Happy New Year and welcome to Figments, the power of imagination. I should say welcome back to Figments, the power of imagination because I've been absent for five months due to four o'clock management, calendar management, whatever kind of management, and all the demands of life. But I'm back due to, you won't believe this, popular request. I went to Biter Squadron Union and so many of the other participants said, hey, Fig, we miss Figments, but I felt compelled to do it. So here I am. And that was, I have to put a plug in or I'll get in trouble with that crowd. That was for the 426th Fighter Squadron, claw, claw, claw. We have rules and we get spanked if we don't follow the rules. So I'm here to entertain and inspire. As you know, I've been thinking a lot about my life as a fighter pilot since that reunion. So this season, which I'm calling season five arbitrarily, is going to be mostly about aviation, including today. That's part of why I have my Pearl Harbor Aviation Museum t-shirt on. I hope if you're on a Wahoo or visit a Wahoo, you'll visit the Pearl Harbor Aviation Museum. And if not, please participate in our webinars because they've got a great host. Yes, it is me. Of course it is. So I was incredibly lucky to be a fighter pilot. And I'm going to talk about a unique aspect of being a fighter pilot today, that something called dooper books.   But it's part of the fabric of fighter aviation, or it certainly was during my time in the cockpit and in the squadron heritage. OK, it was a bar, OK? It was a bar. I was lucky enough to fly four great aircraft, mostly in the Air Force, the F-4, the OV-10, the F-15 and the F-16 and hang around with fighter pilots. And just as I am unapologetic about living in Hawaii, I don't apologize for that. It was awesome. Top Gun Maverick, a great movie previously reviewed on figments from imagination, doesn't do that life justice. We got to hang around with amazing people and do amazing things and live on the edge a bit, and it was awesome. So I'm going to talk about part of that. That is the reason that that love, remembrance of fond remembrance of being a fighter pilot is why I participate in an online forum for old fighter pilots where that your reverence, hilarity and storytelling continue. And we tend to currently retire Bruce Spike Beneshek. Spike, how are you doing, brother? Doing great, it's great to be here. Yeah, I feel like old friends, but we only met on an unnamed social media platform or two where guys like us hang out and relive the day. It's not really reliving. We continue. I agree.  Is that a fair characterization?  But is that a fair characterization to say that you're a fighter pilot anthropologist? I would say pretty fair if you use anthropology to mean historian, a guy that's fascinated by airplanes, the history of airplanes, the history of warfare and everything that goes with it. Yeah, when I googled it, because I had no idea what anthropology meant, it was just a word that came to mind of getting ready for the show. It also mentions biology. We'll stay out of that part of the fighter pilot for now. But yeah, you understand our world and you ought to understand it. You began life, real life as we see it as an OV-10 four-door controller. I flew the Bronco tube in Korea and then you flew the F-4G wild weasel in Desert Storm and several other planes, including 4,100 hours in the T-38. We'll talk about that in a second. But wild weasel, we're going to lay the groundwork for getting to do for books. The wild weasel mission is the suppression of enemy air defenses.  And thus the mission motto is YGDSM. And it has been since the very early days of wild weaseling in Vietnam. So what was it like being in the F-4G and in Desert Storm? Tell me a little bit about your experiences there in combat. It first off, being in combat was a surprise to me because growing up in the aftermath of Vietnam, I thought the country was so averse to warfare that it would be if it was a war, it'd be the big one. And I didn't see that happening. I would say that we had an upgrade to the weasel that was completed right before the war that increased the radar detection and locating capability tenfold. And that's why that's like an order of magnitude, literally. It was fantastic. It couldn't have happened at a better time and the system worked beautifully. The missiles were, they performed as advertised and it was a completely different war than what the weasels went through in Vietnam. I'd like to share this story. We had to divert one night to Cutter because Shakey's and Bahrain was fogged in. And the F-16s were operating out of Cutter. And they lost two jets that day, I believe. And their ops have said, as far as we're concerned, you guys are mission essential equipment. If you're not in the target area, we're going to jettison our bombs and go home. I said, my flight commander said, we were weasels before weasels were cool. That is pretty cool when they when they won't go to war without you. And my combat experience came later. And I actually was a weasel wing commander at Shaw, but not in combat then through combat in the Block 40-16.  So there you go. Let me ask you a question. I know the answer to me, my answer to this.  Yes. Not from Sam's. I was afraid of Meg's. Oh, really? Yeah. Of getting shot down by the Iraqi force, which didn't have a bad combat record prior to. Well, because we didn't know what their capability was. And so I felt I felt confident in my ability to to do the Sam mission. But I think we were in the first daylight mission since everything started around midnight. And I thought, all right, we've probably stirred up a hornet's nest. Now they're going to be out for blood. And so I thought somebody would sneak up without a radar behind us and shoot an atoll. And so, yeah, so the first missile I actually saw in flight was a wingman shooting a harm that went straight. Street can pass my airplane. And I reacted kind of portally to it. They I know that feeling. I had a harm go over my head egressing for my first real combat real work where I dropped bombs on enemy targets and the enemy, just to be honest. And ERG Tornado German put a arm over my head going the other way. And it was impressive at night. I I prefer night flying in combat. You can see all the bullets. Exactly. You know, shooting edge. I always on the daytime combat missions, I always felt like there was too much that I didn't know. Exactly. OK, you did get forty one hundred hours in the T thirty eight as an instructor pilot near training commander command after your after your time in the weasel. How does anybody get four thousand one hundred hours training new pilots? By briefing them and flying them just doing it day after day. And I was the guy that when they needed somebody to fill a hole in the schedule, I'll do it. Yeah, if you want to fly, the key is to be at the ops desk, right? You know, when when something falls out, somebody can't fly there.  Always the key to getting a lot of flying time. Go ahead. I like to say when you like what you do, you do what you like. That makes far too much sense. I'm probably not attractive in the outer world, but it is to me. So flying combat, in addition to that experience, that fear of getting shot down or screwing up, my big fear was that I wouldn't be able to do it because my first real combat mission was as a one star wing commander. I really had a crushing fear that twenty five years of big talking and big walking would be washed away if I if I couldn't do it. But the relationships when you do it and you survive and you do well enough that your combat mates still talk to you are something that simply there's no you can't. We can't even explain combat relationships to those who haven't been there, right? I get a picture of you here with with a couple of crew mates. Yeah, probably your backseater and another crew. Tell me about that. And tell me that picture is actually taking those. We took two jets to the boneyard after the war, but that particular. You're kidding. No, that's a Davis Monthan. Hey, wait, it's raining. It's in Arizona and it's wet. No, it actually was snowing in the mountains of Tucson that day. But in that particular jet, if you see all the the harm silhouettes on the intake, how many missiles were shot in combat? How many kills? Not missiles shot. Oh, really? Radar kills. And that jet, I believe, had either nine or eleven radar kills. That's a lot, because I used to call from my experience in Allied Force the harm that the missile guaranteed to hit the country you're aiming at plus or minus one. But that's another story, another jet. So that's that's incredible. How about the guys you're with there? The guys you flew combat with? The two backseaters so that I'm the second from the left. The bald guy, I can tell by the hairstyle, which apparently really persists. So the two guys, the two outboard guys are the backseaters and they were new. They they came to the squadron after the war. But John Lamb, the bald guy next to me, he flew over 500 combat sorties in Southeast Asia. Holy moly. He didn't get to go to the desert storm, even though he wanted to. That's a long story as well. Well, but Lambo is one hell of a guy. Most he started off in AC 47 spooky gunships. Then I think 400 sorties in the A 37 in Southeast Asia.   He really is. Yeah, why do people want to fly combat?  There's nothing I wanted to do more than have the opportunity to fly combat until I did and then I still wanted to do it. So what's your answer? Why do people want to fly combat? I wish I could quote who the poet was, but he said that war was the ultimate adventure as long as you didn't die. Because it's the opportunity for well, risk, OK, people always like activities that feel risky. That's why people like roller coasters and skydiving and bungee jumping. Good points. There's there's a chance for heroism and making a name for yourself. As many guys found out in World War Two, there's wartime romances. Hell, even for me. I met my wife after the war in the Gulf. Good for you. And I know that the rest of that story will save that story for maybe another episode, because it's a beautiful story. And so in that, you know, you have your relationship if you're in a two-seater like the F4G or with your flight due or for and then with the squadron. And the cohesion of that unit really matters. Here's your F4G squadron, I think, from Desert Storm. The cohesion really matters. And I have 13 flying squadrons working for me during Allied Force. And it wasn't the same in every squadron. So you agree, cohesion matters in the squadron. Absolutely. Kind of a difficult. It's not a chemistry. You can simply mix up in a piqui dish. No, it's not. So my my thesis, then, is that our topic and, yes, folks, we are getting to the subject. We've I don't know if we buried the lead or some other journalistic thing and laying the groundwork of the world of fighter aviation and the risk taking. And with the tenant risk comes losses and sadness and grief and triumph. But it is a fabric that makes you capable in combat. Makes a unit capable. And my assertion, Dr. The only place, Dr. Benny Shek is that fighter squadron do for books were the original social media. So let's look at what do for books were. And this came from that clock, clock, clock reunion where somebody brought one of our do for books. It's simply a ledger. This one kind of fancied up by our squadron commander and artiste, Bob Keeney, Keeney, former guest figments of our imagination. And here's another one, a little less fancy. You with it. Are you on an aircraft carrier there? Spike, as an aside, I'm on the Nimitz. It was after the Gulf War, the Nimitz came in. They we hosted them. And then we got to go out to the boat for a night. And I've been out to the boat, too. As far as I can tell, the primary Navy mission is keeping the water on the outside of the boat, right? Yes, sir. But that's neither here nor there. So you saw one book, the fancy one, then the other green ledger book. And here are a couple of your combat. Books, I think those are desert storm books from the 81st Fighter Squadron, sometimes called the hog log, sometimes called the do-for-book. And sometimes the spelling is more French. I have seen du-feuille as the spelling of do-for-book. Please explain to the audience what a do-for-book is. Well, a do-for-book is a it was typically when I was first exposed to them, the typical green government ledger, plain blank wine paper. And it was a forum for guys to express. Anything. You had to be... Anything. Well, pretty much anything.  And so you would make fun of them. Or it could be social. You could observe the single guy in your squadron who is trying to make a date with the unattractive woman. Or failing with the attract... Or attractive woman. I mean, there's a lot of... Exactly. Yeah, it doesn't matter. You'll find something funny in them. Sometimes it was political stuff. Sometimes it was poke and fun at senior Air Force leadership. And that were made, yes, sir. For example, the weasel was planned to be scrapped in 1990 and only the Iraqi invasion of Kuwait saved it. We didn't... I didn't know that until last... Did that get due for book attention the potential demise of the wild weasel? One guy put something in there and I didn't realize the gravitas of it at the time that he put it in there. I thought it was just him blowing off steam. Now I see that he was possibly read into the whole plan. And even though those covers were marked secret, they were not classified documents. They were... No. They were protected because... To protect the guilty, frankly. Because what was in there was a fauney, a reballed... I mean, misogynistic in the era. There was an all male environment. And it is what it is. We can't wish the clock away. But it was an important feedback mechanism and it was really honest. My submission, Dr. not really, Spike, is that it mimics or preceded was prescient regarding social media maybe because of the requirement for attribution. You in essence had to have an account via combat ready fighter pilot. There were different modes. Some of it was pure prose. Somebody would write up this whatever the topic was. But you'd cut and paste and we'll see some examples of that. There were memes. The original memes happened in due for books. Absolutely. And they were awesome. Some come back to mind from 30 years ago. They were that awesome.  We pronounced it differently at the time. It's a matter of emphasis on which syllable personality traits and traits. You did address leadership and as somebody who gravitated to squadron group and wing leadership through the lack of oversight from the Air Force, I guess. I know that as a leader, I was not immune from getting lampooned if I did something stupid. Is that a good thing? Yes, sir. Does it really treat our leaders that way? It keeps everyone honest. And that's the beauty of it. That's the beauty of the fighter pilot world that we knew, the fighter aviation world since you were in a crew jet is that because it's a life or death endeavor, nobody gives a rat's high n in about your feelings. And you talk about things that matter. It's not that feelings don't matter sometimes, but when it's a choice between your becoming a flaming grease spot on the ground and those of you who are not fighter pilots find that a little disturbing. It is disturbing, but it's a life or death business. And that honesty in do-for-books, I learned about people I'd fly with from things that were in those do-for-books. Agree or disagree, Spike? I agree. So if you wrote something wrong, you could just delete it, right? Spike, could you? No. Once you made an entry in the do-for-book, you had to date it, you had to sign it, and you had to own it, which meant if someone challenged you on it, you had to defend it, and you better be on your game. Well, that's really no different than what you would do in the air. And I've defended my thesis in my master's program and as a master's faculty member, well, now I'm putting my nose in the air, as a master's faculty member, I've participated in thesis defense interrogations, if you will.  It was self-policing. And it didn't matter who you were, not just in rank or position, but also in street cred. So the very best fighter weapons school graduate, top gun for the Navy folks, could misrepresent, misstate, or just be stupid and do-for-book in. It wasn't going to turn out well for them. And that's the beauty of it, right? So let's take a quick break here and talk about the fact that Figments is back every two weeks. I'm really excited about that. Actually, I'm bipolar about that because it's a lot of work, good work. That will be aired every other, let's see, today is Tuesday. So Wednesday, every other Wednesday at 2 o'clock PM on Think Tech, Hawaii. And of course, you can find us on YouTube, Vimeo, Spotify, Apple Podcast and Podcast Mode. And we all like it. So Spike, as I said, the do-for-books did have rules. And they were pretty hard and fast rules. I'm going to put up a screen here. Tell me about your view of the do-for-book rules. I mean, my interpretation or how if I felt that they were appropriate? I didn't give you any rules on your interpretation, the rules. But tell me how you feel about the rules. Were they important to people? They were all them. They were sacrosanct. You had to abide by them. Or sacrosanct in English. Whatever it was. And that's an example. I had to call you out on that because we're fighter pilots, right? Go ahead. No, you had to follow the rules. And the do-for-book was a way to take someone who was not within the perception of where we should be as a squadron and put pressure on a guy, whether socially, aeronautically, professionally. And he had a choice. He could either laugh at the humor. He could take offense at it. He could accept it. Or he could improve himself. And I think that was one of its most important features. It caused the weak to improve and become an accepted part of the group. Or, yeah, it's really complex. And in terms of the weak, the folks who needed to get better in any of the areas that you described, it did that. But it also kept us strong for being complete buttheads if they were being complete buttheads. So there are fighter pilots who are better than everybody else. I'm not mentioning anybody specifically, but there are fighter pilots who are better than everybody else.  Well, a good place to get unful of yourself was in the do-for-book. And as I said, these are really multimedia presentations. And you were, I know this just from watching you in our OFP forum on an unnamed social media platform. I'm sure you were prolific. And I'm going to show a couple of examples of your do-for-book entries. But I have to ask you first, what would motivate you to sit down with a pen in hand or scissors and glue stick in hand and create a masterpiece? What would you like to have? I told you once, I think every normal person looks for recognition and acceptance and popularity, which then gives you a sense of accomplishment. So I'll give it, the do-for-book in my OB-10 squadron didn't have a lot of activity. And I was an invisible guy. I was a second lieutenant. So I show up at my first fighter squadron and I'm still an invisible guy because the old experienced guys, they know each other. And then, oh, he's just some new guy. What does he know? Yeah, we got to see how long he lives before we pay attention to it. The do-for-book was a place to make your initial impression for guys that didn't know who you were or never flown with you. So I can still remember one of the first entries I made in that do-for-book. I won't even go into the story for it, but people thought it was hilarious. And so then suddenly, well, I thought about this guy, but he's got a name. Okay. He's got a name. And then it goes from there. And so it's a way to kind of get your foot in the door to get a little street-viz, you know. We say bad-viz is better than no-viz at all. That's hilarious. And so hopefully, the do-for-book was a reflection of your personality, of your flying skills, your professional skills.  Or an artist. And so then it's the whole package. So that's why I put this example up. And we're going to run out of time, which is always the best option is to have less time than you need. So this is your recollection of a harrier that caught on fire. And a perhaps unthoughtful security forces person wouldn't let the Brit first responder put the jet out because he didn't have his required badge to get to the fire. Is that a clear? Is that an accurate representation of what happened? Yes, sir. The flames are exaggerated in the 10% rule. Well, of course it is. Yeah. And the rest of the story is pretty much 100% true. But 100% truth is not required. If we went back to the rules, I think in both pages, you would have seen something about 10% truth. 10% is the minimum. And what you would find out is that you can't handle even 10% of the truth, as I said earlier. And it was a good lewdness test about how tough the folks in your squadron were. And if they weren't tough enough in the dooper book, would they have been tough enough in combat? Probably not. I say no. And so it's a tough business. And you want to, first of all, test the toughest and then improve it. Not by being going off at hominin. And there were many dooper books had rules against scathing personal attacks.    It was a beautiful thing. And it created, as I discussed with my daughter who is a fighter, sweater and intel officer on an earlier episode of Figments, the Bar of Venge, and you're on Think Tech Hawaii. It created a safe space for honesty. You know, you could just say what you thought. Then if you couldn't take it, you're in the wrong business because it's a tough business. And the beauty of it was the tough business. It was revolved. There are things we look back and maybe Blanche or maybe those are, that's what keeps me from running for political office. Among other things folks, that's not the only thing. But they made us great. And they are in very much reduced in their influence in the fighter world these days because it's evidence, you know. And it is what it is. But there's a place for honesty. Hey, Spike, guess what? We have run out of time already. I knew we would. I'm glad we did. You're a great guy to have as my first guest on my return to Figments. I've really enjoyed getting to know you on the OFP platform and sharing your life journey for another time. I admire you a great deal. Thanks for joining me. So what is, as I always say, what is your next figment? What's the next thing you're going to do? Want to do? Think about doing. Might do, might not. In the principle of figment, you said that it's big things start with little ideas. Yep. And I've got two. That's okay. Great. Absolutely. The first one is autism. And I have wondered what the real cause for it is given that it mostly seems to occur in the Western world. And it seems to have. Personal experience with that that is largely defined much of your life for years. Yes. Can I say that? I can. Yes, we can. And I have a theory. I just don't know who to promulgate it to. And it's that it seemed, I wonder if it is caused not by vaccines in general, but by people with a hyper-efficient immune system that overreacts to multiple vaccinations at once, i.e. the MMR shot at one year of age. Well, we're not going to solve that today, but that's certainly not a worthy thing. But that's, that's your other one. Um, Air Malaysia 370. I think it's, I think it's at the coast of Africa, not where they threw the arc around the Indian Ocean because a hijacked airplane or a disabled airplane is not going to fly a 2,000 mile DME arc around a satellite that they didn't even know was there. Yeah, we could debate that. We could debate that. Maybe we will on a subsequent episode. I have a theory too.  I do believe it's that part, but I think their ranging rationale hasn't flown it.  And I trained on the triple, but never flew it. Okay. Another topic for another time. Yes, sir. So, thanks, Spike. It's been a blast. Like I said, I'm really happy that you and I have formed a digital friendship and look forward to hoisting a cool one someday in person. Yes, sir. Folks, before I close, I have to say what would Fig do. From the do-for-books, social media, world, I'd say two things. I would be receptive to constructive or destructive feedback. It is what it is. Take it as an input. Don't get your feelings hurt. And then fundamentally to do that, you have to protect legitimate free speech. And there are a lot of folks on either side of any aisle who are not so cool about free speech. And we should oppose that. It's a fundamental element of our republic and our way of life here in the United States. So that's it. I do have, of course, QR codes. Get your phones out quickly. I'll give you enough time. Maybe you can pause it.  And you can find previous episodes of Figments on Reality, the early commentary show, and of Figments, the power of imagination. And as always, please love and support and donate to Think Tech Hawaii, a great platform for citizen journalists like yours truly. Big leaf over and out, see you in a couple weeks. Like what we do, please like us and click the subscribe button on YouTube and the follow button on Vimeo. You can also follow us on Facebook, Instagram, and LinkedIn, and donate to us at ThinkTechHawaii.com. Mahalo.


So YouTube team keep it clean what's going on the same grave in here with another video and in this video we had to talk about the game we just finished watching the Raven second preseason game where they traveled to Carolina to North Carolina to take on the Panthers and the Ravens of course they they got the winning in today's game but they broke a crazy crazy record and I know you could easily say oh well it's just preseason and you could say that you could you really could say that but at the same time it's like you still got to acknowledge what they have been able to accomplish winning 19 straight preseason games and it is the preseason it doesn't count toward the regular season doesn't count toward any stats anything like that except preseason stuff but still that's like to win 19 exhibition games in a row yes they don't count but that's that's still pretty pretty good but anyway shout out to them for being able to accomplish that and next week they can go for 20 like right now they tied the record they tied it but next week they could break it but we'll see what happens with that anyway this game Tyler Huntley just to start with him Tyler Huntley he started this game out a little bit shaky little bit shaky he had a couple of balls batted down he also had the interception when one of those balls was tipped by the defensive lineman which was a very great play by that defensive lineman that ball got intercepted by Hassan Redick super easy interception especially when since the ball got tipped sort of a velocity of it sort of slowed down so that just made it like he was playing catching the backyard with it with his little son or something I don't even know if Hassan Redick got but it made the interception that much easier so Tyler Huntley started off a little bit shaky but after that he got into a rhythm he got into a rhythm and he pretty much stayed in that rhythm throughout the game he did have I think he only had two and a half passes dropped one by Devin Duvenay where he threw it Devin Duvenay in the hands and the ball went flying up in the air and then it came down and complete and then there was another one by Josh Oliver but this one was it was a bit on Tyler Huntley and a bit on Josh Oliver because he threw it to Josh Oliver but it was a little behind him so it wasn't the best throw and that's something that I noticed with Tyler Huntley on a few of the throws more so early on in the game before he got all the way into the rhythm into a rhythm but there were some throws where he just placed him a little bit behind there was the one to Josh Oliver there was another one to not James was it James crochet it was when it was like a third and it was like a third and three and the Ravens were backed up on their own like 20 yard line and the receiver came and he just just a little drag route he just ran straight across the field and Huntley hit him and the receiver kind no it wasn't crochet it was Jaylen Moore so he kind of bobbled it but the pass was a little bit behind him but then he did bobble it a little bit and then once he finally caught it the defenders they were all on that man they were all on that but overall Tyler Huntley he did his thing he continued to show why he is the QB2 of this team now something that somebody brought up late in the in the stream that we just came from doing during the game they were like man if Tyler Huntley has to go against a starting defense I'll be worried and when they said that I was like okay I am why would he say that I was thinking why would he say that but maybe he just felt like Tyler looked a little bit shaky from at some times which he did a little bit or not even shaky but just um again he just started off a little bit rough but then you got to remember Tyler Huntley he did not play with the starters out there either so he wasn't he wasn't going against a starting defense well some of them were but some of them a lot of them weren't but he wasn't playing with a starting offense either some of them were but most of them weren't so just something to um to keep in mind uh as we uh analyzed Tyler Huntley and just what everything tonight was now he did have some nice scrambles uh Tyler Huntley again he got some speed man he got some speed uh and he made some people miss and Tyler Huntley he has to do that because a lot of times when he drops back he has a lot of pressure in his face one thing that I absolutely loved about Tyler Huntley uh is that it seems even though he has pressure in his face he still throws a very accurate ball even when the pressure is coming to him he doesn't flinch in in the face of pressure and that's something that I just loved about watching Tyler Huntley play um so again yes he is the uh QB2 that job is his it's nobody else's and I honestly don't even think it's close uh tonight I really thought the QB1 was gonna play I thought the QB1 was gonna play at least one or two series I did but he didn't um so I was a little bit a little bit surprised by it but it's okay um and with Kenji I thought Kenji was gonna play maybe the second half maybe like maybe at least a quarter something like that but no he just did a handoff and a couple of kneel downs and that was it I said okay so they really want to take a look at Tyler for sure they like wanted to take a an extensive look at Tyler Huntley um the offensive line little improvements from last week especially in the run uh and run blocking definitely improvements from last week um but as far as pass blocking is still a lot of the same a lot of guys just coming through uh allowing a lot of pressure and again we know it wasn't the starters and what uh but still so offensive line still a uh work in progress but again it wasn't all the starters Bozeman was out there Zyla was out there uh Villanueva was out there but um that's all right so hopefully they they'll do that thing um Greg Roman let me talk on this with Greg Roman before I forget Greg Roman he did some questionable stuff and uh I know a lot of people like oh but and they said the same thing last week they're like oh Greg Roman's in midseason form because some of the stuff that he was calling because there was one play early on in a game where it was third down and 10 and they were on their own one or two yard line and they called an RPO they called an RPO and uh Tyler Huntley he kept it and I just it was a a disgrace of a play I was just like wow this is terrible um but then at the same time I was like hey it's preseason hopefully this stays in the preseason them doing stuff like that because it was just it was really bad it was really bad to see it was really bad to watch it was just it was a shame man it was a shame um so that happened uh there was another play called two oh my goodness I am trying to remember it I'm sorry I can't remember it right now um oh yeah now that that call uh all right Jem I appreciate you now that call um that my god Mike B just brought up the third down with 19 seconds left in the in the half that was a mix of hardball most that I think that's more so on hardball because it was just terrible clock management terrible clock management uh right before half time they now they did get the field goal off and the penalty ended up being on the Panthers but still just still terrible clock management it was uh second down and they ran a play on second down it was either completion or run so the clock was still going on third down they called time out and that was their last time out and they were like on the 20 yard line 19 or 20 yard line something like that they were in the red zone so they again remember they called their third time out so and and now they're on third down so they it's third down and they have no timeouts left so it's right before halftime you have 19 seconds have as much time they had left it's right before halftime so y'all y'all know the situation y'all know the scenario what would you do if your team you're down by three but you're down by three and it's and this is what we talk about with situational football man you're down by three it's third down you have no timeouts oh a pass play of course why wouldn't it be a pass play that that's it a pass play nope they ran a running play again no timeouts left they ran a run play and then they had to run the field go unit on the field kick the field go they did get it off and they they got it so that tied up the score but again like we said during the stream hopefully this was just them trying that out since this preseason hopefully they can leave this in the preseason and and sometimes you just never know sometimes you could get into a game where you got to go get a game winning drive you got to drive down field and you may not have timeouts left so that's going to be something that you're going to have to do so hopefully this is where they were working on that and just envisioning a scenario like that um but if they do hopefully we don't see poor clock management during this season so yeah um pro shea quiet night tonight duvenay um pretty quiet night tonight too he wasn't out there for very long uh pro shea was out there a little longer than duvenay but then they took him off and they just had him doing all the punts uh and it seems as if we may be getting some indicators on where they will have pro shea primarily but we'll see we know they've been saying he's been killing in training camp and whatnot um and killing in practice and all that but we'll see we'll see how the ravens utilize him uh or how they don't utilize him we'll see um i envision a scenario where duvenay gets more offensive playing time than pro shea but he will see how everything goes um tylen wallace tylen wallace he made a couple of nice catches he had a nice catch where he got a nice amount of yak so that was good i was happy for tylen wallace but then there came the play where uh and this is what i talked about where uh tyler huntley he had two and a half drops he had uh two and a half passes dropped by his receivers one was uh by devon duvenay one was by josh olivan the half was by tylen wallace now the reason i say it's a half drop because i'm not 100% sure if the cornerback came in and knocked it out or tylen wallace just didn't make the catch now i think he should have been a little more aggressive with going for the ball but at the same time he was trying to get his position make sure he was in bounds and that he could make the catch because tyler tyler huntley was throwing that ball on the run and he put it in a great spot put in a great spot um so i would just have to look at that again appreciate that mark he said dress rehearsal next week lj will play with the starters we're gonna see we're gonna see for sure man but i i appreciate that man um josh olivan speaking of josh olivan um he did his thing the night he did have the one drop and he also did have the phone ball uh but he he made a lot of plays made a lot of catches and yeah i think that that third tight end spot it already belongs to him and tyler huntley they definitely have some chemistry uh they got each other's back as you can see as you can tell um and josh oliva yeah he's there there's it seems like there's nobody else in competition with him for that third tight end spot like nobody um i just nobody no other tight ends have been shining no other tight ends have really even been out there that much no tony paul john we did see tylen sent a little bit tonight um but well they they waved wolf last week um and i know they i know they got like 80 tight ends on the team but they've only been showcasing josh oliva and that's it that's it now um appreciate that there young he said we're looking like running back three we're gonna talk about them them in a little minute now one thing because you because ravens they can be petty like this sometime but at the same time with what you've been showing in the preseason you can't make this risk one thing that i would not be surprised if the ravens did now this year that they're not going to do it with josh oliva because they just can't you can't just let them go like that um because their trade with the jagwars was it's a conditional seventh round pick if he makes the roster then it turns into i think it turns into a seventh round pick it either turned into a seventh round pick or turned into a sixth round pick but if he doesn't make the roster then they don't give up a pick at all so i could see the ravens being petty and be like we want to keep all our draft picks and them cutting josh oliva and then signing him after week one but at the same time that's what i said they're not going to do that because they can't risk him being out there and when you got your third tight end as that guy you you can't you can't do it man you can't do it um so yeah yeah that that trade so far it's looking like it's working out but we got to see the long-term effects of it too uh so we'll see okay it was a conditional seven appreciate that Kevin thank you man um running backs running backs jk dobbins gust Edwards we know uh but after that that's where he gets shaky because justice hill he's been back there with them for the past couple years but this year now right now he's injured last week in the preseason didn't have a good game with the offensive line wasn't blocking for anybody but this week he's injured i'm not sure what the injury is but last week macrarian Williams they made some really nice plays this week macrarian Williams they made even nicer plays so they stacked two games on two preseason games on top of each other and that really increases their chances of making the roster and with justice hill out and we talked about this during the stream too even if even if and when justice hill comes back he'll be behind on those guys he'll be behind on uh on Williams and on macrary because they've put together two impressive preseason games and they've they've gotten better as the preseason has gone along and they've shown more from week one to week two they've shown more in each preseason game so justice hill has a lot going against him right and again with him being hurt so we don't even know if he's going to be back this week yet but the pressure is on this week for so many players the pressure is on because this is it they're going into the last preseason game this is it after this that's a wrap no more preseason games it's done so oh man it's tough appreciate that stanley he said i was at the game so many radians fans also said that he was getting manhandled by two second and third streams okay well he definitely uh that convo to the turn for the worst um that's yeah that's unfortunate man said that's somebody else man and we might as well flip it to the defense now that's somebody who a lot of pressure's on him too was he a third round pick a couple years ago um a lot of pressure's on him too man uh so with jaylen Ferguson um i don't know man i don't know he got like a lot going against him man he got a lot going against him uh and daylan haze i know he's an outside linebacker and jaylen Ferguson is an outside linebacker he should really be a defensive end um but daylan haze coming in and just looking so smooth he is just such a smooth pass rusher man daylan haze is a very smooth pass rusher a doubtful way he still got some work to do but um once he once he clicks uh whoo whoo whoo it's gonna be nasty man but daylan haze i think with daylan haze right now the way it's looking and he obviously got to go against starters too but the way it's looking the only thing that will be sending in his way would be opportunity that's what it seems like because here's a little dip the the dip that he oh he he did a dip last week and got jaymond swinston he did the dip this week and almost got a pj but he um he did force him out of the pocket and he forced him into making a bad throw but he's so close to getting him but so he's looking good uh broderick washington ah he made a nice play today i forgot what happened just a matter bk just a matter bk he's been nice but one thing i love about him is his pursuit uh that dude has some crazy pursuit uh where he chases down the ball carrier uh and there was a play where the running back was running toward the sideline and i saw this dude like running almost toe to toe where he had an angle so i wasn't really toe to toe with him but wasn't step for step with him but he looked like a linebacker and i was like oh linebacker's that but then i saw 92 i was like oh that's meant to be gay wow that's crazy um so shout out to him uh and as far as any other past rushes defensive fans oh smith he had a nice sec he he had a good game last week but then today when you put some numbers behind it as well uh especially sack numbers that makes it even better for you um so he could be somebody that could really push uh to make this roster especially as a defensive end the other defensive ends are older guys um so yeah you you got an opportunity because our defensive ends right now are panel McPhee uh Derek Wolf and Kalleus Campbell so yeah he he got a chance man he's certainly got a chance um linebackers patrick queen he is he was doing this thing making some nice tackles he wasn't out there for too long Malik Harrison uh he there was a play where he went for a hit instead of a tackle but it looked like the the the ball care is kind of like already going down but still uh you got to make sure those you got to bring those ball carriers down um but they weren't out there for too long lj fort was out there and he had some type of leg injury um so hopefully that doesn't end up being anything Christian Welch he was out there a lot uh after leaving the game last week so he got to do his thing Chris Boyle was out there for a little bit as well um didn't really notice anything in particular about any of the linebackers that played extensively uh and I could have missed it though so I'm not sure but um onto the cornerbacks Nigel warrior he had a great game tonight a couple of pass breakups and really nice tackles attacking the backfield um so he he had a really good game tonight uh last week I don't remember him playing I don't think he played last week but he had a really good game Sean Wade tonight he had a quiet game um I really didn't see him out there much but I didn't I do know that I missed sometimes when he was out there because I wasn't sure if he played in the first half some people were telling me that he had played in the first half so we'll see what happens with Sean Wade man um because that cornerback secondary is crowded man Marcus Peters played on the first drive no the first two drives and on the first drive I think the first play they went right at him because he he gave he gave his a lot of cushion to the receiver um Anthony Averett uh he he had a play where he didn't allow the receiver to catch the ball but look it could have been passing the fairings for my god Thomas Morgan made a really good point saying that it it was a good no-call and and it was because it wasn't like this like obvious passing the fairings where it's like oh no that's P.I. for short it was like one of those uh like that so hopefully he can uh hopefully Anthony Averett can I don't know what's gonna happen with him I still think Ravens are thinking about trading him I think they're trying to trade him um I really do uh so we'll see what happens with him Brandon Stevens he was out there for a little bit I saw 21 moving around he didn't really um he wasn't around the ball this week like he was last week uh Ardarius Washington he made some nice plays he has a nice he had a really nice pass break up on a deep pass uh going down the left sideline I forgot who the receiver was but he had a really nice pass break up uh he was flying around um Geno Stone he had a quiet game tonight uh who else yeah Raven Pride McCurry he's nice man hey glad you're getting better Ravens pride appreciate you checking in with us man um don't don't don't don't don't call that man pack daddy uh anyway uh who else I don't want to miss anybody but I think that is about it I really do I believe that's about it so yeah uh Ravens did their thing oh Chuck Clark Chuck Clark forced the fumble tonight he forced the fumble tonight so that was nice Ravens did they got that turnover um I think Ravens got like one penalty this game I think just one uh and and we've been noticing that these past two weeks uh the Ravens have gotten the opponents to jump off sides so that's always a good thing man always oh yeah Joker thank you thank you thank you Connor Joker Joker was that first drive he took over he took all the way over so shout out to the Joker because that boy ain't playing no games man people are saying the Browns are going to dominate us this year and defense is figure out Lamar Jackson out what's your thoughts on that well we we did we talked about that um that uh oh no oh okay oh that's good oh no oh boy oh I guess we're gonna be talking about lj fort tomorrow hopefully there ain't nothing man but they said that uh eek it is not good you said Harbaugh's initial diagnosis for a lot lj fort is not good you'll get an MRI oh Harbaugh said it's going to be an unfortunate injury if that's what it turns out to be oh that's not good it's not good um oh but back up to uh to Michael's question people saying the Browns are gonna dominate us this year uh well for that first part I mean people gonna say that people gonna say that that's that's fine but those boys gotta show up on the field man Browns have been putting together these all-star roster teams their their roster management has been amazing how they've been building these like super teams but Ravens still been taking care of business against them uh and even last year Ravens swept them so Browns definitely gonna bring it they definitely gonna bring it this year um but as far as them dominating the Ravens I don't see it anything's possible but I just don't see it I can see us splitting with them um but we'll see what happens and he said uh and defense is figure out Lamar Jackson's uh this year what are your thoughts on that yeah we talked about that extensively yesterday but no they they've been saying that for the past couple years man they've been saying that for the past couple years man about that Lamar Jackson's gonna get figured out so that's the um it's just the same old story man uh people just they just want something to say that's it so they were gonna figure out Lamar Jackson he would have figured him out already and again like we talked about in that video why would um why do people always talk about defenses figuring out Lamar Jackson but never Lamar Jackson figuring out defenses so he could easily flip that either way um but it is what it is man um little trips that could never see us losing the Cleveland yeah hopefully they don't but again they uh the reason I say that that I could see the Ravens splitting with the the Browns um because Cleveland with their under their new coaching staff um they they start things start clicking a lot more toward the end of the season they really start clicking and again their their roster the the rosters that they have built continue to build they they are really good rosters and they they did it again this year too um so you know they're definitely gonna bring it Odell Beckham Jr being back that that should help Marlon Humphrey I'm sure excited for that matchup uh but now it should be fun times man so I'm I'm looking forward to it but anyway team keep it clean I appreciate all y'all coming through for this uh for this recap um I appreciate all y'all stopping by thank you for everybody that watched the stream with us tonight everybody that also joined the stream too that is a lot of streaming um but I will uh I will see you all tomorrow with our post game thoughts video and again the that's the condensed version of this but I really appreciate all y'all support man I appreciate all y'all support uh from wherever you're watching thank you for watching uh thank you for supporting um and just thank you for making this a lot of fun uh and I'm looking forward to a really really good year really really funny year this year too and we get an extra stream together because we get an extra game there's 17 games now uh so that should be it should be a good time man but I love y'all team keep it clean I appreciate y'all good night


I'm Kinsey nice to meet you if you guys are new here anyways in today's video I just wanted to sit down chat kind of give you guys a live update There's a lot of things to talk about Drink some coffee and get ready with my day slash So you guys some new products that I've been using and trying out I really like the makeup look I've been doing today and today is a filming photo day So and I'm going to catch tonight for girls night. So that is what we're gonna be doing today I asked you guys for some questions on my Instagram. My Instagram was never looked as good as it does right now So you guys are not following it. Kinsey Elizabeth on the screen. Also, this is like my favorite mug Do you guys have a favorite mug?  I love this stuff Mugs are one of those things that like I can never have enough of it's always a gift, you know So I asked you guys for some questions on my Instagram and a majority of them are about the exact same thing So we'll get to that yet Passion letter is posted with me of my podcast episode with the CEO, which is really cool There's like literally two different things that you guys are asking about this is my first time ever having a pop Sock is not really crazy. I might even try some new stuff out right now. Who friggin knows It's my favorite thing of all summer. I've been really in it to these two-faced moisturizers and primers So I'm gonna start off with the two-faced hangover good to go skin perfecting moisturizer. This stuff is really amazing It's super lightweight, which I really really like I wear this a lot I'm just like off to like pull out is or something in the morning You do get it like when you're going to work out of whatever do you use the products that you like don't want to like use up for like Good things and you just whatever actually really like that one is just like one of the only lightweight moisturizers I have so it's really great. Okay. I don't know where the primer is but I use the primer all the time So I'm gonna prime my face With the primer from that line. I really don't want to have to do that much makeup later I would rather just like Maybe spice it up a little bit, but I don't want to have to like read it my face or anything for catch tonight I'm proud of myself for like really going somewhere. You know, I'm such a homebody Like I'm so happy just that my friends coming over and me cooking, which is like what I do 99% of the time it's my life's not that exciting. That's why my vlogs are so repetitive my big home body I go through my phases Morgan texted me was like, let's go to catch girls night Friday And I was like, okay put it in the Google counter, you know I'm just gonna start off with the first one that people keep asking all about and I know that this is like a very controversial topic on YouTube right now and whatever Um, oh by the way, I'm gonna put on my favorite a cosmetic CC cream. I have it in the oil free matte This is the best stuff. It's like my holy holy grail product. I actually listened to the podcast I think it was Rachel Hollis's podcast with the CEO of it cosmetics and her story is unbelievable Like it's so great. I definitely recommend listening to that. I like loved it. It was a great episode Anyways, everyone keeps asking like thoughts on food combining since you did it What do you think because there's a lot of like controversy and people Going around talking about it. Here's the thing with me Like when I started food combining and I did this one at one day reset. It was really great for me personally It worked really well. I do eat a lot of protein. Okay. Here's the thing with what's that what I eat in a video I just try to think of like my favorite meals and then I put them all in one video I mean it is a pretty accurate representation But I just like wasn't thinking I mean like I didn't have meat in one video and people freaked out But I do get enough protein whatever. I don't think I follow it Really really like strictly by any means the 21 day reset was so good for me Like I felt so much better had so much more energy My skin looked so much better like everything was so much better because at the end of the day It really is just like really clean whole like wholesome eating doesn't think it's not restricted Like I actually ate more on the reset than I even do now because I was like more intentional about it It's really not restrictive and it seems like it's so much more than it is like what it's being made out to be It's just really slight minor changes in your diet if that makes any sense So for me personally, I'm not going to say for anyone else I think eating is such a personal Topic that I really don't even want to like get into for me personally It was like really great and I think at the very very least like literally bare minimum I learned like so many healthy recipes and can see like really helped me and it was just really great Like I had a really great experience with it. I think people are Not really like fully aware of what it is and I also want to say kenzie burk Did not come up with this this has been a thing for a very very long time So I feel like she's getting attacked because she like made like she didn't make this up You know like I don't know for me personally. I think it's great. I think However, you want to eat is however you guys want to eat. I really don't want to hate comments below I've seen all the videos against it. Whatever Um, but at the end of the day like I was just and I still am just eating like really clean lots of vegetables Protein I was way less bloated. That was kind of it like it wasn't I think at the very it's literally like plant-based eating essentially But yeah, I don't know. I think it's been made to be this really big thing and I'm not a dietitian whatever Um, but at the end of the day like it is just like really clean eating and people have kind of made it Some like a little bit bigger thing and I think if you struggle with like if you personally struggle with like restricting yourself with eating And stuff like that like that's something for you to take into consideration That makes any sense. Okay. I'm literally eight minutes into this recording all the time But again, like love everyone totally respect everyone's views I personally had a really good experience with it I eat like majority of what I cook is from the reset guide and I just feel so much better And that's it. Seriously up top. It's what kind of blender do you use? Okay? Um, so I really wanted to buy the ninja blender My mom was in town and she was like, can you why would you spend $500 on a blender? You're 21.  Um, I got This I think it's like the mad. No, I have the magic. I don't know. It's only like $100 I can have it linked down below too. I'm gonna have all these products as well By the way, I'm just setting what they kept on the translucent powder. Um, it's a good blender And it's not the Nutribullet, so it's not like $500 But like I still want the Nutribullet and also I think like if I'm gonna invest in anything in my kitchen It's probably gonna be the Nutribullet just because I love making smoothies and it's amazing. So Yeah, I knew what exactly are you going to school for and where at so I guess I'll answer this just because it's we're on summer break I'm gonna brush up my brows and I feel like a lot of people don't know. I already did this the night if I did um some people just don't know so Um, I go to zoe leadership college zoe is a church In los angeles, it's the best to be to channel and everything if you guys you guys should go watch are in my feelings Series that I've passed right in there's like four of them. They're lit. It's literally my favorite series. We've ever gone through It's so good. It doesn't even matter what you believe Like it's just basically about like emotional health essentially and like regardless of even what you believe Like you'll get something out of it if you guys like podcast or anything like that too We are podcast like listen to them. They're so good. Yeah, so I go to zoe leadership college So it's accredited through southeastern university in lakeland, florida So when I graduate I'm gonna get a bachelor's in business administration, which I graduate next year, which is very exciting By the way, I'm using the cheek leaders palette. This is the best thing ever Hula bronzer I bought all new brushes and I still haven't gone to amazon tell them they delivered it wrong so bad It's basically like a church internship with college. So when I finish I will have my bachelor's in business administration the best decision of my life I've also like made a lot of videos about it. I've made an entire video if you guys are like more interested in any of that There's so many southeastern extension sites, too So if you guys like don't move to la and you're like are interested in something like Look it up because I guarantee there's probably one near you or like not too far They're everywhere. Like I think it's such an amazing school. I think it really equips you for so much And I think whatever it's like the best thing ever So yeah, I'm like excited to be graduating But I'm kind of like sad to be like leaving my program I would always joke with my directors before that like I'm never graduating because I never want to leave Um, but like you know, I could leave So yeah, I go to CLC. It's the best Check it out if you guys are interested. My legs are killing me. Okay. The thing is I do for you guys, you know This blush is my holy grail product. It's the mark jacob's kink and kisses blush That's literally the shade. Um, but it's like such a pretty pretty blush. That's my favorite one I've ever used Okay, I'm sitting on pillows now. So if it looks a little different, I'm so sorry But I couldn't deal with that anymore I was zoe conference if you guys don't know my church has a conference every year Um, it's the best thing in the world if you guys are having me in LA August 6th through 8th next year. Come. It's the best thing ever.  Oh biggest lesson of 2019 Now I can think of this. Um while I do that. I'm gonna apply my highlighter From the cheek leaders palette. It's the tickle highlighter. This is by far my favorite highlighter as well biggest lesson Okay, I'll give you a lesson because that was a lot of pressure on me. Like isn't this such a good highlighter Taylor gave me this palette and she was wearing this the whole time we were in San Diego And I was like, that's amazing and then we got back to her apartment and she's like, oh, I have another one She gave it to me and I was like I'm so sorry. This isn't taking me so long biggest lesson slash like my heart right now In my life where I'm at. There's a song. I don't want to go by chris I don't know how to say the last name. I'm so sorry, but it's I feel like I don't it's like a Worst of all I'm gonna say I don't want to go if you're not there whatever Apply them to anything like I if it's basically if it's not for me, I don't want it even if I want it But if it's in the grand scheme of things not for me, I don't want it even if like I really really want it But it's not for me. I don't want it long term it's better So that is that onto what literally Everyone is asking me about like actually every single person on the saying which I should have known Um using this I'm like completely out of this product our goss. I love you I've bought 17,000 of these and I will literally do anything for you. Um Let me just Let me just quickly read them to you guys so you guys can Get onto this together. Oh favorite workout besides hot pilates spin or boxing for sure Do you guys know our fitness videos and if you do like what videos you guys want to see? I'm honestly just kind of like I don't know what I need to film And within the next few weeks I need to be filming a ton. So let me know. Oh favorite Casey musker song. Okay. I think um Keep it to yourself That's my og boyfriend. How you got together tell us. Hey mc quentin Would you ever do a boyfriend talk probably not how did quentin happen? How did you guys move from friends to not are you dating someone from zoe specifically lol? Are you dating quentin? Talk more about the enneagram thing I am in type three wing two if you guys are taking the enneagram task Love me know down below. How long have you and quentin been dating? Eat all the deets this quentin quentin quentin keep oki all of that literally all of that I literally get so awkward talking about this on camera. I don't know why I just have like, okay Here's the thing in december. I went through like a really really hard life Situation and I feel like ever since then I've been way more closed off Like not even just online, but in my personal life Like it's hard for me to open up to people it's hard to feel like talk about things using the jam Girl must care about my two face So just in general I think that that like I feel like even on my youtube channel I feel like I'm not fully present even when I'm present like I'm not as good at vlogging I feel like I'm not as good at anything and I'm like not crying, but I like feel like I'm like whatever Uh like not as good at anything And I feel like I'm not connecting you guys as much because I haven't been as vulnerable and as all honest and open And like I want to be it's just so hard for me now when it wasn't before This is definitely the most like traumatic thing But I've been through a lot. So it's just like kind of ridiculous. Anyway, it's still long story short I think that's why I'm like super awkward on camera now because I just as a whole I'm like way more closed off than I used to be Uh, yes, I am dating Clinton as you guys have seen the facebook group. You guys are FBI agents. You guys all figured it out before All of it before I was like on instagram or anything Um, if you guys are not one of the facebook group you guys need to be I'm constantly in there talking to you guys And like I help you there's a lot with like random things too Like if someone is like, how do I pitch this to a brand or whatever? Like I do a lot of that stuff just because I think it's fun like I would help you guys Um, but also just like life and whatever put a posted an instagram photo if you get yourself on the instagram I know it was an infeed post if you guys made it to this far in the video comment down below infeed But um, would you guys listen to my podcast? I love you so much podcast Which would be linked down below you guys know like an infeed post. It's like very out of character for me Um, and I don't really mean it's like out of character. I think with me. It's like I only I'm very picky and selective with who I date that does not mean that I have always made good decisions I actually have not at all it like takes a lot for me to actually get there is more so what I'm saying Yeah, I don't know I mean I posted on instagram because well one the facebook group don't even get it out You guys he's been on my podcast like when we were just friends And like we've known each other for like a year and a half Yeah, because he's went to zlc. He's done and we've been friends. Whatever. He was on the podcast in like april Yeah, I don't know like a lot of people have been Commenting whatever what I'm getting at is like, I don't know what I'm gonna do as far as like putting him in videos We're like not Because I don't know like it has nothing to do with him. It's just like I'm weird about things and also I don't know how to say this like I didn't really know what I'm saying. I feel like I'm overcomplicating Let me know what you guys think down below But it's harder for me because my schedule is so my schedule Um, and I can do whatever and like I can always work with people I'm people always over like we're together a lot slash we're both very involved in zoe So like we have like pretty similar schedules and we're even with like what he's about to be doing the similar schedules So we're together a lot So like it's really hard for me because it's really been making me not vlog as much But like I don't want to be necessarily like a boyfriend-tact couple like that's not what I want to do at all Um, and you know as I say that now like who knows what will end up happening whatever But he's literally the best person in the entire world Like he's so awesome And you guys will love him everyone in my life loves him like my parents love him more than me probably So he's really great. Um as far as like videos and stuff. I don't know if anyone has good advice Let me know down below in the comments. It's just so hard because we're together all the time So it's like harder for me to keep it off. Yeah, I think that we're both also like more intentional with dating Like we're not like I'm not gonna like go date a bunch of like random guys and they're like just thinker cute kind of thing So yeah, I'm very happy great guy. You guys will love him, but I just don't know What my plan is yeah is basically what I'm saying But you guys should follow me on instagram because I will post and stuff And the photos are cute So like you guys should follow me on instagram the boy the boy quintin Quincy ew ew ew. I hate that.  He's like loves it and like lives for it Okay, talk about red flags that would indicate toxicity in a relationship I think as far as red flags go in real life. I think it's just really important This is something I live by patterns over potential. I naturally see the best in people I'm very like class half full like love people. I think the best of people and I really Don't think that they're gonna be bad. I think that is one of my best qualities and also one of my worst qualities So I think if you're with someone and it's literally like potential He could be here like whatever like no, they need to be 10 steps ahead at all times Okay, I will say this one thing. There's a lot of questions specifically about me quintin I sure eventually will answer them and we'll do stuff for like a podcast or whatever But this was like my biggest thing with quintin because everyone's like when did you know you wanted to date him and whatever This is the biggest difference for me. 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Welcome back to our lecture series Math 1050, College Algebra for Students at Southern Utah University. As usual, I'll be your professor today, Dr. Angela Misseldine. So lecture 50, this is the end of our series. We've made it, yay. So as you recall, for those following along with our videos here, that in our last chapter entitled Pre-Calculus, we're revisiting many topics we've seen previously in this lecture series on College Algebra, combining things that we didn't really originally combined from the first place and emphasizing why this is helpful for calculus, which many of us will be taking, perhaps in a future college class or such. So it's appropriate that the last topic, the ultimate topic of our lecture series is gonna be about difference quotients, which is one of the most important algebraic things we have to consider at the very beginning of calculus one. So to preference why we care about difference quotients, let me kind of remind you about the average rate of change which we saw previously in this lecture series. So let f of x be a function defined on some interval a to b. Then we say that the average rate of change of f of x with respect to x for a function f as x, changes from a to b is given by this. We usually denote it as delta y over delta x. And sometimes we add a superscript of a comma b to emphasize which average rate of change we're talking about because it does depend different intervals will have different average, I should say average rates of change. But the formula is just gonna be f of b minus f of a over b minus a. This is just the slope formula. So, cause one thing to remember when it comes to the average rate of change, if you have some function, here's our function f and we pick our values, here's a, here's b, then the average rate of change is just gonna be the slope of this so-called secant line that goes through the graph like so. That's all that we're trying to calculate here. And so in terms of the calculation, let's take f of x equal 3x squared on the interval one to three for which the average rate of change delta y over delta x. This is gonna equal f of three minus f of one over three minus one. So we're gonna get three times three squared which is nine minus three times one squared which is a one over three minus one. Well, I guess I noticed the tops divisible by three you can factor it out. Nine minus one over three minus one which is two. Nine minus one is an eight. So we get three times eight over two. Two goes into eight four times. So we get three times four which is 12. So the average rate of change of this function in this context would be 12, okay? For which again, it's measuring and then if we were to graph this one here y equals 3x squared, that's just your standard parabola that's been scaled by a factor of three, right? So we've seen something like the following. It just looks like a parabola, good old parabola, right? For which we wanna go from one to three that would be kinda like here's one, here's three and then connecting the dots. We get a line that looks something like this is our secant line and then we're saying the slope of that secant line m is equal to 12. That's what the average rate of change is measuring. So sometimes we desire that the average rate of change of a function f be computed on the interval a to a plus h where to interpret that, let me kinda draw us a picture. Why would we care about something like that? So let's say we have our function, here's the x-axis and here's our function, maybe it does something like this, whatever, here's our function f. And we have some value a in mind. It's like I wanna kinda know what's happening right here. Here's my a. So when you look at the, think about this, like if we wanna take us just a small step, a small step to the right, let's call that distance h. Well, if you take a small step to the right, then the address of this x-corner would be a plus h. And so if you follow this up to the top, you have this point right here. Here's what happens when x equals a. Here's a point over here when you have a plus h. So you have these points, right? So you have the point a comma f of a, that's there.  We could be interested in the secant line in that situation, like so you get that secant line. And the point is that we're supposed to understand a plus h as just a little bit to the right of a, right, just a teeny bit. And so when a is really, when h is really, really, really small, right, you know, we could get closer and closer and closer and closer and closer. That's just so close, right? When h is considered this really small value, then a plus h and a will be really, really close together. Notice for example, if I take a plus h and I subtract from an a, this just gives you h, right? So when you calculate the average rate of change in this context, right, if you take delta y over delta x, this is gonna look like f of a plus h minus f of a over a plus h minus a, you're gonna see that the a's in the bottom cancel out. And this simplifies just to be, well, honestly this thing right here, right? f of a plus h minus f of a over h. And this is commonly referred to as a difference quotient. It's not a very clever name, but it's just what you see here, right? You have a difference and you have a quotient. It's like saying, oh, that, you know, I'm gonna domesticate this pet right here. Oh, it's a furry quadruped that barks, right? You know, we could call it a dog. We could come up with a name with it, but no, I'm gonna stick with furry quadruped that barks, right? That's what I'm gonna call a dog. So this is what we get for the difference quotient. This is what happens to average rate of change when you kind of replace instead of a and b, you replace b with a plus h. Again, we're emphasizing, instead of just having two points, right? We're emphasizing we have a point and then we have a second point that's close to it because it's important to ask yourself the question, what happens, what happens as h gets small, right? What happens as h gets close, you know, if a plus h gets closer, closer, closer, closer, closer, closer to a, right? What happens when h gets small or how we usually like to say it, what happens as h approaches zero, all right? Well, we can't just plug in h equals zero because if we did that, we'd end up with f of a plus zero minus f of a over zero, which would then become zero over zero. Wait, that's not a number, right? That doesn't make any sense. We can't just take zero over zero. But this actually gives us hope, right? What we've seen here is we have the numerator zero and the denominator zero at the same time. The only way that's happening is that maybe the numerator and the denominator have a common factor, which in this case would have to be h. We can potentially cancel out the h to the numerator, simplify the difference quotient and then plug in h equals zero, okay? Why would we want to do such a thing? So we talked about secant lines before, right? If I make my value get a little bit closer, right? We could draw the secant line there, like so, or we could even get it even closer, right? I'm using a different color this time to emphasize. What if we even get a little bit closer, right? We could draw our secant line. We're gonna get something like this, right? Really what our goal is though is what if we don't have a secant line? What if we have a so-called tangent line, right? What if we get a line that touches the graph only on one point? Can we get a tangent line? Well, that tangent line would be formed by taking your point, again, closer and closer and closer to some so-called point of tangency. So that's what happens when h goes to zero. So if we wanna find the so-called instantaneous rate of change, this is what happens, the instantaneous rate of change occurs when h is allowed to go to zero. But like I said, algebraically, we can't divide by zero, but we could cancel out the h on the bottom with some factor of h on the top and then evaluate h equals zero. And that would then give us the instantaneous rate of change, the rate of change at a moment. So let's consider that algebraically as an exercise for a moment. If we take the function f of x equals 3x squared, you'll notice we did that before, we don't let h be zero, right? But we wanna evaluate and simplify this difference quotient. What it would look like would be the following. We're gonna see that delta y over delta x is equal to, we're going to get 3x plus h quantity squared minus 3 times 3x squared. So we took right here, and this is all gonna be above h. So now I'll annotate this thing here, 3x squared, this is just f of x, right? But what is this right here? 3x plus h squared, this is equal to f of x plus h. That's what the difference formula requires, the difference quotient formula. But now we wanna simplify it. Our goal is to give it of the h on the bottom, right? Because h is not allowed to be zero in the current form. If we could cancel out the h, then we could be like, oh, h can't equal zero now. Let's see what happens in that situation. Now to do that, to give it of the h, we have to basically expand and combine like terms in the numerator. So I'm gonna have to foil out the x plus h, the x plus h squared.  Next thing, distribute the three. In this case, you're gonna get 3x squared plus 6xh plus 3h squared minus 3x squared all over h. One thing you're always gonna notice when you do difference quotients is that with the difference quotient, there's this f of x part and there's the f of x plus h part. The f of x part will always cancel out entirely with some of the f of x plus h parts. Notice, for example, you have a 3x squared and 3x squared. You're subtracting them, they cancel out.  Aha, notice everyone in the numerator is divisible by h. Here's an h, here's an h. We can factor those things out. And now we'll then leave behind h times 6x plus 3h all over h. For it's now this divisor of h can cancel with the divisor, so the h in the denominator can cancel with this common divisor of h in the numerator and we end up with 6x plus 3h. So this gives us a formula for the average rate of change. This is a formula for the average rate of change here. So notice now that the average rate of change is always gonna look like 6x plus 3h. For which it's like, if I allowed h to go to zero in this situation, so now if we allow h to go to zero, this would look like 6x plus 3 times zero. That is, this just becomes 6x. And so then what we can then say here is that not the average rate, so one thing we talk about is the average rate, the average rate of change we're gonna denote as this delta y over delta x. But the instantaneous rate of change, that is, this is the slope of the tangent line, the instantaneous rate of change, we actually denote that as dy over dx. What we see here is that this dy over dx always is gonna look like a 6x, all right? And so earlier we did delta y over delta x, we evaluated that from one to three right and we got the number 12, like so. So what this told us is that if we take, taking again our parabola, I'm just gonna redraw it on the screen right here. So we have our parabola, it looks something like the following. So what we saw here is if we take the point one and we take the point three, then connecting the dots, the slope of the secant line would look like m equals 12. But using our difference quotient and simplifying it, what we see here is that the instantaneous rate of change, which we call dy over dx, if we do that one, the instantaneous rate of change dy over dx, if we evaluated at x equals three, so the average rate of change requires an interval, you need a left endpoint and a right endpoint. The instantaneous rate of change only requires a single point x equals three. By the formula we computed, we should take six times three, which is equal to 18. This tells us that the slope of the tangent line, the slope of the tangent line at x equals three is gonna equal 18. Like so. And so by simplifying the difference quotient, we can not just find the average rate, we can find the instantaneous rate of change. Let's do another example. Let's take this one right here, f of x equals five x minus 17. Can we simplify the difference quotient and do what we did on the last example here? So if we look at this difference quotient, so this difference quotient, we're gonna call it delta y over delta x, right? This gives us f of x plus h. You're gonna replace the x here with an x plus h. So we get five times x plus h minus 17. Make sure you put some brackets here because we're gonna subtract from f of x, which f of x is gonna repeat the formula, five x minus 17. Like so, this is over h. Now combine like terms, right? I'm gonna distribute the five first of all. So we're gonna get a five x plus five h minus 17. And then we're gonna subtract from that five x minus 17. This all sits above h. You'll notice that the five x is canceled. Five x cancels with the five x. The 17s are gonna cancel as well because you get negative 17 minus the negative 17, they cancel out. And you're left with just a five x over h, so excuse me, five h over h, for which the h is canceled, you just get a five, like so. And so let's think about this geometrically what's going on here. If I take my x-axis, whoops, if I take my x-axis like so, and you take the function, the function is y equals five x minus 17. So that itself is a straight line with a slope of five minus up to negative 17. So if I scooch this up a little bit, this might look something like the following. Let me try that again, like so. And so what we've discovered here is that the average rate of change is always gonna be five, right? So if I take two points on the graph and I connect the dots, right? The average rate of change would should be the slope of that CK line. It's the exact same line. So that slope is still going to be five, all right? But then if we think about the instantaneous rate of change, right? The instantaneous rate of change is dy over dx. This occurs when the instantaneous rate of change is the rate of change you get when you set h equal to zero, right? Which as it doesn't depend on h, it's still five. So if we pick a point for tangency like so, what's the slope of that tangent line? It's the same line. So your slope's gonna be five again, right? The slope in all of these situations turns out to be five. So that's kind of a nice little thing you see when you have lines. The average rate of change and the instantaneous rate of change are always equal to the slope of the line. That's what we want it to be. Coming back to this picture right here, you have again in blue, this average rate of change from one to three give you a slope of 12. That's the slope of the CK line. What we're saying is on average, as you go from one to three, the functions, if it behaved like a line, it would have increased by a factor of 12. On the other hand though, if we look at the instantaneous rate of change, what we're saying is at this moment, at the moment three, right? Maybe this is like a function with respect to time. At the moment three, our function is increasing at a rate of 18. That is, if it were a line at this moment, it would continue on at a rate of three. And so this use of instantaneous rate of change is very important. Because we don't always care about like, okay, from this time period to that time period, that was the average change. Averages are important, don't get me wrong. But if you're at a specific moment in time, you might ask, where are we going right now, right? You know, like in fall 2020, when the coronavirus was at its height, we might be asking, how fast is the disease spreading at this moment in time? And that's why this instantaneous rate of change, this instantaneous spread is the most important. But this instantaneous rate of change, this DY over X, in calculus, they give it a different name. In calculus, this is known as the derivative. And so surprise everyone, we just started calculus right now. It's appropriate given that this is the last lecture in our pre-calculus unit. It seems that the baton is then passed off that, hey, we're not doing algebra anymore, we're doing calculus. You were able to do it, congratulations everyone. I knew you could do it. Some people get scared about calculus, but I want you to be aware that we've been doing calculus the whole time. It's much like when Mr. Miyagi is teaching Daniels on karate in the original karate kid, right? Daniel, he has to do all these chores for Mr. Miyagi, like sand the deck, paint the fence, wax the car and things like that. And Mr. Miyagi emphasizes all these different motions. Like, no, this is how you wax on, wax off. And so when Daniel does it kind of lazy, he corrects him or when he paints the fence, it's like, nope, you have to do it this way. And so why all these chores, why all this emphasis on muscle motions? It's because unbeknownst to Daniel, he was learning defensive karate techniques the whole time and he needed to practice those techniques by doing the muscle memory over and over and over again. That's what college algebra is all about. Yes, we learn about functions and modeling. We can approach many, many real life problems using college algebra, especially if you combine it with some statistical methods that we haven't learned about in this class. But we also should remember that college algebra could be called pre-calculus. It's preparing us for that calculus setting. We're learning the muscle memory that we need to perform in a calculus environment, which calculus, the applications of calculus are through the roof. I can't even begin to emphasize you how useful calculus is. The modern sciences would not be what they are today without the invention of calculus. And I wanna give you a pat on the back. You are now ready to be a calculus student.