So we'll now call the April 27th meeting of the Arlington Redevelopment Board to order. This meeting of the Arlington Redevelopment Board is being conducted remotely for the governor's extension of the remote meeting provisions from the executive order of March 12, 2020, due to the COVID-19 virus. For this meeting, the ARB is convening via Zoom as posted on the town's website, identifying how the public may join. Please note that this meeting is being recorded and that some attendees are participating via video conference. Recordingly, please be aware that other people may be able to see you and take care not to screen share your computer. Anything that you broadcast may be captured by the reporting. We'll now take roll call to ensure that everyone from the board is here and can hear me. We'll start with Kim. President. Gene Benson. President. Melissa Tentacolas. Chair. Steve Revlak. Good evening, Madam Chair. Good evening. Good evening, Madam Chair. Good evening. I am Rachel Zemberi, the chair of the board. I'll also introduce Jennifer Wraith, the director of the Department of Planning and Community Development. Here. And Kelly Weimah, the assistant director. Apologize for the technical difficulties. No problem. Thank you for getting us all in tonight. All right. At this time, we have one agenda item and that is the continued public hearing for docket number 3690 at 34 Dudley Street. And it looks like Bob and Essie, the attorney for the applicant and the applicant are here with us this evening. Bob will go ahead and hand it over to you before you kick off. I will just note that we have a hard stop this evening at 745 because we have a town meeting in the town that will be commencing at 8 o'clock and we have a few members who need to jump to that. So if you could take us through the revisions, anything that you'd like to top line, in addition to what new materials were posted, that would be great. And then after that, I'll hand it over to Jenny and Kelly for any update that the department would like to make, and then we'll move to discussion from the board. Thank you, Rachel. Thank you. I'm going to be very brief. I do have our team with us this evening, and the team will consist of the first speaker will be Eric Gerard, the civil engineer after Eric, a traffic engineer, Matthew Keasley, the architect, Jane Bryan, Jesse Morgan for operational testimony and available for questions. Pete Williams and I would be available as well. I just want to say, and I would be very brief, that we have made some very substantial changes to our proposal following the last hearing. We've tried to address a lot of the comments made by the members of the ARB. I believe we have, but we are going to have even more changes that we are going to present this evening to the members of the ARB as well for some of the items that perhaps were not addressed. So what I'd like to do, in light of the fact that I know we're up against a hard stop for town meeting, I'd like to get into the guts of the matter, and the guts of the matter is not going to be presented by me, but rather by members of the team, that I want to keep in mind and have the members of the ARB keep in mind, we're talking about an industrial zone, not a residential zone and not a business zone, but an industrial zone. Eric, you want to jump in, please? Thank you. Great. Thank you. I think Jesse was going to hop in to start us off with some of the operational stuff, but I don't know, Jenny, if you could pull up the PowerPoint presentation, we can start going through with that. So this is just our header page here showing the updated site plan with the mini render ends. You can move on to the next. Keep it going. And then these are just the initial project, the project updates that we have included that we're going to be talking a little bit more in detail. So this just kind of identifies kind of upfront, this is what we did. We tried to hit all the main points that were brought up, and we feel like this project that we're coming back with now is really enhanced. It really hit the points, and I really hope you're happy with the revisions that were made. So yeah, we can move on to the next page. So I'll let Jesse kind of talk through some of these operational pieces to start. Good evening, everybody. I'm Jesse Morgan. I'm an SVP with Premier Storage Investors offices at 530 Court Drive in Fist, Tennessee. As Eric said before we get into the site plan, I just wanted to address some of the public questions we've received over the past month regarding our company history or the security plan and how we intend to restrict the use of trucks larger than the largest U-Haul. Premier Storage Investors was formally founded in 2013. In that time we've acquired 55 cell storage facilities for either existing or for development. And we still own 29 of those facilities. Of all the properties we sold, every single one still remains a cell storage facility today. Regarding security, we shared a security plan with the board, which was posted on the site. Just for further detail, all those doors are locked. It can only be accessed by our customers. We each have a unique access code. Each customer has a different code. So we know who's going in the property and when they're going and when they're leaving. Furthermore, as you can see, there's a significant number of cameras that monitor all the activity on the site over 24 hours. And then also we received some questions regarding our trash enclosure and the use of the dumpster. That dumpster is not for customer use at all. It is only for the use of our manager. It is locked and enclosed and it is visible from a security camera. If customers are using the trash enclosure, they are in violation of their lease agreement or subject determination and we do know when it happens. Customers are required to take all their belongings off the site. And then the last item is regarding the truck traffic. Need to correct something from our conversation last month. We mistakenly said 24 feet when in fact, the largest you all is actually 26 feet. So we will be restricting box trucks with a larger than 26 feet, which is the largest you all and won't allow anything else on the site. We accomplish this via both verbal and electronic communication on our website to all customers. And then also on the site plan, Eric charade has noted a sign that he's placed on the front of the building notifying anyone entering the site that no box trucks greater than 26 feet are allowed. As such, any customer that violates that restriction similar to using the dumpster, they are in violation of their lease agreement and subject determination. Once again, all those customers are visible on camera, which monitors the activity on the site 24 seven. So just wanted to cover all that. Thank you all for your time and then turn it back over to Eric so he can get into the meeting potatoes at the site. Thanks, Jesse. Yeah, we can move to the next. Next one. All right. So the major site improvements that we've made since last, the last meeting that we've had to, to achieve the increase in parking spaces, we had to do some building modifications and primarily reducing that first floor area as you can see to, to fit additional spaces. So the overall buildings where footage drop by about 20, 2800 square feet. And in doing so, we're able to also reduce impacts closer to Milbrook. As you can see on the, on the top side of the building that used to be a little bit more angled and chamfered. And now we get a lot more green space back there as well. So that was a benefit that came out of it. And I'll get into some of the stormwater improvements that that allowed us to do as well. We are increasing the parking by 12 spaces to get to that 23 required that is allowed to be reduced to the 25%. For the total building area. Additionally, we have the new updated enhanced pedestrian amenities along the front. We moved some of the park, the bicycle parking spaces to the front as requested. While also keeping the bicycle parking in the rear. And the employee spaces within the building as well. The ADA space was moved closer to the front entrance. As previously noted, this will allow better access with those new parking spaces that we were able to add. It allowed that to shift as well. Other improvements related to stormwater management. We looked at the NOA plus storms, which significantly increased those rainfall rates that was requested and probably where the mass stormwater standards are heading in the, in the near future. So we were able to achieve the same parameters that we were looking at. The other stormwater management improvement was along the westerly boundary. So on the right side of this plan that you're looking at, we had a series of area drains and pipes that was directly discharged out to the rear of the property towards Millbrook. We are now proposing to collect that in a swale, which will then discharge into another rain garden in the, in the back of the property there, which will retain treat prior to an allowing it to naturally flow overland, which it is currently doing today. So that was a, another improvement in doing so. We were also able to save two clusters of trees back there that we originally thought we were going to be eliminating the top most trees on the backside there. Other, other site for landscape improvements where the planting beds align that westerly edge. There was a concern about potential parking over there. So we did, we staggered them to allow for additional plantings to visually impede anyone from trying to do that, as well as adding a fence along the entire rare property line, similar to the fence that's out there today, there'll be a new fence. We'll be planting on one side of it on Millbrook. And then as we get to the rear of the building, swap those plantings onto the site side. So visually for the butters looking back, they'll, they'll see the screen on that side as well. So those were primarily the major site improvements that we wanted to highlight that we did, did make. I mean, I'd like to hand it over to Matt now to run through the, the traffic discussion as well. So thank you very much. Thank you. Thanks, Eric. Again, my name is Matt Keely. I'm a traffic engineer with VHB. I know we were tight on time last time. So I just want to reemphasize a couple of things from last meeting and just clarify a couple of things from questions we received. So first, our traffic memo that we provided. Show a comparison of it trip generation data for the existing use versus the proposed use. That comparison show that the proposed use will generate substantially less traffic than the existing use. We also provided some supplemental data from empirical accounts that we, that we had done at other similar sites. As part of that discussion, there was a question about what month we counted those sites. And that other months of the year might be higher than what we presented in the memo. I just wanted to clarify that those sites, were provided as an additional comparison just to give some additional context. The seasonality of the empirical data has no impact on the conclusion of the study. Our conclusion was based solely on the ITE data. One additional point I wanted to make is related to parking. We showed last time that based on our available data that we had more than adequate parking on the previous plan. As Eric went through, we have since increased that parking significantly. And what that does is it ensures that the proposed use will not need to use any on street parking. Whereas the existing use relied heavily on on street parking and related. And cause some congestion in the area. So those were really the main points I wanted to make. I wanted to make a comparison of the previous site. And I'll pass it over to Jen. Are you there? Hello. Is that better? Can you hear me? And. Yes, we can hear you. Fantastic. Thank you. I hope you can see me as well. If you could go to the next slide. I think we've got four elevations. We'll start with that one. That's fine. I just wanted to. Recognize obviously. This is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, this is a, and much more brick than we had shown originally. So, we've increased the amount of masonry on all sides of the building and used that aqueous material as a way to add articulation to the building. If you look over the next slide, Jenny, I think we've got three or four elevations on the back that might help describe. So, you'll see we have added additional glazing on the sides of the buildings. We've added some articulation particularly in the one area that we wanted that originally was a white ethos panel, added some color, some glazing and articulation on that side. The rear, completely different. Obviously, Eric mentioned that we did shorten the footprint and have added some screen panels. These are very similar to some that were presented previously and panels that I think are even existing currently within the town. So, we've added three of those. They're about 18 feet wide by 42 feet tall. And currently, we're showing kind of a tree pattern just to kind of match what folks would see looking through the trees from the Milberg side. From the front of the building, we have added glazing at the front of the building where the sales office is. We have reduced the signage, pulled that down to the front to try to help from a wayfinding standpoint show where the office is. And additionally, just decrease the signage overall. We've removed signs that were on the building originally. I did want to say something particularly to the solar. We have made a commitment to do solar. And I know there was a comment that we just didn't show that on the roof plan. We're in the middle of kind of determine exactly how much area we need to provide. We know there's a 50%. But we're moving toward an option just to make sure that we get the solar in place. So that's the reason you don't see that. We just didn't want to present something that ultimately we wouldn't be able to provide. So the commitment is there. We just want to make sure that we've got the consultant in place to help us make sure we show it correctly. Just on a real quick note, one of the comments specifically was to the leaders, the roof leaders that we have showing long wind elevation, with the redesign and kind of the added articulation, the vertical glazing that we've added on a number of elevations. In our opinion, leaving the leaders in the color that we have really did more to enhance articulation of the building. And so that's just one of the comments we did look at kind of recoloring those and trying to minimize those visually. But from our opinion, this helped with the articulation of the building. That's why you see those continue to be in the brown kind of bronze color that you see. So that's all I have. I'll turn that back over to whoever's next. Thank you. I think that pretty much is what we'd like to say, I believe, Jesse and Eric. And if that is the case, then I think we're here to entertain any questions that the members of the board may have for us. Great. Thank you so much. And I just want to add my thanks for how responsive you all were to the comments of the board. I appreciate all of the changes that were incorporated and the clarifications that you provided to the questions that were posed. Very helpful to see such a thorough package. I'll now turn it over to Jenny Ray to see if there's anything that she would like to add from the perspective of the Department of Planning and Community Development. Thank you, Rachel. And I concur with you that I think that the applicant was relatively responsive to a lot of the comments that were provided by the board and others in the prior hearing. And I think that the applicant has also addressed some of the outstanding issues that we might see either in a forthcoming continued hearing or in another round of materials or something that could potentially be addressed through the decision. The memo notes sort of some of those outstanding areas, one of them was the solar, which was discussed already. I don't think I will say anything further about that. We also made a couple of other observations. But I think overall everything that had been requested was predominantly addressed. I think one area where I still have questions is around the stormwater. And that might be something that the board is interested in discussing. I know that the applicant has filed with the Conservation Commission and is still under review. So there might be some further discussions that engage the Conservation Commission as part of the resolution of that particular issue. So with that, I'll turn it back to you, Rachel, and other members of the board. Thank you. Thank you so much, Jenny. So at this point, what I'd like to do is open this up to the board for any questions. We will try and take public comment this evening if we have time. And so what I'd like to please request the board do is focus on the new materials that were provided. Any topics that we discussed and addressed in our last meeting, I'd like to not revisit this evening if at all possible so that we can really focus on the revised materials. So we'll start with Ken. Thank you, Rachel. I'd also like to thank you guys for addressing a lot of the issues that we had brought up at the last meeting. I personally do not have any issues with exterior gutters as far as being on site. I think they do break up the scale a little bit. But the way you have it right now, I wish you could look at it a little bit more and somehow use those vertical lines to be more integrated with your EFIS design. Right now, it looks just like you have your EFIS design with a couple of main leaders running over the design. If you sort of integrate those two, so they're a little harmoniously, it'd be better. That's just a request, one request I have right now. I appreciate the fact you continue the fence along the back to block the lighting from the parking cars to go into the playing field. That's a good, that's a very good thing. And in fact, you added bushes along the west side yard to prohibit cars from parking on the grass. I think that would have been a turn into a very ugly mess. The thing you did with the signage is great. You've located all the sign, we do some of the signage. I still have an issue with your monument sign. I don't think it's appropriate here. Most monument signs are meant for more rural areas or along highways where you're looking for more speed and looking for signage. This right here, you're not going that fast. This is a very tight street and you'll be coming down, you'll know where the building is. You don't have to, you're not relying on the monument sign to locate the building or such. So I would like you guys to reconsider again, eliminating the monument sign along the front. I noticed your renderings don't show it. It looks good that way. I appreciate that. But your site plans still show the monument sign and you show the details for it. Thanks for adding the bike rack inside. And that's all I have right now. I'm supportive of this project. I think with a few minor tweaks, we're there. And I appreciate the changes you've done as far as breaking down the scale and elevations, adding windows and so forth. Thank you Ken. Gene. Yes, thank you. I also appreciate the changes you've made. I have a few questions. I appreciate your commitment to putting solar on the roof. I think that's the right thing to do. And I look forward to learning what it is and how it will operate so that we can approve this permit with that known. Can you tell me what material the fencing will be? It's shown as sort of a brown fence. What material will it be? Yeah, it's a wooden stockade fence. Okay, thanks. For you mentioned that there's a lease agreement between your customers and you for use of the space. Do you anticipate putting the truck size limitation into the lease agreement? Yes, it can very easily be implemented. Yeah, I think it would be good to have both the truck size and the lease agreement. And also that there won't be any parking for your customers on Dudley Street that they'll need to use the parking lot. I think those two additions to the lease would be helpful. And I'm wondering, and this was in Ms. Rait's memo why the sign at the office is illuminated. What's the need for that as opposed to a non-illuminated sign? Hey, look. Eric? Yeah, I guess Jesse, would you wanna take the signage or Jan? I'm happy to speak to that, Eric. I mean, candidly, the one thing you want the customer to know whenever they see your building number one, the number one thing is, is what is this? Number two is, is where do I go to use it? And the more you can call attention to the area where the office is, which I think signage does at least for me and whether it's going to a retail outlet or to the office of a self storage facility. It's just more recognition of where the customer goes to use your product. Yeah, and I'm not opposed to the sign, I'm just wondering the necessity to illuminate. Well, I think if you probably told me, I wanna approve this project if it's illuminated and I will if it's not, the necessity is, I wouldn't say necessity, I think it's just a better project for us, a better project for the customer, a more, you know, a clearer, I mean, it does, you know, in the wintertime, you know, it gets dark at four o'clock. So, you know, people coming to you from four to six o'clock in the evening, I think it's a help. Won't they be able to see in sort of the glass area and won't the office itself have lights on? It will be illuminated, yes, sir. Yeah, and the reason I ask this is because our bylaw would not allow the illumination unless we find that it's in the public interest to allow it. And I'm just not sure it's in the public interest, but I'll see what my colleagues on the board have to say about that. And the only other question I have is something that came up last time, but it's not changed, Rachel, so I don't know if you'd like me to raise it or not. If it's something that was raised, that was in their list and wasn't addressed, then please go ahead. No, it was something I thought about after the meeting, the last meeting. Okay, if we could save that for the discussion, perhaps, so that we can get through public comment, that would be great. Thank you, Gene. So that's it, thank you. Thank you, Gene. Melissa. Thanks, Rachel. Well, as you guys know, in terms of the use, I've been kind of struggling with it. I'm disappointed. In terms of this project, I think it aligns better in a different location, I think based on the master plan and what we've sought out for this district, I don't see it fitting into the neighborhood or the intention of the character of this neighborhood. And so I just wanna remain on record, saying that, going forward. So it's harder for me to make aesthetic adjustments to this project when I feel like the use is, it doesn't meet the special permit criteria, in my opinion. So would like to pass or would you like to... I just wanna kill one record saying that now. Thanks, Rachel. Okay, thank you. Steve. Yes, one comment and two questions. So the rendering of the front showed an S, a wave-shaped bicycle rack. I would ask the proponents to consider inverted U-Racks instead. They tend to be a little more stable. Second question, I was wondering if it would be possible to view a site plan showing the parking area. I'd like to see how a moving truck would enter, you know, navigate into the loading dock and then leave afterwards. So I will ask the applicant, is that a currently a diagram that you have in the package that Jenny, you can point Jenny to to pull up. Yeah, it's the layout materials plan that we can talk off of C3.01. We'd probably be the best plan to see that. Great, thank you. Yep, so on this plan, we have the 24-foot drive aisle coming in for the two-way drive aisle. And then there is adequate space around the columns to be able to maneuver a truck and back into the loading spaces. And similarly, be able to maneuver and turn out as well. So we did look at that. It is adequate with the turning radii for a 26-foot box truck. Okay, all right. Thank you very much. And finally, in order to, could a member of your team remind me which transportation demand management elements you plan to implement for this project? Jesse, or do you want me to jump in, Jesse? The three we're leading to doing is the preferential parking for carpooling. The covered bicycle parking, bicycle spaces are covered as well as the employee spaces that are inside. And then we will provide a stipend to employees that do not have motor vehicles of their own so they can travel to and from their place for work. Okay, and last one follow-up question, if I may, Madam Chair. Would it be possible to see where, which of those parking spaces are the preferential ones? Yeah, we'll go back to that same plan. So we have right next to the ADA, the accessible space, there's that SP1. So that was called out as the, on the signage chart as the carpool, preferential carpool spot. All right, thank you. I have no further questions, Madam Chair. Great, thank you, Steve. Let's see, so the only item that I have that I wanted to bring up, I think I'm still struggling with the rain leaders on the exterior of the building. I think that they really fight with the current way that it's articulated, and I'm speaking specifically to view one here. So I prefer integrated leaders. If you do keep them on the exterior, I agree with Ken and that I'd like them to be more integrated with an articulation, whether it's a color change and some sort of a vertical element that appears in the ethos coloration on this side of the building. That truly is meant to be a continued articulation. I would just ask that you look at that facade and that facade may then actually influence the opposite facade as well, which does have some vertical articulation in the side, which this side does not. And that's my only request in addition to what my colleagues have identified. So I'll just run through to see if there are any other questions before I open this up for public comments and then we'll circle back for an additional discussion regarding next steps from the board. So I'll just run through quickly to see if there are any additional questions starting with Ken. Ken, you're on mute. Sorry about that, I'll wait for the discussions. Okay, great, thanks, Jean. Yeah, no additional questions at this time. Great, Melissa. No additional questions. Steve? No additional questions. Okay, great. So at this time, I'll go ahead and open this meeting up for a public comment. Any member of the public wishing to speak or ask any questions regarding this project, please use the raise hand function at the bottom of the screen. Once I call on you, you will have up to three minutes to speak and I'll ask that you introduce yourself by your first, last name and address. So we'll give people a minute or a couple, a minute to see if there's any hands raised. All right, seeing none. Madam Chair. Sorry, they just went up. I want to raise my hand, but I don't seem to be able to do so. Oh, here it is, I'm sorry. Okay, great, thank you, I have you in the queue. Thank you. Absolutely. So we will start with Don Seltzer. I'm sorry, and before Don, I haven't started your time yet. Before you start, I just want to let everybody know that I will be closing public comment at 730. We'll need to reconvene for board discussion. So in the case that more people speak, then it's time allotted. I just wanted to, and I'm set up front. Go ahead, Don. Thank you, Madam Chair. Don Seltzer, Irving Street. Let me begin by saying that several members of the Disability Commission are appreciative of the redesign of the parking area to relocate the ADA parking space to the front of the building next to the office entrance. I want to, I have a few questions to be asked of the applicants regarding other issues of accessibility. Perhaps they can speak on how they have addressed the code requirements for a path of egress from low points in the building, particularly the maximum length and how they have brought it to necessary safe areas of refuge with communication. On the issue of truck size, could they clarify what is meant by a 26 foot truck? There is confusion here because if I went to U-Haul, a rider and asked for a 26 foot truck, they would rent me one that had an actual total length of over 30 feet. The 26 feet is a measure of just the cargo area. I would also welcome a little more discussion on the lines of what Steve Revolac asked for about the new parking layout and the spacing of the support columns. It appears that the clearance between the columns is only sufficient for a vehicle no larger than a Ford Explorer. A 26 foot rental truck has an outside wheel turning radius of about 40 feet, which is far in excess of the column spacing. It's not clear to me how such a truck can go in and out of the loading dock without hitting one of the columns. Finally, there is the issue that I addressed in my letter to the board. If Arlington is going to make real progress towards its net zero action plan, it will be necessary for development to be mindful of its impact on neighboring properties. The proposed height and the minimal setbacks of this proposal will seriously encroach upon the solar exposure of a dozen adjacent properties. Criteria K of the environmental design review gives this board the authority to address these concerns. And I'll stop here in case the applicant wishes to respond to my questions regarding path of egress and the ability of trucks to enter and leave the loading base while avoiding the columns. Thank you. Thank you. We're actually not going to cover interior path of egress. That's under the jurisdiction of the building department, not under the ARB with regard to the 26 foot truck. I believe that is a standard designation within the industry. And with regard to the clearance between the columns, we could certainly return back to the applicant after all of the public discussion has been completed to see if there is any clarification that the board would like regarding the training radius. So I'll now move to the next public comment. And I think the next speaker is Anne LaRoyer. Thank you. Anne LaRoyer on Pierce Street and most of the chair of the Open Space Committee. And I'm kind of speaking on that basis. I think in general, we're a little concerned about the size and massing of this particular building so close to Millbrook and Wellington Park that, and it's especially because it's on a hill way above the brook and the park that it just, it's gonna feel like a huge building up there. And it's gonna change the contour of that area quite a lot, I think. I understand you've, you know, saving a few more trees and putting in fencing and landscaping and that's all to the good, but it's just a general concern about the size and massing of the building in that particular location next to the brook and the park. Another thing that was concerned about is the panels that are on the backside. And I don't understand that on the picture that was shown, it looked like they were reflective panels. Maybe that's not correct, but we were just very concerned that if they were reflective that that would, you know, really cause some problems on the park side. So maybe somebody can explain what the material or something of that is if it's not, not gonna be reflective. And also in terms of the stormwater and the rain gardens and things like that, I know that you're gonna have to go to the concom for review and we'll, you know, look to their guidance on some of those more technical issues that are also of concern just in terms of the open space and landscaping and feeling of the whole environment. It's obviously it's industrial zone and this size of building is allowed. I understand, but it's not ideal from our perspective. Thank you. Thank you. And I'll hold your question regarding the information on the specific material for the panels for the end of public comment and we will pose that to the applicant. Thank you. The next speaker will be Thomas Fallow. Good evening. I here share, I represent the Santini so the owners of 26 Dudley Street. I share a lot of the same concerns that were referenced by Mr. Selzer with respect to the turning radius of the trucks and how the parking will impact that. I think they need to be specific as he indicated that 26 foot truck can mean different things to different people and if it's a 30 foot truck, I think we need empirical information to be supplied by the developer that show that these trucks can safely turn in and out of those loading dots that would impact either columns or cars who may be parked in the spaces that are on the opposite side of the lane and also the question of whether a truck of that size can safely turn in and out of the site onto Dudley Street if there are parking on both sides of Dudley Street as they oftentimes it is. I have a couple of other questions with respect to it. I asked the question as to whether there is any fill involved in the rear portion of the site and I haven't looked through the package of the new packages materials but I'd asked the applicant to specifically comment on whether in fact fill is necessary at the rear portion of the site and if so, we're in and how much that's a question that seems unanswered. I also, with respect to the stormwater, it looks like they're still talking about discharging into Millbrook and based upon your own bylaw, it's just specifically that if the building is the size of this building, it needs to retain and treat stormwater on the site. It may be treating it but it's obviously not retaining it if it's discharging into Millbrook. So I think that has to be studied and be brought into compliance with the requirement that they not only treated but also retain and not discharged into Millbrook. Shadowing is another issue I was concerned about that has also been touched on so I won't get into that. And lastly, I also raised a technical question of the proposing to do work on town on land and I guess my question is, doesn't the town and whatever department or board is as jurisdiction over the land they're working on need to be unhappy and here as well. I mean, they have no license agreement or no right to go on to town land and do work on town land without the permission and the involvement of whatever board of commission under whose jurisdiction the land is and I assume it's maybe parks and recreation, I have no idea. But one way or another, I think that question needs to be answered because this is the proposing to do work on land that they don't own and under which they have no right to enter is actually I understand it. So those are my questions for today. I'm glad it was gonna be a continued hearing because we obviously need to go through this and get the answers to some of the questions that have been proposed tonight. Thank you. Thank you. Although I wanna clarify that this board has not determined whether the hearing will be continued or voted on this evening, that will be part of our next discussion. Thank you. Okay, so with that, I will turn two questions back to the, a few of those questions back to the applicant and then we'll get into the board discussion. So I believe that the team from BHB had addressed some of the question with regarding the truck turning radius. So if you could perhaps provide just another update on that and a little bit more clarification and then some additional information on the, once that is complete, we'll move to the information on the panels on the rear of the building. So attorney Nessie, I'll ask you to work straight between your team, please. All right, I will pick the people who have to respond. Eric, could you respond on the truck turning issue? Sounds good. Yeah, so we ran the turns to make sure that they could maneuver in there. That's the last thing the applicant wants is to not have the trucks be able to get in or out. We ran them also assuming, eight foot off of the opposing curb for a parked vehicle to be able to get in or out of the parking lot, of the curb cut. With that being said, you're correct on the 26 foot box truck. The actual length is about 34 and a half feet. As far as the sign goes, we didn't wanna say restrict trucks over 34 and a half feet since the normal everyday language is the standard 26 foot box truck. So we can certainly work on that sign of what we'd wanna show for it to limit the actual truck that's going in there and how that size wants to be shown on that. So we can certainly do that as well. But we thought that was the most appropriate sign because it would be more familiar to most users and tied back to their lease agreements, as Jesse had mentioned. Great, thank you. That's very helpful. An attorney and I see the panels, a little more information on the panels on the back of the building. Jan, you wanna address that issue? Yes, I can. Those are not reflective panels. It is a plastic mesh. So it's actually partially open. There's a small grid of pattern on the plastic, but it is not reflective at all. And the image that we're showing, like I said, happens to be of some trees, but it would not be reflective in any manner at all. And I'm assuming that that is something that, you know, one of the things we have not requested yet, but I would like to receive and it's something that could be done through administrative review following any approval or perhaps at a future hearing is a sample of some of that material. So I wanted to just confirm that that's something that you would be amenable to. I see. You can certainly do that, Rachel. Yes. Thank you. Great. Thank you. There was also a question around Phil, whether there is any Phil required as part of the site work at the rear of the site. Eric? Yep. Yeah, sorry. I thought we had kind of addressed that last hearing, but yeah, we are filling slightly up on that back edge by about, it's probably, you know, it ranges between a foot to 18 inches along that backside. Our finished floor elevations, elevation 79, which is pretty comparable to the existing building out there in certain locations. So that back edge of the property, we are grading up slightly for the parking area, but it's not a substantial fill amount. Great. Thank you for the clarification. All right, so at this time, I'd like to turn the discussion back to the board and I'll start with Ken. Yeah, there's just two things I think I would like. I think I would like to request a continuous of this so we can get a couple of issues resolved to make everybody more comfortable. I'm not trying to stall the project at all. I'm the supporter of this project. If VHB can just overlay a truck turning radius on the CAD drawings, you guys probably have done that already just dash it out, showing a 26 foot box truck doing a three point turn at the loading dock and at the entrance where you turn in off Dudley Street that would just solve everybody's issues of can a truck enter or can a truck manoeuvre around inside there and it would just put that out of the bed because once you put that overlay in it is what it is. It's one of those computer overlays you guys that you must have, right? He had nodding, yes. Yeah, I've done that in the past. And then also if you guys take another look at that Eastern elevation with the rain leaders, either they could somehow maybe recess the leaders into the wall of it, so it's still outside. I know your desire to have all the rain leaders outside for water protection. It makes a lot of sense and I agree with you there or somehow integrate that in with the design of the patterns and the reveals and the colors you have. So it right now looks like just three lines drawn straight across the building. And if you can do something about that. And also with the mesh screen in the back, I think Rachel's correct. And if you guys can submit something else to look at as far as what design pattern you wanna use there. I applaud you for putting that mesh screen there. It's good and it's gonna address a lot of the issues back there. Is that gonna be backlit at all? Do you know? The intention is not to provide any backlighting moment at all. No, sir. Okay, fair enough. And I'm assuming there's more than, it's not gonna be a couple inches. You'd be like a foot away or something like that. Yeah, it's just enough to get it off of the envelope of the building. So I think they vary depending on what your exterior material is. So I believe it's anywhere from six to eight, six to eight inches all the face of the building. And it's much more for just attachment to the building. But it's not too far off the face of the building. I think in Cambridge where they had put it too tight, it became a bird nesting sanctuary. If you're just right there and they get back there. So you have to pull it off enough where it doesn't come back. Great, that's something certainly better. The manufacturer is well versed in that now, I'm sure. Yes, and we'll rely on them for their expertise on that. Yes, sir. Yup. That's about it for now, Rachel. Great, thank you Ken.  I agree with everything Mr. Lau said. I think we need to get some more information and have another hearing. Also because I'd like to know more about the solar array that's going to be on the roof and to see some graphics of what it will actually look like. So I think that's important. The issue that I wanted to raise and Mr. Lau raised it last time and I didn't really understand it until I read some of the materials after what you thought about it was that the building is a, I think it's a 10 by 10 grid system. And I believe that the applicant said that because of that, the building probably couldn't be used for anything else. So if the self storage ever went away the building would probably have to be demolished to be used for anything else. And that sort of bothers me a little bit. And I'm just wondering if it bothers anyone else on the board that we would be approving a building that doesn't have any other use usually when you have an industrial building and the use ends it can be repurposed for something else and doesn't necessarily have to come down. So I just wonder if people are concerned about that if they're not, I understand that. But if they are, then it would be redesigning the building to a bigger grid space. But I'm just a little concerned and wanna hear what my colleagues on the board have to say about that. I'll also just mention that I've gone to Arlington self storage the other facility in the area to see if there are spaces available in the art. So I think that at least as far as immediate need goes it's not as if the other one in the area has had storage facilities available during the few times that I've looked between now and the previous hearing. And then I guess the other thing some of the ways to deal with the stormwater I think ultimately will be the responsibility of the conservation commission whose charge includes protection of no brook and the area around no brook. So they'll make their decision after we do it. Thank you, Jean. I'll go to Melissa next and we'll circle back to the question about the 10 foot base spacing. Melissa. Thank you, apologize for my video situation but I don't have further questions at this point. Rachel, are we waiting to discuss any of Jean's comments, is that how I understand it? Nope, if you wanna weigh in on the 10 foot base spacing this would be the time to do so. Well, I was thinking in terms of it being built for any other kind of use. I mean, I'm kind of perplexed, Jean. What you like typically these buildings are built kind of sole purpose and we're getting what's being presented. I'm kind of curious on what you're thinking is with the flexibility. I guess I'm asking Jean back if what is his expectation with the flexibility and how this is built? Yeah, just what came up last time I believe the applicant said, they built it this way and it really can't be repurposed for anything because of all the columns. So it wouldn't be able to be used. And I'm just raising the question for the board members of whether we should be concerned that we'd be approving a building that couldn't be repurposed. So let's say if in some number of years they don't want to use it as a self-storage building anymore they abandon it and then it sits there unused and can't be used for anything else until somebody else tears it down. So that was my understanding from the last meeting. And that's what I just want to raise to the board members. Thanks for the clarification, Jean. Melissa, any other questions or comments? Yeah, well, I mean, it does bother me but I don't think that is unique to this building. I think that's a trend that we're seeing a lot with some of these sole purpose buildings. So does it bother me? No, I think you guys know what the bigger issue that bothers me. Right. But thank you. Thank you, Melissa. Steve, any additional questions? Comments or continuation? Just a few and I'll try to be quick. Regarding the transportation demand management plan, I'd ask the applicants to consider instead of preferential carpool space, a shower for the employees. I think that's a much nicer amenity or in perhaps more usable. But that to me is, I'm just asking them to consider it. It's not a deal breaker to me. Like Mr. Lau, I would like to see a, I also like to see a turning diagram for a 26 foot box truck. And regarding Mr. Benson's question, I'm not concerned that they're building, that this building is constructed special purpose for storage. I think the applicants are prepared to make an investment and I would hope plan to keep it going for a long time. I do have just one final question. With regards to the stormwater management system, what size of a storm will the current, will the system be able to retain completely on site based on the NOAA-14 plus rainfall estimates? Eric, from PHB, I see that you unmuted to answer that. I'd have to confirm on the tables, but our overall design intent was to make sure that to reduce the future 10-year storm to be less than the existing two. And that was based on initial discussions with the town engineer on the intent of kind of what the regulations were trying to get at with the stormwater management parameters. Yes, thank you. And I did notice that, for both of the points on Dudley Street and towards the rear of the property, there was a significant reduction in flow to as compared to current conditions. So I just wanted to commend you for that. Nothing further, Madam Chair. Great, thank you, Steve. And then, Ken, I will go to you to see if you have any comment regarding Gene's question to the board and then I'll wait after that. Yeah, Gene, I think when I first asked that question was it a 30 by 30 base spacing? Because that would lead to the ability to do all the structures within that. But I see no problem right now with a purpose-built building. I just asked, was there flexibility? I don't think we should be basing an approval on a building that's flexible enough for future something. I think we're approving what's appropriate for this building that's going here right now. And yes, 10 by 10 is very difficult to do anything else but storage. But I think with a 10 by 10, I think you can get, if you get creative, you can do housing there easily. Anything else, Ken? No. Okay, Gene, I'll just answer the same way. I mean, it's interesting. My office is currently in a building that was built for cold storage. So I have very, very unique phones and other items. So I think that you can get very creative with trying to repurpose really unique structural considerations within a building. So I'm personally okay with it to answer your question. So I appreciate the discussion and everybody laying it on. Thank you. Great, thank you. Let's see, so at this time, I know that Ken was very specific that he felt that we should continue the hearing. I have a list of, let's see here, of eight items that have been requested by the board. Most of them seem like there are items that could be addressed without a significant amount of additional time, but I'll run through these and see if we can align with it a time for a continued hearing at which time we hopefully will be able to address all of these questions and be able to vote on the proposal. So Attorney Nessie, I'm gonna run through these for you. So the first one I have is to look at integrating the vertical lines of the gutter with the facade design. If not recessing them and ensuring that that facade then speaks to the opposite facade of the building. The second one I have is to reconsider elimination of the monument sign. The third I have is eliminate the illumination of the office sign. The fourth is to change the specification for the bike rack to an inverted U rack. Steve, that is correct, okay? Number five is to provide a plan, a site plan showing the truck turning radius for the largest allowable truck, which is the 26-foot box truck. And again, I think we will leave that to you to figure out the verbiage that's not something that I think we're necessarily gonna regulate in the signage knowing that especially we've also discussed you adding that to a lease agreement. Number six to provide either a material sample or more information on the mesh screen material in the rear of the building. Number seven is to provide additional information on the solar array on the roof. We have right now is some verbal remarks. We don't have anything written on that at this time. And the last item I have is to for your transportation demand management plan to consider a shower for employees instead of the preferential parking for carpools given the number of employees that you indicated would be on site at any time. I agree with that request. I think that that would be more meaningful as an alternative solution for your employees. I will go back to the board and see if I missed anything. Ken. Can I, you mentioned gutter. I think you meant down-leader, right? Yes, I apologize. Yes, the rain leaders, thank you. And then also, what's the other one you mentioned? The monument sign? No, no, you got that one hundred percent. The truck turning radius is a diagram. Nope, maybe it's not that, I don't know. There's one other thing that I just wanted to clarify a little bit more. I see Jenny has her hand up. Maybe she has the same question. Okay. Okay, Jenny. Not related to this. Okay. Go ahead. I don't recall right now. Okay, all right. Kelly. I think you would ask for more details on what the actual design that would be printed on the panels would be. Oh, yes, the image on the panels. Sorry, you're a hundred percent correct, Kelly. Thank you. So it's the material and image. Image, the image is key. Correct. Thank you, Ken. Sorry about that, Kelly. About my old age. I'm sorry. Anything else, Ken, before I move to Jenny? Yeah, okay. Jenny. Since now I know you asked for an image, do you mean as a sample or you want to see that on a plan? I think we'd like to see, you know, specific, you know, is that the specific image? What's on the rendering that is being proposed? And if not, what is being proposed? And we'd also like to see a sample of the actual material. Okay, I had that. The other thing is that I think would be important to see is the limit of their construction work in relationship to the parcel boundaries, including their parcel, but in relationship to the town parcels, because I'm actually, I am not sure about that. And the abutting property is actually under the jurisdiction of Parks and Recreation. There is a process that they would go through in order to be able to access their parcel by getting permission through Parks and Recreation as also part of the NOI process. I'm sure that that will also come up with the Conservation Commission. But I just, I think that we do need to see in the site plan how the parcel relates to the other parcels and where the limit of work is. Great, thank you. I have that one now on our list. Any questions? Is there any an essay on that request? No. Okay. Great. Let's see, I'll go to Jean now. Anything that we missed or wanted to be clarified? No, I don't have anything to add. Thank you. Great, thanks, Melissa. No, nothing to add. Great, thank you, Steve. Nothing further. All right. So at this time, before we take a motion to continue the public hearing, Attorney and SEN team, if we could look out at some future dates. So we do have a meeting on May 16th. Just going to look. That is most likely also going to be a town meeting evening. So we would need to start it. It would be another 630 to 745, 750 meeting. Is that enough time for you? Can we have Jesse and Eric? Can we have our material together by then? I would very much like to have that as our next meeting date if we can. Eric, Jesse? Yeah, I mean, at least the stuff, I think it's more going to be, I guess, Jan, I'd like to check in with you on the architectural pieces. And then if we need to get a sample of the screen, if that's, you know. Jan, can you chime in as well, Jan? Yes, the image information we've asked for certainly can be done by that time. I'll reach out first thing in the morning to the sign manufacturer and see how quickly, but I would say that we could meet that date, even if we have expedite materials, but I would say that let's not let that keep us from meeting on 16th. I'll make sure we get that material. Great, thanks. And just to that topic, if the material sample isn't available but we're able to review everything else, I feel like that's something that we could certainly always follow up as a condition or again, a follow up to the actual hearing through administrative links. Okay, that's great. Thank you for that. Why don't we go with that date then, gentlemen? Day 16, agreed? Good. Yes, sir. Great, and Jenny, if you could just confirm the date that they would need to submit materials for you. I would say we would want it the Wednesday before. That'll be May 11th. Yes. Okay, I see some head nodding. Okay. And then do you want to talk about the 23rd separately? I think separately. Yes, we'll do that following this meeting. So with that list, so attorney Ness, did you have any questions on the, believe there were? I do not. Nine items, okay, great. Discuss that among our team, yes. Great, thank you so much. Thank you. All right, so is there a motion to continue the public hearing for docket number 3690 to Monday, May 16th at 6.30 p.m.? So a motion. I second the motion. Great, we'll take a roll call vote, starting with Ken. Yes. Dean. Yes. Melissa. Yes. Steve. Yes. And I'm the yes as well. Thank you so much. And we will see you back here on the 16th. Thank you. Thank you all. Great, thank you. And so before we adjourn, I just wanted to talk schedule quickly. So I actually have a conflict. We have another meeting scheduled on the 23rd. And I have a conflict that evening. Jenny, do we currently have anything else scheduled that evening? Nothing else was scheduled that evening. Okay, great. So I wanted to see if there was any concern with the board for eliminating that meeting on the 23rd. I'll just run through and see, Jean. The only concern I have is that I will be missing the meeting on June 6th. Okay. Is the next meeting after that. Oh, may I, Rachel? Please go ahead. So, I mean, this is important because the only reason you need your June 6th meeting is if you have, if we have any applications filed basically by in two weeks from now, correct? Kelly, in terms of legal notice. So, and I do not anticipate any new special permit applications coming in. So we, that might be another meeting that you potentially do not need. You know, again, depending upon the outcome of the meeting on the 16th. Okay. So then you have one more meeting in June. So what we could do, is there a date Jenny by which we need to cancel the meeting on the 23rd? Or can we keep it on the calendar and make that call on this, you know, either next, we have two meetings next week, as well as the 16th where we could make that call, as long as there's no need to cancel it earlier. You can have every Monday in May, if you want. No, the, except for Memorial Day, please. The 23rd, you can, yeah, you can decide on the 16th, but you could also decide on the Thursday before, which is typically by the date, the time by which we post an agenda. So, if there was some reason to keep a meeting, we can keep it, and then if we need to cancel, we can do that as well. Great, thank you. And that one, I'm gonna be traveling. It's a possibility for me to time them remotely. I'll just not be in state. So why don't we hold that for now? And if we need it, we'll figure out how to make that one work logistically. And if we don't, we'll cancel it in the future. Can I bring up one more question? Please. We didn't schedule anything past June, have we scheduled up until May or something, all right? And that's it. I think we scheduled, no, we actually scheduled the rest of the year. So we're through December. Oh, we are. Nothing in July, I believe. There's an off month. Yeah, there's two in June. There's the six in the 20th. I'll look it up. I'm sorry. I thought I couldn't find anything scheduled and I was trying to schedule a vacation, but that's okay. Okay. If you need, so they should all be in the calendar. Yeah. I'll look it up. I don't need to hold the rest of people up. Great, thank you. So we are right on time to 7.45 now. Thank you everyone for staying on agenda. I really appreciate it as there are a motion to adjourn to the meeting. So motion. I'll second that motion too. All right. I'll take a vote starting with Ken. Yes. Jean. Yes. Melissa. Yes. Steve. Yes. And I'm yes as well. Thank you so much. Thank you everybody. Thanks. Bye bye. Bye bye. Thank you. Thanks.


Okay, guys and gaiettes, girls and girlettes. Today, we have a seriously complicated video, but worth wading through, worth listening to, because it's going to expose the inner secrets of the narcissist's soul if he had one. And this is the second part. The first part is titled, secret reason narcissist devalues, discards you. It's a YouTube video available on my channel, secret reason narcissist devalues and discards you. I strongly suggest that you watch this video first and then continue to watch this video. At any rate, I'll make a recap for those of you who don't want to spend the totality of your life listening to Sam Vaknin, author of Malignant Self-Love, Narcissism Revisited and a handsome, devilishly handsome professor of psychology, at least if I say so. Okay, Shoshanim. Many of you have asked me, the narcissist devalues and discards his intimate partner because he wants to separate and individuate. The intimate partner is a mother's substitute. She's a maternal surrogate. So the narcissist wants to reenact early childhood conflicts with his biological mother, with his original caregiver, with his primary object. He wants to reenact these conflicts with his intimate partner. And so he needs to devalue her and he needs to discard her in order to separate from her and by separating, becoming an individual. The problem is that the narcissist had failed to separate from his original mother. He had failed, therefore, to develop a fully constellated self. He has no ego. Narcissists are selfless. I've always been telling you this. We are selfless people. Okay, no separation, no individuation. The narcissist remains eternally enmeshed with his mother figure, with his mother, and he needs to try to separate. So he devalues you and he discards you as an intimate partner. But then many of you have asked and justifiably so. If he goes through all this, if he idealizes the intimate partner and then devalues her and then discards her just in order to separate and individuate, why then does he go on to another intimate partner? Or even worse, why does he try to hover the erstwhile discarded, devalued intimate partner? What's the secret of hovering and replacement? The answer is actually quite simple. You remember that when the narcissist first comes across a potential source of supply or a potential intimate partner for a shared fantasy, the narcissist creates a snapshot of her. He takes a kind of photo of her. He creates a snapshot and then he photoshopped the snapshot. He works on it. This is the process of idealization, an integral part of co-idealization. By rendering his partner ideal, perfect, brilliant, handsome or beautiful, the narcissist renders himself irresistible, unique and special. So there is this process of a mutual admiration society. And the love bombing and grooming and honeymoon phases, the narcissist projects, communicates to his partner, you're special and that makes me special. So the narcissist creates a snapshot of the intimate partner. In clinical terms, he creates an internal object or an introject and then he continues to interact exclusively with this snapshot, not with the external intimate partner, not with the real you, but with your representation in his mind. He continues to interact with this representation as you grow up, as you develop, as you acquire new friends, as you start to work in a new job, as you travel, you begin to deviate and diverge from the snapshot, because the snapshot is idealized, is perfect and above all is static. The main role of the snapshot is to reduce the narcissist's abandonment anxiety. He is in full control of the snapshot, so he is not afraid of being rejected and abandoned. But you, on the other hand, you deviate and diverge from the snapshot because you are living, breathing human being. And so this renders you an enemy and you become a persecutory object. At that point, the narcissist needs to separate from you and individuate.  So he devalues you and discards you. But pay attention. He devalues you. He discards you. He separates from you. You as an external object, not from the snapshot. This is a crucial insight which had evaded and eluded most of the self-styled experts online. The narcissist discards the external object, you, the real you. He devalues the external object, you, the real you. But there is nothing he can do and there is nothing he does to the internal object, to the snapshot, to the introject. The internal object remains unmolested, unaltered, immutable, unchanged, pure, virginal, like the driven snow. The internal object is always there, perfection reified, totally idealized mother figure. The narcissist remains enmeshed with the internal object. So the shared fantasy ceases to exist externally in the environment, but not in the narcissist's mind. The narcissist is merged, infused with the internal object. The narcissist gets rid of you. He devalues you. But at the very same time, he is affected, he is emotionally invested in your representation in his mind. So the long and the short of it is the narcissist separates, individuates from the real you, but the narcissist never separates or individuates from your representation, your avatar in his mind. The connection between the narcissist and your icon in his mind, your representation, your internal object is a connection of enmeshment and engulfment and merger and fusion. So he needs to hover you.  And so he has something called repetition compulsion. It's a repetition compulsion. He needs to approach you time and again and then avoid you time and again in a vain, crazy-making attempt to separate and individuate from an external object while still remaining unseparated from the internal representation of that external object of you. Another problem is narcissism is a missionary religion. It is a religion that is replete with the deity, which is the false self. It has rituals, which are obsessive-compulsive in nature, and it forms an addiction. The shared fantasy is a part of this religion. It's populated with idealized snapshots, with idealized introjects or internal objects. These are the Olympian gods of this religion. You are one of them. If the narcissist fails to hover you, he is going to approach another intimate partner, a substitute. And so it's like the Russian matryoshkas. It's a doll within a doll within a doll within a doll. There's the original, huge doll of the narcissist's original mother. Then there are other dolls inside the big doll, and these dolls are his intimate partners. But he never gets rid of any of these dolls. However, they all reside in his mind, populating it ever increasingly with idealized snapshots, with introjects. His separation individuation is unattainable because he becomes enmeshed, and he merges and fuses with a growing number, a growing number of mother figures. He started off with one. He starts off with one.  So he starts off with this mother, he's unable to separate from her, and then he finds an intimate partner. He tries to separate from her, and he cannot separate from her because he is equally merged and fused with her snapshot in his mind. So he finds another intimate partner, and it's infinite regression.   It comprises a regression to an infantile phase prior to separation individuation from the mother figure. It involves merger, fusion, an oceanic feeling, enmeshment, engulfment.  In this sense, the shared fantasy is a mystical experience. Mystical experiences are also regressions to an infantile phase prior to separation individuation from a God figure, from the cosmos, from nature. Mystical experiences are about merging and fusing and vanishing into a bigger whole. And the same with the shared fantasy, it's about merging and fusing and vanishing into a completeness, into a unity, which is the union of the narcissist and his intimate partner. The shared fantasy is the mystical experience within the religion of narcissism. Narcissism is a missionary religion, the narcissist converts you into his religion and then introduces you to this mystical experience where you are one with the narcissist, you disappear and this works perfectly with many co-dependence. Borderlines react very badly to this because they have two anxieties, abandonment anxiety and engulfment anxiety and whatever you say about the experience with the narcissist, it's definitely engulfing. Borderlines resent this and they decompensate and act out, I have numerous videos about this topic. So this is the reason that narcissists, whoever you and then if they fail, try to replace you with someone and then go through the same experience, repetition compulsion, nothing changes, it's a carbon copies, each relationship or pseudo relationship is a clone of the previous one. There's no learning or evolutionary process here. The narcissist does not evolve, he is totally stagnant, he is static.  But suffice is to say, and I've dealt with it in many, many of my videos, that the best way to think about pathological narcissism is that it's a private religion where the narcissist is both a god and a worshipper, it's a one-man cult and then he's trying to convert everyone around him to the cult in order to obtain supply and to establish the mystical aspect of the religion which is his shared fantasy within which he can reenact early childhood conflicts via obsessive-compulsive rituals. One of these rituals is entraining and training via repetitive abuse and there you fit in. He takes over you, by taking over you, he again merges and fuses with you. This is the first stage. He needs to merge and fuse with you, he needs to become one with you, a single organism in order to be able to separate and individuate. You can't separate if you're not first fused. You need to become one in order later to separate and become two. Individuation with a narcissist crucially depends on attaining the initial goals of the shared fantasy. Eliminating you as an independent entity, digesting you, assimilating you, rendering you an extension and an internal object and now the narcissist is one with you and now he can separate and individuate by devaluing you and discarding you. But what the narcissist fails to understand is the glitch in the coding, the glitch in the software. He can separate and individuate only from you as an external object by rendering you an enemy or a secretary object. But he can never separate individuate from your representation inside his mind.  In this sense, narcissism is almost indistinguishable from psychotic disorders, psychosis, as Kernberg has suggested in the mid-70s. It's a sorry state. It's a sorry state of an adult who desperately tries to become an individual and keeps failing precisely because he refuses to let go of mommy, the original mommy for you.


Trini girl natural Welcome to my channel Coming to you wet again about to do a wash and go and I'm trying something a little different I'm trying caravada. Of course, I've tried a gel before but I'm trying like more of caravada I'm trying this Carna's Supley moisturizing detangling curly finding leave-in conditioner Which is like a spray leave-in which I've never used as a leave-in before today And I have the pure HD high definition gel So let's get started This is kind of bizarre to apply but basically I guess you just spray everywhere and keep spraying The claims on the label are kind of really silly But we'll go for that later. I guess but basically talking about how it's gonna pop and be fine and all that But for me, it's just I'm missing the ingredients as well. It's just a moisturizing leave-in spritz nothing more nothing less So I just put it all around and smooth the first batch in Just hope to trap some of the water because honestly the water defines my kills more than the spray After I sprayed some all around my usual and wipe the products around and then work it in because there's a lot in here So that's what I'm doing now So it does seem moisturizing softening it has a nice scent But defining No, I would say no So if it's something doesn't define your hair as much as water does I wouldn't consider it defining and that's where we're at here So it's extremely lightweight moisture But I said to just keep spraying as much as you need And then get ready to add gel at least I know I like the gel So every wet little bit which I think works out good for people looking here and stuff just to have a little bit more What's await and still have some of that leaving on there? So now I'm gonna add the oil just have a little bit of oil because both products have a lot of this So just to give myself a whole pot life I'm gonna do this to help it hopefully last a little bit longer. I'm not adding a lot of oil Just a little bit. That's my sealant oil mix.  So it looks like if oh my god, it's just gonna do anything That's how far last time I used it. I want to use it once before and I use it with a real Leaven no offense. I use it with a cream even even though I found like it wasn't doing anything wet It did define my curls and you know clump my curls and add whole and everything Did everything I needed to do when it dried so So if you're using it, don't be scared because of how You know How it doesn't seem to have chops to it. It does somehow have some chops So I'm trying my gel like regular outside pulling it outside and then work it through I'm just gonna just be lazy. I'm kind of over it right now. It's been a long day. It's late, but properly work it through So I guess this is almost like people who just put gel alone and never and don't put a leave in Those interesting natural to live that life. I guess it's kind of like that. It's still not quite like I don't know how they do that For my yeah, like for me, I won't leave in if nothing else at all Listen, my hair feels way home. Come on. It's gonna feel defined on the outside but not plump on the inside like, you know what I mean? I've done this in a while but my hair talks Required and decided Sometimes not it really does kind of feel like if I just have gel in here, you know, and that's what I can mostly Feel or tell isn't my hair the style leaving was nice, but very very light So we just see on the dry is what we are waiting But I have hopes as well. I see you in a bit. So this is my result Oh Loving it big fluffy soft light defined it's a little busy due to that leave-in spray, but Overall, I love the definition and I think I love the first because it's just giving me life until the volume So overall, I love it. I guess let's jump into the product review part So about this soufflé Let me start with the ingredients a lot of it has to do with the ingredients so take a look at the ingredients first off and Look at the claims It says your curls will pop from root to tip So I think he was definitely doing too much with these claims because there's nothing there's no gelling agent in this to talk about Adding definition and curls popping like that. So no, it didn't pop my curls If water pops my curls more than your products, I can't say a product pop my curls So definitely didn't pop my curls, but it did add moisture. They'll have enough slip so overall I think it was okay for kinky here You want to make sure your hair is soaking wet when you're using a spray leave-in that'll definitely help with the application and You might even want to rewrite it a bit after that's kind of optional But at least make sure your hair is soaking wet before adding the spray leave-in and of course look for one that's Moisturizing and definitely look for one that has great slip. I did like the sense of these I love the packaging just by the way Me give you a whip a spray This is how it goes on Now it wants to be I'm soaking wet here It doesn't matter because you're going to be raking through again anyway, but it doesn't much matter if it checks or if it miss So my hair did look fine It did look fairly defined but not as defined as if I used a cream leave-in I feel like this may not even be the most defining leave-in spray So I don't want to generalize it to all leave-in sprays This one is about this one because I feel like when I use the jpeg car to revitalize and even I get more definition But I've never used this as a leave-in. This is the first time I'm using a leave-in spray as a leave-in So definitely one day soon. I'm gonna try this leave-in spray as a leave-in So just to compare and let you guys know if you're into the big hair life Then go for it. Yeah, here. I should stay moisturized. So yay for that That's a nice set. It's light slightly fresh slightly sweet and I like the texture too. It's not completely water Which is good. It does give you a little something something something. So that's good It is light, but it's not like nothing but again, it wasn't as anything as moisturizing defining Leave any as a cream leave it in my opinion when it coming out as a jet It may not be the best for a refresher spray But if you want to use it like a ponytail or something like that I'm just put it in your hands and apply that way that might be for the best So next we have the pure HD high definition gel And you know, I have been raving about this I had one other video with it, but I didn't mention it by name So I'm glad to finally mention it by name. I do love this gel Definitely a good hair week and it's pretty much all thanks to this gel The spray was kind of iffy, but this got me where I was going. So yay for that Let me show you the ingredients again. This isn't definitely the top five ingredients So this is more of a big head on cast summer or spring fall type deal. To me This is a big hair goal. So I'm super happy. It's basically a cream gel so It's not very slimy. It's more of a cream than a gel, but it does give you a nice hole like for me I don't like crunch so try to give me a nice soft hole But a real hole like I can get through the week and no crunch. I'm in heaven goals achieve life achieved So yay for that Since I guess it's pretty similar to the souffle a light milky slightly sweet scent But I like the scent on both of these and if you don't like strong sense, definitely go for this I don't think anybody could not like these things are just the perfect neutral make everybody happy kind of sense So yay for the sense I definitely want to show you the HD gel again with a cream leave in and I want to show you a different leaving spray I'm gonna be around a long time I guess. I mean the only downside to you tubing is just how long it takes But in terms of like ideas, I have like so many ideas for videos every time I do something They're like telling the things I could do based off of that So in terms of ideas we hear in terms of my time it takes I don't know Yeah, but I tell your friends to subscribe and stuff like that Because it takes a long time, but anyway, so I guess that was it my demo and review of These Caravella products. I'm thinking I'm gonna try the other two So I was nervous about the cool one because I wasn't sure I was gonna be cleansing enough. I was nervous about the butter Yeah, I think it's called a butter because it's a lotion and so then one of these but it's like call a butter I was nervous about that just because I didn't know if it would penetrate my low porosity hair But you know, I really love this and this wasn't bad So I think I'm gonna try the other two next time they ever sale If you want to see more great content, make sure you subscribe so that you don't miss anything Let me know if you've used Caravella. Let me know if you use leaving sprays as leaving and how it works out Or if you have any tips on that and I will see you in the next one. Bye


The Minister of Works and Housing, Babatunde Fashola, says the federal government is proposing to execute 7 trillion-dollar on-road construction in 854 highways across the six geopolitical zones in the country in its 2022 budget proposal. Fashola said this while defending his ministry's 2022 budget proposal before the House of Representatives Committee on Works and Housing in Abuja. He said priority will be on road projects and bridges leading to parts and major agricultural hubs across the country, which attracts heavy-duty vehicles, carrying goods and machineries to the zones. Fashola said most of these projects will be financed through the Presidential Infrastructure Fund, Road Infrastructure Development and Refurbishment Investment Tax Credit Scheme, the Sovereign Skunk Fund and multilateral loans among others. The number of projects are increasing and all of us must find a way to come to a consensus because our revenues are not increasing at the same exponential rate. And what we are seeing every year, and I will come to that point in answering the indigenous people, is that we are propelled for a very token amount for a project of certain quantums. And then once the award is done, the question of financing becomes a challenge. But with inflation and everything, there must come a time when we can see, and I think that time is now, Mr. Chairman and Honourable Members, enough of new routes and new projects. Let us concentrate our limited resources to complete or progress some of what we have started. I therefore call on the agencies present here to come up with creative and innovative ways to generate income and do not entirely depend on budgetary allocation from the federal government. The House of Representatives will provide you with all the legislative support you may need to attain your financial independence.


I want to welcome each and every one of you to the San Francisco Public Library. What a remarkable turnout. I am honored to host this event tonight with such an esteemed group of writers. And it's particularly fitting that the library is hosting this forum to give authors the opportunity to express their rights to free speech and to speak out about their concerns regarding the possible threats to the freedoms and ideals that we hold dear. If I may, I'd like to just take a moment of personal reflection on the election. On November 9th, I awoke to a different world. I know I wasn't the only one that felt the loss, disappointment, and disillusionment in the choice that our voters made, diminishing and devaluing our country's core principles of inclusion, tolerance, and enlightenment by choosing evil over goodness. As a Latino and son of immigrants, I felt like a loose thread had been pulled from the fabric of our nation's tapestry, tattered and discarded. I'm certain my brothers and sisters and other walks of life, people of color, immigrants, the LGBTQ community and women, have their own feelings of despair and sense of betrayal. It was very difficult coming to work that day. We were convening a group of staff to talk about the future of libraries. It was hard to concentrate much less to envision a future. So instead, we focused on the passion and the value that librarians and libraries play in our democracy. I was encouraged by the unwavering commitment to ensure that libraries are sanctuaries that provide a safe and neutral space for ongoing dialogue on the issues that are facing our nation. I also reached out to all of our staff with an email message to remind them that our libraries are places that support the values of equity and inclusion that mirrors San Francisco's values. The response was amazing and inspiring. We also take seriously the protection of our users' privacy and our role in providing information and community space that is free and accessible to all. These are the basic tenets that we follow and we remain confident that we'll be able to continue these practices no matter who is in the White House. The value of libraries cannot be denied. And in fact, in the shadow, we bring the light to our community. So while tonight's program is politically focused to tie in to Friday's inauguration, it also comes at the time when the library is recognizing the importance of diverse books and diverse authors on our shelves. We are spending the entire month celebrating a series of programs we call We Love Diverse Books that brings together authors and showcases people for all ages, especially children that reflect the diversity of our city. And here's a brochure. It's an amazing array of programs throughout our branches and here at the main library that I encourage you to really, really promote and help us advocate for more diversity in our publishing industry. In closing, I want to acknowledge the great work that Litquake and the Friends of the San Francisco Public Library as our partners do in supporting and bringing this kind of programming to all of us. Thank you, Litquake founders, Jane Gunal and Jack Bullware. We appreciate the work that you've done and continue to do. And Marisa Pella, I know she's in the audience, the executive director of the Friends of the Library. If you want to support democracy, free speech and free expression, I encourage you to support these worthy community institutions. Thank you and welcome to the San Francisco Public Library. Thank you.