Hi guys! Thank you so much for being here. Welcome to the weekend vlog. I want to show you guys my outfit because I absolutely love it. It's this little hurricane outfit. I wore this during Hurricane Ian but I'm obsessed with it and I'm gonna wear it out to do some errands right now. I also have a Halloween party which is going to be quite fun. I'm dressing up as Mario.  It's almost lunchtime so I'm gonna have that for lunch as well and we're just gonna get the day on the road. I slept in today because I've just been so tired. It's also about that time of the month so I'm just... I could just stay in bed all day but I can't do that. I am gonna get on the road now. Another thing that makes a celebration so fun to live in is seeing all the decorations during the holidays. It's always fun but also like I saw this couple on their bike taking a morning bike ride and there's like a jogger now which is like really cool. So I don't know it's just more like very community-esque and it's nice to see because I don't know just cute you know. Okay also too I wanted to tell you that I almost hit a deer on the bridge road so as you guys know like there's this bridge. If you follow me on Instagram it was like the picture I used to announce like the move so I was on this road and oh my gosh like it was crazy.  I think I'm gonna grab these for the party tonight just so I'm like taking something I don't know. Everyone likes these cookies I mean well if you don't then I don't know what to tell you but I like them so I'm gonna get them. Now I'm just looking for some wine to take because I don't know vodka just like upsets my stomach half the time and luckily they have this like bun key so it kind of tells you what the wines are like so I'll end up showing you guys what I end up on or choose. We've got most of the list because it's like veggies and stuff but let's see what I end up with. Got the Starbucks I got sherry, her bacon, gouda sandwich and I got a nice coffee and this time they put way too much almond milk and I had to ask for more coffee and that hasn't happened in so long it's still too light like I don't know who guys I you don't need to like have a lot of education to know iced coffee shouldn't be this light you know what I'm saying like I'm not trying to be rude but like I was like oh can they put a little too much almond milk like look at this it's supposed to be a dark I don't know I go off of color like if something looks too light or too dark I say something and I don't I'm not even trained in this yes I put extra splash of almond milk in my order but that doesn't mean I want the entire thing to be almond milk you know what I'm saying and I put extra because they were putting too little for so long like now I have to do just regular and I changed it to almond milk because I do like almond milk so if this were the case to have happen like it's fine because I don't mind it but still like this is way too light for iced coffee even like the girl like I don't know I just it's been a while since they've disappointed me like disappointed me like this so I wasn't going to make a big deal about it and my mom got me that for me so it's fine it tastes fine but it's just like wait what's going on here and I do have some coffee at home that I can maybe put a little bit more just to like make it more coffee-esque but still like what's going on all right I know you guys were all really concerned I fixed the coffee um yep she's looking a little better because I just added my own coffee I just added this in there so it's okay now I'm going to show you guys what I got at the grocery store a little grocery haul here don't mind sherry's just watching the Ohio State football game okay I'm gonna have lunch pretty soon too okay so first we got the turkey we got some lettuce celery we got the green pepper and we got some cucumber next up as you know I got these cookies to take to the party tonight y'all when they pack these bags they're like so rough with the items okay five hour energy for Valerie this is kind of like her espresso in the mornings we got sherry a heating pad so this is just like a stereotypical one you wouldn't see it's kind of basic then I got wine to take tonight because I was telling you guys that when I drink like anything else my stomach just like really hurts and then yeah I don't know but I'm just gonna play it safe also I love like just sipping on wine it's just a vibe for me we got some tomatoes and shortbread cookies because I take these for lunch you're so good sherry say ahead of the vlog here on camera how's your sandwich oh you're heating it up okay next up I got some cheese puffs because our teacher was snacking on some of these like one of our teachers and I was like oh my gosh and then I don't know I just had a feeling and I just needed to get some after seeing that bag cheese puffs and that's why when they were handling these they were so rough like I don't know what was going on and then we got tostitos because they were on sale and sherry wanted some chips and salsa today while she watches the Ohio State game also too I've still been enjoying snacking on those and then last but not least I got some eggs because these are always a necessity lunch is sir sherry had her sandwich her back's a little better if you guys were wondering anyway kind of chow down now okay so I'm going to get ready now and I'm gonna put on the costume because I don't want to do like hair and makeup and then you know have to put on the clothes let's see how itchy this is okay so the reviews were saying this is super itchy and I don't really think it's that itchy it's not very smooth like on the borders here but underneath like my stomach and stuff it's not itchy so I'll link the shirt down below because I'm shopping it's from amazon it was like $12 that's part of the reason why I got this outfit because I only needed like a top and then the hat so yeah no I don't think this is bad at all it's pretty comfortable okay so the first thing I'm going to do is put heat protectant in my hair because I don't want to run off while curling it because I am going to curl it today just for fun because just because I want to I just use the Orbea heat protectant this is on my amazon store so I'll leave that in the description box as well but I'm just putting this on first so I can kind of like just settle in my hair so starting off I always start with my eyebrows because they are the hardest thing to do and I take a long time on them so I'm just going to start off by combing out my eyebrows I haven't gotten my eyebrows like waxed or anything in so long um just because it's not like it's too expensive but you know what I can just follow the line and pluck where need be which I'm gonna do right now okay so I know each eyebrow is like a different shape because whenever I got my eyebrows done um the lady would say that I'm like okay sorry I can't really help that oh my gosh I'm already out of this wow I guess I'll need to like get another one shoot I guess I'm a lot of this okay well that's awkward hopefully I have enough for uh getting my eyebrows today okay so I think the eyebrows turned out okay basically what I do is try my best and then use my finger to like shape it to the way I want it um and I've learned that this is all out so I'm going to need to get a new one of these hopefully I can just order it online but I think the eyebrows are okay and um I always touch them up though during like when I'm almost done so um hopefully I have enough product to like do that now I'm going to do a concealer and the concealer I use is the tart shape tape concealer I probably could use a little darker shade of this because I've like tanned and stuff but for now I don't want to be like I barely wear makeup anyway so that's why I will just wait until I run out of it I'm almost out of foundation which is crazy I'll probably order that when I get my new eyebrow pencil I will say like my face makeup takes the longest for me and I don't know why I think it's just because number one the padding motion is kind of like fun to do not gonna lie um and then also making sure it's like all blended and stuff probably my favorite part too because like I like making my skin more flawless like with no blemishes you know what I mean oh let me tell you the story about how I got this bruise in the scrape because it is the funniest thing okay so um as you guys know I park in a parking garage at school because we have to park on the fifth floor there's some people that don't park on the fifth floor and they made a big deal about like oh your car is gonna get towed and uh like I know someone whose car has gotten towed before just like in my neighborhood and like you do not want to get your car towed because it is like just a pain in the ass to like get it back so I don't recommend getting your car towed by any one bite for any reason so anyway okay quickly I'm moving on to foundation this is the Nars gradient long wear some version of those words together so I'm just gonna put this on okay so parking garage uh park on the fifth floor and I always park like next to the elevator because I'm all about getting the good parking because I just always happen so I park right next to the elevator and get out basically I always have like a lot of stuff in my hands either my computer my Stanley cup that's like right here again I harp on this all the time but best money I've ever spent I love my Stanley cup I'm holding that I'm holding my lunch I'm holding my purse and it's like so funny because I don't look down because I have all this stuff in my hand so I don't really pay attention and there is a yellow line there so like probably people have like fallen a lot so I don't look and I take a step and I come crashing down guys like I fell like I haven't fallen like that in my life in a very long time and I was so embarrassed I was like oh my god did that just really happen to me so I tried to fall gracefully down because number one I didn't want to dent my cup which it already has some dings already which kind of makes me mad but I didn't want to dent my cup and I didn't want to break my computer either because my computer was in my backpack I think so I gracefully I tried to fall as gracefully as possible onto the floor like making sure I was the one that like took a tumble and nothing else got damaged and that's how I ended up with this grape and I get up from falling and I look around quickly because I'm always like one of the first people there because as you guys know I have like anxiety of like getting places quickly enough so I stand up I like look all around I'm like oh my god did someone see that happen because it was so embarrassing and luckily no one did so um I told the story to a few classmates and they thought it was hilarious and I'm like yep I completely fell I wouldn't say on my face because it wasn't on my face but like I fell fell pretty hard there okay so now I'm going to do blush and you guys know I use the liquid rare beauty blush I really like this one because it's super pigmented and lighter I don't know I just like it it works well it blends well too so I guess I'll talk to you guys about like the program and stuff so so far I really like it we learned how to scrub which was like super cool and the things that I forget well I've only scrubbed like three times in my life so far so um it's not like I always forget this but like the things that in the past that I have forgotten was doing the fingertips because I immediately want to start just like scrubbing like pretend this is the scrub thing like going back and forth like this and you have to do it on each plane of your finger so like there's four like one two three four one two three four so when you do that you have to do you have to scrub back and forth ten times on each finger and I kind of want to start off with that um so I remember to use the nail picker and like wet my hands and stuff but after that I immediately want to start like scrubbing my fingers but before that you have to scrub your fingertips so again pretend this is the uh scrub brush you have to like with the bristles like scrub your your fingertips and I always forget to do that and then the other thing I forget to do is um flip the scrub brush so pretend this is the bristle and then pretend this is the actual sponge part the bristles are like for your fingers and palm and um top of your hand but then the sponge part is for the forearm and then above two inches above the elbow so I always forget to do that those are the two things that I need to like remember so I'm going to remember that is like fingertips first before anything else and I think that'll be like helpful okay next I'm going to do powder and overall this is the trend this is the Laura Mercier Transistent Powder I think my least favorite part of the program so far is like the book work because we have like these workbooks and I'm like I don't know I haven't like worked in a workbook like that in so long there's the part to where we have to do like discussions with our classmates and that's like super simple so I don't know why some people like just don't do it because like that's an easy 100 and I'm all about like easy 100s because if you like fuck up on a test then like those could really help you in the end do you know what I mean like you never know if you're gonna have bad day and like not do well on a quiz or pop test pop quiz or test so it's good to have you know the the easy 100s not to like help balance your grade and stuff we're learning like prefixes and suffixes to words so like carcinoma so like Carson means cancer and Oma means tumor so it's a tumors cancer it's a cancerous tumor I should say so like things like that and I find that so interesting like I know it's not going to be a walk in the park like I know it's going to be like pretty hard and difficult but I think it's cool I mean at least it's like interesting to me unlike another subject I could learn you know like unit circles and like formulas her math problems but like even though I could learn that it's like boring you know what I mean like to me it's like not cool but like when you say oh blah blah blah blah ectomy like I know that you're taking something out I don't know to me I'm like at least you know it's hard and it's gonna be um treacherous to like get through at least it's interesting and now I have powder everywhere it's been forever since I've done my makeup so I'm like rusty on this like what do I do next people try to put this over the red lipstick because I think it might like look cool glossy bronzer I hate bronzer to be honest I don't know why I use it I need to get a refill on this too because I've hit the pan on it I think I just use bronzer because it's like what everyone else does but honestly it is so hard to blend and stuff I don't know just don't see the purpose in this so I'm not going to do a lot of this to be honest and then my mom always says you have a line on your face and I'm like you know what oh what's going on here footwear trying okay you can barely tell it's there but it works um now I'm gonna touch up my eyebrows because this is the part where like I would normally do my eyebrows but since they're so hard and stuff I just do them first I'm going to just I'm just gonna touch up whatever needs to be touched up over here okay so I've touched them up and everything and now I'm going to use my Anastasia brow gel and I just use this to brush up my eyebrows because that's what other people do so okay I think they're they're okay okay and now I'm going to go in with my Charlotte Tilbury little palette and just do my um normal look pretty much but I'm just gonna make it a little bit more dramatic because why not just gonna start out with the darkest shade on the outer corners and then work my way in and make it like lighter because that looks the best on my eye shape it has been forever since I've like actually done makeup too yeah there's no way I could wear makeup like every day like daily I mean no make that's a lie like I could it just be like hard and frankly I don't like waking up earlier than I have to to do makeup it's just not worth it to do especially if like you know you're not really trying to like impress anyone I'm like no bro I'm sleeping in there's no way I'm getting up earlier to do like makeup looks and frankly like these days I just do makeup for myself like if I want to do it okay I took this like wing out a little too far so I'm just gonna like erase erase I use this thing as an eraser too and my camera battery is gonna die so hopefully it doesn't soon I'm just gonna turn off the camera I'll be back when I'm done with the eyes okay so I'm done with the eyes I don't know how this is coming out on camera but it looks fine in person this is just like setting spray so nothing crazy it's the morphe setting spray okay now it is time for hair and I'm just gonna do curls because I want to do kind of like the pigtail thing or maybe maybe I won't do pigtails because I did that for my former boss's birthday party like with the sailor hat and I thought it was like super cute I don't know I might do that I might not but I know I want to curl my hair but I only have a few minutes I wanted to leave it around like 330 but I'll probably be leaving a little bit after 330 but it's fine so I'm going to wait till this thing heats up and then I'm just gonna like try to curl it as fast as possible and I left out the makeup that I need to like replace so this obviously the little bronzer and then uh my foundation I'm running a little low on okay so the hair is done and I'm gonna run my fingers through it in just a little bit but I still don't know if I'm gonna do pigtails or no pigtails so I'm gonna put the hat on and see this is with the hat I think it's so cute and honestly I kind of don't want to do pigtails ooh I don't know I like the hair out I think it's cuter like this but let me put the pigtails in and see okay I honestly don't know why I just didn't set up the camera like this it's more like head-on vibe going on instead of like the other way around I don't know I have the tripod like sitting up against and the camera is now leaning against the mirror so that would have been a lot better so I'm gonna take my fingers I'm just gonna run through my hair guys you don't understand how much I love curling my hair I love the way it looks it has a lot more volume than everything it's just it takes it doesn't even take a long time but it just takes time so I almost never curl my hair anymore so let's put the pigtails in so here's one I already know I'm gonna like my hair just like down rather than having them in pigtails it was cute for the sailor thing but I don't know about Mario yeah no I definitely like my hair out like already can tell so it's coming out the pigtails were a good idea but right when they went in I was like no also too I used the straightener to curl my hair when I was gonna do the pigtails and it's the pigtails just flatten out this entire look so yeah I know I want my hair like this because this is a cute look so yeah I think I'm ready to go I okay guys like I will do the lipstick because I kind of want to see what it'll look like the final look let me put this away okay so this is the final look I love the way it turned out and just wearing my white shoes so this is the final look and I love the way it turned out I was a little nervous about like the makeup because I haven't done my makeup like I said in so long so this is what she's looking like and I'm ready to go to the party and hopefully we'll get some cute pictures I'm gonna take a picture for my Instagram stuff I'm gonna take a picture here whatever for like my Instagram story all right so at my friend's house and this is her fat cat Oz then they have this little pug he's a pug and oh my gosh poor guy this is his quality content yes so I'm at my friend's party and I want to show you Angie's costume you probably like know her from cycle bar that's her boyfriend Tanner I'm gonna say hi yes from friends yeah cute cute okay so I'm home now and it is currently 1137 and I am just going to take off my makeup because I don't like sleeping with makeup on the party was really fun people didn't start arriving until like 8ish I guess kind of just like chilling out and everything and I met one of my friends like friends brothers I don't know if that makes any sense but anyway um he was cool he was from Boston and it was so funny because like he had like a Boston accent if you guys don't know what a Boston accent it's like Baston like I don't know I don't know how to describe it but it was like funny because like he had a slight Boston accent and stuff and I've been to Boston like once so I could relate like a little bit to him like asking him about like a certain restaurant like the duck tours you can go on so I thought that was like kind of funny um he knew exactly what I was talking about so it was funny you know what's kind of cool and my friend has their first like official ride like on a Wednesday so that's really exciting I wish I could go but like I made plans with one of my other friends for dinner and they're like oh you should just be scheduled I'm like oh my gosh I don't know guys I'm excited for her she's gonna do great we also play this game called cheers to the governor you guys have probably heard it and you will alert me in the comments of like how much you love it or how much you hate it I like it but not with like so many people because if you don't know how to play like it's hard and especially if you have like short-term memory like half the time I do you'll forget things so like a number five like take a shot bro I'm not gonna remember that so uh yeah I don't know we were joking around saying like we can't remember so that game didn't really last too long I think it was pretty fun those skills I'm remembering and stuff are just not it for me right now especially when I have to remember like so much other stuff yeah I'm just gonna wash my face off well I'm like getting all the makeup off now but I'm gonna wash my face because I don't like having whatever chemicals are in this facial wipe on my face so I wash my face after I'm gonna go to bed so this is a good five minute clip that I've just been rambling and I hope you guys enjoyed it because I'm just telling you about the night sorry I didn't vlog a lot it's just like half of the people like I don't think probably wanted to be on camera but I included Angie because I know she's on mine being on camera I'm like girl like be in my vlog and she was like okay and her boyfriend as well was like in there and I'm like okay cool content quality content right there so all right happy sunday sherry is doing a lot better I am over here doing schoolwork as you guys can see so this is my sunday morning which is fine because it's pretty chill just doing vocab words I haven't written vocab words like this in so long so that's what we're doing right now okay so back in the bathroom I was ordering some products on Sephora so I found so I found these three products and I added them to my basket and bro this is like $106 that is so crazy but it's fine I've had this stuff for a while I still have a little bit more left in here so I'm gonna finish up that but might as well just have some you know just in case and then this is totally out and then this I hit pan on I've had this since 2016 so don't judge me but I've had that for a long time so I'm going to place my order now we're also supposed to sit on my bed today but I don't think that's gonna happen because like Valerie's grading papers and stuff and I'm just gonna relax and when she's cooking dinner I'm going to edit a video but I did school as you guys saw earlier today and now I kind of just want to relax to be honest so gonna order this stuff and chillax because I'm so good at doing that okay so I got a package obviously it's from Amazon and I wanted to show you guys because it is my new scrub cap my shampoo this is the Orbea gold lust repair so that's gonna go up to my bathroom and I got a new scrub cap look at how cute this one is it's corgis oh my gosh wait I got two was I supposed to get two cool okay so yeah okay so this goes on like this and then like you can tuck your hair in and stuff and then tie it to like make it tighter and stuff so that's cool and has this little like sweat band but yeah got a cute little quirky hat Valerie's making dinner we're having shake and bake chicken tonight got a good deal on the chicken I'm always exciting I know okay so I didn't end up editing a video tonight but I can do that tomorrow so it's fine and it's not like that of an intense edit because it's just like to get ready with me so I just like speed up clips and then like leave the parts while I'm talking so it's not too bad but dinner is almost ready so I'll show you guys first off I'll just show you guys the corn this is my corn it's the yellow corn I do like the yellow then I'll show you guys we got some green beans going on over here we just keep the foil on it to like keep it warm while like the other stuff is like coming out and everything and then I'll show you guys the and I'll show you guys the chicken when it comes out and here are my chicken legs they are beautiful


Should we get background music? Papi Muneo? Don't start! Papi Muneo? What? No Papi Muneo! No Papi Moneo, nothing! Papi Muneo? No! No Papi Moneo! I feel like I'm losing my voice. I just had a... Yeah, your voice cracked. I don't know what happened, man.   You want some hair on your chest? No, little boy! Little boy? Who are you calling for? I'm older than you.  I'm older than you. You forgot, I'm 23 now. Here we go. I'm 23. I am a grown man. A grown woman. I am a grown man. Stay your little kids up over there. Or you're 22. Stay in the 22 size. I'm small but mighty.  You ain't kicking none of that.  All right, all right, all right.  You gotta eat the booty leg grocery. Ew! All right. Oh, when was the last time we were on live? It's been a minute.  It's been a minute. Guys, you remember the last time we were on live? I don't remember. I want to say it's been maybe like more than a month. You think so? You just not going to talk? You just staring into the camera. I'm looking at the comments. Hi, everybody. Oh, man, you guys are spamming up the chat. That's what I like to see. You guys are acting. Guys, I just woke up from a nap. We kind of both did. That's why we're a little late. And I'm not feeling too hot today. Someone said, what are those red things on the floor behind you? Well, we're going to explain all that. Well, I'm going to explain all that because Janice has no idea what this live is about. I know. I'm just here. And anything that I'm going to say, she has no idea. I told her like, I don't want to record a video. I want to have my live and she will find out why. So she's clueless right now. And that's okay. And he told me to do like whatever we just did in the thumbnail. And I was like, okay. Yeah. I told her just take the thumbnail with me.  And that's it. Whoa. We got here. Thank you so much. Thank you so much. I really appreciate that. Um, yeah, guys, it was my birthday yesterday. I'm not much of a birthday person, but, um, yeah. I mean, it was my birthday. I turned 23. And we, I kind of like, I guess this is like my segue into why this video or why this live is going to be the way it is. And my grandfather was calling me. Um, so yeah, yesterday it was my birthday. And as you guys can tell, there is no video up about my birthday.  Um, I kind of, I didn't want any of that. I kind of wanted to just like take everything into account. I kind of wanted to take everything into account. I kind of wanted to just like take everything in and like really appreciate, um, my 23rd birthday. So it's like, I didn't want to be in the camera. I actually wanted to take it all in and really appreciate life. And I don't know how to explain my feelings. I think you know where I'm going with this. So like, what am I trying to say? I don't know what you're trying to say. I'm not good at expressing my feelings and you guys know that, but it's like, I don't know. I just didn't want to be in front of the camera. I wanted like just genuine time.   Janice was stressed out. She did things that I had no like thought of happening. I had no idea that it was going to go down or anything. And I'm not going to lie. It would have been cool to record it, but at the same time I want to take everything in and actually enjoy it. So I hope you guys can understand that, but I will tell you everything that did happen. So where should I start off with the day? It was pretty, it was a pretty slow day. I woke up to Janice singing happy birthday to me. So that was kind of cool. I felt like it was like the map of Marilyn Monroe thing. She was saying happy birthday to the president. Our own buddy says since happy birthday to Junkhead. Yeah, but that was based off of Marilyn Monroe, right? No. Yeah? No. She sang happy birthday to me and I felt really good about it. Okay. And Janice can tell you I'm not like, I'm not a birthday type of guy. Like I don't really care for going all out. I just see it as another day. I really shouldn't see it like that. I should be celebrating another year of life, but I don't know. I'm just not that type of person. So yeah, I woke up to Janice singing me happy birthday. She ended up like buying me breakfast, buying me lunch and all that good stuff. And I'm not going to lie, your boy was just playing Fortnite for the first couple of hours of the day. And I felt so at peace. I was just relaxing and enjoying it.  But I rage quit. So then after that, what did we do? We started getting ready because Janice said that she had made me a reservation for some place in Edgewater, New Jersey. So we actually, before going there, wait, Raheem Shabazz, I got to go. See you guys later. Stay blessed. All right. Thank you so much. Thank you. Thank you so much. What was I? Oh, no, yes. So we started getting ready and it was, we were starting to get like in a rush. And I'm not gonna, I didn't want to tell you, but I was like getting slightly stressed out because my mom told me to be over there at her house at four because she wanted to cut me a cake, which is no secret. I knew it was going to happen because my mom does it every single year. So she knew it was going to, she knew I knew it was going to happen. But the reservation was for five and we basically had to leave at four. So it was a really bad like time crunch. But we got over there. They sung happy birthday and yo, is it me or is it like the weirdest thing ever when people are saying happy birthday? You just got to sit there. You just got to sit there. Ask my mom like that. I hate it. I've hated it since I was a kid. It's so awkward. Yeah. I want to get the video from my mom because you know, she records like saying happy birthday with her. I want her to send me and I'm going to be like, I wonder if she called when I said, can you guys like sing it fast? Cause I don't want to sit here and listen to this because I just, it's mad awkward. I can't do it. So sing happy birthday, whatever. And then we started driving to the dinner place. I had no gas. So I had to like try to like stretch it out. Luckily we made it, but I had to get gas when we left. But the place itself we never been to. I can't even pronounce it. What was it called? Architopis. Architopis? Yeah. That's how they pronounce it. I could have swore it was Mediterranean. I thought I was going to a Mediterranean place. And I'd still, to this day, like I think that it was a Mediterranean place, but it's not overall though. It was a nice place. Would we go back? No, because it was like, it gave me like lounge vibes. Cause it was so dark in there. It was way too dark. Like to be a restaurant. And I had to get my phone to like light up the menu. And there was like a candle right there. And it was hot in there. It was so hot. It was hot. I was like, what is going on? And then on top of that, it was just like, I wanted to take him because of the menu. And they didn't, like they had pizza on the menu. And when we went, they crossed out all of the pizzas. So all they had was quesadillas and salads. They had a lot of stuff on the menu, but they crossed out a lot. Whoa. Austin Pilon. Pilon. Happy birthday. Love you guys. Thank you so much. I really appreciate that. We love you. Thank you so much for that. I really appreciate that. But yeah, guys, it's like, they had a lot of on the menu, but then when we actually got there and we opened up the menu, they had a bunch of stuff crossed out. Like the online menu didn't say that this stuff was crossed out. You know what I mean? Yeah. So she thought that I would get like a pizza and all that because they make like specialty pizzas and all that stuff. That stuff was crossed out. So like she said, there was only quesadillas and like salads. And there was something else, but I know for damn sure I wasn't going to eat it. I forgot what it was. It was like Mediterranean food, but it was just like beans. No, it wasn't Mediterranean. It was, I forgot what it was, but it was like a mix of, yeah, it was like a mix of a bunch of stuff. I forgot what it was, but the restaurant isn't Mediterranean. I feel like it was Mediterranean because like the vibes I was getting in there and all that, and I've had Mediterranean food before, so it reminded me of it. There were some Mediterranean things on the menu, but the things on the menu, Isaiah doesn't eat beans. I don't eat a lot of stuff. I'm very, I'm very big. So like all it said was like things that we had no idea that it, what it was. And then on top of that, it said like lentils and beans and stuff. And we don't like beans. It was like a lot of greens and stuff like that. You guys know I'm not the healthiest eaters. Yeah. I'm like, I'm sipping on a sprite can over here. And I had a bag of chips before this. He's not going to eat that. So it was like, it was good though. I ended up ordering myself a quesadilla. It was a regular quesadilla, nothing too crazy. They had crazy ones, but I just got like chicken and cheese. And it was, it was pretty good. They were, they were thick. They were really thick. Then after that, what we left, and it was brick, it was cold as hell. And um, Oh, that's when it started getting stressful for you. Because I'm over here like taking my sweet time. I'm leaving the restaurant. I'm chilling. I got the ideas. I'm like tired. Isaiah brushes for everything. Yeah. Every single day. Literally everything. That day that I'm planning something. He takes his sweet time. I told everyone, well, I can't really say that. Yeah. I can't really say that. No, no, no. Don't say that. I want to say that. Yeah. We didn't get to that part. Okay. Well, yeah. She had the surprise and she wanted me to get to the surprise already, but I was taking my sweet time. So I was literally, I was driving slow. Like an hour and a half. Yeah. I was driving slow. I was, um, I was just moving slow in general. Everything I was doing, I was just doing it slowly. I was taking it really chill, which I never do. So we ended up just getting back home. Prior to going to the restaurant, when I had got to my mom's the first time, so they can sing me happy birthday, they gave me all my gifts and all that. I'm actually going to show you it, but for now I'll tell you what it was.  I was so happy. I was so happy. Best gifts ever. But, um, yeah, she got me like a cold air intake. She got me some LED lights that I can put on the inside and make it look all nice inside. My mom got me some floor mats. My best friend got me some car cleaning products. Um, what else? I think that was it. Right. Oh no, then we got another gift that didn't work out. We'll get into that though. I'm, I need that one. Like I need that one ASAP. Um, so yeah, we ended up going back to the house after the restaurant and I just have the weird feeling. I want to put my floor mats in. So I'm putting my floor mats in and Janice is like, she's like, why, why are you doing this right now? Like the surprise is waiting.  No, and then he left blooper at his grandparents house and they had him a cake earlier that day. He didn't get to eat the cake because we had to go to the reservation. So I'm like, I'm like sitting in the car or whatever.  And I was just like, babe, come on, just grab it. Let's go home. He's like, no, I want to eat it now. I'm like, oh my God.  I'm eating it slow. Like I'm like doing everything I'm not supposed to. And I had no idea of it. Um, hold up, hold up. Austin Pilon, he said, hope you guys enjoy the 50s. I hope you saw it. I must have not been paying attention to love you guys. No, yeah, we saw it bro. Thank you so much. I really appreciate that. Thank you so much really. Gamer Batman said, Isaiah, you and Janice are absolutely adorable power couple. Thank you so much. Really appreciate it. We love you guys a lot. So yeah, then I'm eating my cake. I'm eating it all slow and all that. And I just want to tell you guys, my favorite cake is ice cream cake from Carvel. I love ice cream cake. But I didn't even know they made all chocolate ice cream. I didn't either when she brought that cake. I was like, I asked for ice cream cake and then she cut it open. It was like ice cream cake.  I was just like, what is, what is this? Yeah. She was saying how expensive it was. I think that's why they don't make it like that. They probably have made it. I don't know. It was like a $40 cake and they're usually like, what, 20? I don't know. They updated a lot. They changed it, but overall it was still good. But yeah, I'm doing everything. I'm not supposed to have eaten cake. I'm like putting in my floor mats and all that good stuff. And now we're finally like driving back home. We picked a blooper and then like, this is where it starts to get crazy. So I'll let Janice tell the stressful part about it. But we got here. I ended up parking like all the way in the backpack parking lot. Cause there was like no parking. So I was like kind of bummed out about that. And Janice ended up leaving first cause she wants to go like walk blooper before we came into the house. So we don't have to do it later. And I'm like taking all my car parts out of my trunk. And I'm like holding everything. And I'm like, so have like a little kid like on Christmas morning, I got all my car parts. And all I want to do is like take it all in one trip and go inside the house. You know, I don't want to come back cause too cold as heck. But I got all my car parts and then Janice was like, oh my God, I didn't know you were doing all that. I thought you were going to go back for that. And I'm like, nah, man, I want all my car parts. I want to like play with my car parts. So walking in the house, walk through the door. And this is where these balloons, that's what it is on the floor.  I walk in, it's dark in the apartment. Like it should be. And I see like something like, I see like a figure just like hanging off the ceiling. What is that? And then as soon as I figured out what it was as I'm walking in, that split second, someone turned on lights and then they like yelled surprise. And basically like, everyone was here pretty much. It was like all my close friends, my mom, my sisters. That was pretty much it. How many people did we have here in total? Not a lot. Not a lot, but it was like a decent amount. I'd say maybe like, what, 10? Nah, wouldn't say that. Yeah. No, look, you got my mom, step dad, two sisters, Mike, Austin, Miguel, Gab, you, me. Oh, that's it. That was it? I feel like I'm missing people. Austin. No, I can't go. Oh, that's it. Well, that's 10 people. Either way, 10 people. Well, Game of Batman, Isaiah, yesterday I had an allergic reaction to something for the first time in my life. I was feeling so down and upset. I turned on one of your videos and I felt better. Thank you so much. Well, I hope you're better. I really hope you're better for one. Yeah, I was just saying, I really hope you feel better. I'm glad that we could help. But anyway, I hope that it wasn't too serious. Yeah, we, you guys have no idea like how much we, I don't know how to explain it. I'm not good at my feelings. You see this? I can't talk about my feelings, but I'm very appreciative, I guess, that we can make you guys feel better and make you guys smile and all that. Francisco Maldonado, Happy Birthday, Isaiah. I love you. Blessings. Stay safe. Thank you so much. Really appreciate that. Oh, yeah. So, what was that? Yeah, I walked through big surprise. Everyone's got surprise. And I was completely thrown off guard.  And if Janice tells me she has a surprise or I find out there's a surprise, I will make her tell me what the surprise is because I just can't. I don't like surprises. I need to know what's going down and how it's going down. He literally burns everything all the time. I'm telling you, I can't. What surprises? I can't with a surprise. I need to know. I don't like being surprised. It's weird. I don't know how to act in that situation. So, I walked and the surprise happened or whatever. All my close friends, you know, families here, my mom, stuff that, sisters. And then we just started chilling. We're hanging out. We were watching the Conor McGregor fight. That was hilarious. That's all I'm going to say about that. He really got knocked out. And then I guess that's pretty much it. As far as the surprise, you want to tell them what was so stressful about it? Everything. Everything. Tell them for one, how long you were planning on doing this. And I had no idea at all that this was going down. And I'm good at picking up hints. I've had this plan for like a month and a half, like since mid-December. And I started to get everything together. My mom made all the decorations. Like we were making preparations from then. Like everything was actually made. Like her mom made everything. It wasn't like store bought. There was a couple of things that were store bought, but 90% of it her mom made. So it was like crazy. And then that's another reason why I'm glad it wasn't on camera. Because I was able to take it all in and actually enjoy it and actually feel like, like I was able to appreciate it. You know what I mean? I didn't have to worry about like being on camera. Oftentimes we do things and it's like all on camera. And like sometimes it's like, we just want to keep things to ourselves. Like have moments not viewed through the camera, but like viewed through like just our own eyes and just looking around and taking everything in 100%. Yeah. You feel uncomfortable like on the camera sometimes when there's like, like being vulnerable is hard a little bit. So like, I feel like being vulnerable for me is like a constant struggle. Like I've said multiple times already in this live, I'm not good with showing my emotions or like talking about my feelings. So it's weird, especially if like I have to like kind of like show it on camera if we were recording a video because I don't want anyone to think that like I'm ungrateful or anything like that. Like, oh, he had no reaction or stuff like that. Like I have a reaction. Thank you for the donation, Joy. Oh, shout out to Joy. Thank you. So yeah, it's like, I don't know it's kind of weird to say, but it's like, I don't know being on camera. It's like, you have to show more just because you don't want to get people the wrong impression of you. You know what I mean? Especially like first time watchers or something like that. I don't want people to think anything negative about me. People are always going to think negative regardless, but you know, I don't want to give them a reason to. So I was very grateful that we didn't film yesterday.  And it's like a surreal feeling. And you guys are like 100% a huge part of that. Like you guys have no idea like how much you guys mean to me. Like it's crazy, but go ahead and keep telling them how you were like stressed out and everything that I was doing wrong. Oh, wow, Flavia Mendez. I hope I said that right. Happy birthday, Isaiah. Love from Brazil. Thank you so much. Really appreciate it. Thank you. Brazil. Wow, wow. Let me get comfortable because it's my time to talk now. So this was like super, super stressful. Like he was saying like, but the reason why everything was so stressful is because Isaiah and I spent 24 seven with one another. So it's like, we can't hide anything from each other. Anything. It's so difficult. And a couple of times or a lot of the time that I tried to surprise him, it doesn't work out. Hence, you know, the story time that we told prior. And yeah, so it started with just planning like me and his mom are going back and forth. Like, and we came to a point where like, we had to figure out a way to distract him so that we can set up. Me, I wanted to be hands on because it's my idea. Obviously, and like, I know how I like things. So I'm like, okay, so we're going to get his best friend to distract him and take him to a restaurant while we set everything up. I had paid him to the last month. You guys did it. Everything in such a secretive way that I was unable to find out. And it was crazy. Like her buying me the car parts, like my gifts. Janice doesn't know about cars. Like she just knows I'm a car fanatic. But the fact that she knew what part I wanted, like what brand of like cold air intake I wanted. And knowing that it would have to fit my car. Like she got everything spot on, but she had that from the help of my best friend, Miguel. And it was just weird that I wasn't seeing any of this go on. And yes, it was hints that I didn't pick up on how I did that was I told Gabba and Miguel. I was like, listen, you guys need to ask him. And they have a group chat and all they do is talk about cars. And a group chat just ask Isaiah what he wants, what car parts he's looking forward to getting. Just ask him. And I thought nothing of it because I kid you not, a couple of days before that I had asked them what they wanted because I was going to get them gifts for Christmas. So that's when I was like, I didn't think anything of it. Like Miguel acts is a couple of days later. The same question. I didn't think anything of it. He just wants to know. I don't know. Maybe he's trying to get us Christmas gifts. I don't know. Yeah. So like Gabba just was like, okay, here, this is all the stuff that he wants and went and got it. Then we're hanging on his mom's house and she's like, what do I get Isaiah for his birthday? Like he's so complicated. Should I get him Jordan? So now he's like, I'm like, honestly, can you help assist out because this list is pretty hefty and you wonder a lot of stuff. I got a whole list of car parts I want guys. She was just like, what did she talk about? I said, he's mentioned formats a couple of times and like she ends up like getting, getting that. But that's how we planned out like the gifts, but everything just didn't go to plan. I wanted Miguel to take him out. Obviously, like I said, I paid for it like last month and Isaiah goes, no, like we're probably going to go on Sunday. Like we're not going to shout out to Joy. No, don't thank you so much, Joy. He's like, we're probably going to go on Sunday instead. Like not on my actual birthday. And I'm like, oh my God. Now I don't have a distraction. So that didn't work out. Yeah. And then the day of like I had, like the day before yesterday, I had no idea how I was going to execute this. So I basically told them like, Hey, I'm just going to have to take him out to dinner because he can't say no to me. And you guys are going to have to come to the house to set up. So I gave them the keys. They came here, Miguel, and his mom like shout out to you guys because if it wasn't for them, I wouldn't have been able to do this. I'm telling you, I was doing everything wrong. Like she had set the dinner up and all that. And then like, I was like, oh, can we change it? Can we add Miguel and gas? Yeah. So this is another thing. I had custom cookies made. So Gabba wants to pick those up at two o'clock. Okay. And at that time, Isaiah's mom was supposed to go and pick up all of the decorations from my aunt's house because I couldn't have it here. So they finally met? They finally met? No, I don't think so. It was in the hallway since the day before yesterday because me and his mom were supposed to pick it up the day before his birthday, but he decided to not go with Miguel to get his hair cut and he was supposed to do that too. And while they were doing that, we already had plans to go and pick up all the decorations. So he was just ruining it over and over and over again. I was messing everything up, but I didn't know what I was... Oh my God. I thought I was just relaxing and enjoying my life. We were sitting on the couch. I'm tired. I don't feel like going to... And if that's going to be weird, I'm not going to stop him though. Like flames are coming out of my ear. He was just like... And I just wanted to punch him because he was ruining my plans. I wasn't doing it intentionally. Obviously not. I was just living my life. I was just chilling. It was so bad. So yeah, that's pretty much what happened. He just kept ruining the plans. And then when we're at... Oh, back to his mom. She kind of like... Not ran behind, but I wanted everyone to be at his mom's house at three because the reservation was at five. And so that didn't work out.  Yeah. You started getting ready at three. Yeah. So what happened was she had texted me saying that she had just got to my aunt's house and she had all the decorations. And she would have got there at the same time or before her. I say I would have seen her walk in with the decorations. So we could not do that. So I'm sitting here. Like, what do I do to make time? Like, go by him. And like, he's like sitting here like, we have to go. We have to go. And I'm like, we can't go yet. Yo, what's crazy is that when... You gave me your phone for something. I think it was when we were at the restaurant eating. She gave me her phone to look at something. And my mom, she says my mom had texted her. Yeah. And my little banner pops up at the top of the screen or whatever of your iPhone. And I didn't think, like, when I'm on her phone, like if she gives me to watch something or whatever or look at something, I don't... Like anything pops up. It's weird. I feel like some people are really nosy and they're just like, who is that? Who texted you? It's like, I don't care. Like, I'm like focused on what you're showing me. So I didn't even see the text messages that my mom had got you. It's like it's been ruined so many times, but it didn't. It was... I'm telling you, there were so many hints I didn't pick up on. Yeah. I remember when we got back from dinner to go pick up Bloober at my grandparents' house again, my grandma said to Janice and was like, oh, is Miguel waiting for you at that house or something like that? And I completely just bypassed that too. I didn't think anything of it because my grandma just be talking just the talk. You know, like old Spanish grandmas, they just love to talk. So every time she talked, I just let her talk. Oh, Miguel, that's not in the house. She was like, yeah, Miguel, that's not in the house. And I was just like, I didn't think anything of it. I'm just like, she just be talking. She just be talking. I was like, see, mom, see. And his grandfather's like... I didn't think anything of it. I was completely unaware. Like I said, when we had got back to my grandparents' house, it was to pick up Bloober and I was focused on getting a piece of my birthday cake. I wanted my ice cream cake. So I was like completely like zoned out of everything that was going around around me. I just wanted my cake. And that's what happened. So that was another hint that I didn't even pick up on because like I said, she just be talking just the talk. Yeah. And like back to the whole like running late thing. So we were running so late and I could tell Isaiah was stressed out. And I kept on trying to talk to him like, don't be stressed because it was like for a reason. And so like, we were running behind, but he felt bad because Miguel and Gav had got there like right when we were about to leave to the restaurant, but he didn't know that they were setting up for the surprise.  And I kept telling him too when we were about to leave to go to the restaurant. I kept telling him, I'm like, y'all in the text when we leave that spot or whatever. So maybe we just like do something like chill or like whatever. Little did I know he was a part of the surprise. Yeah, I'm like, he's so cute. He's like, feels so bad. And he's like, beasting. He's like, oh, call them. Tell them to change the reservation. Tell them to change it to four or just make a new one. And I'm like, no, they're going to charge me $20. I was like, I can't make a new one, which is true. They charge. And usually when people tell her no over the phone or something like that, I just like, give me the phone. Let me talk to you. Yeah. And then surprisingly, I just didn't have the urge to call after you said. Now they said no, because I would have picked up the phone. I wanted to, but I just didn't. And that's another thing I could have did. And I would have been like, you know, if they would have been like, okay, you know, yeah, we switched the reservation of four people. And I don't know, like they just said, yeah. And then you would have been like, so it's like, that's another thing that I didn't do. And I usually do. Like I said, there was a bunch of stuff I could have did or I didn't even call them. I did a whole fake call. Yeah. She's like left the living room and just went to act like she was on the phone. I thought she left the living room because the living room was loud because everyone was around me. So I didn't think anything of it.  Everything just like fell into place and it was weird. But yeah, then I get here like the whole party situation. She made it the office themed. If you guys don't know the offices, it is a sitcom that was on Netflix. They took it off Netflix this past like week or something like that or two weeks before. And I'm very upset about that.  My mom went all out. She literally went all out. Like this balloon says the party planning committee. That's like a thing in the office. Where's the, where's prison Mike? I think prison Mike is under the table. The prison Mike. I got a shirt that says prison Mike. Like everything was like the office themed and it was crazy.   That's what she said. Just stuff like that. Yeah. And these cookies are so good. Yeah. Custom cookies like my name on it and all that. What else is it? It was like a lot of stuff. Hold on, hold on. Have a seat.  No. Why not? Because I want one too. So I'll grab me one. No, I don't want one right now. So why are you lying? I don't know. I'll just be talking. Just talking. I'm like my grandma.  I don't know. What else was there? There was like blue. I can't. There was like so much. There was like too much stuff. There was like stuff on the wall, but we took it off already.  So I don't know. Let me show you guys my, my gifts that she got me. I'm not going to pick up the intake because the intake is very heavy. But like I said, Not for you. She got me like the lights like I put inside my car. I'll grab one. This is like a piece of the intake. There's a lot of stuff to it. Obviously the car formats are inside the car. I feel like we're doing show and tell right now. I know.  I'm telling you. But yeah, the floor mats are inside the car. That was something I wasn't supposed to do.  Some of that stuff is still in my car too. I think that was pretty much it. Oh, and then we didn't tell them about the gift that didn't work out. That is that gift was the first one I got. And she gave it to me at midnight when my birthday like just happened. And so honestly, man, that's the gift I want the most right now. We're just crazy because that's the gift that I thought you would care least about. No, like I really want it just because like the meaning behind it. But she gave me this random box and I was like trying to figure out what it was and I couldn't figure out what it was through like label or whatever because I didn't say anything. I open it up. It's like it's taken forever to get inside to where the gift actually is to say the least, but it was like a little tiny like Gucci box and there was a ring inside of it. And the message that she put with the ring was like, oh, if I have a ring or something like that, you get to have one too babe or something like that. So it was a nice little message and then I went to try on the ring and the ring didn't fit.  And it was like a size eight or something like that. So then a couple of weeks ago, my mom had me try it on just to try it on to see if I liked it or whatever. Little did I know that it was for this gift a month later. But I tried on the ring and it fit, but she was like, oh yeah, this is probably going to be his size or whatever. So she was telling Janice like, oh yeah, go with this size, go with that size, whatever.  It was just not fit. It's like him like a mid ring. Like right here to his knuckle. Yeah, it was not. I put soap on my finger and everything. I was trying to slide it even with soap. It just wasn't going. I actually ended up like scraping my skin because I was like trying to force it because I really wanted the ring, but it just wasn't happening. So now we got to go and change it for a different size. But it's a really nice ring. It really was. It was black or like a silver lining in it. It's hard to explain when I actually get it. I'll show you guys. But I was like really bummed out that it didn't fit because I really wanted to wear it. And then she was like, oh, when are you going to wear it? When are you going to wear it? I was like I'm going to wear it every day and I will put it on my ring finger. So they think I'm married too. Because that's what you do too. So guys, I'm married on you. Yeah, I mean, when I lived in Florida, we were doing long distance. I didn't want anybody hitting on me. So I literally wore the ring on this hand. It didn't work though. I still got hit on. Like, I don't know. Guys think that that's like, yeah. They think that's cool.  Like, back up. A lot of people still to this day, they think we're married. We're not married. We act like it, but we're not. But yeah, I mean, I guess to close all of this out, because I think that was pretty much everything, right? I was like, well, the details of yesterday. Like I said, I didn't want anything beyond cameras because I wanted to take everything in. And I didn't want to feel like I was working on my birthday. You know, I actually want to enjoy it. But you did a lot and you really outdid yourself. You kept everything like secret, which is very hard to do with me because I figure out everything. And I really appreciate everything you did. Thank you. Oh, and they want to see us kiss because they say they never see us kiss. With my cookies. What do you mean? When we kiss your cookie? Whoa. What? That's it. Come here. Give me kiss. Give me kiss. And that's exactly why this live is titled Words Can't Explain. Because Words Can't Explain like how much Janice means to me and how much I love her and all that. You have to cry. Yeah, I'm telling you. I get emotional with something. This is why I don't show my feelings. But she does a really good job of making me feel loved and I don't know. I'm very blessed to have her. So thank you so much for everything. Kara, let me stop before I really start crying. Oh my God. So yeah, that's probably like the most emotions that you guys are going to see from me for a while. But that's exactly why I didn't tell her anything about this live. I just want to kind of do it to explain everything. And that's why I titled it the way that Words Can't Explain. Because Words Can't Explain how much she means to me and how much I love her. Okay. I'm good. I'm good. I promise I'm good. I promise I'm good. So this is what it feels like to be savvy. I don't like seeing you crying. It's good tears. It's tears of joy. So yeah, guys. That was my birthday. It was probably... I would say it was probably the best birthday I've had my whole life. Oh, yay. Don't get savvy on me. I'm going to cry. Don't get savvy on me. This is so awkward. I can't... My emotions are like out right now. I can't... So yeah. I'm baby. Yeah, it was definitely... I would say the best birthday I've had all of my life. So I kept getting upset because... I feel like Isaiah's like me. But the thing is he tries to act like he's not. Like, we both have been disappointed so much in our lifetime. Let's just be honest. No, that's another thing I kind of want to like touch on. But go ahead. Say what you guys think. Me personally, like... Birthdays always sucked for me too. And I just feel like people just don't care enough. And I feel like Loki, he felt the same way.  Oops, sorry. Sorry. Oops. And like, you know, it's all about cameras and pictures. Like it's unauthentic. Not saying that everyone who shows everything isn't authentic. No, but majority of the time people do stuff to flex. You guys know how social media is. Social media, people take it to a crazy extent. And I feel like they start to lose sight of like their true selves. So that's what we kind of like try to avoid. Which is why there's some things in our life that we don't want to record. Because we just want to be able to take it all in and actually appreciate it. So that actually explains why I didn't want to record yesterday. Yeah. Go ahead. But like, it was making me upset. Because Isaiah, like, I had all this playing.   And I'm just like, no, what do you mean? Like, this is a celebration of your life. Like, you don't understand. Like a lot of people like don't live to see 23, you know? And he always said that he didn't think that he would. I never thought I would make it to my 20s. I don't know why I just always had a feeling. I don't know if it was because of where I grew up or anything like that. But I just, I never thought I would live to see 20. And like, it kind of like upsets me that he felt that way. And he just kept on saying, like, I'll celebrate my birthday. He said, yeah, she cursed. Sorry.  Um, yeah. So like, I, he kept saying like, I'll celebrate my birthday when I'm genuinely happy. Like with my life. And I'm just like, I'm like, I'm telling you, I don't, I'm not a birthday guy. I'm like, I'm just not there. But after yesterday, like really made me appreciate everything. So that's why I like got emotional. But I don't know, like back to what she said, but like just recording certain stuff and like how social media, everyone plays things out. All that it's like, we try to stay away from that.  Because if we're being honest, a lot of the time people just do it for the camera. You know, not everybody, but there are people that just do that for the camera. And it sucks that it's like that. But, and we keep getting a question. Like, are you going to bust down the ring? Like it doesn't need to be like that. Like not everything like, like make the ring like diamond bust out. Like, no, I'm not, you guys know me. I'm very plain. I'm very simple. You guys can see the way I dress in videos and all. I'm very simple. I'm not that type of guy that I want bust down everything. But I honestly feel like, like that's just like a mindset that a lot of people have. Everything has to be bust down. Everything has to be like showing. Like don't get me wrong. It's very beautiful. Like having like bust down stuff. It's freaking beautiful. And if you can afford it, congratulations. I'm really proud that consider it a trophy for your achievements. It's just not my style. I'm very plain Jane. I'm not like that at all. Don't get me wrong. I have a, I don't know if you guys saw on my Instagram. I never showed it on YouTube, but I have a diamond chain. It's like an old diamond tennis chain. But you guys don't see me wearing it, you know, every day or anything like that. I wear it on special occasions. And I just, I don't know. I'm very just plain and simple. You know what I mean? I'm not crazy about stuff like that. That's what I'm saying. Like I'm really bad at explaining things. I feel like it makes it seem like I'm talking down on people who get stuff bust down. That's not what I mean. What I mean is just like, it would be weird for us to have something bust down. It's not our style. We're not like that. So if like, I didn't know where you guys just saw us wearing like bust down jewelry and doing all this. Like, I feel like we, we changed at that point. Yeah. And it's like, we're not like that. Yeah. You guys would try to flex. Cause yeah. No, cause we're not like that. You know, like don't get me wrong. They're beautiful things to have and I would love to have them. But realistically speaking, I wouldn't wear it. I just wouldn't. I don't want to shine in and bust them down is my wedding. I thought you were going to say your booty. I thought you was about to go crazy. Somebody said, why did you always eat it not live? Because I'd be hungry. She'd be hungry. She'd eat like a grown man. I eat like every 20 minutes. Oh, and so I forgot what, what video was it? It was a couple of videos a couple of days where we, Some call me fat? No.  I'm surprised. But someone says something when we were talking, Oh, it was when I did the, um, they exposing you. And someone was like, um, they're like, Oh, I feel like they low key really hate each other because we were talking about a scenario. Because we were talking about a scenario where we got into an argument that one time that it was like one of our worst arguments. It was, it was a question. Would you ever, did you ever think about breaking up with me in a relationship? And that's another thing that like social media doesn't show you guys is like everything. Everything on social media is not what it seems to be. You know what I mean? Like couples go through everything. People in general, they go through everything. So it's like, we're not going to sit here and pretend like we're this perfect couple, especially on camera. Again, we're not like that. That's not our style. We like messing each other. We like roasting each other and just having fun with each other. That's where we enjoy each other company. You know what I mean? We're not going to like fake to like the kiss stuff. Oh, we're not like that. We're just not. We have way more fun and enjoy each other's company way more like roasting each other. So we're a little bit of everything. Honestly. Yeah. We're goofy.  We're immature. What are you? A water son? I'm an Aquarius. Water and water? I don't know fish. I don't know. I don't know. Holder scopes and stuff. Hey Siri. Oh, this is your phone. This is my phone. Good morning. Yeah, guys. It's like we're just. So like, I don't know that comment like, oh, I feel like they located it.  We, we love each other. We just have fun messing with each other. We like pressing each other's buttons, especially when I love pressing our buttons. Just earlier, I was repeating a tick tock nonstop. And she was like, can you just stop? She was like, you're always saying the same tick tock. It's so annoying. And I said it again. I don't know. I found you. No, no, no, no. Stop. Stop. Guys, in this one, I'll do it nonstop, but you'll get annoyed. That's what we just have enjoyment of.   Like, can I go to sleep? Yeah. That's when I get crazy when I'm tired. Yeah.  Yeah. I don't know. Like I said, we're not going to like the fake, the whole romantic scene and all that. That comes out once in a blue. But we're just, we're goofy, immature, loving couple. I guess is what you can say. We're not your typical lovey-dovey couple. You got your baseball, brother. It's Carmen team. When you're in the comments. Oh, that tick tock is hilarious. But yeah, guys, I mean, that's pretty much it. That's pretty much it. I just wanted to like give you guys the gist of everything that happened yesterday, how my birthday went. And thank you to everyone who said happy birthday. I have a ton of DMs. I can't reply to all of you guys because there's a ton, but I tried my best. I'm going to keep going. Please don't get offended if we don't respond. Like, yeah, it's just a lot. There's a lot of people. There's a lot. And I used to hear that with like the people that I used to watch on YouTube or like celebrities that I liked and like people will say the same thing. I'm like, I don't care. Yeah. No, but like now I see that it's like hard. You guys think that YouTubers just say that stuff like, oh, no, we, yeah, we look through our DMs and we reply to you guys. It's, it's true. It's there's a lot of DMs. There's a lot. But someone commented. I got a 2004 Acura and Tiger RSX type S. What do you think? It's crazy because that was the first car I wanted. And I was going to buy it off my cousin. Is that the one that I said that I would get? No. No. That was, it's crazy. That's the first car I wanted. And I was going to buy it off my cousin too. I never did it though. But that is a beautiful car. I love that car. Um, I mean, what else? I think that's pretty much it, right? Yeah. It's pretty much it guys. I just want to give you guys a gist of what happened. Um, again, thank you for all the birthday wishes. And I hope this lie wasn't too sappy for you guys, or boring. Sorry. No, I don't, I don't think it was boring. I feel like I just needed to get some things off my chest and really explain how I felt out yesterday and how I feel about her and her efforts and everything she did. So that is pretty much it. Thank you guys for watching. And we will see you guys in the next live. And you guys finally saw us kiss. They finally saw us kiss. They've been waiting for that because they say we never kiss. You guys finally saw it. And I think you guys saw it like twice. But that is it. We'll see you guys in our next live.


So you're in a workshop, you've got it all planned out, you've got your agenda for the three days, and you're right in the middle of day one, and your client decides we want to change the entire direction of the workshop. Well, what do you do? The first thing you do is you expect that it's going to happen beforehand, and you're prepared to improvise. If you know how to design a workshop on the fly, then it really doesn't matter if your client completely changes their mind halfway through. And I assume every time I go into a workshop, if it's a leadership retreat or if it's a design sprint or it doesn't really matter, I assume the things can go off the rails and I'm not going to panic. So the best thing you can really do is just assume that this is going to happen and be prepared and be trained to deal with things changing on the fly.


Okay, so we're here today with Lucky Lakshmanan. We are at the Fairmont Hotel. It is August 24th, 2015. And the interviewer, as usual, will be William McCrae. So we're going to begin with just a very simple few questions. So first of all, could you please state your full name? Vaikuntham Ayur Lakshmanan. And your age, please. 75. And where were you born exactly? Born in India. Whereabouts? In Tamil Nadu, in Chennai. And as a child, what did your parents do for a living? My father was managing an agricultural farm. He was a landlord. Okay. What was the, what did you grow? Well, my early years, I was in deep south in India, in a place called Chinnamalai. I kept calm in the tip of India. After doing my grade 12 SSLs, I moved to a place called Mumbai, Bombay. And that's where I did my education for bachelors, masters and PhD. Which was in chemistry, right? Chemistry, that's correct. And why chemistry? Well, I always felt, Bill, that chemistry is a good basis from which you can move into whether it is metallurgy or environment, process engineering, chemical engineering. A good understanding in chemistry can give you the basis to move on to various other subjects. Yeah, it's like, it's the best science base. Absolutely. And, okay, so you did all, you did bachelors, masters and PhD all in Mumbai. Mumbai. And from there, did you, was your first, I guess, official job within your career in India? Or was it in Canada? Well, Bill, my PhD was in organic chemistry using a technology called solvent extraction to understand the chemistry of various things. As I was doing, I was working before I got my PhD as a chief chemist in a company they were making in organic pigments or tiles. So that gave an exposure, using this technology, solvent extraction, making an industrial product to make glazes. So that was the beginning of my working career. Then as I did, always wanted to go abroad for further training. And got an opportunity as a post-doctoral fellow at the department of minerals engineering at the University of Birmingham in England. And my PhD work on solvent extraction and separation technology, I used to work with nuclear chemistry, radioisotopes to understand how things are happening. That gave me an opportunity to move into Birmingham. But I used the technology moved on to minerals engineering, a separation technology in extractive metallurgy. And also set up a laboratory on radio chemical laboratory at the University of Birmingham in Miles Engineering. In India, I used to get my samples irradiated at the Uppsala reactor in Siders. Went to England in minerals engineering where I went as a post-doctoral fellow for two years. Used the reactors in Aldramaston to get radiative samples to follow the similar solvent extraction technology to further understand the separation technology separations for the metals in minerals in minerals engineering. That was a career path. Using the separation technology, here I moved from chemistry to minerals engineering which is like chemical engineering. So it moved me there in minerals engineering. Then after two years, I became a lecturer at the department of minerals engineering teaching hydrometallurgy. So I moved from chemistry to minerals engineering hydrometallurgy which is like chemical engineering. Mineral engineering is a subject and it's like chemical engineering. So I taught there for three years and then left England in 1974 arrived in Canada as a post-doctoral fellow with a candidate. And they got and did see a candidate ahead of the hydrometallurgy. He was interested in the work I was doing on solvent extractions. He asked me to come here as a post-doctoral fellow for a year. So what is a post-doctoral fellow? Then moved to Noranda in Point Clare in the olden day. So I spent some time in Noranda then I used to work with Alan Ashbrook in Canada. And Alan moved to Eldorado Nuclear and he asked me to come to Eldorado Nuclear. So I moved to Eldorado Nuclear as a hydrometallurgist. So my career took me to Canada for one year. Then went to Noranda, then went to Eldorado Nuclear. When I was in Eldorado Nuclear, William, I find myself so fortunate in this God's country called Canada. Born in deep south in Tamil Nadu I got an opportunity to work in places like Uranium City, north of Lake Athabasca, in Saskatchewan, under 6th parallel working under Uranium Mine. And that was a unique opportunity for someone like myself coming into this country that I was in Ottawa but I could work at Uranium City and also worked at the Porto Plant in the Refinery. Again, it is a continuing story what was a common thread separation technologies, around extraction, nuclear industry following similar process principles whether it, you know, when you worked in Ottawa it is the same solid extraction technology to separate Uranium coming from Uranium City, the Allocate, and it's separated to make highly pure material to make reactor fuel, EO2 or EO6. So worked there for a few years. Then, you know, I had a request from Ontario Research Foundation so God did say thought it would be useful for me to go here, a good friend of mine, God did say. So I am more from Ontario, from Elder Order Nuclear which is today chemical. Well, what you see as chemical today used to be Elder Order Nuclear a common corporation that with SMDC, Saskatchewan Mining and Development Corporation together during Brian Maloney's time he put these two institutions together, companies together and formed today was one of the largest Uranium reactor fuel company Uranium mining company, reactor fuel company in the world which is involved in mining and refining, you know. So what is chemical today used to be Elder Order Nuclear and after spending few years in Elder Order Nuclear with Alan Ashbrook I moved to Ontario Research Foundation as head of hydro metallurgy section. So that was the beginning of my association with Ontario Research Foundation and that was in 1980. And Milliam, Ontario Research Foundation has a very, very rich history, you are a historian it was formed in 1926 after the World War I to increase the competitiveness of Ontario based industries whether it is mining, agriculture or you know, or forestry. The objective then was the primarily enhance the competitiveness of the major industries in Ontario and give them trained skilled manpower taking the post graduate students from Ontario based university put them in Ontario Research Foundation give them training to adapt and looking into challenges in this industry. So in 1926 Ontario Research Foundation was formed with the contribution from Government of Ontario and the Canadian exporters and manufacturers association CMA as you see today whether it was formed in 1926 and of course, Ontario Research Foundation was one of the largest you know, technology development and research organization in Canada. You know, then you had other provincial research organizations like Alberta Research and Saskatchewan Research coming later. So then I came to you know, had a group on hydrometallurgy then things took off and became a director for the metallurgy group and the metallurgy environmental and in 1999 January Ontario Research Foundation or it became Ortec. It became Ortec in 1986 because the name Ontario Research Foundation Bill the then management felt did not truly reflect because the clients were from all over the world it was not Ontario. Early days it was formed to serve the Ontario industries but as the time went on they had people from US and other places and it was not a place where people were doing research it was more on technology development and application and it was not a foundation giving out money to anybody it was doing client service whether for government or private sector. So they felt the name was not fully fitting well with what they were doing so they changed the name to Ortec. Did you play a role in that? I was a middle management person and we had clients most of the Iranian projects in Canada Ortec did a major role in developing, testing and all that so in 1985 it was the new name came as Ortec and on the 98th December in January it was privatized then premier of Ontario felt to do research and focus on universities but organizations such as this could go out and do business for industries or government on a project basis but not directly supporting with yearly contribution. So it was privatized in 1999 by a group of consortium members and a company called Body Code from England was one major company and then I was involved in bringing a couple of other people so bought the group called Process Technologies Division from the old Ortec and then this became Process Research Ortec that is the and when it was formed William our focus was not doing test work but developing solutions for clients problems and we wanted not to restrict ourselves only with Canada but also see opportunities with some developing economies so that is the story Process Research Ortec focuses on developing solutions for clients needs sometimes we do the market research and see where the problems are and then invest our own funds to develop technologies the earlier Ortec would never compete with private sector because they were getting assistance from the government so they were mandated not to compete with private sector but when it became fully privatized so this private company now fully competes with the market and not alone it develops technology on its own and takes it to the market sometimes we also invest in commercialization we work closely with universities technology is developed at universities at a small scale with the big facilities that we have we give professors from universities opportunities for beta testing, pre-commercialization, trials and piloting it happens in our facility the professors from we did a major project on polymers on nano polymer developed at University of Toronto and it was brought to Process Research Ortec where we did all the development of work beta testing, commercial testing so they could take sizeable product to test whether it is automotive industry or consumer product so they could do it so the business model is not alone that we would develop the solution because the universities need a facility where they could take it and we have we have connections and contact with financial institutions so we will introduce them to professors so they could discuss and take it to the market places so basically that is a story and we serve primarily our company Bill we serve because the mining industry goes up and down very cyclical and we have to buy our groceries so we have to use the technologies we develop but applicable to some other sectors but these process principles find usage so we move into speciality chemicals we move into environmental sectors and renewable energy but we focus on clean technologies but use Bill the same fundamental separation technologies what you do but you do the separation technologies for mining industry what you do all these industries need more and more the challenges coming from it is related to agencies clean technology becomes an area of opportunity and also the innovation on these industries Bill what I feel I have just finished writing a book which is going to be published by Springer brought a few people together on innovative metallurgical processes from concept to commissioning so it is not in mention at the university but to reach it to the market place you need innovative principles in engineering, in environment financing, understanding the market so this is a book of Bill which will come out in a month's time on innovative because these industries are highly capital intensive innovation will pick you know Canada is blessed with a lot of resources but for us to compete in the international market place we have to have a competitive advantage nobody can take the war away from us but mining the war alone is not enough we have to have competitive technologies which are environmentally also very very sustainable we need to have processes which are economically advantageous but also environmentally what types of technologies have recently been developed by process research or tech that has to do with renewable technologies or sustainable development because that is big with you guys right now that's correct we a small company we just have about 25 people and it was formed only in 1999 we have developed technology which will be reaching the market place one we developed on titanium dioxide which can be used for which has specialty coming up making paints correct, early days so that is a unique technology which is environmentally friendly we have developed another technology for nickel latrides most of the sulphide holes are depleting so looking for the oxide holes that technology which is going to be commercialized then we have developed a technology on water where these industries consume a lot of water lot of energy so we have developed a technology for cleaning of the water and the demonstration plant is currently commissioned we have formed a joint venture with a major company in India so the pilot run and peak demonstration run at 1.5 million liters per day is currently running and then the entire objective is to take it to various places so water then we are doing another one on battery for energy storage so these are some examples I always come back to clean technology and separation technology our strength we feel is separation and understanding the basis what makes separation more efficient for someone who is not necessarily an expert in separation technology what is a good example of an application of separation technology give me an example Bell on this titanium dioxide commercially it is done by using thermal processing that is what people do but many a time there are some impurities and they are restrictive what feed materials they can use to use the technologies the technology we have developed is highly selective so impurities that we may have because when you talk about paint Bell you have to make sure the impurities are very very very low because white paint you will always see the color immediately so you have to make sure that you separate your impurities efficiently and using technologies like solid extraction Bell if I said to you my early years from a PHA I started with solid extraction at the age of 75 I still find opportunity for solid extraction but my understanding on the basic chemistry helps me to look for innovative ways of using this separation technologies in chemical engineering so that you obtain a product which gets this meeting market specification so what we need on titanium dioxide is an example similarly we have come up with a technology which is separate gold gold is when you dissolve it it is only a few PPM but it is with a lot of other impurities so selectively taking the gold from each solution you have to understand it and we have found a way of selectively taking the gold out and when I say PPM parts per million taking that from a bulk solution but all the other impurities like iron and various things there so these are some again the basic understanding of what is there and the solution chemistry and then bringing in the innovative processes and marrying this understanding of the basic principles with today in today's world you have new materials of construction available so we have come a long way when I started my career in 1966-67 and I worked for Chandra Johnson which is a company making a British company today I mean 2015 we were talking nearly 50 years and the industry had come to hate so when you talk about construction, simulation, modeling you know a lot of other things available so it helps you too but what is very very important as I see it Canada is a country blessed with a lot of resources and for us to sustain and compete in the international marketplace what is very very important is having a good strength on the basics and also bringing the modern technologies like simulation modeling and computer you know enabling technologies in the digitized world and innovation for this industry to sustain innovation and when you look upon that digitized world things Apple or other guys will come the shelf life is very short mining industry when you do something the shelf life is very very long the technology and some sector what they use may be 50 years old but as you go along the regulatory conditions may be much much more tighter and the feed material you may bring today may be much more complex so you have to be able to understand what you need to do so you have to be innovative and some of these things are in a distant location where infrastructure is very poor so you may have to do that and you also have in the digitized world you can be sitting in Toronto and may be able to run a plant whether it is Timmins or Newfoundland or Northwest because young people want to have the comfort in my days when it was a uranium city there were only 3000 people so when the mine closed all those 3000 people had no other job but today you've got to fly in and fly out people from Montreal work for Agnico Eagle in Nunavut so you know 2 weeks in 2 weeks out I have many friends from the East Coast who work in Alberta So today Bill the situation has changed for me to go to uranium city during those years I used to go to Edmonton International Airport go to Municipal Airport and take a DC-3, DC-4 go to uranium city but today Bill people working there from Saskatoon they could fly into whether Key Lake or McLean fly in and fly out in our time there is no direct flight from Saskatoon to anywhere but today of course you know we have come a long way so in the digital economy Bill for our industry the resource sector you know nobody can take away our wars from underground but Canada is in a unique position where we have Bay State financial visitors there we have things like PDAC happening we have people with good experience we have civil class engineering companies like hatch in Canada so you marry all these they are uniquely in an advantageous position for us in Canada to continue to create the knowledge jobs you know so mining is not just digging a hole in the ground and shoving it and taking it out but with our unique experience we can put the whole package together you know raise the finance from Bay State to what you can we have a PDAC that you are able to bring people together then of course you have hatch engineering or some other you know I am talking about Canadian engineering BVA and other people so we can create the knowledge jobs the unique advantage they can do is resources whether they talk about mining or energy they are blessed they have got the hydropower they have got fossil they have got nuclear they have got the energy and renewable also they are getting in Canadian solar and other companies so Canada is uniquely qualified but for our industry to sustain we have to invest in innovation we lost companies like Alcumbridge, Alcan Miranda, Inco history but for us to continue to survive I strongly feel we have got good companies we still have Barrick, Sherry, Tech our own Canadian companies they are like ego a lot of companies coming up and there will be a lot more opportunities but what is very important is they have to pay attention to innovation they have to understand the digitized world and then also the human capability and help them to maintain the quality of life Canada is the enemy of the world in terms of quality of life for us to maintain that, sustain that quality of life we have to invest in innovation we have to understand the whole thing and the industry can help us creating wealth and jobs Absolutely, you think it is an issue though that the general public, I am speaking generally does think of mining as simply holes in the ground and don't necessarily understand what goes into mining for example the finance, the research all of this stuff that most people first of all might not even know exist or at least not understand I think Bill this is a very good question what you are asking we ourselves have to do a lot more go and reach out to the communities and tell them all the good work we are doing you should go to mining companies normally there are a lot of good things happening underground even automation, all the trucks are going a lot of things are happening but we are not done enough probably to go and give the message we are creating the wealth, we have to go and tell people all the good work we do and we support communities in a very distant location and we should feel very proud of what we are doing Canada is not Toronto, Vancouver, Montreal we are supporting industries in chimneys industries in Nunavut or alone life and the mining industry is keeping Canada together jobs are not always in Toronto and Vancouver mining industry is not always in Vancouver, Valdor or Agrivo Eagle when they do in Nunavut or people from Montreal all the skilled workers from Montreal go and run the gold operation in Nunavut so they are uniquely qualified but maybe we have to take the message more and more to the community and tell them how blessed we are in Canada a bit more effort from the mining perspective that's my opinion that's true because in a second there is a hiccup or something that's what the media likes, they never like to share the good things it's not as interesting absolutely, we will look at what some of the companies have done companies like Barrick started as a small company today is one of the world's best and companies like Sherry in anywhere in the world you go they use Sherry technology so we should feel very very proud of Hatch one of the best engineering companies in the world and it is not just a booking manoeuvres Hatch does also technology so we have lots of gems amongst us and we have to go and tell this to the world how good we are and how we are aggressively saying we can deliver the solution efficiently question on a completely different topic here throw your career and that might have changed how present or absent were women but you started in chemistry which is unique maybe there were more women, I don't know can you say when I went to England my association with faculty of chemistry I moved on to Menace Engineering when I went to England see during those years I used to take myself and Alan Rosalor used to take students for field trips but in the cage they will never take women underground things are changing now so barely years engaging you know women in some of these department but things are changing even the university population you see a lot more women coming into engineering faculty you know many years back there was not the case so things are changing and also now you have got people from different parts of the world coming that also is giving you different perspective of how things are happening you know Peggy Witte who hired me to come to Anta Research Foundation you know she was a metallurgist and ready but not enough women women are say 50% of the population of women but that is not totally reflected in natural resources what are you proudest of in life let's say in your professional life if there's a few that's ok as well probable whether it's a great achievement or a patent or a company anything well two things I would say Bill one is getting a Ph.D in chemistry from Bombay University when I became a lecturer in house engineering in 1972 at Birmingham University I felt you know somebody coming with a chemistry degree from a foreign university getting recognized for in English that was something then the second thing Bill I failed is you know in Canada how Canada is very welcoming people coming from elsewhere and I was able to put together a team of people and form this company a small company but still the opportunity came and that company today is in the field of innovation for the knowledge economy so somebody who got off the boat in 1974 in this country has come a long way to participate in creating wealth and giving jobs so giving back to the community that I failed Bill is pretty rewarding Canada is one of the very few countries in the world where it could be doing and I also make it a point when I hire people new immigrants give them work experience then they can go anywhere they want then of course some of the other things what is happening now Bill using your technology whether it is you see these companies going to be producing titanium dioxide or nickel or water these are all things that you continuously passionately chase innovation and the innovation to make solution but these companies have to run, make money and happen that is a story but it is a process so till all these companies commission and run I cannot say anything but it is an opportunity to take it to the market what happens afterwards is do you still work full time you guys in these fields don't like to retire as long as you can continue to engage and be productive that is very important it is a private company and if you cannot fully keep yourself engaged and make it productive then you should just get out and tell how it is happening Alex McLean is director of my company so people like Alex he is an amazing guy very nice guy I interviewed him as well also I interviewed him with Alex it gives me an opportunity to meet his students what you have taught a few times now you have taught in Birmingham as well is there a specific class or a thing that you like to teach that really stays with you see in the area I focus on separation technologies separation technologies whether it is primary role or secondary with separation whether making a product or separation to make water clean or some solid materials on toxic so it is a separation technology but whether it is for environmental purpose or course and you know you know after on to the class I was doing environmental management second separation and if you were to speak to someone much younger like a student for example what would be the one piece of advice or life lesson you could give them right now about their professional future one thing I would say is you have to be a good team player you have to be very communicative the skills you learn in the university gives you you know a job but how you move on your job depends on how efficient are you in communicating and be a team player so you know one advice I would give to anybody is make sure that you work with people understand people and make the project a success you know enough that you are an Einstein but it should be more like Grisky working with people receiving the park and scoring so the team is winning you know I always compare tennis and hockey in tennis, McEnroe may be winning it is only McEnroe but when you go to hockey or basketball it is a team sport you have to have good feet so the guy can score put the puck so what is very important in today's world is soft skill is very important you need to have a strength in your mind but you also have to be a good team player cooperation very important thank you, is there anything else you would like to add or share something thank you very much thank you