Okay, we're about ready to respond. We're all excited. Okay, here we go. Well, a lot of you have been working for the Course in Miracles for some time, and we know how deep the forgiveness work is. And I think this 35-minute mini-movie, it's like a composite mini-movie, again, it's a Star Trek episode that's been edited down this time for teaching purposes for just 35 minutes, but it is packed full of opportunities to really zoom into your mind and go for forgiveness in a very deep way, which is really what we want. We want to go into our minds to find the forgiveness that Jesus is teaching us. So this movie will have a lot to do with memory. Also, I had a request to, I don't know if we'll be able to do it tonight, but certainly tomorrow with the Q&A is to talk a little bit about community, about the symbol of community and how helpful that is. Because I think from being here, just for these days, there's like a synergy that happens when you're practicing forgiveness with those that are around you. There's some kind of a helpful synergy that's going on. Like, we're all brought together, it's kind of fun. We're kind of vibrating at the same frequency event and it's bringing up some issues to look at in kind of an accelerated way. So that's really the whole purpose of the community symbol, is to be able to do that in a safe way without kind of feeling like it can just blow up or it can be thrown out because of the intense emotions. Now last night we got with the thaw, we had an overall picture of the ego and its tricks of fear and guilt and anger to keep the mind trapped and asleep. Tonight's Little Mini Movie is going to have a main character that is, his name is Cisco. And he's a commander of his ship, but he is going to be set on a mission, which is really a mission of forgiveness for his own sense of forgiveness. And this is going to be a very good teaching device for us because in this episode we can see that he recalls a time when Captain Picard, you know Captain John Luke Picard, is taken over by the board. Does anybody know anything about Star Trek and the board? The board will assimilate your identity and take you over and kind of make you part of the machine, part of the human, part of the collective.  The collective conscious is more like the collective unconscious. But there's a memory where Picard is assimilated into the board and then he's part of an attack in which Cisco's wife is killed. So Cisco has a grievance. He feels like his wife has been murdered and that John Luke Picard was part of that being taken over by the board. And so he's got a lot of rage that's just right under the surface. And so he's going to be our main character at learning to forgive the rage that's underneath a lot of, we could say, our upsets, our irritations, our annoyances, our fatigue. Everything we experience that's upsetting in human conditions has rage underneath it. It's not your personal rage. It's really the ego's rage at God. The ego made up this time-space world as like a fantasy world as a false identity and it's waiting for God to grant reality to the fantasy. But God would not be God if a God of love gave reality to fantasies because spirit is what reality is all about. And so Cisco is going to have to get in touch with his rage. Now part of his mission is he's going to be sent to help a race called the Pejorans. And it seems to him like the Pejorans are kind of a backward, we were talking about the indigenous peoples, like a backward, simple people. But actually the Pejorans are spiritually advanced. So he thinks he's going to help them. And really he's being sent to a very advanced people. And he's going to be working with a prophetess who basically can read his mind and read his par, which is kind of his destiny in life. And she's there seemingly receiving his help, although she's like saying, huh, it's ironic that the one that sent is the emissary is in need of the help. He's being sent as an emissary to help them, but he's the one that needs you because he has so much anger. And a lot of his anger is tied into the loss of his wife. Now loss, rejection and abandonment, those are very key issues for the ego, betrayal, loss, abandonment, rejection. So we're going to deal with the core issues of the ego with this clip tonight, this little mini movie. We're going to see that Cisco is taking on a journey to heal this unconscious rage that he has. And he's going to show us too about how to come to a present decision. This word decision keeps coming up for us. This idea that forgiveness is a decision. It's even a workbook lesson where Jesus says, heaven is a decision I must make. That in reality, heaven is just the perfect state of the Holy Spirit. But because the mind has fallen asleep and believes in dualities, then heaven has to take the form of a decision. The sleeping mind cannot relate to heaven anymore, which is total amnesia. A complete amnesia has no sense of heaven at all. So now heaven has to take the form of a decision. And yet to human beings, it seems as if there are all these dark and negative memories that we have in our mind. And it's almost as if the human is trying to find a way to get past those dark memories. And typically we think of having positive memories, making new memories, and positive memories to offset the negative. And many humans believe that the goal in life is to make as many positive memories as you can to offset a pretty dark world, a dark and hostile world. Like make the best of it. Make the best memories you can. But actually the ego is using not only the bad memories, the dark memories to block the light, but it's using the good memories too. It's using both ends of the stick to block the mind from waking up. So that's why we need miracles. If we're shown by some higher power by something greater than our dark and sleeping mind, we need to be shown the way back. And we need to be taken inside to start to realize that this moment, this present moment is our power of choice. And that we can literally forgive only in this moment that our problem isn't linear time or good memories and bad memories. It's the total misuse of memories. We're trying to avoid the bad memories and make good memories take the place. And all the memories have to be released in order to reach the state of oneness. So this is going to be a very profound journey. He has a tremendous sense of loss around his wife. He'll try to make the best of it with his son and go forward. But he has this deep sense of loss that has to be healed in some way. And in this little mini-movie, it's going to be coming in contact with light. That's what I talked about earlier when I mentioned this movie. Instead of going to the Klingons, the Ramyman, the Borg, something like this, he's going to actually go through a wormhole and come in direct contact with divine light. Now, think of it how important that would be for all of us. Because if we're just identified with just nothing but good memories and bad memories and duality, then we don't have a memory or an experience of the light. And we really don't understand what the final decision is going to be about. All we know is this good-bad memory thing. Everything that we look around and see in the world of duality is just dualistic symbols. We may talk of eternity and use the word eternity, but there's no symbols in time and space that really reflect eternity. That's why we need so much help. We may open our love song. I love you forever. I'll love you until the stars go out in the heavens. And we have all these love stories, love songs, but the idea of coming to that eternal nature is going to take a big clearing of our consciousness to even come close to that. And that's what I like about this movie. It actually gives us a juxtaposition that love and light is literally it transcends all of the dualistic concepts. So we can't hold on to the negative or the positive memories to know that light. And this little mini movie shows us that in a very clear way.  And it's like being shown the keys to forgiveness. And that's the greatest gift that you possibly could have is to get a glimmer of this true forgiveness. It's been pushed out of awareness. It's been blocked over. But this is a mini movie that's really going to take you there. So it's quite exciting to think that we can go on this journey together to the light. And right before they go through to the light for the first time, Cisco will be traveling with one of his crewmates, who's a woman. And there's a beautiful scene when they first go through this wormhole where we get to see two divergent perceptions of the world. One is his perception and one is her perception. And you know how that can go with his and her perception. It's really a darling little scene because her perception of the world is very different than his perception. And yet both perceptions have nothing to do with the light. So when the light comes, it's going to come and just transcend the human perception entirely. And then we'll start to see this interaction between us and the light through Cisco's attempts, his memories, his associations. So this is kind of one of those things. Hold on to your hat because Kansas is going by by. We don't get to see many movies that go through to abstraction. We're always off encountering different species. And in this world we're encountering different stories, but this one's going cracking through into divine light. And I think that's a spectacular teaching device.  It's kind of a rare opportunity. Okay, we'll let it roll. All right, Cisco has a lot of anger. And he's not really encountering Jean-Luc Picard in the moment.  And you might say that's what plagues human beings when they go through difficulties in relationships. It's this deep, dark sense of loss. It's a deep grievance that's filtering through into the surface of consciousness. And it seems to have to do with behavior what somebody said or did or didn't say or didn't do. But what's happening when the upsets come up in relationships is this dark grievance that's been buried in the unconscious that's coming up. And that's what Cisco is dealing with. So he's got a rage underneath and he's wanting to be transferred back to civilian duty. He wants out of space travel. He's been doing the best that he can raising his son as a single father but he misses his wife. He's got a tremendous sense of loss that he's dealing with and that's going to be a good learning opportunity to start to see how will the Holy Spirit deal with that deep sense of grief and loss that he has. There has to be a way to start to let him bring those emotions up and start to face those emotions. And that's why even on this retreat when we're going into these movies we're having expression sessions it's just starting to trigger what lies beneath and that's good. We have to let these dark emotions up. There has to be a context for letting them up because if we hide them and we protect them then it's just going to delay the healing and it will delay the awakening and it will delay the decision to forgive. We cannot skip over that darkness. So as I said, this mission he's going to be sent on by John the Picard there to go help the Bajorans to this planet it's going to be his salvation. He's going to have to face everything that he's denied from awareness and we're going to get to watch him and go on the journey with him. That's an example of the Holy Spirit in action. The tear of the prophet just gave him a glimmer of a very happy, loving memory of meeting his wife on that beach. You see how happy he was? Just absolutely exuberant. He couldn't even contain himself in meeting her. And then when the little glimpse entered this positive memory it was almost like a shattering of coming back to his consciousness but he had pretty much pushed that out of awareness as a way of dealing with the loss. Sometimes people try to forget traumatic things and you push away the positive and the negative. So that was an example of a prophecy or this psychic use of memory to bring things back into awareness so that you can start to begin to understand that you can't keep avoiding the negative and just trying to engage the positive. You have to actually start to see the sameness of the memories that are blocking the light. And now he's in his spacecraft here and he's going to be going through his wormhole experience and coming to the perception of perceptual differences human differences based on selection and then cracking through to the light. But that was just an example of the Holy Spirit using memory to bring emotions up to the surface and we saw how effective that was for him but also how shattering it was it was almost like a shattering of his consciousness like a slice back to something that was pushed away. Now we're going to see this is a teaching here first by the light that no two people see the same world that's why we have interpersonal conflicts is because no two people are perceiving exactly the same world they're just perceiving the world through their egoic filter and giving meaning to it and then another person is perceiving a completely different world there may be common elements but no two people perceive the same world ultimately since there's one mind there aren't even two people but for our purposes here here we have Dak and Cisco walking out onto this planet his perception followed by her perception and that's even gets better here memories because the light is just pure love and abstraction but in order to even communicate with him it has to have some memories and that's what the Holy Spirit does with all the images and memories that are made up as part of the dream it can use the symbols and images but it uses them as a teaching device to teach about the light so it's just probing the images memories of his wife, of his son we saw baseball blood there it's probing his memories of the game baseball which is an Earth time game and it's just doing that so it can actually communicate with him this is getting down to the core teachings Jesus is teaching us in the Course that in reality there is no past, present and future there is no ordering of sequences of events from past events that have already happened to future events that have not yet happened there isn't even a sense of causation because in the Earth plane or linear time it seems like the past causes the present which then causes the future there seems to be a linear progression in causation when we think about hurts where hurts started even Freudian psychotherapy was always looking at the edipal complex looking back what was your relationship to your mother what was your relationship to your father you see looking back for past hurts past causes past memories and as he's trying to convince the light about this linear existence about loss being real about the past being gone all these concepts that he's trying to convince the light with the light just to say it's inconceivable that there could be a species existing like this this violates all the laws of love all the laws of reality are violated by this past present future construct we've just accepted we've been hoodwinked we've bought a lie we bought a belief in time that the ego invented the ego invented linear time to perpetuate guilt basically to the ego you're guilty in the past the present moment is just this little blip that you can't do anything about it's going to get swept away swept right over real quick and turn into the future so you see how it needs linear time to perpetuate guilt you're guilty in the past you can't do anything about it in the present it will be gone in a blink and then you're going to be guilty in the future guilty, guilty, guilty and then the ego goes a step further and says and don't think that God is going to let you get away with all this guilt guilt, according to the ego demands punishment and now you see this crazy religious system that we've been following call it whatever, Calvinism, Catholicism call it whatever you want it's the whole thing is made up to perpetuate guilt God is going to get you in the end you can't expect God to let you get away with all this guilt without punishing you at some point in the future and with some of our stark, harshest religions some of us were raised with the concept of eternal damnation oh boy, that's what waits for us that's a future eternal damnation burning hell, burning fire forever what about scaring, scaring people and keeping the mind locked into the guilt with the spirit of punishment so that's what's going on and here he is Cisco has got this rage underneath this huge sense of grievance about losing his wife this sense of anger at Picard and all the might can do is say it is your existence your pleasant memories it's part of your existence your painful memories is part of your existence the light is just trying to say why do you keep dividing this dualistic experience up into all these different memories and trying to recall some and avoid others when the past, present and future are continuous is all part of your existence you have to accept all of it into awareness to heal from it you have to quit trying to judge the negative from the positive some of you know that song accentuate the positive eliminate the negative don't mess with mister in between the ego is always trying to accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative but it doesn't tell you that they're all the same all the memories are part of existence and that's what the light is just saying it's your existence it's your existence what was and what will be is your existence your existence doesn't change your existence is a constant like love you were created by God is constant it doesn't change it's not this and that or a little bit of this and a little bit of that or something so it's just an amazing back and forth that's going on because he's trying to convince the light no, no, no light, light, listen you gotta go wrong my wife is dead she's gone I'll never have her back again it's terrible I had to love again, it's gone and now I'm stuck with this time thing I'm just trying to make the best of a bad situation and the light's like I don't get it what are you talking about it's inconceivable the species could exist like that it makes no sense at all to the light that's what we need you see we need the light to show us how crazy this linear guilt trip has been but if we're growing up in the linear guilt trip we don't know any different then you're invested there and you just keep karmically replaying out the same memories trying to push certain things away trying to make the best of it trying to carve out some good memories using your iPhone to capture as many good memories as you can because it's a damn hard world and you've got to carve out a few good ones you can put in a scrapbook someday look at that, see I got something good there the light is just not blinding the light's like what are you talking about so the light is going to try to reach him and reach consciousness and teach him that everything he believes about time and space is mistaken and now he's going to have a little replay of a memory where he's having a discussion in a beautiful sunny day in the park with his future wife about raising a family and having children and he's going to be like in his higher self with the light looking back reviewing this another very positive memory for him of having a picnic with his future wife and playing the future together and family and the light is going to be watching the whole thing like what the heck is this what are you coming up with now is now let's watch the the one that's observing you know he's got all this belief and loss in his mind like he's lost his wife forever she's dead she's gone he's never going to kiss her again so he's viewing this and let's watch him viewing this and his reaction will freeze frame with his face and then let's watch the light the light's observing the same situation there it is look at his face now there we've got his face and he's got this you know the eyes are closing like damn there it is again I'm never going to have another kiss ever and it's like this and then there's on the left there's the light watching the scene like oh it's never seen a kiss before it's quite curious about this kiss it's just like interesting and watch his face and all that reaction you're seeing on that face is coming from interpretations through the filter of loss like oh I will never have that again it's gone forever you see that interpretation is what that time interpretation is bringing the experience of pain the light doesn't know what's going on there you see here we go again he's really trying to explain to the light that his past, present, future there are consequences there are consequences in time that come from certain actions and he's trying to tell the light the consequence was you the light's going me because he's seeing the past he's seeing a boy he's seeing that the consequences of sexual activity the consequences of impregnation the consequences of being pregnant bringing a child into the world is the little boy past, present, future this is part of what we call Newtonian physics Isaac Newton for every action there's a reaction you see we've been trained we've been taking science classes that teach us that there's events in the world that cause other events and the light's like you gotta be kidding me they're all just they're all the same there's not some that cause other things so it's completely inconceivable this linear progression to the light the light cannot understand this linear progression and think about it when you blame somebody you did this you made me angry it's your fault if you hadn't done that we would still be married if you had acted differently if you had said something different you know hypotheticals if you had done something different then things would be a lot different but actually all of these memories all of the memories are part of existence and some things don't cause other things there is no causation in form only the mind is causative that's what the course is taking us back to an experience only the mind is causative if you believe in the ego you can make up false consequences you can make up false effects but that's the whole the whole world and if you take causation back to the mind then you are free of this false linear you know if somebody can say well don't don't have too many cups of coffee during the evening or during the day because you won't be able to sleep why? because they say caffeine too much caffeine causes you not to sleep that's just one example staying out on the beach too long and having your skin too long exposed to sun's radiation if you stay on a beach for too many hours unprotected from the ultraviolet rays of the sun the ultraviolet rays could cause cancer in your body that's a commonly accepted thing as if these things in this ball of fire in the sky could cause cancer cancer is a decision of the mind it's a wrong mind decision there's nothing outside the mind outside of consciousness is causing anything if you don't eat enough food and nutrition then the body could starve to death you could die of malnutrition even though we have yogis and mystics and saints that go for long periods of time long periods that actually go through without eating food living off the air off a prana energy there's nothing causative about food going down and chewing and digesting the whole system of the human body everything about science everything we know about medical science is what's underneath all of it this false linear progression is that there are causes in the world and consequences in the world there are causes in the body and consequences in the body people might say well if it gets to be too cold if the environment is too cold unless it's properly clothed and protected with houses and clothes it could freeze to death and then what do we have these yogis who go into freeze chambers wearing nothing but a G string and they does the cold freeze their bodies no they generate the heat they generate the BTUs they generate the heat because of why because it's all consciousness everything we know about parapsychology about consciousness studies is pointing us to the power of the mind the power of thought and where all of this is leading is to a different perspective of the world where we start to see the world is simultaneous we give up all these crazy cause effect false cause effect concepts that are in our mind just perpetuate guilt perpetuate fear perpetuate the fear of punishment so we're onto it now science quantum physics between breakthroughs in philosophy between a course of miracles the Vedic Vedanta all the great non-rule teachings on the planet now we are at a point right now where we can start to really take these in fully and come closer to the place when Jesus said be of good cheer I have overcome the world I have dominion over the world I have dominion over the images that the ego made up because I have dominion over the ego like our movie last night transcendence some of you did see that movie transcendence with Johnny Depp where he basically his body seems to dive and his mind his consciousness gets uploaded to the internet and his wife says to her beloved husband where are you he goes everywhere what happens to Lucy at the end of the movie Lucy where is Lucy everywhere that's where we are we're not products of time and space locked into some location in time and space we're everywhere and we've always been everywhere the ego doesn't want us to know that it wants us to keep hanging on to this guilt game guilt in the past guilt in the future and then you get punished that's an old story so here it is he's definitely trying to convince the light of the linear progression and the light is just saying like he said you were the consequence of my wife and I you were the consequence he's like me you think I'm a body you think love and light is the consequence of a man and a woman you know who that's part of the linear progression aggressive adversarial competition for fun competition you see how a baby is competition light come on light this is fun competition and the light adversarial adversarial what is adversarial there's there's a conflict if you have adversaries you have opposites you have a battle going on we may think oh the Olympics are sweet all these countries competing oh how wonderful every four years we come together to compete to spend millions and millions of dollars to watch bodies do crazy things and we dress them up and we get some flags and we march with some flags and they can do the rings and they can do some dances and they and the athletes what work for hundreds of hours training gymnastics archery tennis you know you get the whole thing so we spend millions and millions of dollars so we can sit by a TV set and watch competition adversarial the light says of no use whatsoever absolutely no use what a bunch of baloney and we do it every four years we don't say much for earthlings and so now we're going to get to see a scene here where he's going to try to convince the light how wonderful baseball is he's going to try to convince spirit how wonderful because what's so exciting about it is is you don't know what's going to happen the pitcher pitches the ball the batter swings if that batter makes contact it gets even more exciting you don't know where the ball's going to go it could be foul back it could go here it could go there why do people enjoy gambling why do people enjoy gambling you bake your wager what's the excitement you don't know what's going to happen you just may win you may lose probably lose but just for the excitement of some chance that you may win you play the game hypotheticals the excitement of not knowing where the ball goes the excitement of not knowing if you'll win or lose what's the excitement of going out on the first date what's the thrill of the first date you may you may have a good time you may have a good time you may have a good time and if what happens if you have a good time you may have a second date you may have a second date Nick he's so hypothetical you may have a second date and you see how exciting that is to the ego of mine it's got to keep you distracted from eternal life dating is a good way to stay distracted from eternal life because you just never know and maybe you get a third date maybe you score maybe it goes further maybe you get engaged there you go do all of these speaking back there oh no but the ego is holding it out like a piece of cheese oh maybe it turns out really good you see it's hypotheticals it's all these hypotheticals and like I was sharing the other night this whole world this whole cosmos is as if the separation happened so the ego is trying to use all these hypotheticals to make time and space as enticing as it can be to keep your attention riveted on what might be in the future you want you to put lots of time and energy on what might be in the future working hard at meaning this job saving money for what for the future how much do we need right now did anybody ever watch the Barbara Streisand movie funny girl I've got the luck of my door that's the way to be right from my floor that's okay with me because the things that I prize like the stars and the skies they're all free oh I've got plenty of nothing I've got this plenty for me I've got the sun I've got the moon I've got the deep blue sea folks with plenty of plenty they gotta lock on their door afraid somebody's gonna rob them now that they're making more what for the great things Barbara Streisand standing in front of you now here we go if you play by the ego's game the future is important and then you're just gonna keep using your mind's energy trying to go after an imaginary future love, imaginary future wealth better memories in the future making more memories in the future and all it's part of a wheel of trying to keep you distracted from the present moment so this is a beautiful scene where he's actually gonna try very hard to convince the light how wonderful baseball is see if it works with the light in the body you value your ignorance of what is to come okay there it is there's the light's answer to the whole convincing argument about baseball you value your ignorance of what is to come you value the excitement of being ignorant of knowing the outcome you value the ignorance of what is to come and he says pitch after you see how excited he is pitch after pitch he's so excited you don't know what's gonna happen pitch after pitch he's like it's so exciting light it's so exciting and you could extend that second after second in the earth life second after second minute after minute you don't know what's coming and he goes saying isn't that exciting we're staying in time and space and being guilty and being punished enjoy your life on earth minute by minute second by second and the light's like what are you talking about the light is eternity why would you try to play this game of second by second minute by minute if it's all part of a trap to keep you guilty if you knew what was happening would you still play the game would you put more focus on meditation would you watch your mind even closer for forgiveness be more attentive to your state of mind be more attentive to your attitudes come more to more retreats like this or even talk to people hey I just attended a retreat a five day retreat I'm through with this linear stuff invest in your life what about my career sorry I'm not through with career what do you mean you're through with your career how are you going to get your stuff you get all your stuff without a career what's the stuff for that's a good question what is all this stuff for why do we need all this stuff really can we not be content with the present moment if you start to see what this is all pointing at then your mind can go through a radical shift of focus where you just say okay Holy Spirit I see you've got some good ideas going here and you're calling me to serve a plan of undoing linear time in my mind in D-mind and then this other stuff suddenly the Olympics suddenly are not so attractive attractive I mean a lot of things in this world are not attractive trying to build an estate save money for the future trying to make the world a better place in the future becomes less and less important than sinking into the present moment now we see that people like Ramana Maharishi maybe they had it right maybe Ramana had something going on there those glowing eyes maybe silence was important stillness instead of all this productivity what have you done lately to contribute to the gross national product of your country who cares who really cares about the gross national product do you care about the gross national product or peace of mind or productivity see we start to once we have the light's perspective we start to go oh now I've got a context remaining decisions on what's valuable and what's valuable it's the counter with the light that brings all this wisdom flooding into your mind okay now it's gonna we're gonna see how the light is gonna start to heal these grievances the comparison between what he says every pitch is so exciting though because I don't know what's gonna happen and releasing my life to the Holy Spirit because then I don't know what's gonna happen yeah that's beautiful that's the option where's the difference well releasing your life to the Holy Spirit is releasing it to one who knows you as you really are who's the memory of in God's mind it's like the memory of who you really are and so the one presence in the mind that really has a good view of the big picture of what could really be truly helpful for you and everyone on the planet is the spirit in the mind the light in a darkened mind and so that's the big difference between releasing it to the Holy Spirit versus trying to use it in some other way releasing it to another person or to a government or to a group of people or whatever because there can still be errors that come in like if you give your life over to even a group of people and say you know better I'll join you and you determine what my life should be in the end it's the spirit inside of us the Holy Spirit that knows the way back to eternity so it's a big difference really okay now we're going to continue on and we're going to start again the light is not budging on all these things he's trying his best to convince the light but the light is very steadfast in its teachings of what is real you exist why do you keep bringing me here we do not bring you here you bring us here the mind that's caught up at the linear time is like trying to like a black hole trying to suck everything and everyone into its crazy scheme of linear time that's insane why do we need to do questions? but we have enough questions already why do we need new questions? I think maybe there's only one question that's even important and that's who am I that's what Ramana Maharishi did he just decided to vote his whole life to one question not new questions imagine going to Ramana Maharishi and saying can I invent some new questions and he just shakes his head I'm not kidding this who am I is the one question that needs an answer and the Holy Spirit is capable of delivering on that one but we don't need new questions this is turning into like a jeopardy show where you just have to keep it's all more intellectual more questions, more answers it's more defense in its truth now he's trying to barter with the light he said you and I let's coexist linear time and eternity it ain't going to happen God is not going to go alright we've been complaining for millions of years alright like a parent does when they're a child they scream, they throw a fit in the ball I want the candy they throw themselves on the floor they do a big fit to get the parent to cave in and get the candy look how made the big scene in front of everybody show what kind of parent you are to the whole mall unless you give me a candy then I'll behave you see he goes trying to get God to say alright have your fantasy world go ahead have your separation death, sickness alright you've been holding out for millions of years okay alright while giving you your death you know God is not going to cave in to this death wish there is no way that they can coexist that's almost like saying light and darkness love and fear have to just coexist and there are teachings that teach you you have to accept the good with the bad and you have to have to accept fear and love but what's our song you can relax now why because there's only love and that's what the light is doing you see the light just in the face the light is not buying this whole thing that's the book of contentment that's over mama look that's the book of contentment it's not going to cave in okay you see how this goes that's the one realization that's the only realization you need for forgiveness it is not linear whatever you believe was the cause for how you feel it's a decision it's a present decision it doesn't have anything to do about past events that's the trick of the ego that the past somehow caused you to be the way that you are but the past can't cause you you have a creator you have a creator you have a creator to create with you not the past not the world, not the ego so can I ask something so this expression that you hear people say many times but everything you have gone through has brought you to this point now how would you relate to that concerning this I've addressed that one many times that's part of the lie too everything that you've done has brought you to this point is no your mind is choosing at this point in this moment to proceed in other words the whole universe is holographic and what quantum physics is teaching that there is no world apart from what you think everything that you experience is the result of a decision if you keep playing the game of linear causes and consequences which is what the ego invented then you aren't happy and if you just come to see how the space was shaking and finally he exhaled it is not linear and she said it is the light confirmed you got it that's the key to healing for all of us is retraining our minds whatever responsibility whatever we are feeling is what we are choosing to feel nobody is upsetting us that was all part of cause and consequence you hurt my feelings remember when we were kids you hurt my feelings you make me so mad external cause emotions are the cause of somebody else's behavior somebody else's attitude somebody else's action imagine how that would revolutionize your relationships if you took back your power in your mind and you came to the power by realizing it is not linear I am not going to to to buy Siri Siri doesn't like that Siri doesn't like it you see there is kaya pakha now twice kaya pakha has said to him commander look for solutions from within she is the prophetess he thought he was going to help her twice now she said commander look for solutions from within it is just calling him to claim his power to come back to that empowerment of mind and not be at the mercy of these these memories because basically the light is just saying you exist in all the memories because you exist everywhere in everything and ultimately our truth is even beyond perception but we can't reach back to the truth until we are equally accepting of everything that is in our mind we can't just push some away as bad and say oh I want the good but I don't want the bad we have to start to see that that is our existence we don't have the power to divide the world up into good and bad and right and wrong we never were created with that power yes it gets to me all the time the sentence I choose to be here he said it all the time commander I choose to be here and of course as my child choose again what I find so hard is I don't really know what the other choice looks like I have to believe that you would show me heaven or love for just a nanosecond and say oh yes I want to choose that and jump into it and stay forever and don't have a clue what it looks like and that's a very good description of the human condition and there is a workbook lesson where Jesus says of all the thoughts that you have in your mind salvation is among them and then he says a wonderful thing he says find it so it's like the old analogy of a needle in the haystack there's a golden needle there's a golden needle in a giant stack of hay we'll use a pharma analogy there's a golden needle in the haystack and Jesus is saying find it but it's more than that he's like saying I found it and that'll help you find it too so it's not like we have to just throw hay but we have guidance that can take us in to that glorious alternative he calls it the real alternative there is a real alternative in the mind that doesn't lead to death all the roadways of the world lead to death but there is a real alternative in the mind that does not lead to death he's saying let's find it together I have the light with me and you come with me and I'll take you and we'll find it to get it from one who's already found it that's important so that's really what we're doing and then here this is his big pop he's popping right here it's not linear and now we're going to get taken back remember that scene on the surface of Cisco and Captain Picard where his face is like shaking with rage now he goes through his whole experience just so that he can come together and meet Picard in the moment free of the past free of that anger and that's what's so important about it what this is all really about that's okay hey now we're really getting into it you see what's so great about this movie is it really cuts the chase it really takes it down to what do I value what am I going to use my mind's energy for what am I going to pour my heart and soul into because once you start to understand that he goes tricks and he goes game and it starts to be brought into awareness why would you feed it why would you support it so that's what the value of this movie it starts to bring forgiveness into a new light it starts to show how practical forgiveness is how important forgiveness is how worthy of your holy mind to devote to this and that's important too because again this world is distraction build it's very ingenious it's got all kinds of tricks to try to lure the mind into these delay maneuvers and these distractions but this really starts to point to how how worthy we are how worthy we are of forgiveness okay what was any feelings come up with that or reactions insights all this is Pinocchio Pinocchio yeah, Pinocchio when he went to this fantasy land and he awakened his father and he empty become a donkey plays your island I remember that at last the forgiveness come and you become a real boy Jiminy Cricket he wants to go off and be an autonomous real boy and he doesn't listen to Jiminy Cricket, Jiminy Cricket is there for his protection his holy spirit so eventually he has to listen to Jiminy Cricket and forgiveness from his own mind and forgiveness from his holy father so we can take that analogy too because Pinocchio started off as a puppet and a puppet who's on the marionette strings and in one sense it's the egos attempt for us to be real boys real girls and real men, real women that's the problem and we need to get back on the strings we need to let the puppet get back on the strings we need to reverse Pinocchio and say okay holy spirit I'm back on your strings you move the puppet but the puppet doesn't have a life of its own actually the desire for it doesn't really get us anywhere we were talking about that earlier how most of us know we don't want to be dependent we don't want to be dependent on parents on the government on anything of this world we don't like how it feels to feel dependent but it's the autonomous part that's so heavily reinforced hey I got my own job great, good the parents say I've got my own career I can make my own decisions I can pursue my time and space dream with linear dream and I can do it with gusto and I've got the resources to do it well the world would say good that's real good but we have to go even beyond this goal of autonomy to come back to our true creation which is spirit and that takes you up to trust to let go of our past learning what is learning in the world except it's how to adapt and adjust to an insane world and the more you learn the more skills you have to adapt that's why we go through education we're going through an adaptation process and in the end the Holy Spirit is saying well why don't you follow me because I can take you back to beyond this stream of duality to reality as an alternative to just adapting and adjusted what's the best that you can hope for with a child in the world is that the child will grow to be a well adjusted adult citizen who contributes to the gross national product of the country but where is this going we need we need John Lennon's advice imagine there's no country you know we need that kind of advice because as long as we keep adapting and adjusting we have to stop and pause and say okay and where is this heading well adjusted human citizens okay is that going to bring us happiness we have to go in another direction it's our hand yes wait a minute we have another one coming your way you have something it's too important to say for the world to miss this hello I've got the feeling that we always are our purpose we are our purpose for the ego we are our purpose one thing that gives me joy and hope that's how I feel so that's great it's a great step to say okay we're puppets let's just quit pretending that these bodies are more than puppets let's admit that they're puppets who's pulling the strings of the puppet is it the Holy Spirit or the ego that is very humble because right away then you have a question then it's important for me to tell the difference between this slippery, clever sneaky ego and this loving gracious glorious presence called the Holy Spirit I need to tell the difference because one or the other is pulling the strings you might remember the Bob Dylan song you're going to you're going to serve someone it may be the devil or it may be the Lord but you're going to serve you're going to serve someone yeah Bob we can see Bob what's going on here am I serving the Lord or am I serving the devil that is the question Shakespeare said to be or not to be that is the question to be the Christ or to delusions that is the question that's really getting down to the core of it and you can always feel it you can feel it and you really honestly yourself you can feel it yourself that's it our feelings are our braumeters so that's our closest thing that we can use to tell the difference when we're happy gleeful, joyful, feeling free we're serving the Lord we're not feeling that way then we're serving the sinister puff of nothing so we you know we have to we have to discern yeah but our meal is also our father's meal because we are one just when we are served our own meal then we are no puppies anymore yeah that's where this is heading we go beyond the body to seeing that our will and God's will are one which is a great advance I mean a lot of Christians I think even Saint Francis a lot of very sincere Christians have come to this not my will Lord but thine you see there's still a separation it's just a prayer to humble the ego and let thy will be known but actually it's even more humble to say my will and thy will are one we share the same will that's really humble to see that there's no difference what God's will for me is what my true will is as well I choose to be here that my home is delivered with some style whatever's coming next must be very profound that's more exciting than the Olympics to me I choose to be here that's what was said what keeps sticking to me so in my thinking the only reason I could choose to be here is because I believe I deserve punishment I deserve to be unhappy I deserve to suffer otherwise I wouldn't want to be here so finding the needle in the haystack is finding the innocence that's so that's why the Course is all about forgiveness to undo the guilt and then just dropping the grief and guilt because if I do that I would no longer choose to be here and punishment myself I can just let it all go let's address that I choose to be here for me you've heard me say a number of times that to me the spiritual awakening is 1% principle and 99% practice so what I did was I thought wow this is a big book 31 chapters 365 lessons and a manual for teacher it's a big book in the English version it's over 1200 pages but what I did was I asked Jesus to help zoom me in focus me in and in that first edition the very first edition of the Course on page 24 and so on and so forth on page 28 there's a prayer and some of you know that prayer I am here only to be truly helpful so here you're saying I choose to be here Jesus is saying good good now here's a prayer for you who choose to be here I am here only to be truly helpful I am here to represent him who sent me I do not have to worry about what to say what to do for he who sent me will direct me I'm content to be wherever he wishes who isn't that lovely wherever he wishes knowing he goes there with me and I will be healed as I let him teach me to heal wow Jesus takes that I'm here and he says good let's fan that into a prayer and then here's your prayer so what I did was I said oh that's a good prayer oh that's a really good prayer glad you put that at the beginning of the book I'm going to now practice that and I told myself let's practice that every time I go through a doorway to go visit my grandmother to go to the grocery store to go to the laundry mat to go every time I pass through a threshold I'm going to pause and silently orient my mind and here because apparently whatever I made a decision before hasn't worked because I wasn't happy so I'm trusting that I'm going to take that prayer I am here to be only truly helpful and I'm going to actually practice that before I go to my course group as I go into the house I'm going to say it before I go into the house I'm going to say it so I remember when I go down to that course downstairs I'm going to remember it when I'm going to the airport when I'm doing going to visit somebody I want to always bring that back into awareness and you know I find that helps me more than anything I can imagine is my willingness to practice that to like reorient because the ego has a whole it's kind of different reason to go to the grocery store I don't know if you've ever noticed that but when you go to the grocery store with the ego there's an agenda there around the food around what kind of food you buy how much you pay how much time you spend in there why would we care about getting in the shortest line if we didn't have an agenda to get the hell out of that grocery store there's an agenda to get in and out as fast as possible and then when we get a little miffed when we go in the 12 items or less lane we're in the speedy lane now we've carefully we want 25 items but we've just picked 12 because why time pressure we've got to get the hell out of there so that's why we pick 12 20 and then we get in line and we look and what's the person ahead of us go we count them 13 13 can't you read the sign it says 12 you see your peace of mind is where it's gone when the person in front of you has 13 items can't you read you see the thing is that's why we need that prayer I am here only and truly helpful because we have to reorient our mind to a new purpose we're there as children of God we're there as messengers of love and light we shouldn't care about time if we're there to teach only love in the grocery store so then I started practicing with that prayer before I went into the grocery store I forgot the parking lot before I go into the automatic opening doors I pray the prayer that changes our whole experience of the shopping at the grocery store we smile at people we make eye contact we don't go zooming through with our head down on our cart like some kind of a race the ego is putting a lot of time pressure on that shopping spree and then it's if you become health conscious you have to read the ingredients and if you're economically conscious you have to read how many ounces or grams or whatever the cost per ounce there's the generic brand and then there's the name brand say money you gotta get the generic brands but you wanna make sure it has good ingredients you don't want a bunch of fillers in there so you spend your time reading instead of reading the chorus you're reading the nutrition tax ask you really is that a good use of time we owe percentage of cholesterol for us percentage of saturated fats where is the causation if your mind is being used by the Holy Spirit you don't need to be worried about cholesterol one polyunsaturated fats it's your thoughts that mess you up it's the thoughts that make you sick and that's why you're there to go through the mind training with Jesus to let go of those cause-effect relationships he says just eat a lot of fatty foods that'll clog your arteries and clog your heart and you'll have a heart attack and be dead and then God will punish you that's what it says that's how it talks and eventually you'll be punished you'll die and you'll get punished you'll die faster if you eat fatty foods but see that's cause and effect it's a whole game so I would suggest that you have that silent prayer and you move through the grocery store for one reason for the Holy Encounter when you meet someone remember it is a Holy Encounter as you see him you will see yourself as you treat him you will treat yourself as you think of him you will think of yourself never forget this for in him you will find yourself or lose yourself it's that important that we have that prayer in our heart I am here you said to be truly helpful because I have to get my mind anchored in this new purpose because that new purpose is going to undo all of this false cause and effect learning everything you learn from science everything you learn from books much of what you learn from your parents much of what you learn from watching television and everything it's all part of false learning and therefore false evidence appearing real as part of fear as well so we need to come from that guided perspective I found it very effective it changed the way my grocery trips went completely a different way when I prayed that prayer in the same with the car wash in the same when you're in traffic and you're sitting at a red light or you're going down the street and you get a yellow light instead of running through the intersection at highest speeds I'm here only to be truly helpful I could be just as helpful on this side of the light as that side of the light I could be right helpful as a stopwatch I had a funny crosswalks scene come to me I went down to Argentina and I was in downtown Buenos Aires and down there a lot of times people don't pay attention to the traffic signals the woman who picked me up from the airport it was late at night she was afraid because it was dark and she ran 36 red lights on the way home she went right through 36 red lights I thought okay I'm here to be truly helpful but traffic lights don't mean the same thing here in Argentina that's okay Jesus so anyway I was downtown Buenos Aires and I was there with all the tall buildings and I saw this guy come racing along he was going very fast speed and I was standing there and there was a little old lady who was moving really slow she was going across the crosswalk like this and I'm watching and she's going like this and this car is coming so fast at high speed and then apparently the driver saw the old lady in the crosswalk and he's put the brakes on so I'm watching the whole scene and he screeches and he screeches and screeches and screeches because he's going so fast and I'm just waiting to see if the car will stop before it hits the old lady and the car screeches and screeches and smoke coming from the wheels and everything like this and I'm just watching and no, she's still going like this and the car comes and the car comes within a foot it sounds like a foot short of her and she finally she goes now that's walking with grace she didn't even look up with all the screeching noise and everything like this she probably would have fell but she kept on going and going and going and going so slow again but that's hilarious but you have to develop that kind of modality where you're in your prayer and you're going with your in grace you've got the whole universe with you you're with the spirit you're with the Holy Spirit all of time and space are being arranged just for your mind to teach the miracle to extend love and the Holy Spirit because everything you'll find is working for you and nothing is working against you you have the experience that everything is always working for you many years ago my son was about 15 years old in the national team of the Netherlands and he was selected for the Youth Olympic in Lisbon and about two weeks before he left he had an accident on the judo mat and the three bands of his shoulder were destroyed and the bones then dried on and he even would call it to the Olympic place he went to a monastery and he'd buy a beer and he'd go to meditate on his room and I was with him and the third day he was very still and he thought, oh I must be still too and after a period he came he was away out of my body not real of course but he was thinking he was out of his body I said I was so big and my body was so small and when I looked there was free energy streaming in my shoulder and look I can use my shoulder and he went to the Olympic place it was a wonderful experience he had trust yes it's the power of prayer and the truth yeah there are actually documented cases of somebody who has not only hit like a bone sticking out but someone who has literally lost a limb and it's almost it seems like science fiction but there's documented Christian science cases where through the power of prayer that entire limb that's been lost is regenerated because it's basically energy it's just coming back from the energy and seemingly back into form and manifestation so it goes far beyond the things that humans have believed the power of prayer of course Jesus with raising the dead healing the sick no order of difficulty it's only the mind it's not real that's why if God is with you who can be against you there is no awareness against it doesn't make any sense anymore I got to know about Bruno Gröning Bruno Gröning and there's groups all over the world and he basically teach the people to just sit relax apart and as open just for divine order and just let God grace poor and there are amazing documents written of healings just teaching the people just to turn the grace and I've been in a group myself and I had also an amazing healing but then there was one thing and it was the reason I went out of the group that they invented you could not embrace each other because then it would not be nice for the people who had no one to embrace and then I thought no that's not the way of what I believe and I think he would never thought of something like that but Bruno Gröning was an amazing healer he never accepted money he was a big friend of animals and very actually a very simple person that just trust of God and just through this talking people healer and it's like what you said the power that is there for us all the time Bruno the end of Bruno's life was like Jesus I saw the movie of Bruno Gröning the end of his life it was like Jesus not cruise fiction but in a way in a different form I was also in a meeting and I was so enthusiastic about this movie this guy is really yeah great and I said yeah I said it's just like Jesus and everyone blah blah blah I like this kind of stories and it's beautiful and that kind of that people we have to ask to heal their mind you know not by no it's beautiful and we can help it's not the only way we have to talk yeah we talked about that before that fragmented perception is the problem so if symptom removal seems to occur so be it if not so be it but the higher healing is healing the mind bringing the mind back to unified perception so it's quite interesting that people think of the life of Jesus and the many miracles and healings and everything that can be given a great emphasis but I always remind people Jesus's mission was not to heal bodies and believe me there was a lot of healings that occurred around him and still that wasn't his mission he was to teach that our kingdom is not of this world our kingdom is not of linear time and also when you have symptom removed from bodies I always tell people if you just watch the earth and you watch the story even with Jesus the lame could walk the blind could see he cast out demons heal the leopards all the things including raising the dead but if you would have followed all those people after all those things the people still died the people still got other diseases and all that stuff about healing bodies was just part of a story and so in the end the teachings of Jesus go way beyond symptom removal way way way beyond healing because he was teaching my kingdom is not of this world we have a heavenly kingdom and we should be grateful for everything anybody who comes from suffering into a sense of comfort and blessing we should give thanks to the creators give thanks to God for that but it also carves worry as to things I always like the idea that Jesus where the person would come up either touch the hem of his garment or go through some kind of healing and he would say by your faith by your faith you were healed so he wasn't even going around picking people out like I'm going to heal you you you you you today oh no he was by your faith and then some of you remember Nazareth what does the bible say when he went to Nazareth there was no healings was it Jesus had a bad day the faculties weren't working there in Nazareth no in Nazareth that's where Jesus was raised and so the people simply didn't have the faith they saw him showing up he's got his robe on his long hair they go what are you doing I am the way the truth in life no you aren't you're Joseph's son I saw you grow up from a little boy and don't give me this Messiah stuff I know who you are you're just a human ordinary human like the rest of everyone else and there were no healings interesting there was no faith because of why because of past associations thinking they knew who he was based on his mom and dad and history so again it's just like the movie we watched you know it's we have had the faith that goes beyond the past associations beyond the learning of the world that's fascinating I just want to say one thing that belong really new especially it's comparable to Jesus because he all the time asks for your thoughts to ask for divine order that's actually all the time he talks about what the radio to dial your mind to God so this one is beautiful that's healing in the mind bringing it back into order yes thank you I want to touch on a friend your question about the charge you made and then we come to Jesus we now in the course the way how to prayer the way how to prayer the way to train our mind mind training learning what love is by forgiveness and learning what whatness is by savings and remembering God sometimes it's good to know what example do we have not that we call it taking the love of Jesus well understood his name was not Jesus it was a curse name it was a Jew yes sure I think what I learned from him is what did he accomplish on the cross not the satisfaction the theory and theology by his blood inside of us none of that what did he understood he did or he accomplished total forgiveness of everyone including his mother who came late down to the cross his wife as we now know and all the others he forgave them all after all his preparations and all his pain and all his screaming of coldness and whatever and I think in that stage he was in the real world as we learn now from the course you are in the real world people see you and you see the world you don't feel anything at that moment I guess he didn't feel any pain anymore he could take care of his mother as his mother is your son some is your mother and his comrade he said you will be with me that I finished accomplished I think that's an example we can maybe visualize this example of Yeshua coming to Christ on the cross it is our way to and the comfort is we did not go to the cross like that he did it for us but this example his encouragement what he did what our example is Dennis the whooping said how he stabbed his shoes we become Christ like him I think that it helped us to understand how to practice the course in forgiveness and I think a big big difference with an old man who resembled in the life like Jesus even with the brimming of course he is a very very devoted man but this example nobody brought not even Buddha stuck in his dualism of awareness of consciousness he didn't reach that hate of his Yeshua and I think he was already the voice of the cause I think that's why they accepted authority in the course I think it's very important that as we wake up way showers like Jesus the way the truth in life that his behavior and also his attitude stand as just beautiful shining examples of being able to reach that state of mind except one self as the living Christ and it helps to have symbols that you can relate to and so in that sense I think the teachings the words are important the attitude imagine imagine just being able to seemingly live your life what seems to be your life in form and have such kindness such respect such friendliness imagine being used to be so friendly to everyone and everything without exception just friendly what a beautiful example that is for everyone just as almost like a bridge of saying what I've done you shall do also in greater things than me you shall do so to me that's practical I was talking the other day about holy relationship we talked about holy relationship and it's a phenomenal teaching learning accomplishment does it still involve bodies yes it does the holy relationship is still in the realm of bodies but the example is one of kindness of respect of equality of friendliness of friendliness it's imagine that the bodies could be used in a way as a demonstration that it's actually possible to transcend the ego and it's still tangible it's still it's still involved bodies the holy instant and revelation go beyond the realm of perception but again Jesus is so good he's saying it's a course in miracles he doesn't call his book a course in revelation he doesn't call his book a course in light he doesn't call his book a course in love he calls it a course in miracles why would he use miracles because they're the most practical thing we have available to expand our consciousness to what you're talking about with that high high state of mind and so I do feel like in my life I think role models and mentors including Jesus have been and especially Jesus they have been very very helpful because it's it's not just trying to dismiss the world it's saying let the world let all the symbols be used for the glory of God and Jesus was always pointing at God he never wavered in that and also he tells us he's like our brother he said awe should be reserved for God don't hold me in awe he said just leave the awe for God we have a great creator so to me that's really beautiful thank you for sharing that that's a practical I know a lot of us just live our lives and that's who we talk to I did a conference recently I was in Colorado in the Rocky Mountains somebody asked me the question they said David who is your teacher I said Jesus without a question it's just a sense of a presence and yeah I think it's there's a sense of almost like a great gratitude or adoration that's even there and thankfulness thank you for your decision for resurrection and thank you for your example we have a microphone here for the the program for this evening I get the feeling this would be a rather nice point to spend today's session it's been a rather intense day we used some integration time it was pretty intense moving as well is there anybody who would say no no no will continue to do no no I feel it it's been a very intense day yes it has for my legs pumping a bicycle it's been a very intense day I think I've pumped a bicycle like that since last year in Sweden so that feels good and then tomorrow we should say that five o'clock is our not anymore 5 p.m. is our closing so I understand that you can get the announcements is it 10.30 that we start okay that will give us a little snapshot before we can all of this can I have a quick question yes of course read on the body where you can't have the microphone read on the body I just want to wrap up like the movie and the shooting and just repeat it in a nutshell maybe so I can get like this time thing and grievances but the point is like sin, guilt, grievances need like this time illusion to make everything work together and so the idea is if I'm stuck in this time illusion I can let all the darkness come up hand it over and this way I don't know and that stops all the illusion already like the forgiveness takes place like collapses time already yeah like linear time it's like we can put cause comes first right and effect comes second in physics actually there's a reaction in linear time cause comes first effect comes second well the miracle collapses time it's almost like if you had what was represented by a stick of celery you get your chopping knife out chop chop chop and the celery stick gets shorter and shorter what's happening is cause and effect are being brought together the spaghetti the spaghetti yeah it's just collapsing collapsing collapsing so that in the end Jesus tells us I am the alpha and the omega the beginning and the end see he's just telling us it's all the same it's all the same in the present moment there's no separate causes and effects so we don't have to believe that certain things cause certain illnesses certain things cause better health you know those are all conditionings a false cause effect relationship of just these concepts crazy concepts so that's exactly what's happening it's bringing cause and effect together now what does that mean ultimately is that in heaven cause and effect are together and when Jesus taught I and the father are one he was simply teaching that cause father and I the effect are Christ are one so in heaven cause and effect are together and if we want to experience heaven on earth so to speak all we need to do is allow that collapse to occur so we see you know all the things that happened before as Mary it all merges together wow that's a great idea to go to Jesus thank you thank you it's beautiful it's not going to be it's finished it's finished it is finished it is finished it is for God it is for God it is for Jesus okay thank you thank you thank you


Call all hands, speak to quarters. Get into it, if you please, Captain Bush. Pointes on target! Linz stops ready! Aye, aye, sir! Michael Redgrave as C.S. Forester's Indomitable Man of the Sea, Horatio Hornblower. Britain's naval strength and ingenuity. Bring them into the war on our side if you can. Orders which might, of course, prove somewhat contradictory on occasion. Once we'd entered Constadt Harbor, the Tsar himself had come aboard in cognizzo. Even though he hadn't once admitted his identity, I'd hoped he'd been impressed with the fine show we'd staged for him. My old comrade Captain Bush was still puzzling about all this the next morning on our quarterdeck. Sir, was it actually the Tsar himself? Are you quite sure? Yes, of course I'm sure. But all that talk about the Cont du Nord, we would be sure to call the visitor that, sir. A million amuses when he's travelling, old Bush. Bush, what an old skeptic you've become. I'd say, look forward, Bush. That smart little lugga with the insignia. That's our answers on the way. Mr. Hearth? Say hello to the airing porters from the shore. Aye, aye, sir, I noticed. Well, let me know when the moment she's alongside Mr. Hearth. If she carries the messenger, make him welcome. Aye, aye, sir, I'll see you in the bomb, sir. Your clerk seems interested, too, sir. Over there, the starboard rail. He's just come from the road. Oh, Saga, you mean. He's a peculiar fellow there. Did you know he was a thin and caught himself a man without a country now because of what the Russians did to Finland? Do you like him, sir? What do you mean? Oh, you don't, huh? Well, sir, I... I'm a bit shifting. You're right. It amuses me, the admiral posting him to help me win the Russians over. Oh, well. Well, at least he speaks all these weird port tongue. Yes, Mr. Hearth? Lager alongside, sir.  You wait for your answer. Thank you, Mr. Hearth. Give him a drink of rum or something. Aye, aye, sir. What did I tell you, Bush? Look at that coat of arms, will you? Imperial Palace of Petals. Oh, yes, in French. Uh, I am bitten to dine with his Imperial Majesty and his Royal Highness the Prince of Sweden this afternoon at four o'clock. Oh. Oh, as accompanied by my staff, the officer who conveys this letter will serve as guide. Oh, tell me, would you, uh, would you care to dine with a Tsar this afternoon? What? His Imperial Majesty, the Tsar of all the Russians, at Peterhof, his palace on the Iranian-bound shore over there at four o'clock. Sir, I... Naturally, I'd, uh, but I'm a mere left-hand, sir. No, I think you need a little change. You'll still look a bit seedy. This preposterous, oriental document mentions a staff. Well, we must create one, since Captain Bush will stay here with the squadron. Now, who do you suggest beside yourself? Well, sir, I... I'm deeply honored and excited. You will need Mr. Sorgar, I expect. Sorgar? Uh, the clerk, sir. Well, can he post it as your interpreter? Yes, he was. Just why they saddled me with that glum fellow I... Oh, yes, yes, we must, we must have him along, of course. Then Hurst must go as first lieutenant, protocol, and one midshipment. Which one, mind? Sir, Summers is the brightest, if I may say so. Well, the fat one? Well, very good. Summers it is. Well, please part the way to him as you return to change the clothes. The dress uniforms, of course. We must, we must be off in, uh... Oh, half an hour. I shall be ready, sir. Thank you, sir. Definitely was not near the water. We docked amid saluting ventures in monstrous bearskins, and then were ushered into carriages, in which we drove for what seemed miles and miles, past parks and terraced lawns and marble fountains. I couldn't help thinking how much my dear wife Barbara would enjoy all this. But every turn there were centuries on guard, stiffly presenting arms as we whirled by. Oh, there and I had lost. The Peter Horse. Just round the next curve, you see? Which would casual remark about assassination that turned my thoughts uneasily back to Saga and that pistol. I remember the man's brooding hatred of Russia, his bitter sense of oppression, and suddenly great happens why hadn't it occurred to me before. Could it be...? Could he intend it? Yeah, I... As we drew up before the palace and were met by swarms of liveried footmen, I contrived to have a word alone with Mound, who with Saga and the others had occupied another carriage. Of all my company, I felt Mound was the most reliable.  I do see, sir. A member of my own ship's company, my own clerk. I think he's conceivable, isn't he? Oh, well, perhaps I'm imagining the whole thing. I helped him, sir. Well, help me keep an eye on him. It looks as if there'll be a crush on people. Now, watch out. Here he comes now. Who's this with him with all the gold glaze? Please, you have the kindness to accompany me, so on, Lord. I trust that I'll see you in good health, Sir Commodore Von Bloch. Thank you. I'm in the best of health at Exonship. And your squadron, which I had the pleasure of visiting, but yesterday, in company with the Coons. Do you know? My squadron's in the best of health, too, Exonship. Yes. Yesterday, aboard your clerkship, we discussed very briefly this man, Bonaparte, his policies. Yes. It was, I believe, your opinion that his troops might constitute a real threat to Russia. Might, sir? I fear it's less conditional than that. Bonaparte overran Swedish Pomerania the other day. Then 50,000 troops in the moment he got news of our appearance in the Baltic. Yes, Prince Bernadotte Frieden is here even now. This evening he'll be conferring with his imperial majesty. Yes, I had heard so. Now, sir, Bonaparte now controls the entire Baltic coast, right to the Russian frontiers.  Perhaps you are right. But you know, we've had a treaty with... Oh, Bonaparte respects no previous excellency. And now he's taken Pomerania. There's no place for an attack on his rear. He can march an army against St. Petersburg with no fear of it being cut off anywhere. Perhaps, perhaps. There are so many considerations, pro and con. But for us, his promise has to be a very difficult decision. Then what your excellency is saying to me is... Come along. I am merely advising patients. Since there is no decision yet by those responsible for higher policies, I cannot wish you to draw premature conclusions nor to be overheated in communicating with your government. That was why I asked to see you privately. We must not seek to hasten the slow steps of history. And now, if I obtain you longer, you'll be late for the imperial reception. There are lovely ladies waiting to meet you. Ah, they will soon erase that troubled frown of yours. I am certain. His British Majesty's royal name. It is the greatest of pleasures, sir. Delighted. As a distinguished stranger, Commodore, you will take precedence immediately after the Persian ambassador his excellency in Korsakabad. And now, if you'll excuse me, there are other guests I have to welcome with this reception. Sir, closely, my friend, and you will see the Prince of Sweden enter with his imperial majesty, our star. Then suddenly, I did see Soga. He stood quite unobtrusively at one end of the gallery, beside a pillar. But there was something in his attitude, fierce inner intensity that froze my blood. Alexander had conquered Finland. Prince Bernadotte had condoned the act, and there stood Soga, hating both of them. I turned the plot play from the countess and found the gallery's fares. I had to push my way through a dense crowd. Where was Marlon? I might need help. Ah, there he was, sir. Well, nothing's going to miss. I kept him inside pretty steadily. Don't be fool, Marlon. Look at him now. Don't follow me. Hurry. I felt an agony of suspense now. It was almost impossible to move through the packed onlookers, all standing there, gaping at the celebrities below. Oh, excuse me. Your pardon, ma'am. I'm sorry, ma'am, please. Your pardon, sir. Come on, honey. There stood Soga by his pillar, so absorbed he didn't even notice our approach. His hand went to his waistband beneath his coat. He was drawing my pistol. Shall I shoot, sir? No, no. There's just one way, one silent way. My sword. Stand back. I whipped my sword out of its scabbard. I couldn't afford to miss my mark at the first stroke. Pistol. With tendon severed, the man's fingers opened mercilessly. The gun fell heavily to the carpet, and Soga turned in open, mild surprise. Staring first at the spurting blood, then at me, venomously. All right, Soga, that does it. Make one more move, and you'll feel the blade somewhere else. Observe. It's pointed at your heart. Well, if there's anything to say, Soga. No, Commodore. I have nothing to say. Take the pistol, ma'am. Look after him. Tie that wrist up.  Nobody's noticed yet. They're all much too absorbed in their precious royalties down there. I'll find Summers and Hearst. I'll click. We can stow him somewhere. Good lad, good lad. Sorry, but I've got to get back down below. Act the untroubled emissary from old England. Then why, sir? I'll see.  Welcome back, sir, Commodore. I'm extremely sorry, Countess. I have no intention of... You're such a great haste.  I couldn't help but think I had offended you. No, no, no. Nothing like that. You see, well... Never mind. I have forgiven you already. And please do not look so austere. But see, here come the royal party. They make the tour of the great company speaking a word to each. Oh, shouldn't you have to speak English? The grand marshal will soon present you to his Imperial Majesty. I've already met... No, no, my mistake. I wonder if they can't do no or not to be here too, this afternoon. They can't do no? No, I do not know him. Your Imperial Majesty, this is Commodore Sir Horatio Hornblower. Your Imperial Majesty. His Royal Highness the Prince of Sweden. Your Royal Highness. Your Imperial Majesty, your Royal Highness. It is a privilege to meet Commodore Hornblower of whom I have heard of his exploits. Your Majesty is much too kind. We appreciate your time here with us today, Commodore. Commodore, stuck me as odd everyone standing up to dine. But then one shouldn't question others' customs. The long tables literally groaned with food of all descriptions. Though it was quite odd too. Perhaps I appeared a trifle misdivider, especially when some grey, unappetizing looking stuff was handed us by a footman. So the Countess came to my rescue. That is caviar. Try, you will approve, I think. And what's this in the glasses? It looks like water. No, no, it is not water. You'll discover vodka, Commodore. Vodka, the drink of the people. Interesting. This other stuff, this is caviar. Delicious. It's truly delicious.  But you know, this is one of the jolliest parties I ever attended, Countess. Right, right, beautiful women music. You know, I'm feeling quite like exhilarated. I thought that was innocuous looking, transparent stuff. What did you call it? Vodka, Commodore. Yes, everyone here seems to toss it down in quantity, most casually, I must say. I've been some time at sea, you know. It's a different kind of life, and then all this sort of thing. You know, bits with harsh compared to this. I'm sure. Well, I think I'll have some more of that salad and some cheese. It's extremely good. Thank you. How many courses, Countess? Don't be concerned. At least you've now discovered you like Russian preliminaries. I shall gladly advise you on which courses to neglect. Ah, you have a kind heart, Madame. Holy interest, Monsieur, very much. Pictures? Yes, same thing. The picture gallery of this salad is considered very fine. This evening after dinner, I could show it to you. Unless, of course, you would prefer to join the cart, please. Oh, no, no, no. I'd much prefer to see pictures, Countess. After the royal party has withdrawn, if you are by the door on the far side, I shall show you the way. That would be delightful, Madame. My husband, Countess, used to be quite interested in pictures. I married him as a mere child. But, after all, he is now quite elderly. He has lost interest in the minor phrase. Just as we rose and left the dining hall, man slipped up to outside the door. I thought you'd want to know, sir. We had him in the side room up along. Good, good, good. You, I could trust you, mind. He fainted with the loss of blood. We had to use a tourniquet. Half of my shirt. Someone's in here to guard him. Anyone find out about it, mind? No, sir. Nobody saw us go. Good. I bought some liquor on his coat. And from the smell of him, anyone will think he's drunk. All right. We'll smuggle him out somehow. But, sir, the sooner we get him away, the better, sir. Yes, you're right. Well, except that, um... No, I don't think we can hurry off at once. No, hold the fort, mind. We'll have to stay here another hour, at least, just as it demands. But, sir, I thought, just as you say. I've waited, as you see. I said you had a kind heart. Countess, can you read? The Italian pictures of the Cinquecento are in the farthest gallery. But, um, perhaps you'd care to see the more modern ones first. Their gallery isn't quite so well-lighted. Unfortunately, it's just come to be that, well, I must return to my ship with the others. Yes, I'm afraid in times like these, so many duties weighing heavily... Indeed. And it is only now that you remember them? Well, I must. Thank you so very much for your great kindness to an awkward guest, and also for your friendliness. For me today, the Russians are the most delightful people in the world. But I must be getting back aboard my ship. Best return from a rather extraordinary day at the Czar's Court. You would have been amused, I think, to see me determined to uphold the dignity of Britain amid all that gold lace and pomp and circumstances. Amongst amazing people, these Russians, highly ambiguous as to their intentions in this war, yet going some lengths today to show me friendliness and sympathy. Oh, yes, yes, there was a rather attractive little country, sir. Well, I forget that exact name. Well, for a time, made herself especially amiable in showing courtesy to us strangers. None of them here, however, can begin to compare with our English women, either in appearance or in deportment. Just when we shall move out of Cranstead Harbor, I'm not quite sure yet.  I send you all my love. Remember that. You're most obedient husband.


Good morning everyone shaber 1000 here. I'm doing a yard sale vlog I got a bunch of stuff out and I probably only got half of our stuff out But I got some of her mom and dad stuff out but I Opened at nine and like 815 to 830 had a couple guys show up one older guy He bought a hundred DVDs So I gave him a deal I let him happen for 50 cents a piece since he bought so many of them So he bought half of our DVDs and the other guy by six DVDs and I sold a pair of gloves so $57 and it's not even 10 o'clock yet. So that's pretty good. But this is what we got going on here. This is I'm running low on knives. I'm gonna have to get some more knives We got bicycle out there. We've got a electric weed eater. We've got electric uh hedge trimmers so We've got all kinds of stuff So anyway, that's what I'm doing. Oh, I've got my peanuts for sale. I've got regular and Cajun style Cajun flavored whatever you want to say Um, so on soda pop for 75 cents a can so Yeah, so hopefully I had to find my other signs and put up on like on the mailbox monkey put a big one down A big sign down for me at the end of the street and I got one over here I've got that little one there, but I need to find my other big Big yard sales sign. I'm not sure where it is. But anyway, that's what's happening. I'll be vlogging with you throughout the day and uh Let you know the progress. So pretty happy so far did pretty good. So the uh, we gave $60 $65 for the It was 220 DVDs And that camera since the camera works I'm saying I gave because she wanted to give $50 for the dvds. So that's what we're counting at. I'm counting the camera as $15 but So the dvds are already paid for we've already made $6 on them So and the guys got more so he's gonna stop by and see me Thursday when I'll be down here at the end of the road Uh, I want to have him bring some more dvds and I'll buy some more off of him But I did put a I put an ad on craigslist, you know that I was going to have this sale and everything that I'm selling so Hopefully I'll get more people. I've had a lot of customers. So Everyone's bought something except for one couple. So that's pretty cool. All right guys, I'll be back with you hang tight So it's 1245 I've got put some more stuff out here This is uh, excuse me This is her mom's stuff there. She's got an egg poacher You got these these things These things are expensive There's I forget how many she said was in there a monkey counted them uh quite a bit of them It's something two bucks a piece or 50 bucks for all of them so These these bowls are kind of nice a couple bicycles for sale Now I thought about She keeps this camera zoomed in and when I use it, uh, um, this is her camera, but I thought about Putting a motor on that one Needs a tyrant tube in the back That'd be cool Yeah, I thought about putting a maybe a chainsaw engine on it or something. We'll see if it don't sell in a couple days, I'll uh You got 10 bucks on it because it needs a tyrant tube or I'd have like 35. It's a nice bike cleaned up It's a three speed free spirit But uh, yeah, so I got some more stuff out got my peanuts over there This is all the dollar stuff here everything here And these bins is a dollar so Except those ice trays. I think I'll let them go for uh two for a dollar, but Yeah, so pretty cool And this is all the dvds we've got left we've got from here Yeah, sons of mice down to here, so we still got over a hundred But we're dwindling down She's got her mom's ships out here that one's pretty cool Other they're all neat So But yeah, that's what's happening here, uh just It is like 1245 Something I got 1247 I've had a lot of people stop But the buyers was this morning, but I'm gonna stay I'm gonna stay open probably until monkey gets home It's a beautiful day out here. It's nice not too cold not too hot so But I'm gonna stay open for a while And if anything exciting happens Why are you so dark? I will turn you back on so I'll be right back with you guys All right, so that's about four o'clock I sold some flip-flops sold some forks for her mom Uh, what else I think it's about it Um, but I'm gonna stay open I think until she gets back Might as well you never know somebody wouldn't you know stop by looking for a deal Or whatever it's supposed to rain tomorrow So I don't know if I'll be set up tomorrow or not But Thursday definitely I'll be down at the end of the road because it's supposed to be nice It's not supposed to rain So I got a lot of stuff to put back in the damn house And I didn't even have it all out So I'll have her help me with that Because she don't want me left under anything like that. So But that's what's going on right now. So I'm just sitting here Had my lunch Just sitting here playing my game waiting on customers to come in had a lot of customers Not many were buying but the few this morning they were buying So yeah, I mean beautiful day out the sun behind me I'll show you not a cloud in the sky Awesome day We got pretty that is nice out You gotta get up there and blow that stuff off the roof May do that tomorrow if it's not raining too bad or in between rain or You know, I may sell some stuff. I don't know We'll just have to see how what the weather's like But I'm sure I'll have something for you guys to To watch tomorrow. I'll be uploading this video tonight and uh I gotta clean the garage out again. It's getting messy. Um But yeah, so that's pretty cool. I got I got that thing running real good I took you down to sell it the other day and all once it didn't want to run again So I got it running today and it was running about half ass so Then we got a lot of people like that. They'll slow down. They'll look and just keep on driving And You know, it's it's hard to say what they're looking for. I mean But if you don't get out, you don't know.  Um, you know, they got two There's a triple feature So there's still a lot of movies there So I'll get some more of them. We'll sell those But yeah, I sold some forks for her mom. So But yeah, any of you guys interested in any of these dvds, let us know We've got cocktail Roadhouse as a classic platoon We got the 007 for your eyes only it's an older one, but it's still good You know, but see, you know a lot of people with the internet Rumpy old mint grumpier old mint with the internet. They just watch it on the internet, but You know, so I mean you can rip these put them on your computer and and sell them, you know And then you have them on your computer or your, you know, external hard drive or whatever you watch them Whatever you want.  They're burnt CDs in the house A lot of people don't like them. They like to get the case and everything. These are all the knives. I've got this This is it That's all a guy bought a whole bunch of them off of me the other day for resale, so I've still got these this stuff. Yeah, there's some there's some pretty good movies in there Some of these bought, you know, america's castles There's two of them. We've got the pga golf Instruction video series.  So it's a how-to video So yeah, pretty cool. So that's what's going on I can see you guys interested in any of these Let us know A bunch of good ones in here but uh Yeah, so That's what's happening Okay, so I was sitting here Playing my game waiting on customers. I didn't realize it's five o'clock monkey just came in and changed And she said you forget something because see I was was doing my peanuts, right with my little propane tank And then it dawned on me wait because I switched because I had regular and Cajun, so I was like Wait a minute. I'm wasting propane. There's a stove in the house So I took the regular peanuts wasn't very many because I don't sell that many of those so I just had like one bag in there But they were good So I took them in put them on the stove to get them warm and I apparently forgot about them They boiled over and burnt and stuck and Yeah Yeah, but I realized that after about a half a tank of fuel maybe when I came home I said, oh it stinks in here And Did you forget something? I forgot the peanuts Burnt peanuts are not nice That's a mess Yeah Difficult male, but you had a good day overall, right? Well, yeah Yeah, did you talk about your DVDs? Yeah, yeah, cool. Yeah, we've already discussed that Cool So All right All right, I'm going to end my vlog now. So and then I gotta still gotta I gotta get the rest of this stuff in And then I still gotta make supper All right All right Like you said she's out for now. Okay. Thanks for watching guys. 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