This is how the narcissist will remember you.  They will remember that you wanted marriage Maybe even children and Other things as well. They will remember that you wanted all of that and not only that But when they see you moving on What they're looking at is The outer shell of who you are They can't see the inside because they lack empathy They lack the ability to share or understand your feelings and experience so yes, all they see is This outer shell of who you are and yes, that may just be your image your reputation it may just be What you look like the things that you like to do It may be your happiness It may be your passion your drive. It may be all of those things But yes As we know That is not really you these things are a part of you But there is something much deeper on the inside And it may be something that you tried to show to them in the beginning Until at some point you realized that it was not relevant there It may have been relevant somewhere else maybe with your family if you're fortunate or Your friends, but it was not relevant With this narcissistic person it was not relevant to them and that is actually the most important part of who we are this heart The soul this inner character that we possess There is nothing more important than that That is what is most meaningful, but no Narcissist no, they don't recognize that in you They don't care about that They don't care about making you feel alive or doing the things that you want them to do They don't care about that at all And instead what they want is to steal the spotlight away from you They want to steal the show So that they can be the star they can be the main character And then you're just constantly looking outwards at them and what they're doing So that you never even see yourself and yes This is the truth and you will know that if you don't already Because with time once you've been with this person long enough you will look back And remember that you once had all of these passions and interests These things that you like to do and all of these qualities and characteristics that you used to have It seems like now they've all been taken away from you you used to be this fun happy Cheerful positive outgoing person That's who you used to be You used to be so full of smiles and laughter and you had so much passion and drive It was like you were ready for anything, but what happened to that? Where did all of that go?  It's what you show to the world It's all about just appearing cool But once you've been with them long enough, it's not so cool then When you're sitting at home all alone in your room and you're wondering where your life went You're wondering who the hell you even are and the sad thing is Most people in this world Even after everything you've been through They're going to see you and they're not even going to recognize that change And they're not going to have that empathetic drive and compassion To want to nurture that old side of you again They're not going to want to do that They're not even going to notice it And that is why yes, many of you are very fortunate to find my videos Because As you've probably noticed by now that is exactly What I want to do for you. I want to bring out that side of you again That fun lively playful person Who I believe does still exist inside of you And I do hope that with my videos it helps you to self reflect And to find that fun and enjoyment Inside of you I want to bring that out on the surface And I want everyone to see it I want everyone to encourage and nurture it Sometimes you've just got to take some time to reflect on your inner child Remember that innocence and purity that you had Where you would move through life without judgment You would accept things as they are But that's the problem. That's what this does to us We stop accepting things as they are And instead we give our own meaning or interpretation which is based on our trauma Things that didn't go well for us We begin to respond to everything based on that And of course it doesn't feel good when you do that Which is why yes, we do need to become aware of it And we do need to reconnect to our inner child again Reconnect to that innocence, that purity That curiosity for life Remember when there was a time when you were so fascinated with everything It's like everything uplifted you It made you happy. It made you feel alive But once you've been around a narcissist It just seems to take the fun and joy out of life Now everything is so serious You can't just let go. You can't let your head down And of course we all know the reason why The reason why is because you're around this person Who may seem fun and playful at times with their false character But we already know it's an illusion because they don't care about us They don't care about what we're going through So we still respond to it in a serious manner We can't accept it. We judge it Because we already know it isn't real Even if we wished that it was And that's really it.  As you can see, yes, I am out here at this park Quite a quiet and peaceful place The sun is just going down in the back Came here in the BMW I've been driving around in this for the past week or two And it is a good car It's got a body kit Sports exhaust So yeah, I'm just out here enjoying life As I do And as I advise you to do as well Because that is really it That is how you find yourself again Is by having that alone time Not being around them 24 hours a day To spend some time to yourself Outside of their influence, authority and control To where you can then think for yourself To where you can then think for yourself About what you think is right About what matters to you And when you start doing that You will begin to feel more like yourself again So as I advise you to do Maybe meditation Going for a walk in the park Exercising Going to the gym Just doing things that mean something to you Things that you are passionate about Things that you were passionate about Before you met the narcissist Because that's just it When you're around them All they will do is consume you And they will consume everything Good about you until you have nothing left Until you're completely drained And then you've got nothing left for yourself And that's just it We need to stop giving so much of ourselves to these people Because it's never going to be enough for them They will continue to drain you again and again Until your energy runs dry That's just what will happen Because they're never satisfied They always want more from you And at some point You just have to draw that line and say Enough is enough I can't give any more I need some time to replenish myself But then maybe tomorrow I can give you a bit more But not today You really just have to do that sometimes If you're still around them And you need to rephrase it in a way Where it seems like it's good for them As though this time away Will be better for them in some way As though it will give you more time to give back to them So that they can more appreciate your time Or their time with you And they'll gain something They'll get more out of it by doing that Because remember, they only care about themselves They don't care about bringing anything to you Or reciprocating that energy back It's all about what they can get from you So, you do have to rephrase it in a way As though it will be good for them When you have some time alone If you rephrase it in that way They will be more willing to listen Because remember, yes, it is all about them And this works for anything Just whenever you want some time to yourself Just make it seem as though it's benefitting them And in a lot of ways it is Because then you can reach out to them Because it is, because then you can recharge And become better and stronger And you'll have more to give back to them Which is what they want anyway But they're not just going to stop They will keep coming for you Trying to bring you down Because they just constantly need They have this void inside of them But that void can never be filled And you will burn out trying to please them But yes, if you wanted to know how they will remember you They won't remember you Not who you actually are Not who you knew yourself to be They won't remember that at all They'll remember the things you have The things they got from you The things that belong to you That they see as though you're running off with Anything that may be of value to them Those types of things they will remember Even your achievements That made them look good too They will remember that And that may be the reason why they come back and hoover you But it will never be who you actually are Or were They're not going to remember that at all Because with time you found that You needed to suppress that side of you As though it just wasn't needed anymore And that's how you should already know That they never cared about you The way that side of you wasn't even needed You never needed to bring that side of you out Because they didn't care about it You were not that significant to them If you were then they would have nurtured And encouraged that side of you They would have wanted to have brought that side of you out If they actually cared about who you actually are But they never did Because they didn't care about that at all And I know it hurts to recognize that You invested all of this time and energy Into something Where it's like you were not even a willing participant You were not even there Which is why by the end of it it's like you don't even know who you are Because we do need people to reflect Who we are back to us We do need people to Kind of validate our existence Especially when we're around a narcissist Because they're constantly denying our existence Especially when you're dealing with flying monkeys And a spear campaign as well Then you've got multiple people or groups Who are all denying your existence And then you're just left by yourself to validate it Which of course can be very difficult It can be very difficult when it's just you And you have no support network Which is why as I said these videos are very important It helps to validate you I'm all about supporting individuality Helping people to find themselves But of course the narcissist Never did that for you And they pushed you in a direction where you felt like You were just becoming a carbon copy of someone else It's like they wanted you to be anyone else Other than yourself Because it was just too much for them to bear the two envious and jealous Which is why they're also very competitive as well They compete with you constantly until you start to feel like you're not good enough Because at the same time they're also beating you down They're constantly punishing you for your authenticity Until you feel like you just have to hide it And instead be someone else just to please them Which is why yes, you do need to be very careful around them And just take the time to nurture that side of you Because as I said, yes, it is still there You can reconnect to your inner child And I'm sure that will be the part of you that you miss Because after all of this seriousness with these narcissists Sometimes you just want to have some fun You just want to have a good time without them When you can experience And I do hope that you will find that If you haven't already As I said, just take some time to meditate Go for a walk in the park Go to the beach Walk around the lake Spend time with friends Support networks if you have one You will start to feel a lot better When you're around people who validate the real you The real you who is capable Who can achieve great things So yes, that is what I hope for all of you We've got 81 live viewers watching now I hope this video has been helpful And if it has, you can give it a thumbs up down below Let me know your thoughts in the comment section as well I read your comments every day Share and subscribe For one-on-one coaching sessions you can book on my 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So now that we've introduced the basic concept dimensions and we've looked at the dimensions for three of our basic things we're going to be dealing with in mechanics, length, mass, and time. Let's take a look at a little bit more complex tool called dimensional analysis. In physics, we're always working with equations and these equations have different variables and constants in them. For example, one of the famous ones, force is equal to mass times acceleration. Well, each one of these quantities, force, mass, and acceleration has some dimensions that are associated with it. So we need to learn and understand a little bit about how those dimensions interact with each other. We've got some basic rules that we have to follow. The first one is that no matter what you've got, the dimensions on both sides of the equations must be equal to each other. So for a generic equation like a equals b, whatever dimensions a has, b has to have the exact same dimensions. And the next rule that we have to follow is that when we've got an equation where two things are added in terms of two terms, b and c, they have to have the same dimensions. b has to have the same dimensions as c in order to be able to add them up. And when you add them, they retain that same set of dimensions, which is what you're going to have on the other side of the equation for a. Now, if I've got things that are multiplied, I follow the general rules of algebra. So whatever dimensions b has and whatever dimensions c have, which don't have to be the same now if I'm multiplying them, when I multiply them, the product of those dimensions is the same dimensions as I've got over here for a. If I were to do some algebra on these equations, like divide both sides of the equation by c, then b has to have the same dimensions as a divided by the dimensions of c. So when I work with our dimensions in algebra, they've got to follow those same basic rules. So now let's look at how I can give you some examples. So for example, volume. Here's an equation for volume of a rectangular box, length times width times height. And as we discussed when we were first talking about dimensions of length, whether it's a length or a width or a height, as a variable, it has the same type of dimensions of length, length times length times length in terms of its dimensions. And using our rules of algebra when I multiply those three dimensions, I end up with a length cubed. So every time I've got a measurement of volume, it must have a dimension of length cubed. Now here's another example, velocity and acceleration. It's a little bit more complicated, but velocities and accelerations, the dimensions of those things, are given in your first chapter of your textbook. So here's one of the equations that we'll get in chapter 2, and it's for the average acceleration. And we find out that it's related to the difference between two velocities divided by the difference between two times. If I look at this just in terms of dimensions, what I see is that each of the velocities has a length per time type of dimensions. Ending to the times is a basic fundamental thing, so it has dimension of just time. When I do the subtraction, just like if I was doing an addition, both of those terms had to have the same dimension. And when I do the subtraction, I don't get zero like these were numbers, instead it retains the same dimension. So I have simply length over time divided by time for my dimensions. And if I do the algebra on that quantity, what I get is the length per time squared is the type of dimension I have for acceleration. Now we can use this in what we call dimensional analysis to help solve for known dimensions in a particular equation. So let's say we've got mass is equal to density times volume. Well from my previous work, I know that mass is a basic dimension, capital M. Volumes I've just seen have a dimension of length cubed. But what dimension do I have for density? Well I can do my algebra on here and recognize that I have to divide both sides of the equation by L cubed. And that leaves me with a mass per length cubed. Now some students will look at this and simply say, well yeah, that makes sense. What I have to have in the blank here is a mass per length cubed, so that when I multiply it by length cubed, I'm left with just mass. We can also use dimensional analysis to check an equation. So let's say we're given this equation here. Position is equal to velocity times time plus one-half the acceleration times time squared. That's one we'll see in the next chapter as well. Each one of these quantities has a dimension associated with it. Position is just length, velocity is a length per time, time is just time. The factor of one-half is a pure number, so it doesn't have dimensions associated with it. But the acceleration is length per time squared and time squared is time squared. When I do the algebra here, I see that the time on the bottom cancels out with the time that I'm multiplying it with, similarly here for the time squared. So this reduces down to just length plus length equals length, which is our rule that the dimensions when they're added must be equal to each other and it retains that same dimension across the equal sign. Now this will let you be able to check to see if dimensionally the equation is correct. You still have to go back and figure out if it's exactly correct because factors like my one-half, they don't work in. So maybe it was one-third, maybe it was one-quarter, but I know at least I have my dimensions correct here. Now that you've seen a few examples of dimensional analysis, you'll be able to use these as we move throughout the physics course.


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Hello everybody! What I want to do for this first presentation in this afternoon's lot, while you're all do's gently enjoying the sandwiches, slowly digesting in your stomachs, is to reflect on the landscape context and I hope to do that, it was a task set for me and I feel very privileged to be invited and thankfully organisers for inviting me Mae'r cyfrifio eu cyrraedd yw'r holl iawn, ond ymdweud ynglynch, ymdweud ymdweud o'r cyfrifio, ymdweud ymdweud ymdweud? Fy oeddwn ni'n meddwl hwnnw'n meddwl'n ffasilydd ymdweud ymdweud yw'r cyfrifio mewn cyfrifio mewn ymdweud o'r holl iawn o'r holl iawn o'r holl iawn. Mae'n hynny'n oed i'r holl iawn o'r holl iawn o'r holl iawn. I'm not saying this is preliminary ideas for you just as a cop-out to deflect criticism but really to sincerely say these are going to push some ideas out there for potential future research or not depending on how it goes. So this is an opportunity to think about the horde in a landscape context. The first thing I have to tell you I think is very important is to say as Chris Fern does on page 24 of the new monograph the context is problematic. If that one could go so far as to say there is no archaeological context for a Staffordshire horde that was found in the plough soil and if you want to be absolutely stark about it there is no clue of how it entered that field before July 2009 and already a few people have impressed just played with the idea at early stages and I'm not holding them to it now but the idea that it could have been a 9th to 10th century deposit and indeed Ray and Batty have suggested an often a late 8th century mercy and context for this kind of deposit. I'm not going to suggest that as an orthodoxy but it makes the point clear that we still don't really, we can't pin down how it got to that field before 2009. The field work was very limited and this is not exceptional, this is typical for this kind of discovery. There's no real broader context identified for the horde even within its own field and there's been no wider landscape analysis since Delawook's important valuable 2011 contribution and that was from a landscape history perspective and not an archaeological one. Now the 2019 monograph which we all hope to read and acquire and read very soon is a phenomenal achievement and it contains an important basis for a landscape analysis but given the nature and structure of the research the commentary on the landscape is fragmented across multiple chapters including contributions and thoughts by a range of the authors. I'm sure that's not an exhaustive list of those that address the issue of the landscape context and different points within the monograph. So I was saying we need a broader landscape approach and there are multiple ways forward for doing that I feel that still have to be done and I'd like to present five ways that foreground the issue of memory and the horde. The first one is to suggest we need to look at the horde as its own landscape encoding memories of spatial material transformations, very much building on what we've heard already. Think about the significance of the place and the issue of consignment and memory and there's still options for how we interpret that act of depositing the horde. Then we can look out to the broader landscape and there's many things we can address here but I've picked on movement, surveillance and power because I think that links very much to what I'm doing at the moment thinking about other mercy in archaeology in further west. Yes, and I think we need to think beyond the Anglo-Saxon and the Mercy in labels to think about a frontier landscape and indeed perhaps west I'm thinking here again. And as already been discussed the need for more comparative landscape analysis. Yes, the Savage Horde is unique and exceptional but can we put it into a comparative perspective looking at other deposits and finds. So, just to start us off, we have this field and we have right next to Watley Street and a field where we still haven't had a full extensive investigation of that field let alone surrounding fields. But we can think of the horde as a landscape. It embodies various spatially located activities. We don't know where they were made but we can think about the relationship with this biography of individual objects and the different elements composing it. It's making, it's exchanging. This was a horde that was always on the move as parts of other objects that were once were and perhaps also as fragments. They're wearing and wielding, they're displaying and curating. The surfaces that they create with the dynamic art could be another kind of landscape that we think about and the skins that would have been covered by them. The assembling and fragmenting, I would like to emphasise, has to be thought about in terms of spatial arrangements in terms of how it was assembled and how it may have been publicly or not fragmented, broken up. Other bits of these objects went elsewhere. The blades, most certainly, of the daggers and swords. Storing or displaying as fragments and then the depositing. Now that's areas we've already seen addressed so I won't dwell on that any further. Although I would completely chime with what Karen's paper delivered by John this morning was saying, we need to set up more robust models for thinking about how those spatial arrangements may have taken place during the life histories of objects. Obviously we can't pin it down exactly but I think we can do more work there to set up possible scenarios that we can then think through and think of different explanations for the significance of these objects. Linkie to what Tanya was talking about, the importance of mobile wealth and exchange items in this warrior elite culture and as Franz was saying, perhaps also going beyond the elite more. Second point, the significance of place. Now here we really are even struggling with this first stage aren't we? Because we don't have a mound or we do have a mound. We don't really have a one deposit or multiple deposits over time. The intriguing possibility of two bits of horse harness which evoked that opening image from the Pottery's exhibition showing a rider on a horse with all the gear on him or just evoking the idea of a rider in the field. Do we have multiple deposits within this site? So do we know this was a one-off place chosen randomly or for convenience for deposition or are we looking at some place that maybe temporary activities are happening regularly but we just can't see them. The exception being the one deposit which is leaving a trace because it's made of such obviously recognisable material. It's a mound or is it? Do we really have an archaeology of an ancient feature, a temporary feature, a natural knoll that may be perceived as an ancient monument in the early medieval period? So we still really don't know whether we are looking at a place that had significance or a place that was significant because it wasn't significant if that makes sense. A place that was not a familiar place but was well accessible and well known. We have the landscape of movement, surveillance and power and I think John and Sam may be addressing some of these issues as follow-up papers but I do want to just make the point that Della Hook does take us on a very important journey I think as does the monograph thinking about the clear stark distribution of finds the contrast Western East or South and West where we have hardly anything in this more marginal landscape and the distribution of finds of Roman medieval dates towards Lettocetum, 3.5 km to the east and the small settlement, Roman settlement of Wall and of course Lichfield. So we potentially have a site that may seem marginal but it's on the key routes. It may be a site where you may want to set up a watch tower where you may assemble, where you can see people approaching. There's all sorts of potentials for thinking about this marginal location in terms of surveillance movement into and out of a core district for the Mercy and Kingdom. This is a game from Della Hook and Leahy's work and others to mapping Canot Chase and Hay. These areas are later known as Woodland and Open Woodland. Important resources but marginal land for settlements and also other features including this enigmatic naves castle on Watling Street which has been at least by some seen as potentially a Roman signal station. Just to tell you quickly through some of Della Hook's other mapping from a later back projection we can consider perhaps this a marginal location but on key routes and a key place you'd be aware of and pass by. Hence my point about significance by not being significant. Not a place you'd necessarily inhabit or dwell at but you'd always be passing by. Motorway services but fewer Starbucks. So you know and again this idea that it's on the edge of something else and I think that's very interesting and here I think Tanya was mentioning this earlier. This is Della's map of reconstructed roads to make the point well Della makes the point that it's always like in a no man's land island of a triangle of roads and that may be interesting in itself that you know it's somewhere where you can't really go without being observed and yet no one's really perhaps dwelling there for long. I can't be any more precise than that so these are only I don't think I'm anywhere further ahead than anyone else with this or further behind in the sense that we're looking at that sense of marginality and yet connectedness if that's a useful and here Horowitz argues at Nace Castle it may be a signal station and we have the Hammerwitch name which David Parsons and Della as well have discussed in relation to the horn side as a potential at some point in the early Middle Ages a settlement connected to metalworking perhaps. My fourth point I've jumped quite quickly here but I want to get on with this. Frontier landscapes and this is why I think I think we really are struggling a little bit more. Yes we're close to a mercy in heartland but we're really still struggling here and this is from I think it's John's section of the monograph here. We're still really struggling to connect it into what we traditionally call Anglo-Saxon burial and artifact traces. So here we have the Trent Valley, here we have Repton and here we have Litchfield. So we're not far away from areas where we have 5th to 7th century furnished burial rites whatever that may mean and we're not far away from the but basically evidence of barrow digging in the 19th century of batement excavations of others in the Peak District and yet we're not, emphatically not in that area where we have those traces in the vicinity. We have the idea there may be two early tribal groupings or either side of the Watling Street going over Canock Chase and this upland spread of the Midlands but we are, really I would suggest we actually need to think about this much in a much broader landscape frontier. If we again, I think this is discussed in John High's section of the monograph you know that his dated, the monsterly dated 7th century weapon burials makes very clear to us that the Staffordshire Horde is not proximal to this kind of activity if it is being deposited in the late 7th century and Kevin Levy has done a lot of work on this as well in his 2015 paper making the point here I feel that we're not at the heart of distributions of other war gear finds from the early Middle Anglic Saxon periods. We are on that western edge and indeed the monograph maps themselves make this absolutely crystal clear the shaded area is crudly the area of furnished burial in the 5th to 7th centuries we can quibble about that in many different ways I'm sure many of these people in this room have expertise in this but the crude point is there isn't it the Staffordshire Horde is just west of this line and we can replicate that again and again in distribution maps of different material this is from John Blair's fascinating and brand new or it's still for me brand new book I'm looking at Middle Anglic Saxon settlement finds and settlements and fine strafines and again making the point that the Staffordshire Horde is at the very west of this density of known material culture and if this thanks to Peter Reval of the PAS again makes the point this is from Shatterfines I know it's a bit later but you know we can tour this contemporary or near contemporary or perhaps not so near contemporary but you know slightly later but making the point that this zone is a real threshold okay so that in the popular gauge of maps we've created for Mercia for Roger Brown and Kevin in his book we do Mercia is the big square a maps late 8th century Mercia may be but in this period I think frankly we have to see if this is the frontier not the big square that links the D, the wash, the 10s and the 7 and I think that's really important that we remember that point and again from John Blair's work a mapping here of this sort of frequent settlement archaeology zone and Staffordshire Horde to the west of it okay and if we look at it in terms of battles from the 7th century again I'm stealing all the maps and all the images from the monograph we can understand it in terms of a frontier that's about Mercia engagements to the north west and east and not as a heartland of Mercia in a sense and this makes me jump to this broader comparative landscape context because I do feel that the dikes of which I'm most obsessed with at the moment that are what's dike in, of this dike are very much seen as borders of Mercia and they shut down our thinking about this broader westernly Mercia zone from the 6th and 7th century onwards and I'd like to point out three, well I'm going to talk about a number of different sites on this western side that perhaps might provide parallels. So the Din and Pommel comes from a find from the river crossing, this is from Ludlow and I want to make a point that while this is obviously only a single pommel find it's nowhere near the scale, it's broadly contemporaneous in style and form to some of the pommels from the Staffordshire Ford and here we find it at a key location, a key river team crossing place deposited in a watery context another one that Mark Redknap mentioned earlier in discussions is the Grestford pommel this is a pre-conservation top left and then I think a nicer photograph bottom right, different sides of this object and this is another pommel, broadly contemporaneous styles to those found in the Staffordshire Horde and it's found in Grestford now we don't have an exact find spot so I'm making it up a bit here but I want to make a point that Grestford is hardly an arbitrary location as Mark has already said today this is in the frontier zone as it is to become so here we have Watt Stike which I'm currently thinking is early 9th century successor to our Offersdike, Offersdike runs about here and you've got an iron age hill for to Brynallan and Grestford village is here now I don't know, I put a massive weight to Stike because I don't know but this is where the Alleyne River changes course in a significant shift leading out of the Welsh uplands to the Cheshire Plain so whatever's going on in this area there's evidence of a Roman shrine at Grestford there's evidence, this is a threshold location that has parallels with the Staffordshire Horde so we have a forwarding site for one pommel, a dinner and by later it's a settlement and we have Grestford is hardly an arbitrary location where this single pommel was found now I'm not saying we can jump from this to a pattern but I'm not sure what's started to give you a flavour what it looks like big linear earthwork I can't jump to a pattern from this but I do think we have to consider that the dikes may be being put at locations that are already very familiar to the Mercians their Welsh rivals and almost everybody else moving their armies and their trading activities through this landscape and here's a third one for you this is Chantysillio Paris this is right by the River Severn the River Vanwy up here because it may be very well known to you from readers of medieval archaeology but perhaps less well known from the fact that Cotsworld archaeology expanded on the excavations by Clwyd Paris Archaeological Trust and in the Archaeological Journal a couple of years ago published a huge ceremonial landscape of the Neolithic and Bronze Age the earliest seapat excavations found an early medieval cemetery and where the green star is at the top end of the burial mound they found two early medieval spearheads now I'm hardly saying this is a parallel activity but again you have the deposits of weaponry in an ancient burial mound context and the point I want to flip back to is that this is right next to Arthur's Dyche so if Arthur's Dyche is late 8th century and that's still an if we have the ceremonial landscape where people are doing things burying the dead, the positive weapons in the 6th, 7th century or thereabouts my point is this isn't a parallel for the Staffordshire Horde but it does suggest a broad a framework of activity of a mobile western mercy in Frontier Zone the various British kingdoms in which these locations at key routes through the landscape clear observable thresholds next to major rivers may have been sites where activities of a ceremonial or ritual nature are taking place that's as far as I can go so we're part of an evolving Frontier Network and Zone and let's jump forward to make a couple of extra points to conclude thinking about the pillar of Elizeg this 9th century fragment of a cross which I was involved with Nancy Edwards and Gary Robinson at Bangor in excavating and conclusively demonstrating is sitting on top of an early Bronze Age burial mound just to the west of the modern town of Llangothlund and as a side shoot from the D Valley in the Vale of Llangothlund now this early 9th century monument has the most monumental surviving Latin text longest Latin text on any monument you can hardly see it now but when transcribed in the late 17th century it reveals a text written by Congan commissioned by Congan King of Powys to on his great-granddaddy Elizeg to evoke military victories and battles past and perhaps victories present and hoped for now this is hardly a weapon but it is a propagandistic monumental weapon in a sense possibly at an assembly site possibly a muster site for armies and evoking military victories and one does happen to can't help but reflect on the possibilities that could the Staffordshire Horde be a very different material manifestation of similar conceptual ideas ancient mounds and prominent roots deployed to mobilise identities and memories and indeed why we don't know exactly how it would have looked like is Aaron Watson's visualisation of what the mound the ancient mound raised with a new fresh cross may have looked like we have to see this erect here to celebrate martial victories past and present in a prominent landscape location perhaps the site of assembly or as Nancy Edwards says a royal and auguration site and what's important I think to flag up here there's a kind of landscape analysis I did with Patricia Morrieta Flores now of Lancaster University but formerly of my department where we looked at the broader least cost pathways of this location and suggested it's had a key relationship a key node, it was a key node in movement through this landscape there may have been a symbolic and economic importance for the Powysian dynasty I can't go into all of that here but I think that's part of this pathway so it's actually shown that if you go west east up the Vale of Langotland you're more likely to have passed by the pillar of Elizeg than follow the river and I think that's an important spatial analysis project we did to reveal new aspects of the landscape that you can't see on the ground so it's part of this so what I'm suggesting is that the site of the pillar of Elizeg in the red dot is part of a landscape contested through the 7th, 8th, 9th century and is a much later by two centuries in this case in the Staffordshire Horde but it may be utilising the landscape in a way that there are parallels with the Horde the final site I want to talk about is later still 10th, 11th century and across at Minerquivyr in Whitford in Flintshire this has been surveyed around it by David Griffith of Oxford University, analysed by Nancy Edwards my comments on this are that it's another monument that deploys weaponry it deploys weaponry in the figures the martial figures are a warrior or a weapon individual on the side the south side and this individual with a spear an axe a sword or a very long other appendage between his legs in the middle of the eastern face not only that but there are cut marks on it down here of unknown date which could be blade cuts which has parallels with Irish and Scottish which seems to have been suggesting some kind of blade ritual associated with inauguration or other kinds of ritual practices sometime in this process used we don't know when that happened because this has been standing since the 10th or 11th century so what I would suggest is that a very interesting muster location very interesting landscape location which I can't go into here but believe me when I say this is perhaps an assembly site and indeed David Griffith has already got into print saying that too and maybe we're seeing weapon depiction rather than weapon deposition in this case four centuries later being used in the landscape to articulate control of land and movement through the landscape so I'm not giving you any simple answers but I am going to leave you with a thought on this we don't know if this was a clandestine deposition or a public deposition we don't know if this was a place that was nowhere or somewhere so that doesn't narrow down much for you does it but I think we have to think beyond the ritual verses sort of concealed loot frameworks that we've been presented with that's what I was asked to do to think further about that and I think we have to think about the relationships between these four so what I'm suggesting here is you could have a very significant clandestine deposit that people know is deposited somewhere where no one knows it they know that they've gone out somewhere and they've deposited away and that could have a very important mnemonic in itself we've taken this stuff out of circulation we're not going to tell you where but it's out there so it could be clandestine that could be clandestine in one sense but also public in another sense so you can publicly bury something where no one knows where it is or you can secretly bury something where everyone knows roughly the zone in which you're burying it and you can also have the usual ones we're thinking of a concealed place nowhere and a public place that's famed and remembered so I'm putting that out there to suggest that it's complicated than perhaps we're thinking about and perhaps we should be thinking in a sort of network of mnemonics here rather than simply as a ritual deposit or a concealed secret deposit thank you very much


Okay, this is the House Health Care Committee. It's Friday, March 12th, about 2.30 p.m. And we are reconvening to continue and hopefully conclude our deliberations on House Bill 210. So, yes, I think everybody's here. So, again, I wanna, oh, so since I saw you last, I took a side trip to Appropriations and I was just forgetting, it's like, okay, yeah, that was since I saw you last, did an enthusiastic presentation of our proposal to them and hopefully that was helpful. And we will, so they said, well, we'll look forward to seeing your bill. I said, okay, well, we haven't finished it yet, but we're working on it, we're getting close. And I also want to express my appreciation again to Ann for stepping in this morning and helping move things forward, both in my absence and once I was back. It's great to have a team. I'll tell you, it's great to have a team who can step in for each other from time to time. And that was greatly appreciated on my part as committee chair. So I was trying to think about where we are in our process here today. And I'm aware of one other piece that Representative Donahue actually would like to bring forward and I think she got caught up in doing what I usually do, which is chairing the meeting and mentioned to me that she forgot to put her hand up. So as to something she wanted to bring forward to the committee. So why don't we start there and then we're gonna check in with others and see if others have further things. And then my thought is then we'll check in with Katie because she's done some redrafting for us. And then we'll see where we are as a committee and possibly proceed to committee discussion, but see whether we are, whether there's any other additions or suggestions that need to be brought forward. So Representative Donahue. Thank you. And again, my apologies. I actually wrote it down a little note to myself so that I wouldn't forget. And there I was sitting saying, anybody else? Nobody else? So folks will recall that I think it was Wednesday. I mean, we had some testimony that made reference to the impact of the eugenics movement in Vermont. And that same day I'd been asked to go in and testify to the general housing and military affairs committee on the eugenics apology resolution. And I forwarded to committee members the package of information that I had researched and done several years earlier on the issue. And as I told the housing general and military affairs committee, I mean, this just is very much connected and related to the work we're doing in terms of a very strong example of something that happened in history that we all now recognize was a significant injustice and that to this day, significantly affects those community, those impacted communities. So I would like to propose an addition to our findings based on the testimony we heard and the materials I shared and ask Katie to draft that and she has it available now for folks to look at. Great, so Katie, would you share that with us? Yes, let me switch my screen. Here is the new proposed finding for Vermont's 1931 sterilization law that's impacts on individuals who are black, indigenous and persons of color, individuals who are LGBTQ and individuals with disabilities as an example of past injustice in the healthcare system that continues to impact members of these communities in the present day. Thank you, and you wish to comment further? No, I think that summarizes it. And I had forgotten to ask Colleen. Colleen has now posted the materials that I shared with the committee, I guess on Wednesday when I sent out. A lot of the background information about what happened at the time and so forth. So I'd like to ask a question because but I'm fine with what you have proposed here. In fact, I want to support what you proposed here. I'm interested that it does not make any reference to the term eugenics and thinking that for many people as we move to have a eugenics apology resolution as there's a rising awareness of eugenics and what it's meant for the state of Vermont that to reference the 1931 sterilization law, there may be people who don't make that connection. And I'm wondering if we might add a reference that uses the term eugenics so that there's a link between what we're doing here and the other work that's happening in other parts of the legislature and in the public. Thank you, yes. I mean, that's absolutely is what I should have suggested. Oh, I just want the question. You can work that right in. Okay. Friendly amendment. Yeah, okay. Representative Burroughs, sorry, Burroughs. Do you think we could add something about forced sterilization? Well, we could get a lot longer. But I mean, I just kept it brief. I think eugenics needs to be referenced, but because of the point in time we are, I would have liked to have thought of and drafted more, but it actually, it gets into a longer discussion because it technically was not forced. It was technically always with consent. The problem was that it was not, clearly not true informed consent. And in the materials I shared, I even shared an example. I remember reading that, yeah. Yeah, but that's much longer and we didn't take tests. Yeah, you're right. You're right. Thank you. Okay, Representative Cheney, is that your hand? Yeah, okay, Representative Cheney and Representative Golden. I just want to say that I appreciate this addition, especially after the testimony we heard. So I do appreciate it. And I will review, if you sent it already, I didn't see it. I just wanted to look for those documents or I'll review. I apologize, I did not email it. It was just Katie just put it up on the screen. I will, oh, on the screen. Are you referring to the actual language or what she's proposing, Brian? No, and you mentioned that the other day there was testimony or something. I'll go with you. Oh yes, I did. That's right, you should have that. I can resend it easily. No, I can look for it. I'll review it, but I can support this without seeing your testimony because I'm aware. The one thing I would ask you is with all the other findings in this bill, we've identified a source material and put it in that list. So if there's a way you can send me things, I'll add them to that list and we'll update it. So we have the most accurate possible list. I already, Katie asked me for it and I sent it to her. So all I have to do is forward the email I sent her. Great idea. I will fix it during our meeting today and send it out to you all within a few minutes. Okay, and Colleen just sent a note. My material is now also on the committee page. Great, thank you. Thank you, Brian. Representative Goldman. I was just hoping you could post that paragraph again. It went by fast and I just needed a moment. Well, it's been adjusted as well. So we all need to see it there. Oh, perfect. Yes. Thank you, Katie. That's great. Does it exactly right? The legislative issue and regarding sterilite. Okay, sterilization law, obviously. Okay, yeah, I see that. Thank you. Okay. Anyone else having questions or comments about the addition of this into the findings? Hearing none, I think there's consent and consensus to add this to the findings. So Katie, if you would do that. I have one question and go ahead and add it. It's not, we're on our pages that Ann's material. Now, I read through some of it, Ann. I think it's the same stuff I read through that, but I'd like to. We're on the committee page. Is that the question? Yeah. It's under today's date, under witness Ann Donahue, H210 files related to the Verna. Okay, okay, okay. I got you. Thank you. And I have to say I've read some of it in the past, but I have not had a chance to review it again. I look forward to doing that, but thank you for sharing it with us. Okay, well then let me ask following up on the work that Ann was doing with the committee. Are there other issues to be brought forward by committee members to either make an addition or a change in the substance of the bill? So the one change that I know that we noted just toward the end and was when Susanna Davis was with us, had to do with the reference to the number of meetings. And Katie, perhaps you could review with us, propose language that would address that issue. Sure. I wasn't sure if you were moving forward with that suggestion. So I just put a note to myself instead of writing it out. But right now it says for not more than six meetings annually and the change would read for as many meetings as the appropriation permits. What if we were just, can I make a suggestion? Because it picks up on what Susanna Davis said and I think, but say for meetings as deemed appropriate by the commission, but not more than, not more than beyond the appropriations. There's something better wording, but I would just leave the appropriations out. Well, I think the concern was, as deemed appropriate by the advisory commission within the appropriation provided. Because Susanna did make the point of saying like, okay, we're gonna have to work within that but give us the discretion, not how many, like maybe it's not five meetings of the full commission. Maybe it's 10 meetings of three subgroups or that type of things. Does that work? Can I make a recommendation? Please. Just be silent. Don't mention any amount of meetings so it just inherent. You don't have to be specific about the meetings. Just don't mention how many meetings you're gonna have. Just say they can have for deemed compensation, reimbursement expenses as per the statute, at the end. Well, I think the only issue, I hear you Nolan and I know having been in the appropriations committee that they're going to raise this question and that will then leave us absent or silent on what our thoughts are. And I think, because I think that would, if we knew that that was a, it leaves it open ended, I'm not sure. Well, let's only open this as a committee for thinking about that without getting lost in the issue but represent golden. Well, I was hoping that we could add the language advisory commission or work group to acknowledge that there will be per diem for work groups. So I don't know how people feel about that. And then I guess we do need to have a top number. If we're gonna have to say within, within the allocation of whatever that, whatever that rate language would be but I don't know how people feel about adding work group compensation. I think the way it's worded, it's any kind of meetings. Yeah, I think this gives the commission flexibility to determine when and how. So that's the deemed appropriate then? Yeah. Okay. Thank you. It doesn't say necessarily as a full commission meeting. But what to Logan, I mean, Nolan's point. If we leave it, so the appropriations committee does want a number, right? Is that what you're saying? Well, they haven't, they're not. If it's too open-ended, they may put parameters on it that we don't want. Yeah, that's what I'm saying. We don't give them guidance on what we're thinking of what we mean that there's some control here. The control is the advisory committee deeming it appropriate rather than totally up in the air. They may put in language like, well, we think it should be six meetings a year. Right, yeah. That makes sense. I think I'd rather leave that in and leave it to the advisory commission to how to structure it because otherwise, yeah. I think this, yeah. I think that's my best judgment right now. Okay, not seeing other major comments or objections. I think I'm gonna suggest that we go with this language for now. Okay. Katie, let me ask you this because there were a number of suggestions that you integrated on behalf of, as a result of the walk through and markup that was happening. Have they been integrated into this document at this time or are they just, what's the status? Yes, all the changes have been integrated. I'm calling this amendment 4.1. They've been making changes as we go. It has not been edited yet, but if you would like a walkthrough of what you've added, I'm happy to do that if that would be useful. Can you do that? Can you highlight for us the changes that you've added? Sure. That'd be terrific. Let's see. Okay, so the first section is findings. Sorry, I'm still getting to the top of the document. So the only change I believe in the findings was the new subdivision 10 with regard to the eugenics movement that we just looked at. So I'm scrolling down to confirm there are no other places where we have yellow highlighting. Great. So this was the only change. The yellow highlighting so we can tell what's what. Right, yeah. I really appreciate that. So this is the new finding that you just looked at. So I'll keep moving. Next, there was a change or an error caught in section two, which is removing the second time that physical structure of communities is mentioned. So this won't appear at all, but just for the sake of acknowledging that I caught it, it's struck through and highlighted. The next change. See, now we're in the health equity chapter. There are no changes to the definitions with regard to the commission now. We had new language around membership. So there's language that any other members at large, the advisory commission deems necessary to carry out the functions of this section, including ensuring equitable representation and a balance between impacted communities and healthcare provider perspectives based on a majority vote of the members. And then we have sort of language here about the terms. So the term of office for each appointed member shall be three years with the exception that members at large, which is what we just created and subdivision BB shall each have a term of one year. And then of the members first appointed who are not designated as at large members for shall be appointed. So that's just to kind of create some parameters and not get into trouble with all of our numbers for the rollout of terms in this subdivision too. Yeah. Next we have. Can I speak to you about that? Okay, Representative Goldman has a question. I was wondering if we talked about capping the number of at large. So we didn't go into, you know, extremely large. Yeah, we had a whole discussion. We did discuss it. I think where we had, we had ended up at the time was that we weren't, we were going to leave it to the commission, but. Oh, I thought the other way that we would have a number, but I can go, yeah. I mean, I could see having like three or four, just at least, I mean, if we, I want to come back and say we want to add 10, that sounds big and large. So just to at least have some reasonable, reasonability of size. So people don't say, well, what if they want a hundred people on there when we go and present it? Just seems like an opportunity for pushback. If you wanted to do that, the language could read something like, not more than four at large members of the advisory commission deems necessary, just change the lead in language on that subdivision B.B. I had been some discussion of capping the group at 30. There's currently what, 27?  That's only three, yeah, three others. I'd rather leave it to the commission and they've already, they're already bound by. They're bound by the appropriation now. Yeah, they'll have fewer meetings if they have too many members. Yeah, I trust that they'll be able to figure this out. Okay. I feel that way. But I'm just catching, I'm not sure if we may be missing a comma in terms of the concept of the at-large members. Cause I think, I was thinking of it in terms of sort of two categories. One category is including ensuring equitable representation and a balance between impacted communities. The other category and it is in, that we are including healthcare provider perspectives. The kind of thing. Oh, that's rather than suggesting that it's a balance, equitable balance between impacted communities and healthcare provider perspectives. Okay. And with you, Ann, I noticed that too. I thought that's what you were trying to say, balance between impacted communities and health. Okay. Now, okay. Let's see, so. In order to carry out the functions is right. Then including ensuring equitable representation and a balance between impacted communities, comma. Okay. And in other words, and ensuring healthcare provider perspective. Yeah. I don't know if you need to repeat the ensuring or not to make it. Yeah. I was just wondering if I break it out into a list. Maybe I will. Including, maybe not ensuring. Cause, you know. Including, right. Ensuring means it's a directive to do it. Yeah, yeah. And, or, and to include, yeah. Oh, and that, how about that? Well, it helps if I write in English that healthcare provider perspectives are, are taken into account are. Well, are included. We want their, right? That healthcare. I was trying to stay away from. Included. Double use of the word. Right. I think it starts to get confusing. Yeah. Yeah.  Are represented. Are represented. That's great. Perfect. As well as healthcare provider perspectives. And that healthcare provider perspectives are represented, right? Cause you want to keep the same syntax in the phrase theology. I'm sorry. Are you asking for a change? No, I'm agreeing with what it is. Okay. I think this works. Generally. Yep. Okay. Could you go to age 16 at the bottom, please? Yeah, that's good. Cause I was having trouble where, where it goes. Could you now slide down to be be again. Have both pages on the screen at once. Yeah. Yeah. Because what I'm kind of thinking that the, that it's a little more proactive if we say the advisory commission made deem necessary to include. But it's just language and forget it. It's kind of a list. Yeah. Makes it a little tricky. We don't want to start it like it's a new sentence. I know that's where I'm hung up. Thank you. Yeah. Okay. Are we folks ready if I keep scrolling? Okay. So the other change in the commission. So I, I did a word search to make sure I had advisory committee. Kind of interchangeably with commission. So I've tried to catch commission every time to make sure that we have the right terminology. And then with regard to the report, there's the data collection sentence. So the advisory commission is encouraged to base recommendations on the data collected and analysis completed pursuant to section 253 of this title to 53 is the next section. And there were some changes there. With regard to compensation and reimbursement, you've decided not to cap the meetings. So for meetings as deemed appropriate by the advisory committee within the appropriation provided. So next one, the data collection section. Again, I corrected committee to commission. And then we have language in this subsection B. This was about the department of health. Analyzing equity data. And so there's a new sentence that the department's analysis shall be used to measure over time the impact of actions taken to reduce health disparities in Vermont. The data informing the department's analysis shall be made available to the public in accordance with state and federal law. So there are no changes to the duties of the executive director of racial equity, meaning edits by the committee. There is a proposed change in addition. There were no proposed changes to the report on continuing education. There are no proposed changes to the appropriation section or to the effective day section. Okay. So I can tell you that the editors are expecting it. I don't know if you want me to send it preemptively while you discuss. So they have just so you're not waiting for it. Okay. So my question, the question before us right now is, are there any other suggestions to bring forward? I see representative Peterson's hand. I don't have a proposal for a change. But I'm suggesting when we're done with this particular piece of the process, I think we can get that bill back and be given like 10 minutes to take a look at it. It has a whole bill. Oh, okay. You see what I'm saying? Yeah. Yeah. Sometime to digest. I hear you. Yeah. Okay. We can, I think, I think within the timeframe at this point, we can do that. But should Katie also send it to the. The editors for the technical best to do the technical. First, I want to hear whether represent page is bringing forward another suggestion because if he is, then we would want to try to integrate that. Represent page. It's just a thought. I know there was some. Testimony emphasizing. LBGT to use. And God, I hate to suggest this.  But we need a member of the youth. To be a member of the commission. And I'll just throw it out there and let you think about it. I mean, we've got members of everything else. And I know it was a big deal with the testimony, but. It's just a thought that maybe you might want to include. A younger member of the generation. And I'm sorry, I couldn't hear all of Woody. Can someone just. Please say, saying, should youth be included on the commission? And I'm wondering if that's help. The, uh, add the at large members we added. In order to get equitable representation of the affected groups would allow them to do exactly that with one of those. Outright Vermont, which is a youth serving organization could appoint you as their representative. So they're on the list. Oh yeah, right. That's what I was going to say. That's what I was going to say. I'll lower my hand. I was going to say, you know, we out, we could just talk without right, or we could write in, like we could write in, that's a youth, but I think we could just talk with them and. They'll figure it out so much. There's been so much emphasis on younger generations participating in our government and other activities. Yeah, it's just a thought. It's a good thought. Yeah. It was a good thought, Woody. Anything else. Oh, I'm seeing hearts. They're for Woody. Cause we love Woody. Okay. Okay. And I love all of you too. You're like 30 feet tall right now, Woody. Oh yeah. Well. Okay. Let's focus or something. Okay. So I think with that, I'm going to suggest, I'm not hearing anyone else asking to bring something forward at this point. Oh, represent China. I just want to, in terms of like, it's just a detail, like I'm trying to finish that findings document. And Katie, can I like, have you look at how I tried to document this testimony and see if it's acceptable. And then if it is, I'll share with the committee the final document just for the record. I'm happy to look at it. I'll send you an email really quick. Okay. Trying to get things done. Okay. And Katie, I would say then base and what do you see your hand is still up and I'm assuming it was from before. So Katie, I would say with that, I think you could send the document to the editing and let them edit. If we make a changes, we'll have to deal with it. But that's at this point, we have gone through the process of markup and invited any suggestions. And I think we've incorporated a fair number. And so. And I think. Okay. So, so let me, so let me just. As a chair, let me see where we are. We've gone through the review of the document. We've gone through the markup. We've incurred incorporated editing. I'm thinking, let me check with representative Peterson and others, but maybe now is the appropriate time. For us to take the time for people to actually. Look at and digest even prior to editing, because editing is not going to change anything substantive. We have, we have now the document before us. And it would seem to me that maybe before committee discussion is the time to give everyone the chance to actually look at the document in full. Incorporate, you know, as the new language has been incorporated, give people a chance to digest that. And then come back and engage in committee discussion. Does that. Does that meet what you were looking for represent Peterson? Yeah. Okay. I think. I think. The question that new language is if we go to the website where it says bill, that'll be. Katie needs to send it. Okay. So look for our email. Okay. Yeah. Yeah, we'll have Katie send to our committee members. Yeah. So we'll be looking at the same document. That when we anticipate it comes back, it might be like, comma was changed, but not changing substantive meaning or something. You know, editors, you know, pick up on things that we made out of notice. And the reason I asked that chair. It just. There's so much going on with it. I just want to make sure. It's a completely reasonable request. And it's something which we often actually do. And so that's, that's, I appreciate your. You're asking for that. Yeah. Because it's easier to remember to do that and say that when it's like, we've got all the papers. We're sitting around with like, okay, now I need to read through the whole thing before we jump into discussion. And it's not unlike what representative China has requested on several occasions. Can I have the time to read through this? Before we actually take any action. And represent Donna. He was. Done that. I would actually, I would request it again too. If no one else had. Honestly. Yeah. So what, so let me, let me ask this. How should we do this? We can, we can. We could go off. Maybe we could go off of YouTube. And let's go off YouTube. And let's give ourselves this now 304. What if we were to go off YouTube for how much time shall we take? 15 minutes, 20 minutes. Is that sufficient? Is that not sufficient? I like 15. And then we can. We can convene and if we're not ready yet, we can. Not go on YouTube and just.  That's the name of this name a specific time. I'm going to say that we come, it's now 304 on my clock. Let's say we return at three 20. That gives everybody 16, 15 minutes. Now it's 305. So let's return at three 20. So for those who are following us on YouTube, we're going to take a 15 minute break. And we're going to reconvene the committee at three 20. At which point. I'm anticipating that we'll engage in committee discussion.


A film in three minutes, Mysterious Skin. When you think about the films that mean most to you, do they include the dazzling spectacles of high fantasy? Perhaps your chosen stories make you laugh, or cry, or simply feel more alive. For me, Greg Araki's 2004 film, Mysterious Skin, is one such example. Based on the 1995 novel written by Scott Heim, the story follows two young men, Neil McCormack, played by Joseph Gordon Levitt, and Brian Lackey, played by Brady Corbett, who, as young boys, were sexually abused by their Little League Baseball coach in early 1980s Kansas. After the life-changing event, McCormack becomes an underage prostitute, whilst Lackey develops an obsession with UFOs, believing that he was abducted by aliens as a child due to the memories of his abuse being repressed. In his search for an explanation as to why he keeps having vivid dreams about abduction, Lackey tracks down McCormack, who helps him begin the long, slow journey of self-discovery, which acts as catharsis for both men as they try to recover from their childhood trauma. To say that the story of Mysterious Skin is harrowing would be an understatement, as its subject matter is one of the most sobering, and yet, at the same time, one of the most beautiful films to ever deal with the subject of child abuse. This beauty lies with director Araki's vision of a now long-gone small-town America, where the lives of these two men are inextricably linked. Both characters are haunted by their past, but Lackey's personal quest for the truth and the friendship he earns from McCormack once he finds it is what gives the story its melancholic heart. The brief scenes with the baseball coach play terrifyingly by Bill Sage, where we see him abuse both children are rightfully almost unbearable to watch, but Araki makes clever use of the camera, utilising it to imply what is happening rather than to show. Both the adult and child actors were framed and shot separately, giving the scenes a dreamlike quality rather than horrific reality. But this feeling of fantasy permeates much of the film, making the small town of Hutchinson, Kansas feel almost timeless as we dart backwards and forwards throughout both boys' lives. The film's dreamlike quality is enhanced greatly by Araki's choice of Harold Budd and Robin Guffrey to compose the soundtrack, easily creating one of the most hauntingly beautiful film scores I have ever listened to. Beauty also lies in the film's many strong performances, with particular praise levied on Gordon Levitt's touching portrayal of a clearly broken young man. The several scenes of McCormack prostituting himself with random strangers and the emotional strain such encounters demand makes his persona all the more tragic, and acts as one of the rare instances where the potential long-term effects of child abuse on a person is shown on the screen. But for me, the heart of the film is seen through Brian Lackey's eyes, as his quest to find the truth becomes a much greater struggle than he had ever first anticipated. The theme of self-discovery plays throughout Araki's screenplay, but despite Mysterious Skin's dark subject matter, the universal idea of seeking the truth is one that every person can relate to, no matter how troubling the answer's sort might be.