Microphone is not on. Okay, apologies for that. Paula? I was just saying yes, I usually do this over on a Friday, do it on Sunday because I've been doing a lot of work trying to prevent my YouTube videos. Much apologies for the sound though. I should have checked that. So yeah, welcome back to another stream. If you haven't been on one of these before this is basically an opportunity to ask me anything about autism, mental health fitness, self-improvement, anything that you could imagine within reason. You're very welcome to ask some some questions about that. Hello, Sarah and Bernard. Welcome to the stream. How are you doing? Yeah, so I am going to be putting out a new like proper YouTube video. It's going to be like a pretty much like an hour long presentation on autistic burnout, the autistic burnout roller coaster, which I'm really excited to, you know, put out like a proper full end video. I haven't done one of those in a while, but like the podcasts and things like that. So it's going to be good. It's going to be cool. Really excited to get my teeth into that. And I'm sure it should be useful to some of you out there. You are currently going through the old burnout. It's not the most fun thing to experience in life. It's from personal experience. And I definitely have had a lot of time to reflect on the reasons why I went into a burnout post the fact. So I've got a little bit more of a personal angle to share, I guess in terms of like, you know, how I dealt with it. Hello, Mr. Austin. How are you doing today? Midnight butterfly iris says any tips on teeth brushing struggles? Good question. So that that comes under the umbrella term of executive functioning. Executive functioning is basically your brain's ability to like switch between tasks, like understand the amount of time that stuff requires. And it's quite difficult, both for people who are ADHD and autistic, because sometimes the transition time between very small tasks can be very, very difficult. On the ADHD side of things, it can be a little bit more hard to focus, whereas on like the autism side. In my case, transitioning between multiple different little things is a lot more stressful than like sending sending time aside during the week to do something. When it comes to things like hygiene, you know, that definitely falls under the umbrella of executive functioning. One of the ways that I kind of consistently stay on top of my teeth brushing is by task stacking. So basically, if you don't know what that is, I have a routine in the night that I do, and it doesn't necessarily have to be the gym, but for me, it's usually started with, you know, I'll finish work, finish some kind of projects that I'm working on, I'll go to the gym, I'll come home, I'll have a shower, and during the shower, I'll try and get myself to brush my teeth.  It sounds a bit gross, you know, where you're going to get rid of the excess, but I'm sure you can think of some reasons, you know, like a bottle or something, if you are really struggling in those mornings. On the evenings, like stacking, teeth brushing while I'm in the shower has been quite helpful, and I always see, like, medication stuff comes after that, skincare or all that stuff. So it's stacking things on top of your routine and just making it as easy as possible to go through the process without, you know, having to get a wind down for bed, have to have tea, you know, watch your show, get all snuggled up in bed and remembering to brush your teeth, having to transition out of resting to get into the bathroom. It doesn't sound like a lot of effort, I guess, talking about it, surface level, but definitely, like, you know, a daily thing, I can understand why it's difficult for a lot of people and myself even. I hope that has helped to some degree, that's how I tackle it. Sarah and Banata's, hi Thomas. I discovered you two days ago by the algorithm, music on a real wild being autistic. Me, ADHD diagnosed at 43 years old. Well, very welcome to the stream. Thank you for helping on Sarah and, you know, engaging. Austin says in a bed about about some nap probably, getting some rest and recovery in there. I'm very nice. Hello, Angela. Nice to see you. How are you doing? Abby says, can also be a sensory issue. I don't like mint 100%. I think that's, that's another thing. And you kind of find, if you look online, you can find flavoured toothpaste that aren't minty, if you find that difficult. For me, it's the actual like teeth, like, like the toothbrush bristles, like I find it quite uncomfortable to do. Usually when I'm in the shower, it kind of mitigates that feeling to some degree, because, you know, I've got like a warm water on me, and it's, it's a little bit like nicer. So I can sort of, you know, do that a bit better. Hello, Woodshed. How are you doing? And for gay, nice to see you. Woodshed, I didn't realize that you also did. I think, I think, I think it was you, Woodshed, who has a YouTube channel about autism. Am I right? But yeah, there's stuff about brushing teeth, finding toothpaste. You can find some, some different flavoured ones, definitely, 100%. Hello, John. Welcome to the stream. Cath Kraken asks a very good question. What are your thoughts on how autism is portrayed in the media? I think it's very varied to a lot of degrees. I think the hard thing about portraying autism in the media is that, you know, we, we, we throw around this statement a lot, and it's definitely true, like autistic people that, you know, vary in their presentations a lot. And their experiences and opinions and things of that nature. So it's always going to, like, not cover everybody in a sense. So most of the representations of autistic people tend to either come in one, like the bad ones tend to come either under like two categories, either like these, they're these hyper-intellectual kind of amazing, incredible, you know, just like God-like, intellects, figures who can just do everything at ease. You've got that aspect. And I think that the issue with that is that it's not really, it's hyper-focusing on a particular type of autistic people too much.   And so sometimes that can be a little bit of a bad representation. People get in the head. So we've got to be this highly intellectual person. Not so much. A lot of autistic people actually fall under the creative side of things a lot more, that I'm seeing just being a part of the community. And also, you have the other end of the spectrum. So like, not like you were in the spectrum, but you have the other side of the coin where you have individuals who really just need a lot of support. You know, you think of like individuals like Rain Man from that film who need like a lot of support.  But looking back, it definitely has had an impact on how people understand what autism is, think about it, etc.  You know, you can think of things like Will from the Inbetweeners or Sheldon Cooper.  And it's sort of played off as this interesting, strange character who it can be useful as. So those are kind of the negative sides to representation. I find that the places that are best like, representative of autism tend to be when autism is not like the focal part of the story.  I very much like that. My favorite one is, it's kind of like that, but my favorite one is Hannibal. It's the TV series Hannibal. Really, really good representation. It's a little bit on that side of like having those kind of special abilities and skills, but I think it was very well done considering that it highlighted his skill as being quite empathic. So I really liked that aspect to it. So that's my opinion on that, which has says, yeah, that's me, but I know about me. Well, which I actually, I think, I think I'm, would you be, would you be happy if I did, when I did one of my live streams, you know, when I sort of commentate on videos, would you be happy if you used one of your videos at some point? Because I really liked, so I think it'd be really cool. Just Scott says chocolate, chocolate toothpaste makes it easy for me. Interesting one. I tried the lemon ones. I haven't gone so far as chocolate, but I feel like if I used chocolate toothpaste, then I'd feel like I need to brush my teeth again. It's just in my mind. I'm like, okay, I'm eating chocolate. I've got to, you know, brush my teeth after eating chocolate. I don't know. It might be nice. I don't know. Do you recommend any brands for anybody? How do you feel about electric toothbrushes? I find them a lot easier because you don't need to think as much. I suppose you can just kind of let it go and just move it across your teeth. I think as well, it's, I don't know whether it's 100% confirmed or whether it's just some kind of like hyped advertising or anything like that, but I think they're better in terms of cleaning your teeth as well. I'm not sure which particular one is the best, but I would hazard a guess that they're probably a little bit better than manual toothbrushes. Hello, Mr. Joshua G. Welcome back, our hydration reminder for the day. You have age two strawberry toothpaste. Very nice. Got a hydration reminder from Joshua G. If you are like me and you struggle to remember to hydrate yourself, get some water, get a drink. For me, it's, it's, it's obviously a non-branded can with a very inconspicuous beverage. DDD says hi hi. I've been enjoying your content. I'm 53 and was diagnosed autistic after burning out and aggressing when I was 50. Had to stop being an ICU nurse. I'm so sorry to hear about that, but it's good, good that you managed to find some content about autism. Justin says hi in morning. Hello, Dustin. Ethan Tenial says I'm wiped out from the day. Just thinking about the lack of executive privileges. We also have some, some fans of you in the chat would shed. Very nice to see. Midnight butterfly irises. I find there isn't enough portrayal of the whole spectrum aspect and expressiveness that support needs can be highly varied. It's a pretty, pretty sound take you have there. What about ADHD? You know, ADHD and epilepsy, I don't feel like I have the, you know, obviously I have looked into ADHD quite a bit, but I always hesitate to try and make content around that because I feel somewhat like I should leave like ADHD related comments or like information to people who are ADHD. I don't know if I am or not. I might be somewhat on the ADD side of things, but I'm not too sure. So I just hesitate to, to give any suggestions on that front. You can get a flavor to it first. Yeah. Find them online. You can, you can find quite a few of them online, definitely 100 percent, which I'd like the Power Rangers movie that characters at the Green Power Ranger. You have permission, but may fall asleep while you watch, so you've been warned. No worries. I'm sure it's good. I think I've had a look at your channel. I give you, I think I've given you a sub as well. For guys that use baby wipes and Colgate 360, good idea. Baby wipes can be useful, especially if you want to keep on top of your skincare.  Missy Davis says, I'm so confused. Wasn't there a video saying you died? No, I don't think so. I haven't, I don't recall passing away. Could you point me to that, to that video, Missy? Yes, I am drinking diet coke. You are right, Joshua. Can you try to do some personal ADHD and maybe epilepsy if possible, please? I will try. I will put it on my list if that is what you would like to see. I do have some, some posts in the making, which are like comparisons of autism and ADHD, some degree, but I don't know. I feel definitely like I need to at least like consult with an ADHD person to like put a post together. It just feels right for me, you know. Yeah, I can, I can do that, but I feel like it's, it's a lot more kind of respectful to consult someone who has a lot more like in-depth knowledge about ADHD as opposed to myself. Justin says, I've recently been diagnosed ADHD and self-diagnosed autistic on the waiting list. I find I can only focus if the environment is right for me, so zero distractions. Yes, environment definitely is key. And hello Rita, I'm not too bad, thank you. Are you Fimal is my go-to? What is you Fimal? Yeah, I'm not, I'm not too sure about the ADD side of things. The thing is, I have talked about this before and I realized that, you know, I sometimes I do go over stuff that I have like talked about before, it's just part and part of listening to me, I suppose. But I'm on a medication called metazapine, which is like quite highly sedative. And it's something that I take quite a bit, it helps me with my anxiety a fair bit and also kind of evens out the anxiety aspects of me taking SSRIs. One of the things about it is that I literally, I can't remember what I'm like when I'm not on them. So there is a possibility that I am somewhat sedated, well I am sedated most of the time to some degree. And so I don't really have 100% accuracy in my understanding what my focus is like, what my attentiveness is like, and also whether I am actually quite a hyperactive person. I can sort of think back to my childhood and I was quite highly wired. I wasn't sure, not sure if I would be considered to be hyperactive. So that's the reason why I'm sort of thinking more about like the ADD side of things, you know. Baby wipes 100% from midnight, indeedy. Abby says, Dan has ADHD, maybe speak to him 100% that that could be a good kind of cross out thing to do. Yeah, I don't know Missy, like has someone produced something about me passing away? That's very weird. No, I'm still alive, do not worry. Can you please do some first on dyspraxia? That is something that I might be a bit more open to doing, because it's very strange actually with dyspraxia because as hard as I try, I don't seem to be able to find anybody who is just dyspraxic and doesn't have like some autism tendencies or doesn't have a co-occurring autism diagnosis. It's really hard for me to find someone like that. So I was kind of thinking about it quite a bit. And you obviously, when I talk about, you know, things like when walking, I think I did a few posts on that before, where it's like the kind of the wobbling back and forth due to like vestibular differences. I don't know whether that thing that I've noticed in terms of my balance and my proprioception is considered to be dyspraxia, whether it is that that's just like a manifestation of my altered sensory system, or whether it's like a different thing. I have no idea. I don't very much know like what, because I've heard that, you know, just looking at like the diagnosis for it, that sometimes children with dyspraxia tend to have some difficulties in terms of social interaction. So it's a bit of a strange subject that I really want to understand a little bit more actually. He said maybe get in touch with the dyspraxia foundation or something like that, see what they have to say about it. Indeed. So very, very strange. Hello, the stock explorer. Welcome to the stream. I haven't seen you around. Nice to have you on. Paula says green beaver sells multiple flavors of toothpaste that might work for folks with different needs. That's okay. That's one. Indeedy. If you're looking for some different flavored toothpaste, get your hands on. If you don't like the minty sensation of having brushing your teeth, might be a good shout to have a look at green beaver. I didn't, I haven't looked at it before. So don't hold me to that. But is that a 90 depression? No, it's, it's not. It's usually, metaspin is usually prescribed for sleep. Sometimes a little bit for anxiety as well. I think Missy, you're thinking of another person, not the same person. Are you thinking perhaps of, I don't, I don't really want to mention that in this stream, but I know, I think I imagine who you're talking about Missy, but no, I'm still here. Indeedy. All kind of morbidities. Joshua says, as I have dyspraxia with ADHD epilepsy and urethakrea, I've not heard of that. I can imagine somewhat what it might be like. Midnight butterfly says, I shuffle my feet and slide across the floor to avoid noise of footsteps and to not miss a step and trip myself over. I find that it's really interesting that you say that, because there is an experience that I have. Because you might notice that coming on and watching me do streams that I always have some form of light headphones on, even if I'm just doing like these Q and A's. And that's because I find the volume of my voice when I'm speaking too much. Like it's, it's very overstimulating for me to hear my own voice. So I always have to try like, have some kind of headphones on when I'm, when I'm, when I'm talking, it's very, very strange thing. Outside of streaming, if I don't have my headphones on, I'm quite a quiet speaker.  TF says, hey, hey, welcome to stream TF. And Jackie says, I'm here. I'm here. You're here. Happy Thanksgiving from Canada. Is it Thanksgiving? I did not know. We don't celebrate Thanksgiving in the UK. So interesting. Blunt Force Tani says, I think the Sparx Tree is more of an expression of the altered sensory experiences, to be honest. Yeah, I agree. I think I agree with you that just from what I've read and stuff and sort of making, making lateral connections as we neurodivergence like to do. You are right. My way has got crossed a lot, dysfunctional memory. Don't worry about it, Missy. I was a bit surprised, but that's all. Vanilla vaccine helps slow me down. I'm more hyper when I don't take it. Not going to answer that, Jackie, but good question. Edits by Aisha says, Hi, my name is Aisha. I really struggle with autism and I have anxiety. Do you know any ways to help? I do. It would be a very long, long time of me trying to express all the ways that things that would help, but I would highly recommend having a look through my channel, maybe checking out the podcast, having a look on my Instagram. I have a lot of posts over there on autism and anxiety that you can have a look at. But if you got a more specific question, you are very welcome to ask that as well. Okay, I see. Hello, Jordan. How you doing, man? Midnight says, I was on metazepine for gastroparesis, helped with anti-nausea and because it stimulates appetite. That is one of the things that I hate about it. Yeah, it's really bad if you have a binge disorder, metazepine, but sadly it's one of the only options that I have in terms of moving out the effects of the SSRIs. This is something that I've got to deal with. Lois says, hello, wonderful kindred, Aspie from Alexandria, Ontario, Canada. Welcome, Laura. East Sanctile says, I've seen some linkage of dyspraxia with motor planning and with executive issues. That was from the UK site and the US idea of dyspraxia is much more restrictive. Interesting. I wouldn't say that I'm 100% aware of everything to do with dyspraxia. I do have an idea of that and I have looked into it, but it's definitely something that I need to look into a bit more. Just out of interest actually, because it would be really interesting to see if it is two separate things. However, it's just something that autistic people experience, very, very strange or ADHD perhaps. Red spots over your legs, that sounds really bad. Two ducking cute says, but you sound nice and fine. I don't like my voice, interesting. It's not necessarily like a, not particularly liking how I sound. It's literally just like the volume, you know, producing noise quite close to my ears. So it's, you know, increasing the volume quite a bit. Is it quite, am I quite quiet? I would like to know, because I don't, I don't always know. Oh, and my computer is saying that my disc is almost full. That's very nice of my disc. How can I remedy that disc? Show me how to remedy that. Let's try removing some stuff from my computer, that might help. I have wavering belts of clumsiness. Yeah, it's sometimes quite related to like how tired I am as well to some degree. Thanks very much for answering, no worries at all, Aisha. You're very welcome to ask any specific questions, 100%. We have bonfire night instead. Indeed we do. I love bonfire night. I love the fireworks. I like looking at the fireworks. Don't necessarily like listening to them. It is, it is very much like all I do that I do, that I do enjoy, although like excessive use of things that produce a lot of CO2, you know, it's debatable about whether that's worth it or not, but thank goodness you know about Disprax Thomas as most people have heard, talked to about it, I haven't really heard of it. Yeah, it's, I think it's a little bit less known, that less known. There is someone who does a podcast, I think they're called Life, Life with Disprax here or something like that. Lovely, lovely woman. I think from the UK as well actually, try and check her out on Instagram if you can, I think they have a podcast talking about their experiences. I reached out to them asking about Disprax here. Turns out I think they're all so autistic as well, so I'm trying to like hunt for someone who is like dyspraxic but just not autistic because I just can't seem to find anybody. It's crazy. You'll sort it. No, you'll find Thomas, I was just laughing at what you said about it. Abby says, I had broken a toe due to a meltdown but also causing us, I'm sorry to hear that. Yeah, it's about, meltdown's for me 100%, that is, you know, I get a lot of like motor ticks and stuff when I have meltdowns, so I can understand why. I am somewhat blessed I think from the amount of sport and like weight training that I've done to have quite resistant bones, so I've never, I've never broken a bone. I have hurt my tendons in my leg, but that was from like, like a high speed motorcycle crash, so it's understandable that. Joshua says, how's your week and being Thomas so far? What have you done so far? I hope you are having a good weekend. So this week, as I said, I've been recording and learning a lot about video and audio to kind of refresh my memory of producing videos. I think you guys are going to be really, really happy with the videos that I'm going to put out. I've got one that's going to just check on my computer. So I have a video, this will be like over the coming months, I'll try and post one of these a week. We've got one on the autistic burnout roller coaster, autistic masking, explain a little bit of a smaller one there, autistic rejection dysphoria, rejection sensors for RSD, and I've also got an interesting video, which I feel is either going to flop or it's going to be a good one, addressing R slash fake disorder cringe, which I think is something that a lot of creators within the autistic community and also a lot of the disabled communities have somewhat awareness of because they tend to repost a lot of reels, particularly from TikTok and Instagram and YouTube shorts from disabled creators sharing their experiences. So I think it'd be really good to address that and I'm going to talk a little bit about self diagnosis as well during that as well. So it's going to be a good one. Put a lot of effort into recording these.   Is it warming weather there? It's not too bad actually. It's, we did have like a really long period of extremely warm weather, like a couple of weeks or a week, a while ago. Today, yesterday, it was fairly temperate actually. It was quite nice. Went with some dinner last night, which was really nice. And we got to kind of sit on the balcony outside. Very good weather, very nice weather. It was cool. Missy says, do you have meltdowns? If so, what does it look like? I am still trying to understand if that's what's happening or if I'm just needing better self control. Good question. I'm very happy to talk about metals. I feel like I'm a very open person. I'm happy to share perhaps what may be considered by the rest of the world fairly intimate things. But for me, meltdowns, they tend to follow on from shutdown. So a lot of the time, my kind of immediate reaction is not something that I can control. It's to go into shutdown, which is kind of like this dissociated state where I can't really speak. Sometimes I get mute. I find it very, very difficult to process things. I kind of sort of retreat internally. But if I'm feeling very, very overstimulated in quite a compromising position, meltdowns tend to come up. And from my experience, I cannot think properly. Properly. I can sometimes understand people speaking, but I can't reply. I get a lot of physical verbal tics, very, very high anxieties, kind of like my brain is just going into overdrive. It's a very painful experience. It's very hard to cope with it. And sometimes one of the interesting things about it is with meltdowns and shutdowns, sometimes I feel like I could stop that. But I never can, really. It's just kind of this internal thing where it's like, oh, I can stop this at any time if I need to. But a lot of the time I can't. And so I usually need, it usually lasts for probably about an hour, anywhere from 30 minutes to a couple of hours, depending on how bad it is. And a lot of stimming sometimes can be somewhat a danger to myself. But that's very, very rare. That's kind of the experience. I do have a lot more in-depth content on it, on Instagram and on YouTube, if you want to go check that out. But yeah, that's kind of like my experience. I hope that's helpful to you, Missy. Broken toe again, it's never going to be the same. You love watching my Joe Rogan vaccine video, interesting.  Usually I'm trying to get into a schedule at least going live. Other than this OT time, a couple of times where I'll kind of give some commentary on videos within the mainstream, within the autistic community. And one of those ones was, I looked at like a Joe Rogan vaccine video that was talking about, you know, obviously autism and vaccines, which is a very like, very big misconception stigma that is kind of just trying to put my charger in. It's still going around, surprisingly, particularly for parents. It seems to be a myth that's been stuck around for quite a while. It's been propagated quite a bit, which is very worrying. Laura says, hello. Welcome to the stream, Laura. Rita says, do you by any chance get a therapy dog in the UK for an aspect of anxiety? I think it's something that you can apply for. I don't know the exact process. If you are looking to learn a bit more about that, I definitely point you towards Purple Ella. I think they have a few videos on autism support dogs. I do also have a podcast on my own channel, which talks about that with Purple Ella, and they talk about their experiences. Yeah. Missy says, thank you. Odd that I can be tight and be answered, and I used to this. Thank you. No problem, Missy. No problem. Your ideas are very good. Thank you very much, Joshua. Midnight says, I had a total mild down the morning of my wedding from stress and like asleep and schedule changes. Overwhelmed took four hours to get back on my feet. Yeah. And that is another aspect of it. Sometimes if you have quite an intense meltdown, there is this sort of period of time afterwards that I call the meltdown hangover, which is basically just a very kind of hypersensitive state where it's kind of sometimes it can be quite relaxed because you're going from like 100% anxiety to like zero. So usually it kind of feels a little bit chill to me, but I find it very, very difficult to process things. And I usually have like a little bit of a reboot time that I need to go through. And that's anywhere between like an hour and like a day. Usually again, depending on how intense the meltdown was, but that is something that can happen as well. So yeah, I can imagine. Justine says, okay, yeah, I'm still looking for the right person. Laura says, my big Maine Coon cat Noah is great, big, sweetie. I'll talk about cats in the chat. We love animals here, 100%. So we have about just over 15 minutes left. So if you've got any burning questions that you want to ask me about my video stuff, Instagram posts, anything like that, you want a bit more, because I tend to not be the best in terms of like comments and DMs. So this definitely is like the place to go to, like if you want to ask any questions and stuff. So please, please go for it. May night says, thank you for sharing your experiences with us all. My algorithm in the start seems to mostly feature UK accounts sharing about autism. I'm grateful to see that UK people are able to share more readily. That's very interesting. I haven't, I haven't heard anyone talk about that before. I wonder if that is something that it's like a trend maybe. I know that we, we do tend to be a bit more, I would say probably a bit more socially progressive in the UK, because it's not a very big place. Like UK is probably pretty similar to like some of the sizes of like the states in the US. So it's, you know, it's a, you know, it's, UK is an interesting place. I think that there are some good things about it and some bad things. You know, you have to look at like the, I'm not going to talk about that actually. I very much am okay with talking about difficult things, but I'm also aware that I don't want to like put it on people. So I would cover that too much. USA don't seem to share so much about their adult autistic experiences. Yeah. Well, I'm definitely one of those types.  If you, if you're wondering like exactly why I came, came to this point where I'm like sharing my experiences online. I had a very, very difficult life, particularly in a teenage hood. And, you know, I would say that I have a lot of privileges in a sense, you know, I've got, I come from a good family. My family is really supportive and great, but I really, really struggled with school and I developed quite a lot of like mental health difficulties from that. I was diagnosed when I was 10 and I got into the autistic community to share my experiences, probably my second year of uni, just like my early twenties, late teens. And I don't know, I'd gone through a lot of difficult situations where I didn't think I was going to make it, I guess. And I kind of had a bit of a realization, I think when I was, once when I was on my way to Taekwondo in the car, because I used to be an athlete, and also once when I was in Thailand, where I was kind of trying to, again, you know, in quite a severe dip has happened quite often when I was younger. I got to a point where I was, I kind of, I wanted to do something good with the negative experiences that I had. I didn't want to just, I guess, just have them and roll over and just give up. You know, I thought to myself that, you know, instead of having that attitude that I would try and make something good out of it and try and stop it from happening for other people, or at least offering some level of support that I didn't particularly have when I was growing up and in terms of like online information and people's experiences and such. So that's what I wanted to be. I wanted to be that person that I needed when I was younger. So that's basically the story of how I came to be so open about my experiences. I have no shortage of people reacting negatively. I understand it. It's not for everybody, you know, being open about like meltdowns and stuff online, but you know, I feel like people should be happy and feel comfortable talking about their experiences. So I try to model that as much as I can. You know, there's nothing to be ashamed of. It's just a part of life and etc. So, you know, you've got to feel comfortable with yourself and, you know, there's no shame around it. It's not something that you can control, not something that you do. Laura says, hello. Fugay says, I think it's healthy to share and speak about problems. It stops them from being internalized. 100%. Yeah. I mean, one could argue that perhaps the internet is probably not the best place to be speaking about problems. I get that. I don't talk about everything online, of course. But yeah, 100% like with a therapist, with friends, you know, some help lines and stuff, I think those can be a really good place to go for or to go to. It's definitely not good to kind of internalize it. And I think a lot of the stuff that I recommend when it comes to unmasking, they tend to be things which, to some degree, allow people to process some of the negative experiences that they've had throughout their life of being autistic, because we tend to have a lot of them. And sadly, it's just a fact of being different in this world. It tends to be that we do attract a lot of difficult scenarios. So I think the processing is definitely a really large part of it, 100%. Ollie says, thank you for the stuff you talk about. I know you did a video on relationships and partners, but I wonder how you look at what you know about connecting with people in general. It often remains superficial. I can talk with many people about many topics, but always feel as if there is an arms length between us, even people I've known for a long time. I only learnt, I have ASD this year, 37 years old. Really, really good question. And thank you for sharing your experiences. I'd say that for me, I felt similarly for a lot of my life up until the point where I started learning a little bit more about autism. For me, in terms of connecting with people, there were two big barriers for that. The elixifying your element is not to be undermined, the difficulty, notice, noticing, identifying, categorising your emotions. It's quite a large part of social connection, having that emotional kind of validation from the other person and etc. and sharing things and knowing how you feel about things. I would say in further, like putting in boundaries etc. in the moment. So the elixifying me stuff, definitely something to look into. I do have a lot of resources on YouTube and on my Instagram, if you want to look at that.  When you build up this mask, it can be useful for making friends, maintaining friends, possibly even within the workplace, but it always comes with a sense of not exactly being who you are. There's always this, any relationship that you start, any connection that you make when you put this mask on of someone who isn't you, it always feels like they don't necessarily really like you for who you are and they're not interacting with you, they're interacting with this kind of masked individual. So it's not always the best and it can lead you to feeling quite lonely even though you're around people and not authentic and not yourself and you're not feeling the happiest. So those two things, the Alex Fimer and the Masking components, I think are really big factors that I recommend having a look into. I do have a lot of stuff about that if you want to look it, but you can just type it on Google and have a search and look at some other stuff from other creators and you can probably find some good resources on that. I hope that's helpful for you Ollie. I have a lot of trauma started in school, 100% has got down to school. They need to have some mandatory orders of education in schools, 100%. It's not really acceptable like the level of things that they put in place for autistic kids, students, teens, really needs to be improved quite a bit. Even in the workplace, I would say. Used to get called the intention seeker due to past mental health issues. Yeah, I think that's, yeah, that's definitely something I've experienced as well. Rosa says, I never thought about Taekwondo or Kung Fu, I thought that Taekwondo and Kung Fu helped me as a teenager and you're an adult to avoid mountains and shutdowns, but it always helped me regulate strong feelings. Thank you for that point of view. No worries at all. I think it's definitely a good outlet, 100%. It was a good outlet for me as well because I didn't tend to stand up for myself very much at school so I didn't have quite a lot of bullies and so like having an outlet in Taekwondo was really useful for me, you know, sort of venting those feelings into something that's a bit more productive was helpful for me, 100%. I agree life is odd, that's true about the friends. Thanks Thomas, no worries Ollie. I hope that's somewhat helpful for you. Exactly that about masking.  Abby says totally agree, red flags all over my school reports all mentioned was, all they mentioned was shyness. Hmm. Rob Patton says, I must notice it traits when I'm out and about in public, because it comes down to empathy, because I don't want to be judged on the outside, neither do I want to others to feel uncomfortable. I think it's, you know, I think what when I talk about masking and unmasking people think some, I'm not saying that you particularly do Rob, but some people think that I'm talking very much in like black and white terms that you should just always be amassed. You should just be your artistic self all the time, because that is the ideal. I would love for that to be the case, but there are circumstances just due to the fact that the world is not right, quite often safe for us, or right for us and geared for us to succeed and be happy. Sometimes, you know, masking, depending on your circumstances, is helpful to some degree.  But in other circumstances, you know, sometimes you do it, like to stay safe and sometimes you do it, you know, just kind of get on with things and go under the radar and just, you know, have some time to yourself in isolation, which I understand. So it's not it's not kind of this black and white approach, it's just being like, you know, it is important in some, in a lot of scenarios to be yourself and feel happy being yourself and find connections with your true self, if that makes sense.  There was one assembly, this kid just started to, oh, I'm sorry to hear about that, because you had techs, yeah. Has anyone else seen videos on Autism and Gangstalking? I have not seen that. It might be something to need to look into. I have delved into the world of like, unintentional gaslighting around autism and make crime, particularly sort of in those areas. Definitely some things to look up if you are interested in like the social side of autism, perhaps. Some things to be aware of, definitely. I think it's underrated, like the importance of like, people understanding what like make crime is, especially when we're younger. I feel like we could deal with a lot of information about that stuff earlier in life. Alistair says, my GP referred me for a diagnosis of autism about 15 years ago. They were unsure, but it felt like I'd wasted their time. My GP still pushes to try again. How have the diagnosis criteria changed? My GP says they have changed. It's a lot now. I don't know how much has changed in the last 15 years, but I would say that it's not a bad shout to know if you're autistic or not. It's not like, I feel like there's a lot of stigma around it. And one of the things about it is it can have some negatives to it. Like you can't move to certain countries. It can sometimes be bad in terms of like the court system being autistic just because there's stigma around it.  Some environments you do have to be like a health check and stuff, but for a lot of them you don't. You are in control of whether you want to disclose that stuff or not in a lot of job roles. So really, I guess it's really up to you, but I would definitely explore it, look online, look at some resources from other autistic creators, etc. I'm asked my autistic traits. I've read that already, sorry. Like I would probably prefer that people would actually ask which type of epilepsy rather than just assuming it's fertile sensitive. Yeah, it's something that I have learned about a little bit because I did a course, a degree in biomedical sciences. Epilepsy was part of one of the modules that I did on the brain. So I do have some awareness of that. It's something that I feel like I could do that. Again, I would prefer to talk to someone who was epileptic about it. I do have a podcast actually, I think, that went into epilepsy, if you want to try and find that. Type in gang stalking and awesome. Maybe not today, Laura, but I will do in private and perhaps have a little bit more look into that might be a good thing to address. Make people aware of 100%. So guys, it has been an absolute pleasure to have you on. I apologise again for not being around for the regular Friday live streams. I hope you have enjoyed it, found some use in it. If you have, please go check out my YouTube channel, subscribe. You can become a member for as little as 99p a month really encourages me to do more of this stuff. And of course, if you can, go check out my Instagram account if you're on YouTube. I will look at that stuff, give me a follow, would be much appreciated. And look forward next week because there's going to be a lot of content coming out over on YouTube. So if you can, make sure that you have that notification ping on because there's going to be a lot of stuff coming out. Okay, guys, it's been a pleasure. I hope you guys are doing well. And I will see you again in another episode. This is the 30th one, by the way. Crazy. We're going to be number 31 next time for the stream. So thank you again, everybody. See you later. See you guys. I'm just going to leave it a little bit because sometimes like with YouTube, some reason why because I'm doing it via my streaming software. It seems to be a little bit irritating when it comes to doing a live signal. I like cut it off before I'm finished. Let me just check on my page that it's captured the end of it. Is that actually a wake up? I can't even find my own live stream. Channel. Oh, there I am. Hello, Thomas. Okay. Thanks again, Noah, for his distance. See you later.  Take care.


okay hi everyone thanks for still staying with us my name is Wang Yi actually I'm working for Pivotal or same working for in fact you guys already met up if you don't know what Pivotal is what the company does I think you already met up Sergio met up Michael met up Carlos they are all my colleagues and I don't come here quite often but today Michael see you know car foundering is a very big community you're going to show some faces which is new faces going to grow up and you know instead the only see Carlos and the Sergio so that's the reason I'm here and the topic I'm going to cover which is CF how many of you ever heard about the car foundering oh good so it's fine it's okay I'm going to talk about what the car foundering is so because we are talking about the docker tonight and I was trying to cover I'm giving about the 10 15 minutes to explain what the relationship between the docker and the car foundering and the words each product does you know are the competitors we are having the this topic is you know they're working better together in fact you guys will change the term see instead of docker I will see container but why is that I I don't think I have a time to go to the details but anyway just happen docker be one of the very successful containerization technology I'm not sure you guys ever see this before the docker actually joined the car foundering foundation during the May 2014 and why they're doing that again like I see I'm trying to share with you how does to product or to initiative project working better together so it's very difficult you're going to be a very very long discussion if you really wanted to go to a very very detailed so technical deep dive I'll probably take you one or two days to go to do that so 10 minutes I don't think I can do anything better I would just rather to show a differences or different ways in terms of how this to product provisioning applications to let you guys to see the differences and then you might go back and think about that and for those people who don't know what the car founder is the car funding today is the world leading open source platform and services project actually supported by many big organizations is it pivotal initiate in fact it's a initiative we started from a VMO at this because of VMA and the EMC they created the pivotal then it passed this whole project to pivotal and today in the community you have IBM you have a HP that a lot of them so literally it already become a de-factor platform and services and to be used up by a lot of commercial product already and as the platform and services first and foremost are we all familiar with the past is yes yes sure cool okay in case you are not familiar with the past is eventually if you are familiar with what a cloud they talk about the tree services models in front of the services platform and services and the software the services so eventually I guess if you don't know about the past as a software services at least you heard about the IS which is you know the VMware guys and open stack guys are doing very successfully they are able to using the virtualization technology actually putting a one soft software on top of the hardware's therefore today you are really can using the API to creating the virtual machines to click the buttons to getting a tons of the virtual machines and up and running that's really give us a huge agilities allow us to moving faster and a more agile and what the past trying to resolve by yes you are getting a virtual machines are going to give you a OS that's for the developers is not good enough right because what you needed to do is after that you will still need to install the your application server database etc so how am I able to get in those things as a services that's eventually what a problem then the platform and services need to resolve so in short which is means trying to get the what does the platform does platform means how do I build them applications by using what kind of language what you are seeing here so cloud foundering trying to see I'm a language frameworks agnostics which means I can supporting any sort of language that you just to me a java to me a waterfall to me a donut thing files you don't have to tell me that's Java that's donut I'm able to scanning it and the credit and also in manage the other of course it on top of VM and the containers therefore in manage it is orchestrating applications to services and applications it's kind of like abstraction layer on top of IS to play like a like a cloud OS if you will okay I guess you guys already see doctor I think that's a cool technology as a container one of the very successful containerization technology this really cool today frankly when I start to evaluating I'm not really you know every day go deep dive about what the doctor is but they already have a habit when I go to certain evaluating certain new tools new project our first and foremost to see I used to you know using a VM fusion create a virtual machine and install all the my stuff there but today already have a habit it do support doctor so I can quickly use a doctor run I can boost up a tons of you know all the application up and running to do my evaluations so that's quite cool to me but however what we just now the already see which is I'm going to show again later but however doctor alone is cool but it's not that cool because when we are going to provisioning a multiple layers applications you think about the real world just now I think a few question already pop up to see okay when I go to my production environment what I'm going to do and because people start to relate it to what they are doing in the actual world and also today we all know I guess probably largest the doctor user should be Google right so my colleague and if you guys attend a previous session definitely about the Sergio talk about the Google run billions of doctors in their data centers so every Monday they're launched about the millions of doctors so then just now you're you guys already see how the doctor actually creating the doctor file trying to link up the database and the things are together if we are going to do all those things are manually that's a nine man so because in the real production environment when you're going to provisioning a patients you need the router load balancer multiple locations services etc etc if you're going to really creating tons of them but this one doesn't work for you if you really have to jump in to see okay which are the part I need to map which others you know which you know this are the one of the you know I I get it from the doctor composed site which is how they're going to provisioning a very simple web application plans database so you have to specify which are the part number you need to get the doctor to use and which are the web servers up and running on which part now I'm going to link me to database so you as the developers you really have to write in the script and doing this and will that be something you wanted to do or like I mentioned in the beginning as a past literally I wanted to just see as a developer I just want to see okay here's my source code the planning for me and I don't care how I don't care how you're going to do that don't tell me I still have to think about the load balancer think about how many application instances and how do I do feel over which are the part number I need to bind to etc so those are the details I don't want to deal with so today I think I don't have to I think I think most of you guys should already heard about the top factors right it's happened to be a principle so it was a good practice all the way it just today people are talking about the cloud native applications it just happened to you know when we look back to the school practice that make a lot of sense for cloud native applications and if you really look at probably a few of them but when you really look at the support binding and if you look back at what we showed just now so when we are in the cloud environment we really don't want our applications like a word just now he mentioned that you are now have a catalyst instead of pat you won't be forever getting a physical IP physical host physical file system physical power number etc they are always existing and not gone they can die anytime if your patients really have a dependency on those fixed resources you're gonna have a problem so with that be said so for you to really jumping to manage all the details about the part etc you will be facing the problems and how do we do with the cloud foundering first and most cloud foundering are really working we are working very well with the our own seed Docker in fact you will we are using is another container technology which is the we call it the first generation was Walden now it's calling garden garden is nothing it just the fork all the Docker codes and the rice something on top of that so and then we just hide all the details all those are ugly stuff from all the developers so today when you're going to creating web applications look at this young configurations what you're going to do is okay tell me your patients name and tell me how much memory you wanted and tell me how many instances you want it because I can have a my low balancer you can tell me multiple instances so I can help you to want it together and I can just tell me where the welfare is you don't even have to tell me this is a job applications or down applications and then you're going to just tell me the the database instances name you don't have to tell me IP port number etc that's like a environment of variables you just pass it to me and the later the platform we're going to inject whatever information you needed for that database include your credentials include the IP include the port number etc so that's what the car foundry allows you to do on top of container technology that's cool so I'm not going to run it again but I'm just to do one things just now because just now I don't want to waste the time therefore I run it maybe I forgot whether I did that or not so maybe I'll just do me push again because this are the young farmer having exactly the same thing so what I'm going to do is just to do a push so subsequently car foundry we're going to take the manifest file and of course you already passed me the waterfall so car foundry will take it and upload to car foundry environment and do all the stuff for you and very soon you're going to see one thing called build pack stuff so that's the landing run I'm going to come back again so okay this are the docker eventually you will really start from you know you know when you create the docker files literally there's the Ubuntu etc then you're going to define your runtime define whatever you want to run in signage but what the CF actually did was they create something called build packs build pack is nothing it's just a ruby language you're creating softwares which is can take over whatever you pass to native it start to do the scanning to see oh this is a waterfall and then they check a few features all this is Java so now I'm going to give you the gdk you need it it give you the Tomcat you need it and then going to assembly as a master template is done somewhere so subsequently if you want me to have a multiple instances I always take this master template and creating the instances for you and the join to the similar balancer give you a same URL and if you want to bind to the database I'm going to bind to the database of course binding is another step we're going to explain later but build packs eventually really allows you to do those you know it's help you to do all those jobs and this are the source binding concept which is just now as a beginning when you see the docker just now you really have to literally you have to really run that kind of image actually having the MySQL I know I get five minutes and so what the Cloud Foundry literally does is if you really just now notice the manifest file I show you earlier so there was a once I push every application over there I can literally point it to a MySQL database so MySQL you can use command line or you also can use the UI tools to pre-create that kind of a database instances are over there and subsequently you can register all the metadata into the source broker and all those application instances eventually all go to the source broker and the true the source broker that kind of parameters which is MySQL that variables and then he get to know all the parameters he needed he just in the runtime this really bring the benefit when you really moving to the cross the depth environment to UAT productions you don't have to worry about the actual with IP the part number credentials is and that's what we wanted to achieve so that's Cloud Foundry I think right now let's me go back to the demo I just run so you can see the output now so just now I do that push so the push literally upload to this a warfare and subsequently the build pack start walking and they can start to prepare the JDK environment for you and they're going to assign the memory and they're going to give you the Tomcat etc now all the way to binding the database and the instance up and running and if you now come back to the Cloud Foundry UI so I created that spring music I need to do a refresh yeah okay this are the one I just created you can see my application up and running if you really going to this spring music itself there's a console and of course just now when I do push I can specify how many instances I want and subsequently I still can do this things I let them to boost up you know more instances if you're really having the kind of a more and more customer to come in you can really do this in the real-time and the meanwhile of course when you're creating the new instances you are existing applications still running and after the those instances are coming they just join to the load balancer automatically and you can change the memory and then from here of course you have the console and then this are part of probably interesting because this is actually the database I bind just now and if you really come to the environment variables you can see all this information eventually going to be injected by the platform itself so with that I think I guess I already explained what the relationship between the containers and the platform and if you are asking ask me just now the a few guys are asking oh is it the containers already be using in some production environment yes not not only Google disguise but we've caught foundering and that with the commercial pivotal product it literally already running inside a lot of big names of course today I'm not represent the company and you're talking about the product but one can share with you it's really a lot of companies currently using and just now I like the other question one guy was asking a what the container means to me I think I like this a lot this a lovely cartoon and this probably you know when you look at this this probably the earlier we how are we going to assembly our occasion together and today using the container this how do you do things so any question for me no all you guys are 9 o'clock already anyway I run out of my time if you're really interested if I really find this things are interesting so in fact you want I'm currently having is let me just log out log out so there is something called PWS it's a it's like a AWS it's a provided by pivotal as a cloud foundering actually around on top of Amazon so you can come here and the register having a free account then you just download the the command line tools just now I was using because there's a CF command line tools you need to download of course once you go to that website the register you can get all the tutorial how I'm going to do that you need to download this command line tools and the register do a login of course I see for a lot of steps I need to do login as well so after I lock in I can start to pushing all my occasions over there and of course today not only the public services they will do actually offering that and enterprise services you really can set up this into your on-premise data center if you happen using the vSphere or OpenStack running inside that your on-premise data center okay question no yep that's one that's why I mentioned just now once you are having this a Wi-Fi to come in to tell me you want to bind to note once your Wi-Fi coming so what it does the piece the cloud foundering have a build pack stuff it start to scanning we call it come by come by it's not see your source code to come by the binary what come by means we're going to assembly a zip files literally was zip files it can take your Wi-Fi it can take Tomcat it can take the gdk etc then creating that kind of like an image equivalent to stuff we already automated the steps and then once we created that we tested it works then we're storing inside the answer your question we do have a you can see it's a blob storage as I try we have a kind of like a storage in the platform you can storing that image over there and now I guess to just further for this point in fact you you have an advantage by doing this because you in the actual production environment you won't you don't want to give the permission to developers who can just any how to create a Docker file to see all these are the Python 1.2 or this are Python which version okay I guess I answer your question so there's some announcement if you are very interested in the cloud foundering we can definitely take this offline so we can have a discussion okay pass you back