I rather spend it, with you. If you like true revenge stories, you found the best place for your vengeful needs. We start off with a stepmom, who doesn't waste time mourning the loss of her husband, and aims her desire towards her stepson. The stepson responds, by gifting her homelessness. Next story is as beautiful as it gets. Getting paid $60,000, to get back at an evil woman, who took advantage of a kind old lady. Last story shows, when you push one to the end of their ledge, don't be surprised, when they come back at you. Ask the like button, to lend its car for a day. But when you return it, don't fill it up with gas. Warning. These revenge stories, might be disturbing to self-entitled family members. Until now, Reddit has just been my guilty mourning coffee read. But after reading some stories on entitled parents, I had to create an account to share this story. So here it goes. I'm an only son. My mom passed of ovarian cancer at only 55-5 years ago. It broke my dad's heart. They had been together since college and were the same age, with my dad being a month older. So this is when the main events start to occur. I'm 22, and about to graduate college with my degree in chemistry. I went to college on a full-ride scholarship. This is important later. My dad met my now stepmom, when she was my mom's nurse at the hospital, where she spent her final days. My stepmom, Grace, played all the right notes to gain my dad's trust. She was empathetic to him, nurturing, comforting after my mom passed. I was 17 and old enough to sense, that she was just trying to weasel her way into getting my dad's resources, but it was up to my dad if he wanted to be in a relationship with her. I was in my final year of public school, and had just won a scholarship to attend college out of the country, the following year. My dad mourned my mom for a year, and that whole time, Grace would check in on him by phone every month or so. In my opinion, to scope out the possibility of sinking her hooks in him. After a year passed, Grace took the gloves off and went hard after my dad. Grace was only 40 when she and my dad started seeing each other. I didn't like her, but at the same time my dad at least didn't seem so depressed anymore. So I tried to be less pessimistic about her, and give her the benefit of the doubt. In my gut I didn't trust her, though. But we are Scandinavian and at least in my family, the son does not tell his father what to do, or even offer any opinion. Grace is from the Czech Republic, if you're wondering. My father was a very successful banker during his career, and amassed quite a portfolio of wealth. I'll spare you the details, but after 6 months of dating, Grace and my father are married. My dad never really got over my mom though, and he was getting weaker and weaker, even though he was only 57. Since his health was fading, he called me to him and asked me point blank. Boy, what do you need, to set you up in this life? I told him, I don't need anything, I'm a man and can take care of myself. But what are you even talking about dad, you're going to be around for decades yet. I did remind him that he had living sisters with children, my aunts and cousins. I also reminded him that I had a full scholarship to college, so he doesn't have to worry about giving me any cash. He passed only a year later, at 59. I of course have seen lots of Hollywood movies, so I consider the conspiracy theory that maybe my dad's nurse wife poisoned him and made him sign over all his money to her. But honestly, I do not think that's what happened. Other relatives didn't like Grace either, but they knew my dad was totally in love with my mom and that her passing utterly broke him. A long story short, my dad bequeathed his five bedroom house to me, even though I wasn't expecting it and didn't ask for it. He gave a small endowment to each of his sisters and their children. He left about 80% of all his existing money to Grace, which amounted to several hundreds of thousands of dollars. My dad ignored my wishes, because he's generous to a fault, and still gave me several tens of thousands of dollars, which were of course very useful to me. Grace tried to put on a friendly front, but I could tell she was angry as hell that she didn't get my dad's house, too. That belonged to me, and I had the legal papers to prove it. She was especially mad, because we live in an extremely upscale and trendy location, and houses are hard to come by and easily sold for massive profit. During the first few months after my dad's passing, I had the nauseating, creepy experience of Grace trying to feel me out, to see if I might be into a little relationship with her. Um, gross, and disgraceful? She still stayed at the house though, because over the last three years she had gotten used to living there, and acted like she owned it. And, even though I officially owned it, I was always away at college and only visited my dad's old house once every couple of months, and even then, it wasn't to see Grace, but to see my cousins who lived just a few miles away. I downplayed the fact that it was really my house, and over the months, I think Grace gradually forgot that she really had no legal right to the house. She probably believed that sooner or later, because I never asked her for any of the hundreds of thousands of my dad's dollars that she now had, that I was somehow independently wealthy, and would just give up my house to her. Only five months after my dad was in the ground, she started dating some new guy, some sleazy looking D-bag named Ivan, who was only a few years older than me.  One time, when I came home from college after graduating, she and her new boyfriend were acting like I was a guest in my own house, and that they owned it. Sure. I played along. On top of that, Grace told me she gave away my PlayStation 4 to Ivan's cousin because.  I don't even know this physical piece of sorrow, and you give him my PlayStation, to give it away to some other disappointing Luni Fartface, who I also don't know. Okay, okay, Roger that. I will confess that I quickly changed all my network passwords, that same day. I just took it and smiled, but I knew what I had to do eventually. She also said that she and Ivan were getting married because. I can't just mourn your father forever, I have to move on with life. I tell her that I graduated college and already secured employment with a local firm, and will soon find a new place to live. She looks thrilled. Especially the part where it looks like I'll soon have a new place to live. Even in a patronizing way she tells me. You always have a place in our house though. You are welcome to stay, whenever you please. Thanks, Grace, really generous of you. But what I'm actually saying, is that I will probably have a new place in three months already. She says with even more delight. That is wonderful timing. Because I intended to go to my homeland, to have the wedding with Ivan. And afterwards, we will have our dream honeymoon. She assures me. But it's a local affair, otherwise I'd invite you, honey. And besides, I know you're so busy. I congratulate her. She asks me if I can watch the house for her. Well, how pleasant of you to ask, I can surely watch my own house. I didn't say that of course, but I did tell her I would look after the house. I consciously careful and refrain myself from saying your house. She and her D-bag fiance, who I am 100% sure is only there for Grace's money, go on their trip and I immediately watch my house, really hard. I watch after my house, so hard, that I put out advertisements and rental websites, offering to lease my house. I hire movers and have all of Grace's furniture and possessions boxed up, and put into a storage rental facility. I retain all of my parents' furniture that they had before my dad met Grace. Locks? Changed. All of them. Within days, I am inundated with dozens of inquiries regarding my amazing, furnished house, with fantastic view. I rented out to a wonderful young family. A barrister and a schoolteacher wife and their two preteen children. They pay me their first and last month's rent, and sign a lease for a year. I warn them about my crazy stepmom, who thinks this is her house, but I present them with contact information to my lawyer, the same lawyer my dad retained, in case they need any assurance that I'm on the right level. I also give my lawyer the information about the storage facility, including the fact that I generously paid four months of storage in advance, which is a whole month longer than Grace's Czech honeymoon adventure. I then found a great apartment in the city, near my new place of work. There, I met a woman in a restaurant I frequented night after a long workday. We have been dating six months now, and are engaged to be married.  From what I hear, her and her trash husband left the country, and I assume they're blowing through my dad's money, and will soon be broke like chavs usually become, when they taste a little bit of what they think is the good life. So, maybe Grace will go and try to exploit some other lonely man, into giving her his money. Speaking of money, the house that I rent out is generating so much money, that I am not only able to help pay for my cousin's college, but I moved into a larger apartment of my own, together with my fiancé. I love my job but really, I could survive solely on renting my dad's old house. And to think, if Grace had only been cooler and nicer, I might have let her stay at the house, just to be a good sport.  But no, she had to act all proprietary, so I had to make her homeless as a wedding gift. Nice cozy side note. I bought another PlayStation, even though I didn't even use my old one that much. It didn't matter, it wasn't for Grace to give away. You don't give away other people's things.  Which is why, I chose to kick Grace out of my house. Because it's mine, and I decide, who stays there. This happened about 5 years ago. My grandma was getting old, late 80s, early 90s. She had one wish, to not die in a senior home. Easily done, as my grandpa sold some assets way back. Then invested the money and let it ride for 30 plus years. He never touched it and collected a pension. Way back when my grandpa died, about 10 years before this, my grandma appointed my dad, this crappy aunt and my uncle, as the trustees of the trust. Basically the trusted advisors for her and her care for the foreseeable future. All was well in the beginning, then my dad, Willie, moved further away and couldn't take care of the day-to-day upkeep as the trustee and to check on my grandma. My aunt, Rebecca, told her that she and my uncle, Fred, who lived in Arizona, could take over and all would be fine. And it was just that, fine for a while.  She also lost her cable TV and newspaper subscription. My dad figured it just lapsed, so he had the services put back on. My dad also noticed my grandma was eating moldy food at times. Because her truck was sold and she had no transportation, she drove up to 90 years old. She basically just chilled at the house alone and did crossword puzzles. The craziest part of this, is that my aunt only lived 2 miles from my grandma, but my grandma told my dad, she saw Aunt Rebecca once a week on Saturday, for about 1 hour. Because with the elderly in age, my grandma passed away.  Upon her passing, things started to get real interesting. Once the probate lawyer got her children, my dad, aunt, uncle and another estranged aunt, Becky, around the table, some shady business started to come out. My Aunt Rebecca, asked that everyone just forego any audit or paperwork and they just sell the house, for around $400,000, and divide up the remaining bank account balance of roughly $400,000. So just signing on the line, each sibling was to get a check for $200,000, not too bad of an inheritance. But my dad thought that was somewhat rushed. He said at the time that he wanted to wait, because my grandma's house was easily in the $600,000 range, based on size and location. My Aunt exploded in his face, cursing at him and calling him all kinds of names, because he was unwilling to sign the assets then and there. She basically wanted a quick close, while everyone looked the other way. My dad ended up leaving the room after the screaming, and the deal wasn't signed that day. It took nearly six months before another appointment, and they were all back at the table. The thing is though, when you are a trustee and the person dies, the funds and access to financial accounts are all under heavy scrutiny, until all beneficiaries are made aware and sign the final papers. At the next meeting, my dad went in there with no intention to sign the deal. He got his brother, my uncle Fred, to agree that they audit the entire accounts, going back five years. When they demanded this at the second meeting, with the lawyer present, my aunt ended up arguing. A forensic audit will cost $5,000, and it's a waste. Like what difference does it make? But as two beneficiaries requested it, it would happen either way. The audit report showed up about three months later. Here, is where it gets good. My dad began looking over the audit report and saw it was full of holes, like excessive monthly food costs for a 90-year-old lady. Payments made for car services for a car my grandma no longer had. Many different things in there, that just didn't add up. My dad asked me to give the audit a second look, so I spent a Saturday night going over it, and here is some crazy stuff I found in particular. And what I alerted my dad about. Costco monthly food costs of $1,100 to $2,000, for the last four years. Construction bills for six cell phones, grandma has a home phone only. Gasoline for a truck my grandma didn't have for like four years, and easily up to $400 per month. House repairs paid to my aunt's husband, who owned a construction business. Some of the house repairs were like $16,000. Like for a new roof, new garage doors, home security system, which she didn't have, and more. These services were charged at inflated prices too. This is not all. Grandma paid for my aunt, to go to Europe twice on a luxury vacation. My grandma was paying my estranged aunt Becky, a stipend of $2,000 a month for the last five years, as well as her deadbeat son for a generous $2,500. Every month, they were paid handsomely. All grandkids were to be paid a lump sum of $10,000 upon their 30th birthday, as that is when the $50 check from grandma stopped for all grandkids. Guess who was paid out? Her kids and my estranged aunt's kids, but not me or my siblings. My grandma gave loans to my aunt Rebecca for her husband's construction business, in return for equity in the company, which amounted to nothing. These loans totaled about $200,000 over three years, right around when the housing bust happened. They also sold her assets like jewelry and whatnot for cash, because some big ticket items simply vanished from her house. Armed with all this, the next probate meeting was going to be interesting at least. In the time between my grandma's death, and the third probate meeting, my aunt's construction business filed for bankruptcy. So that $200,000 in equity grandma had, simply vanished. The probate lawyer was also somewhat concerned, and makes it obvious that this was fraud and breach of fiduciary duty, where my aunt could actually get real prison time. After this, the negotiations were much more favorable. My aunt got nothing, literally zero, my other aunt only received $25,000 after all the stipend payments. My father and uncle shared the rest, after all grandkids, received the $10,000 payout. The house sold to the first offer for $520,000.  Here is when the revenge, took a professional turn. My aunt probably felt pretty bad, that she couldn't supplement her lifestyle with grandma's money anymore, but that was the least of her worries. Since she tried to personally rip me off for $10,000, I took it personally. I don't care how tough you are, the IRS is the scariest thing that can happen to a person, nobody wants to have their money forcibly removed. I did a little research and found the 3,949a form. I also had the audit and the legal office would provide the full trust and requested, demanded by the IRS, I don't know if it ever was. So I photocopied my documents, then notarized it and send the info off to the IRS. Later, I felt like it went nowhere. Then maybe 18 months later, I was notified and asked to come to the IRS building for an appointment in my city. The agent went over all the details, specifically what they found in their research, and then they asked for a sworn statement from my side. It turns out, my aunt didn't declare around $1.2 million in additional income over 5 years, and as such, she owed the IRS around $420,000 plus penalties. There was no way she was going to pay that on a teacher's pension, and after her husband bankrupts his business. Her house was sold, her vehicles sold, and they left the state. Now aunt and uncle live in a depressing desert town in the southwest. The IRS paid me around $60,000 about three months after the appointment. She should have paid that $10,000, and gotten fresh bread for my grandma. This story is told from the female perspective. This happened back in 2010, when I lived in Wintergarden, Florida, with my husband and his dying uncle. For you to understand the story, I will start with some background. My husband and I moved in with his sick uncle, after losing so much during the 2008 housing market crash. We lived together in a condo, because his uncle had stage 4 cirrhosis of the liver, and his self-entitled sister and her family refused to help take care of him. My husband is a retired Seminole County Sheriff's Officer, important later. We got ourselves set in the condo's two bedrooms, as his uncle had himself set up in the living room including his bed. On the first day, we found dangerous black mold caused by a leaky dishwasher.  On the third day, we found a Nesta brown recluse spiders in the living room. We talked with our uncle about these problems and found out that the slumlord is friends with our self-entitled aunt and her family. When we updated him on the situation, he was refusing to take care of the issues, as required by law. We wanted to start legal actions then, but my husband's uncle talked us out of it several times. The slumlord had always been nice to us. Until our uncle passed. After my husband's uncle died, it was a completely different story. The slumlord had turned nasty, aggressive, and began to try and strong arm evict us, like we were nothing more than addicted squatters. It even bowed up and aggressively tried to fight my husband when we dropped off our next rent check. He kept telling us that we had to move or else, but yet refused to follow actual Florida laws to evict us. The slumlord and his wife get in contact with our awful aunt and equally awful uncle and recruit them to breathe in our necks. Self-entitled aunt plainly told us, just move even if you have to live in a tent or at least move so they can rent it out to another senior who actually needs it. My husband replied, we don't have anywhere else to go yet, and he must go through eviction laws or he'll get into serious trouble. Self-entitled aunt, you're nothing but trouble. You've been a pain since the day you were born.  Who cares if you have to live in a tent? Why would she keep emphasizing for us to go live in a tent? My husband was a retired SCSD officer, who specialized in uncovering corrupted law enforcement, and this situation made him suspicious. We talked about the situation and started our protection plan. My first order was to place all rent into escrow, with evidence of repairs that have been neglected. Second, I sent a notification of cease and desist of harassment, to the slumlord and the self-entitled aunt. Next, I researched public property tax records. Woohoo. Hey dirt there. Slumlord's condo wasn't registered as a rental property with the state of Florida, and was paying far less in property taxes than he should have been paying. Property tax records also showed, that slumlord did not own the condo. It was still deeded to his mother, which I found out had been living in a retirement home for five years, before my husband's uncle moved in. My husband found out, that his wife was responsible for inspecting properties against Florida code enforcement conduct laws. She was the one responsible for inspecting slumlord's properties, and signed it off, including the condo we were living in. This is against Florida code enforcement conduct laws. I found out from the condo neighbors, that the slumlord had only been renting to seniors with severe health issues. My best discovery next to tax evasion, was finding out that the condo owner's association had a very strict no renting slash leasing policy, meaning you, or family, had to live in the condo and it couldn't be rented. The, revenge, now that we had all of our evidence, my husband and I, began to knock down all of the slumlord's dominoes.  My husband has a glowing record in Seminole County and with the FDLE, for having over 200 clean arrests and taking down nearly 60 corrupt public officials, including child protective services in the early 2000s. This background helped push WGPD to open an investigation. They discovered that not only had she perjured inspections on her family's properties, but also on my husband's self-entitled aunt and uncle's property as well. This explained her involvement in the matter, and why she was so eager to get involved. This got the wife of the slumlord fired, stripped of her state enforcement license, and convicted of multiple crimes. I set all property tax fraud evidence to the Florida's Property Tax Division. It got the state to investigate the slumlord. The state found that not only did he commit property tax fraud on the condo, but also on a property that he was renting to his son and self-entitled aunt's son, along with business tax fraud and income tax fraud. When investigators came to the rental houses of both slumlord's son and self-entitled aunt's son, they were for possession of illegal narcotics, with intent to sell. I never expected that much fraud to be found from all of this, but I'm glad it happened. The business tax fraud of the slumlord affected self-entitled aunt, and are equally self-entitled brother as well, since they were his business partners. Self-entitled uncle came under investigation by the USPS board, as he was the postmaster of Winter Garden. Self-entitled uncle lost his comfy job and pension, after it was discovered how he was assisting slumlord in the tax fraud scam, and for stealing money orders. All four were, convicted of multiple white-collar crimes, had to sell their properties and most of their stuff, serve some form of time, and pay huge amounts of fines and restitution. Slumlord, his wife, hubby's self-entitled aunt, and hubby's self-entitled uncle, along with their sons, all went down for multiple crimes. Both felonies and misdemeanors, all because they thought they could strong arm evictus. Just proves how smart tenants can really be when pushed. Also proves, why everyone should know all rental laws and how to research public records, because it can save you in the end. Did you get any reaction out of them? Just curious, I'd love to hear it. Self-entitled aunt and uncle disowned my husband afterwards because of it, according to my hubby's other nicer aunt. She also told the self-entitled aunt, that they couldn't live with her in her farmhouse, whereas we have an open invitation for the rest of our lives. While it is a great story, and I love seeing Karma make the rounds, I do have a question. Didn't you, in effect, hurt yourselves, so to speak? By making this so public. It seems you have to move out quicker than you would have by keeping quiet. The condo will probably be sold to recoup legal bills. The HOA won't let you stay, as you are renters. What are your plans now? It seems like some of the fallout from this nuclear revenge, fell smack onto you. I loved your story, but what are you going to do now? Actually, by the time we turn them in, we already were set on moving. Living evidence can take a while, and it's easy enough to line up other living arrangements. We moved in 2010, while the state did their work on the slumlord. Also, you can talk to a HOA or COA, without revealing that you're a renter, but I did at the day we literally moved. Been living in Ohio, since the slumlord and bandit crew got manhandled by state and federal justice system. You stayed till the end, which means you're the one I make these episodes for. Thank you for your support, I really appreciate you. Subscribe, so you don't miss out on future episodes and show your vengeful devotion, by tickling the like button without mercy. Do you have any experiences surrounding the topic of this episode? Share yours below, I'll join the conversation. I'll be seeing you, in the next one. Remember that these stories are shared for your entertainment. This content is to be taken as such, and nothing else. Royal AI, rejects application or instigation of illegal actions.


Hallelujah. It's time to give the Lord some praise. Hallelujah. It's time for worship. Hallelujah. Come on. Let's stand to our feet. Hallelujah. If you got a praise on your lip, come on. Offer him the sacrifice of praise. There's a praise in this house. Everybody prays for him. There's a praise in this house. I give them praise. He's high. He's high. Apostles, Bishop Marley, we are so excited about the Lord and what he's doing and enjoying his praises. So come on and join in with us our prayer for today. I'm not going to give us our prayer for today. We're going to pray to God. Every one of us, we have so much to be thankful for us. He's blessed us. He's added to us so much. Thank you, Jesus. Hallelujah. Father, in the name of Jesus, Lord, we come into your presence with a grateful heart. Thank you for your kindness. Hallelujah. Thank you for your mercy toward us in the while we were yet sinners. You died for us. Hallelujah.  We bless your holy name. We praise you. We thank you. We came here to lift your name up and praise you and give you honor and glory today. Oh, God, we bless your holy name greatly to be praised. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Our praises go up, Lord. I know your anointing is going to come down even more. Thank you, Lord. I feel your presence right now. You're with us. You said, you'd never leave us nor forsake us. And I thank you for it. Send your word today, oh, God. Strengthen our hearts, Lord.  Be glorified in all that we say and do, oh, God. Hallelujah. We honor you. We bless your holy name in Jesus' name. Save those who are not saved, oh, God. Touch their hearts and draw them unto salvation that they might be saved from sin. In the name of Jesus, we pray and we honor you, Jesus. In Jesus' name. Amen. Hallelujah. Glory. Glory. Thank you, Lord. Praise the Lord. Thanks. I'll be reading it to you here in Psalms 34. It says, I will, I will bless the Lord at all times. Not sometimes, at all times. His praises shall continually be in my mouth. My soul shall make her both in the Lord, the humble shall hear thereof and be glad. Oh, magnify the Lord with me and let us, let every one of us in here exalt his name together. I sought the Lord and he heard me and delivered me from all my fears. They looked unto him and were lightened and their faces were not ashamed. This poor man cried and the Lord heard him and saved him out of all his troubles. The angels of the Lord encampment wrong about them that fear him when they say fear who reveres him. Hallelujah and deliver them. Hallelujah. Old taste and seed. Old taste and seed that the Lord is good. Hallelujah. Blessed is the man that trusted in him. May the Lord have a blessing to the reading and hearing of his word. Hallelujah. We have been encouraged this morning. Hallelujah to lift up the name of Jesus. Amen. Amen. We're here to give God glory. We're here to give him praise. We're here to honor him. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. You know when we give God praise, his spirit fills his place. Amen. And that's what we want. We want the glory of the Lord to fill this place this morning. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Jesus. Thank you Lord. Our Father all of heaven roars your name. Sing louder. Let this place erupt with praise. Can you hear it? The sound of heaven touching earth. The sound of heaven touching earth. All of heaven. All of heaven. We want more of you. More of all the glory. All the honor. All the glory belongs. All the glory belongs. All the glory belongs. Jesus today. Bless your name Lord. Hallelujah. He is the joy of my desire. Hallelujah. He's the Lord of glory. The rose of Sharon. So rare and sweet. He's our king. Hallelujah. He's our peace and our comforter. Our friend. Let's take it closer than a brother. That's our God. Hallelujah. Thank you Jesus. Thank you Lord. Joy of my desire. All comes to me right of glory. Comforter. Always there. He never leaves us. He never forsakes us. Hallelujah. All the glory to God. Glory to God. Bless your name. Amen. Amen. At this time we'll have Bishop Alexander come forward. If it hadn't been for the Lord who was on our side when our enemy came against us we'd have been swallowed up quick. Right away. Thank God for Jesus. Now in that same key I want to just go one or two rounds with the song. Jesus there's something about that name. Kings and kingdoms shall all pass away. But there's something about that name. There's something about society. It's very hard to look at the news anymore. Things are so they've gotten so bad that you hate to find out what's going on in the news. We don't know what's coming next. But I thank God that we have a Savior. One who loves us. And his name is Jesus. Jesus. Jesus. Jesus. There is something about Master Savior. There's something. There's something about Master Savior. There's something. Let me just say this. The political system in our country is in terrible shape. Everybody's trying to throw their name in the pot to see who can be the leader. But it doesn't matter who comes into office who's forward in the political system. Kings and kingdoms. All of them are going to pass away. But there's something about the name of Jesus that gives me peace. Gives me satisfaction. Give me joy down in my soul. There's something. Something about. Thank you Jesus. As the praise and worship went on that song came on my heart. And I just had to get a couple rounds in there because he's great. I said he's great. He's great. And he's greatly to be praised. Come on somebody. Thank you Jesus. Without further ado we're going to present the solo for the morning. Deacon Richard Sykes Jr. And after him the next voice you'll hear was the speaker for the morning of the Kevin Ross. And I ask you to receive him and them in Jesus name. God bless you. You have to see your way through. No fear in the power of the Lord. No fear. President Franklin Roosevelt said you have nothing to fear but fear itself. The Bible says and God has not given you the spirit of fear. Oh you can. You just said. Stand and see the salvation of the Lord. Stand and see the glory. He'll make rivers in the desert. He'll open up a door for you. He'll make a way for you. But don't be scared. No fear. No fear. Untoward the giant. For the kingdom of God. And the devil knows how strong you are. The devil knows how mighty you are.  And he's scared. I don't know if he's still praying but he's praying that you don't figure out who you are. That you don't understand how strong you are. That you don't understand how powerful you are. That you don't understand what God has invested in you. No fear. No fear. Towards the giants. Deuteronomy 31 and 6 says, be strong enough of good courage. Fear not nor be afraid of them. Of them whom? The enemy and the giants.  He says he will not fail thee. He will not forsake thee. No fear. Say no fear. No fear. But run towards the giants. It's not in the natural it is foolish to run towards a giant.  He's stronger than you. He might be smarter than you. He's meaner than you. It just doesn't make sense in the natural. In fact, it is a fearful thing to run towards the giants and the problems and the struggles that you have in life. However God wants you to live in the no fear zone. Say no fear zone. See he's tired of you being afraid and running from the enemy. He's tired of you for backing up. He wants you to say no fear. I'm going to stand in the power of the Lord. We've been running long enough. God is constantly saying to us, fear not. Fear not. Don't be afraid. I got your back. Now the problem is that so many of us have had people that said I got your back and when things got down and dirty they were so far back we couldn't find them. But God is not a man that he should lie. If he says I got you, it's in the bank. If he says I got you, be born as a lion and declare the Lord is with me. I'm not by myself. God is with me. Interesting fact. The phrase fear not or the concept of fear not is found in the Bible 365 times. That's one fear not for every day of the year. God said I got your covered. You don't have to worry about it. All I want you to do is not be afraid but be bold in me. Run towards the giants. Don't run away from them. Don't run away from them but be bold. Do not fear. Do not be afraid. Do not worry. Do not lose heart. First John 4 says, for fear has torment. See, fear will steal your peace. It will steal your joy. It will steal your hope. It will steal your future. See, when you're afraid, fear will steal from you. And the crazy thing is, Pastor Bobby, most of the things that we fear never happen anyway. See, that's the trick of the devil. He wants you to lay up all night and toss it back and forth. See, I done it myself so I ain't, you know, I'm not throwing stones at nobody. And the other night the Lord says, why are you staying up all night? I'm going to stay up all night anyway. Why don't you go to sleep? Give it to me and trust me. You know what I did? I don't remember. I tucked it in and rolled over and said, thank you, Jesus. See, when we were kids, we feared the monsters that were hiding under the beds. When we were teenagers, we feared that all the cool kids at school wouldn't like us. When we were younger adults, we feared what the future might hold for us. Well, I find a good job. Well, I fall in love. Well, we're getting married. Well, we have children. Where will we live? And it goes on and on and on. And if you allow that fear, it will dominate your thoughts and your life. It will dominate your thoughts and your life. So we have to be careful not to allow it to do that. And if we continue to do that, to live in fear, we see Freddy Krueger behind every rock, every tree under your bed, in the closet, in the dark rooms, every place you go, he's there waiting for you. See, and if that's where you live, guess what? He'll be there. Now, it may not be Freddy, but the devil will see to it that somebody will be there to upset your life. If you allow yourself to live in fear. Turning your Bible, if you will, to Isaiah chapter 26. Isaiah chapter 26. Seems like we've been hitting this scripture quite a bit these last few weeks in the Bible class and hearing that, but I believe God is speaking to us. I know it's in here. There it is. 26 verse three says, and thou, he's talking about God, and God will keep him. He's talking about the people of God. So God will keep the people of God in perfect peace. Whose mind is stayed on him because the people of God have trusted in God. So trust in the Lord forever. In the Lord Jehovah is, or there he is, everlasting strength. First Peter five and seven says, cast all of your care on him because he cares for you. So Isaiah says to trust in the Lord God Jehovah and he will be the strength that you need to face every enemy, every giant, every problem, every situation that will rise up in your life.  He says cast it, take it and give it to Jesus because he cares about you enough to handle your problem. And so how do we develop a fearless relationship with Jesus? That's a good question. I'm glad that you asked me that. Let's look at why David or consider why David fearlessly ran towards his giant, his Goliath. David was able to run towards Goliath because number one, David had a relationship with God. David loved God. Do you love God with all of your heart and all of your might and all of your strength? Do you serve him every day? Do you live for him every day? Or are you a samoso Sunday morning, Saint only? Do you love him because he gave you a new car? Do you love him because he gave you a new job? Do you love him because he, when we love God like that, he is not your Lord. He's your sugar daddy. And God will be nobody's sugar daddy forever. Some of us know how it is. We fell in love with her. I was in grade school and I fell in love with this girl. She asked me to buy a ring and I brought her a ring and I was so happy. I was, she was the prettiest girl in kindergarten and she was my girl and we were struggling and one day I saw her standing in the crowd of girls and they were laughing and I walked up on her. She had a cigarette cigar box full of rings and mine was just one in the pile. I told her, you give me my ring back. I took my ring back and went on about my business. My feelings with her, but that's all right. I got over it. I got my ring back. Come on somebody. I know I ain't the only one that happened to you. So David had a relationship with God. Number two, David had fellowship with God. David was a worshipper. I heard somebody mention this morning Psalms 34, I will bless the Lord at all times and his praise and his worship shall continually, unceasingly, never endingly be in my mouth. I see we think David probably wrote that song when everything was going well, but David wrote that song when he was running for his life in a cave with a rats and all kinds of unsavory things and he says, I will bless the Lord at all times. And my situation may look bad right now, but my praise is not depending upon the situation. My praise is dependent upon the God that's worthy of praise and worthy of glory and worthy of honor because he's going to bring me out of this.  He said, Oh, magnify the Lord with me and let us exalt his name together. Number three, David had some experiences with God. As a young lad, David was anointed to be king over Israel. As a young lad, David was out in the field taking care of his father's sheep and a lion and a bear came up and took one of his sheep. And I thought about it, I said, if I had it been David, that lion and bear, they would have ate sumptuously that day because I am not going after a lion or a bear, but God helped David. See, that's the key. Jesus will help you if you try.  So David had experience with God and David understood that God can do anything, that God is in control. If I'm connected to God, everything is going to be all right. Everything is going to be all right. In 1 Samuel chapter 17, that's where we'll find our texts. Like 1 Samuel chapter 17, that's where our text is. And in this text, Israel is at war with the Philistine army. And so the loser has to serve the winner. See, that's what you call a winner, take all. And so the Philistines sent out their champion, Goliath, to fight for them. Larry Parker said he'll fight for you. He'll do it for 33 and something percent. He ain't going to do it for free. Come on, somebody. You know I'm telling the truth. He'd probably get more than that. At least. And Israel was supposed to send out their champion to fight. Now, understand Goliath was almost 10 foot tall. You know, I sat in my room the other day and I tried to imagine what does a 10 foot tall person look like? And he was probably ugly. That's a lot of ugly. He said he'd been a warrior for so long. That's a lot of ugly. So he's almost 10 foot tall and he's talking trash. I don't know if you've ever been bullied. I was once in school and a bully, he was bigger than me and that was bad enough, but he was talking loud, talking trash. I'm like, man, why don't you leave me alone? But Goliath's out there talking to you.   And Israel does not have a champion that is willing to fight with Goliath. Because the men in the army of Israel, they were shaking in their boots. And not only them, but Saul, which was the leader. See, the leader supposed to say, I'm going out there and fight. He was sitting over in a corner. And so this is going on day after day and he's challenging them to send your greatest warrior to fight with me. A fight to the death. It was a major smackdown. And through a series of events, David, a little shepherd boy, he finds himself standing before King Saul, pleading his case. Let me fight with this monster of a man called Goliath. Turn, if you will, to first time in chapter 17, verse 33. Said, as Saul said to David, thou are not able to go against this Philistine to fight with him, for thou art but a youth. And he is a man of war from his youth. And David said unto Saul, thy servant kept his father's sheep. And a lion and a bear came and took one lamb out of the flock. And I went after him. See, I like that. See, most people don't see that underlying. They said, and I went after him. See, too many times we allow the enemy to steal from us.  But David said, the enemy came and stole from me and I went after him. See, the enemy may have your child.   You go back and get what belongs to you. God gave it to you. It's not the enemy. Go to the enemy's cabin. Take back what belongs to you. He said, he tried to steal sheep. I went after him. That's my kind of dude. I rode with people like that. He said, and I smote him and delivered him out of his mouth. Then he rose against me and I called him by the beard so it must have been the lion. And I smote him and slew him. In case you don't understand what they're saying, I hit him and then I killed him. See, there's some things that in your life you got to kill. See, there's some things that you can't allow to live.  See, there's some things that you got to kill. They said, boy, that seems harsh. That seemed mean. But God knows if you don't do it now, it's going to come back to bite you later. And so he said, and thy servant slew the lion and the bear and this uncircumcised Philistine. Why didn't he just say this Philistine? But he said this uncircumcised Philistine. See, circumcision was a sign of the covenant. When you were circumcised, that means I belong to God. I've got rights. I've got privileges. He made me some promises that belong to me because I am in covenant with God. But he said this Philistine is not in covenant with God. He doesn't belong to God. He doesn't have any promises.  He said he shall be as one of them, seeing he has defied the armies of the living God. And David said, more over, he getting cocky now, more over, the Lord has delivered me out of the Paul, the lion and the bear. He said, and he shall deliver me out of the hands of this Philistine. See, that's faith talking. I'm not looking at what I see. I know what he did in the past, and I know what he's going to do. He's going to deliver me out of the hand of this Philistine today. See, sometimes you got to declare what God's going to do today. I was in a situation. I need some money. And I said, Lord, I was all walking in the rain. I prayed and I prayed and I said, Lord, I began to claim, speak the word to him. And I said, Lord, I want some money. I need it today. I don't want, I don't want to wait till tomorrow. I need it today. When the day was over, I got to check for 600 and something dollars. See, sometimes you got to get specific. You got to tell God what you want. I had a job and I had a good job and ask God for a good job because I had a Sunday school class and I was off every other Sunday. I asked the Lord for a job where I could teach my class every Sunday. God gave me a job. I could teach my class every Sunday, but I worked on Saturdays. And after about 10 years, I asked, Lord, why did you give me a job where I got to work every Saturday? Why didn't you give me a job for Saturday? And so he said, I gave you what you asked for. You didn't ask for Saturday. All you asked for a job where you could teach your class on Sunday. You got to tell him what do you want. Solomon, he offered up a thousand sacrifices and God showed up and says, what can I do for you? God wants to bless you. He says, and Saul says unto David, go and the Lord be with you. I never noticed it till right now. Bishop Saul didn't offer to go with him.  But you have to understand you and Jesus is the majority. That's all you really need is you and Jesus. And the truth is he don't need you. He can go before you and do it all by himself. He's God. See, we don't understand when we say God, he's the highest and rank power. And I thought he could do anything he wants to do in spiritual warfare. And that's what we need to understand. It's not by power. It's not by might. It's not by intelligence. It's not by ingenuity. He says, it's by my spirit, says the Lord in the story. So if God is with us or if God or since God is with us, we are assured the victory, but we must believe it by faith. He said every promise in him is yeah and amen. But if you don't believe it, it won't work for you. The Lord spoke to my heart this morning. I was just kind of laying there and relaxing. And the Lord says, the promises of God, I have given them to my people, but they cannot be activated if you don't put faith with it and not just put faith with it, get up and do something. Say, do something. See that when they were coming across to Jordan, they were wanting the waters to spread like they did for most and nothing happened. He said, nothing happened to the priests put their foot in the water. God is waiting for you. You're waiting for God and he's waiting for you. You're trusting God. He said, if they'll just do it, if they'll just give me any kind of sign, I can do something. I remember one time I was going through a situation and I was praying and praying and the Lord said, if you do anything, even if it's wrong, I can fix it. But if you don't do nothing, I can't do nothing for you.  And so David, he picked up five smooth stones out of the brook. I heard a RW Schambach say the reason he picked up five smooth stones. He heard that Goliath had four brothers, but he picked up those stones.   The weapons of our warfare are not corner, but they're mining through God. The weapons of our warfare are not corner. Our weapons of the word of God, our weapons of prayer, our weapons of praise.  He will pull them down. He will break them. And so he puts these in a bag and Goliath is still talking trash. And you have to understand that's what the enemy will do to you. He'll tell you, I'm going to do this. I'm going to do that.  I'm going to take your car. I'm going to take your job. Don't believe the hype. Tell somebody don't believe the hype. Don't believe it. He's just talking crazy. And so Goliath is saying, let's fight. Let's get it on.    So he's trying to intimidate David. That's what the enemy does. He tries to always show you worst case scenarios. I'm going to do this. I'm going to do that. And then I'm going to go after your mama. And Lord, y'all know ain't nobody going to mess with my mama. She's sitting right over there. You move in her direction. I will come out of this pulpit. There is forgiveness in the bishop. I will come out this pulpit and take you out. That's my mother. Help Lord. I ain't perfect yet. I'm still a work in progress y'all. He's working on me every day. Let him work. Let him work. So let's look into verse 45. Goliath is talking all of this to David. And this is David's response. It didn't say David to the Philistine, thou comest to me with a sword and a spear and a shield. He said, bud, that's right, my bud. But I come to thee in the name of the Lord of hosts. Hallelujah. The God of the army of Israel, whom thou hast defiled. You've disrespected. You've thrown shade over here. And he said, this is what I like. He said, this day, I'm not going to wait till tomorrow. But this day, I didn't start this fight. You started it. But this day, with the Lord delivered thee into my hands, he says, and I will smite thee.  I will yellow tape thee. Y'all know when y'all see a yellow tape, you know what that means. And I will take thy head from thee and give it to the Caucasus, the host of the Philistine. Super bad. Goliath, I'm getting ready to take you out of the game. He said, I'm going to feed you to the fowl of the air and the beast of the field. And all of the earth may know, here it is, that there is a God in Israel. See, that there is a God in the house of Alexander, Bishop Alexander 1st, that there is a house in the bullock house. And there is a God over there with Darrell and Merlin. And there is a God living in the army's house, in Rue's house. Every place that are saying of God, there is a God living there that will fight for you, that will deliver you, that will open the door for you, even at the wise house. That wasn't right. Even at the wise house, there is a God. See, you do a dangerous thing when you mess with the child of God.  I was a teenager and a guy hit me in the jaw. I didn't fight because I was trying to be saved, but I had a reputation, Bishop. When he hit me, everybody fell back. This guy Ross, get me ready to do his thing. And I said, okay, Lord, I'm going to give you a little time to make this right. Because you know, I got a rep and I can't let this go. And a few days later, this man was running by me. He was on football field, running by me over car run football field. There were no holes in the ground. Nobody tripped him. He got right in front of me.  I probably would have killed him because the way he was running and the forces I was getting ready to hit him with and just before he was right there, where that speaker was and his leg just shattered, sounding like an explosion. He grabbed his leg and looked at me and God said, I fight for you. Don't fight your battle. Let me fight for you. I fight for you. He said that they will know that there is a God in Israel and all this assembly shall know that the Lord saved with not, with sword and spear, with a knife or a gun, a Uzi or machete. He says the weapons of a warfare not fought like that. He says, but the battle is the Lord's. He says, and he will give you in to our hands. You need to understand the battle that you're going through is the Lord's and he will deliver every enemy into your hands. And it came to pass when the Philistine arose and came and drew Knights and David, the David Haitian. He hurried up. He got and he ran. Somebody said ran. He ran. He ran towards the army to fight the Philistine. David got up and ran towards the giant. He ran towards the enemy. He ran towards the problem. He ran towards the situation because he knew my God will deliver me. So I like this. I was reading and said, and Goliath arose. He got up.  So he arose and he began to move toward David. And instead of retreating and instead of running, David said, in haste, he ran towards the giant. He ran towards Goliath and he took his swing and he began to wind that baby back. He began and he threw that rock. I believe when he threw that rock, I believe God either caught it and threw as much harder. He just blew on it and said, that rock hit Goliath in the forehead and killed him.  Someone said, the bigger they are, the harder they fall. He killed him. End of story. End of game. And this is the part I like. It said, and then David took Goliath's sword. I imagine he could barely pick it up because I remember reading his sword was something crazy like between 35 and 50 pounds. That's a big sword.  That's gangster, y'all. That's hood. I'm sorry. I'm gonna stop. But in your life and in my life, when the enemy comes up against you, when the enemy comes up to fight you, face your giants. Face your Goliath. Don't run from them. He's yelling and screaming and saying what he's going to do and saying how he's going to take you out. Don't be scared. Fear not. Fear not. Fear not. But run towards your giant in the name of Jesus. See, David ran towards the giant. But he ran in the power of the Lord.  God is for you. He's on your side. You need to know he's going to deliver you. He's going to make a way for you. You need to know that the enemy has been defeated. Run towards your Goliath because you know that greater is he that is in you. See, God is not just with you, but he's in you. The Bible said, and after the Holy Ghost has come upon you, you shall have power. You need to know you've got power. You got the Holy Ghost. You got power. Run towards the enemy because you know no weapon, no weapon that the enemy has is going to prosper. See, I've discovered when we do it God's way. To the world, it looks crazy. To the world, it makes no sense. Guess what? It works. It doesn't matter what they believe. And so you run towards your enemy.  Run towards it in a thirdly because the enemy has already been defeated. See, sometimes we're waiting for the enemy to be defeated and he knows he's defeated. He knows it. God knows it, but you don't know it. The enemy was defeated because Calvary settled it all and Calvary the enemy was defeated. He'll never win again. God won the victory for you. You are victorious. You are powerful. See, tell somebody I'm bad. Oh yeah, I'm bad. I'm bad in the spirit. I'm bad because I belong to God. I'm bad because I have a covenant with God. I'm bad because God is on my side. I'm bad because he says, I will not forsake you. I will not leave you. You're not in this battle alone. You're not in this thing home by yourself. It's but the greater one, the holy one. See, there is no match to our God. Who do you know that can win a war with frogs, flies and grasshoppers? Who do you know? You know, I've been chewing on the message, Pastor Bobby preached the other day about the leverage and how God had provided for them even before they got there.  Because of unbelief, he did not taste the promises of God. We've got to believe God. The Bible said, the just shall live by faith, not by wisdom, not by understanding, but live by faith that my God will deliver. My God will open up a door. My God will make a way for me.  My God will send me through. My God will bring me out. He'll bring me up and bring me out.  Nobody fights like my God. The battle doesn't belong to me, but the battle belongs to God. See, I'm a winner. I'm a winner. I speak it out of my mouth every day. I'm a winner. I am victorious through Jesus Christ. He's my Lord. He's my savior. I'm victorious through Jesus Christ. God is on my side. God is with me. I run towards my giants in the name of Jesus. I run towards the giants of sickness and disease. I run towards the giants of poverty and lack. I don't know about you, but I'm tired of being broke. I'm tired of being broke. I won't be like Bishop. I want to be like Dr. Sykes and Sister Terry. Go to the conference and write a check for a thousand dollars. Bam! There it is. Right now, I've been writing a check for a thousand dollars. That be that? Call me brother Ross. We got to check. We dropped it on the floor. It bounced all over the room. That was a sign that something wrong here. They didn't take it to the bank and try to cash it. Lord have mercy, but come against the giants of broken relationships. No more divorce and no more broken families. The enemy has almost destroyed our country with divorce and broken families. They interview these serial killers that went in and killed 20 and 30 people and I did it because my father left my mother and I didn't have a daddy. Now that's a lie, but see we have to understand that God created us to be a family and your family may not be ideal, but whatever your family is, don't let the enemy destroy the family that you have. We come against the giants of sadness and depression and any of the giants that tries to attack us. We decree and we declare in the name of Jesus that every giant that tries to attack my life, he is defeated. He is killed. He is dead right now in the name of Jesus. No fear. No fear. No fear. No fear. No fear. Say no fear. No fear. I'm going to run towards that giant. I'm going to run towards the enemy. The Bible said many or the afflictions of the righteous, but God, anytime you add a but God to your situations, things are getting ready to turn around. Someone said shoot them or later it's going to turn in my favor because I put a but God in there. The enemy tried to kill me, but God, he saved me. I didn't have enough money, but God, he made a way for me. I didn't have a job, but but God gave me a job. I didn't have a honey, but God gave me when I gave a bag, but that's all right. No, no, no, no, let me stop. Let me stop. But many or the afflictions of the righteous, so you've got to make it up in your mind. No more running from the enemy. No more raising the white flag. No more throwing in the towel. No more giving out, giving up or giving it. I'm going to stand and see the salvation of the Lord. I'm going to stand and see what God is going to do. I'm not going to run, but I'm going to run towards my giant. I'm going to run towards my problem. I'm going to run towards the enemy because baby, I'm in it to win it. God will see you through if you will run towards the giant. See, when you do that, that confuses the enemy. See, I've had it happen in my life. I've seen people that ran towards the enemy and they didn't know what to do, but if you will face the enemy, not in your own strength, not in your own power, but in Jesus' name and run towards the giants, God will fight for you. God will make a way for you. God will open up a door for you. He will deliver you. He will bless you. He will heal you. He will provide for you. He'll make a way for you. He'll give you everything that you need.  He will give you the victory and you give God the glory.  They say, how did you do this?  I said, Ross, how did you do? I said, but God, I was defeated, but God, I couldn't make it, but God who's rich in mercy, he had more mercy than I needed. He brought me out. He delivered me. He made a way for me. So be strong in the Lord. Be strong in the Lord and the power of his might. When the enemy attacks, don't be afraid. Fear not. When the enemy comes after you, don't worry about it. Fear not.  No fear. No fear.  Run towards the enemy. You are a warrior for the kingdom of God and we fight the good fight of faith and it ain't over. It ain't over till we win. Hallelujah. The enemy's been defeated and Jesus has given us the victory and all we have to do is stand in faith, stand in the Word and run towards the enemy because he's already been defeated. Run towards your giants in Jesus' name because you've already got the victory. I'm excited about the message that the Lord has sent to us today because we lose victory because of fear of the Rosses told us today that the answer to the problems that come into our lives is to not be afraid, know that there's one who is able and willing to give you the victory. And Elder Ross, I couldn't help it, but a sermon that I heard when I was probably about six years old preached by Bishop Morris E. Golder, Hebrews chapter 12 verse number two said, looking unto Jesus, the author and the finisher of our faith. He says to us, don't stop running. He said, first of all, he said run, run, run to the challenge and don't stop running. Bishop Golder preached this and he started running. He'd run across the pulpit down the other side across in front of the offering table and back up and around. He did that for 45 minutes. He was saying, I'm going to run this race with patience, looking unto Jesus. He said, I know what is involved in this and I don't have what it takes to do it on my own, but I'm going to look to Jesus, looking unto Jesus. He's the author and the finisher of my faith and I've got faith enough to believe that I'm going to gain the victory. Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah. Look to Jesus, look to Jesus. I had to sing this song. Look and live, my brother, live. Look to Jesus now and live. It's according to his word, hallelujah. It's only that you look and live. Oh, look and live, my brother, live. Look to Jesus now and live. Oh, it's recorded in his word, hallelujah. And it's only that you look and live. Oh, look and live, my brother, live. Look to Jesus now and live. Oh, it's recorded in his word, hallelujah. And it's only that you look and live, my brother, live. Look to Jesus now and live. Oh, it's recorded in his word, hallelujah. And it's only the scripture that goes with this, the scripture says forever old art. Your word is settled. Come on, somebody. Look to Jesus now and live. He's the author and the finisher of our faith. And what he said then applies right now. His word is settled in heaven. That means his word cannot change. It will not change. So if you make up in your mind, come on, somebody. If you're determined to run, if you're determined to get the victory, look to Jesus because he's the answer to every problem. Now, this is not a call for baptism. I believe everybody in here has been baptized. But the call today is for you to run. Run. Run. Run. There was a movie I think it was called Run, Don't Walk. Don't Walk. You got to run. Come on, somebody. Every challenge that comes in your life, the Lord said, I love you with an everlasting love. He said, I'm gonna put my arms around you and I'm gonna keep you as long as you keep on running. Come on. Now, turn to your neighbor and tell them I'm gonna run. Disraise with patience. I'm gonna run no matter how difficult the test and trials become. I'm gonna run because running gets me victory through Jesus Christ, the righteous, the one who died for me, the one who cared for my soul. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. That's our service for today. Is there anybody who needs prayer? If there are ones, there are ones here who today, you need prayer? You come on down. Believe Jesus.  He said run. If you got a problem, come on, run on down here. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Come on, come on. The Lord says, you have the victory. You hear what I said? I said, the Lord said, I didn't say it. The Lord said, you've got the victory. Hallelujah. Thank God. Thank God. Thank God for one who cares. Thank God for one who is able. Thank God for one who loves you in spite of yourself. That's the great love when somebody love you in spite of you. He said, I've given you the victory. The victory is already yours. You just gotta run and get it. Grab a hold it and hold on and don't let run the race with patience. Don't stop running. Run. Run. Thank you, Jesus. I'm glad I know. I'm glad I know Jesus. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Thank you, Jesus. Running for my life. With me and say, thank God. Holy ghost filled firebath time. I've got Jesus on my side and I run. What's the matter with me and say, thank God. Holy ghost filled firebath time. I've got Jesus on sanctified. Holy ghost filled. Holy ghost filled firebath time. I'm saying, thank God for the victory. Come on, somebody. You don't have to see it. Just know that God said he's given it to you. Hallelujah. There are people who worship probably in a different way than we do. And that's what this song is alluding to. Said, if anybody asks you who's a Christian, if they ask you what's the matter with me, tell them I'm safe. Sanctified. I'm holy ghost filled and firebath time. And I got Jesus on my side.  Hallelujah. Thank God. Jesus on my side. Hallelujah. Running. Thank you, Jesus. The Bible says in Proverbs 3.9 and 10, honor the Lord with thy substance and with the first fruit of all thy increase. So shall thy barns be filled with plenty and thy precious shall burst out with new wine. Given tithes and offering, please is God. This is something that please him. I started calling bishop. Elder Ross said something that's mentioned about activate the promise of God by giving to the Lord. Activate his promise. You got to do something in order for the Lord to bless you financially. He also said something about financial stronghold. The reason a lot of us have financial stronghold because we don't give like we supposed to. So let's activate the promise of God and give like we should. Not sure we give, but do you give all the 10% or even more? Or do you give an offering also? We have to give unto the Lord in order to activate the promises and to get rid of those stronghold, financial stronghold. Amen. And we hear this all every week, but we just have to rebind you again. So please those who got your tithes and offering, please raise it to and he's got mine. Father in the name, because we put ours together. Our money is all together. What's his is mine and what's mine is his, okay? Father in the name of Jesus, we thank you, Lord God, that we're able to run to this offering table and give our money to you, Lord God, because we realize that all the finances of the world belongs to you. The calendar thousand years is yours, Lord. And you said that if we give that you will bless us, that you will bless us abundantly. We ask you in the name of Jesus to help each one of us, Lord God, to receive those abundant blessings and those promises that you have given us by giving unto your work. In Jesus name we pray, amen. You may bring your offering now. Those in media land, if you would like to give for this work of the Lord, you can give also by giving, she's running, by giving, give a five, Shilifake Long Beach, Shilifake Christensen Long Beach, you can mail it in at 4934 Long Beach, Willa Boy, 910-90805. Oh, you can drop it in our slot in our door, amen. We praise God for all the finances that come to help keep this church open and keep it going. Even the little kids, amen. Lord's gonna bless them, amen.  And I know some people give a five, so we understand that also, amen. We thank God for giving a five, amen.  Minister Merlin. Amen, amen. Praise the Lord, amen. Did we not enjoy the Word of the Lord this morning? Amen, amen. God cares, hallelujah. God cares. The scripture that really comes to mind. How the Bible says, only be thou strong and very courageous. Ha, be very courageous. Amen. Don't back up on the enemy. Face him. Face him. Please have on your armor. That's right. And, you know, be prepared for the battle. Amen, because we don't want you whooped the naked. Amen, amen. Amen. Hallelujah. That's how the Lord gets us prepared. We go through some things, and we learn how to do battle, amen. Hallelujah. We ain't scared of the enemy, amen. We're not, hallelujah. We are courageous in God, hallelujah, because He has commanded us to be strong and very courageous. Amen. Come on, are you determined to be, to walk with the Lord, even the Lord? Hallelujah. Thank you, Lord. Come on. I run with you to run this race with patience, God. We thank you and we praise you, God, that as we leave this place, but never from your abode, hallelujah, that you will care for us and take care of us. Amen.


Live from Stanford University, it's theCUBE. Covering Stanford Women in Data Science 2020. Brought to you by SiliconANGLE Media. Hi, and welcome to theCUBE. I'm your host, Sonia Tagare, and we're live at Stanford University covering the fifth annual WIDS, Women in Data Science Conference. Joining us today is Lillian Carrasquillo, who is the insights manager at Spotify. Lillian, welcome to theCUBE. Yeah, thank you, Sonia, for having me. So tell us a little bit about your role at Spotify. Yeah, so I'm actually one of a few insights managers in the personalization team, and within my little group, we think about data and algorithms that help power the larger personalization experiences throughout Spotify. So from your daily mix, to discover weekly, to your year-end rap stories, to your experience on home and the search results. That's awesome. Can you tell us a little bit more about the personalization team? Yeah, so we actually have a variety of different product areas that come together to form the personalization mission, which is mission is like the term that we use for a big department at Spotify. And we collaborate across different product areas to understand what are the foundational data sets and the foundational machine learning tools that are needed to be able to create features that a user can actually experience in the app. Great, and so you're gonna be on the career panel today. How do you feel about that? I'm really excited, yeah. Yeah, the WID team has done a great job of bringing together diverse, it's an overused term, sometimes there are a very diverse group of people with lots of different types of experiences, which I think is core to how I think about data science. It's a wide definition. And so I think it's great to show younger and mid-career women all of the different career paths that we can all take. And what advice would you give to women who are coming out of college right now about data science? Yeah, so my big advice is to follow your interests. So there's so many different types of data science problems. You don't have to just go into a title that says data scientist or a team that says data scientist. You can follow your interests and do your data science, use your data science skills in ways that might require a lot of collaboration or mixed methods or work within a team where there are different types of expertise coming together to work on problems. And speaking of mixed methods, Insights is a team that's a mixed methods research group. So tell us more about that. Yeah, so I personally manage a data scientist and a user researcher and the three of us collaborate highly together across our disciplines. We also collaborate across research science, the research science team, right into the product and engineering teams that are actually delivering the different products that users get to see. So it's highly collaborative and the idea is to understand the problem space deeply together, be able to understand what is it that we're trying to even just form in our head is like the need that a user or end user human has and bringing in research from research scientists and the product side to be able to understand those needs and then actually have insights that another human, a product owner can really think through and understand the current space and like the product opportunities. And to understand that user insight, do you use A.B. testing? We use a lot of A.B. testing. So that's core to how we think about our users at Spotify. So we use a lot of A.B. testing, we do a lot of offline experiments to understand the potential consequences or impact that certain interventions can have. But I think A.B. testing, there's so much to learn about best practices there and when you're talking about a team that does foundational data and foundational features, you also have to think about unintended or second order effects of algorithmic A.B. test. So it's been just like a huge area of learning and a huge area of just like very interesting outcomes and like every test that we run, we learn a lot about not just the individual thing we're testing, but just the process overall. And what are some features of Spotify that customers really love? Anything you can dish on? Anything that's like we know you. So daily mix, people absolutely love. Every time that I make a new friend and I tell them what they work on, they're like, I was just listening to my daily mix this morning. Discover weekly for people who really want to stay open to new music is also very popular. But I think the one that really takes it is any of the end of year wrapped campaigns that we have. Just the nostalgia that people have even just for the last year, but in 2019, we were actually able to do 10 years. And that amount of nostalgia just like went through the roof.  Are there any surprises or interesting stories that you have about interesting user experiences? Yeah, I mean, I can give you an example for my experience. So recently, a few months ago, I was scrolling through my home feed and I noticed that one of the highly rated things for me was women in country. And I was like, oh, that's kind of weird. I don't consider myself a country fan, right? And I was like having this moment where I went through this path of, wait, that's weird. Why would this recommend, why would the home screen recommend women in country country music to me? And then when I clicked through it, it would show you a little bit of information about it. It's because it had, you know, Dolly Parton, it had Margot Price and it had the High Women and those were all artists that I'd been listening to a lot but I just had not formed an identity as a country music. And then I clicked through it and was like, oh, this is a great playlist and I listened to it. And it got me to the point where I was realizing I really actually do like country music when the stories are centered around women, that it was really fun to discover other artists that I wouldn't have otherwise jumped into as well. Based on the fact that I love the story writing and the songwriting of these other country acts. That's so cool that you discovered that. So you have a degree in industrial mathematics and you went to a liberal arts college on purpose because you wanted to try out different classes. So how has that diversity of education really helped you in your career? Yeah, so my undergrad is from Smith College which is a liberal arts school, very strong liberal arts foundation. And when I went to visit, one of the math professors that I met told me that he considers studying math not just to make you better at math, but that it makes you a better thinker. And you can take in much more information and sort of question assumptions and try to build a foundation for what the problem that you're trying to think through is. And I just found that extremely interesting. And I also, you know, I have an undeclared major in Latin American studies and I studied like neuroscience and quantum physics for non-experts and film class and all of these other things that I don't know if I would have had the same opportunity at a more technical school. And I just found it really challenging and satisfying to be able to push myself to think in different ways. I even took a poetry writing class. I did not write good poetry, but the experience really stuck with me because it was about pushing myself outside of my own boundaries. And would you recommend having this kind of like diverse education to young women now who are looking into going to society? I absolutely would. I mean, I think, you know, there's a, some people believe that instead of thinking about STEAM, we should be talking, instead of thinking about STEM rather, we should be talking about STEAM, which adds the arts education in there and liberal arts is one of them. And I think that now in these conversations that we have about biases in data and in ML and in AI and understanding fairness and accountability, accountability, sorry, it's a hard word apparently. I think that a strong cross-disciplinary, collaborative and even on an individual level cross-disciplinary education is really the only way that we're gonna be able to make those connections to understand what kind of second order effects we're having based on the decisions of parameters for a model, you know, in a local sense where optimizing and doing a great job but what are the global consequences of those decisions? And I think that that kind of interdisciplinary approach to education as an individual and collaboration as a team is really the only way. And speaking about bias earlier, we heard that diversity is great because it brings out new perspectives. It also helps to reduce that unfair bias. So how at Spotify have you managed or has Spotify managed to create a more diverse team? Yeah, so I mean, it starts with recruiting. It starts with what kind of messaging we put out there and there's a great team that like thinks about that exclusively and they're really pushing all of us as managers, as ICs, as leaders to really think about the decisions and the way that we talk about things and all of these micro decisions that we make and how that creates an inclusive environment because it's not just about diversity, it's also about making people feel like this is where they should be. On a personal level, you know, I talk a lot with younger folks and people who are trying to just figure out their places in technology, whether it be because they come from a different culture or they might be gender non-binary, they might be women who feel like there isn't a place for them.  You know, and like your voice matters and we need to figure out and I always ask, how can I highlight your voice more? You know, how can I help? I have a tiny, tiny bit of power and influence, you know, more than some other folks. How can I help other people acquire that as well? Lillian, thank you so much for your insight. Thank you for being on theCUBE. Yeah, thank you. I'm your host, Sonia Tagare. Thank you for watching and stay tuned for more.


How's it going everybody? Dottonoi here and you might not know this but I love Attack on Titan. I read the manga, I love playing the games with friends, I'm still watching the anime religiously. I still can't pronounce this guy's name. Overall, it's just a really great franchise. That being said though, Attack on Titan the final season part two actually ended today as I'm recording this. So they still haven't announced how they're going to actually go about wrapping up the series. Whether it's Attack on Titan the final season part three or an Attack on Titan movie really though it doesn't matter because both options are going to take a really long time. That is why in order to feed my addiction I've decided to go back to one of the best Attack on Titan games, Attack on Titan 2 and check out both the single player and a bit of the online multiplayer. If you guys like this video and want to see more of it, maybe with the 3D it's definitely at the like button and let me know down below in the comments but with that said, let's go ahead and hop into Attack on Titan. And they giving us the speeches about the walls? I'm sure that nothing bad will ever happen. Hey yo! Yo my good! Can this go up on YouTube? Our friend wasn't among the top 10 students but it always wanted... That's me dude! They put my fan made character in the story mode. Let's go! Flip the page on my book. Oh, there's the Armor Titan. Oh man. I wonder if the fan made character dies at the end of this game. Oh, I even get to make my own original fan made choices. I'm going to grill the meat for us. Don't worry guys, it all worked out fairly in the end. That's what I'm saying. We're going to be A-OK. Oh man, look at all my friends dude. I really feel like I'm in the story. Amy, but Aaron's asking me where I want to be assigned. I'm joining the Scouts bro. Me and you bro, we're leading the Scouts.  Oh, they're just doing this from Aaron's perspective. I must be in the background or something. Aw man. Damn bro, we getting jumped. Aw what? My fan made character decided to leave the wall bro. You couldn't put me in the cutscene. Oh no, I'm getting a first-person view. No. I was one of the people that got flung off the wall. Oh, but I'm built different. I caught myself. Let's go. Oh, I was right next to Aaron.  There's no way they make me follow him. Wait what? Okay, we're not going back up. Oh, they're changing up the story a little bit for the game. They broke the wall. Oh my God. Bro, they got Saul Goodman coming through. Hey, it's me and my best friends forever Aaron bro. This is the best fan fiction I've ever read. I don't know about you Aaron, but I'm not going to wait around bro. Let's do this thing. Hey, let me get that. Oh, I messed up. I messed up Aaron. That's on me. That's on me. That's mine. Hold on. Let me finish this. Superior elimination. I only messed up once and I am already covered in blood. And he's going to be a great day. Aaron, you're going to have to speak. Oh my God. He's delivering the fatal blow. He's going for another kick. I really hope me and Aaron move it out the way. Damn. Was that Aaron? Did his player model just get flung a million feet? Oh no, am I all alone? Oh, I'm bleeding out. I'm bleeding out. All right, I healed. I healed. I healed. You're facing Titans here. You got to be more careful. Aaron, you're the one that got flung a million. No, no, no, no, no. Don't come in here, bro. If you know what's good for you, don't come in here. No, no, no. They won't let me go out there. You got to come to me, but don't do it though. Oh, I'm letting my team take care of it. Wait, can I kill the Colossal Titan? I'm going to go see if I can take this guy out. Nope. I can't. Damn. Ow, my legs. Oh, is it time?  Oh, nice clean landing. I'm fine, Sasha. Thank you for your concern. Oh, he's going to do the iconic line, bro. I didn't see his legs through the hole though. I think he might already be gone. Did the game make the spin? Oh, go for the spin. Skrrt. I don't like the way he looked at him like that. Oh, no, bro. It's the smiling Titan. We have to kill that thing. Are we actually going to do it though? Oh, that's not the smiling Titan. Never mind. I thought we were going to change history, bro. I really thought they were about to have us change history. I'm going to get this tiny one. Okay, no, maybe we should get the one that's destroying the city. I'll do it real quick though. Oh, my God. Who's next? Actually, you guys handle that one. Oh, what a team. What a team effort there. Another Titan's coming through, bro. Oh, my God. It wants me to dodge him. All right. Hey, I'll dodge a Titan. I don't know why the game wants me to dodge this, but I will easily. Oh, he just clipped right in. He must be an abnormal. All right. I'll dodge him. Go ahead. Try me. Try me. Try me. Try me. Try me. Try me. Try me. Dodge. Dodge. Dodge. He's just kicking. He's just kicking. All right. I'm just killing him. One, two, three. Get him, boys. Yeah. I guess I didn't even feel like dodging. I just got my boys to handle it for me. Meanwhile, Aaron's still fighting this thing alone. Let's see if he gets a clean hit. That's going to be a no. That's going to be a no on the clean hit. He is. He's not even close. Swing and a miss. All right. Well, I would say that was a pretty successful mission. I think Thomas just got sniped. Oh, yeah, he got sniped. Oh, damn. He was, he was having such a good day out there too. Yikes. Oh, he was having such a good performing day out there too. Now, Aaron, let's be rational. Let's be rational. He's not very rational thinking right now. Oh, and there's good. There goes a leg. Yeah, there goes a leg. How did you end up on the ground? Dodge. Dodge. Dodge roll. I still not too late to dodge. Oh, that was probably the crunch. Oh God. Hey, what up, man? Dude, my OC needs to get there. Why got Armin picked up by his scruff? Oh, he's dead. And his OST going crazy. Armin, somebody help him. Okay. He made it. He saved the day. Now my OC is going to show up. Oh, nope. That's a different character. Alright, Nino, you still there? I am in fact still here. Alright, bad news. Boilers, I know you weren't out there on the battlefield, but Aaron's dead. He got eaten. Yeah, I know it was pretty tough to watch. My OC didn't make it in time. I wonder if all my comrades are okay. Whoa, Nino, it's like we're back in time, dude, because now I'm helping you with your story mode. Whoa. Are you good, bro? I'm not good, no. You're not good? I mean, I could understand why. It gets pretty nerve-racking out here, but you'll be fine. Anyway, you remember the thing I said about Aaron getting eaten? I just don't trust it. Wait, what? Uh, nothing, nothing.  Aye, bro. It's time. We've seen the lore. We know what we're going through. And also, I've played through this mission once. Let's get ready. I'll make sure my gas tanks are full. Fellas, fellas, take it easy. Take it easy, guys. Dotto, come here. Dotto, what do you think?  Ditto, why you got guillotines, dude? Dude, I'm mincing some meat out here today, bro. Are you kidding me? What do you mean by that, bro? Have you ever played Monster Hunter? Yeah, yeah. You played on using this. I'm about to be the chef on that with these Titans, bro. Alright, Nino, Nino, you're trying to race. You see that big group of Titans, Nino? The big group of Titans over here, yeah? Yeah, let's get them, boys. Oh, this first one's going to be a breeze. Oh, I went right behind him. Oh my God, I'm gaming. Ooh, complete elimination. Get out of my way.  Why this one on the roof? I need to rejuice here. Hang on. I'm getting juiced up. Nino, what did you use all your juice on? Bro, what do you want from me? I can understand that, actually. Great answer. Superior elimination only failed one attack. Oh my God, speed run. Wait, what just happened? Somebody needs help.  What do you mean what happened?  What is this? That Titan probably died, bro. Probably by my hands. Give me a second. You know what? Before we get going, I'm going to refill on my blade. Oh, the Titan's still here. It kicked me. Damn. Alright, Connie, you get that one, bro. Really, bro? Am I going to have to get him? Oh my God, somebody help me. Somebody help me. Somebody help me. Help me. I'll do it myself then.  No, no, no. Somebody got him. Anyway, I'm going to go help out. Probably the people that ask for help, you know, they're really hoping a hero like me shows up, so let me go help. I'm going to have to go for the shortcut here. Damn, I touched the water. I'll touch the water and Nino, it'll reset you. Have no fear. We're here. The backup has arrived. Oh, I'm taking him out in one hit. Is that it? We took him out, right? Surely. Oh my God, he's still alive. Don't worry. Oh, somebody had to do it, Nino. It was going to be you. I don't think I want to eat it.  Oh, wait. Come on. He didn't keep his eyes on the prize. That was going to be mine, Dotto. I told the assist to get it, bro. I told Connie to handle it. I don't like that you're denying me my Monster Hunter RP right now. Well, do better, bro. I mean, like, I get, you know, yeah, maybe it's a little weird. It's a Titan, but with the right seasonings, anything tastes good. Bro, I literally can't hear you over the sound of the wind in my ears. All right, how many likes, how many likes for us to get real ODM gear and race in it? 10,000 likes and we'll construct real ODM gear. Don't worry, Nino. I'll handle this little one down here. Taking care of another one down. You got yours, right, Nino? Yeah, yeah. Yeah, I'm not, you know. I notice he's still standing, but don't worry. I'll take him out for you. He's trying to get me. No, not Mina. Not Mina. Oh, my gosh. Hey, we did what we had to do. All right, another distress signal. I think this is it. From what I can remember, this is the last part of the mission. I'll be real with you. If we had just lost Mina there, I would just let the Titan eat me. It just ended, bro. That they can't be that way. I'm going to end this right now, though. Oh, I'm ending it right now. It's me. Complete elimination. I'm built different and I'm covered. Oh, my God. It almost landed on me. Mission success. It's only one part of the mission. Damn. I'm so fast. I'm out of gas again. Nino, get more gas, bro. Can I get a break here? Oh, oh. Oh, wait, wait. It's in my neck, bro. No, never that, Nino. You're good. There, you're not good. No, I'm dead. He's got me in his eyesight. You're dead? I'm dead. No, I can boost away. I got to refill these super canisters. No, you're not, Nino. I got you, bro. If nobody else got you, I got you.  Let's go. Hopefully we're good. I'm leaking. I'm going to take some time to get some gas. I thought I was going to do the cooking here. I'm going to restock while you're back there, but as for me, you know, a hero gets no rest. Got him. Another one down. Can you lose some for me, bro? Come on, man.  I think we might be done. Is that it? I think we might have done it. I mean, surely nothing else bad could possibly happen. It's a beautiful day out here. Honestly, other than all the death and destruction, I totally agree. Oh, my God. Connie just said I'm pretty good. Wait. And somebody died. Yeah, somebody just died. I ignore that. Wait, are we supposed to be taking out these Titans? Why are the cannons aiming for human buildings? What is happening? Is it firing at me? What are all these cannons doing? Wait, what is this? Who is this? I don't know. I don't remember this.  Wait, they're missing. They're hitting everything but the Titans. Well, hold on. This Titan's not getting any further than this, bro. I'll tell you that right now. It's an abnormal. I'm almost there. I know you can't do this without me. A thousand damage. Ned, I'm giving him the combo piece. Nope, we got to focus the green now. Give me that arm. I'm circling around. I see it. He put it behind him. He's good. He knows everything about hiding his limbs. But I'm still going to find a way to get it done. That's just what the best of the best do, I suppose. We got to get this arm off. No! What's good? What's good is that he just beat me into the ground. Oh, no. I just realized I don't have any gas. Maybe I can resupply here. Rebuild. Oh, yeah. Make this into a resupply. Nice. Get some gas. Hold on, Ned. I'm on my way. Got another arm? Surely he's not still enraged. All right. I'm taking his legs, then. He is. Oh, he's not now. I'm replacing blades here. Oh, good angle. I'm going again. Same angle. Beautiful. I'm putting multiple thousands up on the board. Oh, he's almost good. We got him again. We got him again. Go for the nape from the top rope. My blades. Oh, so we got him. Nice. Stuck the landing. Oh, man.  Hey, can y'all calm the cannon fire down, bro? Well, there he goes. I can't that be mean, bro. What do you mean by that? Neno. It's a 1v1 time. Aaron versus Levi. You confident in yourself?  Damn, bro.  All right. Now, very important question before this starts, Neno. I don't know what decides whether or not we win or lose.  This is a lot of work. Damn, brother. Reduce your opponent's gauge to zero while maintaining your own. Wait, so am I killing my own Titans? I thought we were going to fight each other. I'll be real with you. You thought we were going to swing on each other? Yeah, dude. I'm slightly... Wait a minute. Does that say Beast Titan? No, surely that's incorrect. But I mean, if it's not, I'm going to go check that out. But surely that's not correct. I'm finding a normal large Titan here, bro. Hey, you might want to do something about this because I'm kind of killing it, bro. All right. Now, where's this so-called Beast Titan? Oh, my goodness. Is he here? Yeah. No, yeah. Yeah, he's here. Oh, damn. Whoo. Help me out, Armin. Help me out. Yeah, why he's so mad? Yeah, why is he so mad? I don't understand what's happening. Whoo. He hit me pretty hard. Go, Armin. Oh, wait, what is Armin doing? Armin just shooting him. Oh, Armin powered me up.  Come here, Beast Titan. Come on. Come on. Come on. Come on. You don't got anything on me. Let's go. I took out the Beast Titan. Did you really? Yes. I'm built different. That's another one down, myself. I just took out my own character. I'm hurting myself. Okay, yeah. You have to take out the opposite color from you. I just took out two purple Titans, but I took out the Beast Titan, so I'm still in the lead. This is definitely something. Yo, I'm killing it now, Nato. I'm on a rampage. Is that what's happening right now? Bro, I'm built different. That's all I know.  Come here, small Titan. Don't cry. Don't cry.   I'm so fast. They were all just dying in one shot. I think it's because Armin helped me out. What Titan you say? Damn, wait, wait. Nato, bro, you're winning. You're not winning, but you're almost winning. Hold on. Let me end this right now, Nato. Let me end this right now, Nato. You're done. You're done, Nato. Damn, I am covered in blood. Ooh. Check my hand. Check my hand, Nato. Check my hand. All right, Dotto. All right, Dotto. What do I got to do to get a rematch? A rematch? What do I got to do to get a rematch, Dotto? You better hope this video gets to 10,000 likes and then I'll consider doing a rematch. What?


The person closest to a narcissist gets treated the worst. Normally in a romantic relationship the other person will treat you as being more important than anyone or anything else. They will put you first. They will decide that you are more important. They will take into account your needs and feelings. They will treat you as the primary priority because they're in a committed long-term relationship with you. So there should be closeness and emotionality because they should have a feeling of love for you and strong attraction towards you. But this doesn't happen with narcissists because they treat the closest people to them the worst. It's like they're punishing you for loving them and being close to them as though you're doing something wrong but it's because of their personality disorder. You are seeing the real version of them. You're seeing who they regard while everyone else is receiving the fake version and it hurts you because you don't know what you did wrong and yet they're treating you like you're worthless and everyone else. You're not getting the same treatment as other people and they will often reveal this to you because when they're involved with other people they will wear a mask. They will act normally and appropriately and it will confuse you.  They will take things out on you but that's just how it is when you're dealing with a narcissist. You will get punished for loving them because they feel most comfortable around you so you get the real version of them.  They've got to keep you at arm's length because you have the ability to expose them. You could reveal to everyone what they're really like and being exposed is one of their greatest fears so of course they can't let you know too much or see too much because they're very distrustful. They fear that you might expose them for who they really are. When you are in an intimate relationship with a narcissist you will get treated the worst and it will frustrate you because you know they have the potential to treat someone good and you remember how they treated you in the beginning.  They put you first. They made you their main priority. They went all out for you. They put all of their energy and enthusiasm into you because they were love bombing you. They were idealizing you so in that moment you were the center of the world which is why they were always trying to be there for you but it was short lived. It only lasted for a short period of time because they felt like they had you trapped.  They know you're not going anywhere so now they feel more comfortable around you. They no longer value you so they feel like they can treat you however they choose to because now they believe that they have power over you.  They respect and admire other people especially people who are not a part of their lives. They will behave as though those people are more important than you are because they know that they've already got you. They know you're not going anywhere so there's no incentive for them to treat you any better which will frustrate you because you know that they have the potential to treat you good but this is just how they operate. It's how their personality disorder functions. The narcissist will abuse you behind closed doors. They will abuse you in private so that they can still maintain their deceptive outward appearance because to everyone else they seem kind of polite so by doing this it makes it look like you're the problem because you're the only one who is complaining about them but no one else sees what they're doing wrong so it makes it easier for them to get new supply. They can still get attention and admiration from other people who are under their spell which means that they won't interact with you as much especially since you already know what they're like so it wouldn't do much for them because you're not under their spell. You know who they really are underneath the mask and they're also talking about you behind your back.  They see the good side of the narcissist which keeps everything under their control. They have you under their control by keeping the abuse hidden and they also have everyone else under their control by maintaining their false image and they feel powerful and special when they tear you down when they treat you like dirt. It boosts their ego. It makes them feel superior. It makes them feel important. It makes them feel better about themselves. When you are dealing with a narcissist you will go from being gold to garbage overnight because you're human because you question things because you realize that something isn't right because they need constant entertainment and they get bored very easily so they're always looking for the next shiny new toy because they think the grass is greener on the other side. So they put you on the shelf. They forget about you. You will find that you're arguing more and more often and they will be looking for excuses to take a break or to give you the silent treatment because they're busy working on their new target or they're already involved with someone else. So that is when you will see even more hot and cold behavior because now they don't need you. They've already got someone else lined up. So by this point communication will get less than ever before. If you are still communicating with them you will just be fighting because they're already preparing for their new supply and they're about to advance them to the primary position. But at some point they will get bored of them just like they got bored of you and then they will be looking for someone else. So that is when they may try to come back to you. But even if they do you're still going to be getting the same treatment as you did before because there's just no incentive for them to act right. They don't need to. They can still treat you like dirt while receiving positive attention from other people because they only show the real version of themselves to you. Thank you for watching. If you found this video helpful please give it a thumbs up. Share your thoughts in the comment section. Hit the subscribe button to receive the notifications. If you would like to support the channel you can donate at paypal.com. You can book a one-on-one with me on my website. It's NARC Survivor. 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At one point, while she seemed to be unconscious, someone in the room suggested that it would be happier if she could die in her native country instead of in that unfamiliar place. And in fact, she had in the past prepared her own tomb next to that of her husband, insisting that she should be buried there with him. But suddenly she spoke and told those around her, put this body anywhere. Don't trouble yourselves over it. The only thing I ask is that you remember me at the altar of the Lord, wherever you may be. In fact, as Augustine later discovered, some time before that day, her friends had asked her whether she would be afraid to leave her body so far from her own city. Nothing is far away from God, she replied, and I needn't be afraid that at the end of the world he will know where I am lying to raise me up.