Chapter 24 The Opening of the Will Perhaps the terror with which I anticipated the hour of one and the disclosure of the unknown undertaking to which I had bound myself was irrational and morbid, but honestly I doubt it. My tendency has always been that of many other weak characters, to act impetuously, and afterwards to reproach myself for consequences which I have, perhaps, in reality, had little or no share in producing. It was Dr Brylys' countenance and manner in alluding to a particular provision in my father's will, that instinctively awed me. I have seen faces in a nightmare that haunted me with an indescribable horror, and yet I could not say wherein lay the fascination. And so it was with his, an omen, a menace, lurked in its sallow and dismal glance. "'You must not be so frightened, darling,' said Cousin Monica. "'It is foolish. It is, really.  They can't really harm you in any essential way. If it involved a risk of a little money, you would not mind it. But men are such odd creatures. They measure all sacrifices by money. Dr Brylys would look just as you describe if you were doomed to lose five hundred pounds, and yet it would not kill you.' A companion like Lady Nollys is reassuring, but I could not take her comfort altogether to heart, for I felt that she had no great confidence in it herself. There was a little French clock over the mantelpiece in the schoolroom, which I consulted nearly every minute. It wanted now but ten minutes of one. "'Shall we go down to the drawing-room, dear?' said Cousin Nollys, who was growing restless like me. So downstairs we went, pausing by mutual consent at the great window, at the stair-head, which looks out on the avenue. Mr Danvers was riding his tall grey horse at a walk, under the wide branches towards the house, and we waited to see him get off at the door. In his turn he loitered there, for the good rector's gig, driven by the curate, was approaching at a smart ecclesiastical trot. Dr Clay got down and shook hands with Mr Danvers, and after a word or two away drove the curate, with that upward glance at the windows from which so few can refrain. I watched the rector and Mr Danvers loitering on the steps, as a patient might the gathering of surgeons who are to perform some unknown operation. They too glanced up at the window as they turned to enter the house, and I drew back, Cousin Monica looked at her watch. "'Four minutes only. Shall we go to the drawing-room?' Waiting for a moment to let the gentleman get by on the way to the study, we accordingly went down, and I heard the rector talk of the dangerous state of Grindelsen Bridge, and wondered how he could think of such things at a time of sorrow. Thinking about those few minutes of suspense remains fresh in my recollection. I remember how they loitered and came to a halt at the corner of the oak passage leading to the study, and how the rector patted the marble head and smoothed the inflexible tresses of William Pitt, as he listened to Mr Danvers' detail about the presentment, and then, as they went on, I recollect the boisterous nose-blowing that suddenly resounded from the passage, and which I then referred—and still refer—intuitively to the rector. We had not been five minutes in the drawing-room when Branson entered to say that the gentleman I had mentioned were all assembled in the study. "'Come, dear,' said Cousin Monica, and leaning on her arm I reached the study-door. I entered, followed by her. The gentleman arrested their talk and stood up, those who were sitting, and the rector came forward very gravely, and in low tones and very kindly greeted me. There was nothing emotional in this salutation, for though my father never quarrelled, yet an immense distance separated him from all his neighbours, and I do not think there lived a human being who knew him up more than perhaps a point or two of his character. Considering how entirely he secluded himself, my father was, as many people living remember, wonderfully popular in his county. He was neighbourly in everything except in seeing company and mixing in society. He had magnificent shooting, of which he was extremely liberal. He kept a pack of hounds at Dollerton, with which all his side of the county hunted through the season. He never refused any claim upon his purse, which had the slightest show of reason. He subscribed to every fund, social, charitable, sporting, agricultural, no matter what, provided the honest people of his county took an interest in it, and always with a princely hand. And although he shut himself up, Noah could say that he was inaccessible, for he devoted hours daily to answering letters, and his checkbook contributed largely in those replies. He had taken his turn long ago as High Sheriff, so there was an end of that claim before his oddity and shyness had quite secluded him. He refused the Lord left tenancy of his county, he declined every post of personal distinction connected with it. He could write an able as well as a genial letter when he pleased, and his appearances at public meetings, dinners, and so forth, were made in this epistolary fashion, and when occasion presented by magnificent contributions from his purse. If my father had been less good-natured in the sporting relations of the vast estates, or less magnificent in dealing with his fortune, or even if he had failed to exhibit the intellectual force which always characterised his letters on public matters, I daresay that his oddities would have condemned him to ridicule and possibly to dislike. But every one of the principal gentlemen of his county, whose judgment was valuable, has told me that he was a remarkably able man, and that his failure in public life was due to his eccentricities, and in no respect to deficiency in those particular mental qualities which make men feared and useful in Parliament. I could not forebear placing on record this testimony to the high mental and the kindly qualities of my beloved father, who might have passed for a misanthrope or a fool. He was a man of generous nature and powerful intellect, but given up to the oddities of a shyness which grew with years and indulgence, and became inflexible with his disappointments and affliction. There was something even in the rector's kind and ceremonious greeting which oddly enough reflected the mixed feelings in which awe was not without a place, with which his neighbours had regarded my dear father. Having done the honours, I am sure looking woefully pale, I had time to glance quietly at the only figure there, with which I was not tolerably familiar.  Dr. Brierley, standing near the window, was talking in a low tone to Mr. Grimstone, our attorney. I heard good Dr. Clay whisper to Mr. Danvers. It's not that Dr. Brierley, the person with the black, the black, it's a wig, I think, in the window, talking to Abel Grimstone. Yes, that's he, odd-looking person. One of the Swedenborg people is Nazi, continued the rector. So I am told. Yes, said the rector quietly, and he crossed one gated leg over the other, and, with fingers interlaced, twiddled his thumbs, as he eyed the monstrous sectory under his orthodox old brows, with a stern inquisitiveness. I thought he was meditating theological battle. But Dr. Brierley and Mr. Grimstone, still talking together, began to walk slowly from the window, and the former said in his peculiar grim tones, I beg pardon, Mr. Ruffin, perhaps you will be so good as to show us which of the cabinets in this room your late lamented father pointed out as that to which this key belongs. I indicated the oak cabinet. Very good, ma'am, very good, said Dr. Brierley, as he fumbled the key into the lock. Cousin Monica could not forbear murmury. Dear, what a brute!  The search was not long. A handsome white paper enclosure, neatly tied up in pink tape, and sealed with large red seals, was inscribed in my dear father's hand, will of Austin R. Ruffin of Knoll. In, in smaller characters, the date, and in the corner a note, this will was drawn from my instructions by Gaunt, Hogg, and Hatchit, solicitors, Great Woburn Street, London, A. R. R. Let me have a squint at that endorsement, please, gentlemen. Half whispered the unpleasant person who represented my uncle Silas. Isn't an endorsement? There, look, a memorandum on an envelope, said Abel Grimstone, gruffly. Thanks, all right, that will do, he responded, himself making a pencil note of it, in a long cloth book which he drew from his coat pocket. The tape was carefully cut, and the envelope removed without tearing the writing, and forth came the will, at sight of which my heart swelled and fluttered up to my lips, and then dropped down, dead, as it seemed into place. Mr. Grimstone, will you please read it, said Dr. Briley, who took the direction of the process? I will sit beside you, and as we go along, you will be good enough to help us to understand technicalities, and give us a lift where we want it. It is a short will, said Mr. Grimstone, turning over the sheets. Very, considering, here's a codacil. I did not see that, said Dr. Briley. Dated only a month ago. Oh! said Dr. Briley, putting on his spectacles. Uncle Silas's ambassador, sitting close behind, had insinuated his face between Dr. Briley's and the readers of the will. On behalf of the surviving brother of the testator, in deposed the delegate, just as Abel Grimstone had cleared his voice to begin, I take leave to apply for a copy of this instrument. It will save a deal of trouble if the young lady, as represents the testator here, has no objection. You can have as many copies as you like when the will is proved, said Mr. Grimstone. I know that, but supposing as all's right, where's the objection? Just the objection there always is to acting irregular, replied Mr. Grimstone. You don't object to act disobliging, it seems. You can do, as I told you, replied Mr. Grimstone. Thank you for nothing, murmured Mr. Slay. And the reading of the will proceeded, while he made elaborate notes of its contents in his capacious pocketbook. I, Austin Alimer Ruffin Ruffin, being, I thank God, of sound mind and perfect recollection, et cetera, et cetera. And then came a bequest of all his estates real, chattels real, copyrights, leases, chattels, money, rights, interests, reversions, powers, plate, pictures, and estates and possessions whatsoever, to four persons, Lord Ilbury, Mr. Penrose Quesswell of Quesswell, so William Alimer Bart, and Hans-Emmanuel Brierly, Doctor of Medicine, to have and to hold, et cetera, et cetera, whereupon my cousin Monica ejaculated, hey, and Dr. Brierly interposed. Four trustees, ma'am, we take little but trouble. You'll see, go on. Then it came out that all this multifarious splendor was bequeathed in trust for me, subject to a bequest of 15,000 pounds to his only brother. Silas Elmer Ruffin, and 3,500 pounds each to the two children of his said brother, unless any doubt should arise by reason of his, the testator's, decease as to the continuance of the arrangement by way of lease, under which he enjoyed his present habitation and farm, he left him the use of the mansion house and land of Bartram Howe in the county of Derbyshire, and of the lands of So-and-So and So-and-So are joining their two in the said county for the term of his natural life on payment of a rent of five shillings per annum and subject to the like conditions as to waste, et cetera, as are expressed in the said lease. By your leave, may I ask, is them dispositions all the devices to my client, which is his only brother, as it seems to me you've seen the will before? Inquired, Mr. Slay. Nothing more unless there is something in the Codasil, answered Dr. Briley. But there was no mention of him in the Codasil. Mr. Slay threw himself back in his chair and sneered with the end of his pencil between his teeth. I hope his disappointment was altogether for his client. Mr. Danvers fancied, he afterwards said, that he had probably expected legacies which might have involved litigation or at all events, law-costs, and perhaps a stewardship. But this was very barren, and Mr. Danvers also remarked that the man was a very low practitioner and wondered how my uncle Silas could have commissioned such a person to represent him. So far the will contained nothing of which my most partial friend could have complained. The Codasil, too, devised only legacies to servants and a sum of one thousand pounds with a few kind words to Monica, Lady Nollis, and a further sum of three thousand pounds to Dr. Briley, stating that the legatee had prevailed upon him to erase from the draught of his will a bequest to him to that amount. But that, in consideration of all the trouble devolving upon him as trustee, he made that bequest by his Codasil, and with these arrangements the permanent disposition of his property was completed. But that direction to which he and Dr. Briley had darkly alluded was now to come, and certainly it was a strange one. It appointed my uncle Silas, my sole guardian, with full parental authority over me until I should have reached the age of 21, up to which time I was to reside under his care at Bartram Howe, and it directed the trustees to pay over to him yearly a sum of two thousand pounds during the continuance of the guardianship for my suitable maintenance, education, and expenses. You have now a sufficient outline of my father's will. The only thing I painfully felt in this arrangement was the breakup, the dismay that accompanies the disappearance of home. Otherwise there was something rather pleasurable in the idea. As long as I could remember, I had always cherished the same mysterious curiosity about my uncle, and the same longing to behold him. This was about to be gratified. Then there was my cousin Millicent about my own age. My life had been so lonely that I had acquired none of those artificial habits that induced the fine lady nature, a second and not always a very amiable one. She had lived a solitary life like me, what rambles and readings we should have together, what confidences and castle buildings, and then there was a new country and a fine old place, and the sense of interest and adventure that always accompanies change in our early youth. There were four letters all alike with large red seals addressed respectively to each of the trustees named in the will. There was also one addressed to Silas Alma Ruffin Esquire, Bartram Howe Manor, et cetera, et cetera, which Mr. Slay offered to deliver. But Dr. Briley thought the post office was the more regular channel. Uncle Silas's representative was questioning Dr. Briley in an undertone.  I felt so inexpressibly relieved, expecting to see a corresponding expression in her countenance. But I was startled. She looked ghastly and angry. I stared in her face not knowing what to think. Could the will have personally disappointed her? Such doubts, though we fancy in afterlife they belong to maturity and experience only, do sometimes cross our minds in youth. But the suggestion wronged Lady Nollis, who neither expected nor wanted anything being rich, childless, generous and frank. It was the unexpected character of her countenance that scared me. And for a moment the shock caught up corresponding moral images. Lady Nollis starting up raised her head so as to see over Mr. Slay's shoulder and biting her pale lip she cleared her voice and demanded. Dr. Briley, praise sir, is the reading concluded? Concluded? Quite. Yes, nothing more, he answered with a nod and continued his talk with Mr. Danvers and Abel Grimstone. And to whom, said Lady Nollis with an effort, will the property belong in case, in case my little cousin here should die before she comes of age? Eh? Well, wouldn't it go to the heir-at-law and next of kin, said Dr. Briley, turning to Abel Grimstone? Aye, to be sure, said the attorney thoughtfully. And who is that? Pursued my cousin. Well, her uncle, Mr. Silas Rothen, he's both heir-at-law and next of kin, pursued Abel Grimstone. Thank you, said Lady Nollis. Dr. Clay came forward, bowing very low, in his standing collar and single-breasted coat, and graciously folded my hand in his soft-wrinkled grasp. Allow me, my dear Miss Rothen, while expressing my regret that we are to lose you from among our little flock, though I trust but for a short, a very short time, to say how I rejoice at the particular arrangement indicated by the will we have just heard read. My curate, William Fairfield, resided for some years in the same spiritual capacity in the neighbourhood of your, I will say, admirable uncle, with occasional intercourse with whom he was favoured. May I not say, blessed, a true Christian churchman, a Christian gentleman. Can I say more? A most happy, happy choice.  So with another deep bow, for I had become a great personage all at once, he let go my hand cautiously and delicately, as if he were setting down a curious china teacup, and I curtsied low to him, not knowing what to say, and then to the assembly generally, who all bowed, and cousin Monica whispers briskly, come away, and took my hand with a very cold and rather damp one, and led me from the room. End of Chapter 24 Chapter 25 of Uncle Silas by Joseph Sheridan Lafannou. This LibriVox recording is in the public domain. Chapter 25 I hear from Uncle Silas. Without saying a word, cousin Monica accompanied me to the schoolroom, and on entering she shut the door, not with a spirited clang, but quietly and determinately. Well, dear, she said, with the same pale, excited countenance, that certainly is a sensible and charitable arrangement. I could not have believed it possible had I not heard it with my own ears. About my going to Bartram Howe.  Is that, my dear, what was in your mind when you were so alarmed about what you were to be called upon to do or undergo? No, no, indeed. I had no notion what it might be. I was afraid of something serious, I answered.  And so it is, I can tell you, something serious and very serious, and I think it ought to be prevented and I certainly will prevent it if I possibly can. I was puzzled utterly by the intensity of Lady Nollis's protest. I looked at her, expecting an explanation of her meaning, but she was silent, looking steadfastly on the jewels on her right-hand fingers, with which she was drumming a staccato march on the table, very pale, with gleaming eyes evidently thinking deeply. I began to think she had a prejudice against my Uncle Silas. He is not very rich, I commenced. Who? said Lady Nollis. Uncle Silas, I replied. No, certainly, he's in debt, she answered. But then how very highly Dr. Clay spoke of him, I pursued. Don't talk of Dr. Clay, I do think that man is the greatest goose I ever heard talk. I have no patience with such men, she replied. I tried to remember what particular nonsense Dr. Clay had uttered, and I could recollect nothing, unless his eulogy upon my Uncle were to be classed with that sort of declamation. Danvers is a very proper man and a good accountant, I dare say, but he is either a very deep person or a fool, I believe a fool. As for your attorney, I suppose he knows his business and also his interest, and I have no doubt he will consult it. I begin to think the best man among them, the shudest and the most reliable, is that vulgar visionary in the black wig.  But I think he's a just man and I dare say with right feelings. I'm sure he has. I was quite at a loss to divine the gist of my cousin's criticism. I'll have some talk with Dr. Briley. I feel convinced he takes my view and we must really think what had best be done. Is there anything in the will, cousin Monica, that does not appear? I asked, for I was growing very uneasy. I wish you would tell me what view do you mean? No view in particular. The view that a desolate old park and the house of a neglected old man, who is very poor and has been desperately foolish, is not the right place for you, particularly at your years. It is quite shocking and I will speak to Dr. Briley. May I ring the bell, dear? Certainly, and I rang it. When does he leave Noel? I could not tell. Mrs. Rusk, however, was sent for and she could tell us that he had announced his intention of taking the night train from Drackelton and was to leave Noel for that station at half past six o'clock. May Rusk give or send him a message from me, dear? Asked Lady Nullis. Of course she might. Then please let him know that I request he will be so good as to allow me a very few minutes just to say a word before he goes.  You are anxious about me more than you say. Won't you tell me why? I am much more unhappy, really, in ignorance than if I understood the cause. Well, dear, haven't I told you? The two or three years of your life which are to form you are destined to be passed in utter loneliness and I am sure neglect. You can't estimate the disadvantage of such an arrangement. It is full of disadvantages. How it could have entered the head of poor Austin, although I should not say that, for I am sure I do not understand it, but how he could for any purpose have directed such a measure is quite inconceivable. I never heard anything so foolish and abominable and I will prevent it if I can. At that moment Mrs Rusk announced that Dr. Briley would see Lady Nullis at any time she pleased before his departure. It shall be this moment then, said the energetic lady and up she stood and made that hasty general adjustment before the glass, which no matter under what circumstances and before what sort of creature one's appearance is to be made, it is a duty that every woman owes to herself. And I heard her a moment after at the stair-head directing Branson to let Dr. Briley know that she awaited him in the drawing-room. And now she was gone and I began to wonder and speculate why should my cousin Monica make all this fuss about after all a very natural arrangement. My uncle, whatever he might have been, was now a good man, a religious man, perhaps a little severe, and with this thought a dark streak fell across my sky. A cruel disciplinarian, had I not read of such characters, lock and key, bread and water and solitude, to sit locked up all night in a dark out-of-the-way room in a great, ghostly, old-fashioned house with no one nearer than the other wing? What is of horror in one such night? Would not this explain my poor father's hesitation and my cousin Monica's apparently disproportioned opposition? When an idea of terror presents itself to a young person's mind, it chance-fixes and fills the vision without respect of probabilities or reason. My uncle was now a terrible old Martinette with long Bible lessons, lectures, pages of catechism, sermons to be conned by rote and an awful catalogue of punishments for idleness and what would seem to him impiety. I was going then to a frightful, isolated reformatory where for the first time in my life I should be subjected to a rigorous and perhaps barbarous discipline. All of this was an exhalation of fancy, but it quite overcame me. I threw myself in my solitude on the floor, upon my knees and prayed for deliverance, prayed that cousin Monica might prevail with Dr. Brierley and both on my behalf with the Lord Chancellor or the High Sheriff or whoever else my proper deliverer might be. And when my cousin returned, she found me quite in an agony.  And when my new terror came to light, she actually laughed a little to reassure me and she said, my dear child, your uncle Silas will never put you through your duty to your neighbour. All the time you are under his roof you'll have idleness and liberty enough and too much, I fear. It is neglect, my dear, not discipline that I'm afraid of. I think, dear cousin Monica, you are afraid of something more than neglect. I said, relieved, however. I am afraid of more than neglect, she replied promptly. But I hope my fears may turn out illusory and that possibly they may be avoided. And now for a few hours at least, let us think of something else. I rather like that, Dr. Brierley. I could not get him to say what I wanted. I don't think he's scotch, but he is very cautious and I am sure, though he would not say so, that he thinks of the matter exactly as I do. He says that those fine people who are named as his co-trustees won't take any trouble and will leave everything to him, and I am sure he is right. So we must not quarrel with him more nor call him hard names, although he certainly is intolerably vulgar and ugly and at times very nearly impertinent, I suppose without knowing or indeed very much caring. We had a good deal to think of and talked incessantly. There were bursts and interruptions of grief and my kind cousins' consolations. I have often been so lectured for giving way to grief that I wonder at the patient's exercise by her during this irksome visit. Then there was some reading of that book whose claims are always felt in the terrible days of affliction. After that we had a walk in the U-Garden, that quaint little cloister quadrangle, the most solemn, sad and antiquated of gardens. And now, my dear, I must really leave you for two or three hours. I have so many letters to write and my people must think I'm dead by this time. So till tea time I have poor Mary Quince with her gushes of simple prattle and her long fits of vacant silence for my companion. And such a one who can con over by rote the old friendly gossip about the dead, talk about their ways and looks and likings without much psychological refinement, but with a simple admiration and liking that never measured them critically, but always with faith and love, is in general about as comfortable as a companion as one can find for the common moods of grief. It is not easy to recall in calm and happy hours the sensations of an accurate sorrow that is past. Nothing by the merciful ordinance of God is more difficult to remember than pain. One or two great agonies of that time I do remember, and they remain to testify of the rest and convince me, though I can see it no more, how terrible all that period was. Next day was the funeral that appalling necessity, smuggled away in whispers by black familiars unresisting. The beloved one leaves us without a farewell to darken those doors no more, henceforward to lie aside far away and forsaken through the drowsy heats of summer, through days of snow and nights of tempest, without light or warmth, without a voice near. Oh death, king of terrors, the body quakes and the spirit faints before thee. It is vain with hands clasped over our eyes to scream our reclamation. The horrible image will not be excluded. We have just the words spoken 1800 years ago and our trembling faith, and through the broken vault, the gleam of the star of Bethlehem. I was glad in a sort of agony when it was over, so long as it remained to be done, something of the catastrophe was still suspended. Now it was all over. The house so strangely empty, no owner, no master. I, with my strange momentary liberty, bereft of that irreplaceable love, never quite prized until it is lost. Most people have experienced the dismay that underlies sorrow under such circumstances. The apartment of the poor outcast from life is now dismantled. Beds and curtains taken down and furniture displaced, carpets removed, windows opened and doors locked. The bedroom and anti-room were henceforward for many a day uninhabited. Every shocking change smoked my heart like a reproach. I saw that day that cousin Monica had been crying for the first time, I think, since her arrival at Noel, and I loved her more for it and felt consoled. My tears have often been arrested by the sight of another person weeping, and I never could explain why, but I believe that many persons experience the same odd reaction. The funeral was conducted in obedience to his brief but peremptory direction, very privately and with little expense, but, of course, there was an attendance, and the tenants of the Noel estate also followed the hearth to the mausoleum, as it is called in the park, where he was laid beside my dear mother, and so the repulsive ceremonial of that dreadful day was over. The grief remained, but there was rest from the fatigue of agitation and a comparative calm supervened. It was now the stormy equinoctial weather that sounds the wild dirge of autumn and marches the winter in. I love and always did the grand, undefinable music, threatening and bewailing with its strange soul of liberty and desolation. By this night's mail, as we sat listening to the storm in the drawing room at Noel, there reached me a large letter with a great black seal and a wonderfully deep black border, like a widow's crepe. I did not recognize the handwriting, but on opening the funeral missive, it proved to be from my uncle Silas and was thus expressed. My dearest niece, this letter will reach you probably on the day which consigns the mortal remains of my beloved brother, Austin, your dear father to the earth. Sad ceremony from taking my mournful part in which I am excluded by years, distance and broken health. It will, I trust, at this season of desolation, be not unwelcome to remember that a substitute, imperfect, unworthy, but most affectionately zealous for the honored parent whom you have just lost has been appointed in me, your uncle, by his will. I am aware that you were present during the reading of it, but I think it will be for our mutual satisfaction that our new and more affectionate relation should be forthwith entered upon. My conscience and your safety, and I trust convenience, will thereby be consulted. You will, my dear niece, remain at knoll until a few simple arrangements shall have been completed for your reception at this place. I will then settle the details of your little journey to us, which shall be performed as comfortably and easily as possible. I humbly pray that this affliction may be sanctified to us all, and that in all our new duties we may be supported, comforted, and directed. I need not remind you that I now stand to you in loco parentis, which means in the relation of father, and you will not forget that you are to remain at knoll until you hear further from me. I remain, my dear niece, your most affectionate uncle and guardian, Silas Ruffin. P.S. Pray present my respects to Lady Nollis who, I understand, is sojourning at knoll. I would observe that a lady who cherishes, I have reason to fear, unfriendly feelings against your uncle, is not the most desirable companion for his ward, but upon the express condition that I am not made the subject of your discussions, a distinction which could not conduce to your forming a just and respectful estimate of me, I do not interpose my authority to bring your intercourse to an immediate close. As I read this post-script, my cheek tingled as if I had received a box on the ear. Uncle Silas was as yet a stranger. The menace of authority was new and sudden, and I felt with a pang of mortification the full force of the position in which my dear father's will had placed me. I was silent and handed the letter to my cousin, who read it with a kind of smile until she came as I supposed to the post-script when her countenance on which my eyes were fixed changed, and with flushed cheeks she knocked the hand that held the letter on the table before her and exclaimed, Did I ever hear, well, if this isn't impertinence, what an old man that is! There was a pause during which Lady Nollis held her head high with a frown and sniffed a little. I did not intend to talk about him, but now I will. I'll talk away just whatever I like, and I'll stay here just as long as you let me, Maud, and you need not be one atom afraid of him. Our intercourse to an immediate close, indeed. I only wish he were here. He should hear something. And cousin Monica drank off her entire cup of tea at one draught, and then she said more in her own way, I'm better, and drew a long breath, and then she laughed a little in a waggish defiance. I wish we had him here, Maud, and would not we give him a bit of our minds. And this, before the poor will, is so much as proved. I'm almost glad he wrote that postscript, for although I don't think he has any authority in that matter, while I am under my own roof, I said, extemporizing a legal opinion, and therefore shan't obey him, it has somehow opened my eyes to my real situation. I sighed, I believe, very desolately, for Lady Nollis came over and kissed me very gently and affectionately. It really seems, Maud, as if he had a supernatural sense, and heard things through the air over fifty miles of heath and hill. You remember now, just as he was probably writing that very postscript yesterday, I was urging you to come and stay with me, and planning to move Dr. Briley in our favour. And so I will, Maud, and to me you shall come, my guest mind. I should be so delighted, and really, if Silas is under a cloud, it has been his own doing, and I don't see that it is your business to fight his battle. He can't live very long. This suspicion, whatever it is, dies with him, and what could poor dear Austin prove by his will, but what everybody knew quite well before, his own strong belief in Silas's innocence. What an awful storm, the room trembles. Don't you like the sound? What they used to call warving in the old organ at Dorminster? End of Chapter 25 Chapter 26 of Uncle Silas by Joseph Sheridan Lafannou This LibriVox recording is in the public domain. Chapter 26 The Story of Uncle Silas And so it was like the yelling of phantom hounds and hunters and the thunder of their courses in the air, a furious, grand and supernatural music which in my fancy made a suitable accompaniment to the discussion of that enigmatic person, Martyr, Angel, Demon, Uncle Silas, with whom my fate was now so strangely linked and whom I had begun to fear. The storm blows from that point, I said, indicating it with my hand and eye, although the window-shutters and curtains were closed. I saw all the trees bend that way this evening. That way stands the great lonely wood where my darling father and mother lie. Oh, how dreadful on nights like this to think of them, her vault, damp and dark and solitary under the storm. Cousin Monica looked wistfully in the same direction and with a short sigh, she said, we think too much of the poor remains and too little of the spirit which lives forever. I am sure they are happy. And she sighed again, I wish I dare hope as confidently for myself. Yes, Maud, it is sad. We are such materialists, we can't help feeling so. We forget how well it is for us that our present bodies are not to last always. They are constructed for a time and place of trouble, plainly mere temporary machines that wear out, constantly exhibiting failure and decay and with such tremendous capacity for pain. The body lies alone and so it ought, for it is plainly its good creator's will. It is only the tabernacle, not the person who is clothed upon after death, St. Paul says, with a house which is from heaven. So, Maud, darling, although the thought will trouble us again and again, there is nothing in it and the poor mortal body is only the cold ruin of a habitation which they have forsaken before we do. So this great wind, you say, is blowing toward us from the wood there. If so, Maud, it is blowing from butch from how, too, over the trees and chimneys of that old place and the mysterious old man who is quite right in thinking, I don't like him. And I can fancy him an old enchanter in his castle, waving his familiar spirits on the wind, defetch and carry tidings of our occupations here. I lifted my head and listened to the storm, dying away in the distance sometimes, sometimes swelling and peeling around and above us and through the dark and solitude my thoughts sped away to Bartram Howe and Uncle Silas. This letter, I said at last, makes me feel differently.  It is twenty years now since I saw him, answered Lady Nollis. I did not choose to visit at his house. Was that before the dreadful occurrence at Bartram Howe? Yes, before, dear. He was not a reformed rake, but only a ruined one, then. Austin was very good to him. Mr. Danvers says it is quite unaccountable how Silas can have made away with the immense sums he got from his brother, from time to time, without benefiting himself in the least. But, my dear, he played, and trying to help a man who plays and is unlucky, and some men are, I believe, habitually unlucky, is like trying to fill a vessel that has no bottom. I think, by the by, my hopeful nephew, Charles Oakley, plays. Then Silas went most unjustifiably into all manner of speculations, and your poor father had to pay everything. He lost something quite astounding in that bank that ruined so many country gentlemen. Poor Sir Harry Shackleton in Yorkshire had to sell half his estate. But your kind father went on helping him up to his marriage.  Has my aunt been long-dead? Twelve or fifteen years, more indeed.  She was very unhappy, and I am sure, would have given her right hand. She had never married Silas. Did you like her? No, dear. She was a coarse, vulgar woman. Corse and vulgar, and Uncle Silas's wife. I echoed in extreme surprise, for Uncle Silas was a man of fashion, a beau in his day, and might have married women of good birth and fortune I had no doubt, and so I expressed myself. Yes, dear, so he might, and poor dear Austin was very anxious he should, and would have helped him with a handsome settlement, I dare say, but he chose to marry the daughter of a Denby innkeeper. How utterly incredible, I exclaimed. Not the least incredible, dear, a kind of thing not at all so uncommon as you fancy. What? A gentleman of fashion and refinement marry a person? A barmaid, just so, said Lady Nollis. I think I could count half a dozen men of fashion who, to my knowledge, have ruined themselves just in a similar way. Well, at all events it must be allowed that in this he proved himself altogether unworldly. Not a bit unworldly, but very vicious, replied Cousin Monica with a careless little laugh. She was very beautiful, curiously beautiful, for a person in her station.  I believe to do him justice he only intended to ruin her, but she was cunning enough to insist upon marriage. Men who have never in all their lives denied themselves the indulgence of a single fancy, cost what it may, will not be bought even by that condition if the poncho be only violent enough. I did not half understand this piece of worldly psychology at which Lady Nollis seemed to laugh. Poor Silas, certainly he struggled honestly against the consequences, for he tried after the honeymoon to prove the marriage bad. But the Welsh parson and the innkeeper-papa were too strong for him, and the young lady was able to hold her struggling swaying fast in that respectable noose and a pretty prize he proved. And she died, poor thing, broken hearted, I heard. She died at all events about ten years after her marriage, but I really can't say about her heart. She certainly had enough ill-usage, I believe, to kill her, but I don't know that she had feeling enough to die for it, if it had not been that she drank. I'm told that Welsh women often do. There was jealousy, of course, and brutal quarrelling, and all sorts of horrid stories. I visited at Bartram Howe for a year or two, though no one else would. And when that sort of thing began, of course I gave it up. It was out of the question. I don't think poor Austin ever knew how bad it was. And then came that odious business about wretched Mr. Shark. You know, he—he committed suicide at Bartram? I never heard about that, I said, and we both paused, and she looked sternly at the fire and the storm roared and ha-ha-d until the old house shook again. But Uncle Silas could not help that, I said at last. No, he could not help it, she acquiesced unpleasantly. And Uncle Silas was—I paused in a sort of fear. He was suspected by some people of having killed him. She completed the sentence. There was another long pause here during which the storm outside bellowed and hooted, like an angry mob roaring at the windows for a victim. An intolerable and sickening sensation overpowered me. But you did not suspect him, cousin Nullis, I said, trembling very much. No, she answered very sharply. I told you so before, of course I did not. There was another silence. I wish, cousin Monica, I said, drawing close to her. You had not said that about Uncle Silas being like a wizard and sending his spirits on the wind to listen. But I'm very glad you never suspected him. I insinuated my cold hand into hers and looked into her face I know not with what expression. She looked down into mine with a hard, haughty stare, I thought. Of course I never suspected him and never asked me that question again, Maud Ruffin. Was it family pride? Or what was it that gleamed so fiercely from her eyes as she said this? I was frightened, I was wounded, I burst into tears. What is my darling crying for? I did not mean to be cross. Was I cross? Said this momentary phantom of a grim lady Nullis in an instant translated again into kind, pleasant cousin Monica with her arms about my neck. No, no, indeed, only I thought I had vexed you and I believe thinking of Uncle Silas makes me nervous and I can't help thinking of him nearly always. Nor can I, although we might both easily find something better to think of. Suppose we try, said Lady Nullis. But first I must know a little more about that Mr. Shark and what circumstances enabled Uncle Silas's enemies to found on his death that wicked slander which has done no one any good and caused some person so much misery. There is Uncle Silas, I may say, ruined by it and we all know how it darkened the life of my dear father. People will talk, my dear, your Uncle Silas had injured himself before that in the opinion of the people of his county. He was a black sheep, in fact. Very bad stories were told and believed of him. His marriage certainly was a disadvantage, you know, and the miserable scenes that went on in his disreputable house all that predisposed people to believe ill of him. How long is it since it happened? Oh, a long time, I think before you were born, answered she. And the injustice still lives. Have they not forgotten it yet? said I. For such a period appeared to me long enough to have consigned anything in its nature perishable to oblivion. Lady Nollis smiled. Tell me, like a darling cousin, the whole story as well as you can recollect it, who was Mr. Shark? Mr. Shark, my dear, was a gentleman on the turf. That is the phrase, I think, one of those London men without birth or breeding who merely in right of their vices and their money are admitted to associate with young dandies who like hounds and horses and all that sort of thing. That set knew him very well, but of course no one else. He was at the Matlock races and your uncle asked him to Bartram Howe and the creature, Jew or Gentile, whatever he was, fancied there was more honour than, perhaps, he really was in a visit to Bartram Howe. For the kind of person you describe it was, I think, a rather unusual honour to be invited to say in the house of a man of Uncle Rutham's birth. Well, so it was, perhaps, for though they knew him very well on the course and would ask him to their tavern dinners, they would not, of course, admit him to their houses where ladies were. But Silas's wife was not much regarded at Bartram Howe. Indeed she was very little seen, for she was every evening tipsy in her bedroom, poor woman. How miserable, I exclaimed! I don't think it troubled Silas very much, for she drank gin, they said, poor thing, and the expense was not much, and on the whole I really think he was glad she drank for it kept her out of his way and was likely to kill her.  I'm telling you now all that was said afterwards. The races lasted, I forget how many days, and Mr. Chark stayed at Bartram Howe all this time and for some days after. It was thought that poor Austin would pay all Silas's gambling debts, and so this wretched Mr. Chark made heavy wages with him on the races, and they played very deep besides at Bartram. He and Silas used to sit up at night, at cards, all these particulars, as I told you, came out afterwards, for there was an inquest, you know, and then Silas published what he called his statement, and there was a great deal of most distressing correspondence in the newspapers. And why did Mr. Chark kill himself, I asked. Well, I will tell you first what we are agreed upon. The second night after the races, your uncle and Mr. Chark sat up till between two and three o'clock in the morning, quite by themselves in the parlour. Mr. Chark's servant was at the stag's head-in in Feltrum, and therefore could throw no light upon what occurred at night at Bartram Howe, but he was there at six o'clock in the morning, and very early at his master's door, by his direction. He had locked it, as was his habit, upon the inside, and the key was in the lock, which turned out afterwards a very important point. On knocking he found that he could not awaken his master, because, as it appeared when the door was forced open, his master was lying dead at his bedside, not in a pool, but a perfect pond of blood, as they described it, with his throat cut. "'How horrible!' cried I. So it was. Your uncle Silas was called up and greatly shocked, of course, and he did what I believed was best. He had everything left as nearly as possible in the exact state in which it had been found, and he sent his own servant forthwith for the coroner.  "'Could anything be more straightforward, more right and wise?' I said. "'Oh, nothing, of course,' answered Lady Nullis. I thought a little dryly.' End of Chapter 26 Chapter 27 Of Uncle Silas by Joseph Sheridan Levanu This LibriVox recording is in the public domain. Chapter 27 More About Tom Chark's Suicide So the inquest was held and Mr. Manoring of Whale Forest was the only juryman who seemed to entertain the idea during the inquiry that Mr. Chark had died by any hand but his own. "'And how could he fancy such a thing?' I exclaimed indignantly. "'Well, you will see the result was quite enough to justify them in saying as they did that he died by his own hand. The window was found fastened with a screw on the inside as it had been when the chambermaid had arranged it at nine o'clock. No one could have entered through it. Besides, it was on the third story and the rooms are lofty so it stood at a great height from the ground and there was no ladder long enough to reach it. The house is built in the form of a hollow square and Mr. Chark's room looked into the narrow courtyard within. There is but one door leading into this and it did not show any sign of having been opened for years. The door was locked upon the inside and the key in the lock so that nobody could have made an entrance that way, either. For it was impossible, you see, to unlock the door from the inside. "'And how could they affect to question anything so clear?' I asked. There did come, nevertheless, a kind of mist over the subject which gave those who chose to talk unpleasantly an opportunity of insinuating suspicions though they could not themselves find the clue of the mystery. In the first place it appeared that he had gone to bed very tipsy and that he was heard singing and noisy in his room while getting to bed not the mood in which men make away with themselves. Then, although his own razor was found in that dreadful blood if he's shocking to have to hear all this, near his right hand the fingers of his left were cut to the bone. Then the memorandum book in which his bets were noted was nowhere to be found. That, you know, was very odd. His keys were there attached to a chain. He wore a great deal of gold and trinkets. I saw him, wretched man, on the course. They had got off their horses. He and your uncle were walking on the course. Did he look like a gentleman, I inquired, as I dare say other young ladies would. He looked like a doom, my dear. He had a horrid brown coat with a velvet cape, curling black hair over his collar and great whiskers, very high shoulders, and he was puffing a cigar straight up into the air. I was shocked to see Silas in such company. And did his keys discover anything, I asked. On opening his travelling desk and a small Japaned box within it, a vast deal less money was found than was expected. In fact, very little. Your uncle said that he had won some of it the night before at play, and that Chark complained to him when tipsy of having had severe losses to counterbalance his gains on the races. Besides, he had been paid but a small part of those gains. About his book it appeared that there were little notes of bets on the backs of letters, and it was said that he sometimes made no other memorandum of his wages. But this was disputed, and among those notes there was not one referring to Silas. But then there was an omission of all allusion to his transactions with two other well-known gentlemen, so that was not singular. No, certainly, that was quite accounted for, said I. And then came the question, continued she, what motive could Mr. Chark possibly have had for making away with himself? But is not that very difficult to make out in many cases, I interposed? It was said that he had some mysterious troubles in London at which he used to hint. Some people said that he really was in a scrape, but others that there was no such thing, and that when he talked so he was only jesting. There was no suspicion during the inquest that your uncle Silas was involved, except those questions of Mr. Manorings. What were they? I asked. I really forget, but they greatly offended your uncle, and there was a little scene in the room. Mr. Manorings seemed to think that someone had somehow got into the room. Through the door it could not be nor down the chimney, for they found an iron bar across the flue, near the top in the masonry. The window looked into a courtyard no bigger than a ballroom. They went down and examined it, but though the ground beneath was moist they could not discover the slightest trace of a footprint. So far as they could make out, Mr. Chark had hermetically sealed himself into his room, and then cut his throat with his own razor. Yes, said I, for it was all secured, that is, the window and the door, upon the inside and no sign of any attempt to get in. Just so, and when the walls were searched and as your uncle Silas directed, the wainscoting removed, some months afterwards, when the scandal grew loudest, then it was evident that there was no concealed access to the room. So the answer to all those calamities was simply that the crime was impossible, said I, how dreadful that such a slander should have required an answer at all. It was an unpleasant affair even then, although I cannot say that anyone supposed Silas guilty. But you know the whole thing was disreputable, that Mr. Chark was a discreditable inmate, the occurrence was horrible, and there was a glare of publicity which brought in to relieve the scandals of Bartram Howe. But in a little time it became, all of a sudden, a great deal worse. My cousin paused to recollect exactly. There were very disagreeable whispers among the sporting people in London. This person, Chark, had written two letters. Yes, two. They were published about two months after by the villain to whom they were written. He wanted to extort money. They were first talked of a great deal among that set in town, but the moment they were published they produced a sensation in the country and a storm of newspaper commentary. The first of these was of no great consequence, but the second was very startling, embarrassing, and even alarming. What was it, Kazamonika? I whispered. I can only tell you in a general way. It is so very long since I read it. But both were written in the same kind of slang and parts as hard to understand as a prize fight. I hope you never read those things. I satisfied this sudden educational alarm and Lady Nollis proceeded. I'm afraid you hardly hear me. The wind makes such an uproar. Well, listen. The letter said distinctly that he, Mr. Chark, had made a very profitable visit to Bartram Howe and mentioned in exact figures for how much he held your Uncle Silas's IOUs, for he could not pay him. I can't say what the sum was. I only remember that it was quite frightful. It took away my breath when I read it. Uncle Silas had lost it, I asked. Yes, and owed it, and had given him those papers called IOUs, promising to pay, which, of course, Mr. Chark had locked up with his money, and the insinuation was that Silas had made away with him to get rid of this debt, and that he had also taken a great deal of his money. I just recollect these points which were exactly what made the impression. Continue, Lady Nollis, after a short pause. The letter was written in the evening of the last day of the Wretched Man's life, so that there had not been much time for your Uncle Silas to win back his money, and he stoutly alleged that he did not owe Mr. Chark a guinea. It mentioned an enormous sum as being actually owed by Silas, and it cautioned the man, an agent, to whom he wrote, not to mention the circumstance, as Silas could only pay by getting the money from his wealthy brother, who would have the management, and he distinctly said that he had kept the matter very close at Silas's request. That, you know, was a very awkward letter, but it was worse that it was written in brutally high spirits, and not at all like a man meditating an exit from the world. You can imagine what a sensation the publication of these letters produced. In a moment the storm was up, and certainly Silas did meet it bravely. Yes, with great courage and ability. What a pity he did not early enter upon some career of ambition. Well, well, it is idle regretting. He suggested that the letters were forgeries. He alleged that Chark was in the habit of boasting and telling enormous falsehoods about his gambling transactions, especially in his letters. He reminded the world how often men affect high animal spirits at the very moment of meditating suicide. He alluded in a manly and graceful way to his family and their character. He took a high and menacing tone with his adversaries, and he insisted that what they dared to insinuate against him was physically impossible. I asked him what form this vindication appeared. It was a letter printed as a pamphlet. Everybody admired its ability, ingenuity, and force, and it was written with immense rapidity. Was it at all in the style of his letters? I innocently asked. My cousin laughed. Oh, dear, no. Ever since he avowed himself a religious character, he has written nothing but the most vapid and nervous twaddle. Your poor dear father used to send his letters to me to read, and I sometimes really thought that Silas was losing his faculties. But I believe he was only trying to write in character. I suppose the general feeling was in his favour, I said. I don't think it was, anywhere. But in his own county it was certainly unanimously against him. There is no use in asking why, but so it was, and I think it would have been easier for him, with his unaided strength, to uproot the peak than to change the convictions of the Derbyshire gentlemen. They were all against him. Of course there were predisposing causes. Your uncle published a very bitter attack upon them, describing himself as the victim of a political conspiracy. I recollect he mentioned that from the hour of the shocking catastrophe in his house he had foresworn the turf and all pursuits and amusements connected with it. People sneered and said he might as well go as wait to be kicked out. Were there lawsuits about all this, I asked. Everybody expected that there would be, for there were very savage things printed on both sides, and I think too that the persons who thought worst of him expected that evidence would yet turn up to convict Silas of the crime they choose to impute. And so years have glided by and many of the people who remember the tragedy of Bartram Howe and took the strongest part in the denunciation and ostracism that followed are dead and no new light has been thrown upon the occurrence and your uncle Silas remains an outcast. At first he was quite wild with rage and would have fought the whole country man by man if they would have met him. But he had since changed his habits and, as he said, his aspirations altogether. He has become religious.  Your poor father, who was very decided and inflexible never helped him beyond the limit he had prescribed after Silas's missiles. He wanted to get him into Parliament and would have paid his expenses and made him an allowance but either Silas had grown lazy or he understood his position better than poor Austin or he distressed his powers or possibly he really is in ill health but he objected his religious scruples. Your poor papa thought self-assertion possible where an injured man has right to rely upon but he had been very long out of the world and the theory won't do. Nothing is harder than to get a person who has once been effectually slurred, received again. Silas, I think, was right. I don't think it was practicable. Dear child, how late it is! exclaimed Lady Knowledge suddenly looking at the Louis Catole's clock that crowned the mantelpiece. It was near one o'clock. The storm had a little subsided and I took a less agitated and more confident view of Uncle Silas than I had at an earlier hour of that evening. And what do you think of him? I asked. Lady Knowledge strummed on the table with her finger-points as she looked into the fire. I don't understand metaphysics, my dear, nor witchcraft. I sometimes believe in the supernatural and sometimes I don't. Silas Roughing is himself alone and I can't define him because I don't understand him. Perhaps other souls than human are sometimes born into the world and clothed in flesh. It is not only about that dreadful occurrence but nearly always throughout his life. Early and late he has puzzled me. I have tried in vain to understand him but at one time of his life I am sure he was awfully wicked, eccentric indeed in his wickedness, gay, frivolous, secret and dangerous. At one time I think he could have made poor Austin do almost anything but his influence vanished with his marriage, never to return again. No, I don't understand him. He always bewildered me like a shifting face, sometimes smiling but always sinister in an unpleasant dream. End of Chapter 27 Chapter 28 I am persuaded. So now at last I had heard the story of Uncle Silas's mysterious disgrace. We sat silent for a while and I, gazing into vacancies, sent him in a chariot of triumph, chapleted, ringed and robed through the city of imagination, crying after him, innocent, innocent, martyr and crowned. All the virtues and honesties, reason and conscience in myriad shapes, tear above tear of human faces, from the crowded pavement, crowded windows, crowded roofs, joined in the jubilant acclimation and trumpeters trumpeted and drums rolled and great organs inquired through open cathedral gates, rolled anthems of praise and thanksgiving and the bells rang out and cannons sounded and the air trembled with the roaring harmony and Silas Ruffin, the full length portrait, stood in the burnished chariot with a proud, sad, clouded face that rejoiced not with the rejoicers and behind him the slave, thin as a ghost, white-faced and sneering something in his ear, while I and all the city went on crying, innocent, innocent, martyr and crowned. And now the reverie was ended and there were only Lady Nollis's stern, thoughtful face with the pale light of sarcasm on it and the storm outside thundering and lamenting desolately. It was very good of Cousin Monica to stay with me so long. It must have been unspeakably tiresome and now she began to talk of business at home and plainly to prepare for immediate flight and my heart sank. I know that I could not then have defined my feelings and agitations. I am not sure that I even now could. Any misgiving about Uncle Silas was, in my mind, a questioning the foundation of my faith and in itself an impiety. And yet I am not sure that some such misgiving, faint perhaps and intermittent, may not have been at the bottom of my tribulation. I was not very well. Lady Nollis had gone out for a walk. She was not easily tired and sometimes made a long excursion. The sun was setting now where Mary Quince brought me a letter which had just arrived by the post. My heart throbbed violently. I was afraid to break the broad black seal. It was from Uncle Silas. I ran over in my mind all the unpleasant mandates which it might contain to try and prepare myself for a shock. At last I opened the letter. It directed me to hold myself in readiness for the journey to Bartram Hall. It stated that I might bring two maids with me if I wish so many, and that his next letter would give me the details of my route and the day of my departure for Derbyshire. And he said that I ought to make arrangements about Noll during my absence, but that he was hardly the person properly to be consulted on that matter. Then came a prayer that he might be enabled to equip himself of his trust to the full satisfaction of his conscience and that I might enter upon my new relations in a spirit of prayer. I looked round my room so long familiar and now so endeared by the idea of parting and change. The old house, dear dear Noll, how could I leave you and all your affectionate associations and kind looks and voices for a strange land? With a great sigh I took Uncle Silas' letter and went downstairs to the drawing-room from the lobby-window where I loitered for a few moments I looked out upon the well-known forest trees. The sun was down, it was already twilight and the white vapours of coming night were already filming their thinned and yellow foliage. Everything looked melancholy. How little did those who envied the young in heritrix of a princely fortune suspect the loads that lay at her heart or baiting the fear of death how gladly at that moment she would have parted with her life. Lady Nollis had not yet returned and it was darkening rapidly. A mass of black clouds stood piled in the west through the chasms of which was still reflected a pale, metallic luster. The drawing-room was already very dark but some streaks of this cold light fell upon a black figure which would otherwise have been unseen leaning beside the curtains against the window-frame. It advanced abruptly with creaking shoes. It was Dr. Briley. I was startled and surprised not knowing how he had got there. I stood staring at him in the dusk rather awkwardly, I'm afraid. How do you do, Miss Ruffin? said he extending his hand long, hard and brown as a mummy's and stooping a little so as to approach more nearly for it was not easy to see in the imperfect light. You're surprised, I dare say, to see me here so soon again. I did not know you had arrived. I'm glad to see you, Dr. Briley. Nothing unpleasant I hope has happened. No, nothing unpleasant, Miss. The will has been lodged and we shall have probate in due course. But there has been something on my mind and I've come to ask you two or three questions which you have better answer very considerably. Is Miss Nollis still here? Yes, but she is not returned from her walk. I'm glad she is here. I think she takes a sound view and women understand one another better. As for me it is plainly my duty to put it before you as it strikes me and to offer all I can do in accomplishing. Should you wish it? A different arrangement. You don't know your uncle you said the other day? No, I've never seen him. You understand your late father's intention in making you his ward? I suppose he wished to show his high opinion of my uncle's fitness for such a trust. That's quite true, but the nature of the trust in this instance is extraordinary. I don't understand.  You are to live in his house under his care and authority. You see now I think how it is and I did not like it when your father read the will to me and I said so. Do you? I hesitated to speak not sure that I quite comprehended him and the more I think of it the less I like it, Miss, said Dr. Briley in a calm, stern tone. Messy for heaven! Dr. Briley, you can't suppose that I should not be as safe in my uncle's house as in the Lord Chancellor's I ejaculated, looking full in his face. But don't you see, Miss, it is not a fair position to put your uncle in, replied he, after a little hesitation. But suppose he does not think so? You know, if he does, he may decline it. Well, that's true, but he won't. Here is his letter, and he produced it, announcing officially that he means to accept the office. But I think he ought to be told it is not delicate under all circumstances. You know, Miss, that your uncle, Mr. Silas Ruthin, was talked about unpleasantly once.  Yes, I have heard that, I said. I was speaking with a shocking aplomb. We assume, of course, unjustly, but there are many who think quite differently. And possibly, Dr. Brierly, it was for that very reason that my dear papa made him my guardian. There can be no doubt of that, Miss. It was the purge him of that scandal. And when he has acquitted himself honourably of that trust, don't you think such a proof of confidence so honourably fulfilled is hard to silence his traduces? Why, if all goes well, it may do a little, but a great deal less than you fancy. But take it that you happen to die, Miss, during your minority. We are all mortal, and there are three years and some months to go. How will it be then? Don't you see? Just fancy how people will talk. I think you know that my uncle is a religious man, said I. Well, Miss, what of that? He asked again. He is... He has suffered intensely, I continued. He has long retired from the world. He is very religious. Ask our curate Mr. Fairfield if you doubt it. But I am not disputing it, Miss. I am only supposing what may happen. An accident will call it smallpox, diphtheria. That's going very much. Three years and three months, you know, is a long time. You proceed to Bartram Howe, thinking you have much goods laid up for many years. But your creator, you know, may say, Thou fool, this day is thy soul required of thee. You go.   The Swedenborgian smiled. Well, knowing that he is so too, and having yourself experienced the power of religion, do you not think him deserving of every confidence? Don't you think it well that he should have the opportunity of exhibiting both his own character and the reliance which my dear papa reposed on it, and that we should leave all consequences and contingencies in the hands of heaven? It appears there have been the will of heaven hither too, said Dr. Briley. I could not see with what expression of face, but he was looking down and drawing little diagrams with his stick on the dark carpet, and spoke in a very low tone, that your uncle should suffer under this ill report. In countervailing the appointment of Providence we must employ our reason with conscientious diligence, as to the means, and if we find that they are as likely to do mischief as good, we have no right to expect a special interposition, to turn our experiment into an ordeal. I think you ought to weigh it well. I'm sure there are reasons against it. If you make up your mind that you would rather be placed under the care, say, of Lady Nollis, I will endeavour all I can to effect it. That could not be done without his consent, could it? said I. No, but I don't despair of getting that, on terms, of course, remarked he. I don't quite understand, I said. I mean, for instance, if he were allowed to keep the allowance for your maintenance, eh? I mistake my uncle Silas very much, I said, if that allowance is any object whatever, to him compared with the moral value of the position, if he were deprived of that I am sure he would decline the other. I might try him at all events, said Dr. Briley, on whose dark sinewy features even in this imperfect light I thought I detected a smile. Perhaps, said I, I appear very foolish in supposing him actuated by any but sordid motives, but he is my near relation and I can't help it, sir. That is a very serious thing, Miss Ruthin, he replied. You are very young and cannot see it at present, until hereafter. He is very religious, you say, and all that, but his house is not a proper place for you. It is a solitude. It's master and outcast, and it has been a repeated scene of all sorts of scandals and of one great crime, and Lady Nollis thinks your having been domesticated there will be an injury to you all the days of your life. You, Maud, said Lady Nollis, who had just entered the room unperceived. How do you do, Dr. Briley? A serious injury. You have no idea how entirely that house is condemned and avoided, and the very name of its inmates tabooed. How monstrous! how cruel! I exclaimed. Very unpleasant, my dear, but perfectly natural. You are to recollect that quite independently of the story of Mr. Chark, who the house was talked about and the county people had cut your Uncle Silas long before that adventure was dreamed of, and as to the circumstance of your being placed in his charge by his brother, who took from strong family feeling a totally one-sided view of the affair from the first, having the slightest effect in restoring his position in the county. You must quite give that up. Except me, if he will allow me, and the clergyman, not a soul in the country will visit at Bartram Howe. They may pity you and think the whole thing a climax of folly and cruelty, but they won't visit at Bartram, or know Silas, or have anything to do with his household. They will see, at all events, what my dear Papa's opinion was. They know that already, answered she, and it has not, and ought not to have, the slightest weight with them. There are people there who think themselves just as great as the Ruffins, or greater, and your poor father's idea of bearing it by a demonstration was simply the dream of a man who had forgotten the world, and learned to exaggerate himself in his long seclusion. I know he was beginning himself to hesitate, and I think if he had been spared another year, that provision of his will would have been struck out. Dr. Briley nodded, and he said, and if he had the power to dictate now, would he insist on that direction? It is a mistake every way.  Dr. Briley will, I have no doubt, arrange at all. In fact, I do not think it would be very difficult to bring Silas to terms, and if you do not consent to his trying more to mark my words, you will live to repent it. Here were two persons viewing the question from totally different points, both perfectly disinterested, both in their different ways I believe, shrewd and even wise, and both honourable, urging me against it, and in a way that undefinably alarmed my imagination, as well as moved my reason. I looked from one to the other. There was a silence. By this time the candles had come and we could see one another. I only wait your decision, Miss Ruffin, said the trustee, to see your uncle. If his advantage was the chief object contemplated in this arrangement, he will be the best judge whether his interest is really best consulted by it or no, and I think he will clearly see that it is not so and will answer accordingly. I cannot answer now. You must allow me to think it over. I will do my best. I am very much obliged, my dear cousin Monica, you are so very good, and you too, Dr. Briley. Dr. Briley, by this time, was looking into his pocketbook and did not acknowledge my thanks even by a nod. I must be in London the day after tomorrow. Bartram Howe is nearly sixty miles from here and only twenty of that by rail I find. Forty miles of posting over those British mountains is slow work, but if you say try, I'll see him tomorrow morning. Dr. Briley You must say try, you must, my dear Maude. Dr. Briley But how can I decide in a moment? Oh dear cousin Monica, I am so distracted. Dr. Briley But you need not decide at all. The decision rests with him. Come, he is more competent than you. You must say yes. Again I looked from her to Dr. Briley and from him to her again. I threw my arms about her neck and hugging her closely to me, I cried. Oh cousin Monica, dear cousin Monica, advise me. I am a wretched creature. You must advise me. I did not know till now how irresolute a character was mine. I knew somehow by the tone of her voice that she was smiling as she answered. Why, dear, I have advised you. I do advise you. Do not be impetuously. I entreat and implore, if you really think I love you, that you will follow my advice. It is your duty to leave your Uncle Silas whom you believe to be more competent than you are to decide after full conference with Dr. Briley who knows more of your poor father's views and intentions in making that appointment than either you or I. Shall I say yes? I cried, drawing her close and kissing her helplessly. Will you tell me, tell me to say yes? Yes, of course, yes. She agrees, Dr. Briley, to your kind proposal. I am to understand so, he asked. Very well, yes, Dr. Briley, I replied. You have resolved wisely and well, said he briskly, like a man who has got a care of his mind. I forgot to say, Dr. Briley, it was very rude that you must stay with him. He can't, my dear, in depose Lady Nullis. It is a long way. He will die, won't you, Dr. Briley? No, he can't. You know you can't, sir, said my cousin, peremptorily. You must not worry him, my dear, with civilities he can't accept. He'll bid us goodbye this moment. Goodbye, Dr. Briley. You'll write immediately. Don't wait till you reach town. And thus she literally hurried him out of the room, leaving me in a state of amazement and confusion, not able to review my decision, unsatisfied, but still unable to recall it. I stood where they had left me, looking after them, I suppose, like a fool. Lady Nullis returned in a few minutes. If I had been a little cooler, I was shrewd enough to perceive that she had sent poor Dr. Briley away upon his travels, to find half-way to Bartram, to remove him forthwith from my presence and thus to make my decision, if mine it was, irrevocable. I applaud you, my dear, said cousin Nullis, in her turn embracing me heartily.  I hope I have, I faltered. Hope! Fickle! Stuff! The things as plain as a pike's staff! And in came Branson to say that dinner was served. End of Chapter Twenty-Eight Chapter Twenty-Nine of Uncle Silas by Joseph Sheridan LaFannou this LibriVox recording is in the public domain. Chapter Twenty-Nine How the Ambassador Fared Lady Nullis, I could plainly see when we got into the brighter lights at the dinner-table, was herself a good deal excited. She was relieved and glad to have a dinner with Nullis during our meal and told me all her early recollections of dear papa. Most of them I had heard before but they could not be told too often. Notwithstanding my mind sometimes wandered often indeed to the conference so unexpected so suddenly decisive possibly so momentous and with a dismayed uncertainty the question, had I done right was always before me. I dare say my cousin understood the character better perhaps after all my honest self-study than I do even now. Irresolute suddenly reversing my own decisions impetuous in action as she knew me she feared I am sure a revocation of my commission to Dr. Briley and thought of the countermand I might send galloping after him. So kind creature she laboured to occupy my thoughts and when one theme was exhausted found another and had always her parry prepared as often as I directed a reflection or an inquiry to the reopening of the question which she had taken so much pains to close. That night I was troubled I was already abrading myself I could not sleep and at last sat up in bed and cried. I lamented my weakness in having assented to Dr. Briley and my cousin's advice was I not departing from my engagement to my dear papa was I not consenting to my uncle Silas should be induced to second my breach of faith by a corresponding perfidy Lady Nollis had done wisely in dispatching Dr. Briley so promptly for most assuredly had he been at Null next morning when I came down I should have recalled my commission. That day in the study I found four papers which increased my perturbation they were in dear papa's handwriting and had an endorsement in these words a copy of my letter addressed to blank one of the trustees named in my will here then were the contents of those four sealed letters which had excited mine in Lady Nollis's curiosity on the agitating day on which the will was read it contained these words I name my oppressed and unhappy brother Silas Ruffin residing at my house of Bartram Howe as guardian of the person of my beloved child to convince the world if possible and failing that to satisfy at least all future generations of our family that his brother who knew him best had implicit confidence in him and that he deserved it a cowardly and preposterous slander originating in political malice and which never have been whispered had he not been poor and imprudent is best silenced by this ordeal of purification for him if my child dies under age and the custody of her person I commit meanwhile to him alone knowing that she is as safe in his as she could have been under my own care I rely upon your remembrance of our early friendship to make this known wherever an opportunity occurs and also to say what your sense of justice may warrant the other letters were in the same spirit my heart sank like lead as I read them I quaked with fear what had I done my father's wise and noble vindication of our dishonoured name I have presumed to frustrate I had like a coward receded from my easy share in the task and merciful heaven I have broken my faith with the dead with these letters in my hand wiped with fear I flew like a shadow to the drawing room where cousin Monica was and told her to read them I saw by her countenance how much alarm she was by my looks but she said nothing only read the letters hurriedly and then exclaimed is this all my dear child I really fancied you had found a second will and had lost everything why my dearest Maude, we knew all this before we quite understood poor dear Austin's motive why are you so easily disturbed oh cousin Monica I think he was right it all seems quite reasonable now and I, oh what a crime it must be stopped my dear Maude, listen to reason Dr. Briley has seen your uncle at barcham at least two hours ago you can't stop it and why on earth should you if you could don't you think your uncle should be consulted said she but he has decided I have his letter speaking of it as settled and Dr. Briley oh cousin Monica tempt him nonsense girl Dr. Briley is a good and just man I do believe and has beside no imaginable motive to bevert either his conscience or his judgement he's not gone to tempt him stuff but to unfold the facts and invite his consideration and I say considering how thoughtlessly such duties are often undertaken and how long Silas has been living in lazy solitude shut out from the world used to discuss anything I do think it only conscientious and honorable that he should have a fair and distinct view of the matter in all its bearing submitted to him before he indolently incurs what may prove the worst danger he was ever involved in so Lady Nollis argued with feminine energy and I must confess with a good deal of the repetition which I have sometimes observed in logicians of my own sex without satisfying me I don't know why I went to that room I said quite frightened or why I went to that press how it happened that these papers which we never saw there before were the first things to strike my eye today what do you mean dear said Lady Nollis I mean this I think I was brought there and that there is poor Papa's appeal to me as plain as if his hand came and wrote it upon the wall I nearly screamed the conclusion of this wild confession you are nervous my darling your bad nights have won you out let us go out the air will do you good and I do assure you that you will very soon see that we are quite right and rejoice conscientiously that you have acted as you did but I was not to be satisfied although my first vehemence was quieted in my prayers that night my conscience upbraided me down in bed my nervousness returned fourfold everybody at all nervously excitable has suffered some time or another by the appearance of ghastly features presenting themselves in every variety of contortion one after another the moment the eyes are closed this night my dear father's face troubled me sometimes white and sharp as ivory sometimes strangely transparent like glass sometimes all hanging in cadaverous folds always with the same unnatural expression of diabolical fury from this dreadful vision I could only escape by sitting up and staring at the light at length worn out I dropped asleep and in a dream I distinctly heard papa's voice say sharply outside the bed curtain moored we shall be late at Bartram Howe and I awoke in a horror the wall as it seemed still ringing with the summons and the speaker standing at the other side of the curtain a miserable night I passed in the morning looking myself like a ghost I stood in my nightdress by Lady Nollis's bed I have had a warning I said oh cousin Monica papa has been with me and ordered me to Bartram Howe and go I will she stared in my face uncomfortably and then tried to laugh the matter off but I know she was troubled at the strange state to which agitation and suspense had reduced me you're taking too much for granted moored said she Silas Ruffin most likely will refuse his consent and insist on your going to Bartram Howe heaven grant I exclaimed but if he doesn't it is all the same to me go I will he may turn me out but I'll go and try to expiate the breach of faith that I fear is so horribly wicked we had several hours still to wait for the arrival of the post for both of us the delay was a suspense for me an almost agonising one at length at an unlooked for moment Branson did enter the room with the post bag there was a large letter with the Feltrum postmark addressed to Lady Nollis it was Dr Briley's dispatch we read it together it was dated on the day before and its purpose was thus respected madam this day saw Mr Silas Ruffin at Bartram Howe and he peremptorily refuses on any terms to vacate the guardianship or to consent to Miss Ruffins residing anywhere but under his own immediate care as he bases his refusal first upon a conscientious difficulty declaring that he has no right through fear of personal contingencies to abdicate an office imposed in so solemn a way and so naturally devolving on him that he would be deceased and secondly upon the effect such a withdrawal at the instance of the acting trustee would have upon his own character amounting to a public self condemnation and as he refused to discuss these positions with me I could make no way whatsoever with him finding therefore that his mind was quite made up after a short time I took my leave he mentioned that preparations for his niece's reception are being completed and for her in a few days so I think it will be advisable that I should go down to Knoll to assist Miss Ruffin with any advice she may require before her departure to discharge servants, get inventories made and provide for the care of the place and grounds during her minority I am, respected madam yours truly Hans E. Brierly I can't describe to you how chat-fallen and angry my cousin looked she sniffed once or twice and then said rather bitterly in a subdued tone well now I hope you are pleased no, no, no you know I'm not grieved to the heart my only friend my dear cousin Monica but my conscience is at rest you don't know what a sacrifice it is I am a most unhappy creature I feel an indescribable foreboding I am frightened to take me cousin Monica no darling never, she said sadly and you'll come and see me won't you as often as you can yes dear that is if Silas allows me and I'm sure he will she added hastily seeing I suppose my terror in my face all I can do you may be sure I will and perhaps he will allow you to come to me now and then for a short visit I am only six miles away little more than half an hour's drive and though I hate Bartram and detest Silas yes I detest Silas she repeated in reply to my surprised gaze I will call at Bartram that is I say if he allows me for you know I haven't been there for a quarter of a century and though I never understood Silas I fancy he forgives no sins whether of a mission or commission I wondered what old grudge could make my cousin Judge Uncle Silas always so hardly I could not suppose it was justice I had seen my hero indeed lately so disrespectfully handled before my eyes that he had as idols will lost something of his sacredness but as an article of faith I still cultivated my trust in his divinity and dismissed every intruding doubt with an exorcism as a suggestion of the evil one but I wronged Lady Nollis in suspecting her of peak or malice or anything more than that tendency to take strong views which some persons attribute to my sets so then the little project of cousin Monica's guardianship which had it been poor Papa's wish would have made me so very happy was quite knocked on the head to revive no more I comforted myself however with the promise to reopen communications with Bartram Howe and we grew resigned I remember next morning as we sat at a very late breakfast Lady Nollis reading a letter suddenly made an explanation to little laugh and read on with increased interest for a few minutes and then with another little laugh she looked up placing her hand with the open letter in it beside her teacup You'll not guess who I've been reading about said she with her head the least thing on one side I smiled I felt myself blushing cheeks forehead even down to the tips of my fingers I anticipated the name I was to hear She looked very much amused was it possible that Captain Oakley was married I really have not the least idea I replied with that kind of overdone carelessness which betrays us No I see quite plainly you have not but you can't think you blush answered she very much diverted I don't really care I replied with some little dignity and blushing deeper and deeper will you make a guess she asked I can't guess well shall I tell you just as you please well I will that is I'll read a page of my letter which tells it all do you know Georgina Fanshawe she asked well no matter she's in Paris now and this letter is from her and she says let me see the place yesterday what do you think quite an apparition you shall hear my brother Craven yesterday insisted on my accompanying him to Le Bas shop in that odd little antique street near the grave it is a wonderful old curiosity shop I forget what they call them here when we went into this place and there were so many curious things to look at all about that for a minute or two I did not observe a tall woman in a grey silk and a black velvet mantle and quite a nice new Parisian bonnet you'll be charmed by the way with the new shape it is only out three weeks and is quite indescribably elegant I think at least they have them I am sure by this time at Molnitz's so I need say no more and now that I am on this subject of dress I have got your lace and I think you will be very ungrateful if you are not charmed with it well I need not read all that here is the rest and she read but you'll ask about my mysterious dame in the new bonnet and velvet mantle she was sitting on a stool at the canter not buying but evidently selling a quantity of stones and trinkets which she had in a card box and the man was picking them up one by one and I suppose valuing them I was near enough to see such a darling little pearl cross with at least half a dozen really good pearls in it and had begun to cover them for my set when the lady glanced over my shoulder and she knew me in fact we knew one another and who do you think it was well you'll not get in a week and I can't wait so long so I may as well tell you at once it was that horrid old Mamoiselle Blassomar whom you pointed out to me at Elverson and I never forgot her face since nor she it seems mine for she turned away very quickly and when I next saw her her veil was down did you not tell me Maude that you had lost your pearl cross while that dreadful madame de la Rougière was here yes but I know but what has she to do Mamoiselle de Blassomar you are going to say they are one and the same person oh I perceive answer die with that dim sense of danger and dismay with which one hears suddenly of an enemy of whom one has lost sight for a time I'll write and tell Georgie to buy that cross I'll wager my life it is yours said Lady Knowledge firmly the servants indeed made no secret opinion of Madame de la Rougière and frankly charged her with a long list of larcenies even Anne Woodsted who had enjoyed her baron favour while the gouverneante was here hinted privately that she had bartered a missing piece of lace belonging to me with a gypsy peddler for French gloves and Irish poplin and so surely as I find it is yours I'll set the policing pursuit but you must not bring me into court said I half amused and half alarmed no occasion my dear Mary Quince and Mrs Rask can prove it perfectly and why do you dislike her so very much I asked cousin Monica leaned back in her chair and searched the cornice from corner to corner with upturned eyes for the reason and at last laughed a little amused at herself well really it is not easy to define and perhaps it is not quite charitable but I know I hate her and I know you little hypocrite you hate her as much as I and we both laughed a little but you must tell me all you know of her history her history echoed she I really know next to nothing about it only that I used to see her sometimes about the place that Georgina mentions and there were some unpleasant things said about her but you know they may all be lies the worst I know of her is her treatment of you Rask cousin Monica always called it her robbery and I think that's enough to hang her suppose we go out for a walk so together we went and I resumed about madame but no more could I extract perhaps there was not much more to hear end of chapter 29