Hey guys, it's Julia and welcome back to my channel and for today's video I'm going to be sharing with you guys my 2020 goals and like my reflection of those goals and then also my new goals for 2021 these goals are gonna be more just about reading and my YouTube channel. So let's jump right into it So for my goals from last year, I Set my goal to 50 books and I'm currently at I think 47 with a few Days left in the year. So my goal like I think I'm still gonna achieve my 50. I really hope so, but That is hopefully a goal that I'm gonna meet for this year Reflecting some of my old goals. I had a goal to reach 25k this year, which I did not do Which is okay. So that's one of my goals for next year is to hit 25k, but I know I didn't upload as much this year and There was obviously a lot of things going on this year and yeah I just wasn't as consistent on YouTube. So it doesn't really surprise me that I didn't gain so many like a certain amount of subscribers Or I didn't My views are down and things like that. So like I kind of get why well, I get I understand why so yeah But it's just something that I'm gonna be working towards in 2021 bring with that I was also not too consistent in 2020 I think I did maybe like at least a video month, but like that's about it and Yeah, it was it kind of disappointing But I still really like the videos that I did put out and I feel like I have I've logged a lot this year Towards the end of the year at least so I have so many memories to look back on and that's exactly what I want And that's what I want for vlogs and you guys also seem to really enjoy the vlogs. So At least that's good. I did not do any journaling videos like I wanted to but that's another goal that we're carrying on Because I did not do that. So I did vlog more and then one of my goals was to host like another read-a-thon I'll have my goals video from last year linked if you're interested But I want to host like another read-a-thon But I hosted Kramathon and then I hosted the Hannibal along on Instagram So that Jesse asked me to help with so yeah Then my last goal was to post videos that I'm proud of so I would say that I'm pretty proud of most of the videos that are Yeah, pretty much most of the videos that I uploaded this year. I feel like I worked really hard on them and Yeah, honestly feel pretty good about it. So yeah, so going into my goals for 2021 I want to read 80 books this year I know it's a little bit like 50 for me. I used to always reach 50 always like I would set it to 50 and then when I hit 50 I set it to 100 and in past years I've hit like 160 120 100 and then this year it's like 50, which is okay But the next year I want to do it like 80 and I want to really prioritize reading because I feel like I'm at my Happiest and I'm at my most peaceful self as well when I'm reading and consuming so many stories And I just think it's overall good for me And it's something I really really enjoy and that I need to prioritize more I also want to upload more consistently this is probably gonna be a goal for a lot of people but I would love to upload like at least once a week and Interact with you guys more in the comments like I already do comment back and things like that, but I just really want to have like a nice little community on my channel and I want you guys to feel welcome here and that you can Come say hi, and I don't know stuff like that. So That's what I want for 2021. I also want to make journaling videos and more vlogs I I just want to incorporate more things that I like to do for my person like other things and other hobbies that I have other Than just reading so I want to kind of incorporate more of that on my channel, too. Next is to make videos I'm proud of I usually put this up every year Just to even with school goals always like to submit projects that I'm proud of it's just when you feel good About something and then you put it out. It's just It's a good feeling when you finally finish like you do all the work for a video you edit upload Not hit you film edit upload do all the planning for the video before that and then Do the thumbnail and then it gets out into the world and you just kind of you're pretty proud of it And yeah, it's always a nice feeling. So that's what I want going into the new year last one It's trying not to focus on the views too much So I know that my views haven't been as good this year like I've noticed like I see my analytics, you know and it's really discouraging but I'm just kind of kind of keep pushing because You know the people that enjoy my videos will come back and the people that support me like Actually support me and that's just really nice. So I appreciate you so much if you watch my videos Are you comment or give them a like just thank you? Yeah, those are all the goals that I had written down But I have a few more reading goals like there's some manga series that I want to keep reading Like I want to keep reading the girl from the other side. I want to keep reading that I kind of want to continue a Sailor Moon as well if I end up getting those volumes I also want to prioritize just reading books that are just not talked about a lot, but that are just interesting to me Or even if they are talked about a lot just books that just That are just interesting to me like things like the Necronomicon or like a book on the dark arts like stuff like that I kind of I have those so I want to read that and then I also am gonna be reading like a lot of mythology books next year Like I read quite a few this year, but I'm also gonna read some next year Like I'm gonna be reading the Odyssey for class and annotating that so that's gonna be an interesting time So yeah, I'm just gonna be doing like some reading for school But I also want to prioritize just reading things that you know, I just think sound pretty cool So that's about it. Yeah, there you guys have it. That was my little short video about my goals from last year and My goals going into 2021 so again to reiterate my 2021 goals. I want to read 80 books I want to upload more consistently. I would like to do more vlogs. I would like to do journaling videos I want to be proud of the videos I upload I want to read books that just seem interesting to me and that are not super talked about Or about subjects that I'm interested in I want to upload more consistently like at least once a week So those are my goals going into 2021 and yeah, we'll see what this year is gonna bring I'm very interested and kind of scared to see what this year is gonna bring but I hope you guys are all doing okay and staying safe and I will see you guys super soon I hope you had a good holiday and I hope that you have a good New Year's and you guys all the best for 2021 So I will talk to you guys super soon with a new video. Bye


So, getting to that end game, starting with that World Tier 3, it can take you an absolute while to do, a while to complete that campaign, especially if you're a solo player. Plus, the fact that many believe that the campaign needs to be completed on a World Tier 2 to unlock a World Tier 3, well actually guys, that is not the case. Today guys, I've been going to fast this way to get to that World Tier 3, where that true end game starts in Diablo 4. How's it going guys, my name is DPJ and on behalf of this amazing launch Diablo 4, I'm giving away a Diablo 4 Ultimate Edition version of the game. To be in the chance of winning it simply drop a like on this video, make sure you are subbed and leave a comment down below, good luck. So I have for a while now been under the impression that to unlock a World Tier 3, you have to complete the entire campaign on a World Tier 2, that is not the case. So here's me playing my first Diablo ever, although not struggling on a World Tier 2, it was taking me quite a while to do so, because the enemy's health bars etc etc, I never thought I was ever going to get there. But then I realised, World Tier 3 isn't unlocked by you completing a game on a World Tier 2, it's unlocked via you completing a dungeon which unlocks and ends the story campaign completion, and it's this and only this dungeon that needs to be completed on a World Tier 2. So if I were you, and you want to get to that end game as quickly as possible, especially if you're a solo player, I mean the game does play a lot easier if you party it up, but if you are a solo player, I truly recommend you storming through this game's main story campaign on a World Tier 1, as it's so much easier and so much quicker. Now once you have completed the main story campaign, this is what you need to do. Complete the very short priority quest called Whispers of the Dead, this will be right by where you should finish the campaign on your mini map or on your map. Upon doing this, you'll then see on your map another priority quest pop up, right here on the map this one is called World Tier 3, Nightmare. It states complete the Cathedral of Light capstone dungeon. This needs to be completed on a World Tier 2 in order for you to unlock a World Tier 3. So come to the World Tier statue and change over to a World Tier 2. Then guys, make your way up to this dungeon right here. Now what I will say is this dungeon is a recommended 50 plus level, if you are below this and you're trying to solo this, it will be difficult. I was a level 47 and literally just waited outside and invited more players to my party to help me complete this dungeon and about 20 minutes later it was done. Now if you are struggling to find people to play with, join my discord, I'm trying to build a small Diablo 4 family over there where players can help each other out, share builds, ideas, you name it, my discord is linked down below. But yes guys once you have this dungeon done, you can then go back to that World Tier statue and you now have access to World Tier 3. Which is the start of Diablo 4's truing game. And that not guys, the end of the video has arrived, if you enjoyed it, leaving a like really helps out and if you like what you see and want to see more, be sure to subscribe and hopefully guys I will see you on that next one.


First question is from little blue arrow. Is there an ideal rest period between sets? I'm sure it's subjective, but are there body cues I should be listening to that can help me determine an appropriate rest. Yeah, I'm you know I picked this question because I think a lot of people get confused about rest periods And they don't realize just how important it is rest periods are to the effectiveness In terms of like the adaptation process it's another progressive overload tool And we know that that's one of the best ways to guarantee that you keep seeing progress It is and not only that but if you rest if you change your rest periods you change the effect of the workout completely. Yeah, I could take a straight set structured routine with compound barbell lifts do all that stuff and then eliminate rest periods and it doesn't matter it now has turned into Circuit training and cardio so rest periods are very important if you're lifting weights Your goal probably is to speed up your metabolism sculpt your body get stronger in which case you want to rest long enough To allow your body to replenish It's ATP which is a the type of energy used for for strength So you want to in other words you want to rest long enough to where you could go back to your set and feel strong again You don't want to just barely catch your breath and jump back in unless your goal is endurance for goals endurance And stamina then you can do that in which case I would say don't lift weights go do you know sprints or cardio to do that? Well, it's very similar to like Sets and reps right where there's I think there's two ends of the spectrum So if we look at rest periods, I would say 30 second rest is on the low end of the spectrum Three-minute rest is on the high end of the spectrum Anything below that are above that and you stop you start to lose some of the benefits of resistance training So first of all those are the parameters that I would stay within I would and the further You are on the spectrum the the least amount of time I would spend training that way in other words I would I wouldn't always train a 30 second rest periods because then you're gonna get close You're gonna get more adaptation towards the endurance side like Salsing I don't want to rest more than three minutes all the time because then I'm getting less benefits from the resistance training So I want to manipulate my rest periods within that kind of window and the same rules apply to that We talk about with reps is if you've been training in the 15 rep range for weeks on weeks or months on months One of the best things you could do is move out of that rep range to send a new signal the body to adapt and change because it's different The same thing goes for rest periods if you've been you know Hanging around the one minute rest periods and you're consistent with that and you've been doing that for weeks on weeks One of the best things you do is move to three minutes And if you're like you lift like kind of like a strength athlete power athlete Then you are probably already resting a long time three minutes or more maybe then one of the best things You could do is move down to the 30 second to one minute and you're gonna see results from that Yeah, it's interesting because I I spent some time in this gym There was this guy that was a gymnast who was always like doing ring work and Because it's so physically demanding your entire body is just like on fire the whole the whole time everything's tensed up it requires so much exertion that His rest periods were were really long In between and I and I had asked him about that But it really to be able to even perform a lot of these these movements and things with that type of demand and intensity He had to string out his rest periods at like a really You know an excessive amount of time more than the normal which I mean it made sense But it's all like very specific to how you're training. He was training technique He was trying to get his technique perfect and fatigue screws that up I'll tell you I'll tell you where people mess up the most with rest is when they train for power When I see people do jump boxes or plyometric throws or whatever in gyms.  You're not getting any power Benefit out of that. Well, you could just do that.  One of the best advice is though regarding this is actually just telling somebody to start Tracking right like a lot of very few people. I know time their rest periods Most people go by feel. Yeah, you know, they do this They do a set and then they go, okay I feel like I'm ready for the next one and one of the coolest things that you can do to change up your routine without even Messing with any exercises sets or anything is literally just track the time and see what you consistently rest for and then manipulate that So and yeah, because depending on the person, they're gonna rest somewhere like I said somewhere between that 30 second and three minute mark And I normally like to go the opposite end of whatever spectrum or whatever side of the spectrum I lean on So if I'm a long raster and I'm resting at least a minute and a half to three minutes Then I like cutting that way down to 30 seconds to a minute to shock my body the most And if I'm somebody who's on the other side where I love to do circuit training I get bored resting in between sets I feel like I can always do more if I'm always leaning towards that I'm gonna push that person towards the three minute mark


I've been privileged by living in Denmark, I've been privileged by having a system that makes sure that I come to school, that makes sure that I even get money to study. So going back home to Uganda and being informed that girls at my former school in Uganda do not go to school while they have the administration was heartbreaking. Heartbreaking because I have never in my life not had a pad. I have never not had money to buy pads. So I was like, I have the opportunity to do something about this. I have an opportunity to make their life better and I have an opportunity to keep them in school. So why not do that? So that was my motivation by starting the company. But the reason why I wanted to have a company and not an NGO was because I also wanted to economically hire Ugandan women, teach them their skills and also teach them how to sell these pads because if I got some money and went back to Uganda and gave out pads to everybody, then next year they will not have pads and also creating reusable pads that means that a girl can have these reusable pads for one year without ever thinking about administration. We have worked in Uganda, we have worked in Kenya, Tanzania, Senegal and Guinea and it's been one year we have had our company and going back to some of these places and I need these girls and they're like, my life is so much easier. Makes me cry because it's just a pad but just that one pad changes their life. I have one story I want to share with you. So I was in Kenya and this little girl came up to me and she was like, I hate being a girl and I was like, but why? And then she told me I have so many things that I have to deal with that my brothers will never deal with. She has to think about every month what she's going to do with her period and if she doesn't have pads she's going to use t-shirts, she's going to use mattress, she's going to use books as menstrual protection and that stuck with me that a girl will hate being a girl of something as natural as menstruation. How can we let that happen? Because menstruation is not a new thing. It has been here since we have been on this earth. So.


Chapter 7 of The Mystery of a Turkish Bath. There was suppressed but general excitement throughout the hotel all the next day. One had caught sight of the princess Zerov, who had driven out after luncheon in a low open carriage with three horses harnessed abreast in Russian fashion, that went like the wind. Colonel Estcourt was beside her, and curiosity was rife as to how he should have known her, and whether accident only was responsible for the meeting of two people, one of whom had come from Russia and the other from India to this prosaic English nook for their health. Mrs. Masterman sniffed ominously as one who sensed scandal and impropriety in facts that do not adapt themselves to everyday rules of life. A few other women, suffering from one or other of the fashionable complaints in vogue at this season, agreed with her that it certainly looked very odd. They did not specify the it, but they were quite convinced of the oddity. It did not occur to them to reflect that there was not the slightest reason for any mystery on the part of the princess, she being perfectly free and untrammeled, or that Colonel Estcourt had been singularly gloomy and depressed before Mrs. Jefferson's graphic description of the mysterious beauty attracted his notice. There is a certain class of people who always shake their heads and purse up their lips at the mere suggestion of chance or accident, having a fortunate or happy application. They do not apply the same train of reasoning to the reverse side of the picture. The bias of their nature is evidently suspicious. These are the minds that refuse to credit those little misfortunes of picnic and pleasure-parties, by which young people lose themselves in mysterious ways, and get into wrong boats and carriages, and generally contrive to upset the plans of their elders, when these plans have been framed with a deeper regard for rationality than for romance. Mrs. Masterman belonged to this class, which doubtless has its uses, though those uses are not plainly evident on the surface of life. She spent the day in gloomy hints and mysterious shakes of the head, and insinuations that no good was ever known to spring from a superabundance of feminine charms, which, in the course of nature, must have an evil tendency, and be productive of overweening vanity, extravagance, and even immorality. Still even evil prognostications cannot quell the fires of curiosity in the female breast, and every woman in the hotel made her toilette with special care on this eventful evening, as befitting one who owed it to her sex to vindicate even the smallest personal attraction in the presence of rivalry. Colonel Estcourt was not at dinner, so his presence did not restrain comment and speculation, and the tongues did quite as much work as the knives and forks. I do wonder what sort of gown shall wear, sighed Mrs. Jefferson, who was attired in a creation of the great French man milliner, accursed by husbands of fashionable wives, and whose power is only another note in that ascending scale of absurdity struck by the hands of fashion. Perhaps she won't come down in the drawing-room at all, said Mrs. Masterman spitefully, after listening for some time to the remarks around her. Colonel Estcourt did not specify any particular night. Oh, I'm sure she'll come, said Mrs. Jefferson, whose nature was specially happy in always assuring her of what she desired. I've got an impression that she will. They never fail me. You know I have a singularly magnetic organization. A great spiritualist in Boston once told me I only needed developing to exhibit extraordinary powers, but I hadn't the time or the patience to go in thoroughly for psychic development. Besides, it's really a very exacting pursuit. Exacting rubbish! exclaimed Mrs. Masterman impatiently. I can't stand all that bosh about higher powers in developing magnetism. Of course there are a set of people who'd believe anything that seemed to give them a superior organization. It's only another way of pandering to human vanity. Spiritualism is perfect rubbish. I've seen and heard enough of it to know. I once held a seance at my house just to convince myself as to its being a trick or not. I was told that the medium could materialize spirit forms. I, of course, asked some people to meet him, and we selected a room and put him behind a screen as he desired. And there we all sat in the dark like so many fools for about half an hour. Well, interposed Mrs. Jefferson eagerly, and did you have any manifestation? Oh, yes, laughed the gouty sufferer grimly. A very material one indeed. By some accident the medium knocked down the screen just after we'd seen a spirit face floating above it. In the confusion someone struck a light, and there was our medium, standing on the chair without his coat, and wrapping some transparent indium muslin about himself, which had been dipped in phosphorus, I believe, so that it gave out a curious shimmering light in the dark. You may suppose I never went in for materialistic seances again. Still, said Mrs. Jefferson, although you may have been tricked, it doesn't stand to reason that spiritualism is trickery. I've come from the very core and center of it, so to speak. I've been at more seances than I could count, and I've seen the tests applied that prove the manifestations are genuine. Still, there are heaps of professional mediums who are not to be depended on, I grant. If you want to know the truth of spiritualism, you can always work it out for yourself. That's quite possible. Only it's a deal of trouble. I don't believe in it, reiterated Mrs. Masterman stubbornly. All mediums are cheats and humbugs. Oh, said Mrs. Jefferson, if it comes to exceptions laying down the rule, where are we? The other day a clergyman was taken before the courts for drunkenness, but I suppose you're not going to say all clergymen are drunkards. A doctor poisoned a patient by mistake. But surely we're not to class our dear medical men as poisoners and murderers on that account. It's just the same with any abnormal or extraordinary facts that set up a new theory for investigation. Impostors are sure to creep in, and the lazy and the indifferent and the skeptical call their exposure results. And on it we don't half investigate subjects nowadays, and we suffer for it by giving place and opportunity for the development of a certain class of beings who prey on our credulity, and make profit out of our indolence and superstition. There's something in spiritualism you bet, drawled the nasal voice of Mr. Ray Jefferson. I've had messages written to me and things said that no third person could possibly have known about. Ah, slate-writing, sneered Mrs. Masterman, I've seen that, too, just another trick. How do you explain that? asked Mrs. Jefferson quickly. Well, this way, I went to two or three different mediums so as to test them all. I found they had no objections to bringing your own slates and writing your own questions, but while they held the slate under the table they kept you talking to distract your attention, and from time to time they got convulsive jerks and movements by which it was quite possible for them to see what was written. Then you heard a scratching. The medium probably had a little bit of pencil in his fingernail, and your answer was given you. Well, let that pass for what it's worth, but I always noticed the medium asked if I wouldn't like a message, and when I said yes, he brought out his own slate. But, said Mrs. Jefferson, didn't he let you examine it first? Oh, yes, and wiped it over with a damp cloth. Then it was held under the table, and in a few seconds covered with spirit-writing. But I found out afterwards that you can buy slates with a false cover. This cover fits within the frame, and is exactly like the other side of the slate. But your spirit message is already written. A touch makes the cover drop off. The medium covers it with his foot in case you should look under the table. Out comes the slate, and there you are. Oh! said Mrs. Jefferson angrily. It's plain you've only been to the charlatans and imposters of spiritualism. Why, I've had a message written in a locked slate, while I held the key and held the slate too. What do you say to that? I've only your word for it, said Mrs. Masterman sarcastically. My slates were never locked. And I've only your word for what you've told us, answered Mrs. Jefferson with rising wrath. I suppose my evidence may be as trustworthy. Well, interposed another voice, my view of spiritualism is that it's an intensely humiliating idea, after you've done with this world, to be at the beck and call of any other human being who can make you go through a variety of tricks, as if you were a performing dog, in order to convince people still in the body that there is another life. If that other life permits us to come back here and play tambourines and knock furniture about and write silly and ambiguous messages on slates, I don't, myself, think it's a very desirable one. This view of the question produced a blank silence. It proceeded from a gentleman who was supposed to be a little odd, partly because he spoke seldom, and then with a startling originality on any subject of discussion. Mr. and Mrs. Ray Jefferson looked at one another somewhat dismayed. Mrs. Masterman smiled triumphantly. The young poet murmured something vague about the inestimable beauty of sublime mysteries, but the subject was temporarily extinguished. The only side hitherto considered had been the phenomenal, and people, once the idea was originated, felt really inclined to think that after all, when they quitted the earth-plane, it would not be a very elevating prospect to find themselves dragged back to give séances and perform tricks like a French poodle, in order to convince their friends and relatives that they were still in existence. The conversation only went on in subdued murmurs, and presently there was a feminine move towards the drawing-room. Once there the great subject as to whether Madame Zeroff would, or would not appear that evening, was again freely discussed. That it was an equally interesting probability to the sterner sex was soon made evident by the unusual alacrity with which they joined the circle. They broke up into groups and knots scattered throughout the length of the handsome, brilliantly lighted room, but a curious restlessness was apparent. No one settled down to cards or music. Even the odd individual moved about and dropped cynical remarks along the root of his progress, instead of sitting down to backgammon, as was his wand. A few other misguided individuals, of the male sex, offered and accepted bets, Sotovochi, on the chances of the unknown appearing. At last, when expectation had been strained almost to breaking-point, it was set at rest. The doors were thrown open, and, lightly leaning on Colonel Estcourt's arm, appeared Mrs. Jefferson's much-talked-of and beautiful mystery. An involuntary hush fell upon the whole assemblage. Not a man or woman there but felt their breath come a little quicker, their hearts beat with suppressed excitement, as that perfect figure, with its magical indolent grace, swept slowly through the room and into their midst. It was the usual homage paid to Princess Zerov, for she possessed that rare and delicate mixture of indifference, languor, and disdain, that is in itself a distinction, and makes ordinary womanhood and beauty suddenly feel coarse and commonplace. She paused before Mrs. Ray Jefferson, and greeted her with a soft, indescribable grace, and after a few minutes' conversation, permitted herself to be introduced to a few of the group around the Little American. That perfect ease of manner which held not a vestige of condescension soon exerted its charm. One after another drew near that envied circle, anxious to pick up some stray pearl of speech from those lovely lips. The women forgot to be envious because she never for one moment forgot or ignored them. Even gouty Mrs. Masterman found that her ailment had been remembered, and was sympathetically inquired about, in a way to which she was entirely unaccustomed. The poet talked as if he drew in inspiration with every glance from those starry eyes. The musician, at her request, moved to the piano, and played some of his music of the future, and it no longer seemed incomprehensible. A sense of exhilaration, of pleasure, of content, spread through the group, and animated discussion, and gave even ordinary conversation a sudden grace and charm. It was to be expected, before the evening was over, that that conversation would ascend by natural gradations from the ordinary to the intellectual. Yet no one could tell exactly how or when it began to do so, any more than they could describe the strange yet clear logic by which this one woman set to write various perplexing problems, and gave the key, as it were, to a nobler and higher order of eclectic philosophy than they had yet ventured upon. To Mrs. Ray Jefferson that discussion in the baths had acted as the stimulus of an olive to the palette. She was all eagerness to resume it. I hope, Madame Zeroff, she said in her brisk, lively fashion, that you will give me a little enlightenment about what you said yesterday. This is just a leisure time with most of us, and I suppose mental culture is not incompatible with hygienic pursuits. As surely not, said the Princess, smiling, the more you cultivate the mind, the less you feel or care for the ailments of the body, and to give those ailments even occasional insignificance is to first forget. And then, banish them. If you draw your mind away from the thought of pain, you cease to feel pain. But that would require a far stronger mental capacity than we possess, said Mrs. Masterman. Then she suddenly remembered that she had not felt a single, gouty twinge the whole evening, because her mental consciousness had been unusually excited. This remembrance made her grow suddenly thoughtful and attentive to the discussion. I think, said Princess Zeroff gently, that we all make a great mistake in setting any absolute limit to our mental capacity. It is quite within our own power to dwarf or extend it.  Our perceptions are gradually blunted, and society is kind enough to case most of its remarks and opinions in a sugar-coating, so that the real truth never reaches us. We gradually find, then, that an opinion that soothes our personal vanity and self-esteem is a very pleasant opinion. So long as we cherish that falsehood, so long do we blunt our faculties of progress. Now it seems a very extraordinary thing to me, who have long been accustomed to investigate and direct the psychic side of nature, to find such numbers and numbers of people who don't believe in any psychic laws at all, far less care to investigate them as knowledge. The reason is simply this, that they all are convinced that one trivial, petty earth-life is the one life for which they were created and are responsible, therefore the only one they feel bound to investigate. She paused and looked at the circle of grave and wandering faces. You have heard of the law of karma, I suppose, she said. There was a murmur, vague, spontaneous, or doubtful, according to the amount of comprehension excited by the question. It is a pity, resumed the Princess, that it is not more generally understood. What is the difficulty? I learnt it in my childhood, just as your English children learn their catechism. You have taken up the doctrine of evolution very strongly, but karma is its very leading law, so to speak. Man is perpetually working out and developing afresh the energies, aspirations and character with which his spirit was originally endowed. He becomes, as it were, the product of the better part of himself, that struggles to the surface again and again during periods of incarceration in the flesh. Then you would convey that we all live over and over again? Most certainly. It is the only rational way to account for the injustice the sorrows and the miseries of earth. It gives long opportunities for the modification of character. It acts as retribution to the evil and the vicious and the selfish.  If you teach him that he can throw off the results of a bad life, and of all it has entailed upon his fellow man, by a brief spell of penitence or a blind irrational faith in the sacrifice of a being he has neglected and ignored during the greater part of that life, you really are only pandering to the selfish and cowardly side of his nature. A little shudder ran through the group at these bold words. Mrs. Ray Jefferson lifted her head and cast glances of triumph about, as one who should say, I told you she would shock you all. There was scarcely a man or woman there who did not attend church on Sundays, and who had not managed to make a comfortable compact between the tenants of religion and the demands of social and worldly pleasures. Not one who, if taken to task on the momentous subject of a spiritual future, could have given any rational explanation of why he or she held certain vague ideas on the subject of salvation, or put off the deeper consideration of the subject to some indefinite period when they would have had their fill of vanities, and lost either the means or the desire to pursue them. And yet there was a subtle frou-frou of rustling skirts as the women drew slightly away, and a decided appearance of discomfort on the faces of the men, to whom an unpleasant truth was suddenly and sharply conveyed, and who found themselves strangely powerless to combat or argue out its real meaning. CHAPTER IX Colonel Estcourt came to the rescue. No doubt, he said, the subject and this view of the subject seems a little strange to our friends here. We must remember that they have not been accustomed to hear it freely discussed, as we have. It is strange, said Mrs. Jefferson, rallying her energies. But we should not shirk its consideration for that reason. I quite agree with Madam Zeroff that people don't think half seriously enough of their real natures, the mysterious inner something which we all feel we possess, but whose voice we stifle in the din of the world. And yet, she added, sighing pathetically as she looked at the great worth's creation, the vanities are very pleasant. Why should we turn anchorites? There is not the slightest necessity to do that, said the Princess, smiling at the unuttered thought she had read in that glance. Far from it. The gravest duties of life are generally those that meet us in the world, and are called forth by our actions in that world. All lives are not meant to be isolated, and certainly none for the whole period of earth-life. A person would have to be very sure that he was free to cut himself adrift from his fellows before he would even be permitted to do it. Permitted? echoed Mrs. Jefferson rather vaguely, but by whom? The teachers of occult science answered the Princess Zeroff. But who are they? exclaimed the little American. That I cannot tell you, she answered gravely. They exist, and their influence is already beginning to make itself felt. But it would be a poor triumph to unveil the highest wisdom that humanity can ever learn in order to satisfy the idol and the curious and the lovers of marvels. Friends who desire to learn can always do so, but nothing is forced upon you, or even obtruded. I should not have opened my lips on the subject had you not expressed a desire to hear something about it. I suppose, said Mrs. Jefferson eagerly, you yourself are a believer in occultism? Madam Zeroff is a great deal more than that, said Colonel Estcourt. She is one of its most earnest students and most ardent votaries. If you knew half of her marvellous powers you would congratulate yourselves upon being permitted to receive her, unless, indeed, he added with a questioning glance at the beautiful woman beside him, she has a fancy to make converts. The men became eager of entreaties to her so made, but the women held back a little. Princess Zeroff, however, assured them that she had no intention of proselytising. It is quite true I am deeply interested in this subject, she said, but I should be sorry to bore you all with my views, or the reasons for my holding those views. Psychic inquiry demands a great deal more than cursory study. There are many mysteries of nature that men have looked upon as enigmas, until patients and research have solved them for them. Then they marvel how they could have been blind so long. Magnetism, spiritualism, and clairvoyance have all their mystical, as well as their explicable side. It is only because they don't readily lend themselves to the comprehension of our material nature that we try to scoff them into the limbo of absurdity and imposture. Ah! said Mrs. Jefferson, talking of clairvoyance that I do believe in. I knew a colored woman in America, the way that woman would tell you things. It was enough to make your flesh creep. She'd just go quietly off to sleep, and you might ask her anything you liked, and she'd tell you, and it was all as true as possible. The princess met Julie in Estcourt's eyes, and smiled strangely. Mrs. Jefferson caught the glance.  I used to be, she said, gravely. Perhaps my faculties have grown blunted for want of use. They are far from being as keen as they were in India. However—and she smiled at the circle of faces—I wonder if any of you would believe me if I told you what you were talking about at dinner-time. First of all, you must remember your conversation could not have been betrayed to me by my friend, as he was not there, and that my rooms are on the opposite wing to the dining-saloon. Well, you discussed different phases of spiritualism. This lady—she indicated Mrs. Masterman—gave her experiences of imposture. You, looking at Mrs. Jefferson, combated those experiences by your own, and this gentleman, she smiled at the cynical individual who was hovering on the outskirts of the circle. Silence to all by reducing your theories to strong common-sense facts. Shall I quote his own words? After the rate people have been running after spiritual phenomena, they are absolutely refreshing. He said that it was an intensely humiliating idea, to find oneself at the beck and call of any other human being, when you imagined you had done with this life. Good gracious! almost screamed Mrs. Jefferson, but how on earth did you hear all this? Positively alarming! Well, said the Princess, still smiling at the pale and conscience-stricken faces, you see I have a faculty, shall I call it, that enables me to hear and see anything I am curious about or interested in. I don't believe I could even explain how I do it, but it seems easy and natural enough to myself. I only paid you a brief visit to-night, more that I might have a little bit of proof to give you, that the powers I spoke of do exist, and are capable of being trained to almost any extent, if the motives for developing them are good. Have I convinced you? She rose as she spoke, and stood facing them in her beautiful indolent grace. She was garbed in some white soft stuff which floated round her like a cloud. The wide hanging sleeves were lined with faint shell-like pink, and fell away from her bare lovely arms to the hem of her floating draperies. She looked like some goddess of mythology, rather than a living woman. And as Julian Estcourt gazed at her, he felt a sudden thrill of awe. It seemed that more than mortal beauty ever really be his, his in the common prose of possession that can never be disassociated with marriage, the prose that is to the delicate subtle beauty of love, what the rough touch is to the wings of the butterfly, the bloom of the grape. For a moment the thought seemed like sacrilege. He could have fallen at her feet in a sudden adoration of the divine beauty and purity of embodied womanhood. If ever she has loved before, he said in his heart, it must have been as a Vestal Virgin or a martyred Saint, where in the world is such another woman? The voice of the cynical philosopher broke on his ear and disturbed his thoughts. Madam, it is my humble opinion that you could convince us of anything you desired. Happy are those who have so charming a disciple to expound their doctrines. Happier still, the fortunate few, to whom those doctrines are to be expounded by lips so lovely and a heart so wise. Air the circle had quite recovered from its astonishment at hearing a speech so flattering uttered by their surly diogenes, they had parted to make way for the beautiful stranger, and the last gleam of her snowy robes had floated through the doorway as a cloud melts into the darkness of descending night. There was a sort of long-drawn breath, a feeling as of long tension suddenly set free, a turning as if by one accord to one another. Then, well, then all the tongues leapt into action, and for the remainder of that evening, like Thackeray's folk at the springs, they talked, and they talked, and they talked. 10 Premonition When the Princess Zeroff was in the privacy of her own boudoir, she turned to Colonel Estcourt in a sudden appeal. Why did you make me go, Julian? she said. I knew I should only shock them.  I think it will do them good to be shocked, he said with a smile. Give them something to think of beside their ailments. And I had a special reason, he went on, with a deeper note of tenderness in his voice. I do not wish you to shut yourself away as you have been doing.  I want you to take a healthy interest in it once again. She had thrown herself on a low-cushioned lounge before the bright wood fire. He took a chair beside her. She seemed to lapse into profound thought, and he watched her beautiful grave face with adoring eyes. I wish, she said suddenly, one could live a free, simple, uncriticized life. Do you remember the old days among the wild hills? The cool gray dawns, the sharp sweet air, the long gallops over the rough roads by the rice fields, the strange temples, the songs of the snake charmers. Ah, we were happy then, Julian, happier than we ever realized. May we not be still happier, he said earnestly. Life has a graver and a wider meaning. It is true, but that should only give us deeper power of appreciation. A strange smile touched her lips, a smile of mystery, and of dreamy unfathomable regret. We shall never be happier, she said, than we were then. I have always felt that. Yes, I know what you would ask. Did I love you then? Yes, Julian, with all my heart and soul. And yet, and yet I could have been nothing more to you than a sister, a friend. There was a purpose in my marriage. She ceased speaking. For a moment her eyes closed. Her head sank back wearily on the soft cushions. Presently she opened them and met his anxious gaze. No, I did not faint, she said. But why I know not, that sense of blankness and dizziness always comes over me when I speak on that subject. There is something I wish, yet dread, to remember. But just as I am on the point of grasping it, there is a blank. Do not speak of that time, he said passionately. I hate to think you were the wife of that man. It was sacrilege. You, my pure-sold goddess. He was a bad man, she said. But up to a certain point I could always escape and defy him. He was a coward at heart, and he was afraid of me. Then suddenly she stretched out her arm and touched his shoulder with a timid, caressing movement. You need not be jealous of those years, my beloved, she said softly. No man would, who knew them and valued them for what they were to me. He sank on his knees and folded his arms about her. Ah, queen of mine, he said. It is only natural that I should be jealous of the lightest touch, or look, or word, that were once another's privilege. Therein lies the only sting in my happiness. Does not that prove it is of earth, earthly?  I believe, Julian, it would be better, even now, if we were to part. I have always that dread upon my soul, that I am destined to bring you suffering, misfortune. Bring me what you will, he interrupted passionately, but do not speak of parting. Rather, suffering and trial at your hands, oh, my life's love, than the greatest peace and prosperity from any other woman's. I wish you loved me less, she said sadly, but I am not forbidden to accept your love now. Only I have warned you, do not forget. And now, she added suddenly, put me to sleep, it is so long, so long since I have known real rest, such as you used to give me. He rose slowly and stood beside her as she nestled back amidst her cushions. A strange calm and chill seemed to fold him in its peace, and the throbbing fires of pain and longing died slowly out of vain and pulse. He laid one hand gently on the beautiful white brow. His eyes met hers, and the glance seemed like a command. The lids drooped, the long, soft lashes fell like a fringe on the delicate flushed cheek. One long, sobbing breath left her lips. Then a beautiful serenity and calm seemed to unfold her. Like a statue she lay there motionless, stirless, lifeless, one would have thought, save for the faint regular breath that stole forth from the parted lips. Julian Estcourt stood for a moment in perfect silence by her side. Then he moved away, and drawing aside the portiers which separated the boudoir from the adjoining room, he called softly to her maid. Phyllisie, he said, your mistress will sleep for two hours. See that she is not disturbed. Once out in the cool night air Julian Estcourt gave the rain to thought and memory. The march of events had been rapid. It seemed difficult to realize that he really stood in the light of an accepted lover to the woman who, but the previous day, he deemed at the other end of the world. Difficult to realize that she loved him, and had loved him through all the blank desolate years of absence and suffering they had both endured. Her warning came ever and again like a living voice across the fevered train of his thoughts. But he was no wit more inclined to listen to it here, in the calmness and soberness of solitude, than when her own lips had spoken it, and the charm of her own presence had swept away prudence and self-restraint. It may not be wise, he said in his heart, but I have not the strength to deny myself the only happiness I have ever pictured as possible. It is not as if I had frittered away my life on other women, on mere sensual pleasures. From my boyhood up to the present hour her power has been the same, her charm for me the same. I love her. That says all, and yet not half enough. Human nature is weak. I had dreamt of another life, of a higher and nobler field of duty, apart from the selfish joys that are inseparable from mere human ties. But I can yield that dream up without a regret. I can turn back from the threshold I have crossed. May there not be a purpose in our meeting like this, in the prospect of our union? If the time has come to teach, and to speak out boldly what has long been veiled in mysticism and doubt, where could a teacher so eloquent be found, or one whose natural gifts and loveliness could make those teachings of so much weight? And I, I too, can help and protect her. Our souls need not descend from the spiritual level they have attained. They may meet and touch, and yet expand in the duality of perfect love and perfect comprehension. It is a glorious thought. And he lifted his eyes to the starry heights, that to him held all the mystery of peopled worlds, and were no mere pinpricks of light created to illuminate one. A beautiful thought. God grant it may be realized. But even as his eyes rested on the solemn splendor of the heavens, even as the human passions of the senses grew still beneath the loftier aspirations of the soul, even as that involuntary prayer sprang from heart to lips, some inner consciousness whispered like a warning voice. It cannot be. He started as if that sound were audible. A cold and sudden terror swept over his body like a chilling wind. Baa! he cried.  Is this all my love has done for me? Made me like a frightened child, starting at shadows? He turned abruptly and went within to seek his own room. It was just midnight. Lights were being extinguished in the public rooms and corridors. Silence and sleep were settling down upon the vast building. Colonel Estcourt exchanged his evening clothes for the comfort of dressing gown and slippers, and then threw himself into an easy chair before the fire, which was blazing brightly and cheerfully in the grate. It was the conventional hotel bedroom. A dressing-table stood in the window. The bed, curtained and draped, looked inviting in its corner. A lamp stood on a small table littered with books and papers. An array of pipes and cigar holders were strewn carelessly on the marble mantelpiece. A sense of brightness and common-place comfort permeated the atmosphere, and were sensibly soothing after the chill of the cool December night. He took a cigar from his case and lit it, and threw himself back and smoked at his ease. As he did so, he heard a clock in the distance strike the quarter after midnight. Mechanically, he counted the strokes. "'She will wake now,' he said, half-aloud. The sound of his voice startled himself in the stillness of the room. As its echoes died away, he glanced nervously round. Then his face paled to the hues of death, his eyes dilated. Midway in the room, a veiled, misty figure, seemed to float, transparent and yet distinct. And he saw its arms stretched out towards himself with a sudden, impressive gesture. He tossed the cigar into the grate, then bent his head as if in submission. "'Is it the summons?' "'At last,' he said faintly. If answer there was, it was audible only to himself. To any one looking on, it only seemed as if a sudden, dreamy lassitude had overtaken him.   Recording by Darvina. THE MYSTERY OF A TURKISH BATH by Rita. CHAPTER XI. THE DREAM As Julian Estcourt's eyes closed, it seemed to him that with a sudden, sharp spasm of pain he tore himself away from that sleeping, sentient portion of humanity, which was his representation. And then, without effort or consciousness of his own, he seemed floating swiftly along over a dark and misty space. A great sea tossed and moaned beneath him. He felt that someone was beside him, but he had no desire to question its personality. Now and then lights flashed through the dusky shadows which enveloped him. And as they flashed he saw vivid pictures of plains and cities and mountains. Over one such city, bathed in the clear lucid flame of the full moon, he seemed to pause. He saw bridges, piles of buildings, dark flowing canals, a strange medley of streets, some broad and beautiful, others dark, narrow and pestilential, reeking with the fumes of dramshops. There was snow on the ground, slays were gliding swiftly to and fro. People spoke but seldom, an air of restraint, of fear, of rebellion impressed him, as the furtive glances and brief whispers became pregnant with meaning. Gradually, as he moved through the hurrying crowd, he was conscious of a name constantly on their lips. It was muttered by the voices of tipsy men reeling from their vile dens of intoxication, by the lips of painted women as they drew their furs around their tawdry finery, by the artisans with their pinched faces and hungry eyes, by all the classes to whom life is a bitter struggle with poverty and necessity. To and fro he seemed to move without haste, and yet with the rapidity of thought, in the magnificence of gilded saloons, in the snow-covered street, in the haunts of poverty and vice, always and always that one word was tossed to and fro in every accent of hate and approprium. And when in wonder he turned to the shape floating still beside him, and would have questioned the meaning of that word, it stayed the question on his lips with a mute gesture of silence. Then, strange to say, he seemed to gather into his own consciousness a sense of deep, implacable hatred, a hatred that thrilled the air as with poisoned breath, and beat in the pulses of living men to whom existence was brutalized by tyranny and vice. The sense of this awful, murderous hate, at last grew terrible as a burden, so fully and consciously did he recognize it, so clearly did he see of what it was capable, and so mysteriously did it seem to breathe about the very air through which he moved. It filled the pulses of the night with a horror from which he shrank aghast. It stretched a blood-red hand over the white drifts of unsullied snow. It painted out the brilliant hues of luxury, and threw yet darker shadows over the sad homes of want and misery and crime. And more and more he strained every nerve to catch the meaning of that word which was its embodiment, and again and again he failed. Suddenly the scene changed. He was in a poor chamber, barely and miserably furnished. It lay in the center of a pile of buildings facing a half-frozen canal. It seemed to him that the building consisted of hosts of small tenements, all swarming with human life. But he had passed up the common stairway seemingly unnoticed, and entered this special room. It was tenanted by two people, an old woman of some three-score years, with a thin worn face and gray hair banded over her hollow temples. She was thinly clad and had an old tippet of yellow fur over her shoulders. She sat near the stove. Before her stood a young man in the dress of a Petersburg student. They were talking low and earnestly. Again that word reached him. Again the full sense of its meaning eluded his grasp. Suddenly the comprehension of the scene became clear to him. He saw they were mother and son, that he was relating some incident to her with a suppressed enthusiasm, that yet made itself audible in his deep thrilling tone, and visible in the glow and sparkle of his eye. She is an angel, he said at last. We do well to trust her, but what a risk. Think of it, mother, five hundred lives, and only a few hours to decide their fate. The woman's face grew white. Her feeble limbs shivered as with an egg you fit. My son, she moaned. My only one. And you too may be sacrificed. Oh unhappy country, unhappy fate that makes it ours. But you are right. The princess is an angel of goodness. She will save us. She has said it. They both turned involuntarily towards a small image, before which a lamp burned. He saw them kneel hand in hand before it. Then the room faded into darkness. He was in another place now. A sense of luxury, of perfume, of dreamy warmth.  They seemed to glow like jewels, each perfect in the richness and loveliness of its setting. And at the farthest end of one of them a woman reclined on a couch of white furs. She was wrapped in a loose gown of thick, white silk, bordered also with snowy fur. And her lovely hair was unbound, and fell in a long trail of dusky splendor over the colorless purity of her surroundings. Her eyes were wide open and full of a fear that was almost horror. And, as if to account for it, he seemed suddenly to hear, coming through the fragrant stillness of those virginal chambers, the dull, heavy step of a man. She raised herself on one lovely bare arm. Her hand went to her heart.  A strange, frozen calm came over the perfect features. The face looked as if carved in marble. Nearer and nearer came the heavy step, reeling and uncertain now, yet stumbling with drunken obstinacy towards some goal to which the leaden senses pointed their brutal desires. Up to this time Julian Estcourt had only been conscious of a passive blind submission to the force controlling him. But now power seemed to thrill him, desire seemed struggling to life, the will awakened from its lethargy, and a god-like strength and force seemed to spring into life, held in check but for a moment, as the increased vigilance of sense bathed him watch yet a little longer. With breath reeking of drink, with bloodshot eyes and reeling step, the satyr entered. Yet so great was the spell and charm of that womanly purity and dauntless pride, that even lust and tyranny sank abashed on the threshold, and a certain shame and hesitancy were visible in the flushed face and bloodshot eyes. Why are you here? asked the woman calmly. Have you mistaken your way? No. And the intruder advanced with sudden boldness. I have come to ask if you are still of the same mind, still intent on destroying your friends. His laugh rang out mockingly. Fine friends truly for a princess thereof. I gave you till to-night. Come, which is to be sacrificed. Your womanly scruples or the five hundred lives you have fooled into security. Then she sprang to her feet a statue no longer, but a living, passionate woman. I have borne enough, she cried. Beware how you tempt the power that has been strong enough to keep me from you all these years. Beware, too, how, once again, you stain your soul with innocent blood. Thousands of voices are crying against you even now. Thousands of years of suffering on your part will not avail to buy you peace in the future. I have prayed for these unfortunates. I have begged their lives at your hands on my very knees. Do not tempt me too far. I say again, you do not know what it is you do. He laughed brutally. I know, he said, that you shall pay for their lives or sacrifice them. I have waited long enough. I am sick of hearing men rave about your beauty, and feeling that that beauty is no more to me than if I were a beggar at my own gates. Do you forget, she said solemnly, the compact we made? I am not at any man's choice or disposal. My life has a mission to accomplish, and you, with all your brutal desires and evil passions, cannot turn that life from its distant purpose. Do not forget the warnings you have already received.  Beautiful and mysterious as some vestal priestess defending the secrets of her order. But that beauty, for once, seemed less to subjugate than to inflame the evil desires of that lower nature to which it was bound. I will listen no more to vague threats, he said fiercely. I have paid a heavy enough price for you I mean to enjoy my purchase. See, here is the list. They are fairly trapped. A word from you, and they are safe, these impatient fools. Keep silence, and the knout, the mines, the slow torturing death of Siberia awaits them all. Now, once again, your answer? He drew nearer, his eyes aflame, his arms outstretched. Then a change, wild and fearful, as that of the tropical tornado to a southern landscape, swept over that lovely form. Her eyes flashed, her figure seemed to die late. Slowly she raised her arm, and stretched it towards that brutal ravisher. Struggling, panting, tearing as it were against a power that bade him hearken to that terrible answer, Julian Estcourt cried, or seemed to cry or seemed to cry aloud in an agony of entreaty.  His eyes opened, and he found himself bathed in the cold sweat of more than mortal terror, lying face downwards on the floor of his own bedroom. In a blind, dazed fashion he struggled to his feet and rushed to the window, and let the cool night air blow over his face. Every limb was trembling, he could not think with any clearness. In some dim, unconscious fashion he groped for his watch, found it, and looked at the time. A quarter past one. Only an hour had passed, an hour, and he felt as if sentries had swept over his head in the vivid horrors of that awful dream. But it was only a dream, he cried aloud, drawing in deep panting breaths of the pine scented air. Oh, thank God! Thank God it was only a dream! And he sank on his knees and sobbed like a child in the starlit solitude of the night. CHAPTER XII. EFFECTS The next day, when Colonel Escort sent to know if the Princess Zareff would receive him, he was informed she was ill and could see no one. Feeling strangely disinclined for mere ordinary society, he ordered his horse to be brought round, and spent the greater portion of the day in long, fierce gallops over the miles of stretching sand that framed in the bay. The sky was chill and gray. A cold wind blew from the sea and dashed the salt foam in his face as the waves swept stormily in. But the dull sky and the stormy sea suited his mood, and seemed to string up the relaxed tension of his nerves. Nature is man's best physician after all, he said to himself, reigning in his beautiful Arab at last, and bearing his brow to the fresh breeze. Even as she is his best friend, only we don't believe it. We live in the world and follow the ways of the world until our faculties are blunted, our natures demoralized, our tastes vitiated, our energies enfeebled. How many lands I have traveled over, how many cities I have seen, and yet I verily believe that the wild Sioux in his prairies and the wandering Bedouin of the desert have more of real manhood than we. Yes, and get more real enjoyment out of life. It was quite dusk before he reached the hotel. The country was all new and strange to him, and he had missed his way more than once. But though he was tired and stiff and hungry, he felt that his mental energies were braced, his mind at ease, and the disturbing and torturing memories of the previous night no longer tormented him. At dinner he sat next to Mrs. Ray Jefferson, who was radiant and voluble as ever. She had a great deal to say about the Princess, who, it appeared, had again spent the morning in the baths. She looked ill, said the little American, awfully white and languid. I asked her if she had seen a ghost. There was something scared and strange about her. I surmised its nerves. It was odd, too, and she lowered her voice as if taking the Colonel into a special confidence. But she went off to sleep in the hot-room. Nothing could waken her. I got rather frightened. His face looked disturbed. To sleep, he said. That is rather unusual, is it not? Oh, plenty of us go to sleep in the cooling-room, said Mrs. Jefferson. But I never saw any one do it in any of the others. She was talking to me, and then quite suddenly she said, I feel sleepy. Please do not speak. I shall wake in a quarter of an hour. And so she did. You did not try to waken her, I suppose? asked Colonel Estcourt anxiously. Well, I did, but it was no use, so I let her be. I saw she was all right, because she breathed naturally, and her heart beat quite regularly. Still, it seemed odd. I asked her maid afterwards about it. She is a pretty little French woman, and always waits in the cooling-room for her mistress. But she didn't seem to think anything of it. She said she very often does that, and it is best not to try and waken her. I must say she seemed very much better afterwards. Brighter and more alert. What a lovely creature she is! she added enthusiastically. I suppose you know you're the most envied person in the hotel at this present moment. He smiled, but his face still looked anxious and disturbed. Because I have the privilege of being her friend, he said, well, I am not going to deny that it is a privilege, a most enviable one. I should think, said Mrs. Jefferson meaningly, it is also one that has its dangers. The calm gray eyes met her sharp inquisitive glance, but were utterly unrevealing. I will not affect to misunderstand you, he said. But there are men who covet danger for its own sake. They may seem foolhardy, but they are only accountable to themselves for the risks they run. Well, said Mrs. Jefferson warmly, I'm only a woman, and yet, if it's possible, to fall in love with one of my own sex, I've done it. She's perfectly charmed me. I can't get her out of my head for a single moment. It's not only her wonderful beauty, but her mind. As for our poet, she added laughing, he's quite gone. He's done nothing all day but moon about under the pine trees, writing sonnets, I guess, and hoping to catch a glimpse of her. All useless. She's not left the hotel today, and I suppose she'll not favour us to-night. Colonel Estcourt was silent. Conversation was more or less general, but it sounded vague and unmeaning to him. He heard a voice on his left holding forth with energy, but he did not heed it until Mrs. Jefferson touched his arm and whispered an entreaty. Do listen, she said. It's diogenes. Isn't he coming out? I surmise it's her influence. You remember last night? An atheist, said the dogmatic voice of the individual who had given that common-sense view of spiritualism the previous evening.  Because he doubts what men teach of God, is no reason for doubting the existence of God. I grant that the Reverend John Smith, with his highfalutin trappings of ritualism on one side, and the Reverend Josiah Stiggins, with his coarse and commonplace familiarity with the Almighty, whose personality he has the effrontery to expound as if he were discussing the characteristics of an ordinary mortal, on the other, are enough to drive hundreds of people out of the pale of Christianity, and force them to take refuge in defiance and opposition. But all the same, the expectation of another life, is a rooted belief in the minds of all men, quite apart from religion. Even the savage has it. If we call it human nature to eat, drink, fight, love, or desire, it must also be human nature that gives universal assent to this idea of an after-existence. The fact of finding it in all races is but a proof that man is the creation of a power that intends him for a far wider range of existence than he sees before him. There are many things affirmed by man's consciousness that he cannot really or logically explain. Yet it is a narrow reasoning that bids us reject the inexplicable. Yet you reject spiritualism, said Mrs. Jefferson quickly. Not at all, my dear madam. I only reject the humiliating and degrading trickery that is its sensational form. I only repeat what I said yesterday, that no lofty or educated mind could do anything but resent the idea of being subjugated to a mere material will, and being forced by that will to perform conjuring tricks in order that a small portion of the civilized world should gape and gaze and cry out, how wonderful! To deny that spirits exist, I and work, would be to deny the very crudest faith in Christianity. There is no doubt, said Colonel Estcourt, that everything is explicable, but we must wait for the growth and development of our higher natures before we can comprehend half the mysteries of the higher life. The great fault of the materialist and the scientist is that they would feign bring everything down to the level of their present comprehension, instead of patiently waiting the completion of their future spiritual forces. It is quite evident that we are not meant to attain our full mental stature on the earth-plane, or what would be left to achieve in the countless ages of immortality. Man believes in immortality, and yet seems to contemplate it as a state of stagnation and quiescence. Why he believes in it, he cannot fully explain. It is, as you said before, a consciousness given to the races of humanity, but no more capable of commonplace analysis than time, or space, or thought. The beautiful is as the cloud that floats in radiant space, murmured the poet. The very vagueness of form permits the eye to clothe it in the loveliest tints of fancy. Now that's what I call rational, murmured Mrs. Jefferson in Colonel Estcourt's ear.  I guess he don't. Gracious! She started, and suddenly grasped his arm. Look! she said. There's the princess in the doorway. Is she coming in? No, she's moving away. I believe she's going into the drawing-room after all. Did you see her? No, said Colonel Estcourt. Are you sure it was the princess? His face looked strangely pale. She saw that his hand trembled as he laid down his knife on the plate before him. Sure, exclaimed Mrs. Jefferson with asperity. Of course I'm sure. It's not easy to mistake her, I fancy. I can't think why you didn't catch sight of her. She just looked in as she passed, I suppose. No doubt, he said, but the gravity and uneasiness of his face deepened. Just then one of the waiters paused beside Mrs. Jefferson's chair. She turned eagerly to him. Watson, she said, just obliged me by going to the drawing-room and finding out if Madame Zeroff is there. I guess, she added, laughingly, to Colonel Estcourt, that I'm not going to waste my time over thirteen courses if she is. Still he did not speak, and his unusual pallor and gravity began to affect the lively little American woman. She helped herself to truffled pheasant, and became absorbed in gastronomical duties. Two or three minutes passed when the man who had gone on her errand returned. She glanced eagerly up. Madame Zeroff is not in the drawing-room, he said, in a low voice. I met her maid on the staircase, and she says that Madame is not well enough to leave her apartments this evening. But good gracious me! began Mrs. Jefferson with angry impatience. I saw— Hush! said Colonel Estcourt in a low, impressive voice. Oblige me by saying nothing about it. Remember, I, too, was looking in the same direction, yet I saw nothing. Mrs. Jefferson dropped her knife and fork and stared at him. Now, Colonel, she said, am I in my senses or am I not? I've only had iced water to drink. I believe I'm a common-place person eating a common place, though very excellent, dinner. Nothing's been playing tricks with my nerves, I can swear. And I do assure you that the Princess Zeroff stood there in that doorway and looked in here, not five minutes ago. Why, I'll even tell you the gown she had on.  There! she added triumphantly. You may go up to her rooms after dinner, and if she hasn't got that gown on, and if she didn't come by that doorway—well, I'll say I've gone stark-staring mad. That's so. Just as the ladies had left the dining-room, a note was put into Colonel Estcourt's hand. He opened it, and read the two brief lines it contained. I will see you in my boudoir when you have finished dinner. He pushed aside the glass he had just filled, and left the table at once. He knocked at the door of her room, and the low, sweet voice that bade him enter, thrilled his heart with its accustomed sorcery. He opened the door, but as he stepped across the threshold he suddenly paused, and for a moment it seemed to him that his heart ceased to beat. Was it only chance that reproduced the dream scene of the previous night? For the suite of rooms were thrown open, and through the delicate amber tints of the satin hangings gleamed the faint rose hue of lamplight, pailing into opal in the farthest chamber, but giving to all the soft and glowing colouring he remembered so well. Swiftly, as his eyes took in the picture, they seemed also to take in the lovely figure reclining among soft snowy furs, robed in colourless silk bordered with the same fur. She raised herself on her arm as he approached. I have not treated you well to-day, Julian, she said, but I have been ill, nervous, disturbed. I slept badly and had terrible dreams. You must forgive me. He bent over the extended hand, and touched it with his lips. You are cold, she said. What is the matter? I too had a terrible dream, he said. I suppose the effects are still upon me. Then he looked calmly and fixedly at her. You were downstairs a few minutes ago, he said. Why? She looked surprised. Did you see me? she asked. He shook his head. No, he said, it was your American friend. Her face grew thoughtful. Then the power is coming back, she said. I wonder why. He seated himself beside her. Of course, he said, it was not really yourself. I have not left this couch for three hours, she said. All the same, I wanted to have a peep at you all. I hope you will not exercise that power too frequently, he said. You know I never liked it. I know, she said, smiling up at his grave-face, that you were always afraid I should not come back from my flights, but I always do. They sent me, very much against my will. Still, I must obey. She sighed. Then after a moment she put out her hand with a caressing little gesture. What was your terrible dream, she said? I see it is troubling you still. You are distrae and absent. Tell me. He touched the white hand with his lips. I would rather not, he said, because you were concerned in it, and it seemed as if you were trying to reveal something or show me something that I dreaded to see. It was in fighting against seeing it that I awoke. She started from her reclining position and fixed her eyes on his face. Julian, she cried in a sudden breathless way. Was it, was it no? She broke off and wrung her hands helplessly. It has escaped me again. I cannot remember all that I could. It tortures me so. Julian, and she looked at him appealingly, You must help me.  I will not wed you till that mystery is solved. Something warns me against it. My dearest, he said soothingly, do not excite yourself in this fashion. It can make no difference to me that there should be mystery or tragedy in your past life. Have I not always loved you? Have we not chosen the same path in life? Only now we shall tread it side by side, not one far in advance of the other? The infinite delight of that companionship shall not be marred by any memories of the past. If I am content to let it rest, surely you may be. She drew herself away. Her deep, strange eyes looked coldly, and yet mournfully back to his yearning gaze. You were never a coward, Julian, she said. What is it you fear now?  She saw that he was trembling greatly. I cannot tell, he said hoarsely, would to God that I could.  She laid her hand on his bowed head. Rest assured you shall not lose that, she said, in her low, thrilling voice. No, Julian, that is not the danger. It threatens me not you. There will be no change on my part, not so far as my love is concerned. Will that assurance satisfy you? You need not ask that, beloved. But why disturb our peace? If I am content, there must be no secret between your soul and mine, she said solemnly. For what, think you, is your power granted? But that I may answer to it, that I may lead you on the road, and that you, for me, may throw open the portals? In the future, he said eagerly, I am content to do your will. But not now, not to draw the veil from our buried miseries. Let them be as dead things, out of sight and mind.  You may put the past out of sight, but it lives still, lives in its hidden crimes, its secret sins, its evil and its good, lives to haunt and shape our future. Let that future dream as it will of forgetfulness. He rose from his knees.  When will you wed me, Estera? he asked abruptly. The soft colour flushed her cheek. Her eyes drooped. My heart is yours, she said. My life lives but in the shadow of your own. Why should I withhold this poor gift? She placed her hand in his, and let him draw her to his heart. I will wed you when you will, she said, but only if you yield to my condition. It is an easy one, Julian. Why do you fear? Ah, why? He could not answer that question to his own heart, much less to hers. He could not paint the shuddering horror which had forced him to veil his eyes and shrink aghast from that last scene in his dream. Yet when he looked down on her in her pure womanly beauty, and felt the clinging tenderness of her arms, and knew that among all the world of men who had worshipped and wooed her, he alone had kept his place, and awakened a response of tenderness. He felt his heart thrill and glow with sudden strength and pride. It shall be as you wish, he said. On the night that heralds are bridal mourn, I promise, if my power be still the same, that I will do your bidding. She lifted her face. It was radiant with a strange mysterious joy. At last, she said, brokenly. At last I shall know. Every page of my life will be clear, heart to heart, soul to soul, so we shall stand. Oh, beloved, you and I, with senses purified, with no secret unshared, with spirits unfettered and souls at rest, so shall we greet our bridal mourn. For this did I brave the ordeal. For this have I faced almost the bitterness of death. But the trial is almost over. The goal is almost reached. Go now, my life's beloved, lest indeed my heart should break beneath its weight of joy. Go, but fear not. I am yours forever in the life we know, and, in the deep unknown beyond, I shall claim you still. CHAPTER XIV For some days no one in the hotel saw the princess's air-off, but her influence seemed to have left a distinct impression, judging from the run on Buddhist literature at the different circulating libraries of the town. The occult world, Isis unveiled, and esoteric Buddhism, were in great demand. So were various works on mesmerism, clairvoyance, and occult science. The poet plunged into Zanoni, which he had read in the days of his boyhood, as one reads a fairy tale. And he and Mrs. Ray Jefferson, being the greatest enthusiasts, held long and learned and quite unintelligible discussions over these mysterious subjects, with a view to being able to hold their own, with the beautiful proselytizer, when she should deign to come amongst them all once more. The weather had changed and kept the invalids indoors, so there was plenty of time for serious reading, as Mrs. Jefferson called it. They took to calling the princess the Eastern Mystery, and were quite certain that she must be gifted with abnormal powers. Mrs. Jefferson related the story of her appearance in the doorway, her belief in it having long since been substantiated by Colonel Estquart's reluctant admission that the princess was certainly attired in a white silk gown, bordered and trimmed with white fur, when he went up to her rooms that evening. Mrs. Masterman alone held out, and scoffed audibly at the mystic literature, and what she called the insane jabber, that went on in the drawing-room every evening. Psychic phenomena indeed, the worthy lady would snort. Don't talk to me about such rubbish. It's just as bad as the mediums and the slate writers. Dear Madam, pleaded the gentle voice of the enamored poet, do not I pray you confound these great mysteries with the strain of human error running through their attempted explanation? An explanation only intended to bring them down to the level of our material understandings. Let me persuade you to read that most exquisite poem, The Light of Asia. Light of your grandmother! exclaimed Mrs. Masterman with sublime contempt. I fear, lamented the poet, it never was granted to her. She lived in a benighted age. She had not our privileges. And a very good thing, too, said the purple-visaged Dowager rothfully. Privileges, indeed. Fine privileges, if honest, sober-minded Christians, are to learn the way to heaven from heathens and idolaters. You are all just as bad as those people St. Paul speaks of, who were always running after some new thing. I'm happy to say my Bible and my Church are good enough for me. I don't want a new religion at my time of life. The teachers in the Church are so very frequently our intellectual inferiors, murmured the poet, that they only excite commiseration or amusement. Well, I suppose they know their business, snapped Mrs. Masterman. I'm sure no man would go into the Church if he didn't feel a call, and the fact of his doing so, and taking up that life, should be enough to prevent any right-minded person from ridiculing mere human frailties of voice and manner and appearance. Unfortunately, murmured the poet, I have been at college with several embryo parsons. But to the best of my recollection the only special call they had for the office was the call of some earthly relative or friend who had a comfortable living at his disposal. It seems to me—I may be wrong, of course—but it really does seem to me that we have quite reversed the old order of religious ministration. At first every worldly consideration, even the necessaries of life, were given up by those who undertook the office. Now the office is only undertaken for the worldly considerations and the necessities of life. Oh! cried Mrs. Masterman, losing her temper, which even at the best of times was exceedingly hard to keep.  The truth is this foreign woman has bewitched you all, and will end in making you heathens like herself. Thank goodness I've too much sense to listen to her. It's my belief she'll turn out a murderous or a fire-worshipper or something of that sort before we've seen the last of her. I don't like mysterious persons. If she hadn't had big eyes and a straight nose and a figure like those venuses and creatures who hold the lamps in the corridors, no one here would have troubled their heads about her. And she swept away contemptuously, leaving the poet utterly aghast at her last indignant speech. He repeated it to Mrs. Ray Jefferson, who was reclining in a rocking chair, endeavouring to comprehend the light of Asia. The endeavour, however, was not very successful, and she hailed the approach of the poet with delight. His account of the conversation filled her with wrath and indignation. The feelings might have been partially due to Mrs. Masterman's remembered snubs on the matter of feet and suppressed gout at the Turkish bath. They certainly rose strongly to the occasion, and with the help of sundry powerful Americanisms gave a very fair display of vituperate eloquence. The poet was more and more convinced that there was only one perfect woman in the world, and that was the beautiful creature whom he had apostrophised in sonnets as, mysterious mystery whose bright sad eyes wild as the row and deep with undreamed dreams, etc., etc. So he listened and sighed, and in a low and plaintive voice, significant of hidden woe and much soul-suffering, to quote from another effusion, he read to her fragments of the Light of Asia, which she could not in the least comprehend, but which she bluntly criticised as, not half bad to listen to if you felt drowsy. Oh, but I do wish the Princess would come down, she said at last, in the intervals of a selection. I've such hundreds of questions to ask her. Seems to me she dropped to the seed in pretty fruitful soil the other night, for we're all just gone on occultism. Only we don't know anything about it. Ah, there's Colonel Escort. I'll ask him if it's possible to have her down this evening. I don't mind which body she comes in, the astral or the ordinary. In fact, I think I should prefer the former. Colonel! she called out, raising her voice. Come here, I want to speak to you. She put her request to him as he obeyed her summons, and put it with an earnestness and fervour that showed it was sincere, and not the formula of idle curiosity. I don't know, he said, if it will be possible, but if the Princess consents, I will arrange that two or three of you shall have an opportunity of witnessing how really marvellous her powers are. She never makes a display or show of them, for reasons which you cannot yet understand. But if she consents, I should like you, Mrs. Jefferson, and my young friend here, smiling at the poet's excited face, and one or two other people interested in the matter, to come up to her boudoir this evening. I will just send up a note and ask. I could just worship you, Colonel! cried the little American ecstatically.  Do not thank me yet, he said, smiling. You do not know whether you will be received. At the same moment there came a sound in the air above their heads. Soft, clear, vibrating, like the faint echo of a silver bell. Mrs. Jefferson started. The poet turned pale. Colonel Estcourt looked at them gravely. It is the answer, he said. You may come. She will receive us. Who else do you wish to invite? Oh, my husband, if I may! cried Mrs. Jefferson eagerly. And diogenes! He's so solid and sensible. His imagination never plays tricks with him. Very well, said Colonel Estcourt. Bring them also. The Princess Zeroff was seated in her boudoir reading as the party filed in, headed by Colonel Estcourt. She rose and greeted them with the same sweet and gracious manner that had so charmed Mrs. Jefferson. I know why you are here, she said, as the little American burst into vivacious explanations. I am quite ready to do anything Julian wishes.  They are natural to me, I suppose, but you do not require to be told that even natural gifts are capable of training and improving to almost any extent. She turned to Mrs. Jefferson. You have some power, she said. You saw me the other night. No one else did. Mrs. Jefferson looked highly gratified. Oh, Madam Zeroff, she cried. I'd give up everything in the world to have your wonderful gifts. Even Worth's gowns, said the Princess, smiling. What about the pleasant vanities we talked so much about? Oh, bother the vanities! I've found out life can be much more interesting than when it's merely frivolous, said the American heartily. Is there anything I could do to become an occultist? Colonel Estcourt laughed outright. My dear Mrs. Jefferson, he said, the life is not by any means easy or gratifying. I think you'd better consider it carefully and weigh it well in the balance with the creations of Worth and the magnificence of your diamonds, for somehow the two things won't pull together, and you haven't even learned the ABC of occult science yet. No, she said, seating herself, I suppose not. Well, please begin my lesson. This will not be a lesson, he said gravely. Only an illustration. May I ask you all to be seated? They took various chairs and seats, and the Princess threw herself on the couch, nestling back among her favourite white bearskins, with a smile on her lips. Colonel Estcourt removed a rose-shaded lamp from the stand, and placed it behind her, so that the light should not shine directly into her eyes. They were all watching her intently in the full expectation of something to be done, nor said that was mysterious and awe-inspiring. Colonel Estcourt then seated himself on a chair opposite the couch. For a moment their eyes met and lingered in the gaze. Then hers closed softly, and she seemed to sleep as peacefully and gently as a child in its cradle. No one spoke. Suddenly a voice broke the stillness, clear, sweet, and sonorous, the voice of the sleeper, though her lips scarcely moved, nor did the placid expression of her face change. What you desire to know is the storied wisdom of past ages, the fruits of the deepest and most earnest research of which human minds are capable. These fruits have only been gathered after long and painful study, after severe training of every spiritual faculty, and the repression of all lower material inclinations and desires. There is but one among all who listen to me now, capable of undertaking such study, or undergoing such an ordeal. The day is at hand when he may choose it, if he will. They who bid me speak now are willing that you should learn some lesson to benefit yourselves and your fellow men. They say to you, O poet, perfect those gifts of your higher nature, yet be not of them vain glorious, since, humanly speaking, they are not yours but lent for a purpose, and the brief space of earth-life. Look upon every beautiful thought, every gift of expression, as the direction of one who has dowered you with the possibility of opening other eyes to the beauty, and other minds to the understanding of such expression. Remember there is great truth in your favorite lines that karma is the total of a soul. The things it did, the thoughts it had, the self it wove, with wolf of viewless time, crossed on the warp invisible of acts. There is another listener here, one who has wrestled with the secrets of nature. To him I say, be not over vain of the triumph gained by simple accident of discovery. Turn that discovery to better uses than the mere amassing of wealth. Let the poor, the sick, the needy, gain health and happiness from your hands, and let their voices bless you for good wrought amongst them.  Your wealth will only bring you happiness in so far as you use it to benefit others less fortunate, though equally deserving. It is given you as a trial, not as a reward. To you, O cynic, this message have I also. Your eyes see but through a veil of dulled and venglorious senses. Some truths you have learned, but in the passage through your mind they take the color and shape of a distorted and embittered fancy. You have a work to do, and influence to do it, but your will must become humble. And then you will learn the sweets of true knowledge, and be able to disseminate truth and wisdom. Now you absorb it into your own mind, for your own satisfaction, and for the poor triumph of discouraging those of lower mental stature, and of nature's lighter and grosser than your own. To the true prophet, and the true philosopher, he himself is insignificant before the great truths he has learned, and his personal identity willingly sinks into obscurity, so only that these truths may live. For a moment she ceased, and the different faces looked curiously uncomfortable, and startled at so keen a vivisection of their inner natures. Mrs. Ray Jefferson, however, feeling that she had been left out in the cold, and anxious for a special message to herself, broke the spell of silence. Have you nothing to say to me, Princess? she asked, beseechingly. Then the beautiful head moved restlessly to and fro, and the face grew less placid and childlike. She began to speak, but now the words came in quick, disjointed fragments. They are standing beside you, she said. I must go. You may come with us, but not Julian. Keep Julian away. Keep Julian away. What does she mean? cried Mrs. Jefferson, turning pale. And—oh, gracious! she cried to her husband. Look at Colonel Estcourt. Is he going to faint? All eyes turned on the Colonel. He lay back on his chair white and gasping. My God! he cried in a stifled voice. My power is gone. I can't hold her. I can't keep her back. She is speaking again! cried Mrs. Jefferson in low, terrified accents. Oh, I don't have like this. I wish we'd never come. Then a great awe and stillness fell upon them. And despite their terror and their dread, every ear strained to catch the quick, disjointed words that fell from those strange lips. I am there. How still the streets are and the snow. How fast it falls. How they crowd round the palace gate to-night. Stay the horses, Ivan. I will speak. Do not fear, my friends, your lives are safe. I promise it. What is this? My rooms? How lonely they seem to-night. Alone? Yes. I am always alone. No lover's step has ever echoed through this cloistered silence. Alone and sad. Ah, how I have suffered here. What do they say? It will be over soon. It will be over. Soon. One more battle to win. Let me summon all my courage now. I have faced ordeals before. I have forgotten woman's fears, and laid aside woman's scruples. Am I not pure? Am I not brave? Yet why do I tremble? One weakness is still unconquered. One human love burns true and deep and steadfast in my heart. I cannot cast it out. I will not. Not even at your bidding. Not even to make my task easier. A step in the silence. Who dares to cross my chambers? Courage, my heart. There, on the threshold, stand my white guard. Why should I fear? Courage! Courage! Like one carved in stone Julian Estcourt sat and listened.  Was his dread to be realized? It seemed so, for all control was gone. A higher power had seized the reins. She had escaped him, and an awful horror was upon him lest he, in his folly and short-sightedness, had assembled these people here only to be witnesses of the degradation of the peerless creature he had so worshiped, and so loved. Spellbound they sat and listened. The rose-light from the lamps falling upon their white set faces, and the quivering tension of their silent lips. The voice of the sleeper went ruthlessly on. Scene for scene, word for word, Julian Estcourt lived over again, through the wild dread and horror of his dream. Scene for scene, word for word, those wondering, startled listeners saw it reproduced, though to them it was scarce intelligible. At last she reached the point where his endurance had snapped beneath the strain of terror. But now his every force was numbed, his will seemed paralyzed. One feeble, helpless effort he made to lock those lips into silence, to chain back the self-betrayal of that unconscious speech. But love had made him weak, and passion had stifled the acute, unerring faculties that once had bent her to his will. He was powerless. He could only sit there dumbly, stupidly, listening for what he felt was sure as the death-stroke of the headsman to his doomed victim. Again she spoke. The steps approach. Yet what is this? They are no longer on the threshold. I am alone. Alone. Yet what new power is mine? My brain seems to dilate. Space can scarce confine me.  Back, rash intruder, touch me not if you value life. Then, while still they gazed and listened, the beautiful figure rose slowly from its nest of snowy furs, rose and stood in its wonderful indolent voluptuous grace, upright before those dazed and awestruck eyes. But a change came over the quiet beauty of the face. It seemed as if some hidden flame had sprung to life and flashed and quivered in the wide-opened eyes and convulsed features. They saw a shiver such as shakes the sea before the blast of the coming tempest, bend and sway the perfect form. Once, twice her lips opened, but no words came. At last she seemed to force the channels of speech, but the low sweet music of her voice was harsh and jangled with passion. My answer! Take it, ravisher and murderer of innocence and youth! Die! In your crimes, die! She stretched out her arm. There came a horse cry, a crash, a heavy fall.  End of Chapter 14