Book 3, Chapter 2 of The Fallen Leaves, this is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Paul Thomas. The Fallen Leaves by Wilkie Collins. Book 3, Chapter 2. Amelius rose impulsively from his chair. Mrs. Farnaby turned at the same moment and signed him to resume his seat. You have given me your promise, she whispered. All I ask of you is to be silent. She softly drew the key out of the door and showed it to him. You can't get out, she said, unless you take the key from me by force. Whatever Amelius might think of the situation in which he now found himself, the one thing that he could honorably do was to say nothing and submit to it. He remained quietly by the fire. No imaginable consideration, he mentally resolved, should induce him to consent to a second confidential interview in Mrs. Farnaby's room. The servant opened the house door. Regina's voice was heard in the hall. Has my aunt come in? No, miss. Have you heard nothing of her? Nothing, miss. Has Mr. Goldenheart been here? No, miss. Very extraordinary. What can have become of them, Cecilia? The voice of the other lady was heard in answer. We have probably missed them on leaving the concert room. Don't alarm yourself, Regina. I must go back under any circumstances. The carriage will be waiting for me. If I see anything of your aunt, I will say that you are expecting her at home. One moment, Cecilia. Thomas, you needn't wait. Is it really true that you don't like Mr. Goldenheart? What? It has come to that already. I'll try to like him, Regina. Goodbye again. The closing of the street door told that the ladies had separated. The sound was followed in another moment by the opening and closing of the dining-room door. Mrs. Farnaby returned to the chair at her fireplace. Regina has gone into the dining-room to wait for us, she said. I see you don't like your position here, and I won't keep you more than a few minutes longer. You are, of course, at a loss to understand what I was saying to you when the knock at the door interrupted us. Sit down again for five minutes. It fidgets me to see you standing there looking at your boots. I told you I had one consolation still possibly left. Judge for yourself what the hope of it is to me, when I own to you that I should long since have put an end to my life without it. Don't think I am talking nonsense. I mean what I say. It is one of my misfortunes that I have no religious scruples to restrain me. There was a time when I believed that a religion might comfort me. I once opened my heart to a clergyman—a worthy person—who did his best to help me. All useless. My heart was too hard, I suppose. It doesn't matter. Except to give you one more proof that I am thoroughly in earnest. Patience, patience! I am coming to the point. I asked you some odd questions, on the day when you first dined here. You have forgotten all about them, of course. I remember them perfectly well, Amelius answered. You remember them. That looks as if you had thought about them afterward. Come, tell me plainly, what did you think? Amelius told her plainly. She became more and more interested, and more and more excited, as he went on. Quite right, she exclaimed, starting to her feet and walking swiftly backwards and forwards in the room. There is a lost girl whom I want to find, and she is between sixteen and seventeen years old, as you thought. Mind! I have no reason—not the shadow of a reason—for believing that she is still a living creature.  She pressed both hands fiercely on her heart, so that nothing can tear it out of me. I have lived in that belief—oh, don't ask me how long—it is so far, so miserably far, to look back. She stopped in the middle of the room. Her breath came and went in quick, heavy gasps. The first tears that had softened the hard wretchedness in her eyes rose in them now, and transfigured them with the divine beauty of maternal love. I won't distress you, she said, stamping on the floor as she struggled with the hysterical passion that was raging in her. Give me a minute, and I'll force it down again. She dropped into a chair, threw her arms heavily on the table, and laid her head on them. Amelia's thought of the child's frock and cap hidden in the cabinet—all that was manly and noble in his nature felt for the unhappy woman, whose secret was dimly revealed to him now. The little selfish sense of annoyance at the awkward situation in which she had placed him vanished to return no more. He approached her, and put his hand gently on her shoulder. I am truly sorry for you, he said. Tell me, how can I help you, and I'll do it with all my heart? Do you really mean that? She roughly dashed the tears from her eyes and rose as she put the question. Holding him with one hand, she parted the hair back from his forehead with the other. I must see your whole face, she said. Your face will tell me. Yes, you do mean it. The world hasn't spoiled you yet. Do you believe in dreams? Amelia's looked at her, startled by the sudden transition. She deliberately repeated her question. I ask you seriously, she said. Do you believe in dreams? Amelia's answered seriously on his side. I can't honestly say that I do. Ah, she exclaimed. Like me. I don't believe in dreams either. I wish I did. But it's not in me to believe in superstitions. I'm too hard, and I'm sorry for it. I have seen people who were comforted by their superstitions, happy people, possessed of faith. Don't you even believe that dreams are sometimes fulfilled by chance? Nobody can deny that, Amelia's replied. The instances of it are too many. But for one dream fulfilled by a coincidence, there are a hundred at least that are not fulfilled, Mrs. Farnaby interposed. Very well. I calculate on that. See how little hope can live on? There is just the barest possibility that what I dreamed of you the other night may come to pass. It's a poor chance, but it has encouraged me to take you into my confidence and ask for your and ask you to help me. This strange confession, this sad revelation of despair, still unconsciously deceiving itself under the disguise of hope, only strengthened the compassionate sympathy which Amelia's already felt for her. What did you dream about me? He asked gently. It's nothing to tell, she replied. I was in a room that was quite strange to me, and the door opened, and you came in leading a young girl by the hand. You said, Be happy at last, here she is. My heart knew her instantly. Though my eyes had never seen her since the first days of her life. And I woke myself, crying for joy. Wait, it's not all told yet. I went to sleep again, and dreamed it again, and woke, and lay awake for a while, and slept once more, and dreamed it for the third time. Ah, if I could only feel some people's confidence in three times. No, it produced an impression on me, and that was all. I got as far as thinking to myself, there is just a chance. I haven't a creature in the world to help me. I may as well speak to him. Oh, you needn't remind me that there is a rational explanation of my dream. I have read it all up, in the encyclopedia in the library. One of the ideas of wise men is that we think of something, consciously or unconsciously, in the daytime, and then reproduce it in a dream. That's my case, I daresay. When you were first introduced to me, and when I heard where you had been brought up, I thought directly that she might have been one among the many forlorn creatures who had drifted into your community, and that I might find her through you. Say that thought went to my bed with me, and we have the explanation of my dream. Never mind. There is my one poor chance in a hundred still left. You will remember me, Emilius, if you should meet with her, won't you? The implied confession of her own intractable character, without religious faith to ennoble it, without even imagination to refine it, the unconscious disclosure of one tender and loving instinct in her nature, still piteously struggling for existence, with no sympathy to sustain it, with no light to guide it, would have touched the heart of any man not incurably depraved. Emilius spoke with the fervor of his young enthusiasm. I would go to the uttermost ends of the earth if I thought I could do you any good. But oh, it sounds so hopeless.  Don't say that. You are free. You have money. You will travel about in the world and amuse yourself. In a week you will see more than stay-at-home people see in a year. How do we know what the future has in store for us? I have my own idea. She may be lost in the labyrinth of London, or she may be hundreds of thousands of miles away. Amuse yourself, Emilius. Amuse yourself. Tomorrow, or ten years hence, you might meet with her. In sheer mercy to the poor creature, Emilius refused to encourage her delusion. Even supposing such a thing could happen, he objected, how am I to know the lost girl? You can't describe her to me. You've not seen her since she was a child. Do you know anything of what happened at the time? I mean, at the time when she was lost? I know nothing. Absolutely nothing? Absolutely nothing. Have you never felt a suspicion of how it happened? Her face changed. She frowned as she looked at him. Not till weeks and months had passed, she said. Not till it was too late. I was ill at the time. When my mind got clear again, I began to suspect one particular person, little by little, you know, noticing trifles and thinking about them afterward. She stopped, evidently restraining herself on the point of saying more. Emilius tried to lead her on. Did you suspect the person he began? I suspected him of casting the child helpless on the world, Mrs. Farneby interposed, with a sudden burst of fury. Don't ask me any more about it, or I shall break out and shock you. She clenched her fists as she said the words. It's well for that man, she muttered between her teeth, that I never got beyond suspecting and never found out the truth. Why did you turn my mind that way? You shouldn't have done it. Help me back again to what you were saying a minute ago. You made some objection. You said— I said, Emilius reminded her, that even if I did meet with the missing girl, I couldn't possibly know it, and I must say more than that. I don't see how you yourself could be sure of recognizing her if she stood before you at this moment. He spoke very gently, fearing to irritate her. She showed no sign of irritation. She looked at him and listened to him attentively. Are you setting a trap for me? She asked. No, she cried, before Emilius could answer. I am not mean enough to distrust you. I forgot myself. You have innocently said something that rankles in my mind. I can't leave it where you have left it. I don't like to be told that I shouldn't recognize her. Give me time to think. I must clear this up. She consulted her own thoughts, keeping her eyes fixed on Emilius. I am going to speak plainly, she announced, with a sudden appearance of resolution. Listen to this. When I banged to the door of that big cupboard of mine, it was because I didn't want you to see something on the shelves. Did you see anything in spite of me? The question was not an easy one to answer. Emilius hesitated. Mrs. Farnaby insisted on a reply. Did you see anything? she reiterated. Emilius owned that he had seen something. She turned away from him and looked into the fire. Her firm full tone sank so low, when she spoke next, that he could barely hear them. Was it something belonging to a child? Yes. Was it a baby's frock and cap? Answer me. We have gone too far to go back. I don't want apologies or explanations. I want yes or no. Yes. There was an interval of silence. She never moved. She still looked into the fire. Looked as if all her past life was pictured there in the burning coals. Do you despise me, she asked at last, very quietly? As God hears me, I am only sorry for you, Emilius answered. Another woman would have melted into tears. This woman still looked into the fire, and that was all. What a good fellow, she said to herself. What a good fellow he is! There was another pause. She turned towards him again as abruptly as she had turned away.  If the miserable truth has come out, it is through no curiosity of yours, and God knows against every wish of mine. I don't know if you really felt like a friend towards me. You must be my friend now. Don't speak. I know I can trust you. One last word, Emilius, about my lost child. You doubt whether I should recognize her, if she stood before me now. That might be quite true, if I had only my own poor hopes and anxieties to guide me. But I have something else to guide me, and, after what has passed between us, you may as well know what it is. It might, even, by accident, guide you. Don't alarm yourself. It's nothing distressing this time. How can I explain it? She went on, pausing, and speaking in some perplexity to herself. It would be easier to show it. And why not? She addressed herself to Emilius once more. I'm a strange creature, she resumed. First I worry you about my own affairs. Then I puzzle you. Then I make you sorry for me. And now, would you think it, I am going to amuse you. Emilius, are you an admirer of pretty feet? Emilius had heard of men in books who had found reason to doubt whether their own ears were not deceiving them. For the first time he began to understand those men, and to sympathize with them. He admitted, in a certain bewildered way, that he was an admirer of pretty feet, and waited for what was to come next. When a woman has a pretty hand, Mrs. Farnaby proceeded, she is ready enough to show it. When she goes out to a ball, she favors you with a view of her bosom and part of her back. Now tell me, if there's no impropriety in a naked bosom, where is the impropriety in a naked foot? Emilius agreed, like a man in a dream. Where, indeed, he remarked, and waited for what was to come next. Look out of the window, said Mrs. Farnaby. Emilius obeyed. The window had been open for a few inches at the top. No doubt to ventilate the room. The dull view of the courtyard was varied by the stables at the farther end, and by the kitchen skylight rising in the middle of the open space. As Emilius looked out, he observed that some person at that moment in the kitchen required apparently a large supply of fresh air. The swinging window on the side of the skylight, which was nearest to him, was invisibly and noiselessly pulled open from below. The similar window, on the other side, being already wide open also. Judging by appearance, the inhabitants of the kitchen possessed a merit which is exceedingly rare among domestic servants. They understood the laws of ventilation, and appreciated the blessing of fresh air. That will do, said Mrs. Farnaby. You can turn around now. Emilius turned. Mrs. Farnaby's boots and stockings were on the hearth rug, and one of Mrs. Farnaby's feet was placed, ready for inspection, on the chair which he had just left. Look at my right foot first, she said, speaking gravely and composedly in her ordinary tone. It was well worth looking at, a foot equally beautiful in form and in color. The instep arched and high, the ankle at once delicate and strong. The toes tinged with a rose color at the tips. In brief it was a foot to be photographed, to be cast and plastered, to be fondled and kissed. Emilius attempted to express his admiration, but was not allowed to get beyond the first two or three words. No, Mrs. Farnaby explained, this is not vanity, simply information. You have seen my right foot, and you have noticed that there is nothing to matter with it. Very well, now look at my left foot. She put her left foot up on the chair. Look between the third toe and the fourth, she said. Following his instructions, Emilius discovered that the beauty of the foot was spoiled. In this case, by a singular defect, the two toes were bound together by a flexible web or membrane, which held them to each other as high as the insertion of the nail on either side. Do you wonder, Mrs. Farnaby asked, why I show you the fault in my foot? Emilius, my poor darling, was born with my deformity, and I want you to know exactly what it is, because neither you nor I can say what reason for remembering it there may not be in the future. She stopped, as if to give him an opportunity of speaking. A man shallow and flippant by nature might have seen the disclosure in a grotesque aspect. Emilius was sad and silent. I like you better and better, she went on. You are not like the common run of men. Nine out of ten of them would have turned what I have just told you into a joke. Nine out of ten would have said, am I to ask every girl I meet to show me her left foot? You are above that. You understand me. Have I no means of recognizing my own child now? She smiled, and took her foot off the chair. Then, after a moment's thought, she pointed to it again. Keep this as strictly secret as you keep everything else, she said. In the past days, when I used to employ people privately to help me find her, it was my own defense against being imposed upon. Rogues and vagabonds thought of other marks and signs, but not one of them. Have you got your pocketbook, Emilius? In case we are separated at some later time, I want to write the name and address in it of a person whom we can trust. I persist, you see, in providing for the future. There's the one chance in a hundred that my dream may come true, and you have so many years before you, and so many girls to meet with, and so many girls to meet with, and so many girls to meet with in that time. She handed back the pocketbook, which Emilius had given her, after having inscribed a man's name and address on one of the blank leaves. He was my father's lawyer, she explained, and he and his son are both men to be trusted. Suppose I am ill, for instance. No, that's absurd.  Suppose I am dead. Killed perhaps by some accident, or perhaps my own hand. The lawyers have my written instructions, in the case of my child being found. Then again, I am such an unaccountable woman, I may go away somewhere, all by myself. Never mind. The lawyers shall have my address, and my positive orders. Though they keep it a secret from all the world besides, to tell it to you. I don't ask your pardon, Emilius, for troubling you. The chances are so terribly against me. It is all but impossible that I shall ever see you, as I saw you in my dream. Coming into the room, leading my girl by the hand. Odd, isn't it? This is how I veer about between hope and despair. Well, it may amuse you to remember it one of these days. Years hence, when I am at rest in Mother Earth, and when you are a middle-aged married man, you may tell your wife how strangely you once became the forlorn hope of the most wretched woman that ever lived, and you may say to each other, as you sit by your snug fireside, perhaps that poor lost daughter is still living somewhere, and wondering who her mother was. No, I won't let you see the tears in my eyes again. I'll let you go at last. She led the way to the door, a creature to be pitied, if there ever was a pitiable creature yet.  Good-bye and thank you, she said. I want to be left by myself, my dear, with that little frock and cap which you found out in spite of me.  She pushed Emilius into the hall. Here he is, Regina, she called out. I have done with him. Before Emilius could speak, she had shut herself into her room. He advanced along the hall, and met Regina at the door of the dining-room. End of Book Three, Chapter Two Book Three, Chapter Three of The Fallen Leaves This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Paul Thomas The Fallen Leaves by Wilkie Collins Book Three, Chapter Three Mr. Goldenheart, she said, with the coldest possible politeness, perhaps you'll be good enough to explain what this means? She turned back into the dining-room. Emilius followed her in silence. Here I am, in another scrape of the woman, he thought to himself. Our men in general, as unlucky as I am, I wonder. You needn't close the door, said Regina maliciously. Everybody in the house is welcome to hear what I have to say to you. Emilius made a mistake at the outset. He tried what a little humility would do to help him. There's probably no instance on record in which humility on the part of a man has ever really found its way to the indulgence of an irritated woman. The best and the worst of them alike have at least one virtue in common. They secretly despise a man who is not bold enough to defend himself when they are angry with him. I hope I have not offended you, Emilius ventured to say.  Oh dear no, I am not offended.  In the short experience of her which had fallen to the lot of Emilius, she had never looked so charmingly as she looked now. The nervous irritability under which she was suffering brightened her face with the animation which was wanting in it at ordinary times. Her soft brown eyes sparkled. Her smooth dusky cheeks glowed with a warm red flush. Her tall supple figure asserted its full dignity. Robed in a superb dress of silken purple and black lace, which set off her personal attractions to the utmost advantage. She not only roused the admiration of Emilius, she unconsciously gave him back the self-possession which he had, for the moment, completely lost. He was man enough to feel the humiliation of being despised by the one woman in the world whose love he longed to win, and he answered with a sudden firmness of tone and look that startled her. You had better speak more plainly still, Miss Regina, he said. You may as well blame me at once for the misfortune of being a man. She drew back a step. I don't understand you, she answered. Do I owe no forbearance to a woman who asks a favor of me, Emilius went on? If a man had asked me to steal into the house on Tiptoe, I should have said, well, I should have said something I had better not repeat. If a man had stood between me and the door when you came back, I should have taken him by the collar and pulled him out of my way. Could I do that, if you please, with Miss Farnaby? Regina saw the weak point of this defense with a woman's quickness of perception. I can't offer any opinion, she said, especially when you lay all the blame on my aunt. Emilius opened his lips to protest and thought better of it. He wisely went straight on with what he had still to say. If you'll let me finish, he resumed. You will understand me a little better than that. Whatever blame there may be, Miss Regina, I am quite ready to take on myself. I merely wanted to remind you that I was put in an awkward position and that I couldn't civilly find a way out of it. As for your aunt, I will only say this. I know of hardly any sacrifice that I would not submit to if I could be of the smallest service to her. After what I heard while I was in her room, Regina interrupted him at this point. I suppose it's a secret between you, she said. Yes, it's a secret, Emilius proceeded, as you say, but one thing I may tell you without breaking my promise. Mrs. Farnaby has, well, filled me with a kindly feeling towards her. She has a claim, poor soul, to my truest sympathy, and I shall remember her claim, and I shall be faithful to what I feel towards her as long as I live. It was not very elegantly expressed, but the tone was the tone of true feeling in his voice. Trumbled, his color rose. He stood before her, speaking with perfect simplicity straight from his heart, and the woman's heart felt it instantly. This was the man whose ridicule she had dreaded, if her aunt's rash confidence struck him in an absurd light. She sat down in silence, with a grave sad face, reproaching herself for the wrong which her too-ready distrust had inflicted on him, longing to ask his pardon, and yet hesitating to say the simple words. He approached her chair, and, placing his hand on the back of it, said gently, Do you think a little better of me now? She had taken off her gloves. She silently folded and refolded them in her lap. Your opinion is very precious to me, Amelius pleaded, bending a little nearer to her. I can't tell you how sorry I should be. He stopped and put it more strongly. I shall never have courage enough to enter this house again if I have made you think meanly of me. A woman who cared nothing for him would have easily answered this. The calm heart of Regina began to flutter. Something warned her not to trust herself to speak. Little as he suspected it, Amelius had troubled the tranquil temperament of this woman. He had found his way to those secret reserves of tenderness, placid and deep, of which she was hardly conscious herself until his influence had enlightened her. She was afraid to look up at him. Her eyes would have told him the truth. She lifted her long, finely shaped, dusky hand, and offered it to him as the best answer that she could make. Amelius took it, looked at it, and ventured on his first familiarity with her. He kissed it. She only said, Don't. Very faintly. The queen would let me kiss her hand if I went to court. Amelius reminded her, with a pleasant inner conviction of his wonderful readiness at finding an excuse. She smiled in spite of herself. Would the queen let you hold it? She asked, gently releasing her hand and looking at him as he drew it away. The peace was made without another word of explanation. Amelius took a chair at her side. I'm quite happy now that you have forgiven me, he said. You don't know how I admire you, and how anxious I am to please you. If I only knew how. He drew his chair a little nearer. His eyes told her plainly that this language would soon become warmer still if she gave him the smallest encouragement. This was one reason for changing the subject. But there was another reason, more cogent still. Her first painful sense of having treated him unjustly had ceased to make itself keenly felt. The lower emotions had their opportunity of asserting themselves. Curiosity, irresistible curiosity, took possession of her mind and urged her to penetrate the mystery of the interview between Amelius and her aunt. Will you think of me very indiscreet? She began slyly, if I made a little confession to you. Amelius was only too eager to hear the confession. It would pave the way for something of the same sort on his part. I understand my aunt making the heat in the concert room a pretense for taking you away with her, Regina proceeded. But what astonishes me is that she should have admitted you to her confidence after so short an acquaintance. You are still, what shall I say, you are still a new friend of ours. How long will it be before I become an old friend, Amelius asked? I mean, he added, with artful emphasis, an old friend of yours. Confused by the question, Regina passed it over without notice. I am Ms. Farnaby's adopted daughter, she resumed. I have been with her since I was a little girl, and yet she has never told me any of her secrets. Pray don't suppose that I am tempting you to break faith with my aunt. I am quite incapable of such conduct as that. Amelius saw his way to a thoroughly commonplace complement, which possessed the charm of complete novelty so far as his experience was concerned. He would actually have told her that she was incapable of doing anything, which was not perfectly becoming to a charming person if she had only given him time. She was too eager in the pursuit of her own object to give him time. I should like to know, she went on, whether my aunt has been influenced in any way by a dream that she had about you. Amelius started, has she told you of her dream? He asked, with some appearance of alarm. Regina blushed and hesitated. My room is next to my aunt's, she explained. We keep the door between us open. I'm often in and out when she is disturbed in her sleep. She was talking in her sleep and I heard your name. Nothing more. Perhaps I ought not to have mentioned it? Perhaps I ought not to expect you to answer me. There is no harm in my answering you, said Amelius. The dream really had something to do with her trusting me. You might not think quite so unfavorably of her conduct now that you know that. It doesn't matter what I think, Regina replied constrainedly. If my aunt's secrets have interested you, what right have I to object? I am sure I shall say nothing. Though I am not in my aunt's confidence, nor in your confidence, you will find I can keep a secret. She folded up her gloves for the twentieth time at least, and gave Amelius his opportunity of retiring by rising from her chair. He made a last effort to recover the ground that he had lost without betraying Mrs. Farnaby's trust in him. I am sure you can keep a secret, he said. I should like to give you one of my secrets to keep. Only I mustn't take the liberty, I suppose, just yet. She knew perfectly well what he wanted to say. Her heart began to quicken its beat. She was at a loss how to answer. After an awkward silence, she made an attempt to dismiss him. Don't let me detain you, she said, if you have any engagement. Amelius silently looked around him for his hat. On a table behind him a monthly magazine lay open, exhibiting one of those melancholy modern illustrations which present the English art of our day in its laziest and lowest state of degradation. A nauseous young giant in flowering trousers stood in a garden and stared at a plump young giantess with enormous eyes and rotund hips, vacantly boring holes in the grass with the point of her parasol. Perfectly incapable of explaining itself, this imbecile production put its trust in the printer, whose charitable types helped it, at the bottom of the page with the title of Love at First Sight. On those remarkable words Amelius seized, with the desperation of the drowning man catching at the proverbial straw. They offered him a chance of pleading his case, this time, with a happy indirectness of illusion at which not even a young lady's susceptibility could take offence. Do you believe in that, he said, pointing to the illustration? Regina declined to understand him. In what, she asked? In Love at First Sight. It would be speaking with inexcusable rudeness to say plainly that she told him a lie. Let the milder form of expression be that she modestly concealed the truth. I don't know anything about it, she said. I do, Amelius remarked smartly. She persisted in looking at the illustration. Was there an infection of imbecility in that fatal work? She was too simple to understand him even yet. You do what, she inquired innocently. I know what Love at First Sight is, Amelius burst out. Regina turned over the leaves of the magazine. Ah, she said, you have read the story. I haven't read the story, Amelius answered. I know what I felt myself on being introduced to a young lady. She looked up at him with a sly smile. A young lady in America, she asked. In England, Miss Regina. He tried to take her hand, but she kept it out of his reach. In London, he went on, drifting back to his customary plainness of speech. In this very street, he resumed, seizing her hand before she was aware of him. Too much bewildered to know what else to do, Regina took refuge desperately in shaking hands with him. Goodbye, Mr. Goldenheart, she said, and gave him his dismissal for the second time. Amelius submitted to his fate.   No! answered a voice at the door which they both recognized, the voice of Mrs. Farnaby. Yes. Regina whispered to him, as her aunt entered the room. Mrs. Farnaby's interference following on the earlier events of the day had touched the young lady's usually placable temper in a tender place, and Amelius reaped the benefit of it. Mrs. Farnaby walked straight up to him, put her arm in his arm, and led him out into the hall. I had my suspicions, she said, and I find they have not misled me. Twice already I have warned you to let my niece alone. For the third and last time I tell you that she is as cold as ice. She will trifle you as long as it flatters her vanity, and she will throw you over, as she has thrown other men over.  Pay no more visits to this house, unless they are visits to me. I shall expect to hear from you. She paused and pointed to a statue which was one of the ornaments in the hall.  That's Regina. Be off with you. Goodbye. Amelius found himself in the street. Regina was looking out at the dining-room window. He kissed his hand to her. She smiled and bowed. Damn the other men, Amelius said to himself. I'll call on her tomorrow. End of Book 3, Chapter 3 Returning to his hotel, he found three letters waiting for him on the sitting-room table. The first letter that he opened was from his landlord and contained his bill for the past week. As he looked at the sum total, Amelius presented to perfection the aspect of a serious young man. He took pen, ink, and paper and made some elaborate calculations. Money that he had too generously lent or too freely given away appeared in his statement of expenses, as well as money that he had spent on himself. The result may be plainly stated in his own words. Goodbye to the hotel. I must go into lodgings. Having arrived at this wise decision, he opened the second letter. It proved to be written by the lawyers who had already communicated with him at Tadmore, on the subject of his inheritance. Dear sir, the enclosed, insufficiently addressed, as you will perceive, only reached us this day. We begged to remain, etc. Amelius opened the letter enclosed and turned to the signature for information. The name instantly took him back to the community. The writer was Millicent. Her letter began abruptly, in these terms. Do you remember what I said to you when we parted at Tadmore? I said, Be comforted, Amelius. The end is not yet. And I said it again. You will come back to me. I remind you of this, my friend, directing to your lawyers, whose names I remember when their letter to you was publicly read in the common room. Once or twice a year I shall continue to remind you of those parting words of mine. There will be a time, perhaps, when you will thank me for doing so. In the meanwhile, light your pipe with my letters. My letters don't matter. If I can comfort you and reconcile you to your life, years hence when you, too, my Amelius, may be one of the fallen leaves like me, then I shall not have lived and suffered in vain.  Be pleased not to answer these lines or any other written words of mine that may follow, so long as you are prosperous and happy. With that part of your life I have nothing to do. You will find friends wherever you go, among the women especially.  Your manly gentleness and sweetness speak in every tone of your voice. We poor women feel drawn towards you by an attraction which we are not able to resist. Have you fallen in love already with some beautiful English girl? Oh, be careful and prudent. Be sure, before you set your heart on her, that she is worthy of you. So many women are cruel and deceitful. Some of them will make you believe that you have won their love when you have only flattered their vanity. And some are poor weak creatures whose minds are set on their own interests, and who may let bad advisors guide them when you are not by. For your own sake, take care. I am living with my sister at New York. The days and weeks glide by me quietly. You are in my thoughts and my prayers. I have done nothing to complain of. I wait and hope. When the time of my banishment from the community has expired I shall go back to Tadmore. And there you will find me, Emilius, the first to welcome you when your spirits are sinking under the burden of life, and your heart turns again to the friends of your early days. Good-bye, my dear. Good-bye. Emilius laid the letter aside, touched and saddened by the artless devotion to him which it expressed. He was conscious also of a feeling of uneasy surprise when he read the lines which referred to his possible entanglement with some beautiful English girl. Here, with widely different motives, was Mrs. Farnaby's warning repeated, by a stranger writing from another quarter of the globe. It was an odd coincidence to say the least of it. After thinking for a while, he turned abruptly to the third letter that was waiting for him. He was not at ease. His mind felt the need of relief. The third letter was from Rufus Dingwell, announcing the clothes of his tour in Ireland and his intention of joining Emilius in London. The excellent American expressed with his customary absence of reserve his fervent admiration of Irish hospitality, Irish beauty, and Irish whiskey. Green Aaron wants but one thing more, Rufus predicted, to be a paradise on earth. It wants the day to come when we shall send an American minister to the Irish Republic. Laughing over this quaint outbreak, Emilius turned from the first page to the second. As his eyes fell on the next paragraph, a sudden change passed over him. He let the letter drop on the floor. One last word, the American wrote. About that nice long, bright letter of yours. I have read it with strict attention, and thought over it considerably afterwards. Don't be riled, friend Emilius, if I tell you in plain words that your count of the Tharnabees doesn't make me happy. Quite the contrary, I do assure you. My back is set up, sir, against that family. You will do well to drop them, and, above all things, mind what you are about with the brown miss, who has found her way to your favorable opinion in such an almighty hurry. Do me a favor, my good boy, just wait till I have seen her, will you? Mrs. Farnaby, Millicent, Rufus. All three strangers to each other, and all three agreed, nevertheless, in trying to part him from the beautiful young Englishwoman. I don't care, Emilius thought to himself. They may say what they please. I'll marry Regina, if she will have me. No more than three weeks, what events may not present themselves, what changes may not take place. Behold, Emilius, on the first drizzling day of November, established in respectable lodgings at a moderate weekly rent. He stands before his small fireside and warms his back with an Englishman's severe sense of enjoyment. The cheap-looking glass on the mantelpiece reflects the head and shoulders of a new Emilius. His habits are changed, his social position is in course of development. Already he is a strict economist, before long he expects to become a married man. It is good to be economical, it is, perhaps, better still to be the accepted husband of a handsome young woman. But for all that, a man in a state of moral improvement, with prospects which his less favored fellow creatures may reasonably envy, is still a man subject to the mischievous mercy of circumstances and capable of feeling it keenly. The face of the new Emilius were an expression of anxiety. In more remarkable yet, the temper of the new Emilius was out of order. For the first time in his life he found himself considering trivial questions of six penses and small favors of discount for cash payments, an irritating state of things in itself. There were more serious anxieties, however, to trouble him than these. He had no reason to complain of the beloved object herself, not twelve hours since he had said to Regina, with a voice that faltered in a heart that beat wildly. Are you fond enough of me to let me marry you? And she had answered placidly, with a heart that would have satisfied the most exacting stethoscope in the medical profession. Yes, if you like. There was a moment of rapture when she submitted for the first time to be kissed and when she consented on being gently reminded that it was expected of her to return the kiss once and no more, but there was also an attendant train of serious considerations which followed on the heels of Emilius when the kissing was over and when he had said goodbye for the day. He had two women for enemies, both resolutely against him in the matter of his marriage. Regina's correspondent and bosom friend Cecilia who had begun by disliking him, without knowing why, persisted in maintaining her unfavorable opinion of the new friend of the Farnabes. She was a young married woman and she had influence over Regina which promised, when the fit opportunity came, to make itself felt. The second and by far the more powerful hostile influence was the influence of Mrs. Farnaby. Nothing could exceed the half-sisterly, half-motherly goodwill with which she received Emilius on those rare occasions when they happened to meet, unembarrassed by the presence of a third person in the room, without actually reverting to what happened between them during their memorable interview, Mrs. Farnaby asked questions, plainly showing that the forelaw and hope which she associated with Emilius was a hope still firmly rooted in her mind. Have you been much about London lately?  Are you tired of staying in the same place and are you going to travel soon? Inquiries such as these she was sooner or later sure to make when they were alone, but if Regina happened to enter the room or if Emilius contrived to find his way to her in some other part of the house, Mrs. Farnaby deliberately shortened the interview and silenced the lovers, still as resolute as ever to keep Emilius exposed to the adventurous freedom of a bachelor's life. For the last week, his only opportunities of speaking to Regina had been obtained for him secretly by the well-regarded devotion of her maid, and he had now the prospect before him of asking Mr. Farnaby for the hand of his adopted daughter with the certainty of the influence of two women being used against him, even if he succeeded in obtaining a favorable reception for his proposal from the master of the house. Under such circumstances as these, alone, on a rainy November day and a lodging on the dreary eastward side of Tottenham Court Road, even Emilius bore the aspect of a melancholy man. He was angry with his cigar because it refused to light freely. He was angry with the poor deaf servant of all work, who entered the room after one thumping knock at the door and made in muffled tones the barbarous announcement, Here somebody I want to see here. Hey, if the devil is somebody, Emilius shouted. Somebody is a citizen of the United States, answered Rufus quietly entering the room, and he's sorry to find Claude a golden heart's temperature at boiling point already. He had not altered in the slightest degree since he had left the steamship at Queenstown. Irish hospitality had not fattened him. The change from sea to land had not suggested to him the slightest alteration in his dress. He still wore the huge felt hat in which he had first presented himself to notice on the deck of the vessel. The maid of all work raised her eyes to the face of the long-leaned stranger, overshadowed by the broad-brimmed hat and reverent amazement.  Having dismissed the maid with that gentle hint, he shook hands heartily with Emilius. Well, I call this a juicy morning, he said, just as if they had met at the cabin breakfast table as usual. For the moment, at least, Emilius brightened at the sight of his fellow traveller. I am really glad to see you, he said. It's lonely in these new quarters before one gets used to them. Rufus relieved himself of his hat and great coat, and silently looked about the room. I am big in the bones, he remarked, surveying the rickety lodging-house furniture with some suspicion. And I am a trifle heavier than I look. I shan't break one of these chairs if I sit down on it, shall I? Passing round the table, littered with books and letters, in search of the nearest chair, he accidentally brushed against a sheet of paper with writing on it. Memorandum of friends in London, to be informed of my change of address. He read, looking at the paper as he picked it up, with the friendly freedom that characterised him. You have made pretty good use of your time, my son. Since I took my leave of you in Queenstown Harbour, I called this a reasonable long list of acquaintances made by a young stranger in London. I met with an old friend of my family in the hotel. Amelius explained, he was a great loss to my poor father when he got an appointment in India, and now he has returned. He has been equally kind to me. I am indebted to his introduction for most of the names on that list. Yes, said Rufus in an interrogative tone of a man who was waiting to hear more. I'm listening, though I may not look like it. Get along. Amelius looked at his visitor, wondering in what precise direction he was to get along. I am no friend of partial information, Rufus proceeded. I like to route it off complete, as it were, in my own mind. There are names on this list that you haven't accounted for yet. Who provided you, sir, with the balance of your new friends? Amelius answered not very willingly. I met them at Mr. Fonabee's house. Rufus looked up from the list with an air of a man surprised by disagreeable information and unwilling to receive it too readily. How? He exclaimed, using the old English equivalent often heard in America for the modern What? I met them at Mr. Fonabee's. Amelius repeated, Did you happen to receive a letter of my writing, dated Dublin? Rufus asked, Yes. Do you set any particular value on my advice? Certainly. And you cultivate social relationships with Fonabee and family, not with standee? I have motives for being friendly with them, which I haven't had time to explain to you yet. Rufus stretched out his long legs on the floor and fixed his shrewd, grave eyes steadily on Amelius. My friend, he said quietly, in respect of personal appearance and pleasing elasticity of spirits, I find you altered for the worse. I do. It may be liver, or it may be love. I reckon now I think of it, you're too young yet for liver. It's the brown mist. That's what tis.  A nice way of talking of a young lady you've never saw, Amelius broke out. Rufus smiled grimly. Go ahead. He said, If you can get bent and quarreling with me, go ahead, my son. He looked round the room again with his hands in his pockets whistling, descending to the table in due course of time. His quick eye detected a photograph placed on the open writing desk which Amelius had been using earlier in the day. Before it was possible to stop him, the photograph was in his hand. I believe I've got her likeness, he announced. I do assure you I take pleasure in making her acquaintance in this sort of way. Well, now I declare she is a colander creature. Yes, sir. I do justice to your native produce, your fine, fleshy, beef-fed English girl. But I tell you this, after a child or two, that sort runs to fat, and you find you have married more of her than you bargained for. To what length may you have proceeded, Amelius, with this splendid and spanking person? Amelius was on the verge of taking offense. Speak of her respectfully. He said, If you expect me to answer you. Rufus stared in astonishment. I'm paying her all manner of compliments, he protested. And you're not satisfied yet. My friend, I still find something about you on this occasion which reminds me of meat-cut against the grain.  The air of London, I reckon, isn't at all the thing for you. Well, it don't matter to me.    I should, well, to put it in one word. I should scatter.  I shall be proud to introduce you to our slim and snaky sore-tech cool spring. Yes. I mean what I say.  Referring in this disrespectful manner to the Atlantic Ocean, Rufus offered his hand in a token of unalterable devotion and goodwill. How could he resist such a man as this? Emilius, always in extremes, wrung his hand with an impetuous sense of shame. I've been soapy. He said, I've been rude. I ought to be ashamed of myself and I am. There's only one excuse for me, Rufus. I love her with all my heart and soul, and I'm engaged to be married to her, and yet, if you understand my way of putting it, I'm—in short, I'm in a mess. With this characteristic preface, he described his position as exactly as he could, having due regard to the necessary reserve on the subject of Mrs. Farnaby. Rufus listened, with the closest attention, from beginning to end, making no attempt to disguise the unfavorable impression which the announcement of the marriage engagement had made on him. When he spoke next, instead of looking at Emilius, as usual, he held his head down and looked gloomily at his boots.  She didn't raise any difficulties that a man could ride off on, did she? She was all that was sweet in kind, Emilius answered, with enthusiasm. She was all that was sweet in kind. Rufus absolutely repeated, still intent on the solid spectacle of his own boots. And how about Uncle Farnaby? Perhaps he's sweet and kind, likewise, or perhaps he cuts up rough? Possible, is it not, sir? I don't know. I haven't spoken to him yet. Rufus suddenly looked up, a faint gleam of hope irradiated his long-lank face. Mercy be praised, there's a last chance for you! He remarked, Uncle Farnaby may say no. It doesn't matter what he says. Emilius rejoined. She's old enough to choose for herself. He kept stopped the marriage. Rufus lifted one wiry, yellow forefinger in a state of perpendicular protest. He cannot stop the marriage, the sagacious New Englander admitted, but he can stop the money of my son. Find out how you stand with him before another day is over your head. I can't go to him this evening, said Emilius. He dines out. Where is he now? At his place of business. Fix him at his place of business, right away! cried Rufus, springing with sudden energy to his feet. I don't think he would like that. Emilius objected. He's not a very pleasant fellow anywhere, but he's particularly disagreeable at his place of business. Rufus walked to the window and looked out. The objections to Mr Farnaby appeared to fail so far and interesting him. To put it plainly, Emilius went on, there's something about him I can't endure, and though he's very civil to me in his way, I don't think he has ever got over the discovery that I am a Christian socialist. Rufus abruptly turned round from the window and became attentive again. So you told him that, did you? Who said? Of course! Emilius rejoined sharply. Do you suppose I'm ashamed of the principles on which I have been brought up? You don't care, I reckon, if all the world knows your principles. Persisted Rufus, deliberately leading him on. Care! Emilius reiterated. I only wish I had all the world to listen to me. They should hear of my principles with no bated breath. I promise you. There is a pause. Rufus turned back again to the window. When Farnaby's at home. Where does he live? He asked suddenly, still keeping his face towards the street. Emilius mentioned the address. You don't mean you're going to call that? Being inquired with some anxiety. Well, I reckon I might catch him before dinnertime. You seem to be sort of feared to speak to him and yourself. I'm your friend, Emilius, and I'll speak for you. The bare idea of the interview struck Emilius with terror. No, no, he said. I'm much obliged to you, Rufus. But no matter what this thought, I shouldn't like to transfer the responsibility to my friend. I'll speak to Mr. Farnaby in a day or two. Rufus was evidently not satisfied with this. I do suppose now, he suggested. You're not the only man moving in this metropolis who fancies Miss Regina. Query, my son. If you put off Farnaby much longer, he paused and looked at Emilius. Ah, he said, I reckon I needn't enlarge further. There is another man. Well, it's the same in my country. I don't know what he does. With you, he always turns up with us, just at the time when you least want to see him. There was another man. An older and a richer man than Emilius, equally assiduous, and his attentions to the aunt and to the niece, submissively polite to his favored young rival. He was the sort of person in Asian temperament who would be perfectly capable of advancing his own interests by means of the hostile influence of Mrs. Farnaby. Who could say what the result might be if, by some unlucky accident, he made the attempts before Emilius had secured for himself the support of the master of the house? And his present condition of nervous irritability, he was ready to believe in any coincidence of the disastrous sort. The wealthy rival was a man of business, a near city neighbor of Mr. Farnaby. They might be together at that moment, and Regina's fidelity to her lover might be put to a harder test than she was prepared to endure. Emilius remembered the gentle conciliatory smile, too gentle by half, with which his placid mistress had received his first kisses and, without stopping to weigh conclusions, snatched up his hat. Wait for me, Rufus, like a good fellow, I'm off to the station shop. With those parting words, he hurried out of the room. Left by himself, Rufus began to rummage the pockets of his frat coat, a long, loose and dingy garment, which had become friendly and comfortable to him by dint of ancient use. Producing a handful of correspondence, he selected the largest envelope of all, shook out on the table several smaller letters enclosed, picked one out of the number, and read the concluding paragraph only with the closest attention. I enclose letters of introduction to the securities of literary institutions in London, and in some of the principal cities of England. If you feel disposed to lecture yourself, or if you can persuade friends and citizens known to you to do so, I believe it may be in your power to advance in this way the interests of our Bureau. Please take notice that the more advanced institutions, which are ready to countenance and welcome free thought and religion, politics and morals, are marked on the envelopes with a cross and red ink. The envelopes without a mark are addressed to platforms on which the customary British prejudices remain rampant, and in which the charge for places reaches a higher figure than can be as yet obtained in the sanctuaries of free thought. Rufus laid down the letter, and choosing one among the envelopes marked in red ink, looked at the introduction enclosed. If the right sort of invitation reached Amelius from this institution, he thought, the boy would lecture on Christian socialism with all his heart and soul. I wonder what the brown miss and her uncle would say to that. He smiled to himself and put the letter back in the envelope, and considered the subject for a while. Below the odd, rough surface, he was a man in ten thousand. No more single-hearted and more affectionate creature ever breathed the breath of life. He had not been understood in his own little circle. There had been a want of sympathy with him, and even a want of knowledge of him at home. Amelius, popular with everyone, had touched the great heart of this man. He perceived the peril that lay hidden under the strange and lonely position of his fellow voyager, so innocent in the ways of the world, so young and so easily impressed. His fondness for Amelius, it is hardly too much to say, was the fondness of a father for his son.  No, not yet, he decided. The poor boy really loves her, and the girl may be good enough to make the happiness of his life. He got up and walked about the room. Suddenly he stopped, struck by a new idea. Why, shouldn't I judge for myself? He thought, I've got the address. I'll reckon I'll look in on the Farnabees in a friendly way. He sat down at the desk and read a line in the event of Amelius being the first to return to the lodgings. Dear boy, I don't find her photograph tells me quite so much as I want to know. I have a mind to see the living original. Being your friend, you know. It's only civil to pay my respects to the family. Expect my unbiased opinion when I come back. Yours, Rufus. Having enclosed and addressed these lines, he took up his greatcoat and checked himself in the act of putting it on. The brown mist was a British mist. A strange New Englander had better be careful of his personal appearance before he ventured into her presence. Urged by this cautious motive, he approached the looking glass and surveyed himself critically. I doubt I might be better. It occurred to me, if I brushed my hair and smelled a little of perfume. Yes, I'll make a toilet. Where's the boy's bedroom, I wonder? He observed a second door in the sitting room and opened it at hazard. Fortune had befriended him so far. He found himself in his young friend's bedroom. The toilet of Amelius, simple as it was, had its mysteries for Rufus. He was at a loss among the perfumes. They were all contained in a modest little dressing case without labels of any sort to describe the contents of the pots and bottles. He examined them one after another and stopped at some recently invented French shaving cream. It smells lovely. He said, assuming it to be some rare opomatum, just what I want. It seems for my head. He rubbed the shaving cream into his bristly iron gray hair until his arms ached. When he had next sprinkled his handkerchief in himself profusely, first with rosewater and then, to make quite sure, with order cologne used as a climax, he felt that he was in a position to appeal agreeably to the senses of the softer sex. In five minutes more, he was on his way to Mr. Farnaby's private residence. End of Book 4, Chapter 1, Recording by Elsie Selwyn. Book 4, Chapter 2 of The Fallen Leaves. This is a LibriVox recording, all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Elsie Selwyn. The Fallen Leaves by Wilkie Collins. Book 4, Chapter 2. The rain that had begun with the morning still poured on steadily in the afternoon. After one look out of the window, Regina decided on passing the rest of the day luxuriously in the company of a novel by her own fireside. With her feet on the tender, and her head on the soft cushion of her favorite easy chair, she opened the book. Having read the first chapter and part of the second, she was just lazily turning over the leaves in search of a love scene. When her languid interest in the novel was suddenly diverted to an incident in real life, the sitting-room door was gently opened and her maid appeared in a state of modest confusion. If you please, miss, here's a strange gentleman who comes from Mr. Goldenhot. He wishes particularly to sight. She paused and looked behind her. A faint and curious smell of mingled soap and scent entered the room followed closely by a tall, calm, shabbily dressed man who laid a wiry yellow hand on the maid's shoulder and stopped her effectually before she could say a word more. Don't you think of troubling yourself to get through with it, my dear? I'm here and I'll finish for you. Addressing the maid in these encouraging terms, the stranger advanced to Regina and actually attempted to shake hands with her. Regina rose and looked at him. It was a look that ought to have daunted the boldest man living. It produced no sort of effect on this man. He still held out his hand. His lean face broadened with a pleasant smile. My name is Rufus Dingwell. He said, I come from Cool Spring, Massachusetts, and Amelius is my introduction to yourself and family. Regina silently acknowledged this information by a frigid bow and addressed herself to the maid waiting at the door. Don't leave the room, Phoebe. Rufus, inwardly wondering what Phoebe was wanted for, proceeded to express the cordial sentiments proper to the occasion. I have heard about you, Miss, and I take pleasure in making your acquaintance. The unwritten laws of politeness obliged Regina to say something. I have not heard Mr. Goldenheart mention your name. She remarked, are you an old friend of his? Rufus explained with genial alacrity, we cross the pond together, Miss. I like the boy. He's bright and spry. He refreshes me, he does. We go ahead with most things in my country and friendships one of them. How do you find yourself? Won't you shake hands? He took her hand without waiting to be repelled this time and shook it with the heartiest goodwill. Regina shuddered faintly. She summoned assistance in case of further familiarity. Phoebe, tell my aunt. Rufus added a message on his account. And say this, my dear, I sincerely desire to make the acquaintance of Miss Regina's aunt and any other members of the family circle. Phoebe left the room smiling, such an amusing visitor as this was a rare person in Mr. Farnaby's house. Rufus looked after her with unconcealed approval. The maid appeared to be more to his taste than the mistress. Well, that's a pretty creature I do declare. He said to Regina, Reminds me of our American girl, slim in the waist and carries her head nicely. How old may she be now? Regina expressed her opinion of this familiar question by pointing with silent dignity to a chair. Thank you, Miss. Not that one, said Rufus, you see, I am long in the legs. And of what I get down as low as that, I reckon I should have to restore the balance by putting my feet up on the grate. And that's not manners in Great Britain and quite right too. He picked up the highest chair he could find and admired the workmanship as he drew it up to the fireplace. Most sumptuous and elegant. He said, the style of the renaissance as they call it. Regina observed with dismay that he had not got his hat in his hand like other visitors. He had left it in her down in the hall. He looked as if he had dropped in to spend the day and stay to dinner. Well, Miss, I've seen your photograph. He resumed, and I don't much approve of it. Now I see you. My sentiments are not altogether favorable to that art. I delivered a lecture on photographic portraiture in Cool Spring, and I described it briefly as justice without mercy. The audience took the idea. They larfed, they did. Larfin reminds me of Emilius.  The lady's look when she answered this question was not last on Rufus. He registered it mentally in case of need. Emilius will soon get over all that nonsense, she said, when he has been a little longer in London. Possible, Rufus admitted. The boy is fond of you. Yes, he loves you. I have noticed him, and I can certify to that. I may also remark that he wants a deal of love in return. No doubt, Miss, you have observed that circumstance yourself. Regina resented this last inquiry as an outrage and propriety. What next will he say, she thought to himself? I must put this presuming man in his proper place. She darted at another, annihilating look at him as she spoke in her turn. May I ask, Mr. Mr. Dingwell? said Rufus, prompting her. May I ask, Mr. Dingwell, if you have favoured me by calling here at the request of Mr. Goldenheart? Genial and simple-minded as he was, eagerly as he desired to appreciate at her full value the lady who was one day to be the wife of Emilius, Rufus felt the tone in which these words were spoken. It was not easy to stimulate his modest sense of what was fairly due to him into asserting itself, but the cold distrust, the deliberate distance of Regina's manner, exhausted the long-suffering indulgence of the singularly patient man. The Lord and his mercy preserve Emilius from marrying you. He thought as he rose from his chair and advanced with certain simple dignity to take leave of her. It did not occur to me, miss, to pay my respects to you till Emilius and I had parted company. He said, Please to excuse me, I should have been welcome in my country with no better introduction than being, as I may say, his friend and well-wisher, if I have made a mistake. He stopped. Regina had suddenly changed colour. Instead of looking at him, she was looking over his shoulder, apparently had something behind him. He turned to see what it was. A lady, short and stout, with strange, wild, sorrowful eyes, had noiselessly entered the room while he was speaking. She was waiting as it seemed until he had finished what he had said. When they confronted each other, she moved to meet him with a firm, heavy step, and with her hand held out in token of welcome. You may feel equally sure, sir, of a friendly reception here. She said in her steady, self-possessed way, I am this young lady's aunt, and I am glad to see the friend of Emilius in my house. Before Rufus could answer, she turned to Regina. I waited, she went on, to give you an opportunity of explaining yourself to this gentleman. I am afraid he has mistaken your coldness of manner for intentional rudeness. The colour rushed back into Regina's face. She vibrated for a moment between anger and tears, but the better nature in her broke its way through the constitutional shyness and restraint which habitually kept it down. I meant no harm, sir, she said, raising her large, beautiful eyes submissively to Rufus. I am not used to receiving strangers, and you did ask me some very strange questions. She added with a sudden burst of self-assertion, strangers are not in the habit of saying such things in England. She looked at Mrs. Farnaby, listening with impenetrable composure and stopped in confusion. Her aunt would not scruple to speak to the stranger about Emilius in her presence. There was no knowing what she might not have to endure. She turned to Rufus. Excuse me, she said, if I leave you with my aunt, I have an engagement. With that trivial apology she made her escape from the room. She has no engagement. Mrs. Farnaby briefly remarked as the door closed, sit down, sir. For once even Rufus was not as his ease. I can't hit it off, ma'am, with most people. He said, I wonder what I have done to offend your niece. My niece, with many good qualities, is a narrow-minded young woman. Mrs. Farnaby explained, you were not like the men she is accustomed to see. She doesn't understand you. You are not a commonplace gentleman. For instance, Mrs. Farnaby continued with the matter of fact gravity of a woman innately inaccessible to a sense of humour. You have got something strange on your hair. It seems to be melting and it smells like soap. No, it's no use taking out your handkerchief.  I'll get a towel. She opened an inner door which disclosed a little passage in a bathroom beyond it. I'm the strongest person in the house, she resumed, returning with the towel in her hand as gravely as ever. Sit still and don't make apologies. If any of us can rub you dry, I'm the woman. She set to work with the towel as if she had been Rufus' mother, making him presentable in the days of his boyhood. Giddy under the violence of the rubbing, staggered by the contrast between the cold reception accorded to him by the niece, and the more-than-friendly welcome offered by the aunt, Rufus submitted to circumstances in docile on silent bewilderment. There, you'll do good till you get home. Nobody can laugh at you now. Mrs. Farnaby announced. You're an absent-minded man, I suppose. You wanted to wash your head, and you forgot the warm water in the towel. Was that how it happened, sir? I thank you with all my heart, man. I took it for a palmitin. Rufus answered, Would you object to shaking hands again? This cordial welcome of yours reminds me I do assure you of home. Since I left New England, I've never met the like of you. I do suppose now it was my hair that set Miss Regina's back up. I'm not quite easy in my mind, ma'am, about your niece. I sort of feared of what she may say of me to Emilius. I meant no harm, Lord knows. The secret of Mrs. Farnaby's extraordinary lackrity in the use of the towel began slowly to show itself now. The tone of her American guest had already become the friendly and familiar tone, which it had been her object to establish. With a little management, he might be made an invaluable ally in the great work of hindering the marriage of Emilius. You're very fond of your young friend? She began quietly. That is so, ma'am. And he has told you that he has taken a liking to my niece? And shown me her likeness, Rufus added. And shown you her likeness? And you thought she would come here and see for yourself what sort of girl she was? Naturally, Rufus admitted. Mrs. Farnaby revealed without further hesitation the object that she had in view. Emilius is little more than a lad still. She said, he had got all his life before him. It would be a sad thing if he married a girl who didn't make him happy. She turned in her chair and pointed to the door by which Regina had left them. Between ourselves, she resumed rapping her voice to a whisper. Do you believe my niece will make him happy? Rufus hesitated. I'm above family prejudices. Mrs. Farnaby proceeded. You needn't be afraid of offending me. Speak out. Rufus would have spoken out to any other woman in the universe. This woman had preserved him from ridicule. This woman had rubbed his head dry. He prevaricated. I don't suppose I understand the ladies in this country, he said. But Mrs. Farnaby was not to be trifled with. Emilius was your son and if he asked you to consent to marriage with my niece, she rejoined. Would you say yes? This was too much for Rufus. Not if he went down on both his knees to ask me. He answered. Mrs. Farnaby was satisfied at last and owned it without reserve. My own opinion. She said, exactly expressed. Don't be surprised. Didn't I tell you I had no family prejudices? Do you know if he has spoken to my husband yet? Rufus looked at his watch. I reckon he's just about done it by this time. Mrs. Farnaby paused and reflected for a moment. She had already attempted to prejudice her husband against Emilius and had received an answer which Mr. Farnaby considered to be final. Mr. Goldenheart honours us if he seeks our alliance. He was the representative of an old English family. Under these circumstances it was quite possible that the proposals of Emilius had been accepted. Mrs. Farnaby was not the last determined that the marriage should never take place and not the less eager to secure the assistance of her new ally. When will Emilius tell you about it? She asked, when I go back to his lodgings, ma'am. Go back at once and bear this in mind as you go. If you can find out any likely way of parting these two young people in their own best interests, depend on one thing. If I can help you, I will. I'm as fond of Emilius as you are. Ask him if I haven't done my best to keep him away from my niece. Ask him if I haven't expressed my opinion that she's not the right wife for him. Come and see me again as soon as you like. I'm fond of Americans. Good morning. Rufus attempted to express his sense of gratitude in his own briefly eloquent way. He was not allowed a hearing. With one in the same action, Mrs. Farnaby padded him on the shoulder and pushed him out of the room. If that woman was an American citizen, Rufus reflected on his way through the streets. She'd be the first female president of the United States. His admiration, Mrs. Farnaby's energy and resolution expressed in these strong terms acknowledged but one limit. Highly as he approved of her, there was nevertheless an unfathomable something in the woman's eyes that disturbed and daunted him. End of book four, chapter two, recording by Elsie Selwyn. Book four, chapter three of The Fallen Leaves. This is the Librivox recording. All Librivox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit Librivox.org. Recording by Elsie Selwyn. The Fallen Leaves by Wilkie Collins. Book four, chapter three. Rufus found his friend at the lodgings, prostrate on the sofa, smoking furiously, before a word had passed between them and was playing to the New Englander that something had gone wrong. Well, he asked, and what does Farnaby say? Damn Farnaby. Rufus was secretly conscious of a immense sense of relief. I call that a stiff way of putting it, he quietly remarked, but the meanings clear, Farnaby have said no. Amelia jumped off the sofa and planted himself defiantly on the hearth rug. You're wrong for once. He said with a bitter laugh, the exacerbating part of it is that Farnaby has said neither yet or no. The oily, whiskered brute you haven't seen him yet have you begun by saying yes. Men like me, the heir of a fine old English family, honoured him by making proposals. He could wish no more brilliant prospect for his dear adopted child. She would fill the high position and was offered to her and fill it worthy early. That was the funny way in which he talked to me at first. He squeezed my hand in his horrid, cold, shiny paw till I'd give you my word of honour. Felt as if I were going to be sick. Wait a little. You haven't heard the worst of it yet. He soon altered his tone. It began with his asking me if I had considered the question of settlements. I didn't know what he meant. He had to put it in plain English. He wanted to hear what my property was. Oh, that's soon settled, I said. I've got a five hundred a year and Regina's welcomed every filing of it. He fell back in his chair as if I had shot him. He turned it worse than pale. He was positively turned green. At first he wouldn't believe me. He declared I must be joking. I set him right about that immediately. His next change was a proud impudence. Have you not observed, sir, in what style Regina is accustomed to live in my house? Five hundred a year. Good heavens, with strict economy, five hundred a year, might pay her milliner's bill and the keep of a horse and carriage, who is to pay for everything else. The establishments, the dinner parties, and bowls, the tour abroad, the children, the nurses, the doctor. I told you this, Mr. Goldenheart. I'm willing to make a sacrifice to you as a born gentleman, which I would certainly not consent to, in the case of any self-made man, enlarge your income, sir, to no more than four times five hundred pounds, and I guarantee you a yearly allowance to Regina of half as much again, besides the fortune which she will inherit at my death. That will make your income three thousand a year to start with. I know something of domestic expenses, and I tell you positively, you can't do it with a farthing less. That was his language, Rufus. The insolence of his tone I can't attempt to describe. If I hadn't thought of Regina, I should have behaved in a manner unworthy of a Christian. I believe I should have taken my walking cane and given him a sound thrashing. Rufus neither expressed surprise nor offered advice. He was lost in meditation on the wealth of Mr. Farnaby. A stationer's business seemed to eventuate in a lively profit in this country. He said, A stationer's business? Amelia's repeated disdainfully. Farnaby has half a dozen irons in the fire besides that. He's got a newspaper and a patent medicine, and a new bank, and I don't know what else. One of his friends said to me, Nobody knows whether Farnaby is rich or poor. He's going to do one of two things.  Oh, if I can only live to see the day when socialism will put that sort of man in his right place. Try a republic on our model first, said Rufus. When Farnaby talks of the style his young woman is accustomed to live in, what does he mean? He means, Amelia's answers smartly, a carriage to live in, champagne on the table, and a footman to answer the door. Farnaby's ideas, sir, have crossed the water and landed in New York. Rufus remarked, Well, and what did you say to him on your side? I gave it to him, I tell you, that's all ostentation, I said. Why can't Regina and I begin life modestly? What do we want with a carriage to drive out in, and champagne on the table and a footman to answer the door? We want to love each other and be happy. There are thousands of as good gentlemen as I am, in England with wives and families, who would ask for nothing better than an income of five hundred a year. The fact is, Mr. Farnaby, you're positively saturated with the love of money. Get your New Testament and read what Christ says of rich people. What do you think he did when I put it in that unanthrable way? He held up his hand and looked horrified. I can't allow profanity in my office, he said. I have my New Testament to read to me in church, sir, every Sunday. That's the sort of Christian Rufus who is the average product of modern times. He was as obstinate as a mule. He wouldn't give up a single inch. His adopted daughter, he said, was accustomed to live in a certain style, in that same style she should live when she was married, so long as he had a voice in the matter. Of course, if she chose to set his wishes and feelings at defiance in return for all that he had done for her, she was old enough to take her own way. In that case, he would tell me as plainly as they meant to tell her that she must not look to a single farthing of his money to help her and not to expect to find her name down in his will. He felt the honour of a family alliance with me as sincerely as ever, but he must abide by the conditions that he had stated. On those terms, he would be proud to give me the hand of Regina at the altar and proud to feel that he had done his duty by his adopted child. I let him go on till he had run himself out, and then I answered quietly, if he could tell me the way to increase my income to 200,000 a year. How do you think he answered me? Perhaps he offered to utilize your capital in his business? Rufus guessed. Not he. He considered business quite beneath me. My duty to myself as a gentleman was to adopt a profession. On reflection, it turned out that there was but one likely profession to try. In my case, the law. I meant to be caught to the bar, and with luck, I might get remunerate of work to do in eight or ten years time. That, I declare to you, was the prospect he set before me if I chose to take his advice. I asked him if he was joking. Certainly not. I was only one and twenty years old. He reminded me. I had plenty of time to spare. I should still marry young if I married at thirty. I took up my hat and gave him a bit of my mind at partying. If you really mean anything, I said. You mean that Regina had to pine and to fade and to become a middle-aged woman, and that I am to resist the temptations that be set to young men in London and lead a life of a monk for the next ten years. Not for what? For a carriage to ride out and champagne on the table and a footman to answer the door? Keep your money, Mr. Farnaby. Regina and I would do without it. What are you laughing at? I don't think you could have put it more strongly yourself. Rufus suddenly recovered his gravity. I tell you this, Amelius. He replied, You afford, as we say in my country, meaty fruit for reflection you do. What do you mean by that? Well, I reckon you remember when we were aboard the boat. You gave us a narrative of what happened in that community of yours, which I can truly characterize as a combination of native eloquence and chastene good sense. I put the question to myself, sir. What has become of that well-informed and discreet young Christian? Now he has changed the spear to England and mixed with the Farnabees. Is it not to be denied that I see him before me in the flesh when I look across the table here? But it's equally true that I miss him altogether in the spirit. Amelius sat down again on the sofa and plain words.  Rufus crossed his long legs and nodded his head in silent approval. Instead of taking offense, Amelius considered a little. But didn't strike me before, he said. But now you mention it. I can understand that I appear to be a simple sort of fellow in what is called society here. And the reason I suspect is that it's not the society in which I've been accustomed to mix. The Farnabees are new to me, Rufus. When it comes to a question of my life at Tadmore, of what I saw unlearned and felt in the community, then I can think and speak like a reasonable being, because I am thinking and speaking of what I know thoroughly well. Hang it. Make some allowance for the difference of circumstances. Besides, I'm in love and that ought to as a man, and I have heard some people say not always for the better. Anyhow, I've done it with Farnabee and it can't be undone. There'll be no peace for me now until I have spoken to Regina. I've read the note you left me. Did you see her when you called at the house? The quiet tone in which this question was put surprised Rufus. He had fully expected, after Regina's reception of him, to be called to account for the liberty he had taken. Amelius was too completely absorbed by his present anxieties to consider trivial questions of etiquette. Hearing that Rufus had seen Regina, he never even asked for his friend's opinion of her. His mind was full of the obstacles that might be interposed to his seeing her again. Farnabee is sure after what has passed between us to keep her out of my way if he can. Amelius said, And Mrs. Farnabee, to my strict knowledge, will help him. They don't suspect you. Couldn't you call again? You're old enough to be her father, and make some excuse to take her out with you for a walk? The answer of Rufus to this was Roman in its brevity. He pointed to the window and said, Look at the rain. Then I must try her maid once more. Said Amelius, resignedly, he took his hat and umbrella. Don't leave me, old fellow. He resumed as he opened the door. This is the turning point of my life. I'm sorely in need of a friend. Do you think she will marry you against the will of her uncle and aunt? Rufus asked. I'm certain of it. Amelius answered. With that he left the room. Rufus looked after him sadly. Sympathy and sorrow were expressed in every line of his rugged face. My poor boy, how will he bear it if she says no? What will become of him if she says yes? He rubbed his hand irritably across his forehead, like a man whose own thoughts were repellent to him, and a moment more he plunged into his pockets and drew out again the letters introducing him to the secretaries of public institutions. If there's salvation for Amelius, he said, I reckon I shall find it here. End of Book 4, Chapter 3, Recording by Elsie Selwyn Book 4, Chapter 4, The Fallen Leaves This is the LibriVox Recording, all LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org, Recording by Elsie Selwyn The Fallen Leaves by Wilkie Collins, Book 4, Chapter 4 The medium of correspondence between Amelius and Regina's maid was an old woman who had kept a shop for the sale of newspapers and periodicals in a by-street not far from Mr. Farnaby's house. From this place his letters were delivered to the maid under cover of the morning newspapers, in here he found the answers waiting for him later in the day. If Rufus could only have taken her out for a walk, I might have seen Regina this afternoon, thought Amelius, as it is I may have to wait till tomorrow or later still, and then there's the sovereign to Phoebe. He sighed as he thought of the fee, sovereigns were becoming scarce at our young socialists' purse. Arriving in sight of the news vendor's shop, Amelius noticed a man leaving it, who walked away towards the farther end of the street. When he entered the shop himself a minute afterwards, the woman took up a letter from the counter. A young man has just left this for you, she said. Amelius recognized the maid's handwriting on the address. The man whom he had seen leaving the shop was Phoebe's messenger. He opened the letter. Her mistress Phoebe explained was too much flurry to be able to write. The master had astonished the whole household by appearing among them at least three hours before the time at which he was accustomed to leave his place of business. He had found Mrs. Ormond, otherwise Regina's friend and correspondent Cecilia, paying a visit to his niece, and had asked to speak with her in private before she took leave. The result was an invitation to Regina, from Mrs. Ormond, to stay for a little while at her house in the neighborhood of Harrow. The ladies were to leave London together in Mrs. Ormond's carriage that afternoon. Under stress of strong persuasion on the part of her uncle and aunt as well as her friend, Regina had ended in giving way. But she had not forgotten the interests of Amelius. She was willing to see him privately on the next day, provided he left London by the train which reached Harrow soon after the eleven in the four noon. If it happened to rain that he must put off his journey until the first fine day, arriving in any case at the same hour, the place at which he was to wait was described to him, and with these instructions the letter ended. The rapidity with which Mr. Farnaby had carried out his resolution to separate the lovers placed the weakness of Regina's character before Amelius in a new and startling light. Why had she not stood on her privileges, as a woman who had arrived at years of discretion, and refused to leave London until she had first heard what her lover had to say? Amelius had left his American friend, feeling sure that Regina's decision would be in his favor when she was called upon to choose between the man who was ready to marry her, and the man who was nothing but her uncle by courtesy. For the first time he now felt that his own confident anticipations might, by bare possibility, deceive him. He returned to his lodgings in such a state of depression that compassionate Rufus insisted on taking him out to dinner, and hurried him off afterwards to the play. Thoroughly prostrated, Amelius submitted to the genial influence of his friend. He had not even energy enough to feel surprised when Rufus stopped on their way to the tavern at a dingy building adorned with a Grecian portico, and left a letter and a card in charge of a servant at the side door. The next day, by a happy interposition of fortune, proved to be a day without rain. Amelius followed his instructions to the letter. A little watery sunshine showed itself as he left the station at Harrow. His mind was still in such a state of doubt and disturbance that it drew from superstition a faint encouragement to hope. He nailed the feeble November sunlight as a good omen. Mr. and Mrs. Orman's place of residence stood alone, surrounded by its own grounds. A wooden fence separated the property on one side from a muddy little by-road, leading to a neighboring farm. At a wicket gate and this fence, giving admission to a shrubbery, situated at some distance from the house, Amelius now waited for the appearance of the maid. After a delay of a few minutes only, the faithful Phoebe arrived at the gate with the key in her hand. Where is she? Amelius asked as the girl opened the gate for him. Waitin' for you in the shrubbery. Stop, sir. I have something to say to you first. Amelius took out his purse and produced the fee. Even he had observed that Phoebe was perhaps a little too eager to get her money. Thank you, sir. Please, to look at your watch. You mustn't be with Miss Regina a moment longer than a quarter of an hour. Why not? This is the time, sir, when Mrs. Ormond is engaged every day with her cook and housekeeper. In a quarter of an hour, their orders will be given, and Mrs. Ormond will join Miss Regina for a walk in the grounds. You will be the ruin of me, sir, she finds you here. Without warning, the maid led the way along the winding paths of the shrubbery. I must thank you for your letter, Phoebe, said Amelius as he followed her. By the by, who is your messenger? Phoebe's answer was no answer at all. Only a young man, sir, she said. In plain words, your sweet heart, I suppose. Phoebe's expressive silence was her only reply. She turned a corner and pointed to her mistress standing alone before the entrance of a damp and deserted summer house. Regina put her handkerchief to her eyes when the maid had discreetly retired. Oh, she said softly. I am afraid this is very wrong. Amelius removed the handkerchief by the exercise of a little gentle force and administered comfort under the form of a kiss. Having opened the proceedings in this way, he put his first question. Why did you leave London? How could I help it? said Regina Feebly. They were all against me. What else could I do? It occurred to Amelius that she might at her age have asserted a will of her own. He kept his idea however to himself in giving her his arm, led her slowly along the path of the shrubbery. You heard, I suppose, what Mr. Fannaby expects of me. He said, Yes, dear, I call it worse than muttonry. I call it downright brutal. Oh, Amelius, don't talk so. Amelius came suddenly to a standstill. Does that mean you agree with him? he asked. Don't be angry with me, dear. I only meant there was some excuse for him. What excuse? Well, you see, he has a high idea of your family, and he thought you were rich people, and I know you didn't mean it, Amelius, but still you did disappoint him. Amelius dropped her arm. The mildly persistent defense of Mr. Fannaby exasperated her. Perhaps I should have disappointed you, he said. Oh, no, no, how cruel you are. The ready tears showed themselves again in her magnificent eyes, gentle, considerate tears that raise no storm in her bosom and produce no unbecoming results in her face.  Some men might have still resisted her, but Amelius was not one of them. He took her hand and pressed it tenderly. Regina, he said, do you love me? You know I do. He put his arm round her waist. He concentrated the passion that was in him into a look and poured the look into her eyes. Do you love me as dearly as I love you? He whispered.  After a moment of hesitation, she put one arm timidly round his neck and bending her grand head, laid it on his bosom. Her finely rounded, supple, muscular figure trembled, as if she had been the most fragile woman living. Dear Amelius, she murmured inaudibly. He tried to speak to her. His voice failed him. She had in perfect innocence fired his young blood. He drew her closer and closer to him. He lifted her head with a masterful resolution that she was not able to resist and pressed his kisses in hot and breathless succession on her lips. His vehemence frightened her. She tore herself out of his arms with a sudden exertion of strength that took him completely by surprise. I didn't think you would have been rude to me. With that mild reproach, she turned away and took the path which led from the shrubbery to the house. Amelius followed her in treating that she would accept his excuses and grant him a few minutes more. He modestly laid all the blame on her beauty, lamented that he had not resolution enough to resist the charm of it. When did that commonplace compliment ever fail to produce its effect? Regina smiled with the weakly complaint since good nature, which was only saved from being contemptible by its association with her personal attractions. Will you promise to behave? She stipulated, and Amelius not very eagerly promised. Shall we go into the summer house? He suggested. It's very damp at this time of year. Regina answered with placid good sense. Perhaps we might catch cold. We had better walk about. They walked accordingly. I wanted to speak to you about our marriage. Amelius resumed. She sighed softly. We have some time to wait. She said, before we can think of that. He passed this reply over without notice. You know, he went on, that I have an income of five hundred a year. Yes, dear. There are hundreds of thousands of respectable artisans, Regina, with the large families who live comfortably and less than have my income. Do they, dear? And many gentlemen are not better off. Curates, for instance. Do you see what I am coming to my dally? No, dear. Could you live with me in a cottage in a little country with a nice garden, and one little maid to wait on us, and two or three new dresses in a year? Regina lifted her fine eyes and sober ecstasy to the sky. It sounds very tempting. She remarked in the sweetest tones of her voice. And it could be done. Amelia's proceeded on five hundred a year. Could it, dear? I've calculated it, allowing the necessary margin, and I'm sure of what I say, and I've done something else I have asked about the marriage license. I could easily find lodgings in the neighborhood. We might be married at her on a fortnight. Regina started her eyes open widely and rested on Amelia's with an expression of incredulous wonder. Married on a fortnight? She repeated. What would my uncle and aunt say? My annual happiness doesn't depend on your uncle and aunt. Our happiness depends on ourselves. Nobody has any power to control us. I'm a man, and you are a woman, and we have a right to be married whenever we like. Amelia's pronounced this last oracular sentence with his head held high, and a pleasant inner persuasion of the convincing manner in which he had stated his case. Without my uncle to give me away? Regina exclaimed. Without my aunt? With no bridesmaids, and no friends, and no wedding breakfast? Oh, Amelia's, what can you be thinking of? She drew back a step and looked at him in helpless consternation. For the moment, in the moment, only Amelia's lost all patience with her. If you really loved me, he said bitterly, you wouldn't think that the bridesmaids in the breakfast? Regina had her answer ready in her pocket. She took out her handkerchief. Before she could lift it to her eyes, Amelia's recovered herself. No, no, he said, I didn't mean that. I'm sure you loved me. Take my arm again. Do you know, Regina? I doubt whether your uncle has told you everything that has passed between us. Are you really aware of the hard terms that he insists on? He expects me to increase my 500 year to 2000 before a sanction on marriage. Yes, dear. He has told me that. I have as much chance of earning 1500 year, Regina, as I have of being made King of England. Did he tell you that? He doesn't agree with you, dear. He thinks you might earn it, with your abilities in 10 years. This time it was the turn of Amelia's to look at Regina in helpless consternation. 10 years, he repeated. Do you coolly contemplate waiting 10 years before we are married? Good heavens! Is it possible that you are thinking of the money? That you can't live without carriages and footmen and ostentation and grandeur? He stopped. For once, even Regina showed that she had spirit enough to be angry. You are to be ashamed of yourself to speak to me in that way. She broke out indignantly. If you have no better opinion of me than that, I won't marry you at all. No, not if you have 50,000 a year, sir, tomorrow. Am I to have no sense of duty to my uncle? To the good man who was better second father to me? Do you think I am ungrateful enough to set his wishes at defiance? Oh yes, I know you don't like him. I know that a great many people don't like him. That doesn't make any difference to me. But for dear Uncle Farnaby, I might have gone to the workhouse. I might have been made a starving needlewoman, a poor, persecuted maid of all work. Am I to forget that, because you have no patience and only think of yourself? Oh, I wish I had never met with you. I wish I had never been full enough to be as fond of you as I am. With that confession, she turned her back on him and took refuge in her handkerchief once more. Amelia stood looking at her in silent despair. After the tone in which she had spoken of her obligations to her uncle, it was useless to anticipate any satisfactory result from the exertion of his influence over Regina. Recalling what he had seen and heard in Mrs. Farnaby's room, Milius could not doubt that the motive of pacifying his wife was the motive which had first led Farnaby to receive Regina into his house. Was it unreasonable or unjust to infer that the orphan child must have been mainly indebted to Mrs. Farnaby's sense of duty to the memory of her sister, for the parental protection afforded to her? From that time forth, I would have been useless and worse than useless. To place before Regina such considerations as these, her exaggerated idea of the gratitude that she owed to her uncle was beyond the limited reach of reason. Nothing was to be gained by opposition, and no sensible course was left but to say some peacemaking words and submit. I beg your pardon, Regina, if I have offended you. You have sadly disappointed me. I haven't deliberately misjudged you. I can say no more. She turned round quickly and looked at him. There was an ominous change into resignation in his voice. There was a dogged submission in his manner that alarmed her. She had never yet seen him under the perilously patient aspect in which he now presented himself after his apology had been made. I forgive you, Emilius, with all my heart. She said, intimately held out her hand. He took it, raised it silently to his lips, and dropped it again. She suddenly turned pale. All the love that she had in her to give to a man she had given to Emilius. Her heart sank. She asked herself in blank terror if she had lost him. I am afraid it is I who have offended you.  Don't make me more unhappy than I am. I'm not in the least angry. He answered, still in the quiet, subdued way that terrified her. You can't expect to be Regina to contemplate a ten-year's engagement chitly. She took his hand and held it in both her own hands. How did, as if his love for her was there and she was determined not to let it go. If you will only leave it to me, she pleaded. The engagement shan't be so long as that. Try my uncle with a little kindness and respect, Emilius, instead of saying hard words to him, or let me try him, if you are too proud to give way. May I say that you have no intention of offending him, and that you are willing to leave the future to me? Certainly, said Emilius. If you think it will be of the slightest use, his tone added plainly. I don't believe in your uncle's mind as you do. She still persisted. It will be of the greatest use, she went on. He will let me go home again, and he will not object to your coming to see me. He doesn't like to be despised and said a defiance. Who does? Be patient, Emilius, and I will persuade him to expect less money from you. Only what you may earn, dear, with your talents, long before ten years have passed. She waited for a word of reply, which might show that she had encouraged him a little. He only smiled. You talk of loving me. She said, drawing back from him with a look of reproach. And you don't even believe what I say to you. She stopped and looked behind her with a faint cry of alarm. Hurried footsteps were audible on the other side of the evergreens that screened them. Emilius stepped back to a turn in the path and discovered Phoebe. Don't stay a moment longer, sir! Cryed the old girl, I've been in the house and Mrs. Ormond isn't there, and nobody knows what she is. Get out by the gate, sir, while you have the chance. Emilius returned to Regina. I mustn't get the girl into a scrape. He said, You know where to write to me, goodbye. Regina made a sign to the maid to retire. Emilius had never taken leave of her as he was taking leave of her now. She forgot the fervent embrace and the daring kisses. She was desperate at the bare idea of losing him. Oh, Emilius, don't doubt that I love you. Say you believe I love you. Kiss me before you go. He kissed her, but ah, not as he had kissed her before. He said the words she wanted him to say, but only to please her, not with all his heart. She let him go, reproaches would be wasted at that moment. Phoebe found her pale and unmovable rooted to the spot on which they had parted. Dea, dea me, miss, what's gone wrong? And her mistress answered wildly in words that had never before passed her placid lips. Oh, Phoebe, I wish I was dead. Such was the impression left on the mind of Regina by the interview in the shrubbery. The impression left on the mind of Emilius was stated in equally strong language later in the day. His American friend asked innocently for news and was answered in these terms.  The wise man from New England was too wise to trouble Emilius with questions under these circumstances. Is that so? was all he said. Then he put his hand in his pocket and producing the letter, laid it quietly on the table. Phoebe? Emilius asked. You wanted something to occupy your mind? the wildly Rufus answered. There it is. Emilius read the letter. It was dated Hampton Institution, the secretary invited Emilius, in highly complementary terms, to lecture in the Hall of the Institution on Christian Socialism as taught and practiced in the community at Tadmore. He was offered two-thirds of the profits derived from the sale of places, and was left free to appoint his evening, at a week's notice, and to issue his own advertisements. Minor details were reserved to be discussed with the secretary when the lecturer had consented to the arrangement proposed to him. Having finished the letter, Emilius looked at his friend. This is your doing. He said, Rufus admitted it, with his customary candor. He had a letter of introduction to the letter, and he had called by appointment that morning. The Institution wanted something new to attract the members in the public, having no present intention of lecturing himself. He had thought of Emilius, and had spoken his thought. I mentioned, Rufus added slightly, that I didn't reckon you would mount the platform, but he's a sanguine creature that's secretary, and he said he'd try. Why should I say no? Emilius asked a little irritably. The secretary pays me a compliment and offers me an opportunity of spreading our principles. Perhaps he added more quietly after a moment's reflection. You thought I might not be equal to the occasion, and in that case I don't say you were wrong. Rufus shook his head. If you had passed your life in this decrepit little island, he replied, I might have doubted you likely enough, but had more situated in the United States. If they don't practice the boys and the art of erading, don't you tell me there's an American citizen with a voice in that society? Yes, again, my son. You won't? Well, then, towards Uncle Farnaby I had in my mind. I said to myself, not to the secretary, Emilius is bound to consider Uncle Farnaby. Oh my, what would Uncle Farnaby say? The heart temper of Emilius took fire instantly. What the devil do I care for Farnaby's opinions? He burst out. There's a man in England who wants the principles of Christian socialism beaten into his thick-headed Farnaby. Are you going to see the secretary again? I might look in. Rufus answered in the course of the evening. Tell him I'll give the lecture with my compliments and thanks. If I can only succeed, pursued Emilius hearing himself with the new idea, I may make a name as a lecturer and a name means money, and money means beating Farnaby with his own weapons. That's an opening for me, Rufus, at the crisis of my life. That is so, Rufus admitted. I may as well look up the secretary. Why shouldn't I go with you? Emilius suggested. Why not? Rufus agreed. They left the house together. End of book four, chapter four, recording by Elsie Stelwin.