Course in Miracles Live and today we're on Workbook Lesson 52. It's a review lesson, but I think today is a good day for us to go on a deep dive. Of course, Miracles Live and we go on a deep dive. We're going to go very, very deep in this session today. It may be a little bit longer, but let's go. We're going deep sea fishing for the Christ within, the kingdom of heaven within, the kingdom of God within. Jesus taught us low. It is here. The kingdom of heaven is at hand and the kingdom of heaven is now. So what's stopping us from the deep dive into the kingdom of heaven? Really nothing. Nothing. There must be ego clouds that are like puffs of nothingness that you can drop beneath anytime you want when you sink deep within to your prayer, deep within to your meditation, the stillness of God's love. So let's take a deep dive together with the workbook lesson for today, 52, the review lesson. And then let's jump into the text to go deeper, still, and then deeper, still, and then even deeper, still, hold on to your hat because linear time is going bye-bye. Okay, lesson 52. Today's review covers these ideas. I am upset because I see what is not there. Reality is never frightening. It is impossible that it could upset me. Reality brings only perfect peace. When I am upset, it is always because I have replaced reality with illusions I made up. The illusions are upsetting because I have given them reality and thus regard reality as an illusion. Nothing in God's creation is affected in any way by this confusion of mine. I am always upset by nothing. Okay, I see only the past. As I look about, I condemn the world I look upon. I call this seeing. I hold the past against everyone and everything, making them my enemies. When I have forgiven myself and remembered who I am, I will bless everyone and everything I see. There will be no past and therefore no enemies, and I will look with love on all that I have failed to see before. See only the past. It is like looking at a motion picture that has already been filmed and it is a horror show. It is a linear horror show and this is the past. It has been filmed. The movie is literally over and done. If I try to break it apart, judge it, figure it out, analyze it, moralize it, try to make certain things positive and certain things negative, it is just denying that it is over and gone. It is that I see only the past. Perception, linear perception is the past and there is nothing you can do to change it. You can just observe it, calmly watch it with Jesus with the Holy Spirit and realize that you have no control over it. As Jesus teaches us in the beyond the idle section of the text, you have no control over the world you see. The previous reminder there was I am upset because I see what is not there. It is a hallucination but there is no point in trying to make the hallucination real, making the error real. Ego, Satan, sin, whatever you want to call it, error has been corrected by the Holy Spirit and we want to accept the correction but first we have to see an error as an error. We have to see a mistake as a mistake. You don't take it on, you don't have to own it because if you try to own the mistake or own the error then you feel guilty. That's not the goal. The goal is inner peace, the goal is the kingdom of heaven, the goal is alignment with God. It is not in harboring grievances and mistakes and errors but in letting them go. So our second reminder was I see only the past. My mind is preoccupied with past thoughts. I see only my own thoughts and my mind is preoccupied with the past. What then can I see as it is? Let me remember that I look on the past to prevent the present from dawning on my mind. Let me understand that I am trying to use time against God. Let me learn to give the past away realizing that in doing so I am giving up nothing. I see only my own thoughts and my mind is preoccupied with the past. So it's a past thinking problem. Let's pull it off the world. It has nothing to do with people, it has nothing to do with places, situations, issues in the world. It has nothing to do with anything in time and space. The problem is my mind is preoccupied with past thoughts. I still think the past is present and when I try to justify these erroneous ego thoughts I am just trying to justify the false identity, the false self-concept that the ego made. The false self-image, you know, Miguel Ruiz, you know, remember the four agreements, one of them was don't take anything personally. The only way you can really not take anything personally is to realize that it's only been a preoccupation with past thoughts that has been the addiction. It's not the addiction to food and drugs and alcohol, it's not the addiction to money and shopping, it's not the addiction to ambition and worldly pride. It's the addiction to the past. It's like reliving. Jesus says history would not exist if you didn't keep making the same mistake in the present and these past thoughts are just covering over the present moment. He says in there, let me remember that I look on the past to prevent the present from dawning on my mind. That's why we have to first come to an admission that my mind is preoccupied with past thoughts because the past offers nothing and when I learn to give the past away he's realizing that in doing so and so doing I am giving up nothing. The past offers nothing. What about nostalgia? No, it offers nothing. The present moment offers everything. The present moment is our power of now, as Eckhart tells us. The present moment is the presence of God, the presence of love, the presence of joy and peace and happiness. The past offers nothing, nada, nada, nada. Again, let me learn to give the past away realizing that in doing so I am giving up nothing. I see nothing as it is now. If I see nothing as it is now, it can truly be said that I see nothing. I perceive nothing. Okay, I can see only what is now. The choice is not whether to see the past or the present. The choice is merely whether to see or not. What I have chosen to see has cost me vision. Now I would choose again that I may see. So the perceptual world is blindness. Jesus told us that when we're thinking of the past and the future, linear time, our mind is actually blank. When we think we're seeing with our physical eyes, we're not seeing it all. That's like being in pitch black darkness and thinking you can see. That's not the truth. It's a world of darkness. It's a world that was projected from the ego. There is no seeing in the projected world. There is no seeing with the five senses. There is no actual perceiving that relates to Christ's vision. And Christ's vision is, let that not be single. Let's have a single purpose and see with the vision of Christ. See the light. Be the light. Be the bringer of the light. Shine the light. Extend the light. Yeah, I see nothing as it is now. He's basically saying, I'm not going to give faith to the five senses. I'm not going to give faith to what seems to be the material world. As our beautiful beloved sister Mary Baker Eddy said, there is no mind in matter. There is no life, truth, substance, or intelligence in matter. And so I'm not really seeing anything if I'm beholding linear matter. It's a linear trick. I just watched a couple of days ago a new movie that came out on Netflix. It was called Einstein and the Bomb. And the whole movie is nothing but the words of Albert Einstein, the words that he spoke, the words that he wrote. The movie contains nothing but the actual words of Einstein, spoken by the actor who's playing Einstein and Einstein and the Bomb. The beautiful thing is, he said, past, present, and future is just an illusion. I see nothing as it is now. Thank you, Albert, for corroborating, for confirming the beautiful teachings of Jesus. Yes, the material world, past, present, and future is an illusion. Very good. Okay. And my thoughts do not mean anything. I have no private thoughts. Yet it is only private thoughts of which I am aware. What can these thoughts mean? They do not exist. And so they mean nothing. Yet my mind is part of creation and part of its creator. Would I not rather join the thinking of the universe than to obscure all that is really mine with my pitiful and meaningless private thoughts? Okay, there we go. My thoughts do not mean anything. Some of you have been following along for years know that you just have two guidelines in our community. No private thoughts and no people pleasing. So I get a lot of questions on that. What does it mean, no private thoughts, no people pleasing? Okay. Wow, here we are in the fifth part of the review of Lesson 52. Here's what Jesus has to say, I have no private thoughts. In other words, only the thoughts I think with God have any reality. Only the thoughts, I am one with my creator, I am one with my source, I am spirit. My mind holds only what I think with God. These are beautiful teachings from Jesus and they're basically saying, I have no private thoughts. Any thought that I believe that can be private or secret or hidden is not a real thought because only the ego hides and has secrets and avoids the thoughts because they're believed to be true. But Jesus is saying right here in the first sentence of this number five review, I have no private thoughts, yet it is only private thoughts of which I am aware. So basically he's telling us, in reality, you can't have private thoughts. God doesn't have secrets, Christ has no secrets. Who you are as the living Christ can have no secrets. So you have to first come to an admission. This is what the undoing and unwinding is about, I have no private thoughts. So when we go back to the guidelines, no private thoughts and no people pleasing, it's not saying that you shouldn't have private thoughts. It's going into the reality, the actual reality, the truth of I have no private thoughts. If I think I have private thoughts and secrets, that means I'm not really thinking because if I'm trying to think apart from my creator, I'm trying to think the impossible. And if I try to think the impossible, I seem to experience guilt because guilt is an impossible emotion in truth.  Spirit is a reality, spirit is a fact. But if I think I can have private thoughts apart from the thoughts I think with God, that is not possible. Only the thoughts of love can be shared. Only the thoughts of joy and happiness and peace can be shared. Only the thoughts of God can be shared. And if I think I can have private thoughts, then it means I believe I can have a private world that's different from heaven, a private world. But here we go. Jesus is saying, no, no, you don't have a private world because you have no private thoughts. Yet it is only private thoughts of which I'm aware. That's where the projected private world of the ego comes in. What can these thoughts mean? They do not exist and so they mean nothing. This is also what we mean by no people pleasing. Why would you try to please others when you start to realize that your mind is one with God and there are no others in this mind? Divine mind, spirit, is one. And there is no multiplicity in this, there's no duality in this. What can these thoughts mean, Jesus is saying? They do not exist and so they mean nothing. So all attempts to think with private thoughts and have a private mind and have secrets and have basically things that are hidden, that's just the beliefs in the ego, it's the beliefs in an unconscious mind, and Jesus is saying, here, try this one on, would I not rather join the thinking of the universe, thinking with God than to obscure all that is really mind, spirit, love, God's will, with my pitiful and meaningless private thoughts. So that's why we say, expose the ego and release it, expose the ego's emotions and release them, expose the ego's thoughts, grievances, judgments, anything that's being harbored that is judgmental in any way. No, I would rather accept the atonement, the correction then hold on to these pitiful and meaningless private thoughts. Why would I try to think apart from God when it's so much easier and natural to think with God? It's easier to love than to hate. It's easier to forgive and release the world than to try to cling to a false image and false thoughts and false concepts. So beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. You can see these reviews, this is really basically saying, I'm not upset because of something that's in the world, I'm upset because I'm holding on to meaningless thoughts, the private thoughts, they're the past and bottom line, if I hold on to past thoughts and past associations, I can't know the innocence of the present moment. But if I let go of these, I really, really let go then the present moment is there to truly see, truly experience. It's an invitation, it's a big invitation to be present, to be fully, fully, fully present. So back up, what have we got to back us up today for our journey to the present moment? Well, we're going to take a little trip through parts of the text to clarify this journey to the present moment. We're going to start off with chapter 17 and section three called Shadows of the Past. Then we're going to roll into chapter 18, section seven, I Need to Do Nothing. And finally we're going to chapter 28, The Undoing of Fear, and the first section is the present memory. So we have to first look at our shadows of the past, then we have to realize that they don't offer anything, that I need to do nothing but sink into the love in the kingdom of God within. And finally, realize that the present moment offers everything, and when I'm present I have an allowance to accept everything exactly as it is, because I'm dropping deep down in my mind in a light and I'm not going to be trying to make distinctions among the shadows. The shadows are the past. The past is gone. The present is here and now, it's free, it's joyful. We're going to take a trip. Okay. Shadows of the Past from chapter 17, section three. To forgive is merely to remember only the loving thoughts you gave in the past and those that were given you. All the rest must be forgotten. Forgiveness is a selective remembering based not on your selection, for the shadow figures you would make immortal are the enemies of reality. Be willing to forgive the Son of God for what He did not do. The shadow figures are the witnesses you bring with you to demonstrate He did what He did not. Because you bring them, you will hear them. And you who keep them by your own selection do not understand how they came into your mind and what their purpose is. They represent the evil that you think was done to you. You bring them with you only that you may return evil for evil, hoping that their witness will enable you to think guiltily of another and not harm yourself. They speak so clearly for the separation that no one not obsessed with keeping separation could hear them. They offer you the reasons why you should enter into unholy alliances to support the ego's goals and make your relationships the witness to its power. Okay, shadows of the past, it's just saying that thoughts that you hold on to of the past and thoughts that you project from the past into the future, those are keeping you from the now. The regrets, the grievances, the judgments, the secrets from the past that have been harbored and held dear in the mind, in the unconscious mind are projected out and you see them as people places things, situations that are still haunting. But they're shadows of the past and we just learned from Jesus we have to be willing to see that we perceive only the past and these past perceptions are coming from past thoughts and Jesus is saying, let them go. Let the shadows of the past go. They are not who you are. They can touch you not. They have no reality. They were made by the ego to cover over an obscure reality which is love and light and we have to see these thoughts, these past thoughts and past associations are not going to bring us peace. Why would we invest in the past when Jesus is clearly saying it's an addiction to believe in linear time and it's a great release to let go of the belief in linear time and be still. We remember that from the Bible, be still and know that I'm God. Be still in the present moment and in that stillness know your creator and know your identity. Second paragraph, it is these shadow figures that would make the ego holy in your sight and teach you what you do to keep it safe is really love. The shadow figures always speak for vengeance and all relationships into which they enter are totally insane. Without exception, these relationships have as their purpose the exclusion of truth about the other end of yourself, the exclusion of spirit. This is why you see in both what is not there and make of both the slaves of vengeance and why whatever reminds you of your past grievances attracts you and seems to go by the name of love no matter how distorted the associations by which you arrive at the connection may be. And finally, why all such relationships become attempts at union through the body for only bodies can be seen as means for vengeance. That bodies are central to all unholy relationships is evident. Your own experience has taught you this, but what you may not realize are all the reasons that go to make the relationship unholy. For unholiness seeks to reinforce itself as holiness does by gathering to itself what it proceeds is like itself. So in this section, the shadows of the past, basically Jesus is saying your reality is spirit. But when you believe in the past, you believe in guilt. When you believe in guilt, you draw forth reflections of that emotion. And then you have what you say great difficulty with relationships because of the guilt that is reflected back. But Jesus is saying these past thoughts and past associations have nothing to do with the kingdom of heaven, nothing to do with the present moment, nothing to do with with the peace of God or the grace of God that's offered this very holy instant. It's just something to realize that if you put evidence and creed into these shadows of the past, if you invest in them, if you believe in the reality of the shadows of the past, then you won't know who you are right now. And the whole point of everything is to wake up to the Christ right now. And that's what this is about. So we move on now to chapter 18. Maybe we can get some clarity on how to move on from these shadows of the past. This is chapter 18, section 7, called I Need to Do Nothing. You still have too much faith in the body as the source of strength. What plans do you make that do not involve its comfort or protection or enjoyment in some way? This makes the body an end and not a means in your interpretation. And this always means you still find sin attractive. No one accepts atonement for himself who still accepts sin as his goal. You have thus not met your one responsibility. Atonement is not welcomed by those who prefer pain and destruction. There is one thing that you have never done. You have not utterly forgotten the body. It has perhaps faded at times from your sight, but it has not yet completely disappeared. You are not asked to let this happen for more than an instant, yet it is in this instant that the miracle of atonement happens. Afterwards, you will still see the body again, but never quite the same. And every instant that you spend without awareness of it gives you a different view of it when you return. At no single instant does the body exist at all. It is always remembered or anticipated, past, future. It is always remembered or anticipated, but never experienced just now. Only its past and future make it seem real. Time controls it entirely, for sin is never holy in the present. In any single instant, the attraction of guilt would be experienced as pain and nothing else, and would be avoided. It has no attraction now. Its whole attraction is imaginary and therefore must be thought of in the past or in the future. So basically, in this section, I need to do nothing. Jesus is basically saying, it's a time addiction. And a concretized symbol of this belief in linear time, past and future, is the body. Yet, at no single instant does the body exist at all. It's only remembered and anticipated. It's only a time addiction that makes the body identity seem real. It's taking on a belief in time, but time and eternity cannot coexist. One has to be real and one has to be false. The eternity is the reality that Jesus talked about in the review section today in the workbook. And the belief in linear time is the false identity. But if you believe in the false identity of linear time, then you obscure the awareness of reality, of eternity. So this is where we're going. This is mysticism. This is mysticism. This is not a course in play of ideas. This is not a course in clinging to the body identity and clinging to the past and clinging to ambitions of the future. This is not a course in material abundance, because abundance is spirit. And spirit is now. The present moment, as Jesus says, the closest approximation of eternity that this world offers. So that's what our deep dive is. We're diving into the awareness of now. Isn't this what Eckhart Tolle has been teaching as well for these decades? The presence, practicing the presence, the now moment, the power of now. The everythingness of now. Even my little bracelet just says, isness. All I have to do is look down at my bracelet, isness. The little white cubes with the letters in black, isness. So if this moment is my point of power, this moment is my point of recognition, my point of realization, remembering the Christ, remembering the Creator, then this moment offers everything. And the past associations, including the identification with the body, offer nothing. Okay, then let's move to chapter 28, the undoing of fear. I talked yesterday about, yeah, let's look at these early lessons, review. This is an undoing. I looked up the word undoing. Undoing the ego, undoing false beliefs, undoing attack thoughts, undoing linear time. And this is titled, The Present Memory. Here we go. This is the point. When somebody says, what's the point of all this mind training? The present memory is the point. It's our point of power. The miracle does nothing. All it does is to undo. And thus it cancels out the interference to what has been done. It does not add, but merely takes away. And what it takes away is long since gone. But being kept in memory appears to have immediate effects. So it's a memory problem. We need the present memory instead of the past memory. We need to use a skill that was made up during this separation memory and realize it can be used by the Holy Spirit to remember the present. Forget the past. Forget about it. Forget the past. Forget the future. Forget about it. What? What about my ambitions? You have no ambitions. You're the Christ.  What about the future plans? No. Do not attempt to activate the past, organize the present, or plan the future, like he tells us in workbook lesson 135. It's coming to the present memory. This world was over long ago. The thoughts that made it are no longer in the mind that thought of them and loved them for a little while. The miracle but shows the past is gone. And what has truly gone has no effects. Remembering a cause can but produce illusions of its presence, not effects. All the effects of guilt are here no more. For guilt is over in its passing when its consequences left without a cause. Why would you cling to it in memory if you did not desire its effects? Remembering is as selective as perception being its past tense. That's a good one. Remembering is as selective as perception being its past tense. Do I want wrong minded perception, the past? Or do I want right minded perception, the forgiven world, the happy dream, the miracle, which will be, am I going to hear the voice for God, for God, the Holy Spirit, or the voice for the ego? Which one? Lover fear. Which one will I hear? I choose to hear God's voice. It's a matter of choice.  And like all the things you made, it can be used to serve another purpose and to be the means for something else. It can be used to heal and not to hurt if you so wish it be. Nothing employed for healing represents an effort to do anything at all. It is a recognition that you have no needs, which mean that something must be done. There it is. The illusion of scarcity, lack, all the ego belief in lack is what generates the belief that you have to do something. That's what generates the body identity, the doer. People have said, instead of thinking of yourself as a human doing, you should focus on the being. The being is the present moment. The being is the spirit. The being is the vastness, the eternity. Doing is always coming from a belief in lack. And yet he says, nothing employed for healing represents an effort to do anything at all. Just let healing be. It is a recognition that you have no needs, which mean that something must be done. Why act out of a sense of lack? Why act out of a sense of need? As you extend the miracle, as you shine the light, as you extend the joy, then that is a sense of true abundance in spirit. That's a sense of true fulfillment, true joy, glee, happiness. That's a reflection of the reality of the kingdom of heaven, the kingdom of God within. It is an unselected memory that is not used to interfere with truth. All things the Holy Spirit can employ for healing have been given to you without the content and the purposes for which they have been made. All the images of the world were made in hatred. The world was made in hate. But when they're given over to the Holy Spirit, then they're without the content and the purposes for which they have been made, without the past, then things are just a blessing. Everything, all the images, all the words, everything becomes like a happy dance. It's like a happy song, because the Holy Spirit is the one in charge. Jesus has everything under Christ's control and it's a happy dance. It's a dance without pain. It's a dance without punishment. It's a dance without pursuing external goals and external outcomes. They are but skills without an application. They await their use. They have no dedication and no aim. So he's basically saying all the skills and ability that seem to be part of the person and the personality and the ego that were developed on an ego framework that were invented, that were made, all of them, they are but skills without an application waiting for the Holy Spirit to use them. They await their use by the Holy Spirit. They have no dedication and no aim until the Holy Spirit uses them for the happy dance, for the joyful, joyful, happy dream. The Holy Spirit is just able to use everything. It seems to be separate skills and abilities, but when they're in the swirl of the dance, everything is just joy and there's nothing separate, not even skills and abilities. It's just a happy harmony. It's a happy harmonious song is what it is. It's a happy dance. The Holy Spirit can indeed make use of memory for God himself is there. Yet this is not a memory of past events but only of a present state. You are so long accustomed to believe that memory holds only what is past, that it is hard for you to realize and it's a skill that can remember now. The limitations on remembering the world it poses on it are as vast as those that you let the world impose on you. There is no link of memory to the past. If you would have it there, then there it is. But only your desire made the link and only you have held it to a part of time where guilt appears to linger still. So he's basically saying, give over the belief in memory to the Holy Spirit and remember the present moment, remember the now. That's why Eckhart Tolle is always saying, remember the now, you are free now. You have no limitations now. You have no worries and concerns now. You can remember the power of now. The rest is not important. The rest is the past and the past is gone. Everything is here right now. paragraph five, the Holy Spirit's use of memory is quite apart from time. He does not seek to use it as a means to keep the past but rather as a way to let it go. Memory holds the message it receives and does what it is given to do. It does not write the message nor appoint what it is for. Like to the body, it is purposeless within itself. And if it seems to serve to cherish ancient hate and gives you pictures of injustices and hurts that you were saving, this is what you ask its message be and that it is. Committed to its vaults, vaults, the vaults of time, the vaults of memory, the vaults of shadows of the past. Committed to its vaults, the history of all the body's past is hidden there. All of the strange associations made to keep the past alive, the present dead are stored within it waiting your command that they be brought to you and lived again. It's like pulling from a pool of unconscious past shadows and saying, oh, here's some witnesses today, more bodies. Here's more, here's more. And Jesus is saying, practice the lessons at times close your eyes, at times open your eyes but let the Holy Spirit be what you're selecting. Choose the purpose of the Holy Spirit. Sentence nine there of paragraph five and thus do their effects appear to be increased by time which took away their cause. Yet time is but another phase of what does nothing. It works hand in hand with all the other attributes by which you seek to keep concealed the truth about yourself. Time neither takes away nor can restore. Sometimes people, an old adage, an old saying is time heals all wounds and Jesus is like, well, the Holy Spirit's use of time heals all wounds because you just let healing be. You don't have to actively try to do something with the body, you have to in your mind just let healing be because healing is. The ego has been corrected. The Holy Spirit corrected the ego, the instant it arose so just accept the correction. And yet you make strange use of it as if the past had caused the present which is but a consequence in which no change can be made possible because it's cause has gone. It's cause has gone. The ego has been solved. It's been answered. The Holy Spirit doesn't need time to answer the belief in separation from God. Zappo, one instant correction. The past, it's cause, the ego is gone. The ego is the past, the past is gone. Past is over, it can touch me not. Yet change must have a cause that will endure or else it will not last. No change can be made in the present if it's cause is past. Only the past is held in memory as you make use of it. And so it is a way to hold the past against the now.  The ego is a poor instructor. And who would keep a senseless lesson in his mind when he can learn and can preserve a better one? When ancient memories of hate appear, remember that their cause has gone. And so you cannot understand what they are for. If hatred arises, you have to let it go. And if you perceive the witnesses and the symbols of hatred, victimization, anger, harshness, you know, condemnation, just remember that their cause is gone. The ego has been corrected. And that cause for anger, victimization, fear, pain is gone. And then selectively choose the Holy Spirit. Let not the cause that you would give them now be what it was that made them what they were or seem to be. Be glad that it is gone for this is what you would be pardoned from. So it's basically saying that whatever you believe the Son of God did to you or didn't do that the Son of God should have done, that's all bodies. And bodies seem to do things and not do things, but spirit is not a doer. You know, there comes a point when you have to look at the past and just see it's gone. Everything you think you did positively, gone. Everything you think you did negatively, gone. Any false pride for positive achievements and accomplishments in linear time, they're gone. Any guilt that you have for anything you think you did wrong or mistakes that you made in the past with the body. Let's not blame the learning device, which is the body for wrong mindedness. Let's see that it's a decision in mind to align with the ego and Jesus is saying, it's the past, let it go. Let it go, it is gone. The ego has no present cause. The present moment is not caused by the past and the present moment does not cause the future. The past is gone, the future is but imagined. It's hypothetical. The world of time and space is hypothetical, which is what if separation was real? It's not real. So the hypotheticals of could have, would have, should have. If only I'd done this different. No, it's gone. It's gone. It's a future. What, I hope for this in the future. I hope for that now. It's imaginary. Imaginary dreams are not the present. I just watched a movie last night called Freud's last session where Freud comes together with a young C.S. Lewis and Freud's whole worldview is about linear time, guilt, shame, the body, unconscious mind, defense mechanisms and then C.S. Lewis who was an atheist like Freud, but basically went through experiences in the war, went through experiences with his father, his brother, Warner and different things and basically started to open up to God, to love, to light, to the present moment. It was a beautiful movie of exchange with a young C.S. Lewis talking about God is real and Freud going, no he isn't. But it was a beautiful journey and adventure. Freud was, this encounter will be very brief because Freud's worldview was, was that there is no God and here comes C.S. Lewis who's basically a former atheist who's like, God is real. But what reality is is love and light.  No, no, God has no favorites. That's a beautiful line from the Old Testament in the Bible. God has no favorites. And basically that's because God is pure love and pure light. And Freud of course is famous for his dreams, his teachings on dreams. Freud said that dreams were wish fulfillment and Jesus says exactly the same thing in A Course in Miracles that dreams, our fantasies, our wish fulfillments. But the wish is the ego's wish to be separate from God and God, the eternal God, the loving creator God that created the idea of Christ, perfect spirit, pure, untainted, untouched, innocent forever. The real God is light. So here we are, we're practicing our lessons today. I'm gonna run through them very briefly again because they're so good.  Never upset for the reason I think. I'm upset because I see something that's not there. I see only the past. My mind is preoccupied with past thoughts. Five, six, seven, eight. Ha ha, ego, five, six, seven, eight. No, the cause of anger, the cause of guilt, the cause of upset is not why I think I'm feeling those feelings. It's because I'm just preoccupied with past thoughts. So the five was from the previous review. Here we go, six, seven, eight, nine, 10. I'm upset because I see what is not there. I see only the past. My mind is preoccupied with past thoughts. I see nothing as it is now. My thoughts do not mean anything. This is the great undoing. This is the deep dive into mysticism. Does mysticism fit into any kind of box or category? Are there different kinds of mysticism? No. Are there different varieties of mysticism? No. A mystic is just devoted to God, devoted to love, devoted to happiness and joy. It's a state of devotion of the mind. It's a state of prayer. It's a state of single desire. It's a state of, I want nothing but you, God. And that is the healing. And the ego, of course, seems to be the resistance to all of that. The ego wants it to be the way it wants it to be. It's got preferences. It's got ambitions. It's got plans. It made up time. And now it's got plans for time. You know, it's the twang never shall meet. The holy instant is the solution. And the belief in linear time is the problem, because God didn't create linear time. So if you're trying to believe in something that God didn't create, that's like trying to go against God's will. Wait a minute, God's will is for perfect happiness. Wait a minute, that's pretty good. Sounds like C.S. Lewis introducing the idea of God and love to Freud and Freud's like, I don't buy it. But lively discussion, yeah. Lovely movie. Freud's last session. Nice encounter with C.S. Lewis and Freud's daughter Anna is very prominent in the movie as well. So have a wonderful day.  We're just bursting, bursting, bursting into the holy instant. We're starting to realize that the present moment truly offers everything that we want. And that's where the freedom is. That's where the innocence is. That's where the happiness and joy are. It's the present moment. So I am glad that we're reviewing this because it's another invitation to just stay present. As Eckerd often says, stay present. Stay in the now. Stay with what is. Don't focus your mind on what is not. Stay with what is. Let what is carry you. Lift your mind. Carry you all the way into the light of truth, of reality. God bless you. Enjoy the day. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful mind.


Good morning everyone and welcome. This is Melissa Arma with the stocks wash alone gonna review Netflix It's a huge huge huge call here this morning I've had some big calls in the last two weeks and this definitely again is one of them in the pre-market this morning I called two calls for this 490 495 and blue blue through this numbers ran right up to the target Which was 505 10 then I just called another one in this so needless to say I Really hit it again. I mean just a beautiful beautiful trade here I will do some videos this afternoon to get caught up of all the trades that I've been calling but this clearly clearly has a long way to run And has been basing out for a while. It's been on my watch list and when I saw it today I said today's the day today's the day it's gonna go show 520 525 530 535 I mean who knows at this point now. It's only 10 30 the market Is open until four o'clock And I have to say as well that the market is on this side It's on the side of netflix today in the target for the cues today is 290 So some nice nice moves here in this market And we just happen to capture them at the right the perfect place and again How do you make money in the market you train momentum the momentum has to be to the upside of the downside And you've got to be in the right direction in order to profit. How do I figure it out? I do it all in the pre-market. I saw this in the pre-market today said the trades out before the open You want to sign up for the options newsletter? You sign up? You get the trades email to you in the newsletter And if you want to do the day trains you must do the golden gap course to be in the day trade room And I call the trades live the entry the stop and the exit beautiful beautiful move in Netflix huge bar and Great job by me once again If you want to sign up for the golden gap course the next class is until the end of september But you can sign up ahead and then start to trade in the room If you want to sign up for the options newsletter, you can sign up for that as well It's 69 99 a year you get one year's worth of the newsletters and uh, man I mean just what a huge call so new people who just signed up It's been a big big last few weeks here for this letter Really excited about what fall trading brings. Good luck everyone. If you have any questions email me at melissathestockswish.com Have a great day


We parked right on the street, you feel what I'm saying? I don't, I don't even know. You know what I'm saying? I'm not even, I don't even know. Cause I'm going to Mother Pond, the truck we came in, we was parked on the other end. I don't even know, it's got them six, six lane freeway right there. You don't even, you don't even know that? I don't even know it.  Yeah, we on Boss Talk TV. Shout out to Ihi, the reason you see me. Okay, let's go to the night, as we know you already, we know you had to have your leg cut off because of the accident. That night, at the Cliff Club, you had a show, right? Me and love. You and love, oh, matter of fact. And, and, okay, so tell, kind of tell me what happened.  You feel what I'm saying? This was before your performance and everything. Yeah, this is before I left. Okay. I got the car before I got to the club. Yeah. You feel what I'm saying? But while I'm at the club, I got the news again. So now I'm trying to, I'm trying to mentally, hold this news in without letting my anger on somebody else. Yeah, yeah. You feel what I'm saying? And, you know, sometimes people don't understand. First thing in their mind is like, oh man, just I'm gonna grab a little bit of scoundrel in there.  Yeah, yeah, yeah.  We parked right on the street. You feel what I'm saying? I don't, I don't even know. You know what I'm saying? I'm not even, I don't even know cause I'm going to murder punitive. The truck we came in, we was parked on the other end. I don't even know it's got them six lane freeway right there. You don't even, you don't even know it. I don't even know it. I'm just, I'm just like, man fuck, man, man. Walk him by that, and then pow. And it happened just that fast. Yeah, but the car knocked me in the street. In the middle of the freeway. I get up. Pow! 56 70 mile ran over it. Wow, so let me answer this. Were you even on, were you on anything that just debunked that? Cause people are saying that you was on weed and you know that?  They got a thing like down there like that. I'm a real nigga. I would say that I was.  You feel what I'm saying? Yeah, but drinking, that's something we do. I had, aw, I had two drinks, but that one, you know what I'm saying? The news that I got would have made, the news I got would make, would make you like kitchen. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. You know what I'm saying? It pretty much was some news that pretty much you just, it just free rated you so much that you pretty much say it was like, it was like, it was like, look, what you gonna do about it? Yeah. You can either go over and get, you know what I'm saying?  Yeah. For this news, or you can just whoosh out. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? And so, if I tried to do was try to whoosh out. Yeah, yeah. You know what I'm saying? And so my partner, JB, who was standing there with me, Sam, he was hurt. Yeah, yeah. He told me that. JB, JB, he never been around me if I have an episode. You know what I'm saying? So, so, about him never been around me on an episode. He just like this. You feel me? Yeah. Like Sam like, nah, nigga. Nah, nigga, grab that neck, hold his arm, nigga. Make sure he's straight, nigga. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. And my other partner over there, he on the phone. You feel me? I'm saying so. Cause he never been with me with the episode. Sam, the only one that know, you feel me, out of this group that's with us. So, but he's near. So he can get over there by the eye. Bam, I never got hit one. Yeah. Bam, I get hit again. You know what I'm saying? So you got hit by the two different people? Two different people. Okay. It was him and Ron. You feel what I'm saying? So the people, they didn't even stop. They didn't stop. Both of them. Both of them? Both of them. But the good thing is, the one that's straight in my leg, you feel me? Shout out to the detectives. All the detectives, I don't want to say, I don't want to say their name. But Detective J, she really put it in words for me. She found a gun, right? She did. And the Chinese, they bombed. I bet. So she went and found the old bomber. My DNA was all over the bomb. Wow. You know what I'm saying? Wow. You know, the thing is, man, like, I just, like you hear all the stories, people say different things and everything. But that's not Japan's? Of course. That's for the thing. I definitely was trying to understand how to move forward when people keep pulling back. To me, it's not. They don't bother me. You know what? There's a flower in all their clothes. That's real. I'm talking about a flower as worse as mine. You know, they got bigger flowers than me. If they say what they want to say, I ain't nothing about it for nothing. Yeah, you said the people who do it all this chat, I got, everybody got something. I tell people all the time, I say if people start seeing what everybody dealing with, oh, we'll have an even plan for you. Yeah. If stuff starts falling out, you know I start trying to hide mine right here right now. For real. You'll be trying to hide yours. Because everybody got something. But the thing is, everybody want to look at everybody else's to try to keep attention of what they got. And guess what?  Oh, that's real. Do you got what I got? That's real. You feel what I'm saying? You know what I'm saying?  You know, I don't think people really, I know, I didn't understand like that you still would have issues where you would get into angry positions and then flip out to where it would trigger you to go back to a spot where you don't even know what happened. But I understood, as soon as I learned that, I understood it because of the people I've been around. So I know everybody's affected different. But see the more, you know what I'm saying? It's like the calmer, the calmer mind vibe. See, this is what I found out.   I thought we'd meet some Franky Bamblin' Megan. I'm good. I'm very cool. Cause with them, be on the scene, we got a lot of us got PTSD too. For sure. No, that's something that that's what I related to. You know what I'm saying? You know, mental health issues from, you look at many people, we not lost in the music industry. That I done lost. I was just talking about that. I got post trap syndrome. That's what I call it. Post trap syndrome. PTSD. Yeah. For real, I got post trap syndrome, man. No, I get it.  I'm like, am I gonna die today? Mm-hmm.  Yeah, we on Boss Talk TV. Shout out to Ihi, the reason you see.


Hello and welcome to NewsClick. Today we have with us Dr. Rajatnag Falberli, managing director general of ADB, Asia Development Bank and who is with us today to discuss what is happening to the currency wars which seem to be now going on in the world. Rajat, Ukraine has been an issue in the news but behind the scenes what has really been of interest to a lot of people is what is happening in the global currency market. Rubel fell very dramatically. It's again come up, reached almost parity with the dollar or where it was before the Ukraine war had started. But more than that, the fact that 300 billion dollars of Russian reserves were seized, essentially frozen. The Russian central bank is under sanctions. What does it mean for countries which maintain a currency surplus, foreign exchange surplus in other currencies, either in dollars, euros or whatever may be the combination? What happens to them? Does it mean the basis of international trade which assumes that even if I am holding money in your bank, it's really my money and that's what the basis of trade is? Is at risk if this thing happens? Well, in a sense, short answer is yes, because the whole premise of reserve currency and the predominance of the US dollar in the last century is predicated on, of course, the size and strength of the US economy, its stability, openness to trade, capital flows, etc. But much more fundamentally, the strong property rights and rule of law, which is assumed to be the case. And that is exactly as you said, you're holding my money, I give it to you in trust. I'll take it back when I want to, under conditions of the contract, whatever that is, maturity, etc. So you're absolutely correct. It does. Now, I think geopolitical issues like the one we see now, or as you were mentioning before, the show was being recorded in Afghanistan or Venezuela or Iran. Using economic sanctions of the type of global reserve currency, I think is against the fundamental spirit of this trust on which the international trade is based. And therefore, we can talk separately and later on in the show about the strength of the US dollar reserve currents, etc. But I think I for one have spoken very clearly on this issue that you cannot have it both ways. You cannot say, I am the repository of your trust, and in return for that trust, you put your money with me. And then when things go wrong, whichever be the reason, I'm not getting into complications and justification. Then you walk away from that trust. I think it's a very bad precedent. For instance, Afghanistan reserves with the US Treasury being seized. And then it was not only seized, but it was even given to 9-11 victims on which Afghanistan government or the state was never held responsible. And again, another 3.5 billion dollars I think was given to those who are going to send aid to Afghanistan without the consent of the Afghanistan government or whichever the Afghanistan central bank. As you said, Venezuela, gold was another example. But underlying what you said is the US currency strength is the convertibility aspect that I can hold it. My reserves in US dollars converted whenever I require, whatever I have needs of. And therefore, when I do trade and I give my goods to you, say, and you hold it in bank, it's really my money, not your money. And therefore, if you reach on transfer of that, it's really then taking back what you're supposed to have given in trade. That's a breach of faith. The issue that I'm going to raise with you, when now Russia asks money for rubles, gas, is it because of this, that if they give it in euros, as Putin says, this is like giving away gas free because you will hold that money and you don't have to give it back to me. I think there are two aspects to it. Why don't people trade in rubles or Indian rupees or much less of other currencies? I mean, it's still the bottom line is the US dollar is accounting for 96% of the trade, financial transactions and trade in the Americas. And overall, I think it's about 80% overall global trading. That's because of this confidence that you know that if I have a dollar, I can go and change it into Indian rupees or rubles anytime anywhere. Whereas if it's the other way around, I may or may not be able to. Okay, so that's the one side, which is the confidence. But the confidence is also on the supplier, which is the US saying, if you hold my dollar, I promise to honor this period, doesn't say if this, if that, if that. And to me, the two are very important. And the reality of course, and again, we'll talk about it later if you wish, or the strength of the US dollar as a reserve currency. You know, at the moment, if I remember my figures correctly, the US accounts for 20% of the global economy by the nominal GDP, and 60% of the international reserves are held in the US dollar. I already gave you the figures for the trade bank liabilities and international bank liabilities and claims are similarly of that of that figure. So it's one thing that is very predominant and therefore, of course, you know, confidence reach confident people say somebody's holding dollars, I'm better holding dollars rather than Indian rupees. But, and this is the point I think you're alluding to, I'm very sympathetic to countries outside the G7 area, start to do more intracurrency trade of their region and Saudi Arabia has started now for the first time, willing to accept and then be for oil. I think India is saying, you know, is willing to look at paying in other currencies. And I really think that's the only out. This is not anti US or a pro US or anti Russia pro Russia position. It is just safeguarding your own interest. And even if you have to pay a certain premium, that is, if you trade in rupees, I'll take a say 1% premium or half a percent premium. It may be worth it for countries, emerging countries to start thinking of those options at the moment, as you know, even the remnant be which people talk about the increasing Chinese strength accounts for less than 2% of the global trade. So we still have a long way to go quite frankly to challenge the US dollar as an international reserve currency or a trade currency. But to me, the recent events in Ukraine that you referred to are again a confirmation that the world has to start moving to a multi currency reserve or multi currency option. In a long term, if we look at the trends and you're right that the most transactions in the world are denominated in dollars, they're not in dollars in the sense between countries that I buy. That's what I'm saying. So they're denominated in because most countries think, OK, all our currencies are linked to the dollar. So if they're denominated in dollars, then we don't have to then compute what is our currency worth at any point of time. It's sort of benchmark to the dollar. That's why the denomination in dollars. I'm making a distinction between having trade settled in denominated in dollars or is there a transaction in dollars which can take place through US banks or it can even have between two central banks of the countries. So what I'm saying here is that I'm going to come back to the ruble Russia gas issue that denominated in dollars. Now, for instance, when you look at Russian oil that India is buying, the argument is we will do a rupee ruble exchange. Now, if you do a rupee ruble exchange, of course, what is it going to be benchmark to because rupee and ruble both are not convertible and they therefore can move at different rates. And therefore the argument benchmark it to the gold benchmark to yuan. The minute you benchmark to the dollar, you have a problem because US law says any transaction in dollars is under US law. And that extra territoriality of US law is the second problem of denominating any transaction in dollars. So it's not only the issue of why it is denominated in dollars, but denominated in dollars brings it under US law and US sanctions, not international sanctions is really the problem. So what's your question? My question is therefore it we could move to a mark while having trade in our currencies. We don't have to therefore look at only international, you know, finding immediate solution to international currencies, having alternative currency. You know, is going to have to be exactly along the lines you mentioned. I think what's happened in Ukraine is a wake up call once again for countries like India, because, you know, today you might be friends with, you know, the G seven tomorrow you may fall, you know, follow some of their views, and then you are vulnerable to exactly the sort of issues that talking about. So to me, you've got to work in parallel tracks. One is recognizing that this is an issue. Denominating in dollars, which then takes away the foreign exchange risks for, you know, countries such as India or Russia or whatever was a big help. I mean, so once you develop systems like that, it was good for international trade globalization was fueled by large part by this, you know, global currency, the US dollar has become, but if that confidence is being eroded, if not shattered, then I think countries are well advised to start thinking along the lines that we mentioned. Now, I think my other point is that having said that you've got to make sure that you realize the enormity of the predominance of the US dollar in the global trade scene, denominated or actually traded doesn't matter, the settlement will still go through the dollar. I'm good too. Yeah.  From an economic financial policy point of view, I think countries like India or China or Saudi Arabia or whoever need to start thinking of bilateral settlements and be prepared to pay a cost. I think the point is people forget that, okay, if I do it in Russia, rubles to rupees. So what, so what is exactly what you said they're not convertible. So you've got to pay a certain premium. My view has been and is and actually now I feel more strongly about it after the recent events that that's a price you might have to be willing to pay to avoid a crisis in the future when suddenly your reserves are frozen or not available. And you know, the other part of what you're saying, I think this is an interesting issue that if you take, for instance, 20 years back, 80% of the countries had major trade partner as the US today, it's not true. In fact, I think 80% of the countries have major trade partner as China. What US is extremely strong in still is basically the financial structure which they seem to still control the whole set of services which really are dollar denominated and also depend on say two centers of in the world, New York and London, the city of London, which seem to offer the major part of financial services, but when you talk of commodities goods, including intellectual goods, actual, you know, in that sense, which is a part of it is really services. Lot of that is no longer United States as it was dominant 50 years, 70 years back and as late as only 20 years back. So that shift is not reflected in the currency world, financial transaction world. And what you're saying is we should start looking at that shift also. For several years, certainly after the Asian financial crisis at the Asian Development Bank, we started very actively talk about regional financial markets exactly the point you made.  Why not Bangkok? Why not Hong Kong to certain extent is Tokyo certainly is but Bombay or Singapore are not. Now, as you probably know and might have mentioned this in my previous conversations with you. If somebody in Thailand wants to invest in laws across the border in Thai bars. Ironically, they have to go to City of London or New York today that financing so money goes from Thailand to London or New York and then back to the Indian and that is exactly why you need a regional financial market. As you know, Asians are very 50 and we save about 34% of our income. And yet we're short of funds. Why? Precisely because of the point that you mentioned the financial markets. So in a way the Americans have done it very smartly and have it both ways. Doesn't matter they're not trading as much as we said China is now the largest exporter even to the US. But the financial markets architecture is very, very US dollar denominated and dominated as well. And that still continues to be the case. Obviously, the Americans are not keen at all to see a regional financial market happen. They haven't been against it for a long time. But I think Asia, particularly Asia as it gets stronger economically in the center of gravity shifts to Asia. I think we have to start talking for creating regional financial markets, precisely for the reasons that you mentioned. Till we do that, it doesn't matter whether the trade is in goods or services. So long as you are settling in dollars, the dominance will continue. Will be there. So what if I may summarize my words, not yours, so you may disagree with what I'm summarizing. That the financial system today in the world has a disjunction with the production and the physical flow of goods and services. So what is happening is the financial control resting with the United States to a lesser extent with the city of London and maybe to some extent European Union. What's happening is though the production systems have shifted, the financial systems have not, permitting therefore weaponizing finance and the clearest case of weaponizing finance earlier, much earlier was Iran, was thought to be an outlier. Next we had Venezuela, we had Afghanistan, but this is a G7, G8 country. So what are the top economies of the world? To have this happen means that this kind of financial weaponization in this case weaponization of the dollar puts every country who disagrees with the United States on any issue at risk. So would you say that this physical and the financial systems are growing apart and they would at some point realign even if it takes a long time? I think, well I hope they're realign, I don't know quite frankly because though as I was saying that the Americans were very much against creating the Asian financial markets, Asian war markets. I have to be very frank and say Asian countries were not that keen either, not because they disagreed with the principles everyone said, we should not brilliant idea, this is after the Asian financial crisis. But and that but was my currency should be the prominent one whether the Chinese Yuan or Indian rupee. So unless Asia or rest of the world come together better than they do now, it will be a problem. But I don't see any other way precisely because of the risk of weaponizing or arbitrage, whatever you call it. And also because it's very unhealthy because the global system ultimately depends not on the sophistication of the computer systems and the bitcoins and all of that. It depends on a fundamental issue of trust. And that is why the dollar is what it is. And the last century, the previous one it was the British pound but in the history of the world only this switch has happened only once British pound to the US dollar. Now, will the US dollar be replaced? I think there are risks precisely for the reasons that we mentioned Europe, certainly Europe is now more dominant than the US dollar. And I think the other countries, particularly in Asia and I keep saying Asia, not because other countries are not important, but Asia is going to be predominantly the global powerhouse. And if it's the global powerhouse, it better start taking the financial systems as well into its domain of concern. At the moment I have to confess that I don't see much between the countries which really should, which is China, India, Japan, Korea. So while we obviously worry about what the US is doing or not and the G7, frankly, we've also put a mirror to ourselves that we ourselves in Asia are not stepping up to the plate. Two, two, makes two statements. One, historical question to you, we might look back and discuss it another day. Was Gilder probably was an international reserve currency for a period in the 16th, 17th century before the British pound? Because the Dutch were the first in that sense to do large-scale trade. But yeah, so this is probably the third time that we are looking at a change possibility. At that time I think probably the trade was more in gold, I mean, what sort of a gold standard? But you may write, the Dutch Gilder was certainly more. Yes, even the dollar in the initial phase of the Bretton Woods was a gold standard. It only went up gold standard in 1971 before that all currencies really accepted theoretically the gold standard. But the other part of it, and I think this is where my view would coincide with yours on this, is that ultimately it's not a question of the physical economy. It's not a question of the financial system. It's really a question of politics. And if there is no political will to do something, it won't happen. And what you pointed out is between the economic system of production which is moving away from the United States and the financial system which is still controlled by western powers, the lynchmen being of course the United States, and clearly its military strength, what really is the issue is do we have a political will to shift the financial systems of the world? And I think that's the crux of what we are seeing. So ultimately, yes, you're absolutely right. It is the political will of the countries that determine which way it goes. And what you said earlier, I think that's the point very well taken. This is a wake-up call once again that if we do not do this, then we are putting our economies at risk. Thank you very much, Rajat, for being with us. For once we have been agreeing much more than we have been disagreeing. So I think that's a first for us. Always a pleasure talking to you. Always a pleasure and all very stimulating. Thank you very much. This is all the time we have in our discussions on a very tricky issue, global currency, economy, finance, which none of us really understand. That's why we need people like Dr. Nark to explain some of these things to us. Please do keep watching, do click and please go to our website to follow up on the issues that we like to bring to you to explain what are the intricacies of these subjects.


This tree is really wobbly. Goodness. Perfect shot! Oh my god, deep dive. That was all over the place, dude. That was all over the place. Sick. Dude, I'm shaking so bad. I think I'm shaking as bad as you are. Dude, I arranged it like I'm shaking, man. That's the perfect shot. No, they perfect shot. That was the biggest, that's the biggest, the group shot. By far, dude. Not even close. We're at a different realm. It's a good deer to shake on. We're up here in this little spindly tree. Dude, leave my hand. The light is shaking. Dude, I'm shaking so bad. 30, 40, 35. 30, 40 years ago. That was a money shot. Did you see those two does that came in? I was like, oh no, because if they start looking up. I was glad you took your time and had a good shot. That deer is dead. That deer is dead for sure. I was a good shot. Yeah. My gosh, dude. I'm pumped. What a hunt, bro. What a hunt. Oh my god, it's asleep. Dude, I'm shaking so bad. It's going to be hard to get down out of this tree. That green arrow glowing, flying through the air and then passing through it. That's as good as it gets. You know, rage, deploy it and just whoop. That is a great sign. A moment I will never forget for the rest of my life. Me and Mike, up in that tree, the way Mike set this up, had a set up, filmed everything back and forth. I didn't think we were going to get it done there for about five minutes, but he came back and we got it done. So we're going to let him rest just a minute. Going to go get the four-wheeler. We're going to go find this guy, my biggest deer by far ever. By far. It's time for the search. I think he's going more this way. Yeah, he's going the right way. There you go. You're on it. There it is. I'm going to get some ticks, Mike. I don't know. Oh, yeah. Third blood. Look at this. Blood here. Right here. Right down here. Maybe he cut left. He had a little speck. Hold up. Hey, boys. Got him. Oh, here we go, y'all. Look at that buck right there, boys. Oh my goodness. What a gnarly dude, man. What do you think, buddy? It's awesome. Look at that, man. Probably got his lungs low shot. Wow. Wow. Look at this big, old, beautiful deer, man. That is awesome. Awesome deer. I was kind of worried. Were you worried? On that blood trail? It was a good shot, but yeah, the blood trail was slim. Holy cow. So this deer, how old do you think this deer is? Four years old? Probably five and a half. Five? Five and a half? Wow. Look at this over here, man.  What an awesome, awesome deer. Yes. Yes, Mike. Yes. I just got to stare at him for a little bit. That is a big, beautiful deer, man. That feels awesome when you get an old, mature animal like that. He's got some really unique qualities. So awesome. Yes. Probably broke it off in velvet. Would have been a nine. That is a good deer. What a cool deer, man. What a cool deer. Oh, that's awesome. Get his old back leg. All right. To make just an awesome shot on a big buck like that, it feels so amazing. We're about to get a great photo of this guy right here. We're setting him up. Hi, Cesar. We're going to drop my biggest deer I've ever shot off to some great sausage, back straps, all that stuff. It's going to be delicious, OSG. We're going to love it. And of course, guys, you know, this dude is going to have to go up into the tree house. We're going to do an awesome mount on this guy. Okay, big boy. This is where we leave you right here. Man, what a shot. That was awesome. I'm kidding. We're at the deer processer. Somebody else shot that. Look at that massive one. Oh my gosh. This is where we leave you. Awesome. It's rest after having baby. And I finally have had time to process shooting my first big buck, period, and with a bow. Opening week of archery season. I've been looking forward to this for a long time, practicing, and I've just been visualizing getting my first big buck and finally see it come true. It's just an awesome feeling, guys, because this was an old deer. It was over five years old, according to Mike, and it had actually gone down in size a little bit on its antler growth from the year before. And this deer was just ready to be harvested. It's a low-fence hunt, so this deer showed up like two years ago, seen this deer kind of come and go. This was just the perfect opportunity to get this deer. It was consistently being there in the last couple weeks. I will never forget this hunt because it was so crazy up in the stand with Mike's. Mike did a great job on the camera, and normally I'm the one filming these hunts. That used to be my job, so I know how nervous Mike was and how hard it is to get the right angles and everything when you're trying to get the deer, the shot, the angles instead of you just being in the blind or in the stand yourself, and you can just go ahead and take that shot. You've got to check with each other. It's a team system, making sure everyone's on point, ready to go, and then you get the shot, and it came out amazing. So big props to Mike on the camera work. That deer kept going back and forth and back and forth, and the angle wasn't right for Mike, and then it wasn't right for me. He ended up standing up, and he was trying to adjust, and then I could draw back because another deer was looking at me. There was a lot going on. I had to let off and then keep ranging, and then it was getting so dark that my rangefinder wasn't exactly picking up on the deer exactly. But that's hunting, guys. And this hunt turned out to be just one of those hunts you're going to remember for the rest of your life because it's just the way it came together and everything. It's a bond when you're in the same tree with somebody, and then it all comes together and you guys get to fist pump afterwards.  Bow dropped it. For his heart, I was aiming a little bit lower, but when that arrow got about five feet in front of that deer, it ducked, and then it would be in a double lung shot. So I think from now on, I'm just going to go for that, especially if it's past 20 yards. If it ducks, it gets a double lung. If it doesn't, you get a hard shot. And man, all that preparation, just practicing makes you feel good as a bow hunter. So thank you guys for being here to experience my first big buck ever. And we got it done on camera. So thank you guys to make sure to smash the thumbs up for that. And we're going to be going on some more adventures this week, so go ahead and subscribe right here to the channel so you don't miss a single video. And I'm trying to get old Mike to start a YouTube channel. He does this kind of stuff all the time. And so anyway, we're going to get him set up and get him filming some things out here. I'm going to help him.  But until then, guys, I will see you guys on the next adventure right here. Bye.


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