Our next speaker is a veteran and ambassador speaker of this convention, first speaking at the Under-21 Convention for Young Men back in 2016. He's also the keynote speaker of our upcoming Patriarch Edition event, second annual coming next year in 2020. He is the author of The Appearance of Power, and you can find him at masculine-style.com. Please let me welcome to the stage next a proud Patriarch of Four, Tanner Guzzi. Welcome back. Thanks, man. It's good to be back. Thank you, sir. Thanks. Good morning, guys. I am excited to talk to you today, and I'm excited to venture out a little bit differently than what I normally do. This is my fifth time speaking at the 21 convention, and I'm not going to be talking about style stuff today. And I know for some of the guys, that's kind of a surprise. But honestly, for you guys who are here, for the guys who end up watching on YouTube, if you want to see any of the style stuff, I've done hours of this, even at this particular convention. So go watch the other videos. There's good stuff on there. And even though that's not what I'm addressing today, there's still a lot of importance to that. And I'll key in on that a little bit as I talk about what my subject is. And even to kind of lead into that, one of my favorite things about this convention, I was talking to Goldman before he went on yesterday. And it was really fun to see how much he's progressed as a speaker. And that's one of the things that I hope you guys understand is real validity to the caliber of the speakers who are here is you watch these guys level up. We don't just sit here and tell you guys to get on our level and then we just kind of passively hang out and we've arrived. It doesn't work like that. You see these men who come up on stage and they talk about their experiences and they're actively leveling up. They're pushing themselves. They're doing difficult things. Goldman just tweeted before I came up on stage, I saw this about how as a natural introvert, how scary it is for him to get up and do public speaking. I got that impression the first time that he and I spoke at a conference together in Vegas back in 2015. I did not get that impression yesterday because he's a man who stepped up his own personal game and he's improved himself. You see the same thing with Ed and Alexander, Jack Donovan, all these other guys, guys who I've been proud to call friends for the last three or four years. And I see them actively leveling up and it puts pressure on me to do the same. And so I hope you guys recognize the real caliber of the men that you get to learn from and that you get to interact with while you're here because these guys are the real deal. So what I want to talk to you about today is all tied to that same idea. It's choosing to be subjects over being objects. So let me tell you what I mean by that. I work from home and we decided to, we homeschool, my wife homeschools are kids. And so a couple of weeks ago, I was taking a break and I was coming in to have lunch and they do school at the kitchen table in there. And so I'm much numb. Some quest chips trying to get my protein in for the day. And I hear my wife explaining grammar to my seven-year-old daughter who's in second grade. And they're breaking down the idea of what's the difference between a subject and an object when it comes to grammatical structure and things like that. And basically the easiest way to describe it is a subject is the noun and the sentence that does the action. And an object is a noun and the sentence that has the action done to it. Okay? We live in a world that wants us to be objects. It wants us to be things that are acted upon. And we as men are healthier, happier, better, we're better personally, we're better as fathers, we're better in society if we choose to be subjects rather than objects. We have so much inertia working against us but the onus is on us to choose to be subjects over being objects. And so I wanna break that down for you guys today. And before I do that, some of the things I'm going to talk about are wonderful things. Okay? And so for all the dorks who are gonna freak out about what I'm saying is inherently bad, it's not. But the poison is in the dose. Many of the wonderful things that we experience in the world when taken too far become poison. And it's the same thing with medicine. When taken at the right dosage, it's fantastic. If it's taken too far, it does become poisonous. And sadly, so much of what we experience today has now crossed that threshold as far as how we relate to it as men that it has become poison. So let's talk about some of these things that make us objects or want us to become objects. The first one is technology. Technology makes us objects. The entire approach and appeal, the entire marketing ploy of technology is make your life easier, make it more convenient. And again, I'm not advocating that we go back to using science as we're harvesting in our own fields, right? But there's a dosage level of it. As we become increasingly more and more and more dependent on technology, how often do we just naturally take the escalator instead of taking the stairs? This is such a good little metaphor because if I just stand on this one little stair and the escalator moves me up, what am I? I'm an object that's being acted upon. Whereas if I take the stairs, I'm a subject. I'm doing the action. There are health implications for that. There are mindset implications for that. There's so much that ties into that same thing. When you think about the advanced technology of cars and how things are going, how many people know how to drive a manual drive anymore? Pretty soon our kids aren't even gonna know how to parallel park because everything's just done automatically. They won't even know how to drive because everything's done automatically. When you think about finding your way to the airport as you're on your way here, how much do we just rely on Google Maps to get our directions for us? So we don't even need to know the lay of the land. How easy is it for us to just listen to something instead of having to read and actually engage with it? How easy is it for us to be able to just connect with people online and avoid having to do any real work? How easy is it that technology makes it? So even dating is just a matter of maybe we both swipe right and then we can break the ice and get rid of doing the hard things and the hard approaches, okay? Technology is wonderful, but if we rely on it too much, we become objects as opposed to being subjects. We allow it to act upon us as opposed to using as a tool by which we can act and impart our will onto the world. Our culture makes us objects. There's so many different ways that this is applicable so we're gonna dive into a couple of these. Okay, the first one is bread and circuses. I know that you guys have seen this online. It's hilarious to me how often if you have any appreciation for the past or any idea that our current Western society is not a massive improvement in every single way, that you're just a trad conloper or it's, well, okay, why don't you go back and get rid of your penicillin, right? But the idea that we do, we live in a time and it's wonderful as a father of four, I am so incredibly grateful that I don't have to worry about birth mortality rates, the way that people did for thousands of years up until this point. I cannot tell you how grateful I am for that.  I've never had to comfort my wife as she holds a stillborn or anything else like that. I'm so incredibly grateful for that. And at the same time, just because we are materially more prosperous and just because we have more available to us as far as security, longevity, yes, there is less violence in the world. So from a physical standpoint, we really do live in one of the best times in the world. But when it comes to a moral or spiritual or an emotional standpoint, we're living in very, very perilous times. And this is why we get lulled into a passive sense of security. That as long as I'm safe, as long as I get a number of years, as long as I can increase my life expectancy, it doesn't matter what the quality of those years are, as long as I get a higher quantity of those years. As long as I'm entertained, as long as people aren't turning off my Netflix, as long as I can go out and get Asian food or go get Mexican food or whatever else and it's there and it's convenient for me and Uber Eats brings it in, then what do I have to fight for? What do I have to die for? We're complacent. And again, it makes us objects. It makes us passive. It makes us sit here and take every little thing that's given to us and take it cheerfully because we have our bread and our circuses. We have our entertainment, we have our food and it makes us complacent. How many of us work meaningless jobs?  I had just on Tuesday, so we just bought a new house and the backyard isn't finished yet and we live in an area where, surprisingly apparently, the weeds grow up to like nine feet tall and so my backyard is totally unfinished and we moved in in June and weeds are down here. Spend all summer trying to get other stuff done and then before I know it, the weeds are literally nine feet tall. So Tuesday, I'm feeling a little bit under the weather. I don't feel like going out and going for a long run as my wife and I were preparing for another half marathon but I wanted to get out and be physically active and do something and so I grabbed a shovel and I went out and I spent two hours trying to just tackle these weeds. I made the tiniest little dent in it. It really was, it wasn't much but the satisfaction of being able to work with my hands, of being able to see the actual progress of what I was doing, of being able to totally disengage from the work itself and just be able to think. I spent a lot of my time actually thinking about my presentation. I spent a lot of my time thinking about how I can improve as a father, how I can improve my business. That was meaningful work for me because I was the one who chose to do it. I remember as a kid, I hated weeding more than anything. I hated, oh, I hated it so bad. I have some pretty embarrassing stories about that but because I chose to do it, it became meaningful work for me. Most of us don't get the benefit of doing meaningful work. Doesn't really benefit anybody else. We certainly don't enjoy what it is that we get to do. I'm very grateful and very blessed that that's not the case for me but most of us don't have that, don't have that situation where we get to love what we do and as men, the idea of going into a job day after day after day, dealing with the insult of dealing with bureaucracy and the fact that the screeching weasel of a customer is always right and all of these other things that go into it, we trade in our dignity for dollars every single day and it's not even work that has any real meaning for it. Really, any real meaning to it at all. It's discouraging. We live in a world that has a lack of beauty. We have a very, very weird relationship with beauty as men because we've totally delegated almost all beauty to women except for the beauty of women which we've entirely sexualized and that's it. So the only way that we as men are culturally allowed to engage with beauty is sexual beauty of women and that's it. Our buildings are ugly, our clothing is ugly, our bodies are ugly, our entertainment is ugly and we laugh at it cynically and we revel in our degeneracy because we think that it's cleverer, it's postmodern or that it's enlightened or whatever else because the sincerity of real beauty, the mastery that goes into architecture or art or anything else, we're above that or we're more nuanced than that or we're more complicated than that. We need to have real beauty in our lives. The act of creating beauty, making ourselves more beautiful, making our environments more beautiful, that's being a subject. Putting up with passively and just engaging in the ugliness of the world, that's being an object. You need to surround yourselves with beauty, you need to create beauty. There's no creation without beauty. That's the difference between creation and destruction, creation adds beauty, it adds functionality, it adds things. Destruction doesn't, it removes all of that. This is a big one. We have a fetish with rationality. And don't get me wrong, rationality is a beautiful, wonderful thing. I just finished reading a book called Alchemy by Rory Sutherland and I cannot recommend that higher. It is an incredible read and in it he talks about this problem that we have where we take something that's so appropriate because honestly when you think about things like building a plane, engineering a bridge, these kind of things where the world works in a very quantifiable and measurable way when we think about that, we want rationality. We absolutely do. But when it comes to other things like the way that we interact as people, the way that we deal with the world around us, when we try and fit everything into the box of logic, it doesn't work. Take chess for example. Chess is a beautiful game of strategy and rationality but it only works the way that it does because the pieces are limited. The game of chess isn't different if it rains or if there's an earthquake going on. Your pieces can only move in certain directions and so you get to perfectly plan out and think about okay well if I do this and my opponent's gonna do that and I need to get nine steps ahead of him and this opens up more opportunities but the world doesn't work like that. Interacting with real people in real situations doesn't work like that. As I was listening to Socrates talk earlier this morning about being a father and planning and preparing for that, it's hard because that's one of the things that we do. We do it with relationships. We do it with parenthood. We do it with our jobs. We think that if I can just quantify what these things are, if I can know that my kid's gonna do A, B, C or D or if I know that the girl that I go talk to is gonna do A, B, C or D, then I know that I can respond this way or I have this line that's gonna work or I can, but it doesn't work like that. We're not limited to these little boxes. We can't quantify these things. There's so many variables that come into this that we can't even understand and the problem is that we, again, this is, I love how Sutherland puts this. We think that rationality is the oval office. We think that our rational brains are what drives our decisions. Our rational brains tell us what to do and we just follow orders. But really what our rational brains are is they're the PR department, okay? We act on instinct.  That may be danger. I'm going to turn around and look and see what. You do it on instinct and then rationally, you're able to justify that. Oh yeah, I heard a bang. I turned around and wanted to see what it was. The action preceded the understanding. Rationality is a fantastic tool. It's a great tool to use because we're people that interact with each other and we need to be able to explain why we do things. But when we take rationality as something that rather than being a way to post, like after the fact, describe what an action was, but use it as a tool to try and preempt or pre-create what it is. It doesn't work like that. Yes, it works in very limited environments but it doesn't work in every single one of them. And we have a problem where we want rationality to be the king of everything and it's not. The other people around us want us to be objects. They want us to be, that's how they see us. Most people, and we're guilty of the same thing, we see most other people around us as objects. There's something about the idea of we're the heroes in our own stories. We should be, but for so much of us, the other players, the other characters who are in our story are just that. They're set pieces, they're just characters. They're just here to be in and be part of it. And we need to recognize that that's the same way that other people perceive us. As you become more of a subject in your life and less of an object, you will have people in your life who resent you for that. They will try and draw you back. They will tell you that you've changed. Ed was talking about this yesterday about how he went to a wedding and then after that he never saw this friend again. Really what happened is Ed ceased to be an object in a life surrounded by other people who were objects. He became a subject. Ed became a man of action. He started doing his own things and it makes objects uncomfortable. Other people want us to be objects. One, because they're more focused on themselves and two, because it makes them, it provides this glaringly stark difference to them of what it is to be a subject versus being an object. People want us to stay as objects because it's a way to rationalize and justify their own desires, their own fears, or anything else. Okay, so now that we know that that's a problem, what do we do about it, right? What are the next steps here? Because everything that the world does, everything that we experience now as men wants us to be passive, it wants us to be, it wants us to wait, it wants us to rely on our fear, it wants us to treat risk a certain way, but what do we do to actually start to combat that? So one of the things you'll hear the most often is we need to fix our mindsets and mindset is key. Again, this is not to negate, just like I haven't tried to negate technology or rationality or anything else, these are valuable things, but the problem is that mindset in and of itself is not enough. You have to have movement before you can change your mindset. When you think about that ship right there, if you can't steer a ship that's not actually in motion, or if you do, it's incredibly difficult, but if you have a ship that's in motion, then it's much easier to steer, it's the same thing with a vehicle. If your car's parked and it's not moving, good luck changing its direction. The amount of work that you have to put into it, you get a forklift, you get a dozen other guys to pick it up and move it and turn it around, but if it's moving, all you have to do is turn that little wheel, and all of a sudden you can change it in any direction you want to, but we wait. We avoid action because action is scary. Action is something that has consequences. Action is something that has risk. Action is something that has financial risk, or social risk, or physical risk, or anything else, and we convince ourselves that as long as we're working to improve our mindsets, then we're okay because we're preparing. We're waiting to get into the idea of action, but it doesn't work like that. This is where analysis paralysis comes from. You can't just sit and passively wait in order to be able to improve your mindset. You can't plan your way into a perfect life. You have to act. You have to take risks, you have to take chances, and honestly you have to fail in order to be able to get where you want to be too, because you have to be able to recover from that. Movement before mindset. Most of us miss that. We're terrified of movement. Movement means consequences.  We want our wives to be the ones to initiate change. We want our kids to be the ones to tell us that they're having a hard time. We're objects if we wait to change our mindset rather than actually working on movement. Now action in and of itself isn't enough. Movement in and of itself isn't enough. It needs to have meaning. How many of us engage in action all the time, but without injecting any meaning into it, it doesn't actually do anything? How many of us engage in just meaningless sex, hoping that by getting the validation of women we finally like ourselves and respect ourselves? But because there's no meaning in that, it doesn't actually get us the results we want. How many of us engage, or how many of us grew up, man, how many of us grew up in religious households and hated the idea of having to go through the motions of going through ritual because that ritual didn't have any meaning to us. Ritual can be a powerful thing. Ask Jack Donovan what the rituals and what he takes his men through. How powerful that is. Ask men who are getting ready to go for war and they're banging their chest and they're beating their drums and they're chanting. Tell me that those men, those actions don't have any meaning to them? Absolutely they do. But if we do this here, if you do the same thing, if you just bang your chest without any meaning to it, it doesn't matter. So actions have to be infused with meaning in order to be able to create the right kind of mindset. And again, you can't predict that ahead of time. You can't rationally plan for that ahead of time. You have to act and then you have to try and find the meaning or you have to alter your actions in order to find the meaning. But you can't just sit here and prepare and plan and wait and hope that it's gonna work out the way that you want it to because it's not. Subjects are things that give other things energy. It's one of the things I teach my guys when I talk about style all the time. When you think about the way that most men in the world dress, there's no energy to it. The whole purpose is to just avoid any attention whatsoever.  Most of us want to just be glossed over. We want to avoid any of the negative. And so what do we do? We just don't have any energy. We don't do anything. How many of our actions are that way? Well, I don't want my teacher to call me out for being one of the bad kids. I don't want to go to the principal's office. So what do I do as a kid? I shut up and I give the right answers when I'm called upon. But I'm certainly not gonna raise my hand if I know the answer, because what if I make a fool out of myself? We absorb energy. We do it out of fear. We do it out of all these other potential risks. Subjects, things that are engaged in motion, things that are doing things, things that are active, they give energy to other things. When you see men who are dressed well, they carry themselves well, they're genuinely interested in other people. They see other people as fellow subjects instead of just mere objects. When you see men like the other speakers who are building businesses, they're sharing their knowledge with you guys, what are they doing? They're giving you their energy. And the coolest thing about this is people is that we have this fantastic and unique ability where when we give our energy, we get more of it. Because if you were to ask any of these speakers, do they feel like they're giving themselves up to you and that comes at any real cost to themself, they'd say no way. None of us are here because of altruism. We're here because by our giving our energy to you, it energizes us more as well.  You don't give, you don't transmute, you don't do anything, you just absorb and disintegrate it. But if you're a subject, if you're engaged in action, if you're doing things, not only do you take other energy from the rest of the world and actually channel it into something productive, but you amplify it and you give it to more people and as you give them more energy, hopefully you're discerning about who you're giving it to so that they're doing it as well. Don't waste my energy. Don't waste the energy of the other speakers here.  How dare any of you be black holes of the energy that these men who are here give to you? It's selfish, it's petty, and it's small. Don't be objects on that. Be subjects, take this energy that we're giving that we're grateful enough to have and that we get to feel, and I love being on stage, I feel energized when I'm up here, but you guys don't waste that by being black holes of the energy. Don't go have lunch with these guys and then waste it by, well yeah, that's a great idea. Maybe one day I'll do something with it, act. Take that energy and actually do something with it. It is better to be a failure in the arena than it is to be a passive spectator in the stands. The world doesn't want us to believe that. The world wants us to rely on the safety, and again the bread and circuses of simply passively being in the stands. You can be a cynic, you can criticize this form, you can talk about how we as a team, you can talk about anything you want to but you get to do it with this false sense of security and this false sense of superiority by remaining in the stands. And what any man in the arena will tell you is that we have respect for the other men in the arena, but most of the time, especially with those who are perpetually in the stands, the hardest thing to do is to not feel just pure disdain for them.  The failure in and of itself, I know it sounds cliche, but the failure in and of itself becomes a success, it becomes a way to experience success. I had an example of this just within this last year for myself and my first boxing bout. I'm a terrible boxer. I'm old, I'm slow, I have no predatory instincts whatsoever.  I get in the ring with this kid. He's 13 years younger than I am, he's got two inches on me, he's probably got four inches of reach. And for only three minutes, because that's how it worked, three one minute rounds, this kid just worked me, right? It's humiliating. All my friends were there, my family was there. Nobody in that room was cheering louder for anybody than they were for me. I had talked about it on social media. I'm gonna go, I'm gonna box. I've been training for three years, I'm gonna go in and I'm gonna do this. I'd been planning, I'd paid money with trainers, I was ready to go, I was ready to do this. I was confident going in, that I was gonna beat this kid, that I was gonna win. And I got worked. I got absolutely wrecked by this kid. And I remember going to dinner with some of my friends and their wives and my wife after. And I'm concussed and I'm bleeding weird and we're all trying to eat. And I just remember feeling so discouraged because it didn't work out the way that I had hoped it would. I remember feeling so frustrated because I had put all this energy into something and it didn't yield the results that I wanted it to. And then I remember going back to the gym the next day or a couple days later and I remember going in and the way that the other guys who were in the gym who had actually fought before, the way that they treated me, it changed. I was now to a very small extent, I was one of them. I was destroyed in the arena, but I was in the arena. And the respect of those men, the guys who were in there, mattered a whole lot more to me than any of the passive aggressive comments or the disdain or Tanner and his delusions of grandeur that all the people in the stands would be throwing at me or not even have the courage to actually throw at me, but they would be saying about me behind my back. You can fail in the arena, you will, you will and you need to fail in the arena and you're going to be better for it because you're in the arena. It doesn't matter if you fail with business, it doesn't matter if you fail with marriage. I've been divorced, I've had marriage failures and it made my family life infinitely better now.   Failure is a wonderful thing if we add meaning to the action of failure. If we allow it to just keep us here, thankfully when we're dead in the arena, we're not actually dead, right? And most of the things that we're afraid of, they don't result in death. They don't result in physical death, they don't result in social death. The consequences as we think about them are we make them so much bigger than they actually are and really everything about what we experience is trying to get us to not climb over that wall, to not get down into the arena and we convince ourselves that we're better off up in the stands because we're safer up in the stands. But you need to fail, you need to be willing to fail, you need to recognize that failure is a part of the program. I can't tell you how many programs I've tried and failed. I can't tell you how many different things I've done, trying to build my business and fail and then now that I have success, every failure becomes worth it because you can be intentional, you can be movement oriented with what those failures are. Okay, so the last question is, how long do we do this for? Most of us, especially when you think about what the old American dream was, is pretty easy. You just had a number of things you had to check off, right? You graduate from school, you get a good job, you get married, you have a few kids and then you work until you retire and then you retire by just doing whatever you want for the 10, 20, 30 years until you die. We've been conditioned to think that our life is about build, build, build, build, build, endure and then relax. That's an object life. A life of a subject is build, build, build, build, build, build, build, build, build, build. You're not a God yet. I'm not a God yet. The audacity to think that I've arrived and I don't have to keep working on myself is peak hubris. I can't believe that we have the gall to think that it's 30 or it's 35 or it's 22. Yeah, I've accomplished enough. I just wanna hang out and watch Netflix and I've done enough, I'm just gonna enjoy me for now. That's it, I don't need to improve anymore. Oh, it's so passive and it's so just pathetic that we allow the world to tell us that these are the checkboxes that you need to check and then when we do check them, we think that we've arrived and that we're good enough and we don't need to do anymore. It is, it's pathetic. We're not God yet. We can be better. We can be better every single day and just like we build more energy as we give more energy, the more we build ourselves, the more that building translates into other arenas. If you learn how to fight, you become a better father. You become better at dating. If you learn how to dress well, you become better at work. Everything that we do, the more we become subjects of action, the better we get at everything else. It's synergistic. The talents that we can stack, the things that we can do, they are not mutually exclusive. Yes, as you get older, you're going to have to miss out on things. There are going to be times when you say, you know what, I can't. I can't go back and join the military now or I can't go back and maybe try and make it in the NBA. There are things that we do have to give up but it doesn't mean we have to give up growth and progress and action. Just because we can't have it all doesn't mean we have to stop dead in the water where we are. It's so small and so sad and so emasculating for us to think that we've arrived and that we don't need to build and become more.  You are going to fail at it.  It is going to be scary. It is going to hurt. That's part of what being a man is. No civilization has ever described the most masculine man as the one who is the most comfortable or the safest or the one who avoided the most amount of risk. Obviously be intelligent about it. Take good risks. Do things that are worth doing. Inject real meaning into what your actions are but stop planning. Stop preparing. Stop thinking and actually just start doing something. Thank you. Okay, I guess we got, I left a little bit of time so you can line up and let's hear your questions guys. Hey, Tanner. Hey. Hey, I remember listening to you. I don't know whether we were having a conversation or what we were talking about the boxing. Were you eavesdropping on me, Tex? Probably so. No, no, no, this wasn't the other night. This was a while back. But you were talking about preparing yourself for violence. Yeah. And not really, we all prepare ourselves for things in life but we don't really know how we're going to react when it actually happens. Right. Can you elaborate a little bit about the boxing experience? Yeah, absolutely. You mean the experience as far as why I prepared or what my experience was when I went through it? Why you prepared and what it was like to actually take the blow. Cool, okay, cool. Okay, so yeah, what Tex is talking about and I'll dive into this a little bit deeper, but okay, being a father of four and recognizing that the roles of being a patriarch and being the head of the family, being a father or protect, provide and preside, it's pretty easy for me to do the provide and the preside stuff. And I've got a wonderful family that those things just kind of fall in naturally. But as far as the protect stuff, this is again another example of how we're objects is we've been able to outsource our protection responsibilities and our protection rights and things like that as men to other men who take care of it for us. But that's not always the case. I hope that I never have to deal with real violence but if I do and it involves my wife and my kids, I mean you guys saw the video a couple weeks ago which an internet time feels like forever of the woman who stabbed the little kid in the eye and then the dad just kind of looked at her like, what are you doing? And I can't imagine responding that way except I could imagine responding that way because that's probably how I would have responded a few years ago because the idea of actually engaging in violence and knowing how to do it was so foreign to me and so I realized that when it comes to my responsibilities as a father, I can't protect if I don't actually know how to protect and I don't know how to do that if I haven't engaged in some sort of violence. I never fought in high school or anything like that and so for me that was why I started boxing is I wanted to get familiar with what it felt like to get punched in the face and I know that that's not the same thing or that's not a real thing but it's still, when you do get punched it's still very real and so as far as my experience when I was up there, the way that the best way I can describe it is before the first round I was just excited. I really was and I was kind of surprised that I was excited as opposed to being a little bit nervous and about 30 seconds in he hits me with this really strong right cross right here. My legs get a little bit wobbly and my vision gets shaky, you see the proverbial stars and I remember thinking, man I have done more than 150 rounds of sparring.  Oh man it was so brutal. So I went from pure excitement to in between the first and the second round nervousness and then in between the second and third round I was just scared and I didn't wanna go back in and the only thing that kept me going back in was the realization that's like, you gotta do this dude, you committed to this. I'm not gonna throw in the towel and so I knew that I didn't have a chance which I actually did better in the third round than anything else because he kind of gassed out but I knew that I needed to go in and I still needed to act and I really am grateful that I had people in my life that helped me develop more of that tenacity because five years ago I wouldn't have done it. I would have been very content to just say, well I tried, he's better than I am so maybe I'll go in because I don't wanna make a fool out of myself but I'm not actually gonna do anything but everything that I did when I went in there I didn't wait for him, I just kept going after him hard which is probably why I exposed myself too much anyway, I'm proud of what I did and the way that I did it in my mindset was even though as far as a results perspective I just, it was a waste and I got destroyed so hopefully that answers that text. What's that dude? There we go. Okay, there we go, oh that's, okay cool. So one, that what you said about the fear going back in just now your response man, that's like spot on, you just keep going, you don't really have a choice. Yeah, you would know, right? Yeah, you just have to go. But what I was curious about is one, would you ever fight again? And two, if not fight again, would you take on any other challenges that you feel will develop you to continue to, you know, whether it were for you or the example to your children just something that you've never done, it's gonna force you to be difficult and uncomfortable. Yeah, yeah, that's a great question. Okay, so one, I really don't wanna fight again and I can give myself all sorts of reasons and excuses not to, which means I need to fight again. So I will, I don't want to but I will. So, and that's part of it. But two, yeah, the idea of challenges, in fact, one of the things that a buddy and I have started doing is we've done a new, it's called Project M. And what we do is we take on a new challenge every single month. We're doing a YouTube channel and there's a podcast with it as we talk about these things. But one of the things that the guys who are subjects, the guys who engage in action will understand is that action is addictive. It really is. And the idea of challenging yourself and sometimes you fail and sometimes you succeed is really pretty fun and it's really addictive. And so we've done things like, I think next year I'm gonna run a full marathon. I wanna learn how to hunt. I've never done anything like that. Right now this month the challenges we're doing the air-martial pistol tests for accuracy and for time. And so we went out and we did that with a guy who's a professional shooter. We're training for a month and then we're gonna go back in and see what it's like. And that's very intentional on my part and my buddy's part as far as the example that we wanna set for our kids. I want my kids and especially my son to see that dad is somebody who's always challenging himself. Dad is somebody who's always doing new things. Dad is always somebody who's pushing his comforts and then I invite them to come do that with me. My son, he's starting wrestling next week and I love that as tender and as sweet and as passive as my son is, and I still don't think he has any idea what he's in for, which is gonna be great. I told him about a month ago that I had signed him up for wrestling. And without fail every week he counts down and he's so excited. That was the last thing he told me before I got out of the car was six more days till I got to start wrestling, dad. And it's not because he's that excited necessarily about wrestling, but it's because he's excited to be challenging himself and pushing himself and emulating me in that way. And man, the responsibility that I feel when I realize that my son emulates me that way, I just, I can't ever allow myself to be an object instead of being a subject because how selfish would I be to teach my kids that that's okay, that I've arrived, I've now challenged myself enough and I don't want that to be the example that I set for them. So absolutely, and I will definitely continue to find new ways to challenge myself and push myself and fail it a lot and exceed it a lot and it's, yeah, it's a great process. Hey, how you doing? Great. So I guess this is a bit of a multi-faceted question. Great. So a lot of guys who were in the first responder military community, a lot of times with style, we go for ultra functionality, cargo pants, like, hey, I gotta conceal my gun, hey, I gotta carry my badge, super thick Seinfeld wallet on me. So what are some solid style tips to still have that air gravitas but also marry that functionality so you don't always walk around in a graphic tee and some cargo pants? That's a good question, that's a fun one. Well, and especially because a lot of it does come back to this idea of mindset, because a lot of guys who are first responders, they do the law enforcement, they do the tactical thing because that's a tribal signal within that tribe as far as I fit in, I belong with these guys and we lean on functionality as this is the reason that I do it but really it's because we wanna look like all the other L.E.O. guys and I say we obviously don't mean me. But there's, and so you have to really even be able to kind of figure out what's worth it as far as trading all that stuff out. That's one of the things that I've been experimenting with a lot more is, you know, I have a concealed carry permit, I carry most of the time. How do I do that without printing? How do I figure, I'm trying to figure out how do I keep a tourniquet on me without having to worry about making it, you know, do you have to conceal? Is there a way to incorporate it in by actually having it be part of what your aesthetic is? And so the hard answer is it takes a lot of experimentation and it takes a lot of even knowing who your audience is, what the environments are on which you find yourself. And so I'd actually, we should talk after so I can know a little bit more about what your personal details are and then I can help give you some more direction that way because it's very, very contextual and it's dependent on some variables that I can't give a fair answer by just saying, do these things. Yeah, so let's talk after. Thank you, I appreciate it. Yeah, absolutely. Hey Tanner. Hello. Got a question for you. Let's hear it. Earlier you said action without meaning is useless and I totally agree. But for those of us who haven't quite fleshed out our life's mission per se or the meaning that we're aiming for, what do we do with our actions when we don't quite have that meaning defined? That's a fun question because there are plenty of people who do continue to pursue action and they think that if I can just do the action more or do it better, then I'll get meaning. That's where you get guys who get addicted to sex or adrenaline or anything else because really what they're chasing is they're chasing meaning. And so it's a combination of both. You have to be willing to act but then you also have to be willing to think. And one of the things that's hard for most men in our modern culture to even engage with is because it's terrifying, nihilism is really easy. The idea of engaging in some sort of deeper belief, the idea of building a legacy or the idea of being subservient to God or the idea of all these other things that used to grant people meaning, just like our culture tries to make us objects as far as not things that act it also tries to make us objects as far as things that don't have any real meaning in our lives. And so you have to be willing to do things that are very counter cultural and that are very rebellious that way. I would encourage most men to explore religion and explore it sincerely as opposed to just I grew up in it or I can't believe LOL, people still believe in God when we have science or that kind of stuff but genuinely explore and explore multiple different ones, explore brotherhood, explore fatherhood, explore tribe, explore all these other things and do it with the desire of trying to understand what is meaning and where do I get it? I know how to answer that question for me and so I would love to be able to talk in person with anybody who wants to know more about that but it really comes down to sincerely pursuing it and again pursuing it, not just planning for it and you have to try a bunch of different things and most of the time it gets tied up in a lot of those things, family, fraternity, faith, those kind of things, that's where for most of us meaning comes from. I have a question, so you said movement influences mindset. Sometimes we often take steps and it's sometimes a step in the wrong direction. How do you know when to kind of break that off and go a different direction? Because I mean, not all movement points you kind of in the right direction, I mean you can learn from failures as well. Right, yeah so how do you know when to make that change? Yes. You don't, that's a crappy answer but that's the reality of it. You have to, it comes from experience, right? You have to figure out what your own experience and what your boundaries are. There will be times when you hold on to an action for way too long because it's comfortable and that failure is comfortable because it's familiar and the idea of knowing when or how to commit, it doesn't work. Sometimes you pivot away from things too quickly. There are plenty of people who you see them, okay, business is a really good example of this where, okay, I'm gonna start doing a course. Okay, but yeah, there's guys who are talking about dropshipping. Okay, I'm gonna do dropshipping. Yeah, but there's guys who are talking about high ticket coaching. Okay, let's do high ticket coaching and so they're pivoting too much all the time but then you also have guys who don't recognize when the horse is dead and you can stop beating it. And so it really does just come from experience. It comes from being able to, again, understand both the meaning and the action of being able to take your rational brain and acknowledge the results of the consequences but taking your, the way Sutherland calls it is your psychological or this extra logical brain and actually say, I'm going to just try something. I'm just gonna do something and see if I can figure out what the results are. We have to have both. And so a lot of times if you feel like you're stuck in a rut and we're trying to say, you know, when do I make the change or should I make this change or how do I make this change? The right answer is just change something and see what happens with it. And it's never a set time. There's never this like perfect queue where the heavens open up or you get a phone call from your boss or the perfect girl walks up to you and says, I want to marry you. It doesn't work like that. And so you have to be, that's where that risk, that risk affinity comes in where maybe you do leave something that's really, really good and it's working pretty well but it's only gonna get you to this level and you leave it so you can do something else that gets you to this level. And there's no guarantee on it. And that's part of what being a man is, is you act without guarantee. Does that help? Yes, thank you. Awesome. Okay guys, well, I don't see anybody else lining up. So thank you again for the opportunity to talk to you and I'm gonna be here for the rest of the week. I'd love to talk to you guys one on one. So thank you. Thank you. Thank you.


There's so many people here, there's so many people here, looking sexy. Track completed, station work, nothing really new on the inside, but it has a slick new fresh coat of paint. That looks good. It's paint! And the entrance, getting repainted, some lights, train tracks still needs to be built. The world's fastest inversion right there, world's fastest inversion. A-transit back on the track, that's a good sign.


Alright, what's up internet? Hopefully the stream should be good. Although my chat window again seems to be yung problema sa OBS. Daping mga... I can't really feel it's free software. I mean, parang wala masyadong UI and the UI does have is confusing. Wala masyadong... I can't, parang the parts were just cobbled together. I mean, I appreciate it's free and it does its job relatively well. But, there's so many things na like this chat window. Okay, I've been talking for a minute and supposedly the stream is okay and I'm gonna check if the stream is okay on YouTube. Yes, mukang okay naman. I have one viewer. Thank you for joining me at 12.30 in the morning. But yun nga, my chat window is all F top. Wait lang. Docs menu in the menu bar. Yes, I want chat. Oh, there we go. Oh, stop Revenjan. It's you pala Revenjan. Sorry, yun nga. The window was weird. It is 12.30 am. Wala naman grab at this time. There goes my plan to have a 24-hour hardware sugar. The whole point of having a 24-hour hardware sugar was that yun nga, kung makapisi problem ko in the middle of the night, let's say, you're working at home for a call center and you need a PSU because your PSU went down or something. Yun nga yung sana ko sa 24-hour. You know that you could run to hardware sugar. How are we gonna do that if wala na pala nga grab? Thanks, Revenjan. Saappul Toralba. I get your name, right? Yes, Saappul Toralba. Like, what are you guys doing up at night? I just got my kids to bed. And I've been wanting to... I felt that I left this particular stage hanging. So I haven't been able to play for the past three days or something. I've really wanted to get back to it. So I've gotten back to it now. I couldn't stream naman yesterday because we released a video yesterday or a couple of hours ago, but now it's 12 o'clock so it's technically Friday. So I can stream again. Thanks to CD Key our sponsor. Okay, let me just figure out what's going on here and what I need. I'm going back going back into I got nothing. I'm going back into BT Country like the... Oh, and I also need... Okay, wait. How many likes did I get because everybody was rebuilt? What was that? What was that message? Ah, man. Yeah, the store is open. Same time, 9.30 to 4.30. But what's this about delivering your resignation? Hang in there. It can't be that bad. Well, I mean, I don't know. Some... Some jobs can be pretty terrible. Okay, I have boots pa naman. Okay. Actually, I have three pairs of boots. So that's good. So this mission I am going to bring a live person from one location to another location in a body bag. Yeah. See how much we can siphon off here. Yeah, that's good. Maka, I needed that stuff. Maybe I should give it back to the facility. Okay, but I definitely need a blood bag. Okay, lemme equip up before I go out again. So I do need a blood bag. Yes. I would like a hermatic grenade. Yes. Yeah, gimme one of those. And I want an anti-BT handgun. Perfect. Let's do that. Oh. Okay. All right, that's good. Now let's get our orders. Aye. Should've passed by before you quit. No. Feel free to come by anytime, Paul. Even though you don't work in the area anymore. Ardors for Sam. Okay. We should do both of them. See, this right here for the how many people are watching? For the five people who are watching, that is BT Country. So I'm going to take the longer route. I'm hoping the shoreline isn't BT Country. When we get somewhere around here, I'm going to try to scale that mountain to hit this one. Because to be honest, to be honest, the BT scared the heck out of me. So proceed with caution. Now more than ever. So I proceed with caution until you're not the guy with the Yes, sir. Thanks, Paul. Nice to see you two on the stream. Okay, wait. I'm going to deploy my floating carrier so that I can carry all of this cargo. And you, my other cargo, get into your body bag. Did it up? The likeness of this character is very distinctive. Or that might just be my 48 inch OLED screen. But it's almost like somebody I know or vaguely uncanny valley familiar. Luigi, power nap to the best. You never know, Revenjan. Personal delivery might be in the offing soon. Okay, okay, wait. Let's figure this stuff out. Okay, deploy the floating container. Offload, I think it is.  Should I get a new one? You know, parang I want a new one. That's not looking so hot. I'm going to recycle you. Pang rusted na siya. Ah, see, damage. Let's get rid of that. So this is really what passes for gameplay in this game. Just a lot of logistics and miniscule things like that. Oh, the item I'm going to use is kind of beat up already. I'm going to recycle it, get the materials and then make a new one. It sounds like work. It sounds like what a grab or logistics guy would be thinking about. Okay, here you go. Put na lang may version 2 na ni floating carrier. Okay, you go on the ground. There is my floating carrier. Ay, what is this? Can I put you in the carrier? Why do I have another floating carrier? Carry it on back, attach the suit, onto the rack. Load onto carrier. As I mentioned before, the A I loaded the carrier onto the other carrier. Ay. Okay, wait, wait. The UI of this thing is not the best. Okay, ay, ay. Wait, wait. Oh, quit your belly aching. It's going to be a long journey. Ay, okay, wait. We're going to put you down first. Okay, you go down. Okay, sub sushi. Ano tong pizza? Why am I not being invited to pizza? Okay, let's do that. Yeah, we need you. All right, all right.  Two, three, where are you? Where's the vlog? This is more complicated than I thought. Here.  Load onto carrier. Yon. Oh, and then I can attach multiple carriers. Yes, yes. Okay, okay. Hmm. Are you sure I can't carry you in the thing? How come I can carry you myself on the thing? Wait.  All right, there we go. Okay, this is making sense. How do I attach? What is this? Can I put you in the carrier? Where is the there? I want to put you. Apparently, the carrier artist cannot be loaded onto the floating carrier. Just in case we needed clarity on that which I did. This poor woman is like what is this guy doing? Why did I entrust my faith to this simpleton? Attach link carrier. There we go. Now, apparently the other stuff on my back needs to go onto the other thingy. Oh, kasha. Don't care. Oh, that's great. Sorry, guys. I'll take it like 15 effing minutes to figure out like how I'm going to do this. But I think we're in pretty good shape now, to be honest. I can ride you. I can ride the carrier. Okay, wait. I can't remember any more what the heck I've been doing. And ride. Yes, ride carrier. Ride carrier. Come on. What the... That is not riding the carrier. I mean, literally yes, we were riding the carrier. But... Oh, because I was attached to it.  Get off me. Kick to move forward. Attach carrier. Attach carrier. Ride, ride carrier. Parang hindi. Pick up carrier. I talk about... I talk about... Okay, I guess I can only have one. Okay, I'm going to just recycle you because I'm that kind of guy that parang sayang. I talk about AI in the latest podcast which drops like in a couple of hours. And I'm like, yeah, it's amazing now and you can just talk to it normally. Type to... Type to it normally, it'll understand you. And here I am like doing like these Zork text commands to this game that carry on back. Stop, Mark Lasunabaro. Yeah, yeah, I've been wanting to do this mission for a while. I was here like three days ago, but yun niya parang Thank you for your conscience. Natagala na ko to get back to playing. All right. So again, my my plan here is to yeah, we're gonna skirt the coast. I want to Come on, guys. Come on, man. Oh, man. Yeah, yeah, custom marker B. So we're gonna hug the coast. All right.  All right. Don't fall. And we're off. Okay. Oh, oh, shoot. I guess, you know, I could have made a bike. I mean, um, I don't quite know why I'm doing this to myself. I mean, I could have just did a tractor bike, I think. Yes, and that's a better way. Why is there a mech there? Horizon Zero Dawn. Lovely travel companion we have here. Yeah, I think I can build one like a vehicle, but I don't know. The masokis in me just wants to see if I can do this on foot. And like if we hug the coast if we're gonna hit any bts find the more I make my character suffer. The more I think he or I'm worthy of playing Death Stranding. So far, so good. Okay. We've hit point. Fairness, like when you do these long haul journeys. Banda dito. Banda dito. And then you got this music playing. Pwede. You can feel it's really like a long way. Long way. Looks traversable. The mountain slope. 200 meters. Yeah, so there is a shorter route through BT country, but ah, yun nga. They scare me, those bts. Not gonna lie. So if we can avoid them, why the heck not? Especially because I'm so burdened. There's literally another person on my back. 130 meters. Sub Wander pH, sub Justin. Parang this kind of idyllic it's not even idyllic, it's like a bare mountain but then you have this kind of slightly country song playing. You can feel the like paraan layo pa nung kilangan mo dahanan. Like I'm hoping this is like a foot pass. Or like a steep. Like a... Alright, let's orient. My boots are about to give out. Ah, in ako. Starting to rain. Okay. I have a lot of boots actually. So let's just swap them out now. Good footwear is very important. 370 meters. Never seemed so far. Pero yung a, okay lang as walang bts. I'll try my new anti-bts gun some other time. I'm excited to try that out though. Oh no bts. Oh no. Vermagon. I went all this way tapos may bts. Nakakainis ka. Okay, man up. Let's not be a hero. Directors seem to be away naman. Just don't need to engage. If we don't need to engage. I don't see him. But he's so close na. So this is the first route I took through the to get to this. So I came from here. This is the first route and so now I'm taking like this. Ah, you know, I guess I could cut here. I'm pretty sure because I've done this before. Walang naman bts doon. Stop it so far but okay. 150 meters. So let's just. Oh, yeah, yeah, okay, okay. Oh baka okay na. Oh, okay, okay, I overreacted. We just literally skirted and then yeah, yeah, okay, okay. Good plan, good plan.  And you turn out to be alive. And we found that out from a simple Google search. The Death Stranding equivalent of the Google search. Man, I swear to God, once I deposit you person on my back, I'm gonna find me a vehicle to log this vlog, vlog thing. Oh, here we go, here we go. All right. Ah, pretty good. Lake Not City, Crater Lake. Is this Crater Lake? Like this one. It may sinasabi mong car. Ah, perfect. We made it. Now we will have a tearful reunion with your boyfriend. Ah, that worked out. Okay, we can put you away, grenade. Damn, moment, take it easy, okay. I just literally carried you. Oh, ito may ano. Detach, detach cable. Cable detach. Okay, here you go. The guy I brought you. Why could this woman not have just walked behind me? Who knows. Reunion time, reunion time. Grab ay naman yung blocking ng scene na to.  You're alive. That's my life, silly. I couldn't do a simple Google search. Your mom's called Cajun. How is that? But you are very clearly Japanese.  That thing that our glass, you had to slog that by hand. You had to slip it over the mountain.   Parang lahat ang pinakirapan mo parang wala lang. Okay, toss it, toss it. Break it. Break it. Fair enough, good move. Matus, it's a time I spent with you. So let's count some moments ourselves together. I'm asking you to marry me, dummy. I do. Yes.  Please. Tell her this is what we want. Help her to understand and accept it. Because she needs us and I need her. I'm pretty good at patching things up. Really? She kept your girlfriend hidden from you?  And I get one thank you for slapping the our glass up and down mountains. Slapping the girlfriend up and down mountains. Thankless job. Man, speaking of thankless job, I had a very difficult customer today. Actually, it was like a customer last week but then like spill over yung need to attend to him today. Grabe. One of the worst.  Parang Oh, that's a new trick. Yaya Luigi, kailangan may cool down period. It was pretty bad so I don't want to it's really like one of those frustrating encounters. But you'll probably hear me I might not make a video out of it although I am super tempted to. But you'll probably hear me talk about it more, rant about it more as we as we go or you know in the different streams and stuff. Nightfall said the manager said the manager mean why is the manager telling me how to run my delivery service but with the baby I'm in no position to infect me. Doesn't seem to have done any real damage yet but would you mind looking into it for me? Just be sure to keep your distance, alright? Mama is in South Lake City to this first man this thing is so beat up I can't even use it Is there a vehicle somewhere in here? Sometimes people just leave cars running around here not so in this case actually I love stealing trucks from the mules like you can see here I've stolen like two trucks and parked them outside there already but it doesn't seem to be oh god gotta hoof it oh me smo, tina mo like that route that I passed by, talagang may BTs doon it was much better there's actually a car back with the chiral artist so I don't mind running back there actually especially with the speed okay the touch carrier then we're gonna dispose of vehicle but can I leave you here? I'll just put it in the locker is there anything back to the chiral artist we can run back to the chiral artist okay oh there, okay want this this too always need that stuff for um no cargo for Sam okay as I will do we'll run back to the run back to the on place in private locker let's recycle this one and my boots where's my other boots? these boots yeah so we're gonna get the cargo we're gonna run back to the chiral artist we're gonna get the reverse strike and then uh that's true we could go back also to a oh to one of the safe houses I'm cheap I don't wanna I don't wanna leave the stuff that people leave I don't wanna use my own resources I could probably actually fabricate one now but it's just parang labag sa kaloban ko oh I will actually need the speed skeleton let's see how fast we can go speed skeleton where is my alright let's do this let's make a speed run let's make a speed run A where's C B I guess I should pick you up on the way back just because I'm going to lake nut city anyway alright speed boost 2g I use energy every time I scan this thing I use the scanner rather ah baby like that did you oh speed run talaga to this is an old marker I don't know I just wanted to hit it and then we're off wow three gonna really start rebuilding highways like that yeah I know I agree Mark Lester Navarro like we're down to one third battery na lang but I mean we should have some generators over there when I first saw these guys like you could see the porters local porters there in the background I thought they were like mules I thought you could jump them so I was like arming myself and pala like they're like on truckin ah that's much easier run than the first the structure from horizon zero though on great game I have not played the sequel yet because it is on the playstation and there is the car that I want to use good job I'm just going to leave a bunch of likes super useful alright let's charge up make a delivery truck and then head back head back to the very good stop lady be kind to your new son in law sorry this make delivery first oh thank you so much for coming stop lazy cable manager stop Kobubu like that came from the junk dealer sending junk back to his mom in law hi like literally you give me a new design to a gun right after I bought the first design ooh what is oh chiral boots what chiral boots do customize boots lightweight, exchangeable special boots cool thank you okay what can we take back um sure sure sure alright do all that we should use the power skeleton no more need for the speed one although I mean we'll just load most of it onto the onto the onto the trike anyway sorry alright got everything got everything yes sir alright alright where's that where's that truck yes we will oi don't go over the trike load the trike the the hell was that Sam Porter Bridges kay wala ng wala ng iwan ah you are a spiffy vehicle I always think like sometimes may na iwan sometimes like I bring out like I make my delivery wow those guys super slow and then di pala kompleto for some reason I don't know oh I lost I did have a bike coming out here but I lost it in the one of the ravines dun sa ano is this right where am I ah did it more one of the ravines dun sa near the collector's home and the mule site okay let's pick up the ay sayang we should have gotten the small one ah sorry I was not paying attention don't wreck it wreck stuff before like I'm super cheap I want to get like the two ceramics oh and this one every little bit helps okay in the collector one kano ko layo yun because we will be passing by ay really it's right there I just wanna pick up that small item okay let's go slow siguro naman dito pa ako na ano yun get out of there dito pa ako na dali ayaw ko na lang yay we made it sorry for knocking over your alright deliver cargo nice couple dark rift 149 omni reflector boots discount kung pasabay at pakabit ako kasama na yung cable management sa price so no sorry same price lazy cable manager I can see where you get your name but you can give us the I mean you know you can bring over the the the cable also that we can kami na yung pakabit kasama na talaga sa presyo yung cable management ay gami version 2 of the anti-BT gun the custom chiral ladder okay thanks guys okay we gotta get to the distro center um yes let's get that what else I hope we can still have enough room for all of that but we have the okay okay I think these reverse bike transporters can actually take on more than then that big truck of the mules I don't know why anything we need here na naman okay cool cool cool let's just try not to okay I think may duplication ako dito ay like level 1 di ba namin level 2 na ako apparently not apparently not okay kinda sworn I already had a level 2 okay let's go to the collector for ouchie ouchie habit this is where oh are those mules do I have my gun ah god damn it where is my gun ah why don't I have my ano why don't I where where is my oh shoot did I did I forget to put it somewhere I mean did I put nag ano ba ako sorry did saan ko ba ninyagayon sa private locker dito nga kay ano I think let's check let's check like I did I had my I had stuff ah ah every god damn time like oh I see something on the road I'm like pick it up it's like pick up don't throw yourself on the road sorry cargo man I'm really getting old it's like I can't remember anymore where I left the stuff pero I've literally been only to two places the junk dealer and the chiral artist I hope I didn't leave it with the chiral artist now here's my stuff here's my stuff yes I completely forgot about this mission this lot of stuff wait wait wait okay that works okay what about the other stuff and see what can't this what can't the transporter transport just carry this other stuff on my back that is what my back is for why can't I carry on my back okay now I'm annoyed why can't I carry on my back it's too much stuff see that's the thing also I wish they'd make it clear what you can actually fit on your back and stuff pero parang I can't have 3 XL on my back so I'm gonna have to leave the vlog behind the vlog yun pwede yun pwede yun di pwede okay I'm just gonna recycle I need space on my back so this anyway may speed skeleton 2 na man I should also be going to bed soon you need to bring my kid to school tomorrow morning pero parang bitin eh parang I wanna do more cargo okay will you let me carry everything yes success not that okay okay probably shouldn't engage in combat here but at least we have everything it'll be slightly better once we get off with the collector drop off his stuff definitely don't pick up anymore stuff Sam Porter bridges alright here we go charge up alright damn mosquitoes oh oh old fall I don't know how that guy falling into the ravine didn't cause a void out man I'm so overloaded I don't know if oh hey that wasn't very friendly pa ni collector who can tell with all this bouncing around oh okay we can run you over you too equal opportunity roadhog coming around coming around handling on you ah di pa rin that should be enough to knock you out man you're lucky I didn't kill you now you too I admit that running over people is my preferred way to take them out man these crevices are so annoying oh shoot what did we say about up engaging oh and my sorry my battery's not at 50% and I'm getting eaten by mosquitoes over here alright I think we are on the proper side now for the collector let me just ladder near him ah okay well I think everybody there's a rope there so that should be good let's just get the proper stuff okay wait ah carried on back drop this stuff and it's fan for the collector and these are all for the distro center that's for the weather station weather weather distro di pa I picked up something for the collector here here collector collector alright okay don't go anywhere guys like you think the mules would come to get my stuff they are coming I don't feel safe now you know what let's do it I don't want them coming to get my stuff okay I see how many alright Samport our burger hey bring it mules range this oh shit oh shit ah this is always what happens when did I leave anything collector ah so annoyed okay let's get this mules always what happens every time try to do someone a nice thing by clearing out some mules alright lady quiet man I didn't spoil the collectors okay where are the mules din I end up pala sa may collector don't tell me don't tell me nahhaha I did end up with the collector krabi naman to man the irony I'm like I won't I won't like I'm gonna engage the mules I had three right did I lose one I'm gonna engage the mules to make sure my cargo is intact I engage the mules and I fall down that damn ravine again I don't know how many times I've fallen down that ravine alright collector let's get him let's get him we do need to go back to lake nut city anyway I'm okay we just take I'm okay we just uh noted mama and those damn mules better not have taken my stuff elder yeah why not mine got destroyed in the time fall so damn mules where's mine but there was a rope here I mean to be honest it feels really kind of annoying people may rope we can use the leather hoi ha yeah there's the rope but you need to be let's do this I'm tired of you guys oh you guys messing around with me one more one more one more one more one more Sam Porter Bridges you and you and you got him you got him with the likes of you points if you get the reference hoi hi you where where my gun this is special suit my ass bagam-bagam meron pa what is that what is that did I make it clear for other guys I like getting that message na hoi meron pa ha okay come on we gotta do some deliveries but for you we can do it the old fashioned way Sam Porter Bridges is upset because you guys keep interrupting important work okay na ba tayo guys leave me in peace now I'm super tired okay I need a drink it's to be fair akapagod nga yung bubukan okay I can't it's up anymore but we can do that do we want anything here and let's organize this shall we on the ground not carried get it back on the thing load onto the transporter load on the transporter load on the transporter load on the transporter load on the transporter alright we have picked everything up except the what happened I thought I picked everything up did I not say load on transporter to be fair there doesn't need to be a lot of stuff on the bike okay let's start from scratch let's put the really heavy things like these are all small stuff okay that one I can carry this one go on the bike yon turn na lang too much about 2 maliit 2 maliit kaya okay okay almost there no matter how I optimize it I'm gonna have to leave some stuff because I picked up some of this stuff well if I get rid of the three container repair sprays okay one two three isa na lang just need to get one more item can't I attach this to suit isa na lang okay the bike is really like legit puno okay I can't use it you know what's annoying about this it's like so close yet so far but if I upload this ceramics and then I can bring it fine I don't want to think anymore and then we can bring this one we can finally be under way sorry old stuff just couldn't bring you anymore stop Rocky Smell hirap sa you Rocky the Programmer masyado kong ano ya everything do it yourself the point of the game is to it's a communal experience it's like coming together and earning likes and stuff finally we're carrying a lot of cargo we're carrying a lot of cargo oh make delivery tamikeyan yan the Vogue alone chiral bridge we do need to make some highways so looks like both caught their eye the motor for one was impressive they really couldn't believe it was made from scrap it can be fitted to a modified truck and be ready to go in no time they contracted the jump dealer straight away and got it added to the list of supplies that can be fabricated they had good things to say about the pouch too contract has already been made and you'll find the pouch in the private room ay rubu if you want to customize your backpack what those two did for me it's like what I did for those two what time is it oh god okay I really gotta I really gotta sleep guys so the deliveries can wait till tomorrow alright thanks so much for joining me for a very late night stream sometimes the only time I can get to play we dropped a new video yesterday please do check it out parang episode 4 of price watch where we've been tracking CPU and GPU prices for the past 15 weeks some interesting stuff our new podcast for this week drops in 4 hours at 6am where we talk about the best the best cpu for gaming so a german website a german media outlet had some interesting tests and interesting results a bit surprising to be honest if I have enough time I'll try to do a short also that might drop saturday or sunday and Ren is working on a ASUS Stuff 4070ti video reviewed by rockin the programmer which I haven't asked her about it but hopefully it should be out already by tomorrow it's been in edit for a while now alright thanks so much for joining me have a good night stay safe one more day til the weekend guys


Hello and welcome to Chanakya IS Academy. I am Priya Kumari and today daily topic analysis topic is India Innovation Index. So let's see one by one. India Innovation Index. This was recently in news because Niti Ayog released the second edition of India Innovation Index 2020. So this index actually demonstrates the government's continued commitment towards transforming the country into an innovation driven economy. So what is India Innovation Index basically? Now Niti Ayog with Institute for Competitiveness releases the India Innovation Index. So the study is an outcome of extensive research and analysis which looks holistically at the innovation landscape of India by examining the innovation capabilities and performance of Indian states and union territories. So the aim is to create a holistic tool which can be used by policy makers across the country to identify the challenges to be addressed and strengths to build on when designing the economic growth policies for their regions. What are objectives of this India Innovation Index? So the index attempts to create an extensive framework for the continual evaluation of the innovation environment of 29 states and union territories in India and intends to perform the following three functions. Which are they? They are ranking of states and union territories based on their index course, then recognizing opportunities and challenges and assisting in tailoring governmental policies to foster innovation. So how this index is calculated? So it is calculated as the average of this course of its two dimensions which are enablers and performance. So the enablers are the factors that underpin innovative capacities which are grouped in five pillars and they are human capital, investment, knowledge workers, business environment and safety and legal environment. The performance index captures benefits that a nation derives from the inputs which are again divided into two pillars and they are knowledge output and knowledge diffusion. So what are the key findings of recent India Innovation Index 2020? Amongst the major states, the average innovation score between the 29 states of India is 25.35 in which Karnataka tops at 42.5 which is attributable to its strong number of venture capital ideas, then registered GIs and ICT exports. Then again Karnataka's high FDI inflow has also enhanced the innovation capabilities of the state. Now Maharashtra follows second at 38 while Bihar finishes last at 14.5. So the case for the southern states as the top performers has also become stronger as four of them occupy the top five spots within the major states. So you can see here like Karnataka tops followed by Maharashtra then third is Tamil Nadu and fourth is Telangana and again fifth is Kerala. So top five spots are taken by the southern states and of course Maharashtra. So if we see amongst the north eastern states and hill states then Himachal Pradesh as the best performer came up with a score of 25 followed by Manipur which is 22.77 and Sikkim 22.28 respectively. So with 31.9% of its total employment generation being knowledge intensive, Himachal Pradesh benefits from a high number of knowledge workers. So another characteristic that boosts the state's level of innovation is its industry friendly policy and incentives which are reflected in its high rank in the ease of doing business index. So that's why Himachal topped their list. So if we see amongst the union territories so the average state average score was 26.01. So amongst them Delhi emerged as the best performer and Chandigarh followed Delhi with a score of 38.57 whereas Lakshadeep is the last position and Jammu Kashmir also scores 18.62. So having recorded the highest number of trademark and patent application along with the establishment of new startups and companies in the last financial year the national capital or Delhi has managed to deliver superior results in the domain of knowledge output. That's why Delhi topped the chart. So now we will see the question based on this. So the question is which of the following institution organization releases India Innovation Index? Option A, only Niti Aayok. Option B, the Institute for Competitiveness only. Option C, both A and B. Option D, neither A nor B. So please comment your answer in the comment box. The solution will be provided in the next topic. Till then take care, goodbye and have a nice day. Don't forget to like share and subscribe to our channel and press the bell icon to never miss an update.


Scripture is the Word of God. And as such, it's one of the essential weapons in your spiritual battle. Listen carefully to the scriptural readings in Mass and meditate on them deeply. Read Scripture on your own, daily if possible, and ponder how we can apply it to your life. Memorize scriptural texts that we can use against temptation. If the devil tempts us to doubt God's faithfulness, for example, we can reply with St. Paul, applying his words to ourselves, God is faithful, by whom I was called into the fellowship of his Son. Discover more Scripture passages to help you fight against Satan in my introduction to spiritual warfare.


oh got something on here whoa whoa there he goes oh big boy he's got a what I'm trying to get him to go into the water come on buddy yeah whoa


So just like we've seen in the past if I could do a lookup that means that I can find a position in my my data structure of sort and that also means that I can do something like an Insert let's say for example since I tried to find 14 and it wasn't in there I want to do an insert on 14 so the reason why we kind of did that lookup first is because Now we can actually kind of do a traversal To find where we need to go. That's actually the first step to this entire process Look up until Node Available, and I'm just kind of using some terms there But I need to basically find when I can actually get added in well 14 again We do our same traversal that we've seen in the past. I get to this 13 And I see that 13 has no children now in my last video and when we are doing a lookup on 14 We would just throw an error throw a negative one in this regard since we see that 13 has no children and Is 14 is greater than I now know that 13 dot right? Can get added in? 14 let's say for example I did another one as well, so inserts 12 Well, guess what the same process comes into play. I'm doing exact same Traversal as before but since 12 is less than 13 in that regard It would be to the left The left child now one thing that we do have to look at with all this is whether or not this is classified as a Proper tree is this proper? Well, the way we would classify a proper tree is all nodes Have zero or Two children And if we kind of looked 50 has two children 15 has two children 10 has two children five has no children 13 to zero to two zero zero zero zero and so this is in fact proper But since you know I want to see the improper variation to this Let's say I came in and did an insert of 100 Well, as you can kind of guess pause the video maybe traverse this one on your own for a second and We traverse aha we traverse aha we traverse aha since 100 is greater than 99 It's gonna get added in to the right node And if I were to ask that same question again, is this proper? Well, no because here's a node that only has that has one child and I Need every single one so in this case now it is no longer proper We would classify it as in proper


Yeah, wake up. It's already 10 o'clock.  Don't put the camera on me right now. Look at it. Go take a shower. Oh my god, you put a lot on there. You did! Hey babe, to be honest, I think that's a new fit. I think we should start a trend on TikTok or something. Yeah, look at it. It actually burns my face. I need to go. I thought you were gonna like smack me with it or something. No, I am still walking. Alright, love you. What is going on? Welcome back to our channel, guys. If you are new, make sure right now to go down and hit that subscribe button and turn on post notifications so you get notified every single time we post. As you can see by the title today, I'm gonna be getting Mariah back again. You guys loved my memory loss prank. I'm Mariah, the last video. If you did not see that, go check that out after this video. But Team Build had to come back again and I'm gonna be doing the prank. You might go from 100 times in the same day. I hope you guys enjoy. Make sure to give this video a thumbs up. Let's try to give this video the 10,000 likes because you guys apparently love my pranks and I love that, so if you love them, I'm gonna do more of them. Also, thank you so much for all of our TikTok shoutouts that are being so supportive in our TikTok live streams. Thank you for all the support and I don't wanna make this intro too long because I have a prank right now that I wanna pull Mariah again. I filled up a bowl of cold water and since she's in the shower right now I'm gonna go inside the bathroom and dump it all on her. She's gonna hate that. Now, I have had this happen to me before and it is terrible.  So, I hope you guys enjoy it. Wish me luck and let's go dump this water on her. Are you looking at me? I just wanted to say hi.  Huh? I need to go.  So, I need to find something nasty to throw on her. Alright, I'm finding something nasty right now so she has to get back in the shower. This is literally the first thing that popped up when I opened the fridge. So, I'm gonna dump this on her right now. Nothing. What did I do? Nothing. Come here. Do you promise it's not a spider? I promise it's not a spider.  I won't believe you. I promise. It's not a spider. It clearly is. What is that? I would not be holding a spider. Get back in the shower. Oh, it's dripping down your thing. Let me help you out with that. Stop it! Get out of here. I'm sorry. That was your fault. Are you not gonna take a shower? I'm gonna put... I don't wanna get back in. I'm just gonna get another rag and put soap on it. You were so scared. Right, you were literally terrified. This is only the start so get ready.  I just saw it, Bill.  I'm kidding. It's still here. Did you drop your phone on the ground? Yeah, you scared me. I wish I got that. I don't think the angle was there. Guys, Mariahs straight up dropped her phone on the ground. You're so cute, baby. Can you please get dressed so I can film like you other than you in a towel? I look ugly, Bill. You look beautiful. You look beautiful. I'm back right now. Mariah already did her makeup. She's downstairs waiting for me to come down and get food. I'm actually gonna be doing the falling down the stairs prank. We did this as a prank on our channel. I'm gonna get her reaction. Let's see what happens. I know I got you trying to eat over here. But no, babe, you're not safe today. You're not safe today at all. I'm not gonna believe you anything you do now. Yes, you will. What are you eating? It's mac and cheese. It looks like shrimp. I'm so hungry. We're eating late. We're eating breakfast. Can you get a little? I want to show my outfit. Look how cute Bill looks, guys. He made sure it's what it makes. I'm wearing my white pants. Dang, Bill. I wanted to look good because you're wearing a lighter top. Yes. He's getting a haircut today. Today? I totally forgot. Look at this. Let's do a before and after. This is my before. I usually get the sides faded. My hair is getting a little long now. We'll do an after later. You can see on our Instagram. Follow us on Instagram. We've been posting pictures two times a week now. Make sure to like it up. Follow us and you'll see the new haircut. You want to grab a camera? I do. Why are you doing what? Because you're not safe today. Quarantine is not going to kick our butts. We have to keep grinding at it. I'm sorry. No one asked. I'm sure no one really is going to look to buy that at the store. Yes, it looks good. You're looking good, though. Thank you. I need to eat. I don't want any fuel in my body. I'm running low. I think I'm going to cut up an apple. I think that'll be good. It does sound good and healthy. I don't know if you guys ever eat apples with peanut butter, but it's a great combination. I would try checking it out. Oh my God, I just cut my sauce. Oh my God. You didn't even have me a taco sauce. You don't even have ketchup here. Where are you going? Wait, so you wanted me to come down here this whole time and now you're just going to eat and leave? Yeah, because I'm going to go get ready. I haven't even eaten yet. Wait, you're already ready, though. You got dress. I have to go upstairs and brush my teeth and do stuff. Do stuff? What other stuff? Essentials. I actually scared you good. Guys, literally one of our best friends is getting married if you did not know, and we just got their wedding invitation. I still got you really good, though. Not even funny. Stop pranking me.  I found an old wig that she used in one of our old pranks a year ago and I'm going to cut a sliver of hair off of it and use that sliver to act like I cut her hair off with scissors after she comes out. So I'm going to do that right now. This is the wig right here. You want me to try to leave? Huh? You want me to try to leave? Yeah. Here, can you come here? Watch this video of me. Does that look good? Why would you do that? That's not funny. Why would you do that? What is your problem, Bill? I was trying to cut off this much. I'm so sorry. That is not funny, Bill. Where did you even cut it at?  Let me see. It was one of these spots. Dave, I'm so sorry. Don't cry. Come here. Don't push me away. Come back. Dave, it's literally, it's just, you don't even need this. Dead ends. Look at those dead ends. I just faked it. It was a wig hair. Remember your wig that you have? It's not your hair. Hold on, I think the wig was in here. Look it. Remember this? From a prank that you did to me a long time ago? You're not even funny, Bill. If you were part of our channel a while back, we did a wig prank where she followed me in public without me knowing with the wig. That was the wig that we used. Go check out that video. That was a long time ago. I think a year ago maybe too. But yeah, that was just fake hair. Did you already make up? No, you didn't. You were starting to cry. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to. So we are about to go and leave to get my hair cut. Finally. Don't make fun of me. I know it's getting long. I never had it this long. Everyone's stuck inside.  Your hair done. Usually he has a barber or one of our friends. He does his hair but since we're in quarantine. So we're going to go get that done right now. I'm so excited. I know because then we can look cuter. We are currently in the car after I got my hair cut. His hair is looking extra fresh. He's kind of got hair in his ears. Look at how fresh and clean he looks. It looks so much better. Can't really see him. We'll do it after. Because we did it before. We'll do it after once we get back to your house. Literally it looks like.  It makes everything look better. It's a night and day difference. I just posted a tiktok on my personal at Bill Ritter about a duetting me before I did the haircut. And after. What's wrong? It's weird. I just posted that on my page. Um. Are you tired or something? Bill. Bill. You're not funny. Why do you think that's funny? Did you think I passed out? Oh my gosh. He was so close. He was just wailing into eyes. You almost witnessed a hit and run. You really did. Anyways, did you think I passed out right there? I don't know what I thought. That was going on. Pink tiktok again. What did you just say? What was that laugh? I'm going to replay Mariah's laugh. That was so embarrassing. Oh my gosh. We're off to Walgreens right now. We're going to stop and get some supplies. And we're going to be off back to the house. Let's get it. Let's go before it gets too late. Maybe this is a little better view of my haircut. Why are you vlogging all day and pranking me? Huh? Why are you vlogging and pranking me all day? Well, honestly, I tried pranking you 100 times. But it's freaking sunset already. And I think I pranked you maybe 10 times. So I don't think I quite got 100. I'm sorry, but you look so good right now. What? Yeah, it's like your outfit. It looks so good. I love it. This outfit is a shirt. It fits her. Oh my gosh. Okay, moral of the story. I was trying to do a prank video. Pranking my girlfriend 100 times in the same day. I didn't quite get 100, but I think I did enough.  Why would you do that after I got out of the shower?  She just washed her arm in the sink. I wanted to get on your chest or something. So you had to go in there, but you were running away the whole entire time. It literally took me a half hour or so just to get the chocolate on her. Because she kept thinking I had a bug in my hand.  I don't know why you would. But I hope all of you enjoyed this video. Make sure to give it a thumbs up. We're trying to get this video to 10,000 likes. You've been crushing every single video lately. You guys literally have been. You guys have loved the content. You guys are loving it. And I really appreciate all of your support. And we just hit 300,000. Oh yeah, we hit 300K. I didn't even freaking tell them that. Oh my God, you're crazy. Guys, we hit 300K subscribers. Thank you so much for 300,000. It is so big. I was reposting it everywhere. I totally slipped my mind when I was doing the intro. Oh my God. You guys so much. You guys are killing it. Literally like all of our social media platforms, you guys are going crazy. And the future is in the future. And the future maybe even next year. We might hit a milli by the end of the year. That would literally be the goal. But honestly, row to 400K. Here we come. Thank you for everyone new and old. Being here, liking our videos, commenting down below on every single video. And just showing us support all around. Love you guys with all our hearts. And before we end the video, we do got to give our postification. And that shout out goes to Abby Brown. Shout out to you, Abby. Yes, thank you so much. We love you. And before we even end the entire video, we have to do our end of the video question of the day. For those supporters that are supportive enough to watch our videos all the way to the end. Today's question is, What is your favorite candy? Comment down your favorite candy. Or any like chocolates or just like candy, any sweets. Comment down your favorite so we can like all your comments and see who are the supporters watching our videos till the end always. And we will see you guys in the next video. See you in the next video but until then, peace.


the fall guy and the snowman. I wonder if this is related to the movie with Sean Penn and stuff. Car cocaine and the Contras. Card number 26. Car cocaine and the Contras. Number 24. Car cocaine and the Contras. In 1979 the Sandinistas booted director Anastasio Somoza, Anastasio Somoza out of Nicaragua. In nation historically under such absolute Yankee control that its paper currency was at one time signed by the founder of Prescott Bush's banking firm. Nicaragua was now in the hands of Marxist. The U.S. soon launched a war against Nicaragua from Honduras and Costa Rica were Contra armies composed of American right-wing mercenaries. CIA trained Bay of Pigs Cubans and the remnants of the Somo-Sestas had been formed. In Costa Rica the war was directed from the ranch of John Hall, a former Indiana farmer who had offered his services to NC, NSC advisor Lieutenant Colonel Oliver North. According to several witnesses, among them Stephen Carr, a Florida mercenary who worked for Hall, the ranch served as a transit point in a guns for drugs scheme that supplied weapons to the Contras and Medellin cartel cocaine to the U.S. drug market. Before he could bring his story to Congress, however, Carr was found dead from an overdose of cocaine which some speculate was not self-administered. Hall now faces Costa Rican murder charges for his role in the 1984 attempted assassination of renegade Contra leader Eden Pastora in La Pensa, Nicaragua in which several international journalists were killed. The Washington DC-based Crystic Institute is pursuing a lawsuit against Hall and 28 other defendants involved in the La Pena bombing and compellingly assert that many of these men, such Richard Secord, Thomas Kline's and Rafael Chichiquintiro, have financed worldwide covert operations with drug profits for 20 years. Oliver North has his hands all over Latin America and again apologies about brutalizing these names. History aspect of it. There's so many players in this.