Hello Psych2Go viewers. Our guest for today's live stream is Shana, who is passionate about spreading awareness about borderline personality disorder and dismantling the stigma around it. She was featured on the YouTube channel, Soft White Underbelly, where she discusses her inspiring story. Shana is also a model and an actress based in Detroit, Michigan. Welcome Shana. Thank you so much for joining us today. Hello. Hello. Thank you for having me. It is a pleasure to be here. Of course. We're so excited. So can you tell us a little bit about yourself and your background? Sure. Yeah, absolutely. So again, my name is Shana. Like you said, I model. I act. I've been born and raised in Detroit my whole life. I'm 23. I'll be 24 in November. So I'm a Scorpio. Oh, me too. Oh, awesome. Yeah, November 7th. I'll be 24 then. So yeah, yeah. Got that coming up. I'm going to Florida this year for my birthday. So I'm getting ready for that. Gonna go to South Beach, Miami. So I'm going to Orlando. I'm going to EDC. Excuse my cat. I've never been. You love cats here at Psych2Go. No, they'll be all in the back. Yeah, no, I'm going to EDC. It's like a music festival slash radio. So it'll be my first time out of state. So yeah, I'm really excited. That is so amazing. Lucky you. So starting off, when were you diagnosed with borderline personality disorder? So I was diagnosed really way back in like 2018. I started seeing a psychiatrist because so well, I also didn't really get to touch base on on the Softlight Underbelly video, which is really not which I love that video, by the way. It's great. So much. I appreciate it. So I've actually been dealing with ADD since I was like very young. So I do have to take a medication for that. I have to take like Adderall for that. So for ADHD? Yes, I, but you know, that hasn't really been like this. I've been dealing with that. That's not really doesn't really bother me. I mean, I have little symptoms, but oh, sorry about that.  You're fine. You know, I have my symptoms of that, but that's it probably has an impact though. Yeah, definitely. Yeah, it can make things a little more intense than they need to be sometimes. Like, I just my mind and then the top of my, you know, my anxiety and then my board life is just sometimes it can get a little chaotic. But um, yeah, I see my psychiatrist.  I brought it up to her. I pretty much told her that I think I might, you know, be a candidate for such. So we yeah, we did an appointment with that and I got diagnosed. It was I kind of seen it coming though. It was one of those things. Like I said, like I wanted to ask her, you know, like her opinion on it. And you know, I just something that I kind of all like I just knew I was always like it was more than just depression. It was more than just anxiety attacks.  I knew I had to talk to somebody about it because I knew I wasn't going crazy. Absolutely. And was it difficult for us? Like when you heard that diagnosis, like you have this, did it make you feel like how did you feel about it? So surprisingly, it wasn't as difficult as I thought it was more so kind of in a sense reassuring again, it was already new. And it was like if it wasn't that then what was it? So in a sense, it was like, again, I expected it. Like I it was something that I kind of just had a good feeling about, you know, doing my research and whatnot. Once I noticed like things were just not the same for me as they were for other people.  So it was just more so reassuring for me just because I again, it was something I knew kind of in my heart. Was it almost like a sense of relief? Like maybe I'll get the help now. That's awesome. I love that. Yeah.  Like now I know that it's here and we know it's here. Like now what, you know, but yeah, it was still a sense of relief. And so you said that you feel like you knew like deep down inside that you had it. Why? So like what were like the symptoms you were exhibiting?  I don't get sad like a regular person. Like I noticed everything since I was a child is just intensified. Like everything is just intensified. Everything is just times 10. Like if someone like it would be the littlest, you know, I was always extra sensitive over like the smallest things. I'd always have like freakouts over like things that I've noticed most people don't really freak out over. So, you know, it was just those kind of things. I was like, okay, I'm sorry. I feel like there's something different or something wrong here because like why am I so angry about something that I shouldn't be this upset about? Like if I were to get into it with the, you know, like my significant other, like I just, I get like, it's a rage. Like I almost black out. It's like it's not even me. Like the emotions are just overwhelming. Yeah. It's overwhelming. It's like, it's like a rush of just unneeded adrenaline. Like it's just too much. Yeah. And so on that, how did you struggle due to borderline personality disorder and how has it impacted your relationships? So what I really struggle with is again, my emotions, my thinking can be a little more like I overthink a lot.  So I love that. Yeah. So I don't really like is more so my own battles. And that's another problem. Like it's, it's never my friends. It's never anybody and I'm very like self-aware. So with me being self-aware of my issues, it's like, I, it's like, I know what's wrong. I just, like, I know that I'm mad of my own personal issues or what I'm going through or because of how I'm feeling.  Oh, so, and so do you have intrusive thoughts as well? Like just really intrusive thoughts? Yeah, absolutely. And why do you think your anxiety got worse after the video? I don't think it was necessarily anything like with the video. I think it was just something like I've noticed and then now that I'm like, I've noticed it, it's just kind of like I'm, now I'm always like, I think it's just something that I'm always like kind of noticing now. It's like, I don't know, I just kind of was like, oh, like I just been really anxious lately and then I kind of just been anxious ever, I don't know, like it's, it's weird. Yeah. Like I just been anxious just for no reason, like I'll, I don't know, like I'll wake up and then it's like, I'll find something to be anxious about all of a sudden and I don't know why, like I have no idea where it came from. I think I really just, I think it's just something that I eventually needed to work on that's just coming out of the box, you know, and something else I have to work on. So do you feel like you're more like self-aware, self-conscious about yourself? Absolutely. And that's like another reason why I knew I was a possible candidate for borderline because like I just, I'm very self-aware. I've always been self-aware. And that's also an issue though, because I'm so self-aware that my ego, I feel like, like makes me feel like I don't need therapy. That is my biggest challenge right now, trying to get myself back into therapy. It's like, you would think, you know, oh, just go to therapy, you know, it can be really difficult because it's hard to find the right therapist. Especially when again, like, you're self-aware and it's like, well, I already kind of have a, like, I kind of know what's going on. I know what's wrong. I know why I do these things.  Yeah, but it can be hard because you want to find a therapist who may be like, Taylor's to like, who understands and sometimes it's hard to do that, or someone who's going to give you, you know, sometimes they're therapists who talk too much or don't talk enough. Right. Yeah, it's like, yeah, it can be hard to find a good therapist too. Yeah, absolutely. And then what treatment options have worked for you though? Like, you mentioned that right now you're not in therapy, but what has worked for you? So at the moment, again, I'm not in therapy. I did stop taking my medication that was, that was prescribed to me about two years ago. No, but um, I've stopped, I stopped taking that. That's another thing I, I don't know why I did, but I talked about that in the soft buy under belly video as well. But um, so my medication, I'll be completely honest and everyone, you know, feels how they feel. And it is what it is. If I'm not like, I usually smoke like that, like marijuana. That's my everyday, like, you know, a blended day type of girl. But I've also been for the past like almost two years now getting into, you know, magic mushrooms and psychedelics.  It has been proven to really help with like depression and anxiety, you know, mental health in general. And I can vouch for, for my experience, you know, I might micro dose like once a while, just to kind of clear my mind, refresh like my mindset, you know, it really does help out a lot. And it's helped you. Like what, what symptoms have you noticed or like, has it helped with like anger? It makes me like think clear. Like I feel like I can think more clear when I, um, like micro dose. I feel like, um, I'm not like anxious for no reason.    It's, it's so like, like I can't even sink, right?  I have a car, you know, I bring it.  And that's amazing. It's amazing that like you're working so hard and that you're dealing with your mental health issues, but despite that, you're working so hard and, you know, doing your thing. So I commend you for that. That's awesome. Thank you. Thank you. Absolutely. And so you said that, so there's a big stigma and I think you know this with borderline personality disorder, the stigma is that people with B.B.T. are over sexual, violent, crazy. How do you feel like the stigmas harm, you know, people who have B.B.T. because I think those stigmas are harmful and they're usually inaccurate. I know, especially because like that's, you know, and everyone's different. Yeah. Like I can just at least for my case, that's, I'll tell you what, I'm definitely not over sexual. I think it would be the complete opposite. Like I'm so like in my mind all the time, I don't want to be over sexual.  Like I'm still an empath. Like I still have like, like, like, I'm still content. Like, you know, I'm still like, I'm aware, like, I'm like, I have empathy still.  I've never done anything like that. I'm like, I don't, you know, I've never been overly violent.  It wouldn't be like ever at nobody or, you know, never, like I don't, you know, I'm not like, I guess like I'm angry at myself. So why, why would I be angry at other places? Like I have no reason to just lash out on people. Exactly. That way, like, I'm more mad at myself than anybody. So it's like, it's a me thing, you know, that's just for me. Like I, you know, some people maybe don't have a control on that or don't want to have a better control on that. I do.  And I love that you brought that up because that is like the misconception and the stigma. And I even heard like in this podcast, someone talk about like, Oh, people in the media are like, in movies and shows, the way they portray people with borderline and someone mentioned fatal attraction and boiling bunnies. I'm like, that's so harmful.  And it's inaccurate.  But I don't like, I think people like use that and then take it farther. Like it's more so episodes.  It's more so just like, again, for me personally, it's like, what's the word I'm with? I just said it too. It's like, you know, it's just, it happens. Like it doesn't, it's just, it kind of just comes and goes. Like it's kind of hard to explain, but you know, it's definitely not. Yeah, I agree. I don't know why people make it such. Yeah, you're still be final, of course. I'm fine, you know, I don't need like to be in the psych ward, like I'm okay, you know, you mentioned a really good point that like the name of the disorder borderline is maybe that's why sometimes people think that way. Do you think they should change it? Do you think it would help if they change the name? Because borderline makes it sound intense. Yeah, like your border on the spectrum, like no. Like, yeah.  I wouldn't know what else to like really call it. I'm sure if I would have thought about it, I could think of a name maybe to call it, but definitely borderline is, I think pushing pushing you a little bit. Yeah, so episode of like, you know, it's like how they, it's like how they change the name from okay, so like how it used to be multiple personality disorder and they change it to disassociative. I think that's what they change it to. I'm not sure, but I know they change the name. I think that with borderline, it would help to actually change it because I think that's why the stigma exists because the name is so dramatic. Absolutely. I agree 100%. I think the name is definitely just dramatic borderline personality disorder. Like, it's just more so again, I just, I feel, we feel things more intensely than others. Like, that's literally, yeah, feel the big difference. Like, I'm more so I'm, I'm more liable to like half depressive episodes. I'm more liable to like have panic attacks. I'm more liable to have anxiety, which is pretty much, you know, I'm, I'm just, I can, I can lash out of like, you know, it's just things that are different. Like my mind operates a little different, but you know, exactly. And you shouldn't be marginalized or stigmatized for that. As an alien, like, oh, borderline. A lot of people honestly have like, not everyone is perfect. So there's, there's something with, you know, everybody grannies, is it to that extent? No. But you know, like, everyone's different. Yeah. Like, and I feel like there's a lot of more people that are coming out, like that are actually borderline.  It's like, yeah, because I'm not, I'm not like the stereotype. Like the harmful stereotype. Exactly. So that brings me to our audience segment where we answer your viewer questions. I'm super excited.  No, not for having borderline. No, have I went through like, an elementary middle school and high like, have I had like moments where I've been bullied because of like, my emotions or it's usually because of my emotions too, which is funny. Like, I'll just, like, I'll get bullied for being like over sensitive to a certain situation. I know that sounds strange, but I really would, you know, I would get bullied for like, lashing out, like, and, and like, you know, I'm not lashing out, but you know, like, I'll like, get into it with a teacher or I'll cry, like, you know, like, I would like little stuff like that, you know, and it would be by my so-called friends too, but at the time, I didn't even know I had it. So no, it's never specifically been for that. And then the people who do know, you know, which is mostly everybody now, everyone that does know has been very supportive.  So Victoria, this is a great question, actually. How was it for you when you first told someone about your diagnosis? So actually, crazy, crazy, crazy story. I, the only person that knew about my diagnosis before I made the video was my boyfriend.  If it's not something that, you know, you don't have to stay with me.  So, you know, he made the decision to, you know, be with me. So we're still together. As far as everyone else, everyone knew from when I made that video. And yeah, when I, the video came out again, I've, I had support.  It was just support. If anything, I just got a lot of like, um, inboxes of pretty much like, supporting me. That's amazing. It's really, it's because you're being, um, you're inspiring other people. And I think people really see that and it resonates, right? Definitely.  Have you ever gotten that like through the internet or just in real life? Um, I wouldn't, no, no one has ever like said, oh, you're faking it. But I did have a group of friends who I'm no longer friends with that group. Um, I do believe at a point, granted, they didn't, you know, know the extent of, um, my issues. And I was still figuring out what was going on too. This is before I got diagnosed. Um, I think they didn't like think I was serious about my mental, like I think they thought like I was like playing around about my mental health, that I was like lying, you know, like that I was trying like saying things to like not hang out or trying to lie. You know, I definitely get that feeling that they, because that's kind of why we, we're not friends. They kind of didn't really understand like what was going on. Like, you know, and it's okay. You don't have to understand. It was the way they were going about it. They weren't very nice to me about it. So, um, yeah, no, they've, um, I don't think they ever like saw I was lying to my, like they never said it to my face, but I don't know. I've always felt like that's pretty much why I'm not friends with them no more. But no, I've never had anybody come up to me and tell me, you know, like I think you're lying or anybody inbox me that or any comments. So I would hope not. I have no reason to. So, but you know, everyone's has their own opinion. Well, it is what it is. Absolutely. And then, um, Troy asks, how did your family react when they found out you had BPD? Um, honestly, so my parents specifically might like my parents. That was who I was worried about the most. My other family, I don't really have a lot of family members. So the ones that did find out again, all support, my parents did it not support, like they supported me, but if you see the video, you kind of got a glimpse of how they can be. So it was a little, you know, like, Oh, well, why did you make the video? Like you kind of made like, they were more concerned about them, how they looked, you know, and that's an issue. Really? Like they were concerned about their image? Yes. They've been doing that for a while though. Like they, they do that. They can, they do that often, which I love my parents, but you know, they've, there's always kind of been a thing with them. Like if it makes them look bad and, you know, which my parents have done a lot for me, but I think the issue with my parents are that, um, they think me speaking on, um, a trauma for me or something that I might have went through as a child back then, they take it as disrespect or me like knocking down their, like their sacrifices they made, which I've never done. I've never said that I like, they're the horrible, the worst parents ever. I've never said that I, they have done a lot for me. You know, they have kept the roof over me and my brother's head. Like, you know, like that's all very true, but you know, just a classic case of, um, tad bit narcissism. Does it feel invalidating in a lot of ways? You know, cause it's like, I'm not trying to come for you. Like I love you. I'm still here talking to you. And they have to, yeah, you're allowed to tell your story. Yeah. I can still tell my story. Like, you know, absolutely. And then vice shawl asked, have you often dissociated from yourself? How do you cope with it? Yes, often. Um, how I cope with it, honestly, it's, I have to push myself.  Like there has been recently, I just recently, like two days ago, I'm still kind of getting back out of like that mode because I was just in that mode. Like nothing feels right. Nothing feels real. You know, I don't want to, like everything just feels kind of weird. You know, I definitely, again, how I cope with it, I, it's a push. Like honestly, like if, if you don't push yourself to cope, it's not going to, they're not going to, you got to push. That's really, absolutely. And then have you ever, um, so they asked the mask and I asked Sean, have you ever ruined a relationship when you were splitting? I'm not sure if we discussed the concept of splitting and BPD. Did you want to touch on that real quick? Um, we can. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So my, so I, the most, I'm trying to, I'm trying to think because I've really only had like bad BPD and two relationships. The relationship that I was in previously, the one that I'm in now, um, have I ruined the last relationship because of it?  We just had different paths. That's, that's really why we, um, broke up. Now, have I ruined this real, um, no, but do I feel like it? And do I tell him that? Yes, I do feel like when I kind of lose myself a little bit that, um, yeah, I do feel like I can be, I did not literally just have this conversation with him. Like, I feel like I can be like a bad girlfriend. I feel like I can like ruin things. I feel like I'm ruining your happiness. Like I don't want to do that. Like I feel bad. Like I feel like I ruin things, but he claims it's not true. Do I think that's true? Not really, but you know. And then Ritza asked, when experiencing rage, how can others best support you in that moment? I think this is a great question. Yeah. So I actually, I know it's crazy is I get that, um, I've actually gotten that before somebody asked me that because they're friend, like asking for a friend that has BPD. So, um, yeah, I actually get that a lot. But, um, so honestly, unfortunately, sometimes, like you, you got to kind of like for me, I have to go through my emotions.  You know, sometimes I just need to breathe. Other times, like I'll be so much built up that it's, you know, and it's as scary as it can be to watch or as like sad, it can be to watch like somebody care about like experience these like intense emotions. Sometimes, you know, it's just best like to like for me, I need to feel those emotions and let it out. Like if I need to cry for 30 minutes straight and just scream and cry, that's just sometimes what I need to do. And, you know, once I let it out, I'll feel better. You know, I can then I'll probably be able to talk about a little more because like that's another thing with me. It's hard for me to talk in that moment. Like when somebody, you know, all like, what's wrong? Like I can't always, like I don't have the words at the moment. Like I just, I need to feel like I just need to feel right now. That's the only thing I need to do. And after, once I can feel and validate my feelings, like in my emotions, then I can probably explain it better. Absolutely. And then motivational ask this is, I'm going to just say trigger warning because this is a difficult question. And it might be upsetting to you. So just a trigger warning before I ask, motivational ask, can you ask Shauna if she has ever engaged in self harm? My ex had borderline personality disorder and sometimes she would cut. This is a very difficult question and you don't have to answer it. But yeah, this is what she asked. So, you know, I don't, I don't mind. So I having, I used to, yes, I've never really like, I've never really been like a cutter though. Like I've had a experience in middle school where I like try to harm myself. And then I think when I was like 20, when I first moved into this apartment, I did try to like cut my like self harm. And then I also like had a lot of suicidal thoughts. So no, like, yeah, that's definitely a thing, you know, it's different for everybody. Some people, I've, I've been dealing with suicidal thoughts for a long time. But I'm also like, I'm spiritual. So I, you know, I do tarot and stuff. So it's like, I have a, I have a different, and this is just me personally, for me, what made me kind of calm down on the suicidal thought, which I still get trust, like every time I get in my modes, I like, I want to like, I can't do it. Like I literally just don't want to be here right now. But I haven't tried to like do any physical harm lately, but that's because I, I have a new, you know, I'm going through like a theory with this, like I have a thing with like, I know in my heart and soul, I'm not ready to die yet. Like, and I know now that's powerful. Yeah, I just, I know it like again, that's just me, you know, I do spirit like again, I'm in to tarot.  You know, it's just I'm, I know like mine's like, I'm just, I'm not ready for it. So that's what kind of keeps me here. And I also, I don't think I'm ready to see what's after this, you know, like I don't, you know, I have my own beliefs. So I just, I don't know what's after this. So that keeps me here. That keeps me grounded. It's really powerful and courageous that you like admitted to that. We appreciate it. And thank you for like, you know, inspiring others because that's, you know, it's really, it takes a lot of courage to like admit that. It really does. Yeah, thank you. Absolutely. Of course. And then how do you see yourself? This is Nevin's question. How do you see yourself if you were alone with these issues and how would you treat yourself? So that's a good question. Hmm. How do I see myself if I were alone? Um, I think about that a lot. So like, that's, that's why it's a good question. I think about that a lot. And I'll be honest, I don't know if I even have an answer for myself, like, for that yet.  Like I'll, I just go start dancing again and I'll just go make a bunch of money and then money will keep me happy and I'll see my friends and then maybe I won't feel so alone. But realistically, I know that's probably not how it would happen. I think once a while I'd probably be sitting on this couch all day crying. I definitely would have been having my moments and I don't really, um, yeah, I don't know if that would always be good or bad for me. I'll be honest, I really don't. But, um, how I would treat myself again, I probably just try to keep myself at work. If I don't need one to be home, I try to keep myself out. If I, if I need to be home, I would try to stay home. I try to, you know, do what I best can do if I were by myself. I guess still try to do me. The best I know how to. Awesome. Just taking it day by day. Absolutely. And then Samantha asked, um, how does ADHD interfere with BPD and do you still take Adderall for it? Yes, I do still take my Adderall for it. So it doesn't, um, really affect, like, too, too much. But the day it's like, you know, I'm not every day.   It just, it's more so like, I'm an overthinker. Like it just keeps me overthinking. Like, I just, I'll consistently just, if it all gets bad together, I just, I just overthink more. Like that's really the only thing I've noticed.   So it's just a big mess. Like that's really the only thing it's like, if so much going on, you would think that ADHD would like make me want to start doing stuff. No, I just want to collapse. Like, you know what? I just, like, I miss too much. And then Elsa asked, how would you suggest reconciling with someone who has BPD if they keep going silent after a lash out on you and do they still view you badly through, though you were only, I don't know what the last part says, but you were only the last drop. Yeah. So I'm just gonna say, how do you reconcile with someone who has BPD and has lashed out on you, who's recently lashed out on you?  So, you know, try not to blame them too much. You know, especially if you know the happy PD, like, it's, you know, give them that benefit of the doubt.  Like, some people just are can't get, you know, and if they're the type of person that use hold them accountable, they're not going to like it, then that's their demons. But you know, how do you know, just be there for them, you know, let them know that you still care about them, but also let them know that, you know, you're feeling still did get hurt in the process.  Like, it's for me, again, I'm an empath. Most, I feel like I've noticed a lot of people would be BPD or like empaths. So it's like, we don't mean it. Most of them, I never mean it for real.  Yeah, absolutely. And then let's see. Last question. When faced with challenges or difficult, Kazane, sorry, Kazane asked when faced with challenges or difficult situations, how do you typically cope and find solutions? So when I'm going through difficult challenges, I'm trying to get back into my meditating, meditating really well. That's a good coping strategy. Definitely, definitely get into your meditating. I don't know if, you know, anyone's in the chakras, if you are getting to that, that goes hand in hand with meditating. I honestly try to, it's like, I have to revert my mind back. Like, I just, it's more so when I cope, I usually have to, I have to take some steps back and reflect. Like that's, that's really like how I cope. Like I reflect more so.   Like, yeah, it's just like, how do you, it's more so finding a way of like, how do I get up and like fix this? Because at the end of the day, it's still like, no matter what, like you're not going to change unless you make those changes. Like things aren't going to get better. Like no one's going to come down and save you. Unfortunately, I wish it worked like that.  You still got to adult. I know adulting is get up, but you still got to do it. It's hard. It's just, but you know, it's hard. It's just unfortunately, it's hard.  So we're going to make this a little eat. Like it just, it doesn't work like that. Like, you got to, you got to cope. You got to figure out what works best for you and go from there. You have to be like your own advocate. Yeah, I love that. You don't, no one else will. Well, thank you, Shauna, for being an advocate for borderline personality disorder and inspiring so many people. Like you don't understand like the impact you're making. Like everyone on Psych2Go is going to see this. Thousands of people on Psych2Go millions on software underbelly. You're helping so many people. So thank you for joining us today. Absolutely. No, thank you for having me.  I know how it feels and I am still going through it. Like still, I don't know when it will get better for me, but like I'm still going to keep pushing through, keep doing me, keep paying my bills and keep trying to evolve to be the best me that I can be. And that's amazing and empowering. Yes, thank you. And thank you to our amazing viewers at Psych2Go for joining us for this episode of Psychology Roundtable. Until the next one. Bye. Bye guys. Thank you again.


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Collegative properties to vapor pressure and osmotic pressure. Vapor pressure. You can think of vapor pressure as the tendency of something to escape the liquid phase to go into the gas phase. It works similarly as boiling point, but the relationship between them is inversely proportional. That means if the solution has higher vapor pressure, then this own molecule is more likely to escape into the gas phase, which means that the boiling point is lower. When you add solues to the solvent, because it's harder for the solvent molecule to escape into the vapor or gas phase, the vapor pressure decreases. So the vapor pressure of the solution is always less than that of the solvent. So here's the equation. Vapor pressure of solution is equal to the mole fraction of the solvent times the vapor pressure of the solvent. So the mole fraction is just the ratio between the number of moles of the solvent and the total number of moles, which is equal to the sum of the number of moles of the solute and the number of moles of the solvent. Now the number of moles of the solute depends on the Van Gogh factor, right? So if your solute has a Van Gogh factor of 1, like sugar, then adding one mole of sugar effectively means adding one mole of solute. But if your solute has a Van Gogh factor of 2, like sodium chloride, then adding one mole of sodium chloride effectively means adding two moles of solute. Okay, osmotic pressure. What's osmotic pressure? Osmotic pressure is the minimum pressure that stops the inward flow of its pure solvent across a semipermeable membrane. Now let's look at this tube, which has a semipermeable membrane in the middle. Let's put a bunch of water in there. When nothing is happening, the water will diffuse across the membrane and maintain an equal water level on both sides. I know my drawing makes it make the glass seems to have uneven volume on both sides, but let's pretend like it is. Now let's add some salt to the left side. The salt cannot cross the semipermeable membrane, only water, that's why they call it semipermeable membrane, because this is important when talking about osmotic pressure. If your membrane doesn't let anything in or let everything in, the whole osmotic pressure concept won't apply. So when you add the salt in, what will happen to the water level? Now if you guess that some of the water will move to the side with the salt, you are right. The solvent will move to the place with higher solute concentration in an effort to balance the concentration on both sides. This phenomenon is called osmosis, the diffusion of solvent through a semipermeable membrane from a less concentrated solution into a more concentrated one. There are other factors involved, so you won't usually see all the water move into one side. Now we apply some pressure onto the side with the salt. The pressure will push the water onto the other side which does not have the salt. The amount of pressure that is just enough to achieve that is called osmotic pressure. Let's look at the equation for osmotic pressure. So pi is equal to capital M times R times T times I. Pi, this is the capital Pi, is the osmotic pressure. Capital M is molarity, so it's not molarity, it's molarity. R is the gas constant, T is temperature in Kelvin, and I is the Van Haar factor.


Hello, this is a short video about my Amazon book, 10 key components of doctoral research maximizing alignment and significance. And basically what it tries to do is to talk about the 10 central components in any doctoral research project and think about how they might be aligned or misaligned, and obviously in general one's aiming for alignment, making the whole thing join up right across the piece. So what are the 10 key components? First one is the research questions addressed and they're absolutely crucial in giving shape to the project as a whole, setting out the limits of it. Second one is the ontological position adopted, in other words the nature of reality as seen in this project, and that of course is partly conditioned by the nature of the project and the research questions being asked. Is it concerned with the social construction of reality with perceptions and the influence of perceptions on actions and so on, or is it dealing with something more, quote, factual? The third key component is the epistemological position adopted, in other words the limits of what one can actually say, the limits of knowledge in this topic area. So that's thinking about the nature of knowledge and what can be known about it and really that ties into another one later on. The next one is the domains of literature deployed in the thesis, and I've made another video about that and another Amazon book is forthcoming on deploying literature for advantage. The fifth is about the context of the study, whether it's a single site case study, multi site case studies, whether it's a sample selected from a population, whatever it is, and the sixth one is related to that, the nature of the quote sample, the word sample doesn't apply very well in some kinds of qualitative research but we'll use it. So the nature of the sample in inverted commas selected in that context or context. The seventh is the types and extent of data collected, again the scare quotes are necessary, and analyze so the types of data. The next related to that is the theoretical lens or lenses through which those data are viewed, so which kind of theory you're deploying and why and how. The ninth is the outcomes of the data, the outcomes of the study as a whole, and of course you can see how that ties straight back to research questions and how those data are presented and then finally the conclusions drawn and the claims made related to that. So those are the ten key components and I've provided a list of those and if you want you can divide that list into three broader categories, the details of the design, so that's the research questions, the domains of literature deployed, the context of the study, the sample and the types and extent of data, so that's numbers one, four, five, six and seven, so that's the details of the design. Then social theory is a second kind of broad category, so there we're talking about the ontological position, the epistemological position, and the theoretical lens or lenses, so that's numbers two, three and eight of the ten key components, and then finally the results, third category, the outcomes of the data analysis and the conclusion, so that's numbers nine and ten, and I think one of the key messages is you know it's easy to get lost in the detail in doing research for a doctoral thesis over two, three, four, five years whatever it is, and to forget about these broad questions of how does it hang together, are these things aligned, these different components, these different categories, so I'm suggesting that you practice zooming in and zooming out, in other words seeing your project from a kind of helicopter level from time to time, and then going back down to a detail. So what are some examples of misaligned projects? Well there are multiple ones, these ones are drawn from reality, slightly exaggerated to make the point clearer. For example, a project that takes an ontological position, which stresses the social construction of reality, but then takes an epistemological position that says that it's possible to generalize to a very large number of context, the findings of the study problem there is that social constructionism tends to stress contextual contingencies, the significance of context. Another example would be academic staff's attitudes towards a particular technological innovation, online learning using virtual learning environments for example, but only collects data from learning technologists, not from academics. A third example would be a design, research design based on the in-depth study of one institution, but then making claims about the implementation of change generally, and that is problematic unless theory is well deployed in such cases. So I think you can identify seven deadly sins, I like the structure of the seven deadly sins, in terms of misalignment. First one is drawing conclusions and making claims about significance, which are not related to the research questions. So that's misalignment between components one and component one and component 10. Second one, selecting a context, a sample, types of data, which are not appropriate to fully addressing the research questions. For example, by emitting different types of context, emitting respondents, or types of data, which would be significant for a comprehensive response to the research questions. So there there's misalignment between components five, six, seven, and one, the research questions. So there's quite a bit of misalignment going on in that example. Third one is drawing conclusions based on data which taken together can't sustain those conclusions. For example, making claims which don't have any basis in the data presented, or are based on the researchers preconceptions or preferences, rather than the research. So that's misalignment between components 10, seven, and eight. Fourth one, presenting a literature review, inverted commas, don't much like that phrase, which fails to critically address the deficiencies as well as the strengths of the theoretical lens deployed. And so failing to acknowledge the things that the theory used casts into the shadows, because a theory will always obscure some things and illuminate other things. For example, by adopting a social constructionist perspective, which fails to acknowledge the possible occlusion of structural conditioning of behaviors and so on, that's too locally focused. So that's misalignment between components four and eight, and possibly related to component two as well. The fifth one, making claims about the nature of reality, in other words, the ontological standpoint, the second component, which are not reflected in the claims about what can be known from the data, the points at the end. So that's components two, three, nine and 10. Six one penultimate one, selecting contexts on samples in ways which have no clear linkage to the requirements of the research questions. So in other words, there's a mismatch between the research design and the research questions, which is pretty serious. One of you get to examination with that in place. So that's components five, six and one. And then finally, adopting a theoretical lens or lenses, which really don't do any work for the research in terms of analysis and conclusions. So that's components eight, nine and 10. And in the book, I give some examples of heavily misaligned project report on the one side, a real one. It's not a PhD thesis. It's an article based on research in a single institution of higher education. But in my view, it contains many of these errors of misalignment, some of the sins. And on the other hand, the PhD thesis, which is very well aligned. So I go into detail about both of those. And I also present my analysis of an abstract in relation to the 10 key components, abstract of a PhD thesis, as well as offering some comments on two other abstracts in terms of the claims for contributions being made. So that's about component 10, conclusions drawn claims made. So here are some questions for reflection about the alignment in your project or your proposed project, using these 10 key components thinking about them. First one, do my research questions and my sample mesh properly? And how do they mesh? Are the types and extent of data collected in the vertical column as appropriate to my research questions? Are there other data that might be more appropriate? Is the quote sample selected appropriate in relation to the overall context of the study? Does my literature review, nobody commerce, my deployment of the literature, let's say, cover all the areas necessitated by my research questions. Other methods used in the study, and the consequent extent and types of data collected adequately addressed in my overview of the literature and engagement with it. Do the ontological position and epistemological position hang together? Are my theoretical lenses and my ontological and epistemological positions well aligned? Or is there some misalignment between them? Do my conclusions rest firmly on the data obtained? Can I tie lines, draw links clearly between the conclusions and the data? Are the ontological and epistemological positions set out in the thesis compatible with the research questions asked? Do the types of data and what I want to do with them align to the ontological and epistemological positions I've adopted? Do my conclusions and my research questions fit? Are the questions, are the questions unanswered or conclusions not asked about in the thesis? And finally, are my conclusions sufficiently delimited in relation to my research design on my truth claims reasonable, in other words, from what I've done? So those are the kinds of questions one might ask oneself about the alignment or otherwise within one's own research. Now, there is an argument to say that some level of misalignment is okay. Abes, for example, in two articles says this, the researcher should consider experimenting with the choice and application of theoretical perspectives, bringing together multiple and even seemingly contradictory theoretical perspectives to uncover new ways of understanding the data. Rather than being paralyzed by theoretical limitations or confined by rigid ideological allegiances, interdisciplinary experimentation of this nature can lead to rich new research results and possibilities. That's Abes 2009, page 141. And yeah, I think there is quite a lot to be said for that kind of argument. Actually, in her examples, she doesn't stray too far into contradictory conjunctions of theory. And the problem for a PhD researcher is it's a high stakes project. And being too experimental can result in problems. Really, what you don't want to do is to get into a situation where there are fundamental contradictions. And so some experimentation, some bringing together of previously perspectives not put together is fine, but be careful about going too far into what she calls Abes' course, hybridity, borderlands and so on. The danger for the doctoral researcher is being accused of adopting incommensurable perspectives, incommensurable theoretical positions and so on. And if your examiners begin to think along those lines, then there would be some serious changes to be made. So move with care is my advice in stepping into the borderlands that Abes talks about. Okay, thanks very much indeed.


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I remember growing up and hearing about San Quentin. Maybe six, eight months in, I witnessed my first murder here at San Quentin.  All three warriors. Water! I've never physically heard a man in my life. And I get the same sentence as a murderer. One day, the door is open for them. We believe that we have guys leaving prison today with better outcomes and more hope for the future. Some of the toughest, meanest guys on the yard, you know, they'll tell you I'm never going to a self-help group, but I'll play some basketball with you. Once a week, men from the outside, free men, come into prison to play basketball with Congress. It's amazing. San Quentin Warriors, we are the other warriors. Not the Golden State Warriors, but we like a little brother to them. Basketball is all I've ever had. I'm not locked up. I'm not caged up. I'm not in prison. This is well-free. We believe that we have guys who can come to prison and reclaim the man. Being part of this team, it gives us a sense of purpose and togetherness. That's what he did! Some of these guys are mistaken. They should have been on a Division I basketball team. But for whatever reason, they didn't make it. Prisons have stripped so much of my crime away from me. If everything happens, that happens is to drive us to God, not away from Him. I really want to get out there and be somebody. I need you to support me in between the line. If you just trust me. Good job!


I don't want this very just As my true love sent to me Four dystopia novels Three fantasy books Two historical fictions And one great content But the fire is so delightful And since I smithed I gave you my book And the very next day You folded the page I'm giving you a bookmark Thank you guys for sticking by Watching this absolute wreck of a mess Of an embarrassing cringy video I have no talent when it comes to singing Let alone trying to come up with new book lyrics So hope you guys enjoy this video And that these songs get stuck in your head And to all of you have a wonderful Christmas And yes, and a wonderful new year And here's to 2017 Hey guys, it's Tilly into today I am here with my booktalk slash review Of Gemina by Amy Kaufman and Jay Kristoff And I love this book So I'm going to review it


And welcome to Scrambled. We're going to have an excellent show for you tonight. We have an amazing review with Top Music Eficionados, discussing a great album called Swamp People. They know a lot about what they're talking about, and you'll learn a lot about an amazing album that just isn't getting the recognition it deserves. Yes, of course. And these two critics, one of them being our very own Bryce, and the other being, as you may recall, two episodes ago, we had a musical guest, Justin Colas, and after the interview, he was actually, would not be allowed out of the studio as many of us are, so he has been stuck here with us, so he just gets in our segment sometimes. We don't have the heart to kick him out. And we really get into the heart of the things you can do this summer. So for those of you just sitting at home, flipping through channels, watching us, you're gonna get a lot of ideas of ways to keep you busy this summer, so. You enjoy the show now. All right, welcome to Day Talk. My name is Bryce Parker. I'm your host today. Today in the hot seat, we've got Justin. Welcome to the show. Thank you. Are you ready to get burned? As a matter of fact, I actually am sunburnt right now. All right. Okay, so you're in the wilderness, right? Yes. And you come across a family of bears. What are you gonna do? Oh, well, I've been taught by some books. I'm supposed to become bigger than the bear and make sounds that I've never made before. All right. However, I would probably run. Yeah. You do realize bears can smell fear, right? Did I mention fear? Huh. Good point. This man has no fears. Do you have any fears? That's for another time, Bryce. All right.  Yes. That's good. Hello. My name is Justin Colas. I am here with a very special guest today. His name is Bryce. And he found a brilliant album called Swamp People. It's for the show Swamp People. And he is here with us today to review this video. Howdy. Hey. So, Bryce, tell me your thoughts about this. Your thoughts about this CD. So, when I first saw it, it was on somebody's desk out in the studio. Okay. And I was just like, hmm, this looks interesting. I didn't know this existed. So, I picked it up and I popped it in the CD player. And what was on the CD when you put it in? Well, the first track, I believe, is the opening track for the show. I think it's the show's theme song. Okay. So, that's really basic. It's got some interesting lyricism. In other words, Swamp People repeated over and over again. You know, basic stuff. Putting hot sauce on everything. Deep. What do you think that means? Well, what I really think it means is it's the fight between good and evil inside the main character of the show's mind, this guy right here. I believe that he is struggling emotionally about whether or not what he does is right. That's a deep answer. Yeah. You must have given that some thought. I really did. Yeah. Okay. Now, tell me where you see this album going in the future? I really see it going straight to the top of everybody's end of the year lists, really. I mean, it's really good. It's a solid effort. Well, I myself listened to it as well. And I was just testing you to see how your taste was. And I'd say, you got it. Yeah. You got it, kid. And I noticed that there was a song called Amanda Shaw. Yeah. Could you tell me anything about that? Well, that's not the album. The name of the thing is French Jig. That's who did these. Oh, you got me. They really make it easy for you to tell what the title of the song is by putting the name of the artist who did the song first. It really helps you understand the album. That makes sense. Because really, what they're saying is that the title of the song doesn't matter. It's the guy that they paid money to do it that matters. I see. Yeah. I realized that Steel Bill is not the name of the song because swamp people would have written that. And that doesn't make sense. So you caught me red-handed. Damn. Damn people. Have you ever watched this show? No. But I believe that this show is probably really good if it's anything like this album. Well, I can tell you for a fact that it is really good. Really good. Yeah. Uh-huh. Mediocre superpowers. Yeah. Tell me. Tell me about those. Tell me what you... What I would like to be able to do if I could have any mediocre superpowers. Yes. You know, I'd like to be able to always find a fully charged battery. What decade would you like to live on if you could live on any decade you wanted to? Now. Now? I live in the now. He lives in the now, guys. I don't want to change who I am. I don't think... I personally would live in the 1860s because then I could fight in the Civil War. And why would you want to do this? Uh, I saw a movie and there were vampires in the Civil War and I want to fight vampires. Hmm. I think it'll come again though. You think so? Yeah. Did you see World War Z? I did. I know it's not about vampires. Vampires, yeah. It's about zombies.  Maybe we should start a breeding program with the zombies and vampires. Yeah. Yeah, I probably want to live now, like in this decade. This decade? Yeah, because I feel like good things are coming. There's going to be some really bad things, but... Good things, mostly. Good cool things, like really futuristic. I'm all about technology. Yeah. Future-y type stuff. And I don't think that was a real thing back in the 1860s. Yeah, they didn't have... If you know what I mean. What are you talking about? They had trains. They had trains. Trains are from the future. They are. Hmm. As we noticed in Back to the Future. Exactly. They had a train with them. So yeah. It is a fun topic to talk about, although there's not much to be said about it. Yeah. Everybody knows that the 60s are the best decade, because that's when they invented something. Yeah. Yeah. Maybe if we were going to cut this show, this would be a really great time to cut the show. I don't know. Well, I suppose I'll now tell you what to do over summer, although I don't know why I'm a leading authority on that. But anyways, you can do just about anything. The nights get longer. The nights get wilder. And fun will be had. Sun's out. You can go in the water or go down to the beach, perhaps.  I've read in the comments that people want to know what I am doing over summer, which was a nice thought. I am actually going up to Canada and Alaska to go on a cruise ship and drive into the Canadian Rockies, which is regrettable, because Canada's not really a country. I don't want to go to a foreign country, but it's basically America's hat. Except for police officers called Mounties and bridges don't work. Did I read something about that? Well, anyways, I'll be doing that. And as for the rest of you, you should follow suit. We could all go on the cruise together. Have a great scrambled fan club party. Well, I think that's about all I have to say. Welcome to The Baker's Dozen. I'm here with Dylan McGelegate, a head anchor of Scrambled, along with Nora, who's the other anchor, but he's one of them, so that's all that matters. We're here to talk about a music video released by us, recently released on YouTube and Facebook. It's called The Man Cave. Would you like to give us an inside look at The Man Cave, Dylan? I would. Thank you. The Man Cave is a music video to the Justin Collis song titled Man Cave. And the video itself actually took about probably an hour and a half to film and about an hour to edit, so it was a very quick project. It was my first music video as a director. And it was my first music video as an artist. So just first times for everything. And I'd have to give it a five out of five star rating. It's alongside the work of Krispy Kreme and Bass God. So, be excited. Be excited there's something miraculous coming to this world. If we aren't in the cave, we're probably out at the pool drinking boat drinks and feeling pretty cool. If we aren't there, then we hit up the park. But usually that's not till it's nice and dark.  We kick it. We know how we do. We live life to the extreme. We live in the man cave. We do every comprehend. We hope you get the way we've been. Just like this baker's dozen. A baker's dozen is 13. 13 pastries or donuts. They're better than your average songbot dozen. That's right. Are you a baker? I am a baker. Cool. Well that's it for today folks. We'll be back with you for more inside looks at lovely topics. Hello there. Hope you enjoyed that episode of Scramble. I know we did. I did. Watch the next one. You really should.  I'm a perfectly compatible host. Anyways, next one should be even better than this one. As you notice the quality keeps improving. You have a good day now.


What's up everybody? JC over to jasby's casebricks.com. This is the last filler that sells off the mixer guys We're gonna give away eight mixer spots in this 2020 series one hangar random team number 15 So again, you are buying into a one box hanger break first We'll randomize customer names and teams distribute the hits out of the hanger And then we will come back randomize only the customer names again and top eight when a spot in the mixer Each would be coming up next So let's roll the dice and do the break really quick and it's a six and a five eleven times. Good luck One two three four five six seven Stephen Kendrick at the top Donna Anthony. Let's get on your list really quick. All right eleven times here one two three four five six seven eight nine ten and eleven Nationals down to the Arizona Diamondbacks All right, so we can do with the nationals there. Just a quick glance Like I said, I think no Robert on this side, but Randy Rosarana is actually a rookie for the Hardenals I believe in this one Greg Blue J so that'll have Boba Shett Astros jazz Cubs Adam Harper Dodgers Justin and St. Louis Stephen Kendrick there So let's just alphabetize it and again, no trades guys stick with what you got just a quick little break All right guys, so Nick already has the Nick Cam over here getting ready to help pack stack And here we go. I've got Dustin May Nico daughter rookie And there's a Randy Arosarana hot right now guys numbered here Billy Hamilton Take Rogers This is a sardo quino All right, there you go Now let's switch scenes and let's see who's gonna win spots in the mixer remember top eight get in roll You got a one and a two for three times. Good luck one two three well All right top eight get in Chris you are in Jazz jazz Tony Mike Gerald Zach Paul and Nicholas stone Congratulations There you go three times so Boom top eight get in coming up next is the mixer itself. Appreciate it guys


So I had to do a follow-up video on Sync Thing. So I've been running Sync Thing for about a year. And well, maybe a little longer than a year. I did a video about 10, 11 months ago on it. And I want to do a follow-up because sometimes people ask the question, are you still using it? The answer is yes. And it's also I'm using it more. So here's what's happened. So I was using it and it was working great. And then I said, let's expand what I'm doing with it. This became a great solution for backing up servers and a few other things. And I said, well, let's just let Sync Thing handle it. So I used to have the off-site backups that are created by the servers automatically going to two locations after they backed up. And I said, well, let's just let Sync Thing handle that because it's got such a great reputation for it. So here's the layout of our network and how it works. We have the office servers. And they're all running on a virtual stack. So I only have one computer showing here, but it's a multiple virtual machines. Not real relevant, but the design, it is kept as simple. I'm not the best at drawing these diagrams and they take time. The office servers each have SSH keys to a user directory on the free NAS that goes into Sync Thing. So what they do is each of the databases create a backup and they do it hourly during our business hours. They create backups to their database encrypt them with PGP key, then they drop them over here on the free NAS server. And then the free NAS server running Sync Thing synchronizes with my home server. That's my off-site backup. Me excuse to have a server at the house as well. So they're doing a constant sync. And I have it re-scanning and checking every 15 minutes to see if there's new files. Sync Thing actually wants to sync a little bit faster than that, but it didn't need to chew up any extra traffic because hourly backups, 15 minute check for files, they land over here pretty quick. And the backups are reasonably small, so this happens pretty fast. Now, all the other business files we have, we have a couple of computers, this is our office here and this is Tom's house. So we have a couple of office computers that are connecting to it. And that syncs up all of our business documents and general things we're doing, like accounting and spreadsheets and all the BS that you gotta have for having a business. And this allows me and Marvin to share files very easily in real time. And because these are both desktops here, there's no external access to it and this external access is restricted via the firewall between the home server through an encrypted tunnel. So we keep in sync here. Then at home, in case I need to access some of those documents, those documents are also synced up across here and goes back to my house and if I want on my laptop. Now I don't have my laptop syncing to here because it's much faster to sync local copies of the files right to my computer while it's at home. I mostly use my laptop at home as well. So this keeps a copy of all those files here on my laptop, here on the server in which I get them at high speed and then of course, they're backed up between these locations. Now, there's a couple of risks with syncing or any type of file system synchronization tools because if something bad happens to a file, right away it happens to all revisions of the file. So this is how I mitigate that risk. Here's my free NAS box and this is the folder that everything goes into. So it's the Jupyter volume syncing data and I have it every day I create a snapshot of it. And when it's doing this, here's all the snapshots that I can jump back to that is auto-created and if you notice in here it's keeping them for 30 days. So I always have a lot of snapshots at the ready that I can just restore to. So something catastrophic happened that cascaded through all of this that would easily be remedied by just rolling back to a snapshot. So if I deleted all the files on one computer, yes, it would cascade, delete across the others or fill them up with bad data but I've got 30 days of snapshots I can just roll back to as needed using free NAS. One of the big advantages of ZFS keeps it really simple. Now here's it actually working. You can see it scanning. So this is the free NAS box and it's like the graphics files I updated to YouTube template. So it syncs that. And now I sync offsite. Let's go back to my home box. I sync the graphics files. So you'll see the same file name that says last one was updated there. And there's the server backups in there. But then when it gets to my computer at home, it's only syncing the business files and graphics. I don't need the server backups also copied to my laptop. Now I also have this folder called tom backup. And what I do is occasionally take entire snapshots of my home drive. Not very often cause not much changes on it but that snapshot of my home drive is a snap in time of how it looked. I do that to get all the random files and config files that it may be changed. I run that kind of as needed. It backs up all kinds of data that's mostly static. So it doesn't need, I don't run that all the time. So this one's on a really low interval so it's not re-going through all the files on there especially due to the size of the file. So there's 122 gigs and 63,000 files in there. So overall what I'm syncing at home is about 133 gig and 65,000 files. But something I don't sync is offsite is my videos. This syncs with my computer. There's just another 115 gigs and actually I just reduced it by archiving a lot of stuff. I'm so not too sure what to do with the archives. Currently I just store them on a pair of separate hard drives cause I'm not sure what to do with all the originals. I do have all my YouTube videos. I haven't really decided yet. I keep all the processed ones which is down to 115 gigs but it's all the source and a b-roll that you create. So if I shoot a video there may be several files that are very large of video. I only needed a few minute clip out of all of them so I have a compiled finished version that gets uploaded to YouTube and I keep one local copy of the finished material. But yeah, what to do with all the other stuff it adds up really quick so occasionally I just offload it to a couple drives. And a pair of them because these drives are not plugged in or idle, not at all on. So I'm afraid that one day I'll turn them on and that will stop coming on so that I have two of them to help try and mitigate the risk. But I don't still have to do with all the data cause it's gathering up anyways. So I keep this synced with my computer here and here's the graphics one, oops sorry, and the video one.  Now I thought about putting a rate array in my computer and I said well I have a rate array sitting in the back office here and they sync rather quickly so as soon as I'm dropping files on my computer it's automatically taking them over to the free NAS and throwing them on that rate array so there's a copy on my computer and there's a copy on free NAS. Once again, it falls into some of the files that I'm revising and doing a revisioning on which does take up some space but it also lets me if I screw up a video file go backwards, I can pull it off of the free NAS box by restoring from a snapshot if needed. So I am still using syncing, it's still working absolutely wonderful and syncing everything. I don't really have any issues with it. It works really well, it's not too taxing on the computer or the system. And it's a great way to keep just everything completely up to date on these. It's an open source alternative to drop box file syncing but I think it's a little bit better in some ways because you control all the data, you control all syncing, revisionings and all the features of it. So if you haven't watched my other syncing video you wanna know some of the details about it. They've made improvements and performance to it but in features it seems fairly the same a year later but it works so much better. It actually keeps taking less memory and less processing power to do the same thing with more data. So heads off to the syncing team and how effective they are at programming all this but yeah I just wanna do this follow up video to say yes I'm still using it, yes it still works great and I still think it's a great solution if you're looking to synchronize files between even offsite or sharing with a friend or however you wanna do it if you're looking for an open source alternative to drop box. Once again if you like the content here like and subscribe. I'm gonna be doing some more follow up videos on some of the ones I did because I like to cover some of the I'm still using the tech or what I think of the same of this technology that I was excited about when I did the video am I still excited about it later? I think that's important or when there's feature changes to it. All right thanks again for watching.


Are you burned up at the high price of turkeys? Can't get eggs for your pumpkin pie? Want to get away from it all? We offer you escape. You're trapped in a remote valley of the Andes, walled in by sheer rock precipices.  Escape, produced and directed by William N. Robson and carefully plotted to free you from the four walls of today for a half hour of high adventure. Tonight, we escape to the high mountains of Ecuador and to a remarkable world where sight is unknown, as H. G. Wells imagined it in his curious story, The Country of the Blind. My name is Ibarra. I am a mining engineer in Quito, Ecuador, high in the towering Andes. And up until a year ago, my chief sport was mountain climbing. My last climb was an attempt to scale the remote and forbidding peak of Parascota Petal, a 20,000-foot crag, unconquered by man. It is unconquered still, 3,000 feet from the icy summit. Our party turned back and fled for their lives. All of us escaped except one, a guide named Nunes, who slipped and fell over the precipice, disappearing into the vast chasm that yawned 10,000 feet beneath us. The horror of that man's fall has haunted my dreams for a year. Because of it, I have forsaken mountain climbing for the rest of my life. And that decision still stands, even though today I have seen Nunes. He was sitting on the steps of my shack when I arrived at the mine this morning. At first I didn't recognize him. He was so much changed. I thought he was a ragged beggar asking alms. Is it you, senor Ibarra? My name is Ibarra. Yes, what do you want? You do not know me, senor. I know. I...  Dead under slopes of Paris Côte de Petle? Nunes. No, it couldn't be you. Nunes. That is my name, senor. At least that is the name I remember. But you fell, I saw you fall. Yes, it's impossible that you could have lived. Perhaps the gods of the mountain had some reason to spare me. Nunes, if we'd had any idea that you were alive, but you went down, down thousands of feet, we couldn't even attempt to find your body. No, I do not blame you. You could not have reached me. And if you had, I should not have welcomed you at first, but then later. What do you mean, Nunes? Senor, you will not believe what I have to tell. I can hardly believe that I'm seeing you, talking to you. But what has happened to you? You remember that night, the night I fell? Yes. We had been toiling all day, inching our way up a steep ice wall. And as darkness came, we found a narrow ledge, barely three feet wide. It's not very wide, but we can get our shoulder wall up, cut off some of this wind. Hell, that'll be welcome. Yes, but first we'll rest a moment. Look at that icy devil up there glistening in the moonlight. There's another 3,000 feet of sheer ice wall to the top. Well, I can see why no one's ever made it. Think we should go on? I don't know. Nunes, what do you think? It is not my place to say, Senor. I was hired to guide you to the top. I agreed. What do you really think? If I believed in the guards of the mountain, as the Indians do, I should be frightened now. Why? Because we have invaded the forbidden circle. This part of the Andes is unmapped and unknown, Senor. And therefore shrouded in superstition, eh? It is an easy thing to believe strange things in this white loneliness. Some of the legends are really fascinating. I've heard of one, something about a hidden valley called the Country of the Blind. Yes, it is supposed to be somewhere down there, below us. A fertile valley which was settled many centuries ago, and then cut off by the great landslide of Aroca. But why are the Country of the Blind? Well, even before it was isolated, the people developed a strange illness. All of them slowly went blind. After that, their children were born blind. And the legend is that the valley was the home of the mountain gods. It was too beautiful for human eyes. It's all nonsense. Yes, of course. It would be a pleasure to find it, though. You know, the old proverb, in the Country of the Blind, the one-eyed man is king? I doubt that we could ever find it. I even doubt if it exists. Of course not. I was only joking. Yes. Well, now if you're arrested, we'll make the shelter wall. Right. I'll give you a hand in a minute. Believe me, Ibarra. For two pesos, I'd give up this climb. I never realized how... Hang on! In one horrible instant, my foot had slipped on the treacherous ledge and I'd gone over, falling far out into the icy black night, falling down, down. I fell perhaps a thousand feet. Then I felt a heavy stinging impact of snow. I'd fallen on an almost perpendicular snow slope. And now I was sliding down, down, tumbling over and over. And then suddenly I realized that my own motion had almost stopped. And it was the snow that was moving. I was riding an avalanche. At almost the same moment, I went over the second precipice. It was higher than the first. Much higher, perhaps 4,000 feet. I fell with the snow for what seemed minutes, every second expecting the terrible final impact. But the impact never came. Miracle of miracles. That shear wall blended almost imperceptibly into another steep snow slope. And again I was sliding. The slope curved away. I felt myself slow down. And finally I rolled to a stop and lay still. When I awoke it was morning and I was covered with snow, I shook off the cold white blanket on my chest and rested a moment. And then I rolled over on my back and looked up. I'd almost stopped as I saw from where I'd fallen, where the mountain towered 10,000 feet above me. And carefully I felt it myself. My clothes were torn. I was bruised and bleeding. I ached in every muscle, but I had not a single broken bone. I lay there and offered up a prayer to the gods of the mountain. Far below me lay a lush valley sparkling in the morning sunlight. I could see the stately trees and the green meadows fresh with dew. I started down the mountain, but it was still an arduous descent. The farther down I got, the more I realized the beauty of the scene. Why, this was a hidden paradise I'd fallen into and I was the first man ever to see it. So I thought, but I was wrong. I realized that first when I saw the cultivation in the meadows and then the walks, well-kept stone walks laid in a symmetrical pattern all over the valley. And then I saw them. There were men and women lying under the trees and resting in the fields. Nearby a collection of windowless huts marked a village and the plastering of the houses was done in a wild variety of colors. I thought to myself, the plasterer who did that must have been blind as a bat. Then I saw two of the men quite close to me.  They were dressed in arduous clothing. There was a strange look about their faces. They failed to notice me as I approached until I shouted. Suddenly they looked out pretendably in my direction. I waved wildly at them, but they took no notice where the fools must be blind. Blind? Could it be that I have fallen into the country of the blind? Hmm. In the country of the blind, a one-eyed man can be king. Hello there. You needn't be afraid. I won't hurt you. I come in peace. It is a man or a spirit come down from the rocks. Oh, I'm a man all right. Just like you, but I've had a miraculous escape and now I find myself here in your valley. Valley? Valley? Come hither, let me feel of you. Yes, certainly.   Here, feel my lips. They move with speech. Oh, careful there. Gently, those are my eyes. Eyes? Eyes? That is strange. Feel this career. Yes, I feel. Careful. Feel the eyelids flutter? He is but imperfectly formed. Some strange bulge there, unseemly. No, no, you see, your eyes are shrunken in, but mine are whole. I can see. See? Pedro, he is a strange wild one. Where does he come from? He must have come down out of the rocks. No, from over the mountains, beyond there where men can see. From Bogota, where there are a hundred thousand people and a city stretches out of sight. Sight? What strange words he uses, without meaning, and feel the coarseness of his hair, like a llamas. Our fathers have told us men may be made by forces of nature. It is the warmth of things, and moisture, and rottenness. Let us lead him to the elders. But no one need lead me. I can see. See? Yes, of course. I didn't see your water bucket. His senses are still imperfect. He stumbles and talks on meaning words. Lead him by the hand, Pedro. But look, I... Oh, well, all right. These people had been blind for centuries. They had forgotten even the words associated with seeing.  Especially when they led me into the pitch blackness of one of their windowless huts. And I stumbled over someone. A thousand pardons, Madonna Sirota. He's a clumsy one. I'm sorry I fell down. I couldn't see in the darkness. Who is this? And what is he saying? He is but newly formed, good father. He has come down from the rocks. He stumbles as he walks. And mingles words that mean nothing with his speech. He is a wild man out of the rocks. No, I come from Bogota, over the mountains. You hear? Bogota. He uses wild words. His mind is hardly formed. He has only the beginnings of speech. Bogota? Yes. I come from the great world where men have eyes and see. That must be his name, Bogota. He stumbled twice as we came further. He must be taught. No, you don't understand. I can see, but not in the dark. To you, darkness or light, is all the same. But to me, to us who can see. To us outside in the world beyond the mountains. Mountains? What are mountains? Very well, then, beyond the rocks. There is nothing beyond the rocks. That is the end of the world. Oh, but surely you must realize that there is nothing beyond the rocks. That is the end of the world. Oh, but surely you must realize that the sky above covers more than just this valley. Sky? Above? There is nothing above but the roof of rock. He is very raw, my children. He shall have to be taught from the beginnings. And I'll take him away. Feed him. It shall be done, good father. But guide him. See that he does not stumble over my daughter again. Do not fear, father. I shall guide him myself and feed him. Very well. Come. Take my hand. Thank you. It'll be a pleasure to get outside again out of this darkness. Come this way. Yes. What is your name? Medina Sarote. Mine is Juan. Juan Nunes. Oh. Oh, sunlight. Oh, this is better. And now I may look at you. Why? You're beautiful. I cannot tell you what a wonderful thing you are to see. Please, you must be careful. Why? If you do not learn quickly and see speaking such strange words, they may not be so kind to you. They might be angry. They may destroy you. This thought had not occurred to me. And suddenly I had a twinge of fear. Still the proverb kept running through my mind. In the country of the blind, a one-eyed man is king. But try as I would, I cannot make them understand my wonderful gift of sight.  Day by day I learned their peaceful ways, but they could not learn mine. I was beginning to get on my nerves. There's two, perhaps. Bogota? Bogota, come hither. Bogota, you move not. No, and I won't you all beetle. I'll show you, I'll leave the path. Bogota, trample not on the grass. It is not allowed. How did you know I stepped on the grass? I heard, of course. Heard, but I didn't make a sound. Why do you not come when I call you? Can you not hear the path as you walk? I can see it. Cease this folly and follow the sound of my feet. Oh, my time will come. You will learn. There is much to learn in the world. Has no one ever told you in the country, the blind, the one-eyed man is king? Blind? What is blind? Oh, never mind. Bogota, I must warn you. Just keep quiet and learn.  Nonsense, is it? I'll show you, I've taken enough of your insults. Unformed mind, got no sense yet. I'll be king here. I can see and I'll be king. Bogota, stop it. No, I'm through with your orders. I'll show you when an advantage site can be. I can hit you and hurt you, and you can't see me to strike back. Bogota, put down that spade.  Bogota, there must be no violence. I haven't. I'll hit you if you come any closer. I swear I will. Put down that spade and come off the grass. You don't understand. You are blind. And I can see. I can see. Bogota, I'll hurt you. I swear I will.  I hit him with a spade and ran. Over the wall, outside the valley, back to the rocks, back to the cliff I'd come from. When I reached that sheer rock wall, I knew there was no place to go. For two days and nights, I stayed outside the valley. I grew hungry and cold. Then I realized the hopelessness of my position. I was trapped. I must spend the rest of my life here. There was no way out. Though I went back. I confess, so chief of the elders, I was mad. I admit, I was only newly made. That is better. And do you still think you can see? No, no, no. That was folly. The words mean nothing less than nothing. And what is over here? Rock. There's a roof above the world. A roof of rock and very smooth. Very well. And... Please, before you ask me any more, give me food or I shall die. Very well. Give him food. Ah, Medina Salade. Yes, father. And after that, we must put him to the most menial tasks in the village. Guard him well. And perhaps... perhaps he shall learn yet. Thank you. Thank you. Oh, that is better. You are kind, Medina Salade. Very kind. I am glad you came back. You are?  What was that word you said I was? Beautiful. You are. Even your eyes, they're not shrunken depressions like the others. It means something nice. Beautiful. Something very nice, Medina Salade. Tell me. Why is it you have no husband? I... I have a disfigurement. These long hairs. Oh, your eyelashes? Oh, but they're beautiful. They are considered a disfigurement. You're the most lovely girl in the valley. But they wouldn't know, would they? You... You have no lover? No. Medina Sarote. What do you think of me?  Oh, no. No, you have much to learn, but you will learn it, I'm sure. And you are kind and gentle. And your voice is soft. You speak words that are soft and warm. No one has ever spoken such words to me. Then I shall speak them often, Medina Sarote. You are the only one in this valley. In this whole world I care for. And so it began.  The slave boy who dreamed to be king. I, with my eyes still whole, fell in love with Medina Sarote, the daughter of the elder of the village. Only to her could I open my heart without fear. Only to her could I speak of the beauty I could see around me. Oh, it is a beautiful valley, Medina Sarote. Green with grass and yellow with sunlight. And flowers, bright flowers dotting the hills. And in the cool of the night, the stars gleam like diamonds in the sky. Oh, the words sound lovely. But what are stars? No, you wouldn't understand. And what do you mean in the cool of the night? You still get that confused one. The night is warm. The day is cool. Oh, no, it is you here who have them backwards. Because the darkness means nothing to you. You work in the cool of the night and sleep in the heat of the day. You are teasing me. No. What does it matter? All that matters is you. You, you. Here beside me, Medina Sarote. I love you. And I love you. I...  Oh, no. I like to hear you speak. Then will you... Would you marry me? Yes. Yes, Juan. I will marry you. I will not have it. But father...  He has delusions. He cannot do anything right. But he is getting better. He's better than he was. And he is strong and kind. Stronger and kinder than anyone in the world. And he loves me and I love him. No, I will not have it. Great, Sire. If you please. What is it, good doctor? I have examined Bogota and the case is clear to me. I think very probably he might be cured. And how might that be done?  I believe I know what it is. Those square things he calls eyes. Where we have but an agreeable depression, he has great lumps with flaps over them that move in long hairs. Consequently his brain is in a constant state of irritation. But what can be done to cure him? Very simple surgical operation. Remove the cause of the irritation.  But Juan, they say it will make you well.  But you don't understand my dinosaurity. My world is sight. You would not want me to lose my most precious possession? I don't know. There are so many beautiful things to see. The flowers, the far sky with its drifting clouds, the sun sets the stars. And you, if only just to see you it is good to have sight. And I would never see you again. Juan, I love to hear you say these things even though I know it is just your imagination. But my dear, these things are real. No, they are fancies. This is real. If you will let them cut out your eyes, we can be together always. And... you want me to? Oh, if you would, if only you would. What else can I do? Oh, my dearest Juan. My dearest with a tender voice. I will repay you. Oh, Madonna. Be brave. And carry my voice in your thoughts. Now I must go. And tomorrow. Yes. Tomorrow will be forever. Goodbye. Goodbye, Madonna. I suppose I knew it then, when I said that. I only meant to go up on the rocks and look out over the valley to spend my last days feasting my eyes, my precious eyes on the wonderful, beautiful world of light and color. But when I got there, it was too beautiful. Too lovely this valley, this home of the mountain gods. Beautiful and forbidden. I drank it in. The green of the fields, the blue of the gently curving stream, the orange of the lichen in the rocky crevices. I climbed higher to see the great snow-capped peaks towering above and away to the distant sky and still higher as the shadows turned the snow to purple and crimson and deep blue. The valley now was far below and as beautiful as a painting. But like a painting, it seemed unreal. Medina Sarote was small and far away a distant dream and the world of sight was here all around, overpowering, wonderful. I turned and began to climb up that sheer rock wall. How many months it took me to make my way out over those mountains, over glaciers and snow fields and sheer precipices, I cannot guess how I lived to the cold and hunger of it. I cannot tell you, but I'm here at last back from the country of the blind. Good heavens, man, what an experience. Yes, terrible and wonderful. But you aren't sorry you came back. Sorry? I see her face clearly now. It is the only thing I see. Nunes, come, you need food. Here, take my hand. Thank you. Where is it, senor Ibarra? Nunes? Yes. The gods of the mountain have had their revenge. Those months of crawling over the snow and ice with the sun glaring down. Yes, I am blind. Escape is produced and directed by William N. Robson. And tonight presented the country of the blind by H.G. Wells, adapted for radio by John Dunkel, with Paul Freese as Nunez, Peggy Weber as Madinus Arote, Bill Conrad as Ibarra, and Harry Bartela's Correa. The special musical score was conceived and conducted by Sy Fewer. Next week... When you're tired from a hard day at the office, or your back aches from bending over a hot stove, next week at the same time, when you want to get away from it all, we offer you escape. This is CBS, the broadcasting system.