Charles Stevenson doesn't know who I'm talking to. You want me to tell you something? We were in a relationship. Could you tell us how did the people live before a treaty? We were in a relationship. We were in a relationship. We lived together. We lived together. We lived together. Our parents were in a relationship. I said to myself,intely so. I don't know who he is, but for the first time I brought him up. I was at the verve. They probably were not really funny things. There were all these other people I had on switchets. If anything happened to him then we didn't know him. um um How did the leaders lead the people? How did the leaders lead the people? There are a number of leaders as well. I'm one of them. They lead the people according to my power. Housing was not a good thing. I was born in that area. My mother was born in the 19th. She had been a volunteer to the local community, the local government, and we were from the same community. I was a volunteer at that time and when I arrived I was the only one who was in the village. How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How can traditions be used to guide leaders? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? What were the changes that occurred with treaty signing? What were the changes that occurred with treaty signing? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How did people's lives change? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? Charles, could you tell us how the role of women changed after treaties? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How were the leaders picked? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties? How did the people make a livelihood before treaties?


Section 7 of an English Woman's Love Letters. Saving your presence, dearest, I would rather have Prince Otto, a very lovable character, for second affections to cling to. Richard Feverall would never marry again, so I don't ask for him, as for the rest, they are all too excellent for me. They give me the impression of having worn copy books under their coats when they were boys, to cheat punishment, and the copy books got beaten into their systems. You must find me somebody who is a gallus young hound in the days of his youth. Cross J. for instance, there, I have found the very man for me. But really and truly, are you better?  How I long to see you again, dearest? It is an age. As a matter of fact, it is a fortnight, but I dread lest you will find some change in me. I have kept a real white hair to show you. I drew it out of my comb the other morning, wound it up into a curl. It becomes quite visible, and it is ivory-white. You are not to think it flaxen, and take away its one wee sentiment. And I make you an offer. You shall have it, if, honestly, you can find in your own head a white one to exchange. Dearest, I am not hurt, nor do I take seriously to heart your mother's present coldness. How much more I could forgive her when I put myself in her place. She may well feel a struggle, and some resentment at having to give up in any degree her place with you. All my selfishness would come to the front if that were demanded of me. Do not think, because I leave her alone, that I am repaying her coldness in the same coin. I know that for the present anything I do must offend. Have I demanded your coming too soon? Then stay away another day or two. Every day only piles up the joy it will be to have your arms round to me once more. I can keep for a little longer, and the grey hair will keep, and many tomorrows will come bringing good things for us when perhaps your mother's sheriff the world will be over.  I am sorry for all old people. Their love of things they are losing is so far more to be reverenced and made room for than ours of the things which will come to us in good time abundantly. Tonight I feel selfish at having too much of your love. And not a bit of it can I let go. I hope, beloved, we shall live to see each other's grey hairs in earnest. Grey hairs that we shall not laugh at, as at this one I pulled.  My heart's heart every day you grow larger round me, and I so much stronger, depending upon you. I won't say come for certain to-moral, but come if, and as soon as you can. I seem to see a mile further when I am on the lookout for you, and I shall be long-sighted every day until you come. It is only doubtful hope deferred which maketh the heart sick. I am as happy as the day is long waiting for you, but the day is long, dearest, none the less when I don't see you. All this space on the page below is love. I have no time left to put it into words, or words into it. You bless my thoughts constantly. Believe me, never you're thoughtless. Dearest, how, when, and where, is there any use wrangling as to which of us loves the other the best? The better, I believe, would be the more grammatical phrase in incompetent Queen's English. And why, in all of all things, should we pretend to be rivals? For this, at least, seems certain to me, that, being created male and female, no two lovers since the world began ever loved each other quite in the same way. It is not in nature for it to be so. They cannot compare, only to do the best, that is, in them they do love each after their kind, as we do for certain. Be sure, then, that I am utterly contented with what I get, and you, beloved, and you. Nay, I wonder for ever at the love you have given me, and if I will too lay mine at your feet, and feel yours crowning my life. Why, so it is. You know, you cannot alter it. And if you insist that your love is at my feet, I have only to turn Irish and reply, that it is because I am heels overhead in love with you. And mark you, that is no pretty attitude for a lady, that you have driven me into, in order that I may stick to my crown. Go too, dearest, there is one thing in which I can beat you. And that is the bandying of words and all the verbal conjurings. Take this as the last proof of it, and rest quiet. I know you love me a great deal more than I have wit or power to love you, and that is just the little reason why your love mounts till, as I tell you, it crowns me, head or heels, while mine, insufficient and groveling, lies at your feet, and will till they become amputated. But I can give you, but won't, sixty other reasons, why things are, as I say, and are to be left, as I say.  And now it is doful business I have to write to you. I have dropped to sleep over all this writing of things, and my cheek down on the page has made the paper unwilling to take the ink again. What a pretty compliment to me. And if you prefer it, what an easy way of writing to you. I can send you such any day, and be as idle as I like. And you will decide about all the above exactly as you and I think best, or should it be better again, being only between us two. When you get this, blow your beloved self a kiss in the glass for me. A great, big, shattering blow that shall astonish Mercury behind his window pane. Good night, my best, or better, for that is what I most want you to be. LETTER XXV My own beloved, and I never thanked you yesterday for your dear words about the resurrection pie that comes of quarreling. Well, you must prove them, and come quickly, that I may see this restoration of health and spirits that you assure me of. You avoid saying that they sent you to sleep, but I suppose that is what you mean. Fate meant me only to light upon gay things this morning. Listen to this, and guess where it comes from." When March with variant winds was past, and April with her silver showers, tine leaf at last with an orient blast, and lusty May that mother's of flowers had made the birds to begin their hours, among the odours reddy and white whose harmony was the ear's delight. In bed-at-moral I sleeping lay, me thought Aurora with crystal ean, in at the window looked by day, and gave me her visage pale and green, and on her hand sang a lark from the spleen, a wakey lovers from slumbering, see how the lusty moral doth spring. Ah! but you are no scholar of the things in your own tongue. That is Dunbar, a Scots poet, contemporary of Henry VII. Just a little bit altered by me to make him soundable to your ears. If I had not had to leave an archaic word here and there, would you ever have guessed he lay outside this century? That shows the permanent element in all good poetry, and in all good joy and things also. In the four centuries, since that was written, we have only succeeded in worsening the meaning of certain words, as for instance, spleen, which now means irritation and vexation, but stood then for quite the opposite. What we should call, I suppose, a full heart. It is what I am always saying, a good digestion is the root of nearly all the good living and high thinking we are capable of, and the spleen was then the root of the happy emotions as it is now of the miserable ones. Your pre-reformation, Lark, sang, from a full stomach, and thanked God that it had a constitution to carry it off without affectation, and your nineteenth-century Lark, applying the same code of life, his plain song, is mere happy everyday prose, and not poetry at all as we try to make it out to be. I have no news for you at all of any one. All inside the house is a simmer of peace and quiet, with blinds drawn down against the heat the whole day long. No collars, and as for me I never call elsewhere. The gossips about here eke out a precarious existence by washing each other's dirty linen in public, and the process never seems to result in any satisfactory cleansing. I avoid saying what news I trust to morrow's post-bag may contain for me. Every wish I send you comes from the spleen, which means I am very healthy, and conditionally, as happy, as is good for me. Pray God bless my dear share of the world, and make him get well for his own and mine's sake, amen! This catches the new post, an event which always shows I am jubilant, with a lot of the opposite, to a little death, feeling running over my nerves. I feel the grass growing under me. The reverse of poor Keat's complaint. Good-bye, beloved, till I find my way into the pervunder of to-morrow's post-bag. LETTER XXVI Oh, wings of the morning, here you come! I have been looking out for you ever since post came. Roberts is carrying orders into town, and will bring you this with a touch of the hat, and an amused grin under it. I saw you, right on top of Salis Hill. This is to wager that my eyes have told me correctly. Look out for me, from far away. I am at my corner-window. Wave to me! Dearest, this is to kiss you before I can. LETTER XXVII Dearest, I have made a bad beginning of the week. I wonder how it will end. It all comes of my not seeing enough of you. Time hangs heavy on my hands, and the devil finds me the mischief. I prevailed upon myself to go on Sunday and listen to our new, lately appointed vicar, for I thought it not fair to condemn him on the strength of Mrs. Pease's terrible reporting powers and her sensuous worship of his full-blown flowers of speech. Pulpit pot-plants is what I call them. It was not worse, and not otherwise, than I had expected. I find there are only two kinds of clerics, as generally necessary to salvation, in a country parish. One leads his parishioners to the altar, and the others to the pulpit, and the latter is vastly the more popular among the articulate and gadabout members of his flock. This one sways himself over the edge of his frame, making signals of distress in all directions. And with that and his windy flights of oratory suggest twenty minutes in a balloon-car, till he comes down to the earth at finish with the doxology for a parachute. His shepherd's crook is one long note of interrogation, with which he tries to hook down the heavens to the understanding of his hearers, and his hearers up to an understanding of himself. All his arguments are put interrogatively, and few of them are worth answering. Well, well, I shall be all the freer for your visit when you come next Sunday, and any Sunday after that you will. And he shall come into tea, if you like, and talk to you in quite a cultured and agreeable manner, as he can, when his favorite beverage is before him. I discover that I get the snaps on a Monday morning if I get them at all. The DMA gets some on Sunday itself, softly but regularly. They distress no one, and we all know the causes. Her fingers are itching for the knitting, which she may not do. Your Protestant ignores Lent as a popish device, a fond thing vainly invented, but spreads it instead over fifty-two days of the year. Why I want to know, cannot I change the subject? Monday we get no post, and no collection except in church, unless we send down to the town for it. So Monday it's all the more welcome. But this I have been up and riding before it arrives, therefore the snaps. Our postman is a lovely sight. I watched him walking up the drive the other morning, and he seemed quite perfection. For I guessed he was bringing me the thing, which would make me happy all day. I only hope the government pays him properly. I think this is the least pleasant letter I have ever sent you. Shall I tell you why? It was not the sermon. He is quite a forgivable good man in his way. But in the afternoon that same Mrs. P. came, got me in a corner, and wanted to unburden herself of evictive against your mother, believing that I should be glad, because her coldness to me has become known. What mean things some people can think about me. I heard nothing, but I am ruffled in all my plumage, and want stroking. And my love to your mother, please, if she will have it. It is only through her that I get you, ever your very own. Letter XXVIII Dearest, here comes a letter to you from me, flying in the opposite direction. I won't say I'm not wishing to go, but oh, to be a bird in two places at once. Give this letter, then, a special nesting-place, because I am so much on the wing elsewhere. I shut my eyes most of the time through France, and opened them on a soup-terrain full of coffee, which presented itself at the frontier, and then realized that only a little way ahead lay Beren, with baths, buns, bears, breakfasts, and other nice things beginning with B, waiting to make us clean, comfortable, contented, and other nice things beginning with C. Through France I loved you sleepy fashion, with many dreams in between, not all about you. But now I am breathing thoughts of you, out of a new atmosphere, a great gulp of you, all clean living and high thinking between these alpine, royal highnesses, with snow-white crowns to their heads, and no time for a word more about anything except you. You, and double you, and trouble you if the alphabet only had grace to contain so beautiful a symbol. Goodbye! We meet next, perhaps, out of Lucerne, if not, Italy. What a lot I have to go through before we meet again visibly. You will find me world-worn, my beloved, right often. Beloved, you know of the method for making a cat settle down in a strange place by buttering her all over, the theory being that by the time she has polished off the butter she feels herself at home. My mother's work has been the buttering of Mother Aunt, with such things as will Lucerne her the most. When her instincts are appeased I am the more free to indulge my own. So after breakfast we went round the cloisters, very thick set with tables and family vaults, and crowded graves enclosed. It proved quite the best butter. To me the penance turned out interesting after a period of natural repulsion. A most pleasant addition to sepulchral sentiment is here the fashion. Photographs of the departed set into the stone. You see an elegant and gentile marble cross there on the pedestal above the name is the photo. A smug man with bourgeois whiskers. A militia man with waxed moustaches. Well turned up. A woman, well attired and conscious of it. You cannot think how indecent looked the pretension of such types to the dignity of death and immortality. But just one or two faces stood the test and were justified. A young man, oppressed with the burden of youth. A sweet, toothless grandmother in a bonnet. Wearing old age like a flower. A woman, not beautiful, but for her neck which carried indignation. Her face had a thwarted look. Dead and rotten. One did not say of these in disgust and involuntarily, as one did of the others. And yet I don't suppose the eye picks out the faces that kindled the most kindness round them when living. Or that one can see well at all where one sees without sympathy. I think the mother aunt's face would not look so dear to most people as it does to me. Yet my sight of her is the truer. Only I would not put it on a tombstone in order that it might look nothing to those that pass by. I wrote this much and then, leaving the MA to glory in her innumerable correspondence, Arthur and I went off to the lake, where we have been for about seven hours. On it I found it became infinitely more beautiful, for everything was mystified by a lovely blooming haze, out of which the white peaks floated like dreams, and the mountains change and change and seem not at all the same as going when returning. Don't ask me to write landscapes to you. One breathes it in, and it is there ever after, but remains unset towards. The teas whittled themselves out of our company just to the right amount, came back at the right time, which is more than Arthur and I are likely to do when our legs get on the spin, and are duly welcome with a diversity of doings to talk about. Their tastes are more the MA's, and their activities about half way between hers and ours, so we may rather a fortunate quintet. The M-trio join us the day after tomorrow, when the majority of us will head away at once to Florence. Arthur growls and threatens he means to be left behind for a week, and it suits the funny little jealousy of the MA well enough to see us parted for a time, quite apart from the fact that I shall then be more dependent on her company. She will then glory in overworking herself, say it is me, and I shall feel a fiend. No letter at all, dearest this. Merely talky talky. Yours without words. End of Section Seven. Section Eight of an English Woman's Love Letters. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. An English Woman's Love Letters by Anonymous. Section Eight. Letters 30 through 33. Letter 30. Dearest, I cannot say I have seen Pisa. For the majority had their way, and we simply skipped into it, got ourselves bumped down at the Duomo and Campo Santo for two hours, fell exhausted to bed, and skipped out again by the first train next morning. Over the walls of the Campo Santo are some divine crumbs of Benazzo Ghazoli. Don't expect me ever to spell the names of dead painters correctly. It is a politeness one owes to the living, but the famous dead are exalted by being spelled phonetically, as the heart dictates, and become all the better company for that greatest of unspelled and spread about names. Shakespeare. Shakespeare. His mark not himself. Such a long parentheses requires stepping-stones to carry you over it. Crumbs was the last. Wasn't a whole loaf of bread a stepping-stone in one of Anderson's fairytales? But indeed, I hadn't time to digest them properly. Let me come back to them before I die, and bury me in that enclosure, if you love me as much then as I think you do now. The Baptistry has a roof of echoes that is wonderful. A mirror of sound hung over the head of an official who opens his mouth for sentiments to drop there. You sing notes into it, or rather you don't, for that is his prerequisite, and they fly circling and flock and become a single chord stretching two octaves till you feel that you are living inside what in the days of our youth would have been called the sound of a grand amen. The Cathedral has fine points, or more than points, aspects, but the Italian version of Gothic with its bands of flat marbles instead of mouldings was a shock to me at first. I only begin to understand it now that I have seen the outside of the Duomo at Florence. Curiously enough it doesn't strike me as in the least Christian, only civic and splendid, reminding me of what Ruskin says about church architecture being really a dependent on the feudal or domestic.  Its effects is of an iron hand which gives you a buffet in the face when you look up and wonder, how shall I climb in? I will tell you more about insides when I write next. I fear my last letter to you from Lucerne may either have strayed or not even have begun straying, for in the hurry of coming away I left it addressed, I think, but unstamped, and I am not sure that that particular hotel will be Christian enough to spare the postage out of the bell, which had a galaxy of small extras running into sentimes, and suggesting a red-tape recitude that would not show blind twenty-five sentime gratitude to the backs of departed guests. So be patient and forgiving if I seem to have written little. I found two of yours waiting for me, and cannot choose between them which I find most dear. I will say for a fancy the shorter, that you may ever be encouraged to write your shortest rather than none at all. One word from you gives me almost as much pleasure as twenty, for it contains all your sincerity and truth, and what more do I want? You bless me quite. How many perfectly happy days I owe to you, and seldom dare dream that I have made any beginning of a return. If I could take one unhappy day out of your life, dearest, the secret would be mine, and no such thing should be left in it. Be happy, beloved. Oh, happy, happy, with me for a partial reason. That is what I wish. LETTER XXXI Dearest, the Italian paper-money paralyzes my brain. I cannot calculate in it, and where I left myself an unscrupulous shopman could empty me of pounds without my becoming conscious of it till I beheld a vacuum. But the teas have been wonderful caretakers to me, and to-morrow Arthur rejoins us, so that I shall be able to resume my full activities under his safe conduct. The ways of the Italian cabbies and porters fill me with terror for the time when I may have to fall alive and unassisted into their hands. They have neither conscience nor gratitude, and regard thievish demands when satisfying merely as stepping-stones to hire things. Many of the outsides of Florence I seemed to know by heart, the Palazzo Vicio, for instance. But, close by it, Salini's two statues, the Judas and the Perseus, brought my heart up to my mouth unexpectedly. The Perseus is so out of proportion as to be ludicrous from one point of view, but another is magnificent enough to make me forgive the scamp his autobiography from now to the day of judgment. When we shall all begin forgiving each other in great haste, I suppose, for fear of the devil taking the hide most. And I registered a vow on the spot to that effect. So no more of him here, henceforth, but good. There is not so much color about as I had expected, and austerity rather than richness is the note of most of the exteriors. I have not been allowed into the avesi yet, so to-day consoled myself with the piti. Titan's Duke of Norfolk is there, and I loved him, seeing a certain likeness there to somebody whom I like. A photo of him will be coming to you. Also there is a very fine Lely Van Dyke of Charles I, and Henrietta Maria, a quite moral painting, making a triumphant assertion of that martyr's bad character.  Somewhere too high up was hanging a ravishing but a celly, a Madonna and child bending over like a wind-blown tree to be kissed by St. John, a composition that takes you up in its arms and rocks you as you look at it. Andre Del Tharto is to me only a big mediocrity. There is nothing here to touch his cordling child-christ in our national gallery. At Pisa I slept in a mosquito net, and felt like a bride at the altar under a tulle veil, which was too large for her. Here for lack of that luxury, being assured that there were no mosquitoes to be had, I have been subtly ravaged. The creatures pick out all foreigners, I think, and only when they have exhausted the supply do they pass on to the natives. Mrs. T. left one foot unveiled when in Pisa, and only this morning did the irritation in the part bitten begin to come out. I can now ask for a bath in Italian, and order the necessary things for myself in the hotel. Also say, come in, and thank you, but just a few days of that very German table-dolt at Lucerne, where I talked gladly to polish myself up, have given my tongue a hybrid way of talking without thinking, and I say ja ja, and nein, and der die, das, and often as not before such Italian nouns as I have yet captured. To fall upon a chamber made who knows French is like coming upon my native tongue suddenly. Give me good news of your foot, and all that is above it. I am so doubtful of its being really strong yet, and its willing spirits will overcome it some day, and do it an injury, and hurt my feelings dreadfully at the same time. Walk only on one leg whenever you think of me.  Wishing, wishing, what no word on paper can ever carry to you. It shall be at our next meeting. All yours. LETTER XXXII My dearest, Florence is still eating up all my time and energies. I promised you there should be austerity and self-denial in the matter of letter-writing, and I know you are unselfish enough to expect even less than I send you. Girls in the street address compliments to Arthur's complexion. Little brown boy they call him, and he simmers over with vanity, and wishes he could show them his boating arms, brown up to the shoulder as well. Have you noticed that combination in some of the dearest specimens of young English manhood, great physical vanity and great mental modesty, and each as transparently sincere as the other? The Bargello is an ideal museum for the storage of the best things out of the Middle Ages. It opens out of splendid courtyards and staircases, and ranges through rooms which have quite a futile gloom about them. Most of these are hung with bad, late tapestries, too late at least for my taste, so that the gloom is welcome and charming, making even goblins quite bearable. I find quite a new man here to admire. Puello, both painter and sculptor, one of the school of passionate anatomists, as I call them, about the time of Botticelli fancy. He has one bust of a young Florentine which equals Varrocio on the same ground, and charms me even more. Some of his subjects are done twice over, in paint and bronze, but he is more really a sculptor, I think, and merely paints his piece into a picture from its best point of view. Varrocio's idea of David is charming. He is a saucy fellow who has gone in for it for the whole fun of the thing. Knew he could bring down a hawk with his catapult, and therefore why not a goliath also? If he failed, he need but cut and run, and everybody would laugh and call him plucky for doing even that much. So he does it, brings down his big game by good luck, and stands, posing with a sort of irresistible stateliness, to suit the result.  He is the merriest of sly dog hypocrites, and has thin, wiry arms, and a crainy neck. He is a bit like Tom Sawyer in character, more ornate and dramatic than Huckleberry Finn, but quite as much a liar given a good cause. Another thing that has seized me, more for its idea than actual carrying out, is an unnamed terracotta, Madonna and child.  My notion of it is that it is the Godhead taking his first look at life from the human point of view, and he realizes himself, caught in his own trap, discovering it to be ever so much worse than it had seemed from an outside view. It is a fine, modern, zeke-gazed piece of declamation, to come out of the rather oversweet, dello-robia period of art. There seems to have been a rate at one point for commissioning statues of David, so Donatello and others turned to and did what they liked most in the way of budding youth, stuck a goliath-head at its feet, and called it David. Vorocio is the exception. We are going to get outside Florence for a week or ten days. It is too hot to be born at night after a day of tiring activity, so we got to the D's villa, which they offered us in their absence. It lies about four miles out, and is on much higher ground. Address only a very immediately next letter there, or it may miss me. There are hills out there with vineyards, among them which draw me into wishing to be away from towns altogether. Much as I love what it is to be found in this one, I think heaven meant to me to be truly rural. Which all falls in, dearest, with what I mean to be. Beloved, how little I sometimes can say to you. Sometimes my heart can put only silence into the end of a letter, and with that I let this one go. Years and so lovingly. Letter XXXIII Beloved, I had your last letter on Friday. All your letters have come in the right numbers. I have lost count of mine, but I think seven and two postcards is the total, which is the same as the numbers of clean and unclean beasts proportionately represented in the ark. Up here we are out of the deadliness of the heat, and are thankful for it. Vineyards and olives brush the eyes between the hard upright bars of the cypresses, and Florence below is like a hot bath which we dip into and come out again. At the Riccardi Chapel I found Bonozo Gosoli not in crumbs but perfectly preserved, a procession of early Florentine youth, turning into angels when they get to the bay of the window where the altar once stood. The more I see of them the greater these early men seem to me. I shall be afraid to go to Venice soon. Titan will only half satisfy me, and in Torretto I know will be actively annoying.  It is well to have the courage of one's likings and dislikings. That is the only true culture, this state obtained by use of a couture or cutter. I kept many things severely which, no doubt, are good for other people. But to tell you I was shy of, because of the craze about him among the people who know nothing. He is far more wonderful than I had hoped, both at the Euphesie and at the Academia. But he is quite pagan. I don't know why I say but. He is quite typical of the world's art training. Christianity may get a hold of the names and dictate the subjects, but the artist's breed carries a fairly level head through it all. And, like Pater's Mona Lisa, draws Christianity and paganism into one. At least, wherever it reaches perfect expression it has done so. Some of the distinctly primitives are different. Their works enclose a charm which is not artistic. Fra Angelico, after being a great disappointment to me in some of his large set pictures in the Academia and elsewhere, shows himself lovely in fresco, though I think the crumb element helps him. His great crucifixion is big altogether, and has so permanent a force in its aloofness from mere drama and mere life. In San Marco the cells of the monks are quite charming. A row of little square bandboxes under a broad, rafted corridor. And in every cell is a beautiful little fresco for the monks to live up to. But they no longer live there now. All that part of San Marco has become a peep-show. I liked being in Savana Rola's room, and was more susceptible to the remains of his presence than I have been to Michelangelo or any one else's. Michelangelo I feel most when he has left a thing unfinished. Then one can put one's finger into the print of the chisel, and believe anything of the beauty that might have come out of the great stone chrysalis lying cased and rough, waiting to be raised up to life. Yesterday Arthur and I walked from here to Fiesel, which we had neglected while in Florence, six miles going, and more like twelve coming back, all because of Arthur's absurd cross-country instinct which, after hours of river bends, bare mountain tracks and tottering precipices, brought us out again half a mile nearer Florence than when we started. At Fiesel is the only church about here whose interior architecture I have greatly admired, austere but at the same time gracious, like a Madonna of the best period of painting. We also went to look at the Roman Baz and theatre. The theatre is charming enough, because it is still there, but for the Baz oblongs of stone, don't interest me, just because they are old. All stone is old, and these didn't even hold water, to give one the real look of the thing.  Most dear beloved. Letter 34 Dearest, we were to have gone down with the rest into Florence yesterday, but soft miles of Italy gleamed too invitingly away on our right, and I saw Arthur's eyes hungry with the same faraway wish. So I said, Preto, and he ran up to the Fatours, and secured a wondrous chandredan, with just space enough between its horns to toss the two of us in the direction where we would go. Its gaunt framework was painted of a bright red, and our feet had only netting to rest on. So constructed the creature was most vital and light of limb, taking every rut on the road with flea-like agility. Oh, but it was worth it. We had a drive of fourteen miles through the hills and villages, and castellated villas, with gardens shut in by formerly ble-high walls, always a charm. A garden should always have something of the jealous occlusion of a harem. I am getting Italian landscape into my system, and enjoy it more and more. Preto is a little cathedral-town, very like the narrow and tumble-down parts of Florence, only more so. The streets were a seething cauldron of cattle-market when we entered, which made us feel like a teacup in a bull-ring, or is it a thunderstorm? As we drove through the Nidozai ways, bristling with agitated horns. The cathedral is little and good, damaged, of course, wherever the last three centuries have laid hands on it. At the corner of the west front is an outdoor pulpit, beautifully put on with a mushroom hood over its head. The main lines of the interior are finally severe, either quite round or quite flat, and proportions good always. An upholstered priest, coming out to say mass, is generally a sickening sight, so wicked and ugly in love can cost you. The best-behaved people are the low-down beggars, who are most decoratively devotional. We tried to model our exit on a brigand beggar who came in to ask permission to murder one of his enemies. He got his request granted at one of the side-alters, some strictly local Madonna, I imagine, and his gratitude as he departed was quite touching. Having studiously copied his exit, we want to know whom we shall murder to pay ourselves for our trouble. It amuses me to have my share of driving over these free and easy and very narrow high roads. But A. has to do the collision-shouting and the cries of VIA! the horse only smiles when he hears me do it. Also, did I tell you that on Sunday we too walked from here over to Fiesol, six miles there and ten back? For why? Because we chose to go what Arthur calls a beeline across the country, having thought we had sighted a route from the top of the Fieso. But in the valley we lost it, and after breaking our necks over precipices and our hearts down cul-de-sacs that rent nowhere, and losing all the ways that were pointed out to us for lack of the knowledge of the language, we came out again into the view of Florence about half a mile nearer than when we started and proportionately far away from home. When he had got me, thoroughly foot sore, Arthur remarked complacently, the right way to see a country is to lose yourself in it. I didn't feel the truth of it then, but applied to other things I perceive its wisdom. Dear heart, where have I lost myself? What in the world do I know so well as you? You're most lost and loving. Letter 35 Beloved, rain swooped down on us from on high during the night, and the country is cut into islands. The river from a rocky wriggling stream has risen to a tawny, opaque torrent that roars with a voice a mile long, and has become quite unfortable. The little mill stream just below has broken its banks and poured itself away over the lower vineyards into the river. A lot of the vines look sadly upset, generally unhinged and unstrung, yet I am told the damage is really small. I hope so, for I enjoy a real lash out of weather, after the changelessness of the long heat. I have been down in Florence beginning to make my farewells to the many things I have seen too little of. We start away for Venice about the end of the week. At the Uffizi I seem to have found out all my future favourites the first day, and very little new has come to me. But most of them go on growing. The raffia lady is quite wonderful. I think she was in love with him, and her soul went into the painting, though he himself did not care for her. And she looks at you and says, see a miracle, he was able to paint this, and never knew that I loved him. It is wonderful that, but I suppose it can be done. A soul pass into her work and haunt it without its creator knowing anything about how it came there. Always when I come across anything like that, which has something inner and rather mysterious, I tremble and want to get back to you. You are the touchstone by which I must test everything that is a little new and unfamiliar. And now onwards, dearest, you must expect only cards for a time. It is not subtle yet whether we stop at Padeo on our way in or our way out. I am clamouring for Verona also. But that will be off our route, so Arthur and I may go there alone for a couple of greedy days, which I fear will only leave me dissatisfied and wishing I had patience to depend on coming again, perhaps with you. Little Anne has written of your numerous visits to him, and I understand you have been very good in his direction. He does not speak of loneliness, and with Anna and her brood, next week or now he will be as happy as his temperament allows him to be when he has nothing to worry over. I am proud to say I have gone brown without freckles, and are you really as cheerful as you write yourself to be? Dearest and best, when is your holiday to begin? And is it to be with me? Does anywhere on earth hold that happiness for us both in the near future?  LETTER XXXVI Dearest, Venice is round me as I write. Well, I will not waste my Bedecker knowledge on you. You too can get a copy, and it is not the panoramic view of things you will be wanting from me. It is my own particular Venice. I am to find out and send you. So first of all from the heart of it I send you mine. When I have kissed you I will go on. My eyes have been seeing so much that it is new. I shall want a fresh vocabulary for it all. But mainly I want to say, let us be here again together, quickly, before we lose any more of our youth, or our two-handed hold on life. I get short of breath thinking of it. So let it be here, beloved, that some of our soon-to-be happiness opens and shuts its eyes. For truly Venice is a sleepy place. I am wanting and taking nine hours' sleep after all I do. Outside coming over the flats from Padau she looks something like a manufacturing town at its abulations, a smoky chimney well to the fore. But get near to her, and you find her standing on turquoise. Her feet set abode with jaspers, and with one of her eyes she ravishes you, and all her campanile are like the thin flames of souls mounting up to God. This is from without. Within she becomes too sensuous and civic in her splendor to let me think much of souls. Rest and be indolent is the model for the life she teaches. The architecture is the song of the lotus-eater built into stone. Where I in a more florid mood I would have said a swan song. For the hall stands finished, with nothing more to be added. It has sung itself out, and if there is a moral to it all, no doubt it is in Ruskin, and I don't want to read it just now. What I want is you close at hand, looking up at all this beauty, and smiling when I smile, which is your way, as if you had no opinion of your own about anything in which you are not a professor. So you will write and agree that I am to have the pleasure of this return to look forward to. If I know that, I shall be so much more reconciled to all the joy of the things I am seeing now for the first time, and shall see so much better the second, beloved, when your eyes are here helping me. Here is love, dearest, help yourself to just as much as you wish for, though all that I send is good for you. No letter from you since Florence, but I am neither sad nor anxious, only all the more you're loving. Letter 37 Beloved, the weather is as grey as England to-day, and much rainier. To feel it on my cheeks and be back north, with that and warmer things I would go out in it in the face of protests, and had to go alone, not arth or even, being in the mood just then for a patriotic quest of the uncomfortable. I had myself oared into the lagoons across a racing-current and a driving headwind which made my gondolier bend like a distressed poplar over his oar. Patience on a monument smiling at back sheath. All comes to him, who knows. Of course, for comfort and pleasure, and everything but economy, we have picked up a gondolier to Pat. We, making much of him, and he much out of us. He takes Arthur to a place where he can bathe, to use his own expression, cleanly, that is to say, unconventionally, and this appropriately enough, is on the borders of a land called the Garden of Eden, being named so after its owners. He, Charon, I call him, is large and of ruddy continents, and talks English in blinkers, that is to say, gondola English, out of which he could not find words to summon me a cab, even if it were not opposed to his interests. Still there are no cabs to be called in Venice, and he is teaching us that the shortest way is always by water. If Arthur is not punctually in his gondola by seven a.m. I hear a call for the Signeur Inglaise. Go up to his window, and it is hungry Charon waiting to ferry him. Yesterday your friend, Mr. C., called and took me over to Murano in a beautiful par-ord boat that simply flew. There I saw a wonderful apse filled with mosaic of dull gold, wherein is set a blue-black figure of the Madonna, ten heads high and ten centuries old, which almost made me become a mereolatress on the spot. She is standing and leading up the bend, with two pale hands lifted in ghostly blessing. Underfoot the floor is all mosaic, mountainous with age and earthquakes, the architecture classic in the grip of Byzantine Christianity, which is like the spirit of God moving on the face of the waters, or Ezekiel prophesying to the dry bones. The Colione is quite as much more beautiful in fact, and seen full size as I had hoped from all smaller reproductions. A fine equestrian figure always strikes one as enthroned, and not merely riding. If I can't get that I consider a centaur, the nobler creature with its human body set down into the socket of the brute and all fire, a candle burning at both ends, which in a way is what the centaur means, I imagine. Bellini goes on being wonderful, and for me beats Raphael's Blenheim Madonna period on its own ground. I hear now that the Raphael lady I raved over in Florence is no Raphael at all, which accounts for it being so beautiful and interesting to me. I hasten to add. Raphael's studied calmness, his soul of invisible soap and imperceptible water, may charm some, me it only chills, or leaves unmoved. Is this more about art than you care to hear? I have nothing to say about myself, except that I am as happy as a cut-in-half thing can be. Is it any use sending kind messages to your mother? If so, my heart is full of them. Bless you, dearest, and good night. End of Section 9. Section 10 of an English Woman's Love Letters. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org and English Woman's Love Letters by Anonymous. Section 10. Letter 38-40. Letter 38. Dearest, St. Mark's inside is entirely different from anything I had imagined. I had expected a grove of pillars instead of these wonderful bretts of wall. And the marble overlay I had not understood at all till I saw it. My admiration mounts every time I enter. It is a different gloom from any I have ever been in. More joyous and satisfying, not in the least moody as our own gothic seems sometimes to be. And saints instead of devils look at you solemn-eyed from every corner of shade. A heavy rain turns the piazza into a lake. This morning Arthur had to carry me across. Other foolish English women were shocked at such means and paddled their own leaky canoes or stood on the brink and looked miserable. The effect of rain-pool reflections on the inside of St. Mark's is noticeable, causing it to bloom unexpectedly into fresh subtleties and glories. The gold takes so sympathetically to any least tint of color that is in the air, and counts up the altar candles even unto its furthest recesses and capolas. I think before I leave Venice I shall find about ten tintoretto's which I really like. Best of all is the Bacchus and Ariadne in the Ducal Palace, of which you gave me the engraving. His marriage of St. Catherine, which is there also, has all Veronesa's charm of color, and what I call his breeding, and in the ceiling of the Council Chamber is one splendid figure of a sea-youth astriding a dolphin. Last evening we climbed the San Giorgio Campanile for a sunset view of Venice. It is a much better point of view than the St. Mark's one, and we were lucky in our sunset. Venice again looked like a beautiful factory town, blue and blue with smoke and evening mists. Down below in the church I met a delightful capuchin priest who could talk French, and a poor, very young lay-brother who had the holy custody of the eyes heavenly upon his conscience when I spoke to him. I was so sorry for him. The mother aunt is still in bed, but she is at the present moment receiving three visitors. You will understand about how ill. The fact is she is worn to death with sight-seeing. I can't stop her. While she is on her legs it is her duty and she will. The consequences I get rushed through things I want to let soak into me, and have to go again. My only way of getting her to rest has been by deserting her, and then I come back and receive reproaches with amic countenance. Mr. C. has been good to us in cordial, and brings his gondola often to our service. A gondola and pair has quite a different motion from a one-ord gondola. It is like riding a seahorse instead of a sea camel, almost exciting, only it is so soft in its prancing's. He took A. and myself into the procession, which welcomed the crowned heads last Wednesday. The hurly burly of it was splendid. We tore down the grand canal from end to end, almost cheek by gel with the royalties. The M.A. was quite jubilant when she heard we had had such good places. Hundreds of gondolas swarmed around, many of them in the old carpaccio-rigots, very gorgeous though a little tawdry when taking out of the canvas. But the rush and the collisions, and the sound of many waters walloping under the bellies of the gondolas, and the blows of fighting oars, regular underwater wrestling-matches, made it as vivid and amusing as a prolonged Oxford and Cambridge boat-race in fancy costume. Our gondoliers streamed with the exertion, and looked like men fighting a real battle, and yet enjoyed it thoroughly. Violent altercations with police-boats don't ruffle them at all. At one moment it looks daggers-drawn, at the next it is shrugs and smiles. Often, from not knowing enough of Italian and Italian ways, I get hot all over when an ordinary discussion is going on, thinking that blows are about to be exchanged. The M.A. had hung a wonderful satin skirt out of a window for decoration, and when she leaned over it in a bodice of the same color it looked as if she were sitting with her legs out as well. I suppose it was this peculiar effect that when the king and queen came by earlier in the morning one for her a special bow and smile. I must hurry or I shall miss the post that I wish to catch. There seems little chance now of my getting you in Venice, but everywhere else perhaps you will drop to me out of the clouds. Your own and most loving. My own, own beloved, say that my being away does not seem so long. I have not had a letter yet, and that makes me somehow not anxious, but compunctious. Only writing to you of all I do helps to keep me in good conscience. Not the other foot gone to the menders, I hope, with the same obstructive accompaniments as went to the setting up again of the last. If I don't hear soon you will have me dancing on wires, which cost as much by the word as a gondola by the hour. Yesterday we went to see the Carpeggio at its best in San D'Arguil, di sciavone, two are Saint George Pictures, three Saint Jerome's, and two of some other Saint unknown to me. The Saint Jerome series is really a homily on the love and pathos of animals. First is Saint Jerome in his study with a sort of unclipped white poodle in the pictorial place of honour, all alone on a floor beautifully swept and garnished, looking up wistfully to his master, busy at writing.  Scattered among the adornments of the room are small bronzes of horses, and I think birds. So of course these being his tastes, when Saint Jerome goes into the wilderness a lion takes to him, and accompanies him when he pays a call on the monks in the neighbouring monastery. Thereupon holy men of little faith, the entire fraternity, take to their heels and rush upstairs, the hindermost clinging to the skirts of the foremost, to behold the quicker out of harm's way. And all the while the lion stands incorrectly offering the left paw, and Jerome wish-rugs tries to explain that even the best butter wouldn't melt in his dear lion's mouth. After that comes the tragedy. Saint Jerome lies dying in excessive odour of sanctity, and all the monks crowd round him with prayers and viaticums, and the ordinary stuffy pieties of a happy death, while Jerome wonders feebly what it is he misses in all this to do, for which he cares so little.  Quite near to him, fastened to a tree, a queer, nondescript, crocodile-shaped dog runs out the length of its tether to comfort the disconsolate beast. But Labate Humane has cut the whip hand of the situation. In another picture is a parrot that has just mimicked a dog, or called Carlo, and then laughed.  There are perhaps mere undercurrents of pictures which are quite glorious in colour and design, but they help me to love carpicchio to distraction, and when the others lose me they hunt through all the carpaccios in Venice till they find me. Love me a little more if possible, while I am so long absent from you. What I do and what I think go so much together now that you will take what I write as the most of me that it is possible to cram in, coming back to you to share everything. Under such an Italian sky as to-day how I would like to see your face. Here, dearest, among these places you would be in your peerage, for I think you have some southern blood in you. Curious that, with all my fairness, somebody said to me to-day, But you are not quite English, are you? And I swore by the nine gods of my ancestry that I was nothing else. But the look is in us.  My love to England, is it showing much autumn yet? My eyes long for green fields again, since I have been in Italy I have not seen one until the other day from the top of St. Gargio Maggiore, where one lies in hiding under the monastery walls. All that I see now quickens me to fresh thoughts of you, yet do not expect me to come back wiser. My last effort at wisdom was to fall in love with you, and there I stop for good and all. There I am still, everything included. What do you want more? My letter and my heart both threaten to be overweight, so no more of them this time. Most dearly do I love you. Letter 40 Beloved, if two days slip by I don't know where I am when I come to write. Things get so crowded in such a short space of time. Where I left off I know not. I will begin where I am most awake, your letter which I have just received. That is well, dearest, that is well indeed, a truce till February, and since the struggle then must needs be a sharp one, with only one end as we know. Do not vex her now by any overt signs of preparation, as if you assumed already that her final arguments were to be as so much chaff before the wind.  She does not say I shall not love you enough? To answer business-like to your questions first, with your forgiveness we stay here till the twenty-fifth, and get back to England with the last of the month. Does that seem a very cruel, far off date? Others have the wish to stay even longer, and it would be no fairness to hurry them beyond a certain degree of reasonoppleness with my particular reason for impatience, seeing moreover that in your love I have every help for remaining patient. It is too much to hope, I suppose, that the truce sets you free now, and that you could meet us here after all, and prolong our stay indefinitely. I know one besides myself who would be glad and who would welcome an outside excuse dearly. For all the funniness of near and dear things Arthur's heart is laid up with a small love affair, and it is the comicalist of internal maladies. He is screwing up courage to tell me all about it, and I write in haste before my mouth is sealed by his confidences. I fancy I know the party, an energetic little mortal whom we met at Lucerne, where Arthur lingered while we came on to Florence. She talked vaguely of being in Venice some time this autumn, and the vagueness continues. Arthur, in consequence, roams round and disconsolately, with no interest but in hotel-books, and for fear lest we should gird up his loins and drag him away with us out of paradisal possibilities, he is for ever praising Venice as a resting-place, and saying he wants to be nowhere else. The bathing just keeps him alive, but when put to it to explain what charms him, since pictures do not, and architecture only slightly, he says in exemplary brotherly fashion that he likes to see me completing my education and enthusiasm, and does not realize with how foreign an air that explanation sits upon his shoulders. I saw to-day a remnant of your patron saint, and for your sake transfer to kiss to it, Italian fashion, with my thumb and the sign of the cross. I hope it will do you good. Also I have been up among the galleries of St. Mark's, and about the roof, and the west front where somebody or another painted his picture of the bronze horses. The pigeons get to recognize people personally, and grow more intimate every time we come. I even conceive they make favourites, for I had three pecking food out of my mouth to-day, and refusing to take it in any other fashion, and they coo and say thank you before and after every seed they take or spill. They are quite the pleasantest of all the Italian beggars and the cleanest. Your friend pressed us into tea yesterday. I think, less for the sake of giving us tea, than that we should see his palace, or rather his first floor, in which alone he seems to lose himself. I have no idea for measurements, but I imagine his big sala is about eighty feet long and perhaps twenty-five feet across, with a flat-beamed roof, windows at each end, and porchiers along the walls of old blue Venetian linen, a place in which it seems one could only live and think nobly. His face seems to respond to its teachings. What more might not an environment like that bring out in you? Come, and let me see. I have hopes springing as I think of things that you may be coming after all, and that, that is what lay concealed under the gaiety of your last paragraph. Then I am more blessed even than I knew. What? You are coming? So well I do love you, my beloved. And a Section 10. Section 11 of an English Woman's Love Letters. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. An English Woman's Love Letters by Anonymous. Section 11. Letters 41 through 43. Letter 41. Dearest, this letter will travel with me. We leave to-day. Our movements are to be too restless and uncomfortable for the next few days for me to have a chance of quiet seeing or quiet writing anywhere. At Riva we shall rest, I hope. Yesterday a storm began coming over towards evening, and I thought to myself that if it passed in time there should be a splendid sunset of smolder and glitter to be seen from the Campanile, and perhaps by good chance a rainbow. I went alone. When I got up to the top the rain was pelting hard, so there I stayed happily weather-bound for an hour looking over Venice, silvered with slants of rain, and watching umbrellas scattering below with toes beneath them. The golden smolder was very slow in coming. It lay over the mainland and came creeping along the railway track. Then came the glitter and the sun, and I turned round and found my rainbow. But it wasn't a bow, it was a circle. The Campanile stood up as it were, a spoke in the middle. The lower curve of the rainbow lay on the ground of the piazza, cut off sharply by the shadow of the Campanile. It was worth waiting an hour to see. The islands shone mellow and bright in the clearance with the storm going off black behind them. Goodbye, Venice! Verona began by seeming dull to me, but it improves and unfolds beautifully corners of itself to be looked at. Only I am given so little time. The tombs of the Della Scalus and the Renaissance façade of the Conziglio are what chiefly delight me. I hid some quiet hours in the museo, where I fell in love with a little picture by an unknown painter, of Orpheus charming the beasts in a wandering green landscape, with a dance of fawns in the distance, and here and there Eurydice running, and Orpheus in Hades, and the Thracian woman killing him, and a crocodile fishing out his head, and mermaids and ducks sitting above their reflections reflecting. Also there is one beautiful Tobias and the angel there by a painter whose name I most ungratefully forget. I saw man yesterday carrying fishes in the market, each strung through the gills on a twig of myrtle. That is how Tobias ought to carry his fish, when a native custom should just, old paintings, how charming it always is. Riva. We have just got here from Verona. In the matter of the garden at least it is a paradise of a place. A great sill of honeysuckle leans out from my window. Beyond is a court grown round with creepers, and beyond that the garden. Such a garden. The first thing one sees is an arcade of vines upon stone pillars, between which peep, stacks of roses, going off a little from their glory now, and right away stretches an alley of green that shows at the end a furlong off, the blue glitter of water. It is a beautifully wild garden. Grass and vegetables and trees and roses all grow in a jungle together. There are little groves of bamboo and chestnut and willow, and a runnel of water is somewhere I can hear it. It suggests rest which I want, and so for all its difference suggests you, whom also I want more I own it now than I have said. But that went without saying, beloved, as it always must if it is to be the truth and nothing short of the truth. Now this has been waiting to go, your letter has been put into my hands. I am too happy to say words about it, and can afford now to let this go as it is. The little time of waiting for you will be perfect happiness now, and your coming seems to color all that is behind as well. I have had a good time indeed, and was only wearying with the plethora of my enjoyment. But the better time has been kept till now. We shall be together day after day, and all day long, for at least a month I hope. A joy that has never happened to us yet. Never mind about the lost letter now, dearest. Dearest, Venice was a little empty just one week because of it. I still hope it will come. But what matter? I know you will. All my heart waits for you. You're most glad and most loving. Letter 42 Dearest, I saw an old woman riding a horse astride, and I was convinced on the spot that this is the rightest way of riding, and that the sidesaddle was a foolish and affected invention. The horse was fine, and so was the young man leading it. The old woman was upright and stately, with a wide hat and full petticoats like a Maximilian soldier. This was at Bozen, where we stayed for two nights, and from which I have brought a cold with me. It seems such an English thing to have, that I feel quite at home in the discomfort of it. It had been such wonderful weather that we were sitting out of doors every evening up to nine thirty p.m. without wraps, and on our heads only our widow's caps. The MA persists in a style which suggests that Uncle Anne has gone to a better world. Mine was too flimsy of work of fiction, and a day before I had been for a climb and got wet through.  I had no idea Innsbruck was so high up among the mountains. Wolves are on the peaks all round. Behind the housetops, so clear and near, lies a quarter circle of white crests.  Sometimes they are called wolves, sometimes bears. Anyway, the feeling is medieval. Hereabouts the wayside shrines nearly always contain a crucifix, whereas in Italy that was rare. The virgin and child be in the most common. I remarked on this, which I suppose gave rise to a subsequent observation of the MA's. I think the Tyrolese are a good people. They are not given over to mereoletry, like those poor priest-ridden Italians. I think, however, that they merely have that fundamental grace, religious simplicity, worshiping, just what they can get. For yesterday I saw two old dear bodies going round and telling their beads before the bronze statues of the Maximilian tomb. King Arthur, Charles the Bold, etc. I suppose by mere association a statue helps them to pray. The national costume does look so nice, though not exactly beautiful. I like the flat black hats, with long streamers behind and a gold tassel, and the spacious apron. Blue satin is a favorite style, always silk or satin, for Sunday best, when I saw of pearl-white brocade. Since we came north we have had lovely weather, except the one day of which I am still the filtering's, and mourning along the Brenner Pass was perfect. I think the mountains look most beautiful quite early at sunrise, when they are all pearly and mysterious. We go on to Zurich on Thursday, and then, beloved, and then. So this must be my last letter, since I shall have nowhere to write to you, with you rushing all across Europe, and resting nowhere, because of my impatience to have you. The mother-aunt concedes a whole month, but Arthur will have to leave earlier for the beginning of term. How little my two dearest men have yet seen of each other. Barely a week lies between us. This will scarcely catch you, dearest of dearest. My heart waits on yours. LETTER 43 My dearests, see what an effect your gallish young hound episode has had on me. I send it back to you, roughly done into rhyme. I don't know whether it will carry, for outside your telling of it. Johnny Kigarau is not a name of heroic sound. What touches me as so strangely complete about it is that you should have got that impression, and momentary romantic delusion as a child, and now here, years after, of his disappearing out of life, thus fittingly and mysteriously, so that his name will fix its legend to the countryside for many a long day.  It must have been soon after this that your brother died. Truly, dearest, from now and strangely this Johnny Kigarau will seem more to me than him, touching a more heroic strain of idea, and stiffening fibers in your nature that brotherhood, as a rule, has no bearing on. LETTER 44 A short letter to-day, beloved, because what goes with it is so long. This is the first time I have come before your eyes as anything but a letter-writer, and I am doubtful whether you will care to have so much all about yourself. Yet for that very reason think how much I love doing it. I am jealous of those days before I knew you, and want to have all their wild honey-flavor for myself. Do remember more, and tell me.  No wonder with that unknown good, running parallel, but my childhood was a happy one. May long life bless you, beloved. ENCLOSURE My brother and I were down in Wales, and listened by night to the Welshman's tales. He was eleven and I was ten. We sat on the knees of the farmer's men. After the whole day's work was done, and I was friends with the farmer's son. His hands were rough as his arms were strong. His mouth was merry and loud for long. Each night when set by the ingle-wall, he was the merriest man of them all. I would catch at his beard and say all the things I had done in the day. Tumbled boulders over the force, swum in the river, and fired the gorse. HALF THE SIDE OF THE HILL, COOL THY, ah, cried he, and didn't you die? Chuch, said he, but the squeak was narrow. Didn't you meet with Johnny Kiggerow? No, said I, and who will he be? And what will be Johnny Kiggerow to me? The farmer's son said under his breath, Johnny Kiggerow may be your death. Listen you hear and keep you still, Johnny Kiggerow, bides under the hill. Twillock Barrow stands over his head. He shallows the river to make his bed. Boulders row when he stirs a limb, and the gorse on the hills belongs to him. And if so be one fires his gorse. He's out of his bed, and he mounts his horse. Off he sets with the first long stride. He is half way over the mountainside. With his second stride he has crossed the Barrow, and he has you fast, as Johnny Kiggerow. Half I laughed, and half I feared. I clutched and tugged at the strong man's beard, and bragged as brave as a boy could be. So, but you see, he didn't catch me. Fear caught hold of me. What had I done? High as the roof rose, the farmer's son. How the sight of him froze my marrow. Ah, he cried, and him Johnny Kiggerow. Well, you wonder, what was the end? Never forget. He had called me friend. Mighty of limb, and hard and blown. Quickly he laughed and set me down. Heh, said he, but the squeak was narrow. Not to be caught by Johnny Kiggerow. Now I hear, after years gone by, nobody knows how he came to die. He strode out one night of storm. Get you to bed and keep you warm. Out into the darkness so he went. Nobody knows where his bones may be. Only I think if his tongue let go. Truth that once, how perhaps I know. Twalek River and Twalek Barrow. Do you cover my Johnny Kiggerow? End of Section 11. Section 12 of an English Woman's Love Letters. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. An English Woman's Love Letters by Anonymous. Section 12, Letters 44-48. Letter 44. Dearest, I have been doing something so wise and foolish. Mentally wise, I mean, and physically foolish. Do you guess? Disobeying, your parting injunction, and sitting up to see eclipses. It was such a luxury to do, as I was not told, just for once, to feel that there was an independent me still capable of asserting itself. My belief is that, waking, you hold me subjugated. But once your Godhead has put on its spiritual nightcap, and begun nodding, your mesmeric influence relaxes. Up starts resolution and independence, and I breathe desolately for a time, feeling myself once more a free woman. T'was a tremulous experience, beloved, but I loved it all the more for that. How we love playing at grief and death. The two things that must come. Before it is their due time. I took a look at my world for three most mortal hours last night, trying to see you out of it. And, oh, how close it kept bringing me. I almost urged to breathe, and was forever wondering, can we ever be nearer or love each other more than we do? For that we should each want a sixth sense and a second soul, and it would still be only the same spread out over larger territory. I prefer to keep it nesting close in its present limitations, where it feels like a growing pain. Children have it in their legs, we in our hearts. I am growing sleepy as I write, and feel I am sending you a dull letter, my penalty for doing as you forbade. I sat up, from half-past one to a quarter to five, to see our shadow go over heaven. I didn't see much, the sky was too pie-bold, but I was not disappointed, as I had never watched the darkness into dawn, like that before. And it was interesting to hear all the person's awakening. Cox at half-past four, frogs immediately after, then pheasants and various others following. I was cuddled close up against my window, throned in a big arm-chair with many pillows, a spirit lamp, cocoa, bread, and butter, and buns, so I fared well. Just after the pheasants and the first quarrelous fidgeting of hungry black-birds came a soft pattering along the path below, and Benchy, secretive and important, is fussing his way to the shrubbery, when instinct or real sentiment prompts him to look up at my window. He gives a whimper and a wag, and goes on. I try to persuade myself that he didn't see me, and that he does this other mornings when I am thus perversely bolstered up in rebellion, and peering through blinds at wrong hours.  That every morning he looks up at an unresponsive blank, and wags, and goes by. I heard him very happy in the shrubs a moment after. He and a pheasants I fancy, disputing over a question of boundaries, and he comes in for breakfast three hours later, looking positively fresh, and wants to know why I am yawning. Most mornings he brings her up to my room in his mouth. It is old Nan-An's joke.  I pretend that, too, to him, and he thinks he is doing something wonderful. The other morning I was. Well, Benchy hears splashing, and tires of wading, or his mouth waters. An extra can of hot water happens to stand at the door, and therein he deposits his treasure, mine, I mean, and retires, saying nothing. The consequence is, when I open three minutes after his scratch, I find you all gummed and swimming, your beautiful handwriting bleared and smeared so that no eye but mine could have read it. Benchy's shame, when I showed him, what he had done was wonderful. How it rejoices me to write quite foolish things to you, that I can helps to explain a great deal in the up-above order of things which I never took in when I was merely young and frivolous. One must have touched a graveside of life before one can take in that heaven is not opposed to laughter. My eye has just come back at what I have written, and the little death runs through me. Just because I wrote, graveside. It shouldn't, but loving has made me superstitious. The happiness seems too great. How can it go on? I keep thinking. This is not life.  Oh, my beloved, come quickly to meet me to-day. This morning, right over, I am willing it. My own dearest, you must come. If you don't, what shall I believe? That love cannot outdo space? That when you are away, I cannot reach you by willing? But I can, come to me. You shall see my arms open to you as never before. What is it? You must be coming. I have more love in me after all than I knew. Ah, I know. I wrote graveside, and all my heart is in arms against the treason. With us it is not till death us do part. We leap it all together, and are clasped on the other side. My dear, my dear, I lay my head down on your heart. I love you. I post this to show how certain I am. At twelve to-day I shall see you.  What can the poor thing do?  And yet, though, that is all it can do. You complain of not having had a letter. Not had a letter? Beloved, there are half a hundred I have not had from you. Do you suppose you have ever, any one week in your life, sent me as many as I wanted? Now for once I did hold off and didn't write to you, because there is something in your last I couldn't give any answer to, and I hoped you would come yourself, before I need. Then I hoped silence would bring you, and now, no.  Ah, beloved, have you in reality any complaint or sorrow that I can set at rest? Or has that little, little silence made you anxious? I do come to think it so, for you never flourish your words about as I do. So, believing that, I would like to write again differently. Only it is truer to let what I have written stand, and make amends for it in all haste. I love you so infinitely well. How could even a year's silence give you any doubt or anxiety, so long as you knew I was not ill? Should one not make great concessions to grief, even when it is unreasonable? I cannot answer, dearest. I am in the dark. My grief cannot be great without reasons. It should give them, and you should judge by them. You, not I. I imagine you have again been face to face, with fierce, unexplained opposition. Dearest, if it would give you happiness, I would say, make five, ten, twenty years concession, as you call it.  Then though I pitied her, I had to smile. A twenty years concession even would not give rest to her perturbed spirit. I prayed truly, having so much reason for your sake to pray it.  Why has this come about at all? It is not February yet, and our plans have been putting forth no buds before their time. When the day comes, and you have said the inevitable word, I think more calm will follow than you expect. You, dearest, I do understand, and the instinct of tenderness you have toward a claim which yet fills you with the sense of its injustice.  Did you're asking for an answer? Mean that I was to write so openly? Bless you, my own dearest. Letter 46 Dearest, today I came upon a strange spectacle. Poor old Nanan weeping for wounded pride in me. I found her stitching at raiment of needlework that is to be mine. Piles of it have been through her fingers since the word first went out, for her love asserts that I am to go all home-made from my old home to my new one, wherever that may be. And she was weeping because, as I slowly got to understand, from one particular quarter too little attention has been paid to me. The cow-tow of ceremonious reception into my new status had not been deep enough to make amends to her heart for its partial loss of me.  It is at once so jealous and so unselfish. Because her sense of the proprieties will not allow her to do so much longer. She comes up to my room and makes opportunity to scold me over quite slight things. And there I am, meeker under her, than I would be to any relative. So today I had to bear a statement of your mother's infirmities rigorously outlined in a way I could only pretend to be deaf to until she had done. Then I said, Nanan, go and say your prayers. And as she struck her heels down and refused to go, there I left the poor thing, not to pray I fear, but to desolate weeping, in which love and pride will get more firmly entangled together than ever. I know when I go up to my room next I shall find fresh flowers put upon my table. But the grievous old deer will be carrying a sore heart that I cannot comfort by any words. I cannot convince her that I am not hiding in myself any wounds such as she feels on my behalf. I write this dearest as an indirect answer to yours, which is but Nanan's woe writ large. If I could persuade your two dear and very different heads how very slightly wounded I am by a thing which a little waiting will bring right. I could give it even less thought than I do. Are you keeping the truce in spirit when you disturb yourself like this? Trust me, beloved, always be candid. I will complain to you when I feel a need of comfort. Be comforted yourself, meanwhile, and don't shape ghosts of grief which never do a goose-step over me. Ha! well, well, if there is a way to love you better than I do now, only show it to me. Meantime, think of me as your most contented and happy-go-loving. LETTER 47 Dearest, I am haunted by a line of quotation and cannot think where it comes from. NOW SETS THE YEAR IN ROARING GRAY. Can you help me to what follows? If it is a true poem it ought to be able to sing itself to me at large from an outer world which at this moment is all gray and roaring. Today the year is bowing itself out tempestuously as if angry at having to go. Dear golden year, I am sorry to see its face so changed and withering. It is held so much for us both. Yet I am feeling vigorous and quite like spring. All the seasons have their marches with buffettings and border forays. This is an autumn-march wind. Before long I shall be out into it, and up the hill to look over at your territory, and you being swept and garnished for the seven devils of winter. Roaring gray suggests Tennyson, whom I do very much associate with this sort of weather, not so much because of passages in mod and in memoriam as because I once went over to Swainston on a day such as this when rocks and leaves alike hung helpless in the wind. Entered there the story of how Tennyson, coming over for his friend's funeral, would not go into the house, but asked for one of Sir John's old hats and with that on his head sat in the garden and wrote the most best of his small lyrics. Nightingales warbled without, within was weeping for thee. The old hat was mentioned as something humorous, yet an old glove is the most accepted symbol of faithful absence, and why should head rank lower than hand? What creatures of convention we are! There is an old notion, quite likely to be true, that a nightcap carries in it the dreams of its first owner, or that anything laid over a sleeper's head will bring away the dream. One of the stories which used to put a lump in my throat as a child was of an old back woodsman who by that means found out that his dog stole hams from the storeroom. The dog was given away in disgrace and came to England to die of a broken heart at the sight of a cargo of hams, which at their unpacking seemed like a monstrous day of judgment. The bones of his misdeeds rising again reclothed with flesh to reproach him with the thing he had never forgotten. I wonder how long it was before I left off, definitely choosing out a story for the pleasure of making myself cry. When one begins to avoid that luxury of the fledgling emotions, the first leaf of youth is flown. Today I almost look jovially at the decay of the best year I have ever lived through, and am your very middle-aged, faithful, and true. Letter forty-eight. Dearest, if anybody has been calling me names that are not mine, they do me a fine injury, and you did well to purge the text of their abuse. I agree with no authority, however immortal, which inquires what's in a name, expecting the answers to be a snap of the fingers. I answer with a snap of temper that the blood, boots, and bones of my ancestors are in mine. Do you suppose I could have been the same woman had such names as Amelia, or Bella, or Cinderella, been clinging leech-like to my consciousness through all the years of my training? Why, there are names I can think of, which would have me break down into side-ringlets had I been forced to wear them audibly. The effect is not so absolute when it is a second name that can be tucked away, if unpresentable. But even then it is a misfortune. There is sea, now, who won't marry, I believe, chiefly because of the insane Annie with which she was smitten at the baptismal fount by an afterthought. She regards it as a taint in her constitution which orders her to a lonely life less worse might follow. And apply the consideration more publicly. Do you imagine the Prince of Wales will be the same sort of king when he comes to the throne? He calls himself King Albert Edward in fluorid continental fashion, instead of Edward VII. With a right hope that an Edward VIII may follow after him, to make a neck-and-neck race of it with the Henrys. I don't know anything that would do more to knit up the English constitution, but whenever I pass the Albert Memorial I tremble lest for lile piety will not allow the thing to be done. Now of all this I had an instance in the village the day before yesterday. At the corner-house by the post-office, as I went by, a bird opened his bill and sang a note, and down, down, down. Down he went over a golden scale, pitched afresh, and dropped down another, and then up, up, up, over the range of both.  In all my father's realm there is no such bells as these. It was the laughing jackass. Who gave you your name? My godfathers and my godmothers, in my baptism. Well, his will have that to answer for. However safely for the rest he may have eschewed the world, the flesh and the devil. Poor bird, to be set to sing to us under such a burden, of which, unconscious failure, he knows nothing. Here I have remembered for you a bit of a poem that took hold of me some while ago, and touched on the same unkindness. Only here the flower is conscious of the wrong done to it, and looks forward to a day of adjuster judgment. What have I done? Man came. There's nothing that sticks like dirt.  What have I done? I linger. I cannot say that I live. In the happy lands of my birth, passersby point with the finger. For me, for me, the light of the sun is darkened.  What have I done? Yet there is hope. I have seen many changes since I began. The web-footed beast have been, dear peace, and gone. Being part of some wider plan. Perhaps in his infinite mercy God will remove this man. Now I am on sentiment, and unjust judgments. Here is another instance, where evidently in life I did not love well enough a character nobler than this capering and accommodating boy, Benji, who totes to all my moods. Calling at the lower farm I missed him whom I used to nickname manger, because his dog-jaws always refused to smile on me.  It was the muzzling order that broke his poor old heart. He took it as an accusation on a point where, though of a melancholy disposition, his reputation had been spotless. He never lifted his head nor smiled again, and not all his mistress's love could explain to him that he was not in fault. She wept as she told at me.  My beloved, let my heart come where it wants to be. Twilight has been on me to-day. I don't know why, and I have not written it off as I hoped it to. All yours and nothing left. End of Section 12, Section 13 of an English Woman's Love Letters. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. An English Woman's Love Letters by Anonymous. Section 13, Letters 49 through 54. Dearest, I suppose your mother's continued absence, and her unexplanation of her further stay must be taken for unyielding disapproval, and tells us what to expect of February. It is not a cordial form of truth, but since it lets me see just twice as much of you as I should otherwise, I will not complain, so long as it does not make you unhappy. You write to her often and kindly, do you not? Well, if this last letter of hers frees you sufficiently, it is quite settled, at this end, that you are to be with us for Christmas. Read into that the warmest corners of our heart already fully occupied. I do not think of it too much, till I am assured it is to be. Did you ever go over to Pembury for the day? Your letter does not say anything, but your letters have a wonderful way with them of leaving out things of outside importance. I shall hear from the rattling of returning fire-enchants some day that hatterling has been burnt down, and you will arrive cool the next day and say, Oh, yes, it is so. I am sure you have been right to secure this pledge of independence to yourself, but it hurts me to think what a deadly offence it may be, both to her tenderness for you, and her pride and stern love of power. To relay suddenly that hatterling does not mean to you so much as the power to be your own master and happy in your own way, which is altogether opposite to her way, will be so much of a blow that at first you will be able to do nothing to soften it. February Phil Dyke is likely to be true to its name, this coming one, in all that concerns us and our fortunes. Meanwhile, if at Pembury you brought things any nearer settlement, and are not coming so soon as to-morrow, let me know, for some things of outside importance do affect me unfavorably while in suspense. I have not your serene determination to abide the workings of kismet, when once all that can be done is done. The sun sets now, when it does so visibly, just where Pembury is. I take it as an omen. In your diary to-morrow you may write down, in the business column, that you have had a business-letter for me, or as near to one as I can go. Chiefly, for that it requires an answer on this matter of outside importance, which otherwise you will altogether leave out, but you will do better still to come. My whole heart goes out to fetch you, my dearest dear, ever your own. Letter 50 Beloved, no, not browning, but Tennyson was in my thoughts at our last ride together, and I found myself shy, as I had been for a long time wishing to say things I could not. What has never entered your head to ask becomes difficult when I wish to get it spoken, so I bring Tennyson to tell you what I mean. Doesn't thou ear my horse's legs, as they canters away? Property, property, property, that's what I ear them say. The tune of this kept me silent all the while we galloped, this, and Pembury, a name that glows to me now, like the new Jerusalem. And do you understand, Beloved, or must I say more? My freedom has made its nest under my uncle's roof, but I am a quite independent person in other ways, besides character. Well, Pembury was settled on your own initiative, and I looked on proud and glad. Now I have my own little word to add, merely a tale that wags, and makes me merry over a thing, decided and done. Do you forgive me for this, and for the greater offence of being quite shy at having to write it? My aunt thanks you for the game, for my part I cannot own that it will taste sweeter to me, for being your own shooting. And please, whatever else you do, big and grand, and dangerous, respect my superstitions, and don't shoot any larks this winter. In the spring I would like to think that here or there, an extra lark bubbles over, because I and my whims find occasional favour in your sight. When I ask great favours, you always grant them. And so, and so, ah-ha-surus, grant this one to your beautifully loving. Give me the credit of being conscious of it, Beloved. Post-scripts I never do write. I am glad you noticed it. If I find anything left out, I start another letter. This is that other letter. It goes into the same envelope merely for company, and signs itself yours in all state. Letter Fifty-One Dearest, it was so nice and comedy to see the mother aunt this morning, importantly opening a letter from you, all to herself, with the pleasure, quite unmixed by any enclosure for me. Or any other letter in the house to me, so far as she was aware. I listen to you with new ears, discovering that you write quite beautifully in the style which I never get from you. Don't, because I admire you in your more formal form, alter in your style to me. I prefer you much for my own part, formless, and feel nearer to your heart in an unfinished sentence than in one that is perfectly balanced. Still I want you to know that your cordial warmed her dear old heart, and makes her not think now that she has to let me see too much of you. She was just beginning to worry herself jealously into that belief the last two days. And Arthur's taking to you helped to the same end. Very well, I seem to understand everybody's oddities now, having made a complete study of yours.   Only you do know so very well, that I love you better than I can ever write. This is my first letter of the new year. Will our letter writing go on all this year?  In any case I am, dearest your most happy and loving. LETTER 52 My dearest Arthur and the friend went off together yesterday. I am glad the latter stayed just long enough after you left for me to have leisure to find him out human. Here is the whole story. He came, and unboosomed, to me three days ago, and he said nothing about not telling, so I tell you. As water goes from a duck's back, so go all things worth hearing from me to you. Arthur had said to him, come down for a week, and he had answered, can't, because of clothes. Explaining that, beyond evening dress, he had only those he stood in. Well said Arthur, stand in them then, you look all right. The question is, said his friend, can I sit down? However he came, and was appalled to find that a man unpacked his trunk, and would in all probability be carrying away his clothes each night to brush them. He, conscious of interiors, aligning, hanging in rags, and even a patching somewhere, had not to the heart to let his one and only day-jacket go down to the servants-hall to be sniffed over, and so every evening when he dressed for dinner he hid his jacket laboriously under the permanent layers of a linen wardrobe which stood in his room. I had all this in the frankest manner from him in the hour when he became human, and my fancy fired at the vision, graves with a fierce eye set on duty probing hither and thither in search after the missing coat, and each night the search becoming more strenuous and the mystery more baffling than ever. It had a funny likeness to the Jack Reich's episode in Evan Harrington, and pleased me the more, thus cropping up in real life. Well I demanded, there and then, to be shown the subject of so much romance and adventure, and had the satisfaction of mending it, he sitting by in his shirt-sleeves, the while, and watching delighted and without craven apologies. I noticed it is not his own set he is ashamed of, but only the moneyed, high-sniffing servant-class who have no understanding for honorable poverty, and to be misunderstood pricks him in the thinnest of thin places. He told me also that he brought only three white ties to last him for seven days, and that graves placed them out in order of freshness and cleanliness night after night. First three new ones consecutively, then three once worn. After that, on the seventh day, grave resigned all for the responsibility, and laid out all three of them for him to choose from. On the last three days of his stay he did me the honour to leave his coat out, declaring that my mendings had made it presentable before an emperor. Out of this dates the whole of his character, and I understand what I did not. Why Arthur and he get on together. Now the house is empty, and your comings will be. I cannot say more welcome, but there will be more room for them to be after my own heart. Heaven be over us both, faithfully your most loving. Letter 53 Beloved, I wish you could have been here with me, to look out into this garden last night, when the spirit moved me there. I had started for bed, but became sensitive of something outside, not normal. Whether my ear missed, the usual echoes, and so guessed a muffled world I do not know. To open the door was like slicing into a wedding cake. Then where was I to put a foot into that new-laid carpet of ankle-deepness? I hobbled out in a pair of my uncles. I suppose it is because I know every tree and shrub in its true form, that snow seems to pile itself nowhere as it does here. It becomes a garden of entomments. Now and then some heap would shuffle feebly under its shroud. But resurrection was not to be. The loss in Cyprus held out great boxing-glove, hands for me to shake and set free. And the silence was wonderful, I patted about till I froze. This morning I can see my big hoof marks all over the place, and Benji has been scampering about in them as if he found some flavour of me there. The trees are already beginning to shake themselves loose, and the spell is over, but it had a wonderful hold while it lasted.  If you had been there even, I think I could have forgotten I had you by me. The place was so weighed down with its sense of solitude. It struck eleven while I was outside, and in that too I could hear a muffle as if snow choked all the belfry lattices, and lay even on the outer edge of the bell itself. Across the park there are dead bows cracking down under the weight of the snow, and I would be very like you to tramp over just because the roads will be so impossible. I heard yesterday a thing which made me just a little more free and easy in mind, though I had nothing sensibly on my conscience. Such a good youth who, two years ago, believed I was his only possible future happiness is now quite happy with a totally different sort of person. I had a little letter from him, shy and stately, announcing the event. I thought it such a friendly act, for some have never the grace to unsay their grievances, however much actually blessed as a consequence of them. With that off my mind I can come to you swearing that there have been no accidents on anybody's line of life through a mistake in signals, or a flying in the face of them where I have had any responsibility. As for you, and as you know well by now, my signals were ready and waiting before you sought for them.  Was there give-away attitude? I'm going down to play snowballs with Benji. Good-bye! If you come you will find this letter on the hall-table, and me you will probably hear barking behind the rhododendrons. So much your most loving. Letter fifty-four. Beloved, we have been having a great day of tidings out, rummaging through years and years of accumulations. Things quite useless, but which I have not liked to throw away. My soul has been getting such dusty answers to all sorts of doubtful inquiries as to where on earth this, that, or the other lay hidden. And there were other things, the memory of which had lain quite dead or slept, till under the light of day they spread it back into life like corn from the grave of an Egyptian mummy. Very deep in one box I found a stealthy little collection of secret play-things, which it used to be my fond belief that nobody knew of but myself. It may have been Anna's graspingness when four years of seniority gave her double my age, or Arthur's genial instinct for destructiveness which drove me into such deep concealment of my dearest idols. But whether for those or more mystic reasons I know I had dolls which I nursed only in the strictest privacy and lavished my firmest love upon.  The truth being that my motherly passion expended itself in secret on certain outcasts of society whom others despised or had forgotten. They, on their limp and disillute bodies, wore all the finery I could find to pile on them. And one shady transaction done on their behalf I remember now without pangs. There was one creature of state whom an inconsiderate relative had presented to Anna and myself in equal shares. Of course Anna's became more and more lion-like. I had very little love for the bone of contention myself, but the sense of injustice wrinkled in me. So one day at unclothing Anna discovered that certain undergarments were gone altogether away. She sat aghast, questioned me, and, when I refused to disgorge, screamed down vengeance from the authorities. I was morally certain I had taken no more than my just share, and resolutions sat on my lips under all threats. For a punishment the whole ownership of the big doll was made over to Anna. I was no worse off, and was very contented with my obstinacy. Today I found the beautifully wrought bodice which I had carried beyond reach of even the Supreme Court of Appeal, clothing with ridiculous looseness a rag doll whose head tottered on its stem like an over-ripe plum, and whose legs had no deportment at all, and am sending it off in charitable surrender to Anna to be given, bag and rag, to whichever one of the children she likes to collect. Also I found, would you care to have a lock of hair taken from the head of a child, then two years old, which, bright golden, does not match what I have on now in the least? I can just remember her, but she is much of a stranger to both of us. Why I value it, is that the name and date on the envelope in closing it are in my mother's handwriting, and I suppose she loved very much the curly treasure she then put away. Some of the other things quite funny I will show you the next time you come over. How I wished that vanished might had mixed some of her pl—