Hello there. Hello there, my beautiful, lovely internet friends. I am all cozy in PJs. It's not even like cold out and snowing, which would justify like flannel cute PJs, but I was just feeling very cozy tonight. And so I thought I would hop on with you guys into puppies. I'm sure Sophie will make an appearance here shortly. She's like right there. And I really liked streaming with you guys last week. So I thought I'd hop on for a little bit in chat. I've got some tea made. It's lavender chamomile with honey. Hello, Will depicts. I'm glad you're back. Hi, Paul. Here's one dog. I'm sure I will get you the other one here shortly. Hi, Emily. I am doing a solid decent today, which I will absolutely take. Also, I'm gonna adjust the camera just a little bit. Let's see. There, maybe. Yeah, that's better. Hi, Magnish and Bobby and Bethany. Thank you for watching and Abby Topes. Hi, I'm so glad you guys are all here. Thank you. Ava, you made it. I just, it means so much to me that you so consistently come into my streams. Ava has been a amazing supporter of the channel for so many years, so many years. That's crazy. So thank you for being here. Hi, Sharon.  Hi, Eric. Hi, Janice. How are you guys all doing this evening? Oh, we got DC Sophie Ears. Can you see the Sophie Ears? Yeah, she'll make a full appearance here shortly. Ava, oh, but seriously. Genuinely, you mean a lot to me and you being here means a lot to me. So thank you, truly. Hi, Claire from Los Angeles. Summer says, glad to be here. Don't PJ set, thank you. I got these years ago. Matching PJ sets are like perfection to me. I get so happy about them, but the problem is I'm so specific about the way that PJ pants fit. This is the kind of riveting conversation we're gonna have here tonight, guys. But so often with like PJ sets, the bottoms will like the waistband, I can't stand feeling it. So it'll be like too tight and then I'll have to get like a massive size where it just doesn't fit, right? So finding a good PJ set is super exciting to me. Anyways, this is one of those. So be the elves as cute dogs. Yeah, they're pretty cute. They're all tuckered out because they ran a lot today. They ran up in the forest and then I played tennis ball with them and my friend's kiddo who I was watching for a while today played tennis ball. So they are tuckered out. Also, at some point in this stream, they're probably gonna freak out because I know that I have a delivery coming and if they hear someone on the porch, they lose their minds. Bethany, I'm so sorry that you're not okay. Are you having a rough day, a rough evening? I hope that we can all just be here for you and be at least a relaxing presence of nothing else, but I'm very sorry that you're not okay right now. Paul says, buy PJs too large and tailor them. I could do that. I should really look into how much tailoring actually costs because I've never worked with a tailor, which is ridiculous because I need to for my leg. I just never have. Oh, Mr. Key says, bring back the foot mic. I should bring back the foot mic. God, some of the things that I say out of context just sounds so weird. For a while there, I was like taping my microphone to one of my prosthetic feet and just talking into it.  Got my little test socket here. This one feels terrible. I am looking forward to going to sleep tonight so I can take pain medication that is properly assigned by my doctor for nights like this. So I will be out of pain, hopefully unable to sleep because it has been a nasty, nasty leg day. Oh, Claire is dental pain tonight.  Did you have like dental work done or is it just tea stuff? That is not fun. Tiga says good guard dogs. Yeah, they're really good guard dogs and I love that. Also, yes, no makeup. This is my, I'm done with the day. In fact, I never put makeup on today. I would say I probably actually deal my makeup maybe once or twice a week. Daniel says, your love of so many makes life more enjoyable. Your influence makes me happy. Oh gosh, Daniel, that's such a sweet thing to say. Thank you. Oh, G. Pretkane says, I love the dog blanket. Isn't this cute? Wait, Pat, Pat in the chat, I believe sent this to me unless I'm mistaken. It's one of my favorite blankets. It's super cute and cozy. Pat, I think you sent this to me before surgery. Meryl G-Mail, Merveau G-Mail. I'm struggling with usernames tonight. Says, hey, I have amazing news. I moved and now I have a bed to share with my fluffy dog. The warmth of his floop is amazing. Hope you're well. That is just delightful news and I'm so happy to hear that. I'm glad. Should we position this so we can get like more dogs in the frame? I feel like that would be beneficial because who doesn't love more puppy dogs in the frame? You know what I'm saying? Let's see, let's see about that. Slightly more puppy dogs. God, I love these animals so much. As usual, my stream is mostly just talking about how much I love the dogs. All right, men, so do you have a beautiful dog. Thank you. There's actually two of them. I don't know if you can see these ears, Sophie. Sophie, you wanna say hi? Sophie. There she is. There she is. See, they're all cuddling tonight. Don't kick your sister, don't kick her. Ava says, Leo is just huge. You know he is and this angle makes him look smaller than he is every once in a while. I'm like, dear God, I actually have a very large dog. Bethany says, I have school, he goes, oh, Bethany, I think you were saying earlier that it was a rough night. I'm really sorry that you were struggling tonight. Also, Pat says, nope, can't take credit for that one. I did send the weighted blanket. Yeah, so I have the weighted blanket. Someone sent me the dog blanket for surgery. Oh, don't, oh, he just kicked Sophie. She doesn't seem to mind. The weighted blanket is amazing though, Pat. How many prosthetics do you have, asks Maxime. Right now, I have another prosthetic foot, but it's really old and doesn't work super great. This is a test socket, which is why it's made of polycarbonate, which you can see at the top, the clear stuff, and then they have to wrap it in casting material because this will break if you're just walking on it. So it's a test socket. So before they make the carbon fiber version, they can re-sculpt this a lot easier, so it's a lot cheaper and faster, but we are having a difficult time getting a good fit and this one just, it's not working. Also, look how this is, look what they had to do for my leg. Look at this funny angle. Okay, so this is straight, but do you see how crooked it is? That's not wrong. It's just like what they had to do to accommodate for like how I walk and everything like that. DC says your disposition always brings me joy. Oh, thank you. Oh, also it looks like the stream just froze. I'm gonna keep going like it didn't. Here's to hoping. Ava says it kind of looked like he kicked you more than Sophie. He's, okay, by the way, guys, his little back feet, I don't know if you can see the spots. He's like, he doesn't care. Yeah, all these pretty spots, look at that. They're so pretty. Okay, don't kick your sister. Just come put your foot right back there. So how is everybody doing tonight? I'm doing a lot better than the last stream when I was more actively recovering from COVID. I went back to the gym for the first time today to like try to ease back in the things, see if I could get my body moving because I was dealing with like a lot of just like achy and soreness. But you guys will be very proud of me. I'm proud of me. I took it very, very easy and mostly just stretched because I can still feel like the impact it has on my lungs. So I was like, all right, we're just gonna take this nice and easy. Oh, Ava says the YouTube stream didn't freeze. Are you on Twitch too? No, I'm not on Twitch too because I found that when I tried to stream the Twitch and YouTube oftentimes either my computer or my internet just can't handle it. Oh, there we go, yeah. Okay, so yeah, so how is everybody doing? Janice, Janice. Janice, I don't know why I said Janice. It'd be a cool name too, but it says how are your lungs feeling? They're feeling so much better. I'm imagining I'll probably only be able to talk for like 45 minutes an hour because I don't wanna tank my lungs again. But I really like hanging out with you guys. I don't know, it just, it seriously means so much that you guys would spend your time listening to me and chatting with me. I just think it's such a cool thing. And I am generally so grateful that for anyone who decides to be here, I'll stop being mushy, but thank you. Okay, so Cody says, doing good. Hope you're okay too. I'm glad you're doing good tonight, Cody. Darren asks, how many times have you had COVID now? Three, I've had them three, I've had it three times. The first time I don't, those eight days don't exist. They just don't exist. The second time I had a fever so high that in the middle of the night, because I like lived alone, I was convinced I was going to die. Turns out just a fever, I was fine. And this last time it's just been hanging on for like a long time. Mountain Man says, I took my melatonin hoping it kicks in soon. I hope it does for you too in that you get some lovely sleep and sweet dreams. I cannot take melatonin because it gives me such vivid dreams, like crazy, crazy vivid dreams. And then I'll get nightmares and the vivid nightmares. I'm like, nope, not worth it. Does anyone else have that experience with melatonin? I know that that's like a possible side effect because it's such a good thing for people to take because it's like non habit forming. It's just a good thing for your body to help you sleep. But that's the one that I'm like, oh, can't handle it. Mel says, thank you for live streaming tonight. You're welcome. Been watching the shorts. Oh, thank you. I think most people, maybe not here, but most people on my channel found me through short form video. But the first like three years of my channel was just long videos. Is someone calling me? No, they're not calling me. Okay, we're good. Sarah says, yes, melatonin gives me terrible nightmares. I thought it was just me. Okay, yeah, so same. Same Z, same here. Also, I'm noticing my hair is just, it's doing its own thing tonight. You know what, we're okay with that. It's gotten long enough again. I really like the length, but then it's hard to put it up like this. Teague says, I love your short videos. Thank you. Also, Bethany, thank you for asking if I am okay. I am indeed, it has been, no, gosh, it's been an emotional roller coaster of a week, not in a bad way. I recently started going back to therapy after taking, I took like six months off because it was too expensive, I couldn't afford it. And it also, I was like going through surgery and stuff. So I was like, this is a good time to take a break. And coming back to it, it has been rough. Like in the moving things forward way, but I've been dealing with stuff that I haven't like wanted to deal with in years that's coming up, especially like moving to a new city, not having a lot of people here and some of like the vulnerabilities and stuff that that brings up. So this is a bit of a tangent, but I am, I am indeed okay, but I've been trying to ride the waves of emotion a little bit better and not try to numb them out or like just distract myself, but like feel things.  It is a good thing. I think it's one of the best things we can do for ourselves, but when you spend your life trying to avoid it for many years, just sitting in discomfort is a new experience. So I'm getting slightly better at it. Cody asks, how do you like your new place? I love it. I absolutely love it.  It's less than 700 square feet, which is a lot smaller than any other place I've lived before. So I had to get creative with like storing solutions, but it was kind of a fun, it was a fun task. And I probably got, I donated, sold or got rid of maybe like 60% of the things that I owned. So it was very cleansing thing too. Maxim asks, what do you think about three legged dogs? They're so cute. They are so cute. I dream of one day having a three legged German shepherd. Every once in a while, someone will send me one that's up for adoption somewhere in the country. And it takes all of my willpower to be like, nope, I can't handle a third dog on my own. That is too many dogs for me, but gosh, one day.  You know what, that is the unfortunate truth when you just don't feel things because they're uncomfortable. They getcha, they getcha, you know? So practicing feeling things is very healthy and very good. But gosh darn it, it is hard. Ooh, the audio is a bit funny. Okay, let me see.  Let's see if that's any better.  Yes, but a streaming schedule. I don't think so because my body is so all over the place. I never know if I'm gonna be like good or not.  So I think streams will generally speaking be pretty impromptu, yeah. So I would love to commit to a normal stream for everybody but until I get things more settled physically, if that ever happens, I don't think I will. Janice, Leo and Sophie, Leo is two, look at him. Look at him just passed out on that pillow. And Sophie is six, Sophie's down here. So one of the funny things about Leo is that he will, he will kick pillows all over the place to make space for himself. I thought he just almost kicked Sophie again. So I'll like come into the living room and he'll just be like nudging and throwing pillows off the couch and rearranging to make, keeps kicking her in the head to make space for exactly how he would like it to be. And I cannot blame him for that. Ava says, I kind of like the impromptu style. If I have time, I pop in and if not, then not. Excellent, thank you. Let's see here, Tony says, Joe, during the low times, just remember the saying I heard from my late mother, you can give up, you can give in, you can give out but don't ever give up. I really like that actually because it's not just cheesy motivation, within that line is the ability to still feel things, right?  So I like that. US Navy guy says, good evening from Florida. Good evening from Colorado. I think it's a little bit later out where you are. Tope says, do you ever think you'll do more art streams? Yes, I absolutely do. Some of the streaming cameras that I have are on the podcast set now. So this is the only camera that I have. So I have to get another one. I'm gonna have to buy another one when I have the funds for it here in a little while so I can like have a camera for the art and also have a camera for my face. Vandana Girl says, a live screaming stream would be interesting, finding a way to get an internet connection in the woods as you scream at nature could be funny. You know what? I think that'd be therapeutic and I'm not gonna lie. If someone did that, I think it would be an internet hit. Just, yep, a live screaming schedule. Just get it all out of your system. Tigue says, is Joe an artist too? I am a sometimes artist. I can show you guys some if you would like. Shedding, thank you for the super chat. Says I was on Kepper for 18 years. When I got off of it, I was like, so this is what life is supposed to feel like. Oh my gosh, for 18 years. So that had to be such a difference. That sounds like it's a very, that's gotta be a good change for you. I hope it is, that's awesome. So don't Good Dragon, I love that username.  Okay, if you guys have any other quotes from like grandparents or parents or influential people in your lives, I would love to hear them, cause I love quotes. Also, Kit, hello from Indiana. Indiana is, I love Indiana so much. Whenever I say that, people get very confused. But I have such good memories out there and such good friends. I miss it, I miss the cornfields and like the sunrises and the sunsets and just, oh, I love it out there. I lived in like 40 minutes south of Fort Wayne. And then I have friends in Columbus that I'll go visit sometimes. Human asks, I too am a human. Are you gonna have a special stream for when you hit a million subs? Yes, absolutely. We kind of talked about that. I gotta sip my tea, guys, I'm forgetting again. We kind of talked about that in the last stream. Wait, did I plug in the microphone? Hold on, can you do me a favor? Tell me if you can't hear me. Ready? Okay, could you hear any of that? Let me try it again. Okay, okay, good, okay, awesome. So the mic is indeed working. For a second I thought maybe I forgot to plug this mic which is why the audio might be funny. Okay, okay, cool, awesome. Oh, Sean, hello, it says, can't hear you after the tabs on the mic. Okay, okay, and I did unmute. Kit said, did you ever go to the Fort Wayne? Oh, I thought you wrote Chicken Zoo. And I got so excited because I love chickens. I have never gone to the Fort Wayne Children's Museum or Zoo, I have not gone there. Hi, Jean-Paul, did detage, I think I'm saying that wrong, but hi, thanks for being here. Okay, so anyways, the million subscriber livestream, I think that absolutely has to happen. And I'm wondering if there's, I need to plan something more. I need to plan something bigger for the million livestream. Maybe I could get together like all of the people who have been on the channel over the years, like Anika, the amputee, Stevie, Alexis from Stump Kitchen, things like that. I don't know, I'm playing with ideas, we'll see. Will the pic says, take a sip, thank you, God, I picked my tea up and I literally didn't drink it. All right, ooh, that's really good. Lavender, chamomile, and honey, it is delightful. Bobby, and also Will the pic, thank you for the reminder. Bobby says, hi from Connecticut, ever been on the East Coast? I have, I've been in New York City, I've been upstate New York, I've driven all around like Pennsylvania and the Baltimore area, I had a good friend who lived out there for a while. I love the East Coast, it's absolutely beautiful. I love how everything is so alive and green out there because in Colorado, it's a lot of brown. We have the mountains, which are incredibly gorgeous, but it's not lush like it is on either of the coasts, you know? Oh, Barov says, I just screamed so loud, I find a spider in my hair. That was the worst thing ever for my arachnophobia. I am so sorry, that sounds awful. I hope you recover quickly. Alison says, just wanted to thank you for all that you do and say hi from upstate New York. Oh, thank you. Soup Freaks Mesa, great username. Thank you so much for the soup for chat. They said, hey, I'm a Reese's amputee, one month, five right toes and top portion of the foot sepsis, and been using a lot of humor to deal with it. First of all, as I always say, welcome to the amputee club. None of us really wanted to be here, but we're in it together, gosh darn it. And I personally think that using humor to cope is one of the best things. I have found it so helpful. Do you find that people sometimes don't know if they can laugh at your humor? I find that from time to time.  Yes, yes you can. But how is your recovery going? Well, are you planning on using a prosthesis? Okay, Maxime asked, do I play video games? Very occasionally, very occasionally. I had to delete the two games I had on my computer because I ran out of space for video editing. It did have the Sims 4 and Cities and Skylines. And then on my Windows computer, which I lent to a friend for the time being, I had playing at Zoo, which is my favorite game of all time. And then I occasionally play like other games as well. Oh, Ava says, new idea for a shirt. Welcome to the amputee club. None of us wanted to be here. I love some variation of that with maybe some like a cute little cartoon amputee or something like that. That's a great idea. Kyle says, Joe, you look so cozy and pretty. Oh, thank you. I am feeling quite cozy and the dogs are like completely matching my style. They're so, they're so tuckered out. Storm says, I'd rock that shirt like crazy. Maybe we need to make that happen then. I have not made new merch in like three years. I've been slacking, guys. So we need to get, we need to get some new ideas in there. Paul says, almost to my first ampeversary. Okay, so how do you feel about that? Are you gonna celebrate it? Are you gonna take it as like a day of grieving? How does the first ampeversary feel to you? Everyone has felt a little bit different for me. Motivated one leger, that's a great username says, dang it, I hoping she'd see my comment. Dang it, well, I did see that one, but I missed the first one. Nicknack says, hi, Joe. I'm so happy I caught you live. I'm glad that you're here. I'm always curious how many people in the chat are amputees or have a direct connection to one versus not. I often find, hold on, sipping break, I often find that people make the assumption that my channel is like just for amputees or that the majority of my audience is and I've done polls before. And I think it's like, it's less than 10%. I think it's like, it was like one to 5% that are amputees versus not. Okay, McCrabbles is not an amputee, but I paralyzed legs. Veronica is not, Nicknack is not. Cam Cam says, does losing a function of a major organ count? I feel like it could, right? It's close, I mean, it's not an amputation, but you know what, you're welcome to the club too. We'd love to, we'd love to, what's the word? God, I've been missing words lately. We'd love to invite you to join the club. We'll just go with that too. Jennifer says, I'm a double amputee. Ewash says, not an amputee, but chronically ill. That's how I found Joe. I'm glad that you're here. Oh yeah, Paul says, I'm a veteran. I am not an amputee, though I have known several. When I lived in Colorado Springs, there's like five military bases in the area. And so there is, there are a lot of amputees in Colorado Springs and the Colorado area from, you know, like from the military. Oh, River says, I am not personally, but my nephew was up to the hip. Unfortunately, he's no longer with us. Oh, River, I'm so sorry to hear that.  Thank you for hanging out with us. Petrim says, Joe, you helped me help encourage my friend as a new amputee and valuable advice. Thanks. Aw, shucks. I'm so glad I thought I could help in any way. Thank you. Holly says, not an amputee, just bad chronic pain. Dear, dear Lord Holly, it's the worst, isn't it? Chronic, chronic pain is just a, I was about to say, can I cuss on stream? This is my own stream.  I, so in my daily life, I realized it was a problem a few years ago and I toned it down a lot, but for the first like 20, 25 years of my life, I like did not cuss really at all because I thought it was wrong.  Cussing can be therapeutic. Ash tree says cuss away, thank you. One tough cookie says it's 328 a.m. in the UK and I'm putting off sleep. Why are you putting off sleep tonight? Do you not, do you just not want to go there? Just feeling wired and awake. I hope that you find rest whenever you find your way to bed and I'm glad that you're hanging out with us in the meantime. Ava says, not a good fuck, every three words is nice. Okay, good, I'm in good company then.  I'm so glad you're here. Warren also, I'm glad that you're here too. All right, I'm gonna remember to drink my tea. Hi, Peter, how are you doing? Then Danagirl says chronic pain is really weird because now I miss noticing regular pain sometimes. That's such a thing. I completely understand what you're saying with that. It feels dangerous too. Oh, also, I talked about this book last week. Slight topic change, but I wanted to introduce you guys to it. This book is called Wired for Love and it is a, I'll read the subtitle, is that what it's called? A neuroscientist's journey through romance, loss and the essence of human connection and it is fascinating to me. I would highly recommend this book to anyone who's remotely interested. It's all about the neuroscience of how our brains work when it comes to love and connection. I think it's so cool because it really goes in the science of how we are literally biologically, neurologically wired for connection with other people. Hold on, I think Sophie's trying to scope out where she's gonna lay down, okay? Okay, she's on the edge of the couch. And I mentioned it, but I didn't have it to show you guys last time, this book, highly, highly, highly recommend. Also it's very sweet and it made me cry in a coffee shop because of the story of how she met her husband and they got married in Paris. He passed away seven years later, but like I'm a sucker, I'm a sucker for love stories every once in a while, right? Jamie asks, how are the pups doing today? Well, as you can see, Leo is very stressed out, very stressed out on his pile of pillows. I like that I can like, when he's sleepy, I can do anything and he just, he just doesn't care, doesn't react at all. He's just cool. Oh, okay, maybe I did bug him. Always getting cozier. Oh, are you rolling? Okay, it's belly rub time. I didn't know. I forgot to check the clock. It is belly rub time. You'll get it. This white patch that he has on his stomach too. Yeah, let's get you cozy. There you go. There you go. I love how chilly is all the time because Sophie and I are just anxious and stressed out beings and then there's Leo who does not have a care in the world and never has. We all make a good team. Ryn for the win. Thank you so much for the super chat. I really appreciate it. Ryn for the win says, how is the fallback to standard time treating you? I feel like I've been in a brain fog all day. Before I answer that question, thank you again for the super chat.  Does, is it just the US that has like time changes? Is it the world? Is it specific countries? So anyways, last night was like the fallback time and the worst part is that it now gets dark at like 5 30 p.m. And I, I hate that. I do not enjoy that one bit. Excuse me, but it's part of the, it's part of the package. Right? We're going to get snow here in the near future too, which makes me super happy. And it is also a lot lighter when I wake up in the morning. I was waking up at like seven. I usually get up at like six, something like that. And I was waking up at seven, seven, 15 and it still was dark out. So now, now it's like back to normal hours in the morning of some light.  I haven't thought about that. Yeah, wait. Okay. So Michael says Canada has it too because the US has it. We're not a serious country. I love, I love Canada. I love Canadians. Like most of my favorite YouTubers are Canadians. I have good Canadian friends. Europe too. Okay. So we had the last one on the 20th of October. Okay. All right. So there are like time changes around the world. Laura also hates the early darkness. Gosh. Yeah. It's just, it's just not fun. But it was unusually lovely out this evening. So even as the sun was setting, I went for a short walk. My leg didn't let me go too far, but like being out at sunset when it was like 72 out. Chef's kiss. I was super grateful. Hi, Trinity. I'm glad to have you here. Ghost into the fog says I'd rather have a late sunset than an early sunrise. Yes, I would too actually. I very much agree with that. Tope says it made me so tired, slept in, took a nap and I'm struggling to get to bed early. Yeah. Well, it's always so rough the next day, right? Cause then, you know, if we work like Monday to Friday, nine to fives, you got like one day to adjust to a time change. And then you got to like be on again. It's very difficult. Maestro says, hello, this is fun. Thanks for being here. I, whenever I start a live stream, I'm always like, I don't have a list of topics, right? That's not structured. We just sort of chat. So I really appreciate everyone who was here and just chatting with me. Thomas, thank you so much for your super chat. I really appreciate that. Thomas says, daylight savings time was the result of early conservation in the 70s, but was originally drummed up by Ben Franklin? No way. Oh, that's really interesting. Do you think we still need it? I always see debates about if daylight savings time is still beneficial in the current world that we live in. Wasn't it something to do with farmers and like a farming schedule that we had daylight savings in the first place? Maybe that's an urban myth. Kit says, and Thomas, thank you again for the super chat. Kit says, do you know Alex won like, I haven't met him yet. If I go out to LA or California, I absolutely would love to meet up with him. We've like chatted a little bit before. He is just a gem of a human being. If you guys don't know Alex won like, please check him out. His content is fantastic. He like has one of those super infectious personalities. I love his content. Gerald says, why do you put socks on your stump? Great question. Right now, I do not have socks on. That is only because this is warm enough. There are two reasons that I put socks on my stump. Number one is compression. Sometimes having a little bit of compression around it helps a little bit with the nerve pain. And sometimes like having texture around it that isn't moving like a pant leg or something like that like consistently the same texture also can help with nerve pain. But additionally also my little nubbin gets really cold sometimes. I get a lot of phantom coldness and sometimes I just get like actual coldness because it's hard to like losing a limb is hard for your body circulation. And so oftentimes I'll put a little sock on my nubbin to keep it warm also. I just think it's kind of cute to still match socks even if they're not on two feet.  Okay, let's see here. Warren says, oh my God, we have the same stuff. It's funny. Everyone's like everyone's residual limb, stump, nubbin, whatever you want to call it generally looks so different because of like the circumstances surrounding what caused the amputation or anything like that. But occasionally, occasionally you'll get nubbin twinsies. Okay. Emily says, he is hilarious. Joe, have you ever been to Texas? I have, I've been to San Antonio twice and I've been to Dallas, Fort Worth, what did I go there for? Ah, for Levitate, the Running Blade Company for a Levitate event. It was super fun. Maxime asks, do I watch disabled YouTuber? Do I watch a disabled? There are some disabled YouTubers I watch. A lot of the YouTube content that I consume is like video essays, commentary, things like that. I love having them on in the background. I just got my iPhone screen time report today. And before you get horrified by this, allow me to explain. But it was like your average daily screen time is nine hours and 10 minutes. I'm not on my phone all the time, guys. The reason for that is because I'll have YouTube videos on all the time in the background. So I'll just like set my phone up somewhere, turn on like a two hour video essay and just be doing like housework or doing different stuff. And so my screen is on, hence the ridiculous amount of screen time. But yeah, that's, I love YouTube. I love the community. I love other creators. I always get like super inspired and just impressed with what they do. Chelsea, Chelsea Stump, thank you for the super chat. I really appreciate it.  I lost my right leg below the knee in 2015, just three months shy of 20 years old. Oh gosh. I feel like we'd be great friends, human sunshine. Chelsea, I hope that maybe one day we have the chance to be in person. That would be lovely. And I really appreciate your kind words and your super chat. Thank you. So, okay, so if it's 2015, so is this your eighth year? Am I really bad at math? 20, wait, no, I think that's correct. It's eight years. I just passed five. Okay. Ghost in the Fox says, I completely ignore my usage summary now. YouTube also skews my numbers. I've been thinking about just turning off the screen time report because I see it and I'm just like, listen, listen little iPhone. I'm not on you all the time. You're just on in the background. Oh, the dogs might bark here pretty soon. There's gonna be a delivery on the front porch and they might get loud just heads up in advance. If that happens, I will do my very best to mute it so you don't have loud audio all of a sudden. Oh, Warren says I use YouTube instead of regular cable much better. I completely agree. I don't have any kind of cable TV. I have like Netflix and Hulu, but I mostly just watch YouTube. I think it's cooler to see what individual people are doing. Queen Bucco says, we love the doggos. Don't worry, thank you. Warren says, I watched your video about not having kids. I fully agree with you. Your body, your choice, adoption is a fantastic idea. Thank you, Warren. I appreciate that. I made this video years ago about why I don't, like why I didn't want to have kids. I will say that in the last six months, something super weird has happened, guys. I have been having baby fever like crazy out of nowhere for months on end. I have literally never wanted a biological child. I don't think ever in my life. And all of a sudden I'm like, babies. Yeah, which is just super weird for me. It's not anything I'm making any decisions on, of course.  I know it's a very complicated thing, right? But that is like the dream that I have, whether I do it in the next couple of years or whether I do it like 40 or 45. Ava says, I haven't had regular TV cable for more than 15 years. I get news from YouTube and such. So it's a lot of screen time. Yeah, I totally, I totally get that. Also, who was it that wrote the, who was it that, yeah, Warren. Warren's comment about supporting the whole, your body, your choice. If you don't have kids, don't have kids thing. I, because of the podcast that I do, I watch a lot of content from a very specific side of YouTube that really pushes the idea that women have to have children because that's their only value and worth and their only purpose in society, which is such utter bullshit. If you want to have kids, that is an incredible and beautiful thing, but pushing the narrative that you have to or like that's your only job as a female on the planet is ridiculous. I hear people talk about that stuff like all day. It gets a lot sometimes. I'm like, no guys, that's just not accurate. Yeah, climbing Dan says, agreed. I have a friend named Dan who is a climber. I don't think it is you, Dan, in the chat. But in any case, hi, it's great to have you here. Ooh, Gerard or Jared. Gerard says, Joe, try Nike socks. They are the best for amputees and so comfortable on your stump. Ooh, interesting. Like, like knee-high Nike socks? Hmm, do they have like good compression? Are they cozy? Hi, we'll have to consider that. Warren says, the church needs to settle down with making babies. I completely agree. I completely agree in the sense that like, stop telling people that they have to have kids to have meaning in life because that is simply not accurate. I will end that rant there. And we'll, yeah, we'll, yeah. Ava says, hell no, I just want to be responsible for my cat and that's it. Anything else is out of the question for me, then that's a fantastic choice for you, Ava. And I'm super glad. Wait, how many kitties do you have right now? C.C. says, I agree, it's your choice. Yeah, I feel like it's a pretty basic thing to agree on, but a lot of people do have a lot of different opinions on it. Penultimate, hi, it's great to see you in the chat. So it's for a lot of people, I think their kids are their only identity, so they have to pump up the importance of this. You know, I've never had a kid, right? I don't have kids. Like I said, one day I would like to foster, adopt that kind of thing. But I know from a lot of my friends who do have kids that, especially moms in my experience, like it can be really hard to have an identity outside of your children. Like that's an actual, like that's a struggle to find that balance, to find the time for both. And I recognize that can be a very difficult thing. I do think that there are some people who certainly project that on people who don't have kids. Wait, my phone is ringing. Scam likely at 8.45 and oh, you know what? Actually, hold on, I think I might know what this is. That was the delivery that got very lost on the way to my house. Thank you guys for your patience. Okay, hold on one more second. I'm getting another call, one moment please. I will be right back guys, I promise. Guys, that was such a string of events all at once. I'm so grateful to everyone who hung around. The delivery driver got lost because my house can be hard to find and she very kindly was able to get here. And then someone called and then the dogs went off all at the same time. So I had to keep everything muted. But I am gonna send, I'm gonna send. Come here puppy. Okay, are we gonna be quiet now? Are we gonna be quiet now? I think we are. All right guys, smile, we're on stream. Okay, I'm hoping that is the last of the interruptions and seriously, thank you for sticking around. Thomas says dogs equal automatic doorbell. That is a fact, very much so. They hear things way before I do. I don't think anyone has actually ever rang the doorbell because the dogs go off so loud that it is just very clear.  I love that you wave. That's amazing, did anyone else wave? Okay, I have to send this. When I'm streaming, I always feel like I have to talk every second but then I watch other streamers and I realize it's okay if there is an occasional silence. Chelsea, oh, thank you for another super chat. It says, where can I submit my new friend application, LOL? You know, I should have a friend application, LOL. So loud. It's okay, it's okay, guys. I promise, I promise it's okay. No one's trying to break in. Maybe we're quiet now, we'll see. We'll see. Kayleen says, ooh, you're approaching one million. Yes, weird, super weird. We were just talking earlier about what to do for like the one million stream. Lauren says, and here we go, LMAO. Yeah, they, I love, I've said this so many times. I love how big and strong their barks are. Aw, Sophie, come here, come here, Sophie. Come here, come here. Isn't she so sweet?  Renato, oh, thank you for your super chat. It says, thank you so much for actually being a real human being.  Thank you so much. That is a very sweet comment and means a lot to me. Thank you for your super chat. And yeah, I mean, we all gotta be real human beings, right? Like toxic positivity ruined my life for years.  What do you think? What do you think? Kay, pause, Kay, pause. Would you like to pant into the microphone? Okay. Janice says, beautiful Sophie. She is so birdy. She's so sweet. She's just panting in my face. Okay. What is your guys' experience with, like when someone says like, be positive, how do you take that? I've always had such a complicated relationship with the word of positivity, but while you answer that, I'm gonna respond to one more message and then I will actually be done and my focus will be back here. I should have some like elevator music. Dun, dun, dun, dun. Wait, no, that's Jeopardy music. Okay, Maestro says, so the positivity thing says, Maestro says, I respond by, I'm more of a realist. I actually like that a whole lot. I've kind of responded that way before too. I don't think realistic means necessarily depressing. I just think it means real, right? Like there's highs, there's lows. We can acknowledge both of those. Thad says, my response to be positive has always been, but not, excuse me, but not unrealistic. I like that. Orin says, be positive, yes, but be real. Yeah, exactly. I like all these comments a whole lot. Ooh, Garrett says it's the Nike dry fit crew socks. The compression is so perfect. Okay, I'm actually going to, I'm gonna copy that and text it to myself so that I can remember to try those out and see how they are. Oh yeah, climbing dance has sometimes positive encouragement is good. Sometimes it's unrealistically awful. Yeah, I think that's true. And I think it's so situationally dependent because if you're talking about like a bummer day or like inconveniences or just frustrating things, I think there is a place for like encouraging yourself to like perhaps look at the more positive side of things and quotes. I think that becomes very difficult when you're talking about real issues, like real life, deep stuff. Our word is not that simple. And yes, positivity can certainly help things. The one quote about positivity that I heard years ago that has stuck with me, let me see if I can remember it. But basically saying that being positive is not like rainbows and sunshine and happiness all the time. It's about knowing that at the end of the day you will find a way to be okay. And that's sort of what I've adopted in my own mentality about that word. Okay, let's see here. Ava says be positive without something after that like solutions, ideas, comments, sucks. Yeah, just to like, oh bummer be positive. Yeah, that doesn't go over well. Yes, exactly, Moss. It is okay not to be okay. It's such a cliche thing to say, but I find myself saying it to myself a lot and also to other people. It's one of those simple but very true things. Interesting, Warren says, are we a victim or a survivor? Like example, are we a victim or a survivor? I think there's a spider down there. Nope, we're good, that's dog hair. Classic in my house. Oh, did you want more pets? Okay, I can accommodate that. Can you guys hear her panting? I feel like for things that carry the title of victim or survivor, like things that rise to that level, right? Ooh, sorry baby. It took me a while to make peace with like both, right? Like some of the actual trauma I've experienced being like I was a victim of that and I am also a survivor of it and sort of like embracing both words because I think sometimes as survivors of things we are rushed to just embrace the survivor mentality and like sort of the victory and the survival of it and that can often detract from acknowledging the depth of hurt and acknowledging that you were victimized by something so you can allow yourself to feel that and move through it. That's my rant on that. Okay, let's see here. River says there is a difference between doing the work therapy wise and mindfulness to find a, oops, I lost your comment, happy place but not fake it to make it. Yes, I do not believe. I do not believe in faking it to make it. Dylan, thank you so much for the super chat. Says hi Joe from Saskatoon, Saskatoon, Saskatchewan, Canada. Saskatoon is like the most fun word to say. Hi back Dylan, thank you for the super chat. Thanks for being here. C4teefish says, oh, thank you for the super chat. So it's just getting my fix before you're on with Dave Warnock on Tuesday. Yes, I'm gonna be on a show called Dying Out Loud with Dave Warnock who is, I adore him. I got invited on the show a couple of months ago now. It was my favorite live show I've ever done and I will be on Tuesday night again. It is on a channel called The Line and I will be posting a link in the community page before we go live on Tuesday night. But yeah, I'm so glad that you're here, C4teefish and thank you for the super chat. Let's see here. Oh, Ghost into the Fox says, can you post in the Discord too? I need to remember to do that. I have been neglecting Discord terribly lately. I appreciate everyone's patience with me and I will do my very best to remember that. Let's see here. Marie says, accepting that some things really suck but knowing tomorrow is another day and it will get better eventually, got me through really rough times. Yeah, that's the whole sort of idea. I think you're just being cute, Tophie. Can I have a paw? Tophie paw? Good girl, good girl. That's sort of the idea behind, I have this tattoo. It's kind of hard to see but it's the one on my wrist. It's like the most noticeable one. It's a little watch.  I might not see a way through it yet.  Like I don't know how to handle this yet. It has been a very powerful word in my life and one that I've continued coming back to and it's not very glamorous because like when things suck, they really suck but trying to hold onto the idea that like, you know what? It's literally never stayed that way forever. Everything is temporary and like sometimes you just gotta hold on and it will shift and there is a way to make things shift but maybe you don't know what that looks like yet. I would say that is my favorite tattoo. I want more tattoo guys. I just posted a video today about my finished sleeve but now I want more. It's a problem. I died, tattoos are expensive. I'm taking a long break but I'm very grateful because they've been very helpful to me. Michael says, reminds me of people who have semi-colon tattoos. Yes, exactly. If you guys don't know, semi-colon tattoos sort of illustrate the idea of, are you growling?  Don't do that. He's allowed on the couch too. Do you hear this? She's having a hard time sharing any attention right now. She does this sometimes. He's a very jealous puppy dog. You hear all the complaining. It's okay. They are best friends but they grumble at each other. Mostly Sophie grumbles at Leo, honestly. Pat, thank you so much for the super chat. Pat says, sitting with a friend in the pain and not trying to rewrite it as anything else but calling it out exactly as it is and being there regardless is the most beautiful things we can do for each other. Did I say that? I was reading that and I was like, wow, I really love that. Ah, thank you. Thank you for the super chat and thank you for that. That was very sweet. Oh, Tope says, don't forget to drink your tea. Okay, allow me to do that. Oh, another super chat. J.R. Kunian says, how do you kick your sheets over? After I lost my right foot, I struggled to kick my sheets. Sometimes my life has to come around and help me. Okay, this is a real thing, guys. Thank you again for the super chat. Okay, so kind of offshoot of that. One of the most frustrating things to me after I lost a leg for the first couple of years is like when you're lying in bed at night and you're like calf or your foot has an inch, right? Normally what I would do and I think what most people do is you take your other foot and you itch it or you scratch it and I couldn't do that anymore and it was so frustrating because I'd have to like reposition everything and bring my foot up to try to like get rid of it or whatever. But also like moving around in bed or like kicking a sheet off or whatever. Like you get kind of tangled up in it. That's a very real problem. Pat says, yes, you did say that. Oh, thank you, Pat. I remember that from a post that you wrote. That means a lot to me. Also, I didn't finish what I was saying earlier about semi-colon tattoos. I don't have one. It's one I've thought about getting before but it's the idea of where a sentence could have ended but chose to go on. So it's speaking to people who have dealt with life-ending thoughts and made the choice to continue on. It's a very meaningful tattoo for a lot of people. Hello, Joe and hello, Tiffany. Let's see here. Oh, Paul says, take yourself over to Ocean Mart in Broomfield, the Asian supermarket. There are instant teas and coffees from all around the world. That sounds amazing. Ocean Mart. Okay, I'm also gonna copy that. I'm also gonna copy that and write it down because that sounds delightful. Ocean Mart. I'm gonna have to check that out. Thank you for the suggestion. I'm gonna take a breathing break for just a second and drink some tea. Hi, Lily. Kino, happy November 5th to you as well. Okay. She looks so small right now. She is actually a small German shepherd. She's like 65 pounds. They can get a lot bigger. I think she's the perfect size. Look at these little toe beans. She's fine with me touching her feet. She doesn't love it. I gotta show you what Leo's doing right now. I'm gonna take a picture of him and then see if I can show it. This is too cute. Look at that. He just curled up on a pillow. He's right over there. Marina says, do you like any fidget toys? I have not found, muted it just in time, I have not found fidget toys that I like.  I will trace underneath my nails with my other hand. I'll do this like a lot, a lot like back and forth. I fidget with a lot of different things, but I've never found fidget toys that I really loved. Peyton says such a cute pup. Allison says, would love a shout out for my patients as they're awesome kiddos and they watch you. Hello, Allison's patients. I am so grateful that you guys are watching me. I feel honored and thanks for being here. And thank you Allison for showing them. Sophia, thank you so much for the super chat. I really appreciate that. Ooh, what is the, okay, the little button says here. Paul, someone by Joa Tamagotchi. Oh my God, I love, I wanted one so bad back in the day. I don't think I, I think I had my friends like old one. Do you guys remember Tamagotchi toys? They were just amazing. Meri, Mevoro, maybe that's the right way to say it. After the spider incident, my friend just texted me. I forgot it was my birthday. How did that happen? Oh my gosh, happy birthday. That's amazing. I hope you have a lovely birthday after the spider incident, dear Lord. Oh, Elle Enchanted says, hi from Denver, I hope you're doing well. We are very close to each other. Hi from Colorado. Trinity last says, I also do the nail thing constantly. Does anyone else do that? If my nails are even a little bit grown out, I'll like here, I'll show you. I like trace underneath every nail with one hand and then I do it all the way back. It's very, it's very comforting, therapeutic. It's very fidgeting. Alison says, thank you my kiddo patients will be thrilled. Ah, I'm so, I'm just so happy that they, that makes, that made my night. Thank you, Alison. And thank you for the secret chat. Human says, I like the fidget spinner my nice, my niece had once she handed it to me to try and I wanted to keep it. Oh yeah, like the actual, like the, like the spinner ones, I think you said fidget spinner, but the ones that like, I'm doing a terrible job of explaining things. I think they're called fidget spinners. Like the thing that was super popular with everyone for a really long time. Yeah, I just saw one of those at an office the other day. Pat says, random live stream memories, slinking park, oh my God. That was from when we drew the snake, wasn't it? That, yes. I love that you brought that back up. Amazing. Oh, we got Lee with his face back here. Hi, buddy. Okay, it is, okay. It's getting close to my bedtime. I don't want to, I don't want to hop off just yet. We'll hang out for a few more minutes if anyone would like to. This is a constant issue. My tea is now cold. Also, I brought, I brought biscotti over to eat with my tea. I've never done biscotti in tea. That is a thing, right? I've always had it in coffee and then just completely forgot that I brought biscotti over. Jean-Paul says Sophie stole Leo's spot. They are constantly spot switching, like all of the time, except at night. Sophie has her head right here next to me on the other pillow and Leo will always be at my feet and they don't switch spots during the night. Warren says, tomorrow I'm gonna check out, I think it's a check out turbo dude. You say it's good, right? Well, it's my podcast, so I hope it's good. We are still in the early stages. Our sixth episode is coming out on Thursday. We do a live streaming podcast over on the Turbo Dude podcast. I do it with my best friend, Aaron from Life Apollos. It's a very different, very different kind of content for me. Warren, if you check it out, I would love to hear your thoughts. Okay, Emily says, what's your favorite kind of tea? I love English breakfast or Irish breakfast with honey or sugar and milk. The milk part is essential for me. I also really, I like peppermint tea, especially when I'm not feeling great. Chamomile tea is always a winner. The one I have tonight is lavender chamomile and that is absolutely great. Tony says, Joe, feel free to put the saying that I told you from my late mom on the wall or emerge. Thank you so much, I appreciate it. Quail tea, hyper focused recommends quail tea. I wonder what that is, I'm gonna have to look that up. Also dragonflies says they've never had tea with milk. Black tea with milk is my favorite thing. I don't put it in any other kind of tea. I think I've put it in chamomile before, but specifically black tea with milk. I think, okay, if anyone's from the UK, let me know. I think tea and milk is a very, it's a very British thing to do, isn't it? Or am I messing that up? Oftentimes when I ask for like tea or cream with milk, if I'm ordering from like a coffee shop, they'll give me like a weird look. And I'm like, listen, oops, I'm like, listen guys, I can't be the only person ordering it this way, but it's so good. If I can put cream or dairy in anything, I absolutely will. Ava says, what time and platform is the podcast? So it's on YouTube, we stream it live to YouTube. If you search turbo dude podcast, you will find it. We do clips and shorts throughout the week, but then it's this Thursday evening at 6.30 mountain time, which is 5.30 Pacific time. Yeah, we'll be streaming live. We have a panel of guests that we talk to every week. So it's like a big discussion. It's very conversational. Ava, okay, says tea with milk is very normal in Argentina. You're welcome to try it here. Okay, perfect. Thank you. Yeah, so I'm not the only one. What's up, Earth says chai tea latte. Yeah, that's milk, that's milk and tea. Okay, I can't be that weird. Tea with milk isn't specifically British, a traditional spiced chai includes milk. Yes, okay, perfect. Black tea and sweet cream with brown sugar syrup. Oh, oh, that sounds so good. I'm also gonna copy that down. I like text things to myself to remember them. If my computer will work, yes, there we go. I am gonna try that and I super appreciate the recommendation. Okay, Pat says, do you and or Aaron know all of the panel guests? Just curious how they're chosen. We have had some connection to all of them. Last week in particular, I think Aaron had met two of them before a long time ago. We find them all over the place and we will be having a lot more people in the future who we don't know. And that's kind of what we're shooting for is to have people from very different backgrounds with very different opinions, many of whom we hope will probably disagree with us, right? So we can have like our respectful conversation back and forth. It is interesting trying to find guests, like trying to find four guests a week. If you live in Colorado, there is a Turbo Dude podcast. If you wanna be a guest, go to TurboDudePodcast.com, fill out the guest form to be considered because we are always looking for more guests to be on. Oh, are there ads during the live stream, Tony? I need to turn those off for like the live. They shouldn't be running during the live live stream. Thank you for letting me know. I'll make sure I fix that for the next one. Smelly says, if you like floral teas, Jasmine silver needle is my personal favorite. I've had that with my mom before. It is super yummy. I very much agree. Okay, William says, would you consider doing video guests on the podcast? We don't have the tech setup for that just yet, but yes, that is absolutely something that I very much want to do because there are a lot of people all around the country and world who I would love to have on, but we haven't worked out the logistics of that just yet. Also, I am noticing that my throat is getting a little sore again and my lungs are feeling funky. So that is my body sign that maybe it is indeed time to call it a night. I wanna show you guys Leo. I wanna show you guys both the puppies before it go though. Here. So we got Leo right there. He looks so sad even though he's a very happy boy. And we got Sophie right there. They are gonna come cuddle up with me and we're gonna call it a night and stop talking. But thank you everyone for hanging out with me again. Like I said, it means the world to me.  So thank you. Thank you for all the super chats and comments and chatting back and forth. And I hope you guys take care of yourselves. You deserve it. And I will see you in a new video or live stream. I'm sure in the very near future. Bye guys, take care of yourselves like I said.


In ancient Rome, here's a great view of something that is amazing. This time of year, we had the wisteria that are blossoming and it is beautiful. I wish you could smell it. So we're going to talk about the month of April, what happens in history, what happens in the religious calendar, what happens in the imperial family. So April, succeeding Mars month, which is March, is now the time of an opening. This is full on into spring and we're going to be focusing on a lot of female deities, primarily Venus. This is her month. So we start off the 1st of April with the veneralia that's particularly focused on Venus verticordia, the Venus that can turn men's hearts is the idea. So you're going to her, you're praying to her, you're offering to her as well as Fortuna virilis and these goddesses are oftentimes paired together, Venus and Fortuna. And it's a great way then to start this month and to hopefully obtain what it is you wish for. On the third, we have the temple of queerness, celebrating its foundation. It's also on the third famously the state funeral of Tiberius. So he's dying outside of Rome in Myxenum, succeeded by Caligula, but then it takes him a while to get him into his body back into Rome to have that state funeral in the Roman Forum. Now the weather is getting good in Rome today. It was getting good in antiquity. So you have two ludi, two big games that are being celebrated. The ludi megalensis from the 4th to the 10th and the cheryalia, the ludi cheryalis from the 12th to the 18th. So as the weather gets better, you're going to have more games. And of course those games are primarily going to be focused in what location? The Circus Maximus, because it's the largest venue in the city of Rome. Incidentally, on the 4th as well, the day of the kickoff of the megalensis, it's the birth of Caracalla. He's born in Lyon. And then it's going to be followed on the 5th with the Festival of Fortuna Publiga. So the public version of the Fortuna that can be always associated with fertility, but also with luck. So you always want fortune on your side. She's quite a popular deity. On the 8th, you have the Temple of Castor and Pollux in the Forum. Its foundation is celebrated. Also on the 8th, you have the assassination of Caracalla in southern Turkey. He's out fighting more aparthean wars in the footsteps of his father. Doesn't go so well from him. He's assassinated by one of his troops. And during the time in which he'd actually gotten off his horse and was urinating. So not a good way to go, but definitely recorded as such in the history books. Here he is with his famous scowl.  On the 10th, of course, we're in the midst of that Ludi Megalenses. You have the actual foundation of the Temple on the Palatine Hill. Brought over the Colt statue of Magna Matera. Kibbele was brought over from Mount Aida in Turkey during the Second Punic War. On the 11th, it's the birthday of Septimius Severus and leftist magna. And of course, that is the father of Caracalla who had a very important dynasty. And this is after the demise of the Antonines, the assassination, excuse me, of Caracalla. Then on the 12th, you begin the Keryalia, the Ludi Keryalis. So we're thinking about Ceres, Libera, and Libra, their triad temple on the Aventine Hill. So nearby the Circus Maximus. And then on 238, you have Gordian II dying also on the 12th. So this is the Circus Maximus. This is all dealing with the celebration of the birthday of Rome. So they have these things going on in normal circumstances. What we would normally see would be parades and cherry races and animal hunts. And not so much the gladiator games and the Circus Maximus. Of course, the main venue for that is going to be the Coliseum. But I thought it would be fun to show you to give you a sense of that excitement and drama that takes place when we do celebrate in the Circus Maximus still today, though typically and traditionally at this point on the birthday of Rome in April 21st. And we're going to get to April 21st in just a moment. So from the 15th to the 18th, we have on the 16th, Masada falling in 73 and in the Jewish war and 1669 there on the 16th of April 69 C.E. is the beginning of the Teletes reign, one of the four emperors the year the four emperors ultimately to be superseded by the Spasian who does win the Jewish war. And then we have this gentlemen gratin whom you might not be so familiar with. Here's a statue attributed to him in Trier. And he's one of these emperors at a really tough time in the empire. He's going to co-rule with his brother, his half-brother Valentinian III, having initially co-ruled with his father Valentinian I. And he'll spend a lot of his time fighting along the Rhine and the Danube. And he's not, you know, we're not talking about emperors anymore that are based in Rome. He's in Trier. He's in Mediolanum, which is Milan and that's ultimately where he will be buried. And if we want to look for gratin in the city of Rome, we want to go to, let's say, the last rebuilding of the Pons Castius, which has his name on the dedicatory inscription. 21st, then is the birthday of Rome. Romulus and Remus are obviously associated with the foundation myth and it's, of course, Rome, Rome that's founded by Romulus. When he goes to the Palatine Hill and gets the sign, takes his augury and gets the sign from the gods with the number of vultures that pass overhead. It's also the time, say, the Romans of the Parilia Festival honoring the goddess Palaeus that lives on the Palatine Hill. And when we look at Ovid, who's a great source of the religious festivals in Rome for the first several months, he didn't complete his epic poem calendar because he's exiled out to the Black Sea. But we do have April and we do have a description of the Parilia and it's really about fumigating and cleaning out the stalls and treating your animals well. As much as, of course, it also is a time of founding the city. And when we talk about the life of Romulus and Remus before they found the city, they're shepherds, so they're tending their flocks, they're taking care of them. So you see how this all nicely ties in and it's all associated with the Palatine Hill where ultimately Romulus is going to be founding the city of Rome according to Roman tradition. When? 753 BC, April 21st. So here's a fun view of something that sometimes happens in the Roman Forum. We see women dressed up as Roman matrons. We see some Vestal Virgins. We see some Praetorian guards. We're actually in the Atrium Vestai, the home of the Vestal Virgins. And no human sacrifice, no animal sacrifice, but we're burning some incense. So it's a lot of fun. This is Gruppo Storeco Romano. And we look forward to a time of which this can happen again in the near future. Okay, moving on to April 23rd. We have the Vinalia and the Robigalia. And they're both recorded, as we can see here, on this panel, which is the famous marble calendar recorded now preserved in a Plaza Massimo for which we have a great video on H from Rome Live. Vinalia is also celebrating Venus, but it's all about wine harvest, attending the vineyards. And the 25th is Robigalia. And you can make out the Latin here. It's happening where? On the fifth milestone of the Via Claudia. And it is a veneration of Robigus. And Robigus is the God that you appeal to to ward off any kind of pestilence on your crops. The 26th is the birthday of Marcus Aurelius in 121. The 27th and 28th, the Romans celebrate the Ludiflorae, which is focused on the Temple of Flora on the Aventine Hill, overlooking the Circus Maximus. So where's most of the activity taking place in the Circus Maximus? It's going to be extended to six days in the imperial period. On the 28th and 357, Constantius II famously arrives in Rome for his only visit. And there's a great description of that and how he's in awe of the pantheon and in awe of the form of Trajan and the Colosseum and so forth. But interestingly enough, it's his only visit and it's a short stay. And more of his time actually is spent in years really, is spent in Mediolano, which is a Milan. So it's not that far and you think that the guy would have come much more frequently because it's such an amazing city, but ultimately, you know, Rome is just less and less important. And it just is underlined by the fact that the big deal is that Constantius II makes his short trip down there, but it's a one-time event, one-time affair. Also on the 28th, it's in 32. It's the birthday of Otto, who was born in Ferentium. And on the 30th, so we're getting to the end of April, is the official end of the great persecution of Christians that had been begun by Diocletian many, many years before. So at this point, Diocletians long since deceased and we have then the official end of this activity.


We're looking at using calisthenics as a vehicle to improve shoulder robustness and develop the athletic profile. It's not the build and all, it's part of the amazing work you guys are already doing. It's just, can we supplement it in some way to give you some more tools? Effectively. And how that fits into your program is entirely up to you guys. You can use as much as little or not as tall as you want. Calisthenics means beauty and strength. Those two components working together are well performed. Muscle up should look beautifully strong if it's done well. And you guys will know like from a sports perspective, anything which looks effortless from a movement or physiologic perspective requires less effort. And that's what we want our guys to get to from a more athletic position of like, if movement looks effortless, then we know we're in a good place. We've got a good selection of movement options which we can utilise. If we can have better physical literacy, if we want to call it that at the upper body and we've got more integrity of the joint, what opportunities does that create around the park? If we're better in rucks and moors or in the tackle because we're just better prepared up a body, we can move in different ways and we've got confidence to move in different ways, then that potentially allows our players to do things that other players can't, which I think is an interesting opportunity. If we have higher levels of proprioception, then we're better able to transfer forces generated approximately to the distal components of the body. So if we can, if we have better proprioception around the shoulder, we can transfer forces out effectively or we can stabilise forces in better positions. So we're generating a huge amount of force in a hip, it's coming through from the chamber, winding up the force, and if the shoulder is the weak link because we lack the more noise control and dynamic stability, which one's going to go? Shoulder's an easy one because, again, of the architecture of the joint. So what I'm saying here is that we need to improve proprioception and we need to improve our ability to integrate that shoulder into full pattern movements to be able to then amount and manage forces that we're going to get in a rugby match. What we do for an injured shoulder is perfect. What we look at is we get an established range of movement, improve neuromuscular control, integrate it with a ketic chain. Those are our principles from a rehab perspective. As soon as that player then is uninjured and returns into a strength and condition environment, we get all of the stuff that we did from a shoulder perspective to actually make it high performing or to get back to a point. We just go get back in gym and let's get strong, that's what we do. But these principles are well established in the literature and they work from a shoulder perspective. Where the physio bit kind of stops and SNC starts is a gap in the middle of how do we continue to scale robustness and what tools do we have. And I think that's where we lack in the strength and condition environment. We just aren't equipped to scale stability. The other thing that's interesting around, like say we take the hand balancing perspective, hand is on the floor, we're now going to have to move the whole body around the hand and the shoulder. So we're shifting now, that fixing that end position and then I'm going to have to move my hips and my core on my shoulder and if I can get into a handstand and I can hold my body position straight, I've got shoulder stable, I've got all these benefits from a closed ketic chain perspective but I've also integrated that into a ketic chain. You can't do a well controlled handstand unless you can synchronize some of this stuff. Can you create strength at end range? Can you create neuromuscular stability at end range? So the handstand, as we said before, is just a by-product, potentially, of what I actually want, which is stability at end range. It's just a way of getting it. It doesn't have to be about a handstand for us, but for the athletes, that kind of teaches handstand. That sounds cool, a bit different to the shoulder presser. So they buy in and we get engagement and adherence towards it.


Hey, welcome back everybody. Jefferyk here with theCUBE. We are in our Palo Alto studio, really for a CUBE conversation. It's kind of a lull in the conference season, so we kind of get to mend all the gear and do some stuff in the studio work, which we're excited to do. And we're joined today by a special guest, Jim McCarthy. He's a motivational speaker. He has a lot of keynote speakers. If you need somebody for your conference, definitely look him up. It's Jim McCarthy, leadership. Jim, good to see you again. Hi, Jeff. Nice to see you. Thanks for having me back. Absolutely. So last we saw you is at the Girls in Tech Catalyst Conference in Phoenix, a really great event. We're deep into planning our Grace Hopper coverage later this year, so a lot of activity there. But really the motivation here behind our conversation today was the Verizon announced purchase. I don't know if it's gone through yet of Yahoo. Right. Kind of the end of what's been kind of a tumultuous a little while. And you wrote an interesting post on it. You were there in the early days. So I wonder if you can kind of share some of your thoughts as you reflected back in what you shared in your post. Sure. I wrote a post on my website entitled The Hippy Values That Made Yahoo the Coolest Company in the World. And the day that the Verizon deal went through, I remember thinking, god, this is really a big milestone. And I didn't know what my feelings were. And I just started kind of putting it on the paper. And I came up with a blog post that I think people liked a lot. And what I wrote was I talked about how I was having a beer on an afternoon at Yahoo in 1997. I was employee 258, so I started there in July 1997. So it was a little company in Santa Clara. And I was talking to John Place, who was the first general counsel there at Yahoo. And he said, you know, Jim, Jerry and Jerry Yang and Dave File, the two co-founders, they really kind of have these hippie values. They may not even realize it. They might even deny it. But they still have this sort of hippie counterculture northern California thing about how they have approached the business and how they've built the business. And I think a lot of that has to do with what made Yahoo so special and so amazing in the early days. And I mean, today it's really not respected. The company really hit its peak in 2000, hit a market cap of $100 billion in 2000. But in those early days, it was really an amazing, fun place to be. So let's kind of go back in time, right? So the original Silicon Valley is called Silicon because of companies like Intel and some microsystems and Cisco. They were building actual silicon and microprocessor. So a very different kind of a culture. And you've always kind of had the hip culture up in San Francisco with Media Gulch. And there was a lot of early kind of web development companies. But Yahoo is right here in the middle of the valley, right? They weren't up there. So what were some of those cultural norms? And how do they communicate them? How do they build a company around them? So Dave Filo, I'm told, grew up on a commune in Louisiana and then came out to Stanford to get his PhD in electrical engineering. Jerry Yang was an immigrant from Taiwan who came here with his family at age 10 to San Jose. And they both met together and were getting their PhDs together at Stanford. And while they were kind of goofing off and kind of procrastinating and not working on their PhDs, they realized they had this new thing called the internet. There was a browser that the Netscape had built. And they were having trouble finding the websites that they wanted to find. And so Filo and Jerry, they just kind of created this hierarchy or this tree. And it's like, OK, this is a business site. This is a sports site. This is a travel site. And they kind of kept on filling it in. And people loved it. And they were crazy about it. So part of it was that Jerry and Filo didn't do this to start a business. They weren't sitting around saying, God, how can we become billionaires as fast as we can? It was purely a hobby, which became an obsession and was a passion of theirs. And from that, they created something as a gift to the world that became really amazing. And people loved it. And then, yes, they got investors and started building a proper company. But the whole approach of it was, let's create something really cool to help people out. And just their whole flavor, right? They have the purple. And even today, as I'm looking at people like you or guests, and you look at their LinkedIn, there's kind of a certain persona based on what people's personal emails are, whether they're kind of an MSN or an Outlook person. And then there's just a whole kind of class of people from the Yahoo days, where that was their primary URL. And then, of course, now we see a lot more of Gmail. But again, how do they communicate? How do they grow this company? You're 250, so still early days, but about four years into the process. And then how did it differentiate from what you're competing with? Because you had Andreessen coming in with Netscape and the IPO and all the hoopla around that. And then, of course, you had AOL back in the day, shipping CDs like there was no tomorrow to get everybody and really for a lot of people, kind of their first internet experience. And then Yahoo kind of moved the needle a little bit in terms of being almost like an integrated media company, not just kind of the closed, well, Garden of AOL. But then Netscape was really just a browser at that point. You used the browser to get to Yahoo. Yeah, exactly. You used the browser to get to Yahoo, and people realized that well, once you really want to go anywhere and do something, you need to, Yahoo is really good for that. I mean, and part of the culture of Yahoo that was special is you had someone like Philo, Dave Philo, who always wore jeans and a T-shirt who's often barefoot in the office, very low-key guy. He kept a sleeping bag like this. This was actually a gift to company employees at the holidays, 1999, and even got Philo's signature autograph here on it. Was that to take camping or to sleep in the office? Well, he used to sleep in the office all the time. And so did Jerry Yang. And because that was sort of part of the culture of Yahoo, so it was definitely having fun, it was being fun, being funky, but it was working very hard. But it was also a very egalitarian kind of culture. So if you were too much about title or hierarchy or pretentious or whatever, that wasn't cool. It really was about we're gonna work equally here. Anyone's ideas are valid. You have to really be able to defend your ideas very much in meritocracy in the best sense of the way for Silicon Valley. And also just keep it real, focus on creating a great user experience. The pages were created in a way that were very, very light so they could load very fast. And Yahoo wasn't trying to squeeze as much profit as it could out of every page. We figured as long as we created a great user experience, people would come back over and over again and that would make the company successful. Okay, so then you left? I left in 2001. Did a few things. Ended up at a company that got acquired back into Yahoo years later. So were Jerry and Dave still running the show when you got acquired back in? Yeah, so actually, so I said I went to a company called Blue Lithium, which was acquired by Yahoo in 2007 for $300 million. So when I started Yahoo in 97, I was employed to 58. When I left in 2001, there was about 3,500 employees. So that's sort of hyper growth. And then when it came back in 2007 through the acquisition, there was about 15,000 people there. And Jerry Yang was the CEO. The prior CEO, Terry Semmel, had left. Although those years were really tough from when the .com bubble burst in 2000, 2001. Throughout the 2000s, it was really a tough time. And then Jerry was the CEO. He's a really great guy. But I think he maybe was not the right person to continue to be leading as the CEO of the company. And then Carol Barth came in after that. So one of the topics we talk about quite often in theCUBE is kind of founder-led companies. And how do you properly founder lead? We see the aggressive moves by like Michael Dell, $46 billion take out of EMC. You know, Larry's still sitting in the cappered seat at Oracle and driving that bus. But, you know, jobs left and came back. You know, there's been all this kind of tumultuous change of the leadership and the direction of Yahoo. Are they a media company? I remember the guy came in from Warner Brothers. And it seems that they've continued to kind of stumble along trying to figure out what they want to be. At the same time, they had tons of users on the email service, still a ton of traffic. You know, so from your perspective, you know, what is kind of the cost benefit of the founder-led company, but also sometimes it's just not the right guy. So how does that guy or gal play a role, keep the soul of the company where it started and yet enable the company to grow and mature and develop to move beyond a 250-person company to a big global company? Yeah, well, I think it's extremely hard to do. I think that the leader who's able to pull that off is just fortunate and very talented and very skilled. Bezos, don't short Bezos, that's what I'm gonna say. And I mean, Jerry's an amazing guy, Jerry Yang, and I really like him a lot. But I think that perhaps Jerry was a little bit too nice when he became CEO. And by too nice, what I mean is I think he probably found it difficult to kill some of the pet projects that were all over the company. And someone needed to come in to be much more focused and say, no, no, no, no, no, yes, we're gonna place a really big bet on this. And that perhaps is Jerry's flaw. Although to give him credit, he's the guy who persuaded Yahoo to invest in Alibaba, which has been investment of the century. Right, right, better to be likely than smart is another one of my favorite things. But sometimes they pay, sometimes they don't. They didn't make the bet on Google, right? They didn't, they had early opportunities and the meme is all over the internet of the opportunities they had to buy Google, invest in Google, or eBay, or get taken out by Microsoft, I think it was 45 billion a few years ago. So, you just never know how these things are gonna work out. But just to kind of stick with the story, I remember distinctly when Google started to get some traction and Alta Vista was gone and Yahoo had won and Webcrawler got sucked into AOL and like, I think it was like us, there was a bunch of them. But the game was over, right? Yahoo had won, what happened? What did Google come in to do to basically undercut what looked like a finished game? I think Google did a couple things brilliantly, just amazingly well. So for one thing, and you're right, people did think that Yahoo was the big winner, they had fended off everybody else. But what Google did is they cherry picked the absolute most profitable and monetizable part of the whole value chain, which is search, right? Because Yahoo did search, but they did a whole bunch of other stuff as well. But if you knew that someone was searching for a digital camera or vacations in Hawaii or whatever, that was a very, very valuable instant that you could find that person and then bring them to your website to sell them something. And Google realized that's what they were gonna focus on. So out of all the stuff going on at Yahoo, Google realized that search was really where the money was at. That was one. Two, Google figured an amazingly scalable way to monetize that. And correct me if I'm wrong, I think it was a company in LA who kind of invented that model of, was it overture? I think? I think it was overture. So, but Google figured out that that's the model, that you create this platform and people are bidding for the keywords and it's a dynamic marketplace. And once they did that, that became infinitely scalable. They could build that all over the world in countries all over the world. And I remember actually working in 2003 in an office like a mile from here at a company and I wanted to do some advertising for this software company. And I went online to Google, I'd never been there before and I realized that I could run a credit card and I could run a $200 keyword campaign. It would be live within a matter of hours or maybe even minutes. And I could start driving traffic and see exactly what the ROI was of that campaign. I was blown away. And then I called Yahoo and I had to talk to a salesperson who didn't get back to me for three days and I wasn't spending enough money and they had no time for me. And this was in 2003. And once that happened, I realized, oh my God, Google is just gonna destroy Yahoo because they're better, faster, cheaper and amazingly scalable in how they sell advertising. And I think that's always, Google always had a very clear focus that we are an engineering company. We're gonna do everything that is massively scalable. And Yahoo never really kind of realized that. They were still kind of very much the 1990s in terms of their ad sales approach. Well, and two, their editors were still people, right? Wasn't that kind of the early days? Early days, yes. Yahoo's, people are driving what's on that tree and the recommendations that they're making as opposed to a machine. And that's a really interesting story, especially when you look now at what Amazon is doing and AWS specifically in the enterprise infrastructure space because it's the same, you just told the same story. You can swipe a credit card, you can have infrastructure up in minutes and you can start working. And even if you wanna call the other guys and you want to do it the old way, so we answer the phone, it takes a long time. Once you get through to them, it still takes a long time to spin up the instances. It's a completely different way and just as disruptive on that space as it is, in this instance, and then now we're hearing with the recent Walmart acquisition of Jet, it's really coming in hard on the retail side as well. So, Revenge of the Machines, I guess, continues as we just got back from Ford. They're talking about having an autonomous fleet vehicle ready in production by 2021, five years, kind of laying down the Apollo mission challenge, if you will. Yeah, amazing, amazing time. So then they kind of wandered and again, I remember when the guy came in from Warner Brothers, well, we're gonna be a media company and it just none of those other things really ever took and it seems to have just kind of bounced along and then the guys came back, went in, went out. Yeah, I mean, a media company is gonna get a valuation and a multiple, which is just not the same as an amazing technology company. I mean, just the economics of it are not the same. Right, right. And you can understand that someone like Yahoo would wanna be valued as a technology company, but when they're hiring people like Katie Couric and paying her a lot of money to do interviews, well, that's okay. That's nice, that's okay as a media company, but you're not gonna get a $100 billion valuation from hiring people and generating content that way. So I wanna just kind of go full circle here as we kind of run out of time. You know, you didn't motivational speak you're now about happiness, specifically happiness. And I wanna contrast that to where Samir had a quote, I don't know why she, she says she's working 130 hours a week for some odd number like that at Yahoo, for Lord knows how long, but you know, you do the math, that's not leaving much time for sleeping, commuting, going to the bathroom, or she also has a couple of kids. When you look back at kind of the happiness of the culture that was there, and now you look at this 24 seven, we're always connected. I was joking earlier, there's a great poster at the Computer History Museum next to the autonomous Google car. Well, what are they doing with the autonomous car? They're not on their phones, they're not doing email, they're playing Scrabble, it's a family Scrabble game on the autonomous car. One of my favorite pictures of all time. Now, what's gonna happen? We're just gonna work more, right? We're connected more. So when you look at the happiness equation and the happiness formula, share a little bit of your experience and what you share with people when you're out on your speaking circuits and your consulting. So I mean, what I say is that at a certain time it might make sense in your life for a new career to work very hard. Whether that's for a week or a month or a year or even a few years. But long term over the course of years and years and years, it's absolutely not sustainable. Your health will start failing. You will develop diseases or get ill or fall over from a heart attack or fall asleep behind the wheel when you're driving home at 1 a.m. because you've been working all day long. And that happens all the time. So I'd say if I think my approach is if you do work that you love it's better to go slowly in the right direction than fast in the wrong direction. And so maybe you don't get that promotion until you're at a company for three years rather than two years. Or maybe you're making $200,000 versus $150,000 or you're making 100 versus 80 or whatever.  I think Ariana Huffington wrote that if you come into work sleep deprived it's like coming into work drunk. So you can be there but you're not mentally at your best.  And pretty much there's a professor from Berkeley who says anything that's good in life is better when you have enough sleep.  All of those things are better when you have enough sleep like literally seven or eight hours a night. And if you do that, then when you're at work you're much more focused and you're not just trying to do all sorts of stuff. It's like, no, there's a lot of nonsense there. What are one or two or three things that are really gonna move the needle? And when you really focus on those then the other stuff doesn't matter. And so trying to work 130 hours a week I think is crazy. Yeah, but I'm sure people push back and say, yeah, Jim, that sounds great but I got a jam, there's an opportunity, I'm competing for a spot, whatever the reasons are. How do you respond to that?  I mean, I've done coaching with people where they're working from 10 in the morning until eight o'clock at night and they have a colleague that works until 11 every night. It's like, okay, you know what? If you wanna work until 11 every night and I go home at seven, all right, go ahead, you'll get promoted. But I'm gonna have a life, I'm gonna have my health, I'm gonna have my friends, I'm not gonna have a quarter-life crisis at age 26 because I've been working nonstop, 130 hours. Quarter-life crisis. 130 hours a week for year after year and people hit the wall and they just completely crash and it's not sustainable. So I'd much rather be going more slowly, do work that I love and then you're not just trying to retire as fast as you can. You actually could work until you're 50, 60, 70, 80 and be loving what you're doing rather than completely burning out and I mean, a lot of very miserable, unhappy people from the stress of working all the time. All right, Jim, well, we're out of time, I wanted to give you the last word. How can people reach out to you, learn more about what you're up to, potentially have you pay a visit to their conference or show their off-site? They can reach me at JimMcCarthy.com, so that's J-I-M-M-C-C-A-R-T-H-Y dot com. And send me an email at JimMcCarthy.com and they can find different images of me speaking and find out more about testimonials of my workshops and keynotes that I do. So I'm very grateful to be back here again, Jeff, and thank you for the opportunity. Pleasure, so thanks for stopping by and sharing some of your stories of early Ahu days. Thank you very much. Absolutely, so Jim McCarthy, I'm Jeff Frick. You're watching theCUBE, we're coming to you live from the Palo Alto studio. We'll be back with our next, I guess not our next segment, will we, guys? We'll catch you next time. Thanks for watching.


Superclusters are among the largest known structures in the observable universe. The Virgo Supercluster, also known as the local supercluster, is 110 million light-years in diameter. It contains 4,000 luminous galaxies organized into 100 galaxy groups and galaxy clusters. The Virgo Supercluster's volume is approximately 7,000 times larger than our local group. And 100 billion times larger than the Milky Way. For the first time, we are at a distance where we can see the galaxies are not just evenly distributed throughout space. In this picture, each galaxy is a point of light. And these points are crowded together into galaxy clusters. And these clusters are crowded together into galaxy clouds. And these clouds of galaxy clusters are grouped up into the supercluster. Let's take a look at some of the galaxies in the Virgo Supercluster.