Are you ready? Yeah, we're real now. I'm rim. I'm Scott. We're the host of Geek Nights and not that long ago We did a show on Geek Nights. We took that chart. You guys know that chart. Well not the fall 208 chart. It was that kind of chart Yeah, that is the chart of here's all the anime that's coming and a tiny amount of information about it now one You guys are spoiled nowadays back in my day. There was no way to know what anime was coming You went to the anime club and some really old dude would hand you a VHS tape like this is golden boy It was just fan-soaked also some dude would spend a lot of money for like the Japanese new type magazine And you would look through it and see pictures and some of the titles are in English And maybe one person in the room could translate some of the other titles and that was all you knew about what anime was coming soon But now we have these charts, so we decided we had the great idea Let's review all the anime that were coming up just from the chart doing no research and knowing nothing about the show And in doing so one we pissed off a lot of our fans because they liked some of the shows we cropped all over But two we started to realize that a lot of anime can kind of be judged Pretty accurately just by the promotional art and the cover Yeah, obviously, right you judge something based on a picture a title and less than a paragraph of text You can get it wrong pretty easily, right? It's they say don't judge a book by a cover and it's true Right a lot of times you will see something think it's one thing and nope It's actually another thing but if you see a novel and that novel has a girl in a chain mail bikini Straddling a sword with a snake and this dragon in the background, you know exactly what that book is going to be like I mean, this is small chance small chance you could be wrong, right? But odds are no, you're not going to be wrong. You you can judge that by the cover. Yeah, so We've noticed a few trends And we'd like to point this out basically the whole format of this is we're going to talk about some of the trends And things we've noticed the sort of warning signs that the show is bad or a show is about a certain particular thing And one of the most prominent ones i've noticed is shows about guns Now i want to point out that the girl is drawn in anime style, but that is not only A surprisingly accurate representation of that pistol, but it's drawn better than she is and it's a real world pistol So clearly this show we already know guaranteed, right just as much as that chain mail bikini This is a show targeted at those military gun otaku guys who like have airsoft weapons of everything because my life Have real weapons in japan, but they also reading like gun magazines But they also kind of want to see something about girls It's almost i don't want to say it's a fetish thing because it's not but it's sort of like they fetish size the guns And they put the girls in by mixing together you get a really creepy show Just based on the cover alone. It's like don't judge by the cover. No, we can judge this by the cover Little girls and accurately drawn guns and it turns out that we're right now It's specifically you look at all one of the common signs the way to know a show is a show about guns If if you can actually say that that is a stare aug And it is it is a real gun in the real world because that gun is also a counter strike I mean look at that picture that is from the show. That's also an fnp 90 We're just also a counter strike whatever dude has that as his background on his laptop Which of the things in this image does he care about more? Oh Man look at that machine I mean if you look at the title right girl is the last word in the title gun is the first word So sign number one if a show has Ultra realistic representations of real world guns. It is a show about guns. It's probably almost the same as gunslinger girls Initial d is a show about guns just replace guns with cars. I mean those faces And those playstation cars, but they're real cars. That is an actual car you can go by I mean when the show came out right those cg cars were actually like the height of computer generated animation And the people were about 20 years dated in terms of you know cell animation of you know human beings So you can tell right people really care right those guns looked really like high res because that shows a lot Newer right if you watch initial d now the cars look like freaking grand tarismo They look like real cars now another good example You might remember a show that was pretty dumb called x driver Now people would have ignored x driver except it at the same character designer as all my goddess And that dude freaking loves cars and motorcycles the show is just a terrible weird show But if you look at the promotional art the cars are accurate representations of current modern day cars from the real world That show is obviously about the cars because of those those are the images in the promotional art I mean He's opening that up to show you that's basically the equivalent of the guy with the desktop where the bikinis like just starting to fall off So what about shows about guns? So spice in the world and this show In our opinion have the same not necessarily problem, but ostensibly they're about economics But really They're about guns Now you can tell these shows these are the shows that give the people who are watching them an excuse to say they like the show And I know I just read playboy for the articles Yeah, I mean this is the thing that actually bothers me more than porn like if someone's watching porn Like I personally believe if you want to watch porn you can watch as long as it's not you know Evil porn where someone was hurt me in the process right and if you want to watch that good Right, but it's like these shows there's a lot of them especially an anime where like it's porn But it like covers up things and it gives you an excuse to me and it's almost worse right because you're being dishonest And I feel like you're trying to hide in your shame hole So someone who's you know getting I'm getting on with that sort of not actually porn and making an excuse And it's sort of like I look down on that person a lot more than someone who's just you know fapping to straight up I guess it depends on where I mean if you're looking down out of guy who's back under straight up Where are you literally? Figuratively looking down on them, but I mean spice and wolf did this too. I was like, oh, this is going to be show about some Awesome goddess. This is going to be awesome. Oh, no, she's kind of naked all the time But it's technically about economics. It's totally okay. That's something that actually bothers me too Is that like I'll be fooled into watching a show that was actually porn sometimes, right? It's like Oh, it shows about economics awesome. I kind of want to watch that.  I was tricked once into watching dragon pink instead of dragon half Yeah, my mom wasn't too happy about that So if you watch a show like spice and wolf or this show not saying the bad shows We're just saying the people who say, oh, no, it's about the economics and it's super cool The economics and spice and wolf is super boring. You're watching it for the wolf girl. Don't even pretend to me You're really just watching shubra because they're all that show Shubra is the epitome of this kind of show. This is a show We actually bit the bullet and made a sacrifice for all the people in this room and watched one whole episode of this What this is is a show that is ostensibly and actually yeah, it is an educational show about middle school girls underwear They literally do teach you like different shapes of underwear or good like this one's like this fashion designer that fashion designer When you can get away with this one to show them a strap or whatever Oh, your bra doesn't fit right. You should wear a bigger one. You should wear a smaller one Usually right and it's like yeah, it has all that as an excuse for middle school girl porn This is not a show about guns despite the fact that gun is in the title try gun He's holding a gun. The plot is about guns. I won't spoil it. But yeah, there's three guns try gun But yet look one that is no root that gun does not exist That gun does not exist anywhere in the world to the guns Actually are the plots The guns and gunslinger girls are just a vehicle for the fetishized sort of this is an anime about guns and girls Whatever in this the try gun This is a show about pacifism and how it's a failed philosophy But you should strive for it even though it cannot ever be realized Guns are central to that kind of idea. This is not a show about guns It's a show about pacifism and vashah san pete and doughnuts that happens to have guns in it So what about the fan service shows we point something out here? There's kind of big ridiculous breasts and slayers. There's kind of big ridiculous breasts in the legend of lendmere Don't watch legend of lendmere I posit that you can tell whether or not a show has hilarious fan service Or creepy fan service based solely on the way the breasts are represented on the covers of the dvds Uh, why is the nipple have this light on it? Why is there like there's one light source? But then there's got to be like this secondary point light right there like look at that You don't see any nipples here.  It's like the one on the right could almost maybe be a real breast kind of no But the one on the left clearly is just it's a stage left. Yeah, I can draw that And also look at the way this is presented. This is sort of secondary It's there, but it's not central to the image. It's like pointing right at you with the show If you look they're both pretty close to the middle of the you know the the image But you know naga is in terms of percentage of the totals You know pixels that are there only a very small number of them are breasts I'd say at least like 10 of legend of lendmere's picture Now if you google image search, which i'm not going to recommend for slayers You're going to find a whole bunch of greasy pictures of ins exploding and it's hilarious If you google image search for this, it's pretty much nothing but naked people Also, it's a terrible show now Not saying fan service is bad We're saying that you can tell when the fan service is going to be creepy Or when the fan service is the only reason anyone watches that show in the first place Some shows are only about the fandom and it doesn't matter what the shows are Does anyone know what that show is that show?  They were drawing fan art You'd see so much fan art and cosplay about this show at the con I'd say the percentage was half of a home stock And yet now no one remembers the show that girl does yeah So one person out of a room or however many people two people remember vice cruise Because the show was terrible and I remember at our it anime asking people. Yo, what's vice cruise about? They hadn't even seen it They just read the fan fix and looked at the fan art They didn't know what the show was about or they tried to watch it and realized it was terrible I think it was even a sequel that not even the people who liked the first one watch now I'm not saying this is going to be terrible This might be great I it does not matter if the show is great or terrible What matters is that the focus of this show is pleasing a particular demographic out there People are going apeshit about this show and it doesn't even exist yet They're going based on this picture and what 12 seconds of animation of a fun Now one way to figure out if it shows about the fandom is to do the google image search So let's see let's see right here. This is the top cosplay of fan art fan art in a particular way the bud And a relationship chart Now if you click on that relationship chart, that's not just some fans. That's official This show regardless of if it's good or bad is aimed at the people who are going to make fan art and fan works about it So if you're going to watch that show you got to be ready for this because that's what they're making it for The google image search is the best way to know what a show is really about You can barely read that chart, but obviously he's dating him and I don't even know what these things mean So one thing that's always on these charts is the studio it always says here's a picture here's a paragraph Here's the studio right and people seem to think that like the studio will tell you what kind of show it's going to be And that's true to an extent right like if it's studio jibbly, you know what to expect But you know what that's not a guarantee right spirit away one of the best ever earth seem one of the worst ever Right both studio jibbly that studio doesn't really tell you if it's going to be good or bad But it might tell you something about what you're about to see now furthermore Many of you will think this like oh ganzo shows always have bad endings or madhouse make goes like this satellite like this like Prayer you think of the names of studios and you'll remember a few shows they did and you'll be like Oh, yeah, those all were kind of the same I sat down and took a made a list of every show for the last few years that every major studio had made They're all All over the place the tropes you think gynax was known for in the 90s are way different from the tropes They'd be known for in 2001 versus Evangelion and they made more romantic right it doesn't really get much further apart than that So this is actually a red herring people put way too much emphasis on the studio and even further Do you know how many shows do you actually look? Yeah, so satellite did the production, but they outsourced the compositing to these other three studios There's so much turnover people work for multiple studios. They move around they share work Studio is almost a useless indicator much more useful director storyboards The screenplay writer what the original source material was it a manga? Was it a light novel? Director is probably the most important character designer maybe a little bit after that But studio is not going to be a really good indicator what the show is going to be like There are exceptions We're about to review a ton of anime that we haven't seen and we know nothing about on purpose But if you just saw this screenshot, I saw this screenshot before mataka came out And I was like whatever some magical girls show right, but then right about a few months later This thread appeared in their forum well a maji mataka magica and the thread kept getting bumped to the top of the forum I'm like, why is this thread keep getting bumped up? It's a magical girl show So then I goes to investigate and I'm like, oh, I have everyone's talking about it You know, I gotta I'll watch it and see and of course it's like the best thing ever, but Right if there is an exception if you go around like us judging things by their cover and you get it wrong The internet will come and correct you you'll notice right when there is an exception to the rule It'll come around again And you just have to be mad enough to accept your mistake that you judged to buy the cover the first time and give it Another chance right if everyone starts talking about something you're probably wrong And that's that's fine. That's great because this means we can safely Judge everything by the cover and the one percent of the time we're wrong We'll fix it later another example. So the new my little pony back when it came out There's a post in our forum and it said, hey guys, the new my little pony is actually really good Seriously, you should watch it. The next post was a picture of fry from Futurama. Not sure if troll So we were like, yeah, whatever And then that thread kept growing kept growing. He was on the front page of our forum for a couple years running So after it hit like a thousand posts like all right, we got to see what the deal is and yeah I already saw what the deal is So you'll you will never Ever will you miss an exception because the internet will tell you and the exceptions are often some of the best shows I cannot think of an anime better than mataka that has come out since mataka Don't say attack on titan. It's too new. It's too close.  I know nothing about any of these shows We're gonna see we literally just cut them up and pasted them in right We are going to complete completely prejudice and jerky and probably wrong and judge all these shows based on one picture All right kingdom 2 Sequel to the kingdom tv series. I have never watched this.   He's angry Anytime I see that you know warring states period of china, right? That's always their favorite, right? What's that play station game where all you do is hit buttons Dynasty warriors, right? It's going to be just like that, right? It's going to be a fighting show Right, it's going to have that sort of visual styles. We're probably going to be pretty boring You know, but I guess enough people watch the first one and maybe it's targeting like the eight year olds I'm I am confident this show is going to be like initial d or cooking master boy Which is a show about the warring cooking states period and how general ship is determined by how good one cooks I think it's going to be a show almost exactly like that basic shown in fighting But with battles and maybe these guys like armies Looks to me based on that picture, right? It's sort of the naruto thing going on Like the right side guy is like naruto and the left side guy is sasuke So this is a show I would personally pretty much ignore because those shows don't interest me But then again, someone might say otherwise All right, let's see what's going on there. Tell me you're uh But she doesn't look porny at all. Yeah, there's no danger signs in that picture whatsoever photos With her father's old film camera now, I doubt this is an anime aimed at hipsters No, this could actually it has the potential at best to be sort of a sweet wait wait danger sign one They tell you the kind of camera it is Her father's old the camera the gun the camera might be the gun No, but it follows her to friends as she comes to love for a new home I'll bet this is a slice of life coming of age in a new town and the camera is gonna Keep going back. She's gonna keep having flashbacks to her dad or pictures her dad took Maybe she'll go and try to take the same picture her dad took I think it could be sort of at best like a sweet Makoto shinkai kind of deal, right? We're sort of like, you know calm and peaceful and you know, the other important thing it's a sequel So that means whatever it was before was at least moderately successful and two it's an original Originals can be either be really good or super crappy, but they're rarely just mediocre See, I wish they would put on here what tv channel and time slot it was in right because that tells you a lot more If it's on like in the afternoon that means it's tired It's you know, it's something that's good for like kids coming over from school If it's on like one in the morning, you know, it's for permits, right? If it's actually an oav or an ova, that's very different than if it's a tv show They do tell you that on these charts. They tell you ova movie or tv series Yeah, but they usually put it in a separate section Yeah, so I really wonder like this could be, you know, is this a noi tom in a show? That means it's great no matter what, right? We don't know that Yeah, but basically look point out. There's no warning signs whatsoever The only thing we can figure out is that it might have a gun in it This is definitely a porty fan service Six guns. Look at that. Look at that It's like a softball And the fact that they're so prominent and they're like the light of idols using sympho gear The light is coming in from this angle and yet there's oops There's extra light just to make sure you see that boob up there Also proper nouns that are made up in this. Yeah, cypher.  I can't even detect any redeeming aspect whatsoever in any of this Now it's also a sequel. So I guess there was one before I guess they put all the sequels at the beginning of the chart They might Yeah, yeah this show I defy anyone to come to us after the show comes out and tell us to our face It is not terrible and those books are not horrible. They can just watch the first series. It's already out, right? I mean the second one's probably gonna be really similar to the first one I doubt you have a gun them see destiny situation when your show is a boob show True because notice the shows where the sequel is way different from the original our shows like big o Big o one robot punch another robot in the face big o two avangelion with tomatoes All right, so I'm worried now. There's a warning sign this could be good This could be bad, but the angle right there really worries me The fact that they had to show you the leg going in and a little bit and the shoulder nearly like six years old I'm always worried whenever you get that sort of angle on a young looking character But musical tarot cards reading destinies Yeah, I mean at best it's card capture sakura, but it feels to me like it's going to be worse at best Card capture sakura at worst that creepy alice in wonderland magical real show Okay, this looks pretty good already. It's actually I'm liking this right to the boob is there, but it's a tasteful one It's a human boob Right, it's a little big. It's a little unnecessarily big, but it's not unrealistic Right and it centers on employees of a government ward office and as it follows. Oh, that's so that's amazing Government employees, you know what this is going to be this is going to be like uh planet s or pet labor It's going to be just all the people in the office dealing with their office crap and it's going to be funny I think I'm going to watch this. Yeah, it's got a good style. It's got thick lines based on a manga, right? So that manga is maybe the manga was popular enough to warrant see when it's an original show Right, you know, it's sort of like a risk for them. You don't know. It's good or bad But when something's based on a manga that means, you know, we don't know the you like the manga or not But it means the manga was popular enough to get an anime made out of it Yeah, now the manga in the old days manga would be super popular They wouldn't make an anime they'd make a terrible oav If you take good manga from the early 90s and see an oav of it If you see a tape just burn it don't even try to watch it Now this is totally a prejudice But I've noticed lately the shows that I find to be the most interesting that come out recently Tend to have thicker lines around the characters. I think that's just a stylistic thing that's kind of random And it might not be 100 true, but it's been something I've noticed All right that show So it's not the nipples kind of there but it's hidden but that shiny spot right there Well, you can see warning sign number one is obviously the image but warning sign number two six volumes of light novels Yeah light novels usually are lean in the morning direction Yeah, even good ones like Shinsekai yori a recent show that came out from the new world Super good, but it's kind of a lot more sexually charged in the light novel and the manga is porn Straight up awful porn So I'm gonna tell us what's it about it just says the seven second now here's a warning sign Second season is in quotation marks What the second season arc of the monogatari series now it's shaft But I don't know between the shininess and that image. I'm gonna assume this is really her facial expression is sort of like Oh, don't hurt me. That's pretty bad all right So I posit That over the last I don't know 10 years There have been at least 20 shows where girls wear this exact kind of outfit with the little stripes And it's white and the bow and the boobs are hanging out and there's that little black line kind of making sure you get that definition Right, and the thing is it's like high school, but it's like that's like half made Wait a minute. Wait a minute. The story follows a dim-witted letcher's second-year high school student There's this talent. We don't need to wait. Wait. It was killed by a girl on his first date Reincarnated as a devil Serves as an underling of a girl who's the prettiest girl on campus This is going to be goonie comedy with a lot of sexual comedy and a lot of oh my god, bloody nose.  That's what i'm going to guess that is Uh, record Recorder to a rondo setter me with a little star sequel another sequel to wait a minute Wait a minute elementary student elementary. They're getting young Who's building appearances the same as a typical adult man warning sign warning sign? She's technically 18 And otomi his sister is a high school girl whose appearance is like an elementary student. Oh, yeah She's she's actually high school age, but she looks like an elementary school girl. Watch out That's a huge warning. She's not another show is terrible. We had a friend counter misunderstandings, right?  That's why I Stayed the hell away from this thing Now the image itself wouldn't trouble me But because of the age stuff there I'm worried because we knew a dude way back at rit And I walked into a conversations at the rit anime club And i'm up at the front like doing my thing and I walk over toward a conversation and I hear the words literally Well, technically saw me seven to seven hundred years old and I just walked away. Nope Nope I mean, yeah, even showed there are shows that like this could have been like bunny drop right now It's like the bunny drop anime and it's like good but that apparently right after that part it becomes only kind of it's like Does anyone seem bunny drop, you know what the show's about? All right So the show is about a dude who basically adopts this cute little girl And it's this after like her parents die and it's this great comedy slice of life of like a guy It's like yo, but a little bit more serious a little bit less cute But yeah, then there's a time skip and they start dating It's basically his daughter right it's totally screwed up All right, this is all right. All right. All right. No warning signs show so far This is probably going to be some sort of wacky comedy with a cast of girls This could be sort of like gatekeepers ish in a way a homestay in great britain. This might be more like nichicho Or like k on what's not as crazy as nichicho Right, so then maybe more like k on where it's a group of girls hanging out doing their thing Airmail arrives from alice a girl in the host family britain britain host family britain There's going to be a lot of jokes about cultural misunderstandings and tea all that It does seem like there's going to be some sort of adventure going on here, right? So maybe this like, you know, just a team innocently adventuring without really any This show might be a little bit moe But not creepy moe. It might be moe like what was that show with fun? I don't remember we saw some moe show And you know moe shows often have this sort of edge of yeah, this is cute But I worry about why the guy next to me is watching it I don't think this has the creep factor So I there's no danger sign that this is a bad show. It might be cute and funny But there's nothing that's really showing to me that this is going to be a great show worth watching Right is the kind of thing where if there's a big thread in our forum that says Tini Ro Mosaic, right and it keeps popping up that I'll know something's up But if not I don't need to go look this is the kind of show I would watch the first episode of on crunchy roll and then like review it on geek nights like oh, this is okay Or maybe it's not maybe we were wrong. Okay, so this is season two of something that we already know out there This is obviously fighting adventure Take slayers, but make it a little more fighting maybe halfway between slayers It's like a rave master. It's kind of thing to be I hated rave master, but We're like Now the plot of this Makes me think it might be more like go-goo No Basically the king decreed that the descendants of the hero must take take on the threat and 75 dudes show up And we follow hero number 45. Yeah, you know why this is exactly what's gonna happen. He's gonna fight I'm the 45 strongest man. I'm He's gonna fight 74 other dudes and each one takes 10 episodes to fight And then eventually number one is like at the end all this mysterious dude and then after you beat number one I'm gonna say the king is number zero This is a three-way combination of rave master goku dough And slayers you could almost say that each one of those 75 guys is one of the shards of the freaking crystal in unigaja That's why they're on season two. They're gonna need like now Let's see get all those. I would be worried about a show that has the word doll in the title And doll is used as a proper noun. I mean it's even in quotation marks around doll to basically refer to like robot girl Right, but and the girls the girls fight and power up special cards, right? So it's you know, this it's a little porny in the design of these But not too bad. This is not too bad. It's not a poor what this mostly is to sell this game, right? Sort of like that. Uh, what's that divinion made game? Uh Yeah, it's tanto quarry basically, but they're trying to sell some other team that's not tanto quarry No, this this doesn't remind me of porn this character design reminds me of dating sim We don't know enough about it other than dolls I'm gonna assume it's a magical girl fighting thing very video game Esk with cute character designs that I worry won't actually animate that well Because anytime I see a show that has a super good sort of like interesting character design It's very rare that it's animated the way the promotion Notice it says original down there, right? So that means if they're gonna do some games the games are gonna be based on this as opposed to it's based on an existing game Otherwise it would say game down at the bottom blood If I didn't know anything I'd assume the show will feel like a show called darker than black just because the way the characters look looks like x to me I know it's got the cool quirky guy in the background who is either really funny or really creepy It's hard to tell with the show like that That guy's only gonna be that's like the silent guy on the team like the pyro or is that like well? I'm glad that shy guy found a job at least Wait a minute. Wait a minute. This might be funny blood lead follows staz a vampire obsessed with the human world So it's a human otaku I guess that's the guy on the bottom left we're assuming that could be pretty funny actually And a girl who was killed and turned into a ghost wandering the demon world You know what this is gonna be a supernatural comedy Yeah, I don't know how comedy it's gonna be. I think it's gonna be more comedy than serious It's gonna be more fighting with uh, you know that sort of supernatural style All right, you know what I'm gonna say because I was burned by this when I saw bleach The character designs and the first episode. I was like, this is gonna be awesome. Oh wait and shown in fighting Solita. Oh, this is gonna be awesome. Oh wait. It's just fighting This might be halfway back from fighting and closer to supernatural comedy because solely vampire otaku We've ever seen that before it could be more like a darker than black kind of situation darker than black has mystery from space I don't think the show has the mystery of the thing that really makes me think it's more about fighting Is just like the shapes of their faces right the way those characters are designed more simply Tells me that they're going to be less used for drama and more used in action scenes Right because they're simpler to draw like that. All right, fine. I'll give you 33 percent supernatural comedy fine There's no good. You can go find out there are no danger signs Oh, I'm all about the show. I don't even know what it's about. All right, let's see comedy Oh, a tanuki and a tango. Oh, man. Uh-oh. This is good So this might just be a prejudice for us, but I like the shows that are different from all the other shows I like the shows like there's a show you can see on crunchy roll right now called Japanese folktales It is just cute animations of for real Japanese folktales. It's great, but that's kind of up my alley This is a show this kind of up my alley and again look it's got the thick lines Like I pointed out before if it's animated like this Double down it looks like it's cute and it's about supernatural folktale Japanese kind of stuff The greater the less percentage chance a show has of being licensed in the u.s The greater percentage chance that we will enjoy it So the chance of this being licensed in the u.s Maybe like 1% now also I point out not light novel. This is based on a novel Novel real book big boy book Someone who's literate I am confident that whatever this is it's going to be worth watching Okay, it's got the word love in the title and it's high school and the skirts and but but but but three kinds of girls No warning signs nothing creepy about any of this All right now here's the danger here's the danger It actually uses that word In the description So here's when sometimes if you want to know if a show is porn or love stuff Do the google image search? Oh, I didn't do it. So I did a google image search of this show And it's basically all relationship charts. This is going to be basically like urie dating sim as far as I can tell Another thing you can tell right even if character designs aren't super porny. These are like a little bit tiny, right? No, they're more cute when they try to cover It's a harem show and they try to cover every kind right to show you get one for everybody So it's like love hyena is like a great example, right? It's like there's one kind of girl in that house So no matter which kind of dude you are you're gonna like one of them, right? So it's like, oh, we got glasses girl We got main character girl. We got sort of quite shy girl and I bet there's more of them, right? You know that already in that picture. Yeah google image searching. It's a girls elite school And I'm pretty sure it's going to be all sort of like cute romance won't actually be porn There's no way this show will actually be porny. It's just going to be cute and implied romance And probably at least a few people falling on each other shows like this can be annoying sometimes because it's like you watch it And you can enjoy it honestly without you know it being porn, but no there's some other guy who's fapping to it and it's like As long as he's not in the same room with you it's fine Right, but it's like some guy turns your mount porn into porn with like here's the side at a convention You know there's 18 plus like hentai showings at anime cons in my 12 years of going to anime con experience of life If you walk into one of those rooms everyone's laughing That's a good room to be in if you walk into that room and everyone's silent. Nope All right season two again really big boobs that somebody's reaching around and grabbing from behind Four high school girls in the tennis clubs, but it's a sequel. I don't think they're playing a lot of tennis I'll bet they are this is gonna be you want to see tennis. Just get Prince of tennis.  I think it's just gonna be cute playing tennis girls with a little bit of moe and a whole bunch of Excuse for some dead or alive kind of activities I don't think that's gonna be the case Because they're not while they're big There's not a lot of definition and there's no shininess and no devil those are beach balls They're not gonna bounce even half as much as dead or alive You're not playing tennis right now All right, so Just from again my prejudice This is the kind of show that I think is gonna be great because anytime you see a show that is specifically A manga that you would see in a japanese bookstore that will never ever ever be in english It's gotta be the best one.  Look that guy's super serial that guy's kind of weird That guy's the main guy who's super earnest and really wants to make the farm work. There's a cow hanging out up here I can definitely watch in this game It's no what oh it doesn't say there's no studio listed. Yeah manga and it's great Based on a manga cool character designs on the list. This is this is out of the box. I would assume this is worth watching Okay, okay, so Lacky comedy maybe but scissors Absurd mystery comedy All right, this looks like it's about a guy who gets killed Resurrected as a doxon And is adopted by a sadistic novelist and it says this quote uses scissors to abuse him I assumes he's like cutting the dog's hair, right? I mean look at the hair at the top of his head Yeah, now also it's gonzo now. I said studio usually doesn't matter, but all those combined I don't think this is going to be a creepy show. Let's do the google image search So the scissors are in Almost all of these Unless you can tell me what name brand of scissor that is I'm pretty sure this is going to be those scissors are going to be the recurring joke like oh my god And we're down rick. Look how short you are. Yeah, it's gonna. It's like. Oh my god dog. You made a mistake I'm going to punish you now. That's gonna happen once per episode. Oh my god men. She was so poor.  I'll bet she is just like misa misa without the ability to actually kill me This is a mystery, right?  No, I'll bet she's going to be inspector gadget and she never solves the mystery He solves it. She takes the credit and then she blames him I think this is going to be kind of funny. Yeah, I don't know if I watch it though It's you know, we'll see if someone starts talking about it. All right, brother's confus. The word brothers is already bothering me All right. Now this character design is not like the porny stuff. This looks more like A early 80s shoujo manga. Let's think about other things with the word brother like brother Well brother to brother I have nothing to say about brother. She suddenly gets 11 brothers. Maybe it's a dude harem and we just don't see the dudes in the shot Wait a minute suddenly 11 brothers. This could be a marmalade boy situation But it's a girl from 32 years old down to 11 years old. They're covering any possible taste in dudes. All right Obviously this picture was cropped out. So we don't know what's going on in the background. Let's do the gis All right. This is obviously a girl Look relationship sharp Implied relationship between two dudes Oh, I see when you go 11 dudes in the house, it's not just about which one the girl's gonna, you know, with brothers He's gonna end up this is gonna be about all the drama of all the brothers with her with other families With each other with their friends. Is he gay or not? Is he gonna date him? What's going on?  I wonder if this will be like candy candy But with a whole bunch of dating 11 brothers, but she did live in an orphanage All right, this Madhouse little girl big weapon. This is going to be the generic semi blockbuster pseudo fighting mystery and space show this At best it'll be scrap princess. This is the darker than black look Blah blah blah blah blah proper noun in quotes grave keepers their task This show is going to be all about the proper noun mysteries of the world And these characters are going to break the mold her jobs to be a gatekeeper grave keeper But then she's going to not do the job because that's going to be the secret mystery in the plot This is darker than black too It's madhouse based on a light novel Doesn't look horny It's probably just be you know one of those shows her name is I so I wonder if they're going to be something where she falls in love One day a boy shows up. Okay Generic middle of the road anime easily forgotten. All right, this description is kind of oddly I see this a lot because a lot of times fans write these descriptions for these charts Why isn't it so specific one day a boy named honpuni Haba hunbato Appears and begins firing his pistol indiscriminately And setting the village on fire. That's an oddly specific way to introduce the core conceit of a show I think that's just a bad way to recommend anime people tend to even get that information for a show That's not going to be out until summer of 2013.  She's an old breaker and that's the end But if you're recommending anime We did a panel on this before but this is a good example of if you're going to explain The core conceit of a show don't explain the oddly specific detail of the first episode Say something like you know, this is a show where the village has these traditions But it turns out they're wrong and they're blocked off from the outside because of blah That show is poor There is no way that show is not awful All right, next It's shot. They're tiny girls. We already had a shiny one and now we have basketball But the tennis one was not shiny. It was flat. It was matte This one is shiny in every conceivable way tight pants exposed belly button this show But that's because she's jumping. There's gonna be a lot of jumping when you play basketball I feel creepy just having this on screen. That's why I said to change it quickly Also a title like that no show with a title like that's going to be good A long name usually means interesting. Zyzen Jotaro Yeah So this character design. I see this one character in here that really stands out is the guy mr. Potato Head right there mr. Humpty Dumpty Right, mr. Humpty Dumpty tells me this show is going to have something exciting So I would say this reminds me of video game aesthetics It reminds me of nine doors nine hours nine whatever you read that text and this is telling you This is one of those flop, you know rules things right battle royale. They were a lesson Right the rules of the death note. You can write this but not bad.  Wait a minute. This is mafia or werewolf the anime But you actually have to have a murder each night and if you pick the if you don't get the If you don't find out who the killer is correctly in the trial that everyone now We're right because this is in fact based on a game and that's the evil You know what this is actually also like uh, bocorano, right? Is this some evil creature that's opposing this on them So you're saying that's dung beetle or kubei. That is who that is. Yeah spoilers kubei is not a nice guy You know what I kind of want to see this. Yeah I mean it's not I don't think it'd be better than the existing things it's borrowing from but it's like I kind of like that Sort of trope and I want more but notice how specific of a genre That is the genre of we have a whole bunch of incredibly specific world building rules That the characters have to follow because then you watching at one you're going to be thinking well What would I do well the rule says this? Why don't they do it?  You've ever played dungeons and dragons, right? And notice this right this is based on a game So there is some game out there that is this thing, right? And that game is very unlikely to ever be translated But pretty much almost every anime gets fans up or brought over or streamed, right? So we'll actually be able to see this one. That sounds good Fate collide line. All right. I'm I'm worried. Oh a spin-off of fate stay night people like that show Yeah, it seems okay. I didn't watch it though. It's a generic magical girl show There's nothing creepy about it. Nothing creepy at all So maybe like one of those characters is a character from fate stay night And it's like all about them and their magical girlness. I would assume it is just a magical girl show It looks sailor mooney. I don't know. No, it looks more ccse card kept her soccer right It's definitely not fancy lala. Nothing's fancy lala. You accept fancy lala. Yeah Uh-oh look at down low. Oh my Look at the pose.  So It's pretty rare that an anime based on a role-playing game is going to be good Even name one that was good or that existed. That's good. Yeah, I'm moving on This is this got delayed like twice It's not even coming out yet. We don't know when it's coming out. I don't think we need to You know say anything now. We said studio doesn't matter But one if it's toa that it's probably going to be some great classic It's going to be some big money Big deal thing toa is one of the old standards and the fact that it is delayed tells you they're working really hard on it Now it's interesting let's say it was coming out now We know the reason they used a picture from the manga Is because no one knows what this thing actually really looks like yet We don't have a lot of information about the new sailor moon The rumor is that the new sailor moon And I didn't research this. I just knew it because I uh So there was a time before digital fansubs and before really internet Where I mailed a bunch of vhs tapes to a guy called vkill and he mailed them back to me With all 200 episodes of sailor moon fansub and that's how I watched it all one weekend kind of into sailor moon So there's a rumor that the new sailor moon is going to be much closer to what the manga is like The manga is way more like green lantern Then you would expect and a lot less like the anime you actually saw and you can see that rumor is sort of semi Confirmed if you believe the chart because it says manga at the bottom as opposed to sequel of the anime or anything like that Well, it couldn't really be a sequel after what happens in episode 200 of sailor stars All right, all right really looks like pumpkin Uh, uh, uh, uh, let's see that's an fmp 90 Uh, I don't know the name of that gun but a gun friend of ours recently posted a picture of that gun in our forum And talked about it. So whatever that gun is is a real gun. So the gun is the gun is what you're saying This is a gun show aimed at airsoft fanboys. Oh ginex made it though So I guess ginex also made them a horror mad Team good job guys This is totally going to be a show where you follow a bunch of girls Playing their airsoft and explaining airsoft to you But you're also seeing the cute girls doing the cute thing So the guy who's super into airsoft can watch this and fantasize about girls playing airsoft with him Seriously the p90 why is that the sign? Uh, and it's high school girls quote parentheses who look super good in mini skirts Playing airsoft, so Obviously we might be wrong on some of these shows It's possible if we are wrong one. I would love for you to tell us that we were wrong Yeah, we need to find out those exceptions like monica because we can refine our heuristics We do a lot of lectures like the penny arcade x1 one thing we always talk about is that we study game theory Yes, you can look at some crazy complex board game and do the math and play perfectly But humans can't do that fast enough in their heads and humans suck at that So you develop heuristics you as an anime fan Want to watch anime? I assume or home stuck I guess but At the same time you can't watch every anime and most anime reviews unless you know who to follow It's very difficult to figure out what to watch next without wasting a lot of time You need to figure out a heuristic which is sort of a rule of thumb to eliminate the shows that are obviously not up your alley If you like shows about guns, you have a great heuristic now If I see a fabric national p90 submachine gun in any art that shows for me And you know immediately how to find the shows that are for you So develop heuristics to discard the shows that are obviously not up your alley Find the shows that are up your alley, and then your friends will tell you about the exceptions They'll do that What do you mean you haven't seen monica that you've probably all heard all weekend if you haven't seen I think about your life is only going to be so long, right? I don't think we're going to have any mortality before anyone here, you know, it's the bucket So, you know, you only have so much time to enjoy entertainment or enjoy other things in life You should be really freaking selective and only watch and read and listen to the best of the best of the best Right and don't waste your time on something that's you know Crap Anime recommendations come from a very different place now from where they used to but every minute that you spend Trying to decide between which thing to watch next is a minute you could have spent watching a thing It's basically, you know, even worse than watching a bad thing is spending time thinking about it, right? You need to develop this way to very very quickly come to those decisions by Judging things by their cover and then also listening if you missed something and you know not feeling Like, you know, you have to stick with your original judgment You can't you know someone tells you monica is really good and you thought it was stupid based on the picture It's like, you know, accepted now some shows fool you in really crazy ways For example, there's a show you might remember called hack sign There's another show you might remember called noir and those shows had one thing in common They had pretty good character designs a really good sort of Core conceit like what the plot is and the best music But those shows were but They were in my opinion, they were but but I watched hack sign all the way to episode 13 Before I realized that nothing had happened in 13 episodes because the music was so good And then uh, I watched noir all the way to the end because the music was so good I was like, I gotta figure out what the mystery is the end of that show is nuns with gums and lava So then a new show came out el casador de bruja With the same music And I said wait a minute there've been two shows with this good music so far both of them were not good And sure enough show is not going to be good and sure nothing wasn't but then a little while later We show you might have heard of called modica magica came out with that same music But it was good But our heuristic was wrong and we ignored it because a good looking show with good music by them is probably bad And modica broke that mold and luckily the entire internet told us we were wrong But it's super hard to figure out how to watch what anime there is and for us it was easy In the 80s when I started watching anime you watched every single anime you could get in english because it wasn't that much You'd go to sunco's video and spend 40 bucks on a rama one half Subtitled vhs tape that had three goddamn episodes on it and you'd watch it 30 times if that So then when we got to the rit anime club at a library we checked stuff out You know how we figured out what to watch the old dude would sit there and say these are the best 10 anime to Because the fans ofers only fans of the best stuff and the studios fans of the best stuff and they had decades of anime to choose from Most of the anime that you'd pick up randomly was the grade a anime Evangelion escaflon a try good all these shows came out relatively contemporary to one another But during that time a lot of crap anime came out too When you think back oh the 90s were like the golden age of anime now you just don't remember all the terrible shows Now we have the internet we just we see every freaking show that comes out So as a result it's easy to think that most shows most shows are garbage It's easy for people to say oh, I don't like anime anymore So the easiest way to find the good stuff is to not immediately watch anything that just came out and wait to see What gets buzzed what people are interested in and what show from the previous season? Everyone's still talking about next year. Everyone's still going to be talking about Madoka Yeah, I don't know why people are a lot of people seem to be you know rushed like watch something as it comes out It's like shows don't go stale and I'm like bread that turns moldy if you eat it a year late It's going to poison you right show still good, you know, whether it's five 10 15 20 years old right So, you know attack on titans the hot thing right now But you know what I got a lot of other books movies video games to play Things you know things to do comics to read. I'm not going to run out and watch it right now I'm going to get to it obviously because it's it's so many people are talking about it. I got to see what's up But I can wait until the whole thing's out. What's my rush now? I learned that suddenly if during my waiting period is somehow people stop talking about it I go oh, I guess I didn't need to watch that Of course sometimes you have to watch it right now because the buzz is so crazy and You don't want to have to deal with every anime con. What do you mean? You're not watching attack on time I guess the last moral is there's way too many perverts working in the anime industry I mean really it is it's a serious like why is such a large percentage of the new anime is coming out Like lowly cons and moe's and things like that right? It's it's really it's it's disgusting Right, we need to go and have other people make anime that aren't perverted right because it's like Well is not the american superhero comic book industry running into a similar problem I mean it's been the same if both of them are equally disgusting right? I mean it is really a serious issue and people stop spending money on this shit So it'll go away I mean you have the warning signs of an american comic if there's a girl on the cover Where the cleavage of her breasts and the cleavage of her butt are in the same angle So what I encourage you to check out there's a thing if you haven't heard of it called the hawkeye initiative It's people redrawing hawkeye in the ridiculous poses that people like cat woman are put into Hawkeye plays it pretty well Now in terms of scott's waiting I have a final anecdote for you way back in the day. I was watching escaplone How many of you have seen escaplone? All right. All right, so you guys know that there's some pretty much every episode is a crazy cliffhanger There's one that's worse than the other so my Dungeons and Dragons group in high school would play d&d for like 12 hours And then we'd take our tape of escaplone The first one that was out we'd watch one episode and we swore we'll watch one episode per week And then every month we'll buy the next vhs tape and on the first weekend of every month We'd watch all four episodes immediately The fourth episode would end on some ridiculous cliffhanger and then we'd have to wait 31 days One time we finished like the vhs tape and then the next month comes and we're ready to play d&d We go to the store and it was sold out We drove an hour north to find the store that had it buy it wrap an hour back Grab the vcr wash it immediately if you just wait a season you will never have to deal with that again in your life I think we should pretty much wrap it up. We're about out of time. I gotta get some dinner Absolutely. I hope this was entertaining. We're not going to take questions I mean one question could you possibly ask If you have a question if you want to tell us how wrong we are that show is actually not about guns and super Good and you guys are jerks you can email us or maybe your gun guy You can tweet at us with our hashtag and tell us how bad we are the whole world will see That's it and enjoy the rest of anime boston


There was something that I wanted to talk about today actually that was really heavy on my heart and I wanted to, you know, I wanted to bring it to you because I read in the, there's a narration that our mother, insha'Allah, when she was in the end of her life that she was known to actually sit alone and cry and say to Allah SWT, Ya Allah, what is this thing that you created called Aisha? What is this thing that you have created, Ya Allah?  And one of the things that for me reminds me of it, like it really heavy, is that when it just, when the Prophet, Salatunahu As-Salamu Alayhi, actually describes that first, what they call the minor day of judgment, that when the angel of death comes and he takes the soul, SubhanAllah, taking it from this portion and it begins to be removed. And then they wrap the soul, either it's taken, of course, with gentleness and love, like I said, like milk being poured from a pitcher. Oh, yeah, I don't want to talk about the opposite, that's not what I'm talking about today. But SubhanAllah, then the angels actually come and they wrap the soul, either in a very beautiful cloth or a very putrid smelling like wretched cloth. And as they're going through, as they're going through the heavens for this what's considered the minor day of judgment, the angels approach the first door of heavens and they ask, and the angels, basically they ask for permission and they say, well, who is it? Right? Who is it that's come? And they say, well, this is such and such and they give the person's name and they say, you know, they're lineage, like this is Fatima, the daughter of Muhammad, the son of Abdullah. So they begin to give a list and then they say, well, what was said about this person? Right? And so then the, basically the angel who's accompanying the soul begins to repeat what people said about the person in the world. So if they say, well, this is a dakira, this is the salihah, this is a mughnisa, this is someone, this is a woman of charity, this is a woman of kindness, this is a woman, right?  This is the mashallah, this is Ahlul Qura'an, this is someone of Qura'an. And then the angel, Subhanallah, actually then allow, right? Allow the soul to then enter that level of the heavens until they reach the seventh. And then this particular, this seventh, this gateway, is they say it to the throne of Allah, Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala. And this is where it becomes another level. And at this level, Subhanallah, when it's basically the words that they've been hearing about this soul are then pretty much weighed, to not on a scale, it's different. It's not the Mizan, it's not the major day, but this is their kind of weight. And then Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala actually speaks because there's a judgment that's given about how this soul will return to the grave. And so Subhanallah, at each door, for example in the beginning, it's like, okay, is this a person of Shahada? Is this someone who then prayed their prayers? Did they pray it correctly with the correct fiqh? Then it's like, okay, did they pray it, you know, with concentration? But then Subhanallah, when they get to this, and it's, of course, it's not just only the salat, but other actions, other deeds that Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala has asked of them. But when they get to that seventh door, it's the door of sincerity, right? It's the gateway of sincerity. And so now it's no longer about what the people have said. It's no longer about the words that have actually been thrown out. It's actually now, is it that what they've presented to the people, yes, inside the masjid they were from the Muslim, right?  But when everyone laughed, did they actually pray, right? That when everyone, you know, they were the people who were generous and kind in front of people, right? But maybe Subhanallah, what did, you know, when their children speak about them, what do they say? Does it match? But then at that door of sincerity, it's Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala is now speaking to the internal condition of that soul, right? Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala is then saying, actually, may Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala not number us in this category of those I'm about to describe. But there are those that Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala then says to the Melaika, actually they were not of those who prayed. There was no khudur, there was no khusho, there was no khudur, there was no ekhlas, that they prayed in front of people. And the scary part in this narration is that it speaks to that these deeds, Subhanallah, are then some of them are thrown back on this person's face, right? And the angels will say to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala, ya Allah, we didn't know, right? We didn't know, we didn't know what was in their hearts. We're just looking at the record and according to the record, they prayed, right? Fajr, we have it, the words, we have it, it's written that they prayed. But Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala is saying, now we're looking at their internal condition and that determines how that person is going to spend their time in the grave. I didn't speak to the depth of that, Subhanallah, with your daughters. Alright, and we're like, oh my God, is that what she's saying? But when we're talking about identity, that for us, it's different, right? Sometimes we do things because that's what we've been doing. I grew up doing that, or that's what my family does, right? Or we do it because that's the group of people that we are around. But in reality, there will come a day when the truth of who we are will speak. As we know that on Yomu Qiyamah, Subhanallah, our eyes will speak and tell Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala exactly what happened, right? Our mouth will speak and not from our command, right? Our hands will speak and not from what, you know, not from our command. That these things, and I ask Subhanallah, like, why would our eyes speak? Why are our ears going to speak? Why are our hands going to speak? Because they're going to tell the truth of the reality, right? They're going to be able to say, listen, this is what really happened, right? This is the reality of this human being. I mean, you're not, that day, you won't be able to cover it up, right? And so then it becomes incumbent upon us to be able to say, who am I really? And how am I going? Not only to, this is not just about my integrity. How am I going to really be from amongst the muminin? How am I going to really be with the people of the Asali-Hain, the Salihat? How am I really going to gain the kind of internal character, the kind of internal purity, the type of internal relationship with Allah Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la that's going to be something that I know that my deeds are not going to be thrown back, right? Like, it's not just Subhanallah because it's true. Sometimes we pray because other people are praying. Or we even pray because, okay, we told our children we have to pray so now we're praying for ... right? But what is it for us to say, I'm not ... I'm not even praying to you when we get to the level, right? I'm not even praying to you because you commanded me. I'm praying to you because I love you.  I worship you because I love you.  I want to be close to you.  I don't want any other being, any other woman. I don't want to be her.  Adore me with the qualities that you love. Make me that person. That's really what our Ibadah is about. That's really what our relationship with Allah Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la is about because there are two things. We look at them, you know, we look at them on the higher level. We say, oh Allah, if I don't get the house of gold, or the house of pearls, or the streets of gold, or the one woman's scarf in Jannah will be worth the entire dunya and everything in it. One of her scarves. Some women are like, I remember one time I told a group of that and they're like, wait, we have to wear hijab in the Jannah? And I was like, if you want, it's just one of her scarves. It's just like an accessory if you want it, right? That is worth more than everything in the dunya. But even in that, are we thinking about, are we thinking about, Ya Rabbi, I want Jannah because what are you going to give me? Because the stuff, right? Like that's on the Akhirah side. On the dunya side.  He'll give me money. He'll give me a family. He'll give me this or that or whatever. My children will be, I'm praying for my children.  I want my child to be a surgeon, right? Or the next CEO of this company. Or I want, you know, I just, I don't want them to, I don't want them to do bad things. So I'm praying because I just don't want my children to do bad things. Why? Because I don't want to be ashamed in public. I don't want, you know, I don't, that we're, we're really, even though Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la, it's, we're inside the Dean, right? We're coming to the Masjid. We're doing all the things. But then there's the underlayer of like, still I'm concerned for, I'm still concerned about what people think of me. Really, I worship Allah. Not really because I want Allah Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la because I just worship Allah because I'm just afraid that if I don't, then I won't have a good life. That's still, I, it's still you're worshiping Allah Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la based upon what he gives you or he doesn't give you. It's still not a relationship with Allah. It's actually Dean for Dunya. Actually there's still, believe it or not, you're saying, well I'm not, we're not outside the fold of Islam, we're Muslim but there's still a shirk in our Ibadah. We're still associating something with our Ibadah. We're still associating my worship with Allah with what he's going to give me. That's why I worshiping Allah Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la. Not because he's Allah, but you know, yeah, I know he's Allah, yeah, that's good. Yeah, Alhamdulillah. But I don't really have a relationship with Allah. What I have a relationship with is like, I want a good husband, right? I want a really nice house in the suburbs. I want like a two car, right? I want like the minivan and the SUV, you know, maybe if my husband gets a motorcycle, he can go on the weekends, whatever it is, right? Whatever it is. This is for us where we have to be concerned with, right? Because what if, what if you are tried? What happens if, what happens if you're worshiping Allah Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la because this is our current state? What if I'm worshiping Allah and I'm still tried? I'm worshiping Allah and I still get sick. I'm worshiping Allah Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la and something still happens with my family. Something still happens with my marriage. Something still happens with my health. Something still happens with my children. What happens then? Sometimes people lose their iman because they're saying, well, Ya Rabbi, I worship you, so now you owe me, right? I worship you. How did, how did I get here? This wasn't supposed to happen. And it's because Allah Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la knows the secret about yourself that you weren't willing to tell yourself.  That the relationship is not sincere. The sincere relationship with Allah Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la is like that moment of haja. Well, she's in the desert all by herself and a child. Like, seemingly, you got nothing. You got no home. You've been long taken from your tribe. You've got no land of your own, meaning you're far away from your original country. You're far away from any tribe who knows anything about who you are. At that time, Hajar did not speak the language Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la of what would become the Meccan Valley. So you are totally foreign. It doesn't even matter that you're foreign because there's nobody here. Nobody's even here. And then when they come, they don't know you. So you could still be alone in a group of people. That's when I think about our mother, Hajar. I think about that. And then, Subh'anaHu Wa Ta-A'la, it's not just, it's one thing to say I'm alone in a group of people. I'm in a strange land. I don't have the protection of my husband. I don't have the comfort of my family. I don't have, like, my sister. I can go over to her house and laugh about it. Remember when we were kids and dad did that? I don't have any of that. But on top of that, I still have to maintain a level of strength for the to raise this child. I still have to maintain a level of happiness to raise this child. I still got to maintain, I got to show up every day as a mom and be perky and be a role model. Right? She's, that's another, some people's like, oh, that's comfort. That's like, whoa, y'all, y'all. Honestly, it's seeming like, y'all don't be, I already suffered. I came, I came, I showed up. Why? I'm a mothered hodja and I talk about her a lot because her life for me is just fascinating. Her life for me, just her moments of like, it's just absolutely fascinating to me. Like, what kind of iman is that? What kind of towakul is that? What type of yaqeen is that? What kind of perseverance is that?  Like, this relation, this, like, the, the, the ones that Allah SWT brags about. Right? The ones that Allah SWT brags about. And the Quran, I'm like, Subhanallah. This is just, this is something amazing. This is, that's something we could just study their life. But when you are, if you imagine those moments, just have one thing clear, that if all those things about my identity are stripped away, my culture doesn't matter in this moment. My tribe doesn't matter if I had any money, I don't have it now. Right?  Well, he's not here now. Now who are you? Now who are you? What's the importance of it? And that's when we get to the most baseline answer. That we are servants of Allah SWT. That we are His creation. That we are His creation. He created us and we're going back to Him. And the only thing that's actually going to matter, all the other stuff, literally is gonna, is gonna decay in the grave. What's gonna matter is who we were to Allah and who we are to Allah. That's what's gonna matter. And not the, even if we associated, right, the give or the not give, the fear of the give and take with Allah SWT, that's not even gonna, that's not even, that part is gonna crumble.  Or did you just have a relationship with your hopes and fears? So that's what we have to distill down to. Ya Allah, do I have a relationship with you? Do I know you? Do I praise you? Do I spend time just contemplating with you? Not connected to other people? Not connected even to myself? This is what our great scholars and the Oviyaat used to talk about when they talked about the annihilation. When Allah, I'm just, I'm just something you created. The only thing that's going to matter, that's going to matter, make any difference about who I am, about all of my identity or who I think I am in the world. The only part that's gonna matter is who I was to you and what my relationship is with you. And so even as you're reading the Qur'an, you gotta think about, Ya Rabbi, from this Qur'an, teach me about you. How do I, the lessons, when you're telling me the story about Musa and Khidr, what does it tell me about you? When I'm learning the story about Maryam, what does it teach me about you? When I'm reading through the Qur'an and learning the lessons about the two men in the garden in Surat al-Kaf, what does it teach me about you? Ultimately, the only reality is La ilaha ilna Allah.  Even the Prophet, sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, is just saying, I just came to show you who is your Lord. I just came to guide you back to, who is Allah? I just came to teach you how to be loved by Allah. How to be loved by Allah, how to matter to Allah, how to be noticed by Allah, how to be accepted by Allah. That's what the Prophet, sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, and now that's a big deal. Don't get me wrong, right? That's why he's saying you didn't know. Because even inside of the who the Prophet, sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, who he is, right? And there are things about him that show us, like, okay, yes, we know he's out of, he's from this family above. But in the end, what matters about the Prophet, sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, what I said, I came to, I came to connect you to Allah. I came to lay the pathway so that your pathway to Allah, subhanahu wa ta'ala, would be easy. So even subhanallah, as you are identifying ourselves as wives, as mothers, do you identify yourself as a wife to say, I'm here to say, how can I make my husband's pathway to Jannah easy? How can I be closer to Allah through him, by him? By my relationship with him, how can I become closer to Allah? Why? Because Allah is the reality. Good or bad, how are my children amines by which I become closer to Allah? And when it comes to my relationship with my children, how am I a pathway by which they get to Jannah easy? Why? Because if I become the pathway by which they know Allah, Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah! So are we amines of ease for them to meet Allah? Or are we actually an obstacle in their way to their relationship with Allah SWT? When we think about the people in our life, are we amines by which we facilitate their relationship with Allah SWT with ease? Are we like a spoke in the wheel? Are we a reminder? Are we a warning? Are we a blessing? Are we a guidance? Who are we? At the end, that's when Allah SWT says, I created you for no other purpose except to worship me. Meaning that once you understand that it's about your relationship with me, all that other stuff, if you still want it, if you still want it, I'll tell you a narration. It's a true story where once I was sitting with my, it's a group of women, we were in a, we were having a gathering in my house and we went around and we asked everyone, what is it that you yearn for? What is it that you yearn for? And everybody, you know, we were in the desert at the time, so some people were like, I yearn for a washing machine. Some were like, I yearn for air condition. I was like, I yearn for red lobster. People were like, what do I yearn for? And we got to my teacher and my teacher said, I yearn to gaze upon Allah and never blink. And that's the description of the highest level the people who are just in the company of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala and they never blink. Now there's another level where people see Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala on Juma. There are some who see, but they're the highest level of those who are in the company of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala and they never blink. Now some of us, I remember when she said that, do I even have a heart that knows to yearn for that? Do I have the kind of soul that knows that that's something valuable? Or do we start thinking about well do I get to go back down to my house made of pearls? Am I still going to get the streets of gold? Am I still going to get the super handsome husband? Some of us are still thinking about the stuff which means that we didn't understand yet.  You're going to be beautiful. It's going to be great. You're going to have a great time. But really, really, it's about Allah. Really, it's about Allah. Now some of us are all bad at saying, I want to remind you this last verse and it's, you know, we think about it when we talk about each other and sticking together as an ummah. But I'm talking about it just as it relates to us. Hold on together to the rope of Allah and do not be divided. People think we're talking about this is about the community sticking together. This is also about don't let your nafs separate from your heart. And don't let your heart separate from your mind and don't let any of it separate from your soul from your Ruh, your connection to Allah SWT. Don't let your nafs take you away from Allah. Don't let your heart that what you're in love with your spouse, your children, your job, your status whatever. Don't let your heart take you away from your Ruh which is your connection to Allah SWT.  This is the verse what it's really about. There's yes, there's multiple. But the reason why we get splintered in communities because first we're splintered inside of our own selves. So let me say this. I don't know if he's in Sakharat or not. But I will say this. First of all, angels are not always as beautiful as we think. I know we think of like the Hollywood version. But they're not always like that. That also, Subhanallah, we think of the Hollywood version. But they're not always like that. That also, Subhanallah, believe it or not, ugly faces can be a means by which a person will say La ilaha illallah. And so that might even be a means of prodding, of encouraging. The person to say La ilaha illallah or even to seek refuge in Allah SWT. So it doesn't necessarily and don't want you to just assume straight away is that a bad thing. That if that person then sees that and says La ilaha illallah that's a good thing. If it becomes a means by which they run they flee to Allah SWT that becomes a good thing. The other thing is that these are also reminders of course for us to always repent. And there's Subhanallah, even in this case if you see them La ilaha illallah La ilaha illallah Allah SWT like asking Allah SWT for that. So either way, even if him saying it became a means by which he said recite Quran for me. Then this is something Allah SWT is facilitating a good ending for him. Inshallah. Whatever Allah intends I don't know. So that's even if he's saying the Qadian even if he's saying Shaytan or he's saying very fierce angels because even Omar bin Khattab when he described when there is one other Sahaba that Omar bin Khattab he passed away before this other Sahaba. And so when this one when this Sahaba basically he saw Omar in a dream and he asked Omar like how was it? He asked Omar how was it? And Omar described Munkar Nakhil and when he described Munkar Nakhil scary, right? He said that his first of all their eyes were like cauldron pots like huge. He said I could see them even like mountains like the span of mountains and he said that he was blue black in color and that his when he blinked his eyes flashed like lightnings. He said his teeth were like mountain pegs. Sorry his teeth were like mountain pegs. And he said when Munkar spoke he said it sounded like rolling intense thunder. But this is Omar in Khattab his asha to Mubashara right? That's not like I know we were thinking it was going to be like fat little cherry bumps, right? Like you know flying around like you know no no it's not like that necessarily right? And this is very but subhanallah what he tempted Omar to do as a result, right? When Alhamdulillah when the angel spoke to Omar he said you know he said which I can't imagine what that's like you know like rolling in the man-rub-book and he says that Omar grabbed him grabbed this angel and said man-rub-book I'm like who's your lord? Like who are you? And then he became he said yeah I'm this Munkar I'm just Munkar I'm coming to take the report I'm going to take the report I don't know then my answer is so subhanallah and la ilaha illallah la ilaha illallah la ilaha illallah la ilaha illallah and sitting allahu allah allahu allah allahu allah la ilaha illallah la ilaha illallah just just keep reciting his names that one especially in buter spending sitting in the night when everybody sleeping and you just communicate with Allah subhanu ta'ala and reflect upon the sweetness of your relationship with Allah and just like Ya Rabbi that time you saved me from that that time you reminded me of that the more you reflect with Allah subhanu ta'ala all the other of course it's a pretty scarf Allah subhanu ta'ala a scarf okay just fine Ya Rabbi give me you Ya Rabbi Ya Allah give me Allah that's what we want Ya Allah Subhanallah yes yes so the first thing is is that know this we all have sins in our hearts alright we all have sins of our sometimes we ourselves don't recognize the sins of our own heart right sometimes we that's just not something we haven't dealt you know delved that deeply into our own soul we haven't spent time with ourselves long enough to kind of contemplate it and so in those moments of desperation when we're crying out to Allah subhanu ta'ala I always say this like falls out right believe that's actually one of the beauties of the broken heart is that the beauty of the broken heart is that when it breaks you're able to see the contents the true contents of your heart right and so you're able to say subhanallah I didn't know that in reality vanity was there right I didn't know that wow I didn't realize like this is about my greed or this is about my ego and so sometimes it's not until our hearts are broken that we get exposed to our own selves but the beauty of Allah subhanu ta'ala is if he exposes you to yourself it's a good sign it's a very good sign this is that he said you know you gotta come back to me so you have to come back to me and I want to give you the highest level of jannah but if you have this quality you won't be able to go in that place so let's I'm gonna show it to you so I can work on it and if I'm giving you subhanallah about it I see that's like even better because if Allah is saying that I want you to ask me about it ask me about like subhanallah you don't even have to have all the tools you don't have to know all the things ask me about that I can help you with it so we can and so asking Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala for asking Allah subhanahu ta'ala to heal the root of it right and to heal the memory that is connected to it so again sometimes it can be an event or a principle that we've held that we have to get to the bottom of it because if not what happens is that when the root of it when the root of the sin is healed then usually we're about to commit that that have that continuously but the biggest obstacle to removing a sin of the heart is the unwillingness to admit it because the unwillingness to admit it will not lead one to repent from it and the greatest help is the help of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala is to ask for his tawfiq so the first thing is to just be able to tell yourself the flat truth about that all of us have something we have to tell ourselves the flat truth actually Aisha you were really vain about that actually Aisha you have a deep sense of entitlement actually Aisha you thought you were better because you were American or you thought you were better because you were educated better because you came from you have more money there are lots of things that we tell ourselves that later on we're like 9 9 9 1 and hamdulillah it doesn't make you a horrible person it makes you a really good person carrying around a very bad trait and hamdulillah if you again when it happens if you don't commit if you don't do this to yourself or if you don't pacify yourself everybody says everybody has mistakes well I am better because I mean you know I am cuter or whatever whatever we tell ourselves as long as we don't pacify ourselves to be honest like in our day and age we are we're the generation of don't pass judgment right you better pass some judgment it's going to get passed right so it's better be a good thing right now if you just say no really that quality is not a quality of hamdulillah you got to get rid of that without putting yourself back in the way hear what I'm saying for now how do we put ourselves back in the way even if we beat ourselves up to the point of having low self-esteem then we have still they did the same act as vanity or arrogance why? because it's still about you right it's still you in the way it's still you standing in the way it's just the flip side of the same coin so as opposed to I may not be worthy of a lot of things but Allah is worthy of me being better that's how you get yourself out of the way Ya Allah give me ikhlaaz Ya Allah give me sidduk be a beggar Ya Allah be here and I'm at your door again be begging Ya Allah make me a person of ikhlaaz make me a person of sidduk right and honestly having moments where you sit with yourself and you tell yourself the truth you have to have moments with yourself you sit with yourself and tell yourself the flat truth you know the story of the one who entered into the masjid right and the prophet and the next person who enters into the doors Ahlul Jannah and they said what is it the companions are like I wonder what it is about him and Ahmad stayed with him for three days and in the end he's like I'm not saying anything so great special about you I didn't say you get up for fasting I didn't say you get up for Qiyam-ul-Layan and they said no I don't there's only one thing that I do every night I sit before I go to bed and I think about my day is there anything is there anyone who did something to me that I need to forgive them for and is there anything about myself right that I need to seek someone else's forgiveness or a trait that I need to uproot it from my heart right so the fact that he didn't and then Omar and Miri said that's why that's the quality that muraqaba that self-watching of the truth to be able to sit and say you know to go through your day and say I wasn't very kind to the cashier I'm just giving an example I wasn't very kind to the cashier and they'd say well what is the root of that why weren't you kind to the cashier well I was tired okay well that's not a reason to put it on the cashier right actually because I thought I was better than her she was just the mere cashier and I had the cage to do whatever when you can keep tracing the root now you can repent for the reality because you're just telling yourself I was just tired you're giving yourself the excuse which means you're going to commit it again against somebody else next will be the waitress right so being able to sit with myself and say well why was I you know why did I behave that way the truth is I felt I feel entitled I feel like I should have that why should you have it because because I'm from Florida like we tell I mean we laugh right but there are different things we tell ourselves because I'm American because I'm out because I'm African-American because my daddy used to spoil me why can't the rest of the world I don't know whatever it is you know whatever the root it but we have it there's a root you know there's a root for sure why were you mean to her I was jealous why are you jealous of her because she's beautiful and I don't actually believe that I'm that beautiful so really I'm insecure about my own beauty so I was jealous of her so then I was mean it's that it's we gotta be able to sing just take a deep breath and go a little deeper and ask yourself interrogate yourself interrogate your nuffs why did you do that why did you say that why were you impatient about that yes interrogate your nuffs I'm so serious before we interrogate it and you're saying a thing by the way pin them to the wall I'm serious you sit and speak to them I know who is the devil who wants to hate you who wants to reject you who wants to hate you who wants to enjoy Who wants to chase you You're not so important and I know HRE You're killed and you're a temptation and they are fighting and they are faking them I am serious! I am serious! You guys are reciting, you're reciting your Afqar in the morning. Who are you reciting it for? Right, you're talking to Allah SWT. He knows you're seeking refuge. And when you're talking about the, I suppose we're putting it, that's the funny thing.   You gotta talk to yourself.  So it's, you know, sometimes you get bad bad. Yes! Drown them out. You know how you drown them out?   You ever did that? Do that to your nerves. I'm about to drown you out.  I'm so, I am serious, right? But right now I really want to listen to Beyoncé in the car. You're about to turn this bucket on real loud. Until you just hear, just then. Until you drown out your own thoughts. I have days like that. But you work on it. Right? I'm serious. Like, you know, Imam Hadan, he talks about, like this, uh, like dragging your nafs to obedience. Honestly, dragging your nafs to obedience. Because if not, they will drag you into laziness and to ruffler and to heedlessness. So it's, when they talk about fighting against your nafs, that's a real, sometimes it's a real fight. Sometimes it's a, it's a real struggle.  Like, oh, I can see you're not going to let me rest today. You're not going to let me have peace. I can see. So I, okay, that's fine.   I'm serious. I'm about to pull out his bonanza. Like, oh, okay. Oh, you. Oh, okay.  Today you want me to pick a fight with my husband. That's what you're doing. Yeah. No, we're not doing that. I'm, I'm, I'm about to play with a little teeth. Loud. You, I'm serious.  I know that sounds weird. Don't worry. It's going to be okay. It's going to be okay. Right. Like, you have to put your knob. Like you have to say, okay, I'm talking to you nafs. I'm talking to you. I'm talking to you. I'm talking to you. My desire and you to show your thing. I'm talking to you. You, I'm not even going to speak to you directly. I'm just going to follow and nash you to death. I had to curse you right into submission. Like, I, I know you because if not, when you keep doing it in your, you, we don't have the strength. We have to call for backup. We have to call to Allah. You have to run and pray to God and say, Ya Rabbi, I'm running to you. I'm, I'm, I'm just seeking, I'm seeking refuge in you. They are after me. Ya Rabbi. They are after me. My nafs is after me today. Ya Rabbi, I need help. Sometimes I know the, yes, the atkar are Masha Allah. The atkar with concentration, they definitely work. But sometimes we need a way to the atkar. Sometimes it's difficult. Like the atkar is like over there. Right.  I won't even push it on the phone. No, I could just put it on play. I can't even do that. You have to just subhan Allah. I think about with the Prophet. Son of Allah, they said that he used to sit and make tayyamun before he would go to make wudu. Part of it was about letting me put out the flames of shaitan even before unless something tried to distract me between here and my wudu. Also, it was like, just like, I'm just, I'm just going to do an act of eva'ata. Like, let me just help. Sometimes you have to even make dua. Ya Rabbi, bless me truly. That's why the dua, Allahumma a'ani, an adhikrik wa shukrik wa husnihi ba'datik. O Allah, help me remember you. Help me make adhikrik of you. Help me be grateful to you. So I can actually get the strength in the mind to say the adhkhar. All right. My husband will do be given adhiksa. I'm seeking refuge in you from my laziness. We all fall into that. Don't, you know, I say that to say, I say that we all fall into it to say you're not alone. Right? But it doesn't mean, it doesn't absolve us of responsibility. We still have to do something. We have to fight. We have to fight. First the moment. The shimmering light of Habib Omar. Just reciting it and reading it and reading it and reading it. The other thing is the shemaat and reading the shemaat. I can remember the moment to be honest. It was the narration where it described the prophet, Salaam, that when he was amongst people, if they laughed, he laughed. And whatever they talked about, he would talk about that. And if they were, you know, if they were happy, he would be happy. And if they were like awed by something, he would, and that for me was like fascinating. Right? Like learning that the prophet, Salaam, was not, he wasn't the buzzkill at a party. Right?  And the fact that, you know, he laughed, so you could see his molars. Just imagine seeing that.  Yeah. Yeah.  I talked to the prophet. You got to be a little crazy. And people were like, what? What are you saying, sister Aisha? When I heard that he's alive in his grave, right? And you send Salaam, right? There's, every time you send Salaam, there's an angel that wraps your Salaam, and goes and stands in a line to give your Salaam to the prophet, Salaam, except a little Jama'a. So a little Jama'a, he hears it directly. And then he responds by your name. So then I was like, so that's it. Right? So this is what happened. I said, I'm going to send Salaam in between. He's alive in his grave. Right? This is our Akhita. This is what we believe that the Anbiya are alive in their graves. Right? This is like, it's a matter of our deen. And so send Salaam on him. Read about him. You know, find something. You know what causes your heart to love. Right? We all have something like that pulls our heart to love someone. Find out what is that thing. The prophet, Salaam, he has it. Right? And just keep walking that path. And think about it. And send Salaam. And think about that. And send Salaam. Like him and Aisha racing on horses. That was so cute. Right? Him and the masjid. And she's sitting on his shoulders. Right? And she's like watching, you know, the Ethiopian military dancers. That for me. And he's like, you finished? Nah. His supper with her. You know, there's lots of things. Like, you know, for me. So you have to find, there's not everything. You know, there's something. You know, there's some things like, oh, that doesn't read. You know, everybody has that key to their own heart. You have to know what is that key to your heart with the prophet, Salaam, and send Salaam. And just keep thinking about that and dwelling that.  Like, remember that time we were walking the park? Remember that time we saw the dolphins? Remember that time? You have to do that with the prophet, Salaam, and send them. I remember that time he was talking to us. She already went on. Man, I can't, I can't imagine. Like, how, what was he thinking when those girls were singing to him, to Allah, and to the Ruh, and you know. I, like, thinking about him and I was walking in the cave. You know, you have to know what you were thinking. We're like the time he's sleeping. And Safiyah, his aunt, he, he's sweating. It's hot in the middle of the day and he's sweating. And she has a bottle, right? And she's collecting his sweat. And he wakes up and he's like, what are you doing? Right? That for me is, like, it's just funny. Like, he's, it's just such a real moment.  You know, that for me, yeah, we have to, for me it's his, it's those real, when he's just, you know, just with his family and those who are near the moments of love. Okay. So the first thing is, when you seek refuge in Allah from shaitan and you still have this conversation, that's your nafs. Right? It's like, I thought refuge in Allah and this is still circling. That's you. Right? So that's one thing. The other thing is, is that your nafs is not necessarily negative. Right? Meaning that the nafs is actually neutral. And this is actually something subhanAllah, a lot of people confuse. Because for the most part it's down, but that's our attachment to Junior that actually pulls it down. But our nafs can actually raise up when we are more attached to Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala. Right? So it's literally like a pendulum. So when we are more attached to Junior, it's our nafs that causes, like, I really just want to sleep. I just really want to, actually, I just want to, I just want to binge watch Netflix. I want to, you know, that part, it's actually not necessarily about that. Right? I just want to binge watch Netflix. When does shaitan come in? When I want to watch something I know I should. Right? I like this, like, I'm interested in this, that, that even maybe normally I wouldn't. Okay? I guess that's something I'm interested in. Well, you get curious about that. Nowhere. Makes sense? Now we're going down a profit shouldn't it? Um, the other thing is, is that, I actually, you know, the psychology, you all just talked to Dr. Rania, like the psychology behind imposter syndrome and all of that. I'm not so intelligent about that. Um, the only thing when that happens to me, is I say it doesn't matter. Meaning, and why do I say it doesn't matter? Because, okay, if I'm not true, y'all don't be making me true. And well, are you sincere about that? Y'all don't be making me sincere. You know, y'all don't be, this whispering is, it's trying to help me. I'm, I'm running to you away from whatever this voice is, whatever this westlass is, whether it's from me or something like. Um, and in the end it doesn't matter. Meaning that, the self that we have is also a trick. It's just trying to get in your way. It's just trying to be a hurdle. Right? It's just trying to keep you from Allah swt. So, I'm putting you on blast too. Like, even if I think, y'all Allah, even if one of the du'az I make is Allah make me Muslim. Make me a Muslim. Some days I'm Muslim. Some days, you know, all of us, because Muslim is one who actively submits to the will of Allah. Right? Some days we're like, y'all don't be, I know that's your will. You know? And so, push. I might not be Muslim yet, but I'm still going to pray and ask Allah to make me a Muslim. Because I want to be Muslim. Allah. It doesn't, I think we are confusing. I think we think that somehow we're going to always want to, we're going to want to want it. And we don't always want to want it. That's the truth of it. Like, sometimes I have to tell myself, y'all Allah, I don't, you know me. I don't really want to fast. Mondays and Thursdays, I really don't. I'd rather eat.  That's my nuffs. My nuffs is like, we could just like wait till Ramadan. But I'm really like, that's nuffs. So I have to say, Allah, the truth is I don't want to. And that's the truth. Can you make want to want to? Can you cause my heart to yearn for it? Can you put the inclination to worship you in my heart? And you know, I think this is saying that time is up. Alhamdulillah. With a candy. I love the sweetness of it all. So, um, so that's it, right? Like really saying, again, that's that thing about when we tell ourselves the truth. Like, I must not. Sometimes I struggle. Sometimes I want to do it. Sometimes I don't want to do it. Oh Allah, give me is the comma in wanting to worship you. Even the Prophet Sallallahu alaihi wa sallam, he mentioned about when he said that sometimes you don't feel connected. Believe it or not, not feeling connected is not a bad thing. What do I mean by that? Because then you know you're not worshiping Allah for the feeling. You know, you're not committing that shirk of I'm worshiping Allah because I'm going to get this feeling from it. The truth is, maybe from my perspective, right from my Vahir perspective, I'm not feeling anything right now. But I didn't worship because of me. I worship because Allah, I'm worshiping Allah. It wasn't about me. So in my worshiping Allah, if I feel it, if I didn't feel it, it's not, do you understand what I'm saying? That's not going, our emotions should not, that's our enough trying to drag and pull us all over the room. Right? Some people say, oh, when I feel it, then I'll pray. No, no, no, that's the trick. I don't tell you, Tana is just trying to use our feelings and our emotions, you know?  Ya Rabbi, please attach my heart to you. Ya Rabbi, I'm asking you for Sakina. I'm asking you for the sweetness of Eman. I'm asking for the sweetness in my prayer. But that's what I was saying in the beginning. What if I never get the sweetness of prayer? What if I never gain it? Do I stop worshiping Allah? Absolutely not. Because Allah is still, Allah is not dependent on my feelings. So, you know, it's very intelligent, like imposter syndrome. I don't know about that. We're all, sometimes we're all just faking it to make it. Allah make me sincere. Please make me sincere. Y'all don't make me sincere. Allah, Allah, Allah, Allah.