Hi everyone, Joe for jaspyscasebreaks.com. Happy Sunday doing a quick little filler break to give away another bowman transcendent spot It's like a twenty five hundred dollar value. It's gonna be pretty crazy, but first the break itself now We're gonna have three dice rolls in this break The first dice roll will be to give away these extra spots And we've got another mini box up on the site right now in jaspyscasebreaks.com same promo So we're taking out five spots giving them away to the people who bought spots straight up That's the first dice roll second dice roll will be randomizing names and teams will do the break itself And the third and final dice roll will be to give away that transcendent spot. Yeah, it's like the sirens are saying it's gonna be It's gonna be pretty awesome. It's gonna be fire. That's why the fire department has to come by. All right dice roll one Let's give away some spots Let's roll it randomize it five and a five ten times hard ten top five after ten one two three four five six seven eight nine and 10th and final time after ten Congrats to the top five Sean PJ PJ Aaron and Danny Got extra spots after ten Congrats Now for the rest of you don't worry These folks may have gotten some extra spots, but you're still part of the break and part of the promo So keep those fingers crossed. There's everyone again now this time The second dice roll will be for names and teams four times one and a three. This is for the break one two three and four One and a three four times for the teams. Oh Okay, Adam is saying that Odell Beckham, Jr. 2014 was the last one to win a a rookie of the year In the NFL All right, here's the first half of the list right there and there's the second half right here No trade windows in these little filler break. Let's just get right to the break Alphabetized by team and let's just print this baby out and rip this box up And there are a number of these fillers that we have to do ladies and gentlemen So go to Jasper's case breaks calm keep chipping away at him because eventually Eventually we'll get it all done Printer wake up There we go printer. All right, so here's the final print out hot off the presses Thanks everyone for joining us and getting in on the act. Thanks for spending a Part of your Sunday with us. I know there's a lot going on on on the television But I'm glad we've got a screen With you during the day and Night there's Casey Meis to 199 and Hyun Il Choi for the Dodgers Dodgers pitching prospect going to PJ might start seeing him coming up the ranks soon There's Jay Kronoworth and Sam Huff and the Casey Meis of course will go to Sean Hughes and the Tigers nice break This moment sterling is actually it's actually pretty nice for a filler box So I would I would definitely take advantage of that. All right. Now. Let's flip back for our third and final dice roll Let's gather everyone's names again from Danny all the way down to Adam and everyone in between Another dice another list Let's roll it randomize it one and a three four times Only one winner a lot of sad people here, but one very very happy person after four. Good luck one two three and Once more fourth and final time after four name on top Drum roll drum roll drum roll again 29 sad people Sean very close, but I appreciate you giving this a shot. Thank you Thanks everybody remember there are more opportunities to try to win spots So I'd give it I'd give it at least a couple more chances give yourself a couple more chances Before you give up you may stumble into a really nice spot in Bowman transcendent baseball just like PJ There you go PJ. Congrats to you After four your names on top and you've just gotten yourself a nice bowman transcendent spot for a fraction of the price I'm Joe for jazby's case breaks calm. Thanks for watching. I'll see you next time for the next transcendent filler. Bye. Bye


After dive school, then where do you go and train? You're going to the Army's Airborne School, which is three weeks. You'll go to survival school, which is another three weeks, I believe. And then that's where things kind of go different ways. So for combat controllers, we will go to air travel control school because I don't want to say we're the same. We are not the same as the folks that are in the tower, but we learn those same kind of FAA skills. PJs will do medical stuff. That's where we split off, and then we'll go to those schools and then we'll hit combat control school, PJs will hook parachute school, special reconnaissance goes to special reconnaissance, which is integrated into combat control school. Then we all graduate with our berets.


I really have a good reason to get it. I just knew it was gonna be fabulous. And I think that was my main reason to get it. Tryna get a natural. Hi everyone, welcome back to my channel. I'm here with the rest of my Black Friday haul. I did kinda save best for last because I have the she-centered Moroccan gold which we will get to in a bit. If you wanna see what I got, stay tuned. I would hate when people say that in videos. But anyway, I felt like saying it. I just had a cool original she-centered that was stuck at USPS but they graciously gave it to me. I got the pink superfoods land because I just heard great things about it from pretty much everybody. And I really wanted to find some kill origin to love again. So I almost didn't get it because the shampoo was sold out. The shampoo's what I was really most interested in and I was like, if I'm not getting the shampoo, like, you know, do I really wanna get that stuff? Blah, blah, blah. But then, lo and behold, the day after Black Friday, actually, the shampoo came back and stuff. So I was like, it's a sign. It's a sign. Signs of getting everything. I got the pink superfoods lux detox charcoal shampoo. Don't mind if I do want a nice charcoal shampoo. I think it'd be really interesting. I don't have any charcoal shampoos in my stash. The she-centered flax seed treatment does have charcoal but it's like a different kind of consistency. It's more of a mask than a shampoo. This one actually does have some cocoa baiting and stuff in there with the activated charcoal and a bunch of fruit extract. So I am looking forward to trying this. So I'm expecting me to be somewhat gentle just because of the way they've stated it in all the fruit extracts. I'm thinking I would like the experience with all the moisture and everything. I'm thinking it's gonna be an exciting time and I'm looking forward to trying it. Just like, I guess, Kill's Dynasty. Sometimes it's like the shampoo or sometimes it's just like one product that really pulls me in. And since I'm there, I kinda get some other stuff from the line. So that was this. And after shampoo comes mask, I guess, the pink superfoods hydromelt mask. Why is this giving me like SOS signals? I don't know if you guys can see that. Anyways, the top is like metallic. So is where. Anyways, the ingredients are pretty similar to the shampoo in terms of like the fruit extracts and then the moisture. So then I have the weightless moisture double cream. So it didn't have a leaving in this line. So I figured I'm gonna use this as a leaving and hope for the best. It does have water as the first ingredient. So I figure we can make it work. As long as it has water as the first ingredient and it does have some conditioning agents, like VTMS and stuff, I usually, in my mind, I can substitute it for a leaving. Then I got this, I gave an apricot hydrating curserum. So we'll see what this does. I'm not expecting it to be like a full on gel or custard, but I am gonna apply everything we just saw, then apply this, see what it does, show you what it does and then potentially add some, I don't know, eco-style or something on top of it, for hold. It's very full, so I can't tell how runny it is, but it doesn't look like it's super runny. But it's hard to tell since it's super full, which, of course, I'm liking. And look at that, I'm finished my coloration whole already. Aren't you proud of me? That was the coloration whole of four, pretty much just a wash day. Hopefully an exciting, marvelous wash day and definitely coming up soon. Next we have, she sent it. So I did go a little bit more crazy for she sent it, but even then I kinda kept it minimal because I have a whole shelf of she sent it already there in my stash. So I really don't need it, but then moral can go, okay, take my money. That's kinda how the story went. But I'm actually gonna start off with the Royal Honey line. So I'm on a mission to buy and try every single she sent a product. And this is part of that mission. So I got the Royal Honey and Argan softening leaving milk and the Royal Honey and Argan hair mask. I should do some YouTubing and see who else has, like, demoed this, but if you've used these, let me know. It doesn't have as many fruit extracts and stuff as the typical she sent it. I got the Okra Hair Repair Attemptive Mask and I got the Tahini Cocktail Cool Enhancing Jelly, custard. You guys know I love both of these. I'm restocking, so that says a lot before I finish the whole mountain that I have. Then we get to the style of the show, the Moroccan gold, the new new. So the main draws of this are the Argan oil, date and plum extracts. For me, throwing the honey because I do like to see like honey or agave in a product as well. And it really reminds me of the plum nectar and agave. You just have some really nice fruit extract and you have honey this time. So the first item is the Moroccan gold two-in-one shampoo. So it's basically, I'm just gonna call it a co-wash because I think that's what a two-in-one shampoo is at this point. I don't know, we'll try it and see, but it's like a shampoo and a conditioner, so I'm figuring it's gonna be a co-wash in the end. This line is a bit strange in terms of the items because we have like this two-in-one and then we have like a clay mask. So it's kind of like interesting, but I'm gonna roll with it, I'm gonna try it and I'm gonna show you guys. Either way, I'm sure my hair is gonna be moisturized and look great in the end. Let me just show you the ingredients of the two-in-one. These are the ingredients of the mask. So I like that the mask has rassful clay as well as bentonite clay because I really like rassful clay. Like for me, bentonite clay is the business and rassful clay is the pleasure because rassful clay just is really moisturizing and softening and stuff and bentonite clay is more cleansing and stuff. So like the combination is great plus having like the aloe and the other she sent and stuff just makes it even better. So I am excited to try this. I do feel like just looking at it, it's gonna be slightly more of a deep conditioner with a bit of clay as opposed to clay with deep conditioning things, but I'll try to let you guys know. So the shampoo is supposed to cleanse and condition and the mask is supposed to detoxify and condition. So I'm kind of in my mind wondering if we're actually supposed to or should use both of the same wash day. Maybe not. So I don't know, it's gonna be a little interesting. Stop me if you think I should do something else because with the two in one, I'm kind of shampooing and then conditioning and then this is a kind of shampoo and condition thing too. So I don't know. I don't really want to waste the mask by putting it on kind of co-washed hair and putting it on when I've been needed and stuff. After this mask, it's a little bit confusing as well. I bought this rinse out conditioner. The more I can go cream rinse conditioner. So basically I'm gonna get my conditioning in either way. I'm gonna use this as a leave-in after either one or both of these. And then I get to the oil jelly marmalade. Again, dead plum, argan oil. It has figure extract as well. I like that this has pectin and xanthum gum because that's a power couple for me. I like to mix pectin and xanthum gum personally when I'm doing my DIYs. For me, it's just the best of both worlds. So I'm expecting great things from this. I didn't make a comment about holes. I'm expecting this to pretty much be a cross between the tahini cocktail and the plum nectar and I'll get custard and a cross between the two of them sounds like perfection. So obviously I'm trying this very soon, maybe even this weekend because I'm super hyped to try this line. As long as I get your feedback on how to try it, I'll be trying this line letting you guys know. And last but not least, I got the curl reviving mousse. So this was a bit of a lost my mind kind of thing. I was looking at that basket in blue mousse and I was like, oh, I want to try it. I didn't get to get basket groomed this last Friday. So when I saw this mousse, I was like, oh, a mousse, let me try it. So you all know I'm way too lazy to be doing any kind of perm rod set or curl set, rod set, set. I don't even think I have any. I think I have something that I bought in my big shop that I never even looked at again. But I doubt I'll be using it. So I just want to see what a mousse washing goal looks like on my hair and that's what I'm probably going to do with it. Let me show you the ingredients. I've been wanting to try a mousse on my hair forever and I never have. So this will be my first mousse. I think maybe these three first sounds like the most exciting. So I might do these three first and then do a second one with these three. I figure that's what I'm going to do. Let me know if you guys have any tips or suggestions. Let me know what you guys have in your stash at the moment that you haven't tried or that you're looking forward to trying next. That's the best thing about Black Friday. It gives you hope, right? Hope I've watched this to come, basically. Thanks for watching you guys and thanks for letting me finish up my Black Friday haul. Yay, yay. And let's chat. And I'll see you in the next one. Bye.


I haven't slept a wink. And all for the wrong reasons. Get your mind out of the gutter. So, if I start to sing songs in Russian or reclaim in ancient Biblical Hebrew, please forgive me. It is insomnia. It is all destructive. And apropos destruction, today's topic is the death drive. No, not the death instinct. There is actually no such thing in Freud's writings. It's the death drive and the narcissist's love affair with death. The psychological background and how it evolves through life in view of various schools in psychology and various, or in psychoanalysis to be more precise, and various kind of approaches to this issue. My name is Sam Bakhnin. I'm the author of Malignov self-love, Narcissism Visited. I'm a former visiting professor of psychology in Southern Federal University in Russia, where else? And I'm currently on the faculty of CIAPS, Commonwealth for International Advanced Professional Studies, all over the known universe, especially in Cambridge United Kingdom, Toronto, Canada, and Lagos, Nigeria. And we delve right in. Today's video is a second Halloween treat. So I suggest you watch the first one. It's titled Hitchcock's Halloween treat, or trick, psycho, or the embodied introject. I posted it a few days ago. It's an analysis review of the famous Hitchcock movie, psycho. And the other video I recommend you to watch, I recommend that you watch before you watch this one. It's titled Dead in quotation marks, Mothers and their offspring. They're offspring, narcissistic, borderline, psychotic. Having armed yourself with these two videos, you are ready for the deep dive that awaits you. But before we go there, I want to introduce you to this book, The Luminaries. It's also a BBC series, I think, and it's a wonderful, amazing Magnum Opus. And I would like to read to you two excerpts, because I think they capture the narcissists in a world very beautifully, very incisively, and very insightfully. The first one is about the narcissist's paranoid landscape. Their beliefs have become more fanciful, their hypothesis less practical, their counsel less germane, unconfirmed suspicion tends over time to become willful, fallacious, and prey to the vicissitudes of mood. It requires all the qualities of common superstition. It's a brilliant observation. And the second, the other paragraph I would like to read to you, has to do with how she describes the author is a woman, Elian Orketon, and she describes the narcissist's state of mind. Why does the narcissist try so hard to gain your approval, a.k.a. narcissistic supply? And here's what she has to say. It crushed his spirit to be held in low esteem by other men. He could not bear to know that he was disliked, for to him there was no real difference between being disliked and being dislikable. Every injury he sustained was an injury to his very selfhood. It was for reasons of self-protection that he dressed in the latest fashions, spoke with affectation, and placed himself as the central character of every tale. He built his persona as a shield around his person, because he knew very well how little his person could withstand.  A philosopher by the name of Heidegger coined the phrase being for death. He said that the encounter with death most profoundly highlights the question of being. To quote him, only humanity has the distinction of standing and facing death, because the human being is earnest about being. Death is a supreme testimony to being. That is Heidegger. A few decades later, a woman by the name of Sabina Spielreich, later to become Jung's lover, patient and then lover, she wrote a paper titled Destruction as the Cause of Coming into Being. She published it in 1912, and she was the first to describe something that is recognizable as the death drive. Freud, as usual, borrowed from Alfred Adler and from Sabina Spielreich, combined their insights in 1920 into what became Thanatos, the death drive. Thanatos, Freud never used the word Thanatos, not even as in contra-distinction to errors, the force of life. The term Thanatos was invented much later, introduced by Wilhelm Steckel, and the modern usage of the word Thanatos is attributed to Paul Federer. What is the death drive that I keep talking about? The death drive is the opposite of libido, the opposite of the life drive or the life force. The death drive pushes us to die, to disintegrate, to break apart, to fall apart.  We tend to form associations, we tend to network, we tend to socialize, we tend to collaborate, we tend to build internal complex, internal psychological structures, we tend to eat, we tend to grow, and the death force, which is a biological component and a psychological component, the death force is like an internal clock ticking the time, provoking processes that essentially unravel us, essentially reverse, engineer everything that we have built. So the death force or the death drive is about physical death, inexorable, unstoppable. Always there is the final destination, everything geared towards it. So therefore one can say that death is the goal, at least teleologically speaking, but it's also psychological. Now, in Freud's work and many, many others to this very day, the death drive is the equivalent of the life drive. So the death drive, Thanatos, Destudo, Mortido, it has many names, is the exact equivalent of libido. We are born with libido and we are born with Destudo, we are born with both. Not in my work. In my work, the death drive is not a primal drive. The death drive is actually learned, acquired, internalized, inculcated, not innate. It is the dead mother's gift to her child. Well in this case of course, not everyone has a death drive. As you shall see in the continuation of this video, this is a very plausible hypothesis, actually much more plausible than Freud's contention that everyone has a death drive. It seems that only people who have been exposed to abuse, trauma, maltreatment, adverse childhood experiences, ACEs, only these kind of people develop a death drive. So it applies not only to children who become narcissists, but also for example to children who become codependent. Because what is codependency? It's about merging and fusing with another person. It's about disappearing into another person. It's about dying and reappearing, materializing inside the mind of the loved one. Similarly, the narcissist is unable to perceive external objects. Everything as far as is concerned is internal. So the narcissist is not alive in any meaningful sense of the word, because it does not act upon reality nor does he operate in it. The narcissist renounces life at a very early stage in life. So it's in my work only people who have been traumatized and abused have a death drive. Now why would they have a death drive? Remember the concept of the dead mother?  It's a mother who is emotionally absent, unavailable, selfish or self-centered, depressed.  A mother who does not let the child separate from her and individuate because she is not there to facilitate this process. And she does not serve as a secure base. This is known as a dead mother. This is a phrase coined by Andre Green, the psychoanalyst, in 1978.  She installs the death drive in her child as if it were some kind of app. So it's a piece of software. But why is that?  Because of what is known as ego ideal. Now the ego ideal is a huge part of the superego, which is in itself a part of the ego.  Now the superego represents an internalization, an introjection of voices of significant others. First and foremost, the mother, the primary caregiver. And remember when I say mother, it's anyone who fulfills the role of a mother. When I say mother, it has nothing to do with genitalia, it has to do with a role. So watch my video about role theory.   The child would create a superego, the voice of money, which promotes death, which is cold and detached and distant and unemotional and frozen. Money is the superego, in a process known as socialization, father comes later. But mommy generates the initial structures that coalesce into the superego. And one of these structures is the ego ideal, what the child wants to become, the child's fantasy of itself later in life. This is known as ego ideal. When I grow up, I want to be a fireman, or an astronaut, or Donald Trump.  It produces a superego that says, you are so bad and so unworthy, you should be dead. It all revolves around death, but why? What are the benefits of focusing on death rather than life? It's because the child tries to accomplish four psychological goals, to satisfy, to gratify or to cater to four major profound psychological needs. Number one, the child is trying to emulate, emulate, imitate the mother. If the mother is dead, the child is trying to emulate the mother's deadness. The child tries to become the mother in many ways, all children, healthy and unhealthy. They all try to become the mother, or emulator, imitator, and gradually become, are shaped by her, sculpted by her. Even are the mother's work of art.  I want to be dead as well. This identification and incorporation are critical features of early childhood development. Number two, by dying, or by aspiring to die, the child wants to get rid of the bed object. Again, this is a fantasy defense with pH, it's an unconscious fantasy defense. The child actually is told the mother's behavior, the mother's absence, or the mother's cold heartedness, or the mother's detached, insecure presence.  Something bad. And so the child internalizes these messages, some of them verbalize, verbal messages, some of them non-verbal messages. He internalizes these messages, and the child begins to consider itself as essentially bad. That is known as a bed object. The child develops a bed object that defines his or her sense of self and identity, however primordial and disjointed. The child grows up and the bed object grows with the child. The bed object conditions the child to fail in life, and the more frequently the child fails, the more the bed object is confirmed, validated, and affirmed. It becomes rigid, it becomes entrenched, and impossible to eradicate. The whole situation becomes intractable. One way to get rid of the bed object, for sure, is to die, or to render yourself as dead as mommy is. Then you are not a bed object anymore, because you are not. The narcissistic solution is exactly this. The child commits suicide as the true self, sacrifices the true self to a false self that exists only in the child's imagination. That is a concoction, piece of fiction. The child is gone and becomes a narcissist. So getting rid of the bed object is a second reason to develop a death drive. And this is something that other scholars have noted long before me. Akhtar in 1991, Shingold, Shingold in 1991 as well and so on. Akhtar called it the someday or the if only fantasies. And Shingold said that it is an attempted, and I'm quoting, an attempted reconciliation of everything and nothing fantasies. Which occurs transiently in dreamless sleep and in the ecstasy of orgasm. But the promise of permanence can be realized only after our individual lives are over. In other words, only death guarantees the permanence of being nothing. And why would you want to be nothing? Because the alternative to being nothing is being a bed object. And this is intolerable, unbearable.  It's a dissociative reaction by creating a false self. False self is a dissociative solution if you didn't realize it. Or you numb yourself. You numb. You wind down like a battery that's out of charge. And that's another solution. And then you become an extension of the parent, a co-dependent. The third reason to develop a death drive is in order to re-experience the symbiotic phase. Now we no longer use the phrase symbiotic, but I think it's great and I regret, I'm very sorry that it's no longer used. Because what happens between the mother and the child up till age 18 months is indeed symbiosis. They are one and the same. They are a single organism with two eggs. The child is unable to tell the distinction between himself or herself and the mother. Boundaries are just emerging. The perception that there is a world out there, external, internal, this is all very new and exceedingly traumatizing. The child is being seen by the mother. And this fact that the child can discern itself in the mother's gaze is in itself a mega, absolutely supernova trauma. So the child would wish, would wish to go back to the womb, to re-enter the womb, to re-experience symbiosis. Freud borrowed from Romain Rola and called it oceanic feeling. It's a loss of boundaries. It is self-extinguishing. It's like finding love in self-denial, identifying love with not being, with self-annihilation, with self-extermination, with dissolution, equating love with merger and fusion and therefore disappearance. In short, death is perceived by such a child as the ultimate form and manifestation and reification of love. If you want to love, you need to die and reappear inside mommy's womb.   The mother that is not good enough, the wrong kind of mother, the narcissistic mother, the psychopathic mother, in many cases the borderline mother, the psychotic mother, the paranoid mother.    So by re-entering my womb, you will have become all good. Isn't this a sign that I love you? That's a message these mothers send. These mothers send the message, if you die, you will become good, so I wish your death, I wish your death because I love you. And this is how love is identified with death. And this is not some vacuum, this is literally every major psychoanalyst and every major, every major thinker in psychology in my view. And I can mention Lacan in 1938, Lewin in 1950, Jacobson in 1964, Mahler in 1971, Kaplan in 1978. And today Chasseau de Schmirgel in 1984 and 1991, he called it nostalgia for primary narcissism and so on. They all say that merging with the mother, fusing with the mother, giving up on emerging identity, nascent boundaries is a way to experience symbiosis. And a feeling that you are suddenly an all good object, the outcome of splitting this oceanic feeling. The fourth reason to develop a death drive as a solution to trauma and abuse is to ensure immediate and automatic gratification of needs without agency, without guilt, without shame, without a sense of inferiority. Because as the traumatized and abused child, if he were to develop agency, for example, if he were to feel responsible for who he is and for his actions, this kind of child is overwhelmed with guilt and shame.  And she would gratify his needs without granting the child independence and personal autonomy and agency and therefore by taking away the child's responsibility for his or her actions, the child would never feel shame and guilt again. Of course this is precisely what the narcissist is trying to recreate with his intimate partner.  And as you gratify my needs, you won't be able to hold me responsible for anything because I don't exist anymore. That is the core and essence of the shared fantasy, regressing to the symbiotic phase and then of course the narcissist wishes to progress and separate and individuate and so on and so forth. So Lacan in 1964 said that the death drive is the suicidal tendency of narcissism and I think it captures and encapsulates everything I've just said. But then sometimes the death drive appears very late in life, middle age for example. Why? Why are some traumatized and abused children? Why are they capable of maintaining a reasonably structured and functional life and others can't? Why in some cases the self-destructiveness, the wish to die, the wish to obviate and negate oneself? Why do these appear late? Late onset self-defeat? While in others they appear early. I think it has to do with something called deferred obedience. Again it was Zygmunt Freud who coined this phrase in 1923. He said that unheeded parental threats, wishes and commands become manifest, they gain power much later on in life. So the child for reasons of self-preservation may reject the mother, ignore her but the mother's introject, the mother's voice, the internal object that represents the mother is embedded and implanted and installed in the child's mind and when the child grows up and becomes an adult, this thing, this alien foreign body entity is activated and then the child obeys these mysterious inaccessible voices in his head, totally unconscious and this is known as deferred obedience.   That's the mother's wish, that's the mother's command, that's her message and her signal and her only communication, overpowering, overriding and overwhelming and yet sometimes it takes time, years, decades even, until this voice suddenly erupts maybe life circumstances, maybe stress, hitting rock bottom, I don't know what a replication of the early conflict with the biological mother in a romantic relationship the right kind of partner who pushes the narcissist button and regresses him too far at that moment the interject of the mother erupts, takes over, poisons the entire system and goblzita assimilates it and the narcissist starts to act as a robotic zombie on the path to self-destruction, utter self-destruction very often this kind of narcissist would act out, crazy make and engage in activities that are utterly detrimental to his health, to his peace of mind and sometimes his freedom and all this is a delayed activation of the mother's interject and then automatic deferred obeisance and so on but why the emptiness? I keep saying in the footsteps of Kernberg and Gantrieb and others that there is an empty schizoid core, if the mother generates in the child, inculcates in the child a death drive, why would the child feel empty? in order to die you first need to be, you can't die if you're not alive so why does the child feel empty and not alive and how if the child feels already dead how can this kind of child contemplate death as a child and later as an adult the emptiness is not merely a subjective appraisal, a result of an introspective project no, it's not the outcome of some amazing insight, lifelong insight the emptiness is a knowing feeling, it's I compare it to hunger, hunger you know when you're very very very like very hungry like me right now that's how the emptiness feels, like a small animal inside you that is knowing at your insides and somewhat digesting them relentlessly, inexorably, unstoppably that's the emptiness so it's not an emotion, it's not even a state of mind it's not a mood, it's not an effect it's not cognition, it's none of these things what is it then? I think the emptiness is the inner experience of the death drive when the child develops a death drive he experiences his death or her death drive as this emptiness it is anticipatory it's like the child says once I'm dead this is how I'm gonna feel this empty, this black hole, this void is what I'm gonna become and kind of, so the child kind of samples samples his or her own impending looming death structurally and clinically and etiologically the emptiness has a reason narcissists and borderlines feel empty especially narcissists because there is no ego there remember that narcissists failed at the separation, individuation phase they couldn't separate from mommy, from mother and therefore never became individuals and because they couldn't separate from mother who was never a secure base they didn't dare to take on the world, to explore it so they have impaired reality testing so these kind of children, adults later in life they don't have an ego and because they are not separate they are not individuals and they have no access to reality these are ego functions okay, so they don't have an ego what about the superego? they don't have a superego either they do have something that sounds a lot like a superego looks a lot like a superego, talks and walks like a superego but it's not a superego because when you don't have an ego you can't have a superego I have a surprise for all the self-styled experts online superego is a part of the ego so what do they have instead? they have the introject of the dead mother the introject of the dead mother is an internal object that fulfills all the functions of a superego could be harsh, could be sadistic could be conscientious could provide advice all the time passing running commentary so it feels a lot like a superego but it's not so if you were to look inside the narcissist with a psychological microscope or telescope you would find that there's no ego there consequently there's no superego there and the only thing inside the narcissist is a playground of internal objects the most dominant of which is the mother's internal object the mother's introject which functions like a sadistic harsh superego but is not that's why it feels alien ego-alien it doesn't feel the narcissist doesn't experience his superego as is that's why narcissists and for borderlines are disinhibited because the superego is inefficacious it is unable to control behavior because it's not real it's not the correct construct it's not the true thing it's not the real McCoy so if there's no ego and consequently there's no superego what is there? nothing basically some drive, some instincts, some reflexes very animalistic essentially nothing and this nothing is the emptiness that I'm describing it is a sense of being one of the walking dead a zombie that's how narcissists experience themselves and I have a video about this as well of course about narcissists as zombies and zimbos and what have you when the narcissist finds an intimate partner he wants her to replicate his dead mother because he doesn't recognize any other type of mother the narcissist has been exposed to only one kind of mother the dead mother so anything else is not perceived as a mother so the narcissist coerces his intimate partner to become more and more dead more and more dysfunctional more and more angry at him more and more absent more and more hating and ultimately to be betraying the way his mother did that's the narcissist's betrayal fantasy once a narcissist has identified his intimate partner as yet another dead mother he is now ready to separate from her and to individuate the only goal of the shared fantasy the role of the intimate partner as a dead mother is to reactivate the narcissist's death drive is to kill the child a second time is to broadcast to the narcissist I want you dead because I love you I want you inside me I want to merge with you and fuse with you so that you don't, so that you cease to exist that's what the narcissist wants from his intimate partner if his intimate partner truly loves him if she recoils a disassignment then she is a bad partner and she provokes in him frustration and aggression that's the irony a loving partner would provoke the narcissist to extreme aggression a partner who resembles his mother who is dead, who is absent, who is depressed who is a borderline for example labor is regulated a partner who seeks merger infusion a partner who wants the narcissist wants to deactivate deactivate the narcissist wants the narcissist as an inert object that is the ideal partner for the narcissist because then he can devalue her and separate from her and discard her now let's talk a bit about the history of the concept of the death drive in 1914 Freud linked narcissism to psychopathy and aggression as well as well as to a lack of moral inhibitions that was in 1960 then in 1920 in response to Adler's concept of aggression Adler said that aggression is a form of healthy self-assertion in response to this Freud postulated what he called his words a demonic force he later renamed it luckily for us as the death instinct and he said that it is the death instinct that accounts for masochism internalized aggression sadism, externalized aggression chronic hostility PTSD and CPTSD although he didn't use the term of course rumination obsession, guilt and repetition compulsion now as you can see immediately every human being has this there are numerous human beings who do not have repetition compulsion are not masochists, are not sadists are not chronically hostile never experience PTSD or CPTSD and are not obsessive these people in my work these people do not have a death drive only traumatized abused people have a death drive and of course Freud forgot to mention depression Freud went to the extent of saying the aim of all life is death talk about an optimistic person Freud borrowed a lot and I'm being charitable from the work of Barbara Low she came up with the Nirvana principle and another guy called Fechner Fechner came up with the Consonancy or Stability principle what these guys and girls said is that everything decays everything degenerates everything falls apart everything is disassembled entropy everything returns to inorganic matter Freud innovated by linking this process to pleasure and to death he said that we're trying to convert this inexorable returning to disorder return to disorder we're trying to somehow externalize it via for example sex ego the ego and the libido in Freud's work they deflect the death drive they externalize it they project it outwardly and they use the body to do this the aggressive instinct which according to Freud is very dominant in sex for example this also explains narcissists propensity for antisocial behavior Freud's final position on drive theory was postulated in 1923 he published a book then the ego and the id and in this book Freud proposed his famous tree-partite structure of the mind superior the life and death instinct in this work now existed side by side in one of these structures the id so there's no death instinct in the ego although the ego limits the id the ego constricts the id and so in many respects the ego imposes death death upon the id still the resonance of the death the death drive is in the id Freud also observed correctly that the life force and the death force eros and Thanatos combine, Thanatos is not Freud's combine he said there's no such thing as only death-oriented activities and only life-oriented activities everything we do involves destruction and renewal disintegration and survival and I would add here that the French called orgasm leptinot the small death much later greenacre melanocline and so on so forth they disagreed with this they said that psychopathy is a defensive projective identification of the secretary superego structures and attendant internal objects but we're not going into this right now I think one misconception is that the death drive is only about death it's not only about death it's about as I said decay it's about disuse it's about atrophy it's about entropy for example take the work of melanocline and hoot isla envy primary envy in their work primary envy is an expression of the death instinct it is the narcissist for example the narcissist envies everything that is good every good object real or imagined the narcissist envies the good object now the narcissist defines good very idiosyncratically but whatever the narcissist decides is good he envies this water is good so for example imagine a situation where the narcissist becomes a good object or develops a good object or a phase in the narcissist life where everyone keeps telling him that is a good object there will be a paradoxical reaction here the narcissist would envy himself and would try to destroy himself because he cannot stand a good object he's a bad object he cannot stand a good object the envy is too corrosive it erodes him it destroys him and he needs to remove the object of frustration that causes him envy even if it is himself so suddenly when you tell the narcissist you're a really good person suddenly he would do something horrible an example the death drive is used in client's work so to explain mental operations that seek to destroy sublime and well synthesized ego attributes and functions and the capacity for in depth object relations so the death drive also prevents the narcissist from interacting with other people in a meaningful way via object relations for example falling in love creating a family don't confuse this with the shared fantasy the shared fantasy has nothing to do with intimate partner intimate partner is an actor on stage is a figment of the narcissist imagination and mind the shared fantasy is imposed on the intimate partner the intimate partner is rendered a prop an object so this is not love this is not object relations the death drive in the narcissist is so overpowering so deterministically determines his identity that the narcissist is essentially incapable of object relations and of course when you are so flooded inundated with death and the death drive this creates a lot of anxiety and narcissistic supply the obsession and compassion in narcissistic supply is about mitigating and ameliorating anxiety ironically decades later the 50s and 60s object relations school reverted to throw it in 1915 they started to say that aggression is externalized owing to frustration rejection deprivation and withholding that's the work of winnichord country, ferber, baulby and many others so they were actually implying there's no need for the death drive we can explain perfectly well aggression both internal and external we don't need the death but what they fail to see is that these frustration rejection, privation withholding by the mother is actually a death sentence a mother who rejects withholds frustrations deprives the child of his basic needs it's a mother who is sentencing the child to die if not physically then definitely mentally it's the death drive it comes from the mother not from the inside it is a mother's parallel and poisoned gift to the child andrei green got a glimpse of this he wrote various essays and so on in 1983, 2001, 2002 and he said there are two forms of narcissism one that shapes a certain lifestyle certain manner of living in other ways a narcissism that tells you how to live how to conduct your affairs what decisions and choices to make and he called it the life narcissism and he contrasted it with the death narcissism he says that the death narcissism fuels cynicism avoidance withdrawal narcissism he said results in living that is restricted to illusory relationships without genuine involvement with others death narcissism embodies a culture of void emptiness self contempt destructive withdrawal permanent self depreciation with a predominant masochistic quality tears tears tears so green holmed in on this he began to see the convergence between Freud's late-onset realization of the existence of the death drive and the object relations school which gave us the key as to how the death drive emerges bad parenting bad mothering not good enough mother Now, many analysts kept comparing the situation to sleep because the death drive implies wanting to go back to the womb, wanting to become a fetus, wanting to undo your life. I want to unlive, you know the famous word, unalive, we don't say commit suicide anymore, unalive. This is it, the death drive is about unaliving yourself, but unaliving yourself by re-emerging, by refusing with your mother. By the way, it's ironic that if I say to refuse, it's also like refuse. So there's an ambivalence here, a love-hate relationship with the mother.  So they discussed a lot sleep as a metaphor or equivalent, they compared it to sleep and so on and so forth. They said that in sleep, we also assume a futile position, an embryo position, I don't know, I don't know who they slept with, I don't, but okay.  So they said sleep and death, essentially the same because it's a return to the maternal womb and the bodies look the same and for example in ancient graves, they were placing the body in a fetal position, like an embryo, okay. So according to some thinkers, the death drive is the equivalent of choosing an extended sleep comma vegetative state. I disagree, I and many others of course disagree because the death drive is an active thing, proactive, it's not passive, it's not like playing dead, like some animals do, you know, when they are terrified and so on they freeze, they play dead, it's not like playing dead, it's like pursuing death, it's like having a love affair with death, it's like being emotionally invested in death, affected in death, it's like believing, developing the unconscious conviction that death is love and love is life and therefore life is death, the best environment to live in is mother's womb where you could un-be legitimately un-become. So this is why Liechtenstein in 1963 said that the death drive is a deep-seated wish for loss of human identity by metamorphosis, yes, not Kafka's metamorphosis, not becoming an insect but becoming an embryo, becoming a fetus, losing the features of agency, autonomy, independence, externality, separateness, Cordelia Schmidt, Pelerin in 2006 published a brilliant paper on this and I recommend that you. I want to read to you a short encyclopedia entry about a specific school in object relations, Fairburn, an amazing thinker, a bit too convoluted for my taste, I will place him together with Lacan in the indisarferable department and I think he multiplies entities unnecessarily, so I'm not an adherent of him, Fairburn, but there's no way to discuss the death drive without discussing Fairburn because he came up with a very relevant concept, the internal saboteur. Fairburn described what he called the endo-psychic structure, he analyzed dreams, he worked with schizoids, schizoids and so on and so forth, like a country, same, and he said the traditional structural model, the id-ego-super-ego is wrong or partial, at best it's partial, and he suggested another taxonomy, another classification and he said that the ego structure should be split into three parts, the central ego of the eye, it is the seat of introspection, self-observation, self-experience that is owned, self-experience that you really assimilate and becomes you, and then there is the libidinal ego, which is highly endowed with libido, and then there is a part that attacks the libidinal ego and the attack is vindictive, destructive, and this part is the anti-libidinal ego or the eternal saboteur, I think it's just a fancy name for the death right, and I don't agree that everyone has this, I think it's acquired or learned under highly specific adverse life circumstances, libido according to Fairburn is at the disposal of the libidinal ego, and aggression is at the disposal of the internal saboteur, and again I beg to disagree, I think libido, life force, is meaningless and useless without aggression, even in sex exactly as Freud had observed, so and according to Fairburn these ego structures appeared with corresponding internal objects, the libidinal ego is attached to the exciting object, the internal saboteur is attached to the rejecting object, rejecting mother for example, the central ego observes and relates to both the libidinal ego and the internal saboteur, the two subsidiary, so the central ego in Fairburn's work has a conscious part, a pre-conscious part and an unconscious part, now the two subsidiary egos, the libidinal and the antelibidinal or internal saboteur, these two parts are essentially unconscious, Fairburn said that these three structures have similarities, superficial similarities with the ego, the id and the superego, but there are very important differences as well, central ego corresponds to the ego of classical psychoanalysis, but it is not derived from something else, it is not derived for example from an undifferentiated ego id matrix, it doesn't break apart from some primordial lump and the central ego is not dependent for its activity on the demands of the id, the libidinal ego resembles the id but it is a derivative of the central ego and not a reservoir of instinctual tension like in Freud's work, the internal saboteur which is of interest to us, the seat of the death drive in my work resembles the superego but differs in two important ways, number one it is not an externalized object but a split of part of the central ego and this is very similar to my work because in my work the death drive is not seated in a superego because the narcissist does not have a superego, the death drive inhabits in my work an maternal internal object that is rejecting and withdrawing and avoiding her heart full and so on, so the mother introject is embedded in the narcissist's mind and it gives rise and birth to the death drive and that's very close to fervor in some ways, another feature of the internal saboteur is that it is devoid of all moral significance, it's amoral, it has no morality and this links with Freud's disinhibition concept, so these are very fascinating, glittering, you know amazing ideas and many scholars fell for them, Harry Gantry, Otto Kanberg, Frederiko Perega, David Schaaf as and it's still ongoing, Febren is still studied and analyzed and so on and so forth but as I said I think he failed the test of parsimony and he multiplied entities unnecessarily, there is no need for an internal saboteur, the death drive is a drive and there are enough constructs to accommodate the death drive without introducing yet a lock, now sometimes the death drive is called destudo or motiddo, as far as I remember Freud never used the word destudo but did use the word motiddo, as far as I remember, from Rome any one of you who is a psychoanalyst and versed in Freud's writings please correct me and I would I will ban you immediately, so that was a joke by the way, so first of all there's a big debate as to who invented who invented the word destudo, that's very common in psychology, everyone thinks they invented something when actually someone else did, never mind, so there's a debate, there's a Eduardo Weiss who claimed that he invented it in 1935 and he said that the destudo is the energy of the death or destructive instinct in analogy to libido and others like Wilhelm Stechel claimed that they coined the word destudo in 1920 to denote the psychic energy of the death instinct and again it's analogous to libido which is the psychic energy of the life instinct, by the way life instinct, death instinct, this is wrong, should be life drive, death drive, okay, but Stechel used the word instinct erroneously then destudo was misattributed to Freud which pissed him off no end and he made sure never to use destudo in in his work even though he was well aware of it, he refused, Freud refused to postulate it, there is such a thing because Freud said there's only one energy and it's the energy of life, the death drive is not an energy and there's no corresponding energy so he completely disagreed with destudo and he said this would create energy dualism and so on and so forth and a much later scholar by the name of Jean Laplace elaborated on this and it sounds like an obscure irrelevant debate, not germane to any but actually it's very important because if it is an energy you're born with it, it's innate and if it is not an energy it opens the possibility that it is acquired or learned somehow and Freud never decided, never committed himself to any of these interpretations as Jean Bertrand Pontali observed, Paul Ferdin used multido instead of destudo and Eric Bern of transactional analysis fame, games people play and so on and so forth, he saw multido or destudo or whatever you want to call it as activating such forces of hate and cruelty, blinding anger, social hostility and he said if this is directed inward it creates enormous guilt and subsequent self-management and he actually focused on the death drive, multido, again whatever you want to call it, he recognized that the death drive in many situations is more important sexually than the life drive and that's how he tackled sadomasochism and even destructive emotional relationships or emotional coercion, La Plange I mentioned and so on and so forth, I want to read to you to conclude, I want to read to you a thing or two about the unusual ways that we can apply the death drive, it's a very useful concept, Lacan wrote that every drive is virtually a death drive, why? Because he said every drive pursues its own extinction, its own liquidation, you know you have a drive to eat, you eat, you no longer have a drive to eat, so the drive to eat pursues its own end, its own ending, when you gratified, satisfied the drive it disappears, so it's a kind of suicide, the second reason is every drive said Lacan involves the subject in repetition, every drive is repetitive, every drive happens again and again and again, recurs like repetition compulsion in Freud's work and third reason every drive is an attempt to go beyond the pleasure principle to the realm of excess jouissance, excess enjoyment to the point that the enjoyment, the pleasure is perceived as suffering too much of a good thing and he said that drives are out of control, they push you to more and more and more so if you're into sex you become a sex addict and if you eat you overeat and then you become suffering, so if you take these three reasons into account every drive is a death drive, it's a pretty revolutionary thing to say, I now want to read to you a section paragraph from an encyclopedia and then I will bid you farewell and hope that you survive this video, the source of the death drive lies in the catexes of bodily zones that can generate afferent excitations for the psyche then, this certainly involves tension in the musculature, determined by a biological urge, its locus is in the id then later under the influence of the ego as well as in the superego where it functions to restrict libidinization it operates, so this is very important because the narcissist lacks an ego and a superego, there's nothing to constrain the death drive in the narcissist and he will drag you into it as well, narcissist spreads death, he spreads death, his life is organized according to a death principle, it's a death cult, the shared fantasy is a death cult, in melancholia continues the encyclopedia, a pure culture of the death instinct governs the superego such as such that the ego can impel the subject towards death, the operation of this almost invisible energy has been described as a work of the negative by andrei greene, its object is the implementing organ the musculature that enables the aim to be fulfilled, paradoxically the libido subject to restraint by the distrudo and leading to primary masochism and sadism is the object of the death drive here, according to Freud's descriptions its goal is dissociation regression or even dissolution, while leading organic life back to an inorganic state is the final stage, the purpose of the death drive is to fulfill as far as is possible a desobjectilizing function by means of unbinding says andrei greene, it is therefore an entropic process in this strict sense, in his short article on negation Freud explained, a fumation as a substitute for uniting belongs to eros negation the successor of expulsion belongs to the instinct of destruction, furthermore studies based on the treatment of psychotic subjects particularly by post-clinians seem to have reinforced the theory of the prevalence of the death drive in the psychic apparatus of these patients as something that constantly tears at the fabric of their representations and undermines their attempts to establish an apparatus for thinking thoughts, this is the work of wilfred bion actually, we've gone a long way and we've circumnavigated the globe and i've reviewed the death in death drive from as far as i know every possible angle and i think it all leads to the conclusion the sad conclusion that when a child is born it is given the choice between life and death by his mother and healthy mothers, loving mothers, caring mothers, winnigotian good enough mothers let the child choose that is exactly separation, individuation, some children choose death regardless of the mother but the overwhelming vast majority choose life it is when the mother chooses for the child that she invariably chooses death even if she believes that she's choosing life even if she thinks she's being protective and loving and caring and holding and containing whenever the mother makes the choice she is choosing death for her child and once the child has become intimate with death there is no going back because death is the womb it's an oceanic feeling it's nilvana it's the beginning and the end and it is far superior to life far more gratifying far more engulfing and encompassing and soothing and comforting once a child gets in touch and gets to know death it never lets go and it keeps choosing death into adulthood and into its own physical death that is a mother's gift poison gift that is a legacy mothers a mother's main role is to push the child away to reject the child in a loving manner to serve as a secure base while the child is propelled by her encouraged by her to explore the world out there externally separate from her a mother who is too insecure too selfish to let the child go is a mother who chooses death for her child and her child will never ever 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Bill Gates likes to fancy himself as the goody-two-shoes of billionaires, right? He would never exploit his workers to the extent that Jeff Bezos does and he'd never act as douchey and public as Elon Musk does, although if you try to impose a wealth tax on him, then he might test that theory. But I mean, he really tries to project this image of purity and altruism and he wants to make it seem as if he should hoard all of this wealth because he's using this wealth exclusively to try to make the world a better place. And it's not just that he's trying to use his wealth to better the world as an individual. He's just pure. At every waking minute, he's constantly reading studies to find new ways to stop climate catastrophe. He is very immersed in the here and the now and very immersed in coming up with solutions.  Sure, Dan. Mm, doubtful. But Bill Gates doesn't want you to know that he has done something recently that has made him one of the most evil people in the world, not just among billionaires, but humanity's offering, one of the worst, because New Republic explains that Bill Gates impeded global access to covid vaccines through his hallowed foundation, the world's de facto public health czar has been a stalwart defender of monopoly medicine. Now, this article is so long and comprehensive, but it's also groundbreaking. And I would encourage you to pause this video and just go read that article if you have the time. Having said that, though, I can't get to everything in this article, but I'm going to try to give you the breakdown because what this describes is that Bill Gates screwed the world when it comes to covid vaccines. He's created the global apartheid system that we're all dealing with currently. He's the reason why developing countries may not actually get the covid vaccine until 2024. Now, to give you some context at the start of the pandemic, before it was even declared a pandemic, there was a meeting from the global community that formulated CTAB, which is a commitment to share knowledge, intellectual property and data all related to the novel coronavirus because they agreed that eradicating the virus, it was a global effort because no country would be safe unless all countries are safe. So there was no reason to hoard information, hoard medicine, intellectual property. Although this commitment to openness and sharing knowledge, it didn't actually bear out. Why? Because of Bill Gates. As New Republic's Alexander Zaitchik explains in April, Bill Gates launched a bold bid to manage the world's scientific response to the pandemic. Gates's Covid-19 Act Accelerator expressed a status quo vision for organizing the research, development, manufacture and distribution of treatments and vaccines. Like other Gates-funded institutions in the public health arena, the accelerator was a public-private partnership based on charity and industry enticements. Crucially and in contrast to the CTAB, the accelerator enshrined Gates's longstanding commitment to respecting exclusive intellectual property claims. It's implicit arguments that intellectual property rights won't represent problems from meeting global demand or ensuring equitable access and that they must be protected even during a pandemic. Carried the enormous weight of Gates's reputation as a wise, beneficent and prophetic leader, how he's developed and wielded this influence over two decades as one of the more consequential and underappreciated shapers of the failed global response to the Covid-19 pandemic entering year two. This response has been defined by a zero sum vaccination battle that has left much of the world on the losing side. Gates's Marquis Covid-19 initiative started relatively small. Two days before the World Health Organization declared a pandemic on March 11th of 2020, the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation announced something called the Therapeutics Accelerator, a joint initiative with MasterCord and the charity group, the Wellcome Trust to identify and develop potential treatments for the novel coronavirus, doubling as a social branding exercise for a giant of global finance. The accelerator reflected Gates's familiar formula of corporate philanthropy, which he applied to everything from malaria to malnutrition. In retrospect, it was a strong indicator that Gates's dedication to monopoly medicine would survive the pandemic even before he and his foundation's officers began to say so publicly. This was confirmed when a bigger version of the accelerator was unveiled the following month at The Who. The access to Covid-19 tools accelerator or ACT accelerator was Gates's bid to organize the development and distribution of everything from therapeutics to testing, the biggest and most consequential arm COVAX proposed to subsidize vaccine deals with poor countries through donations by and sales to richer ones. The goal was always limited. It aimed to provide vaccines for up to 20 percent of the population in low to middle income countries. After that, governments would largely have to compete on the global market like everyone else. It was a partial demand side solution to what the movement coalescing around a call for a people's vaccine warned would be a dual crisis of supply and access with intellectual property at the center of both. Gates not only dismissed these warnings, but actively sought to undermine all challenges to his authority and the accelerator's intellectual property based charity agenda. One year later, ACT accelerator has failed to meet its goal of providing discounted vaccines to the priority fifth of low income populations. The drug companies and rich nations that had so much praise for the initiative a year ago have retreated into bilateral deals that leave little for anybody else. As of this writing in early April, fewer than 600 million vaccine doses have been administered around the world. Three quarters of those in just 10 mostly high income countries close to 130 countries containing 2.5 billion people have yet to administer a single dose, the timeline for supplying poor and middle income countries with enough vaccines to achieve herd immunity. Meanwhile, has been pushed into 2024. These numbers represent more than the catastrophic moral failure. The director general of the WHO warned about this January. Technically housed within the WHO, the ACT accelerator is a Gates operation top to bottom. It is designed, managed and staffed largely by Gates organization employees. It embodies Gates's philanthropic approach to widely anticipated problems posed by intellectual property hoarding companies able to constrain global production by prioritizing rich countries and inhibiting licensing. Companies partnering with COVAX are allowed to set their own tiered prices. They are subject to almost no transparency requirements and to toothless contractual nods to equitable access that have never been enforced. Crucially, the companies retain exclusive rights to their intellectual property. If they stray from the Gates Foundation line on exclusive rights, they are quickly brought to heel. When the director of Oxford's Jenner Institute had funny ideas about placing the rights to its COVAX supported vaccine candidate in the public domain, Gates intervened as reported by Kaiser Health News. A few weeks later, Oxford urged on by the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation, reversed course and signed an exclusive vaccine deal with AstraZeneca that gave the pharmaceutical giant soul rights and no guarantee of low prices. So I just want to stop right there because we just consumed a lot of information, but let's just look at that last paragraph there, that last sentence in particular. So Oxford, they developed this vaccine that would go on to be the AstraZeneca COVID vaccine and originally they wanted to make sure that this vaccine was available on the public domain so smaller developing countries can use what they created and replicate that manufacture generic versions of COVID vaccines so they could vaccinate their own populations faster and not have to wait until 2024. But they had a change of heart when Bill Gates intervened. And if you're asking yourself, yeah, will he intervene? But what did he say? Like, what could get them to change their mind about something that would very obviously be a net benefit for world health? Well, it's not necessarily what he said. It's what he could do if they don't listen, because when you go to the website of the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation, you will see that they've given Oxford millions of dollars in grants in 2020 and they even gave them a grant for 2021. So if they don't comply with the demands of a man who's a gigantic source of funding that they rely on, he could easily pull funding from them like that. In other words, they probably felt like they had no choice but to comply if they're going to continue to get this funding that they desperately rely on. Bill Gates stopped Oxford from making their vaccine public, which would be objectively good for smaller countries.  I live in the UK, in the United States, in a developed country. And I'm not necessarily worried about myself getting the vaccine. And I mean, I don't really care about these smaller countries. It doesn't work that way. This is a pandemic and we're not protected fully until everyone in the world is protected. So let me explain to you what could happen as a result of Bill Gates and him pushing vaccine apartheid. Let's say we get 90 percent of the population in the United States vaccinated by the end of the year, and it seems as if the pandemic has come to an end. Well, in Latin America, in Africa, in Asia, what if they don't actually vaccinate enough people and the virus continues to spread to the point where new mutations emerge that are resistant to the vaccine that we've used to inoculate all of our citizens? What happens then? All of us are fucked. The pandemic continues for who knows how much longer? All because he wants to protect the intellectual property of these big pharma giants. And really, it's not about the intellectual property per se, but it's about them being the sole manufacturers of these vaccines. They don't want to allow for a generic version to be made because they want to be the ones to profit off of it. Bill Gates, perpetuating that. Absolutely morally reprehensible, objectively terrible for the human species. For a man who's tried to build this reputation of stopping catastrophic climate change and saving humanity. What he did.  To get international institutions to be greedy and hoard knowledge about the vaccines that could be life saving, that will be life saving if developed countries were able to make them themselves and didn't have to rely on Moderna or Pfizer to give them to them. Now, when he's challenged about this, this next part of the story explains that his response is to just be completely condescending and laugh off the criticism. Gates can hardly disguise his contempt for the growing interest in intellectual property barriers in recent months as the debate has shifted from the who to the WTO reporters have drawn testy responses from Gates that harken back to his prickly performances before congressional antitrust hearings a quarter century ago. When a fast company reporter raised the issue in February, she described Gates raising his voice slightly and laughing in frustration before snapping, quote, it's irritating that this issue comes up here. This isn't about IP. In interview after interview, Gates has dismissed his critics on the issue who represent the poor majority of the global population as spoiled children demanding ice cream before dinner, quote, it's the classic situation in global health where the advocates all of a sudden want the vaccine for zero dollars and right away, he told Reuters in late January, Gates has lauded the insults with comments that equate state protected and publicly funded monopolies with the free market, quote, North Korea doesn't have that many vaccines. As far as we can tell, he told the New York Times in November. It is curious that he chose North Korea as an example and not Cuba, a socialist country with an innovative and world-class vaccine development program with multiple COVID-19 vaccine candidates in various stages of testing. The closest Gates has come to conceding that vaccine monopolies inhibit production came during a January interview with South Africa's male and guardian asked about the growing intellectual property debate. He responded at this point, changing the rules, wouldn't make any additional vaccines available. In other words, oops, looks like it's too late to reverse course. Now looks like we're going to have to do it my way. Teehee, this is pure evilness. I don't know what else to call it. If for whatever reason, some sort of mutation that's resistant to the vaccines that exist now pops up because we don't vaccinate enough human beings throughout the world fast enough, Bill Gates is largely to thank for that. So regardless of the public image that he tries to promote, this individual is not your friend. This is not a good billionaire. That's not a thing.  That's who Bill Gates is.