Today will be a chatty get ready with me. I'm going to be opening up about my mental health, about my physical health, and about many of the things in my life that you probably didn't know about me. I hope that you do like it. Let's get into the video right now. Hi friends. I want to thank you very much for tuning in today. This is a little bit different video than you ever see for me. I'm going to be doing a get ready with me with a lot of the products that I just received from the Sephora Spring Sale event. I won't be talking about product very much. I will still put the ticker across the screen right down here. You will get to see the number of what I'm using. Jot down that number and then go over or go into the description box below and the number of the product will be there and you don't have to write out the whole entire product and what it is. So the number will be there. You can go down and you'll see my color, what I'm using, and exactly what it is. And then there'll be a link where you can follow to shop if you want to do that. And I do say thank you every time to you if you do shop my links because it does support my channel. And I do appreciate that so much more than you know. This is a very hard topic to open up about mental health and health in general. You know, our physical health in general is hard to open up about. But I wanted to do it because I know that I have gained a lot of followers recently and a lot of you don't know my backstory. One of the things is I know that you always notice my hand tremors. Many of you notice how bad my handshake. I'm not moving my hands on my own right now. That is just what they do. I will talk about that and what I know about that. Sometimes it's a little bit better on days but I know that when I do a tutorial sometimes it can be a little bit distracting and we go over that kind of in depth in this video as well.  This shirt I will make sure that I link for you. Throw up a picture right here so you can see that. So the shirt and the earrings I will be for sure linking for you and I can link the nail polish as well. I also want to beg of you to please be kind in the comments because this is a hard subject for most people. I'm opening up about it because I think that we need to throw away the stigma of mental health issues. It doesn't need to be a sensitive topic but I also want to tell you that if you have mental health issues please consult a doctor, a professional. This might be a trigger for some of you. If you have anxiety please know that this video, I'm very open in this video. So if you do have those kinds of things that trigger you as you hear about them you might want to skip this video and I would totally understand. And we're going to just get ready together and talk a little bit about life. So I hope you enjoy it. Please give it a thumbs up if you do and let's get into it. Okay so the new Natasha Genona pastel palette. I did have to pick that up when I saw it in person. I kind of fell in love with the colors. So I'm going to be working with that a little bit today. In order to kind of get a more soft neutral-ish look I have to pick up a different palette to do that. So we're going to go into the Lust for Dusk one from ColourPop as well. So let's start out with the Natasha palette and I'm going to start out with this kind of a peach color right here.  So okay when I was 18 I married a man that was 21 and he was not married material by any means and I didn't know it but he had a lot of mental health issues himself and I really had to adjust to living with someone that just was a bit crazy for lack of a better word. He just wasn't normal as far as the way that people process things or the way that they cope with things and I do realize when you're putting two people together it's hard to especially when they're young they don't think alike they've been raised differently but this was on just basic things that made just like basic sense. He was very highly intelligent but he didn't really have a lot of everyday common sense. I waited about five years to have my first kid. I had three kids um two boys and a girl and as the years went by he turned to alcohol and drinking and he became extremely abusive and um it just ended up being just a huge mess and I was married to him for 25 years. Well uh at a certain point he decides that he doesn't want that anymore. He didn't really tell us that he didn't want it anymore. He basically said I'm leaving um and you can come or not is what he told us. I had three kids in school I had my elderly parents his mother was there in nursing home and there was also the fact that we had a house where we were and I did not want to uproot my kids if I didn't have to and it just was always you know uh it was just always a problem there was just always something that was majorly going on and so I just basically put my foot down and said I'm not uprooting my kids I'm not going um he had traipsed me all over the country for lord knows how long um our whole 25 years we had moved around a ton except for that last few years well I just said you know I'm not going anywhere till the kids are um old enough and I'm not um gonna leave our parents our elderly parents his mother included and so he just left and we never heard from him again and that was oh 12 years ago now and um I was just left with these kids because he was of the mindset when we got married that he did not want his wife to work outside the home that was one of his things he never ever wanted his wife to um do anything but raise the kids and be a homemaker which I was glad to do that was my dream as a kid to be a homemaker I'm gonna go in with some of this lavender this is a satin I'm just gonna put this all over my lid while I was living with him I developed my tremors um I can go back as far as probably almost 30 years now that I have had the tremors but as things got worse with him and my nerves were on edge 24 seven it just became this really really always flight or fight type thing and it just was so hard for me to deal with him and deal with the kids and he never helped with the kids at all he never did anything with them he was very abusive to them um let me just tell you one thing that happened and you'll kind of get an understanding of what I'm saying um we got into an argument one day and my daughter was standing here and um she was tiny about six or seven and she had a little playmate over and we got into an argument we were renovating a bedroom for my other son and um as I'm talking to him and as we're yelling back and forth with each other which obviously we shouldn't have been doing in front of the kids but we did um he took a hammer and he threw the hammer and it went right past my head and it chocked it got into the wall it it hooked into the wall so that right there should have been my okay it's time for you to get out no more this garbage but I didn't I stayed and stupid yes I know stupid but at the same time you know again I didn't want a divorce I knew that you know people weren't supposed to divorce that it messes kids up I had had my sisters go through many divorces and my brother and it was just really you know it wasn't something that I really wanted to do although there was so many times when I wanted to leave him I can't even I can't even begin to tell you how many times I wanted to leave that man but long story short I did not leave him so when he finally left and he finally abandoned us there was no more support for us um my oldest son when he left he was 20 and he had a pretty good job but he had to quit that job and he had to go find a higher paying job my other son was 18 he was still in school but we got him through school quickly and he went and found a job and I went and found a job so I had three people in my house working for minimum wage and that's the only way we made it well in the interim of all of that we lost our house we lost our cars we lost um I had to sell off everything we owned furniture clothing and just get down to bare necessities in order to survive because not only did um I have all of that to deal with but all three of my kids are type one diabetics and so I had to find a way to continue with their treatment and not stop their treatment and yet still be that mom so I just kind of shut down at one point and that is when I had my first nervous breakdown by the way I would always shake all the way through this so I always had a little bit of a tremor in my hands and so everybody knew that we all dealt with it we all coped with it mom shakes da-da-da but when that happened when my first nervous breakdown happened it was a total nervous breakdown so I lost all my bodily functions which I know this this can be a trigger for some of you if you um have nerves it can be hard for you to hear so I hope I'm not triggering anybody but leaving me destitute with these three kids was so much more than I could handle and the other thing was when I went to file for a divorce because of abandonment he fought me and he wanted custody of my youngest daughter who wasn't of age yet and there was no way because I mean I'm not gonna let my daughter go to somebody who is a madman that drinks constantly and he had a temper he had a major temper let me tell you I'm using the new HD skin from makeup forever for my foundation today after he left after I got a divorce I met my husband now Bill but in the interim of that he fought me so bad that it was three years before I could get a divorce from him um and that wasn't because of custody because the judge knew obviously that he wasn't anywhere in state and the judge wasn't going to give him custody at all so while all that was happening I ended up having another nervous breakdown in there and that's the one that left me with my tremors I mean I had the worst tremors though you know the real shakes the panic attacks the um phobia of leaving your house and and being afraid all the time and all of that stuff that goes along with having panic disorder and so then I was diagnosed with PTSD from having so much um really abused there's a lot more I could tell you but there's no reason to go into all of that I trembled so bad and it wasn't just in my hands then it was in my legs and my body and I would feel like a wave of tremors go through me before everything would start and get triggered and then go into a full blown panic attack but the biggest thing is that it just left me um completely a different person and at that point you know the people that you love they don't understand it um there was a lot of people that would come to me oh I love this foundation it's so pretty there's a lot of people that would come to me and they would say you know I hate to see you like this and um what are we gonna do because all I would do is just lay in my bed and you know they would come over and over again and say I hate to see you like this I can't stand it and I finally just said don't come anymore you know if you can't stand to see me like this this is who I am this is what I'm dealing with then you know don't come because it's hard for me to have to try and pretend when people are around because I just don't feel well and I don't feel right well after that second breakdown um and then you know all of the stuff went down where he was refusing to give any financial support to his kids or to me you know I was due alimony through the divorce and everything but he just didn't pay it and so um even though I had the state garnishing that took forever because he jumped from job to job on purpose um couldn't hold down a job and so finally at one point um I just went and got a job as a loan officer in a credit union and I loved that job I mean I seriously even to this day if I could go back and do anything it would be that because such a such a good thing for me to get involved with people again and get to know people again and really um just I don't I don't even know how to explain it just be out with regular people that really um you know were normal and for me to know that I was normal and I wasn't just um you know things weren't just getting made up in my mind about all of that so that was huge um best thing I ever did in my whole life was get that job and become self-sufficient and um really just just loved it just loved every minute of being my own woman and that was the beginning of my journey of becoming someone different than who I was when I was married to him and learning a lot about PTSD and panic attacks and knowing what I could and couldn't cope with and um so there was a lot of changes I met Bill um Bill and I moved out of state because we didn't want to be around anything to do with him we needed both of us he was he was out of a divorce for a couple of years himself and both of us really needed to just move on and be done with all of that so I just did my brows a little bit off of camera they're one of the hardest things I have with my termers to do that eyeliner and mascara whoa that's really hard to do those and then after I was married I started to gain weight and I gained weight like I'd never gained before Bill's a big foodie he loves food I love food and we kind of self-soothed with that it was kind of our entertainment and our you know our solace and all of that kind of stuff we just started to eat and eat and eat and I love to cook anyway so he loved my cooking and we just went down the rabbit hole together and anyway so um Bill didn't gain like I did he gained some but then he lost it and oh I don't know I guess it was about two years after we were married I got diagnosed with fibromyalgia and trigeminal neuralgia now all of you know what fibromyalgia is that one didn't really surprise me but when I got trigeminal neuralgia there's so much to that it's basically this nerve that sits right here and it fingers through your face right here as it branches through your face right here so the pain that you feel can be in your ear it can go down your jaw it can go up your cheekbone over your head and it it's debilitating it's very very hard and it's extremely um scary because there's so much pain involved in it and so I just became bedbound I had another nervous breakdown in there somewhere so that had been my third nervous breakdown um I was I developed a gorophobia where I didn't want to go out social anxiety disorder where if I did go out I felt like the walls were caving in on me and I did not know these people and I didn't want to do this I wanted to be gone and so there was so much that happened at that time and it was so scary because um and I'm sure it was scary for Bill and for my kids and it was just a really really hard time for all of us the hardest part for all of that though was the mental health part because I developed such severe panic disorder that there was just no way that I was going to be able to function literally from the time I got up in the morning until I went to bed I was bedbound and I yeah I that's when I put on my 130 pounds 135 pounds and I just I was sick and it was just absolutely crippling and so each day I would try my hardest to do the things that I used to do but I couldn't there was just no way to get to that point anymore so uh Bill was an angel um he saved me so many times and my kids oh my goodness my poor kids my daughter was so young at the time and oh I just was not a good mom for her at the time and I couldn't be anything to anybody then and it just it was so hard it was just a really hard impossible situation to try and continue to deal with back in September of 2020 when we were in the COVID lockdown I apparently got COVID and didn't know that well I developed POTS which is postural or the static tachycardi syndrome which is where the sympathetic nervous system with the autonomic nervous system is not talking to each other and so the blood that goes down and pulls down in your legs and your heart normally pumps it your brain normally tells your heart to pump it up when you stand up it was still pulling in the legs I was passing out I had all these problems from that so I do have POTS but one of the things that really was scary about having POTS is now my tremors are so much worse and so since September of 2022 they have been constantly getting a little bit worse and if you'll notice that I do have a lot of breaks in my videos as I'm talking that's because sometimes my thoughts get frozen and that's from COVID as well so COVID is the gift that keeps on giving I know that so many of you have had it a lot of you have dealt with the horrible things that it has done to everybody and I just I feel for everybody that has had this I feel like we barely know what's going to happen with COVID I feel like we barely know the long-term effects that COVID is going to bring and it's going to be more and more scary as time goes on but you know we all cope with what we have to and we'll all get through it together I'm sure I digress let's go back to around when I started my channel which was 2016 and that was really out of necessity for finding something that I could do at home Bill wanted me to do something at home where I could feel like I had something to do because you know obviously when you're in a major state of depression you feel very hopeless you feel very useless you don't want to do anything you definitely don't want anybody around you just want to be left alone um and kind of wallowing your own self thoughts I really just lost everything then I lost myself worth I lost everything I was so if you go back and you look at some of my videos around that time you're gonna see how big I was um I did not take care of myself I tried to but I really had a hard time taking care of myself because I was so depressed and honestly um my family they were trying to do their very best but they were enabling me to be you know more like that because they felt so bad for me and so and I get it when you see somebody sick you want to take care of them and they were no exception they wanted to take care of me this is a beautiful blush holy moly that's a pretty blush anyways time went on I finally figured out you know the only person that I am going to be able to rely on is myself although built is an amazing support my children are an amazing support I still needed to be doing for myself not just expecting everybody to be doing for me so would you see me do something like this where I'm doing precision work and you can see how bad my hands shake as I'm doing that that's what I've been left with not only from my three nervous breakdowns but from COVID plus my family has a history of familial tremors which is where that originally comes from right now it's starting to go towards my feet as well and kind of a little bit in my shoulders in my neck I'm crossing my fingers that they don't think that this is Parkinson's some of the brain fog and everything but they really do think that it's very much related to COVID I'm going to bust out this palette that I got a while ago and just use Hula in here from Benefit I need a little bit of bronzing and I don't want to go over there where all my other bronzers are so Hula bronzer is a nice one if you just need a little bit of extra you know a little bit of extra life to your face but you don't want to go too crazy oh have you guys seen these these are so pretty look at this it's from Hooda Beauty and it's got a little reflect in it so pretty let me grab a little tiny brush here I'm just gonna this is a brush from Sephora that I just got and that look at I don't know if that's gonna work or not I'm just gonna tap this a tiny bit on the top of my cheeks just a little bit just to see how it glows so pretty really pretty little bit too glowy I'm getting too glowy here I'm gonna have to powder this down just a little bit also in 2019 I decided to have gastric bypass surgery and I will link my playlist about that but I went down to Mexico and I had that done yes I everybody will probably freak out when they heard it had it done in Mexico but I couldn't afford to have it done in the States because I had insurance that would not pay for it we had checked into that so basically we were stuck trying to figure out what we were going to do and I had a bunch of friends that had done it had done it down there and it had turned out so good for them and thankfully it turned out really good for me I'll link a video where I kind of had a weird story when I was on the plane about that but I have a lot of stories about my weight loss journey and I ended up losing 130 pounds so I'm about five I'm between five and 20 pounds away from where I really like to be but I'm good with that I don't mind that even a little bit it's so much better than what I was dealing with before and immediately the pain goes away and well not all the pain from fiber miles but a lot of the pain goes away and then what else happens is you know your self-esteem comes back and you can start doing things and I think that's really when everybody started to notice a change in my channel things were just a lot better for me I was a lot happier let's fast forward to what just happened just very recently okay my oldest son does still live with us um he's been a huge help to us but he also has some mental health issues himself and so we help him he helps us um but he ended up getting disabled with some other health issues and then he ended up needing a surgery so he knew he needed that surgery all last year 2021 but um wasn't able to get it wasn't able to be qualified for it well it ended up that my dad got really sick at the end of 2021 dad got put on hospice probably oh goodness he probably got put on hospice around december 15th somewhere in that area and then um after that on december 16th bill fell at work and he tore his quadricep tendon and muscle completely away from the bone and so yeah he had to have major surgery on that and two days later my dad died and so um that was just like all of this stuff coming in on me and a week after that um i got covid and gave covid to everybody in the house so mitch had covid bill had covid mitch is a type one diabetic and bill is a type two diabetic so freaking out about that plus my heart condition with pots and i'm here to tell you mine was the amicron variant that most of us got around that time but that is wicked stuff covid is nothing to mess with the first time around it gave me my heart condition the second time around now i am so tired all the time that i can barely manage it's so hard to put one foot in front of the other and just keep going and knowing that you know i still have to function i still have to do everything every day but it's just really really hard so after covid this time my shakes got worse so now i'm like okay i'm i'm so over it i'm so done i don't know what to do to deal with this so i come on here and i talk to you and i try so hard to keep that separate but it's hard not to talk about how you feel and i know that a lot of you are like you look so good you know you're doing so good and everything and i am overjoyed that i have this outlet to do this because if i wasn't taking care of myself every day if i wasn't getting up putting on makeup trying new makeup for you guys doing my hair changing my clothes out of my night clothes i probably wouldn't be functioning because when i'm done filming i go to my bed on days when i am not doing filming and sitting in this chair i'm in my bed i live in my bed because of the aches and the pains that i have from fibromyalgia my trigeminal neuralgia is out of control the loss of my dad that's why i wasn't going to cry in this the loss of my dad it happened so fast and it happened so dramatically um dad didn't have an easy death what he went through was horrific you know a lot of people their dads just die in their sleep or they have cancer and they know that they're going to die and but when we put dad on hospice they kept telling us that he that this wasn't the end for him that he had months and months and it was 10 days or two weeks after we did that that he was gone so it was really traumatic and it was really quick and sorry i didn't want to i didn't want to do this um i miss my dad every day my dad was a tough man he was a cowboy raised as a cowboy raised on a ranch slept every night in a bunkhouse and he was hard on us as kids but he loved us and we knew that dang it so losing dad's been really hard and then getting coven getting sicker has been really hard but we continue on don't we even after we lose our parents or after someone that we love dies this one is really hard i've got to hold still and then about two weeks ago maybe three weeks ago mitch had his surgery which fingers crossed it's a success but he is on crutches mitch is my son by the way he's on crutches and basically he can't do anything for himself right now so that has been tough as well but you know i'm not the kind of person that likes to dwell on that i do get sad sometimes really sad um i do have depression i know that because of you know just not wanting to do things but youtube keeps me alive and i'll tell you what the reason that i answer all of you um when you comment is because number one i feel like if you take the time to comment to me um that's special and important to me and so i appreciate that and this video is going to be a tough one for me to answer all the comments but i'll heart them which means that i've read every single one but just know that being here on youtube and being doing this has saved my life it truly has i love this i love my passion for makeup goes back to when i was a young young girl um i started wearing makeup when i was 14 and i've never looked back um the passion that i have now um started in when i learned about youtube about eight years ago and there was um people on there like andy hot and flashy and tati and um cathleen lights and a few of those um og ones that have been on here forever i just went to bill one day and i said i think i can do this and he went out and bought me a camera like within days and the camera sat in the corner of my room for over uh two months and then i finally broke it up open and and you know tried it and i hated how i looked on camera it just made me insane how i looked on camera and how i how i talked it was just so foreign to me to see myself like that because when you hear your own voice it's so much different than what you hear in your head obviously but wow um yeah so i finally bit the bullet and i finally started to record and when you first see me you will almost always see me looking this way so i'll be looking over here that's where my viewfinder is and it wasn't until a couple years into my youtube channel i learned i need to be talking to the people not to myself and making sure that i look okay as i'm talking so yeah there's a lot of learning that goes into having a youtube channel and a lot of things that you change along the way um but it's been such a rewarding journey and really have been enjoying living this life that i get to live now i'm using a pencil to do my lip lining and i can't talk while i do this also using this rare beauty balm i think it's so pretty almost like a matte balm but it's very hydrating gives a lot of great color and then this is a gloss gloss from Sephora collection this is so pretty okay i went fluff that hair up now i'm gonna try to attempt to put these earrings on and one of the things that i've been thinking about doing for a long time and kind of mulling it over is on days that i'm not standing i'm not sitting in front of the camera i do my makeup i do my skincare my hair all in my bed is that a video that you would like to see maybe how i do certain things where i just do it when i'm laying on my bed because i feel like i can't get up or the pain is too much or i'm too dizzy to get up and i might pass out that kind of thing is that something that you're interested in because really i very rarely sit up like this and do my makeup but speaking about my physical health and my mental health really is kind of therapeutic for me and i feel like we need to erase the stigma attached to mental health we have to if we don't we're going to have more and more people suffering and we can get through this there are avenues there are things that they that can be done there are so many people that are willing to help and volunteers and doctors and and different medications and once again i want to say that if you are coping with any of the things that i've that i have gone over today that you consult with a medical professional a healthcare professional because you really sometimes you just can't do it on in your own i know that i couldn't as far as my weight goes i am three years in let's see it'll be june will be my third year anniversary of having my surgery and i haven't put any weight on and that is amazing for me that makes me feel fantastic fantastic it helps my body not hurt so much i do still deal with a lot of problems but that is one less thing than i have to cope with and it really was one of the best decisions that i've ever made in my life and like i said i'll link that playlist down below i think that that's everything thank you for letting me chew your ear off today you get to know a little bit more about me and who i am and what i go through and just know that you guys seriously when you comment i know that so many youtubers say i love you guys you mean so much to me when i got sick and um had to deal with all this you know not just physical health but my mental health i lost all my friends and they couldn't understand it and so you lose them one by one the people go away even your family they have to go on with their lives and you're you're stuck so while they're going on with their lives you're stuck here well for me you all have become such good friends to me and i know that we chat back and forth and different things and it's you know lots of times it's just a couple of words but for me um to be able to talk to people that aren't in my brain talking to me um that definitely is a huge thing for me and i just want to tell you that i don't say i love you guys lightly and i don't say you guys i love you guys just like oh love you you know that's not what i mean i mean really i treasure you guys and i treasure the time that you come and you spend with me and you support me and the fact that i can make a living um doing this is a dream come true because i don't know how i would do it outside and working in the workplace so i thank you so much for everything that you do for me every time you tune in so that's it for today and i hope that you come back very soon we'll have more makeup and fashion and beauty and we'll talk about that instead of talking about things that are kind of heavy but thank you very much for listening to me for this long and i will see you again in my very next video goodbye my friends


A few days ago President Bala Tinibu crossed the symbolic 100 days in office which coincided with the delivery of judgments on the petition against the victory of the presidential election petition tribunal. The first 100 days of President Bala Tinibu and his administration have been laced with praise and blame. Upon the inauguration on May 29, 2023, President Tinibu vowed to revamp the economy with renewed hope slogan, but the ripple effects of his economic policies leave Nigerians with a sweet and sour taste. Joining us to discuss this is John Desmond, he's a member of the APCC Media and Publicity Directorate. Also joining us is Kairi Salako, he's a former chairman of the Labour Party. Gentlemen, thank you so much for joining us and good evening. Yes, sir. Good evening.  Let's start by looking at what you think or how well you think the president has fed in his 100 days in office. One of the very first things that the president said that reverberated across the country is subsidy is gone. And here we are 100 days after, 100 days into his administration, Nigerians seem to be agonizing about the situation of things. But as an insider, tell us exactly where you think or how well you think Mr. President has done so far. Thank you very much. One of the activities to mark the 100 days is a big congratulations to Nigerians today. You might have heard that the president was in UAE today and had a meeting with the leaders of that country and they have just lifted a ban on a visa restriction on Nigerians. You know, that is another milestone for our nations to mark the 100 days of President Tinnable in office. Now, let me say that, what are the major highlights, major achievements of his administration so far in these 100 days? The first was subsidy that has been holding the whole nation to ransom.  So far so good, the president has put some major, you know, in forms of palliatives, in forms of grants to state to cushion the effect. Look at the appointments, what the constitutional appointment, what the executive appointment, look at the how widely spread, how accepted, how happy Nigerians are. Look at programs that have been rolled out. So far so good, students loan has been rolled out. When this president noticed that Nigerians are not happy with some of the policies that were being rolled out, he immediately came on stage through a national brokers and let us know that this is not a one-man show. This is a people-oriented president. I am a people's president and he talked to us immediately, look at the communications between him and the governors and the ministers. You know, it is a welcome development. 100 days is not the total day, but in 100 days he has started on a good note and Nigerians are happy. We, our party from the APC, we believe everybody is now seeing what it means to have hope renewed in the Nigeria that we believe. So in 100 days, to refer to all of us, the president is on a good course and we hope that is going to learn well. Interesting, I want to take you back to the issue of subsidy. Now you said that Nigerians should be excited that hope is being renewed. What hope exactly is being renewed? The naira to the dollar is almost a thousand. The cost of living is very high. It's hit the roof and it's going beyond the roof. As we speak right now, a lot of people have not necessarily been able to afford to go to their places of work as they used to. Like I said, transportation has modern doubled, even though they've said that some states like Lagos state have subsidized public transportation, only for those who are taking public transportation. Again, school fees are being increased and the value of the naira is too low. Let's talk also about, you know, the situation that we have in terms of the subsidy removal. Is subsidy really gone? And the picture that was painted to the average Nigerian about this removal of subsidy was to reduce the corruption in the sector and make it easier for us to access this crude. But unfortunately, that's not necessarily the case. The issue of corruption I know cannot be done in one day. So again, subsidy is gone, but poverty for Nigerians have come to stay. A lot of people have now categorized Nigerians into three different categories. The rich, the poor, the poorest of the poor, and of course those who have no hope. Wow. This is your analysis tonight. It's interesting. But then what is the effect of subsidy on our nation? Money that will have been used for infrastructure development to reduce the future poverty rate, to build and develop institutional framework for prosperity has been in the hand of few individuals who have not been using it. From the removal of subsidy, what was the fact allocation after the removal of subsidy in our nation is 1.9 trillion naira. Subsequently, the fact begins to grow. This is just three months after. So the money got from subsidy cannot be used to transform Nigeria overnight. But this money, as time goes on, are going to be put into infrastructure development. Should the president have thought about the cushioning effects before he openly talks about, no, sorry, just hold on, should the president have thought about, because of course I'm guessing that whoever wants to be the president of this country knows the situation of things, should the president have considered these so-called palliatives or cushioning effects? I hate palliative because that word makes it look like we're begging for something. Should he have considered that before going on with this statement of palliative, rather, subsidy is gone, as opposed to now having to backtrack and look for ways to ameliorate the suffering. How many people can these five billion that have been given to states really get to? Palliatives to cushion the effect cannot solve the problem of poverty. It's important to know palliative are just immediate job to enable you prepare to get used to the system and make alternative to succeed and survive within the system. That's number one. Number two, we have heard from our nation history that removing subsidy has been a great challenge for every leader that has come and gone. So where do we need to begin from? We need to attack it the way it comes. Okay. And thank God the president was bold, the president was confident enough and get it done. Now, where we are now is what can we do to quickly get out of the country? And that is why the president said, okay, no, let's get this on the table. We are not going to live with palliative. Okay. But to cushion the effect, the imminent effect, state make five billionaires. Okay. It's not left for those who got billionaires to invest it to invest it to change the life of the citizen in the future. Okay. All right. Please for to take this one. Okay. Get used to the system and adjust to the system. That is the essence of palliative. Mr. Desmond, just hold on. Just hold on. I'm going to come back to you and tackle you a bit more on this issue of palliatives. Mr. Salakot, let me come to you. You obviously are of the Labor Party. You, again, you have been hit hard by the verdict of the PEPT, which has solidified Mr. President's position as indeed the President of the Federal Republic. But then, again, the country has to move on. The 100 days of Mr. President is what we're looking at now. And I want to quickly quote the Honorable Minister for Information, Mohamed Idris, who noted that the country's public debts, both local and foreign, coupled with the unsustainable fuel subsidy regime created by, created a gaping hole rather in public finance and rendered three tiers of government insolvent. But he says, in solving that problem, Mr. Tinibu took a bold, courageous decision to remove fuel subsidy to avert a national economic catastrophe of epic proportions. Does that not necessarily describe the situation that we're in right now? I might be wrong, but please correct me. Yeah, thank you very much. Good evening, Nigerians. And I want to tell my brother on this show to congratulate Nigerians for the successful running of the country by Mr. President, the commander-in-chief of the armed forces of the Federal Republic of Nigeria, President Bola Ahmed Tinibu. Let me also say this, that I am no longer a member of Labour Party. I told the person who reached out to me to be on this show in the evening that, yes, I am the immediate past State Chairman of Labour Party. So it makes me a former Chairman of Labour Party, but I have still come back to my party, which is the All Progressive Congress, APC. Interesting. So, I am a chieftain of APC. Okay. Right now. I'm no longer a Labour Party. Ah, perfect. So go ahead and answer my question, please. Yes, I have to let you first, I have to clarify that. Because I'm on 10. Quite well taken. Now, to come back to your question, to come back to your question, Mr. President is a man that Nigerians should have faith, keep faith, with his capability and ability to deliver on his promises today and tomorrow of Nigeria. He is a man that his capacity has never been enough. I'm sorry, Mr. Salakot. Do you need me to ask the question again, because I don't think you got my question. First, 100 days as dawn is appointed in Nigeria like me. Because it is not always easy to be a change agent in a peculiar society, such as Nigeria. Okay. Mr. President, in everything, a peculiar situation, which you and I and attest to. The situation of Nigeria was a very critical, economically, politically, socially. Mr. Salakot, can you hear me? The winner by the Independent National Electoral Commission. So he has taken both moves. He has taken both steps. Steps that are not taken, then there is no hope of survival. Okay. So these steps that the presidents have taken. I'm going to ask you my question again, because you did not hear me. I know that you want to praise seeing the president, but let's go back to the question that I asked. I'm so sorry. Hold on. Let me ask my question again. Mr. Salakot, can I ask my question again? I did read you a statement by the Information Minister, and of course, the situation of the economy. And I asked you a simple question. What the minister described, is that not the situation that we're in right now? What situation it is right now? I'm sure you didn't hear my question, but let me read it again. Well, the minister said that the president took a bold and courageous step to remove fuel subsidy to avert national economic catastrophe of epic proportions. And I'm asking, isn't that a description of somewhat of a description of what we're experiencing right now as a country in the space of 100 days? That is exactly what I've been saying. That is exactly what I've been saying. I've been talking in response to what the minister has said. He has taken bold decisions, bold steps, bold decisions, and he has the notion of the way he has operated so far. A critical problem means critical submission. And it is, I'm going to say it is a bold man like president Bola Chinungu, who could come out, take over the affairs of governance at the federal level in Nigeria, and start setting the power rolling immediately by taking such bold steps. He has taken courageous decisions and I want to assure Nigeria that those decisions are going to pay off on the long run. So now in the short term, Mr. Shahlaka, yes, in the short term, in the short term, because I always like to see, I like to talk about, you know, quick goals that we can achieve before we talk about the long term. In the short term, Mr. President has asked Nigerians over and over again to be patient with him, to manage. Again, I go back to the 5 billion that have been given to states and we hear here in Lagos, several people have complained about the fact that these allege rather that these so-called palatives have been given to their friends and their cronies and members of the all-progressive Congress. Let's even say that these are allegations. How many people can these so-called palatives, you know, get to? How many people can benefit from it? How long can this last for, I mean, for those who are getting dairy cuts of rice and some people are getting gary, et cetera, et cetera, how long can it last them? And for those who do not categorize as the poorest of the poor, for the others who their businesses have been affected, for the people who no longer have the purchasing power as they used to, for those who take home pay no longer is able to take them home, what happens to them in the interim? Because whether we like it or not, everything that's biting is biting everyone, except for those who probably are, you know, in power, who don't necessarily have to buy fuel, who don't necessarily have to deal with the situation of things that we're dealing with. What happens in the interim? How can our situation be addressed right now? While we wait for Mr. President's long-term plan, what can be done in the short term? Please don't tell me that. Let me say this. Let me say this, please. That there is no gain sometimes if there is no pain. Even before President Zinoumuk came on board, Nigerians have been complaining. Nigerians have been going through what they are going through now. During President's opposition period, Nigerians complained of the same passion. That was the reason the man couldn't get the third time opportunity to continue to run Nigeria. Nigerians complained during his time. During President Zinoumuk's last time, Nigerians complained. During President Zinoumuk's last time, Nigerians complained. I want to go back to Mr. Desmond, but let me come in there. Since we want to compare governments, what was the value of the Naira under Abbasanjah's administration, under the Good Lockdown Administration? What was Nigeria's earning rate in terms of crude compared to what it is today, since we want to make those comparisons? By saying that Nigerians are complaining, were things as bad as they are today as compared to those governments, since we're making comparisons? You're going through the hardship now or you were going through the hardship then? Okay, perfect. Thank goodness you know that. So, in the face, in the life of a country that is still looking for how to get a very right economically, in the face, I was a little boy. When a musician sang it, the late Victor Laya, he was a high-line musician, he sang it in Yoruba language. I was a little boy then. When he sang it, I was a little boy then. And up to now, the lyrics and content of that song, that message, that song, is irrelevant. That is to let you know that globally, as life progresses, things tend to be, you know, when we are complaining that Nigeria is the same way my people, my family members, friends, are complaining about the situation of economy in the UK. Can you compare, can you compare? It's very interesting how it's very easy for you to compare. It's very easy for you to quickly compare yourself to other parts of the world where they have the basics that they need in their country. What are the basic amenities that you have been able to access in this country? Do you have 24 hours light? How is your transportation system? What are the road infrastructures like? It's very easy for us to compare ourselves. No, no, no. That was a rhetorical question. I wasn't asking you to answer, but I'm sorry. Hold on. That was a rhetorical question. I didn't need your response. I want to go back to Mr Desmond now. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Mr Salako. Can we take, I want us to go to Mr Desmond quickly. Mr Desmond, what are the things that we get? I'm sorry, Mr Salako. Please let Mr Desmond speak. Can we let Mr Desmond speak, please? Thank you very much. Mr Desmond, what are the things that Nigerians can hold on to under President Tinnable's 100 days in office? What are those things that people can hold on to in terms of the hope that you have been talking about? What can they hold on to and hope upon that maybe in the next two to three months or maybe before the year wraps that they might be able to breathe actually some form of fresh air? Thank you very much for this question. Mr Desmond, are you still there? Can you hear me? Father, in the past 100 days, you see that during the executive appointment, the widespread, the acceptance of the people that this has led to restoration of national ethnic dignity. And merely after the executive appointments, people no longer talk about nepotism. The word nepotism sees from public space in Nigeria. Okay, because we need to hold on to something to drive us to our destination. That's number one. Number two, job creation. The challenge of our nation is, as you were saying to Salaki, it's our inability to develop the basics of human development. Sixty years ago, between 1939 and 1943, the United States of America was under depression, not recession. That's it. It was on the ground. Mr. Salaki, would you please let him speak? Thank you. That means that so far they know a lot that instead of categorizing them, looking at the recession they are facing, they move from recessionary face to depressionary face. Sixty years after, that country is among the top nation on earth. So the second thing that Nigeria should renew their hope with is infrastructural and institutional framework for development by the grace of God, as it has started in Lagos then. They also launched their blue rail. The minister of FCT, the president told him, I want to ride on your blue rail. The state government, the party that has given to them form a ground, they should not use that money, that five billion dollar for consumption. They should deploy it into key infrastructure development, short-term infrastructure development. Excuse me, in Abuja, the cost of riding on Kanu Line to Abuja is 5,500 million. That is Kanu Line, yes. I wish a dope line is still available at the line. No, we need to look at the future. Okay. All right. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. Our time is up. I want to thank you gentlemen. I'm so sorry we have to go. But I want to say thank you. Jonathan Desmond is a member of the APC, PCC media and publicity directories. He is former chairman of the Labour Party who is now a member of the All Progressive Congress. Thank you so much, gentlemen, for being part of the conversation. Unfortunately, time is not on our side. Thank you very much. All right. We'll take a quick break. We'll take a quick break now. And when we come back, we'll be discussing the NNPP and of course the recent troubles within the party. Stay with us.


Welcome to the video, Narciss are addicted to people, please like the video, share your thoughts in the comments, subscribe if you haven't subscribed yet, share the video with anyone who you believe may help, Narciss are addicted to people, they need people. We all need human interaction or contact, but not as intensely as the Narciss. The Narciss needs people all day, they need that constant stimulation from people, whether it's someone to have a conversation with, a warm body to sleep next to at night, someone to abuse or manipulate or distort their reality, someone to have power and control over, they cannot do any of these things without people, people provide them with what they need, attention, validation, approval, admiration, power, control, money, material things, affection or sex, without a physical human being there, they cannot obtain any of this, this is Narcissistic supply, they are heavily dependent on Narciss supply which means they are heavily dependent on people, put them on a deserted island and they would die very quickly because they need that constant attention, that constant stimulation, a Narciss without people constantly attend to them, validate and approve of them and admire them can be a very dangerous person because at that point they have nothing to lose and that's when you see who they really are, a Narciss without supply will have a temper tantrum, they could be aggressive and willing to do whatever it takes to obtain that supply, it's essentially the same as a toddler that wants that shiny new toy that they cannot get, the Narciss will scream and shout, attack people, whatever it takes, if there's a person that they want they have to have them just because they want them, they are arrogant and feel entitled just because they want you, they expect you to give in and let them have you, they feel entitled to your attention, your conversation, your body, mind and soul, your body is an object to them which they use as they please to gratify them however they want, your mind is a tool for them to obtain Narcissistic supply, they want to damage your mind and confuse it so that they can take control over it, if your mind was a horse they would want to be the one pulling the reins, they are addicted to high energy people, Narciss love energy, they can't get enough of it literally because they are low energy beings and no matter how much energy they obtain it can never sustain them, they are like bottomless buckets, an interaction or conversation is a transaction of energy, you will notice that after an interaction or conversation with a Narciss you feel drained and lifeless, this is because they are draining your potent high quality energy and giving you the energy which they possess, they possess a weak low quality source of energy which is like drinking a can of soda, you might get a sugar rush in the beginning but soon enough you will experience the crash, this energy struggles to sustain the Narciss too which is why they are always on the hunt for sources of supply, Narciss are also addicted to the human touch, they need constant affection or sex, many of them have an addiction, tell a Narciss that you don't want to have sex and they will have a Narciss to gingery, sociopaths and psychopaths are different, they do require sources of supply but they have standards or specific qualities they look for in a source, they can hold out and be alone until they find that source who is what they are specifically looking for, most often this will be someone who could put them in a position of obtaining money or power or they will be extremely good looking or sexually gratifying, if the sociopath or psychopath does not find a source which meets the specific qualities that they are looking for, they will be alone, they will not settle for less than what their specific standards or needs are, this is the clear difference between the Narciss and the sociopath or psychopath, sociopaths and psychopaths are more focused on the perceived need, Narciss are more focused on what they want and they can be very impulsive especially after the discard phase, in the reckless phase, they don't think like the sociopath or psychopath, if they see a man or woman that's a source of supply, they don't care about their looks, their physique, their social status or how much money they have and you may notice that many times the Narciss thought that you were the same, they were paranoid and hypervigilant over any person of the opposite sex you may talk to, they don't have the filter process that we have built into our minds, especially in the reckless phase, for them anything goes, because they are addicted to people, they are addicted to human interaction and stimulation, they cannot live without it, so of the free disorders, Narciss are definitely the weakest and most dependent on people, they literally need that interaction and stimulation all day every day, the Narciss is also extremely envious and jealous of any people you are in contact with, they are envious and jealous of any human interaction or stimulation you might have, this is why Narciss are known to create smear campaigns towards the end of the relationship, because they are envious and jealous of any potential human interaction or stimulation you might have, why are they so envious and jealous of this, it's because they do not believe they can give you the interaction or stimulation you desire and if someone else gives that to you, it will only prove how defective, inferior and incapable these people really are, Narciss are also like bottomless buckets, no amount of interaction or stimulation could ever satisfy them, but if you are an empath you have probably noticed that even the tiniest amount can provide you with deep satisfaction, empaths are hypersensitive to the attention of others, their validation, approval and admiration, if an empath is having a conversation they will be very in tune and deeply involved in it, if an empath is experiencing affective stimulation whether physically or emotionally they will be extremely sensitive to that, some empaths are so physically and emotionally sensitive that they often experience discomfort, why do Narciss need constant human interactions and stimulation, well it's because when they are by themselves they are alone to their thoughts, they have an inner critic, they have endless negative and dysfunctional thoughts, they are living in hell in their minds, they are miserable and dissatisfied with their lives so they need a person to distract them from this, they don't want to be alone to themselves because they hate themselves, that's why they create a false self to lure you in and when they are alone they cannot portray an illusion because there is no one to witness it, they cannot create a fantasy by themselves because that would force them to look within, the Narciss does not want to self reflect or look within themselves because it is too painful, deep down they know just how miserable, dissatisfied and flawed they really are which is why they need constant human interaction and stimulation to distract them from that, they also need someone to project all of their flaws and mistakes onto, they need someone so they can make them feel miserable, dissatisfied and flawed to make them feel higher and above them, so this is why the Narciss is addicted to people, addicted to the functioning of your brain, addicted to your thought process, addicted to your potent high quality energy, addicted to any attention or admiration you might give to them, addicted to any interaction or stimulation you may provide to them, addicted to your physical body and any affection you might give to them. Hope this helps, thank you for watching, please remember to like the video and share your thoughts in the comments, subscribe if you haven't subscribed yet and share the video with anyone who you believe may help, talk to you soon.


So you've got 400 dollars to spend on a smartphone. You want a lot of features but you also want some gaming performance. So what's the best 400 dollar smartphone to buy? Well, I think it's the Redmi K20 Pro. The K20 Pro is the budget line from Xiaomi and Xiaomi makes some really inexpensive good phones. The K20 Pro is no different. Now remember the Poco from last year ran the 845 and it was like, whoa, this is crazy. We haven't seen a successor yet to that device but the K20 Pro is the spiritual successor in my mind if you think about it. There are a lot of devices that have a lot of high-end features and the Poco from last year brought us just the 845 processor. This year the K20 Pro brings in a ton of features you will find from mid to high-end. So let's start off with the most obvious one. It's got a full bezel-less display. Yes, that's no notches, no bezels. All for how much? 400 bucks. Yes, that ended up $400. You get a device that has a lovely 6.39 inch display. It is a resolution 1080p by 2340. It's got no punch holes, none of that. No notches. It looks really, really good. I'm like, man, these guys went all out with this. And to top it off, you've got a pop-up camera. Yes, the camera pops up. It's nice. It's fast. Side note of it or the downside is that it doesn't have facial recognition for that camera, which is fine with me because underneath that bezel-less display, you've got an optical fingerprint sensor which is responsive as fast. That is great. The fact that they threw that in there, to me, that's awesome. You've got that. You don't need anything and it makes the screen look good. When you're watching movies on this thing, it looks good. You're watching YouTube videos, watch more of our content or you're looking at that wallpaper. You're thinking, I want that wallpaper. So use the link down below. We have that wallpaper showing rogue fighting Captain Marvel. Go rogue. But it looks good on this thing. Now you flip over to the back. You've got a 48 megapixel camera. That's the main sensor. That's the same half inch sensor in the OnePlus 7 Pro. You've also got an 8 megapixel telephoto and a 13 megapixel ultra-wide. What do you get with those cameras? Again, think about the price for 400 bucks. It's good. It's good. I like what I see here. The wide angle was known as wide hours are like, but it's fine. It still gives you more room to play with. The main sensor is really good. And they're using the same, I believe the same algorithm from the Mi 9. So it's really solid in terms of processing. Everything looks very sharp. It looks vibrant. I can't complain with the images. I'm just getting with this. Low light imagery is also good. You know, it depends on the settings. It's got a night mode in there to that camera app. And it does a good job in just giving you what you're looking for. Yes, it's not a Pixel 3a, but it's damn good for its price point and damn good for price points higher at even $600 or $700. I've seen some phones at $700 that don't compare to this. That's just all I'm going to say. Camera is good. So the important part, we've got a snapdragon 855 processor. Yes, you heard me right. The 855 processor that's in the Galaxy S10 plus the OnePlus 7 Pro is also here in the Redmi K20 Pro. It's a $400 phone. Yes. And RAM starts at 6GB, goes to 8, storage starts at 64, goes to 256. It doesn't have a microSD card slot. Damn, I wish you guys put that in there. But it looks so good when you're gaming with this. Games run so well with that.  All those games I mentioned looked really good on them and they ran well. No slowdowns, none of that stuff. Yes. This is not a gaming video. So no, guys, sorry. I didn't record this in 60 frames. I'm just showing you what you get. So we're not even talking too much. I'm going to give you some gameplay so you guys can check out how good this actually is. Yep. Yep. It's solid. It's solid. It played games really well. And temperature wise, maximum is about 97 degrees Fahrenheit, which most devices the Galaxy S10 did that to even though of 10 plus, even though it has the special cooling and everything. So it's solid. It's really good for your gaming. And that's one of the most important things I'm looking at in this video. So I can game for a while because I've got a performance with the A55, got enough RAM and six gigs around bare minimum. And I've also got a big battery, 4,000 mAh battery in here. Yes. A huge battery, USB Type-C charging method too, plus a 27 watt charger, which means you're going to get fast charging plus too. So that's the kind of stuff that I like to see at a price point that, you know what, I'm cool with spending $400 in this device because I'm getting so much more than I ever bargained for. Now, it's only got a mono speaker, but that speaker at the back is, you know what, just take a listen. Right? Yeah. You saw that, right? 108 decibels on the speaker. It's pretty loud. It's a loud speaker. It might not be the finest sounding, but the audio quality for me came out really good. I like that. Really good speakers on here. You can't complain about that. That's something that a lot of gamers want. They want to see and people just want to watch stuff on their smartphone. When you're watching stuff, content, you've got that just full canvas there, nothing blocking your view. That is just amazing. Plus there's a headphone jack and 24 to a 24-bit DAC as well built in. So you're getting decent audio quality off the headphone jack. But actually, most devices, they don't have USB type-C.  I'm just quite impressed that they stacked in all these things and it's not like they threw it in and it was cheap or didn't work well. Step by step, you look at the display, you're like, that's a good looking display. Fingerprint sensors pretty fast. Pop-up camera works pretty well. The selfies on there. I forgot to talk about that quickly. Selfie images look really good, especially the Chinese device. Usually they tend to put in a lot of beauty mode. But I was impressed that this actually kept it down to a minimum. So I like that there. You've got a three camera lens system on the back that gives you 48 wide telephoto. You've also got a big battery, 855 processor. Gave me, phew. Look, the K20 Pro to me is probably the best phone at $400. Forget even just gaming because it just covers all the gamut and it's not just a one trick pony. And I'm going to put it out there. It's not the Pixel 3a, which yet it's a one trick pony. That's a camera solid. And I'm not discounting that, but it doesn't do anything else well for me. This does it. Now the downside here is the software. It's running the own software, which as you can see is trying to be Apple S. It doesn't have an app launcher, app slider. You can of course install Nova Launcher, which is what I did. And boom, you're good to go. It does have a dark mode though, which is nice. I just run it Android 9. Now I got the Chinese variants, which didn't have the Google Play store. So I had to side load that in. But after you're done with that, you're good to go. There is a Chinese global variant. Again, that's also at $404. So there you have it guys. This is probably the best phone and best gaming phone of $400. You can't go wrong. So if you have any questions or any comments about the Redmi K20 Pro, let me know. I'm trying to send them for you. You can pick it up in different places. The UK, Amazon UK has it. In the US, you can't find an Amazon. You can check AliExpress. You can also check other places on the web. I'll probably put some links for you guys to see where you can buy. But I am fully impressed with this device and you should too. So if you have not subscribed to our channel already, smash the subscribe button and hit the notification icon to get notified of our latest videos. 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