This is State Tech Hawaii. Community Matters here. Hey, hello. How you doing? Gordo the Tech Star here. Well, here we go again, another exciting and thrilling episode of Hibachi Talk. So please pull up a chair, grab a libation. I think this is our 155th show. All in those three years, I'm here. Mr. Lanning, sir. I'm here. I'm here. I'm here. I'm here. I'm in a state of shock. I'm real. I'm sorry I've been traveling. Mr. Lanning has been traveling and presenting security matters. Items around the entire area. Thanks, Rick, for helping out in here while I've been gone. Around the globe. But you're here and then you leave on Monday. Well, yeah, but I'll be back. I won't be gone so long. I'm really sorry. You and Arnold, I'll be back. Anyway, it's great that you are being recognized for your knowledge base in this area of cybersecurity and physical security and how they overlap. There's not too many people in this day and age that are very familiar with that. There's a lot to share.  I hit five conferences in a row, right? So everyone there, of course, is sharing and interested in elevating their knowledge. And, you know, it takes all of us learning all the time. And I'm fortunate to be able to give what I give, because I've been given a lot, you know, from others. And so I'm taking that knowledge. And you never know what helps one person, right?  We protect one business, you know, we protect some employees at some business. Then we've done our job. And that's what it's about. And that's what it's all about. You see things that happened with YouTube yesterday. Yeah. And, you know, and the stuff that's happening just all over the globe that has to be now. It's the real world. Yeah. You have to be visual. And then you have to be technically secure. We have a lot of work ahead.  Yeah, what happened over there? So it loses 66,500 plus records because there's no backup in this day and age with cloud and all the other things that are happening on. Like, that's their excuse. No backup. We got to get. Yeah. No, the backup. We should get Todd on here. The backups couldn't work. Oh, nobody tested it. The disk drives got destroyed or whatever. You know what? Someone needs to do a deeper dive on this. I'd be more than happy to, but. You know that you and I both know, like, when you, you've got to test your backups, right? You need to test those restorals and make sure they work. This is a, this is normal. This is common. IT maintenance, right? This is not, it doesn't happen, it shouldn't happen to a DMV. When you've got, when you've got cloud, Amazon web services and all these other products and services out there that will do the backups for you. When you're dealing with DMV. Maybe we can get somebody. DMV probably won't talk, but maybe, maybe Todd could come in and give us some comments. Yeah. Someone will get someone to come in. So anyway, today our topic is going to be. Cryptocurrency life cycle equivalence. So because. Oh, yeah. What's it like? Okay.  So we're going to talk about life cycle equivalence, like where we are in this cryptocurrency phenomenon that's going on in the world right now.  I think that, I think that Habasi talk may be the single source of high level cryptocurrency knowledge in the state of Hawaii. I'm thinking about doing a, well, and it started to work out this way. About once a month I'm doing a cryptocurrency kind of. Like an update. Theme show and so on. There's, there's so much. A lot of people haven't done their homework on it yet. So they don't know. And so my plan today, and I've got a bunch of slides, but we're not going to get through them all. But my plan today is to just kind of give people an understanding where I think we are in the curves of where we are with the technology adoption and so on. And speaking of technology adoption, you sent me a great slide. Do you like that? I like it. And guess what? If we're going to put it up next.  Let's put the first one up again that we had at the beginning of the title of the show, the cryptocurrency life cycles. So, you know, we're right here. So remember ATM machines? Yeah. What brought you to Hawaii? That's right. You're an ATM guy. 1979 was the first ATM machine in Hawaii. And look what an ATM machine does now as opposed to what it did when it first got here. It's a computer. It's a computer and we can do all kinds of banking with it and all kinds of transactions. It knows who I am by my phone. I love it. You can do all kinds of things. I have no money in it. I don't know why. What about the Nescape web browser when that started? What did that do to the internet? I remember specifically when I was developing websites, people said to me, why do I need a website? This thing ain't going to be around long. So now what has the access to the worldwide web done in that short period of time? It's been 25 years. To businesses worldwide, communications, transactions, I don't care what it is. Everything. Everything. But why do I need a web page? Digital transformation. I remember that. So then the next one is like mobile devices. Why do I need a web? So mobile devices. Here we are now with mobile devices. This is what we've got. By the year 2020, 100% of the world will own one of these, a mobile, not necessarily an iPhone. 100% of the globe by 2020, that's only a year and a half away, will own a mobile device. And when was that? The iPhone was what, 10 years old? 10 years old. This year was the 10 year anniversary. Look at the pace of adoption. So and think of what's happened with that, the adoption, what it's done to change our lives, whether it be getting email, we don't talk about email done. Well, healthcare monitoring, everybody, the thing is, it's like your life. It's your life. Everybody walks around buried in a mobile device. What about mobile apps? The mobile apps that are now loading up on this, that are free. Yeah. The free 99 apps. So these are just, so I'm just trying to think about, you know, what has some of been some of the major ones. And there's a ton. I'm going to show the next slide. I'll show you right now. So if you look at this slide, and this shows adoption of technology in the U.S. from 1900 to 2010. Yeah. And see, 2010, we've got Bitcoin in here. Look at the telephone in 1900. Yeah. And then all the other different technologies. It took it 100 years to get the same level of adoption as, where's the iPhone down there? Look at the orange line. The iPhone's at almost 90% already. Yeah. So viewers, if you're looking more to the right here, look at the adoption of technology and how straight the lines are getting. Yeah. And how much it gets, it's happening. This is pretty cool stuff. Mobile's crazy. It's just crazy. Mobile's crazy. Yeah. Mobile's crazy. That's almost like, almost total 100% saturation in less than eight years. Okay. And look at Bitcoin. Yeah. It's just started. So where are we in this curve? So it says Bitcoin is, that was in 2010, a little bit beyond 2010. Bitcoin came out in 2009. So we're now in 2017 or 18. It's trading at a route, as of today, $6,800 per Bitcoin. Okay. March was a terrible month if you were, if you were playing with the Bitcoin space. An investor. And there's reasons for that too. Of course, you probably don't have time to get into it. That's another show. But so we're here in the Bitcoin. So let's go to the next slide, which I kind of like, you know, we see these bell curves on where technology is happening. Yeah. So, you know, if you look at the, so let's just use the internet as an example. Okay. Yeah. We had innovators back in the early days, and then we had early adopters, and then we had the early majority that got in. Then we had the late majority that got into the internet, and then it just, the laggers, those that came at the very end. And it was over a period of time. So, you know, in my rough estimation, I think Bitcoin is somewhere around this spot in the adoption life cycle. 10%? Yeah.  You think blockchain is a little higher than Bitcoin itself? I think blockchain is a little bit higher itself. Yeah. Because the blockchain is starting to get more legs in other industries. Sure. But, you know, again, I'm trying to give perspectives of where we might be. So the next slide we have is another view at this. And, you know, I do my research on this to try to find, okay, where do we think, where do I think this technology is after 50 years in the business? Where do we think this is? And so highlighted in yellow, you can see, highlighted in yellow is where I think the spots are now in this, the curve that we're in. Initially, the technology triggers when, you know, the blockchain was created and all the related things that were happening to the blockchain. Right. And then, AKA, then Bitcoin gets added to it. I think now we're in this stage, and if you look at what's happening with the Bitcoin currency, declining in value, you know what I'm saying? So we got, what's happening now? We had, at the peak of that curve, I'm going to tell you when that date was, when I believe that date was. That was the Monday after Thanksgiving last year. Okay. And this is why I based it on that. The Monday after Thanksgiving last year, Coinbase, who can't work here in Hawaii because of our great square, that's another, that's another episode. Coinbase on that Monday, by that Monday, had 300,000 new clients. Everyone talked about it over Thanksgiving holidays. Exactly. And then everybody bought in on Monday morning. And everybody bought in, and then the fear, the utmost, the fear of missing out, started to jump in on it. That's why, but at December, Bitcoin was trading at almost $20,000. Yeah, it just went through the roof. It went through the roof. And so we were at that, we were at that peak. And now if you look at what was highlighted in yellow, we get negative press beginning, tons of it. Yeah, there was a couple of, there were some thefts and some hacks and people lost their wallet, lost their password. Well, no, more than that, you know, Google says they're not going to allow ICOs to advertise anymore. Facebook says they're not going to be able to do things with initial coin offerings. LinkedIn starts to do this. So now you're getting all the, the, the, the, The pushback. The pushback. Against technology. Against the technology. And you've got, you've got supplier consolidation. So you're seeing a lot of the consolidation now of those that were in the cryptocurrency supplier business, whether they were exchanges, traders and such. Oh. The trading. And is mining the same thing? Mining. So you used to mine one, now you might mine many or whatever. Well, yeah, well, mining is actually becoming just a global business. We're going to talk about the mining part in a, in a little bit. So I think we're now kind of coming down into this trough. Okay. And it's, and it's where, and it's where the technology has been, what I've experienced in my, my life. I can tell you right now that internet went this way, mobile devices went this way, ATMs went this way. All the things I've seen fell into these kinds of curves for some reason or another. So I think, and right now I find it's interesting, about 5% of the US population are involved in Bitcoin. 5%. 5%. And if you look at this, wow. Less than 5% of the potential audience has adopted it fully. And we're kind of like, so we're right in this, we're in the blend of this trough that's shown here on this graph. It's funny that, you know, because you remember how you talked about it earlier? I remember last year we were talking about how like, the airline miles is, is sort of the idea or an analogy for people with a virtual type of currency. Right. So it's funny that more people haven't caught on to that. Right. You know, because I thought that was a great analogy. Yeah. And so, and that, and that's what, what's happening. So the next slide I want to show is an interesting one because yesterday I was asked by a group of bankers to come and make a presentation on, on Bitcoin and, and what's happening in this space. Okay. So, and I always find it fascinating. When I go to the universities and I go to the, and I get a chance to, to talk to the students there as a guest speaker, I always ask, how many of you in the room have own cryptocurrencies? And now it's probably about half. Okay. It's about half of what, you know, of the students. Mm-hmm. Now when I go to the bankers and introduce there, and this is not necessarily every banker in the entire state, but you know, the bankers, I ask that same question not one hand. None. None. Zero. You think they don't want to admit it? Zero. And I said, yeah, if you're willing to admit it. Yeah. No, no, they're not. They're just, it's like. It's too weird. It's just there. They've got the blinders on. When they're traditionally conservative group, right? Traditionally conservative. Well, I kind of woke them up with this slide yesterday. This was the one I thought, the new technology life cycle of money. Yeah. So if you take a look at the traditional, the left side, traditional old age currencies, right? And you look at where we are again, where I think we are from a Bitcoin perspective. So we're here. And if we continue on this cycle, there will be some point when these intersect and cross and cryptocurrencies will have more intrinsic value than cash and less governments shut it down. I don't think that's going to happen. And that's going to be extremely difficult because there's nothing to stop us. Yeah. How can they shut it down? Well, they can think. Were you with regulation? Well, this is where I started to get upset with the Googles of this world. I think, you know, when Google turns around and said we're not going to allow advertising about cryptocurrencies. We're not going to do this. This is this. And in the second half of the show, I'm going to show you a couple of things to say. Let's Google them to shut these down. They were invading into a lot of areas. They might miss the boat, you know. Well, I'm not missing the boat. I think you're getting in my amendment rights. There you go. So is it your plan? We'll talk about that. 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I got a quick update for you from my travels.  Make room in your program for that guy. He's going to need a little extra attention. Angus is here with us. I don't know if he's been absent like me, but he's back today with some crypto for you. Angus, what's up, buddy? Hey, Drew, I've been a wee bit absent. Have you? I missed you. Have you got any crypto on you? I'm almost traveling around the world.  You're a busy guy lecturing and all those kinds of wee things. I've got to tell you about a wee exciting event coming up this weekend. Yeah. It's the Hawaii Squash Festival in Highland Games. Ah. Human Games that we say back home. Ah, there you go. They're going on a wee flyer up here. So, you know, it starts on Friday at 6 p.m. to 9 p.m., you know, the Scottish celebration. Do you throw the rock? What do they call that? What's the one? Throw the rock. Throw the rock. Throw the rock. Throw the rock. I'll throw your rocks in a minute. Anyway, the festival, you know, it goes over the whole weekend. And, you know, it's a Saturday, April the 7th, the 10 a.m. to 9 p.m. Sunday from the 8th, from 10 a.m. to 6 p.m. Is that the McCoy Pavilion in El Milano? I think McCoy is an Irish name, but we'll still let them go with it anyway. Come down there and meet Angus. Come on down there. They've got entertainment. They've got switchback. It's going to be playing down there. There's just a whole bunch of things. There's dancing. There's maybe a wee beer. Yeah, I think. A wee bit. A wee bit. We'll see. Just a wee bit. Anyway, a lot of the Scottish club will be there. There's a lot of great things. All right. So you want to learn about your ancestry? Because most of the wellness from Scotland. There you go. It's one of the Scottish festivals this weekend. Yeah. And if you don't know that 23 or me, I'll tell you the truth. Guaranteed there, lad.  Where are you at me? Hello? Ha! See you this weekend. Nice, Angus. Yeah. Come on out for the Scottish festival. Angus will be there. Maybe he'll buy you a beer. Maybe you can buy him a beer. I don't know. All right. Back to crypto, brother. Back to crypto. So where did we leave off? We left on the bankers. We left on the bankers. You were scaring the bankers. Scaring those. We were scaring the bankers. That's what we were doing. The paper money. We were doing on that. I want to bring up my slide deck here and go to the next slide. And we've done shows on this. I want to kind of show about the underlying infrastructure that helps to keep this thing growing. Okay. And how it works. And I'm not going to go into the detail of it because I've done that on, if you go to, there's two previous shows I've done. One where I talked about Bitcoin itself and how it works. Okay. Through Bitcoin mining. Yes. And then I did another show with Aaron Nakaoka. Okay. Who talked about masternodes. Okay. And how they work within the cryptocurrency mining entity. So let's bring up, and there's over, there's over 2,000 digital currencies today. Yeah. And that's right. Isn't that something? It's something. That's right. Talk about that adoption curve. I want to get an Angus coin. There you go. They're so cheap. They never pay for it. Well, I didn't say anything. Angus Bitcoin down there. Anyway. So look at this. So they got over 2,000 digital currencies, but there's processes that are, that are done to encourage the growth and use of these currencies. Now Bitcoin uses a concept called proof of work. It's still mine. Ethereum, another coin that's very popular. Does that ripple is mine. But then you've got Dash, Pepe and others that are done through masternodes. Okay. And we're going to talk a little bit about this. And I don't know guys, if you were able to get to the point where you could bring up a website. There was the one that's at the bottom on that slide that says cryptoport.com. I don't know if you were able to do that and be able to bring that up and show it live. If you can't, and the viewers are looking at it, go to that website and you'll see a lot that's happening in the crypto space and the values of what these coins are. Okay. And I'm going to give you an example. Bitcoin right now from a market cap standpoint is 128 billion. Wow. One to 8 billion. That's more than most countries. Yes. Most countries. Airline miles. Been around for a long time. What do you think their market cap is? A billion. Four billion. Four billion. And they've been around for 35, 30 years, right? So you've got a 20-some-odd billion versus four billion to give you a sense. That's a 30x. That's a huge difference. So anyway, let's talk about the Bitcoin transaction life cycle. I have a good slide up here that will help people understand how this works. And the key to this is that you've got to get a Bitcoin wallet and you can get those online. That's what I did. You get an online wallet. There's a number of them out there that you can get. And then once you get that wallet, then you can get a work out of transaction. I think I did not do it. We did one right on the right hand side. And I had just opened that wallet. Opened the wallet and I transferred some Bitcoin or a portion of the Bitcoin to you. That's right. Which was done. And it's still up 400%. I just want to tell people. So it's up 400%. That was way after Christmas. It was after the crash after Christmas. So then I fill in the amount. I send it. So there's all the users are involved. And then the machines kick in. And the wallet signs the transaction. The transaction is propagated and validated through the network. The miners, this is the important part. The miners then authenticate that transaction. That transaction takes a period of time. Usually less than 10 minutes. Most of the time within seconds. Then here's the key. Once that miner in a Bitcoin transaction authenticates that transaction and has been validated that that transaction is real. Like I had the money to give you. You had the wherewithal to accept it. Once that happens, 12 and a half new Bitcoins get introduced into the network. Oh. I didn't know it was that many. 12 and a half right now. So once we hit. Every transaction. Every transaction. That's a lot. That's a lot. And right now we're at 16 plus million Bitcoins in the network. Okay. The max can only be 21 million. So that's where the valuation comes back later. And that's where the valuation is. After the curve drops off, they become rarer. They'll go up in value. But what happens is, is that every 210,000 blocks, the value, the reward gets cut in half. Oh. So now it goes to six and a quarter Bitcoins. Gotcha. So by the year 2040, I think they're saying something like that. The maximum number of Bitcoins that can go into this market will be hit. So it's not like the government. They can't print any more money. Oh. I try. They can't. But then what's going to happen with the way the mining works? So this is the discussion. It's like, how will mining work when they can't introduce any more Bitcoins into the... Yeah. They won't want to mine. Or it'll be a transaction fee. Or a percentage. It's how things work. Well, they just fork it into another. Oh, they can do a fork? They can do all kinds of things. You'll just buy Ethereum. Yeah. You trade your Bitcoins for your fork. Bitcoin cash will happen or some other thing will spin off from it. Yeah. I got you. But you've got it. So that's an interesting thing to look forward down the road. Yeah. The miners will make sure that happens. I'll be 100. Your Bitcoin wallet will be big in 2040. I hope so. Unfortunately, I won't be around. I won't be around to take much of it. So anyway, if you just bring up that slide, we have a second to go with the... So when you look at the mining, what happened on that, the get down to the bottom, the nodes verify the results, and then the transaction is propagated and the wallet signed, and we're at the end. So that's a very, very simple overview of how the process works. There's all kinds of cool things that happen from a security perspective in this whole cycle. So I talked about a digital wallet. I thought I'd throw up a slide with a couple of examples of digital wallets, but I'm not... By no means am I endorsing these wallets. Any particular wallet. Any particular wallet. But people will say, well, what's a wallet? You can look online and do your own homework. There's uphold, coin-based dice, dash, copay, jack, pipay. Kraken has one. I mean, it's just a whole bunch of things that are up there. But those are the digital wallet that you can use. And we had a guy on the show that built a one. That was the guy that was on the show that built the digital wallet for point-of-sale transaction. Right. Specifically for people. Yeah. So you could use your Bitcoin wallet to purchase McDonald's or whatever. At the point of sale. At the point of sale. That's awesome. And he's selling that around the country now. Yeah. Amazing. Kind of an amazing thing. So now I'm going to quickly jump into... Man, this is fast. Hey, is it... If you're not following this, I totally understand. Are they still playing, but are they still... Can you still win and play for Bitcoin in the gaming industry? Because that's where this came from. So is Bitcoin still alive in that space? Oh, in the gambling space and in the slide deck. I mean, like the 3D gamers. You know those guys. Yes. Oh, yeah. The 3D gamers are in there. You can... Have you heard of CryptoKitties? No, I have not. So CryptoKitties is a... Right now they're about $12 million has been spent in CryptoKitties. CryptoKitties are in using Bitcoin or crypto or using cryptocurrencies. You can go online, sign on and open up a CryptoKitties account and then you can make your own kitties.  Kittens. Kittens. Okay. And then you trade them or you sell them? Or you sell them. So remember people have beanie babies? Yeah. Oh. Pogs. Yeah, yeah. Okay. So now you can... There's CryptoKitties where you can go in there and use your cryptocurrency to... Make a kitty. To buy two unique kitties to create your own unique kitty. Or many of them. They don't have dogs, do they? Don't tell my wife. Oh, they'll start one. They'll start one. CryptoPuppies. But I was looking, there was one guy... I do not have a CryptoKitties account but there was one guy... There's one guy has one of his kitties is for sale for $235. In CryptoKitties. In CryptoKitties. So... And then there's people up there... Is it nice or something? This one's kind of cool because it's a graphic. So you can actually end up... You end up owning this graphic. Well, it's rare. There's only one of it. Yeah, it's rare, right? There'll be only one graphic of this type and you could make that graphic your logo within your company or whatever and there will never be another one like it. Yeah, so you think about digital artistry. Digital artistry and what's happening with all of it. Virtual value to a piece of art that's digital. Oh, okay. So... I hadn't even... This isn't going fast for me. Yeah, again. Let's just go... I'm not on security yet. You can Google it on Bing or Bing it on Google. You can go Bitcoin gambling. You can go Bitcoin gaming. You can go Cryptocurrency gambling. Cryptocurrency gaming. There's one where you actually... You can become a real estate baron and buy and sell real estate but it's electronic real estate. And then... You mean it's virtual?  You build a building. You rent the floor out to somebody. Also it's gamification but they're also using cryptocurrency to fund what's going on in there and there's teaching them about real estate. Wow. Wow. That's interesting. It'll be commercial real estate so there's a teaching factor in there.  And you're competing with your fellow man and woman to be the head of the whole thing. That's crazy. That's crazy. There's a lot going on in Cryptocurrency and Bitcoin. There's just a ton. And I haven't even gotten into it. So we've actually burned through the whole thing. Yeah. We need weeks of episodes. We need weeks and weeks and weeks. I do want to point out that if you go down to Cherokee at the Alamon Shopping Center I don't know if it's still there but a month or so ago there was a Bitcoin ATM machine at Cherokee in Alamon. No. We could actually go and buy Bitcoin. Is that one of yours? No. We didn't want to get into that with the estate. There you go right there. Yeah. So there it is. Bitcoin ATMs at Cherokee. That's awesome. So down there in the... And I can take it. I can go from my Coinbase purse into that. Yeah. Right on my phone. Once you get your digital wallet you put cash into that machine. Man, transfer it. And it will send you... Oh, can you go the other way? No. Oh, I see. You're buying Bitcoin. I see. Okay, got you. Fair enough. At least that's... Well, the last time I checked things changed. Those curves and what's happening in there. Anyway, we never got through the whole thing. I knew we wouldn't get through the whole thing. That'll last a few more episodes. Next time we'll come back and we'll talk about mining and masternodes and how that works within this field. Because it's continually changing. And I'm not telling you to invest in cryptocurrency at all. Am I invested? Yes. Am I making money? No. So I'm not telling you to get into that space, but if you want to have fun, it ain't bad. Am I making money? No. I now own 3% of a Bitcoin mining operation. Nice. Yeah. So we'll see how well that does. Angus is mining. Yeah. Oh, we should start that. Anyway, thanks again everybody for watching us here on Hibachi Talk. Andrew, the security guy who has a new show coming up. We'll be doing security... Matters. Matters. With a Z. That's right. Security Matters. Or a Z if you're in Scotland. It'll be starting on the 20th. 20th of April. 10 o'clock on Fridays. 10 o'clock on Fridays. AM. Another spin-off of Hibachi Talk. What can I say? Thank you. Create opportunities. Anyway, thanks a lot. Gangs. Gangs. Gang. For watching us. And like we say at the end of every show, do you remember this? Oh, yeah. How are you doing?


Hello friends, I am Sanjay Gupta. In this video, I am going to demonstrate you how you can print reverse of a particular number in Java. So for implementation purpose, first I am going to import a package whose name is util. Inside this package, a class is available that is scanner. I will be using this scanner class for reading values from user. Now I am going to define a class whose name is reverse. Inside this reverse class, I am going to implement main function definition. Now inside this main function, I am going to implement code which will receive a number from user and print its reverse. So I have declared three variables, num, reverse and tam. Now I am going to create instance of scanner class whose name is input and I am passing system.in as constructor parameter for this scanner class, which will decide that the input will be received from console. Now I am going to print a message and enter a number on output screen with the help of system.out.println. The entered number will be stored in num variable and that will be done with the help of next int method which is defined in scanner class. So to use this next int method, I have imported scanner class. Now I am going to implement the logic for making reverse of this num variable value. Now I am implementing while loop. Condition will be num greater than zero. So this loop will repeat if num is greater than zero, if num is equals to or less than zero, then this loop will be terminated. Now first I am going to calculate value of tam using this formula num modulus 10. So whenever we divide a particular number with 10, we always find out its remainder that is last digit. So last digit will be stored inside tam variable. Now I am applying another statement reverse equals to reverse into 10 plus tam and I am initializing reverse with zero. So initially reverse is zero. It will be multiplied with 10 so it will remain zero and the value which is available in tam will be added into reverse and then num equals to num by 10. So this is the logic to calculate reverse. Now I am taking an example. Suppose number is 1, 2, 3. So first we have to calculate this expression tam equals to num modulus 10. So number is 123. I am dividing it by 10. So remainder will be 3. So value of tam is now 3. Then we have to calculate value of reverse. So initially it is zero. Zero into 10 is zero. Now tam is added into reverse. So reverse will also become 3. Now num is divided by 10. So new value of num will be 12. So whenever we divide a particular number by 10, its last value will be removed automatically. Now we have to check the condition of loop num greater than zero. So current value of num is 12. So condition is true. This time here at line number 13, num is 12. So 12 modulus 10. So new value of tam will be 2. Here at line number 14, current value of reverse is 3. So 3 will be multiplied with 10. So it will become 30 and tam is 2. So new value of reverse will become 32. And here line number 15, num will be again divided by 10. So instead of 12, it will be now 1. Again, we have to check the condition of loop at line number 11. So condition is true. This time value of num is 1. So 1 modulus 10 is equals to 1. Current value of reverse is 32. So 32 into 10, 320 plus tam. Tam is 1. So reverse will become 321. And at line number 15, 1 by 10, which will become 0. So current value of num is 0. Now again check condition of line number 11. It is now false. So it means loop will be terminated. And you can see the value of reverse. It is 321, which is the reverse of num that is 123. I hope you have understood the iteration of this while loop early now. After completion of loop with the help of system.out.println, I can print the reverse on output screen. So this is the complete implementation of the program. I have saved this program in D drive inside Java folder with reverse.java name. Now after implementation, I have to compile this code. I am moving to D drive. Then inside Java folder. So right now my current location is the Java. Now I am going to compile the program for this. I have typed Java C reverse dot Java. If there are any errors in the code, it will be displayed. Otherwise program will be compiled successfully. So in our case program is compiled successfully. Now I can execute this code. It is asking for a number. I am entering 4567. It is a four digit number. You can see the result. It is printing 7654, which is the reverse of 4567. So this program is generic for any number of digits. Any number of digits means the range of int. If you exceed the range of int, then the garbage value will be displayed. So then you have to take another data type like long, or you can say float or double if you want to exceed the range. But in this case, you can print reverse of 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 digit numbers. So I hope you have understood how we can print reverse of a particular number in Java with the help of Y loop. If you want to watch more programming related videos, you can follow my YouTube channel. Thank you for watching this video.


Rydw i chi i chi'n meddwl i'r platforma hwnnw, i ddechrau chi'n gweld y gwelwch nesaf i'w gwelwch. A rwyf wedi gwieithio i'n meddwl y gweithio'r masygl gweithio. A dyna'r ffordd o'r modd i chi'n meddwl i'r modd y cerdd yn ymddangos. Mae'r gweithio i'r boblion, rwyf wedi bod yn gweithio'n meddwl i'r prif, ac mae'n meddwl i'ch ei wneud. Felly, mae'n dweud fath i ddymau ni chi'n gobeithio i gael'r lle i rai'u gael eu teulu'u gweithio ac mae'n dweud i'r ddaf nhw i ddwyfain cwm iawn o'n dweud a'r mowr a'r gweithio, a'r gweithio ag ydyn nhw wedi'i ganddo, ac mae'n gweithio i gweithio i ddoeithio a'r ddweud i ddweud achos' fel ystod modd llai, yn yr wych ac yn eu penderfyn wnaeth yn ei sengfynhau ac yn yr wych. If it goes to the toilet I'd be like, Where you going? What're you doing? I'm going to the toilet, I stand by the toilet, What are you doing? Why are you leaving me?  Why are you leaving me? Where are you going? What I'm going to the toilet cell? I'd be like, Don't be too long!  Like it was normal. Just sitting there having a cup of tea, mae ddweud hynny yn gobeithio gyda'r ddweud. Ac oedd mae'n ffordd yn gwneud y rhwngau. Felly mae'n gweithio'r gwasiat a mae olygu'n ddweud fel ydw i. Ond dyna eich bod yn überiadu i ni fel yn rwyntbeth. Ond oedd wedi bod yn angen i roi'r wyled. Mae'r wyled, ond yn cyffredin, nid oed. Ond yn y gallu, yn maen nhw ymddai. Well, I thought, oh my god, I'm not going to see the kids grow up, I'm going away. Ben, we're on! And today's guest, we've got DJ Sally Axel. How are you? I'm good, thank you. I'm a bit of a bit nervous coming on here.  You've released a book, Crazy Bitch? Yep. I think that's probably a true representative of you. Bit of an upcase. Well, I think people think I am. I think I've got two layers to me.  And also, I've got like a sensitive and more side.  It's quite authentic. So you've got your big brother. The most recent one obviously when you stabbed your ex-boyfriend. Partying, stabbed him. I didn't part. I wasn't partying, I was just in the house on my own. I was really manically depressed at the time but.  But we'll go through all that. Let's get a better understanding of you. Go right back to the start. Where you grew up and how it all began. Well, I was born in Chester. And my mum and dad were married. And then they were in quite a volatile relationship. My mum just decided to get up and leave him. So we moved to Newcastle where my grandma and grandpa were. We were always moving when I was a kid. I went to, I think I went to like eight or six, seven primary schools. Five, four high schools. So I was like quite not a person who was used to sticking around. And it was good until I was a teenager. I mean, my past was really, really nice. I remember my mum being nice when we were kids and we were doing those nice things. But I think when I went to high schools when I went downhill in my life, it was just horrific. Why? Bullying. I got badly, really badly bullying by girls, horrifically. Like I remember going out into the park and the dinner time and someone, the mall jumping on me that much that I had to pretend to have an epileptic fit to make them think I was going to die to stop battering me. Because it was that, it was grow up fast kind of thing. And because I was, I didn't have the same accent as everyone because everyone had either a birken head accent or quite scous-ish. You know, scousers would say that it's not a scous, but they had a very strong accent accent. I speak quite well spoken by then. So I think it was, I was a bit pinpointed. Yeah. What was the, how long were you getting bullied for?  I had, I was really, really skinny then because I stopped eating and I was very, very slight eight and nine. I went to another school, got my nose broken, had to get it re-broken, reset. The girls all had lighters in their hands. It was over the, just jealousy a lot of the time as well. And in year nine, 10, I fought back. Yeah. And I started trying to not be a bully myself. I just tried to not take any crap as much, but it was bad. Tryna defyng yourself? Yeah, for the first time I had a mouth more. I used to take things out on my back at home. So all of the bullying in school, I would be like quite, quite reserved in school. And then I'd go home and be like aggressive to my family. Didn't want to be here. Was suicidal for most of my teenage live childhood. I mean, to the point I was sectioned twice. And I wasn't just sectioned in like a normal hospital. It was like an adult's mental hospital.  This child's this, that wasn't heard of when I was in school. I was just known as being naughty. Not a good, obviously, someone's attention seeking a lot of the time. When realistically I was diagnosed with histronic and borderline personality disorder. I did very young age when I was sectioned. So was that spot personality? No, histronic and borderline personality disorder are caused by trauma in your life. I believe that quite a lot of it's due to a separation anxiety because of I didn't really feel like I had a family unit. And also the bullying, I felt very lost as a person. And I didn't know who I was. So it was really horrible.  I remember going to school and then going to the Asda and just walking out back in the days with those like knife. No, knife, I wasn't as bad, you know what I mean? And just going out with a kitchen knife and just literally going to a cemetery and slitting my wrists and being found there. It's just.  I think I was trying to get attention now looking back at it. I would have said I wasn't at the time, but I think I just wanted to feel love. I really want stability and love.  She's a brilliant grandparent and amazing. Like she's truly my best friend now. But back in the days, I was just foreseen as naughty and rebellious when really I was actually severely mentally ill, which is it's like crazy.  I'm a year 10 in school and they've put me with like 30, 40 year old Schizophrenic. There was a man who thought he was Michael Jackson hiding under my bed. I swear I was getting changed and all I had was like, what looked into my bed? There's a man with a white glove under my bed. Like I'm laughing, but it's great. Do you know what when I tell people the story? I mean, when I was in there, I was kind of so scared, but I kind of like because of my mental illness, I was kind of playing around that. I think I've seen it more like I wasn't taking it in properly. And now it's like so traumatic thinking about what I was like. And I remember telling them we were allowed like an hour out in the garden. I was like, maybe a Schizophrenic woman, a woman who'd throw and really severe cases of mental illness because you got locked in. And I was like, come on, we've got to escape and go to the pub. So I got like few of them. We all escaped and went to this class of Bridgend on the Whirl. And we went to this pub and I was sitting there flit with the men because part of my personal sort of historic is I was overly sexual and not in like I had sex, but I like to be sexually and people to be attracted to me sexually, which was weird at a young age. So I was like flirting with the men, getting them to buy me beers and these these four of our women. Or I think one was a man of I can't really remember precisely, but they were sitting there in the corner of the pub and I'm playing pool with all these builders. And the next minute I look, I'm like, can't you want my number and all this or whatever I was saying, flirting away for half a lager in line. And the next minute this big bus with Clatterbridge mental hospital just pulls into the car park.  Slot something out one floor over the cuckoo's nest. Was people buying you a drink then? You were only 15. Yeah. So I started clubbing when I was like 13. I remember like being in my school uniform and I had double G boobs. So I was like really big boobs. And I remember going into the weather spoons and know the Yatesies or something in Liverpool and don't go and give me your uniform. I was like, I've dressed as Britney Spears.  It was my actual uniform. And I think I got taken advantage of a lot by men and peers and stuff because I was very easily led by males. And not that I was sleeping with them, but I was in very scary predicaments. Like I'd be in cars and on chasers and with a lot of drugs and drinking at very young ages and houses of crack houses and stuff like that. Hanging around thinking I was cool, but I wasn't cool. I wasn't cool at all, but I was very now looking back. It's like very taken advantage of, to be honest. Of course, man. You were only 14, 15. Yeah. What were you sexually active at that age? I lost my virginity when I was year nine in year nine. But it was just so. So how old was you then? So I was 14, just 10, 14. So young, though. Very young. I wouldn't and would never let my daughter ever even leave my house at that age. But I was with the same lad for a few years anyway. And we lost our virginities together and stuff like that. And it was to the same age. Now he was older, but it was to Robson and Jerome. Oh, my love, oh, my love. Charmin. Lovely. But I was then put my mum couldn't cope with me. So she put me in a hostel like this hospital called Penbroke courts. It's like I'm on the world. And I was in there with like it's a halfway house for like people out of prison. But I was only in year 11 in school. So I had to grow up very fast. I was on income support and I was having to get myself to school in year 11, which I just didn't bother doing because I was like, why would I want to go to school? So you have to sign people in and out. And it was just a grow up very, very fast. And I was in the middle of rock ferry. And there was a lot of bad people around me. And it was it was it was sink or swim. It was like you fight or you're going to get bad. It's kind of kind of like living in a hostel. I would never think of my children to be able to go into that. I wouldn't even want them to even see that. Were you drinking or taking drugs then? Yeah, I was just going with the flow, I think of life. And it was always going on with the rap, the boy about town.  Like I didn't want to be around here around Liverpool. And I just decided to move to Ibiza to be a stripper. So it was like. How long were you in the running band for? How can you be in the running band at 14, 15? Cos an adult one. So now looking back.  I know it wasn't. There wasn't ever any option for children's one. I think I went through such a traumatic experience with child mental health that like it it has totally traumatised me. And I think how the hell could they let because I was a child. Like if you look back now, I was a child. I wasn't I wasn't a grown adult. I wasn't thinking and I was with. I was really it's seriously. I mean, there was a woman in there. I was like, well, two or three stone or whatever. Skinny, but through anorexic. And then I was with another one who lost a son. Another one was let her throat like suffisibly another one who thought all their teddy bears were children, her children. Like, but I was just this girl who was suicidal. I didn't fit in and I just had always had an urge. I wanted to not be here or all the way through my adolescence. Be sir, say the one there. What? Be sir, say the one there. Yeah. Be sir, say the watch. Yeah. Every one minute up. So this was after the runaway time. This is the second time and they would do one minute up. So I wasn't allowed to be not watched for every one minute of the day. I wasn't allowed in my room. They put me in a segregation room. And I had a mattress on the floor. I wasn't allowed any blankets because it gets on myself of them. And that's why it's weird because I don't even speak about it because it's so it's just bringing it back up. But a woman would sit at the door and she'd just watch you for the whole day, like for the whole day and you'd be dosed off your heads with drugs and stuff. How did the staff treat you? Really, really nice. They were nice. They knew I think they knew I was too young to be in there. There was no other people my age in there. And I remember thinking, well, why is my family let me come here? Like, why? But I don't believe that they knew how to deal with you. I don't think it was it wasn't a spoken about back then. It was it was like a taboo. Charmental health and really wasn't something people. What about your dad? My dad has been an on-off relationship for our whole life and I don't speak to him now and I probably won't speak to him again. It's not deep. I don't believe that blood is makes anyone extra special in your life. I believe that it comes with respect and trust. And honouring somebody. And if you can't show me that, it doesn't matter if you're blood or not. Like, that's the way I treat it. How does your mum see it now? But a regret or does she understand it? She understands me a lot more now. You need to tell her? Yeah, I think my mum was like, I spoke to my mum about it and like my mum is like such. I think whatever she didn't do when I was cos I was hard work. Like I was to the point of like my mum would say get up for school. I'd go downstairs and smash her car windows to not go to school. And they'd have to like I'd run away all the time and she'd have to like hide my clothes so I wouldn't run away. Like it was it was bad for them. It was so traumatic for my mum. Mum just didn't know what to do. So I think my mum understands now it wasn't. I wasn't just being attention seeking or naughty. It was more I was mentally ill and that's and that is what it is. And I think now I've come to him when my mental illness I used to hide it from everyone and now I'm so open about it and it feels weird, but it's part of me. And I'm just very proud of who I am and proud of having it because without that, I wouldn't be me and my personality. So what age did you go to Ibiza? Ibiza I went 2004, 2005 and 2003, 2004 and 2005. What age? 16.   Stripper. Stripper. Naked. Very young age. Naked. Everything. Naked. And how was that experience? At the time I thought I was the G. I thought, yes, I'm making so much money here. Like no of my friends. My friends are working. My friends are still living at home and being probably nurtured and getting the bills paid and all that. And I'm like living with 22 year old people and stripping on a nighttime and got like hundreds and hundreds of pounds. And I was money orientated like I was like this and I was really quite clever in school and stuff, but there was no way I was going down an educational route approach. I wanted to make money. I didn't want to be in that place. I wanted to be as successful as I could be. How was it then? Did they know your age, 16? They found out and I got sacked on the second year. Yeah. And they were fuming. It was in Gorm's garage. I should say that because they were already closed down, I think then. But and the man when he found out was a bit disgusted, to be honest.  You think you're I'm the woman. I'm what I can do this.  I was I was paying my own bills. I was paying my own life like anything I had was bought by me. Like, do you know what I mean? And you're partying heavy then at 16? Yes, very heavy. And wow, I think there was a bit of a blur. Like probably I was badly. Yeah, dad felt just always partying, always off my head. Did you feel free there that you were a whale that you were kind of escaping from the reality I got bullied a bit in Ibiza, actually, on the first year again. A group of girls did the same thing again. And my actual long term best friend now, she's called Nina, she actually said, no, you're moving in with us. And she's Scottish, actually. And she's the best. She's from Falkirk, so yeah. I wouldn't say they were the best. No, no, no, no. She had she used to drink books, book fast. I'd say book fast to make it into ice lollies. But she just taught me under a wing to this day. She still takes me under a wing, to be honest. Do you think then, why did you think you've become a target for so many people?  Was a bit of jealousy, what was it? I think I was needing acceptance and reassurance all the time because I've worked out like part of my personality disorder is I don't deal with situations the way normal people do. So if back to the corner, I don't handle rejection very well. So I'm more needy and I think I should go out with like absolute, what I said used to, it's only been recently I've stopped.  But so will do you? No, yeah, I think but I think I think I've got worse as the time went on because I think I'm actually attracted, not attracted, yeah, to red flags in the past. Like you get like pulled some red flags out. I'd be like, oh my God, he's for me. I'm on for you. My mate used to bring me go, oh my God, this guy's got about 10 red flags. He's definitely your type. I'll be like, yeah, definitely. I don't know what it was. I just to try and like think I could help people. Like if someone's seen someone as the worst person, I'll go, oh no, I think he's lovely. I think he's amazing. Like I don't know why, but I and then I'd be like completely controlled and because I like being co-dependent, so I like to have someone constantly with me at all times. So this is what I've been having a therapy for actually that I shouldn't feel like this is why I'm on my own at the moment because it's no good. I get like if they go to the toilet, I'd be like, where are you going? What are you doing? I'm going to the toilet. I go, I'm standing by the toilet. What are you doing? Why are you leaving me?  You're like, why are you leaving me? Where are you going? I'm going to the toilet, Sally.  So major abandonment issues.  We were just like, whoa. So every relationship's basically been explosive? Yes. I'm trying to think of any. The ones that I don't remember probably weren't. The ones that didn't mean anything probably weren't explosive, but I think the major, I've only ever loved one person, my ex, who obviously that incident happened with. He literally, that was game over, like no one else matters. When I met him, it was like, whoa, like that was it. How long you're in Ibiza for? I was in Ibiza for three seasons. So I came home in the winter. Why? Well, my grandma died in the second season, I think it was. And I had a bit of a traumatic experience over there with, like just, it was all getting a bit crazy over there. So a lot of people were on crack over there as well, like to be honest. And it wasn't just like cocaine and ecstasy and stuff like that. The people who were there all the time, who were living over there was getting really, really heavy. It was like a different kind of group. I was going into Ibiza for time, waiting for different kinds of drugs to come in and then come in and take them on the villas. And someone's stuff got robbed. And there was only a few people in here. It was just getting dodgier and dodgier. And I remember ringing my mum going, thinking if I'm going to die, like I have to write the name of who it is underneath my bed.  And so, yeah. Rheswesidol yn Ibiza.  I don't remember it coming down, because I think I was just off my hands every day. Did you take any education from over there? No, I've been on and off. Medication has been a bit of my downfall. So they started me on Churchill. I think it was Propanol or Churchill. I can't remember which one it was. I had a very young age in my adolescence, teenagers. And I didn't take it. You have to take it every single day, otherwise it makes you more suicidal. And I remember taking some days, then I tried to kill myself on 20, 30 tablets. And then I think my mum walked into one of my apartments once and I'd wrote in blood, die, sally, die on the wall. Like it was normal, just sitting there having a cup of tea.  I should just be off the rictor scale.  Do you know what made some good friends there?  How did all the people treat you and I before? So when I met the Scottish girl, Nina, everyone was sad to know what would mess with her. Everybody scared of her? Yeah, no one would mess with her. What did you do when you came back? When I came back, I was doing a new castle as a stripper. And then I, what did I do? Oh, I just decided to go, what did I do? Oh yeah, before that, oh yeah, so I'm just trying to think now. I was a stripper and then I decided I didn't want to be with men anymore, so I started going out with a girl for like a year and a half called Anna. And moved to a Grand Canaria to be a singer. In the Casino Royale show. Can you sing? Well, I don't think I should have got the star rolls. No, but they give me it. But yeah, I always landed on my feet, like it was weird. I was quite charming as much as I was damaged. I was charming for probably part of my disorder. I could probably. But yeah, no.  Lesbian, then I got close. But then what else? I spoke to my mummy. I didn't really speak to my mum. How was that relationship? Being with a girl compared, was it still volatile or was it more karma? How was the volatile one? So weirdly, I turned into the more like the perpetrator. I think I was a bit aggressive too, actually. She was really, really lovely. She proper sorted me out. She looked after me all the time. She was older and she was a nice, nice, really nice girl. She always beats me now, like. So what happened when you came back from Grand Canaria? I then decided I wanted to have a baby. As you do on it? No, I see all my stuff in my life. I've kind of planned what I wanted to do. So I went backpacking around Thailand and then we met my child's father. Was that when you met Thailand? Yep. And how long was that relationship? Five years. How was it, the five years? There must have been love at the start, though. There must have been. There was definitely love and obviously I was married. I got married in the early 20s. Both to, yeah. So I got married in my early 20s, which I wore the most vile 60-pound monsoon dress. How many times have you been engaged? A few times. But mainly, do you know what? I never got engaged to my ex-husband. I got just married to him. And then a few years later, we got engaged a year later. We got engaged after. We got married because he was military and we had to, obviously, we had to get married to move in a house. So that was pretty simple. I was so isolated, though, in that relationship because I moved on to Plymouth. The military wives did not like me at all. I was this tattooed girl walking round. I was such a rock chick as well. I'd be at Sonny's Bay Festival down.   So when did the relationship come to an end? 2012, so it was four years, actually, in relation to 2009 to 2012. What's that, three? Fuck's sake, three. Three. Many kids, you got one. Two. So who's the guy you stabbed? Oh, yeah. So that is my ex-Gerald. I don't know if I'll use his name. Well, yeah. So I met him in a brunch. We should have gone to that brunch, I know. And I just knew I was going to be with him. I remember going on my first date and he took me to... We took me out for a posh meal and I went, I just sort of went and I went, let's go somewhere else, you want to go meet local? So we went on the estate in the local pub and I thought, yeah, I'm in there now. He's taken me round his family. I thought he's not. He was just taking me in the pub down the road. But, you know, I was like, yeah, yeah. Took one outside to face with me. And I was like, I'm going to marry him.  Because I'm like, no, I'm going to marry him. She was like, I'm just, no, I'm going to marry him. He's the one for me. And then I remember he was in his, we were like wrecked. And he wrote on me like SW, loves GW. And with Byrow. And I thought I'm not washing that off. I'm going to get that tattooed on me tomorrow. So I left him off. So I liked it when in the shower didn't put me foot in. I was like this. And then I am. Did you get it tattooed? Yeah. I got it going straight to the tattoo shop. Oh. How old were you? So I was 27. So you're quite older then? Yeah. And do you know what? I think for the first time I'd felt home. Secure. I felt I just, I felt for the first time in my life in love and really in love. Like, like, like didn't matter what he kind of did. I was kind of like. In awe? Yeah. And I think that's the reason that it's so painful because it feels like somebody which treated, treated or tried, I don't know, treated my heart with such, such just not kindness. And it was, it was, it was bad, yeah. Yeah. But again, they've worked both ways as well. They've been like, you're saying you love home. You want to get married straight away, get tattoos. So I was a part of you really loved that man. And obviously things always go wrong or else they don't end. So it can be difficult. But how was it then when that video went viral, when you're trying to stab him with the scissors and blood everywhere? What's going through your mind then? So on the day I remember I was sitting at home and I just felt he was speaking to the girls and he was moving on. And to be honest, I couldn't move on because as much as we were together or whatever, he was always involved in my life. I felt like he was always watching, like he was always going, well, let me look at your phone and stuff like that. So I didn't really move on. And I found a message. He's a message to some girl. And I remember just being distraught. Like absolutely because the one thing I thought with him was like he wouldn't cheat on me because he did love me. Like the lad, like didn't go out. He didn't even hang out with his mates for years. You know what I mean? He just didn't leave each other's side. And then I just felt so suicidal. I remember ringing him.  And I'd said it a few times before. And do you know what? I felt like I had a nervous break. This is the first time I'd say in my whole life I've had a nervous breakdown. Like it was like my whole world was crashing before me. Like even though I had two beautiful daughters as well. And I should have been more appreciative towards them. But to me, he was just like I was losing the love of my life. And it was just, it was just a disaster in my head. The difficulty take. So the night then when you're doing that, was it both kids there in the living room? No, no, no. Just the one. I rang him up and he come round to check if I was OK. And he came in the bathroom and I had slipped my wrist. And I just wasn't, to be honest, I was not with it. I took a lot of sleep in tablet. I was off my head. I had to antidepressants. I was, I was, if I could pin point in a time in my life where I really wanted to die, I probably would be that time. So this is why it breaks my heart so much about the way he acted with it. Because for me, when he came into the room and was laughing at me and got out his phone instead of hugging me, that made me more like lose it. Because I felt like humiliated and it was like I'm at my final steps of. So you were at your wits end basically just trying to get attention. But again, if you're a nutcase, you've got to understand he's maybe wiped out his phone because you could have potentially said he done it or this. I think, but I think if you listen to the audio of that tape and I understand that totally in other cases and stuff like that. And you know, maybe in a slim fit that was it, but it wasn't. Cos it was it wasn't done in a way of I'm scared. It was done in a laughing. I'm going to tell everyone, you're not you want to still be with me.  He should have been a father and the baby was behind me. And I was gone in the head. Like if you look back on that video, if you don't know if you've seen the video. I'm demented, like I'm demented, but I still managed to get the baby out the room when it shows me that I still had clarity to know what was right and what was wrong. Whereas he just sat there and filmed. And I think the more work I've done on myself, I know completely like I really did the wrong thing. I shouldn't have acted the way I did. Like it's completely disgusting, especially when I'm a mother. And I should have dealt with things differently. But I also believe that in the place that I can't be a parent, I would hope that the other parent who is the sane man could have. But you know what, fair play for admitting that, babe. So how does that affect you then when your daughter grows up and sees that face?    But then there's a lot of mums that do that these days and age. And then I thought this video is so detrimental to my. So him post this is another reason like it because he blackmailed me with the video for a year. He told me he had the video for a year and he's continuously gone. I'm going to if I went out on a night out to go, I'm going to post it. I'm going to post it.  I'm going to I'm going to have nothing.  The kids are going to go. They're going to go like how can you do it to your daughter? She's going to have no parents. They're not going to come to you. Honestly, I beg them. I beg them.  It's going to be a reflection of us as a family. And it's going to be a hard, hard pill to swallow for my younger daughter, especially to watch herself in a film in a in a clip. And it breaks my heart. Like it literally it makes me want to make sure that this video is used. And this is another reason I did the book for a good example to stop to show people the toxic relationships on both parts are really, really bad for kids to see and they can be detrimental for years and years to come because I know it's going to cause I'm always going to be there. But it might cause psychological problems for what they have to deal with. Did you feel as if you're walking on eggshells then? It's like somebody's in a relationship with a girl.  Yeah, well, the day you did it, he must regret that release in that show. I don't know. He's never said, sorry, I would hope he does. I think he would regret it for what he's done to the baby. I would hope. But the day he did it, I begged him not to put it up. And he took my phone and he put it on my Instagram, which is the worst thing because I had so many followers on. It got re, what's it called, reposted like 10 million times five months. I can't remember how many, whatever the source is anyway, if it goes from my head. But it was the fact that the police were around so many times. And when the police came to that house, like I'm not an aggressive person, so I've never been in fights or anything like that. Now I'm getting done for a section 18, like... The 10th month that series, I saw what's that. It's under manslaughter and I'm like ruined him with intent. So they come into my house and obviously I'm like, they're looking for a weapon and I'm thinking, oh my God, they were like charging me. And I went, what am I getting charged with? They're like section 18. I was like, but what's a section 18? Like I don't know anyway. They were like it's under manslaughter. Well, I thought, oh my God, I'm not going to see the kids grow up. I'm going away. I thought, oh my God, so I went to the police station and they were going to me.  Plead guilty. And I thought, I don't know about this pleading guilty because I've been always taught to say no comment, no comment. Whatever, say no comment. Never, ever, ever say you've got any sort of evidence. You went, nah, your bank to write is a video there. You need to say no, you need to say you're guilty and then we'll bring it down to a, to a, what, what, what's on underneath him, like, I don't know, battery or whatever it was. And I thought, okay, I'll do that. So I got in the room and I thought, nah, something inside of me said say no comment and I just kept going, no comment, no comment. I thank the God I did because obviously it went and...  Of course the video evidence is there. You might have known you needed time to go to court. I could have, yeah, I could have given, I could have made myself go away. So I'm so grateful that... What a shat lawyer. Who's his name? Don't use him, no one. Don't be using the duty solicitor in him. What does it say, Mary's? So what were you looking at then if you pleaded to it? Well, because of the domestic violence that had been in before, I reckon a jury or whatever, they would have put it down because there was a history of domestic abuse. But, and I was tormented for this relationship. So I think not that I'd gone to the police, this was another reason that it looked bad on me like within my court cases because I've never rang up and reported Gerard to the police. I don't know if that's his name, but so it was just hospital records and stuff like that.  It's like your morning. What I can describe it is it's like the, it's not like the dead, it's like morning or something. It's like, it's like I've got no purpose in life.  Like the amount of stuff they say about me as a mother, they don't know the half it.  I would never even go out with someone now. I am only concentrating on my children and my family being back together and that is it. You just try to rebuild. Listen, you're here to just, to people to get a better understanding of your past as well.  You have to and you know what, it's not just responsibility for what I've done as a person.  How was it then when did you find out you were losing your kids? Straight away, well you knew, you know. Was that? Yeah, you know, it's going to happen and I wanted to do, this is another reason I wanted to do this because I would hope that maybe they would watch this in the future and because I do believe that there's an explanation needs to happen and I believe that, I hope other people see this, that people make mistakes, we aren't just, we aren't perfect and do you know what, I call me to whatever you just want to call me but I literally made mistakes and I am trying to work to make them better and rectify them and I was literally broken to anything you can even imagine and I still now get up every day, try and build to make my life better for them and try and be stable and I think that's the main thing within mental illness to try and keep stable mind, keeping to your fitness, keeping to your healthy foods, try and keep organised because messiness can create more messy minds. So what you're doing, what's your daily routine like now? So I'm doing a 5am club which is absolutely amazing. It's just organised you because what the thought into it is, is that you are using your mind more while people are asleep so there's no distraction. So for the first four hours of the day till everyone really wakes up with a majority of people, you've already done all your stuff that you need to do. So my life is a lot about organisation, so a lot of lists, a lot of keeping focus because if I get in any way distracted, men distract me, so I stay away from them, definitely. And a lot of keeping fit, it's so important and I don't need meat, so I haven't eaten meat for five years now. For the benefits from it? Yeah, and my younger daughter doesn't eat meat at all and never has and she's so healthy and she's a lot healthier than what my older daughter was. So what was the steps then for losing your kids that video going viral? What's the steps then to building your family together again? I'm just on the right road. Everything's, I can't go into much a lot of detail because I don't want to jeopardise anything, so. But I'm on the right steps and working well. I've done everything. I've done a lot of therapy, cognitive therapy. I've done domestic violence counselling. I'm now doing a guest appearance on the DV course for the UK talking about my book because it is it is a traumatic experience and it is. It is. The book is about gaslighting. It's about it's about narcissistic behaviour traits. It's about red flags. It's about and I'm the queen of finding them red flags. Listen, I can find them under a rock, like, honestly. Like I can find them in a bar. Like I literally I could stand by someone and the most majority of people who were taught to me would be fully red flagged. I just attract them. How did the idea of the book come about? Were you scared of doing it? No, I wanted to do the book because I was getting. So when I got arrested, it was in all the papers and then every front cover and this is what really irritates me about the press.  It wasn't really saying what I'd done. I mean, a stab and would be would be wounded. Like, do you know what I mean? It would be they they said they kept one in a story out of me and ringing me up. Would you want to do this story? And I thought, you know what? I'm only going to get about what a thousand words. Why not write a book?  And they I just wrote a book. I wrote it and my management at the time like released it on to what is it, Amazon? Yeah, and I got I got number two bestseller, I got number one new release. So which was really shocked because I didn't I didn't like expect that at all. But it was brilliant because I got my story out. And also like you don't understand how many girls I have every day message in me. Just with like the same situations. There's so many people and males going through very similar situations where you do feel on eggshells and the relationship and it is toxic. And that is the only word that you can use for it toxic on either part. It's toxic and both parts later say you've been part of the problem and so is obviously our ex-boyfriends. It's not just a case of pointing fingers and blaming everybody else because and you've got it. You've got to let go of it all. You've got it. You've got you've got it. You've got to forgive and forgiveness, forgiveness and say sorry. What's your relationship like with your ex now? Nonexistent. He's met someone else here and it's nonexistent. I wish him all the best. I hope I hope he finds peace and I hope he can have a healthy relationship in the future because that's the main thing because we have got a child together. Yeah, fair play. That's the only reason you can move on. So going through all that then we're getting the trolls. How did that affect you? How long did that last? Is it still going on today? The trolls or... Does that push you to the brinker suicide again or does it make you stronger now? Or I have to...  And it's every single day. I mean, these people are to the point that they're taking photos of me when I'm out in a supermarket and they're posting look what she's doing. I'm getting stalked by these people. Like I'm not even lying. I'm getting absolutely stalked by these people. Like if I'm not online for two hours, where's Sally gone? Why is she not online? And the stuff they say about me as a mother sexually disgusted and stuff.  Like these are the type of things like and especially because I've got mental illness and I haven't got my family around me. It's it's just disgusting. Like absolutely just. I mean, I broke down a lot like I did a live the other day and I really broke down in it and I I've sick of crying over it to be honest. I am past letting these people affect me because I do believe that these people aren't very nice people in their hearts and not me. They might they might be good people in one point in their lives, but they've got a lot of hate in themselves because to go and sit on a site and be anonymous and just write loads of hate about people and I have caught a few of them, you know, and I've spoke to one the other day and she did something wrong. She left her when she'd screenshot one of the Instagram things. She left a profile picture on the side. So I found them. I got I started looking through on my Instagram found that same profile picture and I messaged her and I said, why are you doing this to me? Because I just thought I need to know what have I done wrong to use to make use of. I'm talking. There's like 5000 5000 spread comments on threads like lots and she said to me and she was from Australia. So I don't even know how I bothered her that much. She said my husband died and he got him. He got shredded and machinery and this was my only place. I felt like I had friends. Do you know what? I just I was going to argue with her and I just me as a person because I'm quite an empath. I just wrote back to her and I put, you know what? You need to concentrate on that beautiful son of yours. You got there because I would do anything to have my kids with me. So just concentrate on him. Concentrate on and put all your love into him and don't put your energy into sites like that. And I wish her all the best. And she went back on the sites. I put I don't want to get involved in any of this anymore. I spoke to Sally. She seems really nice and she's changed my mind about her and I thought. But silence is golden. You need to stop looking at that site because. I don't look at it anymore.  What is matter?  But just out of say out of mind get off it man. It's difficult but silence is key. I think the thing the thing that I really do want to be silent about it and I know I'm drawing attention but I feel like I am doing. I think like so many influences and so many people who've been on reality TV show and so many people who are in the media who are on their sites because you're only allowed to be on the site if you've got over 10,000 followers which I shouldn't be even allowed to be on there now because they've hacked my account and they laughed about it. So I don't even know how I'm still on there. But everyone's scared to mention this site here because no one wants them. No one to look at their own Fred. So everyone's tiptoeing about it like this and I think do you know what? I feel like I can do help people. I don't know why and my friends given one of my friends she's been to therapy because of the site and she had to come off social media and she she messaged me going I'm really worried about you. You need to stop looking at the site and I thought I will stop looking at the site and I have stopped looking at the site but I still want people to and I feel like I can change people's minds about going on it. I don't know why. I think it's just so. I think it's a. I find a lost cause man because those people will be mentally disturbed. That's what I'm saying.    There's going to be like troll disorder or something. There's got to be a disorder because it's unhealthy. But they have no life. They've no fun in their life. They've no positivity. Their lives are already in hell so you've got to feel sorry for them. You just got to send them love until they love themself which is difficult because we've all got eagle. We've all got a bit of I will come out swinging if somebody steps up to the plate. I will always step forward but I don't ever search for it. If it comes my way, listen, I'm here. But the thing what annoys me is like these people like literally would not say this to my face because I have been I'm full. But you know this but yet you're still searching for it. No, so that's why I don't read it anymore because it literally is it's impossible. But when I receive stuff like when you see like the Caroline Flack thing and the thing that resides with me with Caroline Flack is because and I don't mean to bring her up on this because only because it's a year anniversary that she was tormented by a domestic violent relationship that she was in the media has been a perpetrator the same as me and without a conviction and the amount of trolls that in the media that they can just direct people even if you've got a conviction or not because the video was there.  Do you know what I mean?  I've done wrong.   Have you costed it yet? Are you still working on it? Yeah, just in work and progress. I have a family. I'll be back together very soon. But I can't really go into it. But you seem in a good place. Do you know what? Like I think even better than like the last month or the month before, I feel like I'm going again because I know what my direction because I think I've always been like, oh my God, what am I going to do? What's going to happen? And I think I know where I'm going now. And I think for the first time in my life, I feel like I am happy with who I am being on my own. I think I've always needed a relationship and like I'm paying my own bills and paying my own card, paying my own life.  Like, do you know what I mean? I just feel great. But just staying that path then. Stay true to you. Exactly. And I just feel like, you know, just need to keep focused and to keep trying to not get off the party and to know good. I think this lockdown has probably helped me a lot because because it's lockdown and everyone, I know it's really bad for all businesses and stuff, but it stopped me with temptation of going out because if I haven't got the kids there, I'm like, oh, I may as well go out, but and I've moved totally out the area, totally away. So I've totally segregated myself and concentrated on country walks. I know it sounds like probably people like Sally, yeah, really. But I've really, really gone back to basics within myself. I've done a lot of therapy. I think therapy is the main thing to do if you suffer a domestic violence, mental illness, anything talking about it is like the most important thing. How much therapy you've done? Oh, a lot. See, I'm supposed to stop my therapy with my woman a month ago and I just said, please, can you just carry on? She's like, well, you're finished. I went, no, no, no, no, no. And I just have her on call now. I ring her up.  What can I do about this girl? Like because she's so my one fix or she's so amazing. And for the first time, I can't. I hate the therapy because when I was asked to do, like I had a psychological analysis like a few years ago and it was horrible. It was like this man who sat there and he and I have problem with with male authoritative figures. I like if I can't manipulate them or make them, like do say what I want and they're really firm. It makes me feel uncomfortable and I want to like rebel against them. So I think this was the first time I'd found a therapist that I really opened up to. And I felt like I was just chatting to my friend and then she was helping me and she helped me deal with a lot of the situation with Gerard and getting over it. Because to be honest, I still obviously loved him till like well about like a year ago. Like it was not, it wasn't just an instant. I don't love him anymore because you can't, it's like the stock of my pet. Stock of my pet.  You end up like needing that love and was addicted to that toxic love. Which is crazy.  What have I been battling back in the day? But as long as you can keep your side of the street clean keep your side of the street clean now.  You've got to try and concentrate on the positives. Keep working on you and we'll make mistakes.   Back then, do you know what I mean?  Try to kill yourself, looking for love through the wrong way. So it is difficult, but there's nothing you can do about just fucking. Move on, try and concentrate on the day and move on for the future. And health as well. Like I really believe, like health is really what you're putting into your body and you know, food-wise. And so that's the energy that you're going to be using throughout the day and really, really trying to be as positive you can.    Pick your fights wisely. Don't try and fight with everyone. Many tattoos, you got? A lot. I've got loads of just... And what's the script with in the papers when you got the Heel and Plant Kingdom thing? Oh, that wasn't real. But we were doing because I was working with a girl and we were doing a documentary on false news and the way the media believe anything. And to be honest, there was no surgery that I was saying I had and they still were writing about it. But then obviously the stabbing incident came after so we never got, we never released it. But you know, it started off when I went to LA because I went to botched.  So it kind of just... Can people get Heel and Plant? I think there's something in China or something. I don't know. I'm not really into it. So that wasn't real then you got Heel and Plant? No, I'm going to get surgery in a couple of weeks anyway as well. Get my bum done again, but... To get what you're asked on? Again, yeah. I'm going to get it bigger. So going forward for the future then. So see you chat. Tell me which are plans. So my plan is to now do my podcast with the girls. When is that so? We're going to be watching. So we're filming tomorrow. It's going to be out at the end of the month. So that's going to be really cool. It's just going to be... I really just wanted to have a girls podcast with only girls on and be like girl talk about the dirty secrets to the worst dates, to the weirdest messages girls have had on any fans, how to make the most money. I'm going to do some about marketing, about how women can make money and how to then hustle. Hustling? I've got a beeman. That's what life's all about hustle. All the perverts will burn that. So is that going to... Well, we've got a free girl. Nicol will burn that anyway, won't he, bro? Do you want to film this one? Is it on YouTube? Yeah, it's going to put it on YouTube. Send me the links. I'll put it in the description. So that's his girls from Onlyfans. So this is the first episode.  So we're going to find out about some of the weird... Some of the perverts that I'm going to get exposed to. The amazing customers that pay me a lot of money, thank you.  How is The Onlyfans in? How are you feeling with that? Well, I initially started it because I was in a situation because obviously Jared left me with no money.  And obviously I had kids before, so I started it then. And then I kind of had a love-it-a-heat relationship with it. I made loads of money in the summer because I was like, I love it. And then I just went off the radar for September and October and then. But now I'm getting back in the swing of things because do you know what? I've realised it is what it is. I am sick to death of thinking that women can't be sexualised because it really isn't the case like we shouldn't be scared to be bisexual and be think, oh, what will they think? So what? If you want to go to sleep with her, if you want to go to sleep with them, it doesn't matter. We can do whatever one is women. I just think there's a bad prejudice on Onlyfans. And that's kind of why I wanted to do my little things.   I know plenty of girls that do Onlyfans.  You know how much the maker knows? Like some of my friends are making, I mean like, they're making 50Ks a month. But as long as they're happy because the money becomes a fulfillment. But I think that's the good thing with Onlyfans is that you're not getting exploited by other people because... So it's yours like, is it? What is it? No, no, mine's not like, I don't want to say that because nobody will not say this. Because then we're not going to get people subscribed. Mine's amazing, it's so dirty. So do people subscribe for the month and then? So they subscribe for the month. So some girls, this is what I think about Onlyfans. That's why I enjoy this site. And because it is your own boss. You're not being exploited in any way. Because if you want to post one day, you can post. If you don't, you don't. It's not like you're working for an agency and they're like, you've got to get naked now. Go on the bed and do this. It's literally women who are being girl bosses and making loads of money. And why the hell not?  Well, if my fella doesn't like me in nice lingerie and being good in bed then. Well. Haven't I viewed Dominatrix and shit as well?  Oh, well, mine isn't like this. And mostly my followers are mostly Scouse, by the way. I was going to do this thing where you can change so you can't know people from your area on there. My mate was like, you've got to do it. You don't want people in your own area seeing it. And I went, I'd lose 90% of my customers if I took Scouse as a result. But guys love crazy as well. Guys love not jobs. Well, I think when that video came out, I was literally sitting there like, and no one knew I was single before that. And then next minute, my Instagram blew off with half a Walton prison for being messaging me through. I was like, oh my God. I swear to God, I've never had so many people following me and messaging me with bulldogs or whatever.  I was like, but yeah, it blew off.  I was like, no, this isn't what I like anymore. Would you have another book for the future? Yes, so I'm going to be doing another book on the on. I'm going to be doing another book on women empowerment. And it's going to be like a journal book so you can kind of interact with it as well. So it's like a really like a place that people can like start the foundations of their journey. So it's not just about my journey, it's about helping people with their journeys as well. What about looking back at your life so far? What do you think?   Listen, least you're here still smiling. Yes, that's all you can do is smile. Try and rebuild. Try and the first objective would be get the family back, get the wrong guy. That's the only objective at the moment.  I was born to be a mother and I cannot wait for the family to just move to the next step. So I think I deserve it now. I've paid the price. So see when you've got the psychologists and stuff, does that help you then getting your kids full custody again when you do the psychology stuff?  Is that all reports? Yeah, I've just done a social media course for kids on social media. I'm doing a kids mental health course at the moment. I am doing every goddamn thing you could think of to get my family back together. There isn't a thing, there isn't a stone unturned. I literally am the probably the most annoying person in the world because I'm like bringing everybody what's going on, what's happening. Cos I just I'm ready now. I'm ready. I don't think I was ready when that. I think I think everyone does the right thing at the time. And I believe I was in such a mental state. I remember thinking, oh, my God, I want to do. I want to put these kids in a car and just drive us off a cliff because I didn't want them to take them that much.  Like, how can you even think this?  And now I know I wasn't ready.  Do you think that incident that night then potentially saved your kids' lives? I don't think it saved the kids' lives. I think it saved. I think the kids would be would it was. I don't think it saved the kids' lives in that much respect. I think it saved a big disaster happening for you to understand that you were struggling, that you were having an erdys break down. I think I would have ended up dead. I think 100% was in love with Jared so much. I think I would have ended up dead. I think I would have just ended up atop of myself. Honestly, I just wasn't all there. I think it took me this to regrain. And now they come back and I'm like, ooh, I don't have them feelings anymore because I see now how disastrous it was. But I think we were both just so in love with each other in a toxic way. It was just crazy. I did hear by one of my mutual friends that he said that it was the best thing that happened, that video coming out. And I personally think it was the best thing that come out because I just think without that we wouldn't have split up because as much as we were split up, we would always gone back to forward step with each other, not with each other, step with each other. I think we would have gone on until I was 40, 50 and proper washed up. I would never have been able to meet another person I was just at the end. So I think in a way it's given me a new lease of life and it's made me really work on who I am and be a better person. I mean, my daughter said to me the other day she was like, I went, oh, I would like to get married. I went to her, I want to get my older daughters. I went, I want to get married. I thought it was going to get married next year. She went, don't bother mum. I went, what do you mean she went, I just like you as an independent woman. And I thought, best see her me as an independent woman and that makes me happy. Like I'm no longer like money dependent on a man. I'm no longer emotionally dependent on a man. I'm no longer lost. I'm really, I think even from being young, the first time I've really found myself. How do you think the day you get costed to your kids again, how do you think that'll make you feel? Oh, it would be amazing. I couldn't even describe it. It literally, it's all, it's not like it's going to happen like one day. It's just like a work in progress now. So I just want the best for them. And if I'm not, if I wasn't the best for them, then I agree with that. But I believe I am the best for them and I believe every child needs their mother and I am literally adore my children and I never really talk about this. So it's quite weird me having a conversation somewhere because in the media I've tried to really wipe it out, like not speak about it because I just out of respect for them. But the reason I'm wanting to talk about them today is because I've told you like there's a background story rather than just mentioning them. I don't put them on social media or anything. And I just think that the best place for them was with me and that's, that's it. And I've done everything I can now. I'm working so hard. And I think that's my only main objective now. It's the only thing. Like in the future I want to be, I'd like to do more speaking public about for women. I'd like to do my podcast. I'd like to be, I'd like to do another book. Obviously I'm doing another book. And I'd like to be a good role model for my kids. And I don't think I have always been that. And I think in the future I really want to change not everyone's perception of me because people will either like me or they'll hate me, but I want to make sure my kids are proud. That's the only, that's the only thing that doesn't matter. So friend of a day it's watching just now. It's maybe so I say though you've obviously been there trying to talk to yourself a few times. You've come out the other end, you're doing well again. What advice would you give for them? Know that you're not alone. Talk to somebody. And if you've got no one to talk to, really just remember why you're important in this world. Remember who you are. Remember what you bring to this world because everyone has a special quality of why they're here. So remember why you're special. Sal, for coming on a day, by having to tell your story. Thank you. I know it must have been difficult back. Thank you so much. I wish you all the best in the future. Thank you so much. Stay blessed, babe.