Hi everyone and welcome back to another vlog. My name is Claire Carmichael and I'm a newly qualified general practice nurse. Yay! So today I'm in my lounge. I thought I'd give a little bit of a change of scenery and just show you and update you what I've been doing with the lounge because as some of you know from my Instagram stories and stuff we are doing up the lounge at the minute.  We've done all the painting, we've done the skirting boards and now we've got this beautiful new carpet which the dogs absolutely love. Oh god here he goes. Sorry I need to show you this. So he's got a thing where he chases shows. Little weirdo. Anyway yes so this is the lounge so far. Wallpaper's done, the painting has been done, the skirting boards have been done, the flooring has been done and now we are waiting for the sofa. So the sofa is going to come on the 19th of March I think. So when that comes it's going to look a lot better. Oh my god I'm so excited for this sofa. Cannot wait. And then my next thing I'm going to do is sort that out. I'm going to repaint. We've got that and the TV stand is that colour as well. So I'm going to sand it all down and make it look amazing hopefully. In my head it's going to look amazing whether it turns out amazing. I don't know because I've never done anything like this before but I'm loving it right now so yeah. I've done this all myself with a bit of help from friends Dali and Dali's cousin helped me wallpaper oh my god. We smashed that wallpaper I'm not going to lie. I'm really bad at wallpapering but actually we did a really good job with that one so yeah so thanks to Dali's cousin for that. I just wanted to do a little update about what I've been up to, how work's going and all of that jazz because I think I'm six weeks in now and I haven't done a sort of work related video in a couple of weeks so I just thought I would update you what's been going on, what's been happening, a lot of you have been following my Instagram stories and have seen that I've been feeling a little bit low lately. So yeah I just wanted to explain that and just yeah update you all basically. And just before I start I just wanted to say that this is a disclaimer. This isn't reflecting of my workplace or my job I still absolutely love my job. This is purely my own pressures that I put on myself as why I'm feeling so low. My colleagues have been amazing, the workplace has been amazing, I love my job in general GP nursing is amazing. I have been feeling really low lately and the last few weeks, two, three weeks I've been really fatigued, I've been going home exhausted and literally just jumping into bed and sleeping at night. I haven't got time to sort of speak to people. It's been tough to be honest, I've had a really tough tough time with it. Today I feel a bit better, I feel a bit more like me today which is amazing to hear from myself and I think it is just all the excitement of moving to a new job, to a new location, leaving uni and then I was excited because I got my dream job so then I started my dream job and then I was sort of looking forward to getting on my blues so then I had that to look forward to and then once I got my blues after that period I sort of started to dip down because I was like right I'm here now, that's it what else have I got and I think I put a lot of pressure on myself because I did get a couple of things wrong, not major things but I did make a couple of mistakes where it just happened, I was exhausted, I was tired, I felt awful for doing that and when someone told me that I'd made that mistake I was like this isn't good and if I can make a little tiny mistake like that, what are the mistakes can I make, what else have I done wrong, maybe no one's noticed it yet, maybe it's going to be picked up later so I started panicking about that and then there was just a couple of little things like that that I'd been doing wrong and I thought you know what this isn't good I'm getting really fatigued it could be the traveling as well because I travel to my job it's about 22 miles from my house, it can take anywhere between 40 minutes to oh just over an hour to get to work which I knew before but and I've always on my placements I've always had to travel for my placements they've all been nearly two hours long so I thought actually this is a bonus that it's actually closer than my placements have been, I didn't think it would affect me but I think doing five days and plus the traveling on top it can be quite a lot I think so I think that's really got me down a little bit and the pressures I'm putting on myself because I'm thinking I should know everything already when I shouldn't know everything already I'm a newly qualified nurse I only know so much just like any nurse everyone is sort of not eligible about bits of little things so I just need to be a lot more kinder to myself and use all of my advice that I give to you guys which I'm really bad at doing I'm sorry I don't take my advice and I need to start doing that never excuse this light as well it's a bit funny at the minute so yeah so I've been beating myself up like crazy putting a lot of pressure on myself and going home worrying about things unnecessarily and it's all about me and myself and sort of putting myself down and that's not okay I shouldn't be doing that and I have been speaking to people about it I've spoke to the nurses about it that really really really helped me out I spoke to the one nurse and told her how I was feeling she said you know what we all feel like that after being qualified for so many years I still ask questions I still go to the other nurse because she's an expert on something that I'm not and I keep saying this as well in my vlogs like we can't know it all that's what makes teamwork because we help each other out so I just need to remind myself this constantly and yeah I'll get used to it and just speaking with other newly qualified nurses as well some of them who have been qualified for six months some of them have been qualified for a year now have all said the same thing that transition from student to newly qualified nurse is the toughest because you're suddenly not a student nurse anymore you are the nurse and sometimes some patients don't understand that they don't understand the transition process that actually you're still learning and they expect a lot more from you and I think that's what I've had as well I've had one patient who just asked me some questions and I was like I don't know and that's when I was like why don't I know this I should know this I've been just uni for three years and I think that's where it all started a couple of weeks ago as well we're just having those questions thrown at me so yes it's about reminding myself and you if you're going to be qualified to or if you are newly qualified and struggling you need to remind yourselves as well that we can't know it all and it's okay if we make these little mistakes sometimes but as long as we're getting help and support and don't struggle through it alone that's the main thing so like I have I've spoke to my family I've spoke to the nurses at work about it and we are actually going to now sort of adjust my hours around I'm either going to be doing four long days instead of over five days I'm going to condense it to four long days and have a day off in the week or I'm going to go down to doing just three long days Monday Wednesday Friday and then it will give me that day in between because another thing I'm realizing is I'm not doing sort of my GP ambassador stuff as much as I would be doing I'm not vlogging I'm not vlogging as much as I was doing before I think having those little social things that I did before taken away from me is also having a little bit of an effect on me and I need to sort of get back into that because I feel like I'm not helping students anymore I feel like I'm not doing enough for student nurses anymore and that's my big passion and I want to do more of that so if I could have those two days off in between and I could focus those two days on helping other people that's going to make me feel a hundred times better as well which sounds weird doing more in a different way is going to really really help me and that's what I've always done on my course as well I haven't just focused on my nursing degree I've done everything around it to keep me motivated and keep me going and I feel like I personally just really need that in my life right now and you know what if I can't do three long days that's fine four I think doing the four long days and having that one day as well in the week so I've got three days then I think that's going to help me massively sorry I feel like I've waffled on forever about my hours of work I'm so sorry guys and I just wanted to update you how I'm feeling where I'm at because I did put a couple of Instagram posts as well like I said about just feeling a bit run down and tired lately but I want you to all know I'm okay I'm fine I'm still living my job it's still amazing nursing is still amazing but I was feeling very low and very exhausted so yeah but I'm okay and it's still early days like I'm only six weeks in I've felt like this on most placements I think so it's reminded myself about that period and that time that I had on placements and actually it I improve and I get more confident as the job goes on and yeah I sort of come on my shell a bit more which is nice Dylan what are you doing you little weirdo come here and say hello Dylan say hello say hello nix say hello Denix okay you can stop now sorry guys I'm going to stop talking now because I feel like I've just rubbed it on about rubbish so I'm really sorry about that guys but I just wanted to make you aware that there are tough times when you qualify and that transition is really really hard but just make sure you get that support that you need talk to your colleagues about it talk to your friends about it because that's the main thing is that you have to get support and not just shy away and say this is expected of me I should be feeling like this because no it's not normal it's not a nice feeling it makes you feel really really rubbish so please speak to someone get support if you need it and get all the help you can for that smooth transition process to newly qualified nurse because I've got an amazing team and it's really really helped my process so I shall say goodbye for now if you want me to do any videos in particular please comment below let me know what you want to know more of not coronavirus I'm not doing anything on coronavirus because it's ridiculous right now and there's way too much information out there go on the who website public health england website proper websites don't listen 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Hey guys, so this is my review for my entire thoughts of season 11 of Supernatural. Now, I'll talk about the end... ...at the end. But this season was... ...nearon phenomenal. The beginning was a bit of an interesting start. The whole darkness disease idea was something interesting, but it didn't really go anywhere. Which was something I was kind of wondering if it was, but it didn't. It was just a one-time little thing. However, the aspect of the darkness, we took six episodes before we found out what she was in full. And that was great. That's something that Supernatural hasn't done in a little while, is actually explained or ...at an era of mystery to a villain.  That's something that I actually kind of commend season 6 for, but we knew the darkness was a big bad evil. But we didn't know the full extent of it other than the fact that it had been released by the mark of Cain. So each episode leading up to her maturing, we found out another aspect about her, another aspect about her. And then when we found out that she was God's sister, we were like, oooohhhhhh. And then they dropped a little at a note about going to the cage. And that was amazing when they did. The season finale, the mid-season finale, was phenomenal. That was one of the best episodes of Supernatural since season ... yeah, since season 5. And I was on my seat the whole time with that episode. Admittedly, when they came back it was a little underwhelming, but it was still really good. Not only did the season have great story episodes, but it had great filler episodes that were reminiscent of the first season. With, while they weren't entirely about the story, they still talked about story aspects. What about the baby episode? The entire episode filmed inside the car? That was one of the best episodes of the season because of how it was made and the story aspects. I thought it was fantastic. I loved that episode. That was one of the best episodes of the season in terms of just an episode itself. Sure, there was some duds here and there. Like, the wrestling episode could have been way better, in my opinion. Or there was the killer clown thing, the bunny rabbit thing. It was not the greatest. And then there was Sheriff Mills. Sheriff Mills came back and she had a really cool episode. Admittedly, Cass' daughter's acting needed a little touch up, but again, that episode was really good. Now, before I talk about the end, there's an episode I need to talk about that I realized. There was the one where they went to the mental hospital and there was the girl who was death, who was trying to hunt down the siren that had killed her parents. And the whole episode, the brothers were talking to her about the aspect of revenge and how it really doesn't solve anything. And that is parallel, literally, to what happened at the end of this season. And admittedly, in the final five episodes, the whole aspect of the darkness, I was like, holy crap, there's no way they can come down from this. This is so incredibly intense. And it was. And when it finished, I was sitting there going, that's what you're going with. Mainly, the whole idea of the darkness and God making up is actually something, it wasn't what I expected. And at first, I was a little bit niffed, but I do actually like the idea that they didn't kill this villain. This is the first time they've actually been able to reason with it. Admittedly, it happened rather quickly. And the fact that Amara cares so much about this planet, but I think it's because she cared about the earth this time. And aside from God's other creations, because she'd hurt her brother and her brother was dying. And she realized that without him, she would pretty much just be destroyed as well. So that aspect, I don't mind. Now, there's a few people who are getting at me for being mad about the series, the show continuing.  Well, okay, for a show to be interesting, you need an element of danger for your characters. You need a sense of drama. Drama makes you worry for the characters. And that's hard for a show that's been going on for 11 seasons. And it's hard to actually think, well, they're not in any sort of trouble.  It's like, that's all well and good.  Meton of Letters is like below the view screen here. There is no element of danger for these boys anymore. None. Absolutely none. And that's something that that's what makes me want to watch the show is a sense of danger for the characters. There's always been, maybe season eight didn't really have it. Season nine kind of had it. Season 10 definitely did with the whole Dean, demon Dean thing. But I don't want to watch a show where the characters are just like, oh, let's hang out. Okay, you know, there's these guys who want to take us. But you know, here's my other issue is if they ever run into trouble, they've got God on speed up. Sure, he said he's going away, but they've met him now. He's been in the room with them and help them. He can help them again. That's what is nipping me the most is whatever issue they come across. They can be fixed. It can be repaired. So that's my issue with this whole aspect of the show continuing. Also, Jeremy Carver has left. And Jeremy Carver was the guy who brought the show back from the brink of season seven. This show almost got canceled after season seven, but he brought it back and apparently he's gone now. So I'm the fact this is another show runner means that they go on to continue this freaking show. And as much as I'd like to see that it's season 12 for Christ's sake, we need to end on a dignifying note. Either way, I did enjoy this season admittedly while I didn't enjoy the ending as much. I thought the entirety of it was great. If they keep this aspect of having filler episodes that still have story elements very reminiscent to the first season, I'll be fine with that. Anyways, in the end, I'm going to give the entirety of season 11 a six out of seven. I think this was a phenomenal season. Had great aspects and great characters, great drama. And admittedly, while the ending was not as perfect as I would like, I still very much enjoyed this season as a whole. And it's been great to talk about it with you guys. I may do a ranking of all the seasons in a further videos, but that means I'd have to watch them all. So that will take some time. Anyway, guys, that's all for me. I hope you enjoyed my reviews for the season. Please, if you were interested in watching other of my videos, check out the playlist that's in the bottom and just keep on watching. Alright, see you guys later.


Russia changed tactics on attacking Ukraine's energy system. Losses are worse than last year. The Russian Federation has shifted its tactics in attacking Ukraine's energy infrastructure. Losses have escalated beyond those suffered during the massive strikes of 2022 to 2023, according to the Financial Times. Instead of widespread shelling, the militants have focused on precision missile strikes on power stations in less defended regions. Some of these stations may not be restored before the next winter. According to Ukrainian officials, the damage inflicted by Russia are not as extensive but are worse than those in the winters of 2022 to 2023. From March 22 to 29, Russia targeted seven thermal power plants and two hydroelectric power stations. However, energy facilities in Kiev remain untouched by the Russians due to the capital's robust air defense system. Ukraine did not provide details on the extent of damage at each power plant, but officials said that some, including those in Kharkiv Oblast near the Russian border, were almost completely destroyed, adds the publication. Maria Satorian, head of communications at Ukraineurgo, noted that Russians are deploying the same number of missiles against five to six energy targets in one region as they did during the mass strikes in 2022 to 2023. While Ukraineurgo can protect smaller substations with defensive structures, large power stations require months or even years to restore. Another difference from last year's attacks is that Russia has begun using expensive precision ballistic missiles. Andrew Heros, chairman of Ukraine's parliamentary committee on energy and utilities, revealed that during a recent attack on a coal power station, Russians used ballistic missiles worth $100 million. According to Ukrainian military intelligence representative Andrew Cheneyak, the enemy also deploys a large number of UAVs as a cheaper means of targeting such as transformers. Cheneyak said that Ukraine expected attacks at the beginning of winter, but now it's become known that the missiles they used were just recently manufactured. Ukraine to Europe, prepare for your own war with Russia. Russia is ready to swallow Europe whole. A top Ukrainian commander has warned less than two months after he led a costly evacuation from a key city on the eastern front line. Speaking to the independent from an undisclosed location in Donetsk, deputy commander of Ukraine's third assault brigade, Maxim Zorin, issued a troubling warning to Kyiv's Western partners. The West, he said, must urgently prepare. Create serious defence systems that could counteract Russia because it will undoubtedly open its mouth and try to swallow the rest of Europe. He warned. The independent says that it is the latest in a string of warnings from Ukrainian military and political figures that Russia will not stop with Ukraine. But it comes less than two months after Zorin helped lead a difficult evacuation from Abdiivka, the first Ukrainian city to be taken over by Russia since last May, in part because a recent lack of Western military support had left Ukrainian forces there at a significant disadvantage. Zorin, more than most, knows the cost of an advancing Russia. During his interview, the first with Western media since the fall of the city, Mr Zorin was blunt about the reality of the eastern front line while Western weapons supplies are delayed or simply being withheld and he was frank about the future of European security. A US military package worth roughly $60 billion has been in limbo in Washington for seven months, victim to squabbling politicians. While European partners have failed to send more than half of the million artillery shells they promised to Kiev by this year, unable to agree on how to finance their production. Zorin claims his unit has killed up to 15,000 Russians in the past few months alone, but the threat of another push by Putin's forces is now real. And then it's Europe next. Use this time wisely. The deputy commander says addressing Kiev's Western partners directly. Russian State Duma Deputy named a new victim of his country. This is Kazakhstan. Kazakhstan may become a new victim of Russian aggression. This statement was allegedly made by Russian State Duma Deputy Andrey Gurulev, who has the rank of Lieutenant General. According to the Telegram Channel, Vchek OGPU, the politician named the new victim of the Russian Federation in a voice message that he sent to colleagues from the Defense Committee. The recording was leaked online. The Kazakhs, having seen enough of Ukraine, are very bitched that they are next. They are now getting ready. In principle, I think there is already a solution, said the deputy. Earlier it became known that one of the largest banks in Kazakhstan, Halik Bank, stopped surfacing Russian MIR cards from the end of February. It is worth noting that Kazakhstan is considered a state friendly to the Russian Federation. Russia's full-scale invasion of Ukraine in February 2022 led some observers to assume that Kazakhstan would pivot its foreign relations away from Russia towards the West. The country has maintained an officially neutral position towards the war and no longer sees Russia as its security guarantor in the same way it once did. Kazakhstan frequently criticizes Russian-led regional economic integration efforts, but Kazakh business elites have enduring and lucrative ties with Russia, and Moscow has other important economic leverage over its southern neighbor. Additionally, Russia now controls 25% of Kazakhstan's uranium production. Russia and China have a shared interest in seeing Kazakhstan become more integrated with their economies and move partly away from the West without fully closing a window to the unsanctioned world for Russia. Kazakhstan shares a 4,500-mile border with its northern neighbor, and decoupling their interdependent economies is not easy.