There is a new YouTube music checkbox in all of your videos. Did you know? It's right here hiding under the advanced settings where it says YouTube music enabled this video for audio only use within YouTube music. If you check this you may get more views or plays in the YouTube music app. Note this is only for musical focused audio, not just regular vlogs or gameplay. Let me show you how it works. The content eligible for YouTube music and the link to this article is down there in the description below if you want to read it for yourself. It's about enabling your content for the YouTube music app. Note there is no way to bulk enable this for all your videos. You literally have to go to every single video that you want this enabled for and check it manually. Maybe YouTube will implement a bulk update feature in the future but for now it's all manual. You need to opt in your music content into the YouTube music app by checking that box as I just explained. And then this means that YouTube music users who have a YouTube pre-membership can use audio mode to listen to the music without loading the video. Did you guys know about this feature? I'm not going to read the whole article you can do that yourself. Tell me down there in the comments below if you were aware that YouTube added this little checkbox. Are there any other features other people may not be aware of that you know about? Tell us down there in the comments below so we can all help each other grow together as a family. The freedom family. And here's another tip for all of you guys sharing video links. Make sure to add a playlist which is your upload playlist. Let me show you how it works. Here is my video that I created just yesterday about George in the Desert. I was riding camels and doing dune bugging. If you want to see it click that I up there. But how do I share this video? Normally the video link looks like this. It's just a watch page. What you need to do is add your all your playlist your upload playlist link to it. Here's how you do it. You go to your YouTube channel click play all into the in the uploads section. Now in the URL there's going to be an AND list. And then you just put that and share that completely. What happens then is on the right side you will see only your videos. And instead of just the suggested videos that YouTube creates. In other words every time you share a link the next video people will see is from your channel instead of someone else's. Let me again show you how it looks without that little AND list at the end of the link. See it's not showing my videos it's showing someone else's. So if you want to get more views always go to the all uploads playlist. Look at the URL get that little AND list equals piece. Copy and paste it into the link you're about to share on Facebook. An email on Twitter on Skype on Discord. And make sure you add that so people see your videos in the suggested videos column. Did you know about that tip? Do you have any other tips that you think can help channels grow? Tell me down there in the comments below. Now guys I have a list of about 15 videos that I want to make and I will make them. I'll try to make them more than like once a week which is my current schedule. But the reason it's been taking this long for me is because we've had to deal with a lot of new rules around compilation channels. And many of you have seen my videos. Click that I if you haven't the KYC know your channel playlist where I talk about all the things YouTube is doing that are suspending channels or terminating channels that you should know about. And the latest one is this YPP suspensions for top lists. And we've learned a lot of more things about these kinds of channels and what's allowed was not allowed. Click that I to see this video behind me so you can catch up. And I'll make a more dedicated video but the key is commentary is king. YouTube is no longer accepting compilation channels without commentary. And you need commentary throughout the video. Not this like hey watch my video about this top 10 WWE moves in 2K19. And then just play a lot of footage without commentary. And then hope you like it. That's still considered thin content by YouTube. And we've seen quite a few channels get YPP suspended for having this kind of content without commentary. So if you're one of these guys that are saying well nothing's happened nothing's bad happened to me yet. Don't come crying to us when you get YPP suspended. Instead be proactive add commentary throughout your videos. Here's a great example throughout the series starting with Mortal Kombat 4. Alternate skins have been a pretty big deal in terms of what kind of content should come to every Mortal Kombat game by default. So this is a top list. Top 10 worst Mortal Kombat alternative costumes. Normally I've seen videos like this with no commentary just the gameplay. And this channel owner puts his commentary throughout the entire 10 minute video. Let me can play another clip. Mortal Kombat Deception. Oh maybe I shouldn't have shown that part with the head being popped off. So you get the idea. What do you guys think about this? In my opinion it's a good move by YouTube because adding your human commentary creates your personality. It gives people a reason to subscribe to your channel. It gives people a reason to follow you. If you don't add your personality you're just showing top X things then it's just the content that the viewer is there for not your personality. And you should include everything. You should do everything to stand out and adding your commentary adding unique music adding jokes putting little Easter eggs into your videos bloopers. All those things help grow your audience faster. 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Line from Orlando Florida, extracting a signal from the noise. It's theCUBE covering Pentaho World 2015. Now your host, Dave Vellante and George Gilbert. Welcome back to Orlando everybody, this is theCUBE. theCUBE goes out to the events. We extract the signal from the noise. We're here at Pentaho World 2015. Derek Matheson is here from CERN. We're getting all the excellence award winners here today. Right in a row. Derek, thanks for coming on theCUBE. No problem. Very nice to be here. So CERN, obviously European organization, nuclear research, controversial topic, very interesting topic. Heard some of it in the Democratic debate last night. Oh, I missed that. So very interesting. So Derek, tell us more about CERN and your role there. Sure, okay. So CERN is the European Organization for Nuclear Research. That's his official title. But in fact, what we actually do is particle physics. So it's the N word, it's sometimes a bit controversial and it's not the one we typically use because, in fact, it's basically because CERN is an old organization that's created about 60 years ago when at the time, the only thing we knew about particle physics was the nucleus of atoms. Therefore, it's nuclear. These days we know a lot more about stuff.  Exactly. Yeah. We don't make electricity. We actually consume quite a lot. We don't do anything of any kind of military application. Everything we do is open science. That's the fundamental purpose of CERN, is basically to understand how the universe works, understand the laws of nature. And basically we bash stuff together underground, subatomic particles, and then study to see what happens afterwards. I gather that a friend from Oracle told me that you generate about a petabyte, a second of data, most of which, the vast majority of which you couldn't possibly store. In fact, it's actually slightly more than that. So each of the different, we've got four main detectors in the LHC. That's kind of the headline act of CERN, which is the Large Hadron Collider. And each of these different detectors basically produce, they're like 3D cameras. But they're 3D cameras which run 400 million photographs a second with a raw data rate coming out of the detectors of around two petabytes a second. Wow. It's a crazy amount of data. In fact, that's not the main mission. I mean, my job isn't physics. I'm not a physicist. I'm actually a software engineer, computer geek. And in fact, what we actually work on mainly is running CERN as a business. Because as you can imagine, it's a big organization like CERN. We're an international, intergovernmental organization. And our role basically is to provide infrastructure for the visiting scientists. There's about 12,000 scientists who come to CERN who work on the different activities from all over the world. 1,500 of them, in fact, from the U.S. But really, from across the planet, all the particle physicists come together to work on CERN's activities. And the job of my group, in fact, is to provide all the infrastructure, all the software infrastructure, to run CERN as a business. We've got a billion-dollar budget entrusted to us by funding agencies across the world. And it's up to us to make sure that it's looked after, it's spent correctly. We're auditable. We adhere to all the various compliance regulations and transparency and everything. So that's really our job. So CERN is easy to talk about all the physics. But in order for that to happen, you have to have the infrastructure to make it happen. And that's basically my job, is to make sure that we've got the software infrastructure to make sure that we can actually run the lab as a business and make it operate. Nice examples would be... We're a trans-border organization. Physically, we're actually sitting on the border between France and Switzerland. So our logistics application comes from one of the most important customer services services that the company has to try to run. And we have a lot of customers and customers forums that it has to be able to manage just by moving stuff around the site. So you can imagine just the complexity of the infrastructure that we have just running this as a business. One of the nice things that we've seen in the past is... Basically, just because we suffer from very exacting requirements, I mean, physicists are renowned They're used to studying particle physics. They're used to having knowing things to the end decimal place. So of course all the business intelligence has to work the same way. And that's basically our job. Okay, so do they get kind of testy sometimes, like TV anchors? Exactly. It's precisely that, yeah. It's the environment that we're used to working. We've got these exacting requirements. And fortunately we also have the infrastructure. We've got the computing infrastructure and we've got the smart people who actually build stuff which works. Yeah. So you get a chunk of this billion dollar budget for infrastructure. Yep. Roughly how's it break down? I mean, is it mostly there? You guys don't have, like a lot of companies, you don't have to do a ton of promotion. No. Which is where all the startups spend their money. So you can actually spend it on an engineering. Yeah, and a lot of it goes, a lot of it basically goes on infrastructure. That's, well, more than half of it basically goes directly on infrastructure.  Yeah. Okay, so what are you doing with that infrastructure? So the scientists come in, they expect consistent infrastructure. They expect a good experience. Right. Your job is to provide that. Yep. I'm interested in how data has sort of changed CERN.  You've always had data, but how this ability to deal with data over the last 10 years has changed CERN. Yeah, it's really the accessibility of the data. I mean, way back when I first joined CERN, now in 1989, it was a long time ago now, I started as an intern. And one of the first things that I worked on. What are you working with, Tim Bairden or Lee? I worked on the world's second web browser. It's not really the coolest to work on the first to be better, but I worked on the second web browser. Was that on the next, was that also on the next one? Well, this was actually a terminal based one. VT220 terminals, these kind of things. Yeah, yeah. How does that work? This beats me a little bit, I'm afraid, but yeah. All technology, early web, yeah. No underlying hyperlinks or anything like this, but this was the beginning of all of that. And this technology was developed basically because there was a need for the physicists to talk to each other in an efficient way. So they built the web. Now the web has transformed the world. I mean, you can't imagine the world now without some kind of a worldwide web infrastructure. Are you doing similar things that could have transformative effects based on the sort of support for infrastructure? Because that wasn't really helping people peel apart these boson particles. It was supporting the work of the facility. Is something, are similar innovations going on? That's actually our principal target now, is to make the data available to the people who need to get it. Our message is basically, like in the same way, search engines today are kind of working really hard to make it easy for you to get on with your everyday life. So you know how long it's going to get you, how long it'll take you to get to work in the morning. And it tells you that because it knows where you live because it's worked it out. And it knows where you work because it's worked that out already. It knows the traffic information. So it can tell you all this information. So what we want is to be able to give that kind of live information to the fingertips of the people who are actually running CERN. So the ones who are the project leaders, the ones who care about the logistics, the guys who are actually building these different parts of the detectors, they need the information at their fingertips. They're not necessarily even located at CERN. They're probably working in a research institute in Helsinki or something like this. And they need still to have direct access to all the data coming from CERN. So one of our main missions is to try to get it all into one place. This has been the major job that we've been doing over the last three years. So like everyone, we've had silo developments where you have all the HR data in one place, all the financial data somewhere else. And we need to get that together somehow. And what we did was basically build a team to try to put everything together into a single data warehouse. And okay, we can take advantage of the fact we've got access to fantastic hardware. So we can put the whole thing in memory and have an enormous in-memory database to have sub seconds, speed of thoughts, business intelligence. I like how many nodes and total memory. Total memory of a single node is 256 gigabytes. Single node 256, okay. And we've got access to several of them. I mean, the moment we're just rolling this out, so actually we can run the whole thing on a couple of them. But it's basically, because we have this kind of infrastructure available to us, which you can imagine with Moore's Law, it's going to become commonplace in five, 10 years time. That will not be an impressive number. I do vendors say 256 is now pretty much getting, but how big is that cluster or clusters? Okay, so we're expecting to have an order of one terabyte of data. That will basically be all the business data. Okay. I mean, remember we're talking business data here. Like OLTP stuff. It's the usual OLTP stuff, exactly, yes. So we've got stuff from logistics applications. We've got stuff from our standard financial system. We've got lots of information from maybe less common data sources because since we also have a pension fund running at CERN, we also have a school. We have a hotel.  Fire department, postal service. We've got all this kind of information going on. And because we have access to all this information, it's all tracked. We've got all the information about it. We can know things like, how long will it take for the parcel to arrive? How long does your order on average take to get the approval process completed? We know that information about all the operations of the organization, so we can expose that to the end users and give them an idea so they have upstream information about planning. So the legacy systems of record, which were good for automating processes and standardizing them and the business transactions they supported, now you're putting another layer on, which gives you information about how to optimize them. Exactly, and that's basically the main goal is to be able to get this information out there so people can actually make decisions based on the information that's trapped in all these legacy OTP systems. Get it out and so we can actually use it. You talked about this operational data, but you also have a lot of scientific data as well. Absolutely, yes, yeah, yeah.  I've always done big data, but you're blending a lot of different data types. So how has, back to sort of my original question, how has the way in which you've been able to handle data changed in the last decade with all this dupe stuff and spark and Kafka's and all this other cool sort of technologies coming out, has it had an effect and what effect has it had? No, I mean, I think the effect is now that, I mean, cloud computing is a kind of everyday buzzword now. CERN has been doing cloud computing since about 2001 we were talking about it then. So, I mean, the LHC computing grid is the largest computing grid on the planet with hundreds of data centers linked together. I can't remember how many, is it two, 250,000 CPUs and one computing grid. It's a, we need enormous infrastructure. This is the bare requirements that we need in order to process the LHC data. This is a need, a must have for CERN to have that kind of infrastructure. It's almost like showing up as a blip on the NSA type scale. Yeah, it's really a huge amount of infrastructure that we have to put together. So how do you use Pentaho? How do we use Pentaho? To deal with all this mess. So Pentaho is basically our strategic choice for all of the business intelligence or the organization. This is the main use. So we basically go rid of all of the legacy systems that we had in Consolidated. So no more do we have all the different homemade reporting toolkits from a variety of different people. Different vendor provided the reporting toolkits as well. We brought them all together and said, okay, one big data warehouse for all the operational information. One reporting toolkit on top of that and that's Pentaho. And then behind it's using PDI basically to do all the orchestration for all the ETL processes. And there we're basically trying to do things real-time. So we want a data warehouse which is less than a minute behind what actually is reality. And that's- You said something, I'm sorry to interrupt, but something behind the data warehouse and the reporting toolkit that, but before the data warehouse providing, you know, near real-time results. What was that? So it's PDI. So basically using PDI as this closing the loop, basically having it running continuously. There's no longer a nightly extraction job or the typical things that we used to do. Now we have information real-time and that allows us to basically have processes which can take advantage of the data warehouse in real-time. I mean, we have information, for example, when a contractor arrives on site, that information is recorded in our system, has to propagate to the access system so they can go and actually work on the accelerator complex within minutes because they do their access, then they want to go down and actually work on something. So this is really significant. This is, well, what Mike Galtieri from Forrester talked about earlier and what we've been talking about for a long time, which is the analytic data pipeline and how, what's the latency? And it sounds like you've gotten the latency down to even just for operational reporting, very, very, very short time. We have exacting needs where we want to have things to actually work in as close to real-time as we can manage. And for us, close to real-time is in the minute range. Yeah, or even one minute. So where do you see this whole thing headed as we wrap here? You've talked about sort of the journey that you guys have taken. What's next? What's next? Actually, we're looking at using Pentaho in other areas. I mean, there's a lot of opportunity there, particularly in the area of things like predictive analytics. It's something that we've been using WAKA a bit. We think there's a lot more mileage there to actually try to do something, not just predicting, but also actually acting upon it. We've obviously got a lot of people interested in making sure for our governance to make sure that what we do is done well and transparently, cleanly.  We have to care about this kind of stuff. And tools like WAKA are going to help us with that. Excellent. Well, Derek, thanks very much for coming to theCUBE, sharing your story. Congratulations on the excellent award. We didn't actually talk about that. Maybe let's put a little plug for that. Why do you think you want it? What does it mean for you? For us, it's the wholesale change from ad hoc solutions, piecemeal, put together business intelligence solutions built on silo data, put it all together into one place and allow this kind of synergies that you can get while having a single solution which talks both HR data and financial data and logistics data all from the same point. Simplifying the chaos, Derek Matheson from CERN. Thanks very much. No problem, thanks. All right, keep right there. We'll be back with our next guest right after this. This is theCUBE, we're live from Pentaho World 2015. We'll be right back.


We do not act, temperatures will soar, seas will rise and the very existence of many small island developing states will be threatened. But existing commitments to reduce emissions fall far short of what is required. The president of the next United Nations Climate Conference spoke at this year's IAEA Scientific Forum on the role nuclear energy can play to help drive the transition to clean power. Nuclear currently accounts for a quarter of global emissions and as a source of constant low carbon power nuclear can play an important role. Mr Sharma was one of a range of prominent thinkers and policy makers who spoke at the event to discuss ways innovative forms of nuclear energy can help combat climate change. What is clear based on our work at UNEC is that we will not achieve our objective collectively if nuclear energy is excluded. 90% of electricity will need to be produced by low carbon sources by 2050 if the world is to meet its climate goals. The director of the International Energy Agency who is a keen advocate of renewables also argued that nuclear should be part of the clean energy mix. The scale of the challenge of addressing climate change is so big that we cannot afford to exclude any solution out of the table. And we believe at the IAEA I believe personally nuclear is definitely part of the solution. Breakthroughs in the use of atomic energy such as safer nuclear reactors, small and medium reactors and improved waste management were all covered in detail during the event. The resilience and flexibility of nuclear power was also discussed including as an option to back up intermittent renewable energy. In the face of the mountain pack of climate change the international community can no longer afford to ignore the nuclear sector's solid track record. The future is clear hybrid power systems that combine nuclear technology with renewable intermittent sources for power generation and industrial heating. Experts at the two-day scientific forum discussed the large number of countries currently embarking on or expanding nuclear power programs. Contrary to some narratives what we see is a steady grow in nuclear energy across the world. A few years ago to think about nuclear energy in the Gulf would have been considered a joke. Now it's what we are seeing. The scientific forum is a key event in the nuclear calendar and is held every year as part of the IAEA General Conference.


I'm Kim Joiner, Deputy Assistant to the Secretary of Defense for Outreach. I'm Brigadier General Dane DeLazza, Deputy Director of Operations with Sunshine Command. We are excited to welcome the participants of the 2018 Joint Civilian Orientation Conference. JCOC offers a unique opportunity for influential civilian leaders who have limited knowledge of the United States Armed Forces to participate in hands-on experiences with the men and women of their military. During this week, the JCOC participants will have the great experience of learning what it's like to be a soldier, sailor, marine, airman, and coast guard. They will see live demonstrations of the Coast Guard search and rescue, experience the first day of a marine retreat, train on 8-10 simulators, witness the superlative skills of armed special forces and see the life of the sailor on the United States Armed Forces. But most important, they will have one-on-one personal interactions with the troops, learning what we do, how we do it, and why we do it. Throughout their experience, we will update you on their JCOC journey through social media and videos.


Hi, my name is Tom Scanlon. I'm a research scientist at the Thayer School of Engineering at Dartmouth College. In this video abstract, I would like to share the highlights of a paper recently published in Biotechnology and Bioengineering, authored by myself and my colleagues Sarah Dossel and Carl Griswold. The paper is entitled A High-Throughput Screen for Antibiotic Drug Discovery. The primary research interest of the Griswold Lab is discovery and development of antibiotics for the treatment of infectious disease. We are particularly interested in discovery and engineering of enzymes that degrade cell wall targets as a primary mode of bacterial killing. In this paper, we describe a method for ultra-high-throughput screening of cell wall hydrolyzes. Nature provides an almost unfathomable diversity of unique enzyme activities that could be useful as novel therapeutics in a biomedical setting or as green catalysts in chemical engineering. Despite intense scrutiny over the past few decades, biochemists have only scratched the surface of natural enzyme diversity. Indeed, the vast majority of soil microorganisms cannot be cultured by standard laboratory techniques. The uncultural microbiota thus represents a rich source of novel enzymes. In our paper, we describe a novel platform whereby environmental DNA or single large gene libraries can be cloned into a recombinant expression host and screened for antibiotic activity at a throughput of roughly 5 million clones per day. Just to put that in perspective, that's roughly 5,396 well-plated screening in a single day. Drop-based microfluidics is a powerful methodology for co-encapsulating a genetic determinant with a reporter molecule, usually a fluorogenic probe for desired activity. While this form of chemical compartmentalization is undeniably powerful, it is most compatible with on-ship sorting and requires customized, elaborate setups that are not widely available to most academic researchers. Perhaps the most intriguing aspect of our recent publication was the development of a microfluidic device and workflow for in-vitro compartmentalization without any of us having any experience in fluid dynamics, photolithographic fabrication, or microfluidics. Provided access to a compressed gas source, the entire droplet-generating system that we describe in the paper can be purchased for less than $250. Critically, our approach involves creation of agarose and oil emulsions in which recombinant microorganisms are co-emulsified with bacterial pathogens. The antibiotic-producing microbes secrete products of the gene library, which are concentrated in picoliter droplets and the antibiotic activity can thus be acid using a fluorescent viability dye. By using a solidified hydrogel aqueous phase, we can use standard flow cytometry to screen at sorting rates that exceed 3,000 events per second. Proof-of-concept experiments demonstrate efficient selection of antibiotics creating yeast from a vast excess of negative controls. In addition, we have successfully utilized this technique to screen a metagenomic library for secreted antibiotics that killed the human pathogen staph aureus. I hope you enjoy reading our paper. Please contact the corresponding author, Cowabhers-Wald, with any questions you might have. Thank you very much.


What up everybody welcome back to the anxious truth. This is podcast episode number 177 1 7 7 I am drew linsellata creator and host of this fine podcast or what I hope is a fine podcast Today we are going to talk about something called the discomfort of hesitation So I appreciate you coming back welcome back to the program welcome back to the show whether you're listening on Spotify or Apple Podcast or wherever you like to listen to podcast or maybe you're watching on YouTube in which case hit the like button and subscribe to the channel Or maybe you're watching on Spotify because I've been chosen to be a Spotify video podcast ahead of everybody else So I'm pretty excited about that either way. Thank you for coming by. I appreciate you being here the discomfort of hesitation What is this all about? What am I talking about? So so much of this topic that we talk about all the time anxiety anxiety disorders recovery all of that stuff Discomfort and being uncomfortable is a huge part of that. It's huge like it's just woven into everything we talk about So sometimes we talk specifically about discomfort and having to deal with it Sometimes it's just implied in the background, but it's kind of always here, right? There's always discomfort. We're always talking about that So let's talk about that and let's talk about why the discomfort that's caused by hesitation and by hesitation I mean sort of starting and stopping on your exposures, you know I'm gonna do it and then you're back away. I'm gonna do it and back away Also creates discomfort. So let's talk about discomfort as it fits into the topic in general Like if you decide that you are going to do this hard stuff, right?  If you do that, you are choosing discomfort There's going to be discomfort. You're going to be uncomfortable.  You're gonna be really doing hard and scary things, right? So we always want to acknowledge that there will be discomfort as part of the recovery process always acknowledge it Always always you're doing hard things. So expect to be uncomfortable on the flip side of that If you choose to not do that which everybody has a right to do right while I'm talking about this I might as well mention it like everybody has a right to not choose these things and we all have to respect that, right? But if you choose to not do those things and you want to kind of stay where you are because that is a little bit More comfortable for you you have a right to choose that but there's discomfort that comes there, too Because if you're watching this video or you're listening to this podcast, whatever you're doing Then there's some level of discomfort in your life over where you are, right? So if you are choosing to not do these things yet, you're watching and listening anyway You have to acknowledge that there's discomfort then that discomfort may be a little bit more mental and emotional Because there's a discomfort of feeling like you're missing out feeling that maybe you're failing as a partner as a mom As a business owner whatever it happens to be right So there's discomfort whether you do the hard stuff and there's discomfort if you choose to not do the hard stuff So no matter what happens, there's going to be times when you are uncomfortable Now that discomfort may look different this discomfort looks a little different than that discomfort Nonetheless, you are not guaranteed a nice smooth comfortable ride through this experience. It just doesn't exist There is a third discomfort that this podcast episode this video is all about and that is the discomfort of hesitation so the theory behind this and really the concept that I want to bring up is that Whether you choose to do the scary thing now I'm talking about in general and also on a day-to-day or minute-by-minute basis So I'm really you could boil us right down to like Deciding to do a specific exposure, right or meet a specific challenge I don't know. I have to go to a birthday party today. I haven't done that in a long time really scared So a planned exposure or an unplanned exposure or challenge, whatever it happens to be we can boil it right down to that event Right, whether you choose to do that scary thing Or you choose to not do that scary thing. There's going to be discomfort either way But there is a third discomfort that often gets overlooked and that is the discomfort of hesitation So this is true both on the micro level whether you're talking about one Individual exposure or challenge of this this particular moment in your life or you're talking about your approach to anxiety and recovery in general So there's discomfort if you go down the recovery path There's this comfort if you don't go down the recovery path and there is discomfort if you kind of keep yourself stuck in the middle So this is one of those situations where like if you really wanted to boil it down and grossly oversimplify it I would say pick one Pick to do the hard thing and then do it or pick to not do the hard thing and then don't do it Because let's take the example of being in a situation where there's one specific say challenge or exposure that you have to You have in front of you, right? You've decided to go down this path and there's a particular exposure That's really challenging for you. So it is already challenging before you go into it. You're afraid There's anticipatory anxiety. You're worried that you won't be able to handle it. It's really scary for you It's difficult for you. It's the thing you haven't either haven't done before or haven't done for a very long time so You're going into it already with the idea that this is really going to be hard It's going to really be scary and you're expecting to be uncomfortable and that Expectation of discomfort tends to raise a discomfort level as it is If you choose to not do it you back away from it. I'm not going to do it Then there's the discomfort of I failed I should have done it. I missed an opportunity. I'm never going to get better Like so there's discomfort either way the third discomfort in this example the example of the actual exposure or challenge today Is the discomfort of sticking yourself in no man's land in the middle between doing and not doing? When you do that you are literally shooting yourself boom right in the foot like That is adding a level of extra discomfort and by the way if the Guinness people are listening Call me because I may set the record for using the word discomfort the most number of times in like 15 minutes So give me a ring Anyway, if you put yourself in that situation where you're living in no man's land like I'm gonna do it But I'm not but I don't do it. I'm gonna do it, but I'm gonna back away. Yes. No. Yes. No. Yes No, you kind of put yourself in the yes. I'm gonna do this, but no, I'm not I'm gonna do it half way And then bail I'm gonna do it three quarters away Then bail I'm gonna run out the door and then run back in the door Like you choose to do it, but then you actually don't do it But then you don't choose to not do it either which I know I'm talking in circles here But I think you guys get this probably many of you understand this. There's that that hesitation zone Like the indecision zone that's between yes, I'm gonna do the thing and no I'm not gonna do the thing The level of discomfort that you experience in that zone in my opinion in my experience Actually outstrips the level of discomfort that you experience if you actually just complete the exposure Or if you retreat and failures to feel yourself a failure after so discomfort if you do it Discomfort if you don't more discomfort if you stick yourself in no man's land in the middle in the indecisive hesitation zone That's the discomfort of hesitation Why is that so damn uncomfortable? Why does that make it worse and trust me on this? I have been there many many times. I Spent hours and hours of my life Standing at my front door looking at my car on the driveway 20 feet away right seven meters away wherever you happen to be like I spent Hours of my life standing there and opening the door and closing opening the door and closing it backing away Taking off my shoes putting my shoes on walking at the door and they're walking back in the door I have done that I have lived extended amount of time in the the hesitation zone the indecision zone both on the micro level each a day by day minute by minute the actual Exposures I had to do and on the macro level. Yes, I'm gonna do recovery.  That was so hard Why didn't I just do it the first time like I made it more difficult on myself By hesitating by stopping by start and stop by living in no man's land of indecision Two steps in three steps out. I made it worse for myself So the discomfort of indecision the discomfort of hesitation At the micro level for each individual challenge or exposure that you have to meet is real So that's a tough place to put you in that really is adding discomfort that you don't need to add You're not being very nice to yourself if you do that Now on the macro level there is discomfort and hesitation also That's it. I've had enough of this. I don't want to live like this anymore tomorrow I start I'm going to start doing hard things and you kind of do for a few days and then you back away So that's like hesitation on a more macro level. Maybe not minute to minute, but day to day or week to week And there's discomfort there too So on the macro level if you kind of continually put yourself in uncomfortable Challenging scary situations. There's stress there. There's fatigue. There's a mental strain on there. Yes, you're getting better But it's hard work, right? It's hard work. So that's there's discomfort there If you decide i'm not doing this and you just retreat back to the sofa boy There's a lot of emotional discomfort there too, you know, it's really hard facing your fears You know, it's really hard not facing your fears So we're damned if we do and we're damned we don't but if on the macro level looking at time spans of days or weeks if you're going to kind of Kind of wait into recovery and then back up and then kind and then back up Then the discomfort you create there is more of an emotional discomfort of that failure feeling that the wasted time feeling So you look back two months three months have gone by and like and I haven't made any progress But three months ago you were you would determine that you were going to get better and three months went by because you sort of Waited in the back down and waited in back down. So Here's what we get to in this The discomfort of hesitation living in that no man's land of indecision Whether it's for a specific challenge or exposure or it's on on the larger scale recovery in general Is probably more uncomfortable on an additive level than the discomfort you experience either retreating or going forward In the end So you're making your recovery More challenging that it has to be on the long term the large scale And you're making that individual challenge or exposure Much more difficult than it has to be on the micro scale like the individual event scale So what do I think about this? Like what would I tell you to do in this situation? I kind of think you're better off either decide to do it rip off And I know this is a gross overs simplification I am in no way trying to minimize the challenge Right. So a lot lately on the podcast in the community I've had some great friends and collaborators who've introduced that self compassion And self caring and being nice to yourself in the discussion part of it is always acknowledging that this is really hard So when I say What would I have you do about hesitation? Well, you either have to make your decision Be firm on it rip that band-aid off always acknowledge that you're doing a hard thing And understand there's a struggle that comes with that don't penalize yourself for for struggling You're going to but you either have to decide to do it and actually do it rip off that band-aid and go forward Or you have to decide I'm not ready to do this and I'm going to back up And that holds true On the large scale for recovery in general and also on an individual basis for each challenge that you face So if you decide I'm so my my recovery plan tells me that I am supposed to you know Whatever I'm supposed to drive to the supermarket today And you decide I can't drive to the suit then decide you can't So either do it that critical moment of decision I feel like I can't but I'm gonna do it anyway any follow through And then there will be discomfort, but then you will be it'll be over Right or I can't do this today and then decide to not do it and back up and that's it now When you back up, I'm not saying back up forever throwing the towel and that's it You're never going to recover.  It might be a half hour It might be an hour. It might be the next day. I don't know This is kind of amorphous here and then go at it again but learn from the retreat experience and use that Retreat experience positively and productively if you can It's way better to do that Like if you're going to retreat then retreat, that's okay We've all done it. Everybody does it. It's not a crime.  I didn't do my exposure today And if you're you have a good support system, you have a good counselor good good guides good Therapists good recovery groups all that stuff then you're going to get that feedback that says, you know what that's okay But let's do it like we know you can do it. You can do this. It's going to be uncomfortable You'll get that encouragement hopefully And then you can use that encouragement to sort of repel you forward to actually do the thing And this applies really if you stretch the timescale out to recovery in general also So I guess the way I'm going to kind of wrap this up It would be to just sort of remind you that there will be discomfort in recovery or not recovery either way We are going to be uncomfortable if we go forward and we are going to be uncomfortable if we choose not to go forward But we will be more uncomfortable if we kind of trap ourselves in this DMZ demilitarized no man's land Of indecision and hesitation I'm going to do it. No Yeah, no, like you are making it worse on yourself Then it has to be so either do it or retreat for a little while and regroup and go at it again Trust me on this one Like I'm guessing that many of you that are watching have experienced this and then when you actually do complete the exposure Or on the long term really on the long term when you are six seven months into your recovery journey And you think of all the time That you started for a few days and then backed up or started for two weeks and then backed up Think about that think about the impact that that had on your recovery journey It doesn't make it impossible. It doesn't mean you're never going to recover But this is already really hard stuff guys like this is difficult. This is challenging It's counter-intuitive goes against all of your instincts to find comfort and safety and Certainty and like you want to feel okay You don't want to feel uncertain and vulnerable and afraid and uncomfortable. You don't want to do that So this is already hard enough as it is Making it harder by sticking yourself in no man's land of indecision hesitation Will bring about the discomfort of hesitation and that is why I named this episode episode number 177 That's why I called it the discomfort of hesitation So hopefully this resonates with you if it does I always want to hear comments questions Whatever you guys have to to you know contribute to this if there's something you don't understand Get me in the facebook group on instagram on youtube Wherever you want to get me ask your questions at great Hopefully this has been helpful to you. Hopefully it's giving you a little something to hang your hat on Maybe a way to change direction a little bit, but there you go. We're going to wrap it up here 17 minutes It's a new record I'm going to try to keep these solo podcasts a little shorter Because I know that a lot of times you guys sort of fall off after 20 25 minutes.  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The electoral process in Nigeria is tainted by money politics, says the Civil Society Legislative Advocacy Centre. And more Nigerians leave in fear as kidnapped for ransom worsens. Is there an end inside? Well, this is Plus Politics and I am Mary Anacorn. Money politics has tainted Nigeria's electoral processes. The Civil Society Legislative Advocacy Centre has stated this. Executive Director Sislak Awal Rafasjani said this, stating that if left unchecked, it will jeopardise the democratisation process and in turn prevent electorates from reaping the dividends of democracy. It was stated that this was a problematic situation because the electoral process in itself is often compromised, resulting in elections not being free and fair. He urged Nigerians to put a stop to the ugly practice. Well, joining us to discuss this, to break it down, is Andy Apotivehi. He is a social reformer and Rimon Kanebehi is a legal practitioner and he is a Sustainability Development Advocate. Thank you very much gentlemen for joining us. Thank you for your time. Great.  You are always asking for things to be done differently. Now, without going into the history of money politics, we know that this has been the order of the day for a long time. But the question is, why are we still practicing this in the 21st century when the whole world is ahead of us and asking for accountability? How do you get good governance? We're also asking as a group of people for good governance, let's not forget, October 2020, October 20 of 2020 when Nigerian young people streamed into the streets of the country asking for an end to a rogue police arm also asked for good governance and we all know how that ended. So how do we ask for good governance if we are still engaging in money politics?  Politics is money everywhere in the world. In the UK, in America, politics is money. What's different is that these monies that are spent in those other climes are spent in line with the status. They are spent in line with the law. They are not just spent arbitrarily. They are not just collected or given out of context, if you permit my use of the word. But you see, in Nigeria, monies are spent because of the fact. Monies are spent the way they are spent because of the fact that we have weak institutions. For instance, INEC has the responsibility to also police the money trail, police how much is spent on campaigns. INEC has the responsibility to take people to courts that have committed one electoral infraction or the other. INEC election in Nigeria. Do you think that this same INEC will be able to discharge these responsibilities exactly as we want? And don't forget, life is all about actions and consequences. People will do certain things that they know that they would do and they can get away with it. They can get away with blue murder in Nigeria because of the fact that we understand that the institutions are weak and institutions will not be able to check it. So if we come here right now, if we are here discussing money politics in Nigeria, I want to say to you for the first reason that our institutions are weak, we would not be able to attend to them. Secondly, there is poverty that is pervasive all over the land, from the north to the south to the east and the west. Nigerians are poor. They are poor, they are starving and they are hungry. And do not forget that poverty that poverty you're talking about was necessitated by bad governance. And could we have played a role in the poverty that you're referring to that we're going through today? Yes, Maria, you are absolutely correct. So is it also a basis?  The politicians understand that for them to perpetuate themselves in politics and in governance, they have got to deprive the people of what are supposed to be the bare necessities so that every now and again that they dangle some carols in front of them, the people without thinking and rationalizing would therefore vote them. This is exactly what is happening in the country. This is the narrative that has become indoctrinated in Nigeria. Politicians know that the woman within the village who has been unable to feed his family, if you threw something of say 5000 that they can use to feed their families for the next one month, they would without consideration, without taking the necessities, all of the things that we are supposed to have got as a politician before you ascending to any office, without considering those things because of hunger, they would jump at it and the politicians have weaponized hunger and poverty because they know that if the people are allowed to be quote-unquote emancipated, the people are allowed to enjoy the bare necessities like you see everywhere else in the world that the people will start questioning them, the people will start rationalizing things, the people will start thinking through protocols and processes and saying that we cannot have this man be the next president of this country because of his antecedent. We cannot have this man be the next governor of this state because of his antecedent. Today, as I speak with you, Marianne, we would be deceiving ourselves to think that we can address money politics with the way politicians have weaponized politics, weaponized poverty. Raymond, just to speak up on where he stopped, I'd just like to go back to what Moussara Fajani said. He said throughout the world, democracy is judged as the best form of government, but it is being constantly assaulted in Nigeria due to the phenomenon of money politics and vote buying. He also says that money seems to have taken the center stage in our political process and that of many other countries, including that of Nigeria, to the extent that the word money politics has crept into the country's political vocabulary. We listen to radio stations, we hear analysts like yourself and Andy, waxing lyrical and speaking about these same things and saying if you sell your votes the next four years you're going to be grinding your teeth and we still go ahead and do it and half the time the people you see doing these things are not necessarily people who have no idea about how the political process works. So really are we not the problem of ourselves if we in one breath are asking for a change in government or we're asking for our government to be more accountable to us and then in the other breath we're taking money and saying Honganuku, kill me. Are we ready to have that conversation? Yes, I get to thank you. So that's actually the point. There is a demand and a supply side to the whole monetization of the political process. It has a demand and a supply side. On the supply side you have the politicians, you have the political parties and the political leaders. On the demand side you have the electorate, the masses, Nigerians who are in the corners of this country.  So both sides are involved in this what they have called vote trading. So the thing is this, as you see in the last prayer, give us this day our daily bread. The average Nigerian, his idea of dividends of governance is not the way it ought to be. The dividends of governance in terms of good roads, he pays his tax, he has lights, affordable healthcare and all of that. It doesn't operate that way. For him the idea of dividends of democracy is what he can get in the moment spontaneously. What have you made the average Nigerian begin to think that way? Yeah, because this illusion meant over time we have seen that politicians come to the campaign stores, they say all kinds of things, they are voted into office, then those campaign promises don't translate into actions. So the electorate, if you notice in the last three of two circular elections, Nigerians refused to participate in the electoral process.  My votes will not count.  So in order to get people to come out and vote, they have to incentivize that process by handing out what they call stomach infrastructure, as was popularized by one politician. So you have to use that to incentivize voters and they get whatever they can get, they cast their ballots and then they wait for the next round of elections. So it's a cartoon to situation and as Mr. Andy pointed out, I don't know when it's going to end because even in the so-called advanced democracies, you see the same thing happening. During the last election in America, there were aspects of vote buying. People on the election day, they were sharing bogus, handing out all manner of things just to get their voters, sorry, their supporters to vote for them. So it's just, I think, is an element of the political process, whatever, in any part of the world. Andy, let's talk about the political parties and the role that they play in this. I know that Serap, which is one of the people in the forefront of trying to fight for the soul of Nigeria's democracy, has taken the big political parties in this country to court because over and over for years, if I'm not mistaken, since 2015, have been asking political parties to make public their accounts and all their spendings before elections and they've still not been able to comply. That case is still in court as we speak. But then political parties are somewhat responsible to the constitution of sorts. INEC also has an oversight function, but every time this issue comes up, INEC will say that they're not law enforcement per se. If we cannot control political parties and how much money is that they're spending, where there is even a cap in the constitution, how do we even control those who have to buy votes at the polling units? So you need structure to be able to do all of this. Merian, how can you, how can you follow the trail of the money spent by politicians in Nigeria? You see, all the things we are trying to do with BVN and all of these things, how can you follow the trail? How much are spent in printing my posters, how much are spent in, how can you really, for when there is no system in Nigeria, Merian, there is no system that is working in Nigeria. Even the banking system has been infiltrated. Did you know yet the CBN governor recently blaming a certain online shop for the fact that Naira is losing value against the dollar? It comes to that indeed something's fundamentally wrong with our people. We are trying to put the cart in front of the horse. We must build systems, Merian, let me just ask you this and let people listen. What do they call structure in Nigeria? Structure is equal to money and the amount of violence you can deploy. QED, nothing more than that. Oh, Wike has got some more structure in reverse state. Money and violence, he can deploy. Oh, Boratinubu has got some more structure in legal state. Money and the violence he can deploy. Structure in Nigerian political parlance is equal to the amount of monies you have got, your watches and the amount of violence you can deploy. And guess what happens? If money is so central to winning elections, do you think that they would even allow you to create a structure that can check it? They won't because they want to consistently perpetuate themselves there. The people have got to take their destinies in their hands. The people have got to devise a methodology, a system, as addressing this nonsense in our society. The politicians are not ready to let go of the watches. They are not ready to let go of the booties. They are not ready to let go of the monies that they are enjoying from this nonsense that we are in in this country. So you and I, Merian, we need to start conscientising the people that if we wait for the National Assembly to plug the holes. We've been having these conversations over and over again. It's not just me. We have had conversations like this. Journalists on the radio, there's so much conversations online. So it makes me really ask, again, is it falling on deaf ears? Or do we just are comfortable in the mediocre or the mediocrity that we find ourselves in for the want of a better world? Unfortunately, please, Merian. The people who are to execute are the executives. The executives are largely elected and selected. The people who are to legislate are the legislators. They are largely elected. But guess what? They have said to us through the very office of the Senate, the very person and the office of the Senate president and the chairman of the National Assembly that whatsoever the president gives to him is going to acknowledge, is going to pass it. It will not be. It will not even vet away. It tells you that there is some collaboration between the executives and the legislature to keep Nigeria in this hole. And I make both to say this. There's some collaboration between them. Otherwise, people should have been thinking about concrete steps. For instance, so that it doesn't sound like Andy is just criticizing. Why do you not want to on Bondola in X? How can you give INEC one commission that responsibility to police electoral infractions, to conduct elections, to pursue and to follow the trail of money that are spent together with some other very, very complex responsibilities that are given to them and expect that INEC is going to perform and perform very wonderfully around these these rules? The truth of the matter is that the Nigerian politicians, they want to keep us this low because they want to perpetuate themselves in office when they are done. They then bring their sons or their children when they are done. They then bring their girlfriends when they are done. They want to perpetuate themselves in offices so that the average Nigerian is going to remain small. Mary Ann, do you know that an average Nigerian politician is not even thinking Nigeria? Let me break it down. His children go abroad to receive education. His wife and himself, they travel abroad to receive medicals. For instance, our jagaban is illegal, is abroad receiving medical treatment. Their investments are abroad. They go abroad to do vacation. Everything about them is outside of this country. How then do you think they are going to want to fix your country? Nothing about them is about this country. The children are educated abroad. They buy clothes abroad. They go abroad to do shopping. They go abroad for medical tourism and everything. Do you think they are going to look at you and not here in Nigeria and want to better our laws? They won't unless we are ready to take it by ourselves. They will be the kingdom of God-suffered violence. And the violence to get to them. Let me come to Raymond. I'll come back to you. Could it be that it has something to do with how our political parties are structured? Because I didn't realize how difficult it is to explain the Nigerian political process to anyone outside Nigeria, as I did yesterday. Because I was trying to explain to a friend of mine who lives in the UK who has never been to Nigeria, who does not understand the political process. And he was lost. So how do you know the difference between party A and party B? And I said, well, they're flags. And, you know, so could it also be that maybe the way our political parties are structured without Cleco's ideologies, maybe this is why the whole political process in itself is the way it is? Well, if it has to do with the issue of the bastardization of campaign finance and funding, I don't see how it turns on the lack of ideology in our political parties. Because why do our political parties not have Cleco's ideology? I think that's it. Someone says that at the level of our politics, that we don't have the luxury to be breaking heads over ideology A or ideology B. At this level, the average Nigerian wants just the basic things of life. So any political party that can deliver good roads, healthcare, education, just those basic necessities, it suffices. We don't have the technical abilities, the technological we are without. To engage in such kind of upscale ideological policies that we see in the U.K. and in America. You say that we do not have what it takes to hold on to ideologies. If we say that we support Labour, or we say we're progressives, or we say we're liberals, you're saying that the average Nigerian cannot, does not have the capacity to comprehend that kind of ideology? Well, you see, at the end of the day, the governance process is all about delivering dividends of governance to the people, right? So whatever ideology you want to actually hang on to, it must translate into dividends of governance to the people you claim to govern. So I don't see it as a lack of, a function of lack of ideology as much as it is a lack of governance in the real sense of it. Let's talk about those who want to break into these political parties, because it's become a boys' club of sorts and you have to either have a godfather or belong to something to be brought to the table. And there are, whether we like it or not, men and women who are very intelligent, who have what it takes to run this country at whatever level that are unable to break through. So how do those people get access into these political parties? Because one minute we're saying, we want people to join political parties, be catcaring members. But then there is a brick wall of sorts that you have to hammer through. So how do we break through, especially for young people, we have the not-so-young-to-run bill. What does it do for us? So the thing is this, in principle it will appear that those, the gerontocratic political class, wants the younger people to participate, in principle. But when you look at it in the real sense of it, you see that there are structures, there are barriers, like what we're discussing now. So it's a window dressing. Yes. So what's what it's called now? The limitation that has to do with to fund any political ambition. It's a whole lot of money. You can imagine in the proposed Amendment to Electoral Act, the campaign to a run for office of president, it has been jacked from five billion to 15 billion. If you want to run for office of governor. You don't think that that's deliberate by the big boys in the big boys club to keep certain people out, because they want to continue. They are the ones who can afford that. You have it in a way. In a way it's part of it. But when you look at it in the real sense of it, if they should write five million error there, we know that they spend way more than that in the real sense of it. So I think it's also a function of the National Assembly being realistic, knowing that we spend way more than this money to fund this particular office. So why should we continue to deceive ourselves? Why not just get the numbers up there and then try to enforce spending to the limit that has been pegged in the electoral act? So as I was saying, those structural limitations are barriers that will prevent young persons to actually aspire to those offices. But that moment standing, it's wanting not have money to finance your elective or political ambition. But you have got to participate in the political process first. So young persons as much as you want to enter into elective offices, we have to enter the political parties, register, become card carry members, participate at 10 meetings, at 10 workshops. You understand why we are doing that? We are building a network. Because even in other crimes, you have to raise funds to actually run for office. You have to raise funds. And the last American elections. But you see in that instance, you do not feel the pressure to be corrupt, to steal. Because the monies that you're raising is the citizens that are coming together because they trust that you can deliver. And they are properly managed. They have fund managers who generate these funds. So put that side by side with what we have. There are lots of question marks around this.  We have got to participate, build those networks so that when you want to run for an office, you can have people to work up to who can help you generate funds so that you can be able to give those who are already there a run for their money. Well, this conversation cannot stop here. We will continue to have it. Because you know, the election season is upon us. But I want to say thank you, Andy Apotive, and Raymond Canobie for being our guest. We appreciate it. Thank you. All right. We'll take a short break. And when we return, we'll be talking about the kidnapping and banditry in the country. Of course, there's a report talking about how it's been increasing and how it's become a big business of sorts. Stay with us.


A landmark moment in Paris. Governments of the world have a plan to reduce climate-changing greenhouse gas emissions after two decades of trying. This agreement should be the turning point in our story. Even if all the initial targets set in Paris are met, we'll only be part of the way there. Far more needs to be done to keep global warming in check. We are fundamentally running out of time. Human progress is neither automatic nor inevitable. No social advance falls in on the wheels of inevitability. What's radical is to write off the fact that change is within our reach. We as everyday people have so much power. Losing my future is not like losing an election or a few points on the stock market. This climate disobedience does not make us hooligans. It is our sacred duty to those suffering in the present day and who stand to lose so much if we fail in this race against time. Let's take a moment to hear our heart. We can stop this madness right now, right here.