out here in the hot tub it's quite a cold night here in Scotland but it's pretty hot in here hope everyone's having a good evening or day depending on where you are I don't know if you can see me very well it is quite dark out here so yeah coming up to 100,000 subscribers on the channel it's a huge achievement and it looks like we should reach it by tomorrow I know a lot of people say you know there's so many subscribers so many views must be getting worse it must be an epidemic and you could see it that way but I see it as though it's a good thing because people are becoming aware of what is really going on people are waking up and I think that's good it's good that people are finding this information it's good that people are becoming more aware of it 100k subscribers is definitely being something I've been trying to achieve for a while then of course it's not just my achievement it's something we've all achieved together we've all contributed to make this happen and on one hand you know of course it is an amazing achievement to have 100,000 subscribers not many people do achieve that many on YouTube but then on the other hand it's just numbers really it doesn't really mean that I'm anything greater than what I was before I had a hundred thousand subscribers you know unless we want to entertain the ego you know I know once it passes a hundred I'm still gonna feel human I'm still gonna be doing what I'm doing now making videos putting the information out there but then you know at the same time I don't want to downplay it of course you know a hundred thousand subscribers it's an amazing thing it is you know to bring the awareness to this many people and I hope that I've inspired other people to do the same it's not just about inspiring people it's about inspiring people to inspire people just like I have been inspired myself by many people before me I think my cat got in a fight with one of the local cats here I know exactly a fight but they were meowing I don't know if you can see and all of the cat there in the background a few people say cats are narcissistic and as someone who has a cat that's probably something I wouldn't disagree with but at least you do get something in return with cats you know they can be affectionate sometimes even if it's just on their own terms it's kind of worth it don't think we could say the same thing for narcissists though but yeah I've been thinking you know once we reach a hundred thousand subscribers where do we go from there because of course the journey isn't just gonna end it's going to continue it kind of brings me back to the start all over again like when I had just 100 subscribers and that was a really big deal back then it was a really amazing achievement to me to achieve 100 subscribers and I didn't really know where this was going I had no idea that in just a few months I would achieve 1000 subscribers and then I had no idea that within the first year I would achieve 30,000 subscribers and now to achieve 100,000 just two and a half years in it makes me think you know whatever I think could happen in the future with this I could be greatly underestimate in it because I never could have imagined that it would grow this much I believed that I could do well and that's why I took so much action but to think that it could become this big it's really incredible it's amazing what we can do when we just believe in ourselves and that's why I just have to keep telling people no matter what these narcissists say about you you've got to believe in yourself your beliefs create your reality when you believe in yourself you can change everything thank you princess high-frequency I appreciate that comment she says you helped people to realize that they were not alone you created a community of understanding support and love I like that I just felt like I had to give something back to this community there were times where I felt alone for many years I had no one to talk to I didn't know what to do it was difficult I was isolated and I had no one to validate my experience no one really cared no one cared I didn't even care about myself at that point that's how broken down I was and then I found one of Sam Vakinen's videos well first I typed in energy vampires on YouTube because I thought that's what I was experiencing people suck in the energy out of me I then from there I then found one of Sam Vakinen's videos on narcissism and then that's how I found out about it back in February or March 2018 and then I then saw other people's videos as well like ASSC direct Ross Rosenberg Kevin Sullivan the Royal Wii and some others as well and also Michelle Neves too I think good channel was called surviving to thriving at the time and I was so confused with everything and I won a free coaching session with Michelle and it was just amazing you know to to have that experience was someone listened to me it's like they understood where I was coming from it's like finally things started to make sense and then that's when I felt like this was my mission in life too to make these videos and to provide talk therapy to people life coaching because I know just how beneficial it is I know what it did for me back then when I won that coaching session with Michelle it changed everything there was only a few months after that but I started this channel I just look at where it is now and that's why I say it's not all about just inspiring people it's also about inspiring people to inspire people because together we can change so much got some good non-alcoholic beer there alcohol free and I hope that I have inspired you you know maybe this isn't your path maybe you don't feel that you want to do videos or coaching people but if you do as you know I do offer YouTube coaching so if you're interested in that you can book for the website www.narksurvivor.co.uk and when you book a session just say in the notes that you're booking a YouTube coaching session but even if that's not for you just having this knowledge this awareness and sharing it with people for your day-to-day life you know that's something what you give out you get back so when you're putting that good energy out there it comes back and it improves your life too and I am living proof of that people always tell me I've changed their lives I just want to say to everyone you've changed my life you've made me feel validated for my experience with all the likes and the comments you feel like I get you I feel like you get me it's just so great to have this community where we all have each other we're all like-minded people who care about each other we want the best for each other and it's not just the live chat or the comments that we have now to communicate we do have the the new support forum as well which is also on the website it's www.narksurvivor.co.uk so if you are interested in talking to other survivors of this abuse please check out the website John a support forum roll on there it's a place where you can share your thoughts and ideas you can share your knowledge and experiences I didn't really know what this video was going to be going to be about I just felt like you know we're probably gonna hit a hundred K tomorrow so I wanted to do something different I don't really know what else can we do to celebrate 100,000 subscribers I do have a lot of good videos planned for the week if there's anything you'd like to see just drop it in the comments I don't know if you know but every morning I spend up to one hour reading all of the comments from the past 24 hours every comment that's ever been posted on the channel probably tens of thousands of comments I've read them all every one of them and I do try to reply to as many as I can too so when you post the comment on the videos I am reading it I do to take the time to read what you have to say I think that's very important because of course this channel is about narcissism and I wouldn't be a good role model for this if I didn't listen to you the viewers the people who comment on the videos so of course I have to take the time out each day to do that it's a very important part of my day moonlight says make more vlogs I haven't shared this with anyone yet but I have been thinking about doing a travel vlog over the next few months like hopefully once this covid thing is all over I'll be able to travel the world again and hopefully I can take you all with me my trips I think I'll probably create a separate channel for that Vaughn said it would be interesting if you ran a live 24-7 on your channel and paths to meet up and chat to form a community actually there is a support forum which is available 24 hours of the day it's on our new website www.naxify.uk so do check out the website join a support forum I'm on there myself I'm reading all of your posts personally I'm replying to your posts so if you've got any questions about narcissism whatever it is I am on there I'm reading everything that's posted so yeah it's you know it's definitely a good place to be and of course I'm putting new blog posts on the website it's usually at least one every week so yeah definitely check out the website www.naxify.uk just out here in Scotland rented this lovely four bedroom cottage with views of the river down there at a hot tub just out you're relaxing OB1 asks what time is it is it here it's 9 15 p.m. yeah it's good to just take some time out just relax and practice self-care you've got to have some time to get away from the noise well you can just think for yourself instead of constantly being in reaction mode after this I will be heading up to the north west of Scotland I'm going to Scotland's biggest island the Isle of Sky and I will have many pictures and videos to come from there which you'll be able to see on my Instagram knock survivor YouTube so if you're not following me on there yet do check it out I've already got loads of pictures and videos for my travels here in Scotland and I will have more when I go up to the north west in the Isle of Sky it's a very beautiful place Richard Branson's sister owns the neighbouring island which I was going to stay there but I really like some of the attractions in the sky so that's where I'll be headed anyway I'd just like to thank you all for joining this live video I think tomorrow maybe we will be celebrating 100,000 subscribers so if you haven't subscribed yet please start subscribing and maybe we'll reach it sooner than we expect thank you all for joining this live and have a good day or night depending on where you are


With thearat cassette album on paper Welcome Back We've been waiting so long to open the doors You the audience are able to join us remotely We're inside the library and the library's reading rooms are open and you've also still got time to catch our amazing exhibition UN-FINISH'd business The Fight for Women's Rights so we've been dying to get back in and what better way to celebrate than with the Jalak Prize today will elead us on that Jalak journey Gweithio'r llyfrgyrch, y profesor yn ystod, Sonny Sing, y cofawr yn ysgolwyr a ysgolwyr yng Nghymru a'r llyfrgyrch yn ysgolwyr. Mae'n fawr i'r fawr i'r fawr, ac yn ystod yn ei ddweud. Ddweud i'r fawr. Ddweud i'r fawr i'r fawr i'r fawr anhygoel. Yn y gweithio'r ysgolwyr, mae'n ddweud i'r fawr i'r ddweud. Mae'n ddweud i'r fawr gan gweithio'm gredig gwesti nin posi уже ar gyflwyno'n rhan, ac dal da dyma ar gyfer eu rhannu pelhau nhw i chi. Snoddystdu diwrnodau am yr anhygoel. byddwn ni gŵr o'r dweud. Ddi fod, ymddiech eu geist mediadol a chan gael ei ddweud ac ymdditadau yn awr rhaid. IDly, confused a'r gylligeu telet Ìsig, of brilliant writers of a Britain that is complicated, international, multicultural, a Britain that is not only home to incredible writers of colour but also fertile ground where we create our stories, root our imaginations and imagine a nation and a world that is different from what has gone on before. The Jelloc Prize is an annual literary prize for British or British resident writers of colour. It was established in 2016, founded by me and Nikeshukla in conjunction with Media Diversified and supported by the Historic Authors Club. It is a unique celebration of the rich array of exceptional work from writers of colour, whether it be fiction, non-fiction, short stories, graphic novels or poetry. The prize is uniquely also open to self-published writers. A new sister award, the Jelloc Children's and YA Prize, was announced in 2020 and will be awarded for the first time today. It is open to a broad church of picture books, chapter books, graphic novels, poetry and non-fiction, all intended for children and young adults. Both of our awards provide £1,000 to the winner and of course a uniquely created work of art by a British or British resident artist of colour. The previous winners for the Jelloc Prize are 2017 Jacob Ross, Rennie Edo Lodge in 2018, Guy Gunnarutne for our in our Mad and Furious City in 2019. I should probably also mention titles for this, but let's continue. And Johnny Pitts for Afropian in 2020. Just a quick note, we are entirely administered by volunteers, so thank you Jamila Amed, Tashmere Owen and Hamza Chahanzeb and various supporters who prefer not to be named. And thank you to the anonymous donor who has extended our funding for the next five years, so I'm glad to announce that today. Thank you also to British Library for hosting us, to National Book Tokens for the support for the prize and to our Books to Readers program. And thank you to our 12 bookshop champions, independent bookshops who have been championing a title each from our two short lists for these past weeks. Now in Hindi and many related North Indian dialects, Jelloc means glimpse, implicitly brief, often tantalising with promise, peaking curiosity to explore further. It is in South Asian Sufi literature also a glimpse of the beloved of the divine. Our winners, short lists, long lists are just this. A Jelloc, a glimpse into the bounty of literary creativity, inventiveness and creation by writers of colour in Britain. And next hour we'll provide just that, a glimpse into this wealth of writing being produced in this country. So first of all, we will start by talking to two of our judges. I welcome Louis Daughty who was a judge for the fifth Jelloc prize and Candy Gorlay who was on the panel for the inaugural Jelloc Children's and Young Adult Prize. Many of you will know Louise. She's an internationally acclaimed author of nine novels. Her Blackwater was nominated as one of the New York Times notable books of the year. Apple Tree Yard was a number one bestseller and adapted into a four-part drama for BBC. Whatever You Love was nominated for Costa Novel Award and the Orange Prize. Her list of nominations for awards is truly extraordinary. She's also the author of two historical works of fiction which are based on the history of the Roma people and her own Romani ancestry. Her work has been translated into 30 languages. Candy is a writer for children and young adults. Her latest book is a comic biography illustrated by Tom Knight of the explorer Ferdinand Magellan who happens to have been credited with discovering the Philippines. Her novel Bone Talk was shortlisted for the Carnegie Mellon medal and the Costa Prize in 2019. Her picture book is it a mermaid illustrated by Francesca Chesa was nominated for the Kate Greenway medal. Her novels have also been listed for the Waterstones, the Blue Peter and the Guardian Children's Book Prize. So welcome both of you. Thank you. Thanks Senni. Thank you. And I'm going to start with you Louise. The Chalock judges discussions are master classes of literature and of writing. I sit as an observer and learn so much. Their discussions are nuanced and informed and rigorous and wide-ranging and it's such a treat to just sit quietly in the corner and listen. But can you tell us a little bit about this past these past months of reading and judging from your end? Well the book started coming in thick and fast before Christmas which was wonderful and in fact I have a quite hilarious relationship with my postman. Basically if there's a jiffy bag for anyone in our street he just brings it to my door. He says oh Louise more books for you. I think I gave him a bit of a hernia actually but we had I think it was around 150 and we all read completely independently myself, Peter and Yvonne, my fellow judges. We didn't really collude. Occasionally we would put something on a spreadsheet which you did so brilliantly. I'm such a klutz I don't know how to use a spreadsheet so I never put my opinions up. But what was extraordinary is that when we finally started sharing our favourites to move towards a long list just how much agreement there already was. We all we had personal favourites but there was a huge amount of crossover without any collusion between us at all which does suggest there is some kind of objective process at work and with each of our meetings I mean you say it was a masterclass I couldn't agree more. I went in full of thoughts brimming of things I wanted to say and then Peter or Yvonne would say something and I think oh yes you're completely right I must go back to that book and every single book of theirs which hadn't been on my original list to put forward I went back to I saw new things in. It was really a complete joy to judge and I've judged a lot of prizes and I've never had as much fun as I did with this one. That's always what we want to hear and Candy you judged the very first children's and young adult award so in a sense you and your fellow judges were setting the boundaries and values for this prize. What were some of the ideas and thoughts and concerns that you and your fellow judges had about this? Well in the first place it was like a panic because how are you supposed to judge picture books against young adult books, younger fiction, there was a wordless book, it was just like a range of books and how are you going to pick one book out of all of them and it was very helpful when you sent it as an email quite early on you sent us an email saying Catherine Johnson was a judge in a previous Jalach prize and she said something like what you've got to do is you look at every book in terms of its field and decide whether that is outstanding in its field and that was great that was really really helpful I put as the books came in I piled them up picture books on one side non-fiction chapter books middle grade younger fiction young adult and then I read them against each other and the next bit was it was even more difficult because they're all wonderful I am I am such a fan of children's books I'm addicted to them and I wanted to shortlist all the picture books for example I mean how are you supposed to pick they're beautiful they're illustrated and then you read the young adult books and you realize that these authors have poured their hearts and souls into these books and you imagine the readers one of the things that differentiates us I think from the from the adult prize is we had to constantly imagine the readers you know you imagine the parents reading those picture books the children you imagine the teenager reading this book and wanting to read it again and again and again and seeing themselves in the book you imagine the middle grade reader going on an adventure stealing an elephant and that was what we had to to do and then the final bit which was after having made that shortlist we then had to decide against you know this whole range of the shortlist is up behind us and you know you had you had a younger fiction you had a historical fiction you had a mystery book you had a picture book how do you decide and well I don't know I don't know how we decided it's a mystery the mystery now we were I'm going to ask you about the mystery both panels selected incredibly strong long lists and then somehow managed to decide on a shortlist that was even stronger somehow not sure how they did that and then hopefully tonight picked a winner I know that all the judges have their own criteria but can you tell us a little bit louise about what you looked for when you were long listing and short listing and finally today picking a winner well candy's quite right I think it was really helpful when you reminded us that the main thing is does a book succeed within its own terms within the category that it is because of course your prize had great range and we also had fiction nonfiction poetry the nonfiction included personal memoir it included fantastic works of scholarship and history how do you set that aside next to say a new voice in poetry that's startling you have to look at it in its own terms but I think at the most basic level once you've got it down to a long list you are down to personal reaction is this a book that you think about when you've not actually got it in your hands is it a book that you want to press upon other people is it a book that you read and find yourself forgetting that you're judging a literary prize because you're so absorbed in the book and that was true of all our long list and then after that of course it just gets harder and harder and harder and I can't emphasise how agonising it was at each stage to leave books out it was agonising to get to the long list there were huge numbers of brilliant books we had to leave out it was even more agonising to get to a short list and excruciating to get down to a winner you you feel so much for you just want to give the prize so many times yeah I completely understand that it's always been agonising to to go through there's so many great books um Kenny and one of the ideas one of the thoughts I was asked about because you know you also had um a complex process it was a very difficult year um out of the three judges Verna Wilkins who'd done an immense amount of reading um had to you know then step back because of personal reasons this has been a year full of difficulties and personal losses and a lot of complexity um how was that how did that work what were some of the the best parts and the worst parts of the judging process in this year especially as you say it was quite a quite a year I think for everybody everybody but amongst the judges we had personal losses you know my it was it was not a great year but the the the reading was was a saving grace actually and there were exciting things about the submissions for example we had all of these children's books that across a range of different types that were addressing historical moments that had never been spoken about that had not been recorded before and some authors making some really interesting choices for example um Cain Warriors by Alex Whittle in which he decided he took he took on board you know how um uh Toni Morrison says uh we must we must try to not look at our books through the white gaze and he decided to use the language he used he used language actual patois from Jamaica which was difficult to read but such a courageous choice you know and very challenging you know for the teenage writer um there was a lot of the queen of freedom which is shortlisted by Catherine Johnson also did the same thing but for a younger reader and so there's all kinds of exciting stuff like that there was a wealth of history and there was also a lot of picture books that I had not realized um uh had been created in in that kind of world where which addressed nonfiction it was just such an exciting list and the middle grade books huge it was a treasure trove that was really really difficult because there were a whole bunch of them that could have been prize winners in any other prize I think that's been the toughest part and I think it always seems to we always feel sorry for everything that is left out and not I shouldn't say sorry I feel terribly sad and sorrowed and sort of grief I have these books on my desk and I kind of caress them and hug them and you know and sort of want to hang on to them um but thank you both of you um we want to turn our attention now to the next step of the of today's um evening and um we will turn our attention to our two artists in residence of the year Amber Coker and routine Burton who have created the unique works that serve as the cellic prize trophies this year since to 2018 the prize commissions a British artist of color to create a work of art from this very same brief each year this year we have added a second residency for our children's and young adult prize of a children's illustrator another another group of people uh who are hugely talented enormous numbers of illustrators of color in in this country who are not represented at the way they deserve in the publishing industry so we hope the the second residency will give that a boost but before I ask them to come up I want to turn to a celebration of our 12 bookshop champions the 12 independent bookshops across the country who have supported a title each from our two shortlists they introduced the shortlist books and they tell us what they love most about them so over to you I'm Dan from Story Smith here in Bristol and we need to tell you just what a pleasure it's been recommending this incredible YA novel uh to our customers booksellers love nothing more than a book that asserts itself on the shelf and this book uh Danielle Joando's and the stars were burning brightly uh it does exactly that it resists the urge to talk down to its audience it's got a direct current story and it's just most importantly an effortless read you know a lesser book would take subjects like suicide grief familial upheaval and caricature of them but what Danielle's done here is treat them with respect with bigger with energy and for those reasons and for standing out on our shelves uh we wish Danielle all the luck for the Jallak prize uh Bristol is behind you fantastic book can't wait to see how you get on I'm Dirda from Five Leaves Bookshop and I had the pleasure of interviewing Kareen about her wonderful book when life gives you mangos I hope it wins the Jallak prize it's a great read and any seven to eleven year old will love the story of Clara it celebrates friendship family and community it's set in the Caribbean but anyone could enjoy us I loved us I'm sure you will I'm Vivian from Ewan Bookshop and very proud to be championing the Jallak prize with the first woman by Jennifer Nansabuga McCombie we are absolutely thrilled to be championing this book this is her second novel we did really really well with Kintu and this one is a winner it's Ugandan folklore with modern feminism and from Newham Bookshop we have our fingers crossed as do our customers and really hope that this one is a winner Katie Massies are we home yet nominated for this year's Jallak prize it is a memoir that takes us from Leeds at the turn of the last century to contemporary Jamaica it's a moving intimate portrait of a young woman trying to figure out her place in the world to understand her racial identity and to re-establish her relationships with her mother and it's clever it's funny it's beautifully written and uh we just wanted to wish Katie all the best from everybody here at October Book we love this book and we hope you will too I'm Ellen from Griffin Books and we love Inferno by Catherine Cho it's a really honest depiction of Catherine's struggle with postpartum psychosis which is a really underreported topic good luck Catherine We want to say a massive congratulations to Catherine Johnson for getting shortlisted for the Jallak prize on this historic fifth year so from everybody at the Hastings Bookshop and all of our customers we want to say well done Catherine what a great achievement for those of you who don't know about the book it is an amazing true adventure for children set around the slave revolt in Jamaica and focusing on the historic figure of Queen Nanny of the Maroons uh really can't recommend it enough and everyone at Hastings Bookshop just wants to say well done from most books an award-winning independent bookshop in Abingdon on Thames Oxfordshire we've been so happy to have customers back through our doors and to add to our excitement we are so thrilled to be supporting the Jallak prize this year and championing My Darling from the Lions by Rachel Lung we are so thrilled to be supporting this particular title because it heralds the emergence of a really important and wonderful new voice in poetry we love her poems because they force us to reflect on important issues such as cultural inheritance and sexual politics surrounding ideas of womanhood while written in a voice that we think is deeply personal and simply buzzes with life and heart we are so happy to be part of the Jallak prize this year and wish everyone shortness it a huge huge good luck thank you okay welcome back um and thank you to all our bookshop champions and also a shout out to pages of Hackney who have been working so very hard to champion Rumberland and this incredibly powerful collection of poetry and thematic for homesickness and now welcome to our two Jallak artists in residence for the year um the Jallak art residency was born in 2018 when the best-selling novelist Dorothy Coomson suggested that the winner received something beyond a check Dorothy sponsored that first trophy which was duly handed over to René-Edo Lodge from that initial idea the annual residency was born each year an artist of color is commissioned to create a unique work of art that serves as a trophy for the Jallak prize 2021 sees the expansion of the residency to a children's book illustrator to create a trophy for the new children's and young adult prize the artist in residence received the same brief each year so this year both our artists received the same brief and are free to interpret it as they wish in order to create art that addresses the ethos principles and goals of the Jallak prize the aim of the residency as with the Jallak prize is to shine a light on artists of color in contemporary Britain to recognize their creative output and to celebrate their work previous artists have included the ceramic artist Chris Bramble who drew on the decolonized ethos of the prize in the first year and created a defiant figure who as he said stands on the on our books that the colonize has burnt and hold up the stories that we continue to create Chris also provided the foundations for our brief 2019 trophy was created by the artist activist and writer Tashmia Owen who worked in resin battling a life threatening illness Owen worked on the sculpture in her kitchen creating a piece that embodies creative courage and resilience the 2020 trophy was created by the Tehran-born artist neda kuchaki yn ffordd in air drawing clay made necessary as the pandemic shut down anywhere that clay could be fired the sculpture eventually dried on her radiator this year's artists in residence are ruthene Burton an artist and illustrator living in london ruthene aren't a bachelor bachelor of arts degree in visual arts from abry swith university and is currently a mentee on the pathways into children's publishing program art illustration creativity have always been ruthene's first love she drew portraits at craft markets before entering computer games industry as an animator and an artist her illustration practice is based on her love of real paper paint and pastels with a touch of digital thrown in she likes to work in two distinct ways color pencil on paper followed by some post production digital post production or drawing digitally then coloring and texturing using multiple media such as photographs digitized fabrics and textures we will hear more about this work when we come to her and amber coker amber is a london artist and designer her art addresses contemporary themes and issues using traditional motifs and traverses a range of media and styles amber studied at st martins central st martins and has exhibited widely across the world she has executed a formidable array of commissions including the design for 40 meters by six meter carpet for the buckingham palace and stained glass library ceilings at dumfries house scotland she also has created interior designs and features of bespoke royal rolls Royce phantom standard and the phantom cube that's it's quite extraordinary um her design projects include amnesty international joy and pink floyd record cover logos for the young designer center designer center design center and three posters for the act up mark internet act up marking international aids day i'm so sorry for that stumble um amber's practice is extraordinary drawing from both traditional and contemporary elements media and styles so coming over to you um i'm going to start rustin with you um you've created this incredible piece of work would you hold it up so we could possibly take a look a closer look and this goes to the first winner of the children's and young adults prize that we will announce soon um how did you feel creating this art from a rather strange loose brief about ethics and ideas and principles of a literary prize um really excited when I when you told me I was going to be off of the brief um and then goodness I was I then proceeded to think okay how do I interpret this I've got to do something amazing um you know it's for the jalec prize so I was very excited and then very nervous and then thought start with just just sort of bring it back to the jalec prize itself read up about it go to the website look at what they're trying to achieve look at what the concepts and ideas are behind the jalec prize and really take it from there I mean I that's what I did I just thought take it back to the the basics the jalec prize itself and the same question to you Amber because you again I I know of your work from before I know of the cypresses and and the the incredible tile work um with the the geometric ones so I expected completely different something from you and you've created this extraordinary work with multiple forms and a bit of pure gold for those of you who are listening overseas especially India um in the middle of it oh well I think the most important thing was uh number one you gave me an excuse in a difficult time to celebrate um so I wanted this uh piece of artwork to have that feeling of celebration within within it so gold gold at the centre so for me gold is uh you know kind of represents uh perfection of matter then we have uh it's hugely hugely symbolic all of it I put some poetry in there from um Rita Pritam so she talks about the glimpse or jalec as well so it tied in with the uh idea of the prize and then there's uh it's surrounded by um stars uh which were all filled and based on maps with um uh from from different perspectives but um the united kingdom is in there in all of them so I really took your brief to heart I feel okay it's it's actually quite extraordinary because I'm not sure if you can see it at home um on on the camera would you lift that up please just let us know because it's the it's extraordinary in in the middle of these really complex works is very fine writing underlying um everything so this incredible images for both of you you've you've kind of incorporated text in beautiful interesting ways um now I want to ask both of you so I'm going to start with your routine one question will you tell us because frankly as as a writer um art is kind of a mysterious mystical magical process um how did you make it what what went can you give us a little glimpse into the techniques um okay so the process for making it I mean I always start with I mean a needing a concept needing something to ground the idea in so and um my initial ideas were around I wanted to show the magic of reading the magic that I remember from my childhood so that was very important to bring that in I thought about flying books and eventually the idea of the origami birds was actually given to me by my mentor on pathways Rachel Ball which is fabulous I was talking about my flying books with children riding on them and she said what about origami birds fantastic I ran with it and then that that um the idea of the origami birds meant that I have to practically just make them because if I'm going to draw them I've got to make them look properly like origami birds in the in the final artwork so I made various origami birds googled it um came up with pages on how to make them um picked one drew it at different angles you know so script lots and lots of scribbly roughs on paper that's my initial process that then um more scribbly roughs with the children riding different birds at different angles and then start with the composition so initially I'm just working completely on paper just doing lots of scribbles and lots of roughs trying to get an idea of the background an idea of what I'm trying to do um and then gradually bring it into the digital arena most of the color work was done digitally but lots of it is actually scanned in watercolor washes um watercolor washes of the children um of their that that is watercolor washes of the of the art um bring it back into the that gets scanned back in again so this is there's a kind of twoing and throwing between working on paper and paints and pencil and color pencil scanning in working digitally shifting colors until I reach a point where I think that'll do and it's magic so thank you for that thank you very much and I'm going to ask you the same question a little bit about the process I know we're we're we're getting the waves but um we have some time so would you tell us a little bit about how how did that come about the magical bits well I start with geometry so I have uh you have the um vertical line coming from heaven to earth the um eternal circle so that's initially where the drawing starts from that uh I did I tend to use natural pigments so there's a bit of grinding going on and mixing this with gum arabic and various other mediums the gold was quite a challenge um I did have a go at using a garlic juice and then decided I would back off um and then went for uh there's 23.5 carat gold leaf on there um which is a real joy to work with um it did fly around uh the space as I was working so what I tend to do is grab it and eat it because I think it's good for me I'm just hoping they didn't put any weird stuff in there maybe gum arabic but that's edible don't eat most of my paints though I wouldn't recommend it but um so more or less uh that's that's what was happening I use a particularly fine brush um it has a long history um it's a squirrel hair brush so it's slightly curved and I think the only places you can get them from at the moment are Pakistan and India of the particular type that I'm after um so it's uh yeah so it I mean I do love to work with natural mediums so thank you it's it's always been extraordinary to watch this this come together um and I think that's one of the the the last questions or perhaps one of the final questions I want for you is to get some sense of um what you feel about the the this residency about this link between writing and arts and in your case perhaps closer because you are an illustrator and hopefully we'll be doing lots of magical books that will come through to the children's and young adult prize for consideration but um so routine first to you so what I think about the yeah what did you how did you link what what do you make of the link should you know how you feel about developing it further where do you think we should go we always think that we should take advice from people who'd you know create work oh goodness um where would where should it go I think that um um I guess the brief was very open I mean it leaves the artist open to you know enormous interpretation um in terms of how you then take your brief how what you want to do with it I genuinely think that taking it back to the basics of what the Jalloc prize is about about the um the joy of reading um the hope that reading gives um and I think that the art the art residency exploring those things in art exploring those concepts exploring those hopes and dreams and I think is where I would take it I think I like that I think I think we need a bit of hopes and dreams at this point in our times over to you Amber for the same question um well for me it's quite beautiful um text and image I think it's a perfect marriage I mean it's a tradition uh of illustrating books and for me uh I you know I do enjoy poetry I enjoy reading so it's very so easy to be inspired by these magical words and what I really like is that you've opened this uh residency up so it's not just sculptural pieces it's uh you know works of art on paper and I would um I'm not really sure where you're going to go sound installation next I'm not you know spoken word it's like you know it's there's there's there's a huge amount of scope so it was a very beautiful brief particularly to be given a poem you know by yourself so that was lovely um for those of you wondering about the poem that Amber has incorporated it's um rytab ritham um my address or in Hindustani and Punjabi Merapatal which is which is about where artists may be found and where they live and as she says they can be found wherever there are free souls so um thank you for that um I think we're ready to um think about our winners now so I wanted to announce uh first the children's um young adult um children's and young adult prize it is the first award um a quick look at the short list but I wanted to go through what some of our judges had said um the guard picture alphabet Candy Girl had called it surprising and delightful window into another language when life gives you mangos Kiran called it a gorgeous tale that gets deeper and richer with each read and the stars were burning brightly Candy said Daniel Javando powerfully and unflinchingly tells the story that sends you to the depths then raises you up again queen of freedom Kiran called it a vivid heart-thumping call to arms eight pieces of silver Candy called it an astounding feat of astounding feat of writing and a fox called Herbert Kiran called it truly brilliant storytelling brimming with intent and feeling um I also want to um spend some time and I seem to have misplaced some of my paperwork so I'm going to do this a little bit off the top of my head but um anti-ematic for homesickness um Peter called it um an extraordinary work a powerhouse a tour de force are we home yet um Louise called it um Louise couldn't believe is this a debut how could it be so effortless uh the first woman words um literary giant were bandied about inferno searing burning absolutely truthful rainbow milk um oh this is um this involves Jeanette winter winterstone and acid was it was this appropriate I think I'm gonna I'm gonna hold off on it and my darling from the lions um by Rachel Lung which was commended for its honesty for its power and its insight um our winners are this time for the first time two winners the inaugural winner of the cellar children's and young adult prize patrice laurence for eight pieces of silver and for the fifth cellar prize jennifer nonsubiga mcumbi for the first woman if these works cannot be praised enough by the judges patrice for doing something and I quote no other writer is doing or even capable of um and of course as I said before the words a literary giant lives amongst us was used for jennifer over and over judges spoke about how much they admired these two works how much they learned from them about imagery form and language these were incredibly difficult decisions to make given the strength of the shortlist and at the end the choices were made with immense admiration respect and love for the craft art and the formidable level of mastery not only of the two winners but our entire shortlist so congratulations patrice jennifer I'm sorry I'm waving and going where is my champagne I wish we were here I can give a hug um and um over to you jennifer first to you um to hear from you this incredible potential future classic masterpiece tell us oh it's unbelievable you know first of all can I say thank you to to the judges but also thank you to um the people who started at this wonderful prize because so much is going on in the margins within the margins in England and in Britain and within those margins are so many things from all the way from Iraq to Iran to China to Saudi Arabia to Africa all that leaves in the margin and sometimes it's not shine and I like it's not shown on it such a prize goes in there and and pulls it out and shows it to the world so uh thank you to the people who came up with a fantastic idea of a prize for writers of colour and um thank you as well to my publisher one word and the theme uh that uh got this book prepared and believed enough in it to submit to submit it to the jelloch prize and can I say congratulations jelloch a prize on your fifth um year of existence and for having won a new prize as well because so far the first year you have achieved so much and have got so many voices and so many different books and worlds into the limelight I think that is fantastic so I'm really overjoyed and very happy to join and the former winners and also to join this world of jelloch a prize thank you so much and we have patrice do we have patrice online patrice you of course your first book was long listed for our first award back in 2016 so over to you congratulations welcome back thank you it's a real pleasure and I think I mean to echo a thing to Jennifer said it's such a joy that this prize started five years ago anyway and I know some of the struggles that you and nikesh had with it and to keep forwarding them ahead in such difficult times but to add the extra of doing the children with them and that was fun but also the fact that he listens and found where it is that um a book written for children teenagers could compete equally with a book for adults and to set up another one and I think you know that your five years anniversary has come after an incredibly difficult years of people of colour it's obviously the anniversary of George Floyd Floyd's murder with how they sort of hated against people of East Asia South East Asia that are heritage plus all this sort of later racism that's happening this sort of race report that's almost divided as a as a society so the fact that is this prize here this work that brings us all together from our various diasporas and gets these books out and he's absolutely fantastic independent booksellers who have done astonishing work in championing our books and supporting us in a way that is just you know when people talk about what was diversity they just talk about it even if these booksellers have actually done it in times that have been obviously quite difficult then so you know appreciate that so thank you Sonny thank you thank you thank you Kieran and Andy thank you Fent on the books library for putting the idea in my head by saying I've fed up with tragic lesions and that's thank you for my daughter for letting me play device her and the life and her friends nice and put them in books and thank you for that amazing Sophie there's a there's a hook and a sort of black space and wall just over there where that's going to go so thank you really appreciated oh that's really wonderful I think we have um some some time to hear from the judges who uh who can't be here hi I'm Yvonne Battlefelton if you haven't yet read Jennifer Nansabuga McCumbies the first woman you are in for a treat if you have then you probably already know what I'm about to say the first woman is a beautifully woven intricate novel weaving together family history traditions cultural norms history and more it's a story about beginnings and endings closure and possibilities friendship and identity family and war told with compassion humor and a strong narrative voice it is an extraordinary accomplishment the characters are complex their stories are full of regrets mistakes and hope by the time you finish this book you're full you're sustained by a well told story full of vivid imagery rich characters and lush language that just trips off the tongue the first woman is an invitation into a world of characters stories in place I'm sure you'll enjoy it as much as I did hello I'm Kieramode Hargrave one of the judges of the inaugural Jalak Children and Young Adult Book Award and this was such a difficult decision and then again not at all we had so many exceptional entries that we had to whittle down into a long list and then into our incredible shortlist and finally of course we are lighted upon our truly exceptional winner eight pieces of silver by patrice laurence it's no secret that patrice is an exceptional storyteller but with eight pieces of silver I really think that she's outdone herself she's created something that is so absolutely of the moment speaking exactly to the teens that it is meant for but also I believe thanks to its themes of family and identity and growing up we'll endure for many many years to come and it's that quality that finally sets it apart that immediacy that urgency combined with that longevity that meant that we really couldn't pick anything else to be our winner in jennifer announce a boogam a combi we have a giant of literature living among us the first woman is of ambitious architecture intricately intertwined subplot and has magnetic tender vindictive generous also human characters whose journeys through the stories of the novel moved even me this block of stone known as me to tears my combi is a supremely gifted writer and the first woman is an astonishing accomplishment check it out for yourself and that's all from us um there's a glass of champagne because it wouldn't be a jollic prize without it so cheers enjoy celebrate cheers cheers congratulations to our winners


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and AM 6 20 I'm gonna talk a little actually bucks and NFL later today I know we got excited about that with our guy Hassan Khan. Yeah next segment did the video on Mike behind the scenes You you guys are in in gals for a treat because I thought there's really some cool things that came out in that jet Yeah, we were pre-recorded it before the show today to be able to get it all in but there's some stuff about the Negotiations with Mike Evans and the buccaneers that we have not heard yet So make sure you tune in after this thing don't go anywhere stay here. We're talking late.  Don't go nowhere But there's some new things on there, man that Zach and I both looked at each other when we had the Scooby-Doo And let's bring in our guy Hassan Khan at time to football on Twitter slash ex He's the guy that put together that incredible video that the that behind the scenes look of Mike Evans Resigning with the buccaneers Hassan. What's going on buddy? How are you today? Doing great. I'm blessed. Thanks for having me Yeah, of course, man. Listen the video crushed it It's just so cool to give a behind-the-scenes look of a guy that nobody wanted anywhere to nobody in the Bay Area Wanted him to leave and luckily it was all worked out. Just tell us a little bit about yourself What's your background? What got you into doing something like this to be a Independent journalist covering NFL players and telling their stories Yeah, so My life I just wanted to talk about football for a living. That's it as broad as that sounds I don't care in what capacity. It could have been in the commentary booth. It could have been in silent reporting studio show Whatever that's what I wanted to do so I decided to go to a four-year college get a journalism degree and I'm sure you guys can attest to this but trying to break into the sports journalism world It is very very difficult. Oh, yeah, you have to Either know the right people or you have to be really really hot and I didn't know anyone and there's a reason why this is a radio interview right now, so But After two years of trying to apply for jobs and trying to get a sports journalism job No one was giving me a shot. So I was doing YouTube on the side while I was in college just for fun Just to get experience and I thought to myself. Hey, this is making just a tiny bit of money What if I put all my eggs in one basket and went down that route, you know I'm still trying to work my way up and then Derek Gilmore of day one Mike's agent I was just sending a bunch of cold emails out probably to like 50 sports agents And I probably only heard back from three two of them said no and one of them said yes I would love to do something with you and thankfully that was Derek and I've been working with him for four years and that just kind of evolved from working with the draft Prospects and interviewing them that he's brought on to his team to finally getting a chance to sit down and have that That opportunity to interview Mike and we made a pretty pretty awesome feature talking about his contract Yeah, and on that feature if y'all haven't checked it out Definitely do so really good look behind the scenes at number 13 sticking around here in Tampa Bay You know What was kind of Mike's reaction and thought process when he heard that you know you wanted to kind of create this video? Well, so funny thing about Mike is the day the day that we interviewed him It was the day that he actually signed the contract So we got footage of that talked to Jason light and he had the whole press conference as well So he was booked with all these interviews. He had to do the press conference He had to do things with the internal team. He had local media in Tampa that he had I was the very last person that he talked to he was so busy that When I said everything up He walked in and the first thing that he said was all right. How long is this gonna take? I'm like, hey Hassan Khan nice to meet you Mike. He was like, oh my bad Mike. Nice to meet you You know, it's just been a long day. I'm like totally understand man But I kind of told him about the future what we're doing and and he was he was awesome He was awesome about it. He was all in and what I really love about him is his answers are just so genuine He doesn't put on a front try to give you a PR answer like when you ask him a question He'll tell you straight up what the truth is behind every answer So he reacted really well to to the idea of the feature Yeah, tell us a little bit more about the feature and why you went about it the way it did like it was this was his agent Derek Gilmore was he saying like hey, we want to videotape the whole process And how does that help Derek in the future? Is this one of those things where you kind of show other athletes other perspective professionals like hey This is how the process is gonna go We're gonna keep everything above board and and everything top-notch Yeah, so it was actually an idea that I pitched to him Because I've been working with him for probably about four years now And it's been just draft prospects that are kind of like those of low-round picks to Undraft it just kind of need their name out there So he likes the idea of me making videos for them making features for them so that he can send it to NFL teams And then just kind of working my way up and I was like hey, I know that my Gevins is your client But it's kind of hard to get in with with the top guys So I pitched the idea to him like listen, this is a good opportunity if you want me to cover this contract Hims him signing it behind the scenes look I think it'd be a pretty good video and he liked the work that I did and he was like yeah Sure, let's let's do it So we flew out to Tampa that day and did the whole thing, but as far as day one goes Yeah, absolutely. I feel like this is gonna help him out a lot. He's over already such a great guy He takes care of his guys. He's very responsive like I mentioned out of all the agents that I emailed he Right away emailed me back And with his guys he takes care of them And I believe that this feature is gonna do a really good job and help promoting him and getting more Clients on board with him and I feel like this is just the beginning for day one Yeah, and while you were kind of putting this all together and you were compiling all this footage What what one piece of information kind of stuck out to you that you got that maybe caught you off guard or made you like Wide in your eyes when somebody said it through the process So as far as like something that cotton caught me off guard. Are you talking about what Mike said or anybody? I know you talked to Jason light to the GM and Gilmore the agent So like it really well done piece. There was a lot of coverage in there any of their comments throughout that you were like Oh damn Yeah, so you get a Idea behind the scenes of everything that's going on I can go back to the deadline process because this is actually when the idea of creating a feature Started was back in August of 2023 when Mike set that deadline like hey We got to get this deadline done before the season Otherwise, I'm gonna explore free agency. I remember Asking for an interview because I was down in Tampa and asking Derek Hey, is it okay if I get an interview with Mike and Derek said No, not right now because let me let you in on a little bit of thing a little bit of something that's going on right now And it's the fact that we're in its contract dispute. Don't tell anyone yet, but I'm gonna set a deadline And he was just kind of like venting to me like yeah, this is what's going on with The buccaneer is in us and we're kind of like four million apart right now We've been talking about this for two years. So I'm just at a point right now We're just gonna set a deadline and then if it doesn't happen We'll think about it later. We'll see what the future holds, but just seeing things like that happen like getting Inside info before things were actually released That that kind of opened my eyes a lot to oh crap This is actually a pretty cool process that I want to document Hassan from your experience from your vantage point to Derek and Mike feel like this job with that this deal was ultimately gonna get Done, you know to be honest with you When I spoke with him when that deadline was set I got the idea that It wasn't happening.  Are you serious about going somewhere else? And he said no, I mean the bucks are actually they're still an option But the ball's in their court and so Jason from the interview that we had with him in the feature He was very adamant and he said listen. I know where Mike's at. I know where Derek's at But I'm gonna get this thing done and they got it done One of the other things that stuck out to me because we did a lot of speculation here And we even asked him that day after the signing like who else was calling what else was on the table? What other teams and in the future? It seemed like the state of Texas was kind of the other spot that he was looking to go Yep. Yep. Absolutely. I mean Mike. He's a Texas guy. I will say this You know, there's there's like a period where teams are allowed to talk to agents and players so there was talk around the combine of Okay, maybe these are the teams that Derek and Mike are looking towards signing with if it's an option of free agency But as far as my knowledge goes there was no like Talks with any of the teams during the combine. It was just like here's a list of teams Who we would like to play for Once that free agency period begins, but yeah, the state of Texas definitely one of those teams Yeah, the part in the interview where Gilmore said yeah I just imagined Mike with that Dallas Cowboys star in his chest made me throw up a little bit as a box for Border here, but it was interesting inside. It was interesting. Absolutely.  Well, that was definitely on the list The fact that the Rams that Derek brought up the Rams I'm like, I actually asked them like, hey, don't they have puka and Cup like how are they gonna get done? It's like, well the Rams love three wide receiver sets. So I mean, there was a lot of options Well, you did nail it my friend. Make sure you check him out time to football all over social media Thanks again, Hasan and we will if you have any other videos coming out Contact us and we'll do our best to share it with all of our listeners all of our viewers and continue success Man, keep in touch. I appreciate the sport. Thanks for happening. You got it Hassan Khan right there time it to football. What a great chat, man. That was awesome. Ah Chiefs Rams. Yeah Mind blown. That was why I'm blown. Yeah, we'll get into that a little bit later on


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