CHAPTER 30 SAMMY Graduates The next day when young Stuart came, the books were all back on the shelf in the main room of the cabin, and Sammy dressed in a fresh gown of simple goods and fashion, with her hair arranged carefully as she had worn it the last two months before Ollie's coming, sat at the window reading. The man was surprised and a little embarrassed. Why, what have you been doing to yourself? he exclaimed. I have not been doing anything to myself. I have only done some things to my clothes and hair, returned the girl. Then he saw the books. Why, where did these come from? He crossed the room to examine the volumes. Do you—do you read all these? The shepherd has been helping me, she explained. Oh yes, I understood that you were studying with him. He looked at her curiously, as though they were meeting for the first time. Then as she talked to her studies, his embarrassment deepened, for he found himself foundering hopelessly before this clear-eyed, clear-brained, backwoods girl. Come, said Sammy at last, let us go for a walk. She led the way to her favorite spot, high up on the shoulder of Dewey, and there with Mutton Hollow at their feet and the big hills about them, with the long blue ridges in the distance beyond which lay Ollie's world. She told him what he feared to learn. The man refused to believe that he heard a rite. He do not understand, he protested, and he tried to tell her of the place in life that would be hers as his wife. In his shallowness he talked even of jewels and dresses and such things. But can all this add one thing to life itself, she asked? Is not life really independent of all these things? Do they not indeed cover up the real life and rob one of freedom? It seems to me that it must be so. He could only answer, but you know nothing about it. How can you? You have never been out of these woods. No, she returned, that is true. I have never been out of these woods, and you can never now get away from the world into which you have gone. She pointed to the distant hills. It is very, very far over there to where you live. I might indeed find many things in your world that would be delightful. But I fear that I should lose the things that, after all, are to me the really big things. I do not feel that the things that are the greatest in your life could bring happiness without that which I find here. And there is something here that can bring happiness without what you call the advantages of the world, to which you belong. What do you know of the world? He said roughly. Nothing, she said. But I know a little of life. But I have learned some things that I fear you have not. Beside, I know now that I do not love you. I have been slow to find the truth, but I have found it. And this is the one thing that matters that I found it in time. Did you reach this conclusion at the mill yesterday? He asked with a sneer. No, it came to me here on the rock last evening after you were gone. I heard a strange story. The story of a weak man, a strong man, and a God who was very kind. Ollie saw that further persuasion was of no avail, and as he left her she watched him out of sight for the last time. Along the trail that is nobody knows how old. When he was gone, in obedience to an impulse she did not try to understand. She ran down the mountain to the cabin in the hollow. Young Matt's cabin. And when the shepherd came in from the hills with his flock, he found the house in such order as only a woman's hand can bring. The table was set and his supper cooking on the stove. Dad, she asked, do you think I know enough now to live in the city? The old man's heart sank. It had come then. Bravely he concealed his feelings, as he assured her in the strongest terms that she knew enough and was good enough to live anywhere. Then, said Sammy, I know enough, even if I am not good enough, to live in the hills. The brown eyes deep under their shaggy brows were aglow with gladness, and there was a note of triumph in the scholar's voice as he said. Then you do not regret learning the things I have tried to teach you? You are sure you have no sorrow for the things you are losing? Regret? Dad, regret? The young woman drew herself up and lifted her arms. Oh, Dad, I see it all now, all that you have been trying in a thousand ways to teach me.  And the woman, Sammy, the woman? And they twain shall be one flesh. Then the master knew that his teaching had not been in vain. I can lead you no farther, my child, he said with a smile. You have passed the final test. She came close to him. Then I want my diploma, she said, for he had told her about the schools. Revernately the old scholar kissed her brow. This is the only diploma I am authorized to give, the love and homage of your teacher. And my degree?  The most honorable in all the world, a sure enough lady. CHAPTER XXXI. CASEL BUILDING. The corn was big enough to cultivate the first time, and young Matt with old Kate was hard at work in the field west of the house. It was nearly three weeks since the incident at the mill, since which time the young fellow had not met Sammy Lane to talk with her. He had seen her, though, at a distance nearly every day, for the girl had taken up her studies again, and spent most of her time out on the hills with the shepherd. That day he saw her as she turned into the mill-road at the lower corner of the field, on her way to the forks. And he was still thinking of her three hours later, as he sat on a stump in the shade of the forest's edge, while his horse was resting. Young Matt recalled the fight at the mill with a wild joy in his heart. Under any circumstances it was no small thing to have defeated the champion's strongman and terror of the hills. It was a glorious thing to have done the deed for the girl he loved, and under her eyes. Sammy might give herself to Ollie now and go far away to the great world, but she could never forget the man who had saved her from insult when her lover was far too weak to save even himself. And young Matt would stay in the hills alone, but always he would have the knowledge and the triumph of this thing that he had done. Yes, it would be easier now, but still—still the days would be years when there was no longer each morning the hope that somewhere before the day was gone he would see her. The sun fell hot and glaring on the hillside field, and in the air was the smell of the freshly turned earth. High up in the blue a hawk circled and circled again. A puff of air came sighing through the forest, touched lightly the green blades in the open, slipped over the ridge, and was lost in the sky beyond. Old Cate with head down was dreaming of cool springs and shady dells, and a little shiny brown lizard with a bright blue tail crept from under the bottom rail of the fence to see why the man was so still. The man turned his head quickly, the lizard dodged under the rail, and Old Cate awoke with a start. Someone was coming along the road below. Young Matt knew the step of that horse, as well as he knew the sound of Old Cate's bell, or the ney of his own sorrel. The brown pony stopped at the lower corner of the field, and a voice called, You'd better be at work! I don't believe you have plowed three rows since I passed! The big fellow went eagerly down the hill to the fence. I sure ought to have done better in that, for it's been long enough since you went by. I always noticed, though, that it gets a heap farther to the other side of the field and back about this time of day. What's new over to the forks? Sammy laughed. Couldn't hear a thing but how the champion-strong man was beaten at his own game. Uncle Ike says, Bah, thunders! You tell Young Matt that he'd better come over. A man what can ride wash-gibs a bug-hunting is too blamed good a man to stay at home all the time. We want him to tell us how he'd done it, Bah, thunders! We'll be gettin' a job with a government next, what? The man crossed his arm on the top rail of the worm-fence and laughed. It was good to have Sammy deliver her message in just that way. I reckon Uncle Ike thinks I ought to go dancin' all over the hills now, with a chip on my shoulder, he said. I don't think you'll do that, she returned. Dad, how it wouldn't, would he? But I must hurry on now or Daddy Supper won't be ready when he comes in. I stopped to give you these papers for your father, she handed him the package. And I want to thank you, Matt, for what you did at the mill. All my life you have been fighting for me, and I have never done anything for you. I wish I could do something, something that would show you how I care. Her voice faltered. He was so big and strong, and there was such a look of hopeless love and pain on his rugged face. A face that was as frank and open as a child's. Here was a man who had no need for the shallow cunning of little fox-like men. This one would go open and bold on his way, and that which he could not take by his strength he would not have. Had she not seen him in battle? Had she not seen his eyes like polished steel points? Deep down in her heart the woman felt a thrill of triumph that such a man should stand so before her. She must go quickly.  Here he watched until across the hollow he saw the pony and his rider come out of the timber and move swiftly along the ridge. Watched until they faded into a tiny spot. Rounded the mountain and disappeared from sight. Then lifting his eyes he looked away beyond the long blue line that marked the distant horizon. Someday he would watch Sammy ride away and she would go on and on and on, beyond that blue line, out of his life forever. Ollie had gone over there to live, and the shepherd had come from there. What was that world like, he wondered? Between the young man of the mountains and that big world yonder there had always been a closely shut door. He had seen the door open to Ollie, and now Sammy stood on the threshold. Would it ever open for him? And if it did what? Then came a thought that made his blood leap. Might he not force it open? The shepherd had told him of others who had done so.  But he stood in awe before Mr. Howett. He told himself now that he would look for and find the things yonder that made Dad the man he was. He would carry to the task his splendid strength. Nothing should stop him. And Sammy, when she understood that he was going away to be like the shepherd, would wait a while to give him his chance. Surely she would wait when he told her that. But how should he begin? Looking up again his eye caught a slow shifting patch of white on the bench above Lost Creek, where the little stream begins its underground course. The faint bark of a dog came to him through the thin still air, and the patch of white turned off into the trail that leads to the ranch. Dad, exclaimed the young man in triumph. Dad should tell him how. He had taught Sammy. And so while the sunlight danced on the green field, and old Kate slept in the lengthening shadows of the timber, the lad gave himself to his dreams and built his castles, as we all have builded. His dreaming was interrupted as the supper bell rang, and with the familiar sound a multitude of other thoughts came crowding in. The father and mother, they were growing old. Would it do to leave them alone with the graves on the hill yonder, and the mystery of the hollow? And there was the place to care for, and the mill. Who but young Matt could get work from the old engine? It was like the strong man that the fight did not last long. Young Matt's fights never lasted very long. By the time he had unhitched old Kate from the cultivator, it was finished. The lad went down the hill, his bright castles in ruin. Even as we all have gone, or must sometime go down the hill with our brightest castles in ruin. End of chapters 30 and 31. Chapters 32 and 33 of the Shepherd of the Hills. This Libber Box recording is in the public domain. Recording by Emily Jommard. The Shepherd of the Hills by Harold Bell Wright. Chapter 32. Preparation. That same night Mr. Lane told his daughter that he would leave home early the next morning to be gone two days. Jim was cleaning his big forty-five when he made the announcement. Sammy paused with one hand on the cupboard door to ask. With wash-gibbs, Daddy? No. I ain't going with wash, but I'll likely meet up with him before I get back. There was a hint of that metallic ring in the man's voice. The girl placed her armful of dishes carefully on the cupboard shelf. Your—you're not going to forget your promise, are you, Daddy Jim? The mountaineer was carefully dropping a bit of oil into the lock of his big revolver. No, girl, I ain't forgetting nothing. This year's the last ride I aim to take with wash. I'm going to see him, too. He paused and listened carefully to the click, click, click as he tested the action of his weapon. To keep my promise. Oh, Daddy, Daddy, I'm so glad. I wanted this more than I ever wanted anything in all my life before. You're such a good Daddy to me. I never could bear to see you with that bad, bad man. She was behind his chair now, and stooping laid her fresh young cheek against the swarthy furrowed face. The man sat like a grim stone image, his eyes fixed on the gun resting on his knees. Not until she lifted her head to stand erect behind his chair, with a hand on each shoulder. Did he find words? Girl, there's just one thing I've got to know for sure before I go to-morrow. I reckon I'm right, but somehow a man can't never tell about a woman in such things. Will you tell your Daddy, Sammy? Tell what, Daddy Jim? The girl asked, her hands stealing up to caress her father's face. What answer will you give to young Matt when he asks you what Ollie did? But why must you know that before you go to-morrow? Because I want to be plum-sure I ain't making no mistake in siding with the boy in this here trouble. You couldn't make a mistake in doing that, Daddy. No matter whether I—no matter what—but perhaps Matt will not ask me what Ollie did. Just a ray of humor touched the dark face. I ain't making no mistake there. I know what the man will do. He laid the gun upon the table, and reaching up caught the girl's hand. But I want to know what you'll say when he asks you. Tell me, honey, so I'll be plum-certain I'm doing right. Sammy lowered her head and whispered in his ear. Are you sure this time, girl? Dead-sure? Oh, I'm so sure that it seems as if I—I couldn't wait for him to come to me. I never felt this way before—never. The mountaineer drew his daughter into his arms and held her close, as he said. I ain't afraid to do it now, girl. The young woman was so occupied with her own thoughts and the emotions aroused by her father's question, that she failed to note the ominous suggestion that lay under his words, so she entered gaily into his plans for her during his two days' absence. Jim would leave early in the morning, and Sammy was to stay with her friend Mandy Ford over on Jake Creek. Mr. Lane had arranged with Jed Holland to do the milking, so there would be no reason for the girl's return until the following evening. And she must promise that she would not come home before that time. Sammy promised laughingly. He need not worry she and Mandy had not had a good visit alone for weeks. When his daughter had said good night, Jim extinguished the light, and slipping the big gun inside his shirt went to sit outside the cabin door with his pipe. An hour passed. Sammy was fast asleep. And still the man sat smoking. A half hour more went by. Suddenly the pipe was laid aside, and Jim's hand crept inside his shirt to find the butt of the revolver. His quick ear had caught the sound of a swiftly moving horse coming down the mountain. The horse stopped at the gate, and a low whistle came out of the darkness. Leaving his seat Sammy's father crossed the yard, and a moment later the horse with its rider was going on again down the trail toward the valley below and the distant river. Jim waited at the gate until the sound of the horse's feet had died away in the night. Then he returned to the cabin. But even as he walked toward the house, a dark figure arose from a clump of bushes within a few feet of the spot where Jim and the horsemen had met. The figure slipped noiselessly away into the forest. The next morning Jim carefully groomed and saddled the brown pony for Sammy. Jim leading his own horse ready for the road, he came to the cabin door. Going now, Daddy, said the girl, coming for the good-bye kiss.  Sammy was frightened at the sight of his face, so strange and white. Why, Daddy, Daddy Jim, what is the matter? Nothing, girl, nothing. Only you're so like your mother, girl. She used to come just this way when I'd be leaving. You're sure like her and I'm glad, I'm glad you're like the old folks, too. Remember now, stay at Mandy's until tomorrow evening. Kiss me again, honey. Goodbye. He mounted hurriedly and rode away at a brisk gallop, pulling up a moment at the edge of the timber he turned in the saddle to wave his hand to the girl in the cabin door. CHAPTER XXIII. A RIDE IN THE NIGHT. Sammy arrived at the Ford homestead in time for dinner, and was joyfully received by her friend Mandy. But early in the afternoon their pleasure was marred by a messenger from Long Creek on the other side of the river. Mrs. Ford's sister was very ill, and Mrs. Ford and Mandy must go at once. But Sammy can't stay here alone, protested the good woman. Mandy'll just have to stay. Indeed she shall not, declared their guest. I can ride up Jake Creek to the forks and stay all night at Uncle Ike's. Brownie will make it easily in time for supper. You just get your things on and start right away. You'd better hurry, too, put in Mr. Ford. There's a storm coming for Long, and we got to get across the river for it strikes. I'll be here with the horses by the time you get your bonnets on. He hurried away to the barn for his team, while the women with Sammy's assistance made their simple preparation. As Mother Ford climbed into the big wagon, she said to Sammy, It's an awful lonely old trip for you, child, and you must start right away so as to be sure to get there before it gets plum-dark. While Mr. Ford added as he started the team, your pony's ready saddled, and if you'll hurry along you can just bout make it.  Don't you worry about me, returned the girl. Brownie and I could find the way in the dark. But when her friends were gone, Sammy, womanlike, busied herself with setting the disordered house a right before she started on her journey. Watching the clouds, she told herself that there was plenty of time for her to reach the post office before the storm. It might not come that way at all, in fact. But the way up Jake Creek was wild and rough, and along the faint trail that twisted and wound like a slim serpent through the lonely wilderness, Brownie could make but slow time. As they followed the little path, the walls of the narrow valley grew steeper, more rocky and barren, and the road became more and more rough and difficult until at last the valley narrowed to a mere rocky gorge through which the creek ran, tumbling and foaming on its way. It was quite late when Sammy reached the point near the head of the stream where the trail leads out of the canyon to the road on the ridge above. It was still a good two miles to the forks. As she passed the spring a few big drops of rain came pattering down, and looking up she saw swaying and tossing in the wind the trees that fringed the ledges above, and she heard the roar of the oncoming storm. A short way up the side of the mountain at the foot of a great overhanging cliff, there is a narrow bench, and less than a hundred feet from where the trail finds its way through a break in the rocky wall, there is a deep cave like a hollow. Sammy knew the spot well. It would afford excellent shelter. Pushing Brownie up the steep path she had reached this bench when the rushing storm cloud shut out the last of the light, and the hills shook with a deafening crash of thunder. Distinctively the girl turned her pony's head from the trail, and following the cliff reached the sheltered nook just as the storm burst in all its wild fury. The rain came down in torrents, the forest roared, and against the black sky in an almost continuous glare of lightning the big trees tugged and strained in their wild wrestle with the wind, while peel after peel of thunder, rolling, crashing, reverberating through the hills, added to the uproar. It was over in a little while. The wind passed, the thunder rumbled and growled in the distance, and the rain fell gently, but the sky was still lighted by the red glare. Though it was so dark that Sammy could see the trees and rocks only by the lightning's flash, she was not frightened. She knew that Brownie would find the way easily, and as for the heading, she would soon be laughing at that with her friends at the post-office. But as the girl was on the point of moving, a voice said, It's a mighty good thing for us this old ledge happened to be here, ain't it? It was a man's voice. And another replied, Right you are! And it's a good thing, too, that this blow came early in the evening. The speakers were between Sammy and the trail. They had evidently sought shelter from the storm a few seconds after the girl had gained her position. In the wild uproar she had not heard them, and as they crouched under the cliff they were hidden by a projection of the rock, though now and then when the lightning flashed, she could see a part of one of the horses. They might be neighbors and friends. They might be strangers. Outlaws even. The young woman was too wise to move until she was sure. The first voice spoke again. Back got off in good time, did he? Got a good start, replied the other. He ought to be back with the posse by ten at the latest. I told him we would meet them at nine where this trail comes into the big road. And how far do you say it is to Jim Lane's place by the road in the old trail? Asked the first voice.  Posse! That could only mean one thing, officers of the law. But her father's name and her home, in an instant Jim's strange companionship with wash-gibs, their long mysterious rides together, her father's agitation that morning when he said goodbye, with a thousand other things rushed through her mind. What terrible thing was this that she had happened upon in the night? What horrible trap had they set for her daddy, her daddy Jim? Or trap it was. It could be nothing else. At any risk she must hear more. She had already lost the other man's reply. Calming herself the girl listened eagerly for the next word. A match cracked. The light flared out and a whiff of tobacco smoke came curling around the rock as one of the men said, Are you sure there is no mistake about their meeting at Lane's tonight? Can't possibly be, came the answer. I was lying in the brush right by the gate when the messenger got there, and I heard Jim give the order myself. Take it all the way through, unless we make a slip tonight, it will be one of the prettiest cases I ever saw. Yes, said the other, but you mustn't forget that it all hinges on whether or not that bank-watchman was right in thinking he recognized wash-gibs. The man couldn't be mistaken there, returned the other. There is not another man in the country the size of gibs, but the two math-huses, and of course they're out of the question. Then look, Jim Lane was ready to move out because of the drought, when all at once, after being away several days, the very time of the robbery, he changes his mind and stays with plenty of money to carry him through. And now here we are tonight, with that same old bald-knobber gang, what's left of them, called together in the same old way by Jim himself, to meet in his cabin. Take my word for it, we'll bag the whole outfit with the rest of the swag before morning. It's as sure as fate. I'm glad that girl is away from home, though. Sammy had heard enough. As the full meaning of the officer's words came to her, she felt herself swaying dizzily in the saddle and clung blindly to the pony's mane for support.  Ride. Ride. Ride. Never for an instant did Sammy doubt her father. It was all some horrible mistake. Her daddy Jim would explain it all, of course he would, if, if she could only get home first. But the men were between her and the path that led to the road. Then all at once she remembered that young Matt had told her how Jeek Creek Hollow headed in the pinery below the ridge along which they went from Fall Creek to the Forks. It might be that this bench at the foot of the ledge would lead to a way out. As quick as thought the girl slipped to the ground and taking brownie by the head began feeling her way along the narrow shelf. Dead leaves, tangled grass and ferns, all wet and sodden, made a soft carpet, so that the men behind the rock heard no sound. Now and then the lightning revealed a glimpse of the way for a short distance, but mostly she trusted blindly to her pony's instinct. Several times she stumbled over jagged fragments of rock that had fallen from above, cutting her hand and bruising her limbs cruelly. Once she was saved from falling over the cliff by her little horse's refusal to move. A moment she stood still in the darkness, then the lightning showed away past the dangerous point. After a time that seemed ours she noticed that the ledge had become no higher than her head, and that a little farther on the bench was lost in the general slope of the hill. She had reached the head of the Hollow. A short climb up the side of the mountain and pushing through the wet bushes she found herself in the road. She had saved about three miles. It was still nearly five to her home. An instant later the girl was in her saddle and the brown pony was running his best. Sammy always looked back upon that ride in the darkness and indeed upon all that happened that night as to a dream of horror. As she rode that other night came back to her. The night she had ridden to save the shepherd and she lived over again that evening in the beautiful woods with young Matt. Oh, if he were only with her now! Unconsciously at time she called his name aloud again and again, keeping time to the beat of her pony's feet. At other times she urged Brownie on, and the little horse feeling the spirit of his mistress, answered with the best he had to give. With eager outstretched head and wide nostrils he ran as though he understood the need. How dark it was! At every bound they seemed plunging into a black wall. What if there should be a tree blown across the road? At the thought she grew faint, she saw herself lying senseless, and her father carried away to prison. Then rallying she held her seat carefully. She must make it as easy as possible for Brownie. Dear little Brownie! How she strained her eyes to see into the black night! How she prayed God to keep the little horse! Only once in a lifetime it seemed to her did the pony's iron shoe strike sparks of fire from the rocks, or the lightning give her a quick glimpse of the road ahead. They must go faster, faster, faster! Those men should not! They should not have her daddy Jim! Not unless Brownie stumbled. Where the road leaves the ridge for Fall Creek Valley, Brownie never tightened the slack rain, and the pony never shortened his stride by so much as an inch. It was well that he was hillbred, for none but a mountain horse could have kept his feet at such a terrific pace down the rocky slope. Down the valley road, past the mill, and over the creek they flew, then up the first rise of the ridge beyond. The pony was breathing hard now, and the girl encouraged him with loving words and endearing terms, pleading with him to go on, go on. At last they reached the top of the ridge. The way was easier now. Here and there where the clouds were breaking the stars looked through, but over the distant hills the lightning still played, showing which way the storm had gone, and against the sky now showing but dimly under ragged clouds and peeping stars. Now outlined clearly against the flashing light, she saw the round tree-less form of old Dewey above her home. Sammy on her tired pony approached the lookout on the shoulder of Dewey. As they drew near a figure rose quickly from its place on the rock, and running swiftly along the ledge concealed itself in the clump of cedars above the trail on the southern side of the mountain. A moment later the almost exhausted horse and his rider passed, and the figure slipping from the ledge followed them unobserved down the mountain. During the house Sammy began to wonder what she should do next. With all her heart the girl believed in her father's innocence. She did not know why those men were at her home, but she did know that the money that helped her father over the drought had come through the shepherd. The Matthews family, too, had been helped the same way. Surely Dad Howard was incapable of any crime. It was all some terrible mistake, some trap from which her father must be saved. But Sammy knew, too, that Wash Gibbs and his companions were bad men, who might easily be guilty of the robbery. To help them escape the officers was quite a different matter. Leaving the trembling brownie in a clump of bushes a little way from the clearing, the girl went forward on foot, and behind her still crept the figure that had followed from the lookout. Once the figure paused as if undecided which course to pursue. Just by two saddle-horses that had carried their riders on many a long ride were tied to a tree a few feet from the corner of the barn. Sammy would have recognized these, but in her excitement she had failed to notice them. At first the girl saw no light. Could it be that the officers were wrong, that there was no one at the cabin after all? Then a little penciled gleam set her heart throbbing wildly. Sammy remembered that a few days before a bit of chinking had fallen from between the logs in the rear of the cabin. She had spoken to her father about it, but it was not likely that he had remembered to fix it. Cautiously she passed around the house, and creeping up to the building, through the crevice between the logs, gained a clear view of the interior. Seated or lounging on chairs and on the floor about the room were eleven men. One, the man who had been with wash-gibbs at the mill, carried his arm in a sling. The girl outside could hear distinctly every word that was spoken. Wash himself was speaking. Well, boys, we're all here. Let's get through and get away. Bring out the stuff, Jim. Mr. Lane went to one corner of the cabin, and pulling up a loose board of the flooring drew out two heavy sacks. As he placed the bags on the table, the men all rose to their feet. There it is, just as you give it to me, said Jim. But before you go any farther, men, I've got something to say. The company stirred uneasily, and all eyes turned from Jim to their big leader, while Sammy noticed for the first time that the table had been moved from its usual place, and that her father had taken such a position that the corner of the cabin was directly behind him, with the table in front. For her life the girl could not have moved. Slowly Jim swept the group of scowling, wondering faces on the other side of the table. Then, in his slow, drawing speech, he said, Most of you here was in the old organization. Tom and Ed and me knows how it started a way back. For we was in it at the beginning. Shere was the last man to join, for we was busted. And he was the youngest member, too. Being only a boy, but big for his age. You remember how he was taken in on account of his dad he's being killed by the government. Didn't every one of us fellers that started it ever think the bald nabbers would get to be what they did. We began it as a kind of protection, times being wild then. But first we knowed some was a use in the order to protect themselves in all kinds of devilment. And things went on that way. Because nobody didn't dare say anything. For if they did, they was tried as traitors and sentenced to the death. I ain't a saiyan boys that I was any better than lots of others, for I reckon I'd done my share. But when my girl's mother died, a way down there in Texas, I promised her that I'd be a good daddy to my little one. And since then I'd done the best I know. After things quieted down, and I come back with my girl, Wash here got the old crowd what was left of us together, and wanted to reorganize again. I told you then that I'd go in with you, and stand by the old oath, so long as it was necessary to protect ourselves from them that might be trying to get even for what had been done. But that I wouldn't go no farther.  That I went in because I knowed what you'd do for me if I didn't. And I didn't dare risk leaving my girl all alone then. I've tended every meeting, and done everything I agreed. And there ain't a man here who can say I ain't. Some of the men nodded. And that's so. And you're right, Jim. Came from two or three. Jim went on. You know that I voted against it. And tried to stop you when you hung old man Louis. I thought then, and I think yet, that it was spite work and not protection. And you know how I was against going for the shepherd. And you went when I didn't know it. As for this here bank business, I didn't even know of it, till you give me the stuff here for me to keep for you. I had to take it, count of the oath. It's got to be just like it was before. We come together first to keep each other posted, and save ourselves if there was any call to. And little by little, you've been led into first one thing and then another, till you're every bit and grain as bad as the old crowd was. Only there ain't so many of you.  Jim paused. There was an ominous silence in the room. With his eyes covering every scowling face in the company, Jim spoke again. But things has changed for me right smart since our last meeting. When you give me this stuff to hold, you boys all know how I've kept wash-gibs away from my girl. And there ain't one of you that don't know I'm right, know in him as we do. More than two weeks ago when I wasn't around, he insulted her, and would have done worse if young Matt hadn't been there to take care of her. I called you here tonight, because I know that after what happened at the mill, Wash and Bill would be having a meeting as soon as they could get around and vote me all to go against young Matt and his people. But I'm going to have my say first. Wash-gibs reached stealthily for his weapon, but hesitated when he saw that the dark-faced man noted his movement. Jim continued in his drawing-tones, but his voice rang cold and clear. I ain't never been mealy-mouthed with no man, and I'm too old to begin now. I know the law of the order, and I reckon Gibbs there will try to have you keep it. You boys have got to say whether you'll stand by him or me. It looks like you was going to go with him all right. But whether you do or don't, I don't aim to stay with nobody that stands by such as Wash-gibs. I'm going to side with decent folks, who have stood by my girl, and you can do your damnedest. You take this stuff away from here.  As he finished, Jim stood with his back to the corner of the room, his hand inside of the hickory shirt where the button was missing. While her father was speaking, Sammy forgot everything. In the wild joy and pride of her heart. He was her daddy, her daddy Jim, that man standing so calmly there before the wild company of men. Whatever the past had been, he had wiped it clean tonight. He belonged to her now, all to her. She looked toward Wash-gibs. Then she remembered the posse, the officers of the law. They could not know what she knew. If her father was taken with the others and with the stolen gold, he would be compelled to suffer with the rest. Yet if she called out to save him, she would save Wash-gibs and his companions also, and they would menace her father's life day and night. The girl drew back from the window. She must think. What should she do? Even as she hesitated, a score of dark forms crept swiftly, silently toward the cabin. At the same moment a figure left the side of the house near the girl, and crouching low ran to the two horses that were tied near the barn. Sammy was so dazed that for a moment she did not grasp the meaning of those swiftly moving forms. Then a figure riding one horse and leading another dashed away from the barn and across a corner of the clearing. The silence was broken by a pistol shot in the cabin. Like an echo came a shot from the yard, and a voice rang out sharply. Halt! The figure reeled in the saddle as if to fall, but recovered and disappeared in the timber. The same instant there was a rush toward the house, a loud call to surrender, a woman scream. And then came to Sammy, blessed, kindly darkness. CHAPTER 35 I WILL LIFT UP MINE EYES INTO THE HILLS When Sammy opened her eyes she was on the bed in her own room. In the other room someone was moving about, and the light from a lamp shown through the door. At first the girl thought that she had awakened from a night's sleep, and that it was her father whom she heard, building the fire before calling her, as his custom was. But no, he was not building the fire, he was scrubbing the floor. How strange! She would call presently and ask what he meant by getting up before daylight, and whether he thought to keep her from scolding him by trying to clean up what he had spilled before she should see it. She had had a bad dream of some kind. But she could not remember just what it was. It was very strange that something seemed to keep her from calling to her father just then. She would call presently. She must remember first what that dream was. She felt that she ought to get up and dress, but she did not somehow wish to move. She was strangely tired. It was her dream, she supposed. Then she discovered that she was already fully dressed, and that her clothing was wet, muddy, and torn. And with this discovery every incident of the night came vividly before her. She hid her face. After a while she tried to rise to her feet. But fell back weak and dizzy. Who was that in the other room? Could it be her father? Could he never finish scrubbing the floor in that corner? When she could bear the suspense no longer she called in a voice that sounded weak and far away. Daddy! Oh, Daddy! Instantly the noise ceased, a step crossed the room, and the shepherd appeared in the doorway.  He spoke no word, but in his touch there was a world of tenderness. Sammy looked at him in wonder. Where had he come from? Why was he there at all? And in her room? She glanced uneasily about the apartment and then back to the kind face of her old teacher. I don't think I understand. Never mind now, dear. Don't try to understand just yet. Aunt Molly will be here in a few minutes. Matt has gone for her. When she comes and you are a little stronger we shall talk. The girl caught his hand. You won't leave me, Dad? You won't leave me alone? I'm afraid, Dad. I never was before. No, no, my child, I shall not leave you. You must have something warm to drink. I have been preparing it. He stepped into the other room soon returning with a steaming cup. When she had finished the strengthening draught, young Matt with his mother and father arrived. While helping the girl into clean dry clothing, Aunt Molly spoke soothingly to her, as one would reassure a frightened child. But Sammy could hear only the three men, moving about in the other room, doing something and talking always in low tones. She did not speak but in her brown eyes that never left the older woman's face was that wide questioning look. When Mrs. Matthews had done what she could for the comfort of the girl and the men had finished whatever they were doing in the other room, Sammy said, Aunt Molly, I want to know. I must know. Won't you tell Dad to come, please? Instinctively she had turned to a teacher. When the shepherd came she met him with the old familiar demand. Tell me everything, Dad, everything. I want to be told all about it. You will be brave and strong, Sammy?  Then she answered, I will be brave and strong. But first please open the window, Dad. He threw up the sash. It was morning and the mists were over the valley, but the mountaintops were bathed in light. Sammy arose and walked steadily to a chair by the open window. Looking out upon the beautiful scene her face caught the light that was on the higher ground, and she said softly, I will lift up mine eyes and to the hills. That's our word now, isn't it, Dad? I can share it with you, now. Then the shepherd told her, young Matt had been at the ranch with Mr. Howitt since early in the evening, and was taking his leave for the night when they heard horses stopping at the corral and a voice calling. Upon their answering the voice said, There's trouble at Jim Lane's. Take these horses and go quick. And then as they had run from the house the messenger had retreated into the shadow of the bluff saying, Never mind me, if you love Sammy, hurry. At this they mounted and had ridden as fast as possible. The old man did not tell the girl that he had found his saddle wet and slippery, and that when he reached the light his hands were red. They had found the officers ready to leave with their prisoners, all but two of the men were captured with their booty. Wash Gibbs alone escaping badly hurt. They thought after killing one of the posse. When they had asked for Sammy one of the officers told them that she was at Fords over on Jake Creek, but another declared that he had heard a woman scream as they were making the attack. Young Matt had found her unconscious on the ground behind the cabin. When the shepherd finished his brief account the girl said, Tell me all, Dad. I want to know all. Did they take Daddy away? The old man's eyes were dim as he answered gently. No dear girl, they did not take him away. Then Sammy knew why Dad had scrubbed the cabin floor and what the three men who talked so low had been doing in the other room. She made no outcry, only a moan as she looked away across the silent hills and the valley where the mists were slowly lifting, lifting slowly like the pale ghost of the starlight that was. Oh, Daddy, Daddy Jim. You sure kept your promise. You sure did. I'm glad, glad they didn't get you, Daddy. They never would have believed what I know. Never, never. But there were no tears and the shepherd, seeing after a little, touched her hand. Everything is ready, dear. Would you like to go now? Not just yet, Dad. I must tell you first how I came to be at home, and why I am glad—oh, so glad that I was here. But call the others, please. I want them all to know. When the three who with her teacher loved her best had come, Sammy told her story, repeating almost word for word what she had heard her father say to the men. When she had finished, she turned her face again to the open window. The mists were gone, the landscape lay bright in the sun, but Sammy could not see. It is much better—so much better as it is, my child, said the old scholar. You see, dear, they would have taken him away. Nothing could have saved him. It would have been a living death behind prison walls away from you. Yes, I know, Dad. I understand. It is better as it is. Now we will go to him, please. They led her into the other room. The floor in the corner of the cabin where the shepherd had washed it was still damp. Through it all, Sammy kept her old friend constantly by her side. It is easier, Dad, when you were near, nor would she leave the house until it was all over, safe to walk a little way with her teacher. King Matt and his father made the coffin of rough boards sought at the mill, and from the country round about the woods people came to the funeral, or as they called it in their simple way—the burying. The grave was made in a little glen not far from the house. When some of the neighbors would have brought a minister from the settlement, Sammy said, No. Dad would say all that was necessary. So the shepherd, standing under the big trees, talked a little in his simple kindly way, and spoke the words, Earth to earth, dust to dust, ashes to ashes. As good, declared some, as any preacher on earth could have done it. The one or two held, it warn't just right to put a body in the ground without a regular parson to preach the sermon. When the last word was spoken and the neighbors had gone away over the mountains and through the woods to their homes, Aunt Molly with her motherly arm about the girl said, Come, honey, you're our girl now. As long as you stay in the hills you shall stay with us. And old Matt added, You're the only daughter we've got, Sammy, and we want you a heap worse than you know. When Sammy told them that she was not going to the city to live, they cried an answer. Then you shall be our girl always. And they took her home with them to the big log house on the ridge. For a week after that night at the Lane Cabin, Pete was not seen. When at last he did appear it was to the shepherd on the hill, and his voice and manner alarmed Dad. But the boys only replied to Mr. Howett's question was. Pete knows. Pete knows. Then in his own way he told something that sent the shepherd to young Matt, and the two followed the lad to a spot where the buzzards were flying low through the trees. By the shreds of clothing and the weapons lying near, they knew that the horrid thing from which as they approached, carrion birds flapped their wings in heavy flight. Was all that remained of the giant, Wash Gibbs. Many facts were brought out at the trial of the outlaws, and it was made clear that Jim Lane had met his death at the hands of Wash Gibbs, just at the beginning of the attack, and that Gibbs himself had been wounded a moment later by one of the attacking posse. Thus does justice live, even in the hills. CHAPTER 36 Mr. Matthews and his son first heard of the stranger through Lou Gordon, the mail-carrier, who stopped at the mill on his way to flag with the week's mail. The native rode close to the shed, and waited until the saw had shrieked its way through the log of oak, and the carriage had rattled back to first position. Then with the dignity belonging to one of his station, as a government officer, he relieved his overcharged mouth of an astonishing quantity of tobacco, and drawled. HOWDY, MEN Howdy, Lou, returned young Matt from the engine, and old Matt from the saw. Wrecking them boards is for a floor in Joe Gardner's new cabin. Yes, returned old Matt. We ought to got him out last week, but seems like we couldn't get at it with the burying and all.  Punchin' floors used to be good enough for anybody to dance on. Be a buildin' board houses next, I reckon. Mr. Matthews laughed. Bring your logs over to Fall Creek when you get ready to build, Lou. We'll sure do you right. The representative of the government recharged his mouth. Loud is how I would, he returned. I ain't one of this here kind that don't want to see no changes. Governments all the time make improvements. Inspector Loud last trip we'd be sure gettin' mail twice a week at flag next summer.  Talkin' about newfangled things, though, men. I see the blame to sight last night that ever was in these woods, I reckon. Agonies! It was a plumb wonder. Kicking one foot from the wooden stirrup and hitching sideways in the saddle, he prepared for an effort. Little feller he is. Ain't as tall as Preachin' Bill, even. And fat! Agonies!  He don't walk. Can't. Just naturally waddles on them little duck legs of hisen. And he's got the prettiest little old face, all red and white, and round as a walnut, and a fringe of the widest hair you ever see'd. And clothes, same, men. In the pause the speaker deliberately relieved his overcharged mouth. The two in the mill waited breathlessly. Long-tailed coat, stove-pipe hat, and cane with a gold head as big as a tater.  And doons, my lord and mighty! The thin form of the native doubled up as he broke into a laugh that echoed and re-echoed through the little valley. Ending in a wild whoopee! Say, when he got out of the hack last night at the forks, uncle like he catch'd side of him and says, says he to me, Ba thunders, Lou, looky there. Talk about prosperity. I'm dumbed if there ain't old Santa Clausa coming to the forks in the summertime. Ba thunders, what? And when Santa come in he wanted, now what do you reckon he wanted? A bath. Yes, sirree. Dad burned me if he didn't. A bath. Whoopee, you ought to see, Uncle Ike! He told him, Ba thunders.  But he beat pison by rattlers, clawed by wild cats, chowed by the hogs, et by buzzards, and everlastingly dammed, for he tote water enough for anybody to swim in. Ba thunders, what? What's he doing here? Asked Mr. Matthews, when the mountaineer had recovered from another explosion. Lou shook his head as he straightened himself in the saddle. Blame me if I can tell. Just wouldn't tell tall last night? Want it a bath? Call Uncle Ike some new-fangled kind of a savage, and the old man loud he'd show him. He'd sure have him persecuted for sultan a government servant when the inspector come around. Yes, he did. Ho, there was doons at the forks last night. Again the mail-carriers laugh, echoed through the woods. Well, I must mosey along. He warn't up this morning when I left. Some he'll show up round here, some time for a sundown. Him and Uncle Ike won't hitch worth a cent, and he'll be hunting prouder folks. I done told the old man he'd better hurt him for a spell, for if he was to get loose in these woods there wouldn't be ne'er dear or bare left come thanks-given time. Uncle Ike said, Ba thunders he'd let me know that he warn't run in no-demned asylum. He loud he was a postmaster, Ba thunders, and had all he could do to keep the dad-burned government straight. But that afternoon loose prophecy was fulfilled. A wagon going down the creek with a load of supplies for the distillery stopped at the mill shed, and the stranger began climbing carefully down over the wheels. Bud Wilson on his high seat winked and nodded at Mr. Matthews and his son, as though it was the greatest joke of the season. Hold those horses, driver. Hold them tight. Tight, sir. Got a mister, responded Bud promptly. The mules stood with drooping heads and sleepy eyes, the lines under their feet. The gentleman was feeling carefully about the hub of the wheel with a foot that, stretches he might, could not touch it by a good six inches. That's right, men, right, he puffed. Hold them tight, tight. Start now, break a leg shore, shore. Then what would Sarah and the girls do? Oh, blast it all, where is that step?  Bring a ladder, bring a high chair, a table, a box, a big box, a... Look out, I say, look out. Blast it all, what do you mean? The last was called forth by young Matt lifting the little man bodily to the ground, as an ordinary man would lift a child. To look up at the young giant the stranger tipped back his head until his shining silk hat was in danger of falling in the dirt.  Then with a twinkle in his eye, which one of the boys are you, anyway? At this the three mountaineers roared with laughter. With his dumpy figure in the long coat and his round face under the tall hat the little man was irresistible. He fairly shone with good humor. His cheeks were polished like big red apples. His white hair had the luster of silver.  That's him, Doc, called the driver. That's the fella what Wallard Wash Gibbs like I was telling you. Strongest man in the hills he is. Dad burned me if I believe he knows how strong he is. Doc? Doc? Dad burned, Doc, muttered the stranger. What would Sarah and the girls say? He waddled to the wagon and reached up one fat hand with half a dollar to Bud. Here, driver, here. Get cigars with that. Cigars, mind you, or candy. I stay here. Mind you don't get anything to drink. Nothing to drink, I say.  Nary a drink, Doc, nary a drink. Thank you kindly all the same. Got to mosey long to the still now, ought to have been there hour ago. If I can do anything for you, just let me know. I'll live over on Salkoon Gap, when I'm to home. Come over and visit with me, young Matt there'll guide you. As he watched the wagon down the valley, the stranger mused, Doc, Doc, huh? Quite sure that fella will buy a drink, quite sure. When the wagon had disappeared, he turned to Mr. Matthews and his son. According to that fellow, I am not far from a sheep ranch kept by a Mr. Howatt. That's it, Mr. Daniel Howatt. Fine-looking man, fine, brown eyes, great voice, gentlemen, sir, gentlemen.  Know him? The mention of Mr. Howatt's name, young Matt had looked at his father quickly. When the stranger paused, he answered, Yes, sir, we know Dad Howatt. Is he a friend of yours? Dad. Dad Howatt. Doc and Dad. Well, what would Sarah and the girls say? Friend of mine? Young man Daniel and David. I'm David. Daniel and David lay on the same blanket when they were babies, played in the same alley, school together, same classes, college together, next door name. Know him? Last at all, where is this sheep-place? Again the two woodsmen exchanged glances. The elder Matthew spoke. It ain't so far from here, sir. The ranch belongs to me and my son, but Mr. Howatt will be out on the hills somewhere with the sheep now. He'd better go home with us and have supper, and the boy will take you down this evening. Well, now, that's kind, sir, very kind indeed. Man at the post office is a savage, sir, blasted old incorrigible savage. My name is Coughlin, Dr. David Coughlin, of Chicago. Practicing physician for forty years. Don't do anything now. Not much that is. Sarah and the girls won't let me. Your name, sir? Grant Matthews. My boy there has the same. We're mighty glad to meet any friend of Dad's, I can tell you. He's sure been a God's blessing to this neighborhood. Soon they started homeward, young Matt going ahead to do the chores and to tell his mother of their coming guest, while Mr. Matthews followed more slowly with the doctor. Shortening his stride to conform to the slow pace of the smaller man, the Mountaineer told his guest about the shepherd, how he had come to them, of his life, and how he had won the hearts of the people. When he told how Mr. Howatt had educated Sammy, buying her books himself from his meager wages, the doctor interrupted in his quick way. Just like him, just like him, always giving away everything he earned, made others give too. Blasted all he's cost me thousands of dollars, thousands of dollars treating patients of his that never paid a cent. Not a cent, sir. Proud, though. Proud is Lucifer. Fine old family, finest in the country, sir. Right to be proud, right to be. Old Matt scowled as he returned coldly. He sure don't seem that way to us, Mr. He's as common as an old shoe. And the Mountaineer told how his son loved the shepherd, and tried to explain what the old scholar's friendship had meant to them. The stranger ejaculated. Same old thing, same old trick, did me that way, does everybody that way. Same old Daniel, proud, though, can't help it, can't help it. The big man answered with still more warmth. You ought to hear how he talks to us folks when we have meetings at the cove schoolhouse. He's as good as any preacher you ever heard, except that he don't put on as much, maybe. Why, sir, when we buried Jim Lane week before last, everybody loud he'd done as well as a regular parson. At this doctor Coughlin stopped short and leaned against a convenient tree for support. Looking up at his big host, with merry-ment he could not hide. Parson? Parson? Daniel Howatt talked as good as a parson. Blessed all, Dan is one of the biggest D.D.'s in the United States. As good as a parson, I should think so. Why, man, he's my pastor, my pastor. Biggest church, greatest crowds in the city. Well, what would Sarah and the girl say? He stood there gasping and shaking with laughter, until old Matt, standing the ridiculous side of the situation, joined in with a guffaw that fairly drowned the sound of the little man's merry-ment. When they finally moved on again, the doctor said, and you never knew? The papers were always full, always. His real name is—Stop! Old Matt spoke so suddenly, and in such a tone that the other jumped in alarm. I ain't a mean and no harm, Doc, but you oughtn't tell his name, and—anyway, I don't want to know. Sure or no, preacher, he's a man, he is. And that's what counts in this here country. If Dad had wanted us to know about himself, I reckon he'd had told us, and I don't want to hear it until he's ready. The doctor stopped short again. Right, sir, right. Daniel has his reasons, of course, I forgot. That savage at the post office tried to interrogate me, tried to draw me. I was close, on guard, you see. Fellow in the wagon tried, still on guard. You caught me.  Find specimen that boy of yours, fine. When they reached the top of the ridge, the stranger looked over the hills with exclamations of delight. Grand, sir, grand. Wish Sarah and the girls could see. Don't wonder, Daniel stayed. That hollow down there, you say? Way down there? Mutton? Mutton Hollow? Daniel lives there? Blast it all. Come on, man, come on. As they drew near the house, Pete came slowly up the old trail and met them at the gate. Chapter thirty-seven. Old friends. After supper, young Matt guided the stranger down the trail to the sheep-wrench in Mutton Hollow. When they reached the edge of the clearing, the mountaineer stopped. Yonder's the cabin, sir, and Dad is there as you can see by the smoke. I don't reckon you'll need me any more now, and I'll go back. We'll be mighty glad to see you on the ridge any time, sir. Any friend of Dad's is mighty welcome in this neighborhood. Thank you. Thank you. Very thoughtful. Very thoughtful indeed. Fine spirit. Fine. I shall see you again when Daniel and I have had it out. Blast it all. What is he doing here? Good night, young man. Good night. He started forward impetuously. Matt turned back toward home. The dog barked as Dr. Coughlin approached the cabin, and the shepherd came to open the door. He had been washing the supper-dishes. His coat was off, his shirt open at the throat, and his sleeves rolled above his elbows. Here, brave! The deep voice rolled across the little clearing, and the dog ran to stand by his master's side. Then as Mr. Howitt took in the unmistakable figure of the little physician, he put out a hand to steady himself. Oh, it's me, Daniel. It's me. Caught you, didn't I? Blast it all. Might have known I would. Bound to. Bound to, Daniel. Been at it ever since I lost you. Visiting in Kansas City last week with my old friends, the stewards. Young fellow there, Ollie, put me right. First part of your name, description, voice, and all that? Knew it was you. Knew it. Didn't tell them, though. Blasted reporters go wild. Didn't tell a soul, not a soul. There and the girls think I'm in Kansas City, or Denver. Didn't tell old man Matthews, either. Came near, though, very near. Blast it all. What does it mean? What does it all mean? In his excitement, the little man spoke rapidly as he hurried toward the shepherd. When he reached the cabin, the two friends, so different, yet so alike, clasped hands. As soon as the old scholar could speak, he said, David, David. To think that this is really you. You of all men. You whom I most needed. Huh! Granted the other.  Look fit for anything. Anything. Ten years younger, every bit of ten years. Blast it all. What have you done to yourself? What have you done? He looked curiously at the tanned face and rude dress of his friend. Blast my soul. What a change. What a change. Told Matthews you were an aristocrat. He wouldn't believe it. Don't wonder. Doubt at myself now. The other smiled at the doctor's amazement. I suppose I have changed some, David. The hills have done it. Look at them. He pointed to the encircling mountains. See how calm and strong they are. How they lift their heads above the gloom. They are my friends and companions, David. And they have given me of their calmness and strength a little. But come in, come in. You must be very tired. How did you come? The doctor followed him into the cabin. Railroad, hack, wagon, walked. Post office last night. Man there is a savage, blasted, incorrigible savage. Mill this afternoon, home with your friends on the ridge. Old man is a gentleman, a gentleman, sir, if ever God made one. His boys like him. The mother, she's a real mother, made to be a mother, couldn't help it. In that young woman with the boy's name, bless my soul, I never saw such a creature before, Daniel, never. If I had I, I. Blasted all I wouldn't be bossed by Sarah and the girls, I wouldn't. See in that young man and woman what God meant men and women to be. Told them they ought to marry, that they owed it to the race. You know my ideas, Daniel. Think they will? The shepherd laughed, a laugh that was good to hear. What's the matter now, Daniel? What is the matter? Have I said anything wrong again? Blasted all you know how I always do the wrong thing, have I? No indeed, David, you are exactly right, returned Mr. Howett. But tell me, did you see no one else at the house? There is another member of the family. The doctor nodded. I saw him, Pete, you mean? Looked him over. Mr. Matthews asked me to. Sad case, very sad. Hopeless, absolutely hopeless, Daniel. It has not seemed as well as usual lately. I fear so much night roaming is not good for the boy. Return the other slowly. But tell me, how are Sarah and the girls? Still looking after Dr. Davy, I suppose. Just the same, haven't changed a bit, not a bit. Jenny looks after my socks and handkerchiefs, Mary looks after my shirts and linen, Anna looks after my ties and shoes, Sue looks after my hats and coats, and Kate looks after the things I eat. And Sarah? Sarah looks after everything and everybody, same as always. Blasted all if they'd give me a show I'd be as good as ever. Good as ever, Daniel. What can a man do? What can a man do with an only sister and her five old-made daughters looking after him from morning until night? From morning until night, Daniel? Tell them I am a full-grown man. Don't do no good, no good at all. Blasted all poor old things, just got to mother something. Got to, Daniel. While he was speaking his eyes were dancing from one object to another in the shepherd's rude dwelling, turning for frequent quick glances to Dad himself. You live here? You? You ought not, Daniel, you ought not. What would Sarah and the girls say? Blasted all, what do you mean by it? I ordered you away on a vacation. You disappear. Think you dead. Row in the papers. Mystery.  Blasted all. What does it mean? What does it all mean? Not fair to me, Daniel, not fair. By this time the little man had worked himself up to an astonishing pitch of excitement. His eyes snapped. His words came like pistol shots. His ejaculations were genuine explosions. He tapped with his feet, wrapped with his cane, shook his finger, and fidgeted in his chair. We want you back, Daniel. I want you. Church will want you when they know looking for a preacher right now. I come after you, Daniel. Blasted all, I'll tell Sarah and the girls, and they'll come after you, too. Chicago will go wild when they know that Daniel how it cha— Stop! The doctor bounced out of his chair. The shepherd was trembling, and his voice shook with emotion. Forgive me, David, but that name must never be spoken again, never. My son is dead, and that name died with him. It must be forgotten. The physician noted his friend's agitation and amazement. There, there, Daniel, I didn't mean to. Thought it didn't matter when we were alone. I—I. Blasted all, tell me, Daniel, what do you mean by this strange business, this very strange business? A look of mingled affection, regret, and pain came into the shepherd's face as he replied. Let me tell you the story, David, and you will understand. When he had finished, Mr. Howatt asked gently, Have I not done right, David? The boy is gone. It was hard going as he did, but I am glad now, for old Matt would have killed him, and he would kill me yet if he knew. Thank God we have not also made the father a murderer. Did I not say rightly that the old name died with Howard? Have I not done well to stay on this spot, and to give my life to this people? Quite right, Daniel, quite right. You always are. It's me that goes wrong, blundering, bumping, smashing into things. Blasted all, I—I don't know what to say, but—but blasted all. The hour was late when the two men finally retired for the night. Long after his heavy, regular breathing announced that the doctor was sleeping soundly, the shepherd lay wide awake, keenly sensitive to every sound that stirred in the forest. Once he arose from his bed, and stepping softly, left the cabin to stand under the stars. His face lifted to the dark summit of Old Dewey, and the hills that rimmed the hollow. And once when the first light of day came over the ridges, he went to the bunk where his friend lay, to look thoughtfully down upon the sleeping man. Breakfast was nearly ready when Dr. Coughlin awoke. The physician saw it once by the worn and haggard look on his friend's face, that his had been a sleepless night. It was as though all the pain and trouble of the old days had returned. The little doctor muttered angrily to himself, while the shepherd was gone to the spring for water.  No need to drag him back into it all again, no need. Do no good, no good at all. When the morning meal was finished, Mr. Howatt said, David, will you think me rude if I leave you alone to-day? The city pavement fits one but poorly to walk these hills of mine, and you are too tired after your trip and the loss of your regular sleep to go with me this morning. Stay at the ranch and rest. If you care to read, here are a few of your favorites. Will you mind very much? I should like to be alone to-day, David. Right, Daniel, right, I understand.  I'm stiff and sore anyway, just suit me. The shepherd arranged everything for his friend's comfort, putting things in readiness for his noonday meal and showing him the spring. Then taking his own lunch, as his custom was, he went to the corral and released the sheep. The doctor watched until the last of the flock was gone, and he could no longer hear the tinkle of the bells in the bark of the dog. End of chapters 36 and 37. With the coming of the evening the shepherd returned to his guest. After Coughlin heard first the bells on the leaders of the flock, and the barking of the dog coming nearer and nearer through the woods. Soon the sheep appeared, trooping out of the twilight shadows into the clearing. Then came brave, followed by his master. The countenance of the old scholar wore again that look of calm strength and peace that had marked it before the coming of his friend. Have you had a good rest, David? Or has your day been long and tiresome? I fear it was not kind of me to leave you alone in this wilderness. The doctor told how he had passed the time, reading, sleeping, and roaming about the clearing and the nearby woods. And you, he said, looking the other over with a professional eye, you look like a new man, a new man, Daniel. How do you do it? Some secret spring of youth in the wilderness? Most at all wish you would show me. Fool Sarah and the girls, fool them sure.  You took it, you remember, from one of our favorite volumes. The shepherd bared his head and repeated, If thou art born and hard beset, with sorrows, that thou wouldst forget. If thou wouldst read a lesson that will keep thy heart from fainting and thy soul from sleep, go to the woods and hills, no tears, dim the sweet look that nature wears. David I never understood until the past months why the master so often withdrew alone into the wilderness. There is not only food and medicine for one's body, there is also healing for the heart and strength for the soul and nature. One gets very close to God, David, in these temples of God's own building. Dr. Coughlin studied his old friend curiously. Change? Remarkable change in you? Remarkable. Never said a thing like that in all your life before, never. The shepherd smiled. It's your prescription, doctor," he said. They retired early that evening for the physician declared that his friend must need the rest. Talk to-morrow, he said, all day, nothing else to do. He promptly enforced his decision by retiring to his own bunk, leaving the shepherd to follow his example. But not until the doctor was sure that his friend was sleeping soundly did he permit himself to sink into unconsciousness. It was just past midnight when the shepherd was aroused by the doctor striking a match to light the lamp. As he awoke he heard Pete's voice. Where is dad? Pete wants dad. Dr. Coughlin, thinking at some strange freak of the boy's disordered brain and not wishing to break his friend's much-needed rest, was trying in low tones to persuade the boy to wait until morning. What does Pete want? asked the shepherd, entering the room. Pete wants dad. Dad and the other man. They must sure go with Pete right quick. Go where with Pete? Who told Pete to come for dad? asked Mr. Howett. He told Pete. Right now he said, and Pete he come. Course I come with him. Dad must go, and the other man too, because he said so. In sickness or in trouble of any kind the people for miles around had long since come to depend on the shepherd of Mutton Hollow. The old man turned now to the doctor. Someone needs me, David. We must go with the boy. Daniel, Daniel, blast it all. The boy's not responsible. Where will he take us? Where do you want us to go, boy? Not me. Not me. Nobody can't go nowhere, can they? You go with Pete, Mr. Yes, yes, go with Pete. But where will Pete take us? Persisted the doctor. Pete knows. Now look at that, Daniel. Look at that. Blast it all we ought not to go. Not in the night this way. What would Sarah and the girls say? Not withstanding his protests the doctor was ready even before the shepherd. Take a gun, Daniel. Take a gun at least, he said. The other hesitated, then asked. Does Pete want dad to take a gun? The youth who stood in the doorway waiting impatiently shook his head and laughed. No, no. Nothing can't get dad where Pete goes. God he's there just like dad says. It's all right, David, said the shepherd with conviction. Pete knows it's safe to trust him to-night. And the boy echoed as he started forward. It's all right, Mr. Pete knows. I wish you had your medicine case, though, David, added Mr. Howatt as they followed the boy out into the night. Got one, Daniel. Got one. Things have a pocket case, have it. Pete led the way down the road and straight to the old cabin ruin below the corral. Though the stars were hidden behind the clouds, it was a little light in the clearing. But in the timber under the shadow of the bluff it was very dark. The two men were soon bewildered and stood still. Which way, Pete, said the shepherd, there was no answer. Miss Pete, tell Pete to come here, said Mr. Howatt again. Still there was no reply. Their guides seem to have been swallowed up in the blackness. They listened for a sound. This is strange, mused the shepherd. A grunt of disgust came from the doctor. Crazy man, crazy, there's three of us. Which way is the house? Blast at all, what would? A spot of light gleamed under the bushes not fifty feet away. Come, Dad, come on. Pete's ready. They were standing close to the old cabin under the bluff. In a narrow space between the log wall of the house and the cliff, Pete stood with a lighted lantern. The farther end of the passage was completely hidden by a projection of the rock. The overhanging roof touched the ledge above. While the opening near the men was concealed by the heavy growth of ferns and vines and the thick branches of a low cedar, even in daylight the place would have escaped anything but a most careful search. Dropping to his knees and to one hand the shepherd pushed aside the screen of vines and branches with the other, and then on all fours crawled into the narrow passage. The doctor followed. They found their guide crouching in a small opening in the wall of rock. After how it uttered an exclamation, the lost cave, old man Dewey. The boy laughed. Pete knows. Come, Dad, come, other man, ain't nothing can get you here. He scrambled ahead of them into the low tunnel. Some twenty feet from the entrance the passage turned sharply to the left and opened suddenly into a hallway along which the shepherd could easily walk erect. Pete went briskly forward as one on very familiar ground, his lantern lighting up the way clearly for his two companions. For some distance their course dipped downward at a gentle angle, while the ceilings and sides dripped with moisture. Soon they heard the sound of running water, and entering a wider room saw sparkling in the lantern's light, a stream that came from under the rocky wall crossed their path and disappeared under the other wall of the chamber. East Creek, ejaculated the shepherd, as he picked his way over the stream on the big stones, and the boy answered, Pete knows. Pete knows. From the bank of the creek the path climbed strongly upward, the footing grew firmer, and the walls and ceiling drier. As they went on the passage too grew wider and higher, until they found themselves in a large underground hallway that echoed loudly as they walked. They hid pure white stalactites and frost-like formations glittered in the light, and the walls were broken by dark nooks and shelf-like ledges with here and there openings, leading who could tell where. At the farther end of this hallway where the ceiling was highest, the guide paused at the foot of a ledge against which rested a rude ladder. The shepherd spoke again. Suddenly bald, he asked. Pete nodded and began to climb the ladder. Another room and another ledge, then a long narrow passage, the ceiling of which was so high that it was beyond the lantern-light, then a series of ledges, and they saw that they were climbing from shelf to shelf on one side of an underground canyon. Following along the edge of the chasm the doctor pushed a stone over the brink, and they heard it go bounding from ledge to ledge into the dark heart of the mountain. No bottom, Daniel, blast at all no bottom to it. What would Sarah and the girl say? They climbed one more ladder, and then turned from the canyon into another great chamber, the largest they had entered. The floor was perfectly dry, the air too was dry and pure, and from what seemed to be the opposite side of the huge cavern a light gleamed, like a red eye in the darkness. They were evidently nearing the end of their journey. Drawing closer they found that the light came from the window of a small cabin, built partly of rock and partly of logs. Instinctively the two men stopped. Pete said in a low tone, as one would speak in a sacred presence. He is there.  Still the boy's companions hesitated. Mr. Howett asked, who, boy, who is there? Do you know who it is? No, no, not me. Nobody can't know nothing, can they? Hopeless case, Daniel, hopeless. Too bad, too bad, muttered the physician, laying his hand upon his friend's shoulder. The shepherd tried again. Who does Pete say it is? Oh, Pete says it's him, just him. But who does Pete say he is, suggested Dr. Coughlin. Again the boy's voice lowered to a whisper. Sometimes Pete says it must be God, because he's so good. Dad says God is good, and that he takes care of folks. And he sure does that. It was him that scared Wash Gibbs in his crowd that night. And he sent the gold to you, dad. God's gold it was. He's got heaps of it. He killed that panther, too, when it was a go and a fight young Matt. Knows, you see, dad, when Pete is with him, I ain't nobody no more. I'm just Pete then, and Pete is me. Funny, ain't it? But he says that's the way it is, and he sure knows. The two friends listened with breathless interest. And what does Pete call him, asked the doctor. Pete calls him father, like dad calls God. He talks to God, too, like dad does. Do you reckon God would talk to God, mister? With a cry the shepherd reeled. The doctor caught him. Strong Daniel, strong. Pete drew away from the two men an alarm. The old scholar's agitation was pitiful. David, David, tell me what is this thing? Can it be? My boy, Howard, my son, can it be? My God, David, what am I saying? He is dead. Dead, I tell you. Can the dead come back from the grave, David? He broke from his friend and ran staggering toward the cabin. But at the door he stopped again. It was as if he longed, yet feared to enter. And the doctor and the boy came to a side. Without ceremony Pete pushed open the door. The room was furnished with a cupboard, table and small cookstove. It was evidently a living room. Through a curtained opening at the right a light showed from another apartment, and a voice called, Is that you, Pete? A look of pride came into the face of the lad. That's me, he whispered. I'm Pete here, and Pete is me. It's always that way with him. Allowed he said, Yes, Father, it's Pete. Pete and dad and the other man. As he spoke he drew aside the curtain. For an instant the two men paused on the threshold. The room was small and nearly bare of furniture. In the full glare of the lamp, so shaded as to throw the rest of the room in deep shadow, hung a painting that seemed to fill the rude chamber with its beauty. It was the picture of a young woman, standing by a spring of water, a cup brimming full in her outstretched hand. On a bed in the shadow facing the picture lay a man. A voice faltered. Father, Dr. Coughlin, Chapter 39. A matter of hours. Father, Father, can you, can you forgive me? The man on his knees raised his head. Forgive you, my son. Forgive you? My dear boy, there has never been in my heart a thought but of love and sympathy. Pain there has been, I can't deny, but it has helped me to know what you have suffered. I understand it now, my boy. I understand it all, for I too have felt it. But when I first knew, even beneath all the hurt, I was glad—glad to know, I mean. It is a father's right to suffer with his child, my son. It hurt most when the secret stood between us, and I could not enter into your life. But I understand that, too. I understand why you could not tell me. I too came away because I was not strong enough. I—I thought it would be easier for you never to know, said the son as he lay on the bed. I am sorry now, and I am glad that you know. But I must tell you all about it just the same. I must tell you myself, you see, so that it will be all clear and straight when I—when I go—he turned his eyes to the picture on the wall. When you go, Howard laid a hand upon the gray head. Poor father, yes, I am going. It was an accident, but it was a kindness. It will be much better that way, only—only I am sorry for you, father. I thought I could save you all this. I intended to slip quietly away without your ever knowing. But when Pete said that Dr. Coughlin was here, I could not go without—without. The little doctor came forward. I am a fool, Howard, an old fool, blasted all no business to go poking into this, no business at all. Daniel would have sent if he had wanted me—ought to have known. Old native can give me lessons on being a gentleman every time. Blast it all. What's wrong, Howard, get hurt? Now I am here, might as well be useful. Indeed, doctor, you did right to come. You will be such a help to father. You will help us both, just as you have always done. Will you excuse us, father, while Dr. Coughlin looks at this thing here on my side? The physician arranged the light so that it shone full upon the man on the bed. Then carefully removed the bandages from an ugly wound in the artist's side. Dr. Coughlin looked very grave. When did this happen, Howard? I—I can't tell exactly. You see, I thought at first I could get along with Pete to help, and I did for a week, I guess. Then things didn't go so well. Some fever, I think, for she—she came. He turned his eyes toward the picture again. And I—I lost all track of time. It was the night of the eighteenth, father will know. Two weeks, muttered the physician. A low exclamation came from the shepherd. It was you? You who brought the horses to the ranch that night? The artist smiled grimly. The officer saw me and thought that I was one of the men they wanted. It's all right, though. The old scholar instinctively lifted his hands and looked at them. He remembered the saddle wet with blood. Making a careful examination, the doctor asked more questions. When he had finished and had skillfully replaced the bandages, the wounded man asked, What about it, Dr. Coughlin? The kind-hearted physician jerked out of volley of scientific words and phrases that meant nothing, and busied himself with his medicine case. When his patient had taken the medicine, the doctor watched him for a few minutes and then asked, Feel stronger, Howard? The artist nodded. Tell me the truth now, doctor. I know that I am going. But how long have I? Wait a minute first. Where's Pete? Come here, my boy. The lad drew near. Father? Mr. Howard seated himself on the bedside. You'll be strong, father? We are ready now, Dr. Coughlin. Yes, tell us, David, said the shepherd, and his voice was steady. The physician spoke. Matter of hours, I would say. Twenty-four perhaps? Not more, not more. There is no possible chance, David, asked the shepherd. Again the little doctor took refuge behind a broad side of scientific terms before replying. No. No possible chance. A groan slipped from the gray-bearded lips of the father. The artist turned to the picture and smiled. Pete looked wonderingly from face to face. Poor father, said the artist. One thing more, doctor. Can you keep up my strength for a while? Reasonably well. Reasonably well, Howard. I am so glad of that, because there is much to do before I go. There is so much that must be done first. And I want you both to help me. End of chapters thirty-eight and thirty-nine.


when the narcissist finally loses control of you. If you've been with the narcissist for a long period of time you should already know they're not going to react well when they feel like they can no longer control you. Their value is based on other people's views of them. They have very low self esteem so they need you to admire them. They need constant attention and validation and if you don't willingly give it to them they will manipulate you. They will intimidate you. They will make you feel guilty. They will do whatever it takes to get it. They are very envious. They are shame-based people who are doing everything they can to avoid reflecting on their shame but they will often engage in very shameful acts in an attempt to escape their feelings of shame. They will devalue you. They will discard you. They will punish you which will only push you away even more. It will only cause them to lose control of you and when that happens they may come back with a false epiphany. They may come back with a fake apology but they're not really sorry for anything they've done. They don't care about the effects their actions have had on you. They just don't want to deal with the consequences of their actions. They don't want you to see them that way so that's really what they're trying to change. They're trying to change your perspective of them rather than them trying to change themselves in order to be better for you. They will always have some excuse for their behavior. They will always find a way to blame you for it as though it was in response to something you said or did. They never take responsibility for their actions which is why they never change. They always go back to doing the same things again or they might find a different way of doing it but usually when you catch them out on something they won't admit the truth. They will deny it. They can't even admit their own faults and mistakes to themselves so they're not going to admit it to you. They lie to themselves all the time so how could they ever be honest with anyone? Instead they will accuse you of doing something wrong. They will shift the blame onto you.  They will act like something you said or did was wrong. To take the focus of their own toxic behaviors and they can seem very skilled in the way that they do this because they've been doing this for a very long time. They've had a lot of practice to perfect their craft of manipulation which is how they may leave you doubting yourself. You may think that you got it wrong especially if the narcissist has managed to start a smear campaign on you but they have managed to isolate you and leave you without any sources of validation. When the narcissist loses control of you they will always find a reason to be involved with your family and friends. They will always find a way to be enmeshed in your life and they will turn your family and friends into the flying monkeys. They would rather destroy you directly but once they've lost the ability to do that their only option is to use other people to get to you because they have to punish you for everything you saw wrong with them. The narcissist feels entitled to do whatever they want with you and they expect you to put up with it.  They're trying to punish you. They're trying to teach you a lesson but if that doesn't work they will try to create a trauma bond with you. They will try to make you dependent on them for something even while they are abusing you or they will become dependent on you to prevent you from leaving because of children or because they don't have money or place to stay. They will do anything they can to prevent you from being free from external influence and control. Thank you for watching. I hope this video resonates with you. Please like, comment, share and subscribe. If you would like to donate my PayPal link is in the video description. Coaching inquiries. You can email me at coachingatnarksurvivor.co.uk. Thank you for watching and I'll talk to you soon.


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