Today I have a very special guest and we're going to be talking about how to deal with some negativity that's coming our way. Yeah. Oh, everybody, this is Chris from the Rewired Soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the solution. And today I am joined by a very special guest. Go ahead and introduce yourself. Hi guys. I'm Alyssa. I'm the channel Illimation. Yeah. Yeah. That you didn't know. She was coming on the channel. So yeah, a lot of you are here on my channel from my videos about her videos. So I kind of wanted to talk about a few things if that's cool. Yes. So I just hit 100,000 subscribers. Did you know about that? I knew about that. She knew about that. If you were following me on Twitter, you would know too. All right. But yeah, Illi, from doing your series, did you get some negative comments coming in? Very passionate.  People are trying to expose me or whatnot. So I wanted to ask you about some of the comments that you get and how you dealt with them. Let me ask you this first. Yeah. Like with your series about the X and everything like why did you want to make that into a series? Like what was your motivation behind that? Because let me frame it like this. Yeah. Because I'm an added believer that sharing your story is a very powerful way to help people. It's even therapeutic for us. I share a lot about my story and my past. So I just want to know like what was your thought process and like I'm going to make this into a series. Well, my thought process began with like I first of all thought no one would watch it for one because it just looks like a downer. Like if it was like recommended next to like 2 million Orbeez in your bathtub and this girl gets abused for like 15 minutes, I'm making like a light of it because I'm able to joke about it now. But like, yeah, I just thought it'd be a downer. I didn't think people would watch it, but then I figured like if anybody did, I want to insert this vocabulary and these concepts that I wish I know or the things that I learned along the way. The thing is to drawing it out to so many parts, which is a matter of when I started to write it all down, I was like 15 pages in and I mean the videos themselves are already so long and there is a lot that I like chose not to talk about because I I'm not ready to talk about. But yeah, so it's just a matter of like, I guess this will be a three part series. This was I mean, I started writing it like I want to say around that it might have been like I totally will like say out there like it probably was somewhat I was definitely at least subconsciously inspired by like, you know, what Shane Dawson does not with conspiracy videos, not with Jake Paul. That was before all of it. And you can check the time when he met his dad. Yeah. I loved when he did a series of Molly Burke and it didn't and it wasn't like whatever part one of three, it was just like these are just standalone videos where you just kind of go on this little journey with someone. And I was like, that's really nice. And it like that's not something you really see on YouTube is someone's kind of journey. It was really it was really journalistic, which is nothing like I did. That was more what I did when I met Holly and Kit. Yeah, it's like we get a we get a that's why I said in the video, like Shane Dawson style, we just go out there and see what we find. Yeah. But as for the scripted stuff, yeah, it was just running so long. And I was like, this has to be multi part.  But I still want to make sure to have some kind of like, the way to end it and then two separate things to talk about. So yeah, they did a great job. Let me ask you this. I don't know if you addressed it. Yeah. I follow you everywhere, but. I follow you everywhere. Yes, like when when she likes my tweets, I'm like, oh, she knows me. Oh, but he knows me. You were going to do a part three. You did part two and a half. Is there a reason like you didn't do part three?  You had a good ending place? Like, like what was that? So I know a lot of people have been asking and I doing this to respond when I see that comes up is part three was going to be some kind of like it was it was honestly going to be really immoral of me to go about and that's why I decided against it. I some part three would have just been me detailing more manipulative things he did to me, but things that were very ridiculous and would be me pretty much shaming him. Yeah, which is like, I know that's the kind of content people would live for. And that's how I could that's how I could get views. I know if I put that out. I know people want to know all these like pretty much embarrassing stories about my ex is what it would be. And I was like, I know I talked to somebody and they were like, hey, that's not right. And they were like, look, I know he was awful to you, but that's still like that's where it comes in with even though someone did something awful to me. The last thing I should be doing is throwing that back on them.  But to go around and say this person know what they do when they're alone? This, what do you think about that internet? When I have all these people who follow me, these people who very passionately want to say awful things about this person and have your own opinions. But the last thing I want to do is just send negativity out to a million people. There was no there were no morals in that video. There was nothing. There were no vocabulary terms. It was just me. It wouldn't have been me absolutely milking it, which was gross. I decided not doing it. Yeah. And I love to see sometimes you just connect with people. And like, this is this is it. Like something that I try to teach all of you out there is to check your motives. Check. Yeah. That's how it was it. So something that I do with my channel, obviously, is I pull topics from the community to try to, like you said, to teach a lesson to see what can we learn from this and stuff? Well, sometimes another YouTuber just pisses me off. Right. And I'm just like, you know what? I'm going to make this video. I'm going to talk about how they might be a sociopath or a narcissistic. You know, just do that, right? And then I'm just like, what's my motivation behind that? Like, what? Like that's that is not the message I want to be sending out. That is not the purpose of my channel and stuff. So that's awesome. Whoever told you that, you're not a good friend on your side. I've got a lot of good friends. And I think that's the one very redeemable thing about the YouTube community is that people people know, like, hey, don't do that. You know, they can see that not see into the future. But they go, that's going to look bad. Yeah. And to have any friend that just says, I know where you're coming from and you're really passionate. I love your energy. Don't do that. Yeah. Have that friend.  And nobody got time for that. No, but like with this stuff going on. So let's talk about the comments. And this is this is one that I want I know that you get. And it's something that I I need help with. Yes. But people saying, like, you're so you just told me your motives behind making your video, the ones that you did release, people saying that you were making up that story to get views. I know I was getting that a lot. And I put out like a little tweet. And I remember you had like featured in a video, too. It was like it was one of those like screenshot thing in your iPhone notes pads. It was too big to type out on Twitter. But yeah, it's pretty much like, I mean, if it's not entertaining enough for you, I'm sorry if this isn't what you think a victim looks like. I'm so sorry. But I hope that if my story doesn't stuck up to what you think a victim of this kind of thing should be, I really hope you're out there supporting the people you do believe. I really hope that you don't look at my story and go, this is why I don't believe people, which really sucks. And I'm sorry if I'm putting out that kind of look. But the thing is, too, if no matter what I tell you or other people tell you, if you don't believe anyone, that's a you problem, first of all.  Yeah. What do we learn from that? Don't blow down houses. Don't blow down houses. I don't know. That was a bad example.  What do you learn from that? Be like, was there really a duck out there that looked like that? OK, maybe I didn't see it. It's not likely. I don't see ducks like that. It's like, OK, it's fine. Yeah. Did you learn something, though? Because there's a bunch of vocabulary there. Like, well, and that's that's what I like. And it's crazy because part of my channel is just trying to find the similarities. And obviously, like, I like my story is different. Yeah. I haven't had anybody tell me I'm lying about my story. But they tell me that, oh, you're not really a mental health channel.  Just trying to disguise yourself as a mental health channel, right? Well, really, I'm a mental health channel disguised myself as a drama channel.  And let me ask you this, too, because I love me a good disclaimer. I love putting disclaimers to cover my butt. And I thought what you did was genius. But like, when I do disclaimers, when you did what was it, like the devil's advocate character, like, people just acted like it wasn't even there. Like, so you put you were mocking people who you knew were going to say certain things. And they still said they still said it, which is like, how do I deal with that? How do I deal? Like, when I say I'm not diagnosing anybody. Yeah. Well, first of all, you consulting your therapist as I do, too, they'll have the best advice. But what I've when it comes to like, it pretty much just comes down to like, you said your piece, you did your best. And what I'm always trying to keep in mind, this will circle back. What other people tell me something, I take their word for it.  Because if they are, their actions will reveal it later. What they said, take their word for it. They said it, take their word for it. And the same fruit goes for yourself.  I'm going to be cautious.   Actually, you're not, you're fake, you're fake. Then, of course, step back and go, okay, did I lie to myself about my motives? But if you find that you're not lying to yourself about your motives, you know who you are, take your own word for it. Yeah, it's so it's a lot of mind games. But that's something that I struggle with because I know what my motives are. I know they are like what they are. But like if like, you know, imposter syndrome comes up and stuff like you start questioning yourself. Yeah. Like, is that something that you've dealt with with all of the just negativity? I want to talk about the positive too. So yeah, but like when the negativity was coming out, did you start to question yourself and ask yourself, did I do this for the wrong reasons? Did I, you know, was I really trying to get a message out there? Was I trying to tell people what to look for? What to, you know, like, did you question it? I did question it because it really made me step back and realize the unintended consequences of doing any video on YouTube, because it's not up to you who watches it. Just because you put a video out on YouTube doesn't mean everyone in the world is going to watch it. It could mean a hundred people watch it or 10 million people watch it. But that's not up to you. Yeah. And that's what really sucks because if anything, you're even more out of control, but still, you know, recognizing that what everyone else is saying, the things they're taking away that aren't what you're intending, it's out of your control. And as long as you aren't, you know, pushing negative ideals, then as long as you're doing the best you can do to put out the best positive message, realize your unintended consequences as I have, because I know people are trying to find this person, which I beg you to not, because all you're going to do is get yourself in trouble. And I don't think people realize that. Yeah. All you're going to do is get yourself in trouble. And that's all where I'm going to leave it. I'm not going to come after you. The police might. Yeah. But that's because you went out and harassed someone. Again, up to you to go and spread that negativity. Yeah, exactly. Up to you. And I'm sure many people are coming from a good place, but just, just don't. It's like you think that's the thing. That's where intention and result can differ. If you intend, that's what I think about too is like, if you intend, it's like when someone like accidentally hurts your feelings and they're like, well, I didn't mean to. And it's like, okay, but what you did was still hurtful. I think that kind of conversation has been coming up a lot more with like diversity and issues and all over. And you go, okay, well, I didn't mean to and I'm sorry. And it's like, okay, but you're not getting it. You didn't mean to. That's great. That makes me feel better, but you still did something that was hurtful. Yeah. And so sometimes that can help in the forgiving process. Yeah. So something that you just brought up, like about the unintended consequences of your videos. Yeah. Like for me, I just did a video with Donna from Psych IRL. Shout out to you, Donna. I talked about how like making this channel and taking it where I wanted to take it and get mental health is more of like a conversation. Like I kind of knew. I kind of knew that there might be some controversy. I knew that people would come at me or a tiny like I kind of knew. So like what you did was amazing. And that's one of the reasons why I covered it. Like, I don't know if I ever told you this, but it was somebody in our discord server and they're like, they're like, Chris, you got to check out this Illimation video. And I'm like, I don't watch no animation channels. I'm a grown man. And I watch them like, what? Anyways, like, so when you put it out there, like, you know, what your, you know, motors were to help people and stuff. And then those unintended consequences, like you did something great. You did something amazing. I know that my audience and my comment that I got, you helped so many people. So what did you learn from it? Because I would never recommend that you never talk about any of this stuff. Like, well, like that part of it, but like if there's anything else that comes up in the future, like you're helping people. So there are unintended consequences, but where do you find that balance? Like, okay, some people are going to be put off by this, but it's helping people more worth it. That's kind of what I should know. I know what it comes down to is when you go into it, I know there was going to be some kind of conversation for sure. And I won't deny that because I know the kind of topic I'm covering. That's why I put in that little devil's advocate character because I know even if only a hundred people watched it, one of the comments is going to be like that. And it needed an answer and it can come from, sorry, I'm going to like double, double-tie these questions. Do your thing, do your thing. And yeah, it's like, I know if anyone watches this video, they're going to have certain questions, they might come from a good place, they might come from a bad place, but I benefit of the doubt that coming from a good place because if I answer this question, you know, as I did in my videos, that helps people more, especially if all of this is a misunderstanding. So there's that. So I try not to go into things, guns blazing anymore. I know I have in the past because things get to me crazy.  Who would have thought? Right? Who would have thought? But and then yeah, sometimes I see a comment that just really bothers me. And the thing is that I always regret engaging because it doesn't ever reflect on that person.  And that's the thing I've noticed. And yeah. Do you notice on your comment section, people police each other? Yeah, I've just been starting to like step back because I get this urge like I need to tell this person. I need to tell them off. And if I just wait and I go back to that comment. Somebody did it for you. Yeah. People do it for me. And by the way, although these are two you know, I want you all to think about that when you're on Twitter and stuff like something that I talk about is I have to ask myself three questions when I pause. Does it need to be said? Does it need to be said right now? And does it need to be said by me? And like my ego says, yes, you need to say it. I need to say this one thing to honor. Right. But yeah, I've noticed when I when I take a step back, especially with the collabs I've been doing, like some people like, oh, no, I can't believe you're collabing with that guy. And then like I sit there and like my fans will come and say, actually, Chris never said that. Oh, actually, did you watch the video? Or she actually explained it. Did you watch? And yeah, it's yeah. That's all it comes down to. It's like you can let things sit, especially if it's some kind of FAQ. Yeah. Because it's like you and another thing is you are not entitled to someone else's time. That's the biggest thing I've learned with being with an ex. You're not in time. They are not entitled to your response. That's something that I'm really trying to work on. Yeah. It's just I think it's just a matter of like and I know you said off camera. We were talking about this too. Like you're like sometimes people when you do engage, it works out and people go, I'm so sorry. I was just not in a good place and I was taking my anger out. And maybe you step back to and go, I did that too. And I'm very sorry. And step away like cool. But yeah. And you just and you never know. And like, yeah, I try not to like it's it's something that I'm still working on. That's something I try to pre-tell my channel is like, I'm not perfect. I'm going on this journey with a lot of you out there. I'm just a guy with a camera and something that I'm trying to work on too because I do believe in having adult conversations when there's misunderstandings and stuff like that. But like something I'm working on is like stepping back and going, OK, this is, you know, this person isn't changing. I'm not changing. Let's make our ways or we both apologize or both. Yeah. So the last the last topic on the kind of negative aspect because I want to jump in the positive is I find myself wanting to stick up for other people. And I know something that you covered very well, very, very well in your second episode was about your parents. Yeah. Like how have you coped with people saying things about where your parents should have done? And first of all, I haven't seen those comments because little known fact about me when I post a video and I think others can attest to this too. When I post a video, I only look at the comments for the first kind of day that it's up. I'm working on that. I work on that for sure.  They don't know your motives. They don't know what you stand for. They're going to come in with all of these other perceptions, whether they're good or bad about you. And obviously they're not on your side. And if and then to they're not they might not be as open to listening to you. So that's why it's like I'd rather engage with people who are subscribed to me and that's why they're seeing the video first before it gets any bigger or smaller. Like I try to watch I try to like go into my comment section before the video is at like a hundred K because then I know these are people who are subscribed to me. They're seeing it in their inbox and they're watching and they're commenting and there are people I know for sure who ask genuine questions of my subscribers totally. There are out of so many people, people have genuine questions and I do try to respond. So, but I think that's the biggest thing is like, so sorry, back to my parents. I don't know what those comments are. Kind of don't know. I won't tell you. Yeah, that's another thing too is like I think the top of this works with any kind of situation is it's like, you know, your friend is going through something bad. You want to help them. The last thing you should really do is say, hey, so one of our friends said this about you. Let me think about that. Because you know the answer to that. So I've asked my friends like, hey, stop sending me hate videos. Because I know it's a thing like, oh my God, like they're saying awful things about you. You should know this. And I'm like, actually that just makes me sad. Yeah, let me tell all of you. I'm saying this about my friend who doesn't even watch my videos, but he manages to find every hate thing about me and send it to them like, you just stop like, I'll be having a great day. Yes, me too. I was, oh my God, I was, by the way, I'm 21. And I don't talk about it on my channel yet, but I drink alcohol. What? What? And I go out with my friends sometimes. But yeah, there are times where I've gone out with my friends. I'm having a great time. Oh my God. Drink responsibly. I was having a great time at Chili's. And then I see my phone pop up and I'm like, someone messaged me. Click and they're like, look at this hate video. And I sobered up so quick, let me tell you. Oh my God. So if you're a friend of somebody, not even those YouTubers, like you don't always have to do that and like show them, like we think that we're like being this honorable friend and saying, I'm by the way to answer your question about the question. No, you didn't even have a question. But to answer the topic about your parents, let me tell you that you covered it in your video. I did. You did. It's like, I don't need to go looking for more questions that I already have the answers to. And neither do you. I need to ask you this. So I've, I'm always trying to learn, especially now that I've hit this new kind of level of YouTube dumb. I'm trying to learn from you creators who are bigger than me. Exactly what I did too. I was always asking other people for advice. And here's my struggle. Like it makes sense to check on this in the first 24 hours. Yeah. They're kind of back away. But I've prided myself from the very beginning on staying very connected with my audience. So I mentioned this in a video the other day when I started getting a lot of hate. I was like, you guys, I got to stay out of the comments. And it bumps me out because my loyal people who comment and maybe didn't catch my video for a day or two later, I'm worried that they won't get a response or just even a heart. So how do you, because like, I want to, this is a team effort between us, the creator, them, the audience. What do you recommend? Here's a theory and let me know if this is working for you.  That's it. It takes like, I only get nice things in my DMs, which I do read. I just don't have time to respond. And sometimes when I go to my DMs, it crashes. Yeah, ditto, ditto. Yeah, it's like, and I do, I'm still trying to figure out good ways for interaction. Thankfully, I'm going to conventions without help. But. You've been doing live streams though. Been doing live streams. And that's a thing too. Live streams don't go into recommended traffic. Therefore, only your subscribers are there for that. And if your subscribers are there for you, they're there for you. Kind of like that's, and that was deep, I swear. Yeah. That was some Jaden Smith. Jaden Smith. That was a Jaden Smith tweet, but I swear I was onto something. So yeah, maybe because I definitely see you as like an advice and self-health kind of channel. I know a lot of people are like, you don't have a degree. And it's like, didn't say I did. Show me what I did. But still, I almost see it almost like a dear avi, but videos every day. So I think maybe if you're into it, you could start a thing, you could start an email. Because it takes a lot of effort. It takes, it's really easy to just type a comment, but just say like, hi, check the description. Not all people read the description. There's a lot in my descriptions and pinned comments that nobody knows about. And I know it's a lot of information, but that's a thing. So people are like, I really, really need help. Like, I need help. Yeah, sure. I'll go to this. Copy the little email. If you have like a, maybe an email set up like, help me chris at gmail.com. I like that. But you've provided a lot of resources in your description too. I've taken your resources and put them in mine because I'm like, oh, she already did the work. So I don't gotta look at it. I did this too. So everybody, this is a lesson that anybody watching this video read the dang description. It's so helpful. Like no, a lot of people are like, what do I do? How do I know if someone's abusing me? And every now and then when I get a lot of people like really coming up in my DMs, I'll make a story on my Instagram saying go to loveisrespect.org. That's where I saw things. And while I was in my bad relationship and it all started clicking, because that's the thing. Sometimes you do need someone to talk to you, but sometimes you just need to see the card card, the cold hard facts. Yeah. And a lot of it is also helping yourself. So do that for yourself. You deserve it. Yes. Yes. Exactly. And speaking of that, like now switch into the positive stuff. Positive stuff. Cause I try to encourage people to share their story. What are some maybe like stand out things from like your videos like other women or even men reaching out to you about like thanking you. So many. So like I said, I do read my DMs. Very occasionally do I respond? Cause the thing is like once the DM is open, you can't really close it. And then I feel bad cause it's kind of, it's establishing communication, but it's communication that I can't always go back and respond to. Ditto. So it's opening up the pathway, which is great. Cause I want to be able to respond to people, but then if I have like a million DMs going, then it's like, oh no, now like 20 people want to like need to talk, need to talk to someone at once. And I can't be that like, that's why I always say, if you can talk to a therapist, totally talk to a therapist. Anyway, but yeah, there have been people in community relationships, there are people who are like, oh my God, I'm married and I went through that. And I just was so afraid to tell my significant other, but I finally did. And now they're like going to counseling together, which might sound like a step back, but I swear to God to step forward. Cause someone who is ready to go like, this awful thing happened to me and I'm so afraid to tell you. And for them to go, oh my God, I love you even more for trusting me with this. Yeah, and then other things start to make sense, especially in a relationship. Especially, there are people too, like I'm happy to see guys coming to me too. Cause I was really afraid and I would alienate the audience and make it sound like it only happens to girls. Cause like, cause I, as I said in my second part, my second part with consent, I said, boy or girl, young or old, you need consent is everything.  Or like, I was again, able to talk to myself for another, I was able to see a therapist now, just, I don't know.  Yeah, me too. I'm just happy to like see other people go, hey, thanks for doing this, you helped me. Cause I feel like all of us have had that moment where we've emailed the fan account to like panic at the disco and said like, I love your music, it really helps me. And people mean that. Like they mean it so much. And they deserve that like, thank you. And it's like, no, like you thank me, but no, thank you. Thank you for taking those steps. Yeah, and it encourages people like us to keep doing it. Did you second guess yourself about opening up about this story and then like, did it validate why you did it when you started getting those people?  If anything, it made me regret not being clear enough and not shooting for clarity, especially with these kinds of very heavy and serious topics. So when I would hate comments, it wouldn't make me go, oh no, I shouldn't have said anything because I know where that led me in my relationship. The whole point was that I never asked for help. And on top of that, I never told anybody about it or I totally told my friend. And then from there, I didn't tell the police. When I did tell the police, I didn't speak up about let me speak to your supervisor. And I totally regret that. And when people call that out, I feel awful. But I also know it just goes back to me having a problem with not speaking up. Yeah, and it's definitely hard to, as a YouTuber, I know it's hard to cover everything. You can't. And you're an animator, so like. I don't even care, I got a lot to do.  People are gonna watch past that. We're like doing this. I don't even know if you guys are still watching. But like. Drop a comment. Yeah. I'm still here. Drop, I'm still here if you're still here. Yeah. I like, I asked, like, I have to decide like how much am I going to include in this. Yeah. You know, and then, but I have like 800 videos. So chances are I talked about it somewhere else. But yeah. So that's a common struggle that we do that. So last couple things I wanna talk about real quick.  And this is gonna lead into a second question. But how did you feel coming across my videos about you and what was, what was that like? What was your initial response? Cause I'm now meeting creators who I've made videos about. So how did that happen? I was terrified because yeah, it was, it was along. It was the same people who were saying, look at this hate video.   And they go, look at this video. And I'm like, I don't trust your recommendations. Jesus. Right. But then enough other friends kept saying, look at this video. I think my mom sent me your video. Oh really? I know my boyfriend Chris was like, hey, this is actually a nice video. And then other, like other fellow creators were like, yeah, it's actually a nice video. You should watch it. And I was like, is it a nice video in that he's nicely saying mean thing? Yeah. I'm not gonna fall into that trap either. And I, and again, always like, I'm gonna choose what kind of negativity I'm gonna allow for myself. And I have, you know, I have things to do.  So, but I double checked with everyone. I was like, is this a mean video? I told you not to send me these mean videos. I double checked and they were like, no, no, no, it's good. It's nice. You should watch it. And it's not me saying like, I only want, I don't want criticism.  That's very different. That's not criticism. That's mean, regardless. So yeah, when I watched it, my heart was going. And I was like, oh no, what's he gonna say? Like my big angry voice was like, oh this guy yelling at me. And I know you've talked about in a separate video is like clickbait. And it's like, their clickbait actually is the correct term to use for the way you set up these videos because you want to grab the meanies and make them learn something. Yeah. That's it. Yeah. So you did that. Like, yes, the video is doing well. Oh yeah, that's what they did. I mean, like, there's a reason people title videos to things because we know what would go through our mind if we saw it. Yeah. And so you grabbed a general audience because it's people who are, yeah, I know you got a lot of my fans are like, I thought this was gonna be me. And a lot of people were like, man, I thought this was gonna validate me, but I found out I'm the mean one. Yeah, exactly. So anyway, regardless. So yeah, I was like, here we go. And then I watched it and I was like, oh, and then I learned a few things. Yeah. Like when I learned a thing or two. So let me ask you this, because now I'm gonna have you fluff up my video. So me not being a licensed professional, like that meant a lot to me that you learned a few things. And like, so, I don't know, did you question like what I was talking about when I talked about psychology or anything like that? Or like when I was trying to explain things. I know I checked the description and you're about to see if you had any credentials. And I was like, okay, well, he didn't learn this in a classroom, but that doesn't invalidate what he's saying is factual and what you're saying is vocabulary from someone else. Yeah.  I didn't say I was a therapist, but like, I'm talking about these topics. So I'm going to bring in people who do know what they're talking about in the form of, you know, outside resources and information. Yeah. And I'm going to make sure it supports the message I'm putting out, of course, too. Yeah. So that's all I did. I was like, okay, well, he's not just throwing around some terms he made up on his own. I checked the resources, I'm like, I'm learning. Yeah. Yeah, and that's all I did. Learning is fun. And so, yeah, again, that's why I see you as like a self-help advice channel, kind of like Anna Akana. She's not a psychologist or therapist. She's amazing. Yeah, I love her stuff. And so it's like, yeah, and also like, tell me why I said I was a psychologist. Yeah, exactly. So the last thing I want to ask you because I'm trying to learn. Yeah. So I have a 50-50 chance because as you know, I pull creative stuff and I use it for my videos. You responded to it very well. Like, there were some people who like leave comments and they're just like, thanks, but she already explained it the first time, you know, or whatever. You don't need me. I'm not going to be the crisp, but other creators, they don't like me using them as an example. Like, just as a friend now, why do you think that is? Because I always think just perception is fascinating. Two people can see the same thing or look at the same thing, see two different things. Like you said in your one video about the, I think you covered that in the thumbnail video. Yeah. She watches my stuff. I watched it. I didn't remember. But like, why do you think that? Sometimes it's okay and sometimes it's not.  And that's where it takes, okay, look into the video and see what they're talking about. And again, all of this is still like everyone's opinion. So it could be their opinion that they're like, like, well, I watched the video and yep, I believe he is still using me for clout. And again, that's where it goes back to intention versus result. Your intention isn't to use, I hope it isn't to just use their name and just like throw it all on the tags and be like, I hope I get famous now. Make me famous YouTube. It doesn't seem that way. But I don't know. That's a lot of people- She just met me. I just met you. I don't know. That's a lot of people assume. And so it's like, well, your intention wasn't there, but if the result is that someone feels hurt, then it's like, well, I didn't do that right. The way that you did it with me, it's like, I don't know. I felt like you understood where I was coming from. I felt like you understood my situation even though you didn't go through it, of course. I'm just me and you're just you. And so that's why I felt validated by your video. But I can see how some people, yeah, and I'm not gonna say who because it all just comes down to like, what I'm learning too is like, if it doesn't involve me, I'm not gonna give my opinion on it because that's how you get into drama, which I think goes against your channel. But also, I mean, you're going at it from an advice standpoint. So that's, I mean, I don't know. I think those hate comments in order to satisfy, I'm not hate comments, but honestly just feedback even from the creators themselves. You'd have to kind of step back at your content and figure out another way to go about it. Yeah, yeah, that's what I'm trying to figure out. Cause before we recorded, Nellie and I were talking about like views, like getting views, like no creator, nobody ever makes a YouTube account and upload something to not get views, even if they're just sharing it with their family. And like, that's where my struggle of this next level is because I made hundreds of videos that just weren't getting that many views. But what were you doing it for?  No, no, but it's, yeah, exactly. It's just I wanna help people, but if nobody sees it, I can't help anybody, you know? So it's a tricky situation, but with stuff like this and meeting other people, like now I'm able to use the cloud to teach people and educate people. Well, that's the thing, it's like, when you're, yeah, that's what I think where it comes back to like the click baity thing. It's like, if you're click baiting, it better be for good reason. Like Shane Dawson in his Molly Burke series, he was like, switching lives with a blind person, which is like, oh, click, right? And then you watch it and then you learn about, oh my God, I learned so much about how the world is not made for disabled people. And then after that, watching that video, I was looking for like, like I remember I would go to a stoplight and for the crosswalk and Molly was saying like, yeah, sometimes they don't make the little beep noise. So I don't know when to cross. I just have to listen for cars and hope I don't get hit by a car. Yeah. Yeah. And so, yeah, that's an example where, yeah, it's click bait. Yeah, he's using like, Molly Burke is blind. I'm gonna live her life for a day. Like, oh, click bait. And then turns it into, y'all are gonna learn something.  I'm gonna make you empathetic.  Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, exactly. And that's something that I'm just, you know, trying to learn is that, you know, there are people who are very appreciative of that. Like, like people who, like, like your fans who came in like, I was ready to attack you for discrediting illy, but I learned something and now I'm subscribing, you know, so, so yeah, but not everybody like we were talking about earlier, not every pass or through is at that place where they wanna get educated. You know what I mean? Yeah, and then I know like too, if you're making a video about someone that's already like just seeing a thumbnail with your face in it on a video that you did not make, like I think for anyone, it's just like, oh God, this is the beginning of some kind of cancel whoever. Yeah, that's what I've been going through lately. I'm like, okay, let's see how much, you know, this is good, so. So I would just say for your sake, your reputation and also just for the goal of getting along with as many people as you can, always make sure to like, as you do with me, just make sure you're understanding all sides as you can. Yeah, I'm just, I'm not gonna name names because I appreciate all the creators you've talked about, especially recently. And yeah, and so I don't want to take your waters. I love them all too and wish them all the best and hope that someday I can become friends with everybody. I think too, it's coming from a place of like, especially if someone makes a video and you're saying, here's what they did wrong. Nobody ever will ever feel comfortable with the stranger coming up to them saying, guess who you did wrong yesterday. No one wants that. And it's not a matter of like, you're just not ready to get educated. It's a matter of like, we got it, we got it. Yeah, unsolicited advice, yeah, exactly. So because of this thing, you're an advice channel. And it's, the whole thing is like, if your video's in the recommended, someone clicks on it, that's unsolicited advice right there. Yeah. So I'm working on it, I'm learning, I'm growing. But anyways, we're gonna do another video, but thank you so much for this video. And make sure you subscribe to Ellie. I'm gonna have all her links in the description. We told you to check the link. Check the description. And what's easier to do than checking the description is just to subscribe to the rewire install because there's a big button. Yeah, same big one, and a bell. Do you have anything cool going on that you wanna announce to everybody before? Yeah, I'll be doing my first convention. I don't know if I'll be on any panels. I don't know if I'm doing it immediately. Which one? I'll be going to Playlist Live in Orlando. I just got my ticket to Playlist Live. I wanna play in the slide. I wanna see you put a slide. I'll go to Playlist Live, it's March 1st to the 3rd in Orlando. And I think their ticket's still available. I know every now and then on Twitter, their account does like these little giveaways.  Yeah, yeah, I just saw that. It's possible, you can go too. Wow, see both of us. Yeah, see both of us.  Yeah, please say hi. Yeah, say hi to me too. This is my first time to, and doing anything. Yeah. So please say hi. Cool. Hopefully, we'll both see you in Orlando. All right, thanks for watching everybody. Bye.


Hello, my name is Dominic, and this is my 120-hour ITT TEFL certification testimony video. So, let me start by saying that I was given six months to complete 20 course units, and it's all entirely self-paced, so that's great. I decided I wanted to take this certification course, since I have an interest in teaching English, obviously, and I do not currently have a four-year degree that is generally required to teach in a foreign country. Um, but some places will allow you to teach with just the TEFL or TESL certification. So this, after doing various research online for various courses, I deemed ITT was the best. And after taking the course and finishing with A, B, and without the tutor, I would highly suggest it. The course offers a tutor option if you pay extra money, but I personally, with my lack of funds, did not pay for the tutor, and I found that it was really easy regardless, and I felt I wouldn't have needed the tutor anyways, so it worked very well. The courses were very straightforward and easy, and while challenging, you do obviously have to put your own work and thought into it, it can very easily be done, and as someone, like I said, that does not have a four-year degree, it was very easy to do. I would say that the only thing I had wrong with it is that I haven't gotten my certificate yet, but it's only been about two weeks, so it's not that big of a deal. Overall, I would very highly recommend that if you want to get interested or get a TEFL or TESL certification, that you definitely go through ITT. So thank you for watching.


Welcome to Toffy TV, it is the Everton News Daily, this video is sponsored by One Football. One Football's app makes it possible to keep up to date with all the latest scores, transfer rumours and stats all in one place. Download the app, click the link in the description and say Gomez has given an interview to EvertonFC.com, been speaking about his time at Godderson and said that he wants to be a top player for the years to come. He said that Marco Silva has been very, very good for him as well as the coaching staff and also said that his team mates have such high quality that it makes it easy to play in this side and he wants Everton to finish the season strongly rather. He ran 7.8 miles on Sunday against Arsenal which broke the Premier League record for the season and he also finished with a pass completion of 89.5%. He needs to add to goals, but other than that he's been putting in some superb displays and is this his biggest hint yet that he wants to remain at Godderson Park beyond his loan this season? Everton will certainly be trying to make sure that they can sort a permanent deal out for Gomez, but it just seems all the stars seem to be aligning for a permanent move to Godderson Park and long making seniorly was absolutely fantastic at the weekend. Another player Everton has been living with today is Chay Adams from Birmingham City. He has 22 goals in 40 games for Birmingham. Young striker, very pacey, right age bracket as well for Marcel Brand. Interest and want to see whether he is someone on Everton's radar. With a goal return like that he could come in and challenge maybe Dominic Calvert-Lewan for that start and berth next season. Work has begun on the Holy Trinity statue at Godderson Park. It will be at the crossroad between Godderson Road and Gladys Street. That area was taken off at the weekend for the game and obviously people were told to take different exits after the game, but it's going to be fantastic to have a tribute to our greatest Evan midfield. Obviously we've lost two of them, but Colin Arvey is still around and it will be fantastic for him to see that statue put there and I should imagine that statue would then make its way to Bramley Mordoch whenever move down there in a few years. I think it's a great initiative by the club. Obviously we've got Dixie Dean at the park and now we'll have the Holy Trinity at the Gladys Street and right by the Howard Kendall Gladys Street. Fantastic. Finally Ian Wright has been talking up Dominic Calvert-Lewan. He's got all the tools to be a top Premier League centre for. He's so impressed with his display against Arsenal at the weekend. He loves the way he can hang in the air. He's so powerful. He's got great movements and good pace. He's a real handful for defenders and he just thinks that he'll get better and better and said it's only a matter of time before Gareth Salkate calls up the young Evan striker into the England squad. Dom's improvements over the last six months have been phenomenal really. He's looking more and more accomplished each week playing up front there. There's still things he can improve on. Of course there is on his goals. There may be a question mark and a bit of a bone of contention for people as to whether he can be the long term solution. But you know what? He's improving that much. That why wouldn't he add goals to that as well. Maybe he's got to improve his movement in and around the penalty area. Get himself around that penalty spot and get on the end of things a bit more. But his general all-round centre forward play and his hold-up and link-up play at the weekend was fantastic. I want to see him running in beyond defenders because he proved at the weekend how rapid he is across the pitch. I want to see him stretching defenders more like that. He's getting his head down and knocking the ball and going because I think if he adds that to his game it's another string to his bowing. He's making himself un-dropable at the moment and that's what it's about. And everything hopefully will bring him 1-2 centre forwards in the summer and Dominic will then battle for that centre forward shape with those players. But he's been brilliant lately and let's hope can see him. I agree with him. I can see him. I think if he gets another one, maybe two goals before the end of the season, I think he'll be in the England squad in the summer. I really do. I think Southgate will get him in and have a look at him because he's done it at the 21 level. He's done it to the Wale Cup final winner for the under 20s so he's done well whenever he's stepped up so. Good to see a little bit of recognition. Probably only a matter of time before they say that he should move to Manchester City. But let's enjoy him while he's at it. If you haven't subscribed please do so and take a second to give a like on this video and if you want more videos get over and join us on page and thanks for watching.


Welcome back to Exotic Wine Travel. I am your host, Matthew Horky. Hi, I'm Suree and Time. Welcome back to the show. We have a special show today because in this mini series we're talking about American wines available in the EU. And at the time we're actually coming to you from Croatia. So this American wine kind of has a tie to Croatia. You want to talk about it? So today we'll be tasting a wine that is under the Game of Thrones label. Oh, it's the Game of Thrones Cabernet Seven Yon. Why does it have the Croatian connection? A lot of Game of Thrones was actually filmed in Dubrovnik in the South. I know nothing about Game of Thrones because I don't watch any TV. As a matter of fact, we're doing a, this is how much I don't know. We were doing a presentation in New York about Croatian wines and I said, yeah, we're King of Thrones was was filmed. I was like, Game of Thrones! Hi, Ro. So let's get, are you excited to try this one? Very much. I picked this wine because I thought, you know, there are a lot of dedicated Game of Thrones fan all around the world and we've heard and read a lot about this wine, you know, the fancy design and all that. But I think very few of us actually had a chance to taste it. So we're gonna taste it right? This is brought to you by 8wines.com. You can, if you're in the EU, you can get these wines in the EU where this video has not been paid for. But if you do choose to get these wines, there's a discount code at the end. We do get a small affiliate commission, so take that for what's worth. Ready? All right. So the Cabernet 70 on 2015, it's from Napa Valley. And you know what? The interesting thing about these wines is they're not so, they didn't set out to make some fluffy supermarket type wines. The Cabernet is expensive. I think in the EU, I think we're looking anywhere from 50 to 70 bucks, something like that. The fruit is sourced from Napa. Bob Cabral is the winemaker. He has crafted 100-point wines when he was working for Williams Seljem, making some fantastic wines, so serious juice. Yeah. So I read on the website that Bob was inspired by some of the more interesting rugged vineyards in Napa Valley because he reminded him of Westeros. So that's the setting of Game of Thrones in case you don't know. I have no idea what she's talking. Anyhow, in Napa Valley, there are 16 AVA. So every single AVA can deliver really different kinds of Cabernet Sauvignon. So with this, I'm very interested to see what kind of balance this wine can achieve. I'm also excited because we were in Napa Valley for Premier Napa Valley earlier in the year. We got to taste blind a lot of 13, 14, 15 Napa Cabernets. 13 was the most legendary vintage. 14, very good. 15 is on and off. And not as good as 13, 14. This is 15. This is 15. Let's give this a smell. I'm afraid of the tenants from the 15. Let's see. Very nap. More medium-bodied style Cab in terms of Napa. Very pretty nose. Yeah. Black cherry, violet. Yeah. Some capsicum. The wood, it's not too woody. The wood is definitely not coming through here, right? Oh, I can tell you liked it. Damn, this is good stuff. It's not heavy. It's not overripe, but fantastic intensity. Very rounded, very fine, very silky on the palate. Tannins are tugging. On the mitt palate. This is dry. The tannins come in. This is dry, but you feel the bright California fruit, right? Yeah. I wonder if it does any raw as in this. I come to make it smooth. To make it smooth. This is really good. This is more than, more than some of like kind of the basic Napa Cabernet bottlings, wouldn't you think? Absolutely. I mean, I'm willing to go maybe 4.3 out of 5 on this. Maybe 4.2-ish. 4.2 out of 5. I think it's definitely going to score 90 points to sort of blind and major type critics. It's not a fluke. This is serious wine. I was expecting this to be really, really like a gimmick, I guess. I think it's a really good wine, especially for 2015's. You feel the tannins heating on the mitt palate, but it's not as stringent. It's really supported by a lot of powerful fruit. There's a bit of heat on the finish. What's the alcohol level for this? 13.9. It's actually very nicely balanced. If you like an accessible 2015 Cabernet from Napa, this is a great choice. And I like the nose a lot. A lot of sweet tobacco too. I think, I know it's from a bunch of different aviaries. To me, it kind of has a little bit of a Oakville character to it. Really? Yeah. Anyways, I think that people, especially in Europe that want, you know, heard all about Napa want to try some Napa Cabernets. This isn't a bad option, wouldn't you say? I suspect this could be higher elevation than that. Because Bob says they're rugged, you know. So I think about Atlas Peak and yeah. Anything else you want to add on the wine or Game of Thrones in general? I do actually highly encourage people to try this wine. I think it's not, it's a good wine to bring for dinner, especially if your friends enjoy watching Game of Thrones. It's going to be like a talking point. And I guess there's another season. I know nothing about it. I just did some research, I guess Game of Thrones there is coming back for another season 2019. Like I said, I don't watch TV. So check this out. I'll put the discount code up on the screen or in the description box. Like I said, if you do want to buy these wines and the other wines from Eight Wines that can, we do get a small commission. So take it for what's worth. What would help us out? Anything else you want to add? I want to have this wine later. Okay. So guys, if you liked this video, please subscribe to our YouTube channel. It's out of quite a trouble. I will see you at the next episode.


Hello everybody and welcome to the Japanese class once again. Well, we have been doing a lot of things, we have been learning new forms, new ways of talking in Japanese, new expressions, a lot of kanji characters. Now today also we will do something new, we will learn another new form in Japanese and of course a few kanji characters, a few expressions, a kotowaza, pravab and of course a lot of vocabulary. So, well before that as we always do, let us go over our assignments and see what we have done. So, well the first assignment that I gave you was match the kanji characters with the pictures below. So, there are a few pictures here for you and there were a number of kanji characters below the pictures, you had to match them. So, look at this picture and see, well there is a man sitting under a tree, so what does it look like? It is Yasumi and of course the reading is not given, you have to recognize from the picture and the kanji characters. Then we have Haeru, there is a tree stem or a branch and something over here, another branch coming out or joining in. Haeru, then we have the moon Tsuki or Getsu-yo-bino-getsu. Then we have just the ki, ki which is tree, a hand te. Then we have the sun and the associated meaning with the sun is de-so-nichi and this looks like ashi to me which is feet and this is he, you can see over here, he or as you know kai-obi, kai-obi no ka, so this was your kanji practice. Well, you please write down the hiragana or the readings for it in hiragana and not in roman and practice your hiragana like that. Well, this was given, this was hito similar to Haeru and this was put there for you to find out which one is actually the correct one. Now we have a few fill in the blanks here with words given below, so well there were a few words for you and we will see what the words are. Watashi wa kyou-nen no roku-gatsu ni after time expression ni ryokou-o shimashita. Oka-san to oto-san mo ishiyo datta kara ishiyo deshita, plain form datta kara because they were together tote mo very degree of something tote mo exceptionally very tanoshikatta desu. Tanoshii pastens, tanoshikatta, I was very very happy, ryoshin to issho ni iro iro na omoshiroi tokoro o mimashita, ryoshin is parents, polite for oto-san, oka-san is ryoshin and polite for someone's parents is go ryoshin.  To issho ni iro iro na omoshiroi tokoro o mimashita, tokoro is place ryoko no toki tenki mo yokatta kara nandemo dekimashita, ii deshita. I have done this video in class, ii is good and pastens for ii is yokatta, nandemo anything deki mashita, I was able to do it. Tatoeba, for example, yama nobori wo shimashita, yama nobori is climbing mountains o shimashita. Bi-jutsukan e ikimashita, bi-jutsukan is museum, takusan oishii fran-suru-yori mo tabemashita, soshite isshukan go ni after isshukan ni again time, tokyou e kaerimashita. You can also use modorimashita over here, which also means to return because you are already living in this place and you are returning to this place. Then watashi wa maitoshi every year, mainen or maitoshi, kazoku to issho ni, kazoku to issho ni ryoko wo shitai, I want to do, kanai mo sou omoimasu or sou omootte imashii, also things like this. Now, there are a few things over here, which we need to do. So, very quickly, I will do with you on the board. First one is dash no toki, toki means at that time, for example, gakkou no toki, when I was in school, daigaku no toki, daigaku no toki, when I was in the university. So you can use toki like this or kodomo no toki, when I was a child. So you can use toki like this very freely. Then you have tatoeba, tatoeba we have already done once, means for example, then you have takusan over here, which is takusan, takusan means I have I think done it once in class earlier, but once again for you, takusan means amount, something that can be counted, that can be measured and means lots and yoku again means lots, but yoku cannot be counted, cannot be measured, it is degree of something, but cannot be measured, cannot be seen. Then what do we have, kairimashita I just told you, modorimasu can also be used, then maitoshi is every year and then we have something over here, so omotteimasu, which I will do a little later, because that is what we plan to do today. Now there are some more Kanji practice for you, write the opposites for the Kanji characters given below, takai, yasui, kuroi, shiroi, iku, kuru or kimasu. And mae, which is front, ushiro, gogo, afternoon, gozen, morning and atarashi, furui. So well, this was Kanji for you, write the hiragana once again for all the characters given here, it will help you, you can practice your hiragana like that. And this was, these are two Kanji characters, just put there for you to find out which one is actually the correct one. Then we have fill in the blank spaces with appropriate interrogative words and particles. So well, the first one is, nomimono wa aishiti ga ii desu ka kocha ga ii desu ka, then kaeru mai ni watashi no heya ni kite kudasai, kaeru mai ni before returning please come to my room. Then ryoko wa doko ga ii desu ka, Rao san donna kagu, kagu is furniture, donna kagu o kaitai desu ka, Rao san wa mou kotatsu o kaimashita ka, mou we did mou last time, mou means already. So Rao san you have already bought a kotatsu, kotatsu is a low line center table, very, very very liked by the Japanese, so they all have a kotatsu at home. Then kondo no yasumi ni doko kae ikimashou ka, doko kae somewhere, densha wa mada desu ne, not yet and mou rokuji desu ka. So we have one more over here, mada which means not yet and mou means with a long sound means already. Mou rokuji desu ka, mou jikan desu ka, it is already 6 o'clock, oh is it time now for whatever activity, mou jikan desu ka and mou kaimashita ka have you already bought it and ii e mada desu or hai, so this I have bought it. So you can use mou and mada like this, then change verb forms and fill in the blank spaces. So let us see, shumatsu ni kon-sa-to o mi-ni ikimashen ka, so miru is given over here, change this form to see, so mi-ni ikimashen ka for the purpose of, then kanji ga muzukashikute cannot read, yomei nai, Tanaka san wa kaisha o tsumori, now what does tsumori take, tsumori takes a plain verb, so yamemasu, yameru tsumori desu, intend to leave, kono hon wa omoshiroi kara yomu is the plain form, please read, yonde kudasai, then Rao san wa kagu o bot kaimashita, kondo no yasumi ni party o let's do shimashou, then watashi wa mainichi busu de don't want to go, ikitaku nai. Mou jikan desu, hayaku ikimashou, already it is time, let's go very quickly, then onaka ippai desu kara, mou cannot eat, taberare masen, onaka is stomach, ippai is lots to eat, thus I cannot eat any more, mou taberare masen, cannot eat any more, then watashi wa isha ni naritai, I want to become a doctor. So, this is some of your change the forms, work forms, practice these. Now, there is a small radio dialogue for you, just listen to the dialogue and then I will do the explanations. Rao san wa ima doko desu ka? Watashi wa ima deri misundemasu. Deri wa endo no shuto desu ne? Deri wa donna machi desu ka? Kiri de okina machi desu. Deri to tokyo to dochira ga oki desu ka? Yoku wa haganai kedo tokyo no hoga deri yori okii to omoimasu. Jaa deri to tokyo to dochira ga furui desu ka? Deri no hoga tokyo yori motto furui kamushire masen. Well, I will read it out once to you and then let me see how much you have understood. Tanaka and Rao. Tanaka san to Rao san no kaiba desu. Kaiba is conversation as you know. Rao san wa ima doko desu ka? Watashi wa ima deri ni sundemasu. Deri is deri. Deri ni sundemasu. I am living in deri. Deri wa endo no shuto desu ne? Deri wa donna machi desu ka? Kiri de okina machi desu, okina. So you will notice that oki is an I adjective, but sometimes na is also used with okina and also we have another adjective which is chi-sai, chi-sa-na, chi-sa-na is used. So these two adjectives do take na after them sometimes. As you can see over here, kirei de okina machi desu. Deri to tokyo to dochira ga oki desu ka? We did this last time. Deri to tokyo to dochira ga oki desu ka? Yoku wakaranai kedo. Yoku again you know. I do not know much about this, lots about this, but tokyo no hou ga deri yori oki to omoimasu. I think that tokyo is larger than deri. Ja, deri to tokyo to dochira ga furui desu ka? So desu ne, you could also add this in your kai wa. So desu ne, when you actually want some time to think, deri no hou ga tokyo yori motto furui kamoshiremasen. I am not sure, but deri could be more older than tokyo. Kamoshiremasen to omoimasu is what we are going to do today. So please concentrate on those two things. Well, this is in your script. There are a few kanji from here which we will do. For example, machi, tokyo and a few others omoimasu and this is translation in English. So well, you can go over it. Now, what we have to do is to omoimasu. You can see what is written over here. To omoimasu indicates the opinion of the speaker and translates to I think that I thought that in English it is preceded by verb in plain form, adjectives and nouns. And there are a lot of examples given over here. For example, the first one is honwa, honwa omo shiroi to omoimasu. I think, it means I think that the book is interesting. Honwa omo shiroku nai to omoimasu, simple. Honwa omo shiroi, you understand this. Honwa omo shiroi desu, that the hon is interesting, 100% sure that the book is very, very interesting. But if you say honwa omo shiroi to omoimasu, I think that the book is interesting, then you are not 100% sure definitely. So, this comes to about 80%, 85%, 75%, whichever way you want to take it, that you are not very sure but yes, to a great extent you can say that the book is interesting. So, honwa omo shiroi to omoimasu and if you want to say omo shiroku nai, so if you say honwa omo shiroku nai, omo shiroku nai desu, 100% I did not find the book interesting. Now, if you say honwa omo shiroku nai to omoimasu. So, you are just softening your statement also and not saying directly that I did not like the book omo shiroku nai to omoimasu. I think that the book is not that interesting. Well, then you have genki, kodomo wa genki desu. Kodomo wa genki desu, exactly like this. Na-adjective, kodomo wa genki desu or genki da to omoimasu. I think he is in good health or kodomo wa genki ja arimasen genki ja nai to omoimasu. I think he is not in good health. So, well, what can you notice now from here? One thing is very clear that whatever comes before to omoimasu will always be in plain form. Omoimasu means to think, I think so, I thought so and to over here is a particle which shows whatever is being said over here is actually coated. So, it is more of a quotation particle used with omoimasu and a number of other verbs as well. So, well, you have genki and i-adjective over here and then you have verbs over here. You can see exactly like this. Hon-o-yomimasu. I will read the book or I am about to read the book. Hon-o-yomu omoimasu again in plain form and over here yoma-nai to omoimasu. You can see it very clearly. I will write it once again for you all of you and remove all the extra part. You can see over here yomu and yoma-nai. Yomu and yoma-nai. Yoma-nai to omoimasu. Genki da to omoimasu. Genki janai to omoimasu. So, you can see very clearly that to omoimasu will always take plain form for i-adjective, na-adjective and verbs. Then you can practice here. There is a small conversation. Rao san wa jimushitsu ni imasu ka iru to omoimasu or inai to omoimasu. I think he is present and I think he is not present. Now, you can replace jimushitsu with hon. Rao san wa hon-o yomimashita ka yonda to omoimasu and yomanakatta to omoimasu. I think he has read. I think he has not read. Rao san wa tegami o kakimashita ka kaitta to omoimasu. Kakanakatta to omoimasu. I think he has written. I think he has not written. Or you can also say over here, kodomo wa tegami o kakimashita ka kaita to omoimasu. Kakanakatta to omoimasu. Rao san, kamera wo kaimasu ka? kau to omoimasu. Kawanai to omoimasu. I will buy, I think. I think I will not buy. Or Rao san, ashita kaisha e ikimasu ka? Hai iku to omoimasu. I think I will go. Iie ikanai to omoimasu. I don't think I will go. Rao san wa shumatsu ni watashi no uchi e kimasu ka? tabun kuru to omoimasu yo. Maybe he will come or tabun konai to omoimasu. Maybe he will not come. So, you can practice to omoimasu in this manner and use it very freely because it helps you in conversation and telling something for which you may not be very sure. For example, you can see over here, what does this show? This is a kyou shitsu. Kore wa kyou shitsu desu ne. Sensei ga ima hairimashita. Soshite, seito tachi wa ima swatte imasu. Ima nanji desu ka? Kuji desu. Kurasu wa nanji ni hajimarimasu ka? Minna hanashite masu yo ne ima. Kurasu wa nanji ni hajimarimasu ka? Kuji desu kara kurasu wa kuji ni hajimaru to omoimasu. You can see it is in plain form. Then again we have another class. Sensei wa ima oshiete imasu. A-I-U-E-O ima kokuban ni ne kaite arimasu kara mite kudasai. Soshite, seito tachi wa sensei no koto okiite masu. Ima juuji han desu. Kurasu wa nanji ni owarimasu ka? Juuji han ni owaru to omoimasu. His friend is telling him juuji han ni owaru to omoimasu. So, you can practice omoimasu like this. Now, as I told you a little while ago, particle to is used with omoimasu is also used with imasu. And this is similar to direct and indirect speech, though in Japanese it is not very clear what is direct and what is indirect. Just by adding to before imashita, automatically what comes before to is in quotes. Please remember that. And as with omoimasu or to omoimasu, before to imashita also the verb is in plain form. As you can see from the example over Rao san wa eigawa omoishiroi to imashita. He was saying that the picture is interesting. Rao san wa eigawa omoishirokunai to imashita. He said that the picture was not interesting. Okaasan wa genki desu or genki da to imashita. He said that okaasan was genki. Okaasan wa genki janai to imashita. He said that okaasan is not in good shape. Okaasan wa genki datta to imashita. He said that his mother was in good health or genki janakatta to imashita. Now with verbs as well, Rao san wa eiga omiiiku to imashita. Rao san was saying that he will go to see the film. Rao san wa eiga omiiikanai to imashita. He said that he will not go and see the film. So, this is how to imashita is used in a similar manner as to omoimasu is used, which we saw just now. And then there is another way of using to imasu. Now, what is that? Let us see very quickly. Now, you can practice this. Well, Rao san to yu hito o shitte imasu ka? It is a small conversation. Then I will tell you how it is to be done. Rao san to yu hito o shitte imasu ka? Hai, watashi no tomodachi desu yo. Doushite kimasu ka? Why are you asking? Nani ka arimashita ka? Did something happen? Is there a problem? Kono aida the other day kaigi de atta toki ni kare wa anata o shitte iru to itte imashita. So, there are a lot of things over here to imashita. He said that or he was saying that or he said ega wa omo shiroi to imashita. Now, we have a different, this is direct and indirect speech in quotes, but we have something very different over here. Rao san to yu hito o shitte imasu ka? Rao san to yu hito. Rao san to yu hito. This is not to imashita. To yu hito is person who is called Rao san. Is what it means? This person hito who is called Rao san. This person do you know shitte imasu ka? Hai, watashi no tomodachi desu yo. Doushite kimasu ka? Why are you asking? Kono aida that day the other day kaigi de atta toki ni. We just now did toki earlier, kodomo no toki, kodomo no toki or gakusei no toki atta toki ni. Meaning, when I met him atta toki ni, tabeta toki ni when I had it. Itta toki ni when I went. So, ta past tense plus toki ni at that time. So, at that specific time when a certain activity happened. Verb in past form plus toki ni, kaigi de atta toki ni. The other day when I met him at the meeting, karei is hi wa anata wo shitte iru to itte imashita. He was saying that he knows you. So, well there are a lot of things here. Hashi to yu mono. Hashi to yu mono is a thing which is called hashi or ohashi. Ohashi is chopsticks. Hashi to yu mono de tabemasu. So, mono which is called hashi. One eats with that. Then, enpitsu to yu mono de kakimasu. Enpitsu to yu mono de kakimasu. Mono, a thing which is called enpitsu, sore de kakimasu. So, this is how you would use to yu mono. Kanji to yu mono wa musukashii desu. Kanji to yu, this thing which is kanji is a little difficult. Now, there was a word over there, kamoshire masen. Now, please remember that kamoshire masen is in the negative. There is only one form for kamoshire masen, which is this, which is in the negative, but it has nothing to do with the negative at all. It means 50% the work is going to be done. For example, if you say ashita watashi wa ikimasu. When you say this, then this is 100% that you will go or watashi wa ashita ikimasen. I will not go. Watashi wa ashita iku to omoimasu. I think I will go tomorrow. So, I am not very sure like here that I will go. I think that I will go. Watashi wa ashita ika nai negative to omoimasu. I think I will not go tomorrow. So, I am again not very sure, but over here I am 100% sure. Now, if I say watashi wa ashita iku kamoshire masen, then I may or may not go tomorrow. Watashi wa ashita iku kamoshire masen or ikanai kamoshire masen is I may go tomorrow or I may not go tomorrow with iku and ikanai. So, again kamoshire masen will take plain form of the verb 1 and 2. If you say iku kamoshire masen, then kanose of going is more. Possibility of going is more and if you say ikanai kamoshire masen, then possibility of not going is more. That is the only difference over here. Kamoshire masen is not in the negative. Please remember that. You can see over here, it is written, shows that there is only a 50% possibility of the action denoted by the verb. May do, may not do. You can practice over here toyou, which we did just now. What does this look like? This looks like a trumpet. Kore wa nan toyou mono desu ka? What is this thing over here? What is it called nan toyou mono? Now, Torampetto toyou mono desu. This mono is a trumpet, is called a Torampetto, is called a trumpet or you could also say, kore wa nan toyou mono desu ka? A direct answer, Torampetto desu. Also, you could also ask and you have done it earlier in one of our lessons, kore wa nihongo de nan toimasu ka? You have done kore wa nihongo de nan desu ka? Now, a better way of doing it is kore wa nihongo de nan toimasu ka? Which you did just now or kore wa nan toyou mono desu ka? A much better way of asking. Torampetto toimasu. You can also answer as Torampetto desu or Torampetto toimasu. Now, you know what this is? This is a strawberry. So well, kore wa nan toyou kudamono desu ka? Ichigo toyou kudamono desu. Ichigo toyou toimasu. It is called Ichigo. This kudamono, this fruit is called Ichigo. Ichigo desu, a direct answer. So well, you can practice like this, to omoimasu, toimashita, toimasu toyou mono, nan toyou mono desu ka? We did this earlier, nihongo de nan desu ka? Over here, you can ask in a better way, nihongo de nan toimasu ka? Or, nihongo de nan toyou mono desu ka? Now, we have katakana over here, as we have been doing, this is the da series, da, ji, zu, de and do. But what you have to remember is that in hiragana, this and this is not used. It is da, ji, zu, de and do. This is what is used, though it is given over here, da, ji, zu, de and do. And of course, in katakana, da, ji, zu, de and do. All these syllables are used. You can practice on a graph sheet, you can see how it is given over here very clearly and you will have a balanced syllable. You can practice like this and make your ji which is letter, better and balanced. This is your da series, clearly given for you, you can practice. Now, there are a lot of kanjis today for you, but very simple kanjis. We will do them very, very quickly. There is this kanji of sumu which is to live. So, very simple 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 and 7. Sumu is to live. Please, once again 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 and 7. Sumu. So, it is a seven stroke character. You can see over here, it is a seven stroke character. Then we have omou. We did omou just now. Omouimasu. So, well, you have done this one. You remember doing this one. This is kuchi and what does this look like? This is to which is 10, juu. So, you combine the two 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and you have this over here. This means omou, omoi, masu to think. This is a nine stroke character, as you can see very clearly. Then we have machi. Of course, over here machi is again similar to omou. This character is similar and then we have a j over here. Very, very simple, a little longish and j. So, well, this is machi. This is a seven stroke character and then we have in the end over here furui. Simple, you have done juu, which is 10 and then you have also done kuchi, which is mouth. So, well, furui. Furui means old and please remember hito is not furui, things are furui. So, hon wa furui desu and not hito wa furui desu. Then, we have done seasons earlier. If you remember, we did haru natsu, aki and fuyu. So, today we will do hegashi, kita, nishi and minami. So, the first one you have done with, we have done earlier with tokyou, with this word tokyou earlier in class. So, very, very quickly 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 and 8. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 and 8. This is hegashi. Once again, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 and 8. Hegashi. Now, you remember doing this, which is shi meaning 4. So, well, a little similar to this, not exactly same, but well 1, 2, 3, 6, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and 6. This is nishi, means west. Then, we have kita, which is even simpler 1, 2, 3, 4 and 5. This looks like 7, does not it? Roku and shichi. So, well 1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3, 4 and 5. This is kita and then we have in the end minami. Remember doing this juu. So, 1, 2, 3, 4 and then you have the sign of n. Of course, this is not the way I am repeating it again and again. Please, this is not the way to learn Japanese at all, but because time is short and there are lot of things to do. It is not possible to do kanji characters, the way they are supposed to be done. So, well, we will do them very quickly as words once again from the beginning 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8. Higashi, nishi, kita and then we have minami for you. There are other readings also. Higashi is to, nishi is zai, then kita is hou and minami is nan. You can see over here very clearly and all the stroke order is given. You can practice it at home with the hiragana and kanji strokes. Very interesting koto waza which we all should do and it does tell about the Japanese people as well. Well, what does this look like? There is this old lady banging into something and about to fall and then we have korobanu saki no sue. Korobu is to fall. Saki is ahead or earlier, sue is the stick. So, what does it look like now? Can you tell me? Well, it is very simple. You can see over here.  So, what does it mean now? Can you tell me? Literal meaning, literal translation of this koto waza or this proverb is that use a walking stick when you are walking in case you fall down. But it has a very deep meaning that prevention is better than cure. Well, we all know in all cultures, it is taught that it is better to be prepared for what is coming. It is always better to take care of to be prepared for any eventuality, to be prepared for what is coming rather than actually falling sick and then treating yourself. So, one has to be prepared, one has to be intelligent enough, prudent enough to understand that it is always better to do things beforehand. One should not wait for something to happen. For that, we have to work beforehand, prepare ourselves beforehand, be prepared and try to then work. As you can see over here, well the first kanji over here is korobu which means to fall. Saki means earlier, before or ahead and sue means walking stick or this bow or stick over here. So, this old lady is all prepared, set that in case she stumbles on something, steps on something, she has the stick to support her. Prevention is better than cure. So, well that was your koto waza. Now, we have a small expression here, you can see two people talking, very nicely chirpili over here and what are they saying? Rao san shibaraku desu ne, shibaraku is an expression which says meaning meeting you after a long time and the ladies say sashiburi, the ladies say sashiburi. So, please shibaraku is main speech, Rao san shibaraku desu ne, meeting you after a long time. So, desu ne Tanaka san genki and genki desu ka is not used, genki with a rising intonation. Then we have genki yo informal, genki yo Rao san no rombun hapyou wa do datta, how was your thesis presentation, he is inquiring. Yo katta to omou yo, again informal, yo katta to omou imasu is not being used. Yo katta to omou yo, Tanaka san, saikin isogashi desu ne, you seem to be very busy these days, saikin, isogashi desu ne, a very common greeting I would say in Japan. Nobody says that you are free, it looks as if you are very, very busy. So, being busy is not something bad. In fact, sitting at home idle or not doing anything is considered actually quite bad in Japan. So, everybody is very conscious of this fact and they all work and they do not mind that they are busy, more the work the better it is. So, that is how the Japanese people think. So, well, saikin isogashi desu ne, chotto ne, chotto ne is again very, very Japanese where you do not want to talk about your work, but you just say yes, that is right and you just leave it at that. And again, aso, I see. So, this is expressions and conversation. Now, you have your vocabulary over here. Kimochi and kibun almost mean the same. Gouai is condition, general condition of health. Raku is easy, benry, convenient to use or to move about. Chuka is Chinese food or cuisine. Then, sugi is next. Kondo is next time. Kono aida, the other day or that day, particular day. Aida is in between or interval or space. So, you can use these in sentences, make sentences and then now my work is over. Your work begins now. You have to do your assignments at home. There is not much because already you have to do a lot of things today that you have learned. So, well, there is Kanji practice. Again Kanji with hiragana readings and then you have some grammar which you have to do. Please fill in the blanks with words given here. These are the words you have to fill in the blanks and then you have one more. Change the words into proper forms and make meaningful sentences. So, the verbs are given over here. Words are given over here. You have to change them and match with what is given outside the brackets. So, please do that and with this I will finish for today. So, minasan kyou wa kore de owarimasu. Mata kondo aimashou. Hai, arigatou. So, well, thank you very much and see you again next time.


It was really hard to be a new mom We're having a food and job. I feel so depressed. I feel like I'm not good enough I feel burned out in the past 11 months since I had your baby I also felt I was very blessed that I had a baby I really love him and baby Edward, but I lost my identity Since I had my son so this video is probably what you expected typical in my YouTube channel because I'm not gonna share with you Advice because I have no advice this video is about the failure the struggle I've gone through in the past 11 months that I finally Break out and would like to share with all of you guys regarding the true side of myself and my personal life This is Dr. Nian City help people transition from a worker B to a partner manager and business leader from PM Accelerator.io If you want to learn the most effective way to become partner manager and you should subscribe to channel hit the like button So that you'll be fine every time I turn on the video every Wednesday. It's so hard to admit in public that I Was depressed for six months since I had my baby I felt totally lost because I feel like I lost myself. I lost my identity in the past. I was a YouTuber direct a product right running my own coaching business on the side But after I had my son, I just felt like every day I was around him and trying to do breastfeeding which is extremely demanding I'm not myself anymore. It's felt like I am a cow. I do nothing but feeding my baby Do you feel this way even your mom? I felt that way I'm no longer Dr. Nian City anymore. I'm no longer myself Now let's talk about the breastfeeding. Why? I felt I'm just a cow And so I'm doing full breastfeeding. I'm doing breastfeeding 100% no formula for my baby since day one And my baby was so attached to me and he refused to take bottles for months So he only wanted me attached to me do breastfeeding for a very long time. We'll try to let him cry it out Somehow he just refused to even take pacifier or bottles only me and he also gets up every three hours To get fat. Lots of people say hey Nancy, you can just do sleep training Maybe sleep training works well for some families and somehow didn't work out for my families Especially for my baby. We try sleep training It is it's still very hard to implement and also quick education What is sleep training for people who doesn't have a baby sleep training means that you let your baby cry To sleep to me to be frank. It's really hard as a new mom to hear your baby crying I let him cry for a little while if doesn't work. I'm coming checking with him So therefore my baby's sleep schedule wasn't perfect I still feed him seven times until the month six for newborns You feed him eight times per day for six months. He still was fed for seven times per day So I was in and out into my coaching business and and every three hours I feed my son and for a little while I have to film a YouTube video and guess what I really love filming YouTube video But there's a very frequent disruption. It's not having enough speed. Did you pay attention to my YouTube channel? I wasn't able to produce any new YouTube videos for four months All I can do is I go live on YouTube So at least have one hour and after one hour I immediately go back to feed my son or catch up with some sleep And finally until the nine months I was able to sleep through the night That's when my baby decided to finally go to bed around eight o'clock and get up around six o'clock Finally I was able to sleep through the night and but still get up six to feed him. It was hard. I Wasn't prepared. I didn't know what to expect even if I read lots of books, but each baby is very different I even grow some white hair and the other thing changing my identity was that you know as a youtuber We are very groomed well dressed in front of cameras and also in daily life as well because I went to a fashion design school Back in China when it was college. I was very fashionable But after a baby the first two months I was in pajamas every single day because I just feed my baby try to catch up on sleeps Feed my baby catch up on sleeps. So it was really hard in terms of I got a new identity I'm no longer who I am and nothing make it really challenging was that I had a cobalt tunnel for six months So what is cobalt tunnel means actually your hands hurt This happened to some percentage of women once they had a baby even before they had a baby The arms somehow the veins start to change and your hands your fingers start to feel very numb So I wasn't able to hold my baby for six months because my hands actually hurt felt numb Whenever I lift something heavy I can feel the pain even when I type on computers It was so painful even when I type on my cell phone It was also very painful I have to learn a new way holding my babies using my arms without hands with the help from my parents and my husband That's why I was depressed. So I'm sharing so much with you guys I just want to see the true side of myself Nothing's perfect. Lots of women went through the hard things or hard things being able to have a full-time job and also raise their babies and their kids You guys are the best moms ever But I also got the present surprise which is about how much I love being a mom All right, I know I have complained a lot about being a new mom, but I do love being a new mom This is my favorite thing ever. I love it so much I never expect as a career-driven woman after the baby I'll be like wow Every day I just want to spend time with my baby and actually the fact of leaving my baby very frequently Have something to do with me just want to spend time with my baby Prioritized with my baby everything is around him and I want to because it's the best feeling ever Smile the kisses playing with him and even him crying. I find it's really cute as well. I never expect I will enjoy being a mom so much and the feeling of Womb spending time with your son regardless your other duties cannot be described And you can just watching the time passing by and two hours is gone while playing with the baby on the swing Just playing the playground and time flew by very quickly, but that's the best time ever I feel myself get lost with those two hours or one hour playing with my baby So that's why I started to embrace my new identity now my son is 11 months old I finally start to come out as a new Nancy start to embrace my new identity Who is a mom and also running a business full-time? Which is my coaching business called PM accelerator. I start to learn how to do work like integration I personally believe that work like balance doesn't exist for me as a new mom If you know how to manage work like balance, please comment on the chat. I love to learn from you guys Will you also depressed as a new mom? Please comment on the chat. I do want to hear from you guys What if I need advice? Not feel depressed come on the chat as well After I prioritize my baby the only time I can focus on working and creating new content and teaching other people It's in the evening, which is from 9 to midnight That's when I'm super productive I was able to do a lot of things which also one reasons lots of the YouTube videos we filmed was filmed in the night as well In the middle of the day, I also got some pleasant surprise We're trying to respond to some questions from students occasionally my son will come into my office Which I really like by the way. I just enjoy is extremely cute He knows how to distract you. He knows how to make you love him so much So that's why I don't believe in work like balance, but I believe in work life integration It's more about how would you integrate your new self? With your baby schedule and your own work-from-home schedule as well. I'm also quite ashamed to be frank. I didn't work out enough Did you work out enough when your new mom? Having a full-time job and baby on this I felt I didn't work out enough. This is very shame of that I'm losing my six pack or I never had this pack in general Go back to my self By graduating on going back to work out and and even the first time I start working out on lately and my shoulder My old injury start hurts again So life is very complicated to be frank as a new mom, but this is the best job you can ever given to me That's why I want all the amazing moms and out there to be proud of yourself You're not alone. You have accomplished so much while having babies Maybe one or two multiple babies having a job and together and have a husband a whole family to entertain to Build a life together. You're not alone. We're in this together You're doing me. I know I'm not a super mom. I also know I have very little parental advice here I just wish all of the moms and out there continue to push and celebrate how much you have accomplished so far There is so much new opportunities and out there among all of you guys to fill in love with yourself your baby Your new self and your family as well This is Dr. Nancy if you like any of the upcoming content free training about product management clear work-life balance as new moms feel free to like this video subscribe to channel and turn on the bell button so That you'll be notified every time I post a new video every Wednesday. This is Dr. Nancy. I'm gonna see you soon