on someone, criticising their entire life for an audience of people. I'm not the one valuing what people to direct hate. All I've said to people is if they see anything report it to the police. Not me. All you need is my name and it's very simple to do. That's all I've said and that's all I've done. I've done nothing that deserves five months of being harassed, stalked and being dictated. I didn't say you're encouraged yet but you seem to find you're unlucky I guess. Sorry I might have misread that. Sorry. I am quite tired. I don't know my magic yet though because I need to eat something. But at the same time I also can't love to cook. Did nothing to want to know. Sounds about right the NHS. Honestly, there's something I want to address as well. After I make, there's something I want to address but, you know, so thank you. I appreciate that. So I want to address something and I need to have an publicly address this. I've avoided it quite honestly. Well, I took the biscuit. I could get biscuits. I have biscuits because I can warm them today. Me and another YouTuber I'm here called Bipolarplug. Used to, I'm not there in Gaol anyway. Someone called Bipolarplug here on YouTube. We're friends, right? She invited me and encouraged me to go to her book, House. And I did. We met up with Gaol. It was fun. And in April she kind of distanced herself. I didn't know why. I presumed it was because, you know, I was in hospital and that can be triggering to people when I expected that. It then got to a point where I was like, I'm literally giving her money and she's also hashing on me what am I doing?  I tried messaging Gaol to answer me. That is a friendship I do miss. Like, you know, I thought we were good friends for, you know, what you're gonna do. That's the thing, this year I've lost so many friends. Like, people don't realise how many people I've lost this year. Like, obviously I haven't you guys. Like, I haven't you guys. I literally don't know what I'd do without you. But then there's been the amount of friends that I've lost. It's ridiculous. You just get to me. Like, do you know how much you'd have to push me to get me to a point where I'm feeling the police? Like, it's so hard and irritating.  It was horrible. Like, you know, out of all the friends I have, two people came to visit. Two. One person who I would never have met before this was willing to come and visit me. And that time at Rebecca, who you saw earlier on my channel, if you haven't seen that video, it's amazing. And yeah, all that happened. And she is so supportive. Like, she literally, like, she, like, came to my flat, got my stuff and then brought it to hospital. Like, we'd never met. We'd hardly spoken online. And she was so willing to do it.  I get you out of this key, but why do others who do some of the things not get the flat? There's been a lot of stuff towards other advocates as well. Me and Heidi Gladwell had a very public falling out, which meant, you know, a lot of advocates sided with her because she's got the bigger following. But I am friends with a lot of advocates and they get the stuff too. They just don't respond to it. I do. And that's my fault. I shouldn't respond to it. I should ignore it. I should just be like, whatever. But you know what? I'm also a real person. And I don't have anything to hide, you know? Like, I'm just so public about things. I just don't have anything to hide at this point. Like, have you even started reading out my diary recently? That's how much I don't care. Like, people, there's been issues this year. Like, we all know about the Caitlyn situation. We all know about that. And that was a huge mistake on my part. But I took responsibility for that and, you know, kept that where it is. Where'd you get the laughing to roll on from? TK Max. TK Max. I've got loads of it. Like, I have loads. If you want some, let me know. I can just send it here. I've honestly got, like, half a drawer full of the stuff. Because I just, when I see somebody TK Max and they've got loads of it, I'll just buy it all and be like, well, I'll use it eventually. So if you want some, I'll send you some. I'm a mum happy too. Because they're not that big. You struggle to, you struggle with BPD. Yeah, I have bloodline design disorder. Yeah. My GP don't medicate me. My medications get and review it, hopefully tomorrow. Just because my mood's been very unstable. Like, my mood has been very unpredictable. What do you take? I take a lot of things. I have got videos on my channel where I talk about all the different medications I take. I'll cut off my head without going into detail about what I take. Maybe two more videos, but if you think this is what's good for you, that's it, cool. I enjoy what I do. I enjoy doing YouTube. I've done it. I was on YouTube since I was like 11. Like, there's some videos on here still of when I used to sing. And believe me, I can't sing. Like, if I would sing, the glass would break. I just do what I love doing. My medication, though. For medication, I take Venmapaxi and Qatayipi and Lerazapam, Plenazapam, Zopipoam, Sumitriptum, Trasadone, and there's another one that I forgot. I stopped taking besoppolo. I was taking besoppolo. I had to stop it. It was making me very, very paranoid. Also, if I'm just saying thank you to Jordan for the superchats earlier, like, that's like made me happy.  And it's like, people really don't have a clue about anything to do in my situation.  They were supposed to pay me nearly two months ago. Yeah, I know it's a lot of money. It's just me. I know. My dream is to pay me, so they didn't, they didn't, they didn't. Well, my dream, he thinks I'll do something because what doesn't give me more, you know, I'm, as honest as I am on here, I'm even more honest in real life. I say it as it is. I don't have stuff I hide from people. Oh my god, thank, I still, like, oh my god, thank you Jordan for the superchats. I do, I really appreciate it because I don't know that, like, YouTube is kind of my income. It's like, girl, I want, what's the time in London? It's nearly 10pm. My GP needs me on medication because the hospital and the mental health team say I need it, and I agree.  What's up, hello, Serenity, how are you doing? Um, I thought I know how to kind of hang out on me. I wasn't going to do a reading to this, but I might do it as a, like, another diary entry video and just do a live stream as a casual chat, you know, like, hang out with us, you know, like, just, you know, yeah, I know a Cheshire's casual chat and renaming the stream because I'm not going to read out the paper, like, I'm still in space to read stuff tonight. Oh, wow, my things been demonetised already. That's fun. So, my videos don't get demonetised, but every time I live stream, it's like, going to demonetise you and it's like, alright, thanks for that. Like, I'm also shutting down my Patreon. Um, yeah, I'm shutting down my Patreon this week because I can't, I just can't upkeep it. And I feel so bad that I can't upkeep the level of work that it takes. What are the dots for, Tyler? I give up the men's health team. Don't give up. As crap as they can be and as horrible as they can be, just don't give up with it. Like, so, like, that's when it gets dangerous, that's when it gets scaring. Like, being thrown out with no support is worse than having terrible support. What are those self, what are those self-haspers? Um, well, my face is from when I got attacked in hospital, like, on my arm. Yeah, they are self-haspers, but like, yeah, I have scars. I'm not afraid to show that, but I don't like it. I don't have some on my neck when you're close. My face won't pick it up, but, you know, I have a lot in my life. My phone's telling me it's time to get to bed. It's so good, it's time to bed. I've been live streaming though, but I'm live streaming.  I heard loads of issues with how the U.S. treat people in mental illness, actually. I heard what about one state banning all psychiatric medications. I never, like, read into that, but someone commented that, so I don't know if that's a thing, but, you know, yeah. I mean, I don't know if you can tell. I'm quite down at the moment. I've had a good day, and I love today, but honestly, I'm so exhausted with it all, because I don't even know where my bank card is at the moment. That's the level of how disorganized I am. I don't know where my bank card is, and it's like, I kind of need that. I can't really do anything without it, but at the same time, I'm just like, I can't bother to try and find it, like, what's the point? Like, you guys know I'm very pro-medication. I'm not going to tell I'm not. People don't like the fact that I promote medication and both therapy. For me, therapy has been ineffective, and that is why I didn't talk about it, because the only stories I could really tell about therapy are horror stories, and I get trolled enough. I had issues with things here. Yeah, it's because of my DPD, you know. That's like, when my GP explained it to me, she was like, well, you'll take thought erasing so fast that it's tiring your mind out more than it's tiring your body out, so you just feel mentally exhausted, even if physically you couldn't run a marathon. And I thought that was such a good explanation of what it really feels like. Like, physically, I feel like I've been around a circle mentally, um, you know, existing. I just don't know at the moment. Like, I don't know. The stream's changed from what I was going to do, so I don't know. But, yeah, I thought, oh yeah, it's still not the whole K thing. I don't know why she vanished down my life at all. Like, she's never tried to explain that to me. I get it, she doesn't want anything to do with me and wants to be friends with the rest of the crew that left.  Stephanie's followers are built up on people who used to follow me, so I don't know if that's about her account. My Twitter account's blasted at the moment now, but I literally had to turn notifications off of my phone about an hour ago, because it's ridiculous.  I, let me do a brain thing at the moment. And let me do a brain thing. I'm sure that's what every successful person says. Give me two minutes. Yes, I have a hot water bottle. I'm in pain. Give me, like, two seconds to just grab my hair. A second? Are you still doing the hand pat thing? Yeah, of course I am. Message me on Twitter. Message me on Twitter. Um, simply because I'm not going to put my address on YouTube. Two seconds. Oh, I've got a language to get about anybody because I've always been following the run channel. I swear a lot. I'm back. I'm back. Blanky. I love using it on my back, but I can't. I'm, like, subtle. I've only got, like, the only card I have at the moment is my savings card, and I'm just like, I don't want to use it because I don't want to use it. You know? Like, I can use it because it's, I don't know, it just makes me, uh, wonder that the things, I don't even know my bank card's gone. How bad is that? I don't know where my own bank card is. Like, ask some questions. Feel free to, like, I'm using my bank card to log in to, uh, Singate, TSB account because I like to open a new bank account because my other one was so overdrawn. You and I, I draw sometimes when I'm really depressed, but apart from that, no. Uh, yeah. How long will the hand treatment until the community and, um, what's happening? Uh, do you listen to metal? I do. I do indeed. Shit, we just got a ten pound drop. Stay strong. Oh my god, thank you for the ten pound. I don't normally get super taxed, you guys, but this is new territory for me. I never get, I used to do, I used to do, like, load of streams. There's only, oh my god, thank you so much for the ten pound raw. What do you mean that you're sad? Oh my god, I'm so sorry. What are super chats? Basically, you pay to get a message on the screen and the money goes to me basically. That, that, that's it. You know, um, wow. Thank you for the super chat. I appreciate it. Community typing, super chats are donations. They do, they do help out, like a lot, right, you don't even know because it boosts up the amount of money I have on my YouTube account, which is fine, you know, that's great. Like, it just, it really does help out because in YouTube you have to have a threshold, but you have to earn $60 before you can withdraw the money and, you know, that's okay. I don't know. That was unbelievable that, like, thank you. Thank you for the super chat. I appreciate it. It's like, thank you for the super chat. Still here looking what you do to stay from. Oh my god, thank you.  Oh my god. I didn't expect that. I'm going to be depressing. I'm not even entertaining. Why? Why are you doing this to me? Do you still see my messages? Yes, I do. I have to chat on my phone at the moment because I'm doing stuff. My favorite metal band, I don't know. I don't know would be my question, would be my thing. I don't know. Just don't know. Honestly, I just don't. Like, thank you for the super chat, guys. Like, oh my god. I could sit and listen to your talk for hours, really? I'm, like, so interesting though. It's like, that's 20 pound in donations. Like, you guys, like, that's more money than I have in my purse. Like, I have literally no money to my name at the moment and it sucks, but what are you going to do? Okay, only having savings costs as well. Like, it's irritating. Because like, well, I can track is like, well, the reason is because I thought you're going through, oh, no joke. Like, I do appreciate everything that everyone does to me. It does and says and it means so much. Like, putting into words, what it means.  I don't expect anything. Like, yes, I put out my PayPal link and yes, I have an Amazon wish list that's public. You know, I don't want people to feel like they have to. So, you tried lithium a long time ago. A very long time ago. Like, it was a long time ago. It's one of the first medications I tried, actually. I tried lithium back when I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, which obviously now, my diagnosis has changed. So, yeah. It's kind of a depression leave in the UK. I don't think so. I'm pretty sure it's unreasonable. When I come to depression, like, when I have taken my meds and I haven't yet, I, my depression does go away. It's just sucky that from now, I have to deal with, I want people to feel happy when they come to this channel. I want people to feel like they belong somewhere.  Like, I built this channel up from where I was, I was really struggling. Do you have addiction problems? No. I have in the past. I used to, I used to use cocaine and like, I have. Like, I, I didn't used to use cocaine. I used it to try and kill myself. I didn't use it because I wanted to get high. I wanted it to kill me. I got hooked on to it straight away. The first time I tried it, I take them to the Philippines daily now and they do, they help my anxiety and they help keep my paranoia at a very manageable level. My main issue is really dissociation, flashbacks, paranoia and anxiety. Like, I get, I get very paranoid. I take tramadol. I wanted to pass an effect. I used to take tramadol for pay-in. I was then put on to Amitriple, which I'm allergic to. So, that's fun. Currently, I'm an anti-depressant. I take them, the vaccine, which, you know, I am going to actually have my meds now. Not because I'm recording, I think, just because I need to have them. Like, and you know what, there's no shame in taking medication, is there? Like, if you want to self-medicate, that's your choice, you know? Like, I understand why people choose to self-medicate, you know? The system's not designed to help people. The system's designed to make their jobs as easy as they can. Then the vaccine, interestingly, is kind of play-related. Yeah, I take the extended release of it. Like, I have 150 milligrams in the morning, but at night, I have my dresses in the morning. That's fine. I take it as the extended release one. And I take that. I take the case for it. I don't get it, though, because from what I've read, here's a weird thing that I've read, which is why my medication confuses me. So I take the vaccine, which is like, they can be in, you know, it's serotonin, no thanks. But I also take Trazoderm, which is another anti-depressant. Right, I take two anti-depressants, which is okay, you know? But Lydia, I'm going to go down when I need the help, you know?  I can't promise amazing advice, but go for it. Is it Zoloft? No. I believe Zoloft is sertralian or citalopram. Personally, this has me bad, but older anti-depressants, I don't respond. No, sorry, the newer anti-depressants, I don't respond well to them. Like, the older ones seem to work, you know? Is that how they distribute medication? I always think America has it better. Like, I'd rather have it in a bottle, like, it'd be easier than all the fucking, than all the boxes, you know? Like, at this time, I get cold and forget it for using where I was at home. But, oh wait, I've already got some now, there we go. I've made it easier. I haven't actually had any to do this today, so I'm only going to have two.  What is the point in shaming people for taking medication when medication helps, you know? Like, I have also have... I used to get high-end benzos back in the day. I've never understood how people manage it. I don't know how people get high on one. Like, I don't know how people put, like, how the hybrid benzodiazepines works because, you know, I use it every day. Then again, I used to use cocaine, so I think maybe my body feels being speeded up and slowed down. That's my theory on it anyway.  Tractadone's stuck, I get, get it obviously, and I do take the meds every day. Like, see, I'm on 15 milligram extended-release capsules. I have extended-release everything, apart from quattaya here.  Yeah. So I take 125 quattaya, which is not that high of a dose, thankfully. I can't honestly, I cannot take a high dose of it. I can't, like, it makes me physically ill already. Like, I already can't walk, as soon as I wake up in the morning because of it. I take the Raspam, works well. Hela-paradolil, works well. Lithium. I couldn't, you know what, Hela-paradol. Someone suggested it to me back in the day, but I never agreed to it. But it's high P.  If I take my full dose, 125, it does nothing. It lowers my blood pressure, and that's great, you know, because if I don't have a physical health issues, I, I'm sorry, are people going to watch this and be like, oh my god, how many drugs does this person need, and it's like, a lot. A lot. So I have a question, actually, for you guys. My turn. Me and Rebecca are meeting up on Tuesday, and I want to film a Q&A, because I think it's a good way for me to get to know Ross. If you don't know who Rebecca is, I owe him 100 million. Yeah, quit, yeah, he nearly killed me. Quit telling if he nearly killed me, from my last day of the day, because I also took all my Benzos, too, so my body just basically wanted to sleep, and that was that. So thank you to the my company and my good friends, but I'm just so glad. Benzos, they went from giving me down, really. I've never had that. I think my antidepressant levels, I am, like, I think the dose that I'm on works. I might increase the night though, if I can. But my consultant went in for that when she was doing my man.  And I was like, but what? Jumping from 75 milligrams to 150 milligrams of it was ridiculous. Really, I have a problem. And what's the problem? I have bipolar, so I can't take antidepressant. True. They're saying that, actually, one of my friends, L, who lives in Lancashire, he doesn't like talking about it, that's why I'm being a name, but they chip, you know, on the motardine. One of my friends takes the motardine as well. My friend is bipolar, she's bipolar type one, but, um, schizophrenia, I don't know what the difference is. Honestly, I don't know if it's been a few days notice, but, um, she was on the tazepine, climazepam, lithium, heliparadol, and she had a retroconvulsor therapy when she was in hospital, when she was in hospital together. So I met her. Um, my friend who takes the motardine, she has bipolar type two, and she takes that with the lazepam. And one of my other friends is in a long-term facility, co-ordered, um, she's on section 37 at the moment, and she, she has a short period. I've had my prescription of lazepam since February. I'm on repeat for it. Um, climazepam, I'm on repeat for it. Um, yeah. Is there anything you can recommend to sleep? I've got, you know what? My zoppy clover, I take zoppy clover at this moment, right? I take zoppy clover at the moment. It doesn't do anything. So I try taking the tracodil again. It does not burn. So at the moment, I guess I'll have to get rid of you tomorrow. Um, zoppy clover, I've been on for two years nearly. So it does kind of make sense. It's stopping working for me because you're only supposed to be on it for like four to something weeks. Um, yeah. All right, like the climazepam that I take, it is effective. I've only taken like the half dose because if I have the full dose of my climazepam now, I will just be knocked out live. Um, no one is to do that. I've only got three tablets of zoppy clover. I love what I'm saying. It doesn't work, but I'm literally still taking it because I'm hopeful. I want sleep. You know, medication is something that, I know lithium helps a lot of people though. I feel terrible with blood. I don't know how. On a very low dose, on a 25 milligram dose, it's amazing for anxiety. On a 15 milligram dose, it's amazing for sleep. 125, I don't, I don't know. When I have 125, I'm just like this. And then I'll have the 25 of a 25 PRM, which I take in the morning because it's just falling down. I could fall asleep better in the morning than I could at the night. Right. I don't know why. The last few nights I've been sleeping, I've been awake until like three, four in the morning and then going to sleep. Which is great, but not when you have union nine a.m. Oh, someone's telling me to go and follow a religion. No, I don't want it. I can't believe we've had so much stigma about taking medication. There is. That's why, like, it's why I talk so open about it. I'm just like, I'm not afraid to say that I take it. I don't care. Like what's the worst that's gonna come from me talking about medication? Like, I put, sorry, I know you can't, like, I need to lie down. My back's kind of hurting a lot. Give me a moment. There we go. I'll hold you for now. To a point somewhere it worked and then beyond that, it just didn't. And I'm not going to be here promoting something that I don't believe in. Like, yes, I know therapy works for some people, but I talk on my channel about my own life. Like, I talk about what I've experienced, what's helped me and therapy's not on that list. On that list, you'll find flipping medication and anything like that, you'll find them there.  Like, I talk about, like, my experience with medication. I've got a whole series called psych meds. And it's literally got, like, I do a video on every medication I take, and I talk about it given a lot of people don't like that series. But people hate me. I'm used to being hated. So, I guess when you reach a point, we're like, well, they everyone hates me anyway. What's the worst they can say? It's like, say now. I do want to say one of my biggest inspirations for my YouTube channel is Amy's life. And she's like a chronic health YouTuber. Like, she talks about her chronic health conditions, which is gastroparesis and other things. And she's so educational and so insightful that she just vlogs it for what it is. And that's like what I wanted to do when I come to the mental health. I wanted to break down that barrier and be like, you know, look, this is what it is. This is, you know, this is how it works. And, you know, if I can do that in, like, a video or, you know, have Amy's life is great, I literally love her channel. I watch every video. I see every video too. Like, I genuinely love her channel. Like, she's a huge inspiration for me and why do? Like, she just is. Do you have a job? No. I'm a full-time uni student and I get paid by YouTube. I'm making a thumbnail for this at the moment. Sorry if I seem distracted. That would be why. Because I'm not used to using this thing. How do I make it invisible? Ah, there we go. Opinions on plumber from the end. Um, I don't know which one that is. I don't know what the UK brand is that has. There's someone hand me out there. I'll answer. But yeah, no, I, that's the issue with, like, the world. No one knows, like, what any of them are. Because the UK doesn't use, like, the main brand that uses just, I don't know. My brain's spying. Sorry, I'm just making a thumbnail. I got distracted a bit there. Sorry. I'm also working on, like, there's the video that I did where it's like, I dissociate massively. But I don't have an outro to it. So I'm just like, into a video.  Are you Russian? No. I don't think you're talking to me, but no. Distractions are good, though. Definitely. YouTube is one of my biggest distractions. I would be lost without my YouTube. I do rely on it. It does get me through days. Especially the bad ones. The real Rebecca. Hello, Becca. Hello. Hi. I'm long in bed. And I'm editing a video. The issue with this video is, I dissociate and there's no outro, so I'm just like, what do I do with it? I have, like, five YouTube channels now. Really? Why? Why so many? I can hardly manage one. Like, I couldn't do more than that. I used to try. There'd be a lot she needs to do good for dissociation. It's used to deglassation. Very reducing. I'll just see what, I'll see what my team's saying. I'm seeing them tomorrow. So. Oh, I know. I was asking you guys if, like, to go and leave questions on my newest video, which is the internet run, the one I did with Rebecca, could you please go leave some questions for us to answer when we get up on Tuesday? And I just think it'll be fun. You can also credit me questions over on Twitter on that photo of me and her.  I haven't done a Q&A in ages. And I just kind of want to get this channel back to what it used to be and just her here, the things that, I think it's the same as me. Yeah, no, her last name is just mine. What's that saying? I like the colour of your hair. Oh, I'm in the process of going from this to, like, purple. Like, you'll be, you can probably see some of the purple starting to come through now. Because I'm not bleaching it, it's going to take a while. You know that channel? I don't know what channel you're in. You look happier than yourself, do you? I mean, I haven't emptied my mind of a lot of negative things the last few days. Like I said, I would love it if you guys could leave some Q&A questions like for me and Bekka on the most recent thing. Me and Bekka had so much fun today. And yeah, it was like, yeah, if you like could leave a comment or a question on that video, it would mean a lot to me and Bekka. Because, you know, we, I'm trying to convince her to join YouTube, but I need to prove that YouTube's not all like drama. But it's not. It's really not. And I know like I'm like the worst person, the worst example of this, but YouTube is so not about drama. Like the community we have is, but it's a community, I'll give it that. But I find it so helpful.  I do appreciate it, but I do actually appreciate it. Sorry if I seem hot out of it right now. Sorry about that. You can see scars. Sorry. Yeah, sorry. I didn't mean for the old scars to show them. Okay, that looks okay. Also, is that my money job? It's empty. How great. I don't know how much longer I'm going to stream for, to be honest with you. I'm very tired. I'm very tired. I actually think I might be able to sleep tonight too, which is good. I haven't slept that much. I also feel bad ending. What's offensive? Currently, I sound possessed. Cool. I'm possessed now. Then someone's like Lydia DM me. I'm just like, why? Like, I'm so over cautious. Who are you? I answer messages too.    I have to protect myself from everything and everyone, but I do.  Guys, is it? Switch my camera. If you call me on Twitter, can you go on to this tweet of me and Becca and leave us a comment and then hit the like button? Why not? Give us some questions to answer in our newest video. Well, in our next video together. Because, you know, we want BPD community, right? I'm not saying all of you have got BPD, but I know a lot of people on my channel do have BPD. We're like a family and I want to launch, I know, I want to make like merch, but I wanted to say like BPD fan, but I want to have like the BPD part as optional because I know not everyone has BPD. But we include everyone with BPD. I want like BPD fan to be like on the collar, on the in, like, you know what I mean? Like, I want to have BPD fan written on it because I just think like we are a family. Whether we have BPD as a whole or as a group of people, like I think this channel as a whole, we're like a family and yeah, I have BPD, but you know what? I'm going to own it.  Like, everyone's like, I don't want to be diagnosed with this. Oh my god, it's the end of my life and it hasn't been in my life for many times. So let's take it and shove it back in the faces and be like, well, we're a family and we're here to help each other.  It's not anything malicious. It's not done for anything other than that. It's part of the entertainment factor of my life being a constant flop. Yeah, so I'm planning, I am planning and working on getting some hoodie years, like custom hoodie years, t-shirts, you know, phone cases, popsockets. We all know I need like popsockets on there, because I broke one. I'm also looking at fake tattooers that you can get and I'm looking at getting, I'm giving away the spoilers here, but I'm planning on totally relaunching my Etsy store and I'm excited about that. I feel like my head is just hurting. But yeah, if you go to that tweet on my page and basically do what it says, give us a good old question, be appreciated. As you know, will I answer in questions? Me and Becca had a laugh today and it was so much fun and like I said, she's been so supportive for everything this year. Like, damn, I didn't know this girl and she literally came up and brought me my stuff and bought it to me in a hospital. She didn't know who I was. She didn't know anything about it, but she's on Twitter and she's watching rescue mode. Like, I'd buy which I could do that for someone and why do people keep saying I'm possessed? Which which do you mean? That bit, you know, I sell arms when I'm in hospital. I can't pretend that I didn't, but it is safe. It is clean and I am taking care of it myself and the home treatment team are regularly checking, obviously, to make sure I haven't done anything else. The mark on my face is going there, that's good news. But you know, my arms are covered in scarves and fewer extra to add to the collection, I guess. Sorry, I'm making light of a situation. That's high-top. But yeah, I've got videos that I want to release, but I don't want to upload too much because people don't want to subscribe to you if you're just like uploading every 10 minutes, but I enjoy making videos. The last few days I've managed to get out like five, six videos and you know, it's quite a lot of videos to get out. And I'm like seven subscribers away from hitting 4.6K on YouTube, which is, that's beyond insane, like, more visible. I love making videos, but I also, I think it's, I know the home treatment team keep up the good work, took me the last one for my arms. So they're doing the job. Thank you, I do appreciate that. I, if I'm out and about, I wear a jacket. So I don't walk around like streets with it on show, unless it's roasting or if I'm on the London Underground, because you know what, I'm not melting for no one. And it's not like they're fresh or anything. Like they're new, but they're not like fresh puts that just, they are just scarring. So, you know, but like, I don't know. I'm just not, I made a video actually a few days ago talking about self harm, actually. And the video was no shaving scars. And basically, I, you know, I have scars. Okay, cool. Yes, some people might be triggered, but you know, things, what else is your channel about? I do, I would do diary entries, I do vlogs, I meet with friends, I do challenges, I do tag videos, and I talk about mental health and record my life. I'm just going to start doing my hair dye. Well, I've been filming like this transition colour. It's purple. Like I'm making a video of that. And I'm planning on doing some journaling videos. Like I'm going to, all the series that are on my channel are all staying, but they're getting changed a little bit. And it's so exciting. I've got all the plans worked out. Thank you to Manick me last week. Thank you. I do appreciate the support you know, like all the support you give me, I appreciate so much. And I know like every person, every YouTuber ever says that, but I do actually mean it. If I didn't, I would not be like in bed half asleep holding my phone, talking to you guys. And I literally could fall asleep. Like, I wouldn't record some of my most vulnerable moments. I wouldn't do that if I didn't care. When I started the channel, my aim was to help say, I just wanted to help people. Then I got people commenting, oh, your channels really helped me. And I've actually got a folder on my USB of every single person who has said that and their comment. I don't know why I got it all, but it's just me and so much. I don't know why, but it lifts my mood. I don't pretend I'm big, some big YouTuber. I don't plan to become some big YouTuber. I make videos, so I enjoy it. Oh, also I'm subscribing to YouTube. If there's any videos anyone would like me to make, at all, like why I've got the energy to, let me know, because I've got a lot of motivation right now. So tomorrow afternoon, I'll be like, I'm filming. I'm doing a day in the life video again tomorrow. So that's fun. You know, we all live a day in the life.  It's about uni.  I'm showing how boring doing philosophy and film really is. You are helping people. Oh, thank you. I'm just going to enjoy it and pop it and save it to my folder later. And I'm so tired.  And if you haven't already, check out my last video. And I've said questions, questions, questions, asked some juicy questions for me and Becca, maybe even give off some dares. You never know. We might do it. If you leave comments on my last video, which is the internet friend one, leave some truth or dares, leave some questions, let's get juicy.  Anyway, I'm going to go. I sound like I'm drunk. So that's the sign to stop. Okay. Bye, guys. And thank you for the super chat. She laughed like insane. Absolutely insane. Good night, everybody. I hope you all managed to get some sleep, even if it's just an hour. Bye.


Let's solve the biggest mystery in all the CSS land, centering things. I want you to know this easier than you think with place item centered. I call this the definitely centered layout. What we need to do is first specify the layout method, which is display grid here.  This is that one magical line of code. And I have these highlighted under the titles here. No matter what you put in here, it is going to stay centered to that parent element. So if we look at the HTML, we have this parent and it's just getting background blue and then this child with a coral background and it's content editable. So we can actually just type in here, we can have vertical content, hello world. And even as I'm typing, this child element is staying centered within the parent box. So I think that this is a really cool technique. Place item center will solve all of your centered dilemmas.


My name is Vasili Sartakov and I would like to present you the actors framework The first question which I want to try for answer for which I want to try to find is why do we need another framework because A lot of frameworks why another one? Sure So Just for a cup Intel is geeks offer new system companies are calling claves in clays are part of user space applications And they isolated from and the code on data of enclaves are isolated from that of other enclaves So an enclave can let's say code from enclave can access data located in ring for inside application but cannot access data and code inside another enclave and Enclaves are protected from attacks based on physical access by the use of encryption of physical memory Removes the operating system and the hypervisor from the rustic computing base and offer very interesting features like local remote attestation and data seeding and more Intel offers Intel is geeks SDKs this is DK provides you necessary primitives to Programming claves and they do this in a very straightforward and easy way so you can create Function and decorate it in a special way then compile its function together with the Intel is geeks SDK and SDK generates binary or multiple binaries of enclaves and glue code Which allows to start or deploy enclaves? And this is a very intuitive use. So it's a just an RPC like manner of programming of enclaves. However, there is a problem To Enter into enclave you need to perform something called occul. So there are mechanisms for switching between untrusted and trusted execution environments and those transitions are very very slow compared to ordinary system calls switching between trusted and untrusted 50 times slow and more than 50 times loads only for the beginning and you will need to leave your enclave very very soon because Inside enclave you cannot directly interact with the kernel So if you want to interact with the kernel or use a function which is not located inside an enclave You need to leave this enclave again 50 times slower. For example, you have two threads There's two threads need to pass a critical section. They need to use mutex's mutex's requires the involvement of the kernel Both threads needs to leave the enclave. We have more than to be 200 times slower Synchronization mechanism compared to ordinary mutex's so it's very very slow As a response for this issue researchers provided several frameworks Frameworks like heavens con graphene sgx sgx lkl Panoply and maybe some other So more than five different frameworks L and they follow Same and different approaches at the same time So you don't need to leave an enclave if you can do everything what you need inside an enclave So for example, you can emulate some unavailable system calls inside an enclave and therefore you don't need to leave an enclave and Various projects abstract different layers of the software stack. So someone that's abstract The lipstick interface another project abstract the whole the deck let's say in the kernel interface But conceptually conceptually does frameworks have problem It's a monolithical design with a lot of there's a very huge trusted computing base So and this is a kind of irony you wanted to remove the complicated kernel from the trusted computing base But to run your legacy application you anyway put parts of the kernel inside this trusted environment So large TV is the problem however, there is another way and a Single host a single process can host multiple enclaves and this is a very interesting feature of SGX enclaves inside the one memory Insulated environment you can put multiple. I mean process you can put multiple enclaves. So Your program can consist of multiple mutually distrusted components located inside different enclaves What can be what application can be for example? You have a message server like it's MPP server and you want to make Group chats you can put a one group chat inside one enclave another group chat another another enclave So they will be protected in in the case of interusion this data will be protected obviously and at the same time Since it's the one single service Clients should you or should have a mechanism for to interact through enclaves another example was considered by People from Microsoft. Thank you very nice exact multi-party computation when you have multiple mutually distrusted binaries, but those binaries Bill which belong to different owners should perform a mathematical function or Find the consensus or make a decision together without involve without Exposing of internal values in the simple case you have several Isolated parties each party has is located inside of the enclave For example, this enclave has a secret value inside and three parties should Perform a mathematical sum without in exposing of open values So for that again, you need to have multiple enclaves You need to have a mechanism for interaction between them and at the same time It should be one unique application, but not a distributed set of desolated or distributed set of different applications and to implement such applications you need to have a programming framework and you need to have a necessary system support and I think the right way is to do this by the applying of the actor on the conception of actors Because actors conceptually are not blocking entities and and therefore and they follow the conception of no sharing So you don't need to involve synchronization primitives So you don't need to leave an enclave. You don't need to develop mechanism for synchronization is in the enclave So it's a very easy so they don't use locks In conception, they are very lightweight. So it's a very nice from the point of view of another problem related to sgx enclaves It's a EPC problem. So there is a problem of paging if the size of falling cleaves reaches Let's say near 92 megabytes. So actors And of course, there are many actor-based systems and the problem that they very heavy It's very complicated. Well, it's not very complicated to port Let's say a long VM into sgx. The question is what overhead will you have if you port this? so we we can use but this very high overhead Erlang Java and Conceptually those frameworks are not tailored for Trusted execution environment. So yes, you can run it, but they are not you they they don't use features of In place and that's the reason why I decided we need another framework and I will present you today So it's the actors is the actor-based framework As many other factor-based frameworks To describe it, I will answer three questions. What an actor is what is an actor? How does actor communicate and what system support the framework provides? This figure shows a general view of the actor of the application of an application written in this framework, so there are several enclaves one in two and There are actors They are called the actor in the it's a notion of an actor in this framework. So there are four actors and Two actors are located inside one enclave to other actors located in another enclave and there are workers Workers technically are p threads physical threads That's provided execution context for actors So actors itself are passive entities and they can act only if they have Execution context and there are bindings between actors and enclaves for example, you see two actors inside this enclave two actors inside this enclave Workers to CPUs. It's a CPU affinity. You can say that this thread will work will be attached to this CPU It can be very useful from the point of view of performance and optimization and actors to workers as I said workers provide execution context to create this application you need to Have the framework the source code of your actors and the XML file that describes the deployment scenario itself, so The be the number one aim of the framework is to provide the very simple tools Which help you to build a very flexible application today For example, you wanted to put all actors inside one enclave tomorrow Let's say you want to have five different enclaves and the switching between actors between enclaves should be very very easy from the point of view of the developer and Deployment scenarios are encoded in or stored inside an XML while you don't need to fix the source code of your Application if you want to change the deployment and the framework itself generates binary binaries of Enclave so for example, we have five way enclaves the framework will generate you five different Enclave and each enclave will have only Uses it inside this enclave source code of actors So they're very lightweight without unnecessary code inside And this is a very simple application. So there is a constructor for an actor. So this a constructor initialize that usually initializes Communication interface between other actors and actors. This is the body function of the actor So by definition an actor can interact with other actors only by messages So actually what's going on we receive or send message and we will react We're this actor reacts if this actor receives a message point from another actor Question number one how does actor can interact with each other and they use nodes It's a abstraction which describes. It's a fundamental abstractions for messaging for messaging So it's technically it's a part of memory and this part of memory can be Trusted located inside an enclave or can be untrusted located outside an enclave It consists of two components. There is a header and there is a payload. So it's a just There is payload as memory for data and there is a header header is used to enqueue and to enqueue multiple nodes into queues and All nodes are located at the start. So it's part of the framework Then the framework provides API to deal with those queues. So very obvious double-linked list with Lee 4 and 5 for interfaces synchronization of Notes are protected by the use of hardware localization It's a very very high performance synchronization mechanism without any side effects compared without any side effects and This primitive can be used by Multi-producers and multi-consumers. So you just have a queue there You have set of factors that can write to this queue and set of factors that read from this queue Let's consider an example. We have two actors ping and punk and they located inside different enclave to send a message from enclave one to enclave two The first actor should have access to pull off empty messages and to inbox abstraction So firstly ping needs to dequeue an empty node from pool Right and after that the first actor will get exclusive access to this node No one else can read and write it and even access to refer somehow Then enclave can that actor can write data inside this enclave and side this node Then this node must be included into an inbox. So that and then by the way can be encrypted to non-encrypted Should be and huge into inbox at the same time the second actor tries to dequeue messages from the same inbox and succeed it will get Success it will get exclusive access again Safely read data inside that enclave decrypted if it's if it's necessary and then it needs to read me it need to return It needs to return Use it node back to the pool. So very simple and This abstraction can be as I said can be used by multi producers and multi consumers But by default communication are not encrypted So you mean because because of multiple reasons and the framework provides more complicated abstractions on top of this very simple interface those abstractions are called car coaster connectors and They provide Encrypted can can be encrypted to non encrypted with absolutely the same interface So for example today you have two actors you place it those two actors inside an enclave and obviously you don't need to use encryption because Because those Actors are protected by his geeks itself. So therefore you don't need to spend time to encrypt it But tomorrow let's say you want to create two independent enclaves put two different actor into different enclaves And obviously you need to have a mechanism for which which you encrypt your messages and car coaster connectors offer this Abstraction so with the same source code just by switching one or two source line of code you can turn your Non-encrypted messages into encrypted messages. However, of course there are It's not for free. So this interface can be used only by single producer single consumer peer-to-peer form But the framework for Mechanisms for remote for local attestation during the key exchange procedure So if you have let's say five enclaves with five different actors And those actors have five in the four. Let's say independent Communication channels the framework will generate necessary glue Necessary Check sounds which will help you to establish Encrypted connections by the use of local attestation What's what else the framework offers several system components Because you cannot use well, you shouldn't use E-calls inside an enclave and therefore you need to use messages to get access to System companies that are unavailable inside the enclave For that the framework offers system Actors, they are untrusted they're working outside the enclaves and they interact with all other actors by the messages Because it's actor-based framework. So for example And those actors implement mechanisms so that can be a system call for read for write for pipe for interaction with pipe Read write to the file system if you want. So it's just mechanism And you for example, if you want to open the file, you need to send a message this actor will perform this mechanism It will open the file and send back file descriptor So the same system actor can be simultaneously used by multiple other actors because because it doesn't Store it doesn't have a state Another thing so now we can have access to any hardware from our in-clays is the same interface and But anyway, sometimes you need to have a mechanism to To don't To store data inside an enclave is outshare the state. It's a sound a bit strange. I will explain so Conceptually actors cannot have state and cannot have access to share it entity, but at the same time Instead of saying for example have a one message and you need to send this message to let's say five or ten Actors and since this message is absolutely the same Sending five or ten sequential messages is inefficient so in Actors-based framework there is a conception of Object store which is not a store as a share it entity So you may consider object store as a set of cues a set of persistent cues where you put data But into this queue, but this Data can be accessed by or reading by multiple actors without Without any problems. So the framework offers the e-access object store. It's a technically it's a atomic k-value store It can be private. It can be public. So it's not an active entity. It's a set of apis so Set of apis that can be invoked by actors So any piece of memory if it has a necessary size can be turned into object store and Actors who has access to it can read and write to the store Also this store can be Persistent for example you can map A file into untrusted memory and turn this map it memory into object store so it will have persistence on demand That's all regarding the design the Question which I want to show you the answer later is to show you how to how fast is the communication primitives because The original motivation was we want to ammede the use of E-calls and or-calls and for that we use asynchronous messages are how fast are they? for that let's consider two and two actors located inside different enclaves and in this case they use E-calls to leave an enclave to send the message to another one and Messages used by and and boxes used by two different actors written on top of different work So this is very simple ping-pong Example we is one messages with this messages Have different size starting from 60 bytes up to one megabyte half of a megabyte Two threads so there is thread one. There is the rule everything is honest again different threads Just the same actors just different synchronization mechanism This is the performance of of the SDK As you can see there is a pike which is near 32 K. It's exactly size of the first line cache Because when you transfer message from Trusted area to trust it by the use of or-calls there is a martial in mechanism which copies data from one memory to another and Obviously if this memory fits into the a1 cache this works very very fast So this is the end of the cache and it has let's say steady a layer after 128 K And this is the performance for your actors so much much faster Very fast And because I was using in this example Cargos so as I said you can very easily to switch from it was to switch a cargo from encrypted into non-encrypted former vice-versa This is the performance for encrypted cargoes. So encrypted even encrypted cargoes approximately Three times faster than non-encrypted non-encrypted equal-basic messages and the difference between Non-encrypted cargoes and equals approximately 30 times So this interface is very fast and you can write very very high performance application on top of this framework Sources are available You can check if you want there are several examples here There is a template so which which shows an ordinary hello-world application There are there is a set of various pinepongs that use encrypted non-encrypted Cargo-basic the non-cargo-basic messages. Also, there is network version of this pinepong application And there is a huge set of various forms of local attestation Diffie-Hailman and something else So at least there's your three different pinepongs Which use different for mechanisms to establish an encrypted connection? Also, there is an example for secure multi-party computation. It's a secure assume or some the e-octr subject store and there is an HTTP web server Which provides SSL connection? Yes, unfortunately this address is wrong, but there is a service primat Dot IBR here should be primat. It's the title. It's a group site It's a site of our group and this site is Hosted on top of the framework. So it shows how how exactly you can terminate SSL inside an enclave and how you can write HTTP based application on top of this framework Let's talk about future plans Because this project was a kind of a research project. It's written in C very safe language Obviously, you may ask a lot of questions about the applicability of this framework in general and one of the primary problem Is how to make the programming language and the environment more? Let's say more safe. So currently I'm working on the hardening of Of the framework here will be instrumentation mechanism Provided by LLVM which will Limit of memory access that can be accessed by different actors. So we at the end this mechanism will help solve problems related to Uncontrolled access to memory by the C language Mechanisms for partitioning because the framework provides mechanism for easy Deployment and obviously it will be nice to have a mechanism to self deployment or Self partitioning of and of actors because actors are independent that They can be split it without or partition it without any any dependencies and problems So this is the another direction of the work Of course multi-enclave applications so though so the framework was developed to To give a tool to build such multi-enclave applications The HTTP server will be improved. It will support multiple domains and There is there is there are some additional ideas related to IOT and Currently the framework relies on the Intel SGX SDK Which is not very good from performance from security point of view. So probably we will try to Remove this legacy So Thank you very much Questions Yes, please I cannot give you numbers but conceptually All the synchronous cues asynchronous called by SGX SDK and these interface they absolutely I mean conceptually is the same you have to tread one thread inside an enclave once a one thread another Outsided enclave and there is charit memory, which is used to enqueue and dequeue a data So it will be the primitive as a primitive. It's a near the same as a limitation. Well, I Cannot compare this which less cold but calls but There is no many things that you can apply so you can use atomic instructions you can use hardware localization and you can use In nothing else. So maybe two two approaches and spin locks. So three different approaches. So they near the same performance These scales differently, but conceptually the same So you can assume that Switchless calls mean has near the same performance Yes, please Like So the question is How local attestation works I will paraphrase this if you don't mind So the framework provides Primitives to create Encrypted channels by the use of local attestation and during the compiling fast the environment generates Signatures so a marine clave if you know what is it signatures of each enclave and You need to have let's say the root of trust so some one enclave that includes all marine claves Signatures inside so it's a sequential process. There is a root of trust There is the first enclave this enclave has a set of all or maybe subset of enclaves Communication channels and then you establish one two three four five. Let's say and sequentially They perform local attestation. So of course it's Cannot be very general approach. So currently it's tailored for Sequential initialization of in place and sequential generation of encrypted channels but this Job significant this environment significantly reduces the complexity of this procedure So if you can map your application to this design so like you can Sequentially establish connections between several in place Yes, you can apply in this framework immediately and the framework will generate necessary parts. Otherwise, well, otherwise you will need to Create let's say a Z got or something very Initial very very root of root of trust and this root of trust will establish connections between different Enclave so this will require you to modify the framework. Yes, please Managed Very very good question. The question is what about namespace inside it inside the network inside the framework to distinguish different actors and I would say no, there is no mechanism there is no mechanism for that because come you are absolutely right. So name discovery so this car or mechanism beach maps that maps Actors to unique names Well would be it's very complicated in general in distributed systems. So in the framework There is a mechanism for naming at it and identification of actors at the source code level so a tool which A tool that generates Binary's know something about source code of actors and their names But there is no independent mechanism for name discovery Yeah question I Wouldn't say this is a very recent so this diagram let's say two years old I would say that Each each microcode update cuts performance Very very significant I would say so this is the problem of updates Exactly The question is do Is this the right way to use messages instead of for equals At the beginning I did not consider so at some moment for some applications I thought that the use of equals is okay, but Now I don't think so. So I still believe that and I see this in numbers that a synchronous interface is much better However, it has significant drawback Because you cannot stop a threat inside the enclave and this threat anyway, we'll need to leave the enclave at some moment so And which means that anyway at some moment for some reason Or due to the reasons of scalability all any of my threat will leave them in place So in some form or call still exist, but the programming model doesn't rely on this that that's the pot. This is important Yes, please Please okay, how much time do you have? Yes, please As his own machine or version machine and then So what you're suggesting is that we get all bring off one single CPU and therefore get more efficiency because stuff is running More locally now this bears the question If we have to be distributed models right now Can you map them to your local thing? So assume this stuff is already running as people will be okay We want to do this First of all, yes Distributed the problems of distributed computing Applied for this design. Absolutely without any Exempt, let's say. I also consider this form of secure multiparty computation is a Mechanism to improve performance exactly so instead of let's say five different Separate machines like servers located in different Countries, let's say you have a platform where you upload your binaries and there they represent your original server and In this local in this local place They can compute much faster and then go back. Let's say that so that's the design in the background But but of course the problems related to try I mean the consensus Every funny BFT a raft and other stuff can be applied and should be of course We we don't solve this and we cannot solve this I think Locally on a Okay, thank you When you schedule your actor Because Firstly you can provide some mechanisms for some of the mechanism for setting Affinity was it exactly for this so when you want to color kate your code and data within the same core of the same core and If you want to and if you need a mechanism for scheduling this this mechanism also can be implemented at their Assignment level not inside in the source code. However This not It's not the primary approach to solve this problem I mean the problem when you need to leave an enclave and the best way I found it's not a part of the framework, but you need to have a Let's say at some moment when you cannot Get a message you need to leave an enclave manually, but you do this for not random, but Let's say statically identify statistically identified in per interval of time. There is nothing better. Oh, I don't know Thank you


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Make use of this opportunity and with this positive note, let us move on to the news article discussion. See today we have 4 different news articles. In this first news article discussion, we will be discussing about whistle blowers. We will be seeing about their significance and issues faced by them and some of the legal protections provided by government to the whistle blowers. So following that, our second news article discussion will be about swapping policy for electric vehicles. Then we will be seeing a news article discussion regarding mangrove forest. And finally, we will end our discussion by discussing about Chola Dynacity. So now without wasting much time, let us get into the news article discussion. Today let us start our discussion with this news article discussion. Look at this article. This article talks about Ms. Sophie Zhang, who is a data scientist and a whistle blower. She worked at Facebook between 2018 and 2020. She worked in Site Integrity Fake Engagement Team, which was created to deal with boat accounts. While investigating these fake accounts, Ms. Zhang, she uncovered abusive political manipulation and opposition harassment networks in 25 countries, including India. She was about to depose before the Standing Committee on Communication and Information and Technology. So here deposition is a formal written statement made by a witness, which can be used in a court of law if the witness cannot be present. But the parliamentary rules require speakers' consent for witnesses to participate in meetings through videoconference from abroad. So the permission was sought from the speaker to allow Ms. Zhang's deposition. The speaker is yet to take the decision and this is the news here. So with this as the background, we will learn about whistleblowers today, their importance, issues faced by them, and legal protection given by government for whistleblowers. Before that the syllabus relevant to this article is highlighted here for your reference. Just go through it. First of all, who is a whistleblower? See whistleblowers reports illegal activities within an organization. A whistleblower is a person who could be an employee of a company or a government agency who disclose information to the public or some higher authority about any wrongdoings which could be in the form of fraud, corruption, etc. A whistleblower could be an employee, contractor or a supplier who becomes aware of any illegal activities. So have this basic understanding. There are two types of whistleblowers. They are internal whistleblowers and external whistleblowers. Internal whistleblowers are those who report the misconduct, fraud or indiscipline to senior officers of the organization such as head human resource or CEO. Internal whistleblowing is a term used when whistleblowers report the wrongdoings to people outside the organization such as the media, higher government officials or police. Now what is the significance of whistleblowing? Is it right to do it? See whistleblowing is one of the most effective way to detect and prevent corruption and other mall practices. Whistleblowers, disclosures have exposed wrongdoings and fraud helped to save millions in public funds, avoid disasters for health, environment, etc. Whistleblowers' important role in safeguarding the public good is repeatedly proved by the scandals they uncover such as industry scale tax avoidance like Panama Papers and money laundering like Dunscape Bank scandal, many like that. Many more cases of wrongdoings could have been prevented if more people had come forward to expose problems to their organizations, the authorities or the media. Unfortunately reporting often comes at a high price. Whistleblowers risk their career, their livelihood and sometimes their personal safety to expose wrongdoings that threatens the public interest. They may be fired, sued, blacklisted, arrested, threatened or in extreme cases even assaulted or killed. And in some societies whistleblowing carries concussions of betrayal rather than being seen as a benefit to the public. The three main reasons people give for not reporting corruption are firstly fear of consequences like legal, financial and reputational consequences, secondly the belief that nothing will be done that it will not make any difference, thirdly uncertainty about how, where and to whom to report. See protecting whistleblowers from unfair treatment including retaliation, discrimination or disadvantage can give courage to people to report wrongdoings. So companies, public bodies and non-profit organizations should introduce mechanisms for internal reporting. See a protective environment for whistleblowers is crucial to allow them to report instances of malpractices without having to face the dilemma of doing the right thing and risking one's career or remaining silent at the expense of the public good. In India, whistleblowers were protected by the Whistleblowers Protection Act 2014. See the Whistleblowers Protection Act 2014 enables any person that is a whistleblower to report an act of corruption, willful misuse of power or discretion or criminal offence by a public servant. This includes all public servants including ministers, members of parliament, the lower judiciary, regulatory authorities, central and state government employees etc. Such disclosures are made to a specified competent authority who must conduct a discrete inquiry and conceal the identity of the complainant and public servant. That is the act specifies the competent authority for each category of public servant. For example it would be the prime minister for a union minister, speaker or chairman for members of parliament, the chief justice of the High Court for district court judges, the central or state vigilance commission for government servants and remember competent authority has the power to issue appropriate direction to the concerned government authorities including police which should take necessary steps to protect such complainant or public servant or persons concerned. The competent authority has also had a responsibility to protect the identity of the complainant and documents or information furnished by him. The competent authority also prepares a consolidated annual report of the performance of its activities and submit it to the central or state government that will be further laid before each house of parliament or state legislature. Remember the act prohibits two categories of information from being disclosed. This included information related to sovereignty, strategy, scientific or economic interest of India, foreign relations or the incitement of an offence and secondly proceedings of the council of ministers. The act is not applicable to the special protection group or SPG personal and officers constituted under the special protection group act 1988. Remember this fact. Note that any person who reveals the identity of a complainant will be punishable with imprisonment for a term extending up to three years and a fine which may extend up to 50,000 rupees. See strengthening of the whistleblower protection mechanism will help in ensuring that the integrity of democracy is protected, cherished and upheld. So that's all about this news article discussion. In this news article discussion we saw about whistleblowers, we saw who is the whistleblower in that we saw two types of whistleblowers namely the internal whistleblower and the external whistleblower then we saw the significance of whistleblowing and finally we saw some of the features of the whistleblowing protection act 2014. So with these learnt points now let us move on to the next news article discussion. Now let us see this article that was in the business page. See this article is about the draft battery swapping policy released by Nithya Yoke. See the policy is targeted at electric two and three wheelers as the government think tank aims to expedite large scale adoption of electric vehicles. So this is the cracks of the news article given here. In this context let us learn more about the battery swapping policy. See we all know India has committed to achieve net zero emissions by 2070 at the 26th conference of parties or COP26 in November 2021 right. This will require clear pathways to decorbonise high gritos gas or GHG intensive sectors such as transport and energy. So to decorbonise transport the transition to clean mobility led by electric vehicles or EVs is very important. So that is why electric vehicles are given more importance and with this commitment now let us see about the electronic vehicles. See electric vehicles are traditionally purchased with fixed batteries which can only be charged using the power supply while housed within the electric vehicle. Like petrol diesel fueling stations for internal combustion engines vehicles are required affordable accessible and reliable charging networks or a prerequisite for mass electric vehicle adoption efforts or underway in India to boost the availability of charging infrastructure but the problem here is charging takes significantly longer than refuelling an internal combustion engine and this is where battery swapping becomes relevant and it is seen as an alternative to charging the electric vehicles. See battery swapping means exchanging discharged batteries for charged ones and providing flexibility to charge them separately. So this de-links charging and battery usage and keeps the vehicle in operational mode with negligible downtime. See this battery swapping is generally used for small vehicles such as two-wheelers and three-wheelers with smaller batteries that are easy to swap compared to four-wheelers and e-buses. So here battery swapping offers three key advantages related to charging. The first one is time, next is space because there will be no need for multiple charging stations and thirdly it is cost efficient provided each swappable battery is actively used and with this understanding now let us see about the other features of the policy. See battery swapping falls under the broader umbrella of battery as a service business models which involve users purchasing an electric vehicle without the battery which significantly lowers upfront cost and paying a regular subscription fee like daily, weekly or monthly etc. See this fee is to the service providers for battery services throughout the vehicle lifetime and the policy stipulates the minimum technical and operational requirements that battery swapping ecosystems would need to fulfil. And this is to enable effective, efficient, reliable, safe and customer friendly implementation of battery swapping infrastructure. And the policy also highlights the possible ways in which various national and subnational government agencies and public sector enterprises or PSCs may provide direct and indirect financial support to battery providers for the cost of the batteries and electric vehicle users for the upfront cost of purchasing electric vehicles with the aim of driving electric vehicle adoption by lowering the cost of electric vehicles for users relatively to internal combustion engine vehicles. Apart from this the policy emphasises enabling innovation in adoption of possible business models and de-risking the investment in required infrastructure to encourage private sector participation and attract affordable financing. And more importantly the policy underlines the importance of reuse of end of first life swappable batteries and recycling of end of life batteries. And the policy also lays the groundwork to create unique battery codes for ACC batteries falling under this policy. Finally, this policy lays down an institutional framework to facilitate on-ground implementation of the required battery swapping infrastructure and to realise the stated policy objectives. And that is all about the overview of the policy. In this news article discussion we saw why this draft battery swapping policy is necessary. Then we saw about battery swapping. We saw what actually battery swapping means. Battery swapping is nothing but exchanging discharged batteries for charged ones and providing flexibility to charge them separately. So this process actually delinks charging and battery usage and keeps the vehicle in operational mode with negligible downtime. Then we saw some of the advantages of battery swapping. Then we finally saw about some of the important features of the draft policy. So with these learnt points now let us move on to the next news article discussion. See this article here it is about the Pichawaram mangroves. See Pichawaram mangrove forest in the coastal Kadaloo district is a storehouse of biodiversity and it is considered the second largest in the country after West Bengal's Sundabans. See at present on both the sides of the Velar and Kholeron rivers it is a unique ecosystem spread over 1000 hectares. But however Pichawaram has not found the place it deserves on the tourism map of India and this is the essence of the article given here. In this context let us learn about mangroves and the points that are mentioned in the article regarding Pichawaram. First of all what are mangroves? See mangroves are diverse group of salt tolerant plant communities. They commonly occur in tropical and subtropical intertidal regions of the world that is between latitude 24 degree north and 38 degree south. Interestingly they exhibit varied morphological and physiological evolutionary adaptations to survive. See mangroves can be seen in intertidal region. So the challenging factor like lack of oxygen, high salinity and diurnal tidal inundation all will be present in order to overcome these plant adopt to some kind of adaptation. For example succulent leaves, sunken, stomata, aerial breathing roots called nematopores, vibipary, stilt roots, patruses etc or some of the adoptations exhibited by mangroves. And the specific regions where these plants occur or termed as mangrove ecosystem they are highly productive but extremely sensitive and fragile. Remember these facts and with this basic understanding about the mangroves now let us see about the distribution of mangroves in India. See the distribution of mangrove ecosystem on Indian coastlines indicates that the Sundarman mangrove Hockupai very large area followed by Andaman Nicobar Islands and Gulf of Kachin, Gujarat. Rest of the mangrove ecosystem is comparatively smaller. Here is the list of states which have mangroves just go through it. Very important fact that you have to remember with respect to problems. Now coming to Pichawaram mangroves. As we already saw this mangrove is actually sandwiched between two primitive estuaries, the Velar estuary in the north and Kolarun estuary in the south. The Velar Kolarun estuary complex forms the Kili backwater and Pichawaram mangroves. The source of freshwater to this mangrove is from both the estuaries and that of sea water in Bay of Bengal. Very very important fact make note of them. According to the article it is said that the tourism potential of the place has not been fully realized. This is because at most the visitors are taken on a boat ride through the numerous creeks in the ecosystem. See at present Tamil Nadu Tourism Development Corporation or TTDC operates a boathouse and according to forest department eco-friendly cottages and dormitories were damaged during the 2004 tsunami. Since then no efforts were taken by the government to restore the damage caused by the tsunami. The revenue from the boat rides goes to Irular community, the rest is spent on the welfare of tribal families in traditional settlements in the area. See the ecosystem should be protected because mangroves are the first line of defense for coastal communities and play a major role in minimizing the impacts of natural disasters like tsunami, floods and cyclones. According to the article the biggest threat in the area is the proliferation of shrimp farms. See the farms are illegally drawing water from the natural creeks in the mangrove ecosystem apart from this irresponsible visitors littering sensitive areas are also a cause for concern. Owing to this reason government planned a master plan for the development of Pichawaram with help of locals. The proposal included development of eco-friendly stays for visitors and other service infrastructure. The idea is to involve the local communities in the activities and generate revenue for them. This is a step in promoting sustainable community based tourism. This is crucial because the local communities that is Irulas and their knowledge of ecosystem and its biodiversity is a great asset. So that's all you have to know about from this news article discussion. In this news article discussion we saw about mangroves, we saw some of its unique features then we saw the distribution of mangrove ecosystem in India and finally we saw in brief about Pichawaram mangroves and some of the issues with respect to the ecosystem. So with these learned points now let us move on to the next news article discussion. See this article here it is about the temple in Kone Rajapuram. See it was constructed by Sembian Mahadevi as per the inscriptions and the hymns of Saivite saints Tirunavakarasar and Tiranyana Samandar. See the temple is also where the tallest bronze Nairaja idol of the Chola period is located and this is the essence of the article given here. In this context let us learn about the Chola empire from Pram's point of view. See as you know powerful kingdoms had risen in southern India during the sixth and eighth centuries among them Pallavas and Pandyas dominated Tamil Nadu and the Cheras dominated the modern Kerala and the Chalukyas dominated the Deccan area. See the Chola empire rose in the ninth century which dominated a large part of the Peninsula. With this basic info let us see some of the important facts of the Chola empire. See the empire is found by Vijayalaya he was a feudatory of Pallavas. He captured Tanjur in 850 AD at the end of ninth century Chola defeated Pallavas of Kanji and weakened Pandyas. This brought the entire south Tamil region under their control. Now we will see some of the important Chola rulers. The greatest Chola ruler were Raja Raja and his son Rajendra I. See Raja Raja destroyed the Chera navy at Trivandrum and attacked Quilon. He conquered Madurai and captured Pandya king. He also invaded Sri Lanka and annexed its northern part to the Chola empire. One of his naval exploits include the conquest of Maldives and he annexed the north western parts of the Ganga kingdom in Karnataka and Rajendra I he carried forward the annexationist policy of his father Raja Raja. Rajendra completely overran Pandya and Chera kingdoms. He also fully annexed Sri Lanka and Sri Lanka was not able to free Hursal from the Chola empire for another 50 years. One of the most remarkable exploits is the march across Kalinga to Bengal in which the Chola armies crossed Ganga river and defeated two local kings. To commemorate this occasion Rajendra I assumes the title of Gangaikonda Chola that is the Chola who conquered the Ganga. He built a new capital in the mouth of Kaveri river and called it as Gangaikonda Cholapuram. So in this map you can see the extent of the Chola empire. See the Chola sent naval expeditions to Sri Vijaya empire which includes Malaya Peninsula, Sumatra, Java and neighboring islands and the Vijaya empire controlled trade route to China. In order to remove obstacles to Indian traders and to expand trade with China Chola conquests Kadaram and a number of other places in Malaya Peninsula and Sumatra. The Chola navy was the strongest and for some period the Bay of Bengal was called the Chola lake. See the Chola empire continued to flourish till 13th century after that Chola was taken down by the Pandyas and Hursalyas. So with these basic understanding now let us see the characteristics of the empire. See the king was the important person in the Chola administration. Chola's authority rested with him and he had a council of ministers to advise him. Cholas maintained a large army consisting of elephant, cavalry, infantry. They are called the three limbs of the army. The Cholas also had a strong navy which dominated Malabar and Coromandel coast and for some time the entire Bay of Bengal. The Chola state included area of central control. The basic unit of administration is called Nado which consisted a number of villages having a close kinship. Nado's were grouped into Bala Nado's and the entire Chola state were divided into four mandalams or provinces. Sometimes princes of the royal family were appointed as the governors of the provinces. See make note of these words. There might be a question in the preliminary examination. Apart from this the Cholas built a network of roads which were used for trade and the movement of the army. The Chola also paid attention to irrigation. Many tanks for irrigation were built. Water from cavalry and other rivers were used for the purpose. Now coming to revenue the Cholas drew income from land tax, toll on trade, tax on professions and also from the plunder of the neighboring countries. Coming to the cultural part see the temple architecture in the south attained its climax under the Cholas. The style of architecture that was prevalent during this period was Dravidian style of architecture. The main feature of the style is building many storey above the Garbaghraha. This is the innermost chamber where the chief deity resides. And the number of storeys above came to be called as Vimana. We know that right. A pillard hall called Mandaba with carved structures and flat roof were generally placed in front of the Santam. It acted as an audience hall and a place for ceremonial dances performed by Devadasis. An example for such an architecture include Brahadishwara temple in Tanjur built by Raja Raja I. So that's all you have to know about Chola Empire. In this news article discussion we in briefly saw about Chola dynasty. So with these learn points now let us move on to the next part of the news article discussion which is nothing but the preliminary practice questions. Now look at this first question. Consider the following statements with reference to mangroves in India. Statement 1. In India mangroves can be only seen in Vispingal and Andaman and Nicobar islands. Statement 2. Mangroves are tropical and salt tolerant plants. Which of the above statements is or are correct. Option A 1 only. Option B 2 only. Option C both 1 and 2 and option D neither 1 nor 2. See the correct answer for the question is option B 2 only. First statement is incorrect. See in the discussion itself we saw a map regarding this right. The distribution of mangrove ecosystem on Indian coastlines indicates that the Sundarband mangroves occupy very large area followed by Andaman Nicobar islands and Gulf of Kachin, Gujarat. Rest of the mangrove ecosystems is comparatively smaller. 10 coastal states in India have mangrove distribution in different amounts. So statement 1 is incorrect here. Now moving on to statement 2. Statement 2 is correct because as we saw in the discussion mangroves or diverse group of salt tolerant plant communities they commonly occur in tropical and subtropical intertidal regions of the world. That is between latitude 24 degree north and 38 degree south. And also they exhibit varied morphological and physiological evolutionary adaptations to survive. We saw that right. So second statement is correct here. So the correct answer for the question is option B 2 only. Now moving on. Now look at this second question. This question is about Chola Empire. Consider the following statements with reference to the Chola Empire. 1. The founder of Chola dynasty was Rajaraja Chola. Statement 2. Chola Empire had army with elephants, cavalry and infantry but they did not have any naval force. Which of the above statements is or are correct? Option A 1 only, option B 2 only, option C both 1 and 2 and option D neither 1 nor 2. See the correct answer for the question is option D neither 1 nor 2. See statement 1 is incorrect. Because the Chola dynasty was founded by Vijayalaya Chola in 850 A.D. So the founder is not Rajaraja Chola. It is Vijayalaya. He was a feudatory of Pallavas. Now moving on to second statement. Second statement is also incorrect. Because see in our discussion we saw that Chola Empire had army with elephants, cavalry and infantry. This part is correct. But the second part is incorrect. Because in the discussion itself we saw that the Chola navy is the strongest one in the area. So the second part of this statement is incorrect. We saw that it annexed Sri Lanka, held expeditions to Malaya Peninsula, Sumatra and Java right and even where Bengal is called Chola lake. So this statement is incorrect. Now the correct answer for this question is option D neither 1 nor 2. Displayed here are the main questions for today's discussion. Just go through the questions write an answer and post it in the comment section. 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