I'm happy to be here, actually. It was always my ambition to do a keynote like this. And the original idea was sparked exactly a year ago at this very event, just around the corner in the speaker room. I was noticing how other keynote speakers were preparing, and I thought, this is something I want to do. And that was my screw it, I'll do it moment. And I submitted an idea that's been on my mind for a couple of years, and now here we are. The idea is prefaced around the fact that you could set yourself up for success if you want to, based on positive mental attitude. And I also believe in the fact that you should be displaying and expressing the thing you are passionate about, because we're all passionate about something. I'm 100% sure of that. Now, unfortunately, a lot of cases, people attribute that success or that quest for success based on luck. Now, I'm here to tell you that luck is heavily overrated, and luck is often confused with another term, a term we call chance. Luck is within our control, more or less. Chance is completely beyond our control. It's completely random. Now, in order to be successful or in order to go for your quest for success, you need to control a set of variables. I'm using the metaphor of a juggler juggling pins here. These pins represent variables, aspects you need to control. The more variables you can control, the more you can control the outcome, your destiny, if you will.  Maybe even ones we don't know exist. That's what this talk is about. Now, we all know the typical cliche in order to be successful or in order to have certain opportunities. You need to be at the right place, at the right time. We know this cliche right. But you could still be there when the action happens, where the action happens, and the opportunity could still slip away from you. And that's why I would like to add something. There's some space left on the slide. You have to be in the right place, right time, in the right mindset. That's important. And that mindset is based on a set of aspects. This is just a couple of things we're gonna talk about, about positivity, belief, skill, effort, all that kind of stuff. That being said, hi, I'm Taze. Good to see you here. I really enjoy being here. I've spoken at many PHP conference. I've attended many PHP UK conferences. It's always cool to be in the UK. I mean that. I'm just saying here because I stand here. I'm a technical evangelist at a Belgian web hosting company called Combelle. And you can reach me on social media if you want that on these different channels. Now there's a danger to it, I know.  Previous time I've done this talk, people actually did criticize me and I learned a lot from that. So by all means do so. If you're fair, I'm willing to be fair as well. I do have to acknowledge something. I have to acknowledge that I'm gonna talk about going for success and achieving your goals. It's easy, relatively easy for me. I will admit and I will use it as a disclaimer that I could speak here from a position of relative privilege. I don't come from an underrepresented group. I've come from a safe area. I've had good upbringing. I don't suffer from mental health issues. So you could say, well, it's kind of easy for you. But I accept that and I wanna acknowledge that. What I would also like to mention is that for any individual, every individual, everyone has its own challenges, its own obstacles, its own things that are going wrong. And they might seem really tiny in the grand scheme of things and very relative, but to each individual it is very much real. So I just wanna put that out there that you see this from this perspective. A perspective from someone who didn't have too many challenges in the grand scheme of things, but still one driver for me that was the reason why I'm doing whatever I'm doing. And it was the fact that when I was in school, people told me I wouldn't belong here. And I'm not talking about, I'm gonna stand right in the middle, in this room, this stage, but this very industry, people told me I did not belong here.  I'm not that good at logical reasoning. Everything scientific is tricky for me. And I like languages. I study languages, I study French, Dutch, English, German, Latin, all that stuff. And they told me no taste based on that skill set and the limitations you have, you will not make it. Who needs communication skills in IT anyway? 1999, who needs that anyway? And you know what I did? I disregarded that advice and I said, you know what, I'm gonna tune out of this conversation because I'm really passionate about computers. I'm not the typical profile of a lot of developers here, but I still wanna be in this industry and I wanna use the skills I have and acknowledge the limitations that I have. And I disregarded it, I studied IT, I graduated and I did have some issues with maths in school. But regardless of that, I did an exchange program and I went to Finland for three months and that's where I got most of my inspiration to get things done. I quickly realized there that the world is a lot bigger than the small town, Dixmerde, where I come from in Belgium. So it's a lot bigger, there's an international aspect to it. My project that I had to do on that exchange program was based upon PHP, a language I didn't know until that point. Little did I know, it would bring me here with you lovely people. So that was an indirect consequence. And I also realized that I didn't wanna continue studying because if I would pursue a master's degree, it would require lots of maths, logical reasoning, algorithmic stuff, not really my cup of tea. So it was then and there that I decided to apply for a job, apply for a job at a Belgian web hosting company called Combelle. We're really small back then, we're a bit bigger now, we were five or seven people and I saw this job opening for support job, tech support. So that was the ideal way to combine skills that I wasn't supposed to have, right? Communication skills, problem solving skills, helping people and using tech for that. And it went great, it was awesome. But the irony of everything, and that was a huge one for me, is the exact reason I got hired is because I could speak French. I'm not a native French speaker, I could speak French in Belgium, a bilingual country, that's important. I could also write PHP. And wasn't that the ultimate middle finger to people who say I wouldn't amount to anything in IT that I should stay clear of this industry? That was a good one and that's important because you shouldn't take advice from people who say you cannot do something. Of course you have to take criticism, but if someone says to you you can't do something just for the sake of it and you really feel you're passionate about it, maybe you should look the other way. Because I do not believe in demand holding you down, I do not believe in our industry at least, there's systems in place to keep us down, but I do believe in individuals projecting their own frustrations, their own limitations, their own lack of ambitions. So whenever you see that step away and try to do you whatever you means. That's a bit cliche, right? Saying that you can do whatever you want and the world is yours. I'm not sure if that's the case, but if you are passionate enough about something and it could be something ridiculous, but everyone has a passion, everyone has a path and you should just pursue it. And if you don't know what that means or what that means specifically to you, just try to be inspired by people surrounding you. And if you're not in an environment where there's too many inspiring people, just go where the action is. And let's make it very tangible here in our little setting. We are in the PHP community. A lot of the inspiration I got to do, what I wanted to do came from people in this very community, some even sitting in this very room. So my advice would be if you are not fully embedded in the PHP community, why not take a look? And I'm talking about the typical community kumbaya that we're hearing in a lot of cases. I'm talking about real help, real inspiration and real plans and a lot of it came from it because my main source of inspiration in the PHP community was by attending my very first conference back in 2007 in Germany, international PHP conference. And it was right there, right then that I, A, knew I wanted to be in this community and B, I knew eventually I would like to be a speaker.  But when I started out in my job, I took inspiration from our leadership, from our management, really top people. And one of the main things they taught me, and you will not like this, you will absolutely not like this, the thing I was taught in a good way is to be commercial.  If I would tell you that one of your priorities is to be commercial, you'd be like, yeah, whatever. We're not salespeople, we're developers, we're SIS admins, we're project managers, whatever. Now I have to tell you in all walks of life, in every aspect of life, you need to be a bit commercial. And being commercial is not being the sneaky salesperson that grabs money from people's pockets. I'm talking about, there's a sales aspect, a transactional aspect to some items in life, but also a marketing and a branding and a PR aspect. You have to sell yourself, you have to display your passion. Like, if you're passionate about something, good for you, but show the world that you're passionate about something and then things will change. And I also believe that a lot of it has to do with my upbringing. And it's actually the same upbringing as my CEO. Apparently both our mothers run a sort of small mom and pop shop in terms of organic food. So my mom has an organic food store, my CEO's mom has an organic food store, and we're discussing this, like how we were raised in this kind of environment. And I'm gonna show you a little video. This is Little Town in Dixmerda, where I grew up. This is how you enter my mom's store. This is also the pathway to the house. So if you enter, you turn the corner and there's the door to the living room. And whenever I would have to enter, like there's a person coming in, my mom says, hi, this is my mom. Whenever I would pass, I would say hi to the people as well. That would be my job. I was raised as a three-year-old boy. Whenever someone would walk in the store to say hi and represent the brand, that brand was my mom's store, but in whatever you do, you're gonna have to rep your brand as well. And I'm saying that you should be the main ambassador for the company you work for, but whatever brand you wanna represent, primarily your own brand, your personal brand. I was also taught that when my mom wouldn't be available to pick up the phone, I would pick up the phone and represent the brand and welcome the people. And it's actually all about that honest, one-to-one relationship. When we're in business, we talk about business to customer, business to business. I'm just talking about human to human. In all aspects of what you're doing, you're gonna have to interact with humans and you're gonna have to convince them that you are trustworthy and that you can provide value.  So think about what you're passionate about, think about an opportunity that another person can give you, figure out what they honestly need and try to build up an honest, long-term relationship and that will benefit you. That's one of these aspects. Another one is this picture. It's a story about belief. I took a city trip to this very city in 2014. Who can guess the city? It is not San Francisco. This bridge is not the Golden Gate Bridge. Close enough to Eric. Lisbon, indeed. This is Lisbon. And I took a trip there with my wife and a couple that we're friends with and we're about to travel to Lisbon. Just have a nice time out. And the day before I left, I saw this on my Facebook timeline. Apparently Rolling Stones are one of my favorite bands. It's the first concert I saw when I was 11 years old. My dad took me and I noticed that they would be playing that same day I would be there. So I'm like, yes, okay, this needs to happen. I need tickets for this concert. So I contacted my friend Daniel in Lisbon and asked Daniel, can you fix me tickets for this lovely concert I need to be there? He's like, whoa, hold it. This concert has been sold out for months. There's no way you can get in. This is the concert of the year. You will not get tickets. I said, okay, fine. And we did our city tripping thing the first day. The ladies were dead tired. They went to bed early and I took my friend Cedric and I said, you know what? Let's be adventurous. We have everything to gain and nothing to lose. We could just go there and try to buy tickets and try to get in. Knowing that the concert is sold out. So normally you would say, let's not give it a shot because it will not succeed. We went there and indeed it was sold out and we didn't, in the beginning, find a way to get in. And we used the variables that were available. One of the variables was that we saw some young people trying to buy and sell tickets. Buying for 20, selling for 100, 200, whatever. Also knew that the retail price for this concert was 78 euros. So we made sure we had 78 euros in our pocket and we decided not to go over that budget. And we started running around, talking to people and our main enemy and our main friend was the factured time. As long, if we waited a long time, our chances of getting tickets would reduce. But as time progressed, people selling tickets were in risk as well because those would be worthless. 15 minutes before showtime we saw a couple trying to sell us or trying to get rid of tickets at a ridiculous rate and we approached them and were very aggressive. That was the only way time was running out. I said, you know what? Sell us these tickets, we're gonna get it. No, no, no, you're too aggressive. We're not selling them to you. We're gonna be selling them to those kids.  I took the money from my pocket, my friend too. We showed them the money and said, you know what, sell us these tickets.  I put it like that and then they did. And yeah, sorry, yeah. There's a bit of profanity right there. And we went into the show and we went and there was a big surprise for me. Bruce Springsteen was even there. It was like, how can you figure that out in advance? It was one of the best concerts I've ever attended. And it was based on the fact that I believed I would get in there in a sold out concert. Is this the biggest accomplishment of my life? By far not. But it's a great story I will keep telling. And it's a story about believing that things will happen. And you know what? If it didn't happen, I wouldn't have not lost anything. It would have been a great story trying to get in the concert. But I tried and that was a good one. So if you see an opportunity and you believe against better judgment or advice, just go for it. You'll see what happens. Okay, next variable is empathy. You should deploy it as much as you can. I, for that matter, used to have a hard time being empathetic towards other people. I used to be thinking that everyone, every single individual was mentally wired the same way. And I became more empathetic not by realizing that I should be, but by learning it the hard way. I've organized events where I made sure things were arranged in a certain way and people did not like it. And I thought they just didn't like it, but they felt anxiety over certain situations or they weren't comfortable. And I quickly learned aid that I should deploy as much empathy as I can. It will help me diffuse certain situations. But what is equally important is that you should not expect that it comes back to you. You should not expect that people will have empathy for you, because if you do in all circumstances and all situations, you'll get rather disappointed. So what I would say is be nice to people, respect them, see where they're coming from, but don't expect it to come back at you. And when it doesn't come back, this is a controversial one. Please don't complain. Complaining is the worst thing you can do in these situations. And people usually don't listen to other people who complain. I know this is controversial, but I need to put it in the right context. Standing up for what you believe, coming out of an unjust situation and trying to correct that, is not complaining. Complaining is just sitting there and saying, this opportunity didn't come to me and it was my turn and this sense of entitlement. Please do not complain. There's three ways you could deal with these kinds of situations. So there's a situation you do not like. Either you change the situation, or if you feel that it doesn't require too much effort or you're fine with the situation as is or you don't wanna put too much mental energy in it, just leave it as is. And otherwise, door number three is just to circumvent and adapt yourself. Some things you will not change. Please don't complain about them. Find another way or accept it. Don't complain. And if you complain about opportunities not coming your way, you should realize what had happened. And here's another controversial one. Is maybe you did not work hard enough for it. Why is this controversial? Because people think, you're promoting 16 hour workdays and you're not considering burnout and mental health issues. I am, but I'm just putting it out there that everything you will probably do is based on your talent and executing that talent and putting in the hard work. There's no denying it. There's no other way. I know that talent is an accelerator. Talent can accelerate the process, but still you have to put in the work. Now again, I'm not saying you should put in 16 hour workdays and I'm not promoting reaching a point of burnout. What I am saying is that it's just sort of total sum of parts, a tally. The more you add on it, the more it takes a certain shape and the more it turns into something you can wheel and use to your advantage. I'm not a person who's willing to work 16 hours a day. I have a family.   I like going out to football games with my mates. I like hanging out with my wife. I like to do all those things. But whenever something happens and it didn't come my way, I just look at myself and I know, hey, I didn't work hard enough. And the only thing you can have then in that situation is more patience. If you don't want to work that hard, just be more patient. And I'm willing to be more patient. Back in the day, I wasn't that patient and I saw things passing by. I thought, yes, now it's my time. And it just passes by and I didn't get it. And at first I was a bit frustrated and I started complaining, but I knew no one was listening. Why would anyone listen to someone's complaining without having valid arguments? And I knew I didn't work hard enough and I was absolutely fine. And that's an important message. It can be absolutely fine as long as you have the patience. And I know in some circumstances, you look to the right, you see your laptop, it's like, okay, we can do a project there.  And it's up to you to choose. And in many, many instances, I went for the bag of crisps, the couch and the PlayStation. Did I regret it? No, but I did realize that, hey, I'm gonna have to be more patient until something comes. Just a reality. Another reason why probably opportunities didn't come your way is because you lacked a bit of self-awareness. Let's go back to my case.  I'm not that good at logical reasoning. In say, I'm not really a good developer, right? You would think that that would suit me. And in the context I was working at as a support engineer, eventually I got promoted to be the manager of that department and I had to do other things. I have to do people management. I have to take care of the planning and all that kind of stuff. And I noticed that I wasn't too good at that. And I knew I was doing my job all right but the clients were happy but I saw an increasing sense of frustration with my coworkers who said, yeah, okay, the clients are happy but we're not all too happy. And the natural reaction would be, I need to improve those skills. But if you look down deep inside, I knew I was never gonna reach a level where that would be acceptable. And I noticed that some of these skills were present in my team. So I talked to management and actually stepped down and did something else. And someone from my team got promoted and led the team and did it fine. I wanted to help people. I wanted to use my communication skills and I wanted to embed tech. And instead of doing this on this one-to-one basis, I had the fortune enough. Also, a lot of credit goes to the community because I was inspired by PHP communities while I was working as the manager for our support department. I was already hanging around in the community and I was already doing a tiny bit of speaking.  We need someone who carries out the message. It's the same deal. Use communication skills, you use tech skills, help people, but in a broader way. And that I did. So if you're in a position you're not comfortable in and you wanna improve, just think, can I genuinely improve those weaknesses? And if you can't, just think about what you're passionate about, think about what you're good at and try to find a way to do that. That would be one major point of advice. And if you're doing that and you're feeling sure, because there's this thing called the imposter syndrome, you all know this, right? Everyone has that. I had that like 20 minutes ago. Like, am I good here? Can I stand up on this stage? Can I address you? It is very real. But what I also learned is that you should always act like you belong there at every single point. You should have the confidence to stand there. And if you don't, you know what will help you? And it sure helped me. Last year, I was there behind the corner of the speaker's room. And the keynote speakers for last year's edition were sitting there. And there are people that I highly respect, that I consider friends and that I know will do an excellent job. And they were still stressing out. And I was trying to have small talk with them and I said, no, no, not right now. I need to prep this. I'm not sure if this will work. And that was my moment like, okay, when these people are nervous and I consider them, put them in high regard, you know, I'll be fine. And I use that as a mindset like whenever I walk into a situation, I realize that the people who are pulling the strings or running the show might be just as nervous as you are. So just act like you belong there. You'll be fine. I'm not saying fake it till you make it because that's also an angle of this, but you're good at what you do. You should believe in yourself because if you're passionate about something and you've spent a lot of time working your skill, you'll be fine. There's a lot of talkers out there. I'm a talker, but there's doers in there as well. And you just have to show a bit more confidence. And I'm 100% sure that you will be fine. Now, there's also some elements you need to be comfortable with and that you need to respect. It was always my hope to become a speaker. And in the beginning, people didn't really care about me. They didn't know me. I never got selected for any PHP conferences. And maybe there's organizers in the room who sent me the Dear John letters saying, well, it always starts like that. We had an incredible amount of submissions and you know, we're not selected. We had so many, like, no, you're not. I just, I stop reading, just delete. Okay, I'm not part of it. And it led to a bit of frustration. But by working it hard, I managed to get my first shot and then took that one to the next level and the next level and just built on that. And just grind it out, hard work. Not working 16 hours a day, but just a long period of time being patient. It will happen. It will happen. Work it, work it, work it. And I grasped onto that single opportunity and as time progressed, I got invited to more events. And then I realized there's the thing called the process and you should always keep your eyes on that target, the process is the most important thing. What is it that I like? I like speaking. So what do I do? I speak. This size rooms, small rooms. It does not matter. You also have the outcome. The outcome is like, my initial outcome was, I want to do a keynote. Here I am. Is this the outcome? Not really. I like it. I'm really like, if I look in the room, I'm really happy that all these people took the time out of their really busy schedules to be here. But that's not the outcome. You have to push the boundaries because what was okay and what was cool yesterday will probably be just as normal tomorrow. So you'll evolve, you'll level up, but don't put these things as the outcome because otherwise you'll maybe end up bored. But what is more important is to acknowledge certain things that happen as side effects. As you become more successful, I'm not saying you'll become a diva, but some things you experience as normal. If I would experience this size room as normal, I would be disappointed if it was only 50% capacity. And that's important. You have to think about what your process is. My process is speaking. So if there was only one person in this room, if it's only James in this room, I'd be perfectly fine because that's what I do. I speak, that's all I do. And I work hard and everything that happens, I consider as a side effect and as a bonus. And if you respect that, you'll be fine. And you could just have to grind it out. Do lots of it. I think this is my, I've done more than 200 presentations in 15 countries over a period of a decade. And at first I never thought I would be on this stage. I never thought anyone would be interested. My main concern was what I'm gonna say, what I'm gonna talk about, what will be interesting to people. I had no clue. But you know what, I ignored that and I did the meetup scene and the on-conference scene and eventually it came. Now apply that to your own life. Maybe you don't wanna be a speaker, maybe you have something else in life that you wanna achieve. But still, go for it. Now we're almost reaching the end here and I have this weird piece of advice. Check this out. Once you leave this building, every time an opportunity presents itself, no matter what it is, you will say yes. Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes! Sometimes you just have to say yes to some really weird opportunities. Opportunities that make no sense maybe from a financial point of view, from a career point of view, from a content point of view. But they just make you feel happy or it sounds crazy and you wanna give it a go. I've had some of these and they turn out really well. This is a place in Poland called Mohocice Kapitunie, apparently. As you can see in the middle of nowhere and that is where a couple of years ago PHPCon Poland was hosted. Now I was at another developer event in Poland and after my talk, a guy came up to me, Darius, I still see him every now and then and he presented himself and asked me for my details. I gave him a business card and he said, you know what, you should speak at my event. I'm like, yeah, whatever. And time went by and a couple of months later I received an email from him saying, all right, we want you to speak at our event. And if you agree, you have to fly to Krakow. A guy will be there in a car. Yeah, they really thick Eastern European accent. He said, a guy will be there in car. No disrespect, no stereotypes. But someone would be there to pick me up and would drive me three hours in the months middle of nowhere. Like what could go wrong, right? What could possibly go wrong? I said, you know what, I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna take you up on that. I flew to Krakow and guy was there with car. There's actually three guys in a car and they drove me down the countryside and three hours, wonderful. We even had pancakes in a restaurant that had midi music and dinosaurs outside. Really weird from the get go. But it was actually a really good event and it was very secluded. When I was looking, this is the hotel as well. When I was looking, there was nothing around me. There was no distractions. There were only those people. And at the best time. And you know what, I got to know a person there. Another speaker called Jeffrey A. McGuire, Jam as we call him, he's a big deal in the Drupal scene. And because of that event, I got to know him. And he helped me get into the Drupal scene because that was a place where I also wanted to evangelize. And I never got to shop. I never got the opportunity. But weirdly enough by saying yes to this, I became friends with him. And also because of this, I could tell the story right here right now. So that's also a plus. But I just said yes to something and it turned out all right. I have another thing I said yes to. I'm also a football fan. I'm a season ticket holder at a Belgian football team called Klu Brugge.  And because of YouTube vlogs and especially Casey Neistad, the guy I love watching, I said maybe we should vlog in football game. And my friends said, ah, that won't work. And we started doing it. We named our brand FCB Support. And we just started. And I know you will probably be watching this or whatever you're saying you probably won't listen to. But still, we started taking our cam to the football games and tried to do an honest representation. We are fans. We represent the world of the fans. Not the highly produced, very sterile content that the team itself produces, but something honest. This is me with my son and this is all honest content. And I noticed that in the beginning, not a lot of the people were watching it. But after a while, a couple of hundreds started watching it. A couple of thousands started watching it. And I noticed the immediate impact while I was in the stadium. Every time I go to the stadium now and I go every two weeks, people approach me, people talk to me. I got a couple of messages. My team is playing in a way game in Salzburg tonight. Are you coming, Tess? No, I'm in London, I can't. So all of a sudden we created something that people like. And we're not rock stars in any shape or form. We're very approachable and we like to put it low threshold, it's about the people. But what we know is that stuff makes me happy. That stuff makes the people happy. And you know what, I'm gonna keep doing it. And is this success? Does this qualify as success? In my book it does. Do I get financial gains from it? No, it costs me more money, more time, and more frustration from my wife the more I do it. But you know what, it feels right and eventually something will happen. And what did happen is that I managed to get in touch with the team and the team acknowledged that we were doing a good job and we could interview players every now and then. We had these nice settings here and every now and then we end up in the newspaper. Is this the process and the outcome? No, this is a side effect. Because eventually it's all about the people. And that's the focus, talking to people, getting the high fives, people seeing the camera coming up to us to put in a statement, knowing that it's honest content. And I feel very happy about this. Is this the biggest accomplishment in my life? No, is this success? I guess so. What does the future hold? About to wrap it up here. With my channel I have no clue. I'll just keep grinding it out. Professionally I'll probably do the same thing. And a couple of months ago I would say I would just grind it out. But things have changed in the last couple of months for me. Things I didn't anticipate. I'm a big fan of technology called Varnish. I do a lot of presentations. A lot of it has been grinding it out, talking about caching. And a couple of years ago I got invited by the company behind the software to write a book, which was insane. I didn't see that one coming. And it was solely built on just grinding it out, being out there, making videos. And a couple of months ago they asked me to join them. And that was the big change as of March 4th, which is two weeks, I guess. I'll be a tech evangelist at Varnish. And after 15 years of loyal service I'll be leaving Combo in a way. I'll still be attached. So that's the next step. Is this luck? Well, I don't really think so. It's just, will I be great at this job? I don't know. I'll probably be fine. But it's just the build up. And it's been coming. I've been working with Varnish for a decade now. Just piece by piece by piece. Don't project the outcome. The outcome is uncertain. But the process is cool and everything that happens is a side effect. Is this the outcome? No, it's probably a side effect. That being said, thank you. Go for it by all means. If you are passionate about something, do whatever you need to do. I hope, I'm not sure. I don't have the arrogance of saying that I will probably inspire you. That's probably not the case. But just listen to what I'm saying here. If you're passionate about something, in your professional life, in your career, family life, friendships, hobbies, sports, whatever you're doing, just go for it. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain.


I can't see it anymore. Miracom. I can. It's all that Corbin. That's true. I'm Corbin. The U-Bits. Hey, welcome back to our Super X D and it's I'm Corbin. My god. Ashley. Rick. And we have a full house today. And so you know what that means. We're eating stuff. We are doing another snack video. Easy. I sent this. This is not sponsored in any way. If I don't like any of it, I will say. So don't worry. But I got sent this by a company that sent us a bunch of Indian snacks. We've tried a few of these, not all of us. Have tried all of these. No, but we have tried some. There's a couple. I took two or three that I know I believe. Also, if some of these aren't Indian, not my fault.  I did not pick out any of these except for the candies at the end. So, can we just get stuck in? Yeah. Naughty tomato. Naughty tomato. I don't believe we tried these. We tried the Masala Munch. I would have remembered the Naughty Munch. The Masala Munch. We had two different cookies. Oh, yeah. We had the ketchup thing. And you hated them. Yeah, well, yeah, she's not going to like these either. I didn't try any of these. Oh, wait. How do they seem to care? The top. Yeah. Like, on the side? Yeah. Just anywhere on the top. We're learning. You're going to smell it.  This smells like ketchup. Oh, poor Lexie. Sorry, Lexie. Sonja? You can pick whatever you want. Oh, yeah, I actually hate it. Oh, poor Lexie. Oh, she needs something to drink. I would see these out. I'm not too bad. I guess that's the Naughty Munch. So it's not bad. It's just like, not what you really want with a chip. Right. It's one of those kind of things. It's like, if you had a chip that was split pea soup, would be... Not bad, but weird. I'm assuming, in India, the Masala Munch ones are the ones that are... Both are hot. Yeah, Micah loves those. Oh, I know. Hey, Munch, your outfit. So these are a little... I'm guessing like a chewable... Oh, they're packages. What are those other ones? Oh, they're chewy. Everybody got the same thing? Mine looks like they can find nothing. I guess we're eating the lighter ones. Yeah, the lighter ones. So there's two. Try two. That is fragrant. Whoa. Here, you get one. Here. I like that. You know what else I like? Something says it contains real fruit juice. This thing says it contains real fruit pulp. I like that. The other one opened up instantly. I like the dark one. Really? They taste different? They taste very similar to me. The dark one is a little... Oh, slimy. That one's powdery. I like the dark one. I would eat the whole package in a sitting. Pretty good. Let us know if this is actually something you would eat there. Because it doesn't look decisively Indian. Nope, we know what decisively Indian looks like. It's true. But I like them. Hildaroms, moongaw, salty fried, spilt momen bean snack. This looks like birdseed. Everybody takes some birdseed. We had something similar to this one. It looks like Rice Krispies. No. A little bit? I know you hate it when we smell, but that's what Americans do. We smell stuff. Americans. We smell stuff. Here we go. Sunflower seeds. Very sunflower-esh. It's a mixture of sunflower seeds and Rice Krispies. Mmm. That's tasty. That's really good. That's a yummy snack right there. I like this at like a ice mommy. I like that one there, Mike. Now let's pass that on down, pal. Treats Milky Bar. Is that the only one that I always have to split? Yes. I wonder if it's anything like a Milky Way. I think it's like white chocolate. I hope it doesn't taste like milk. Ooh. Anybody hate white chocolate? Because that's what it looks like. I don't need it. Is anybody really a big fan of white chocolate? Oh, it smells good. Smells like chocolate. Chocolate. I remember when we first invented chocolate. Yeah, it's just kind of a weird white chocolate. White chocolate. Just not a strong white chocolate. Oh, I don't like it. Oh, God. Yeah, that's the aftertaste. It's oily. Maybe it's my fault. We got things a while back. I like it. The aftertaste doesn't bother you? It tastes too much like milk. It tastes like white chocolate. No, it's good. It's way better. It's still old. That expired back in June? 2020. India's magic muscle. We have some of this. I'm ready. I think I like you. I know me, Rick, and Micah have. I've had a few chips. Oh, no. Oh, yeah, sorry. It's so satisfying. Oh, I have had these. Oh, smells good. That hasn't had these? Oh, yes. I remember most of you guys. I just didn't like the spice too much. Yep, yep. It's lunch again. There's that flavor. I'm going to swallow a flavor. That's good stuff right there. It's spicy. I don't taste it yet. I'm waiting for it. If you had a few more. You think so? It's not too strong. I don't want to try. No. Really? No, he's doing a good thing. Max! These ones again don't look Indian to me. No. It looks like a new thing we might find when we went to Jersey Mike's to get a submarine sandwich. It looks like a new Lay's potato chip. Open it, Rick. I like the way the chip looks on that bag. It's a wavy chip. It's a deeply wavy. It's got some good wavy. Smells barbecue chips. Oh, yeah. Oh, that's tasty. It tastes like a barbecue. It's more than barbecue chips here. Lay's barbecue chips. That's better than Lay's barbecue chips. They're more smoky. Once again, let me know if they're popular in India. It looks like a legit Indian thing or we just have them in the wolf over our eyes. Yeah, because once again, it doesn't scream. These have a lot more bar, like it has that smoke flavor of a barbecue. Very smoky. Those are great. One, why don't they sell them here? Maybe they do in Indian stores. Are they decisively Indian? Do we eat these a lot? Good day. I'm assuming these are supposed to be with chai. Another cookie. I didn't get any chai this time. This is going to be like the cookies you get in the cookie bins at Christmas time. It's going to be flaky. Oh, man. These are so good. I got chills. Man, that's good. Again, are these popular in India? I know they said that everything in here is from India, but I don't believe what they tell me. Coffee or chai. Dip it in some tea. Oh, yes. But not this would be delicious in tea, chai, coffee, anything. Orange juice. It has like a vanilla to it. It's delicious. I'm hoping all these are actually Indian because this is a good haul. It's not. Everyone get these. Five star. Yeah, the only thing we in America know about Cadbury, that's the one I don't like. Hickens there. Here. If somebody needs to... Wow. They only gave us one. We're good. This looks really not okay right now. No, it doesn't look so good.  It's like a milky way, but it's got a tootsie roll. It's a three months to tears and a tootsie roll combined. Yeah. Yeah, I don't mind that at all. Yeah, that's good. Sorry if this episode is kind of anticlimactic. Not as fun as some of the other ones where you just see me dying. Nuts. I didn't pick these ones out. Nuts. It's like a snickers. I love our paintings. Snickers. It's very hard to open. Oh. That one looks like a snickers. Is that a drill in there or something? It looks like a nestling. It's not chewy. It's not Chewbacca. It's Kit-Katty. It smells earth. It looks like it has a little wafer thing in there. Wow. It's almost malty. What is that? It's like malt and peanut together. It is. What is it? It's like a peanut butter malt shake. Something that's like this. It would be like a chocolate malt with peanut added. Wow, that is tasty. I don't know what it is. We'll figure it out. These are yummy treats. Yeah, these are delicious treats. Oh, I could eat that whole. Oh, I could eat that whole. Sorry. Candy canes. Pulse. This is not part of the packet. I was at the Indian store the other day and I've seen people sending these on Twitter. I know these are Indian. These are legit. These are called pulse and I think you have to unlike apparently some of the Hajmola canes we were supposed to wait until the center had a Hajmola in it. Oh, jeez. Help. Whoa. It smells like a pine tree. So I think we're going to have to get to the center at one point. It's Hajmoline. I smell pine trees. I don't smell pine trees. Here we go. I don't like this. No. Mine broke. Oh, it broke already? Yeah, there's Hajmola in the center. What is this outside? Because I'm not a fan of it. The outside's fine.  Yeah, that's Hajmola. I'm conflicted right now because part of the outside is like a sweet and then you get a little whiff of what's in the center. The very outside, I did not like the sort of middle inside but still outside. It's a very strong Hajmola flavor too. So it's not more than Hajmola. It's chemical Hajmola. It tastes like cleaning chemicals mixed with Hajmola. It's what it tastes like. That is... Yeah, that one had a chemical Hajmola flavor, didn't it? It had a chemical flavor to it. Chemicals are not from friends. Well, my Hajmola center is gone. I just have a little sweet, sugary flavor. Ew, you're still eating it? No. You don't have that chemical flavor in there though? It was there a little bit. That's what got me, I think. I'm surprised you didn't like Hajmola. No, there's like a top because it's the chemical. I don't do chemicals having met me. Once again. They always tell us if we don't like something, they're like, yeah, it's probably bad or... I did got so violent. He did. He was the best. It was Alexis' scream again. And then he did. It was like, he was going to hurt people. You spoke too soon, man. You had said sorry about this, not being a very entertaining food-eating one. I think I remember them telling me on Twitter they said, because after Hajmola the candies, they were like, we'll try these. And they sent them. And then some people said, it's a trap. Why are you doing this? This is a good one where if we did a thing where we did Hajmola for Americans who'd never had it, like an on-the-street thing, and then we do it again with the same people and they try this one and they're going to be afraid and have a post-traumatic stress disorder from the Hajmola, you give them this and they taste the sweet and then it breaks and they have a recurring nightmare. Well, I hope you enjoyed that. We enjoy eating food. For the most part, this one was a fantastic one. I'm hoping they were all actually Indian. I'm sorry if they weren't. I know that last one was Indian. That was decisively Indian.


Good morning Welcome to the first scientific symposia for TCGA. Where's Elaine Elaine? There's my Partner in crime We like to welcome you to this first meeting and I'm Just want to give a tool on I was giving 15 minutes So we delayed it at the beginning by 10. So now I have four minutes to do the opening which is about right When we thought about when TCGA as a community thought about this symposia It was really motivated by Matthew Myleson who brought up the point that there are so much science going on that Really didn't get the chance to be presented even within the consortium within within the network much less to the public and that The momentum of TCGA is such that it really is time to showcase What we have generated what we have learned from it and talk about what we can do with that data in the broader community And so the idea of this open and symposia, which hopefully will happen every year was formed and Elaine and I got the Honor of putting this first one together and What we wanted to do in this symposia is to highlight the science that's being done within the network but importantly to bring together the community who is number one using the data and and using it to to develop new method using it to understand new science and and to translate that to clinical Application, which is our ultimate goal to impact on the patient cares and improve survival We wanted this to be the venue where the community Within and outside of TCGA can come together and really show us how the TCGA impact can be realized so To to get us started It's a great honor to have Eric Lander as our first opening keynote speakers for our symposia Eric Lander really does not need introductions He he is the founding director of the bro Institute And the director of his genome biology program He has been one of the principal leaders in the human genome project and certainly in TCGA as well as in the international effort ICGC He has received numerous Awards and I'm not going to list them Except to mention that most recently he has been appointed by President Obama as the co-chair of the President's Council of advisors on science and technology Eric is a professor of biology MIT and the professor of system biology at Harvard Medical School He earned his BA in mathematics from Princeton in 1978 and his PhD in mathematics from Oxford in 1991 1981 as the Rose Scarlett and in 1990 he founded the Whitehead Institute MIT Center for genome Center, which eventually became the bro Institute in 2003 without further ado It's my honor to introduce Eric who's going to tell us about the challenges ahead


It's engraving the ravens written in the poem, it's engraving the ravens and I don't let y'all be awakened, it's engraving beats, engraving beats, engraving beats. You too what's going on it's engraving here with another video and this video you see it we're going to be showing you some live gameplay from when we went to the game this past Sunday at Dolphin Stadium at Sunlight Stadium when the ravens came into town to take on the Miami Dolphins. Now in this game I guess it's obviously probably because of the losing record but raven nation didn't show up like they usually do. I thought they were because I saw tweets from reporters before the game they were saying that they saw a lot of ravens fans at the airport and what not and there were plenty out there but it just wasn't how it usually is. Usually ravens nation is so deep there they usually take over the stadium but I guess right now since dolphins had a losing record ravens got a losing record and neither one of them is getting ready to make any noise in the playoffs and neither one of them really has much of a chance to even get into the playoffs. I guess they didn't really show up in full force like they usually do. But anyway I am done talking we are actually headed to our seats right about now and actually here I was going to the wrong seats I went to the wrong section. So the next time you see us walking down the steps it'll be to go to our seats so I'm going to stop talking I'm going to let you enjoy the highlights from the game from what I saw and what I recorded actually because I didn't even record everything because sometimes I felt like I was jinxing the game but anyway I appreciate you guys watching make sure you leave a like on the video let me know your favorite part and I think around like the nine-minute mark something like that that's where Davontae Parker catches he marces Lidarius where for the touchdown was a Jarvis Landry no yeah Davontae Parker that's what it is anyway I appreciate you guys and I'm gone. Back on the shoulder game over we end up losing it's a good game I don't really think winning would have been nicer but it probably wouldn't really have made much of a difference on the season but um before before today's game it wasn't over but it was pretty much over but it wasn't technically over but now it's over but we came through it we had a lot of fronts they changed the way that they come out after the game they blocked off the head of the barricade and what I also in the video people are not giving no copyright strike for that song


And I have read some stories where Brady might have given them a soft landing by putting it on himself, but that Belichick didn't want him back. But the statement that Belichick had would lead you to believe that he loved him. I mean, I've never heard Belichick wax this gooey about anybody. I mean, you seem to have a great relationship built on love, admiration, respect and appreciation. Tom's success as a player and his character is a personal exceptional. Thinking about the end of Tom's Patriots career changes how unfathomably spectacular it was. With his relentless competitiveness and longevity, he earned everyone's adoration, and we celebrate it forever. It's been a privilege to coach Tom Brady for 20 years. And even the start of it, Tom was not just a player who bought into our program. He was one of its original creators. Tom lived and perpetuated our culture on a daily basis. He was a tone setter and a bar raiser. He won championship in three of his first four years on the field and three of six seasons with us while competing for championships the most every season in between. This is Tom's consistency and what separates him. He didn't just perform. He didn't just win. He won championships over and over again.


So, I guess it's not like Hey guys, please take a seat Are we going live? Let us be at peace one another But in surprise one another Drink in that ocean and please remember your name Oh, it's starting to be crazy here Oh, it's starting to be good in here Oh, it's starting to be good in here Baby and babies, let us sing together We cool down the crazy island We cool down the crazy island We should do this over and over and over We start over soon Start over soon We start it over soon We start it over soon Thank you for sharing your art, your music, your soul so beautifully Thank you, thank you Alice Thank you guys Victor, welcome to the show Thank you for having me on Alice Thank you very much I'm very glad to be here I'm very glad It's finally, I can see now Everything's coming to a little place There and so lining is getting more precise So if I can share with you guys the spark of the creating With you I would be very honored, very honored Likewise I love that visualization of everything coming more and more Into alignment and the sparks of the infinite harmonizing More and more with one another in this love light, Leela Yeah, I guess that's the work we want to do to each other That's really what we want to do That's really what I mean Helping on a more, let's say, subtle and precise And more conscious also You want to share that spark with others Really consciously focused, precise In their calling, really, in what they want to give And I'm learning, you know, I'm learning with you I'm learning with a lot of people, you know It's getting more precise, it's getting exciting Really exciting too, I gotta say Exciting, yes It's exciting times, really exciting times Really exciting times I mean it is, you know, you gotta look at the facts And it's exciting, I mean it's a choice Okay, okay, we can all agree on that But you gotta say it's exciting It's exciting fucking times It's really, it's really, it really is And That's most exciting for those that are actually seeing the difference Between the conditioning and the purity That's most exciting for those that see the shift into permanent alignment Yeah, it's a puzzle It may look like a really tough puzzle You say puzzle, right?  Yeah, you put it very well, you put it very well, you put it very well, you put it very well You don't want to be seen that You don't want it, you think you want maybe a bit of fame of The validation stuff is pretty big in this society And this is a big shackle, a big shackle So yeah, you gotta, you're brave already, I was ready to say Be brave, be brave And the more braver you get, the more exciting life will be And the more you won't give any shit, any fuck About what other thing and But it's very prevalent and I really resonated with one of Bentiniu's quotes was like a couple of days ago Like if others' voice keep echoing on your mind And I don't remember what the end of the sentence say But there was a solution at the end There was something really good I can't remember But yeah, it's not you, but you gotta extract yourself And maybe they're echoing because you want to use those voices to victimize yourself You know?  Both, so I'll clarify here In the know yourself, accept yourself, become the creator That it's very easy to rush and say I've achieved step number one and step number two I know myself and accept myself completely 100% And so we rarely check our fraudulence like you were indicating We rarely check our bullshit And in the last month especially for me There's been a very clear shift into more hyper vigilance with devotion to watching each frame To become more and more aware of when is Atlas purely aligned with the love life And coming from source versus when is there a distortion algorithm that is trying to come through And so now there's that distinction, it's so subtle in every frame to catch that distinction Yeah I love the, you know it's, it took me some time to really realize what they were actually talking about When this talk with Bentino and Anirag Yes Talk about where exactly you're coming from And at first I thought okay I'm coming from this past and those experiences and those stories and that and this and blah blah blah And it really took me some time to, no no no no it's not about this, it's not about those stories It's not about that What exactly is your intention? What do you want to give? Can you be clear on why are you opening your mouth at this exact moment? Do you know?   Why do you want to talk? Why? One message Do you want to, to, to relays bring? What do you want to give? What do you want to give? Are you trying to get something like Very, very subtle way Are you exciting?  Can you, can you check with yourself that's, you know And the more you do that, the more you'll be amazed by what words actually comes out of your mouth after that And you don't, after like a process, you don't recognize yourself anymore You don't recognize yourself You don't recognize yourself And you see no point, you don't see any point again in telling any stories I mean it might, it might be really good sometimes To tell a story, maybe in what angle you choose and what message sometimes But I was amazed by Bentino really never talked about his, and also his team And they're really like precise and purified in their, in their being, doings And it's very inspiring, very inspiring And it becomes very inspiring for others And they cannot grasp you That's what I realized, like not too long ago They cannot grasp you anymore And they feel, people tend to feel kind of lost They don't know exactly what the fuck you are anymore Like the way you come from, I mean, you know You got friends, what do you do, what do you It's funny I love, I love to interact with this humanity I love it, I have a lot to learn But they're fun, they're fun But come on man, where are you from exactly, what have you done Why are you, I mean, are you high, are you All the time man, every day Every day, it's really funny, it's really fun That was such a profound eloquent way to explain Why are you even talking right now Where is it truly coming from, what is your intention with speaking Are you here trying to extract something, are you speaking to get validation Are you speaking to fulfill a distortion of conditioning Or are you silent, empty bliss, awaiting the very sourceful giving And that distinction is so profound and you're right that The need to tell stories dissolves There's no need to tell a story to get validated by somebody else Rather the story acts as a mechanism If it arises in order to concisely share a reflection You become more and more reflecting to the other self mirror What is seen as a layer of said conditioning And assisting in the process of that mirror recognizing that They were coming from conditioning And that becomes basically the primary algorithm Is the alchemical awakening coming from source for that purpose You have this way of putting things together, it's quite fun I really enjoy that, really enjoy But yeah, you're right, you're right, it's really bad And you want that, you want to be a mirror Bentinho said there is a lot of high demand on mirror consciousness Very high demand, I can feel it too, I can see it too Very high demand, very high, that's why silence is I'm going to get back to silence because Victor, you cut out, start at the very beginning of what you were saying If you could please, you dropped out of the Wi-Fi Okay, yeah I was talking about mirror consciousness And there is very high demand on mirror consciousness And I was talking about silence And why silence is very, very, very important right now And they want to see that sometimes, don't talk at all Just, can you be able to look at every sisters and brothers out there And just fall into that You know that's a good exercise, I like to practice a lot I just look at people, I place myself in front of them And I don't say shit, and I just look at them And there is all those limiting beliefs that just pops up Oh you're crazy, oh this is not good, this is not that Socially right or wrong And you feel like your ego is burning in front of you No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, don't do it, don't do it Yeah, just do it, you're going to see Try to surrender, try to, not even talk, you don't have to talk You don't have to say anything Just look at them and see yourself in it then And they're going to see, they're going to A lot of reflections and a lot of beauty in it A lot of beauty So do it! It's kind of drill, drill surgeon But yeah, you really want to do it like I think the image was a drill surgeon But if you're not devoted, if you're not all in, if you're not Just don't do it, just We don't want the half But you get my point, it's either all in or you don't go So, yeah So it's worth it, it's really worth it It's really fucking worth it guys It's so worth it, you know, I was It was like a couple of days ago, I was Like, this ego was, I was afraid of something I didn't want to do and I called myself And I said, okay, no more, you know I could see like a pattern and Like something repeating and I just said Okay, no more, no more I was really much afraid at first And, you know, each time it works Each time it's amazing, you really Purify yourself and you shift, you shift You really shift, really shift And it's magical Yes It's magical, it's magical It's just in one, you know, a couple of seconds And bam, you shift And it's easy, you know, it's not like this You think it's tough, it may sound tough For your ego at first But the more you do it, the more you The easier it gets and you It becomes like this second nature of yours Yes And burning the ego, whatever you want to call it It becomes quite easy And fun, it becomes fun It becomes fun to do it, really fun Really fun It's good you brought up Mirror, so Awakening has a lot to do with realizing that We are mirrors, mirroring And it has a lot to do with recognizing When, like you're describing And like we've been talking about When the mirror is coming from A place of purely reflecting the Love-light of creation Versus when it is having that dirty Thought on it where it's reflecting A distortion of conditioning And so we become more subtly aware when we Interact with these other selves That the mirrors sort of have a gradient From a dirty to a very clean In the ultimate analysis It already is ineffable perfection And yet simultaneously we recognize That there are sparks of the infinite Expressed in this creation that have a Higher purity in their mirroring And that's why, like you indicated They're so highly sought after Is because they're coming from source In sharing where, as a reflection The impurity is to the other self To that other mirror And so for example, for us right now In this navy seals of spirituality In the no limit society There's a lot of reflecting That is really insightful For like Victor pointed out It becomes fun It becomes really fun to burn The layers of conditioning And to align oneself with More pure stewardship for creation You constantly come from a place Of stewardship, of shepherding Yeah, that's it It becomes an honor An honor to do that job An honor Like really is Really is And you don't run away from any responsibilities Because you see the beauty in there You see the fun You see how exciting life can become For you, it can be for you So you're like fuck it, you know This ego conditioning This personality traits That I was so kind of attached to Was like, okay this is me And the fun guy Or the wisdom sharing guys Or storyteller I don't know, you know the cool I don't know what you want to identify yourself with But I can see you with this analysis family Even the personality traits They're not defining you in any ways Absolutely not And actually you want to be Out of any definitions Any definitions You don't need them And just a way to Make yourself safer in some way Like okay I'm that Or I'm this or that Just drop it all Drop it all, drop it all It's not useful, it's not useful for you It's not useful for your friends Or family Or this, it's not useful I think it is but it's really not And you're very safe, you're very safe You know this with me I don't think I can hear you anymore Atlas, I don't know I'm muted the mic because there's a helicopter In LA flying over But it just went past Okay I get it Yeah guys Just drop the definitions And you know have fun It's really Just let it go Have fun guys Victor why is your calling Around people experiencing the craziness of creation And what does it mean to you I don't know exactly the why I found it like very healing And I guess I just also love Like popping All those bubbles you know You go outside and you see all those people And there is this big bubble around their head It's through Bantini upon it out But it's very true that's also what I feel And I love to pop that bubble You see Oh what the fuck is going on You see people like very robotic acting Like yeah very much Very fucking much Like what the fuck is going on I want them to I guess it also has to do with Where I come from as an individual And my experiences And this Like because I thought at some point Being seen as crazy was really unsafe For me And there has been this healing process Around that Really healing process around that So I get to accept that And to see it as really like a perfection And as you know this This creator wanting to experience itself That way you know that way That way you want to drive them nuts You want to drive them nuts And that's what I love That's what really excites me To drive them nuts To drive those people around nuts It's very little It's very subtle sometimes It's like what the fuck is going on Why are you even saying this It doesn't make any sense It can be all those You know we're talking like about stories And you know this need of humanity To justify itself You know permanently about where you come from Why you've done, why you realized So it just like became Naturally For me as I wasn't to my purifying processes To just like starting to tell Like bullshit Just like very crazy, crazy stories Crazy and unbelievable stories Unbelievable The guy has to say what is it What exactly is this You know it just became Like second nature Like very I wasn't controlling anything I wasn't trying to manipulate my way Out of here, out of there It just became like really natural Really me And really I don't know what is like purified Purified So why do I want to do that I guess it has to do with the shattering Shattering, exploding those bubbles Or like trying to They have to do something You know at the end And I also want them to exercise Their free will I see very weak free will around me Very weak focused oriented being So I want them to recalibrate Give them this opportunity To like affirm themselves Like no, no I don't want that So get the fuck out And I'm going to push them Push, push, push until you know All the layers of conditioning Of what should be done What shouldn't be done Just like dropped, melt And they have no choice to act intuitively I come from this source kind of Like location Even if there's no location But you get my point So I want them to drop it all And you know go seek What really it is you want to do What really it is you want to please do it You know act, do something That's one way to put Michael It is You're like pranking them Prankster I see So there's The experience for you Of being a unique spark of the infinite That is excited about A highest calling around The unlocking of the frozen will Of those that are following the scripted Robotic algorithms that we Liberated ourselves from We liberated ourselves from that Because we were pursuing As we unlocked more of our frozen will It enabled us to pursue more metaphysical truth In this North Star position relentlessly And in the process gain more of that spiritual mass And then turn and serve the creation Unlocking more of their frozen will And in a sense it can look like moving ice Which is like these egoic layers of conditioning That we've been talking about And this very robotic automata style behavior To vapor Which is more of the sovereign will Choice Highest excitement North stars Igniting the planetary awakening Being a pure shepherd, a pure steward And I love that spark of the infinite It's a really important spark of the infinite And we typically don't see that as important In the unlocking of the frozen will Because sometimes in the higher Navy Seals of spirituality and I've noticed this With the way people have reflected to you before It's can be reflected as well Why do you desire Where are you coming from that you desire To playfully melt the cages As Jordan Bates says one of our friends That why do you desire to playfully melt the cages Of those in the matrix and unlock their will Why do you have the lack-belief For what are you trying to achieve And I don't see it that way I see that angle to it Because it's an important angle For those that are coming not from source And doing that But I really feel a lot of purity When it comes from you I feel you're very silent You're very still And you're coming from a place of truth Of wanting to be a shepherd For unlocking the frozen will And so because you come from there And you're refining your ability To come from there I trust where you're coming from Well, thank you Thank you very much And I gotta say People has to understand that It's not very comfortable to And also where I was coming from I wasn't that guy I wasn't that guy, it's cool I wasn't that... I was this very... Anyway, but...   It's not... I was ready to do And I'm really ready for more But it's sometimes...  And... But it's good It's really good But yeah man, I see someone fishing Like way too close to the sea I wanna push that dude I wanna push it Oh man, I won't see this And it took me a long time to... To see that as a spark You know, the creator Really took me... Why, you know, why, why, why, why There's this... You know, compassionate Nice kind of conditioning You know Of what spirituality is about And what unity is about And so on, and so on, and so on And sometimes you're like, okay And they're all projecting this And... Okay, I'm confused Because I really want to... I really wanna mess with them And... And I love it, you know I love it Drive them nuts Yeah man, you get...  But it's fun, it's really fun And I really see it as a... I think the native... The cold, that particular spark Eiyoka The Eiyoka I think it's there, I don't know I haven't searched a lot But I think there is a term For that particular spark So I was kind of amazed once A guy just...  What it could become And I was like, oh, wow This is gonna get, like, really messy For a lot of people, a lot of people And... I was like, wow Do I deserve being worthy Of being locked up And locked in? Because this is Gonna make a lot of noise And... Yeah, yeah, it's... It's... But no, no, no, you... And thank you, because you really put it, like, very... Very beautifully Like, there is a place For that kind of spark And if anybody is watching And if it can relate That you wanna mess around and be provoking And just have fun with them And... Fun with people and Pushing them Yeah, it's... It's really beautiful It is It is, guys It's... There's no... There's so many ways to...  There's no one path, two path, three path There's... What you choose and what your heart You know, it's calling you to do and to be And yeah, it might...     Authentic and true to yourself You're like, okay, I'm that, I want to express That part of the creator I want to express that Well, it's... It's beautiful It's beautiful Beautiful Absolutely beautiful Thank you, thank you very much, Atlas, for... Accepting in a way myself It's been kind of a long road for me And... You know, yeah, I've had this tendency to... To, yeah, thinking that I was... I was too much for this world I was too much, too much, too much Because it's every day Every day I'm having to confront Like doing, like, a mess It's almost on a day-to-day basis Sometimes you can be draining, it's like... But it's very much necessary Very much necessary But yeah, man But I've had this day three Happened And... And it's... It's been such... There's been this amazing moment where I realized Okay, they tried to lock me up You know, I've been... They sent me to the psych ward They tried to put me in jail I've been like...  Yeah Trust your spark Trust it Yeah The recognition that you created The forces that Tried to stop your spark In order to test Your earnestness to it I just couldn't give up, man I couldn't It's like your soul Somehow at stake, you know You know those moments Those moments where You say, okay, okay, okay, okay I can lose a bit of my soul here I mean, you never lose truly anything But you get my point When I can regain some of it You're like, okay, fuck that I'm gonna take control of it Out of the space of infinite possibility That the critical, pivotal, splitting moments As you share in this trajectory space It could be so easy to fall Into one of these lower trajectories That are not in your highest excitement Towards that North Star, towards that calling And to be hyper-vigilant With every beautiful frame And to fully unleash The will, the choice, the self-awareness, the sovereignty As the creator In divine, transcendent, noble pursuit Of that highest calling Repeatedly checking As we mentioned earlier too Are we behaving for the ego conditioning Or are we coming from source in pure service to creation? And so, in a sense, we have two pivotal checks With our hyper-vigilance One of them is, is this the calling, the North Star, the highest excitement The thumb on the trajectory space? And the other is, am I truly, purely coming from source?


Welcome to the weather forecast for the week beginning Wednesday December 30th. I'm chief meteorologist John Ensworth. I'm a new Microphone you can see it down the bottom of my screen here. So hopefully the audio is better than it's been for the last couple weeks Using the same graphic as last week Wednesday December 30th is our full moon at the very end of the month very end of the year And looking at drought This is a new graphic going from the 17th to the 24th, but nothing changes. So at least the drought conditions are not worsening they have been arrested by cool temperatures and some moisture coming back to the state West though some of the boundaries of the long-term drought have expanded a little bit in other states Looking at that precipitation the snow we got on Monday Amounts to just about an inch and a half across town and down in Boulder about an inch or so The precipitation over the last week Mainly in the mountains and that's been the theme for a lot of the winter and will be the theme for the next week to 10 days You can see half inch to one inch A monster is a inch and a half out there west of Colorado Springs and down in the southern mountains So what we have is a big trough down in the west The energy of this is really focused on in the Baja in northern Mexico, which is kind of unusual But we are on the dry side with north winds coming into the state Keeping us very seasonably cool another vigorous trough off the west coast is Powering a cold front pushing in to the western states You can see by Thursday morning lots of moisture falling down in Texas and Down up into the southeast and east coast and up in New England Just a large front big bigger system there and the Pacific Northwest in a lot of snow, too We are just high and dry in between and kind of remain that way Look at the normal high temperatures rising a degree over the next 10 days from 43 to 44 And now the minimum temperature, which was flat in the expected norms last week rise one degree to 18 so we've passed the Shortest day longest night of the year on the 21st when winter began and We're already seeing the recovery of the temperatures in average The actual forecast of temperatures over the next 10 days are deep inside this normal Range they do warm up nicer for the weekend But nothing abnormally cold or warm going on. We'll take a look at the New Year's Eve midnight Forecast at the end. You do see a few Places where there's a chance of snow One being Thursday into Friday One in the New Year couple next week. They aren't very organized. These are all passing shortwave troughs There's just not a lot of moisture. We'll see that in just a second So looking at the next 10 days. Here's our deep trough heading down into Mexico cutting off down there and then moving up another trough That's drenching the West digs way down into Arizona An old ridge comes back for the weekend and we warm up the little passing trough there gives us our one shot of a chance of Precipitation then it's kind of zonal flow there with the Air going from West to East straight across the nation. There's our next little ripple for next week Just nothing big going on And what we're missing is that atmospheric moisture We need a load to sit around long enough to really pull some moisture in you can see it kind of gets to the Rockies and then it's dry on the eastern side and as soon as the moisture moves in it's out and Replace by dry air the green is abnormally high levels of precipitable water and the Browns are Low amounts of precipitable water. We just don't get anything sticking around very long So looking at future Radar you could say or precipitation patterns were dry through Thursday There's a little system coming in and it fades out There's a big storm moving up into the Midwest and up into the Northeast We are still high and dry another storm moving into the Pacific Northwest And it fades out by the time it gets to the Rockies yet another one crashes the shore Some snow into our Western Mountains and then it fades out And this is sort of the pattern that we get there's a lot of snow in the Western Mountains But nothing east of the Rockies So over the next 10 days, that's the pattern we expect Get below the foothills and a long I-25 and it's pretty dry Mountains picking up a foot or more, which is fantastic. We need as much snowpack as we can get Over the next seven days, we hover around in the 40s Touch the 50s a little bit stay in the teens and 20s at night partly cloudy skies very low chances of a flurry now and then For New Year's Eve midnight Minute before midnight. It should be about 23 degrees Fahrenheit mostly cloudy skies Light west winds a chance of a snow flurry, but not much For frequent weather updates and local news check out long amount leader calm. That's where I have my weather column over there I've been chief meteorologist John N. It's worth for long about public media keep looking up