Letter sixty-four of Evelina. Evelina in continuation. Bristol Hotwells. September nineteenth. Yesterday morning Mrs. Selwyn received a card from Mrs. Beaumont to ask her to dine with her today, and another, to the same purpose, came to me. The invitation was accepted, and we are but just arrived from Clifton Hill. We found Mrs. Beaumont alone in the parlor. I will write to you the character of that lady in the words of our satirical friend, Mrs. Selwyn. She is an absolute court-calend of bigot, for chancing herself to be born of a noble and ancient family, she thinks proper to be of opinion, that birth and virtue are one and the same thing. She has some good qualities, but they rather originate from pride than principle, as she peaks herself upon being too high-born to be capable of an unworthy action, and thinks it encumbered upon her to support the dignity of her ancestry. Fortunately for the world in general, she has taken it into her head that condescension is the most distinguishing virtue of high life, so that the same pride of family, which renders others imperious, is with her the motive of affability, but her civility is too formal to be comfortable, and too mechanical to be flattering. That she does me the honour of so much notice is merely owing to an accident, which I am sure is very painful to her remembrance, for it so happened that I once did her some service, in regard to an apartment at Southampton, and I have since been informed that at the time she accepted my assistance, she thought that I was a woman of quality, and I make no doubt that she was miserable when she discovered to be a mere country-gentlewoman. However, her nice notions of decorum have made her load me with favours ever since, but I am not much flattered by her civilities, as I am convinced I owe them neither to attachment nor gratitude, but solely to a desire of cancelling an obligation, which she cannot brook being under, to one whose name is nowhere to be found in the court calendar. You well know, my dear sir, the delight this lady takes in giving way to her satirical humour. Mrs. Beaumont received us very graciously, though she somewhat distressed me by the questions she asked concerning my family, such as, whether I was related to the Anvils in the north, whether some of my name did not live in Lincolnshire, and many other inquiries, which much embarrassed me. The conversation next turned upon the intended marriage in her family. She treated the subject with reserve, but it was evident she disapproved Lady Louise's choice. She spoke in terms of the highest esteem of Lord Orville, calling him, in Marmontel's words, un jeune homme comme il y en a peu. I did not think this conversation very agreeably interrupted by the entrance of Mr. Lovell. Indeed, I am heartily sorry he is now at the hot wells. He made his compliments with the most obsequious respect to Mrs. Beaumont, but took no notice of any other person. In a few minutes Lady Louise Alarpent made her appearance, the same manners prevailed, for curtsying with—I hope you are well, ma'am—to Mrs. Beaumont. She passed straight forward to her seat on the sofa, where, leaning her head on her hand, she cast her languishing eyes round the room, with a vacant stare as if determined, though she looked, not to see who was in it. Mr. Lovell, presently approaching her, with reverence the most profound, hoped her ladyship was not indisposed. Mr. Lovell, cried she, raising her head, I declare I did not see you. Have you been here long? By my watch, madam," said he, only five minutes, but by your ladyship's absence, as many hours. No, no, I think of it, cried she, I am very angry with you, so go along, do, for I shall not speak to you all day.  In such cruel circumstances a day would seem in age, but in what have I been so unfortunate as to offend? Oh! you have killed me the other morning with terror! I have not yet recovered from my fright. How could you be so cruel as to drive your fate in against my lord, Merton's? Upon honor, ma'am, your ladyship does me wrong. It was all owing to the horses. There was no curbing them. I protest I suffered more than your ladyship from the terror of alarming you." Just then entered Lord Merton, stalking up to Mrs. Beaumont, to whom alone he bowed. He hoped he had not made her wait. And then, advancing to Lady Louisa, said in a careless manner, How was your ladyship this morning? Not well at all, answered she. I have been dying with the headaches ever since I got up. Indeed! cried he, with accountants wholly unmoved. I am very unhappy to hear it. But should not your ladyship have some advice? I am quite sick of advice, answered she. Mr. Ridgway has, but just left me. But he has done me no good. Nobody here knows what is the matter with me, yet they all see how indifferent I am. Your ladyship's constitution, said Mr. Lovell, is infinitely delicate. Indeed it is! cried she in a low voice. I am nerve all over. I am glad, however, said Lord Merton, that you did not take the air this morning, for coverly has been driving against me as if he was mad. He has got two of the finest spirited horses I ever saw. Pray my lord! cried she. Why did not you bring Mr. Coverly with you? He is a droll creature. I like him monstrously. Why, he promised to be here as soon as me. I suppose he'll come before dinner's over. In the midst of this trifling conversation, Lord Orville made his appearance. Oh! how different was his address! How superior did he look and move to all about him? Having paid his respects to Mrs. Beaumont and then to Mrs. Selwyn, he came up to me and said, I hope Miss Anville has not suffered from the fatigue of Monday morning. Then, turning to Lady Louisa, who seemed rather surprised at his speaking to me, he added, Give me leave, sister, to introduce Miss Anville to you. Lady Louisa, half-rising, said very coldly that she should be glad of the honour of knowing me, and then abruptly turning to Lord Merton and Mr. Lovell, continued in half-whisper, her conversation. For my part I had risen and curtsied, and now, feeling very foolish, I seated myself again. First I blushed at the unexpected politeness of Lord Orville, and immediately afterwards at the contemptuous failure of it in his sister. How can that young lady see her brother so universally admired for his manners and deportment, and yet be so unamably opposite to him in hers? But while his mind, enlarged and noble, rises superior to the little prejudices of rank, hers, feeble and unsteady, sinks beneath their influence. Lord Orville, I am sure, was hurt and displeased. He bit his lips, and, turning from her, addressed himself wholly to me, till we were summoned to dinner. Do you think I was not grateful for his attention? Yes, indeed, and every angry idea I had entertained was totally obliterated. As we were seating ourselves at the table, Mr. Covelay came into the room.  Lady Louisa screamed at this intelligence, and, looking at Lord Merton, declared she would never go into a fayton again. No! cried he. Never mind Jack Covelay, for he does not know how to drive. My lord! cried Mr. Covelay. I'll drive against you for a thousand pounds. Done! returned the other. Name your day, and we'll each choose a judge. The sooner, the better! cried Mr. Covelay. Tomorrow, if the carriage can be repaired. These enterprises, said Mrs. Selwyn, are very proper for men of rank, since it is a million to one, but both parties will be incapacitated for any better employment. For heaven's sake! cried Lady Louisa, changing colour. Don't talk so shockingly. Pray, my lord, pray, Mr. Covelay, don't alarm me in this manner. Compose yourself, Lady Louisa! said Mrs. Beaumont. The gentlemen will think better of the scheme. They are neither of them an earnest. The very mention of such a scheme, said Lady Louisa, taking out assorts, makes me tremble all over. Indeed, my lord, you have frightened me to death. I shan't eat a morsel of dinner. Permit me, said Lord Orville, to propose some other subject for the present, and we will discuss this matter another time. Pray, brother, excuse me. My lord must give me his word to drop the project, for I declare it has made me sick as death. To compromise the matter, said Lord Orville, suppose if both parties are unwilling to give up the bet, that to make the ladies easy, we change its object to something less dangerous. This proposal was so strongly seconded by all the party, that both Lord Merton and Mr. Covelay were obliged to comply with it, and it was then agreed that the affair should be finally settled in the afternoon. I shall now be entirely out of concede with Faton's again," said Mrs. Selwyn, though Lord Orville had almost reconciled me to them. My Lord Orville, cried the witty Mr. Covelay, why my Lord Orville is as careful e-gad as careful as an old woman, why I drive a one-horse cart against my Lord's faton for a hundred guineas! This sally occasioned much laughter, for Mr. Covelay I find as regarded as a man of infinite humour. Perhaps, sir," said Mrs. Selwyn, you have not discovered the reason my Lord Orville is so careful. Why, no, ma'am, I must own I never heard any particular reason for it. Why, then, sir, I'll tell it to you, and I believe you'll confess it to be very particular. His lordship's friends are not yet tired of him." Lord Orville laughed and bowed. Mr. Covelay, a little confused, turned to Lord Merton and said, No foul play, my Lord! I remember your lordship recommended me to the notice of this lady the other morning, and e-gad, I believe you've been doing me the same office to-day. Give you joy, Jack! cried Lord Merton with a loud laugh. After this the conversation turned wholly upon eating, a subject which was discussed with the utmost delight, and had I not known they were men of rank and fashion, I should have imagined that Lord Merton, Mr. Lovell, and Mr. Covelay had all been professed cooks, for they displayed so much knowledge of sources and made dishes, and of the various methods of dressing the same things, that I am persuaded they must have given much time and much study to make themselves such adepts in this art. It would be very difficult to determine whether they were most to be distinguished as gluttons or epicures, for they were at once dainty and voracious, understood the right and the wrong of every dish, and alike emptied the one and the other. I should have been quite sick of their remarks, had I not been entertained by seeing that Lord Orville, who I am sure was equally disgusted, not only read my sentiments, but by his countenance, communicated to me his own. When dinner was over Mrs. Beaumont recommended the gentleman to the care of Lord Orville, and then attended the ladies to the drawing-room. The conversation till tea-time was extremely insipid. Mrs. Selwyn reserved herself for the gentleman, Mrs. Beaumont was grave, and Lady Louisa languid. But at tea everybody revived. We were joined by the gentleman, and gate he took the place of dullness. Since I, as Mr. Lovell says, am nobody, I seated myself quietly at a window, and not very near to any body, Lord Merton, Mr. Covelay and Mr. Lovell, severally passed by me without notice, and surrounded the chair of Lady Louisa Larpent. I must only I was rather peaked at the behaviour of Mr. Lovell, as he had formally known me. It is true I most sincerely despise his phopery, yet I should be grieved to meet with contempt from any body. But I was by no means sorry to find that Lord Merton was determined not to know me before Lady Louisa, as his neglect relieved me from much embarrassment. As to Mr. Covelay, his attention or disregard were equally indifferent to me, yet altogether I feel extremely uncomfortable in finding myself considered in a light very inferior to the rest of the company. But when Lord Orville appeared, the scene changed. He came upstairs last, and seeing me sit alone, not only spoke to me directly, but drew a chair next mine, and honoured me with his entire attention. He inquired very particularly after my health, and hoped I had already found benefit from the Bristol air. How little did I imagine! said he, when I last had the pleasure of seeing you in town, that ill health would in so short a time have brought you hither. I am ashamed of myself for the satisfaction I feel at seeing you, yet how can I help it? He then inquired after the Mervyn family, and spoke of Mrs. Mervyn in terms of most just praise. She is gentle and amiable, said he, a true feminine character. Yes indeed! answered I, and a sweet daughter to say everything of her at once is just the daughter such a mother deserves. I am glad of it, said he, for both their sakes, as such near relations must always reflect credit or disgrace on each other. After this he began to speak of the beauties of Clifton, but in a few moments he was interrupted by a call from the company to discuss the affair of the wager. Lord Merton and Mr. Covelay, though they had been discoursing upon the subject some time, could not fix upon the thing that satisfied them both. When they asked the assistants of Lord Orville, he proposed that everybody present should vote something, and that the two gentlemen should draw lots, which, from the several votes, should decide the bet. We must then begin with the ladies, said Lord Orville, and applied to Mrs. Selwyn. With all my heart, answered she, with her usual readiness, and since the gentlemen are not allowed to risk their necks, suppose we decide the bet by their heads. By our heads, cried Mr. Covelay, eat, Gad, I don't understand you. I will then explain myself more fully, as I doubt not, but you are both excellent classics. Suppose, with the good of your own memories, and the entertainment and surprise of the company, the thousand-pound should fall to the share of him who can repeat by heart the longest ode of horrors. Nobody could help laughing. The two gentlemen applied to accept it, who seemed to each of them rather to loss in what manner to receive this unexpected proposal. At length Mr. Covelay, bowing low, said, Will your lordship please to begin? Devil take me, if I do," answered he, turning on his heel, and stalking to the window. Come, gentlemen," said Mrs. Selwyn, why do you hesitate? I am sure you cannot be afraid of a weak woman. Besides, if you should chance to be out, Mr. Lovell, I dare say, will have the goodness to assist you. The laugh now turned against Mr. Lovell, whose change of countenance manifested no great pleasure at the transition. Me, madam," said he, colouring. No, really, I must beg to be excused. Why so, sir? Why so, ma'am? Why, really? As to that, upon honour, ma'am, you are rather a little severe. How is it possible for a man who is in the house to study the classics?  But did you study politics at school and at the university? At the university? repeated he with an embarrassed look. Why as to that, ma'am? No, I can't say I did. But then, what with riding and so forth? Really, one has not much time, even at the university, for mere reading. But to be sure, sir, you have read the classics. Oh, yes, ma'am, yes, very often, but not very—not very lately. Which of the odes do you recommend to these gentlemen to begin with? Which of the odes? Really, ma'am, as to that, I have no very particular choice, for the way in the truth that Horace was never a very good favourite with me. In truth, I believe you," said Mrs. Selwyn, very dryly. Lord Merton, again advancing into the circle with a nod and a laugh, said, Give you joy, lovel. Lord Orville next applied to Mrs. Beaumont for her vote. It would very agreeably remind me of past times," said she, when bowing was in fashion, if the bet was to depend upon the best-made bow. He gad, my lord! cried Mr. Coveley. There I should be too hollow, for your lordship never bows at all. And pray, sir, do you—said Mrs. Selwyn. Do I, ma'am? cried he. Why only see? I protest! cried she. I should have taken that, for a shrug, if you had not told me it was a bow. My lord! cried Mr. Coveley. Let's practice! And then, most ridiculously, they pranced about the room making bows. We must now," said Lord Orville, turning to me, called upon Miss Anville. Oh, no, my lord! cried I. Indeed, I have nothing to propose. He would not, however, be refused, but urged me so much to say something, that at last, not to make him wait any longer, I ventured to propose an extemporary couplet upon some given subject. Mr. Coveley instantly made me a bow, or according to Mrs. Selwyn, a shrug, crying, Thank you, ma'am! E gad, that's my forte! Why, my lord, the fates him against you! Lady Louisa was then applied to, and everybody seemed eager to hear her opinion. I don't know what to say, I declare! cried she, effectively. Can't you pass me? By no means, said Lord Merton. Is it possible your ladyship can make so cruel a request? said Mr. Lovell. E gad! cried Mr. Coveley. If your ladyship does not help us in this dilemma, we shall be forced to return to our fatens. Oh! cried Lady Louisa, screaming, You frightful creature you! how can you be so abominable? I believe this trifling lasted near half an hour, when at length everybody being tired, it was given up, and she said she would consider against another time. Lord Orville now called upon Mr. Lovell, who, after about ten minutes to liberation, proposed with the most important face to determine the wager by who should draw the longest straw. I had much difficulty to forbear laughing at this unmeaning scheme, but saw to my great surprise not the least change of countenance in any other person. Since we came home, Mrs. Selwyn has informed me that to draw straws is a fashion of betting by no means uncommon. Good God! my dear sir, does it not seem as if money were of no value or service, since those who possess squander it away in a manner so infinitely absurd. It now only remained for Lord Orville to speak, and the attention of the company showed the expectations he had raised. Yet I believe they by no means prevented his proposal from being heard with amazement, for it was no other than that the money should be his due, who, according to the opinion of the judges, should bring the worthiest object with whom to share it. They all stared without speaking. Indeed I believe everyone, for a moment at least, experienced something like shame, from having either proposed or countenance and extravagance so useless and frivolous.  The short silence and momentary reflection into which the company was surprised, Mr. Covley was the first to dispel by saying, E'gad, my lord, your lordship has a most remarkable odd way of taking things. Faith! said the incorrigible Lord Merton. If this scheme takes, I shall fix upon my swiss to share with me, for I don't know a worthy of fellow breathing. After a few more of these attempts at wit, the two gentlemen agreed that they would settle the affair the next morning. The conversation then took a different turn, but I did not give it sufficient attention to write any account of it. Not long after, Lord Orville, resuming his seat near mine, said, Why is Miss Anville so thoughtful? I am sorry, my lord, said I, to consider myself amongst those who have so justly incurred your censure. My censure? You amaze me! Indeed, my lord, you have made me quite ashamed of myself for having given my vote so foolishly, when an opportunity offered, if, like your lordship, I had had the sense to use it, of showing some humanity. You treat this too seriously, said he, smiling, and I hardly know if you do not now mean a rebuke to me. To you, my lord! Nay, who are most deserving of it, those who adapt their conversation to the company, or those who affect to be superior to it.  I flatter myself, answer thee, that in fact your opinion and mine in this point are the same, though you condescend to comply with the humour of the company. It is for me, therefore, to apologise for so unseasonable a gravity, which but for the particular interest that I now take in the affairs of Lord Merton, I should not have been so officious to display. Such a compliment as this could not fail to reconcile me to myself, and with revived spirits, I entered into a conversation, which he supported with me till Mrs. Selwyn's carriage was announced, and we returned home. During our ride Mrs. Selwyn very much surprised me by asking, if I thought my health would now permit me to give up my morning walks to the pump-room, for the purpose of spending a week at Clifton. For this poor Mrs. Beaumont, added she, is so eager to have a discharge in full of her debt to me, that out of a mere compassion I am induced to listen to her.  I begged I might not, by any means, prevent her following her inclination, as my health was now very well established. And so, my dear sir, to-morrow we are actually to be the guests of Mrs. Beaumont. I am not much delighted at this scheme, for greatly as I am flattered by the attention of Lord Orville, it is not very comfortable to be neglected by everybody else. Besides, as I am sure I owe the particularity of his civility to a generous feeling for my situation, I cannot expect him to support it so long as a week. How often do I wish, since I am absent from you, that I was under the protection of Mrs. Mervin? It is true Mrs. Selwyn is very obliging, and in every respect treats me as an equal, but she is contented with behaving well herself, and does not with a distinguishing politeness raise and support me with others. Yet I mean not to blame her, for I know she is sincerely my friend, but the fact is, she is herself so much occupied in conversation when in company, that she has neither the leisure nor thought to attend to the silent. Well, I must take my chance, but I knew not till now how requisite our birth and fortune to detainment of respect and civility. End of Letters 64 My dear sir, under the same roof, and an inmate of the same house as Lord Orville—indeed, if this were not the case, my situation would be very disagreeable, as you will easily believe when I tell you the light in which I am generally considered. My dear, said Mrs. Selwyn, did you ever perform meat with that egregious phop, Lovell? I very readily satisfied her as to my acquaintance with him. Oh, then! said she, I am the less surprised at his ill-nature, since he has already injured you. I begged her to explain herself, and then she told me that while Lord Orville was speaking to me, Lady Louisa said to Mr. Lovell, do you know who that is? Why, Mom, no, upon honour! answered he. I can't absolutely say I do. I only know she is a kind of toad-eater. She made her first appearance in that capacity last spring when she attended Miss Mervyn, a young lady of Kent. How cruel it is, my dear sir, to be thus exposed to the impertinent suggestions of a man who was determined to do me ill offices! Lady Louisa may well despise a toad-eater. But, thank heaven, her brother has not heard, or does not credit, the mortifying appellation. Mrs. Selwyn said she would advise me to pay my court to this Mr. Lovell. For, said she, though he is malicious, he is fashionable, and may do you some harm in the great world. But I should disdain myself as much as I do him, were I capable of such duplicity as to flatter a man whom I scorn and despise. We were received by Mrs. Beaumont with great civility, and by Lord Orville with something more. As to Lady Louisa, she scarcely perceived that we were in the room. There has been company here all day, part of which I have spent most happily, for after tea, when the ladies played at cards, Lord Orville, who does not, and I, who cannot play, were consequently at her own disposal, and then his floor-chip ended into conversation with me, which lasted till suppertime. Almost insensibly, I find the constraint, the reserve I have been wont to feel in his presence, wear away, the politeness, the sweetness with which he speaks to me, restore all my natural cheerfulness, and make me almost as easy as he is himself, and them also, as, if I may judge by his looks, I am rather raised, and sunk of late in his opinion. I asked him how the bet was at last to be decided. He told me that, to his great satisfaction, the parties had been prevailed upon to lower the sum from one thousand to one hundred pounds, and that they had agreed it should be determined by a race between two old women, one of whom was to be chosen by each side, and both would be proved more than eighty years of age, though another respect strong and healthy as possible. When I expressed my surprise at this extraordinary method of spending so much money, I am charmed," said he, at the novelty of meeting with one so unhackneyed in the world, as not to be yet influenced by custom to forget the use of reason, for certain it is that the prevalence of fashion makes the greatest absurdities pass uncensured, and the mind naturally accommodates itself even to the most ridiculous improprieties, if they occur frequently. "'I should have hoped,' said I, that the humane proposal made yesterday by your lordship would have had more effect. "'Oh!' cried he, laughing, I was so far from expecting any success, that I shall think myself very fortunate if I escape the wit of Mr. Coverly in a lampoon. Yet I spoke openly, because I do not wish to conceal that I am no friend to gaming.' After this he took up the new bath-guide, and read it with me till supper-time. In our way downstairs, Lady Louisa said,— "'I thought, brother, you were engaged this evening.' "'Yes, sister,' answered he, and I have been engaged.' And he bowed to me with an air of gallantry that rather confused me. September twenty-third Almost insensibly have three days glided on since I last wrote, and so serenely that but for your absence I could not have formed a wish. My residence here is much happier than I had dared expect. The attention with which Lord Orville honours me is as uniform as it is flattering, and seems to result from a benevolence of heart that proves him as much stranger to Caprice as to pride. For as his particular civilities arose from a generous resentment at seeing me neglected, so will they, I trust, continue, as long as I shall, in any degree, deserve them. I am now not merely easy, but even gay in his presence, such as the effect of true politeness, that it banishes all restraint and embarrassment. When we walk out, he condescends to be my companion, and keeps by my side all the way we go.  At table, where he always sits next to me, he blages me by a thousand nameless attentions, while the distinguishing good-breeding with which he treats me prevents my repining at the visibly felt superiority of the rest of the company. A thousand occasional meetings could not have brought us to that degree, of social freedom which four days spent under the same roof have, insensibly being productive of. And as my only friend in this house, Mrs. Selwyn, is too much engrossed in perpetual conversation to attend much to me, Lord Orville seems to regard me as a helpless stranger, and as such to think me entitled to his good offices in protection. Indeed, my dear sir, I have reason to hope that the depreciating opinion he formerly entertained of me is succeeded by one infinitely more partial. It may be that I flatter myself, but yet his looks, his attentions, his desires of drawing me into conversation, and his solicitude to oblige me all conspire to make me hope I do not. In short, my dearest sir, these last four happy days would repay me for months of sorrow and pain. End of LETTER sixty-five This morning I came downstairs very early, and supposing that the family would not assemble for some time, I strolled out, purposing to take a long walk, in the manner I was wont to do at Berry Hill before breakfast.  Very much surprised, I curtsied, and stopped till he came up to me. He was still in mourning, but looked better than when I saw him last, though he had the same air of melancholy which so much struck me at first sight of him. Addressing me with the utmost respect— I am happy, madam, said he, to have met with you so soon. I came to Bristol but yesterday, and have had no small difficulty in tracing you to Clifton. Did you know, then, of my being here? I did, madam. The sole motive of my journey was to see you. I have been to Berry Hill, and there I have had my intelligence, and at the same time the unwelcome information of your ill health. Good God! Sir! and can you possibly have taken so much trouble? Trouble? Oh, madam! Could there be any to return you the moment I had the power, my personal acknowledgments for your goodness? I then inquired after Madame Duvall and the Snow Hill family. He told me they were all well, and that Madame Duvall proposed soon returning to Paris. When I congratulated him on looking better— It is yourself, madam, said he, you should congratulate, for to your humanity alone it may now be owing that I exist at all. He then told me that his affairs were now in a less desperate situation, and that he hoped, by the assistance of time and reason, to accommodate his mind to a more cheerful submission to his fate. The interest you so generously took in my affliction, added he, assures me you will not be displeased to hear of my better fortune. I was therefore eager to acquaint you with it. He then told me that his friend, the moment he had received his letter, quitted Paris, and flew to give him his personal assistance and consolation. With a heavy heart he acknowledged he accepted it. But yet, he added, I have accepted it, and therefore is bound equally by duty and honour, my first step was to hasten to the benefactress of my distress, and to return, presenting me something in a paper. The only part of my obligations that can be returned, for the rest I have nothing but my gratitude to offer, and must always be contented to consider myself her debtor. I congratulated him most sincerely upon his dawning prosperity, but begged he would not deprive me of the pleasure of being his friend, and declined receiving the money till his affairs were more settled. While this point was an agitation, I heard Lord Orville's voice inquiring of the gardener if he had seen me. I immediately opened the garden gate, and his lordship, advancing to me with quickness, said, Good God! Miss Anville, have you been out alone? Breakfast has been ready some time, and I have been round the garden in search of you. Your lordship has been very good, said I, but I hope you have not waited. Not waited! repeated he, smiling. Do you think we could sit down quietly to breakfast with the idea that you would run away from us? But come! Offering to hand me. If we do not return, they will suppose I am run away too, and they very naturally may, as they know the attraction of the magnet that draws me. I will come, my lord," said I, rather embarrassed, in two minutes. Then, turning to Mr. McCartney with yet more embarrassment, I wished him good morning. He advanced towards the garden with the paper still in his hand. No, no! cried I, some other time. May I, then, madam, have the honour of seeing you again? I did not dare take the liberty of inviting anybody to the house of Mrs. Beaumont, nor yet had I the presence of mind to make an excuse, and therefore, not knowing how to refuse him, I said, Perhaps you may be this way again tomorrow morning, and I believe I shall walk out before breakfast. He bowed, and went away. While I, turning again to Lord Orville, saw his countenance so much altered, that I was frightened at what I had so hastily said. He did not again offer me his hand, but walked silent and slow by my side. Good heaven, thought I, what may he not suppose from this adventure? May he not, by my desire of meeting Mr. McCartney tomorrow, imagine it was by design I walked out to meet him to-day. Tormented by this apprehension, I was determined to avail myself of the freedom which his behaviour, since I came hither, has encouraged, and since he would not ask any questions, begin an explanation myself. I therefore slackened my pace to gain time, and then said, Was not your lordship surprised to see me speaking with a stranger? A stranger? repeated he. Is it possible that gentleman can be a stranger to you? No, my lord! said I, stammering. Not to me, but only it might look. He might seem. No, believe me! said he, with a forced smile. I could never suppose Miss Anville would make an appointment with a stranger. An appointment, my lord! repeated I, colouring violently. Pardon me, madam! answered he. But I thought I had heard one. I was so much confounded that I could not speak. Yet finding he walked quietly on, I could not endure he should make his own interpretation of my silence. And therefore, as soon as I recovered from my surprise, I said, Indeed, my lord, you are much mistaken. Mr. McCartney had particular business with me, and I could not—I knew not—how to refuse seeing him. But indeed, my lord, I had not—he had not—I stammered so terribly that I could not go on. I am very sorry, said he gravely, that I have been so unfortunate as to distress you, but I should not have followed you had I not imagined you were merely walked out for the air. And so I was, cried I, eagerly. Indeed, my lord, I was. My meeting with Mr. McCartney was quite accidental, and if your lordship thinks there is any impropriety in my seeing him to-morrow, I am ready to give up that intention. If I think—said he in a tone of surprise—surely Miss Anville cannot leave the arbitration of a point so delicate to one who is ignorant of all the circumstances which attend it. If, said I, it was worth your lordship's time to hear them, you should not be ignorant of the circumstances which attend it. The sweetness of Miss Anville's disposition—said he in a softened voice—I have long admired, and the offer of a communication which does me so much honour is too grateful to me not to be eagerly caught at. Just then Mrs. Selwyn opened the parlor window, and our conversation ended. I was rallied upon my passion for solitary walking, but no questions were asked me. When breakfast was over, I hoped to have had some opportunity of speaking with Lord Orville. But Lord Merton and Mr. Coveley came in, and insisted upon his opinion of the spot they had fixed upon for the old woman's race. The ladies declared they would be of the party, and accordingly we all went. The race is to be run in Mrs. Beaumont's garden. The two gentlemen are as anxious as if their joint lives depended upon it. They have at length fixed upon objects, but have found great difficulty in persuading them to practice running in order to try their strength. This grand affair is to be decided next Thursday. When we returned to the house, the entrance of more company still prevented my having any conversation with Lord Orville. I was very much chagrined, as I knew he was engaged at the Hot Wheels in the afternoon. Seeing therefore no probability of speaking to him before the time of my meeting Mr. McCartney arrived, I determined that, rather than risk his ill opinion, I would leave Mr. McCartney to his own suggestions. Yet, when I reflected upon his peculiar situation, his poverty, his sadness, and more than all the rest, the idea I knew he entertained of what he caused his obligations to me, I could not resolve upon a breach of promise, which might be attributed to causes of all the others the most offensive to one whom misfortune has made extremely suspicious, of slights and contempt. After the most uneasy consideration, I at length determined upon writing an excuse, which would, at once, save me from either meeting or affronting him. I therefore begged Mrs. Selwyn's leave to send her man to the Hot Wheels, which she instantly granted, and then I wrote the following note. To Mr. McCartney. Sir, as it will not be in my power to walk out to-morrow morning, I would by no means give you the trouble of coming to Clifton. I hope, however, to have the pleasure of seeing you before you quit Bristol. I am, sir, your obedient servant, Everliner Anvil. I desired the servant to inquire at the pump-room where Mr. McCartney lived, and return to the parlour. As soon as the company dispersed, the ladies retired to dress. I then, unexpectedly, found myself alone with Lord Orville, who the moment I rose to follow Mrs. Selwyn, advanced to me and said, Will Miss Anvil pardon my impatience, if I remind her of the promise she was so good as to make me this morning. I stopped, and would have returned to my seat, but before I had time, the servants came to lay the cloth. He retreated, and went towards the window, and while I was considering in what manner to begin, I could not help asking myself what right I had to communicate the affairs of Mr. McCartney, and I doubted whether to clear myself from one act of impudence I had not committed another. Distressed by this reflection, I thought it best to quit the room, and give myself some time for consideration before I spoke, and therefore only saying I must hasten to dress, I ran upstairs, rather abruptly I own, and so I fear Lord Orville must think. Yet what could I do? Unused to the situations in which I find myself, and embarrassed by the slightest difficulties, I seldom till too late discover how I ought to act. Just as we were all assembled to dinner, Mrs. Selwyn's man, coming into the parlour, presented to me a letter and said, I can't find out, Mr. McCartney, madam, but the post-office people will let you know if they hear of him. I was extremely ashamed of this public message, and meeting the eyes of Lord Orville, which were earnestly fixed on me, my confusion redoubled, and I knew not which way to look. All dinner-time he was as silent as myself, and the moment it was in my power I left the table and went to my own room. Mrs. Selwyn presently followed me, and her questions obliged me to own almost all the particulars of my acquaintance with Mr. McCartney, in order to excuse my writing to him. She said it was a most romantic affair, and spoke her sentiments with great severity, declaring that she had no doubt that he was an adventurer and an impostor. And now, my dear sir, I am totally at a loss what I ought to do. The more I reflect, the more sensible I am of the utter impropriety, and a treachery of revealing the story and publishing the misfortunes and poverty of Mr. McCartney, who has an undoubted right to my secrecy and discretion, and whose letter charges me to regard his communication as sacred. And yet, the appearance of mystery, perhaps something worse, which this affair must have to Lord Orville, his seriousness, and the promise I have made him, are inducements scarce to be resisted for trusting him with the openness he has reason to expect from me. I am equally distressed to whether or not I should see Mr. McCartney to-morrow morning. O sir, could I now be enlightened by your counsel, from what anxiety and perplexity should I be relieved? But now, I ought not to betray Mr. McCartney, and I will not forfeit a confidence which would never have been reposed in me, but from a reliance upon my honour, which I should blush to find myself unworthy of. Desirous as I am of the good opinion of Lord Orville, I will endeavour to act as if I was guided by your advice, and making it my sole aim to deserve it, leave to time and to fate my success or disappointment. Since I have formed this resolution, my mind is more at ease, but I will not finish my letter till after the affair is decided. September 25th I rose very early this morning, and after a thousand different plans, not being able to resolve upon giving poor Mr. McCartney leave to suppose I neglected him, I thought it encumbered upon me to keep my word, since he had not received my letter. I therefore determined to make my own apologies, not to stay with him two minutes, and to excuse myself from meeting him any more. Yet uncertain whether I was wrong or right, it was with fear and trembling that I opened the garden gate, then, of my feelings, when the first object I saw was Lord Orville. He, too, looking extremely disconcerted, and said in a hesitating manner,—Pardon me, madam, I did not intend—I did not imagine he would have been here so soon, or—or I would not have come. And then, with a hasty bow, he passed to me, and proceeded to the garden. I was scarce able to stand, so greatly did I feel myself shocked, but upon my saying, almost involuntary,—Oh, my Lord!" he turned back, and after a short pause said,—Did you speak to me, madam? I could not immediately answer. I seemed choked, and was even forced to support myself by the garden gate. Lord Orville, soon recovering his dignity, said,—I know not how to apologise for being just now at this place, and I cannot immediately, if ever, clear myself from the imputation of impertinent curiosity, to which I fear you will attribute it. However, at present, I will only entreat your pardon without detaining you any longer. Again he bowed, and left me. For some moments I remained fixed to the spot, and in the same position, immovable as if I had been transformed to a stone. My first impulse was to call him back, and instantly tell him the whole affair. But I checked this desire, though I would have given the world to have indulged it. Something like pride aided what I thought to do to Mr. McCartney, and I determined not only to keep his secret, but to delay any sort of explanation till Lord Orville should condescend to request it. Slowly he walked, and before he entered the house, he looked back, but hastily withdrew his eyes upon finding I observed him. Indeed, my dear sir, you cannot easily imagine a situation more uncomfortable than mine was at that time. To be suspected by Lord Orville of any clandestine actions wounded my soul. I was too much discomposed to wait for Mr. McCartney, nor in truth could I endure to have the desire of my staying so well known. Yet I was so extremely agitated that I could hardly move, and I have reason to believe Lord Orville from the parlor window saw me tottering along, for before I had taken five steps, he came out, and hastening to meet me said, I fear you are not well. Pray allow me, offering his arm, to assist you. No, my lord! said I, with all the resolution I could assume, yet I was affected by an attention at that time so little expected, and forced to turn away my head to conceal my emotion. You must! said he with earnestness. Indeed you must! I am sure you are not well. Refuse me not the honour of assisting you. And almost forcibly he took my hand, and, drawing it under his arm, obliged me to lean upon him. That I submitted was partly the effect of surprise, at an earnestness so uncommon in Lord Orville, and partly that I did not just then dare trust my voice to make any objection. When we came to the house, he led me into the parlor and to a chair, and begged to know if I would not have a glass of water. No, my lord, I thank you, said I, I am perfectly recovered. And rising I walked to the window, where for some time I pretended to be occupied in looking at the garden. Determined, as I was, to act honourably by Mr. McCartney, I yet most anxiously wished to be restored to the good opinion of Lord Orville. But his silence and the thoughtfulness of his air discouraged me from speaking. My situation soon grew disagreeable and embarrassing, and I resolved to return to my chamber till breakfast was ready. To remain longer I feared might seem asking for his inquiries, and I was sure it would ill become me to be more eager to speak than he was to hear. Just as I reached the door, turning to me hastily, he said, Are you going, Miss Anville? I am, my lord, answered I, yet I stopped. Perhaps to return to—but I beg your pardon. He spoke with a degree of agitation that made me readily comprehend he meant to the garden, and I instantly said, To my own room, my lord—and again I would have gone—but convinced by my answer that I understood him, I believe he was sorry for the insinuation. He approached me with a very serious air, though at the same time he forced a smile and said, I know not what evil genius pursues me this morning, but I seem destined to do or to say something I ought not. I am so much ashamed of myself that I can scare solicit your forgiveness. My forgiveness! my lord! cried I, abashed, rather than elated by his condescension. Surely you cannot! you are not serious. Indeed, never more so. Yet if I may be my own interpreter, Miss Anville's countenance pronounces my pardon. I know not, my lord, how any one can pardon who has never been offended. You are very good, yet I could expect no less from a sweetness of disposition which baffles all comparison. You will not think I am an encroacher, that I take advantage of your goodness, should I once more remind you of the promise you've out-saved me yesterday. No, indeed. On the contrary, I shall be very happy to acquit myself in your lordship's opinion. A quittle you need not," said he, leading me again to the window. Yet I own, my curiosity is strongly excited. When I was seated I found myself much at a loss what to say, yet after a short silence, assuming all the courage in my power, Will you not, my lord? said I, think me trifling and capricious, should I own I have propented the promise I made, and should I entreat your lordship not to insist upon my strict performance of it. I spoke so hastily that I did not at the time consider the impropriety of what I said. As he was entirely silent and profoundly attentive, I continued to speak without interruption. If your lordship, by any other means, knew the circumstances attending my acquaintance with Mr. McCartney, I am most sure you would yourself disapprove by relating them. He is a gentleman, and has been very unfortunate. But I am not, I think, at liberty to say more. Yet I am sure if he knew your lordship wished to hear any particulars of his affairs, he would readily consent to my acknowledging them. Shall I, my lord, ask his permission? His affairs, repeated Lord Orville, by no means I have not the least curiosity about them. I beg your lordship's pardon, but indeed I had understood the contrary. Is it possible, madam, you could suppose the affairs of an utter stranger can excite my curiosity? The gravity and coldness with which he asked this question very much abashed me, but Lord Orville is the most delicate of men, and presently recollecting himself he added, I mean not to speak with indifference of any friend of yours, far from it. Any such will always command my good wishes, yet I own I am rather disappointed, and though I doubt not the justice of your reason to which I implicitly submit, you must not wonder that, when upon the point of being honoured with your confidence, I should feel the greatest regret at finding it withdrawn. Do you think, my dear sir, I did not, at that moment, require all my resolution to guard me from frankly telling him whatever he wished to hear? Yet I rejoice that I did not. For, added to the actual wrong I should have done, Lord Orville himself, when he had heard, would, I am sure, have blamed me. Fortunately this thought occurred to me, and I said, Your lordship shall yourself be my judge. The promise I made, though voluntary, was rash and inconsiderate. Yet, had it concerned myself, I would not have hesitated in fulfilling it, but the gentleman whose affairs I should be obliged to relate. Pardon me," cried he, for interrupting you, yet allow me to reassure you I have not the slightest desire to be acquainted with his affairs, further than what belongs to the motives which induced you yesterday morning. He stopped, but there was no occasion to say more. That, my lord, cried I, I will tell you honestly, Mr. McCartney had some particular business with me, and I could not take the liberty to ask him hither. And why not? Mrs. Beaumont, I am sure. I could not, my lord, think of intruding upon Mrs. Beaumont's complacence, and so with the same hasty folly I promised your lordship, I much more rashly promised to meet him. And did you? No, my lord," said I, colouring. I returned before he came. Again, for some time we were both silent. Yet unwilling to leave him to reflections which could not but be to my disadvantage, I summoned sufficient courage to say, There is no young creature, my lord, who so greatly wants, or so earnestly wishes for, the advice and assistance of her friends as I do. I am new to the world, and unused to acting for myself. My intentions are never willfully blamable, yet I err perpetually. I have hitherto been blessed with the most affectionate of friends, and indeed the ablest of men to guide and instruct me upon every occasion. But he is too distant now to be plied to at the moment I want his aid, and here there is not a human being whose counsel I can ask. Would to heaven! cried he, with the countenance from which all coldness and gravity were banished, and succeeded by the mildest benevolence, that I were worthy and capable of supplying the place of such a friend to Miss Anvil. You do me but too much honour, said I. Yet I hope your lordship's candour—perhaps I ought to say indulgence—will make some allowance on account of my inexperience, for behaviour so inconsiderate. May I, my lord, hope that you will. May I, cried he, hope that you will pardon the ill-grace with which I have submitted to my disappointment, and that you will permit me, kissing my hand, thus to seal my peace. Our peace, my lord, said I with revived spirits. This, then, said he, again pressing it to his lips, for our peace—and now, are we not friends? Just then the door opened, and I had only time to withdraw my hand before the ladies came into breakfast. I have been all day the happiest of human beings. To be thus reconciled to Lord Orville, and yet to adhere to my resolution, what could I wish for more? He too has been very cheerful and more attentive, more obliging to me than ever. Yet heaven forbid I should again be in a similar situation, for I cannot express how much uneasiness I have suffered from the fear of incurring his ill-opinion. But what will poor Mr. McCartney think of me? Happy as I am, I much regret the necessity I have been under of disappointing him. I dear my dearest sir. End of Letter 66 DEAD TO THE WORLD That innocence, the first best gift of heaven, should, of all others, be the blindest to its own danger, the most exposed to treachery, and the least able to defend itself in a world where it is little known, less valued, and perpetually deceived. Wood to heaven you are here. Then by degrees, and with gentleness, I might enter upon a subject too delicate for distant discussion. Yet it is too interesting, and the situation too critical to allow of delay. Oh, my Evalina, your situation is critical indeed. Your peace of mind is at stake, and every chance for your future happiness may depend upon the conduct of the present moment. Hitherto I have foreborn to speak with you upon the most important of all concerns, the state of your heart. Alas, I need no information. I have been silent indeed, but I have not been blind. Long and with the deepest regret have I perceived the ascendancy which Lord Orville has gained upon your mind. You will start at dimension of his name. You will tremble every word you read. I grieve to give pain to my gentle Evalina, but I dare not any longer spare her. Your first meeting with Lord Orville was decisive. Lively, fearless, free from all other impressions, such a man as you describe him could not fail of exciting your admiration, and the more dangerously, because he seemed as unconscious of his power as you of your weakness, and therefore you had no alarm, either from his vanity or your own prudence. Young, animated, entirely off your guard, and thoughtless of consequences, imagination took the reins, and reason, slow pace, though sure-footed, was unequal to the race of so eccentric and flighty a companion. How rapid was then my Evalina's progress through those regions of fancy and passion wither her new guide conducted her. She saw Lord Orville at a ball, and he was the most amiable of men. She met him again at another, and he had every virtue under heaven. I mean not to depreciate the merit of Lord Orville, who, one mysterious instance alone accepted, seems to have deserved the idea you form of his character, but it was not time, it was not the knowledge of his worth, obtained your regard. Your new comrade had not patience to wait any trial. Her glowing pencil, dipped in the vivid colors of her creative ideas, painted to you at the moment of your first acquaintance all the excellencies, all the good and rare qualities which a great length of time and intimacy could alone have really discovered. You flattered yourself that your partiality was the effect of esteem, founded upon a general love of merit and a principle of justice, and your heart, which fell the sacrifice of your error, was totally gone, and you expected it was in danger. A thousand times have I been upon the point of showing you the perils of your situation, but the same inexperience which occasioned your mistake, I hoped, with the assistance of time and absence, would affect a cure. I was indeed most unwilling to destroy your illusion, while I dared hope it might itself contribute to the restoration of your tranquility, since your ignorance of the danger and force of your attachment might possibly prevent that despondency with which young people, in similar circumstances, are apt to persuade themselves that what is only difficult is absolutely impossible. But now, since you have again met and have become more intimate than ever, all my hope from silence and seeming ignorance is at an end. Awake then, my dear deluded child, awake to the sense of your danger, and exert yourself to avoid the evils with which it threatens you. Evils which, to a mind like yours, are most to be dreaded. Secret repining and concealed yet consuming regret. Make a noble effort for the recovery of your peace, which now, with sorrow I see it, depends wholly upon the presence of Lord Orville. This effort may indeed be painful, but trust my experience when I assure you it is requisite. You must quit him. His sight is baneful to your repose. His society is death to your future tranquility. Believe me, my beloved child, my heart aches for your suffering, while it dictates its necessity. Could I flatter myself that Lord Orville would, indeed, be sensible of your worth, and act with a nobleness of mind which should prove it congenial to your own, then would I leave my evalina to the unmolested enjoyment of the cheerful society in increasing regard of a man she so greatly admires. But this is not an age in which we may trust to appearances, and imprudence is much sooner regretted than repaired. Your health, you tell me, is much mended. Can you then consent to leave Bristol? Not abruptly, that I do not desire, but in a few days from the time you receive this, I will write to Mrs. Selwyn and tell her how much I wish her return, and Mrs. Clinton can take sufficient care of you. I have meditated upon every possible expedient that might tend to your happiness, or I fixed upon exacting from you a compliance which I am convinced will be most painful to you, but I can satisfy myself in none. This will at least be safe, and as to success, we must leave it to time. I am very glad to hear of Mr. McCartney's welfare. I do, my dearest child, have in preserve and strengthen you. A. V. End of letter 67. Bernie. Letter 68. Everliner to the Reverend Mr. Villa's. Clifton, September 28th. Sweetly, most sweetly have two days more past since I wrote, but I have been too much engaged to be exact in my journal. Today has been less tranquil. It was destined for the decision of the important bet, and has been productive of general confusion throughout the house. It was settled that the race should be run at five o'clock in the afternoon. Lord Merton breakfasted here, and stayed till noon. He wanted to engage the ladies to bet on his side, in the true spirit of gaming, without seeing the racers. But he could only prevail on Lady Louisa, as Mrs. Selwyn said she never laid a wager against her own wishes, and Mrs. Beaumont would not take sides. As for me, I was not applied to. It is impossible for negligence to be more pointed than that of Lord Merton to me, in the presence of Lady Louisa. But just before dinner, I happened to be alone in the drawing-room, when his lordship suddenly returned, and coming in with his usual familiarity he was beginning. You see, Lady Louisa! But stopping short. Pray, was everybody gone? Indeed, I don't know, my lord.  By my soul I began to think there was a plot against me, for I have never been able to have you a minute to myself. And very freely he seized my hand. I was so much surprised at this address, after having been so long totally neglected, that I could make no other answer than staring at him with unfeigned astonishment. Why now, continued he, if you was not the cruelest angel in the world, you would have helped me to some expedient. For you see how I am watched here.  She gives me a charming foretaste of the pleasures of a wife. However, it won't last long. Disgusted to the greatest degree, I attempted to draw away my hand, but I believe I should not have succeeded if Mrs. Beaumont had not made her appearance. He turned from me with the greatest assurance, and said, How are you, ma'am? How is Lady Louisa? You see, I can't live a moment out of the house. Could you, my dearest sir, have believed it possible for such a fruntery to be in man? Before dinner came Mr. Covelay, and before five o'clock Mr. Lovell and some other company. The place marked out for the race was a gravel walk in Mrs. Beaumont's garden, and the length the ground twenty yards. When we were summoned to the course, the two poor old women made their appearance. Though they seemed very healthy for their time of life, yet they looked so weak, so infirm, so feeble, that I could feel no sensation but that of pity at the sight. However, this was not the general sense of the company, for they no sooner came forward than they greeted with a laugh from every beholder, Lord Orville accepted, who looked very grave during the whole transaction. Doubtless he must be greatly discontented at the dissipated conduct and extravagance of a man with whom he is soon to be so nearly connected.  The agitation of the parties concerned, and the bets that were laid upon the old women, were absurd beyond measure.   They handed with loud shouts the old women to the race-ground, and encouraged them by liberal promises to exert themselves. When the signal was given for them to set off, the poor creatures, feeble and frightened, ran against each other, and neither of them able to support the shock, they both fell on the ground. Lord Merton and Mr. Covelay flew to their assistance. Seats were brought for them, and they each drank a glass of wine. They complained of being much bruised, for heavy and helpless they had not been able to save themselves, but fell with their whole weight upon the gravel. However, as they seemed equal sufferers, both parties were too eager to have the affair deferred. Again, therefore, they set off, and hobbled along, nearly even with each other for some time. Yet, frequently, to the inexpressible diversion of the company, they stumbled and tottered, and the confused hallowing of— Now, Covelay! Now, Merton! run from side to side during the whole affair. Not long after a foot of one of the poor old women slipped, and with great force she came again to the ground. Involuntarily I sprung forward to assist her, but Lord Merton, to whom she did not belong, stopped me calling out. No foul play! No foul play! Mr. Covelay, then, repeating the same words, went himself to help her, and insisted that the other should stop. A debate ensued, but the poor creature was too much hurt to move, and declared her utter inability to make another attempt. Mr. Covelay was quite brutal. He swore at her with unmanly rage, and seemed scarce able to refrain even from striking her. Lord Merton, then, in great rapture, said it was a hollow thing, but Mr. Covelay contended that the fall was accidental, and time should be allowed for the woman to recover. However, all the company being against him, he was pronounced the loser. We then went to the drawing-room to tea. After which, the evening, being remarkably warm, we all walked in the garden. Lord Merton was quite riotous, and Lady Louisa in high spirits, but Mr. Covelay endeavoured in vain to conceal his chagrin. As Lord Orville was thoughtful and walked by himself, I expected that, as usual, I should pass unnoticed, and be left my own meditations. But this was not the case. For Lord Merton, entirely off his guard, giddy equally from wine and success, was very troublesome to me, and regardless of the presence of Lady Louisa, which hitherto has restrained him even from common civility, he attached himself to me during the walk with a freedom of gallantry that put me extremely out of countenance. He paid me the most high-flown compliments, and frequently and forcibly seized my hand, though I repeatedly, and with undissembled anger, drew it back. Lord Orville I saw watched us with earnestness, and Lady Louisa's smiles were converted into looks of disdain. I could not bear to be thus situated, and, complaining, I was tired, I quickened my pace, with intention to return to the house. But Lord Merton, hastily following, caught my hand, and, saying the day was his own, vowed he would not let me go. You must, my Lord!" cried I, extremely flurried. You are the most charming girl in the world! said he, and it ever looked better than at this moment. My Lord! cried Mrs. Selwyn, advancing to us. You don't consider that the better Miss Anville looks, the more striking is the contrast with your lordship. Therefore, for your own sake, I would advise you not to hold her. He gad, my Lord! cried Mr. Coveley. I don't see what right you have to the best old and the best young woman, too, in the same day. Best young woman? repeated Mr. Lovell. Pond honour, Jack! you have made a most unfortunate speech. However, if Lady Louisa can pardon you, and a ladyship is all goodness, I am sure nobody else can, for you have committed an outrageous solicism in good manners. And pray, sir! said Mrs. Selwyn. Under what denomination may your own speech pass? Mr. Lovell, turning another way, affected not to hear her, and Mr. Coveley, bowing to Lady Louisa, said, Her ladyship is well acquainted with my devotion, but he gad, I don't know how it is, I had always an unlucky turn at an epigram, and never could resist a smart play upon words in my life. Pray, my Lord! cried I, let go my hand! Pray, Mrs. Selwyn, speak for me. My Lord! said Mrs. Selwyn. In detaining Miss Anvil any longer, you only lose time, for we are already as well convinced of your valor and your strength as if you were to hold her in age. My Lord! said Mrs. Beaumont. I must beg leave to interfere. I know not if Lady Louisa can pardon you, but as this young lady is at my house, I do not choose to have her made uneasy. I pardon him, cried Lady Louisa. I declare I am monstrous glad to get rid of him. Hey, gad, my Lord! cried Mr. Coveley. While you are grasping at a shadow, you lose a substance. You'd best make your peace while you can. Pray, Mr. Coveley, be quiet! said Lady Louisa, peevishly. For I declare I won't speak to him. Brother! taking hold of Lord Orville's arm, will you walk in with me? What to heaven! cried I, frightened to see how much Lord Merton was in liquor, that I too had a brother, and then I should not be exposed to such treatment. Lord Orville, instantly quitting, Lady Louisa said, will Miss Anville allow me the honour of taking that title? And then, without waiting for any answer, he disengaged me from Lord Merton, and handing me to Lady Louisa. Let me, added he, take equal care of both my sisters. And then, desiring her to take hold of one arm, and begging me to make use of the other, we reached the house in a moment. Lord Merton disordered as he was, attempted not to stop us. As soon as we entered the house, I withdrew my arm, and curtsied my thanks, for my heart was too full for speech. Lady Louisa evidently heard at her brother's condescension, and peaked extremely by Lord Merton's behaviour, silently drew away hers, and, biting her lips with a look of infinite vexation, walked sullenly up the hall. Lord Orville asked her if she would not go into the parlour. No! answered she haughtily. I leave you and your new sister together. And then she walked upstairs. I was quite confounded at the pride and rudeness of this speech. Lord Orville himself seemed thunderstruck. I turned from him and went into the parlour. He followed me, saying, Must I now apologise to Miss Orville for the liberty of my interference? Or ought I to apologise that I did not, as I wished, interfere sooner? Oh, my Lord! cried I, with an emotion I could not repress. It is from you alone I meet with any respect. All others treat me with impertinence or contempt. I am sorry I had no command of myself, as he had reason just then to suppose I particularly meant his sister, which I am sure must very much hurt him. Good Heaven! cried he, that so much sweetness and merit can fail to excite the love and admiration so justly there do. I cannot, I dare not express to you half the indignation I feel at this moment. I am sorry, my Lord, said I, more calmly, to have raised it, but yet in a situation that calls for protection, to meet only with mortifications. Indeed, but I am ill-formed to bear them. My dear Miss Anville! cried he warmly, allow me to be your friend, think of me as if I were indeed your brother, and let me entreat you to accept my best services, if there is anything in which I can be so happy as to show my regard, my respect for you. Before I had time to speak, the rest of the party entered the parlour, and as I did not wish to see anything more of Lord Merton, at least before he had slept, I determined to leave it. Lord Orville, seeing my design, said as I passed him, will you go? Had I not best, my Lord, said I, I am afraid, said he, smiling, since I must now speak as your brother, I am afraid you had. You see, you may trust me, since I can advise against my own interest. I then left the room, and have been writing ever since, and bethinks I can never lament the rudeness of Lord Merton, as it is more than ever confirmed to me the esteem of Lord Orville. Everliner by Fanny Burney Letter 69 Everliner in Continuation September 30 Oh, sir! What a strange incident have I to recite! What a field of conjecture to open! Yesterday evening we all went to an assembly. Lord Orville presented tickets to the whole family, and did media honour to the no small surprise of all here, I believe, to dance with me. But every day abounds in fresh instances of his condescending politeness, and he now takes every opportunity of calling me his friend, and his sister. Lord Merton offered a ticket to Lady Louisa, but she was so much incensed against him, that she refused it with the utmost disdain. Neither could he prevail upon her to dance with him. She sat still the whole evening, and deigned not to look at or speak to him. To me her behaviour is almost the same, for she is cold, distant, and haughty, and her eyes express the greatest contempt. But for Lord Orville, how miserable would my residence here make me? We were joined in the ballroom by Mr. Covelay, Mr. Lovell, and Lord Merton, who looked as if he was doing penance, and sat all the evening next to Lady Louisa, vainly endeavouring to appease her anger. Lord Orville began the minuettes. He danced with a young lady who seemed to engage the general attention, as she had not been seen here before. She is pretty, and looks mild and good-humoured. Pray, Mr. Lovell," said Lady Louisa, who is that? Miss Belmont," answered he, the young heiress, she came to the wells yesterday. Struck with the name, I involuntarily repeated it, but nobody heard me. What is her family? said Mrs. Belmont. Have you not heard of her mum? cried he. She is the only daughter and heiress of Sir John Belmont. God-heaven! How did I start? The name struck my ear like a thunderbolt. Mrs. Selwyn, who immediately looked at me, said, Be calm, my dear, and we will learn the truth of all this. Till then I had never imagined her to be acquainted with my story, but she has since told me that she knew my unhappy mother, and was well informed of the whole affair. She asked Mr. Lovell a multitude of questions, and I gathered from his answers that this young lady was just come from abroad with Sir John Belmont, who was now in London, and that she was under the care of his sister, Mrs. Patterson, and that she would inherit a considerable estate. I cannot express the strange feelings with which I was agitated during this recital. What, my dearest sir, can it possibly mean? Did you ever hear of any after-marriage? How must I suppose that, while the lawful child has rejected another is adopted? I know not what to think. I am bewildered with the contrarity of ideas. When we came home, Mrs. Selwyn passed more than an hour in my room conversing upon this subject. She says that I ought instantly to go to town, find out my father, and have the affair cleared up. She assures me I have too strong a resemblance to my dear, though unknown, mother, to allow of the least hesitation in my being owned, when once I am seen. For my part, I have no wish but to act by your direction. I cannot give any account of the evening, so disturbed, so occupied am I by this subject that I can think of no other. I have entreated Mrs. Selwyn to observe the strictest secrecy, and she has promised that she will. Indeed, she has too much sense to be idly communicative. Lord Orville took notice of my being absent and silent, but I ventured not to entrust him with the cause. Fortunately, he was not of the party at the time Mr. Lovell made the discovery. Mrs. Selwyn says that if you approve my going to town, she will herself accompany me. I had a thousand times rather asked the pretension of Mrs. Mervyn, but after this offer that will not be possible. Dear my dearest sir, I am sure you will write immediately, and I shall be all impatient till your letter arrives. Everliner in continuation—October 1st. Good God, my dear sir! What a wonderful tale have I again to relate! Even yet I am not recovered from my extreme surprise. Yesterday morning, as soon as I had finished my hasty letter, I was summoned to attend a walking party to the Hotwells. It consisted only of Mrs. Selwyn and Lord Orville. The latter walked by my side all the way, and his conversation dissipated my uneasiness, and insensibly restored my serenity. At the pumper, I saw Mr. McCartney. I curtsied him twice ere he would speak to me. When he did, I began to apologise for having disappointed him, but I did not find it very easy to excuse myself, as Lord Orville's eyes, with an expression of anxiety that distressed me, turned from him to me, and me to him, every word I spoke. Convinced, however, that I had really trifled with Mr. McCartney, I scrupled not to beg his pardon. He was then not merely appeased, but even grateful. He requested me to see him to-morrow, but I had not the folly to be again guilty of an indiscretion, which had already caused me so much easiness, and therefore I told him frankly that it was not in my power at present to see him but by accident, and to prevent his being offended, I hinted to him the reason I could not receive him as I wished to do. When I had satisfied both him and myself upon this subject, I turned to Lord Orville and saw with concern the gravity of his countenance. I would have spoken to him, but knew not how. But I believe, however, he read my thoughts, for in a little time, with a sort of serious smile, he said, Does not Mr. McCartney complain of his disappointment? Not much, my lord. And how have you appeased him? Finding I hesitated what to answer. Am I not your brother? continued he. And must I not inquire into your affairs? Certainly, my lord, said I, laughing, only wish it were better worth your lordship's while. Let me then make immediate use of my privilege. When shall you see Mr. McCartney again? Indeed, my lord, I can't tell. But—do you know that I shall not suffer my sister to make a private appointment? Pray, my lord! cried I earnestly. Use that word no more. Indeed, you shocked me extremely. That would I not do for the world! cried he. Yet you know not how warmly, how deeply I am interested, not only in all your concerns, but in all your actions. This speech, the most particular one Lord Orville has ever made to me, ended our conversation at that time, for I was too much struck by it to make any answer. Soon after, Mr. McCartney, in a low voice, entreated me not to deny him the gratification of returning the money. While he was speaking, the young lady I saw yesterday at the assembly with a large party, entered the pump room. Mr. McCartney turned as pale as death, his voice faltered, and he seemed not to know what he said. I was myself almost equally disturbed by the crowd of confused ideas that occurred to me. Good heaven! thought I. Why should he be thus agitated? Is it possible this can be the young lady he loved? In a few minutes we quitted the pump room, and though I twice wished Mr. McCartney good morning, he was so absent he did not hear me. We did not immediately return to Clifton as Mrs. Selwyn had business at the pamphlet-shop. While she was looking at some new poems, Lord Orville again asked me whether I should see Mr. McCartney. Indeed, my Lord! cried I. I know not, but would give the universe for a few moments' conversation with him. I spoke this with a simple sincerity, and was not aware of the force of my own words. The universe! repeated he. Good God, Miss Anville! do you say this to me? I would say it, returned I, to any body, my Lord. I beg your pardon! said he, in a voice that showed him ill-pleased. I am answered. My Lord! cried I, you must not judge hardly of me. I spoke inadvertently, but if you knew the painful suspense I suffer at this moment you would not be surprised at what I have said. And would a meeting with Mr. McCartney relieve you from that suspense? Yes, my Lord! two words might be sufficient. Would to heaven! cried he after a short pause, that I were worthy to know their import. Worthy, my Lord! how of that or all, your Lordship could ask nothing I should not be ready to answer. If I were but at liberty to speak, I should be proud of your Lordship's enquiries. But indeed I am not. I have not any right to communicate the affairs of Mr. McCartney. Your Lordship cannot suppose I have. I will own to you," answered he. I know not what to suppose, yet there seems a frankness even in your mystery, and such an air of openness in your countenance that I am willing to hope. He stopped a moment and then added, This meeting, you say, is essential to your repose. I did not say that, my Lord, but yet I have the most important reasons for wishing to speak to him. He paused a few minutes and then said with warmth, Yes, you shall speak to him. I will myself assist you. Miss Anvil, I am sure, cannot form a wish against propriety. I will ask no questions. I will rely upon her own purity, and uninformed, blind-folded as I am, I will serve her with all my power.  When Mrs. Selwyn had transacted her affairs, we returned home. The moment dinner was over, Lord Orville went out, and did not come back till just as we were summoned to supper. This is the longest time he has spent from the house since I have been at Clifton, and you cannot imagine, my dear sir, how much I missed him. I scarce knew before how infinitely I am indebted to him alone for the happiness I have enjoyed since I have been at Mrs. Beaumont's. As I generally go downstairs last, he came to me the moment the ladies had passed by, and said, Shall you be at home to-morrow morning? I believe so, my lord. And will you then receive a visitor for me? For you, my lord. Yes, I have made acquaintance with Mr. McCartney, and he has promised to call upon me to-morrow about three o'clock. And then, taking my hand, he led me downstairs. Oh, sir, was there ever such another man as Lord Orville? Yes, one other now resides at Berry Hill. This morning there has been a great deal of company here, but at the time appointed by Lord Orville, doubtless with that consideration, the parlor is almost always empty as everybody is dressing. Mrs. Beaumont, however, was not gone upstairs, and Mr. McCartney sent in his name. Lord Orville immediately said, Beg the favour of him to walk in. You see, madam, that I consider myself as at home. I hope so! answered Mrs. Beaumont. Or I should be very uneasy. Mr. McCartney then entered. I believe we both felt very conscious to whom the visit was paid, but Lord Orville received him as his own guest, and not merely entertained him as such while Mrs. Beaumont remained in the room, but for some time after she had left it, a delicacy that saved me from the embarrassment I should have felt, had he immediately quitted us. In a few minutes, however, he gave Mr. McCartney a book, for I, too, by way of pretence for continuing the room, pretended to be reading, and begged he would be so good as to look it over while he answered a note, which he would dispatch in a few minutes and return to him. When he was gone, we both parted with our books, and Mr. McCartney, again producing the paper with the money, begged me to accept it. Pray, said I, still declining it! Did you know the young lady who came to the pump from yesterday morning? No, her! repeated he, changing colour. Oh, but too well! Indeed! Why, madam, do you ask? I must beseech you to satisfy me further upon this subject. Pray, tell me who she is? Inviolably, as I meant to keep my secret, I can refuse you, madam, nothing. That lady is the daughter of Sir John Belmont, of my father. Gracious heaven! cried I, involuntarily laying my hand upon his arm. You are then—my brother, I would have said, but my voice failed me, and I burst into tears. Oh, madam! cried he. What does this mean? What can thus distress you? I could not answer, but held out my hand to him. He seemed greatly surprised, and talked in high terms of my condescension. Spare yourself, cried I, wiping my eyes. Spare yourself this mistake. You have a right to all I can do for you, the similarity of our circumstances." We were then interrupted by the entrance of Mrs. Selwyn, and Mr. McCartney, finding no probability of our being left alone, was obliged to take leave, though I believe very reluctantly, while in such suspense. Mrs. Selwyn, then, by dint of interrogatories, drew from me the state of this affair. She is so penetrating that there is no possibility of evading to give her satisfaction. It's not this a strange event. Good heaven! How little did I think that the visits I so unwillingly paid at Mr. Branton's would have introduced me to so near a relation. I will never again regret the time I spent in town this summer. A circumstance so fortunate will always make me think of it with pleasure. I have just received your letter, and it has almost broken my heart. Oh, sir! the illusion is over indeed! How vainly have I flattered how miserably deceived myself! Long since doubtful of the situation of my heart, I dreaded a scrutiny. But now, now that I have so long escaped, I began indeed to think my safety insured, to hope my fears were causeless, and to believe that my good opinion and the steam of Lord Orville might be owned without suspicion. And felt without danger. Miserably deceived indeed. His sight is baneful to my repose. His society is death to my future tranquility. Oh, Lord Orville! Could I have believed that a friendship so grateful to my heart, so soothing to my distresses? A friendship which in every respect did me so much honour, would only serve to embitter all my future moments.  Yes, sir, I will quit him. Ward to heaven I could at this moment, without seeing him again, without trusting to my now conscious emotion. Oh, Lord Orville!  How little suppose that, when most dignified by your attention, I was most to be pitied! And when most exalted by your notice, you were most my enemy.  I, alas, upon your experience. And whenever I doubted the weakness of my heart, the idea that you did not suspect it reassured me, restored my courage, and confirmed my error. Yet am I most sensible of the kindness of your silence. Oh, sir, why have I ever quitted you? Why have I been exposed to dangers to which I am so unequal? But I will leave this place. Leave Lord Orville. Leave him, perhaps, for ever. No matter. Your counsel, your goodness, may teach me how to recover the peace, and the serenity of which my unguarded folly has beguiled me. To you alone do I trust, in you alone confide, for every future hope I may form. The more I consider the parting with Lord Orville, the less fortitude do I feel to bear the separation. The friendship he has shown me, his politeness, his sweetness of manners, his concern in my affairs, his solicitude to oblige me, all—all to be given up. No, I cannot tell him I am going. I dare not trust myself to take leave of him. I will run away without seeing him. Implicitly will I follow your advice, avoid his sight, and shun his society. Tomorrow morning I will set off for Berry Hill. Mrs. Selwyn and Mrs. Beaumont shall alone know my intention, and today I will spend in my own room. The readiness of my obedience is the only atonement I can offer for the weakness which calls for its exertion. Can you, will you, most honoured, most dear, sir, sole prop by which the poor-ever liner is supported? Can you, without reproach, without displeasure, receive the child you have so carefully reared, from whose education better fruit might have been expected, and who blushing for her unworthiness fears to meet the eye by which she has been cherished? Oh yes, I am sure you will. Your ever-liners' errors are those of the judgment, and you, I well know, pardon all but those of the heart. End of Letters Seventy. Letter Seventy-one of Everliner. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information, or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Elizabeth Klett. Everliner by Fanny Burney. Letter Seventy-one. Everliner in continuation. Clifton, October 1.  For when I communicated my intention to Mrs. Selwyn, she would not hear of it, and declared it would be highly ridiculous for me to go before I received an answer to my intelligence concerning the journey from Paris. She has therefore insisted upon my waiting till your next letter arrives. I hope you will not be displeased at my compliance, though it is rather against my own judgment. But Mrs. Selwyn quite overpowered me with the force of her arguments. I will, however, see very little of Lord Orville. I will never come downstairs before breakfast, give up all my walks in the garden, seat myself next to Mrs. Selwyn, and not merely avoid his conversation, but shun his presence. I will exert all the prudence and all the resolution in my power to prevent this short delay from giving you any further uneasiness. Ah, dear my dearest sir, I shall not now leave Clifton till I have your directions. End of Letter Seventy-one.