Good evening. We begin NASA television coverage of mission STS-79 here at the John F. Kennedy Space Center in Florida. We are just hours away from NASA's 79th space shuttle launch and the 17th flight of the Orbiter Atlantis with a crew of six astronauts. Lift off is planned at 4.54 a.m. Eastern daylight time. The window extends until 5.01 a.m. today. The weather conditions are holding steady. Looks like we've got a 70% chance of having acceptable conditions for launch time. Launch Pad 39A is the stage for the 79th shuttle launch. All countdown events are on schedule and the launch team here in Fireroom 1 is not tracking any technical issues that would preclude an on-time lift off. Countdown clock is at T-minus three hours and holding. We're in a standard built-in hold at this point. This is a planned two-hour built-in hold. At this time, the final inspection team is surveying for any ice that may have formed on the vehicle measuring various elements of the STS-79 vehicle stack. We've now got the STS-79 astronauts having their lunch at the crew quarters. We've got Mission Specialist Jay Apt. Light crew is in their suits. They've been up since about 6 p.m. We've got Pilot Terry Wilkut, Commander Bill Reedy. Crew looks wide awake. Mission Specialist Tom Akers, Mission Specialist Carl Walls, and Mission Specialist John Blaha. We've got a veteran shuttle astronaut crew today. John getting ready to start his four-month stay on the Mir space station. As is the tradition, we've got the cake at the table with the insignia for STS-79. We do have the flight crew members for STS-79 getting strapped in, actually getting their suits on. Got Commander Bill Reedy. He's making his third flight today. He has overall responsibility for commanding the flight. He will become the fourth shuttle commander to dock with the Russian space station. Pilot Terry Wilkut. He will assist Reedy at the flight controls. He's making his second flight today. He will assist in transferring logistics to and from the Mir station. He will also assist Commander Reedy in the fly around of the station after the undocking. We've got Dr. Jay Apt ready to go today. He's Mission Specialist 1 making his fourth flight. He will be involved in activities and experiments aboard the space hub. Mission Specialist Tom Akers, who is also the flight engineer. He will assist the commander and pilot with the Ascent and Reentry checklist and monitoring all the vehicle systems. He's making his fourth flight today. And here we have Mission Specialist John Blaha getting his flights tested. He's making his fifth flight today. Getting ready to embark on his four-month stay aboard the Mir space station, where he will be involved in scientific investigations. And we've got Mission Specialist Carl Walls getting ready. He's waving ready for launch today. He is making his third flight today. This is Shuttle Launch Control. We've got pictures now of the flight crew walking down the hall toward the elevator at their crew quarters. Jay Apt, Carl Walls, Tom Akers, Shannon Lucer. Good morning, John. We read you loud and clear, homie. So now you're loud and clear. Hope you have a great stay up there. And please tell Shannon High when you see her for me. I'll do that. And, Atlantis, looks like we've got everything coming together here, but also you guys have a great trip. And we'll see you back here next week. A profile test of the orbiter's aerial services has started. The flight control services are being moved through a pre-programmed pattern to verify they are ready for launch and positioned for launch today. I'd like to see that from last minute on, no unexpected errors. Thank you, John. 11, T-minus 10, 9, 8. We have a go for engine start. 1, we have booster ignition and liftoff of Atlantis on the fourth flight to dock with the Russian space station. Houston now controlling. Houston, let us roll complete. Roger, roll, Atlantis.  The roll maneuver is complete. Aborted, Atlantis, the vehicle is now in a heads down position on course for a 51.6 degree, 160 nautical mile orbit. Atlantis' velocity is approaching 900 miles per hour. The vehicle is already 2 and 1 half miles down range from the launch site at an altitude of 6.6 miles. Atlantis, Houston, go at throttle up. Copy, go at throttle up. One minute, 25 seconds into the flight, the three liquid fueled engines are now back at full throttle. About 35 seconds away now from burnout and separation of the twin solid rocket boosters aboard the orbiter, Atlantis is 12 and a half miles down range from the launch site, current altitude 18 miles, traveling 2,300 miles per hour. The hydraulic systems, all three of those APUs, auxiliary power units are in good shape as are the electricity producing fuel cells, standing by for SRB separation. SRB separation is confirmed two minutes, 15 seconds into the flight. Atlantis, Houston, Reed, you have a nominal MECO, no Homes 1 required. Copy, nominal MECO, no Homes 1 required. And you can pass along to the mayor that the Atlantis is under way. Atlantis, Houston, Reed, I've got a big picture update for you. Yeah, go ahead. Okay, Reed, since you guys took some soup up there with you, obviously you've got us working down here, but we have APU number two as an unexplained shutdown. We're looking into the data on it, and we're also looking at the APU one and APU three capabilities and their impact on mission duration. We are currently evaluating both a flight day three and a flight day four rendezvous. If we do a flight day three rendezvous, the approximate take will be two hours and 56 minutes. If we do a flight day four rendezvous, the approximate take will be three hours and 40 minutes. We're working both right now, and we will provide you with further updates. Okay, Bill, we copied it all, and we kind of figured as much. We'll switch now to mission control corleaf outside of Moscow for an update on activities in Moscow since Atlantis' launch. This is mission control corleaf at about 3 p.m. Moscow time. Roughly a few minutes after the launch of Atlantis today at about 1.20 p.m. Moscow time, the mission control center here conducted another communication session with the crew onboard Mir. The first order of business for that communication session is for NASA's Mir Operations Lead, Bill Gersten-Mair, was to tell Shannon Lucida to be a status of Atlantis. Shannon, how do you copy? Oh, I thought you were loud and clear. Hey, I saw the shuttle launch. You saw the shuttle launch? I thought afterwards, I mean, you'll see it. Wow, that's great. We had a really good launch. Everything looks clean, normal performance through MECO. They're working their fuel cell to problem, but that's all. Everything else looks clean on the vehicle. That sounds great. Well, just keep us informed because, you know, it's not here and there's no open hatch. We understand and the only thing we're working out is the fuel cell to problem, but everything else looks clean and we'll keep you informed. Okay, I mean, it's just one small step. Okay, well, we're getting there. At launch time, Mir was moving towards Central America on the sending node of its sixth orbit of the day. Coordination activities between the control center here and the control center in Houston will move into high gear over the next few days as both the US and Russian teams will pair for the docking later this week. Besides the science team, a small consulting team is here from Houston for the mission. This team consists of both orbiter and systems, orbiter systems and time-lining experts. Their job is to facilitate the flow of communications between Russia and the US. And until docking updates regarding Atlantis' progress will continue to be passed to the crew waiting on Mir. This is Mission Control, Corlough.


Russia doesn't want its prisoners of war back for nearly four months now There have been no prisoner swaps between Ukraine and Russia the last one taking place on August the 7th During which 22 Ukrainian soldiers were returned home according to the Kiev post But since then thousands of Ukrainian prisoners of war have been languishing in Russian captivity While rising rates of desertions mean the number of Russian prisoners of war in Ukrainian captivity continues to increase Ukraine says the stalling of prisoner swaps is due to obstruction on the part of Russia and Russian prisoners of war Interviewed by Kiev post said they have been abandoned by the Kremlin So why is Russia not doing anything to get its own men back as Russia's 21 month war in Ukraine drags on Reports are appearing that the numbers of its mobilized soldiers seeking to desert are surging earlier the Moscow Times Quoted the Georgian based group Idyte Lesson that aids troops attempting to leave Putin's army Saying it had experienced an 89% increase in requests for assistance over the past few months Grigori Sverdlin founder and leader of the group said that between June and August it had received 305 requests for help but between September and November this number has almost doubled


continue ok. You can find tertiary basis by taking a 1 b 1 a 1 and so on. So, many that is the way you get your tensors which have which are you know 3 indexed object moment of inertia has 2 indexed object, quadrupole moment has 2 indexed object. So, if you want to get a 2 indexed object it has to belong to a binary basis. If you want to get 3 indexed object it has to belong to a tertiary basis and how to construct the tertiary basis is to take tensor product of primary basis number of times apply a projection operator and find out the basis ok. In this case it was trivial because they are all 1 dimensions, but we will do a non-trivial C 3 wheel. So, this was with the matrix representations which you can use, but you can also replace this by a formal operator G operator ok. So, you can write P a 1 the projection for the irreducible representation as the character for the group elements in the representation a 1 and then you can also put the G operator and not worry about the matrix representations for it because the matrix representations depends on the dimensionality of your vector space this is also another way of doing it ok. So, this is where you can apply P a 1 if you remember in the harmonic oscillator I said that this Hamiltonian is invariant and a x going to minus x, it has a group symmetry which is isomorphic to permutations of two objects or the C 2 group this is something which I said and you can see that if I operate it on psi of x the projection operator for an irrep a 1 on psi of x using it this is a operator form of it which I am writing ok. So, operators are typically denoted by. So, if you do this then you see that it will give you the plus sign for the C 2 operation this one anyway is plus 1 identity operator and so, this will be your projection operator or any wave function it will project you to a subspace which is an even function. Similarly if you do projection operator of b 1 on psi of x what will happen this has to be replaced by b 1, b 1 character table is 1 and minus 1. So, what will the thing be first element of course, is for the identity element is plus 1 ok the G operator is an identity operator. So, that will remain a psi of x the second element character for the b 1 irrep is minus 1 which wave functions ground state, second excited state, fourth excited state and all belongs to which irrep in the harmonic oscillator. This projector projects it on to a even wave function. So, even wave functions are a 1 is contains ground state, second excited state or even and similarly this means b 1 contains first excited state, third excited state, all odd excited states. So, you do see that the just the group symmetry which is a simplest group symmetry C 2 has helped you to say that the wave functions which you are going to find or the solutions which you are going to find has to be 2 one dimensional representations by one dimensions you mean that it is either going to be the a 1 is a one dimensional irrep, the projector will give you only a one dimensional state. So, it is either even if it is projecting on to an irrep a 1, if it is projecting on to an irrep b 1 it should be an odd wave function ok. So, now, let me come to one non trivial example I did this simple 1 cross 1 matrix which is not that important, but it is a warm up. So, let us take this we have been doing on the C 3 v the 2 cross 2 matrix representations which are nothing, but your rotation matrices right, rotation matrices sigma v we have written it many times. I also told you that you can do a tensor products. So, this tensor thing is not coming, but this will give you a reducible representation ok. So, I think I have a matrix example here. So, e of the this e refers to the 2 dimensional irreducible representation of C 3 v for the element C 3 ok. So, that is what that is just a rotation by 120 degrees which you have gone through many times. What is the corresponding vector space? It is just 2 dimensional vector space and we can take the basis to be the x y basis is that clear? Are you all with me? So, now, you do the tensor product of e cross e. Let us do it gamma e I am going to use the short hand notation as e 4 g I am going to work it out for C 3 in a surplus. It will act on the basis the corresponding basis let me take it as x 1 y 1 take a tensor product. So, I want to do a tensor product. So, let me write it here which I am going to denote it as e cross e this is 2 cross 2 this is 2 cross 2 this will be multiplied is going to give me a 4 cross 4 which is reducible and I am confining myself to C 3. You can do it on every element of C 3 v just for an exercise I am doing it for you here. So, what do you have to do? You have to take this 2 cross 2 matrix take the first element minus half and multiply with all the 4 elements right. So, let us write that here that is the first block. Second block will be minus root 3 by 2 with minus half minus root 3 by 2 you understand what I am doing right you all with me. So, I have written that 2 by 2 block write this this is one block this is another block I need to do the same thing here what will be the multiplication it will be this element multiplying all the 4 elements let me write this as the e ok you understand what I am saying. The last one will be a minus half with the same this is what I have simplified here and put it on the screen for you. So, that you can check it out these are the 4 cross 4 matrix representation what is the basis vector this one is x 1 y 1 let us take for this one x 1 y 1 this one as x 2 y 2 ok. So, the basis vector for this will be x 1 x 2 x 1 y 2 then y 1 x 2 y 1 y 2 is that right am I right this is a reducible vector space I want to use the projector to find out what is the irreducible subspace is that fine. Here mechanically we took b 1 times b 1 and said it is a 1 by looking at it, but technically you should be able to take the reducible representation and break it up and see how many components are there. So, you can do that here which same no no it is a same representation, but one is acting on particle one another one is acting on particle 2 or one is acting on the position space one is acting on the momentum space. So, you can take it like that you can also do it on the same particle twice that is a different thing then you will have quadratic powers that is what I wrote here like you can do c 1 c 2 c 1 squared is like on the same basis, but this is on a two different spaces that is why there. So, all those finer details can be work depending upon whether both are same space or different space right. Now, I am taking it as like let us take a this is something which you have been doing mechanically I am sure you have all been doing two spin half particles you combine and then you find the irreducible subspace. Now, I am trying to tell you that this is purely from this projection purely from multiplicity when you take the tensor product what are the irreps how many times it occurs and then the projection operator will tell you what are the subspaces this one which I have written is a reducible space. What I am going to show is that that S matrix well break it up into a piece which is x 1 x 2 plus y 1 y 2 that is one piece then you will have a another piece which belongs to A 2 and then another piece which belongs to E which are all binary basis. The binary basis is nothing, but the dot product of two vectors belongs to your trivial representation. This is like taking dot product of x 1 y 1 with x 2 y 2 and you will get it naturally. How will you get this?  If you do a projection operator E if you do a projection operator E the projection operator should be what should be the rank of this projection operator. It is a two dimensional projection operator or it will give you two independent basis which means it is a rank is it is a rank two projection operator and the rank two projection operator will give you these two basis. And why have I said A 1, A 2 and E? I have not really done it here, but if you try to work this out you will find it is a direct sum of A 1 plus A 2 plus E ok. I have not really worked it out, but this breaking is using that multiplicity argument you can check this out I am not done it here. So, basically I am trying to say that E cross E in the short hand notation which I am using will turn out to be A 1 plus A 2 plus E. So, this is what? This is two dimension, this is two dimension it is four dimension, this one is one dimension, this one is one dimension, this is two dimension. It breaks up into irreducible subspaces which is one cross one, one cross one under two cross one. The corresponding matrices will be block diagonal ok. The corresponding matrices will be block diagonal with first block diagonal as one cross one, the next one is one cross one, but it belongs to the irrep which is different. If it is one cross one, you can look at the character table and see that it is A 2 characters entries. And then the last one will be the conventional two dimensional irrep ok. So, this is what I am trying to show on the screen here. So, I have explicitly tried to P A 1 in the case of C 3 V group all the characters are plus one using this formula ok, but now you replace it by all the elements of C 3 V and do not worry about this. So, this is what I have written it of the screen here. Order of the group is six, the dimension of the matrix, dimension of the irrep A 1 is one cross one, one dimensionally irrep. And then the all the characters of this A 1 which is the unit representation is all one. So, you add up all the matrices I wrote only one matrix you have to write the matrices for all the elements and add it up. What you get is what you call it is a prediction operator for A 1. So, I have shown that here P A 1 turns out to be this sorry this is not right is that right yeah it is right. So, this is a 4 cross 4 matrix write the 4 cross 4 matrix sum it up and what you get are the prediction operator for A 1 again do it for using the characters of the irrep E please check this and the last one. And you can check that the rank of these matrices are these two are one and one and this one will have a rank two ok. The immediate step after this is you take an arbitrary vector just like I took x, y, z or a, b, c take a arbitrary four dimensional vector you know what is the basis state right. I am using here the i cap, j cap notation, but it is like x, y coordinate if you want to take it. So, i 1 cap, i 2 cap, j 1 cap, j 2 cap ok. So, what is happening is that if you do the prediction operator for each of the irreps on this arbitrary vector you get this answer especially for P E I get this answer ok. What does it mean? I get a linear combination for arbitrary alpha, beta, gamma, delta. So, this tells me that there are. So, this one will be according to that it will be x 1, x 2 minus y 1, y 2 and this one is x 1, y 2 minus or plus y 1, x 2. This is the basis for the E projection and for the A 1 anyway I have written and A 2 will be this is minus I have used I 1, I 2, but it is the same as the I component and the j component. The thing which I want you to do is I will put this on Moodle please check this algebra it is it is just to I have given you the concept today, but unless you work it out all the 4 cross 4 matrices and substitute and check it out you will not understand what I am saying. So, I have given you this data this also you should check. You should also check that the projection operator P A 1 when operates on an arbitrary alpha, beta, gamma, delta it gives you only this subspace whose basis is going to be given by x 1, x 2 plus y 1, y 2 or I call it as I 1, I 2 plus j 1, j 2 and you can check P A 2 will give you this and P E will give you this ok. So, what does that tell me that I can start writing binary basis, z squared is a trivial binary basis which will come from A 1 cross A 1.  How are you getting x squared plus y squared? It is this one when x 1 and x 2 are taken to be the same x you get x squared plus y squared that comes from the tensor product of E cross E and it belongs to the A 1 A revenue. Similarly, you can work out all the tensor product. So, we will anyway this I have already discussed with you this also I was telling you that typically a system will have a bigger group and then you break it up into a smaller group ok. This you can try it out and there was one more assignment problem which we are supposed to do it and take a look at this. Essentially, you will have a system sudden perturbation will break it up into a lower symmetry system. Once it does whatever irrep in which the system was there it becomes a reducible representation and it will break it up into irreps of the lower group represent ok. So, this is what will happen in nature ok. So, to sum up what I am trying to tell you I just wanted to flash this for you since I have done so much. For any system with symmetry group G union H will commute with the elements of G that is the definition of saying that if suppose the Hamiltonian has a symmetry Hamiltonian will commute with every element of this C 2 group the non-trivial element is only the C 2 element Hamiltonian will commute with that. Once it commutes whenever there is a commutation relation like this in quantum mechanics you allow for you allow for state psi of x and G psi of x to have the same energy you all know that right. If you have operator A and operator B commuting you can have a simultaneous Eigen states of both operator the two operators which commute here the first operator is Hamiltonian. So, I am saying the energy Eigen states have to be degenerate in general. When will it not be degenerate if G on psi of x is proportional to psi of x that is what happens in this harmonic oscillator G on psi of x is proportional to psi of x then you will get non-degenerate Eigen state. How do I see it in this irrep language? How do I see it in this irrep language? If it was degenerate then you will have G of psi of x will be a linear combination of the set of degenerate Eigen function this is known in quantum mechanics. Now, in the irrep language look at the character table. So, when you take the character table C 3 V has two one dimensional irrep, one two dimensional irrep, phi 2 has two one dimensional irrep. Once you look at this character table the corresponding matrix representation will have to act on a vector space which will have basis states. So, xi i is what I am calling it as a basis states where I will run from one to L alpha and what is the meaning whenever there is a group symmetry in the system when I operate this on xi i it will be a linear combination of xi i. If it is a one dimensional vector space if L alpha is 1 what is the linear combination available? You do not have any other linear combination. So, gamma G of xi i and xi i will have to have same energy if the Hamiltonian had the group symmetry and gamma G of xi i will give you a linear combination of basis states of that irrep. If there is only a one dimensional irrep what is the linear combination? So, it is non degenerate. If you are looking at one dimensionally irrep xi i when you do gamma on xi i it better be only proportional to xi i you cannot get anything linear combination. The linear combination will happen only when you go to C 3 V or other groups with two dimensionally reps where the basis will be two dimensional basis or three dimensional basis depending on what group symmetry we are looking at. Is this clear? So, now with this information you take a relook at the particle in a two dimensional box that is why you start getting degeneracies when you go to two dimensional box is because of the C 4 V symmetry because C 4 V symmetry will allow for a two dimensionally irrep and then gamma G of xi i will be a linear combination that is why you start getting degenerate states for 2D harmonic oscillator or 2D particle in a box, but not for a 1D harmonic oscillator. 1D harmonic oscillator has to be non-degenerate because the irreps of the character table are only one dimensional you cannot get degenerate energy eigenstates. Is this clear? So, let me stop here.


I know you miss me. It's easy. Just say it. Just say it. Come out and say it. Vaknin, we miss you. My name, my name is Sam Vaknin and I'm the only author of Malignant Self-Love, Narcissism Revisitors. I'm also your favorite professor in any subject whatsoever. This happens to be psychology. Today we're going to discuss two tangential subjects. One is modification and how modification contributes to the regulation of moods in the narcissist and to the transition from one type of narcissist to another. I've dealt with these topics at length in previous videos, but today I would like to clarify it a bit. The second topic on today's relatively short video is hoovering, a contribution to the dynamic of hoovering. I coined the word hoovering together with many other words like ghosting, flying monkeys, somatic narcissists, cerebral narcissists and so on and so forth. I coined it to describe a process whereby the narcissist tries to revive the shared fantasy but to revive a specific shared fantasy by re-acquiring, by teaming up again with a re-idealized, a process of re-idealization, a re-idealized erstwhile, previous intimate partner. Hoovering never happens if the intimate partner multiplies the narcissist, but anything short of modification and you are up for hoovering. Today I would like to make a minor contribution to this topic as well, but before we go there I would like to add to your reading list, the assignment for this semester, these are books that you have to read as you know, you have to submit reports and so on and I'm about to add a book which I would place at the top of the list. So this is really a cynical one, this is something you have to do. It's an amazing book and even giants like Theodor Millen rely on this book extensively as an authoritative source and it is, it's very short, it's in terms of textbooks, it's less than 300 pages long, but it's a bombshell. It includes everything known about personality disorders. I strongly recommend it to any student, especially since you are post-graduates, this is a way to keep up to speed, keep yourself updated. So Len Sperry, S-P-E-R-R-Y is the author, the book is the Handbook of Diagnosis and Treatment of Diagnostic and Statistical Manual 5 Personality Disorders, Assessment, Case Conceptualization and Treatment. This is the third edition published in 2016. One of the major advantages of this book is that it keeps making a distinction between a personality style and a personality disorder. Many people have the same personality style as someone with a personality disorder, for example. Many people are grandiose, they are narcissistic, they are entitled, they lack empathy, etc. etc. Yet they don't measure up to the level of a diagnosis. They have a personality style and he has these amazing tables comparing the style to the disorder. Milan had adopted this contraption and had incorporated it in his seminal book, Personality Disorders in Modern Life, which I keep quoting from in my videos. So Len Sperry, Handbook of Diagnosis and Treatment of Diagnostic 5 Personality Disorders, a must. Let us now go to the topics of the video starting with the with modification. To remind you, narcissistic modification is an extreme form of decompensation. Let's regress a bit. Each and every human being, each and every human being, healthy and unhealthy, has something called narcissistic defense mechanisms. Narcissistic defense mechanisms are strategies, ways of reframing and reinterpreting reality so that it doesn't inflict grave damage on one's soul or psyche. So sometimes reality is too harsh, injuring, injurious, wounding, painful, hurtful, and cannot be countenance, cannot be accepted as it is. Psychological defense mechanisms kick in and they essentially falsify reality. They falsify reality by beautifying it, by changing it, by recasting it, by looking at it from another angle, by pretending, by denying, by repressing, by splitting reality to all good and all bad and identifying with the good. There are numerous ways of rewriting history and absenting yourself from unmitigated friction with reality. So as to ameliorate anxiety, regulate your internal environment including your moods and your emotions and allow you to survive simply. So defense mechanisms are crucial for survival. In the absence of defense mechanisms, people disintegrate, they fall apart, they become psychotic. Borderlines, for example, have extremely primitive defense mechanisms. So they don't cope very well with reality.  Similarly, narcissists resort usually to primitive defenses, such as splitting or grandiosity. And narcissists similarly are constantly injured and wounded by reality, narcissistic injury. And so narcissistic modification is when all the psychological defense mechanisms at the disposal of the narcissist crumble. All of them are disabled. All of them are inactivated at the same moment. And when I say moment, I mean moment. One could argue that normal people, healthy people, also can undergo narcissistic modification because in each and every one of us, there's healthy narcissism. Here, I disagree vehemently with Otto Kahnberg. Otto Kahnberg claimed there's no such thing as healthy narcissism. I completely beg to disagree. And on my corner are 99% of the scholars of narcissism. We all believe that there is healthy, healthy narcissism. Well, since there is healthy narcissism, and healthy narcissism underlies one sense of self esteem, regulates one's sense of self worth, gives one self confidence. Since there is healthy narcissism, we should have something, we should have a narcissistic modification, also in the case of healthy people. But healthy people have numerous defense mechanisms, primitive, less primitive, highly evolved, socially embedded and contextualized defense mechanisms. So healthy people emerge from modification almost instantly by drawing on ego resources and outside resources which the narcissists doesn't have, because it doesn't have a functioning ego. Narcissism has only primitive defense mechanisms, primitive, childlike, infantile, and these are his only protections against a hostile, harsh jungle out there. And when these defenses fall apart, he falls apart. This process of falling apart is called decompensation. Defense mechanisms compensate for the unsavory, unpalatable, unacceptable aspects of reality. And when they disappear, when they are no longer available to the narcissist, there is a process of decompensation, inability to compensate. Reality invades, like a tsunami, like a tidal wave, invades the narcissist emptiness in effect, fills him up with tremendous pain and hurt, unleashes his buried, repressed and denied negative emotionality from his early childhood. And he is, he becomes effectively a borderline. His emotions are dysregulated, his moods become labile. He becomes to all intents and purposes, psychodynamically, a borderline, modification pushes the narcissist to become a borderline. It is a result, what is modification happens when the narcissist is exposed to a deeply traumatizing, deeply challenging, deeply humiliating event. And so the narcissist copes with modification. And with such events, in one of two ways, he can render the modification external, he can convert it to external modification. What does it mean? External modification is when the narcissist casts himself, presents himself, believes that he is a helpless victim. He adopts the victim's stance.  And so he transfers, he transfers the shame and the humiliation and the guilt sometimes, and the responsibility and the locus of control to evil outsiders. And this preserves his self image as a good person, a morally upright person who did nothing, who had done nothing wrong, who did not deserve such treatment. But if you, if your fate and life and mental health and well being and welfare and ability to function, if they're controlled, if all these are controlled from the outside, it's very frightening. It's threatening about and it pushes you to depression. When the narcissist chooses the external to externalize the modification, he becomes clinically depressed. We are beginning to see glimmers of what I'm about to tell you. Modification seems to regulate moods and effects. It is a regulator.  Modification forces them to make a choice in terms of mood mobility, for example. It forces them to choose depression. It's like what we call in quantum mechanics, the collapse of the wave function. There are many possibilities, happiness, depression, is that, and a modification pushes them to make a final choice and to adopt depression, the depressive stance. And so, by the way, in psychoanalytic terms, this is a regressive phase. It's regressing to the paranoid schizoid phase of melanocline, but we'll leave it aside for a minute. Function number one of modification, reducing mood mobility by settling on a specific mood, by a collapse of the wave function of moods in quantum mechanic terms. This is function number one, but there is also emotional dysregulation, enhanced emotional dysregulation after modification. There's, the narcissistic is a wash with negative emotionality. Had he been aboard the line, he would have been pushed to suicide. Indeed, many, many think that narcissistic modification is life-threatening. I wouldn't go that far, but some scholars do, especially in the 1950s. So, one option is to choose external modification. Then there's a second option to choose internal modification. Internal modification is what the narcissist says. It's my fault. I made it happen. My, for example, my abuse pushed her to misbehave this way. My, my lack of agreeableness, my disagreeableness forced people to humiliate me. So, he accepts his contributions to the modifying event. And he also accepts his ensuing responsibility. If he, if he actually engineered the event, if he led inexorably to the event, if he pushed everyone present to humiliate him, to torture him, to mock him, to, to, you know, impinge on his interests, whatever. If he pushed people to misbehave, then he's responsible for it. It's an acceptance of responsibility and contribution. And of course, by reframing the event this way, the narcissist restores his sense of mastery, his sense of control over the situation. I made it happen. His sense of control of others. I pushed them. They were my pawns. They didn't, it's, it's like Jesus says in the New Testament, forgive them father for they know not what they are doing. So, they didn't know what they were doing. I pushed them. And, and this position is very comforting. As the narcissist says, well, I'm in control of such situations. I can prevent them from happening. But this pushes him to be hyper-vigilant, to be paranoid, to develop referential ideation, to develop a secretary delusions. Because if, if he's in control and if he can push people and, and so on and so forth, he needs to be on his toes to prevent this from, from happening again. He needs to be on his toes in both cases.  He needs to be on his guard. People are going to, how to get him. They're about to hurt him. They're about to torture him and torment him and taunt him and humiliate him and mock him. And worse, he needs, he needs to be careful. So this, this creates hyper-vigilance, paranoid ideation, the secretary delusions, referential ideation, etc. But there is the same response when there is internal modification. Because in internal modification it is the narcissist who make, make it happen, makes it happen. So he sort of brings it upon himself. And in this case, the hyper-vigilance is self-directed. The paranoid and referential ideation is self-directed. The per-secretary delusions are self-delusions. So we have two solutions. External modification with outward-directed paranoia, and internal modification with inward, inward-directed paranoia. One could call it hyper-vigilance and auto-vigilance, if you wish. That's a very interesting statement, because we have disorders with auto-plastic defenses. These disorders used to be called neurosis. It seems that we no longer use this term, more or less, but neurosis at the time, there were disorders of auto-vigilance when the patient took responsibility for everything bad and wrong that had happened in her life, and consequently was very afraid of herself as her worst enemy. I've seen the enemy in its eye. And so it seems that modification, first of all, regulates mood, makes you, pushes you, pushes the narcissist towards depression if he chooses internal modification, and pushes the narcissist towards neurosis if he chooses internal modification. And in both cases the mediating vector, the mediating resource, is paranoia. So modification, modification engenders paranoia, creates, provokes paranoia. But then the only question left is the paranoia directed outward, in which case there's depression, or is it directed inward, in which case there's neurosis. Now it sounds to you like da, like so what, but it's a big deal, trust me. I'll tell you in a minute why, after I get some liquid courage. Is there anything better than red wine? Yes, more red wine. Okay, why is it a big deal? It's a big deal, because in the past all the greatest minds of psychology made a distinction between psychosis and neurosis. There were the neuroses multiple, and there were the psychosis multiple. And it seems that modification can create a bridge between neurosis and psychosis. It can create a bridge between internal objects interpreted as external objects in external modification. And external objects interpreted as internal objects, in case of internal modification. Remember, when external objects are interpreted as, when external objects are interpreted as internal, that's narcissism. When internal objects are interpreted as external, that's psychosis. And modification allows you both, depending which type you choose. It's like there's a menu. When you're modified, as a narcissist, you have a menu. Or the metredi comes to the table and says, Monsieur, you can choose one of two. Today we have the plat du jour. Today we have an offer, external modification. And we give you the option of depression. And the other dish is internal modification. We give you the option of neurosis. In the first case, essentially, essentially you react, you have narcissistic defenses. Narcissistic ancient primitive structures are activated. Melanic line would have appreciated this. And in the second case, neurotic structures are activated. And in both cases, in both cases, there's a god awful almighty confusion between internal objects and external objects. It seems that the mechanism that causes us to confuse internal and external objects is not actually trauma, but is the reaction to events which is modification. We may have to reconsider whether narcissism, borderline etc etc are post traumatic events or post modification events. And you can say, what's the difference? Trauma creates modification. Not really. First of all, most traumas don't create modification. But trauma is exclusively, usually, exclusively the outcome, the outcome of reaction to events that is not mediated via an interpretative framework. In other words, trauma is direct. You experience something and there's trauma. There is no middle stage where you analyze. Think about it, reframe it, put it in context. You don't have time to activate any defense mechanism. There's an event, an immediate trauma. It's so direct, I mean the traumatic response is so immediate, that there is good reason to suggest that trauma is simply a dysfunction of reality testing. Not actually, not actually a real wound or real injury or real, but simply misapprehending reality and misapprehending reality in a way that is very threatening, of course. So you could say that trauma is subspecies of paranoia. Paranoia is the same. It's triggered immediately without mediation. So trauma is when you confront a potentially mortifying event and you immediately react by developing a full-fledged monopoly of cognitions and emotions which are integrated cohesively into a narrative which we later call trauma. That's trauma. Modification is not the same. You can have modification five days later, five months later, even years later. Modification first undergoes a phase of cognitive analysis. The emotions are not on the surface. There's no access to most of these emotions because they're very threatening. There is, in other words, trauma first happens, then is dissociated. So the sequence in trauma is event, trauma, dissociation. The sequence in modification is event, dissociation, mortification. It's a very, very important distinction. Very crucial distinction because in the case of trauma it is already cognitively and emotionally processed reaction to the event. It's a choice, in other words. In the case of modification, I'm sorry. In the case of modification, I repeat, I'm sorry, I misled you. In the case of modification it's cognitively and emotionally processed reaction to the event. So modification is a choice. Trauma is not a choice. Trauma is very similar to what Freud called upreaction. Trauma is a totally automated process. It's not a choice. It's, I would say, a constitutional propensity, constitutional defect. I don't know what else, what other words to use. It's like the person is trauma ready. It's like high definition ready television. It's trauma ready. And this is his mode of reacting to reality. This is the language he uses to process reality and to try to act within reality self-efficaciously. Modification is not like trauma because modification requires a phase of analyzing what had happened and then allowing yourself to experience the reactive emotions, the emotions in reaction to what had happened. This processing involved and only then you can feel modified. But this processing is unconscious, is dissociated. Summary, trauma is event and then trauma. So trauma is totally automatic reaction to event. If you have the tendency to process reality via trauma. So reality, trauma, forgetting about it, dissociation. Opposite, reality, dissociating the reality, forgetting about it. Background, unconscious processing, cognitive and emotional and then modification. Very crucial observation. And then according to the choice you make because you process everything cognitively and emotionally then you make a choice. Do I prefer an external trauma or do I prefer an external modification or do I prefer internal modification? If you choose external modification you end up depressed. Depression. You regulate your mood.  You think your mood is the main threat. So you choose external modification and you end up choosing making a choice of depression. You regulate your mood. Badly, it's a bad choice but it's better than up and down. The other option is internal modification where you actually regulate your emotions and your cognitions in ways which are neurotic. Autoplastic for example. You blame yourself. Okay, we said in earlier videos that collapse and modification regulate moods but they also regulate something much more important. Switching between self- states. Now what is called diagnosis in the diagnostic and statistical manual? What is called personality disorders? That's very antiquated notion. This notion is like at least 50 years old if not 60. We don't think about these things this way anymore. It's very good for insurance purposes. It's very good for pharmaceutical companies and you know medical doctors and hospitals but scholars in the field we don't think about it this way. We think in terms of post-traumatic conditions, dissociation, self-states. We don't think in terms of personality disorder. This is very old thinking. So personality disorders are self-states and because they are self-states and because disordered people have many self-states you can easily switch from one so-called diagnosis to another so-called diagnosis. You can easily switch from one personality disorder to another personality disorder. You can switch from one self-state to another self-state. For example borderlines under stress, anticipating rejection and humiliation and abandonment, borderline switch from one self-state, the borderline self-state to another self-state, the secondary psychopath self-state. That's an example. Similarly narcissists switch from the narcissistic grandiose self-state to the paranoid self-state.  What is the trigger? What decides if there is switching or not? Modification and collapse. Modification and collapse, they are the triggers and the bridges. They cause the covert narcissists to become overt, the overt to become covert, the somatic to become cerebral, the cerebral to become somatic, the inverted to become overt, the borderline to become psychopath, the psychopath to become narcissists, the narcissists to become borderline.  Any therapist will confirm this and any spouse, any intimate partner of a person, of someone with personality disorder will confirm this. Narcissists often are obsessive-compulsive, obsessive-compulsive or grandiose, grandiose people or paranoid. Everyone will tell you that making these artificial distinctions between personality disorder is nothing short of counterfactual. It's psychology's fantasy, it's not true. It's simply not true. And in the ICD-11 they are thinking of putting everything under one diagnosis, personality disorder, which is something I've been advocating since 1995. But what I've added in the last four years is the mechanical psychodynamic explanation why people shift between these so-called diagnoses because they are modified. And when they are modified, they are faced with a choice. They have to process the events, they analyze them cognitively, they experience them emotionally, and all of this happens in the unconscious and then they make a choice. It could be a mood-affective choice. I choose depression or it could be a neurotic choice, choice of neurosis. I accept responsibility and so on. But in both cases they transition to another diagnosis, another type. The covert goes through modification. And if he becomes, for example, neurotic, if he chooses neurosis, he becomes instantly overt. Because what is neurosis is to say I was in control. I did everything. It all happened because of me. That's a grandiose statement. Covert narcissists who make grandiose statements openly, they are not covert anymore. They're open, they're overt. So through such processing of the modification, the covert becomes overt. And that's only one example. Similarly, the borderline. If the borderline chooses internal modification. For example, she anticipates abandonment and she has been humiliated. She's been rejected, openly rejected by someone. Borderlines cannot digest and cannot assimilate rejection, abandonment and humiliation. So when this happens to them, they are modified. The minute they are modified, they begin to process the modification. The processing time in borderline is very very brief. It's days, hours, sometimes minutes. And so they process the modification cognitively. They process the modification emotionally. It all happens in the background, in the unconscious. The borderline just feels ill it is. The uncomfortable. Because egodistony is growing. As the processing continues, egodistony is growing. And so at some point, the modification becomes conscious. Yes, the processing is finished and you become conscious. And then the borderline has to make a choice. Do I want to be depressed? Or do I want to be neurotic? If she chooses neurosis, she transitions to secondary psychopath. Because what is neurosis? What is the internal modification solution? It's to say I'm in control. I am the master. I'm going to decide how things are going to happen. That's defiance. That's lack of impulse control. That's recklessness. These are all features of the psychopath. So she becomes psychopathic because she had chosen the internal modification thing. But what happens if she chooses the external modification? And she becomes depressed when we have a combination of borderline with depressive aspects. And of course, what is a borderline with depressive aspects? It's a covert narcissist. It's a covert narcissist because her grandiosity is preserved. But her depression pushes her into a schizoid position, into the background, away from people. And if you put all this together, you get a covert. But not any covert, covert narcissist. Similarly, I can show you how applying these simple principles gives you any diagnosis. Any diagnosis within the personality disorder space. Schizoid. I mean paranoid. You name it. Here's a game for you. Sit at home. Write down these principles. Principle. Modification. Unconscious processing. And then you can choose depression or neurosis. In depression, you're not in control. In depression, you're controlled from the outside. In neurosis, you control. Okay? Simple principles. Take them. Use them. Use them. Apply them to personality disorders. And see the amazing results. You easily transition from narcissists to schizoid, from schizoid to borderline. From borderline to power. Immediately you see they're all facets of one single clinical entity. It's so obvious. Okay. I want to talk, to say a word or two, about hoovering and I will let you go having hoovered you into this video. When you dump the narcissists, when you abandon, when you break up with the narcissist, and even when the narcissist discards you, even when he discards you. Discarding you, when the narcissist discards you, that's internal modification. The narcissist has failed. Otherwise, why would they have to discard you? For example, if he discards you and he devalues you, he has to admit that he had made a mistake when he had idealized you.  Were you wrong then or are you wrong now? Are you capable of being wrong? The discard phase is a challenge to grandiosity. Because to devalue your intimate partner and then to discard her, you must admit that you had made a mistake when you had idealized her. So there's a mortification there. And exactly this mortification pushes the narcissists to hoover. Because even the discard, and of course when you break up with the narcissist or you dump people, you cheat on him, all these events are modifying events and it's a challenge to the narcissist grandiosity. He needs to resolve the mortification and he resolves the mortification by converting it into either external or internal. In a minute we'll connect it to hoovering. The narcissist when he discards you, devalues and discards you, or when you devalue and discard the narcissist, because you remember this process of idealization is mutual.  It's co-idealization, co-idealization. Devaluation is the same, co-devaluation. You devalue the narcissist, the narcissist devalues you, whichever the case may be, it's modifying. If you are the one who had dumped the narcissist, it's definitely modifying.  That's modifying. It's a challenge to grandiosity. So he can then choose. Once mortification sets in, he must choose between external and internal. He can say, well, good riddance.  So external mortification involves overt devaluation. Blaming the other, she's evil, she's malicious, she conspired against me, she stabbed me in the back, she betrayed me. External mortification is transferring the locus of control to you. But this creates narcissistic injury. It's a horrible narcissistic injury, because it means that the narcissist is handing the locus of control to you.   The narcissist was a victim.  God is not a victim. God's son was a victim, but God is not a victim. So it's a problem for the narcissist to maintain both simultaneously. You know, it creates what we call cognitive dissonance. On the one hand, the narcissist believes himself to be God, and on the other hand, he is the victim of a woman he had just devalued.  Motify. If he chooses internal notification, it's even worse.  I'm still in control. I made this happen.  You made what happened. You destroyed your relationship.  What did you make happen? So in both cases, there's a challenge of grandiosity and the only way to restore the grandiosity is to Hoover you. Hoovering is about restoring grandiosity. End of story. There's no other motive to Hoovering. People keep asking me, why does he Hoover me? He has, you know, another source of supply. He's married. He's Hoovering you not because not only when he doesn't have other sources of supply, that's functional Hoovering. And that's not okay. He's Hoovering you not usually. He's trying to Hoover you mainly to restore his grandiosity. Very, very few occasions it has to do with practical functional utilitarian thinking like, I don't have a source of supply. I'll go back to Amanda or I don't have I don't have a shared fantasy. Let's try to reestablish a shared fantasy and I will re-idealize Amanda so that she can fit into the new shared fantasy. It's hard work to Hoover to re-idealize. It's counterfactual. You have to fight yourself. You have to and again you have to admit that you're wrong because you had devalued Amanda only two weeks ago. Why are you Hoovering her now?  Stupid, ugly. What happened in these two weeks? I mean, that's the fastest diet on earth if... So there's a lot of it. There are many internal contradictions in Hoovering. It's a very fraught and problematic process for the narcissist. So he hoovers you to restore his grandiosity and the aim even sometimes unconscious aim is to Hoover you and then when he succeeds to immediately dump you vindictively. A lot of Hoovering is concerned with revenge with punishment. Hoovering is intended to reaffirm the narcissist's grandiosity. I'm irresistible. I'm amazing and the one and only I'm unique. She can't find a substitute for me. So this is reaffirmation of grandiosity, rebuilding it. The second reason is to punish you for your transgression. Transgressions for not fitting in into the shared fantasy, for not fulfilling your maternal maternal role, for failing as a mother, for not being his admirer and fan. I'm thinking admirer and fan for not catering to his sexual kinkiness and sadism, for letting him down and and disappointing him by not agreeing to participate in his adventures as a playmate. There are numerous reasons why you had let why you had kind of let him down and in these are transgressions, especially if you cheated on him or stole his money or something. If you really did something, not okay, if you had misbehaved. So he needs to punish you for your transgressions. Motive number one, restore grandiosity. Motive number two, punish her. It's a penal punitive measure. And reason number three is to teach you to behave yourself in the future, to condition you. Hoovering is a form of operant conditioning. It's a form of intermittent reinforcement.   Hot and cold, warm and freezing, loving, hating. It's intermittent reinforcement and it creates trauma bonding. Hoovering is a long term, non-contemporous, non-contaminous. That means it's a long-term form of intermittent reinforcement where the reinforcement, the opposite reinforcement comes a bit later. It's divorced in time because most intermittent reinforcement is immediate.   So it's very, very long intermittent reinforcement, but it is. And it creates trauma bonding. It teaches you to behave yourself in the future. It's exactly like house-breaking a pet.  So, he's domesticating you.  He is reverting you to the snapshot so that you can fulfill your role in a shared fantasy. These are the functions of hovering and it's intimately connected to the modification that he had experienced when his grandiosity had been challenged in the disintegration of the shared fantasy. When in the phase that the shared fantasy disintegrates, whichever solution he chooses, internal modification or external modification, his grandiosity is severely tested. If he chooses external modification, you control the situation. You had the upper hand.  He had been the victim, but that means that he's helpless. He's not omnipotent. He's not Godlike. That's modification.  He misjudged you when he had idealized you. It reflects badly on him. It also leads to modification. It also leads to modification. And modification forces him. Forces him to compensate by hovering. And hovering is a compensatory grandiosity restructuring or grandiosity reconstruction measure which at the same time molds you, changes you, conditions you and transforms you to become such a partner in a future shared fantasy which will not force who will not force the shared fantasy again into bankruptcy. Be the right partner.  Got it kiddos? Okay. Until next time.


CBS wanted to do critical reporting on Ukraine's government, but Ukraine's government said no. Following objections from the Ukrainian government, CBS News has removed a short documentary which had reported concerns from numerous sources that a large amount of the supplies being sent to Ukraine aren't making it to the front lines. The Ukrainian government has listed its objections to the report on a government website, naming Ukrainian officials who objected to it, and explaining why each of the CBS News sources it dislikes should be discounted. After the report was taken down in the Twitter post about it removed, Ukrainian Foreign Minister Dmitry Kuliba said that was a good start, but still not enough. Welcome, first step, but this is not enough, Kuliba tweeted. You have misled a large audience by sharing unsubstantiated claims and damaging trust in supplies of vital military aid to a nation resisting aggression and genocide. There should be an internal investigation into who enabled this and why. The CBS News article about the documentary was renamed from, Why Military Aid to Ukraine doesn't always get to the front lines, quote, like 30% of it reaches its final destination, and quote, to the far milder, Why Military Aid in Ukraine may not always get to the front lines. An editor's note on the new version of the article explicitly admits to taking advisement on its changes from the Ukrainian government, reading as follows. This article has been updated to reflect changes since the CBS report's documentary Arming Ukraine was filmed, and the documentary is also being updated. Jonas Oman says the delivery has significantly improved since filming with CBS in late April. The government of Ukraine notes that U.S. defense attaché Brigadier General Garrick M. Harmon arrived in Kiev in August of 2022 for arms control and monitoring, end quote. CBS News does not say why it has taken so long for this report to come out, why it didn't check to see if anything had changed in the last few months during a rapidly unfolding war before releasing its report, or why it felt its claims were good enough to air before Kiev raised its objections but not after. Someone uploaded the old version of the documentary on YouTube here, or you can watch it on Bitshoot here if that one ever gets taken down. It was supportive of Ukraine and very oppositional to Russia, and simply featured a number of sources saying that they had reason to believe a lot of the military supplies being sent to Ukraine aren't getting where they are supposed to go. The original article quotes the aforementioned Jonas Oman as follows, quote. All this stuff goes across the border, and then something happens, kind of like 30% of it reaches its final destination, said Jonas Oman, founder and CEO of Blue Yellow, a Lithuania-based organization that has been meeting with and supplying frontline units with military aid in Ukraine since the start of the conflict with Russia-backed separatists in 2014. 30 to 40%, that's my estimation, he said in April of this year, end quote. The US has sent tens of thousands of anti-aircraft and anti-armored systems, artillery rounds, hundreds of artillery systems, switchblade armored drones, and tens of millions of rounds of small arms ammunition, CBS's Adam Yamaguchi tells us. But in a conflict where front lines are scattered and conditions change without warning, not all of those supplies reach their destination. Some also reported weapons are being hoarded, or worse, fear they are being disappeared into the black market, an industry that has thrived under corruption in post-Soviet Ukraine. I can tell you unarguably that on the frontline units these things are not getting there, the Mozart Group's Andy Milburn says, drones, switchblades, ifax, they're not alright, body armor, helmets, you name it. Is it safe to characterize this as a bit of a black hole, Yamaguchi asked him, perhaps in reference to an April report from CNN, whose source said that the equipment that's being sent drops into a big black hole and you have almost no sense of it at all after a short period of time? I suppose if you don't have visibility of where this stuff is going, and if you're asking that question, then it would appear that it's a black hole, yeah, Milburn replied. We don't know, Amnesty International's Donatella Rivera tells Yamaguchi when asked if it's known where the weapons are being sent to Ukraine are going. There is really no information as to where they're going at all, Rivera says. What is more worrying is that at least some of the countries that are sending weapons do not seem to think that it is their responsibility to put in place a very robust oversight mechanism to ensure that they know how they're being used today, but also how they might and will be used tomorrow. A news outlet pulling a report because their own government didn't like it would be a scandalous breach of journalistic ethics. A news outlet pulling a report because a foreign government didn't like it is even more so. We've already seen that the Western media will uncritically report literally any claim made by the government of Ukraine in bizarre instances, like the recent report that Russia was firing rockets at a nuclear power plant it had already captured, or its regurgitation of claims that Russians are raping babies to death from a Ukrainian official who ended up getting fired for making unevidence claims about rape. Now not only will Western media outlets uncritically report any claim the Ukrainian government makes, they will also retract claims of their own when the Ukrainian government tells them to. It's not just commentators like me who see the Western press as propagandists, that's how they see themselves. If you think it's your job to always report information that helps one side of a war, and always omit information which might hinder it, then you have given yourself the role of propagandist. You might not call yourself that, but that's what you are by any reasonable definition of that word. And a great many Western Zelenskyites honestly see this as the media's role as well. They'll angrily decry anyone who inserts skepticism of the US Empire's narratives about Ukraine into mainstream consciousness. But then they'll also yell at you if you say we're not being told the truth about Ukraine.   You cannot hold both of these positions simultaneously, they are mutually exclusive, and many actually want the former. This can't lead anywhere good.


Hello beautiful souls, 2024 is a big year of change for all of us and for me the numbers really add up to being a year of change. I was born on 224 and in 2024 I'm going to be turning 55 in numerology that's a super powerful number of change so it's not surprising I'm being guided to change up a lot of things this year as we come into 2024. So in this video I want to share with you some upcoming changes to the channel and some things to expect from me in 2024 and beyond. So first of all I just want to thank you all for being such a big part of my life and part of my spiritual journey for the past seven years. In these past seven years I've been through a tremendous shift on so many levels. I've had a lot of dark night of the soul experiences and like a total mental, physical, emotional and spiritual transformation. So it feels to me like I'm kind of stepping out of this past seven years this period of awakening with newfound clarity on my purpose and clarity on my vision and that's kind of making me think about how I can restructure and refocus everything because when you refocus sometimes you have to shift what you're doing in order to stay aligned and so that's what's happening is what I'd like to just talk to you about and you may or may not know that last year my husband and I started a non-profit metaphysical ministry or as we've started to call it for legal reasons a metaphysical free church and it's called Spoken Earth Ministries. And this is a work in progress and still very much in its infancy but our mission is to help people align mind, body and spirit to the laws of nature and nature's God so that they can create freedom and happiness in their lives and their businesses. So our intention is to provide educational and practical services and programs with four main pillars or areas of focus to support this mission and these are number one, natural health in the healing of body, mind and spirit, two, liberty and natural law, three, stewardship of the land and the natural world and number four, human, creative genius in alignment with sole purpose which includes spiritual entrepreneurship. So I have fully committed myself to devote myself to this mission and these intentions for the rest of my life and you know when when you're creating a work of art I see it as there's two ways you can approach it. One is to have like this full blown vision of what you want to do and then you just do it and number two is just throw paint on the canvas and see what happens until something starts to clear up and then from there you go on in a focused way and that's what I feel like my life has been up until now has been throwing paint on the canvas and at this point in 2024 it feels like oh my gosh the vision is is clear. So in light of that I am planning to start coursework in ministerial training to help me do a better job in serving the community and making sure that everything aligns legally and ethically and I have found a course of study in metaphysical ministry, I hope to start that before the middle of 2024 so what does this mean for the channel? Okay so first and foremost 2024 SEALs really is this this culmination of this shift that's been happening over the last couple years from YouTube being a primarily a creative outlet for me to express one of being shown spiritually to more deepening in service to you as a community of souls that I'm honored and humbled to be in a position to serve. So I've been struggling this for quite some time and I keep going back and forth because there's a lot of moving parts and there's only one of me but spirit's been whispering to me for a long time too. It's time to start another channel and to kind of focus the art and the expression and maybe the energy updates staying here on Art of Awakening and then to start a new channel for spoken earth ministries that is going to address more the spiritual law and entrepreneurship and maybe some other things about you know the natural health more informational stuff on that channel. So I'm looking to start that pretty soon and I think what will happen as I'll just be posting as I posted videos on that just a community post here so that you can you know be aware of that something that is coming to you. If it looks interesting to you you can check that out and then another thing that I'm really looking forward to this year is continuing to build spiritual community. So last year the spoken earth free church membership grew to over 100 souls and this is set up as a private membership organization for the protection of both the church and our members. It is free to join and attend and all star seeds and light workers are invited to join. So we have been meeting twice a month for spiritual gatherings including workshops, group guided meditations and group healing sessions and it's really a wonderful group of enlightened souls that I'm so grateful and honored to serve. And this year in addition to growing the group I'm planning to invest in an online platform to enable members to come together in community at any time. So I'm really hoping for that to be available by the end of February. If not sooner I'm shooting for at least by my birthday February 24th. So for all this to happen of course there needs to be some kind of revenue to help support this because I'm it's hard for me to do it all myself. So I have a few things that I planned that I hope will both support these endeavors both channels and also to serve your needs at the same time. So I'm super excited in 2024 I will be offering some workshops and courses on spiritual topics. I have several plans so stay tuned for announcements about upcoming coming courses and events. I'm hoping to make some changes for our art sales to make my art more accessible as well as to help fund the channel in a better way. And I'm also back open for one-on-one shamanic healing sessions. And all these things are going to be considered donations and will help to support the channel and the ministry. And so in terms of one-on-one because I'm doing everything myself there's going to be limited openings but this is one of my greatest pleasures to serve people in this way. So if you're feeling guided to work with me check out my services I'll be posting after this video. It might be later tonight some links to some of the things I'm talking about here. And then finally donations are always gratefully accepted and you can donate directly to spoken earth ministries or through the super thanks on my channel any of my videos here. So in closing I just want to thank you all from the very bottom of my heart. When I posted my first spirit animal video way back in 2015 I had absolutely no clue what an amazing community would build out of this and just the incredible changes that it would bring to my life. You have completely changed my life and I am so honored and grateful and humbled that that you've been here through this journey and I am really looking forward. I can't wait to serve you in in deeper ways in 2024 and beyond. So sending you all my love. Namaste and remember you were born to be free.