How do you pick up the ball and see doesn't put the ends on this Friday? Felt great, man. Got my first NFL touchdown. It's been a long time coming. Just excited to make a play. I mean, you guys just talked to Elijah, man. He made a great play. Almost landed over top of the ball. I had to kind of grasp it and just popped up and was able to sprint to the end zone. You know, great to pop off the game like that. We're super excited. But next two plays, big play, and they score. So it's consistency, you know? Somebody saved the ball for you. And if so, what do we do with it? I save all my turnovers. I mean, I got a lot of them in my closet right now. Honestly, I don't know what I'm going to do with it. But I have an idea that when I retire, and I get all my turnovers and stuff like that.  You know what I'm saying? Because I got a lot, so I think I might do like a leather chair or something, some custom something, you know? I'm trying to find out who can do something for me. Now, have you had a defensive touchdown before? I know you said you haven't had one in the league. But maybe in college? High school was the last time? No, I didn't have it in high school defensively. But I had four pick sixes in college. So like I said, it's been a long time coming. Just excited to get my first touchdown. What was the last week for you? Coming off the just game and just with that in mind, how important was it to win this game today and kind of change the service and kind of get things going in the other direction? I mean, it was a must win for us, this division game. We understand that all our division games are must win are going to be tough. The Jets, like you said, it was kind of came off emotional rollercoaster losing to the Jets. But I kind of talked about it the first couple of days. We had to flush it and get ready for Jacksonville Jaguars. Not going to apologize for winning. Obviously, it wasn't pretty. It wasn't perfect at all. We got a lot of stuff we need to clean up. But happy to get a win down here in Duval. We're seeing gradual improvement with that third down defense today. We saw it again. What's behind that? What's going on for you now? Any time we can get teams in third and long and keep them out of third and short, we're going to be pretty successful in third down defense. Like I've been talking about all offices and communication's been better. The execution, the pass for us, the coverage, everything's been great. We just have to make sure that we can get them in third and longs. We have to be better on first and second downs, I think, on those drives that you're seeing. Teams are driving all the way down the field. They're getting big plays on first and second down. We're not forcing them into third and manageable for us. So that's something that we had to continue to improve on. They had to back it up. I think it was like a bunch of yards today. I don't know what exactly it was. What was happening? He had his 8.3 per. Yeah, honestly, I think James Robinson is one of the more underrated running backs in this league. We've seen him last year, get over 1,000. He'll probably get over 1,000 again this year. He's a really good running back, good vision. He has real good center of gravity, kind of like Alva Camara-like. He's small, compact, strong. But I don't think as a defense overall, we just didn't tackle well enough today. Gave us some big plays on some missed tackles, stuff we got to clean up. A couple more. Go ahead. You faced this job last season a lot. James and your team, Trevor at quarterback, what sort of differences do you see on their offense this year that maybe they hadn't had before? My first two years, obviously it was Blake Bortles, and it was a really good defense. The offense really wasn't good at all. They was kind of leaning on their defense. As of now, you can see that their defense still is pretty good, but they can score points in a hurry. Trevor Lawrence, my first time playing him, but I think he's going to be a heck of quarterback in the league, and he's going to be excited. He's going to be excited to play him for the years to come. But they're going to keep getting better. We knew that there was going to be a pretty good offense, and they wasn't going to lay down once we got up on them. But I think, like you said, for him, and to run it back, and Shanall, and 10, I think we did a good job of containing at times, but just not consistently enough.


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Hello, everybody. This is episode number 215 of the Anxious Truth, and I am joined today by my friend, Kimberly Quinlan, next to you. Hey, Kim. I did a little jazz hand there. It was, it was a jazz hand. So this episode is a little bit different. I'm not going to, there's no intro, there's no music. I'm going to try and be as respectful to this topic as I think we need to be. Because I know this is a really crippling fear for so many people. Today we're going to talk about the fear of suicidal thoughts or the fear that you might become suicidal against your will, right? It's an incredibly common fear in our community. Yeah. So before we do that, and before we come in again to the conversation, I'm just going to have an informal chat about it, and hopefully it will help you guys. Just a quick reminder that while I am not a therapist working on it, and Kim is, this is not therapy, it can't be a replacement for therapy. So always consult your mental health provider.  It's don't rely on a podcast for that sort of thing. So if you have anything you want to add to that, Kimberly? No, I go straight to your emergency room or call 991. They're the best people to call. You can always call a suicide hotline as well, but we can talk about that later. That's true. If you go to the anxioustruth.com.com. That'll be the show notes for this episode. I'll make sure to have all those numbers and stuff. And the countries that I can find them for, I will put them in. So anyway, for those of you who do not know Kim, Kim, introduce yourself. I know you all know Kim. Go ahead. Hi, my name is Kimberly Quinlan. I am a marriage and family therapist. I live in California, USA. I specialize in anxiety disorders and eating disorders. And I have a podcast called your anxiety toolkit. It's a good one. If you're not following that podcast, you should. So I asked Kim on to talk about this today because it seemed like a topic that I want a seasoned clinician to weigh in on. You've been at this for over 10 years now. So, you know, well respected in the field. One of the most kind and compassionate people I know.  One of the questions that comes up in my community, we share so much of our community, which is great is this fear. I'm terrified that I might. I don't want to hurt myself. I have no intentions of doing that. And I think I'm describing it accurately for most people because I was that person at one point. I don't want to kill myself. I do not want to die. I don't want to hurt myself. But I'm afraid that one day I will make a decision that I have no intention to make. It will be completely out of my control. I won't be able to control my thoughts or my actions and I will do and I will harm myself. I can tell you from my own experience when I was at my worst, my doctor would prescribe Xanax for me. He would give me a 90 pills, right? And I would throw away 89 of them a year later. I was too stubborn to take them. But I was so afraid of this that I would ask people to hide them. I didn't want to take them. I had no business idea. I wasn't interested in them. But I was so afraid that I might do something that I really had no intentions of doing that I would ask to have those hidden. And I know other people get to the point where they're afraid of having sharp objects in the house and things of that nature, even though they have absolutely no intention of using them. I'm guessing you've seen this all the time. Yeah, all the time. Yeah. So just sort of let's just break it down into categories, right? So we know there are people who have suicidal ideation, like thoughts of suicide that line up with where they are in their mind, right? So we call it egocentonic, meaning like, yes, I'm having thoughts of suicide and I do want to die, right? So we call that active suicidal ideation. We also then have another category, which is called passive suicidal ideation. Lots of people have this, which is where it's not that you want to die. It's that you just don't want to get up today and do the day. You just kind of want to crawl under a rock and disappear into a dark place, right?  It's that you're just, you're done, life is too hard kind of thing. And that's really common. And then the final category, which is what we're here to talk about. And the reason I want to be really clear with these classifications is the people who have the fear of one of those two things. Yeah, they don't have either, but they're afraid that they might. What can happen is you may have, there are times when some people have some suicidal ideation, whether it be passive or active and the fear, right? And so they can exist together. But the important thing to remember here is how we approach all of them in terms of how do we respond. And the cool thing is we respond in a very similar way, right? The first thing to recognize is if someone is in that final category of having thoughts about dying by suicide, meaning like they're having a fear about it, right? If you're having a fear of wanting to do this or fear that one day you will, your job is to remember that we don't treat that thought different than any other obsession. It's just that the content is different, right? Even what I'll say, and let's sort of go slow down here. Even at the beginning of the session, we talked about slowing down and being really respectful. And yes, we want to do that around suicide. We also don't want to treat these thoughts like they're important and special and to be particularly concerned about if they're just the fear of that happening. Yeah, I would agree with that 100%. Right. I think my desire to be respectful to this is the title alone is going to attract people to this. So yeah, but you're 100% right. But it is the most important thought a human can have. It seems like it is. Like it's a special thought. It's so important. I get that. Yeah, so your intro was perfect, right? We need to treat these topics like they're important because they are. But if you're having a fear, we don't treat fears like they're important and that's the classification difference, right? So yes, a lot of my patients report this, right? And it's usually a fear that comes on very intensely. There's a lot of urgency around it. There's the need to get certainty on it right away. And we know that when there is urgency and the need for certainty, that's usually a red flag for like this is an obsession and I'm getting caught up in it, right? And that can be a helpful way to identify how to respond. Yeah, which I think makes good sense because in general, and I'm going to defer to you on this, you're the experienced one, but there seems to be a difference. There's somebody who winds up in one of those first two categories, passive suicidal ideation, active suicide. That's a progression. Like they don't wake up one morning and decide and I think that's one of the, one of the sort of miscalculations that goes into this, that third category that we're addressing today, that somehow or other the decision to do something so extreme happens instantly for no reason, which doesn't appear to be the case in most situations. Well, usually when someone reports this kind of fear or obsession, we'll call it an obsession just for the sake of knowing that it's repetitive and it's unwanted and so forth. But it's basically a fear. It's a thought is when people have this thought, it is often triggered by reading something in the news, seeing something on social media, you know, watching something on YouTube or something, and you've seen someone who has died by suicide and your brain then sends a very direct message to your body like, what if I lose control and so much underlying of most fears or many fears is the fear that we'll lose control and just like snap, right? How many times I've heard a client say, what if I snap, right? It'll be too much. It's always too much. Yeah. And our job again is to zoom in and go, that's interesting. That sounds a lot like your fear of panicking, right? And that sounds a lot like your fear of snapping and doing, you know, making a big mistake or doing a behavior that doesn't line up with your values. And so our job here is to catch the trigger because there usually will be one and then to catch our response to need to get control over our bodies. Yeah, last time that I, excuse me, that I heard a big wave of this fear was after Naomi Judd, the country singer. Judd was only a few weeks ago. Unfortunately, she was in the news because she ended up taking her own life. And it triggered a big wave of discussion about this. People came up with it. Oh my God, this triggered me. This triggered me. Or maybe it's somebody that unfortunately, you know, personally who did that. And that will be the triggering event there. So what I'm hearing is that is, I know as hard as it is to believe and trust me when I was in that situation where I was asking to have the Xanax hid because I was so afraid that I would lose control and do this completely out of character thing. It seems like such an important thought. The content does seem so important, but it's just now I would tell you, in retrospect, I can tell you it was not important at all. I was also afraid that the orange juice was poisoned and that I had all kinds of stuff. So it's the same as all of that. Yeah, so I think that this is really important. The progression, if you're struggling with this, is if possible, go and get professional help. Sometimes we just need to sort of understand the assessment to figure out which category we belong in, get help in that area. Then we want to learn, and this is where I will say to you, as somebody who's had clients in all three categories, the tools are very similar for each one. Because even if you're having active suicidal ideation, we still practice a lot of metacognitive therapy. Observing that it's still just a thought. Just because you have the thought doesn't mean you have to act on your thoughts. It's the same if you have the fear, I'm having the thought just because I'm having the thought doesn't mean I have to act on that thought and fear. There will be some variations in how we treat it in terms of yes, if you are active in your ideation, yes, we would take away the means, right? The means in which that could happen. However, let me sort of give you a case study here, and hopefully this is helpful, is I once treated a client who had came to me with fear of suicidal, the fear that she would die by suicide. And she 10, 15 years before had attempted suicide. She was depressed. She'd gone through a very difficult time. She then had gone through full therapy, fully recovered from her major depressive episode. And now she's having this fear, right? So whether you've had that event or not doesn't change the way I treat it, and we treated it, which was we do an inventory on, okay, you're having this thought. How are you responding to it? Let's write every single response down. I hide the pills. I keep the knives locked in the blah, blah, blah, right? Like I ruminate on it for many hours a day. I avoid staying up late at night, or whatever they're being triggered by in the park. Being alone. That was one of the reasons I was so afraid to be alone. Yeah. Yeah. I won't take a bath because next to the bath is the hay drive. Right. So we do an inventory of all the behaviors, even the little nuanced behaviors, like avoiding the words, suicide, right? You know, unfollowing people who talk about it on social media and so forth. So we do an inventory and then we slowly return back to undoing those behaviors, right? So we will, and so an example would be, I had a client, similar to you, is my client's homework was to have the pills next to her in bed. Yeah. And she had to keep observing that thought, ping, ping, popping up in her head so that she could practice changing her response. Because if you don't change your response, the fear keeps being fueled. That's 100%. Yeah. Now, there have been times when I've had clients who would say, I'm doing, I'm trying to undo these responses. I'm trying to just let the thought be there. And sometimes I do have passive or active suicidal ideation. And we just do little shifts in the treatment, but we still have them showing up and living their life according to their values and not responding to that fear as if that fear or that thought is important. Yeah. Yeah. That makes perfect sense. And I can 100% verify that that was my experience, exactly what you said. I remember the first time that I did that knowing like, although I'm cheating a little bit here because what I discovered, a lot of people will ask me, and we can talk about this. Well, what would be my exposure for this? They asked me all the time, well, did you do exposure? What was your exposure for that? Really as my relationship with my thoughts and fears changed as I was doing all of the other work, because I'm guessing that this fear, although maybe, I don't know if this is a specific OCD subtype, maybe part of harm OCD, I don't know. But most of the people in my community do not have this fear that we're talking about by itself. This isn't a standalone thing. Yeah. It's part of the whole panic anxiety agoraphobia complex. So as I get better at the rest of that, I was able to relate to that thought in a much more reasoned way. And I remember the day that I said, give me the pills. And it was a little bit of a weird moment. Like, what do you mean, give me the pills? I'm like, no, no, no, not that. And they put them in the medicine cabinet up on the top shelf. My kids were in there. They could never get to them. And they had the crazy child group walk on them. But, okay, I'm going to have to let these sit here. Yeah. And I would throw them away at the end of the year when they would expire. But nonetheless, that was a big step for me, that. And, okay, yeah, fine. Go to the supermarket. I'll stay home alone for the hour. Yeah. The thing to remember with this fear is we could take a couple of approaches, but the way that I often train my staff and I treat my clients is being alive and is the exposure. Just going about your day is the exposure. Really what we're focusing on here, which is more important than anything is the response prevention, right? It's like 70% of the work, which is when you have the thought, how do you respond? Do you respond with urgency and with importance? And do you respond as if that is, absolutely, you cannot tolerate that? Or are you responding in a really mindful, open way? Now, again, I want to keep coming back to the intro, which is if you are having suicidal ideation, don't just ignore it. Absolutely go and see your medical professional. Go and see a mental health professional.  But what we're talking about, I want to just be clear here, we're talking about specifically the fear of suicidal ideation. Yeah, which is 100% true. And I think it's never a bit, again, understanding that not everybody has access to this, which is terrible. It is hard for people to go see a mental health professional sometimes, but even to just be evaluated, is this something I need to be worried about? And if you have somebody like Kimberly or, you know, qualified professional who says, no, no, no, you fall into this category that we're talking about. At least you know how to deal with that. Yeah. The other thing that I want to talk about a little bit is I want to talk about the difference. How do I know? How do I know which thoughts are the ones that I should? What puts me in the passive and then active category? Because I guarantee that people watching and listening are going, that's going to be the next question. Yeah. Well, how will I know when I'm having passive ideation? How will I know when I'm having active ideation? Yeah. Well, again, I think that that's true for health anxiety. That's true for, you know, so many obsessions, right? Like they have a fear. How do I know what won't happen? And if you get too caught up in trying to identify, like I talked about those three categories. If you find that you're listening to this on repeat, trying to define which category it is, you might find that you want to step back a little bit because really all you're doing is you're just, again, trying to get certainty. And I think that the thing with, again, we treat health anxiety in this exact way is we're actually going to use your tools and sit back and just wait a little bit and not know. And then practice not knowing. Again, because again, you'll, you'll, this is annoying to say, but you'll know. Yeah, I knew you were going to say that. You'll know. You'll know. But if your thought is how do I know? Well, then you probably should defer to using some of your mindfulness and response prevention skills. Right. You'll know. And the same thing with health anxiety. People who are, who are ill know that they're ill. Yeah. They're not worried that they might be ill. Exactly. Yeah. And I would think and correct me if I'm wrong in any of this, but if you're, if you're fixated now on, oh my God, which of those three categories in my end is really a good chance during the third one that we're talking about now. Yeah. Yeah. And at the end of the day, like I said, I may have some people who, you know, there's no shame in being in the first two categories, right? Like there's nothing to be ashamed of. But even then, we're still going to be responding in this really wise, skillful way, right? Yeah. In that when you have the, this is true for any thought, any thought, even if it's about your lovely little baby, right? That you're having terrible thoughts about or your grandma or whatever is any thought we're going to always slow down and just be like, okay, how can I be really skillful in my response to this? Right. That's so important. And yes, if you may find that you are, you know, particularly in these times when the world is so divided and there's a lot of passive suicidal ideation right now. That's very common. Again, no reason that we need to like run to the ER. If you are struggling and you really think you're in danger, go to. But I had a follower a few months ago talk about, I thought was really cool. She said, she had such strong fear of, of harming herself that she drove to, it was like two in the morning. She drove down to the ER. She sat in her car. She was in treatment and she said, I just sat there. And I thought, what is the most skilled way to respond to this? Right? Like, am I responding from fear or am I responding from a place of really feeling like this is true for me? And she turned around and she drove home because she knew she was able to identify. I'm only here to make my fear go away, not to keep me safe. That story actually makes me a little emotional. I did that. I did that twice, like three and four o'clock in the morning. And I remember sitting there and it was interesting to me because my experience there was once I was there in the parking lot, I did not go in the building. I just wanted to be close enough so I could run in case I really did snap. It started to dawn on me that like, oh, wait a minute. I clearly don't need to run into this building. So it was a desperate act in a way, but in a way that desperation made a little bit of space for me, you know, to be able to respond a little bit differently. So that was a, I remember those two nights very, very, very good. Yeah. Just scary nights. Yeah. But in the end, inconsequential. So the last version of this before we sort of wrap it up because we don't go too long. And I so appreciate it. I learned something every time I talked to you. It's just so great. But there's the other category of people that are listening right now. I know we're going to say, yeah, but I'm not worried that I'm going to snap today and like instantly somehow go into this suicidal mode and kill myself. The fear for other people is really tied to that, the fear of depression. Well, now I'm worried that I might become depressed and then the depression will progress all the way down the road and it will end with this act. So it's not so much the fear of a suicidal thought or a fear that they might have one today. It's really the fear. Well, what if I become depressed or what if I am depressed and they don't know it? That's a different topic, but it ties together. Yeah. It's a fear of depression. Yeah. I know what you're going to say. What am I going to say? Yeah. It's the same thought. Thinking that you might become depressed is just a thought like any other thought. Just because you think it doesn't mean it's going to happen. Yeah. Yeah. See, not exactly. You know me so well. Obviously I've bored you to tears with my theories. Hardly. But the other thing I would add to that is really in treatment for anxiety, do I spend a lot of time correcting distorted thoughts, right? Because often that can become compulsive in and of itself. When I will correct distorted thoughts is when people say statements about their coping, right? I won't be able to cope. And then I love to get in there and like really work on them having again skillful thoughts about how they cope with life, right? So in this case, what I would also encourage them to do is they're really saying that there's another feeling and there's another sensation that I can't tolerate just like panic. Well, I can't handle panic. So I don't want panic and I can't now I can't handle depression. And a lot of recovery requires a really flexible mindset where you remind people, okay, if and when that happens, we'll find a solution then. But until then there's three words I always hold up my three fingers to my clients, not happening now, right? Yeah. Not happening now. And so we we don't need to solve whether that will happen or not. But we can, there's one thing we can do which is remind ourselves of our ability to cope with emotions. And so you're saying. We always do. I mean, in the end I see I people are tired of hearing me saying that you've always coped with all of your emotions. It didn't feel good. No, not feeling good doesn't mean you didn't cope. Yeah. And those three words not happening today for me and I was so I mean, there was a lot of death themes for me for sure 100%. It was this fear of death and this fixation of death dying in existence. And it was one day we'll die today is not that day. So today is not that day was five words for me that was incredibly powerful. It's not that day. And if it turns out to be, I guess I'll have to deal with it. Yeah. Same rules apply. And you will. And I will one day I will like everybody. Yeah. Yeah. So I mean, it's a hard thing. It's a hard thing. Again, often people are having this fear when they're already in so much pain. So of course they don't want more pain. Right. That's human. Right. But again, this is about stopping for a second and and really asking yourself, you know, how, how I respond to this thought is the beginning of me training my brain and molding my brain into the way that I want to be. So I'm going to change how I respond, which is an exercise in resiliency and psychological flexibility. And the bad news is not bad news. It's just, we should acknowledge that the struggle partially comes from when you are in that suffering or pain state, our ability to be resilient and flexible tends to drop a little bit naturally when you're struggling. It's the same sort of thing, you know. Exactly. It doesn't mean that you can't just because you're struggling doesn't mean you're not capable or that this is an overwhelm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Just one thought at a time is all you have to focus on. Very good. Thank you so much. This has been incredibly helpful for those of you who want to, where can you comment on this? YouTube, my Facebook group, wherever. I don't post these on Instagram, but if you have questions, ask them where you can. Just answer them. But I hope that this has at least put this not assured you, which is wasn't the job to argue with that thought, but to at least make you understand the context they exist in and why it's not as big an emergency as you are sure that it is right now, even though you're so scared of the thought. Yeah. Anything else you want to add to that to wrap it up, Kim? No, just a nice dose of compassion. This isn't easy stuff. This is hard. It's a heavy weight to carry. So if you can just give yourself a little dose of compassion as you handle it, I think that will sometimes loosen the load a little. Yeah. I would agree. All right, guys. Well, thanks for taking the time to hang out with us, Kimberly. Thank you, Kimberly. Thank you so much for coming on. As always, I love when we get to work together. And again, if you have, or if you're watching on YouTube, it's on the screen right now. TheAnxiousTreat.com, so there's 215. I'll have all Kim's links to her courses and her podcast, which is excellent. Your thoughts series? So good. The mental compulsions. Yeah. I listen to everyone. I'm like, I literally take notes. I know. It was so good. It's like one of my career highlights. It was so fun. And you had some real heavy weights way in there. Yeah. That says something about who you are. Thank you. All right, guys. If you're watching on YouTube, by all means, subscribe and comment and all that stuff. If you're listening on iTunes or Spotify, leave a five-star rating, write a little review of the podcast if you think this is helping you. And then I will be back next week with another topic even though I don't know what that's going to be. We'll see you now. Thanks, Kim.


But mine is basically going to be on the myth of the alpha male and um How we put this pressure on this image, right? And the only way we can have a myth is when we don't know something, you know and when Look at look at the myths of society or if we look at greek mythology or religion or you know If you go to like let's say the amazon jungle myth or whatever is happening there And people in our society judge that but that myth is just to have a relationship with what they don't understand The problem is is in our society. We understand all this shit except ourselves If you take those people who are making myths and smaller societies They actually they tend to I mean I can't speak for them But whenever I've traveled and you know done the the backpacking thing and really gotten down in deep I tend to notice that Many people in the world have an identity and a clear vision of who they are What their history is their passions are and their purpose and to the point where they don't even need to define it But here in our society there's this Abstraction and then we go for this icon and we go for this image that is fueled and in almost dependent upon never finding it It's it's just such an interesting thing Um, if I want to be the healthiest person when I don't know how to do that when I'm coming out of my pain out of my Let's say shame or or anger or resentment I have to be the image of what it's supposed to be because it's an interesting thing this this concept of an alpha male and and you're talking about it as a mythology and which is essentially an archetype which is like a the The collective input of of let's say western society Modern western society up to this point, which is defined that an alpha male is this sort of thing And I think that I mean that exists in all cultures throughout time but previously What I think what's missing is that the archetype of the alpha male which they wouldn't have I guess it wouldn't have been referred to as the alpha male in any way But like say the warrior or the king or one of these kind of powerful male archetypes They were based on on a relationship with with nature With each other with your adversaries with your internal and external adversaries and that and I think they were much more kind of deep and well-rounded archetypes of what a what a man is and to go and there was a There was a clear Script of what you went through to go from manhood into initiation boyhood initiation manhood and then elder or wise man or king or whatever later on And the thing that we have in modern western society is that we've kind of got this plastic version of You know tough guy muscles gets the girls money Rolex Big you know all these like little pastiche of the external aspects of what what people are trying to sell you is the alpha male And it's and it has no core. It has no substance And it's and it's based on the around the idea of men not actually being in touch with their emotions being tough all the time Being what successful in materialistic sense all the time You know all those things which are pretty shallow and almost impossible to achieve And even if you do achieve them, they're only fleeting victories anyway And so we have this crisis of masculinity in the modern world So we're men are trying to you know fit into this archetype which is which is not actually deep Which it's not not one based on you know a collective consciousness or or powerful Connection to source. So where do you think that that comes from? Which well the the whole need for the image. Where do you think that the current modern archetype of the alpha male comes from? I think it's I don't think it's like some people think it's kind of a conspiracy dictated by certain people Um I don't I think it's more a reactionary thing like sure. Yeah For example, you know, it comes post posts during the first first and second world war You you create archetypes of of warriors that have to you know are all essentially, you know captain america or all all You know perfect in kind of their morality versus good versus evil kind of stuff And then that comes part of society's culture Then you also have the sexual revolution and you know the 60s where you're having You know the dynamic of the sexes is changing of race relations of You know people's relationship to their to their past with You know rejecting their their parent society and so a new myth arises then then you have a reaction coming from the you know during the 80s when Materialism and money and cocaine becomes the gods and all of these things.


It feels nice. I'm really happy to be here. Everything is done and I'm really excited to play for Everton as soon as possible. Why were you so keen to join Everton? Everton is really a big club with a big history, with big culture and the coach and the club wants me really much and that's why I came here. You had great success in Turkey. How confident are you that you can be a success in the Premier League as well? Yeah, I brought my skills here and everybody is going to see what kind of player I am and I think I will be a good player in the Premier League and for Everton. What strengths do you think you have that will make you successful for Everton? I think my strength is that I'm strong and the English League, the Premier League, everybody knows that it's a really strong league. I can use both feet like same and I think in the box I'm a really good striker. You mentioned the manager Sam Ardice and how much he wanted you here. How much are you looking forward to playing for him? Yeah, he had a really big decision because he called me and he said that he wanted me really much and this was a big reason to come also for Everton. We've got some creative midfielders, Gelfy Sigarton, Yannick Balatti. Do you think those are players that can help you score goals for Everton? Yeah, sure, because I know them. They are really big players. I always watched Everton games and I hope that they make a lot of assists for me. And looking at the players we already have here, players like Wayne Rooney for example, how excited are you to work with the players here? Very excited because Everton have really big names, also big players. I'm very excited to play with them, to learn from them and especially from Wayne Rooney.


What is going on guys welcome back to the channel critical overlord here So we're gonna be talking about Buffy season three Buffy season three really does again another season where everything is being upped in a way Buffy is reeling from the finale of season two becoming part two and becoming part one where she adds unfortunately Put Angel and jealous at the time who were ready back to Angel put him down and had her heartbreak. She moved across She didn't move across but she moved back to LA. She's been living on her own Trying to make ends meet trying to cope with the loss of her first love She returns to Sunnydale for her senior year She's welcomed back into school after a little bit of a spat between herself Her mother and principal Snyder takes place and a little bit of authority put in place from Giles We are introduced to a new slayer that has also arrived in town Which makes this a little bit more interesting in this season We are introduced to the character of Faith Lahane who I know a lot of you love this character I love this character faith is like the polar opposite or like a mirror reflection of what Buffy could have been If she didn't have the things in her life if she didn't have Giles If she didn't have a mother if she didn't have a loving home or a group of friends that are always there with her If she had been just dealt a whole lot of Bad things along with now being granted slayer powers This is what Buffy could have ended up like faith is a very interesting character that we are introduced to in season three and She kind of is on the fence at first She seems like there's clearly something off with her and it's made abundantly clear with how aggressive She is with her slain clearly a lot of trauma She's dealt within her life that she touches on briefly as we get to know her She starts to feel a little bit shunned by the group the schoolbies in this case as this as the season progresses She ends up switching to the dark side and we see her character development play out Not only on Buffy in this season, but it carries over into season four It carries over into Angel season one She does show up again in Angel only to return later on to have everything resolved with Buffy in later on in this season or in this series very interesting character here with faith I love the dynamic between herself and Buffy how they both don't really seem to understand each other Until they're able to actually be put in each other's shoes and that's honestly a situation that happens later on in this in the series They're both are forced to see things from each other's perspective now now that they're in one another shoes Literally something that happens later on in the series and of course, I'll get into once we get to season four But Eliza Dushku she does an amazing job as faith and when she reversed to the dark side She joins forces with our new big bad for this season Mayor Richard Wilkins who we come to find out has been the mayor for quite some time in Sunnydale Sunnydale was built on This hell mouth as we know where he made a deal with them in return He would have this town and he'd give the demons a city or a town to feed on And he's been working on what's called the Ascension this Ascension where he will ascend into a purebred demon in this case in this Universe they were referred to as old ones a purebred demon who is Going to be the pure embodiment of just a demon altogether not a hybrid of a human and a demon like what we are accustomed to seeing in this series We're introduced to several new different characters were introduced to Anya Spike makes an appearance once again in an episode called lovers walk. There's a lot of standouts in this season the episodes lovers walk The Zepo where we have a Xander centered episode where he's kind of reflecting on whether or not he's a valuable valuable member to this to this group the Scoobies since he kind of doesn't offer much of anything will always kind of ascending into her own status and Contributions to the whole slain process now with Buffy as she's diving into the whole magic world After successfully restoring angels soul at the end of season two and Xander just kind of feels left out And then we have this episode titled the Zepo where we get to hang out with Xander get to see him more and how this How things look on his perspective because he's like on the outside looking in with a lot of things that goes on in this episode So it's a nice little episode there with him. We have the prom where Buffy has one of her most amazing moments today In this in this series angel is back somehow After the events of season two he is back somehow that is Developed a little bit more over the course of this season and into the angel TV series itself we don't know for certain what actually lets him coming back, but he's back and He is getting involved once again with Buffy their relationship isn't really looking too good Although because at the end of the day what's gonna end up happening is don't end up leaving town not leaving town Angel will end up leaving town and he'll go to LA where he'll start his own little series there So they're really should be kind of fizzling out and like I said before There's a dynamic between Buffy and faith where it's like faith is literally like a mirror image of what Buffy could be like If she didn't have all these good qualities in her life that kept her on the right path Whereas faith has a little bit more of a dark edge to her and we get a depiction of this in an episode titled Doppelgainland or the wish actually titled the wish where we see what Buffy is like if she never came to Sunnydale after Cordelia Chase Makes a wish to Anya who at the time was a vengeance demon and it's just like another parallel to those Similarities of what Buffy could have been or like a mirror reflection of what she could have been if she had been dealt the cards of What faith had been dealt with nothing having her no one having her back Feeling like she is always made out to be Not necessarily a bad guy because she just looked a little run down when we saw her in the wish and the character Buffy was run down So we got to see like a depiction of what she could be like if she was more reminiscent to being faith as a character Best one of the better series finales or season finales in this case with graduation day Where we're saying goodbye to the high school days. The school is gonna be put to bed literally it's gonna be blown up so I'm diving into a lot of spoilers in this review. So I probably should have done a spoiler warning, but at this point I This is a very Dated series. It's woven into the pop culture. I'm pretty sure a lot of you who are watching this review You've seen it. You love it. You love season three probably season three You definitely is up there for me and some of my favorite seasons one of the best again a lot of progression Character-wise for Buffy a lot of progression and a new dynamic is developed between herself and faith And faith is another very interesting heartwarming character that will all get to love. I love the character I know a lot of you probably don't love this character because of how she comes across and the things that she does But it's the way that we're reminded of just how complex life can be and we have a character like faith Who is basically an embodiment of that and it's nice to see her Redemption arc that comes later on in the series. So those are my thoughts on Buffy season three I think this is a very well done season a nice again step in the right direction I'll be getting into season four soon on this channel If you haven't already make sure you subscribe turn on post notification name is a video in the description I have links on my social media accounts my Facebook Twitter and Instagram you can message me there Of course, there's any movies news or reviews you let me to cover in the future with all that in my guys I will see you in the next video


As a nation, Bharat as a nation, there are many achievements that give us pride. Our scientists are going to orbit the Mars, the Mangalyaan is happening. Great achievements have been done in various fields, in industry, in commerce. Many many things have been done. But the greatest achievement in this country is that our farmers, without much infrastructure, without any science, from traditional knowledge, they are able to provide food for 1.25 billion people in this country. This is one of the greatest achievements. But the farmer who gives us food, who nourishes our life, is barely nourished. His children are starved and he is committing suicide. How can we, how can I walk with my head held up high, when I know that the one who provides food for me is starved out to a point where he wants to take his own life. One who gives me food wants to take his own life. This is a point of great shame. I put my head down in shame and reverence today because somehow we have not been able to take care of this. One of the main issues that are going to be for this nation is that we will have difficulty in protecting the fertility of the soil in this country. If you want fertility in the soil, lot of organic material has to go in. For this to go in, we need trees and we need animals. We are slaughtering millions of animals and exporting it to other countries. When our soil is slowly dying because there are, there is no leaf and there is no waste from the animals, without these two things we will not be able to preserve the soil. We will only push our farming community into a much worse situation. If we push our farming community to a place where they cannot grow what we need, we will push the nation to a brink of a crisis. Very rapidly it's going, many scientific studies say in another twenty-five years you can hardly grow anything in this country if you continue the same practices that we are following right now. Our greed has overtaken us in such a way that our hearts have turned into stone. Have we lost our sense that we are taking away the very source which gives us life? Have we become so short-sighted that we shall forsake the future of our children? Every citizen should commit themselves to do the needed compensatory action. It is our choice that we as a generation of people will we be just a part of this problem or will we be a part of the solution?


The original idea was just do just a simple cloud design just clouds. Just nothing spectacular just clouds And so when I was working on this mural it morphed into something a lot more than what we anticipated For one, I don't work in oil cutter oil paints. I never work in color period. I'm a penny neat kind of guy I'm an illustrator and the more I kept going with it. It just started the clouds So I'm forming then I started seeing colors Then before I knew it I created a fish It was not intended. It wasn't was not intentional. I said this cloud looks more like a fish I got to cover it up. So I tried covering it up and for some reason that fish still kept coming through Then the Holy Spirit has a way of speaking to you because all of this project is spirit led and When you obey and when you listen to the Holy Spirit You are you be surprised of what you are told you are revealed. I mean it huh it It preached to me if you will and so I just had to go and leave the fish on there fine So I do some other clouds on the other side of the wall on the other side of the the mural and then a bear comes up Not intentional So I'll go back on the other side of the wall a squirrel comes up Oh man, what is happening? So I just go with the flow of it Just let it naturally flow and before I knew it but flows horses turtles a shark a great white shark just popped up But it was like you is like the whispers you know the tools you know the technique I will provide the images Okay Then we just let it flow


Think Tech Hawaii, civil engagement lives here. Welcome back to the Cyber Underground, I'm Dave the Cyber Guy, I'm your host for the Cyber Underground. Once again I teach for the University of Hawaii, Kapi'olani Community College. I teach Network Security and Ethical Hacking and today we're going to get started with the very young new cyber people in the state of Hawaii. The Girl Scouts USA, welcome. Look I need you guys to introduce yourselves, there's three of you here and I need to introduce the organization and then who you are and how you got involved. So let's start with Sherry. Hi I'm Sherry Chang, I'm the CEO of Girl Scouts of Hawaii. The CEO? Yes. Okay. And how did you get involved? With Girl Scouts? Yeah. I'm a fourth generation Girl Scout family. Fourth. Yes. So you've been doing this for a long time. Actually I was in the hospitality industry as a senior executive for 35 years and then when I left that I decided I wanted to go back to non-profit work and someone recruited me in to take over Girl Scouts. Good to see you, giving back to your community, thank you so much for doing that and what is the Girl Scouts, the organization, I mean when did it begin, what is its mission, where are we going with it? Well Girl Scouts on the mainland started earlier than in Hawaii, Hawaii we started in 1917. Our mission is to build girls of courage, confidence and character who make the world a better place. And so... By the way that's you, we'll introduce you. And so that's something that we take very seriously, we feel that we are developing the future leaders of the world and we want them to be community oriented, we want them to have great leadership qualities and we want them to have the skills and competency to be able to do leadership. Wow. Well that's wonderful, that's a big mission statement. It is. Wow. Did they force you to memorize that? No. That would be... Oh that's good. It just kind of comes naturally. Wow. Okay, let's introduce you two guys. First of all you're Cadet. Yes I'm a Cadet.  Yes. So introduce yourself and describe what that means. So I'm Allison, I'm a Cadet. And I am in middle school and we work on helping the younger girls learn stuff for their badges. I see.  I'm Kendall. I'm in high school. I'm actually in my first and second year of high school which is the senior level. Once I go up to the third and fourth year of high school I'll become an ambassador. An ambassador. Okay. And the final levels of Girl Scouts are...  And ambassadors, did they have a different mission as an ambassador after high school? It's a... Well... Cool. It's equal to Eagle Scouts maybe? Well, ambassadors actually any senior and above can actually go for their Gold Award which is similar to the highest level in Girl Scouts. That's like the Boy Scouts. But once they graduate they become adult members hopefully. And then you guys consider paying it back afterwards. You're going to be assistant troop leaders, troop leaders, get involved in the organization. Eventually my plan is to start my career in college and get through that and set myself up on a life plan. And then I planned on getting back into Girl Scouts and giving back with me. Good. College is on your radar. Just college in general. And then let's talk about what you guys are doing now that brought you on the show. So you're doing STEM, Science, Technology, Engineering and Math and this year involves some cyber. Right. Girl Scouts as a national organization, we've made a commitment. STEM is one of our core curriculum along with entrepreneurship, outdoor experiences, life skills, etc. And on the STEM component we've committed to put 2.5 million young women into STEM careers by 2025. That's aggressive. It is aggressive. And we have a great plan on getting there. We launched even just this year alone 30 new STEM badges so we have everything from mechanical engineering to programming, computer science, space science, all different types. And here our focus has been on cybersecurity. So from kindergarten on up, we have different programs. The kindergarten to lower level, we have a program sponsored by Raytheon. And for the new, the upper level, we were selected by Palo Alto Networks to pilot for the national program on cybersecurity for Girl Scouts. So for people in the chief seats, we all know Raytheon, aerospace. Palo Alto Networks is equivalent to, say, Cisco or Fortinet. They do security devices for networking components. Right. And one of their executives made a very interesting comment. He said, if you had to look at who would help write the code and defense strategy for the United States in the future, who would you plan on? And he said, we decided the Girl Scouts would be the great workers for the future. So our plan is, here are all the different variety of STEM careers that are available that we get the girls. We have STEM Fest this weekend with 419 girls on this island and we have STEM Fest on every island going on. And the girls will have over 120 STEM professionals, the majority of them women, so that the girls can learn that they too have an opportunity in mentorship, internship, and just learning all about the different STEM careers that could open up for them. Now, this weekend you're doing it. Yes. Well, why don't you tell the audience about that? Every island, including like Molokai and Lanai. Right. Well, on the other islands theirs is two weeks from now. Okay. The one on this one is at Pacific Aviation Museum. We bring in 419 girls from all over, including what we call our outreach troops, our after school leadership program troops that are in Title I schools. Bring these kids in. They have an opportunity. Every one of them will be shooting off rockets. Every one of them will be learning different skills like building Da Vinci bridges, if you're familiar with that. Just all different types of skills that they'll be working on. They just get them interested in STEM because most people don't realize that by middle school most young girls start losing confidence in math and science. And so it's our aim is to make sure that they've had a lot of fun from kindergarten all up so they won't have that challenge of not having the confidence and competence in STEM careers. You guys are looking forward to this? That's great. So, Fort Island is where the Pacific Aviation Museum is, right? Down there in Pearl Harbor where they have the Missouri and the U.S. is both in. I think it's still there, right? Yes. Do you want to tell people how they can go look this up on the web? They, I mean, it's already closed. They can't. That's too bad. We should have had you on earlier, okay? What's your next event then? Well, we just had STEM camp also. So actually as we get closer to, yeah, we have a lot of things going on right now. But the STEM portion, we have pretty much every month something is going on involving the girls. So how many badges have you guys done in STEM? I want to say an approximate 20 in the past three years that I've been in Girl Scouts. 20. But these patches and badges, they take quite a while unless it's an event where you get the patch as you do the event. They take quite a while because you do have to do things within your school to give back to your community and teach about what you learned. Well, so you not only do it, but you have to teach others about it. Right, yeah. Well, which reinforces the learning. Exactly. Which is part of the learning process. Yeah, as a teacher, I am constantly concerned about the knowledge retention after the class ends because, you know, students, you guys, you come in, you learn this stuff and you regurgitate it on a test and then you just say, nah, forget it. I don't want to think about math anymore and you move on, so it's good that you're reinforcing that. Right. It's sticking in your brain. You can't get away from it. So these badges that you do, they're, what, mini projects and they just give you a taste of each one of these fields. Could you explain it? Well, they all tie into journeys, which you can talk about. So they tie into journeys, which is an overall community service where you give back to your community in a way. Some journeys I've done involved the ASLP troops where we have done stories that they've gone and told to orphanages. What's an ASLP? After School Leadership Program. After School Leadership Program, okay, so I'm completely, I don't know. So those are girls in Title I schools. Those are grant-funded troops because they're in areas that they may not have the opportunity to be in Girl Scouts or their family can't afford to be in. Is that what Title I is? Right. Well, Title I is, you know, under-resourced schools where 50% or more of the kids are on the free breakfast program. Okay, so it's a challenge. Right, so we go into those schools because we don't want finances to be a barrier to any girl to be Girl Scouts and we have grant-funded programs that pays for everything from their uniforms to attending STEMFest. Oh, good for you. Buses coming out. Fantastic. We actually even have troops in Boys and Girls Clubs and Nanakuli and Mayuli in different places, but we're on all islands. So for the folks in the Chief Seats, it might not be in the state. Nanakuli, Maini, Waianae, Makaha, up that, that's the West Coast. And traditionally low-income areas. Right, right. But we do have some ASLP troops in town because we do have some Title I schools in town like Palo Alto Elementary is a good example. Right, so there's pockets of opportunity or challenges and you guys are addressing those. I love this. So you do this, let's walk through a journey. Yeah, let's take a journey together. Take me on that journey. Let me follow the path with you. It begins with a simple thing called a journey book. Okay. It's basically a book that tells you the story of what the purpose of what you're doing is. Okay. We have lots of them. One of the ones I did with Breeze, I did that as a cadet. We learned about the air and our environment around us. And I went to a camp for that one. And as we learned about the air and the environment around us, we also learned about water. So they brought in STEM experts that helped us learn about water and how we can take care of the environment. And in a way, after we left, we gave back by telling our friends and spreading the story of what we can do to make less pollution in our environment. So. Well, that's wonderful. Can you tell me what else in STEM have you covered? You've covered some programming and some. Engineering. Engineering. What are we doing engineering? The bridge building? We actually, yes. Are you familiar with the Da Vinci bridge? I am not. Da Vinci bridge. Were you built at Da Vinci recently? No. Oh, you built one? I did. To STEM camp. And I actually acted as a presenter when our presenter was a little bit late. And what we do is we take planks and boards and we make a bridge out of them. It's a team building with a STEM built engineering background to it. And what the concept is, is you have to make a bridge that is sturdy enough to stand on its own and hold a person so you can walk across it. And what we did was we took a series of steps and we had to find out how we could support all of the beams using every material we had. And we put it all together and we took pictures with it. And then the goal was to take it down and put another person in the leadership position of being the head engineer, telling us how we're supposed to build it. And you're building these without nails or anything like that. It's free form. So that's why it's a structural process. I see. I see. Okay. Good engineering skills. What else have we done now? Programming. Yeah? Programming? In what? With the programming, we'll have different games and stuff and I'll teach especially the younger girls how different things like how if you mess up on one step, it won't work with the rest because it all connects at one big game. So what languages are you programming in? We do different forms of coding. We do things that are basic coding where we work with some nanobots sometimes. My troop was actually talking about doing that where you get a little robot and you draw the line codes and it's the coloration. We also do coding online with the computer. So let's review really quick the nanobots with the coding and the lines. So this is the one where you color code on a piece of paper and the robot will roll along on its own and when it encounters a certain color, it will do a trick, spin around, turn left, whatever. That's really neat. I like that. Okay. And did you do anything with mobile devices? As our activities go on, we probably will be building into it but so far within my troop, we're just starting the pilot. So we haven't gotten very far in depth but I'm pretty sure that's expected to come. Okay. I'm looking forward to this. Okay. Let's get into the cyber part of it. What did you learn? What did you do? What did you learn that you can talk about is the thing? Yeah. You were the one that went to camp. We talked. All right. With cyber security, with the younger girls, we start them off with the layers of protection project. So the layers of protection project is teaching them how they can protect their information and how they can keep it away from people that will hack it and do different stuff with it. So the layers would be like multiple security layers so that you don't have to depend on just one thing. So I tell people, like my students when I'm teaching them, this is your house. You have a fence. You have a dog. You have a door lock. Grandma's got a shotgun. Whatever. These are multiple layers, right? And that's good that you're learning this layering technology, right? Defense in depth is what they call it. That's great. Tell me more about this. So we'll start off with a hands-on project. So we'll start off with like a box and they'll find different materials that they can wrap it with or they can cover it with. And then they'll soon figure out, like, well, okay, if all this stuff connects to cyber security, then let's say a firewall can help us keep our phone numbers or personal information safe. Interesting. So it's a tactile experiment as well as physical, yeah? And there's their coding with this experimentation? No. No? You haven't done that yet? No. No. The email you sent me mentioned something about trace route. Did you guys get to experiment with some of these commands? So we recently, with the juniors, my little sister is a girl scout as well. And with her group of friends, we actually did use the trace routes. And what it is, is basically, it's the, sorry, it is the, what you can use that will trace everything you put into your computer, all the information and where it's going on your computer. And it will tell you where it's been, where it's going, and what its final destination is. And so you can basically track where everything has been, what it's all touched, what information is linked together. Let's talk about that more in depth right after the break. We're going to go and pay some pills right now. Join us in just one minute, everybody. Until then, stay safe. Hey, Stan the Energy Man here on Think Tech, Hawaii. And they won't let me do political commentary. So I'm stuck doing energy stuff, but I really like energy stuff. So I'm going to keep on doing it. So join me every Friday on Stan the Energy Man at lunchtime, at noon on my lunch hour. We're going to talk about everything energy, especially if it begins with the word hydrogen. We're going to definitely be talking about it. We'll talk about how we can make Hawaii cleaner, how we can make the world a better place. Basically save the planet. Even Miss America can't even talk about stuff like that anymore. We got it nailed down here. So we'll see you on Friday at noon with Stan the Energy Man, aloha. Hey, aloha. My name is Andrew Lanning. I'm the host of Security Matters Hawaii, airing every Wednesday here on Think Tech, Hawaii, live from the studios. I'll bring you guests. I'll bring you information about the things in security that matter to keeping you safe, your co-workers safe, your family safe, to keep our community safe. We want to teach you about those things in our industry that may be a little outside of your experience. So please join me, because Security Matters, aloha. Welcome back. This is the second half of my show. This week's Cyber Underground, we're going over what the Girl Scouts USA are doing in the state of Hawaii for STEM and cybersecurity. Welcome back, Sherry and Allison and Kendall. Kendall, Allison. OK, I got you. OK, well, sorry. I should know better to get my guests all straight now. It's OK, at least I'm getting my own name right. I started off the show not getting my own name right. Well, guys, let's talk about STEM, the camps that you guys do, and what you do in your camps. So you want to start out, Allison? So with the camps, we break up into groups. So we'll have different stations. And it'll go over almost everything. So we'll have the programming. We'll have the engineering, like the bridge building. We would engineer, and we'll have the lead engineer. And we'll do that. Then with the programming, we'll have mobile devices or have laptops. And we'll do different programming activities that can teach us how to connect different codes to have an final outcome. So you place blocks of code in different places and watch what happens on a user interface, kind of like a gaming simulation? I've seen a lot of these JavaScript games come out. The Star Wars did one. Disney did one. But the different blocks, then you make the BB-8 walk around the screen. Have you guys done that one? Similar touches there. OK, so what else do you do in these camps? Well, we'll do team exercises. So we'll make sure the girls can work together. And we can work together to have our outcome. And we'll do a lot of thinking exercises. So we'll have a big puzzle, and we'll try to put it together on our group. I love, I've got to say this, I love that they're working in teams. So basically, IT guys, we're usually loners, a little antisocial, we have trouble communicating. There's a problem, I always say, converting geek to human when we're speaking. And it's great that you guys are working in teams and being able to communicate as you do these projects, because you lose those skills, and you can't actually interact in your environment. Let me give you a quick story. I was a cryptographer for several years. And I got so into binary that I felt that there was a delay in speaking English. People would talk to me, and I would have to come back after a few seconds. Oh, yes, that's what you said. And I had trouble tying my shoes. But I was really great at cryptography. So it's wonderful that you guys work in teams, because sometimes we get isolated, and we forget the human interaction is a tremendous important. Especially when it comes to cybersecurity, social engineering. And Girl Scouts is all about cooperative and hands-on learning. I love that you reinforce the knowledge. You have a journeybook, which gives people a purpose. Why am I learning this? And you have different types of learning, the tactile and the visual, of course, and auditory. You're combining all the sentences. This is really a tremendous, wonderful educational process. I'm loving hearing about this. What's the number one activity at STEM Camp that they love? The number one activity at STEM Camp has is a major tie between archery and rockets. We do rocket launching. And this year, and last year, actually, we did glow in the dark rockets, where we had glow sticks built inside of the rockets that we launched into the air. That's great. This is like the Estes rockets with a solid fuel. No, no, no. These are air powered rockets. Air powered rockets. And made and taped by the volunteers at council. OK, how do you make an air powered rocket? You should have brought one in. I wanted to see this. I did the Estes rockets when I was a kid, but I didn't know you hand made them. That's great. So different fuel sources are always air. We only use air. Air? I was wondering how you guys got away with shooting off rockets down in Pearl Harbor. Well, actually, they're going to do it, but we also do it at our camp. We're on top of a mountain, so there's no one out there. So tell us about Camp Pamilu. So that's on the north shore of Oahu. You have to take, what is it, Consat Road?  We have 135 acres on top of a mountain. That was gifted to us back in the early 1950s by the Hawaiian Pineapple Company. And the exciting thing that we're going to be launching next year is we are building a new STEM Center for Excellence up there. And at that STEM Center, we'll have facilities to do everything from astronomy to oceanography to all different types of STEM activities. And we'll be inviting in community schools and educators, because one of the things that we learned in talking to different people is some of the science teachers even told us, I don't feel comfortable talking about preserving the watershed or environmental STEM. But in this, this is like a living laboratory up there. I mean, everything is up there. And it's so pristine and beautiful that it's quite an experience. It's an amazing place. Not too many people know what is that, about 1,200, 1,300 feet up. So it's a little chilly up there. And it's cold for Hawaii standards. Really? At night time, at night time. We think it's really warm. So it really takes sleeping bags up there anymore. No? Really? Oh, OK. I remember my daughter went up to Kepaobolo and she said it was freezing at night. I guess it was in December. Yeah. It was kind of cold. But how big is your facility now? It would be a 10,000 square foot facility. It's a big building. It's a large space. Single story? Double, two story. Two stories. So are you going to have a telescope? We have an innovation center. We'll have a computer lab center. We'll have a program activity area, all different things. We have plots areas for agricultural plots where we'll be working with groups like Smart Yields and doing technology and agriculture. We'll be working just with all different. I mean, the wonderful thing up there is that we've got so much space that we can work on a lot of different activities and projects with students and educators. How often will you be able to go up there and take advantage of this wonderful building? Once the building is completed, it would be year round. Year round? So you could have weekly activities. So different troops rotating around the island will be able to use the facility. And then we'll be bringing in schools that not girl scouts, but schools coming in there as well as educators. Well, that's wonderful. What other activities might you do up at Camp Pomelu? Well, part of phase two is putting back in the ropes courses and climbing walls and things like that. Physical activity. But we always tie it into a STEM processor. So they have to learn about and archery about physics. Now, this is our archery expert here. And she can tell you about that. But the whole idea is to give them some of these outdoor experience, but have it be a learning and a STEM learning experience. There is a heavy correlation between physical activity and mathematics. So good for you. That's great. Do you know what you want to do when you get into college? College is on your radar. It's only a couple of years down the road. What are you going to do? I want to be a linguist slash pilot. So I want to eventually join the military and be a pilot. My goal was learning eight languages. I'm starting to narrow it down a little bit more into maybe five Middle Eastern languages by future. Good for you. I struggle with two. And I actually struggle with my native language because I have trouble at public school. We were trying to spell stuff on the screen. I have trouble here. Good for you. Gosh, five languages. I can't even imagine. I grew up in Southern California, so I struggle with Spanish still. You lose the skill quickly. Five languages. And you want to be a pilot. Now, as a pilot, you can fly lots of different things. Rotary aircraft, the helicopters, fixed wing, the airplane, the big ones, the fast ones, the slow ones. What do you think? I'm not 100% sure. I'm leaning towards maybe a C-17. In that ballpark or something? It's a versatile plane. Basically. The most versatile, I think, is a C-17. Why not Air Force One? That's also on the list. Not 100% sure. Like I said, I'm not set. I've had the chance to explore a C-17 in my past, so that's what I'm most familiar with. I've also been up close and personal with things like the Blue Angels, events with Girl Scouts that I've been to. And so. That's great. Did they still do air shows here? I haven't heard of one. They did a couple of years ago. A couple of years ago. And you went? I did. This was the Blue Angels show-offs. Very good show-offs. That's great. And do you have college on your radar, Alson? I know I want to become a surgeon, but I don't. A surgeon, but you know which kind? I don't know what specialty. Well, I think all of them make pretty good money. You're in a good place. And I think different schools specialize. But thankfully, I think pre-law and pre-med are the same. You just go to school, take a lot of biology. And will you guys be going to school here locally, I hope? I'm not 100% sure. I want to go to one of the military academies. It's one of my top goals. Really? Yes. And if I get any athletic scholarships whatsoever to anywhere, that'll be a good one, too. Then that'll be one of them. How about you? Well, my dad's in the military. So we moved here about two years ago. But most of my family is on the East Coast. So I would like to go to college over there and to be near family. OK, where in the East Coast? Boston, maybe. Boston, OK. So what's service? Don't know. Your father. Your father. Oh, military. Oh, sorry, army, yeah. Army, OK. I grew up army. I made everyone angry if I joined the Marines. Just because I wanted to make them angry. I don't know why I was a kid. But I grew up army. Everybody was army. My grandfather, my dad. So army, a lot of opportunities in the army. Maybe consider. They also have programs to make you a doctor. So they'll send you to med school. Of course, they want something back from that. Yeah? Have you ever been up to Tribler and seen it? Yes. So they just did a whole bunch of new cybersecurity stuff. And I have to ask, with cybersecurity, now we're talking a lot about virtualization. You guys do any virtualization exercises? We have. We actually had virtual reality at our last STEM programming that we did. And actually for our big Women of Distinction event, coming up in March, we'll have a very unique virtual reality walk through the new STEM Center for Excellence. I'd love to see it. And let's get you guys back on the show as soon as possible. Now, with our closing, what do you guys want to talk about for the Girl Scouts? Do some recruiting, maybe? Well, that is always a major plus. I think I mainly just want to put it out there that with the new cybersecurity pilots that we're doing, it's opening so many more doorways. And most girls think it's all about cookies and certain programs. But now that we're involving cybersecurity, it opens the door to basically every career that there is. I got to say the cookies are really good, though. Yeah. I'm a product of Girl Scout cookies. I can't resist. So you guys have the best product out there for that fundraiser. But I'm glad you guys are getting a taste for all these careers. Cybersecurity right now, 0% unemployment. And that's only because we can't have a negative percent. But just about everyone can get a job. I hope to see you guys in my cybersecurity program. When you get to college, come spend a little time at Capulonic Community College. I'd love to teach you some of the ropes before you move on. But if you've got to move on, I understand the most important thing to me is when you get your career, bring these brains back to the islands, please. Because we just keep losing the intelligence. And I want to keep bringing you guys back. And guys that are motivated and smart like you, I can respect that. And I want to be, well, depending on you guys, we're getting a little older here, we're going to, someday we're going to depend on you guys. These are the future leaders. You guys are going to lead this country. And I'm really happy about that, that you're putting so much effort into it. Thanks for joining us. Thank you very much. Thank you very much. Good job. Well done. Keep calm. Carry on. Thanks for joining us, everybody, on the Cyber Underground. See you next week. Until then, stay safe.


Did we offend anyone this week or last week? Not yet. Look, there might be some people... The week's not over yet. There's a couple of things here that are a bit touchy. You know what I mean? I don't know. Let's jump straight in. On this day in 2016, Conor McGregor was found to be using elderly men as sparring partners. The 80-plus-year-old men were lured to his gym with the promise of a game of bingo. Once there, the coaches put them straight in the ring and Conor would have 30 seconds to render them unconscious, with experimental moves like the no-look coward punch and the heart stopper, which is a straight kick directly to the heart. The elderly men would then be dragged from the ring and placed in a large industrial bin outside. It is believed that Conor sparred with the elderly men to improve his confidence.  Is he going to fight again? Yeah. Matt? Fine. He's going to fight Dustin Poirier soon, but he keeps saying he's working up to fight Manny Pacquiao. How old is she? 15. He's like 28, I think. Wow.  Oh, hang on. I think he's 30. Let me check. Do you reckon? Matt's going to check. You can hear him typing, everyone. Listen. Listen closely. Yeah. Hear it? Wow.  He's 32. 32. There you go.  So we've still got a few couple of years to reach that wealth if we were to compare lives or even to skills, maybe we should just start bashing dogs. Anyway, on this day in 2008, LeBron James invested in buying and selling helicopters. He would buy old damaged helicopters and fix them and then sell them, usually to fellow athletes. His helicopter business was booming until early this year when he recently sold one to his good friend, Kobe Bryant. Not sure exactly what happened, but there were a few issues with it and Kobe didn't really like it or something. Who's LeBron James? That basketball dude. Never heard of him. He just won the NBA championship of the Lakers. Well, it would be interesting to find out what happened to Kobe, the MAM who could Google it. Nothing on it, but LeBron James is probably the next best player since Jordan. That's crazy. Wow. They might get Kobe on here. I'll give him a call. He can come over with his helicopter. Apparently, he loves flying them. Is that right, man? Do you, Brent? Is that great? He likes flying. He's just a passenger, usually. Okay. Interesting. I'm not sure what's going on there, but I'm sure there's a joke hidden deep in there somewhere, isn't there? I have acne. On this day in 1987, Tony Robbins broke his snout while frolicking with other horses. They were galloping near the boundary fence when Tony stepped into a pothole. He snapped his knee and went flying face first into the fence. His snout was badly broken and needed nine steel screws in it to hold it in place. After the incident, Tony stopped playing with the other horses and thought it was time to grow up. He started his stand-up comedy career shortly after, and although his audience rarely laughs at his jokes, he still manages to sell out venues and has become very successful. His name in his... Is that... His name... His name in comedy. His name in comedy. Name a movie with Shallow Howl's Inn. That's Shallow Howl's Inn. Shallow Howl. Fuck, it gave it away. It gave it away. It gave it away. Tony Robbins is in Shallow Howl. I knew it. See?  Totally. You gave the answer in the question. Yeah, I'm just stressed. I got acne. My page is almost gone. In 2015, Paris Hilton released her new perfume range called My Menstruation. She developed the formula herself and even added her own actual menstruation in. Paris promoted a new perfume bot range by throwing buckets of the scent onto the audience during her DJing gigs. The bottles of perfume had to be recalled, however, when a number of people developed blood infections and three ladies even became pregnant from the perfume. My name is Matt Brown and I research these personally. Wow. Fun facts. This is going from last week's episode, we were talking about Nick Carter. Oh, yeah. He's from the Backstreet Boys. He dated Paris Hilton. Nick or... Nick. Nick did. And guess what?  Menstruation? Aaron Carter. Check Aaron Carter out. He used to be a little kid. Yeah, and now he's grown up.  He's got dreads and stuff in the moment. Nah, he's got a face tat. Man, it was entertaining.  Paris Hilton is putting around curious. If you want to feel better about yourself, watch those interviews. Anyway, I've almost lost my page. I would probably have a threesome with... Oh. Are you... I don't know if you guys know, but yeah, there's this massive, massive, like I'm talking at least twice the size of your average cow. Up in Rockhampton, there's this monster cow. What's his name? Brahmin. Brahmin with heaps of A's. It's a HHHH-man. Is it a man or a woman? It's a big old cow, eh? Oh, yeah.  It's a Brahmin. Is it dairy? Nah, it's a... What do you call them? The Brahmin. Brahmin. Ah. It's a play on... Its name is a play on it. Words of a breed.  That could be a premonition. I want to go up to Rockhampton soon. That would be... That would be... Whoa. That would be a feat. And I reckon if we did it together, we could definitely do it. You would get stomped.   We don't kill them.  Do they kick back when you go up behind them? No, no, it is a struggle. It is a big, violent fight. Let me tell you half of it. Let me tell you half of it right now. Okay. Next question. All right, let's read some of these secrets. Its next segment name which has been renamed to...  And this is a segment where we just read out your secrets. We don't mention names or anything. Your secrets are safe with us. We don't even look at the names. You can get your own secrets, secrets from your mother, secrets from friends, anything. We won't mention names. I promise you, your secrets are safe with us. Send them through. Yeah, just please. I once shut myself in central London.  I went to a train station bathroom to try and clean it up.  Didn't work so I managed to jump in a taxi and get myself back to my hostel.  I've got way worse issues. I wouldn't even make him secret.    It never gets any easier looking at that. Perhaps you should have gone away. I have to hear. I'm the decibel reader. Yeah. We've got headphones on, mate. You can bloody hear. You can hear it. Oh, it's such a thick air. It's grass. It's weedgrass. Dude. Oh yeah. Shit stories.  Michael's, Michael's shat a lot.  We've told this story before.   I remember everyone's like, wow, that's fucked. Really? It's not that bad. It's just, it's your poo. I have a memory of a friend of ours bringing a girl back to her house and He made it.  Oh, really? And she was like, why?  Not sure what to do with the poo. Let's put it in my pocket or something. Isn't that right? Isn't that right? Next secret. Tumano. It's a bruise. Swallow it whole. Okay. What happened? Nothing. Oh, he's got a choke.  Oh, I just did. It hurts.  Yeah, you're not meant to do that. I just swallowed an entire cherry tomato. You could have gone stuck. Can it still be something going to go wrong? Yeah, maybe. Jesus, you stressed me out.  Yeah, I want to see it come out whole. If it does come out whole, take a photo. No, no, can I wash it and eat it again? 100% again, man. Anyway, let's move on with what we're doing. And that's stunt time.  You told me to.   Oh, man, it's like here. It feels like it's here in my heart.  Your body has to break that down now.


In this presentation, we will think about the thought process to know which category a cash flow should be entered into, whether it should be operating, investing, or a financing activity. When putting together the statement of cash flows, we're usually going to have a worksheet, which will typically have a comparison of balance sheet accounts. And we also might just have test questions that will ask us, where should this cash flow go? And that's going to be a common kind of question that we're going to have, whether we build the entire cash flow statement from scratch, or whether we're just asking test questions and trying to know what types of cash flows we're talking about. It's also important for practice as well, so that we can understand when we're thinking about cash flows, where do they belong? What do these cash flows mean? What are they doing for us? What are they doing for the company? Are they part of the operations? Are they part of investing? Are they part of financing? If we look at a worksheet like this to build the statement of cash flow, typically we're going to look at a balance sheet for two.