Hello everybody happy Wednesday, even though we're pre filming this but as you guys know I am traveling this week So I'm super super excited to have some footage and some videos to put out for you guys while I'm on the road And this is a really special episode This is kind of a follow-up episode to a subject that Catherine Edwards and I spoke about last week Which are the Doshas and a lot of people have had many many questions because I have been Talking about Doshas off and on because it is something that I practice in my life That is really changed my life And so I wanted to do a part to follow up and bring our friend Stephanie on from spiritual perspectives of our great awakening I know all you guys know who she is by now, but if you're new here This is Stephanie Normally we've been doing a lot of like deep dives and tarot card readings But today I just wanted to do a follow-up on the Doshas bring it back down to just us as human beings because Stephanie We we've talked about this a lot that um, you know, you one of your gifts is channeling That's one of your gifts, but channeling is just a form of communication when it comes to like true spirituality It's really working on yourself and knowing thyself. Isn't it and the Doshas the Doshas System, which is a very old system guys. This is not a new system. This has been around for thousands of years In my opinion for me personally was one of the most life-changing systems I ever incorporated into my life and I know you just now started this and you're coming from the medical World and so let's start off Stephanie. I'm gonna kind of let you take the reins Again, everybody knows that you came from the medical background and you started working on I've been helping you with your Doshas To eat for your Doshas to work to exercise. What's been the biggest like? Change that you've noticed switching from like a Western system of understanding the body to an Eastern system of understanding the body Well number one, um, I don't have the inflammation. I used to I'm coming from a medical background I also suffering with severe severe medical issues such as fibromyalgia Ellers-Danelos I had high blood pressure. I had migraines Blurry vision at times. I'd get numbness entangling in my legs, which is RLS It's some restless leg syndrome where I had to constantly move my legs Super amounts of anxiety. I would have on and off the depression and so I had all these different things that and doctors could never Pinpoint the route they could never figure me out and also to it was very frustrating because I was having all these issues, but I Did all sorts of imaging I owe the hospital a local hospital I can't say how much money for the imaging I've had and the blood work I've had I also have a double MTHFR mutation, which is where I can't process folic acid whatsoever Which makes me a high risk of blood clot heart attacks stroke depression anxiety and autoimmune diseases And so I get it from both parents directly and I get the worst type from both parents So I'm a double which is very rare But it's very very high risk. So anyways, I had all these different ailments going on and I Started to gain more and more and more weight. I hated the way I looked in the mirror I hated myself more after seeing myself in the mirror. My my self-esteem was very low I you know, I just I had a hard time even just going up the stairs sometimes often times I would just struggle I'd have to lift myself by my arms on the railing just to put one foot in front of the other and By the time I get to the top of the stairs I'd be in chairs because I was in a lot of pain. So when I made these different changes over the last few months It's almost all gone and I feel like I'm actually a young person again I also had my hair fall out on me too. I mean I have I had bald patches all over my scalp So I really felt like I was like a mid in my mid 30s But really I felt like I was 90 and now what's starting to happen is I feel like my health is not only getting better But I am starting to feel like my actual age if not a little bit younger I'm able I'm more flexible now because I'm doing a lot of workouts and Thanks to you, you know, you know helping me figure out what workout I'm doing a lot of what bar is it called bar robics or bar Working the core that I has such a weak core. So I wasn't counting on my core to do any kind of Support at all. I was counting on my legs all the time and now, you know And that's where I was getting a lot of my pains Terrible knees terrible joints. So I made this change over with the exercise and then I also then incorporated my dosha Which incorporates a lot of the bots of foods. Like you said, it's a you know, more of the Growing on a vine type of foods the more cerebral air food like salads and in that kind of thing Less cooked foods and I also changed my diet from eating some meat to know me at all Which has been a huge difference as well I'm probably seventy-five percent eating my dosha and just even that seventy-five percent what a huge difference inflammation is The any inflammation I get is really a sentient sickness, but then it goes away, but I'm still Functionable I can still actually move I can I don't get the brain fog I used to have so a Lot of it is my health problems are starting to dissipate now. Yeah, and that was what happened to me too I you know Stephanie and I have opposite diets because we're opposite Inbalancing opposite dosha's and so that's the that's the big kicker with when you're eating for your dosha is that food is food You know what they say let let food be thy medicine That doesn't mean that an apple is gonna help everybody It means that you have to know thyself you have to know what your disposition of energy is and when you know What's your disposition of energy is then you know where you have the propensity to go and balanced? And that's the thing like for me. I struggle a lot with anxiety as well. That's huge in Bata That's a huge air thing that doesn't mean that someone is copper can't have anxiety Of course they can but when you know for me when I know when I start to feel my anxiety rising I know I need to change my diet. I need to go back to eating a lot of copper foods to help pull my energy Down and it's true and I really feel like and this is just my opinion I feel like the powers that be the bad guys have just made us so ignorant to the powers of our body that we now depend on them telling us what's wrong with us and Basically, the only way we control it is by popping a pill When I think in my opinion I think majority of the diseases the disorders that we have are actually due to us not understanding Energetically what's going on because our body is always communicating with us. It's always telling us that there's something wrong And so I struggled a lot with inflammation as well a lot and when I realized that for me I Was eating foods that was causing the inflammation Although I had been told that these were healthy foods They weren't healthy for me. And so my body was reacting To the fact that these foods were basically poisoned to my body And so when I switched it all the sudden your body just starts to Shed off all that stuff and it can start to get the nutrients it can start to actually function And it's one of the things I know with a lot of people who switch the dosha diet They get upset because oh now they can't eat their you know They can't eat their favorite food all the time anymore, but I always tell people that the kicker is once you start to feel true health You don't really want to go back to eating the way you lose to eat It's it's magic almost, you know, you see you feel good You feel really really good and and I will have to say so what Stephanie's been doing is bar And I love bar and the reason why I love bar is because bar Especially the teacher that I have her working with is really good. Her name is Marnie Alton. She's really really good At understanding from my perspective of watching her She really seems to understand how the body works energetically versus just Atomically and as Westerners we tend to look at the anatomy of the body first and then the energetics of the body But that's where we're wrong as Westerners Because the anatomy doesn't exist without the energetic and so if we fix the energetic first Then the anatomy will just follow suit and something that she does with the bar She focuses a lot on the pelvis the way the pelvis is moving and Unlocking the pelvic floor, which is really hard a lot for women I would say a lot of women have a hard time with this and that is a lot of core strength And of course you have money poor the third chakra is right there in those solar plexus You have all these base level Molladara's at the perineum. That's the root chakra and With the bar you're also squeezing that ball in between your legs. And so it's Creating that root-based strength and so one thing I Want for the future and what I try to teach my students is that I think as Westerners especially as women We've been taught that exercise working out is like something you have to do either punish yourself to fit into a skinny size of jeans To be accepted to have a body that's acceptable by society But that's not the secret weapon of exercise. In fact, I haven't weighed myself since I was 27 years old It's learning the power that your body actually has and Invoking that power have you noticed a difference in the way you feel within yourself since you've been doing these Consistently exercising consistently following your dosha-based diet Yes, so I have lost weight Of course it always starts in my face In my I gain weight like tremendously in my face. I get this I call it my turkey gullet But that's starting to go away. My skin is getting smoother in addition to it and the elasticity and my skin is coming back so Physically, I'm starting to like how I look again, but it's not just that like I feel so much better I I always felt like I was a burden to those around me when I would have a flare-up of pain So I don't feel like I'm a burden anymore. I feel like I can completely depend on myself or anything that I need And I'm not dependent on anybody to walk me up the stairs or anything like that So that's helped tremendously but in addition to that Because I've done the pelvic floor of the solar plexus and core workout I've been releasing a lot of trauma that was helped there from my past I've gone through all types of abuse in my life So as you had mentioned to me earlier, you know We store that in those in the root in the solar plexus chakra and so what happened to me is that I know you I know you know this price, but for those who don't know I was working out and I started to ball my eyes out And I did not know why it wasn't until I contacted Bryce and realized it was just all these Emotions from prep past trauma is now releasing out of my system. So now that I've unlocked things I'm actually finding that because I've increased my strength in these areas and unlocked the Pelvic area and unlocked the hip area and those joints I'm now flexible again where I wasn't before I could hardly even do a split before and now I got this morning I got halfway down and I'm so proud of myself. So there is this feeling of Of being proud of myself now like I didn't think I would ever get back to I Was an athlete in high school. I was a swimmer. I was on varsity swim team. I Played I didn't play any basketball in high school, but I played a lot of street ball With the guys because most of my friends were guys I was friends with half of the football team So we would play basketball and but I was able to like maneuver the ball and I was able to like they called me a little mini Jordan Because I was good at basketball and I was on softball. It was a pitcher in a second baseman. So I would I had a large background of athletic athleticism and But swimming would have been my like strong point out of all of it And so I never thought I could ever get back there and it wear me down. I love sports. I love to be active I love to swim.  It's how I feel inside So that's a difference the thing is when we focus too much on the weight part And not enough on the spiritual part or the mental part You're not going to lose that weight in my personal opinion. I'm not focusing on my weight. It's just coming off naturally Well, it's not sustainable You know when we put ourself in this and that's the idea of nature You know, I've talked about this before with yoga and yoga is the sister science too Are you data patan jaleen who wrote the yoga sutras 5000 years ago also wrote A book on are you data which is where this is coming from And the thing about our bodies. Yes, our bodies are the shakti of the soul They're the they're the physical incarnation of our soul, but they're not They're not Eternal they're mortal and because they're mortal they're ebbing and flowing. They're constantly moving and changing And so we when we when we put these levels of expectations on ourselves Like I have to be a size two and I have to weigh 110 pounds That is trying to put something permanent on something that is not that is impermanent and so part of spirituality is Rewiring the way we view the way we eat we have to eat spiritually which is eating for our energetic body and exercising for and using our body as an instrument to express the spirit and the energy it's um We have these two Main energies that run all of us that run through our body and that's the pranic energy and the aponic energy The pranic energy is the upward rising energy that is also comes with the inhale The aponic energy is the downward energy which also comes with the exhale Now pranic energy is often um shown by the symbol of the sun and aponic by the moon Men are typically considered pranic women are typically considered aponic if you look at a man's body they are more Their arms are stronger and then their legs opposite for a woman So you see me up in the down the yin and the yang the alpha the omega divine feminine divine masculine I apologize. It's thundering like a son of a gun outside suddenly. So if you hear thunder, that's what that is That's okay. That's okay. Um And so I tell my students so in in the ashtanga practice We start with uh syria namaskar a and syria namaskar b that's sun scrap for the sun salutations We're not worshiping the sun. That's that's a miss that's misinformation namaskar Our salutations is a breeding and syria is pranic So we're doing these things to ignite that pranic energy that upward rising energy So I tell my students all the time when we're when we're starting to practice and our heart rate is starting to rise Instead of being like, oh god.  That's your power. That's your magic It can actually be with that and settle with that and I think if we start to look at the majesty of this ancient system Of of understanding who we are as human beings. It's going to change everything. I'll give you guys an example.  I I have problems with my left hip it comes and it goes it comes and it goes My left hip sits a little bit higher than my right hip I usually feel on my knee too because the hip and the knee are connected Well, I got up this morning and my my my left hip was a little bit a little cranky But uh westerner A westerner would typically say, oh no, I need to rest then I can't exercise No, no, no, but in the east I say, okay Now I need to get on my mat. I might have to modify some things But I need to explore what's actually going what is my hip trying to tell me And I did I did a bar class this morning and I worked on my hip And um, and it feels a lot better because I got there. There's um energy gets stuck right it gets stuck And in our every part of our body correlates as you guys know I went through the whole chakra system with shanty ono paris rising africa Our whole body has these like it's almost like you're walking into a big um Store room of filing cabinets And so every type of memory or information our mind is taking in even our from our ancestors that stored in our dna It's going to take that information. It's going to store it in a particular place And the stuff that we're holding on to it's going to show up in different parts of our body And for me, that's oftentimes my left hip. Everybody has a part. We're all we're all human We're all dealing with it and instead of shying away from it as seeing it as something That's a medical issue that we can't solve No, no, no, we can't solve it and we can And that's where things get interesting when you text me that day and said you didn't know what what had happened All of a sudden these emotions were coming up. I was like good. That means that it's working That means that the exercise is actually Working and actually doing what it's supposed to do and you just got a set I think I told you just sit there and cry and just let it Don't I did I've had it happen about three or four times at this point and I do I allow it To just come up and just that way I can get rid of it and release it and be done with it And it's and it's a little uncomfortable at first, but I feel so much better afterward Oh, it's totally uncomfortable. It's awful. And that's why so many people avoid it You know a lot of people think when they come into spirituality, they think that um It's just all of a sudden going to be blissful and rainbows and unicorns and that's next life guys Like you got to go through, you know, there's a reason as cheesy as it is There's a reason why the lotus flower is often the um symbol for yoga It's because the lotus flower grows on top of mud And so in order for it to bloom it has to go through the shit first You know, but if we think about it too, we look at the body and the mystery of the body Especially with the what stephanie's doing when she talks about releasing is she's opening up these pathways In her body that have always been there These are not pathways that you're going to see on an x-ray. These are not past pathways. You're going to see on an MRI these are energetic pathways And the chakra system is the base system of that for the the seven points of of energy coming up to the spine But you also have for example when I was talking about the hips and moving with the bar You also have these pathways that move through your hip system And a lot of times what happens, especially as women we lock up down here Especially if you've had we've had trauma down here We will lock up But what these exercises like yoga like bar will do is they they teach you to move the pelvis in a way That starts to unlock the hip And what happens is when you're moving the pelvis in that way, you're also pulling in your abdominal system Which is creating strength in manipura Strengthen all these energy cycles that are then able to pull the energy up the spine Shoshuna a lot clearer and a lot faster You also start to move the hips in a circular way, which for women We're we're circular. We're not linear. And so it unlocks if you think about You know, we laugh a lot in ashtong yoga week We're we're notorious for putting our legs behind our head and people think that's so extreme But it's actually not because what does the femur bone look like inside of the joints the hip pelvis joint? It's a ball in a socket And so it should be able to move it should be able to rotate You should be able to throw that like behind your head. No no problem if the pathways are not there yet But you'll get there I'll get there Most people aren't to what that what I tell my students all the time is what that tells you is when there's When that's not accessible. It's nothing to be upset about. It's good. Okay. That's interesting That means that I've got some congestion There's congestion. There's something stuck What's stuck let's now go get it out I'm glad you said something about that by the way Because no I can't do that. However, I could hardly even lift my hip About a month ago And now I can get my leg And you know how ballet dancers I used to do ballet. That was another thing I was I'm heavily into You know taking In my hand my foot and raising my foot above like this I can get three quarters of the way there. I could hardly even lift my hips So if anybody is saying well, I can't do that. Well, first of all if you continue to say that no, you can't You you got to get these negative things out of your head. It's a process You're not just gonna oh overnight just be able to do it. No, I worked hard at getting to that point I did the work But and and soon I'll get to leg over the head. I know I will I have faith in myself now because I've seen The rewards that I've reaped from doing the work And in addition to that the diet is tremendously helped too because now I'm eliminating all that inflammatory junk in my body And you know we sorry I interrupted you But I wanted to bring I I told you I was having these severe severe hot flashes I was the other thing too and I forgot to mention that and It was like very very severe and I'd get them in the middle of the night and people would say are you going through a Metapause and I'm like no, no, I'm no trust me. I'm not but I would get to the point where I would actually hit the floor because I would get so dizzy from them and just like Be dripping because I didn't know what the hell was happening to me And so um now that I switched over to more of this cooling down What am I eating? I'm eating more. Um, I've had an abundance of heat Yes, so basically what what that tells us and are you data is that she was eating too much To her diet was for her for her Was consisted of foods that her body could not break down because there was an over abundance of heat inside of her body And so her body was just it's just cause and effect And so what we did was we put her on a cooling diet a diet that cool that cooled her down and That's what happened Yep, and not even like even a little example I might have messed up a little bit on the diet last night and ate something with cooked potatoes in it And because I'm like probably 75 I eat the Pit of foods which is enough to really help me tremendously And once in a great while I will have something off that diet because I'm not fully there, but it's a process but Even this morning I woke up and I felt overheated and I'm like, okay. Yep. I got it back away from that Yeah, and it's and that's not it's that's I said with Catherine too like when you go on the dosha diet You basically are educating yourself on what foods work for you And so knowledge is power and I like for example, even though my hip was out this morning for lunch today I had a bowl of tomato soup, which is terrible for me for a vata because a tomato is is a vata food But I I just you know, it's it's kind of rainy here too And I was like, ah So I know that I might have some side effects from that Um energetically and that's fine because tonight I'll just go back and have more of a um a kappa-based meal So like for me potatoes are not heavy I'm not going to overheat my system because my system is already dry. It's already cool So I need more of the root where Stephanie Her system was and she grew up. I I was what was one of the questions I asked you about you growing up about your diet growing up Did you eat a lot of heavy Italian food now my grandfather was from Sicily? So Um, that's what we grew up with a lot of pasta a lot of ravioli Um a lot of you know, even in any other side Which is not biologically my side. Um, it was potatoes and stuff like that all the like the lukewarmian Polish foods and everything So a lot of cooked heavy heavy meals rather than light cooling salads and and things like that so So I would have in mind growing up with Stephanie's family because I'm opposite my body's already super cool and super dry So my body my system can handle the potatoes can handle though heavily cooked But your system was not is not that way and so it was reacting to it Um, and I but how Stephanie like this is something I experienced too And I started putting all this together in my head when I first was introduced to the system All of a sudden things made sense All of a sudden I didn't feel like I was a walking freak of nature that how these health issues I was just like, oh shit.  Um As a hypochondria when what I was experiencing was absolutely 100 real I've been having symptoms of all of these issues since I was six years old There's no reason why a young girl Should be going through all of this stuff and then you go to the doctor. Here's a pill and to put in perspective I was on about seven to eight pharmaceutical medications and one day I said Excuse my french, but this I threw them all away And that included my blood pressure mad and then I started getting myself into herbalism where I learned how to make tinctures I have a blood pressure remedy if my blood pressure is high Which by the way, I don't have high blood pressure anymore It's gone the one and only thing I still get are headaches But that's more mainly ascension or that's something releasing out of my system Yeah, and yeah, I do occasionally get a fever because I'm purging something out and I just allow it to do It's job because as you say brice the fever is actually a good thing It's it's getting rid of the old to bring in the new and so my body is upgrading And I get symptoms from the upgrading But I literally don't have medical issues anymore Yeah, that let's let's hit on that too because I know I've spoken about this as well Fevers are very common if you're going through an intense Exercise program where you're rearranging and you're moving things and you've changed your diet You're going to get a fever every now and again a low-grade fever and that's totally normal It's because your body is burning something up.   It's the tapas. We call tapas and yoga Which means heat internal heat. That's why it's necessary to You know, don't go to yoga class if you're not going to sweat Because the sweat is necessary. It needs it's part of the process It to burn the to keep to get the new get the body to flesh itself And um, and it's just such a magical thing. And so I I um, I would get I get fevers especially when I Started second series of wash long yoga I got fevers a lot because I was doing a lot of deep backbending and I had a lot of Emotional trauma that I was working through these these patterns have been set in my body that I was now having to break and rearrange and I would get fevers a lot because Stuff was having to be thrown out and tossed out in my psyche in order for the physical body to then Adjust that the physical body is only going to react to your psyche, right? and so and the psyche itself is energy and um, and so um, and so it's it's just And it's not and the thing the thing about the system too is that there is no like you just do this for a week And you're fine. This is a lifetime Of you working with your own energy. You're never going to change doses You're always going to be the dosha you are And you you're going to learn to work with it and I feel like for me at 39 years old pushing 40 I feel like i'm healthier now and look better now than I did when I was 29 pushing 30 I mean, I look a lot better than I looked a month ago My skin Oh, my hair is growing back Like literally it's still very thin don't get me wrong, but I'm noticing I will take the mirror and look in the back of my head It's coming back. Um, my youth. I feel like it's coming back. Um, you know, it's It's it's really a magical thing and I'm just like I actually get emotional because I'm I'm I am proud of myself for actually sticking it out and doing it And I wouldn't change it for the world actually I hate to like sit there and I'm like, okay I got to do my workout, but then when I'm done with it. I'm like, oh, I'm so happy I did that You know, it's it's a reward. It's not a punishment. Like you said, it's a reward It allows us to learn our body and the thing about marnie's workouts.   What's what can you do to push yourself a little bit more? And so every time I work out I try to push myself to do Because she'll give you an option You know low impact or impact and so I've always done the low impact because of my joints But now I'm finding I can do a jumping jack where I couldn't do it about a month ago You know, I'm starting to be able to put impact on my joints again And it doesn't I'm not an excruciating pain. In fact, I'm in less pain Yeah And that's why I really really like about her again guys. Her name is marnie alton Is that she she comes from She obvious it's obvious to me as someone who has highly studied the body highly studied the energetic body again I'm the only authorized Kpj y teacher in the state of george who's female. There's two other males, but I'm the only female I'm literally this is my job before youtube. This is my date. This is I still do this So this is something I'm highly trained in and marnie alton I feel like when I watch her teach that she understands the energetic body so much She also has a great understanding of the atomical body, but she's I can tell By watching her teach that she's addressing the anatomy by first going for your energetic body And the way she teaches it I just can see what she's doing And she said something I did one of her classes this morning and she said something for my hip Um in the class that I liked what she said And I was like I'm gonna have to remember this because I'm gonna say this to some of my students replace. I can't With I'm still learning Mm-hmm So I I can't I can't you know run that mile. I can't do that ashtanga practice. No, you're still learning You're still learning. I can't do that split yet. You're still learning You will get there. Yeah You're but and you got there. It's a process you you know, brice. I like when you say You can't go from kindergarten to senior year of high school in a matter of a week It doesn't happen. It takes some time and it takes hard work and it takes dedication You know, there's no easy button To get to where brice has been, you know, there's no easy button to lose weight There's no easy button to just do it. You just do it And if you mess up pick yourself back up again and then go back to it Don't just give up on it. A lot of people are like, oh, I skipped a day of working out Listen when I first started I was only at three days a week because I had to really push myself and now I feel lost if I don't do my workout It's like, you know, like you say it's your secret weapon And now it's becoming mine too And I actually enjoy the fact that I'm now working out and on days that I decide not to do bar I take my dogs on a hike I get myself out in the open and get myself some fresh air because being out in nature is Equally as important because it grounds us. I try to go outside barefoot um also to We can also mention too about One of the things about my legs. I this this just came to me brice Is I was having a lot of pain because I have venous insubstitiency So the blood was not pumping you have little veins and capillaries and and all that in your legs And so I was uh being on the floor all day medically We're working as a medical assistant I was getting a little spider veins, which I was very insecure of because I'm in my 30s for crying out loud And so what you have me doing is putting my legs up against the wall for five to ten minutes after my workout So that the lymph system or the um lymph drainage, right? Comes back, you know, the blood drains back up to my heart and everything Huge difference with my leg pains. I am not getting nearly as much pain as I used to it It's incredible what that does. So that's also important to know as well It's an inversion and so that's um and so like I was telling Stephanie We're going to get her back to doing like headstands and stuff like that Um after my practice you're up in a headstand after the practice not before After your exercise after you've been sweaty after your body's moved and you've Opened up all these values these patterns Flip yourself upside down now. I go upside down for 10 minutes in a headstand What that does is it drains everything? I'm not suggesting anybody else do that as I tell my students all the time now for Stephanie We have her legs up the wall if you're especially if you're on your cycle if you are someone that does practice headstand I'm not talking about handstand. That's different. I'm talking about headstand If you are somebody who does practice that when you're if you're a woman when you're on your cycle Put your legs up on the wall like Stephanie because you don't want to invert the uterus You want to let the uterus stay position down but the legs up the wall is what's important because the calves Your calves are your second heart They're responsible for getting that blood from the lower body back up to the heart and sometimes Again, we go back to the the the tightness in the body when there are energetically when there's blockage That blood has a hard time Getting back up to the heart and it needs to get back up to the heart so it can cleanse itself And so by flipping you're actually helping your body now what you're doing too You're also draining lymphatic system if your torso is going upside down You're also draining your kidneys draining your liver.  I tell people all the time It's also kind of like nature's facelift which seems to be more of a selling point than anything else But um, but I tell my students all the time if you're learning how to do a headstand I don't allow students to do headstands against the wall because that's going to allow for uh bad uh habits And the core needs to be strong enough to lift the legs up If so what you do when you're ready for a headstand is you just position yourself in the middle of floor If your feet don't come up, that's fine Just stay upside down with the torso for a few minutes And then eventually one day the legs will just lift up when they're ready when they're ready You know if you kick up you're going to kick up and over but they can lift up and and I tell my students all the time You know being able to do a headstand being able to put your leg behind your head It doesn't doesn't make you a better person.  Trust me There are a lot of flexible strong psychopaths out there If you're using this properly to understand your energetic body, that's what's going to change you I tell my students all the time because of the uh the practice of yoga. I teach that's it's very demanding physically and I say Listen, you're not here to perform I've seen it all in the classroom. I've literally seen it all I have been farted on I have had people sling their sweat on me multiple times I laugh and say I've been grabbed more in a mice floor room than I ever have in the bedroom So um, so you cannot impress me. There is nothing you can do in that yoga room That's going to impress me as your teacher. I've seen it all. I've done it all. I've seen it all done at all um You want to impress me you want to be good at this be a good person Use this practice to better yourself That's what's impressive And that's what we're asking you to do is to use this to better yourself because you focus so much you just said I feel healthy. I feel more alive. I feel that's what we want you to feel feel that life force inside of you Because that's your magic That's what and isn't it obvious when we're on this side of the battle battle Stephanie like everything they've done to us medically As far as like workout programs. They've tried to separate us from our bodies. It doesn't exist. Number one It's all man created. So it doesn't exist.  Oh, you're you're fine now. Yeah People a common thing too when people start doing this and we're really working on their body is um, they they'll grow a couple of inches as adults So that's like, um, they're Really common in yoga and that's because they're all this like tension Is actually elongated and getting stronger and being able to to Hold itself upright. And so it's a physical manifestation of what you're actually working on energetically. Is it a do it now? Do what? I maybe I'll make it to five feet Yeah, y'all suddenly is tiny I've never been able to I've never been able to claim five feet in my whole life. It's just four eleven and three quarters and so Yeah, four eleven My dreams just came true Yeah, it happens all I mean all the time because you're you're you're I mean look at this place This is something I do with my students and I apologize guys. Usually I I'm barefoot, but I was out with a dog earlier So this is what I do with my students when I'm working with them with leg behind the head I don't know if you guys can see this is I've never done this on a zoom before So when we're looking at our leg, we're trying to get the leg to go this way, right? Bring it instead of going this way. We've got two. We're looking at that that ball and hip And so what I do with my students is I haven't seen they can bring the ball of their foot to their ear Now if you can bring the ball of your foot all the way up to your ear Without really moving that means the light can go behind the head That means that there's their space there if the hip is positioned But then students some students will like get to right here. They're like, I can't get past it. I'm like, okay That's okay Now we know Now we know now we know that there's something in their hip now It's like now let's work it now. Let's get into it. Let's get juicy. Let's see what's interesting There's obviously something interesting inside that hip that's blocking it Let's have some fun with this and it's not going to be one in one class or one practice or one exercise Where it's going to unlock, but it's that's part of the word autonomy you having autonomy over your body My shoulders are hyper flexible Um, and I know that that can help you that can go Yeah, I have to mine pack out of my sleep To be very careful about Like to like a lot of people cannot literally go this far down their back Like you know, yeah, yeah, that's so that's hyper mobility and you got to be well, you can tell Yeah, it's it's well and from in and we and we do like there's a posture in second series Go magasana where you're you know your both both sides and your legs are doing something So that is something that it should be reachable for most people at some point to have the openness in the chest But what tends to happen for me as someone who has hypermobility is I'll overuse my shoulders instead of using my core or my chest Which is where that it should work together. And so that's something I know about my practice And that's that's because I've got I've experienced my body and I'm every day I'm moving and I'm 15 years later I I put myself on my mat for at least two hours a day Six days six to five days a week for 15 years now and I'm still learning. I'm still learning about what's happening in my body I'm still learning how to pull up more into my solar plexus how to pull up more my ribs I my students will tell you I get on these kicks where I really get fascinating one little part of the body And for the last few months I've been super fascinated with the ribs The ribs are so fascinating to me because so many adults can't move their ribs They're like stuck and ribs are joints And so especially like when you're a down dog. I'm like, can you feel Can you feel the blood moving? These you should be able to to move you should be able to feel like kids can move Children know how to move and adults don't Yeah, and so and and let's talk about soreness too. Now. Have you experienced soreness? Stephanie, yeah But when I feel sore after work out, I just that to me that clicks up You you did hard work like it's a good thing.  It means that you're rebuilding your muscles And that's what we want to constantly be doing is refilled in Re-re-refeeding and rebuilding the muscle It's interesting you bring up the whole callus thing So guitar players or string instrument players can actually relate to this even like, you know, me playing the piano and flute I've gotten calluses over the years of playing my instruments non-stop and even my cards now I had to get calluses because actually when I started to shuffle like really hardcore shuffle all the time It hurt really badly is getting paper cuts and but I don't you keep working at it and working at it and pretty soon It's like oh, okay. I can do this and it see the thing is when you would have played guitar It hurts the hands really really badly and you start to get bloody, you know Fingers with pressing down really hard on those strings But over time you build up the calluses and you build up the muscles within the fingers And then it's like a no-brainer. I mean you stop to work at it though You have to it's never ending you stop playing the guitar.  I have a scar on my finger. I have scar a callus on mine I don't know if you guys can see it on this finger right here. It's like a little lump and it's because I'm constantly writing because I'm constantly taking notes And I don't use my I don't use my laptop for notes. I take it long hand and actually I'm proud of that I'm proud of that Yeah, because it's part of my it's like it's like showing my work that I do for this channel But yeah, it's the same thing guys your body is an instrument You constantly need to be doing using it and everybody's body is different Now I'm going to say this again. It's super important I can I can I can kind of help Stephanie from afar because we're friends and I kind I know her lifestyle But for you guys if you really are serious about changing your diet to an Ayurvedic diet Or taking on a A really healthy exercise program. Well, first of all, I would say go to an Ayurvedic clinic And find a practitioner that can work you work with you individually And then from there either that practitioner can help you find the exercise suitable for you for your dosha Or you can start to explore yourself You don't want a teacher a yoga teacher or a coach or a trainer that's going to be easy on you either You want someone that's going to that's going to help you see your blind spots And that's a lot of times, you know, especially in the mice room I When I'm like yelling at a student or getting a student like come on come on you can do this It's because I see something in them, but they're not seeing for themselves Yeah, and so that's part of what that meanness is is that the the teacher or the coach or the trainer is trying to get you To break through a false belief that you have in your head that's affecting your body That's what they're trying to do So it's tough love. It's actually tough love It's but they're doing it for your best your best interest So, you know, I know Bryce wanted to touch quickly on this too to help people understand people who are balanced in their dosha When they do the test and how you're still having in balance too Um, because I was all three straight across the equal, but we figured it out by what my symptoms are. Is that correct? Yep. Yep.  So just because no one's balanced not one I don't even think yashua himself was balanced because he had a human body Right. No human bodies are always If you want to be balanced and perfect then you should just be a statue because when you're ebbing and flowing as a human There's always going to be change happening. So there's always going to be some some sort of imbalance Now one thing that's actually sometimes try dosha people are can be more complicated Because you're trying to so for me For my situation because i'm so dominantly vata and then my pitta is secondary Um, I just have to pull from kappa typically to balance myself But when you're try dosha like with stephanie situation, we had to look at her symptoms To really think I was overheating that it was my overheating that was the biggest Way brice was able to understand that I was eating too much food That was heating my system and I needed to cool off Yeah, and so that was the way that we were able to adjust it for the pitta in her That was having some issues and therefore it was causing the kappa and the vata to also be a little It's it's kind of like the the chakra system when mola dara when the base chakra is out All of them are going to be out And so and so if you are try dosha that does not mean that you're just good and that's fine everything's great No, that's not the case for any human being because we're we're all in a body That's constantly shifting and changing. We all have our own crosses to bear We all have our stuff to work through and balancing that energy is part of it Um, and so if you are try dosha now Try dosha too. Now for stephanie. She was even across throughout everything Now for me my vata is really high and then my pitta. I do have some kappa traits though Some like I have thick hair, which is kappa Very little though so little that it's not even on my like they don't even call it on my chart because it's so minimal So just when you when you do that if you see that you have points everywhere if you have one dosha Whether vata pitta or kappa that's so little so small compared to that too.  Usually we're a balance of two Um, and so or not a balance, but we're usually dominant in two So that's why i'm suggesting you go to a practitioner Now one thing I wanted to talk about too very quickly before we get off stephanie is meditation Because that was something i i've been helping you and some other people with as well And there's so many different forms of meditation guys and i know katharine I have talked i've been talking about it a lot on with katharine's channel But one thing i've noticed is a lot of people have a really hard time understanding what meditation actually is They think it's a time to like manifest or like Talk to you know like envision something or you know cultivate something, but that's not what meditation is Meditation is quieting your mind bringing your mind to a one-pointed focus All right, and so if you're if you're taking your five ten minutes of meditation And you're trying to envision something or trying to then you're actually But we're you're doing what we call escapism And escapism is is probably the worst thing you can do for a spiritual practice So I have had stephanie. So there's one form of meditation That's called japa meditation where it's a little bit more complicated than what i'm giving stephanie Because i'm not there to help her but japa meditation typically is you have a mudra like om navash vaya Or om gana kata pey na ma like you have these these mantras that you'll be given And you'll use mala beads and you there's a way you move the beads around in your hand And what that does with the mantra and with the beads is it gets gives your mind something to focus on a one-pointed focus With stephanie what i've had her doing is doing just chanting om Om and really feeling the om chance because it's a vibrational movement That's the name for god and the yoga sutra is om because it has no big getting mineral or in and it's a vibration And so after she's done her workout when her body is moved energy She's done her legs of the wall. I you just do it for like what I told you like five minutes Yep, I do three minutes om and then om shanti shanti shanti Mm-hmm. Yeah, and that's uh that comes in the minutes Yeah, so om shanti shanti shanti is um the shanti shanti shanti is uh peace peace peace and it's a past present and future Peace um is what that means in sanskrit but um, but what it does it is it brings the mind to a focus now my meditation I do the tristana method Which I do through my practice, which is something completely different But um, but that helps bring the mind to a one-pointed focus So the mind isn't going and searching any everywhere, but actually In the moment with that three to five minutes. You don't have to sit for two hours You don't have to it can be my meditation if I do a sitting meditation. It's only like 10 minutes Right, uh, just to kind of get everything into check Um, and so I wanted to put that out there as well as and if these if meditation is something you're super interested in too I would also suggest finding a teacher a meditation teacher because there's there's trend in simile meditation There's drop a meditation. There's all sorts of different meditations out there And so um, and so I would definitely if you're using meditation as a way to escape Then you're not meditating No one should be escaping either. It's you got to face things and I've been trying to escape things a lot of my life because I don't want to face it And now that i'm facing things I feel so much better and it hurts It's not an easy thing by all means again. There's no easy button for it But I've been through an in bright snow as I've been through horrific traumas in my life and I'm sure past lives So what I'm doing to go forward into this new world We're walking into and especially being there for those um We're really going to need us lay workers and inhalers out there is I'm trying to get rid of my shit now Well, I can well I can actually sit and focus on myself and and you know, we keep getting you know Eva and myself got in the cards yesterday on my show a lot of rest I mean rest does not mean don't exercise rest means resting Not overworking yourself to where you you're focusing on stuff that does not serve your highest good You're you're working on taking good care of yourself. So that is exercise.  She's tough.  No No It's about a comfortable thing. You'll ever experience your life. Yeah friction.  It's facing the music. It's not fun And then once you get through it all like the lotus flower. Yeah, you can reach some sort of enlightenment But you have to face it Like I you know, we've all gone through things So to sit there and say well, I've gone through this and this guess what We've all been through we all have a story Oh, yeah We all have a story And when we when we stop part of spirituality is not being the victim of that story anymore Yeah, it's being the victor of the story. Yeah, and and using every it's like what shanti says What shanti teaches is true is truly what yoga is teaching you is every experience you go through in your life You invited in for a reason of as an opportunity to grow and learn regardless of how hard that is to hear and I've been through helling back in my life too. Stephanie knows a lot of stuff I've been through and every opportunity That I've been through are every horrible trauma. I've been through has been an opportunity It doesn't mean I don't have side effects. I do have anxiety I do have cpt. I know that I have a cause a side effect from it, but I use that now as a time whenever I feel my Anxiety rising I changed my diet to eat more kappa. I sit with it for a while I I In the yoga sutras, uh, especially in shri swami satchitanada's commentary on the yoga sutras He makes it very clear that when these little things pop up when these this anxiety pops up or this fear pops up We're not surrendering to god at that point where we're not showing And so for me when that happens because I do have faith in god. I do have a relationship with god. I go, okay This is interesting. I feel this coming up now Why am I not surrendering? And then I start peeling back my own layers and we've talked about this a lot Stephanie I say what's I off camera. I'm like what's interesting with most people I give it if it's um abandonment if it's uh, you're going through feelings of abandon when I have been through a lot I have that too. Um, if you go through guilt shame Um and bear all sorts of horrible things traumas we go through if you keep peeling it back Where this comes from it usually comes right back down To moledara that root chakra chakra that you're not enough that I'm not enough You know and I saw something too This is I feel like I got to say this you know because I'm just kind of when I talk a lot When I think when we both do our shows we kind of just let the spirit take over and everything like that I read something that made so much sense a couple things A lot of people with that full abandonment thing. It's the fear of being alone Number one you spend more time than anybody in your whole life. Sorry. My the sun is in my eyes. I'm glowing Um, you spend more time with yourself than anybody else in the world So love yourself number one, but number two god lives within you. So you're never alone You have god within you. I love me. I love my alone time I when I get alone time I really take advantage of it because it doesn't happen that often And I'm the type of person that needs that alone time. Holy mackerel glowing from the sun I'm like looking at myself. I'm like How's your raptures are floating up? Um, but If you're alone It's a blessing Because you have the opportunity to learn Who you are you have an opportunity to get rid of what no longer serves you without any kind of Extra stuff in your ears, you know Yeah, and I think too often we want to be near people and we want to listen to what people have to say First you need to figure out. What do you have to say?   Um, also to, um, Uh, I forgot what I was going to say, but boundaries. That's another part of self. Um, you know Boundaries is a part of, you know, loving yourself as well So and that's one of the biggest things that god has been working with me because I've never had boundaries in my life So the fact that I'm putting up boundaries and I'm doing all this It's amazing the shift on how I view myself now.  Job no was it job? Yeah, it was job And I know the bible is you know, what it is, but I want to bring this story this point up The devil went to god and said I guarantee you he will not love you and love himself If I take away his wife his kids and whoever and god said Actually, he will you can test it. I don't know if the story is true, but The devil took away his wife put sores on his body took his kids the way the guy had a miserable life But he still loved himself and still had faith in god The thing is true loving of yourself you can get through anything. It's not gonna be easy But you can still get through it and having that sense of self It's having that sense of who you are so So anyway guys, I know we're coming up at an hour now But I wanted to follow up with Stephanie as it's in the beginning I have a conversation about about the doshas and about exercise and how really encourage everybody to have a different perspective Of what food is and a different perspective of what movement is and again. Yes As you said finding yourself through this and it's okay to be uncomfortable. It's okay to sweat It's okay to get your heart These are beautiful aspects of yourself as this beautiful human being and you're gonna find all these really cool movements and patterns and You know and and sides of yourself It'll probably if you're in a relationship might even spice up your relationship a little bit because you're feeling yourself, you know So your significant other might get really excited about it too, but and also too I mean Not to get on the subject or anything It also will you know, if you have absolutely nothing there as far as sex drive That helps You know if that's an issue in in your you know, some people actually have that as a problem You know and you know part of that is probably like a blood flow and or trauma That's another part of it. Which is good. Yeah. Oh, yep. Yep the the thyroid everything So when you are getting everything moving You might start feeling a little younger in the live again a little bit more sassy A little bit crazy around you a little bit more sassy Yeah, especially if you get that that pelvis moving was what I've been working on a lot guys My this past year is my pelvic floor and yeah, it does it's changed my whole abdominal system You know and so and I and I do I know I've had uh uterus issues not to get tmi, but I've had like a lot of um a lot of my uterus gets twisted a lot and so I've had um A lot of work in the past done, but just doing this and really doing it myself I think is uh, it's definitely Reignited some sparks for me as well just within myself, you know just for myself. So um, yeah So anyway guys, but let me know down in the comment section below guys This is something that I kind of thought about doing on this channel too Um, I kind of talked about with Catherine. I don't know if I've talked about with you Stephanie Um, but I really because I do believe that moving forward into the future We need to view exercises something very different than how we've been taught to view it And so I've been kind of considering like getting kind of a go pro camera and going to different movement classes like capoeira Um rock climbing and just filming and talking to people and talking about not just like their physical experiences But their spiritual experiences that they have being involved in these types of activities that are not typical Like that's why I love the bar so much because even though bar you have pure bar You have all these bar classes, but like what Marnie Alton does it's very specific to this type of energetic movement In the body and and so I've been kind of thinking about exploring that as well on this channel and just At least going around Atlanta and and and talking to different people who do different things and getting to know What their experiences are so that's something you guys want me to do is like an educational To to learn about these different things. Let me know down in the comment section below and um, You know, maybe one day if we have a better film crew Stephanie and I can go and try some of these classes and get filmed doing it So boy, I love to do the rock climbing up the wall I used to do that in gym class. I used to look forward to that. That's so much fun Oh, really? One of my good friends mark who rescues dogs with me. Um, he's also an ashtanga teacher up and authorized up in uh, Ohio So mark if you're listening. Hey, um, he's a big rock climber as well Um, and he likes it because in ashtanga we do a lot of pushing And then um and rock climbing you're doing a lot of pulling and so it gives the body a different pattern movement So, yeah, we have a big climbing gym just down the street. I can walk too So, um, so let me know if you guys want us to do that down the description box below And I'll start looking into that so all right. Thank you so much Stephanie And thank you guys for for watching and uh and being with us on this ride and we'll talk to you all soon.


Good morning, John. Last week after VidCon, I went to Disneyland and was reminded that, like most children of the 80s and 90s and probably even today, I grew up knowing that this word was Disney, but not really understanding why. Like, this is not a D, and this isn't really a Y. It's, like, giz-nap. Why? Well, John, I had some Coca-Cola and opened way too many tabs on my browser and done a lot of research. And I found this story to be very weird, so your first guess- Wow, my hair! So your first guess is that it's Walt Disney's signature, right? And yet, here's Walt signing his name on an episode of What's My Line, and that doesn't look familiar, but it turns out that Walt Disney had lots of signatures. Some of them resemble the Disney logo, some of them do not, but none of them have a D, anything like the loopy D. I can imagine this constant innovation on his signature in two ways. It may be just another manifestation of his perfectionism, which was well known, or it may be a man who was pretty obsessed with his own name. But before we go any deeper into this, we have to discuss something else very weird about the Walt Disney Pictures logo. For almost 50 years, there wasn't one. Every movie had a different treatment for the title card. There was a Disney signature that, with slight variations, showed up repeatedly, originally not as a logo, but as a signature after a statement thanking the staff in 1937's Snow White and the Seven Dwarves. That signature was last used as a title card in The Rescuers in 1977, but it was never identical to a previous usage, making it decidedly not a logo. The graphic design nerd in me feels like this must be an intentional choice because it was very contrary to how every other movie studio was doing things. It's almost as if Walt and the Walt Disney Company wanted there to be a perception that this was a person presenting it rather than a corporation. So the name is the brand, not the branding. Here is a man you can trust to make children's content. Savvy. After The Rescuers, the Fox and the Hound used a nondescript Serif font almost like a palette cleanser before 1985's The Black Cauldron launched with the now familiar Lupi D. This was one year into Michael Eisner taking over as CEO and becoming the first person to run Disney who was not a Disney family member. Now, there are a number of Disney designs that look similar to this final incarnation that I imagine will be in use until the universe ends. There's this from a 1950s Peter Pan board game which matches the Disney logo almost perfectly except for that D. And then there's this signature, an actual Walt signature that contains lots of the elements that W, the looping T, the big circle on the I, even the quick and intense return on the S. But that D, though! Where did it come from? Well, the closest I could find is in the final end card of The Aristocats, which came out in 1970. Maybe importantly, this was the first movie Walt Disney Pictures released that Walt himself did not work on. It's on the screen for like three seconds, but it's clearly as close as we get to the Lupi D before the early 80s when Disney launched its home video division using this familiar logo type as the title card. But in the box art, the Lupi D! Soon, that logo type with the Cinderella Castle and Shooting Star would become the first actual logo of Walt Disney Pictures. So somewhere, someone behind the scenes in the early 80s decided to make that little D loop into a big, bold spiral. They pushed that so far that the first letter in one of the most iconic brands of all time doesn't read clearly as a letter. Under Eyes News leadership, this clean and playful logo type became the logo type for the entire studio, and then a Disney Channel, a Disney World, and the Disney Company as a whole. And it's easy to make it read more clearly as London-based illustrator Pencil Bandit made clear with these modified versions. But that's not what they wanted. Almost all of this logo type was taken directly from one of Walt's many signatures, except for its most bold, iconic, and confusing choice. But because Disney is all about magic and magic can be lost when you find out how it's done, we probably will never find out how this happened or who did it. And maybe that's for the best. John, I'll see you on Tuesday.


Hey, good morning. Just a sec. Let me unplug my headphones. Welcome to Sunday morning coffee close to afternoon-ish on above-life channel. Hey Yeah, it's Memorial Day weekend, and I'm here live. I'm just gonna double-check the sound quality here. I just plugged in my microphone, so I want to make sure it sounds good. Welcome to above-life channel. Appreciate you being here. Oh, of course I'm gonna get my YouTube going here. Good morning-ish. Where I'm at, it's still the morning. I'm in the central time zone. I'm in the central time zone. Oh good. I can hear me. Good morning. Hi. Nice to see you. Oh, I forgot my glasses. Dang it. I'm gonna say hi to Rubble. Let's see. Hello in the chat. Hey, Anna. Nice to see you. Hello, life. Nice to see you. Okay, let's make sure that we monitor and manage the chat in a way. This chat will go on the live replay as well. So if you are watching and you don't want to be hello down the chat, let me know. I'm today, I'm gonna eat while we're talking lemon bar anyone. Would you like a lemon bar? Mmm. Very good. Mmm-hmm. I worked already this morning. I walked to the dog. I had a session with someone on the east coast and I've had coffee. I've got my coffee now also. Mmm. Cheers. Whether you're having water or tea or whether you're watching this live or not. Hello. I'm gonna have a lemon bar that is gluten-free. Got it at the local bakery yesterday when I was in town running errands and stuff and went for a walk and got some more lemon lemon bar. Mmm-hmm-hmm-hmm. Mmm. A little zest to my morning. Mmm-hmm-hmm. Like I'm pre-gaming lunch, I guess. So today, I am coming at you on Sunday of Memorial Weekend. Memorial Weekend is a holiday here in the United States. And we have like a long weekend and Mondays off and stuff and a lot of for a lot of people. Not everybody. Not everybody. Some people have to work. Mmm-hmm. Some people got to work. Today, I'm going to my brother's house for a barbecue. Hang out with the cousins. My siblings, because my sister, who might be watching, I don't know, is back in town. She now lives here once again. Mmm-hmm. Are we going to have a fun summer? Yes, yes, we are. Yes, we are. So I hope so anyway. That's the intent, right? Have a good summer. And kicking it off with a barbecue with my family is great. And my mom's in town still too, so that's nice, you know. We're going to go through this huge box that I got from the funeral my uncle gave to me for my grandma's funeral last week and huge box of pictures. Huge, like gargantuan. How fun is that going to be? The first thing I saw was a picture of my brother at my cousin's wedding. He had to been like seven or eight with my, with our cousin. And then the second one I saw was cheerleading fritters from like the 80s, the late 80s, my sister and I. Oh my God. So fun. All right, so today we're going to use this, our time together. I'm going to reflect a little back. Reminisce a bit. This podcast is called The Topic is Last Year. Because last year at this time, think about it. Stop for a minute. I'm shaking my fork at you. Think about it right now. Where were you this time last year? It was end of May 2022. Where were you? Do you remember what you did that weekend? Did you work? Did you hang out with family? Did you have kids coming home from college? Were you moving? What were your relationships like? Who was in your life? May of 2022. Who were you hanging out with? Who was close to you? Yeah, think about that for a moment. Maybe you were on a trip. Maybe you're traveling camping something. I know exactly where I was and I'm going to talk about it. And maybe it'll inspire you. Look at the sunshine today. Is that amazing?   I'm actually, if I am, it's lemon, a lemon bar. Very good. I have to. This is not an ASMR channel. Is that what they call them? Hmm. But this lemon is so good. Oh my gosh. Okay. You know, I just, I had to do that for all of us. Right? Okay. So I'm going to tell you exactly where I was at. Let me just adjust. I got a new chair. Did you notice? You don't miss my new chair? See if I can adjust it. Oh, I am as high as, I'm as low as I can go. I'm as low as I can go. Not really, but you know, I was on a walk. I went on a walk down the street here. Had my backpack, with my water, my hat, my sunglasses, and went down to the lake that I often would go to and walk and connect with nature. And it was a busy weekend, but it wasn't, it wasn't too busy. It wasn't like I expected. And what I did was, I had had a meditation that morning or the day before, maybe even it was, I can't remember the exact timing of things, but I had connected with my dad, who had told me specifically to prepare. This was in May of 2022, the end of May. And I'm like, what? And I thought, oh, okay, this makes sense because I knew that two months from then, I would be feeling into the energy of 20 years since his departure, since he died, 20 years ago at that time. And so when I heard the advice from him that said, prepare, prepare, I took my essential oils and I went down to the dock by the river. And I, because the river, the lake's on one side, there's a dam and then there's a river on the other side. So I went to the river and sat on this new cedar dock and it smells so good that cedar smell that just, oh, smelled so good. And I took out my essential oils, I put my feet in the water and let the water rush over my feet. I sat there for a while just releasing whatever I needed to release so that I could be pure and pure apart and open, trying so hard not to hang on like the rushing waters of the river to not hang on too much to things because my life had already been in a massive change cycle since the beginning of that year at the very least, more since the summer of 2021. And it was really coming into just the throws of things. And my relationships were changing drastically and and on levels that I couldn't comprehend or even fathom and things I was sensing or picking up on and yet also very much in my own just spinning, falling, free-falling state, trying so hard to just be present and just keep going, getting up each day and one foot in front of the other. And looking at the preparation of the milestone moment, I saw it as a catalyst moment, I guess you could say with my dad to really reflect back on life and how much life I've lived since that time and part of it was a gratitude. And I actually coined a phrase, I called it a healing journey. In fact, I was there and I did, I think it was on Instagram because I wasn't on TikTok at that point. I was on Instagram and on my Bridget inspired on Instagram and probably on Facebook, Bridget inspired as well. I shared that I'm on a personal healing journey and it's starting now. And it just was a spontaneous kind of thing that unfolded. And it was inspired by that message from my dad to prepare. And then to look at the summer, which I love summer so much. It's the warm weather, the sunshine, the light, the nature, the greenery, the trees, the birds, all of it and really utilize it for my personal benefit to really free myself from the confines or restrictions that I've created for myself all that time for those 20 years since. So if you're not familiar with my story, look on above life channel and look at the playlist for my psychic stories or my psychic things that make me psychic, etc. I can't think of what the exact name of the playlist is, but it's about my personal stuff about being psychic and what it means. And two years after my dad died is when I literally had a major monumental experience where I literally opened the floodgates and I hadn't even been to a psychic before. And all of a sudden I was doing mediumship. It just kind of happened this one weekend and happened after I buried my dad's ashes. Yeah, we buried the ashes two years after it was it's a whole thing. And my mom was moving out of our childhood home and she needed somebody had to take care of the ashes and I'm the oldest of the three kids. So it falls to me. I'm the one that handles that. And so it was just this whole experience. And I document it really well in my story on the video. And at that time I was married to my first husband and I had had my third child then and my life was just in such a different place. I was working in human resources. I was a human resource development coordinator at a large government organization. And I was just in such a different place. And I hadn't even grieved my dad's death really. And then all of a sudden I was talking to dead people and going on this journey of learning about myself and knowing myself in ways that I didn't know I hadn't met that part of myself. I thought it was normal. I had tons of paranormal and psychic experiences growing up. But I thought that was just normal. Not weird normal. I thought I really really thought people just that just happens to people. I didn't think it was that all that special. I just thought it was normal. And went through a time where I had to learn about myself and discover myself and really believe more in myself and trust myself very deeply because people around me didn't necessarily understand or trust my my psychic abilities my intuition the things that were happening to me. And it was just such a journey.  And I had no idea. It took two years to even start the process. Okay. So then coming full circle at this moment where I was last year in May being told by him to prepare I was like okay you're going on a journey. I'm like okay it's good thing I had my essential oils my emerald temple oils by the way my priestessing oils let me show you they're on my altar space we've got courage right here in fact let's do this together while we're talking how about we do this courage oil and put that on my feet smells a bit like a campfire so it's appropriate for this weekend because usually memorial weekend is about campfires bonfires cooking out grilling going to do that today put on my feet. And I was very aware in that moment that I was gifted I had been gifted so many tools on this journey this journey of life this 20 year journey since that defining moment and we have in our lives you guys many defining moments many life altering crossroads that we are always we are brought to this precipice where we're like afraid to make the wrong choice but yet you can't go forward anymore straight ahead and just numbingly move you have to choose even if you don't feel like you have the faculties to choose you have to choose which way to move next to go and we do the best we can please know you're not being led astray ever by your intuition by your gut sense by your knowing by your visitations from your loved ones from your angels from your spirit guides you are never led astray so if you feel like you can't trust that knowing that inner wisdom it's because we've been taught to rely more on our intellect and rational thinking which is why we overthink which is why we get anxiety which is why we are victims to that free fall of depression the truth is you can trust yourself and if it feels like it's the wrong choice you made you made the wrong choice but at the moment at the time you were fully present with all the information you had and you made the best choice you could and you are accountable for those choices in those moments and if you can forgive yourself when you don't trust yourself and your intuition and you do something anyway that you know is not right for you can you forgive yourself in those moments that's what healing is it is forgiveness when we are falling over ourselves and tripping over ourselves and not trusting our intuition that's when we need forgiveness for ourselves that's what we need is that that compassion because we make mistakes we make bad choices but the goal isn't to make the good choice or the right choice it's to make the choice that's aligned the alignment the one that honors you not a craving in a moment not a self-medicated choice a numbing choice i just got off from a session with someone and she was talking about how um she's numbed her pain so much and how she's self-medicated i said i can relate to that we can all relate to that if you can relate to that put a heart in the chat and let that heart symbolize the energetic of forgiveness of humanness of kindness to yourself of compassion to yourself of empathy inward and if you're going to fuck things up and you're going to do it over and over and over again is anybody in here an addiction or recovery congratulations on your sobriety one day at a time just today one step at a time and if you have slid and you're off path start anew forgive yourself and start today fresh if you've made choices in your relationships where you have not been in your on on integrity and you know that there's a higher purpose a greater understanding and integration of the lessons from making those choices that you know we're not the best for you you know the truth is the pain you feel right now the suffering you feel like right now the guilt you feel right now from those choices that you know we're not the best for you is because you are hurting you you hurt you in that process and we have to come to terms with that thing of how hard it is to just let go when we know it's not good for us it's not no longer an alignment when it's no longer serving and move on and integrity move ahead step ahead take the turn follow around the bend you're not going to know the answers it's not going to be clearly laid out but if you don't awaken to the recognition of these defining moments and these invitations like such I had last summer with the healing journey I went on to prepare the invitation to prepare instead of getting scared and ignoring and avoiding it I leaned in and I had some people in my life that were not happy what's this healing journey what are you doing what's wrong what's going on why don't you tell me it's like it's not about you it's not about other people it's about you the things you do do affect other people your kids your family your co-workers your job your community yes and we see that every day it plays out in the news media doesn't it or on tiktok instagram facebook etc what we do affects other people and impacts so take accountability but don't punish yourself free yourself as quickly as possible from the entanglement of guilt and shame that manipulates you and then you're susceptible to and vulnerable to other relationships that are just going to repeat the past codependent commingled co overthinking vibe that are used to and it's nobody's fault but it is your wisdom and your choice to trust in yourself and to choose yourself over anybody else any situation or circumstance over anybody else people will judge you the world will judge you you don't need to judge you stop with the self sabotage stop with the self judgment I look back in last year the summer was a hard hard time for me I you know some of you may know I lost my beloved diamond my little miniature dachshund but I also had so many ups and downs so many milestone moments crossing the threshold of the summer solstice was really hard for me in 2022 it was heart wrenching stepping into july into the fourth of july weekend and then deeper into the month to the 15th the 17th the 22nd the 23rd the 24th it was on the 13th that diamond crossed over and I was so busy online so busy doing things online that I almost missed her transition but I didn't I was present so there are these major moments that you will always remember milestone moments that you wish you could have done things differently don't stay too long in that don't get into the self pity oh poor me I'm such a victim I I just make bad choices oh it's just the way it is I just make bad choices I really know how to pick them that's an excuse the victim excuse the I am not what happened to me I am not a reflection of the relationship I'm in right now I am not a reflection of the marriage I was in previously my first one I'm not a reflection of that divorce am I do I look like that to you right now last summer was really hard for me and I was in disney world on the 20th anniversary of my dad's death I had a massive clearing the day before on the 31st of july one that I will never forget it really rocked me to my core in ways I never I wouldn't let myself believe were possible you know and then I had to face my reality and face my own judgment and question how I live my life how am I living my life how am I in what ways am I not being true to myself and what ways am I not choosing myself and then I came home from that trip to Florida with COVID yeah and that month was a massive shift here for me that was when I moved downstairs my house yeah lived there ever since and when dad said to prepare I didn't quite know what he meant I thought he meant prepare for the trip start clearing all you can it was gut wrenchingly emotional it was a turbulent time for me friendships came and went left actually I had some major relationships leave people leave my life just very dramatically shockingly and sometimes you just won't things will just won't make sense and you'll never have a piece about that there won't be that sense of closure or but you can relieve yourself from judgment about not knowing I should have known that about that person I should have known I should have known you couldn't relieve yourself from judgment from that and just let it be can't go back to the past and change it but you can go with the integration of the integrity of the truth of who you are and what you've learned about yourself what have you learned what have you learned in this healing journey what have you learned on this part of your life journey that's the point so on this Memorial Day weekend I'm having some memories I am I have a ton of gratitude for my current partner the person that is my husband right now and he might be watching right now but he has been so such a trusted companion for me and I just want to I mean say thank you because as we've been navigating the incredible turbulent times that we've been in and the choices I've made that have hurt him deeply and yet he still is in support and a loving companion for me as I move ahead in my own life now in my own next section of life as an independent sovereign person so thank you for your support I appreciate it you will always always be my bestest friend for sure so and family so now we got to get going because we are going to barbecue and gonna be with family today and then next week and stepping into June there's a lot going on for me in June so lots to be shared here on above life channel on youtube and on my new channel as well as you will see in the coming days in the coming weeks I look forward to meeting you again re-meeting you yeah so as for scheduling purposes this weekend tomorrow monday memorial day we are going to do a channeling yes we are I'm not sure exact time might be 10 might be 11 central time and of course we're going to do Tina because I saw her in the kitchen on saturday I think it was saturday no it would have been friday but I didn't have time to channel because I was doing too many things I already had stuff planned I couldn't like cancel my appointments and do it so I'm gonna do it tomorrow so put on your heels I'll see you tomorrow I hope I've inspired your spirit filled you with some hope encouraged you to love yourself a little more to be okay with wherever you're at to release some of the judgment and the self-evaluation and the critical thinking if you need help to do that grab some essential oils go for a walk in nature put your feet in the water let it clear you cleanse you bring you down to earth again once again our lives are filled with moments choose yourself choose you in loving ways over and over and over again and when it's hard when it's really hard to do that right thing which is to choose yourself and what you know is true do it have the courage to do it have the confidence to do it choose yourself you can love yourself more than anybody else ever could do that first over and over and over again as a priority so I hope we've filled you with hope today to live your life after all this is your life and you get to live it just let it thanks for being here


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