You're just looking very lovely. Great. All right. I just want to walk in here. All right. So here's your costume. Look at all these people. They're like, bleh, bleh, bleh, bleh, bleh. It's exciting. Yeah, dear. Yeah, if you want to have a seat, then come in. Thank you. Did you do something magical to your hair? It's paint. It's like bouncy. It's very pretty. Why do I have these on? That's okay. Okay. So does anybody need me to, would anybody like me to explain what your work is? Because some people are still confused.  It's okay. Okay, great. If you haven't been here before, that's cool. That's all right. Because then, you know, then you'll know. And once you know, you can never unknown. It's one of those wonderful things. Thank you. It's really simple. Basically, we're here together. And what we do is we set, we set our timers. We work bless you. And I know your name, but I can't remember it. But you don't know it. No, I knew it. Sorry. Everett. I live in a continual presence. Everett? Everett. Thank you. Thank you for correcting me. Everett, like crew. Everett, crew. Got it. Got it.  So what we do is we work together for 20 minutes. Okay.  But you can do anything you want. As long as it doesn't disturb others. And then we, after the 20-minute timer goes off, then we talk about your work and your creative process. So if you have questions about your work and your creative process, the gesture is all you know, right? Right. You may, you can ask me and we'll offer some answers. And then we'll kind of maybe bat it around a little bit. Some other artists in the community might offer some answers. Okay. And that's what we do. So it's an opportunity for you to talk about your work and what you're going through. For example, you don't have to talk. It's not mandatory. And that's basically it. Have I left you down? Is there something that you know? Yeah, that's right. There's some people watching online, because Avery's behind the camera, and Audrey's going to come here, and we're going to explain how those people are watching online. You can do it. Totally. So if you have any questions for those who are watching online, you can tweet at us. It's at the Watch Me Work SLP with the hashtag HowlRound, which is H-O-W-L-R-O-U-M-D. You can also put your questions through Instagram Live, the public sensory live, or our Facebook as well. That's all. That's it. Right. And just, you know, if you want to ask me questions about my creative process or my work, I'll be here with you all the time and make it all about you. That's not about me today. And everything was earlier, but it's not right now. Okay, so it might help somebody. That's true. Yeah. Yeah, we're going to get to it. Yeah, I know. Sorry. I thought that was a lie. I thought it was in my head. Yeah. It is. Timer, 20 minutes. Are we ready? One, two, and... So that was the work part. I forgot to mention this is a play. This is a play. I know. I forgot to mention. It's someone who I know who teaches at Harvard and some men in theatrical experience, which I guess that's true. So because that was the, you know, action part of the play and this is the dialogue part of the play, it's very simple. It won't be painful. And this is where you can ask me questions about your creative process. You know, I'll offer some solutions, possibilities, thoughts.  No, no, no. Okay, great. Did you get some work done Laura? Yeah, I did. I guess. Anybody have any? Yeah. Everett. Hey. So I've been, recently I've been working on a web series for a friend. Oh, great. So it's their project. I didn't create it. Two of my friends still created it a few years ago and now I've been trying to finish it since he won and brought me on to help him do that. It's the second time I've tried to collaborate as a writer. The first time crashed and burned. Right. And then this time, I mean they're friends, so it's like, it's fine, but I'm having a lot of trouble negotiating my sensibilities as a writer with what they want because my sensibilities, when I write stuff for myself, is whatever. It's very, it tends to be dark and sweeping and poetic and epic and very wordy.   Yeah, I got this last night, but now I feel good. Okay, whatever. And so, and it's just hard for me to write that because I don't care how Kirk was saying that. Right. But it is what works on screen and on screen it doesn't look dumb, it's just that their vibe is very improper and the script tends to be more like a starting point than what actually ends up working for them in the end. So, if you could just speak to that kind of expression. Working for a friend. Working for a friend. Did everybody hear? Everybody, great, great, awesome, awesome, awesome. That's a great question. It's in the working for hire category, which I don't know if they're financially compensating your job, but you're working for hire. You're working on something that's not all yours. You're helping out some friends. And I mean, in a way, all the time, you have to continue to sort of put yourself, yourself aside a little bit. Even when you're writing something from your own heart, a lot of times we finally have to put ourself, you know, aside to let the play or the novel or whatever speak through it. So it's not all about me, me, me, me, me. You know, it's about this piece that needs to be written. That's in my experience anyway. So that writing for hire is kind of the next step of that. And I don't know how much other work for hire that you do. Okay, but a lot of it might give you that feeling that you're being asked to write something that's not what you write if you're simply writing for yourself, you know? And so that's part of the creative process in that it's part of the creative business. That's the business.   And we want you to write it in this way, you know? You're gonna have a lot of, you might have some struggle because what they want might not be what you want. And so that's just part of the business, you know? It sounds like though what they're, what's being created is what's being created is lovely. I mean, I think it will be. It's a lot of work. Yeah.   Yeah, the whole product season one. Right. And just getting it clear and making things, you know, matter. Right. So that it's more like, I mean, what they had before was fun, but it was like signed out. Right, right, right, right. Okay.  You're providing something very valuable for them. And it doesn't sound like something that you would write if you were writing on your own. Probably not. That's, so it doesn't matter. Because it's not about you. Right. And that's the sort of thing we have to learn. Sometimes when you write, it is about you. And sometimes when you write, it's for you, but it's not about you. And sometimes when you write, it's so not about you. It's about them. And learning how to dive in and go, yeah, they called you because they need your help and your expertise, you know. And so it's a blessing. And sometimes blessings don't always look really, you know. Yay, they all agree with me.  Well, it doesn't look like that.   You know what I mean? And we have to learn it together. We have to learn all the time. But, you know, we learn that. And that's just, that's all it is. And it sounds like it's going to be a good project. It sounds like it's going to be cool. Hopefully. I think she all know when it's done. Yeah. So, you know, it happens. You know, it happens. It's like the next level of being a professional. You know?  That's a good thing. It's a really good thing. It's called a blessing. That's in a blessings category. You know?  You know, but people are saying, hey, we want you to help us write this because you're really good at that structure thing and making things matter. And that's like, I can come in and give that. You know? And I bet, I bet, I'm willing to bet that you might just learn something from them that you can carry over into your own writing. Hopefully. Yeah. I bet you. We always do. I do anyway. When I do these work for hire things, I work for hire a lot. Yes. Oh, there's people wearing yellow. Yes. Yellow. I'm saying it like triple. Yes, yes. I have a question. It's more of an advice. What's your name? Sheena. Sheena. Yes. So I wrote a one woman show. I'm like coming back again here one or two years ago. Okay. And I can get passionate. And I wrote it in one of the subjects that had a hard time dealing with it. Okay. And then I faced the demon. Oh, okay. But then I got really dark and I just destroyed it. Which I'm fine with, actually. I have a lot of pieces of that. Right. Because now I'm like, it's funny. It's called Modena Back to the Basics and now I'm Back to the Basics. Right. But I just wanted to know, because I remember like a while back I used it, I'm an actor so I used it for my personal work and you were like, you got this. And I remember putting that on my mirror. And it really helped me with a lot of things. I always put, you got this. Right. So I was wondering if there were three things, whether it's a mantra or a scene, in terms of, you know, those little whispers that you talk to a giant and feel like I got this. In terms of writing and starting all over. Because because I put in the work, or I think I know the elements that I'm going to revisit. Because I did it. I just destroyed it. And now it's going to be, you know, a different kind of voice. And like I said, I'm going to taste with that. At first I was like, I can't believe you did that. But it's done. There's nothing I can do about that. Okay. So now in the beginning process again, I was curious if you had, you know, any mantras or scene response. Because I liked, I got this. Right, right, right. So I got this. Did everybody hear Gina? She's working on something. She's working on something. She wrote it. How much of a did you write, Gina? I wrote the whole thing. Gina's about China. Oh, and now I remember you. I remember Gina. You wrote the whole thing. Yeah, I just had one thing and it was about a topic and you gave me great notes. Yeah. That I had a struggle with. Because I didn't want the, I didn't want that part to be victimized. I wanted to be kind of empowered. And once I finished that, I just, it was hard. Did you like destroy it? Like Gina, did you like burn it? Yeah, you know, it's funny I did it. It's still a sense of topic because I'm like, I'm getting emotional, but yeah. I'm sorry, what did you do to it? I destroyed it. You burned it. And there's no trace. I mean, I think there are notes from the email. That's okay. Or there's, there's, there's, you remember it. Would you like to reconstruct it? No. Or you want to start on something new? No, I want to do the same thing. Oh, great. I just, I've made peace that I was a choice.  Yeah. So, I mean, I made peace that I did that. I just want to know, in the rebirth, be like stuff at all. Sure. You don't have any like mantras or something. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Well, there are lots of them. We have lots of them. You only want three of them. I mean, you get this now. You got this, you got this kind of like, you had it. No, you had it. So, you had it. No, you don't know. No, no, no, no. That's not, that's not, we're going to let that one go. Because you got this, let's put it over. I mean, why don't we use, I mean, there's so many, but the ones that come to mind are really good because they're from the Civil Rights Movement. And it's Earth Day. And somehow that's connected. So, how about, ain't nobody going to turn me around? How about that one? Okay. That's a good one. Right? And have eyes on the prize. That one. That's a good one. That's two. Eyes on the prize. You know. And how about this little light of mine, I'm going to let it shine. How about that one? Okay. That's a really good one because a lot of times, you know, and not shine like, I'm going to burn this. So, what we're not including is burn baby burn. We're not including that one. That's a good one. We're not including that one. Okay? Okay. So, those three are good. And you can also put in, like, corning ones like, I love you. Like that one. You can put that on your mirror or on a page, you know, like, I love my work. Like that. That's kind of corny, but it kind of works. You know, if it works, you know, thank you is also a good one. That's true. Put in the time. Yeah. The spirit will never fail you. Keep on keeping on. You know. You know. And you could do, do you live nearby? I live in Spanish home. So you could, so you could come and visit us sometimes. You know what I mean? Right? You can come back and visit and hang out because it helps to sort of keep touching. Yeah.  And it does. It takes a village. You know? Okay? Thank you. You've got to put in the time. You're going to start to do the time. And that's the thing, because you say, we say like, you know, I know how to do it. I did it. But, it's going to be, it's going to be, yeah, it's going to be an uphill climb, but you won't be the only one doing it. Yeah. Or you'll have to look around. You'll see like, oh look, there's people climbing with me.  You know what I'm saying? And that's like a wonderful thing. Okay? I'm glad you came back. Thank you. Hey, so, when are you going to start? Did you want to start? I made myself come here.  It's Earth Day. It's an auspicious day. It's Earth Day. And it's a full moon. There you go. So the whole world is behind you. Yeah. Like, you can't get better than that, yeah. Right? So those of us who can't get better than that, it's very meaningful. Because some of the best people in the world were born during the 21st of April or the 21st of May. Not to be like weird guys. Okay? Anybody else? Yeah, man. My name's Kevin. I am. So when you're applying to, when you're applying to different fellowships and opportunities, you're often asked to submit or choose a portion of your full fees. Oh, huh. Yeah. Just submit. And in a lot of infossessions, they'll tell you, you know, give us something that kind of leads us into a plot or other opportunities to say, give us the essence, whatever it is. So in, let's say on average, you have like 80 to 90 pages in one frame. Well, how do you choose tension when you think? Right, right, right. Well, so you could, that's a great question. How do you choose those 10 to 20 pages when you're applying for a fellowship or a grant or a residency or whatever? How do you choose those? I mean, I would choose the ones that I'd get most excited about. Like, wow, this is really exciting. You know what I mean? Sometimes that might be the beginning. You know, sometimes that might be a scene that you just love to give the reader, the grant person, you know, some kind of context. This is what this happens and they can really get a sense of what you're like as a writer, you know? But the part where you go, yeah, I really like that. Not to try to second-guess the mind of somebody you may have never met. Like, what are they looking for? I think they're gonna... And that's kind of tricky, you know? Do you have, are you also allowed to make a personal statement? Yes, but I'm finding a lot of... A lot of applications are now... They're doing these blind reads and they're really focusing less and less on the content of what you've written in the application and more so on themselves. And just the blind reads. They don't want it to know you. They just want to know your work. Right. And not until, yeah, in some of the larger competitions, they'll... When they kind of whittle down then they'll want to know a little bit more about it. Right. Right. I would choose the part of your work that you love the most.  It sounds correct, let what happens happen. And you win either way because if you do get the Granted Fellowship, then you get the Granted Fellowship.  Like that. And both of those things have happened in my experience. You know what I mean? Because really, you know, sometimes they just miss. You're wonderful and you don't get the prize that you should have gotten in the Granted Fellowship. But you still shine on. You know what I mean? And just take it as a blessing. It's kind of an exercise. You can take everything that happens as a blessing. Like that. You know? Okay? And you say you can't go wrong. Yeah. If you have a party, it's like you love. And it might also give them some idea about like who you are or whatever, you know, like that. That's cool. That's a win-win. Then go for it, you know? Yeah. Oh, great. Oh, great. Okay. Right. Miranda. You're having a stage ring and you've never done it before. Yes. Can you proceed? Yeah. So she's having a stage reading. Miranda. Miranda. I'm sorry. I know you. Because you're part of the family. Yeah. Yeah. So Miranda's having a stage reading of a play. Of a play. And she was wondering what do I pay attention to the most? Right? One thing. You're sitting there. Will you be watching with a notebook? I'll have the script coming. Okay. Okay. Okay. So you can have, like, you can have, like, print it out or you can have it on your whatever device and then you have a notebook that's open. Sometimes it's helpful to take notes about how you're feeling. Sometimes it's like, oh, I love this part.  Oh, I'm so embarrassed, though. I hope no one's really into it. I hope no one hates me. Just allow yourself to feel your feelings. Oh, this one really works. Okay. Okay. Okay. So you can have, like, like, print it out or you can have it on your whatever device and then you have a notebook that's open. Oh, this one really works. Oh, that seemed like well. I got a laugh there. You could just record your feelings and thoughts. So the most thing, I would say, pay attention to you and how you feel about what you're experiencing. You know?  Oh, that felt good. Oh, something's missing there. You know, but I would say watch with a notebook open and just write things down. So it doesn't all go, you have to wash.  You know, that kind of thing. That's what I would do when I listen to readings. I just take notes. You know? Okay? That's helpful. And who knows what you have in it. When? When. Amazing. Yeah, that's a very good day. Good morning. Good morning. How many actors? I have found with readings that actors are marvelous because they can tell you a lot whether there is an internal logic to that character or whether it's not. And even if it's a small character, tell you whether that character has any importance at all. So try and get your actors to be honest with you and if they can't be, look at them really closely and try and figure out whether they're getting into that character and feel it's an importance of challenge to them. That's a great idea. That's a really great idea. But just to know if they don't want to be really honest with you, don't push them because they might, you know, dramaturgy is not necessarily an actor strong soon and they might push to say something. I really hated that moment when you said, oh, sorry. You know what I mean? That's what I meant. It's the logic of the character that's much more important with them then telling you about a structure. Right, right, right. No, they're very smart. Remind me of you. I can't forget anything. Jim. It's easy to forget. Is it coming? No, no, no, no. It should be a joy to remember. Okay, now I have a piece of, I have a mnemonic of this. We'll see how it works. That's good. Crazy. That's excellent. Anybody? Yeah, man. Hey, Victor. Hi. This is something that I still see. I'm trying to write a short film that's about an open relationship. Right. That's just what fascinates me a lot. Right.  That's exciting, but when you're creating characters, I feel like it's easy to kind of get into this loop of you're making these characters into a more, like, a thematic exposition. Like, they're serving the exposition only if you're not creating actual human people that are going to latch themselves onto your project through the experience. So I'm just wondering what are some things I can focus on or let you do in terms of, you know, creating a person. Yeah. Great question. Did everybody hear Victor? Pretty much. Yeah? Okay. So he's writing something. We're just talking about creating characters, regardless of the subject matter, actually. You're writing about open relationships. But if we were writing about long-distance running, which kind of is, like, an open relationship? Not an open relationship. That's what you're writing. Not an open relationship. That's what you're writing. It's the opposite of an open relationship. But how do we create characters, right? Instead of just checking things off, you know, I want to talk about this, I want to talk about this, I want to talk about this. We don't want to do that. We want to talk about characters, right? So desire is really important when you talk about characters, regardless of the subject matter, right? I.e. what does a character want? So you have someone named whatever, James, right? And she's one of your characters, say, what does she want more than anything? You know? So desire is a really strong thing to focus on. Do you have that? When you think of your characters, do you have names for them? I'm still a little bit exploratory. So I might, I mean, I'm kind of old school, but I have characters that have names. That's old. I mean, they can be called one, two, seventeen, you know, three hundred and sixty-five. Whatever they call it.  Why? Because then the sort of gravitational pull increases. Things will magnetize toward that person. Okay? So decide on a name, whatever the name is.  Call them something. Right? X, Y, A, Z. Oh, whatever. Okay? Okay? You don't have to sweat too much about the name.  Is that the right one? It doesn't matter. Okay? Are you okay? Would you consider yourself a perfectionist? What's up? Yeah. I can tell. Yeah. Great. Okay. You can let that go. You can let it go. Because we love you and there's no wrong. You can't get it wrong. No, no, believe me. And I'm like old enough to be like your grandmother. You can't get it wrong. Or, you know, kind of your grandmother. But you can't get it wrong. You can't get it wrong. You just got to do it. You got to do it. You know? Throw yourself in there. Okay? What do they want more than anything? If you had a character name, just make up a name. Just pretend you don't. Ash. Ash? Ash. Ash. Ash. Great. Okay, so Ash. So Ash wants more than anything. What do they want? Just pretend you know. Just pretend. Safety. Great. So you got a character named Ash. And how old are they? Kind of sort of like just pretend. I don't know. Whatever. 12? 15? 15. Great. Ash wants safety more than anything. Great. There's somebody. That's interesting. Yeah. Okay. I'm leaving an end. Who would say another character? Who is that? Just kind of whatever. Let's go with X. X. X. Okay. EX or just X? Just X. Like mouth of X or just like just X? Just X. No choice. Just X. Okay. X. What do they want? Money. Money. Great. And how about whole of the day? They're about something. 19. 19. Fantastic. X. They want money more than anything. And they're 19. They're two people. You see? I mean, when you get out of the way, it's easy. You know? The whole thing about Easter, I had this theory. No, really. Think about it. Roll away the stone. What are we actually talking about? You know? Okay. So it was a big thing. You know? Everyone we really was like rooting for Jesus was like, Cassie told you. He's somebody. Right? But the idea of Jesus was like, Cassie told you. He's somebody. Right? But the idea of Jesus was like, Cassie told you. He's somebody. Right? But the idea of just getting out of the way. Roll away the stone so that you can actually do what you want to do.  Get out of your own way. It's okay. We're all here. You know, you've got two characters now, right? Okay. In the end, does X get money? Let's go with no. Okay. In the end, does Ash get safety? No. No. Okay. So there you go. There's something. And in the beginning, does X have money? No. No. No. And in the beginning, does Ash have safety? Yeah. Yes. Great. So Ash wants more safety or Ash wants to retain safety? Great. Okay. Okay. So there you go. There's something. You're on your way. You've been on your way for a long time. You've been on your way for a long time. You're on your way. You've been on your way for a long time. See? That's the trick. We just go, yeah, there you are. It's like long distance running. I told you I couldn't. Anybody else? Probably not. It's all weird today. Thursday. We have an Instagram question. Someone from Instagram says, What's the best way to get out of the way of writer's drawing? I know. See what we just did. What's the best way to get out of the way of writer's drawing? I love that question. So what do you do? Anybody got any answers? Come on. Somebody has answers. Has anybody ever had writer's block? No. No. What do you do? Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. Dance. It's hard to say. I am glad. I think it'siiii. Dance.... Dance. Yes! It's illegal, really. It's illegal. It's illegal. Right, close myself. Okay, so that's great. Who else? Yeah, what do you do? Oh, we just like, I don't know, do something with the yo-yo, so you have a new perspective. Do something with the yo-yo? That's great, so we got to go out with my yo-yo? Yeah. That's okay? Do they still sell yo-yo? Yeah! Yeah, yeah! Okay, so we, I mean, and you do a yo-yo, right? You do a little yo-yoing, like, around the world? Yeah, that's good. Do something else. Like, we're doing music, drawing. Right, change your perspective on whatever you chose. Change it up. Super smart. Change it up. Change it up.  Right? Take a break, too. Take a break. Right. Take a break. Make yourself some tea. Yes. You can also pray. Pray is good. Pray is good. It's free. It doesn't matter if you believe in the higher power. That's not the point. Ask it yourself to come to your assistance. You go, please, please, please help me. I still want to write or whatever. I still want to create this thing. Please, please help me. Here I am. Like, Homer, did anybody ever hear of the Odyssey? That poem, you know? What does he say? Oh, knew something. I'm paraphrasing now, but yo, here I am. Help me. Help me write this cool poem about this person. I don't know what he said. He started off with a prayer. Prayer works. You know, you just ask him for help. Call a friend. Come to watch me work. That's helpful. You have to probably show up and we laugh together. We go, ha, ha, ha. We do. Write coffee on the back. Yes, that's good. Anybody else have any? Yeah? We can just be just doing, oh, yeah. We've got like five minutes. Yeah? I was just doing that. Yeah. It feels good, right? Yeah. Right spot. Right spot. Get a timer. Get a timer. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, that's what I do. Yeah. Yeah. Get a timer. Set it for like 20 minutes. Don't use your phone because your phone is cracked. I would suggest an actual timer. It doesn't have to look like this.  Put down the bike. Your phone is cracked because it has all these magical things on it that we love. We go, like that, but no, you don't want to do that. You want to get a timer that only counts down time. And you want to set it for 20 minutes. Or if that's too much, set it for 10 minutes.   You know? And just, you know, write and then rewrite. That's what we do. Sometimes we try to write and write to be perfect, not naming any names, Victor. Do your parents name you that? Yeah. Well, your parents named you winner. I mean, no pressure, but that's such a great name. Okay. Yeah, right? Okay. That's a great name. Winner. Winner. That's your name. Okay.  Put in the time. Just put in the time. True. True. I think that's a good question. Okay. I'd like to look to ministry. Oh, look at time. Yeah, what's your name? My name is Joanne. Hey Joanne. Hello. The dancer? Yes. These wonderful people are working on one of your plans. Oh, oh. Okay. Uh, true.  Yes. This is about them and their creative process. Yeah. Could you just say a few words perhaps? What? I don't know. We're hired here. People are hiring. Is this all a fan? Yeah. Ah, okay. We're approaching the road. Are you having some difficulty with Robin? His timing? What does he know, and what doesn't he know? How does he manage?  How does he translate? I don't know. Okay. We only have two minutes. Yeah, I know. You know, again, watch me work. It's about your work and your creative process. And if I were to answer that question, then you wouldn't have to do the play. Right? Sit with the complexity. Allow it to inform every moment of your life. Read it aloud. With your friends. Have a really cool costume. Do you play the guitar? Aha, of course you do. You go for cell fans. Yeah, well, maybe he also plays the guitar somewhere in the play. I don't know what to say. I don't know. I don't know. But thank you for asking. I'm glad you guys are here. Yes. I'm just like... Oh, the characters before Columbus... I just want to know, if I'm on the right track... Yes! Yes, you are. You're on the right track. Look, you're here. I'm thinking, like, before Columbus is like this innocence before Columbus... Or just the moments before Columbus came. Oh, the instances would be a judgment, right? That means that there was a perfection before and we knew that not to be true. There was complexity before and there was complexity after, isn't there?  Hello, everybody, wake up. She's been going on for a long time, right? So before Columbus is just before Columbus. You see what I'm saying? Hopefully you guys are also being encouraged to write or create your own work with this play, yeah? Or dance, yeah? Yeah? Anybody have any questions about their work though before we go?  We have a moment right now, somebody... Yeah, you. So, when you're writing, should you be... My name's Hallway. When you're writing, should you be writing for yourself or should you be writing for the audience? Because I'm working on this script that I'm working on and it's a little pause on it because I felt like I'm trying to add all of these social issues. I'm not sure that I'm connecting with the audience but then I feel like when I'm doing that, I'm just saying my work for why I'm writing. Right. I will quote... I will give you a quote. Hopefully you will explain and answer your question. Did everybody here know what I wanted to say? I'm going to write for ourselves and for our audience. I will quote from who the death of last 5 minutes will tell. It will be of us. It will be for us. But we will mention them from time to time. So in the future when they come along write for yourself and by writing completely for yourself you will write for the whole world. Thank you. Thanks you guys. Are we done now? Yes, we're done.


What's up cover girls? You're probably wondering is the Hasselblad X-Pan worth it? I don't know you may love or hate my answer so much that you punch your computer screen Today's episode is sponsored by Squarespace Hey Hey, I'm sure you have a wealth of free time to answer questions like these so here goes I've always wanted to like M6, but after watching your channel I'm really looking into the Hasselblad X-Pan slash Fuji TX-1 that being said I'm a little reluctant to drop nearly $5,000 or more on eBay, but it looks like the options to find one of these cameras elsewhere is fairly slim I'm also a little worried about the electronics aspect of the X-Pan that may go out and repairs would be difficult or expensive So I get this question a lot and my answer was always Duh, it's worth it. Panoramic images are tight and the camera itself is How do I put this delicately? It's quite f***able However with the ongoing boom of interest in film photography and the prices for everything skyrocketing I recently had to reevaluate my position on the X-Pan I could sit here and reiterate that the X-Pan and the TX-1 are the exact same camera Collaborated on by Hasselblad and Fuji and released over the turn of the century They're both 35 millimeter rangefinder cameras and are the only ones of their kind that shoot double the width of a standard 35 millimeter frame Aka panoramic. Of course, they can also shoot standard 35 millimeter, but come on Who the f*** actually buys that camera to do that?  It's electronic Everything is pretty much automated on this camera and while that was cool and futuristic in 1998 It's ultimately gonna lead to this camera's demise Electronic parts are known to die over time from what I hear they usually last about 40 years or so But there's always outliers What happens when they do eventually bite the dust on this camera? Well You're pretty much a s*** Hasselblad and Fuji though. I love them Don't give a flaming fart about these cameras anymore and because of that They don't make replacement parts for them or service them from what I hear So when your X-Pan s*** the bed in your greatest hour of need, that's it That's all you get unless you buy another body and cannibalize the parts when that dark day comes for my own TX-1 I plan to cope with the issue by pretending It still works it in fact being a lifeless husk of panoramics past will be my little secret I mean, it's either that or a total emotional breakdown where I end up naked So if you know that eventually one day this camera will die using it will give you many hard palpitations I was recently loading some Kodak ectochromes slight duplicating film and when I close the film door the auto wind on the camera Didn't do the literal only thing it was designed to do auto wind my film. So I started thinking well That's it. It wasn't a good run But I knew this day would come time to start making preparations for this camera's Viking funeral But guess what turns out the camera just has some dumb-ass quirks and it isn't flammable aside from the version 1 not being able to do exposures longer than 30 seconds without overheating turns out that there are also some Weird ISO rules because there was no DX code on the slide duplicating film I had to set the ISO on the camera to a certain number before loading I think it was a hundred ISO, but I can't really remember once I did that it wound just fine I have the manual for the tx1. Maybe I should just read it sometime. Ah Anyway long story short.  I don't know if you've looked up prices on these bad boys lately But it's not so chill. In fact as I recently scrolled through eBay. I had to take a Tums Averaging about five thousand dollars for both the body and lens combo I think that that is far too much to pay for this camera about two years ago I picked up the tx1 body for about two thousand dollars and I picked up the 45 millimeter lens for just under a grand Which I still felt was pretty high at the time. Why are these cameras so damn expensive? Well, as I said before they're the only ones of their kind and they aren't being made anymore But just you wait five thousand dollars is the base price There's always an opportunity to spend more money with this camera turns out that there are three lenses for this system As I mentioned before I have the 45 millimeter and there's also the 90 millimeter, which is actually slightly cheaper But that's where the savings and there's also the 30 millimeter lens Which is apparently made of diamonds or something because it goes for about four to five thousand dollars alone pretty much The same price as a coffin. I don't know might just be easier to die I have actually shot with the 30 millimeter before thanks to Phil over at the darkroom and it's an amazing lens I'll give it that but still like damn But wait, there's even more These lenses are good, but they're not quite perfect out of the box or presumably gold horse drawn chariot that they arrive in They have heavy vignetting in panoramic mode I don't know about the 90 because I've never used it But the 45 and the 30 definitely have it luckily there is a solution You can buy a center filter for these lenses, which will set you back another 500 clams So if you're like me and think spending $500 on a lens filter is absurd Then I don't know. I guess you can go to therapy about it, which might be cheaper What's worse though is that those filters will take your already slow expand lenses and make them slower the 45 and the 90 Can only go down to f4 and with the center filter applied you're losing about a stop of light So that ain't good the 30 millimeter, which definitely needs the filter can only go down to 5.6 So with the filter on you're looking at shooting at an equivalent of f8 at its fastest and on top of that Literally you need a special viewfinder for the 30 millimeter Hey, this is Jason rudely interrupting the flow of the video from the future or one of many alternate futures I'm still not sure for anyone that gives two shits about this I just want to say that my man Casey pointed out recently that you can actually adapt an old Nikkor shift lens to the x-pan and it's a hugely discounted way to shoot a wider focal length There's actually a really great article about it on 35 millimeter C But every time I go to that website I inevitably end up buying a new film camera So I guess you've been warned shift lenses produce larger image circles And this one in particular has been tested and confirmed to cover the x-pan panoramic format and even better It opens up to f2.8 you will however need an adapter to get that mounted on the camera and It won't link the rangefinder. So scale focusing is your only hope. I'm gonna test it out myself I just didn't have time to do it in this video because I was busy playing video games And didn't want to get Dorito crust on my tx one anyway back to past Jason Who is probably happier healthier and handsomer if infrared film is your thing You'll have to shell out for the x-pan 2 or tx 2 which are like double the price. So good luck with that It's exhausting not a good situation at all, but that's all there is for compact true 35 millimeter panoramic Obviously panoramic is sexy it can turn an ok photo into a pole surprise winning banger But there are a few things to consider on the output side of your work scanning is kind of a pain of the ass That's right.  If you're getting scans from the lab, that's cool, too But oftentimes they'll charge a little bit extra because it is an unusual format And they have to find some sort of crafty MacGyver style workaround if you're printing that's great Your shots will look beautiful But it's worth mentioning that finding picture frames for panoramic images will be by nature Just a little more difficult and harder to find than standard size frames furthermore If instagram is your final output then be prepared for it to look Daddy's duck doesn't like wide frames on instagram and won't display it to the full extent of its format Usually people just add white borders and or do a carousel But obviously that kind of sucks if your website is your final output I will say that today's sponsor square space actually presents your panoramic images in a nice large display online Square space is an all-in-one website building platform that features all the tools you'll need to build a visually pleasing photography website I've been using square space to host my own website and portfolio and to say it's been an absolute breeze would be an understatement With square spaces intuitive user interface and hundreds of professionally designed templates crafting your own professional or personal website has never been easier If you're keen to start selling prints zines or photo books, there are even modules for that You can build your own online store set prices and manage inventory all from the main dashboard And if you run into any snags square space offers 24 7 award-winning customer support to help get you on your way So what are you waiting for if you're ready to build a website? You can start a free trial today at squarespace.com slash grainy days And if you use the code grainy days at checkout you can get 10 off your first purchase So yeah, even though I think that the camera is riddled with issues and not really worth the pesos anymore I think it's worth highlighting a few things that make the camera awesome.  There are a lot of positive things to like about this camera looking through the viewfinder is Gorgeous the body of the camera is made of titanium and the lenses for the system render your images with a subtle beauty that is unmatched But is that price just way too high for something that will inevitably break out on you? Like I said probably 600 times. Yeah, I think so I think that the window of opportunity for most people to reasonably buy one is pretty much closed now But it's ultimately up to you If you have wads of cash flowing out your ass and just have to have true 35 millimeter panoramic Then get it or just shoot medium format and get a 35 millimeter pano kit Oh, yeah, and they used s*** paint on the hassleblad versions of this camera So if you want something clean and pristine get the Fuji version


Hey everybody, welcome to another exciting episode, another edition of A Week in Geekdom here on YouTube, and this time we're going to be doing something a little bit different. We're going to be talking about a series that, one, the original source material is not done, and two, the anime adaptation isn't finished either, so we're just going to be focusing on the first 51 episodes, or season one, if you will, of Black Clover. Black Clover, of course, a 2015 manga, if I remember correctly, written by Yuki Tabata. It's a wonderful, charming little series that could. The anime, however, has gotten a lot of heat, especially on the first season, and a lot of season two for some reason. I looked online, and a lot of people like to complain and criticize and basically tear apart this show because of its one massive glaring problem, which is its animation. I will get to that, don't worry about it. But for the most part, the TLDR of Black Clover, it is a world governed by magic. Everybody can use magic spells and all that stuff. There are wizards and magic knights, and there's this Clover Kingdom.  So yeah, from that point you get some really nice exposition on a very, you know, at first it's a small world that gets presented to us, but it starts expanding as the story moves along and you start learning a little bit more about the kingdom and how it operates and the rival factions. There's other kingdoms outside that they fight with the Clover Kingdom. There's this huge war between everybody and all that stuff that I think will entice you to keep going, but the main focus of Black Clover is the story of our main lead. Unfortunately, Shonen Jump series all share very similar protagonists, they all share very similar tropes, so I find it funny when people start comparing Black Clover to say like Naruto, for example, because they aren't necessarily the best characters when the story starts and I don't mean personality-wise, more of a power-set-wise, but what's interesting about Black Clover and what sets it apart from the rest of the Shonen Jump series is the fact that unlike Naruto, unlike, I don't know, One Piece or Bleach or whatever other series you want to bring about, the main character does not have that main, or at least at the beginning, that main force, that main element that allows him to be amongst the other super-powered characters. Like with Luffy, you have different characters that have, you know, they got superpowers basically from the gum gum fruits or Naruto, they're all ninjas and they all use their chakras and all that stuff. But Naruto, Luffy, all those characters, they do have the power, if you will, and the potential to be great, whereas our main character, Asta, he is born without magic. He doesn't have magic, he can't use mana or whatever particle name that they're given for this, the main source of power, he can't use it, he just can't. And I find that really interesting, I hope that young readers can identify with the character in the fact that he has to overcome this adversity and he has to become a better version of himself. The character chooses, of course, to train every single day and become physically tougher and superior to his peers, because, well, he can't use magic, he might as well train his entire body to fight and have that stamina and resolve to continue his dreams of one day becoming the Wizard King. Now, why would he want to become the Wizard King if he doesn't have magic? He doesn't really know it at first, but I'll get to that in a little bit because I'm trying to condense the plot as quickly as possible so I can give you a concise review. Asta wants to be a Wizard King because there is this, the world of Black Clover, it's very ancient in its practices and you see the differences between the wealthy and the kingdoms and the poor living in the outskirts and random villages, backwards villages if you will, living off the scraps that they can farm and find and all that stuff. So he wants to bring a balance, he wants to bring equality so everybody can have better lives. Now to do this, there's going to be a problem because, again, you need magic.  Juno is a wonderful character as well. He was raised with Asta, they were both orphans when this priest found him and they practically grew up together, their brothers, technically their siblings. So it's awesome that they're rivals but it's more of a friendly rivalry if you will. They obviously care for each other even if they grow up and they become a little bit distant with their likes and they mature and stuff but they still have this bond that unites them regardless of whether one is stronger than the other or one might be in a different area and another in a different place. So the two of them want to be wizard kings for pretty much the same reason and that leads them to a lot of shenanigans which, slight spoilers, they end up becoming part of the fighting class if you will of the knights and all that stuff of the Clover Kingdom. In that kingdom with the wizard king and the actual king or governor or figureheads or whatever of political figures there are the knight squads which kind of reminded me of the bleach court guard squads or 13 squads, something similar to that structure where you have a captain and all the people below him and where it differs with Black Clover is that when you find out how this is run of course you're going to have squads that are better than others, some are considered the worst, others are considered where all the snobby high leveled individuals reside and it's sort of that type of action adventure story where you have characters in those type of situations. Asta ends up with a certain team called the Black Bulls and most of the character development that you're going to see is within this team and it's actually my favorite part of the series so far I love the characters in this squad the Black Bulls are fantastic they're led by their captain Yami and he is a hilarious and extremely badass leader every single one of them is so distinct they're the misfits of the story they you know other squads can't stand them simply because they're supposedly at low level and they're brash and obnoxious and just plain weirdos you know that that funny sandlot of characters so when Asta joins them they form this friendship of course getting to know them can be a little bit rough at first but they form this friendship this fellowship of characters and as the series progresses with different actions and arcs the characters evolve in a very satisfying way that's one of the things that compared to other series where the B listers and the C listers and the filler characters they don't get the spotlight or they rarely do something here most of the cast in that squad do get their shot at the spotlight and do evolve and progress as characters so I really appreciated that even if it's just a tiny bit it matters in the long run so yeah that in a nutshell is Black Clover I hope I didn't ruin it for you I know that several YouTubers have done too many videos talking about the series and how the animation and the sounds and the choreography and all that stuff how it compares to other Shona Jump series but before I can get to that there are some highlights I have them written here on a note so I didn't forget one of the things like I mentioned it's a very diverse cast there is a character progression I don't think the series can be compared to stuff like Naruto because like I said Naruto had the talent he just was terrible at using it and then later on becomes better Asta doesn't have the talent at first and has to acquire some method and he does acquire that method I'm not gonna spoil it but he does acquire it to level the playing field but in regards to that his weapon of choice is it's beautiful I love that idea that is sort of like the the anti-weapon for everything and it's actually the perfect weapon to stop everybody in their tracks that's that's wonderful I love that idea so one of the things that I it took me a little while to get used to is that the plot for it being Shona Jump series moves rather quickly and that can be good and that can be bad I say good because obviously you don't spend a lot of time fleshing out stuff that otherwise like another series could take like five episodes here you can do that stuff in like one and it's that type of fast motion that helps the characters move along at a quicker quicker space however several characters I've noticed that right from the get go when they're doing initiation exams and all that stuff they pull out moves out of nowhere and when I was watching I kept thinking when did these characters learn to do that I wanted to sort of you know the trope of seeing how the combat system technically works like for example one of the greatest manga ever hunter x hunter goes really in depth on how its battle system works here things are just introduced as if you know what they are already and I guess it's for the sake of moving the plot along but if you're a new character like Asta and you know you kind of want to go at a slower pace because you're still going through the motions of what everything is and how everything works they literally get their main source of weapon which are these grim wars which you know they house spells and all that stuff I thought we were going to see them practicing and going through that stuff but uh no uh you know he you know is a prodigy and he can do pretty much anything deal with it so uh you know I that's one aspect I didn't really appreciate okay so the animation the animation is done by studio piero they did the Naruto series they did the bleach series as well uh like the the manga is gorgeous to look at I love the the drawings from the original source material and for the most part they translate well but the characters are really well lit and and by lit I mean like illumination not not the jargon slang they're it's everything's too bright and I think the series could be a little bit uh the color palette could be a little bit darker so the shadowing and all that stuff could give the drawings a little bit more depth in my honest opinion also a lot of key frames and the fluidity and the kinetic motion that you see in the manga and the fluid movements and all that stuff uh there's a dexterity to the way Austin moves and all that stuff it sort of looks chompy in the anime and it sort of reminds me of uh just filler filler cartoons when you're watching an anime and you get to a filler arc and you give it to the b team in your production studio and they take a crack at it that's sort of what it reminds me of and I oh man I don't like it thank goodness the story is charming enough where you have this character that is trying to be better and and doing everything imaginable to get to that goal because also wants to be wizard king and all that stuff that is intriguing that's fun it's it's curious and makes you want to root for this character and makes you want to see what he's going to do but when you have sort of this filler stocky blocky animation where literally just you know random uh weird movements in crucial moments I might add because there are some really plot uh plot heavy scenes where action is going down and like okay I can expect um animation to not look as great when characters are talking on or where there's a zoomed out scene and there's not a lot of close-ups I get it you cut corners and you do what you got to do because it is a tiring process but however there is this fight near the middle of the series this large-scale battle and everything looks the same everything looks uh pretty meh you know what I mean if you've seen uh the show and you're looking at these images that I'm presenting then then you know what I'm talking about it just doesn't look up to part when you compare it to the other series that Studio Perot has done before especially Bleach where they do separate the key moments and and when and when you see that high quality animation you know like an epic moment it is about to uh arrive and it does arrive but I think it's like a little bit too late and some of the impact is lost and it makes the experience a little bit underwhelming overall the story of Black Clover is fun it's actually quite charming but really underwhelming uh anime relies a lot same with manga on the visuals and if your visuals are weak and kind of meh you're not going to have a very satisfying experience for the audience to revel in and enjoy because unlike a drama unlike a slice of life unlike uh let's say a sci-fi story or whatever shown in jump series that are action heavy like your dragon balls your uh hunter x hunter uh Naruto one piece all that stuff they rely a lot on the fighting it's a very important aspect to this title because it is an action adventure story and if it's underwhelming you're not going to really care about the consequences or you might not be paying your full attention to what's happening on screen I think that is the main issue with this series and I'm probably late to this because the series debuted back in what 2015 and I'm only talking about it now so yeah I'm late to the party um but yeah the plot is sort of this amalgam of things we've seen before but you know there's always that fresh twist thrown in there that makes it really interesting and at the end of the day I like Black Clover because of Asta's journey it's somewhat relatable if you take apart you know if you take out the magic stuff it's relatable you want a route for this guy um and of course the character progression you have a wonderful varied cast of characters each bringing their own personality and quirk to the story by the way Charmy bless her my favorite character in that whole series I absolutely love her so yeah underwhelming animation aside the package as a whole isn't as bad as some people might want you to believe give it a shot and if you can get past the first couple I'm going to say the middle portion of season one where things bogged down a little bit but then it picks up with the whole water temple stuff which I absolutely loved even though it had its issues here and there you're going to be rewarded with a quirky little anime series that is heavily heavily underrated compared to other series out there and other anime and manga as for um I don't know if I mentioned it at the beginning um I don't have a lot of space for long-running series or long running manga I might have to make an exception because at the end of the day while I do enjoy the anime I gotta say the manga is the proper route to take in this form I'd looked at a couple volumes the other day physically and it was like watching something completely different I hadn't paid attention to the manga drawings I just started watching the anime and I do agree it is the superior format of course it's the original format but sometimes you know animation can do uh can do a series justice and elevate it to another status in this case it kind of downgrades it a little bit so my recommendation if you don't want to read the manga and you're interested in the story it's fun there is a good shonen jump series in there but uh yeah do do do get the manga so overall the first season I don't really rate things on this channel I'm just gonna say it was perfectly fine it could be uh the presentation I mean it could be a lot better but season two picks up and it looks interesting and it's uh from what I've seen the animation gets better and the story picks up in a better and more uh accelerating fascinating sort of way so yeah uh those are some of my thoughts I know I rambled a little bit too much on this video but those are some of my thoughts on the first anime season of black clover hopefully you guys enjoyed this video tell me down below have you seen black clover or have you read the story let me know your thoughts on the series and if you haven't what are some other anime or shonen series that you want me to uh discuss or review on this channel let me know down below I'm very interested in finding out guys as always you can follow me on your favorite social media platform from facebook twitter instagram all that fun stuff thank you for liking commenting subscribing just being an awesome part of the community I love doing this and it's all because of you guys thank you so very much blessings to all I have got to go I will catch all of you on our next episode


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Hello, I am trying to get better at doing book reviews, so you have another one today. I have, as you know, a lot of books in colour order and I'm going to try and highlight the ones that I really like for you because people ask me all the time for recommendations and so yeah, I'm going to do lots of these and they don't, you know, watch them if you want to, not if you don't, but this one, watch. This one's a bit different because this is a review of the book Dear Warriors by Susan Susan, I don't know how to say your name. We talk on Twitter like all the time, I don't know how to say your name, Baumgartner Baumgartner, I feel like I'm going to make it sound rude. So Susan kindly sent me a review copy of her book and it is different than other books that I would often review I guess because so much of what I do has a really direct kind of mental health or emotional well-being or otherwise slightly more tenuous PSHE, personal social health and economic education link and this one is about type 1 diabetes. However, however, if you or anyone you know is affected by type 1 diabetes or T1D then you will know that kind of emotional health and well-being is very, very kind of tied in with this diagnosis. So I'm not personally affected but I have known many people who are and I've also come across in my professional work when researching and such often how young people who have diabetes are more vulnerable to many of the issues that I have an interest in. So in particular, self-harm and eating disorders and they can take particular kind of variations for people with diabetes. I'm not going to go into that all today, that's another day but essentially people who have diabetes, particularly as they go through adolescence, they can be at a time when they find it hard to identify with their peers at a time when we maybe want to be like everyone else and that can make it really difficult and they can struggle with our identity, the illness makes them feel different and yeah, it's not good. So it can cause issues. So yeah, I'm interested in diabetes and this journal, so it's a memoir and guided journal by Susan, this kind of offers some, what's the word I'm looking for? Respite, company, solidarity, I don't know, there's lots of different words you could use but it's nice, it's nice for someone who is suffering with diabetes. Now it's not aimed as far as I'm aware at any particular age group, it's really for anyone who has a diagnosis of type 1 diabetes and it is designed as a companion for you and your illness. Now Susan, it's titled a memoir and guided journal because Susan's given a lot of herself in this journal, so Susan has T1D and she talks about her own experiences of it but she also has, I think, let me check about, yeah, 12 guest artists who also have their lives touched by this illness and she looks at what life is like for them as well as her. Now the journal is partly about you learning about other people's experiences and it's partly about you sharing your own. So there is like a lot of text and some images as well but there's also lots of space for you to put your own. So I'm looking now at page 74, I'll try and get the JPEGs and put them here. So on page 74 we've got Mike Natter who is 33 and was diagnosed at 9 and he has done a self-portrait in diabetic test strips which gives you an example of some of the kinds of interesting things that are in here but then alongside that we have some writing by Mike about his experience of his illness and his experience with his doctors as well and then Susan, Susan reflects on what Mike Natter has to say, Doctor Natter I should say and she says of him, I can picture all the artists in this book using their hands to create their works, sketching, colouring, erasing, painting, orchestrating, Doctor Natter did so in a way that reminds us of all those hands burdens, our burdens and this book is I think one of the nicest things about it is that I think it would make you feel less alone in your illness if this was something you were either it was new to you, the diagnosis or it was something that you were struggling with at the moment because of issues around sort of your identity or changing or those sorts of things and I think you would feel less alone and you would feel perhaps some pride in the community of which you are part because you'd see all these other people who are like you but actually so diverse so you share this one thing that you battle together but that actually you come from so many different walks of life and this can affect anyone and that this isn't something to be ashamed of but actually the way in which you manage it every day is something that can mark you out mark you out yeah in a good way and that you're the way that you cope and manage with this is something to be proud of and rather than being ashamed of having this I guess affliction I don't even know what the right word is but you know there are always more than one way to look at things and I guess Susan encourages us to look at type 1 diabetes with as positive a lens as possible at the same time the other nice thing about this journal is it does allow us to work through like the whole gamut of emotions and all feelings are valid here so there are you know lots of positives but at the same time we explore some of the more difficult feelings too and as I said there's loads and loads of opportunities for people to share their own drawings and journal entries and stuff as well so you sort of make it your own as you go through so you see an example here on pages 84 to 85 so you get asked to list three tools that help you reach and maintain your healthy weight and who are the warriors you can rely on to help you with that and then you've got space for your art and this is a theme throughout so you get prompted with questions which help you to think about what's the support you can draw on what you're trying to do here and what will help you to do that and what are your hopes and then space to kind of both draw and write that which is I think really cool so it's a real labor of love I think and I know when Susan was putting this together it was not a quick process I was sort of aware of this project as it was ongoing and I was really interested in the project and Susan did share some of the journey as she was doing it and it was something in which she took great pride and that really shows you know it's I think it's a really beautiful book and it's one I would recommend if you or someone you know has diabetes I think it's interesting it's thought provoking it's actually positive and it's good in terms of actually helping you to think about the positive steps you can take as well it's quite good in terms of actually building some skills and ideas to and building a network and that kind of thing you could if you were working with a young person or supporting young person as a parent or a teacher or a counselor or something you could work through some of the ideas in here together and that could be quite a positive and affirming exercise and quite practical too so yeah I would recommend it I'll put links below so I always like to share my three favorite things and I think my very favorite thing actually is the author Susan who has been so generous and giving of herself in this book you can feel her throughout the book she feels like this guiding hand and if you felt completely alone otherwise in your illness I think you would feel once you started engaging with this journal particularly if you really you know really did engage with it you you took time to to write or draw in here I think you would feel that Susan was with you and actually I know her well enough not well enough to know how to say her surname but well enough online and many of my most meaningful relationships are entirely online but I know her well enough to know that actually if someone did reach out to her online and I'll put her Twitter handle in the link below as well yeah if someone reading this did reach out that she would literally be standing side by side with them too she's really kind really giving and so my favorite thing yeah is that is the author and how giving of herself she is my second favorite thing yeah so it kind of feels like it's it's for everyone and there's a whole range of different stuff in here and different tastes as well so that's really nice it's really broad what she's managed to bring together in a relatively small book bearing in mind there's lots of space for journaling in here yeah the breadth of what's included is impressive and then finally I really like the fact that it is this interesting approach of part memoir and part journal so it is like you're reading and learning and feeling like you're understanding other people's journeys but at the same time you are adding to your own story and your own journey and you're making this book your own each time you open it and writing it or drawing it and I like that and I I love books that invite you to make them your own and this is so much more than just a journal and yeah I love that that that mixture of memoir and journal because it also makes it easier I think to do the journaling aspects because you've been sort of led by all these other voices which are included in the story here too they've kind of guided you a little bit and and yeah kind of yeah the tail lights in front of you that you can follow so yeah I would recommend it I think if you if you have diabetes or you know someone who does I think this is a book they would have really appreciate yeah so I would recommend it and thank you so much to Susan for sending me a copy and also really a huge thank you for putting so much of yourself into this book I think it will make a huge difference to all you T1D warriors out there okay