Team keep it clean freelancer in the building first before we get into this new episode of questions from subs Gotta give a special shout out to the newest team keep it clean patron my guy Michael P Appreciate you if any y'all would like to become a team keeping clean patron You can go to patreon.com slash engraving visit if you don't want to that's fine. Ain't no problems, baby I love y'all. I appreciate y'all now one thing that I also appreciate is um, just how crazy We can all be together But despite how crazy we can all be I don't expect Ravens to be this crazy Now I do be wanting to do some crazy stuff now y'all know me, but I don't expect them to be this Crazy first question came from my guy Michael W. He said Oh, yeah, hope all is well with the family. Why don't we use all our picks on wide receiver? Hey, I love it man He said for the sake of their jobs EDC and hardball better make it up to the team and LeMau because if they don't and lose LeMau like he would be So that would definitely be unlike EDC always talks about swinging Y'all talked about taking the chances, but using all five picks on the what? I don't think they would do all that Let that be a little extreme extreme. Well, that'd be a lot of extreme actually But it's certainly a position that you can and I think you should draft along with signing a High quality veteran Or trading for one Like for me y'all know me how I feel about the position. I've been wanting them to go Sort of overkill But I don't anticipate them doing it But what I would want them to do will be to either sign or trade for one Well, probably trade because free agents out there is Not really anything special my dream scenario. Let me tell you what y'all know my dream scenario already And this is gonna stay a dream cuz I know it ain't gonna happen But I would love if obviously to bring back LeMau But I would love if they traded or traded for either Mike Evans Or DeAndre Hopkins Those two would be my top choices and then on top of that. I would love if they also signed Odell Beckham, Jr. So you would have a Mike Evans or DeAndre Hopkins Rashal Bateman and Odell Beckham, Jr. And again dream scenario. I know they gonna go down and then on top of that They draft one as well That's that's my dream and draft one early. That's my dream scenario right there overkill at the position, but Let's go back to your dream scenario as far as the you using all five picks like Now one thing I do like One thing I do like that is it will see is to be determined, but it seems as if the Ravens are Shoring up some special team spots and some defensive spots ahead of the draft like Justice Hill That's a special team. Um, he play on offense here and there too, but his primary thing is special teams. All right, you take care of that Geno stone He can be a special team, but he's somebody that's gonna play a lot on defense too Because they're gonna have a lot of three safety sets and whatnot. Um, so they took care of that. All right, cool So now come draft time.  You ain't got a draft. No safety.  So what do I know? But we'll see how it goes down. So anyway No using all picks on receivers. No, but using one Maybe two and remember another thing too, whatever they taking the first round They're gonna take in a later round too because it always happens that way whatever you taking the first You double dip later on happens every year on the area to constant. I mean having a little bit on the other two but anyway That's that so all five picks on why receivers will be something to be interesting But we know it ain't gonna go down Next question came from my guy Gareth who's been a patron for two years. So I appreciate you Gareth He said have the freelance of keeping. Hey, we doing good man. We doing good man. We got a today's the 17th so we got six days left before we reapply and then we see what happens from there So we obviously hoping for the best but I will I will of course keep y'all updated on everything Anyway, he said tell your family. I said hello. Oh, yeah, I let them know when he said my question is how realistic Is it for us to get or they'll back them junior? I don't know. I think we have a chance cuz he's over 30 years of age they got a shot but They don't even know if they got a shot at their own quarterback So I think the the whole thing with Lamar right now since it's still up in the air That's gonna hold up a lot of what they do both financially also Personnel wise with adding people Maybe we're trading for people like cuz again players are looking at that they they waiting and wondering like, okay What's gonna be next because people just don't know so until that whole situation is resolved so much of Um, I mean the Ravens not really big moves in free agency. Anyway, they ain't really like I know this free agency. They've been like silent pretty much Cuz the only moves that they may have been bringing back their own But they they never really big moves in free agency like that. Anyway, but now it's like extra quiet But the whole situation holds up everything it is everybody's just waiting But anyway, he said an engraving. Oh, but as far as OBJ my fault I got sidetracked as far as OBJ. Yeah, they got a shot because he's a free agent But I don't think it's a big shot that they have that Signing Odell Beckham shout out to my dogs in a background just wrestling with each other. Anyway, um She said uh Engraving can I just say you'll never know what you have done for me My depression is getting better each day. I'm able to take my new pup for walks. You're the person that I look up to Thanks for every minute.  Say hello to your family and please PS please take a break because you need your time also and just like Lamar might be I'm out. Let's never appreciate it. Oh, don't worry, man. We take plenty of Breaks plenty of breaks I know that a lot of times it can seem like because we upload a lot of videos as videos every single Day, um for the most part and I know a couple weeks ago We we there's a couple days are just like nah, I don't feel like it Well, that's when everything was still fresh with the whole YouTube and all that situation all that mess But we take a lot of breaks. Trust me. Trust me. Trust me. Trust me. We take a whole a lot of breaks Because that's important. We all talk about that that is super important in whatever you do Whether you love what you do or you don't love what you do either way you got to take breaks You gotta take a step back and like take some breath is take some time away time off all that stuff that could That's important because you you want to make sure you keep your sanity You gotta have good balance too. You gotta schooling you gotta have good balance You can't be like okay, just work work work work. And that's it. No, man And you can't just be like, okay? Play play play play or recreation recreation recreation. No You got you got to have a good balance It'd be nice if if we could just be I just it's just gonna be recreation all the time We just got chill all the time don't gotta work and I'm like, but no, it can't be that way man So I appreciate you. I appreciate everybody and thank you for watching is this quick episode of questions from selves. I love y'all. Yeah Like the Ravens


Hey Survivors and Thrivers Another video Please like, comment, share and subscribe, click the bell icon to receive notifications for my future videos. If you would like to make a donation or if you are interested in coaching, the links are in the video description.  This is going to be my most controversial video, I have never been one to sugarcoat things. I don't like to deny the truth but I think this is an important topic so I have decided to talk about it. Please leave your thoughts in the comments. After narcissistic abuse, you may fear intimacy. You may no longer desire to be around people of the opposite sex. This can occur from narcissistic abuse, mainly from either a parent or relationship partner. But it can also be caused by narcissistic abuse from a friend, boss or anyone else. Narcissistic parents are likely to have had many negative experiences with people of the opposite sex. Whether they know it or not, this has planted thoughts in the head that people of the opposite sex are bad or not right. This is what the narcissistic parent will teach you. Any time that you try to talk to someone of the opposite sex or have a relationship, narcissistic parents are also pathologically envious and jealous of their scapegoat child. Any time that you try to develop a relationship, it triggers them to reflect on a time when they fail to succeed in a relationship or they got rejected from someone. Or they didn't have the quantity or quality of relationships which they desired. So now when the narcissistic parent sees you trying to develop a relationship with someone, it triggers them to reflect on this. The narcissistic parent will then devalue you to your relationship partner or they will devalue your relationship partner to you. This will make you feel as though you're doing something wrong, as though you shouldn't be doing what you are doing. As though there is something wrong with people of the opposite sex. When this is done over a long period of time, you may no longer desire to have relationships. You may have a negative view of men or women. You may develop a fear of intimacy or emotional vulnerability. When you are in a relationship with a narcissist, they will teach you to hate them. In the love bombing phase, they need your attention, validation, approval and admiration of them. But once you have made a fault or mistake, or they recognize an imperfection or flaw which you will inevitably have, suddenly you go from being the most perfect, amazing person to being worthless and useless. It's black or white thinking, they have to think this way to function. The way that they perceive you reflects on how they perceive themselves. So for them to continue seeing you as being this perfect, amazing person, it would constantly trigger them to reflect on their own insecurities, their own faults, mistakes, flaws and imperfections. This is what causes the devaluation phase. When they start to devalue and degrade you and target your self-worth and self-esteem, so that they can feel better about themselves, in the devaluation phase they feed off your negative emotions. Negative emotions such as hate, anger, envy and jealousy towards them, they train you to feel this way. Over time, this will make you associate intimacy with something negative.  You will no longer desire to be around people of the opposite sex and this is exactly how the narcissist wants it. They do not want you to move on and find someone else after they are gone. They want you to be so afraid and broken down that you don't even desire to be with anyone else. This is due to their pathological envy and jealousy of you. So what effect will this have on you after the relationship? You will develop a fear of intimacy. You may no longer desire to be around people of the opposite sex. I have observed many comments on MGTOW men go in their own way videos and I can see that there is a lot of hatred and anger towards women in general. After these men have been abused and manipulated by narcissistic women, so now large numbers of men fear intimacy. They no longer desire to be around women, they have a deep hatred towards them. You can go on any MGTOW video and see this for yourself. The effects of narcissistic abuse on these codependent men but this is not the only effect that it has had on them. Although they have been abused, their desire doesn't completely go away. They may not desire to be around women who have had a lot of sexual partners or women who are around their age. But I have noticed a recurring theme throughout the comments on these MGTOW videos. These men clearly have a lot of hatred and anger towards these abusive and manipulative women who are around their age. Over time those women changed their beliefs about themselves, other women and the world around them. They led them to believe that women are bad or not right. They targeted their self worth and self esteem and made them believe that they are not good enough or something is wrong with them. So now those men no longer have the desire to be around women but the desire to have some form of intimacy or a relationship is still there. Just not with women their own age. Now these men are more interested in virgins, girls who do not have any sexual or relationship experience. And this is another effect of narcissistic abuse which I have noticed not only from men but also women. Victims of narcissistic abuse naturally develop this fear of intimacy and lose the desire to be around people of the opposite sex who are their own age. But they seem to become more interested in people who are far younger than them. I am not completely sure why this is but I believe that they have identified that the more sexual experience or relationship experience the narcissistic or toxic woman has the more opportunities it gives them to be a narcissist. So if you look at the MGTOW videos you will find that male victims of narcissistic abuse are now looking for virgins who have had no sexual or relationship experience. Well I can't help to wonder how many women, unless underage, could still be virgins. These comments do suggest that they are looking for girls who are very young, girls who are innocent or naive, girls who have a lack of experience, wisdom or judgement, who are less likely to abuse and manipulate them. This is the effect that narcissistic abuse is having on us. I guess when you continue looking for people your own age and keep being abused naturally you are going to stop desiring to be around them. As Einstein once said the definition of insanity is doing the same thing again and again and expecting a different result. So rather than looking for people who have plenty of experience in relationships to practice their narcissism, victims of narcissistic abuse are now developing a preference to be with people who have a lack of experience, wisdom or judgement, virgins or even underage girls. This is the effect of narcissistic abuse on these men, they were likely controlled to the point where they had a dependence on those narcissistic women. They couldn't do anything on their own because narcissists have to control everything. They lost their independence.  You always need their assistance. I have done a video on this, please check it out Narcissists make you feel like a child. You are in these obsessively controlling situations where these men were likely made to be dependent on these women like they were their parents. So now they no longer have much in common with women their own age. They are likely to have more in common with young girls who are several decades younger than them and likely living with their parents. When you are around narcissists for long periods of time you lose your independence.  The sad true phase. People in general have lost their innocence. They have lost that childhood magic which made life worth living. Now all we see are people who are miserable, fed up with life and so they spend what time they have left devaluing or degrading the next person and taking it out on them. I am sorry if I offend anyone by saying this but I just want to tell it like it is. And to be honest I feel comfortable talking about this here. As survivors of narcissistic abuse are usually the ones who still have that spark, that childhood magic. It's what makes a woman so attractive. It's one of the main reasons why the narcissist targeted you and it has become a very rare quality to have in this world. To be humble and modest. To appreciate the little things in life. To find the joy, the satisfaction and fulfilment in simply doing nothing at all. Being present in the moment in touch with your senses. See in everything, hear in everything, experiencing great satisfaction from the smell of a perfume or the taste of one of your favourite foods. Feeling every touch, every kiss as if you have never touched or kissed before. Of course it's not just women who are like this. People in general. We have this obsession with achieving and obtaining everything. By an expensive clothes, cars, jewellery, to impress people we don't even like or people who don't even care and will probably only hate us even more anyway. We have forgotten how to connect. We have forgotten how to be intimate. Most people once they get to a certain age they become like the zombies on autopilot. They are fed up of life and it shows in their behaviours. They are always ruminating on the past or anticipating the future and it's a real problem. It should be no surprise that the most common illnesses in this world are stress, anxiety and depression after being discarded by a narcissist. Victims are likely to have a fear of abandonment. I have observed from comments on mixtile videos that the victims believe a girl who is a virgin is less likely to abandon them. We work hard to provide for these narcissistic or toxic women even before we meet them. We work hard to afford nice clothes so we can look good for them. We buy expensive cars because we know that women like expensive cars. And these women think they can just come into our lives, use us for everything we've got, cheat on us with another man and then take half of everything we have earned. They might be women but they are not real women. Real women might take whatever you are offering them but they will also give them return and they will not abandon you over a little disagreement but that's exactly what these narcissistic or toxic women are doing. Coming into our lives and using us for our resources and then they are off to do the same thing with another man so because of these women mixtile people are desiring to be with young girls, virgins who are less likely to abandon them and I know it's not just women who are doing this, there are men doing this too. It's sick, they should be ashamed of themselves but of course they are self absorbed and lack empathy. They just tell you whatever you want to hear and make you believe that they are interested in commitment but really they are just using you for whatever you've got. Research shows that therapists will not normally diagnose narcissism in a person until they are at least 18 to 25 years old. This suggests that narcissism isn't fixed until at least the age of 18. This could be another reason why narcissistic abuse victims are developing a preference for people with a lack of experience, wisdom or judgement. Girls who are virgins. It's a common theme in the comments among mixtile videos which suggests that this is an effect of narcissistic abuse. These men no longer trust women who are anywhere near their age as they have been manipulated so many times.  Just with a person who is less likely to manipulate them, a person with a lack of experience, wisdom or judgement is going to be far less likely to do this. They are going to be less likely to control them, less likely to use manipulative tactics and I guess this is the reason why this has become a common theme in the comments among mixtile videos. These men have been manipulated so many times by these narcissistic women that they no longer even desire to be around them. It's sad and very shocking but this is the reality and we have known to blame except narcissists. This is the effect of narcissistic abuse. Thank you for watching, I hope this video has resonated with you, please like comment share and subscribe, I will have more videos soon.


The Government Information Service presents highlights of activities to mark St. Lucia's 8th Independence Anniversary. As part of this year's 8th Independence Anniversary celebrations, a home economics exhibition was held at the Ave Maria School and was formally declared open by Trade and Industry Minister Hon. William George Mallett. I am very pleased that I have the opportunity to meet some of you, can't be all of you, and to tell you how impressed I am with what I have seen here, put out by your friends in the school, your students, your boys and girls, or rather, yes, it's coming from both boys and girls. What we see here are exhibits contributed by children at all the schools in the Casteries base, not just the Ave Maria School where we are now. These are contributions made by all the schools in the Casteries base and extending as far as the Hesse School and Bexon and up in the North, the Comprehensive School and so on. And I have been very impressed with this just as I am sure you have been. Those I am speaking to now are children who are in the second and third standard in third classes, but you will be moving into classes where by September or so you will begin yourselves to be doing some work in home economics. The exhibits here are things that you can make and you will make when the time comes. I have seen a number of things that are produced and are on exhibition here, products that could find a market, could be sold here in St. Lucia without a problem. I want to congratulate you and through Ms. Henry here to congratulate all the children who have made contributions to this exhibition. What we are celebrating, this is part of the activities for Independence Day, the anniversary of Independence, that's on the 22nd of this month. Now what does independence mean to us? The idea for this behind this exhibition is to get us to appreciate that being independent is not just to say we sing a national anthem or we put up a flag which is the St. Lucia flag and we say we are independent, it must mean more to us than that. In the past we were directed by those who controlled this country. The government was not a government that was in total control of the business of St. Lucia. That was changed with independence, but that means that we are taking on new responsibilities. And you must take on these new responsibilities because you are the men and women of tomorrow. Those who will be taking, probably standing in the position in which I am standing here, a few years from now, some of you will be standing right here, some of you will be controlling the destiny of this country, some of you will be deciding where this country goes and how it should go, therefore you must begin even now to take an interest in your country and to be proud of your country. And the purpose of this exhibition is to get you to appreciate that independence means taking on certain responsibilities. And one of those is shown in the exhibits that have been put forward here, the exhibits that we have seen. I am sure that we can do much better than this, not just at this moment, but after we leave school. It should be possible for us to continue to make these things and not only to have them on exhibits, but to be able to offer them to the stores, to be able to offer them to the shops. What I am told speaking to some of the teachers this morning is that after you leave schools, although you have done so well whilst you are at school with these exhibits, whether it is in things like cookies, in cakes, in fudge, in namah, some little joinery work I see, some craft, some handicraft, some garments that you make, dresses and so on, all wonderful. But it should be possible when you leave school to continue doing this and to earn a living from doing it, because we are importing a lot of things. Some of the cookies that you eat here are imported, you get them in boxes in the supermarkets. They are imported here. Why? Because it is not available locally. But you can make them. Because in the exhibition here we see that it is possible to make them. Some of the garments that we see on exhibit here could be made and put into the stores manual. There are some in the stores right now, but more of them can be placed there because we are still importing garments. We are still importing a lot of the handicraft that I see on display here. So what I would like to ask you is that you not only offer these products for exhibit on occasions like this, but you try, after you have done this, because you are doing it in an excellent way. I am very proud of the standard and quality of the things that I see on exhibition here. What you should try is after you leave school to continue to produce those things commercially. Only being produced and not just taking a set and putting it in the oven and that is it, but putting sets in the oven one after the other so that you can supply the outlets. What we want to be, in fact I see, there is a sign that says home economics is self-reliance. We must be able to rely on ourselves to eat the things that we grow, to produce the things that we eat, to produce the things that we wear, to produce the things that we use. We must more and more begin to do this. And if there is one good thing that might come out of this exhibition is an undertaking by young people like you to ensure that you will continue to make a contribution to the development of the country and that you will do this now, tomorrow, next year and years after you leave school you will continue to make that contribution because Saint Lucia is dependent on us who are the people, on us who are the inhabitants. The reason for your training, the reason for your being in school today is to make sure that when you grow up you will be sufficiently intelligent, sufficiently educated, sufficiently motivated that you can take an active part in controlling the country, in running the country to ensure that we grow from strength to strength. I would like to feel that I have that assurance and looking at your faces I can see you are people who are really committed, who are really dedicated. I would like a few years from now to see many of you in leading positions in Saint Lucia and continuing to do the good work that some of us now and some of us before have started and are doing. Thank you very much. Following the opening of the exhibition, it was over to the Mindo Phillip Park where an ecumenical service was held on the theme, Corporation for National Survival. It was attended by His Excellencies, the Governor General and Lady Lewis, Prime Minister and Mrs. John Compton. The welcome greetings was given by Archdeacon Cannon Randolph Evelyn. We warmly welcome you to this service to mark the eighth anniversary of independence. We trust that this service will not only be a blessing to us who are here but to our nation as a whole. This nation is under God. He is the head and all who labor together for the people of God work under God and therefore it is fitting that we should gather here to thank God for the blessings during the past eight years and even beyond that before we became an independent nation and to ask His blessings on this entire nation and especially upon those on whom the destiny of this nation will rest the youth. We're going to ask His pardon for our past mistakes and we're going to own that His wisdom is that on which alone we can depend. We're going to ask Him to temper on own human judgments and on our own human wisdom by His divine wisdom so that whatever we do as a people will be to His honor and glory and to the good welfare of all everyone in this nation. We welcome you as we pray together for God's blessing and direction for peace, unity, good will, love and all those Christian character, Christian principles that go to make up a godly character. The service is worked out around the theme of God being our rock. In the theme the word survival comes and we cannot survive as a nation except we are built upon a solid foundation and that solid foundation is Jesus Christ the Rock. So we're going to build our lives on Jesus. We're going to build our nation on Jesus and we are sure that if we do that we will never fall. Our Lord Jesus said give us a, probably said there were two persons who wanted to build a house and one search and he decided to build his house upon the sand, another search and he decided to build his house upon a rock and the winds came, the rains fell, the waters flowed and that which was built on the sand crumbled and fell but the house that was founded and built upon the rock it stood. May our nation stand throughout the years. I shall now invite you to join in the Creole version of the 23rd Psalm. Military parade was held at the Queen Elizabeth Docks and was under the command of acting senior superintendent of police, Norbert Frederick. The St. Lucia police force, superintendent of police, Leroy F... On the independence docks it was over to Barbono where members of the St. Lucia Fire Service staged a display of firefighting techniques. Before the display, Mr. Peter Joseph, a resident and former school principal, inspected the ranks of members of the fire service. And following that, Primus J. Duplacy, the chief fire officer, addressed the public. Our display at Barbono, it was over to the youth rally at Feuford. We're taking now to the master of ceremonies for this occasion. With all the excitement and pride that this status generates, this year's youth rally is cooperation for national development. The message is quite clear, the inclusion must unite as one nation if we are to reap the benefits of economic and social development. Recent literature on development seems to suggest which must be present in the present people of religion. If they are to experience any real development, I believe one of these attitudes is cooperation. Our cultural presentation to portray this theme and this is beautifully done in two unique ways. One, the very fact that we young have to reenact and reactivate the customs and traditions of the past generation, recognizing that they give meaning to our present and direction to our future. Secondly, the message that each presentation makes, whether we are La Rose or La Mabewit, no matter what political party we subscribe to or what religious creed we follow, whether young or old, whether we live in castries or viewforks, we are one nation, St. Lucian's. Without further ado, I welcome all of you and invite you to share the sentiments of all the youth in St. Lucia in reenacting and reliving our cherished customs and heritage as performed by the youth. You will now be treated to a rendition by the school children. They will sing, I am St. Lucia, which was composed by Mr. Clement Springer. You will now be treated to the cultural presentations by the school children, the theme, customs and heritage of St. Lucia. The participating schools are Viewfort Comprehensive, Viewfort Senior Primary, Plainview Combined, PI Combined, Bellevue Combined and Derrisso Combined. Thank you. So, St. Lucia's 8th Independence Anniversary Celebrations. This has been a Government Information Service presentation.