everyone and welcome. This is Melissa Arma with the Stock Swoosh. This is the Stock Swoosh show play of the day today. This is JPM. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful short. Again, I've short stocks that are gapping down that rate 20 points or more per my 26-point rating system. In a nutshell, that's exactly what I do. And again, I don't do gap fills. I don't short every down gap. I don't go long every down gap. I mean you have to look at what you're doing and have a reason for doing the trade. But this was a nice short. This is still going. I got out of it a while ago and it's still going even still now. It's just crazy. I mean when you're up a lot of money in a trade, you have to make a determination. Where are you gonna get out?  So let's go over this here. This was a news gap. It was not earnings. We do gas for lots of reasons. Is this pulling the market down today? Probably a little bit, but the market's still falling anyways. This closed yesterday at 1.3780. Boom. Opened in the morning at 1.3676. We had to eat tight, tight, tight, tight entry in this here today. I really had a great, great entry in this here today. So right in here, stop was up here, got the drop and the sell-off. And again, you just, you know, there were so many targets in here. So many targets. Stream target is 1.30. In fact, where did it go? 1.37, 1.30. 47. Could this continue into the close? Not likely, but it could have a second drop and get to the 1.30 or even beyond. But once you're up a certain amount of money, this was a 75-some cent stop. I mean, this is just insane. Like from where we got this. This was such a nice call, you know. Four or five dollars you could have made in this, even from the place that I called it. So great call to do this. And I really found a, the tightest entry we could to get it. We were in it early enough to get the drop and it just sold off like a banshee. So really, really, really nice gap here in JPM. And again, I've been discussing the market. I've been discussing where I think the market's going to go. This was down on news today, but there are many reasons that stocks gap. You do not have to take something always with the market. In this case here, this would have gone today without the market. It did this morning, you know, regardless, but this was a nice play. If you'd like to learn how I make the picks, how I make the stock picks for the trades that we do in the live room, then you have to take the Golden Gap course because that is the class where I teach the 26-point rating system. This was a nice gap. So got out of this a while ago. Again, you're never going to get a low-of-the-day exit in every single trade. That's not my job. My job is to get a perfect entry and the perfect pick and the perfect direction. And I do that an awful lot, but I do the best I can when trying to look at targets and exits because you don't want to let profit get away from you. So I feel like I had a really good exit in this, but could I have made more? Sure. Yes, absolutely. So, you know, like this is kind of crazy. But again, this could go to 130. Who knows? So nice trade here in JPM. If you're interested in more information in the Golden Gap course, email me at Melissa at thestockswish.com. Have a great day, everyone.


picture. So this is Drupalcon Prague last time and I actually took that picture so that's why I'm not in it. And it's actually funny as a photographer it's quite hard to find a picture of yourself but I'm actually lucky to have a picture of three taking a picture of me. So that was also in Drupalcon Prague and for anybody that and who for the people that have been there they might remember Drupalcon the pre-note which was pretty epic if you ever have time go on YouTube and search for Drupalcon Prague there was a whole opera before the keynote and because we have some awesome musicians and singers in the community and for me though actually Drupalcon Prague is a bit special 2013 Drupalcon Prague because that's where I met my wife the second time and since then we have been together at many Drupalcons and yeah we live together now in the US. So a bit about me before we start my name is Michael or people in the community call me Schnitzel that's pretty much the name that is more common. I'm a longtime contributor to Drupal as you see and I've been here quite some time since Drupalcon Prague and earlier before. I'm a little bit an open source maximalist as you will hear today and yeah I'm founder and CTO of Amazio hosting company. So today I want to talk about open source and specifically a little bit in a different context than you usually probably think about open source and the first thing I want to do is actually dissect this. So we have open source we use it all the together but for me there's two actual words in there so there's open and there's source open source. So let's look at the open. I asked a couple of people what does open of open source mean for you and people told me like well it's verifiable I can check I can make sure that the things that people say are actually happening and that generates trust because I can trust in the code nobody can change the code just randomly and I can do this so that means also the people that say what they're doing they're accountable against that code and so all in all this creates safety I feel safe in an open source environment because I can verify I can check the code. Now this actually looked like what open isn't well of course it's closed. So I asked people what does it mean if it would be called closed source and people told me like oh it's unclear there's a lot of uncertainty in a closed source environment up to fear because I don't know what's actually going to happen with that code and of course a lot of concerns. So if you put them together I'm asking you what do you think people rather have? Do they rather have safety, accountability, trust and variability or do they rather have fear, uncertainty, unclear and concerns? Now I guess it's pretty obvious what people want more. People want the left side more. People want the openness. So I feel open is good for people. Now let's look actually what are people. What are they? Well people are our friends. They are communities where we live but most important people are also companies. We spend a lot of time in these companies. So if open is good for people open is also good for companies. Now let's look at the other side of it. So we have open we know that what this is now. Let's look at the source part. So what is source? Now source can be a lot of different things. Of course source can actually be code but it can also be information. It can be processes. It can be structure. So if we look at all these three things, informances, processes structures, well all of that exists in companies. So if you look at open source and open means good and companies mean source, open companies means good companies. And so that's what I want to talk about today. I want to talk about how our company tries to use as many things from the open source world that we all like, that we all love inside a company. And this might sound strange but I'll give you exact things that we're doing, that we're trying to see if this actually works. So the first thing we have is a handbook. Now many companies have handbooks that you find things. What we try to do, and there's other companies that try to do this as well, specifically I want to give a shout out to GitLab which does this very very well. So like theirs our handbook is public for anyone. You can go today to Handbook Amazio and you will find our handbook that we use internally for telling people how we work. It's also writable by everybody. And I not only mean Amazio people, you could literally send us a pull request to our handbook. And it defines everything. Now we're not there yet and we're slowly getting there but the idea is that you have a handbook that defines everything that happens within the company. Every process, every structure, everything. And so for example what can you find in there today? You can find our post-mortem process. It clearly defines how we write a post-mortem, there's a boilerplate, things like that. You can also find the health and well-being budget from all our employees. So we give everybody a health budget. They can decide and depending on which country or currency use it's on there. It's publicly for everybody to see. And you can also find things like up-leveling. Like this is the page of the security engineer and it clearly defines how do you become a security engineer within Amazio. Like what is required? And that's interesting for people outside the company that join us but it's also interesting for people that are within the company that want to become that. So there's a clear role or a clear structure how to become that. Like we do in open source. Is there anything we can do against the flickering? So no. All right. Next one is change management. Companies have a lot of change and a lot of things. So for us, change management is all about every change needs to be trackable. So everybody needs to know when something happened. Also every change needs to be reproducible. Meaning you don't only know when something changed and what changed, you also want to know why it changed. And the next thing is it also needs to be communicated. You cannot just change something and don't tell anybody. So what we do, well, first of all, we have the handbook. The handbook is in a Git repository. So any change on the handbook can be seen by everybody at the same time when you actually merge it in and change it. But we also have like a Slack channel that is team changes and in there anybody writes in there something that changed in the company. People coming, leaving, people moving up, processes changing. So anybody can just write in there and saying, hey, this changed and people can follow up as questions or things like that. And this allows, if you leave for a week or two for a vacation, you can come back and you can just read through it. You can just see what has changed since I was there the last time. And that really helps people understand just what is going on. Because there's a lot, as our company is 24-7, like we literally have people online any time of the day, there's a lot of changes, there's a lot of stuff going on. And you want to make sure, like in a Git repository with an open source community, that you can see what actually has changed since I was there the last time. Because I can tell you, things can change in 24 hours really fast. The next thing we do, we have so-called work streams. Now, what does this mean? For us, work streams, we separate the team, our whole team into separate work streams. And each of them needs to be clearly defined. So it needs to be a clear purpose for each work stream. They need to be independent, meaning each work stream has a specific part of the company that they can decide themselves that they are responsible for. And also, each work stream has a clear leadership. So each work stream has a lead that is responsible for that work stream with their team inside. So as a hosting company, we right now have 10 work streams. So there's a BizOps team, which does all kind of finance things. There's a client services team, which handles the clients, making sure that the clients are happy. We have a TAM team or a technical account management team, which handles all kind of technical things with the customers. We have a support team. We have an internal IT team. As we have an open source project, we have a lagoon team. We have a platform team that runs all the platform, sales, security, marketing. So, and everybody is assigned to one of these work streams. And like I said before, every of these work streams need to be defined. Meaning, there is on our handbook, there is a definition of each work stream with a clear responsibility list. So that work stream is responsible in this case, owns all first level support. That's what they own. That's what they're responsible for. It also says like what they provide and how escalations are going, stuff like that. But also, and actually almost more important, there's also the non-responsibilities on there. Because it's easy to define the responsibilities. But it's actually harder to define what a work stream or a group of people are not responsible for. And so we also write them down. So for example, it says clearly no 24-7 on call. Because there's another team that is responsible for that clearly. And so employees of that work stream or of that team, they can clearly read through this and they can understand, okay, what am I responsible for? What am I as a team responsible for? And so you can also show this. So we do this for every single work stream for every single team. And in the end, it's going to end up like this. So these are all the work streams and the dependencies on each other. Because let's say the finance team has a dependency on the client services team to make sure if there are questions about invoices to be answered or things like that. So we define all of them, they're structured. And you also see dependencies to the outside. So the white, the black squares with the white background, these are external companies, external team members, because we of course, not only work with us, but we also we've worked with a lot of other people. So it also defines how others are interacting with us as a company. And then of course in the middle, you have all amazing IEA work streams that define how we do things there. So we basically have these work streams and everybody is assigned. Now, beside of that, we also have so called circles. Now circles are things that are cross work stream. Because sometimes you need to do things across different work streams. These circles can be started by anyone. So anyone in the company can come up with an idea for a circle. And each circle needs a clear goal. That's super important, because you cannot just start something and nobody knows what it is. So you want to have a clear goal that defines what this circle is actually about. And so we have three types of circles. We have delegated circles, which means from every work stream, somebody needs to be in there. We have, for example, a product circle. If we want to release or change a product that we offer, this changes a lot of things in every single work stream. So in this product circle, every work stream has to send somebody to this circle to decide about changes in all of the company. There's a couple of special circles as well. There's like a board and the management. They're technically also circles. And then the end, there is an initiative circle and the initiative circles are the ones where anybody can come up and saying, I have an idea, or I want to do something. And then anybody can join like there's no requirement to join and stuff like that. So these are our current initiative circles. And they are documented. Each of them has a goal or has a short description and see things from like, we want to improve our handbook to we want to figure out a go to market strategy. And we define all our SKUs, we have the DEY, CDN competitor analyzers, and we're looking at future payment systems as well. So these are all things that people came up with and said, Hey, I'm interested in doing this. They can meet, they have a select channel, people can talk about this, they have a goal. And they're just talking about this and maybe out of this comes actually a change, or they have an idea, and they want to change something within the company. Now for that, we need some kind of decision making process. Now, how do you change something to ensure that everybody is happy with it? Now, the easiest, of course, that people say is like, Oh, we'll just get consensus. The problem is with consensus and consensus means that everybody agrees, like everybody has to 100% agree with that change. Now, have you ever had a decision where 100% of the people decide agreed? Not even by yourself sometimes, like you don't even agree with yourself. So that's not possible. But we still want to find a way to make changes in a way that people can raise concerns that they can say, I'm okay with this. And that's where consent comes in. So consent means it's something that people are okay with. Doesn't mean they 100% agree, but they are okay with. And we do this, we track this with consent. So consent is something where I can say, I have concerns, but I'm okay with moving forward, while an objection is something where you say, hey, I object, we cannot go forward. And the question in the end, we ask, if we propose a change, it's not the question, do you agree? Because like I said, that would be consensus. Instead, we ask, is this good enough for now, and is it safe enough to try? That's the question. So is it something that you feel as an employee or as a lead or as a team member, is it something that you feel it's safe to try? And the really important thing is trying there. Because we don't know if tomorrow something changed. We don't know if a year changes. But is it right now, do you feel it is safe and good to try? We don't know if it's safe to try this all out. Now we try to do this process in all types of decisions. Some of them take really long. So we had, we launched a new product, a completely new product that we didn't have before, Laguna as a service. It impacted every single work stream, it impacted the marketing, the sales, the platform, the market. And this took really long. So we went from the different circles, the product circle first agreed, and we felt, no, we actually want every single employee to also say, this is good enough for now, safe to try. And so this means you will actually have like Google spreadsheet where you track, for example, objections. So we presented this to the team. And then, for example, the product circle, you can see they brought up an objection and said, I have a question, I have an objection. So they said, like, the third one said, hey, we are very stretched on the support team. How can we make sure that this does not overload the support team? And then the team discussed about this. We came up with an idea, we presented it again, and then they resolved it. The last one actually was one of our employees that brought up last minute an objection. And interestingly, we actually changed the name of the product last minute because we realized it didn't make completely sense. So that was like at the very end, we presented it to every employee and we said, every employee, does anybody have an objection or is this good enough for now, safe enough to try? And he stood up and said, no, sorry, I have an objection. So we talked about this. And in the end, the decision or the product we did at the end was actually better. Like everybody agreed that this was a really good objection and people never thought about this. And so, yeah, this can take nine months, it can go multiple day, discussions, meetings, and stuff like that. But of course, it can also go pretty fast. Like within the work streams, the teams use the same process as well. So this is an example of the platform work stream. Basti, he's the platform lead. It's a bit of context, like we use phone duty and page duty has a new system. Like we just want to change a tool to use something else. And all he did, he wrote the Slack message. This is the Slack channel of the work stream of the platform because it only affects the platform work stream. They decide. So he writes a Slack message, defines what it is. And at the bottom, you see a short like if you say, check, that's good enough for now. The hand up is, okay, I have some concerns. And the red dot means I have objections. And people go in and you can actually see a hand up there. So somebody said, hey, I have some concerns. It was discussed in a thread shortly. And then the person that raised the concern said, okay, that was enough information. I'm now good. And so it's released. So everybody of that team goes in it and says, check, check, check. And when this is the case, it is decided. And then the work stream goes and writes it in the team changes and says, hey, the work stream platform work stream decided to do that change. And this is what it is. We don't have to ask the other ones because it doesn't affect them directly. But we want to tell them that we have a new tool now or the platform team uses a new tool. And this takes like 24 hours. Like I said, we're a 24-hour team. So usually decisions take minimum 24 hours. But that's just a simple decision. But if anybody asks in the future, why did we cite this? Like why did why, why do we suddenly use page duty instead of phone duty? You can go back. You can link to that. You can see all the concerns. And you can be almost like you were there at the decision. So that really, really helps in deciding. Now, it's a bit of a process. I'm not saying that we're perfect there. But it's really something that takes a lot of that helps a lot in deciding coming up with decisions. So the last thing I want to talk about is making mistakes. Now, none of this we just done in one day. Like this is a process. And I would say our 3D printers still sometimes printing the wrong thing. So it's really something that takes a lot of time. And it's quite a process. But overall, I really wonder, like we have so many good things in open source, so many things that happen in communities that work really, really well. Why not try to use them also within our companies? And you don't have to implement all of them. But maybe think about what do you really like about one specific thing in an open source community. And maybe you can implement them with a team. And you can start small. You can start with a couple of people. Like it doesn't have to change everything at once. And who knows, maybe in the future we're going to have different things. So before we go into Q&A, people that have seen me presenting, they have seen that slide before, I really like that one. So Henry Ford said, when everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind. Not with it. So some resistance sometimes is actually a good thing. Because it gets you thinking. So if you go back to the last thing we said before, when that person, when that employee brought up the objection last minute, it felt like, okay, why do you, really? And then we went through it, we talked about it, and out of it came something much better, that we are way more proud of what was there before. So yes, resistance in the beginning might feel hard. It might feel like something that is, okay, do I really have to work with this now? Or do I really have to do this? But I believe, like the airplane, you need a little resistance to actually take off. So.


It's a sad, mad, and bad world. Ask Vlad Putin if you don't believe me. But, Mini and I, to the rescue, we intend to cheer you up today, Shoshanim, by discussing the peccatious and misbehaviors of cluster B personality disorders. Is there anything more cheerful than cluster B? I think not. So, stay with me. And by the end of this episode, you would consider various options which you should never try at home, at least not when alone. Cheers. Levity and contorted sense of humor side, what's going on today in the world, is very concerning and worrisome. And a lot of it has to do with cluster B personality disorders. As I had been warning since 1995, narcissistic and psychopathic leaders have taken over the world. And I'm here to try to make you understand them better, based on evidence and scientific research, not on rants and raves and gut feelings and anecdotes with your aunt or neighbor. Science has a lot to tell us about these people. Today, we're going to focus on two issues. The borderline's making strategies. How does she select mates and what does she do to them? And that would lead us to aggression. What's happening with aggression and anger with cluster B? Why do borderlines, narcissists, psychopaths, why are they so angry all the time? Why is aggression the hallmark of these personality disorders? To a certain extent, it is also characteristic in common in other personality disorders, such as, for example, paranoid personality disorder. But still, cluster B, the dramatic or the erratic cluster, is definitely typified and characterized by unusual expressions and manifestations of aggression. So let us start with the borderline's mating strategies. A mating strategy is a method or a way or a method of operation of picking up a mate, picking up an intimate partner. Now, the borderline hooks up with potential partners using two mating strategies. And these mating strategies both are self-defeating. So borderlines in their intimate lives, in their intimate relationships, are always self-defeating and self-destructive. The first mating strategy of the borderline is to offer the full gamut, the full monopoly of sex immediately.  Any kind of sex. You name it, she will do it. She is a technicolor production of sexuality, a whole menu alacard. The second strategy is to reveal her mental illness. Yes, sounds bizarre, but that's exactly what borderlines do, usually even on a first date. They tell you everything you wanted to know and a lot of what you did not want to know about their mental illness. They disclose their checkered and dubious personal history.  And all within the first date, this is a strategy, this is not real. This is a choice, this is a manipulative ploy. And I will explain in a minute what it is intended to accomplish. But to summarize, these are the two ways the borderline comes at you.  She promises to make all your fantasies come true. On a first date, on a first encounter, within the first hour. Or a different strategy is to reveal to you, to expose to you her inner life, her torment, her torture, her pain, her hurt, her dysregulation, her lack of boundaries, her very unusual, shall we say gently, personal history, including relationship history, history in the workplace, what people had done to her, et cetera, et cetera, casting herself in most cases as the victim of both her mental affliction and the way people had leveraged this affliction to take advantage of her. These are the two mating strategies. The first strategy, but as I said, both these strategies are self-defeating. They lead nowhere. They have countervailing outcomes not beneficial to the borderline. We can say therefore that borderlines are not self-efficacious in selecting mates. They're also very likely to select mates who are unavailable, emotionally unavailable or legally unavailable, married for instance. Now, I keep saying she, although a large portion of borderline personality disorder diagnosis and ever increasing portion now goes to men. Men are being diagnosed increasingly more with borderline personality disorder. But men's borderline traits and borderline behaviors manifest differently, owing probably to cultural and societal strictures and mores. Men, borderline men behave differently. So everything I'm saying right now applies and pertains to female borderlines. They are definitely distinct from male borderlines. Male borderlines are closer to what I call covert borderline. And I encourage those of you who are interested to have a look or to watch my videos on covert borderline. This video is dedicated to female borderlines. The first strategy offering unbridled sex, kinky, unlimited, fantastic, degrading, lurid even within the owl to any stranger that crosses their path and who may become an intimate partner in their fantasy at least. This strategy appeals to predators and to players. Predatory men and men who play the field with no intention to commit or to invest in a relationship, they're very attracted to unboundary, broken, damaged borderline women. They use the borderline sexually, usually only once. And then these men move on. Leaving the borderline hurt, dumbfounded and perplexed. She doesn't understand why have they moved on? Why aren't they coming back? Why aren't they making contact? Why are they avoiding her?  She thought she got them addicted. She believes that her sexuality is of an addictive nature, kind of a drug, and will lure them back to her. But they never come back. They never stay. And she's utterly confused about this. The typical borderline woman has dozens of stories of encounters with men, which had turned to be one-night stands, although initially and originally, the intention was to try to develop a relationship. So borderline women are very gullible in this sense because they inhabit a fantasy. When they come across a potential intimate partner, they create a fantasy about that potential. And then they move into the fantasy. They relocate from reality to the fantasy and they develop impaired momentarily and impaired reality testing. And so when they're faced the morning after, with harsh reality, they are unable to cope and they go through a process of heartbreak and even acting out. So the first strategy leads them to bedplaces, sleazy encounters, and in about one third of the cases, two sexual assault. Borderline women are re-victimized much more often than any other group of women in terms of sexual assault and rape. The second strategy is to reveal the borderline's soul. The borderline grants the potential intimate partner almost immediately access to her inner most recesses and secrets. She tells him how broken and damaged she is, promiscuous she had been, how often she gets drunk or drugged with user substances. She tells him how fragile and vulnerable she is, how needy, how clinging. She exposes all this. Why does she do this? In most cases, it would frighten away any healthy men. Well, she does this because she tends to attract unhealthy men. The second strategy attracts masochistic men, saviors, fixers and rescuer types. There is the famous Carpman drama triangle and I encourage you to watch a video that I've made about this drama triangle. But in a nutshell to sketch, the drama triangle involves the borderline, her abuser and a rescuer, a saviour, a fixer type who's gonna make everything better.  What Carpman had discovered is that the roles fluctuate. It's all in flux, it's all fluid. The borderline becomes later the saviour, the saviour becomes the abuser and so on. The, this flux within the drama triangle renders the borderline's attachments very unpredictable, very labile and very unstable. Coming back to the issue, the second mating strategy of telling the intimate partner, I'm broken, I'm damaged, I'm fragile, I'm bleeding, is intended to elicit in the intimate partner a reflex to save and to fix and to heal and to rescue the borderline. And many unhealthy men fall in this trap, myself included. They try to heal the borderline, to fix her, to save her and to rescue her exactly as she had intended. She had exposed to, she exposes to these men her vulnerability in childlike fragility and neediness and very few men or unhealthy men can resist this. But even these men whose patience is very close to infinite, even these men, when they're exposed to the borderline's transient aggression, approach avoidance, promiscuity, acting out even they ultimately give up on her. So the borderline's mating strategies are undermined essentially by her aggression. Even when she prefers and offers sex, unmitigated, unbridled, unconstrained sex, unboundary, dysregulated sex, fantastic, amazing sex, even this is done very aggressively. She pursues the sex. She almost coerces the men around her to have sex with her, not that they need coercion, but it does feel a bit forced. It does feel forced and it does feel effortful, the outcome of some effort. There is a clear agenda behind it. It's very manipulative and it's very, it comes on as in many cases as godly or as some kind of manipulative ploy to accomplish something, long-term hidden ulterior motives under the surface. So many men recoil actually. The borderline is very aggressive even in the first mating strategy. When she offers sex, she definitely becomes aggressive and sometimes violent with a second strategy when she teams up with an intimate partner who is trying to change her, to modify her, to heal her because healing is about change and borderlines exactly like narcissists are very grandiose. They don't think that they should change. They don't think that anything's wrong with them. They think they have alloplastic defenses. They blame men. They blame the world. They blame society. The period in history, they blame feminism. They blame misogyny. They wouldn't blame anything except themselves. It's very difficult for them to see where they had contributed and how they had contributed to their own mishaps, repeated mishaps. So there's a clash between the agenda of the rescuer and savior and fixer and healer, the new intimate partner and the borderline because the borderline doesn't wanna hear that she needs fixing and healing. She had presented herself as mentally ill, as fragile, as vulnerable, as broken, but her message was not, please come and fix me. Please come and heal me. Please come and change me. Please, please make sure that this doesn't happen again. That's not her message. It's her message is, am I not amazing? Am I not unique?  My brokenness makes me special. It's a locus of grandiosity. The borderline is grandiosly invested, affected emotionally invested in her own illness, exactly like the narcissist. The narcissist is proud of his narcissism because he thinks that narcissism renders him superior the next stage in the evolutionary ladder, same with the borderline.  A treasure.  What would be left? If her mental illness were to be cured, all that would be left behind was an emptiness. As deep inside the borderline is an empty shell. She's hollowed out. She's a black hole, exactly like the narcissist. She is endowed with empathy and with emotions, but nothing much more besides, she's terrified of intimacy because intimacy would expose her for what she is. Again, an empty shell. So she uses her mental illness as a point of interest, as an attraction. It's like sightseeing in a new city, you know?  This is her gift. She regards her promiscuity, for example, as a gift, her acting out as expression of true overpowering, overwhelming, strong emotions. She regards herself as more authentic and more genuine than most people. She does not suppress or deny who she really is. She is a crystal. She is pure.  And she thinks she is her mental illness. Take that away, nothing will be left behind. So she is nothing to being changed. She resents this. She feels engulfed and enmeshed and digested and consumed and assimilated. And she doesn't want this. She feels that she's vanishing. So this creates approach, avoidance. And then she loses control. Her defenses collapse. She becomes a secondary psychopath and she acts out. In some cases, she acts out with other men. In other cases, she becomes violent with inanimate objects. She can do horrible things. She can betray. She can cheat. She can lie. She often lies. And all these are manifestations of aggression. And to understand the borderline in depth, we need to understand the role of aggression in cluster B personality disorders. Healthy aggression. First of all, to be clear, aggression is healthy. It's a healthy instinct. It's part of the survival instinct. It's part of the flight to fight response mode. Without aggression, we would be dead. So aggression guarantees our ongoing existence and prevents us, separates us from extinction. Healthy aggression, exactly like healthy narcissism. Healthy aggression is externalized and sublimated. Healthy aggression is directed outward. It's directed at people, at institutions, at causes, social activism, for example. And it's directed outward. It's externalized in socially accepted ways. This constraint that healthy aggression is socially acceptable, only the socially acceptable forms of aggression are healthy. This is known as sublimation. So healthy aggression is both externalized, but it is also sublimated. It is rendered socially commendable or socially acceptable. But not all people externalize aggression. Some people internalize aggression. They had learned that to express aggression openly or virtually is dangerous to your health. You should refrain. It's illegitimate to express anger. You need to suppress it, subdue it, deny it, absorb it somehow. So these people internalize aggression. They almost never externalize it. When aggression is internalized, it induces mental illness. Aggression is a form of energy. It's use it or lose yourself. So you can either externalize it and then waste it or spend it away. And then it's gone and you're back to balance and equilibrium and homeostasis.  Now there are many forms of mental illness. There are mild forms like boredom. Boredom is a form of self-directed aggression. It's kind of rejection of reality and the world and everything it has to offer. It's isolating yourself. Boredom isolates you from the world and from the stimulation that the world offers. And so you are killing yourself. Boredom is a form of slow-mo suicide, at least mental. And hedonia, lack of ability to find pleasure in anything. You don't find any activity, any object, any stimulus pleasurable. So boredom and hedonia are forms of internalized self-directed aggression. The same with dysphoria, the same with depression and even suicidal ideation or suicide. It is not by accident that 11% of people with borderline personality disorder end up committing suicide. They tend to internalize aggression. Infants, and in a minute I will come to the question of if the borderline internalizes aggression, how come she is aggressive towards other people? I'll come to it in a minute, bear with me. But take it for granted at this stage that borderlines tend to internalize some of their aggression. Now, infants internalize aggression. That's important to understand. It starts with internalization. Aggression at the very beginning of life is internalized.  These are all forms of externalized aggression, but this aggression is limited to object or it's very diffuse. In infancy, externalized aggression is not directed aggression, it's diffuse. And it's usually directed at objects, including the baby's body itself, which is perceived as an object, the first object, actually. So infants internalize aggression when they're frustrated. And there's a very simple reason for this. It feels unsafe to aggress against mommy. Mother frustrates the child. It denies the child, her breasts. It leaves the room. It disappears for short periods of time or it may be absent or depressed. It may be sick and go away for a few weeks. There are numerous reasons. Children are frustrated from day one. And they have two options. They can either externalize this frustration and frustration creates aggression. So they can either externalize the aggression that is wrought on by frustration or they can internalize it. Again, mothers frustrate children. Mothers frustrate babies and infants, which is they're not always there to cater to the immediate needs of the infant or the baby. So the baby of the infant becomes frustrated and frustration creates aggression. That is the famous frustration aggression hypothesis by Dullard in 1939. So there's aggression. What to do with the aggression? The child or the infant can externalize it or internalize it, but it feels unsafe to externalize it. Because if the baby shows mommy that he is angry at her, if the baby directs his aggression at mommy, mommy might just go away and never come back. The baby depends on mommy for shelter, for warmth and for food, for other issues as well like tactile contact. So the baby is highly dependent on mommy, dependent on mommy for his life. If he were to show mommy aggression, he would take the risk of mommy just walking out and never coming back and then the baby would die. So initially in the first two years of life, it's very dangerous for the baby, for the infant to externalize aggression. So babies tend mostly to internalize aggression and when they do externalize it, it's not directed at anyone, it's just diffuse. This starts to change when babies separate individually. They separate from mommy and they become their own individuals. In order to set boundaries, because the process of separation and individuation involves setting personal boundaries. The first time in his life, the infant makes clear where he ends and the world begins or mommy ends and he begins. So he is protecting, he's defending his perimeter with boundaries, but to do so, he needs to be aggressive.  I'm going my own way. I'm separate from you. I'm my own individual. I have my boundaries and you ought to respect them. I'm becoming, I'm becoming a human being. I'm no longer merged with you, mommy. I'm no longer fused with you, mommy. I'm no longer one with you, mommy. The symbiotic relationship is over. I'm on my way. That's an aggressive message. So separation individuation involves aggression. And this time, the aggression is both externalized and directed. The baby at the age of 18 months to 24 months begins to make her first steps away from mommy. She begins to disengage from mommy, to detach from her. She begins to explore the world. She begins to form a sense of identity. She begins to constolate herself. She begins to set boundaries where mommy should not transgress. These boundaries isolate the baby from mommy. She is gradually becoming separate, separateness. Separateness leads to individuation, but there's no separateness without actively and aggressively rejecting mommy, rejecting the other. Many immature mothers take this as a form of narcissistic injury. They take it badly. They don't want the child to separate and to individuate. But in a healthy separation individuation, aggression is externalized and is directed at mommy. And that's a very healthy development because it fosters self-efficaciousness. The externalized aggression in the case of separation individuation is both appropriate and self-efficacious. We could say, we could use another way of looking at it. We could say that the infant or the baby learns to regulate her anger, regulate her aggression directed at the right object, at the right time for the right purposes. The purpose is to become her own person, personhood to separate from mommy and become an individual. Failure in separation individuation inevitably creates fixations. When separation individuation fails, it also means that the management of aggression had failed because separation individuation involves maximum aggression towards the most important primary object, mother. Until age 18, the baby identified herself as a part of mommy. They were one. They were a single organism, symbiosis, merger, fusion, total enmeshment, total engulfment. Now it's a schism, it's a traumatic break. Mommy and the baby become two separate entities. And when this separation individuation process fails, the aggression, the aggression remains stuck in limbo. It cannot be properly directed, properly externalized, and it cannot be fully internalized. So a failed separation individuation phase engenders fixated grandiosity, some cases narcissism and codependency. All of these involving fixated or aggression in limbo, aggression without an address, aggression which the child is not sure whether he should direct outwards or inwards. And boom, there's a total confusion. Aborted and aborted phase of separation individuation renders aggression management in the individual very difficult if not impossible because it's not clear whether the aggression should be externalized or internalized. Externalizing the aggression can be dangerous because mommy refuses to let go. Should it be internalized, it feels bad, it feels destructive, and the child has a survival instinct like any other organism, so it's not a good idea. But then if it's not externalized and it's not internalized, what to do with it? It's a floating fixed point. It's difficult to tell what to do. So in this state of failed separation individuation, we have a solution of narcissism, we have a solution of codependency in some cases. And in these mental health disorders, narcissism and codependency, aggression is both externalized inappropriately and internalized self-destructively. I'm gonna repeat this sentence. Why? Yes, you got the answer right. I love my voice. Okay, Shoshanim, in mental health disorders, which are the outcomes of failed or aborted separation individuation. Mental health disorders such as narcissism, mental health disorders such as codependency. Mental health disorders such as borderline, all of them involving an inability to separate from mommy and to become an individual. In all these disorders, there is a problem with aggression, what to do with it? It cannot be externalized. The baby is afraid to internalize. So what he does, he both externalizes it and internalizes it, but he externalizes it inappropriately. He cannot direct it at mommy because that's dangerous. So he redirects it at other people. That's inappropriate. These people did nothing to the child. And yet he is angry at them because he can't be angry at mommy. When this child grows up and becomes an adult, this inappropriate direction of aggression continues. He continues to be angry at the wrong people because he doesn't dare to be angry at the right people, himself included. And then there's internalization. Remember, in these mental health disorders, the aggression is both externalized and internalized. Healthy people externalized, externalized aggression. Mentally unhealthy people, both externalized and internalized. And in the case of the narcissist or codependent, the aggression is internalized and borderline of course, the aggression is internalized self-destructively. The baby becomes her own source of frustration because she can't make up her mind and because she cannot separate an individual, she becomes very angry at herself. She internalizes this aggression. She internalizes this rage and this anger. She becomes very self-destructive. And this ambivalent duality, inappropriately externalized aggression coupled with self-destructively internalized aggression. This ambivalent duality is at the source of approach avoidant behaviors. The borderline, the narcissist, the codependent, they approach and then they avoid and then they avoid and then they approach. And it's a never-ending pendulum. It's a, they oscillate. It's a cycle. It's very, very disorienting and confusing. Every approach behavior is followed by extreme withdrawal and avoidance, aggressive withdrawal and avoidance. And one moment the borderline is all love and flowers and sweets and wine and roses.   They don't know how to cope with it. It creates intermittent reinforcement, the trauma bond. It's a mess. This approach avoidance is a direct outcome of the inability to externalize aggression consistently and appropriately. The aggression is externalized inappropriately at the loving intimate partner, but then it's internalized self-destructively and the borderline withdraws from the intimate partner. It's a form of self-destruction or self-defeat. And so approach avoidance is motivated or generated or engendered by inappropriate locus of aggression. Similarly, the compensatory acting out, acting out that involves decompensation, switching between self-states from borderline to secondary psychopath, all this kind of thing. When the borderline loses it, loses it and loses control over herself, then acts in ways which are utterly psychopathic, disempathic, violent, aggressive and horrible. So when this happens to her, it's also the outcome of misdirected aggression. It's aggression that has to find an outlet, has to be expressed, but the borderline doesn't know how. So she externalizes it inappropriately at the intimate partner. And then she internalizes it self-destructively by acting recklessly and dangerously, by taking risks, by destroying things, including her relationships or objects, by becoming violent, by disappearing for a few days. Cluster B patients, including the borderline, first need to practice externalizing aggression, sometimes with the aid of a transitory object like a punching bag. They need to be in a holding or containing environment like therapy, psychotherapy. And in this environment, they need to be encouraged to externalize aggression, initially again at a transitory object, but then if need be, at a therapist via the process of transference. So aggression needs to be externalized and Cluster B patients need to learn the skills of externalizing aggression in a sublimatory way, in a way that is socially acceptable and that is not self-destructing. Gradually, these Cluster B patients, having learned to express to externalize aggression safely in a safe environment, gradually they can move on to sublimating aggression. For example, by becoming social justice activists, moral crusaders, soldiers, cops, surgeons, entrepreneurs, other similar aggressive professions. There is a lot of sublimated legitimized aggression in our world, in the professional sphere, as a form of career. And there are many ways, many more ways today to externalize aggression appropriately than there have been. Cluster B patients need to focus on this. At the core of their mental illnesses, at the core of their dysfunctional behaviors, is this issue of wrongly externalized, inappropriately directed and internalized aggression.


My favorite kind of video we're gonna sit down and play with some new makeup that I've been excited to play with a lot of this Is from PR for my PR bucks that I want to get through that I'm excited to try I also tried a couple items that I purchased as well Just make up that I'm excited about we got this really fun Halloweeny kind of look it turned out really good such a special look we used items from the new a color pop Hocus Pocus 2 collection. I finally tried the Natasha Denona my dream cheek trio new tower 28 Liners and just lots of good stuff a new indie brand that I'm excited to play with just a lot of fun stuff to share with you But before we get into that I want to thank today's sponsor for today's video Which is gonna be be careful and be careful is responsible for these nice defined tight curls Which I never have and it's thanks to the be careful hair brush Okay, we need to talk about this because Wow, if you have never used a brush to brush style, especially if you have wavy or curly hair You're gonna want to watch this so your be careful brush is gonna come in a nice box and Here's the hair brush I think it's really important to invest in a good hair brush because you will literally use it your whole life My mom is still using the same hair brushes that she used when I was a kid so a brush like this is a great investment and it's gonna be great for all hair types short long course fine even if You have extensions it's going to work and it's really really easy to use so what's special about it Is the brush itself is a combination of nylon and bore bristles Which is going to help detangle your hair effortlessly literally in half the time as a normal hair brush Which is important because girl I get the worst tangles in my hair and this doesn't tug on the hair when it detangles It doesn't pull out my hair and then the bore bristles as well are going to help reduce a frizz Which the proof is in the pudding. 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I loved their original pure canvas primer Oh my gosh, I remember wearing it in like ninth grade tenth grade which Was me when I was like 15 16. I'm now 26 So anyways, this one throws me back even though it's a newer version. So I'm gonna go ahead and try it Oh, okay, so I would wear the Laura Mercier original foundation primer with My bare minerals mineral powder foundation It was like the loose one and I swore up and down that whenever I wore my bare minerals powder Without the Laura Mercier, it would not last as long and then whenever I would wear my Laura Mercier foundation primer The bare minerals would last longer and this was all the way back in high school when I was just learning about makeup Anyways, this left a really pretty glow to the skin Okay, it really does have some nice Illumination though. I definitely want to get some coverage on cuz I got some powers showing But this is very very nice so far doesn't have the most moisturizing feeling that I'm gonna be normally looking for But it does add a really pretty illumination now Surprisingly, no new foundations or concealer to try out which I think is good So I can really see how the other products wear so I'm gonna quickly throw on my makeup forever ultra HD foundation This is the old formulation just trying to work through it since you guys can't pick it up anymore you guys The old formulation is just so beautiful and skin like it's one of my longest lasting Foundations in terms of I've always had this in my makeup collection out this one specifically But I've definitely gone through more of these than probably any other foundation. Anyways, I'm so sad I can't get that anymore. Let's move on to eyebrows So I have a new brand that I'm gonna try today called crunchy. They sent me a bunch of stuff from their line I love supporting new and smaller cosmetic brands. This is an organic beauty brand vegan cruelty free gluten free non GMO Toxin free. Okay, so yeah, like I said, I hadn't heard of the brand before but they send me a bunch of stuff and I'm very interested It's called crunchy. We're gonna start off with the neutral brow eyebrow pencil. They come looking like this I like the packaging very simple So let's apply and see the eyebrow pencil is made in Germany now what I'm noticing I think because this brand is organic not the longest lasting life spam Like this pencil has a six month life span after the first use which normally I would say they're probably 12 months Oh, this is really nice. Okay. I decided to go for a shade 4 by the way It's nice and sharp since this is my first time using it. It's a good ashy color. Yes It's not too warm very happy about that and it's not too creamy. I like it so far Let's see I'm gonna use my spoolie now gonna blend it I feel like when I do get a little too heavy with this product It starts to look a little bit chunky looking and messy But and you'll see where I used to have a of a hand you guys can see that right there But if I use a light hand then I really like the consistency of it So now that I know how to apply it. I feel like the next time I play it's gonna be prettier I'm gonna pop on some eyebrow gel really quickly and clean up under the brows and blend this a little bit And we'll get right into the eyeshadow already Okay, so I was really excited to mess around with these eye products color pops and over their hocus-pocus 2 collection Which I'm gonna upset some of you. I'm not really a hocus-pocus fan. I'm not a Halloween fan in general Sorry, I just don't like Halloween. So this collection didn't speak to me But I love the colors green and purple together, which is very very Halloween-y And so I wanted to use this palette as you can see we didn't go very crazy For today's look, but I wanted to hop in for the first time with this guy And I just think she is so cute This is a very pretty palette because it has a green and purple Neutral colors true neutrals and kuto neutrals. Wow. So my least favorite row is the one that I'm using today though But I really like this palette just for somebody who does not like Halloween I love a color palette of Halloween shades Anyways, I'm gonna use my Kaleidos crease brush and we're gonna start off with spell book right here Which is just a great orange transition shade to have some concealer on my eyelid to work as my Transition colors today. And so this is just gonna go all over the crease nothing special here I don't know what came over me to use orange I just feel like I've been wearing so many purple looks lately that I wanted to change it up and go orange today Because if you've been watching my most recent videos been purple looks every single time because you know I was gonna go for it again today, and I was like girl do something different So now I'm gonna go into doomed right here, which is a darker orange Now I haven't used a ton of colors from this palette and normally the mattes from color pop are fine So yeah, I've had a good experience with today's palette I only used one shimmer for today's look so I'm gonna have to continue Using this palette before I give you my final thoughts on it, but I love the color story and the mattes are blending beautifully So that's what I can see right now But normally it's the shimmers that I don't like from the color pop palette so TBD Keep an eye out make sure you're subscribed This palette will be featured in a monthly palette rankings after I've used it some more and then you'll get kind of the Final thoughts after multiple uses doesn't this look nice? This is a good shade as well very easy to use very buildable We'll probably be going back to that and then because I'm a neutral girl We're going to come if to us right here This is a detailed blending brush from the sigma and beauty bird collection And I'm just gonna use that to neutralize as well as add some depth to the look So we're gonna blend this and then we'll go and probably and add a little bit more orange on top to bring Some of the orange back so it's not completely brown because I did actually want more of an orange look today But I wanted this to add some depth to the look underlying Underneath of the orange that added some nice depth. I'm going back into the dark orange and just patting it right on top So the orange is back and then with a refer number three brush we're going until midnight, which is a black I'm almost creating kind of like a wing effect right here I just want some depth out here just like that and then I'm going to go in with a clean brush to blend it out So once it's there just Smudge it out Don't worry too much about how it's going to look because we're going to apply one of the jelly shadows from this collection All over the eyelid But this again is just to get that smoke the halloween vibe and we're bringing back some more orange It looks crazy now. We'll come together They launched three jelly much eyeshadows with this collection and I thought they looked really cool I definitely wanted to use one of these on the eyelids today instead of one of the pressed powdered shimmers My opinion. I never give these individual guys enough attention This is a jelly much shadow from the hocus pocus two collection in shishka baby So i'm just going to grab from the top here now. This does have lots of glitters in here and some Larger ones So that's why I kind of wanted this to be the focal point of today's look not really too concerned about Adding anything else to the eyelid. Well, I applied a lot more on this eyelid So let me get over here and you can build it up to get a deeper opacity Just like I just did not intentionally but see isn't that fun We're going to add liner and stuff and it will come together But I wanted the jelly much shadow to be the focal point of the eye look And in the last year color pop has really improved their jelly much eyeshadows So I like them a lot. I'm going to take a wipe and clean up this outer part here That looks so much better while that dries I'm going to use a mixture of the iconic london concealer and the jacklyn cosmetics concealer Oh, wait. No, no, no, no, I lied before I do that I'm going in with a small brush and we're going into candle is a light And I'm going to just put this in the inner corner to brighten everything up It has kind of a green tinge to it. But anyways, I wanted to use at least one shimmer from this palette Okay, we'll actually be right back. I already know once we get lashes on this eye Look, it's going to be kind of an insane halloweenish inspired look and for being so simple with the extra glitters Which are probably not eyes in this jelly much shadow. It's so fun Okay, let me quickly set the under eyes. So I have another product from the crunchy brand This is the translucent finishing powder and one thing to know it has only a three month shelf life So this isn't going to be in my collection very long, but I think that's what you get with organic cosmetics I'm going to take some on We got a lot of like floating into the air and I'm going to Set this side of my face a little goes a long way with this powder Holy well, I have to say I feel like it really smoothed the face It might be sticking to some dry patches. So I'm going to use a setting spray, which will Clean that up. Hopefully it looks really nice between the set and the unset side. I think let's do the other side I mean, I'll have to see how it wears if there's any flashback anything like that But honestly, I think this is a nice powder. It made my skin look really nice and smooth Ew, my lips look gross gross and dry Girl, okay. Anyways, let's finish off the eye makeup I'm going to go ahead and go straight into doomed the dark orange shade And we're going to run this along the entire lower lash line using the same brush go into the dark brown shade And using a little bit of a smaller brush now we're going into the black I'm just going to use what was left over on my brush from the first Used on the upper eye and blend I'm going to grab a small brush. This is an esum s 31 and I'm going into marvelous Which is a shimmery orange and I'm going to put that on the inner half of the lower lash line Oh, it's a little bit brighter I feel like it's adhering to the eyelid really nice, which a lot of color pop shadows don't Oh, I like that Maybelline sent over a bunch of colors of these tattoo studio gel Eyeliners and I was hoping for today's look we'd be able to use one So hi, we're going full out with the orange. So this is the tattoo studio liner in the shade orange flash It says it's limited edition. I'm going to use that my waterline. Let's see if it shows up. Not amazing I'm going to have to go over it a few times now. It might apply differently to the actual eyelid So I'm not going to poo poo on it yet, but I don't love it in the waterline Which is probably how I'd most likely use this product So I'll use this again on actual skin to see if it applies better But you do have to go back and forth back and forth I mean it it's showing hopefully it lasts a long time if it lasts a long time Then that will make me like this even more, but it's not perfect our organic brand crunchy Launch these hind liner pencil eyeliners and I have a black shade And I just want to run this really quickly above my upper lash line for when I throw some falsies on So let's go ahead and do that. It's not the smoothest. I am getting a little bit of drag But hopefully that just means it's going to last a really really long time So sometimes, you know if a pencil it does drag a little bit at the very least Probably going to last longer than the ones that are super smooth I gave kind of like a nice semi smudgy Smoky line across the lash line, which is perfect for today's look Let's go ahead and move on with the cheeks and then we'll come back with the eyes I have this bronzer from crunchy. This is a solar eyes bronzer. It's quite warm Which I think will be very good for today's eye look And here's the back if you need to see and I'm just going to blend this on the outskirts of my face It's very user friendly not too pigmented, which I like It's definitely more warm than I'd prefer for an everyday basis. Just this particular shade I'm sure they have more shades But this warm shade is going to work for the eye look for the cooler looks that I do kind of on a more everyday basis This isn't one that I would reach for very often. It has a beautiful blend on this skin. No, that's very very pretty Okay, and now to play with the product that I've been waiting to play with this one is not pr I purchased this myself. It came really really late shipping just took forever. I finally have it to play with This is the natacha denona dream light cheek trio Finally now to be honest the blush and stuff is not going to match But I just really want to play with it. I don't care. Are you ready? So here is the palette She's so beautiful Okay, let's play with it I'm just going to go in with my finger first with the cream blush right here Which feels like it's a powder honestly and yeah, it does not go with my makeup at all But we don't care. Oh, it has like a dry feel to it. I really want to consider that to be Too much of a cream. I'm going to go in with a bk beauty brush I'm just applying it honestly. It applies like a powder I've played a lot with natacha denona's formulas and normally her cream blushes have a little bit more Creaminess to it.  I really wouldn't consider this to be a cream. Anyways, it's very pretty There also is a glow cream base So this one feels more actual creamy than the blush. Oh, okay, let's try this I do have powder down so hopefully it doesn't act funny This is pretty Oh, I like this and it's not disrupting the makeup underneath either. I like that Okay, okay. I know this is technically like a really late review This collection is old news at this point with how much holiday releases we are getting I've still been waiting for the opportunity to play with this on camera. Okay, it's stunning And then finally, let's do the dream glow. These are all very interesting textures I think this is a powder. It's very creamy feeling like this feels like it could be a cream I'm gonna put it on top of the glow base. Just gonna make it shine Natasha denona loves to layer the textures on the cheeks. The highlights in here are super impressive I prefer them over the blush. That's so pretty. Okay. I'm excited about that Finally got to play with it I'm gonna play with a new setting spray because I feel like my face looks a tad dry So I'm gonna use the rare beauty always an optimist setting mist which I've never tried before this was in My pr drawer. So good opportunity to use it Mmm has a nice soft scent to it That instantly cured the dryness on my face. My face has so much more moisture to it for mascara I pulled out the Laura Mercier caviar volume mascara. Yeah, I just haven't tried this mascara before So let's give it a go. So I'm gonna pay attention to how it applies to my lower lashes Because that's mostly what matters since we're going in with falsies, but the problem is this brush is too big for my lower lashes So I don't think I'm going to get on with this mascara too much. I just have the wittlest, littlest tiniest lower lashes So me and big ones don't get along Especially since I mostly wear false lashes if I want my lashes to be seen So the work that they put in on the lower lashes are so so important Okay, after putting in some work, it did give us a little bit of volume It's going to take me a few uses before I can actually give my opinion on this mascara It normally takes me a while to get a feel for mascaras. It's okay It's just not super functional for my tiny little lashes, but that's not the brushes fault. My lashes are very special So I'm going to pop on these velour lashes in cloud nine that I've been wearing a lot recently And then we're going to finish with the lids once the lashes are on you guys are going to be like Dang, you're beautiful. Okay. Beautiful, right? Like this look beautiful I love the unsafe eye glitters on the eyes. I just think it's so fun for halloween Okay for lips. I wanted to do like a dark brown lip. So if you didn't know tower 28 Launched new lip liners and I get to try them. They sent three shades I'm going to go with the darkest brown since I'm thinking halloween fall vibes So these are the one liner multi liners Oh, and you can use it for eyes lips and face. So kind of like the makeup forever Huh, I wish I'd known that earlier. Anyways, I'm going to use the shade draw me. So these are not lip liners They are multi liners, which will most likely be used on my lips. Anyways, here's the color It's a very very pretty brown.  It's not too Like creamy, but it applies really easily and that's how I like my pencils allows you a lot of control I mean, I'm less picky about lip pencils than I used to be I used to be really picky where I wanted like a dry lip pencil like mac when I was a working makeup artist Because it's easier to do people's lips like that and it lasts longer But now that I just do me. I don't care if it's pencils creamy or not But I do like this. This would be a good one to put in my makeup kit Okay, and let's blend dark lip is on. It is gorgeous. Check out this lip gloss So this is from the hocus pocus two collection. It's the So glassy lip gloss, which is my favorite lip gloss formula from color pop in the shade wear young And it goes perfectly with my eye look. So I wanted the dark lip liner underneath So that the glitters and color of this can really show through and the packaging is just so cute Okay, let's see Yes Yes I wish it was a little bit more orange, but I like the glitters How fun fall. Hello. Okay. Okay. Okay. Let me get myself together and I will kind of put it all together for you Here is the final look it turned out fall Octobery Halloweeny just as I had wanted it to so I'm really really happy with it I mean, I think I've really enjoyed everything that I've tried today just a quick rundown if you Want to hear my final thoughts as I use these products more because these work for suppressions Make sure you subscribe to my channel because I do a speed review series where I go over absolutely everything that I've tried So these are all going in that speed review drawer and I'm going to continue testing them a little bit more So it's going to be a few weeks, but really enjoyed the Laura Mercier primer It was really nice. I'm going to have to mess around with these crunchy eyebrow pencils more I don't think I love them really, but we'll see again first impressions I'm always going to give them the benefit of the doubt The eye palette I think I really like but I didn't even get to touch Into so many of the colors that I wanted to as well as the shimmer shadows So this is definitely something that I need more time for but the jelly much shadow I love this. I mean I can't wait to use the other shades in this collection There's a purple one and a clear white one I don't know but this is going to be so fun for this time of year The crunchy translucent powder so good. Actually, it's very very blurring once you get a setting spray over top I can see everywhere that I applied the powder just looks smoother So I'm really liking this powder so far the bronzer was nice Just a little bit warm, but it works good with warm looks really enjoying the Natasha Denona My dream cheek trio so far I'm impressed mostly with the highlighter is going to continue to mess around with the blush Not too sure about the Maybelline eyeliner It faded a little bit So I reapplied and it's a lot on the eyes for the waterline So I don't think I love it, but we'll continue using it Don't really love the crunchy eyeliner But we'll see longevity on it because it might be really good for smoky looks and staying a long time Not in love with the brush of the Laura Mercier Mascara, but you might like it because it did give good volume. It's just too big It's hard for me to use but the product itself was really really good so far really enjoying the lip liner from tower 28 It's that nice kind of more waxy feel, but it's very easy to apply no drag at all And love this lip gloss with the dark lip liner Look this lip combo is the perfect halloween Lip combo if you like the dark brown lip liner deal. Oh, and also I just hit myself in the face Really liking the rare beauty anyways I hope you guys Enjoyed today's video just playing with makeup doing what I love to do the most and again a huge Thank you to be careful for sponsoring today's video I will have the link down below for you to pick up your next hair brush It is an investment, but I find once you buy a really good brush you'll have it forever So I think a good hairbrush is definitely worth the investment, especially this one. 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