72. Roger Carberry, when he received the letter from head his mother, desiring him to tell her all that he knew of Paul Montague's connection with Mrs. Hurdle, found himself quite unable to write a reply. He endeavored to ask himself what he would do in such a case if he himself were not personally concerned. What advice in this emergency would he give to the mother and what to the daughter were he himself uninterested? He was sure that as had his cousin and asking as though he were had his brother, he would tell her that Paul Montague's entanglement with that American woman should have forbidden him at any rate for the present to offer his hand to any other lady. He thought that he knew enough of all the circumstances to be sure that such would be his decision. He had seen Mrs. Hurdle with Montague at Lowstoft and had known that they were staying together as friends at the same hotel. He knew that she had come to England with the express purpose of enforcing the fulfillment of an engagement which Montague had often acknowledged. He knew that Montague made frequent visits to her in London. He had indeed been told by Montague himself that the cost be what it might, the engagement should be and in fact had been broken off. He thoroughly believed the man's word but put no trust whatever in his firmness. And hitherto he had no reason whatever for supposing that Mrs. Hurdle had consented to be abandoned. What father, what elder brother would allow a daughter or a sister to become engaged to a man embarrassed by such difficulties. He certainly had counseled Montague to rid himself of the trammels by which he had surrounded himself. But not on that account could he think that the man in his present condition was fit to engage himself to another woman. All this was clear to Roger Carberry. But then it had been equally clear to him that he could not as a man of honor assist his own cause by telling a tale which tale had become known to him as the friend of the man against whom it would have to be told. He had resolved upon that as he left Montague and Mrs. Hurdle together upon the sands at Lowstoft. But what was he to do now? The girl whom he loved had confessed her love for the other man.  That he would hold himself as divided from the man by a perpetual and undying hostility he had determined. That his love for the woman would be equally perpetual he was quite sure. Already there were floating across his brain ideas of perpetuating his name in the person of some child of Heddes. But with a distinct understanding that he and the child's father should never see each other. No more than twenty-four hours had intervened between the receipt of Paul's letter and that from Lady Carberry. But during those four and twenty hours he had almost forgotten Mrs. Hurdle. The girl was gone from him and he thought only of his own loss and of Paul's perfidy. Then came the direct question as to which he was called upon for a direct answer. Did he know anything of facts relating to the presence of a certain Mrs. Hurdle in London which were of a nature to make it inexpedient that Heddes should accept Paul Montague as her betrothed lover? Of course he did. The facts were all familiar to him. But how was he to tell the facts? In what words was he to answer such a letter? If he told the truth as he knew it how was he to secure himself against the suspicion of telling a story against his rival in order that he might assist himself or at any rate punish the rival? As he could not trust himself to write an answer to Lady Carberry's letter he determined that he would go to London. If he must tell the story he could tell it better face to face than by any written words. So he made the journey, arrived in town late in the evening and knocked at the door in Wellbeck Street between 10 and 11 on the morning after the unfortunate meeting which took place between Sir Felix and John Crumb. The page when he opened the door looked as a page should look when the family to which he is attached is suffering from some terrible calamity. My lady had been summoned to the hospital to see Sir Felix who was as the page reported in a very bad way indeed. The page did not exactly know what had happened but supposed that Sir Felix had lost most of his limbs by this time. Yes, Miss Carberry was upstairs and would no doubt see her cousin though she too was in a very bad condition and dreadfully put about. The poor Hedda should be put about with her brother in the hospital and her lover in the toils of an abominable American woman was natural enough. What's this about Felix? asked Roger. The new trouble always has precedence over those which are of earlier date. Oh, Roger, I am so glad to see you. Felix did not come home last night. And this morning there came a man from the hospital in the city to say that he is there. What has happened to him? Somebody, somebody has beaten him, said Hedda whimpering. Then she told the story as far as she knew it. The messenger from the hospital had declared that the young man was in no danger and that none of his bones were broken.  But the messenger had gone on to say the house surgeon had seen no reason why the young gentlemen should not be taken home. And mama has gone to fetch him, said Hedda. That's John Crumb, said Roger. Hedda had never heard of John Crumb and simply stared into her cousin's face. You have not been told about John Crumb? No, you would not hear of him. Why should John Crumb beat Felix like that? They say Hedda that women are the cause of most troubles that occur in the world. The girl blushed up to her eyes as though the whole story of Felix's sin and folly had been told to her. If it be as I suppose continued Roger, John Crumb has considered himself to be aggrieved and has thus avenged himself. Did you know of him before? Yes, indeed, very well. He is a neighbor of mine and was in love with a girl with all his heart, and he would have made her his wife and have been good to her. He had a home to offer her and is an honest man with whom she would have been safe and respected and happy. Your brother saw her and though he knew the story, though he had been told by myself that this honest fellow had placed his happiness on the girl's love. He thought, well, I suppose he thought that such a pretty thing as this girl was too good for John Crumb. But Felix has been going to marry Miss Melmont.  But that seems to be all changed now. Such fine young fellows as there are now can be in love with two at once. That I fear is what Felix has thought. And now he has been punished. You know all about it then? No, I don't know. But I think it has been so. I do know that John Crumb had threatened to do this thing. And I felt sure that sooner or later he would be as good as his word. If it has been so, who is to blame him? Hedda, as she heard the story, hardly knew whether her cousin, in his manner of telling the story, was speaking of that other man, of that stranger of whom she had never heard, or of himself. He would have made her his wife and have been good to her. He had a home to offer her. He was an honest man with whom she would have been safe and respected and happy. He had looked at her while speaking, as though it were her own case of what she spoke. And then when he talked of the old fashioned way of being off with the old love before you are on with the new, had he not alluded to Paul Montague and the story of the American woman? But if so, it was not for Hedda to notice it by words. He must speak more plainly than that before she could be supposed to know that he alluded to her own condition. It is very shocking, she said. Shocking? Yes, one is shocked at it all.  It seems to me that nothing ever will be happy for us said Hedda. She was longing to be told something of Mrs. Hurdle, but she did not as yet dare to ask the question. I did not know whether to wait for your mother or not said he after a short pause. Pray wait for her if you are not very busy. I came up only to see her, but perhaps she would not wish me to be here when she brings Felix back to the house. Indeed she will. She would like you always to be here when there are troubles. Oh, Roger, I wish you could tell me. Tell you what? She has written to you? Has she not? Yes, she has written to me. And about me? Yes, about you, Hedda. And Hedda, Mr. Montague has written to me also. He told me that he would, whispered Hedda. Did he tell you my answer? No, he has told me of no answer. I have not seen him since. You do not think that it can have been very kind, do you? I also have something of the feeling of John Chrome, though I shall not attempt to show it after the same fashion. Did you not say the girl had promised to love that man? I did not say so, but she had promised. Yes, Hedda, there is a difference. The girl then was fickle and went back from her word. You never have done that. I am not justified in thinking even a hard thought of you. I have never harbored a hard thought of you. It is not you that I reproach. But he, he has been, if possible, more false than Felix. Oh, Roger, how has he been false? Still, he was not wishful to tell her the story of Mrs. Hurdle. The treachery of which he was speaking was that which he had thought had been committed by his friend towards himself. He should have left the place and never have come near you, said Roger, when he found how it was likely to be with him. He owed it to me not to take the cup of water from my lips. How was she to tell him that the cup of water never could have touched his lips? And yet, if this were the only falsehood of which he had to tell, she was bound to let him know that it was so. That horrid story of Mrs. Hurdle, she would listen to that if she could hear it. She would be all ears for that. But she could not admit that her lover had sinned in loving her. But Roger, she said, it would have been the same. You may say so. You may feel it. You may know it. I, at any rate, will not contradict you when you say that it must have been so. But he didn't feel it. He didn't know it. He was to me as a younger brother, and he has robbed me of everything. I understand, Heta, what you mean. I should never have succeeded. My happiness would have been impossible if Paul had never come home from America. I have told myself so a hundred times. But I cannot therefore forgive him.  While we both live, you must be to me the dearest creature living. My hatred to him. Oh, Roger, do not say hatred. My hostility to him can make no difference in my feeling to you. I tell you that should you become his wife, you will still be my love as to not coveting. How is a man to cease to covet that which he has always coveted? But I shall be separated from you. Should I be dying, then I should send for you.  I have no dream of happiness otherwise than as connected with you. He might have my whole property and I would work for my bread if I could only have a chance of winning you to share my toils with me. But still there was no word of Mrs. Hurdle. Roger, she said, I have given it all away now. It cannot be given twice. If he were unworthy, would your heart never change? I think never. Roger, is he unworthy? How can you trust me to answer such a question? He is my enemy. He has been ungrateful to me as one man hardly ever is to another. He has turned all my sweetness to gall, all my flowers to bitter weeds. He has choked up all my paths. And now you ask me whether he is unworthy? I cannot tell you. If you thought him worthy, you would tell me, she said, getting up and taking him by the arm. No, I will tell you nothing. Go to someone else, not to me. And he tried with gentleness, but tried ineffectually to disengage himself from her hold. Roger, if you knew him to be good, you would tell me, because you yourself are so good. Even though you hated him, you would say so. It would not be you to leave a false impression even against your enemies. I asked you, because however it may be with you, I know I can trust you. I can be nothing else to you, Roger, but I love you as a sister loves. And I come to you as a sister comes to a brother. He has my heart. Tell me, is there any reason why he should not also have my hand? Ask himself, Heta. And you will tell me nothing. You will not try to save me, though you know that I am in danger. Who is Mrs. Hurdle? Have you asked him? I had not heard her name when he parted from me. I did not even know that such a woman lived. Is it true that he has promised to marry her? Felix told me of her and told me also that you knew, but I cannot trust Felix as I would trust you. And Mama says that it is so, but Mama also bids me to ask you. There is such a woman. There is such a woman, certainly. And she has been a friend of Paul's. Whatever be the story, Heta, you shall not hear it from me. I will say neither evil nor good of the man except in regard to his conduct to myself. Send for him and ask him to tell you the story of Mrs. Hurdle as it concerns himself. I do not think he will lie. But if he lies, you will know that he is lying. And that is all? All that I can say, Heta, you asked me to be your brother, but I cannot put myself in the place of your brother. I tell you plainly that I am your lover and shall remain so. Your brother would welcome the man whom you would choose as your husband. I can never welcome any husband of yours. I think if 20 years were to pass over us and you were still Heta Carberry, I should still be your lover, though an old one. What is now to be done about Felix, Heta? What can be done? I think sometimes that it will break Mama's heart.  But what can she do? You would not have her turn him into the street. I do not know that I would not. For a time it might serve him, perhaps. Here is the cab. Here they are. Yes, you would better go down and let your mother know that I am here. They will perhaps take him up to bed so that I need not see him. Heta did as she was bid and met her mother and her brother in the hall. Felix having the full use of his arms and legs was able to descend from the cab and hurry across the pavement into the house. And then without speaking a word to his sister, hit himself in the dining room. His face was strapped up with plaster so that not a feature was visible, and both his eyes were swollen and blue. Part of his beard had been cut away and his physiognomy had altogether been so treated that even the page would hardly have known him. Roger is upstairs, Mama said, Heta in the hall. Has he heard about Felix? Has he come about that? He has heard only what I have told him. He has come because of your letter. He says that a man named Crumb did it. Then he does know who can have told him. He always knows everything. Oh, Heta, what am I to do? Where shall I go with this wretched boy? Is he hurt, Mama? Hurt? Of course he is hurt. Horribly hurt. The brute tried to kill him. They say that he will be dreadfully scarred forever. But, oh, Heta, what am I to do with him? What am I to do with myself and you? On this occasion, Roger was saved from the annoyance of any personal intercourse with his cousin Felix. The unfortunate one was made as comfortable as circumstances would permit in the parlor, and Lady Carberry then went up to her cousin in the drawing room. She had learned the truth with some fair approach to accuracy, though Sir Felix himself had, of course, lied as to every detail. There are some circumstances so distressing in themselves as to make lying almost a necessity. When a young man has behaved badly about a woman, when a young man has been beaten without returning a blow, when a young man's pleasant vices are brought directly under a mother's eyes, what can he do but lie? How could Sir Felix tell the truth about that rash encounter? But the policeman who had brought him to the hospital had told all that he knew. The man who had thrashed the baronet had been crumb, and the thrashing had been given on the score of a young woman called Ruggles. So much was known at the hospital, and so much could not be hidden by any lies which Sir Felix might tell. And when Sir Felix swore that a policeman was holding him while crumb was beating him, no one believed him. In such cases, the liar does not expect to be believed. He knows that his disgrace will be made public and only hopes to be saved from the ignominy of declaring it with his own words. What am I to do with him? Lady Carberry said to her cousin. It is no use telling me to leave him. I can't do that. I know he is bad. I know that I have done much to make him what he is. As she said this, the tears were running down her poor worn cheeks.  What am I to do with him now? This was a question which Roger found it almost impossible to answer. If he had spoken his thoughts, he would have declared that Sir Felix had reached an age at which, if a man will go headlong to destruction, he must go headlong to destruction. Thinking as he did of his cousin, he could see no possible salvation for him. Perhaps I should take him abroad, he said. Would it be better abroad than here? He would have less opportunity for vice and fewer means of running you into debt. Lady Carberry, as she turned this council in her mind, thought of all the hopes which she had indulged, her literary aspirations, her Tuesday evenings, her desire for society, her browns, her alfs and her bookers, her pleasant drawing room, and the determination which she had made that now in the afternoon of her days she would become somebody in the world. Must she give it all up and retire to the dreariness of some French town because it was no longer possible that she should live in London with such a son as hers? There seemed to be a cruelty in this beyond all cruelties that she had hitherto endured. This was harder even than those lies which had been told of her when almost in fear of her life she had run from her husband's house. But yet she must do even this if in no other way she and her son could be together. Yes, she said, I suppose it would be so. I only wish that I might die so that we're an end of it. He might go out to one of the colonies, said Roger. Yes, be sent away that he might kill himself with drink in the bush and so he got rid of. I have heard of that before. Wherever he goes, I shall go. As the reader knows Roger Carberry had not laterally held this cousin of his in much esteem. He knew her to be worldly and he thought her to be unprincipled. But now at this moment her exceeding love for the son whom she could no longer pretend to defend wiped out all her sins. He forgot the visit made to Carberry under false pretenses and the melmots and all the little tricks which he had detected in his appreciation of an affection which was pure and beautiful. If you like to let your house for a period, he said, mine is open to you. But Felix, you shall take him there. I am all alone in the world. I can make a home for myself at the cottage. It is empty now.  And turn you out of your own house. No, Roger, I cannot do that. And Roger, what has to be done about Hedda? Hedda herself had retreated, leaving Roger and her mother alone together, feeling sure that there would be questions asked and answered in her absence respecting Mrs. Hurdle, which her presence would prevent.  Hedda can be trusted to judge for herself, he said. How can you say that when she has just accepted this young man? Is it not true that he is even now living with an American woman whom he has promised to marry? No, that is not true. What is true, then? Is he not engaged to the woman? Roger hesitated a moment. I do not know that even that is true. When last he spoke to me about it he declared that the engagement was at an end. I have told Hedda to ask himself. Let her tell him that she has heard of this woman from you and that it behoves her to know the truth. I do not love him, Lady Carberry. He has no longer any place in my friendship. But I think that if Hedda asks him simply what is the nature of his connection with Mrs. Hurdle, he will tell her the truth. Roger did not again see Hedda before he left the house, nor did he see his cousin Felix at all. He had now done all that he could do by his journey up to London, and he returned on that day back to Carberry. Would it not be better for him, in spite of the protestations which he had made, to dismiss the whole family from his mind? There could be no other love for him. He must be desolate and alone. But he might then save himself from a world of cares and might gradually teach himself to live as though there were no such woman as Hedda Carberry in the world. But no, he would not allow himself to believe that this could be right. The very fact of his love made it a duty to him, made it almost the first of his duties, to watch over the interests of her he loved and of those who belonged to her. But among those so belonging he did not recognize Paul Montague. When Marie Melmont assured Sir Felix Carberry that her father had already endowed her with a large fortune which could not be taken from her without her own consent, she spoke no more than the truth. She knew of the matter almost as little as it was possible that she should know. As far as reticence on the subject was compatible with the object he had in view, Melmont had kept from her all knowledge of the details of the arrangement. But it had been necessary when the thing was done to explain or to pretend to explain much. And Marie's memory and also her intelligence had been strong beyond her father's anticipation. He was deriving of a very considerable income from a large sum of money which he had invested in foreign funds in her name and had got her to execute a power of attorney enabling him to draw this income on her behalf. This he had done fearing shipwreck in the course which he meant to run and resolved that, let circumstances go as they might, there should still be left enough to him of the money which he had realized to enable him to live in comfort and luxury should he be doomed to live in obscurity or even in infamy. He had sworn to himself solemnly that under no circumstances would he allow this money to go back into the vortex of his speculations, and hitherto he had been true to his oath. Though bankruptcy and apparent ruin might be imminent he would not bolster up his credit by the use of this money even though it might appear at the moment that the money would be sufficient for the purpose. If such a day should come then with that certain income he would make himself happy if possible or at any rate luxurious in whatever city of the world might know least of his antecedents and give him the warmest welcome on behalf of his wealth. Such had been his scheme of life but he had failed to consider various circumstances. His daughter might be untrue to him or in the event of her marriage might fail to release his property or it might be that the very money should be required to dour his daughter. Or there might come troubles on him so great that even the certainty of a future income would not enable him to bear them. Now at this present moment his mind was tortured by great anxiety. Were he to resume this property it would more than enable him to pay all that was due to the long staffs. It would do that and tide him for a time over some other difficulties. Now in regard to the long staffs themselves he certainly had no desire to depart from the rule which he had made for himself on their behalf. Were it necessary that a crash should come they would be as good creditors as any other. But then he was painfully alive to the fact that something beyond simple indebtedness was involved in that transaction. He had, with his own hand, traced Dolly Long Staff's signature on the letter which he had found in old Mr. Long Staff's drawer. He had found it in an envelope addressed by the elder Mr. Long Staff to message slow and by a while, and he had himself posted this letter in a pillar box near to his house. In the execution of this maneuver circumstances had greatly befriended him. He had become the tenant of Mr. Long Staff's house and at the same time had only been the joint tenant of Mr. Long Staff's study, so that Mr. Long Staff's papers were almost in his very hands. To pick a lock was with him an accomplishment long since learned, but his science in that line did not go so far as to enable him to replace the bolt in its receptacle. He had picked a lock, had found the letter prepared by Mr. Byte awhile with his accompanying envelope, and had then already learned enough of the domestic circumstances of the Long Staff family to feel assured that unless he could assist the expedition of this hitherto uncompleted letter by his own skill the letter would never reach its intended destination. In all this fortune had in some degree befriended him. The circumstances being as they were it was hardly possible that the forgery should be discovered. Even though the young man were to swear that the signature was not his, even though the old man were to swear that he had left that drawer properly locked with the unsigned letter in it, still there could be no evidence. People might think, people might speak, people might feel sure. And then a crash would come. But there would still be that ample fortune on which to retire and eat and drink and make merry for the rest of his days. Then there came annoying complications in his affairs. What had been so easy in reference to that letter which Dolly Long Staff never would have signed was less easy, but still feasible in another matter. Under the joint pressure of immediate need, growing ambition and increasing audacity it had been done. Then the rumors that were spread abroad, which to Melmont were serious indeed, they named at any rate in reference to Dolly Long Staff the very thing that had been done. Now if that or the like of that were brought actually home to him, if 12 jurymen could be got to say that he had done that thing, of what use then would be all that money. When that fear arose, then there arose also the question whether it might not be well to use the money to save him from such ruin if it might be so used. No doubt all danger in that Long Staff affair might be bought off by payment of the price stipulated for the pickering property. Neither would Dolly Long Staff nor Squirkham, of whom Mr. Melmont had already heard, concern himself in this matter if the money claimed were paid. But then the money would be as good as wasted by such a payment if, as he firmly believed, no sufficient evidence could be produced to prove the thing which he had done. But the complications were so many. Perhaps in his admiration for the country of his adoption Mr. Melmont had allowed himself to attach higher privileges to the British aristocracy than do in truth belong to them. He did, in his heart, believe that could he be known to all the world as the father-in-law of the eldest son of the Marquis of Old Reiki he would become not really free of the law, but almost safe from its fangs in regard to such an affair as this. He thought he could so use the family with which he would be connected as to force from it that protection which he would need. And then again, if he could tide over this bedtime, how glorious would it be to have a British Marquis for his son-in-law. Like many others he had failed altogether to inquire when the pleasure to himself would come or what would be its nature. But he did believe that such a marriage would add a charm to his life. Now he knew that Lord Nitterdale could not be got to marry his daughter without the positive assurance of absolute property. But he did think that the income which might thus be transferred with Marie, though it fell short of that which had been promised, might suffice for the time. And he had already given proof to the Marquis' lawyer that his daughter was possessed of the property in question. And indeed there was another complication which had arisen within the last few days and which had startled Mr. Melmont very much indeed. On a certain morning he had sent for Marie to the study and had told her that he should require her signature in reference to a deed. She had asked him what deed. He had replied that it would be a document regarding money and reminded her that she had signed such a deed once before telling her that it was all in the way of business. It was not necessary that she should ask any more questions as she would be wanted only to sign the paper. Then Marie astounded him not merely by showing him that she understood a great deal more of the transaction than he had thought, but also by a positive refusal to sign anything at all. The reader may understand that there had been many words between them. I know, Papa, it is that you may have the money to do what you like with. You have been so unkind to me about Sir Felix Carberry that I won't do it. If I ever marry, the money will belong to my husband. His breath almost failed him as he listened to these words. He did not know whether to approach her with threats, within treaties, or with blows. Before the interview was over he had tried all three. He had told her that he could and would put her in prison for conduct so fraudulent. He besought her not to ruin her parent by such monstrous perversity. And at last he took her by both arms and shook her violently. But Marie was quite firm. He might cut her to pieces, but she would sign nothing. I suppose you thought Sir Felix would have had the entire sum, said the father, with the riding-scorn. And he would, if he had the spirit to take it, answered Marie. This was another reason for sticking to the Nitterdale plan. He would no doubt lose the immediate income, but in doing so he would secure the marquee. He was therefore induced on weighing in his nicest balanced scales, the advantages and disadvantages, to leave the long staffs unpaid and to let Nitterdale have the money. Not that he could make up his mind to such a course with any conviction that he was doing the best for himself. The dangers on all sides were very great. But at the present moment audacity recommended itself to him and this was the boldest stroke. Marie had now said that she would accept Nitterdale or the sweep at the crossing. On Monday morning it was on the preceding Thursday that he had made his famous speech in Parliament. One of the Baidawiles had come to him in the city. He had told Mr. Baidawile that all the world knew that just at the present moment money was very tight in the city. We are not asking for payment of a commercial debt, said Mr. Baidawile, but for the price of a considerable property which you have purchased. Mr. Melmot had suggested that the characteristics of the money were the same, let the sum in question have become due how it might. Then he offered to make the payment in two bills at three and six months state with proper interest allowed. But this offer Mr. Baidawile scouted with indignation, demanding that the title deeds might be restored to them. You have no right whatever to demand the title deeds, said Melmot. You can only claim the sum due and I have already told you how I propose to pay it. Mr. Baidawile was nearly beside himself with dismay. In the whole course of his business, in all the records of the very respectable firm to which he belonged, there had never been such a thing as this. Of course Mr. Longstaff had been the person to blame, so at least all the Baidawiles declared among themselves. He had been so anxious to have dealings with the man of money that he insisted that the title deeds should be given up. But then the title deeds had not been his to surrender. The pickering is stated in the joint property of him and his son. The house had been already pulled down and now the purchaser offered bills in lieu of the purchase money. Do you mean to tell me, Mr. Melmot, that you have not got the money to pay for what you have bought and that nevertheless the title deeds have already gone out of your hands? I have property to ten times the value, twenty times the value, thirty times the value, said Melmot proudly. But you must know, I should think by this time, that a man engaged in large affairs cannot always realize such a sum as eighty thousand pounds at a day's notice. Mr. Baidawile, without using language that was absolutely vituperative, gave Mr. Melmot to understand that he thought that he and his client had been robbed and that he should at once take whatever severest steps the law put in his power. As Mr. Melmot shrugged his shoulders and made no further reply, Mr. Baidawile could only take his departure. The attorney, although he was bound to be staunched to his own client and to his own house in opposition to Mr. Squircombe, nevertheless was becoming doubtful in his own mind as to the genuineness of the letter which Dolly was so persistent in declaring that he had not signed. Mr. Longstaff himself, who was at any rate an honest man, had given it as his opinion that Dolly had not signed the letter. His son had certainly refused to sign it once, and as far as he knew could have had no opportunity of signing it since. He was all but sure that he had left the letter under lock and key in his own drawer in the room which had laterally become Melmot's study as well as his own. Then, on entering the room in Melmot's presence, their friendship at the time having already ceased, he found that his drawer was open. This same Mr. Baidawile was with him at the time. Do you mean to say that I have opened your drawer? said Mr. Melmot. Mr. Longstaff had become very red in the face and had replied by saying that he certainly made no such accusation but as certainly he had not left the drawer unlocked. He knew his own habits and was sure that he had never left that drawer open in his life. Then you must have changed the habits of your life on this occasion, said Mr. Melmot with spirit. Mr. Longstaff would trust himself to know other word within the house. But when they were out in the street together he assured the lawyer that certainly that drawer had been left locked and that to the best of his belief the letter unsigned had been left within the drawer. Mr. Baidawile could only remark that it was the most unfortunate circumstance with which he had ever been concerned. The marriage with Nitterdale would upon the whole be the best thing if it could only be accomplished. The reader must understand that though Mr. Melmot had allowed himself considerable poetical license in that statement as to property thirty times as great as the price which he ought to have paid for pickering, still there was property. The man's speculations had been so great and so wide that he did not really know what he owned or what he owed. But he did know that at the present moment he was driven very hard for large sums. His chief trust for immediate money was in Cohen loop in whose hands had really been the manipulation of the shares of the Mexican railway. He had trusted much to Cohen loop more than it had been customary with him to trust to any man. Cohen loop assured him that nothing could be done with the railway shares at the present moment. They had fallen under the panic almost to nothing. Now in the time of his trouble Melmot wanted money from the great railway but just because he wanted money the great railway was worth nothing. Cohen loop told him that he must tide over the evil hour or rather over an evil month. It was at Cohen loop's instigation that he had offered the two bills to Mr. Bidowile. Offer him again, said Cohen loop, he must take the bills sooner or later. On the Monday afternoon Melmot met Lord Nitterdale in the lobby of the house. Have you seen Marie lately? he said. Nitterdale had been assured that morning by his father's lawyer in his father's presence that if he married Miss Melmot at present he would undoubtedly become possessed of an income amounting to something over five thousand pounds a year. He had intended to get more than that and was hardly prepared to accept Marie at such a price but then there probably would be more. No doubt there was a difficulty about pickering. Melmot certainly had been raising money but this might probably be an affair of a few weeks. Melmot had declared that pickering should be made over to the young people at the marriage. His father had recommended him to get the girl to name a day. The marriage could be broken off at the last day if the property were not forthcoming.  You'll find the women at tea to a certainty between five and six said Melmot. End of chapter seventy-three. Chapter seventy-four of The Way We Live Now. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer please visit LibriVox.org. The Way We Live Now by Anthony Trollop. Chapter seventy-four. Melmot Makes a Friend Have you been thinking any more about it? Lord Nitterdale said to the girl, as soon as Madame Melmot had succeeded in leaving them alone together. I have thought ever so much more about it, said Marie. And what's the result? Oh, I'll have you. That's right, said Nitterdale, throwing himself on the sofa close to her so that he might put his arm around her waist. Wait a moment, Lord Nitterdale, she said. You might as well call me John. Then wait a moment, John. You think you might as well marry me, though you don't love me a bit. That's not true, Marie. Yes, it is. It's quite true. And I think just the same, that I might as well marry you, though I don't love you a bit. But you will. I don't know. I don't feel like it just at present. You had better know the exact truth, you know. I have told my father that I did not think you'd ever come again, but that if you did I would accept you. But I'm not going to tell any stories about it. You know who I've been in love with. But you can't be in love with him now. Why not? I can't marry him. I know that. And if he were to come to me, I don't think that I would. He has behaved bad. Have I behaved bad? Not like him. You never did care and you never said you cared. Oh, yes, I have. Not at first. You say it now because you think that I shall like it, but it makes no difference now. I don't mind about your arm being there if we are to be married. Only it's just as well for both of us to look on it as business. How very hard you are, Marie. No, I ain't. I wasn't hard just to Felix the Carberry, and so I tell you, I did love him. Surely you have found him out now. Yes, I have, said Marie. He's a poor creature. He has just been thrashed, you know, in the streets most horribly. Marie had not been told of this and started back from her lover's arms. You hadn't heard it? Who has thrashed him? I don't want to tell the story against him, but they say he has been cut about in a terrible manner. Why should anybody beat him? Did he do anything? There was a young lady in the question, Marie. A young lady? What young lady? I don't believe it, but it's nothing to me. I don't care about anything. Lord Nitterdale, not a bit.  Indeed, no, I believe he was beaten, and I believe it was about a young woman, but it signifies nothing to me, and I don't suppose it signifies much to you. Don't you think we might fix a day, Marie? I don't care the least, said Marie. The longer it's put off, the better I shall like it, that's all. Because I'm so detestable? No, you ain't detestable. I think you are a very good fellow. Only you don't care for me. But it is detestable not being able to do what one wants. It's detestable having to quarrel with everybody and never to be good friends with anybody, and it's horribly detestable having nothing on earth to give one any interest. You couldn't take any interest in me, not the least. Suppose you try. Wouldn't you like to know anything about the place where we live? It's a castle, I know. Yes, Castle Reiki, ever so many hundred years old.  I should like a new house and a new dress and a new horse every week and a new lover. Your father lives at the castle. I don't suppose we are to go and live there too. We shall be there sometimes. When shall it be? The year after next. Nonsense, Marie. Tomorrow. You wouldn't be ready. You may manage it all just as you like with papa.  If I'm to belong to you, what does it matter? No, I won't say that I love you. But if ever I do say it, you may be sure it will be true. That's more than you can say of yourself, John. So the interview was over and Nitterdale walked back to the house thinking of his lady love as far as he was able to bring his mind to any operation of thinking. He was fully determined to go on with it. As far as the girl herself was concerned, she had, in these latter days, become much more attractive to him than when he had first known her. She certainly was not a fool, and, though he could not tell himself that she was all together like a lady, still she had a manner of her own which made him think that she would be able to live with ladies. And he did think that, in spite of all she said to the contrary, she was becoming fond of him, as he certainly had become fond of her. Have you been up with the ladies? Melmont asked him. Oh yes. And what does Marie say? That you must fix the day. We'll have it very soon then, sometime next month. You'll want to get away in August. And to tell the truth, so shall I. I never was worked so hard in my life as I have been this summer. The election and that horrid dinner had something to do with it. And I don't mind telling you that I had a fearful weight on my mind in reference to money. I never had to find so many large sums in so short a time, and I'm not quite through it yet. I wonder why you gave the dinner, then. My dear boy, it was very pleasant to him to call the son of a marquee his dear boy. As regards expenditure, that was a flea-bite. Nothing that I could spend myself would have the slightest effect upon my condition one way or the other. I wish it could be the same way with me, said Nitterdell. If you chose to go into business with me instead of taking Marie's money out, it very soon would be so with you. But the burden is very great. I never know whence these panics arise or why they come or whether they go. But when they do come they are like a storm at sea. It is only the strong ships that can stand the fury of the winds and waves, and then the buffeting which a man gets leaves him only half the man he was. I've had it very hard this time. I suppose you are getting right now. Yes, I am getting right. I am not in any fear if you mean that. I don't mind telling you everything as it is settled now that you are to be Marie's husband. I know that you are honest and that if you could hurt me by repeating what I say you wouldn't do it. Certainly I would not. You see, I have no partner, nobody that is bound to know my affairs. My wife is the best woman in the world but is utterly unable to understand anything about it. Of course I can't talk freely to Marie. Cohen Loop, whom you see so much with me is all very well, in his way, but I never talk over my affairs with him. He is concerned with me and one or two things, our American Railway for instance, but he has no interest generally in my house. It is all on my own shoulders and I can tell you the weight is a little heavy. It will be the greatest comfort to me in the world if I can get you to have an interest in the matter. I don't suppose I could ever really be any good at business, said the modest young Lord. You wouldn't come and work, I suppose. I shouldn't expect that, but I should be glad to think that I could tell you how things are going on. Of course you heard all that was said just before the election. For forty-eight hours I had a very bad time of it, then. The fact was that Alf and they who were supporting him thought that they could carry the election by running me down. They were at it for a fortnight, perfectly unscrupulous as to what they said or what harm they might do me and others. I thought that very cruel. They couldn't get their man in, but they could and did have the effect of depreciating my property suddenly by nearly half a million of money. Think what that is. I don't understand how it could be done, because you don't understand how delicate a thing is credit. They persuaded a lot of men to stay away from that infernal dinner, and consequently it was spread about the town that I was ruined. The effect upon shares which I held was instantaneous and tremendous. The Mexican Railway were at a hundred and seventeen, and they fell from that in two days to something quite nominal, so that selling was out of the question. Coen Lup and I between us had about eight thousand of these shares. Think what that comes to. Nitterdale tried to calculate what it did come to, but failed altogether.  When a man is concerned, as I am, with money interests and concerned largely with them all, he is, of course, exchanging one property for another every day of his life, according as the markets go. I don't keep such a sum as that in one concern as an investment. Nobody does. Then, when a panic comes, don't you see how it hits? Will they never go up again? Oh, yes, perhaps higher than ever, but it will take time, and in the meantime I am driven to fall back upon property intended for other purposes. That's the meaning of what you hear about that place down in Sussex, which I bought from Marie. I was so driven that I was obliged to raise forty or fifty thousand wherever I could. But that will be all right in a week or two. And as for Marie's money, that, you know, is settled. He quite succeeded in making Nitterdale believe every word that he spoke, and he produced also a friendly feeling in the young man's bosom with something approaching to a desire that he might be of service to his future father-in-law. Hazily, as through a thick fog, Lord Nitterdale thought that he did see something of the troubles, as he had long seen something of the glories of commerce on an extended scale, and an idea occurred to him that it might be almost more exciting than wist or unlimited loo. He resolved, too, that whatever the man might tell him should never be divulged. He was, on this occasion, somewhat captivated by Melmont, and went away from the interview with a conviction that the financier was a big man, one with whom he could sympathize and to whom, in a certain way, he could become attached. And Melmont himself had derived positive pleasure even from a simulated confidence in his son-in-law. It had been pleasant to him to talk as though he were talking to a young friend whom he trusted. It was impossible that he could really admit anyone to a participation in his secrets. It was out of the question that he should ever allow himself to be betrayed into speaking the truth of his own affairs. Of course, every word he had said to Nitterdale had been a lie or intended to corroborate lies, but it had not been only on behalf of the lies that he had talked after this fashion. Even though his friendship with a young man were but a mock friendship, though it would too probably be turned into bitter enmity before three months had passed by, still there was a pleasure in it. The Grendals had left him since the day of the dinner, miles having sent him a letter up from the country complaining of severe illness. It was a comfort to him to have someone to whom he could speak, and he much preferred Nitterdale to Miles Grendal. This conversation took place in the smoking room. When it was over Melmont went into the house and Nitterdale strolled away to the Beargarden. The Beargarden had been opened again though with difficulty and with diminished luxury. Nor could even this be done without rigid laws as to the payment of ready money. Air Vassner had never been heard of, but the bills which Vassner had left unpaid were held to be good against the club, whereas every note of hand which he had taken from the members was left in the possession of Mr. Flat Please. Of course there was sorrow and trouble at the Beargarden, but still the institution had become so absolutely necessary to its members that it had been reopened under a new management. No one had felt this need more strongly during every hour of the day, of the day as he counted his days, rising as he did about an hour after noon and going to bed three or four hours after midnight, than did Dolly Longstaff. The Beargarden had become so much to him that he had begun to doubt whether life would be even possible without such a resort for his hours. But now the club was again open and Dolly could have his dinner and his bottle of wine with the luxury to which he was accustomed. But at this time he was almost mad with the sense of injury. Circumstances had held out to him a prospect of almost unlimited ease and indulgence. The arrangement made as to the Pickering Estate would pay all his debts, would disembarrase his own property, and would still leave him a comfortable sum in hand. Squircombe had told him that if he would stick to his terms he would surely get them. He had stuck to his terms and he had got them, and now the property was sold and the title deed's gone, and he had not received a penny. He did not know whom to be loudest in abusing. His father, the By-the-Wilds, or Mr. Melmont, and then it was said that he had signed that letter. He was very open in his manner of talking about his misfortune at the club. His father was the most obstinate old fool that ever lived. As for the By-the-Wilds he would bring an action against them. Squircombe had explained all that to him. But Melmont was the biggest rogue the world had ever produced. By George, the world, he said, must be coming to an end. There is that infernal scoundrel sitting in Parliament just as if he had not robbed me of my property and forged my name. And by George he ought to be hung. If any man ever deserved to be hung, that man deserves to be hung. This he spoke openly in the coffee room of the club and was still speaking as Nitterdale was taking his seed at one of the tables. Dolly had been dining and had turned round upon his chair so as to face some half-dozen men whom he was addressing. Nitterdale, leaving his chair, walked up to him very gently. Dolly said he do not go on in that way about Melmont when I am in the room. I have no doubt you are mistaken and so you'll find out in a day or two. You don't know Melmont. Mistaken? Dolly still continued to exclaim with a loud voice. Am I mistaken and supposing that I haven't been paid my money? I don't believe it has been owing very long. Am I mistaken and supposing that my name has been forged to a letter? I am sure you are mistaken if you think that Melmont had anything to do with it. Squircom says, never mind Squircom, we all know what are the suspicions of a fellow of that kind. I'd believe Squircom adduced sight sooner than Melmont. Look here, Dolly. I know more probably of Melmont's affairs than you do or perhaps than anybody else. If it will induce you to remain quiet for a few days and to hold your tongue here, I'll make myself responsible for the entire sum he owes you. The devil, you will. I will indeed. Nitterdale was endeavoring to speak so that only Dolly should hear him and probably nobody else did hear him, but Dolly would not lower his voice. That's out of the question, you know, he said. How could I take your money? The truth is, Nitterdale, the man is a thief and so you'll find out sooner or later. He has broken open a drawer in my father's room and forged my name to a letter. Everybody knows it. Even my governor knows it now and by the while. Before many days are over you'll find that he will be in jail for forgery. This was very unpleasant. As everyone knew that Nitterdale was either engaged or becoming engaged to Melmont's daughter. Since you will speak about it in this public way, began Nitterdale. I think it ought to be spoken about in a public way, said Dolly. I deny it as publicly. I can't say anything about the letter except that I am sure Mr. Melmont did not put your name to it. From what I understand there seems to have been some blunder between your father and his lawyer. That's true enough, said Dolly, but it doesn't excuse Melmont. As to the money there can be no more doubt that it will be paid than that I stand here. What is it? Twenty-five thousand, isn't it? Eighty thousand, the whole. Well, eighty thousand. It's impossible to suppose that such a man as Melmont shouldn't be able to raise eighty thousand pounds. Why don't he do it then? Asked Dolly. All this was very unpleasant and made the club less social than it used to be in old days. There was an attempt that night to get up a game of cards, but Nitterdale would not play because he was offended with Dolly Longstaff, and Miles Grendel was away in the country, a fugitive from the face of Melmont, and Carbury was in hiding at home with his countenance from top to bottom supported by plasters, and Montague in these days never went to the club. At the present moment he was again in Liverpool, having been summoned thither by Mr. Ram's bottom. By George, said Dolly, as he filled another pipe and ordered more brandy and water, I think everything is going to come to an end, I do indeed. I never heard of such a thing before as a man being done in this way. In then, Vosner has gone off, and it seems everybody is to pay just what he says they owed him, and now one can't even get up a game of cards. I feel as though there were no good in hoping that things would ever come right again. The opinion of the club was a good deal divided as to the matter in dispute between Lord Nitterdale and Dolly Longstaff. It was admitted by some to be very fishy. If Melmont were so great a man, why didn't he pay the money, and why should he have mortgaged the property before it was really his own? But the majority of the men thought that Dolly was wrong. As to the signature of the letter, Dolly was a man who would naturally be quite unable to say what he had and what he had not signed. And then, even into the bear garden there had filtered through the outer world, a feeling that people were not now bound to be so punctilious in the payment of money as they were a few years since. No doubt it suited Melmont to make use of the money, and therefore, as he had succeeded in getting the property into his hands, he did make use of it. But it would be forthcoming sooner or later. In this way of looking at the matter, the bear garden followed the world at large. The world at large, in spite of the terrible falling off at the emperor of China's dinner, in spite of all the rumors, in spite of the ruinous depreciation of the Mexican railway stock, and of the undoubted fact that Dolly Longstaff had not received his money, was inclined to think that Melmont would pull through. End of Chapter 74 Chapter 75 of The Way We Live Now This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. The Way We Live Now by Anthony Trollop Chapter 75 In Bruton Street Mr. Squircombe all this time was in a perfect fever of hard work and anxiety. It may be said of him that he had been quite sharp enough to perceive the whole truth. He did really know it all if he could prove that which he knew. He had extended his inquiries in the city till he had convinced himself that whatever wealth Melmont might have had 12 months ago there was not enough of it left at present to cover the liabilities. Squircombe was quite sure that Melmont was not a falling but a fallen star, perhaps not giving sufficient credence to the recuperative powers of modern commerce. Squircombe told a certain stockbroker in the city who was his specially confidential friend that Melmont was a gone coon. The stockbroker made also some few inquiries and on that evening agreed with Squircombe that Melmont was a gone coon. If such were the case it would positively be the making of Squircombe if it could be so managed that he should appear as the destroying angel of this offensive dragon. So Squircombe raged among the by-the-wiles who were unable altogether to shut their doors against him. They could not dare to bid defiance to Squircombe feeling that they had themselves blundered and feeling also that they must be careful not to seem to screen a fault by a falsehood. I suppose you give it up about the letter having been signed by my client, said Squircombe, to the elder of the two younger by-the-wiles. I give up nothing and I assert nothing, said the superior attorney. Whether the letter be genuine or not we had no reason to believe it to be otherwise. The young gentleman's signature is never very plain and this one is about as like any other as that other would be like the last. Would you let me look at it again, Mr. By-the-wile? Then the letter which had been very often inspected during the last ten days was handed to Mr. Squircombe. It's a stiff resemblance such as he never could have written had he tried it ever so. Perhaps not, Mr. Squircombe. We are not generally on the lookout for forgeries and letters from our clients or our client's sons. Just so, Mr. By-the-wile, but then Mr. Longstaff had already told you that his son would not sign the letter. How is one to know when and how and why a young man like that will change his purpose? Just so, Mr. By-the-wile, but you see, after such a declaration as that on the part of my client's father, the letter which is in itself a little irregular, perhaps? I don't know that it's irregular at all. Well, it didn't reach you in a very confirmatory manner. We'll just say that. What Mr. Longstaff can have been at to wish to give up his title deeds without getting anything for them? Excuse me, Mr. Squircombe, but that's between Mr. Longstaff and us. Just so, but as Mr. Longstaff and you have jeopardized my client's property, it is natural that I should make a few remarks. I think you'd have made a few remarks yourself, Mr. By-the-wile, if the case had been reversed. I shall bring the matter before the Lord Mayor, you know. To this, Mr. By-the-wile said not a word. And I think I understand you now that you do not intend to insist on the signature as being genuine. I say nothing about it, Mr. Squircombe. I think you'll find it very hard to prove that it's not genuine. My client's oath, Mr. By-the-wile, I'm afraid your client is not always very clear as to what he does. I don't know what you mean by that, Mr. By-the-wile. I fancy that if I were to speak in that way of your client, you would be very angry with me. Besides, what does it all amount to? Will the old gentleman say that he gave the letter into his son's hands so that, even if such a freak should have come into my client's head, he could have signed it and sent it off? If I understand, Mr. Longstaff says that he locked the letter up in a drawer in the very room which Melmont occupied and that he afterwards found the drawer open. It won't, I suppose, be alleged that my client knew so little what he was about that he broke open the drawer in order that he might get at the letter. Look at it whichever way you will. He did not sign it, Mr. By-the-wile. I have never said he did. All I say is that we had fair ground for supposing that it was his letter. I really don't know that I can say anything more. Only that we are to a certain degree in the same boat together in this matter. I won't admit even that, Mr. Squirkham. The difference being that your client by his fault has jeopardized his own interests and those of my client, while my client has not been in fault at all. I shall bring the matter forward before the Lord Mayor tomorrow, and as at present advised shall ask for an investigation with reference to a charge of fraud. I presume you will be served with a subpoena to bring the letter into court. If so, you may be sure that we shall produce it. Then Mr. Squirkham took his leave and went straight away to Mr. Bumby, a barrister well known in the city. The game was too powerful to be hunted down by Mr. Squirkham's unassisted hands. He had already seen Mr. Bumby on the matter more than once. Mr. Bumby was inclined to doubt whether it might not be better to get the money or some guarantee for the money. Mr. Bumby thought that if a bill at three months could be had for Dolly's share of the property, it might be expedient to take it. Mr. Squirkham suggested that the property itself might be recovered, no genuine sale having been made. Mr. Bumby shook his head. Title deeds give possession, Mr. Squirkham. You don't suppose that the company which has lent money to Melmont on the title deeds would have to lose it. Take the bill and if it is dishonored, run your chance of what you'll get out of the property. There must be assets. Every rap will have been made over, said Mr. Squirkham. This took place on the Monday, the day on which Melmont had offered his full confidence to his proposed Senate law. On the following Wednesday three gentlemen met together in the study in the house in Bruton Street from which it was supposed that the letter had been abstracted. There were Mr. Longstaff, the father, Dolly Longstaff, and Mr. Bidowile. The house was still in Melmont's possession and Melmont and Mr. Longstaff were no longer on friendly terms. Direct application for permission to have this meeting in this place had been formally made to Mr. Melmont and he had complied. The meeting took place at 11 o'clock, a terribly early hour. Dolly had at first hesitated as to placing himself as he thought between the fire of two enemies. And Mr. Squirkham had told him that, as the matter would probably soon be made public, he could not judiciously refuse to meet his father and the old family lawyer. Therefore Dolly had attended the great personal inconvenience to himself. By George it's hardly worth having if one is to take all this trouble about it. Dolly had said to Lord Grasslow, with whom he had fraternized since the quarrel with Nitterdale. Dolly entered the room last, and at that time neither Mr. Longstaff nor Mr. Bidowile had touched the drawer or even the table in which the letter had been deposited. Now, Mr. Longstaff, said Mr. Bidowile, perhaps you will show us where you think you put the letter. I don't think at all, said he, since the matter has been discussed the whole thing has come back upon my memory. I never signed it, said Dolly, standing with his hands in his pockets and interrupting his father. Nobody says you did, sir, rejoined the father with an angry voice. If you will condescend to listen, we may perhaps arrive at the truth. But somebody has said that I did. I've been told that Mr. Bidowile says so. No, Mr. Longstaff, no, we have never said so. We have only said that we had no reason for supposing the letter to be other than genuine. We have never gone beyond that. Nothing on earth would have made me sign it, said Dolly. Why should I have given my property up before I got my money? I never heard such a thing in my life. The father looked up at the lawyer and shook his head, testifying as to the hopelessness of his son's obscenity. Now, Mr. Longstaff continued the lawyer, let us see where you put the letter. Then the father very slowly and with much dignity of deportment opened the drawer, the second drawer from the top, and took from it a bundle of papers very carefully folded and docketed. There, said he, the letter was not placed in the envelope but on the top of it, and the two were the two first documents in the bundle. He went on to say that as far as he knew no other paper had been taken away. He was quite certain that he had left the drawer locked. He was very particular in regard to that particular drawer, and he remembered that about this time Mr. Melmont had been in the room with him when he had opened it and, as he was certain, had locked it again. At that special time there had been, he said, considerable intimacy between him and Melmont. It was then that Mr. Melmont had offered him a seat at the board of the Mexican Railway. Of course he picked the lock and stole the letter, said Dolly, it's as plain as a pike staff. It's clear enough to hang any man. I am afraid that it falls short of evidence, however strong and just may be the suspicion induced, said the lawyer. Your father for a time was not quite certain about the letter. He thought that I had signed it, said Dolly. I am quite certain now, rejoined the father angrily, a man has to collect his memory before he can be sure of anything. I am thinking you know how it would go to a jury. What I want to know is how are we to get the money, said Dolly. I should like to see him hung, of course, but I'd sooner have the money. Squircom says, Adolphus, we don't want to know here what Mr. Squircom says. I don't know why what Mr. Squircom says shouldn't be as good as what Mr. Beidowile says. Of course Squircom doesn't sound very aristocratic. Quite as much so as Beidowile, no doubt, said the lawyer, laughing. No, Squircom isn't aristocratic and Fetter Lane is a good deal lower than Lincoln's in. Nevertheless, Squircom may know what he's about. It was Squircom who was first down upon Melmont in this matter, and if it wasn't for Squircom we shouldn't know as much about it as we do at present. Squircom's name was odious to the Elder Long Staff. He believed, probably without much reason, that all his family troubles came to him from Squircom, thinking that if his son would have left his affairs in the hands of the old Slows and the old Beidowiles, money would never have been scarce with him, and that he would not have made this terrible blunder about the picturing property. In the sound of Squircom, as his son knew, was horrid to his ears. He hummed and hawed and fumed and fretted about the room, shaking his head and frowning. His son looked at him as though quite astonished at his displeasure. There's nothing more to be done here, sir, I suppose, said Dolly, putting on his hat. Nothing more, said Mr. Beidowile. It may be that I shall have to instruct counsel, and I thought it well that I should see in the presence of both of you exactly how the things stood. You speak so positively, Mr. Long Staff, that there can be no doubt? There is no doubt. And now perhaps you had better lock the drawer in our presence. Stop a moment. I might as well see whether there is any sign of violence having been used. So saying Mr. Beidowile knelt down in front of the table and began to examine the lock. This he did very carefully and satisfied himself that there was no sign of violence. Whoever has done it did it very well, said Beidowile. Of course, Melmont did it, said Dolly Long Staff, standing immediately over Beidowile's shoulder. At that moment there was a knock at the door, a very distinct and, we may say, a formal knock. There are those who knock and immediately enter without waiting for the sanction asked. Had he who knocked done so on this occasion, Mr. Beidowile would have been found still on his knees with his nose down to the level of the keyhole. But the intruder did not intrude rapidly, and the lawyer jumped onto his feet, almost upsetting Dolly with the effort. There was a pause, during which Mr. Beidowile moved away from the table, as he might have done had he been picking a lock, and then Mr. Long Staff made the stranger come in with a sepulchral voice. The door was opened and Mr. Melmont appeared. Now, Mr. Melmont's presence certainly had not been expected. It was known that it was his habit to be in the city at this hour. It was known also that he was well aware that this meeting was to be held in this room at this special hour, and he might well have surmised with what view. There was now declared hostility between both the Long Staffs and Mr. Melmont, and it certainly was supposed, by all the gentlemen concerned, that he would not have put himself out of the way to meet them on this occasion. Gentlemen, he said, perhaps you think that I am intruding at the present moment. No one said that he did not think so. The Elder Long Staff simply bowed very coldly. Mr. Beidowile stood upright and thrust his thumbs into his waistcoat pockets.  That was his mode of expressing his thorough surprise at the appearance of his debtor. I fear that you do think I am intruding, said Melmont, but I trust that what I have to say will be held to excuse me. I see, sir, he said, turning to Mr. Long Staff and glancing at the still-open drawer, that you have been examining your desk. I hope that you will be more careful in locking it than you were when you left it before. The drawer was locked when I left it. I said, Mr. Long Staff, I make no deductions and draw no conclusions, but the drawer was locked. Then I should say it must have been locked when you returned to it. No, sir, I found it open. I make no deductions and draw no conclusions, but I left it locked and I found it open. I should make a deduction and draw a conclusion, said Dolly, and that would be that somebody else had opened it. This can answer no purpose at all, said Bydowile. It was but a chance remark, said Melmont. I did not come here out of the city at very great personal inconvenience to myself to squabble about the lock of the drawer. As I was informed that you three gentlemen would be here together, I thought the opportunity a suitable one for meeting you and making you an offer about this unfortunate business. He paused a moment, but neither of the three spoke. It did occur to Dolly to ask them to wait while he should fetch Squircombe, but on second thoughts he reflected that a great deal of trouble would have to be taken and probably for no good. Mr. Bydowile, I believe, suggested Melmont and the lawyer bowed his head. If I remember rightly, I wrote to you offering to pay the money due to your clients. Squircombe is my lawyer, said Dolly. That will make no difference. It makes a deal of difference, said Dolly. I wrote, continued Melmont, offering my bills at three and six months' date. They couldn't be accepted, Mr. Melmont. I would have allowed interest. I never have had my bills refused before. You must be aware, Mr. Melmont, said the lawyer, that the sale of a property is not like an ordinary mercantile transaction in which bills are customarily given and taken. The understanding was that money should be paid in the usual way, and when we learned, as we did learn, that the property had been at once mortgaged by you, of course we became, well, I think I may be justified in saying more than suspicious. It was the most unusual proceeding. You say you have another offer to make, Mr. Melmont. Of course I have been short of money. I have had enemies whose business it has been for some time past to run down my credit, and with my credit has fallen the value of stocks in which it has been known that I have been largely interested. I tell you the truth openly. When I purchased Pickering I had no idea that the payment of such a sum of money could inconvenience me in the least. When the time came at which I should pay it, stocks were so depreciated that it was impossible to sell. Very hostile proceedings are threatened against me now. Accusations are made, false as hell. Mr. Melmont, as he spoke, raised his voice and looked round the room, but which, at the present crisis, may do me most cruel damage. I have come to say that if you will undertake to stop proceedings which have been commenced in the city, I will have fifty thousand pounds, which is the amount due to these two gentlemen, ready for payment on Friday at noon. I have taken no proceedings as yet, said by the while. It's squirkem, says Dolly. Well, sir, continued Melmont, addressing Dolly, let me assure you that if these proceedings are stayed, the money will be forthcoming. But if not, I cannot produce the money. I little thought two months ago that I should ever have to make such a statement in reference to such a sum as fifty thousand pounds, but so it is. To raise that money by Friday, I shall have to cripple my resources frightfully. It will be done at a terrible cost, but what Mr. Byte-Wile says is true. I have no right to suppose that the purchase of this property should be looked upon as an ordinary commercial transaction. The money should have been paid, and if you will now take my word, the money shall be paid. But this cannot be done if I am made to appear before the Lord Mayor tomorrow. The accusations brought against me are damnably false. I do not know with whom they have originated. Whoever did originate them, they are damnably false. But unfortunately, false as they are, in the present crisis, they may be ruinous to me. Now, gentlemen, perhaps you will give me an answer. Both the father and the lawyer looked at Dolly. Dolly was, in truth, the accuser through the mouthpiece of his attorney, Squircombe. It was at Dolly's instance that these proceedings were being taken. I, on behalf of my clients, and Mr. Byte-Wile, will consent to wait till Friday at noon. I presume, Adolphus, that you will say as much, said the elder Longstaff. Dolly Longstaff was certainly not an impressionable person, but Melmont's eloquence had moved even him. It was not that he was sorry for the man, but that at the present moment he believed him. Though he had been absolutely sure that Melmont had forged his name or caused it to be forged, and did not now go so far into the matter as to abandon that conviction, he had been talked into crediting the reasons given for Melmont's temporary distress, and also into a belief that the money would be paid on Friday. Something of the effect which Melmont's false confessions had had upon Lord Nitterdale, they now also had on Dolly Longstaff. I'll ask Squircombe, you know, he said. Of course, Mr. Squircombe will act as you instruct him, said Byte-Wile. I'll ask Squircombe. I'll go to him at once. I can't do any more than that. And upon my word, Mr. Melmont, you've given me a great deal of trouble. Melmont with a smile apologized. Then it was settled that day three should meet in that very room on Friday at noon, and that the payment should then be made. Dolly stipulating that is his father would be attended by Byte-Wile, so would he be attended by Squircombe. To this Mr. Longstaff's senior yielded with a very bad grace. End of Chapter 75 Chapter 76 of The Way We Live Now This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org The Way We Live Now by Anthony Trollop Chapter 76, Hedda and Her Lover Lady Carberry was at this time so miserable in regard to her son that she found herself unable to be active as she would otherwise have been in her endeavors to separate Paul Montague and her daughter. Roger had come up to town and given his opinion very freely at any rate with regard to Sir Felix. But Roger had immediately returned to Suffolk, and the poor mother, in want of assistance and consolation, turned naturally to Mr. Brown, who came to see her for a few minutes almost every evening. It had now become almost a part of Mr. Brown's life to see Lady Carberry once in the day. She told him of the two propositions which Roger had made. First, that she should fix her residence in some second-rate French or German town, and that Sir Felix should be made to go with her. And secondly, that she should take possession of Carberry Manor for six months. And where would Mr. Carberry go, asked Mr. Brown? He's so good that he doesn't care what he does with himself. There's a cottage on the place, he says, that he would move to. Mr. Brown shook his head. Mr. Brown did not think that an offer so quixotically generous as this should be accepted. As to the German or French town, Mr. Brown said that the plan was no doubt feasible, but he doubted whether the thing to be achieved was worth the terrible sacrifice demanded. He was inclined to think that Sir Felix should go to the colonies. That he might drink himself to death, said Lady Carberry, who now had no secrets from Mr. Brown. Sir Felix, in the meantime, was still in the doctor's hands upstairs. He had no doubt been very severely thrashed, but there was not in truth very much ailing him beyond the cuts on his face. He was, however, at the present moment better satisfied to be an invalid than to have to come out of his room and to meet the world. As to Melmont, said Mr. Brown, they say now that he is in some terrible mess which will ruin him and all who have trusted him. And the girl? It is impossible to understand it at all. Melmont was to have been summoned before the Lord Mayor today on some charge of fraud, but it was postponed, and I was told this morning that Nitterdale still means to marry the girl. I don't think anybody knows the truth about it. We shall hold our tongue about him till we really do know something. The we of whom Mr. Brown spoke was, of course, the morning breakfast table. But in all this there was nothing about Hedda. Hedda, however, thought very much of her own condition and found herself driven to take some special step by the receipt of two letters from her lover, written to her from Liverpool. They had never met since she had confessed her love to him. The first letter she did not at once answer, as she was at that moment waiting to hear what Roger Carberry would say about Mrs. Hurdle. Roger Carberry had spoken, leaving a conviction on her mind that Mrs. Hurdle was by no means a fiction, but indeed a fact very injurious to her happiness. Then Paul's second love letter had come, full of joy and love and contentment, with not a word in it which seemed to have been in the slightest degree influenced by the existence of a Mrs. Hurdle. Had there been no Mrs. Hurdle, the letter would have been all that Hedda could have desired, and she could have answered it, unless forbidden by her mother, with all a girl's usual enthusiastic affection for her chosen Lord. But it was impossible that she should now answer it in that strain, and it was equally impossible that she should leave such letters unanswered. Roger had told her to ask himself, and she now found herself constrained to bid him either come to her and answer the question, or, if he thought it better, to give her some written account of Mrs. Hurdle, so that she might know who the lady was, and whether the lady's condition did, in any way, interfere with her own happiness. So she wrote to Paul as follows, Wellbeck Street, 16 July, 18 something. My dear Paul, she found that after that which had passed between them, she could not call him my dear sir, or my dear Mr. Montague, and that it must either be sir or my dear Paul. He was dear to her, very dear, and she thought that he had not been as yet convicted of any conduct bad enough to force her to treat him as an outcast. Had there been no Mrs. Hurdle, he would have been her dearest Paul. But she made her choice, and so commenced. My dear Paul, a strange report has come round to me about a lady called Mrs. Hurdle. I have been told that she is an American lady living in London, and that she is engaged to be your wife. I cannot believe this. It is too horrid to be true. But I fear. I fear there is something true that will be very, very sad for me to hear. It was from my brother, I first heard it, who was, of course, bound to tell me anything he knew. I have talked to Mama about it, and to my cousin Roger. I am sure Roger knows it all, but he will not tell me. He said, Ask himself. And so I ask you. Of course I can write about nothing else till I have heard about this. I am sure I need not tell you that it has made me very unhappy. If you cannot come and see me at once, you had better write. I have told Mama about this letter. Then came the difficulty of the signature with the declaration, which must naturally be attached to it. After some hesitation, she subscribed herself, your affectionate friend, Henrietta Carberry. Most affectionately, your own Heta would have been the form in which she would have wished to finish the first letter she had ever written to him. Paul received it at Liverpool on the Wednesday morning, and on the Wednesday evening he was in Wellbeck Street. He had been quite aware that it had been incumbent on him to tell her the whole history of Mrs. Hurdle. He had meant to keep back almost nothing, but it had been impossible for him to do so on that one occasion on which he had pleaded his love to her successfully. Let any reader who is intelligent in such matters say whether it would have been possible for him then to have commenced the story of Mrs. Hurdle and to have told it to the bitter end. Such a story must be postponed for a second or third interview, or it may indeed be communicated by letter. When Paul was called away to Liverpool, he did consider whether he should write the story. But there are many reasons strong against such written communications. A man may desire that the woman he loves should hear the record of his folly, so that in after-days there may be nothing to detect, so that should the Mrs. Hurdle of his life at any time intrude upon his happiness he may with a clear brow an undaunted heart say to his beloved one, This is the trouble of which I spoke to you. And then he and his beloved one will be in one cause together. But he hardly wishes to supply his beloved one with a written record of his folly. And then who does not know how much tenderness a man may show to his own false by the tone of his voice, by half-spoken sentences, and by an admixture of words of love for the lady who has filled up the vacant space once occupied by the Mrs. Hurdle of his romance. But the written record must go through from beginning to end, self-accusing, thoroughly perspicuous with no sweet, soft falsehoods hidden under the half-expressed truth. The soft falsehoods, which would be sweet as the scent of violets in a personal interview, would stand in danger of being denounced as deceit added to deceit if sent in a letter. I think, therefore, that Paul Montague did quite right in hurrying up to London. He asked for Miss Carberry, and when told that Miss Henrietta was with her mother, he sent his name up and said that he would wait in the dining-room. He had thoroughly made up his mind to this course. They should know that he had come at once, but he would not, if it could be helped, make his statement in the presence of Lady Carberry. Then upstairs there was a little discussion. Had a pleaded her right to see him alone. She had done what Roger had advised and had done it with her mother's consent. Her mother might be sure that she would not again accept her lover till this story of Mrs. Hurdle had been sifted to the very bottom. But she must herself hear what her lover had to say for himself. Felix was at the time in the drawing-room and suggested that he should go down and see Paul Montague on his sister's behalf. But his mother looked at him with scorn and his sister quietly said that she would rather see Mr. Montague herself. Felix had been so cowed by circumstances that he did not say another word and Hedda left the room alone. When she entered the parlor Paul stepped forward to take her in his arms. That was a matter of course. She knew it would be so and she had prepared herself for it. Paul, she said, let me hear about all this first. She sat down at some distance from him and he found himself compelled to seat himself at some distance from her. And so you have heard of Mrs. Hurdle, he said, with a faint attempt at a smile. Yes, Felix told me and Roger evidently had heard about her. Oh yes, Roger Carberry has heard about her from the beginning, knows the whole history almost as well as I know it myself. I don't think your brother is as well informed. Perhaps not, but isn't it a story that concerns me? Certainly it's so far concerns you Hedda that you ought to know it and I trust you will believe that it was my intention to tell it you. I will believe anything that you will tell me. If so, I don't think that you will quarrel with me when you know all. I was engaged to marry Mrs. Hurdle. Is she a widow? He did not answer this at once. I suppose she must be a widow if you were going to marry her. Yes, she is a widow. She was divorced. Oh, Paul, and she's an American? Yes. And you loved her? Montague was desirous of telling his own story and did not wish to be interrogated. If you will allow me, I will tell you all from beginning to end. Oh, certainly, but I suppose you loved her if you meant to marry her you must have loved her. There was a frown upon Hedda's brow and a tone of anger in her voice which made Paul uneasy. Yes, I loved her once, but I will tell you all. Then he did tell his story with the repetition of which the reader need not be detained. Hedda listened with fair attention, not interrupting very often, though when she did interrupt the little words which she spoke were bitter enough. But she heard the story of the long journey across the American continent of the ocean journey before the end of which Paul had promised to make this woman his wife. Had she been divorced then? Asked Hedda, because I believe they get themselves divorced just when they like. Simple as the question was, he could not answer it. I could only know what she told me, he said, as he went on with his story. Then Mrs. Hurdle had gone on to Paris and he, as soon as he reached Carberry, had revealed everything to Roger. Did you give her up then? Demanded Hedda with stern severity. No, not then. He had gone back to San Francisco and he had not intended to say that the engagement had been renewed, but he was forced to acknowledge that it had not been broken off. Then he had written to her on his second return to England, and then she had appeared in London at Mrs. Pipkin's lodgings in Islington. I can hardly tell you how terrible that was to me, he said, for I had by that time become quite aware that my happiness must depend upon you. He tried the gentle soft falsehoods that should have been as sweet as violet. Perhaps they were sweet. It is odd how stern a girl can be while her heart is almost breaking with love. Hedda was very stern. But Felix says you took her to Lowestoft quite the other day. Montague had intended to tell all, almost all. There was a something about the journey to Lowestoft, which it would be impossible to make Hedda understand, and he thought that that might be omitted. It was on account of her health. Oh, on account of her health. And did you go to the play with her? I did. Was that for her health? Oh, Hedda did not speak to me like that. Can't let you understand that when she came here following me I could not desert her. I cannot understand why you deserted her at all, said Hedda.  It seems horrid to me to marry a divorced woman, a woman who just says that she was divorced. But that is because I don't understand American ways. And I am sure you must have loved her when you took her to the theatre and down to Lowestoft for her health. That was only a week ago. It was nearly three weeks, said Paul, in despair. Oh, nearly three weeks. That is not such a very long time for a gentleman to change his mind on such a matter. You were engaged to her not three weeks ago? No, Hedda, I was not engaged to her then. I suppose she thought you were when she went to Lowestoft with you. She wanted then to force me to... Oh, Hedda, it is so hard to explain, but I am sure that you understand. I do know that you do not cannot think that I have even for one moment been false to you. But why should you be false to her? Why should I step in and crush all her hopes? I can understand that Roger should think badly of her because she was divorced. Of course he would, but an engagement is an engagement. You had better go back to Mrs. Hurdle and tell her that you are quite ready to keep your promise.  I daresay you will be able to persuade her to reconsider it. When she came all the way here from San Francisco after you and when she asked you to take her to the theatre into Lowestoft because of her health she must be very much attached to you and she is waiting here no doubt on purpose for you. She is a very old friend, very old and you ought not to treat her unkindly. Goodbye, Mr. Montague. I think you had better lose no time in going back to Mrs. Hurdle. All this she said was sundry little impedimentary gurgles in her throat but without a tear and without any sign of tenderness. You don't mean to tell me, Hedda, that you are going to quarrel with me. I don't know about quarrelling. I don't wish to quarrel with anyone but of course we can't be friends when you have married Mrs. Hurdle. Nothing on earth would induce me to marry her. Of course I cannot say anything about that. When they told me this story I did not believe them. No, I hardly believed Roger when he would not tell it for he was too kind but when he would not contradict it. It seemed to be almost impossible that you should have come to me just at the very same moment for after all, Mr. Montague, nearly three weeks is a very short time. That trip to Lowstaffed couldn't have been much above a week before you came to me. What does it matter? Oh no, of course not. Nothing to you. I think I will go away now, Mr. Montague. It was very good of you to come and tell me all. It makes it so much easier. Do you mean to say that you are going to throw me over? I don't want you to throw Mrs. Hurdle over. Goodbye. Heda. No. I will not have you lay your hand upon me. Good night, Mr. Montague. And so she left him. Paul Montague was beside himself with dismay as he left the house. He had never allowed himself for a moment to believe that this affair of Mrs. Hurdle would really separate him from Heda Carberry. If she could only really know it all, there could be no such result. He had been true to her from the first moment in which he had seen her, never swerving from his love. It was to be supposed that he had loved some woman before, but as the world goes, that could not affect her. But her anger was founded on the presence of Mrs. Hurdle in London, which he would have given half his possessions to have prevented. But when she did come, was he to have refused to see her? Would Heda have wished him to be cold and cruel like that? No doubt he had behaved badly to Mrs. Hurdle, but that trouble he had overcome, and now Heda was quarreling with him, though he certainly had never behaved badly to her. He was almost angry with Heda as he walked home. Everything that he could do, he had done for her. For her sake, he had quarreled with Roger Carberry. For her sake, in order that he might be effectually free from Mrs. Hurdle, he had determined to endure the spring of the wild cat. For her sake, so he told himself, he had been content to abide by that odious railway company in order that he might, if possible, preserve an income on which to support her. And now she told him that they must part, and that only because he had not been cruelly indifferent to the unfortunate woman who had followed him from America. There was no logic in it, no reason, and as he thought, very little heart. I don't want you to throw Mrs. Hurdle over, she had said. Why should Mrs. Hurdle be anything to her? Surely she might have left Mrs. Hurdle to fight her own battles. But they were all against him. Roger Carberry, Lady Carberry, and Sir Felix, and the end of it would be that she would be forced into marriage with a man almost old enough to be her father. She could not ever really have loved him. That was the truth. She must be incapable of such love as was his own for her. True love always forgives, and here there was really so very little to forgive. Such were his thoughts as he went to bed that night. But he probably omitted to ask himself whether he would have forgiven her very readily, had he found that she had been living nearly three weeks ago in close intercourse with another lover of whom he had hitherto never even heard the name. But then, as all the world knows, there is a wide difference between young men and young women. Heta, as soon as she had dismissed her lover, went up at once to her own room. Thithers she was soon followed by her mother whose anxious ear had heard the closing of the front door. Well, what has he said? asked Lady Carberry. Heta was in tears or very nigh to tears, struggling to repress them and struggling almost successfully. You have found that what we told you about that woman was all true.  What do you mean by that, Heta? Had you better not speak to me openly? I say, Mama, that enough was true. I did not know how to speak more openly. I need not go into all the miserable story of the woman. He is like other men, I suppose. He has entangled himself with some abominable creature and then when he is tired of her thinks that he has nothing to do but to say so and to begin with somebody else. Roger Carberry is very different.  It seems to me that you do not understand in the least. I say he is not like that. Not in the least. Of course I know that he is not in the least like that. I say that he can be trusted. Of course he can be trusted. Who doubts it? And that if you would give yourself to him there would be no cause for any alarm. Mama, said Heda, jumping up, how can you talk to me in that way? As soon as one man does not suit I am to give myself to another? Oh, Mama, how can you propose it? Nothing on earth will ever induce me to be more to Roger Carberry than I am now. You have told Mr. Montague that he is not to come here again? I do not know what I told him, but he knows very well what I mean. That it is all over? Heda made no reply. Heda, I have a right to ask that, and I have a right to expect a reply. I do not say that you have hitherto behaved badly about Mr. Montague. I have not behaved badly. I have told you everything. I have done nothing that I am ashamed of. But we have now found out that he has behaved very badly. He has come here to you with unexampled treachery to your cousin Roger. I deny that, exclaimed Heda. And at the very time was almost living with this woman who says that she is divorced from her husband in America. Have you told him that you will see him no more? He understood that. If you have not told him so plainly, I must tell him. Mama, you need not trouble yourself. I have told him very plainly. Then Lady Carberry expressed herself satisfied for the moment and left her daughter to her solitude. End of chapter 76.