Do you actually want to change your life? Reading books isn't going to change your life.  Going to countless seminars isn't going to change your life.  If you're new here, I'm Sarah and I created this channel to help you create a more fulfilling and beautiful and loving and positive life with a dash of spirituality. And today, I'm going to explain to you what to do so you can actually implement changes in your life that are going to change it for the better instead of just consuming all of this information and nothing changes, nothing happens.  You read a lot of books, you watch a lot of YouTube videos, you listen to a lot of podcasts, you journal, you go to seminars, you do all the things, but sometimes as much as we're diving in into this information to live in positive and more filling and spiritual lifestyle, a lot of times it doesn't seem like our reality is actually changing. So in this video, I want to explain to you why. And there might be some hard truths that I'll try not to offend you, but you might need to hear this. You might. So what's the secret? It's doing the work.  It means a lot of things. So the first step is taking accountability for yourself.   You have to own up to it and take control of your life. And you can't do that if you're still in victim mode. So for those of you that aren't ready, I'll give you a few seconds to click off. And while you're hanging in there, don't forget to like and subscribe so we can hang out again next week. All right, if you're still here, you're ready. You know that you create your reality. You know that you're in control of your life and you know that you can change it. You just don't know how. And that's a beautiful place to be because all you can do is learn and go up because how are you supposed to fix or change something if you don't want to? If you're not willing to look yourself in the face and be like, I did this, I did this. I think the easiest way to change your life for the better is to implement some sort of shadow work. And I know if you're watching this channel and you've probably heard that like what the hell is shadow work? How do I do it? Cause I've been there. You know, I've totally been there. When I started on my spiritual journey a few years ago, I kept hearing that term shadow work.  So I'm gonna give you a straight line way to get into shadow work and figure out how to make these long lasting changes. So the easiest way to do this is one, you have to question everything. You know, you have to get in the pattern and the habit of questioning why you do things, why you think things, why you feel a certain way in a certain situation, why you're reacting that way.  So an easier way to ask this is what are things that trigger you? And what do I mean by triggering? What is something that makes you feel, even if it's just a little bit, even if it's a slight mood shift, what's something that makes you a little bit angry or annoyed or sad or frustrated or uncomfortable or bothered or any of these emotions that are not pleasant to us. Anything that we would tend to want to stay away from, you actually have to look that emotion in the eye because it's trying to tell you something. So what you have to do is when one of these emotions comes up, you have to peel another layer and figure out, well, why is this emotion coming up? Because there are so many people out there that don't get road rage. So why do you? And it's the easy answer to just say, oh, well, a lot of people get road rage. It's normal. But that doesn't address why you get it and what has led you to get it and how to fix that. Do you know how much more pleasant my life has become since I learned to contain my road rage where it barely ever affects me anymore? It is like such a big difference that it's such a small thing. So imagine the large scale of what the bigger things in your life can change for you in the long run if you start with the little things and make your way out to the big things. So here's the thing, we've talked about how what other people do and say isn't your problem, right? Well, it's the reverse too. What you think and what you do is not anyone else's problem.  I mean, if you think about it, think about all of the things going on in the world, right? Some things will trigger me, but won't trigger you or vice versa. And that is because of the different experiences we have had growing up into unlock why we get triggered by something to fix it and heal it so we don't get triggered by it. You have to figure out why it is that you get triggered by it. So I'll give you an example here. I dated a guy for a few years, okay? And it was a very, very toxic relationship and he was a very mentally abusive person to me. That being said, he never laid a finger on me physically and I don't believe he ever would have. Now in his mind, because he was physically abused as a child by his parents, through his scope of life, he knew it was bad because of his experience to hit another person, so he would never hit me, okay? But because he didn't heal what he had gone through when he was younger and he knew it wasn't okay to hit someone and cause him that pain, it came out of him and projected out of him in different ways where he was emotionally and mentally abusive to me. So if you're not learning how to heal and dig deep and peel these onion layers out of yourself, it's going to come out in all of these contorted ways that sometimes can spiral out of control and it will affect your relationship with yourself and with other people. You know, so my biggest tip here is that you have to ask why. Why are you handling something that way? If you start looking at the world and realizing that it's not against you, it's not something that you're doing against you, it's just something that involves completely around them, it'll start to be less triggering. Say for example, you're in a relationship where your ex-boyfriend or girlfriend, when they got mad at you, they ignored you, okay?   And all of a sudden you start getting a little panicky you're like, oh, I wonder if this person's mad at me and blah, blah, blah, and you start kind of going down that rabbit hole, stop and ask yourself, why am I feeling triggered? And then what you'll do is you'll end up tracing it back to the fact that in your previous relationship, the silent treatment meant that someone was mad at you wherein this new relationship, it might not necessarily mean that. And then maybe eventually an hour later, you hear from your person, they were stuck in a work meeting, they were doing this, they overslept, blah, blah, whatever, and you realize there was really no reason to get triggered and the only reason that you did get triggered is because of something that happened in your past. So then moving forward, each time something like that happened, you can take peace and understand and know that no, it's not because they're mad at me, they're just busy with something. And you go down that little pathway and question yourself over and over and over again until you get to the root.  And look, it's not easy. And a lot of times rough things can come up when you're going through shadow work and you're going through this healing process, but if you want your life to ultimately be better and more positive and happy, you have to heal these things in order to get to the other side. Okay, and just remember as you're doing this, be gentle and be loving with yourself and just understand that we all have these wounds and we all have these bruises and the more we all collectively work on these things, the happier our society is going to be. So I hope this video brought you some value. I love you guys so much. You deserve to be so happy and loving and loved and cherished and it's some deep work, but you can do it. I know you can. If you haven't already, please don't forget to like this video and subscribe if you haven't already so we can hang out again next week and I love you guys so much. Don't forget, be limitlessly yourself.


Today's message I want to talk about is called modern-day sorcery. Now you might think of sorcery as like wizards or Gandalf with the staff, electrocutes go everywhere, you know, just like supernatural powers that are demonic or not of God, like the Egyptians and the mages and things like that. But there's actually more to the word sorcery as used in the Bible. And I want to touch on something that goes in hand in hand with sorcery and those magical powers that are not of God. But first off, if we look at Scripture, sorcery is considered an abomination to God. In Deuteronomy chapter 18 verses 10 through 11 it says, There shall be not found among you anyone who makes his son or daughter pass through the fire or one who practices witchcraft or a soothsayer or one who interprets omens or a sorcerer or one who conjures spells, a medium, a spiritist or one who calls up the dead for all who do these things are an abomination to the Lord. So sorcery is an abomination to the Lord along with sacrificing children and speaking to the dead, other things like that, but sorcery in Galatians in the New Testament is considered a work of the flesh. In Galatians 5 19 through 20 it says, Now the works of the flesh are evident, which are adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lewdness, idolatry, sorcery, hatred, contentions, jealousies, outbursts of wrath, selfish ambitions, dissensions, heresies, and envy, drunkenness, orgies and the like.  So sorcery is very serious and we see that in Revelation chapter 21 verse 8, but the cowardly, the unbelieving, the abominable, murderers, sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars shall have their part in the lake which burns with fire and brimstone, which is the second death. So what does God mean when he says sorcery? Because that's pretty serious, an abomination, work of the flesh, the lake of fire. Well the Greek word for sorcery is pharmacia. And pharmacia is where we get our word for pharmacy, pharmaceutical, and no that doesn't mean pharmacy and pharmaceutical is our demonic. The word has taken on and garnered a new meaning over time from the original usage in Hebrew. The Hebrew is actually k'achef, was the Hebrew word for sorcery, but pharmacia back then involved more than what it does today. And we know that medicine is not demonic because Paul referred to Luke as the beloved physician.  So most scholars believe that Luke was also a Greek doctor, a Greek physician, and the Greeks used natural remedies and treatments for illnesses and pain relief and such like that. Some were spiritual or superstitious which likely Luke did not believe in but most was actually applicable and he was revered as a physician. Sorcery in the biblical context actually refers to magical arts but also the usage of drugs for spiritual and ceremonial purposes. And the two go hand in hand. Many pagan religions around the world have been using drugs for spiritual purposes to contact deities, gods, worship the demons that they worship that they believed were gods. But we know our demons, the demons of Hinduism, the Indians. They used a lot of substances, one called bang which is a liquid form of cannabis, marijuana, high dosages to contact the demons that they worshiped. And the Vedic scriptures of India actually were inspired by these communications. And this was happening in the land of Canaan as well as in Deuteronomy when God said this. Well the Canaanites were actually using cannabis to worship the God Asherah. Now Asherah, they had 400 prophets and 450 prophets of Baal that Elijah confronted in 1 Kings 18 and that's where the fire, God had the fire come down on the altar and put them to shame. Asherah was a known demon that they worshiped and how many times did the Israelites fall to Baal worship? You know how many times do they fall to false idols and told not to engage in the things of the people you're about to inhabit, to be set apart. We're called to be set apart as Christians as God's people and not engage in things that God clearly says are not okay. And I want to talk about probably three of the top drugs that are used today still in modern times in a similar way that people are trying to reach the spiritual things. People are trying to know the purpose of life and as Elijah was saying, taking acid, smoking weed, many people are doing this and it's actually considered sorcery. So marijuana or weed, 55 million Americans used cannabis at least once in the past year. It's a very large amount of people and it's growing. Look at the recreational legalization. Look at the acceptance for marijuana. Well, I want to say that cannabis in itself, the plant is actually not a demonic. It's actually very medicinal in many ways. The seeds, the hemp seeds are very nutritional. They have a perfect ratio, 3 to 1 of omega 3, omega 6 fatty acids. I was a big health guy, health coach back in the day. I loved this stuff. And the fiber, the hemp fiber, very strong, one of the strongest on the earth. George Washington said grow hemp. It's a cash crop. And the oil, the CBD oil is actually used to treat epilepsy patients. It's a 44% reduction in seizures. It's very powerful, but that doesn't get you high. Eating the seeds doesn't get you high. The CBD oil doesn't get you high. But getting high, the CBD and the THC which are in weed produces the mind altering effects. Produces that sense of being stoned or high. And there are many people who do this, like me, and begin to become spiritual or do it for spiritual purposes. Now, back in the day, the Indians still today in Hinduism actually consider cannabis one of the five sacred plants of Hinduism. They use cannabis in three forms of different potency to worship their deities and to actually make contact with these demons. One being Shiva, which is an actual demon we see get cast out at the altar that inhabits people and many times inhabits people addicted to weed. And that's why you see that people who start to get into weed, start to kind of get into new age stuff many times. Start to kind of, you know, get into yoga or get into spiritual things and kind of leave maybe an atheistic mindset and enter a more spiritual one but apart from Christ. And that's very, very common and for many people who get into the new age, smoking weed is sometimes the moment they realize they have a spiritual awakening. And they have this new identity that comes upon them, that they're a light worker, that they're called for more of a higher purpose. And they begin to get into many new age things from that moment. It's very, very common, it's very, very popular and many people are using it today. And like I said, the Canaanites, they used weed and actually archaeologists in 1960s, they found in Canaanite temples, cannabis in the Canaanite temples. So God was referring to this. God knew about this when he was talking about this in Deuteronomy. And around the world, a lot of other usages of weed still today. But when people use it and they don't understand the spiritual implications or maybe even Christians who are using it, it allows open doors. Because we know that sin is an open door to the devil. Sin is an open door to the enemy. And if sorcery is described like this in the Word of God, and sorcery and smoking marijuana and taking LSD and acid and mushrooms for different purposes, is considered under that you're giving way to the devil. You're giving way to the enemy in your life. And it's very problematic. And even in Exodus chapter 34 verse 13, it says, Break down their altars, smash their sacred stones and cut down their asherim. The asherim is plural for the Asherah poles that they would put up to worship Asherah. Marijuana, cannabis and this demon, Asherah, are very correlated in Canaanite times. And Elijah the prophet of God came against them.  And many people believe this actually that the Greek word, I mean the Hebrew word, kane balsam, is actually cannabis. So they were using this in the Holy of Holies, burning incense with it, getting high, having mystical experiences, but it's not true. The actual meaning for kane balsam is just an aromatic that has a scent, a reed, like a type of plant. And there's many of those and there were many other different kinds throughout Israelite history, not cannabis, not cannabis. But it's a good excuse if you're addicted and you want to find a good scriptural. How many times have you done that, you know? So the next one I want to talk about is mushrooms. Now a lot of people, 32 million Americans have actually said they use mushrooms once in their life. You might think that this is like, no way people are actually taking this. You know, I've never really heard about this growing up in church. Now this is very common. This is very common and it marks people's spirituality as well. It's a spiritual pursuit. I smoked weed for four plus years of my life, started in high school, instantly loved it, started to get more spiritual, started to get into Buddhism, mindfulness, meditation. Naturally, I was getting into these things and I felt like I had literally psychic abilities while high. That I was getting new powers and I was told that, oh, don't do it, it's a drug.  You know, we got Bob Marley saying, you're more like yourself. And so I'm like thinking it's all great and so many other people I knew as well. Boom, started getting into new age. Before you know it, years later I'm a certified yoga instructor. And I stopped smoking weed for, because I knew it was bringing forth bad things and it's very deceiving. It's very deceptive the way it stays in someone's life. And things aren't going anywhere but they feel like there's an excuse to keep using it, to keep using it, to keep using it. But many times it leads people away from their true calling, from their true calling in Christ. And that was me. But I stopped smoking it before I came to Christ.  No, I started to sense it before due to the fruit in people's lives and due to the results in people's lives. Mushrooms as well. I took mushrooms. A lot of friends who took mushrooms for spiritual purposes. And the Mayans, they actually call mushrooms the flesh of the gods. They took it, warriors would take it before battle. They had a demon called Ketsukwadol they would worship. This is a feathery serpent that they have all their temples made out of. You know, who deceived Eve in the garden? The serpent. So the usage of these drugs is very correlated and linked to practices outside of God's domain. Worshipping idols and demons that are not of God and actually engaging in the powers of darkness. And I believe that the church needs to be aware of this, to be stronger in Christ, to be guarded, to be set apart from the world and actually closer to the Lord. Because when you're allowing open doors, demons come in, spirits come in and start nagging at you, start leading you away from Christ. Many people find that they come into deeper doctrines and deeper secrets that are being revealed to them on these substances, especially mushrooms, marijuana, DMT, what I'm about to talk about. And they start to leave the Word of God. They start to find that spiritual fulfillment in these spiritual experiences that come from drugs. But it's very demonic and is not a door that God wants one to open. So mushrooms, the Egyptians actually believed that they were placed here by their God Osiris. Now this isn't uncommon for these pagan religions to believe that these substances that cause these experiences came from God's divine beings. And in the Book of Enoch, which isn't a Biblical scripture, it's not a part of the canon. But it's mentioned in Jude, so at least a part of it is true. The Book of Enoch in chapter 7 of the first book actually talks about fallen angels teaching sorcery, plants and root cultivation to man. And sorcery in the Hebrew is specifically described with plants and roots right next to it. So here we've got the Egyptians believing that they're God, their divine being came and created. These things are showed them. And then the Book of Enoch that Jude referenced in the Bible also describes it. So it's another correlation. Now the third one is ayahuasca or DMT. I'm not sure if you've heard of this, but Megan Fox was just on Jimmy Kimmel talking about her experience going down to Costa Rica with machine gun Kelly. I think her boyfriend taking ayahuasca. And you see she's talking about the chakras. She's talking about awakening your true self and trying to get Jimmy to awaken his chakras. And it's all ideology that's actually not found in the Word of God. And that's the ideology that comes to people when they're on these experiences. Now ayahuasca is becoming one of the most popular spiritual healing retreat plant medicines in the West and in the world. People fly from around the world to the Amazon, to Costa Rica to receive healing ceremonies from shamans who are trained in ayahuasca. Now ayahuasca means the vine of the dead. And this chemical, its main ingredient is DMT. DMT is the chemical that Joe Rogan, the biggest podcaster pretty much in the world, popularized about a decade or more ago as something that's spiritually explorative. And you can find the new dimensions. And there's entities you come in contact with. And there's elves that you speak to. And you start to receive messages from more divine sources. And if you're wanting to seek the truth, if you're wanting to know more about reality and what's out there in the universe and all these great things, you're going to be intrigued. You're going to be like, wow, I want to try that, but do I have the courage to try that? Because many people have bad experiences. They didn't fully let go, which is usually the excuse when somebody has a bad trip or a terrifying demonic possession and fear grips their soul. The main excuse is, oh, they didn't let go. You got to let go. You got to surrender to the experience. Surrender to the experience. Basically surrender to the demons as they deceive you and inhabit you. But people get deceived into this because there's so much publicity around it. Hollywood talking about it. The media talking about it. You go online.  They were sexually abused. And they went and took ayahuasca.  And it defines them. And it brings them that, that identity and that healing and that restoration. And you're like, man, I want that. And there are so many people, millions right now, who are wanting that, who are craving that. But it's Jesus Christ who actually gives that. It's their savior. It's the savior of their soul, the one who actually came and died for them. This mother earth or Gaia spirits, the ones they talked to, they didn't come in the form of man.  None of them did. But Jesus did. And if this is you and you're watching online and you've done this before, the one you're seeking is Jesus Christ. He is the savior of your soul. He is the healer, the redeemer, the king of kings, the Lord of lords. He's the one you're actually looking for. And the open door is through the Holy Spirit. You pray to the Father in heaven through the Holy Spirit in the name of Jesus Christ. And you will know your savior.  These substances, smoking weed, taking mushrooms, having ceremonies around it. I had ceremonies around DMT. I smoke DMT, which is a form of ayahuasca that's more potent, not as long. And within five seconds, you're literally in a new dimension. And you read the book of Ezekiel, the book of John. They were sober. They were just walking with the Lord. You know, they were praying in the spirit. They were walking in the spirit, having these experiences. So you don't need to take these drugs to have these experiences. You're meant to as a believer in Christ. Angels were breaking the apostles out of jail. Angels were guiding them as they were fulfilling their mission in Christ. They were witnessing them. They were seeing these things. You know, Peter on the rooftop with the vision, you know, that came down, the blanket that came down, and then he preached to the Gentiles. Like, these visions are normal for Christians. These visions are normal for believers in Christ who are close to the Lord and fulfilling his calling. It's not only these drugs. It's not only smoking weed and taking psychedelics where you can see these visions and have these chances. But following Christ and saving souls and bringing people to the knowledge of truth brings the exact same experience supernaturally. So there's not more supernatural outside of the church. That the true supernatural is in the body of Christ. In the one who created all things. In him, all things were made. That's what it says in Colossians. And in him, we are complete. We are complete in Christ. There's no external source we need to go to to receive that completeness, to receive that satisfaction. Many people see the church as just dry, going to church, sitting in the pews, listening to some preacher read from dogmatic scriptures that were edited. You know, many people believe it's just dry. There's nothing there. There's nothing spiritual. And now, you know, we at Hungry Jen know that the spirit does move. That the Holy Spirit is at work. That people are set free. That demons are sent to the pit in Jesus' name. And people are healed. People are recovered. And people experience the true salvation of their soul. But other people who grow up in different churches who might not have that fire, who might not have that awareness of how God moves today, they see this online and they say, man, this looks way cooler. This looks way cooler. Why am I sitting at church? Like, okay, my parents are forcing me to.  And, you know, Elijah's getting into, to we, getting into LSD, psychedelics, angel cards, astrology. This is what's happening to the youth today. But we as believers in Christ need to put the power of God on display. We need to demonstrate the power as we preach the word so people can actually see that God is stronger. The same God that delivered the Jews out of Egypt. The same God that took down the Egyptian mages and wizards. He's alive today and He's using us. He lives in us. It's us who are dead, but Christ lives in us.  He wants to use you. And if it's not you, people are going to go to drugs. People are going to go to sorcery without having any clue. You know, we got to wake up to the need that people are having to actually experience the true love of Jesus Christ, the true power of the Holy Spirit. Because I can tell you, when I took these drugs, when I took acid, which is LSD, I had a music festival on 420, which is the holiday for marijuana. And I'm like, I just want to take a little, and my friend accidentally gives me a deca dose, which is 10x. And before I know it, I'm like, okay, I'm in this, you know? Some people never literally return mentally, and their identity is fractured forever. I'm like, you know, I'm in this. And I was having visions overlooking the earth of a hierarchy of souls and emblems over a ranking of souls. This is a cult doctrine, and that there's reincarnation and that you ascend over lifetimes to higher levels. It was all correlating to the New Age doctrine that I was beginning to dabble in. But it was bam, huge vision. Like, boom, this is the divine source energy telling me these things, the universe telling me these things. Very vivid, more vivid than anything in my life. And these experiences mark people. They mark people's identity. And for those who've done it, if you've done it, and you've had experiences like this, and you're a believer, you need to completely get what you learned through that experience out of your mind. Because this did not come from God. God never sanctioned this. Yes, God can save people who are under demonic attack while they're doing it, but it's never meant to be taken to know God. And those who do receive those visions, when you come to Christ, you need to go through those times that you had these experiences and this doctrine was downloaded to you and compare it to the Word of God. You need to study the Scriptures. You need to study the true Word because it's living and active. Sharper than any two-edged sword, dividing soul and spirit. And there are demons that are trying to attach to your soul. And if you have the Word of God, it will break that connection that those demons have. That deception that they're staying in your mind with will get exposed in the light of Christ. And the Bible, which is the lamp unto our feet, it's the truth. God is light, and His Word is the truth. But these experiences are very, very common. And I really want to encourage you that don't get involved in this. And if you have been involved in this, to repent of it, to renounce it, to really go through, what did I start to think knew about God? What were these secrets I started to discover about God when I was high on mushrooms and I realized the true power of God is this. Or the true power of God is that. I can't tell you how many people I've met. Believers who watch my video on psychedelics, they reach out and they say, I don't know how to piece it together. This happened to me on psychedelics. This happened in this experience. And it needs to get repented of. It needs to get renounced and not just forgotten. Because it lies dormant within someone's mind. The seeds that Satan plants in those experiences about who someone truly is, they lie dormant unless they're plucked out. Unless they're taken out, uprooted, and the weeds are uprooted. And I want to encourage you, if you've done this before, to begin to remember these times and to repent of it. And if you know someone who's in this, praying for them is essential. Praying for them is essential. Because there are spiritual demons, spiritual beings that are attached to them, that are trying to guide them away. The Holy Spirit wants to guide them.  When we're in the Holy Spirit, we're in that draft of God's calling in our life. But there are unclean spirits that people are residing in. That people are being guided by. And their destinies are being thwarted. Their destinies are being taken off of the path of Christ. And this is a massive element of it that is an open door for demons and for Satan to have access in people's lives. And for those who might still think that, hey, weed's fine if I smoke a little. Or these things are fine if I smoke a little. And there are people who have extreme pain issues and extreme conditions that quite frankly, modern medicine doesn't ought to heal. And they're actually genuinely seeking something to help. I want to urge you to look for something besides getting high. Because there are too many spiritual implications. There are too many implications that are negative, that you don't want to get engaged in. And there are other remedies if you search for them. But the spiritual implications are more consequential than the mere physical.  It's eternity that matters. It's our soul that matters. And there will be temporary suffering. All who are godly will suffer persecution. We're meant to endure a certain level when it comes. But we're meant to stay focused on the kingdom. Stay focused on the eternity mindset and the precious nature of our souls staying pure and holy in Christ. The Bible says time and time again, be sober-minded. Be sober-minded. 1 Thessalonians chapter 5, 6 and 8, 2 Timothy. I could go through. So many times the Bible says be sober, be alert. And these things don't do that. These things do not do that. A lot of these ideologies actually, if you think, oh, where did the New Age come from? Why is this such a big thread on the church now? Well, look at the 1960s movement with the hippies and the drugs that they were taking, mushrooms, LSD, psychedelics. I studied the people who brought it into the West. I revered them, a guy named Terence McKenna from Cal Berkeley, a botanist who would go to the Amazon and see these mushrooms and take them with his brother and write about it, the food of the gods he called it and many people started getting into this and then many people started getting into yoga and Hinduism and the 1960s birthed a lot of the modern New Age movement we see today. Combined with that was the usage of drugs. So it's not just the spiritual powers that are apart from the power of God, but it's the usage of drugs to gain the knowledge for these spiritual powers that is forbidden by God and urged for us not to do. I really want people who have done this before or people who know someone had done this before. I want this to be just a short time of prayer that I want to pray for you. If you've engaged in this, if you've taken these drugs, if you're taking them right now, you're smoking weed, people don't really know, you're thinking it's fine, I urge you, you can end it right now. If you're watching this video, you can literally pause it and say, no, I'm done, flush it down to the toilet, put it down the drain, put it in the trash. No more will you have darkness in your life. You will live pure for Christ. Your calling will be fulfilled in the Lord. That's possible because the Spirit of the Lord, the anointing, His anointing breaks every yoke and there will be no yoke of the enemy in your life. We are not meant to have any attachment to Satan, any connection to the devil, but purely to Christ who lives in us. Hey, thanks for watching this video. If you enjoyed this content and this was a blessing to you, would you help us? And hit thumbs up so that it could help more people to discover this video. 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I say something that we all can relate to, man, like as far as trauma, you know, it's like most guys, to be honest with you, you know, don't have a father figure, bro.  That's just not the case for most guys. So we grew up not even knowing the proper way to be a man, right?  And most of these men that we look up to, find the figures, love times, they're not great examples, we're just asking, we're not even being, you know, I'd say, mentor in the right way, you know, and you just grow up with all these insecurities, man, and never really understanding like, what it is to be a man, like, this is how you change the tide, this is how you, you know, you lose a hammer, this is how you do certain things, you know? This is how you treat women. We just, most guys, we don't have that, you know? And I just, for me personally, and like just, the guys that I interact with, you know, for men, like, when we get a certain age, bro, I feel like every guy can commit to this, you know, finances, you know? So not being a certain place financially too, you know, is something that I feel like a lot of guys deal with because we want to provide the tech, you know?  And that, it affects our self-esteem, to be, if you want to be real, our approach to every single thing because we tie our worth to finances, being able to provide the tech, you know? When we're not gonna be able to do that on a great level, it affects every single area of our lives, you know? You don't want to hit a girl, love, love.     What I don't even say is lead them with money, bro. It's just, as a man, bro, I just feel like it's our nature, you know, when we feel like we're not a certain place, man, it's just, you know, we don't feel as good about yourself, you know? And it does affect us, it triples down to other areas of life. I agree, I agree. It's a different pressure, especially as we get older, like, I noticed for me, like, getting closer to 30 in my head, I'm like, okay, like, really getting it together, and I really like honing who I'm gonna be, you know? Like, in your early 20s, you can kind of like, I like play around, try and discover yourself, but I feel like, you know, it's a pressure for a man, as you get closer to your 30s, because you know, like, these are your prime years you're about to get into. So what am I gonna do with this time? What am I gonna do with these years? So I'm actually grateful now, like, that I'm single, you know?  So I'm comfortable with that, you know? Like, it's like, it's the best years of a man's life.  Yeah, no, that's wealth, bro, that's the wealth, man. Like, to be able to have a father, like, I am grateful, you know, like, so my dad, for example, his dad died when he was like 22, but my dad's dad was very unhealthy, you know, was a rolling stone, was abusive to his mother, so he saw a very unhealthy man, but my dad made the choice and decision that he wanted to be a father and wanted to be a better man. So, like, I see that sacrifice. Now, I see some of the things that my dad got onto me about that, like, we put our heads on, like, and me stepping into that phase of becoming a young man and, like, testing my father, like, I'm so grateful for that masculine energy for him challenging me, pushing me, and, like, roughing me up at times whenever I wanted to buck, you know, so I was, I'm super grateful, you know, to understand the privilege that I had having had a father in my household, and I won't deny that, you know, like, it is a beautiful thing, and it's something that, like, I try and share what other brothers who haven't had that, you know, I try and share, like, that love that I was given, that I was fortunate enough to have in my experiences to those that are willing and able to receive it, you know, bless you, thank you, because with the cycle that I do see, like, growing up, you know, like, that was a pastor, so, like, growing up, I just saw, like, my family give so much, and I just grew up seeing a lot in church, and I saw a lot of, like, single men repeat the same process that was done, and them hurt people, hurting people.  I've read this book, and it says, women are born, men are made, you know, we're born male, but we have to choose to become a man, there's a lot of resources out there, you know, you've got to choose, like, you've got to educate yourself, all manhood, you know, you've got to choose to learn, like, you can't make the excuse of, like, man, I didn't have a father, like, all right, when you're younger, that's fine, you step into adulthood, you are now responsible for your journey, you're now responsible for the kids that you bring in this world, you know, like, it is our duty, no matter what, we had a father or not, society looks at men to be responsible, you know, and we got to understand that, like, that's just a hard truth for us, you know, so for me, like, I have had to, even though I had a father, I've had to still find myself as a man, you know, I still had to find my way, and I still bumped my head and made some mistakes along my journey, and it's also different for me, like, being in my late 20s, not having a relationship with my father, because he didn't have his father at this point in time in his life, you know, so it's still a learning process, but it's a beautiful thing, and I think just, like, father or no father, like, we have to make that choice to be a man and to look and find better and to be better, even if we never saw it growing up, you know?  Yeah, bro, we'll get that to the teachers.     And there are, there are a lot of young brothers that are messed up because of their mother's choice to, to, to, because of her hatred to the father, keeping, like you said, that's a good point, bro. Cause it's a lot of fathers that want to be fathers. But they won't let them. Yeah. And the way the system is set up against men, it's unfair. The mother's so okay, automatically, right. Yeah, it makes all the difference. But it all goes down to, like you say we're the last man, though, you know, we have three responses. No, I agree. You know, and a great example to a man is like, you know, when you believe in the Bible or not, is look at Adam and Eve, bro, right? Think about it. Nothing happened, bro, right? So Eve is an, Eve picked the fruit. Eve ate the fruit. Nothing happened, bro, but tell Adam ate the fruit. It was that. So it all comes down to that man as a man, like we have the response, we're like, we're pretty here. You know, we, we not, we're not dictators, but we are the leaders. We are the head. You know what I'm saying? We are the head. And women ain't our books to lay out back home, but you know, as a man, I feel like a lot of times we, we don't, you know, we don't, we just not willing to make those sacrifices to be responsible, you know, because it all comes down to men to be honest, man.   Like for me, it's different, bro. It's different because I use the Bible for a lot of references because I don't really know what way, you know, being a man, just knowing who you really are, it goes to God first, but understanding who God is. That's the base foundation for me. Cause once I understand, you know, who's my creator and what I'm put here to do, you know, the kinds of help me to form my identity, you know what I'm saying? So when it comes to being a man, I just feel like a man is, man, it's a God figure, bro. Like we're all made to image God. But like you say that the men were created first for a reason. I feel like, you know, we're here to be protectors, providers, priests, that leaders. Yeah. This, this, this, this, this, this, just a little bit. Fuck, definitely not going to make it. No, I'm going to move it again, though. But it's so much. Yeah, it's so much, like. There's so much that comes to it. Yeah, I'll take you later. It's like, yeah, I don't even know what we're getting on. Straight up, it's like there's so much, so much things. I don't think money, you know, makes you a man. Like I feel like this, I feel like part of things, like a man can be identified. Like what you do, you know, what you do when nobody's watching, I feel like that plays a big part of who you are as a man.   I think it comes with a lot of stuff that you got to carry. You know, you got to have like strength. Obviously you got to be strong. You got to be, and that comes with everything else that we were talking about.  We can't be weak.  You got to be courageous. You got to be smart. You got to be willing.  And then we can't even speak upon that.  I just feel like it's just so much. It's hard to take whatever with what everyone says that.  I mean, staying is like, you could be a man. Cause being a man means that you're, I feel like you're at a level of maturity. You know, and you're accepted at a certain level of responsibility. You understand who you are. Cause also like being a real man, it's attached, you know, on your purpose though.  You know, so all of that ties into being a man. Cause once you find out your purpose, and you know what you're here for, now you're able to move different and lead different.   I just feel like you just got to be, like the best way, it's like you just hold the world.   That's, I feel like that thing where it's like, okay, you can be vulnerable. It's like, it's literally that. It's like, it's fictional. It's a movie.  I mean, that's just my opinion. Yeah, I think we're planters, we're farmers. There's a reason that we carry a seed, you know? Cause we have to cultivate. We got to work by the sweat of our God, whether it's mental anguish of like having to create and provide a physical, you know, like that's on us. Like he said, like it's our duty to be wise stewards over our time, over our talent, over our body, over everything around us. Like a household, keeping our household clean, keeping the yard maintained. And like it is our duty. No matter what they're set the pace. They're set the pace.  And for me, it's the Bible as well. That's my moral code, I'm not compass. And so, you know, I, based on that, I understand like that I'm called to be a king. I'm called to be a priest. I'm called to be a leader, you know, started spiritually and that bleeds into my mind. That bleeds into my body. It starts with stewardship, you know? And it starts with my spirit. It starts with submitting myself unto the creator, you know, and allowing him to pour into me, to give me wisdom, to give me insight and show me how to be a leader, you know? And be the, be the reflection of who he is, you know? He made us in his own image. So him being my leader, how do I lead in this space, this time and life that you've carved out for me to live and what is my duty here? How am I supposed to lead and leave a legacy of leadership? Where am I supposed to plant seeds, you know? What am I supposed to be giving, you know? Like in a sacrificial, you know?  I know that my soul is gonna leave this body, but what am I gonna sow into the world before I go back and I seek out again, you know? Well, I think that's what it is for us as men, is to leave a piece of our self here, you know? So, and that hurts, it's painful, you know? That's our birth, you know? Women give it physical birth, but man, the birth that men have to give is different. Man, it's our soul, our spirit, our blood, our sweat, our tears, and we never stop giving birth to the day we die, you know? Like it's every day we gotta show up. We gotta be responsible. There's always a duty, you know? Like we're always at risk of life, man. If I gotta give my life today for my family, for what I believe in, my moral code, you know? Like are you that sound as a man that you're ready to do that? Do you really, you know, it's a lot of people that profess, like I believe this or that, are you willing to sacrifice your life for that, you know? Like that's the duty of a man, you know, for me. And that's tough, that's a hard pill to swallow, you know, but there's a reason that we're looked at as being expendable, and you know, that's why our legacy lives on. As we were talking about after we died, man, like thinking specifically about Dr. Miles Monroe, you know, he passed away, but the sacrifice that he made while he was here, it still lives on today. He was living this purpose, right? So it's almost like to be, for me personally, man, like if you want to tap into being a real man, you know, you have to tap into your purpose.  Like you have to tap into your purpose. You won't have the impact you're supposed to have unless you're actually walking into your purpose. Like we're all put here to do a specific thing, right? So it's almost like this, like if you bought a certain product from the store and it didn't do what it's supposed to do, it was pointless, you understand? Like it didn't serve its purpose. So us being here, man, if you don't come to earth and do them to come and manifest what you're supposed to be, now our existence is wasted, like you know what I'm saying? You didn't do what your purpose to be, you know? So that's something that, you know, I feel like if you want to tap into our purpose and at the time of your purpose, you have to have a relationship with God.  And I feel like a man once you're walking in, because to walk in purpose, it'll demand that you're responsible. You have to be responsible. You can't walk in purpose if you're not responsible, you know?    And he's working. And he's working. He was focused and he was working. And there's a quote that says, a man that does not know his purpose distracts himself with pleasure, you know? And there's a lot of guys out there that think they're on purpose because they have a transactional value of like money, but they're constantly distracting themselves with women, the strip clubs, drugs, party, and drinking. And I know I've been there, I've been guilty of that, you know? But like finding my purpose and finding myself in God and having a personal relationship with God, not some religious rhetoric and just doing what religion has taught, but doing what I know from my relationship, my one-on-one time, what meditated and being by myself and reading the Word and studying and seeking God for myself that has led me to my purpose, that has led me to being in a place spiritually to where I'm attracting the right people into my life, you know, and being guided. And I think that's important for every, even if you do, even for all the men out there that don't have a father, understand that the creator is your father, he will guide you and put mentors and people into your life that will blow your mind and then pour and instill in you greater than our biological fathers ever could. You know, that's how powerful the creator is, man. And it's different. I think that's the, you know, the finish up for my statement. I think that's our biggest attack is like, men are, there's so much distraction that's thrown at us of like pleasure and money and things outside of ourselves. So we never focus on who we are, you know, because that's when we really become powerful. We realize that we're spiritual beings having a physical experience and we tap into that spiritual power. That's when we really step out of that phone booth and we're Superman. There's a fun man who's a dangerous, water-fuckin' man. Absolutely, yeah. I see the point that says, you know, how could you be a king if you were slaves to your pleasures? Man, I can't really get a can to be a true king, man, being slaves to your pleasures.  Like, we actually, you know, made conversations like this cool bro and it really decided to be responsible. We could create a shift, you know, and be a spark in the culture, bro.  It's not cool in manhood, but the guy called it, it's not cool, you know what I'm saying? But whereas being celibate, bro, a man who's celibate is a powerful man. But we don't make that a cool thing. We don't talk about it, you know? It's a reason why. I'm literally, I'm literally on like a sober trip.  But that's the stuff we have to make cool, bro. What did you say? Ain't nobody gonna rap about that. You know, it's about popping bottles, getting girls, that's what society and culture is always pushing at us, man. And that's where we have to, the importance of knowing yourself so that we can detach from what society is pushing out and be able to think for yourself, create, you know, your own boundaries for yourself. We all have our own struggles and we go through different things, different experiences, different walks of life. So what my struggles might be may not be your struggles, you know? It could be something totally different. You may not have a problem with women or drinking or whatever the case may be, but we all know ourselves or we need to know ourselves so we do know what our boundaries are, what we need to work on, man. But you're not, you're right, man. I think understanding that we're all kings and we don't have to fight against one another. Kings can rule together, you know? Bro, I'm making it cool, though. I'm saying like, how do you make it cool, bro? Like, I'm saying, even when we look at, you know, our culture, bro, like, it'll never be cultural. I'm saying what we have to begin to have this conversation has to be balanced.  You know, the rappers talk to me all the time, you know what I'm saying? Like, it's on TV and stuff. But even like us, bro, you know, we have more of these conversations and while we're honoring that, yo, you're all a god. I'm 28, I'm 70, but I'm not having sex. Why don't you make that a cool thing? You know what I'm saying? Right.  You don't want to want to know that, you know?   You know what I'm saying?   Like, bro, please, bro, don't lose that. Yeah.  And you know, right, bro, and for Henry's like, it's kind of like, he's kind of ashamed of it. And I'm like, oh, that's a superpower. Right.  That's a superpower, bro. Right. So I just feel like we need to have one of these conversations. We do, this is the start right here, like just having these talks. And then like, the life that we live, like be the example, be the byproduct, like the life that we live be the product of our habits, of our discipline, of our structure, of our order, of us being and living what we talk about.  Well, again, we're visual creatures. That's why it's easy to see the OGs on the block because we're looking, we're always looking for success or like pieces around us. That's just our nature, you know? And we latch on to, like, once we were like, we're like a robot, like, we'll do latch on. Like, okay, oh, this is where we're scanning the room. Like, okay, this is life. Then it's like, okay, we hone in on that thing. Like, I see him providing for himself and getting money, regardless of the way the repercussions are, you know? Like, that's something that we latch on to as men. So having these conversations being open, being public about our views and, like, the choices and decisions that we're making, this is where it starts at. And again, it ain't gonna never be looked at as cool, but ain't about it being cool. It's about it bringing some heat to the table and challenging people, you know? Iron sharpens iron, it creates friction, it creates heat.  So. Something you're comfortable, though. Right? You just have very valid points, right? You know, there's no true definition of what it means to be a man.  Being a man is someone that understands purpose, that walks in purpose, finding God.  There's so many different components that come together to truly being a man, I think it can tie back to one main thing. And for me, being a man means accountability, right?  If my responsibility is to provide for my family to be a provider, it's holding myself accountable to making no excuse, right?  Well, being a true man comes back to that accountability again. Do I hold myself accountable where I'm gonna use that excuse for the rest of my life and say, well, my father wasn't there? Or am I gonna hold myself accountable to figure out what it truly means to be a man, right? You know, finding God, you know, it's not cool, or some people might not look at it to say, okay, it's not cool to find God or to speak about things like celibacy, right? But am I gonna, again, use it as an excuse or am I gonna hold myself accountable? So I think, oh, no matter what it is that we talk about, like all of the different things that come together being a man, it's holding yourself accountable to make that right decision and do it on your own, right? And what have you done or not? It's that thing that we do by ourselves, you know? Like you said earlier, like what we do when we're by ourselves, like being accountable to ourselves, it's that spirit that judges us. It's that inner thing that's like, man, this ain't right. Or man, you know what? Like I'm gonna do the right thing.  Like it's that inner battle, you know, between what the flesh wants, which is lust and love, which is perfection, you know? What's up in the high is hope. Right, right. So that's where it starts.  You gotta be able to steward over those cravings, you know?  So like being true to that, to the breath, you know? To the life force that sent us, being accountable to that, being better. Cause we know what we're doing wrong, you know? Like everybody know that feeling like, man, I knew I was kinda crooked doing that, but we'll choose to bypass it. We start distracting ourselves, you know? We'll distract our moral code, you know? We'll do something enough to where we become immune to it, you know? And then we generally have a crash or a fall, that's another topic, but yeah, body, find in their relationship with God, the creator, in their own way, seeking that. Is that our responsibility as men to hold ourselves accountable to even educate ourselves on why it's important? You know, you look at warriors, right? You look at fighters before a boxer goes into training, right? Before that boxer goes into training, he's not allowed to have sex. No. You know, but why? All right? Do we hold it?  All right, so like the power. I mean, so it's not even just a religion standpoint for people that don't believe in religion from a science standpoint. Just what I'm saying, and it goes like when I talk about how we look at, we just look at sex as something through casualty, when maidens, the science, you're only supposed to, you know what I'm saying? Release, bro, when you're about to, you know, mate, use that, they're just spritz. We're the only mammals that have sex out of lust for pleasure without, again, we've got desensitized from our spirit. Dolphins do it too. That, all right, yeah, all right, maybe so. Listen, little freaky, little creatures there. You know what you're talking about, huh? Dolphins, like somebody ask you, Dolphins do it too. All right, all right. Well, I guess dolphins, you know, they struggle into out there. See, man, they struggle into hot girl summer, man. They be seen to bikinis in the water, man.  Hot girls at the beach, man. Hey, hot girls, just dive in. You think that the female dolphins, I have just dive in for no reason and they dive in for attention. All right, attention, for serious. Thank you. But here, I put splashes in order to do it. All right, splashes, man, you got attention, man. No, no. So Caleb, I mean, I heard you say before, if I'm not mistaken, we had this conversation and you were talking about how there was somewhat a culture where they believed where like, when you, I don't know how you worded it, but I know you had mentioned it before, I wanted you to speak on it. You know, why celibacy, like what he said, the science behind it, you know, we're supposed to produce as men, right? And you said when you give your last, right, you can't just be out here just busting, that's left and right. When you give your life, that's like the end of your life. Do you remember when you made that statement? Yeah, yeah, it's like, man, again, like I said earlier, we're put here to be farmers, right? Like, I'm not gonna just keep put in seed everywhere and not tend to it, you know? Like, that's my life force. That's how I'm gonna eat and I'm gonna provide and create new crops, new legacy, new generation. But again, the Farkano nature has gotten addicted to the pleasure of it, you know? That now we're where the condoms or women get IUDs, all these unnatural things. And because we have science, you know? But if we did have this technology and have this science, like where would we be, you know? And so like it's become just this pleasure culture because we have all these technology now, you know? Like we created things to be able to indulge more into being able to just have sex, you know, for the pleasure of it, but not for the purpose of it. And that's why for men, like we have such clarity, like after, you know, we have our moment, where it's just like, man, like, why am I doing this? We want her to leave. We feel like disgusted, you know?  That is our printed DNA of carbon copy of who I am at this moment is coming out right now to go and create another version of me. And if I'm not being responsible with that, I'm depleting my energy, my time, my nutrients in my body every time that, like literally men get weak and we become depressed after just constantly masturbating and pornography. Like it's a reason why, you know, that she loads your vibration for sure. Yeah. And it's a reason why it's supposed to be done in marriage and like that's a moment that you share with your wife. That's a vulnerable moment that she gets. She's literally getting my seed and now she's getting me vulnerable and emotionally like to lay in her bosom and to be weak, you know? Because now we've combined and like flesh to my flesh, bone to my bone, you know? Like you're legit that and producing that, you know? And so just that whole process right there, like just shows our role as men, even penetrating things. Think about how we have to penetrate the ground, penetrate the earth to plant a seed. Like that right there explains our role and just our nature and how God created and designed our body.  But we have to be responsible for and watch it grow.  We gotta protect that woman, you know? Like why she's pregnant, you know? We gotta be there for her, you know? So I made the mistake. I lost my virginity at 15. I knew better than the decision that I made but I didn't have the understanding. I had the knowledge, I didn't have the understanding but bumping my heads many a times and thinking that like, okay, oh, this is cool. You know, but after a while of like being depressed and like kind of questioning myself and why I'm doing these things, I realized like, okay, man, this is actually toxic, man. It's sleeping around. And I honestly, I started my celibacy journey the first time just trying to, after reading a book, think and go rich, you know? And like that was my first just like biological understanding of it and just like how. That makes us more disciplined and focused. I just tried it out. But then as I began to get closer to God, then that's when I tied the spiritual peace to it, you know?  Like it's hard, you know? It's something that has been imperfect for me.  But it's one of those things that like, I understand like, man, I don't just wanna give myself really, nearly no more like just common, just sex for the sake of sex, man. It's so disgusting to me. I was like junk food. I'm like, nah, man, I really wanna save myself from my wife, you know?  So like that's what my relationship with God and I wanted to give myself fully to my future wife is what encourages me. And also just the clarity and the discipline that I now have tied through experience and trial and error of having consistent sex and being celibate. Now like I see how much better my life is, you know? Like being a more focused man, you know?  How old were you when you lost your virginity? 19. 19, okay. How old were you? I was an eight grade, the old ten year old, the old five. Yeah, he's a young, so how much? I fucking, she was with an older lady. She was 36. That was my next question. Eight grade, no way, bro. She was 36 years old. So was yours an older girl? Yeah, yeah, it was my freshman year in college, bro. I literally felt like I was going to die afterwards. Cause I was like, cause I knew we had a real pure relationship with God, bro. Even the Bahamas, I went to St. Thomas, bro. So from the out of the street to college, bro, it was nothing like I've never seen. I'm in Miami and it was an old lady who worked at the school, bro. I was like, I was 19, she had to be like 45, right? Yeah, man. And I, you know, I, every time. What about yourself, was the girl older than you or was she a... No, man, we were the same age, but she was a virgin and I was, you know, and so she kind of prayed on that. Like, I didn't realize until later that that was her prerogative was to take my virginity, you know? So, yeah.  Let's speak on that, you know, kind of tying the topic into this. You know, we spoke about celibacy, but you know, a lot of us don't understand, as men, we don't understand the journey of celibacy because we're introduced to sex so early, right? And in a sense, we, it sounds like a joke, right? Cause it's not manly to talk about it, but a lot of men, their virginity is taken from a woman that's much older than them. I think we fall into the trap of seduction. You fall into the trap of seduction and then you're expected to not be sexualized like situations and not be attracted to women by this. But it's like, you fall into it so early that you have no understanding of what it means. Like, so talk about losing it to an older, like talk about 45 and then it goes to sex. Man, she said it the way, bro. She said, I am alive, bro. I didn't even know what I was doing, bro. I was laying there, bro. I don't even know if I even, man, I didn't even know, but it's enough. I don't even know what happened, bro. It was, bro, it was crazy, bro. But I know afterwards though, I went, I went back to my room, my dorm room.  I forgot I'm gonna kill me. Cause like, cause I really wanted to keep my virginity cells in there, bro. I really wanted to. So yeah, so it was like, bro, I was shaking that night, man. I remember it like yesterday, bro, I was really, really nervous, man. But she, you know, she took it away, bro. She like, she also played a part, bro. I know, you know, when you're young, I see the cafeteria, she works in the cafeteria. I'm like, I'm starting to wear her. She's like, okay, boy. She keep talking.   I'm gonna pick you up next weekend. Be ready. And me trying to act like I had sex before, but I didn't even know what to do. I never used to call him before, I didn't know what to do, bro. She came with a call. She came with everything. She was like, yo, she's like, okay, she said, let me show you the ropes, young boy.  But now, even though the girl was the same age as me, the same thing happened, like it wasn't. More experience. She got on top of me. Yeah, yeah, yeah, you know? So I think it's for those type of women, I think some, they got touched or hurt or somewhere in their past like early on, you know? Like possibly, you know, I think for my case, that's what ended up happening to that girl. Like she ended up losing her virginity like early. She ended up being raped or something. Right, yeah. And so she was subconsciously, she took that same energy, that same seducing spirit and like, use it on me.  My little kids make out, do a little something, but I didn't even want to go that far. She got on top of me.  So like, I didn't want to be like, nah, like I don't want to do that. You know, it's like, how do you handle like seduction and when and where do you say no to women? Women are taught to like say no, but when are we taught to say no? Right, we hunters, you know what I'm saying?  If it's coming to you bro, like, what do you do? What about you, Alex? You know, how do you feel? With the situation, it's just the older women. Shit, that should happen to me. Like, it was just the same thing like him.  Like, I knew what I was doing. I used to go to my cousin's house like every weekend, bro. He was older.   So like, I was like, I'm out with my cousin.   It was his chick, her name was Jamire. Shout out to Jamire. No. I won't say her name. I won't say her name. No, it was just one chick.  My cousin had a little bit of money.   And I'd be there just the whole weekend. And he'd just order me pizza. And he'd be like, yo, there's beer. We're like, whatever, smaring off ice.   So it started like that. And then my cousin was like, yeah, what's up? Like, you ever got your willy wet? And I'm like, yeah, yeah.    Whatever, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, I'm having.       And she literally was just like, all right, come on. Straight up, just walk me to the back.  Like, I couldn't even hold a control with X-Box and X-Box, just the way. I had the mic on, I'm listening. I'm like, God, what are you talking about? I'm just listening. I'm playing.   And I started literally, when I was sweating, bro, I was so scared.   Like, can I touch you? You ever did this, whatever? And I'm like, nah, I haven't. And like, she was like, do you want to do this? And at this point, I'm like, there's no way out. I'm like, yeah, she's like, okay, like, do you know what you're doing now? So she's like, all right, lay down. She's like, is it okay if I touch you? And I'm like, yeah. I just laid down. At least she was polite. She was a man for life, bro. She want my boy through the whole situation. I was like, baby, why I had two belly buttons.  And then that was it. She was like, yo, can I do this? She literally told me like, yo, can I like do this? I'm like, yep. I was literally, yeah, bro. She put it on me.  I'm not even a cat. I wasn't even there to like, enjoy it. But then when I got to, you know, when my cousin was there, I'm like, it's all over the place. I didn't get buzzed all the way to my senior year.  Right.  I was always fighting with them.  It was a really, it was a dramatic experience. It was a really personal experience. It really was, I didn't get all the way up to my senior year at all.   It just wasn't me, though, until like that. It was like a similar experience where a girl, same, not, not of my age, and she came and put that thing up on me. Like it was, then it was that again.  And then from there, then I started like, you know, I started doing my own thing. I started downloading it. I graduated, then that was when I'm like, I really started like, getting it in, I guess you could say, but yeah, I went all those years, brought it in, not touching, I won't feed them.  And it was like, it was periods of time that it would literally be like that.  Like, I think I am. Like, so for me, it was, you know, like I had the experience, I legit came home, I had the same experience, but I sat in the shower and I just cried, man. I just got in the bed, man. It was just some weird, I got out of the shower, didn't even dry off at this late in the bed. I was so confused. I was that depressed, man. It was that mind-boggling, but it shook me so much after that, that I'm like, well, dang, I done did it. Now I just want to try it again. You know, I done lost it. It was like, I confronted it, like I done actually lost it, like we just figured it out. And I got addicted to me. I went through a dog phase in high school. I went through a bad dog phase, man. It wasn't until I got to college that I was just like, man, I don't want to be like this no more, man, because I was depressed. Like legit, my senior year in high school, I wanted to commit suicide. And I didn't realize it happened because of the sex. Yeah, because I was depleting myself, man. I was giving myself all the time. I was legit, man. In high school, man, I was getting buns every day. Like just crazy because I just got addicted and didn't realize like, like I legit remember losing my purity. Like I felt that purity in me. That's how I felt, bro, you know? And for you, for me too, it was the same thing, but like once I confronted it, bro, I just got wild and out, bro. Do you two feel, I mean, from a strong faith base, right?  Do you feel like that played a part in it? Like it's like you're so sheltered sometimes from like how the world is, right? Everything's from a religious standpoint. And you have to be this because of this. Do you feel like that played a role? But not only in you having that dog phase, but did it also play a role with you feeling so guilty that it happened?  It's like, I wouldn't touch the stove but this stove actually kind of feels kind of good, you know? And so I got a, it was like a drug. A cookie cookie. You see, I'm not touching the stove, but if you throw some bread in there real quick, I might pay and touch it to the load. It's like the first, it's like that's hot. The next house, it's like, okay. Yo, man, it's all in there. Yo, we cooking with grease, no. That's what you need. As an older man, if I could go back, I would not do it, bro. It's not worth it, man, I don't.  Man, I would drag myself, but no. I'd like myself to walk away, dog. Dog, man, yeah. I would definitely would have done it too, bro.  And that's, you just say, hey, man, I'm just not wild. I already lost it. I'm just not wild enough. Yeah, I don't know. That's what happened to me too, bro. It's like, it's like, you lost that in self-love. Like you said, you could feel that it should leave you. That's when I, like, you know, especially like this past year and she was like, I literally really like took a step back.   I say that joke when you tell my friend to laugh, but I'm not gonna hold up to a Tesla charger. But it's like, I really feel that way. Like, I'm like, damn, dude, I feel like, like that. I feel like just depleted or like the other day I felt for the first time that like, like even even like your third eye and like all that shit, like your sense. For the first time, I felt that it left me because like real shit, like I was this last week.   I used to feel like this presence. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Like this really strong presence, almost like something was guiding me or like, I would like want to sound corny or like angels or something, just envy too, like something.  So I went, I laid in the sun back in the back of my door. I need to charge back up. I didn't put my water in my body. That's how I noticed to be real.  It really, it really isn't. It's, it's draining. No, it wouldn't be draining, man. It's a, it's a spiritual act, bro. You know what I'm saying? It's a spiritual act. We, we've made it, like I say, so casual. And we understand that each time you like, you have sex, bro, you're having a spiritual exchange, bro.   For women, like for men, you know, we're givers, women and more receivers, right? You know, each time where we have sex, but you're confronting the DNA in that woman. You know what I'm saying?  Other DNA.  Remember energy can't be destroyed. They only need transfers, bro. So it's just being, you know, it's just being transferred, bro. And that's why a lot of times you, you see certain people let it help certain personalities, right?  It's all tied into your personality.  People kind of just casualize sex, right? Because you even have women now who they might be like, oh yeah, I slept with this person, but it didn't mean anything. It was just sex, right? It was just sex. Yo, it's a lie, bro. That's why I was going to say it's a lie. Or you're like, yo, like, we're doing this, but it's just sex, right?  It didn't mean anything. And it goes back to that self-loathing. It's because we try to ignore that part of us. It's a deep issue, but we don't want to face it, right? But what happens is, if you don't face it, bro, all you're doing is building up enough trauma, and eventually it's come crashing down, bro. You see if you can't escape it, that it crashes. Yeah, that will really, crashing down. My whole life, man, my life is so different now. Like, again, just understanding this, like, again, like being at that phase versus like just going through a whole phase. Like, I was so scattered and just all over the place and so depressed. And my life just fell in shambles. I was getting into it with my parents, and just like, I didn't understand that I was the cause of that. Versus now, like, when I look at my life and life, man, I have so much more clarity, so much more focus. Like, I have a, like, not cocky, but I got confidence about myself because I'm sure of myself. I'm sure of where I'm going and what I'm doing and my purpose, you know? And I'm not gonna lie and say it's easy, bro, because it takes some heavy boundaries to be like, say no to women because it makes you more attractive.  I've experienced that shit, like, the ones that I like, I'm like, well, please, like, no, I'm not.   No, yeah, it was like, they just smelled it, bro. It was like, it's like, they smelt it, no, no, because we're saying you don't understand that word. Smell it, no, you wouldn't. I had the day where we were at, I don't know where you are. So, like, there's like, the dogs on heat. Like, you know what I'm saying? They can smell that. So, like, the air blows. Right, right, right. So, they know him, okay. He's standing in himself. He's selling it. They could help. Yeah, it's, you know, we give off that something we, something to help. You know what I'm saying? We connect with, you know? Yeah. That's true. Yeah. It's true. But it's, again, like, now I've had to learn like through trial and error, like setting boundaries. Like, that's why I can't have chicks over on my crib. I can't come over your crib. We can't have flicks and chill. Cause then, I know I'm weak. I know my weakness.  You still watching that? No, I'm not. I'm not. I'm not.  I don't think I ever had the, I don't think I ever had the success with Netflix and chill, bro. I ain't never, bro. Yeah. I only have ever successfully made that. Yeah, we chill. I don't know about that. We chill. I don't think I've ever, bro. Like, it is. Watching, trying to watch that same movie. Right, yeah.  Think about it. We can watch it for real this time. We can watch it for real this time. Finish going in.  Because I know what I'm capable of, right? Like, knowing that I can still be that villain is sometimes thinking back on what appeared to be glorious moments. Like, boy, back in the day, it's like, man, you weak now. You know, like, just that battle between the spirit and flesh. Like, man, you really gonna tell this chick, no, to Netflix and chill? You know, like, you come on, man. You gonna be, so you don't have to be another man down. I mean, it could be just the adversary, like, trying to get at me in my mind, man. It's beautiful. Just like knowing your own, like to see your growth and know it. It holds so much value.  Yeah. Hey, keep it in your pants, man. Just, just, it's powerful, but it's like, you can't knock it till you try it, man. It may not be cool, but it's the greatest success that I can give anybody is learn to control yourself and tap into that spiritual power. Yeah, absolutely, man. Like, seeing your attention is real.  I understand that you're, that's your God power, it's your energy, and you want to be very, very intentional and selective with that. Oh, simple. Just save your energy. Kind of like simple.


Welcome to this session, in the previous session we discussed Germlos theorem which says one of the player has a winning strategy or the game ends in a draw. Now in this session we look at some examples and determine whether which player has a winning strategy. In particular we look at the games where either win or loss happens, there is no draw possibility. So we start with the game of chump. So recall the chump, in a chump there is a rectangular array of cells, each cell is considered as a chocolate and this corner is a poison. Now the player stick turns alternatively, remember that if a player selects a cell, say if a player selects a cell, all the cells right side and above are taken by that player. So now if you continue this game, in fact it is quite easy for us to realise that this game will never end in a draw, it will always end in a either a win or loss. So which player wins this game? So let us see, the in fact chump is a game where first player has a winning strategy. So let us look at it, how do we play this game? So we can start with the following thing, let us consider instead of rectangle let us consider a square. In the first move player 1 will mark this square, therefore all this will disappear from the board. In the next player 2, he can mark any square in this row or in this row. So whatever player 2 can mark here, corresponding a symmetric square in the other side, what it means is that suppose if player 2 marks here, so it is symmetric thing there is a move for player 1 here or if player 2 marks here, player 1 has a place to mark here. If player 2 marks here, player 1 now can mark here. So in conclusion what I am saying is that wherever player 2 is making a move player 1 has a corresponding move therefore whenever player 2 has a move player 1 always has a move. Therefore in the end we conclude that player 1 is going to win this game, thus the game of chump has a winning strategy for player 1 even when the board is given by a square. Now what about a rectangular, how do we play this game? Then the same idea but let us look at it, player 1 let us assume the blue player let us takes this then player 2 let us assume he will take something let us say whatever let us take he takes this that means this entire thing is now under recall realize that if player 2 is going to be going to be winner in this game by taking this position what player 1 can do here is that instead of taking this one player 1 could start with this position. So this is the idea that is there, so in a sense let us write down formally. Suppose the formal argument is that suppose player 2 has a winning strategy if player 2 has a winning strategy what it means is that we consider 2 games there is let us assume that let us try writing 2 games here. So remember as we assume player 2 has winning strategy, so let us this is a dummy game let us think about this player 1 in this dummy game player 1 first takes this one player 1 takes this one, so this position then player 2 responds his winning move. So let us say this is his winning move in this dummy game now what player 2 is doing in this game the player 1 will do it here. So in this game this is the real game player 1 exactly follows the player 2 strategy here he will take here this one and then this game goes on. Now we can see that if player 2 has a winning strategy here in this game then the player 1 has to win here, so there is a contradiction. So this immediately tells you that player 2 cannot win therefore player 1 has a winning strategy. So this is the idea of this proof for this theorem in a chump game we are using basically a strategy stealing argument here whatever player 2 is doing in this dummy game we are following this. This is something like suppose if you are playing with both Kasparov and Karpov so let us say you play with one of them first and then replicate that strategy in the game with Karpov then you are sure to win one of those 2 games or at least you will end a draw you will so that is you are using this argument here. So the next game that we will consider is hex. So let us look at it. So what is the game of hex? We have seen it already in this thing it is a regular hexagons arranged in a diamond ship in such a way that there is a same number of hexagons along each side of the board. So this is an example of the board in fact in the earlier session we have seen how this is played. So there is a blue player this side this is a blue player his goal is basically to mark to color these hexagons in such a way that he gets a path from this side to this side and this is a red player he will try to color these hexagons in such a way that there is a path from this side to this side. So who has a been extra strategy in this game? So let us check this one. So let us look at the idea of this. So as I said this two players alternatively play like in tic-tac-toe each player in his turn places his symbol blue or red colored according to the player on one of the hex curve. Winner is the player who first obtains a connected path of adjacent hexagons stretching between the sides of that player's label. This is invented by Piet Heijn a Danish scientist mathematician writer and poet and this is actually rediscovered by John Nash and it became a very popular thing in this thing. So let us check how do we solve this game? Does this game has a winning strategy for either player or can there be a draw? This is the question. So let us try to prove this. So first let us see this game cannot end in a draw the idea is very simple. So the let us go back to the slides this game what you do is that suppose let us say one of the player is going to color it other player let us say he makes the hole. If you make holes what is really going to happen is that if you keep let us say blue player is coloring with blue this coloring these hexagons with blue and let us assume that red player is cutting making a hole set the rectangle. Now at the end of the day either the when all the hexagons are taken by one of the players the sheet either will remain connected or disconnected. If it is disconnected that means the person who made the holes has a path from one side to the other otherwise the other player has the win. So that is all. So what we do is that we imagine that this playing board of hex is made of paper when ever red moves he colors the hexagon of his choice and whenever blue moves he cuts his hexagon of his choice. Now either the board will remain a single piece or at least two pieces. This completes the proof. This proof is quite intuitive and in fact the one of the underlying idea in this proof is known as is Jordan-Kau theorem which is actually quite an important result in mathematics and in fact we can also use this hex game to prove the Jordan-Kau theorem. So let us go to the next result. So the first thing is that this theorem tells you that this hex game can never end in a draw. So let us look at the next part. Who has a winning strategy? Now what the idea is that the first player has a winning strategy. How does this go? Let us look at this. Let us go back to the picture once again. So how we do is very simple thing. Let us say blue player, let us say blue is the first player initially he picks any blue player picks any hexagon. So he picks any hexagon and then he keeps this as if he has not played. What we are really doing is that we are using the same argument like what we have seen earlier the strategy stealing argument. So we know that, okay so this is like a contradiction. Let us look at the proof. So let us say first player actually can adapt. Let us look at this here. What I am saying here is that the first player to adapt the second player's winning strategy as follows. We are going to use this thing. So the first player on his first move just colors in an arbitrary chosen hexagon. Subsequently for each move by the other player the first player responds with the appropriate move dictated by second player's winning strategy. This is called the stealing the strategy argument. So what exactly we are doing it? So player 1 initially makes a random move, okay random I mean is that he picks any of the hexagon and he colors it and then he will wait for the second player's strategy. Whatever the second player is playing assuming that the second player has a winning strategy. So he thinks that like in the previous case you consider another boat separately kept it. He makes some move and then the second player is making his winning move, winning he is following his winning strategy that second player's winning strategy the first player is going to follow in the first boat. So it is what happens here is that at some time it is possible that the player 1 may need to mark hexagon which is already marked initially. Then what happens is that if that if he has to mark that that means he is already in a good shape it is not a problem. So it does in this thing and then he arbitrarily chooses something else and then this procedure is repeated and that eventually gives you this the proof that if the second player has a winning strategy the player 1 can also win the game in a sense it is a contradiction and it proves this proves that the player 2 cannot have a winning strategy and hence player 1 wins this game. So this is a again once again we are using this strategy stealing argument and which proves this game of hex. So now this game of hex is a very very interesting game in for several reasons. So what we are going to do here is give you some arguments how this hex game can be used to prove Brouwer's fixed point theorem. The Brouwer's fixed point theorem is a very very important result which we are going to use in this course. So let us go with that. So before that I need to explain what is a Brouwer fixed point theorem. So let us what is this? So let us take f is a function from an interval 01 to another interval 0 comma 1. Then what it says is that there exists a point of course I assume always continuous function there exists a point x in 01 such that f of x is equals to x such a point x is called fixed point not this is a one dimensional thing but you can also do it in a two dimensional thing if f is a function from 01 cross 01 to 01 cross 01. Then and of course continuous function then there exists x that is of course x1 comma x2 in 01 cross 01 such that f of x is equals to x. So this is a two dimensional version and like that I can go for n dimensions. So we will not prove this n dimension here we will give a two dimensional version and instead of 01 cross 01 I can actually take any k convex and compact set and f is from k to k then of course continuous then there exists x in k such that f x is x. So this is basically the Brouwer's fixed point theorem. So let us prove this fact. So we use this hex game and then let us check how we can prove this. So what we do is that we consider this hex board and we consider a dual version of it. So this is the hex board we have and each of these hexagons we take the central points the central points and connect them and if you connect the central points you actually get a this kind of a diagram. Now coloring this hexagon is nothing but coloring this vertex in that sense coloring these hexagons is nothing but the coloring the vertices. Now if I have a path here means I will have a path from one side to other side along these vertices and edges. So this is basically this is known as the dual lattice of the hex board of the hex board. Now as I said coloring these hexagons is equivalent to coloring the nodes. So these nodes can actually be described by the following thing this one can check it if you take u is equals to 01 and v is equals to this two nodes basically we are identifying everything you can see that these are hexagons and if I initial give some points you can say that u if you start u is equals to 01 and v is equals to root 3 by 2 half then the two nodes and you make this lattice you consider this a u plus b v a comma b is in z then the two nodes x y are neighbor if and only if norm x minus y norm x minus y here is x 1 minus y 1 square plus x 2 minus y 2 square and square root of it. So standard Euclidean norm we are looking at it. So this becomes this. So now let us check the next part. Now what we do is that this board this dual lattice I will convert this into this kind of a picture. So now it is a square it is this is not like something like 01 cross 01. So I consider this transformation g which is given by this. So we this point remember what the points u and v are given by given in the previous slide so look at this. So u is given by 01, u is 01 and v is root 3 by 2 half that is exactly what we are using it and that is where we have used this. This u is that point v is this point and I am considering a transformation g where the point u is transformed to this and the point v is mapped to 01 and extend this linearly then if you draw the complete map this picture actually transforms to this picture. Now the points are all fixed here. So now the game of x can be thought as a game on the square of this lattice. So how we can go further now? So let us check that one. So we start with a continuous function f which is as I said from a unit square to itself keep this in mind and we need to show that f has a fixed point what we do is that we start with some epsilon and then choose a point x such that this happens. So we need to show that for any epsilon if I can find a point x such that fx minus x is there sufficiently small this gives you an approximation of a fixed point. This approximation as epsilon goes to 0 will converge to a fixed point that is actually an argument from of compactness which I will leave it as an exercise but let us try to produce an approximate fixed point. So what we do is that for a given epsilon we choose a delta such that this happens. So why is this happening? This is happening because f is continuous on closed and bounded set which is 0, 1 cross 0, 1 that means this is a compact set.  Now we consider the regions h plus to be this set of all x comma y such that f1 xy minus x greater than equals to epsilon. So what is f1? Remember f is a continuous from square to square that means the first component is the f1, second component is f2.  So now once this is done we have defined this h plus, h minus, v plus, v minus. So let us look at the next part. Now observe that no vertex of h plus is adjacent to a vertex of h minus. So this follows from the definitions of h plus and h minus. In fact no vertex of h plus will have a first coordinate equal to 1 and no vertex of h minus will have a first coordinate equal to 0. These all come from the definitions of this h plus and h minus. Therefore if a player, one of the player is marking his cells only from h plus and h minus it will not form a winning set because they are not vertices therefore we cannot form a connected path. So thus in particular it cannot connect two sides joining x1 is equals to 0 on one side and x1 is equals to 1 on the other side. In a similar fashion we can see that no vertex in v plus is adjacent to v minus and in a same fashion v plus union v minus cannot be a winning set for any player who wish to join the sides x2 is equals to 0 to the side x2 is equals to 1. Thus the Hex theorem because in the Hex theorem one of the player has a winning strategy this implies that the union of all these sets h plus, h minus, v plus, v minus they cannot cover all the vertices which are defined in our construction. Therefore there must be a point which is not there in any of these h plus, h minus, v plus, v minus and that vertex by the very definition of these sets will satisfy this property and this property immediately says that that point x is going to be a approximate fixed point. Now as I already said the compactness arguments now provide a fixed point for the function F. Thus this game of Hex provides a proof for Brouwer fixed point theorem. Of course we have done only in the two dimensions this argument can be extended to higher dimensions which we will not do in this course. So we end this session here and we will continue in the next session.


The beautiful fact that no suffering is wasted, that all suffering has a purpose. And to wrestle with the idea, which is that everything that happens in our lives is either willed or permitted by God. Okay, God, why would you permit these things?  So I have to bridge this gap between your permission of my suffering to your love for me as a father. And uniformity with God's will, the book by St. Alphons of St. Gory, bridges that gap.  You know, those sorts of things, even desolation, you know, the day-to-day kind of the ebbs and flows of the spiritual life, those things are all permitted for a greater good, whatever that might be. Check out the brand new updated version of Uniformity with God's will, titled Finding Peace in the Storm with commentary by Dan Burke.


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