Hey, friend, you're watching behind the scenes divine intimacy radio. Just a parental warning today. We're gonna be talking about Pornography and masturbation and mortal sin Primarily mortal said primarily mortal sin, but Yeah, I'll do another warning once we get started with the show. I Want to just say something about two? Organizations before we start because we have about two minutes and we'll get going one is Sophia and suppressed if if I mean there are two two places you can go where you can Where you can you never have to worry about the books? They offer or the materials they offer and I mean literally never you can just You know, some people look at like Neil Opstatt, you know in promoter stuff and and right unfortunately in our time those don't mean as much as they should because There's we have a laxity and in terms of universal level How would you say diligence regarding publications and their and their adherence to Catholic doctrine So you don't you know when I years and years ago, you would see theologians publicly corrected I just I haven't heard anything in any anytime recently and there's there's absolute heresy out there under the name of Catholic Writers we talked about one here on the that has Neil Opstatt's and well that we're not the one I'm talking about But the universal Christ by Richard or you know So but if you want to know so what protects you I in my opinion, the only thing you can really rely on right now Are one if you know the theologian of a particular diocese who's who's reviewing texts Then you can trust those theologians in those dioceses But if you don't have any idea who they are if you can trust them or not Institutions that are faithful are those things that you can trust EWTN Is they they have a theologians on staff full-time multiple Who review every every bit of material they put on their shows and that they carry in their bookstore and you can just trust And I know them all they're awesome human beings and really good and love the Lord and They just won't publish anything or sell anything there. That's problematic The other one is Sophia Institute Press. I mean I I am just so impressed with Sophia And and there are other good publishers out there. There's no doubt about that. I and I that I that I have high respect for Um Ignatius press tan tan is the one. Yeah, but Sophia. I work with the most, you know, I They're just extraordinary and the president of Sophia Like the heads of some of these other wonderful organization is Uh Just die hard for the faith. I mean he He he will even publish things Like I've asked him to publish Things that he knows he won't make money on and he said if it's good for the church You just tell me And I'll publish it and I don't pull that trigger too often But that's how dedicated he is to the church. So then he what he's doing then is he's gonna have to make that up someplace else So that's how we got the diary st. Jim and published. That's exactly right. It's exactly right and a book coming out on communities Um by father nielson of the community to be attitudes So, um, please support these good institutions dwtn sophia institute press You can find all the books. I recommend that sophias, you know, sells out on spiritualdirection.com On the shop button there. All of my books are there. So anyway With that, why don't we jump into the show? You ready? Yep. And your market set go This is dan and jordan burk. Welcome to divine intimacy radio your radio haven of rest your hermitage of the heart Wow, you've got it right that I was thinking about it this time Your monastery of the mine where you lift your hearts and minds to heaven Where we lift our hearts and minds to heaven to draw on the wisdom of the saints To help us to navigate the tumult of this life A lot of people don't realize where the doctrine of the church comes from And what they they they don't realize that, you know, when I talk about wisdom of the saint team most of the time on this show We talk about spiritual theology spirit, you know, you know spirituality and marriage You know all of this stuff But moral theology is is really important And we get our theology primarily from the doctors of the church, right? And uh, so the doctors and councils and you know hopes but You know, when the church is wants to it elevates these specific writers for a purpose Doctors are all saints And they all have written something that the church determines Is good for all ages, you know, some people like to suppress in our age thomas equinas and Alfonso's agree But that's going against the magisterial designation of the value of their teaching for all ages But anyway today, uh, just a little bit of a warning today We're going to be talking about moral theology, but we're going to be talking about uh, masturbation and um Mortal sin mostly about mortal sin in relationship to that. Yeah, as an as an easy example Yeah, so parental advisory, right, right? The other thing is going to happen today that i'm not i don't like in this show And that is i don't like calling out people by name I just don't I you know, I appreciate the same about Michael Warsaw and EWTN has kind of a A good sense of that as well. However, sometimes when people are big audiences and they They uh say things publicly They have to be addressed publicly right to counteract the public problem that the situation You know causes. Yeah in in fighting is probably one of the biggest sins of The lady especially right in the church, especially in this time especially in this time and it's it's I know for a fact that's something that we avoid purposefully. Yeah, but as you said when there's something When someone has an audience a large enough audience and they say something that Merits the response because what they said is danger to their audience and it has to be addressed So in this case, we're talking about a recent video put out by father kasey koh and I will say if you watch the video I'd say the first half is just rocks out. Yeah, I mean there's nothing wrong with anything he says But then he moves into what I call what I would call a very common and egregious error of our time And that is a treating sin as if It the only thing that matters Is our culpability, right? And and there's not you'll hear nothing in the video About the objective evil the impact on god Yeah, well to give him credit He he does quote the church and the catechism the church teaches on you know He says well, this is an intrinsic evil. So I don't want someone listening thinking well, he said it's an intrinsic evil He's talking about it's like no, that's not what we're talking about. What we're saying is You can state what the church teaches, but what is the reality of that statement? That's what he doesn't get into right not well. Anyway, right, right and I think and in the the con box of his Video is is filled with confusion, right? Well, and I I can't tell you how many messages that I received from people after the fact who saw my response And who just were saying thank you so much, you know, I watched the video. I was so deeply confused This is something that I've struggled with I had one guy who just poured his heart out And he said I I watched his video and I was enraged is what this is what this one person said Because I know that what I'm struggling with I am struggling with it But I know that it's wrong and when I watched his video I came away with no It's not that big of a deal and you shouldn't worry about it.  Of course, of course, but that's the response that's that's what people are coming away That's the fruit of what he's yeah, so let's get to you and why you're on the show I mean you've been on the show before to represent do the harder thing to talk about You're you're you're an unauthorized representative if you will of Sophia and stupress for Gabriel Amor's book Hope's Exorcist or the book on Gabriel Amor So why are people reaching out to you? Well, so I when I started do the harder thing It was aimed primarily towards combating Or helping people combat pornography and masturbation so it was both Showing the reality of what pornography is because my one of my methods was the truth of what you're actually seeing Is so disturbing that it needs to be impactful.  So we're talking about rape.  Exactly. Yeah So that reality but then also taking I've had discussions and communications and I mean I even went to a clinic and talked to some of the greatest Therapists on this topic in the in the nation in the in the nation and had all these communications and basically took their non Religious Understanding and it's all good and true. Yeah And combined it with what the church teaches because when you combine those two that's when people start breaking free Yeah, so taking that kind of information putting it out there and and so since then I've I've counseled I don't know probably I don't keep track probably thousands of guys I don't do that. I will still help people and I even said in my response video, you know If you need help Here's how you get in contact with me. I will help you I will reply to every message that I can But uh, I don't do that. I don't do that anymore as my main. That's not my main mission anymore But it's still a cursory mission And I still stay pretty much up to date on that but there's other organization generally I refer people to integrity restore jim oda. Yeah, who they're they're full time. That's all they do I don't know if he's in integrity. Oh, he's not, but father show Sean. He'll call. He's another incredible Yeah, he's fantastic. He teaches for us at the institute. So Uh, now you came up with an act an immediate action plan. Is that the name? Yeah, it's it's immediate action plan It's five steps and I even have it set up on the website where you don't have to enter any information Which website do the harder thing.com. Yeah, you don't need to enter any information Just download it. You know if you're struggling just download and follow the steps And it's not gonna it's not guaranteed to just you know, you're done because this is you know This is a whole longer discussion, but we're talking about habits and ingrained actions and things like that But it's a good Stepping point to Overcoming at least you're now taking steps. Yeah to to overcome. All right. So that's so anyway Let's get to the problems in the vision. So the first half was was fine as we said It was just repeating church teaching A father Casey's video father Casey Cole's video and then this but the second was Then he started to I don't know disassemble A healthy concern I think Um, I don't know Take a shot at You know, what's what bothered you the most when you first watched it? It really Or troubled you the most it really muddied the waters on a on a very clear topic And I think the argument that some people would say well, it's not that clear because You know, there's aspects and layers of culpability and things of that nature and my response would be How about you just worry about not sending? Right, right. I mean It's it's we're talking about something that's so egregious Right and so harmful not just to yourself to your loved ones But to god. Yeah, and and I I still get messages Daily if not every other day someone's saying, you know, my husband is addicted to pornography. It's destroying our marriage This is what's going on blah blah blah. It is it is so It is the real pandemic. Yeah in terms of what's going on in the world right now It's worse than it's ever been. Yeah and so for me watching somebody muddy the waters and and I understand the desire to teach people moral theology if you enjoy moral theology, that's fine But taking something like this that is as serious as this topic is pornography masturbation In mudding the waters is it is scandalous in my opinion. I agree. Um, because it's a very clear cut You need to just stop right Right and if you're spending effort trying to figure out. Well, am I culpable or am I not culpable? That's effort that you could be spending on pursuing virtue and that's what wasn't discussed in the video Basically was like just do your best Go and to give him credit. He said go to confession whether or not you think it's mortal or not So good. No that and that is great advice. Right one of the it it you know There's some really simple advice out of the show Stop sending and some people are going to say Even through tears. I mean, I remember my one of my I my family's full of Addictions and sure do I agree have and all that and remember one of my brothers just Weeping telling me about how he couldn't find a A narcotics anonymous sponsor that would stick with him right And he was begging for help and so some of these people are like that they're like You know, they're listening to us going Yeah, but I am screwed up right right to the core and so we're not discounting So when we say stop sinning it is not within sensitivity. It's it's to combat You shouldn't spend in my opinion right anytime Worrying about culpability, right go to confession, right, right because confession isn't just About the forgiveness of sins and I think a lot of times with this sin in particular And I don't know from first for a personal experience. Thank god. I have other problems, but not this one But I know from talking with priests and psychologists and and and seminary formate formators And we do seminary formation is that guys will often you guys women and men will often use The confessional as an almost like inebriation So that's one of the other things that I wanted to touch on because If we're going to talk about moral theology in this context Why are we not also talking about firm purpose of amendment, right? So if we're going to just what is that firm purpose of amendment I mean st. John paul II actually wrote a letter to the bishops That was so impactful for me when I read it talking about firm purpose And he basically said if you don't have a firm purpose of amendment your confession isn't valid, right Now I don't want to send people into a tailspin But what that means is if you're just going to confession To like oh, I did it wrong. I did bad again. I need to go get me relief. Give me relief I want to be forgiven, but you're not taking any steps To make sure it doesn't happen again. Right. That's that's the issue So you need to have what's called a firm purpose of amendment, which is okay You're analyzing you're saying this is where you spend time analyzing not culpability.  I was really angry today. Okay. Uh, I was scrolling through instagram and I got triggered. Okay When I'm angry, I can't scroll through instagram. What am I going to do? That is taking steps towards for firm purpose of amendment I know guys and and for for folks We're going to say guys because that's who I I dealt with and I always get a message that says women struggle with the two I know I'm just using this language because this is what I work in Yeah, trust me my heart breaks for women just as much as it does for men. So just want to clear that up, but Um, you know, I know guys who've locked their phones in their cars. Yeah, because they know at night time I'm more susceptible to falling. That's heroic. Exactly. That's the firm purpose of amendment But that's not what was talked about. It was just just do your best. Yeah, and You know, all right, we get back from the break. We'll continue talking about this very difficult subject If you're coming in in the middle of parental advisory, right? It's tough stuff Uh, so not for younger uh younger kids or early teens But we'll continue to dive into how to understand and get you know overcome habitual mortal sin And how to better think about it than what was shown in this video. We'll be right back And you mark, uh, you know, so at the break, um I'll say it on the show. I just want but if if there's anybody out there going, please help me So you have that free Well, you know what? Let's let's just go back in the show and say this again And we'll we'll give him another resource on your mark. Get set go This Dan and Jordan Burke. Welcome back to divine intimacy radio We're talking about um mortal sin masturbation habitual sin difficult subject parental advisory um So I just want to remind folks about a good Places for resources. One is do the harder thing got calm free Yeah, we don't even you don't even capture information about people or in order to email them or sell them anything or whatever Just free free. No nothing but trying to help people right and there they'll find the Immediate action plan immediately that will if you're just and even if you've been struggling for a while There might be something in there that will help you. Yeah My shedding blood talk you can find online Uh, which we're actually going to be redoing and we're going to package in a way that We'll we'll let everybody know so they can find it because that's a more It's way more in depth going into those five steps. You'll find good info in there Um integrity restored is another amazing one father. Sean Kilcolly his resources for women. I believe rachel Kilcolly Yeah, uh, also has resources. Um integrity restored has resources for women as well So anyway, what the one thing we don't want to do is what happened, which was Lady people hanging. Yeah. Yeah the other place you can go for free resource Which has it's a more, um, I would say community Engagement that sort of thing if you're feeling isolated is apostoli va.org And that's the community that I founded to help people live the contemplative life In there it does require It's free, but it requires you to Get some orientation about how to act in community because we're kind of d social media attitude the place It's a safe peaceful place break the curse of facebook break the curse facebook apostoli va.org and in that, uh, we have I have an in-depth course on Overcoming habitual sins. We don't know what jordan's talking about or you want more Then what you find in the immediate action plan that you can go get right now just easy as can be at do the heart of thing dot com dot com If you need more and formal teaching and teaching on discernment of spirits, which will help you break sin and all of that The apostoli va.org free courses there as well. So So back to where we were John Paul II said, you know, if you don't have a firm purpose of amendment So one when we go to when people go to confession If they so confession isn't just about forgiveness, right? Which is a shallow understand. It's really important. Okay, but But just to go get it off your back. It's not that's not even right thinking at all but But I want to be forgiven. Good. Yes, you'll be forgiven. It's one of the most powerful things I ever heard in my life It was the first time I heard a priest say, you know, I absolve you. Wow. Just sent shivers down my spine but Confession is also there to give you strength against sin But it has to be a valid confession as you noted You've got to have a firm purpose of amendment. You have to have a contrition You have to have a contrition I mean you have to be sorry that you did it and I want to know how many people even know about presumption What do you mean? Well, because that's another aspect again, if we're going to spend time and quote-unquote moral theology Around this topic.  Forgiveness. Uh-huh. Are you are you going to Look at pornography and think my I can just go to confession in the morning. That's presumption. That's another mortal sin Right, you know, so mortal sin on top of mortal sin, right? So if you're doing that if you have presumption Going in to confession That also it could invalidate what's going on because you're not truly Uh, you don't have a truly contrite heart. You're just going to to ease your own emotions Right because you're like, yeah, I'm just gonna get forgiven. That's presumption. Yeah So that's on the front end and then we already talked about for a purpose of amendment on the back end Right. So those would have been more appropriate topics. I think are more helpful to people in regard to this overall conversation But you know anyway, and they you did a good video on this which is what prompted me to want to do this show with you What's the title of the video is in is is it on spiritualdirection.com yet? Um, I don't know if it's on our website. It's on our youtube. You talking about the response video. Yeah Yeah, it's it's um, is masturbation and pornography immortal sin Uh response to father kasey coal. I think is the full.  It'll be up on the in that same area and then also on you on spiritualdirection.com Okay, eventually But uh your video I think will speak to I mean that was very compelling. Yeah So The other thing that he said which was good Father coal just to keep giving credit where it's due Even though I don't agree with him on a lot of things almost everything The uh, he he said, you know, go to go to confession Now a lot of people are taught you shouldn't go to confession Uh with with if you have venial sin I mean some churches I'm aware even my own parish Before a current pastor got there.  But that is when he carries down the same path because yeah, that's pretty egregious That's incredibly egregious. So then so then, you know, in in in a better scenario You're received well when you take a mortal sin Unfortunately, many people are turned away when they take their venial sins But the church has always encouraged even up to recent times post-conciliar After the second Vatican council informal Exertations has said That it's good to take your venial sins to confession and here's the thing if you do that if you if you go, okay You know, here's the This is gonna sound a little bit harsh To hell with distinctions again of mortal and venial, right? Go to confession if you have habitual sin, right? And don't and then you don't have to worry about if it's mortal or venial, right? And you don't have to you don't have to self delude You know the human I always like to say the human person has an infinite capacity for self delusion You know and very little innate capacity for for honest self Reflection well, I think I even said in the video either the first or second part of it. I don't I don't recall but In my experience having talked to Thousands of men on this topic. Yeah from every walk of life all ages every type of background There are two people who are searching is masturbation immortal sin. Yeah is pornography immortal sin There's only two types of people who are doing that one who is trying to look for some sort of information to pacify Their bad feelings. Yeah, so like they want to justify what they're doing, right or they're scrupulous. Yeah So Neither of those are good, right Don't beat either of those beasts, right? And there's literally never been an in-between never been an in-between. It's one of those two extremes, right? So I you know, I have to I I'm not just this wasn't just like well I'm not a fan of Casey Cole. So and I pray for him daily for the record. Yeah Um But you know, I'm just gonna do a response because I don't like what he's saying I was like, no, no, no, this is damaging is this is damaging and I know who is searching this Now let's take a shift to another dimension that is almost never talked about any subject And that is the the dimension of evil objective evil of Related to the act right Without regard to culpability and one of our staff member we were standing around talking about this and the abalone institute offices said Something like what does it matter? Whether you press one thorn into his head or two, right? And I it just about knocked me over right and I thought that is so powerful, right? So, yeah, what does it matter mortal or venial in this case if it's habitual You're you know, and here's the thing I mean John the beloved who wrote his epistles in the New Testament, of course the gospel of john Used some very harsh language for those who are in habitual sin He said When you are in habitual sin, and I'm paraphrasing You are of the devil. Yeah and talk about this a lot When you look into the greek that means subject to beneath Controlled by yielding to making him your god, right, you know from You know and and there's no way that that comes out in any kind of translation that Is is uh should do anything but just shake you to your stinking boots, right? So be of god By not parsing not trying to justify and turn it off folks who do right like to me anyone who sits around and and I think you know Part of the reason I think is done this is a false mercy, right? Because I you know, I suspect father casey cares about people really truly does And oftentimes when that happens you look out on the audience and you and when tough teaching is given People come and they're rattled And and then therefore we can't do that. It's like no no no no They came right they're rattled So help them that's a path because when we teach publicly we should teach strongly We should use doctrinal language and clarity not relational language, right? And then privately we counsel with huge amount of mercy and gentleness, right? But publicly we need to proclaim the truth with clarity or these kind of things happen You talked to so many people today and what's their biggest complaint about what's going on in the church Is ambiguity right left and right ambiguity and from people who Should know better right and we are assuming the best that they're just trying to be relational Yeah, but that causes that ambiguity. Yeah, and it's and it's so Dutch I mean again, you look at the fruits of what's happening and in this case you read his comment section and it's stunning You know, I hope he reads it in in cash backtrack. Yeah, I've seen him backtrack before Yeah, his some of his responses were pretty Pretty poor unfortunately. Yeah, that's why like I said pray for him daily. So that's why we're doing this That's why we're doing this show Look, you know, the lord wants you free. He gave his he died for you He want, you know, he knew and by the way just so you understand his love He created you at the beginning of time knowing Um at the beginning of your time knowing what you would do Knowing that you would that you your sins would result in across all time in eternity The stripes the the flesh ripped off of his back The spit in his face The the humiliation the stripping of his garments Did you know he knew that you would do that and he loved you anyway and he brought you into existence He wants an eternal relationship with you this there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus to get in Right get, you know, put off the old man as st. Paul said put on the new Fight like heaven to get the hell out of you And you listen to divine intimacy radio or you're here in this show maybe for the first time We have endless resources for you brothers and sisters for free for free our our only mission Is to help people be free right and get to heaven I mean, it's it's not that complicated and I can tell you I by the grace of god I was able to get free I know so many others who have the same results and it's it's possible So if you're listening and you're struggling, it's possible do the harder thing dot com spiritual direction dot com apostoleva.org It's all there for you all free To help you to get free to know the freedom that jesus paid for you and with that we're having to Conclude this show. I hope it's been helpful to you or somebody that you love until next time May they got a peace make you perfect in holiness May he preserve you whole and entire spirit soul and body you're approachable at the coming of our lord Jesus christ amen


Hello and welcome back to the craft box everyone. My name is Renan today. We're back on the runescape walkthrough kind of thing Today we're gonna be doing the Grand tree quest because bants so yeah Welcome I am the king nice to see an outsider The first task is to find out what's killing the tree. Oh my god. Do you have any idea? My top tree guardian glove believes it's human sabotage I'm not sure the only way to be for sure is to talk to Hazelmeyer Who's Hazelmeyer? Majors created the Grand Tree He's the only one that has survived from all this time Take his bark simple take this bark sample to him and he'll be able to help The mage only talks in old tongue. You'll need this Booters what are these? Some spiders. Oh, yeah. Okay. Those spiders are interesting enough a letter Assumance that letter there Examined or examine leafy jungle plant examine all the things Yes, come up the letter and talk to Hazelmeyer The mage starts to speak but all you hear is blah blah blah blah blah You give the bank Example mage carefully examine the blah blah Decorna blah blah Can you write this down and I'll try to translate it blah blah? You make writing motion and the mage scribbles something down on the scroll Hazelmeyer gives you the scroll Okay, I have to using the translate. What are draconica stones? Hazelmeyer critic adorns their safety measure in case the tree grew out of control. They're the only thing that can kill the tree This is terrible. The stones must be recovered. How can I help? Where? Where are you? Maybe it would help if I went to the right southeast Apparently a human took him from Hazelmeyer Hazelmeyer believed him and he had the king seal I should have known the humans had going to invade Return to the king and he will tell you that Gluff has already called the culprit. Of course he has Okay, traveler. Thanks to Gluff. He found the human sneaking around. He had three draconica rocks on him. Wow, that was quick Talk to Charlie Tell me why you would want to kill the Grand Tree What do you mean? Don't tell me you just happened to be carrying draconica rocks All I know is that I did what I was asked. I don't understand Gluff paid me to go to the gnome on the hill and give I Gave the gnome a seal and he gave me the rocks to give to Gluff I've been doing it for weeks this time though. Gluff locked me up here. I don't understand it Sounds like Gluff is hiding something. I don't know what he's up to but he wanted if you want to find out you'd better search his home Okay, thanks Charlie.  He'll be outraged and will order his glards to arrest you Oh God, so we're getting it arrested Traveler, please accept my apologies. Gluff had no right to arrest you I just think he's scared of humans. Let me get you out of here. Oh, thanks. I know he can be a bit extreme at times But he's the best tree guardian I have he's made the nuns paranoid about humans though I'm afraid Gluff has placed yards at the front great to stop you escaping let my glider pilot Fly you away until things calm down here Well, okay, then sorry again traveler. How do we? Oh, yeah. Oh, hello Foo talk to captain. Hi the king said you need to leave apparently humans are remaining I find that hard to believe I have a lot of human friends. I don't understand it either So where you up to take me to Carmager, please Okay, you're the bus hold on tight. There will be a ride. Oh God glider ride As you can see things are going well indeed When I was Asked to build a fleet large enough to invade Port Serum and carry 300 gnome troops I said if anyone can I can? That's a lot of troops True, but if the gnomes are really Going to take over RuneScape. They need at least that take over of course Why us would bluff on 30 battleships between you and me? I don't think he stands a chance lol No, I Mean what kind of battle what kind of battleships bluff ordered only tons and tons of lumber Still if he says he can supply the wood. I'm sure he can anyway. Here's the order for the lumber Okay, I'll head off and give this order glove if instead you kill the form and he'll drop the lumber order which states that gloves plant Can we kill him still lol you're dying today mate. Thank you Kill Jeff right, okay Fool me to my friend That wasn't too bad. Okay. I believe in us. We can do this Here we go 5 3 2 4 5 5 Left to go Here we go. I did it. I did it. Oh my All the best traveling tanks again you too your highness Amazing 70 quest points right there. That's amazing reentry quest Yay level 50 combat Oh my agility level 20 37 went up three agility levels Four attack levels, which is nice and three magic Well, that was very successful Thank you for watching next episode. We will be doing some more questing. I think So yeah, thank you for watching and I will see you next time. Goodbye


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All right, so I'm sure you all had fun by something. Yeah. What? Where I can get one of those ducks, they're very, very hot. Why that one? No, don't let it turn to one end. I keep hoping someone would. Actually, somebody drew one on your test. Okay, so the class started. Remember that? Yeah. So the midterm, they'll be graded. I will post the grades on the webpage over the weekend once I have them. We expect to finish grading, maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow morning, something like that. It takes a little while because everybody grading has classes and stuff like that. And there's three hundred and seventy papers in grade. So it takes a little while. I don't know, so anybody? I don't know. So you may have noticed I don't have a computer today, so no clickers today. I know it's breaking your heart, but there it is. So the midterm is what it was. Okay, so what we did before and we've done so far is this business with volumes of, well, volumes of known cross-section. This is usually revolution services and revolution, but not always. And really the way you do those is you think about what does the cross-section look like and you integrate it. So because the idea is that an integral like this is just, this means add of, well, an integral of a u. So if we integrate something, it means add up lots of those guys to find some skinny bit, right? So when we're doing areas, we take a lot of skinny rectangles and they add them up to give us an area. If we're doing, it's easier for me to draw these things this way. If we're doing volumes, then we add up lots of skinny slices and it gives us a volume. So we can, oops, go up. We add up lots of skinny things and it gives us something like a volume or lots of lines to give us an area and so on. So we can apply this to other ideas as well. So the next idea that I'm going to turn to is, I guess, a little bit here, is to find the length of a curve. So if I have a piece of rope and it's laid down in some, let's say it doesn't matter, laid down in some length and I want to know how long is this rope? Well the easiest way, of course, if it's a piece of rope or a piece of string, is to just stretch it out and know how long it is. So sometimes you can't do that. If I want to know, you know, I have some curved shape and I want to know how long it is but it may have a concrete, it might be a little bit hard for me to just pick it up and measure it. So another thing that you can do is you can chop it up and measure it on segments where it's mostly straight. So that would be, I can measure it on segments where it's mostly straight. I think that's about the same amount. So I can just measure here. So this is 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8. So this thing is 8 of those long. So how can we formalize this idea into something that we can use calculus to understand if we know that this length is given by some function. So suppose my question, is it clear the question I'm asking? So for example, which I won't do the example first, how long y equals x squared for x from 1 to 2? So that's the kind of question I want to answer. I draw the graph of y equals x squared. Well, y equals x, that's still a bit. I draw the graph of y equals x squared from 1, did I say 1 to 2? Okay. That's 2. This is 4. This is 1. Well, that's supposed to be 1, 1. It's a terrible picture. Let's draw it again. y equals x squared. So this is 2. This is height 4. It's still bad. This is 1, 1. It's about that. So how long is this chunk of graph? So without doing any calculation, is it bigger than 1? Is it, yes, it's definitely bigger than 1. Is it less than 20? Okay. So at least we have some idea. It's between 1 and 20. Is it less than 5? Less than 4. So what are you doing in order to make these estimates? We have this piece of curve here. I'm trying to guess how long it is. And I know it goes through this point, 1, 1. And I know it goes through this point, 2, 4. And everybody quite easily said that it is longer than 1. Is it longer than 2? Is it longer than 3? So it's somewhere between 3 and 5. So in order to get, so we can estimate this by saying, well, how long is this? It's certainly longer than that. So it's certainly longer than the distance between this point and that point, which is the square root of 1 plus 9 square root of 10, which is between 3 and 4. It's certainly bigger than, and it's certainly less than this, which is 1 plus 3. So it's between square root of 10. So suppose I wanted to make my answer better. What would I do? Wait until the professor tells me how to do it. All right. No. Okay. What would you do in grade? So I have to work it out. I just, you know, here's a curve here. And you want to know how long a piece of rope do you need to lay it along that curve? What would you do? We measure it somehow, right? Take more slows. Take more slows. Sure. So instead of doing this very rough picture, do this rough picture at more points. Go here to here, there to there, there to there, there to there to there. And you do a better answer. Just keep going like that as much as you want. So I would take this length, this length, this length, this length, and this length, and I would add them up. And that would give me a better answer. I could just continue in this way. If this answer isn't good enough, this answer is probably, you know, not that much. If that isn't good enough, do it a million times. If that isn't good enough, do it a million times. If I want to measure how long, so I have these curves made by the stairs, if I want to know how long these curves are, I could measure it by taking a yard stick and laying them down end to end and adding up however long my yard stick is. I could also take, take something a millimeter long and just lay them down there and go along with a millimeter and that would give me a much better approximation. And if I didn't have a millimeter stick, I could use a nanometer, but I would have to be a very patient. But you get a very good estimate if I go to a very small scale. So that's the idea we're going to use here. So if we have a function y equals x squared is developed in acetone. So we have some function y equals x squared and I want to figure out how long this curve is on a very small scale. So I'm going to measure just a little bit. So this is blown up. I've blown this way up. I've zoomed way in. So this is some tiny amount. dx. That's this distance. This distance is what? dy. For y equals x squared, what's dy? If I tell you dx is 0.03, what if dy for y equals x squared if I tell you that's near x equals what does it matter? What do you need to know when you calculate dy? Why have you 0.09? It depends on where x is. My function is y equals x squared. So what is dy? Y equals x squared. 2x dx. You guys always forget the dx. The dx is important. It's 2x times this length.  You can't just forget it. So how long is this? How long is the hypotenuse of the right triangle where one side is dx and the other side is 2x dx? What do I do? I use the Pythagorean theorem. I use that already. So I can use the Pythagorean theorem. I have a triangle where this side is dx and I keep drawing a let's make it smaller than it is. This side is dx. This side is dy which in this case is 2x dx. And so this length is this square plus this square. Let me just write it as dy squared. Take the square root. Or in this case where it's 2x dx this is I can factor the dx squared out that's the length of this.   So that means that length so I want to take the limit as dx well as the number so I want to add up lots of these things and that would give me my length. And I take the limit as the size of the segment goes to zero. So that is an integral. The integral of this thing 1 plus 4x squared dx from, well let's see, I wanted the curve from 1 to 2 this is the length of y equals x squared between x equals 1 and x equals 2 y equals 4 but I hope it should be clear to you how to do that for anyone. So this is the arc when formula only in this special case special case with the curve y equals x squared we can do this integral by a trig substitution right? You all learned that. Does anyone want me to do this integral? I can do it. Yes? No. Does anyone want to see the actual number here? Sure. Why not? Alright, so if I want to do that integral make the substitution x equals well, so here I really think of this as 1 plus 2x quantity squared is what it started with anyway and I make the substitution at 2x no I want to think u is 2x and so I want the arc tan of 2x I mean the tan of 2x what am I doing? u, I want 2x squared why is my brain firing? Because I'm not too late. Alright, so let's do it in two steps because my brain is broken so this is 2dx so this becomes 1 half 1 to 2 squared over 1 plus u squared du now I make the substitution u is the tan theta so du is the c squared theta and so this is 1 half oh and so u is the tan when when oh this is not 1 this is now 1 half this is now 1 right? because u is 2x 2 and 4 okay so u is 2 and 4 now I have I want to convert that to in terms of theta so this is the arc tan of 2 the arc tan of 4 I don't know either of these let's see the arc tan of 2 I should know but the arc tan of 4 I know so those are some angles and u is the tan so I have a 1 plus a tan squared so that's the square root of the secant squared so that's the secant square root of the secant of theta so this is 1 half the log I absolutely hate this integral so it keeps showing up secant theta plus tangent theta arc tan from arc tan to arc tan what happens to the secant square for du? you went away what do you mean no? now it's the secant q because I forgot it and I didn't like it and I didn't like it so now this is the secant q and now I don't want to do this and so on it's over so there we go so I'll leave that to you okay so let's do the general idea you can do that on your exam too you can partway write in and so on I need a portion of credit I need a portion of credit I do you do well I don't care I just want to ask I don't care if I get an A I'm happy with a C so you can do that I don't want to do it now so let's come back with this idea of the arc length and let's redo this a little more generally exactly the same so I have some graph y equals f of x and it goes from here A to here B I want to find its length I want to find the length of the graph from x equals x well it's exactly the same process from here to here so I do the same trick I chop it up into a bunch of little segments add up the length of each of those little segments if I have a little segment with dx then the height of that triangle will be dy and so the length of that little segment will be the square root of dy squared plus dx squared which because it's the graph of y equals f of x then that means that dy is f prime of x dx or if you prefer we also know we can rewrite this all in terms of dx factor the dx out so that means that dy squared plus dx squared which is a bit underneath the square root is going to be dy is f prime of x dx so this is f prime of x dx squared plus that dx squared that I had before so I can factor out the dx and so the length of the little bit that I want to integrate is the square root of that 4 is getting worse plus f prime of x quantity squared dx squared and the radical is dx so that's not in the right so that means that this is the little thing that I want to add up those are those this part the part that goes from one piece of the curve the curve runs away and then comes back to the next piece these little lines are that long so the length of the curve is the integral from where I start to where I end the square root of 1 plus dx that's the integral that I want to do this is the square this is the arc length of 1 plus the derivative of squared and it just comes from looking at this picture and thinking how long is the hypotenuse of the triangle to the leg of dx and because of the leg is dy so this is not hard the only problem with this is almost always these integrals really suck they're really hard to do in fact most of them you can't do directly you have to do numerically because square roots are awful and when you put a 1 in there it makes it worse so about the only one that works is like a function derivative is the tangent or something I mean there are very few examples where these things come out to be nice integrals there's still integrals and they still represent something but you have to do them numerically almost always few times there are few examples that work out that's one of them and let me do one that doesn't work out so this is a little bit easier this is really easy to write down the integral but then the integral is not really easy to do so here we have to find so f prime of x is 2e to the 2x that's easy because my graph is y equal to e to the x here it is I wanted to go from 0 to 2 I want the piece of this curve and so the length and just for notational well ok let me just point this out sometimes this differential here this is called ds sometimes you might encounter like in a physics class or something like that they ask you to integrate something ds almost always people use just like usually these x to represent the horizontal coordinate and y for the vertical coordinate typically people use s for arc length coordinate and so in a number of applications like in physics and so on you want to have something describe in terms of arc length and so often they will use ds to represent the arc length usually this length of a curve is called arc length inside there so the arc length here is just this integral I want to go from where I start to where I am square root of 1 plus the derivative square for e to the 4x dx now I can't do anything with that integral well actually I can if I let u be 1 plus 4e to the 4x what should maybe I can do with dx so no I can't do this square root of e to the u over u so this is one now if you want to know this number you can use simpson's rule or something like that let me do one that does work out I guess so there's like three that work out this is one but I don't like it and let's go from I don't know 0 to pi over 4 give me some curve and it has the nice property let's call it f of x that f prime of x is 1 over the secant times the derivative of the secant which is just the tangent and so that means that the arc length here is the integral from 0 to pi over 4 and what? the square root okay this is a good start 1 plus tangent square dx well that's what I can do 1 plus tangent square is the secant square and the square root is the secant the integral of the secant is the log of the secant plus the tangent I want to evaluate it from 0 to pi over 4 okay pi over 4 is 1 over the cosine of pi over 4 the cosine of pi over 4 is 1 over root 2 so this is the log of root 2 the secant of pi over 4 is root 2 tangent of pi over 4 is 1 minus the log secant of 0 is 1 tangent of 0 is 0 log 1 is 0 so this is the log of 1 plus the square root of 2 so it's enough it's enough log 2 it's a little bit a little bit less than the log 2 the other example that works is x to the 2.3 power so let me point out that sometimes sometimes these curves are easier to do integrating dy remember the formula is dy squared plus the x squared sometimes it's easier to lay on your side and find dy after that not to do that example so arc length is really easy but a lot of students the idea of arc length I think is very easy this formula makes perfect sense if you think about it just draw the picture most of the stuff in this class if you just think about it in the right way it's pretty easy but the integrals are generally horrible but okay some viewers can do integrals pretty well yeah this one can be done not by me so what is it can you do it can I say that oh yeah okay we did too much of this jump already so I'm happy because there's like blah blah blah so I can ask my computer to do these things a lot better than I can do it so computers are really good at this jump I have to show you how to do it so you can get some sense of what works and what doesn't work almost nobody actually does integrals by hand you have to understand how they work so that you can set them up but very few people that account for this class actually do nasty integrals like this you get a nasty integral like this you ask your computer it tells you yeah that's the answer or it tells you I don't know and then you say okay tell me numerically and it gives you give me it to so I'm gonna so any questions are everybody's good with it does everyone feel confident that no matter what function I give you you can set up an integral not necessarily do the integral but set up an integral to calculate anybody unconfident so the unconfident people most of the people in these empty seats here are people who said I have an exam last night you can't get up from that okay so let me move on so our quick is easy so let's move to the next topic this is also easy so it may seem like I'm going fast but it's easy so we should go fast when we can because we're behind so the next idea suppose suppose I have 10 numbers 3 5 7 18 these are people's grades on the midterm and I want to average them what do I do should I be more generous 30 150 170 these are 4 people's grades on the midterm what is their average what do I do to find their average and I divide by however many I have so this is 30 plus 150 plus 170 plus 180 over 4 okay suppose instead of having 4 grades I have 400 grades that I want to average what do I do I add them all up and I divide by 400 suppose that instead of 400 I want to compute the GPAs from all students at Stony Brook what do I do I add up all their grades and I divide by however many grades I have I divide now by well typically people get say 5 grades a semester there's roughly 20,000 Stony Brook students so I add them all up and I divide by 100,000 okay suppose I have some function that describes to me all the grades and it's not a bell curve because no so here is all the grades some people low, some people high and I want to average it what do I do and I divide by how many I have so the average is however many I have times some of all values this should start to look like something else you know I have a bunch of stuff and I divide by how many well other than the dividing by how many stuff I have what is this it's an integral if the number of things I have becomes very large so large that we'll call it infinite and it makes sense of the notion of the average value of infinitely many things or the average value of a function if I give you some range of values that the function takes on and I want to figure out the typical value or the average value well let's just do it in terms of a picture for a minute here's my function it's a line it starts here it goes here and I want to figure out what's the average value of all the numbers in between well geometrically this is pretty easy I can cut this in the middle so this is so the average value is just the area divided by the width find the area under the curve and divide by its width that would give me this is the same I should have brought a color as if I take a rectangle of the average height in other words if I take this piece and I cut it off and I flop it down there right here where the average is achieved people follow this looking really good so the average is just the area it's the integral divide by its width this is just the exact generalization of that add up infinitely many little heights divide by how many little heights you have exactly the same thing why is this useful well this is very useful in things like probability probability you want to talk about the mean where you sample a continuous distribution the mean is just the way of saying the average calculate the mean of something that's continuous you just integrate over the range of possible values you divide by how wide that is in a lot of applications you want to average some function this is very straightforward you just find the area you divide by the width that gives you the average in terms of genetically what we're talking about another way to say it we look at the graph from there to there I want to find a rectangle who has the same area as this at the same base so I'm going to cut some off the top and fill in the valley so I'm just going to take a big bolt over imagine this is a mountain and this is the hillside because I'm going to build a shopping mall there so I just cut this off and throw it down in the hole it's not enough so I cut this off and I just smooth this out here and so this is my average value this height there's as much stuff above as there is stuff below it's just the idea of I cut the top off and I fill in the valley and I make the rectangle of that height the rectangle of the height the same width is the average value that means it's exactly this idea now you need to see an example of this I mean it just seems so obvious that it's already been mentioned but so one fact that is useful in several applications is this mean value theorem so it's mathematically useful it says that if I have a nice function that goes from here to there there's always a point that takes on the average value this mean value theorem mean in the sense of average not even in the sense of not nice it says that if I have a continuous function it's like a nice curve in between so there's some c there's a c with c between a and b so that the value of the function is the same as the average value isn't true if my function isn't continuous if I have a jump then this isn't true because I suppose I have a function that looks like this and then it jumps down here while the area under this the average value is here there's no c that takes on this height because it's always this high or that high the function is always 10 and 0 there's no value that takes on the 5 so this is false but if your function is continuous then everything's free and here's the right idea why don't we stop here thank you for being in class I'll be back we'll get your exam back in recitation next week so Monday Tuesday or Wednesday raise your post as soon as I happen we'll see you sometime in a year


Frida Maria, who is in studio with me, she has an interesting story. But before we talk about Frida Maria, the name of the segment is strength of a woman. And we try to highlight the women who are leading a life that could be inspiring to the rest of the queens out there. So in my hands, I have two of the books. She used to be the queen of Chakacha. But now she's turned minister, and she goes by the name Frida Maria. And the author of the book, Princess Frida, the new me, and Priceless Gems Every Girl Should Have, Karibusana. Asante, Sana Bari. Thank you. Yes, in case you missed anything, you can tell them on that camera right there. Just a brief intro of yourself and a brief bio. Hi, praise the Lord. My name is Princess Frida. I'm a gospel minister. I'm a mother. I'm an author. Yes, I love the Lord. Yes. Karibusana for you one in the morning. I used to watch you as a kid. And I just figured that out right now. I used to watch you, but I couldn't connect the two. The new Frida and the old Frida queen of Chakacha. But it's a pleasure to meet you. I used to be a big fan. Oh, thank you. All right. So you have been busy writing books, ministering, traveling the world, and doing all sorts of things. But before we highlight that, we have to get your story. Mm-hmm. High school. We can start from high school, maybe. All right. You wanted to know where I went to? Well, you went to high school. And why are you dancing back then while still in high school? Oh, OK. I went to a school. If I mention the name, you will not know it. Because the size of it is Duka and Yama. All right. So it's one of those schools. Yeah, one of those schools. Yeah, present Kennedy High School, here in Nairobi. And in the fourth form. But you were born and raised in Mombasa. Yes, partly. Partly. Because my dad met my mom in Machakus. And they got married, and they went to Mombasa, then Nairobi again. So Mombasa and Nairobi. Mombasa and Nairobi. In between Mombasa and Nairobi. And then in high school, you went to St. Kennedy's, which might not be existing right now. But I'd like to know the circumstances around your high school life. Because before you become Queen of Chakacha, you must have performed so much, I'm guessing. In school. I did. I used to dance a lot in school. Actually, I started as a dancer. And in school, I used to teach people how to dance. Because since I was a kid, my mom tells me, I used to dance even for the visitors, love music, write music, and write stuff. I wanted to be a news anchor when I grew up. So I could sit down and just write. And when I watched someone reading the news, I'm like, I want to be like that. So I was that happy girl. So you were always confident, always happy, always performing, always talking to the people. After high school. After high school, I went to college. I started working. Working, going to college as a secretary for like six to seven months. Still in Nairobi? Still in Nairobi. I got bored because I felt, I'm going to dance.  You have places on stage. Yes. So working was, OK, I was hardworking. But I did not, it was not my passion. It was in my, it was my thing. I was just doing it because of my parents. So I was like, last morning after school. For the money, maybe? For the money, not really. But just nisi-gep, nisi boyeke, yeah. All right. So at what point did you say I'm going back? On stage, full-time, on stage. I want to be up in the entertainment industry. Yeah. One day, my friend in the office told me that my, told me that we have a place she goes to on Saturdays and Sundays at Disco that she wants to introduce me to. So I, she told me where the place was. He was in town. So I came to town and I didn't like the setup because they were all girls dancing and they were not dressed very well. They were kind of naked. They were exposing too much. Exposing, yeah. And I was like, that's not my thing. I don't want that. She said, OK, we went back. And we ran back with my sister. Like, oh, that's not our place. People are drinking and stuff like that. And being raised as a Muslim, tough stuff, you know? It was very tough for us. It was strict. So the following day, thank you. The following day, that was on a Sunday. She introduced me again to another club in Westlands, Boomerang. So when I went there, I liked the place and I saw people dancing and I'm like, I can do this too. So I was introduced to the manager the same day. This was more decent and not really compromising. It was, it was. So I started dancing as a break dancer.  Can you still do it, by the way? I can, I can. We'll test that interview. Towards the end of the show, we'll be dancing to out of very decent anyway. Yeah, so when I was introduced to the manager, he interviewed me as in auditioned me. And then he said, ah, good. Kwanzaa, next week, you're on. You're on. That's how I started. And you had a paycheck as well? Yes, sir. They were paying me every, every Sunday. All right, every Sunday they pay you. Sometimes I started going on Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays.  No. What did your parents think about this? They were not very happy because being raised as a Muslim, it's very strict. Because Muslim girl, you're dancing in the nightclub. Yeah. They didn't know, they didn't know. After one year, I was in the newspaper, the font page, because I just won the Queen of Jakarta title. Somewhere in Kiambo. And my dad was the first one to see the newspaper that morning. And I was like, oh my, when I got home in the morning, they didn't know that we used to go. We used to run. We used to skate. Chinyamaji, Quadrisha, me and my sister, we go. And then by five, we are back to our room, to Najfanya, to Melala. Yeah, so when my mom go, when they go to work. Yeah, for a year. For a year. Wow. If it was not for the newspaper, I think one get you a raka, but when they saw that, by then I dressed, I was dressed in a short skirt, tumbo cut. So your dad was surprised. Oh, my dad was so mad. Because in the house, you were the boy boy. Oh, he hit me with a newspaper. I was so mad, they chased me out of the house. There was, it was like, I don't know what to say, I don't know what to say. I don't know what to say. Islam, how can you do this? Especially a girl.  That's why you quit your job. Nah, nah, nah, nah. I didn't go anywhere. I stayed out of the gate, crying until it come a one there. My mom came and picked me back, come back to the house and don't go to the clubs again. My sequence, yeah. I even introduced my brother, my kid bro, who is Kanda King. We are going to be talking about your brother. I will introduce him. I like your brother. Yes. While doing this thing. Yes. Your sister. Yes. What was your dad's reaction to your sister? They didn't, they didn't beat up because I'm the one that introduced her too. You are the older one. Yeah, I'm the older one. All right. So I used to take her along with me, carry my bag, stuff like that. I'm guessing your dad had friends with his dad. Yes. He did. He told me Omenia Ibisha. Omenia Ibisha called friend to Wangu. Nini, nini. But then when I started being famous, like Niko Kwa newspaper on TV, I'm traveling, money's coming in, paying for my brother's school fees. They're like, okay, you can do that. It makes sense when you start making some money. Yes, yes. Wonderful. And then one thing that my dad did was, he used to follow us to the club for almost like eight months because one day I came out of the club and I saw my dad's car. And I asked the bouncers, he gari, when you gari aquapi and they're like, you're the customer too. It's inside the museum. It's inside. And I'm like, what? That's my dad. So you had been following you to the club all this time in Chinyabai? What helped us was, me and my sister, we were not drinking, nothing. We were drinking soda. After show, before the performance. Yes. So my dad, we asked, I went to the car and waited for my dad. And I said, dad, you're here? He said, I want to know what you guys are doing if you're spoiling my name. You know? Because I want to stop this thing. You forget that you were not really into something really bad. Yeah. You were just an artist back then. So when he saw that, he said, okay, from today, I'll be taking you guys to perform.  All right. So that was easy for us because it drops us to this club, this club. For night, we can do like three clubs.  Yes. Yes. I tell you. All right. Yes. And I'd like to know, your brother, Kander King. Yes. How does he get into the spotlight? I introduced him. I taught him how to dance and gave him the name Kander. So this is the t-shirt of the king. This is the t-shirt of the king right here on Y254, channel on Y in the morning. So you mentored the brother. Mentored him. He's one of the best we have out. Yes. He is. Right now. So you mentored the brother. Did you take him, did you tag him along to some of your performances? I did. I did. Because I also gave him my name, Kander King. Because we used to, we used to take styles from Kander Bongo Man. And I had to link Alus Mabelle or somebody. So yeah. So we thought Kander King, Kander King, not Bongo Man, Kander King is a good name. So I gave him the name. Now he's changed to Kander King because he's a father. Now he has two sons. So we have a little Kander King though. Yes. Yes. So I used to tag him along. We go to clubs, to carnival, to different places where I used to perform. And I used to go to the kids when I'm dancing and the DJ changes the music. And I used to go there and people loved him. All right. Especially the ladies, I bet. Oh yeah. And he was tiny. He was so tiny. I remember one day I was beaten up because I missed exam on a Monday. We traveled to Mombasa and we were supposed to come back on a Sunday. But that Sunday, we had to come back on Monday and miss Shule. Oh. Your dad was not impressed. My mom. Oh, your mom was not impressed. He was. Yeah. He was mommy's son. Yes. All right. Before we talk about your relation with the people you used to work with back then, at what point of your career, after winning all these awards, after performing on all these stages, after being on TV, I know you've met some of the most powerful people in the country. What were some of the highlights during this particular phase of your life? What do you remember from Farida, the Chakacha queen? Oh, it's a lot. Because I remember one time, they sent me a ticket to travel to Dubai. But when I got to the airport, just at the airport here, the treatment was different. I'm like, hey, VIP stop, you know? I almost have bodyguards around me. And my parents were like, what's going on? I did not know that the president of Dubai had sent me the ticket. It like invited me to go perform. Head of state. Yes, head of state. Is it number one? Yes. He invited me to go to Dubai for his birthday and perform. So the treatment from here to there, oh Lord. Yes. And I'm like, are we looking for my, yes, my visa, you know? When I checked my visa proper list. Then I saw the name of the person who invited you. I don't know who that was. Whoa. This is when your parents figured out that you are going to meet the president of Dubai. Yes. Who did you tag along on this trip? I was alone. You are alone. They divide me. First I used to go with the mushrooms and some of them are Fangala, but this time I was invited alone. All right. Because most of the time, they would request for me. They would say, if you're not coming with her, no, this time we don't want you to come. Okay. Because I was. You are the star of the show. The center of attraction. When they put up the billboards, they'll write, she's back. They will not even mention my name. She's back. They will not help princess for a day. I love that. So you went to Dubai a couple of times. Yes, many times. So many times. Yes. All right. This is the kind of dance. The chakacha, you know? Yes, I've seen it. I can't really do it. Yeah. I've seen it. I can tell when I see it. Yes. So I'd like to know, at what point did you know this is not for me? It's not something that I planned. Because I was on top of my career. Like, I just bought new equipments to start my life. Now I just recorded a new album with my full band. Because I used to go with the mushroom and stuff. That's why I formed my own band. And we traveled again to different countries. So one day when I was coming from the trip, from Dubai, I stayed for one year, a guy kept calling me, one of the crew members. He kept calling me to the cockpit. And I'm like, what's up, man? You do what, you know, Nifke, I'm an employer. I was hard. Still is. I like this very much. I like the confidence you use it. So he kept inviting me to the cockpit. And I said, man, no. I'm not interested. I'm not a student. How do you want me to go to the cockpit when you're not sure how you operate the plane? But he kept insisting. Actually started bringing me perfumes. There is a perfume and a letter that my designer perfumes, they're duty free. You know, they're sold $100 and $130. But they're giving them for free, three of them. Killa Kienda, he said, no, he brings me a perfume. Oh, this is in the house. We bought this one for you. Please come. Funny thing, I bought perfume Zangu. And I'm like, whoa. I even asked my brother, did you talk to this guy? My sister too, because we're the same plane. So my Uluwambia, the kind of perfume I use, he said, no. So I decided, ah, it's too much. Let me just go, but I won't go alone. So I took one of my dancers. We went to the cockpit. But when I went to the cockpit, I looked, she took already Nishipe and all that. I'm like, wow, it looks so beautiful. The planes, yeah, yeah, and Danny, you know, it's like a studio. The runway, equipment, the lights. So wow, the lights, two pilots. So I just let you go and visit the airport. So when I focused, and I saw people dressed in white, with clouds, I'm like, whoa, who are those people that look so beautiful, pure white. And I'm like, oh. So you asked the gentleman next to you. I was just talking to myself, like, whoa. You know, it's my first time to be at the cockpit. So I'm thinking, easy for it to happen. That there are people there, who are cloud. They are worshipping, they are raising out their hands, like, you know, men and women and children. But then Nika Sema, who are those people? And I'm like, I want to go with them. I heard a voice speak to me and say, Farida, you cannot go with those people. I'm like, I look around. And that time, it's like I was out of the plane, somewhere dark, and I was crying. I'm like, in a dirty place, very uncomfortable. And I asked, who is this? And why can't I go with those people?  Yes. You heard a voice. I heard a voice. Very clear. I never heard it before.  Before I asked something else, he told me, if this plane crashes right now, where will you go? And the moment he said that, I saw myself crying. And I saw the plane crash.  Fire, I took even the letters, we're like, doing that. Why were you heading? We were coming home. You were coming home? Yeah. All right, you're not going to perform someone? No, we were coming back home. We had stayed in Dubai for a year. So when I heard that, that you're a sinner, and that that's all later as hell, I started crying and repenting. Saying, I'm sorry, I'm in the cockpit. Not audibly. Like I said, it's like, I saw myself, me and all of you, and I'm seeing myself, they are crying in a corner, in a dark corner, in a trans, I think, in a trans. Who was the first person you talked to about this story? About the story? After you, all right. Wait, so when I started crying and repenting, I felt a hand touch me, touch my shoulder. He said, my daughter, you have the last chance to go to heaven, but you must go to church. You know? I felt happy. There was joy in my heart. Could you tell who this person was? I knew it was God. Yes, I knew it was somebody that's, I knew it was God, you know? He knew you're sure, because he created us. He knows us, so he knows how to speak to us. When he said that, I felt a lot of joy. I felt, I felt, I was lifted out of me. And I was so excited, and I said, yes, I'm going to heaven. So when I screened that, the pilots heard me, is when they turned and asked me, you think we're taking you to heaven? We're actually around at the river, almost landing. Do you know what I'm like? Can't you ask me who I was talking to? Didn't you see those people were, were worshiping? Nothing. How long do you think this trance took? I don't know. I don't know, because when they told me that, we were already landing. So when they didn't ask me any other question, like, who are you talking to? Where did you go? I wanted them to ask me, hey, will you fly or happy? No, they didn't say that. So I was confused. One, I know I was happy, but I was confused. What happened? Church, me, I'm a Muslim. So I went back to this, to my seat, and I'm like, oh, something happened. I need to go to church. I told one of the dancers that I went to, last month, if you like a church, would this come in week? Was the dancer Christian? Or raised Christian? She was a Christian. So I told her, you must tell me to church, to your church. To Kiland, Kesho, take me to church. Yeah, that's what happened. Which church, will you be able to church again? Okay, at first I landed in a different church, somewhere in Roaraka, but then Bishop Kitonga, now he's my spiritual father right now, of Redeemed Gospel Churches, looked for me. He sent people, because God spoke to him, meant to her. So I was taken to church, to his church, but till now, separated. Different situation. Yes. God talked to him in a different situation. Yes, yes. And God talked to you in a different situation. Exactly. Because we're running out of time, you have two books written, and one is about you, Princess Farida, The New Me. Yes. Yes, what can we get from this book, apart from your life story? Here, there's a lot of lessons that I've learned along the way. You know, before I got born again, and I didn't know my purpose then, because in my life, yeah, I can say I broke a lot of marriages, not knowing, you know, in quotes, breaking marriages, because my kind of dance used to be... Erotic. Yeah, seductive. So men used to like go crazy about me. I could be dancing in nightclubs, and I see people fighting, you know?  So you knew the effect you had on the gentleman. Yes, yes. So... And before you used to assume it, Exactly. I did nothing wrong. That is what you used to say. Yeah, I used to say that, but it's because I was not in my purpose, serving my purpose, the one God created me to do, because God put music in me, but He wanted me to serve Him like I'm doing now, but then the enemy took it to the nightclubs. All right. I'd like to highlight some bullet points from the book. All right. And the first one is stop holding to the old, let God do something new in your life today. What can you say about this? Yeah, that goes to actually to the unborn again, you need to give your life to the Lord, so that you know what He, you have a lot. I did not know that I could write books. I didn't know that I could write songs. I didn't know that I could speak, be a motivational speaker, and encourage someone that is down, you know? God can use, I didn't know that I can pray for some and they get healed. You know, they're anointing. When you serve God, when you give your life to the Lord, He leads, He leads you. But God has walked through you like this. I like to highlight another bullet point, but you're not going to comment on this one because it's self-explanatory, but I love it so much. The only place yesterday is happening is in your head. Embrace a new beginning. That is a message from Faridah or Princess Faridah. In her book, they knew me, it's on Amazon as well. How can they get a hold of it online just in case they want to have a peek? Okay, someone can talk to me through Real Princess Faridah on Facebook and Instagram, Real Princess Faridah, or the Twitter. You can go to the Real Faridah and you can DM me. Talk to me there. And then get a link. If you have any prayer requests, no problem. Prayer requests. We pray. As well. All right, onto your next book and this one is Pink Like My T-Shirt. In the spirit of celebrating the Gala Jail. This is Queen's Wednesday on Why in the Morning. The book is called Priceless Gems Every Girl Should Have. Yes. Yes. What inspired this book and what messages in this book that is not in the handbooks for the ladies? No, not the other one. The other handbooks that we've seen for the ladies. All right, all right. This one is a tool. I say it's a mentorship tool that I use for the girls because every time, like now I'm on TV, there's some places that you give out your number. When I give out my number, some girls, you know, so I just save it. So I started having calls, getting calls from young women. They're like, I'm pregnant and I want to do an abortion. And I'm like, no, no, no, don't do it. It's a sin. So it's a ministry that God is giving me because later on I came to realize that I tell them that just they don't get an abortion. So we have like- Just because of your word. Yes. Just because of the word God has spoken through you. Exactly, exactly. So we have saved like 35 babies. I have a foundation called Princess Farida Foundation. We have saved like almost 35 babies from abortion. So I decided because I cannot reach all of them, I decided now to put it in a book, you know, teach them stuff. Because through your words, you can reach masses. Yes. And masses of people. Yes. So they can like know this is what to do, this is what not to do, know your purpose, know why you created, respect yourself. Respect yourself, this dress, the way you're supposed to. You want to be addressed, such things, you know. Do you have events that you get to talk to the ladies about certain topics like these ones? Oh, I do mentorship. I have an office where they come. We do mentorship. We pray with them, believe God together with them and teach them stuff about Jesus and about life too. Wonderful. They can get it on your social media handles. You'll be sharing that in a few. But the last topic of conversation is the music you're doing right now. It's gospel music. And I'd like to know a little bit about it. Who's producing your music currently? Who's writing it? And who are the support structures for your music? Okay, right now I'm working with John Tez. I've worked with few like BZB. But right now I'm with John Tez. He's producing my music. And I've worked right now with a new video that I've done, Rafiki Waqueli. It's a collaboration with Delima. I've worked with Steve Hunter. He's done a good job. But I used to work with Gad Gaddo also and Jay Blessing. So right now I'm also working for another music and another book. I'm also writing another book, which is almost out, part of the tongue. And that's what I can say about my music, yeah. All right, there's a question that is coming from one of the viewers out there. And I like it when you answer a question from the viewers because it's really organic. And we have quite a number but I'll pick this one and it goes something like have you gotten criticism from people saying that you are a pretender? They don't believe that you've changed any bit. That's not new. Because when I got born again, my story is dramatic.  We didn't say nothing, you know. But I know myself and God knows me. He looks at the heart. So I wouldn't even know why someone can say that you are changed, but I know I've changed. And people that are close to me know that I've changed a lot. I learned of myself. I like that. Thank you very much for coming. I feel like we can go on and on and on. Because you are quite interesting. You have a story. So as we wrap this up, your social media handles. So people can interact with you. They can get a hold of these books as well. Your camera is number one. Okay, for Facebook, it's Real Princess Farida. And Instagram, Real Princess Farida. You can hear me. You can talk to me there. And Twitter is the real Farida. Then you can go to my YouTube channel, Princess Farida TV, subscribe, like, talk to me there. You know, comment, watch my music. Watch my interviews. Because there's a lot of stuff in my channel. And you can get my books on Amazon and also my music. Yeah. Thank you very much, Princess Farida. Thank you so much, Barry. For coming through tonight in the morning. We appreciate you. Thank you for inviting me. The strength of a woman. The strength of a woman. Our strength of a woman all day. Amen, hallelujah. Amen. Thank you. Yes, we've come to the end of this particular segment. We had Princess Farida herself. Now she goes by the name, Princess Farida Maria. Megwala, she's married with two kids. And now ministering the word of God. You can check out on social media so you can get more of a story. She has an interview with Turning Point as well. You can get more info on that. So right about now, we have Valentine coming up next with Girls Talk. You don't wanna miss this. They have a hot topic of conversation. I go by the name of Barry Moses or it's very more on every social media platform. Don't hide that doubt.


15 years ago an Israeli national stole a catapult bolt stone that was over 2000 years old from the city of David National Park in Israel. Now he has returned citing that he fears this may be the end of the world over the coronavirus outbreak and he didn't want to go to judgment as a sinner. The citizen said, the time has come to clear my conscience. It feels that the end of the world is near. The original theft occurred when two youths touring the park 15 years ago saw a display of ballista stones which had been catapulted at fortifications 2000 years ago. To not risk arrest the stones were returned by a trustee who agreed not to divulge the name of the thief. Described as a national treasure, the IAA's Jerusalem region, a leading archaeologist explained in the press release that ballista are a form of ancient weapons which were used by forces besieging a city and were used to hurl stones to cause forces on fortress walls to flee. The ballista stones which were uncovered at the city of David are most likely connected to the harsh battles between the besieged residents of Jerusalem and the soldiers of the Roman legion from around 70 CE, the year of the destruction of Jerusalem. Other locations in Jerusalem where similar ballista stones were uncovered include the Russian compound near the estimated path of the third wall, which was the external wall of Jerusalem during the time of the Second Temple. In the excavation of the Israel Antiquities Authority there a battlefield was uncovered with dozens of ballista stones scattered on the ground. 15 years ago in the city of David, upon seeing a pile of these ancient projectiles, one of the boys took one of the stones home. Initially drawing attention in a Facebook post to the IAA, comments suggest the person that took it had married and raised a family and told that for the past 15 years the stone is weighing heavily on his heart. And now when he came across it while cleaning for Passover, together with the apocalyptic feeling the coronavirus generated, he felt the time was right to clear his conscience and asked for help so he could return it to the Israeli Antiquities Authority. An inspector in the IAA's theft prevention unit was tagged in one of the comments in the post. They arranged for a quick hand off of the artifact. Taking the artifact from its archeological context negatively impacts the research and the ability to piece together its historical puzzle. Anyway guys we just thought we would share this with you, it's hard to turn our attention to anything else we have been researching at the moment in the midst of the chaotic scenes that are unfolding across the world, but there you go. Comments below and as always, thank you for watching.