g commission. Well, we do more outreach than at that point. I understand. But from now until that point, there's no there's no business happening. And that's and that's not just one board that's that's multiple boards that there's that there's I'm not saying for the quorum, but I'm just saying for a full board.  I just didn't have the time to get a hold of Greg over the weekend. I was camping. But I would really look into how many vacant seats there's going to be by limiting that because there's quite a few of the consensus is that we not limit. Right. And so I'm just responding to it's it's my absolute preference that committee and commission members be residents. I just don't think that there is always one right answer and that we should have some, you know, some gray, not just black and white to be able to do the right thing in the moment. Yeah, I agree with that. And if it's preferable for Essex residents, and we get up, you know, more applications to have vacancies that we're still going to be advertising for for this year, if we get a swarm of Essex residents, then next year when it comes about and we have another swarm of Essex residents, we can fill all the boards with Essex residents. So be it. Let's do it. I just think it's a disservice to the town right now to not have as many people in those committees and commissions as we can. Okay, so in order for us to continue as we currently are, we don't need to take any action. Correct. I'm really happy to work with Tammy and get something on our applications form that residency is preferred. But beyond that, yeah, no actions needed. Yeah, okay, with adding residency. So I would just ask the question that unlike most towns, if we are not requiring residency for our boards, does that mean we have to advertise outside of the town? Just a question. I don't think so. There's any obligation there at all. I think it's, I think for some of our boards, it's unlikely that people from other municipalities would apply. If it was a paid position, Kendall, a full-time paid position, they would have to advertise outside the town because it's not a full-time or a paid position. It's a volunteer position. Well, I just wonder because our volunteer position is a paid position. We do offer a stipend. We compensate our members where a lot of communities don't. So I mean, I'm just asking the, it sets a, there's a gray area that hasn't been discussed before. And sometimes that's probably why a lot of places specify residency is because then you, that answers all those questions. So I'm just curious about that. All right, so we're moving on. All right. Next one is discussion on potential action on plan to improve communication between volunteer boards, commissions, and committees. Greg. This is something that we started discussing at the last meeting and wanted to come back and propose some hopefully tangible steps to improve those communication based on a conversation, based on some giving it some thought after the last meeting. The memo lays out some options. Coming up this week, we're going to be doing a breakfast with the chairs and the vice chairs of all the boards and committees way to start communicating that way, give and take feedback from the boards, have the different members going to just brainstorm and chat and hear what the others are doing. We talked about minutes, whether or not to include those in the packets. Certainly the simplest, quickest way is to just visit the website.  We could put a link into the packets each week. If we were to include them, the minutes in the packets, it probably doesn't take that much time for staff to do uploads, but it is just one more thing for people to think about and remember. It does make the packets bigger. It's something we can do. It's not the end of the world, but it may not be the simplest option. We talked about inviting board members of the boards and committees to come to select board meetings. Talk to staff a little bit. We were thinking if we do that, probably the, I think somebody mentioned it at the last meeting, to August, September, October timeframe might make sense. Chance to talk about what work plans are for the coming year and what budget needs might be requested for the year after that. We could keep that open-ended. It could be invite the whole committee, invite the chair, the vice chair to come in and give updates. That'll take time, so they could be helpful to have some questions like you do with the interviews about what you're looking for, prompt people ahead of time, so they can come in a little bit more prepared. Another idea is to have each of you volunteer and serve as a liaison to the boards and committees. I don't think you would need to necessarily go to every single meeting by any means, but you could be a point of contact for those board and committees and you know attend once or one or two a year. We can keep doing the town meeting showcase that we did, that we do a town meeting. There's always an opportunity to expand that and do a little bit more with that as well, but so those are some of the options. I'm sure there's more that are out there, but those are the ones that we could be thought of in the past few weeks and wanted to present to you tonight. Okay, so I wasn't at the last discussion you had about this. I haven't heard my thoughts, but... Well, why don't you share them then? So this comes up so often with the select board. This isn't the first time that the question has been raised about trying to get better communication. My experience in past go rounds with this is that the consensus at the end of the discussion was that select board members that are interested in what committees are doing can go find their minutes on the website rather than adding them to the packet. So that's been what has happened in the past. The other thing that comes to light, trying to address some of the comments that Greg made is not all committee members or chairs are comfortable coming and speaking to the select board. It's something we can ask them to do, but it may disincent people from being chair. It's something to think about. Again, believe it or not, that discussion has been had before by the select board. I think of the other thoughts. Each committee does have a staff member assigned. So there certainly is a path for committees to communicate to the select board. They can certainly ask their staff representative to go ask for any help that's needed. As any member of any committee can do is call any select board member also and share their thoughts. I guess I'm disinclined to add more content to our meeting packet. Some of them get pretty long to begin with. All of the information is available already on the website. Each of us can go find whichever committees we're interested in finding as can the public. It's more workload on staff to assemble the packet. If it doesn't happen, then you end up having to address why it doesn't happen. It can be problematic there. Again, I think I have a number of times invited specific committee chairs to come to at least share their needs for upcoming budget season. It's inconsistent whether we get a response. I don't know. I'm not saying. That's maybe a harsh thing to say in public that some of our chairs don't ask for what they need when they need it. I shouldn't have said that. Too late. Yeah, it's been said. I don't know. I think the breakfast that we're going to have Thursday mornings is a good idea. We'll see how it goes. Hopefully we can have some approval discussion there. I really like the idea of having the community fair as part of informational meeting. Maybe there's a way to have that happen more than once a year. Trying to get more volunteers that way also. Go ahead. Before I forget because I forget things, but I've had said that about the minutes on the packet because I don't need to dig any further for things that aren't, you know, packets are long enough. So if we add in the committees of the commissions of five others, I really like something off of that idea. And like you had mentioned, and Greg's proposal here is the select board lesions or lesions. I like that idea. I think if we split it up and said, you know, I'll take these two, you take those two, and then I wouldn't say like, I wouldn't say like have a have a dead set requirement of you have to go to one meeting a month or whatever. But I could see myself, I've done it. I could see myself attending two to, you know, three meetings every three months or whatever, you know, I've attended two different commissions this year, or committees. Oh, I should say. I like that idea. Because that way I don't have to know what's going on every single one of them.  I like that idea. I just don't know how to execute it. You just reminded me the other point that I neglected to make is that this has come up before and it's been discussed and the response that we've gotten from some of the committees is they don't want the select board to exert undue influence on what they're doing. That's the why we appointed a committee. If we want to appoint a committee, we should let them do the work, we should respect their work. If you if the select board wants to do the work, the select board should do the work and that and that metal, you know, that's the right word with with our committees. And we've gotten that response from some committees in the past. Well, if we just go there to listen with a piece of paper, you can, you can absolutely, we're all absolutely, I know we are, I know we are, but I just think you can just do it in an official capacity. It makes it something different. Right. I was going to suggest that we include the link in the packet each time. And if there was an easy way to maybe specify the committees that had meetings that particular two week period or whatever it was between, so you could narrow it down. And then in the reading file on the agenda, just leave a space that says comments on minutes or something so that if any board members had any questions or comments on what they read in the minutes, they could bring that up in a meeting. Just a suggestion. What was that last one, Kendall? The in the agenda that you have in the reading file, a place that comment on committee minutes, something like that, just so that each meeting, if any board members had any questions or were curious about something, they could discuss it during the meeting. They might not have anybody that can respond to that question in the meeting. That's where I'm going. But if it was worthy of consideration or question at that point, Greg could follow up on it or could be discussed later or like that. I'm mostly just curious to kind of keep up on what's going on versus questioning what they're doing. In the past, it's come down that it's up to, it's incumbent each select board member to follow their own interests in that regard and not to add content to the select board meeting. But that's, I'm just saying that's what the past is down, isn't it? Well, in the beginning, Andy, in how I've seen it, I mean, I've brought this up previously, but how I've seen it done is just, you know, it's for consistency and awareness of information because many community members may tie into this meeting, but not others. They may not check agendas regularly, but more than likely, if they are interested, they will be interested in this meeting. So how this has happened in other communities is, you know, I have an interest in planning. So if I were to attend a planning commission meeting or conservation and trails at the next meeting, if there was some event, if there was something going on, if there was a survey, whatever, at that next meeting, I could speak up during board member comments and say, oh, hey, just for awareness, like, there's the survey. Or at the next meeting, they're, you know, they're looking for community feedback just to bring more awareness in amplification of what's going on in other areas. So that's where this comes from.  It's just for that consistency of information and to make sure that the community is aware of what's going on in other areas because it's difficult to, you know, keep tabs on what every committee is doing. Right. And the community reaches out to us if they don't know, and if we haven't been informed, it's really hard to answer their questions. You maybe think of something and then I'll comment on you. Don, too, Big Kendall, your thought about having an agenda item for board committee member or for board members to comment on the minutes is that you, because Tracy mentioned the board member comments, you can comment on anything. I don't know if that's sufficient or if it's going to be... Yeah. I mean, it didn't have to be formal as long as you knew under the reading minutes that if there were any comments that somebody said, an example would be I listened in on the RPD pizza thing, and it was great. And they mentioned a number of times they wish a lot more people were involved in that. So say this was the reading file. They say, hey, they're having an RPD pizza day and there's probably more coming up. Check it out. It's great. That type of a thing. And then Donna, as for what you just said, none of us are going to know everything that's going on at any moment. So I think, and I do it all the time, I do it for you, I do it for staff and residents. If someone says, hey, what's going on with such and such, and I don't know, I don't know. Let me look into it and get back to you. That is a perfectly acceptable answer in my mind. I see hands up in the public. Should we go to public comment? Sure.  Good evening. Betsy Dunn. So I'm the clerk of the Conservation and Trails Committee, and I could certainly send you the minutes at any time. I have them done by the third, we meet on the second Tuesday, and I always have them out and to our staff member by that Thursday. So they're there two days after the meeting and they could go up online immediately, but we have to have them approved. That's the issue. We don't put them online until approval. But we could do is that you have a public to be heard time and you could ask these four committees to come and just give a public to be heard. The committee could say, I'll go ahead and I'll go that day. And they just let you know in a very brief synopsis what we're up to. And it's done. But it keeps you informed about what's happening in your town that you're governing because we're making decisions about what we want to do within the town. And we're also creating a vision just like the Planning Commission is envisioning. We're envisioning what we see of the trails and the parks and with the conservation that we have to do, water management, the quality. So I think you'd be wanting to know about those things. And I'm sure that every committee that there is has got important issues of their own. I don't know what they all are, but I can tell you they have them. So I would think you would want to hear and a public to be heard that could be like two short sentences. And just so you know what's about them and you could say, well, what is that about? We didn't know. I heard one suggestion and I just tested it out. I just go online and check for the most recent agendas and minutes. So I tried that for conservation and trails committee, went to the conservation and trails page, nice link, most recent agendas and minutes. Click on that. It doesn't go to the most recent agenda in minutes goes to all the future meetings for all the entities that they change the dates, the range you want to see, and then specify the committee that you want to see. Then you can see those meetings in the past and the link to the minutes. I don't think that's a good option. The idea of having a link to each of the minutes, that's a good idea. But I've experienced what the city is doing, because I have to read their packets, and they are including the minutes, the DRB minutes are in their planning commission is in there, and it becomes like a newspaper. When you get a newspaper, you don't read every article. You just read the articles you're interested in the headline, conservation and trail. I'm interested in that. I read that. So minimum a link, I think is a great idea. Actual minutes, if the committee sends them in, it should be a lot of extra work. I think that that's actually the optimal way to go. Oh, I should say conservation and trails committee passed a motion at its last meeting to send in the minutes. I don't know if they ever got sent in or not, but we did. Thank you. Lorraine. Thank you. For me, just our lives are really busy. I'm looking for like kind of a one-stop repository. They can kind of click on and get it for even in a minute. I don't care how it's done. I just want to make it easy on me, because I'm selfish that way. But I'm thinking even like, I love, I think Tammy Geschel does them, the civic alert, and even to be able to sign up for notification for when the minutes go out or something. So, and to me, part of this is about cross-pollination, making in better communication so that we're better informed. And a lot of the committee's work are actually overlapped in a lot of ways. They think we need to make sure that that overlap happens on a regular basis as well, because it's more efficient. So, I don't know how that's to do that, but I do want to do something that makes it easier. All right. Thanks, Lorraine. I think we, I wasn't sure if you got cut off or you stopped. It's like she stopped. Okay. All right. I'm sorry. I said thanks, Andy. I'm sorry. That's how you heard me. All right. All right. All right. So, what do we want to do? Ethan. I have a comment, I should say, but since we're doing a website redesigned, maybe instead of agendas and minutes, it's agendas and then minutes. That way, when you click on minutes, you only get minutes. When you click on agendas, you only get agendas. And then that way, they'll still pop up in newest form.  You have to, like Ken said, you have to do some funky business to find the minutes, but I don't know if that's a big sense. I don't know if it's, because part of the way it's set up right now is just that's the functionality of the website and that's Civic Clerk and that's how they set it up. I can certainly talk to Tammy and IT and relay that message if it's something that they can do. If you'll indulge me for a moment, can I go to the website and try to work some of this stuff through? I screen, go to the town of Essex website, your government, agendas and minutes, and it has all of the, right now we have the select board meeting. That's tonight. You scroll up, there was a conservation and trails committee, there was an economic development commission, planning commission, housing commission, if you scroll down you can see the meetings that are coming up, select board, housing commission, housing commission, you can filter it. So Ken said he went to conservation and trails committee. That might be a functionality of the website, the link that we have in the packet is the one that I just went to and that's where it just has all of them. From there you can click on, you can go to the event categories and click on the conservation and trails committee. Then you have to search the keyword minutes. No, and I can check with Tammy and IT and see if that's something that going to each committee's page, the minutes that automatically populate it, that's something I can check on. If you go to cemetery, now I'm back in 2021, I'll try February 8th meeting. You click on that and there's the agenda, there's the minutes. Could you go to March 28th conservation trails? Which year? What's this year? See I just clicked on it and back with conservation and trails it says, okay didn't work first time, great. Yep, the minutes. And I admit our website is not perfect, it's not the most. I don't think it's our website, I think it's a bit clearer. I guess one thing that I did was as soon as I got there I put in sort of thinking I was preparing for this meeting. I went and chose my starting date is June 5th because that was our last meeting and an ending date of today and it automatically brought up all of the meetings that have happened and click into it, click the minutes right there and it actually, I didn't know that that functionality was there because I'm used to the old website wonkiness. So we need a community website training? Yes. I always see it with free pizza. Yes, probably some donuts and coffee and a big room. We could do it remotely though. Yeah. Pizza delivered to everybody? Maybe, what's the budget? Yeah, if they did it remotely then we'd have to teach them how to split their screen first because they'd be trying to watch you share your screen and do it at the same time. So what do we, what action do we, is there action we want to do? I would just say that if it's fairly easy for them just include the link and see what happens going from there. So the which link is it the link that goes to the site that has all of the things down there? Yeah, right, don't need to pour it in here. Just include that in our packet so that we could click on it. Right and there's no expectation that the select board will read every word of what's out there. No, but the public might. Yes. Because I gotta go do some reading now and find out why it's RPD now. It's sort of PDI, you know RPD pizza party. I didn't hear about that. You didn't? No, I missed out. Oh, you're camping that well, can we first? All right, so so the the consensus that we want to include the link to the website that includes all meetings, minutes or agendas, minutes in each meeting packet so that folks who look at the meeting packet can find that link and go to that site and read what they want. We also will have access to that. So if somebody asks us a question, you can go find the minutes for the specific meeting that is of concern. I just have a question follow up with that whole thing. So like, we're using Civic Clerk, right? I don't know if I don't forgive me if I if I'm misremembering right now, but was the Google question ever resolved? I don't know what the Google question like one of the time I googled something. Oh, if it's related. Oh, the question of whether something related to the meeting perfectly fine. Okay, because that was going to be my question is I know it's not really Google, but it's basically Google the Civic Clerk thing. So I can't are we allowed to like somebody asked us a question of, hey, can you look back to this, you know, March 28th meeting, you know, I just want to make sure that was okay that we go in there and we, you know, click on it. During the meeting, you can look you can search anything you can use your your your electronic device for anything that is supports the purpose of the meeting. Sure. Yes, I went to the policy and okay, I just corrected myself. I couldn't remember if you had told me after I'm I'm I'm unfortunately remembering my dinosaur days when we didn't have these in front of us. Oh, yeah. And and and having this even on the table was ground upon. Yeah, so apologies there. No, it's okay. I just yeah. Yes, you may you may use your computer for purposes of the meeting. Why are you in the meeting? So do we need to take action on that? To do that? I don't think so. I think just direct. What I'm hearing is we're going to have the breakfast on Thursday. We can always report back after we have it. Yes. What is this breakfast on Thursday? It's the third time I've heard you say it. What is it? We're so after the last meeting, Tammy, Marguerite and I put our brains together. Maybe we mentioned that at the meeting to the idea of having a breakfast with the chairs of all the boards. That's kind of a thank you for what you've done and also just a chance to get in the room and talk and offer, you know, what what support can the select board give? We had some money in the budget. It's the end of the fiscal year. We figured we could try to make it happen use it or lose it by the end of June. I'm sorry, why use it or lose it? I get that, but I just heard you mentioned I hadn't seen anything about it. I didn't know what it was. Thanks. So we'll do that. I'm hearing that you're okay with putting the link in not all the minutes. I'm not sure if you want to proceed with any of the other ideas or just mull them over for the time being or if we should start planning to invite or set up liaisons or anything like that. Anybody want to advocate for anything? I still think that these committees need to do a presentation to this select board. Minutes are fine, but especially for future planning, we need to know where they're going and what they need. And that doesn't always is not always reflected in the minutes. It doesn't have to be the chairman if they don't want to sit down. It could be anybody that's willing to sit down by the mic. I'm just saying minutes are fine, but we need to know what's happening and what the future, especially now, or uncharted territory is a new town. So that's just my opinion. Whatever you want to do is fine. So my thought on that is that we know which staff members represent each of the committees and as they go through their budget preparation, they should be considering what the committees that they support need. In general, we don't do specific individual budgeting for each committee except to the staff that supports them. Anybody want to advocate for any of the additional items that have been suggested? No, I want to thank you for how you broke it down, whoever broke it down because it was Ethan from I love the little comment sections on the side. All right, so we still have a couple of business items that Sorry about that. One of them was the intent to go through the first two subsections of the charter, the updates that were proposed by our charter committee. And then we also have a discussion about appointments after that. Should we proceed? So I took the proposed charter amendments and I laid them out the first two chapters. And unfortunately, the blue looks very much like the black in the document. Next time I will use green instead of blue. Hopefully it looks a little more contrast to it. So it's hard to tell where the changes are here. Which ones are red? What are you looking at? One's red. No, that's blue. Yeah, there's stuff in there that's blue too. That's the problem. That holds together with all the implied powers. Oh, so that looks black to me. I had to zoom in on it, but once I zoomed in. Yeah. So there may be a significant disadvantage here that somebody has to read aloud all of the changes if we use this document. Do we want to defer? Mr. Chairman, at this time, given that we still have a lot of business left, could we maybe move this to a different night? That's a little bit what I'm thinking, especially given the format of this that is really difficult. Honest. When I put this together, my computer gives me a black background with colored on the foreground. So it looked very different than when I saw it in the back. I'm like, oh gee, I printed it out. So even in this harsh lighting, I can't. It's hard to pick out and I don't want to read the entire content. Like I said, I had to zoom in on it. I was drawing a blank there when I came back. Extremely difficult to read. Well, I thought it was 100 times better having it this format. Because I read it and I could I had to like I zoomed in. I saw the blue because I was looking for a new language. The fact that Don said, no, there's no blue in the document anywhere. I can't. I mean, other than what he just showed me, it still looks. This is problematic. So let's defer this to another time. That's perfect. I can work with you on that. Make sure we have a good color contrast or a way that this works better. Everybody okay with that? Yep. All right. So then we will move on to I apologize anybody in the public who might have wanted to comment on it. Does anybody want to comment? No, let's move on. We'll bring it up again. So the next item is to consider appointments to boards and committees. We'll do that in executive session. So consent consent. Make the motion to approve the consent agenda. Thank you, Ethan. Do I have a second? Second. Thank you, Tracy. Any comments? This is on the consent agenda. Yeah, I had a couple comments. Line 200 of the minutes did note that I said that the town should not be paying for the road to fee transits. Not that fee trans shouldn't be paying for the road. It was in the minutes, the correction. Okay. And that was it. Greg answered my questions on the warrants. Thank you. Although I will note take five minutes that if the water and sewer department's newest truck is 2014 and we're doing $9,000 of repair on it might be worth getting a new truck because it's already almost 10 years old and that's the newest truck. It's one of those capital items to be aware of. That's it. Thank you. Did you send that one correction to the minutes to? Yes. Greg, you've got that. I've made a note and I'll touch base to make sure I get it, right? Okay. Okay. All right. So we have a motion to approve consent with one change in the minutes. Do I need a new motion to do that or just any? I think you're fine. All right. All those in favor of approving consent say aye. Aye. Opposed say nay. They can send his approved reading file. Any board member comments? I would like to thank the committee that put together Juneteenth, especially a young man named Jamal and I apologize because I did not catch Jamal's last name. Hanky. I believe. He did an awesome job putting it together. I mean, and given the fact it was Father's Day and it was not a very warm day. They had an awesome turnout. The music was wonderful. And again, I'm sorry that the rest of the board didn't show up, but I do appreciate all the work that went into it and also thanking Tatanisha because she did desserts for it too. So really good. You're done. Do you have comments? I have a comment. And like I said, I apologize.  I don't have a chance today, but I'm really confused about the V-trans sweater because they're willing to move the speed zone to make it a 40 mile speed zone. But in the same sentence, they say that a pedestrian only crossing for the speed limit is 40 miles per hour or less is the only place they put in the lighting. And they're getting away by calling it a bike head crossing. But my understanding is in the state of Vermont, you cannot ride a bicycle across a road crossing. You have to stop at the road crossing, get off the bicycle, walk the bicycle across the road crossing, unless you are continually in a motion that follows the road path. So I didn't know. And I'm sorry, I said I went camping this week and I didn't have a chance, but I'm just a little concerned that they're trying to maybe square up that one. I'm going to choose my words carefully. Okay. Yes. We got a response from V-trans that is willing to make some improvements at that crossing. And having talked to our public works director and our planner, who are both experienced with transportation and V-trans and those types of things, we all agreed that we're getting something. It's not everything we asked for, but it's a good step in the right direction. Are we thrilled? No. Are we happy that there was acknowledgement that the problem could be improved? Yes. Just had a quick curiosity and then I'm pulling that I can email you about this here, but would that help reclassify that by having that 40 miles per hour zone as the benefit of the change? It's already 40 miles an hour. Well, only one side of its 40 miles per hour. The other side of its 50 miles an hour. Yes. The crossing is here. It's 50 going this way and 40 going the other way and it's not until you get to here or here that it changes to the other. That's about, yes. But I'll follow up in an email. I just had to make a comment about it because I was reading it last night. I was like, what? So thank you. You should all the work that went into that also. All right. And on the charter changes that are in there, that was those of our consideration at the, they were going to be for consideration the next meeting. We'll defer those and also make sure that we have good high contrast. Thank you. Content so that we can tell what's, what are, what the actual, what's the changes. Thought I did it all right. All right. So let's then go, anybody, any other comments? On the reading file? Reading file, yeah. And a welcome award to our new town clerk and then July 1st. Good choice. I think so. All right. We have motions to go into executive session. I moved it to select board enter into executive session to discuss the proposed public official appointment in accordance with one VSA section 313A3 and to include the town manager and deputy manager. If you do the, maybe it wasn't in the packet, but the full appointment, employment or evaluation of a public officer or employee. I don't see it here. If you're willing to accept the amendment. I'm willing to accept the amendment, sir. All right. Thanks. For the second. Second. Thank you. Ethan, any further discussion? Those in favor, please say aye. Aye. Aye. Opposed? Okay. Motion passes 5-0. So there's only one motion there. And so assuming we're making an appointment tonight, we will come back to the meeting. Scott, you don't have to stay. Mr. Chairman, if we could maybe just take a 10 minute break, let him take stuff down and we could stay right here because everything's spread all over. Instead of going upstairs for executive session, let him pull his equipment and go. And then we'll come over here. It won't take me 10 minutes to get out of here. Right. That's what I'm saying. If we take a 10 minute break and then we can do executive session right here. All right.  Oh, okay. Yeah. It's spread all over. There's a lot of this. There's a lot of everyone in my room. Yeah, sir. Okay. All right. All right. So. Make the motion. We take a 10 minute break before going into executive session. Okay. Okay. Thank you, Don. Thank you, Ethan. All those in favor of a 10 minute adjournment, please say aye. Aye. Aye. Opposed? Okay. So, I didn't say.


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Other names for borderline and narcissistic personality disorder now before you think that I really I've really gone start raving mad This idea has a very long provenance and pedigree Among those who supported this idea was Zygmunt Freud another one Otto Kernberg prominent psychologists The fathers of the profession in the field they were convinced that borderline and narcissistic personality disorders are attenuated mild forms of psychosis hence the name borderline Personality disorder on the border between neurosis and psychosis But I'm going to go when where no one has ventured before When no one dared to go before me I'm going to investigate the various features of narcissism Borderline and compare them to current day bleeding edge knowledge about psychotic disorders Before we proceed we need to disambiguate a few terms There's a pop-up here, and I can't get rid of it for some reason we need to disambiguate a few a few terms and and words and so on so forth so first of all we need to make a distinction between psychosis and Schizophrenia and Then we will disambiguate other terms. Let's start with psychosis and schizophrenia schizophrenia is a psychotic disorder But there are many many others now we use the word psychotic as a Disparaging derogatory stigmatizing word But actually all it means is losing touch with reality psychosis can and very often is brief and Temporary there is even something called brief psychotic disorder Psychosis is very common in the form of micro episodes A psychosis that lasts a few hours to a few days So it's very common in a variety of other mental health disorders. For example bipolar disorder major depressive disorder Disorder all kinds of dementias and Yes, you're right borderline personality disorder. Now don't confuse psychosis with psychopathy, please Schizophrenia is the most extreme known psychotic disorder.  For example a limited emotional expression Clinically known as reduced effect display We divide all the symptoms of psychotic disorders into positive and negative. Don't ask me why? positive symptoms are Include hallucinations delusions disorganized speech and so on so forth and negative symptoms is the inability to experience pleasure anhedonia and lack of emotional expression reduced effect display and so on and so forth I I remind you Psychosis is more common than you know Three in a hundred people three percent of a population have experienced psychosis at one time or another In their lives it is when your mind can't tell the difference between reality and Imagination between fact and fiction I wanted to say reality and fantasy, but that's wrong Fantasy is a defense mechanism Shortly I will I will discuss the difference between fantasy and Psychosis so remember delusions hallucinations disorganized speech and thinking disorganized motor behavior diminished emotional expression anhedonia inability to experience pleasure A volition a lack of motivation inability to get started on tasks lack of will losing will A loger this means that you're quiet and unresponsive And in extreme cases, this is known as catatonia and then a Sociality its limited interest in social interactions very reminiscent of the schizoid condition indeed Certain personality disorders are considered essentially psychotic they were separated from other psychotic disorders and relegated to the personality disorders sections Section in the diagnostic and statistical manual, but if you were to look at the ICD the international classification of diseases They are still listed under psychotic and the schizophrenia. So we have for example schizotypal personality disorder schizoid personality disorder and Paranoid personality disorder. They're all considered kind of psychotic or on the verge of psychosis or About to become psychotic precursors of psychosis now If you want a list of psychotic disorders the schizophrenia, we no longer use the term paranoid Schizophrenia or schizophrenia paranoia and the reason we don't use this term this phrase anymore any longer is because Not all people with schizophrenia are paranoid paranoia does characterize a substantial part of Schizophrenics, but not all of them. So it's very misleading to call all schizophrinics paranoid schizophrinics Then we have schizo schizophriniform disorder. We have schizo effective disorder Illusional disorder brief psychotic disorder, which I mentioned earlier and of course psychotic disorders that are induced by substances or medications or reading the wrong books late at night Or listening to some vaknin, of course A recent study in Idaho find out found out that if you listen to more than 3.7 videos of some vaknin per day You are bound to end up either psychotic or very very well educated in psychology Whichever comes first Okay, I mentioned that psychosis can be found in bipolar disorder in major depressive disorder, but it can it is also Very frequently the outcome of post traumatic stress disorder and here we are beginning to see the interface between psychotic disorders and Post traumatic personality disorders such as borderline personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder You know that I've spent the last 10 years and even longer Trying to redefine Narcissistic personality disorder and borderline personality disorder is essentially post traumatic conditions not personality disorders and So psychosis is common in in all of them and also following some medical conditions such as stroke traumatic brain injury tumors dementia mention sleep disorders if you suffer from a Sleep apnea for very long time or if you suffer from insomnia other insomnia disorders and so on but I mean for a very long time You may definitely become psychotic actually a substantial portion of such people do become psychotic Epilepsy and Parkinson's disease are also also constitute part of the list. Okay, so I hope I disambiguate it Um Schizophrenia from psychosis. They are not the same schizophrenia is a private case of psychosis and psychosis is not a mental illness. It's a symptom Okay, what about imagination? What about fantasy? What sets them apart from psychosis? Well When you imagine something you know that you're imagining it normally if you're normal if you're healthy mentally healthy You know You can tell the difference between your imagination and reality Even if you are possessed of medical thinking which I will discuss a bit a bit further Even then you can tell the difference and Even when you have a fantasy defense, you can still to tell the difference the lines become very blurred When we discuss the fantasies of borderlines and narcissists Because narcissists for example are unable to tell the difference between a shared fantasy and Reality That's why narcissists do not gaslight Do not gaslight.  They're trying to inculcate in you the misinformation Information or misbelief that the fantasy is real So they deceive themselves to the point that they become delusional The fantasy defense of fantasy defenses of narcissists and borderlines have gone awry and Have become for all intents and purposes psychotic That's where I fully agree with Otto Kernberg's groundbreaking amazing work fantasy in the case of the narcissist feels very real and And the same goes for the borderline and this is a great definition of psychosis when your perception is is Human perception of reality Overrides reality when you believe that your perception of reality is reality Rather than reality itself and of course your perception is skewed is wrong is biased is imaginary and Ill-informed and yet you believe that the way you perceive reality is the real thing and reality itself is the fake Reality is the fantasy reality is the imagination reality is unreal and that is common to Psychotics people with psychotic disorder, but also Common to narcissists and borderlines in this sense Narcissists don't have imagination. They don't daydream They create alternative virtual realities Paracosms They move into the fantasy. They inhabit it. They reside in it. They possess the fantasy and so in many in the most crucial aspects and respects narcissistic personality disorder is a post-traumatic psychotic reaction and This goes doubly When we apply to borderline personality disorder I want to read to you something is this been this was written in 1990 1990 that's like 33 years ago It's an article. It's in Croatian. I'll translate for you. It was written by Turbovic Turbovic at the time was a Was working in the clinic for psychiatric medicine medicine in the faculty in Zagreb Zagreb Croatia And this is what he wrote depression in schizophrenia is determined by narcissistic injuries by a collapse of Narcissistic satisfactions today. We say narcissistic supply by a collapse of narcissistic satisfactions Through the loss of ego functions completeness competitiveness and competence The depressive mode model is most frequently encountered in florid Schizophrenic psychosis the beginning of hospitalization But depending on the intensity and depth of narcissistic traumas and losses It can develop also in any phase of the therapy Hewittic process and the course of illness in the author's view The depressive model in schizophrenia is not conditioned by the neuro elliptic treatment Its recognition is very important for the therapy with suicidal tendencies and for their prevention in particular This is one of the first if not the first observations that I've come across suggesting Some confluence or conflation or connection between narcissistic injuries And and for example narcissistic modification, which is a thousand times narcissistic injury between this and the emergence of psychosis to the point of schizophrenia What the author is suggesting is that psychotic disorders including schizophrenia our reactions To narcissistic modification and narcissistic injuries now Freud suggested the same Freud suggested that psychotic disorders are forms of narcissistic disturbances By but Freud didn't take the extra leap Of connecting psychosis to narcissistic injury and modification okay I'm going to now touch upon several elements which are common both to psychotic disorders and Personality disorders, especially erratic dramatic Schizotypal schizoid and paranoid personality disorders or cluster B and schizoid schizotypal and paranoid Start with role play In all these disorders The patient plays a role And it's a role embedded in a fantasy The fantasy can be erotic aggressive self-aggrandizing anything Many patients Consider themselves or view themselves as heroes rescuers saviors and protectors This is a form of role play In an extreme fantasy a fantasy defense gun or eye and the fantasy self-directed Whereas a typical fantasy defense refers to the environment it modifies the environment It changes the way we receive information and data From our surroundings and from other people. That's a typical fantasy in psychotic disorders And narcissistic and borderline disorders and paranoid and all the all the personality disorders that I mentioned The fantasy is not outward directed. It's not externalized It's internalized the fantasy is about the self And the role of the self in a totally imaginary environment And the conviction is huge enormous The patient is convinced For example, the patient is convinced that he is a good person That he's a savior or a protector or a helper or a rescuer Or a healer Or someone who is helpful To this or that group So this self conviction Is fantastic It's also delusional. We're going to come to delusions a bit later And when it is self directed We know that we are dealing with psychosis or psychotic elements In the narcissistic disturbance or the borderline disturbance Now when I say self directed you can immediately Those of you who are still awake you can immediately say but hey vaknin You taught us about the shared fantasy and shared fantasy includes other people For example the intimate partner So the shared fantasy is not self directed It incorporates other people you're wrong. No, I'm not wrong Because the narcissist And the borderline they regard other people As extensions of themselves They regard the narcissist regards other people as internal objects Inside his mind Introjects voices similar to the psychotic patient The borderline regards other people as outsourced functions externalized functions so The fantasy of the narcissist and the fantasy of the borderline are self directed And by extension It subsumes it includes other people because everyone in the eyes of the narcissist Is a part of himself And so This is the first connection between psychosis And narcissistic and borderline personality disorders Because in all three conditions there are There is self referential a self referential framework The psychotic regards himself as the world That's why the psychotic Confuses his internal environment And reality will come to it a bit later. So the fantasy is self directed as the fantasy is self directed There is a sense of self efficacy Which is also self directed In other words the psychotic patient the narcissist and the borderline They all perceive themselves As self contained Self sufficient Self efficacious Even the borderline Who needs who depends on her partner for self regulation Regards her partner as a tool a mere instrument She owns the partner he he belongs to her. He is her property So there is this perception of I don't need anyone I can accomplish anything I want if I just put my mind to it literally The fantasies of the psychotic the narcissists and the borderline involve wish fulfillment And Substitutive action The psychotic patient the narcissists and the borderline Imagine That their wishes and dreams are fulfilled that their fantasies are realized and actualized And this wish fulfillment Is done or accomplished via Imagining action not real action, but imaginary action Substitutive action and in totality this whole Compounded mechanism Is the equivalent of self regulation in healthy people? In other words these patients regulate their internal environment By developing a belief or a conviction or a fantasy Or a delusion that the internal environment is actually reality And so when they act on their internal environment They convince themselves that they have acted on reality. I mentioned that all three conditions Of the outcome of childhood trauma post traumatic stress disorder This is the patho patho etiology Of the of all three conditions, but this is much more pronounced in borderline personality disorder And then in narcissistic personality disorder and some psychotics have a background of trauma However Everyone with trauma can develop psychosis and many do Not everyone with psychosis comes from a background of trauma Now what is common to all three conditions? Is hyper reflexivity? A confusion between internal objects and external objects The narcissist perceives external objects as internal ones The psychotic perceives internal objects as external ones The borderline has no internal objects. She doesn't have introject constancy So she constantly internalizes External objects on the fly But it never holds water. It never persists So she is she has this cesifian task of recreating her internal environment all the time Which is a great way to describe identity disturbance Now all three conditions psychotic narcissistic and borderline They have paranoid ideation To to this or that degree hyper vigilance is a form of paranoid ideation But in extreme cases of borderline and narcissism and psychosis We have paranoia And of course we have a form of narcissistic disturbance Known as paranoid personality disorder Where paranoia is the core Now paranoia is a narcissistic defense The paranoid believes that he is the center of of attention The attention is malign It's malevolent But it's he is still the center of attention He is sufficiently important for others to conspire against him So we are beginning again to see a connection between paranoia Narcissism and psychosis This is the thread that connects all of them It is because of the paranoia That there is an innate preference for fantasy Reality is perceived as hostile Threatening Dangerous Risky frightening So rather than engage with reality on its own terms The paranoid the narcissists the borderline the psychotic They withdraw inside they retreat they avoid reality And they create an internal reality which is fully manageable and controllable And this reduces their anxiety Paranoia therefore Contrary Contrary to accept the opinion Paranoia is actually anxiolytic It reduces anxiety Because it generates The false perception of I'm in control I'm in the know I anticipate the next the enemy's next moves And I'm well prepared I'm well prepared for the conspiracy against me Magical thinking Is a form Of fantasy And paranoids often engage in magical thinking But magical thinking is a much bigger phenomenon It could be persecutory So someone with a persecutory form of magical thinking would say that he is haunted and possessed by demons who want to kill him Or destroy him somehow But the magical thinking can be grandiose So someone with a grandiose magical thinking Would consider consider himself a superhero Out to save humanity or to save women from their abusers or god knows what So that's an example of a grandiose grandiose magical thinking And all these Usually believe in some higher power They are tasked by god himself They communicate with god or with history Or with the nation Or with a group with a population that requires their services and help and healing They are they are out there And they are altruistic and they are charitable and they're good hearted and they're good persons and they're good people Because they cater to the needs Of other people But it's all done in a grandiose setting The whole story is grandiose Whatever they are doing it's a mission a cosmic mission almost They are on the side of good versus evil. It's a morality play It's Something that deserves an hbo Treatment or movie Magical thinking also involves the conviction That internal processes for example cognitive processes Are way more important than reality And shape reality So if you're just Concentrate on something long enough Hard enough It's gonna happen It's gonna manifest This is the infantile belief That you can alter reality Via Fantastic wishful thinking This is also very common in psychosis We're getting very close or very near the territory of delusions Now there's a fierce debate in the profession Whether Cognitive distortions are delusions Cognitive biases are not delusions. They are much closer to opinions Obstinate opinions Opinions of people who are not open to new information or to countervailing opinions Opinionated people are not delusional.  They go hand-in-hand with hallucinations And yes, you got it right Borderline personality disorder patients experience hallucinations Far less Far less frequently and far fewer hallucinations than people with psychotic disorders But hallucinations are Part and parcel of people with borderline personality disorder diagnosis Well over one third Of people diagnosed with borderline have experience Are experiencing or will experience hallucinations hallucinations is seeing something that's on there hearing something that is has never been uttered and Generating memories of events that have never happened These are hallucinations So we're beginning to see that borderlines for example Have most of the hallmarks of psychosis Including hallucinations and delusions and fantasies and paranoid ideation And hyperreflexivity and magical thingy epigenemic Same goes for the narcissists with the exception that narcissists are not prone to hallucinations like borderlines but narcissists and borderlines Have a feature a clinical symptomatic feature Which is very very reminiscent of hallucinations and delusions and that is dissociation Dissociation comes in three flavors like ice cream One is amnesia One is derealization And one is depersonalization Amnesia is simply forgetting things derealization Is when you experience reality as unreal When you feel that you are somehow found yourself in a movie or in a theater production That everything that's happening around you is is absolutely not real And so this is derealization Depersonalization is when you feel that everything around you is real except yourself You're not real. You're not inside your body. You're not anyone. You're not a self. You're not you These two forms of dissociation are very common in borderline Borderlines describe it as autopilot or they're very common in borderline And they are pretty common in narcissism So we do have forms of hallucination and delusions And I would I would venture to suggest The derealization and depersonalization Are hallucinations They are combinations of hallucinations and delusions And so in this strict sense Of dissociation Narcissists are also to some extent hallucinatory Now all three psychotics borderlines are narcissists. They're labile They're dysregulated Unpredictable They are erratic That's why we confine people with psychotic disorders to mental asylum So what am I doing here? Don't ask And all of them have self perceptions that defy reality A very common self perception is victimhood Narcissists especially covert narcissists Borderlines and people with psychotic disorders Tend to regard themselves as victims.  This self perception as a victim Also upholds the high moral ground And supports and buttresses grandiosity In this sense This self perception Is a filter of reality that falsifies Reality Now in all three conditions there's anhedonia Inability to experience pleasure It's very common even in psychopathy. It's common Although the psychopath experiences it as boredom. He's bored And so in his excitement and drama exactly like the borderline Anhedonia is common in psychosis in psychotic disorders, especially in schizophrenia There is reduced effect display Narcissists have flat effect and flat attachment Morso Psychopaths even morso now don't confuse the narcissists love bombing in the initial phase of the shared fantasy With effect display. There's no effect This is a manipulative strategy unconscious manipulative strategy to kind of Lasso in or trap in trap And then entrain an intimate partner who will then be converted into a maternal figure and so so All all all these cluster b personality disorders schizoid schizotypo Paranoid and psychotic they all have reduced effect display or flat effect or inappropriate effect problems with effect The narcissist has negative affectivity There are problems with effect And these problems in effect are very very common in psychosis One could even argue and there have been scholars who have argued That affect problems of affect affect disorders are actually forms of psychosis now. There's abolition Anyone who has lived with a borderline can tell you that she has long stretches of Indulence laziness inability to get out of bed and this is not depression. This is abolition. She loses her will She she becomes deprived of volition She can't embark on any new project start anything finish a task and so on so forth Even though she may not be depressed at all. Of course, this is also a feature of depression And in psychosis we have grandiose psychosis Most religious leaders where are grandiosly psychotic We have grandiose psychosis. We have many types of of psychosis. So we have depressive psychosis as well the early work in in object relations starting with melanocline and others isaac's others dwelt on this that One could cast or describe depression as a form of psychosis And finally there's asociality Asociality is a lack of will to socialize not social anxiety not social shyness and not social introversion These are often confused. I mean people often confuse all these. This is asociality the absolute lack of will to socialize And this is also common in all in all four conditions now All these are intermittent The borderline is sometimes hyper social and then she is asocial The narcissist has increased volition. He is almost manic He could be easily misdiagnosed as bipolar the manic phase And then he reverts into a schizoid phase with avolition And hedonia Can be perceived as boredom And then there is a pursuit of pleasures hedonism, etc. So all these are intermittent conditions also in psychosis psychosis is not An extensive disorder. It's not like every second of every minute of every hour. The psychotic person is psychotic There are Episodes and attacks Of schizophrenia which lasts for years and so on. That's true But all people with psychotic disorders have long stretches of time where they're not psychotic at all They cannot be diagnosed now In the literature in the description, I'm going to post several The name the titles of several articles and you can expand your knowledge if you wish but What I do want to do I want to maybe dwell upon one or two One or two elements and the first one is schizo tp Schizo tp. Just let me see. I want somehow to But I don't know. Where is the I don't know. Where is the zoom function here? It's very very small So In schizo tp. I'm sorry. I'm gonna I'm gonna be in your face because Somehow the the zoom is not working So schizo tp is a A general condition. It's uh, it's uh, not necessarily pathological But it involves elements which are common to all The conditions are mentioned common to narcissism borderline psychotic disorders Paranoid schizo tp schizoidensal So schizo tp involves beliefs that are regarded as invalid and magical by conventional standards But might might well be shared by certain groups Subgroups subcultures for example certain esoteric beliefs spiritual beliefs or conspiracy theories And schizo tp involves distortions in the perception of one's body and or environmental stimuli sensory hypersensitivity Diminish pleasure or discomfort in social or interpersonal situations Deficits to in the ability to experience pleasure in different sensory domains or discomfort from sensory stimulation reduction in psychomotor drive flattened effect or reduction in emotional expressiveness Reduction in verbal expressiveness Speech deficits due to disorganized confused thinking that do not cause grave problems in other people's understanding of the person simultaneous experience of divergent emotions And so this is schizo tp now schizo tp Is the background process That underlies all these disorders now there are many people who are who have schizo tp And they are not mentally ill They cannot be diagnosed with a personality disorder or with psychosis. So let us now compare schizo tp to psychosis Psychosis has a defined onset It has a beginning date and an expiry date Each episode so it's a piece episodic Yeah, it involves delusions firm beliefs held with full conviction that are conviction And these beliefs are untrue As well as contrary to the personal person's educational and cultural background hallucinations Perceptions experience without an external stimulus and hedonia in social and other Activities or situations and hedonia is inability to experience pleasure finding pleasure in nothing abolition a lack of will to start or to continue doing anything affective flattening flat effect Reduce intensity of emotional response attentional impairment Wondering mind resembles very much much adhd And so there are scholars who compare hd adhd to psychosis allogia Formal thought disorder disorganized speech that severely hinders other people's understanding of the person disorganized or bizarre behavior incongruous effect inappropriate effect laughing at a funeral and As you see psychosis is an extreme form of schizotopy But schizotopy exists also in narcissism and borderline and I refer you to the video I've made About schizotopy and neoteny I have a video of course about every imaginable topic on earth And in some parts of the galaxy Okay, I hope you this I hope this video hasn't rendered you psychotic. You wouldn't know Um until it's too late. So um We're going to discuss These issues at length in other videos later. This was a general introduction Those of you who want to venture further for some oblivious reason at your own risk and parallel Um, just go to the literature and read the articles that I recommend


Hi everyone, I'm back. I'm live. I I'm a little late. I said 12 but I had a lot of stuff to do today. Hope y'all forgive me But this is gonna be a quick one not gonna be a two hour one. Just gonna be like maybe 30 minutes So let's get into it. Okay, so the the title of this is 24. Oh my god, this lipstick I think my teeth look so young. I need to put some red on Um So the the title of this video is called 24 Magic the frequency of gold. How are y'all today? Okay, so the frequency of gold The frequency of gold digging um I like that Bruno Mars song because he's if you really read between the lines. He's talking about the frequency of Living abundant or getting what you want or getting paid or getting money. Okay 24 karat magic in the air That's a frequency, right? So you got to get on the frequency of Having abundance attracting people with abundance getting abundance for yourself. You know I'm saying So I like the fact when he says put your picket rings up to the moon, okay? There's lots of some Symbolism in that and I'll get into it probably later on but basically he's saying get into the frequency of Abundance get into the frequency of gold get into that magic in the air Which is a frequency of getting what you want. You know what?  You got to get on that frequency because abundance is not something you can hold in your hand It is a frequency that you have to get on in order for it to come to you at a constant flow You know what I'm saying? So if you're always saying I won't I need I don't have you ain't gonna be on that frequency If you already if you're always saying I love I have I'm you know, I'm getting you know, it's coming I got it.  Okay, so when you listen to that song the next time make sure you know what it means Okay Just listen to the song a couple times. Okay, it's okay to ball out. It's okay to Spend your money like money That means you're not afraid to let it go because you know it's coming right back in you're on the frequency of Receiving so you're you can easily give because you know it's coming right back But if you're scared and stingy to spend money, it's like, oh my god I can't spend any money because nothing else is coming in you're on the frequency of poverty Okay, so get off that frequency now.  Make sure you've got your rent money Set the money aside that you could spend you know what I'm saying But don't be so don't feel bad when you spend it feel happy because you know more is coming in and you're getting what you need so when you When you meet guys You're gonna attract certain type of guys depending on your frequency. Okay, so you're gonna track broke man If you want to broke frequency, you know what I'm saying get out of that frequency, you know Get up to the next level and say my life is going to be Abundant successful. I'm attracting a successful man. I don't deal with broke men anymore. I don't care how cute they are I just they're no longer in my sight. Okay, so as soon as you graduate I'm gonna call it graduate as soon as you graduate from that broke Dude phase you're gonna start bringing in the men with money. Okay, you're gonna start attracting wealth abundance You're gonna get on that frequency that all the other people are on who have what you want Okay, and then all of a sudden you're gonna start getting it Okay, now I know a lot of women who don't even look good to have a rich husband that takes care of them Okay, they all my street. Okay They don't work. Okay, they don't look good either But they were on that frequency Okay, so it's not it's not what you look like. It's not You know, it's not what you Have it's how you vibrate and what you want and you gotta know what you want though. Okay That's why in the song he goes what y'all want to do You know, what do you want if you don't know what you want? How are you supposed to track it? How are you supposed to get on the frequency? How are you supposed to get to the radio station the radio frequency if you don't know what channel you want? You just gonna flip through and tell something sound good You know, so let's Let's get on that frequency. Okay, a lot of people are gonna troll in the comments and say you'll never find a rich man Do do do you to ugly?  Somewhere right now in helicopters flying over Hawaii. Okay, my Facebook friend Okay, and she's not even ugly, but she would be in the standards of the trolls on my On my comments, she's a beautiful beautiful woman and She is not probably beautiful by society standards, but a millionaire found beauty. Okay, so Yes, and she was always on the frequency of money because I met her before she married him I was I was her. I did some consultation for her and she She was messing around with broke dudes and at the same time she had this rich guy And I said you need to let that one go. You need to let that one go.  Okay. I say well, that's fine You can love him from a distance, but this is your future. Okay, which frequency do you want to be on? You want to take care of me or you want to be taken care of by man, which one's gonna be? So obviously she chose the to be taken care of by man and right now as we speak or yesterday I saw her on Facebook on The video and a helicopter flying over Hawaii. Okay. Oh, man. I was jealous, but hey She was on that frequency and that's what she got. Okay. Um, you like my hat. Thank you I forgot where I got this hat from try to remember. I Think it was Ross Ross or something like that They have some cute ones like this at Ross, but Yes, I shop at Ross And I also shop at high-end places as well because like, you know, when you see something cute, you just got to pick it up anyway, so Get into that frequency like like I said go walk around the shops in the mall You can't afford go up in there. Okay, go get on that frequency Okay, my friend I was talking to the other day. I was doing a consultation with her and She was saying I went to the Louis Vuitton store and I saw these men and they're buying purses for women And those women did not look as good as me You know, they were just really playing and blah and they were getting men to buy them stuff And I'm like, yeah, of course, you know, they but she was confused because Like she's trying to get her man to fall in love and to get married and to have you know Family and buy her stuff at the same time. Like those women had one goal in mind They weren't trying to get married. They weren't trying to fall in love. They weren't trying to do all that They were trying to get a purse Okay, or they were trying to get a gift They weren't trying to focus on all the other stuff Okay, if you're trying to focus on all this stuff at the same time, you're not gonna get what you want Okay, so you have to focus on one thing at a time So obviously you can't be focused on Does he love me is he gonna ask me to marry him? How can I get this out of him? Focus on one thing and when you when you get that out of him then move on to the next thing It's easier, you know the same you can't be all over the place Emotional because you're not you're gonna be afraid to ask for what you want You're gonna be afraid to think that you know, this is what I want What if he doesn't like me after I ask you gonna be all all messed up So when you're on the frequency of something you're gonna attract it to you, okay? She was on the frequency of I'm gonna get this dude to buy me a purse and guess what she got the purse The other girl was on the frequency of I want him to love me fall up me call me You know met want to marry me.  Okay, you gotta get on one Get what you want get on the next one. Okay So Yeah, this is a bit metaphysical, but I know y'all understand it because y'all are smart ladies, okay? so Yeah, I like Bruno Mars Um, he's he's very smart.  That's what you're supposed to do Okay, that's what a woman is a woman is alchemy, you know She starts off as child Grows into a woman Can bear children could create Grows older and wiser and can give knowledge and teach women are the first teachers So, you know, we need to value ourselves and not devalue ourselves by dealing with People that are not our men that are not on our level. Okay, we're gold Okay, we deserve gold. We are gold. We need to stay on that frequency of value Okay, when you drop your value you drop your frequency and people just see you as low life Scummy trashy Skanky ratchet you want to get back up up here. Okay? So in order to do that, we also have to be self-improving at the same time. We can't stay stuck Okay, we have to be always improving the next thing that we do has to be better than the last thing we did Okay, ladies And a lot of people ask me like 20 times in our what what's our purpose? What's my purpose? What's my purpose? I don't know my purpose in life. I don't know my purpose in life What am I supposed to be doing? Can you tell me what to do? Can can I tell you what to do? What is your purpose? I'm like, I'm supposed to know your purpose Your purpose is to find your purpose and if you can't find your purpose Your purpose is to create a purpose and work on it until you Run into something that you really like. Okay, so if you're all you know and men With wealth and and purpose are attracted to women with purpose. So if you don't have a purpose create a purpose, okay?  It might be cheesy and flaky, but you have a purpose Okay, this man has something to tell his friends. Oh, she's an eclectic artist who has hangings and galleries And even if you don't he don't know You know create a purpose if you don't have a purpose you're dispensable you're You're not able to You know, uh be Honored and you can't no one can talk about your attributes. Okay, so have a purpose even if you have to create one make a purpose. Okay Um, the more purpose you have the more valuable you are. Okay Um, so get on that frequency.   Okay So let's not do that. I know a lot of women go back and forth from broke to meant to meant with money broke to meant with money Y'all y'all gonna lose. Y'all need to choose a side I need to pick What frequency are you gonna be on? Okay, and for you guys who don't care about me and want to get on your own money Do that. Okay ladies. I never say don't get your money. If you can start a business if you can uh Up your career do that as well stay on that frequency of earning more potential, you know getting uh promotions Stay on that frequency hang around people that get promotions all the time hang around the people at work That make a lot of money Hang around them and see what they're doing and get on their frequency and they're you know, you're associated with those people The bosses are gonna be like, oh my gosh, maybe she's one of them and we need to promote her Hang around the people that are are doing well in the business Don't hang around the the gossipers and the ones that slack off because you haven't made it yet Go hang out with the ones who have made it. I don't care if they they say you can't hang out with us Just walk near them. Okay. It's be like Selfies with them or something put it on snapchat, but get over there on that frequency. Okay Okay Yes So if y'all are just tuning in I was talking about 24 karat magic in the air It's a song about being on the frequency magic in the air is a frequency 24 karat is gold. Okay money value wealth knowledge Um abundance so the divine metal and alchemy you turn lead into gold So get on that higher frequency if you want to attract Wealth and abundance into your life. I don't care if it's from a man A woman a job a career an idea that a business that you start whatever it is Get on that frequency because if you're down here, I don't know what to do. I can't do I don't have no purpose Create a purpose and go from there hang around people that are where you want to be make friends with people Uh find youtubers who have what you want and watch their channel You know get a mentor.   Okay so Find out figure out what you want. First of all Which y'all want to do Okay, because I'm here to tell so plan Look out. Okay, so this is the confidence you got to have that confidence You gotta you got to dress the part you have to act the part you have to know who you are You know what I'm saying? You can't be nervous about it Pick a frequency and get on it. Don't mess around. Don't don't Don't get the static between the channels. Okay Okay so yes that's why You know, that's why he was like in the video. That's why he's wearing all that Versace because it has a lot of gold in it There's a lot of royal royalty looking lions and alchemical Uh Stuff on it. It's just you know very Goddy and like, oh my god. I'm here. You're gonna see me shine. I'm on this frequency Um, so pay attention. Okay. It's really guy, but the message of the song was look Get on this frequency of wealth. I'm gonna show you how to Live on the freak.  Keep up Keep up. Keep up on this frequency Okay, so um Make sure you get on that 24 karat magic in the air Look out Pop pop is showtime. Y'all got me singing that song. Um So Yeah, don't be afraid to get on that frequency. A lot of people think oh, I'm supposed to be nice and humble I'm not supposed to ask for nothing. Oh, I'm not supposed to want that But yes, you are you're supposed to want it and you're supposed to get it You're supposed to get on the frequency and get it too It's just this keeping you from get doing it.  You don't think you deserve it. You don't even know what you want So how can you move forward if you don't even know what you want?  Sex is everything. Yeah sex Equals money to most men like most men earn money to get sex. Okay For women they can take it or leave it.  Hmm, whatever. Um so Yeah, I was reading a comment So to withhold it every once in a while Gives you power Okay Don't always give it up. You know, don't the value of something goes down when the supply is high The value of it goes up when the demand is high, but the supply is low. Okay, that's business. That's just common economics Ooh, that's what I like. I love that song up in the marsh. That's what I like He's he's telling his woman.   Mm-hmm I like all the stuff you like good thing, right? So I like how he talks how he spoils his women and his music I don't know if that's what he does in real life, but he might But I like how he does that in his uh in some of his songs and you know keeps everything high class You know, I love that You know on his on his other album gorilla, he was raw on that one.  You know what I'm saying the 24 karat frequency the gold frequency the wealth frequency.  Um thinking about a necklace or something like that. No It's way more than that. Okay Also, you know knowing stuff like this it presses men with money So get on your studies lady get on your metaphysics get on your law universal law Okay, men with money love to know how to make more money. You know what I'm saying They love to talk about this kind of stuff with people If they're on that frequency if not you can teach them something, you know They don't just want to sit there and talk about Kim Kardashian and the latest nail shape trend. Come on. We got to get it together. We got to have something Of value we have to have a purpose. Okay. I have a purpose, you know You have a purpose and if you don't you can create one real quick and tell you find yours But don't walk around aimless Okay Sometimes you find your purpose and something you created Because you didn't have one sometimes you find your purpose after that, you know And I didn't find my purpose in life till I was older, you know, I didn't find my purpose right after high school I didn't find my purpose in my 20th You know, so think about it. You have all the time You can make I had small purposes that I created for myself until I got To the point where I already knew what I was supposed to be doing, you know So don't get discouraged stay on that frequency. Keep your value high Remember supply and demand If something is too readily available and in high supply the value of it decreases.  Say no sometimes and keep your value high. Okay Okay, yes, so I can only be on here for a few minutes. I just popped on I got 20 more minutes to be on here because I have a consultation I clicked something on youtube. I have a consultation at two o'clock. Then I have to buy movie tickets For my keys to see smurfs after school but um, yeah Stay on that frequency and don't hang around people that's not on that frequency because they're gonna bring you back down Okay, a lot of people when they start learning things and moving up in life They lose friends and that's for a reason those friends if they can't keep up with you Then you have to leave them behind you can't say well, oh You're not loyal.  Okay Okay, if you're afraid to Be all you're a cell out. Oh, you don't want to hang around us no more you too good. You did. Yes. I am Bye. Bye. Catch up Okay, keep up You know just like Bruno Mars said why you mad fix your face ain't my fault that y'all be jacking keep up Play us only People ain't got to the moon, you know get that power, you know Moon is feminine energy so You know Let's let's focus You know, let's not worry about what people think about us Let's not worry about trying to keep old friends that's dragging you down Let's not worry about that because as soon as you make it they don't want to be your best friend Anyway, you know cuz and start popping out that you never knew you had You know, I'm your cousin So Don't let them keep you down.  You know, you're empty. Okay so If you're in that mindset Every thought every negative thought you think you gotta stop it right in the middle and change the words around like, oh, I don't have it today Oh That you're you're on the frequency of not having something so instead you would say Oh, I'm gonna have it tomorrow or I'm gonna have it soon or it's coming or I've got it Next week, you know what I'm saying? You're not Totally saying you are without But it's on the way. I've got it. It's next week. You have a date on it.  Oh, you don't have to say. Oh, I got it next week You will have it right then because you're changing your frequency when you change your words and your thoughts You're getting up there. You know what I'm saying? I will never tell somebody.  I'm temporarily I'm temporarily waiting or I'm temporarily receiving funds You know the difference you got to change all your words around otherwise You're gonna speak lack Into your life instead of abundance You know, that's in the law of attraction. That's in the book the secret. That's easy, you know You're getting on a frequency of brokenness broke men bad decisions stupid decisions You know because you're making decisions based on emotions, which are not permanent which are not logical You know only a fool makes decisions on emotions Okay, emotions are fleeting and they are not permanent But the result and the choice that you make Is permanent think about that Okay, so If you If you are I'm not really answering a lot of questions in this one because I can't stay on long so Y'all just listen I guess so If if you want to get on a higher frequency and you don't know where to start Start with the law of attraction. Go read the book the secret. Okay, that's that's a very simple easy book You don't you have to read it in order It has pictures in it like for those non-readers out there You can even go find it on youtube and have the audio book read to you They even have a movie now that you can watch if you can't read. Okay, there's no excuse Um Start there You know, there's levels to this stuff. That's the first level I don't want to give y'all too much But that's the first level of getting into the frequency It's looking for ways to improve yourself Okay, a lot of y'all women come out of relationships and don't do anything different and expect to find a different man Or a better man, but hasn't have not bettered yourself You're gonna track the same type of man because you're the same type of woman You know most women try to jump into a new relationship and they're gonna have the same problems because they're the same woman Those times between breakups are for self-improvement Okay, think about that Um, that's why in one of my videos.  I'm going here I get to start yoga next week or I get to start Um painting next week because you have already put in place the replacement Of that man you've given yourself things to improve yourself You've given yourself, you know an outfit to wear to improve yourself You've given yourself goals and so now you don't have to focus on what you've lost But what you're gaining, you know what I'm saying? So have that breakup plan just in case even though things are going fine Still have that breakup plan because you never know what his plans are, you know what I'm saying Don't get stuck on him.  Coulda shoulda would I want him back? Well, he don't want you Improve move on to somebody better the best revenge Is when your ex sees you with a better man with more money Who's treating you good that is the best revenge not getting somebody who dogs you out back That's just messing yourself up. You're going backwards.  That's what you should be doing You shouldn't be over here.  That's your fault Okay, so get to the next level. This is a game Okay, when you pass a level in a game, you don't go back to that level and keep playing it You move on to the next level and get more money. Cha-ching. Okay um You keep moving up leveling up getting more Tools getting more Money getting more powers And games You keep going back. You don't have access to all that stuff You're stuck. You're bored.  Okay Just like if you y'all ladies know y'all buy um stuff from Sephora and Ulta And you buy a certain amount of makeup you get to that platinum level and you get all these points And discounts and coupons and stuff like that You you're leveling up. Okay Listen, you emails you got five more points to get platinum. Come on now go buy something Now you're platinum. You get five times the points in every purchase you get a birthday gift You get this you get that Now you're receiving more for free Okay, so you've got to stay on that frequency get on that frequency leave that broke mess behind Okay, I don't care how you loved him how you felt about him. He was your first only Okay, good. That's nice. Now. Let's move on.  Anyway The best revenge is always success. I mean even Beyonce says At the end of formation, you know Always stay gracious best revenge is your paper.  You're on the frequency now and On that frequency ideas flow freely You're you're no longer in that lower level thinking so your mind is expanding and you can think of ways to earn And create and start businesses and things like that and you're not afraid.  Okay So get it together um, you know Sometimes you need motivation. Sometimes you need music songs and things like that to get you to that next level um You know, one of the songs that I like to listen to to get me to the next level is by michael jackson Want to be starting something you got to be starting something if you're not starting something you're not moving forward, you know It's just too high to get over to load it too low to get under you stuck in the middle and the pain is thunder You can't move you can't go nowhere.  I know I am someone and let the truth unfurl No one can hurt me now because I know the truth I believe in me. So you believe in you Help me sing it Mama say mama say mama makusa Okay, so get it together. You always got to be moving forward. Keep it moving. You know new ideas moving um forward You know, even jay-z says that in his music Gotta keep it moving you know The only direction don't be scared to fail search and perfection Don't be mad at him It's all about progression Gotta keep it fresh even when we're sexy Y'all know I know that So remember forward That's an that's a lemonade too forward not backwards. Are you on backwards?  I gotta go y'all. I hope y'all um Thumbs up subscribe if you knew I'll be I'll be back But I gotta go now So i'ma see y'all