Bridget, welcome to Sunday Morning Coffee with Bridget. I have no idea how my sound is going to be. This is a live stream and I got up this morning. It feels really, it's early here. It's Sunday morning and I am in a suburb of Seattle. Actually, I'm not really in the suburb. I'm like 10 minutes from Seattle and a different city in an adjacent city. That is a very bustling place. And so this morning I walked two blocks and got some Starbucks. You may have seen on Above Life channel that I shared a small video of me visiting Pike's place yesterday. It's down by the pier and it's just this, it's the place that you've seen them throw fish in documentaries and stuff right in Seattle. And I went there yesterday on Saturday and went to the original Starbucks location. So I mean, it's everywhere here. Starbucks is everywhere. So got walked for my Starbucks this morning. I did a live, a live stream walk on Bridget-inspired Instagram. So you can do that early Sunday morning walk with me if you want to do that. It's not very long because I was like, wait, I think I'm in the wrong place because there's like two Starbucks within two blocks of her place. And I went to the wrong one or the one I wasn't thinking I was going to. So, but that's how I'm Bridget-inspired on my Instagram. So I'm going to wait a little bit to see if you guys all pop in here. My Starbucks drink is a caramel macchiato this morning with an extra pump of vanilla. That's what I chose to have.  So now I'm in Pacific time. And so I'm on the West Coast, right? And so from where I live in central time, it's two hours behind. So hi, Tucker. So when I woke up this morning and it was like, I think actually it was later today. It was almost six o'clock when I woke up because I went to bed late last night. And six o'clock this time, Pacific time, which would have been like eight o'clock my time, which is very, very late for me. And so for my friends on the East Coast, it's like three hours times on difference. And it's really messing with me that two hours alone is already messing with me. So I'm just trying to catch up now. So I've been driving. Let me give you a backstory before we talk about our topic today. The topic is, it's the drive. Like Miley Cyrus, you know, her song, The Climb. Do you remember that? Google it. If you don't know it, if you're not a fan, it's okay. Just it's the climb and the climb, right? Climb. And that's what I feel like with the drive. It's the drive. That's how it feels. Hey, I see some of you guys popping in here. Let me know if you can hear my audio. Okay. Because I'm using this and I want to make sure you can use it. Otherwise, I will pop this out and just use the actual phone. Is the audio okay? Can you let me know? Can you do that? So our topic today is it's the drive for Sunday morning coffee with Bridget. And right now I'm in my sister's new apartment and my niece came. I'm going to tell you the story. So we left on Sunday morning at 6am from the Midwest. Thank you. From Minnesota and on Wednesday morning on the 2nd of March. And we started to drive with a U-Haul and a Honda Accord. Now, you have heard me mention, if you watch me for a while on Fairy Grasshopper, my YouTube channel, that I don't like to drive. Me, Bridget? Not a driver. Not a rider either. And do you know why I'm not a rider? Because motion sickness. And if you are an empath or have energy awareness, you will find that you may get motion sickness or what feels like motion sickness when actually it's energetic sickness. However, this quite clearly was both double layered. I got a double layer Oreo cookie with not the good stuff in between on this experience that I had in the drive. It took us three days to get to our destination. The first day we drove about 14 hours. I drove the car almost the entire time except for the last hour and a half. I had some great time by myself in the car where I listened to audio books.  It was my sister, my niece and guy. And my niece is 26.  And she has, she took out such a cool personality. She has just this great view of the world. She's very creative, but she's smart and can just figure things out. She's got a great kind of personality like laid back, but also fun. And she and I had some fun times in the car because she kind of was my sister really wanted to make sure she drove the U-Haul because we went through mountain passes. Okay. We drove through Minnesota, through North Dakota, the entire state of North Dakota on Wednesday. 14 hours later, we arrived in Billings, Montana. We went into and stayed the night in Montana on Wednesday night. Yes, that is correct. I drove from Minnesota to Billings, Montana. I drove all of it except for an hour and a half. And I can't believe it because I am not a driver. But I didn't want to ride because in Montana it is scary. The mountains are scary. The roads are narrow and it's all like this for hours. It's crazy. It's just, oh my gosh, but it's the most beautiful place I've ever been. I got my Montana shirt on. I would go back to Montana on a heartbeat. It was beautiful there. It was gorgeous. I'm not a skier, but I know they have mountains, obviously. It was beautiful. It was beautiful. I don't know how my sister, my little sister, by the way, I'm the oldest of three kids, my little sister. She's only like a year and a half younger than me. She's not tiny. She's not little like 10 years. She's like a year and a half. But she is badass. Like she's driving this freaking you-all through these mountain passes and I could barely keep up with her in the Honda Accord that is like a 2020 or 2019 vehicle. And it is awesome to drive, easy to drive. And I'm like, of course, the heights thing I have an issue with. And I discovered that I've known that about myself, but I didn't know it would affect me driving. But it does, apparently. So we stayed overnight in Billings, Montana. It was cool. Apparently they had this stuff called Huckleberry. It's like a flavoring. It's kind of like a combination of blueberry grape kind of vibe. We stopped at this one place, I can't remember the name of it, where I got this shirt. I can't remember the name of it. It was such a cool place. Such a cool place. I cannot think of the name of it. We were on I-90. We were on 90. Just if anybody knows it. It's in Montana on 90.  Like gift shop galore, but not trinket-y stuff. Like really nice stuff. Like I got this great shirt, you guys. This great shirt. It says Montana on it. And the back has a thing too. Let me show you the back. Let me show you the back. Okay, wait. Let me show you the back. Sorry. Oh, it's just a minute. Just a minute. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. I'm back. I'm back. I'm back. Let me see. Did I screw this up? I'm upside down. Just a minute. Just a minute. This is like the story of my experience. So I get up thinking I'm not attached. I'm going to show you the back. And now I'm not attached.  I need, I'm going to do this anyway. Look at this shirt, you guys. Look at this shirt. You see it? I don't need to pull this up here. Let's pull this down. There we go. See it? You see it? Montana. Okay. Okay. I'm so sorry. Okay. That's basically the experience I've had.  So we went to the cool place. Okay.  Here's Tucker. This is one of my sisters dogs. Smile for the people.  This is Tucker. He's seven. I don't know what kind of dog. He's a poodle. Something. He's tiny. Look at how handsome Tucker is. Tuck tucks. Look, smile for the people. He's so cute. He's so cute. Okay. There's another dog, a Maltese mix that is laying next to me. He's, he is, I'm very tired. He's Sam. He's Max. He's very, very, very old. Max is the one. He's a white Maltese. You've probably seen him in pictures on Instagram. I did document my drive and my experiences, the scenic stuff on Instagram when I could. And Max rode with me in the car. So when I was flying solo, I was, let me just read this to make sure I can. Oh, hi. All right. I just want to make sure, can you hear me okay? Because I had to plug this back in after I knocked you guys over. Sorry. I'm clumsy like that. So we traveled with the two dogs too. Did I fail to mention that? Yeah, two dogs. So my sister, badass that she is, was driving this freaking new haul through these passes and stuff. So we stopped at this great place, my niece Googled and found like this, saw this cool place where she wanted to try Huckleberry, a Huckleberry shake or something, or Huckleberry ice cream or something. So we stopped there and it was cool. I loved the place. Beautiful art inside, like cool art, very eclectic and just not eclectic, it's not the word, but what are you doing? You see the dog? And it's just been such a drive. It's not about the destination. Sometimes you'll learn the most on the drive, right? And we were just so focused trying to get here, trying to get here. And it was hard and it's stressful because literally, I'm going to tell you the story about that after, but it's the drive. Let's focus on the drive. That's what Sunday Night Coffee is about, right today. And we were, so we stopped in Montana, then we stayed overnight in Billings. And then the next day on Thursday, we ended up driving crazy mountain passes again. I'm like, oh my God. And then it started to snow, lightly snow, and then kind of rainy snow. And then we passed into Montana was the most beautiful state, you guys. I listened to a book on audio. I told you that. I talked on the phone a little bit and I just, and I had, I often on, I had a writing buddy, my niece usually was the one. My sister and I wrote together a little bit the first night for like an hour, two hours, two hours maybe, I think. And that was it. And she drove. That was the only time I rode the entire trip. I drove the whole way, which was great for me because motion sick. And I was already messed up. Like, by the time we got to Billings, Montana, I was just like, what? So tired. So I slept. We all slept. And then we got up early the next day and headed out right away. And then driving and curvy were swervy. And it was like stressful driving. And the worst of it, I think was the second day between Montana, Idaho, and into Washington because we pushed and stayed at a place called Moses Lake. And we stayed there in Washington. So it was only like a two and a half, three hour drive to her location after that, the next morning. And then we were going to meet the movers and we were going to move stuff and whatever at her place. And so they were going to help unload and all that. And so we were driving on Thursday. And again, started out, I was totally content driving by myself and on my own. Because I didn't want to drive to U-Haul. That was my thing. I told her, I said, I'm not driving to U-Haul. Because when I signed up to help her move, there was no U-Haul involved. And I'm like, yeah, I thought I was just doing a road trip. Turns out that this was a better way for me because if I was doing a road trip with my sister, she would be driving and I would be car sick. Just because I get motion sick. And if we were whipping around, oh my God, she's driving like 7080 in a U-Haul. I'm like, oh. So it's a good thing I was driving a car and I was solo and I had like control over my environment a little bit. That was really good. I just had Max. He was in the back seat filled with pillows and blankets. And he just chilled. He slept like most of the time anyway.  We were stopping because they had Tucker, this little one in the U-Haul because he needs to be by my sister because he's like really attached to her. So they were driving to U-Haul, my sister and my niece. And then they switched out driving. And then sometimes my niece drove with me and then, but my sister always was in the U-Haul and it's uncomfortable in the U-Haul if you've ever done that. I didn't have to ride in it, which is good.  And it's, there was no cruise control in the U-Haul. No cruise control. So my sister, she said it was stuff to get used to that. So by the second day when we stopped in Moses, like I was so kind, all kinds of messed up, like mentally and my body from not moving. I haven't hadn't walked. I had been sitting for 11 hours. Got, we know, we took a couple stops. We probably stopped twice that whole time, but we do three hour chunks and we stopped to go to the bathroom or whatever. But three hour chunks was our goal is trying to do three hour chunks. Sometimes it didn't work out because we had to go to the bathroom where the dogs did. But otherwise three hour chunks, boom, boom, boom, you know. And man, I can't believe that. I did that. And then so we got there and I was like, okay, I can totally do the next morning three hours. No problem. I can do it. I didn't know that that was going to be the most treacherous as far as like heights wise and guardrails in the home of God. And, but the roads were way better. By far the worst roads were in Idaho and the weather was crappy. It was rainy. It was slippery. It was like then snowy. It was beautiful. Oh my gosh, the lands beautiful, beautiful scenery. But I really felt like it was very private. The road that I was on almost, it almost felt like Idaho's vibe was kind of private.  Montana was like big heart is what it felt like big heart. And I felt like when I was driving in the mountains in Montana, oh my God, I have never felt so close to God in my life that I felt there. I felt so good in Montana. I did not expect that at all. I thought Seattle Washington would be more my vibe. But I literally felt like I was inside. There were points when it was open, but there were mountains and I felt like the mountains and they were farther away and then close by and farther away. And it was like they gave me space and room to breathe. But they protected me. They were like warriors or or bouncers, guards, guards or guardians. That's a better way. Around the edges and then I felt like low in the belly. And it's probably too because like in the belly of the mother in the womb of the divine mother of earth, I felt that there. And it's probably also because I was listening to The Alchemist. That's the book I listened to the entire book and one and a half times. On audio, I listened to podcasts and stuff too. That's why I listened to it like one and a half times. And it was just and so it's probably that to a very philosophical kind of but it was just so beautiful and it was I couldn't think of a better combo. It was the coolest thing. And I spent a lot of time by myself in the car during that leg of the journey and it was just really beautiful for me. And so when we got to Moses Lake in Washington State, I was just all kinds of messed up. I'd never driven that far in my life two days in a row, like well over 10 hour days, both days. And I just was like, again, I'm glad that I drove by myself. And like I drove the whole way. I'm glad that I drove most of the way except for like two hours because I needed that I needed that feeling of kind of control, that feeling of choices, that feeling of not car sickness. And I still got car sick.  When we stopped in Moses Lake, I did not know which end was up. I felt like I had been on a cruise ship that was going through a hurricane. I was so motion sick because of all the roads and the stress and the ups and downs and the left and right and elevation change. Oh my gosh, I never felt so sick. I was so sick. I was sick for hours. I kept feeling like I was moving. I felt like I was moving. And so it was just that was so much on my body. I had no idea. I've never experienced that before, but I've never done long drives like that. It's been years. I mean, the last time I did a drive like this, I was with the same two people. My niece was like two or three years old. And my sister had was just moving from Minnesota down to Mississippi. So we went south to Mississippi to be with her husband, her new husband at the time, because he was in the military and he was stationed there in Biloxi, Mississippi, or Gulfport, Gulfport. Yeah, it was Gulfport. And so we did that drive with the same people. We didn't have a U-Haul though. We just packed the car into it. And so there's that. And then now this experience, but this experience is way different and way older and very psychic this time for me. And so it was so there's so many pieces here that are so profound if I think about it. But my physical body could not handle it. Like if it was up to me, there's no way I would have been driving. I would have stopped. I would have slept somewhere. I would have taken at least three days, probably three days to get here. That would have been way better for me, but I wasn't on my timeline. It wasn't about my time. I was just there to support my sister. So I had to do whatever she needed to do, you know. And so we had to get there. We had a time frame, a deadline. So we got here.   That's how bad it was. Like I was so not feeling good. I just needed my own space. I needed not to be moving. It was really tough for my physical body. I'm so sensitive. And I knew I was, but I didn't realize how much still. I thought, oh, it's no big deal. That's a big deal. So it's the drive for sure. So then the last morning, woke up, got up and headed out and arrived here and I was sick. I was still sick. I was sick when I got in the car in the morning. I was sick when I got, I wasn't as bad, but I was still sick. And it's weird when you know you're driving and you have to take a dramamine. It's so weird and you're tired and it's just, it's a crazy time. I never felt like I was going to fall asleep though. Never did that. I had a lot of coffee to keep me awake. Every time we stopped, I'm like, coffee, I need coffee.  My whole body was rebelling against me that I laid on this hard, this hard, concrete floor and laid with the dogs running around while my sister and my niece were loading and unloading the box, some of the boxes from the U-Haul, the fragile stuff before the movers came because I was, I was so sick. And then I just looked at my sister, she's just like, what's wrong with you? I'm like, oh my God, I'm dying. Like I'm dying right now that if I was at home, I would be locked in my bedroom for at least two days. I am so sick right now. I'm very sick. But there's like, you know, stuff has to get done. So they're just doing it. I'm literally laying on the floor on a pillow, the dog's pillow, what the dog is running around me going, oh yeah, try not to let the dogs run off the door every time they opened it. It was like hell. I never want to be in that situation again. I thought I was going to die. I wanted to die. It's such a bad headache, you guys, like bad headache. It wasn't a migraine. It was like a travel headache thing, like my neck was, it was awful. I know I'm complaining and venting, venting, venting, but it was bad. I've never felt, and I've been pregnant where I've been so nauseated and morning sick. This was not that. I have been seasick on a boat during a hurricane. This was not that.  This was not that. It was all of these things combined into one cocktail. And when I stopped moving physically, I couldn't even, I just, I looked weird. I couldn't stand up. I felt dizzy. I felt super lightheaded. And apparently the elevation thing really affects me. I've been to Colorado before and I know how the oxygen and stuff definitely affects me. It took me about two days to get used to it there when I was in Denver for a conference years ago, like seven years ago. And I knew that would affect me, but I didn't realize how much it would affect me on top of all this other. I was so sick, you guys, for a couple of hours. And then finally all of a sudden I'm like, it must have been probably three hours later. I'm like, okay, now I feel like a human. Now I feel like I can try to help because I couldn't even put words together. I couldn't, stuff did not make sense in my mind. It almost felt like maybe what you feel like when you have a stroke or something, like I could not, I just couldn't, my mind wasn't working. It was crazy. And I felt bad because I couldn't help the two of them move. And they were obviously stressed and frustrated because I, you know, it's a very stressful scenario. And I would look at them and I'm like, you don't understand. I can't, can't even move right now. So we had movers and they helped. And then eventually I felt better. And then in the afternoon on Friday, I was actually able to meet a friend from British Columbia. She drove down. We met at dinner. And it was amazing. So it like changed everything for me. It helped me remember like my eye on the prize. Like I knew we were going to be able to meet up. There was a strong likelihood I'd be able to see her. I've never met her. It's been eight years. We've been such good friends.  She's been so helpful for me and all the stuff I've been going through this last year. And, and before that for years, just somebody I could always reach out to if I hadn't talked to her for two months. And we just pick up right where we left off and, and supported each other. We've supported each other professionally. We've coached each other. We've received each other's healing services. We've been friends. We just are, she's just very important to me. And I got to meet her. It was awesome. It was the best. Like I feel emotional. It was the best. It was the best. It's a beautiful, beautiful gift. So it's great. Some of you know her too. I'm not going to say her name because I don't, I'm like, if you're, if you're in the priestess or divine feminine world connected to like priestess presence or rosamistica temples or anything like that, you know, or you totally won't know. So, but our friendship is our personal private friendship. And I don't want it to be like this, like professional connection thing. I just want it to be our friendship. So anyway, that's a long story. I've been talking for a long time, you guys. Sorry. This is boring. I hope this isn't boring. So the driving piece. So I'm going to tell you what I learned from driving. Let me just chat with you guys here. I'm doing this live, you guys. It is Sunday morning, chilling my, so here's an emotional piece, right? It's the drive, the journey, right? We hear that all the time. It's about the journey. Life is about the journey, not the destination. Well, we're in such a hurry to get to the destination. Sometimes like, he's so funny. He's like listening to all the new songs. We're in such a hurry to get to the destination. Sometimes that we totally are a mess about the journey or disrespect it. Let me tell you, I was respecting the I want to swear so bad. I want to respect the f and journey. Oh my God, the drive, respect the drive. This can be used in a lot of different ways. So the title of this Sunday morning coffee is the drive, my personal story and the drive. So the drive within us, what motivates us, what's the vehicle that's carrying us from one place to another. There's so many layers that we could talk about pieces here. So let's talk, right? The drive, the journey. There are things I would like to do different. There are things I knew embarking on it that they was going to be challenging and stressful because of how it was set up. This happened fast in the last two weeks. My sister got a job offer. She was one of those COVID casualties, right? And she had a very high level job at an airline and was let loose set free from that. And so then had to kind of figure things out. And as a single woman, it's like, it's all her, her household is her, you know, and she has two like college days kids, but they're still starting out, especially her youngest is still just starting out.  Because her youngest is also getting her master's and stuff.  And, and she just got engaged. And so there's a lot, right? So two weeks, she got it. She got the job. It was probably 10 days that she flew out to Seattle, looked around for a place to live, found a place. Magically, this exact apartment opened up, which is actually it's like a, it's like a studio. It's not technically a one bedroom, but it's set up like a one bedroom. It just doesn't have like the slider doors or anything. And so they can't call it that. So it's a totally more affordable and it's a beautiful view like you've seen it. And I can, I can post a picture just looking out. I don't want to like reveal too much about her private life or where she's at, but beautiful views and it's a corner unit. It's like gorgeous. It's plenty for her as a one person with two little dogs, plenty. Plus she's really close to so many amenities and things like walking distance, everything like right across the street, food everywhere. It's the coolest place. It's totally walkable. Everything's walkable, which is great. And it feels really safe. It's a safe area and lots of security in the building and stuff. So it's good. But two weeks, not even like 10, nine or 10 days, and she had to move.  And there's all sorts of things moving from state to state. And she had to make sure that the dogs were licensed. And then she had to make sure that she had her deposits done and she had to coordinate movers. And she, she had so much to do and a short amount of time. And I'm like, of course, I'm going to, I offered right away to help her. I'm like, of course I'll help you. If you're going to, if you're going to take this job, I'll help you move. I'll drive with you. But I didn't know it was going to be a whole thing. I thought she was going to have him over and moving company or do a pod or something, but that's not, it was expensive to do that. And she's like, no, I want my stuff, which I totally get that. I want my stuff too. She wanted to feel home because we arrived here on Friday and she starts work on Monday. So my niece is going to fly back today on Sunday. And that's sad. It's really hard. So I told my sister this morning, go and I walked to Starbucks. I already did that. I got my Starbucks this morning. And I had plenty of tea this morning too before I had Starbucks.  My, my sister's really close with her kids. She was a single mom forever and they all live by each other and they're really tight and they're constantly FaceTiming even when they lived by each other. I mean, so she's got a really good bond with her kids. But now it's her opportunity for her life to enjoy the drive, you know, the experience of learning what's next on this adventure. It's totally an adventure. And my niece kept saying that this is an adventure. And I said, yeah, my niece and I went and we went to go get some sushi and like poke bowls. And last night and my sister just chilled with the dogs, just kind of by herself had some time to kind of think about energy here by herself, which is good because she hadn't had that yet. So she did that. We left and walked and got food and brought it back. And we were walking, we were talking about how this is like a hard time for my sister for sure. It's a hard time for her kids, her family to have the separation, but it's also a perfect time for growth. And it's a safe way for all of them to experience life in a new way now, because like my sister, she gets this opportunity to have her life as this independent career woman, which she's always been. But, but adult person with her own life, like, like, I want her to meet people and make friends and have a fun freaking life because she had her kids young and she really has never been lived on her own aside from now. She has a house and I mean, like a town house and stuff, but, but her kids for most part have always lived with her. Even when they were at college, they come home and visit and they live with her when they're moving home and all that, you know, like, so she's always been home based. So she's never really just had her own space. That's just hers and her own life. That's just hers. And I know for, for a lot of people, that's really scary, but it's also this incredible, brilliant, beautiful time for her to grow and expand. And I think there's places in your life and my life that we want that too and need that. And I'm sure she's having tons of mixed feelings because I can feel it. And I'm an empath and I'm a psychic person. And I'm literally, like her room is right here. And I can hear the TV and it's like, it's like a pass through a kind of apartment. It's a long skinny apartment. And it's like an efficiency, but it's not, it's like a studio, but it's not, it's different. It's kind of weird, hard to describe it. It kind of reminds me of an apartment in New York. The way it's set up, it's kind of different, but it's great. It feels really good energetically. It feels great for her. It feels great for me, but there's a lot of mixed energy here. And her and my niece were sleeping in that other room and I was sleeping on the couch here. And I can feel all the, the, the turning over, the churning of the soil, you know, and it's a lot. And so for you and I, the drive, it's not about forcing or pushing change. It's about allowing it and allowing life to mess with us because it messed with me.  I want to help. I can help. I'm strong. I got big muscles. I can do this. I can do that. And, but I had hit the wall so hard and totally was putting other people's needs or demands or the situation's demands above my own over and over and over again for like a couple of days because I was just stopping when they needed to stop, unless I really had to go to the back and then I would say something. So, because I really wanted to respect that it wasn't, I wasn't the one that started us out on this journey and I wanted to stay in someone else's and I wanted to stay in the wake of the boat when I was driving behind that U-Haul. You know what I mean? I wanted to really stay, I didn't want to have to worry about me at all. I just wanted to kind of hold up the caboose, you know, but that kind of pressure for me was way too much based upon what we were already dealing with.  I have a lot of pressure. I have a kid that doesn't want to go to school and then my big kid that lives with me is his dad's caregiver and he has a lot of stress and pressure and there's a lot of stuff you guys. I have a lot of stuff so I felt really bad and guilty. I felt guilty for leaving my family during that time but I also needed my sister's also my family and I have to help her too like I was so pulled, right? So then when I went on this journey I was like okay I gotta be there for her. I gotta be there for her and I didn't realize that part of the drive was the experience for me and so I began to start to see as I was thinking about this drive and the boring straight land of North Dakota, the entire freaking state driving through, that I needed to like carpe diem like seize this day and make some choices in this process while the drive is happening, while the journey is unfolding, I needed to make some conscious choices in this process to support me. So I did kept my anointing oils out in my little bag so that I could grab them in my passenger seat.  I used my honor oil. This is emerald temple honor oil. It smells so good. Actually I love it. I love it so much. It's very solar plexus. I also had my rosomistica oil that I used and I used my priestessing oil again emerald temple diana du boral. I also used my sacred oil that I have which is blue lotus and I'm trying to find the priestessing oil and I don't see it so it's I know it's in here but so I did that and then I also turned on the alchemist at the book that was the only and I actually had the alchemist and the atlas of the heart which I started to listen to parts of atlas of the heart bernie brown that new one but it was so much in my brain I could not have it. The alchemist was brilliant for me. I had never read that book. I know it's going to surprise many of you. I had never read it. It was great. It was so perfect and it was so cathartic during that experience and then the mountains in Montana when I got in there you guys I got to tell you I felt I never felt so good in my life. So good. I felt so good with the mountains. I didn't think I would because I liked the ocean. I've been to both coasts and the ocean and stuff and the Gulf of Mexico and stuff like that and I've even been to the Caribbean you know the western Caribbean and beautiful waters love the water but I just love those mountains. I've been to the desert too in California, deserted California area. This was something I'm never going to forget. Mama Montana. South feels to me. Mama Montana. Montana feels very androgynous both masculine and feminine energies. That's what it feels like to be there. Like when I was down in some of those beautiful mountains and there was all this there was water and greenery and farms in between and it wasn't crowded or cramped or like some of the other places like that you go through in the mountains and like stuff like Boise like I said or not Boise did not go through Boise but Idaho feel felt very like protective and private and just here's different parts of me I'm all going to show you different pieces till I know you then I'm gonna let you in like very only the people who know me the locals can be here kind of like and so it felt very different in fairness though it was rainy it was slippery it was cold it was scary roads and buried lots of potholes oh my gosh I don't know how that you all did not just I seriously and my sister is like either psycho or incredibly strong she's probably a little bit of both we probably both crazy and strong yeah probably we probably a little bit both but I'm like damn she's badass anyway I should get her bumper sticker that says that wouldn't be funny I should get her a little sticker just to say hey badass like I made it I survived the trip from here to here to here we should get t-shirts made I survived the drive I survived the drive hey that would be a good merch for me I survived the drive a great metaphor for life right sure has been something you guys let me just tell you sure has been something now I feel mellow and chill today because I'm by myself I'm used to having a long time and I only meditated like twice two or three twice once in the hotel room no twice in the hotel room when I was alone and then once here yesterday morning I had to and then now I just had this one time some talk in you which is great I should probably just chill in journal which I'm going to do next so it's the drive not the force of the change but what you do with the processes and the places you find yourself in what to do with the energy that's around you and to acknowledge your energy you don't have to try to make yourself fit somewhere you have to understand what this somewhere has for you that's a gift what it can give to you what it can breathe into you or whisper to you and when I think about Montana I'm thinking about that because when we came into Washington state it didn't really do anything for me it really didn't and I've been here before I've been to Seattle again I'm visiting my sister when she her husband was stationed here at one point I've been to Seattle a couple of times two or three times I think to visit her probably three and so I've been here I've been to Pike's place I've been downtown Seattle you know that was in like the what late 90s probably I think late 90s yeah yeah late 90s yeah and so I've been here and I like it it's fine it's it's pretty and the gloominess doesn't even really bother me that much it's like the pressuring stuff though the foggy stuff is like kind of messes with me a little bit I think it's pretty the mountains are pretty the trees are pretty but the foliage and the way it looks the greenery looks like Duluth Minnesota to me it looks like up north in Minnesota it looks like this is gorgeous except we have way more birch trees that's what I would say and it's beautiful it looks like that it looks like this so it's not that different and I'm not a skier so I need to go to the mountains or anything but but the drive in here I mean it was pretty it was really pretty because we stopped in an overlook I have that on Bridget inspired on my Instagram stopped in an overlook and I got to do like a video for you and pictures and stuff it was pretty but it was like the guardrail was like oh and then there's some eyes like right next to you and they're like squishing you and you're like oh my gosh I do not want to do that again no thank you once is enough check that box I would drive to Montana again I would totally do that I would totally do that kind of thing by myself I seriously would I would totally do it I think I need hiking boots too I'm thinking that because there's so many beautiful places now that have mountains that I would like to climb on to not like mountain climb but do trails and stuff and I don't do that and in Minnesota we have river bluffs and things like that and I could totally do that there and I just never have and think and I want to try that I want to start doing that I don't even have hiking boots or anything I mean I don't trail shoes I think I need that for sure yeah so thank you so much for hanging in with this Sunday morning coffee with Bridget I know it's a long one I really love talking to you guys you guys are therapeutic for me as well thank you for joining me on Sunday March 6th 2022 from I'm going to say near about Seattle Washington I just want to take a peek and see and see some of you oh you guys are sweet let's see if I can see here I'm not sure how to read well there we go I can read some of your comments let me do that if I can oh that's me I would be emotional yeah I got motion sickness too yeah I can vent all you guys are sweet altitude sickness yeah is that a thing that must be a thing I moved from Wisconsin to Washington wow your experience is similar to mine wow that's cool the open road one of my favorite places wow interesting car trips are so healing interesting I just read the book Bridget the alchemist yeah hey nice to see you thanks for showing up lucky love my troops okay all right you guys so I'm going to wrap up this episode of Sunday morning coffee with Bridget I'm grateful that if you stuck in here with me I finally feel like I can relax a little bit today at least right now in this moment very much I'm not sure what I'm gonna do now I probably should have a little breakfast I haven't eaten anything my schedule my eating schedule is all screwed up but I did go and buy when I went to the grocery store I did go and buy some brush veggies so I'm gonna eat that with the hummus I have leftover from yesterday from the great falafel Greek Greek shop across the street I got falafel oh so good yellow rice it was really good and hummus was really good so I had hummus so I kept it I'm like oh keep this and I get some veggies and dip it in so I have that I think I got some soup which is good and I have a salad I can eat so I think I'm gonna have that for breakfast salad so I hope you're doing well on this Sunday this has been my adventure I am not going to be home until Wednesday so I will do a probably another live stream or two on Instagram and or on fairy grasshopper my youtube channel so we'll see I don't know for above-life channel if I'm gonna actually do a channeling session tomorrow or not I'm not sure if I do it might have to be live so we'll see I'm not sure timing wise I think I can actually I will have time during the day by myself my sister will be at work and if the dogs are mellow like they are right now I could totally do a channeling I'm not sure what channel I wish there's somebody around Washington state that'd be interesting we'll see thank you so much for being here I hope I've inspired your spirit today filled you with some hope with my personal story of the road trip that I just went upon and encouraged you encouraged you to live your life even if you're on a road trip and you get car sick or out the dude's sick or whatever the heck it is I hope that I've encouraged you to live your life you guys it's the drive it is the opportunities and the circumstances that we're presented with and the situations that we're in where we can make our subtle choices we can choose ourselves love ourselves through that process we cannot we can take advantage of the opportunities we have to show up it's not even showing up like pushing or forcing it's not like an adversarial thing it's like a opportunity to work with whatever's showing up for us like the stuff what can I make with this what is this how can this how can this scenario or situation or life circumstance or or event actually be good for me how can this help me how can this help me right here right now how can this help me how can this enhance my life even if it's heavy crappy I hate driving even if it's that even if it's intense emotionally major separation from the family or the dog dies or you name it let me just tell you I've probably been through it already that's not something you need to find strength in the point is is when the circumstances or situations show up and arise for you it's how you engage or relate to that it's not about how you react and I think a lot of people that says well it's all about how you react you can control how you react well how about we stop controlling things and just show up and be real and authentic with things as things are unfolding and say what is the circumstances or situation what does it got for me because it's got something it might be to clear your stress so you can get angry and blow up and let off some steam that might be the purpose of that bad driver or that crappy situation or the motion sick might be the experience to slow your body down and feel the body my body is such an oracle it's been my journey so all the stuff that happened to my body and the way my body physically reacted gave me information about myself the more sensitive I am it doesn't mean I'm weak or vulnerable it means I am authentic and I'm going to honor the authenticity that my body is brave enough to express and share with me and that is my driving journey that is mine what is your you know plenty of opportunities my friend trust I knew that sending you so much love from a little bit of a dreary Washington today but it's Malo here and I kind of I really fit the vibe let me tell you I fit the vibe pretty well so have a good day thanks for watching


Hi friends, welcome to today's vlog where I'm going to take you to a full day of clinic with me as an internal medicine doctor. Let's get started. Today starts bright and early at 5am and I grab my daily attire. Wait. Are those pajamas? Yep, definitely pajamas. More on that later though. First, it's time to shower which I always say will be quick but sure enough always takes me at least 10 to 20 minutes. Next I finish the rest of my get up and since I'm losing my hair it takes all about 5 minutes and yes I did put on those pajamas but again more on those later I promise. Now it's 5.30 and I'm finally done getting ready so it's time for my favorite part of the day. Coffee. To be quite honest the caffeine stopped working a long time ago but a nice warm cup of joe just perfect. And just to give it a little bit of oomph need to add a little bit of cream, well maybe a little bit more. Now it's time to get to work and it's almost 6am. Now let's get back to those pajamas. Yes I promise this is still a clinic vlog but today is a half day. Now here's how clinic works. My current schedule is very hospital inpatient heavy. That means every 4 weeks I'm doing some kind of rotation in the hospital. In fact I just finished 4 weeks in the medical ICU. That was so much fun. Sarcasm. But after every 4th week or my 5th week I am on clinic week which means I get to take care of my own patients at a nearby hospital. Now clinic week is nice. Like real nice. Because the days don't start at 5.30 like the ICU. Nope. Clinic starts at 9am. So not only can I possibly get an extra 2-3 hours of sleep the other nice part is I get a few half days per week. These half days are meant for me to catch up on my adult kind of responsibilities including clinic duties, studying, scheduling appointments, I'm pretty sure my car has been needing oil for months now.  Just kidding. But today is sure enough one of those half days. And I'll be starting clinic in the afternoon which means I can wear my pajamas right now. Every single day. It can't be nothing here. Now I definitely take advantage of the extra sleep but there are definitely days like today where I enjoy waking up early and working on my side projects like the YouTube channel as well as the Metalete Academy. Shameless book. So in addition to being able to use these extra hours to just kind of do things for myself I get to also spend time with my wife, enjoy a nice breakfast, hang out with my puppy, play some Xbox but now it's finally time to get ready for clinic. So first I have to obviously give my attire a right so that means I can say goodbye to these pajamas and hello to these medical pajamas. And just to make the attire a little bit more complete we have to make sure we had that best. Alright now we're looking good. So finally time to say goodbye to the wife who doesn't want to be on camera today but also say goodbye to the puppy. Aww he's so cute. And time to go. Now the nice thing about my drive to my clinic site is that it's about 30 to 40 minutes away which seems terrible but I love to use it to listen to my next favorite audiobook. Currently I'm using Scribe which I'll link down below and I'm averaging about two to three books read per week. Now it's a little bit before 1pm and I've finally made it to clinic. Now the first thing I do when I come to clinic is I try to figure out how many patients I have to see. Today is a Friday which means it is typically very light but most days I see about four patients each half day plus some telephone calls in the setting of COVID. But today I have just two in-person visits as well as some televisits I need to catch up on some notes from the past week which honestly is not bad at all. Today I think I'm in luck and I only have two patients to see in person as well as some telecalls. Because I'm such an efficient beast the first thing I do is pre-write my notes because you know that's what experienced doctors do and I've been doing this for a whole year and a half that's a long time. Just kidding actually just hate being slow. So I go ahead and start pre-writing my notes I usually find the note from the last encounter using my template for my current visit. This way I know what to follow up on I already have a plan for each of my patients for that day. Then I quickly look at any other notes since my last visit with them. Some patients have to be admitted to the hospital or have ED visits and so it's nice for me to remember to ask about those during our visit. And for most of my patients they seem to have a lot going on within the last three to six months and others don't actually see another doctor except me which makes me a little nervous. But finally I remind myself what medications they're taking as well as if they need updates on their vaccinations including flu, COVID, tetanus, COVID, get vaccinated and finally I'm ready. Now usually a tech will let me know when my patient is here and I'll go up to the lobby to grab them and obviously for this video I can't show you my patient encounters. So let's fast forward to where I get back to being by myself. Most of my visits are 20 to 30 minutes and the first visit actually took me a lot longer because unfortunately I had to send my patient to the emergency room. So as you can imagine that is not a quick visit by any means I have to call the ED in the hospital to let them know that this patient is coming from my clinic and also making sure that all of the workup that is ordered for the next time they see me is also in place. But usually these visits take me to either 30 minutes and finally takes me about five to ten minutes to go ahead and finish up their note because again I'm a freaking beast and I've already pre-wrote it. And as my day is getting closer to being done I can't forget the tele-visit. Now these are really fun because well no one likes wasting time on the phone. Well sometimes my 85 year old females like their inner grandma out but these go kind of long. But most of my calls are quick and focused on their few problems that the patient really cares about. So I can put in my orders, type in my note as I'm talking to them and then I'm done. Now keep in mind that for each of these patients I'm running them by and attending in the clinic. Why?  Which is super helpful and oh look at the time it's already 4pm and I'm an efficient beast that means I'm done with my notes and my patience so it's time to go home. You had it out? Alright I'm covered. Now instead of 30 to 40 minutes it actually takes me an hour to get home well because well that was traffic. But hopefully you guys enjoyed this vlog and this day of clinic. Time to go home and change back to my well other pajamas. I'll see you guys in the next one my friends. Oh and before you forget like and subscribe. Love you guys. See you guys in the next one. Peace.


In this video, I'm going to show you how you can get more views on YouTube by using TubeBuddy's A.B. split testing tool to drive more clicks through on your thumbnails, your titles, and descriptions, and so on. So this is really a great little tool that's pretty simple to use. Just need to follow these few steps that I'm going to outline in this video. So let's have a look at where you can find this if you come over into YouTube Studio. This is one of these tools that you can access it from YouTube Studio from up here. Although the actual tool itself lives on the web. So come down here, you've got the extension tools, and then you've got website tools. So down in this website tool section, we've got a whole series of tools that you've got in here. And it is this one here, A.B. tests. So this is where you're going to run your split testing, A.B. tests because you're comparing A to B. That's the idea behind it. So if I come over to my browser now, this is where we can start creating tests. And by the way, I should just mention, I do feel that all of this stuff that I talk about is technically easy. It's just a case of learning the steps. So I had a comment recently on someone said, if it's easy, I wouldn't be watching a tutorial. I disagree with that. I think that the whole point of tutorials is to simplify the process and show you the easy steps that you need to take. So hopefully there is nothing in here that's going to be overly complicated. It's just a case of you may not know how to use it. So just wanted to address that little comment though, because I think that everything can seem difficult if you don't have to do it. But once you're shown, hopefully it can become quite easy to do. So this is one of those things where they have simplified, to my mind, the process of actually carrying out split tests. And so if I come to the top here, we've gone into the A.B. testing area, just click on here to create A.B. test. And once you click on that, it will take you through to this page. And it will bring up your most recent uploads as a default. So you've got there your six most recent uploads. But equally, you can actually search for a specific video as well. So you can either search by name or you can drop the video ID in or whatever you want to do like that to actually find the specific video that you want to run a test on. For the purposes of this demonstration, I'm just going to literally click the first one there. Next, you've got the choice of these two options. And this is for a thumbnail CTR test. So checking the click-through rate of a specific thumbnail. And as it says, focus on improving click-through rates with a better thumbnail does not affect video ranking or discoverability. So that is basically just changing the thumbnail. But it's not going to change anything in terms of the search or anything like that. But this one here, meta data test, this is going to give you a few more different options basically. It allows you to change the thumbnail, but you can also change the title, description and tags as well. Now that is going to have an impact on the discoverability of the video. Because it's going to basically re-index. So it actually says here, there's a little warning sign. Changes to your title, description or tags will cause your video to temporarily drop out of search results while you usually re-index it and can be detrimental to high-performing videos. This does not happen with thumbnail tests. So that's just something to bear in mind. One of them, they're just switching out the thumbnail, but this one is going to change in terms of how it's been found in search and stuff like that. So just bear that in mind.  This will have some sort of effect. It can go both ways though. It can improve that discoverability as well. But that is working at the, you know, the YouTube metadata level, whereas this one is literally just testing, you know, people's, how people experience it and find it and whether they click on it. That will feed back into the YouTube algorithm though, eventually obviously because YouTube bases, you know, impressions based on how people react and click on it. So it just kind of feed in, but it's just a little caveat that is to bear in mind.  Just change one thing at a time because you may well change the thumbnail and have a negative impact, but you've changed your title and it's really had a positive impact, but they've canceled each other out. So you won't really know anything that actually happened with it. So definitely try and test one thing at a time. But I'm just going to click on this one for the time being, click on the thumbnail. You've got here the option to set the number of days that you want to run a test for. The default is 14 days. You can run it for as long as you want. It does depend a little bit from a sort of statistical point of view. You want to make sure you give it enough time to run. You know, don't run it for a day if you've got a video that averages two views a day because you're not going to have a statistical significance. But if you have got a lot of views on your channels or it's a high performing ad, then you could consider potentially reducing that if it was going to give you enough data. But that is the default anyway, 14 days, and that's just what I've left mine at. You can also, though, choose this option to run until click through rate is statistically significant. So that's basically giving you a way around that where you just actually let it run and then it will tell you when it's got enough data to draw some conclusion. So that is the other option there. Let's just assume we'll go for this one, though. And then if I click on continue, it's going to prompt me to then upload my new thumbnail. So this is the original thumbnail, and then I'm going to just add in my new thumbnail here and click on start test. And that is it. Once you've done that, the test is running. I'm not going to actually do this right now, but that is the test would be running. And here are some that I've previously run. So here is an example of a particular split test. If I click in here, then this will show you what you see as a result. Now, this one has already completed. So we've got this big green box saying the test is complete. This is what I mean by ease of use. It's just basically telling you that the test is complete. And by the way, those first four steps to upload it, although we're going to drill down into the stats here, let me just come back to the results page because here are some other tests that I've run. It does just tell you here, look, this is the original. The original was 8.8, sorry, 10.82% click through rate. The variation was 11.37. I've mentioned this on other videos, but just bear in mind that when comparing these things, don't look at the actual difference between these in terms of, okay, from 10.8 to 11.3 is only 0.5% of a percent. It's not really that much, is it? It's easy to think that, but actually what you want to look at is the relative change. So what is the change as a percentage of the first one? So in the actual fact, the variation click through rate was 5.1% higher. So that means for every 100 impressions, an extra five people are clicking on your video. So these do actually make a real tangible difference to the number of views that you're getting on your YouTube video. So definitely something to take note of and definitely come and have a look down here where it's going to tell you the actual change in the uptick basically or down tick in viewers. And I've had some of those, so I'm going to come on to that in a moment as well. But you can see how, yeah, it just tells you this is the name of the video, this is the test date when it was completed, and then also the results. So it will say it's complete and either the variation is the one that needs to be set or the original. If you just do click into one of these though, then you'll see the results. You got a few more results in here. So you can drill down into more detail if that's what you want. So you can see that the original, these are the click through rates that were quoted on that first page over there. But then also you can see the actual number of impressions and the physical number of clicks. And then here you've got the watch time as well. So interesting to note that you've got one thing which is how many people actually click on it, but then seeing the difference in the average watch time between the thumbnails is interesting too. I mean, that might give you an indication of if your thumbnail is giving a good indication of the content of the video, because if people are coming to your video and you're getting loads of click-throughs, but then they're just leaving the video really quickly because they haven't got what they were expecting, then that gives you some feedback as well. So there is space to sort of drill down into these a little bit further in terms of the detail. Now we've got the number of daily impressions and we've got the daily clicks as well just in graph form and the same here with the total views and duration. So you've got some different graphs there. So that is basically the summary you get as the test is going on. It'll take a couple of days before it starts giving you some results. And so it may just say, you know, not enough information when you first start running it. But after a couple of days, you'll start to actually see here and you can actually come in and have a look at how it's performing as the test goes on. And you can see here, based on the total number of impressions and clicks, we are 90% sure that your variation will perform better than the original. This is not yet considered statistically significant. 95% level is required. So this one, in fact, it should really have run for a little bit longer. So this would be a case where this one had a low number of views and so it'd be worth having it to run for a longer time to be statistically significant. If I just come out of this one though, you can have a little look at some of these others. And one thing I want to point out is, I mean, this was an example of where I was changing up the general style of my thumbnails. So this was kind of like the style that I'd had since I started my channel. And then I wanted to just refresh them a little bit. It's not a major change, obviously.  But it was just changing the style a little bit. So it worked for that one. However, it doesn't mean to say that it's going to work for everyone. And I changed a few things here. I changed the style, but also the text. So that's something where, you know, changing a couple of things at one time. I did keep the same picture, but yeah, that is a case of the variation was actually performed worse than the original. Same with this one, same with this one, same with this one. So in this case, although I felt like the thumbnails looked more pretty, not me, but the actual style of the thumbnail looked more pretty and, you know, was a bit more well designed. I felt it didn't actually lead to a higher click through rate in a lot of these cases. In this one it did, in this one it did, in this one it didn't, and this one it didn't. So just because something works for one as well doesn't mean like test it on one or two and then just blanket it across, you know, all of your content. It's definitely worth going through this process of trying it out. And I mean, in fact, if you were going to just apply this to all of your thumbnails anyway, for example, or to a batch of them, still go through and create them, but just run them all as split tests. And then once the split test has finished, you can just, it will just tell you, you know, do you want to assign this new thumbnail in place of the old one, you click the button and TubeBuddy will do it for you. So it's a really valuable tool for being able to click through, sorry, improving the click through rate, I should say, and get people onto your videos. And one of the things that I found interesting about that was that point about the retention once people are on the videos, you know, to see actually, once they click through on your thumbnail, how long are they actually staying on your video for? And that is the other, you know, crucial part of sort of growing your channel and driving views is getting people onto them, getting people to stay on them, and then getting people, presumably, also hopefully to stay till the end so that they click through onto some other thing. But that thing about the retention analysis is another key part. And there's a retention analysis tool in TubeBuddy which I'll be talking about in the next video. So I'll see you in that video.


Hi, please introduce yourself. Okay, I'm Oliver from Berlin, Germany, from Berliner Sensor Technik. And we have developed and produced a full Internet of Things. So where does it go there? What is it used for? It is used to monitor the wastewater at Deutsche Bahn high-speed trains. So, waste from the toilets and stuff like that? Yes. And what is the monitor with it? So, it's pumped from the tanks and this pumping can sometimes fail. So there can be a problem with the pumps. And the flow of the wastewater is monitored by this device. And if there's something wrong, then it will automatically be diagnosed and sent wirelessly by LTEM with 4G. What is the monitor in there? What does it check for? It checks for flow. So whether it is a proper disposal or not. And the challenge in this case is that it's not simply a yes or no question. It's a question for a pattern recognition system because sometimes the flow goes slower and sometimes it's stuck and sometimes it's not stuck. And that is a difficult decision. And where is your sensor? The sensor is inside in this case. So it has a probe which you can see here. It's a little hole in a protected corner so it will not be hurt by the water. And it's reliable? It's mass production? It's already used? Not mass production but production. So there are 40 of them in use for over a year, 24-7. So they are permanently in use. And they have a battery life of more than 3 months. So with one battery charge it works for quite a long time. And it has a permanent connection to the wire. Is it possible to make smaller ones for vans and buses and stuff or is it best to use it in train? We could consider that. But there is a special challenge with the trains because the trains have a lot of trains and there are a lot of pumping stations. So currently there is not much transparency. So it's difficult to figure out whether they are working or not. With smaller units it's easier. And we hear the Zephyr booth. Is it running Zephyr? Yes. So what is the chip in there? There is Nordic NOF 916 which is a beautiful arm chip which works with integrated LTE-EM and NB-IoT. So it's integrated wireless in one chip, in a single chip. Other units have dual chips but it works in a single unit. And it's all operated by a real-time operating system. What's the advantage of using Zephyr? We have several sensors working in parallel. And they have to work at the same time more or less. So we have an NFC reader which is here. So it can detect the number of the sensor and the number of the tank and the train. Because if there is something wrong with the train then it has to know which train and which tank. And that's detected by the NFC sensor. And it has this wireless connection with the LTE. That's the second part of this multitasking system. And you have the sensor of course. You have an accelerometer. So several units at the same time. How long is the battery? Is it connected all the time? It's connected all the time. But still it works for more than three months. So we are planning to have a run time of 12 months. But right now it's three months. So it keeps charging or there's a battery? When the battery is empty it's replaced. And it's charged at another place. Because this has to be shockproof and waterproof. And it has to be permanently used. So we cannot dismount it in order to charge it. Are there other people doing stuff like this? Or is it very special? No, it's very new. So it's brand new. There's nothing like it. Because generally you have flow meters. And the flow meters detect the flow of liquid. But that's the kind of thing. That's the kind of signals that are sent by the senders. And normally flow meters they have to do with liquid. But this is wastewater. So it's very hard to tell whether the pumping process has completed or not. All right. Cool. And so it's a great show for you. And you're doing presentations. Yes, we are at the Embedded World Conference as well. And Jonas from Phytec and I, we have had a class today about Zephyr. And about pattern recognition. Which was quite popular. So a lot of people were there. It was great interest. And we really enjoyed it. The chip has AI? The chip has... We have a special pattern recognition. It's all built in software. So it's our own software. We do not have a standard toolkit taken from others. It's something that we built ourselves. So it's unique. You don't need to use one of these neural network accelerators? No. It would not be reliable enough for our case. Because it's not tolerable to have wrong judgments. It has to be a very strict rules according to the customer from Deutsche Bahn. So they have a very strict decision of what is detected and how. And this works according to their specifications. Cool. Thanks a lot. Thanks a lot.


فشرف بل اشتغالي بالعلم ولا تبغي به ما عشت يا بدا بدا وياله من شراف عظيم الحمد لله رب العالمين له الحمد الحسن والثناء الجميل واشدوا الله إلا الله وحده لا شريك له يقول الحق وهو يهدي السبيل واشدوا النسيدنا والنبينا محمد صلى الله عليه وعلى آله وأصحابه والتابعين لهم بيحسانين إلى يوم الدين أما بعد نحن في المساعدة من الملهج الحق رتن باي الشيخ العلمة عبد الرحمن ابن ناصر السعديو ويقول هذا الملهج يقوم with اسم منظومة it's lines of poetry that deal with العقيدة انا الخلاق it deals with كريدو ماتس and also etiquettes and manners in our last lesson we stopped at the twelfth line إن شاء الله تعالى we're going to be إدن الله الكريم carry on from there some هو الحي والقيوم ظل جودي والغينا كل صفات الحمد لله تسندو أحاط بكل الخلق علما وقدرة وبرا وإحسان فإياه نعبدو هو الحي ever living والقيوم sustainer of all إنفنائلي generous free of all needs and all praiseworthy traits are ascribed to him he encompasses all creation by his knowledge and power and kindness and favor and thus he's the only one we worship so the author says هو الحي والقيوم the word الحي it means the one who has complete life الليدي له الحياة الكاملة الله has complete life and what that means is that لم تسبق عدم there was never a time he wasn't alive ولا يلحقها فناء and there is never going to come a time when he's not alive so that's why it's complete also he's living ولا يعطريها نقصن never deficiency does it come to it because the human being he's living even though we didn't have it before of course we're not going to be having it forever but whilst we also have it sometimes deficiency occurs to it الله doesn't have it it's at its complete form so that's what it means الحي the second one is القيوم القيوم means القائم بنفسي the one who stands for his own affairs he doesn't really need anyone to help him المقيم اللي خلقه also he stands for the affairs of his creation so this also entails the word قيوم it entails and it means that الله سبحانه وتعالى he doesn't need anyone and he also has complete ability سبحانه وتعالى and these two names الحي and القيوم they both come in the Quran in many places from the verses that have mentioned these two characteristics is the greatest ayah in the Quran آية الكرسي and these two names is said as ابن القيوم رحمه الله mentions in his كتاب زاد المعاد في هدي خير العباد that these two names all of the names of Allah come back to it these two names الحي and القيوم all the names go back to these two names because Allah's characteristics are of two types صفات which are ذاتية and صفات which are فعالية صفات ذاتية we mention on many different occasions صفات ذاتية are characteristics that are not connected to Allah's will meaning Allah is never detached from these characteristics he's always of these characteristics and that is الحي because every other characteristics that Allah has for example knowledge for example seeing all of those can't happen if Allah is not alive that's why it goes back to that characteristics it goes back to characteristics of الحي and صفات the second type is صفات which are صفات فعالية characteristics that are connected to Allah's will in other words Allah does it when he wishes and he leaves off it when he wishes سبحانه وتعالى and that it goes back to the characteristics القيوم because every characteristic Allah does he's doing it because he has complete what ability and he also is rich from his creation he doesn't need them he's of no need of them سبحانه وتعالى and that's why he says فإن صفة الحياة متضمنة لجميع صفات الكمال مستلزمة لها وصفة القيومية متضمنة لجميع الصفات الأفعال ولهذا كان اسم الله الأعظم الذي إلى دعي به أجاب وإذا سؤال به أعطا هو اسم الحي القيوم وذلك ابن القيم says that it is the two names that if a slave asks Allah and begs Allah on these two characteristics الله will give that slave what he asks for it's what's known as اسم الله العظم اسم الله العظم is what الحي القيوم so if a person uses these two names then and he asks Allah he will get what he asks for then the author said after that ذو الجودي ذو الجودي ذو of course means صاحب the possessor the one who possesses الجود and جود means الإنعام والإكرام والتفضل والإحسان it is the one who bestows generosity he bestows virtue سبحانه وتعالى and Allah as we know he's أجود الأجودين he's the most generous one الأكرم والأكرمين سبحانه وتعالى الله's generosity and his kindness towards his creation is something that the slaves can never be able to put a figure to it that's why Allah says in the Qur'an وإن تعدوا نعمة الله لا تحسوها if you sit down and you try to put a figure to the blessings of Allah upon you you will never be able to it's too much and it's too large in amount in another ayah Allah says that there is no blessing which you have except it's from Allah سبحانه وتعالى so the person has to realize that everything he has is from him سبحانه وتعالى and it's this brothers and sisters that when a person comes to understand this and he comes to realize this he will stop complaining because some of the salaf they would lose loved ones and they would lose somebody in which they admired but guess what they would respond by saying they would say oh Allah you gave it to me in the first place and you took what was yours you gave me you have given me this in the first place and you took what was yours that's how they saw it but what we see it as is this is ours it was ours and it was taken from us this is why we're we're regretting a lot this is why we're complaining and we're wailing وردالك عروة من الزبير عروة من الزبير when he lost his child after he went to Sham and he lost his because cancer happened to him so they amputated his blood and when he finished the prayer they told him that he's son they told him that he lost one of his children what did he say and what did he say to Allah he said to Allah oh Allah you gave me four limbs and you took one oh Allah you gave me four children and you took one from you it came and to you it returned back so that's why الشعار feeling this concept which is that Allah is the one who gave you everything وما بكم من نعمة from Allah that every blessing that you have everything that you have is from Allah SWT and this is the sad thing because a lot of the times when blessing are spoken about a lot of the time people actually assume and they think to themselves it's only worldly related matters and that isn't the case Allah SWT blessings are there are bigger blessings that he has given you and that is Islam that is the greatest blessing a person can be given and that is why Allah refer to it as a blessing اليوم أكملت لكم دينكم وأتممت عليكم نعمتي وراضيت لكم الإسلام دينا اليوم today I have completed your religion for you اليوم أكملت لكم دينكم وأتممت عليكم نعمتي and I have completed my blessings onto you as well وراضيت لكم الإسلام دينا and I have become pleased for Islam to be your religion so what this shows us is that إسلام is what إسلام is a blessing from who from Allah SWT وتعالى and it's from the greatest blessing that we have what we see is that what we see is that أبو طالب who is the prophet صلى الله عليه وسلم's uncle who helped the prophet who supported the prophet مع ذلك he didn't have the blessing that Allah has given you look what he said in his lines the poetry he says أن دين محمد خير البرية دينا لو للملامة أو حدارة مسبة لو جدتني بذلك سمح مبينة سمح لأي تهسر he said that I have realised and I have come to the understanding that محمد's religion is the best of all religions and he said if it wasn't for the blame of my tribe and also me having to say something about my forefathers لو جدتني you would have all found me سمح بذلك مبينة I would have taken what محمد has come with and I would have accepted it so you can see the fact that أبو طالب wasn't blessed enough to be given to Islam the same is with who the same applies with نبي الله إبراهيم صفادة وإذ قال إبراهيم لأبيه أزرأ تتخذ أسلاماً آلها إني أراك وقومك في البلال مبين أولاً فر again على وك ماك أم finds you are أنا أبراهيم عليه الصلاة والس Gran 28 وقد اسمح أعط bersar أن يأتي today what what is right from what's wrong and i promise to submit i promise to surrender i promise to take it so ibrahim turns to allah سبحانه وتعالى and he says to allah يا الله يا ربي my lord اينك وعطني you made a promise for me the promise that you made for me was what الله سبحانه وتعالى او الله لا تقزيني يوم يبعطون oh الله don't humiliate me the day of resurrection so everybody asked Allah يا ربي you promise me that you're not going to humiliate me الله فى الله ياربراهيم يا ابراهيم this is a creed this is something Allah has destined that I disbelieve will not enter ثم يذهب إلى تقول غينا. غينا هنا يعني الله تبارك وتعالى انه رائع. غينا يعني انه رائع. لا يحتاج أي شخص. الله لا يحتاج أي شخص. لكنهم يحتاجه. كما الله يقول في القرآن يا أيها الناس انتم الفقراء إلى الله والله هو الغلي يلحميد. هل تبارك وتعالى والله هو الغلي يلحميد. وَلَنْ تَبُلُّوا نَفْعِي فَتَنْ فَعُونِيْ. My slaves, you cannot reach a point where you can harm me by singing and going against my command. And you also can't obey Allah so much that you're benefiting him, that he gets benefits from it. In essence and in truth, the one you're doing a favor for by praying and fasting and going Hajj and following his command. الله تبارك وتعالى. The person you're doing a favor for is yourself. No one else. You're really saving your flesh, your bones from the hellfire. So keep that in mind. Allah does not need you in any way, form or shape. سبحانه وتعالى. Then the author said after that وكل صفات الحمد لله تسندو. وكل صفات every characteristics of praise لله تسندو it is attributed back to him سبحانه وتعالى. The word تسندو means it's attributed to him. It's attributed to him سبحانه وتعالى. Every characteristics that shows praise is brought back to him سبحانه وتعالى. So we say praise is to him سبحانه وتعالى على نعمه ومننه. Praise is to Allah for his blessings and his virtues وفضاله وعطايا. And that which he has given us. فلهو الحمد كله all of praises for him. رب العالمين are the Lord of the universe. Then the author said after that احاط بكل الخلق علما وقدرة. احاط بكل الخلق. The whole of the creation الله تبارك وتعالى is encompassed with knowledge. الله سبحانه وتعالى لا يعزوبه وعنه مثقالا ذرة في السموات ولا في الأرض. A mustard seed of something could not be hidden from him سبحانه وتعالى. Guess what? Allah can see and Allah knows and is aware of دبي من نملة السوداء في صخرة الصماء في ليلة الظالماء The footprints of an ant in a pitch black dark night under a rock. He can see that and he knows it. Nothing is hidden from him سبحانه وتعالى. As we always say يعلم ما كان الله knows what was وما سيكون and that which is going to be وما لم يكن لو كان كيف يكون And he also knows that which hasn't happened. If it was to happen How it would have happened. It hasn't happened. But if it was to happen he knows how it would have happened. As Allah said in the Quran بل بدأ لهما كانوا يغفون من قبل لعادوا ليما نهو عنه وإنهم لكاد يبون الله says the day of judgment it becomes clear to them. Clear to who? It becomes clear to the disbelievers the sins and the crimes that they have come with. Allah then says because they start crying يا ربي or our Lord the disbelievers and the criminals. They say oh Allah take us back to the world and what are you going to do? We're going to become righteous. We're going to follow your command. We're going to do as you tell us. That's what they say right? Then Allah says look وَلَو رُدُوا if they were to be taken back to the universe if they were to be taken back to the world they would have done what? لعادوا ليما نهو عنه They would have gone exactly to that which they were stopped from. They would do exactly where they left off from. صح?  Allah knows which of those is going to take a lesson which of those is going to come back which of those وليله المثل العالى are you with me? so Allah's knowledge سبحانه وتعالى is a knowledge that is beyond our comprehension وليالك ألمام ألمام الدهب he said something powerful he said now I think it was sincere that he said شكول إسلام إبن تيمير a hadith in which he does not know is a hadith which is weak the chances of it being a hadith إبن تيمير because he's لا عنه and his knowledge was so vast but then after he said something powerful إلا أن الإحاطة لله except to be able to encompass everything and have knowledge of everything هذا لله he held himself back because there's no one who can really say what I have encompassed something in knowledge Allah says in the Quran اللهم الذي خلق سبع سماوات ومن الأرض مثل هن يتنزل الأمر بين هن لتعلم أن الله على كل شيء أن الله قد أحاط بكل شيء الله is the one who encompassed knowledge in everything سبحانه وتعالى it was everything and our knowledge is very limited very very limited as Allah also said in another ayah سبحانه وتعالى وفوق كل دي علمين عالين everyone who has knowledge the most knowledgeable one is about them they're still they're still more talent they're still more talent then the author said after that وقدرة قدرة نهية means what Allah also encompassed ability that's for him he's able to do everything سبحانه وتعالى أيدان now some atheists and agnostics or whatever the argument always is can God create a rock which he can't lift or can God create another garden صح we as Muslims always need to remember this concept which is Allah's actions but Allah's ability is always is always accompanied Allah's ability is always accompanied with wisdom Allah doesn't just do something because he's able to rather that's a deficiency for other creator are you there are you with me brothers if somebody comes up to you and says to your brother head back to the wall and you know some how you can't head them and you can do something to the wall and you do do it are people going to laugh at you are you there brothers are people going to laugh at you and say look you've just thought of the side of your what the ability are you there you've only looked at what ability that's why Allah's actions are not stripped from wisdom so he does things with wisdom so when they ask you this question are you with me when they ask you this question can God make a rock that he can't lift or can God create another God and et cetera you'll say to them we don't believe Allah's ability is all that he does things with we believe everything he does he does it with what he does it with knowledge and wisdom so what wisdom lies in him having to create a rock which he can't lift you tell me the wisdom and then we'll say then he can or then we'll we'll progress in our discussion does that make sense brothers that's why it is important so Allah says in the same ayah that we read before in Surah 2 الطلاق اللهم الذي خالق سمع سماوات ومن الأرض مثلهم يتنزلوا الأمر بينهم لتعلموا أن الله that Allah is great على كل شيء كدير الله has ability everything is that it وأن الله قد أحط بكل شيء so look at what he's been said here ability has been used and also has been used knowledge so it's those two together it is ability and knowledge he does things with are you there we might do something because we're able to but remember that could be that same thing that we've done could be our destruction because we don't really know the outcome of this action that we're going to do we don't have that knowledge our knowledge is limited are you with me brothers now ابن عبس الله تعالى who brought a very powerful point which is and this is the exact problem that we have with atheists and a lot of people who are a lot of people who are Muslims but they've they've indulged too much into this philosophical arguments and they've also indulged too much into rationality and whatnot forgetting that they should go back to the sources the Kitab and the Sunnah it is that they still haven't understood that their knowledge is limited are you with me that their knowledge is what limited that their brain is limited and what you can see and what it knows just like ابن عبس الله تعالى he said that the eyesight of the person it's limited how far you can see can't really see beyond a limit it just you can't see somebody asked you to tell me somebody who's that tricking him station right now you would say I don't know because your seeing is limited ask the same way when it comes to your your brain are you with me when it comes to the poet said that one day the mind and knowledge they met each other the mind and knowledge came and they met each other they had a conversation the mind said to the knowledge I'm better than you it's through me you recognize الله then the mind the mind said that through me you recognize what Allah is the knowledge when it put his head down he lifted his head up and he said to the knowledge I'm the one who Allah سبحانه وتعالى ascribed to himself you know Allah never calls himself عقل he always calls himself عالم knowledge knowledgeable one when knowledge has said that he realized what when knowledge said that when did he realize that knowledge is more stronger than him and that the truth the matter is knowledge so when did عقل do he he kissed the head of knowledge and they both went together they left the argument aside the point is that it is knowledge brothers not just عقل مجردن it's not عقل مجردن لذلك ابن تيمي when he refuted فخردين الرازي وفخردين الر فخردين الرازي شيخ ولسام تيمي قيدا فخردين الرازي his argument was that when the Quran and logic they both oppose one another after he went through levels the final one is that he said that عقل should be taken عقل should be given president it's because through the عقل you actually knew the Quran you came to it if you strip the عقل then you're standing only with Quran which how do you come to this in the first place are you there so he goes if they contradict or if they oppose one another the عقل should be given president over the عقل the text شيخ ولسام تيمي he refuted him in a very rational manner he said if two people so if a person wanted to go to a doctor or so a person was ill at an eye problem or something and he said to the doctor so he said to the person do you know anyone who's who can kill me from this problem or do you know a specialist in this field so the person says to him yeah I do I know somebody let me take you to him so a person grabs you by the hand he takes you to the doctor now you're in front of the doctor and also in front of you the one who brought you the doctor then tells you okay he scans you looks at your eye sees what the problem is and then he prescribes medication for you the one who brought you says listen don't listen to the doctor listen to me I'm the one who brought you here I'm the one who brought you here listen to me I'll tell you what's right don't listen to the doctor he's wrong would you do that are you with me no you wouldn't you've done your part that's what you knew this guy probably doesn't know the difference between the eye and the nose but you know where the doctor was are you with me brothers so شيخ وليسام تايمي a response like that so the point is brothers Allah's actions are not just ability alone it's based on wisdom Allah does things with wisdom sometimes those are apparent to us and we recognize them when we know them and sometimes we don't know them but because we don't know them it doesn't mean he did it with that with no wisdom are you with me brothers so when you respond to that question make sure that that's the answer that you you respond with وبرن وإحسانا also Allah تعالى he says وبرن وإحسانا الله تعالى وبرن وإحسان means virtual and out of good جنرسة and kindness of him سبحانه وتعالى is the one who is bestowed his blessings and his virtue upon his slaves فإياه نعبود only him we worship Allah has encompassed knowledge of his creation and ability over them and he also سبحانه وتعالى is the one who has virtue and generosity and kindness over his creation because of that فإياه نعبود we worship him alone و لذلك الله says نقران و يعبدون من دون الله ما لا يضرهم ولا يفعهم الله says besides Allah that which can't harm them and that which can't benefit them are you with me? the truth of the matter is that Allah can harm you and he can't benefit you this is the things are you with me? Allah can harm you and he can benefit you how can he harm you by destroying you by withholding the blessings that he gave you if only Allah سبحانه وتعالى سبحانه وتعالى طرف التعاين يحو اللي فيه سيكون أنت really are under his control your whole body the way it functions it's under his control it's going according to how he wants it سبحانه وتعالى the minute Allah تبارك وتعالى he dismisses you الله تبارك وتعالى forsakes you you are truly in a state of destruction you're in a state of what? destruction so because Allah is that because Allah controls our affairs it's because Allah تبارك وتعالى encompasses knowledge of everything because he has ability over everything we want we worship him alone أليس له حق does he not have the right to be worshipped alone then are you with me brothers he does he does deserve سبحانه وتعالى ولي ذلك that's why it doesn't ever make sense for the one who does all of that for you ولي ذلك الله تبارك وتعالى says to the Quraysh in many different places in the Qur'an that you guys are worshipping besides Allah and Allah then gives them a parable example he said what about a عبد مملك a slave which is owned by a master this master who owns this slave this slave doesn't serve his master he serves another master how would you feel would you allow your slave but you wouldn't a wife today would not allow her to share her husband she wouldn't like her husband you see but you would allow شرك إلا الله تبارك وتعالى مع ذلك نفع the benefit that you have from your husband is نفع which is قاصر very short when I say قاصر here I don't mean it's only to him alone but I mean قاصر it's deficient it's not complete the days he makes you happy and the days he makes you upset but you don't want to share him فما بالك بالله even at that moment he's still controlling your affairs سبحانه وتعالى فإياه نعمده he alone we should worship and we should not associate him with partners we should by default humiliate ourselves for him humble ourselves for him show him complete love show us show him what complete love he knows everything about us he knows سبحانه وتعالى he has ability over us ability in what he draws us or to bring us benefit so we should worship him alone that's why the author says إياه نعمده and of course he got it from the ayah which is إياك نعمده وإياك نستعين what does he mean إياك نعمده وإياك نستعين أي نعمدك we worship you Allah ولا نعمد غيرك and we don't worship anybody other than you that's what it means ونستعين بك we seek help from you سبحانه وتعالى and support ولا نستعين بغيرك and we don't seek help from anyone other than you and the reason why الله سبحانه وتعالى he mentions إبادة and إستعانة is because they are the two greatest sins that were that were done the opposite to إبادة is what كبر that's what and the opposite to إستعانة is what the opposite to إستعانة is sorry the opposite to إبادة he says إبر القيم says this is I mean but he means the opposite to إبادة he says is that it is كبر قناة and the opposite to إستعانة is حسد I think حسد which is that which the children of الله إبني آدم إبني آدم which is the first sin that the creation the children of آدم came with something like إبن القيم الله سبحانه وتعالى نعم


Echinacea, Purpura, Purple, Coneflower. These plants are native to North America. The Indians use them as a medicine. It's a common ornamental plant, people plant it because it makes it pretty flower. We've had drought conditions here lately, so mine are beginning to turn brown. We're in the middle of July here, or the end of July here in Missouri. I planted these Echinacea plants about six or eight years ago, at least. One thing I like about Echinacea is they keep coming back. You don't have to plant them every year as a perennial, so they come back and also propagate. They spread by seeds. As a result of these that I've planted here, every now and then I find Echinacea growing other parts of my yard. Take this one over here as a volunteer, Cone, Purple, Coneflower. There are several varieties of Echinacea. All of them that I know have medicinal value. You use the root for the medicine. It is an immune system herb. It supports the immune system. Echinacea is also a good plant at attracting bees, pollinators. It also attracts birds who like their seeds, so it attracts beneficial insects to your garden. The most useful part of the plant for herbal use is the root. The root has to be at least three or four years old to use it, so if you want to use Echinacea as a medicine, you better get it planted now because it has to grow for several years. You harvest the root in the fall and you dry the root. I don't have time here to go into all the uses of Echinacea because they are many. You can actually even use it externally for eczema psoriasis, but it is most widely known as an immune system herb. It supports the immune system. It doesn't have a strong antibiotic effect like garlic does. The way that it actually works is by making, it's an immune system modulator. It makes your immune system work more efficiently. There's been a lot of medical research proving this. I recommend that you look it up, find out what the many uses for Echinacea are. It is a beautiful plant. As you can see, it flowers over the entire, just about the entire summer and fall, so it is a great plant to grow in your yard. If you're going to grow plants in your yard, you might as well grow something that you can use as a medicine someday. You might need it. It is most commonly used to combat flu and colds. It's not recommended that you take Echinacea more than about two months continuously. It won't hurt you to do that, but the problem is they claim that it will lose its effectiveness if you use it continuously. I'd recommend you use it only for about two months. Use it when you need it, but if you start taking Echinacea root at the onset of a cold or flu, it helps your immune system to fight it off more quickly. All of the plant can be used, but the root is the part that is strongest in its herbal medicinal value. This is Survival Doc reminding you to be prepared or be prepared to be pleased.


My name is Thomas Kelly, I was in a college group effort to find lost media around my area, as some have been found here in the past. Our group found multiple things, a preschool movie about shapes and colors being friends, a commercial for a never launched restaurant chain, and lastly a VHS tape that disturbed us all. We will be going in depth for all of these. The first tape was titled, Color and Shapes, Friendship. It looked to be a 1998 3D animated film made to capitalize on Toy Story, it featured four splashes of paint with thing legs and arms. Red, unerigant but friendly beneath the surface by, green, a lid-back man, yellow, the protagonist, bright and overly friendly, and blue, a sad and pessimistic color. They meet the robot like shapes, square, triangle, circle, and octagon. The shapes need color, and in return the shapes would defeat the cursed color, who cursed all the colors to be erased. The movie had low quality, the animation was rather poor, it occasionally had behind the scenes footsteps, and conversations. The characters at some point would try to confront the cursed color, but when the camera is about to pan to this cursed color, it just gets stuck and keeps repeating the last 16 frames before it was about to pan over, which goes on for 15 minutes until the tape ends. We found it in a crate in our local warehouse. The crate was labeled, for destruction. The second tape was titled, Fisher's Seafood. It started with the robotic mascot, Fred Fisherman, waving at the camera, saying, Hello wonderful people, I am Fred Fisher, and welcome to my seafood shack. Here we sell fish, salad, drinks, and so much more. You can't play with friends in our playing area. We can't wait to see you here. The camera panned around the layout of the restaurant, but after a while, a fake figure can be seen entering a door, which glitches out the camera to high hell. The camera starts displaying a maintenance video on a scrapped mascot, Sebastian C Baron, as they are polishing the metal on the torso when they open up the chest. The chest is censored with a black square, but I could guess it was something disturbing as it freaks out the employees, one of them throwing up and another attempting to call a phone before the camera gets knocked to the ground and cuts off. The tape ends there. This one was found under the tile of a jack-in-the-box restaurant. The last tape was the most disturbing, it made us quit our expeditions for quite a long while, with one of us permanently leaving. It was dated, 1959. It starts in a still position facing a padded room, in color. There was somebody inside, a shaved man presumably in his 50s. He has cuts all over his back and while his legs aren't visible, he does walk strange. He keeps spitting out nonsense.   The subject stands still and gets the first injection, which makes his nose start bleeding. His eyes start fidgeting rapidly and he starts shaking until he falls down on the ground. After about a minute it all stops and he gets back up.  A technologically advanced for the time metal hat is strapped on him with wires attached to the ceiling. Then an electric pulse travels through the wire and into the hat, the subject shakes violently and his eyes are highlights with a red oily substance, definitely not blood. The camera begins cutting out again. When it returns, there are red cracks in the wall behind him. It starts breaking down, with a red glow consuming the man as the camera falls down and there is audible alarms. The camera returns one more time. There is another scientist yelling in pain before a brutal noise shuts him up and spills blood in frame. The camera is picked up and faced towards the subject, who is now disgustingly twisted.    It was found in the basement of an unknown structure. These are three examples are my reasons why most lost media needs to remain lost. Please stop looking for it, you might just find something you were never supposed to see. Sincerely, Thomas Kelly and his team.