your weekend and being willing to do this work with us. I would also encourage us to, and you don't have to but if you have any questions that you've been struggling with related to race you can send it to us and we will forward it to Annie. There's no guarantee she will respond to it in the two days but I think giving it to her ahead of time will allow her to see what are the issues we're working with and if she can talk to that within the framework she's providing that might be really useful to us and I see there's a hand up from Mandy Jo. Mandy Jo. Yes, thank you. Two things. We were told I hate to be the person that keeps harping on time but we were told the follow-up session would be three hours and you just said four and so I was expecting a nine to noon that would not sort of take attention to essentially kills the whole day to do a lot of things and adds the other hour beyond what we were told that follow-up would be we're already devoting 16 hours to what is essentially supposed to be a volunteer position and another four on is a week of work so I would encourage you to go back and say nine to noon so that we have some time in the afternoon. I was actually hoping I wouldn't have to give up another Saturday that it would be on a third to have that. Secondly, I appreciate that Paul and Athena have agreed to do this but I'm actually given that they are both technically our employees a bit uncomfortable with them joining us and I had not realized the council had decided that that was an appropriate thing to do and so I don't know whether we need to have that conversation or not. I have heard that these workshops require a lot of personal disclosures and as technical employees of the council I don't know whether that's an appropriate thing on either side for that to happen so I don't know whether we should be having a conversation about that. One of the things that we've been careful to do is to talk to Paul and Athena and I was surprised to hear Shalene say that Athena was going to do it because I hadn't quite gotten that conversation but that she- My bad if I said that wrong, sorry. Yeah, no, no, that's all right and I know Paul's excited to do it and I think we all have fear about what we might say who we might say it to who we're in charge of who we're not in charge of and fear can make us hesitate to do a lot of things. The work is with Annie and certainly other facilitators confidential between the people who are doing it and I have a lot of trust in this council and in our relationships both with Paul and Athena and their relationship with us that that would be honored in many, many ways. So I understand you're concerned but I think that it is appropriate particularly for me for Paul even more than Athena but I feel like she is part of the council which is why I would like to have her there. We work in a very different way. Yes, we're Paul's boss but when I was at the collaborative for educational services every employee was required to do an anti-racism training and we did them with bosses and the maintenance person and the director of the agency and the groups were very mixed and it was not problematic on that level in terms of interaction between employees. The other thing that I want to say is that we'll talk to Annie and I think that we can get Saturday down to nine to three and because it is a follow-up session it's going to be different. There was one other thing oh and in terms of developing a contract I'm going to Chalene and I will put Paul and Annie together to work on that so Mandy I hope I answered your question I'm not sure if I did. Can I just add to that that regarding timing I think that was coming from Annie she's offering that time to us and I think it's up to us to decide whether we want to use the full four hours she actually had five hours but do we want to use up to five hours or four or three and I think it's just a chance for us to and maybe it can be optional for people who maybe have more questions they can stay longer so I feel comfortable saying it's from nine to one nine to twelve but asking her of that additional hour if some of us have more questions because I already have a list of questions for her that are really hard and I cannot ask anyone else the second thing I wanted to also offer was that it was an invitation for Paul and it's an invitation to everyone actually you know it's non-mandatory and we also and Annie is very skilled in dealing like I said in Austin Texas the mayor did it with the staff with community members and the city councilors and I'm like whoa that's intense we are definitely don't we want to do it you know at least at the first go we want to do it just with us so but they are very skilled and we've questioned them again and again about what would make it the most useful and safe place and they were like we definitely encourage you to invite Athena and yet it is an invitation and we completely leave it to Paul and Athena to choose to join us while knowing it is safe to do it in this to do this particular work in this way George you have your hand up yeah I just I mean unlike Paul and Athena we're elected officials and we are governed by open meeting law so I'm just wondering if anyone could address how that yeah I'll go ahead with that we have talked to the attorney general's office and because we're using an outside facilitator and it is a workshop we will not be deliberating about anything this is a workshop about white supremacists the white supremacist system that we live in and it is perfectly legitimate for us to do this without breaking the meeting law I thought that was clear last time but I've contacted them twice and I know we are not breaking any rules let me just also say that that is consistent with previous training that I was in charge of that involved the Massachusetts general court elected officials so it's you can do this without breaking open meeting law because again you're not deliberating you're not you're it's not even about an issue you're going to do George do you have another question Dorothy I just want to follow up what Mandy Joe says Shalini said that the time was made available to us but we did not have to choose to use all of it together I think that a council member who has a young school child really should be have a half day which means the whole council since we're supposed to do this together I think 9 to 12 would be sufficient that's no because we want to make this job not look so terrible that no one will run again okay are there any other questions hopefully training okay are there any other council comments Andy yeah there's one thing that I should have mentioned when I gave the finance committee report so I decided to wait for this portion of the meeting on the 16th of this month there's one additional item the council should be aware of and that is that we will be getting a report from the advisor who does the work for the have other post employment benefits calculations it's an actuarial it's the time when they recalculate what the depth of our liability is and an opportunity to talk about how we in other communities can handle the liability what it means for us so I just want to alert fellow counselors anyone who might have been at any time concerned about that rather large number of other post employment benefit obligation that we carry as a community that's a meeting where the expert will be there to present are there any other comments from counselors Andy did your hand go back up or not no I'm bought it okay anything else from anybody I want to just make sure seeing none then with the meetings adjourned at 940


As the title says, I'm here to talk about how open source solutions based on R and shiny are transforming workflows and processes in the industry. And I'll start with the question. So did you know that open source software represents two thirds of commercial code basis, and only for around 4% doesn't contain any open source components at all. So that's one in every 25 applications. And this report is was released in 20 for 2023, and it's quite quite impressive. Open source is clearly the future of software and business and I think I don't need to preach that to this audience. The future is not only open source, but there's no future without it. And during the early days of epsilon, we were inspired by the community and role models who had created so much for all of us. And the initial team wasn't sure about interests, about the interest that the tools that we were creating had, but it turned out to be very helpful to others and our work became increasingly popular. Actually, just yesterday, Eric showcase how to build an application in Rhino, and it's one of our open source packages. And as a result, our team got bigger with me and under great professional joining epsilon and since then we've been able to contribute much more. I'm very happy that this happened and that we are part of an amazing community of people and organizations that is more diverse than a typical technological technological community. It includes people from various areas of business science different domains various backgrounds and specialties. And at epsilon we are able to gain quite a unique perspective into how all sectors apply open source because they all do, but we also see how far they are in their journey. And pharma is one of the major industries that benefits greatly from the technology that we all love. And it's also an industry that is naturally important to all of us, as it plays a crucial role in developing treatments and promoting public health. Ironically, pharma is also an example of an industry where legacy close technologies such as SAS or even spreadsheets are still heavily used. On this presentation, I'm going to go over some of our projects with the pharma clients, and I hope that through the case studies, it will help you better understand how shiny is being used in the industry. And it's my goal to spark new ideas on how to use it and how to integrate with some other application or technology. In this first case study, we are looking at the sales department of a pharma company and the role that quality information has on connecting sales representatives in the field with the data science teams back in headquarters. And as many stories start, this one begins with an Excel spreadsheet that was being exchanged by email between the headquarters and the sales representatives. This flow of information was very one-sided with no existing method to communicate structured feedback on the data. Everything was done via email, as it normally is. It was inefficient, it was costing valuable time for the sales reps and some lost opportunities for the company. So we work together with our partner to deliver this information in a way that is optimal to everyone involved, from the sales reps to the data science team and management. The solution that we found was designed and implemented around three important requirements. First, to create the right method of delivery for the information that the sales reps need on the ground. And this means that sales reps would work with up-to-date information on clinical practices with previous visits with all the comments and all the history and a bunch of new data that will improve the quality of the visits. It also allows to write feedback to headquarters so that they can refine the data and provide every increasing quality information. Secondly, to assist the sales reps to plan their routes and schedules through a beautiful interface that is designed for the users. And this integrates geolocation data with cool visualizations that are always aware. And compared with the previous method of working with addresses and just copying, pasting between different applications, it improved the quality of life of people on the ground. And the information would also need to be accessible both online and offline, so keeping one of the important features of the previous Excel spreadsheets. And here SHINee enables us to deliver value extremely quickly. We can implement users' ideas right away by connecting the data to the interface. And that initial prototype is progressively refined into a production-ready solution with valuable input from the users. One of the core strengths of our SHINee is the reach and interactive visualization that can rapidly be created so we can explore the data. And it allows to integrate with other tools by using packages such as Plumber that exposes the data. This way, the offline application that was created in an iPad app had the same data sources as the SHINee application, with regular snapshots being delivered to it. This project shows a possible synergy of using multiple open source tools to implement the best solution. And this is a common friend that we'll see throughout the slides. In the near future, maybe we can actually use WebAssembly to package and deliver offline SHINee dashboards, instead of having to rely on other applications or other frameworks. And if we look at the business impact of this case study, the main result was the quality of life improvement for the sales representatives that positively impacted the work. During the trial period and after implementation, it allowed them to engage in more calls, more meetings and leads with healthcare providers. By being able to better plan accordingly to the location surroundings, they could rapidly change the plans in case of an accessible visit. For instance, by balancing between locations value with the proximity to other sites. Above all, it created an effective method of delivery for the information that was gathered by the data science team. We direct feedback and metrics from the sales representatives. It better reported the calls and visits, but also feedback from the sales team to the data science folks. And the discovery, the development and testing process, it helped bring these two teams together with a better understanding of one and the other. And as we know in pharma confidentiality is very important. So we are not showing the application here, but I would like to show it another app, an example that we built for Johns Hopkins that shows the capabilities of gel location visualization in SHINee. These visualizations are powered by a bunch of open source libraries, some of them we created or contributed to. But this rich ecosystem of packages is based not only in R, but also in JavaScript as everything that can be done in JavaScript can be used in SHINee. And this dashboard in particular uses a library called leaflet that provides these powerful visualizations. Using SHINee, we can create all of these elements that communicate between themselves and they don't require a very big technical overhead to handle these shared states and to integrate these all together. Moving to the next study, we are looking at a partner that had to create two reports for regulatory agencies, and those needed to be automated. It was a very time consuming process as we will see. It shows how we can use SHINee to transform a manual workflow and create a big ROI to the organization. The story of this case is also a familiar one that starts with an email that has the initial draft document that then needs to be filled by people in multiple departments in the organization. And this email thread bounces back and forth between all the stakeholders, and that they need to produce data from their sources. After a manual intensive and time consuming process it comes up with a document that still needs to be reviewed furthermore with more iterations to refine and remove all of the errors. Making sure that the final report is a GXP compliant. I think we can all relate to an email thread that has multiple attachments with names such as Final2, Final2.1 and so on. For these two reports it was a recurring event that had slightly different timelines, but with identical problems on multiple sites within jurisdiction. This actually cost a lot of time in personnel that could bring value in other ways and in more interesting ways for their own satisfaction and personal satisfaction. Or it could cost financial losses with delays in identifying issues in the inventory. So there is a lot of cost saving opportunities here. The requirements in this case are very different from the sales case study. Here we are dealing with data that is sourced from multiple different departments and with automated reporting. It's not really a flashy topic I know, but vital in the industry. And the challenge here was to integrate different data sources and validate those to produce reports that follow a flexible template that could then be modified from version to version. The whole pipeline needed to be well tested and documented so that the outcome is a reproducible report. And here again the data visualization capabilities of our Shiny are very well aligned with this project. We have a web application that previews the elements of the report and allows to adapt it according to the needs of the user. We also rendered those same exact visualizations in PDF or Word documents via mature open source R packages that provide a template framework to achieve this. And additionally we can also use other available R packages to retrieve all of those data sources such as databases, files and even computer vision and NLP modules. The impact of this case study was actually very easily quantified with those two reports being automated by the client. They were able to redirect plant management and resources that otherwise went to these reports. And the batch quality report was also able to identify issues in the inventory early on and reduce some financial losses. Above all, it allowed for faster decision making process by having near real time reports that could be accessed. There was no longer delay of hours or weeks but it actually became a matter of seconds to retrieve and process all of the data, which is quite cool. On this demo, I'd like to continue to showcase the interactivity between the different components of the Shiny application from filters, so actors and the main visualization. And this time we are looking at a survival curve. For those with a keen eye, they may recognize that this is a modified visualization from the farmer versus our ecosystem. And we use the data exploration demo with synthetic data. For those that are not familiar with Farmerverse, it is an initiative from a consortium of pharma companies that is creating tools in R for clinical trial reporting. It aims to replace the whole pipeline in SAS to R from admin data analysis to result visualization and electronic submission. The second demo is the data validator package, and this started in a project with a client, but gained a second life as an open source package to handle data validation. Just like the case study that had a data integration process that requires validation, this package allows for the definition of human readable rules. So it's quite cool to integrating in existing Shiny applications. With this package, we can actually take issues with the data as they are imported and it can validate regular numeric contextual data, but it can also recognize context aware data such as location. The initial version of this data validation tool was created as I said during the client project, but we identified the potential value for the community. And with an agreement, we launched this as a public R package. The third and last case study revolves around drug development and pharmacokinetics. And here the process started again with an Excel file that was distributed among the team members to fill with data from animal and in vitro studies. The process is similar to the last one with the added interesting aspect that this process drives drug development. And here research scientists were able to perform some data exploration and modeling with aromatic scaling human dose predictions simulations and compound toxicity prediction. This was a very minimal intensive process again that was prone to errors. So you could users were moving cells in the spreadsheet that was changing foremost for a minute and not then doing the changes. And this was not the original file that was created. And I'd also like to point out that using Excel to generate simulations is not ideal, especially to critical tasks in drug development. In this case, the randomness of the Monte Carlo simulations was not reproducible. So every iteration was lost to the ether once a new one was generated. And during the discovery process, we found that there were three key goals to achieve this project to achieve on this project. And the first was to create a platform that could import data from different sources and integrate those second audit of the formulas and replacing those with the robust libraries. And lastly, to create a central location where multiple users could contribute to the analysis, explore and save the progress in practices that we wanted to transform this process to a reproducible one. This is the third time I'll be saying some of these but it is this data heavy process is a great match for our and for shiny. We found that the existing package already performed the same function so we don't have to reinvent the wheel on modeling simulations and plus we get a web application that is visually appealing and fast to develop so we can bring it back to the users and iterate on that initial prototype until we get the production ready application. This allowed us to create reports that are direct match with what is seen in application that is traceable with all the data processing and it follows legal requirements. The business impact of this project was down to a faster and accurate decision making process on drug dosage, and it becomes faster to gather all this data. It is easy to collaborate and provides a smoother onboarding process for new hires. And I'm going to show an example that is the application that was created to identify buildings impacted by a natural disaster. So every second counts on the disaster and this application uses satellite images that were taken before and after the disaster to quantify the damage on the ground. This runs models on the pytorch on the back end and they are accessed. Those models and those results are accessed via shiny using an API shiny delivers the front end. It is hard to create applications in Python to take advantage of the vast collection of libraries that it has but shiny for Python might change this in the future, but at the time we found that we could bridge this gap by combining this to be an API and the UI was created in React. So this shows the flexibility that there that we have been using the best of each platform to both achieve the goals and match available knowledge and skills. And to wrap up the presentation. There's a common thread behind all of these case studies and it starts with automation. We saw that countless hours could be redirected to other available tasks for the organization and repetitive and data intensive work was replaced with automated workflow that validates and minimizes the errors in the process. The applications will build around the users which is critical for the success and drive those users to the new workflows, having beautiful interfaces for their contributors to the adoption. And the vision can come from within the organization using open source technologies they have a low entry barrier and they can help deliver a prototype shiny in particular connects the data to the user via very powerful tools. There's a one example that I like to highlight that happened just two months ago. I was in an exploratory meeting with a potential nonprofit and nonprofit partner and we were talking about what they wanted to do and what they wanted to show in the shiny application. And then one of the executives with the expertise in agriculture. She shared her screen and show the shiny dashboard that she with no background within computer science or are created just to help explain and better show her vision was an amazing amazing culture to be part of as it really it was nice to see the sparkle on on on the eyes of everyone there was pretty amazing. And there's also a global community that works together to improve these tools and these technologies. Every organization any individual has different goals, but by collaborating on a shared vision, we can create flexible tools that adapt to any environment. As we see specific communities that are created organically with different interests, for instance, by a conductor focus on rigorous and reproducible analysis of data from current and emerging biological assays package from IPC actually still lives there. Open pharma and pharmaverse focus on clinical trial reporting with individuals and organizations committed to these efforts. And I think to wrap up open using open source also allows to attract recent graduates that are being taught by fun are another technologies, just as we saw in the in the keynote that just happened. They will look to start their career in organizations that promote the school technologies, and they can start to produce value without the steep learning curve of learning size or different proprietary technology. And I would like you to thank everyone for listening and I'm happy to answer a few questions. So what would you like to know more about. Excellent. Thank you so much Andre. We are just about at time for the next talk there are a couple questions in the chat if you wouldn't mind following up there, particularly around package validation and documentation and then also definition of GXP compliance that you're working with. So, I'll go ahead and welcome our next speaker Andre thank you so much again for your talk. Hello, I'll follow up on the chat then. Perfect. Thank you.


Hi everyone, Joe for Jaspy's casebreaks.com coming out to a 2019-2020 Panini contenders optic basketball two box pick your team number 43 with the chance of the pelicans if you bought at least two teams, you know the drill by now Let's alphabetize your names by first name here makes a little bit easier for me David bought six teams. That's three entries Matt bought eight teams. That's four entries Next over about two teams. That's an entry Sean Mattick bought four teams. That's two entries Summon about six teams. That's three entries and Thane Johnson bought two teams. That's an entry Alright, so there's a new list right there new dice roll name on top after four and a one five times Gets the pals in this quick little break one two three four Don't want the final time after five. It's David Sullivan. Let's get your names in there We'll put a little rooftop next to your name. So you know you won that spot It's sort back again by teams and Let's let's print and rip Good luck. All right, there's the final print out right there. Thanks everyone for getting in Well, there'll be another two box break in the store shortly on Jaspy's case breaks calm keep an eye out for it If you're watching live, there's Ron Harper winning ticket Bulls next over There's all-star aspirations Kevin Durant okc edition. I'm gonna go to Kim Summin The two cards behind Jimmy Butler we got Danilo Gallinari For okc another one for Summin and we've got a world champion here Anthony Davis 47 out of 49 season ticket for my Lakers Matt Lieber go Lakers and behind Jimmy Butler is gonna be Dylan windler The answer my friend is blowing in the Dylan windler. That'll be for Nick Stover and the Cleveland Cavaliers 30 out of 149. There you go. Yeah, he's pretty good shooter.  The answer my friend Is Dylan windler in the wind?  They're sorry about that that goes to the Sixers got a protected die cut though We got John Wall historic slam slam. Doot. Doot it Doot. Doot it That goes to Shawn Matic and the Wizards We got Kemba Walker There's there these boots were made for Walker. That's just what they'll do One of the days Kemba Walker is gonna shoot all over you Kevin love I love LA we love it mixed over I Don't got anything for John Collins. Sorry And we've got Drew holiday holiday It would be it would be so nice If we took a holiday that goes to the pelicans Maybe we were hoping for his teammate, but Drew holiday is pretty good too 36 out of 125 again, David Sullivan won the pelicans in that Randomizer that we did at the beginning of the break John Collins goes to zoom in and the Hawks and other two boxes Will be in the store hunting for that guy RJ Barrett, Zion Williams, this is John Morant Whole slew of other great rookies from this draft class. I'm Joe. Thanks for watching. Thanks for breaking with us and we'll see you next time Bye-bye


What's up everybody, it's Jason here for jaskiescasebase.com. We just sold out 2023 Pinini National Treasures Collegiate Football 1 box break, ran a number block number 7 guys, and again this will be the starting of the second half guys, 5, 6, 7, 8 are from the same case, R&B everybody gets a random number, of course everything that should be numbered so it goes out to the customer there but if there's anything not numbered it will be randomized to the group. There's the customer names and then of course we have the number 0, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, and we're going to give away 2 free spots just for buying in guys. That will be for the free spot giveaway and the list of names and numbers. 3 out of 2, 5 times, good luck, top 2 names to get free spots, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, boom, 5, 5, 3, 2, 5, Michael and Eric, congratulations, free spot, free spot, alright, 5 times, 1, 2, 3, 4. Eric down to Eric, now 5 times here, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 1 down to 7, so Eric you have 1, Michael with 5, Eric with 9, Michael with 4 and 3, Eric with 0, 6, 2, Michael with 8 and then Eric with 7. Alright I don't think anybody's going to trade numbers so let's just stick to what you got. 2 boxes here guys, 1, 2, 3 for the top, 4, 5, 6 for the bottom and it's a 4, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, last box of the case will be for number 8, here we go guys, alright first one we got is little Patrick Mahomes, 72 out of 75, spot 2's Eric and a little Jumbo 3 colored patch out of Virginia, Dontevion Wicks, that's spot 9, 19 out of 39, spot 9 is going to be going to Eric. We have a Drew Sanders at Arkansas, that's 12 out of 99, spot 2 another one for Eric. We have a little Sauce Garner, about 1 out of 10, spot 1 Eric and a little eBay 101 as well. We have a Jerron Hall, 21 out of 99, another one for Eric. We have a CJ Strout, 21 out of 25, spot 1 is murdering this Eric. Jesus, you've got an every single hit so far. 2 more hits, next one is a Jerron Hall booklet, 49 out of 99, another one for Eric, good lord. Here you go man, and last one is a redemption which is going to spot 0 automatically which is going to Eric dude, he just killed this whole break bro, jeez, alright I'm not sure but alright 9, 1, 1, 1, 2, 2, 9. Last one is a redemption guys, and it is a college materials signatures silver, card number 43 going to spot 0, it's Anthony Richardson, let's go man, congrats bro, Jesus, it was a little percy for you man, I'm not sure what that's going to be out of to be honest but we can look it up though, there you go guys, 1 more box in the store if you guys want to run it back, jaspyscasebreaks.com guys thank you, hey.


I'm gonna be using the wig today because my wig got snatched, am I stupid?  I really am, and I'm gonna get onto why in a, in a mode. I can be a blonde bitch, see? Hey, what's up guys? My wig got snatched. That was the shittest thing I've ever done on camera. Today's video is one that I've been working on this video for around a week and a half. As some of you know, my PTSD recently has been very out of control. I've been having flashbacks. I haven't had to sleep because of flashbacks. If you're in the group chat that I have, yeah, now I've been having flashbacks. I also just wanted to say thank you to Beth because Beth has been amazingly supportive.  PTSD is a mental health condition that can affect anyone of any age.  Hint? I'm not. I'm perfectly of age. There were so many people who also struggle with PTSD that are young as well. I posted this on Twitter and I got a response and I'm gonna post a few, like, little things on... There's a few things on screen at the moment, okay? I can't explain myself properly. I was gonna get a drink. I'm now under the home treatment team as well and I'm about to turn back around. So this video is about PTSD, living with PTSD, what life is like with PTSD, how it affects me and what is going on in my life. This is a life update with PTSD, essentially. PTSD life update, guys. I could never be a beauty hero. So this video is a PTSD update, I guess, because I'm basically... When I've been filming videos recently, I've had flashbacks on camera slash dissociated. And dissociation is both a sign of the actual condition I have, but it's also a sign of PTSD. So I took out the footage from the actual videos that it was from and I'm putting them in this video. I wanted to show you what PTSD actually looks like. For me, anyway, this isn't everyone. This isn't how it affects me. This isn't, like, a full-on episode. If I have a full-on episode, I... I don't even think I can explain. Last night, the home treatment team ended up coming out, giving me a medication, and that whole scenario, the home treatment team came out tonight. At the end of this video, you're gonna hear the outcome of that. And so, yeah, this video is just going to show you what it's like living with PTSD and how it impacts me. I... PTSD has been a diagnosis I've had for a while. It's got worse recently and I don't exactly know why. I'm due to speak to my GP tomorrow as well. I feel depressed today. I don't even know why, really.  That was not fun. It really wasn't. Um, flashbacks. Stop. Like, I did say that this was a trigger for me. My head is sort of full and draw-long as she had probably stopped.   Yeah, I don't know.     I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. Okay. Hello. You have reached the CNWL, single point of access for adult mental health services. The quality of this is really bad. It's really bad. I don't have the energy to go out for a bar and turn the light on. I'm sat on my desk at the moment. I keep having really, really, really good flashbacks. I've been debating whether or not to phone the crisis to you. I went to phone them and then I hung up and I was like, I can't do this. And I don't know if I should try and call them or not. You will now be transferred to a number of staff who can help you. Please note your call may be recorded for training and monitoring purposes. Hey, yeah. Hello. Hello. I'm sorry. I'm struggling a bit tonight. Yeah, it's... About last night, yeah. Oh, right. It's been going for the entire year, but it's just getting worse and worse and worse. Do you think you need to go back to see the doctor to get something to help you sleep instead? I don't know what the risk is, because I've been on Zopi clone on and off and it doesn't do anything.  The ones I've been on haven't helped. I've been on Zopi clone as well recently. It didn't do anything. And you've had this feeling for a long time. Can you distract yourself or try and do some leading? I've tried doing all that before. You pick up the phone. Picking up the phone for me is the last thing they do. Pardon? You've tried... It's what I've been trying to do all day. I really don't know. I just want to mind just running again. Yes, you just what? I just want all the thoughts to stop. Sorry, what do you think? I just want all the thoughts to stop. What are you planning to do? Given out Joseph's video, the footage you just watched is... To start with, it was from other videos and showing what PTSD looks like in me. Like the little vlog sequence, which was the phone call to the home treatment team. Wow, the single point access flying for West London.  I think he's a support worker. That is what's going on at the moment. That's the current situation. I'm going back under the care of the home treatment team.  I'll make a video about that tomorrow. That's like, another video. I've got a few mixed thoughts on it and I just thought I'd mention that. But the big thing is PTSD does not have an age. If you'd like to see more of me and what I do, I post literally every day on my Twitter and I post every day on here. So make sure you turn notifications on on the future channel and if you don't want me in, you have to subscribe. You click the little subscribe but then a little bell appears and you get to ring it and it doesn't make a ringing noise but that'd be so cool if it did. Imagine that you are ringing the notification and it goes ding, that'd be awesome. Leave a comment down below of any videos you'd like to see. If you want to know more about me and my life I have loads of playlists linked on my homepage on my channel. I'm currently posting every single day whether it's a story, mental health update, general talky video, or just live streaming. We do all sorts here.  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If you like true revenge stories, you're at the best place for your vengeful needs. In this episode, it seems that you might want to keep your enemies closer, ideally as your neighbors. We start off with a neighbor who takes a parking spot, but ends up without a car. Followed by a Karen neighbor who gets more plants than she initially took from neighbors. An Indian's story in which the neighbor enters a nightmare, for taking money that wasn't hers. Lastly, neighbors gets present time for taking someone else's parking spot. Let's dive in. Naturally, viewer discretion is advised. These revenge acts might be disturbing to snowflakes. I have lived in an apartment complex in Lisbon, Portugal for the last four years. If anyone's from here, you'll know parking is a bummer. Fortunately, my building has a private garage. However, as is often the case, some parking places are more difficult to park in than others. I have one of the easier ones. Last year I was offered a job abroad and took it. Thought I'd be nice, parked my car at my parents, where they have plenty of space, and left a notice in the building elevator that went along the lines of. I'm the owner of 3B and will be away for at least six months, feel free to use my parking spot. Ended up being away for longer, almost a year. Came back to see my parking spot occupied, which was okay, since I offered for it to be used. Put another notice in the elevator, this time to say I was back and would use the parking spot again. Gave it two days, and picked my car up from my parents. Went into my garage, and my space was still being used. Had to park somewhere on the street, and decided to give it another day. The day after, it was occupied again by the same car. Asked a couple neighbors, and figured out it belonged to a lady living two stories above me. Went up to talk to her, and she immediately got defensive and said that her parking spot is very difficult for her to park in, and since I was away for longer than I had announced, I therefore lost the rights to that space.  She also told me I couldn't use her parking space instead, as she was using it for storage. Went to the building admin, who said he'd talked to her. He did, and came back shaking his head. Nothing. I sent a registered letter telling her to stop using my space, and giving her 48 hours to take her car elsewhere. The next day I saw the unopened letter in the garbage bin beside the mailboxes. I ended up scouting my garage, waiting for her to leave, and would immediately park my car, hoping she'd take the hint. She didn't, and we ended up doing this dance for a few weeks. Up until the day I came back to see my entire driver's side keyed. That was the final straw. I talked to a friend, who owns a towing company. We chose a Saturday morning, the last few weeks she hadn't left home on Saturdays. I knew this as I had been watching her car like a hawk, so I thought we'd have big chances of her not noticing anything until everything was done, and towed her car. The plan initially was to leave the car just down the road. But that felt too close and too easy. Then I thought about leaving it in a city about 15 minutes away, but it still didn't feel quite right. My friend jokingly said, let's leave it in Madrid. FYI, Madrid is in Spain, about 600 kilometers or 375 miles away. I knew he was joking, but Madrid did feel right. I asked if he had enough time. He had, so off we went. Once we got to Madrid we went out for lunch, strolled around the city, and waited until it got dark and the streets were empty. In the meantime we had already decided on where to leave the car, a handicapped parking close to a police station. And so we did. As a bonus, my friend also took both license plates off the car. Then we drove back home. It has been two weeks, and I haven't seen her car since. One of these days I might leave a letter in her mailbox telling her to contact Madrid police, but in the meantime I'll enjoy being able to use my parking whenever I want to. This happened in the summer of 1974, when I was 4 years old. When I was a kid, we had a next door neighbor who was a total Karen. Karen was a 40-something woman who liked high heels, big jewelry, lots of makeup and wore long, flowy kaftans and garish colors that did not flatter her. She had a big perm, remember, it's the 70s, a huge booty and was notorious in our neighborhood for being entitled. Her favorite thing was to go onto neighbors' grounds, either early in the morning or late at night, and steal decorations and potted plants, which she would then put in her back garden. I'm not joking or exaggerating, she would actually do this. She once even dug up someone's small tree out of their front yard, because, according to the neighbor, she felt it would look better in her garden. For the most part, she left my family alone. My family has a take-no-do reputation in the neighborhood and she knew it. It was common knowledge that she hated kids. She only glared at me and my siblings, when we played outside. Sadly, that didn't last. One day, one of my sisters got badly sliced by a long nail, when she went to pick flowers off the passion flower vine on the fence, important later. Turned out Karen had hammered dozens of long nails into our fence, so she could hang potted plants, she'd most likely had stolen. The leaves on the vine had hidden the nails, until my sister got sliced.  Mom was fuming, so she went out and actually spent the rest of the day hammering each and every nail back out, through the fence and back into Karen's garden, causing many of the pots to fall and break. This is probably why Karen did, what she did next. About a month later, my mom goes into our kitchen and sees a man in our yard. She goes out and asked, What are you doing? This guy told her he was a gardener and had been hired to get rid of the vine on the fence. Mom asked him who had hired him to do this. Apparently it was the owner of the fence he told her, and gestured to Karen's house. Mom told him, calmly, since none of this was his fault, that it wasn't Karen's fence and she was the owner herself. The poor guy was horrified. However, the damage was done. He'd already cut into the hard wood and roots and now our vine was dead. After the poor guy left, Karen also didn't pay him, we found out later. Mom went to Karen's house and confronted her. Karen didn't even deny it, just laughed in my mom's face and said, I did it, so what? It's not like you can do anything about it. Then sauntered back into her house. She just messed with the wrong family. Two days later, Karen went on a two week vacation with her husband, he wasn't a nice guy. Revenge time. The day she left, my older siblings, along with a family friend, decided Karen's back garden needed improvements. So they climbed the fence, went into her garden, dug up all the pretty flowers and small trees, carted them out, along with the stolen decorations. And replaced them with high pollen weeds, quick growing ivy and lots and lots of poison oak and poison ivy, that they dug up from a nearby state park, I was too young to help with this part, sadly. We then temporarily moved our three dogs into our backyard, neighbor was afraid of them despite the fact they were two Pomeranians and a small mud. We also had a nine feet fence, which was too high for her or her husband's big booties to climb, so we knew our garden would be safe from her. My family excitedly waited. When Karen got back, and saw her new and improved garden, she threw the biggest, most epic tantrum and meltdown we'd ever seen. It was most spectacular. A whole class of sugared up, angry preschoolers couldn't have thrown a bigger tantrum. My dad took the day off to see the freak out, as he put it. From the top of the fence, we all watched as Karen screamed and ranted, pulled her hair, kicked the weeds and threw anything she could get her hands on, all the while cussing and screeching like she was getting a chili powder enema. Then she spotted all of us watching her. She yelled and cursed at all us kids, while coming to the conclusion we had done this to her precious garden. By this time, all the surrounding neighbors were also watching, but she of course zeroed in on us.  Karen then demanded my family to not only pull all those ugly plants out, and two, of course, pay for new ones and plant them. And to do it now. Right now. Our mom just looked at her, yawned, told her she had zero proof it was her kids who'd done it. Mom knew, even sat and watched with me as my siblings did it, laughing the whole time. I think at one point my dad even helped. Mom then reminded her she had stolen dozens of plants from the neighbors, had been caught blatantly stealing from their front gardens, yet was surprised that someone had retaliated. Mom laughed, told her to bug her off and went back inside. She ranted at us through the door for about an hour, till her voice gave out, then stomped back to her house.  Mom would just smile, give her the finger, and go about her business. She was intimidated by my dad and wouldn't do anything when he was around, but dad worked a lot, so wasn't there most of the time. We donated most of the dugup plants to neighbors she'd stolen from and returned the stolen ornaments and decorations to their rightful owners. We kept two rose bushes, which we planted by our back gate, a ceramic hearth cat and a glass and metal sun god decoration nobody claimed. Karen never did get rid of all the weeds and didn't realize it was poison oak she was pulling bare-handed, until she, and her husband, got horrible rashes over one third of their bodies and, I was told, in some very unfortunate places. Life in the neighborhood became better in the long term, since from then on, no plants or decorations were ever stolen again. This story is about me and Gita. I am Indian guy in my 20s, strongly believed in individualism and equality, currently in university. Gita is probably under 24 and a clerk in a government bank. Which is a good job to have in India. She's my neighbor, we both live with our parents. We've been neighbors for around eight years. We all get along just fine. We both are lower economical to middle class and socially from upper class. Both our parents are liberal in Indian sense, but in western standards they are very conservative, you can say this for the majority of Indian parents. Here comes the story, I had to deposit $110 in the bank. This is a large amount of cash for a lower middle class Indian as myself. I am sort of lazy and didn't wanted to wait in queues in the bank, Gita worked in the same bank. So I thought, I will give her the money and she will deposit that in my account. I went to her house at 7am and called for her mother. She opened the gate, it turned out that her elder brother of 28 and parents went to the temple. I told her why I came and asked for her help. She accepted the money and told me that she would keep the hard cash and will transfer the money from her account the next day. This seemed fine by me. I waited for two weeks. Money was still not deposited. I asked her about this several times, mainly from WhatsApp, but she just made excuses. After three weeks, I went to her house and asked her to give the money instantly. I threatened her that I will tell her parents. After hearing that she said, what proof you have that you gave me the money.  That was it. I became stiff as stone, my whole body became too heavy suddenly. I really had no proof and I had texted her several times saying, money hadn't been deposited yet or asking her when she was planning on depositing the money. Now before any of you Western folks say that I exaggerated in this situation, you have to view the situation through an innocent Indian person. India is basically Middle East in terms of sexy time topics and personal space. The famous two finger tests are made illegal recently in 2021. Also, men can't be violated in the eyes of the law. India has a national problem and this is one of the reasons of false accusations problem too. I've heard many false harassment and molestation accusation cases and personally even witnessed this with my distant cousin. He was in a dispute with his neighbor over some land, but ended up being charged with sexual harassment during all this. His neighbor simply used his beautiful clerk employee to charge him with a false sexual harassment case. Both my cousin and his neighbor had to bribe the police to let this case go. Back to the story, I hadn't talked to her again after that, but I had a plan to get my revenge.  This was done very secretively. She had to do it in a shady way, because it's seen as a moral for a man to drink alcohol, but it's seen as 10 times worse if a woman does it. I also found out she had a boyfriend, with whom she'd spend half an hour every Saturday's evening, at a park which is on the other side in the town.  I photographed her buying alcohol and them being together. First Saturday, July 2019, on my way to the park, I found a police SUV a mile away from the park. I thought it would be time to get this plan a step further. I told them about a couple that are doing obscene stuff together in the park. The police officer didn't want to hear it. I knew I had to pay him, so I gave him $25 and he agreed to go. The park Gita used to go to, was famous for unmarried couples. So on every Valentine's Day, the police used to harass the couples there, to squeeze money out of them. On reaching there, I told him the spot and began to watch the situation from distance, I wasn't able to hear them but the view was clear. Gita and her boyfriend were neither kissing nor hugging, they were just talking in the bench that time.  It appeared that her boyfriend refused to give his parents number. In India, if the police caught an unmarried couple under 30, they demand the victim's parents' numbers. The whole drama went on for 20 minutes. Both even fall on police's feet. At last they had to give some money to the police to bribe him. Both looked pretty terrified that day. Next month, I printed out the images I had of her buying alcohol and being with her boyfriend. I printed every image 10 fold. Why you might ask? Because there are 10 main houses in the neighborhood, including mine.  I woke up at 4 AM, delivered these images to all the houses and went back to sleep. I woke up with loud noises coming from Gita's house.  I am pretty sure her brother slapped her a few times. Her mother was calling her bad names like Randy, I let you fill in what it means. Her father was not in the house that day. I asked my mother about the situation and she told me to stay away from Gita.  In the last month, she was forced to stay in the house by her parents. The whole neighborhood was disgusted by her even more so when it turned out, her boyfriend was from a lower class than they are, which fueled the rage even more. Her parents charged Gita's boyfriend for blackmailing them, which caused her boyfriend to spend a few days in jail, but he was released after a week. Her parents are trying to arrange a marriage for her now. She also needed to stitch her lips, because her brother literally cut her upper lips in half. A more recent update, she will be married on next year and she started going to the bank again. I still haven't got the money back though. All right, story begins a few years back. My mom and I made most of the important decisions for the house, which only included us and my brother at the time, and my brother can't even do his school work, so he got dragged along for the ride. At the time, we were deciding where to move, as our current place was expensive and terrible, and I hated the school district. I voiced this to my mom, and we immediately left that district for a lower rent place, as my brother didn't like the district any more than I did. And all was well. For like, the first week.  Only one really needs a name, so I'll refer to him as Roger. And Roger was a dimwit. Our first interaction with him was in parking in our parking space. Something that would become a frequent occurrence for him and his friends to do. This was a pretty big issue, because the only other parking we could realistically use was three blocks away.  This added up over time, so I decided to retaliate against them, first, in a small way. At the time, we were still thinking it would stop, so I did something small. I told my friend to park next to our spot and give our neighbors a taste of no parking. This didn't end well. Roger parked his car in and immediately threatened him with physical violence. My friend told him he wasn't local and if he let him out, he'd be on his way. After I told my mom about this, she insisted that this was the last straw. Our landlord wasn't doing do-do to preserve our parking and our neighbors were threatening us with physical violence. Well what are we gonna do? I asked my mom. We're gonna run the lease up, and call some friends, she replied. And call some friends we did.  Anytime we saw him, we would just smile and wave. He never knew we were behind any of this. My mom contacted one of her friends, who was a sheriff. He mentioned he knew of narcotics getting, allegedly, passed around in our neighborhood, but didn't know who was doing it. He told her if we got enough evidence, they could stake out his house to grab more, and eventually, that might lead to roping him in. Busting him with a drug dealer? That'd be sweet. We'd finally have parking back. So we set out to collect any and every piece of evidence we could. Audio of him screaming? Recorded. We'd smell through the walls? Times and locations written down. People parking in our spots? License plates noted down. I set up a camera to automatically record them coming and going. We had a thick book of a paper trail on when and what this guy did in his house. About 10 months into this, my mom left me out of the loop. Still not sure why, but as I understand it, my logging of license plates immediately lined up, and we found out Roger was the prick dealing narcotics. Half of the license plates we had noted down had led to arrests and searchings which resulted in narcotic findings. The cops were confident now, they had their guy and just needed a bit more evidence on him. Just four days before we were to move out, it happened. Six law enforcement cars swarmed his perimeter. Four of which were police cars, two of which were from child protective services. I saw the door get kicked down, the guy get dragged out in cuffs, along with his wife, and three kids removed from the household and driven in the other direction. To this day, nobody except my mom's sheriff friend, who was very thankful, knew of her involvement, and according to him, the guy got quite a few years and won't see those kids again. 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