down when anxious is a good idea and will help you.  So this week on Recovery Monday, we're going to talk about that. We are doing lessons from this book, 7% slower. There it is, you can get the book at 7% slower.com if you want to follow along. Today, we're going to talk about chapter five, which is all the reasons why you might not want to slow down, even though you kind of feel like it's a good idea and you wish you could. And the number one reason for that is if I slow down, I might actually feel things more strongly and hear my thoughts more loudly and I cannot have that. So we're going to talk about that. Let's give some time for everybody to kind of wander in here. Interestingly, only 11 people that I see right now, which is a little bit slow. So I'm not sure if maybe we're having a technical problem in certain spots here. I'm Bax's Bethany. We are good on Facebook. We're good on YouTube. I see that. Hey, Katya, how's it going? Is everybody doing today? Not a whole lot of lecture today. So I don't think we're going to spend a whole lot of time going through the chapter because it's a relatively easy concept to explain. So we will do that. Let's let some more folks kind of scroll in here, 7% fewer, but more than 7%. I don't know what's going on here. Just got the tweet and hopped on YouTube. Thank you so much. I appreciate that. So I don't know, maybe the Facebook group will see. Could be technical problems, but that's all right. I'm cool with like a smaller crowd. Ain't no thing. So let's get right into it today. Where are we here? Got some folks from the Netherlands. The usual suspects are in. We are going to talk about reasons why you might not want to slow down, right? So we've been talking about this, why recognizing speeding up and rushing around as a standard response is important about understanding what it looks like when you rush around and speed up, why that makes things worse, why maybe that was a good idea 30,000 years ago for those humans, but not a good idea for modern humans. We talked about all that stuff, right? And we talked about the idea that learning to slow things down when you get anxious and afraid and stressed is a good idea because it helps you improve your relationship with anxiety and fear. It helps you along the path to recovery. It helps you toward sort of managing your stress differently and that sort of stuff. So we've talked about why this is a good idea. And I think a lot of people do a lot of head nodding like, yeah, that's me. You're talking about me. I rushed around. This was crazy. I got to learn how to slow down. But hey, Julianne, how's it going? But often I find resistance in this. And a lot of people will say, well, I get that. But when I try to slow down, everything feels stronger. And the answer to that is correct. That is true.  I have to get off the highway. It's kind of a way to try to escape from the things that you are feeling also. And I'll relay my own personal experience. For me, when I would start to have those that rising anxiety, and I would feel panic start to build, yeah, I was 100% starting to speed up. And I would also engage in a lot of little fidgety habits. And I think this is related. So you have to really look at, like, what are those fidgety habits? What are you doing? We get a little jittery. Now I understand, adrenaline is going to do that to you anyway physically. But oftentimes, that some people will pace, some people will tap, some people will shake their legs, some people will shake their hands. I've seen people kind of walk around like bobblehead dolls.  So I get that. But the speeding up, the fidgeting, they're kind of amping things up a little bit is often an attempt to get away from the feelings. Just really truly, that's trying to get away from anyway, we didn't really care if we're on the highway or not, we really care that how we feel while we're on the highway or in the supermarket or in the school pickup line or whatever it happens to be, right? So if you slow down and I discover this, when I really started to make an effort to slow things down and go against that demand to speed up, everything was magnified. Like, yes, it's really hard to stop and sit and feel those symptoms. You can literally hear, heal, feel your heart pounding more. So as crazy as it sounds, if your heart is racing and you stop and slow down, you'll feel that racing heart much more. And if you are running through the supermarket pushing your car like a speed demon, the thoughts were a little bit louder. They were clearer. So yeah, you get confronted with those things. There's no doubt about that. But that's not necessarily news because if you look at the way people in general are wired, and there's an entire sort of cottage industry, it's probably more than a cottage industry and self-help and personal development that addresses this, how often have you heard personal development gurus do the, oh, like get comfortable being uncomfortable man. And like there's a little bit of value in that. And a lot of the times it's that inability or unwillingness to confront our own thoughts and things that we don't like to feel. We don't like to feel angry. We don't like to feel sad. We don't like to feel disappointed. We don't like to feel empty. We don't like to feel bored. We don't like to, there's a lot of things that we try not to feel. And we develop all kinds of habits to run away from feeling our feelings.  So even people who don't have anxiety disorders, 100% do this. Like a lot of people, especially, I hate to sound like, you know, that guy, but especially sort of in a digital age, we're all connected. We have constant distraction always available to us, always on demand. So that's why you people are, you know, you're waiting online somewhere and there are people on that line, everybody's scrolling their phones. We don't, we don't want to feel empty. We don't want to feel things that make us feel uncomfortable, anxiety or not. And that holds doubly true in the case of hot elevated anxiety, a threat response, panic, the things that are really, really unpleasant and feel like urgent disasters right now. So yeah, you don't want to feel those things. And part of the reason why you start to rush around and speed up is to try and get away from the threat. And really, if the threat is coming from inside you, we're trying to get away from those feelings. So there's a lot of resistance often, well, people will say, I want to do that. And I tried it, but then I'm just left alone with like my racing heart. I'm just left alone or it feels like shorter, shorter, it's a breath or I'm just left alone with those, those what if catastrophic thoughts that tell me that I might be dying or something like that. Oh, I forgot to put the shadow relay up. Let me throw that up there real quick so you guys can see what each other is saying. That's really common. And in fact, a couple of years ago in the Facebook group, we had an admin, she's not active anymore. She's lovely. She actually made a video about that one day. And she was just beside herself. And I'll never, I'm never going to forget this video. Some of you in the group might remember Bethany, you might remember who I'm talking about. And she was, she's very upset. And she's like, I don't know. I can't get this. I don't understand why I can't get this. She was trying. She was, she wasn't an admin yet. She was working hard on sort of getting, getting going on her recovery. And I remember her saying, I just, I don't know why I can't get this. I'm working on it. I've read the book. I'm reading the pocket. And that might even be before I wrote the anxious truth. She was reading Claire Weeks. She was listening to podcasts. And at one point she finally kept talking and talking and talking. And she just sort of boiled it down, kind of boiled it down. And she said, but if I do all those things, I'm just left with my symptoms. And then she just sort of stopped and looked at the camera. And that was an incredibly powerful moment to this day. I think one of the more insightful and educational moments that I've ever had in that Facebook group in all the years that it exists. But if I do all those things, I'm just left with the symptoms. And I remember a couple of days later, I promised I would respond to that and I sat on a beach and I made a video about that. And the answer to that is, yeah, yeah, that's exactly right. So in all of the stuff that I talk about here, whether it's me, whether it's Claire Weeks, somebody just mentioned Josh Fletcher, Bess just mentioned Josh and some of the things that he talks about, Kim, Quinlan, all the, you know, the people, Jenna, Jenna Overba, all the people that sound like me. When we talk about these things built into that is, is the realization that yes, you're actually confronting or at least allowing those things to come at you without, without trying to shield yourself from them. You're trying to wiggle away from them. You're not trying to stop them or shield yourself from them or run from them. That's all true. And slowing down is part of the way that we learn to have that new non-reactive reaction to anxiety and panic, if you will, form that new relationship, learn that you don't have to be afraid of it. But unfortunately, part of that is that, yeah, you're going to have to feel the things. So I don't have a good answer here to, but if I slow down, I will feel things like, what do I do about that, Drew? And the answer is, you feel it, you feel the things. Like there's just no way around this. I'm not going to do really a whole lot of reading out of the book today. But one of the things that was pulled out by my editor, I think as a, as an important quote, and I'll get to it, is I did write this. I said, every so often, the things we have to do, every so often, this involves facing fear and feeling super unsteady and vulnerable. And the quote she pulled out of the book was, these are the cards we've been given by the universe. At some point, we must make a choice, stay stuck and do hard stuff and feel afraid or unsure to get unstuck. And I will stand by that. And that's a crappy thing to have to say. But the choice is, if you're going to say, well, I can't slow down because then I'll feel the things and I can't allow myself to feel the things, you are entitled to make that choice. That's true. But that is, that is going to keep you stuck, right? To a certain degree, that's going to keep you stuck. Progress will be hard to come by if you want to stand by that. But on the flip side, if you do choose to slow down and allow yourself to feel these things that you insist you should not ever feel or incapable of coping with, that's also going to be really hard. So both ways are really hard. One way keeps you stuck. One way at least gives you the chance to maybe move forward a little bit. Right. So that's kind of important. That's, and I always give credit to Allegra Castans. She's obsessively ever after on Instagram. She's a therapist here out of New York City. And she said, she uses the phrase, suffer in the right direction, right? I might say like pick your heart. You're going to have to, you're going to, it's hard to not recover. And it's really hard to recover. So the only thing that I really have to say about the idea that if you slow down, you might feel things more is correct. And sometimes we just, we understand that we are picking to do difficult things. There's no, it's nothing easy about this. Right. So I spend all day long every day trying to, you know, reaffirm that and validate that this is difficult. This is difficult. Simple plan, hard to execute. Right. So I know a lot of people are hoping that there's going to be some sort of tips and tricks like what, but, but how can I do that if I feel the feelings? And the answer is you have to feel the feelings. Right. So there's no, fortunately, I'm not going to, I don't have any tips or tricks for you that are going to somehow tamp them down or make them less loud or make them go away, make it easier for you to slow down a face that I just don't have that. It don't exist. But one thing that can really help, and this I didn't put in the book, but it is part of the whole sort of all the stuff that I talk about, is if you remember why you're doing it, it can make a difference. Right. So a lot of people will say, well, I know I have to do this. Right. This is one of these things that I know I have to do. I'm going to learn to slow down. I'm going to practice what's in this 7% slower book. And they know they should do it, but sometimes we forget why. And we're confronted with that adversity that like, oh my God, the symptoms and the thoughts are so strong. If I do that, I don't want to do that. Sometimes circling back to, okay, wait a minute. I know I need to do this, but let me remember why I'm doing it. Oh, that's right. I'm doing it. And somebody had mentioned it in a comment a too long ago. There you go. Haya139 said to relearn it. So if you can stay connected to the why we're doing this, I'm choosing to do this really hard thing because I need to learn some new lessons and have some new experiences. Sometimes that can make it at least give you the push to go forward into that. But if you are approaching it as I know I need to do this, and I really have to try to learn how to do it as gently and easily as possible, you forget why you're doing it. Like gentle and easy sort of defeats the purpose. We're not intentionally making things hard to be hardcore. Is that an exercise and doing hard things just for the hell of it? But the difficulty and the difficulty of navigating through the experience is the point of the experience. Otherwise we wouldn't have to do it to begin with. So try to stay in touch with the why we're doing it. Oh, that's right. I really don't want to do this.  This is scary. No problem. I get that. I don't want to do it. This is really hard. Yep. But I know why I'm doing it. I have to. This is a learning experience for me. Stay with that. Right. Stay with that. That can help. Doesn't make it any easier, but at least might help you kind of jump over that hurdle that says, I can't find a way to knock down these feelings. So therefore I won't do this. Oh, no, I'm not supposed to knock them down. I'm supposed to feel them. This is the why. And that's why I'll do it. So that's it. That's all I really got in this chapter. It's not, it's a short chapter. All the chapters in seven percent slower are short. This is a much shorter book than the anxious truth and it's a little bit more accessible. So whatever. If you guys want to ask some questions, I will see what I got. I'm happy to take them. Let's see here. Hey, Kelly, how's it going? Hey, for those of you joining from the UK, damn, you guys are roasting over there. Let me acknowledge that. I know you guys are cooking today. So stay cool for sure. Let's see. Hey, Vancouver, what up? Can you please do a segment on dysfunctional breathing due to anxiety? That is one of the very, very, you're very, very rarely going to see me specifically talk about anxiety symptoms here. Very, very rarely. I did in fact do a podcast episode on breath centered anxiety. So if you go to the anxioustruth.com and you search for breath and anxiety, there's a search tool, you will find the episode that I did. Hey, I'll put this up on the screen. You will find the episode that I did on this. It's not special. I know you think it is. I have not seen your name before. So maybe you might be new and welcome, but I know you think that you need some sort of special instruction about special breathing problems with anxiety, but I promise it's not special. So if you want to go listen to that episode, it might help you. Okay. So let's see here. Hey, Carol, what's going on? This is true. This is 100% true. The feelings aren't the problem or interpretation of the feelings are it's that inner dialogue, right? So you have an OMG thought or you have a symptom. I don't know whatever it is. Breeding. Let's talk about it. Oh, thanks, be appreciated. Bethany, just put the link up in the comments if you want to check that out. That's 100% true. So what a roller saying is correct. You have a symptom and then you think what you try to interpret what that symptom means. This means it's a heart attack. This means I'm having a stroke. This means I'm going to pass out or thoughts. My thoughts are so strong telling me I'm going to have a psychotic break right now. And then we interpret those. Yes, this sounds important. This sounds real. This time it might be real. So that's correct. And when we make the choice to allow to to slow down and allow ourselves to feel them without trying to save ourselves, that experience teaches us that no matter how I would say about anxious thoughts, they're very strong. But we also learn that we're very they're very wrong. Right. They're very wrong. They're very strong, but they're very wrong. And we find out that our symptoms could be very disturbing, right and make us afraid, but they never actually are the harbingers of doom. So that's really important. Oh, this is great. Sophie, I'm gonna put that up when I get down there. That's a good comment. Hey Montreal, what up? Let's see here. Oh, good. Bethany put or somebody in the Facebook group. I don't know who I'm sorry that if you're in the Facebook group, I don't see your name. I only see Facebook users. So thank you for linking. If you're in the Facebook group, you know, I'll put this up. If you're in the comments, you can click on that. If you're in the group, you'll be able to see that. That was our friend Bab. She was lovely. She's not active in the group anymore, but you'll see that. And then I also had a response to that talking about what we're talking about today. So there you go. Oh, this is great. Love it. Okay, ready? Welcoming the symptoms, more relaxed, not more calm is key in my recovery. That is, this is such a huge, huge, huge, huge statement here. So thank you, Genevieve. I appreciate this. Learning to be relaxed, even though you are not calm, that's huge. So if we do want to talk about, maybe I'm wrong, maybe there is a little bit of a hack or a tip or a trick here in terms of, how do I do this? Because if I slow down, I feel all the things. Understand the difference between relaxation and calmness. So a lot of times people are trying to find a way to like, well, if I do this and I somehow do a trip, I'll feel calmer, right? Which means I won't be so scared by the loud thoughts and the strong sensations. But that's not true. That's actually not true. So you can be relaxed without being calm. Do not demand calmness, but practice a state of relaxation. Now, I know a lot of people are going to be like, you're crazy. They're the same thing. They're not the same thing. They're not the same thing. You can learn to physically relax your body, even though you do not feel calm. And the calm follows down the road, down the road. Oh, this is great. So Genevieve just said like, it's not easy, but if I can learn to do it, you can. And it's a little bit nuanced for sure. No doubt about that. I'm not going to deny it. It is not easy stuff. So let's see here. Now this is a big deal. Oh, I'm going to throw this one up here too. GBGA was always good with the comments. Feeling fear led to confidence for me. So I did a podcast episode. I don't know when. I have no idea when these were anymore, to be honest with you, called the three C's of recovery and courage, competence, confidence.  When you move through these things repeatedly again and again, and you have that building of experiences on top of each other, or nothing happened again, I did it again, I did it again. That's courage that makes you do that. It's courage that compels you or pushes you to do the scary thing for sure. And then the more you do the scary thing, the more you begin to feel competent. That's competency. So I am able when you thought you couldn't do it. And the courage compels you to at least try. And then you start to build competency. And the more you flex your competency muscles, the more you begin to build confidence. So courage is the Kickstarter, if you will, competence is the first change you begin to understand that you are competent able. And then when you exercise that competence again and again, you begin to feel confidence. And confidence is what starts to broaden your recovery. So when you start to feel more confident in general, that's when you can say, hey, I'm really good at the supermarket now. But I'm feeling pretty confident so I can apply the supermarket lesson to the highway or the school pickup line or staying home alone for two hours. So GBG, good, you're right. Feeling it ultimately leads to confidence. And it goes through that path. Courage, got to have courage, competence, confidence. Keep that in mind. And posting the links, B, thank you so much. These are all the podcast episodes that I am referencing. Bethany is helping us out by posting the links. They're all on my website. You can always go to the anxioustruth.com and search a little magnifying glass like as a search tool. No, no, no, no, no. Let's see here. I want to say thank you. I'm really doing good days and bad days pulling your slowly day by day. You're very welcome. I'm glad you're finding the material helpful. Very good. Carol is roasting in the UK. It's super hot there. I get it. Let's see what Katya has to say about DPDR. Always good for an excellent contribution. As someone who used to consider DPDR a worst symptom, I would actually think of the physical symptoms as a relief. This is so good.  This comment right here from my friend Katya is so like it is such a strong illustration here of why we never focus on specific symptoms, right? Because again, I'll just put up on the screen because it's that good.  They'll learn a word with you. They will throw it out because no, it's not. Clearly heart symptoms are the worst symptoms. And then behind them is a bunch of people who say DPDR is the worst, scariest possible symptom, and they want to have a word with you, and they want to throw it down over that. So when you declare a worst possible symptom, keep in mind that there are other people that will declare that you are wrong. I mean, we never see that. No one ever says you're wrong. But understand that they would be, they would say, no, no, no, I would pay for that symptom. So Katya would have gladly paid for heart's fear as opposed to feeling DPDR. Think about that. I've had people who have literally said I would pay to be nauseous if my heart would just slow down.  And yet I've literally had human beings say I would pay to be nauseous compared to this. So keep that in mind when you want to hang on to like this is the scariest thing to me.  And it points out the fact that, oh, okay, wait a minute, this is not, this is not special, which you don't want it to be special. And this thing we do here, you do not want to be special. And there's comfort in the fact that you're not, we're all special, we are all it's important.  So it's good to not be special. And some people hate thoughts most of all, I'm going to throw it up on the screen when I get down to it. So sure, oh, we got a coast high from Costa Rica. Hello, Alice. I don't think we've had anybody from Costa Rica in the live yet. So I appreciate you coming by. Hey, Detroit went up. I'll throw this up March. So does the same thing allow following apply to depressive feelings. So this is always important to talk about. There are some parallels for sure. But and you had to remember that this is not therapy in a, in a, you know, an Instagram live or YouTube live or whatever we're doing here today. But depression is a little bit different because depression is a thing where you want to challenge those things. And I don't mean challenge them in your with arguing with them. Although in depression, when clinicians are treating depression, often they will use a lot of sort of the old school CBT tools of like fact checking and thought records and things like that. That can be helpful. But also we always challenge depression. So we don't passively just sit and think that if we float enough, depression magically goes away. Right. So we can use some of those tools to say, well, I can recognize that some of my depressive thinking is a little bit catastrophic and distorted, you know, I'm hopeless. There's no point. I'm never going to get better. We can start to understand and use some of these tools to say, well, I understand that those are probably distortions that aren't real. And I'm distorting because of my state. But no, depression is not about just sitting and floating. I would not tell you to just quietly sit with depression. I'm not saying you have to run around all day, but it's crazy. It sounds in the context of these little lectures here about slowing down. It's almost the other way. I don't want you to run through your day, but we don't need to sit really important. So if you're dealing with depression, my heart goes out to you. I've been there. If you're working with a therapist, talk to your therapist about this more than anybody else, right? It's really important. So that's how this relates to that. Let's see. No, no, no, no, no. This is good. A little win from our friend Patty. Therapy session where there was no AC. It was quite a high session. I have a phobia about humidity, but I did it. I always love I did it. So somebody before had posted Josh does the his hashtag is what I did it anyway, right? So always I did it. Try to always say I did it. Never I made it. You're always going to make it. I made it sounds like dodged that bullet. I can't believe I'm still standing. I don't know how I did it. I don't know how I made it. I'm lucky. I did it. You're always going to make it because you always do make it even when you're afraid. All right. Let's see. Let's throw this up. It's a good question. How do you approach being around a large family with a fast-paced chaotic environment when trying to go slower? Like a triggered by fast-paced people around me even I'm going slow. Okay. This is a reasonable question. And in the end, I think you have to realize that in Semper since lower when I talked about how to learn and practice going slower, I did talk about exaggerating it and almost going comically slow to learn how to do that. But the difference between fast and slow or between I want us to use better terms between frantic and measured is not that much, right? So it's not like you're around your family and they are literally moving at light speed.  That's not the whole story by going slow. So I think you will find that if you allow yourself to slow down a little bit in the midst of what you kind of see as chaos, I guess, the difference, the operational and behavioral difference between you and them isn't going to be that much, right? It's not going to be that much. So when I literally when I for myself came up with the term 7% slower, I said that was just for myself. I just made that up for me. I never in a million years thought I would be telling it to other people. It was just an absurd number that illustrated that it just has to be a little bit. 7% is not a lot. So if you were in fact taking this literally and said, well, I'm learning to go 7% slower on my frantic family, the 7% isn't a lot, right? So you wouldn't really notice that much of a difference. So right now I think you're you may be overthinking this a little bit. There's not going to be that much difference between you taking the frantic-ness out of your activity. You'll still keep up with them. You just will not do it in a frantic way, right? Frantic is the word I use in this book a lot. Okay, this is a good one. Let's throw this up. I slowed way down. I moved like a slug these days. I did write and later on we go through the book. I did write about that. When you're learning that and trying to break the speed habit and you're practicing, you kind of move like a slug. Sometimes you have to, you have to almost exaggerate it to get the feel of like, oh, okay, this is what it feels like to not be frantic. So yeah, it's moving like a slug. Sometimes it feels like it. Sometimes it does, right? Let's see here. Let's pop this up real quick. We're doing good today on time. This is great. What do you say recovery means that your attitude is, it's irrelevant whether or not anxiety is present? That is 100% what I think what I, that's how I define my recovery. As a byproduct anxiety will decrease, but you can't make that the goal. Yeah, I've literally talked about that, this exact concept in the podcast since 2014. It's an everything I've ever written. It's woven in all of my social media content that is 100% accurate right there. Recovery is just maybe I'm going to panic today. Maybe I won't because it's irrelevant. I don't want to. I don't want to have an anxious day. It's not pleasant. It's not fun, but maybe, maybe I will. Maybe I won't because it's not an emergency anymore.  Yeah, it might be here, might not, but I could tell you now that anxiety doesn't feel more anxiety. And since I'm not afraid of it, I get, I have anxious days when I'm really stressed, right? So which is normal. That's like the normal healthy human anxiety. If I'm really stressed, I'm kind of going to have a little bit more of an anxious day, which is really more of a stress day. But the difference is like, I'm not anxious because I'm anxious. If I panic, I don't panic because I panicked. I panicked probably because we can use Josh's stress drug analogy. Maybe my stress drug spilled over. And it spilled over into a panic episode. And it's over in 15 minutes. My legs will shake for another 15 minutes after that because adrenaline. And then that's it. I don't panic about the fact that I panicked. I'm not worried if it happens again or doesn't. So yes, excellent, excellent, excellent. Thank you, Shane. I appreciate that. Let's see here. Thanks for the link. Okay. What up, Eric? I'm a very competitive person. So when I feel anxious, I view it as an opportunity to train myself for future anxiety attacks. That's good. That's really good. And sometimes we can use our personality traits, if you will, to our advantage. So in this situation, Eric gets to compete against himself, which I think is tremendous. I kind of dig it. You don't want to push yourself so far that you lose the ability to be kind yourself, kind to yourself in recovery. Remember, we're really doing hard stuff. We're doing difficult things. These are hard things to learn. It takes practice. So don't lose the ability to treat yourself with some compassion and kindness. But I like the idea. I can relate to this person. Like, yes, I'm a pretty competitive person myself. And it's me against me. And I want to do better and better every time. So it's really good. Stephanie is killing it with the links today. Thank you, B. Appreciate it. When you... I'll throw this up here. When you're healing... Curiously, I talked this morning on the anxious morning. If you're not subscribed to the morning newsletter and you want to get it, go to the anxious morning.email, the anxious morning.email. You could sign up for the newsletter. This morning, I literally did that. I literally wrote about whether or not you are healing or learning. So, yeah, the answer is... And I would not call this addictive behavior. Now, I don't know, maybe there's a little bit of language barrier. I get that. But, yeah, the essence of sort of learning recovery, learning the lessons of recovery, not necessarily healing. And you can read about what I wrote this morning on that if you want to go over the anxious morning. But it is about dropping the safety behaviors. You have to... I understand what you're saying when you say addictive behaviors. You're addicted to doing them because you think they keep you safe. Yeah, we have to learn to drop those things. So, yes, it's important. I'm going to do a podcast episode very shortly on that. The next two are frequently asked questions. And I think the one after that is about that. Safety behaviors specifically using people as safety behaviors. Yeah, sooner or later, you're going to drop those. Like, if I only do my exposures with water and mints and my wife on the phone and close to home, then they... I'm not going to say they don't count, but we do have to drop them. Right. So, let's see. Let's keep going here. Ooh, this is good. I used to run around looking for distractions. Since anxious thoughts are not rule. Oh, I keep forgetting to turn off my screen blanking software. Hang on. Let me do that. So, screen goes blank. I don't need the blank to screen. I used to run around looking for distractions since anxious thoughts do not my real life. And I totally enjoy doing nothing. This is huge. I'm not trying to put you to work here, but I also did a podcast episode about learning to sit quietly with yourself. This is such a big deal and it's part of what a lot of people miss in recovery. In fact, what I find interesting is that a lot of people will really focus, especially people who have panic disorder or agoraphobia. They will focus on doing the exposures. I got out. I got out. I did. I did. I drove. I went to a party. We ate at a restaurant. Awesome. Awesome. Awesome. And then they find themselves, yeah, but now I discover that I don't know how to be quiet or I don't know how to sit quietly or some people start that way. Some people start that way or a lot of anxious people think they're sitting quietly when they go into retreat mode, but they're not really sitting quietly. You're scrolling. You're frantically listening to podcasts. It's fun. Bethany's in link mode today. We're killing it, by the way. This is an iconic duo just so you know, in case nobody knows. Yeah. So a lot of people will find that like, oh, I think I'm sitting quietly when I retreat to myself because I'm anxious, but you're not. You're not.  Other people know flat out, just flat out, like, yes, this has always been a problem for me.  So some people know that this is a problem going in. And this, the idea of learning to slow down, is aimed kind of right at those folks for sure. So if you're one of those people that knows if I'm not busy, I have a problem, well, that tells you you have to work on like those quiet times a little bit, a little bit at a time. Just like anything else. Let's see here. We got somebody that has vertigo, a fellow vertigo suffer. I get vertigo a couple of times a year. No fun. So I'm just kind of going with it. Excellent. I don't know if it's anxiety, but boy, that wasn't fun to experience. No, I can tell you flat out that when you, that there is a difference between, I'm going to use the air quotes and I don't mean to do it disrespectfully. But remember, I kind of, I've been there too. There's a difference between dizzy. I'm dizzy and vertigo. Vertigo is your room is spinning. You literally cannot stand up. You may actually get nauseous and get sick.  It's called nystagmus. You cannot focus. It's, it's a thing that has nothing to do with anxiety. When you have vertigo, you know you have vertigo. It is, it is far beyond anything that anxiety will throw at you.  Total. Let's see here. Let's keep scrolling. This is a good question. Do you think I'm holding myself back because I've never had a therapist to help me? James, it's a really solid question, my friend. I can't say like I'm a huge fan of getting professional help, especially people who are trained and specialized in treating anxiety disorders. I talk about it all the time. I'm a big fan of that. Do people recover without a therapist? Yeah, I'll be flat out honest with you. I did it. I did not have a therapist. I did have a therapist for a short while, but Rhea was as much as she was awesome for me and I love her. She was not an anxiety specialist. So I know I talk all the time, always get an anxiety specialist, but it was a good relationship anyway. So, but when I was really doing most of my recovery work that I wrote about in my first book, The Anxiety Story, and the things that I document in The Anxious Truth in 7% Slower, I did not have a therapist and many, many people can recover without a therapist. But a therapist trained in treating these things can be a huge help, a lot as a coach, a motivator, keep you on the straight and narrow. So to me, sometimes the things that I hear is like a therapist really helped me clarify, or a therapist really called out all of my excuses. I hear a lot of those things. So it can be helpful. But do you absolutely have to? No, I don't think you do. A lot of people do with that. It's okay because I can acknowledge it. It's hard to find therapists that are trained in treating anxiety disorders. It's not easy. In the U.S., it's not easy in any country that I'm aware of. Hey, this is a big win. I stayed home alone today for three hours and I did it. Love it. Awesome. B, if you want to have at it, I did a podcast episode on monophobia, which is that fear of being alone. It's another one that might be really helpful. It explains what that is. So you might check that out. This is a tough one. It's a good question. I was talking about how do you find a therapist who understands anxiety? You kind of have to talk to a bunch of them. Then there are places you can go, at least in the U.S. I can't speak to other countries because I'm in the U.S. But in the U.S., there's a ton of therapy directories out there. Psychology Today has a huge director of therapists. I mean, some people will argue whether psychology Today is really psychology or if it's just a popular magazine, whatever, but they do have a giant directory of therapists. So you can find a therapist in your area that way, and you can sort of narrow them down because the therapists do actually talk about what their areas of training and certification are. So you want to look for a therapist that actually will say they have certifications in things like CBT. Do you have a certification? And you can use that word, certificate. They'll know what you're talking about. Do you have a certification in CBT? Do you have a certification in ACT? Do you have certification in metacognitive therapy? You can ask those things, and the therapist should understand what certification means. What you'll find is that almost everybody in every directory of therapy will list anxiety as one of their things that they treat. It's extremely rare to see a therapist is not just throw the word anxiety in the list with everything else. So sometimes you have to ask them about their certifications and their training, right? Not their degree so much in the U.S., but well, what trainings have you undergone? Are you certified in CBT, dialectical behavior therapy, ACT, MCT, ask about those things? And when they say, yeah, I do anxiety, do you specialize in treating anxiety disorders? And if the therapist says, well, not really, I just have patients with anxiety, then that might be a reason to ask someone else, right? Move on to the next one. Do you find somebody who says, yes, I treat anxiety disorders? That is my specialty. Hard to find. You might have to sift through interviews and phone calls before you find that. Yeah, Leslie, I'll talk about that in a second. Let's see here. Hey, Julie, welcome. Oh, Bethany had put this up already. Different types of therapy was helpful for anxieties. And now that's, that's 100 episode 130. That was well over a year ago, but they still, it still counts. There I was talking about the difference in paradigms and worldviews or what you might call developmental theories. So generally speaking, you're going to find that a lot of therapists that really kind of focus on not so much psychoanalytic, but maybe humanistic or the humanistic therapy is something you could add in with almost any modality, including the ones we're talking about. So don't let that keep you away. But therapists had a really heavily invested themselves in talk therapy and feelings and healing and digging and resolving probably not your best bet of your agoraphobic. Debbie, I'll answer that too in a second. I'll just get that to the end. Let's see. Hey, anxious dude, what up? I just got home after having a panic when growing up with a friend. Just tripped. I got stuck through it. Awesome. How's it going? Good. Welcome, anxious dude. Glad you're here. Now I feel fine again. It's a great feeling when you move through it, right? And you're very welcome. I'm glad you're finding the material helpful. So let's pop down here. Kermit is in the background. That is correct. I did better without a therapist to get some good insight. Excellent. That's true. No, no, no. Monophobia. Thank you. That's okay. I'll sort this up real quick and we'll wrap it up in a minute or two. Do I find ACT helpful? ACT stands for acceptance and commitment therapy. And the more I learn about ACT, the more I can tell you that that will 100% be one of the tools I use. Like when I am licensed and ready to go and actually see patients, I will use ACT. 100%. ACT is a great, great modality. It's based on the idea that we should not, I'm going to give you a really quick version here. ACT is based upon the premise, acceptance, meaning pain and suffering and adversity is just part of the human condition. So we have to stop calling being anxious a disease or that you're broken or we have to medicalize this or cure it. Like it's just part of the experience of being human. So we need to start to develop some psychological flexibility that allows us to move through that experience in a more productive and healthy way. So I'm a huge fan of ACT. It's one of the, it's one of those third wave therapies that are really gaining a lot of ground. Better than sort of old school CBT for sure. I love ACT, hugely effective. I'm also a fan of metacognitive therapy, which we'll talk about in another day. That's really thinking about the process of thinking. And when you become aware of your own thought processes, ACT is a little bit more mechanical, but that's another good one. So let's see here. Do you think, I just kind of went over this, do I think talk therapy will help? No, I just flat out do not. Talk therapy is not real. And talk therapy meaning where you just sort of go to your therapist and they ask you, so how are you doing? How are you feeling? Like, how's it going with your mom? Like, I'm not saying that's not valuable therapy. It is. But if you are trying to solve the specific problem of having panic attacks that are crippling me, I have OCD, I have crippling health anxiety, I can't leave my house, then just talking about how you feel. And I know this pisses people off, but this is not news. That's not terribly effective for that. So no, just talking about how you feel almost never, almost never is effective in this situation. Now, that doesn't mean if you have panic disorder and you also have other issues in your life that you want to work on, totally cool. Talk therapy is super helpful for a lot of things, just not this or sometimes we have to combine things. I know people that are fortunate enough and lucky enough to live around good therapists that have multiple therapists that might have two at the same time. They have a traditional talk therapist, maybe a little bit more of an analytical or humanistic bent, and they have a CBT therapist or an anxiety specialist. Everybody works together. That's awesome. So talk therapy is super helpful therapy. And you should always evaluate yourself of it if you need it. It's just not really geared to the stuff that I'm talking about. Hopefully that helps. Let's see here. Better for adolescent anxiety, possibly, possibly. Yeah, metacognitive therapy is the other one. Let's see here. I'm going to throw up one more comment here. Somebody else mentioned another. Leslie had a comment. I just want to make sure. Here we go. Debbie had a comment too. Certification. So when you are picking, I'm only speaking in the U.S. I cannot speak to what goes on in the U.K. or in other countries, but in the U.S., generally speaking, in our 50 states, we have two things that a therapist has to meet. A therapist has to have credentials and a therapist has to be certified. Credentials is like licensing. So in every, I don't know that there's a state in the U.S. where a therapist can practice without a license. So when you go to find a therapist, you will find a therapist who is either licensed as a clinical psychologist or an LPC, a licensed professional counselor, or an LMHC, licensed mental health counselor, LMFT, licensed marriage and family therapist. So that's their credential or their license that allows them to legally practice and says, yes, they've satisfied these very stringent educational requirements. It's going to take me 3,000 hours of supervised work before I can even sit for the licensing exam. So that's your guarantee that the person has actually been trained and also is probably adhering to standards of supervision and ethical practice. Certification is, after that, I may choose to go and get certified in dialectical behavior therapy or metacognitive therapy. And then I'm going and I'm actually spending more time and paying more money to have people who are experts in that type of therapy train me and certify me. And in most of those modalities, there's multiple levels. So I'm level one, ACT level, two, level three, level four. So that's what a certification is. Hopefully that helps. And what else? Is that what I'm teaching now, ACT? What I'm teaching now looks a lot like ACT, but there's elements of old school CBT and metacognitive therapy in the MCT. So it's a mix. I think that's it. There was one more comment that I wanted to throw up here about neurodivergence before we end it. If you are autistic and anxiety therapists say I can't recover from anxiety because of my HSP and autism, is that true? So this is one that I can't really comment on. So it's always important for me to say, and we have to recognize that our neurodivergent friends experience the world differently. Not wrong. They're not broken. It's not a disease. At least I don't believe that it's a disease state in some way or a broken state. It's a different state. So I'm always speaking to a non neurodivergent population because I don't have personal experience that I can draw on and I have no training in dealing with neurodivergent populations like people who have autism or Asperger's. So I can't really say. I will say that the approach might be a little bit different because we have to understand that you may be experiencing these things differently than I will or other people might. But I would not say that it's impossible. I don't know what therapists would ever tell you that it's somehow impossible to recover because maybe you're existing on the autism spectrum. That doesn't sound right to me, but I'm far from an expert. I'm never going to I'm always going to tell you if I don't know. And in this case, I don't I don't have enough to know to say. Okay. So let's see, brought your book to the mailbox five whole days. Nothing. No, hey, Debbie, I'll put this up on the screen. We should put up on the screen. We'll end with a big win from a new friend here. Have walked to the mailbox five whole days. Nothing monumental for some. Everybody in this room right now, Deb, understand that that is monumental. So there's no need to minimize it. It's a big deal. Trust me, there were days when just getting out of this house, getting in the car and driving around the block for 45 seconds was a win. So do not minimize that. Great, great, great job. So well done. All right, guys, we're good. 43 minutes. I think I'm, they are a little longer, right? What's up with that? Like I always say they're going to be short and then they're not. So you guys should probably not even listen to me say that anymore. I'm going to bother saying it. So that's it. That is the end of recovery Monday episode 38. We'll be back again next week. What is next week? Let's see what next week is. Next week is why should you go seven percent slower? So we'll talk about that. Remember, we're doing lessons out of this book. If you want to copy the book, I'm going to unabashedly put it up on the screen. It's a great book. I'm told that it's going to be a kindle. I don't know. I just got email from Amazon that's going to be one of the kindle deals soon. I don't know, but whatever. Anyway, so thanks for coming by guys.  This will stay on my YouTube and a playlist for recovery Monday. It will stay in my Facebook page. It stays in the Facebook group. Hard to define there because the group is like a fire host sometimes, but the best way to come back and find these I think is my YouTube. So go check it out. Subscribe to the YouTube channel and look at the playlist. All the podcast episodes, all the recovery Mondays are all in playlist there. Like it's super easy to find there. Super chaotic on Facebook. All the videos I do with Lauren Rosen are in there. So go check it out. All right, guys, we'll see you next week. Thank you. And I am out. I'm letting you know what? I'm going to answer this before I go. Can I message you? The answer is no. And the reason why I'll address it while there are 50 people in the room or whatever, I would answer personal messages all day long. I can't. I know so many of you guys friend requested me on Facebook and you try to message me. I'm probably never going to see them, not because I'm too important. I just couldn't possibly answer all the personal messages. If you saw my inboxes, you wouldn't believe it. And it's also just not ethical for me to do that. Like I can engage with you one-on-one because they don't actually know you. Right. So don't be, don't take it personally. If I don't see your message or I don't answer your message, I just can't. Practically speaking, I can't do it. And I have to adhere to some ethical standards also. So that's why. All right, guys, now I'm really out. I will see you.


What the relative were talking about today? That's my daughter Shirley, who was severely injured at birth. And as a result of that injury, she has several palsy on the left side, and she's totally deaf besides brain damage. I have been very active at Porterville. I was president of their parents' group for a total of six years at different times. I am chairperson of the Porterville Developmental Center Advisory Board, and I'm on the regional project committee. And it was through this committee that she was placed in Oxnard. It's a beautiful home and a very nice neighborhood. They have four women and two men. And it's family. So she actually has two families. She's happy there. And the first thing I noticed was she was more dignified. It was so marked how dignified she was being there in this home and being in a real home setting instead of being in a developmental center. At a developmental center, you live in a unit with 40 other people, I mean a total of 40 people. And you just don't have the freedom that you have in the community. And I don't think you develop a community feeling. They work very hard at the developmental center. They take the clients into the community. But now she feels like she's really a part of it, where she didn't before she was a part of the developmental center and she'd go into the community. Well, now she's a part of the community. I have my own apartment now. And I lived in the state hospital for 30 years. And I'm happy where I'm living now. What do you like best about where you are now? So I can get out and do stuff. At the state hospital, people were watching me all the time. And I was very people watching me now that I have my own place. I can go to bed when I want to. I can, on the weekends, I can sleep in if I want to and stuff like that. No bosses. I'm my own boss. At first, when I first moved out, my mother was kind of nervous about where I was going to go. And then she tried to hold me back from where I was going. And then she finally gave in. I said, go ahead and go. Fine. Fine. I'm happy there. And I wouldn't change jobs for nothing. But in my spare time, I go out by myself. I come back by myself. And stuff like that, I'm very independent. And now I'm happy where I'm at. I think what I like best about him living in the community is that goals are implemented now. We're at the developmental center. They never had enough staff to be able to do the things that they needed to do. He has more freedom now. He was on a locked unit before with people with severe behaviors. So he doesn't live with people with severe behaviors now. He's able to do a lot of self-help skills and participate in the running of the household where in a developmental center, you're on a unit, you don't do any of those things. He works in the community in a workshop during the day. And he seemed to be very content and happy with his surroundings. I really feel for him and other people that they should upscale the wages comparable to other people that work at the developmental center for one thing. I think that people in the community don't make near enough money. And so therefore, you have a turnover of staff. And that's very disruptive to anybody's life. I was staying at Cameroon Reel State Hospital. And what was it like? Well, I was there for five years. So it was my home. Where I'm living now is my own house. I can eat whenever I want to. Just little things mean so much when you're out. Just to be able to sit on your couch and watch television by yourself or with your roommate. To be able to go walking down the street. To be able to see little kids walking to the bus. To get on the bus. See dogs and cats.  Kind of like I forgot what everything looks like. I had friends there, staff members. I had three of them. They was nice to me. But there was also staff members there that was not nice. They was very abusive. But the nice ones that were nice to me, they wasn't like, I got hit in the eye. And they wasn't nice no more because they had to go back to the staff side because I guess they didn't wanna lose their friendship with the staff. So they always stuck with the staff. They would never say nothing, you know? And other people been abused and hurt. And there's a lot of people in the hospitals that I think can come out of the hospital and with support staff, learn to live on their own and do their own banking and shopping and stuff like that.  And I know there's a lot of them that can do it. It would help. I don't think they need hospitals anymore. What are your support staff like? The people that are in your life right now? They're very nice, you know? I had a few that I had to fire, you know? Because I can hire them and then fire them. Oh, so you're in charge of all the people then? Yeah, in my own life, yeah. With a great deal of sadness and tears, I placed Leanna in Pacific State Hospital in 1965. My only income was my earnings. Leanna was out growing me and it was very difficult to find childcare for a handicapped child who had convulsions. I'm not being critical of Latterman State Hospital. When I say shortly after her placement, she was found unconscious in the yard, black eyes, a broken collar bone and a front tooth missing. Periodically from time to time in that institution, she has been involved in some kind of types of fights in which there'd be scratches and so on. Among the last units that Leanna was placed in was Unit 29. This was a co-ed unit because she is sexually vulnerable and at the mercy of the society. I objected to her placement there. Shortly after she was placed, Ron Rosen, a social worker contacted me and he told me they had found a male patient in bed with Leanna and they were going to transfer her to Unit 30, which was all female. The staff at Unit 30 was very cooperative. They tried to protect my child.  Although I feared for Leanna's safety, at that time I felt that she was safer in the hospital environment with some control than she was safer in the community and yet I live in a good community. Therefore, I was reluctant to take her from the hospital setting and put her into the community. I want you to know I have completely reversed my opinion. In 1994, Leanna was placed at the Golden Star Monerting, shouldn't say Monerting, sorry. Residential care home, she is never alone. There is always at least one female attendant with her. She's happy, she's closely monitored and she receives prompt, extensive medical attention. Her sister and I now agree that she's in a safer environment than we are and we live in a community too. I sincerely hope that Leanna always has the loving care and attention that she receives at the Gold Star Residential Home.  I hope she's never placed in an institution again.


What up what up Mike chick Mike chick What's good what's going down what up what up what up what's going down with y'all Nah, man. You see the title of the stream, bro. I'm actually gonna try this game.  What's going down appreciate everyone joining in Is it I'm gonna give it my best shot for a furrow like no cap. I'm gonna switch this up. I won't put on tracker I really don't need that But I'm gonna run it with The gi mini I think I'll be okay with the gi mini What's going down man, what up everybody was what's good was good Can WWE eat Robby fix or do they just need fans um I Think it has a lot. It's gonna take more than just fans. I mean fans would help but it's gonna take a lot more than just fans I haven't seen Ross off. I don't know what happened on the go-home show. Let me know what happened They're all kind of trash right now.  Let me know what happened on Rob.  I'm I actually want to actually try Other than Riddle and Orton, it's it's on its last leg for real Monday night Ross sucks Drew carry Monday night during the pandemic. Oh, he did definitely Ross. I watch Wrath of a man Movies fire Jason Stafin looks like Roman Reigns as the tribal chief and head of the table in that movie When are you gonna react to the movie? I don't know if I'm gonna check it out It didn't really interest me in the trailers because it seemed like another just Jason Statham revenge plot type movie brawn attack Bobby and drew heading towards WrestleMania backlash WrestleMania backlash is that's a cringe name. I don't know why they call it that It should just be backlash while she still laugh at those WWE sneak attacks, of course, man, they're funny We're show eight eight now. It's awful. We talking about a Ross. What's good? What's going on? What's going down, bruh?  They was already getting blown out. Thanks, Robert Martinez. Appreciate that Ross trash right there. Oh, it's Smackdown or nothing pretty much NXT is still pretty good And it's he's still pretty good NXT holding out the Fiend isn't even on TV no more Wow Many roses on reason. I've watched man. Damn for it. It's gonna put me back in the same lobby Favorite Smackdown stage set up mine has to be the fifth stage, of course, man That's that's the classic stage right there, man You're my favorite youtuber appreciate that Batman. There's a lot of youtubers out here I'm not sure how many people you're subscribed to but if I'm one of your favorites, I'll take that Did you leave the session? Yeah, cuz they were getting blown out and it keeps putting me back in the same lobby I think they were literally getting blown out. So I'm not there's no point in joining if they're already getting smacked NXT don't hit the same once it went to war with AEW. I don't know. It just feels different. Yeah What messed up NXT was trying to compete with AEW they should have just stayed doing what they was doing Rosses in the clutch. Hey, I appreciate that the Fiend is the main reason I got back into wrestling the character has Had such a badass setup. No, the Fiend was set up to be something great It's just the booking of him was They messed up on How tall are you Ross? I'm like five eight Five eight five nine my bad Ross haven't been watching Where's my team doing oh, it's only three of us we're shooting dead bodies There's only three of us. I don't think about this gun. It's not as strong as it should be Yeah, I wish this gun was a little bit stronger Well, how did I still I'm trying to get something on I'm trying to catch body see I really am man, but I Want to use the metal weapons. I want to use different weapons. I like the bison Well, he's chilling on the head glitch in the very back of the spawn. I didn't even see him there.  I'm already getting bean He's sitting in the corner Teammates not pushing it. All right.   There's like someone else there so I Got a push back. I'm trying bro. Oh I end up dying on my spawn. All right. Look at this Look at this right. That's such great spawn laundry I want y'all to see and then we get I get a good revenge fun Just getting melted for us. This is nothing I can do The team was just getting me.  I Don't want to But I may have to pull it out Hell nah, I was doing terrible right now Hey, this is more better on WWE Smackdown Yeah, he was I like them better on Smackdown. I don't want to you You had some better fuse on Smackdown for sure. I think we can all agree with air You had some pretty good fuse on Smackdown tracker What person am I gonna run? I Just think Jimmy Uso will eventually join Roman Reigns full-time in the faction instead of a few Roman like I don't know They could they could go either way I'm not sure I could see him feuding with Roman because it would only make sense because he if you guys remember, you know saying He was injured and he came out there to convince Roman to chill out with hurting Jay, I mean Jimmy and He was hurting him. You know I'm saying so I feel like I Feel like Jimmy will have to have some like Some persuasion to join up with With our Roman and Jay edit the duck quack sound. It'd be funny though.  That was his brother at the end of the day. Yeah from a storyline perspective. So that's why I say I Don't know. I don't know. I think I'm gonna. I don't know. I think I'm gonna go with Eventually he will join up with them, but Right now as it stands right now, I think you know saying He's reluctant to join Roman and Jay, which he should be storyline wise. So either way, it's gonna be entertaining I can see Jimmy versus Jay actual feud because of Roman like I would love that Like Roman forces and Jay to fight Jimmy like since he don't want to fall in line You're going to beat it beat it into him like I like that It's only two of us.  They're so bland. There's only two of us This is so boring, bro. Got him.  Oh my god.  I don't think I'm gonna stream Wednesday Yeah, I don't know about Wednesday And I'm gonna be busy Wednesday But I should be able to stream tomorrow night. Well, not tomorrow Because we should be recording again I'll let you guys know damn it. I'll let you guys know I Mean live events are cool, but it you know with live events you gotta be careful With copyright and music being played and stuff like that. So But I'll definitely have a vlog coming soon.   I still enough dining in gotta love them claymores, man Yep, he was Oh He's not happy He is not happy there's two coming. Yeah, oh nice place dude holding it down.  Oh, man, I turn to my left I think this is game. I don't even have to call in the chopper. It's over Gigi Well, she should be Roman Reigns and J. Usa as the heels of the other cousins with Paul Heyman and and rock and Jimmy user as the faces of the count of the cousins Yeah, but that's booking you can't really even Really do right now only because the Rock is you know still doing his stuff in Hollywood. So that may not ever happen You know I'm saying so I appreciate you stopping by baby. Say are you getting? Vaxed not sure yet. I'm thinking about it, but I'm just really not sure yet when it comes to you know The side effects and stuff like that that comes with it Thoughts on the side effects of the Vax like people getting herpes and strokes.   That's Kind of intense. Thank you. I do you that's you know, the side effects is just another reason why I'm just not 100% so it on it yet. I got one two, but you know, I'm saying is I'm not a hundred percent sold on it so I don't know Have y'all got a vaccinated yet? Let me know Thoughts on the side effects.   They make themselves look like garbage, so but What's good a Jeremiah? It's going down, bro TNA had better storylines and WWE did they really had never really watched TNA too much, you know Watch brandy. He cool. We know who Brandon Rashard is He's cool people He's reached out to us a few years back. He about to hit He is a bit more up to date with wrestling though I like you guys podcast and the live queue and they with fans would be cool to see We could definitely do that at some point.   The only thing I felt was a sore arm for a day I heard a lot of people said their arm was sore for like a day So if I was to get it that would be something I would probably just have to watch out about can you stream Friday Friday? We will be recording YouTube vids and stuff. So I won't be probably streaming Friday The days I'll probably be able to stream is tomorrow and Damn, I don't even think I can do Thursday Because every day after that, I'm busy Wednesday, I'm gonna be busy I Got a little event. I'ma go to I may I may stream Wednesday It'll be late though Because I do have a little event to go to go to I'm not gonna be there all night and then Thursday I'm going to see the jigsaw movie that night. So I may be able to stream that night possibly. I'ma try to I'ma try to make it work I'm gonna try to make it work for you guys Yo, what's good? Possess, but I do not want to play broadcasts. Why does he keep is it's gonna make me play broadcasts? I don't even want to bro Anybody know when GTA 6 come back out No one knows they're keeping out of the reps since there are no more best moves Do you guys react to ECW top 100 moments? We could if it don't get blocked by WWE I'll be right back. God damn.   I damn it. All right.  I probably shouldn't reload it guys Why am I going this way again? What? How did he stick me? Hold on.    Yeah, I didn't get no aim assist there And then I spawned.  What is it?  He's just sitting that doorway I can't get nothing going right now.  He got me. I finally died. Yo, what's going on? Ricardo? Going down, bro I guess he was the next point gonna be a little connection issue. Okay Push back.  You push back around. I'm gonna go all the way around Someone's behind me.  He got destroyed. So I don't really like this building Because it's a building so I can't really call in my aerial streaks like I want to oh, yeah, I can It's all the way. Oh, I didn't know he was right there. Damn it. They got it I ain't no way he was. I was trying to find them. Okay. I'm not gonna even show them Did you get them I'm gonna hit them with the meanest flank if I can oh I didn't see him.  Yeah, I got surrounded God damn Why does it keep falling here? I really don't want to be this way, but I think we got it He won't know I'm right here. I can't even see I'm in pursuit Oh, no, I'm gonna just go this way Live to fight another day. Oh Nope I'm just gonna go this way. He's right above me with the flint I can oh watch that that definitely should have had that damn he got it both GGs man, that's game Wait what is one more second? Oh my they can actually win it with one more second left to let me see where it's gonna be I don't know. Yeah. Oh, I gotta do is be in here for one second. It's over. Yep. That's game That's all I had to do. Just be here at the time Ross has snuffed these cats This is that was a chill one. I knew he was someone was in here. Let's see Ross will hope movie was your favorite Egg banner or the one with it with new one.   I may run with this class for a little bit Tracking on it. Let's see if I get a good lobby. It's been kind of slow today, though You should do let's play for story games What what let's play is what y'all want to see who's a played a resident evil yet Or have watched the storyline behind that Like there's some people I've seen now they are already doing speed runs to the game that just came out last week like Yo, you guys are cold, bro My actual speed runs, but I'll be like what? Houseway That's what I'll be trying to figure out. How the hell they be doing speed run so quick When the game just came out You know I'm saying I don't know if I'm all right. There we go. I'll be fine You beat it twice already, bro What difficulties did you beat it on? That's what I want to know what difficulty did you difficulty? Did you beat it on all the highlight of my day? Hey appreciate that man? If I'm the highlight of your day, that's that that means I'm doing something right You know I'm saying Let's see how much this game is Oh, it's just started. You got a good team.  He killed all three of them. Oh Wow, I saw him every what kind of The AS Val should have known Well, I got melted with it as well. Oh, you beat it twice on normal I heard they got like a lifesaver on the game or something. That was a nasty three piece Goddamn it, bro. He got a three-man and I'm a little bit rusty. I'm gonna push back Try my hardest to go. Oh my god.  Is he gonna move? So he jumped down. Jesus. I was crazy. Damn it.  Well, I got beans. Oh Wow, bro This dude is just sitting in the corner There we go I was in the bad game man Yeah, he was going in with the AS Val Oh, yeah, he was he was set the lifesaver. I didn't unlock. I'm actually going for it while I'm watching this Oh, wow, that's dope man. You playing resident evil eight while watching this brother. I Appreciate that man Where you guys are gonna react to the Tyson best knocked out part two we actually already reacted to it So it's gonna get uploaded This week, so be on a lookout for that. I'm liking this class it up right here. I'm running the m4 I'm not gonna set up. Actually. I want to change it to go Give me that to go or I could go all I Don't know. I'm gonna go with the obsidian might as well go all but Did you catch the canola fight?   Yeah, my aim was not on point Yeah, oh No, I want y'all to see how long it's gonna take for me to get on son. That's how long it took for me to get unstung, bro He knows someone's over there in the spawn Well, I don't know why he's all the way over there, but he's all the way over there We could do the bean booze for the punishment No, I ain't gonna lie to you.   They didn't put the camera on there he should have died Got some good teammates trying to try to communicate What and then I knew he was there and I still died And I died Collider dream you died.  I was nearly sick from beer bean booze for real Yeah, I don't know if we're gonna do that. I mean I can ask him, but I don't know man.  Yeah Your night's over. Hey, can we make a comeback is can we make the comeback?  Yeah, it does. We got a pretty good team We can come back. Oh He didn't know he was We can make this come back man One more bro, we literally didn't have no points He got the kill on that I think we can make this I think we make out this bro. Oh, I thought there was no one else coming in. Oh Shit Can we hold it? Oh Come back That was fun, bro, that's that's what makes Call of Duty fun. We had the epic comeback we was down a zero We had no points and we came back put W's in the chat All I want to see is dubs type W in the chat man for that epic comeback, bro Nothing but W's in the chat, bro.  That's that's what make Call of Duty fun right there They backed out, bro. Oh, yeah, you're right. I don't have enough kill 15 enemies in a match 200 times Okay I'm I'm a way to get it down. Well, I'm gonna keep playing using this gun so I can get it They rage quit spam number dubs in the chat dubs in the chat man For that epic comeback, bro We had no points No points This is what happens when you have a good team, bro My team was communicating.   They was all in the party, bro. That was a full six man and we won I love stuff like that.  It was like man.  Yeah Shout out to the man a dubs life, bro. All right, man. See if we can get another dub You got one person on PC right now in the lobby. All right, yeah Let's get this going man. I think what makes this game works Better than other color duties is that it's caught its cross platform If this game wouldn't cross platform, and I don't think you it would get the love it's getting right now.  Oh Yeah Some people's class setup. I'd be so confused on like why would they go with that class of that? Ain't gonna lie to you push back this way Only gonna watch our point. I couldn't see him into the last second.  Okay. I may put on my girl class next I can't believe he pushed What was he doing Okay, wait, what? Oh, I didn't even know where I was getting shot from I mean My gosh, bro, do you watch any card youtubers? Yeah, of course. I'm smart. I'm marksman swag Sometimes a Korean savage Merck music Who else? What's that dude name?  I was coming out So he stopped playing it Which I understand Wow, oh, yeah, Jeff too. Yeah, I forgot about you Yeah, I definitely Be checking out some face you have content. His rage is so funny I'm holding this little spot now. Oh my god Let's start going off. Yeah Oh You're gonna buy the back shacks used if I lose yeah, I'll ball if I don't lose and I ain't buying You know how I go. I think we got another dub y'all think we got it y'all. God damn it No, I'm not a no genus Okay, that was a risky play seems like he's trying to get RPG kills That's the only thing he's running the people P-law Whoa, he got me. You're not the tribal chief, man. I'm not falling in line. I'm gonna pull the Jimmy on you. I Ain't falling online.  You know I'm saying who got another dub y'all Another dub man. All right here Let's see. I'm gonna run me No, I want to run me the growl Pull out the growl Mother load Run that one which one Archangel or Nexus?  I'm gonna put on tracker Take off Sims put on some text still Quick fix Higher alert anyone else Anyone else agreed that the tribal chief Roman is the best Roman Reigns, of course the other Roman Reigns was cringy and and boring and Not cool This one Reigns pretty savage, bro. Try to run this class up. Thank y'all for joining in though That problem with John Cena. That was probably Roman Reigns best promo But even then he was getting bodied You know, I may switch because I don't like this the iron sights on this gun on this particular draw I may switch this one up.  I gotta edit my class I'm put on 60 Take this off muzzle monolithic suppressor I think I'm gonna run this Yeah, I like the iron sights on this one. This one's much more clean. He's going this way Okay, God damn it. Well, I spawned over here. So that's good One person's not playing. I think one person's a okay.  I could not get up there. I hope he's dead. I wasted that Huh, you almost out. Yeah, he did. I'm gonna shoot me.  No Got the chopper gonna go in Rodden defense.  Oh, that boy Nick We're talking not talking about Nick Cannon either Ain't going off right now Well, he's keeping them at bay he kept them at bay for a little bit Well, he was about to beam me If I didn't see him, he was gonna beam my Yeah Let me switch. I don't think I need the laser Only thing I need the laser per se.  Oh man, I think he was at the little tower Damn it one in there. Well, I think that's it Whoo another dub I Imagine as just playing with you and probably didn't mind what that would be awesome. No, that was pretty pretty cool That would be hella cool Another dub man. That's three dubs in a row. Not bad. Not bad. I Am okay with that Three W's in a row y'all. Let's see. What do I want to add to this?  I probably just run obsidian Camo Yeah, man, I'm trying to continue that dub spreek spree. I said spreek.  Mm-hmm Jesus see if I could get a better game With the glove. I just like the iron sights on this guy. Where did he come from?  Yeah, we got this one. Well, I should have that Appreciate that man. That was a nice four piece Like I said, I just like this gun because Depending on what iron sights you use I didn't really use the glove in a minute. Mm-hmm.  I didn't even see him my peripheral At all That was luck. What's good river?   Someone is really using that spotter drum. I'm gonna get over here Just gonna melt Oh recall everything. Oh, what are you serious, bro? What's good the ante?  Oh, thank you.  Are you serious right now?   Oh, I go lots of you.   Oh, I was close That's another dog man Right here, this is it. This is it. This is it. This is it. This is it. Oh That was sick. That's what you call sicko mode for real.  Nah Nah, man, I can't do that on the regular. Let me go get some water. I Will be back can't go wrong with some good old H2O I love these gameplays. I'm glad you love them, bro. I Really do. I really am glad you love them. Hold on y'all Did y'all know Jay Cole is gonna be playing basketball in the African League this week Look it up.  He's gonna be playing basketball in the African League How do you feel about smackdown? It's good.  I want to do it, bro. I Don't want to do it, bro If he makes me do it.  I'm not trying to do it. God damn it Yeah, I know I saw the shotgun. I'm not doing it. I'm gonna chill I'm gonna chill So I can't get nothing going right now. I don't want to do it, bro You think I should pull it out. I don't even have to class it up for it Yeah, I don't have to class it up for cuz I took it off because I wanted to actually try this game Where did my bullets go? No, I'm not gonna do it all right said I'm not going road All right Yeah, I'm not gonna do it, bro.   I got my revenge. Wait.  No road miss here.  Oh my god Yep, there we go. That's it. You want to do that load out Get it. I'm doing it. That's cool Take this Where did my bullets go damn it It's hard to get over there, bro This is one of them hard ones to get over there too.   You want to pull that shit?   I can play like that, too Yeah, you don't like that. That's just a bad situation Oh Anybody can use the shotgun. I can use a shotgun. No No, you wanted to use the shotgun Y'all see how easy it is. You see how easy it is simple You pull the flaming shotgun out. I pull it out Simple oh Oh, you didn't like that You didn't like that.   It just makes you a troll Man if you can't beat them join them and then out do them, you know I'm saying Really like I said when that shotgun, it's it's all about holding the close quarters area pull the trigger twice That's pretty much it and know your range with it. That's it. That's another win, man Another win for us, man. I don't even have to pull it out, but I Had to reply into an email. I'm play was on it so long I mostly been playing cold war. Hey, you better than me. I can't play cold war.   Well, you you know, you got me a number one favorite youtuber I really do appreciate that.  So I eat lobbies like that Hey lobbies like that My laugh is the best appreciate that bro My laugh is okay See what they talk about you dubbing should be a great, but you think that Oh, thank God. He missed. No, I'm the only one capping this I don't know who's gonna win this game. I can try but my teammates ain't really helping my teammates are not really Oh Yeah, we may lose this one Look at him like no one look. What is my teammates doing? Can y'all tell me what my teammates are doing? But what am I teammates doing?  What are they doing? They're not going to the objective Look at my team, bro Yeah Yeah, we definitely lost this game, bro.  They're not doing the goddamn thing They're not doing anything Oh, look at this. I just hate my team, bro. I just oh my god Thought that was somebody else There's nothing I can do that spawned right into it.  Yep Look at this, bro.  They weren't doing anything.  I haven't done free for on a long time. I'll do some free for all Just for you guys Haven't played free for on a minute, bro Not in his game See if I can get a match of free for all bosses where I'm always playing hardcore free for all you play hardcore Yeah, I'm not getting nothing. I'm not even getting any lobbies really Who's been a reindeer or the Roman Reigns Roman Reigns right now? Roman Reigns is killing it right now. I prefer a hardcore free for all. It's fun, but very frustrating I'm not really into the hardcore It's very campy for me personally watch. What's your favorite call of duty game?  Oh Oh That's why it's good to have that a perk Oh got my streaks.  Oh, no Wasn't being attention. Oh my goodness. I With that no, no, no, no First place Whoo Bison is kind of good That's our 31 kills 30 I don't know who put a thumbs down on it I don't really care as long as you guys enjoy it. That's really all that matters man. Like, you know, yeah GGs. Yeah, I do not want to play in the same map though.  Yeah, I think see a pump number wrestling all together Some mojo versus Goldberg. No Goldberg is not the Goldberg you guys remember from WCW and early WWE when he came after the rock was like Hollywood like no He's not the same Goldberg. He can't go like he used to he should not be anywhere near wrestling ring anymore The same way with Undertaker. I love the Undertaker, but no, they need to let it go and just chill Live out the rest of the days Maybe make some WWE appearances other than that. No, so how old have you known the up for I Get what you're trying to say, but I've known Dubb since we was in seventh wall since I was in the seventh grade in middle school The match was a 1v1 since your teammates were throwing 1v11.  I don't really care I don't really care for broadcasts and free for all but I'll try it AJ Styles vs. Nakamura is a better book match Yeah, if they let if WWE let's don't go we saw what happened at WrestleMania Shit was should have been the best match of the night and it wasn't because WWE didn't really just give them that the opportunity to just let them work Whoever produced a match it was It's really just it's just rotating spawns. Oh my god. I must kill that guy.    He finally moved. Oh, he looked away at the right time Oh, he's trying to hit me with the Cali sticks. Just holding this out. I'll take it y'all Yeah, I would do a boxing match depending on the situation Yeah, two games in a row. I may get back into my free-for-all bag. I think the next session I think that's what I may do. I think I may go into my free-for-all bag I'm gonna play one more and then I'm gonna call it a night We'll do one more Ross versus Jake Paul. That would be epic I would have to train because Jake Paul will probably beat me in a boxing match. I would actually have to train I'm literally would have to train at least I would have to get in shape and everyone Jamie he's not winning the Universal title. I'm just be honest with you He's not winning the title. You want to know why he's not winning the title because they still want Roman as the champion my guy I'm sorry to tell you this He's not winning the title Appreciate you coming in man Tim. I think this is the longest stream I've ever done three hours in Then next stream, I'm gonna do strictly free-for-all Strictly playing free-for-all next stream. So I think this gonna be my last one.  Do y'all know?  Oh, it's going down over here. I know where he's at though Soon as I'm about to go up there. You want me to do it? I'm gonna do it. Just to get them out of there Yep, I gotta get all the way over here. Yep. This is perfect. Oh my god, bro What's his name? I'm trash He's definitely trash. I gotta wake my way up there. Hold on. Let me change my load out Shrapnel There we go. There we go. I gotta make my way over there, bro Oh, he got it. Oh Damn it. I was so close I want to kill him so bad.   Yeah, it's mega campy I'm not to play this again, but I want to kill him. He's camping up here God damn This is this is what free-for-all lobbies have turned into there we go. I'm gonna make it my mission. Oh Wouldn't even paying attention Now it's not sweaty lobby is just one dude camping. Yeah, it's just a very campy lobby It's not sweaty by any means I wouldn't call it sweaty Is that one dude sitting up there in that one house? I'm gonna hopefully they doesn't break up the lobby cuz I want to play him again Why is he shooting my body when I play free-for-all on camp that dude was definitely camping hard. Yep Yeah, I'm definitely going to Make my way if he's if this lobby doesn't break up I'm gonna set up a class just for him because I know he's in the camp So I will set up a lobby just for him to counter camp Hopefully it puts us in the same lobby again. Is he still in here? Who was that? I'm trash No, it's not the same. It's not the same man. I wanted to play against that guy Yeah, he's not in here We'll play back luck. I Don't want to end it off on that one. No, thank y'all for being in here for so long man over three hours I want to thank y'all so much those who stayed you guys are amazing for that Stayed up late on a Tuesday morning. So thank you so much for that. I appreciate you joining in cutting Kenny If I can't get another lobby, then I'm gonna end it Other than back lock I'm about to go to bed so I can go to school. Hey, man. Thanks for joining in You know I'm saying appreciate that Intentancy is one twenty three in the morning.    I'll take that Yeah, damn.  Oh I'm so close to the first place. Oh He got it. Fuck. Oh, it's that close, bro. I was that close That close to the first place man, he was gonna offer to as well Damn the claymore did it boom and I Was that close bro? Oh I think that's it for me man. I Think y'all so much for joining in on this long stream Appreciate all the love and support make sure you hit the like button on the stream Road to 40k and I will see y'all probably tomorrow probably try to stream tomorrow if I can I'm not sure. I think we got a record tomorrow So it'll probably have to be Wednesday, but love you guys so much catch y'all next time