One missing person, and those who are online today, we have Lila Corman with us, to her the caliber talk of graphic materiality, trauma, and expressionist comics artist talk with Lila Corman. Corman is a painter, educator, and graphic novel creator. The books include Uchurzake, and the short comics collection We All Wish for Deadly Force. She's currently at work on the graphic novel Victory Trade, a story about World War Two, Women's Wrestling, and the Liberation of Booth & Wealth Conflictation Camp, and the short comics that appeared in the Believer magazine, Tablet magazine, Nautilus, and the Nip. And before I turn it over to her, I will just mention that next week is Veterans Day, so it's an M&T holiday, and we will not have a colloquium. And then following that on November 18, we have Craig Robertson with information at your fingertips, the filing cabinets, and the gender and information work. I don't know the fabric history, so it seems neurotastic, right, so it's going to be fantastic and neurotastic. So I hope to see many of you there, that will be a hybrid of a person and also a person too. So for that further review, I'm going to move to Lila Corman. Hi. Thanks. Thank you so much for having me. It's really nice to be here in person with everyone. I want to go to this filing cabinet talk. I think I'm going to have to join virtually. Okay, so as Heather mentioned, I'm a cartoonist, painter. I was an illustrator for a long time. I had a kind of a funny trajectory as an artist where I started out, I grew up thinking I was going to be a painter. I had a sort of checkered path through art school where I kept quitting and discussed and then coming back and quitting and discussed again and coming back.  So I'm going to major in illustration and I just put my head down and did that. And that was my job for a good 15 years solidly, I want to say, something like that. I was also making comics at the same time. So I started making comics while I was in art school, living not too far away from here actually in an attic in Central Square where I spent an entire winter listening to Diamanda Galas and trying to make comics without really knowing how they were done. Until my housemate begged me to stop listening to Diamanda Galas all the time every day. And no one begged me to stop making comics, which was good, because I kept going. So when I discovered that there were people making mini comics, that's when it really clicked for me and I thought, okay, this is how you do it. I recognize this art form because I've been reading zines for years. This is just comics in zine form. So I started making mini comics and self publishing them. And that was the beginning of my incredibly illustrious career in America's favorite gutter art form. No pun intended. So I'm here to talk a little bit about more recent work, though. So I guess I will start by talking about my first big graphic novel, which was called Ultrasaken, which is a Yiddish word, kind of. I worked with a Yiddish translator on this book just kind of informally. I just worked with her, meaning I would email her occasionally and say, hey, Riva, what's a good word for kind of underwear, but not really underwear, more like under things. And this was the word that she gave me. I believe that it is no dialect of Yiddish. It is a kind of an academic word that comes from the academic teaching of Yiddish as a it's not a dead language at all. But it's not this word might not be a living word. I'm not sure. My mother grew up speaking Yiddish and she didn't recognize it. So this book was set on the lower east side of New York City at the turn of the last century. And largely concerns the lives and activities of a pair of twins named Fania and Esther, who are growing up in a tenement. Oh, right. My screen isn't shared. Thank you.  Well, let's go to the slideshow. You can go here. Yeah. Thank you. And you know what? Let's go back to the book cover so that the there we go. Great. Thanks. So I should stress this is a work of fiction. It's a it's literally a graphic novel, meaning it's a work of literary fiction in comics form, not not autobiographical, which is funny because people have sometimes asked me if it is. And I just look at them and I say, do you see a pair of twins here? And is it 1909? The original idea for this book came at a time when the discourse around reproductive rights, reproductive freedom was getting heated and ugly again.  It was in the George W. Bush years, though, and it was starting to get ominous again. So I was thinking about this and I was walking to the 63rd Street YMCA in Manhattan where it had gone to camp as a little kid. I was going to see the cartoonist Kim Dietsch give a talk and I was sitting there and I suddenly had this image in my head of the character of Fania that I drew on a napkin, which I really wish I still had. Of course, that is lost to time. And suddenly all the characters tumbled out of my head. This set of twins, their mother, their their traumatized father from Russia, the entire neighborhood that they lived in and the trajectory of both of these girls' lives. And I spent many years creating this book. So I was working in ink here and computer gray tones. So those are not cut halftones, although I have spent a lot of time with an X-Acto knife and sheets of halftone. I don't do that anymore. I would call this kind of my old comic style that I honed when I was making mini comics. Greek mythology came out a lot when I was working on this book. So there's a lot of references to the myth of Persephone and to the Odyssey in this book. I'm purposely not showing a ton of this. So I'm not going to spend a whole lot of time on this, but I'm happy to talk about this book if people want to once we get to the end. I am so let me not get ahead of myself. I published this book in 2012 and then a whole bunch of things happened in my life. And emerging from that, I started making short autobiographical comics, which I had said I would never do. And yet and yet I ended up doing them. So pardon me while I fumble around on the screen just a little bit. I have only brought the most recent one to show you. I've done quite a few short autobiographical comics since then. But this is a piece that I did last spring. I think you have to share. Do I have to share a new one? OK. Yeah. So in November 2011, I delivered, just talking to my publisher, November 2nd. And on November 17th, 2011, my daughter died suddenly. So I spent about a year just not being able to do anything. And then when I emerged from that, I only wanted to make comics. Illustrations seemed very useless.  Am I sharing now because this is still popping up? OK. There we go. You'll have to forgive some of my technical fumbling. I'm used to sharing from my own screen at home while I'm teaching, but not this many things at once. So I started making short autobiographical comics as I was kind of emerging from the year of trauma after that. And I started to get very excited about working with reportage and research and my own personal experience again. That's a place a lot of us start in comics because it's a good place to start. But going from there into fiction was really fun. Going back was also really great. So this is a piece that I did last year. Two years ago, I went to Poland for the first time to visit my grandfather's hometown. It's a kind of a shaggy dog story. It's in this piece. But how do I make this as short as possible? I found out that there's a group of people in my grandfather's hometown, specifically one guy, mainly, who is obsessed with researching the Jewish history of the town and reconnecting with all of the living descendants of the Jews of this little tiny town. It's like a two-street town in southeastern Poland called Grybów. And there's a whole lot of other crazy stuff attached to all of that. But the upshot of this is that I went to Poland for the dedication of a memorial in the Jewish cemetery of my grandfather's town. And I thought I was going to have this really heavy, really dark time. And instead, what happened was I ended up falling in love with Poland with everything about it, and now all I can think about is going back to Poland and making comics about Poland.  They took me to a mass grave where my great-grandparents are, and then they filled me with pierogies. Part of what happened was that I found out about all of these connections through a student of mine at UF who said, oh, have you ever been to Poland? And I went to this little tiny town called Grybów because there's this guy in my shul in West Palm Beach who grew up there. And it turns out this guy grew up next door to my grandfather and was in Auschwitz with Primo Levi. And here he is telling me this whole story where he's telling me how nobody thought Primo Levi was Jewish because he didn't speak Yiddish. Primo Levi is one of my favorite writers. So as he's telling me this, I'm just kind of sitting there staring at him. I can't believe I'm hearing this. This is amazing. And something I really enjoy doing in my fiction and my nonfiction is playing with that line between the living and the dead, the worlds of the living and the dead. I'm going to start to get more into that as we move further into this presentation, but this is where it starts to happen in this story. The glass lanterns are part of the tradition for All Saints Day of bringing glass lanterns to the cemetery and paying respect to your dead ancestors. This is a Catholic tradition as far as I know in Poland, but they did it in the Jewish cemetery anyway. So here I'm imagining that the spirits of all of my dead, great aunts and great grandparents are complaining about my short skirt and lack of Yiddish language abilities in the cemetery. So I want to talk before I get into my newest project about artistic influences and a few other things, but I'm going to stop here for a second and talk about working with comics as a material art form a little bit too. So when I started to talk about playing with the boundary between life and death and the worlds of the living and the dead, that is where the materiality of making comics comes in for me. I've been thinking about this a lot in the context of a lot of art forms, drawing and painting art forms. Where does the mark become the work? Before I came here, I went to the Harvard Art Museum and I was thinking about this a lot as I was in the room full of abstract expressionist paintings and related kind of mid-century work. I don't have an answer to that question. I just want that question floating in space in front of me all the time. I think that there is an extreme physical pleasure in making marks that become work, right? That sometimes that pleasure in making the mark itself is the work and finding that when you're making something is exhilarating. So I find it when I am working with viscosity and color in my comics and I don't know if this comes across in print or in a scan. There's a materiality and physicality to my work that exists in the originals that is hard to translate. However, sometimes interestingly, it can come through and I'll explain that when we get to that page. So these questions of materiality and physicality are they're open ones. They're not answered questions, they never should be. I guess also I'm thinking about this a lot because I teach comics and I'm observing how many people are working with digital materials now. And I think it's great, I love digital comics. I think all those tools are beautiful. I personally happen to like to work by hand and for me, there's a tactility and a physical experience that is very important. It's not just one experience. It's the experience of my body as I'm drawing. It's also what the materials do and the way they lead you into the story itself that they are the work sometimes. All right, so I'll do another screen share. Where are you? Oh dear. Really, I can't find the one I'm looking for which is this one back here. What's that? What is that? Okay, now, do you see it? Oh, you know it like that? Oh, I think it's this one. I think it thinks. Yeah. Yeah, okay. Great. That's a mistake that particular slide shouldn't be in there. So now I wanna talk about influences and I think that this is a really important thing to think about. I always get that line from an early fall single in my head, I'm eternally grateful to my past influences. That's from the song How I Wrote Elastic Man if you're a fan of the fall and now it's gonna be in my head all night. So when I'm teaching what I tell my students is the way to become a good illustrator, a good cartoonist is to make sure you're filling yourself with good material which is like very obvious but there's saying anyway. So what are you putting in your, I like to use the word nebula. I think of it as kind of a nebula around you that you're reaching into and pulling from when you're working. So the first one I wanna talk about is the filmmaker Pedro Almadovar who taught me more than anybody else has about nonverbal communication in a story with color. So yesterday when I was putting this presentation together I actually just typed color in Almadovar films into Google and actually I came up, a lot of interesting stuff came up. Many pieces of writing, a surprising number of palettes that people have created from his different films which of course you can purchase as a poster or a tote bag or a yoga mat. So maybe I'll do that at some point. This is a still from the film All About My Mother which is an amazing, amazing movie. I just rewatched that and you know, I think I love almost all of his films unreservedly but I think this one might be my favorite. I also wanna talk about the influence of Weimar era art on my work, specifically the new objectivity painters. So this is a print by Otto Dix. I'm gonna talk about Otto Dix a little bit and I'm not gonna talk about this from an art history perspective because I'm not qualified to do that. I really wish I could, but I'm just a puny aunt staring at the pictures most of the time and taking them in and letting them influence me in ways that I'm not even fully aware of when I'm working. But in the book, I'm about to talk about Otto Dix's influence looms very, very large. So these are drawings and prints that he created in the immediate aftermath of the First World War after serving in the war but also from observations in Berlin. This is really small. Is the screen being properly shared because there's no green edge around it? Yeah, showing the whole screen. Is it showing? You know what? I'm not even gonna bother with that one because it's too small, but. I can help do it. Oh, that would be great. Yeah, let's do that. Because I don't wanna go back to that really grotesque image. Thank you. I am incredibly fascinated with these artists and Otto Dix of course is only one. He just happens to be one who looms really large over my work and I'll go down to a painting that I steal from a lot. This is his war triptych. Triptychon de Krieg. You'll have to excuse me. I have absolutely zero ability to replicate a German accent. So anything I say, any German words I try to say, it's just gonna sound like an American saying them. This is an incredible painting that I've never seen in real life but I am absolutely obsessed with it. Obviously it is a painting about trench warfare in the style of a medieval altarpiece. These legs in the upper right corner of the center panel, I have a habit of stealing them and putting them into a lot of my comics. There's almost always a place for them. I think this painting is absolutely stunning and I hope to see it in person one of these days. We're not gonna talk about Levin Rockets yet. We're not going to talk about.  There's one that I thought I put in here but it doesn't seem to be in here because I put it in this morning. That's okay. Actually, let's talk about Levin Rockets before we talk about Seven Beauties. So another huge influence is this comic, Levin Rockets. And I really hope that you read it one of these days. It is, and to my mind, the best comic ever created in the English language. And I'm being really specific about that because comics is a global art form and there's, I'm never gonna say what the best comic is. I don't believe there's ever a best anything really, except for Levin Rockets, that's the best comic for me. Especially anything by Jaime. So this is a comic created by Jaime and Gilbert Hernandez and originally their brother Mario who I think dropped out after the first issue, I'm not sure. They've been doing it since the early 80s and it's deep and extremely intertwined storytelling that you kind of have to start at the beginning with. This is a Jaime Hernandez cover. And let's just go up here. And this is the cover of Gilbert's book, Poison River which has been a massive influence on the kind of stories that I always wanted to tell. So I think these were the first comics I read that told me you could say anything in its art form and you could be very serious and talk about dire things, talk about very personal things, talk about interiority, show interiority and also trauma in comics. If you read only one book by Gilbert Hernandez in your life, make it this one. It's a bit of an origin story of a character who shows up all the way through. The other and other cartoonists who really taught me that you could do almost anything in comics is Phoebe Glechner. And you know what, how did you zoom in? Did you just command plus? Okay. So Phoebe is a cartoonist originally from San Francisco. These are a couple of pages from her story Nightmare on Polk Street in her collection of Child's Life. I read this, I think, I don't know, I was like 19 or 20 and it just blew my mind. I've never been able to stop thinking about it. If you've seen the film Diary, it's a diary of a teenage girl. Oh my God, why am I half blanking on that title? Yeah, that's the title. That's based on Phoebe's book that's kind of a combination of prose and comics and polls from this story a lot, although it takes the teeth out of it and the really severe longer term part of the story, kind of I felt wasn't really in there, although it's an amazing movie and I recommend it. What actually is going on in this story is so much more intense. And that's from the very end of the story. Phoebe started out as a medical illustrator. That's her training. So that's one reason why her work is so meticulously grotesque. I've only included a few cartoonists here. I could talk all night about art in comics and in other art forms that has been a massive influence on me. I will say, I think I put myself squarely in the tradition of expressionism and new objectivity, painting and drawing. And I'm not sure if Phoebe or the Hernandez brothers would say that, but I would say they're very expressionistic and not concerned with making work that is cute or neutral in any way visually or textually. So I'm gonna get a little closer now to the work that I'm doing now. This is a still from Lena Workmueller's film, Seven Beauties, which I highly recommend.  It's full of stuff that will upset you in so many ways. It will trigger warning for everything, basically content warning for everything. So I started, I come from a family of Holocaust survivors and I tried to get away from doing work about that time period for a very long time. And it just kept pulling me back and pulling me back. It's like a vortex. I was thinking again about this in the Harvard Art Museum today because so much of the focus there is on modernism and then there's this shift into the post-war period in their collections. And because they have a focus on German art in part of it, there's a lot of German art from the immediate post-war period. So I was thinking a lot about wrestling with that, that rupture in the middle of the 20th century, which was not just a rupture if you're Jewish, it was the whole planet. World War II is a massive, vast subject. And as soon as you start researching any of it from any perspective, it opens up into such a vast area that you either leave it behind forever or you focus only on that for the rest of your life. It feels very extreme to me to work with this material. So I really resisted doing a book that had any kind of content about the Holocaust at all because it is hard to talk about in a way that feels new, although I would have, actually, you know what, I would have said that. Let me put that in the past tense. I felt that. Now I don't because now I'm seeing the way people talk about it in cliche and the way people talk about it in a fresh way and you can get to the second. This film was made in 1975 and I was kind of on my knees with my eyes bugged out of my head from the very beginning of it. This scene that this is still from comes late in the film and it is one of the most disturbing and perverse things I have ever seen. I think I'll take a little bit of a side here and a side to say I came up and trained in a time when being confrontational in art was highly valued in the culture in general, in the subcultures that I came up in, in music, in visual art, in comics. And there were a lot of people who were trying to make work that was transgressive. So I ended up kind of coming out on the other side of that thinking, well, you know, I don't think most of us who are trying to do something transgressive are actually transgressing anything. Transgressiveness requires parameters, right? You can't transgress anything if you don't have any bounds around you. So it seemed sort of like a hopeless target to try to hit. However, I have come across several works of art that I do consider transgressive and this scene is one of them because it transgresses the boundaries of what is usually shown in a film about the Holocaust you're supposed to talk about. There are sort of accepted narratives that you're supposed to use. And I love that this does not do that. So when I saw this film, I thought, well, you know, if I make anything even half this good in my life at this intense, I can die happy. My feeling is that there is no limit to how grotesque and how perverse you can be when showing the depravity of war crimes of any particular time period in history. I am disturbed by attempts to tidy narratives about the Holocaust or any similar atrocity and tell a clean story about it because there's no way to do that without lying. I know that sounds really extreme, and I understand that information needs to be categorized in order to be clear, but part of my goal is to keep the story of the show as messy as possible because it was extremely chaotic and messy and humans are chaotic and messy. There are no heroes in the true story of any of this. So I recommend this movie. It's not only about the Holocaust, it's also about probably the dumbest criminal in Italy. And parts of it are very funny. Let's see, I can't remember if there's anything else in this incredibly beautiful and disturbing slideshow. You know what, let's just leave you on an image of Penelope Cruz from the film Volver, from which I also learned a lot about color. No one uses red like Almadovar and it's not always blood. All right, so how are we doing on time now? Okay, great. So I'm gonna talk a little bit about the work I'm doing now and then I think Q and A, I'm talking. So now I'm working on a book called Victory Parade, and I will share my screen momentarily. Oh, okay, this is sharing this? Okay, great. All right, so now I'm working on this book that is set during the Second World War, partially in Brooklyn and partially at the liberation of Hulkenwald, but there's a little bit of a flashback to Berlin in the 1930s, and that's what this page is from. This book is partially about women working in the Brooklyn Navy Yard, and there's a subplot about women's wrestling that has become sort of not the A plot, I would say, but as important, if not more important to me than the Navy Yard, possibly because I like drawing wrestlers more than I like drawing shipyards.  Very few people like drawing cars. So here, I'll zoom in a little bit. I just copied an auto-dix painting from a postcard in that bottom panel. That is a copy of a painting called The Scat Players, but I did sneak in something extra that's not in the original, which is the woman pouring the alcohol. She's a callback to the war widow slash sex workers that auto-dix painted frequently. I gotta say, it's really fun copying your favorite painter. I recommend trying it because you get inside of the work.  You get inside and you get to take it apart with a little screwdriver and then put it back together and see how they did it. I did this, so literally, I had the postcard of the painting taped to my desk and I did this with a double zero round and a one and a zero also. It wasn't all double zero. I like to work with really tiny brushes now. Another huge influence on me is the 1930s and 40s choreographer, Busby Berkeley. Have any of you seen a Busby Berkeley film ever? A couple, yeah, okay. So he was an iconic choreographer in film during the Depression and the Second World War. And when you watch his films, you understand what the term feel good movie means.  I really recommend one called Gold Diggers of 1933 because it's one of the few dance movies with a plot that you can actually follow that is enjoyable. Usually the plots are forgettable. They're just a way to get you to the next dance number. The gangs all here is also an amazing one. That's in Technicolor. The earlier ones are in black and white. I don't know if he pioneered this, but he was known for using huge numbers of dancers on gigantic stages and shooting them from all angles. So often from above creating these really interesting geometric formations that moved in and out of each other. He did a lot of work in the water with Esther Williams. So it makes sense that he shows up in this particular book because this is a book about mass trauma and masses of bodies experiencing trauma. There are frequent images of mass graves in this book, but also the 20th century was a time visually where there are so many images of columns of people, columns of refugees, columns of soldiers, piles of dead bodies, huge numbers of dancers on a massive stage. The number of people is monumental in a single image. So one of my writing techniques is that I keep a pile of note cards and I just write single beats or ideas on them. I learned this from my partner Tom Hart. I'm sure a lot of writers do this though. It's a really great thing to do because then you won't forget anything. And that is how I stumbled on a note I had written myself a couple of years prior that just said, Busby Berkeley death scene. I think I wrote that note to myself in 2017 and I found it in 2019 and I thought, thank you 2017, Leela. Because here it is. So I deliberately I'm not showing you what happens right before this scene, but I will tell you this is an SS officer who's been hanged in the camp yard after the allies have entered the camp. This was the thing that happened occasionally where they would let the prisoners have at it with the guards. And when he gets to the other side, all of his former people, he's killed mass in a big dance number and take him apart and sing a little song. And there's also a little Oscar Schlemmer tribute in here who was a Bauhaus artist I'm extremely fond of. I recommend him a lot. These are the random pages from here that I wanted to show you. In this book, I'm very obsessed with the dream state and the death state. And I was thinking a lot about what happens to people's subconscious at a time of mass trauma and what happens in places where a mass trauma is underway or has just occurred. I thought of all of this. I pitched this book in 2016. I sold it in June, 2016. Then Trump became president and while, so I'm working on a book about a fascist time period while all of this is happening in my own country and they're starting to be highly visible signs of neo-Nazi activity in the street and all sorts of really nasty stuff happening. And I remember having the thought that this is the only thing I can think of as activism right now. This is the only thing I can do. Slow, very slow moving activism. I'm not sure it's activism actually. And then while I'm in the final stretch of doing this, the pandemic started. So here we are experiencing multiple rolling mass traumas in global pandemic climate change that feels it feels like no one in power wants to address most of the mass traumas that we are experiencing now as a species. So here I am working on this, thinking this couldn't be more appropriate for the time. Basically what I'm doing here is shouldering my little corner of humanity's coffin. But on that note, let's look at some wrestlers. I have a dance and martial arts background and I really like drawing people in motion. It's really fun for me. I assume this is still there, yeah. But I didn't really think about wrestling very much until I did a record cover for a band called The Mountain Goats that was wrestling themed. And that had me drawing wrestlers all the time and I didn't wanna stop. I really like drawing sweaty bodies in space. So this is an early excerpt of this book that ran in The Believer. And boy, I had fun drawing this and drawing these crowd scenes. I think you can kind of tell from the way that I draw wrestling though that I don't have a wrestling background. I have martial arts background. I was trying.  As I said, I'm extremely obsessed with the dream state and depicting it. That is a moving target. Hard to write a good dream sequence. And I'm not sure this is really a dream either. It's not really a dream. The final excerpt of this that I will show is this also ran in The Believer. This is the Navy Yard character reading a passage from the play Philoptides to her lover. I wanna talk a little bit about why Philoptides because I wanna give credit to the person who turned me onto that play. It's a guy named Brian Doris who founded an organization called Theater of War, which I cannot recommend enough. Theater of War performs classical Greek dramas for traumatized populations, often with the people from those communities. So I think they started out doing it with military veterans. Philoptides is I think the play they started with. It's a play about a wounded soldier. And in this particular scene, her lover is a World War I veteran who lost his leg and she's reading this scene from this play in which this soldier has a leg injury, a catastrophic leg injury and sneaking back to her apartment. All right, so I promised to talk a little bit about materiality and scanning in this dream sequence, which is very definitely a dream sequence. I used in these trees, I painted these in black ink with a lot of water wash and then I dripped from kind of a 12 inches above it, iridescent liquid acrylic ink into the wet black ink and what happened was really interesting and hard to see unless you zoom in. Darn it, how do I move this down? It's all right. I think, yeah, if we can scroll up in the image without accidentally scrolling up in the slideshow. So you're trying to get in the next slide? Yeah, just bring this down if you could bring the whole thing down. Yeah, that's great. Thank you. You can kind of see what happened. The liquid acrylic ink and the wet black sumi ink kind of interacted with each other and created a crackle texture that the light from the scanner bounced off of in a way that I really love. So there's things you can't see in the print or in the scan, but then there are things that happen that are not predictable that you can continuing into her dream and smoke break at the Brooklyn Navy Yard. And then we move into his dream about a victory garden full of severed limbs and some light reading for insomnia to end the visual part of the presentation. So this is what I'm working on now and I'm almost finished with it. Although I feel like I've been saying that for a long time. I swear I really am almost finished with this book. So now would be a great time to open it up to discussion. Right. First of all, something up to questions in the room maybe first and then I can't really answer the question in the chat. So we'll come back to the big response. Appreciate it. I'd love for you to talk a bit more about materiality and do you see it as a gaining or a loss when prints are digitized? And if so, what is gained? What is lost? And how do you negotiate that relationship when you're making? That's a great question. I have to not think about it too hard when I'm making it or at least not think about it as a loss. So what I think about it instead is for people who can see the original they get to have a kind of an experience that people who can't won't have unfortunately. And I wish I could share that with everybody. But when you go into making comics you're making an agreement with yourself that all the work you're doing is mostly going to be disseminated on a mass scale or mass scale meaning a print run of 300 or 3000 or 30,000 not really huge but that most people will see a reproduction of your work. So actually most of the time for most of my career I was thinking of working towards reproduction and what feels like a gain really to me a gift is working without worrying about that now. So instead of just working in ink and thinking about it as like, okay this is black and white, it's very easy to reduce down and print. Now I'm not thinking about it at all maybe this will be a nightmare for the production department of my publisher. I hope not, I don't wanna give them nightmares but when I'm thinking about the materiality when I'm working with it, it's so rich and it's creating so much of the narrative. I wanna say the pigments themselves in their textures and their colors when they're wet, when they're dry are part of the story. The controlled chaos of working with watercolor is part of the story itself. So because that's the point at which the portal opens where I have access to the other side, whatever that is and I'm a bit of a closet mystic. So you have to just bear with me there. That's where all the good stuff is. I don't worry about what might be sacrificed in the digital or print production but I have been pleasantly surprised because sometimes things come out in really interesting ways. Like when the believer printed these pieces they looked gorgeous on paper. I think part of that is their production standards are really high but it just, it surprised me how good it looked even flattened down to a print. You were talking earlier about the movie from 1975 that depicts kind of human chaos and moral, I don't know how to put it. This is sort of the messiness I get of everything that World War II represents. And so you talked about how you strive to kind of capture that messiness in your own work and I'm wondering how you negotiate capturing messiness and chaos but also having structure and control in your narrative. I love that. I mean the first answer I want to give is I hope I have structure in my narrative. I'm a little concerned about that in this book actually. Writing a plot is the hardest thing, I think for me. I don't know, maybe there are people who are really, really good at it and that's their favorite thing. But I think for, I want to say a lot of writers I know that's the hard part is marshaling ideas into a structure. Even if it's not necessarily a story about something vast and chaotic. Although really I think any human subject is vast and chaotic, like even the most interior personal novel. It helps to absorb really good film storytelling I have found to learn kind of structural tricks and not tricks, that's the wrong word but learn how to structure certain kinds of stories. I love prose novels, absolutely love them but I like to say that when I read them I'm kind of like an ant crawling on a beautiful sculpture. I don't really know what I'm seeing. So for me film storytelling is really close to comic storytelling, it's not exact but really good film and very good episodic writing for television like something like Deadwood or the wire like Mad Men, like the really, really high end. Another really good one that's been a big influence on me is Russian doll, Natasha Leon's Netflix series. Amazing. There's some very serious writing and very interesting interplay of interior, exterior, real surreal in a lot of that storytelling. And very human. So what I look for before any kind of structure and is I look for human experience and I let that guide me into the structure. I don't know if this is relevant to your question at all but one of the things that I'm trying to do and something that I'm attracted to in a lot of other people's work too is to take time periods that have been turned into a kind of mythology which again can be very easily tidied up and presented in a packaged, nice way and open them up and find the really messy human stories inside of them. Now if you think about any film about or novel about a historical time period, right? I'm veering into a dangerous direction here of subjectivity where I'm gonna tell you the movies that I don't like to do this but heck, I'll go out on that limb. I'll say like Schindler's List is a really good example of way too tidy. I called that one Auschwitz for Glam. It's so clean and so packaged and so neat and everyone is so happy at the end. Even the ways that it depicts trauma and bad things happening, it's very sanctioned, right? So where's the mess? Where's the humanity? To bring it back to your question, when I hook into those really human stories and those really messy human dramas, that's where the structure begins to suggest itself because that's the trajectory of a character. That's what the structure has to be built around. Beyond that, I struggle with structure completely. Part of this also is I tend to write in a fragmentary way. So I write my stories kind of all over the place. I don't write from the beginning to the end. And I finally realized why. I don't know if I'm making an excuse or if this is the real reason, but I trained initially as a painter. And when you train as a painter, you're trained to work all over the canvas all at once. So that's kind of how I write. And I have to say, I don't think that serves a linear narrative very well. Luckily, this current book is not so linear but hopefully the next one will be. Does that approach your question at all? Oh, good. We have a couple that have come in from the chat. Yeah. So I'm just gonna read those to you. From Tom Hart, who answered questions. Oh, hi. Does work can be made for other materials to process trauma as opposed to working digitally or in the museum or in the media? What an awesome question. I love that question. Yes, it does. But I would say that's a really subjective answer. For me, it does. For you, it might not. So for another person working digitally might be the exact key that they need to get past whatever their inner resistance is to making an image and take them exactly where they need to go. That might be the tool. I don't wanna be dogmatic about physical materials versus digital materials. But I will say that from my own experience, the tactility and the physicality of materials brings me to that place where I'm facing whatever it is I'm working with. I will come back a little bit to my day at the Harvard Art Museum today. There was a bit of wall text about primitivism after the war in Germany. I'll actually, I think it was a Carl Apple painting who's Dutch, but I think he might have been working in Germany, I'm not sure. Talking about a movement of artists who used materials in a, as the wall text put it on the paraphrase, frenzied, frenetic, primitive style. So this is a painting with a lot of impasto and hard marks and you can tell it was done with a lot of speed and intensity. And the wall text goes on to say this is a reaction to the destruction of World War II and the absolute horror at the violation of humanity. Now that's my words. I understand this. And this is kind of what I'm getting at when I talk about the physicality of materials. Sometimes you're working in a way where it's you and your body bashing against the materials or using them as an extension of your body, right? An analogy to this would be certain kinds of music too. I remember when I was in my early 20s thinking, I want to hear musicians playing their instruments so hard that it's like they're breaking. Like I don't understand how you can play a guitar in a certain kind of mood without tearing the strings in half. Now this gets refined. We refine ourselves away from that working in comics and especially in the kind of comics I'm doing, I didn't talk about miniaturist painting but that's also been a really big influence on me and both medieval European and Persian miniature.  But within that there are these micro realms of chaos and portals of emotion that open. So yes, to answer your question. But again, I want to say for somebody else, the answer may be the opposite or the answer may be that working in Procreate or another digital medium might be exactly the thing that takes them to that emotional state that they need to tell their story. We've got a couple of them online. All right, just a second. All right, so Lily M. asks, that you don't write superhero comic books, do you have feelings on the inherent Jewishness of them that it influence you at all? Do you think that it's trying to be covered up somewhat at the moment as well? That's a great question but I think I'm not the person to answer it because I have never read a superhero comic. I will say I'm aware of how many Jews created the superhero comics world and I'm a huge Jack Kirby fan for other reasons because the guy was an absolute maniac of an inker, a drawer. I teach his story street code in my classes sometimes just because it's an incredible piece of art. And I love Will Eisner dearly but I haven't actually read Spirit. I've read his more autobiographical stories, his Bronx stories. I would like to put the question back to you, questioner. Is it being covered up? How? I'm so curious about that. I wonder if they would be willing to address that in their comments. Yeah, I'll just leave it to you if anything else. Anybody else? I'm just gonna quickly interject for anyone who is both incredibly curious. It is mind-blowingly weird stuff. Yes. And I do find personally, Footlight Parade is the most kind of appreciable gateway drug that we've ever played in terms of like, it actually had a little more story not to excuse it like, you're in another classroom. Jimmy Cagney's in it and who is- Yes. He's amazing. It's pre-code, which we all know about from our class, right? So it's like extra dirty. And it has Bio-Waterfall. And Bio-Waterfall. Which is a completely bonkers art deco water dance insanity. It's just bonkers like, are we under water? Are we under waterfall? Are we on drugs? I mean, we're definitely on drugs, all over the place. But also, you know, just to general, I've heard such an interesting reference point I was thinking versus this, it's not to access any fascism, but the thinking about these moving bodies as a fascist aesthetic that might, if you hadn't seen the films, seem like that's a strange leap. And it's a very interesting leap and movement. But when you see it, you're like, oh yeah, they're marching. There are two stepping scenes in Buzzfeed Berkeley films. There is this kind of management of mass management of bodies that at certain moments will make you think of letting me read the shelves, management of bodies. I wanna- Sorry, go ahead. Yeah, no, that's it. I wanna say something about that. So I just wanna say the fascists did not invent that kind of imagery. I think, I'm not gonna talk out of school about history because I don't know actually who invented it, but I think the early 20th century is full of propagandistic imagery like that, right? Although some of the futurists were fascists. Thanks. But there's a really interesting, the closing number of Buzzfeed Berkeley's Gold Diggers of 1933 is a complete mood change. So this particular film is goofy. It's kind of a, hey kids, let's put on a show plot. It's set, made and set during the Depression.  And there's all, it's also pre-code. And there's also a really fabulously dirty, filthy number that ends with a guy opening up a woman's metal outfit with a can opener. It's wild. Honeymoon Hotel. The Honeymoon Hotel, I think, is that, I can't remember which one that's in, but. The can opener to get into this woman's. Oh, is that in Honeymoon Hotel also? The number I'm thinking of is, is Petten in the Park. Petten in the Park. But then there's this total mood shift at the end. There's a song called, remember my forgotten man. And it ends in this art deco kind of adjunct prop imagery. But there's also, there's imagery of, there's all of these men marching off to war in these clean uniforms and coming back ragged and bloody and carrying their comrades on stretchers. Heads are bandaged. There's a whole bunch of dancers on a, on a bread line passing one cigarette down the line. And then there's like these recreations of Dorothea Lang dust bowl photos in this dance number. It's wild to see it. I think it's a really interesting point though to bring up the fascist use of mass bodies. I think there's a very short distance between anti-fascist art and fascist art. And I think that the commonality is, well, I don't wanna, I don't wanna say that commonality is only propaganda because so much of the modernist art that the fascists hated was not propagandistic at all, had nothing to do with politics in so many cases. But it was telling the truth about human bodies in war and starvation, which was not agreeable to fascists at all. They only wanted very able, very strong, very well fed bodies. It's worth looking at the degenerate art exhibition and then at the counter exhibition that the Nazis mounted of incredibly boring of state approved fascist art. That's a subject I'm really interested in, in talking and learning more about. Thank you. Do we have more online? Yeah, I have a question for you, Maurizio. Oh, excellent. So from Maurizio Perdero, what are your thoughts on transgression in the passage of time? Does the passage of time impact the narrative of the sea of transgressive times? Well, that's a really good question. I'm trying to think of comics that I think of as transgressive. I mean, I guess, since I was talking about Phoebe, I wanna say, I'm not sure it does impact. It's, it's, I don't think it blunts the impact of those comics. You know, it'd be really interesting, it would be really interesting if there was a younger cartoonist here to counter me and argue with me about this or just talk about what younger cartoonists are doing now. Because I have my own observations about certain trends that I see in comics, but kind of the curse of the mid-career artists is that you don't really have time to read a lot of other people's work because you're too busy doing your own. Also, being a mid-career artist means doing a lot of paperwork, it turns out. So I feel, I haven't read enough of what's out there now in the last decade or so. But I feel like there's a lot less grotesquery in comics than there used to be. This is totally subjective and I could be completely wrong. But I wonder if younger cartoonists coming up today might look at something like Nightmare on Polk Street, that Phoebe Glechner story, or Renee French's work from the 90s, or even Julie Dessay's comics, and think like, ooh, this is gross, or I don't wanna see that, or that's really like, yeah, I suspect maybe not, actually. But Mauricio, I wish you were here to actually talk about this in person and give your own thoughts on that because I think that's a really interesting question. I think what has changed over time is the way that certain kinds of edulity, transgressive behavior has been, like whether it's approved of in the culture or not. So I'll go outside of comics for a second here. I follow Steve Albini on Twitter and he posted this great thread. Steve Albini for those who don't know as a musician and record producer, kind of iconic recording engineer, but he also was an iconic musician and in the 80s he was in a band called Big Black who were very deliberately transgressive, but also he was sort of a professional jerk in that band. I love them and I love his writing. When you read his writing from that time period, you can see him like really trying to push people's buttons. In this way that was really permissible in the culture at the time, especially from white guys. And so the newer way of looking at this stuff now is saying we don't really wanna give everybody a pass anymore. That's really good. But he posted this thing on Twitter about that exactly kind of saying, look, you can't bust me on my past. I know a lot of what I said and did was wrong. I'm paraphrasing really poorly. You should find the thread yourself. He said it much better than I could. And he was like, good luck trying to shame me. I've already publicly outed myself as in all of these ways. And then he sort of talked a little bit more about how things have changed and how that's better. And it was really interesting. As for comics, I want blood. I wanna see blood on the walls. Metaphorically speaking, I want people to make work that is hard to look at. I think that's kind of what comics are for. That's my little teeny soapbox that I'm ranting on. But I'm also fine if people don't. I'm not sure how to answer the time part of this question now. So do you associate mess with this paradigm? Jerry's saying like, you want more mess and therefore being messy is to have more because chaos and mess don't always have to be aligned. There's a lot of chaos in minimalism. There's a lot of chaos and the negative in removal and not just presence as chaos and absence as well. So like, how are you defining mess and this erratic mess as opposed to a clean mess? So erratic is actually not a value of mind personally. Interesting. I'm actually extremely controlled in my work. But the original, the first thing you said in your question, no, I don't think I'm defining it as only mess. And actually, I'm really careful about what I say in public about what I want comics to be because for one thing, who the hell am I? I'm just one person. What I think really doesn't matter outside of the scope of my own work. I want people to make comics and tell their story in whatever way works for them. So I guess I'm just expressing a taste that I want to see intensity. And I think that might be a better word. When I talk about mess, sometimes I'm talking about materials or the physical method of drawing but sometimes I'm talking about storytelling or I mean, not the structure. I don't want the structure to be messy, the humanity. I think what I'm really arguing for more than mess is truth though. And the truth about people is that we're messy. Although, as I'm saying all this, I'm realizing like there's only so far out on this limb, this particular limb I can go, right? I also love really clean controlled art. And I love minimalism and maximalism both. Is this addressing your question at all? It's not a question, it's just more, I'm just curious, because I'm negotiating it all the time. And so I'm curious about you. No, I'm not. No, I'm not. Well, what I'm curious about is what, how are you negotiating these factors? Oh God, the guys almost went for bed. I don't know, I mean, in my own, maybe I guess daily life, there's no artistic element to it just mess as it's represented as opposed to mess as it's felt or it is. Like mess as an ontology versus mess as a representation, right? Can sometimes be in the form of a single line, right?  So I'm bringing a little bit of like nuance to that, the idea of mess that I've seen sometimes in kind of Western artistic practices contemporary. I love this. I'm so curious about this. Like I mean, I'm a novice at that.  I don't know. And I would say I also, when I talk about messiness, I think I'm also coming from a teaching perspective where for a long time I taught non-majors in an illustration class and in a comics class. And most of the time I was trying to get them comfortable with making mistakes and getting dirty and just kind of basic like dealing with materials that you can't predict and can't always control and just letting, relinquishing some control, letting things be like, you know, draw even though you don't know how to draw, get charcoal on your fingers, it's okay. Kind of basic stuff that I think a lot of us get through early on, but if you don't have any art training and you're 22 years old and you're a journalism major or an engineering major and you come into an art class, sometimes you need a little permission to just make a mess. So kind of like on a really basic level. Right. I like elements of chaos that are marshaled into very clean parameters in music and in art as well. Like very intense guitar feedback with a very, very structured rhythm section, for example. I'm really intrigued by your question about when does cleanliness become an act of radicalism? That's where I feel like, wow, I do not know. I think I'm very privileged in that I live in a world where I'm mostly alone and not having to deal with expectations that I'm always very controlled and clean in my presentation, you know? That's so provocative. I just want to interject that those in the room or away, you know, who are not artists, but are creating in other ways like as writers, like people about to write a thesis, people writing in general, you know, I think some of these issues about how the process works can be applied to a writer's in non-painting writer as well as it were or not, a commerce writer. And, you know, I was thinking about three points. A particular one was this last one about making mistakes and messiness and cleanliness and just like writing, writing, writing, knowing that like 90% of it's gonna go and that like 10%, you know, this is it, right? It's the magic board, it's the best part of it, right? Copying from your favorite painter as a strategy in parallel, copying from your favorite writer, right? You're not plagiarizing, but copying is this stuff. I love this and just experimenting with that. And then possibly most importantly, my own perspective and people might, you know, I pointed to three things that everyone might have their own thing that is most useful, but my own perspective, question that's really early on when you put it in your material as you were, I thought was just beautiful because, you know, that's where, you know, if you're reading stuff that you're thinking, I don't like the style or the argument or the method or the sources and like if that's all you're reading, like it's not gonna get you in the right frame of mind to do your own work, right? And it's having that work in the, you know, even if it's not saying media history, media theory, right, but you're just reading the right Tony Morrison novel that gets you thinking about language and forging a work that can help you, you know, just so, so just keep thinking about that. Yeah, what are you feeding yourself with? You know, what are you, what's in your diet, I guess is another way of putting it. Your, some of what you brought up made me think of something I put in my notes, a question that I also don't think is answered, which is where do you put your deadliness? And you can apply that to anywhere in your work and your daily life in environments where you are expected to be controlled. Where do you put whatever you define as deadliness? Another thing you made me think of as a reaction I had to a lot of the work that I saw today, the art museum, there's an incredible photography exhibition at the Harvard Art Museum right now called Devour the Land that's, I really recommend it, but I recommend going with a strong stomach. It's all photographs of the impact of war and war industries on America, on environments, on the land, on humans, on communities. So there's a lot of historical photographs from the post-war period, but also a lot of stuff about environmental racism that's more recent, a lot of it. No, some of it not so recent. And it made me think about the thing I've been wrestling with a lot lately too, which is just the impossibility of comprehending most of what happens in this world. Okay, so this may be getting close to what I call my two-watt light bulb, which is when I realized something that's been obvious to most people for a long time. There it is, little two-watt light bulb. But I think it's always worth remembering. I think we feel huge to ourselves and we feel like we're supposed to understand things. We're supposed to be able to comprehend things and process information and synthesize it and spit out some kind of product or process in response to it, right? As an artist, I increasingly feel completely incapable of that. And that all I can do is document certain kinds of trauma that are sometimes really personal and sometimes they're personal ways of talking about something that's more collective. And I also increasingly feel that I'm incapable of understanding other kinds of group trauma. I try to understand it on a humanity-wide scale but I have to question whether that's the right thing to do because am I universalizing my own community's experience and therefore missing other community's experiences? Does that make sense? You have a career first. I was wondering what's the nature or the source of artistic growth at that point? Oh, boy. You think of people early on and stuff all the better influences that other artists or writers have developed that had some kind of meaning for them early on in the age and absorbed into their own stack. But we're talking about a career, you know, longer, as often engaging with other artists as well, I guess. Quite the opposite. Mid-career is when all the good stuff starts to happen because up to then, you know, well, again, I don't want to universalize my own experience but I don't think there's anything particularly special or unique about me so I'll say probably common experience for a lot of people. In your 20s, you're kind of a wreck and just trying to figure stuff out and getting through school, trying to figure out your career path. In your 30s, maybe you're hustling a lot, maybe you're starting a family, maybe not, maybe you're just starting significant partnerships. In my case, I was working as an illustrator and I was completely, I had parts of myself as an artist completely locked away, inaccessible, thinking I would never be the artist I thought I was gonna be when I was younger because I had chosen this path of kind of lesser resistance. And yes, I was making comics but I felt like I was just never touching that source of power. Where is, I don't know how to get to that thing I really want to do and the kind of power that I want to have in my storytelling and in my visual art and the kind of illustration work I was doing, I knew I wasn't a great illustrator and I knew that I was just kind of workman-like and it didn't really feel like me. It started to kind of break open a little the first time I heard a Nico Case album and when I heard her music, I thought this is the kind of, she's in touch with something that I want to be to. She's got her finger in some kind of electrical socket that's really intense. A few other things also when I, there was a huge retrospective of the South African artist, William Kentridge at MoMA right before I left New York City and that was also a kind of moment of being broken open. Like this is really, this is what I'm, this is what it's supposed to be. Around the same time there was a Carol Walker retrospective too and that had a similar effect. Even more, that was extremely humbling to see her work. So for me, I didn't become the artist that even start to become the artist I really thought I was going to be and really could be until I was in my 40s. So the thing that happens, God, again, I don't want to say like, okay, this is what's going to happen to everybody. But again, I think it's a sort of common experience. When you get to a point in your life where you have enough accumulated experience and wisdom that you can turn around and share it with people coming up behind you. But then also you have all of this bank of experience and training and hard knocks to draw on in your life. Then that's when the real power comes if you can find a way to access it because that's when you have that right balance of all of the messiness of your life and all of the clean parameters of your discipline to filter it through, right? And it becomes this very focused laser beam. I would love to hear somebody else's description of this. This is just mine, but the curse of the mid-career artist is really just that you don't necessarily have time to read other people's books, but that does not mean you don't have time to engage with art. For me, it's meant reopening my engagement with the rest of art that's being made. And I almost said the art world, but I want to make a distinction when I say that I'm not talking about the art world that we often disparage. It's art dealers and the money part of the art world. I mean the world of people making things. I really tried to run away from it because art school can be kind of a scarring experience. I tried to run away from it into illustration and comics and coming back to it has been really healing. And you start to engage in a crop. Well, for me, I started to engage in a really cross-disciplinary way with a lot of other art forms too that I had either locked away from myself or that I had never even come close to before. And that's when the interesting stuff started to happen. So it's not really a curse. It just means I don't have time to follow the trends in comics. And that's fine. I was listening to an interview with one of my favorite musicians, Blitz Bargeld, who is in his early 60s now. And there's almost nobody more interesting or disciplined or in touch with very, very wild creative power than him. But in this interview, he said, I'm out of touch. I'm really out of touch with what's happening in music. And that's fine. He was talking about having a school-aged daughter, how she's really into Billie Eilish. And he's like, yeah, you know, she listens to all this pop music that this is no possible way I could follow it. That's kind of a pleasure of getting older too. It's like, you know, I'll let the kids have that. And I'm over here doing something else. It's cool. The other thing about being a mid-career artist is just that you're applying for a lot of grants and a lot of residencies. And it is amazing how much time is spent on administrative work. Do we have any more questions in the room? I have a question. So you mentioned earlier that the story changes like when the pigments are in water, there's like it's part of the story. Then when it dries, it's also part of the story. I'm wondering if every time the painting change, do you think the story is changing? And also I'm wondering whether, like, what story are you talking about? Like from what I understood, it's about the story of the comic. But I'm wondering more like whether it's the story, your relation with your art, like what is changing or evolving in this, you know, like when it's, when you're experimenting with the water and you're like letting the water color like merge, right? It's one story and then, but is it like your connection with your painting, with your coming art? It's both, yeah. It's very much my own connection with it. And it's what's happening in the narrative. It's also allowing a door to open for unconscious and subconscious stuff to come out. The unplanned, the surprising. And some of that stuff is physical. Like, oh, I didn't expect the ink to go that direction and then dry like that. And then some of it is narrative. Like, oh, wow, I didn't realize that I was actually, you know, here I have, I have characters saying this particular words and having this particular conversation, but then there's these colors things happening that are kind of telling, it's a non-verbal signal under the verbal part of the narrative that can either, it's not so clean and binary as it's either reinforcing the narrative or countering it. It's not quite that simple, but it's part of the story that makes sense. I wanna say also, I had really intense color theory training. I had the really standard Bauhaus color theory pedagogy and the way that I like to describe that is, it's like they put you under for three months and then they snap their fingers and you wake up and you can mix any color. Like put anything in front of me and I can mix it and I don't know how I got there, except that it involved cutting a lot of color aid, which is a really irritating substance. But something that I did in the period between the 2020 election and the inauguration was I was so, I was in this like physiological panic state that I was starting to worry about. Like I'm worried about the future of my physical health. Like I'm gonna have like heart problems or neurological problems from the amount of stress that I'm under right now and the amount of threat that I feel. So, you know, imminent fascism. So in order to kind of build a little barrier around my intellect at the very least, I had a ritual for a while where every night at the end of my work day, I would paint all day and then I would take Itten's book of color theory. Itten was one of the Bauhaus color theory teachers and I would read two pages from it every night. And it was so restorative, even though some of it I couldn't understand, some of it was above me. Like I'm just too dense for this. And some of it was like poetry, the poetry of color, talking about color. I feel as I was reading it, I felt like, okay, this now I kind of, I understand the more theoretical and kind of existential aspects of this thing I was trained so hard in that comes out in my work. So when I'm in that state of experimenting, I'm drawing on that training and those experiences without knowing I'm doing it. And really interesting stuff happens because of that. Does that make sense? Okay. We're right up on time. Do we have any other questions online that we need to? There might just be a quick one from Lily asked, could you clarify what you mean by deadliness? Mm. I'm not, I swear to you, but don't notice where you put your deadliness. So I think that there are multiple definitions to that, Lily. Thank you for asking. That's a good thing to clarify. Sometimes that deadliness is in your own responses and reactions to the world, to whatever it is that really pisses you off or hurts you or that fascinates you. Where do you put those reactions? Where do those impulses go, right? For me, it takes the form of, I want to exhibit some, well, let me go back. I'm very fascinated with the line between beauty and brutality. So I want to explore that line a lot. I want to play on that line, kind of like one foot on each side. See where my weight is on either side of that line. And I want to share that with people. So that's where I put my deadliness. Like I want to, sometimes I want something that's pointy, not to hurt people with, but to give people a sense of solidarity. I have reacted to this thing too. Does that make sense? So where do you put that in yourself, in your own work? Where do you, I guess, maybe another way to put it would be where do you focus your rage? But I don't want to make it sound like everything is about rage and it's not. But that's just one way of expressing it. How do you make something out of, out of difficulty, difficult experiences, personal or collective? How do you work with what is difficult? Thank you so much. I think we will end on that note. Thank you for having me. And thank you for your amazing questions and discussion points.


Welcome back to another acting analysis and tips for animators and today I'm going to continue the series of Killing Eve. This is now season two and we're going to cover episode one. And it's going to go over a lot of body mechanics and pantomime and just kind of more body type of language stuff. So I'm very excited to cover that and let's go. And even though I say let's go, we're not going right away. But as always, I want to say hi to those people who are new to the channel. My name is JD and I do acting analysis clips like these. I do animation analysis clips, I do lectures, feedback and do a bunch of stuff. This is the time where I put in all my thumbnails and I'll tell you about the channel and you can browse around, you can subscribe if you want to. That's something of interest and that is the pitch as always. Now let's go. And the first clip that I want to use here is that she just heard good news from her who lied about it, the spoiler. But what I'm talking about is contact. This is another clip later on about contact. But when you have something like this where someone puts the hand on there, it's tricky because it's not just the one, two frame contact thing where you can kind of do even a little bit of IK or just FK a couple of frames and match it. This is full on contact that holds and then you got contact here with the cheek, the chin and more here. You got compression. You got a character. This one's being the driver of this one. So a lot of movement, a lot of complicated stuff in terms of body mechanics. That is interesting to animate. It's interesting to do on top of that. I think about she is surprised about the hug and you can see this by this expression. And then after a while, she actually gets somewhat annoyed. And as it continues on, you can see it here thing. Oh, really? And then she realized, I quit still something from her. I'm happy. I love this progression just facially. So when you have something like this and this is for a class and maybe the assignment is just, you know, complicated body mechanics or contact, you could do something like this. It's still cut off here. So you don't have to worry about the hips and the legs and the feet and all that stuff. But this is already very complicated from a technical point of view. And then on top of that, you could add the added layer of this. So it's not just body mechanics, but you see kind of a progression of a character facially. So you kind of sneak in some pantomime and thought process in there. And speaking of pantomime, here's another one. This would be a classic what's in the box. So I a long time ago had a shot where it was a box. The box gets opened by a character and the character reacts to it in whatever ways. And this is kind of the same thing. The what's in the box is this. She is taking the bandage and the band aids and everything off the kid and she is having these type of reactions here. So this is not so much in terms of look at the acting, even though it's funny. It's more as an idea. So if you have a what's in the box shot and I'm going to scrub through some of these more, you know, horrific makeup examples here. Think about this. So this could be the example. So someone's opening something and it's potentially not good to look at. So you got these type of reactions. She does have, you know, some audio to some lip sync, but in terms of just pantomime. So you can do a lot with just that in here. Yeah. And you can I mean, you could add lip sync. You can also have just this person talking like in his case. He asked, is it really bad? It may be your assignment would be, well, let's not make it that complicated. Let's not add lip sync. Let's just keep it in terms of reaction. So your lip sync is actually just coming from him, which would be a blurred foreground. And your assignment from the animation point of view is purely reactionary. Right. So you don't do what she does here. It's purely pantomime in terms of visually how she'll react to what she see. And you can see all kinds of stuff here. And she explains stuff to him. Even then you got this reaction here. I think an example like this or just that type of assignment of what's in the box as in a character is reacting to something that the audience is not seeing. So we're not showing these type of images here that I'm blurring out. That would be a really interesting thing to to animate. So kind of think about the progression of maybe the character is kind of somewhat disgusted and then shocked. And it may be towards the end, almost, I don't know, maybe angry or interested. I think this type of assignment gives you a lot of room in terms of pantomime choices and kind of thought process of this character. And again, sticking with contact, here's another one. So by the way, I love how she kind of goes and stops and it's just so excited about seeing her friend. But it's this. So again, you have a moment where this is happening. And again, this is very complicated. You got contact with the head, the arms, the shoulder, the pressure there, the compression here, the IK hands.  Are they kind of swaying back and forth? Is someone driving the action? Again, this is fairly complicated in terms of body mechanics. Even something like this where she would hold on and it goes down. All that is prolonged contact. And this is, you know, not easy to do on top of that. You could do something if the assignment that you're doing, if you're student watching this, you could do something where you could extend the assignment. So as always, if this is your timeline, imagine you're extending your timeline left and right and you're doing something like this. Again, this is a full body mechanic shot here, impressive to see, but it's kind of the anticipation of, ooh, I'm happy to see my friend or even something like this when they do those arms. Hey, and this is just a slight moment of pause. I think this would be a great moment to add before you do purely mechanical technical things, which you should do because it's difficult to do and you need to practice this.  I think this is really cute and this could be an added thing. So once you're done with this, you can just add this at the end as a little button. Just kind of gives us more of an insight in terms of their relationship and how they relate to each other. I think it's really cute. And again, kind of an expansion of I'm doing, you know, this is like your box of body mechanics, but on top of that, I'm adding more layers of character and pantomime and interest. So it's not just purely movement and technical things. This one is not about mechanics. It is more about listening. We're back to those two characters and she is very brutal throughout the show in terms of her actions, but in terms of how honest she is and she just tells the kid that, you know, your outlook is not so good and he starts to cry in the background here. And her reaction is this, like, ah, he keeps crying. Again, her reaction really do you really have to cry? Her face is so good. She's so good in the whole show. Love that. You got that eye roll. And then she finally decides, all right, maybe I should go over there and comfort him. And it's kind of the physical thing of I'm getting closer to the person. So I'm not that, you know, if there's no physical distance and kind of almost relating being on the same level.  And then she says something. Why am I showing you this? Because this could be again, your, your technical physical assignments of a walk, including a turn and then a sit down and a sit down on something squishy. Right. Because you can always think in terms of what are the physical properties of, of whatever object the character is interacting with. This could be concrete she's sitting on. This could be a rolling chair that would move around. In this case, it's a very soft mattress. Again, interesting to do in other mechanics, but this to me would be the added thing of maybe you have lip sync here on top of your mechanics and she's really say happy and encouraging is very positive in terms of the audio and you could start the shop like this. Not only do you have the beginning of a close-up so you can show off your facial acting skills, but it's also different subtext. Actually, she doesn't really want to do it. She's really annoyed, but I guess she has to do it anyway. So in a way, the body language is not going to be completely honest, right? The face can lie, but the body will tell you the truth. So as she goes over, the body will still have somewhat slumped over, kind of reluctant, I guess I need to help you while the audio in the face is lying. And you know, she's just being kind to the character there or whatever you want to do in your case. So this is kind of the extra level once you're past the bottom mechanics was for anybody who studies animation. Again, this is kind of an example for new animators who might need some ideas and some help for the shots.  But once you're past that, once you're really comfortable with the body mechanics, that's when I would do something like this. So do your mechanics. They're complicated, impressive to watch. You can show off your animation skills on your reel. And then on top of that, what is the character? What is their personality? And if there's something where we can watch something that's beyond movement, where you go, oh, that was funny. That was cute. That was sad. Just something, an extra level of character personality and straight up segue into my workshops. If you want me to help you to add those ideas and character ideas and personality traits to your mechanic shop. You know the pitch. It's time for my workshops. Link description and all the information you can sign up at any time. The workshops are open for everybody at any point. And speaking of time, as always, that's the end of my clip. Thank you for watching till the very end. I really appreciate it. And that is that on my end. If by now you like things, you want to subscribe, feel free. That would be awesome. And if not, maybe you watch the next clip and I will try to convince you the next time. But that is that on my end. Thank you for watching and I'll see you in my next upload.