Okay bubot, today yet another video about shared fantasy. This time we will try to look at it from a different angle. You seem to have some difficulties in comprehending the concept and some of the behaviors attendant of the concept. And this is because the narcissist is inconstant, not consistent. The narcissist is not consistent because the narcissist is dissociative. The narcissist is discontinuous. You have this assumption of an individual with a beginning and an end and something in between. A continuity, like, I don't know, a flat line or an ECG line. Narcissists are not like that. Narcissists are packets. Like IP in computers, they're like packets of information. And in between, there's a void, there's deep space, there's darkness. The narcissist erupts into life and then is extinguished, erupts extinguished, like a candle in bed shape. And so because of that, narcissists don't maintain stability, consistency. They don't have what we call inner construct validity. It's very difficult to capture the essence of the narcissist. One day, for example, he could be enormously, incredibly, romantically jealous. And the next day, he can turn a blind eye to any shenanigans, any ostentatious infidelity that you may engage in. One day, triangulation is going to work wonderfully. The next day, he's going to be immersed in something else, in obtaining supply, for example. And he's not going to give a hoot where you're going and with whom, what you're doing. And then you say to yourself, but it's like not the same person. It's not the same person. It's about what I've been saying for 25 years. It's a form of dissociation, dissociative identity disorder. It's a private case of a multiplicity of personalities or personality fragments of what we call self states. Okay, so I'm trying to try to explain shared fantasy from this angle. And together with the previous videos on shared fantasy, you ought to have complete view of the dynamic. I also strongly recommend that you download the three graphics, violet, violet, blue and white, graphics of the relationship cycle map with the narcissist graphics created by Haley Martin. Similarly, Haley Martin created a graphic about contempt, the various types of contempt that narcissists feel and psychopaths, by the way, feel towards other people. And all these graphics are available on my Instagram, my new Instagram channel. Narcissism with vacuum. One word. Narcissism with vacuum. My previous channel had been blocked by Facebook owing to your kind complaints. So on this channel, this Haley Martin helps me with creating images of memes of things I say. So you have the relationship map there and so on. But you can also download the relationship map from my website. And there are links in the description to one of my videos. You can find links, links to this. And don't forget to have a look at the contempt graphic created by Haley Martin. As an aside, the pandemic seems to have transformed all of us into Saudi women with niqabs.  So we have all been rendered onto Saudi women. The Saudi women finally conquered the world and exported their fashion everywhere, courtesy Dr. Fauci and others. Jokes aside, masks are good for you. I was very strongly against masks when the pandemic started. But the pandemic has been mismanaged so egregiously by politicians and American establishment that now we have no choice. It's out of control. It's really a threat. Now we have made it into a threat. And now we must protect ourselves by any means possible, if necessary, by becoming a Saudi woman. Nothing wrong with that. You should try it from time to time. And I propose Saudi women. I have a few clients who are Saudi women. And I want to remind you that during the pandemic I don't provide face-to-face counseling. And therefore I don't provide cold therapy because cold therapy relies crucially on a phase of face-to-face counseling, level one. Instead I provide cold therapy technique counseling. I'm using techniques from cold therapy in phone and email counseling. And you can write to my email sanvacnin at gmail.com and I'll respond. You can also go to my website and ferret out my counseling page. You can have counseling with me, you can have counseling with Lydia and you can have counseling with both of us, a joint session. Today I would like to discuss two phenomena. The first one I dwelled upon and that's the shared fantasy. But another phenomenon which I would like to discuss today is what I call self-gaslighting. Now gaslighting, as you might recall, is when abusers, they don't have to be narcissists or psychopaths. And actually narcissists don't use gaslighting as often as psychopaths do. But any abuser, abusers tend to make you doubt your reality testing.  They make you doubt your interpretation of events. They make you doubt the explanations, the narratives that you construct to explain to yourself what's happening to render life in its kaleidoscopic myriad manifestations meaningful. So they make you doubt meaning. They make you doubt significance. They make you doubt causation, what led to what, who did what to whom.  And they do this in a variety of ways which put together are known as gaslighting. But sometimes you're doing it to yourself and this is self-gaslighting. Now how did I come to that? I mean, how was I reminded of that? The other day I received a direct message from someone saying to me, and she wrote to me, you see that you are a fraudster. Your prediction about remdesivir, the drug that had just been approved by the FDA for the treatment of COVID. Your prediction was totally wrong and everything you said was wrong. Now here's the interesting thing. I was among the first, if not the first, but definitely among the first in late February and early March to suggest that the only class of antivirals that's going to work with COVID-19 is remdesivir, anti ebola antivirals. I dedicated at least three separate videos advocating, and I'm talking about the beginning of March, advocating remdesivir as a treatment for COVID. I extolled the virtues of remdesivir. I analyzed the mechanism of action of remdesivir. I suggested to start with clinical trials of remdesivir, and I said extremely clearly several times that ultimately and finally all the other drugs will prove to be inefficacious with one exception, remdesivir. And I had been right. Well, there's dexamethasone as well, but remdesivir is it. This is the name of the game. It's the only antiviral that works against COVID. So I was wrong. I was dead right. I was very, very right. Why did she, suddenly I begin to ask, why did she think, how could she think that I was wrong? She claimed to have listened to the videos. How could she have reached a conclusion that I was wrong, that I was wrong about remdesivir when I was seriously right about remdesivir? What mechanism in her mind? What made her mishear, misinterpret what she'd heard? And that was self gaslighting.  So she wanted to hear. She wanted to hear, she wanted to listen to the video and to reach a conclusion that I had been mistaken. She expected to hear that I, being a fraudster, got it wrong. She came to the video. She watched the video with preconceptions, with expectations and with very, very strong desire to prove me wrong. And this predisposed her to hear something which was not in the videos, utterly, absolutely not. There's no way to listen to these videos and get it wrong. So she was not actually listening to the video. She was listening to her inner voice. She was listening to processes and dynamics in her mind that pushed her to falsify reality, to confabulate, to reframe, essentially to lie to herself and to lose reality testing. She was no longer in touch with reality. What was she doing? She was gaslighting herself. She removed herself from reality into a delusional space, in that delusional, fantastic space. All her wishes came true. Sam was a fraudster and he got it wrong about him, the severe and the pandemic, because that's what she wanted very much to prove. So what was actually said in the videos was blotted out, deleted. You have this power, especially as victims. You hear what you want to hear. You anticipate humiliation, rejection, abuse, torture, torment, agony, pain, exploitation. And then you gather information from the environment, including information about your abuser, and you reassemble it. You reframe it. You put it together in a narrative that justifies your expectations, validates your fears and concerns, and upholds your view of your abuser. You have a negative view of your abuser. You don't want to hear anything that contradicts this negative view.  You're going to firewall. You're going to ignore it. You're going to repress it and deny it. So any positive information about your abuser will be eliminated.  I was saying in the videos, I don't know, maybe 50 times. I mean, many, many times. Remdesivir is great. It's going to cure COVID. What did she hear? Remdesivir is wrong. It's not going to cure COVID. She heard exactly the opposite. That's what she wanted to hear. You're doing this as well. You're gaslighting yourself. Now, nothing wrong with it. It's not a pathology. It's known as confirmation bias. When we are emotionally invested, when we are protected, deeply emotionally invested in any mental process, for example, in trusting someone, or in distrusting someone, or in experiencing pain, or in being traumatized, or in being very afraid, whenever we are emotionally invested in a cognitive or an emotional process, our brain shuts off, deletes, represses, denies and ignores any information that challenges the theory that you had constructed or the bias that you had formed or the narrative that you have put together. At some point, you create a theory, a theory about other people and about specific other people, like your abuser. You create a theory about the world and about specific events, occurrences and circumstances in the world. For example, your relationship. Now, these theories are very dear to you. You're emotionally invested in these theories. You want to protect them. You don't want them to be challenged. You don't want them to be undermined. You don't want anyone to tell you you're wrong because that's narcissistic injury. It challenges you. Grandiosity and all of us have grandiosity. It's a normal state of things. So, you don't want to listen to any of this. My abuser is abusive. He's an animal. He's bad. He's evil. I don't want to listen to anything which will undermine this or contradict this or challenge this. And if I do, if something penetrates my firewall, if there's an intrusion and some bit of information comes in, which kind of unsettles the precarious tower that I had constructed, I'm going to reframe this piece of information. I'm going to lie to myself. I'm going to gaslight myself. I'm going to ignore reality. I'm going to impair my reality testing. It's not only about abuse. It's about everything, about political candidates. The supporters of Donald Trump don't want to hear anything bad about Donald Trump. And when there is an avalanche of seriously bad things about Donald Trump, they reframe these things. Every shortcoming becomes an advantage.  Every disempathic, seriously wicked comment becomes irony and proof of sense of humor. Everything he does and everything he says is reinterpreted, misinterpreted, recast, reframed, confabulated. The supporters of Donald Trump create narratives that shut out, shut off, delete and ignore any information or data which contradict their already well-established theory of who is Donald Trump, what is Donald Trump, who are the enemies of Donald Trump, with the friends of Donald Trump, what's Donald Trump going to deliver and when. Same with Obama supporters, same with Adolf Hitler supporters, same with any personality count. So self-gaslighting is an integral, very crucial process of establishing an inner equilibrium, an inner peace, a sense of calmness and resilience, allows us to carry on with our lives. If we were to question all the time everything we think we know about other people, about specific people, about the world, about events, about morality, we would never get anywhere, we would freeze. The world anyhow bombards us with gigantic amounts of information. Studies have shown that we absorb only 5% of the information that is offered to us by reality, otherwise we would drown. We would freeze like a very bad tablet or device, we would simply freeze. So it's a denial of service attack if we open ourselves to all the information out there. We have to choose. We make selections and choices all the time and we make sure that these, the selected data, the selected info fits well with previous info, with previous data and with our theories within which we accommodate these data and information. And this leads of course to resistance to learning, resistance to change and don't think that this is only among laymen. In my own profession, among my colleagues, I frequently encounter resistance to change. That's true in physics, where I'm active, that's true in psychology, where I'm active, that used to be true in economics, where I was active, when I was active in that field. There is enormous resistance. Thomas Kuhn wrote a book called, a book about scientific revolutions and he said that the paradigm shift, changing your mind, changing your view of how things work, is a very excruciating and onerous process. People are resistant. People fight to death to maintain their views and ideas of the world and not to accept any challenge or change. I am right now in the throes of suggesting a new conception of addiction. And you know, there is this dogma that alcohol is a depressant and that alcoholism is a brain disease. Let me share something with you. There's no proof of either. If anything, alcohol is a dysregulator. So it leads to ups and downs in moods, in emotional processing and so on, but ups and downs, not only downs. Anyone who drinks will tell you this. When you drink, you feel good, you have the buzz. You don't feel bad, you don't become depressed, you become depressed a bit later or a lot later, the day after maybe. But you are depressed the day after probably also because of hangover and other effects. It's not a depressant, it's a dysregulator. This minor change, just to accept reality, that alcohol is not a depressant, it's been a mistake. We were mistaken. No one, no one accepts it. You should see the fighting over this. And when I suggest that a 40% of the brain is dedicated to addictions and to processing addictions, maybe addiction has an evolutionary advantage somewhere. Maybe it's a positive adaptation, not a negative thing. Wow, you should see the reactions. You know, alcohol is a disinhibitor. It's a disinhibitor. It makes you actually feel good. So an addiction is a normal state. And these modifications, it's a fourth world war, third world war. I don't know what to call it. Is it a brain disorder or a disease? Here's another bit of nonsense. Yes, of course alcohol has an effect on the brain. Everything has an effect on the brain. Sugar has an effect on the brain.   But what caused what? What preceded what? We definitely don't have answers to this. And to say that alcoholism is a brain disorder is to lie. You know, I don't mean words. That's not only nonsense. It's fallacious because we don't have any conclusive studies that demonstrate that alcoholics were born with a specific proclivity or disorder or abnormality or dysfunction in the brain. None. So, you know, don't feel bad. Self-gaslighting is whenever people defend the status quo, whenever they don't want to exit their comfort zone, whenever they had developed laboriously with a lot of investment, a lot of thought, a lot of dedication, a worldview, an opinion, a judgment. And then they would take information and data and falsify them and transmogrify them and transform them and ignore them and deny them and repress them and combine them wrongly with other pieces of data and information and do anything in their power to preserve the equilibrium, the homeostasis. This is self-gaslighting.  She heard that I said exactly the opposite. Why? She wanted me to be wrong. I'm the abuser. I'm the monster. I'm the narcissist. I'm the psychopath. She couldn't accept that I may have been right.  She wants me to be wrong. So she misheard and she didn't miss here a single instance. She misheard three hours of videos. That's the power of self-gaslighting. Now to share a fantasy. Karen and Gammon. I hope I'm pronouncing it correctly. Karen and Gammon started in the black community. Blacks gave these monikers, used these monikers to describe whites.   And Gammon was the male equivalent of Karen and started in communities of color. But then it emerged as usual by the minorities always lead the way. Trends start with minorities. High status minorities like elites, like aristocracy, intellectual elites, or low status minorities, but always minorities. Change starts in minority communities because they have very little to lose. They can gamble. They can take risks. They seek novelty. Their only chance is to unsettle the existing established order. That's the only way to progress. So everything starts there that's deferment.  And grandiosity, entitlement, contempt are colorblind. And when I describe the narcissist and the relationship cycle of the narcissist, many people said to me, well, that's a Gammon or a Karen. You're describing a Gammon or a Karen. Not really, but step by step. I want to start with a comment by Anna Monte, if that's a real name. Anna Monte is a viewer, so one of my videos and left a comment. Thank you, Sam. You gave me all the final answers and the strength to understand and wake up. Every narcissist takes you in with the mask of a father and the wonderful fantasy ends when you realize that under the mask there is just a child full of pain. You abandoned him because you wanted the men. Thanks. And I thought, this is a wonderful summary within a single sentence of the entire dynamic. So I'm going to read it to you again. And there's nothing you can do about it. Every narcissist takes you in with the mask of a father and the wonderful fantasy ends when you realize that under the mask there is just a child full of pain. You abandoned him because you wanted the men. Thanks. Thank you, Anna Monte. And I answered, yes, exclamation.  And they seek intimacy with a man, or they abandon the narcissist altogether. There is no infidelity, I wrote to her. There's no infidelity or unfaithfulness involved, even when there is deception, even when there is cheating. So I distinguish two elements. There's the sex with a man outside the marriage, extramarital sex, or some other form of betrayal, non-sexual betrayal. But there's going outside the marital bond, going outside the couple, and in a normal couple, in a healthy couple, that would be unfaithfulness, infidelity, adultery, but not with a narcissist in my view. There may be deception. The intimate partner of the narcissist may lie to the narcissist about her behavior, what she did last night. That's deception. It's an entirely different issue. But there's no unfaithfulness and there's no infidelity. Women, when someone is with a narcissist, with a narcissist intimate partner, she doesn't prefer another man to the narcissist. She prefers a man to a child, or to a father, or to a guru. She opts for a man rather than for these other roles.  Don't let me repeat this every two minutes. So if you're with a healthy man as a woman, if you're with a healthy heterosexual, you're with a healthy man and so on and so forth, loving, caring, sexy, etc., etc., and you stray, you cheat, one-night stand, love affair, that's infidelity. That's unfaithfulness because you had chosen another man to your man, over your man.  That's unfaithfulness. That's infidelity. But the intimate partner of a narcissist doesn't have a man at home. She has a child. She has a father, sometimes rarely. Mostly she has a child. When she goes with another man, when she has intimacy with another man, sexual, emotional, doesn't have to be sexual, when she offers herself in any way to another man, as a friend, as a lover, it's not that she makes a choice between two men. The man at home and the man at work, or the man at home and the man in the bar. That's all that's happening. She's not choosing another man. She's choosing a man, a man. At home, she has a child. She doesn't have a man. She's a virtual single. She's single. She doesn't have a man, so she's not choosing another man, so she's not unfaithful. There's no infidelity here. So you can say, okay, so why does she stay with him? It's immoral to stay with him and to be with men. Those who remain in the relationship with the narcissist had agreed to assume the role of his surrogate mother. Why? I don't know. They pity him. Or they cannot countenance hurting him. They don't want to hurt him. They see the wounded small frightened child crying in the corner. They can't hurt this child. They simply can't hurt him. They pity the child. So they can't dump the narcissist. They can't abandon the narcissist. But on the other hand, they need a man. They're women. They have sexual needs. They have emotional needs. They have intimacy needs. They have good time needs. They have need for fun, to have fun. They are women.  So it's not that they choose one man over another. It's they choose to be with a man over being with a child. And they remain with the child because they don't want to hurt the child, because they pity the child. And maybe some of them who are seriously delusional, malignantly optimistic, keep hoping that one day this child might reveal his other side as he had done misleadingly during the grooming phase and the love-bombing phase. But they still seek fulfillment as women elsewhere, either with other men or with children or they become alcoholic. Never mind. The betrayal and the abandonment has many forms. Cheating with other men is only one way.  It's a very complex dynamic because it is not a dynamic between two others.    Sometimes it's a psychedelic, bad trip, LSD terrifying experience.  You thought you were a woman in a world without mirrors. Then one day you came across a mirror at the airport. You look at the mirror and you see that you're actually a man. Can you imagine the shock? The narcissist goes through his life believing himself to be an adult, treating himself as an adult, demanding respect as an adult, fulfilling adult roles. It's role playing, it's acting, it's play acting. He doesn't really feel in it. He feels he's playing a role like a script. He regards his life as a movie. Then one day he passes the mirror at the airport and he looks in the mirror and he sees this tiny child, this small child. Tiny child, three feet. Imagine the shock. Imagine the disorientation, the discombobulation. Imagine the storm, the fire, the volcanic eruption, the tectonic shift in his mind. The moment he finally accepts that he is not an adult. And so, you know, many people told me during the love-bombing phase and the grooming phase, the narcissist is future faking. No, he is not future faking. I would have used this phrase had he been appropriate. Future faking is a predatory technique. It's when a predator with clear goals in mind, with a clear plan, makes false fallacious lies and promises about the future which he knows in advance he has no intention to fulfill. It's part of a strategy. It's a subterfuge. In other words, scamming or corn artistry. That's not the narcissist. He doesn't future fake. He truly believes these promises and his lies. He's entering a shared fantasy, a shared psychotic state. The narcissist is not predatory. He is acquisitive. He's not a psychopath. The psychopath is predatory. Psychopath is going to look at you and say, wow, this woman has a lot of money. I'm going to promise her marriage. I'm going to promise her children. I'm going to promise her undying love.  That's future faking. That's future faking. He's going to groom that woman to take her money. That's future faking. The narcissist takes a look at the same woman and he's infatuated. He's in love. She's ideal. She's brilliant. She's amazing. She's perfect. She's intelligent. She is the epitome in essence and quintessence of femininity. She is and she is. There's never been like her before or will ever be after, et cetera, et cetera. And then he falls for it. He falls for his own fantasy, fantastic space. His own concoction. He's not predatory. He is acquisitive. He wants to acquire her. He wants to drag her and bring her into his shared space, where everything is pink and Disneyland, where every promise becomes true just by virtue of uttering it. This is magical thinking. If I only say something aloud, it must be true. If I think something, it will manifest and become. This is narcissistic thinking. Psychopath never loses touch with reality. Absolutely not. Psychopath knows exactly what he's doing. Sometimes he loses control of his impulses. Sometimes he rages. Sometimes he's reckless. Often he's reckless. That's because he doesn't care. He rejects life. He doesn't give an S, you know, but he never loses touch with reality. He knows exactly what he's doing. Any second and every minute, he knows to tell the difference between reality and fantasy, not the narcissist. The DSM defines narcissistic personality disorder as a disorder of fantasy.  So when the narcissist makes you promises about the future, how lovely it's going to be, how perfect it's going to be, how you're going to live happily ever after, you're going to have children, the most perfect children and, you know, a future together and he will make commitment and investment and he will change himself for the umpteenth time. When he makes all these promises, he is not lying to you. He's not faking. There's no faking in this future. He really believes it's going to happen. Why? Because he said it. And because he wants it very much. The thing, you can easily see that the narcissist in this sense is a child because children have magical thinking of this kind. They confuse fantasy in reality, wish fulfillment. It's a dream state. In dreams, we very often fulfill wishes. And when we are inside the dream, very rarely do we know that we are dreaming. Usually we think we are in reality. The narcissist mental state is a dream scape. It's a constant mental dream scape, dream state. And it's easy to see that the narcissist is not an adult in many ways. For example, let's take a typical man, a healthy normal typical man and a woman. When there is a romantic attachment, immediately there are three triggers in both parties, male and female. There are three kinds of behaviors that are triggered and they are partly biological. There is abandonment, fear of abandonment and fear of loss, which translates into romantic jealousy if a competitor enters the scene, a serious competitor. There is possessiveness. The intuitive perception of the other is an object, objectifying the other and rendering the other property. Now we all do this. This is why in psychology we call people objects, because we all objectify other people. The amount of data and information about other people is so gigantic that we have to reduce and to obstruct. We select a few points and we connect the dots and create an introject. We create an internal representation, which is essentially an object. So there is possessiveness. And there is competition, especially with men, but not only, of course with women as well.  They show possessiveness and they show competition. And so when you look at the narcissist, for example the cerebral narcissist, no way. All he has is fear of loss and abandonment. He is not possessive and he is not competitive. He couldn't care less. He couldn't care less. His wife can be out every single night of the week, return home drunk at the small hours of the morning and he wouldn't even bother to ask who you were with and what were you doing. He is not possessive. He is not competitive. But the second he sees a hint of a shadow of a possibility of abandonment or loss, it triggers him. And that's the only artifact in the arsenal in the inner world of the cerebral narcissist. Loss of abandonment, loss of abandonment, fear of abandonment, anxiety about loss. No possessiveness, no competition. Now this is typical of children. Children are not competitive and they're not possessive, but they do have enormous, tremendous, or to paraphrase another narcissist, huge abandonment anxiety, separation anxiety, fear of loss. Children have this and they don't have possessiveness and no competition. So children as cerebral narcissist are children. They are children, very young children, pre-edible children, children before the edipus complex. When you as a child develop the edipus complex, you begin to be jealous, romantically jealous.  That's the edipal stage. Narcissists get stuck pre-edipally. They are not even sufficiently developed to have the edipus complex. They get stuck before. They're like babies, infant formula, infant formula. Risk of loss, hint of abandonment, shadow of desertion, they go crazy. Otherwise reassure them that you're always going to be back. Yes, you're going on a vacation with another man, you know, for two weeks, but you'll be back. He doesn't mind. He doesn't care.  That's child. It's totally childlike. It's totally childlike. Some subtypes of narcissists, somatic narcissists, and especially psychopathic narcissists, they have all three. They have romantic jealousy, which is essentially abandonment, anxiety, transformed. They're romantic jealousy. They are possessive and they're competitive. So, somatic narcissists and psychopathic narcissists do have all three, but they have the etiology, the reason, the causation, the causes beyond these three is not the same like healthy or normal person. And also the length and the intensity of these emotions. For example, if the psychopath or the somatic narcissist becomes possessive, becomes jealous and becomes competitive, and it's not working, he will dump you. Where the healthy, normal partner may try for months and years to restore the relationship, to recover from the infidelity, to do something, to change himself, to change you, to modify behaviors, to make new agreements, to establish communication protocols. Psychopath and somatic narcissists may be momentarily possessive and competitive, but they move on. They move on. We can go into it in another video. So, women who are with narcissists, they are virtual singles. They are like single mothers with a petulant child, or with a stern father at home.  These women date. They go out on dates, same with a narcissist intimate partner. She goes out on dates. She goes out on dates, or she has very intimate relationships with men, emotional or physical or both, because at home, she doesn't have a man. She has a petulant child, spoiled brat, entitled, self-styled genius usually, or intermittent births of a stern, disciplinarian, harsh father. Whichever the case may be, if you live at home with a father or you live at home with your child, you're still free to date. And these intimate partners feel absolutely free to date, or free to stray, or free to develop a parallel life at work, or with their children, or with their friends, girlfriends.  Dating is an outlet. It's an escape from the dreary, drab, day-to-day pedestrian tasks. And so, narcissists sometimes do fulfill adult roles. They do fulfill adult roles. For example, I mentioned father. Father is an adult role. I mentioned guru. Guru is an adult role. So, the narcissist does fulfill adult roles, but he plays them. He acts them. And he plays these roles only in order to acquire the intimate partner and to lead her inexorably into the shared fantasy. Once he can take the intimate partner for granted, once he is ascertained over permanence, object permanence, object consistency, once in other words he is sure that she will never abandon him, the other trolls go out the window.  The other trolls are brief. They're devoid of true responsibilities, chores. There's no commitment there. It's not real. It's a role. It's a role-play. And the investment in the adult roles, which precede usually the shared fantasy, the narcissist plays adult roles in love-bombing, grooming and honeymoon phases. So, the investment in these other trolls is proportional to the narcissist's expectations and to the benefits he derives. There's no future faking. There is manipulation, but it's not intentional, not deliberate, not goal-oriented, not psychopathic. It's intuitive. It's reflexive. It's like animal nature. It comes from the reptilian part of the brainstem. It's a manipulative ploy that involves self-delusional, self-deceiving role-playing by everyone involved. Everyone pretends it's reality when it's not. And in the initial phases, the narcissist says, okay, I will play the father. I'll play the guru. I'll play the adult. I will even make you adult promises. I'll even tell you that I'll be a great husband and a father. Anything you want to hear, I'll play the adult. But not like I'll play the adult in order to deceive you. I'll play the adult because I'm convincing myself that I can be an adult, that I can be normal if I only wish to. It's magical thinking. A narcissist with extreme object inconsistency and with abandonment, anxiety, for example, a compensatory narcissist. In a compensatory narcissist, the grandiosity, the overt obnoxious grandiosity, masks disguises an inordinately low sense of self-worth and self-esteem. So this kind of narcissist will have an extreme object inconsistency and abandonment, anxiety. And he reacts all the time, this kind of narcissist, reacts all the time with romantic jealousy to his intimate partner's infidelity or alternative double life or behavior as a single. Why? Because this kind of narcissist has constant abandonment and lost anxiety. His sense of self-worth and self-esteem and self-confidence are so low that he anticipates abandonment, humiliation and rejection any minute. And so he is constantly in a state of romantic jealousy. Same with borderline, same dynamic in borderline. But most narcissists are not compensatory. They really believe that they are superior, geniuses, gurus, amazing, perfect, brilliant, incredible and I don't want. So these kind of narcissists, they turn a blind eye to adultery, to betrayal, to an alternative life, to single behaviors. These kind of narcissists go about their business of securing plentiful and regular narcissistic supply. They don't care about you.  We must distinguish romantic jealousy from humiliation. All narcissists feel humiliated. And they feel humiliated because of their inability to lead normal lives, in which they are not compelled to share their women or to give their women up to other men. It's humiliating to never have an intimate partner who is only yours. An intimate partner you don't have to share with other men. It's a very humiliating thing because you know you're crippled.   There's nothing you can do about it. Chronic illness generally. You know in medicine how we call illness? Chronic illness? Insult. It's called insult, serious. The clinical term in medicine is insult. It's insulting to be incapacitated, to be disabled, to the point that you can't have anything that is exclusively yours or anyone that is only yours, that you have to share with others. These are the unavoidable outcomes of the narcissist's disability and ubiquitous dysfunction. He can't, for example, provide for the needs and requirements, emotional and physical of his intimate partner. So he has to let him share with other men. He can't in business behave as an adult. So ultimately everyone steals his ideas or he's replaced by someone else. It's a form of cheating.  It's exactly equivalent of infidelity or unfaithfulness. And Nazis go through this kind of humiliation daily. Really, Nazis switch from internal to external mortification real fast. But they do first, at first, experience agonizing trepidation and mayhem. Internal mortification is a very bad feeling. It's like in internal monologue, I'm defunct, I'm deficient, I'm deformed, I'm disabled, I'm incapacitated, I'm invalid. I can't be normal. I can't have happiness. I can't have a partner who would be only mine. I can't keep my job. People will always prefer others to me. My intimate partner will prefer other men to me because I'm not a man. My boss will prefer other employees to me because I'm not an employee, I'm not an adult.   Peter Pan says it openly in the book. I don't want to grow up.  And being cheated on that I keep mentioning, it's only the tip of an iceberg. And I'm mentioning it because being cheated on recreates the original conflict with the mother. So it's really, really bad. It's like an echo chamber of all the previous pain that the Nazis had experienced with his mother. Only infidelity, only sexual cheating or emotional cheating with men has this resonance within the narcissist and only this can lead him to modification. All other forms of humiliation lead to narcissistic injury. Cheating, infidelity and faithfulness with men leads to modification because it recreates the original environment, ambience of painful and hurtful childhood. But the narcissist is in a constant state of humiliation. Women cheat on him. Women abandon him. Businesses he creates go bankrupt. Projects he initiates fall apart. His long-term self-efficacy is zero. He's an imposter and he suffers from the imposter syndrome, Helen Deutch. There's a sense of lost agency, a sense of total external locus of control. And faced with such trenchant failure, if you were faced with such inexorable, repeatable, recurrent, inevitable, ineluctable, unavoidable failure, like guaranteed, failure and loss are guaranteed. If someone were to tell you, listen, from now on, here's a letter from God guaranteeing that everything you try to do, you try to make a family, you try to fall in love, you try to have an intimate partner, try to establish a business, you try to publish a book. Whatever you try to do, guaranteed you will fail and you will lose.  Your false self is unremitting. It's grandiose, unrealistically grandiose. And you have the super ego who tortures you in a critic. So you always fail, guaranteed. What would you do? What would you do if you were faced with such an internal environment? Well, there are two options. The first option is suicide. It's a form of internal, taking internal modification to its logical conclusion. I'm so impaired, I'm so disabled, I'm so effed up, I'm so good for nothing, I better put an end to it all. It's suicide. That's the first rational, frankly, option. And then the alternative is to say what causes me pain is reality and everyone and everything in reality. Simple. I'm going to divorce reality. And I'm not going to divorce reality by becoming psychotic. That's too extreme. I'm going to divorce reality by becoming delusional, fantastic, grandiose. And that will move me from internal modification. I am corrupt. I am decadent. I am disabled. I am imperfect. It will move me to an external modification. Everyone is malicious. Everyone is envious of me. The world is hostile. It's a jungle out there. It's a win-lose. It's a zero-sum game. So these are the two options of the narcissist. Suicide or grandiosity. It's a no-brainer. Of course, you would choose grandiosity, but it's also a catch-22 because to defend one's fantastically inflated view of oneself, to defend one's grandiosity from challenges, from stark reality, from the lack of patience and malice of other people, this brings with it its own set of humiliations, betrayals, abandonments, derision, slides, challenges and put-downs. When you try to defend your grandiosity, you look like a buffoon.  And people treat you disrespectfully.  You're humiliated by your intimate partners, by your recurrent failures in everything, constantly defeated. You're in the defeated state of mind.    But this also brings humiliation, defeat, failure, betrayal, abandonment. There's no escape. And this is where I want you to understand.  You can't separate the narcissists from his narcissism.  Addicts become their substance. Narcissists become their narcissism. The disorders displace these people. Narcissism displaces the narcissists. The narcissist transmogrifies, changes shapeshifts and is consumed and digested by his dysfunction. From individual to dysfunction, only the disease is left behind, having consumed and sped out the person that used to be. It's a second death. First time around, the true self dies. It's sacrifice, like human sacrifice, to the new God, the false self. Then the false self proves to be not efficacious. False self proves to be not the solution. And then the disease takes over and it's the second time the narcissist dies in a process known as modification.


When I was in Bethlehem in 2011 I met a professor. We interacted a lot with university faculty. I met a professor and I asked her to tell me a story about checkpoints and she told me this story. It's called Checkpoint Bethlehem. When the soldier boards the bus in your land bearing an AK-47 you move toward the front. He herds women and children the old and finally young men off into the cold metal structure that is your prison and your freedom. The bars and gates horizontal and vertical red light and surveillance camera strip you to nothing. Another 18 year old boy in fatigues behind glass stairs but no eyes meet. He locks on to the monitor scanning your body for evidence of weapons beyond being merely Palestinian. At 65 you still cannot accept this. How a boy barking at you in Hebrew can render a woman a professor invisible and conspicuous. His voice like a man scolding a dog remove watch and belt place your purse on conveyor belt you stand frozen waiting for green light and then push the turnstile with everything you have. Getting back on the bus to Jerusalem where you'll apply for a visa to visit your brother in America becomes an exercise in resistance and hope. On this Sunday while most in Bethlehem sit in church you attend this other ritual of faith. The boy soldier with his feet on the table waves you past the gate until you stand before him silent. When you shove your black ID in the slot beneath the window he says nothing. He turns and waves to another soldier a young woman with short braids and two tight pants. They quietly exchange words and she rests her hands on his shoulders begins to massage him leaning into his ear to giggle and whisper. You wait again imagining 15 or 20 minutes pass while you stare hard at the floor this touching and flirtation a hostage taking. These two could be your students your grandchildren even but you arrest your rage knowing that to protest will only prolong your weight and getting to Jerusalem on your five-hour permit is the only relief.


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Okay, I'm working with Blender version 2.78a. And in the last video, we did a tronglow effect with some cubes here. So if I hit F12, we can render it. But we used the internal renderer. Today, we're gonna use the cycles renderer, which will give you a slightly nicer look at the fault. Both can be tweaked a little bit. But you'll notice that this took just under a second to render. And cycles renderer is going to up that. And that's at half resolution there. So let's go ahead and control N to load our startup file. Again, I'm going to have my cube selected. I'm gonna hit Tab, hit A once or twice to make sure you have everything selected. And then hit GZ1, Enter. That grabbed everything, all the vertices inside the object here and moved them all up, leaving the center point at the base of the object. At this point, I am going to go over here to Materials and I'm gonna go ahead and in this case, leave this as this white texture. Cause I think that ended up working out better in the internal renderers. Let's leave it like that for now. But with the object selected, everything selected, all the edges you want, we're going to hit Control B to bevel. And we can start moving our mouse cursor so we get the edges that we want. And then we click and with them selected, we're gonna come up here, hit New Materials to that plus symbol to add a material to this object. But there's no material that, so let's go ahead and hit New Material. And of course, we're in the Blender Renderer still. Let's change this to Cycles. At this point, I am gonna go ahead and I'm going to choose Use Nodes. And I'm gonna choose, instead of Diffused, we're gonna go to Emission. I'm gonna go ahead and choose a reddish color since that what we did in the last video with the internal renderer. And at this point, if I hit F12, nothing happens because again, I forgot to, while those are selected, so we have our edges that we want selected, the material we want selected, click Assign. And now I can hit F12 and you can see our edges are red. They don't look like they're going because there's nothing for them to really glow on at this point, plus we still have our lighting source here. So I'm gonna tab out of Edit Mode, select this light, delete the light, space bar type, Plane, Add Plane, S10 to scale it up 10 and hit Enter, whatever, you can make it bigger, whatever size you want, 10 is a good place to start. And we're gonna go to our World tab here and change our sky to black. And at this point, I can hit F12 and we should have a nice edge glowing cube. But you already notice that this is taking longer to render than the internal renderer which took under a second for multiple cubes here with one single cube. It took almost 17 seconds to render. But that's fine if that's the effect you're going for. I'm gonna hit seven and go to Top View, five to go out of Perspective Mode and choose our cube here. I'm gonna Shift D, scale this up. And just like we did last time, make a few different cubes here. What's going on? Delete that. There we go. Let's go to our View here and we'll go ahead and add a few more cubes at different sizes here. And you know what? I did in the last videos, I kept them a little straight. Let's rotate some of them so they're not all on the same plane there. That'll make it look a little nicer. So now I'm gonna hit one on my number pad which brings me to Front View. Somehow I created these cubes under here. I was wondering when I was cloning those what happened. Okay, so one on their pad to go to Front View, Control Alt, zero on their pads bring the camera to Front View. At this point, I can select my camera and move it up some so it's above our ground plane and I'll hit F12. And here we go, we have our glow effect, our lighting effect, similar to that of what you see in the Tron movie. And that is it. And again, both the internal runner and the second runner can be tweaked to make this look clearer. We could definitely up our sampling so our lighting doesn't look so grainy here, although I sometimes like the grainy look there. But again, comparing the two, this one definitely looks a little bit nicer, but it was taking almost 20 times more to render. And when you're doing 30 frames a second a video that can make a big difference. So you have to weigh your pros and cons with this. So anyway, that is it. I thank you for watching. I hope that you enjoyed this video. If you did, think about becoming a subscriber. If you think about commenting, sharing, liking, that stuff helps out a lot. Think about going to filmsbychrist.com. There you can search through all my videos from all my channels and also see other things that I have up. 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Quick question that I've really got a lot on my social media messages and people are asking about what is going to happen, what is the future forcibility of immigration processing as well as the federal skilled worker program.


Good morning everyone and welcome to our conversation around institutionalizing public interest technology. My name is I'll be moderating the session My name is has a Mahmood. I'm the director of data solutions at the Patrick J. McGovern foundation where I lead a team of Data scientists engineers product managers to build and deploy data and AI products for the social good sector So in many ways, it's very similar to the work the great work that many of you are doing within PID So as we think about public interest technology and a lot of the conversations we had over the last Day feels like it's been a few days, but over the last 24 hours We want to think about the next natural question really comes to me at least I'm sure for many of you is how do we ensure? Sustainability of this right. How do we institutionalize this to make sure that the long-term? Institutional support will continue to provide the impact That this brings to our communities and the collaborative outcomes That it brings as well specifically to marginalized and minority communities and so we have here, you know a group of incredible leaders That will walk us how they through how they've developed institutional support within You know their organizations some of the challenges they've had to navigate As well as how they built relationships and activated resources on the campuses or within their organizations So to start us off maybe as or maybe you can start us off with just I mean each of you if you could give a little introduction But also just a glimpse or some of the highlights of how you've institutionalized Public interest technology in your campuses or on your great organization. So Thank you, it's great to be here and it's great to share At least the narrative of the story at BU So I was lucky because the way pets was created is came organically Because of the University thinking about its strategic plan 2030. It's called BU 2030 So there was a realization that computing and data sciences are permitting every field and Transforming if not already transformed these fields as well as professions. So if we want to make impact on society That you we can think of computing and data sciences as a catalyst for that impact And the question was what is the best way to have a catalyst for Compute for impact Based on computing and data sciences University put together a task force the task force came back and says Here is what you should do You should not You should not assign this to any existing unit because it has to be university-wide So you should create an academic unit unlike any other that Cross-cuts all the others and Here's the other piece they said and It has to have a different culture because it has to be interdisciplinary It has to be focused on impact. So it's very important to give it autonomy Which means give it faculty lines allowed to develop its own programs and Most importantly be free from the street jackets of the disciplines from when it from what it comes That's how CDS was created Now I mentioned the strategic plan the strategic plan had for BU had a number of pillars One of them is research that matters. It's interesting, right? So what is the priority research that matters? That matters for who for society That's pit if you think about it, but delivered through multiple disciplines now with an investment like what BU has done you are sitting in the result of that is Investment it's big building and all the faculty and all that It was important to support the other pillars of the strategic plan plan, which were what? vibrant academic experiences diversity equity and inclusion and Community so if you just think about these words that is public interest technology So this is how it happened at BU. I was very lucky that it came organically And you know maybe I'll stop here. Yeah. No, thank you very much. Meena That is an amazing story and I wish I could say that we had a task force that put this together So my name is me in a show and I lead the United States Digital Service Which is a team right now of about 200 public interest technologists Attached to the White House and we deploy in small interdisciplinary teams including product managers designers engineers data scientists Procurement experts and folks who are experts in government Implementation and we deploy across the federal government to help agencies and occasionally states build and deploy technology in thoughtful reasonable user-centered equitable and modern ways so really helping Agencies and helping up-level technology implementation across the federal government, but through actual implementation programs We are just had our ninth birthday. So building institutional support has been an exercise of practice And actual work every single year working with agencies delivering results and having agencies continue to See what their peers are accomplishing and realize that they in fact want to be able to accomplish that as well You know unlike a tidy task force that that put for such amazing recommendations The impetus for creating this entity Came out of a crisis. So one thing we often say In government is never waste a crisis crises are a real impetus for action and The crisis that sort of helped catalyze the creation of the US Digital Service was the failure of healthcare gov and the recognition that one like healthcare gov had built into a Policy objective a technology platform as you all know and as We've just discussed Technology underpins Everything we do today all of implementation all of the work That companies organizations do anything that requires thinking or in transacting with people Technology underlies that and so healthcare the Affordable Care Act recognized that built it in but then the failure of implementation and technology really ran the risk of scuttling a huge policy objective and so starting to Recognize that you need to have not only expertise in Writing and deploying policy which is words on a page But also in writing and deploying everything that enables that as an integrated part of the program Was sort of the genesis of the creation of us. Yes at the time We were very small kind of a startup and over the last nine years Through performance through building relationships We have grown as you see and you know some of that is Congress Funding but we continue every single week to have more demand for the work that we do Then there is capacity for across our team, so You'll hear me say it later, but we are always Hiring one of the other things that we have taken on though in recent times to talk about institutionalization is we Are working with a number of agencies that have begun the journey worked with us to say You should build into your budget and your personnel planning How are you going to take on this work and carry it forward over the next decades? And so we're working with them on how to do both subject matter expert and equitable hiring practices working with them to understand what Flexibility there is in the hiring and and where to go looking for Experts in public interest technology and technologists who fit the bill So we are expanding not only our organization But working with a wide array of agencies across the federal government to expand their capabilities in these regards as well So wonderful to be here very excited for the discussion Thank you I'm Dave Gustin and I'm at Arizona State University And I have two parts of my title that I will use to describe some of the institutionalization pit at ASU part of my title is Founding director emeritus because I'm no longer the director of ASU school for the future of innovation society and This is a school that was created in 2015 a little bit before the conversations around public interest technology began But is part of a set of academic conversations around the Governance of emerging technologies around responsible innovation around science technology and society or science and technology studies that have been part of the academy for several decades and the school at ASU emerged from a excuse me from mostly a set of research activities that have gone on initially Sponsored at Columbia University where ASU's president Michael Crow had previously been Around a research center that he had created called the Center for science policy and outcomes whose motto then as now is Rethinking the role of science in society that center That center Ended up at ASU when president crow when Michael Crow ended up at ASU and at that time in his inaugural address at ASU set out a vision for a new American University that was very much after the vision of the Land-grant universities that were set up in the moral act that we heard a bit about Yesterday ASU was not the land-grant institution in the state of Arizona alas our neighbors down the 10 and Tucson are but Crow in His scholarship as a science policy scholar Recognize the virtue of that kind of model and began ways of institutionalizing that at ASU including Articulating a set of design aspirations for a new American University that have use inspired research intellectual fusion global engagement and so on at their heart That Allowed us to compete successfully for a large award from the National Science Foundation To look at the governance of emerging nanotechnologies in particular under the National Nanotechnology Initiative when that initiative Wound down when that research center that I directed wound down My colleagues and I went to Mike and said well Can you keep our cost share going for a little bit more and that's one of the major? Lessons of institutionalization cost share from the center Because so we can figure out what what we do next Mike said I know what you're gonna do next you're gonna create this school so yes Mike yes Mike we created a school for the future of innovation in society and We have collected now Something just short of 55 faculty members. That's not all FTE's but 55 faculty members in a tenure granting school At the university that represent more than 40 disciplines and six non-phd Preparations and we are sort of the beating heart of interdisciplinarity at ASU Second so we have that opportunity to work in this interdisciplinary pit space around this intellectual tradition that has gone on for decades The second part of my title is as associate vice provost for discovery engagement and outcomes at our Julianne Wrigley global futures laboratory and the global futures laboratory is now a university-wide structure the word where the word laboratory is meant to describe a Scale of operation that aspires to national laboratory size think Sandhya think Los Alamos and so on we have 700 affiliated faculty across The university in the global futures laboratory And the mission of the global futures lab Measures up with what we've heard about human thriving is basically about allowing humans to thrive on a changing planet and so we now have a university-wide apparatus to think about these issues and In the role that I have as associate vice provost It's basically my and my staff's Chore to begin to make this university within the university function along those aspirations Thank you. Dr. Irwin. Can you share a little bit from your end? Thank you for joining us virtually as well. Yes, we can So Organizational unit with international science foundation directly for technology in terms of partnerships or TNP tip for short And you know, I think that when I think about tip As some of you who I know already really had some conversation over the last year or two Well, we'll know I think about a lot of what we're trying to do is very much aligned with PIT and very much aligned with sort of trying to figure out how we can institutionalize that both here at NSF But then also more generally at the myriad organizations universities, community colleges, technical schools As well as industry and others who we support we touch all across the country too So from our perspective, you know, this is a story that's a little bit both bottom-up and top-down as well bottom-up in the sense that even prior to the establishment of this redirect About a year and a half ago. One of the first things that we One of the things that we did actually led by a different director that I worked in at the time computer Information Science and Engineering Director was to really try to be responsive to what we were seeing in the community Research community as well as the interception between the research community and the general public Around some of the challenges that cities and communities all across this country with us That you know, we heard from the community broadly the rain workshops and news And that led us to a realization that there was an opportunity for us to really invest in what we call the time of smart Connected communities or later the civic innovation challenge But invest in activities that allow us to be able to really bring researchers together with practitioners together with Residents in cities and communities to really better understand the challenges that they face on the day-to-day basis whether it be in terms of water in terms of Transportation in terms of health care and so forth and based off of those challenges really take an approach that allows us to through socio-technical Pursuits not just technology, but really bringing technology together with Society and a better understanding of behavioral science and so forth and other kinds of drivers To really developing approaches that address those challenges, but in a way that that that does so with sort of the Responsible attributes designed in So that's an investment that Through that bottom of power of the community really speaking broadly computer scientists social scientists Systems engineers and others really speaking broadly about the opportunity space that we saw a gap in we were able to create these Investments and over time we've sustained those investments And I think the proof has been in the pudding in terms of the projects that we have funded and how they have Transforming the impact of communities across the particular So that's sort of a bottom up Perhaps perspective and then the bookside is sort of pop cap And that's where I think the tip directorate Really comes at the point so about three four years ago. It's something you know there were senators in Congress who Felt very strongly about some of the competitiveness challenges technology competitiveness challenges in particular that we've faced and we continue to face today vis-a-vis other nations Other countries around the world That the level of investment that we were seeing in AI in quantum and biotechnology in variety of technology You know, were we keeping pace with the levels of investments that we were seeing other nations Or into these areas as well And so they they drafted legislation that initially called for holding the agency federal government Several several efforts and conversations and bits and starts I would say that some of you know But ultimately a couple of years later That legislation and some of that was primed not just by technology Propheticness in those areas, but also the semiconductor and supply chain issues that we were facing really primes to Say okay, we're going to pass legislation the chips and science act and among other things It's going to offer as a new director that really takes on this mentor address helping to address helping to sort of accelerate addressing some of our technology competition issues But we're furthering that as well if you read the legislation you read the statute around the tip director It's not just about technology for technology But it also acknowledges the many societal and economic challenges that we face from climate to clean energy Critical infrastructure and so forth and it also further acknowledges to a large degree The fact that to be able to do all of this work to be able to do this acceleration We need to do a much better job of engaging the full and diverse population exists all across the country You know, a lot of our investments have tended to concentrate on the coasts in big cities and big R1 institutions, but there is Talent everywhere and this is my boss who used to be a day as you I said multiple times in the past You know, it's incumbent upon us to create opportunity everywhere and to really seize upon the innovation potential that exists anywhere in this country And so I think that those factors from a top-down perspective together with our own thinking the director's thinking the teams thinking here perhaps also Conversations that we had with the community think all of that really led to sort of a vision for the tip to record Which is one where you know, we want to foster regional innovation particularly in parts of the country that Could benefit from additional investment. There's there's talent there. There's opportunity space there There's sort of expertise set, but there's been historically less investment or under investment that that Investment by NSF could allow for that to really be turbine charge But also at the same time doing it in a way that ensures that the technology that we're enabling this is is You sort of baked into the design for the start regardless the safety and security the Responsibility attributes more generally into those technologies. In fact as part of the statute one of the things that Congress required us to think about is What are the sort of How do you think about these technologies in the public interest products? Essentially codified without using those terms we codified in the statute for us And so when we think about the programs and we think about the investments and we think about how do we institutionalize this We think about it from the very start of conceptualizing the investment that we might want to pursue a program Continue that work might want to pursue How do we bring the right sets of stakeholders to the table to have that dialogue about how this investment is going to ultimately be in the public interest Could be for a particular reason Yeah, no, thank you everyone for that. Um and building on what you said about bringing stakeholders to the table And maybe david you could kick us off with this one. Um, what are some of the incentives that institutional leaders? Um Commit like why would they want to commit significant resources to pit and what are those incentives that you found were successful in your situation yeah, so At asu, which is a very large public institution That is committed to student access and student success Um students are front and center in that conversation about the the value of pit And the school for the future of innovation society um taking advantage of the beginning of p u n and taking advantage of those opportunities that I Described in my opening remarks created a Online master of science degree in public interest technology. That was sort of the first to market Pit degree and one of the challenges that we're facing right now is that in this giant public institution um Pit is still trying to find its way as a field and as a connection for students to recognize that there is You know something at the end the career trajectory the career path and so on and so for example the the work that The network has begun to do around career affairs and things like that is crucially important work a second uh element that allows us to to connect and and create incentives for folks are the Large beginning to be larger scale opportunities that uh the technology innovation partnerships directorate at nsf and other provisions say in the chips and science act that were alluded to that the national science foundation has to um address The ethical and societal considerations of all the work that it funds Um and put together a plan by say 10 months from now. I think is what the legislation said Which really says that not just that uh p is have to change but the universities have to change And so in response to that mandate that comes out of the chips and science act um We are now you know sort of authorized to operate at a university-wide level to think about adding intellectual capacity That reflects this interdisciplinary pit that reflects the synthesis of values and science and technology In order to secure our future opportunities with 10 to 15 percent of our entire research portfolio And that's crucially important similar to that the uh justice 40 initiatives that we've also seen in the biden administration Playing out through uh rnd programs in the department of energy and environmental protection agency and elsewhere Creates the opportunity the incentive the necessity for universities to respond in ways that think about Engaging with publics in deep ways to deliver those Results so those are I think the two most important aspects. Yeah, no, thank you for that And I mean I mean as far as the usds is concerned Not obviously academic, but I mean what what are those incentives that you look for? The the framing of the question is really interesting So I'm going to say how it has played out and also to tee up some research questions. I think for all the institutions here Um The incentives are different for all of the different parties at play. So I will say for Technologists who are interested in public interest and many of the folks who come to work for us got their starting technology 10 to 15 years ago When we didn't use those terms, but it you know It's folks who have a background in technology and are excited about it They already feel like this is an incredible Incredibly meaningful way to contribute. So for example, we're on track to get 8 000 applications this year We will hire about 3 of those So there's a ton of appetite to come and do meaningful work and to use their technology skills in that way In a place where they're highly leveraged. So there's that appeal in terms of like impacts to end users and the people on the front lines who are Touching end users. There's also just a tremendous amount of support You know, we've done work over the last decade to help improve access to services for veterans Trust ratings at the va are now 20 higher than they were nine years ago And it is not completely due to technology but you know We have completely revamped the way that Their front door and their website works how veterans are able to navigate services and access information about where their claims are The team they're launched built a large public interest technology team inside the va They launched a mobile app last year that has almost five stars and over 80 000 reviews So it's an over a million users. So it's an incredibly like Appealing user experience for end users and the people who are servicing those end users on the front lines Experience that every single day, right? People are less frustrated. They have a better job Um, similarly, you know, we're working with the social security administration We help them relaunch their front door and are helping rebuild their call center Um, we're working with refugees. We're working You know, we get to jump in on crises like when there was an infant formula crisis in all of these scenarios Everyone on the front lines Sees and understands the impact viscerally and in their everyday interactions And we all know that all of these demographics are used to having terrible interactions with government Based on a lot of paper forms, right? So you can see the delta and there's a lot of It's it's appealing and it builds trust and it builds and it starts to change expectations about what we Can and should expect from our federal and from our government services at every level Um, so I think those incentives, you know, actually changing outcomes and lives One of the interesting questions is like at that higher level strategic and budgeting layer the incentives um I think you all study this more than me and I and I I'm excited to be here everyone else in my family is a professor And I am not so this is a true honor And and an aspiration for me, um, but the the model of accountability and oversight in government Is not about achieving specific outcomes and being held accountable to outcomes But it is very much an oversight model, right? There are, um i g's there is congressional oversight The way that we try and hold Services accountable is not the same way that incentives are set up In the context of like an organization that receives its funding based on how well it serves user needs And so I think there's some really interesting user There's some really interesting research topics in that and I would deep like I get inbound all the time on what should we Offer as technical assistance to the hill. What should we say about how do we drive forward on customer experience legislation? Or how do we set up the incentives differently? It would be incredibly helpful to have more insight and more research in that area and what How the structure of sort of oversight and accountability as it's set up across different levels in different places in government How that really affects The way because it's it right now. There are not the incentives at the budgeting and the management Layers to say, okay We need to invest in this because it will achieve the outcomes that we all seek in terms of engaging with the public Instead the incentives are how do I make sure that? um I don't end up testifying or with an ig report that says I tried to offer a service and it was not 1000 compliant with these 47 different requirements. So, um Yeah, no, thank you for them, you know As I'm curious you touched a little bit on the introduction about, you know, how you've been working on institutionalizing pit What are those key levers or mechanisms by which you did that? here at BU Yeah, so I maybe I should I should go back a little bit to say that We had all the ingredients for what we wanted to do and That helps So let me give you some examples You all heard about BU spark last yesterday and the students and all that Well, BU spark was created before The faculty of completing the sciences was done actually well before two or three years before It was created For a gift to give students experiential learning opportunities internships and all that You do this by having the students work on real projects That are sourced from let's say the city of Boston or nonprofits So that piece was there What else we had amazing collaboration between very distant fields Uh computer science and law We have scholars in both and they're our top scholars. They're the name professors who are doing it So they're already doing this. They were collaborating on things to do with regulatory questions Legal questions of new technology Across the board What else Every department is already signed to think about well, how do I deal with computation and data? How do I teach my students that? so I have to start with this because When you make an investment as big as what BU has made in computing and data sciences You really have to think about the entire university cannot just do that for one department And if you think about it Every department benefits from this so here and here's another level that everyone is Will stand to gain from this investment and that's very important and Let's talk about the administrative side. So so from from the perspective of The board of trustees or the president. Why is this important? Well, actually, this is a great story for BU if you think about it For fundraising for Signaling to The world that this is how BU is betting on the future Right, so so these are the levers that really Help cds be what it is today No, thank you for that azer Everyone a question for you in regards to when we think about like, what is that stake here if we don't take steps towards institutionalizing public interest technology Whether from your perspective within the NSF or more broadly in the industry So, so I mean, I think that's a large extent What's at stake is is the continued separation between the technology that we're developing and that we are enabling and the society that needs Uses that technology, right? And I think that It it essentially creates a mismatch And it also perpetuates some of the some of the challenges that we are seeing way there Of course in the last several four years With some of these emerging technologies as well. You think about AI we think about fairly enough pain points that we've seen So there are lots of positives Generative AI there are lots of Benefits associated with GANs and so forth, but then there are also many pain points that we have observed Whether it be deep fakes or would be misinformation, disinformation and so forth And so I think that by not really engendering And AI is one of these people right you can imagine similar challenges and pain points and worries in the biotechnology space too You know, I don't want to just focus on my computer science college too too much So I think that you know across the spectrum You see that and you see sort of this this growing divide between Why we are pursuing these technologies and and and how they can be helpful to society If you don't really take that into Start and I think I'll say a couple things that sort of if I can that sort of get to some of the other questions that you pose To the other panelists this morning already You know when we conceptualized the tip director one of the things that we said the outset was You know NSF for a long has done a lot a lot of good by virtue of the investments that we make to faculty at universities great ideas great Thought leaders great students and and we've been pushed some of those New capabilities new discoveries new technologies out into the market But what we are trying to stand for a tip is really bringing the users the consumers the beneficiaries of that research to the table to help shape and motivate that research from the start And I think that that's the glue of co-design and co-creation Where you have both twirling of their states and working together Is what really ultimately enables that Symbiosis between these technologies and what were the original societal needs and use cases that motivated and in general the pursuit of those technologies And so I think that's really what's at the core of this in my mind um, and then I will also say you talk a little bit about incentives You know, I'll give you three incentives if I can just real quick That you think are consistent with what you heard maybe build on what we've heard a little bit as well One is talent You know, one of the things that I hear from faculty like azar and others You know post pandemic a lot of our early career talent that's going into classrooms that's going into science and technology engineering mathematics stem fields They're going into those fields because they saw what stem could do during the course of the pandemic to mitigate Some of the worst pain points of that of that and They feel that there's not to for them to now be able to engage and pursue technologies on their own To help address these societal challenges that we face today and economic challenges to helping find ways to be able to Allow folks to move up the economic ladder in different parts of our country and all around the world without that And so I think that you know one of the incentives has to be The people who are coming into the stem enterprise the research and innovation enterprise the technology development enterprise I think those folks are craving for more efforts along these lines The other is you know, let's go back to first principles about what we've always strived for the innovation ecosystem in our nation You know, there was a time I think when universities were seen as the Beacon of the Hill they were seen as the as the They were seen as the as the As the as the resource for their community for their region to be able to tackle some of the challenges in the community The community and region in which they are located and in which they effectively serve Um, I think that's still true. I don't want to pay the broad brush and suggest that we we moved completely away from that But I think there needs to be sort of a resurgence of that to some extent Um, and then finally the third one is obviously You know, there's there's always funding in it. I'm a funding agency. So I can't not mention funding But you know being able to put dollars to efforts such as this I think that's critical if we want to think about what are the incentives that motivate leaders to be able to Really institutionalize this for five Thank you so much everyone for that. Um, unfortunately, we're getting close to the end of our time here Thank you to all the panelists, but we did want to open it up for any questions from The audience. I'm not sure if there's Yes, we have a question Thank you very much. I'm an academic and my incentive is to publish Where do I publish pit research? A couple of excellent places two of which have their editorial homes at Arizona State University if I might the Journal of Responsible Innovation Which is um Which of which I was the founding editor-in-chief My colleague Eric Fisher is now the editor-in-chief and it's uh, the number one ranked Journal in the history and philosophy of science as of last year. I don't know what this year's impacts Ranking is and then my colleague katina michael Who we share with um one of our schools of engineering and the school for the future of innovation society Is the editor-in-chief of IEEE's new flagship technology and society Proceedings and that comes out of One of the earlier versions of the not quite flagship level of IEEE publications And they have done special issues around pit And then there are depending on which Science or technology you're affiliated with often relatively or significantly high quality blank and society journals That will publish uh pit activities as well Um if I may first of all, thank you for the question As somebody who is getting a unit with faculty to be tenured. I have to think about this So I'll I'll give two answers first direct answer to your question pit to me is Is a field of fields. It's not one thing, right? So it's like when you talk about the social sciences We don't have a department of social sciences. We have a whole bunch of departments that are social science departments So if we think about pit that way then within pit you have academic communities starting to form Next april will host in this space An acm cs law conference. It's the fourth one publication venue some of the most senior people are in it There are journals coming out along these lines So so I will look at at the leadership of the interdisciplinary field That you're working on to do this now the second part of my answer is not a direct answer to your question but You're thinking about publication because that's important for tenure when you create a unit Where the focus is on impact on society Then tenure should be based on the impact you make I said it's very Great. I thought I was doing something wrong So So and this is why one reason when I said we have to create a unit Outside the existing structures is because we get the opportunity to rewrite what tenure means right, so That's the other piece is that I believe that if pit becomes a field and it is Then slowly it will happen universities are very slow What counts as impact will start changing so in in in my world when we rewrote the tenure Of course publication are important citation are important But also is is what you develop being used did it change a policy Did it is there a piece of software that you have done is that data that you came up with We want to count this as a matter of fact We even said something else if you collaborated with somebody and they are the ones who got all the Benefits of your technology and you're a third author there They couldn't have done it without you That's a contribution. So so I think I think that's actually the bigger question is is how can we now shift academia to recognize impact as opposed to adding to the body of knowledge this goes back to my Let's make the ivory towers into a public square Thank you so much as our Unfortunately, we are at time. I wanted to thank all the panelists if we could give them a round of applause But thank you again for for joining us today


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