Good afternoon, everyone, and welcome. This is Melissa Armo with the Stock Swoosh, and I'm here to review GES. This was the play of the day today in the room, and actually I was just so happy that I got this today because it was one of those days where there was a lack of follow-through in any shorts, and as you know, I liked a short. And also, I was up a good amount of money very, very quickly. That's what I like. So, I was very patient here. I don't think this was the open. I think the open actually was here, so this was a late open on this. Anyways, bottom line is, went up, grabbed it, and actually this filled me into the price for all the size I wanted, and then it had a bouncy. You could have actually gotten out of this here. Look at that bar. It's like 50 cents plus right in there. Anyways, I did not. I waited for the break, for the drop. Wanted to try to get it under 18. Couldn't get it under 18. Took it. Got filled right in here. Beautiful, beautiful exit. It did go down push down. I could have made like 10 more cents, but never would have held it all the way down here because this was money in here. Real money. Done. So, when you have something that goes right to the target, if it doesn't break the target, if it's a penny from the target, two pennies from the target, that's basically the target, you gotta be out. And had a nice move. Had a nice 60 cent move down in there. Good entry on it. Perfect. Took it with the size. I made $1,500 in a couple of minutes. That's it. And I knew that there was a possibility the market could rally today. I didn't know what time. I didn't think I had the market against me in this in the morning, but the market ended up having a fabulous day. I'll do a separate video on that. Anyways, GES was the Stock Swish Play of the Day. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful short in here today. Great Gap. Have a great night, everyone. Email me at MelissaTheStocksWish.com if you want to sign up for the Golden Gap course. The class is this Sunday and Monday. This is the only time this year I'm planning on doing a Sunday and Monday class. It's usually Saturday and Sunday or Saturday and Monday. So if you would like to sign up, email me at MelissaTheStocksWish.com. Thanks, everyone. Have a great day.


Welcome to the 21 convention 2016 in Miami, Florida. Our next speaker is Steve Maeda Steve Maeda is not only a personal friend. He is the longest running independent speaker in 21 convention history Second only to myself and actually speaking at the event. He's spoken now at 11 events at a 13.  He's spoken to me about it for at least two three years now He's very passionate about it. He has some very unconventional views on it. I'm excited to finally hear them Please help me welcome Steve Maeda at the stage Thank you. All right Thank you so much. It's always an honor to speak here and Every time I speak I try and start off with you know What this is all about and what this is about in all the speeches that I give and choose to give are about men Moving into personal excellence so you can be your best self, but it's also Would be kind of naive for me to not thank my family and start off with a love for them as well Maria's in the back. Our kids are at home Sam a stay bond and then also Zephan and Kai love you guys even when I'm not with you and also this is about Addiction so if it's something that you're struggling with or you know wondering about that's what we're gonna talk about and it's really Serving that purpose so sex drugs and porn addiction and modern culture We're gonna be talking about all that today and there's a couple reasons for it You know, we hear a lot about it with men and with You know our journeys and there's a lot of misinformation about it and the reason why I was asking Anthony about presenting The on the speech years and years ago was because I'd watched so many different TED talks and I'd hear different Coaches and therapists talk about this stuff and it really rubbed me the wrong way partially because I'm an addict and here we have the fancy little definition of what an addict is but Doesn't really describe me that well, I mean I fit within those things, but to be more specific Drug addicts, you know, I've been an addict since I was 14 years old. All right. I have overdosed multiple times I've been revived. I've lived the life of what that means, which is pretty bad and Man, I mean like I know what it's like to just Have my life completely absorbed by that and live on the animal level of what that means Or of what that where that takes you and we'll get into a little bit of that also sexual addiction and I believe addiction is one whole thing that just takes hold at different parts of your life and I've Had that too. I've had it ruin my relationships I've had it ruin my friendships and I've made my life in an obsession and compulsion to find pleasure outside of myself Whatever that might be whether it's putting a pharmaceutical in my body heroin in my body alcohol in my body or finding sex in some sort of way to feel different and In this speech though what I want to look at is addiction is two different things This is what's going to make it a little bit unique Hopefully a lot of things make you unique, but the first thing is is that addiction is a natural phenomenon And so me coming from a place where you know, it's like hey, man You know, I am a drug addict and I forgot to say that it is one of my most proud things It's literally been what has made everything work And since I've been speaking at the 21 convention and been a coach and all these things for the past ten years that Foundation of addiction was was a huge thing for me But I also want to talk about the disease or the disorder and there's a lot of different terminology speculation there I use the term disease, but there's a bunch of neuroscientists that are kind of like moving around that term I don't really care about that, you know I think a lot of the stuff they're saying is right and I just kind of well throughout the term disease every once in a while and also what's super important about this is that Myself coming from a recovery vein that means I had a problem with addiction and have worked with it and hopefully have Managed it and all these different things and know the life of that. There's also the Medical community talking about it. There's also the scientific community talking about it There's also the public talking about it and the interesting thing is is all seem to be divided There's a little bit right and a little bit wrong about each and every single one of those communities and it confuses everybody about it So I choose to for this speech use the definition of addiction is a lifestyle That is built on the obsession and compulsion of finding something outside of yourself to make you feel better That's what I got in and that's what we're going to talk about whether that's the phenomenon the natural phenomenon or the disease and disorder So sex drugs and porn This is the reason one of the reasons why I wanted to give this speech and was so passionate about giving it and man I I would get so fired up and I would email Anthony or call him and I'm like man I got to give a speech about addiction He's like well, maybe you know and I just kept bugging him and bugging him and bugging him and I'd see this I say everything you know about addiction is wrong and this guy says some stuff and some of it might be right But in my opinion a total misinterpretation and not have anything to do with my story of being somebody who put heroin into My body hoping that I die multiple times and even passing out and being revived that I just needed a hug or hearing that Vietnam veterans Which these are these are true things But once again as we were hearing multiple times in this convention stats that are misinterpreted And I feel have a propaganda nature to them your brain on porn the Whatever this one is which is what is it the? the great porn experiment right and all these different things See before these things were popular about porn or the theories of addiction and all this sort of stuff as Ted talks I had already worked through a lot of this stuff and me being a sex addict. In fact, I'll tell you this It sucked and I looked at the pickup community.  This is confusing. What is this?  There's good sexual behavior.   You were lying and buying your own Kool-Aid Anyway, let's go with this stat another reason why I'm giving this speech one out of four one out of four of my clients I've been a coach for ten years.  So 26 and down It's eight out of ten.   Yeah, but it's a super unique individualized thing, but it's eight out of ten And so when they come to our groups and we have this huge community everybody's like oh, man Awesome, they're like no no you don't understand. We're like no we totally understand And so it's very easy when you see that eight out of ten I mean that's for real and now that's my company.  It was in and I was in that mode, right? I was like, you know what I want to do. I Want to create a group of guys Okay, so this is the first time we did it and I want to create a group of guys And these guys are gonna be either recovering drug addicts.  They're gonna have no sexual experience experience Right, and we're gonna form a group and we're gonna agree to masturbating to porn for a certain amount of time every single day Okay, and so my average I committed to two hours a day I was gonna masturbate to in and I loved it because at the time I wasn't watching a lot of porn Right I had in the past, but I was like, oh man I'm gonna revisit this all my old all my old buddies online who don't know me, right and let's see Let's see what Laila stars up to I haven't seen her in a while and But the thing is is that every week we'd meet two to three times and sometimes more and we talk about it Now here's how we talk about it because you can't just talk about it. Just say yeah, I watched this and da da da We we were guys that were already in recovery So we had a little bit of a taste of what this was about, right? And we had no judgment if there was anything illegal It was not our place in the group to report it. Okay. This was about openness You know, we weren't the social police or anything So we weren't there to judge that and we were gonna be totally honest about all of our experiences now since then there was a little bit There's a few caveats to this if you were causing harm you just couldn't do the group So if you were actually inflicting harm on other people couldn't happen But if you had desires or pursued things but didn't take the action that were illegal or causing harm That was that was fine and we had to have that openness and then as it later went on We We basically we said like look if you're in the midst of a porn or sex addiction You're gonna chill out.  And so what were the results, right? What would you think would happen?  We're all fleeting and they were quickly resolved if they even happened And so this would happen to me. I would not want to have sex.   It was like well, you know, sometimes I feel this it wasn't a big deal We took a lot of that that You know power away from it.  Maybe that was the first stage But ultimately see that it was normal Whatever they were doing even if they were into some crazy stuff There was a result of their sexual trauma in the past or whatever it was because we deal with sex addicts It's it's a it's a pretty interesting thing that they now saw that as normal Like well, I get off of this and this might be absurd to the general public, but man This is what I like so we actually watched more porn let ourselves get totally carried away with it But we took away the shame and repression Okay, so we took away the you're bad for this. This is a bad behavior and of the repression We took away the I can't do this. There was no longer a black and white You could do whatever you wanted and you could express it So if I'm going like I have a sex drive But I'm gonna halt it and not watch porn so I could be an authentic man or whatever thing You're gonna tell yourself you will not succeed in that you have to force that and Repression causes things to break and they may not break in the ways that you think they do All right, so in order for this to be true There had to be a fundamental problem with all the different stuff people were saying about addiction About porn and how it affected you All right, so the interesting thing about this group is it's been repeated over and over and over and over again and it's been repeated for seven years non-stop and In those seven years we realized that this isn't a quick fix There's nothing sexy about it It takes time and it will take hard work and if you do have a problem You're gonna have to unlearn it in a little bit and it is a process, right? But give yourself six nine months of sitting in our groups You'll get a lot better where you didn't get better before so this group is TSL online But more importantly then TSL online you should check this out the sexual life comm slash addiction There you can download the slides for this, but also you can look at a video Which is on the 21 convention website called everything you know about porn and masturbation is wrong You should check that out where this go the porn stuff goes more into detail Also, there's other resources that if you're struggling with addiction We'll get into the other ones that you can check those out you can also contact me and join some of our free online groups where we talk about this stuff and There we go, so let's go back to this one out of four eight at eight out of ten How can you beat that? What's up with that? Well check this out one out of four or that eight out of ten? That's under twenty six or twenty seven They were all clients who sought help with somebody else before us most likely a dating coach and a therapist All right. There's nothing wrong with therapy. Therapy is awesome. I encourage it But I'm sharing this speech to give you some awareness on what you got to look for right and they all felt unresolved with their issues around porn sex and it turned into a desperation that nothing could work that Nothing that they were doing because they did everything and the interesting stuff is is if you follow a lot of the stuff that people talk About on reddit or different dating coaches or different therapists It'll take a while for it not to work and that collapse will happen a month or six months down the road maybe a couple weeks and This is this is the most interesting thing about this I Don't know a person who has got who's sought sexual therapy help and prescribe this sort of plan that has actually come out Sexually healthy. I've never met some I've met people on it and then like six months later They're like off looking for hookers in the worst part of town because they hate themselves or they think there's something equated to that I mean it's progressive. It's crazy, right? And so why why does this not work? Well proposed solution man It does not work. What is the general proposed solution? There's all sorts of different ones, but it is to not watch porn to not masturbate to learn to respect women because there must be a problem with you and your viewpoint on women that you learn from porn and rape culture and all the sort of stuff and This is another thing that my friend he got you went to a sexual therapist He's like porn was the problem Steve the neural pathways that we said Steve the neural pathways man She's the neural pathways. It was like I was like a rat in a cage. It was crazy And you know, there's some truth to that but then He said look I got to go on 20 dates before I touch a girl And I have to start rewiring how I rethink about women. He really tried this dude Nobody's gonna make that work, but what he said was he's like dude was totally successful because when I had sex I was able his problem was he wasn't able to orgasm or get an erection Which is a very common thing and he said I was able to do that it was like instant It was amazing. I was like, but you hadn't masturbated or ejaculated in 30 days, right? And so your body then takes over and it forces you to do it and then maybe Four or five more sexual encounters down the road maybe 10 maybe 20 the emotional things haven't been worked out, right? And there's still that shame. It's still that if you let that bad thought creep in Man, you're fucked. All right It produced shame and guilt around sexual behavior. So you couldn't do one thing, but you could do another All right, your way of thinking was wrong and it was also based on a lot of propaganda more than reality All right and propaganda when it comes to porn and masturbation is nothing new In fact, this is something that's covered in that webinar, which is on the 21 convention site But masturbation we've heard things like you go to hell.       These are all very true You know, how could you argue with that? How could you man?  You guys all saw Narcos. They're terrible, right? How can all this be wrong and so 40 plus years later? We realize there's a little bit more to the war on drugs Okay, you know drugs were a political tool. Nixon was having some troubles. He needed to regain some popularity It was a distraction. It was for-profit There was for self a grandization whenever people wanted to be noticed you could always bring up drugs You know was always an easy sell and the thing is is that it actually created all these problems with our prison system it created created all these problems socially for us and It caused the need for traffickers to take harsher measures. So it created more violence, right? And you know just made more hysteria around drugs. So this is the the partnership for a drug-free America All right, never in the history of the world has there been a drug-free society in fact Because of that you will always have a war on drugs You will always have an enemy and it's estimated but in the history of the world there has always been Something about point five percent of the population to three percent of the population that has a problem with drugs Okay, in these that's a small percentage, but still very very relevant one percent is a lot Right, but so you'll know somebody that's affected by this But think about this.  What would that mean? You would have massive massive social oppression in order to get there and Perhaps the search for drugs and the search for looking and finding those different ways of thinking and feeling That's always been a part to what you know was the bedrock of our culture no matter what culture you had to think beyond So the war on drugs actually did nothing to help people who were addicted to drugs It had nothing to prevent drug addiction It did nothing to help find the causes of addiction But what it did was it polarized it and made it a war all right and that caused a lot of problems So it told us the drugs were a national and world emergency Also when they never really were okay, so here's the truth the truth about drug addiction And these are studies that are actually cited from Carl Hart's book high price which Interesting good guys one of the good guys, but I'd like to talk to him more and again That's what this for because I'd like to build more of a dialogue between guys who are scientists making progressive information About the you know what's going on with the brain and drugs and with people in recovery and with people who are Therapists and people who are into the medical definition of it But 80 to 90% of people who use drugs like crack cocaine crystal meth heroin oxycontin alcohol Marijuana do not get addicted to them. That's crazy and how this is actually worded It should be worded better is that if you use them regularly You will not get addicted that wasn't my story That wasn't my story in any way shape or form and me saying that knowing that these things You know mainly things like heroin or oxycontin or crack or meth killed so many of my friends man Me saying that was a big jump But that is the truth The truth about porn check this out over 80 over 90 percent of Young men will get caught up in a long-term excessive uses of masturbation That is going to happen. That is not unique That is not something which makes you different or screwed up or whatever and actually after several months or years You grow out of it. Okay, but you will sit in that tension of being carried away with it for a while 90% of Men will experience one or more sexual dysfunctions in their life including premature ejaculation inability to get an erection sustained an erection You know sexual anxiety before and after sex, but all these big things well happen, right? And they're different for everybody, you know and in different situations elicit them All right, those who experience these problems long-term and those who experience these problems and They seem to grow bigger and they do go on for years and they're not stopping Are all a specific group of people and if you're one of these people, that's fine All right, there's nothing wrong with you because of that You just have to take a different route and this was actually for me, right? You know, I am one of the one percenters. It's usually a good thing in this case But it's still a good thing just wasn't at the time But you had sexual trauma.  All right, so porn addiction is ruining your life Porn is an epidemic amongst young men.   There's all these terrible things, right? They're rewires or neuro pathways yet you've tried everything you did it all But the interesting thing is the poor results don't come till six months down the road two months down the road or whatever It is and you read all about all this science all these authorities speaking on it What would that mean if it doesn't work for you? That means more shame And I can't tell you how many guys come to TSL the sexual life saying this didn't work There's a guy at the last 21 convention. He said man, I got carried away with this.  He couldn't do it He couldn't keep up with the pace of or lack of pace of not masturbating not watching porn every time he did it He felt terrible. There was no answer.  It's so it's just crazy, right? You know, but but what were they speaking to a bunch of people who had sit to me sit with me at a dinner table Conversation or to think that they were all intellectual telling me that oh, well, you know rats in a cage You know the interesting statistic about that which it actually shows a great thing rat city, right?  They do it to the point of death Well, what do human beings do and actually human beings do it less than the rats because the rats still ten percent of them were addicted to drugs or kept doing it Human beings 1% 1% 3% right put human beings in a cage What do they do look at jails and drug use it's hard to tell to stay clean in in jail So another thing that we hear about is neuroscience and this is actually a really really cool part This was the thing I was most excited about talking about because we always hear about the neuroscience And we've heard a couple speakers talk about it, but we really break it down here now when you are in the phenomenon of addiction So remember we said we're going to talk about the natural phenomenon and then the disease and disorder of addiction and there are two really different things All right, so the natural phenomenon to addiction what happens is your brain lights up I love hearing that too, but it doesn't just light up. It works in this crazy complex way We're just going to isolate four areas of it here. You got to kind of be aware of it but these things light up not in just this one-set way and these ways that are just Amazing and totally diverse and crazy and it's awesome But we're going to look at the amygdala which actually stimulates emotions So anytime you get a surge of feeling something that's the amygdala and then it happens so fast the rest of the brain tries to interpret it This is the striatum which does a whole bunch of stuff But what we're talking about it here is that it pumps dopamine it regulates how much of that feeds all of this We're also going to talk about the accumbens which the accumbens is that thing which says right now do it now when you get tunnel vision When you can't stop thinking about one thing you're going to think or you're activating this little guy there And then the orbital frontal cortex. This is awesome This is what makes human beings human sock was talking about it Nick was talking about it But this whole area and this is just the orbital frontal cortex is in the brain for strategy makes you think This is the difference between us and pretty much any other animal because mammals all have this reptiles don't But a rabbit or a rat or a mouse can get by with an accumbens go now and an amygdala But a human being has this other thing where we can think strategize way the differences between Think about what's going to affect us in the future and so on right so much of the point where if we lived in a Cold environment we could build a house so much to the point when we talk to somebody We may have social urges to talk to them But we could think and weigh the scale of that and then have personality and conversation all these different things And so what we're going to talk about is how these things interact with each other when we're going through The natural phenomenon of addiction, so we're going to talk about these three things the trigger The high and the void All right now Let's move on to the trigger So the trigger is that thing which that thought or that action that?  I'm gonna I'm gonna get loaded man It's before we put the drug in the body or anything like that And then there's a meaty scene an obsession and this is really cool right so the accumbens then comes into play And it's like no now now you can't think about anything else perhaps if I'm in front of the computer I'm already tunneled vision there, but now it's like well wait a minute. No, I got to do it I got to know I got to work. I got to get this done man.  No, there's nothing wrong with this There's nothing absolutely wrong with this and and I'm gonna do it and perhaps You know Maria's calling me from downstairs, and then I just don't even think about it I just say I'm busy. I got to work on this. I got to finish this right that's the strategy coming around I don't want to lie to her But when all these things are happening these things happen and they're normal and they're natural And so we're moving through this and then we get ritualistic I sit there and I'm in front of my computer and I move things to the side of my chair back because I don't like to sit in A certain way when I'm jerking off and I want to see the certain screen in this way and all these things are happening Right these all the stuff that happens from coming from our groups because we talked about this a lot or perhaps I'm setting up to load up a needle. I get the right spoon. I light it in the same way I get it hot in the same way, and I start to move in this ritual I can only use the same tourniquet if I'm in a trap house or whatever And that's a house where a bunch of people do drugs and sell drugs out of is that I'm gonna be in a certain area I'm gonna go in my room. I'm gonna most likely end up in the smallest corner of the house You know wanting more and then at that point I haven't even gotten involved in the action yet But I'm powerless towards it And so the secession of things happen right where the brain gets hyper stimulated and starts to move within enough with within itself and You know all of a sudden we've got to do it You know we're powerless towards it or we're totally in it and we want to do it It would just make sense to do it Right, it's the right thing. We're not weighing the scales of morality We're not thinking about what our therapist said and the problem is we see a therapist once a week And we don't have a group to go to or maybe twice a week And so then we start to get high the addictive behavior takes place when the addictive behavior takes place This is awesome. We get height and focus man from the point where I'm going through the trigger and I'm watching porn Or to the point where I watch porn Totally different person totally different human being why why? Man different thing the amygdala says something else.  I need intensity man.  No, I'm gonna do it And this was an interesting thing because as many of you guys know my first girlfriend I had sex with like five times.  I'm like god this is amazing Oh my god, I'm just like those guys this has to be I can't talk to anybody about this It's got to be a secret immediate desire for more. I need more. I started.  I'm all high if I'm wired I'm gonna stay up.   She's got it down This is not a big deal and just just leave like I need the money now And it's it's not for anything that you think it is but it's totally cool or one of my favorite scenes from drugstore Cowboys The guy has a no shirt on and like boxers and a trench coat and he just shows up the door And he's like yeah, man, so we got to do this It's great great. I start I start hoarding I start I start hiding different things Especially if I'm watching porn I'm going like no man. I want to watch this again. This is mine This is gonna be mine right now and that's actually part of this ego part man That orbital frontal cortex that does so much for us naturally. We're going no I own this man I'm gonna save this, you know, I have a relationship with it. This is something that's happening yet Even though I'm not looking at the outcome and this is an interesting thing about compulsion studies is that when I look at the outcome And I'm in a compulsive state. I don't care about the outcome. I care about it getting done So it doesn't actually have purpose or meaning in a motion with me But it has a ritual of having to be able to finish the job much like if you see a brake light on a car You pump your brakes, right?  I didn't care necessarily where I was I wanted to be in a corner, but I wanted to pass out in a certain way and at first Maybe that had some sort of benefit. This is a real thing man Like I'm still comfortable sleeping in these positions to this day and it's years and years later, right of where I Would pass out to make sure that I wasn't gonna choke on my puke I would pass out in a certain way where it felt the feeling that I was kind of attached to and all these things meant something But the same thing with pornography.   I'm late for work. Oh, man.  All right, and and then we start to have regret and we go man I told why was I doing that fuck? Why did I do that again? I can't believe it. I said I wasn't gonna do this and And I know I got carried away and it's just it's crazy. It's like a drug It's horrible and I started to get disgusted with myself I started to get depressed and this is the point where we sweared off forever where we go I am never going to do this again, but we forget We forget that just two minutes before this that was not in our mind And that's very important because we often think this is the story of addiction When this is really the story of a natural path of addiction okay, so Right here. We have the natural phenomenon of addiction. We just went through that experience and I know a ton of you guys have felt it and Been through those whether it was through a drug or whether it was through porn or You were at a rally or you were at a church event or you were in a flow state Or you just wrote something it made total sense. You were feeling that high. Here's the difference The social event socially acceptable The high of writing something socially acceptable, but I'll feel the void with that because the next day when I can't write the same I'm like no man. I got to do more. I got to do more.  I can't do it Oh, geez and all this like depression and shame comes into play because I can't perform like I did the day before when I created something like really awesome, right? You know or let's say we go through a sporting event now This happens all the time to me and jujitsu But socially acceptable. There's no reason so when I feel the void when my brain calms down We're all chill and there's other factors in there But the voids there if you experience this if you experience this natural phenomenon That does not make you an addict and all the propaganda says it makes you an addict Right? So that's a very common thing our brains were made to do that our brains were made to feel that Okay, and if we talk about it with each other like I said in the experiment Even with guys who've gone into full-blown addiction and sex addiction is crazy and when you talk about sex addiction I'm not talking about jerking off to porn.  What's up with this 1%?  You know, why did this happen?    It was it was awesome. It was great, man There's so many good stories about it, but all of this You know this this thing about addiction where it moves into a disease or a disorder And like I said some people have a problem that disease word and I'm fine with that as long as we can talk about it more You know, I actually agree on the neuroscience guys that the good guys break it down and talk about it Just being a disorder But when your life revolves around that right when your life is they getting and using and finding ways and means to Get more and you are obsessed with it, okay? In order to get this we have to understand the void There's way more to it than this but this is a short speech because it all ties in so what happens when I get done This is Sam done jerking off done jerking off.  I did this again God man because masturbation is this thing I've been doing since I was nine or ten or whatever age I was and it never felt good I always try to control it and I can't and I'm alone Right.  This is a pattern and all of a sudden It's like God dude.  This is me I have tried everything in the world. This is me.   This no longer is a high There's no longer something to where you're going like oh man, I'm gonna you know for five minutes I'm gonna just have my way or for two hours. I'm just gonna disappear and feel nothing.   That's a way of life And when it's a way of life that is when you are an addict and that to me is the disease Or the disorder of what you say with addiction all right, that's when we cross that line and Man it's interesting what gets us there You know some of the things that they say like people's amygdalas are a little bit more receptive when we have Trauma in our youth when we had You know some sort of abuse when we felt different when we felt alienated in fact There's all these social studies, and of course social studies can get reinterpreted and misinterpreted and used in all these screwed up ways but people that commit suicide Generally have a feeling where they don't have a vision of their future where they don't have a Backbone does they feel alone?  You know I read this thing and it's amazing You know they put these rats and it's like I get what you're going with it cool Yeah, and so just to just to put this in here This this slide I I don't really know how to talk about and we'll see where I go with it But you know obviously this means my buddy Matt. It's my buddy Robert It's my buddy Haseeb seeps kind of a famous guy Google me.  We worked with that achin who's a Guy who's spoken here, and it was awesome man.  This was in August 2013, and we were we were gonna train that day and that day this guy Fucking split my face open man I have this huge like gosh, and I should have put the picture in there, and I remember I was like no Let's keep I got all mad at him.  He's like man.  Okay. This does not make sense This is the dumbest thing, but it does not make sense.   He got prescribed an opiate, you know Which is which if you need an opiate you should take an opiate because then you're gonna end up in too much pain You can't control it and then you have to break and take something and then that kicks off the whole addiction thing in any way What happened was is we were hanging out one Saturday night And I was with Maria and I was with him and I had to get home to Maria And it was like 1 a.m. And we wanted to pick up chicks He had this girlfriend and they were breaking up and he's early and recovering I'm like, let's talk to these girls. So we talked to these girls and they're like all about him He was good-looking guy and he was like, no, I can't I can't I can't can't do it I'm gonna go home and the funny thing is the other guys He went to rehab with one was sick and the other one broke his foot that day And he'd have this support system of where he called people so I get home It's 1 a.m. And the phone rings and he's like dude and I was a sponsor and he says dude Steve I need help I said man, sorry like you you gotta you gotta call some other people man I'm with Maria and Maria's there and she's saying, you know, it's 1 a.m. I miss 1 a.m. You know, and I Said look call me in the morning do all the stuff you got to do but hit up those other people They're all probably hanging out at Epoch, which is like an all night coffee shop in Austin and He texts me Monday that was on Saturday and he said man. I got to talk to you I call him up and he said I didn't make it All right, and I'm like, okay. It's cool.   Please help me show up to Matt's house Matt. What's up? Knock on Matt's door nothing nothing nothing nothing. He's like, oh man text me. Sorry my dad came to get me Da-da-da. It's all good.   I was teaching a workshop And I just gotten back into teaching workshops because I took a break like a lot of guys do and he says dude come and help me Leave my workshop and it was just about start actually 11 a.m. Go to help them doesn't answer Then doesn't answer doesn't answer says his brother's coming to pick him up I go back go on my workshop at 2 p.m.  I love it changed my life There's a lot of good things that those things can do, but there's also some things that they could learn from the neuroscience There's also a lot of things that they could learn from people who are really looking at this stuff and I wish that bridge built All right, but there's one thing off all the disease word or there's one thing off Like they get something wrong with the rat city or Carl Hart didn't an experiment which hey man I'd like to hear more about but where he gave people crack cocaine a Pharmaceutical grade and they could either do another hit after they had done a hit in a lab or next week They could get ten bucks and they all chose or overwhelmingly they chose the ten bucks So he's like well people aren't powerless over drugs He asked any drug addict and I think his point wasn't that like oh, yeah, drugs are simple or easy It was it was more that there's a difference that we need to look at But that difference and I'll tell you right now from people knowing crackheads Is you want to do crack where you can do crack?    I have this amazing woman who sometimes is really bitchy to me and really aggressive and I got these awesome kids that sometimes pick their nose and cry all night and Last night when my wife came in here.  So there's no excuse.  He had this is excuse That said that kept him from freedom that kept him from feeling good And I'm not talking about feeling good and having things like I said before I'm talking about Whether he was in jail whether he was in whether he had mental problems because of this whether he had some physical Disabilities which he did because of his drug use He could still have his freedom and you could work for it and that's where I came from and that's the story of addiction If you do make it there is that you can have it and it's hard, but you can have it you can totally fucking have it And if you don't think you can man Let me let me that's what this is for you know let me help you so here's an interesting thing guys We talked about neuroplasticity a little bit Here's an awesome thing if you have a problem with porn if you have a problem with drugs The brain rebuilds itself scans with addicts who are in recovery for a while Developed new strategies and this this part of the brain actually became bigger and more developed So that orbital frontal cortex prefrontal cortex to deal with stress To deal with having peace and sustaining those things now I know a lot of addicts and we got a lot of anxiety So they still got a lot of problems, but there were more things built our brains changed I haven't had my brain scanned. I don't really want to but our brains changed To deal with these things better. That's awesome. That's amazing And here's an interesting thing about our brains changing what changed them most and this is one of the things about addiction in in my porn Experiment which was so true Was that when we were in the state of our addiction they changed we heard some guys talking about what's the equivalent of? Cognitive behavioral therapy here, which is effective and good But that's when you write stuff down you analyze and you make decisions from it If you're not doing that when you're in the act of trauma or the high or the trigger It'll take a much longer time that you'll still get there It'll take a much longer time, but here's the beautiful thing if I go I can watch porn You know, I can do these different things or perhaps I'm using drugs and I haven't totally crossed that threshold I won't do them now, but you know, that's just today. Maybe I might do them later But if I can go you know what? Alright, I'm feeling this.  I'm getting carried away I'm in the natural phenomenon of addiction and I'm gonna lose power to stuff or the natural phenomenon of obsession And I can calm down and I know I'm gonna pop out of it My wife is upset last night and she is in panic like I had never seen ever It was crazy This is gonna pass You don't need to react and I react a lot and if I react I go okay I can fix this I can learn how to be responsible with my life. That's cool I want to put this up here because a lot of people talk about neuroscience, but Carl Hart said You know, we see all these images of the brain and we think all this stuff What does that tell us about human behavior? Nothing Science is far far away from understanding what happens to the brain in addiction But we're continuing to try and I do applaud that man That's an awesome awesome thing But when people start quoting neuroscience and all this sort of stuff man take them You know, you got to get the behavioral side of it too. So the solution check this out if you're a guy That you know is entered into that form of that phenomenon of addiction you've felt the high you've felt the void all those things But you haven't really crossed over man join a group join a men's group go to the sexual life comm slash addiction You can join our men's group. It's amazing. Some of you guys are on it the Austin men's development group We talk about this stuff There's tons of guys who are recovering sex addicts recovering dirt drug addicts on there There's people that are talking about dating and health and fitness. It's amazing You will have an openness and an honesty. The other thing too is is that you're going to Actually, you'll have opportunities to show up on our calls and all these different things and you'll get to see it If you take the therapeutic option, all right, this is good.  I love drugs I love being a drug addict. It's one of the best things of my life But you need that physical separation at first that could be a rehab that could be friends That could be and I've gotten clean in all sorts of different ways because I've relapsed a ton of times You need to support community that could be a 12-step community that could be a group I could be whatever it is, but you need peers who have more experience than you have the same as you and who are new Because you don't see growth in yourself Which I know what we're all looking for you see growth and other people and you're like man. I was that guy I've come somewhere and You need self-work down the road You know just getting clean or just stopping is not enough You need to work on yourself you have to and that's what has happened to me I think that's one of the biggest criticism about 12-step guys be in because the nature of it Which I appreciate is that all you have to do is be clean and I appreciate that I don't want to change that about it Well steps are good awesome stuff But I found so much from discovering stuff about myself and working on myself in other areas in any case I need to say it. We're out of time Email me Steve at the sexual life or go to the sexual life comm slash addiction and you can find out how to contact me I'll answer everything and if you have questions for me. We'll answer them afterwards Just one last thing if you're an addict any addict any addict Okay, you can stop using you can lose the desire and you can find a new way of life And if that's the only thing you remember Man walk away with that Thanks


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Out of the corner of my eye, I could see that my husband was looking quietly into the Green Valley far below. He looked peaceful now. He had made his speech about driving too fast. I'd asked him to be quiet, and now he was quiet. I wondered what he would do if I stopped the car and told him right then that we were driving up to the Johnson House so that I might kill him. I parked the car on the highway at the foot of the dirt road leading up to the house. We walked quickly between the heavy trees. My husband stopped once to wipe the dust off his shoes. I hurried him on, and we soon arrived at the front door. As planned, I had forgotten the key. I did open my person look, however, and that gave me the opportunity to release the safety catch on the gun I had borrowed from my husband's belongings. I suggested that we try one of the windows. He agreed, and we slowly made our way through the underbrush that was growing wild at the side of the Stucco building until we reached a first floor window. The window was set high above the ground, and my husband had to stretch his body to reach it. I waited until he had his back to me, with his hands raised high in the air, reaching for the window frame. Then I opened my purse, took out the gun, aimed very carefully at a spot just in the center of his left shoulder blade, and pulled the trigger four times. He didn't fall right away. He had had his fingers over the window ledge ready to unfasten the catch when the bullets hit him. With some terrible effort, he dug his nails into the stucco and tried to keep from dying. I couldn't move. I wanted to scream that my throat felt paralyzed. He tried to turn his face and look at me, but he hadn't that much life left. At last, he fell and felt better for it. I bent and looked at my husband's body. He was quite dead. I wiped off the gun, his gun, and threw it behind in a Kesha bush. Then I walked back to the car, slowly and carefully removing any of my footprints which showed in the loose dirt of the road.  I put the car in the garage, went in and had my shower, and lay down in the library to wait. A few minutes after the grandfather clock struck 11, the telephone. This is she. This is Jonathan Brown, the sheriff's office. I have some bad news for you. My husband? I waited quietly for a moment. Then I let the phone fall to the floor. I listened until I heard Jonathan Brown hang up. Then I replaced my telephone on its stand, went into the kitchen for some ice which I put in a large Turkish towel. I then arranged myself carefully and attractively on the living room to vent and waited again. In here, please. Oh, yes, thank you. You all right, Miss Skinner?  No, I'm all right. I came over as soon as, you know, you dropped the phone. Well, I felt faint suddenly. No wonder. Tell me what happened, Mr. Uh, Brown, Jonathan Brown from the sheriff's office. Mr. Brown, well, please sit down. Oh, thank you. Well, your husband was up to the Johnson House this afternoon as well as we can figure. Up there on the side of the mountain, you know, and, uh, well, he must have been trying to get into the window, and somehow, somebody, well, shot him. Yeah, sure you want me to tell you. Oh, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Go on, please. Well, we looked around the place, couldn't see anything. Though we found, uh, you know, the weapon. It was a gun found in the brush near where he was and, uh, no footprints or anything. Except tire marks down the main highway. Bunch of cigarette butts where someone must have been sitting in a car waiting, you know. Those were my tire marks. You, you was up there? Well, I had an appointment to meet my husband this afternoon at the foot of the road leading up to the Johnson House. He had said that he'd had some business to attend to and, and would get a ride with this other person. He was very mysterious about it. I waited for an hour or more at the foot of the road. You were so clever to recognize the meaning of those cigarette stubs. Well, when, when he didn't come, I thought perhaps I was mistaken about the appointment, so I drove home. Oh, to think if perhaps I'd gone up to the house, I might have saved my more dear husband's life. There, there, there. Terrible shot. I'm all right. I'm all right. Thank you. Now, don't you worry about a thing, Mrs. Skinner. Sheriff's Office will round up the guilty party or parties and have them brought to trial, you know. Yes, I, I'm sure. I slept well that night for the first time in ten years. My husband during his lifetime had snored loudly and steadily, and during his later years he had acquired the nervous and distressing habit of grinding his teeth in his sleep. This night all was quiet and peaceful in the house, in my house. And as I say, I slept beautifully. The next few days were also beautifully quiet. A few photographers and newspaper men that they were kind and gentle and they didn't make too much bother. Finally, Mr. Jonathan Brown called to say that he would send a car for me on Friday morning, the next day, as it turned out, to take me to the coroner's inquest. The small courtroom was crowded and almost everyone there eyed me with great sympathy. And the inquest proceeded evenly. There was, as yet, no evidence as to the identity of my husband's murderer. I again stated that I had left the tire marks and the cigarette stubs at the foot of the road that led to the Johnson House. No, I hadn't heard a shot. No, my dear husband had no enemies. Then... I've had this blackboard run into court so that I might show the position of the body when found. I think it might be of interest. Yeah, proceed. The body was found just below the first-story window on the left side of the house. The dead man was obviously trying to gain admittance, you know. He didn't die immediately, as I'll show you, but stayed alive long enough to try to keep himself from falling, since marks from each of his fingernails were found running down the side of the building. Here, then, is the window sill. Here are the marks of his fingernails. And here is the spot where the body lay when it was discovered. And here... As he talked, he watched me. And I didn't know why until I heard the first scrape of the chalk against the blackboard. For one awful moment, it was the sound that had been made by my husband as he tried so desperately to hold himself alive. I found myself tightly holding the wooden table in front of me. My arms and body tense. Trying not to think. Since a large deposit of the dried stucco from the building was found under each of the victim's fingernails, I believe I can best illustrate the manner of the victim's last moments with a physical illustration.  We hear the gunshots, then the victim slowly sinks to the ground. Please, please, I can't serve. Oh, please don't serve me. For Suspense, Roma Wines are bringing you Agnes Moorhead in the 13th sound. Roma Wines' presentation tonight in Radio's outstanding theatre of thrills, Suspense. Between the acts of Suspense, this is Ken Niles for Roma Wines. Tomorrow on Valentine's Day, delight your Valentine with a gift that's smart, lavish, and in perfect taste. Say it with Roma Champagne, traditional wine of romance. Brilliant bubbling Roma Champagne is an unforgettable token of your thoughtfulness. For pale dry, spitely dry Roma California Champagne, made by the world-famous Charmont bulk process, is sparkling wine at its finest. Yes, to make any golden moment live forever. 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Yes, yes, it was quite a strain. The corner asked whether it'd be all right to go on without you.  What happened? He said you'd be all right. Oh, I meant about my husband. He met his death at the hand of a person, a person's unknown, you know. Is there anything further I must do? Not a thing, Miss Skinner. Well, you've been very kind.  Then I'll be going now if there's nothing more you need from me. Oh, no, nothing, thank you. Well, goodbye then. And don't you worry. We'll find who did it, you know. After he had left, I had the time to be angry at myself for my behavior at the inquest. What must the people have thought to faint only from the noise of a piece of chalk on a blackboard? I wondered if Mr. Brown had suspected anything because as I remembered, back to earlier afternoon, he'd been watching me as he drew those silly little diagrams on the board. He hadn't been looking anywhere else. Not at the coroner or at any of the reporters or even at what he was doing. He'd been looking at me. Well, of course he was looking at me. He was showing his sympathy. I slowly allowed myself to return to my former position in the community. I was able now to do the things I'd always wanted to do but had been restrained from doing by a certain attitude of my husband's. He never liked entertaining. He didn't believe that we should belong to the country club and take a civic pride in the fact that our home was the largest and most beautiful in the community. In fact, it was his desire to sell our lovely home that caused me to finally take that complete and drastic step. The first evening that I accepted an outside invitation was for one of the Wednesday night evenings of bridge at our club. At my table with the president of the bank and his wife. As I sat down, I noticed that a windowpane on my left was shattered. And even Miss Gray, Miss Gray. Well, good evening, Mr. Brown. Good evening, Miss Skinner. I'm the culprit here. Playing boar with the kids this afternoon. I threw one right through your lovely window. Oh, really? But I brought old Sam here with a new pane of glass and he'll fix his upship shape no time at all.  Sure, sir. Don't mind me, folks. I'll just be a minute. Oh, uh, incidentally, Miss Skinner, I always meant to ask you whether or not you minded noises, especially sharp noises like, uh, say chalk on a blackboard. I don't understand chalk on a blackboard. At the inquest, I always wondered about it. You fainted just when the chalk was scratching across the blackboard. I don't remember hearing it. I'm afraid I fainted before you drew any diagram. I said, that's what you were planning to do, draw a diagram. That's what I was planning to do, yes, ma'am. Yes. Does he have to do that? Is something wrong, Miss Skinner? Does he? Does he have to do that? I can't. I can't. I stayed at home for the next few days. I cancelled all appointments. The heat really was unbearable. In October, I resumed my activities. I began to see people again. I grew especially interested in chamber music. Through my activity, I arranged a musical evening to be given by a group of which I was the second vice president. They planned the formation of a Philharmonic Society eventually. I went to the musical alone, and I was studying my program when... Uh, is this seat taken? Well, good evening, Mr. Brown. Well, Miss Skinner, good evening. Getting recognized, ma'am. Well, I was to be joined later. Well, I'll just sit here a moment, then. You know, I'm terribly sorry about the other night. It's really nothing at all for you to be sorry about. Very kind of you to say that, you know, but I do feel guilty as all sin being the cause of you to get sick like that. Oh, really? Mr. Brown, I wasn't sick at all. What? Mr. Gregg told me I'd probably been affected by the heat. It was very close in the club that night, if you'll remember. Yes, yes, ma'am, it was. Well, just so I don't feel it was my fault, you know. Oh, no, I don't want you to feel that it was your fault. That's very kind of you, you know. Thank you. If you don't mind, I'll stay here until wherever it holds as he gets here, all right? We crave your indulgence and a certain open-mindedness for giving a fair chance to the first piece with which we are going to open our program this evening. The title of this piece is The Thirteenth Sound and the composer is Julian Carrillo. At this piece, because of the unorthodox nature of it, created a veritable furor in New York City some weeks ago on the occasion of its premiere. It's what you call, I guess, modern music and the really unusual thing about it is that the instruments instead of playing as they usually do in Mozart, Haydn, and such classical veins play in quarter tones. Now, a quarter tone is somewhere in between the other tones, such as we are accustomed to hearing. So on this following piece, the instruments are not playing as you would think, out of tune. This is the way it is supposed to sound. Thank you. So now, the various members of the quartet will tune their various instruments into these quarter tones and this is quite a short piece, but I know you're going to like it. Tune up, gentlemen. This should be very interesting. You think so, Miss Skinner? 13th sound. Have you heard it? No, no, I haven't. Too hard again, Miss Skinner. It does get stuffy in here. I'm all right. It's hot in here. You're terribly pink. Are you sure you're all right? I'm quite all right. Excuse me. Will you let me out? I left Mr. Brown sitting there.  I never liked modern music. I locked all the doors and I turned on all the lights and then I did a foolish thing.  Then I turned out all the lights and opened the windows and went to sleep. I didn't sleep well but I didn't stay awake either. I hadn't set the alarm next to my bed and when I first awoke the next morning for a minute I couldn't remember what had happened. I fell drunk. Got out of bed and put on the lovely chartreuse brocade house coat and started downstairs. Sun was shining outside. It was a beautiful day. Not the sort of day when you could be disturbed by unrelated noises. I felt grand when I got downstairs. Then I heard... What? I didn't know. I didn't care. I knew only that I had to stop it before it happened to me again. Stop it! I told you to do your work here. Did someone...? Well, no, ma'am. The lawnmower, the dirtin' thing wasn't cut and I had to...  Get once! Yes, ma'am. Go! I didn't even come back. You hear? Lovely day. I turned and ran. Right back to my living room. I stood shivering there in a beam of sunlight. I waited for him to come bursting into the room after me. I waited... and then the doorbell rang. Just a moment. Did I disturb you? Oh, no, no. Then I will come in. But I can only stay a minute. Would you like some coffee? Oh, no, thank you. When I was so sick, you remember, the doctor absolutely forbid me having any more coffee. Oh, I... I didn't know that. Oh, sit down, please. Do you drink much coffee? Oh, why do you ask? Well, I thought perhaps your recent attacks might have been caused by that. Mr. Gregg is a great one for aspirin and salt tablets. I think it's much simpler than that. Cut out coffee. Well, I... I think my attacks were just caused by this heat. I plan a sea voyage. Oh, House Splendid, that will certainly fix you. Yes, I will. You know, I don't mean to be disrespectful, heaven knows. But perhaps on the boat, you might meet a fine young man who... Well... Perhaps. When do you plan to leave? This afternoon. I'm leaving from New York. Oh! Well, you can't. Pardon? Well, the clubhouse, the unveiling ceremonies of this afternoon. Oh, I forgot. Well, you simply can't leave. We have no one who can replace you on the speaker's platform. Oh, well, I... Well... Well, all right then, Mrs. Gregg. I'll say for the ceremonies. I drove to the new clubhouse of Mr. and Mrs. Gregg. The building was really very lovely. It was almost ready for occupancy. We were unveiling a heroic figure which graced the entranceway. Our speaker's platform was built alongside the figure and quite a few of the members and their families were sitting on the wooden benches in the front patio, waiting for the ceremonies to begin. Isn't this exciting? Oh, yes, yes, very. The ladies have done a marvelous job. Oh, thank you. Thank you. What's that fellow doing up there? What? Where? See up on the roof there, that truckman. Oh, yes. Makes me nervous to see people at such heights. Off the coast ahead. I guess she knows his business, I imagine. Yes, I suppose he... I'm very anxious to hear your little talk, Mrs. Guinness. Well, thank you. I think you've managed admirably since you're unfortunate. Well, you understand. Yes, yes, thank you. Well, I think we should get on with it, eh? Well, I believe it'll be only a few more minutes. What? What is it? What is it? Good heavens. Look, that workman is going far. Can't someone catch him? He's hanging on the ledge. Some of the men are running up there now. They've got to catch him. They will, they will do it. They've got to catch him. What? They saw him. No. Oh, turn your eyes, ladies.  My nonsense. I didn't. You had nothing to do with it. I didn't. I didn't. I didn't. I didn't. I didn't. Listen to me. Listen to me. Listen to me. Listen to me. Listen to me. Listen to me.  I can't leave him around. Make you stop that noise. I know. I know, man. It's going to be all... Shame. Yeah, people do funny things. Did you pay the fella? Mm-hmm. He's clever. Very clever. Sure is. I really thought he was falling off of that building. It used to be an acrobat. Oh. 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And we're recording, so Lindsay take it away. Perfect. Hi everyone. Welcome to today's session. I am so delighted that you can join me as I talk about Ontario Extend, an open program to enhance digital fluency for educators. Extend is a timely and relevant professional learning program for which we have seen participation increased by over 300% just this year when compared to the scene period from last year. My name is Lindsay. As Christina mentioned Lindsay Woodside and I work as a digital learning associate who leads the Ontario Extend Initiative and my co-presenter Lena Patterson who is the Senior Director of Programs and Stakeholder Relations was to join me today but she sends her regrets due to a scheduling conflict with a panel session that she's currently on. So I'm fine solo but rest assured you are in capable hands. Although we meet in a virtual platform today I would like to begin by acknowledging the Indigenous peoples of all the lands that we are on today and personally the traditional lands of the neutral Anishabe and the Sudanese peoples where I join you today. As a settler I'm grateful to live and work on this land. Please join me in acknowledging our shared responsibility to improve understanding of local Indigenous peoples and cultures. So during today's session I'm going to be presenting on the following pieces. So I'll start off here momentarily providing a brief introduction into EKF Ontario. So who are we and what do we do? I'll move into introducing the Ontario Extend Program. I'll provide a high-level overview of some of the main nuts and bolts of the Ontario Extend Program. I'll then move into providing you with some data and testimonials in Extend in Action which illustrates program uptake and value since it commenced and in particular highlight for you the increased engagement and uptake which I just spoke about that we have noted this year. Although I move into sharing with you an exciting recent global program adoption case study and provide you with some context details if you're interested in adopting and customizing this program for your own context. And we'll round off the session today hopefully providing a few minutes for question and answer. So again as Christina mentioned there at the beginning she has kindly agreed to drop some links to various websites and videos into the chat for me that I will be referencing. I just want to note that you can access all of these in OEG Connect on the session presentation page along with this slide deck. So you may or may not be aware but Ecampus Ontario is a Canadian non-profit government-funded consortium and our members are all of the 46 publicly assisted institutions in the province of Ontario so that consists of 24 colleges and 21 universities and we are all part of the SEME ecosystem. Our headquarters are located in Toronto Ontario and we are the centre of excellence in online and tech-enabled learning for all publicly assisted colleges and universities as I mentioned. And this week just to note we are also the hosts of the Eastern Time Zone for OE Global as well so just give a quick shout out to that. So moving along here we work in a space of digital fluency education with open principles and values throughout. One of the ways in which support Ontario educators and Christina is just going to drop the first link into the chat there is through the Ontario Extend Program. The Ontario Extend Program is a suite of professional learning resources that launched back in 2017 and this has really been a pivotal time for Extend and the importance of this program has been in its value as a holistic baseline for digital skills. Moving into a few more of the nuts and bolts of the program so as I mentioned launched in 2017 the program consists of six modules which take on average about four to six hours each to complete and upon the successful completion of each of the modules participants are able to apply for a digital open badge which demonstrates skills achievement for that particular module. And when all six modules are collected I'm going to show you a graph a graphic here in a moment when all six badges are collected participants can apply or are automatically awarded rather the empowered educator milestone badge. The program is self-directed self-paced and or it can be collaborative it's been offered through cohort style framework by many of our teaching and learning centres across the province. The program is openly licensed it's available in both English and French and we've seen a range of participants in terms of the profile of an Ontario Extend participant so anyone that wants to build up digital skills for teaching and learning so whether that be an instructional designer instructional technologist librarian you know frontline educator grad student the list goes on so here's a here's a graphic here which helps illustrate illustrate the program so the program has foundations and origins in Simon Bates's model for the 21st century educator and I'll just give you a quick sort of cold notes version here of the of the program modules so up on the top left there is the teacher for learning module this module is focused on smart principles for effective teaching and sort of roots one in their pedagogy below below that on the left hand side is our curator module this module is a really nice low stakes entry point to learning about open education resources creative comments and copyright and how to vet open education resources below that on the left the technologist module is focused on leveraging a design thinking approach to solving learner challenges we toggle over to the right the collaborator module is focused on building up professional learning networks across and between discipline areas below that one of my all-time favorite modules of really learn by doing and getting your hands dirty and has been leveraged extensively this year has been the experimenter module and this module is focused on leveraging all of the open technologies that the modules reference in terms of experimenting with technology in your classroom and then below that is the scholar module on the bottom right and this module is a reflective module that encourages one to focus and reflect on the scholarship of teaching and learning we're often asked you know where do I start we often recommend starting with the teacher for learning module as it grounds one in the pedagogy first before sort of you know embarking into the technology pieces but after the teacher for learning module the great thing about this program is it's a sort of a choose your own adventure and so these modules meet you where you are and so you pick you pick with what you start with next after the teacher for learning module and again you can see there in the middle when you achieve all six of those digital badges which can be shared on you know LinkedIn and social media profiles you're automatically awarded that empowered educator badge there in the middle just pausing there for any questions Christina if any questions have come up in the chat yet nothing yet issues okay perfect okay sorry okay perfect so let's move on to exploring extend in action so I'm going to provide you with some data and testimonials which help illustrate program engagement and uptake and I'm going to share with you the global adoption of the program in New Zealand as I mentioned at the beginning so how are our own Ontario institutions leveraging extend we recently set out to better understand how extend was being used at our provincial institutions and how it was being customized and adopted and this was done earlier this year and Christina is just going to drop a link into the chat there for the Ontario extend practice in research practice report this report again which was published on our website earlier this year was focused on finding out the ways in which the modules and resources are being used by colleges and universities on Ontario this was accomplished through a survey that was distributed and some follow-up interviews and the findings were we're interesting we determined at the time that 10 institutions reported their use of these materials for course curriculum professional learning opportunities and and professional learning recognition institutions cited oops sorry didn't go to the next screen there we go institutions cited materials being used as supplemental resources in in newsletters for faculty onboarding that complemented existing educator programming and recognizing one's involvement in professional development activities one of the greatest values of undertaking this report was being being able to confirm that extend with being customized to the local context of institutions which was really great to see I'm happy to report that at the beginning of 2020 as I just mentioned we noted uptake from 10 of our institutions I'm now happy to report that that is now at 20 so we've seen an additional 10 institutions adopt and customize this program just in the last you know 10 10 months since the beginning of beginning of the year so uptake to date what does that look like so 900 plus educators have participated in the program since its inception back in late 2017 and we've issued 450 digital badges so those badges that I showed you there on the previous screen and we have 40 empowered educators across the province you might be looking at those numbers and going I wonder why there's so many participants but not as many badges and and that's really due to the flexibility of the program again you can start stop or pause your learning journey whenever you like so we've seen many participants who have come in and dabbled in the program and are likely continuing or planning to continue to you know extend their extend their journey and continue on the journey and they can come back to it at their own at their own leisure just to share a quick testimonial with you you can see there on the screen so thanks to Ontario extend this was really powerful and no longer avoid technology based learning in my courses I was able to complete all six modules at my own pace and earn my empowered educator badge Ontario extend equals confidence and that was from Connie she just became an empowered educator a month ago here in Ontario from Fanshawe College all right so let's now take a closer look at some more recent uptake by way of some data visualization so we can see here on the left the the graph shows program site visitation through page views which you can see has been on a steady incline since post-secondary institutions closed in Ontario back in March 2020 as evidenced by that that darker top purple line when compared to the same period in 2019 as seen in the the lighter purple line there on on the bottom so again that's directly as a result of you know schools closing and the program importance you know on a steady incline in addition to in addition to the sorry the increased site traffic has also been supported by the successful piloting on Ontario of a series of facilitated deliveries of this program at institutions since April 2020 and so what I mean by that is it's the increase is twofold it's due to likely due to post-secondary education's closing and then a facilitated approach that we've used since April 2020 in assisting teaching and learning centres across the province with the deployment of various Ontario extend modules over to the world map on the right hand side site visitation since January 2020 has been you know quite geographically dispersed outside of Canada obviously represented there in the dark purple this data speaks to the importance of this program as I mentioned before in its value as a holistic baseline for digital skills but also confirms that educators are seeking this type of professional development and learning if you look closely to the map on the right you'll note that New Zealand is shaded in light purple and I'm really excited to share with you how extend ended up extending itself pun intended to the opposite side of the world from Canada so let's take the look at our case study okay so back in late 2019 our friends at a TAGA Polytechnic which is a public tertiary education institution in New Zealand reached out to us after hearing about extend at an international open symposium with the intent to customize the extend program resources to pilot for their educators to enable and empower them to evidence and develop their practice before rolling it out nationally across across other polytechnics in New Zealand and internationally via the OERU network and partner institutions throughout the developing world so in early 2020 we connect connected with Claire Good who is a learning and teaching specialist at Otaga Polytechnic and she with collaborating with the New Zealand Center for Open Education Practice which is also supported by Wayne McIntosh director of OER foundation of the OER foundation to make this a possibility so it's important here as you're sort of looking at the screen and seeing the steps that Otaga Polytechnic undertook to make this a reality it's important to note that Otaga did most of the heavy lifting while we were cheerleading them on so they kept to the spirit of the open license of the program but the content was developed by them in their wiki educator or in wiki educator and published in wordpress thus you know openly available to others for adaptation and for scaling they used the Moodle OER Moodle as a launch pad for learners and Claire amended some of the language in the modules so that they were appropriate to geographical cultural geographical and cultural references you can see there on the right hand side on the graphic with the badges she also adapted the badges to give them a bit of a different look and feel for the New Zealand context so they were able to to roll out the program through a pilot and they saw over 25 educators participate in that pilot nine of them received badges and through a series of progress and final updates that they shared with us they noted that they didn't tend to move to roll out the program nationally across New Zealand and again through the OERU network and so that's been really great to hear about their progress and success in adopting and adapting the program to their context for their educators again just to share a quick testimonial here's Phil Phil Hancock from the Institute of Sport Exercise and Health at Otaga overall I can highly recommend the extended courses they're practically applicable relevant and simple to work through at your own pace again that theme theme comes up again right at your own pace I never stopped learning with teaching and learning and this was a great personal development opportunity so as our program resonated with you today and perhaps you're an educator or working on behalf of the teaching and learning center and you're interested in customizing this program content for educators at your institution or perhaps embarking on on one of the modules yourself or if you're looking to learn more about engagement strategies for uptake I encourage you to to reach out to us and and connect with me in that regard and it looks like I have a couple minutes there for questions perfect you're doing really good in time any questions for Lindsay I'll drop my email into the chat as well fantastic I think there's a question about the potential for extend for k-12 oh thank you for catching that yeah that's that's a great question so we've been working with the Ontario school system here to provide extend materials to k-12 educators here in Ontario and so that work is being done by a committee currently undertaking undertaking some of the adaption of those resources I think they were looking at editing the Ontario context of you know dropping that into an Ontario wide LMS but apart from that being Ontario specific because the program is openly licensed if you wish to adapt and roll those out for your own context you're free to do that certainly though if you'd like to connect with me to chat about that further I'd be happy to we do know that we we have seen appreciation of these program modules at the k-12 level of course they would need some customizing and tweaking because you know some of the references do do reference put the post-secondary sector but again in the spirit of openness they are available to adapt and adopt great that's good to know I may be following up with you um any further questions for Lindsay


It's up Corbin. I'm Rick and you can follow us on Instagram and Twitter from all juicy content Thanks for the show. Can you trust me on Twitter? Today did you know you could do this to your juicy content? Whoa, it feels great And today we're reacting to a trailer It's all once upon a time in Mumbai. It wait a minute Clinton Tarantino. What are you doing in India? And just to make all the Indians happy, this is a hundred percent ripoff of once upon a time in Hollywood Is it really no, oh, I think this came I think this came out many many many moons ago Oh Hence I get the joke in other words got it.  I Was forget how to say her name, but we know both of them This came out way before once upon a time in Hollywood. Yeah, so Quentin why are you copying people? Well, he does that anyways a Smuggler the rises to power in 1970s Mumbai or Bombay Mumbai Bami a young gangster seeks to overthrow him and the police officer is caught in the middle By the way that I have to even say this is annoying But I'm gonna say it to try to avoid all the people who've already started typing guys We know the history of the city. We know it was named Bombay. We know that it's called Mumbai And there's two different camps. There's actually three camps There's people in the middle who don't care and there's people over here who say Bombay and don't want it any other way And there's people who say Mumbai don't want it any other way guys We understand please don't take offense if we say both names. We really love the place. So on that note. You ready? Yeah, make sure she sees a way. No CC's are turned on Ready two one go Hmm certificate before the trailer What is this song I love it Share see how you get the kiss on the marigold. I'm not what I mean They got you. Yeah, oh you're feeling a little bit of a trick We share go to let me see if the old log chai so don't know man Paki pandu subban was saying dang good trailer Really good trailer, right? How old is the trailer? I mean the movie it the movie says on IMDB It says it's 2010 release date was July 30th 2010 Did Quentin copy this? I mean, I know it's not exact, but it there was a lot of elements in it that were similar to like What Quentin does sometimes like in terms of stylized and then the wording and then So you guys you guys can let us know if he if he he tends to do that a lot though He well, I mean it's called it's upon a time in filling the blank and it takes place in the 1970s. So Interesting so you guys can let us know that That side of it Let's see it was directed by Milan Who directed dirty picture as well? I've heard about that one and then So I'm very interested one a J. Devon and then Congon are not both phenomenal actors whom we like a lot even the posters similar Yes, it is Guys did Quentin Tarantino rip off this film.  I don't really mind that right, right? this looks Oddly very similar in terms of just the poster in terms of the name in terms of even the style that it shot in almost It really is Seems I mean very very familiar to me in terms of one-spond time in Hollywood Obviously, it's a very good story because that that one's about a Hollywood story, obviously So we know it's not that but There's a lot of elements that are pretty similar Yeah, even the even the kind of orange background on the poster is comparable I'm looking right now on this if there's any references It's funny when I went to the They usually say something about this So I don't know and we'd have to do a lot more looking and we have time for right here But I remember when I took Micah to the dome to see a screening of it and Brad Pitt was there and Leonardo The Caprio was there and some other cast members In that hour that they were there talking to folks Nobody mentioned any kind of reference to this when they talked about Tarantino It could be this simple. I mean he is a cinephile Tarantino basically knows every movie that's ever been out in every country So it would not surprise me if he had seen this and grabbed some stylistic ideas that inspired him There's no outright copies. There's just so many similarities that yeah So many similarities that I can't help but think this informed some of his artistic inclinations when he made once upon a time in Hollywood Yeah, right. Yeah, absolutely. Yeah, I'm very interested one. I love really interested to I love the song I hope you're able to hear it and it wasn't cut up if it is I'm sorry. It's T-Series and it's a great song. And so I have a feeling it might cut up. So sorry, right? Not my fault, but that was a great song. I Really enjoyed it, but also the two main actors. I really enjoy Is this the next a J. Defkin film we should watch I want to know because he's Supremely popular and we've seen him in a couple things. Yep I want to see his I mean his best was probably even though you didn't love it as much was probably McBool in terms of just Dramatic acting He's never had a bad performance. So that's what that's that's the thing No, yeah, we've we have never We've never seen anything where we didn't like him.  It was Cyrod, right? No, he's not in Cyrod. No, what was the one we saw? With a J. Defkin. Tanhaji. No, yeah, it was Tanhaji. No, yeah, that was the newer one That's the newest one with him in Saif Ali Khan. Yes, that's the newest one. Yeah, I liked him a lot in that That's not the first thing we saw him in though. Oh, no, no, no, no But I think that was the first time McBool and that one the last two we saw of him were the first time We really started to see what the stupid babies have been telling us about him and I I too I'm interested in this. If this is something they say, yes, he you want to see a J. Defgun in this I would really like to see this one. I'm interested. Is this like the what is his best? He also did well on Omkara as well Of course you did because it's a show of ours What is his best role in terms of acting not not his best film in terms of which film is the best even though that yeah You can tell us that as well, but I want to I want to know his best acting performance Because you know, we like watching acting performances So let us know down below in congrana How do you say her name? I always forget how to say her name. Um, I Believe it's congana runoff. No Yeah, you know, we love her. I think she's one of the best actress was great and clean I think she's one of the greatest actresses we've seen in all of India So, you know, I love her but let us know down below


And so this concludes my presentation of the browser based version of the data visualization software raw, or as they call it the missing link between spreadsheets and vector graphics. I hope you've been able to tell from this that raw really is a wonderful way to get started with data visualization. We get to use datasets, we can paste in our own or we can use theirs. We have a lot of options that we can use. But there are only so many built in visualizations. And what you find also is that when you select them, you don't have a lot of options for controlling, but it's not too many.  But what you might want to find is that if you want to overcome some of the limitations, then you can get the GitHub version of raw, I'll just click on that, fork me on GitHub. And if you want to get really hands on, you have the option of installing this. And then it's going to give you a lot more control over the elements in raw, mostly by drawing on the D three dot JS library. Or you can use raw as a jumping off point for other data visualization programs and languages like D three dot JS on which raw is based, or processing from processing.org or Google charts or Tableau, all of which have their own strengths and uses. But I encourage you to take a little time and to see what you can do with raw and to see how you can get new insight into your data, and then start exploring other options to see how creatively you can work with your data and how deep your own insight can be.