Chenitala ji told me today, while he was walking, that his plan is to get up at 4.30. 4.30. Nobody is calling me. No. 4 o'clock. In the evening or in the morning? Morning. I was looking that the walking, at least in the front row, was a little bit like politics. Because every now and then somebody would trip, fall down, then he has to pick up. The championship of the walking is between Hassan and you. But you fell also once, what fell badly, I remember at the beginning. You failed to be. Youngsters are coming in a lager gear, but this Yatra Sikil Singh system. Not many youngsters. That is the worrying part of our opponents. They are believing that, and basically I believe that, you are raising the issue of unemployment also. 15,000, 20,000, 25,000, 30,000, sometimes more than 50,000 people. So not only a single incident happened, these many crowds came. People, our workers, very much, they have adopted as self-discipline. You know, I don't think others know, but you know that I am having knee problem while I am walking. So while I am walking, sometimes I am getting quite bad pain. And I noticed whenever I am finding that difficulty is getting more, then suddenly I am finding somebody is coming, doing something or telling me something that is removing the difficulty. So for example, yesterday I was having very rough time. And then suddenly this girl came and gave me this letter and I got it in my pocket. And then the girl said here, I mean, she quoted, with hardship there has to be ease. So suddenly I was thinking, hardship, hardship, hardship. She gave me the letter and it's written hardship. I was like, look, somebody is now coming and helping me in my more difficult time. So that I always found that every time I am having trouble, somebody from the public or even somebody from you is coming and pulling me out of the trouble. See, I'll tell you what the psychology is. In my case, if you suffer a huge amount of violence, this happens to you. You cannot suffer huge violence and still believe in violence. It doesn't. So if you suffer a huge amount of violence, you automatically are designed to see violence happening against somebody. Because you are like, I felt that, my father died or my grandmother died, whatever. I felt that pain. So I will look when the person is feeling that pain. That I think is also a huge part of the message of the Yadav. My understanding, at least in Kerala, I noticed two or three things. One, I noticed that if you go in the towns, mostly you will find local businesses. All these small and medium businesses, they are all having problems. Cashew is having problems, coconut is having problems, rubber is having problems, kohir is having problems. Everybody is having problems. Nobody is actually having a good time. And the other thing I noticed is that a lot of these businesses, they are very dependent on imports. So somebody can do something on that side and your business over here is destroyed. Second thing I noticed is that women are quite confident, aware. They are not insecure. They have quite a powerful role in society. The other thing I realized, environment over here is central to the politics. Because you have so little land and because there is a lot of population, everything rotates around. Environment is very important here. Much more important than in some other states. And people are quite conscious about it. So they know what are the issues. Today, Chenitala Ji, they gave him a vegetable samosa. And I told him, Chenitala Ji, this is non-veg samosa. But he was keen to try it. He was keen to try it. And afterwards the guy came and Chenitala Ji said, listen, is it veg or is it non-veg? For the first time I heard a new concept. He said it is half veg, half non-veg. Kerala Congress is in safe hands. There's many, many young people who have met now, you know, Panchayat presidents, Mahila Congress, KSU everywhere, who are solid people and have their heart in the right place. So I'm pretty confident that as long as we do one or two things, what we discussed already, have a plan for the future, think about how we bring women into the senior level of the party. Think about how we bring youngsters into the party. We are tribal Dalit communities into the party. And I'd also like to thank all of you because, frankly, this would not have been possible without you. You keep saying my name, but this would not have been possible without all your support, all your hard work and all your personalities. And of course, I think together we should also thank the people of Kerala who have made it possible and successful. Thank you.


The drying of rice seeds, especially during the borrow rainy season, is a major problem for Bangladeshi farmers. Frequently, bad weather comes during the harvesting period. Farmers face great difficulties with drying their paddy in seeds because of the storms and rain. As a result, seed quality deteriorates and no one can expect good yields by using poor quality seed. Seed dryness can easily be measured using a moisture meter. But there is a God-given way that farmers can use. By using their teeth, they can easily test and measure seed dryness. Care must be taken during seed drying. Farmers in Bangladesh generally dry seed on the ground. This means that right after threshing, the seed quality starts to deteriorate at the very beginning. Why? Well, for one thing, seed absorbs moisture from the soil and this hampers the drying process. Also, soil particles, dust and bits of plant will mix with the seed and this will also deteriorate the seed quality. The women will be working all day drying the seed and watching out that children, chickens and other animals don't go on the seed. And finally, there's a high possibility of different varieties mixing. So let's listen to some of the experiences of the farmers of Maria Vives, who've worked on some innovative techniques for solving the problem by themselves. Now, they're no longer worried about drying seed, even during the rainy season. They've discovered the technique of making bamboo tables. My son, my husband and I made our table together. My wife and I discussed the idea. My wife knows how to make a fetch top for the table. So we were able to make it between us. There was hardly any cost involved. Everything was from our homestead, except a few nails and some jute rope. It was a very easy task. By drying the seeds on the table, we no longer have dirty seeds. And whenever there's rain, we can take our seeds under cover very quickly so they don't get wet. Before we were facing an enormous problem, drying our seeds during the rainy season. But we now know that even inside the house, the seeds can become dry. When they're on the table, it's the wind that helps in drying. Now that we dry our seeds on the table, it means that chickens, goats and other animals can't reach the seeds. We use the table to dry fishes, flower and other things. Others sometimes use it as a relaxing bed or as a storage table. Now we dry our seeds on the table. Chickens, goats and other animals can't reach the seeds. The table helps us a lot to give us good quality seed. Now we don't need to burrow seed from other farmers like we used to. So what have we learnt from the farmers of Maria Village? We've learnt that we need to solve problems for ourselves. Proper drying is necessary for giving good quality seed. Drying seeds on the ground deteriorates quality. A drying table has many other uses than just drying rice seed. So we must remember that well-dried seed is good seed.


I think when you're an advertiser, you have to realize that people don't love advertising, right?  And so that was kind of the goal around this whole thing, is like, how can you actually do something that people want to interact with? My name is Amanda West. I'm the senior manager of advertising at Pizza Hut. My name is Dustin Kelleff and I'm the president at Tool of North America. I'm Tom Hamling. I am a group creative director at GSD&A. Can you walk me through the aha moment when we realize that we can turn this pizza box into an AR game?   And he was playing a video game and he was playing a Pac-Man game. It sparked an idea where we were just like, this is really cool. And so the agency came to us and said, hey, we have this really cool idea. You know, we're launching our new campaign and we're featuring Craig and we're featuring Pac-Man. What if we put this game on our box? Everybody remembers back in the day after their t-ball game or their ballet recital or whatever it was going to be. You were going to finish by going to Pizza Hut, putting your quarters up on the Pac-Man table or Galaga or Dig Dug or whatever it was. Depends on how old you are. That was kind of when we realized that, like, that was something that people always reminisced about. And so we wanted to bring that, you know, kind of to the forefront in this. Bringing back memories from my childhood.  And we thought, how can we bring this to consumers? And that's where the idea of this box came to life. Have you ever played Pac-Man on a pizza box before? Pizza Hut is going back to the basics with a modern twist. VisaJ launched new limited edition boxes. Each box has a QR code to scan. It then opens up an augmented reality game of Pac-Man right on the box. One of the first things we had to do was get a hold of the box manufacturer. Amanda did an amazing job of, like, calling them up and saying, is this even possible? We had this stencil and it had to perfectly align with the box in order to work. So I thought, if we're producing over 10 million boxes, this has to work and it has to be good. You know, we looked at the ink density, we did press checks, we had to make sure the QR code scanned because that's how you access the game. Where we get brought in is, how are you going to make this? And how are we going to do it so that it's very simple to use for all the different types of people and the audience that are Pizza Hut customers? Because they have everybody who's tech savvy. It's a people who have a hard time using their phone. To make this as simple and as accessible as possible, we want to use WebAR.  And I think that was the moment when we showed a quick prototype and sold them in on the level of fidelity that we could do. One of the things that Tool did that was awesome is we all ran tests for, like, a month and you had to send in and say, I have an iPhone 10 and this is the operating system. I have an Android 7. I have a flip phone and this is what I, like, everybody had to test it and then you realize where the bugs are.  People aren't tech savvy people. I'm not a super tech savvy person. We made some little gifts, some little, like, show me gifts that showed people kind of how to stand and how to hold their camera so they'd be able to get the most out of that experience. And the goal, mainly in pre-production, was making sure it isn't even possible for someone to get a pizza delivered and be playing Pac-Man within, like, five seconds of it being delivered. And the answer, after working with Tool, was yes. Can you tell us about the response? Consumers loved the product. Playing Pac-Man with pizza, that's right. Watching people play online and be kind of freaking out and holding their phone and not knowing what to do and challenging high scores. Like, there are a lot of people posting their high scores that were great. I don't think I ever made it past level two in the game. In the QA phase, you know, we had to make certain levels a little easier so that people could go all the way through. But I think, in some cases, our clients never ever even got to experience level three and they just had to trust it works. I think I made it past the second round and then it gets pretty hard. Like, those goes get pretty fast and they start, they get going a little bit and I got chased around and then I got eaten up pretty fast. It was a really cool project all the way around and something that, you know, really, really kind of helped to set the tone for our brand campaign. What about your partnership with Van Dynamco? Pac-Man is a nostalgic brand, so so is Pizza Hut. So I think, honestly, I think when they heard the idea and kind of how this this campaign would come to life, they were very collaborative and definitely open to bringing us great ideas. So they truly were great partners to work with for sure. This was truly one of those partnerships where it benefited every single party. They sold more pizza, Pac-Man got exposure tool was able to do something that's never kind of been done on that scale before. And we were able to make an idea that we thought was like, yeah, I don't know if this is even possible and actually turn it into something cool.


The reality directly is it possible to have inflation you have in Bitcoin or go to currencies and it gets an area What would that look like? Well, Bitcoin currently runs at a rate of inflation of about 5%. It used to be closer to 12 It's gone down over time because if you think about it 15 new Bitcoin were being generated every 10 minutes And there wasn't enough demand in the economy to absorb that so it had an inflationary effect Now as the reward diminishes over time that inflation rate gets closer to zero And that becomes negative it becomes a deflationary currency which simulates a very scarce rare system like gold Which is part of the design characteristics of Bitcoin, but not all open public blockchains have that other Open public blockchains have more inflationary monetary policies. You can do any policy you want You can have a monetary policy that is very inflationary You can have a monetary policy that is not inflationary at all You can have a monetary policy that is so inflationary that you have 4,000% inflation a month we call that Simba way Would you okay, well it would be a good idea, but you can't do it With all these crypto currencies, okay, not emerging in the horizon, okay Would you is there a possibility for there to be any currency wall that we see in the actual world right now? Yet well Whether they like it or not digital currencies are part of the currency wars and the reason they're part of the currency wars Is because they did the unthinkable they gave people a choice to exit the currency wars That's the worst thing you could do during the currency war so for example In some places like Venezuela it is highly illegal to have or use Bitcoin And of course as you can imagine as soon as the government says that something is highly illegal and cannot be used Everybody stops using it immediately The use of crypto currencies in Venezuela quadrupled And it's a really simple idea you have a family you need to feed your family your government is giving you money that is worth nothing and Is worth more than Nothing or less than nothing tomorrow and much less than nothing the day after Or you can use this crypto currency which is highly illegal but can feed your family You're going to be a highly criminal feeder of your family That's how humans make decisions and you're going to break one more stupid law by by one more crazy government so The currency wars are happening because in many places governments are failing in their role of Delivering the fundamental functions of currency you see most of us don't ever need to worry about currency currency is one of those things that when it's working you can ignore it completely it becomes invisible is the fabric of Society you don't even know that it's a technology I go to talks and I tell people money is a technology and they don't understand what I'm talking about because they've never thought of it that way It's a language. It's a technology And it works and when it works you don't need to think about it at all But when it stops working everything fails everything stops working even the most basic of functions that worked before Fall apart so it's a very fundamental part of society. So what is the government's role in? currency Don't print too much of it because if you print too much of it its value goes to zero right? Pay the debts when they come to you so you don't default on that value Allow it to be used and make it liquid so that there's enough of it in the economy That the problem isn't that I can't find the currency even though I actually have the value All right, and allow me to use it to do international trade and trade with my neighbors for very simple things I can list two dozen governments that are breaking all forms those rules right now And that's why we have currency wars right when the government takes out 87% of all of the money in circulation with four hours notice and says, oh It's not money anymore. That's a violation of those rules when they print $100 trillion worth of debt in the last 10 years. That's a violation of those rules That is actively stealing from your savings to pay the government debt So when governments do that you have currency wars and what digital currencies do is they give people a simple choice until now they had two choices Say okay, or fight the government now. They have a third choice, which is really powerful. It's Walk away That's one of the most powerful choices that people have and when people have the choice to walk away from a mess That makes it less likely that a mess will occur Right, so yes currency wars are going to continue to happen. The difference is that now we're not talking about currency representing a nation and being tied with that national identity and the national pride and the national religion and the face of the king or the queen or the very important person now Currencies are constructs that can be created by anyone may have value may not have value may have stable value May have unstable value, but they're simple choice You can pick your currencies like you pick your male providers like you pick your TV shows You can now choose and some of them will be better for some things and some of them will be better for other things But importantly no one could stop you from making that choice now and that's a really powerful change So it's going to change the way currency wars are being fought by giving so many people so many choices That the traditional approach doesn't work anymore You see when a government creates a situation where they have hyperinflation and they have this dramatic spiral of Collapse of the economy one of the fundamental things that happens is they take the entire Population hostage they close down the borders the country becomes a prison and you go down with it What if you can exit that changes everything Bitcoin is not taking a side in these currency wars Bitcoin is going to be the Switzerland even when Switzerland is no longer the Switzerland and And Bitcoin will be the only Switzerland left standing because eventually you will have gold Confiscations Modi has been very careful to keep repeating. We won't be confiscating gold yesterday, they announced that they're going to be doing tax audits and In those tax audits anything over a certain amount of gold even if it's hanging off the neck of the married housewife in India Who are by the way the holders of the majority of gold in the world? They will be confiscating it and applying a 60% tax By the way what that actually means is That they're going to be doing spot checks on random victims Those random victims are then going to be required to pay an enormous bribe to those very corrupt officials so they can simply walk away and Corruption marches on and gets bigger and bigger you do not take a political side in this fight This is not about being pro-Modi or anti-Modi. It is not about being pro-Erdogan or anti-Erdogan It's it's about being completely neutral Bitcoin isn't taking a political Stance here. The only political stance is taking is individuals should control their own money


in the culture of science, which includes its funding, its system of hierarchy and status, you know, academic promotions, employment opportunities, your reputation, your licenses, I mean, all that stuff is part of the culture of science. So if somebody like say that you are a graduate student and it's a very competitive market and you're hoping to get a job, you're hoping to have a career and you have a choice about what to do for your PhD research. And you could choose to research something that's unorthodox, like maybe your research question is are vaccines safe and effective or something like that, you know, and you want to like really look at some of these claims that they're associated with allergies or autism or autoimmunity. I mean, you could theoretically do that, but you know that for one thing you're not likely to get funding, you're going to face our scrutiny. Your professor might not even want to be associated with this project. You're probably not going to be able to get it published. Like it's because it goes against the common morality, like the common view of this is what is good, that is what is bad, this is what is true, this is what is false. But who's dictating those? It's a culture. It's not like somebody on the top of the pyramid is issuing instructions about here's what you may study and here's what you may not. It's a mob, I call it a mob phenomenon. Everybody knows. It's like in school when there's an unpopular kid, that's the weird kid. That was me. That was you. So maybe I didn't think you were weird, Gene. I thought you were a nice guy, but I didn't want anybody to see me near you because then they would think I was weird also. Yeah. So I keep my distance. It could be that two thirds of the class thinks that you're totally fine, but each one of them keeps their distance because they don't want to be the target of the bullies. Okay. So I look and I'm like, well, everybody else is keeping their distance from you. Maybe they think you're weird too. Who am I to think otherwise? I'm the only one who wants to be friends with you. Like that's how it looks to me and that's how it looks to everybody else. And the reason that I keep my distance from you isn't because I got a memo from the class leader or the committee of bullies telling me to stay away. It's a spontaneous formation. And I think this happens in the culture of science, in medicine, in politics, in society, in the media. There's not necessarily anybody sending an order that you shall ridicule Ivermectin or something like that. But everybody kind of knows and they see by example what happens if you don't follow the morality of them all.


Boom welcome back to the Patriot Convention 2022 of Orlando, Florida being helped with the fourth year in a row at 21 summit in Orlando Celebrating 16 years 21 studios and 21 convention events Our next speaker is a very good friend of mine, and I'm extremely proud to call him a friend We have some fundamentally different beliefs about life, but by far we share very deeply common values between me and him He's someone I've gotten to know over the past couple years of the events And he's done an amazing job helping the flow and function and design of this event Of the Patriot event for fathers and patriarchs men who want to lead their families I also call him the man of spheres favorite pastor man of spheres number one pastor Him and Brian saw a buddy as he brought this year They're both highly controversial The great men and honestly and sincerely one of the best men that I know best men have ever met and Super proud to have met the event. So without further ado, please help me welcome to the Patriot Convention stage pastor Michael Foster Well, I got this picture last night Right before we had dinner So this is my family. It's my wife Emily and our seven children when I got this picture I immediately thought what am I doing here? Like why am I in our why am I in Orlando? Why am I at this? event again at this conference again You know, what's what's wrong with me? They're out there doing the pumpkin patch thing and You know, you only get that about once or so a year and and I'm here And I it was a honest thought that ran through my mind like what am I doing here? I've been to a lot of trade shows this year for my day job I've done several Christian conferences and and then this is it for my travel this year I'm not traveling for a few more months, but this picture made me think about Why I'm here. I don't have a YouTube channel that's monetized. I don't have a program for you I Have a book you can go buy it, but I don't really push my book. I just let that's what a publisher is for I let them do that for me And I don't push my book to to my church. I wrote it and I'm glad that God's used it, but I Don't get paid to do this, you know I don't care if you subscribe to me or not. It doesn't know that matters to me and so I was thinking through it and I was out by the pool last night with Ian Smith and Tony Tony Bruno and Just some of the guys out there listening them talk the fight that what it's done to their family Guys just kind of like sharing strategies and everything and I thought This is it.  I'm gonna see somewhere, but the reason I'm here is is the movement is Is I'm a patriarch. I'm a father. I'm a husband. I have a family No one's gonna leave us alone. No one's gonna leave me alone I have to fight back, but I can't do it alone and I'm trying to wake up the churches, but I want to be part of this broader conversation this broader dialogue and and see it go a More biblical direction ultimately there steps along the way You know two plus two equals four But two plus, you know three equaling five is closer to the truth than I guess You know two times a million equals zero or something right like the math is all screwed up In the ways I hear people explain their worldview, but I'm trying to move things Towards a more biblical worldview to a right way of thinking I want to be part of that So I've been glad to be part of it, but I think what we have to be careful in the red pill in the manasphere Not to forget is what are you fighting for right? What are you fighting for? That's that's my first question for you. What are you fighting for right? War has a purpose peace Right fighting has a purpose the end of conflict. That's why you do it. You're trying to end conflict not by ignoring reality You know a lot of people don't want peace. They want quiet and there's a distinction there, okay? Right, I've been at quiet tables with people that are upset at each other And those are the least peaceful church our tables to ever sit out, okay? And so you have to keep in mind what we're trying to correct a lot of times You come to these sessions and hear about how everything's so bad how women are so bad how the courts are so bad How our country screwed up and all those things are true in various degrees But okay Is it just a pity party right are we gonna do something about it? Where are we going? What are you gonna do?  He's not married. He's got like messed up relationships like okay You're really just a really talented copywriter that knows how to do pithy phrases or whatever I've been blessed to get to know Elliot Hulse what I like about Elliot is how genuine of a guy. He is he's very very real His he loves his wife his wife loves them. They've been together for years Then I've met his daughters and they're like look at this. They're lovely. These are lovely young ladies they they have poise they have confidence they have everything you'd want to see in a young a young woman and And that makes me believe Elliot and trust them more, but people have this they believe Instagram, right? They believe like I have these people to say hey you have a wonderful marriage and I do but I also want to tell them Like how do you know that? You don't know me You don't know if it's real. I mean so much of this stuff is is fake I could I guess I could be faking this but I I'm I want to be a little more open and vulnerable with you Why I'm in this fight and I want to ask you to to write down today Why why you care about this? Why are you here? Is it some short-term thing or is there a bigger picture? Okay? Alright, this is where I grew up. That's my home Downstairs are two efficiency apartments next to each other upstairs was apartment Believe it or not. It didn't look much different when I lived there over there to the to your right is a bar So this is my room right here. This is Lawrenceburg, Indiana It was very we grew up very poor and it was a rough place my My dad is an ex-con. He went to jail for as I recall Grand Theft Auto and when he was on probation He met my mom at a disco, okay? So they conceived me out of wedlock, but like people used to do back then they actually got married It was a rough marriage My dad wasn't abusive at all, but they just fought a lot and a lot of like it was intense. It's hard for me to remember Very many calm evenings family vacations were terrible Everyone just argued the whole way wherever we want mom and dad up front was it was a miserable Experience my dad was fairly masculine in some sort of like surface-level ways, and he always loved me He always told me how proud he was of me. He only had a eighth grade education and In his own father my grandfather was a terrible man He beat my father when he was a child my grandfather molested some of my cousins my grandfather Wrote a cultic evil book. You can go find it on on Amazon Fred Foster so That was the man that my dad grew up underneath very terrible man man that had multiple Marriages divorced my paternal grandmother and so my dad had him as a dad and Considering that my dad gave me what he had it just wasn't a whole lot Okay, he just didn't know how to be a dad how to be a father But he loved me and he did his best to provide but he didn't really provide very much our front This is our front yard. So that's seagrams whiskey plant Those are the train tracks that there's like glass bottles all over here so we used to go to see grooms when we were kids and on one occasion you can't really tell but there's barrels of whiskey over There we stole one we cut a hole and rolled it over into the levy to the other side and try to drink it We're like 14. It did not it probably wasn't fully cured or whatever So we gave it to the to the hobo that lived in the woods over there I we may have killed him who knows it was a lot of well whiskey So I grew up there. I grew up a non-Christian. I didn't grow up in church at all I went on a few occasions. I was separated from my parents and sent to live with my my grandmother Who had my maternal grandmother who is an immigrant from Germany? survivor of the battle of Königsberg of the bombing of Dresden and of the Holocaust but she was a secular in a religious persuasions but culturally very Jewish in other ways and She had married a retired correctional officer Paul Pete's and he was older and he was a man's man's man A very few words toughest guy. I've ever known my entire life So I went from KCMO Kansas City, Missouri in the city out to the country and out there I was disciplined not in a harsh way, but in a firm way and Life had order like very intense order So you would you would eat dinner you would sit at the dinner and let all the adults talk You keep your hands in your lap you would wait to everyone was done Then you'd be excused then the adults would go to another room and then me and my uncle Who's just a few years older than me? We would go do the dishes and then you do your homework and if you're lucky you could stay up some nights and watch Johnny Carson Right, that's that's the way it was a very ordered life and you're not playing a major role in the difference between me and my siblings namely that I Had a structure for several years when I was under the care of my grandmother that they never fully experienced Nonetheless, I did rebel when I got into my mid teens. I became a really aggressive atheist I had previously just kind of been agnostic and not cared But then I got into Carl Sagan I got an Arthur C. Clark Think thankfully there weren't the internet wasn't really a thing quite yet and using it to research I had to go to the library. I had to use card catalogs. That's like crazy. How how quick time moves anyhow So then I end up becoming a Christian though. I went to a basketball tournament. It was a Beton switch middle middle of the basketball tournament. Some guy comes out preaches the gospel. I'm like, it's one of these things I got tricked but I heard the gospel the Holy Spirit convicted me of my sin. I believe the gospel. I got converted.  What do you do with about evolution? What about what about the problem of evil? Yeah, I'm just gonna tell you the truth I heard the gospel and the Holy Spirit quickened my heart and I was a believer that Friday when I left school I was an obnoxious atheist that went after equally obnoxious Nominal Christians. Okay. It was like you guys like I know I know guys and girls I were like sleeping around and doing terrible things and then talked to me about how I should be a Christian. I'm like, look If Jesus was real, he wouldn't want you to be his PR person. So you should just you know, stop Okay, but that came back Monday and I was a real believer and I started reading the Bible and I started studying books I stopped watching Television and movie. I stopped listening to all music other than 90.9, which was the classic station. I just read it's red I the hunger wouldn't go away. I started being a better student. I was always smart, but lazy I started going to Bible studies and then I met this guy and we traveled all around the sort of tri-state area Kentucky, Ohio, Indiana and He taught a Bible study down in the east side of Cincinnati So about 45 minutes from Lawrenceburg, Indiana and he fell in love with some girl and asked if I would you know fill in for him And then he just never came back. So the Bible study became my Bible study and at that Bible study. I Well, hang on me back up before I get to the Bible study. These are my me and my three brothers I've not been smiling in pictures for the majority of my life. So the middle one here is Wayne And this is Alex Sometimes goes by Justin. I'll come back to them. So at the Bible study. I met this girl in the middle That is Emily Kathleen Mayer, right? There was all sorts of girls at these Bible studies and when you're a teacher At a study like that you kind of have status But I I had been immoral prior to my conversion and I wasn't interested in dating at all I was just trying to grow in holiness get to know God to understand these things, but this girl Snuck her way Into my heart and we started writing letters to each other. I was too poor. We didn't have a phone Like so we actually write letters at me Emily and I have about 500 letters We wrote back and forth and what I would do for some reason you could call from a pay phone for a quarter from Kentucky to Ohio But not from Indiana to Ohio. So I'd hop in my truck drive across the Ohio River to Kentucky and sit at this Gas station and hope it doesn't rain and call my wife with the quarter and talk to her I mean my girlfriend at the time. What do you mean? I don't think we're officially girlfriends It was like a big deal at a court back then in the Christian world. So we just didn't put a label on it but one thing led to another and We we definitely started to fall in love and have deep interests I've been with Emily since she was a freshman in high school as a senior coming up on 20 years of marriage And yeah, so Yeah, we got married. It was a big day every time. I think someone's too young to marry I go and look at my my wedding pictures. I'm like, who's that guy? Emily doesn't seem to age So I do though So anyway M and I Early on in our marriage We had marriage problems and they all came down to I think us delaying having kids and I told her that I wanted to have lots of kids eventually but You know, let's let's get out of student loan debt. Let's finish your degree yada yada yada, right? And she agreed and then every once a while though, she'd say what do you want to start having kids? I'm like, yeah, yeah, let's do it. But you know if you don't want to I was never decisive, right? I would never actually take leadership in it, but We started to have a to kind of income a to career household and she was a nurse Anyone have a nurse as a wife? No, the thing about nursing that's very difficult is that their schedules are six week schedules Not four weeks. They tend to have those sort of rotations and they'll work something like, you know 410s or 312s and they'll say you have all that time off But everyone else in the world works Monday through Friday Roughly, you know, seven to five or eight to five. So yeah, you'll have all that time off, but your spouse won't right? so we kind of started to lose focus on the purpose of our household and And then we realized that was Key, we weren't having children, right? We're just getting sucked into this sort of Roommates living together. I mean in scripture one of the main purposes of marriage Is by the providence of God is to propagate a godly seed or to have children to have children that will carry on the image Of God in the world and carry on your faith and you raise them up in the admonition and fear the Lord and And generally they walk in that way not always sometimes you have an easel that walks away But often they do so that it's a major part of marriage and and I would say I'll talk about this in 21 but where we started to lose the battle on homosexual marriage is when we said that children aren't part of marriage anymore, right? So marriage started to lose that purpose. There's multiple purposes in marriage companionship help against sexual immorality and having children There's the three main ones that's been taught in Christian tradition now for a long long time. So but we started having kids, right? I remember Emma scared we got her off birth control and she was scared to have a baby That was the first month. We didn't get pregnant and then she was scared. She couldn't have babies and And I was like, whoa, it's only been two months It's actually it takes a little while to get pregnant in many cases But we decided we were gonna have a way to name our children I don't know why we did this but we decided we name all our boys after a figure in church history Not in the Bible, but in church history that had influenced us both the first and middle name for our boys for our girls We decided if we had any in my family, there's almost all all of my cousins except for two are our boys And there's a lot of us There's just not a lot of I guess foster swimmers are generally boy swimmers, okay? But we decided we'd name them after a place that was significant in Scripture or in the history of the church, okay? Names are very powerful names are a weird thing My mom named me Michael because she wanted me to be a messenger of God It's crazy though. Like she wasn't faithful to church for a long time and then I was a bad kid Like right up to I became a Christian, you know, one of my best friends says I'm so glad you got saved because we Would have actually done real time in jail I got arrested but it was for small small charges But we were planning. We're playing some intense stuff. We were just bored. It's Indiana man Like there's nothing to do you get into crime because there's nothing to do and we're playing to break into this place We had gone to the library and got Blueprints of how this place was laid out. We've been watching too much too many movies. Anyway names This is Hudson Taylor Foster. This is my firstborn When Emily was pregnant with him we decided we're going to do a home birth and I was not so sure that home birth was the right way to go And I remember I went to a Bradley class and they had to sit in this room and watch these Amazonian women Give birth like standing up and they like this pulled the baby out, right? And with no emotion on their face and me and all these guys in a room with our wives We're watching it and this guy had just got back from Afghanistan and the instructor finished because we're like Are we is this porn like we're watching a naked woman give birth? This feels not right, right because all of us are like sinking down into our our chair covered in our face after a while we're very uncomfortable and Then the Bradley instructor says what do you guys think about this which any feedback and the guy I just got back from Afghanistan said, you know I Have watched one of my friends get hit with a round and evaporate into a mist of blood and just little pieces of flesh And this is still the worst thing I've ever seen my entire life, right? so she brought me into the being you know in the tub I was in the tub when Hudson was born and It was a it was a hard labor is 40 hours He he almost died in the middle of it We had to run to the hospital do some things then we had to sign up against medical advice to go back home And have him at home But he's a typical Firstborn son type a He's got my my looks his mom's personality We named him after Hudson Taylor who was a missionary to China one of my study areas of study in my undergrad was Mandarin so I took two years of Mandarin and I had thought about going over to China to be a missionary But I named him Hudson because I wanted him to be a leader of men that loved men and preached the gospel to him And I told him that from very early age son I want you to be someone that brings the gospel to people that folks don't care about and he's very sensitive and he's He's not as outspoken as I am, but he has a way with people. He's like it's it's cool to see him become his name This is Athanasius Clive Foster he will rule probably the United States of Fosteria with iron rod, I think he's He's like a typical second-born to trying to keep this kid alive has been been a challenge at times Like I remember once I looked down in a pool. We're vacationing. I said, I didn't know how to get swim And then was like he can't swim like ran in and grab this kid and He's he's kind of like what the man is for your people would call it chat. He's just like a natural He's ripped and he doesn't care and and girls have an interest in him right away because it's just kind of how he is and He'll say things he'll like neg girls and not even know he's doing it and it's like you got strange-looking eyes Like son, you cannot talk to women like that. All right. This is not the way you interact with people This is you know, so I'm trying to socialize him He was a challenge. He's a He and I share a lot of things in common. We're both dyslexic Disgraphic, so this graphic is where the process of writing or typing You can't tell the difference between what you're writing So some of my tweets if they're if they seem like there's some secret message in it No, I'm just a little retarded. Okay. That's all that's going on He and I both have sensory processing disorder, which I didn't know was a thing back then This is where things that hit your senses light sound Effect you very intensely and so it can lead to weird behaviors that sometimes Misdiagnosis being autistic or whatever So we've had to work with him through that but to watch him grow into the man. He he's becoming I mean he's He doesn't like to read like his brother does quite Hudson Hudson's read the Wheel of Time. Do you guys know that series? He's read the Wheel of Time like twice He's read Harry Potter like three times a kid reads about a book or so a week at least he's just on it Athens not like that. He's good with his hands. He's a very attack tile sort of person This is Cademan Knox. Oh, hang on Athanasius Athanasius is a it's not Tupac against the world. It's Athanasius against the world Athanasius Stood for the orthodoxy when no one else would they he was exiled five times So he was Athanasius Alexandria and he was a powerful fearless man Athen my son thought he was like some sort of like barbarian like warrior I was like, he's a great warrior for the Lord son And so I didn't thought he was gonna grow up to be like, you know Coming in the barbarian, but I said no be a warrior for the Lord, right? Be someone that's willing to stand for truth no matter what and I his middle name Clive is after C.S. Lewis Clive staples Lewis the great Apologists of the last century This is Cademan Knox He is he's a funny guy Cademan is an Irish poet. It's where the word Middle Earth comes from he he was a really him writers what he was and He's the first appearance of what we would call modern English really that's where you see him using that develop in it and Knox is the founder of the Scottish Presbyterian Church and I Raised up Cademan to to be to be expressive to be artistic To communicate truth and it's funny. He's becoming that person. Athen is very confrontational Athanasius we shorted it to Athen. This did not be too cruel, but um Athanasius is very confrontational willing to speak the truth Cademan though is he loves to read and write and create and tell stories It's crazy He's not the churchman. I wanted to be at but he's just a boy. So he's a funny guy Then something happened that was unexpected we got pregnant with a girl and We didn't think we would have girls, you know, we had three boys back to back and and suddenly We got pregnant at that with Cademan. I was scared of having more kids I was like, man, this is expensive and I'm feeling like in over my head we went from zero to three and under five years and Then I did a study on the church's position on birth control, which was really inconvenient to what I was looking for And so we said, all right fine. What what does trust the Lord and we got pregnant? We got pregnant with a girl and Emily was ecstatic, right? And I was ecstatic, too and so it was a Normal pregnancy nothing went wrong for the whole time until the last day to the day she was due to be born her heart stopped for some reason and so then we had to Go to the hospital and Emily had to give live birth to a dead body She came out covered in blood But what was most? truly disturbing Was how perfect she looked otherwise how much she looked like her mother? It was a crushing Event in our life a change in event My wife was in a deep dark depression for six to nine months as a man You kind of cry and then you get tough, right? And you someone's got to keep the family together And so a lot of times with the way we process grief as men is it's very delayed and it kind of comes out of nowhere Right, you'll you'll you'll see some sort of commercial that triggers it or I remember I started crying like out of nowhere in a Coals when I was just trying to buy a dress shirt have no clue what a trigger. It was very embarrassing I'm not given to crying almost at all But it's part of the grief process So yes, Nicae Leon Foster Nicae is where the council of Nicae was Ratified it's a very important document and that's what we named her after Leanne is a special rule here Leanne's my grandmother and she she meant the world to me so But she's in Ellisville Presbyterian cemetery Until I get her her body moved back to Ohio with us where she belongs. It was very difficult These things they They affect you in ways you can't predict For your kids someone snapped this picture and I grabbed it. This is Athanasius looking down on his sister's little coffin and it definitely It changed me as a man made me more sensitive Right, I grew up in that that house you saw above a bar and I wasn't really protected from things There's there's women that would like local probably prostitutes of some sort sleeping with men outside of my window for for pay Right servicing their John's Even though my dad, you know mom loved me I was exposed to really rough media that kids didn't I remember seeing one of the nightmares on Elm Street when I was like six and It was very bloody. It was a topless woman. It was not good at all And when you're a sensitive person that situation one way you either develop a lot of anxious disorders Or you actually get really tough and distant from your emotions, which is not good I don't think men should be crying all the time, but we definitely have emotions It's a big part of who we are and God used the death of Nicaea to awaken new things to me I always told people was like having my my eyes Dilated when you go in like suddenly you see all the light suddenly I could feel all the motion I stopped watching movies. I realized that movies a lot of times were guys that can't feel anymore They go to this they go to feel emotions again the music the height and all that But I didn't need to feel I couldn't stop feeling right so it changed our whole family and You would think it would make you not want to have kids anymore But it's opposite was the truth with us. We realized that we had taken them for granted We thought we're just gonna have kid after kid after kid It's gonna be 15 kids everywhere and then and then Nicaea dies and why did she die? Don't know we don't know But something happened something happened quick and One year and I see I was born and then 11 months later. Galilee was born Galilee Was a constellation children aren't goldfish. You can't replace them There is no replacing the death of someone in your your life. That's close to you Okay, but there are things that are a comfort to you We named Galilee Galilee Because Jesus was in a boat on the Sea of Galilee And it was sinking during the storm and all these guys were freaking out like Jesus Do you not care and he stands up? He rebukes the wind and And it all stops the storm stops and he tells them to have faith and Galilee was God Reminding us that he's in control that he's good that he'll bring us through the storms of life So we named her Galilee alleluia alleluia because we're praising God again very very sweet girl I always call her blonde Emily. She's just like a little version of my wife. She loves This is one of our many chickens that we have so But having Galilee has been awesome girl boys are great.  There's such a gift Then To our shock we somehow had another girl. This is Cedar Libri So Cedar Libri is like kind of like a human cartoon. She doesn't walk anywhere She skips their sassage and one day I said Cedar introduce yourself and she said I'm Cedar Libri I love unicorns and rainbows You heard the girl and she does she likes unicorns and she wears like crowns Galilee's kind of Tom girlish, but Cedars always got like her her little ballerina outfit on or whatever and She's very they're both prissy in their own way, but she's a very typical Girl Cedar is the wood that the temples made out of the Cedar of Lebanon and we we call her to To be a whisper to help to facilitate worship, right? Libri it means the shelter it's Francis Schaefer was an apologist and a man who Back during kind of the hippie movement He had this place out in the Alps and he would let people who had big questions All right, they're asking like what is the meaning of life? What is the purpose of man and Schaefer let them come through Libri the shelter and would have these conversations with them So that's why we named her that This is a an intense little boy This is Cyprian Ryle Emily Emily almost died with Cyprian we came within 15 minutes of her dying She started to hemorrhage a little bit So I said look let me get the kids settled. Let's just be safe. You drive to the hospital. Let's let's get it checked out Okay, so she goes there and they're trying to stop it, but it won't stop for some reason So then a friend of mine comes over to watch my kids I go over to the hospital and we were planning to have a home birth And the midwife and I are consulting with the doctor there and the doctor says we really need to Do a Cyprian a lot of times you don't need to do a Cyprian They just want to push you that direction But sometimes it is I always tell people the best Delivery the best Labor is the one that's the most natural and healthy given the circumstances and sometimes the best way is a cesarean So we came within 15 minutes of Emily bleeding to death basically what happens the blood There's you there's such a loss of blood that you can't replace it quick enough And so she we this guy was born. He was premature He was a little like no fat on him.    He wrote a lot on the unity of the church and I wanted Cyprian to be a churchman, but JC Ryle he was a Anglican minister who hated dead formalism churches that have all the structure all the ecclesiology But none of the heart so I wanted Cyprian loved the church, but don't hate this fake stuff That's just the out outer stuff. We'll see how that plays out Oh, that's we have a German shepherd and we thought it was funny to name him Luther So Luther as in Martin Luther the German Shepherd this I think is The Omega the last this is Cyrene She snuck into our life if there is a mud puddle she will find it Cyrene Aralea is her name named after Simon of Cyrene who carried the cross to Jesus Christ Aralea means golden. I like to say it's because of the golden mouth of Christos them who is a church father and So for her we just again want her to be the sort of person that ministers to the saints like Simon of Cyrene ministered to Jesus She's definitely added gray to my beard. So she's wonderful Let me talk to you about regrets Let me talk to you about this Few years ago. I had a power a powerful recurring dream that shaped the way I think about regrets I was 37 at the time I had a dream probably four times in the span of six weeks in the dream I awake in my 19 year old self. It was a good time. I think I had some Yeah, yeah, I am twice the man. I used to be I Awake in my 19 year old self. It was a good time. I was in excellent shape I had no debt I was teaching Bible studies and dated my now wife Emily But I had all the knowledge of my 30 year old self I knew all my mistakes Cumulating student debt delaying children putting off seminary aligning myself the wrong churches not buying that stock Wasting money on dumb stuff letting my health slip and now I could avoid all of it for my family and give us an even brighter future Or could I? In my dream, I realized I could do it for a family, but not the family I have now just realized sorry about that Jose Anyway, I realized that I could do it for a family, but not the family I had now if we got married sooner and immediately had kids It wouldn't be the kids that I have now a different sperm would find its way to a different ovum and a different child would be conceived No doubt we would love that child But it wouldn't be our firstborn Hudson or Athanasius or Cayden and I see a etc. etc To have them I'd have to perfectly recreate my life and that's where this dream became a nightmare Every little decision every little word spoken every step taken every little and big mistake every win and loss I would have to recreate them all to have the family that I now love the people. I just showed you To have the life I have now that I love At this point fear would overwhelm me in my dream And I'd usually wake up next to the woman I love into the life I love that dream freed me from the tyranny of regrets many mistakes were made many sins were Committed and I do regret things in my past.  There'd be new mistakes So I simply repent of sin and trust in God's perfect providence Providence is the way that God orders the events of history everything It's a it's good too because the good old days can rob you of a future Nostalgia can be a killer. I know because nostalgias who killed my brother I'm the oldest of three brothers. It's me Justin or Alex and My brother Wayne Let me explain what I mean by nostalgia being a killer Nostalgia is a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past Typically for a period or place with happy personal associations Those who are ruled by regret can get stuck in the past They long for some happy time before they made all their mistakes and this can happen because they either first or excuse me One they refuse to actually address their regrets or two have come to believe there is no recovery from their mistakes So they want to dress their regrets or they don't think they could ever recover from the things they did wrong The end result is that they come to believe that their best days are behind them in some supposed good old days It's always good to get together with old friends and describe how things went down and you realize like man I have a very selective memory. Apparently it didn't go down the way I thought They they have a tendency to mentally time travel out of their present to a happy past and in doing so they Sacrificed their future. That's what happened to my brother Wayne He and I were very close once upon a time. I was his wrestling coach in middle school He and I would go to the movies together twice a month for years He caught my love of boxing. It was a huge sugar shame Mosley fan He stayed with me at my dorm at Northern Kentucky University on weekends He attended Bible studies with me in high school college and when I planted a church He was he was there the first day. He lived with me and my wife for a time He looked up to me and I looked out for him or at least I tried But he got involved in drugs first started with things like marijuana and alcohol as the late teen in his 20s It led to heavier drugs psychedelics cocaine He ended up stealing from everyone he ever knew or loved to feed his addiction I had to kick him out of my house when he was living with me. It was really bad. It was hard I paid for him to go to rehab two or three times out of my own pocket But it never took you never would stick through the program He'd always he had always a bounce amount. He ended up homeless on the street for years at a time He eventually caught a B&E charge and to his credit He eventually turned himself in and and did prison time in Colorado When he came up for probation, I begged the officials not to release him He wasn't clean yet. I knew he'd have easier access to drugs on the outside. I didn't get drugs in the inside I know that but it's it's not as easy as it would be and he would Didn't have the access to our family members that he was harassing and trying to get money from so they didn't listen I remember telling the probation officer, you know You need to keep him. He'll be dead within a couple years and maybe bring someone else with them if if you release him But it was Colorado and their jails are kind of overwhelmed and and it was not a violent crime that he had so they released him In the years that followed the repeated overdoses damaged Wayne's brain. He became meaner He was always a very personal sweet guy But he started to become cruel to my my parents But he wanted nothing more than to have access to his nieces and nephews He hadn't had any kids of his own. He had never had a very serious relationship And he was always married to the drugs, you know, but he loved my kids I mean, he sincerely loved them and I mean they met they meant the world to him and he This thought he would always call and say how how are they doing?  I don't know about a year or so where he was clean and And he saw in them a future and he sincerely loved them But he kept getting messed up and I couldn't let him in into their lives anymore.  I take calls from him from time to time. They're always the same You talk about the good old days and we did have an uncommonly exciting childhood We're stealing whiskey barrels were right on the back of trains jumping off train bridges It was like like the goonies almost, you know, but um, he loved to talk about the movies We saw together but how many times can you have the exact same conversation if you ever, you know Someone that's has a long-term drug addiction. They get stuck in loops and he would just keep talking about it over and over again He started to get very aggressive and the man that I knew He was dead and it was like his ghosts Kept texting me and calling me. It was really hard in the last weeks of his life three months ago He had moved back to since the Cincinnati area even though I told him not to so you cannot come to my church You cannot get into the you can't see my family six months over six months employed Okay, I have to have boundaries when you come from a broken family like managing those boundaries are hard They're always trying to pull you back in He was dead set on seeing my kids and it kept pressuring me to get together for the 4th of July He talked about how awesome the foster extended family how it holiday parties could be we used to have huge firework wars It was like you got 45 year old men chasing 12 year olds around with rum and candles. It was awesome It was a great family man. It was fun I don't know that it was wise, but it was enjoyable when I was little But I could always tell when he was still drinking and he was so I refused and told him that I had Left that in the past and was billed and something new He said, you know that those that foster family is gone I haven't been part of that family for the majority of my life is certainly since becoming a Christian and he get really mad and I just warned him to get his life straight and I told him like life We're passing away and the day he died the day he died Hours before he died. He said I ain't I'm alive His third from last text message was I care nothing more Than for your kids and for your kids not making the horrible mistakes we made And I didn't respond. I didn't know what to say For hours later. He died in the corner of a homeless shelter all by himself in Covington, Kentucky Across the river from Cincinnati Substance abuse didn't kill my brother. It was just a symptom.  He kept trying to get back there I just listened to his last voicemail the other day and it was a strange moment of Clarity and perhaps even sobriety and he said hey Since he sent me a meme that he thought was funny the first time he had almost ever done that Just thinking about you. Love you man. Talk to you later and That was his last voicemail to me Think of the after-effects of a traumatic event as a dark Valley It would seem to make sense that those who themselves have been in that Valley should be helpful guides out of the Valley This of course assumes that they found their way out. I found those who talk Most about the Valley and its darkness are those who have been camped out there ever since first entering They make poor counselors and guides they can only tell you about life in the dark Valley They can't tell you about the way out or even the life after the dark Valley. They've never left it.  It's been said when you're going through hell Keep going. It's a journey through the Valley that potentially makes someone into a helpful guide Those who've never been in the Valley, but understand its topography are more helpful than those who have set up camp there After the death of our daughter an older woman took an immediate interest in my wife That woman too had lost a child under very tragic circumstances They talked on the phone a few times and as I recall met once or twice in person However became clear to us that both that Both of us that this woman was stewing in her pain.  I mean, which is fine like three months. It's pretty fresh. Okay But she had set up camp in the dark Valley and we had every intention of pushing through to the other side She didn't not yet. I don't know if she ever did But she also didn't want to be alone Right misery loves company grief loves company and if you're processing grief, you're going through it together That's a good thing. But if you're setting up camp if you put it out anchor, it's not a good thing So we did something was really hard.  I'm like our daughter just died It was a white body covered in blood like we're she needs to deal with her grief We're trying to deal with ours, but it's just people will see negativity wherever So we had to we needed light back in our life. We were trying to process through Nicaea's death She was not there yet. We couldn't be her counselors. We were in the darkness. So we had to keep moving We had other children and we wanted to have a future Nostalgia exists back in the world before the dark Valley It's the world before that decision that event that thing that changed everything It's the world before the pain. It's the world before the regret before the sadness But there is no such thing as a time machine There is no going back. You can sit you can stew you can look backwards or you can move forward You may walk you may run you may just crawl but you have to move forward Even if it's inches and that's what I would tell you guys don't camp out in the pain Don't set up camp in the valley and avoid those that do and they are many in this space Many they know that people that are in misery suffering want to suffer with somebody else And they're willing to often for a price They have little help and they're probably counterproductive. Were you abused? Did your dad beat you?  Did your wife wrongly divorce you? Did you lose access to your kid?  Do you have regrets? Are you staring longingly backwards at the good old days or sideways at some soothing distraction? Are you sitting down when you should be walking forward? This is the questions you must ask yourself David said even though I walked through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil for you are with me Amen, but David walks through escaping the valley The valleys is hard because sometimes people refuse to come with you. You can hear their voices screaming calling you back to the valley Back to depression to self-loathing addiction for an occasion laziness and you feel guilty for getting to the other side for surviving You're up the way.  You love them, right? Even in a messed-up family even bad dads bad moms weird brothers yet. You love them. It's very confusing But they won't leave they won't leave. They're still staying in that way of life They're staying stuck in the the past and I pled with Wayne for 14 years to change his ways I tried to help him I wanted him in my life and there was a time the words of Kate Bush I would have asked God to swap out our places, but he wouldn't listen and I couldn't stay So I left him there Do I feel guilty? Sure a little he's my little brother. I am the firstborn He in some sense was my responsibility. You have responsibility to our siblings and you feel that more according to birth order I asked my wife a good wife She's rubies. She's gems. I trust her more than anyone. I asked her did I do all I could for him? You know, I want to know did I do what I could? you know because our last conversation was him telling me to f off and She assured me I did and it's still hard to believe But I'm just a man. I'm not the God man. I'm not Christ. I can't save my family I can only preach the gospel be an example Help them as the Lord provides Survivors guilt is a real thing, but our first allegiance is to Christ and Luke 14 Jesus says if anyone comes to me and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters Yes, even his own life. He cannot be my disciple Whoever does not bear his own cross and come after me cannot be my disciple You have to leave the past behind you you can't help carrying someone's burdens But you can't bear someone's cross you can help carrying someone's burdens But you can't bear someone's cross if father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters won't come You can't stay you must love Christ above all so much so that comparatively speaking it is as if you hate others He's using strong language, right? It doesn't really truly mean hate But in comparison of your devotion to him to them is as if it's hatred So you have to look forward. I won't lie. I'm a Christian pastor. I want everyone to convert I straight up with Anthony. I want him to repent and believe the gospel of Jesus Christ I don't think there's any hope for any of you apart from that. I'm not here to moralize I'm not here to make you better people in a limited surface level sense The reason I'm different from my brothers in part. There was better shape in influences with my grandparents I can admit that but ultimately the thing that separated us the fork in the path was when I got when I became a Christian was born again You got to climb out of the valley by God's grace You got to head towards Zion that the city that God has made for us that believe in him these days I mostly enjoy the present. I dream about the future and so What I want to ask you about oh here. Let me tell you first. So here's the question. What are what are you at fighting for? Here's what I'm fighting for Fighting for them cost of the day foster the house of foster, right?  They all been baptized It's they're the future when I'm dead. They'll still be here Lord willing. They're my wealth I mean, I like that you actually have to have kids to be here You know, that's the future is patriarchy futures fatherhood So for them, but not just them These I love this is a church by God's grace. I started two years ago with a couple other elders Batavia Ohio God's added to our number, but there's there's people out there that want the same things that I want They want to walk with God. They want intact families. You come to places like this sometimes and it's like the whole world's Mad Max You're hanging out in the valley, man You're hanging out with the wrong people It's not like that everywhere Well, it's not like that where I'm at then move Then move or build something but stop whining about it and don't act like it doesn't exist because I know it does exist I have it. Is it more difficult now to get married than when I got married? Yeah But you were born for this time This is where you're at. It's where God's put you. This is your challenge. We all have different challenges This is what I'm fighting for starting churches that teach the Bible that will call women to repent for their sin and Men right both will do both, you know, I had one of my mother's day sermon was called Christian women sin It was it was fun And but you know what the women in our church, they're feminine and sweet and godly and competent It's amazing when men are men It creates space for women to be women Makes women feel safe. It makes them do do what they do cultivate and add. This is what I'm fighting for What are you fighting for? I think the future is fatherhood There's no hope without new fathers. There's no hope without marriage.  I get it but Are you in the valley? Are you staying there? Is that where you live? Do you have a future? What is your future? We're going my ultimate future is this I belong to the household of God I'll be resurrected and live forever belong to God's family Believe that Jesus could have victory on this earth in the long term that changes the way I think about things I'm a very positive person in very dark times But also God in the here and now can work amazing things From people who have real pain in their past real trauma whether it's a daughter dying divorce Brother telling you to f off and then dine in a corner somewhere Like God can still work in and through those people you can work in and through you So my exhortations is this repent and believe the gospel. Okay, and then what is what is God calling you to build? The best thing to build is a family as a household. So thank you for your time. God bless


Chapter 7 of the 2020 World Migration Report focusses on migration and health. This chapter that I co-authored with Charles Huy and Kallitha Wick Remerge explores current issues, governance and knowledge gaps in the field of migration and health. In the chapter we examine full key aspects and this is the way that we've structured the chapter. Firstly, we look at migrant health, which we define as the differences in health found between migrants and populations at both origin and destination, as well as across different migration settings. So thinking about differences between, for example, labour migrants, international and internal displacement, or perhaps those within a regular documentation status. Secondly, we consider public health, focusing on the ways in which migration may affect the health of populations. This includes the ways in which healthy migrants can promote social and economic development and progress towards global targets such as those of universal health coverage. Thirdly, we look at systems responses to migration and health. Here we look at the development of migrant sensitive health care responses, but in this we include looking at what we frame as migration aware and mobility competent health system responses. This we argue would call for a migration and health in all policies approach, which could be used to address the health needs of people on the move. Fourthly and finally, we look at global governance of migration and health. So here we focus on the ways in which migration and health can and should be mainstreamed into global governance processes, and we identify some strategic opportunities to do so.


I'm Kenzie Grant and I am joined here today by Mr. Frazier Atkinson, the executive chairman of Green Power. Thank you so much for joining us here today. Thanks for having us on your show. Can you tell us a little bit more about what the company does? We build, design, build, and sell a suite of all-electric buses, ranging from a shuttle bus that seats 20 people up to a double-decker that can hold 130 people. Alright, so what are you guys doing here at LD Micro? What are you hoping to get out of this conference? Well, this conference is one of the premier conferences that allows us to connect with people in the financial sector, both in terms of capital markets and various people in the supply chain. So it's a great time to connect with new people and in some cases connect with people that we've been dealing with for years. Right, okay. And so what are some of these projects that you're most excited about moving into the near term and even further beyond that? On the business side, we just landed the first all-electric school bus for the LA Unified, which is the largest school district in California. That was a very competitive process, so we're very excited about that. And we have a deal for nine double-deckers in Victoria, Canada, including two that we're going to hopefully deliver in the next month. Alright, that's awesome. So how do you kind of compete with these, you know, we hear so much about this Tesla Semi and they're kind of moving into the larger space. What's your strategy there? Well, thank goodness Tesla doesn't have a bus and they're not planning to bring a bus to market anytime soon. In our space, we have a fairly competitive landscape for transit. We have two competitors in school buses, but our shuttle bus and our double-decker has no competition.


You're going to be here, and you're going to reach over, see how I had the band? We're going to get that same position so we can go up, and we can drive down and out. That's how we get that finish in the glide. Nice and easy again. The throwing chain reaction system. We're starting off a second half of the summer throws tour. We're in Southern Cal. We're going to be overcast. This is not unusual, so this is a great change in weather. Two days here, we're up at like 4.30 in the morning, Friday to get a flight, a 7.30 a.m. flight out of LA. You always got to get up and allow for traffic in Southern Cal. Here we go. We're going to experiment with a couple of little changes. Again, we're always trying to figure out just like throwing all those little tweaks. How do we make everything better? How do we teach the information more efficiently? That's always the goal. Here we go. Look at where my knee and my hip are. Everything's in front. Now I'm coming here. I'm one, two, three. I'm up here. Now I can take it. It's heel up and push. I'm back to pillar six. I'm back into that position. Pillar connection is one, two. We basically think now, from a wind one to a 180, how does that work? We have our band will be long. We're going to shift. So you'll feel this foot turn, hinge, shift, 180. So we're at midway day one here in SoCal. Great. We've got about 65 athletes today, which is good. It's about our standard size for Southern Cal and looks good. I always think it's fun. It's a lot of information. We always talk about that. And when we start to put together the throwing here in a minute, it's going to make a big difference. But some beginning throwers, some kids who've never thrown and they're moving so well. It's really good. And that's obviously always a reflection of the athlete's ability and as well as we like to think, you know, the structure of what we're teaching. Again, we do our drill bands. We can really see certain kids. It really kind of forces them to feel the throw a little better. All right. So end of day one in SoCal. So one of the key things that we want to know is we had a lot of beginners and we kind of made that note that we've seen a lot of beginning throwers at all of our camps. Good day one, weather out here is just fantastic. We're going to be wrapping up, got a private session now. I'll be doing a little more commentary, some thoughts on the day. I really thought it was helpful how if you're trying to fix one thing, you could break it up into which piece it is of the six different parts of the throw. And then once you fix it, you could put it all back together.  We're here in SoCal camp number six day two. So we go from drills and we mix in and we get to throwing and the process is a lot more physical learning. Here we go. We'll get some good footage. Going to be a good day. Southern California weather is always great. We are really enjoying and here we go. Let's check it out. We come up, the kick leg has to pull up. This is going to be part of your pillar too. See that? So we're not pulling up. That's why we're starting here. We're starting here and we're feeling that. Round and stop. Both people, whether you're a glider or rotator, see where the arms stopping? That's going to be the key and you feel the delivery side go out into the throat. It's helping us whether that's been like from a coaching standpoint of like hey, when you're looking at your athletes like look for this, like do you see that? But then also stepping into like the role of an athlete and doing it super helpful too. I think the camp like really helps suit your form and gets like every little detail down. This camp has really shown me that like it's not about how much power you put into it, it's about the technique. You're not just what you need. Have a good season.


OK, now we will try to do the same, completely the same example, but now with the QPemix. Then I will start the new project. The project new, I will here select my F4, F401, the LQFP64 bin package, and it's my board have the STM32F401 or ET, and then I will select this one. If we remember very well, then the LED was on the pin PA5, we set this pin as the output. I can with the right click here also add the label, then I put here the LED, and now the button, if you remember from the last example, was on the PC, PC13, then here I select the PC13 as an input. Here also I added the label, it's called MUTON, this is everything from this part, the clock configuration is not necessary to change, can be left on the 60 MHz, why not. In the GPOS here, I can only check if everything is how I want it, you can see here is the GPOS state, after configuration is slow, the mode is output push pull, it's OK, no pull up, no pull down, output maximum output speed is slow, and I have label, it's OK. And PC13 is in input mode, it's also correct, and no pull up, no pull down, everything is OK. Now I can set the menu project and the project settings, first I select my correct folder, it will be the GPIO3 project for example, and in my case I will create it for IR by not, then click OK, and I click on the generate, and I open my project. Now in AI, I open my application, my user main.c, and here I can have the same GPO in it, and you can found, he also enable the GPOC, GPOA, enable my pin, my button, and also the right pin. Everything is OK, everything is how I want it, and then I can do here the same thing, I put here IF, again the HL, GPIO, underscore, I'm not sure, I press control space, and I first read the pin, then which pin, I can here look, I think it will be button part, and button pin, then here I put the button part, underscore pin, it's equal to GPIO pin, underscore asset, I remember this from the previous hands on, and if it is equal, I will change the state of the pin, HL, GPIO, underscore, I think right pin, it will be let GPIO on the score part, it will be let underscore pin, and it will be state, and here I use the GPIO pin, asset, why not, if the button is pressed, the let will be off, if I release the button, the button will be pressed, the let will be on, for example, it will be off, I create here else, I copy this, I change the asset on set, I will try to compile my code, it seems that I have no errors, then it's perfect, I can flash my code, at flashing, I'm here, I start to run my code, and now my let is on, because I not press the button, when I press the button, the let is off, then my code is working, but you can see with the QPemix is situation much, much faster than before, when we do everything like this on our own, when we put everything into IDE manually, then this is usually faster approach than the previous example, then now you can handle all these functions on your own, then you know now how to work with the pins, I hope now the pins are no problem.


So there is a hip-hop artist called Kenan. He is a Somali-Canadian hip-hop artist, Rafa. But he remixed an African proverb in which he said, until the lions learn to speak, the tales of hunting will be meek. So I recently traveled to foreign, and I was asked to present my film, Pumzi, a short science fiction film. And when I got to the customs desk, I'm always asked for my paperwork. I'm always the random tech. And I'm always ready. I have my return ticket, my hotel accommodation, my invite letter, everything I need to prove that I do not intend to stay. So the customs officer asked me why I was then explained. She asked me what my film was about. And I said it's a futuristic science fiction film about Africa. And then she asked, why is it so important? Why is it important enough for you to travel and discuss? To her, science fiction is obviously not important. And I couldn't blame her for awkward question. She wasn't used to lion speaking. To have the hunt to tell it, Africa is full of meek stories about desperation and despair. So when artists like myself offer an alternate vision, often we're asked to defend our imagination. Why do we feel we have the luxury to create? Shouldn't we be dealing with more important issues like corruption or war or AIDS or poverty? And I think this is largely because most people like to think of Africa only as the sum of its problems. And the problem with this is that it's created a single story that has created only one perspective of Africa, which we have allowed to tell about ourselves. We've allowed these stories to be told about ourselves as if they're the only perspective on Africa. So the problem with that is that if the only stories about us are desperate and hopeless and lost, then how can we for ourselves imagine anything better than that? So as a result, we created Afro-Bubble Gum. And Afro-Bubble Gum is an online platform that celebrates Afro-Bubble Gum work, which is fun, fierce, and frivolous African art. It has no agenda. It has no policy. It's not trying to save everyone or anyone. It's not trying to do anything. It's not trying to. It's really just the celebration of art for art's sake. But not everybody can create Afro-Bubble Gum art. It has to answer a couple of questions. So for the Afro-Bubble Gum test that we created, we have a series of three questions. And in order to pass the test, you have to answer no to the following three questions. The first question, are there any Africans who are sick or dying in this piece? Are there any Africans in need of saving? Are there any who are desperate, hopeless, or lost? And if you can answer no to all three of these questions, then surely you're an Afro-Bubble Gum artist. And what was great to discover is that there's been a history of Afro-Bubble Gum art through Africa. In the 60s and 70s, we had these amazing lookbooks or photo magazines or photo comics. And we had Son of Samson. We had Cobra, the Serpentine Shiro. And we had The Spear. The Spear had a charming way with girls and a deadly way with thugs. And they were truly a Pan-African collaboration. They were written in South Africa. They were shot in Swaziland. They were, no, actually, they were written in Nigeria. They were shot in Swaziland. They were edited in South Africa. And they were printed in Kenya and Ghana and distributed across Anglophone Africa. And hundreds and thousands of copies of each issue would go out across the continent. And this is in colonial Africa and in apartheid Africa. And we had a chance to see ourselves as heroes, which is great because if we can see ourselves as heroes, then maybe we can imagine for ourselves a radical hope for a better future. So more presently, in Kenya, we have the work of Osbon Masharia. And Osbon created, in his series, the League of Extravagant Grannies. And these are retired women who were industry and government leaders. And just looking at their work, you can see how they challenge power dynamics and gender roles in Africa. Then what he went on to do is that he found very ordinary everyday women and made them high fashion models. And these women, as a result of being in his work, they felt so privileged and they felt seen and acknowledged through joy. They were celebrated because of everything that they can be and everything they had not imagined that they could be. So he started to create joy cultures through his work. But he's not the only person who's creating joy cultures. In Abidjan, we have Letitia Kay. And she uses her hair to create art. And her art is a version of her Africa, which is whimsical and light and fun and frivolous. And I often imagine if these are the kind of images that we used to communicate NGO messaging or foreign policy communication, what would we think about Africa then? Would we think that we are worthy of the pursuit of happiness? Then going to Nigeria, we have Dennis Osadebe. And he creates what he calls neo-African art. And he creates a series of Afronauts. This is the Nigeria that he knows. And this is the Nigeria we should be engaging with.   It's the Nigeria full of wisdom and light and love. These images are the reason that we want to engage with Africa. These are the reasons that we want to get to know each other because we can see a sense of joy about ourselves. And that comes together. I think that if, given that joy is an inhibitor of fear, then we will find more commonality and joy than we will in suffering. And we'll also imagine unimaginable worlds like the worlds of Nnedi Okarafor, where she creates women who have the ability to fly or leave Earth to go to a university in space or try and master their sorcery. The great, amazing images of Africa. And though she has many themes in her work, the work is not about the themes. She creates because she wants to watch girls fly. She wants to watch girls having fun. And I do the same thing in my own creation. I'm a filmmaker. And I try and create because of the people who inspire me, the people who give me love and who encourage me, and the people who make me want to defend their image because I want to honor them. And I know the power of images, so I create beautiful images of people for that sake. I do not want them to be misrepresented. And I know the power of creating a new stereotype. Dream detected. Dream detected.  I found the perfect sorcery, the one you said. The box was no delivery. This could mean there's life on the outside. You are not qualified to determine that. But would you work to the science lab? I'd like to have an exit visa to guard side. If I could find the original soil, I could. The outside is deep. But the soil is alive.  I have been taking them. We are Afro-Bobgum artists. We create for the joy of creating. We create not in reaction to the West, but because we are artists, we imagine. We imagine our future. We imagine our past. And sometimes we mix them both together. And we are Afro-Bobgum artists because we believe in a fun, fierce, and frivolous Africa. And in time, the next person who asked me, why is my film so important? Maybe I'll say it actually really isn't that important, not in the way that you think. It's important because it shows a different view, a much-needed view of a global Africa. And the next time we hear this tale about the lions learning to speak, we will fight back by saying the lions are speaking. And they're speaking to each other. And maybe now it's time for the hunter to learn their joy-filled language. Thank you so much. Thank you.


Hi, welcome to our bricklaying with Steven Alts channel. This is just a quick one showing you how to get a trowel from that Back to usable This is Alex's. It's your first trial, isn't it? Yeah, little Marshall Town 10 inch It's a bit warm But it's been neglected lately just left in the bottom of the bag So there's all kinds of ways you can do it.  So I got a fitting for the grinder It's a bit warm, but it's a wire brush So I'll give it a try Tell you how Stand stand back here makes you don't get blasted Right Okay, there we go So there's the That's brought it right up. It's dark. You won't get it shine because it's pitted.  So that's it so Give me a second with the two projects Which are kindly donated by Rodion Rodion builds on YouTube Then we've got the Marshall town 11 inch Philadelphia, which I'm pretty sure that's not been used before that Just puts new doesn't it I think you say it's just left in his tool bag in the leaky leaky lock-up Got a bit wet Judging by the state of that it's not been used and then we've got this one Marshall town Narrow London isn't it 10 inch that that's 11 Yeah, I think that's a 10 inch Might be 11 and a half that's it's the it's a leather handle as well. So If you bother about that So Rodion's give us that to bring back to life. I Think you ought to try that one. Yeah. We'll also get some fine sandpaper on the hand and to get that mold out the handle Should come up nice. That's a nice It's nice in your hands nice and light I might give this one a try We've blown back to life, of course. So while we're on Don't just check out our merch shelf. I've got a gray on Alex. You've got these The blue all available in our merch shelf below the videos.  Just stop it rusting again. Keep it dry That's just for now See in the next one


What's good everybody Chris from jassescasebrakes.com doing 2022-23 Bowman University Chrome Basketball four box breaks first letter first name number 30 The last four boxes from the same case is 28 and 29 17 spots and an all-card ship break Everyone gets a spot a letter from A through A down to W plus Z with a couple of letter combos in there as well Two people in this one Daniel grab the first two spots then Ruben close it out grabbing all 15 Thanks a lot to the both of you appreciate it either way and our letters a to w plus z We'll roll the dice and randomize our list snake eyes one-on-one two times. Good luck everyone one and two Daniel Smith down to Ruben And two times for the lettuce one and Two see down to pee so once again like last time I'll keep the tray window open for just a few moments.  All right Yeah, same thing as last time. I'll keep it open for just a moment We'll see that you never know you never know Switch screens Like I said last four boxes from the case us the boss man if I'm good to upload one more four box case 31 32 and 33 all from fresh cases obviously number 30 Ruben at a Down to W plus Z one more time grand opening grand closing. All right, let's rock and roll. Thanks again y'all Let's do it y'all Box one Brennan Miller on the skyscraping Spot B all the Brennan Miller's go into Ruben Nice skyscraping auto Nick Smith, Jr. That's gonna go to spot n plus. Oh, that's Ruben Nick Smith, Jr. Skyscraping 59. Excuse me out of 99 nice one there It's our first auto can't wait more on the Invicta And our second auto gonna be my toss basilis Spot and that's going to go to Ruben Mark Mitchell on the aqua Well, when first going to Ruben at spot M to 18 out of 299 Honsol Emmanuel on the purple shimmer or Brennan Miller and at first Caitlyn cork Spot C. It's gonna go to Daniel All the Caitlyn course one more Brennan Miller for Ruben and the Honsol Emmanuel L plus H Gonna go to Ruben Over combo spots. Oh nice That's a Caitlyn cork image variation go to the bottom there ending in 1 4 0 That's a nice one right there. It's the Caitlyn cork case Daniel Smith gets that one last four box break We had a big go home to Caitlyn cork auto We're gonna double up on names for a case You think we're not the worst one Nice stuff box to give the cork Invicta One more for Daniel. I'll toss a basilis or fracter first Got no more and Bailey Invicta yellow Avery Anderson bowman first auto 48 out of 75 going to spot a in Ruben It's a nice color so far Purple mini diamonds for LJ Crier spot L plus H in Ruben 37 out of 399 Our second auto gonna be Timmy Allen. Oh Tool time for Ruben and spot T Now a number on the base auto Jared McCain purple shimmer high schooler Local Chinoff Centennial green shimmer for Jordan Hawkins spot J going to Daniel Smith 76 out of 99 on the green shimmer Jordan Hawkins first box 3 second half now See if we can get something low with these last two boxes.  I slow. Oh, yeah, that's getting lower and lower One out of 50 on the Kyle Philip house key prime at signatures cork bowman.  I'll leave Boston One more kid than Clark for Daniel We're here Bolton purple shimmer Marcus sass are on the Aqua wave spot and Ruben technically the last spot mojo 48 out of 299 I Pink mini diamonds Bryce Sensible Potential first rounder here 57 out of 150 for spot B and Ruben And our first Brandon Miller our brand more first excuse me. Nice. There it is Victor women Yama on the short print Very nice Victor Spot V that's going to Ruben congrats Ruben One be on the short print Right nice congrats again And there was one last box from this whole case and for this break number 30 one potentially on the site soon jassescasebreakstock.com Should be in two of them if not now then very very soon in the future Don't the front but I've ever seen that The configuration for some of these packs have been very interesting Let's end it on a banger First auto up quick and easy Malik Renault on the brolin first refractor auto 84 out of 499 spot in one more going to Ruben It's like some orange at the back there. There we go One more kid and cork one more Brandon Miller Got an orange Of kello where nice should be another first rounder. Yeah kello where Bowman first orange seven out of 25 Spot k going to Ruben.  Oh nine I'm gonna go through one more time. I think Either miss one or we have shorter than auto It's just the Malik Renault. Yeah It's a bummer I'm gonna go through and see if there any any extra autos in the first case first box of 29 But or 28, but that's a break for now some nice stuff. We're going to sell some nice little numbers Stuff got that orange kello where Out of 25 nice victor woman yama short print Kyle filipowski to 50 Kaden cork iv Nick Smith jr. On this guy's gonna go. We'll call it a break there though. Thanks again y'all I'll see if I can put up number 31 on the site soon. Um, check the site jassescasebreak.com. Thanks again. Bye. Bye