All right Yeah, where do you feel like it started to really unravel? Well, I mean credit to Cowboys. We didn't do hardly anything. Well, we didn't play well as a team clearly Obviously the second quarter Michael That was I got to do a better job getting us prepared clearly We weren't prepared coming in here and we got avalanche in the second quarter and never recovered Well, I mean clearly as you see the game So it was responsible he falls on me Michael So I got to get this team ready to go. We're lucky it only counts as one and We got to turn around. We got to play a really good New England team That's on a roll in our home stadium on Thursday. So that's why I feel that way when you when you Score three points and you give up 43 It's a pretty bad day at the office, but you got to credit the Cowboys. Like I said, we were out coach now played What would your biggest point on the fourth yeah, so we wanted to be aggressive coming in here So where we were it's gonna be a long kick. I know it was fourth and seven But look looking at that at that point in the game. We knew what kind of offense. We were playing on the other side so made a decision to be aggressive obviously hindsight is 2020 and Clearly we didn't we didn't convert. We didn't get anything on the third down nor the fourth down and That's kind of where you know, they the momentum swung the other way And what did you say at halftime? What was the see if we can fight so like I said the third quarter Whatever it was, you know kind of malaise back and forth.  We know we got to play Thursday So that's why you get you saw a heavy dose of Rosen and Gaulman and those other guys when we realized it was not enough Possessions left in the game to go win. We know we got to get ready to play Thursday. So that's why a lot of those decisions for me Well, you know, we started out thought we were in a pretty good rhythm Obviously we stalled out there on the third and seven fourth and seven and then we had two quick third three and outs And it's all 11 of us. We got to get open versus man coverage. We got to protect and he's obviously gonna deliver the football So I think you could blame it on the whole team, you know, playing on a play call, whatever it is it's a whole team and That's what happened Arthur earlier in the year and talking about that week one loss against the Eagles. You said it kind of got away from us I didn't like the feeling on the sideline in the second half. Did you see any of that today? No, I mean, they just we just got Like I said at the second quarter, we got to have an inch. We never recovered, but I didn't see anybody give up I mean the one thing I didn't like at the end and I dressed it on the sideline I'll dress again tomorrow, you know, when you're in a kneel down situation I don't like all that back and forth.  There's no there's no I don't I don't want to see that And so that's been addressed on the sideline. It'll be addressed again tomorrow It's not gonna be difficult as the NFL these guys got a lot of pride. It's pro football. So It's certainly we welcome the the challenge the opportunity. We got a good team coming in here Thursday Or in Atlanta, what's that maybe this maybe this is more of a college thing But you were there any hangover from the way you guys one you would certainly hope not You know, you could make that make that argument again, that's that's falls on me I didn't do to get the team ready to go.  I thought we had a pretty good week, but I said the way the game started and then really that Second-quarter, it's hard to argue otherwise. So Again, that starts with me Yeah, I mean early down success is huge it's a difference right the first play the game We had Kyle on a crossing route for pretty big play get going there. Obviously stalled out You know kick the field goal come back down drive right back down and that's when it you know decided to be aggressive there and You know, then we had two more drives really kind of real time And they we didn't do anything on first down We had a penalty on one of them and they just kind of got away from us and you know I got to do a better job there look at you know, what went wrong why I went wrong What can I call better the next time, you know everything takes in their account? There were so many issues on third down today On both sides of all or what side of all I mean often offensively was where It was both sides of all I mean they converted some third down they converted a lot of fourth downs, too You know, you didn't feel that early Michael, but You know, we did like I said, you got to beat man coverage. They're gonna play a robber or two man You know, I threw a little bit quarters at us, but I didn't think we did enough job I got to watch the tape see what happened, you know Why won't get an open but from the sideline my snap judgment we we didn't do it enough to get an open protecting you name it After the after what happened today, do you look at maybe making some changes to starters to Every week it's always on the table. We've clearly been aggressive played a lot of different guys this season I mean everything's on the table and that's every week Michael. Well, you want to lose, you know We got to we got to look at this one. We got to turn the page really quick Because Thursday night will be here fast. Thank you


Hello and welcome to today's edition of Frightfully Forgotten's Trash or Treasure, but before we get started, what are we drinking? The Heretic Smoked Lager. Today, we're gonna be talking about 1974's Blackenstein. Yeah. A couple of years back, we did our top five underrated Frankenstein films, and it didn't make the cut, but it's still worth talking about. So, is it Trash or Treasure? This movie was directed by William A. Levy. Did a lot of exploitative- Soft-core porn, type stuff. John Hart is in this, and he did tons of TV and movie stuff, dating all the way back to 1937. And Ivory Stone is in this, and this was her only movie. Blackenstein starts off with our main character, Dr. Winifred Walker. She's visiting her old teacher from her university days, Dr. Stein. Of course, his name is Dr. Stein. He's doing some cutting-edge research. She tells him this tragic thing had just happened. Her boyfriend, Eddie, who went over to Vietnam, stepped on a landmine. He was horribly disfigured. He had his arms and his legs blown off. That's pretty bad luck. Like, jeez. All that's left is your dark soul. He shows her around his mansion. Some of these patients he's working on, research that he's doing, he's able to do some crazy things, like turn back the clock. He's got this 90-year-old woman who he's de-aged. A man who had lost a leg, and he had actually grafted on a new leg. And it's taken very well because of this special DNA serum. So Dr. Walker takes Dr. Stein to go visit Eddie in the hospital. Before they get there, poor Eddie is not feeling too well. He's got no arms or legs, and he's laying there. Could I have some ice cream?  Our taxes pay for you laying here eating our ice cream. So Dr. Stein asks Eddie if he wants to try this new procedure of actually grafting on new arms and legs. He actually is not really into it, but he goes along with it anyways, kind of for Winifred. So they take Eddie back to the laboratory, and it's all colorful, and there's all those sparks and everything. Like, you need that to reattach arms and legs. Oh, this is lightning. Eddie is slowly making a recovery. Dr. Stein pulls the blankets off, and limbs are growing back. Malcolm, however, seems to have gotten a hard on for this Winifred, comes out of nowhere. I love you. I've always loved you. I would do anything in the world for you. He's known her for like two days.  He really pisses him off to no end. Winifred is getting the last of the serum ready. Malcolm tampers with it.  Neanderthal, he has an eyebrow thing, and he starts growing all his hair on his hands. They keep him in the dungeon for no reason. It's all locked in that cage. Eddie ends up breaking out of his dungeon.  It's suddenly he's in a big zoo, isn't it? And his shiny boots. Those shiny boots already get those from in the dungeon. I don't know, but he's pretty stylish, though. That's where we're going to end the plot. But is Black and Stein trash or treasure? So let's get to the treasure first. The fact that they even made a movie called Black and Stein is pretty amazing. So I guess that's treasure. The use of lighting and shadows is really cool in this. I like the way they use the shadows to kind of harken back to the old 1930s Frankenstein movies, the shadow of the monster walking, because it didn't make it feel more like a Frankenstein film. And they use the shadows for the kills. They don't need to show the whole effect. The kills themselves are actually pretty decent, right? For the type of movie that this is. It's a very low-budget movie. So the effects, they're not overly flashy. It does work, right? We mentioned the shadows.  And the guts look pretty good, like when he tears the guts out of that woman, he's all, yeah, he's all kind of eating them. Another treasure for this film is the orderly. That actor who plays the orderly kind of steals the show.  And he's probably the best actor of the whole movie, too. Just that little five-minute bit that he has. The cheesy music, too, actually, is kind of a treasure for this. They're kind of using that old do-do-do-do-do. Yeah, that stock Transylvania-type music that they probably just ripped off of some other movies somewhere. Yeah, yeah, exactly. I wish it was more funky. Yeah. The music was more like, yeah. Which brings us now to the trash of Black and Stein. The acting is horrible. Oh, God.   The guy who plays Malcolm is so shitty. Like, there's no character at all. Even when he confesses his love to Dr. Walker, there's no emotion or anything. I love you. I've always loved you. And Eddie. Eddie, man, he's so bad. Could I have some ice cream? My throat's dry. Yeah. He's like, he doesn't look like he's in pain or anything. Like, the guy's got no limbs. No, no, he's just laying there.  Like, why did they cast this guy? It's not like he's even some big hulk of a man that, like, okay, when he is the monster, it works. You could have cast so many people in that role. It would have been 10 times better than, could I have some ice cream?  That would have been better than him. Even the way Black and Stein looks is goofy. You know, which I guess it kind of should be, because it's a goofy movie. But they put him in the Frankenstein outfit, like, at least make him more funky or something different. Something to make him a bit more memorable. Kind of cool boots, but that's about it all. The 70s boots, and that's it. Yeah, that's it. He kind of reminds me of one of those old cartoon characters, the gangsters, that have got the huge body and then they're freeing like that, you know? Yeah, that's exactly what he looks like. The pacing for this movie is just god-awful, too. Like, it takes way too long for any of you to turn into Black and Stein. It's like 40 minutes into the movie or whatever. Then when he does turn into Black and Stein, it's still super slow, because there's all that wasted time of him just... Yeah. Super long shots of him, like walking from one end of the room to the other. Like, you're gonna cut that like a long time ago. We know he's walking. Yeah, yeah. You just show him leaving the building. We don't need to show him going from room to room and down the stairs. And the funny thing is, because as slow as he is, how does he get everywhere so quick? I don't know. Like, suddenly he's just at that hospital. I don't know how far it is. It's like, at that speed, it would be like daytime by the time he got there. This is time for him to turn back around and go to sleep again. For a movie that's only an hour and 15 minutes, how can it feel this slow? It should feel like it's... Yeah, it's like hitting all the paces quick. And all that wasted time, like there's a scene in a nightclub where it shows this guy who's like kind of hosting the nightclub. Tell this super long, like five minute joke that's not even funny. And then it doesn't mean anything. It doesn't lead anywhere. It just goes outside and has a smoke. And like, that's the end of it. Like, what? Why do you even have it? You couldn't use those five minutes for something else. Yeah. The setting for the movie is not very inventive at all. It's kind of like they used somebody's house or whatever, right? Rather than trying to create sets. Editing and the structure of this movie is kind of all pissy. Like we said, that nightclub scene doesn't need to be there at all. But there's also scenes that kind of just suddenly they happen, you don't know how we got there.  Yeah. But how do they, you don't know how they got in that room together. She's already kind of unclothed already.  Like, how did we get there? And then suddenly Black and Stein's like on the stairs on his way up to go save her. But how did he know? And like, how did he get up to the stairs? Like it's like we missed a big chunk of the movie. Probably filmed it. Put in that nightclub guy by accident instead. Yeah. The footage they really needed. It was the guy's brother or something doing the editing. He's like, yeah, I'm gonna put him in. The ending is, it's almost pointless. It comes out of nowhere. Yeah, it's like they just have to wrap the movie up. Invokes no emotion whatsoever. Wagon shows up with dogs inside. And the dogs come out and just tear Black and Stein to pieces. Like, limb to limb. That's the end of the movie. It's like credit star. It comes out of nowhere. It's like what, they ran out of money or something? And like they couldn't finish filming the movie.  How are we gonna do it? I don't know, there's some dogs over here. Let's, like.   You know, the lovin' for life. Cause he's a monster now. There'd be some tragic thing. Ooh, you know. There's nothing. She's not even there. She's nowhere even near the scene at the end where he dies. These dogs just come and eat him and then, that's it. That's the end of Black and Stein. There's no closure with this ending whatsoever. No.  Black and Stein, Trash or Treasure? It's Trash. Black and Stein is Trash. The only reason I watched it the second time is for this review. If I didn't have to do this review, I would never have touched it again. I was intrigued by it. Well, me too. That's why I watched it a few years ago for the top five underrated Frankenstein movies. Got kind of intrigued cause I had never seen Blackula. I checked it out and yes, Blackula is much better than Black and Stein. So if you wanna choose between the two, throw this one away and watch Blackula instead cause it's actually pretty enjoyable. Way funkier, more fun, and it's just a better movie all around. Too bad Black and Stein was so bad that they didn't continue making these. Should have seen Blunch Black and Bloater Blame. I would have loved to have seen Blunch Black and Bloater Blame. Woo, funky. So until next time, keep drinking.


Okay, I've got about 10 minutes so my wife gets home with the kids and it'll be too noise to record any videos then So let's get this done. This video is part of a series on 2D game design If you haven't watched previous videos be sure to check out the playlist in the description of this video So far we have a very simple game with two players That move around the screen and you can jump and they collide with each other and with the bricks on the ground Now if you see I can jump or move left and right you can see that they move Identically let's give our players some custom values and there's different ways to do this I'm gonna try to keep it as simple as possible for you guys so we have our create player function here and we are The only variables that we're passing to it the only parameters are the x and y but we can pass other things Let's add another one here, and we'll call it j for jump And what we'll do here is we'll add to this function. We'll say the player dot jump So we're just creating this value here. We're gonna say equals j. Okay, so now Let's go up here and Add to where we create our players and give them different values. So I'm going to say comma and I Don't remember what values. Let's go 300. I think negative 300 because we want the moving up the screen comma negative 300 Well, let's give them different values. It's kind of the point So we're passing that now again as I mentioned and I'm kind of skipping over this just for simplicity reasons you really should do checks inside this function say Is x defined is y defined is j defined if not either completely x that of the function and cancel it or Set default values. We're not gonna do that right now And because I don't have time before the wife and kids get home Okay, so now we go to our player update function and here we have the jump function When you press up arrow and the player is touching something with its feet here instead of negative 350 what we can do is we can go P for that player dot jump and Now we're replacing that value with the value that we set when we created that player So now Save that refresh Let them both fall to ground if I press up. Ah You see one jumps higher than the other Look at that So now coming back over to our code Let's go back up where we're calling those we can create as many players as we want with different values for this So let me make this one 500. Let me make that might be kind of high, but we'll say 500 and we'll make this one 350 which was our original value save that f11 and Jump and now They can jump like this and I can have one jump on the other one's head now They both have left and right, but I can block him on the wall there and now Just like that Now they still move left and right the same so we can give them other values that we can change So let's go ahead come up here and just when you're doing this just try to make you know Your values something that isn't already defined. So real quick. We'll say player dot I'll just call it V for velocity and we'll set that to V So that players velocity will be whatever we set in V here And now we can come down here for left and right and I can say here negative player V and Here player dot V and of course we have to set those values when we create our players So I'm going to come up here create player comma, we'll say 150 comma and we'll say 200 so now if I did all that properly I should be able to refresh this and we can see Something locked up f12 Player not defined. Okay. That's because I said player instead of P down here And that's my fault for not being consistent with how I'm labeling stuff Because in this function play each player is called P because I just didn't want to play around each time Now let's try there we go now look at the player on the right It's moving faster than the player on the left. You can see he's gaining on him So there you can give each player Their own values when they're created and this is just one way of doing this That's it for this video. This is part of a series. I hope you're enjoying this series If you are think about becoming a supporter over at patreon.com. It's patreon.com forward slash metal x1000 And if you do become a supporter you get videos early because if you look at the playlist now You may not be able to see next week's video But if you are a supporter in the category for early releases you get all the videos at the beginning of the month and You can download them and watch them and and all that good stuff if you can't support me financially But you like my videos be sure to like subscribe Comment and share that's not only lets me know that you like this topic But it also helps spread my videos and gets me more viewers and I do appreciate that as always I thank you for watching and I hope you visit my website films by Chris comm that's Chris the cater Should be a link to that in the description as well. The wife just pulled on the driveway as always I hope that you have a great day


Hello everybody welcome back to another Dolby Premiere Pro 2022 tutorial and this one I'm going to show you how to record your voice in Premiere Pro by itself without any other software and I'm also going to show you how to do it without that echo problem. So here we go we've got some footage loaded in the first step is generally you want to hit this voice over record button right here on A1 or audio track one. Now when you left click on that you're going to see a countdown here we go watch this. Hey this is a countdown one two three just a countdown that hey this is a countdown that's it guys now the one thing I will make sure that you that you understand is if you go up here to your preferences if you're in a Mac it's under Premiere Pro preferences under in a PC it's under file preferences I believe go to audio and what you need to do is you need to make sure that this button here that says mute input during timeline recording is selected if you're having a an echo issue that is the only thing you got to keep your eyes out for other than that that's it guys thanks for watching ton more stuff coming up stay tuned


I just got through with my interview with Alan and gotta tell you, he's sharp and I just was on an interview earlier today with a person that has no idea about what we were talking about. He knows what we're talking about. He's on the cutting edge obviously and does a great interview. Can't be more impressed. When you have someone that knows background material, even though it's the first time we ever met, it makes the interview a lot easier because he knows where to guide it and he has enough information to make it really useful and interesting to his audience. So great job, great job.


Good evening. My name is Leslie Wingo, and I am the president and CEO of Sanders Wingo. Thank you so much for being here with us this evening. Almost a year ago, to the date, I had the wonderful opportunity of meeting my friend and colleague Mark Upton Grove. With my passion for equity, inclusion, and diversity, and Mark's incredible leadership of the LBJ Foundation, we began to engage in conversations around race and history and how we can encourage others to be in action to create a positive change within our communities. This change, he and I envisioned, moved beyond tough conversations and would give people practical solutions in this historic moment of racial justice. Over the last 12 months, with the help and feedback of so many people and so many organizations in Austin and the surrounding areas, we are honored to have you join us for the first of six virtual conversations on creating a path to racial equity. I would be remiss if I didn't thank the teams at both the amazing LBJ Foundation, Sanders Wingo, our partners, and of course each of you for engaging in this critical dialogue and making Central Texas a more equitable place for each of us. We are honored to have each of our conversations recorded and to be distributed through our local PBS affiliate KLRU and KLRU will share this series with its audiences in the coming weeks. What you need to know is that as a result, you will hear Mark and Glenn close out the conversation around the 25 minute mark and then there will be a short pause. After that, we will shift from Mark and Glenn, we will shift and have Mark and Glenn excuse me answer your questions. Another exciting opportunity I would love to share with you all is each of you are invited to continue this conversation with the Central Texas Collective for Racial Equity as they will host the path to equity the after show. Every Tuesday at 6 o'clock PM on Facebook Live and if you need more information just head over to Eventbrite. We are about to get started. We're very excited to be here and as we move through our discussions I invite you to drop in questions into the Q&A function at the bottom of your screen. We will do our best to answer as many questions as possible. Now, the moment I've been waiting for it is my honor to introduce two of the greats, Glenn Singleton, founder and CEO of Courageous Conversations, who will help us understand how to have these conversations with ourselves, our family and friends and with our work colleagues and our moderator and my dear friend, CEO of the LBJ Foundation, Mark up to grow. Thank you so much, Leslie and welcome everybody. We're delighted to have you with us this evening. Welcome, Glenn. So, and Glenn, you are the perfect person to start these conversations on race because you've been doing it for nearly three decades. For our audience, Glenn Singleton is the CEO of the Pacific Education Group, which is committed to achieving racial equity in the US and beyond. You founded the organization in 1992 and it includes Courageous Conversation, an award-winning protocol for effectively engaging, sustaining and deepening interracial dialogue.  You just moved to Washington, D.C., so you're in the midst, you're right in the epicenter of this great tragedy. But when you look at January 6, 2021, destined to be a date which will live in infamy, what do you think of? Well, I mean, literally just moved, Mark, and thanks for having me, thanks Leslie. Always a pleasure to be here with you in Austin. And three days previously to the events of January 6, I moved to D.C. And so two miles away from where I'm living is a visual that was captured on TV from me like everyone else that I just could not believe. And I'm one who has predicted that this would not be a peaceful transfer of power. But I couldn't help Mark but juxtapose what I was seeing to the memory of the Black Lives Matter protests that had just happened recently in the capital and knowing the importance of black people and other people of color, really fighting for a kind of essential, essential experience here in the United States. And then to see that fight for essential being and an essential belonging to be met by a militarized government. And so seeing the National Guard in D.C. and seeing all kinds of armed people who were to serve and protect us as if the Black Lives Matter protest was to be a violent kind of demonstration, which by no means was it planned to be nor did it become. And I juxtapose that to January 6 last Wednesday when I watched literally a group of people who looked completely different than the Black Lives Matter protest whereas Black Lives Matter protest was predominantly people of color but really was a multi racial voice in this country. And so we saw everybody whereas looking at January 6, this was white America. And this was an element of white America that this country refuses to acknowledge as present. And so watching these people scale the walls of the capital and and break through windows and and do all kinds of things that were, you know, not only illegal but just a real violation of what it is that we believe to be our creed here in this country. And to see that not met with policing, not met with a kind of militarization where that's where it was most appropriate. And so the juxtaposition of that to me told really the most basic and fundamental story of this country, where some are experiencing it from from an exceptional place they are seen as exceptional whereas others are striving to just be recognized as essential. So, despite this uprising that was incited by our own commander in chief, Joe Biden will be inaugurated as a 46 president of the United States next week. And in so many ways he owes his presidency to the black community was James Clyburn in South Carolina who mobilized the black community to support him and that really gave him the momentum to capture the Democratic nomination and ultimately the presidency. Do you have hope that the Biden administration will turn the tide on racism. Well, it's not going to take much to turn the tide. Okay, because we definitely need to go in a different direction, but definitely Clyburn and Stacy Abrams we'd be remiss to to not just mention that where we saw this change is a place where a whole lot of black people live. And so at the night of the election we are watching Atlanta we are watching Detroit we are watching Philadelphia and and these are places where black Americans have been and and have voiced a kind of desire for this country to live up to its own espoused value. That's it. And so this administration absolutely is needing to answer the call that that is represented by this vote that was cast by a whole lot of black people in the United States unprecedented numbers, as well as for those who cast a vote who are not black, but believe that we need to start hearing these black voices. We need to start listening to the Stacy Abrams of the world of the society of this country, because clearly they have an insight around things that need to be done here. Let's talk about the issues that we want to address as part of the path to racial equity and this is all about education and understanding. Before I talk about the steps that you have enumerated to that end, I want to talk about what led you to your vocation and advocation for having these courageous dialogues around race. I mentioned that you formed the Pacific Education Group in 1992. You've been doing this for nearly three decades. What led you to this line of work? Well, you know, Mark, I often talk about this in the numerous trainings that I've done in Austin.  And so my family decided and my mom led this charge that I needed to have a school experience that would give me the preparation and also give me an insight into the larger world that I was going to need to navigate. And so in a matter of months, I found myself in an all white school with all white teachers and right away I needed to learn how to negotiate my being in that environment. And it was a lot of bumps and bruises. I can't tell you the number of times that, you know, I was sent to the principal's office or, you know, I was in confrontation with my classmates. Because things were so radically different. And, and my classmates didn't understand me and I didn't understand them and, and all of us are relatively innocent in this, you know, but we needed to figure out how to have this conversation. So you sort of run that forward all the way through the University of Pennsylvania, where, you know, it's very similar. You know, I'm still my presence says we've got to talk about race. And the only way that we won't have that conversation is if I simply ignore the inequities that I'm seeing all the time and and I simply push aside the micro aggressions that that appear in what's passed off as a joke.  And, and so I had a kind of action research experience all the way through college and and all the way up to graduate school at Stanford where I said I've got to actually talk about how we talk about race. And so I began codifying this protocol for courageous conversation in seventh grade, but I published it in the early part of my career after being an admissions director at Penn, after working after knowing that in all of these spaces in for myself at home and at work, people needed a way to do this they wanted the how many folks knew that we had a why but they needed the how. So you have pioneered this area of talking courageously about race really nobody did this before you did. And you have enumerated for our audience, three steps toward better understanding people of color. And I want to use this time to talk about those those three steps and you begin with reflecting on race in your own life and I know from the conversations that you and I have had that when you did this with yourself it was a real journey to talk about that. Well, I want to say right up front that when you say nobody did it before me, you are absolutely correct in terms of, of creating an organization that is exclusively focused on race and and how it is that we engage in the race place to to become more effective in all parts of our lives. All of my ancestors have been in this struggle and and have added to a way of my understanding that we can do this we can have this conversation. We can actually achieve racial justice in this country, but we need a process and so this is the, the protocol for courageous conversation, if you will. This is taking the time to really reflect on what were those most effective conversations in my life and and where were the conversations that that didn't go so well what did I learn from them and and how would I do them differently again. And this is important because without this practice right there was definitely a passion around being in the race space and and feeling some efficacy and effectiveness there. That's absolute, but in order to get there I had to practice and in that practice I was going to make mistakes. I've lost friends, you know, I've not been invited to to to work in spaces because I needed to figure out how to bring my whole self in and and my skin comes with me right and and I know that when the skin comes, there is a reaction. And so I'm here to say, you know that that that we can step through this conversation and we start with self, then we go out to our friends and our family and and our closest circle, and through that we go off to work. So, so you keep on expanding the circle. That's a start with yourself. How do you start that conversation what does that dialogue with yourself look like. Well, the, the importance of recognizing that long before we get here Mark, we've been racialized, and so many events in our life have occurred through this prism of race. And so I'm giving people permission to recognize what was that first point of consciousness around race for you. Okay, and this self discovery about how I've been racialized and how these moments show up in my life have shown up and and how they contributed to events or experiences that I've had to shaping my beliefs and my perspectives. And so every single person has had racial experiences. And from those experiences, we have formed beliefs and perspectives about who we are in this racialized world, and who the other is. And so the first part is to just ask myself that question of, what does it mean, what does race mean in my life, and how did I arrive at that understanding what are those significant moments, what did they teach me, what beliefs do I hold now as a result of them. So what was the greatest revelation when you went through this exercise of self discovery. Well, one big revelation was that the insights, the consciousness that I was inviting myself into and and the literacy that I was applying to with the words the language wasn't something that was welcomed in the society that I was living. And, and so, not only did I have to figure out who I was, but I also had to figure out how to communicate that to people who did not wish to figure that out for themselves, and even not doing that wanted though to judge and describe me. And so the tension of knowing who I am, but having people who have power over me, teachers, bosses, you know, folks in a, in a random store that I need to engage with to, to buy a product. Okay, these people have made decisions consciously and unconsciously about who I am. And I needed to know who I am to form a kind of buffer, if you will, against that kind of perspective that's coming. And so knowing self is so critical. And, and when you know yourself, right, and I know myself, we can have a conversation about who we are. Then I take the onus also off of you to figure me out. Right. And if you can do that for me by by just exploring race in your life and what were those milestones and what did you learn and believe and and and come to understand from those now we can have a conversation. And your understanding of that trajectory and my understanding of that trajectory probably won't be the same. But that's the essence of the conversation now. So the notion of color blindness is a fallacy. Is that fair? Absolutely. We don't go into society blind to color. But however, I am a white person who has grown up with privilege. I don't think a lot about race. It doesn't come into my life as often as it might yours. So how do I start that dialogue with myself as a person who is not a person of color? Right. Well, well, I think one of the reasons that courageous conversation is so important is because we actually go at some of these descriptions like color blindness. It would make sense that that confuses you because really you are not blind to color.  Okay.  And so we should have called it white blind. Right. Because it's not recognizing how whiteness plays out. Because for a person of color, it's virtually impossible to not see color and to have an illusion that you're not seeing race because we need to see our racial experience in order to survive. I need to know that when I'm interacting with a person who does not have my racial experience, there's a high likelihood that they're going to misunderstand, misjudge my expression, my interaction. And my desires. And so if I understand that, then I can make sense of the circumstance going on. But to be white in society does not require that you figure out if this is a safe space for you to be in physically, emotionally, spiritually. Right. So if step one is reflect on race in your own life, step two is seek other perspectives and you just alluded to them. Talk to family and friends and then expand the circle to colleagues. So let's start with family and friends. How do you approach those conversations? Well, it's critical that we start here also because these are the people who have been with you the longest, right? And these are the people who have developed some capacity to let you be a learner in their presence. And so as you are discovering how race plays out in your life and you're talking about the beliefs that you form as a result of these racial interactions, your family is going to be those who are most likely to have some connection to the experiences that you're talking about. They too will have perspective and belief versus a stranger. And the scenarios and the experiences are different. This is also true with your friends. And because we are all different, we human to be human is to explain diversity. So no two people, identical twins growing up in the same home are going to have the identical experience and perspective. But it's going to be as close as it can get in that household or in that circle of friends that we've curated. And so that's where we start to test this idea of multiple perspective. Because we have to be prepared for the multiple perspective and not allow that to cause us to disengage from the conversation. OK, so let's talk about those perspectives which are racist. And there are so many families where you have uncomfortable conversations at Thanksgiving and it's because of those very different opinions that you alluded to earlier. But there are racist members of our families and there are racist friends we have. How do you confront that?  Yeah, there are a couple of stages with this. Many times people want to go right into confrontation. And sometimes people who have these ill formed prejudices and in the form of race, this racism that they begin to express versus a more tacit, unconscious that doesn't come out in epithets and things like that. First thing is you want to simply indicate that you don't share that perspective. And that right away changes the direction of the conversation. Because the person doesn't have an ally in the perspective anymore. There's a competing understanding. The second thing you want to do which is really hard for people sometimes is to have that person make deeper sense of what it is that they're espousing. Because what we know about race is that it is a social construction, it's made up. And it is one of the most problematic falsehoods that have been put into the human imagination. And so the belief that people have walking around that there's a superior body of people because of their complexion. That is deeply problematic and it is wrong. There's no truth to that. And so if I pursue you long enough in terms of your ideology that's espoused as racist, you're going to run into a wall. You're not going to be able to defend it. So I have to have the fortitude which goes back to the first thing of understanding who I am in this. There's no way that your racist ideology is going to impact how I think about my own capability.  And so if I can engage with you in terms of your perspective rather than trying to force mine on you, then you're going to exhaust yourself in terms of wisdom, in terms of truth. Because there is no truth in racist ideology. So as a practical matter, how do you begin this conversation? What words do you use to elicit from somebody their view on race? A friend or family. So you're in a safe zone here. We're about to get to work colleagues which is not as safe as zone. And we'll talk about this as it relates to that as well. But how do you enter into this conversation in a non-confrontational manner? Well, the first thing we want to do, and this country when we talk about the road ahead for us, we have collectively lost our love for humanity. And inside of humanity comes the fact that each of us, each of us lacks perfection. We all make mistakes. And so a form of racism shows up in every single one of us and we have to recognize that. When I moved from Philadelphia to Los Angeles and my whole paradigm was black and white because that's all that I engaged with. Before I came to Philadelphia, before I got to seventh grade, my whole paradigm was black. And so for many people their whole racial paradigm is their own race. And when they step out of that paradigm, which is something that we hope people would do, step out of that familiar circumstance, you're going to make mistakes because you don't know. And each of us has to continue to touch that point in ourselves. So that when we're talking to the person who is so openly and outwardly racist, if you will, we have to touch the point where we are in that space of ignorance. So what was I like when I first encountered Latino people in Southern California? How did I make that connection between my friend Fernando at the University of Pennsylvania who's Puerto Rican and, you know, my friend Marco in LA who's Mexican-American and just put them all together, right? Those were my indications of racism because I live in a society where it's not important to get the differentiation of people of color and understand their history and their perspective. So I applied it to other people of color. That's how people of color do it. And white people in America live in this intense racial segregation in their homes and communities and their recreation and their schooling and so forth. And so when they step out of that, they're going to make mistakes. And each of us, if we can remember how it felt to make that mistake, that's how your Uncle Charlie is sitting at the Thanksgiving dinner table feels. Also, he's making a mistake. He's terrified in so many ways. He has no grounds really to stand on to support it, but this is an ideology that he's brought from his experience. So you want to challenge Uncle Charlie with compassion. How did you know about my Uncle Charlie? So we start this dialogue without any hesitation. Uncle Charlie. So we start this dialogue with ourselves. We expand it to family and friends. And now we go to work colleagues. And this is where it gets a little more uncomfortable. So and let me go back to the question I asked you about family and friends. How do you enter into that dialogue? And let me just talk about my own experience. Again, I am white.  I am because I'm essentially saying to that person, they're a person of color. And I want to talk to them about that.  Well, remember where we started. So if you come to me, Mark, and we're going to talk about the events of January 6, 2021 in the United States. And you start. So what did that feel like to a black person? That's not going to work out. You need to start with your narrative then. And you need to let me know that you've spent some time figuring out who you are in this matter. Otherwise, everything I share with you is subject to your distortion because you haven't figured out what are the frames and what are the sort of criteria that you're passing truth through or making sense of what is true. And so you don't start with asking the other person to tell their story. And that's what happens so often in the workplace. We're requiring that people who are already struggling to have a sense of belonging, the organization is now saying to them, but tell us who you are and how you feel and what does George Floyd mean to you? The very people who are asking those questions, you need to start with what does George Floyd mean to you? You start with your personal narrative.  And that gives you an invitation to enter into this conversation in a non-confrontational way. Is that fair? Absolutely. And if you don't start there, if you start with me, I'm going to have you start with you. I'm going to indicate to you with all compassion, Mark, that yeah, I've had this conversation many times and I'm eager to have it with you. And in order for us to have this conversation, first tell me what's going on for you with this. Where does the conversation come from? What were your experiences that led you to whatever perspective you have? Let me hear that first, then I'll know how to enter in with you. And how do you sustain that dialogue? Because it's not just one conversation. It's a fluid situation and you want to be able to return to that. So how do you do that, Glenn? In terms of sustaining it, multiple perspectives is what makes these conversations interesting. And so why it is that people of color can keep having these conversations. One is because we have to. We have to develop intelligence about how the world is, how our society is about race. And we recognize that. The other reason is because there is extraordinary diversity within groups of color. And so just because my skin is black and my mother's skin is black, that doesn't mean that we arrive at the exact same perspective. And we find those perspectives interesting. So if we take that same understanding, right? White people will exist in this country in a far more sort of grounded and just a complete way. If you didn't have to walk around worried about being called racist, if you didn't have to tiptoe around what word to use and all of those things, white people carry that. And that is because of a fundamental laziness that occurs in terms of developing your own insight and understanding around race. If you just accept that race matters to you, it's important for your livelihood, for your family to really develop consciousness and to understand the diversity of racial perspective among white people. Then when we arrive together, you bring that with you. That's what makes the conversation interesting. So we started with reflecting on race in your own life as the first step. Step two is seek other perspectives. Let's talk about that last step, which is acknowledging and addressing your own biases. This seems like a hard one. How do you do that? It is because we live in this society where you can poll any organization and ask them, is there racism in this organization? And for the most part, people will say, yes, there's some. Some people will say, extraordinarily, there's tons of racism around. But if you ask people, well, who are the racist? Nobody. So how do you have racism without racism? And this is a key piece here. And then therefore, what do we mean by racist? And this is the third level because you're not ready to have this conversation if you haven't explored race in your life. And now we're going to talk about racism and racist, which is where the bias actually means something because there's now power associated here. And so in our societies and how race is described on this planet Earth, in this year of 2021 is that there is a bias towards white. In terms of the images, we're presented for beauty and intelligence. In terms of who we know will be present when there is power at the highest level of organizations from schools all the way through to our Fortune 100 companies in the country. You see white. You also have a culture connected to that advantage, that head start that has occurred in this country for white people with rights, with possibilities that were not afforded to others. And so that head start has formed not only a way of going about the day, but some beliefs about what's occurring in that day. And I have to assess as a black man, what is my relationship to that whiteness, to that image, to that culture of how we go about things, to that mindset, that belief system that comes from people generally who haven't spent a lot of time having the kind of conversation we're having now. I want to edit. I mentioned you've been doing this for 30 years, nearly 30 years. Are you more or less hopeful about the issue of race in America than you were when you started the Pacific Education Group in 1992? More hopeful. What I am is in belief that we are still experiencing racial progress, right? And even, you know, some of the unbelievably horrific images that we saw on January 6th in this country. I am a great fan and person of study to look at the John Lewises and to look at the Dorothy Heights, to look at the Cesar Chavez and the Dolores Huerta, to really see people who have been in a struggle. And through that struggle, they have seen all kinds of gains, but each of them has transitioned, or some of them have transitioned to places where they would recognize that there's so much more to do, but we've come a long way. And so as I can say that my experience is so much more open and available and just than my grandfather's experience was. He coming up from the South and running away from the violence of the Klan that killed his brother, right? I am aware of the police brutality and how it is that we have these issues that are still so present. But at the same time, there is no way that I would want to go back and live that experience that my grandfather had. And that marks to me that we're making progress. Now, hope is a different thing, right? Because hope rests in the willingness of the people to actually push forward and to improve the conditions going on, to do our part, to take responsibility, to recognize that this is going to be intellectually taxing. This is going to be emotionally draining. I'm going to be fatigued. But that's very much a part of this human experience as well. If we're not really fighting for something, then do we have the right to expect a better day? And now we're going to take your questions. Glenn, you can see by the way why Glenn Singleton is the absolute perfect person to enter into these series of conversations we're going to be having on race. I'm already seeing comments, Glenn, about how much folks appreciate what you're saying. All right, we have a number of wonderful questions here and they're being texted to me. So you'll forgive me if I fumble this. On the subject of knowing ourselves and our own relationships with race, what are some tools that might be available to those of us who may feel like they need help along the way in our journey? Well, the tools are right there for you. You have these artifacts called photo albums and yearbooks and you have these milestones in your life connected to institutions. So you get to open up your memory. I think this is a very healthy process for us anyway because it's mind expanding. Just to take yourself back to that first moment where you knew race was real. And so what came of that for you and what beliefs came out of that and then go to the next milestone. And so they're these very personal ones and then they're very public ones. When I moved to LA in 1990, the very next year, we found ourselves in this crisis because of Rodney King. And then the OJ Simpson trial. So these are racial markers in our society and so much of our society has taught us to sort of stuff that away as soon as we can. And in the modern world, the new cycle is even shorter. So it gives us permission to forget about January 6 because we're on to the next thing. I'm asking us not to do that. I'm asking us to market. I'm asking us to create a journal and really explore who am I in that matter. I need to look at the fact that, you know, when Rodney King was severely beaten by those police officers in CME Valley and it was all over TV. That brought a kind of rage for me. It also brought an insecurity. I was out in LA and I didn't know those roads. So I was afraid to drive. I was afraid to go out. I didn't know the proximity from CME Valley here, but I really did have some beliefs about law enforcement really become deeper in my spirit of my belief. And I have to own that. So I'm digging out of that Rodney King experience still in my life. Right. Because there's no moment where I mark on my whole racial timeline, my autobiographical sketch where I see myself developing this radically different idea about policing. Yeah.  So we have these personal artifacts and we have these very public moments, you know, how you functioned around 9 11. Okay. These big moments in society.  Okay. These are not private conversations. These have been, they're occupying space in your life. So actually get into your life and recognize how you formed around these ideas. Fabulous. Next question.   Yeah. So there is a whole lot of conversation about when we are showing up as people who are just intolerance, intolerant of difference. And when we need to pay attention to these ideas of self care. Right. So I can't have a conversation with everybody and I have to recognize that. And sometimes I just need to say, you know, I don't have the skills nor the capacity to go with you in this conversation and I remove myself. Hmm. Now, if I hear myself saying that too often, that means that I need to develop a higher level of skill and capacity. So I would say that more often if I'm not doing my own homework, my own personal work around this. Right. The second thing that that that can recognize for you is how are you choosing the environments that you put yourself in. Right. And so if this is happening so often, then this is back to you. You need to ask a question of why are you always in those environments? Why are you always around those people? How do you, how do you just getting another one here? Can you speak to the consequences of internalized racism and why it is important to acknowledge and understand its impact on communities of color? And I apologize. These are things are coming in a mile minute. And I'm glad you got to this one. Good. It goes to it goes to my first person. Right. Internalized racism is something that is known to every person of color. Right. And it starts with a recognition that communities of color have been deprived and depossessed of so many artifacts. So they're cultural and so forth. And so our living conditions as people of color is absent of what is fully possible. Okay. And I'm talking may in the material world. Right. And so internalized racism sets in when I start to have doubts about my own capacity about my own belonging about my own image. Okay. And that starts to play out in how I see others like me. Right.   Right. Right. Right. That is the indication of heightened internalized racism. You don't like yourself. So you're not going to like others who remind you of yourself. Right. Now this is important because if people of color turn against people of color, then we're giving permission to all of those who are not of color white people to continue to maintain. Their own beliefs about how we're less than. And so it is so imperative that in the point of self, we learn to love self. We learn to discover the talents, the brilliance of self. And I think about this as we instruct teachers, you know, it's so important that we help teachers to help kids of color to see this beauty and brilliance in themselves. Because society tells them otherwise. But if you notice that that child of color is not wanting to be around other children of color that grown up is not wanting to be around other people of color. There's something about self identification. Without question. This is a wonderful question. What suggestions do you have to keep emotions or reactions in check when we have these conversations? How can we put them aside in order to have the dialogue? And that's particularly important when you're talking to the Uncle Charlie's of the world. Right. How do you keep from being too emotional in order to not have a constructive healthy dialogue? Well, I developed the courageous conversation compass just for this. Right. And one of the quadrants of the compass is feeling. And this is where our emotions sit. Another part is our morality and beliefs. Another part is our thinking and our intellect. And another part of it is our social acting aspect. So in the feeling quadrant, right? First and foremost, we want to acknowledge whatever feelings we have and that they're true and that they're real. There is nothing wrong with it. We live in a society that's quite often wanting to say that you are too emotional. And that's already a relative. Who am I too emotional compared to? You got to have a comparison there. And so there's no such thing as two of that.  Acknowledge it. But recognize that you get to respond to the racialized situation. Not only through one aspect of your being, your feelings, but you get to respond through a variety of aspects of your being. And we shape out three others in addition to the feeling quadrant. I'm that person. I enter in through the feeling quadrant, right? But I recognize that when I get pulled over by the police, okay, my feelings aren't necessarily going to lead me to the best end. And so I need to honor those feelings. I'm feeling put on it. I'm feeling in just injustice in my face. I'm feeling angered by this. Okay, recognize it. And into my thinking quadrant. How do I maneuver this situation so that we all get home safely? Right. And so my intellect kicks in because my morality, my beliefs also of what matters most here. Okay. I live in the United States of America where we are still grappling with this issue of police brutality as experienced by people of color, particularly black men. And so my belief has to be not being right or wrong here. My belief has to be safety. What's the safest thing? And then my acting. Okay. And so you can see now that my emotion is still there. Okay, but I've distributed my response through the rest of who I am. That's critical. We call that getting centered, right? And so recognizing that I have all of these ways of responding. I need to activate my full self, not just one part of myself. I honor what that part is. That's the initial or the, the pronounced part. And I keep building myself into the situation to get centered. This is a commercial for my friend Glenn Singleton, but I have had the great privilege of attending a courageous conversation workshop here at the LBJ library. There are a number of, this is the, the home of courageous conversation here in Austin, Texas, because we appreciate and support what, what Glenn does. But if you have not had an opportunity to participate in a courageous conversation workshop, I would wholeheartedly recommend it. We have time for a couple more questions, Glenn. One is, are there books or websites that you would recommend for reading, especially for white people to help us better understand the topic and approaches and skills to improve our ability to understand ourselves and our society? Absolutely. No author starts this conversation without recommending their own book. There's another commercial here. I first and foremost recommend reading courageous conversations about race, a field guide to achieving equity in schools. And don't be thrown by the schools part. We are all connected to schools. We're all connected to education. That's our start point here, right? And so that is a conversation about how we do this conversation. The other thing though that I think is important is to read stories about an experience or a perspective or a theory connected to your own racial identity first and foremost. Right? So the key is understanding self. Because if you go into, as a white person starting out with Toni Morrison, you're going to have to make sense of an experience that's not your own without recognizing what would have your own experience been in that scenario. Right? And so it's really critical to look at those stories like white like me to, to explore, you know, my friend, Tim Wise wrote some books. You know, Robert Jensen has written some books. There are a variety of white people who are writing about white racial experiences critical to read. Okay. Just as there are lots of Richard Delgado and a variety of people of color who have written about specific racial experiences. The book by Harry Woo Yellow is, you know, one of the most important books that I've read, but I couldn't understand that experience for Asian American people without understanding how I use my own framework of the black experience to make sense of it. And I need to know when I'm doing that. And if I don't know my primary experience, I will distort everybody else's. Our last question, Glenn, we have conversations about whether or not you're discriminating racism or undoing racism. Is that possible? I submit that racism like any other addiction can only be mitigated or controlled. Yeah. You know, I've, I'm of the school of critical race theory and Derek Bell put forth the idea of the permanence of racism. And so I never set out to eliminate. What it feels like to greatly reduce racism in the environment. And I know what it feels like when we're all working together towards elimination. And so the towards is a key piece here. That's the North Star. Right.  Okay. And that set the stage for me to understand this conversation. And I think it's really important to have a conversation in courageous conversation called non closure. Right.  Right. And if we change the goal from completion to extraordinary improvement, we get to celebrate along the way. Glenn, I know I speak for Leslie and all of our colleagues here at the North Star. I know you have a lot of great work to do with racial equity, but for the sensational work that you do around this. Thanks so much for being with us tonight. Thank you, Mark. Always a pleasure. And thank you all for joining us. We look forward to seeing you next Thursday when Leslie will conduct a conversation with Paniel Joseph about how we got here. Thanks, everybody.


Everybody, Matt here for Layton Sports Cards. Ripping three boxes for Steve S. We have one box of 2019 Bowman Chrome Baseball Hobby, one box of 2023 Tops Chrome Baseball Jumbo, and one box of 2023 Tops Pristine Baseball. All right, here we go. Good luck. Let's start off with Pristine. Nothing in queue after this. If you want something ripped, grab it up. Ernie Banks and Veritech, Francisco Alvarez, Rookie, Pagaro, and Albert Pujols, going, going, gone. This is Willie McCovey, blue Pristine to 75. I'll see some big gifts for you, Steve. It's from Vervez and Boba Chet, that's blue. Nice blue Jays color match to 75. One of 75. Oh, snap. Shohei Otani. There's J-Rod, Pristine. I hope you all are snapping along at home. Vicky. Vicky. There's an Adley Rookie Refractor. Behind that. Nice, popular demand. Game used, Jersey Otto Nolan Ryan. Nice. This is 15 of 15. Wow. Nice, low numbered, game used Jersey Otto. That is the pink parallel. Awesome hit, congrats Steve, we'll mag that one for you. Shohei Otani, going, going, gone. There's Miguel Vargas. Rookie Pristine to Otto to 99. What's up, Michael? On our Otto Refractor in Jeter Downs, Rookie Purple Refractor to 99. Michael Harris, Rookie. Awesome, thanks Jay, appreciate it. Bobby Witt. This is Orange Pristine to 25, Shane Bieber. That is 23 of 25. Good box here. Let's make it a great one. Miguel Vargas, Rookie Refractor and Tiasca Hernandez. Yeah, sad situation, super nice guy. Oh snap, Gold Refractor to 50, Bryce Harper. Nice. 15 of 50. David Ortiz, going, going, gone. And Givero Moreno, Rookie Pristine Refractor. Mookie Betts and Gold, Spencer Torkelson. This is eight of 50. There you go, nice torque. Shohio Tani, going, going, gone. This has been a really good box. Yeah, Von Grissom, Rookie Otto to close it out. Good box. Now let's do a 2019 Bowman Chrome. It's here, man, thank you so much. Appreciate it. Thank you so much. I did not eat breakfast, so I'm pretty excited. It has arrived. I might, I might have to stack them. Garcia, Francisco Morales, Swaggerty, Laureano and Barucki. Wow, let's see some Vlad, some Tati, some Alonzo. There's a Luba, Kukuchi, who else is there? Kyle Tucker, Andrew Kisner, Austin Riley Rookie, the Grom. Now he might put it together. This is Jose Devers, Purple Refractor to 250. Aranado and Kibum. First bowmanado, Miguel Heraldo. Yeah, what'd they get, what'd they get for him? They traded him, right? Gregor Adolfo, Julio Pablo Martinez, Kyle Tucker, Rookie and Alex Bregman. John Duplentier, Rookie Purple to 250. Jake Cave, pretty high traffic, right? What was that, 2018? Heraldo Christian Pache and Purple Shimmer, Joe Adele. Tukitoussant, Kubee, Nolan Gorman, Stat Tracker, Hera, Michael, or I'm sorry, Mitchell White, Refractor to 499. Marten Senzal, Florial, and Isiah Gilliam, first bowmanado. Danesby and Rizzo. Last pack, let's finish with a nice parallel here. Tommy Wilson, Bo Nailer and Victor Robles, Refractor to 499. India and Kristen Stewart. Which of the Twilight movies is your favorite? There's 23 tops from Chumbo. You know that scene in Moneyball where they're going over who they want? If Brad Pitt goes none of them, that's me. Well, my favorite Twilight is number five. Why is that? Because it doesn't exist. Spencer Steer, J-Rod. I should have said that. I should have said that. That's much better. Josh Young, Rookie, Tray Turner, non-Rookie with the Rookie logo. Shane McClanahan, Prism, and Clayton Kershaw, Refractor. What about Pitch Perfect? Those are good. They're solid movies. Yeah, they're good. I don't mind saying it in a complete sense. They're good movies. I am a Pitch Perfect fan. It's Mark Fientos. Logan Ohapi, Oscar Quinn, solid. Peter Lanzo, 88. You were proud. You were like, I'm a Pitch Perfect fan. Rookie Otto, Mark Appel, and Wilson Contreras.  They are. They are. They're entertaining. Kyle Stowers, Matt Olson. Which one do you like better, the first or the second one? Probably the second. Second. Chris Bryant, negative Refractor, Mike Trout-Titans, and Josh Smith, Rookie Refractor. Probably gonna go second as well. Yeah. Holiday. Jordan Walker, Rookie. Oswald Paraza, 88, and Shintaro Fujinami, Rookie Prism. Sam Miranda, Y'all Vargas. Hunter Green, Future Stars. Hunter Brown, Rookie Prism. Hunter Green, Hunter Brown. Hunter Blue. See some nice color coming here. There's Riley Green, Rookie. Goldie and Goldie. This is Blue Ray Wave, Rookie Otto to 150. Egya Rosario. What do you guys? Marte. Aka E. Aka, excuse me. Juan Soto, Technicolor, Bo Bichette, and Rookie Refractor, Joey Meneses. Oh, you didn't like Doth's Sound Machine, the beatboxers, New Age acapella. Aaron Judge, 88. Alex Kahl, Rookie Prism. I mean, Clay Mathews is in the second one. Two beats out one because one has a, there's Kodai Senga, Rookie, a surprise moment seen at the beginning. Blue Sonic, Blue Bob to 125. Nick Prado, it's a Rookie Prism and James Altman, Rookie Refractor. I think they should have a filter where it can like give you a warning if that's gonna happen. Wander Jose Ramirez and Purple Speckle, Rookie Otto to 299 Drew Waters. Spencer Steer, Rookie Refractor. A couple more boxes in queue. There's Francisco Alvarez. So just a queue of two after this. Christopher Morel, Nolan Gorman, Rookie. CJ Abrams, Future Stars in Kershaw. There's a Refractor of Vlad Garcia and Meyer. Marte, Gabriel Moreno, Rookie 88. Max Meyer, Rookie Prism, and Key Brian Hayes. And that'll do it for your break. Appreciate it, Steve. Get these right out to you.


Welcome to JSA TV, the newsroom for tech and telecom professionals. I'm Jamie Scott-O-Kataya, here on the floor of Telecom Exchange NYC 2016. Joining me here today is Phil Koblenz. He's the COO of New York Internet. Phil, welcome to JSA TV. Thanks for having me, Jamie. So tell us about all your array of solutions, particularly what makes you different from your competitors. Sure, so NYI is a data center provider. And frankly, these days, what we're trying to articulate as our differentiator is a conversion of the data center facility to a solutions facilitator. So it's much more than simply a commoditized based resource. You know, what we're trying to do is really cater to our customer's ability to seamlessly handle the logistical hurdles of operating infrastructure so they can focus on their core competencies. Yeah, and when I think of NYI, I think of customer focus. You know, everything you do is driven by what your customers need. And clearly in all avenues of solutions you provide, you know, that's the overarching theme, if you will. Yeah, absolutely. I mean, the bottom line is that, you know, there are all sorts of managed services that we provide on the hardware side, on the software side, all the way up through the application. And the idea of the NYI technicians having that capability 24-7 is something that's available to our customers, whether they avail themselves of it initially or not. So just simply by virtue of being an NYI customer, you have access to, you know, a level of capability that you just don't with some of our competitors. And what I love, particularly by infrastructure solutions, is this hybrid capability, how clients can leverage NYI to protect their operations. Can you tell us a little bit more about your hybrid solutions? Sure, I mean, I think at this point, the way people look at their overall application is that there's going to be a piece of it that is reliant and makes sense to a public cloud deployment, whether it be AWS or Google Compute or Azure. There's a component of it that might be more relevant to, say, a private cloud solution like our VMware-based private cloud. And there's clearly still some applications, whether they be legacy or particularly processor or memory-intensive, that lend themselves to a co-located or bare-metal solution. And having the ability to manage all three of those things under one roof is incredibly useful in streamlining how solutions are delivered to our customers. So when you talk about something like, you know, a hurricane season or that, being able to certainly mix and match those services and deploy either locally within one of our facilities or use our relationship with Megaport to have direct AWS connections and migrate workloads to a public cloud environment or leverage our private cloud resources in one of the other seven facilities around the country that you can avail yourself of simply by being under the NY umbrella is incredibly useful. And you no longer have to worry about, you know, theoretically seeing how these facilities perform because in 2012, there was a Superstorm that showed you exactly what would happen in these types of scenarios and we performed beautifully. Otherwise, I wouldn't bring it out. Exactly. So what type of customers do you usually cater to? I'd say it runs the full gamut. Obviously in every vertical, there are customers that require infrastructure solutions these days. I think we tend to have customers in the technology field. You can call it Web 2.0 or 3.0 or whatever version they're claiming these days that may be started in an AWS or a public cloud environment and are now realizing that that's not necessarily the most cost effective way to continue their growth with their consistent workload. So that's a huge area of growth for us. There's also education, healthcare and legal services that all have stepped up their adoption of digitized elements of their own infrastructure and they have substantial compliance requirements that lend themselves to a data center environment. So my last question, but I love when I have my C-levels up here next to me because I like to hear their vision for the company. So if you were to peer into your crystal ball, what's in store for NYI in the next six to 12 months? Yeah, I mean, I think we're going to continue this trend to start taking ownership of more and more of the services within our data center that aren't in the wheelhouse of our customers. So as we continue to see areas where they struggle to keep up with the emergent technology demands of their own applications, we're going to continue to assist them in leveraging the data center and making the most cost effective decisions from an actual solution standpoint rather than just an ease of implementation. It's all about kind of bridging that gap between some of the logistical hurdles that come along with infrastructure and allowing our customers to really get the best of both worlds. And for our viewers who want to know more information. www.nyi.net. I can say that's a beautiful website. It is beautiful. So nyi.net, check it out. Thank you, Phil, for joining us. Thanks for having me, Jamie. And thank you viewers for tuning in to JSA TV.


Good morning, John. It's Friday, and I'm just gonna go ahead and admit this, even though I've talked a lot about it, I'm pretty sure I don't know what burnout is. I thought I did.  And, okay, that is a kind of burnout, but I've also seen and experienced burnout where I continue to work through the burnout. I've been burned out on one part of my life, but not another. So then I'm like, is this just stress? I know the feeling I'm feeling. Is burnout? Is that what everybody else means? I had a really good conversation this morning with Mark Rober, in which we talked a lot about the neurotransmitters responsible for making us feel like our lives are rewarding and how they and the things that trigger their release are ultimately responsible for us doing anything. And then he said this to me, burnout is when the treadmill keeps going, but the dopamine runs out. So you just keep running, even though it doesn't feel good anymore. That is another kind of burnout, and that made me think a thing. So let's start with this. To get anything done, you need fuel and you need the opportunity to burn it. You can have a lot of gasoline and you're not going anywhere unless you have a car. So what's the fuel? A thousand different things. The desire for status, for an easier life, for joy, for a feeling of being useful to not disappoint your parents, to see something new on Twitter to destroy your enemies, to feed your children. Whether these are real or perceived things, they're fuel. And whether they're good fuel or bad fuel, they're fuel. All of them make you want stuff, and then when you get it, you feel good, at least temporarily. And then there's the opportunity to burn the fuel. That can be a bunch of different things too. Freetime, skills, education, resources, job history, health, confidence, drive, looking the parts, speaking the language, both literally and metaphorically. And if we're feeling a burnout, because I don't think there is any one burnout, you gotta look at your fuel and you gotta look at your opportunities.  Are you working to exhaustion or have you lost a feeling of meaning in your work? Those are all super different things, but I've heard them all described as burnout. Some people have the fuel and no opportunity. Other people have the opportunity and their fuel has just run out. My greatest moments of burnout were when I still had the fuel. I just ran out of moments in the day because one too many things went wrong. I had the fuel. I just didn't have any more car to put it into. But oftentimes in creative industries, I've seen the exact opposite. People who were once legitimately joyful in their work losing the fuel. Because our brains aren't designed to get amped the same way by the same input over and over again. Like the first time you get a million view video, that's gonna drive you for a long time. But the 20th time you get a million view video just doesn't feel as good. So you're stuck with the same amount of work, the same amount of expectation from your audience, but for a lot less reward. We are more than machines and what triggers the dopamine release is to some extent influenced by our values and by our worldview and those are things that we can change intentionally about ourselves. If we don't diversify what fuels us, we need more and more of that input to fuel the same amount of work. And if we start to believe that loving each other and taking care of each other and taking care of ourselves isn't valuable, it won't be. I think that's some of why we end up paying money for bath bombs and yoga classes because it's a way to assign economic value to taking care of ourselves. It helps us actually believe that this is worth it and it shouldn't be that hard. And it's why we have holidays to remind ourselves to be thankful for other people in our lives. Remembering that there are people who are important in our lives reminds us that we are also important regardless of the efficiency of our economic output. I don't think this conversation is done, can't be handled in a four minute video. Obviously I read several things this week that you might have also read. I've linked to those in the description. I think this conversation is important and I hope that it continues in the comments. John, I'll see you on Tuesday.


You're still watching Waze National Cashew Day is celebrated annually on November 23rd. It is a day to celebrate this delicious versatile nut, which is enjoyed by people all over the world. Cashews are a good source of protein, fiber and vitamins and minerals including magnesium, copper and vitamin B6. They are also a good source of antioxidants which can help to protect the body from damage caused by free radicals. Who is a Cashew lover? Yeah, it's me, it's not so. Every since I started taking granules, so anything that is nutty. Yeah, not me. So I'm a big fan of nuts, I think that I used to avoid peanuts when I was younger because of my skin.  I think I probably go through a bottle maybe like every week or so just because, yes, thankfully the skin is a bit better now, it's calmer. But I mean, they just offer so many benefits and particularly like for me, I'm trying to keep my cholesterol in check. So the good fats in the nuts help to reduce it. But I mean, I love cashews. I think the problem I have with cashews, I don't think that the ones that I eat, the ones, the local ones, and the cashew fruit actually is delicious. I love the fruit itself. Yes. I think they say that the fruit is acidic. The fruit is acidic. Yes. The juice touches it. Yes, exactly. That's it. That's the fruit. But the nut itself, somehow we've not figured out how to roast the nut quite right for me here. So you want to try it? Yeah, I find that, so if you think about it, when you buy the imported ones, it's always nice and dry and all of that. But I think there's maybe something in the way we're roasting it locally that is not quite working. But I still need to. But I still need to. But I have tried the ones from like Kotonu, there's a way that they roast it. If they are ground nuts, there's a way that they roast it is really nice. The technique must be different. Yeah. There's probably something that they use, some ingredients that they put in there. I know. But I mean, cashews are just, cashews like all nuts. I think right now, for me, cashew is more than nuts. I mean, all nuts for me is just, I just, you know when you read all the articles, they say just eat a handful. Yes. They were not talking. Don't, don't, don't eat half of the protein. So I have been taking ground nuts of late and then what I've been doing is, you know when you eat ground nut and banana, the taste, the combination is always, then I started noticing that I started having like accolades here and there. So what I now decided to do is, I started battling it with the ginger shots to remedy. So I eat the ground nut that I like. Then I now have like the ginger shots that I'm ready. Ginger shot does what now? So ginger shot, they basically does like, yes. So it cleanses your system from the inside out.  Okay, that's a lot. Yeah, all of that. And I, when I wake up in the morning after brushing my teeth. Should you steep it in water or you just drink it? I just take a shot. Don't just take a shot. Every day. So let me, so I have mixed choice. It's a lot. That's extreme. Yeah. It's more than the usual. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm good. I can give you. Yes, you are. So I do the same thing, what is already made. Right. So they sell the ginger shots. Okay, so I think I've seen those ginger shots. Yes. I'm making my set. They sell the small fossils and then the big ones. Yeah. Well. Because turmeric on its own is colorful. So if they make it for you, you wouldn't really know how rich it is. So I would rather do my blend in my kitchen. So you blend with the fresh turmeric, right? Yes. It colors everything. But anyway, I'm happy to hear that we are all keeping healthy in our own ways.  You stop at banana, right? I eat groundnuts with watermelon. Not even bread. I eat watermelon. I eat it with, I eat watermelon. I eat it with apple. I eat it with cucumber. Cucumber. Like literally every food is possible. I have it with it. Like it just works. And then I have it with plantain as well. Oh yeah, that's true. I think the Igbo people food, I kind of forgot to remember the name. The blend, the nuts blend that they eat with garden egg. Oh yes, of course. That's been, yeah. That's been us as well. Okay. So happy cashew day for all the cashew lovers out there. What did you find first? Let me start with you NJ. Okay. So a lot of things have been happening in the news lately. And my story tonight is something that Tosie Silver, Tosie Silverdam wrote on his Instagram page on social media. He posted it on social media. And I quote, police should arrest Jay Boogie and his friend Kim for staming Nigerians. Jay Boogie does not need a kidney transplant. The GoFundMe account has been flagged. They have refused to provide test results from the hospital. They have blocked all the people soliciting funds for them. Even the LGBT community. So many organizations want to sponsor them. But they were reluctant because they are a scam. They even altered fake results. So this story. I want to give us a backstory to it because I've lost. Jay Boogie is a transgender living in Nigeria and has been very popular on social media. James Brown. So there are others. But this story is centered around Jay Boogie. So I hear that he has done some procedures and at this point he wanted to do something corrective. And then went into the hospital and came out with a bad case of I don't know what it's called. Medically. I don't know what it's called. But it affected his kidney. And something about him not being able to pee or pass urine for a couple of days. And so many videos have been coming up on social media. One of him actually having a conversation with some people telling them his life was in danger and that he was going to shut down any moment and soliciting for funds. And over the course of the week a lot of people, social media personalities and what have you have come out on social media to solicit for funds and for prayers for Jay Boogie. And sometime maybe earlier in the week or something like this comes out. There are speculations that the GoFundMe account had raised I think over 200 million. And there was a story. The story now coming up is that all that was a scam to raise money. Wow. So I don't think this is quite surprising because in the news lately a lot of things have been happening. A lot of people who are supposedly dead and RIP are coming back to life. And then a lot of people who are using it as a method, as a strategy to improve their music career and faster. I don't know how low it's coming. It tallies around everything that we're saying because recently we've been talking about where the mindset is right now and how low people will go to be popular, be famous. And all these things are just showing you that's really like you said is the end times because really it's just amazing how low people would go. That's what it is. People just claim all sorts of money. And now you claim, you put out videos and now companies are trying to sponsor you and help you out. That's how it works. That is always how you get caught. Well, well, well, well. It's a pity because really this is the reason why some people don't even help. People don't want to help here. But also on the other hand 200 million Nigerians? No, it's easily done. When David said they should do, was it birthday or whatever? How much did they turn up? No, that's what it is. Well, lots of people, small money. Don't joke with retail, you know. But good luck to them. What did you find first? In the security part, like nobody has morals anymore. Everybody wants to be blue. Yeah. It's crazy. What did you find first? Well, for me, it's kind of going to pick. They show themselves and they show us what they can do.  I am devastated. I am heartbroken that this was a scam. I still can't believe it. Oh, like when I like that, I'm like, God, please, let's be a joke.  Not like the scoundrels. Because a lot of people show thoughts. And when we found out that this was when people, when organizations started reaching out to say they wanted to collect the hospital bills. And they needed proof so they can collect hospital bills. Like it was so good that we had people, organizations reached out, they wanted to take Jay out of Nigeria, like, you know, to seek asylum or something and get him on the residence. Like, just like we will be so perfect if this was all true. And the next. You can hear the pain in that. So like we said, good luck to them. So for my story today, WHO asked China for more data on respiratory illness breakouts. So the World Health Organization has asked China for more data on respiratory illnesses spreading in the northern part of the country. But Beijing has refused to give you public comments around this.  Actually, you know, where the beginning of the whole COVID-19 and now there's an influenza-like illness that is spreading in China. And WHO is actually asking them to provide more data so that they can, like, prepare the world for this outbreak that the claim is happening. As far as I'm concerned, I'm still going to move back to taking health into your own hands. And we know that the body can heal itself. So the earlier you start taking things that will make you strong enough, the better for you. Because all of these things come in, like right, left and center. It's just scary, though. It's very scary. In fact, when I saw this story, I thought to myself, wow. What next? Like, what again? Again? All I just was like, again. What should we do? Well, again, so many, it's an unfolding story. So let's see where it goes and hope and pray that it doesn't turn into something more serious. My own story, I very quickly touch on it. The headline says Lagos loses four trillion naira annually to traffic congestion. Of course, this is no surprise. We all live in Lagos. We know how bad traffic can be. This was coming out of a recent study done by the Danny Institute for Research that was looking at the impact and the behavioral causes of traffic congestion in Lagos. It's no story. 21 million people living in Lagos. And traffic is a huge burden. It's a huge problem. What really stood out for me in the story says the report highlights that Lagosians spend an average of 2.21 hours commuting daily with 45% spending more than two hours.  If you do two hours, you're good, right? It can easily be four or five, you know, depending on what's happening on the road. Now that the Todd Mellon Bridge is even closed, it's even the worst. Because this happened like how many years ago. Same thing for sick. You're going to close the bridge for six months. So now everyone is passing through. It's horrible. Well, is it fully closed? I don't think the bridge itself is fully closed. I think the ramps, I know they are definitely exits, but yeah, the bridge itself is still. Yeah, so they started off with the ramp outwards from VI. It's going towards the mainland, but they've now also closed it on the other side for five weeks or thereabouts. But yeah, it's just the impact of it. And we all know, we all suffer traffic. We all suffer the debilitating. It's just interesting when you then see someone actually put an actual, yeah, a number to the cost of that traffic. But let's take a quick break and we'll jump into the topic when we get back. Please stay with us.


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Robert Schull has said, tough times never last but tough people do. You, I and every adult at this time knows that whatever we are going through now will be over someday. How bad will it get? Or who will survive? We may not know but we sure know that the economy will be fine again and in fact some people will be richer after this crisis. In today's video, we want to look at some important skills needed to become richer after this pandemic. If you're new here, consider subscribing so you won't miss other exciting videos like this. 1. Focusing on others There's this biblical story about David when his enemies invaded his home and took away all his wives and belongings. As he ran after them to deliver his household, he saw a person on his way, dying. The normal thing for David to have done was to ignore the dying person because he has to be fast in order to rescue his family. David however did the opposite of that. He waited and helped the dying man. Fortunately for him, the dying man happened to be one of the people who actually invaded David's home and to repay him for his kindness, he gave David every information he needed to catch up with his enemy. The lesson in this story is very simple. Most times, the way to win in life is to pay attention to other people's problems. Everyone knows that this is crazy, yet it is the way. Whenever we're in crisis, the first thing we want to do is to keep to ourselves and think about our problems all day. The problem about this strategy is that almost all the time, the solution to your problem is in other people's problem. Zig Zigla said, you'll get all you want in life if you help enough people to get what they want. You can solve all your problems in life if you help enough people solve theirs. The problem about this is that to help others, you have to stop thinking about yourself 23 hours a day. You have to stop focusing on your pains, your loss and your calamities. You have to focus on the losses and pains of other people and think about how you can be the solution to these problems. As you must have known by now, there are no two ways people make money other than by monetizing a solution to other people's problem. When this pandemic and economic crisis is over, the people that will win are not those who spend 20 hours every day crying because of their pains. The people that will win and become richer are those who take some time to focus on other people's problems and look for solutions to those. 2. Emotional Intelligence When a crisis like this happens, it's not usually the war against our physical bodies but against our minds and emotions. Make fear, worries and other negative emotions are the real enemy. At a time like this, that's why you need to be emotionally intelligent. So, what does it really mean to be emotionally intelligent? Well, the war is on and the TV screens are filled with images and news that will make even the bravest among us fear. But if you can take some time out to calm down and say to yourself, this will be over and I will be better. Then you can control all the negativity around you. 3. Moving With Your Cheese Spencer Johnson published a simple book on September 8, 1998. It's titled Who Moved My Cheese? Who Moved My Cheese is a book about change and the message in the book is simple. Change is inevitable in life and the faster you can move with change, the better your life will be. Jack Kingfield said, change is inevitable in life. You can either resist it and potentially get run over by it or you can choose to cooperate with it and adapt to it and learn how to benefit from it. Every recession leaves the world a little different. Most people hate that because it does bring some discomfort. The best way to benefit from bad times is to stop fighting what you cannot change. Instead, be willing to move with your cheese. Adapt with change and pay attention to the next door that the change may leave open. 4. Creativity Oxford dictionary defines creativity as the use of imagination or original ideas to create something. Creativity is the act of creating a new solution to an old problem. Creativity is the act of generating a new solution to a problem. As the world changes, new problems emerge and only those who are creative can attempt to solve those problems. Now than ever before, thinking outside the box is very important. To survive and prosper in the new economy, you have to be willing to mix three different colors to make a new one. 5. Daring Spirit A few days ago, a friend called me to let me know that he lost his job. While discussing with him, I made him realize that what he needs in the next phase of his life is the courage to face his fear and determinedly fight for his financial freedom. The problem with this advice is that well, that's the least thing anyone wants to do right after they experience something like a job loss. In fact, what most people would want to do right now is to look for a quick way to make money, like get rich quick schemes. The problem with such a tactic is that it only makes your situation worse. If there's ever a time when courage is needed, it's right now, because some of us are going to face some difficult challenges and the only way to get through them is to be very tough. Remember what Robert Schiller said. Tough times never last, but tough people do. We need to be tough to believe that we can fight through this. We need to be tough to start all over again. We need to be tough to be creative and take new risks. We have to be tough if we want to win. Here is the summary of this video. Take some time to pay attention to other people's problems and seek a solution to those problems. Be emotionally intelligent. Get hard to control your negative emotions. This is the time to be more creative. This is the time to embrace change and move with it. This is the time to be more courageous. Thanks for watching. We love you.