Good evening. I got a couple of these things in the mail I got to do this before we get get going now we get these notifications in the mail for sex offenders that move into certain areas of town and David Segerstrom This is one guy and Troy Lester is another guy, you know, I've been counseling these guys for years I know exactly what's wrong with them And I just want to have a little word of prayer over those two gentlemen Lord We're gonna pray for these two guys tonight. I know what's wrong with them. I know they've got lost demons I know they were hurt very bad in childhood. I know they've got rejection demons. I know that they've done some horrible things and they carry around enormous demonic anger and self-hatred and they're very hurt people and I know the Holy Ghost is able to heal them in our society. They are always Deemed a sex offender. They claim they can't be cured.  We've seen them cured Nothing is beyond the great power of the spirit of the Lord Pray that you'll bring conviction in these two guys Society is labeled imperverts and they've done some horrible things and we are a hundred percent against everything they did because that's all the devil but we're asking you to save them and Hunt them down Convict them of their sin Tell them you love them and give them hope so they don't have to live the rest of their lives in misery and commit suicide in 15 or 20 years as so many do amen Good evening. Welcome to the Arizona Deliverance Center Now's your time to visit Phoenix. The weather is Fantastic out there so beautiful. We who live here year-round pay a large price for this weather You have to hang on through the summer and there's some tough days during the summer It's hotter than the gates of something here in July and August, but it's all over now and it's gorgeous here Now that's why we all moved here. Thank you for coming tonight. We're gonna take a look at the incredible man of God Jonathan And we're gonna learn from him Jonathan and Saul or two of the most interesting people in the Bible Saul in particular is one of My favorite people in the Bible. He has an incredible range of pathology That is absolutely fascinating. He went from a humble servant of God it was prophesying for the Lord and a good man to a Psychopath and the Bible kind of shows how he went through those steps from being here to ending up here Committing suicide and burning in hell.  He's one of my favorite people in the Bible The revelations in Saul's life are fantastic and tonight. I'm going to talk about his son his firstborn son Who saw the whole thing? He had a bleacher seat front row on the life of King Saul and Overcame the whole thing Not a lot of enthusiasm from Jonathan tonight, but this will pick up as we go See what I like to do is start out real slow very boring and then build it up. Okay. 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He chooses three thousand men of Israel So so as I mentioned to you one of my favorite characters in Bob we went from here to here and The road he traveled was fantastic very interesting very revealing about mental illness and how you get severely mentally ill Fascinating story. I haven't taught that Saul teaching in a few years. Maybe I'll do it again here great story of The rise and fall of King Saul was Jonathan saw the whole thing and Saul decides to do something nuts and in a nutshell here's what happened. He was your typical Christian in the United States Saul got in the ministry Things started going well he started to Get a big head over it textbook 21st century Christianity Every person that goes in the ministry is attacked by the devil with an avalanche of compliments He has a satanic wave of Compliments coming to you if you go into the ministry He's gonna crush you.  That's a setup Well, it worked on King Saul. He flooded in with compliments and he went from a Insecure Boy growing up in a family. He was dangling and too tall and he always fall out of place and insecure and In fact when Samuel came to anointing King, they said he was hiding among the stuff He would hide.  He's only got 3000 soldiers This guy put the M in more on 2000 we're with Saul in Mishmash, and they actually should I guess should be Mitch mismatch and a thousand were with Jonathan the Bay of a Benjamin and that's where Saul was from remember King Saul was from Tribal Benjamin the rest of the people he sent every man to his tent. Well, he only could find 3000 decent fighters 3000 that's it. Okay at that time they're being dominated by the Philistines Philistines own them their slaves They're under the rule of the Philistines idle worshipers Saul says well the rebellion begins now well Jonathan the Bible says started the battle and No matter what his dad did no matter what his dad said Jonathan the man of God Always honored his father Hey Why because he didn't want to bring a curse on his life Christians today are cursed all over the place.  Yeah, everything they did was wrong We're all in a hundred percent agreement.  He would not allow that curse to fall on him. He honored his father No matter how nuts the guy got YouTubers, I'm helping you Jonathan then sees a three the battle six thousand people.  That was Saul's hometown the Philistines heard what Jonathan did and All Israel heard Saul had smitten the garrison of the Philistines. Well, it wasn't the solid did it Saul had a coward streak in him. He wore a big kingly robe, but if you took the robe off there was a yellow streak down his back Jonathan was a man of character and integrity didn't have a yellow streak. He had a faith streak People who have fear have no faith Fear wipes out faith you could memorize ten verses and word of faith that to your faith falls up Babin the scriptures out Nothing's going to happen because the demons looked inside of you and saw fear The fear wiped out your word of faith babbleman. Oh, bubba bubba bubba. No, it's not gonna work With God all things are possible No, they're not not for you because you've got fear.  He wouldn't fight anybody Jonathan took off and Won the first battle The Philistines saw Israelites. They were anti-Semitic, right?  It's all spiritual Everybody hates Jews here in America.  Why? It's all satanic. It don't make any sense.  They Right Well, not these Philistines. They hated Jews They were abomination to them.  Come on now give yourself a hand the taxpayers of the new United States of America. There you are. You're paying taxes Oh, you're not working. Okay, you look at anybody working Nobody working. Okay. We're all off the hook. We don't pay for any wars Let the Hebrews here.   Hey, this is your battle. They came up and pitched it mismatch East from Beth Avon When the men of Israel saw they were in a straight. Oh, wow, that's an understatement. I'm in a straight I got six thousand soldiers. They got 30,000 Chariots. Yeah, I'm in a straight the people got distressed. Oh, no kidding You can tell the difference between human fear and demonic fear all the time Human fear is real huh, I was standing in the ocean one time when I was In California went to Anaheim high school when I was young We went out to the ocean one day and I was standing there looking around and joined myself Bang something banged into me Going that way clunk. I had to wow and suddenly my suddenly my imagination took off My god, this I'm in a Spielberg movie Well, you can imagine I started backing out of the beach So now I'm not in the mood to have something bang into me Well, that's human fear. That's real fear that could have been I don't know what that was I had never did know what it was.    They always have chronic negative Thoughts coming through their mind that are like grandiose negativity. That's demonic fear Human fear is more reality based Correct you turn on YouTube and you watch Rob reason circle case and stuff. They're all over YouTube clicked it on there guy walks in with a gun Hey, that's real fear. That's it. That's not a delusion. The guy's got a gun If you're sitting there panicking When nobody's there and that's a demonic delusion Causing you fear. There's a difference between real fear and demonic fear. Does that make sense? Well, this is real fear here 30,000 chariots and we got 6,000 soldiers guess what happens.  They're hiding in rocks and put there. I mean, they're out of here. We're out of here This is after the king called them. They don't have any faith and saw they knew he was mentally ill They knew he was going nuts.  Oh wonderful But when the chips are down the real feelings about that person come out and if they don't respect them Believe in them. They'll run. They'll turn on them. They'll leave Correct human nature Well, some of the people rail went over here or some of them went there's first Samuel 13 and all the people followed Saul When he's running trembling so tall Saul runs to the Gilgown tarries there seven days and Samuel had told him that I will come after seven days and we will give a burnt offering to the Lord now the burnt offerings Were offerings that the Jews gave to God to acknowledge his sovereignty and Acknowledge that he was their king of kings and Lord of lords so they would have a burnt offering Like almost like a worship service like we would we would praise the Lord and glorify his incredible name above all names That's what that's what we're doing. That would be we would be kind of doing a spiritual burnt offering So only the priest is allowed to do a burnt offering nobody else allowed to do it Absolutely no under no circumstances no feelings Samuel didn't go to Gilgown. So the people left him They're scared So Saul said oh my god, the people are scattering from me. I'm losing my support. I better do the burnt offering myself Samuel's late Okay, here's here and once again Saul is like your typical born-again Christian When God told you to wait and see the salvation of the Lord But you panicked because of fear and when the Christian panics they take matters into their own hands and do it themselves chronic Condition house foreclosure job layoff money food kids doesn't matter what it is if God doesn't answer in the Christian mind at a certain point the Christian will then panic through fear and Take the project on themselves Not waiting Stand back and see the salvation of the Lord God told me I told you I was going to come through I always do come through you read it in my word But fear causes a Christian to trash God's word and then go do it themselves Saul did it himself He says hey, Samuel is late. So I'm going to do the burnt offering. Hey, I'm king anyway. I'm the boss For samar 13 it came to pass it soon as they made an end of the burnt offering there it is 99% of Christians don't understand that their miracle was only one more day away They panicked here they gave in here and God was already going to come through for them there Most of the time that's how it works Your miracle is just Over there, but you quit here.  So I'll say hey the people were leaving me man. You were late. See People who are egotized and self-centered the problem is always somebody else They always blame somebody else. It's God's fault. It's your fault. It's my neighbor's fault My family fault is where I was raised. Oh my god. Everybody's at fault, but me don't you understand me?  So I said well it's excuse time now because everybody with egos Self-centered religious name. They all got excuses. Oh, everybody's got an excuse for everything Well, the people were scattering on me and you were late dude, and I don't know the Philistines were coming down They were gonna they're gonna clobber us No kidding Sherlock So Saul then for a moment drifts into the world of Satan Where everything is an eye? See in Satan's world he lost his kingdom because of I I will exalt My throne above the stars. I will walk in the garden of God Ezekiel anybody remember that verse spectacular verse it had five eyes in it as soon as I Takes over you can be sure Hell is coming to breakfast for you Saul turned into Satan here, and he says I said I Said the Philistines came upon me, and I have not made supplication of what so I forced myself and offered a burrow offering Samuel then said you See as soon as you start going with I the Holy Ghost comes by and says it's you it's the problem Yeah Yeah, I've had marriage counseling cases hundreds of them over the years and When the people come in When they come for to see me one spouse is always secretly trying to get the other spouse fixed and Over 50% of the time. I discover it's the spouse that wanted the other one fixed that is Equal to or greater problem human nature Human nature it's Satan and Saul I Will you?  It's them them them them You didn't keep the cut you didn't do what you were told and no kidding Guess what God had planned to do for you. Oh, you don't understand see if When the red carpet of fear entered your soul You missed out on God's big plan for your life God has got plans for you. You never even heard of He has plans for you. You don't know anything about you don't even know What he's been thinking you don't get it You haven't heard it yet because God doesn't reveal everything all at once He reveals his self himself to you in stages as you're ready to receive The revelation you don't get bang everything at once John the great apostle Never got revelation when he was calling on Jesus to call fire down and fry these Samaritans No, that was years ago John in Stages got revelation so that when he was mature in his 90s or whatever it was bang He got the book of revelation incredible He didn't get that on the boat with Peter fishing. Come on God didn't reveal everything to you right away Reveals it in stages as you continue to grow in grace and as you continue to have the patience To overcome your trials in your tribulations and grow in grace. This is your growth process You learn These revelations in stages, but if you quit here from fear you will never know God had attended His intentions were and you never knew this was to establish your kingdom forever You don't understand. There never was to be a king David That's blasphemy.  No, I didn't had King Saul not opened the door to fear and lost his faith and jumped at the gun and Not obeyed from fear Saul would have been the king of Israel Into the millennium check it out But what happened? This was before by the way When he lost his kingdom officially with the amelokites. This is before that This is before King David slew Goliath You follow me this story. I'm telling you before all that. Hey, you would have been king forever, but guess what? Your kingdom is not going to continue The Lord is looking for a man after his own heart.   This has to be increased a Double-minded man is unstable in all his ways But I'm like you don't understand. I sing in the quiet dream city No, you don't understand singing acquired undo you any good when you leave there and you start saying negative things and you start Living like that then do you better go to sing in dream city? You can get upgraded and go to Hillsong It's your fog machine a laser light show You walk out in the parking lot and go right back to saying negative things and make you can kiss Hillsong goodbye You don't get it. Do you a double-minded man is unstable in all his ways Saul is double-minded Jonathan wasn't Well, you could have had a kingdom forever dude But it's not going to work out for you Samuel rose and got up from there and Saul numbered the people with him. It had now dwindled down This whole war thing was Saul's idea. See he went to the Hebrews and he said hey these Philistines that got weapons of mass destruction We better go get them That weapon of mass destruction thing was used 3,000 years later that worked out real good And they're on there all over the place demons have weapons of mass destruction It's called negative thoughts in your mind Now he's down from six thousand to six hundred Thirty thousand chariots alone face in them Saul and Jonathan people with them. They stayed at Gabia a Benjamin the Philistines and camp that mismatch The spoilers came out. What happened was the Philistines said hey, this is a this is a slam dunk These Jews are going to get slaughtered again We've beaten them before What we'll do is we'll split up three groups of only 20 men Okay, and we'll hit these Jews from all three sides.  That's what the devil does He rarely just gives you one shot No, if he's got an opening he takes several shots Correct They're gonna get him from three companies twenty twenty four will smash. He's only got six hundred guys left with this thing gets worse check this out Oprah was there it says they turned to the way to Oprah and There she is Oprah's descent is a descendant of these people right here. They're they're idle worshiping Philistines. That's where we got our Oprah She's on and they started right here There they are check it out Yeah, look over here. There's Oprah. There's Bethlehem down here would be Jerusalem you get an idea what we're talking about here. This is northeast Israel so then Syria would be over here Philistinian Philistine the Philistines were basically kind in their ways Syrians in that area So this is what we're looking at here There was no Smith in the land of Israel what? What do you mean? There's no Smith? Well, you got one here tonight and Lucky you Here's the lucky folks No, this is even worse than that a Smith was someone that made weapons What is what is a Smith? What's a blacksmith? Those guys were vital Swords exactly Knives swords spears. I mean blacksmiths were Elevated human beings in a society well the Philistines had gone through Israel after they conquered them and what they do Look at Valenzuela the new president come in what did what was one of the first things he did? Confiscated all the weapons of the people why so they can't do anything You don't want people to run around with weapons. They can't fight back The Philistines went through the nation of Israel and they took all the Smiths They disarmed them. Oh Man, let me think about this for a second. I'm there. I'm King Saul. I'm a Rhodes Scholar and I'm gonna start an uprising here with six thousand men who don't have any weapons Yeah, yeah Yeah I'm smart Yeah King Saul was the Frado of Kings I'm smart Really Frado you're gonna start a war with the Philistines are you with 30,000 chariots you got 6,000 men They don't have any weapons. Oh, yeah Harvard graduate. Aren't you saw boys a genius? That's really Came to pass in the day of the battle there was neither sword nor spear found in the hand of any of the people You got to be kidding me You can't be serious Yeah, that's what John McEnroe would say if you you cannot be serious Is this is this is nuttiest story as you've ever heard it's got to be one of them at least Okay, the other ones on them would be Be related to your family members. Okay, let's go on to this It came to pass that Jonathan said to the young man that bore his armor for Samuel 14 Let's go to the Philistines Gary and garrison on the other side So they got three groups of Philistines They've all got swords and spears no problemo because they have blacksmiths in their society The Jews don't have them. That's a problem So Jonathan says hey, I'm gonna do a sneak attack With just me So you don't understand that if you're not a person with demonic fear and chronic negative thoughts and you've replaced that process in your mind with true faith in God You as a single person are in fact in the majority You as a single person do in fact have the upper hand because you and the Holy Ghost Makes a majority no matter how many people are facing you family members relatives co-workers Cooks on TV.  I never claimed to be in my right mind Jonathan who doesn't have chronic negative thoughts who doesn't live a double-minded life says hey I'll take that other garrison by myself. I'll go up there. And here's why He says to his armor bearer Saul runs off and hides again in Migran with only 600 people left with no weapons Here you go See Saul moved He moved down here He's running for the hills follows Well, Saul's got a yellow streak because he's double-minded and In the group is more bad news More bad news among the Jews not only do I have any weapons now. They're down to 600 people This is a bad news week for Israel. Ah, hi of the son of a Hitobe Ichabod's brother. Oh, no I didn't want to see him today The son of Phineas Phineas. Ah, geez Oh, come on pull the son of Eli.  Where's the spears? Eli's cursed by God thrown out They're around working the e-fod Let me tell you something friends when you're walking on the red carpet of fear laid out by the devil Nothing works prayer babbling out verses word of faith e-fods lights cameras fog machines laser shows nothing Nothing works Nothing works For a double-minded man is unstable in all his ways E-fods are the last thing Jonathan needed. So Jonathan doesn't stay around the e-fod He steps out in faith because he has a nut double-mind He knows the Lord He knows the Saul called this insane battle over weapons of mass destruction They're hiding them And he knew God was not going to forsake Israel even though Saul was an incompetent leader if you live in a country a city a family a town with an incompetent leader Father is going to stick to you closer than a brother You maintain your faith it doesn't matter who the ruler is in your neighborhood the real ruler is with you Jonathan disappeared he didn't tell Saul he disappeared. You know why he knew his dad was a coward He'd panic if his son was gone Because his son was the only person in the family had integrity and had character Jonathan steps out on faith by himself. Listen It's going to happen to you one of these days you're going to have to step out on faith by yourself Everybody's going to step aside and they're going to let you go They're not going to see what God put in your heart. They're not going to believe What father gave you? Someday somehow you're going to have to step out on your own Jonathan wasn't going to stay with his dad For a little bit he had to go with his heavenly father And he stepped out on his anointing by himself Didn't tell anybody was gone. He said let's go get one of these garrisons They're uncircumcised Maybe the Jehovah will work for us For there is no restraint To Jehovah He can save us if we have many he can save us if we have few That sounds like Someone who's not double-minded. Oh That's a guy you want to hang around there. That's a guy. That's got actual faith without fear That's a guy without a panic disorder That's a guy without an anxiety disorder That's somebody who knows Jehovah and what he can do Jonathan the man of God Went out by himself The cowards all stayed with Saul hiding under the pomegranate tree That's why pomegranate trees are grown now. They're good for people.  He didn't want to do it Jonathan's armor bearer Left him without double-minded.  Oh Brother Mike, you know, you don't sound like you're on tbn. No, I'm not on tbn That's why I'm not Do what's in your heart Jonathan. I know you personally go for it The armor bearer hung around Jonathan and therefore he had no fear That happened all right, no he had worked with him for years he had saw Jonathan For years he knew what kind of person he was Jonathan was one of those rare Christians that had oh, I hate to say this integrity Can you imagine meeting a Christian with integrity unbelievable that's not an happened much anymore, but Jonathan's armor bearer it had rubbed off on me. He said go for it. Let's do it. I'm with you Both of them discovered themselves in the garrison. Hey, we're over here 20 of them what happened next? The Philistines start running their mouths You see when you're in the majority and you've got the upper hand and everything is going your way It's real easy to run your mouth like a busted chainsaw But you think you've got the upper hand you're winning. Oh, see it's false security It's ego security which dissipates quickly true integrity and true true character stands in the face of adversity pumped up pumped up bravery Fizzles like that Everybody's a big shot at the way in at the fight. I want to kill him. I'm gonna tell you these children You get in a ring you take one shot all of a sudden reality has hit you. Oh my god.   It's like a hot-air balloon. It disappears quickly The Hebrews they've come out of the holes where there are high deals stinking moles. Look at them. They hide in holes Well, yeah, they're hiding in holes They say hey Johnson come up here Come on up here boy We'll show you a thing and I put out or two there I added that because it wasn't complete see you don't want to Whenever you're reading the text and you see an omission there and you want to help the Lord out So I just helping God there. I just put that or two in there and it just kind of filled in the verse So come on up here boy. I'll show you a thing or two. See how that rolls to feel that Yeah, that's right. That's how you do it Well, see bravery is talk is cheap see see that was the most so weird about Muhammad Ali all those decades. He said it wasn't bragging if you can back it up What is it just bad bragging here? This is bragging. It's pumped up pride. It's pumped up courage. Oh, I can do that Yeah, that stuff fizzles out when the fight starts quickly This is not quickly Come on up here Jonathan climbed on his hands and his knees crawling up the hill and guess what happened Armour bear followed him and they slaughtered him killed all of them slaughter For Samuel 14 20 men The armor bear and sit and Jonathan Slaughtered him the armor bear had to take one of the swords from one of the Philistines The armor bear doesn't even have a weapon But because he knew Jonathan's character true character not pumped up pride like the Philistines. Oh Dagon told us who it yeah Yeah, that happened during the Gulf Ward. You have to see that. Oh, I'll bar So I said I'm saying oh, I'll give us a great victory The Iraqi army was Surrendering in droves you I Guess I am getting old. There was a Gulf war a few years ago Why can't this thing be full and what happened was The American army went over there blew the stuff around and the Iraqi army surrendered Thousands of soldiers Surrendered right out of the gate What was that that's pumped up Dagon that's Philistines.  I'll show you a thing or two You're not going to show you anything if you walk up there with the faith of Jonathan except his backside and somebody changing his shorts You resist the devil he will free from you Just like the philistines just like the Iraqis There was no Allah Akbar there. They were surrendering in droves What happened to Allah oops He ain't around anymore What happened the day gone? Oops? He went fishing That joke was mine now. It's funny Joe. That was funny joke Jonathan one man of faith Slaughtered 20 of them. What did that do when you step out on faith?  He does that thing How do I know that I can read check it out? Check it out Jonathan stepped out suddenly fear Left the Jews and went into the Philistines They saw what happened. Oh my god. They got one guy slaughtered 20 Well 600 then is going to slaughter all of us The garrisons trembled and suddenly the spirit of God stepped in boom.  He'll hop on your back He'll ride you to town He'll show you a thing or two They were panicking When they saw the earthquake What they start to do there? the watchmen of Saul looked and a multitude of The enemy melted and they were so crazed with fear they began panicking and hitting each other It turned into a giant heavy metal mosh pit Yeah, that was funny nobody thought it was funny You ever been in a mosh pit? I hope not but if you ever seen one. Oh, man, you're gonna get hit in the face And it's fun That's entertainment The Philistines panicked so bad they turned on themselves Fear will always cause you to turn on even your loved ones You will verbally abuse them you will physically abuse them when you're afraid you will betray them You will let them down you will leave them When you get on the red carpet of Satan's fear Well, I'm not Jonathan you could be You could be You could repent tonight and say you know what? Yeah, I got a negative mindset. That's a that's wrong I'm giving the devil place the Bible says don't give the devil Place I'm giving him place In my head you step out like Jonathan you're gonna get an earthquake of miracles Suddenly the Hebrew saw it and guess what? The armor bearer hung around Jonathan and he caught the fire of revival. He said do what's in your heart I'm with you Jonathan got the anointing of God on him suddenly the other Hebrews caught the revival They saw the Philistines panicking they saw the devil fleeing before you they saw the deliverances they saw the healings They saw the prosperity they saw the curses being broken off of suddenly when people think they go Oh, you've got blessings on your life. Oh, I'm your friend People didn't like you before you see a blessing on you suddenly they're friends Can't wait to have a fair weather friend. They're so sweet Suddenly the other Hebrews saw this hey These were the ones that had abandoned the Jews and joined up with the Philistines Listen, if you don't have any character or integrity you live in fear your own family will join the other side against you They'll turn on you. Oh, yeah, we call it divorce. We call it other things They'll turn on you because the double-minded man is unstable in Even the traders came home the Lord saved Israel that day The battle passed over to Beth Haven now you see where they're going. They're moving north here. See they were down here Now they're moving north the earth Oprah Oprah's always around She's our girl first time in chapter 18. It came to pass when When he ended speaking to Saul the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David now. Let's move forward here Jonathan the great man of God Saves Israel that day in spite of his dad screwing up constantly Hey, his dad started out great See in Christianity, it's not how you start out. It's how you end Saul started out up here profit sighing with the prophets a humble good man of God The kinship started to go to his head and he started to sink Jonathan watched the whole thing but refused to become a part of it He saw his dad deteriorate right in front of his eyes. He saw the whole thing Jonathan never was a part of it Well, Jonathan sitting there that day and Goliath is marching back and forth Guess from who? Yeah, they're back They're back, you know no matter what you say about Philistines gotta give them credit man. They're persistent They're a persistent bunch. I got to take my tip my hat off to them.  They weren't gonna get snuck up on by Jonathan this time.  Oh geez like that You ever seen that? But these these Nephilim were huge the Bible says that He was nine feet tall weighed 650 pounds He had a shield That he carried with him bigger than David Himself bigger than the whole body that that's how big it was You know gigantic spear that had this huge rock on the top of it. It was kept It was a monster By any stretch of the imagination Jonathan goes whoa I think I'll sit back and watch this one for a while Well some kid comes up from herding sheep around Sheep That was his that was his basic training He went into the military of sheep He learned to fight watching sheep See it doesn't matter where you came from God will use you when you've got nothing but sheep All you got to have is faith without chronic negativity and Unbelief and doubt you cut that off and repent of it and you leave your faith there You're staring at a holy ghost earthquake And the devil will flee before you he'll run with his pants full It's it's an absolute fact. It's the truth. It will happen But a double-minded woman they're unstable. Oh, you go double-minded on it.   Let me share something with you People that are evil or wicked know it and so they'll they're kind of be drawn to each other, you know they can feel you can feel somebody else's soul and People that have integrity and character if you have it you'll It kind of draws you you kind of you can kind of feel it it kind of pulls you in there You get around some people that are Pieces of human pond scum you go. You don't even know me. Oh gee You get in a sense. Well, that's your that's their soul their soul is as iniquity in it And you know if you don't have that kind of iniquity of I don't know that's yeah, I like that well David saw Jonathan Jonathan go wow This kid was looking for five Nephilim that day Five of him. He had five stones. He wanted all five brothers. He goes now that's That's my new BFF David King day John Jonathan He didn't either didn't raise no fool whose dad raised tried to raise a fool, but he didn't go for it He didn't go for it and they became what wow Their souls just bonded together like you wouldn't even believe it was it was true brotherly love now Soul ties are extremely dangerous as you can imagine some of them are positive and some of them are negative You can have a positive soul tied to someone and that's good for example a husband and wife you can have a negative soul tie to someone and These things are extremely dangerous. They're hard to break off the relationships hard to break the spirits transfer the curses transfer It is a certified nightmare They developed through different things love fake love sex and loss different things cause Soul ties you can have a good soul tie to your spouse and you can have a negative soul tie to a spouse Seen it all the time The these two get divorced, but they're still seeing each other once in a while, you know They can't quite get out of it You can have a good soul tie to a son or daughter absolutely or a bad one you become a codependent You become part of their destruction You keep bailing them out. You're too good to them.  Soul ties are bad. Got to analyze them properly there's difference between them being a soulmate and a Soul tie there's a big difference Big difference Jonathan Samuel 18 now we move forward a couple chapters. They made a covenant and Because he loved him like his own soul and Jonathan stripped himself of his robe See Jonathan was the prince of Israel. He was next in line to be king He would have been the king after Saul fizzled himself out that takes a tremendous amount of character To humble yourself like that and see God's will To your detriment See to Saul everything was about him That's all he ever focused on. I want this I want that this went bad. That went bad. It's me me me me Jonathan was the opposite. It wasn't all about him That's an odd place to be with Christians in it when it's not all up. You don't see that often Jonathan said hey, this is I see this miracle before me. I saw the Goliath go down God has chosen this kid To replace my own dad So Jonathan says hey, I'm gonna give you my prince robe Since you will be the next king. Here's my sword. Here's my girl. That was a complete acceptance and total Surrender to God's will that David would someday be king But Saul hated him, you know the story of Everything David did Saul then goes through this process of developing borderline personality disorder and possibly schizophrenia He becomes a psychotic pariah And it shows in the text how he gradually sinks through jealousy Jealousy is a cancer of the soul It ain't Saul alive He had all kinds of paranoia fears of David David never did anything to hurt the guy Served him constantly Jonathan never turned on his dad even though he knew his dad was nuts Served his dad stayed with him You see any integrity here, this is a holy ghost integrity this is integrity in the face of Normalcy where you wouldn't have any support of a person who did that kind of behavior He said hey, I want to kill the guy King Saul went from a prophesying humble man of God here To a murderer now here. He's not done. He gets worse Can anybody fall? Anybody can fall who takes their eyes off the Lord any Christian can fall no matter who they are no matter how many the gifts they have no matter what kind of anointing they have doesn't matter They fall all the time He says he's gonna kill you David Listen, I got a plan here. You go hide I'll stand find my father in the field you go hide out in the field there I'll talk to him about you says Samuel 19 and I'll tell you what he says right So Jonathan who has in character integrity is not trying to start a fight. He's trying to mend one King Saul was like Antifa They're looking through a milkshake in your face. He wanted to calm them down and Have peace between the two Right He says hey, what are you?  Let's let he hasn't done anything. He's he's a good servant and Saul buys it and Jonathan brings David back in he patches it back up for Samuel 19 So he's back with him, you know the story.  He would always help him. He served him continuously served him Why because King David had the character of Jonathan who had the character of the Holy Ghost God had told him this is the office of the King and David and Jonathan would never disgrace it Even though there was a disgraceful person Temporarily in that office They would never disgrace it What's really in your heart will always come out during tough times It won't come out while you're casually sitting there watching gone with the wind with a bowl of ice cream Not a lot of fights going on there Not a lot of temptations doesn't require a lot of faith to overcome to go to the refrigerator to get another bowl of ice cream That's not a big challenge for you But when the devil comes and puts the heat on you what kind of person you are really comes out then and That's who the person really is No problem. Everything is great. Oops Something else happens first Samuel chapter 20 Saul Can't stand it anymore. His mental illnesses continue to worsen so he flips and What he was really thinking when he wanted him to bring David back came out Say if you listen to a person who's double-minded You don't have to say one word all you had to do is sit there and listen to him And as you listen to him eventually Their real self will come out What they really think will come out I told you that before I had a lady come in to see me for counseling and she was in there for two hours She talked almost the whole time the demons attacked me while she was in the office Trying to remind me of one of my ex-wives I fought it off fought it off and I just said they listened to her and I gave her attention and I Looked at her with interest and I heard listen to everything she said and I said I might have said a few sentences in a couple hours, but after we were done. She said you see you're the best counselor I've ever seen I'm not making that story up. I make up a lot of stories that one wouldn't want them and She got up and I I gave her a hug and she started crying I said about three sentences to her gave her a hug She left healed. She couldn't believe that somebody would actually care enough to sit there and listen to her Talk and share herself. She couldn't believe it And then when I hugged her and apologized to her for all the people that heard I apologized to her by proxy It broke her see a lot of times you don't have to do anything the holy ghosts there And he's the great counselor.   See there's more important things in life than material things and money and wealth There's there's spiritual treasures. You can lay up in heaven that no one will ever take away from you that are that give you staggering wealth on the other side Christians only like what they see you know, but if you take the blinders off and look Spiritually in your future. You'll see something so spectacular. You only believe you'll change your whole life now and start serving the Lord tonight You could be so rich in eternity. It's not even funny.  He went with God's will That appears to be a personal detriment But he knew that in the long run It was his victory that should have landed You make a sacrifice for God and it looks like you've given something up for yourself. You've actually laid up for yourself treasures in heaven Jonathan walked away from the kingship of Israel and Followed God's will he had chosen the sheep boy To be the king and then he showed Jonathan. Hey, here's the kind of anointing I got on this kid Check out Goliath here in about two minutes I Had in his hand So as you raised his head it happened again Jonathan saw it. He said hey, this looks like a repeat of the garrison I routed ten years ago the Philistines like the Iraqis running for the hills Listen if you'll start to do the right thing and change your character and your attitude and how you speak The devil will flee from you.  I'm gonna murder him. That's it Jonathan said I don't understand dad. What did he done? Here Jonathan in desperation Makes a mistake. He starts talking to someone that's mentally ill and tries to cure the person using Intellectual human logic. It isn't possible. I was a secular counselor for 25 years. I know all about You put him in therapy put him in group therapy you give medications you do this and that you do Hey, you can you can talk to mental illness demons so the cows all come home They're not going to be cured You're not listening you don't get it. They're not going to be cared because there's a spirit in the person's brain that loves counseling He loves 12 steps demons recite them All they love therapy Group therapy love it go in the group therapy today Great your demons are partying a group therapy Demons do the everything they can to help you get better Well, you're not listening they actually tell you to go get help Wow. Oh You're not you didn't hear anything. They'll tell you to go get prayer Oh, you're not even listening. They'll tell you to go to the prayer group down here at the home home group and get prayer They'll tell you to go do it Or that's blasphemy. No, it's not it's intelligence. They know you're not going to get healed So they have you keep getting prayer prayer prayer you get now you're getting more discouraged Elizabeth does send you to preachers. Oh You're not listening at all. No, that's this thing ain't on They will send you to preachers to get prayer Demons will Knowing you're not going to get healed. You don't know who you're dealing with You don't understand They're smarter than we are why they control all the churches. Oh, they're in charge YouTubers are listening Why should he be slain? He might have been talking to a wall You can't reason with spirits. It's not possible. I'm telling you It won't work What's all do now? He's starting to drop down to the bottom of his mental illness now the Borderline personality disorders is taken over to murderous violence. He picks up a javelin The Prince of Israel stand in there and he heaves it at him to murder his own son. Yeah Trump would describe him as sick.  I'd explained the whole thing Jonathan finally clicks. Hey, this isn't going to get fixed We're in trouble here. King David's in trouble. I got to save him But I can't forsake my dad. Oh, I hope you're listening Jonathan had to save his dad and King David So here Jonathan arises from the table. He's furious Everybody who has a relative this nuts Ends up in this spot sooner or later Relatives kids parents wives and husband tried to get nuts Sooner or later you're furious at him You got to get away take it anymore Jonathan furious it is demonic murderous insanity bolts Get away from his dad But it was only temporary See as Paul said don't go to sleep angry Be angry, but sin not Let not the Sun go down on your end. That means don't go to bed Angry Jonathan was angry now and his father's murderous psychopathic rage and the shame that he heaped on David because he knew David was a man of character and And he arose and you know the story they got together To love each other for the last time and he saw him out in the field and Jonathan had to give him the bad news and They wept with each other and kissed each other and loved each other and Jonathan Went to the woods and he said fear not the hand them saw my father will not find you I'll tell you what this takes a lot of character To do this kind of thing. This guy's absolutely amazing He's on the top ten list of something here.   I can't live with curses My dad is a hundred percent of fault.  He used to be when I was young a man of God now. He stumbled into a satanic delusion but No matter how bad your dad was You cannot Dishonored where's your dad brother? Oh, he's in prison man.  He robbed the bank.   I haven't seen him in 20 years.  How'd that happen the devil outsmarted you? He got you to trash your dad Brother Mike that's interesting. No wonder I'm I've got relationship problems and poverty problems and health problems and This and that and that and this and this and that and that and this because the double-mind man is unstable in all his ways No wonder I got all these problems. Hmm. Yeah, I hated my dad Jonathan the man of God.  I will be next to you translation I was supposed to be king, but Yahweh chose you so I will become your servant see Christians understand that the great ones are Servants, we just taught on that three or four weeks ago on Philip and Stephen. They both learned God's mighty power through being servants Jonathan the man of God saw the whole thing clearly. I'll become your servant.      You lose everything.   You'll see a Bag right beside you. It's invisible spiritual.  See you had it you had to say it.  Yeah, he was a rotten person hundred percent What he did was wrong everybody agrees Wow But you had to trash him and turn on him and I never spoke to him.   Don't raise your hand Yeah, you understand almost there were so many people in our society that have bad dads I'm telling you. It's as common as anything in the world. It really is You don't see it too often Particularly my end of the business counseling end No, almost everybody comes see me and at a bad dad or at least a bad mom one of the two was bad usual At least one of them was bad Like she said a lot of times both of them are Did I see all the time I got a skewed, you know Exposure but it's common as anything to have a dad who's ungodly Unfair, you know, alcohol Cheater of this and that it goes on the list goes on bad dads have all kinds of traits but Had you handle it like Jonathan Your life wouldn't have ended up like a piece of crap and we can break that curse off you tonight The blood of Jesus can't do that it has that kind of power You know power Jonathan only dreamed about he never saw God's son You have been with God's son you're the majority. Oh boy, the weapons of war of parents man of God Let's close it out then and Look at Jonathan What an unusual person Faced all kind of adversity in his life grew up with a mentally ill dad No, he wouldn't bend He wouldn't do it.  He didn't have that you got a bad dad We're gonna pray for your dad tonight if he's dead We're gonna repent of every bad thing We said about him After I came to the Lord my daughter youngest daughter Tracy led me to Lord. I Had a complete change of attitude toward my dad. I Raised my hand. Did you notice that when I asked you to raise your my dad was? Terrible I Hated him when I was young I hated my dad.   We never had any money. They were drunks, you know the routine I'll tell you what I heard a sermon one time years ago soon after I had come to the Lord that had me down at the altar crying I Had given anything and I run into Mike Smith The day I got saved And what it told me about these curses that can fall on you when you hate your dad I'd love to run into me Most people see that as the opposite They see me somewhere. They go God they duck I'd have loved to run into Mike Smith who just told me the truth blatantly bang flat out like that Set a sugarcoat and something or trying to watch out for my feelings.  Hey Mike.  Yeah, the guy was a goof.   My god, then the bottom drops out everything can't even believe it. I Thought I had this and like five things went wrong and it happens decade after decade. I'm not even kidding. I Had that Got rid of it that day at the altar with tears. I Confessed my sin See, I didn't pull up Saul I Didn't need Samuel to come over to me and no no was you son. No, I knew it was me. I had conviction Holy ghost conviction. That's the best thing you never have holy ghost conviction. That's the greatest thing in the world And I repent and I apologize to God For saying all them bad things about my dad and verbally saying, you know this and that I felt it lift I felt it lift.  Apologize what my sin I had bad feelings for him. I had ought I had Negative thoughts about him. I disrespected him. I did this and that My dad just died a few months ago. We were the best of friends for years Talking on the phone and laughing and loving Why is that because he changed and became a great dad. No, he never became a great dad. I changed You don't understand you got a change I got a change. Oh my god.  That's what repentance brings. I Left that altar in tears. I Got up and joy. I called my dad the next day. Apologize to best of friends ever since best of friends laughing and What he did to my mom and what he done to my sister me? I Nailed that to the cross Yep that curse lifted off of me everything got better money started rolling in everything You got a curse on you.  I See it all the time People got curses on there.   I'm not telling you anything new I've met 10,000 people in counseling session had worse child or night it much worse But the point isn't the childhood the point is the curse on me from what I said about my mom and dad I Don't respect my mother and I hated my dad.  He slaughtered me And I didn't know it But I did do that Eric. I'm a right Eric.  He wouldn't do that. He didn't have the heart for murdering people Saul was a mentally ill psychopath My dad wasn't He was just kind of a self-centered egoized person who didn't care much for family members I forgave him I truly did Why why'd I do that because I had a brother Mike's a good person? Yeah, you gotta be kidding. I sucked as a person God told me to do it I'll bade the word of the Lord. I didn't question Because I had holy ghost conviction YouTubers I'm talking to you now. I had a holy ghost conviction. I staggered down to the altar and tears repent of it and My mom all the bad things I said about her Repented of it and God took that curse off of me He broke it. I didn't know I had it. I thought I was just you know in a secular world It's bad luck rotten karma. Yeah, you make different words up and apply it to it. No, that's a family curse fellow me I dishonored my parents Not paid a bad price for it Mercy delivered me Mercy delivered me. I'll leave Raise your hand if you had a bad dad father God right now in the name of Jesus Here are my friends. They had bad dads. I had a bad dad Jonathan the man of God had a bad dad I had curses on me for my parents and my mom and dad were not good. We're not good parents They made bad choices. They did a lot of bad things But I happen no Lord for my career as a counselor 37 years There's a lot of people in church like me that had bad parents I am far from alone. In fact, I'm in the majority. I Really believe that I'm probably in the majority and I know these curses are real right now in the name of Jesus every person in this room who verbally degraded their father or mother and Said bad things about them and pointed out truthful things about them that they did that were bad and You said truthful things about them that they had done this wrong and that wrong and that way and you were correct about it You're gonna repent of that right now in the name of Jesus. That's not your business. That's God's business. God will handle your parents He is the justice and the judge of all not you We are not Judges of others. We are servants of the most high God and you're gonna repent of that right this second Right now That's prophetic Dear Jesus, please forgive me. I said bad things about my dad and My mom and my life has been Horrible I See what brother Mike's talking about. I've had curses on my life and I want these curses broke off right now and I already forgave my parents and that's good but I Haven't got this curse off of me because I haven't confessed to what I said about my mom and my dad and tonight I'm gonna follow the example of the man of God Jonathan I'm gonna follow Jonathan Because you put his life story in the Bible for me to learn from and I learned from it tonight I was here for brother Mike's teaching. I read them scriptures. I read those scriptures and I'm gonna do what Jonathan did.  You had bad parents Like mine or worse like mine or worse a lot of people had worse than I had that's for sure a hundred percent Stand up. You had a rotten parent right now.  Please forgive me for every negative thing. I said about my mom Every negative thing I ever said about my dad. I Am so sorry.  Destroying my relationships my emotions my health my family my money my career whatever It's destroying Whatever it is. I want it broken off in the name of Jesus because I'll repent of it right now If my parents are still alive right now, I'm gonna do what you told brother Mike to do I'm gonna call them tomorrow and Apologize I'm gonna apologize right now in the name of Jesus Right now in the name of Jesus I'm gonna apologize come on. I'm so sorry Lord Thank You Jesus. I will apologize right now I'm gonna call it. God forgive me for what I done. I Want this curse broken off of me right now? In Jesus money right now. I want this curse. I want all my demons from my mother and my dad out of my body.  Come on. Let your tears go son. Let your tears go. There you go Come on now. You're getting healed tonight. Let your tears go tell the Lord. You're sorry tell the Lord. You're sorry say it Holy father Lord of heaven and earth So sorry I'm so sorry Jesus became a curse for me. I Repair to hurt my mom and dad my dad was as rotten as King saw I Forgive him right now. There they go keep yawning keep yawning. There it is keep yawning. That was a demon coming out Come on stop talking. You're young repent of it. Just repent of it. Come on right now. There they go That's you know any come on out Every demon from my mother come out of me every demon from my father come out Right now come out Come out every curse break off of me Every negative word every negative thought come off of me right now The curse of King saw come off of me King saw demons come out King saw demons come out right now mother Come out of me Repent of it just repent of it right now repent quickly The holy ghost is here the holy ghost is moving now Come on in Jesus money Come out right now Get out of that body right now come out of there Satan I forgive my dad My stepdad I'm going now You demon the fear I curse you right now come over come on a woman of God. There he is right there That's him right there. Come on out. Come on right now church demons Kundalini come out church spirits come on I'll quickly come out of the woman of God.  Are you pervert?  I'm so sorry say it. I'm so sorry Lord help I'm so sorry Lord help I'm so sorry Lord God forgive me.  Come on double Come out of her quickly Come on.   Thank you Jesus. Thank you. Thank you for healing me Lord telling me love you.   Come on. Just repent of it repent of it right now say it Lord Jesus save me Lord Jesus save me Join with you sweetheart.    Oh my God Lord forgive me God forgive me for what I said Satan used me to damage my family forgive me father. Yeah, I was an instrument of Satan but tonight I repent of it and I become an instrument of the Lord And I command these spirits to come out of my spine Come out left out of her left out of there Come out of her lungs right now come on up There is tough Come on there. Come on. Let your tears go.  Come on out. They're coming out now Come on out devil Come out of there quicker Come out quicker Come out quicker Pray harder. Dear God forgive me pray harder.  Come on out. There he comes. Here he comes Spirit of infirmity come out Healing come in demon come out There he goes Come on out, buddy.   There he comes. There he comes.  There it comes Satan come out now Fight for your life Fight for your life Get out of that body Demon of fear come out of that body right now.    There he comes dad. Here it comes There is right there come on out. There he comes.   I brought him here before What's wrong with him? Do you meant like yours?  Well the mother told him out so I took him in because I've been keeping him and I've been ministering to him a little bit But I do not want him to try to push it on him So I said we need to go to that church I don't want to see him before we need to go to the mic And so he agreed I didn't I said I'm not going to force you to go Watch Now what's your name? Gibson oh Can I pray for you now?       I command you to go Get out of that body right now.   Come on. Come on faster faster go now Go now Right now.  There you go. Come on my body in Jesus name Just repent of it YouTubers put your hand on your body wherever the pain is take command over that spirit Go to the website hardcore christianity.com Hit the teaching button at the top There's a teaching button at the top get that button go down and look at the article how Satan controls the mind How Satan controls the mind Satan's counter-attack read that article Satan's kind you will get hit within 48 hours of this service You will get hit within 48 hours They will try to steal everything you got today 48 hours read that article Satan's counter-attack Thursday night healing right here with brother Rick The deliverance service at seven o'clock don't miss it Don't miss that service seven o'clock Thursday night I'll be back next Friday the seminar the Halloween seminars next Friday on familiar spirits Man you ain't gonna believe this seven o'clock Sometimes Hardcore Christianity dot com I'm on the radio in Arizona every morning Monday through Friday at 7 30 10 10 a.m. I'm on every night on the computer dark sky radio dot com 9 p.m. Every night Arizona time Next Friday night the seminar was at the next week. I don't remember. I have to look at the website But with the seminars coming up go to the website and sign up for a free seat What's going on I've never been married in 48.  I know you loved them, but did you hurt them? Criticize them They did their best there's a lot of chaos there's a lot of drama there's a lot of A lot of people and I was the youngest I'm the youngest of four Treated better or worse And then after that did you get involved with a bunch of bad men?   They all have to go They all have to go Every one of them. I had good parents.  They go there. They are coming out right now. Good girl. Come on. Let's get it There it is keep going coming out right now Hallelujah, they're coming out right now Satan who's your whole?    I command you to go.  I'll see you at seven o'clock Ten o'clock Eastern for another unusual Bible study from brother Mike. I know what you're thinking. Hey, this guy's a little bit odd. Yeah, I'm a little odd, but I'm sincerely trying to help you See you on the radio next week You'll see you next time


Hello, my YouTube family. Welcome to my channel. Another live video. This one speaking about how narcissists feel when you get rid of them. Because you had enough of being treated in this way. You had enough of being manipulated, of being deceived, of being abused, devalued, insulted and put down. You had enough of dealing with that with the narcissist. And you couldn't take it anymore. So now you've gotten to the point where you want to get rid of them or some of you may have gotten rid of them already. And I'm here to shed some light on how narcissists feel when you do that. While you were with the narcissist, you were their source of security and stability of emotional control and regulation. You were their source of supply. They viewed you as an extension of themselves. You regulated their emotions by them being able to have this power and control over you to where they would dictate your thoughts, feelings, actions, behaviors. You were like a puppet on a string. And they were the puppet master.  Because then they no longer have that supply. They no longer have you as this external regulator. And they can't regulate their own emotions from within. So naturally, they're going to feel unstable. They're going to feel very insecure. Like they are out of control, unable to manage their own thoughts, feelings, actions, behaviors. Because they do think a lot. They overthink, they overanalyze the very paranoid and hypervigilant that always overthinking things. But they're not thinking too much about anything when you're there. When you're always there for them. When you are under their control. Then that relieves their anxiety. They don't have to worry too much because they can put all of that on to you and get you to worry about it. Yes, this is how they think. And when they view you as an extension of themselves. And that's how they're able to go out into public and act so calm, cool and collected. Because they know they've got you, whether you're waiting at home for them. You're sitting in the car. Or you're joining them at an occasional event. They know you're there to carry their weight. To carry their emotional baggage. So they can go out with you anywhere. And they can hold it inside for a certain amount of time. This emotional baggage, this emotional pain. Knowing that it's only a matter of time until they get you alone in the car. Or they've got you at home all alone. And then they can take it all out on you. Which helps them to manage their false image. It helps to keep that under control. To where they look good in front of other people. But then once you get rid of them and they lose you, they become very unstable. And it would otherwise reveal to everyone that they are the ones with the problem. But they managed to mask that by playing the victim. To where they then just look like this damsel in distress. People perceive them differently when they play the victim. Because then they have a reason for acting in the way that they do. And they can also use it to justify what they did to you. They play the victim to gain sympathy and attention. To garner support and build this network of flying monkeys. Which they will then use to punish you. And of course, everyone believes in them. Because they look at it like this person is a victim. Of course they're hysterical. Of course they're out of control. Because of you. Because you're the abuser. Because you've been doing these things to them. It acts as the perfect disguise. And most people never even see it coming. Unless they're experienced in seeing these types of things and witnessing these personalities. They're never going to see what is right in front of them. They're never going to know. Now the narcissist is fully aware of this. Narcissists believe that they are highly intelligent. And they already know that they're going to be able to pull the wall over people's eyes and manipulate and confuse them. And this is why they tend to begin the smear campaign very early on in the relationship.  Because they view the relationship as something temporary. They know that at some point you're going to begin to figure them out. You're going to realize that nothing you do is going to make a difference. It's not going to change their behavior in any way. And then by that point you're going to threaten to leave them. Or even to expose them. So they're already preparing for that from the very beginning. To prevent that from happening. And they may have done this many times before. Where they've pulled the wall over people's eyes. And that's how you as a victim, you just don't even understand how this could even happen. How when you get rid of them, people aren't running to you and giving you support. To you it just doesn't make any sense. Because you don't see it how they managed to gain power over people's perceptions by them playing the victim. So even though when they've lost you as a source of supply and they seem unstable, they seem out of control. They look like loose cannons. Like at any minute, any minute they could explode. But people don't even see it that way because they're playing the victim. They've already made up this narrative about you. So it's very easy for them to set this situation up and construct a false reality. It's very easy for them to do that.  Even though the entire time you may have been there for them, you may have given them everything you had.  They know at some point they're going to completely drain you of everything you have. So they're already preparing for that. Because they want the situation to end in their favor, rather than you going off and exposing them and turning everyone against them. Even though most of you, you would never do that anyway. Do you not even thinking in that way as a victim of how you can get over on someone, even if it was someone who was doing all of these things to you? Do you not even thinking like that? Victims don't think that way. Victims are not going off thinking, how can I hunt this person down? How can I punish them? How can I make them pay? Victims aren't thinking like that. That's how predators think. That's exactly what the narcissist is going to try to do to you, what it's all said and done. You're not going to be the one who's doing that. You're going to be the one who, after all of the abuse for all of these years, you just want to be left alone in peace. Even if you never get revenge, even if you've lost everything, your house, your car, your business, all of your money, even then it's like you're left in a state where you just don't even care. Let it all go. As long as I can just be left alone. Let them have it. That's how it is. But unfortunately for you, most people are not going to see it that way because they don't understand the psychology of these disorders or even just of basic human behavior. So they're not going to be looking at it like that. Even though, as I've said before, the narcissist is the one who comes in with little or nothing and leaves with far more than what they came in with. And the victim comes into the relationship with practically everything and leaves with little or nothing. That's typically how it is nine times out of 10. But narcissists manage to twist this narrative by playing the victim. And they are experts at doing that. They've been manipulating people for a very long time. They know how to get people on their side. Whereas with you, you've got no skill, no experience in doing that. I'm not saying that to be me, I'm just telling you how it is. I'm sure many of you will look at yourself and you'll be like, yeah, you're right. Because we don't. And I know myself I have no skill at all in playing the victim. We just don't have that type of mentality. Our mindset is okay. This happened.  They destroyed everything. Got nothing left.  Oh, well, it's done time to move on. Let's keep moving. But other people are observing your resilience. Your determination. And they are making these assumptions about you. They are identifying your character in a completely different way to how you actually are. Based on your resilience that is built up from your childhood throughout your entire life, all of those years with your family, your parents and all of your relationships, all of those times where you were attacked, you were abused, all of these things were done to you. And no one was there for you. No one gave you any support. So you learn just to keep it to yourself. Just get on with it. Don't even think about it. Don't confront anyone. Don't try to get revenge. They're looking at that with you as though you're hiding something. As though you're doing something wrong because you're not the one who's going to them crying about things and seeking attention and support. You're not the one who is doing that. That's what the narcissist is doing. And it's working very well for them because they've been doing that their entire lives. That's all that they've ever done. That's all that they've ever known how to do. So of course they're going to be very good at it. They are master manipulators. They know how to get people onto their side, even though they're not the real victims. So how do narcissists feel when you get rid of them? Well, they actually believe their own lies. Yes, many of them actually believe that they are victims. They believe that it's all your fault. Doesn't matter what you did for them. Doesn't matter what you didn't do all of those times that they controlled you. Doesn't matter what they did to you. Their minds are not connected to reality. It has nothing to do with what you've done or haven't done or with what they did or didn't do. It's got nothing to do with that. They create this false narrative in their minds. This is how their disorder functions, so that they can survive, so that they can get their needs met. It has very little to do with you or anything that you've done or haven't done. It's got nothing to do with that at all. And they live in this delusion. They believe their own lies. This is how they can abuse you for all of these years. And it's like when you finally react and you do one thing wrong, they can just forget about all of that and just focus on you. Yes. That's the disorder. That's the mental illness. And I've seen it myself so many times. What I've been attacked provoked repeatedly. And then when I finally snap, I finally react. They could just forget about all of that and then just pull out their phone and record my reaction as though I'm some crazy person. And they can do this to us when we could be the most disciplined person in the world. You see how they twist it around, how they spin these narratives. They are masters of manipulation. They've been doing this for a very long time. And a lot of them actually believe their own lies. They believe the lies that they're telling themselves. They've been gaslighting themselves their entire lives.  You've been led to believe that it's you. And you focus on trivial things. You're not looking at the grand scheme of things how you naturally are. You're looking at how you've reacted to repeated acts of abuse.  And then they're projecting that onto you. Which is why some of you, you don't even know who you are. It's like you've lost yourself.  Sometimes you've got to stop and look back at everything that was done to you. And how you reacted to that? Were you compensated for all of the things that were done to you? Was the narcissist? They got their alleged justice for whatever was meant to have been done to them. What about you? Again, that's how you know that you are the victim. Because of most situations, that's typically how it goes. The victim never gets compensated for what was done to them. In the real world, no one ever really cares. It doesn't matter because you're not the one who is shouting and screaming for attention. Narcissists are. So of course everyone notices them. Of course everyone thinks that they're the real victims. When you get rid of them, despite all of the great things you may have done for them and all of the abuse that you received in return, they're still arrogant and entitled. They're playing the victim. They're thinking that you need to pay. You need to be punished. You need to be taught a lesson for thinking that you can do that to them, for thinking that you can get rid of them. In their minds, it's like, how dare you?  Who do you think you are? And then they're ready to show you why you just made a big mistake by messing with them.  Because now they feel wronged. I understand.   And now you're watching this video. And I'm telling you, they're thinking you're crazy. You're bad. You're this evil psychopath for leaving them. After you gave your life away, you lost everything, and they did all of these things to you. You may feel sick to your stomach right now. To hear that, yes, they think you're the crazy one. They think you're nuts. They think you've lost your mind. It's like, who do you think you are by getting rid of them? Because in their minds, they think they should be getting rid of you. They think you need to be taught a lesson. They think they're very kind and empathic to even being that patient with you, being with you all of that time. Even though they may have been living for free in your home and you were taking care of them for all of those years, they don't see it that way. Narcissists are highly delusional. They do not see it that way. They're never going to see it that way. It doesn't matter if you're six feet in the grounds. Doesn't matter what they do to you. They are never going to see it that way. They're never going to feel that way. They're never going to feel like, okay, yes, I did all of these hurtful things to this person. I treated them bad.  I mean, I completely changed the type of person that they are. I completely changed the course of their life just by getting involved with them. I distorted the entire reality that they were living in and the minds of everyone around them.  Yes, I was doing that for all of those years. And I never owned up to it. I never took accountability for it. So now it's time for me to stand up and be a man and do what I should have done all of those years ago. It's time for me to compensate for that. It's time for me to show you just how sorry I am. Time for me to make it right. Time for me to make amends. No narcissist is ever going to think that way. You're never going to get that type of response from a narcissist and that is how you know exactly what you are dealing with because a normal person, I mean, just consider you in this situation, everything you've been through, everything you gave, everything you received, or the abuse, gas lit into submission to the point where you're phoning and it's like you would do anything to get them to see sense, to get them to understand. It doesn't matter. It does not matter at all. You can do whatever you want. You can give everything you have. You can give your life. They're still going to be looking at it like how dare you. You need to be punished. You need to be taught a lesson. And why do they think this way? Why are they in such denial? Well, even when you're phoning and you're taking accountability for things that you haven't even done, you're trying to stand up and make things right when you never made things wrong to begin with. Even when you're doing that, it's like you're threatening their sense of denial. You're turning their focus inwards.  And that's why you're never going to get any compassion from them. They're never going to try to understand that only ever going to be outward focused. On this external false reality. Because yes, we are living in a false reality where this is happening all around the world. Just in the US alone, there are over 140 million victims of narcissistic abuse. So yes, it's a false reality because there's no truth. There's no justice. And this is just how it is when you're dealing with a full blown narcissist who has MPD or even someone with high narcissistic traits. This is how it's going to be because this is the result, the effect of being involved to the person who has these traits. This is just how it's going to be with them, which is why, as we always say, you are wasting your time trying to expose them, trying to get them to see sense. You've got better luck talking to a brick wall. You really have. As I said before, doesn't matter all of the things you've done for them. It does not matter. I don't care if you deposited a billion dollars in their bank account. If you bought them mansions around the world, super cars, super yachts, private jets. They did nothing for you. They were a bum and they've had a job their entire lives. Doesn't matter. Nothing in the physical reality makes any difference because they are not connected to that. Everything is just an object. We are objects. They are objects in their minds. The entire universe is an extension of their minds. That means they own everything. Everything in this universe belongs to the narcissist. So anything you do or give to them, that was already theirs. That was theirs to begin with. You already owed that to them. They were already entitled to it. So you haven't done anything. They'll tell you that at the end. It doesn't matter what you've done. They'll say you've done nothing and they will say that and you can look into the rise and you'll see it. They mean it. They really mean it. That is literally how they see it and they're never going to see it another way because that is just how the disorder functions. It's not going to function any other way. You're never going to get them to see sense. You're never going to get them to understand. You're never going to wake them up. They're never going to see the light. They're going to remain that way until the day they die and nothing you say or do is going to change that. They will forever remain asleep, paralyzed, mentally, mentally paralyzed. It's like a mental paralysis where they are imprisoned within a certain limited network of neural pathways. It's nearly impossible for them to create new pathways. They just now be able to do that because that requires introspection, self-reflection. Something that they're not willing to do. So much easier just to blame you to find a scapegoat. So yes, they will always be that way and there is nothing you can say or do to get them to see sense. Nothing. Nothing you can do. They are never going to change, as I've said many times before. And yes, I know there are self-aware narcissists. I don't deny that. I've done an interview with one myself, but they are extremely rare. There's actually no documented cases of a narcissist being cured or making a recovery, even when it may seem like a narcissist is self-aware. Who's to say that that isn't just more manipulation? Because remember, this tends to happen when they're in a crisis. What might happen if they got back on their feet? They might become more grandiose. They might just return to the way they were before. Because yes, they will go into this deflated state in order to get their needs met if they need to. Even these self-aware narcissists on YouTube, maybe they're just doing it for attention. Maybe that's their narcissistic supply. Who knows if any narcissist in this world can actually change? So yes, just to make you aware of that and this is how they feel when you get rid of them. If you found this video helpful, hit that thumbs up button down below. Let me know your thoughts in the comment section. Hit subscribe, click all notifications to be notified when I upload a new video. If you would like to donate, you can leave a super chat or a super thanks in the comment section. Or you can go to my PayPal, it is PayPal.me slash Narc Survivor. If you would like to book a one-on-one coaching session with me, you can go to my website, it is NarcSurvivor.co.uk. And you can see new pictures and videos of my travels, which I upload to my stories every day on my Instagram. It is Narc Survivor YouTube. Thank you all for joining me on another Narc Survivor Live video. I do appreciate your wall and I look forward to speaking with you in another one very soon.


We're going to start working out how to do multiplication and division in base 6 by building a times table for base 6. This will be our base when we start trying to solve multiplication and division problems in base 6. We're going to start by using some simple rules that you probably already know, and then we're going to do a whole lot of addition to fill in the rest of the table. So to begin with, we know that zero times anything is zero, so I can easily fill in the zero rows and column. Now one is almost as easy. One times anything is the anything. So I'm going to just write down whatever the other thing is in that row or column. Now I'm going to start doing a whole bunch of addition. I'm also going to take advantage of the fact that my table needs to be symmetrical along the diagonal. So for example my two here, one times two is equal to two times one. So I'm also going to expect five times three is equal to three times five. I'm primarily going to walk across the row just adding whatever this difference is at each time and making sure I stay within my base. So two plus two will give me four. But four plus two doesn't give me six, because I don't have any sixes in base six. Six is actually ten. So I get ten there. Ten plus two is twelve. Twelve plus two is fourteen. And fourteen plus two will give me twenty. So rather like you would expect, two times ten gives me twenty. Three times ten should give me thirty. All we're doing here is multiplying three by the one and then three times zero. So I get three and then zero. So here I'd have forty, fifty, but then I get one hundred because I don't have a sixty. And since our table is symmetrical, I'm going to go ahead and copy some of these across the diagonal. So now I'm down to nine more elements of which I only need to fill out six. So ten plus three will give me thirteen. Thirteen plus three won't give me sixteen, because I'm in base six. That will actually give me twenty. Twenty plus three will give me twenty-three. Down here I have twelve plus four, which will give me twenty. Then twenty plus four is twenty-four. Twenty-four plus four can kind of see that we're sort of repeating what we had over here, but with twenty added on, so twenty matches up here. Twenty-four, next will be thirty-two, and then the forty. So I'll copy my twenty-three and my thirty-two over here. And then I just have one more element which will be forty-one. So there's my times table in base six. We can build these for any arbitrary base you'd like. Six is small enough that we can write it on the board relatively easily though. Now we'll be able to use this to solve more complex problems in base six.