Well, howdy, radiant and we wanna say hello to our extended family and those of us who are joining from your homes all over the place. Just something that I just thought was really cool is today when I came into the office and got ready to prepare for service, I had a card and in the card it was written by a family in Fort Wayne, Indiana that said that in March, when COVID kind of kicked in, they were recommended to watch a message and so they watched this message and started tracking with Radiant and they had been watching and a part of our prayer meetings and our services, even with their teenagers since that time and now they're about to start a watch party in their home in Fort Wayne, Indiana. So we just praise God for what he's doing. And so we wanna say hello to those in Fort Wayne and we wanna say to those in Portage and kind of all over the place, Radiant Tribe. Welcome and welcome to Thanksgiving weekend 2020. And we just wanna tell everybody that we love you and there's so much to be thankful for. I know that this year has been a exercise in flexibility but if we really step back, I know that this Thanksgiving for a lot of people is gonna look a lot different for a lot of us but I just wanna encourage us to really take some time even this week and really stop and reflect and intentionally give thanks to the Lord for the good things and for his goodness because God is really good all the time and he's worthy to be praised. And so we're praying for you, we're praying for your families, we're giving thanks for all of you and we're praying that even though things may look different, might not have as many family members with you this year, I'm praying for Thanksgiving Day miracle that the Detroit Lions will win actually on a Thanksgiving Day. So anyways, hey, if you would open your Bibles with me or turn them on and look at Acts chapter 11. I wanna bring a message to you this weekend called the Divine Reset. The Divine Reset. In Acts chapter 11, looking at verse number 19 through verse 26 says, and now those who were scattered because of the persecution that arose over Stephen traveled as far as Phoenicia and Cyprus in Antioch speaking the word to no one except Jews. But there were some of them, men of Cyprus and Cyrene who on coming to Antioch spoke to the Hellenists, that's Greeks, also preaching the Lord Jesus. And the hand of the Lord was with them and a great number who believed turned to the Lord. The report of this came to the ears of the church at Jerusalem and they sent Barnabas to Antioch. And when he came and he saw the grace of God, he was glad and he exhorted them all to remain faithful to the Lord with steadfast purpose. And he was a good man full of the Holy Spirit and of faith and a great many people were added to the Lord. And so Barnabas went to Tarsus to look for Saul and when he had found him, he brought him to Antioch for a whole year and they met with the church and taught a great many people. And in Antioch, the disciples were first called Christians. This particular chapter in the book of Acts, Acts is really the narrative of how the church began. It covers probably 20 to 30 years timeframe from Acts chapter one all the way to Acts chapter 28. And we focus so often about how the church began in Acts chapter two with the outpouring of the Holy Spirit, Pentecost, and Peter standing up and preaching one of the most powerful evangelistic messages even to this day, 3,000 people were added to the church and baptized. And so that's our birthdate as the church. It's also our celebration point of seeing what God wanted to do through this entity that he established called the church. But by the time we get to Acts chapter 11, we see the church not gathered, but we see the church now scattered. The church was scattered because of persecution. You see the church was becoming very, very powerful, very effective at proclaiming and preaching the gospel. Stephen was this young man who comes on the scene. He's a deacon in the church, which means he's serving. He's not literally, he's not one of the apostles. He's just an evangelist, but he's preaching with such conviction and with such power that many, many people are getting saved and miracles are taking place. And so the Jewish leaders are so threatened at what is taking place that they stone Stephen to actually kill him, murder him, murder him for preaching the gospel. And what we see happens right from there, Acts chapter eight, verse four says, now those who were scattered went about preaching the word. So the church gathered together, mostly in Jerusalem, primarily Jewish believers in Messiah, who now have recognized that Jesus is Messiah. They're gathering together, they're worshiping, there's this awe and wonder, there's prayers, there's teaching, there's all of these things that happen in the gathered church. But as soon as persecution breaks out, first because of Stephen's martyrdom, and now as we just read about, there's a persecution that begins to take place. Greater pressure is being applied to the church. Something happens when the church goes from being the church that is gathered to the church that is now scattered. They begin to go out into cities, communities, regions, and even different nations that they had not previously brought the gospel to. Now how many of you remember what Jesus said to the disciples in Acts chapter one, verse eight, just before his ascension into heaven? He said, you're going to receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you. You guys remember that? You shall receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you, and you will be what? Witnesses starting in Jerusalem, Judea, that's the region, Samaria, and to the uttermost parts of the world. Now, when the Holy Spirit was poured out, Peter stands up and he preaches a sermon, that's Jerusalem. The church was growing in Judea, but they hadn't yet brought the gospel to Samaria and they really weren't interested in going into the uttermost parts of the world because you know who was in the uttermost parts of the world, the unclean Gentiles, the Greeks, the dogs, the untouchables. And so even though Jesus had commanded them to go and to reach the lost everywhere throughout the whole world, preach the gospel to all creation. That's what it says in Mark 16, Matthew 24, going to all nations, make disciples of all nations. That word nations is ethnic group, ethnos, ethnic groups, not just Jewish, but go into the Gentile nations and make disciples of them. Even though Jesus had told the apostles to do this, they had not done it. And it took pressure of persecution to actually push them out into those regions. And even when they did that, it says that they preached primarily unto the Jewish people until, you look at verse number 20, it says that there were some of them. Men of Cyprus and Cyrene, Cyrene's Northern Africa, Cyprus is an island. It says on coming to Antioch, Antioch is in Syria. When they came to Antioch, they spoke to the Greeks. They spoke and they preached Jesus. They witnessed, they shared their faith, they preached about Jesus to the Greeks, which was very difficult. I mean, I don't even think we understand the grid that it took for them to do this for a couple of reasons because when you and I share our faith or we preach sermons, we do it in a cultural context where the gospel has penetrated almost every aspect of, at least in our context, American culture. Now, that doesn't mean everybody knows the gospel, but everybody kind of has a grid or at least a perception of the church. When the Jewish believers in Jesus were preaching in Israel only, they had people that they were preaching to who had an understanding of the Old Testament. The Old Testament was their sacred scriptures, their library of scriptures. So when Peter stands up and he preaches, he quotes the Old Testament because they have that same grid of understanding. When you go to Antioch and you preach to Greeks, they don't know what you're talking about. They're just like, what are you talking about? Are you talking about Apollo? Are you talking about Zeus? No, we're not talking about those gods. We're not talking about your pantheons of gods. We're talking about the creator of heaven and earth. No statues, no visible expression. We're talking about the God that is the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, the Jewish God. And they're just like, oh yeah, we're fine with you worshiping that. And they had to say to them, no, we're saying that the things that you've worshiped aren't really gods at all. And we're here to declare to you the one true God. Oh yeah, tell us about it. Well, he revealed himself to Abraham and ultimately came as a man, Jesus of Nazareth who lived a sinless perfect life and then went to the cross. It was crucified for the sins of the whole world. Why would he do that? That sounds counterproductive. Well, but on a third day, God raised him back to life again and he is now Lord of all and all who believe in that will have their sins forgiven. You know, the whole gospel, we don't have a clue at how foreign that message was and how much for these men from Cyrene and Cyprus, how they had to adapt what they knew as the truth, they had to adapt it in a way to present it to people who had no Old Testament, they had no grid, but yet here's what happened. Because the pressure of persecution was applied to the church and it pushed them out to go into living new communities, new cities, they were running, they're hiding, they're visiting family, they're moving all throughout the Roman Empire, they're following the roads in the Antioch, Syria, Rome, Spain, France, they're going into Northern Africa, they're going over into what's modern day erect, they're all over the place. When they go, something began to happen. It didn't happen fast, it wasn't explosive, there wasn't a plan, but it happened with just a few. A few began to look around their new surroundings and realize these are the people that Jesus not only died for, but he told us to go and to preach to them. And they began to preach and the gospel began to penetrate new frontiers in new ways. And many people began to believe on the Lord Jesus Christ that we're not Jewish. So now we've got Gentiles coming into the church. Most of us who are listening to this message do not have much, if any, Jewishness in us. I did that ancestry.com and it came back surprisingly 3% Ashkenazi Jew. So I'm part of the tribe, I never even knew it, but I got a little bit in there. I got a whole lot of Irish, English and Scotch and a little bit of Jewish. I'm claiming every ounce of that. But most of us who are listening to this today we're Gentiles and we owe our salvation to this moment, this crisis that pushed the gospel out into the nations of the world. Let me put it to you this way.  I want that to set in.  And the gospel began to penetrate, started with a trickle, but it began to penetrate new frontiers. One of the things that we're passionate about as a church and as a group of people radiant is we're passionate about the gospel penetrating into the nations of the world. We don't just support missions, agencies organizations and mercy ministries just because it's the philanthropist thing to do that we've done so well that it's just right for us to give back. I think that that's valid and there's a place for that in communities and cultures, but that's not why we as a church do it. That's not why we do the big give every year because we need to have some big mega giveaway that just is like, oh, it makes us feel good about what we do. Let me tell you about why we do the big give. And why we support missionaries and the gospel being preached in some of the most difficult places on the earth. It's why we raise hundreds of thousands of dollars every year. It's why we send missionaries and why we visit and all of the things that we do and the prayers that we pray over it is because we believe that the great commission that Jesus gave the church in Matthew 28 in Acts chapter one is still, it's not just the great commission. It's the only commission that Jesus gave us to make disciples. It's because Jesus paid such a high price for our salvation. It's not right for us to keep it to ourselves. And the big give is an opportunity every year that especially in a commercialized culture of Christmas and holidays and gift giving, it's an opportunity for us to be counter cultural and say, we're not gonna take this season and lavish it just on us. We're actually going to invest into some partnerships that are going to penetrate into deeper frontiers with the gospel because we've partnered with them. If you have not picked up one of our big give catalogs, they're available out in the lobbies. And if you're online, you can get them online. It lists off all of our missionaries. It lists off where they are. It lists off the endeavors that they have. We list the local partners and the mercy ministries that we're a part of. And this year, the reason why we wanna do what we're calling the stimulus is because this is a year much like Acts chapter 11 where there's been a crisis. And that crisis has been felt not only here, but it's been felt around the world. But anytime there's a crisis, there is always an open door. And we believe it's our responsibility. I think fear would cause us to draw back.  Let's step through that door. Let's grab ahold of these opportunities because when the church does that, we begin to see just like we read here at Acts 11 that some step into it, lean into it and it actually leads to there being a multiplication. It actually leads to a divine opportunity and a divine open door for many, many more people to come to faith. So we wanna be the church deployed. Even in the midst of the things that we're going through, the crisis that the church is facing is not any different than the crisis that the church face in Acts chapter 11 or in Acts chapter eight. We're facing the same stuff. But here's what it does do. It does cause us, just like it caused the church in Acts chapter 11, to reconsider our modus operandi. You see, when you have, in secular terms and business terms, here's what they say. Crisis is the great accelerator. Whenever you face a crisis, it is the great accelerator. It can be an accelerator of fear. It can be an accelerator of faith. It can be an accelerator of change. It can be an accelerator of destruction. But crisis is the great accelerator. And in 2020, I believe the church is in the midst of what I'm calling a divine reset. Much like Acts chapter 11, it's a divine reset. I've had so many people over the last several months ask me the question, what do you think's going on? What is this? Is this the end times? Well, let me say this. I do believe we're living in the end times. But even in the midst of that, I believe that what the enemy may have meant to injure people, to set some things in motion, Bible prophecy wise, that in our culture, not just the COVID virus, but I mean, so many different things that have been crisis piled one on top of another in this year. I believe that that pressure, if we have ears to hear and eyes to see it, can become a divine reset where God reorganizes our priorities, our mode of operation, our way of seeing things that can ultimately lead to a massive shift in the way we engage with the culture of the kingdom, just like the world right now is looking at the potential of a great reset that reorganizes the globe. I don't know if you've heard that phrase recently, the great reset, but if they'll put this picture up here, Time Magazine just put this out earlier this month, the great reset. And you might see how the world is under construction. That's not just a metaphor, literally, there is a plan and a strategy that is being implemented called the great reset. It's ultimately, it was based on a book called COVID-19, The Great Reset, written by a man named Klaus Schwab, who is the director of the world economic for him. He wrote a book and basically, I have the book in my office and basically in the book he said, you never waste a crisis. And so this is a perfect opportunity for us to radically reset the social order globally. Reset ecology, reset economies, reset technology, national borders.  Basically talking about global digital currency, talking about a one-world government, talking about healthcare passports, contact tracing, things that have now become somewhat normalized globally, talking about doing that on a grand scale that resets the whole global community and shrinks it down into a micro neighborhood. Now, lest you think that's just some wacko crazy guy off in a corner who wrote a paperback, he has the backing of the Prime Minister of Canada, he has the backing of Prince Charles, he has the backing of several G7 nations, the World Bank, several different things who are signing off on that. We're literally seeing some of the things that I believe are connected to Bible prophecy taking place in our day. Listen to this quote from Klaus Schwab. He said, this is the fourth industrial revolution and it will lead to a fusion of our physical, digital, and biological identities.  This is what the world is looking at and seeing, look, everything is shaking and in the midst of instability, here's what we ought to do. In the midst of instability, let's go back and let's rebuild the world the way that we want to build it. I would propose to you that the world several thousand years later is still trying to finish the product that they started in Genesis when they said, come and let us build a city and a tower that goes into heaven and make a name for ourselves. And that city's name was Babel. And God came down and do you remember how he deconstructed it? He came down and confused their languages. There's now an app for your smartphone that can help you translate whatever you wanna say into whatever language you want to. Do you know what that app is called? Babel. Please don't download it unless you're traveling internationally and absolutely need to find where the bathrooms are. I get that. But this is what is taking place. It's humanistic, it's mankind, seeing a crisis, knowing that crisis is the great accelerator for change and trying to seize the moment to rebuild the world. It's a divine reset. It's a great reset. But in the midst of it, I say that not to cause us to step back and to become fearful, but literally understand this, that the enemy, spiritually speaking, does nothing without it being a response to what he know God is doing. See, because ultimately you and I are people of the kingdom of God and we know that there is coming the ultimate reset one day when Jesus Christ, the king of kings, the Lord of lords returns to this earth and he makes the earth and his enemies his footstool, sets up, sits on the throne from Jerusalem and reigns and rules the nations of the earth for a thousand years and on into eternity and ushers in a period of time that is peaceful and the curse is reversed. That is the ultimate reset. But in the meantime, in the meantime I believe that in the midst of a period of time where the world is looking at reset because I think even subconsciously the world's looking at God, things are changing, things are shifting, how do we respond to that? And if you don't have the Lord, you don't know how to respond.  And part of how we see that come to pass is we need to have a resetting of our hearts. See, you and I, the divine reset that I think God wants to bring in the church in this hour, I want you to imagine with me what it could look like in our future if the church on an individual level that then panned out into a macro-corporate expression, we just had a massive recalibration of our hearts towards the things of God and the kingdom of God. Could it be, and is it possible that the church, the only thing holding the church back from fulfilling our mission, which is to go into all the world and preach the gospel? Like Jesus said in Matthew 24, when he said, this gospel of the kingdom will be preaching to all nations as a witness and then the end will come. Could it be that the only thing stopping us from fulfilling that commandment is actually us? I believe that that is the case. I believe we have all of the people. I believe we have all of the money. I believe we have all of the technology. We have the travel. We have the strategies. We've got the education. We've got the boards and the committees. We've got it all. The only thing that we haven't yet done really is on an individual level. All of us in the middle of this crisis have a moment much like Acts chapter 11 where we've not been going to the nations and we've not brought the gospel to certain groups of people because we're uncomfortable with it and we've been very comfortable in our little bubble. But now in the midst of a crisis and things are beginning to shake and we see prophecy on the horizon. Could it be that there's something that happens in the church that resets us? To where we say, oh, this is who we are. This is what we are called to. We're not just called to be the church gathered. We're called to be the church that gathers to scatter. And now here we are, we find ourselves scattered in Fort Wayne, Indiana and Iowa and we find ourselves all over the planet and we've had to be fluid and flexible and oh, we have been so flexible. And we do this and we do that and we do this and all of a sudden we're beginning to realize, look, this isn't just about us having church. It's about us being the church.  We've allowed too many things to compete. We've become too indifferent towards the gospel and in the middle of all this, Jesus, would you reset my heart?   That's not revival. Revival is when the people of God are once again captured by the presence of God and we are undone by God and we re-sign up for the commitment of God. We get engaged in the mission of God once again. God literally puts the defibrillator paddles on the chest of a sleeping church and just imagine that just all of a sudden we jolt back to life and go, ah, what are we supposed to be doing? Let's go! Let's go! Not, oh, I'm really tired. This is hard. 2020, I just want 2021 to be a nap. There's one big nap. Well, I don't need a nap. Anybody else tired? What's the solution to the weariness? Voop, voop! Holy spirit and fusion of vision and perspective. That is gonna change it all. And if there's ever been a time to reset our hearts, church, it's right now. It's right now. When I was a young boy, my mom had a friend. We were living in Pontiac at that time and my mom's friend's mom had a house and we stopped by there one day, it was in July. And it was a windy day, it was near the 4th of July. My mom had just bought me some sparklers. And so we stopped by the house to say hi to Mrs. Boyd and we're talking with her. She had a walkout basement and the bottom level of her basement was a ceramic studio where she made ceramics and sold them at fairs. And so because she packed them as ceramics, she had all kinds of newspaper in the basement. And so my mom wanted to talk to Mrs. Boyd. We're standing outside, the wind's blowing. I'm like five years old, I'm like, mom, light my sparkler. She's trying to talk, she goes to light, it won't light. So she steps into the basement, hands me the sparkler and she lights the sparkler and I wave it around and then walked outside and she's talking. And then I looked back through the door and I saw what I thought was a barbecue grill. But what it was, was her basement was on fire because the sparkler had lit the shredded newspaper on fire and I'll never forget, Mrs. Boyd went crazy. She's like, my house is burning down. And the police showed up, the fire department showed up.  You did not know that about your pastor, did you? Burned it down to the ground, to the ground. Bow your heads right now, just. But we went back and saw Mrs. Boyd a year later and my mom felt so bad, she was so ashamed of her son. And so when we went back a year later, I remember just my mom saying, Mrs. Boyd, I'm so sorry. And Mrs. Boyd was like, are you kidding me? That was the best thing that ever happened because I got to rebuild my house the way I wanted it. I got everything all brand new. And she goes, this is the best thing. I should have had you burn this down years ago. What would happen if we burned down our perceptions of who we are and what we are called to? And we let this present crisis actually become a recalibration of our hearts and change everything. Listen to this scripture in Hosea chapter 10. It says in verse number 12, so for yourselves righteousness, reap steadfast love, break up the fallow ground, for it is time to seek the Lord. That he may come and reign righteousness upon you, translation revival. You have plowed iniquity and you have reaped injustice. You have eaten the fruit of lies. How many apples of lies? How many oranges and how much produce that is formed out of the root system of this world that is based in deception have we been eating? The fruit of lies because you, here's the key, because you have trusted in your own way. What does Hosea say to do? It's time to seek the Lord. It's time for a reset, a recalibration. And what does he say is the solution? Plow up the fallow ground of your hearts. Now I want you to turn to one more passage with me today, Matthew chapter 13. Matthew chapter 13, Jesus teaches this parable of the sower. And in verse number 18, it says here the parable is sower. Jesus is giving the translation of it. It says, and when anyone hears the word of the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches it away what has been sown in his heart. This is what was sown along the path. Verse 20, as for the one that was sown on the rocky ground, this is the one who hears the word and immediately receives it with joy, yet he has no root in himself, but endures for a little while. And then when tribulation or persecution arises on account of the word, immediately falls away. As for what was sown among the thorns, this is the one who hears the word, but the cares of the world and the deceitfulness of riches choked the word and it proves unfaithful. As for the one that was sown on good soil, this is the one who hears the word, understands that he indeed bears fruit and yields in one case a hundred fold in another 60 and another 30. Jesus uses a parable about soil to paint a picture of how we cultivate our hearts. The soil is the different conditions of our hearts. What's Jesus talking about? Jesus is talking about the reality that each of us are responsible for the condition of the soil of our heart. And we all respond to the same word. It's the same word, the sower goes and sows the seed. It's the same word, it's the same seed, but whether the seed releases the fullness of its potential is not determined upon the seed or the sower, it's dependent upon the soil. So you can have the same seed, the same word, but it doesn't produce fruit in the life of one kind of soil, one heart condition. But if it finds the right soil, it can produce 30, 60 and a hundred fold multiplication. What kind of soil did it find in Acts chapter 11? It found good soil in some that then multiplied disciples into the kingdom of God, 30, 60 and a hundred fold. But there were others that it was like seed that fell by the wayside, and the birds of the air came and snatched it up. Here's the question. What kind of soil is our heart? And what does it mean to do what Hosea said to plow up the fellow ground? Because it's time to seek the Lord. Here's what he's saying. It's time for a divine reset for all of us. It's time for us to stop, to measure, to evaluate the condition of the soil of our heart in this moment, because what God wants to do is he wants to put the plow in, turn it over and prepare us for what he has in store. See, if we have a prophetic imagination today, instead of seeing where we're stuck right now because we can't go where we wanna go and we can't do what we wanna do, we would have our eyes spiritually on the horizon and say, what's coming on the other side of this? I'm not talking about political systems, geopolitical issues. I'm talking about kingdom of God issues. If the enemy comes in like a flood, how many know he has come in like a flood? What does it mean for God to raise up a standard against him? What does it mean for Joel too to be a reality where he pours out his spirit without measure on all flesh? Are we ready for that? It's time to seek the Lord. Four things and probably needed to make this a whole another message, but... Do you guys got another hour? Okay, good. You've got no place to go, I know, but Jesus said some seed fell along the path and the birds came and devoured it. What is this speaking of? It means we gotta reset our priorities. We've gotta get rid of indifference, apathy and familiarity with the gospel. When that happens, our heart gets hard. It's like a path that you've walked over me. I've gone to church. Oh yeah, I've read the Bible. Oh yeah, I know all the story about Jesus. What happens is our heart gets packed down. And then when God tries to speak a fresh new word, any plants that seed, it can't penetrate because we're familiar with Jesus and because we're indifferent towards the gospel. If right now your heart is indifferent, it's time to seek the Lord. It's time to plow up the fellow ground. What's the second thing? We must, Jesus said, deep in our root system, see that fell on rocky ground, did not have much soil, but he immediately sprang up and it had no depth. But when the sun came out, it was scorched and it withered away. Church, in this moment of time, we're seeing so many people who did not have depth in the relationship with God. It was shallow and shallow works when there's no pressure. Shallow works when the heat of persecution and the challenge that requires faith alone. When that heat comes out, if all we have is shallow surface soil and no root system that goes deep will wither up. And we're seeing people's faith wither up. So many people who are like, I'm not even engaging. I'm not growing. I'm not leaning into God. I'm not praying. I'm not doing any of these things because this has been so hard. I get it. I get it. But yet, at the same time, the Lord's saying, deep in your root system. This is a time to deepen your root system, not just to give up, to drive down into that soil, tap into the presence of God. Number three, it's time for us to plow up and get rid of our competing loyalties. Jesus equated this with seed that fell among thorns. The thorns grew up and choked it. What are the things in our lives that are competing? What is there that this world has that can even be compared to knowing Jesus and serving Jesus? But yet, we have those things that compete and it chokes the life right out of us. And then lastly, the good soil, the soil that's been plowed up, it's been turned over, it's ready to receive. The rocks have been removed, the thorn bushes have been pulled, the weeds aren't there, it's ready. That is the soil that the farmer comes with, the seed and the rain. And it produces 30, 60 and 100 full. Here's the last words that Jesus said in this parable. He who has ears, let him hear. Church, this is not just his prayer, this is my prayer, that we would have ears to hear what Jesus is saying right now, that it's time to seek the Lord. It's time for a divine reset because God doesn't want the church to survive through this period. He wants us to recalibrate, change our perspective, change our operandi, our modus operandi, the way that we function. He wants us to be ready and I believe what's gonna happen is in the hour in which we live and pressure is going to come, pressure is here. And when pressure applies, instead of it suppressing the church, it's gonna scatter the church and we're gonna go in the power of the Holy Spirit. We're gonna take the gospel into our community. God's gonna get the harvest that he deserves and we're gonna see the glory of the Lord. Fill your earth like waters cover the sea. That's what I'm believing for. I wanna invite you to stand with me today, wherever you're at and I want us to pray.  Holy Spirit, Holy Spirit, speak to us. Put the plow of heaven into the soil of our heart today and begin to run furrows, rows, through the places where we've allowed the world, the sun, the hardship, the disappointments to pack down the soil and steal from us the vitality of your word. Lord, we want the soil of our hearts to be ready. Lord, we need a divine reset. We hear you saying, get ready, get ready. Don't let your heart grow cold. Take heed, watch and pray. This is the hour. The church is gonna be exported. It's gonna be exported by every member walking in their divine identity, filled with the power of heaven and speaking the word of God with boldness.  We're about to see God change, bring about a revolution in the people of God and the way that the church operates. But we've gotta be people that are ready. Holy Spirit, prepare us in this moment. We wanna move your heart, God. We wanna partner with what you're doing. If there's anything within us that's not pleasing to you, there's any area of our life, God, where it's just gotten hard.   Break it up, break up the fellow ground. Turn it over, God, so that we might be ready.


Okay, next up is Talker from Grafana. The plan for the talk is that it takes roughly 20 minutes, so that we have 10 minutes for extended Q&A session after that. So please, if the talk is over, if you could please, stay seated and remain quiet, because otherwise nobody would understand the questions and the answers. So, welcome, Talker. Thank you, thank you. Yeah, I hope to talk a little bit about Grafana, specifically the upcoming version of Grafana. And if I have time, I'll show some tips and tricks in the demo as well. But these are all type of questions, because there's usually a ton of questions when I do these talks. My name is Porte Genni, I'm the co-founder at Grafana Labs, the company behind the project that's supporting the project and also trying to build services and products around Grafana. Grafana is an open source monitoring and data visualization tool licensed under Apache 2.0. Of course, it's found on Grafana. It looks something like this. You build, or maybe you prepare the light theme or the enterprise theme, where people are scared of dark device. I actually might use this in the demo, because it looks better in this room because of all the lights. Yeah, you build the beautiful dashboards of Graf and other panels. The graph is kind of the cornerstone of Grafana, the powerhouse panel. I just want to get a show of hands in here and grab a photo. Who in here actually at some point can use Grafana? Can you raise your hand? Okay, that's good to know. I was hoping for as well. Anyway, you might not know some of this. I'm just going to have a few slides on the history and the go for the project. This is a starting as a whole project of mine four years ago now. Almost four years and a week or so since the first release. At the time, I was really in love with graphite and time series application metrics. That's the end of life. It was really fulfilling that the dashboarding solution for those tools were lacking. I was also really enjoying using Qibana, which had a really nice solution for dashboarding for logs. So I took inspiration from that and started working on Grafana. Initially, we also supported graphite, but over time, we added support for other data sources like InfoxDB, OpenTestDB, Prometheus, which has become used to popular lately, and Elasticsearch. Lately, we also added support for MySQL and Postpress, so I can query your SQL data directly from Grafana. We also have, these are the core data sources that are from Bonn. Actually, we've got CloudWatch, which is also a core data source, but it's commercial success. Anyway, we, at least, we're not suitable for this conference. Anyway, we also have a ton of data sources on the front lines, onions and paddles, apps, and a community-powered repository of the readymade dashboard. As I said, this project has now existed for four years, and during that time, we're getting a really incredible amount of growth. Starting from version two, we added some very basic server reporting so we can sort of see what versions are running. And so the last three years, we kind of seen how many Grafana servers are actually running, not just track downloads, but actually see how many are actually using the software. And of course, the real numbers, so right now, there are 130,000 reporting servers, not servers, but of course, it's a lot more reporting, because of what people turn off to this reporting. But it's interesting to see how this trend has progressed in the last four years, that the trend is also increasing in velocity and kind of exponential growth. And part of that is of course that Grafana is amazing, and it solves this kind of niche domain where there's a lot of competitors, but I also think that the need for observability and good sort of monitoring tool has also increased, with that of more elastic infrastructure and microservices and more complex application and production environments, the need for good observability tools and monitoring tools has also increased. So if I was going to write in that way as well. There are just sort of pure installations that we are almost seeing a tremendous growth in the public source project, in terms of sort of interest from outside contributors of the companies as well. And you're also growing the 14, just in the last couple of months, we've grown more than double the team from three people to seven people. We also launched a community site to help users and developers be successful with Grafana. And it's actually a lot more to support this community site because it supports so many data sources. And most of the questions are related to a particular data source, how you query this and how you query that. So it can last in the community to also help with this because it's causing a lot of work for us in the core team to actually answer the SQL questions, how you query this in SQL and for CBO, for me, this. Anyway, pretty amazing growth for that project. It's also really great, but Grafana can be used in so many different domains and circumstances. And most of the companies that use it also are really cool and they use it for different things. A couple of years ago, we saw that SpaceX was using it in their launch control centre when they landed the first top-9 rocket. When I saw that, it made my day. But it's just cool. Of course, I want to use Grafana for application monitoring and infrastructure monitoring and metrics and application analytics was also being used in agriculture where they put sensors in the ground and look at the fertility of the soil or use it for industrial sensors or home-motivation systems. I mean, a couple of guys used it to monitor the availability of t-shirts in the exhibit hall. Let's see. Now to the real interesting part. Jump over the intro to Grafana since most of you are familiar with it. Most of it, as all of the demos I'm going to do is in V5. A lot of things have changed in V5 in terms of just looking at feel and we'll move your sheets a little bit so don't be mad. But hopefully, all of the changes are going to be for the better. As I said, Grafana is all about building dashboards composed of these sort of panels and that hasn't changed. I mean, nothing has changed beyond just some one of your exchanges. And for those of you who are unfamiliar with the basics of Grafana, you add these panels, you jump into edit mode, and you are taken to the metrics tab. The metrics tab looks different for each type of data source. So in this case, I'm using graphite and I get a graphite query editor that allows me to explore the metrics available in graphite. And once I sort of found a metric I can apply transformations to that to the graphite transformation functions and other, of course, different options for the graph panel. But, I mean, this is nothing new particularly for the V5 release. If it was a while since you used Grafana or if you hadn't seen Grafana before each panel is this isolated thing that you write your metric queries in and show data. But there are ways to sort of build more dynamic dashboards as well that use something that's called template variables. That allows you to build more dynamic dashboards where you get these kind of drop tiles at the top. That allows you to quickly change the scope of the data for multiple panels. Anyway, back to what I really wanted to show and talk about was V5. The biggest sort of thing that there are a couple of big things but the biggest thing that I've worked on and I'm really excited about is the new grid system and what it kind of enables. Before Grafana it was kind of clunky to move panels around, create layouts and all that felt very clunky. So now in Grafana V5 you have kind of more modern layout system where panels move out of their way when you resize them and it's a lot easier to move panels around. But the most exciting thing is that it's going to enable more layout types so you can have layouts like this that wasn't possible in Grafana V4 because everything had to be laid out in rows where each with a height of each panel needed to match so you couldn't have really high vertical panels on the side.  But I'm really excited about that aspect not only is it more easier to use and build that support but it's going to enable more types of layouts and also new types of panels because now we can actually have panels that stretch vertically like this so the next thing that I want to do is build a new multi-stack panel that allows you to sort of stack a lot of metrics vertically which is something you can do with single stack but it's very inefficient because each single stack panel requires separate queries. So that was the new grid system. The next big thing that I want to touch on is the UX changes so we've changed the side menu a little bit and also all of the pages have a kind of new look to them with this halved look. Nothing super interesting here. Community users might be so excited that they have a search in their data source view because they have a ton of data source instances but otherwise it's mostly a cosmetic change but also it's so you can navigate around the interface easier and it looks a lot better but a more meaningful UX change is that the dashboard settings views has been now kind of combined into a unified view so you don't have to sort of switch these views to a dropdown anymore so you can now access annotations the section that we've previously called company is now called variables version history where you can restore different all the versions of the dashboard. So that's new grid and new UX in terms of a new capability the biggest thing that we've been working on for it feels like ages is folders and dashboard sort of dashboard folders because that's been one of the top rated feature requests sort of new other ways to organize the large profile installations and group dashboards along team lines or application lines so previously to do that with tags, but tags people didn't feel that what sort of tags was enough of a tool to sort of organize a dashboard. So that's why we can introduce folders which allow you to expand and collapse these regions or sections, we also added starred and recent dashboards to the search and the folders can also be managed, or dashboards in general can be managed through these two new large dashboard pages which allow you to do some quick administration of dashboards and the action move multiple dashboards or delete multiple dashboards, and it's also from these views that you can administrate the folder permissions which is also a completely new thing in front of v5 in that you can access permissions on folders and on dashboards and of course if you set the permissions on the folder they will be inherited by the dashboards that they contain so can sort of review that quickly so the permission system is pretty easy you can add permissions on teams which is also a new thing in v5 can show that but you can add permissions on the user particularly the user as well and you can add permissions on the team and if I go to dashboard that is contained so any dashboards has permissions as well and then they get their permissions inherited and you can override the folder permissions but you can override the default role-based permissions as I said teams is a completely new sort of thing that we are adding in v5 mostly now they're only there for the permission system to make it easier to manage the permissions right now we only have permissions on folders and dashboards but we hope to add them to data sources as well so lastly there's one feature that I want to mention it's hard to demo it because it's a back end feature but I think it's kind of so we appreciate it and it's interesting in a way a provisioning system previously in Grafana when you created new data sources or new dashboards it had to be done through the UI or through the HTTP API which kind of requires that Grafana is running and it's a bit tricky to do from a configuration management perspective or sort of automation perspective people have been managing to do that tricky so now Grafana has some data sources and configuration files so you have Grafana and have your data sources and your dashboards over there it's also active soon so if you change them on disk it's going to be easy you don't have to restart Grafana for that to change to be picked up so that was kind of the v5 feature highlights and I will have a few features that I want to highlight as well that one is kind of aware of it's quite recently added as well so annotations is a very old feature in Grafana that allows you to overlay which event data I want to show so annotations is an old feature in Grafana that allows you to overlay these events on graphs which could be deploy events marketing, knowledges, anything but before in Grafana you had to set up an annotation query that affects these events from a data source like Elasticsearch it was BBE to meet use, Grafana anything that could contain event data so what you couldn't do was create these events from within the UI and that's actually something you can do starting from v4 or 5 I think it was when we introduced this feature so just by holding down command on Mac or control woman or some Linux you can open that add annotation view and describe an event and of course this can also be automated and done to the game stage to create these and these are stored in Grafana some database so you don't have to sort of set up a data source to store these what else you can do is actually do the same thing but mark a region to create a region annotation and write a description and the tags here are kind of important in that it will allow you to show this event on other dashboards and find some subcharter filter for it now I'll say this if I now go back to this new grid dashboard I can add an annotation query called outages and say I want to look at all annotations that are created in the Grafana database with the tag outage and hopefully if I zoom out you should see there it is if I tag it I can then create the annotation query on other dashboards and actually show them on a conditional basis so I can tell them that annotation on and off another I mean I touched on templating briefly before what you can do beyond just sort of using template variables to create dynamic dashboards is you can also have a repeat paddle and what's new in v5 is that you can have a paddle repeated in the vertical direction not just horizontally so in this case this single-statt paddle is being repeated for each value on the slider and you can have there's also a concept of rows in Grafana which is still there in v5 it's slightly different which value you select in a template variable so the last tips and tricks is showing how you can use style overrides in the Graf to really customize how your graphs look in this case I'm showing necropraffic in and out and I'm showing out metrics on the bottom from a negative axis and the way I'm doing that is using a display override saying all series with a name out in its name should be a separate stacked group and should also be transformed and visualized in a negative y-axis there's other use cases for style overrides in that you can really customize how each series should be displayed you can also say this first should be displayed with a line fill or this should have points so I could say this should not have any lines on it so you can really customize the look of your graph using style overrides there's also a cool style override called fill below to to fill the region between two series which can be useful if you have a linear max in average more of a region that pretty much covers most of the sort of my demos and wants to be some time for questions I'm sure there are okay, please stay seated and quiet and time for questions oh yeah, sorry I should have mentioned this so Vera on Monday we have written it down for Thursday but since we're going to go to Boston and travel yesterday we kind of pushed it to Monday so the plan is the plan is to reach it on Monday and stable we hope to review in three weeks time at the Grapana Club so Grapana Labs have revised post-agmetric services which is kind of made out of poster services for both Grapana and Metrics and that's kind of been made by the driver and we also have support services and training and other sources of revenue as well different services and you changed a lot of the old test points is it possible to use them or have you designed them or so the question is sort of with this new grid system that is introduced in v5 how will all dashboards work with that new system because positioning is completely different so the answer is that your old dashboards will work just fine and they will Grapana will try to migrate them to the new positioning system so it should look close identical with slight differences in panel height because in Grapana v4 and going back you could set panel height and row height to a sort of per pixel level but in the new system there is a kind of snap so you cannot set the height of panels on a per pixel level you have to set it a little bit more coarse grade so then it's going to be slight differences I also recommended you try the beta and you have to update the plugins because panel plugins could have some issues with the grid system we tried to test with most of them but a few might need an update the biggest thing that you might notice is that if you change you say the dashboard in v5 and kind of import it in v4 it's not going to work but you can use the word downgrade you can use the virtual history system to downgrade a dashboard you say so you are adding to your guitars so provisioning of dashboards and folders are those features compatible with each other so can you provision folders of dashboards yes you can provision folders as well I think the way you specify folders is that the way you provision dashboards is to specify a specific file where the dashboard can be found on this and then you can specify a folder name as well for where the UI works like if I can create a folder for all of that Jason or something no, well the Jason is slightly different it's sort of because the panel's position model has changed and it's no longer structured in rows it's more structured in a sort of a collection of panels and their position so the structure of the Jason is slightly different but it's mostly sort of laying them out in rows in a flat array now yeah, everything is starting across Databricks there is one big change that hasn't been touched on because it's kind of the IDs for the dashboard have changed and the URL has changed and this is something we work with as last minute related to provisioning systems and also before before going back the slug is the unique ID for a dashboard and the slug is based on the title so if you change the name of the dashboard you break all the links to that dashboard so if you have all the alert emails or links in Slack those links are not going to work anymore if you rename the dashboard and we thought that was a really bad experience and also kind of ties it to the provisioning so we wanted a unique ID and something in the ID something in the URL where we can tie the dashboard to even if you change the dashboard name so that's kind of why the dashboard URL has changed in the file as well would you make system or the H2P API? it is exposed to the H2P API but it's not supposed to we can't provision users and teams through the provisioning system yet it's something we sort of we have talked about but we're not sure about but it's definitely something that we might want to add so you can add specific teams or users and provide some rules there but nothing has done right now how would you deal with providers or commissions or how I would provide it to other authentication providers? with commissions how would you deal with commissions or other kind of people like this and using users? currently we don't have any ways we haven't written any way to integrate the permission system with outside permission systems to help that or all these commissions are something that's kind of only living upon right now but we will probably look into some way to sync these with outside sources as well but currently this is something that only lives in the corner so I was just going to ask you about dashboards yes and the reason for that is to provide some features anything in the corner is kind of tied to that to the dashboard in the database like if you start a dashboard if you have a learns in the dashboard the learns is kind of tied to the database ID so there's a bunch of features that require the database ID but what's cool with the provisioning system both the data sources and the dashboard is that you can lock down anything from the UI so you can control that so this data source the file and the provisioning system you don't accidentally change it in the UI you can control that the region annotations are there ways to get those problem 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Hi everybody, this is Dave Vellante of Wikibon.org and SiliconANGLE is here. We are at AT&T Park, home of the San Francisco Giants, NetApp's amazing customer event at VMworld 2012. This was a spur of the moment. Put this together really quickly and they're expecting 1,200 customers. We're here, we've got the baseball mojo going and we're here with George Reed, the CIO of Seven Corners. George, welcome back to the MobileCube. Well, it's kind of nice to be back on theCUBE. Last time I was just stopping by to take a quick breath after a lot of work. Yeah, so we're back here at VMworld 2012.  Have you had a chance to check out the show? Absolutely, in between some other events I've been able to get out and see that once again, VMware and NetApp seem to be developing and rolling out what I need next. So Seven Corners is a really amazing company. You're really changing the game and the travel insurance business. Tell the audience a little bit about Seven Corners. Seven Corners was started in 1993 as a managing general underwriter that put out travel insurance, travel medical, and emergency assistance services to travelers from all corners of the globe. Over the years, it's grown to 850 in different unique insurance programs, everything from rescuing people who get lost in Kenya to taking care of visitors from other countries that are studying in the United States. Yeah, and your business is booming. I mean, last time we talked to you we're growing like crazy. That's continued, hasn't it? It has, we've enjoyed our third consecutive month of record retail sales. The company itself has already achieved double last year's goal and it's only August. So how has virtualization allowed you to continue that growth? I mean, could you have done this without a virtualized environment? Had we not virtualized the environment we were in, we wouldn't even be in business anymore. It was an archaic server-based system that frankly was worthy of the Mayans. And we replaced that with cutting-edge servers and data storage and communications equipment. And the word went out, hey, this great, unique product is now powered by a very stable, fast system. What that means to the business is they've been able to implement not one carrier every two years but four in the first six months of 2012, which means we have four times as much business coming through the building. We've heard a lot this week about the software-defined data center and people talking about software-defined storage and talk a little bit about if that means anything to you, what that means and what that means to your storage infrastructure. What that means to me is I used to have six people in infrastructure and desktop by virtualizing the server room and the desktops and the telephone system. I have two and we're more responsive and more effective than we used to be. The ability to now put out a live mirror of our existing system later on this fall so that if I wanna define a data center in Colorado, I just get space and click a button, as you all saw in the demo and five seconds later we have a full copy of our system in Colorado supporting those folks.  Cisco is a brand new server vendor. Talk about the decision to go that direction. That was somewhat risky at the time but take us through your mindset there. Did a lot of studying on them when I was working with a company called Tech Systems Global Services and advising other CIOs what they ought to do to transform their technology. And I saw this outfit that was great at security and networking called Cisco go all in with a new technology. They said we're gonna be the best, we're throwing everything we have at it and we are not walking away from this one. Well that's my philosophy and that's Seven Corners philosophy so it was just a good fit. We've now had almost two years of production and we have yet to have to replace so much as a chip in one of the blades. So time to market's very important in your business. I mean I've seen stats that the guys that are first get more than half of the revenue share. Has that been your experience? The factor's about 70%. We rolled out something that ambushed the travel insurance business that nobody does because it's too high risk because you can't respond fast enough in the form of an acute onset major medical. Someone's had a heart condition in the states, travels to Europe with this insurance. If they have acute onset over there, it's covered and taken care of. They're evacuated back to the states and whatnot. Now naturally a carrier wants to be able to turn that off if it goes south but we were able to turn the product on in two days and it's just been a boom. That's amazing and so now here we are at 2012. I mean the pace has been just outstanding. We heard from Maritz and Gelsinger that on average 60% of the applications that are running on X86 have virtualized. They put forth, Gelsinger in particular, put forth a goal of getting to 90%. And do you think that's achievable? Is that achievable in your environment? This coming Thursday, a week from this Thursday, I get to shut off the last physical server at Seven Corners. Really, you'll be 100%? Correct. Oh, that's phenomenal. Congratulations. Absolutely, do it. Well, you just have to do it. Yeah, well so what advice would you give to people who wanna do it? Virtualization and data centers, they're not a research project, they're not a sandbox. You figure out what you're gonna do and you go all in and use technology to leverage the business's ability to have better performance, better profitability and a more pervasive stance in the global market. So how about NetApp? This is pretty amazing. I mean, I remember NetApp, a little filer company, doing NAS and it really come a long way. I don't know how much history you've had with them, but talk about what they're doing for you. What they're doing is they're continually improving their product, making it faster. When I realize data's growing, business is growing, we've gotten rid of paper. So we're going to Telemedicine, which is a new piece of business that none of our competition is doing. The storage requirements go way up and they have a complete array of products that I can monitor and manage from one screen and by having these virtual data centers, I don't need a host of people to manage a bunch of data controllers that are just gonna be scattered all over the, frankly, North America. So we talked before about some of the metrics, some of the money that you've saved. Maybe share some of that with us. The, if I were to calculate from the day the virtualization project started at $110,000 a month, it's now been 22 months. There's your ROI. I spent $700,000 on the project. Do you have a game, because you're CFO or CEO, do you report this, the CFO or CEO? Chief operating officer. COO, so do you have a deal with him or her where you get to reinvest some of that savings? Well, we reinvested it by going back into IT and inventing a cloud-based insurance servicing product that can handle any possible thing you want to insure.  Not relevant. We have a rules-based engine that's gone live and we're gonna feed it out to everybody on a little piece of the cloud. So you mentioned telemedicine. What can you tell us about that? A case where telemedicine comes in handy is if there's a skilled doctor in the states that wants to provide a consult to someone in Kenya or if a hospital in Atlanta needs to see 16 patients in a prison in Florida, telemedicine allows them to do that live to actually transmit the MRI results, have the consult and do that without having to be on location. And it has to be highly secure and it has to be fast. That's interesting. Well, good luck with that. If you're traveling, traveling overseas like I am soon, hit the Seven Corners website. You won't be sorry. And you'll sleep a little better at night, George. Thanks very much for coming on theCUBE again. Great to see you. See you soon. All right, take care. All right, keep it right there. We're right back with our next guest.


In this video, I'm going to explain the work we all have to do, the various levels of trauma that impact every aspect of our lives in terms of what we want to do with our lives, the goals we have, relationships we have and ultimately the quality that our lives are going to be. So stay with me and we're going to talk about trauma and inner integration after trauma. You know, after years of studying, trying to figure out why people are unhappy, this is as close to an explanation I can give that I've come across that explains the work that is needed by all of us. So what we're going to talk about is trauma. We're talking about here a routine genuine happiness because that's what we all want, right? It's what we all want in life. Now when we're kids, when we're born, we're genuinely we can find genuine happiness and things. At this point, we just were born, we have our personality. You're born with a personality, okay, regardless of the nature versus nurture debate. We have an inherent personality. And we have a question. We're born as the I am, okay, I am dot dot dot to be continued. Now we're just an I am at that point. So which is why when we're small children, infants, toddlers, we get joy in the silliest of things, okay? We can take joy in almost anything. Genuine joy, genuine pleasure, genuine happiness. At this point, we're integrated, okay? There's no conflict within ourselves when we're with children. What happens, of course, is various types of trauma come in at some point in our lives and that could be anything. I have a few written down here. First of all, what is a trauma? It's basically a stress that you experience as a child, as a young person that cannot be resolved, maybe because you don't understand it, you don't have anyone to go to to talk about your feelings or if you do, you're told to be quiet about it, not to talk about it. So there's no understanding that comes from having experienced a trauma. So it's a trauma. It's an injury, in other words. Traumas, we probably all know these. These things could be abuse. It could be some kind of an accident. Maybe a family member goes through a terrible accident. Bullying, neglect in childhood, being judged, family poverty and illness. Jealousy. Jealousy of the attention that a sibling gets. It could be any of those things that comes in here. Now the problem with this is it is an injury and it becomes a trauma if it isn't resolved. So it stays with us. The injury stays. Now this leads us to our second step. That leads us to the injury is there. So it's kind of a break that happens in the person. Right? And this side is carrying the injury. This is the hurt part. So I want you to think of that part as the injured self, hurt or injured. And this side, which pretends like it's fine, becomes the defender or the coper, you could say. My pen is running a little low. But the point is we get split into different parts. Now there could be many different parts, but two parts is enough, especially for the purposes of this conversation. So when we look at this part of ourselves, this is, you could, another word for this might be the shadow self. This could be the persona, the one that we are drawn towards, the defender, the strong one, the injured one. What are the features of the injured one? It's weak. It's vulnerable. It feels like it's all by itself. It's lone and isolated. It's chaotic. It's ashamed. It feels unworthy. It feels completely stuck. And of course, the problem with that is the more we neglect it and ignore it, we actually feed it with that suppression. Suppression of that side of ourselves is an energy and we keep pumping that energy into it, which means it sustains it. So this is the injured self. It's weak, vulnerable, and all those things feel like it's alone. When you're talking about the defender, I've taught a few examples or ways to understand that. It's tough. It can be aggressive. It's very independent, maybe because of neglect, early childhood for instance. It's very controlling. It's self-centered. It can be very charming. Defender could become a workaholic, for instance, because that's how it takes charge of things. Subpersonalities develop out of this. These are little ways of being that we get into as the defender. One might be, let's say someone lives in poverty as a child. That's their trauma. They become a thief. Thieving or robbing or stealing is a way of subpersonality that they develop as the defender. A person who didn't get enough attention in childhood, or they were always made to feel that their self-worth was tied up in their academic achievements, for instance, they would become the academic subpersonality. Someone might become a sporty person. Somebody might be a seductive person. A sausage user uses sexuality as a means to cope. Those are all the things that are there. The problem is originally where I am whatever I want. I am in a state of being. Now we become I am alone. I am hurt. I am injured. I am afraid. I am anxious. I am the defender. I am strong. I am aggressive. I am controlling. I am independent, fiercely independent. The problem with it, of course, is that it's split down the middle of us. So we're actually not fully who we are. We're in conflict. Now what is life like when we live like this? What's our emotional reality of this like? Well, the first thing is it is painful to live like this. It's emotionally painful. It's numb.  You feel unsure about things because you don't know which voice is coming in. Robotic. If you're fake, you're in conflict all the time. Maybe sickness comes in. You find yourself getting sick and you have a sense that it's to do with a psychological issue, feeling stressed all the time. So the point of all this is how do we start to rehabilitate this? How do we reintegrate? Now we're not going to be children ever again, but what we want to be is like the child once again, fully integrated. In fact, what we are then is aware of I am the I am. We become self aware more so than when we were children. Once we go through this process of inner integration. Now what does this part in order to bring this about? We need to start a dialogue between this, which is by don't make any mistake about it, you. You are the defender. Okay. That's the personality that we all tend to gravitate towards. Okay. And the injured part of the self. Now let's say we were to check in and interview both sides to see what's going on within a person who was carrying a trauma like this. What would the conversation be like? If you consult the injured part, they're going to say, please listen to me for a change. Okay. Because we completely put them in the dark. Okay. They feel ignored. They don't feel heard at all. They have no sense of autonomy or control. They also say, if they were to talk to the defender, they would say, if you don't listen to me, I'm going to hold us back. I'm going to make sure that we don't go forward in life. Right. So the defender over here says, you are so weak. Why would I ever listen to you? You deserve to be ignored. Okay. I'm in charge here. So they're in charge of maintaining the comfort zone that they've reached. Okay. They're the strong ones. And this is the weak one. So you'll see at that point that there's no sort of, it's an impasse. This side is here, this side is there, and they don't want to talk to each other. So what we need to do is we need to act as, or someone that you work with, a therapist or a counselor or anybody really who's willing to do it, is to help you facilitate these two parts of yourself. Now, I cannot emphasize this enough. Which side do you think we give the hardest time to? Funnily enough, it's not this side. We are very judgmental of the defender. Okay. The defender who is the witty, the strong one, the sub-personalities are there, the workaholic, the charmer, the controlling part of ourselves. We are very, very critical of that side. In order to bring this side in, we first need to give the defender some appreciation. Another way of saying that is to give yourself some appreciation for how strong you've been up to this point in your life, carrying an injury. Okay. You need to say to yourself, okay, I've felt numb. I've felt horrible in my day-to-day life for a number of years now, maybe. But you know what? How strong have I been? How strong, how incredibly strong have I been to go about day-to-day life with this within me? Okay. Then you can bring in the hurt side. So you're appreciating the defender and you're giving the injured part of yourself the voice. Okay. So we're going to act as an intermediary between these two voices. Now, this is the work that we need to do. It doesn't matter what you want to achieve in life, what you want to do, if you want to have more fulfilling relationships, if you're carrying trauma, this is what's going to happen. If you want to do well in your work life, if you are miserable, you feel numb, you need to work on this. Okay. Now, we all need to work on this. David included, myself included. We are all doing this. Almost, I think everybody, I would say everybody, people with this or group of me and that, but I would say almost all of us have this issue going on, a kind of two competing voices within ourselves that leads us to not feeling like we're normal people. Okay. And then we medicated on all those issues. So what we need to do is start having this conversation, media and this conversation within ourselves. One of the practical ways you can do it is you can embrace the fact that you have these two sub-personalities, if you like, these two parts of yourself. One, let's say you're doing some journaling and I would highly recommend this. What does the defender want to say? And on the other side of the page, what does the injured part want to say? And when your job then, when you're analyzing that, is to say to yourself, okay, thank you. You're very, very strong. You're going to keep us safe. What do you want to say so that we don't self-sabotage so that we actually can move forward? How can we make you feel more safe to come forward and talk? It can be anything, especially in relationships guys. This is how this plays out big time. It's the hurt part of the self, bringing the past into all new relationships that we have, making them all the same from now on because we're in defender mode. Okay. So, the last thing to say in this is, in terms of a practical thing, talk to someone about it, set this as a goal maybe with them, but by yourself, if you just want to work on this by yourself for now, use the journaling exercise of realizing that I have two parts to myself. One is the defender, one is the injured part. And I'm going to try and get a dialogue going between the two parts. Thanks for watching, a bit heavy maybe, but that's the way it is. That's the key. That's the key to this. That's the work that we have ahead of us. And but the goal, I mean, the goal is this, is to feel like this again as adults, okay, when we have autonomy. And what a goal that is, just to feel less numb, to feel more alive, to feel like, my God, my life has meaning and purpose again. That's what we're all after here. So it's about inner integration. That is the whole, that is like the answer that isn't a gimmick. Okay. If you've tried all the gimmicks maybe before the quick fixes and stuff, this is what we're after. So practically speaking, give the journaling a go and see what the dialogue is like. And you might be surprised by how you feel at the end. Because if you'd like to work with me, you can contact me at my website, DrDavidMiloni.com, where I do online sessions and sessions in my practice here in Ireland also. Or you can email me. Another way you can help is to share this with a friend of yours. Maybe you can like the video or subscribe. And if you like my content, it helps me reach other people too. Reach out if you have any questions, maybe leave your questions below if you like. But I am very grateful for you for taking the time to watch this. And the point of this is that this is hugely important. Because this is for our personal growth. This is for all war comes about because of this. What are our political leaders like? Everyone else, this is what's going on within them. Politicians, improving the lives of children and families, helping families have more authentic, enjoyable, fulfilling relationships. So thanks again for watching guys and I will see you soon. Take care.


When they're unhappy, they try to find other people that they can feel like they're better than. You are less than me, therefore my life is better. Even though it's not, because you're unhappy and that's why you feel the need to do that. If people are happy, they don't go out trying to make other people feel unhappy or less than or judged or criticized. Okay, so I actually, believe it or not, after an 18 hour work day yesterday, I am kind of sort of catching up with my workload and I'm feeling kind of good about it. So I'm finally working out for the first time in three weeks. I'm also fully vaccinated. So that means I can start going to the gym again. So I think I'm gonna start going to crunch again. It'll probably be a combination of working out from home and working out at the gym time depending. And so I'm very excited about that and I'm very excited about the prospect of me finally losing weight. I was 202 pounds the other day, the other night. And so I just had to let it go, let it go and just embrace my weight as it is.  I'm, you know, like got a huge problem to worry about but I just feel like a bit of a fraud and a fake when I'm supposed to be a fitness influencer and I'm a bodybuilder and I'm repping myself as that.  So now I can. But I figured as I'm getting ready to work out, I'm talking really fast because I had pre-workout. So normally I have a problem speaking at a normal pace without having to edit out all the silences in between. Anyway, I wanted to share like let's start, let's start my weight loss journey now. Let's start the fitness journey now. Now that I'm vaccinated, I'm ready. I have the gym accessible and I've got some things figured out and I'm starting to feel like I'm getting like a hold on my life and the anxiety that I was struggling with for so long. Mind you, it's still there but it's a little bit more under control now. And one of the really important things that I learned that I kind of experimented with and then realized, oh, like that makes a difference, a really big difference in my anxiety level and how I feel about myself and my life. And so I'm working multiple different jobs and projects and commitments. And basically what was happening, not only with my professional life and my passions and my hobbies but also my health too was that I was putting myself last. I was putting myself at the bottom of the list. So it was like I gotta go to my 40 hour a week. I gotta go to my 40 hour a week work job and I gotta do this project and that thing and I gotta go through like peppermint stuff and work out pep talks and work out black queer town hall and all this other stuff. And then if I happen to get to my stuff at the very end, great, but chances were in fact that I often didn't get to my own stuff. And so I wouldn't even open emails until like a week later that were my own emails. Obviously if you guys follow me on Instagram, you notice I have been posting nearly as much because of that. And so one day randomly it just kind of pops into my head. I was like, why don't I do my stuff first and then wait and do everything else? And I did and then I felt really good afterwards. And I was like, whoa, I feel a sense of like contentment. Like why do I feel that way? What's going on?   And so I was diminishing myself and I was diminishing my flame and my spark and my passion. And so that was really bringing me down and I was starting to feel this sense of depression almost along with the anxiety. And so that was a really big realization that I made. So lesson learned, but you know, it's easier to have new thoughts than it is to have new habits. So it's gonna take time to really put that into practice and make sure that I really like guard and fight for my time and my space and getting the things I need to do for me. So for those of you who maybe feel like you're in a similar position as I am with all these commitments, whether it's kids or your spouse or family or like a loved one, someone's sick, what have you, make time. There is always time. You can find one hour, two hours for just you and the things that you care about. It makes a big difference. You put in a little bit of effort and you get a lot of return for that when it comes to nourishing yourself. Anyway, that was a huge tangent, but it's what is really finally got me to a point where I feel capable to start my fitness journey which you all can join me on. And if you are also wanting to lose weight because pandemic Miss Rona packed it on for you, well, do it with me and like let's learn stuff together and talk about it and whatever workshop it. Okay, so anxiety under control. Another thing I want to share is that this really helped me is a lot of it has to do with diet, especially when you don't have time, you don't have the energy and especially when you have access to things like Grubhub, DoorDash, Postmates, Uber Eats, it goes on and on and on, right? The options are out there. The problem is those options are generally not the healthiest and sometimes they even seem healthy but they have a lot of calories in it. So I recommend a meal prepping, but again, that implies that you have the time to do it like a day to prep all your meals for the week. If you don't have time to meal prep, there are so many services now that do it for you and if you don't have a lot of money, you can avoid like the big box retailers that do this and just go to a local, like find someone locally through a referral or something like that. Like I have friends who I know for a long time we're doing meals for five bucks a meal. Like that's great, that's cheaper than fast food nowadays. So anyway, I found one, it's called Factor 75. I'm not sponsored. It's nothing, they gave me, they didn't ask me to do anything. They didn't imply that they want me to do anything. I just am sharing it because I think it's valuable. But this is, these are the meals, see? And they're labeled on the side. Each one, they all have a two and a half minute cooking time. So this one, here, I'll bring it out of the fridge. This one is Taco Bowl. Come on, focus, there we go. Taco Bowl, this is what it looks like. Got little compartments, there you go. Okay, so you have little compartments and this is like some type of sour cream. I think it might have some like herbs in it or something like that, jalapenos. And this is Taco Bowl. So it's got meat, cheese, some veggies and stuff like that. Anyway, the reason why I bring this up is because this meal right here is 580 calories. That's pretty dang good for something with cheese and jalapenos and something that's called a Taco Bowl. 580 calories is hard to beat. And it leaves me feeling satiated after. I don't feel like I'm, I'm like, I'm hungry. I gotta wait till the next meal time. But I'm not full either. And so it's just the right amount of calories for me. You can definitely find meals that are gonna be healthier and are gonna be less calories. But in my experience, people who diet really, really hard tend to crash really, really hard. So if you can find something that's a healthy balance of tastes good is, you know, gonna make you feel like satisfied, some cheese and things like that. But also kind of cuts back on the calories too. Then that's like the perfect balance so that you can diet without feeling like you're dieting, if you know what I mean. Okay. So that's my tip for today. And then I got like in between meals, some apples and bananas. And I've got trail mix and things like that. Some cute little cuties. I love those with the sea lists. They're so good. Got my Peloton to do cardio. Oh, you probably can't see it with this light in the back. There's my little cardio station. And then I've got my bench. Hey, it's really bright in here. Let's turn down the brightness. Okay. This is my little workout corner, my bench. The back will fold up if I need it. You can also do decline, incline, all of that. And then I've got these weights that I bought on Amazon that are adjustable. I can take off different size plates and adjust the weights. It's a little bit cumbersome.  It's not as easy as the ones that are like, you just press a couple of buttons and then it like adjusts the weights for you. I would have gotten that also by Bowflex, but they were completely out. And it was during the pandemic you got to wait 10 weeks until we have it restocked and I just didn't want to do that. So yeah, that's what I had at home. And then I'm going to start going to the gym. Yeah, I say that with reluctance. Let me, let's talk about that for a second. Let's not make me a silhouette though. Up the brightness. So yes, I was out walking dookie this morning and I ran into my buddy Carl and he was walking his new baby Gus and he has been going to the gym cause he goes to crunches as long as like, have you been? And I said, no, I haven't really gone. Although I'm vaccinated. Honestly, I'm kind of embarrassed to show my face there because it's a relatively small pool of people and we all know each other and we all see each other in our progress and all of that. And, you know, I'm used to being like the leanest, most cut, you know, in shape guy, one of the top guys there. Obviously, if I'm a competitive bodybuilder, I should be. And so to show up and be 30 pounds over my normal weight is, is hard for me to deal with. It's ego, it's embarrassment, you know, it's all that crap, but I just need to get over it. So to ease into it, I'm going to try to go as early as I can. The gym opens at five a.m. Which means I would have to get up at like four, four 30 a.m. Which means I have to go to bed early enough. And so I'm going to try to do that so that I can get like an hour of working out in before I start work in the morning. Cause I work from home Tuesday through Thursday so I can do that. And Saturday and Sunday, I can do that as well. I'm in the office on Mondays and Fridays. Now that you know my full work schedule, at least with that one job. So that's the plan. That's what I'm going to do. And I'm going to continue to check in with you guys with my journey. I'll be posting stuff to my Instagram story too. Those of you who follow me on Instagram probably were used to me like almost every day posting a selfie in my Instagram story of you know, like post workout at the gym. So I'll probably start doing that again. I won't be showing as much tummy in the beginning until I lose some of that fat. Look at this. Look at this gut. Oh yeah.  So I need to get rid of it. And even today, like my agent reached out to me and she said, hey, like there's this fitness brand on social media that like wants to hire you to do a shoot in a month. And I'm like, and I had to turn it down. I had to say honestly, Annette, I don't want to misrepresent the agency. I don't want to show up. And then I can try my best to diet and get into shape in the next month. But there's no way I'm going to be in the shape that they're expecting me to be in from my photos.  So she's really sweet about it. She's always very supportive. She says I'm always, I always look perfect just the way I am. But that's like her mom hat. But at the same time, I have to think about, you know, professionally and the agency that doesn't work. So anyway, that's another reason because I'm missing out on, you know, potential paid opportunities. And who doesn't want a paid opportunity? Anyway, oh, oh, I almost forgot. Bo and I, Bo's my boyfriend. If you watched my last video, well, I don't know if it's my last video by the time this is posted. If you watched the last video of me talking in my apartment, then you saw a quick little glimpse of him. But we are moving in together into a two bedroom. Previously I said that I'm waiting to, you know, find out how the approval process goes because I don't want to jinx it. I don't want to ruin it. There's a lot of back and forth in trying to get things verified and stuff. Well, we got approved. So I'm beyond stoked. I want to share it with you so bad because this place is so cool. I'm like, I want to move there right now. But until I sign my name on that little dotted line of the lease, I still don't want to jinx it because that's how excited I am. And that's how like, ugh. So I'm going to wait, I'm going to wait. But once I sign my name on that line, I will share it with you. I'm so excited. There's going to be so many amazing vlogging opportunities there. The place is so cool. All right, I'm done. All right guys, so here is the comment of the day. It was made by Colin Francois. He posted this comment under HIV diagnosis, coping and dealing. He wrote, just happened to me. I'm trying to forgive myself for not being responsible but God, I feel horrible all the time now. Not from the disease, but from the guilt and shame. Ain't that the truth? Colin, I feel for you buddy. And I have to say, everyone has this come to Jesus moment where you're diagnosed and you have a steep learning curve usually most people don't know enough about HIV and what it means. And so here you are trying to grapple with the medical implications of having this chronic disease that is incurable. And at the same time, there's the social implications that are put on us, the stigma as it were that tries to tell us that our value is less than because we acquired this virus and that's a bunch of hooey. As I said before, HIV is just another form of life, trying to live, trying to do its thing and we have put all this meaning onto it that if you have HIV, well, you were careless or you deserve it by virtue of being gay, by virtue of being a slut, by virtue of doing drugs or what have you. It's like, none of that is real, none of that matters. None of that is significant.     You are less than me, therefore my life is better even though it's not because you're unhappy and that's why you feel the need to do that. If people are happy, they don't go out trying to make other people feel unhappy or less than or judged or criticized, right? If you're happy and you're at peace, then you wanna uplift everybody around you. You want everyone to feel what you're feeling. Society has allowed this group of negative, unhappy, self-hating people to determine what our value is, how insane is, like what kind of hellscape are we living in where that is the reality? But it is, it's the truth and it's changeable. We have the power over that. We have the ability to stop this feed that's incoming before it gets into our brain, before it gets into our heart, before it gets into our soul and say, nope, not today, I do not accept, I reject this. This is not true for me. It does not vibrate on the frequency that I vibrate on. It is worthless noise. And so I know it's easier said than done, but believe it, keep telling yourself it and act in ways that are going to reaffirm to you that you are valuable.  Easy, right? You are taking care of your health.   Ooh, lots of crime going on in Citizen. You're bringing yourself back to life, literally by taking this life-saving medication. You're keeping HIV in its place. It's allowed to be there a little bit. It can hang out, but she can't do anything worse than that. And that's it. And you can't give it to anybody else once you become undetectable. So this is a great opportunity for you to go inward to do some introspection, find out, really talk to your inner child, your inner self, and be like, what am I missing in my life that allows me to be influenced by the opinions and the thoughts of other people? What am I missing? What can I fill in there? Where do I find the love in myself for myself so that that barrier is insurpassable by destructive energy, right? It's a little woo-woo, I know, but it's hard to give you an X, Y, Z. This is what you gotta do to find your self worth. It's a different journey for everybody, but the important part is that you have the intention of doing it, of making that a priority in your life. Once you make the intention, the steps kind of will appear as you take them, if that makes any sense. So anyway, that's my word of advice. That's the quote of the day. Colin Francois, thank you so much for sharing. So, so, so, so, so many people are going through the exact same thing as you. So at the end of the day, you are not alone. We are a community, we are in it together, we are stronger together, and we are gonna get through this. Not only, we are gonna thrive through this. Peace, guys. Cheers.