We've seen that the solution of the Schrodinger equation for a hydrogen atom consists of families of electron orbitals of varying energies and spatial distributions. The number of orbitals per energy level, when multiplied by two, gives the sequence of numbers two, eight, eighteen, and thirty-two, and these correspond to the number of elements of the various periods of the periodic table. Let's examine this in more detail by imagining the process of building the periodic table, determined by element. We start with the simplest nucleus, a proton having charge plus one. We add an electron of charge minus one to form a hydrogen atom. In its normal state, the electron occupies the lowest possible energy level, the tightly packed one-ass orbital. The combination of positive and negative charge means that the hydrogen atom itself has no net charge. Now we add another proton to the nucleus, and technically we also need a couple of uncharged neutrons. The result is a system with net charge of plus one. If we bring a second electron into the system, it will, roughly speaking, interact with this net charge as it would with a hydrogen nucleus. In its lowest energy state, it will therefore also be in a one-ass orbital, and we obtain the helium atom, which has no net charge. We've now completed the first period of elements, and according to our bookkeeping it seems, filled up the one-ass orbital. Bringing another proton to the nucleus, along with one or two neutrons, again leaves us with a net charge of plus one. So again, an additional electron introduced to the system will, roughly speaking, act as if it's in a hydrogen atom. And since the one-ass orbital is filled by the other two electrons, this third electron has to enter the next available orbital, the larger two-ass orbital, and we obtain the neutral lithium atom. This process goes on, one electron at a time, as we build the entire periodic table, by filling each orbital with two electrons, and then proceeding to the next orbital. Why do two electrons, quote, fill an orbital, and what is the mechanism by which the other electrons are excluded? We don't know, but this is the conclusion we're forced to accept given the correspondence between the number of orbitals and the structure of the periodic table. We'll come back to this point in a future video. Let's now take a more detailed look at the lithium atom. The lithium nucleus has a charge of plus three. Packed tightly around this in the 1s orbital are two electrons with total charge minus two. The result is a net charge of plus one. The third electron of lithium will interact with this net charge more or less as it would with a hydrogen nucleus, except that for some reason, it's excluded from the 1s orbital. The next energy level has four orbitals, the 2s and three 2p orbitals. In a hydrogen atom, these would all have the same energy. Let's take a look at this. Here we plot the second, third, and fourth hydrogen energy levels. They don't depend on the type of orbital, spd or f. When the energy of essentially the third electron of lithium is measured, we find that the results do depend on the type of orbital. The p, d, and f orbitals have nearly the same energy they would have in hydrogen, but the s orbitals have lower energies. In particular, the 2s orbital has a significantly lower energy. Let's see if we can figure this out. The lithium nucleus has charge plus three. It's surrounded by a cloud of 2 1s electrons with total charge minus two. These electrons cancel, or screen, two of the three nuclear charges. The result is that if our third electron is outside this 1s cloud, it sees a net charge of only plus one, and it behaves essentially as if it were in a hydrogen atom. But if it penetrates the 1s cloud and approaches the nucleus, the screening effect is much less. Therefore, the electron sees almost the entire nuclear charge of plus three, and it will feel almost three times the force it would in a hydrogen atom. This leads us to predict that an orbital with a higher probability of the electron being near the nucleus is more tightly bound than it would be in a hydrogen atom, that is it has a lower energy. The 2s and 2p orbitals have very different behavior near the nucleus. The 2s orbital has its largest probability density at the nucleus, while the 2p orbitals have essentially zero probability there. So we would expect the 2s orbital in lithium to have a lower energy than the 2p orbitals, and that is indeed what we observe. As we continue building the periodic table, this effect explains why, for example, 4s orbitals are occupied before 3d orbitals. These results strongly suggest that the shapes of these orbitals, these electron clouds we find as solutions to the Schrodinger equation, are not just abstract mathematical expressions, they correspond in some real sense to the actual internal structure of atoms. The more people learned about the Schrodinger equation and its solutions, the more apparent this became. As another example, let's consider four atoms that play a critical role in biology, hydrogen, carbon, nitrogen, and oxygen. The last three are in the second period of elements, after lithium. So their outer electrons should occupy 2s and 2p orbitals. But as was pointed out most notably by Linus Pauling, these hydrogen orbitals are stationary states with the same energy. Therefore any combination of them will also be a stationary state with the same energy. These are so-called hybrid orbitals. If we sum all four of the S and P orbitals, we get an asymmetric shape with a small lobe near the nucleus and a large lobe sticking out in one direction. By negating one or more of the S and P orbitals before summing, we obtain the same asymmetric orbital pointing in different directions. These four hybrids are valid solutions of Schrodinger's equation, and conceivably in some situations they might be more stable than the S and P orbitals themselves. Let's represent the hybrid orbitals by four bulges pointing off in four different directions. These define the vertices of a tetrahedron, and the angle between any two of these directions is about 109.5 degrees. If each orbital contained two electrons, this would account for all eight electrons added in the second period, which ends with the practically inert element neon. Carbon has four electrons fewer, nitrogen three electrons fewer, and oxygen two electrons fewer than the highly stable configuration of neon. Representing two electron orbitals as opaque lobes and one electron orbitals as translucent lobes, we can imagine oxygen, nitrogen, and carbon with the hybrid orbital configurations shown here. Assuming nature likes filled orbitals, we can imagine each one electron orbital and a hydrogen atom mutually sharing their two combined electrons. This results in three critically important compounds, water, ammonia, and methane. Methane is precisely a tetrahedral molecule, while ammonia and water are approximately the same. As people continue to study the Schrodinger equation and its solutions, they found it precisely explained an ever-expanding range of physical phenomena. So by 1929, physicist Paul Dirac was justified in writing, The fundamental laws necessary for the mathematical treatment of a large part of physics and the whole of chemistry are thus completely known. And the difficulty lies only in the fact that application of these laws leads to equations that are too complex to be solved. This difficulty has lessened in the decades since, especially as ever more powerful computers have enabled increasingly sophisticated numerical calculations. Today using the techniques of quantum chemistry, it is possible to solve the Schrodinger equation for quite large systems and understand in detail the chemistry of a wide range of molecules. A fundamental observation that quantum mechanics was developed to explain is the discrete emission spectra of atoms and molecules. Recall how in the Bohr model the hydrogen spectrum was explained by imagining an electron jumping from one allowed orbit to another of lower energy with the emission of a discrete photon. The frequency of the emitted radiation depends on the energy difference of the two orbits. As we've discussed in previous videos, this idea of a quantum jump was incompatible with classical physics. Moreover, we've seen that the emitted frequencies don't equal the frequencies of the orbits themselves as would be required by a classical theory. The Schrodinger description of hydrogen appeared to overcome both of these issues. Imagine an electron in a 2P orbital. We want to know how it can transition to the lower energy 1S orbital with the emission of light. In our discussion of hybrid orbitals, we've seen that combining stationary states of the same energy results in a new stationary state of the same energy. But two orbitals of different energies are characterized by different frequencies. If they're combined, the result is a non-stationary state, a state in which the electron probability distribution changes with time. And the frequency of this change is precisely the difference of the frequencies of the orbitals that is precisely the frequency of the light we expect to be emitted. We end up with a picture that looks very much like a little antenna with oscillating electric charge, which, according to classical electromagnetic theory, would emit a light wave at the oscillation frequency. This is why Schrodinger was led to conclude, The wave function physically means and determines a continuous distribution of electricity in space, the fluctuations of which determine the radiation by the laws of ordinary electrodynamics. Schrodinger believed that he had found a way to explain the discrete nature of emission lines without the need of quantum jumps or wave particle duality and the associated lack of determinism. The electron was not a particle but a cloud of electric charge governed by the Schrodinger equation. Two states of different energy could combine to produce an oscillating charge cloud that would radiate away energy as a classical electromagnetic wave in a continuous and fully deterministic manner. The energy of the higher state would gradually be lost and the electron would completely transition to the lower energy state. But Schrodinger's view was not compatible with the overwhelming evidence for the particle nature of both electric charge and radiation. Measurements always detect discrete electrons or photons. So the continuous charge clouds and electromagnetic waves Schrodinger envisioned are instead taken to represent probabilities of finding a discrete electron or photon at a given position in space at a given time. The discrete nature of radiation still required the concept of a quantum jump just as it did in the Bohr model. At one moment the probability distribution of the electron is described by some orbital. Then at random, but with a probability determined by Schrodinger's calculations, the atom jumps to a lower energy orbital and a discrete photon is emitted in some direction into space. In fact, the, quote, bullet from a gun nature of photon emission actually produces an observable recoil effect, as one might expect. This cannot be explained in Schrodinger's classical picture. The ironic result was that although Schrodinger's equation was a monumental triumph for physics, Schrodinger himself intensely disliked the conceptual framework in which it found its great success.  Bohr said to have responded, but the rest of us are extremely grateful that you did. Decades later Schrodinger was still arguing against the quantum jump idea demanded by wave particle duality. He even went so far as comparing it to the preco-pernic and geocentric model of the solar system, which assumed the planets traveled in complex spiral orbits described by so-called epicycles. He wrote, I am thinking of the theory of epicycles, I confess to the heretical view that their modern counterpart in physical theory are the quantum jumps.


only picture. You do what? We do only picture. So this is the Louv Park? Yeah Louv Park. Yeah this way is commonly. What is going on here? Yeah we were producing a different kind of jaconia ceramic product and this is our brand Mirage product. So there's a camera? No this is projector actually. Projector? Yeah projector and it can link with your mobile phone when you got phone call. This will be vibrate and then you don't need to take out your mobile phone. You only put your hand on here. You see our number can project on your hand and you know who call you and you can be exact only recover it and also can answer the phone call like this one. Then you can talk him now. That's cool. Yeah and also let's see that let's see it again the projector. Okay so it doesn't vibrate no? It can vibrate. It's not because this is only for showing. So you wear it here it vibrates and then you put your hand or you touch?  Only put. No touch because here's the proximity sensor or what? Yeah let's hold on and let's do it again. Let's see. Let's see again. That's power of wiki. Let's try it here. Oh you can try it. Okay let's see your new hand. Let me see that. Oh let me go this way. Okay I need to see it. Okay. Whoa try again. It's difficult for video. Oh again one more time. Okay. Well what does it say here? It says it's a calling number. All right. So how long does it project for like two seconds? Depends on the terms of projector. All right. Yeah so how did you make this? Oh sorry. So basically this is made by premium ceramic. It's a very special process which is injection molding. So it's a special material? This is the same material as your dental teeth and it's the same material as the Chanel watch. It's very premium and it's 100% biological friendly. I mean some of the variables they use plastic or metal and they get people allergic. So this is 100% body friendly. So if we're talking about variables, I mean people don't really want to wear a piece of plastic or piece of metal. So what's the future? It would be ceramic. So it's like a it's like a jewelry? It's a jewelry. All right. It's a jewelry. That's the same as Chanel watch J-12. So it's mostly for women? The first version is for women and of course we can make something for men. For example I can have some devices here. I can project on my hand. So this is the future. Future will. Laser? Yeah it's a laser. It's a low energy laser. So the battery life now is up to 200 projects. What are you showing here? Sorry. Yeah what is this? This is wear. Yeah it's like a so it's like what for what? This is show where we can use ceramic. So it can be on the side of the watch? Yes I mean everything to the body in the body we would like to use ceramic and this is a showcase where we can use ceramic in the variables. Smartwatch? Yes smartwatch also you see this smart bed someone have to record products and if they use really ceramics you never have problems. And of course smart rings.  What can you put in there NFC? What can you put? Yeah you can put small batteries antennas. NFC? Bluetooth? Yeah Phrygian and you make a smart ring. Shaking? Yeah you can do all the instruction motion instructions. What is that? No this this is the material I mean Torso is the best material 99.9% in medical just just make the dental the teeth. Is that uh it's a Japanese? That's where you source the product? Yeah product and where are you from? We are Swedish company. Swedish? Lower Park is a Swedish company and we we make premium ceramics and that's why we together with smartech we develop this premium uh what's it called uh variable juries. How much is premium? How much you cost? No price? Uh we we're talking roughly talking about three hundred three hundred ninety nine dollars. Three hundred nine that's good. 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So you can download this website. Website. Yeah and uh how soon are you shipping? Online. But when do you ship? All right Q2. Q2? Yeah Q2 Kickstarter no? Kickstarter yeah we didn't do it because we want to protect our technology and IPs. So you will sell directly to Q2? Q2. Our own 399 maybe? Yeah 399 yeah it's the current case because we have high higher materials and high type and every senior is very unique design and this is where you enter the Hosei the necklace. So if a girl wants to get attention this is the way okay for the party you can get some attention. Also video drawing and you can only project her and get information reject directly and also during meetings you don't worry any noise around here so. But it's not a Bluetooth headset no? You cannot speak through it. Bluetooth in the ear and there's a microphone? No microphone is here. Yeah also microphone there. Bluetooth in here yeah Bluetooth hand side as answered microphone. So how is the response here at CES? It's good? It's very very unique very very interesting. Many people stop around here right? Yeah and also many media. Which one? CNN? French QA. French QA German and actually yesterday's German and some Korean yeah yeah they recommend us as a top five most top five unique product in CES shows. Nice but this is going to be the most popular so far. Yeah very keen for you. Thank you very much. Thank you. This is the first time we attend CES so we are not very experienced with media. You will go to Mobile World Congress? No no because yeah this maybe in Barcelona next month? Yeah because no we will go. You will go? With the big booth? With small booth? We can see you in there. We are quite confident that we are products very unique we are like in the how to say the CES robot you will attend.


Mystery House. Mystery House, that strange publishing firm owned by Dan and Barbara Glenn, where each new novel is acted out by the Mystery House staff before it was accepted for publication. Mystery House. Well, Barbie, I don't know that I understand the title of the story we're trying out for a Mystery House novel this week. You mean the composite killer, Dan? Yeah. Does it refer to several different people who combine forces to commit a murder? No. Haven't you ever seen a composite picture? Well, to be honest with you, I don't know. Oh, of course you have. In the movie magazine. Well, I'm not a movie magazine reader. Detective stories are more in my line. Well, an artist takes maybe Dorothy Lamar's eyes, and Alexis Smith's nose, and Ann Sheridan's hair, and Hedy Lamar's ears, and Bay Davis' mouth, puts them all together to make a composite picture of someone who never existed. Well, I see what you mean, Mrs. Glenn, that picture's a fake. Well, it's not exactly. Every part of it is true to life. But... But put together, it doesn't spell truth. Well, I'm a solid fact man myself. I like authentic information. For example, listen to this. Okay, places everybody. And set the scene for tonight's story, will you, Tom? The composite killer. Tonight's story opens in the office of Captain Hedges, police detective. A slender, aesthetic, if cynical young man sits across the desk from the captain, sizing him up. I suppose you wonder why I asked the chronicle to send an artist over to headquarters, Mayny? My not the reason why, Mon Capitan. Where the chronicle points its finger, there go I. I had your papers yelling at us about not solving the Dorothy Lattiman murder. Don't tell me you're sensitive, Mon Capitan. I always thought only artists were sensitive. Artists who aren't quite good enough to make the grade and end up by hacking away on a newspaper. He said you were the best man in their art department. They dammed with faint praise. He said you have imagination, Mayny. A severe criticism. I tried to hide it. We're pretty close to solving that murder. Now, I know. The police are working on secret clues and feel that the murder will be apprehended within the next 24 hours. The chronicle carried that one day before yesterday. There's nothing secret about our clues. This killer ought to be a cinch to catch. He left so many clues, he might just as well left his calling card.  Mayny, we've got everything except our man. Now, the Lattiman girl was a beauty. She had so many boyfriends we know we're never going to get to all of them. What we've learned, she was a gold digger. Sounds like a sweet kid. Had a beautiful apartment, fine clothes, good jewelry. She had a string of jobs you could write pages about. None of them requiring any real work. I've been looking for that kind of a job for years, Captain Hedges. She was as cold and heartless as any human being could be. She was playing for big game. She finally found it. You mean the letters you uncovered that showed she was going to marry Wilton Morris III? Yeah. Has it ever occurred to you that she might have been in love with the boy in spite of all this money, Mo Capitan? Sure. We found a couple of her girlfriends who said that she told them that Wilton Morris was strictly a dope, but in the right money bracket. I love mystery stories, Captain Hedges, but how does all this concern me? We've narrowed things down, Manny. The logical assumption is that Dorothy Latiman was killed by a disappointed or disgruntled suitor, somebody who couldn't stand to see her marry Wilton Morris III. Well, we start with the assumption that the murderer was, uh, well, an attractive-looking person. If he didn't have as much money as Wilton Morris, he had to be attractive to be in the running. Captain, you amaze me.  The murderer got into the girl's room from the fire escape through a very narrow window. He had to be thin to make it. Hmm. Attractive thin. Now, we've tested the street level part of the fire escape, and you'd have to be at least six-two to reach it and pull it down. I think I see what you're driving at. Several people saw a man loitering near that fire escape at one o'clock the morning of the murder. Can they give you a description? All together too much description. We've talked to three people, and they disagree on most points. But their descriptions checked in a couple of respects. The man had a long, thin face. They were all three positive of that. Yes, I know the type. His hair was dark. We can't be sure what color, but dark. Go on. And all through the people who saw him were a little frightened at one thing, the way this man stared at them. I don't blame him. I get the idea that he had small, deep-set sharp eyes. Eyes with a brazen look. Two of the people said that they... Pardon me, that they might have known more of what he looked like, but his stare got their goats. They looked the other way. He looked them in the eye, and he made them turn their heads the other way. The eyes are important, always. The marks on the girl's throat indicate that he had a stubby hand as hard as iron. She fought like the devil and never had a chance. The fingers don't tell me much. No. Well, to me, hands like that on a tall, slender man indicate a tough, muscular neck, too. Smart boy, Mon Capitaine. I'd have missed that. While he was strangling her, she clustered his face. At least, that's the only reason I've been able to figure for the bite on her forearm. Here is a print of the marks. Hmm. Small mouth, but big teeth. Right. Now, you're catching the spirit. Here are photographs of three suspects. Three men that we've connected with the girl. Any one of them who could answer what little description that we have. Hey, my apologies, Mon Capitaine.  You know what I want, then. You want a composite sketch of these three guys, a blend of all three. Right. With enough of each one in it so that when he sees the picture in the paper, he thinks it's close to being him. Hmm. Could be done, I guess. But it'll be quite a trick. I've talked to your managing editor. They'll start a build-up on the picture in tomorrow's paper. It'll run in three days, if you can have it finished by then. Every day until it runs, the paper will carry a front-page box saying, coming. An artist's conception of the Dorothy Latiman killer created in cooperation with the police department. See what the Latiman murderer looks like. Don't miss it. You think this will do any good? Aside from publicity? This was an emotional murder. And I'm going to grate the killer's nerves to the breaking point. With your help, Mini. It's a deal, Mo Capitan. Oh, it's you, honey. I thought that... Oh, Jed, you don't need to be so fussy about your old picture, covering it up like that when I came in. I don't care about seeing it anyway. Oh, it's not that, honey. It's... some headquarters. Nobody's to see it till it's ready. Going to eat midnight lunch with me tonight, Jed? You haven't asked me. Well, matter of fact, honey, I'm not going out to lunch tonight. I'm working right through on the picture. But it isn't supposed to run till day after tomorrow. Sorry, honey. That's the way it is. This thing's important and, well, kind of dangerous. Oh, you. Drawing a portrait dangerous. The daring young artist, Jed Maney. Go ahead and laugh, but I'm working under orders, and I'm going to follow them. But, Jed, you're really serious about this stunt, aren't you? You're always poking fun at everything we do around the Chronicle. I've got to hurry, honey. If I expect to get this thing done by closing time, I... Oh, all right. I won't bother you. I never thought I'd have a picture for a rival. Oh, it's not that, honey. It's just... Oh, nuts.  Well, if that's the way you feel about it...  Tomorrow night, I'll give you loads of attention. I'll scrape and bow... You do nothing of the kind, not after the way you evacuated the last couple of days. As far as I'm concerned, you'll still be busy. Good night. Oh, just a minute. Oh, why didn't you go ahead and kiss her, Maney? I wouldn't have minded. I never did like an audience smoke, Captain. Isn't it pretty stuffy in that clothes closet? Yeah, stifling. I'm dying for a smoke. Why not go ahead and have one then? No. I'm going to go back into hiding. Sooner or later, the murderer is going to call on you.  So, back to my home. I think I'll use suspect number three's ears. They're the largest. Who the devil are you? Wilton Morris III. I read about this composite picture thing and I thought I'd drop in and see how you're getting along. Maybe I could help you. Well, well, well. Wilton Morris III. I've always wanted to meet a real-life millionaire. And you're so young and tender, too. Isn't it a little late for you? No need to be nasty. I thought maybe I could help you. Dorothy was going to marry me, you know. So, they tell me. You mind if I take a quick glance at how you're coming along? Get away from that drawing board, Third. What? Really? Don't give me that hi-hat, either. I've had orders. Nobody's to see this thing till it's finished. But I'm not a suspect man. Great Scott, I was going to marry the girl. Does anybody in Kingdom come once a murderer caught its eye? Sorry, Mr. The publisher of The Chronicles, a good friend of Dad's. I could get permission to look, I imagine. Guess again, Buster. The publisher doesn't have a door-gone thing to say about this. No, but, Hank, and I'm just trying to help. I'm from the lower classes, Third. Having a millionaire help me would knock my nerves all to pieces. Really well, have it your way. But if you don't want my advice, what was the idea of calling me? I left a rather charming party to come down here. Calling you? I didn't call you. Your secretary did, though. She said you wanted to see me if it was convenient. I don't have any secretary, Mr. Third. That's a pretty bun-store-store. But I'm quite serious, meaning. Oh, I get it. You've got me down here to get a good look at me. You're going to try to work some of my characteristics into your picture. Well, there are libel laws to come... Say, you aren't nervous, are you, Mr. Third? Nervous? Why should I be? I simply dislike the idea of notoriety. And if that picture bears the slightest resemblance to it... You're scaring me half to death. But if you're all through, I wish your title back to your party. I'm busy. Very well. But I'd be careful if I were you. Well, now, what do you think of that, Mon Capitan? You're parked down in my area. Always practically out of the building by now. I'll close the door so you can come on out and straight. Oh, oh, you again. You don't need to act so disappointed. Wasn't that Wilton Morris who just left? The Third. Well, that's odd. My phone rang a few minutes ago and a girl asked if he was here. I thought it was some crank, but she must have known. A girl? Well, Connie, would you recognize her voice if you heard it again? Maybe. Why? The guy claimed somebody called and asked him to come in here. My secretary. But you don't have any secretary. Hey, hey, just a minute. Hello? Looking for someone? Is Wilton Morris here? Come on in. Thank you. Oh, but I thought... Why he isn't here? Why didn't you tell me? I didn't say he was here, darling. I just asked you to come in. See, what is this? The idea of closing that door. I don't... I don't know what you intend, but you're going to answer a few questions. What? Oh, really? This is... I never heard of such a thing. Excuse me. Just a minute. You're not leaving here until you've answered a few questions. Who are you anyway? I know that it's any business of yours. But my name is Harriet Cardley. Just a second. I haven't been a society reporter around here for two years for nothing. Oh, your honey, Horze, you covered my debut for the Chronicle. Yeah. And I also remember that you had yourself a man-sized crush on Wilton Morris III about that time. Really, Miss Horze? If you... You don't deny it, do you? I won't dignify it with a denial. I don't suppose you'll bother denying that you called my desk a few minutes ago to see if the boyfriend was here. I like that. I got a telephone call to meet him here. There's something awfully funny about the telephone service around here tonight. If you're insinuating that I'm lying... I know. Pop will talk to the publisher who's a friend of his and get us candy. You know, I have a hunch the police may be wrong on this business. What? They're assuming it was a man who killed Dorothy Latiman, a jealous suitor. But a jealous suitor would have lost every chance he had by killing the girl. Wouldn't he have killed Wilton Morris instead? What are you trying to... What I'm getting at, sister, is that maybe somebody else has a yen for Wilton III. It kind of makes sense. You're insinuating that I didn't...  I didn't even know the girl. If I were the police, I think I'd want a lot of answers from you. I say, if I were the police... Jed, what are you shouting about? Captain Hedges! Captain Hedges! It's Captain Hedges. Is he dead? Just a minute. For the love of heaven, stand back. Open the door in the window, quick. What's the matter? Let me get this thing out of here. What is it? A time bomb in the closet loaded with poison gas. Call the police, quick. Well, but hadn't we better... I'm staying right here with this picture. Evidently, someone wants it pretty badly. A poison gas time bomb. Neat idea. Quiet, unobtrusive, efficient. The question is, who put it in the clothes closet of Jed Mayne's office? Well, we'll find out in the second act of tonight's story. And now, act two of the composite killer. The time is four o'clock in the morning, and the chronicle office is pretty much deserted. A light still burns in Jed Mayne's little office. The policeman who stayed here, Jed, did he do much? Asked a lot of questions, took the measurements of the clothes closet. Wanted to know who could have seen Captain Hedges come into my office. But how did he get in? I didn't know he was here. His being here was the reason I didn't want to kiss you, remember? I was embarrassed. What?  Bashful at this late stage. All right, you're forgiven. When you and the charming Harriet left the police station, how was Hedges getting along, did they say? No, but they didn't seem to hold out much hope. They said it was just luck he wasn't dead when we opened the clothes closet. Neither Harriet nor Wilden III went near that clothes closet while they were here. I can't figure out... Almost anybody could have left that time bomb, Jed. You're never here during the day. You never locked your office. But it still doesn't make sense. The police put out a lot of publicity about this picture you're doing. The murderer could have walked in and planted that bomb any time after six o'clock last night. Yes, but nobody knew Hedges was there. The murderer was probably watching this place like a hawk. Put yourself in his place. All this swoop to do about the killer's picture, Captain Hedges in charge of the investigation. That's easy to figure. I won't rest easy till I get that picture finished and into the hands of the engravers. What, Jed? You don't mean you're going ahead after what's happened? Of course I'm going ahead. It's more important now than ever. What does the picture look like, Jed? Sorry. But it wouldn't hurt to let me see it. I know how to keep a secret. Have I ever let you down? You'll see it in the chronicle. But I'll just take a quick look. Get away from that drawing board. You heard me. I'm not fooling, honey. Jed, you... you ax... You almost frightened me. After what's happened, you should be frightened. I'm not trusting anybody up to and including you. Well, you surely don't think... Somebody's committed a couple of murders, honey. I'm not anxious to be added to the list. I'm sorry to be so rough about it. I'll probably apologize tomorrow night, but for now, that's how it stands. Well, I... All right, Jed. That's the way you feel. Going home? No. I'm going to finish the picture. What the devil's the idea of getting me out of bed to come down here at 4.30 in the morning, Mayny? I didn't think you'd be in bed yet, Mr. Third. And you seem so terribly, terribly anxious to see my latest work of art. You see, the picture's finished. But you know, I don't think you're going to like it. Here. Why? Wait a minute. Recognize yourself, Mr. Third? Well, I've... It isn't the picture of me, and yet it is. That's right, Mr. Third. It takes a clever artist to make a picture like that. You and yet not you. But close enough so anybody would recognize it. You. You think I killed Dorothy Letterman? I know you did, Mr. Third. Indirectly. Oh, no, no. You're on the wrong crack, Mayny.  I don't know who did. You don't, Mr. Third? Not even now? What? I killed her, Mr. Third. Captain Hedges knew it. He knew it all along. Oh, you... You're joking. You couldn't possibly... When Hedges told me that Dorothy Letterman had held a lot of different jobs because of Doban Ola. I knew. I wasn't picked to do this picture for my artistic genius. He was playing with me, waiting for me to get excited and make a slip. He was a smart cookie, even if he did underestimate me. What do you mean about the jobs? Dorothy was an art model at one stage of her career. She quit because a certain poor artist got too serious. Bothered her too much.  The only thing in the world that ever interested her was money. She was responsible for my taking this stinking job to try to get enough money to rent a little apartment and get married.  The funny part of it is, Mr. Third, I didn't intend to kill her. I couldn't believe her story about her engagement to you and I went up to talk to her. She laughed at me, made fun of me.  I wanted to hurt her as much as she was hurting me. I'd say you hurt her more, at least more permanently. Oh, no. But there was real satisfaction in grinding my fingers into that lovely throat. Yes, but your name was never mentioned as a suspect. Yes, but your name was never mentioned as a suspect. I took every present she'd ever had from me. Every letter. I erased myself from her apartment. I planted the fire escape business. I gave the police plenty wrong clues. But some way, Hedges caught on. He didn't have proof. But he knew. Why do you tell me all this? Because I want you to understand what it's all about. Why you're being framed. I'm framed? You think you can convict me of a murder you committed just by drawing a fantastic picture of me? Hardly. You really are mad. The picture's going to take care of you, all right. You are going to be convicted. I'm not much worried. You've been here before tonight. It's established that you came here to look at the picture and I wouldn't show it to you. Yes, but what does that have to do with it? What are you up to? Those telephone calls to you and your Harriet will be checked, of course. A public stenographer made the calls, Mr. Third. She got her instructions over the phone and was told to send a bill to me. I don't know a thing about it. At least that'll be my story and it'll stick. You think those calls will convict me of a murder I didn't commit? You are batty. Batty like a fox. Being an artist is useful in more ways than one. I know my anatomy pretty well. I'm talking sense. I put this drawing board over in the corner. See? Very interesting. It'll get more interesting as it goes along. Now, I lay this knife on the board. Just so. The handle presses against the wall. See? What do you think you're going to do? Incidentally, that knife is from your cabin up at the lake and it's loaded with your fingerprints. Now I scooch down. Have to be sure to hit exactly the right spot. Look out. Oh, it's a good trick, isn't it? Yeah, it takes nerve, plenty of nerve. But when you're fighting for your life, you have nerve to spare. Let's see. Yes, that's exactly right. Now, I back into the blade of the knife. Firmly. Steadily.    But it'll be close. I'll be right back and close to the spine. It worked, third. Just like I planned. You're through. You're licked. Where's the telephone? Who you calling, third? Doctor? Doctor of police? I won't do you any good. Won't you see? Me, me stabbed in back. Your knife, your picture on the drawing board. Your picture, the killer. I say you came in. Saw picture and stabbed me. But why should you try to do this to me? Why? You had nothing but money to offer. You stepped in with your money and tore down all my hope.  I thought you were in love with a pretty little society reporter, Honey Haas. She was, she was just around. I had to cover up somewhere. That was an act. Honey, honey. He got me.  Hospital quit. He saw picture. He stabbed me. You'll need your strength. Hospital quit. Get police. Police to arrest him. You don't seem to realize, Jed. I've heard your entire scene with Mr. Morris. Well, how do I thank heavens, Ms. Haas? After what had happened, Jed, when you insisted on staying and finishing that picture, I was frightened to death. Frightened for you. For you, understand that?  You've been here all the time. Yes, because I thought I loved you. I was standing by with a revolver. Great help. Captain Hedges. We've got a little stuffy in that closed closet. There's nothing more to hear anyway. But you, poison gas. Hospital. Hey, teach you how to look out for yourself on the force, Mayny. I looked that closet over pretty thoroughly. I found the gas time bomb. No, it went off. I watched it. When the spring was ready to release, I held a match up to the jet, a lighted match. You knew all that time. Yeah, but I couldn't prove anything. There's a lot of difference between knowing and proving. I didn't figure you were strong enough or cool enough to stand up under pressure, so I turned it on. Hadn't we better get him to the hospital, Captain? Yeah, I suppose so. Not that we're doing him any favor. Quite right, Mon Capita. I knew right from the start you were... a sharp guy.


okay I was digging through a box of random stuff and I pulled out these things stuff that I'd long forgotten tiny tiny Darth Maul some bubblegum that's designed to look like hot dogs it's so disgusting some pez dispensers from the golden compass who could ever forget and these things yeah yeah these are what they look like I remember being in the dollar store and walking past these and then doing it about face it coming back because I was like did I did I see this right there you go see that's how it works is that not nuts I love that but here's the thing here's the thing I wanted to show you this is at the same time it's the dumbest thing I've ever seen and the greatest thing I've ever seen it's a trick-or-treat bag a giant orange hand on a stick that doubles as a trick-or-treat bag this it had no box it had no price tag on it I got the guy at the dollar store I paid him $2 for it I think I overpaid but honestly this is really well made really heavy plastic completely impractical it's gonna be so heavy you're not gonna be able to carry it by the end of this the stick like this plastic is really heavy and sturdy like I said and it's very well constructed it's held together with screws each of these holes of the screw in it there's one two three four five six seven eight nine ten screws this thing is not coming apart and I like the details with the giant fingernails copyright seasons it says there you go stupid Halloween grabby hand and flinging aliens bye


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Welcome back to Investor Intel. Today we have the privilege of enthusiast gaming and e-sports company joining us as its presidents Menosh Hi, Peter. Nice to meet you. How are you doing today? I'm doing well doing very well excited to talk about e-sports and The company is doing extremely well as well E-sports took in more dollars than the box office in Hollywood last year, didn't it? That's right gaming is Over a hundred fifty billion dollar industry right now, and that's happened all over the past ten years So when you look at growth industries and you look at scale, this is it And we're not talking about people playing in their basement League of Legends back and forth. We're talking large institutions filling arenas filling movie theaters For the purpose of watching and participating in e-sports exactly So which one of the various silos in the industry is enthusiast in? So I bucket things into four categories. There are teams team-based teams There are events There are the game publishers who make the games that other people play and then there are platforms You know the online platforms such as twitch and discord The platforms to the side for a second the other three have parallels in many other industries. Yeah, so the gaming is like It's the real content. It's like baseball or or football or any other sport you like to watch Yes, so we actually play in multiple. We don't make the game That's for sure not part of it But we have the teams the events and the platform and the biggest moneymaker is the platform because you could You know your team is wherever they go wherever they win the tournaments the events are wherever they're physically located But online we reach over 200 million gamers. So That provides a lot of the scale So let's save the platform for later because that's sure possibly the most complicated part the content is easy Yeah, you have athletes you have teams they compete they win and I can sit on my couch and watch ABC on a Tuesday afternoon And watch one of these events live I can go to my movie theater or I can pay money like WWE or Mixed martial arts and go see an event live Yes, and after the players compete and they gain notoriety.  You're sure you have that number, right? Yes, that is a new zoo number and Netflix Said to their shareholders that their biggest competitor right now is not an HBO go or another streaming platform Rather, it's all the people on YouTube and on Twitch watching other people play games. That's a stunning amount of money If I remember correctly the gaming industry last year was about 150 billion US dollars of total GDP, yeah, correct, and that's global Yeah, and there was actually if you look back into the 90s there was about a hundred million gamers in the world because there wasn't a lot of internet yet and most games were played either on your local home PC or they were played by yourself Or they were played on your living room couch Nowadays According to new zoo, there's over two billion people who play games Granted a billion of those are playing it on their smartphones whether it's candy crush or something else But there's another billion or so who are playing, you know, 70 of north american Homes have gaming consoles in them or a pc. So gaming is is now a far surpassed film and tv as the predominant form of entertainment And it's not that people are doing it at home. We have these cafes where people like to have a cheeseburger Have a beer engage in gaming engage in the social side of the industry Yeah, people are even sneaking at work and doing it, you know When they're when their bosses aren't watching they'll quickly grab in a game of something And then when they're on their bus on the bus or the subway, they'll do it on their phones They're always we're always connected to the internet on some form of device nowadays and there's games on every device So you're not a game enthusiast is not a publisher You do own teams And let's talk about the platforms now You need to have channels for distribution in the good old days It was newspaper then it was radio and we had that marvel called tv and these are all different platforms Within the internet there were a variety of platforms available And which one of those platforms are you currently on? So we aren't we're on our own platform We are also of course on social media and youtube and whatnot But like you mentioned, I think that's a good analogy, you know When you had the new york times you're essentially getting a journalist who has high credentials Who's coming in and nowadays with social media and youtube And blogging and media platforms that are independent. We've had a math plethora of Just people who are experts right they've built up an expertise somehow from their careers or or or anywhere else And now they could publish lots of youtube or they can make their own blog or they could join a independent media company So so the ability to have expert content creators has exploded and that's why you have people on youtube So our communities that we we have about 120 gaming communities Each dedicated to different types of games Where it's um, I would say the majority of these content creators are self made content creators Where it's community created content where we have Moderators senior editors who come and kind of find the cream of of the crop That you know, it floats to the top and and we help incentivize them through rev shares and monetization They're really that's maybe you know a small fraction of the overall communities where Who are on our platforms talking creating content commenting debating consuming content. So Um, they're kind of like facebook, but for gamers Um, the thing is facebook is kind of a catch-all versus here Gamers want to be with people who love what they love whether it's pokemon or esports At hurt. I'm a capitalist. I want to know how you make money off people chatting off bloggers writing about you How does enthusiast make money and make money for its shareholders? So currently the we have multiple revenue streams our lowest hanging fruit for our revenue streams Is that we have over a billion pages a month across uh online uh, we serve that we get about a 30 billion ad requests a month and Um, we monetize those Uh, we started off, you know five five years ago is in a basement with two people now We have 250 people around around multiple offices um, and we've started to build technology to serve the ads and and find those are looking specifically for a gaming audience So advertisers are key Uh that brought in about 18 million dollars of our revenue this past year Uh, but then we also have about three to four million dollars coming in through subscribers Who pay about four bucks a month. So we have about 75 000 subscribers monthly How sticky are those subscribers? Is there a lot of churn or once they're on they're on forever? Um So it is a relatively new thing this subscription Offering and we are actually only offering it to a small percentage of our user base because we wanted to test it out so Last year we were about 50 000 subscribers and now we're at about 75 000 Um, and and we keep on expanding it to additional communities of ours But right now it's primarily on one or two of our larger communities So we'll see as that becomes more of a priority. We also have, uh, Canada's largest gaming convention Um, which brings in about one and a half million dollars and we're looking to expand that to to new cities now Okay, um, and then there's that convention called EGLX, which is the same as the ticker. What when is it going to be held this year? October 18 to 20th Everybody who's watching go buy a ticket. I'll see you there Yeah, exactly And what's the other red screen then and the last one is um from the esports teams We also have sponsorships and merchandise. So those are team specific Uh, so there's no media involved in in the team sponsorships It's more like the logos on the jerseys and the apparel So it's no different from me going to buy a Manchester United jersey. Exactly Yes, and I can wear my wear my team with pride.  Which stock exchange do you trade on? So currently we trade on the Toronto stock exchange um for The venture exchange not tmx So we we actually earlier this month were approved for the ts for tmx the the main board the big board So we're going to be one of the 1% of companies that graduate from the venture exchange to the big board this month Yeah, that's a fantastic success story to date. Can we check that? We'll check back in with you in a couple of months for an update. Absolutely. Yes. We're also on the otc Okay, I will see you in october Thank you very much, peter Enthusiast gaming from investor intel. Thank you all


She took it, to the grave, but her place of rest became my curse. Imagine losing the love of your life, only to find out you never knew the other person. Double gut punch, with no one left to rage at, but you're left alone to pick up the pieces. The following story will crush your soul. You have been warned. Two months ago, my wife of ten years, I'm 35, she was 34, tragically passed away in a car accident, hit by a drunk driver in broad daylight. I cried non-stop for three days, we were planning on having kids and I had started a good paying job a year earlier and we just purchased our first home just two months before her passing.  It's like just yesterday everything was heading in the right direction and we would soon raise a family together. She seemed happy in our marriage and stated how proud of me she was. The following week after the accident, I received her phone, which was locked. After a week, I found out how to unlock it by an obvious code I didn't think of earlier. I simply just wanted it to keep photos from her memory, photos of us and so forth. But I saw some odd things in her photos, including photos of her in someone else's house, a house which I had never seen before, even some images that were taken in that house that were provocative. I continued scrolling down, but stopped when I saw the most heart-wrenching thing I ever saw, which was her with another man. It was nothing sensual, but they were in a place that was obviously his. And just how close they were, I just knew that this was an affair. On top of that, I recognized him, the guy who my wife had an affair with showed up at her funeral. I felt like I got stabbed in the gut when I realized I've seen him there. I began reading her texts and first I found out that she was on her way back home to me from his place. Three hours before the time of the accident, she text him saying, I'm on my way. I knew that meant he was the last one to see my wife, not only see her but having an intimate moment with her. Also means that she would still be here right now if she wasn't seeing him. I feel like I'm going through the passing of a loved one and a breakup at the same time. She did this behind my back and will never know that I found out. In a way, I feel she got to escape the heartbreak she put me through, although I fully understand passing is much worse and even knowing everything I know, I would never ever wish this or any pain upon her. I found out not only through her texts but her Facebook messages. Something that absolutely enrages me is that she told her closest friend that this guy from work wanted to take her out to dinner. Her friend encouraged her to go out with him. It enrages me because I knew her as well and in person. She was always very nice. But my wife was asking her to get confirmation had she said, No, you are married. Do not go out with him. I honestly feel like she wouldn't have done it. But her best friend's answer was like, Oh, is he hot? Just do it and go have fun.  This happened six months ago when she asked her friend about it. A few days later, she talked to her friend about how after dinner she went to his place and they did it multiple times. When I read that, I got physically sick. I honestly started going through a breakdown, vomiting in the toilet, then crying on the bathroom floor. I just can't imagine that this stuff actually happened. But it did. How could she do this? But as the days passed and the initial shock began to slow down, I started piecing things together. At the funeral, I noticed something a little unusual, which was this best friend of hers talking to one of her coworkers. She was a friend of my wife from high school and there was no reason she should have known any of my wife's coworkers. But she was in fact talking to the coworker who my wife had the affair with. When she saw me looking over to her, she came and talked to me, even gave me a hug. The guy who my wife was having an affair with came with her and shook my hand. Something about that just makes me feel sick, like I was being humiliated in a moment of grief. There they were, him and her best friend, who knew about her affair. I couldn't help but wonder, did her coworkers also know? It's been a month and I feel no closer to breaking away from the heartbreak. I miss her, I want her to be alive. If she was, I would probably even want to fix our marriage. But she's not here anymore. I still couldn't bring myself to read all of her texts messages with him. There is hundreds and some are explicit. My blood boils and my heart aches when I open their texts. Every time I get hit with anxiety and an adrenaline rush, palms get sweaty and my hands tremble to the point they shake. But I feel it's important I know everything. It just breaks my heart this guy did things with my wife. She wouldn't do for me. The thing that blows my mind the most is that there were no warning signs at all, not even one. Our marriage was good. She never did anything suspicious. Our bedroom life went on as normal, just zero warning signs about it, other than the fact she started wearing a little more makeup than usual. Then I blame myself for not catching on. Maybe this all could have been prevented. Maybe I should have done this or that. I am broken and don't see myself ever being happy again. Thanks everyone for all the support. I honestly didn't expect so much response. Everyone who wished me well. Thank you and know that your kind words give me strength. I confronted her friend and I've got a response back from her, stating that she is deeply sorry for encouraging the behavior and not taking my feelings into account. She never wanted me hurt and yada yada. Honestly, I don't feel any relief from her apologies. About the phone, I can't bring myself to destroy all the truth. I feel like I must read through the entirety of my wife's texts with this man, or I will forever go crazy wondering what did and didn't occur, how often and maybe get some answers on if they were lovers, or was it just lust, or what did she plan on doing? Obviously in this state of trauma, I cannot emotionally handle reading their conversations, but I decided to keep the phone, to read it all, and then toss it and move on. Also for people telling me to pee on her grave or saying this is karma, please drop it and don't even comment. I loved her for over a decade and it's not going away like that. I still love this woman even with the disgusting things she has done. She was still my wife, a daughter and an aunt.  Please go away. I do not need this and I am not a sick-minded enough man to have those thoughts. For everyone else, thank you so much. My God, I'm so incredibly sorry for you that I have no words. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through. That's a lot of conflicting emotion. I know this is the standard Reddit response, but I very highly recommend seeking out therapy. You need support in this. I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you. I have already done so and I'm going to be speaking with a psychologist. I lost a boyfriend to self-deletion and found out at his funeral that he had cheated on me. I went through waves of sadness and anger, sometimes at the same time and sometimes independently. It cut me in a way that was indescribable. You are not alone in this. There have been discussions on which would be worse. Partner that passes away verses, partner cheats.  I am so sorry. I don't understand how her best friend and this guy had the guts to come to you during the funeral. Some people have no morals. Even if they thought you did not know, what they did is just wrong. Is her a fair partner married? When are you going to tell the friend that you found out and that you know she encouraged her to do it? No, he isn't married. Appears that he was and is still single. I already told her, she first told me she was very sorry to hear that she did that, but that I shouldn't tarnish her reputation by telling people. She said I'm only telling you because I know you encouraged her and she hasn't replied to that. But it's only been a day. I'm not sure anyone would know how to respond. It's not tarnishing her reputation if she actually did it. You are just being accurate. Have you set up an appointment with a grief counselor? Yes, I do. I have an appointment in one month from now. Not tarnishing her reputation. It's the truth for real. You won't be tarnishing anything. You'll be co-workers, everyone mate. Take screenshots of all the proof you have and log into her social media to post it to the world. Send everything to the affair partner's job and make sure they know her faith fell upon her after seeing him. Make sure to put all the blame on him, same with the girl who encouraged her. Make sure your wife's family sees her as a traitor. Make sure all her friends know that if she hadn't encouraged your wife to cheat, she might still be alive. During this global shutdown there's a lot of time to spare. Make sure to nuke their lives the same way they ruined yours. But do it smart. Gather all the proof and only use the truth and blast it all at once in a way they have no chances of covering up. But hey, I'm a stranger. I'm not advocating for you to do anything against the law. I just feel extremely angry at the idea she could still be alive if she didn't cheat. Trust me, the people around you will all be on your side if they find out the truth. Right now, the other man is breathing a sigh of relief because she is gone and he believes all the evidence and risk of exposure is too. I would turn his world upside down and burn it to the ground.  Expose the truth of the affair to all family and friends if you are willing to endure what follows. You have the proof, take screenshots and use it to silence those who would attack you. She shouldn't be remembered as a loyal wife. She passed on the way from seeing her a fair partner after they had their secret encounter.  She could have had this other man's child and tried to pass it off as yours. You lost your wife long before she was gone. She gave you and the marriage up as soon as she decided to let this co-worker into her personal life and well, you can fill the rest in. You can still have a life only with someone else. Make a post on socials in her memory by exposing the lie and post the proof. Set yourself free. Wow, this is horrible. I'm so glad you confronted the friend. She needed to hear what you had to say. Your wife might have gone ahead and cheated regardless of her encouragement. You can't say either way, but her friend could have done the right thing and who knows what would have happened if she had. Would your wife be alive today? You can't know that. But what you do know is that obviously, she's no friend of yours. You can't rage against the heavens on this one. It is a complete waste of time and a very unproductive way of expatiating your anger against your wife's decision. You loved, still love, the woman who was alive. Not this version. I totally would pursue at least a discussion with the affair partner at least one time. You may not like this man, you certainly owe him nothing. However, he very well might have been the last person on the planet to see your wife alive. I would want to know what he had to say, how he could have justified his actions and what he felt about your wife. Was she just lust to this guy? Was that all there was to it? I almost hope not. It's a terrible reason to die for. Obviously, therapy is a right choice. If I were you, I would want to write this down. I mean all of it. How you felt about your wife, what you built together, your plans, the grief, the anguish, the double anguish of finding out about adultery. I would add her friend's comments and what this man has to say. It's very therapeutic to journal as much as you can. This is something you can keep to yourself if you like, or you can tell people what she did. There is no such thing as tarnishing a memory if you are simply telling the truth. You are not the first person to know your fidelity after your partner is gone and how you deal with it is up to you. I certainly wouldn't seek out her friend's advice on anything about this. She demonstrated her values already. Lastly, you have my sympathy and empathy for your loss. There are no words that will help just time. I'm so sorry. Hello all. I love everyone in this sub. You guys have shown me so much support regarding what I've been dealing with. Anyway, anything has gotten better, especially during this time where we need to stay at home and I'm stuck not working now. Just too much time. Anyway, people mentioned getting in touch with my wife's company's HR about her co-worker whom she was having an affair with. I have done this and I asked about it and they said there was no policy against co-workers getting romantically involved as long as it is off work. I kind of figured this was the case. As much as I want to get him fired and ruin his life, it was in fact consensual and their affair was off the clock so I understand that there is nothing they can do. I didn't think there was. I sent a screenshot of the message of her friend encouraging my wife to her boyfriend. He replied that he is sorry for what happened to me but that his girlfriend didn't think she would actually do it, that I shouldn't blame his girlfriend for my wife's affair or tragedy. So I guess it's a dead end there talking to a doorknob who believes whatever his girlfriend says. I got a ton of suggestions about posting her texts and messages to publicize what she did. I am not going to do this. I really don't understand the point of doing it. She is gone and has no consequences left to suffer. No justice will be served. She is gone. I will only be making this more difficult for her family. Besides, it's not really anyone else's business, even if she was alive. So I decided to go through all her texts between him and her other friends. I was going to wait longer before looking but I just couldn't sleep. I couldn't seem to move on from wondering how, where, why and not having any answers. Her entire conversation with him was still there from their first and last texts. Little bit of good news is that she expressed guilt about the affair. Also, after meeting him the second time to do it, she expressed guilt again and she told him that she can't continue seeing him. But of course it would continue. Their conversations would range from her being very close to him, sending heart-filled messages to next time totally ignoring him. But she would sometimes apologize for ignoring him which obviously angered me. Then, the bad news. She appears to have been much more intimately exploratory with him. She also smoked weed with him which I never seen her do. I found she let him in not only the natural way but the other one too if you know what I mean even more than once. Yet it's something she never let me do. She also had him sleep in our bed. On the night I went to visit my brother.  She talked about it like it was funny. This isn't something I was ready for. I began shaking and puking. It gave me a severe anxiety attack and I resorted to drinking last night because it was just too much. I feel like he took her from me. Like he destroyed her because she would be alive if it wasn't for him. I've been obsessed with the dates on their messages about when they would meet. I'd go back to my social media and camera album to see what day that was. I was heartbroken when I saw they met on our anniversary where I took her to dinner to the first place we went on a date. I remembered that day as a great night with her. It was romantic and we were both so happy and close. I felt like got hit in the gut knowing she was in bed with another man just hours before our date. Makes me sick and I don't see how I can get over this. My mind is still numb after what I read last night. I just can't believe that actually happened. I honestly wish I never discovered this. I'd much rather have left her phone alone. I'd rather have remembered something I never knew. A lie compared to how I feel now. But now that I know, I need to let go of all the love I have for her. I'm mourning her passing and I miss her so much. But it's time I need to realize she isn't who I thought she was. I have read everything there is to know and at least I don't think I can hurt anymore than I'm hurting now. Here is to hopefully healing. I have a talk with a psychologist in about a month, but if I feel any worse I will go to the hospital because I'm close to having bad thoughts and feeling worse. But I know it's an illogical feeling. I must go on. Thank you all. If you haven't done so already throw the phone away. Stop torturing yourself. Listen to that advice OP. What do they call it? Shopping for pain. OP you've read all there is to read on it. You've seen to the bottom of the abyss and now it's time to stop rubbing salt in your own wounds. You'll feel better when you throw the phone away. It's symbolically important as well as practically important. On the anniversary is just cruel. Absolutely disgusting to the core. I cannot even begin to imagine how you must have felt after discovering the betrayal. Too heavy a burden to carry. I understand your desire to read everything and know everything, but that honestly has made it so much worse.  It takes restraint and self-awareness to block the thoughts which then speeds up the healing process and helps you move on. As a younger man I would have done the same as him but now I believe I would try to avoid the nitty gritty and accept the bare minimum. I think he was searching for any inkling during their affair that his wife loved him. He sounded relieved that she was a little guilty in all of it, but he definitely is a better person than me. I would have put everyone on blast. The wife, but also the best friend and co-worker. Everyone would have known the type of people they actually were. Her end was a sad situation but that doesn't exempt anyone from the pain he's going through right now taking away OP's primary outlet. He listened to the terrible advice of her best friend to keep it quiet. Does she not realize that is a pathway to more harm to him? Even more than she already has. I really hate her and I don't even know her. I hope everyone she trusts is lying to her as she is a tremendously awful person. Man, this is the first time I've read someone else's story and feel physically ill. Even close to bursting to tears. Can't even imagine how much it hurts to you to just read messages one after the other like they never end. The thought of anyone experiencing this has sent me into a near panic attack. I pray it isn't real. Don't hold a grudge towards anyone OP. I hope you find peace. Same here. This one made me physically ill. I believe it is because there is really no resolution. The one person who's fault it is was probably high when they were hit.  Was she sorry? We will never know. The phone may give motivations, but nope. What I would do is take those texts about weed and let the HR department know since they are probably aiming for a sober workplace. The friend and her boyfriend have no conscience. Didn't think she'd do it. That was a cop-out answer. Maybe the only answers would come from the affair partner letting him know you have all the proof and need answers. Men who chase other men's wives are scumbags to begin with so that also might cause more pain. Your call. Yeah, this one hurts even more than normal. The really nuclear thing for me is doing things for the affair partner that she wouldn't do two or four OP. They say that sometimes a spouse can't do this for her husband because of embarrassment. They feel the cheaters want to please their affair partner and they will do anything for them which makes it a total deal breaker. I've always believed that you should give your best to your spouse emotionally and physically. She obviously gave her best to her affair partner. She didn't require commitment. She didn't require her affair partner to help pay her bills. She didn't require her affair partner to make vows to her. Everything that she required of her spouse was not required of her affair partner. And yet she gave her best of her body to her affair partner. Holy cow, that poor man. How do these types of people live with themselves? The audacity of that affair partner to shake OP's hand at his wife's funeral.  Someone asked what the boyfriend should have done. Well take it seriously for one. If the friend is that willing and eager to encourage cheating then she's that much more likely to cheat. Even if OP was a bad husband and the wife was unhappy that doesn't mean the friend should encourage cheating. In that situation she should tell her to leave. What bothers me is that he seemed, granted we only have OP's side, like he just didn't care that his girlfriend was at least slightly culpable for the affair. He didn't want to understand how she was at least slightly at fault here. It was still the wife's choice at the end of the day but clearly her friend was a big influence. I hope he discovers that he should have taken OP more seriously. I totally be going scorched earth on everyone involved if it was me. The rage at everything. The loss as well as the infidelity would find an outlet upon their lives and their homes and God helped them. I don't know how this guy's found the inner strength to move on from this. It isn't weakness to refuse revenge it's just something I couldn't let go. In a way you are lucky OP. No divorce no begging, no assets being provided. You were freed. Doesn't matter if it was by God, Karma or the devil. You are now free. Appreciate what you were given. It doesn't mean enjoying your cheating wife's passing or being an A-hole. Looking for a non-existent closure isn't going to bring you anywhere. It will help you to take the objective or practical advice. Take care of yourself from now on. Hit the gym hard and let your anger out hard. Get into something like boxing so you can let your inner anger out. OP Listen up.  She messed up. Don't you dare mess up after something she did. Your life is a wonder. You can meet someone wonderful. You deserve it and you will. If you need help, seek it. You are a wonderful human being. Don't deprive someone else from your light. My heart is with you. Time has a way of healing our most intimate wounds. Keep pressing on. You got this. There it is. The end to this tragic story. There will never be a follow-up as OP deleted his account. We are left to wonder and hope he found peace in his mind and heart. There's not much I can say other than this was a rough story to cover for you all. But I thought it deserved to be covered for you. What would you advise OP? It's hard to imagine the turmoil he is in, but can you understand his pain and choices? As this story is quite brutal, please keep in mind to be respectful towards OP as he shared a deeply personal story. Thank you for staying till the end. You're the one I make these episodes for. See you in the next one. Friend.