Let's go. Letting Rebecca introduce herself since she's our very first guest we've never had a guest before Yeah, you're a very first guest not the first guest of the night for both shows. Okay. Yes, I'll get I'll introduce myself Go ahead Rebecca Proper format here A political journalist I I host a show on the internet Called like it or not with you may have heard of him a huge political analyst in politics Especially in the digital realm his name is Benjamin Dixon and we host a show together Alongside the best DJ in the land and that is James Bubba Williams and we talk a lot of politics especially when the Subject is related to Specifically and more importantly black people and we also mix it up a little bit and we talk about a lot of Entertainment or other things that are happening in the world. I'm Haitian so you could find a lot of international news Particularly about Haiti on there as well. So yeah, that's exactly who I am. You can find me sometimes on the rising Chopping it up with everybody on there. And so yeah, that's that's a little bit about who that just me me Yeah, I'm so happy to have you I've seen like it or not I've been a longtime fan of Benjamin Dixon because really he has like some of the best force side of anyone in politics Like whatever he says and he doesn't hold back with it. Yeah, but like three years later It's like oh Benjamin Dixon was right about that again. Yeah, so I trust his instincts more than my own So he's another guest who I want to bring on to I love Ben Okay, I will definitely get you guys together because I'm pretty sure he would love to be on as well. So yeah, absolutely Yeah, that's Rebecca was my chosen first guest Mike jumped it and Mike responded immediately I love Rebecca It was happening Thank you, I feel I feel very welcome here, especially You know with Olay being here and you know hearing that Mike is a fan of the show that lets me know that in this space You know, we're connected in some way shape or form and I love that. So yeah Yeah, I have pairs parasocial relationships with so many people that don't even know it online Not not say that I have one about anyone here But like I feel like I know some folks that I've like watched for years So it's nice to you know, it's nice to talk to folks, but there's there's so many Crazy things happening this week. I don't know what you all wanted to start with first I know Olay has a lot to get off of her chest. I know that there's the Kevin McCarthy nonsense That me and David have been agonizing over throughout the week Lance. We haven't talked to you laughing over really, but yeah Yeah, laughing over for sure. Yeah, what do you all want to start with?  I should have got high before the show.  You know But if I do though, I just have anxiety I wouldn't be talking it wouldn't be a fun it killed the vibe I couldn't I couldn't one day You gotta find yourself a good mix, you know some kind of I don't know CBD mixed with whatever percentage you need You know that there's there's one weed guru out there in America at a store. Who knows exactly what will help you Mike? I'm sure I should have asked him I usually go for hybrids. I don't like Sativa alone, but I could do indica or hybrids, but yeah, my nephew is a weed guru. He's pretty big on Instagram He his name is Abra Dabba and he does dab videos and they're really creative and artistic I would encourage everyone to check it out Abra, let me look it up really quick. Okay, cuz I don't know if I'm gonna get the spelling right But he he's super talented and I everything that I know I've learned from him Okay, so it's a br a ca underscore Chris you've got so many new followers tonight because of me I'm your score. Oh, I found it. I have you two followers done follow it. Oh Look at these all look at these bombs.   It's completely legal in Canada now. So Hopefully in Oregon legal since 2014 and or we voted to make it legal in 2014 2015 It's when I think it took effect, but the same shop that my nephew works out. They sold bongs But it was just for tobacco, but I mean, you know, they're Purchasing a bong. Yeah. Yeah, so it was really interesting Yeah, but David we gotta tell people who don't know this about Canada like Disproportioning Canada There's way more indigenous people in jail for like marijuana and like nonviolent marijuana offenses in the same way There's like disproportionate way more black people in America in jail for marijuana offenses And when they legalized marijuana that should have been like a pass that should have been like okay So now every single person here you get out of jail because we have determined as a society This isn't a crime and that's fucked and you shouldn't be jail anymore But we didn't do that and like that's the part of the story. Yeah, that fight still People assume, you know when they legalize something they go they go back and retroactively have a take place But they don't they don't expunge records they exonerate nobody people continue to serve their time And it's an incredibly costly undertaking They often don't have any legal representation to try to pursue it. It is it is, you know Systemically unfair. It definitely is we I know I have family members and friends who are serving time and then I have other friends who actually have opened up shop and Who are thriving for the same thing that friends and family members of our serving time or have served time for so it it's It's just this performance in it a lot. So yeah Yeah, it's it's so strange how how there's these disparities like in some states you can't even have medical weed But in other states like in my state you can walk into a store and buy an ounce and there's a long line out the door sometimes Like it's it's just so bizarre to me and the culture changed around it, too Like the stigma around it was really heavy like mostly older people They were very anti weed and then a couple of years after legalization It just became a normal thing to where I was buying pot for like my in-laws and my mom Which was awkward and weird, but still, you know, it was like Attitudes just changed immediately, which is very very strange because it's been stigmatized for so long Because they had to realize like all of the lies around it didn't come true like all right Society's gonna go to shit all the stuff's gonna happen people are gonna be dying in the streets Everything was the same because people that were that one that were smoking it before was just still smoking it but now legally Yeah, I think that drinking is definitely more dangerous than oh, yeah smoking weed like people will get behind a vehicle for the the corporate job That I had they would say you can get two drinks on your break And people were getting the strongest drinks on their break and coming back to work And Pete some people were getting high and getting in trouble and getting in trouble for that Getting fired for that on their break, but they're coming and they're coming back to do work It might be a little slower. It might be a little smoother.  The answer is racism like it's it's all the difference between the war on drugs versus Prohibition prices That's the only difference when something is associated when they're able to associate something with black people and criminalize it in a way Then of course, it's a criminal situation when it's when they now see white people doing it Then it becomes a part of leisurely this now it's medicinal now It's yadda yadda different vibes is all the difference between how they associate us in this very Criminal way in terms of weed, but then you know, we got the super bad movies We got all this earthrogan and pineapple express like and even if you think about it, right? It's not as though they just started creating these distinctions in our new world. That's more pro weed No, no, no even when we'd always have the stigmatization across the board You would still see insects in the city them have carrying them doing once in a while You could still see that 70s show and people like that You could still see all these examples of white people doing it and it's real keel. It's real fun Nobody nobody watched the super bad movies and thought jail What always is it's racism and and the funny thing about that is you know How people go and how they stigmatize things is I always think about that and not that I'm gonna come out as a pothead but um I'm saying you would never Right what I'm saying is I always think it's interesting and not saying because people there are so many signs You know what I mean like to me?  They would suddenly you know, it's interesting how how perception works that way Yeah, and it does and you know, I think True what we like to I like to perceive that a lot of these big corporation owners and Elon Musk and them, you know, they're doing hard drugs, you know, they but they have we got jail They have rehab and we have jail. They're doing hard drugs. They're abusing drugs As some people are overdosing all kinds of things before we people are doing hard time And then for people abusing hard drugs owning big businesses they go to rehab, you know I know a lot of cocaine prosecutors like a lot like I You should go to jail for doing or enjoying your cocaine or your marijuana That's the that's the whole point, right? Like at this at this stage, we were supposed to have flying cars We're supposed to have a civilization where we had cars that could float in the air and we're putting people in cages Because they smoke a plant that's fucked that like that. That's so far from beyond what we should be doing right now Collectively we should be like be banned together. We should have a society. Cool. Society's a good idea We probably shouldn't put people in cages if they smoke a plant I would assume most people would agree with that, right? That's not a spicy or a controversial take Well, you know, it's it I mean like like Olay said it definitely is racism, right? Because people do smoke blood instead are white and can get away with it But people say rates apparently what white and black people in America use drugs at the same rate And Somebody who's been to a lot of a lot of white schools I've been in many of a white environment to like I went to school in Florida than West Virginia than Ohio than New York I've been surrounded by number white bears and None of my black communities as well. The most drug use is definitely amongst the whites I'm gonna tell you right now.  I'm telling you This this I am certain Like this I am I am positive Trust me never even thought about like I can tell y'all some stories and like I have it's very very very much so and you know It's interesting. I'm gonna say not to be not to be captain save the weed We is not just for me, it's for me and you like it Everybody's safe like Yes, aren't you much much more likely to let this turn to a stoner podcast is amazing. Absolutely I agree I'm not pushing back on that I agree like if you're like a someone super stone versus someone super drunk, especially if it's a dude if a dude is super drunk It's gonna be like he's trying to fight easy blah blah blah and if a dude is super stone all of a sudden He's like, uh, what's going on? Did you read sartre? Or do you know who God is stuff like that? I probably am the one who's not, you know a stoner Because I'm surrounded by people who do I'm my best friend watching like You don't even I'm pretty sure she's like I you know saying that but I literally have a brother-in-law who had to do Hard time because he had to sell drugs in order to make things shake because he wasn't able to get a job And then you know him coming out and seeing Different businesses now all around that are owned by white folks and they're selling We Evaluating and yeah, the industry is not they you know They're talking now about you know the places that have legalized weed and they talk about this can be a business You get get licenses, but they're not talking about how they are actively preventing black people from being able to get those licenses And the people who've actually you know the people who have who have rec criminal records or have had you know because of weed Those people are not completely, you know ineligible to enter this industry So the people that have been most criminalized and most suffered off an industry and kept out of it for the longest and now the people being Prevent prevented from turning it in into you know a legitimate business I couldn't do it illegitimately and now you want to legitimize it and be I'm to be forced out And that's something that's also not being studied people are leaving it too much It oh weed was legalized great and to the end of the fight Meanwhile, there's an entire industry being created off of it and white people are who are profiting off of it They're gatekeeping from something that we've been in but now it's in their hands And it's like we can't get in on it and it's funny because I look at it the same way I look at gun control right you see a lot of especially in America. You see a lot of people who are so Gung-ho on life. All right, you know Guns are our rights, you know, this is for us.   Let's start gatekeeping Let's start making sure black people are not able to get guns. I'm now they're gonna start saying You know, let's put in more laws, you know, that's just how it is Especially I see that with gun control and I'm I see that with we Marijuana with queer people by the way as soon as you see queer people getting armed all of a sudden It's like the exact same conversation is happening. It's like, oh, what's going on here? Why do you have all this Kevlar? Why they have those like, you know, all these weapons It's like well, these are people defending themselves from a very very real threat coming to them all the time There's a really dope op-ed. I actually was just reading by the chief the chief public defender in Chicago Sharon Michelle called There's no second amendment rights on the south side of Chicago like about this exactly this issue Because that's that's the truth, right?  They could have they could have they could put up post pictures with tons of guns. Just just a just a small little Military in their own in their homes for no reason But black people with guns is is perceived as this way and it's because we are not it's not meant to extend to us And that is a hypocrisy that's just allowed to exist in plain sight in all of these in all of these discussions And we saw this right with with flando castile who was shot while he was telling an officer Hey, I have this gun I'm going to tell you like what this thing's right here and then he got shot because and again if that was a white guy he There's no way. I mean, yeah the same scenario doesn't happen Yeah, and and while it may it may have happened right where um a white man was armed We'll we'll see a um a video here and there because cops are trash, right? No, like but you know a video of You know a white person being shot if they were armed but if we compare that to the amount of people who Are probably armed or not armed or have a cell phone or have some skittles or whatever the case may be Being shot down.  Shoot first ask questions later A white person with the gun may have a conversation I've seen where white people are waving all kinds of semi-automatics knives Everything running up on police officers and making it out alive. Um, uh police officers will Handshake Kyle written house Who killed two people and right after the fact? You know Dillon Ruth Killed the people in the church Then was then was let out to go get Burger King Yeah, the the guy who right here in Atlanta who went to the different massage parlors and murdered people Um, and he said the officer came out and said up. He just had a bad day. Yeah I think you know since you bring it up an important point people love to They'll bring up.  That is actually No, that's bad too.  You are recognizing the magnitude of the problem. This is not a racial issue This is not a black people problem. This is a collective issue. We have with policing So I just want that to be clear.  That's not who they brutalize. That's not who they paralyze That's not who they're covering up. That's not none of that.  We should also add four people Yes, absolutely homeless also disabled people Sable people if you're autistic and you're non-verbal, that's A huge thing there was this sign that I saw that somebody posted It was a photograph on reddit saying that they had to put up a sign in their front yard for police that like my son Is non-verbal and autistic Please like and it's a couple of years ago that I've seen this so hopefully I'm describing it adequately But just like to show that like there was this Assumption that their son was going to be brutalized because he wouldn't be able to cooperate fully and wouldn't be able to speak It's just yeah, yeah, I don't know. I don't want to pivot too hard here But I don't know if you all saw there's this gif of a sailor moon And there's a scene where they're fighting the cops and somebody resubtiled it And made into we have to we have to no no the the owners So um, but anyways the uh, it was it was made into an a cab clip of sailor moon And you have to find it if you just I think search for a sailor moon a cab. It's perfect for this conversation. Uh, but Yeah, yeah, though I think that's such a great point that olé brought up about how like the white people who think it's a gotcha To who tried to like discredit the disproportionate amount of black people killed by police. It's like white people also get killed by cops Yeah, yeah, that's bad. They shouldn't be And that's the skill thing that you bring up mic my um So my baby brothers both my my my little my youngest siblings my baby brothers are twins and both of them have autism And that's actually the reason like all my sisters have eventually I came to america first and eventually all my sisters You know continue, you know follow it in our in america scattered amongst but my brothers We don't let come for exactly that reason because they have been that that happens. There's been that and that's literally Yeah, yeah, so that dad is very very much so a thing very near and dear to my because there there aren't The the resources that my brother's best need I feel like for their like they best need Is not available in the Bahamas and that's even of being of more Ins than your average Bahamian. It just isn't there but The ways the danger that my they would be exposed to I know based on How my brothers, you know function in society and where they're at versus how they appear because the thing is It's like my brothers in so many respects um Are kids in in many ways and how do they they they act and But they look growing now, you know, they're 21. They're like 22 They look very they they're tall big black men as far as how america will perceive it and that is just Not something we can live with that is a very real a real thing Like we think about this and we ultimately come to the conclusion every time like no, I would not be able to sleep I just know Yeah, it's really unfortunate to be part of a marginalized group Within a marginalized group within a marginalized group and it's it sucks because I've I've heard of you know people with mental illnesses People who are disabled people just you know being shot down by police Just for being black or just for being a certain type of way or just for being a part of the lgbtqa plus community Um, I we covered a few stories one about a six-year-old Or a nine-year-old playing in somebody's yard Or playing around somebody's yard children and the person called the police on this child And it was taken all the way to court A six-year-old who was handcuffed for some reason that had nothing to do with nothing Just playing around six-year-old was handcuffed and they took that all the way to court Her her little fist could not even her little wrist couldn't couldn't even fit the handcuffs and they took this to court You know and then there was a story that we recently covered here in georgia Where a woman was just having a mental breakdown in her home possibly a mental breakdown in her home and her mother sent out the police for her To have a wellness check police get there. They put her in the back of the car Didn't even lock it up didn't check on her They she's in her home and they saw that she was inebriated in her home How many times have you been drunk in your home? I mean you're safe in your environment you drunk you probably might fall out somewhere in your home But it's the comfort of your home and so they seem as she was inebriated so they decided they wanted to take her in And they put her in the back of a car did not protect her properly The car doors were unlocked. They didn't check if she was secured and she ended up falling out of the car and dying Police officers do not care about people Jesus not at all. Yeah Yeah, so we can go on with stories and stories and stories about this Just shows It's very systemic for People and police officers, especially if you look a certain kind of weight Or if you're part of a certain marginalized group, you are a target. You are a target Yeah But yes in pivoting times, um That's pivot girls We do it all the time Yes, um lansing them y'all please tell the people what's happening away people politics today Well today, we're discussing the mayonnaise flavors It's getting heated Let's talk about the speaker of the house or lack thereof and how uh, there's no uh, us government right now What's going on america? What's going on americans? Oh you americans? What's happening? It seems kind of clown I guess that's mic we're talking about Okay I repudiate all of these americans. Okay. I can't I can't I can't speak for them. No, so basically I mean there was 19 now there's 21 republicans who are refusing to support kevin mccarthy under any circumstances They got everything that they wanted from him I mean, there's really no policy disagreement at the heart at the heart of this right There were some rules changes that they wanted and one of them primarily being That um one of them one member alone would be able to force a vote of no confidence And out the speaker he said I'll come down to five which is just That's huge right because normally you need um half of members So he pivoted on that and he said okay One we'll do one one person can you know, um, I was clear speaker I believe it's it's to force a vote to get them out not to just to get them out completely So if they still have to they still they still need half the caucus to be able to vote to get him out But just having one person or even five be able to force a vote to remove the speaker That would just I mean here. Let's be clear. They're not getting anything done anyways But but if they had an agenda That would be everything they're doing because everything mccarthy would do He'd have to worry one person or five people that are basically people against them may just decide Oh today. We don't like what he's doing. So we're gonna now vote him out or or or you know Push for this vote to get him out. So it would just be it would muck up the entire process It's it's ridiculous, but he's lost now what 10. I think 10 votes something like that I thought we was at 11 me and at 11. I thought we were at 11. Oh, he might be at 11 by now I think 11. So I think 11 is the next vote. I seen it. I was looking at it earlier. This is happening now I think it's 11. I think I was reading. Oh my god It's embarrassing.  I mean It's it's less looking in the mirror. That's who's running the country And and marjorie taylor green is actually supporting mccarthy. So it was odd. She was sitting beside gates there And he gave a little smile after gates voted for But but the reason to be clear To be clear the only reason Marge is with uh mccarthy is because she's being promised her committee assignments and potentially a big position On one of those committees. So like that's none of this is about policy. None of this is about anything actual substantial or real It's all about personalities. I wish we would appreciate it enough to go to a fashion beef of that all right Like there is no policy or principle disagreement.     That's their politics. That's literally the totality of their politics Yeah, yo, which which is why which is why marge right now is losing support because her support is based on the fact that She is anti things. So when she is for mccarthy Then all of a sudden like the the the gigs up You can no longer There's no reason to support her now because she actually wants something. It's so it's all like their base right now Everything that entire side is insane. That's all it is. It's hilarious They're so basically the neo nazis who margie taylor green aligned with they've all turned on her So you have nick fuentes a neo nazi who is threatening to release some footage that he recorded when she was in the green room at His event af pack number three And on top of that you have ali alexander the founder of stop the steal who also supposedly has evidence that she committed crimes That he's going to give to the state of georgia in a couple of days So they are turning on her and one thing that's hilarious is anyone who's supporting mccarthy They're getting flamed now and I don't know if this is representative of like the full g.o.p. base But at least online they're in lockstep with these 21 republican fools So I did a video today where I talked about the handy clip where he's grilling lauren bobert And if you can if you have one of those plugins to look at the dislike ratio It got 22,000 dislikes and six thousand eight point six thousand eight hundred likes and all of the comments are just like I can't believe shun hannity would grill her lauren bobert lauren bobert is correct And if you look at anything that margie green says on twitter about kevin mccarthy Um, just I thought that you were one of us you sold out They are getting flamed right now. So this has led to not just like g.o.p. in fighting But the base revolting on anyone who isn't in lockstep with those 21.     It's everybody, you know I think it's very bipartisan That kind of action, but uh with the right you'll see people Giddy giddy with each other supporting each other And then all of a sudden something happened. We aren't privy to it. Um, and then It's so much hate for this person and it's like no, but you were just literally on january Where were you on january 6th because you were just with this person If somebody was comfortable enough to some degree to tell me a certain amount or whatever a wild level opinion I must also have been existing with them in a space in a manner where we're exchanging these kind of things And I don't want to get into the world of that like I remember once some random um Lawyer like came at me on twitter that I like I knew her business like she's my dm's like I'm like, I know this bitch for real. Like girl. I know you. I like I could bury you.  It has to be having a breakdown because there ain't no way she knows I have way too much I mean as you might even be can be in this world And I just like I can't know I cannot know people I'm telling you when I start seeing people move like that regardless if I see like Oh, you do this person show But you want to change ain't never you didn't say that to their face on there But now you're saying that on this, you know, Rebecca, we talk, you know, the soonest I peep it even in my own experiences I won't say anything.  But no the next time I come on I'm gonna be very prepared and shots will be fired.  Um, and I did Disagree with her.  It was more. So let me disagree with her and I'll just Call olay and just talk about it. Um on the phone You don't want to put that energy out there but for the republicans they are that's a circus Loyalty, I don't I don't see it. I don't see it at all But they they're they're loyal to themselves a lawyer to they're loyal to money They're loyal to holding these seats down not helping people But it it's really sad. I we've seen what um the like we were talking about the left What's her name christin cinema like see christin cinema seeing her just flip like that But we watched her not do anything and or walk in um any uh left Any then wasn't any wasn't helpful. She was moving conservatively the whole time And for her to take the mask off and was like, uh, here I am and we were like girl We already knew but this is how they move I Politics is nasty, but we we see like we see what's going on. We see what's amazing about about cinema is that she Used to be part of the green party And then she pretended to be like she was elected being progressive supporting uh, I'm not sure I don't think medicare for all but but at least uh, I believe Free prescription drugs and like expanding healthcare and like the tweets are still up I covered the stuff a year ago when it was first really obvious. She was like super conservative and Clearly like the money got to her right like she's she has certain connections now She's buddies with mitch mcconnell like it's just a complete turnaround And then she moves to be independent Because she thinks it'll save her career next time because she doesn't want to face a primary challenge that she will lose Based on all polling she will get destroyed in a primary democratic primary. So she's now an independent Yet the first poll that came out with her as an independent She would get destroyed In an election between a democrat a republican and an independent with the republican winning out. I think I had they had um Kerry lake in that poll and she wins with like uh by like a percentage point over uh, ruben gaego Who would be their placement for for cinema and the cinema was down to like 12 percent? But so she would be the spoiler candidate if she were to run at least as of today in that race and here She used to be a green party person pretending to be progressive They make good money when you switch over. I'm not gonna hold you I've seen people that I I came in with back in 2017 switch over and they're living Larger than charge liberals don't be really like liberals don't be making that that kind of money I'm still you know, we're um living paycheck to paycheck, you know, listen, it's it's different when you get conservative um, you know, it it it pays it does pay so a lot of people do switch over um, and We'll look at them crazy, but they're they're get just to say Right talking points conservative talking points. They're getting paid for that. Well. Yeah, especially from the left perspective right that way You can be like, oh, well, this is a former leftist to use to be like a Bernie sander supporter or something And now look what they say But with someone like matt gates because we were just talking about matt gates This motherfucker is not in any way hiding in in the shadows It's pretty like well discussed at this point This person is an alleged pedophile human trafficker Drugging and potentially raping children all that kind of stuff So why is anyone thinking that this individual is going to play nice and or normal within the political apparatus, right? Like to have someone that vile And rise to those ranks like not just matt gates like george santos, too I genuinely I I love george santos.   It's like that's not true. None of that's true You just made that all up. You said that out as a matter of fact, but now uh, that's just out there Now now everyone has to basically deal with this.     Like you think I could be up here just tattling just telling tales Just be like, oh my granddad. He was fighting with Nelson Mandela. Yeah Like they will the next no that evening on no as soon as she said it on twitter.  You know, they would do this whole thing I have watched I there's a reddit page devoted to a conspiracy that I was a bot at one point in time That I was making on my whole immigrant Do you think they don't run up on me the second most beautiful thing with my name is citizenship? What?  Oh my god number one is husband number two is citizenship. Oh, they're trying to see my number one is husband I love that they want to they want to see if she's taken or not They want to see if there's some problematic man, you know, you know how it is they want to hold on Let me see if she you know my type like they they can't wait to throw a white man accusation on me So they just they want to google and see if there's a white husband That was crazy because everybody was like, oh she's talking about all this black This and that and that and yet she's with a white man I I literally had one picture with my white male friend nothing about it looked romantic Nothing about it gave that nothing about it indicated that it wasn't giving that I was like this is this is absolutely absurd But it's also wilder to me is that when people think I post my man No, that's that's why they really want to know they want to know there's some problematic figure Something for them to be upset about you. They can't wait to attach you to some man I Have to bring it back to George Santos because I have the sense of humor of an 11 year old unfortunately But did you all see the video of him sitting by himself? On the house and he takes a peek at the camera.  No, he did not roll it around and play with it. No, like I actually didn't see this video. I I saw somebody make the comment and I thought they were honestly about to rejoke it so I I literally I I structured my whole show on Monday around George Santos just so I could play that video. I swear to god Um, and I even do an instant replay breakdown Like second to second of of him doing and there's a child sitting next to him because they're waiting to be sworn in and watch Their parents get sworn in the kid is being way more mature.  I swear to god I love him so much. Look, let's let's be clear going We all pick our nose We all pick our nose, but we don't do it In public we do with the tissue. We do it. We do it As clearly as possible.  Like like I'm always on it Whenever this boogers, you're on a mic. You got it.   It's more important to me than any policy I've got to be honest.   I don't even you know, that's that's wow. I did not know that so so I just I just I just thought he lied about every aspect of his life including how he died And all that other stuff, but well, there's there's more it just it just goes on and on and on Like at what point it like I just don't know the logical And to any of this where where are we going to arrive with george santos? It's like what like because the the possibilities are infinite Is it still frozen? No, not for me. It's oh y'all can see me. Oh, she's frozen for me. So then forget it No, I was okay. I'm look. I want I hope I'm frozen in a cute like way You talking you never you never want to be in that freeze frame, right? You never want to My face is crazy I do not do very good freeze frames So I was doing some youtube shorts for a couple of weeks just to kind of like mess around with it I sort of got every single a thumbnail that it auto generated was me soy-facing every single one 99.9 of them That one. Yeah One of my followers literally made a woe jack of me soy-facing in response to that It was beautiful, but it's just like I don't know why youtube would do me like that I got a message in my chat from a parker here says rebecca azor on leftist mafia omg This is the most amazing thing ever. I watch your show like it or not all the time. I can't believe you're on here exclamation mark You're welcome That's all her she really wherever she is on this How you can see us, but um, she she thought of me as she always does and I really appreciate that She lights up the show when she visits our show So I'm glad that she was able to bring me on to this platform with you all It's nice to to be here. Um, I know that when we were on when we are on The rising we've never been able to cross paths except for one time and I was there for two seconds And um, so it's nice to actually get to be on another platform and chit chat with they should let you two co-host together That'd be great.  And so, um Being there and having conversations and us You know, probably agreeing with most things and you know, but but talking about it in different ways I like that about us because I love how ole can really She is a wordsmith and I love how she can really hit you off off the top of the dome And I can pull out examples and I can talk about it from experience and as a journalist, you know Give you some stats or whatever But while we're sitting there, they wouldn't like that because they want to see two people going at it That's why they didn't have I feel this is my personal opinion. That's what they didn't have us on On together the rising is very, um Um Has to be what they perceive what they think are opposite ends of politics So if me and me and rebecca are classified the same way, they're not gonna have us Both in the same way of us was a conservative talking to then then then yeah, but also no But also the audience hates on both of us individually together together. There will be a mass unsubscription I've seen them have two conservatives We're both caribbean at that and then so I know when I got on there the first time or when I'm in any conservative spaces They'll you know, I'll mention when I first got on the rising my story was about title 42 And I was at the time it was Haitians under the bridge And I had a cousin, you know, who I was trying to get from under the bridge and we were discussing that and um They were like well, you go back to where you came from you mutt you this and that and I've been getting that since 2017 and so, you know ole She has an accent and I think it's a beautiful one But the people will just go off our nails is a I could be saying something so profound Something that it just means a lot and they're like, why is she here with those nails? Why is she here with the nails?  Um, and they really don't ever be for some you could You can guess what it is, but no in my case.   I get those comments like people constantly ask me about rising, which is Like I'm like it's not I don't work for I don't you know I've done certain amount of gasol sting there, whatever But I'm not even there that regularly um anymore, but people ask me about it all the time I'm like let these dreams go babies like all these Just let it leave you literally just a couple of days ago I got like a question on instagram on my ask ask a question and somebody somebody said Oh, would you host rising full time if they asked you to sweetie, sweetie, sweetie, sweetie That dream's not happening Different dreams And if they won't let you be yourself as I'm frozen it's me. Yeah, you are actually frozen. Oh, yeah, it did freeze for me too Yeah, I'm just frozen. You're good. You go to my stream. It's so bizarre It's so weird.   So when we're coming on there, there's a certain energy that we can come on And I feel like if it's acceptable for the host to come on with that energy We should be able to be allowed to um have that Keep that same energy The breakdown, you know, and you see that like that chart on the right side It's like I want to bring this whole kind of take Like is that something that everyone gets to write themselves? What's on your radar? Yeah, what's on your radar? Uh, we so our radars we write our our own radars um entirely our own there's no real um I write them on my radars. I write it and I send it to them and they and they put it up there. They um, they choose the little um The little things that they'll like tick off based on what points Okay, yeah, you can ask you can you know clarify You know be like oh put that or something or whatever But yeah, you write the radar in and of it on your own you decide what you want it to be about Okay, yes, that is that is the process. But yeah, yeah people people dream that oh by the way I was supposed to plug this at the beginning of the show this reminds me I am launching my call-in show tea time with olay now So every thursday after leftist mafia if you want to talk to me still you should go over to call In I don't know how you I would give lines the links and stuff. I put the tweet I don't know how anything goes but if you go on my twitter right now I should be at the top of the twitter at the link and my call in Um, yes, and so we're gonna talk have fun discussions about pop culture and politics and Lighthearted and massing jokes and you can listen a long live or you can raise your hand and come speak to us And so rebecca is gonna be my first gas host tonight. Um, so yeah Subscribe to that. I'm excited Are you gonna put clips on youtube because youtube is like my main video watching I should you've got you've got to launch youtube channel. I'm going. No, I mean the people want it I am in the process just for the record. I'm in the process of developing a show, but I want to do I'm in the process. We are in the the process. I want to do it, right? Um, so it's coming But in the interim, you'll have me here. You'll have me. Okay. I will call and that's that's pretty cool I I need to download the calling app. Yeah, maybe I'll call it. No, I won't Like oh late um get on these platforms that I've never heard of and I love it because she exposes me to them because you know me I'm og and I'm like, okay youtube facebook live saying, yeah You know, they people just put me on the twitch and then there's um another one That people that they watch our show and if anybody who's what who watches my show Who's watching right now don't hate me But I I do know all the platforms But there's this one that they just introduced me to um about a year ago And I'm trying to remember the name but there are these different platforms that everybody uses and you'll be surprised It's like it's a whole crowd of people that will watch you from these different platforms. So calling calling Is my first time hearing about it But I am happy to join you on that and I'm proud of you because I've been saying listen girl Get your own stuff if you yeah, you ever and how you are on social media and how people try to put you in a box It's like you're too amazing to be placed in a box And I think that you deserve your own space to have your own conversations the way you want to Without it being watered down. So I I'm happy that for that for you.  You should get that for your Thank you. Yeah, I wanted to be fun. You know, I do a lot of obviously I don't know y'all when I'm on the news obviously and very serious thought of that And I can be very serious and pivot to that very quickly But I like jokes. I like math I like pop culture.  You know what I mean? I might as well just do my own one thing and I'm like, you know I'm already streaming on Thursdays with y'all. Anyway, I'm already up here on y'all saying I might as well do I've been on call and this that's fun and I got me. I also love the artwork. I don't know if you've seen it But my beautiful my artist snaps. Um, I don't know if you've seen it. He did he did my hands. It's holding a little tea Hold on me. Let me just show you all of my phone. It was like, oh, I think so I know there was another artist that you that you said, um that you sent us It was like an animation too that I was gonna do all of us that we're going that is still happening That's very much. Okay. Okay. This is my tea time. Oh, yeah, that's amazing. Yeah Oh What is the movie? Um, who is clean? We're moving The movie would um that the peel guy made why don't you know not not not uh, not um, oh shit Get out Rebecca But that's it and that's for all the right. I think that's for anybody who's hating on your stuff We're gonna spend we're gonna make sure we tap the tea the tea cup get out Someone said someone commented.  I love to Fun fact.  That's my yeah I love that personal and I yeah, you say I got No, so what happened is yeah In the monks the plans you see they on him. Oh, okay. Yeah Okay, I have stitch down there From little and stitch I have and then I have gray worm from uh game of thrones I have two prints funko pops.  It's always just like a green screen. We I know I needed a second time Why would you let us in around or something? Why would you let us into your nerdery? Like you gotta you gotta just drop some stuff right now My my nerdery is all over like the house. It's all over the floor.   It's pretty black girl everywhere There's a black girl. I think on each side of my wall.  I just bought a few months back. It's a black woman over here in the corner I have some of those too. I have some black girl art there, but my house is actually I'm a I'm a nerd to the highest order actually is funny. Um, like a real anime nerd to the deepest level I I obviously have murals to dragon balls. I love your living space with the mix of all of that Yeah, it's your it's fair you um, you have like all your your anime mix and then with your black art and then it's just really I blackify all my cartoons. I have a black dexter from dexter's laboratory in my um, and my room I have a black dexter I was thinking the serial killer for a second when you said black dexter I thought the cartoon right away. Oh, yeah My dad says it's just like that. Love it. I love the breakdown in syllables But wait, rebecca, you don't have any nerdy stuff in your house at all. Not a single thing. No, I actually it's very Rebecca is the original diva I'm like a fake hot girl And a nerd People will say yes, I probably yeah, my space is kind of, you know, a little diva is but um, I had um, if you guys know him on um He's he's like done a lot for our show and why am I not getting his name right now? Damn it. He right. He draws us all the time. He drew you.  I wanted him to draw me as Goku Um the super saiyan and he did black girl in a cute little outfit But you know in in the whole thing and I loved it because I grew up off that dragon ball z and so Um, he drew me as that and I lived for it. So that's awesome So because he he draws Us a very often in different ways and I need to print those out Because I want to see it. I love that He drew me and we're back together Something's tracking Matt's track binds his name Matt's track.  Yeah, not even trying to fangirl I've been in this space like I said since 2017 I've been doing this and I used to work on a really big platform I worked after that for a really big activist in the space too And I've met so many people and it's just never it's just weird in these spaces because You meet people and you really trying to do the work and they're on air And they're trying to do the work as soon as they get off and I can't lie I tune out too After the shows to kind of zen back in because it's a lot when you when you're really trying to do the work But these people will be like girl, please. I really like And I'm like, wow, I'm here I'm thinking that people are so for the job for the people and there and then that's when I realized it's a In both parties in both parts in both all through the activism world or all through the space Um, where people are journalists or podcasters.  She's about she Her stories and policing. She has educated me a lot.  She's very authentic. She's very true. So yeah Right Give a quick shout out to the letter hack who's also in the surf's chat right now. So hi letter hack Everyone is praising you. Love your art. Yeah, we love you Love you so much. Love you so much and every time I get into his stream because he streams. I think weekly And he streams new art that he's doing with someone else in this space and it's a lot of us in this space and he If I'll come in he'll be like we have a celebrity in the room and I'm like stop it Everybody feels like good and I love I love how he draws us I don't realize how many people are in this space until he draws those giant murals and it's like, oh my god There's like so many of us What I want to know is is how the people like who who got laughed out like of this big ass thing with this many people All the dipshits got left out.  Yeah Letter hack is good politics. He knows And he got it right and I love how he gets the details like Yeah, I love it. He's he's he's he is an artist Um, and I hope he's sensitive about his stuff that that's why he's gonna sell it I told him to to sell prints and I ain't seeing no thing yet for prints because I'll buy me one Yeah, I would love if you draw me if you look at a mix of money If there's one commentator that gets tanned or two, it's me you draw me sell it to me That's why I'm saying I need to print out what he's done so I can put it on my wall because he is everything that he's drawn of me he's drawn me um as um in my culture There's like he like a spiritual form in in my culture of being a Haitian person And he drew me in this the this perfect manner for my birthday and I just felt so drawn so that that um that drawing that he did Get on that letter hack. Oh, no, he he because he really he watches and he sees how you are And he just like he's won with you and then when he sees a little drawing Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. Hold on pause. No pause the track. No, no everybody everybody quiet quiet quiet Who? Who among us who else among us has any individual? Portraits Everybody better back. Did y'all get any? I think I have a few actually No, he did one of you and pop he did this pop culture one where he had he had you on there I see to be fair.   But then like you you blew up so quick to where we are like however long it took us to like Get to the platform. Yeah, are you blew up so fast? She? She was on my show one day And I was like girl you booked and busy. Can we get you on can we and you scratch? Because she was on my show one day and like we were like, let's keep getting her on david My producer david was like there's this girl. I saw her online I mean, she's not anywhere else right now, but I see her on this law show And I we got to get her and I was like, okay, let's bring her on and then the day she got on I was like no this girl's no this girl is the truth And then I mean like it wasn't even like three out three hours later It wasn't even like that she was out of here on 17 different other platforms or not And I said listen one thing about it is I love I love to see other people winning and I just I loved it I loved it for her and I was like girls just schedule me and pin Pin me in to on one of these days to come back on the show and yet and yet and yet Where's my right john oliver did happen and the breakfast club did happen and that's right. Oh, yeah Do a personality do a personality drawing for her and that and he'll probably do that I know he listens a lot. Oh, he will. Yeah, it's coming live that he does. It'll probably be a personality Shoot or a drawing for I'm I'm out and proudly. Oh, okay.  Okay girl. We go. It's gonna happen I love the top out. I love me. I can draw you ole.  I have to find it and I'll send it to you People know what I'm talking about. Maybe the chat can find it. It's it's my trump portrait And I'm gonna do one of every single president That's gonna be my like contribution for some reason you just reminded me of something like totally unrelated But I had meant to I had meant to bring it up episodes ago. Um, and suddenly Y'all know laughs and David didn't watch the grassy. I don't know if it was David too But I know lads didn't I think it's David too.  I'm just gonna let you slide Okay, thank you But americans, sorry, Canadians have no excuse, right?   I'm watching and I'm like, oh shit This is just like lads I text I go I go rush into my dmc the dm lads Yeah, I was I was like, I have no idea what you're talking about I was I was like, I know I'm gonna lose my Canadian passport by admitting that I don't watch the grassy And that it actually made like Drake's career, but yeah, I don't know who that is Okay, so I think that Oleg is gonna have to um You know, we're gonna have to meet outside about this one because I you do much to grassy either You want to grassy either I don't understand. It's like it it hurts me. I feel like there's a lot of judgment You act that was the treatment but then discuss and I don't understand the like like the lack of Understanding and support I get in my life. Like y'all just have to understand like I'm ready. I'm ready to shed tears Best friend just texted me a caps lock. See, I'm not the only one who doesn't watch the grassy No, that's right because Like very rarely very rarely do I have some white people shit that I really I really like Like I don't have white people friends I'm hosting a show with five white people And I still have nobody to talk about the grass I'm so Because maybe there's someone who will feel my heart break. I need to tell you right back and on my heart for months Okay, the vampire diaries was one of the largest was that not a huge phenomenon like during as I'm like They loved it. It was a huge thing huge huge thing.  So the other day I got invited to do An episode of podcast with Candice King. Who's one of the stars of the vampire diaries like played Um, Caroline I'm I'm hype like my god. First of all, why does she know me as you know?  I can't even you're gonna meet you with more silence because you're you're going and going about it I don't have anything to give Yeah Even like de grassy. I watched 80s de grassy. I didn't watch the new one So I didn't know who Jay was but looking up looking up Jay. He does look like land. I could see the resemblance Thank you. Thank you very much. Thank you so much because lines had the nerve Not only did he have the nerve to not see it and not even pretend and blah blah He had the nerve to act underwhelmed by the comparison Okay, that's an exaggeration. I I don't know if it was underwhelmed Okay, so I I get when people like you look like Brendan Fraser I was like, okay, that makes sense to me and when you show me that example I was like, I I don't see it right out of the gates kind of thing where it's like there's I do see Brendan Fraser more than than Jay. I do It feels like y'all saying that to me feels like when nobody knew like Hannah Montana and Molly with the same bitch like using I'm saying like I'm stressed out Hey, oh now my friend is typed in caps block bro. He does look like Brandon Fraser.  Okay By the way, Olay, I sent the photograph or the portrait I should say that I drew of trump Uh, check your twitter messages. It's in the the leftist mafia one. Yeah. Yeah, I drew that I'm very proud of it I wish there was a way to share it so the audience can see it too. Oh, no, I'm showing it on screen on my screen right now Everyone can My community was very proud of it. So like my little patreon community they have that as that like their icon now It's not bad though, but I can tell it's not bad. No, no, no, it is quite good. Yeah at my first um at my first political um job that I worked at and They had donald trump on the toilet Seat on the the head of the toilet seat and I'm like, well So is this meant for the guys to pee on it because you know girls use his bathroom too And but they had it right there and they never removed it It was there until the last day until we left but that thing was there forever And I'm pretty sure it was just full of pee. It was just That's Shows up on the screen I'm just uh, yes It does for lance. It doesn't for me. I don't know why that happens It does for me I posted the link to my call in let's say if you want to subscribe to it. Oh, there you go. Yeah I've also I linked to your twitter page below this video on youtube in the description box So if they go to your youtube or your your twitter page, they should be able to find it Yeah, I'm gonna do the same. I try to link to everyone's link tree or like their most Biggest platform on like whenever I post the vlog to my youtube channel. So I'll add rebecca as well, of course But um, yeah, I always try to try to keep you all in the loop so you can follow others as well And by the way, I saw a couple of comments I just want to let everyone know that matt bender will be back next week and blare was having issues What what did you say ole like her internet was out? She moved she just moved in so she doesn't know She doesn't even have it yet. Yeah. Yeah, so um, she'll be back too So well, there'll be some weeks where like some of us don't come on But I think that bringing on guest is a good way to kind of like fill in the uh, No, but fill in the She's gonna be in perfect. Thank you. Thank you rebecca. Thank you. I'm never I'm never gonna miss I have it. I have it locked blocked off on my calendar for thursdays and definitely the rest of all time All the people that cannot stand me and literally wish I would talk less.  It's it's like a movie.  Um, I listen you Whoo, listen, this is the year. I'm not I'm not arguing back with people and if you've noticed I haven't Yeah, I know I know it doesn't seem like a lot because we're only five days into the year But there have been hundreds of times now that I've exercised just straight No, I'm really I'm really y'all don't understand. I'm doing I'm doing so much better You know many times today. I'm like, I'm really I'm trying to not live with life of carried on bad about about everything because I'm one I don't want to annoy the shit out of people because my you know, my best friend started hating on Ari Lennox when Ari started complaining too much about Um, people hating on and I maintain Ari has the right.   Sometimes it's like before I even realize I do everything fast I walk fast. I talk fast. I type fast That's Caribbean fast as soon as I see it. I'm like Oh And this right here. No, that's when you know, it's it's over for everybody if you it's this it's over for everybody Okay, I'm being I'm being good.  I'm sure I like I feel like You just get used to it. Yeah, I love I'm in the same boat but as Rebecca. I just don't care anymore Um, I I responded to one youtube comment today Uh, I just I don't even know why I looked at the comments But I looked and somebody was like, uh, it's funny Mike didn't say this and I just posted the link to me saying what they said I didn't say or talk about and then they responded. Yeah, but you didn't do this. I'm like, this is why I don't do this It's like, yeah, yeah, they won't they won't be happy Whatever be good for people in this space and I realized that in the beginning when I first started doing it It's people will talk about what I have on people will talk about how I'm how I'm talking people will talk about the way I'm a stutterer or sometimes my accent comes out or if I'm saying um, um, um, or you because I like to say, you know You know, and they'll hate it. Yeah, they don't like it. They'll they want me to speak in a certain way Then they want to take my degrees away from me. She's not educated. Why is she here? What does she do?  I'm not gonna block.  I'm just gonna nuke the place That's always been that's something I've had As a human being in general less something independently of life I had to like work out in therapy I realized like because my therapist figured this out a couple of years a few years ago But because I will not draw boundaries. I will just in my mind think I'm constantly giving this person grace You know, but they don't know that they don't know the problem in my mind because I'm exercising so much grace So but at the time I do decide to say something or whatever it is. It's like, okay Bomb, there's no I don't I don't do like a confrontation like oh, let's work this out like this discuss Da da da da. I just immediately I'm like, let's chop a sing you have me You To that they hold you to that person instead of They don't how incredibly intelligent you may be how well spoken you are or whatever now They're coming at you calling you all kinds of names and you're not saying anything You're not doing anything. They're sending you DMs that are disrespectful. I've had a whole youtube Um, uh devoted to me about my nails and all this other stuff or how I looked instead of what I was talking about And it was really important what I was talking about And and the the that news clip that I was talking about actually had like over a million hits But the person didn't give a damn about that They were worried about what I looked like in my nails and they had a whole youtube Devoted to that and all the people in the comment section were joining in on it And that frustrated me and it can it can wear and tear on your mental It can definitely do that And I'm ready to go toe to toe with everybody because that's how I used to do it My mouth used to be I didn't care But then I felt like at a point in time I'm like none of these people are really paying my bills The world is messed up right now Every time I get off of here somebody else is dying.  Um It's natural in you. I already see that that's that's good to me.     It doesn't matter It has to be like a a good critique something that uh That is you know from an honest place someone that isn't a troll But if you see just a troll like I don't Yeah, it's not worth engaging with it Although if you if you are to engage with it I think the best way to do is the way olé does it where it's one message and done Like don't get into a back and forth because then that's just a lot of work Like it's just not worth it. It shows that olé is alive inside. I feel like everybody else is dead inside It's a lot of work. She's still got it and she's Listen, yeah Well, the difference though between olé and I think like myself at least I can only speak for me Is that I feel like you have the confidence and if you're engaging with confidence And they can't really like tear you down. There is a difference I mean it's still gonna work on your mental health, of course But like for me, I didn't have the confidence. So it's just like, oh, they say that my voice sounds faggy. I'm like I Talk like this like I don't know what to do about that. You know what?  I'm trying to watch a video, but I just hate her hands I hate how they're just her nails and I'm like, oh, I think I really think it's really wavy when I watch my videos I love my nails. I love my I love my hands.  I just actually disagree I'm like, I the honest to god truth is I would like me if it weren't me if I was somebody else if I would watch I'd be like, I'd like that bit. So I'm so I'm sorry.   I'm always going to be the center of attention and focus I'm gonna protect the main character My brand the fly is the fly that I care about, you know what I mean?  But now when media is like, oh, I can't fight the whole the whole in it. I mean, I can't but that's not productive Yeah, and I think that too like you it doesn't this is what I've learned throughout the time It doesn't take away from Who you are what you're doing what you're standing for people will try to strip that from you from what you look Like Rebecca wears these long nails. I've been wearing my nails like this since I was 15 years old never changed When I was in college they tried to tell me to do it differently I did it for like a year or two and absolutely hated it and reverted back to having my long curly nails Or curly my long nails and curly hair or straight hair or braids or whatever I chose to to To look like and I still was was delivering the message as I should I still was reading the teleprompter Like I should I still was bringing in the numbers for the the company that I was working for So but people were so stuck on what I look like and then they would follow me and I never hid How I looked outside of the show I might dress like this on the show, of course that's professionalism and outside of it I will be in the streets wearing what the hell I want and the people get upset about that We we have lives too. We are who we are. Yes. Yes Did y'all see the reddit the vote that I just covered in the weekend devoted to just my bikini pitches y'all is sick Wait Sorry red red red or like entire reddit section. Let me let me let me find it.  I was like none of that hurts me Like none of that none of that is an insult. I don't I don't every every single thing you've just said is not a bad thing So, okay Having lips is a win for you and your people, please That's I just want to stop right there and pause that we did it for the white people And therefore So we'll give you that a win in the way Follow white people we did it we did it One thing that I that I've got to add though is that like Confidence is so important because these people like if you're online this goes for people even like without a platform Like they're just gonna hate you no matter what so even if you correct something that they criticize you about Like they're still gonna find something else.  That's that's or not let it get to you Doesn't take away from your professionalism.   I've seen threads and people I have been my body has been viral tweets of discussions of them dissecting.  So if you just do you what they're gonna do about it? Also, I found yeah, let me let me show y'all that the This hold on the reddit thread. That's let me just I I've been muted.    Well, I would like to see what they feel like weird and then be the conservative ones that hate you This calls for addicted The thing is it's just like you can't adjust yourself to their lens because the way they I think Because I've seen myself reframed in so many different lenses and narratives and I'm the same one person But I constantly see myself perceived and assessed if and I realized like I can't contend with this world and system Because for me I don't consider myself like like the other day I thought I'm having a whole debate that I have a hoodwrap Person or my whole this that I'll be talking about my aesthetic or make me a dvc cat or whatever That's why there's no black person There's nobody that there's no black person that I actually know that thinks that that's a lunatic That's a lunatic position like for me.  I've been a nerd like it is very evident in if again Yes, and then and so many so many respects I mean all my rising is literally yamcha and piccolo and frieza behind my head and all these different things They be like, oh she knows I don't wait to have this hoodwrap persona I'm like I'm going out of my way to have a What are you talking and so what to them it could it could be that you're a hoodwrap, but then again You're Caribbean girl at the same time Or it's problem. We're not a monolith and that's the thing I want people to know when when that when they when I open my mouth I have a whole bunch of different actions. I might go to the I'm a florida girl Okay, so I'm from south florida. You might hear that come up in me You might hear my Haitian accent come up in me. You don't know what you're gonna get some words I don't even remember how to say in english, but they expect me to be a certain kind of way But one thing I will tell you whatever topic that we're talking about I'm gonna talk about it to the best of my ability and y'all gonna listen and this is this is why you're you're watching the show You know what I'm saying? So it's like don't take away from My uh my professionalism just because it doesn't meet your standards I'm not going to wear my hair bone straight every time you see me. It might be bone straight on a tuesday and pro Wednesday, you know what I'm saying? I would not a monolith and it does not make us less of it doesn't make um Ola less of a lawyer. It doesn't make me less of a journalist, but people love to say well How was she a journalist? I got three degrees. I've been on I've done I've done tv news I've done I've worked in the entertainment as a journalist. I've done it all so I don't gotta prove nothing to y'all Wait, wait, hold on We're on a show called the leftist mafia because the mafia is considered cool And I just want to bring up the the point that you just mentioned Like you were being disparaged being called a quote hood rat and all that kind of stuff Like why is it that the mafia is cool and and like white, uh, you know, right?  I'm speaking. We're having conversations. Um, and it's for the segment People under like I mean I can't even focus on what she's saying because I think my nails are even lime green And I like we I can't even focus on what she's saying because she got jimmy hindricks on her shirt Why like my black sister? Why don't you just wear a button down and look like and I had to get with that Now that I responded to because i'm like, you know, it doesn't matter Like I said what I said if you didn't listen to it because you were too focused on my t-shirt Which was fly then that's your business like that's that's that's what you're sticking with But I know that there was a conversation that was being held and you didn't listen to it. So Yeah, and that's important to remember when having the conversation that's not just a world where it's white people doing it to you it's black people People of color too that internalize the same respectability politics that have been taught to believe that you need to De-blackify a bunch of blackness as much and all these different things to enter the room And I find this very important that those people that are always telling you what you can't do Why are you in a room always looking at you and commenting on you and what you are doing as you are already in the room That they are not in it's the epitome of very chris brown like how you like hate from outside of the club You can't even get in It's very often. That's my thing is that at the end of day and not taking merit and it is well as you're telling me I can't do this thing. I'm I'm I am doing it. I'm like, well That was my titties out this weekend and I know it's me doing this, right? You start both I'm like when I go back google myself right now amongst my breakfast club new stuff bikini It can coexist but not everybody don't like it, but I think that's something I'm coming to terms with like You know, he's gonna have because they're they're afraid it doesn't look like It doesn't look like what society thinks you we should look like as women Um, we're not presenting ourselves that way, especially in these spaces And so it becomes problematic to them because we're not fitting the mold, right? Now if any one of them other women that are very problematic in this space that happen to be white women Do anything else? It's not going to be a problem. They're not going to be like, oh, she's on the beach with the bikini or whatever It's because olay is full figured and it's problematic for everybody to see that So and I I think that's that's that's wow to me. I think that's why you know to shoot a little bit of a bail I will say you do something enough the world does get used to it, right? Because I definitely do it right.  There's some level to which You know as much criticism as you get I will say I do receive an overwhelming amount of love and support from people that Appreciate that you live in your truth and in your space and and I'm sure there are a lot of people either a lot of people That follow me and like me that I'm sure wouldn't have liked those things or would have felt criticism for it before they decided You know, they follow you and like you and they get used to it and they come around to those things There's also a level of people not becoming Not just not being used to it and they eventually become accustomed and it becomes normal to them because people will fight me now People are mad at me now when I change my red locks and when I changed my locks and two years ago three years ago When I first, you know, started making my hair red that was Ghetto and wild to them too now. It's inauthentic to them if I don't have red hair, you know what I'm saying? So people will get a touch.  They want to control Ben said it very well on the show One time we were on the show and people were saying like, why don't you do this and why don't you do that? And I was telling him like, you know, here's an idea and he's like Well, we're producing the show and these are the only these are the stories that we have Just because we did not do the stories that they wanted us to do Today does not mean that, you know, we're required to do it and people will get upset and say things and He had to say he's like we don't belong to them You know, I understand we may take some advice and we may, you know, because they are our viewers We appreciate them But just the moment that we don't do something and they flip out because they believe that They control us. Um, it gets we got to take back our we got There was no reason why I'm sitting here feeling anxiety because they're threatening not to to remove their Their support because we didn't do the one thing that they they wanted us to do It's like no, I'm still going to do my platform You do not like you're not going to try to control this I created this because I wanted to do it my way And so, you know, that's that we talked about that and he was just saying that like no Reca like this is our platform We do this we get up in the morning and we do this every single day. They choose to watch so just because on this one day They don't agree with us. That's okay. Like We should not allow them to take full control of everything. I think that's in society period We see that in sports white folks think they control football players and Yeah Don't forget we have to cancel we have to cancel and uncancel somebody We didn't do it last week because you weren't there because it's your segment. Don't forget We must right in honor of you We we were like we can't do this without lens because that was like your your segment Wait, so I I didn't watch it because I I was like I'm gonna get too much FOMO So I'll be too sad if I have to watch the entire like, you know, left this mafia But like, okay, so both bender and blare couldn't join us the Luminati. Uh, so Uh, should we I don't know say something No Segments Yeah, they're like kind of pseudo segments. We just There's we don't really have format or structure to the show. We've had this like We just keep going or we'll start a segment and then like it'll veer off into something else But I mean, that's why people like it I think because we're just we're human beings and we're like I guess off the cuff here but um, so the david had posted some really good clips over the holidays and My nieces had asked me about the show because they saw and the one that I sent to them Was ole reacting to ben Shapiro and that was like their favorite and so I I I have a recommendation for another uh ole reacts and it is You know this white person, but you haven't see I'm I'm certain you haven't seen this video. It's of trump jr So Okay, oh, oh, that's that's better yet. So trump jr On a scale of zero to ten. How much cocaine are we talking? All right, like I just we're talking 87 Like it's a wild ocean. If it's what I'm thinking of it. It's a crazy. He's crazy. He woke up in the morning His oh, yeah, like how like you're barely I can still see what you're doing No, he he woke up in the morning and kimberley gilfoil She came to him with a tray and she's like how much cocaine do you want and he's like, yes He wants all of the cocaine enough to kill an elephant So wow, that's what you've got to react to because he just signed a seven figure deal with rumble To post videos there and all of our videos do better than his on rumble seven figures That's a platform that's funded by peter teal. Just so you all understand. Yeah. Yeah, so this is what failing up looks like Let me link you to the specific video that I had in mind because good politic guy shout out to him He shared it and it was just I mean, I've seen some really bizarre trump junior videos, but the cocaine in this video I I just like I was at the edge of my seat thinking his heart was going to explode Through his chest. It was that like i'm not exaggerating. So let me find it I'll I'll put the link to it in our uh chat I sent them like to my friend who I thought would laugh at it and he replied I can't believe these people exist. Like he was just like depressed by the video So like died Um, let me see Every 1980s movie boardroom, uh, like every single one some total every movie made Like the the the amount of cocaine that was necessary to make every 80s movie. That's what we're gonna that's what we're about to see combined Combined. Yes concentrated Okay, here we go Okay, i'm sending the link. Uh, so you haven't seen it too then lance and rebecca. Have you seen it? This is kind of the latest viral one. Oh, this is gonna be good. I wish that we could watch videos in here like We should use like stream yard or something where we can do that. Yeah That's what I use stream yard. You can definitely um Watch videos and that'll make it like 10 times easier. Okay. I posted it in the leftist mafia twitter chat Um, but yeah, it's it's so good. I'm sorry I didn't mean to derail uh lance's segment But I had to bring up the trump junior thing because I really wanted that to be the number two olay react if I can make requests So so i'm ready. This is gonna be one of those uh, like should we just do countdown three two one and I hit play Sure. Yeah, I think that works. Wait, you can play the video. Uh, I can't on my stream. Yes.  Yeah, maybe we should switch to stream yard because then that would like change the entire dynamic of the show We would be able to watch videos and react read articles. Yeah react. It's the best thing that ever happened to me Yeah, that's You know what? I'm gonna I'm gonna re-up my stream yard Um Rather than giving them back to investors and all of that other stuff It's already happening who was wrapped up in that scandal She ran a fund that was involved in it a closed code And what you're all not seeing is the hand movements. It's reading guilty Saying she knew what they did was illegal So she knew what they did was illegal But the washington post is still post To make her into a victim Okay, that's a lot of cocaine. Yes. That's that is that is that might be the 1980s. That might be uh, that's scarface Like that's every 80s movie in one lines from the washington post in the past I'll move but my dad took out it was leaving isis He's an This is the washington post Or certainly not Wow Unreal we might it might be better served to save this for when we have stream yard Just because there's it's a visual thing too. Not just audio like wobb. Yeah, it's a very much a visual thing I'm gonna get it in our system.  Oh, I got opinions I'm just so ready to give my opinions to the world. That's the part where I'm like, you know This man is why do we pretend like when you on drugs?  I and I shades on in every single picture from that trip because I look While I might not have been able to feel that I look fried When the photo was taken when they showed me even I said, oh, wow, I look fried Because It's very hard to hide for sure Yeah, yeah, and he does not hide it very well Like there's some people who, you know, maybe they can play it cool a little bit. He's he's so conspicuous It's like I I was shocked like I genuinely Authentically soy-faced watching that video for the first time because I'm like how like He like he just has no self-awareness That's what they're paying for right though.  They are not working no more They're not doing what they used to do back. They're not they're people that used to build things with their hands These people are just getting on It's like we don't need no more people on the microphone, but people get they get on drugs and they just get on the microphone And there we go There's a show. Yeah, oh y'all You want to know what's so crazy is that all the clips of the left sharing the videos reacting to him being coked out get Exponentially more views than his rumble videos. So I looked at his rumble channel. I did a video on this It comes out tomorrow. So feel free to watch it folks if you are subscribed Anyways, so his videos like they struggle to hit 10k views, which is very low engagement rumble paid seven figures For that level of engagement. I mean some of them pop off and they get like 50k sometimes but like he can't even hit 10,000 and It's just another uh more. I think more evidence that the meritocracy is real Raheem gets more more than that Yeah, Raheem literally does get more views He 100% does Raheem definitely gets more views than that like chilling He should get a seven-figure deal from rumble Don't even got a brain don't even got a meow but I kind of use Who we canceling? Yeah Oh, I thought we were canceling map bender For not following me on twitter or following only on twitter Matt doesn't have to cast the half of the co-host of his show I've been on that show like three times. He's been on my show twice.  Who's who's been cancelled that deserves to be uncanceled? No wrong answers It's a lot of power Listen, I'm not in the business of being cancelled myself. So let me tread lightly So I would like to present um I don't even know if you guys know her what you probably do because it was a whole scandal Years and years and years and years ago, but I want to get this sister out of bondage Um, I want a friend I was like, you know what, man, let me choose somebody. They know, you know Explain She's an r&b artist jazz style, um, very huge at the time. Um, you know, uh, she did, um A song with rick ross that everybody knew but she has her own album that where we all all the girls, you know Back in the early to the mid 2000 Can't you go hold on I know that part. I don't know what she did. That sounds familiar. Why would she cancel? She's saying for donald trump And mary mary did The very mary did too.  We knew stuff was about to go down and we're like, how dear chrisat sing at this thing like but baby, they drug this baby for years.  We had rappers um Literally go inside with very conservative views and people were just like you got to really think about it Kanye west has this man Sided with every conservative thing in this world said that slavery was a choice We saw what happened when he spoke on the jews. We ain't seen him since he said a lot of foul things Insided with donald trump And in so many different ways and hurt the black community and she's saying at the inauguration and we never seen her again No, i'ma say this though. I'ma say this. So you so you right?  That is what happened, right? 100 and this is what I I I brought this up the first episode, but then this is what stopped me I believe that cooling is a strict liability crime, right and I was like I I don't I'm like, yes This this act of cootery was punished But I don't believe that we should level down And and I agree with you.   So you don't listen to Daniel Caesar anymore I can't tell you what song he came up with like last I don't remember his songs outside of the first album But you gonna listen to Daniel Caesar. I'm not gonna hold you that man. It's not my quotation. I'm a chef He's not on my radio. He's not on my list. So remember when um, it's a few different white folks, right?  But baby, we don't care. They get hotter They move they get real hot in the game Then we start allowing them to the cookout that I don't even want to go to no more They like we just it's it gets crazy.  I didn't her name didn't ring a bell and I was like, oh this girl I'm reading about it though She's apologized 90,000 times. She's done overly I'm going to agree 10,000 times and she she's done so many different things and I might be partial because My friend actually, you know was working with her and I got the opportunity to meet and it was just just good energy And I just in my heart.  You are canceled canceled She says here, so this is back in i'm reading washington post in 2019 She hopes singing at trump's inauguration would build a bridge between the black community and I guess right wing politics Or something like not build a bridge doesn't like, you know Bring people there, but like try to bring people together clearly It sounds like she's not all that political I kind of just fell into this and like she just wanted to sing Yeah, I just wanted to say what happens when your lawyer let something in the door that she would successfully gotten precluded Because I was getting ready to vote to uncancel her and then david reminded me of her original charges Like And she was stating what her where her mind was at the time and unfortunately I was I was there. I did a whole show That was on chris at michelle me and ben and then went viral We did a whole thing on her and um, we were like hell no I was like dang this is embarrassing and I hate to do it But sis you weren't right and I did that with the mary mary sister as well because she was up there saying it as well Now, um with that being said what's funny is there was a man there who got bigger He's in the gospel community though He was playing the guitar for her and he's staying alongside her travis green is his name And he didn't get the same level of cancellation.   I guess it's just hard for me That many is hard for me because of what the nature, you know what I mean? I'm like hang them on like for this particular crime, but you know what? I'm gonna vote with my good sis and i'm gonna uncancel chris at Because you know and we'll we'll we'll we'll inch her in I mean we ain't just gonna throw her and everything But I would love to uncancel just breathe. Why'd you put chris out on parole? Not you going? Yeah Check it. We'll check it. But I did that because it's like, you know, she has been a good citizen um in the community sense and You guys may not have heard that because it's she's been canceled So she's been a good citizen and she's um she's talked about this moment multiple times on her platform Um and she has rebuilt herself Uh to come you know, she she's doing what she's doing what she needs to do Now everybody else like Kanye West who actually sold more albums his platform got bigger All of that and that's crazy because I was on the side listening to his music too And I'm like, I don't feel this doesn't feel right and this was in the beginning before he made the slavery comment He was already veering towards that route for me.  It's just like girl by a black man like and i'm talking and this is only This is this is this is a this is a conversation at the black table and a black man does something wrong And it kind of becomes like a black rapper I just think it depends though on the woman because let's not listen if it was Beyonce Trust and believe black women we would have started bending over backwards to shoot us in bed I know me personally Now I would have still listened to Beyonce's music, but I would have been online like hey, I go no, no, you so No, what happened to Carrie? Wait, Carrie hilsin did something right? No, Carrie hilsin spoke against Beyonce. We never seen her again Oh, okay, okay, and it wasn't even well deserved.  What did she say because I used to listen to mary mary and my She sang it then auguration saying there too and oh she did okay I love this you have erica and then think it's tina and I think tina is the one that's saying at the At the inauguration and she felt like she needed to sing at there because at the time a lot of people who there were small policies or beliefs that Trump said that he was running on or he believes and christians felt like they couldn't move the needle to side with anything else out of abortion, right? I think that was wonderful and believing that abortion you know believing that Children shouldn't be aborted for any other reason People who were more pro-life all that kind of stuff and she started with that She said that was the reason because the lord told her or something of that sort and ben ate her And ben is somebody who's in the church and he was like no that that no Like for you to say that you're siding with somebody who is going to be a monster Who has a lot of monsters supporting him and races supporting him?  Knowing that that doesn't even stand that does not stand for what a christian should be It was a whole thing. He went in on her But that's the one thing that she said was going to make her support Donald trump until she sang um, we're getting ready to go on um Tea time soon just just for the record because I think I go live at 10 45 Um, Rebecca, what's it? What's your calling? What's your name on there? What do you have it as? Um, oh my god. Do I need to listen? Do I need? I'm crying Yo, yo send me the link right now. No, it's in the chat I'm so sorry I can run my mouth and to see just being like this. Let me go ahead and get this thing together I'm crying So is the uncancellation official it happened we did it All right, it's happened officially awesome. Well, thank you guys so much for for coming to Uncancelling chris at michelle chris if you're watching this we have uncancelled. He says be free You're welcome And I've got the link go fall go on my twitter if you need the link this there go on the app call in to tea time with Olay and go on at 10 45. We're gonna have fun. We're talking mass pop culture and stuff Also, thank you for teaching white people about that entire scenario because Wait, what? Yeah, canceled for what what happened I love that Yeah, all right y'all to the loo Well, do we only do shout outs real quick though? Uh since rebecca's a guest at least do you want to tell us your show Yes, oh, yes. Um, let me do that. Well, because I'm trying to log in to make sure I'm at sister show on time Um, but you know, um, please guys, uh, make sure you follow me on twitter I guess at rebecca azure. That's my first name last name Also, my show is owned every tuesday through thursday on the benjamin dixon show on youtube You can find it there at nine ish 9 30 ish 9 30 ish to about, um Whenever we feel like coming off and then um, you can also follow me on instagram at these songstress That's where my you can see me in my full self. I'm always there, but yes, please follow me Um, and I would love to get to know the other side of folks So, yeah, let me get this done I will well, thank you so much for joining us rebecca. I always had a blast I don't I feel like at this point we probably don't need to do our socials I'm fine without mine because we're gonna do it every week and but Yeah Yeah Uh, unless you all want to I had I had a ton of fun. I love you all. This was uh, a very good time Yeah, in general. Yeah, we'll address the cancellation of matt bender next week and I will I will act if he's not I think he'll be here next week But if he's not I will act as his defender And it's not because he's following me But just because I feel like we should give people second chances We should make sure that we don't jump to conclusions about their motivation. So yeah, I'll defend my buddy matt Yeah, okay, y'all go on over to call in for tea time with oley All right, we'll take care folks. See you all next week


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Why do narcissists get bored so easily? They lose interest in you very easily and very quickly and they may try to convince you that it's because of you. They may try to make you believe that you are boring. You are not interesting but if you could look back through their previous relationship partners you would see that each time they got bored so easily. This has very little to do with the people they were with. Narcissists tend to target people who are fun and exciting. People who have a lot going on in their lives. They're not going to target someone who they consider to be boring. They want to be entertained. They want someone to provide them with amusement and enjoyment. They want someone to distract them from their miserable lives. So they will specifically target people who they consider to be fun and exciting. Narcissists get bored very easily but this has very little to do with you. You could be a really fun person. You could be living a fast-paced adventurous lifestyle but at some point they will still get bored of you. They will still want to move on and be with someone else. It's like they're eating a gourmet meal every day. The first day is great. The food tastes amazing. Everything seems so new but as time goes by it gets boring and tiresome as a result of repetition or over familiarity. It becomes dull and less intense. It lacks interest and excitement but that doesn't mean it lacks quality. That doesn't mean that it's not the standard that they desire or expect. It just means that they're sick and tired of having the same meal every day because that's all you really are to the narcissist. When they first met you they had an appetite. They had a craving for a gourmet meal but now dinnertime rolls around and they crave a McDonald's. They want something cheap and easy. That doesn't mean that McDonald's is better quality than the gourmet meal. That doesn't mean it's better for them. The gourmet meal just doesn't do it for them anymore because they're so used to having it around. So now they want something else. They want something else to satisfy their appetite but no matter what they have, no matter what they consume, it never really satisfies them. It's never enough. They always want more. They always want something else. They always want something to make them feel whole and complete but it's never what they need because what they need is meant to come from within. The reason why they get bored so easily. The reason why they can never be satisfied is because they are seeking people and things outside of themselves to make them feel complete. They are seeking attention from external sources when they should be going within and attending to themselves. They should be that which they seek because the reason why they have such an insatiable desire for love and acceptance is because that is what they need to feel complete.  There's a lot of unresolved issues in there and they need someone to dump it on so when they get bored of you, you become that person, the one they dump their unresolved issues onto and then they have to find someone who is going to attend to them. They have to find someone who is going to feed their inflated ego but it's only a matter of time until they get bored of them too because no one can satisfy the narcissist. They will always feel like they need something outside of them to make them feel complete because they don't want to go within and complete themselves. Thank you for watching. I hope this video resonated with you. Please like, comment, share and subscribe. Click the bell icon to receive notifications for my future videos. If you liked it tonight, my paypal link is in the video description. Coach the inquiries, you can email me at knocksovercoachingatyuma.com. Thank you for watching and I'll talk to you soon.