We get a free Assange, free Assange, free Assange. Let's move them. We should be alive. I'm just going to check and confirm. Refresh. There we are. Awesome, awesome, awesome. Hi everyone, this is Jichon. Welcome to my channel and welcome to another live stream. Today we're doing a meditation live stream per request and it's something that I promised to do a while ago. So seems like a good time to do winter coming along. And today, what is today? Today, today, today is December 17th, 2020. Okay. And it's 8 30 p.m. PDT West Coast Pacific Canada, United States time. Okay. And this is our first meditation stream. We've done one stream where we did an exercise stream, sort of a same setup to a certain degree, where I showed you some of my exercise routine. And I sort of phase in and out of that, and I add new more things and take some stuff up and change things up and stuff. But that's sort of the rhythm and rhyme of my exercise routine. Emily, how are you doing? I hope you're doing well. Should be a fun stream tonight, Emily. Really. I've been looking forward to this. We're going ballistic with the live streams and it's nice to kick it down a notch. Nice to kick it down a notch. And basically, this is our second live stream of a 14 set live stream we've been doing for a couple of weeks. Electric Shepherd 86. Good evening. Good evening. Cheryl, how are you doing? Hope you're doing well. I'm glad you're here. Okay, because I'm going to show people my Tai Chi meditation stance that I used to do and I've been wanting to get back into it. And I just haven't had the chance, so this might be a good time to do it. Holden Hoos, how are you doing? Thank you very much for the tier one sub. Yay, we've got 2020 victory little emote. Twitching Jason, how are you doing? I read medication live stream and first love out loud. I was like, whoa, this should be good. We'll save that for 420 brother. We'll save that for 420. Crack, how are you doing? Yo, evening all. Scooty six. Hello, hello. Welcome to a live stream. Awesome. And there's one thing I'm going to run past you. You have to correct me on this because I haven't done it for a number of years. And I'm pretty sure I have it right. But if I make any mistakes in my explanation of what I'm doing, Cheryl, please post the comment and I'll read it. I'll reference the comments, keep on coming back and you can correct the people on chat. And then when I read the comments, I'll correct what I've said. I'm pretty sure I might be doing a couple of things wrong because I'm just getting back into it. And by the way, gang, if you want to know when I really did this, it was 20 years ago. Okay, where I did this when I did it for the longest period. Okay. When I did it for the longest period. Rob Ross, how are you doing? Cheers, cheers, Madagras. Emily, 1000 points. We'll do. Awesome, Cheryl. Thank you very much. DJ register. Hello, hello. How are you doing? DJ register. What's your sound? Hold on. You have a sound cloud. Do I have my, ah, dude, I should have got the, I should have got this ready. Where is my sound cloud? Gang, if you want to follow some good music, here's DJ registers. Sound cloud page. Check this out. Okay. Here's DJ registers sound cloud page. And if you want some good music, check it out. She is a friend of mine. And I've danced to her music before. It's fantastic. Emily, Cheryl. Yeah. Nice. Nice. Nice. I had an interesting day. I will PM you. Okay. Awesome. People are hooking up. First time attending the stream. Bubble head boy 310. Welcome to our live stream. Happy to do it. Thanks for my pleasure, DJ register. Man, your music is good. I got to do it. Got to do it. Spider-Man, how are you doing? Thank you for Twitch Prime sub. Gang, I'm going to do my intro. Speedy Gonzales. Speedy Gonzales. That's Speedy Gonzales as meditation streams go. Gang, I'm on Patreon. If you want to support this work, if you want to follow this work, Patreon is a great way to do so. Okay. I don't put anything behind paywalls. Everything's great of commons. Share and share. I like, okay. I like Chuck Shepherd. I love your bookshelf and the corner behind you. Thank you. I built it. I built it. Do you like it? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's nice. I got some kick-ass books in there. Some sets and stuff. This side, this side down there below is records. This side up and all the top are my books. And this side is my partner's book. Books. Speedy Gonzales, Spider-Man. Nice. Good seeing you. Smile and face. Thanks, DJ. Register. Got to smile. Got to smile. Emily, if Twitch gets rid of the bees, I might seriously cry. What do you mean? They're too dark cute. The bees, are they getting rid of the bees?  Slow deal work. So watching while at work. Awesome. Awesome. Good stuff. I have more toilet paper. How are you doing? Hey Chitro, are you going for the unplugged stream tonight? Loving the candles. Thanks. You got to create a nice chill space. Elder God, how are you doing? Not seeing this view in ages. Yeah. Haven't done this view for a long time. Good to be back. Good to be back. Chitro, is this a 420 meditation?  He showed me how to do this meditation. And I'll give you the lowdown on it. And it's really good. Like again, it opens up your spine. It adjusts your back. Like it allows you to hit pinnacles. It kicks you to a certain state where like one of the times I had a huge breakthrough on this, I called him up. I was doing it at like 3.30 in the morning in Alberta time, 3.34 o'clock in the morning was doing it and it adjusted and it rejuvenates you. And I ended up calling my friend a Vancouver like we'll come up at 3.30 in the morning and just went holy shite man. This is insane. It's brilliant. Takes dedication to do. I don't want to get back into it. I want to make it a part of my routine. So I'm a little lagged behind. No worries spider man. 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Good. Thanks. Awesome, Tony. Awesome. Let me take this thing down. Okay. I hope you guys are doing well. I'm going to show you guys something that I incorporated part of my life a while ago and was a period where I was going through, I was doing a lot.   I'm stating it in terms of I was working on average about 12 hours a day and going out in the evenings for about anywhere between five to six, seven hours a day, sleeping for two to four hours and doing the whole thing for a few months, right? So I needed something to rejuvenate me. And I talked to my friend who did Tai Chi Bagua, his instructor, Shigong, and he did a lot of demonstrations and he did instruction and he's been incorporated down to his life for a long time. And the first set of videos I uploaded to my YouTube channel were actually sort of an anniversary dinner banquet that I went with him where his school was putting on and it was with master, I forget what his name is, and there was a lot of masters there doing performances and I videotaped it and uploaded that. So if you want to get a feel for what this is about, where the origin of this is, you can check out sort of the martial arts play list I have on my YouTube channel. And some of the videos I ended up shooting and some of the videos I uploaded, some of those people are some of the very well respected people around the world regarding Tai Chi, Bagua, Shigong, and some of the other martial arts. And I'm not on that level, not even close, I can't even consider myself to be doing any martial arts. I just got my friend, I learned the 24, almost the 24 movement for Tai Chi, the most basic movement for Tai Chi. And I did that for a while, but I was really gravitating towards the meditation I'm about to show you that my friend showed me how to do. And this is me getting back into this, trying to get back into this 20 years. I've done it off and on a little bit, try getting back into it. But basically this meditation, I'm about to show you. Okay, I'm going straight into it again, because it's important. And I like to sort of run a test. I know Cheryl does some of the stuff, see if I have my memory serves me right. So when I really got into it, it was about 20 years ago. Okay, 22 years ago, really, when I really got into this. And I'm just going to read the comments. Yeah, YouTube notifications are spotted the best. Indeed, YouTube is a Titanic. They are heading towards their destiny. Indeed, snack of the day to show. Snack of the day, I just got apples. I have more toilet paper, just apples. I'm not going to be really snacking because I'm going to be doing meditation. So I don't want to be digesting food when I'm meditating. And that's one thing you really don't want to do. Unless there's eating meditation, I don't know of or digesting meditations, which I'm pretty sure there is. Right. But as far as I'm concerned, if I'm going to be meditating, if I'm going to be really kicking into neutral and letting the body relax and let the mind wander or focus or empty, I don't want to be digesting food because that takes energy. Right. And gang, don't forget, we are blessed and there are people being persecuting in this world, persecuted in this world. And one of them is Julian Assange. So remember this, free Assange, free Assange, free Assange. Right. Lonely Piggy, how are you doing? First video on the list, I believe. First video on the list, indeed. Awesome. Awesome. Do you think meditation, do you think meditation on your own is better or in a small group with friends? I've, I've tried doing meditation with groups. I personally like solo. Okay. Maybe I'm not powerful enough to do meditation with groups. I know the energy can kick up a lot. Right. That being said, by the way, this is more silent meditations. I consider dancing to be meditation. And if you've ever gone to a festival where there's a lot of dancing involved or movement involved, either on the dance floor around fire or just in the forest or whatever it is, the energy level is insane. Right. So those are meditations as well. And I've done a lot of that where all the sun you have anywhere between, it could be just two people or just you by yourself, one to a handful of people to dozens upon dozens of people or hundreds of people going. That is meditation. Okay. Free Assange, indeed. Electric Shepherd. There's a music video by a band called Son, Son, called Oscillation with a gentleman doing Tai Chi. That's really cool. Awesome. Link it up for us, brother, on our discord page. Okay. I don't practice Tai Chi, but I train in related fields in need of God. And they're all related. Really. They're all related. Even like I've done, for me, I did do jujitsu for a bit and I've done wrestling and I found Tai Chi to be very similar to jujitsu as well as wrestling, but wrestling is more entanglement. I know Tai Chi has it as well, especially Bagua, but I believe Bagua anyway, but wrestling and anything that involves movement with some form or another, especially contact to a certain degree. I found that to be similar, just wrestling and jujitsu to be similar to Tai Chi. Emily, my sister has been meditating and I want to do it with her, but I haven't been doing it as much as I should. Emily, me as well, I've been meaning to dive into the meditation for a long time. And 22 years ago, I went into this thing, hardcore. And the thing with meditation is you want to do it consecutively on a daily basis. And for me, the standing meditation I was doing every day. And initially, I could only hold the posture for like five minutes and then slowly built it up. And after about 35 days, I did this meditation, standing meditation, 35 days consecutively. And at the end of the 35 days, I was able to hold this position for close to 45 minutes to an hour. And wow, amazing. And then when you stop, I skipped one day, and then I try to get back into it, but kick starting it back up again was very difficult. And for 22 years, I've started it, stopped it, started it, stopped it. The longest I've gone, I think it's three days or four days, and then break. And then once you break is very difficult to get back into it. So it's very important to do on a daily basis. It must become a routine. Okay, Emily, I get a similar feeling when I put on music and let my body dance how it wants. Yeah, I think the key is feeling the music and letting go and feeling the body. Crack, my meditation has always been with sound. It can be full on noise albums or minimalistic composer like Charlemagne, Charlene, Palestine, okay. For me, I've done music and I like silence as well. And this standing meditation I've done both with music and silence, but I do it usually in silence. And once you get good at holding this position, you can close your eyes.  You might lose your balance, right? So you don't want to do that. You want to initially have your eyes open and ideally focus on a single point. Okay, and I'll show you guys this. Should we get into it? Let me show you this posture. Love the presentations. More investment streams on the horizon. Indeed, Coach, we're going to do a lot of investment streams. Okay, we will be and thank you. I try to make sure we have a nice, beautiful setting to do whatever it is we're going to do. Wing Chum is my art, 34 years now. Wing Chum, is that what it's called? Cheryl, guided meditation. Meditations are a great way to start, especially if you're not quite sure what to do when even what to expect. Eventually it may be distracting. Yeah, I've tried guided meditations as well, like listening and stuff, and they're okay, but I only do those on random. Electric Shepherd, meditating with white noise in the background, is my my faith. Cool, cool, cool. Silence is magnificent indeed. Gang, let me change the angles, camera angles. It's basically going to be the same camera, camera angles to a certain degree, but there's going to be one showing my feet as well because the feet is important. So gang, this is what's going to happen. I'm going to, because I won't be able to read the chat very often, I'm just going to tell you everything I know about the standing meditation, and then I'm going to come back and read the chat. Cheryl, I believe, knows this, okay, or anybody else that knows this. Correct any mistakes that I'm saying, okay, any instructions that I'm giving that are wrong, flawed, or I recall incorrectly, because I'm going to, after I give, let you guys know what I'm doing, I'm going to come back and read the chat, right, and correct anything that I said, and then we're going to go back to those angles, and we're going to, I'm going to hold the posture for as long as I can, and we'll see where we are, and we'll try it again, we'll try it again. And at some point, if I get into this, if this kick starts me doing this on a regular basis, and if I'm able to hold it, we'll do this on a regular basis, okay, it will most likely be at random because I can't set a specific time to do this, but that's further down the road. Let me tell you what I know of this standing meditation, okay. Emily Cheryl, I love guided meditation that are calm, not a ton of words, but more breathing, positive, cool, cool, cool. Scotty Six, the Alan Watts guided meditations took me to the deepest state of meditation I've ever been in. My whole body felt like it was vibrating, amazing experience, and Alan Watts is amazing, okay. Here's the angle we're going to use, okay. And I got a camera set up on the bottom here, and I'm going to turn this on as well. So you're going to see my feet, okay, because it's important. Now, let me tell you what I know of this meditation, okay. First of all, I like bare feet. You can do with shoes, not with shoes, or whatever it is, or with socks, if your floor is cold or whatnot. But ideally, I think bare feet is the best way to go, okay. Right. Now, one of the key things you want to do, you want to visualize yourself, and I'm going to keep continuing to repeat this, right.  So what that should do is should elongate your spinal column, right. So what you want to do is the whole, one of the main purposes of this is to elongate your spinal column, okay. Now, when you're standing, what you want to do is, I'm going to come closer a little bit so you see here, okay. What you want to do is have your feet as wide as your shoulders, right. So you don't want to be like this, I believe, okay. Now, Cheryl can correct any of this, right. You don't want to be like this. You don't want to be like this.  And your feet, you want pointing straight forward, right. So you don't want your feet to be like this, okay. You don't want to do this, and you don't want to go in, right. You want your feet to be pointing straight with your knees, right, in line with your knees straight out.   So just imagine yourself having energy or a ball or hugging a beach ball, really, right. So just imagine hugging a beach ball, right. Like this. And more than a beach ball, imagine sort of a current or energy going from your left arm to your right arm, going all the way around. And just imagine yourself holding this energy ball if you want, right. But letting the energy flow, right. Now you want your hands, you don't want to be tight, right. You don't want to be rigid. You want to be loose within reason. And you want your palms to be sort of in a relaxed position. You don't want your shoulders to go up like this. You want your shoulders to be relaxed, right. So you're going to go basically come up like this, sort of relax, relax the shoulders. Imagine this energy flowing, going from the left to the right, right. Now don't twirl, just feel it, just relax with it, right.  So this right now, let me see if I can come close, I'm just going to bring. So right now, I would be doing it wrong because my knees are past my toes. You don't want to go past your toes, okay. So what you want to do is bend your knees, right. But don't go past your toes. And you can go as far as you want, right. As you can really, and it's difficult, really get it's difficult because once you start doing this, holding this position, you're going to start feeling burning here on your thighs, right. And you're going to feel heat in your legs, right.  And you're going to try to go down as far as you can. Now for those of you that do weightlifting, when you're doing weightlifting, you want to push your bum out, right. You're, you're basically, if you're going to do a deadlift and I've gone to the gym, so this is sort of different than the gym, right. You're not lifting anyway, right. You're elongating your spine. That's what you're really into, right.   And then you can, you do your lifts, right.  That's bad news, right. So you're going to deadlift like this, right. With your bum out. When you're doing this meditation, if I recall correctly, you're not pushing your bum out.  You're doing this. Okay. So when you're going to be bending, when you're going to be bending, sink your hips. Cheryl's saying, I can see, I can see the right from here. So Cheryl's saying, think about, think about it as sinking your hips. Yeah. So just do this. You'll know what, right. This is weightlifting. This is opening it up. But you want to be, you don't want to go too far. You just want to go, let it sink. I guess sink your hip. So let it just settle, right. So you're doing this, right. So you're going to go, bend your knees, make sure you're in line, right. So I'm going to do this. I'm going to be in line, right. My toes pointing straight out. And in general, I used to do this, right. Bend my knees and bring my arms up. And you don't want your arms, you don't want your arms like this, right. You want to be like this, right. So you're going to bring your arms up. You're going to bring your arms up, right. And let your hips sink.  You want to have a focal point straight ahead of you that you're going to try to focus. And what you want to do is hold this position as long as you can. That's the meditation that you're doing. Okay. Don't go like this. Don't tighten up. You want to be loose, but you're going to, it's really a lot in your legs. Now what you're also doing is keeping core relatively tight. You're not overtightening it like you're about to do serious weightlifting, right. You're just tightening it. Okay. And oops, which way am I going? I'm going over here. So you're going to do, imagine yourself elongated. Don't be afraid to do minor adjustments if you need to, right. But don't go fast movements. If your body is going to, and your body does, like when I would be doing these, this standing meditation, all of a sudden, slowly your body might twist. Go with the twist. Okay. So, but make sure your head is straight to a certain degree. You're not going to, don't force it. But if your body needs to adjust like this, let it adjust. Like, literally you'll be standing here like this. And slowly you're going to hear, you're going to feel like, and then slowly your body might move and then move back into position again.  And what I noticed when I was doing this for extended period of time, right, multiple days in a row, the opening up of the spine doesn't occur from here. It occurs from your tailbone, starts from here, the opening up the spine, and slowly over multiple days and longer and longer sessions, you start feeling your spine opening higher, higher, higher, higher. Like I was able to get up to about here, after about 35 days, a little bit above the shoulders where I could feel my spine opening. And there was a little bit of opening that I would feel at the base of my neck as well, which was amazing. If you do this supposedly, okay, I haven't gone there.  Right. And from what I understand, what I've been told, you do this for an hour a day, you reach an hour of holding this position, you do it multiple days, your health will go incredibly awesome, right, tons of small corrections, especially, so Cheryl says tons of small corrections, especially as tension builds in different muscles, small adjustments will help. Yeah. So what's going to happen is, because really again, and one thing you'll notice is, you will get shaking, right? Like when I would be doing this position, all of a sudden, like, like literally your arm is shaking like mad. Now, you're not, you wouldn't be doing it. It's just a muscle, just resonating, spasming, or whatever it is. And then slowly, the body itself does the corrections it needs to, to relieve the stress, get the energy flowing in the right direction, right. Our bodies are crazy powerful. We just need to be able to understand them, use them, and let the body do what it needs to do. Okay. Dingbao, Baciccio, you're talking about Kananda, Dalai energy. You should have focused on your throat and tongues, then the middle of your brain, Pinot Grana, then into the crown of your head and above. Cool, cool. And I don't know what the name of this meditation is. I totally forgot what it was. Cheryl, do you know what this meditation, standing meditation is called?  I'm just going to read some of the chat and then we're going to, we'll get into it. Okay. I'm just going to put on my glasses. I'll change the camera angle again. Just so here, I'll bring this up. Okay. That's what I know of this meditation. Okay. That's the way I'm going to approach this. I find parts of my body shake a lot when I do yoga. Yeah. And by the way, from what I understand, yoga and Tai Chi are, they utilize the same energy. They hit the same core areas. Cheryl, have always known it as Shigang standing meditation. Is that what it's called? Shigang standing meditation. Okay. So look into that. And I don't know, Cheryl, if I did a good job explaining what it is that we need to do. Okay. Yoga and Tai Chi are very similar, very similar, very similar, very grounding gang. I can honestly tell you when I was doing, when I have been doing this and the energy you're, you're tapping into is very, very similar to the energy you tap into through entheogens, without a doubt. Okay. I've experienced both of them and they are very, very similar. Starsky. Oh, chichou. This is crazy, man. It's five a.m. Well, chichou, I sometimes do present moment meditation by focusing on breathing or yeah. And you should be focusing on your breathing as well. Gang, but don't over focus on it. Let it become natural, right? Or just your body, but definitely not thoughts. Don't give thoughts the time of day and just stay present for as long as you can. It should be a deepening experience. Cheryl, you did a great job. It's hard to explain verbally. Okay. And I had the hip part correct, right? I just want to make sure. And gang, what I'm going to do, and if you want to try, you should do, try it out. I have no idea how long I'll be able to hold position. When I, when I first did this 20 years ago, gang, and keep this in mind, I was doing geophysics in the field hardcore, right? I was in really good shape, way better shape. I was back then than I am now. And my friend said, you do this. I said, Oh, no problem. He goes, No, no, no, you don't understand chichou. You won't be able to hold it very long. I go, Well, how long do you hold it? He goes, he can hold it for a long time. Like he was like over an hour, he can hold bricks and stuff like this, right? And he goes, Look, when people start this, they'll be lucky to be able to hold it for five minutes. Like literally, they'll be lucky to hold it for five minutes. Most people hold it for two minutes, three minutes.  The longest I was able to hold it was for, like I said, for about I did it for 35 days straight, I was able to hold it anywhere between 45 minutes to an hour. Okay, depending on the day. Do you ever meditate while on entheogens? Entheogens, I consider to be meditation, not think Bobber. And yes, he wrote Dose of Scorn, Terence McKenna, Starsky chichou. What about mixing meditation with martial arts? Yeah, indeed. Like Tai Chi does it, right? With the movements. I don't know the movement anymore. It's like dance, really. Cheryl, yes, the hips. Specifically, pelvis, not tilting forward is key. Pelvis, not tilting forward. Pelvis, not tilting. Okay, yeah, you don't want your pelvis tilting forward. You want to open up the spine in the back, right? You want to open up the spine in the back. Gang, should we try? Ding, I've chichou a few times. I have done successful sitting meditation that involved changing my brain waves, stayed to that of experiencing what were basically lucid dreams, but they were formed through guided visualizations. Awesome. Awesome. Yeah, I know I have friends that do sitting meditation, guided meditations and stuff like this. There's, we just have to listen to our bodies, right? We need to listen to our bodies and don't be afraid to experiment. And if you know, there are amazing teachers out there, there could be your friends, there could be your relatives, there could be just people you want to cross, people you see in the park, people you see doing something, you're curious. That might send you interaction with them, might send you down a road, which may cool the routine into your life, which will be amazing, right? Ready to try it with you. Okay, let's do it gang. I'm going to change up the angles again. Okay, let's do this.  I'm not going to go sideways. I'm going to focus on the camera. Okay. Now remember, very important, don't let your knees go past your toes. Okay. And one thing, by the way, my friend told me this, this meditation is supposed to energize you. Okay. And he said, usually most people do this in the morning to energize because it really does energize you. For me, I wasn't doing it in the morning. I was doing it before bed, before going to sleep, like at two o'clock, three o'clock in the morning after going out and doing whatever. And then I would get up early in the morning, right? So for me, the longest I was able to do this was a period where I was very active, high energy, and this was a way for me to breathe, relax, clear the mind, and be able to relax the body enough and get the energy flowing enough. Go to sleep. And I would wake up energized like mad. And the dreams were insane, of course. Right? And the dreams were insane. Okay, gang. Let's try this out. Let's try this out. That was fun. That was amazing. Turn this on. Don't forget to relax your shoulders. Yeah. And drop your elbows. I always have to think of it as less rotation in the shoulder joint. Cool, cool. I've got to read some of the comments. Like for me, I've had injury on my shoulder. So it's a place where I'm feeling it a lot. Right? Okay, where do we leave off the thing? Is she gone? I'm going to read Cheryl's comments, gang, just because she knows this posture. I just want to see if we did anything, if I made any mistakes, corrections. Wow, Lady Luna star. Thank you very much for the raid. Here we go. Hello, everyone. Welcome to our live stream. Cheryl, be sure, be sure then, be sure then your weight, the energy is distributed across your entire foot, not just your heels. Yeah, envisioning sending routes into the earth can be helpful, but send them through the ball, heel and toes. It should help with eliminating extra tension in the legs and the hips. Yeah, perfect. Awesome. Awesome. Thank you, Cheryl. Yeah, but I get distracted by that too. Do you ever visualize it further? Okay, I'm going to just going to read Cheryl's comments. Sometimes just envisioning it as being beyond your body is all that's needed. Cheryl, hello to all who joined. Welcome. She shows demonstrating Shigong standing meditation to the best of my abilities. Dingbobber, a Cheryl to Dingbobber. I haven't looked into it specifically, but I don't experience it with yoga much more with Shigong and Tai Chi. 30 seconds here, 30 seconds there, adds up, adds up. How long, I don't know how long I held it. I should have probably, and it's a good idea to time yourself, gang. I didn't time it for some reason. I didn't think I was going to last very long. Tell you the truth. I lasted longer than I thought I was going to last and free Assange, free Assange, free Assange, gang. Cheryl, as long as possible in regular setup to an hour tonight. We'll see. We'll see. I didn't last. I'm assuming lasted like 10 minutes max. Cheryl, don't forget to relax your shoulders and drop your elbows. I always find it is less rotation in the shoulder joints. Okay, cool. I'll keep that in mind. Cheryl, thank you very much. Dingbobber sounds very similar to some of the Shigong energy movements experiences. I'll have to check into it. Awesome. Shirtless Kylo, how are you doing? And free Assange, free Assange, free Assange. How do you feel, it feels good. I feel burning like, like for sure, there's burning on the thighs, more on the, on the left one than on the, sorry, on the right one than on the left one. Just because I've had, I've been in car accidents. So I know where my injuries are, right? And the body tries to adjust for the injuries. That's what I felt. So doing more of this brings more balance into your body. That's from my experience previously. Good evening, nights of old comic. How were you doing? Dingbobber, Shirtless Kylo joke that you were meditating until Assange is free. Maybe we do at some point, right? Maybe we do at some point for sure is the trial, the judgment is supposed to come on January 14th. So we do, we do, we do, right? Whatever we need to do. Okay. So for me, my focus when I was doing this thing, let me tell you what was going through my head. My constantly going through my head was being held up from the top of my head by a string. So I was constantly thinking about elongating the spine, right? And I'm pretty sure you guys notice where I was holding a position. My right hand was shaking. We're showing the weakness or the stress, right? So my focus was not to stop it, not to become rigid, but to let it shake and see where the adjustment was happening through the body. And then it would stop every now and then, right? And when it stopped, I would just try to either hold that position or relax that position. And then it would either adjust, not shake, but then the shaking would start up again, the vibration. And it was a little different at times, right? And then the minor adjustments taking place would relax more. And as the shaking, I felt the shaking begin before the stress in the legs kicked in. And you could feel it in the thighs for sure. And then little bit in the calves as well. And as the stress built up in the thighs, there would be minor adjustments the body would make and the stress would go away. And then it was sort of a dance, a battle between the shaking on the arm and trying to balance out the weight on the legs and letting the body do the minor adjustments it needed to make to be able to continue to hold the position. And for sure with the feet, not going in one position, but making sure the weight is distributed. And as Cheryl says, you're thinking of yourself being rooted into the ground, but not like concrete, but like tree roots going in where you can do minor adjustments, right? It's very much along the same lines of if you've ever gone to festivals, very much for me, it happens with metal, it's more power, boom, boom. But with electronic music or even dark, deep, dark dubstep or any electronic music really, there's been times when you're dancing either solo or with crowd or whatever it is, where you feel the weight. And that's the one thing that I found similar between the feeling, the energy of dancing at festivals, the realm of entheogens, as well as the standing Tai Chi meditation or doing the 24 movement Tai Chi. But more understanding meditation where your legs feel heavy, powerful, but they're still liquid, you can still move them. They're very not malleable, very fluid, but they're powerful.  I'm not sure if any of you guys have ever gone to major or any type of festival you're dancing like this, where you're dancing and the legs are moving when you hit the ground and there's like a boom. You can feel the vibrations going through. That's something that you also feel exactly with the Tai Chi meditation stand where you're standing here.  Like if they were coming to hit you, your legs would stay exactly in the same position and you could just twist, like you could do. And there's a movement with Tai Chi push, push hands where two people stand grounded and they try to knock the other person off balance.  Like it's incredible, right? So it's very much along that same level. Okay, Cheryl, that is a great description, Chi Cho. It's just super slow-mo. It's just super slow-mo. It's crazy. Man, this thing making me feel amazing right now. Really. Ding Bao with Chi Cho on meditation master. I listened to said that just that after the string at the top of your head, but then that you raise your chin. Oh yeah, there's a chin. The chin doesn't raise. I think it goes in. So you're thinking, I forgot about that part. Thank you for bringing chin all the way and then forward and down to straighten yourself. Exactly. Thank you, Ding Bao.  You want it to be like this, right? You want the spine to be elongated. You're not, you don't want to put stress on the neck like this. You want to go like this. So the chin is coming in a neutral position. And remember gang, your tongue in its neutral position is on the top of on the roof of your mouth. Smith, how are you doing? The man, the legend, Elder God quote, meditation will not carry you to another world, but it will reveal the most powerful and awesome dimensions of the world in which you already live, calmly contemplating these dimensions and bringing them into the service of compassion and kindness is the right way to make rapid gains in meditation as well as in life end quote, Zen master, Hesing Yun, cool, cool, cool. Lady Luna star, how are you doing? Yay, I can talk now.  I haven't really experienced Ding Baober, amazing. And again, Lady Luna star, thank you very much for the raid. Smith, I'm a Thai cheese master, depends on what type of cheese, Swiss. Uncle sweetheart, hey, Chico, everyone, I like the nighttime streams. Me too. I like all the streams, that is the truth. I do push-hands and Wang Chun. Oh, you do push-hands, Elder God. I tried doing, I did push-hands with my friend that taught me this that, man, what the hell? What's going on? I was like a rag doll. He was just throwing me around. I was like, what's going on? And just to let you know, okay, push-hands is really cool, really cool. Thank you for the raid. Yeah, thank you for the raid. And I'll give you one experience, one other experience I've had when just, I've had multiple experience of the grounding being so solid in the ground and the legs feeling like a ton each, but able to move and boom, you put your foot down on the ground, you feel as residents. Like, it's very trippy, you feel the waves going and you go. One of the times I was at a of all, all concerts at a Ben Harper concert, right? And this is sort of links up to Salvia Divinrono Chronicles that I will be talking about, but it was a Ben, Ben Harper show where it was a smaller show and we were just standing there and I remember a crowd moving and I was very grounded at the time and I was standing in one position for a long time and didn't even feel like moving. I felt like I was rooted into the ground and people were coming towards me and moving through and I would be just standing there. Like, it was incredible. Like even bumps, you would, I would just be standing and just go, it was, it was incredible. And that's the sensation you want through this standing meditation. You want your feet to be boom, but make sure you're not locking in like a nail on your heels or on your toes. You want it to be fluid enough that the energy can move, right? Ding Bob, one of the most intense meditation experiences of I've had involved 30 minutes of exercise specifically designed to activate dormant energy in the body. At the end, she told me to put my tongue on the roof of my mouth and focus on my third eye. It was intense, almost too intense.  Cool, cool. And by the way, gang, look, releasing energy is amazing, but one of the most important things you ought to keep in mind is, and this is from teachings I've had from different types of people and stuff like this, you need to open up the heart chakra or heart energy before you, not before, but you need to make sure you focus on that as well, not just focus on energies in different parts of the world, a little mind chakra or this chakra or that chakra. It all has to go through the heart, right? If you're focusing on, it's like bodybuilding, it's like weightlifting, right? There are people that only work on the upper body. You look at their legs, they're like skinny little things, not very useful, right? You see people who've lifted weights through bodybuilding and their legs are strong and their bodies are strong. Like you get 20% more growth in muscle mass when you work out the legs than if you don't work out the legs, right? So you want to make sure you're not just working off the top, you're not just working on the bottom, you're going through your whole body, right? You're going through your whole body. Push-asses were useful in 2020. Zarre, how are you doing? Nice. I've seen Harper. Yeah, I like Ben Harper during the time. I want to say five times. There was a period when it was smaller, I saw him, and when he got bigger, I stopped going and seeing him. Fight club coach. Haha, is it? Dingbao, you're 100% right. The heart balances at all. It would be chaotic and can lead to psychosis and other things as well, indeed. And gang, free assange, free assange, free assange, right? I have tree trunks for legs. Yeah, legs are everything, really. Legs are extremely important, extremely important. Okay, extremely important. Long been at this. We start, oh, we've only been, I don't even know how long I did the standing meditation for, unfortunately. I lost track of it. I should have timed it. It's important to time it. And gang, if you're going to do this on a daily basis, time it, right? Always try to exceed, even just a few seconds more than before. Some people I've heard, they put up a clock or something and they know they've hit that mark and they try to go further, right? I never really did that. I just try to hold it as long as I can.  You understand how long it is to a certain degree, right? I have a redwood tree trunk located somewhere else. Any other poses you recommend? Hannah, this is the meditation one I've done. I do other poses where I lay down on the ground and tighten up the core and I do the leg raises. I love doing the leg raises. So tighten up the core and you do the same thing with the hip, right? Put your spinal, the lower spine, make sure it's kissing the ground and you do your leg raises, right? Oh, sorry, I tried. I'm tired. I hope you can make a living from the content you offer. You have the cleanest and most interesting content I've seen on the ASMR. Thank you very much. Thank you very much. We work slowly towards it. No rush. We do this for 20-star and we do it right, right? And for me, this is something I love doing. I think it's important, all of it layered on mathematics, but yeah, for sure. As we start getting more support, more funds coming in, I will definitely be, we will definitely roll in more things, right? If it takes longer, it takes longer, right? We're going to chill with it. For me, I wanted to create content for a few different purposes, right? One of them being I want to make sure as many people are literate in the language of mathematics as possible. The other one being that I want to make sure I'm sharing as much as I can because I know the technocrat centralized power wants to stop. They want to be gatekeepers of information. So as far as I'm concerned, it's my duty to make sure I make information flow, right? I don't want to be just consuming information. I want to act as a node to have information come in and pass it along to the best of my abilities with my own little flair, right? And the other main thing I've always tried to do and it was in my design of always kept in mind when I was creating content is I want to make sure I'm going to be enjoying doing this.  I don't want it to become stressful, even though it is sometimes stressful because I really care about what I'm creating. But I didn't want to want it to be a burden. I want it to be something that is happening naturally and is part of the community. So we take information coming in, not just me sharing information. I take information coming in and mash it up and push it out. Sorry. I did a semester of Tai Chi at my community college. I forgot the entire routine was over 10 years ago. I was doing Aikido at the time as well, which complimented Tai Chi because they are both soft forms of martial art. Cool, cool, cool. Emily. They love her. If extraterrestrials existed and they are a higher civilization, they totally meditate all the time. XO. Love. Love to all. Have a good night. Good night as well. Thank you for popping in. Quote from Elder God. Empty your mind. Be formless. This is Bruce Lee. Empty your mind. Be formless. Shapeless. Like water. Now you put water into a cup. It becomes the cup. You put water into a bottle. It becomes the bottle. You put water into a teapot. It becomes the teapot. Now water can flow or it can crash. Be water, my friend. We have Bruce Lee in the chat indeed. Oh my god. The less of me, the more of God. John Butler. Emily laughing. Gang, that was fun. I really, fingers crossed, I do this tomorrow. Right? And then fingers crossed, I do this the next day. Fingers crossed, I do this on a daily basis. And maybe we see. I might keep this set up for tomorrow's politics live stream. And if I keep this set up for tomorrow's politics live stream, maybe after tomorrow's politics live stream, we do a meditation again. Maybe. Maybe that will be what makes me do this, right? The hardest thing to do is to do it the next day. The hardest thing after that is to do it again the next day. The hardest thing after that is to do it again the next day. And again, and again, and again. The trick is to do it again and again and again and after a while you'll need to do it right and if you miss a day you're going to hate missing that day and you're going to be really disappointed with yourself for missing it. Think about Baciccio, after 30 days they say it becomes routine. I went to 35 and I broke it. So 30 days is arbitrary. For summary people it becomes a routine after one day. I would love to do this with Ciccio. Maybe we do it before any live stream, i.e. politics, comics, etc. possibly before or after. The kicker is it's all based on the setup. Maybe Zara, let's see what we do. The trick is to do it every day though, right?  It has to be every day.  When I started this up multiple times, doing it for a few days and then I lag, something happens. I say I'm going to do it later and then it just doesn't happen, right? And then I'm like, man, I can't believe it. I get so disappointed in myself, right? Aim for 1001 the next day my friend Storsky says. Funny, funny, funny, funny, funny. Gang, that was good. That was fun. Cheryl, thank you very much for providing the information and the feedback. Cheryl, if you don't have time for a full session, do what you can. Ah, good advice. Where and when you can. Standing in line, somewhere, anywhere is a great time to do this. Even if you don't use your arms. Oh, that's a great, great suggestion, Cheryl. I didn't think about that. Dr. P, greetings, blessings. How are you doing? Great, great advice, Cheryl. Really, gang, if I haven't done it, even if I've done it tomorrow before the live stream, if I haven't done it or during the live stream tomorrow, remind us, I'm going to keep the setup we do. Okay? Oh my God, where are your fluids? Right? Oh, yeah, I should be drinking after this. After any workout gang, especially this type of thing, drink water, pound it back. Really, thank you for the reminder, Elder God. Drink water after this, any type of meditation, any type of workout. What would that be called? The lantern, the lantern landing, the lantern landing? Dingbao Berchichou. Oshu, haha, Oshu, advises that every moment and every and movement become a meditation to make life itself into a meditation. Not easy, not easy, hanging from the ceiling. Oh, this guy. Yeah, it's a, it's a thing that I have. It's chandelier, chandelier, this guy, right? Oh, this one, that's a lamp. Yeah, this one is a sort of a lantern thing. Chandelier, chandelier. I think it's chandelier. The tea light went out on that one. The lantern thing. Yeah, this guy.  This is a stained glass one. This one is a stained glass one. This one. Yeah, thank you, Dr. P. I love them and we really love them. This one is glass. The tea light went out of it. This one is just glass. There's one here. I really love this one. Check this out. I really like this one. This one is awesome. You put a little tea light in there and light it up. It went out. It was on earlier. Okay. And it comes off. The only problem with it is hard to get the tea light in there. Here, you got to pull it out. Let me bring a tea light. I'll light it up for you guys. I'll light it up for you guys. Bright the light. Oh, wow. Just a little tea light, right? And you got to drop it in. Check it out. You got to be careful with it and drop it in. And it's got a little holder in there, right? Nice drop. Thank you. I got good practice on it. It's pretty. I really like this. It's really nice. I think we bought it at a Grice sale for like 50 cents, 25 cents. This one's really pretty too. This one's awesome as well. This one's really beautiful. This one's amazing. This one's amazing. Like seriously, this one was a thrift shop. We paid a little bit more for this one. But beautiful. This one's super cool. Really nice. Lamp addition. Let me show you my lamp collection. I think power and gang. Don't forget. Free assange, free assange, free assange. We got some other little guys around. Let me have it lit up. Gang. Should we call the stream? Oh, let me show you this one too. Let me show you this one as well. I'm going to show you the hanging one as well. Oh, this one's difficult to bring down. I can't bring down this one. This one's difficult to bring down. I've got it up there with wires. So it's difficult to bring down. That's my, yeah. It's all good. Yeah, I won't be able to bring that one down. It's got wires on it. Yeah, I would have to unwind it. The vest I'll enjoy from. Okay. Okay. Awesome. Super fine gang. Picture for discord. I'll show you guys at another time for sure. I have a neighbor with some similar on his porch. Cool, cool. A candle lights. Gentle light is some of the best, right? Some of the best. It's good space to be, right? We light them and twirl them, make some awesome shadows on the wall. Cool, cool. Oh, you'd go like this. Give it a spin. It's like a disco light, but ASMR style. Chill. Yeah, yeah. But instead of people seeing John Travolta doing the dance, you're like swinging along. Super fun. Super fun. Gang. Do you guys have snacks? Apple. Punisher Max. How are you doing? Candles was a nice scent. Can be relaxed as well. Yeah. As long as I don't, I don't really like scented candles because I don't know what type of scent essence they're using there, right? So in general, I don't do scented candles at all. Have a salad. Nice. Probably, I'm going to probably eat sprinkle a little cinnamon on those. Oh, cinnamon. Yeah, yeah. Or apples and honey. Dip the apples and honey. Oh my God. Apples and honey is amazing. But for sure, cinnamon would be great. Ding Bob, are you got cookies? Awesome. Got it for then. Dr. P said, but had a smoothie instead. Scented as long as it's essential oils from nature. I agree with Dr. P. Allah, God. I'm waiting for the 20th, 21st December to pass us without incident. Actually, I'm on 24 hours. What about the incense sticks? I don't, I don't like incense sticks. Uh, for us, like when we do cooking, we get amazing aroma in the house, right? So we do, there are essential oils every now and then, my partner lights, but for me, I don't really do. One thing I do have is bees, beeswax tea lights. So we do have beeswax tea lights, they're a little bit more on the expensive side, but beeswax tea lights are amazing, like they smell really good. And by the way, gang, you can get clunks of beeswax. I've bought like beeswax in bricks before and, you know, play it around with them, right? They're really good. So beeswax tea lights are good. Just have a, you know, hand full of them, right? So if you want the aroma, you write, you light beeswax and you get the honey smell, which is amazing. When I light candles, it's sanctifying for me, qualifies, qualifies the energy. Yeah, beeswax is good. Beeswax is good. I love the aroma of beeswax. Yeah, me too, Cheryl. Beeswax candles are, is the way to go as far as I'm concerned, right? Dingbobber, every 400 years, this alignment occurs. It's a divine masculine energy aligned and is symbolized by two kings competing right now. And right now, Trump and Biden are going at, I don't consider either one, but that's politics, either one kings. That's all BS, as far as I'm concerned. Esoteric gang, let's call the stream. We got a little politics dripping in at the end. We take care of that tomorrow. Okay. Peace. Jupiter and Saturn. Gang, thank you for being here. Tomorrow, eight. Yes, Dingbobber says. Tomorrow at 8 30 p.m., we're doing our current events live stream. Okay. And afterwards, I'll keep the setup, hopefully, and we'll do the standing meditation and see where we go. Okay. Quick one. Maybe we'll set it up that we do standing meditation on a regular basis. Why not? Right? Good for our health. Good for our health. Right? And tomorrow's live stream is going to be like one of how many that we do in the last two weeks. I don't know how many we did in the last two weeks. We did at least 13, 13, 14, two and a half weeks of the 14, 15. I don't know how many we did, which is fantastic, which is fantastic. Gang, aside from that, if you want to follow this work, I am on patreon, patreon.com, forward slash chico, c-h-y-c-h-o. If you want to support this work, if you want to know what this work is about, you can check out the Patreon page. Everything's layered on mathematics. I don't put anything behind paywalls. 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There is an aboriginal ceremony at all in Australia, this 21st magic box, who many, many rituals will take place, many rituals will take place. The longest night of the year gang, the veil is thin, the focus is power. Fascinating, fascinating. And we will be uploading the stream to both BitShoot and YouTube. And if you want to support this work on those platforms, you can like, you can share, you can comment. You can turn on notifications. And you're guaranteed to get notifications through BitShoot, not so much through YouTube. And if you are on YouTube, you can support this work by joining YouTube membership, and there's a button here. And for those of you who are supporting this work through YouTube membership, thank you very much for the support. Starsky, thanks chico. This was interesting, fun. Got me doing the standing up again, man. Thank you for the suggestions, because this live stream came about through a suggestion, people saying that we should do a meditation stream. 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It's not everybody understands, not every doctor understands, that these things can have quite an impact on your life. The main thing when you take antidepressants is to improve your life. And if they've got negative effects on your mental state, on your ability to function, that make it worse, what's the point? My god, it's sunny. You know what, I'll probably go back inside, I don't want to. I'll say I could go for a little walk, wouldn't I? I'm gonna go for a walk. Walk and talk. I'm gonna head outside to do my vlog video. Whatever, whatever you want to call it. It's a log on a video. So yeah, here we go. Hopefully the audio isn't too distorted by the wind. That's why I take a walk in nature while I'm talking about today's topic, everybody. I forgot to say actually, welcome to my video. And today we are going to be talking to you, obviously, when we're talking about. Today we're going to be talking about antidepressants and my experience with antidepressants. So basically, if you've seen any of my other videos, it's no lie that I've had quite a tough childhood, quite a tough teenager and period when I was younger, and I've suffered from depression for about, god, maybe like eight years. Maybe eight years is a bit of a stretch. Six or seven years, I'd say my actual diagnosis was moderate depression. And in some cases, when it was really bad, it tippled up to severe. As well as the depression, I also had problems with severe anxiety as well. Obviously, first give me some psychological treatment and then try some drugs out on me, which did help, I've got to say. So first I want to talk about the first drug that I tried, which was Prozac. I can't remember the chemical, the normal name for it. What's the name of it? Anyway, Prozac, you can probably google it if you don't know the chemical name for it. Prozac is basically a blade. It's an SSRI, which is serotonin reuptake inhibitor. And it works on basically giving you a boost of serotonin in your brain, which is responsible for mood in a lot of cases. And the basis of it is elevating your mood so that you don't have those depressive symptoms. And you don't have all those issues with suicide and self-harm, which I didn't have all the time. Initially, when I talked to the antidepressants, I was in a very, like, strange time of my life.  Like, I was completely okay at school, talking to my friends and stuff, to wear a very large, slight bounce of depression, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts, stuff like that, when I was at home. You could say it made you almost kind of fluctuated from that day. So as on that Prozac for, I think maybe three or four years, when you really notice the effects of them coming off the antidepressant, you really notice the negatives of it and the positive aint on after you've actually, you know, come off them. One of the things that I found was, as well as the enhancement of the negative emotions, and obviously if I felt bad, it would probably be a lot easier for me to get suicidal thoughts and issues with my mood when I was off the Prozac. But it also elevated my positive thoughts as well, which is one of the reasons why I made this video today is I wanted to just brainstorm some ideas about the negatives and the positives of antidepressants and stuff, because it's not all, take this, you're going to feel better. It's not like Alice in Wonderland, feel better instantly, look down the looking glass and you'll be alright, kind of deal with antidepressants. It's a double-edged sword in some cases. So it's not uncommon for people to have these kind of feelings about antidepressants. They kind of, there's a thing in the community of people to take them where, I don't know why I said community, there's no Prozac community going on. Well, I meant there might be, I don't know. Some people might be really obsessed with antidepressants, I don't know. There's some weird stuff going on on the internet. But yeah, it can leave you sort of feeling like a zombie. It suppresses your negative emotions and it suppresses your positive emotions as well. So, one of my conclusions from the whole antidepressant Prozac stuff like that is that although it can be a very good measure of reducing those negative emotions and good in cases where someone's depression is that bad that they consider it ending their life or they've already tried, which had happened in my case, which is obviously not the best scenario. But also I find that it is true that positive emotions and the tie of positive emotions to your actions is a very good motivator. For example, if you take antidepressants, you get used to the positive emotions not being too strong, not being much of a motivator. I'm going out of breath now, I haven't been, I've been lazing about on the sofa for about a week and a half. So walking is getting me tired now, what's going on? So yeah, these positive emotions can be a really big motivator and they can be dampened down, which can reduce your, you want to, you know, do stuff. And a lot of the issues with depression is that it can affect your noisy cat. It can affect your mood, not my mood, what am I talking about? It can affect your energy and it can affect your positive outlook in life. You may settle for lower paying jobs when you're depressed. You may have less confidence, less ability to form relationships, friendships. You're more likely to settle for jobs that you don't like as much and not go for the stuff that you really care about and the stuff that enrich your life and make you feel better about yourself, which is quite a big importance. Being a kid on antidepressants, obviously, is going to set a baseline for most of your life that's going to be very hard to come back from and you'll have an idea of what positive emotions feel like and they'll be dampened down compared to everybody else's. So it's going to be very hard to empathise with the level of emotion that you're expected to feel about things and people are going to question why you're not so excited about something and why you're not so positive about something because it makes it harder. It makes it harder to do that because it's not as good to feel good when you're on Prozac. I've only made a lap around the place near my dad's house and there's a lot of old grannies in the gardens giving me some weird looks. Why is he talking to his mobile? It's such a wide angle. So yeah, the positive dampening of antidepressants is so alive. There's quite a good psychologist guy who's been in the American media for quite a long time called Jordan Peterson. He's had a tribunal or something, not a tribunal. I'm using that word flippantly, I don't really know what it means. He's been to court and stuff and he's had some issues with feminists and stuff because he knows how to transcend the community and accepted pronouns and stuff. But apart from that, he's a very good psychologist. He talks a lot about issues to do with depression. For example, one of the things that he was talking about was how our central nervous systems are very similar to lobsters. So antidepressants actually work on lobsters, which is a very strange thing. Apart from that silly gimmick, he's also not silly. But apart from that funny fact, he also mentioned antidepressants may not be effective. Obviously, he's only one psychologist and there's a whole host of information that says otherwise. But although depressants can have an uplifting effect and it can ward off suicide, it does not necessarily make you feel good and make you feel not depressed. If you're depressed and you've got everything else in your life sorted out, it can be very good. You could have everything sorted out, which in your life, relationships, job, money, whatever, you could be comfortable, but have those depressive effects that is commonly associated with depression and the low serotonin in your brain. So you could have everything sorted out, but you could be depressed. And those kind of situations could be really good for the use of depressants, antidepressants, which was what he was saying quite a lot. And in some cases, when you don't have all that sorted out and you don't have all the family, the friends, the job, the confidence, the maturity, and they can't help, they don't help very much in a lot of cases. And obviously from what I was saying before, they can dampen down your positive experiences, which is definitely something that I've found. So I've talked a little bit about Prozac and my experience with depression symptoms and the side effects of Prozac and antidepressants are the side effects of analgasmia and appetite stuff and all those kind of stuff. I'm talking about the actual mental effects to do with your depression. So it's worth taking that into note. If you're an adult having a look for your kid, maybe they're suffering with depression, it might be worth taking this on board and mentioning it to your doctor. Obviously I'm not a trained medical professional, so I'm just giving you my experience with depression. Hopefully it will give you a bit more information about what it will be like. So you don't want to turn your kids into zombies, you don't want to send yourself into a zombie if you can help it. One thing also to mention is that depressant doses can vary very, very widely depending on the person and also the type of depression as well. So if you're very high energy and your energy is bad, maybe you've got ADHD or something, you might have better times with one medication and if you're quite relaxed, you don't really like doing much stuff, not much motivation, you might be better with a depression which is more energy-based.  Which brings me on to my next tablet that I've tried, which is Matrazapine. Matrazapine isn't an SSRI, it's to do with, I believe it's mostly to do with, things like N-A-S-S-R or something like that. Don't call me on that actually. Forget that, I can't really remember. Basically Matrazapine is a drug which is also a sensitive as well. So basically this whole video is talking about the effects of depressants that are not well documented and they're not well, they're not entwined with the mental health aspects of depressants which is arguably the most important side effects and when you've got low motivation and low energy and you're trying to get your life back on check, some of these effects can have a large impact on your ability to function. I found particularly with Matrazapine that it has quite a big sedative effect. So a sedative effect, it makes you feel drowsy and sleepy. When you first go onto these tablets, the effects can be immediately noticed. You take them at night, it knocks you out, it helps them in some of your light levels, it's really good if you take them on the regular. But especially if you're a student and you have quite a variable sleep period, a variable time to wake up for lectures, it can be quite difficult to do all that kind of stuff. And when you, fingers with this tablet is when you take it, the levels of it build up in your system and it can get very, let's turn around now, it can get very high levels and it can make you very drowsy during the day as well. And it can make you very, it's really, really, really, really difficult to wake up in the morning, even more than having severe depression in my case, where you just can't move in the morning or have severe anxiety. It totally triples that, it just makes it so difficult. Up until the point where I was, at one point I was waking up at about 3pm and going to sleep at about 4am, which is obviously not very good for you. And it's a good job that, you know, my job allowed for that and I could adjust my sleeping periods and my work periods to that because, you know, it was open all through the night, so I could just work. But yeah, that was one of the really debilitating side effects for me. Obviously for some people, you might have the routine, it might be a lot easier for you to wake up. But I found myself three or four hours after waking up from these tablets, ridiculously drowsy, and I couldn't do anything. And the lack of ability to get the energy to do stuff, to wake up at a reasonable time, and it really took a big toll on my self-esteem as well and my confidence in myself, which was quite a big importance in recovering from depression. Another thing was the appetite gain as well. Obviously this medication would be great for someone with anorexia or someone who struggles with eating, nausea, you know, obviously not nausea, sorry. Any kind of, you know, thing to do with that. And we're not eating enough. But with me, there's basically the effects of the appetite stimulation was also quite a big problem for me. Basically what it does is it scales up your appetite by about 400-500 calories. The peak of the appetite increase is after you take the tablet. So if you're prone to binge eating and late night snacking like I am, it can exhaust a bit of that quite a lot and it can make it a big thing to be able to overcome, which, you know, it's not particularly the best. Also if you're struggling with your confidence issues and you already have a significant amount of weight on or you've got a very fragile ego, if you're a gym goer, if you're trying to lose weight, trying to look good and stuff, taking this tablet can make it significantly harder to diet.  It can make it harder to feel good about yourself, which is another aspect of mental health, which is a side effect, which is not really highlighted enough in these type of things. That's my experience from a Trazapine. I was on the Max Dose, one on the Max Dose, but pre-high dose of 30 milligrams every day, which I have voluntarily on my own, which I do not recommend unless you know a lot about medications and you know how to scale yourself back, which I reduce my dose to about a quarter. So I took 15 every two days, and that seemed to give me quite a boost on the days that I took it in terms of serotonin, and it allowed me to also notice the effects when I was on it, the sedative effects, and also get the energy I needed on some days to wake up in the morning and feel good about myself and feel like I can set my routine at sleep and then wake up the next day, maybe a bit harder because of the tablet, but I could still do it because I had my sleep in from the briefest night. I wasn't in this spiral of going later, later and later into the night, which happened a lot when I was in Thailand. So that's the two tablets that I've tried. I've tried other tablets, like anti-anxiety tablets. That's a whole different ballpark. Benzeday is a penis, visa blockers. I've tried a lot of that stuff. Very much trial and error and some of them were very debilitating as well. Maybe that's for a different video. I hope you found this interesting if you're thinking about taking antidepressants or you just want a bit of empathy in terms of that to get a bit of understanding with some of the effects because not everybody understands, not every doctor understands that these things can have quite an impact on your life. The main thing when you take antidepressants is to improve your life. If they've got negative effects on your mental state, on your ability to function that make it worse, what's the point? So in conclusion, antidepressants are a great thing for a lot of people. Some people, not so much.  Obviously, if you talk to professionals and you have depression, you should consult them always about this kind of stuff. Don't take my advice as gold. This is my experience with it. It may differ person to person. Antidepressants have a very good level of effectiveness in most people. So don't dismiss that fact. They are definitely a very reasonable form of dealing with this kind of thing. You need to make sure that you highlight to your doctors how much of a problem your depression may be. A lot of the cases they may be quite reluctant to put you onto them. You need to be very proactive in getting in your appointments on a regular basis in order to make sure that they give you proper treatment and to make sure that you question a lot of what they say to make sure that you're getting the correct treatment for yourself. For example, reading up on different medications, suggesting different medications. A lot of doctors, although they are very expertise and they've got a lot of knowledge on this kind of stuff, they don't always have the right answers and they don't always have all the knowledge that's needed, especially to do with new medications that might work. So that's quite a big second point. Number three is... I just wanted to mention this last thing that I've been researching quite a bit recently. This is a different type of drug called Bruperium. It's basically a drug that when taken in conjunction with something other or just on its own, can have both a negative and a personal effect. And it can also work on increasing the amount of positivity that you can get and the amount of pleasure that you can get from life. So that's been strange when you say it like that, but basically it's also a dopamine real technique which is dopamine is these pleasurable sensations that you get from the environment. Music, anything, any sort of loving interaction, any sort of happy thing that happens in your life. Dopamine. Your motivation is very, very much measured by dopamine. Dopamine is the molecule of survival so it gets you to do what you want to do. Food, eating, you know, sugar, obviously not great in this society. Sex, all those kind of things. Dopamine regulated. All that pleasure is regulated by dopamine so it's quite an important chemical. And if you're very deficient in that, your motivation to do so can be quite lacking. So with, I recommend you check in now. I'm not recommending you take it, I recommend you having a look at it because it's one of the possibilities that you could mention to your doctor if you're struggling with quite a hard bit. And also, my child's very small at the moment so if you have any problems with depression, any problems with anxiety, any problems with medication, you want a bit of help, a bit of a second person's view, send me a comment, put me a comment in the comment section and tell me about it. Or if you don't want to disclose it on the comment section, you can always DM me or join my page and DM me on Facebook. You can always, you know, do it on Instagram if you really feel like you want to DM on Instagram. And I think maybe there is also a YouTube messaging thing now as well. 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Hello everyone, my name is Andreas Oteriades and I'm a data scientist in the NHS, the National Health Service in England in the United Kingdom. I'm employed by Nottinghamshire Health Care NHS Foundation Trust. I'm extremely excited to be here with you today. I am very keen to share my experience with scaling up shiny and text mining applications for a big decision making in the National Health Service. Without further ado, let's kick off. So why do we do what we do? Well, it's a very simple problem. I mean, it's simple in nature but quite complicated to solve. So we get feedback, thousands and thousands and thousands of records of feedback from patients. So we need to find fast, efficient and clever ways of summarizing what it's all about, what makes people angry or sad or happy, what is it that they mostly, they're mostly concerned with, and how we can actually translate all this information. How can we surface the key information first and then translate it into something that decision makers can use to prioritize improvements in the health service. Part of this also has to do with labeling. So we want to know what people talk about and we actually label the data. We read the whole data set. We read all the records, the patient feedback and we label it. This is something that not all trust do. Whether you do it or not, it's a massively time-consuming process. So we want to introduce the clever stuff in it, like text classification to at least semi-automate the process and speed things up. At the same time, we want to do this general text mining approach in our work to exactly for the reason I mentioned before, to surface sentiments, most commonly mentioned topics and everything else that they are hiding in the text and to illuminate always using bar plots, network diagrams, word clouds or whatever else we could use in order to translate those complex findings into something that the non-specialist, the non-data science specialist manager can use to improve services within the NHS. And I think quite importantly, I need to mention that we're doing this not just for our trust, but for the whole of the NHS and beyond. And so we're creating a free, we're developing a free open source license solution. And it's very important, the point about licensing is pretty important because this open source software gives users the freedom to run, copy, distribute, study, change and improve. So that said, just putting the code on GitHub without a license does not make it open source and it does not give users the right to modify or even run your code. The copyright usually is the person who wrote the code or the organization they work for. So it's pretty important to release whatever tool you want to release with the appropriate license so that then everybody can use it or they can make improvements and give it back to the community. Also, because we're not doing this just for our trust, it's very important to mention that we also have user groups that we work with and we have a test and rollout trust who try our solution and they say, we like this, we like that, we would like this, we would like that, we don't like this. So we get this extremely helpful feedback to help us make something that people will actually use in practice. Time to talk about scaling up and let's begin the conversation with Golem. So how did the shiny, how did the shiny app look before Golem or if you don't use Golem? So let's say that the more professional and more, a bigger and more complicated shiny app would look enormous. You have an enormous server file with thousands of lines of code including everything in there from data calculation and manipulation and creation of new variables or whatever to passing this into ggplots and then the further down the line doing your reactive stuff. So you would be actually mixing the more static elements of manipulating data sets with the reactive elements that are dictated by what the user wants, like for example a user that would like to see, to filter a table by a number of particular lines or whatever. So this would, this makes shiny extremely difficult to debug because you cannot really follow what you're mixing reactive and other reactive elements. The only way to test what's going on is to take the whole thing outside the reactive context. While all of it is in there, it makes it difficult to detect where the problems are. For this reason it would be, it's also very difficult to test. How do you test, how do you put the different tests in your code to make sure that the user is for example inputting the right format of the variable and things like that. And also how can you collaborate when you have this massive tailor-made script that probably makes no sense whatsoever to anybody else. It probably wouldn't even make sense to you yourselves if you left it for a while for a few weeks and then you went back to it to keep developing it, probably very difficult to catch up. So you cannot even collaborate with yourself in this sense. Very difficult to deploy. There are so many different ways of deploying stuff. So I don't think shiny is particularly strong in helping you, making it easy for you to deploy. And also you cannot really use it as a template, as a framework where you can actually pass different datasets and produce the same thing, but for a very different dataset. And I will come back to this later. So a shiny application ideally should be modular. Now modules are not unique to Golem. So now I will start talking about Golem more actually. But the thing with modules is that although they're not unique to Golem, Golem makes it very easy to use them. It builds the module structure for you. It names the modules automatically and the names are consistent with the R file names that contain them. There are in-code instructions, what to put where this module goes here in the server, that module, the UI part of it goes there on the UI. So you can actually see the framework itself has instructions of what to put where. And I would say that it saves you from the trouble of breaking the whole thing because you've mistakenly added a line space in the skeleton, which is shiny is notorious for this.  And it's just extremely frustrating. So the thing with Golem is that one can run consistent Golem code from day one because of this nice way that the modules are structured. Now I think that the Shiny app should also be strict as to where the business logic is or isn't. It shouldn't be where the reactive elements are. It should be independent. It should be in a utility, say for example, script where the tailor-made functions or it should be in another package that has functions that do what you want to do.  So the Shiny app should also be documented for that reason, but in terms of functions, not the app itself. I mean, the apps themselves are pretty much self-explanatory. They are apps, they're interactive. But I'm talking about the functions. When your business logic is nicely structured as a family of functions, you can also very nicely document it, you can test those functions, you can use tests like, you know, test that or it will be, it's much easier to debug anyway because when an error occurs or your Shiny application, you know where the error occurs, you know what the function is responsible for this error is, and you can go back and fix it. It also makes more shareable that it's because, you know, everything is actually so nice and organized way that it's easy for people or at least much easier for people to catch up with your work, understand what you're up to. And ideally it should be agnostic to deployment, which is something that Golem is extremely strong at. It has built-in functions for deploying on RStudio Connect, Shiny apps, Shiny server and Docker, but also it uses a YAML as a control panel where you can deploy in different locations on the server for different tasks in our case. So your YAML, to give you a very simple example, consider that you want to create, I don't know, summary statistics tables for three different datasets, the Iris dataset, the Penguins dataset and empty cars. So you want, for the Iris dataset, you want to summarize, I don't know, SIPA length for each species, for Penguins, Flipper length for each species of Penguins, and for empty cars, you want to summarize, I don't know, the weight for for different numbers of years in the cars. So in your YAML, you define a group variable, and the variable you're going to run the statistic on. So then you have a nice framework, you have a Golem that can work with all three datasets. So talking about, before we're seeing that we would like to make the solution available to everybody, to all trusts, well that's where the YAML is very strong at, because we can use different datasets to do the same thing. And we can also use these advantages of Golem when it comes to deployment, to deploy in different locations of the server for different trusts at the same time, so, you know, we can host it for them. Well, I've spoken about Golem already, but just to give you more of the formal definition from the website, it's an opinionated framework for building production, great shiny applications. But what's more important here, and that's why I have these three lines of code here for you, is that all shiny applications are R packages, which obviously makes it easy to test, manage, dependencies and deploy, and you can just download the package. In this case, this is our dashboard, the one that we do sentiment analysis and text classification for our trusts. When you download it, you install it, and then you run the app, and that's it. Beautifully, it shows up on your computer, you know, it runs with whatever dataset you want to feed it with. Okay, enough with Golem for today. I think I was pretty enthusiastic about it, and I'm equally enthusiastic about reticulate. So just to give you a brief background of why reticulate is important and why we're so excited about it in this team, is that in R, to begin with, in the NHS, much of our stuff is R-oriented. But when it comes to machine learning, there is demonstrably a lot of advantages of using Python over R. It's particularly well suited for deploying machine learning at large scales, actually, and generally tends to be much faster than R. So our approach is, okay, we are R-oriented, but Python can offer something much better than R, especially in text classification. So let's make a Python library to at least make, you know, our solution available to Python people, you know, it's open source license, etc., as I mentioned before, but also let's make an R wrapper, PX text miner that makes the pipeline available to R people as well. Now, I'm not going to spend any time at all on this slide, I just put it here because I thought it would be nice for you to go back at your own time and read the summary of some key differences between state-of-the-art models, machine learning models, sorry, machine learning packages in R and Python, and why for, I think, you know, where I think each wins and loses. If you ask me, I think I could learn wins, but yeah, take a look at your own time, I think it's good, it's a good reference. Going back to, so, I'm not going to spend as much time on the reticulate as I did with Golem, I think things are pretty much straightforward with reticulate. So I think it's mostly, for me, it's mostly important to show you, to give you an example of how the magic happens, because it's really, it opens up so many possibilities for R, you know, being able to access Python in the background and to stuff with Python. So I've summarized the whole process in three basic steps. On the left-hand side, you see there's a definition of this so-called onload function that many packages use, where you import your Python modules and you have them there waiting to be called by a function, in this case, the function on the right-hand side. So you load, as you can see in step number one, what I'm doing there is that I'm telling Python, sorry, I'm telling R to import the pipeline factory from PXX Mining, which is the one that fits and builds and fits the pipeline and have it there waiting until it's called. Now on the right-hand side, I'm creating the R version of the factory pipeline. So it's factory pipeline underscore R, which has all the arguments that the Python factory pipeline has. Reticulate takes care of all the conversions by itself. So for example, here theme equals null, it will be converted to none by reticulate. The character vector, the learners argument will be converted to a list and so on and so forth. So the only thing we need to do is in step two to just call the factory pipeline from the onload pipeline, which we have called in the onload method on the left. Once we do that, the only thing we need to do is to run it. It's an R function now, so we pass the arguments to it in step three and we run the pipeline. I mean, that's it. It's magically simple. It's incredible. Tech home messages. To begin with, I think we have a fantastic toolkit which we can use to scale up and make nationwide impact. If you ask me, I think that the goal and reticulate are going to be game changers. With this tool, we can fulfill our vision, which is to do data science for the betterment of public services, not just for us, but for the whole of the NHS. So far, we've proved the concept to ourselves to begin with that we can actually do this to our founder NHS England, who are pretty excited about what we do, to our partner and rollout trust whose feedback has been extremely constructive and we are very much obliged. And what's next? Well, we want to make nationwide impact. We want to engage with as many trusts as possible, but we also want to spread the word in blogs and conferences like the current one, where there is a lot of clever data scientists who could take our solution, fork it on GitHub, make something even nicer, more efficient, more clever, put it back and make it available for everyone, for everybody in the NHS. And also, we want to do some deep learning stuff. We have text, we have a new switched on data science intern, Oluwasegun Michael Apeyoye, who has been very keen to try zero shot classification and everything else that deep learning is about, so the future is bright. Thank you so much for listening.