Before that, I didn't want to talk about the breaking news of the day, and that is what looks like the apparent suicide of Jeffrey Epstein. And there's not a lot that I want to say about this. One thing I'll say is that it's real tragedy that he was allowed to commit suicide.  This should have made it into court. He should have had his day's court, his accusers should have had their day in court. And that would have allowed us possibly to get to the bottom of this, to get his accomplices, to get the scope and the extent of what this real, really monster did for the last 30 years. I think the fact that he will not be in court has kind of denied his victims that day and justice. And I think will ultimately deny all of us the knowledge that I think is central to preventing others from doing what he did and preventing people who might be affiliated with him from prevent them from actually getting the justice they deserve. So it's going to be really interesting to see if prosecutors continue going after the different people involved here, whether it was the woman who procured girls for him or whether it's his friends who participated in a lot of things, the very powerful, politically powerful, wealthy, often wealthy individuals in his circle that participated in the rape, the sexual assault on girls, on girls, on underaged, on underaged girls, whether those people are prosecuted. I mean that, that's what is required now, that's what should be demanded now. And that's what's unlikely to happen. Of course, the real tragedy here is that we haven't had the opportunity to put pressure on Jeffrey Epstein to reveal everything that happened. Now I don't know if you would have talked, but I think you would have given and given, well, let's assume he committed suicide for a moment. Given him committing suicide, he was obviously in a very precarious mental state. One assumes that interrogators could have ultimately broken him and could have ultimately got him and I don't mean through torture, but could have broken him psychologically or he would have broken psychologically and revealed what actually happened and all of the people that are involved. Now, so I would have liked to see him rot in jail for very, very, very, very long, for the rest of his life basically.  I think this is, this was too easy for him and I think we didn't get the full justice that I think the victims deserve because of his, of his suicide. And of course, again, we will never know the full extent of what he did unless prosecutors continue and pursue this. Now, of course, the first response to all of this were the, were the conspiracy theories. Now I have to say, given, given the fact that just yesterday a bunch of documents was released by the courts revealing the kind of people that are being accused by Epstein's victims as having participated in the rape and assault, high level political figures, primarily in the Democratic Party, wealthy, wealthy people, powerful people. These are people who, you know, these are people who have a lot of political power, a lot of political pull, people across the political spectrum, primarily in this particular, in this particular release of information, Democrats, but who knows what else? Who knows who else? And there's still many, many, many testimonies and Democrats and testimonies and documents yet to be released and we will see how wide it is based on those documents, assuming that the civil crisis continue and hopefully they do against the state of Jeffrey Epstein. There's a lot of money there. So I assume they will continue to go after that money. And a day after that is released, naming a former governor, naming a very powerful former senator, naming very powerful, very powerful politicians, very powerful Democratic politicians. That conspiracy theory, it's very convenient, one would say, that Jeffrey Epstein happens to commit suicide the next day. So this is obvious material for conspiracy theory, right? And it's tempting and I'm tempted by the idea that probably both Democrats and Republicans wanted him dead. But is it possible that they killed him? By the way, he wasn't a suicide watch. He was released from suicide watch. And one of the questions is why was he released from suicide watch when two weeks ago he, he was, it was discovered that he had choke marks on his neck and it wasn't clear if it was an assault or whether he had tried to commit suicide. So he was put on a suicide watch, which was, he was taken off of just very recently and then commit suicide. So yeah, you can see why they would be, why they would be, you know, conspiracy theories. Why there would be the assumption that powerful people had him killed, had him murdered. Now if they did, I don't think they're going to get away with it. I mean, the FBI is investigating the district attorney of the state of New York is investigating a district attorney that was independent enough to go and arrest Jeffrey Epstein in spite of all this political connection. If you believe that it was the Clintons who did it, which is the prevalent conspiracy theory, then the Trump Justice Department has the incentive to find that. If you believe, as I believe that if, that both political parties had an incentive to knock him off, then yeah, maybe, maybe they shut enough people down. But you know that the attorney general who prosecuted him was independent enough and courageous enough to go after him knowing all these political connections. So one would have to believe that this will come out if indeed he was murdered and did not commit suicide. But yeah, I mean, this is as close as it comes to a conspiracy that kind of seems doable, right? It kind of seems like you've got enough people who have the interest to do it. Including by the way, Trump, who information has come out over the last couple of weeks that he was very close to Jeffrey Epstein at least in the 90s and in the early 2000s. So who knows? No evidence and no suspicion about him doing anything bad, but they were close. They would party together. By the way, the revelations yesterday were super disgusting. I mean, of all kinds of people, a Nobel Prize winner in economics who kind of were the pioneers of artificial intelligence, the politicians, wealthy individuals, all accused of having sex with underage girls arranged for by Epstein. Now, some of those, it could be false accusations and we'll see how much corroborating evidence there is around these things. But God, I mean, you've got to believe that some of this happened, whether these particular people or other particular people. And I don't want to name names because again, these are just accusations. We still assume people are innocent. That's all proven guilty. But the extent of the accusations, the specificity of the accusations, the scope of them and all of that suggests that something horrific, something on a grand scale happened here and that a lot of very powerful, very famous people were involved. And it's just horrific. Now, I have to say this because I'm talking about facts in spite of those of you who resent me for attacking Donald Trump. Donald Trump retweets today, retweets. I don't know what time exactly, but retweets, unless he has some evidence from the Justice Department, I doubt it that there is a conspiracy here. Donald Trump retweets the following tweet, died of suicide on 24-7 suicide. Watch, question mark. Yeah, right. How does that happen? Jeff V. Epstein had information on Bill Clinton and now he's dead. I see Trump body count trending, but we know who did this. Retweet if you're not surprised. So Donald Trump, let me remind you, the president of the United States, not Donald Trump, I don't know, the entrepreneur, the playboy, the cavoda with porn stars, Donald Trump, the president of the United States with the presidential Twitter account, retweets a tweet basically accusing Bill Clinton or the Clintons of murdering Jeff V. Epstein. Now, it might turn out that they did. I doubt it, but it might turn out that they did. But he doesn't know that. And the idea of reinforcing conspiracy theories, by the way, the next tweet, his next tweet was going after fake news media. This is a president who retweets conspiracy theories, unbased, unfounded on anything, and then complains about a media that is involved in fake news. Now remember, we should be spiced. This is the president who was at the lead of the Bertha conspiracy theory, the idea that Obama wasn't born in the United States, complete ludicrous. And yet, he led this. And that didn't stop him being elected president of the United States. That, in and of itself, should have disqualified him from the presidency in the minds of voters. But it didn't. And now he's retweeting, retweeting conspiracy theories about Bill Clinton or the Clinton mafia, whatever you want to call it, murdering, murdering somebody in a jail cell run by the federal government. Because it was the district attorney appointed by the Justice Department. I mean, really?  Yeah, it's the kind of thing you expect from authoritarians to encourage conspiracy theories around them. So I mean, I just discovered that. I just covered that this evening. It's shocking. So this is a story we're going to watch. We're going to watch the investigation about how we died. Was is the videotape mysteriously erased of the suicide? Is the tape being doctored? Is the NSA responsible? Is the Trump Justice Department who, after all, were the ones holding Jeffrey Epstein? So it would have been much easier for somebody within the Trump Justice Department to do this. But yeah, you can imagine a whole host of different conspiracies about what happened. We will have to say we will have to see what kind of evidence is produced. But just just I leave you with think about a president whose first response to something like this is to re-speed a conspiracy theory about a form of president murdering people with no evidence, no evidence. That's what conspiracy theories are based on. Just speculation. Pretty amazing, pretty amazing. The time, the times we live in, the times we live in both in terms of the extent of what the evil of what Jeffrey Epstein did and the extent of that network and the kind of president we have when dealing with such a thing. All right. What we need today, what I call the new intellectual, would be any man or woman who is willing to think. Meaning any man or woman who knows that man's life must be guided by reason, by the intellect, not by feelings, wishes, wins or mystic revelations. Any man or woman who values his life and who does not want to give in to today's cult of despair, cynicism and impotence and does not intend to give up the world to the dark ages and to the role of the collectivist broads.


A small group of Rotarians were looking for a major project in 2009 and one of them that was discussed was Elk Falls Park because most of us have been here at various times and it's a phenomenal park, a beautiful waterfall, so we're looking for locations that we can enhance the current view of the waterfall. I thought it was a very exciting opportunity to showcase our wonderful Elk Falls. We had a volunteer artist who drew an amazing sketch of what we proposed to build. So the three key challenges with respect to the site, having a competent base of rock that's not all broken up and fractured underneath, that's number one. Number two is to have the bridge fairly level on both sides so that the platforms are fairly level and then number three is trying to place it in the park where you can see the falls and its spectacular view without disrupting the natural beauty. Once we secured our major funding that was the point where we could keep moving the project forward. The first day of construction was a very exciting day for Rotarians because it meant that this was actually going to happen and people were getting very excited about it in the community. Today we poured 14 of the concrete footings for the stairs coming down to the lower viewing platform and hopefully the bridge anchors will be drilled in next week and continue with the bridge construction from there. In order to establish the foundation you have to drill into the rock a four inch diameter hole approximately 30 feet into the bedrock and because it's such a restricted site we don't want to get a big machine in here to disturb all the vegetation. We brought the drill in components that are built on a frame and then really by hands. These were drilled in 30 feet I believe both of them. They were tested at 178,000 pounds a piece to make sure that they would hold and that the rock was sound and everything and then we have brackets that will bolt onto those anchor rods and tie everything together. One of the most exciting days of construction was when they delivered the support posts for each end of the suspension bridge and all four were brought in by helicopter on a long line and dropped precisely on the end of the platform. It was impressive to watch. Towers are all good and secure and ready to put the cables across for the bridge. We started working on the stairs that go down to the lower platform as well and everything here has been pretty simple. All the aluminum is bolted together really well. Platform at the bottom is probably the biggest challenge because it's really high up in the air as you saw from all the scaffolding and stuff and all the beams are really big and they're heavy and awkward and getting everything down to the furthest point down the bank and up in the air that high is a bit of a challenge. When they started putting on the decking on the suspension bridge that was a momentous day because now it looks like a suspension bridge rather than cables across the canyon. Of course this is all done in a very safe manner with safety harnesses and stuff like that but when you're 60 meters above the canyon floor and you're on the edge of a walkway it's got to be a pretty nerve-wracking and pretty spectacular type of event. There we go. Two feet closer. With the decking complete getting an opportunity to look at what the view scapes are up and down the canyon and realizing that they're fantastic that canyon environment is very unique to the park that now is being opened up to the public to get a better view. I've walked out to the middle and it's spectacular. Everything that we wanted it to be as a rotary club. It's finally open and it's better than we had ever expected. It's just a fabulous view both ways.  It's so great here, it's really beautiful, it's super leaky.


So you don't know how to keep your characters consistent, not a problem. This is probably one of the most common challenges that AI artists are going to face in the future. And there are a few different ways to manage this, but the first one is to take advantage of the default characters that are already within Dolly. One of my first projects in Dolly was making a movie poster for a friend of mine who works at Starbucks. And just about every time I typed in Starbucks movie poster, I basically always got a guy that looked like this. Now this is a consistent character that pops up when you type in Starbucks barista movie poster, which means that he generally represents the average characteristics of most Starbucks barista pictures. And that profile is dark hair, dark eyes, fair skin, and wearing an apron. Which means if we add the word female in front of all this, we should get a girl with dark hair, dark eyes, fair skin, and wearing an apron. And yes, that is essentially what we get. Awesome. So we can get consistent characters, but how does it work? Well the reason is pretty simple. If your description is too short like girl, you're basically going to get a random image each time because you're not giving it any specifications. The reason why people struggle to get the same looking character is because they try and brute force the prompt with way too many descriptions. They'll say something like, I want a young girl with pale skin, soft features, dark hair, dark eyes, and wearing a blue dress. And you have to understand that every word in the prompt is a cluster of related words. And often the more words you have, the more relationships there are that you might not anticipate. So in order to avoid that, we can hijack the system by front loading as much information as possible with as few descriptors as possible. So instead of manually describing pale skin, soft face, dark hair, dark eyes, wearing a blue dress, instead all we really have to do is find a word that by default contains all of these relationships front loaded in. For example, we could replace all of this with Japanese. Because Japanese girls 99% of the time will have pale skin, soft features, dark hair and dark eyes. And the AI automatically knows all this without you needing to describe all of it. So now if we search, you can see that the images are much more consistent than they were before. Because even though the description is shorter, the shorter description contains much more accurate information related to our target and has fewer word clusters, so there's fewer unexpected relationships. The same way if I needed to create a character with blonde hair and blue eyes, instead of describing all that, I can take a shortcut and describe all of that info. If I just say something like German girl or Russian girl or Swedish girl. And the final result will automatically inherit those common characteristics that are most associated with that word cluster. So it's more likely to be consistent than if you were to type everything manually. Every time me and my team finds the same character, we call it a Dolly OC. And Dolly actually has a lot of OCs that you can trigger with the right words. For example, if you type in T Rex, you're going to get all kinds of different T Rexes. But as soon as you say T Rex riding a tank, the design for the T Rex is always going to be consistent and green. If you type in steam punk pirate king, you're always going to get this guy. Gamer grandma pretty much always looks like this. A young girl in a blue dress playing with a German shepherd will usually look like this.  They're pretty consistent. And speaking of which, Jesus is also a very consistent character that you can use. And to take it a step further, girl Jesus is an excellent reoccurring consistent character in Dolly. She's probably one of my favorite reliable archetypes for generating anime brunettes. So I think you get the point. The average of the word cluster is almost always the same. So when you're describing a character, front load your prompt with existing concepts or characters that describe what you want in a smaller amount of words. So hope that helps Santa as always. Hope you have a fantastic day and I'll see you around.


This video will talk about how to determine which is the best way to run an equation. So x squared plus 4x plus 4. I've got three terms. I could use, I could maybe factor, and I could use the quadratic formula. Well, factors of 4 that add up to 4 would be 2 plus 2. So it would factor, but the quadratic formula would also work. When I have a problem like this one, I might be able to factor, but it might take some work because there's some big numbers in there, or I could use the quadratic formula. In other words, we can always use the quadratic formula, even if it doesn't factor. This would be negative 90, and I want to get to negative 5. I can't even think of that off the top of my head, so I probably would try the quadratic formula. In this one, we've got a difference of squares, so that would probably be very easy to do. That would be a very good possibility. In fact, it would probably go a little bit faster than if we did the quadratic formula here. One thing about the quadratic formula here, a is 1, b is there is no x term, so it is 0, and c is negative 81. So you've got to be careful when you don't have a b. The square root property also works here. We could bring the 81 to the other side, and then we'd have x squared equal 81, so x would equal plus or minus 9.


Yeah, I think those are the metaphors that we could say like we have a spark of truth or a spark of God in every person And the Holy Spirit resides in us, but it's not talking about in personalities Pardon Okay, she was asking about the talking about the Holy Spirit and the Holy Spirit not seeing the world the way you see it or the Holy Spirit Seeing the world is neutral and so forth. And so she was saying, how do we reconcile that with the Holy Spirit resides in each of us? And so I was just sharing initially that that when we say resides in us, it's not that resides in personalities or in separate selves or resides behind the mask that there's a spark of light behind the mask each separate Mask has a spark of light underneath it it's really the Holy Spirit is is in our mind and I think one of the best kind of examples of that is lessons 29 and 30 from the course No, God is in everything. I see lesson 29 and then lesson 30 is God is in everything. I see because God is in my mind technically speaking since God doesn't know about the world To say that God is in everything. I see people say, well, wait a minute. He's contradicting himself left and right here You know, God knows not form and now he's telling me God's in everything I see and God's in that pencil and in that waste paper basket and everything. What's he doing? He's he's going to skit so here on me Now you just have to really understand that what he really means is the Holy Spirit is in everything I see because the Holy Spirit is in my mind and the Holy Spirit is in everything I see because there is a way of seeing the world that that includes the Holy Spirit that and also includes my mind That I can tap into that and see the world with the Holy Spirit So you might say that we talk about non-judgment is the answer. Well, the Holy Spirit is that non-judgment and When we open to see with the Holy Spirit, we are in the state of non-judgment and we see the world from that state of non-judgment but to think that that actually spirit kind of comes down into form and in dwells in people or in animals or trees or In the ocean or whatever that's that again would be an attempt to bring the truth into illusions It's it's much more the reverse of there's a presence in our mind That is the remembrance of God It is this remembrance of this stillness and non-judgment and when we open ourselves to Align with that then we we perceive the world with the Holy Spirit So it's it's that way instead of more of a of a sense of bringing the spirit into the human being Or residing inside of us or in our hearts or or anything in a physical sense I've come to to realize too that that There's no real way to spiritualize matter and that would just be an error of trying to spiritualize matter trying to see the The spirit, you know in matter in some way it also is a sense of letting go of all concepts around the spirit and The Holy Spirit in one sense is like a bridge That's capable of overlooking the error of the ego and looking right to the light of the Atonement That's why we need to see with the Holy Spirit because the Holy Spirit is So whole That the Holy Spirit looks right into the Atonement and basically overlooks error. So the Holy Spirit doesn't perceive errors You know, that's kind of like whoa That's amazing that there's part of my mind that that Doesn't even know what an error is that that literally overlooks the error and what I find with Course in Miracle students is They may emphasize Some teachers emphasizing exposing the false and raising up the unconscious and it's good that they do that because you can't skip over that That's an essential part of the awakening process But they missed the second part which is Do not see error You know, he in one of his pamphlets. He actually puts that in italics Do not see error and the only way you can live without seeing error is with the Holy Spirit There's no human being that can walk this world and say, okay I'm not gonna unless you'd use the ostrich approach And you try to just bury your head in the sand and pretend that it's not there But but to not see error is really the essence of what true forgiveness is and Jennifer's been sharing that a lot that it's actually it's actually a state of non-judgment It's not like it's like an active process of going out and try to forgive this and this and that That can be a long process that goes on and on and on and on But actually just opening to that state of pure non-judgment is What it means to align with the Holy Spirit


Humans are masters of deception. You know why scientists say humans evolved intelligence? What do you think's the reason? Why do humans have vocal cords and no other animal does really? Or at least not elaborate vocal cords. What's the scientific theory of vocal cords? Vacation? Oh, communication. Yeah, communication, but like it's more specific. There was pressure in the past. They call it pressure. And all of a sudden, a certain type of people who could, for example, at the beginning, like Neanderthals couldn't talk that well and humans could. And so they could, that we hunt, our ancestors hunted down our cousins and killed them all. They also mated with them. So Homo sapiens men 100,000 years ago, I forget when Neanderthals disappeared, but we're, everybody in this room is like 3%, 2 to 3% Neanderthal, which means your ancestors both slept with the women or the men and killed them because there's no Neanderthals left. So that was the first one evolution was for violence. So like, let's say me, you, us four guys here, let's say there's a huge Neanderthals were bigger and stronger, but they couldn't talk well. They were like cavemen. They'd be like, uh, and there was like two dudes and I, uh, and, but the four of us, we could be like, Hey, wait till it's dark, used to sneak around the back, we'll come distract them in the front. And when he's looking at us, hit him in the back of the head with a rock. They found like Neanderthals skulls and most of them have violent human. They'll have like a, an arrow or a, or a heavy rock. You can see they were killed. So one is violence. What's another reason humans have the ability to talk passion. So if you go to a restaurant, I'm going to, I'm going to ruin the rest of your all's lives at restaurant right now. 70% of all restaurant and human talk is gossip. So next time you go to a restaurant, if you don't believe me, start listening to what tables around you are talking about. Now not little kids, but adults. I first time I read this, I was in London. This was like in August. I read this and I was like 70%. So I went to this restaurant in London. I'm sitting there and there was a two attorneys. It was crazy. I could, I heard the whole case of a murder case. It was one was a woman talking to another woman attorney and she's like, yeah, we shouldn't have law. I mean, she had no filter. I was thinking she, I don't know if she could see me. It was a restaurant and she was like, yeah, it's like they withheld evidence. He killed this. And I was thinking gossip. So one of the leading theories of why humans have vocal cords is so women could gossip about men because men were too physically strong. Now women are afraid of men now. How would you have felt 100,000 years ago where there's zero police? There's zero law. The only thing you had was your brothers.  Guess what women did? They gossiped. So they, now men, as your experience ever been that women have ganged up on you verbally, like you're dating a girl and she told her friend and then also in the gang comes around and all of a sudden you're getting pressure like you're not that nice to my girlfriend because 10 women gossiping. Now women, how many men have had their dude friends talk to you? Guys don't ever gossip that much. Guys can be going, they don't talk. So one of the dominant theories and some people, no way to know if it's true is that vocal cords were response to violence by men and women who could speak better survived. And so they passed on better vocal cords over thousands of generations and now homo sapiens have very elaborate conversation. And if you think that's not true, like I said, if you look at the observation, even in modern humans, it's 70% gossip. That's what people talk about.  Now I'm switching. That was a precursor to my first question. Why are humans intelligent? It's very similar to vocal cords. One of the dominant theory by me, probably the most respected scientist on earth. This is his theory.


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They're shooting at my house, I'm shooting at their house, they're better than mine, I'm better than theirs. I don't like the police. The police have lost control of the city, they haven't got a clue.  Come out of the city stand and you won't see no police.   Things on the side, Sean killed them. Sean thrown them out the window. Celebrities. Let me tell you about celebrities.  I'm all right now. I'm so mad here. And we're on? We're on a table right? It's been shows man, aren't you? Nice to meet you James. Good to see you. Finally, I've just been here to you. The man, the myth, the legend, Jack Collector, Liverpool, in and out of prisons, your stuff's been viewed hundreds of millions of times. For the last five years since I've started this podcast, your name has always been at the forefront to have on. First and foremost, how are you? Thank you. It's good. It's good. Yeah. Well, they always promised you they'd do it you first anyway. You know, I don't, she all want my map, but I said the man, if you do it, we'll do it. And it's, it's mad the way it's fell in here because I had me, I had my honeymoon here because I was on licence. I couldn't go to country. So we picked Glasgow. So now I'm here this weekend. So it's all fitted in really good. Yeah, yeah, yeah. It's all fitted in really good. So yeah, it's all good. Shout out to Matt, straight away, good guy. Yeah. Matt's a good guy. But before we get into everything, Sean, I always like to go back to the start of my guess.  Well, we was born in the four squared and Christ Holm Street, and then we lived in Cagdale, Cagdale area. So it's like you got Cagdale, Cagdale and Fields, Walton. You got all them areas and they're all very compact. And I've got like four brothers. My dad was a doorman. He always worked all his life. My mum's always worked. We've all worked. My mum's worked all her life. And then I've got him and a few people like, you know, I was always tired. I was always busy and I can't sit round. I'm just one of them people that just, I like to be doing something, you know, I wake up every morning at four quarter to five, got on my little cup of tea and a little yoghurt or something. Anyway, I knew two guys. They was like, I can't gangster guy.  They didn't even get on call. You guys scared us to collect it.  It should have been. When we were doing it, it should have been the UK mediator. It's got a media between everyone. And getting called, it's caused me problems. People go, oh, do you think you're, I'm like, mate, look.  So when I go, you're the fucking, I'm like, yeah, why? So it touched your head in a little bit. So anyway, I met these two guys. I knew a guy who had a club on that.  And he had pubs paying me protection on the road. Do you want to come on a few detours? You know, you can have a little go on all that. I went, you know, what have I got to do? You know, what have I got to do? I'm going to knock on the door.  If we're getting off and we go, you know what, we're looking at each other.  Let's go and have a cup of tea. We're going to stand aside. You're going to run in and find a club and put them out. How old are you going to be?  Do you know what I mean? Do you know what I mean? It's a body, arms, legs. All right. Anyway, I've started doing it. I'm starting to get in the Pyrenees for myself. Yeah.  You're fancy doing a bit of security. Because look, in life, it's easy to wait someone. In life, it's hard to protect yourself and the texture of people. Anyone can get it. I can go out of here. Now you can be three or four fellas.  It can happen in your flat. People come in and do it. You protect yourself and probably protect yourself. It costs money. And you've got to have good people around you.  So, you know, people want your services. Show them what you do at this door. What you do there. What you go and see them. What you go and collect this. And the two guys I was working with, they were a lot older. One had just, one had come out doing life. He'd done life. And then he got another nine years for taking a fella's eye out on a bus. A bus stop. And then when he's gone in, I'm left with this other guy to do the debt see. And I just changed the old perspective of doing debts. But look, why are we doing this? Why don't we do it this way? They was always taking pictures of them, getting out where they live. So we become cuterly. And I told them, why am I doing it with them?  I've got all the lads. They're getting a bit older and a bit younger. You take over everything, don't get old, might be all crumble. I started doing my own debts. My name started getting out there. I had a couple of pubs on my own road, which is the old one, which I still had even when I come out of the jail, the old one. Natalie. I thought, yeah, this is good. This is all right. Then I started on a scaffolding because I'm a scaffolder by trade. So I was doing a scaffolding. Debt. I'm in the bar. I never drank. I said, you ask anyone, and any doorman out there will tell you, no one's ever seen me drinking or smoking until I was 38. Why not? You know what? I was, I know it sounds man-made.  And he had lads on me. And I was on my toes all the time.  A lot of trouble we had. So because they had lads, and look, don't forget, I was only a young kid, so no one's going to give me doors. So when a pub had a problem or the door had a problem, I'd just go in and see them. And they'd be like, fairly, give me a chance. You need doorman here.  And I'd go in and then I'd be hitting a few and I'm falling out with them.  But I'll stand up for what I believe in.   Knocking grown men out.  What's your problem?  And I've been knocking these older guys out. So it just, it just grew damn fast.  I couldn't get a good tour.  So I couldn't afford to be having a bit. No one's ever seen me. I'd like anyone to say they've seen me around Liverpool. But I didn't, off me head drinking. Never, never mate. And I've, no one's ever seen me that. I used to call me father Ted on the clubs. Honest, used to call me father Ted. So I didn't drink. I didn't smoke. It was doors, doors, deaths, deaths, scaffolding, scaffolding, busy, busy, busy house. Look at my family man. I've got five girls now mate. What was it like, what were you like at school? Did you always have that size, that presence?  What did you? So, school.  School, so. We moved from great overseas.  And I'm still in touch with it. A good few lads from Lambert Road. Chris Murphy is one of me. Real good long time mates. I've been doing everything great for like. Yeah. So I landed in this land, this land being old school, living on the kids in it. And when he, I was doing, he was 12, 11, 12 or something like that. And my brother's in the big, yeah. I've landed in this school.  You know, you don't need a kid, are you?  So I got on with the gym teacher and the friends teacher. All the others, they just didn't get on me. And, I'm not a sheep. I'm a shepherd. I ain't getting told what to do.  I have people, typing for me, but I'm good organising things and, you know. So anyway, I've got in the school, and it's all good. Everyone has that else, the gaps in the fights. So, there's the school. There's me out, there's one field. We had a mobile shop, and another shop. I'd walk over every morning, at 20 past nine. I'd be late every morning. I could get in my, in my, in my house, there'd be an M10, or M9, and I'd shoot an air rifle, at the windows, pinging the kids in the school. That, I'm coming in now. I could actually hit the school windows with this air rifle. Anyway, I was late all the time. So one day, when they're all changed, school, school, you're all fighting and doing nothing. So we're in the, no, the hall before you go in, and it's like, teams closing, and events. Oh, we've got an awardee that we've never given out, before, in the DS3 of the school. I'm like, no, I'm not taking no notice.   Yeah. I was like, all made up.  We have them up, we have an award, the school's never given out before, blah, blah, blah. Can we have them up at the stage? So I've walked down. I'm in the second year now. I've walked down in front of all the school. And they had a wooden clock with 20 past nine on it. And they went, we're going to give this to Sean. He's all seen him every morning, walking across the field, coming in, like he hasn't got a care in the Wales, and we're going to give him this award.  Made the come time, we haven't even front of the school. Hopefully next year, he'll see a bit of sense, and we can get him up here and give him another clock, and have him in flat plastic, all the time, like everyone else. This is an assembly. And I thought, you fucking, I just felt the gun.  All my mates know I'm a little scally and my brother's in there all the year.  So that year's finished, and we go back. I'm still not going in early. So I got expelled three times, but the government's a couple of times. So, years ago, when they give you the cane, they can't put the, they're not supposed to put their hand over their head. And people will know there was a teacher called Mr. Ogdison, Mr. Whippy, and Mr. Patterson. Mr. Whippy was the deputy head, Mr. Patterson was the head, Mr. Ogdison was, I think it was Matt in English.   Honest the thing he was. I'd like to still have to confirm that.  So, I'm always getting the cane. I'm always outside. Just beating the all team. But I didn't want to do nothing now.  I'm not acting. I didn't see to Mr. Jackson. Fucking love them. Mr. London, I didn't see to their love them. I come to top in French. I can't fucking, I can't pick a couple of ways. But I like them. So if I like someone, I'll, I'll bond with them. You know what? And he's just had this, I thought he was just against me. So anyway, I'm getting the cane one day of this. Mr. Ogdison. Take me down to Mr. Whippy. And they give you 10 on your fingers.  Everyone gets these off the cane. You can't take any kids now. She'll bring it back. Anyway, I'm getting 10. Five on each hand. So he took me in the room next to Mr. Whippy's office. Big roundhouse, man. So he's only me and him. I've had me bollocking off the tip of the head. Mr. Ogdison took me in the room. And he gave me the cane. So he's only going, I'm like, I want to say, well, what are you doing?    This will get hard. I've been a spell couple of times. And I went, no, you can't breathe. You've got that stutter as a kid. Mr. Ogdison. I started to be brave. And many did he give me 10. I went, no, you don't need to give me eight. And I put my hand out. No, being cheeky.  And whacked me arm. Well, it's just serious. I picked his ear up. And I threw it at the teacher. And he goes, lock me in the same tent. He gets the end master. And he goes, me dad. Me dad was on the fruit market. He's done that at the shop. He's worked all his life. Me dad had come to work like one or two in the morning. I'm coming up one or two in the afternoon. So I thought, get me man.  Start going. No man, mobile's then. Don't get me dad.  Cap on. I'm in this room.  So, this speaks to me dad to call me in. To me dad standing there. And I put his cap on. This big TV on. If you see it now each other, we laugh about it now.  And this Mr. Parsons. Mr. Smith. I'm the headmaster. Mr. Whippy's deputy. You have been in the cheating fraternity for 40 years. And I have never, ever felt like punching a pupil. But your son, just something to me in the school.  I can't look at him. Take him out. And he's like, oh, don't worry about that. Never mind the king. I'm just, don't mind the king.  But everyone's trophies there. No little cabinets where you can just hear me. And it's all glass. So he's having to get out there. While I speak to them. I'm not doing it like, spell me again. Me that saying I'll leave him in. So I can hear them speaking to me. And he's this. He's that. He's tall and he's like, well, I'm going to do this. So I'm standing there. So I've opened the cabinet. And pulled the shelves right on the edge. They're just sitting on the planks. I've just pulled the shelves right on the edge like that. And I've left the glass open there. So I've got the glass open there. He went, okay Mr. I'll see them.   That's the same man. He's giving me a clip to back there. And then I'm going, I'm just going to, where the, where the, the other massive thing was, here's the stairs. Who'd be with this cabinet? And I'm walking down. And just as you open the door, you're just there.  Now Mr. Passen had gone to close the cabinet. I had to push it back and everything.  I went home.  A proper good hiding. And I thought, I'll have to get me head down into school. So Gold back into school. I was suspended for seven days or a week or something. I think it's a week. Gold back in the school.  Just like everyone know, you see Sean out. It's fairly long school. I'm like the biggest playground in the North West. And I'm always outside and tell him nine or three. Sean's always out. Please no one. Cause we used to have a little thing. S.I.S. on our hands. School riots cause.  So it was in much way.  It met away. I just, I just didn't want to be there. I really just didn't want to be there. So they call me up and embarrass me.  So when I went to school, there's a big stage. And we had them all back. So all the papers that you don't sell. You send back. So we'll get up one morning. And I just dreaded. I'm in tears, you know.   And they call me up again. It's coming three and three a year. I've sneaked in the school. K-Tickets are in. Got a load of papers. Put them all under the stage. Lit it. The stage is dead. I close the doors. Comes out. What were you doing at the end of the year, innit? Assembly and all that. So all the teachers up. You can just see the smoke. You know, come on out. And everyone's going, no one looking at. I'm going, you're back.  I didn't think when you open the door, you just get up. You get that, like back laughter or something, don't you? I know I'm panicking. No, I'm panicking. There's a bit of smoke. They've opened the door. You can, they're wearing a big, which is like a little swush in the smoke. Anyway, all your arms are gone off. They've got everyone out. In the yard. Fabricated it. The police had called in.   And they had to go to a private school in Penman Street. They wouldn't have me no more. They couldn't prove it. And years ago, you got a caution off the police. They wanted to just give you the caution. Yeah, that's it. I've had enough. So I went to this private school, like for naughty kids.  I thought I was naughty.  Gone in, first day, fell out of the mud bike with all the millers on. A bit of a t-shirt.  Right, young Smith. Caught in trouble in your school. The school can reprimand you there.  And you want to lay in the hard way, you'll get it every day. I went, what the hell? Can I help? Give us a pencil, give us a book.  And some of your kids go, yeah, whatever, give it to them, say it and all like that.  You had all the trouble of fish.  He was horrible.  And he'd give me a hard time. So little Sid was what he used to get in the school. He can put them in and get it on the bike.  All his mirrors coming off me.  So, they get me, they get the police. I have my sex and caution, they take it when they get prosecuted. I'm back in the school, and I've come out of it. I've got in this other class. So we went over to a little shop, Blackies over the road. I bought a load of shabby. And anyone who's fish lovers, that was a naive kid, I fill the fish tank up with a load of shabby, pink yellow green shabby and kills all his fish. I mean, that was it.  I had to apply my tuition.  So, I'm 14, 15. I'm running the mobile for me dad.  My dad's got a shop. And then I started. That was that? With the two older guys. Doors, security. And they just grew. And then, when I got like proper doves and the breweries got to notice me. As my mate called Darren Langley. He started the doors with me.   I was up in speach, candy farm, crocky. Which, no one would do. But I'm a young kid. I'm doing my own bit of doors. I'm getting off for three pubs. I'll take them.  Were you buzzing through it? Was it an adrenaline rush? Yeah, yeah. Election day. Go out into people's doors. Look, I'm one of these. I've got a problem with you.  No one had mobiles then. When I was a kid. I think they come out maybe when I was 18.  So you had to go knock on someone's door. So if I had people kicking off in the bar and trying to smash me, I'd say, where is he? Could you wait for me?  I just, who is he? Do you know where he is? Not on your normal phone. Knocking on doors. I'd go knock on the door.  Kicking off last night in the club. I don't know the club, mate.  I'm up and you're going to shoot them. And I'll shoot them. You wait for you. I'm here. And if you all knew me, you're just one of them people. Have you had a problem with you?  Come and see me. And then my name just went better and better. And then dad left. They had another couple of good lads at me. I had Alex from over the water. He stayed with me. He was the best man for me wedding. He'd been very loyal. I've had some good doorman. But look, when I was busy, when I was busy, we was the second biggest door company in Liverpool. 80-odd lads, 20-odd women. Clubs, bars, sites.  How much of a sore head was it, though, having so many doormen? Was it constant threats? Because your name was behind it, it wasn't as much? You know what?  I used to have three phones. So one was for doors, one was for sites, and one was a person.  And I'm like, I had that many. But I had them not just in the city centre. I had them out the city centre. I had them in witness. I had one in Wellington then, even before I'd come to Wellington. So I was everywhere. Look, I didn't want to have a drink and I didn't want to socialise. But I couldn't.   And even when I started getting the big bars and Liverpool, I was sure I was having problems with these doormen on my phone. They'd charge you next to the pudding bucket and they'd come and see what you can do. And I'm not going to go down and start knocking doormen out. I'd just give it this. Later, listen, you don't want to. Simple as that. I'm taking over the door. You're going to work for me. You're going to get the same money, but you're not staying. And you're not staying. Why? Because you're the prick, mate.  You're putting buckets on the door. And Christmas year was around.  You're taking a piss, mate. You're ruining the bar. And then you mate into an old graph. Ain't happening. And anyone will tell you that in Liverpool. Anyone.  And I'd end up scrapping over it. I'd have a little scrap at the door. And I'd have been done in a few days, mate. But never buy bonkers.  And anyone will tell you that. And I'd end up with the door. So the brewery's getting out, yeah. Oh, I've got problems with that one. Give them that. But I just got the shit, James, for years. And then when I got established, I was alright. Then we had the big war that started. Not letting drug dealers in the club.  Because, Mum was late 80s, early 90s. All them tablets come out. Ears are golden.  But when they're in, you didn't get problems. Because everyone's after that dancer. When cocaine started, it never pulled. That's when it started. Is that how you end up involved in a drug war, even though you weren't even sailing craft? Because you weren't wanting anybody to sail it? No, no. Most of the troubles I had on the doors, I'd soar trap with the doors. I had good dormant, I had real good dormant. Too many to mention. One poor walsh. Still me mate today. Look, I had 30, 40, 60, 70 dormant. I probably got five of them dormant to speak to now. Bristol was brilliant.  He's my best mate now. Alex is my best mate. They all went. They're all standing there, when I'm backing the trouble up. Once I've gone, they don't want to know. They all wanted the money. And yeah, a lot of them did stand by me, and a lot of them did help me. Some of them got jailed. And I've lost stack with a few of them. And I'd say out of all of them, I've probably got about six or seven of them. I'd still call two friends, even some of them I haven't spoke to for a few years.  Because I wouldn't let no drug dealers in. Because that's what the brewery wanted it for. Sure, look. The lights didn't come in and put it, and book it in. The lights didn't see either key, and the police had a key for drugs. If there's too many drugs in the box, you've got a drug problem. If there's not enough drugs in the box, there's someone selling. So it's a very, very fine line. So the proper manager ones like Bass and all the breweries, all the managers were strict as fuck. No one would go in that box. The police had the key. The managers never go in it. So they come in and get the drugs. Sure, and I've got a drug problem. So I'd go in. Got cameras now. So I'd have a couple of little spies in. Go around and see what you can buy. They'd go around. Mate, you've got five. You've got ten. You've got big. Mostly tablets. But when big hit it, that's when you've got your problems. Kids coming in. I hear mate, how are you? So I was like that. You look like that. I get your shot. I get your man's shot. And it just started from there James. It just went mad. And it did have good dormant army. And if there was ever a problem, there's probably only me and another big security company Liverpool. And he knows who he is. There's only one. And there's probably only me and him. That would front all that trouble.  And so would this other guy. And everyone knows who he is. He hasn't done any of these. He goes on that. He's a boss for that. There's probably others out of the door coming up in front of people. And that's how I go. Good lad.    She won't say I'm going to shoot me out. So I go and stay there. I go and pack up my friend. So I was loyal. I am a loyal person.   That weren't my trouble, James. None of that trouble was mine. How far did that go? Hold on. Two years. Two years plus. There was nothing to do with me. I'm running too big mass. Nightclubs in Liverpool. One of them, massive club. I'm running that. It comes home on Sunday. It goes to bed. Here's a commotion, all the windows are done in. Looks at the video. Sees who it is. Rings them. What's going on mate?  You're coming mate, pub. It's not you. Someone's at close to you. All right. I've rang this friend at the time. I don't want your name, but everyone will know who it is. What's going on? He went, oh, I had a bit of trouble last night.  Because I know you really well, and I'm connected to you.  Don't you think you should tell me, ah, that'll be sorted. So I've rang this little friend, and I don't want to straighten him with that person. And I don't want to say anything, because he's embarrassed enough anyway. And he wouldn't ever straighten it. So we caught this guy who was very close to me, and connected to me. He wouldn't have a straightener. So he looks bad. We look bad. My fame looks bad. And these kids just didn't give a fuck, maybe I'm right with this. They were shooting others, ramming the cars.  But I had to take, I had to get the reins, and I had shown so that, you just get lads for this. You don't get lads for that.  What are you gonna do? You're gonna do fine yourself.  But I took the brunt of it.  It was fucking, it was mental, mate.  And you know when you, a lot of people don't understand, you know when you get a bit of a temper, you get a bit of red faced.  Anyway, I've had these three phones, one phone put down, goes and sees the doctor. I'm gonna put it on, put it on satirically. Once a Peter blocked it, once to calm it down. So he said, have you ever thought about seeing a psychiatrist?  Yeah mate, you're gonna see one. Here's a private one in Rodney Street. So here's where they get funny. So he goes to see this fella, sit in Rodney Street, take the floor, goes and sees this guy, a room like this, sees this guy on his own face, call Peter, I don't know what to do, I don't know. He's got a bit of problems all this and that. Right so, I can see you have three phones, can you turn them all off now, now, now. See, well that's one of your problems. I went, I know, I know, I know.  And on the wall, it's not like one of them had arms on the wall. So I'm paying him, so it's like four or five sessions but he needs to come to turn them. Anyway, I've got little one phone, I've taken off three, an operator's manager on to do the sites, I'm doing the doors, give someone else the phone, get them in the office and all that. And I've had about four or five, goes with this guy, and I thought, I'm not getting away. And he's telling me things that I should be telling myself. So goes in Monty, and he's got this fella here at the end of the desk. So you're there, who I speak to, and I won't do talks and set them up at like four or five people who are mental health, it's private. But I'm saying it now.  So I've come out and gone, what did I pick? I asked you on, this is a colleague of mine, this is, forget it, let's call him Tom. He was right in the man.    He said, no, I'm just sitting here so I'm speaking to him and he went, I didn't know he was there to test me to push my buttons, right? He was going, you do well, so I'm looking at him and he's throwing things at me. Sure, I've just got to tell you, he said here, I'm trained in submission holds and all that. I went, you haven't made up for it. And I've literally gone, I said, you haven't made up for your mate. I said, look Peter, I'm not really happy with this. I want him to go here. Why do you feel intimidated by me? He went, look, I really don't want to be here.  He went, well why?  Do you see a beard telling you that? Do you see me take your beard or something? He went, I've warned you. I went, you're sorry? And he's gone, now it's your turn. No, hang on, hang on, I'm talking to him now. You've warned me. I said, look, I'm going to leave. I said, no, I'm going to leave. I want to go. I've stood up, grabbed the chair, thrown the toilet with the chair, jumped on him because he brought him in. So he's gone over and said, whoa, whoa, calm down.  I'm jumping in. He's in the bus there. The alarm going off in the room. But man, I've come in. I've turned the latch so you can't open it. Because I don't want no one coming in. I want them latches you can turn.  He's gone, no, show and turn your chair around. He's trying to get me back against the chair so he lacks me. But that way I kept, oh yeah, I kept turning it.  Man, I'm coming. We all are. He's turned and put it on. He's in the bus there. The staff are running up to three days. He's screaming.   I said, calm down.   What do you want me to do?   And these people, there's a little window like that. Please open the door. Open the door. You went, the police are coming.  I haven't it yet. I've turned you over this year. You've hit me with it.  Go and do what you want.  So I left to get in touch with my doctors. They said go and see a mental health fella. And I wouldn't, but he had all his drama going on.   Nothing. And these people had started it.  And you're not sitting back.  Everyone on Liverpool, do you say to me, show me what you're doing, something like that? What you doing?   I'm defending them. Forget that now.  They've dragged me in it. So I'm going to deal with it. And they changed me one night from the house and they had a V6. And they're chasing me. And they're out to Sunday shooting at me in the car. And as I'm coming down, cream time, this is like the boot up time or something, I'm coming down the drive. And as I'm coming up to the lights, they're bumping me in the car. They're pushing me through the lights. And I had a V6. They had a V6. There's must be a bit faster because they're bumping me.   And I remember I'm coming up to the lights and I can see no, the pokes of his pants are out late at night.  I'm fucking, but I always carry rocks in my car. I have these pebbles with faces on. And I'm, I've opened my son, I'm throwing them out to try and hit their window. Anyway, they've let a shot go. I've come down this corner down in booting. The cars, the, the, the back, the hatchbacks aren't, it flew up and they put a shot right through the car. And I've leaned forward and it's come through, through the back of the car, hit the door frame there, went in the engine mountain. This is what the police are telling me after.  I'm just a dome and I can have a bit of a fight.  You know who it is, but I've took it, I've took it by the reins now, so I've got a deal with it, haven't I?     That happens in the car and the doors.   And I went, what, what, what? I can't get out of here. I wouldn't back down to no one in my life. And if any of these people's seen how to tell you, Sean can have a go and he'll use them as well. So I had to start using them. I'm shooting at my house, I'm shooting at their house, their bed and mine, I'm bedding theirs. But it was the only auctions of a Thursday. Buying cheap cars for two and three under quid, just to bramble people. We'd drive around the van like me in a couple of the dormant. Not long got out of the big jail centres, good lads and my little nephew, he was great. And we'd be driving around and you leave the heater off in your car, close your windows so you get that bit of steam so you can't see it. And we'd be driving around, spinging people. What car are they doing? We'd see them and just ram them, then just come back and battle.  What am I doing?  And then the thunder, the kid across the road, the trouble them on in the venues. So I sent one of my good mates up at the time. So go and see that kid there. He went, he's here outside now. Just barred and got him. So we got him in the car and brought him down to the club where I was working.  Anyway, he's had a little kickin' and given me a bit of money. This was on the Saturday. Monday goes to police. Police base me out. Base the gym. Everywhere. Everywhere looking for me. Anyway, this busy, rang me up and said, look, Sean, kidnapping, false imprisonment. We wouldn't have been in tents. I was like, what? What can I really give him a kickin'? We've had him picked up the car. He detained him. I said, what am I lookin' at?  He went, 14 stars. He said, that's what's happenin'. So I got him handed. I got him handed for that. On my own in jail.  I'm none of the biggest clubs in the biggest bars in Liverpool. Everyone sees a doorman as a bully. They're not all bullies.  So I go to jail on my own. Ah, that doorman there from blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.   And you know where your head is bustin'? Tablet stone out, mate. And we get to know something under the door. And my mate Gary, my mate's been nicked and there's a note that comes under my door. This is how naive I was with jail. And I said, ching, ching. Seer on the yard. So we've just landed in the jail. We're going down for an induction. And there's loads sittin' here.  Who's ching, ching, aye? What are you laughing at? Who's ching, ching, aye? Yeah, come on, who is it? Ching, ching means you're getting close up, ching, ching. Yeah.  I had done jail. Do you know what I mean? I've been an old man fighting with nicks.  And then one of the lads calls me, Sean, he said, yeah. I said, go and find out who's ching, ching. He said, you know, ching, ching.  Nobody will. No, it means someone's going to cut you up, going out. What are you going to do? How do you go up and out into the yard? So maybe my car, he's done a few here. We've backed a few. And then jail was sweet. And the reason why jail was sweet is because screws could have other jobs then. Now they can't.  Think they're the entrepreneur kind of thing. And I used to have maybe 67 screws working for me. So when I come to jail, what can I do? What are you doing here? They can't see to help you. And they wouldn't really help you to go, look, you need to do this. If you want to have a nice quiet life in jail, you need to do this. You need to do that. Comply with this, comply with that.  He said, otherwise, you're going nowhere. You're stuck here. Anyway, I ended up paying for that. And I go, the charge is dropped. And I got out.  Being a man that lived in Wellington, being nicked, got put in jail. So a man that's come to see me and the struggle with the couple of people in jail, I was having a lot of it. And then a man that's come on Monday and they're outside to swallow acid in a bottle.  Time, yeah. Yeah, but look what you've got. Come on. Honest, she's been through thick and thin, mate. I know I'm going on a bit forward, but she really has, honestly. And I'm not just saying it because she's here. That's close to me and friends, close to me.  I have a tattoo and I've got it done in jail. It's shown a man that's here and there. And why I have it there, you can see, there's four big, three big scars there. See them? Yeah. I cut my wrist. I just had enough. I was out when I'd done that. And man, it's something you ought to sort me out. I used to drive round with this dead end, yeah. And I used to have 500 paracetamol, 500 ashes, crushed into powder in a little tub.  Just knock yourself out and sleep and never wake up.  Get a glass of warm milk. Drink it and take all the tablets.    And the man that used to say, what's in that metal? No, no, no. What's in that? He always had, I had the next five down. And we had a man that was living like both of us right next door to her. And then we started moving in half a night together to have two nights, three nights, you know.   I just couldn't get nothing done. These people was like, we're going to do something. They do it 10 times worse.  It's not me.   This is not my trouble. It's been through nothing. I'm dealing with it.  No one's funded me buying cars. No one's given me any money.  I know you just had enough. I pulled me dead in the end out. I pulled me ex-wife into my little drive. Stopped it in parts of the side. And she's like, I'm going where I am. And I'm talking dead low as the winder. But you remember this? And I'm talking dead low. I just, I totally can't take that. I've got no more milk in me. And we laugh about it now. Got no more milk in the car.  I thought, you know what?  So I run to my little event. Got me gone out. Little two.  I said, babe, I just can't do no more. So I went, what's up with you? You're outside now? I went, no, no. I went, look, I've had enough. I love you. I'm sorry. Just tell everyone, look, I'm sorry. I just, I shouldn't have got your involves.  And as she comes down, I've got the gun. But she drank it and put it on roof. How hard is it when you've got a fearsome reputation? People do look up to you. You've got a masseuse who loves you. But then the pressure of that life is making you then, your family become targets. And then you don't even want to be here on this planet as a father as well. How hard is it when it all bulges up? That, that was, that's like the story that broke the cameras back on, you know, whatever you want to call it. And I broke down. Man has got me in the arms, babe. What are you doing? What's this? Bid them tablets. You need help. I went and seen a proper psychiatrist to put me on the proper medication.   What about me, kids? What about me, babe? There's a man in there being with me for three or four years, looks after me, target her, being in her house.   Nah. And I just went, you know what?  Then I got a team in Wellington. I settled down a bit. Then I got me big deal for the gun and bullets in the house.  And everybody knows this, but I'm saying it now. Just wanted to hear it off me.  When the police, Nick, yeah, one of my dormant, I've got a big night in the arena. It's all documented. And one of my mates over on the widow, it was a fortune to something, and he said, sure, do you fancy going out? Well, that didn't go out, James. I went, yeah, yeah, go on. Yeah, check me doors. I go round, check all my doors. You saw, like, play all my door of a Monday, all the guards of a Tuesday. I'm going round. And I'm in this bar in the arena. It's called an upstairs, all glass, it's concert square.  And the licensee comes out, and it looked as though the police had me. Do you want to see it? I went, tell them to come in. She went, no, just, there's a lot of police. She was very copped, armed, these bombs. So I went, for what? She went, sure, I don't know, but the concert square is just like that. I don't know if you've been to Liverpool concert square, like the main place to go. I had that, too. So anyway, the Nick one of my dormant, the old job of Nickton. So I've, I've come running down. And I've gone, what, what, what? Just before the police come. And that's being copped at about 60, 70 tablets. Yeah. And all the tablets, like, oh, he's got you on. So, I'm not waking. I didn't do those then. I've got enough to own, and I went and checked them up.  Me and the man that's gone out with this couple. And the lads have got all these tablets. So, you're supposed to ring the police. Get them, Nick. I'm not getting no one, Nick. And I've put that on.  Don't abide by it. I don't like what they do. But look, it's what they do. So what would you take them to the exit and go, look, get the tablets, get the tablets. The licensees are going to ring the police and you're going to get Nicked. Oh! But see that fire, Nick.  The dormer not going to chase you. So we always let them out. They always got away. So anyway, the licensees are coming. The kids got off. The lads are going upstairs. When Sean, you got any galleys? I went, come on, mate.  Come on, it's my birthday. I'm 40, blah, blah, blah. I went, Joe, get one of them. Get one of them. And I've got a tablet, mate. And stuck it in my shirt. There. I went. I'll be down in a minute. Going upstairs to me, mate. All the police are there. Do you want me? Do you want you? I've come down.    A couple of thousand people in the old... I've really want to say it.  The nicking one of me dorm and I'm kicking off. And they say to me, this one sergeant, flat cap.   Then the two licensees and police started coming over. But they'll tell you about it then, cunts. They're coming over and I've gone, lads, come on.  It's going on here. I've had me say it. And it's all glass.  Say it to me again. And he's put his hand on me. He went, what's that? I said, what's what? So he's gone like that.  He went, no, what's that? And it must have been a nilly little thing. Yeah, I've gone now. A gary, mate.  One tably. And I'm like, listen. There's just been 70 of these on the floor. The lads bolted the door and picked them up. It's ended in me. It's ended in me fucking. That's all we need is to say it's your house. And I can't say it's my house.  The gun I had. I lent it to someone. I didn't think it was in my house. This is the gospel through. I didn't think it was in my house, right? So bought this house next to him then. Got all new wooden floor fits in my kitchen. Lent this gun to these kids. What people do in Liverpool. Loan them this gun. And now I remember, he went, Sean, I didn't need you. Just that's the case. I went, put it back. The key's under the pot. He must have put the gun back.  Busy then. Just what we need today. The house. But no one knows I've got this house, James. No one knew. But the people I was close to knew I'd had this house. Because when you get your contacts to the bank, it's gone to an old address I had and these fuckers knew this. I haven't come to see this house. Yeah, go on. Not near this thing. Far as I know. It's not near.   And I'm saying it for the first time. So they come in at about four in the morning, three o'clock in the morning.  She's trying to nick a man that could have nicked one of his own. She's screaming that could have nicked me. And my bed's all oil. I know all your beds are oil, man. She burns the phone out in the custody suite. They come and got me. Three signs of luck. So when you speak to your wife and you will you please tell her, she's blocking the line. She's blocking the line. But obviously, I think we're getting out. So we come in a bit, Sean. Got your guns here. They're snubbing almost 38. Yeah. Two is hard, he went. Man. He went. Me slid to go. I went. I'm the man. I thought I want to go to jail. I can't do this on the street no more.  And these people, that was dead close to me. I thought I'm going to kill one of them.    And I went, you know what the man, me slid to go. I went, look the man. What are you doing with them?  I bought them to protect myself. Not to cause fear and danger. I bought them to protect myself.  So what am I going to do? Let's have a fight. Come on.  So they nicked me. I got six years, eight months. 13% off. It was five years before or something. Did you plead that? Did you plead that? I just pleaded guilty that way. And they went to unveil it. No.  Get it done. Get it done. So they nicked me on the set. Get them all on the Monday. I called Monday straight up on jail. Couple of me. And I'm in jail.  I'm in jail.  Not bad prick and all that.  I thought they was. I made their name. Anyway, I'm in jail. So I knew a couple of screws. And in the security, he comes up to me and goes, yeah, it's on. When you send a letter into jail, they're all checked. When you send one, what's it called? When you send it, you've got to open it. Special delivery. Special delivery. So the screws, I don't know if it's on jail. They come your door. Special delivery. You've got to open it in front of them and see what it is. So if you're bad, send your pictures in the bikini and all like that. The screws open your letters, and just you're paid. Yeah, go on. Put them on your book. So the screws said, my luck, you're going to get a pair of trainees sent up. And the dogs. Being on them. And there's a need. Smacking it.  I don't sell them. Look, who's it come from? He went to snow center on it. It's from the dress. I went, I haven't ordered up trainees.  I've only been in about eight, nine weeks.  He went, don't accept a parcel. Once you accept that parcel, whether you know a bar or not, and you open it, you're getting nicked. I went there, he went, you're getting nicked. So I refused it. Then she goes, you come and see him.  I haven't put a nap in for trainees. I don't know anyone. Then they done it. It was the Christmas before they got Nick, and when they've done it before, the Christmas got nicked.    Why are they doing it? Because I was a nuisance to them. Because they started all the trouble with me and I fell out with them.  They wanted me to carry on with their beef. Crack on money. Nothing to do with me. He's all got money. He's all on this and that.  He's left me with nothing. Nothing. No one gives me money to buy cars, guns, paid to lads for sitting at people's houses, looking after them, and eat some scourge outside my house.  They're not paying them. I'm in my company. And I couldn't believe it. I thought, who would send me smacking? It was them.  They're showing you put a guilty. I said, you know what? She was a busy, she was an armed response busy and she went a detective. And she went, I'm very shocked.   I can't be asked. I need a break. I said, but no, I'll end up getting lifed off. I'll end up killing someone or killing a couple of people or I'll end up getting killed myself.  I wanted to go, I was there. I wanted to go to jail. So she went, well, I just want to tell you something. I'm off the record. The people that are on the bank, they're all standing up, sitting in bar, all drinking cups of tea. And we've had 27 missed calls tonight to say you're carrying a firearm. I said, so what are you saying? It's down to them, she went, I'm off the record here. They blew me up.  They blew me up. And everyone was telling me, in jail, they thought I was going, no, I fell out. He went, I'm telling you. And it did. Then the enemies they had become my mates in jail, were telling me what had happened to them. We got nicked, I got nicked with a gun, they were going, what? That was your blah, blah. I was, what? How many were you telling me?  But I was oblivious. I just wanted to sort this trouble, because all this trouble was going on.  I'll sort, yeah. I just, I just stayed, I was in that mindset of, you're bringing trouble. You fight fee with fear. And that's what I was doing. And a lot of me lads got hit, I got hit. Mentally, I was fucked.  Fucked for years. And, you know, even driving up here today, and she being in tears, I was getting emotional, because when I was in jail, I listened to a guy called, Ray Lamontage, or Ray Lamontage. Trouble. Trouble, oh, mate. Great tune. What an album. What an album. Sad on it. Oh, mate. There's a lot of women being there. Yeah. Troubles. And I'm singing to a man that's coming up this morning. And she's getting, I had to say, she's getting emotional. Because when I was in jail, he was alive for the airplane, the guitar.   It's like I have to tell the night, but I was about Italy. What was like, man? When I got to Italy, he was like a bit quiet. And he's playing these tunes.  I've got, I get up at half past, sailing me past, I was man-training.  What, anyway, what are you playing? I'm playing this, like who the fuck's right? I'm on time, I'm on time.  And he went, listen to him.  Got me through me jail, honest, got me through me jail. That album, I could relate to the word, Trubble, you're always worrying, and your bed saves you. And I'm singing this to her, she knows the songs, you have never heard them. And she'd come up on the visits, I was telling her, oh, I can't get into that. And now, we haven't heard it for ages, and obviously I'm up here, because it's me, obviously. I didn't know it was when you, you booked it. And it was a bit emotional, coming up to be honest. It was, it was good, it was good. So how does that make you feel, then? You're fighting a war that's not even yours.  And then it turns out, they've then set you up, where you're then becoming suicidal, your message is getting put under pressure. How much do you feel let down, then? Are angry, or how do you feel, towards at all? Mate, you know what? There's no lawyer in the life of crime anyway, you've learned the hard way. No, there isn't. But how does it make you feel to be staunch and try to do the right thing, but then it's all came crumbling down, where you've just been used? You know what? I went guilty, in the police station, looked at my ankle, where'd you get them?    No, no. I knew her mate, she was army-spons, she pulled me a lot of times, and she used to say to me, what are you doing? You got a family now? What are you doing? I had busy saying to me, what are you doing? This is police telling me where the trouble's going on. It's not your beef, get them to sort it. But I just took her by the reins. Anyway, when she told me that, and then I'm in jail, I've come out, as I'm in jail. I told you, you know what, if I would have got bail, me solicited, look, I'll apply for bail, you've got big businesses. It was my first prison sentence, I've been demanded three times, that was my first prison sentence. It's your first sentence. Which were you? When I went in, 38, was it, man? 40. So it's not my first sentence, so I was down as a businessman, being locked, I remember a good few times, but the police here is having a small army behind you.  And I was 40, and if she would have told me that, and I would have got bail, I would have been a killer. Me solicited, said to me, look, I'll apply for bail for London, we'll get your bail. Let's look at the stats, I know it's going, it's very hard to get it, but you've got to sort all your business out, you've got your wife and all that. We need to, there's a lot to sort out here, I'll apply for bail, don't. He said to me, look, we've got a good chance of getting it. You're not going to leave the country, you're not an absconder. It's your fair sentence. But obviously the police knew me very well. He said, let's try it. And I wanted to, for Amanda's sake, to sort things out with Amanda and all that, and the baby. And I said no. So why would I, I'd kill them, mate, I would have killed them. How was it, Sean, being in there, were you ever worried for your wife's safety and say they couldn't do it?  I got used to shoving them.   Some ex-hip stuff up your body, not for Etsy. So I've gone into jail. I've neither of them, just loaded jail stuff. We can Bobby do it another time. And you know these, the old knockers, I don't know, they're all that big assy. Yeah. I get the phone off the slot.  So he said to me, charge it, so he gave me the key, and I'm like, the first slide, mate. And I'm like, I think key ring was the remand ring that men have gone in. I was only on the remand ring for four days, because I've gone guilty, so I can go into jail in the population. So I didn't want to get remanded, get put in with all the scrunches in the baguettes, in the tabby boxes. If you go guilty, they'll put you in jail in the population. Well, they had a few mates in them, but I was there for two days. Anyway, they just had to give me this phone.  No one, but you kettle. I'm flunking in and blew the landing.    What to do with the phone? Well, mine's gone. And they're like, but just being banged up, there was still screws on it.   I don't know this kid. I've only been in three nights.   You've got to mess it up. Throw it down the toilet. No one needs to phone. You've got to be fucked. You said plug it. I went, I didn't plug it, no fucking, for you messing, you went. But he had loads of businesses. I had like 27 doors, clubs, sites. I had loads of bad money.  How'd you plug the phone? He went, mate, I'm not gonna plug the phone.  He went, no, no, no.   I told him, he's got it. He went, I'll show you, he's got it all there. He went, I said, go on then. Let's see.   I tore the card, I couldn't hear the screws. Oh, blood, I'm lucky. They're opening doors, they're all going to screws, they're on the Germans, they're on, and mate, I've got it.  And then I've heard the door, and the door there, and I'm just sat down, walking down.   One who says it's easy, it's not far too many times, mate. But you know what? You know what? They'll be coming home. They'll be coming home with me.  I haven't had my bell end cut, so I'm stuck in the force can.  One, two, three, four, go. Just got it up. The things you do for love, Sean and I. And you know what? We laugh now. It wasn't about the money. I had to speak to my bed, because she's all he had, mate. I had my mates, he had Walsh, he had Alex, I had my mates that met in jail, he was still one of my best mates, that Mikey, great guy. Oh, yeah, I had all my own family, my brothers, my mum and all that. But, I went on a sticks, my face, I'd get in jail. And the man was coming on the fist, and seeing me on the roll, and you know, just that, it'll be alright. And then the second fist, it, my dad come.  I went, what?  He went, lads, he was, what's going on?  I said, dad, them cunts, and the man that had told them what had happened. He said, they what? He said, well, you better off in here. I said, oh, thanks. Yeah. And you know what? Jail, but the only place I could go to sleep and fell safe. Sound that, innit?  I live in a separate room from Amanda, I don't have a room in my room, don't have my kids in the room, I have everything by plant go there. Mate, I don't even have a boss car now.  Yeah, the boats. That one, I don't know what it is. I'm in the car, I'm going up to the, where, where Wings lived, poor mate who died.  Lester. Lester, go and see me, I'm mate who died, Wings, God bless him.  No, nuts on it. Just them saying, do you want to know you think, you're looking nuts. Like, what the, so I'm in here, hanging them out, you can't find that.      I have a nose pipe in my car, and that'll reach my car, Katie Berney. Even now, I don't have trouble now. These lads, that had all the trouble. I've spoke to her for them. I don't have a problem with them now, James. I really don't. They understand that we're my beef.  A man was coming in the jail, and I moved her twice. She lived in Iton First, then in Wellington.    I don't have to be bare for her. I'm here, James. What's the worst thing about being in prison, in prison, Sean?  Not seeing your love on, but just watching your business go, mate.  I've gone to jail. They went down to every door I had, I meant. Available security's still on here.  We'll evoke your license. The director's just being done for guns and all that. So, I'll put everything in the man's name, dabbing down the secretary. Took everything off me, guys. So, I'm going from in five or six grand a week. I've been in prison over 1.25 million. And we're in, about three or four months. I'm lucky if I'm doing eight grand on doors, mate. Took everything. Took everything. I'm lucky if I'm doing it. Police. And the reason why the police done here. I kept about three good doors, I had a door in Liverpool called Flanigans, like famous Flanigans in Irish, but, and the man just kept that. And he had a place called Royal Berta, golf in South Wales. I had to have done time, about seven years. I had the Flanigans for 11 years, maybe 12. So, we had doormen on Flanigans, And it was the first year they were having the open in Royal Bergdale. And they needed, like, 80 guards. So I'm in jail, so man, speak to them. Alex will sort that. Alex will sort that out, yeah. Alex will work. Walt will help you with that. So a couple of good lads around us, get on that and sort it.  Jails, this is the company you've got. But they all fell in that money. I think his name was Tom, he's like an army general. And he thinks I'm a man that goes and has a meeting with him. He said, look, I'm getting all this about you. And I'm like, we've had this for seven years. But because there was big money coming in here. And these used to have a little security famous. People that was really close to.  Jealousy. I was going to the big money, said, man, that'll do. That'll just, I don't have money, keep me going anyway. There's an extra bit of money. Keep that, put it on one side, put it in the guard company, not the door company. These two come in, that's the cause. And she was going to do them for slander. They went, look, we can't have you here. So the main guy in Mount Berkdale went, I haven't got a problem with able security. I've had them seven years. We need 80, it was 84, 89 staff to provide all the staff. So let's say I regulated the country, all the structures and everything we're doing. And I'm happy. Police, if you have anything to do with able, we'll shut it down. It's the first open over here in this country. It was 2001 or something like that, or 2000. He went, yeah. So this busy's Rangamanda. She bought a big complaint and over the police officers. And he's Rangamanda. And she went, listen. She went, you know I'm running that. And yeah, it is yours. And I'm running it with his dad. And all good luck. Unless I had it up. She went, I'll tell you what I'll do with you. Once she gets out, we'll get them in jail at the time. And everything's just gone mate. And I'm out on the phone. I've got bits of beef in jail on them.  A few of them stayed with us. They were just there for the wait. Just there for the wait mate. And I'm going to fight someone. They're all standing behind this here.  I've gone to jail. I've gone. They just want to stay under it. No, no. I'll stay here. I'll get your waiters. And you're really fine. You're fine out.  And my mate told me that. My good mate Paul Arden.  He's done a podcast a few months ago.  And he went, you're fine out of your mate at when you go to jail. I was like nah. He went, I'm telling you. Can I just go and visit him in jail? He went to jail mate. People just forget about you. You'll have jail mate. And when you come out. Oh, how are you? You said you don't want to send me no money in.  But you won't come and visit you. And anyway, this man has put a complaint about these two lights in the office.  And man, a man that went. I have proof that you've took back Anders. Never mind off Sean. I've seen these two police officers.  I think once he's tired. Once he might still be there. I've given them endless. I'm one of the biggest clubs. When they put in for a light license before a light license has come out. Here's our applications Sean. With your past dad to them. Well, I've just seen a brown folder. Yeah. Because I've never even been to a concert together.  I'm doing a proper job. Still the same lads on the door. No problems on the door. But like the bosses come to jail. So the company look bad. But let it change to the him.    To run it. That was only one big club I was on. What else was to take? And I'm incredible. Nah. And I just lost faith with everyone mate. I don't like the police. The police have lost control of the city. They've got a club.   You don't see them. City centre you will. Come out of the city centre. You won't see no police. What do you think of the state of Liverpool? Do you know? Think it's a good place or a bad place? No. I think Liverpool is booming. Booming.  Not to call. Eurovision. Eurovision of me. Look. I love Liverpool. Go to Liverpool. Yeah. Maze and city.  You get the odd ones. Someone being it and put it in the coma. But what about the other ones that have been just slashed or knocked out and the ambulance have been out? You're not the important one.  You're not the important one. Liverpool isn't as safe as what people think it is. Right of the day. Come 12, one in the morning. Different place, mate.  Most of us think he's seen him in prison, Sean. Erm, I've seen quite a few things in prison, mate. I've seen a kid get swilled up with all the sugar. He was a nonce. He was a deserter.  Because you allow kettles now. Years ago. I don't know if you know the jails up here. You went outside on the wall. And the water was just hot enough for the cup of tea. Now you've got kettles in your room. So I've been moved. Of chewing. And I've put me with the lifers. And I knew a few of them. And they had this fellow now. So he had to give them Kit Kats to the screws. Yeah, come on, do that. Want the job. Always ran them, always standing by the office.  And one of these kids, there was two lifers there. They'd only come down for the visits. And they got like 24s. 21, which is big, then. Look at when I was there.  I said, mate, look, do your own way first. Everyone calls everyone a nonce. But you know what you say? He looked like a nonce. He fucking... He looked like he was selling without the air. But without the air. Oh, Ron Farris without the beard. The only percent. And he went, he's getting swirled. I said, well, he went. I'm not allowed to go on the cleaner's server. He's getting swirled. So because there were a couple of screws and you're on a light for you, leave your door open. If you don't go to work in jail, you get locked up. But because there were some of the screws and on the landing, we had a rower, a bike, and a stepper. So to leave me out all day, I had just to have a go on that, to have a go on that. So I can see them and they've got two jars of coffee, coffee jars, with loads of sugar in it and boiled two of them at a time. He had the two of them and put the two of them straight in his car, mate. He was standing there and he was leaning on the way he'd go on the stairs. Yeah, boss, no boss. They were like, you know, one of them. And the kid, the kid got nicked for the win. The kid's doing 24 years.   I've seen all the parts are shut. There's only cleaners out. There's no water on the landing. They're putting the towel on. They're putting the clock on and that's sticking. They're putting it off. It's been bad, mate, bad. I've seen that.  A bit of robbery out with someone on a different wing on the visits list and he went, you want to just give us a minute. He went, just watch that door there and this kid was a punter. He was a punter anyway.  No, no, she couldn't pass me. She couldn't pass me. So the kid's hitting them but they're not, they're just little victims. They're hitting this kid and they're knocking him out. He's like, no, no, no.  I would just choke him. It made me think he was once here but I just choked him out. I went, just choke him. So he's going this way. Choking him. And as he is, he's on the bed choking him. So pity that he's over the bed.   And he goes, with his finger like that.  It's there. I can't get it.    The kid's asleep. So you only get the plastic spoons but the knives are a bit thicker. They've got the plastic knife handle.   But I won't get, they got it.  They got it and smoked the brains out. I see them in the morning. I see them, not the morning, the day after when.  I said, go and get him. He went, right from the text. That's my lovely cat. People's asses, mate. How many dates do you think you collected all in, Sean? I'm glad you brought that up. Dates I've collected in. Mate, I'm not. And there's a few I haven't got. And you know what it is? I don't know. Making me say, I wear me out in the sleeve. I won't take dates unless there's a cause or the legit and there's an invoice, a paper trail.  Yeah, so everyone called their collectors bullies dates that... Mate, I've never bullied no one in my life.  And it's like now, so I've got a big job now, right? This is live now. Matt, like, brought something a week. A girl gets raped. A fella gets eight years. Not just for rape, for aggravated rape. A jury of 12 found you guilty unanimously. So we got eight years and the judge changed it aggravated which is 10 times worse. You got in the house from these rapes.  So we got eight years in 2016. He's still on licence till 2024. She sued him in 2019. She won the court case. It was all in our national papers. You can just put rapist Cheshire.  She's gone.  No, I'm sure. You know, I'm on occasion. I'm on day as he went to take one now. She took one and said, look, take one. Can't do that. She went, there's the story. She said, I've got a court order. £89,000. And she said to a chick, okay, not about £89,000.   What's happening to you? Laugh them like. She went, I don't wear make-up on. Nice clothes though. Sometimes you win. In case people are attracted to me.  There's a beard that doesn't want to really look after itself with make-up and clothes because she's scared. In case people are attracted.  He's changed his name. I only got the job. He signed to me. We'll be in now, June. May, mid-May. So I've had the job about three or four weeks and I'm looking, I'm fine. And I will look on the door. So one of the points is, is anyone going to call me bully then? A rapist. So why are you calling me bully when they're going clicking mum and dad's debts and I have a court order?  I'm melting genuine people. So how does it work then in debt collecting? What's the deal? Do you take a 50%? No, no. So if you have a court order, right? So somebody owes me a hundred bags. Someone owes you a hundred cans. You have a judgement. That judgement lasts forever, mate. Is it a legal? That's the way it works. So you're old money, right? James English is old to under ground. You've tried to collect it. You can't get it. So listen to your say to them. Of course, you can't find them. You come to me. You assign the debt to my company. Yeah? I don't buy it. You don't buy debts.  You assign the debt for Sean Smith Tentablasters to collect your debt.