Chapter 7 of A Garland for Girls. Here's your breakfast, Miss. I hope it's right. Your mother showed me how to fix it and said I'd find a cup up here. Take that blue one. I have not much appetite and can't eat if things are not nice and pretty. I like the flowers. I've been longing for some ever since I saw them last night. The first speaker was a red-haired freckle-faced girl in a brown calico dress and white apron, with a tray in her hands and an air of timid hospitality in her manner. The second, a pale, pretty creature in a white wrapper and blue net, sitting in a large chair, looking about her with the languid interest of an invalid in a new place. Her eyes brightened as they fell upon a glass of rosy laurel and delicate maiden hair fern that stood among the toast and eggs, strawberries and cream on the tray. Our laurel is just in blow, and I'm real glad you come in time to see it. I'll bring you a lot as soon as ever I get time to go for it. As she spoke, the plain girl replaced the ugly crockery cup and saucer, with the pretty china ones pointed out to her, arranged the dishes, and waited to see if anything else was needed. What is your name, please? asked the pretty girl, refreshing herself with a draft of new milk. Rebecca, mother thought I'd better wait on you. The little girls are so noisy and have to forget. Wouldn't you like a pillar to your back? You look so kind of feeble, seems as if you wanted to be propped up a mite. There was so much compassion and goodwill in the face and voice that Emily accepted the offer, and let Rebecca arrange a cushion behind her. Then, while the one ate daintily and the other stirred about an inner room, the talk went on, for two girls or seldom long silent went together. I think the air is going to suit me, for I slept all night and never woke till Mama had been up every so long and got things all nicely settled, said Emily graciously, when the fresh strawberries had been enjoyed and the bread and butter began to vanish. I'm real glad you like it. Most folks do, if they don't mind it being plain and quiet up here. It's gayer down at the hotel, but the air ain't half so good, and delicate folks generally like our old place best. Answered Becky as she tossed over a mattress and shook out the sheet with a brisk, capable air pleasant to see. I wanted to go to the hotel, but Doctor said it would be too noisy for me, so Mama was glad to find rooms here. I didn't think a farmhouse could be so pleasant. That view is perfectly splendid, and Emily sat up to gaze delightedly out of the window, below which spread the wide intervail, through which the river ran with hayfields on either side, while along the green slopes of the hills lay farmhouses with garden plots and big barns waiting for the harvest, and beyond the rocky wooded pastures dotted with cattle and musical with cowbells, brooks, and birds.  Becky watched her with interest, and was glad to see how soon the newcomer felt the charm of the place, for the girl loved her mountain home and thought the old farmhouse the loveliest spot in the world. When you get stronger I can show you lots of nice views round here. There's a woodsy place behind the house that's just lovely. Down by the laurel bushes is my favorite spot, and among the rocks is a cave where I keep things handy when I get a resting spell now and then and want to be quiet. Can't get much at home when there's borders and five children round in vacation time. Becky laughed as she spoke, and there was a sweet motherly look in her plain face, as she glanced at the three little red heads bobbing about the dooryard below, where hens cackled, a pet lamb fed, and the old white dog lay blinking in the sun. I like children, we have none at home, and mama makes such a baby of me I'm almost ashamed sometimes. I want her to have a good rest now, for she has taken care of me all winter and needs it. You shall be my nurse if I need one, but I hope to be so well soon that I can see to myself. It's so tiresome to be ill, and Emily sighed as she leaned back among her pillows, with a glance at the little glass which showed her a thin face and shorn head. It must be. I never was sick, but I have taken care of sick folks and have a side of sympathy for them. Mother says I make a pretty good nurse, being strong and quiet, answered Becky, plumping up the pillows and folding towels with a gentle dispatch which was very grateful to the invalid, who had dreaded a noisy, awkward serving maid. Never ill, how nice that must be! I'm always having colds and headaches and fusses of some kind. What do you do to keep well, Rebecca? asked Emily, watching her with interest, as she came in to remove the tray. Nothing but work, I haven't time to be sick, and when I'm tuckered out I go and rest over yonder. Then I'm all right and buckled to again as smart as ever, and every freckle in Becky's rosy face seemed to shine with cheerful strength and courage. I'm tuckered out doing nothing, said Emily, amused with the new expression, and eager to try a remedy which showed such fine results in this case. I shall visit your pet places and do a little work as soon as I am able, and see if it won't set me up. Now I can only doddle, doze, and read a little. Will you please put those books here on the table? I shall want them by and by. Emily pointed to a pile of blue and gold volumes lying on a trunk, and Becky dusted her hands as she took them up with an air of reverence, for she read on the backs of the volumes names which made her eyes sparkle. Do you care for poetry? asked Emily, surprised at the girl's looking manner. Guess I do. Don't get much except the pieces I cut out of papers, but I love them, and stick them in an old ledger and keep it down in my cubby among the rocks. I do love that man's pieces. They seem to go right to the spot somehow, and Becky smiled at the name of Whittier as if the sweetest of our poets was a dear old friend of hers. I like Tennyson better. Do you know him? asked Emily with a superior air for this idea of the farmer's daughter knowing anything about poetry amused her. Oh yes, I've got a number of his pieces in my book, and I'm fond of them, but this man makes things so kind of true and natural I feel at home with him. And this one I've longed to read, though I guess I can't understand much of it. His bumblebee was just lovely, with the grass and columbines and the yellow breeches of the bee. I'm never tired of that. And Becky's face woke up into something like beauty as she glanced hungrily at the emerson while she dusted the delicate cover that hid the treasures she coveted. I don't care much for him, but mama does. I like romantic poems and ballads and songs don't like descriptions of clouds and fields and bees and farmers, said Emily, showing plainly that even Emerson's simplest poems were far above her comprehension as yet because she loved sentiment more than nature. I do, because I know them better than love and the romantic stuff most poetry tells about, but I don't pretend to judge. I'm glad of anything I can get.  With that, Becky went away, leaving Emily to rest and dream with her eyes on the landscape which was giving her better poetry than any her books held. She told her mother about the odd girl and was sure she would be amusing if she did not forget her place and try to be friends. She's a good creature, my dear. Her mother's mainstay and works beyond her strength, I'm sure. Be kind to the poor girl and put a little pleasure into her life if you can, answered Mrs. Spencer as she moved about, settling comforts and luxuries for her invalid. I shall have to talk to her as there is no other person of my age in the house. How are the school arms? Shall you get on with them, mama? It will be so lonely here for us both if we don't make friends with someone. Most intelligent and amiable women, all three, and we shall have pleasant times together, I'm sure. You may safely cultivate Becky. Mrs. Taylor's told me she was a remarkably bright girl, though she may not look it. Well, I'll see. But I do hate freckles and big red hands and round shoulders. She can't help it, I suppose, but ugly things fret me. Remember that she has no time to be pretty and be glad she is so need and willing. Shall we read, dear? I'm ready now. Emily consented and listened for an hour or two while the pleasant voice beside her conjured away all her vapours with some of Mrs. Ewing's charming tales. The grass is dry now and I want to stroll on that green lawn before lunch. You rest, mama dear, and let me make discoveries all alone, proposed Emily, when the sun shone warmly and the instinct of all young creatures for air and motion called her out. So, with her hat and wrap and book in parasol, she set forth to explore the new land in which she found herself. Down the wide creaking stairs and out upon the doorstone she went, pausing there for a moment to decide where first to go. The sound of someone singing in the rear of the house led her in that direction, and turning the corner she made her first pleasant discovery. A hill rose steeply behind the farmhouse, and leading from the bank was an old apple tree, shading a spring that trickled out from the rocks and dropped into a mossy trough below. Up the tree had grown a wild grapevine, making a green canopy over the great log which served as a seat, and someone had planted maidenhair ferns about both seat and spring to flourish beautifully in the damp, shady spot. Oh how pretty! I'll go and sit there. It looks clean, and I can see what is going on in that big kitchen and hear the singing. I suppose it's Becky's little sisters by the racket. Emily established herself on the lichen-covered log with her feet upon a stone, and sat enjoying the musical tinkle of the water, with her eyes on the delicate fern stirring in the wind, and the lively jingle of the multiplication table chanted by childish voices in her ear. Presently, two little girls with a great pan of beans came to do their work on the backdoor step. A third was seen washing dishes at a window, and Becky's brown-spotted gown flew about the kitchen as if a very energetic girl wore it. A woman's voice was heard giving directions, as the speaker was evidently picking chickens somewhere out of sight.  Oh, well, we mustn't mind if she is notional and kind of wearing. She's been sick, and it will take time to get rid of her freddy ways. Just be pleasant to take no notice, and that nice mother of hers will make it all right, said the woman's voice. How anybody with every mortal thing to be happy with can be out of sorts passes me. She fussed about every pillar, chair, trunk, and mite of food last night, and kept that poor tired lady trotting till I was provoked. She's right pleasant this morning, though, and as pretty as a picture in her ruffled gown and that blue thing on her head, answered Becky from the pantry as she rattled out the pie board, little dreaming who sat hidden behind the grapevine festoons that veiled the corner by the spring. Well, she's got red her hair, and we have, so she didn't be so grand and try to hide it with blue nets, added one little voice.  I should think a big girl would feel real ashamed with no braids, said the other child, proudly surveying the tawny mane that hung over her shoulder. For like most red-haired people, all the children were blessed with luxuriant crops of every shade from golden arbor to regular carrots. I think it's lovely. Suppose it had to be cut off when she had the fever. Wish I could get rid of my mop at such a bother. And Becky was seeing tying a clean towel over the great knot that made her head look very like a copper kettle. Now, fly round, dearie, and get them pies ready. I'll have these fowls on in a minute, then go to my butter.  We must kind of pamper her up for a spell till her appetite comes back, said the mother. Here the chat ended, and soon the little girls were gone, leaving Becky alone rolling out pie crust before the pantry window. As she worked, her lips moved, and Emily, still peeping through the leaves, wondered what she was saying, for a low murmur rose and fell, emphasized now and then with a thump of the rolling pin. I mean to go and find out. If I stand on that washbench, I can look in and see her work. I'll show them all that I'm not fussy, and can be right pleasant if I like. With this wise resolution Emily went down the little path, and after pausing to examine the churn set out to dry, and the row of pans shining on a neighbouring shelf, made her way to the window, mounted the bench while Becky's back was turned, and pushing away the morning glory vines and scarlet beans that ran up on either side, peeped in with such a smiling face that the crossest cook could not have frowned on her as an intruder. May I see you work? I can't eat pies, but I like to watch people make them, do you mind? Not a bit. I'd ask you to come in, but it's dreadful hot here, and not much room," answered Becky, crimping round the pastry before she poured in the custard.  Your mother said you liked them, or would you rather have whipped cream with a might of jelly in it?" asked Becky, anxious to suit her new border. Oh, whichever it's easiest to make, I don't care what I eat. Do tell me what you were saying.  Oh, I was mumbling some verses. I often do when I work. It sort of helps me along, but it must sound dreadfully silly, and Becky blushed as if caught in some serious fault. I do it, and it's a great comfort when I lie awake. I should think you would want something to help you along. You work so hard. Do you like it, Becky? The familiar name, the kind tone, made the plain face brighten with pleasure, as its owner said, while she carefully filled a pretty bowl with a golden mixture, rich with fresh eggs and country milk. No, I don't, but I ought to. Mother isn't as strong as she used to be, and there's a sight to do, and the children to be brought up, and the mortgage to be paid off, so if I don't fly round, who will? We are doing real well now, for Mr. Walker manages the farm and gives us our share, so our living is all right. Then borders and summer, and my school in winter helps a deal, and every year the boys can do more, so I'd be a real sinner to complain if I do have to step lively all day. Becky smiled as she spoke, and straightened her bent shoulders as if settling her burden for another trej along the path of duty. Do you keep school? Why, how old are you, Becky? Asked Emily, much impressed by this new discovery. I'm eighteen.  Folks seem to like me, and I'm going to have the same place this year. I'm glad, for I needn't go away, and the pay is pretty good, as the school is large, and the children do well. You can see the schoolhouse down the valley, that red brick one where the roads meet, and Becky pointed a flowery finger with an air of pride that was pleasant to see. Emily glanced at the little red house where the sun shone hotly in summer, and all the winds of heaven must rage wildly in winter time, for it stood, as country schools usually do, in the barest, most uninviting spot for miles around. Isn't it awful down there in winter?  Pretty cold, but we have plenty of wood, and we are used to snow and gales up here. We often coast down the whole lot of us, and that is great fun. We take our dinners, and have games, noonspells, and so we get on first rate. Some of my boys are big fellows, older than I am. They clear the roads, and make the fire, and look after us, and we are real happy together. Emily found it so impossible to imagine happiness under such circumstances, that she changed the subject by asking in a tone which had unconsciously grown more respectful, since this last revelation of Becky's abilities. If you do so well here, why don't you try for a larger school in a better place? Oh, I couldn't leave mother yet. I hope to some day, when the girls are older, and the boy is able to get on alone. But I can't go now, for there's a sight of things to do, and mother is always laid up with rheumatism and cold weather. So much butter-making down-seller is bad for her, but she won't let me do that in summer, so I take care of her in winter. I can see to things night and morning, and through the day she's quiet, and sits piecing carpet rags, and resting up for next spring. We made and wove all the carpets in the house, except the parlor one. Mrs. Taylor gave us that, and the curtains, and the easy chair. Mother takes a sight of comfort in that. Mrs. Taylor is the lady who first came to board here, and told us and others about it, said Emily. Yes, and she's the kindest lady in the world.  It's real interesting. Now I must see to my pies and get the vegetables on. Answered Becky, glancing at the gay clock in the kitchen with an anxious look. Then I won't waste any more of your precious time. May I sit in that pretty place, or is it your private bower? Asked Emily, as she dismounted from the washbench. Yes, indeed you may. That's mother's resting place when work is done. Father made the spring long ago, and I put the ferns there. She can't go rambling round, and she likes pretty things, so he fixed it up for her, and she takes comfort there nights. Becky bustled off to the oven with her pies, and Emily roamed away to the big barn to lie on the hay, enjoying the view down the valley, as she thought over what she had seen and heard, and very naturally contrasted her own luxurious and tenderly guarded life with this other girl so hard and dull and narrow. Working all summer and teaching all winter in that dismal little school house with no change but home cares and carpet weaving, it looked horrible to pleasure-loving Emily, who led the happy, carefree life of girls of her class, with pleasures of all sorts, and a future of still greater luxury, variety, and happiness opening brightly before her. It worried her to think of anyone being contented with such a meager share of the good things of life, when she was unsatisfied in spite of the rich store showered upon her. She could not understand it, and fell asleep wishing everyone could be comfortable. It was so annoying to see them grubbing in kitchens, teaching in bleak schoolhouses among snowdrifts, and wearing ugly calico gowns. A week or two of quiet country fair, and the bracing mountain air worked wonders for the invalid, and everyone rejoiced to see the pale cheeks begin to grow round and rosy, the languid eyes to brighten, and the feeble girl who used to lie on her sofa half the day, now go walking about with her alpin stock, eager to explore all the pretty nooks among the hills. Her mother blessed Mrs. Taylor for suggesting this wholesome place. The tired schoolmarms, as Emily called the three young women who were their fellow boarders, congratulated her as well as themselves on the daily improvement in strength and spirits all felt, and Becky exalted in the marvellous effects of her native air, aided by mother's good cookery, and the cheerful society of the children, whom the good girl considered the most remarkable and lovable youngsters in the world. Emily felt like the queen of this little kingdom, and was regarded as such by everyone, for with returning health she lost her fretful ways, and living with simple people, soon forgot her girlish airs and vanities, becoming very sweet and friendly with all about her. The children considered her a sort of good fairy who could grant wishes with magical skill, as various gifts plainly proved. The boys were her devoted servants, ready to run errands, hitch up and take her to drive at any hour, or listen and mute delight when she sang to her guitar in the summer twilight. But to Becky she was a special godsend in comfort, for before the first month had gone they were good friends, and Emily had made a discovery which filled her head with brilliant plans for Becky's future, in spite of her mother's warnings, and the sensible girl's own reluctance to be dazzled by enthusiastic prophecies and dreams. It came about in this way. Some three weeks after the two girls met, Emily went one evening to their favorite tristing place, Becky's Bower Among the Laurels. It was a pretty nook in the shadow of a great gray boulder, near the head of the Green Valley which ran down to spread in the wide, intervail below. A brook went babbling among the stones and grass and sweet ferns, while all the slope was rosy with laurel flowers in their times, as the sturdy bushes grew thickly on the hillside, down the valley, and among the woods that made a rich background for these pink and white bouquets, arranged with nature's own careless grace. Emily liked this spot, and ever since she had been strong enough to reach it, loved to climb up and sit there with book and work, enjoying the lovely panorama before her. Floating mists often gave her a constant succession of pretty pictures, now a sunny glimpse of the distant lake, then the church spire peeking above the hill, or a flock of sheep feeding in the meadow, a gay procession of young pilgrims winding up the mountain, or a black cloud heavy with a coming storm, welcome because of a glorious rainbow and its shadow which would close the pageant. Unconsciously the girl grew to feel not only the beauty, but the value of these quiet hours, to find a new peace, refreshment and happiness bubbling up in her heart as naturally as the brook gushed out among the mossy rocks, and went singing away through hayfields and gardens, and by dusty roads till it met the river and rolled on to the sea. Something dimly stirred in her, and the healing spirit that haunts such spots did its sweet ministering, till the innocent soul began to see that life was not perfect without labour as well as love, duty as well as happiness, and that true contentment came from within, not from without. On the evening we speak of, she went to wait for Becky, who would join her as soon as the after supper chores were done. In the little cave which held a few books, a dipper and a birch bark basket for berries, Emily kept a sketching block and box of pencils, and often amused herself by trying to catch some of the lovely scenes before her. These efforts usually ended in a humbler attempt, and a good study of an oak tree, a bit of rock, or a clump of ferns was the result. This evening the sunset was so beautiful she could not draw, and remembering that somewhere in Becky's scrapbook there was a fine description of such an hour by some poet, she pulled out the shabby old volume and began to turn over the leaves. She had never cared to look at it but once, having read all the best of its contents in more attractive volumes, so Becky kept it tucked away in the farther corner of her rustic closet, and evidently thought it a safe place to conceal a certain little secret which Emily now discovered. As she turned the stiff pages filled with all sorts of verses, good, bad, and indifferent, a sheet of paper appeared on which was scribbled these lines in school girl handwriting. Mountain Laurel. My bonny flower, with truest joy, thy welcome face I see, the world grows brighter to my eyes, and summer comes with thee. My solitude now finds a friend, and after each hard day, I in my mountain garden walk to rest or sing or pray. All down the rocky slope is spread thy veil of rosy snow, and in the valley, by the brook, thy deeper blossoms grow. The barren wilderness grows fair, such beauty dusted give, and human eyes and nature's heart rejoice that thou dost live. Each year I await thy coming, dear, each year I love thee more, for life grows hard, and much I need thy honey for my store.  No laurels shall I ever win, no splendid blossoms bear, but gratefully receive and use God-blessed sun and air, and blooming where my lot is cast grow happy and content, making some barren spot more fair for a humble life well spent. She wrote it herself? I can't believe it, said Emily, as she put down the paper, looking rather startled, for she did believe it, and felt as if she had suddenly looked into a fellow-creature's heart. I thought her just an ordinary girl, and here she is a poet writing verses that make me want to cry. I don't suppose they are very good, but they seem to come right out of her heart, and touch me with the longing and the patience or the piety in them. Well, I am surprised. And Emily read the lines again, seeing the faults more plainly than before, but still feeling that the girl put herself into them, vainly trying to express what the wildflower was to her in the loneliness which comes to those who have a little spark of the divine fire burning in their souls. Shall I tell her I've found it out? I must, and see if I can't get her verses printed. Of course she has more tucked away somewhere. That is what she hums to herself when she's at work and won't tell me about when I ask. Sly thing, to be so bashful and hide her gift? I'll tease her a bit and see what she says. Oh dear, I wish I could do it. Perhaps she'll be famous one day, and then I'll have the glory of discovering her. With that consolation Emily turned over the pages of the ledger, and found several more bits of verse, some very good for an untaught girl, others very faulty, but all having a certain strength of feeling, and simplicity of language unusual in the effusions of young maidens at the sentimental age. Emily had a girlish admiration for talent of any kind, and being fond of poetry was especially pleased to find that her humble friend possessed the power of writing it. Of course she exaggerated Becky's talent, and as she waited for her, felt sure that she had discovered a feminine burns among the New Hampshire Hills, for all the verses were about natural and homely objects touched into beauty by sweet words or tender sentiment. She had time to build a splendid castle in the air, and settled Becky in it with a crown of glory upon her head, before the quiet figure in a faded sun-bonnet came slowly up the slope, with the glow of sunset on a tired but tranquil face. Sit here and have a good rest while I talk to you, said Emily, eager to act this somewhat dramatic scene she had planned. Becky sunk upon the red cushion prepared for her, and sat looking down at the animated speaker, as Emily, perched on a mossy stone before her, began the performance. Becky, did you ever hear of the Gooddale children? They lived in the country, and wrote poetry and grew to be famous. Oh yes, I've read their poems and like them very much. Do you know them? And Becky looked interested at once. No, but I once met a girl who was something like them, only she didn't have such an easy time as they did, with a father to help, and a nice sky farm, and good luck generally. I've tried to write verses myself, but I always get into a muddle and give up. This makes me interested in other girls who can do it, and I want to help my friend. I'm sure she has talent, and I'd so like to give her a lift in some way. Let me read you a piece of hers, and see what you think of it. Do! And Becky threw off the sun-bonnet, folded her hands round her knees, and composed herself to listen with such perfect unconsciousness of what was coming, that Emily both laughed at the joke and blushed at the liberty she felt she was taking, with the poor girl's carefully hidden secret. Becky was sure now that Emily was going to read something of her own after this artful introduction, and began to smile as the paper was produced and the first four lines read in a tone that was half timid, half triumphant. Then, with a cry, she seized and crumpled up the paper, exclaiming almost fiercely, It's mine! Where did you get it?   That's all, dear, and I beg your pardon, but I am sure you'll be famous if you keep on, and I shall yet see a volume of poems by Rebecca Moore of Rocky Nook, New Hampshire. Becky hid her face, as if shame, surprise, wonder, and joy filled her heart too full, and made a few happy tears drop on the hands so worn with hard work, when they ached to beholding a pen, and trying to record the fancies that sung in her brain as ceaselessly as the soft sigh of the pines, or the ripple of the brook murmured in her ear when she sat here alone. She could not express the vague longing so that stirred in her soul, she could only feel and dimly strive to understand and utter them with no thought of fame or fortune, for she was a humble creature, and never knew that the hardships of her life were pressing out the virtues of her nature, as the tread of careless feet crushed the sweet perfume from wild herbs. Presently she looked up, deeply touched by Emily's words and caresses, and her blue eyes shone like stars as her face beamed with something finer than mere beauty, for the secrets of her innocent heart were known to this friend now, and it was very sweet to accept the first draft of confidence and praise. I don't mind much, but I was scared for a minute. No one knows but mother, and she laughs at me, though she don't care if it makes me happy. I'm glad you like my scribbling, but really I never think or hope of being anybody. I couldn't, you know. But it's real nice to have you say I might, and to make believe for a while. But why not, Becky? The Gooddale girls did, and half the poets in the world were poor ignorant people at first, you know. It only needs time and help, and the gift will grow, and people see it, and then the glory and the money will come, cried Emily, quite carried away by her own enthusiasm and goodwill. Could I get any money by these things? asked Becky, looking at the crumpled paper lying under a laurel bush. Of course you could, dear. Let me have some of them, and I'll show you that I know good poetry when I see it. You will believe if some bank bills come with the paper the verses appear in, I hope. Blind to any harm she might do by exciting vain hopes and her eagerness to cheer and help, Emily made this rash proposal in all good faith, meaning to pay for the verses herself if no editor was found to accept them. Becky looked half bewildered by this brilliant prospect, and took a long breath as if some hand had lifted a heavy burden a little away from her weary back. For stronger than ambition for herself was love for her family, and the thought of help for them was sweeter than any dream of fame. Yes, I would. Oh, if only I could, I'd be the happiest girl in the world. But I can't believe it, Emily. I heard Mrs. Taylor say that only the very best poetry paid, and mine is poor stuff, I know well enough. Well, of course it needs polishing and practice and all that, but I'm sure it is oceans better than half the sentimental twaddle we see in the papers, and I know that some of those pieces are paid for, because I have a friend who is in a newspaper office, and he told me so. Yours are quaint and simple, and some very original. I'm sure that ballad of the old house is lovely, and I want to send it to Whittier. Mama knows him. It's the sort he likes, and he is so kind to everyone. He will criticize it and be interested when she tells him about you. Do let me. I never could in the world. It would be so bold, mother would think I was crazy. I love Mr. Whittier, but I wouldn't dares to show him my nonsense, though reading his beautiful poetry helps ever so much. Becky looked and spoke as if her breath had been taken away by this audacious proposal, and yet a sudden delicious hope sprung in her heart that there might, perhaps, be a spark of real virtue in the little fire which burned within her, warming and brightening her dull life. Let us ask Mama. She will tell us what is best to do first, for she knows all sorts of literary people, and won't say any more than you want her to.  Real geniuses always are shy, so you just make up your mind to give me the best of your pieces, and let me prove that I'm right. It was impossible to resist such persuasive words, and Becky soon yielded to the little siren who was luring her out of her safe small pool into the deeper water that looks so blue and smooth till the venturesome paper boats get into the swift deadies, or run aground upon the rocks and sandbars. The greatest secrecy was to be preserved, and no one but Mrs. Spencer was to know when a momentous enterprise was afoot. The girls sat absorbed in their brilliant plans till it was nearly dark, then groped their way home, hand in hand, leaving another secret for the laurels to keep and dream over through their long sleep, for blossom time was past, and the rosy faces turning pale in the July sun. Neither of the girls forgot the talk they had that night in Emily's room, for she led her captive straight to her mother, and told her all their plans and aspirations without a moment's delay. Mrs. Spencer much regretted her daughter's well-mint enthusiasm, but, fearing harm might be done, very wisely tried to calm the innocent excitement of both by the quiet matter-of-fact way in which she listened to the explanation Emily gave her, read the verses timidly offered by Becky, and then said, kindly but firmly, This is not poetry, my dear girls, though the lines run smoothly enough and the sentiment is sweet. It would bring neither fame nor money, and Rebecca puts more real truth, beauty, and poetry into her beautiful daily life than in any line she has written. We had such a lovely plan for Becky to come to town with me, and see the world, and write, and be famous! How can you spoil it all?  Becky will see that I am wise, though you do not, and she will understand this verse from my favorite poet, and lay it to heart. So near is grandeur to our dust, so nigh is God to man. When duty whispers low, thou must, the youth replies, I can. I do, I will, please go on, and Becky's troubled eyes grew clear and steadfast as she took the words home to herself, resolving to live up to them. Oh, mother! cried Emily, thinking her very cruel to nip their bedding hopes in this way. I know you won't believe it now, nor be able to see all that I mean perhaps, but time will teach you both to own that I am right, and to value the substance more than the shadow, continued Mrs. Spencer. Many girls write verses and think they are poets, but it is only a passing mood, and fortunately for the world, and for them also, it soon dies out in some more genuine work or passion. Very few have the real gift, and those to whom it is given weight and work, and slowly reach the height of their powers. Many delude themselves, and try to persuade the world that they can sing, but it is a waste of time, and ends in disappointment, as the massive sentimental rubbish we all see plainly proves. Write your little verses, my dear, when the spirit moves. It is a harmless pleasure, a real comfort, and a good lesson for you, but do not neglect tired duties, or deceive yourself with false hopes and vain dreams. First live, then write, is a good motto for ambitious young people. A still better for us all is do the duty that lies nearest, and the faithful performance of that, no matter how humble it is, will be the best help for whatever talent may lie hidden in us, ready to bloom when the time comes. Remember this, and do not let my enthusiastic girls well-ment, but unwise prophecies and plans unsettle you, and unfit you for the noble work you are doing. Thank you, ma'am. I will remember. I know you are right, and won't be upset by foolish notions. I never imagined before that I could be a poet, but it sounded so sort of splendid. I thought maybe it might happen to me by and by, as it does to other folks. I won't laud on it, but settle right down and do my work cheerful.  She saw the wisdom of her friend's advice, felt the kindness of showing her the mistake frankly, and was grateful for it, conscious in her own strong loving heart that it was better to live and work for others than to dream and strive for herself alone. Mrs. Spencer was both surprised and touched by the girl's look, words, and manner, and her respect much increased by the courage and good temper with which she saw her lovely castle in the air vanish like smoke, leaving the hard reality looking harder than ever after this little flight into the fairy regions of romance. She talked long with the girls, and gave them the counsel all eager young people need, yet are very slow to accept till experience teaches them its worth. As the friend of many successful literary people, Mrs. Spencer was constantly receiving the confidences of unfledged scribblers, each of whom was sure that he or she had something valuable to add to the world's literature. Her advice was always the same, work and wait, and only now and then was a young poet or author found enough in earnest to do both, and thereby proved to themselves and others that either they did possess power or did not, and so settled the question forever. First live, then write, proved a quietess for many, and do the duty that lies nearest satisfied the more sincere that they could be happy without fame. So, thanks to this wise and kindly woman, a large number of worthy youths and maidens ceased dreaming and fell to work, and the world was spared reams of feeble verse and third-rate romances. After that night Becky spent fewer spare hours in her nest, and more in reading with Emily, who lent her books and helped her to understand them. Both much assisted by Mrs. Spencer, who marked passages, suggested authors, and explained whatever puzzled them. Very happy bits of time were these, and very precious to both, as Emily learned to see and appreciate the humbler, harder side of life. And Becky got delightful glimpses into the beautiful world of art, poetry, and truth, which gave her better food for heart and brain than sentimental musings or blind efforts to satisfy the hunger of her nature with verse writing. Their favourite places were in the big barn, on the front porch, or by the spring. This last was Emily's schoolroom, and she both taught and learned many useful lessons there. One day, as Becky came to rest a few minutes in shell peas, Emily put down her book to help, and as the pods flew, she said, nodding towards the delicate ferns that grew thickly, all about the trough, the rock, and the grassy bank. We have these in our greenhouse, but I never saw them growing wild before, and I don't find them anywhere up here. How do you get such beauties and make them do so well?   Answered Becky, smiling at her new friend, all be so dainty and still so delicate in spite of the summer's rustication. Thank you. I suppose I never shall be very strong or able to do much, so I am rather like a fern, and do live in a conservatorial winter as I can't go out a great deal. An idle thing, Becky, and Emily sighed, for she was born frail, and even her tenderly guarded life could not give her the vigor of other girls. But the sigh changed to a smile, as she added. If I am like the fern, you are like your own laurel, strong, rosy, and able to grow anywhere. I want to carry a few roots home, and see if they won't grow in my garden, then you will have me and I you. I only hope your plant will do as well as mine does here. It won't. Ever so many folks have taken roots away, but they never thrive in gardens as they do on the hills where they belong. So I tell them to leave the deer-brushes alone, and come up here and enjoy them in their own place. You might keep a plant of it in your hot house, and it would blow, I daresay, but it would never be half so lovely as my acres of them, and I guess it would only make you sad, seeing it so far from home, and pale and pining. Answered Becky, with her eyes on the green slopes, where the mountain laurel braved the wintry snow, and came out fresh and early in the spring. Then I'll let it alone till I come next summer. But don't you take any of the fern into the house in the cold weather? I should think it would grow in your sunny windows, said Emily, pleased by the fancy that it resembled herself. I tried it, but it needs a damp place, and our cold nights kill it. No, it won't grow in our old house, but I cover it with leaves, and the little green sprouts come up as hardy as can be out here. The shade, the spring, the shelter of the rock, keep it alive, you see, so it's no use trying to move it. Both sat silent for a few minutes, as their hands moved briskly, and they thought of their different lots. An inquisitive ray of sunshine peeped in at them, touching Becky's hair till it shone like red gold. The same ray dazzled Emily's eyes.  This recalled her pet grievance, and made her say impatiently as she pushed the thick short locks under her net. My hair is such a plague. I don't know what I am to do when I go into society by and by.  It's a pretty color, and I think the curls much nicer than a bottom switch, said Becky, quite unconscious that her own luxuriant locks were of the true Titian red, and would be much admired by artistic eyes. I don't. I shall send to Paris to match it, and then wear a braid round my head as you do sometimes. I suppose it will cost a fortune, but I won't have a strong-minded crop. A friend of mine got a lovely golden switch for fifty dollars. My patience! Do folks pay like that for false hair? Asked Becky amazed. Yes, indeed. White hair costs a hundred, I believe, if it is long. Why, you could get ever so much for yours if you ever wanted to sell it. I'll take part of it, for a little while mine will be as dark, and I'd like to wear your hair, Becky. Don't believe mother would let me. She is very proud of our red heads. If I do cut it, you shall have some. I may be hard up and glad to sell it, perhaps. My sakes! I smelled a cake burning! And off flew Becky to forget the chat in her work. Emily did not forget it, and hoped Becky would be tempted, for she really coveted one of the fine braids, but felt shy about asking the poor girl for even a part of her one beauty. So July and August passed pleasantly and profitably to both girls, and in September they were depart. No more was said about poetry, and Emily soon became so interested in the busy, practical life about her, that her own high-flow dreams were quite forgotten, and she learned to enjoy the sweet prose of daily labor. One breezy afternoon, as she and her mother sat resting from a stroll on the wayside bank among the golden rod and astors, they saw Becky coming up the long hill with a basket on her arm. She walked slowly as if lost in thought, yet never missed pushing aside with the decided gesture of her foot every stone that lay in her way. There were many in that rocky path, but Becky left it smoother as she climbed, and paused now and then to send some especially large or sharp one spinning into the grassy ditch beside the road. Isn't she a curious girl, Mama? So tired after her long walk to town, yet so anxious not to leave a stone in the way, said Emily, as they watched her slow approach. A very interesting one to me, dare, because under that humble exterior lies a fine, strong character. It is like Becky to clear her way, even up a dusty hill where the first rain will wash out many more stones. Let us ask her why she does it. I have observed the habit before and always meant to ask, replied Mrs. Spencer. Here we are. Come and rest a minute, Becky, and tell us if you mend roads as well as ever so many other things, called Emily, beckoning with a smile as the girl looked up and saw them. Oh, it's a trick of mine. I caught her to father when I was a little thing, and do it without knowing half the time, said Becky, sinking down upon a mossy rock, as if rest were welcome. Why did he do it? asked Emily, who knew that her friend loved to talk of her father. Well, it's a family failing, I guess, for his father did the same, only he began with his farm and let the roads alone. The land used to be pretty much all rocks up here, you know, and farmers had to clear the ground if they wanted crops. It was a hard fight, and took a sight of time and patience to grub out roots and blast rocks and pick up stones that seemed to grow faster than anything else, but they kept on and now see. As she spoke, Becky pointed proudly to the wide smooth fields lying before them, newly shorn of grass or grain, waving with corn or rich in garden crops ripening for winter stores. Here and there were rocky strips unreclaimed as if to show what had been done, and massive stone walls surrounded pasture, field, and garden. A good lesson in patience and perseverance, my dear, and does great honor to the men who made the wilderness blossom like the rose, said Mrs. Spencer. Then you can't wonder that they loved it and we want to keep it. I guess it would break mother's heart to sell this place, and we are all working as hard as ever we can to pay off the mortgage. Then we'll just be the happiest family in New Hampshire, said Becky, fondly surveying the old farmhouse, the rocky hill, and the precious fields one from the forest. You never need fear to lose it. We will see to that if you will let us, began Mrs. Spencer, who was both a rich and generous woman. Oh, thank you, but we won't need help, I guess, and if we should, Mrs. Taylor made us promise to come to her, cried Becky. She found us just in our hardest time, and wanted to fix things then, but we are proud in our way, and mother said she'd rather work it off if she could. Then what did that dear lady do but talk to the folks round here and show them how a branch railroad down to Peaksville would increase the value of the land, and how good this value would be for strawberries and asparagus and garden truck if we could only get it to market. Some of the rich men took up the plan, and we hope it will be done this fall. It will be the making of us, for our land is first rate for small crops, and the children can help at that, and with a depot close by it would be such easy work. That's what I call helping folks to help themselves. Won't it be grand? Becky looked so enthusiastic that Emily could not remain uninterested, though market gardening did not sound very romantic. I hope it will come, and next year we shall see you all hard at it. What a good woman Mrs. Taylor is. Ain't she? And the sad part of it is she can't do and enjoy all she wants to because her health is so poor. She was a country girl, you know, and went to work in the city as waiter in a boarding house. A rich man fell in love with her and married her, and she took care of him for years, and he left her all his money. She was quite broken down, but she wanted to make his name loved and honoured after his death, as he hadn't done any good while he lived, so she gives away heaps, and is never tired of helping poor folks and doing all sorts of grand things to make the world better. I call that splendid. So do I. Yet it is only what you were doing in a small boy, Becky, said Mrs. Spencer, as the girl paused out of breath. Mrs. Taylor clears the stones out of people's paths, making their road easier to climb than hers has been, and leaving behind her fruitful fields for others to reap. This is a better work than making verses, for it is the real poetry of life, and brings to those who give themselves to it, no matter in what humble ways, something sweeter than fame and more enduring than fortune. So it does. I see that now, and know why we love fathers we do, and want to keep what he worked so hard to give us. He used to say every stone cleared away was just so much help to the boys, and he used to tell me his plans as I tried it after him round the farm, helping all I could, being the oldest and like him, he said. Becky paused with full eyes, for not even to these good friends could she ever tell the shifts and struggles in which she had bravely borne her part during the long hard years that had rested the little homestead from the stony-hearted hills. The musical chime of a distant clock reminded her that supper time was near, and she sprang up as if much refreshed by this pleasant rest by the wayside. As she pulled out her handkerchief, a little roll of pale blue ribbon fell from her pocket, and Emily caught it up, exclaiming mischievously, are you going to make yourself fine next Sunday when Moses Penel calls Becky? The girl laughed and blushed, as she said, carefully folding up the ribbon. I'm going to do something with it that I like a sight better than that. Poor Moses won't come any more, I guess. I'm not going to leave mother till the girls can take my place, and only then to teach if I can get a good school somewhere near. We shall see! and Emily nodded wisely. We shall! and Becky nodded decidedly, as she treached on up the steep hill beside Mrs. Spencer, while Emily walked slowly behind, poking every stone she saw into the grass, unmindful of the detriment to her delicate shoes, being absorbed in a new and charming idea of trying to follow Mrs. Taylor's example in a small way. A week later the last night came, and just as they were parting for bed, in rushed one of the boys with the exciting news that the railroad surveyors were in town, the folks talking about the grand enterprise and the fortune of the place made forever. Great was the rejoicing in the old farmhouse. The boys cheered, the little girls danced, the two mothers dropped a happy tear as they shook each other's hands, and Emily embraced Becky, tenderly exclaiming, There, you dear thing, is a great stone shoved out of your way, and a clear road to fortune at last, for I shall tell all my friends to buy your butter and eggs, and fruit and pigs, and everything you send to market on that blessed railroad. A keg of our best winter butter is going by stage expressed tomorrow anyway, and when our apples come, we shan't need a railroad to get them to you, my darling dear," answered Becky, holding the delicate girl in her arms with a look and gesture, half sisterly, half motherly, wholly fond and grateful. When Emily got to her room, she found that butter and apples were not all the humble souvenirs offered in return for many comfortable gifts to the whole family. On the table, in a pretty birch bark cover, lay several of Becky's best poems neatly copied, as Emily had expressed a wish to keep them, and round the rustic volume like a ring of red gold lay a great braid of Becky's hair, tied with the pale blue ribbon she had walked four miles to buy, that her present might look its best. Of course there were more embraces and kisses and thanks and loving words, before Emily at last lulled herself to sleep, planning a Christmas box, which should supply every wish and want of the entire family if she could find them out. Next morning they parted, but these were not mere summer friends, and they did not lose sight of one another, though their ways lay far apart. Emily had found a new luxury to bring more pleasure into life, a new medicine to strengthen soul and body, and in helping others she helped herself wonderfully. Becky went steadily on her dutiful way, till the homestead was free, the lads able to work the farm alone, the girls old enough to fill her place, and the good mother willing to rest at last among her children. Then Becky gave herself to teaching, a noble task for which she was well fitted, and in which she found both profit and pleasure, as she led her flock along the paths from which she removed the stumbling blocks for their feet, as well as for her own. She put her poetry into her life, and made of it a grand sweet song, in which beauty and duty rhymed so well that the country girl became a more useful, beloved, and honored woman than if she had tried to sing for fame which never satisfies. So each symbolical plant stood in its own place, and lived its appointed life. The delicate fern grew in the conservatory among tea roses and camellias, adding grace to every bouquet in which it formed apart, whether it faded in a ballroom, or was carefully cherished by some poor invalid's bedside, a frail thing, yet with tenacious roots and strong stem, nourished by memories of the rocky nook where it had learned its lessons so well. The mountain laurel clung to the bleak hillside, careless of wintry wind and snow, as its sturdy branches spread year by year, with its evergreen leaves for Christmas cheer, its rosy flowers for springtime, its fresh beauty free to all as it clothed the wild valley with a charm that made a little poem of the lovely spot where the pines whispered, wood bird sang, and the hidden brook told the sweet message it brought from the mountaintop where it was born. The End. End of Chapter 7. End of A Garland for Girls. Recording by Laurel Anderson, Sanford, Florida.


There are tantric who practice certain practices in order to increase their ability to control situations. This is to gain power and they need those powers so they'll do anything to figure it out and try to gain it. They draw energy in direct physical contact with a female from the womb of the female. I met one person on my travels in particular who became quite obsessed with the idea of doing tantric rituals with me. I mean, shortly after I ran very far away from this person, but described this whole thing and kept saying, like, get power. It was obsessed with this idea of getting power from the female and the power that could arise from that experience. This idea of men being able to get enhanced powers and abilities through sexual experience with a woman. What is to that? Is there some foundation? Where is that coming from, this idea? It's an energetic exchange. If you have two people that have a sexual relationship with each other and one knows how to draw energy from the other, you don't even need to have a sexual relationship for that. Two people sitting next to each other. One can draw energy from the other if they know how to do it. These are techniques that are practiced and that are learnt by people who are interested in that. But it's not so simplistic actually the whole thing in the sense that there are tantric who practice certain practices in order to increase their ability to control situations. That's what they mean by power and there are certain kinds of energy that are needed for them to increase those powers. And so they will only be able to get that energy if they get it from a female when she is in a state of surrender, but not surrender to her truth within, to her antar guru, to her divine center, but in surrender to that person. So it's a state which is an unconscious state actually and that is achieved often through those sexual, those sexual acts. And then that energy is taken, the Shakti, the female Shakti because it's a different energy. There is a lot to it. It's a very wide field of knowledge. But you know, of course it's very interesting to talk about the sexual aspects of tantra which don't actually exist because it's not about, it's just nonsense to talk about tantric. I don't even know how else to say it. But the thing is that those are interesting topics because everyone wants to talk about sex. But more interesting than those processes because those processes were processes that were developed in order to experience oneness with the cosmic through the agencies of the body and its desires. The other way was to go into meditation and into pushing the awareness out of the body by yearning upward and outward. So you had these two basic processes described in two sentences. It's a little deeper than that, but the process that actually takes one into self-realization without having to deal with repercussions of those various actions, for example, the sexual energy exchange and things like that, is to go inward and start to be in a state of humility to that within you, that source within your guru, your antar guru, your inner master. Because then what happens is you can have the most incredible sexual experiences if that's what interests you. There are some people that are interested in all the details of sexual experience and the art of sexual experience. There are others who are not interested in that. Not everybody has the same interests. So people can move into different fields of interest, but the fundamental base has to be that connect with the divine within and to become an instrument of that divine impulse, that soul impulse, that source impulse.  It just means that your system is in tune with the truth and it's very possible that the truth wants you to experience some wild energetic exchange with people. So everything is possible when you bend to the truth. And as far as people who do these kind of rituals where they draw energy from the female, the male tantric who do that, this is to gain power and they need those powers so they'll do anything to figure it out and try to gain it. They draw energy in direct physical contact with a female from the womb of the female. And sometimes if they have a lot of knowledge of how to do it, they can even separate out the energies because if a female has a male that has been inside her, that male leaves energies in her womb also, or in a womb, it's not really a womb. And so when the next male comes along, he has to be able to, otherwise he's going to absorb the energies of the male before and then he's in trouble, which is also what happens sometimes to tantric. So it's a, you know, why get into all that messy fields where you don't really know what's going on unless you're ready to sit with the tantric over years and learn these things. There are techniques of transcending human experience, but they also come with so much danger when you have the truth within you, why bother with all that? You can bend to the truth within, you can be an instrument of the truth and you can have a very amazing life embracing sexual experience. Sexual experience is not something unspiritual. You can have very spiritual sexual experience, but first you have to be tuned in as an instrument of the truth. Else you are in trouble or you take years to practice as a tantrika, which I don't think most people have the time for or even the inclination for, you know. So that surrender posture, bend down the truth, the truth, yearning for the truth if at all you want to yearn for anything.


It's... is that right? 7.58? Yeah. 7.58 a.m. Oh, that's right. We're getting ready to go out to the shops. I really just tested grocery shopping before the apocalypse happened and I really did test it now because it interrupts my morning coffee. If you hope to get most of the things on your list, you have to go early in the morning at least where I live. Hey guys. Well, after a early morning run to the grocery store, I decided to do something that's been on my mind for a couple of days and sort of has kept me awake. I have discovered over the years that there's just certain arts and crafts, things and styles that I've tried and I just don't care for and at some point that doesn't mean I need to keep the excess stuff around. Maybe I keep a little bit, but I don't keep too much. And then there's other things that I find I really enjoy, but I get tired of digging the parts out of a closet over, let's see where are we, over there.  So I spent some time today at the Small Bits Bank behind me, which if you've seen my studio tour videos, you know what that's all about. If you haven't, I'll try to find the videos on it and link them below. Anyway, I spent some time cleaning out and purging some things, setting out some things. I don't need to keep every single size of envelope on the planet. I really, really don't. I found four, let me see, four bags of stuff that have to go. And I combined some other things, like I had one bag of envelope, one bin of envelopes, one bin of tags, one bin of bags. That's a lot of envelopes, tags and bags. I thinned them out enough to get them all into one bin. I did the same thing with a few other items that were on the Small Bits Bank so that I could put out five bins of fabric. I have one bin now of just cotton. Let's see, let's turn around. Sorry, I don't mean to make you dizzy. So I have one bin here of cheesecloth and metallic fabrics and burlap and things with texture. I have a bin of vintage fabrics, denim, distressed fabrics. There's some silk in there. My bin of cottons, which I don't have all the colors in the rainbow, but I did Rory G. Biv as close as I could get. And some large pieces of fabric along with custom printed fabric with my artwork on it from Spoonflower in the back there. And then a bin of lace. And that's gonna make me very happy. I still have my two drawers on the other side of the camera. One has wool in it and things I use for the bases on some of the slow stitches and then the other one has the smaller scraps that are sorted by color and they're in little bags. And so anyway, that took a bit today to do, but I am very happy that I did it. And this is gonna make me very very happy and I'll be able to get some slow stitching done. So now I just have to figure out what I'm gonna do with the excess that's not garbage and yeah, there's no place to donate anything right donate anything right now. So the only thing I can do figure out to do is start a box or a bag and hang on to it until there is.  So yeah, that's gonna be a thing. All right, I'll be back later in the afternoon and I was just re-watching my clip from earlier and I should say to you that I am able to lessen my inventory of envelopes and bags and tags and because I one of the things I've discovered over the years is I'm not a huge fan of junk journaling why while I do do it now and then it's not my favorite thing and I do have a lot a lot of junk journals that people have sent me dear friends have made for me and I like using those when I need to use junk journal and if I want to make one I do have just enough to make some stuff But I don't need to have bins and bins and bins of like envelopes It's just not necessary. So yeah, that's a thing Hey guys, it's Monday afternoon. I don't think it's three o'clock yet, but it could be. I don't know anyway It's after three o'clock. I was wrong and I thought I filmed this already and I didn't have a button push And then I went to go listen back to what I did film and my phone was still connected to the Bluetooth speaker upstairs.  Did I take a shower? Shit, I lose the English the words for things like hello. I lose the English I You know, I just Mind I'm not doing it. That's doing it. My husband's doing it, too. We're just we're calling it corona brain So tear here it says Sealable bag it says Bullpucky I say it is not opening Foster farms you lie Okay, so remember what I said earlier about corona brain So Bob and I realized today at about one lunch time That there was a whole bunch of things we should have bought at the store yesterday That we forgot about or things that we thought where we had that we didn't have Yeah, so we need to get steps in tonight. So I guess we're doing it at the grocery store So he's got his head tube. I've got my mask Yeah, so Corona brain. I'm blaming it on that anyway. All right, we'll be back. Good morning, everybody. Have I checked in today? I don't think I have my corona hair is Coming along nicely My corona brain is Yeah, also Holy cow Anyway, I was just watching the vlog for last week and Which I have to do during the editing process Which I hate watching myself on camera. That's why I most most creators I know do like they have they hate having to go back and listen to themselves speak I Even Bailey Bumble Bailey Her other channel is Bailey J. I think she's a much bigger channel than mine Anyway, she mentioned it in a recent vlog that she really hates listening to herself talk. I really can really relate Anyway, that's done and it's saved and it's loading to YouTube and there's a spot on my sunglasses So that's all done and I had some lunch. It's just about noon. I think Yeah, it's just just before noon. I've had some lunch. I Found out that someone very nicely sent me happy mail from Canada and I think that's the package that I just found out is there Over at my over at my PO box, which I okay guys So as I told you I had some happy mail from Darlene and I don't usually Do haul videos anymore on on camera here on the YouTube channel And I don't do lots of happy mail videos either I do of course thank the person and I'm always very appreciative of whatever you all send me believe me and I do use it I just don't want to feel like I'm bragging Because it's not me but anyway, I did want to share this because she sent me a really great Bundle of stuff and I wanted to share her work her so her name is Darlene and Let's see Bromberger, I don't know if she has a YouTube channel, but if she does I'll link it below I don't think she does actually She sent me a very sweet card with a sweet note in it And I had a suspicion when I saw the front of the card So I turned it over to look at the back and sure enough She did the work on here, and I don't know if you can all see that's not drawing That's paper embroidery on there. How cool is that and then She sent me a junk journal, so I said recently on camera that You know I felt okay about getting rid of some things and making way for more strictery things because Although I do the occasional junk journal It's just not my thing and I just I kind of always feel like you all do a way better job than I do just because I Don't have the patience for it. So first of all it was wrapped in this envelope Which is made out of a bag and some paper how cool is that with a with a tie on it I think it's a silk piece of silk yarn And then here's the junk journal How cute is that and then it's got I think this is a leaf from one of her trees in her yard In cash, she's from Canada and then there's a pocket here in the front How cute is he and then there's something with a coat on it here Oh, it just has her name handcrafted by BB creations It's her Artney artist name. How cute is that with some? distressed papers and then it's got some more pockets in the back and another like a bookmark Most people who know know I love to do art and I love to read that's my two things There's another one with some of her leaves on it and then what are these here? Like all the pockets have something in it. It's so cool.  I'm not sure maybe from a magazine it's a perfect little journal and a good size to like fit in back into the envelope and Into my bag and forever allowed to go traveling again You know to take with me somewhere to do some Botanical sketches in or some writing in it's a really great size for that and it's yeah It's nice and small fits in my travel art case really well. So I love that. Thank you, Darlene Of course, she knows because I've been sharing Images and things over in a chat group that we're on in on Facebook with some other people That I've been doing a lots of slow stitching and at this point you all know too and I keep running out of Embroidery floss colors, so she sent me a bag of embroidery floss now I don't it's not DMC floss. I'm kind of wondering if it's a Canadian brand. Let's see Prism six strand floss I don't know it's from China, but I've never seen the prism brand now that doesn't mean anything they might have it at Joanne's I haven't bought embroidery floss and for a long time until recently and Recently I just buy it online because you can't go in the shops So I haven't done this much embroidery in a really long time But she sent me a really nice big bag of floss a bunch of great colors, which is wonderful because I'm running out of some things again She sent me this tag laminated tag. It says It's an am your maple from her tree last fall and your AM you are I don't know if that's how you pronounce it But anyway, it looks similar to the other leaves Which made me think they were all from her tree What else is here cuz I don't know she sent me some elastic Thank you, darling cuz I'm you know running low again. So elastic is always great right now. I need to make some more masks She sent me this little I don't know what that is Looks like another journal Handcrafted by BB creations looks like another journal Matchbook style Yep It sure is matchbook style. That's cute. These are cute little Quick journals to do like on it in a single day to do Little mini collage In they're really great for that She sent me she made these I know she's making these so this is a variation on the headband that I make This just you can do the ear loops and then put this in the back from one ear to the other So the elastic doesn't rub on the back of your ears I actually am thinking about switching one or more of my bands to ear loops rather than head loops because the head loops Get really tight. This might solve part of the problem. So thank you, darling. I will be using this The next time I go out which I've been out Three times in as many days, so I'm kind of hoping I don't have to go out for a while But when I do I'll be using that She sent me some buttons I just went through and cleaned out a bunch of my buttons And I'm using them There's some cool ones in here. You can just never have too many buttons. Can you when you're doing stitching and stuff? I shouldn't say that. I guess you could But there are some cool buttons in here Looks like they're all plastic buttons But there's some great colors like ocean theme colors. Sorry, I'll show you guys on camera rather than staring at the buttons So I'll have to I do have my buttons now separated by color I know so I'll have to spend some time sorting them out. There's one Sparkly one. See that? I love that So cool Okay, she sent me some There's notes on everything. So this says ice dyed cheesecloth And old arm sling. I don't know what ice dyeing is, but the look of this fabric has me intrigued darling So I can see stitching with this and adding it to some of my stitching. Look at this piece This says cheesecloth. It's just it's all folded up, but it's a big pretty big piece. And then we have She sent me a few different colors So we have this one Orange, you know fun fact. I don't have enough orange or yellow. She sent me two different oranges One is a little brighter. This one is more of a gold orange I don't know how to have enough orange or yellow. Fun fact and look at this pretty green Those will go with the fabrics. I have that are separated out by color.  I'm aware All right. She sent me some little mini bags Which is great. I when I was cleaning out my bag bin I got rid of a lot of the bigger bags because I just don't use them But I do use the mini ones because I use them for pockets and stuff like that. So These are great and then these Show me this these kind of look like the elastic loops or knitted loops that you do weaving with I haven't opened yet, but let's look No, it looks extreme I'm intrigued. It's not stretchy. Darnie. What is this?  I'm intrigued I wonder if I could stitch with it I wonder what kind of french knot you'd get So I'm going and then she had some vintage fabric in her stash It is so cute. She said she made herself a neck wrap neck What did she make? A neck band She says it turned out so darn cute. Well, I get the fabric is adorable So this is some vintage fabric covered in in bees Look at this That's going to be fun to use on a slow stitch Not only just in random pieces, but I can see cutting some of these bees out And adding them to a piece Very very cute And I have a bag of fabric. That's all be a nature nature inspired I know Anyway, thank you Darnie and I do appreciate it so very much. Everything is great Now I wasn't supposed to go out of the house today I was out for like an hour and a half because they went and picked that up and then I went and did a few other things and so Now I have to catch up All right, that's it for the moment. I'll be back. Oh, if you want to send me happy mail Um, my happy mail address is in the description below Um, right now I'm not going over there all the time. I go there maybe once a week Ish So if you do send me something if you could send pop me an email My email address is also down there and let me know that you sent it and that way I'll keep an eye on the p.l. Box Um, right now with the world situation being what it is. I Um I'm not over there a lot. So Anyway, all right, I'll be back Okay, guys, we're getting ready to go on our evening walk I spent most of the day slow stitching, you know when we went to go leave during dinner We said we should go walking as soon as we're done It was bright and sunny out You all see that gray cloud? Yeah, I do have a mask with me my rescue inhaler those that don't know I'm asthmatic Anyway I'm gonna put this on as soon as we get out of the little neighborhood where we're at And it gets peoply Uh, anyway That's it. We'll be back. Hey guys, it is wednesday afternoon, it's about 3 30 I spent the morning making some fabric buttons out of scraps of fabric scraps of cotton batting Some embroidery floss and some washers I stole from my husband's stash in the garage I will include some pictures here somewhere. Anyway, they were fun to make and I will be making more of them But I'm gonna need some more washers. I think I took all of his Don't tell him All right. Good morning everybody. It is technically still morning. It's 10 20 I have my mask, of course Um, yeah, yeah, it's one of the filter masks I did change out the head loops for ear loops just because if I'm out for any length of time at the shops Um, I start to get a headache and while the none of none of it is comfortable This is more comfortable than the head loops, but the head loops it's more secure, but You have to decide what's good for you for right now. I've decided ear loops Um, I didn't use any extra elastic. I just cut apart the elastic that was already on here Um, anyway, um, most of the you know time you're spent out at the shops right now standing in line waiting to get in um And yeah, so anyway, so I've got a mask It's a filter pocket mask. So I've got a filter in there and I'm ready to go. I need to go to the hardware store for parts at some point, you know light bulbs die and Things like that. Yeah. So anyway, I need to go to the hardware store So I'm going to go over to home depot stand in line wait to get in get my stuff that I need I'm while I'm there. I'm going to get some more washers to make buttons and I'm going to get some Um, vegetable seeds and some things that I've been wanting, but I didn't want to go there just for that And hello corona here. That's my natural color. Just FYI right there I'm very very silver. So my natural color is very dark was very dark brown so the silver gray really kind of shows up and actually it With the brown it kind of looks like a mousy silver. I don't know I wish it was pure white, but what are you going to do anyway? I'll be back. Well talking to the camera. It's not on Uh, I would blame that on corona brain except that that's something I kind of have done before coronavirus so Um, I probably won't be back to the hardware store for a while I was a bit disappointed I was trying hard to maintain social distance and I still got yelled at by another customer in the store because she thought I wasn't Maintaining social distance and I was in her way I think she was just more not sure where I was going and she kept trying to go around me And I wasn't sure what she was doing and confusion, you know Anyway, um, and yes, I'm scratching my face, but I've already sanitized my hands um What really disappointed me though was not only were At least half if not more of the customers without a mask on which I find disappointing And purposefully not maintaining social distance unlike my accident At least half the employees if not more Allergies sorry, um, at least half the employees if not more we're not we're not covered And we're not maintaining social distance and we're not caring And the store wasn't limiting how many people could come in or or anything And while I understand we might be lifting some restrictions That doesn't mean we can lift them all and we should be still being cautious and I yeah, I just don't get it. I don't get it. Yeah, I want to say personally as I Find out about businesses that are not Taking precautions to prevent further spread of coronavirus whether we're still in lockdown or not um They probably won't be the ones that will get my business often because unless I need something that no one else carries I'll be shopping other places. We do have for instance a grocery store chain here called new seasons and They are requiring everyone to wear a mask before they come in For instance, um, unless they have a medical reason not to they need to have a mask on so Uh employees and customers alike so Yeah, I I think I'm going to be Following those guidelines more often than not Um, I'm not okay with not only not getting sick, but not I'm not okay with helping spread the virus. So Um, yeah That's going to be a thing friend. Hi Fred Hey guys, it's um just before three o'clock on friday afternoon and i'm going to go get the mail uh Spent the most of the day Not only doing some slow stitching but working on the sd shop Pretty much nothing else. I did sleep in this morning for the first time in a long time Um, can't say I'm upset about that um How because you know haven't been sleeping well Yeah, goes with the whole menopause and stress thing Um tonight we're going over to dinner at the kids new house Uh For the first time in a very long time. We have been doing friday night dinners with our daughter and her fiance almost since they met and For years other than when they moved up here before we got here Um It was always at our house now they have their own house and it's going to be at their house I think more often than not going forward. So that's pretty exciting. I think All right, so to my surprise I got all the basics of the new slow stitch Done i'm working on another spool piece that's going to be on one of the Spools that fred made no way. Yes way Uh, anyway, I got all the basic parts the background. I'll stitch down. So I'll put a picture of it here Tomorrow, um, or whenever I have time I'll start adding bits and pieces to it Now we're gonna go have our first ever family night dinner at the kids house I don't think we've ever done that before even when they were in apartment. No Yeah, so And I think like the first time in like 20 years or something. We're not having pizza on friday You okay with that friend? It's it's been long enough or ever mixed in food. I guess because I was sick of the mile on tuesday Probably yeah, we're having burrito. So daughter's cooking. She's a good cook too. So I'm good with that All right, I'll be back Saturday may 9th. I only know that because I'm at the desk looking at the computer I was listening to pandora stray cats is on right now I'm doing some more slow stitching. Of course. I'm actually working on um Adding some hexagons to my current slow stitch um Try I would say practicing trying for the first time um English paper piecing and it um using getting this sort of honeycomb pattern I set up a file with my silhouette this morning to cut out a bunch of paper hexagons That I can use for patterns out of cardstock And that took quite a bit of time, but I'm glad I did it because they're very precisely cut and I've got a whole bunch of them And if you do it right, um, you can use the patterns over and over again I'm going to link a video by tula pink In the description below she has um, she's a quilter and she does a lot of uh, paper piecing and Um, I she has a couple of really good videos So I'll link hers down below if you want to see how I'm doing this because it's not my technique. It's hers Um, but anyway, I'm just working on that and getting the pieces sewn and attached To my new piece that I'm working on this one Hey guys, we are out walking I don't think it's five o'clock yet. Is it? Oh well, we left the house before five getting our walk in a little bit early It's 85 degrees. It's too warm for me. Fred's loving it Um, it's very warm for this thing when people aren't around. I take it off Right now. It's kind of people-y anyway We're doing our due diligence and getting some exercise and vitamin d. What about you? It's been a fun week I'm gonna go back and have dinner after this and Continue on some slow stitching. I'll put a picture here somewhere. I'm loving paper piecing Holy cow That's a problem I do did come up with the hexagon Silhouette cutting file to create a bunch of little hexagons that fit on these spool projects um If you guys want the file, let me know Anyway, I hope you have a good week have had a good week And uh, don't forget to check the video description for relevant links and ways to support the free content here on youtube I'm not the only creative person on youtube or the facebook art groups that have ways to support So check out their video descriptions If you can't find what you're looking for ask But all of us who have free art content on the internet Have some way to support whether it's an etsy shop or PayPal tip jar or whatever anyway Don't forget to like share and subscribe Stay safe. Stay healthy.  We'll see you next week. Bye guys


Yes, hmm Cold again. Was it 25th of January now? There's the new wheels. Is it locked? Got the stickers off it last night Back to normal already This is it extension. Well conservatory Go on here side of the house Look to the fence Fence is coming down to the fence. Fence is coming down We're coming past about a meter Relocating the fence making the drive a bit shorter It's going to do a few things to move yet. We're waiting for our skip. There it is Can you trust this deed? Hope it's a good one. You're in the tow You always it's never guaranteed you got a good van I think you'll think it is when you know It's going after. Yeah, and when you look at what we had. Yeah, let's do this It's got to take the fence down everything. Have we yeah, she had to go to be moved. Well, everything's well It's going in ways. How's it going here? Yeah Just pass the door pop the The rails off first take it off in one go if you can and try and put it back up temporary later Then I'll join you now get the get your bar in there Yeah See what happens. Hey, what time is it all 10 to 10 and basically that's as far as we've got Yeah, I haven't done much as far as me and Jason No, we just put anything so I'm gonna get onto the skip come to you with the skippers Is Jason with his big breaker? Right.  I'm not talking tonight Eight times skip I hope it's coming up on the camera because it's going dark Yeah, it's just fall over We're about half a dozen maybe eight barrel full short, but we're going to swap over in the morning I don't need you can pick this up This is all stone Obviously because the drive but there's a load of concrete down there. Probably would have seen up the breaker on the video I think they are Communal aerial ducks But we're gonna have to leave them and we can't take them out just in case we've got to cut the concrete off from the posts This side's all done That's just a soft clay around that pipe It's not actually a pipe it's like a duct so that's keep coming out I'm gonna shut around that pipe But this clay is absolutely solid I've got a good 600 so Get it finished tomorrow Concrete sordid for three o'clock Bride doesn't rain. Yeah, it's supposed to rain, but we'll just have to see how we get on Hopefully that front is mainly stone So that shouldn't take long. We're keeping the stone. It's MOT So I'm not throwing that in the skip way that can be used. It's the MOT that's come out So that's it for today I'm ready for a lie down.  We'll see you tomorrow See you tomorrow. I'll Day two on the dig eight o'clock Waiting for a skip to get swapped Then we've got this front to get in Looks like we're walking on it Cheers! It's filming now. Live action. Don't do it too much mate or it'll run. Thank you She needs to drag it because they can't. Oh, no, they can get in there can't they? Bring them in to it there No, they're not They're not I think I've probably been with you digging and then concrete on some day Tasting them in these companies Don't worry about the water. Sure Don't keep going Please. Yeah Look at that Please And then chamfered off with the boards. We'll just keep them on for later when it's dried That's a little bit low but we can get away with that with the trench block Right, it's about four o'clock. I've just been to Bershko to try and get some. Well, I got some trench blocks That's what I've got another five-tongue on in there. That's Thirteen tonne There's a drain in there. You can't see it. It's a bit lower down So we've shuffled that off Nice thick pad of concrete there about 300 thick to put our lentils across which are coming on the wagon tomorrow The concrete's about 400 deep in that corner You can just see under there And then that's where the other pipe is in the other side.  Got our trench bottle out with our brick jackets on Thanks to brick jackets for sending us them Yeah, so Even the water's gathering once we knock these shutters off We can just brush the water down in there Let's start I think I'll set Alex starting Setting up putting this one course of trench in And I'm going to nip off and get some face bricks Because it's going to be a while before we can get the full order delivered And try to sort of organize that this afternoon So that's it. Let's get home