Well, hello, everyone, and welcome to another episode of Resiliency Radio with Dr. Jill. Today I have a special friend and guest, Jane Hogan. Jane, the wellness engineer, blends proven, leading edge science and ancient spiritually inspired practices to help people release chronic pain using the mind, body, and breath so that they can become empowered creators of their own health. Her personal experience of reversing crippling rheumatoid arthritis using natural solutions inspired her to leave a 30 year engineering career and become a functional medicine certified health coach, certified yoga teacher and wellness educator. Jane, welcome. Thank you so much, Jill. I'm so happy to be here. I love the work that you do. You're such a shining, bright light in the space. So thank you so much for what you're doing. Thank you for having me here. You are so welcome. And we were just talking before. We had to try a couple of times. I am so glad we're here. And it was my fault. I think I had canceled because of random life things. And I am, I was so excited to see you on the schedule and to talk today and to get to know you even better. So I always love to start with story. So I'd love to hear just a bit about, honestly, we heard a little glimpse of what brought you here, but give me a glimpse into your life. And how did you get from engineering to a holistic health coach? I know it's like it's a huge jump, right? Well, my story is because of pain, really. I was in my engineering career. My children were all raised. And I had a very stressful year. And I know you understand all about the stress and the impact it has on your health. And so very quickly, within three months, I went from being a healthy, strong, vibrant woman to being barely able to walk, inflammation throughout my body. Knees swollen, hands swollen, feet swollen, jaw, like shoulders, elbow, all kinds of painful joints. And so it, and I knew it had to be related to stress because it was so, you know, obvious, right? And, but my doctor didn't know what was going on. She did say, I have a very progressive doctor and she did say that sometimes foods we eat can be related to joint pain. So I thought, I'm just going to try it. And she said gluten and dairy. And I also cut out sugar. I just cut them out. Yes. Those are the top three I always try to just because if we don't have testing, it's the most likely that those three are culprits. Yeah. And so before this happened, though, I was really at a low point. I have to throw this in as well to let you know that when I was having like this really lowest point, didn't know how this had happened. And I couldn't see a way out because we didn't know what it was. And I thought, if this is the way my life is going to be ready to be done. I was curled up in pain.  It's still here. What is this? And right after I had that thought, I had another thought voice in me outside of me, I don't know, but it said, your life is not going to turn out like this. You are going to figure it out and you're going to teach other people. So that's kind of why I'm here now because I had a calling. So after that moment, like I was still in pain. I still didn't know what it was, but I had this deep inner knowing that I was going to figure it out. And so I started OK with the food and I did have a reduction in pain. And I thought, this is great. I'm not a victim anymore. There's something I can do. And that led me down the road. I started researching a bit more. It led me to functional medicine. And so I learned a bit more about functional medicine. I went to my doctor and said, I think I need some tests done. And she said, we can't do it. I can't do it for you, not in this system. You need to see an atropath. So I found a functional medicine practitioner, went through that. But I had some infections, overgrowth in my gut. And I had to get that fixed. It took me another little while. And all these layers, I was feeling a little bit better all along. But it wasn't completely gone. And I felt like I was in this big rush, because it was diagnosed, eventually, as rheumatoid arthritis. And all you hear is joint destruction, permanent damage. And so I felt like I was in a big rush against time. So I was creating more stress. The food restrictions were creating more stress. And I realized that all this was really happening for me, not to me. And so that led me on a real in-merge journey. So I'll stop there and see where you want to go with that, Dr. Jill. First of all, I'm getting goosebumps as you're talking, because the first thing you said there was, well, first of all, the engineer background. I'm a bioengineer from undergrad. And so I love that background, because that framework is a problem solver, right? Like you look at your structure, like I was never meant to be an engineer. But you and I now in our fields, we've done that work. But now we use that. I feel like it's a scaffolding or a framework of really good problem solving, right? So I just love that commonality and the way of looking at life. And the second thing you said, you said I had a deep inner knowing. And that's when my whole body got goosebumps, because as you know from my story too, there's a piece, so often I get asked, what creates resilience? Like, what is it?  And there's this piece of like, how can I overcome this? How can I feel happy in this really difficult dark time? And I wanna speak to that because there's something I think I learned from Victor Frankel and some of the people who have suffered, right? Far worse than you and I. I mean, I could cry right now thinking of the suffering that some of our ancestors and some of the Holocaust survivors and some of my biggest heroes in life have gone through. It is nothing compared to what I've suffered, right? And yet in that deep, deep suffering and horrific situations, they also had a deep inner knowing. And it's that inner fortitude that I think creates resilience or not resilience or the survivors versus the people who don't make it. And it's not to say it's all your fault. So I am not like blaming it on the person, but I love that you said that and I wanna go there in a few minutes as far as what does that mean and how do we actually get into that place? Because I believe we all have that innate ability to have a deep inner knowing and that deep inner knowing gives us a confidence to look for answers, which is exactly what you started to do. So take it from here, then you started.  There's like, okay, there's the foods.  And what I love, we started talking about right before we got onto youth include mind, body, spirit. Like you really look at not just because puncture medicine is very physical based. It's important to look at the diet and the lifestyle, but it's bigger than that, isn't it? So keep going and telling us how you kind of got into that bigger picture. It is so much bigger. And I think really, I've interviewed hundreds of people now as well, like between, I did a summit and with my podcast as well, I've interviewed so many people and so often it comes back to that emotional component. And I heard Deepak Chopra say in a meditation one time, the mind creates the body and everything we're learning from quantum physics, which is really just proving the ancient spirituality is that this is a physical creation and physical manifestation of what's going on inside. And because for me, I knew that it was very related to emotions, I knew like it had to be and if emotions turn this on, emotions should be able to turn it off. But I didn't know how. And that really took me a long time to figure that out. And so, yeah, this deep inner knowing and this belief that we can physically change your body. And that's a hard one for people to get to because we're not taught that. Right. That's how it is because they can get so critical to if you can believe that something else is possible, that feeling starts, right? Because if you can't even believe that it's possible you're never gonna get there or very rarely maybe by some accident. So I wanted to focus on that because I think that belief is what starts to shift what happens in our bodies, right? And you found that you kind of, and same with me, it's almost like accidental, like back then, maybe for you back then, you didn't know how powerful that deep inner knowing was. Now looking back, we can both say, oh, that's part of what carried me forward, right? It was, it was. And all like, I had this belief from this, you know, whatever it was that spoke to me and I've always sort of believed in this that I've been protected or that I have, I'm not alone or I have a higher self. I've always kind of believed that, but that was very clear. And I think sometimes it happens at rock bottom moments, but then it also made me seek out stories. So we can Google and find answers to anything, but the questions you ask are what's important. So I started seeking out stories of people who had healed rheumatoid arthritis naturally. And then I thought, if they can do it, I can do it. And if I can do it, I can be an example of what's possible for other people. And so I kept doing that. There were other things that were kind of like tied up because the stressful year I had it began with my mother dying, we were very, very close and it was sudden. And so she had always been my champion. And when she was gone, I had to, I thought, I have to be my own champion. I have to speak to myself the way my mother would say, I'm almost getting leafy talking about her. And it's been seven, eight years now. I had to speak to myself the way she would speak to me. And so I did, and I started like walking in the mirror saying, I'm so proud of you, Jamie. You're doing so well. You can do this. You're just getting started. You know, I'd speak to myself like that. And I also created visions because I had done a lot of like personal development and I knew about the power visioning and so on. So I started visioning myself doing the things I couldn't do then, but I wanted to do again, climbing a mountain and being up at the top like you're climbing a mountain too, right? Your mountain story. And sailing, I picture myself on a sailboat and hoisting up the sails and throwing a grandchild up and catching them. I don't have any grandchildren, but this is the kind of things that I would picture in my mind of what I would do. And I think it's so powerful. Our minds are so powerful. We create visions in our mind and the brain can't really tell the difference. They know we're pretty close anyway between what we see with our eyes and what we imagine in our mind. So it will try to resolve that. So I was doing a lot of different things. I didn't really realize, but for the longest time, I was still kind of like warrior, I'm gonna fight this kind of way instead of the surrender. You have to have a surrender. It's like that, this is happening for me. So how can I understand why and what it is I need to learn? And so I did do, there's a ton of research on rheumatoid arthritis and illness in general and how the body responds to emotions. There's, you know, Gabbermate's book when the body says no and the body keeps a score vessel, Vanderkog and so many others. So there's this clear connection between emotions and especially the things that we've been thinking over and over again for all of our lives really. So I had to start looking back over my life and I realized that from a very young age, I didn't have any big trauma and I know you're in the same boat. I didn't have any big trauma, but I had an older sibling that liked to tease me until I started to stutter. And so I didn't believe that I had anything to say and I had this low self-worth even though you would think on the outside, I'm an engineer, a good job, I was doing all the things and I certainly, you know, I knew it was kind of there underneath and like any little bit of criticism, oh, I would melt, right? Perfectionism, people pleasing, what they're calling fawning now. So there's like fear and fawning. I was fawning. I did engineering because my father wanted me to do engineering. So I realized that there was a whole lifetime that I was carrying this little, this underneath, this undercurrent of stress. 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There you can also collect your free bonuses. So grab your copy today and begin your own transformational journey through functional medicine in Finding Resilience. Calling for me to help. You just described that so eloquently because if we reframe often illness, suffering, I would never wish it on anyone. But what we can do is see it as an awakening or a gift. And with that comes this ability to say, okay, what is this trying to tell me?  Oh, I love that. And that's so powerful in healing because I always say, sweetheart, you're doing a great job or you know, this kinds of things just like, but we talk to other people like that very easily, usually but it's very hard to put that on ourselves. But unless we're actually kind to our own bodies and our own minds, we don't get good results. And I love that you talked about the fight because I was the same thing, this fighter, fighter, fighter.  I need to shift my mindset and be more of a comrade or a partner with myself in the healing. So so many important points. So you've dealt with rheumatoid arthritis and completely reversing that and your book soon will be pain-free by design. I asked you before, you're like, oh, it's coming. So stay tuned everyone. If you like this episode, Jane will have a book. I'll check in with you on when that is and we'll share it. We'll have to do another episode but I wanna talk specifically about pain because so many people out there are dealing with pain whether it's emotional, physical. Let's talk about the physical though first.  How quickly did that manifest and how did it actually happen where you're like, oh, I'm in pain and I can't function. For me, so I was working on getting my mother's house ready to sell. So this was sort of coming a year after she had passed. And so I was doing a lot of painting and packing and ton of stuff and she lived a seven hour drive from me and I had a weekend and a bit to do it. So I was like going like they ever ready, buddy. So I was just working when I was like, wow I think I was painted to her, this shoulder hurts. And then the next day I was like, oh, it's this shoulder. And then I got back and I went to physio and then it was like, it was crazy. I would go and say, I know I was here for my left shoulder last week but it's my right elbow this time or it's my left knee or and it was just shifting around. I felt like someone had a voodoo doll and they were just sticking pins in different places. And then it really settled in. And I thought, okay, I just need the house to be sold and all this to be done and I'll be fine and have a vacation. So I did that. And then it just, it just got worse. The inflammation, my knees that I've got pictures. I didn't really take a lot of pictures and stuff at that time, but I took a picture of my knees only because it was the first time I had had acupuncture. And so I took a picture of my knees and they were grotesquely swollen. There's no way that I could walk very well. It was no wonder I was in so much pain but my hands as well. But I just kept on thinking it was something else. I got orthotics. I thought, okay, I guess I'm 50. I need orthotics now. And it was none of those things. So yeah, it came on pretty quickly. But, and I help people with pain in general, not just specifically rheumatoid arthritis, just because it's kind of like, and I'm sure you think this as well, the diagnosis is just a label. It's just a label and it really doesn't matter.  It could be skin, right? It could be, you know, inflamed skin. It could be inflammatory bowels. It could be, it could be chronic pain. It could be rashes, you know, it was all kinds of things. It could be brain fog. So there's a lot of different things. But I help people with pain. Chronic pain is pain. I mean, pain is actually a good thing, right? That we, it's a protection. Our body gives us pain to protect us.  So that's, it's a good thing. When it's sticking around for longer than, say three months or four months, and then it's called chronic pain. And sometimes there can be a physical reason for it. Sometimes there can be a diagnosis, but sometimes there's no reason for it if people don't really understand. I kind of think it doesn't matter. In fact, sometimes people are given a reason and that just makes our brain believe. The loop, right? That we're getting that loop of like, oh, I'm gonna have pain because I have this and just like you said earlier, I loved what you talked about. You're talking about subconscious programming. Like if we believe something on the subconscious level, it's going to happen because our brain doesn't know the difference. So if we really believe, oh, I have this condition, it's going to be painful. We're going to manifest pain because our body believes that we're supposed to have pain with that condition. So I love that you framed it that way because the truth is, what if, what if we didn't have to have pain, right? Exactly, exactly. And pain is actually not where we feel it. Pain originates in the brain, which doesn't mean to say your pain is in your mind. Your pain is real if you're experiencing pain and I get it, I was there. But our mind runs the body. And so if we can get in the mind and change things, then it will get a different message. And when people have chronic pain, after a while they create fear around the pain. And I get that too. I mean, I had a lot of that. Like what's my life going to be like if I can't even walk? If I can't do all these things, what's going to happen? I'm not going to be able, I was very close to not even being able to look after myself. Like if you can't hold toilet paper in your hand, that's getting pretty bad, right? And those are scary things, right? Yeah, and so then you get fear. And I mentioned earlier about the fear around, I got to figure this out soon. Wait, I got to do it. And all that creates a pain, fear cycle. And then we're especially wired to pay attention to fear. It's another protection mechanism, right? So when we have fear and pain, our brain really pays attention. It wires those neural networks even deeper, like makes deeper grooves or strengthens those muscles if you kind of think about it like muscle memory. And so it keeps it going. And so there's a lot of tools we can use to help let the mind relax a little bit or at least feel safe. And then so creating feelings of safety. Another thing is just because of the way that we are in our society, we've also got very disassociated from our body. So pain is kind of so far down the line of I need help, right? We, a lot of us just aren't even paying attention to other signals that we get all the time. I really have chronically tight, I have to work at it, my solar plexus. I mean, that was tight for a long time. I didn't even really know it. It was so normal for me. And so another thing that I teach is helping people get in touch with their body, feel in their body, like the emotion. Where do you feel this emotion in your body, right? Let's enliven that. And we are energy, right? We know this again, it's proven by quantum science. We're not, most people aren't taught this, that really, you're just your energy. We feel very dense, but we're just compressed energy. And so if we are energy and part of us is not functioning well, then it's a signal that's not getting through. Energy not getting through. So I do energy work as well, like not that I'm doing energy transmissions, but I teach people how to energize for themselves. Like I just really like empowering people with their own tools. And so they may still be using other tools as well, but you can do so much within yourself. And no one else can do that but you. So you really teach your clients to go, I love that, because part of my healing too is going outside of my analytical engineering brain, which justified everything. And like you said, dissociation from our bodies is actually a very helpful thing in immediate trauma, but it doesn't go well for the longterm. And so you're saying, we need to get back in touch. And I did a lot of that work with my own healing journey of really feeling again and like, why am I feeling a little stomach upset? Is that an emotion? And so that somatic based work, that sounds so powerful and such a huge part of what you do, talk about pain-free by design. That's kind of your way of looking at this. Tell us more, what does that mean? And how do you like, graph out the different pieces of that? Well. The blueprint. At a really like 30,000 foot view, I believe we are all designers, that we are all engineers, if you wanna think of it that way. We're all creators, we're like, many, we're here to create this body, this life, everything. And so by design is intentional creation. Most of us were not taught intentional. I don't think I had an intentional thought for, I don't know how, though I was 50, I don't know. I just didn't really, I didn't really think about life in that way. I did some things that way. I planned to get an engineering degree and then I planned a family and that kind of stuff. But I didn't really think about planning my health and planning my life. So if I design, I was a design engineer. So I love using like these fun little analogies for me. So the word design is like the six steps in my process, desire, explore, surrender, which we mentioned earlier, integrate, generate and navigate. And it's sort of like a kind of a circular path because we kind of go through, we're not gonna like design and be done, right? We're gonna be keep going around and then new things come along and we're gonna go around that cycle again. So that desire is the first step in like, what is it you want? How do you wanna feel? Cause all we do anything for is for feeling ultimately. So how do we wanna feel? So when I was doing that visioning of like, climbing up on that feeling, that victory, right? Playing with a grandchild, I just had joy, being on a sailboat is so exhilarating. So I was really feeling these feelings as I was having these visions and really like putting them out there. This is what I desire. This is what I want. And it comes from like the soul desires as opposed to kind of physical world, I wanna power in my drive. Like it's not that or big house. It's not those things. It's cause those are only really about generating feelings too. So I love that. And I love that you kind of frame that cause I agree it's like, well, even if I would say it finances really just by freedom and experience and sharing with others. And if we have those kinds of frames on it where we're creating an experience for us and our family, our friends or we're creating freedom for someone else or we're that's this altruistic and those kinds of desires tend to really magnify and energetically frequency what rise they're gonna be way up here versus like, I just want a new car. I totally love that you said that. Yeah, I love that you talked about frequency and energy because it really that's what we when we talk about energy, energy is frequency, right? With information. And so think about like radio waves, right? They have a frequency. When we tune in to the channel, we pick up information that's being broadcasted through that. And so we're broadcasting as well. And fundamental laws of the universe what we broadcast out where then we're a match for that to come back to us, right? I mean, when we start talking about the law of attraction some people like, whatever but it really is based on real physics and fundamental laws of the universe. So when we put that those what we want out there then, you know, we're gonna get that back. Yeah, good desire and then keep going through that circle. I like your, yeah. So the explore is well, exploring like where look maybe it might mean looking back or like where did this come from? What, how are my behaviors today? Like how have they been influenced? Explore the body. Like how, where are you feeling this in the body? You mentioned like, you know what does this mean feeling in my stomach mean?  So there's exploring these different things really like getting to know yourself. We're so busy in our lives that we don't really get to know ourselves. And so there's that step and then the surrender is really surrendering to the intelligence of the body. Surrendering might also mean surrendering to having a rest. To being restful, to giving yourself self care time for yourself, those kinds of things which we haven't really been taught about surrendering very well. It's something we have to work at. Most people have to work out especially people who are in pain. They're very often I see it over and over again there that people have the to-do lists and want to get them all checked off and always doing things for other people often over givers, right? Can't say no. Yeah, so there's a lot to do with surrendering. Yes, and then after surrender. So desires for surrender integrate. So start pulling these things in and creating a lifestyle where you are pulling all of this into your life. Daily routines, morning routines especially like I believe the morning routines can change your life. Yes. Pulling that in. And I've got a lot of other tools along the way too with meditations and journaling and breath work and so on. So desires for surrender integrate, generate. So now we're at the stage we're really gonna generate more energy, more life, more of what we want to do. And I like more of what we want to experience in our life. And then the navigate stage is like, okay navigating around to what next? I remember the book by, goodness, Ypres love, is that Elizabeth Gilbert? Yes. Her second, another one of her books. And I can't remember what it's called now. But anyway, at the end of it or somewhere in that book she talked about once you've come around all of a sudden you think, okay, this is great. I've met this desire or these desires that I've set out to achieve. And she said, more wonder please. I remember, I think the book's called something wonder. The wonder's in the title, I think. I can't remember. Anyway, I totally love that more. More wonder please. Oh, love, love, love. And I love that you created this circular process because so often I'm guilty of this as well as anyone where I go through and I'm like, oh, I recovered. I remember years ago I would talk about my story because my story from cancer is 20 years ago. So I would teach like, oh, I did this and I overcame cancer and all that. And then I tied up in this neat bow. And it didn't resonate as well with people as when I was real in the fact that, no, now I'm going through this next thing. And it doesn't have to be messy, but the reality is we're all either having just gone through a traumatic or crazy experience with our health or our family or our finances or we're in it or it's coming up. Like that's the only three options in this life is we're continually experiencing things that shake it up and that aren't maybe exactly what we expected. So I really, really love it. I love your framework because granted it's perfect for chronic pain, but your framework could apply to pretty much any illness or any life experience. Like I love such a universal way to think about things. It really is. And I love what you, what you mentioned there that we are like, we're here to learn and grow, I believe. So of course the perfect things that we need to learn and grow will be put in front of us, right? And so then we have, we go through this cycle and sometimes I think about it like seasons too, right? So there's the winter, right? Which is when things aren't going so well, maybe although I do love winter and then the spring, oh, it's all going to, well, then there's the fall or summer, you know, where things are growing and then the fall comes in and it all breaks out. Right, exactly. But it's beautiful and natural. Yeah, yeah.  Not condoning that at all, just saying that those kinds of situations, it really does make a difference if we're bracing, resisting or surrendering because the surrender allows, even with emotions, right? Like say some sadness comes in before I was like, oh, no sadness, no anger and I would brace and resist.  I don't really, you know, want this to stay but I let it flow through. And then all of a sudden it's way easier to deal with emotions and things when we surrender. Well, the surrender is, is so interesting because as I said, we, we haven't really been taught about what we, like even surrender, there's so many layers of meaning on it as well. So it can also mean surrender to your, with your inner wisdom, right? We talked about that inner knowing, right? Surrender to that inner knowing, what? I already have all the answers. That was one thing I really loved when I went into functional medicine coaching because I came from an engineering background and everyone else in my class was already in health and I was like, oh, no. And then Dr. Sandy taught us you don't have to know all the answers. Oh, isn't that just, it's actually embracing uncertainty, right? And the more we get comfortable with the fact that even in medicine, same thing, we're kind of taught the very similar to engineering that there was black and white and there was right and wrong and there's answers and there's protocols and there's, and I remember first facing cancer and realizing, holy cow, there is no black and white for my treatment. I have to get a plan with my doctor but there is no like right or wrong.  But when we embrace the fact that it is uncertain, we still will have answers but it's not always gonna be black and white. It's most times gonna be shades of gray. It makes it easier because then we don't have to find the right answer, right? Exactly. And also that each person has that wisdom within them to when they can trust themselves, right? So another tool that I do is teach people how to tune in to that inner, you know, that am I leaning towards or am I leaning away from something? How do you trust?  Like ask your higher self, your inner self, whatever you wanna call it. You have, I believe we all have this knowing that does have the answers and does know what's best for us. So I like tuning into that as well. And that's a surrender as well to really pay attention to that. I love that you're coaching people because often a patient will come in and say, I don't really know why, but I stopped this two weeks ago and I'm like, and I really trust that. I'll use my analytical brain to make sure that it's safe and whatever kind of thing there. But I often support their sense of like, oh, I don't think I need this anymore because usually they know and I wanna encourage them to be empowered. Just like you said. So in our last few minutes, I wanna talk about your morning routine because you mentioned that and I think that's powerful and I think people enjoy hearing what do you do and they might get some ideas. So let's talk about your routine and then let's end with a couple of minutes of a practice that you could guide one of your clients through that people could actually experience that. So first morning routine, tell us about your morning routine. Okay, well, I love my mornings and I feel very fortunate that I set my own schedule now so I can extend my morning routine if I want to. So I usually make up, have a glass of water to flush the brain, right? Because the lymphatic system has been working all night. Glass of water, a meditation, yoga. Then I write, I'm working on my book so then I write for an hour and then three days a week, my husband and I go for a run. If I run, I will have a shower and I turn my shower to cold. I also live across from a river so some days I will dip in the river all year round. I love, I love the cold therapy. I mean, not that everyone has to do this. I just happened, I mean, I don't love it when I'm doing it, but I love it afterwards. Every part of me is saying no. Right. This is really good. I just want to, I totally, for those listening, I agree with you that cold plunge is the powerful science. We could have an whole episode on that one. Oh yeah, yeah, I love it. I'd love to talk about it if you want to talk about it. And then this time of year, if it's summertime, I like to get outside more, but this time of year, where I live in Newfoundland, it's dark really in the morning so it doesn't get light till later. And so I've got some red lights.  So while I'm under the lights, I will do lymphatic drainage and I also like to either listen to some affirmations or a mantra or guided thing, whatever. Or sometimes it's a podcast, but I try to listen to something as well. So that's kind of like what I like to do each morning. And then start, come to my desk and I love to get my journal out and write in everything that's happening for that day. And I find then I feel a lot really good for the day and I tend to not miss things because there's nothing worse than missing. We talked about that earlier. Sometimes I was like, I just missed it, oh no. But when I stick to that routine, my day goes so much more smoothly. And I love coming into my little office space here and saying this is a sacred, I forgot to mention journaling, I do journaling as well. But when I come into my office, I say this is a sacred space. The work that I'm doing is sacred. And so I like to pull an oracle card or like a picture of my parents on my desk here and just let really feel, I turn on my light and just feel like this is sacred and let my work be guided. So that's kind of how I love to start my day. Oh, wow, I love it. There's so many pearls there.  And what happens is often if we are ruminating on, oh, what should I make for dinner? Or all these little things that don't really have a lot of consequence in our lives and our greater work, we can offload those by writing them down in the morning. Like we just like offload the brain. So journaling, ideas, thoughts, plans, or just a to-do list. And we kind of offload that so that our default mode network doesn't have to ruminate or chew on that. And instead we can ruminate on, how are we gonna change the world? How am I gonna do that next chapter? Like the bigger things that we really matter. So you kind of mentioned that and because I've just been reading about that I thought I would mention that's actually, so our default mode network chews on things when we shower, when we garden, when we play basketball, when we do like these other things that are kind of like a little bit mindless. We can kind of just give these, that's where our great ideas usually come in those times when we're doing something, but not super intently thinking. And we can use our default mode network to solve problems if we've offloaded all that. What did we get the groceries? What are we having for dinner? Did I talk to my husband on time to pick up the kids, all those other things? And we can do that by in the morning. And who's the author that did the famous book on a child, I think? She talked about morning pages where we just write for three minutes, right? And you're kind of describing that. And I think that's so powerful. Okay, so last just a couple of minutes here. Take us through a little process of how you might teach your clients to really tap in or whatever thing you wanna do with us. Let's actually show and tell and experience a little meditation. Well, what I really love Jill is really focusing on the heart. We've talked about disassociation, but a lot of people can feel the heart because it's such a, we have strong emotions there, right? We love, we can feel that, we can feel grief, like we've lost someone, we can really feel that. So tapping into that is a great beginning point to start tapping into the rest of the body. And also it's just, it's the most powerful frequency, right? They can actually measure the electromagnetic waves from the heart, like 10, 12 feet away outside the person. So I love this because if we can create this in ourselves, then we're also having a ripple effect with people that are around us. We can tell, right? When we stand in front of us. So let's do, and there's a lot of science done behind this, backing this up from the Heart Math Institute, which I'm sure you know about. So let's do this together. So just invite everyone. We'll just do a really short three minutes or so. So just wherever you are now, as long as you're not driving, just close down your eyes and maybe you won't even want to put your hands on your heart. And just begin to breathe, long breaths in, ideally in and out through the nose, but if that's not comfortable for you, then that's okay. Just breathe in, to lengthen out the breaths and exhale slowly.  So breathing into the heart, feeling it swell there and then exhaling. The heart again, swirling around the heart. And while you continue to breathe in and out through your heart, I'd like for you to think about the time when you felt it could be love, it could be gratitude, it could be joy. And maybe for this feeling, you might think about a person, a pet or a place. Whatever it is, bring it to your mind now. Notice the colors you see and look around what's around you. Notice if you hear anything. Do you feel anything? If you feel anything, where do you feel it? Think again about this feeling, whatever it is that you're feeling. Now notice that you can feel that feeling in your heart. So instead of thinking with your mind, now feel with your heart. Now every time you breathe, imagine that that feeling is getting bigger. It's filling up your heart space. It's filling up your chest. It's filling up your whole body.  Let this feeling get as big as it can get. Maybe even filling the room that you're in. Feel how good that feels. Now call all this feeling back into your heart. Pull it all back into your heart. Know that it's always there for you. Whenever you want to feel it, you can let it stay in your heart. You can let it get as big as you want, but it's always there for you. Take one last inhale and exhale with a sigh. And when you're ready, you can slowly and gently open your eyes. So lovely, Jane. Thank you so much for taking us through that. And I'm sure if you're listening and you're still with us, that you feel the same wonderful calm. And for me, there's just lots of love and appreciation for the work that you're doing in the world. And it's so funny that we can appreciate the suffering, but I appreciate that too. Not that you had to go through it, but that you transformed it into something that could help so many people and cannot wait for your book to get out. So where can people find you if they want to know more? And you mentioned a webinar coming up when this is airing. So tell us more about those things. Well, my website is thewellnessengineer.com. YouTube and Instagram and Facebook. I'm at Jane Hogan Health. Someone else had already taken the wellness engineer. So I'm at Jane Hogan Health. But the webinar got coming up. It's called Ancient Secrets for Living Pain-Free. And so I'm going to be teaching about some of this stuff that I've learned, dive into it a little bit more. And I really love teaching this stuff. And so it's happening on Wednesday, December 6th at six o'clock p.m. Eastern time. And if anyone wants to register, it's totally free. It's at thewellnessengineer.com slash webinar and capital T, capital W, capital E, T-W, the wellness engineer. So we'll share that link so people can sign up. And I'd love to see you there. Yes, and wherever you're listening to this, if you look below on the show notes, you will find the links that she just mentioned. So if you're driving or somewhere, don't worry. You can get all the information. So the wellness engineer, and we will include all those links. Jean, thank you truly for all that you've taken to transform your life and shared with others. So powerful and so helpful. Oh, thank you, Jill. I just really appreciate this opportunity to fulfill my mission, right? That's what I was told to do.  Thank you so much.


and I have to attend or I have to come to these type of forums was when I started, after my Ph.D. in marketing, I started supervising one of my master students who came up with a proposal, with an idea of bitcoins and it was a new word for me, around one and a half year back, one year back. And he submitted, he successfully defended his master's thesis under my supervision, but till his degree, I was still asking him what is new in bitcoins, what is new in cryptocurrency. So that made me think about these new things, that made me feel like, yes, I should go back and connect back to that technology world. And another reason was, I started my venture, it was a consultancy firm, I started my venture two years ago and one of my students again approached me from Korea and he said that if I can be of any help, if I can make you work something in cryptocurrency, do let me know. And then I realized that, yes, there is something going on. So first aspect being a Muslim, the first aspect that I considered or I was most concerned was, is it legal, is it legal in Islam? So I have taken these pictures from downstairs and I hope all of you know this logo, we call it Halal and this is maybe there is, there is, else than me, there are some Muslims sitting here. So you know this word Halal, it is legal to use or legal to eat or legal to do this thing in Islam means Halal. So according to, and why this is important, why this Islamic perspective is important because it is the second growing religion and by 2050 it has said that Christianity and Islam will be of same, you can say same number. The philosophy of money in Islam, it is a different concept or it is a concept which is a little different from the traditional concept of money, traditional concept of banking as well. In Islam we say that we don't trade the, we don't trade money, but Bitcoin some people, they believe that it is trading of money. But now the conversion from that trading concept to using it legally to buy the things, using it as we have Bitcoin wallets. So this concept is now changing. There are different aspects, there are different views of different scholars here and now the story is changing toward the concept of risk. That if you think that there is a risk that is more important or there is a risk that is that the investors can understand then you should think about the word there is no Sharia objective, Sharia is the Islamic law. So there are no Sharia obligations or objections on the usage of Bitcoins. A little comparison, I am trying to finish it as soon as possible because I was given less time, I was given only 10 minutes so I am trying to be as quick as possible. This is a comparison between the conventional concept and the Islamic concept of money and the conventional concept say use money as a commodity while we, the Muslims we say that it is a medium of exchange and storage of value, we can exchange values against this concept. Time value is the basis for charging interest on capital, this is what conventional concept says and the Islamic concept says that we deal with the profit, we deal on profit with trade of goods and services. Interest is another factor which is considered important when we talk about the money so it is charged even in case the organization suffers losses in conventional way by using the banks funds and Islamic concept says that it operates based on profit or loss sharing that we don't always consider the profit side, we always have the loss side also in our systems in our Islamic banking systems. While disbursing cash finance, running finance or working capital finance, no agreement for exchange of goods or services is made in the conventional concept of money. While the Islamic concept says that the execution of agreements for the exchange of goods and services is necessary while disbursing funds under Murad Abbas, Alam and Istin Sa contracts. These are the Islamic contracts which we make when we are dealing with money. Conventional banks they use the money as a commodity which leads to inflation while the Islamic banking they tend to create the link with the real sectors of the economic system by using trade related activities and from those activities they generate the profit or they can also get into losses. According to the different Islamic leaders, whenever they give some decision on an issue it is called fatwa. So this word fatwa is again a kind of justification for doing something, justification for saying something is halal or not. Something is permissible or not. So we have different fatwas, we have fatwa from Turkish directorate of religious affairs, again from different scholars. He is one of the known scholars. It is permissible to use bitcoins, it is permissible to use bitcoins because of his changing nature. Because of his changing nature from firstly we were not able to buy something by using bitcoins. We were only trading the money and now that is changed and we can even exchange into commodity. There are even fatwas from Malaysian fatwa council, then we have Saudi cleric views also. I am skipping it just because of the time and I am not explaining them in detail. I want to come to the main point at the end. There are a few questions and in them the most important thing is the good side and the bad side of bitcoins. So there are some good sides which people they read out or they list down like it confirms with the probation of Reba, that is HUSERY, it incorporates principles of Masalah and Mutual Risk taking. Masalah is basically Mutual Risk taking. It can potentially be used as parallel currency with Fiat. It can potentially be used as hedging tune. So these are the good sides and the bad sides are that it is volatile and there is lack of bitcoin accepting merchants. Although this is changing, there are now more merchants which are accepting bitcoins. Two days ago I heard there are even ATMs installed in Hong Kong from where you can get cash against bitcoin or you can use that bitcoin. It has potential for abuse. There are cases in which it was reported that the bitcoin money is used for some illegal activities, even for money laundering, even for doing bad activities. This is what the research says. There is lack of regulatory body. There is no regulatory body against that cryptocurrency. And the reputation as a criminal currency. We hopefully know that there are many cases which report that this currency, bitcoins, they are used in some illegal activities also, in some criminal activities also. So the takeaway for Muslims interested to use bitcoins is that if you are informed enough to consider all the risks and rewards, feel free to buy, hold and use it. But if you think it is bad and you cannot outweigh the bads, outweigh the bads that I have just talked about, then don't use it. Bitcoin usage itself is Sharia compliant, that is the Muslim law and at least Fatwas did not declare it as impermissible. So this was how quickly I can go through my slides. I again apologize that because of my misunderstanding, I came almost 15 minutes late, but that was just a misunderstanding. Thank you very much. If there is anything, if there is any question, thank you. Thank you very much.


Correct. Yes, we're going to go straight in from the beginning, click on As Manager, and we're going to try running the new one with you. Okay. What's that? Let me try it. Let's try running the new one with you. Let me do it. Okay. Okay. Sounds good. So go for it. You take control. Go ahead and create. Of course, it's taking time. There we go. Conversions. Tell me. I'm going to say everything before I do it. Okay. Okay. I'd like to move this bar down, but I don't know how. Hey, you could drag it out the way. Yeah. Okay. Conversions continue. Okay. So I'll always give the name, the campaign name, so we'll always give it a name. Okay. Well, this is another day in the life. Okay. So do that. Name it that. And then. It was two though, but. And then in parentheses, you'll always want to put the objective, the campaign objective, which is conversions. And I put, I want to put car here because this is the one I'm in. Okay. Perfect. Yeah. Whatever it's going to help you know which one it is. Perfect. Conversions. I would forget that. Special Ed categories. This is the housing one. Correct. Okay. And then. And then just click on update adsets. I always have to do that. No, you, this will be the last time. Modify adsets. So yeah, you shouldn't have to do that again. Okay. Cool. And then we'll leave that one off. So that's it. So remember this first one, all you're doing is hitting the drop down, going housing. And pretty much that's it. I have to remember to put the name of the campaign though. I was. Yeah, the title. Yeah, for sure. And that's it. And then next, and then now you're in the second step. And then over here, we'll choose the targeting and. So do I do the same thing? Do I have to put something in here in new ad set? Yeah, you'll always want to put the title for sure. And in this, what we did in the past is we put the name of the city. So you, Austin, they're 15 miles. I know though, I did put it in my ad. I put a title that just said download my free sellers guide. Okay. Should I put that here? You can, whatever's going to help you. All this is, is when you're looking at it at the dashboard level, like you're just, you're able to glance and know what ad that is. So whatever helps you know what ad that is. Okay. If it's not a descriptive title, then you're going to have to click, go into it, see what ad it is, city you're targeting.  Okay. So I'd rather just look at the title. See this, but me? This is for me. Yeah, that's just for you. Yeah. All this is just for you. No one sees any of this stuff back here. Okay. Conversion event location is website, correct? So going, yep. And then I put the pixel of the, of what it is on Facebook, correct? Yep. So go ahead and click on that. And then, oh wait, it's this. This is my pixel. Okay. And then go ahead and choose an event. Seller guide leads. Bam. There it is there. Yeah. It just, I just feel confused. I forget these steps. Okay. Daily, excuse me, daily budget. I think what will we put in 15? Yes. Perfect. And start date will be tomorrow. Oh, yes. We'll always go the next day at 6am. And then what we'll do on this one is we won't set an end date. What I want to do is I'll, I want to schedule a call for today's Monday. So it's going to go live Tuesday. It'll go live all of Tuesday, all of Wednesday, all of Thursday. Let's talk Friday morning. Okay. And then we'll, we'll review this Friday morning. Okay. Okay. So leave no end date. So then, yeah, we're good there. So no need for any of that, except for the locations for sure. Edit that locations in the US. And then we'll always, once you edit, you'll always hit the drop down. People living in this location. So perfect. So you got that.  Let me just double check something, the location. Because what you want to do is you want to X out the United States and then put, so this is now reading. I don't know if that's reading. Pretty sure that's reading just that location, but do it again. Always X out United States and then put in that address. Okay. Makes sense. Let's just do. I'm afraid I'm going to have to do ads with you for a while because. It's okay. So go people living in this location. Oh, did I not? Yeah. I was out showing houses yesterday. I'm waiting for a client. So I decided that I would make a video in my car. So awesome. Awesome. Okay. Perfect. So yeah, you did it the right the first time. That's good though. We at least we double checked it. So we're good. Yeah. So gender leave, detailed targeting leave. We'll leave that blank age leave and then scroll down. Do languages. Yes, you'll do languages. Just go ahead and click on edit next to languages. And then you'll go English all. So scroll back up. So to the right of languages, you'll see the edit. Oh, yeah. Okay. And then just type in English. See, yeah, I don't know every step. I don't remember what steps I have. Scroll back up real quick. Did you go? Okay, we're good there. Yeah, we're good there. Okay, cool. So automatic and that's it. That's step two. So that's all you need to worry about is the targeting, the budget, the English all, the calendar, if you want to set a calendar. And that's it. So that's that's step two. So, okay. So now we'll go to the third and final step and just. And this is where my ad, right? Yep. So let's say new ad. Is that leave that? Well, you can, what I do here is I just title it this title it the same as I did the first one. So day in the life car. You could just leave that and you don't have to put conversions, just the title of it a day in the life, you know, car. That's fine. Perfect. And then down and then add setup. Go ahead and click on create ad. And you're going to just use existing post. And then select post right there below. And then just find that post. Click on it. Yep. See, look at that. That's that's a good video. Christine, great lighting. Like you look good, like knowledgeable. Like I'm telling you, you're going to take over this area before you know it. Just have patience and just, and it's all about staying consistent. That's all it is. I'm going to keep doing. You're making me keep doing it. Good.  So now we should be good. We should be good. So call to action. We'll add the link to your optin page, to your landing page. It is cool to add. Scroll down. You'll click on add button. Oh, I don't have to press create post or anything. No, you're already good to go. We just need to add the button and that's it. So we'll go with learn more. And then let's just grab your cartridge link and get code link. Yep. And that's why like when it comes to, just when it comes to this Facebook advertising thing, you know, because I speak to, I speak to many, many people like many, many people.  This is all I do. And, and, and as I mentioned to you before, yeah, update post and then, and then we'll just scroll down. And then we should be good. All that is good. So we're good there. Okay. And then just publish. And then that's, and then that's it. Actually, let me, yeah, publish. Yeah, we're good. But let me just read this real quick that, that, that are that yellow triangle right below. So right when this finishes, let's see if that yellow triangle is still there. Scroll down just a bit. Yes. So this yellow, okay. So all domains need to be associated with a pixel event. Okay. Yeah. We already did that. So your pixel was was not associated with any domains. Yeah. Just, just disregard that because it is, it is. It is associated with the domain. So we're good. We're good there. In fact, you know what? Let's, let's double check that as well. So go ahead and click on set up. Click on set up. I'm glad we're seeing this. Let's just, let's just double check. But I know we already, actually you can exit this. So just go back to the as manager and then click on the dots in the top left. Actually, exit this part right here. Actually, yeah, you could just go and click that. That's fine. Whatever. Either one. Yeah. And then let's go to event. Actually, let's go to, no, let's go to business settings. So it's just saying that your pixel was not associated with any domains. Let's just double check this. So the ad is already in review. So it's already published. It's already set to go. But let's just click on. Let's click on, let's click on brand safety to the left brand safety and then domains. So right through the left, we'll click on brand safety down and then click on domains. And then we'll click over here. We'll click on connected assets. See if you can see, click on connected assets. Okay. So it's connected to the page and then click on ad asset. Let's see if there's any, anything else to add. Click on ad assets. Okay. Cool. So just actually that's, that's your, that's your business page. So we're already, we're already connected there. So exit of there and then click on, click on pixels to the left. So actually, if you go to data sources, I'm sorry, click on data sources down. All this is already connected. So click on pixels and then click on connected assets. So it's connected to you and then connected assets. Okay. So that's the ad account. And then see if you need to add anything else. So click on ad assets. See if there's anything else to add. So that's the, that's the, that's the ad account. So we're, we're already good. So we're good on that part. So, yeah. So we're, we're good here. So now the ads in review, but what I was going to say is just, is just putting things in perspective. Like, like let's say $10 a day, 300 a month. Like you got to really look at this. Okay. Cause a lot of times those thoughts in our head come across where it's like, shit, is this even worth it? Like, should I continue this damn thing? Like, should I keep doing these damn things? Right. Like those thoughts run in our heads as advertisers, as small business owners, cause every dollar counts. Right. But you got to really look at it. You got to really put things in perspective because this is a video of you giving a message.  So for the dollar, what, what can I put, where can I put that dollar anywhere else to give out this type of message to my local market? What else can I possibly be doing? Like really think about that. Yeah. Like, like, I couldn't put a video out like this via direct mail. I couldn't door knock as many people, as many houses as, as compared to as many people that are going to actually see this video. Like I couldn't put a billboard out.  What else could I possibly do? Like I could buy leads. Like I can maybe reach out to, to realtor.com or you're experiencing that. Right. But it would be buying some leads. But, you know, I just got, I just hooked up with my company's lead generation, which is Opsity, which is basically realtor.com for free. I paid them if I convert one of, and the two people I showed houses to yesterday were from them. So I've got a source for buyers, but I need to, you know, and, and I do agree with you, even if it's not anything else, but just generating some kind of trust and trust in me, even if they run across me later and say, oh, I've seen you before. See, that's what I'm saying. That's where I'm getting at. It's like the overall branding effect that this is going to cause, because we're focusing on a micro area. We're focusing on, on Austin, for example, like we're, we're narrowing it in and targeting that local area. It's not like we're going nationwide or global or running the damn ad everywhere. It's like, dude, it's in my backyard. So whether it's today or, or a few days from now, or even a few months from now, my message is going to resonate with somebody and people are going to know who the hell I am. Yeah. Many commercial. So yeah, I think it's adding to my confidence. Heck yeah. Heck yeah. I think you're going to see me. Heck yeah. So once we really narrow it down and really start capturing leads, you're going to get fired up in no time. So, so everything here is connected. We, all the dots, everything is connected. So let, let this bad boy run for the next few days. And let's chat Friday. Okay. And then Friday, if it seems like it's doing good, and I want to do that other ad over again, because that one, even though it wasn't connected, right, it seemed to be getting a lot of attention. We might do that one again. Okay. We could for sure. We won't want to run that one right now, but that one can be in queue, ready to run next. Okay. For sure. Okay. And then I'll be on, I'll be, go ahead. I'm sorry. No, I wasn't going to say anything. Okay. I was going to say just email you message me. Let me know if you need anything else, but I'll be on at three p.m. If you need any help with Katra Monday, Wednesday. So I'll be on at three p.m. And just going through that part. Okay. Okay. So, so let's go back to the ad manager real quick. Let's just hit the dots in the top left and let's just go back to the, to the, to the ad manager and just double check everything. Everything should be scheduled, except for the third one, which will be in review. So let's look at all the tabs. So check the box to the left, a day in the life car. Just check that box. To the left of it. And so, right here, it should say scheduled. So if we look at the delivery, let's let this thing load. So that's scheduled and then click on the middle tab. Adsets to the right. There you go. This should say scheduled. Scheduled. Okay. Now the third one should say in review. So click on the tab to the right. This should be the one that's in review. So give it a few hours and then you'll get an email from Facebook saying your ad is scheduled or running. And that's when you know it's approved. So this will go live tomorrow and I'm, I'm super fired up. We got everything, everything going for us. So let's just keep it up. Stay consistent with the video. Cool. Okay. Thanks. Sounds good, Christine. You're so, so welcome. All right, I'll probably see you later. Okay. No worries. Thanks. Okay.


hi guys you are watching oxy vlogs if this is your first time here and you would like to know more information about life in dubai how to get a job in this city don't forget to hit subscribe button and the notification icon so you will not miss anything as you know summer in dubai is very hot and many people try to travel to other countries within this period of time but if you are tourist and you decided to visit dubai during summer in july or maybe you are going on leave but you are not going to travel anywhere and stay in dubai don't worry because it's a great time to take advantage of plenty of deals and discounts across the city and today i'm going to share some of them with you so you will feel actually like you are on holiday without even leaving dubai have you heard about the first floating hotel in the world which is called qe2 it's one of the most iconic destinations for nightlife dining events in dubai it's still in the soft opening phase so you can stay there with 15 percent off complimentary buffet breakfast for two and you can get 25 percent off food and beverage throughout your stay this offer is valid till the 30th of september the hotel bubble shams resort and spa is running its summer promotion which is called don't disturb you can get a room starting from 550 dirhams per night this promotion will be valid until september 30th this luxury resort is located 40 kilometers from downtown dubai it has 115 rooms and suites overlooking dubai desert infinity pools and gardens in addition to that you get 15 percent off on restaurants and lounges throughout your stay and complimentary access to the resort leisure activities and now i will share with you one of the best offers i've seen in dubai row hotels which are modern hotels designed for the new generation traveler having a promotion during the summer season their room rates start from 198 dirhams per night and additionally you can add breakfast for just 55 dirhams per person per day this promotion will be valid until september 30th one of the most famous water parks in dubai which is called wild body water park is running a splashing summer promotion for the ue residents so if you are a ue resident it's a great chance for you to save 200 dirhams at the rates start at 149 dirhams including vat another great offer for the ue residents if you love dolphins at lentith the palm offer a special rate on his dolphin interaction experience at dolphin bay offering those who live in the ue 300 dirhams discount if you like entertainment parks head to the gaming center which is called hub zero at city walk and when you book online remember only online you will get a mega pass for 275 dirhams which will give you full access to the indoor rides climbing zones and gaming experiences another amazing staycation deal at aloft palm jumeirah when you book in to stay friday night you will get a brunch at one of the most popular mexican restaurants which is called lucha dor you will get access to the beach and pool and breakfast the next morning and all this package costs only 799 dirhams for two people and remember it's valid only on fridays the sauce spa at sofital dubai the palm offers 50% off during summer i've been to this spa several times and i really enjoy the services i even have a video on my channel from this hotel so check it out and this spa has many treatment rooms and beautiful outdoor pool for both men and women so you can chill there after your massage one of the best deals is offered by the luxury hotel five palm jumeirah dubai for only 320 dirhams you can get a 45 minute massage at the spa and a three course lunch there are four restaurants on site so you can pick the one you like and the last deal i want to share with you today is go and watch the dubai's number one stage show which is called lap parlor by dragoon if you haven't seen it because this show is amazing and it's something unreal and you can get 50% off all tickets now i've seen it and i have a video on my channel so you should watch it and you will understand what i'm talking about so guys that's it for now thank you for watching if you know some other great deals across dubai please share them with us in the comments below and i will see you in the next video bye bye


Yesterday, you told us to look at Apple versus Procter.  Procter's range is 23 times earnings. And the analysts from the ZUHO who downgraded Apple, what I was trying to get them to do is think about Apple as Clorox as Procter, and Clorox, by the way, run by Ben O'Dore, who is a fantastic manager. Some of the Kimberleys run very, very well. But that doesn't mean that they should have 2223 multiple, but they do because they're steady growth. And I am wondering whether you can't look at the stream of revenue that Apple has from service. I got mine last night, and I said, geez, I just paid $16 for the New York Times, and I just paid $10 to be part of the music club. That's $26. You know that Apple gets a cut. I just wrote a check, basically, at Apple, so did the rest of the world. And we look at this and we say to ourselves, this stream isn't worth it. I love the stream. And by the way, the stream is most aggressively being built in China, where the ZUHO analysts question the Chinese growth. So I am a big believer that Apple is a consumer products company, and you should own it with the idea that it's going to get ever higher price 30s multiple. Not a reason to own something. Just a reason not to sell it. Ah, OK.


Okay, before we get into this thing, I want to make sure everyone's up to speed on how we got here. January 2018. John Green starts a podcast called the Anthropocene Review, in which he takes a critical look at a wide array of things and experiences that exist for and slash or because of humanity. Episode 1 featured reviews of Canada Geese and Diet Dr. Pepper. Two discussed Halley's Comet and cholera, etc., etc. I do not know about it. June 2018, I'm sitting in Sunday service at the Fourth Universalist Society of New York and listening to a guest minister talk about something. I conceive of the idea for the week I review, in which I would take a critical look at whatever I found most interesting the previous week. The channel goes live two months later. April 2020, boredom resulting from COVID quarantines pushes me to start live streaming every couple of weeks. A consistent group of people begin to interact during these, a weirdly large proportion of whom are based in the United Kingdom. Number one week I review Superfan and eventual merch designer Willow tells me I should go on tour. March 2021. Hank Green appears on my TikTok 4U page and mentions that a book version of this podcast I did not know about will be released in a couple of months. I decide immediately that I will review it, both because I find the title The Anthropocene Reviewed amusing and because I think I'll have a unique perspective on whatever it is John Green has done. I plan to have this review posted within two weeks of release. May 18, 2021. The Anthropocene Reviewed hits bookshelves. I begin reading it and immediately realize it's going to wreck me. I start taking notes fully aware that I will not have this review posted within two weeks of release. May 30, 2021. Beau Burnham's surprise release is a 90 minute Netflix special called Inside, which completely overtakes my particular section of the internet. I put the Anthropocene Reviewed on pause so that I can talk about that for an hour. June 2021. I realize that the only way I can review the Anthropocene Reviewed is to replicate the Anthropocene Reviewed. I give myself a few months to do this, planning for it to effectively replace my three year channel anniversary retrospective. Perhaps it may even be the series finale of the week air review. August 2021. I'm nowhere near complete. I decide to take more time off from the channel to focus entirely on reviewing the Anthropocene Reviewed. My channel numbers already trending down completely flatline and minus a small bump resulting from the film adaptation of Dear Evan Hansen pushing people towards my review of the stage show They Never Recover. October 2021. I have finally completed a draft. It's 22,000 words. I read it start to finish for the first time and I don't like it. I feel bad. I don't know what to do. December 2021. I turned 30 on camera for content. I announced that the Anthropocene Reviewed Reviewed will be reworked and released in May to mark the one year anniversary of the book's release. January 2022. I release a video every single day. I do not work on the Anthropocene Reviewed Reviewed at all. I realize I don't want to make a two and a half hour review that very few people will watch. I decide to rework the script into a live performance that even fewer people will watch and call Willows Bluff by locating it in London. May 18, 2022. The Anthropocene Reviewed has been out for one year and I finally feel good about where my review is at. May 31, 2022. Bo Burnham releases an hour of inside outtakes. I briefly get distracted and wonder if it would be possible to make a video before I leave for Europe in hopes of it renewing interest in the channel. It isn't and I don't. June 11, 2022. I enter the Bertrand Russell Room at Conway Hall in London and a dozen people cheer. I talk for the next two and a half hours about myself with the occasional allusion to John Green. I give his book a 10 out of 10. A dozen and one people cheer. It is over. I will never read it again. July 3, 2022. I shoot this video. I am unhappy with how it comes out largely resulting from I forgetting the lessons of how to use a green screen from my film classes. I post it unedited for patrons, many of whom are at the show. July 6, 2022. I develop bronchitis as I'm gearing up to reshoot this video for the masses. I more than temporarily lose the ability to do this for more than the 60 seconds required for the YouTube shorts I started doing before I got sick. August 15, 2022. With mere days before the channel's fourth anniversary, I'm finally reshooting this thing.   It is time for me to do something else that keeps me from the regular YouTube upload schedule that I decided on in February. Maybe I'll write a stand-up set or a television pilot. I don't know, but before I can comfortably say goodbye, I need to do one final exorcism. Get some things off my chest. I need to talk about the why of the Anthropocene Reviewed Live in London. Because sure, in the pre-intro timeline I said it's because I didn't want to make a video and that's true. In the announcement, I said it was a bit and that's true also. But what's there to say about either of those things?  Performance, art, their intersection, but not their combination, because I have done performance art. And this wasn't that. But the Anthropocene Reviewed had something important in common with my one-man shows. Nobody's idea of a good time and it's follow-up. Nobody thought this needed a sequel. Which I discussed at relative length in my review of Derrick DelGaudio's In-N-Out-Itself if you're curious about them. It was only done once, though for very different reasons. I have taken to calling T-A-R comma R colon L-I-L a show, because if I called it a performance or reading, I'd have to call my YouTube videos the same thing. Outside of a few specific jokes, it wasn't really performing and it's only a reading in the sense that I made a choice not to memorize the script. And memorize this one either. Ted Talks are also done with teleprompters and it had something in common with those, but it also wasn't trying to impart meaningful information. So neither talk nor lecture feel quite right. My girlfriend told me that the photo I have now turned into my general internet profile picture makes me look like a motivational speaker. While that dealt some psychic damage for sure, the Anthropocene review does not textually motivational. Though some may find it contextually motivational, so we go with show. But there's nothing about the show that requires the one-time-only status. Like, the nobody duology could only have been done once each by their very nature. They were reactions and an honest reaction can only be had once. An honest reaction in front of an audience even more so. It didn't matter how many people showed up, once I'd done it, the moment was gone. The lightning was unbottled, the metaphor was un-metaphor, whatever. I could do the Anthropocene review, reviewed, live in elsewhere if I wanted to, and though the London specific bits would have needed to be reworked, it would not be inherently diminished by the repetition. But from the day it was conceived as a video, it was only ever intended to be read once. That the audience changed from my camera to actual people only sort of mattered. I just wasn't interested in reading it again, and I'm still not. Now, were I to live a whole new life that I could make a show out of, I would absolutely consider doing an equivalent project intended from the outset to be done live and then tore that. Hell, not only would I consider it, I would actively want to do that if I thought I could pull it off.  Maybe I'd stop off in Brazil where another unexpectedly large contingent of vocal fans are located, though due to the obvious size differences of the country, they are much further away from each other than even Werner and Sebastian, who hail from the Netherlands and Germany respectively, were from Conway Hall when they made their trek westwards, meaning actually getting that audience in one place would be much more logistically complicated. Because in every other way, pulling off a live show is actually easier than the filmed equivalent would have been. The Anthropocene-Reviewed Live in London is different in many ways than the Anthropocene-Reviewed-Reviewed edited for YouTube would have been, and many of those changes simplified the production. Take, for example, my review of the Highline. That was intended to be filmed vlog style as I walked along the park, and that would have been a cool thing to do. But would it have been better? Not really, unless you're comparing it to a recording of the live show. The live-recorded review of the Week Air Review's 100-point rating scale is less visually stimulating than one recorded in this living room would have been. At least four times as many images would have played over my shoulder, and I would not be moving around like I'd been doing it for nearly three hours because I wouldn't have been doing it for nearly three hours. But in that different setting, attention works differently. I am sure that I could have gone from 142 slides to 1,420, but to what end? Each new slide distracted from what they were really there to see. Me, and I only wanted to distract on purpose. The day before the show, Sebastian asked on the Discord if I would be doing that thing I do where I put a little message on screen that leaves faster than anyone can actually read it. I deleted the question because I didn't want to spoil the moment when that first wall of text would be moved past mere seconds after showing up on the screen. The laugh of recognition and frustration that followed was a highlight of the afternoon. But I was also unsurprised when during the little talkback we did afterwards, one of the first questions was, are we going to get a copy of that PowerPoint? And like, no? Obviously. I sometimes get the impression that people think I'm unaware of how quickly my editor's notes go by. I typically can't read them that fast and I know what they say. I do that for a reason to force you, the viewer, to make a choice. Either you pause the video and read it, or you let it keep going and live in blissful ignorance of something that ultimately doesn't matter very much. I don't want you reading a message instead of listening to me talk. And so you have to pause or not. But a live show is different. I have a video coming at some point where I'm going to talk about immersive theater since while I was in London, I saw the new show by the folks who did Sleep No More here in New York, which I will discuss a much more meaningful version of this idea. But in my own little way, I wanted to create a choice. What do you focus on when you can only focus on one thing at a time? I wanted to render this largely static entity into something a little more dynamic. And it's not just about the notes. There's a non-zero chance you have paused one of my videos in the past or rewatched a bit because you either missed a line or wanted to think more about something I had said. But what if you couldn't?  Do you mentally disconnect from the show to reflect on it and think about what your first animated penis was? Or do you keep going and hear about mine? Do you try to actively remember each line that meant something to you? Or do you just let it wash over you and hope that in the end the gems are still visible? What happens if you just black out for a few seconds? Honestly, most people don't even realize they do it. Our brains try to make connections whether we're there or not.  And I think that's cool. More than half the folks who attended the show were on the Week Air Reviews Discord and following it a few of them were joking about trying to piece their memories together to crowdsource the review in its entirety. And I would have loved it if they had actually done something like that. Honestly, I would have posted it to this channel because even though it was recorded it would have still fit into the show's larger ideas. Although I never discussed this in the review itself or did I? The show is fundamentally about memory because it's a show about memories. Stories that span the last 22 years with a substantial portion happening half my life ago or more. Now, I've got a pretty good memory but it's no total recall. So I guarantee that I got some facts wrong there and probably here and also in everything I've ever made. The broad strokes of my personal stories will be correct but the small details change as my synapses access and overwrite the originals. My mom has told me in the past that I have gotten things wrong or at least that our memories of certain events differ. In general, those small details are just there for texture. It doesn't matter if they're exactly correct. With a show that is basically a memoir though it's not really the case and so I like the idea that there remains no clear record of these events that we have continued the oral tradition of storytelling by having my stories live only in the heads of those who are in that room and that as the years pass even if someone had managed to catch every word things would get hazier and hazier. The elephant of course is that I did actually record one of the show's 11 sections and I'll be honest there wasn't some grand philosophy to the decision that wasn't the original plan but as it drew closer I realized that my review of my review scale was always meant to answer one of the most common questions I've received in my now four years on this platform and it would be pretty weird to answer questions asked by people outside the room only to people in it. It just made sense to film that section so that the next time someone asks me what an 8.4 is I don't have to repeat myself but the knowledge that it would be out there in the world changed how I approached rewriting that review specifically. If you pause to read some of the on-screen notes you'll notice that I explicitly mentioned clarifying things for the audience at home. There are more hedged comments in review number six than the rest of the show combined. Hell there was only one in the rest of the show that first one which was there to set a stylistic precedent rather than actually clarify anything because I trusted the people in that room to understand what I meant in that moment. They came to see me in person they weren't going to take what I said in bad faith but I don't trust you the viewer at home to do that and so a couple times I felt like I should clarify something that only needed clarifying to people who wanted to misread my words. And there were lines that I just framed differently that I would have otherwise. It's something I do in all of my scripts and it's probably the thing I find most frustrating about writing for an audience even though I have pulled back from active engagement with that audience at large but I'll gladly engage with this audience. You know they're cool. Most of us got Indian food after. The one Indian person among us judged the heck out of everyone else. I'm sorry for the way I ate the orange stuff Willow and also for just now calling it orange stuff. Some of us went to a pub after that and argued about forms of representational government. Some drunk guy asked Werner who is Dutch if it's illegal to open a driver's side door with your right hand in the Netherlands. Pretty sure he voted leave. My favorite thing about the post-show hangout sessions was that they weren't really about me. Like obviously everyone was there ultimately because of me and a lot of the folks wanted to talk to me at least a little bit and I tried to make myself broadly available for conversation to those who wanted it. But some of them just didn't seem to care much about my presence and preferred to talk to everyone else.  It helped that they were all cool and only weird in fun ways handing out useful life advice like if the police ask you for your name after you deface a statue of some old racist you don't have to give them your legal name and if they don't question what you give them well then your legal name won't have an associated criminal record. Now will it? I am not a lawyer, please do not treat that as actual legal advice. At least a few of them were talking about meeting up again later without me and I hope they do. Like genuinely the development of even a small community of people like that means so much more to me than basically anything else I have done on or with this YouTube channel. And it's wild to me how international the close-knit group of fans is. London is a cool place. I have a specific vision of European city typified by the other two places I visited during that overall trip Lisbon and Vienna and London felt distinctly unlike that. And in retrospect it makes sense that a city in England would be familiar to someone who grew up visiting cities in New England but sometimes I just don't think very hard about things, you know? I mentioned changing the presentation in my review of the Highline earlier but that review changed in other dramatic ways between video and show. Originally it featured a lot of words about New York and how New York made the channel possible and I cut nearly all of them. Both because I think the how is frankly pretty obvious because folks across the pond ain't got to hear about that.  The thing was already multiple tens of thousands of words it needed less, not more and it also would have been like an intellectually dishonest move to pass judgment on a place I hadn't been as it turns out I really liked London. If someone offered me a job there, I would very seriously consider it in a way that I wouldn't really consider most cities in the world though I will admit the list has gotten longer as 2022 has dragged on. Like, I definitely resent paying $63 for what should have been an $8 pack of Tums but much like the poorly printed programs I got from the literal cryptkeeper at some Hellshack in Brixton, I got a story out of it. On that note, I got the programs reprinted by first color print room Soho who helped me with proper spacing and printed on much nicer paper for literally less money than the fucking Waco who asked me whether I was planning to work this year and also how much water I drink every day so like if you're in London and need shit printed all nice like big recommend those guys and that's important because I need to have more experiences so I can tell more stories so that I can continue to talk about new shit in every video and I could have easily turned both of those into openers had I not just told them here speaking of jokes, the only thing about the show that I was actually like worried about was whether people would laugh you can hear from the recording of review number six that there were some solid chuckles from an audience in a country notorious for its people's subdued reactions an American audience would likely have been more vocal but the reality is I'm not used to any laughter I will occasionally pause for what I consider a laugh line but I haven't the faintest fucking clue if it actually lands right I did two dry runs each for an American audience of one and they both got overall stronger reactions than I did on the day but I was honestly really happy with what I got because the most important thing is that people enjoyed it yes, this was all self-indulgent and whatever but I never set out to waste anybody's time with anything I'm doing and that is triply true when I'm putting them in a position where they can't do anything else and no one felt that their time had been wasted even those who traveled a pretty significant distance to be there I like public speaking and performance much more than I like being here alone in my living room in some world where I was extremely famous and people were clamoring to see me I would do regular reviews like this too, you know that would be fun as hell there's an energy to a live audience an excitement to being in a place where things can and almost certainly will go wrong and the knowledge that you just gotta roll with it literally the first thing that happened after I entered the room and took that selfie was my iPad refused to open the script that I had left waiting for me before I left the room at doors for some reason the files app just wouldn't open fortunately I was able to open it with a different app at which point I went too far ahead in the PowerPoint and it was just kind of a messy fucking introduction to the introduction but that's okay and I know that they say first impressions are the most important but also when you follow that bumbling with two and change hours of dense scripting that is guaranteed to overwhelm and overload people who actually remembers that all that happened and anyway just as I got it all resolved our final audience member came in and so their arrival didn't actually interrupt things as it would have had it all gone a little more smoothly so it all worked out few things are better than being in a room dedicated to an experience and getting it in its intended form no Netflix stream will ever match an IMAX screen no concert film will replicate a screaming crowd no recorded lecture will hit with the immediacy of bearing witness to it and returning to these places has been one of the true joys of the past year for me as theaters and theaters and the like have reopened and refilled I missed it so fucking much and I wanted to bring just a little bit of that into the world myself and since I'm not going to invite you into my living room I gotta go somewhere a little more appropriate so I did and I'm grateful for that and for the people who came this could have been a colossal failure but as far as I'm concerned it was a near unmitigated success it's a shame that three of the people who got tickets didn't end up showing but that's really just a loss for them you know for those of us who were there it was something special and pretty dang cool and though I'm sure John Green has no idea that I've done this because any sane celebrity would not check their Twitter mentions and I haven't reached out directly or whatever I want to thank him for making this thing I spent hundreds of hours over 13-ish months and also some not insubstantial amount of money trying to do this book justice and I think I did I'm proud of the Anthropocene Reviewed Reviewed I didn't do precisely what I set out to do but I did something a lot more interesting and I was right for this I'm so glad that I found this book and read it and finally eventually reviewed it because it has changed the weekly review forever and though my analytics may not agree I believe that has been for the better so thank you John for writing a really fucking good book I look forward to never talking about it again Thank you so much for watching and thank you particularly to my patrons my mom, my cat Kat Sarkata Benjamin Schiff Anthony Cole Christina Kojo Phil Bates Willow I am the sword Liam Knipe Claire Bear Taylor Lindies Andrew Madison Design and the folks who'd rather be read than said If you liked this video great if not don't care if you want to see more subscribe hope to see you in year four